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If you are not located in the United States, you +will have to check the laws of the country where you are located before +using this eBook. + +Title: The Ambassadors + +Author: Henry James + +Release Date: February, 1996 [eBook #432] +[Most recently updated: September 17, 2022] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: UTF-8 + +Produced by: Richard D. Hathaway and Julia P DeRanek + +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE AMBASSADORS *** + +cover + + + + +The Ambassadors + +by Henry James + + + New York Edition (1909) + + + + +Contents + + Volume I + + Preface + Book First + Book Second + Book Third + Book Fourth + Book Fifth + Book Sixth + + Volume II + + Book Seventh + Book Eighth + Book Ninth + Book Tenth + Book Book Eleventh + Book Twelfth + + + + +Preface + + +Nothing is more easy than to state the subject of “The Ambassadors,” +which first appeared in twelve numbers of _The North American Review_ +(1903) and was published as a whole the same year. The situation +involved is gathered up betimes, that is in the second chapter of Book +Fifth, for the reader’s benefit, into as few words as possible—planted +or “sunk,” stiffly and saliently, in the centre of the current, almost +perhaps to the obstruction of traffic. Never can a composition of this +sort have sprung straighter from a dropped grain of suggestion, and +never can that grain, developed, overgrown and smothered, have yet +lurked more in the mass as an independent particle. The whole case, in +fine, is in Lambert Strether’s irrepressible outbreak to little Bilham +on the Sunday afternoon in Gloriani’s garden, the candour with which he +yields, for his young friend’s enlightenment, to the charming +admonition of that crisis. The idea of the tale resides indeed in the +very fact that an hour of such unprecedented ease should have been felt +by him _as_ a crisis, and he is at pains to express it for us as neatly +as we could desire. The remarks to which he thus gives utterance +contain the essence of “The Ambassadors,” his fingers close, before he +has done, round the stem of the full-blown flower; which, after that +fashion, he continues officiously to present to us. “Live all you can; +it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t so much matter what you do in +particular so long as you have your life. If you haven’t had that what +_have_ you had? I’m too old—too old at any rate for what I see. What +one loses one loses; make no mistake about that. Still, we have the +illusion of freedom; therefore don’t, like me to-day, be without the +memory of that illusion. I was either, at the right time, too stupid or +too intelligent to have it, and now I’m a case of reaction against the +mistake. Do what you like so long as you don’t make it. For it _was_ a +mistake. Live, live!” Such is the gist of Strether’s appeal to the +impressed youth, whom he likes and whom he desires to befriend; the +word “mistake” occurs several times, it will be seen, in the course of +his remarks—which gives the measure of the signal warning he feels +attached to his case. He has accordingly missed too much, though +perhaps after all constitutionally qualified for a better part, and he +wakes up to it in conditions that press the spring of a terrible +question. _Would_ there yet perhaps be time for reparation?—reparation, +that is, for the injury done his character; for the affront, he is +quite ready to say, so stupidly put upon it and in which he has even +himself had so clumsy a hand? The answer to which is that he now at all +events _sees_; so that the business of my tale and the march of my +action, not to say the precious moral of everything, is just my +demonstration of this process of vision. + +Nothing can exceed the closeness with which the whole fits again into +its germ. That had been given me bodily, as usual, by the spoken word, +for I was to take the image over exactly as I happened to have met it. +A friend had repeated to me, with great appreciation, a thing or two +said to him by a man of distinction, much his senior, and to which a +sense akin to that of Strether’s melancholy eloquence might be +imputed—said as chance would have, and so easily might, in Paris, and +in a charming old garden attached to a house of art, and on a Sunday +afternoon of summer, many persons of great interest being present. The +observation there listened to and gathered up had contained part of the +“note” that I was to recognise on the spot as to my purpose—had +contained in fact the greater part; the rest was in the place and the +time and the scene they sketched: these constituents clustered and +combined to give me further support, to give me what I may call the +note absolute. There it stands, accordingly, full in the tideway; +driven in, with hard taps, like some strong stake for the noose of a +cable, the swirl of the current roundabout it. What amplified the hint +to more than the bulk of hints in general was the gift with it of the +old Paris garden, for in that token were sealed up values infinitely +precious. There was of course the seal to break and each item of the +packet to count over and handle and estimate; but somehow, in the light +of the hint, all the elements of a situation of the sort most to my +taste were there. I could even remember no occasion on which, so +confronted, I had found it of a livelier interest to take stock, in +this fashion, of suggested wealth. For I think, verily, that there are +degrees of merit in subjects—in spite of the fact that to treat even +one of the most ambiguous with due decency we must for the time, for +the feverish and prejudiced hour, at least figure its merit and its +dignity as _possibly_ absolute. What it comes to, doubtless, is that +even among the supremely good—since with such alone is it one’s theory +of one’s honour to be concerned—there is an ideal _beauty_ of goodness +the invoked action of which is to raise the artistic faith to its +maximum. Then truly, I hold, one’s theme may be said to shine, and that +of “The Ambassadors,” I confess, wore this glow for me from beginning +to end. Fortunately thus I am able to estimate this as, frankly, quite +the best, “all round,” of all my productions; any failure of that +justification would have made such an extreme of complacency publicly +fatuous. + +I recall then in this connexion no moment of subjective intermittence, +never one of those alarms as for a suspected hollow beneath one’s feet, +a felt ingratitude in the scheme adopted, under which confidence fails +and opportunity seems but to mock. If the motive of “The Wings of the +Dove,” as I have noted, was to worry me at moments by a sealing-up of +its face—though without prejudice to its again, of a sudden, fairly +grimacing with expression—so in this other business I had absolute +conviction and constant clearness to deal with; it had been a frank +proposition, the whole bunch of data, installed on my premises like a +monotony of fine weather. (The order of composition, in these things, I +may mention, was reversed by the order of publication; the earlier +written of the two books having appeared as the later.) Even under the +weight of my hero’s years I could feel my postulate firm; even under +the strain of the difference between those of Madame de Vionnet and +those of Chad Newsome, a difference liable to be denounced as shocking, +I could still feel it serene. Nothing resisted, nothing betrayed, I +seem to make out, in this full and sound sense of the matter; it shed +from any side I could turn it to the same golden glow. I rejoiced in +the promise of a hero so mature, who would give me thereby the more to +bite into—since it’s only into thickened motive and accumulated +character, I think, that the painter of life bites more than a little. +My poor friend should have accumulated character, certainly; or rather +would be quite naturally and handsomely possessed of it, in the sense +that he would have, and would always have felt he had, imagination +galore, and that this yet wouldn’t have wrecked him. It was +immeasurable, the opportunity to “do” a man of imagination, for if +_there_ mightn’t be a chance to “bite,” where in the world might it be? +This personage of course, so enriched, wouldn’t give me, for his type, +imagination in _predominance_ or as his prime faculty, nor should I, in +view of other matters, have found that convenient. So particular a +luxury—some occasion, that is, for study of the high gift in _supreme_ +command of a case or of a career—would still doubtless come on the day +I should be ready to pay for it; and till then might, as from far back, +remain hung up well in view and just out of reach. The comparative case +meanwhile would serve—it was only on the minor scale that I had treated +myself even to comparative cases. + +I was to hasten to add however that, happy stopgaps as the minor scale +had thus yielded, the instance in hand should enjoy the advantage of +the full range of the major; since most immediately to the point was +the question of that _supplement_ of situation logically involved in +our gentleman’s impulse to deliver himself in the Paris garden on the +Sunday afternoon—or if not involved by strict logic then all ideally +and enchantingly implied in it. (I say “ideally,” because I need scarce +mention that for development, for expression of its maximum, my +glimmering story was, at the earliest stage, to have nipped the thread +of connexion with the possibilities of the actual reported speaker. +_He_ remains but the happiest of accidents; his actualities, all too +definite, precluded any range of possibilities; it had only been his +charming office to project upon that wide field of the artist’s +vision—which hangs there ever in place like the white sheet suspended +for the figures of a child’s magic-lantern—a more fantastic and more +moveable shadow.) No privilege of the teller of tales and the handler +of puppets is more delightful, or has more of the suspense and the +thrill of a game of difficulty breathlessly played, than just this +business of looking for the unseen and the occult, in a scheme +half-grasped, by the light or, so to speak, by the clinging scent, of +the gage already in hand. No dreadful old pursuit of the hidden slave +with bloodhounds and the rag of association can ever, for “excitement,” +I judge, have bettered it at its best. For the dramatist always, by the +very law of his genius, believes not only in a possible right issue +from the rightly-conceived tight place; he does much more than this—he +believes, irresistibly, in the necessary, the precious “tightness” of +the place (whatever the issue) on the strength of any respectable hint. +It being thus the respectable hint that I had with such avidity picked +up, what would be the story to which it would most inevitably form the +centre? It is part of the charm attendant on such questions that the +“story,” with the omens true, as I say, puts on from this stage the +authenticity of concrete existence. It then is, essentially—it begins +to be, though it may more or less obscurely lurk, so that the point is +not in the least what to make of it, but only, very delightfully and +very damnably, where to put one’s hand on it. + +In which truth resides surely much of the interest of that admirable +mixture for salutary application which we know as art. Art deals with +what we see, it must first contribute full-handed that ingredient; it +plucks its material, otherwise expressed, in the garden of life—which +material elsewhere grown is stale and uneatable. But it has no sooner +done this than it has to take account of a _process_—from which only +when it’s the basest of the servants of man, incurring ignominious +dismissal with no “character,” does it, and whether under some muddled +pretext of morality or on any other, pusillanimously edge away. The +process, that of the expression, the literal squeezing-out, of value is +another affair—with which the happy luck of mere finding has little to +do. The joys of finding, at this stage, are pretty well over; that +quest of the subject as a whole by “matching,” as the ladies say at the +shops, the big piece with the snippet, having ended, we assume, with a +capture. The subject is found, and if the problem is then transferred +to the ground of what to do with it the field opens out for any amount +of doing. This is precisely the infusion that, as I submit, completes +the strong mixture. It is on the other hand the part of the business +that can least be likened to the chase with horn and hound. It’s all a +sedentary part—involves as much ciphering, of sorts, as would merit the +highest salary paid to a chief accountant. Not, however, that the chief +accountant hasn’t _his_ gleams of bliss; for the felicity, or at least +the equilibrium of the artist’s state dwells less, surely, in the +further delightful complications he can smuggle in than in those he +succeeds in keeping out. He sows his seed at the risk of too thick a +crop; wherefore yet again, like the gentlemen who audit ledgers, he +must keep his head at any price. In consequence of all which, for the +interest of the matter, I might seem here to have my choice of +narrating my “hunt” for Lambert Strether, of describing the capture of +the shadow projected by my friend’s anecdote, or of reporting on the +occurrences subsequent to that triumph. But I had probably best attempt +a little to glance in each direction; since it comes to me again and +again, over this licentious record, that one’s bag of adventures, +conceived or conceivable, has been only half-emptied by the mere +telling of one’s story. It depends so on what one means by that +equivocal quantity. There is the story of one’s hero, and then, thanks +to the intimate connexion of things, the story of one’s story itself. I +blush to confess it, but if one’s a dramatist one’s a dramatist, and +the latter imbroglio is liable on occasion to strike me as really the +more objective of the two. + +The philosophy imputed to him in that beautiful outbreak, the hour +there, amid such happy provision, striking for him, would have been +then, on behalf of my man of imagination, to be logically and, as the +artless craft of comedy has it, “led up” to; the probable course to +such a goal, the goal of so conscious a predicament, would have in +short to be finely calculated. Where has he come from and why has he +come, what is he doing (as we Anglo-Saxons, and we only, say, in our +foredoomed clutch of exotic aids to expression) in that _galère?_ To +answer these questions plausibly, to answer them as under +cross-examination in the witness-box by counsel for the prosecution, in +other words satisfactorily to account for Strether and for his +“peculiar tone,” was to possess myself of the entire fabric. At the +same time the clue to its whereabouts would lie in a certain principle +of probability: he wouldn’t have indulged in his peculiar tone without +a reason; it would take a felt predicament or a false position to give +him so ironic an accent. One hadn’t been noting “tones” all one’s life +without recognising when one heard it the voice of the false position. +The dear man in the Paris garden was then admirably and unmistakeably +_in_ one—which was no small point gained; what next accordingly +concerned us was the determination of _this_ identity. One could only +go by probabilities, but there was the advantage that the most general +of the probabilities were virtual certainties. Possessed of our +friend’s nationality, to start with, there was a general probability in +his narrower localism; which, for that matter, one had really but to +keep under the lens for an hour to see it give up its secrets. He would +have issued, our rueful worthy, from the very heart of New England—at +the heels of which matter of course a perfect train of secrets tumbled +for me into the light. They had to be sifted and sorted, and I shall +not reproduce the detail of that process; but unmistakeably they were +all there, and it was but a question, auspiciously, of picking among +them. What the “position” would infallibly be, and why, on his hands, +it had turned “false”—these inductive steps could only be as rapid as +they were distinct. I accounted for everything—and “everything” had by +this time become the most promising quantity—by the view that he had +come to Paris in some state of mind which was literally undergoing, as +a result of new and unexpected assaults and infusions, a change almost +from hour to hour. He had come with a view that might have been figured +by a clear green liquid, say, in a neat glass phial; and the liquid, +once poured into the open cup of _application_, once exposed to the +action of another air, had begun to turn from green to red, or +whatever, and might, for all he knew, be on its way to purple, to +black, to yellow. At the still wilder extremes represented perhaps, for +all he could say to the contrary, by a variability so violent, he would +at first, naturally, but have gazed in surprise and alarm; whereby the +_situation_ clearly would spring from the play of wildness and the +development of extremes. I saw in a moment that, should this +development proceed both with force and logic, my “story” would leave +nothing to be desired. There is always, of course, for the +story-teller, the irresistible determinant and the incalculable +advantage of his interest in the story _as such_; it is ever, +obviously, overwhelmingly, the prime and precious thing (as other than +this I have never been able to see it); as to which what makes for it, +with whatever headlong energy, may be said to pale before the energy +with which it simply makes for itself. It rejoices, none the less, at +its best, to seem to offer itself in a light, to seem to know, and with +the very last knowledge, what it’s about—liable as it yet is at moments +to be caught by us with its tongue in its cheek and absolutely no +warrant but its splendid impudence. Let us grant then that the +impudence is always there—there, so to speak, for grace and effect and +_allure_; there, above all, because the Story is just the spoiled child +of art, and because, as we are always disappointed when the pampered +don’t “play up,” we like it, to that extent, to look all its character. +It probably does so, in truth, even when we most flatter ourselves that +we negotiate with it by treaty. + +All of which, again, is but to say that the _steps_, for my fable, +placed themselves with a prompt and, as it were, functional +assurance—an air quite as of readiness to have dispensed with logic had +I been in fact too stupid for my clue. Never, positively, none the +less, as the links multiplied, had I felt less stupid than for the +determination of poor Strether’s errand and for the apprehension of his +issue. These things continued to fall together, as by the neat action +of their own weight and form, even while their commentator scratched +his head about them; he easily sees now that they were always well in +advance of him. As the case completed itself he had in fact, from a +good way behind, to catch up with them, breathless and a little +flurried, as he best could. _The_ false position, for our belated man +of the world—belated because he had endeavoured so long to escape being +one, and now at last had really to face his doom—the false position for +him, I say, was obviously to have presented himself at the gate of that +boundless menagerie primed with a moral scheme of the most approved +pattern which was yet framed to break down on any approach to vivid +facts; that is to any at all liberal appreciation of them. There would +have been of course the case of the Strether prepared, wherever +presenting himself, only to judge and to feel meanly; but _he_ would +have moved for me, I confess, enveloped in no legend whatever. The +actual man’s note, from the first of our seeing it struck, is the note +of discrimination, just as his drama is to become, under stress, the +drama of discrimination. It would have been his blest imagination, we +have seen, that had already helped him to discriminate; the element +that was for so much of the pleasure of my cutting thick, as I have +intimated, into his intellectual, into his moral substance. Yet here it +was, at the same time, just here, that a shade for a moment fell across +the scene. + +There was the dreadful little old tradition, one of the platitudes of +the human comedy, that people’s moral scheme _does_ break down in +Paris; that nothing is more frequently observed; that hundreds of +thousands of more or less hypocritical or more or less cynical persons +annually visit the place for the sake of the probable catastrophe, and +that I came late in the day to work myself up about it. There was in +fine the _trivial_ association, one of the vulgarest in the world; but +which give me pause no longer, I think, simply because its vulgarity is +so advertised. The revolution performed by Strether under the influence +of the most interesting of great cities was to have nothing to do with +any _bêtise_ of the imputably “tempted” state; he was to be thrown +forward, rather, thrown quite with violence, upon his lifelong trick of +intense reflexion: which friendly test indeed was to bring him out, +through winding passages, through alternations of darkness and light, +very much _in_ Paris, but with the surrounding scene itself a minor +matter, a mere symbol for more things than had been dreamt of in the +philosophy of Woollett. Another surrounding scene would have done as +well for our show could it have represented a place in which Strether’s +errand was likely to lie and his crisis to await him. The _likely_ +place had the great merit of sparing me preparations; there would have +been too many involved—not at all impossibilities, only rather worrying +and delaying difficulties—in positing elsewhere Chad Newsome’s +interesting relation, his so interesting complexity of relations. +Strether’s appointed stage, in fine, could be but Chad’s most luckily +selected one. The young man had gone in, as they say, for circumjacent +charm; and where he would have found it, by the turn of his mind, most +“authentic,” was where his earnest friend’s analysis would most find +_him_; as well as where, for that matter, the former’s whole analytic +faculty would be led such a wonderful dance. + +“The Ambassadors” had been, all conveniently, “arranged for”; its first +appearance was from month to month, in the _North American Review_ +during 1903, and I had been open from far back to any pleasant +provocation for ingenuity that might reside in one’s actively +adopting—so as to make it, in its way, a small compositional +law—recurrent breaks and resumptions. I had made up my mind here +regularly to exploit and enjoy these often rather rude jolts—having +found, as I believed an admirable way to it; yet every question of form +and pressure, I easily remember, paled in the light of the major +propriety, recognised as soon as really weighed; that of employing but +one centre and keeping it all within my hero’s compass. The thing was +to be so much this worthy’s intimate adventure that even the projection +of his consciousness upon it from beginning to end without intermission +or deviation would probably still leave a part of its value for him, +and _a fortiori_ for ourselves, unexpressed. I might, however, express +every grain of it that there would be room for—on condition of +contriving a splendid particular economy. Other persons in no small +number were to people the scene, and each with his or her axe to grind, +his or her situation to treat, his or her coherency not to fail of, his +or her relation to my leading motive, in a word, to establish and carry +on. But Strether’s sense of these things, and Strether’s only, should +avail me for showing them; I should know them but through his more or +less groping knowledge of them, since his very gropings would figure +among his most interesting motions, and a full observance of the rich +rigour I speak of would give me more of the effect I should be most +“after” than all other possible observances together. It would give me +a large unity, and that in turn would crown me with the grace to which +the enlightened story-teller will at any time, for his interest, +sacrifice if need be all other graces whatever. I refer of course to +the grace of intensity, which there are ways of signally achieving and +ways of signally missing—as we see it, all round us, helplessly and +woefully missed. Not that it isn’t, on the other hand, a virtue +eminently subject to appreciation—there being no strict, no absolute +measure of it; so that one may hear it acclaimed where it has quite +escaped one’s perception, and see it unnoticed where one has gratefully +hailed it. After all of which I am not sure, either, that the immense +amusement of the whole cluster of difficulties so arrayed may not +operate, for the fond fabulist, when judicious not less than fond, as +his best of determinants. That charming principle is always there, at +all events, to keep interest fresh: it is a principle, we remember, +essentially ravenous, without scruple and without mercy, appeased with +no cheap nor easy nourishment. It enjoys the costly sacrifice and +rejoices thereby in the very odour of difficulty—even as ogres, with +their “Fee-faw-fum!” rejoice in the smell of the blood of Englishmen. + +Thus it was, at all events, that the ultimate, though after all so +speedy, definition of my gentleman’s job—his coming out, all solemnly +appointed and deputed, to “save” Chad, and his then finding the young +man so disobligingly and, at first, so bewilderingly not lost that a +new issue altogether, in the connexion, prodigiously faces them, which +has to be dealt with in a new light—promised as many calls on ingenuity +and on the higher branches of the compositional art as one could +possibly desire. Again and yet again, as, from book to book, I proceed +with my survey, I find no source of interest equal to this verification +after the fact, as I may call it, and the more in detail the better, of +the scheme of consistency “gone in” for. As always—since the charm +never fails—the retracing of the process from point to point brings +back the old illusion. The old intentions bloom again and flower—in +spite of all the blossoms they were to have dropped by the way. This is +the charm, as I say, of adventure _transposed_—the thrilling ups and +downs, the intricate ins and outs of the compositional problem, made +after such a fashion admirably objective, becoming the question at +issue and keeping the author’s heart in his mouth. Such an element, for +instance, as his intention that Mrs. Newsome, away off with her finger +on the pulse of Massachusetts, should yet be no less intensely than +circuitously present through the whole thing, should be no less felt as +to be reckoned with than the most direct exhibition, the finest +portrayal at first hand could make her, such a sign of artistic good +faith, I say, once it’s unmistakeably there, takes on again an +actuality not too much impaired by the comparative dimness of the +particular success. Cherished intention too inevitably acts and +operates, in the book, about fifty times as little as I had fondly +dreamt it might; but that scarce spoils for me the pleasure of +recognising the fifty ways in which I had sought to provide for it. The +mere charm of seeing such an idea constituent, in its degree; the +fineness of the measures taken—a real extension, if successful, of the +very terms and possibilities of representation and figuration—such +things alone were, after this fashion, inspiring, such things alone +were a gage of the probable success of that dissimulated calculation +with which the whole effort was to square. But oh the cares begotten, +none the less, of that same “judicious” sacrifice to a particular form +of interest! One’s work should have composition, because composition +alone is positive beauty; but all the while—apart from one’s inevitable +consciousness too of the dire paucity of readers ever recognising or +ever missing positive beauty—how, as to the cheap and easy, at every +turn, how, as to immediacy and facility, and even as to the commoner +vivacity, positive beauty might have to be sweated for and paid for! +Once achieved and installed it may always be trusted to make the poor +seeker feel he would have blushed to the roots of his hair for failing +of it; yet, how, as its virtue can be essentially but the virtue of the +whole, the wayside traps set in the interest of muddlement and pleading +but the cause of the moment, of the particular bit in itself, have to +be kicked out of the path! All the sophistications in life, for +example, might have appeared to muster on behalf of the menace—the +menace to a bright variety—involved in Strether’s having all the +subjective “say,” as it were, to himself. + +Had I, meanwhile, made him at once hero and historian, endowed him with +the romantic privilege of the “first person”—the darkest abyss of +romance this, inveterately, when enjoyed on the grand scale—variety, +and many other queer matters as well, might have been smuggled in by a +back door. Suffice it, to be brief, that the first person, in the long +piece, is a form foredoomed to looseness and that looseness, never much +my affair, had never been so little so as on this particular occasion. +All of which reflexions flocked to the standard from the moment—a very +early one—the question of how to keep my form amusing while sticking so +close to my central figure and constantly taking its pattern from him +had to be faced. He arrives (arrives at Chester) as for the dreadful +purpose of giving his creator “no end” to tell about him—before which +rigorous mission the serenest of creators might well have quailed. I +was far from the serenest; I was more than agitated enough to reflect +that, grimly deprived of one alternative or one substitute for +“telling,” I must address myself tooth and nail to another. I couldn’t, +save by implication, make other persons tell _each other_ about +him—blest resource, blest necessity, of the drama, which reaches its +effects of unity, all remarkably, by paths absolutely opposite to the +paths of the novel: with other persons, save as they were primarily +_his_ persons (not he primarily but one of theirs), I had simply +nothing to do. I had relations for him none the less, by the mercy of +Providence, quite as much as if my exhibition was to be a muddle; if I +could only by implication and a show of consequence make other persons +tell each other about him, I could at least make him tell _them_ +whatever in the world he must; and could so, by the same token—which +was a further luxury thrown in—see straight into the deep differences +between what that could do for me, or at all events for _him_, and the +large ease of “autobiography.” It may be asked why, if one so keeps to +one’s hero, one shouldn’t make a single mouthful of “method,” shouldn’t +throw the reins on his neck and, letting them flap there as free as in +“Gil Blas” or in “David Copperfield,” equip him with the double +privilege of subject and object—a course that has at least the merit of +brushing away questions at a sweep. The answer to which is, I think, +that one makes that surrender only if one is prepared _not_ to make +certain precious discriminations. + +The “first person” then, so employed, is addressed by the author +directly to ourselves, his possible readers, whom he has to reckon +with, at the best, by our English tradition, so loosely and vaguely +after all, so little respectfully, on so scant a presumption of +exposure to criticism. Strether, on the other hand, encaged and +provided for as “The Ambassadors” encages and provides, has to keep in +view proprieties much stiffer and more salutary than any our straight +and credulous gape are likely to bring home to him, has exhibitional +conditions to meet, in a word, that forbid the terrible _fluidity_ of +self-revelation. I may seem not to better the case for my +discrimination if I say that, for my first care, I had thus inevitably +to set him up a confidant or two, to wave away with energy the custom +of the seated mass of explanation after the fact, the inserted block of +merely referential narrative, which flourishes so, to the shame of the +modern impatience, on the serried page of Balzac, but which seems +simply to appal our actual, our general weaker, digestion. “Harking +back to make up” took at any rate more doing, as the phrase is, not +only than the reader of to-day demands, but than he will tolerate at +any price any call upon him either to understand or remotely to +measure; and for the beauty of the thing when done the current +editorial mind in particular appears wholly without sense. It is not, +however, primarily for either of these reasons, whatever their weight, +that Strether’s friend Waymarsh is so keenly clutched at, on the +threshold of the book, or that no less a pounce is made on Maria +Gostrey—without even the pretext, either, of _her_ being, in essence, +Strether’s friend. She is the reader’s friend much rather—in +consequence of dispositions that make him so eminently require one; and +she acts in that capacity, and _really_ in that capacity alone, with +exemplary devotion from beginning to and of the book. She is an +enrolled, a direct, aid to lucidity; she is in fine, to tear off her +mask, the most unmitigated and abandoned of _ficelles_. Half the +dramatist’s art, as we well know—since if we don’t it’s not the fault +of the proofs that lie scattered about us—is in the use of _ficelles_; +by which I mean in a deep dissimulation of his dependence on them. +Waymarsh only to a slighter degree belongs, in the whole business, less +to my subject than to my treatment of it; the interesting proof, in +these connexions, being that one has but to take one’s subject for the +stuff of drama to interweave with enthusiasm as many Gostreys as need +be. + +The material of “The Ambassadors,” conforming in this respect exactly +to that of “The Wings of the Dove,” published just before it, is taken +absolutely for the stuff of drama; so that, availing myself of the +opportunity given me by this edition for some prefatory remarks on the +latter work, I had mainly to make on its behalf the point of its scenic +consistency. It disguises that virtue, in the oddest way in the world, +by just _looking_, as we turn its pages, as little scenic as possible; +but it sharply divides itself, just as the composition before us does, +into the parts that prepare, that tend in fact to over-prepare, for +scenes, and the parts, or otherwise into the scenes, that justify and +crown the preparation. It may definitely be said, I think, that +everything in it that is not scene (not, I of course mean, complete and +functional scene, treating _all_ the submitted matter, as by logical +start, logical turn, and logical finish) is discriminated preparation, +is the fusion and synthesis of picture. These alternations propose +themselves all recogniseably, I think, from an early stage, as the very +form and figure of “The Ambassadors”; so that, to repeat, such an agent +as Miss Gostrey pre-engaged at a high salary, but waits in the draughty +wing with her shawl and her smelling-salts. Her function speaks at once +for itself, and by the time she has dined with Strether in London and +gone to a play with him her intervention as a _ficelle_ is, I hold, +expertly justified. Thanks to it we have treated scenically, and +scenically alone, the whole lumpish question of Strether’s “past,” +which has seen us more happily on the way than anything else could have +done; we have strained to a high lucidity and vivacity (or at least we +hope we have) certain indispensable facts; we have seen our two or +three immediate friends all conveniently and profitably in “action”; to +say nothing of our beginning to descry others, of a remoter intensity, +getting into motion, even if a bit vaguely as yet, for our further +enrichment. Let my first point be here that the scene in question, that +in which the whole situation at Woollett and the complex forces that +have propelled my hero to where this lively extractor of his value and +distiller of his essence awaits him, is normal and entire, is really an +excellent _standard_ scene; copious, comprehensive, and accordingly +never short, but with its office as definite as that of the hammer on +the gong of the clock, the office of expressing _all that is in_ the +hour. + +The “_ficelle_” character of the subordinate party is as artfully +dissimulated, throughout, as may be, and to that extent that, with the +seams or joints of Maria Gostrey’s ostensible connectedness taken +particular care of, duly smoothed over, that is, and anxiously kept +from showing as “pieced on,” this figure doubtless achieves, after a +fashion, something of the dignity of a prime idea: which circumstance +but shows us afresh how many quite incalculable but none the less clear +sources of enjoyment for the infatuated artist, how many copious +springs of our never-to-be-slighted “fun” for the reader and critic +susceptible of contagion, may sound their incidental plash as soon as +an artistic process begins to enjoy free development. Exquisite—in +illustration of this—the mere interest and amusement of such at once +“creative” and critical questions as how and where and why to make Miss +Gostrey’s false connexion carry itself, under a due high polish, as a +real one. Nowhere is it more of an artful expedient for mere +consistency of form, to mention a case, than in the last “scene” of the +book, where its function is to give or to add nothing whatever, but +only to express as vividly as possible certain things quite other than +itself and that are of the already fixed and appointed measure. Since, +however, all art is _expression_, and is thereby vividness, one was to +find the door open here to any amount of delightful dissimulation. +These verily are the refinements and ecstasies of method—amid which, or +certainly under the influence of any exhilarated demonstration of +which, one must keep one’s head and not lose one’s way. To cultivate an +adequate intelligence for them and to make that sense operative is +positively to find a charm in any produced ambiguity of appearance that +is not by the same stroke, and all helplessly, an ambiguity of sense. +To project imaginatively, for my hero, a relation that has nothing to +do with the matter (the matter of my subject) but has everything to do +with the manner (the manner of my presentation of the same) and yet to +treat it, at close quarters and for fully economic expression’s +possible sake, as if it were important and essential—to do that sort of +thing and yet muddle nothing may easily become, as one goes, a signally +attaching proposition; even though it all remains but part and parcel, +I hasten to recognise, of the merely general and related question of +expressional curiosity and expressional decency. + +I am moved to add after so much insistence on the scenic side of my +labour that I have found the steps of re-perusal almost as much waylaid +here by quite another style of effort in the same signal interest—or +have in other words not failed to note how, even so associated and so +discriminated, the finest proprieties and charms of the non-scenic may, +under the right hand for them, still keep their intelligibility and +assert their office. Infinitely suggestive such an observation as this +last on the whole delightful head, where representation is concerned, +of possible variety, of effective expressional change and contrast. One +would like, at such an hour as this, for critical licence, to go into +the matter of the noted inevitable deviation (from too fond an original +vision) that the exquisite treachery even of the straightest execution +may ever be trusted to inflict even on the most mature plan—the case +being that, though one’s last reconsidered production always seems to +bristle with that particular evidence, “The Ambassadors” would place a +flood of such light at my service. I must attach to my final remark +here a different import; noting in the other connexion I just glanced +at that such passages as that of my hero’s first encounter with Chad +Newsome, absolute attestations of the non-scenic form though they be, +yet lay the firmest hand too—so far at least as intention goes—on +representational effect. To report at all closely and completely of +what “passes” on a given occasion is inevitably to become more or less +scenic; and yet in the instance I allude to, _with_ the conveyance, +expressional curiosity and expressional decency are sought and arrived +at under quite another law. The true inwardness of this may be at +bottom but that one of the suffered treacheries has consisted +precisely, for Chad’s whole figure and presence, of a direct +presentability diminished and compromised—despoiled, that is, of its +_proportional_ advantage; so that, in a word, the whole economy of his +author’s relation to him has at important points to be redetermined. +The book, however, critically viewed, is touchingly full of these +disguised and repaired losses, these insidious recoveries, these +intensely redemptive consistencies. The pages in which Mamie Pocock +gives her appointed and, I can’t but think, duly felt lift to the whole +action by the so inscrutably-applied side-stroke or short-cut of our +just watching and as quite at an angle of vision as yet untried, her +single hour of suspense in the hotel salon, in our partaking of her +concentrated study of the sense of matters bearing on her own case, all +the bright warm Paris afternoon, from the balcony that overlooks the +Tuileries garden—these are as marked an example of the representational +virtue that insists here and there on being, for the charm of +opposition and renewal, other than the scenic. It wouldn’t take much to +make me further argue that from an equal play of such oppositions the +book gathers an intensity that fairly adds to the dramatic—though the +latter is supposed to be the sum of all intensities; or that has at any +rate nothing to fear from juxtaposition with it. I consciously fail to +shrink in fact from that extravagance—I risk it rather, for the sake of +the moral involved; which is not that the particular production before +us exhausts the interesting questions it raises, but that the Novel +remains still, under the right persuasion, the most independent, most +elastic, most prodigious of literary forms. + + + HENRY JAMES. + + + + +Book First + + + I + +Strether’s first question, when he reached the hotel, was about his +friend; yet on his learning that Waymarsh was apparently not to arrive +till evening he was not wholly disconcerted. A telegram from him +bespeaking a room “only if not noisy,” reply paid, was produced for the +enquirer at the office, so that the understanding they should meet at +Chester rather than at Liverpool remained to that extent sound. The +same secret principle, however, that had prompted Strether not +absolutely to desire Waymarsh’s presence at the dock, that had led him +thus to postpone for a few hours his enjoyment of it, now operated to +make him feel he could still wait without disappointment. They would +dine together at the worst, and, with all respect to dear old +Waymarsh—if not even, for that matter, to himself—there was little fear +that in the sequel they shouldn’t see enough of each other. The +principle I have just mentioned as operating had been, with the most +newly disembarked of the two men, wholly instinctive—the fruit of a +sharp sense that, delightful as it would be to find himself looking, +after so much separation, into his comrade’s face, his business would +be a trifle bungled should he simply arrange for this countenance to +present itself to the nearing steamer as the first “note,” of Europe. +Mixed with everything was the apprehension, already, on Strether’s +part, that it would, at best, throughout, prove the note of Europe in +quite a sufficient degree. + +That note had been meanwhile—since the previous afternoon, thanks to +this happier device—such a consciousness of personal freedom as he +hadn’t known for years; such a deep taste of change and of having above +all for the moment nobody and nothing to consider, as promised already, +if headlong hope were not too foolish, to colour his adventure with +cool success. There were people on the ship with whom he had easily +consorted—so far as ease could up to now be imputed to him—and who for +the most part plunged straight into the current that set from the +landing-stage to London; there were others who had invited him to a +tryst at the inn and had even invoked his aid for a “look round” at the +beauties of Liverpool; but he had stolen away from every one alike, had +kept no appointment and renewed no acquaintance, had been indifferently +aware of the number of persons who esteemed themselves fortunate in +being, unlike himself, “met,” and had even independently, unsociably, +alone, without encounter or relapse and by mere quiet evasion, given +his afternoon and evening to the immediate and the sensible. They +formed a qualified draught of Europe, an afternoon and an evening on +the banks of the Mersey, but such as it was he took his potion at least +undiluted. He winced a little, truly, at the thought that Waymarsh +might be already at Chester; he reflected that, should he have to +describe himself there as having “got in” so early, it would be +difficult to make the interval look particularly eager; but he was like +a man who, elatedly finding in his pocket more money than usual, +handles it a while and idly and pleasantly chinks it before addressing +himself to the business of spending. That he was prepared to be vague +to Waymarsh about the hour of the ship’s touching, and that he both +wanted extremely to see him and enjoyed extremely the duration of +delay—these things, it is to be conceived, were early signs in him that +his relation to his actual errand might prove none of the simplest. He +was burdened, poor Strether—it had better be confessed at the +outset—with the oddity of a double consciousness. There was detachment +in his zeal and curiosity in his indifference. + +After the young woman in the glass cage had held up to him across her +counter the pale-pink leaflet bearing his friend’s name, which she +neatly pronounced, he turned away to find himself, in the hall, facing +a lady who met his eyes as with an intention suddenly determined, and +whose features—not freshly young, not markedly fine, but on happy terms +with each other—came back to him as from a recent vision. For a moment +they stood confronted; then the moment placed her: he had noticed her +the day before, noticed her at his previous inn, where—again in the +hall—she had been briefly engaged with some people of his own ship’s +company. Nothing had actually passed between them, and he would as +little have been able to say what had been the sign of her face for him +on the first occasion as to name the ground of his present recognition. +Recognition at any rate appeared to prevail on her own side as +well—which would only have added to the mystery. All she now began by +saying to him nevertheless was that, having chanced to catch his +enquiry, she was moved to ask, by his leave, if it were possibly a +question of Mr. Waymarsh of Milrose Connecticut—Mr. Waymarsh the +American lawyer. + +“Oh yes,” he replied, “my very well-known friend. He’s to meet me here, +coming up from Malvern, and I supposed he’d already have arrived. But +he doesn’t come till later, and I’m relieved not to have kept him. Do +you know him?” Strether wound up. + +It wasn’t till after he had spoken that he became aware of how much +there had been in him of response; when the tone of her own rejoinder, +as well as the play of something more in her face—something more, that +is, than its apparently usual restless light—seemed to notify him. +“I’ve met him at Milrose—where I used sometimes, a good while ago, to +stay; I had friends there who were friends of his, and I’ve been at his +house. I won’t answer for it that he would know me,” Strether’s new +acquaintance pursued; “but I should be delighted to see him. Perhaps,” +she added, “I shall—for I’m staying over.” She paused while our friend +took in these things, and it was as if a good deal of talk had already +passed. They even vaguely smiled at it, and Strether presently observed +that Mr. Waymarsh would, no doubt, be easily to be seen. This, however, +appeared to affect the lady as if she might have advanced too far. She +appeared to have no reserves about anything. “Oh,” she said, “he won’t +care!”—and she immediately thereupon remarked that she believed +Strether knew the Munsters; the Munsters being the people he had seen +her with at Liverpool. + +But he didn’t, it happened, know the Munsters well enough to give the +case much of a lift; so that they were left together as if over the +mere laid table of conversation. Her qualification of the mentioned +connexion had rather removed than placed a dish, and there seemed +nothing else to serve. Their attitude remained, none the less, that of +not forsaking the board; and the effect of this in turn was to give +them the appearance of having accepted each other with an absence of +preliminaries practically complete. They moved along the hall together, +and Strether’s companion threw off that the hotel had the advantage of +a garden. He was aware by this time of his strange inconsequence: he +had shirked the intimacies of the steamer and had muffled the shock of +Waymarsh only to find himself forsaken, in this sudden case, both of +avoidance and of caution. He passed, under this unsought protection and +before he had so much as gone up to his room, into the garden of the +hotel, and at the end of ten minutes had agreed to meet there again, as +soon as he should have made himself tidy, the dispenser of such good +assurances. He wanted to look at the town, and they would forthwith +look together. It was almost as if she had been in possession and +received him as a guest. Her acquaintance with the place presented her +in a manner as a hostess, and Strether had a rueful glance for the lady +in the glass cage. It was as if this personage had seen herself +instantly superseded. + +When in a quarter of an hour he came down, what his hostess saw, what +she might have taken in with a vision kindly adjusted, was the lean, +the slightly loose figure of a man of the middle height and something +more perhaps than the middle age—a man of five-and-fifty, whose most +immediate signs were a marked bloodless brownness of face, a thick dark +moustache, of characteristically American cut, growing strong and +falling low, a head of hair still abundant but irregularly streaked +with grey, and a nose of bold free prominence, the even line, the high +finish, as it might have been called, of which, had a certain effect of +mitigation. A perpetual pair of glasses astride of this fine ridge, and +a line, unusually deep and drawn, the prolonged pen-stroke of time, +accompanying the curve of the moustache from nostril to chin, did +something to complete the facial furniture that an attentive observer +would have seen catalogued, on the spot, in the vision of the other +party to Strether’s appointment. She waited for him in the garden, the +other party, drawing on a pair of singularly fresh soft and elastic +light gloves and presenting herself with a superficial readiness which, +as he approached her over the small smooth lawn and in the watery +English sunshine, he might, with his rougher preparation, have marked +as the model for such an occasion. She had, this lady, a perfect plain +propriety, an expensive subdued suitability, that her companion was not +free to analyse, but that struck him, so that his consciousness of it +was instantly acute, as a quality quite new to him. Before reaching her +he stopped on the grass and went through the form of feeling for +something, possibly forgotten, in the light overcoat he carried on his +arm; yet the essence of the act was no more than the impulse to gain +time. Nothing could have been odder than Strether’s sense of himself as +at that moment launched in something of which the sense would be quite +disconnected from the sense of his past and which was literally +beginning there and then. It had begun in fact already upstairs and +before the dressing glass that struck him as blocking further, so +strangely, the dimness of the window of his dull bedroom; begun with a +sharper survey of the elements of Appearance than he had for a long +time been moved to make. He had during those moments felt these +elements to be not so much to his hand as he should have liked, and +then had fallen back on the thought that they were precisely a matter +as to which help was supposed to come from what he was about to do. He +was about to go up to London, so that hat and necktie might wait. What +had come as straight to him as a ball in a well-played game—and caught +moreover not less neatly—was just the air, in the person of his friend, +of having seen and chosen, the air of achieved possession of those +vague qualities and quantities that collectively figured to him as the +advantage snatched from lucky chances. Without pomp or circumstance, +certainly, as her original address to him, equally with his own +response, had been, he would have sketched to himself his impression of +her as: “Well, she’s more thoroughly civilized—!” If “More thoroughly +than _whom?_” would not have been for him a sequel to this remark, that +was just by reason of his deep consciousness of the bearing of his +comparison. + +The amusement, at all events, of a civilisation intenser was +what—familiar compatriot as she was, with the full tone of the +compatriot and the rattling link not with mystery but only with dear +dyspeptic Waymarsh—she appeared distinctly to promise. His pause while +he felt in his overcoat was positively the pause of confidence, and it +enabled his eyes to make out as much of a case for her, in proportion, +as her own made out for himself. She affected him as almost insolently +young; but an easily carried five-and-thirty could still do that. She +was, however, like himself marked and wan; only it naturally couldn’t +have been known to him how much a spectator looking from one to the +other might have discerned that they had in common. It wouldn’t for +such a spectator have been altogether insupposable that, each so finely +brown and so sharply spare, each confessing so to dents of surface and +aids to sight, to a disproportionate nose and a head delicately or +grossly grizzled, they might have been brother and sister. On this +ground indeed there would have been a residuum of difference; such a +sister having surely known in respect to such a brother the extremity +of separation, and such a brother now feeling in respect to such a +sister the extremity of surprise. Surprise, it was true, was not on the +other hand what the eyes of Strether’s friend most showed him while she +gave him, stroking her gloves smoother, the time he appreciated. They +had taken hold of him straightway measuring him up and down as if they +knew how; as if he were human material they had already in some sort +handled. Their possessor was in truth, it may be communicated, the +mistress of a hundred cases or categories, receptacles of the mind, +subdivisions for convenience, in which, from a full experience, she +pigeon-holed her fellow mortals with a hand as free as that of a +compositor scattering type. She was as equipped in this particular as +Strether was the reverse, and it made an opposition between them which +he might well have shrunk from submitting to if he had fully suspected +it. So far as he did suspect it he was on the contrary, after a short +shake of his consciousness, as pleasantly passive as might be. He +really had a sort of sense of what she knew. He had quite the sense +that she knew things he didn’t, and though this was a concession that +in general he found not easy to make to women, he made it now as +good-humouredly as if it lifted a burden. His eyes were so quiet behind +his eternal nippers that they might almost have been absent without +changing his face, which took its expression mainly, and not least its +stamp of sensibility, from other sources, surface and grain and form. +He joined his guide in an instant, and then felt she had profited still +better than he by his having been for the moments just mentioned, so at +the disposal of her intelligence. She knew even intimate things about +him that he hadn’t yet told her and perhaps never would. He wasn’t +unaware that he had told her rather remarkably many for the time, but +these were not the real ones. Some of the real ones, however, +precisely, were what she knew. + +They were to pass again through the hall of the inn to get into the +street, and it was here she presently checked him with a question. +“Have you looked up my name?” + +He could only stop with a laugh. “Have you looked up mine?” + +“Oh dear, yes—as soon as you left me. I went to the office and asked. +Hadn’t _you_ better do the same?” + +He wondered. “Find out who you are?—after the uplifted young woman +there has seen us thus scrape acquaintance!” + +She laughed on her side now at the shade of alarm in his amusement. +“Isn’t it a reason the more? If what you’re afraid of is the injury for +me—my being seen to walk off with a gentleman who has to ask who I am—I +assure you I don’t in the least mind. Here, however,” she continued, +“is my card, and as I find there’s something else again I have to say +at the office, you can just study it during the moment I leave you.” + +She left him after he had taken from her the small pasteboard she had +extracted from her pocket-book, and he had extracted another from his +own, to exchange with it, before she came back. He read thus the simple +designation “Maria Gostrey,” to which was attached, in a corner of the +card, with a number, the name of a street, presumably in Paris, without +other appreciable identity than its foreignness. He put the card into +his waistcoat pocket, keeping his own meanwhile in evidence; and as he +leaned against the door-post he met with the smile of a straying +thought what the expanse before the hotel offered to his view. It was +positively droll to him that he should already have Maria Gostrey, +whoever she was—of which he hadn’t really the least idea—in a place of +safe keeping. He had somehow an assurance that he should carefully +preserve the little token he had just tucked in. He gazed with unseeing +lingering eyes as he followed some of the implications of his act, +asking himself if he really felt admonished to qualify it as disloyal. +It was prompt, it was possibly even premature, and there was little +doubt of the expression of face the sight of it would have produced in +a certain person. But if it was “wrong”—why then he had better not have +come out at all. At this, poor man, had he already—and even before +meeting Waymarsh—arrived. He had believed he had a limit, but the limit +had been transcended within thirty-six hours. By how long a space on +the plane of manners or even of morals, moreover, he felt still more +sharply after Maria Gostrey had come back to him and with a gay +decisive “So now—!” led him forth into the world. This counted, it +struck him as he walked beside her with his overcoat on an arm, his +umbrella under another and his personal pasteboard a little stiffly +retained between forefinger and thumb, this struck him as really, in +comparison his introduction to things. It hadn’t been “Europe” at +Liverpool no—not even in the dreadful delightful impressive streets the +night before—to the extent his present companion made it so. She hadn’t +yet done that so much as when, after their walk had lasted a few +minutes and he had had time to wonder if a couple of sidelong glances +from her meant that he had best have put on gloves she almost pulled +him up with an amused challenge. “But why—fondly as it’s so easy to +imagine your clinging to it—don’t you put it away? Or if it’s an +inconvenience to you to carry it, one’s often glad to have one’s card +back. The fortune one spends in them!” + +Then he saw both that his way of marching with his own prepared tribute +had affected her as a deviation in one of those directions he couldn’t +yet measure, and that she supposed this emblem to be still the one he +had received from her. He accordingly handed her the card as if in +restitution, but as soon as she had it she felt the difference and, +with her eyes on it, stopped short for apology. “I like,” she observed, +“your name.” + +“Oh,” he answered, “you won’t have heard of it!” Yet he had his reasons +for not being sure but that she perhaps might. + +Ah it was but too visible! She read it over again as one who had never +seen it. “‘Mr. Lewis Lambert Strether’”—she sounded it almost as freely +as for any stranger. She repeated however that she liked +it—“particularly the Lewis Lambert. It’s the name of a novel of +Balzac’s.” + +“Oh I know that!” said Strether. + +“But the novel’s an awfully bad one.” + +“I know that too,” Strether smiled. To which he added with an +irrelevance that was only superficial: “I come from Woollett +Massachusetts.” It made her for some reason—the irrelevance or +whatever—laugh. Balzac had described many cities, but hadn’t described +Woollett Massachusetts. “You say that,” she returned, “as if you wanted +one immediately to know the worst.” + +“Oh I think it’s a thing,” he said, “that you must already have made +out. I feel it so that I certainly must look it, speak it, and, as +people say there, ‘act’ it. It sticks out of me, and you knew surely +for yourself as soon as you looked at me.” + +“The worst, you mean?” + +“Well, the fact of where I come from. There at any rate it _is_; so +that you won’t be able, if anything happens, to say I’ve not been +straight with you.” + +“I see”—and Miss Gostrey looked really interested in the point he had +made. “But what do you think of as happening?” + +Though he wasn’t shy—which was rather anomalous—Strether gazed about +without meeting her eyes; a motion that was frequent with him in talk, +yet of which his words often seemed not at all the effect. “Why that +you should find me too hopeless.” With which they walked on again +together while she answered, as they went, that the most “hopeless” of +her countryfolk were in general precisely those she liked best. All +sorts of other pleasant small things—small things that were yet large +for him—flowered in the air of the occasion, but the bearing of the +occasion itself on matters still remote concerns us too closely to +permit us to multiply our illustrations. Two or three, however, in +truth, we should perhaps regret to lose. The tortuous wall—girdle, long +since snapped, of the little swollen city, half held in place by +careful civic hands—wanders in narrow file between parapets smoothed by +peaceful generations, pausing here and there for a dismantled gate or a +bridged gap, with rises and drops, steps up and steps down, queer +twists, queer contacts, peeps into homely streets and under the brows +of gables, views of cathedral tower and waterside fields, of huddled +English town and ordered English country. Too deep almost for words was +the delight of these things to Strether; yet as deeply mixed with it +were certain images of his inward picture. He had trod this walks in +the far-off time, at twenty-five; but that, instead of spoiling it, +only enriched it for present feeling and marked his renewal as a thing +substantial enough to share. It was with Waymarsh he should have shared +it, and he was now accordingly taking from him something that was his +due. He looked repeatedly at his watch, and when he had done so for the +fifth time Miss Gostrey took him up. + +“You’re doing something that you think not right.” + +It so touched the place that he quite changed colour and his laugh grew +almost awkward. “Am I enjoying it as much as _that?_” + +“You’re not enjoying it, I think, so much as you ought.” + +“I see”—he appeared thoughtfully to agree. “Great is my privilege.” + +“Oh it’s not your privilege! It has nothing to do with _me_. It has to +do with yourself. Your failure’s general.” + +“Ah there you are!” he laughed. “It’s the failure of Woollett. _That’s_ +general.” + +“The failure to enjoy,” Miss Gostrey explained, “is what I mean.” + +“Precisely. Woollett isn’t sure it ought to enjoy. If it were it would. +But it hasn’t, poor thing,” Strether continued, “any one to show it +how. It’s not like me. I have somebody.” + +They had stopped, in the afternoon sunshine—constantly pausing, in +their stroll, for the sharper sense of what they saw—and Strether +rested on one of the high sides of the old stony groove of the little +rampart. He leaned back on this support with his face to the tower of +the cathedral, now admirably commanded by their station, the high +red-brown mass, square and subordinately spired and crocketed, +retouched and restored, but charming to his long-sealed eyes and with +the first swallows of the year weaving their flight all round it. Miss +Gostrey lingered near him, full of an air, to which she more and more +justified her right, of understanding the effect of things. She quite +concurred. “You’ve indeed somebody.” And she added: “I wish you _would_ +let me show you how!” + +“Oh I’m afraid of you!” he cheerfully pleaded. + +She kept on him a moment, through her glasses and through his own, a +certain pleasant pointedness. “Ah no, you’re not! You’re not in the +least, thank goodness! If you had been we shouldn’t so soon have found +ourselves here together. I think,” she comfortably concluded, “you +trust me.” + +“I think I do!—but that’s exactly what I’m afraid of. I shouldn’t mind +if I didn’t. It’s falling thus in twenty minutes so utterly into your +hands. I dare say,” Strether continued, “it’s a sort of thing you’re +thoroughly familiar with; but nothing more extraordinary has ever +happened to me.” + +She watched him with all her kindness. “That means simply that you’ve +recognised me—which _is_ rather beautiful and rare. You see what I am.” +As on this, however, he protested, with a good-humoured headshake, a +resignation of any such claim, she had a moment of explanation. “If +you’ll only come on further as you _have_ come you’ll at any rate make +out. My own fate has been too many for me, and I’ve succumbed to it. +I’m a general guide—to ‘Europe,’ don’t you know? I wait for people—I +put them through. I pick them up—I set them down. I’m a sort of +superior ‘courier-maid.’ I’m a companion at large. I take people, as +I’ve told you, about. I never sought it—it has come to me. It has been +my fate, and one’s fate one accepts. It’s a dreadful thing to have to +say, in so wicked a world, but I verily believe that, such as you see +me, there’s nothing I don’t know. I know all the shops and the +prices—but I know worse things still. I bear on my back the huge load +of our national consciousness, or, in other words—for it comes to +that—of our nation itself. Of what is our nation composed but of the +men and women individually on my shoulders? I don’t do it, you know, +for any particular advantage. I don’t do it, for instance—some people +do, you know—for money.” + +Strether could only listen and wonder and weigh his chance. “And yet, +affected as you are then to so many of your clients, you can scarcely +be said to do it for love.” He waited a moment. “How do we reward you?” + +She had her own hesitation, but “You don’t!” she finally returned, +setting him again in motion. They went on, but in a few minutes, though +while still thinking over what she had said, he once more took out his +watch; mechanically, unconsciously and as if made nervous by the mere +exhilaration of what struck him as her strange and cynical wit. He +looked at the hour without seeing it, and then, on something again said +by his companion, had another pause. “You’re really in terror of him.” + +He smiled a smile that he almost felt to be sickly. “Now you can see +why I’m afraid of you.” + +“Because I’ve such illuminations? Why they’re all for your help! It’s +what I told you,” she added, “just now. You feel as if this were +wrong.” + +He fell back once more, settling himself against the parapet as if to +hear more about it. “Then get me out!” + +Her face fairly brightened for the joy of the appeal, but, as if it +were a question of immediate action, she visibly considered. “Out of +waiting for him?—of seeing him at all?” + +“Oh no—not that,” said poor Strether, looking grave. “I’ve got to wait +for him—and I want very much to see him. But out of the terror. You did +put your finger on it a few minutes ago. It’s general, but it avails +itself of particular occasions. That’s what it’s doing for me now. I’m +always considering something else; something else, I mean, than the +thing of the moment. The obsession of the other thing is the terror. +I’m considering at present for instance something else than _you_.” + +She listened with charming earnestness. “Oh you oughtn’t to do that!” + +“It’s what I admit. Make it then impossible.” + +She continued to think. “Is it really an ‘order’ from you?—that I shall +take the job? _Will_ you give yourself up?” + +Poor Strether heaved his sigh. “If I only could! But that’s the deuce +of it—that I never can. No—I can’t.” + +She wasn’t, however, discouraged. “But you want to at least?” + +“Oh unspeakably!” + +“Ah then, if you’ll try!”—and she took over the job, as she had called +it, on the spot. “Trust me!” she exclaimed, and the action of this, as +they retraced their steps, was presently to make him pass his hand into +her arm in the manner of a benign dependent paternal old person who +wishes to be “nice” to a younger one. If he drew it out again indeed as +they approached the inn this may have been because, after more talk had +passed between them, the relation of age, or at least of +experience—which, for that matter, had already played to and fro with +some freedom—affected him as incurring a readjustment. It was at all +events perhaps lucky that they arrived in sufficiently separate fashion +within range of the hotel-door. The young lady they had left in the +glass cage watched as if she had come to await them on the threshold. +At her side stood a person equally interested, by his attitude, in +their return, and the effect of the sight of whom was instantly to +determine for Strether another of those responsive arrests that we have +had so repeatedly to note. He left it to Miss Gostrey to name, with the +fine full bravado as it almost struck him, of her “Mr. Waymarsh!” what +was to have been, what—he more than ever felt as his short stare of +suspended welcome took things in—would have been, but for herself, his +doom. It was already upon him even at that distance—Mr. Waymarsh was +for _his_ part joyless. + + + II + +He had none the less to confess to this friend that evening that he +knew almost nothing about her, and it was a deficiency that Waymarsh, +even with his memory refreshed by contact, by her own prompt and lucid +allusions and enquiries, by their having publicly partaken of dinner in +her company, and by another stroll, to which she was not a stranger, +out into the town to look at the cathedral by moonlight—it was a blank +that the resident of Milrose, though admitting acquaintance with the +Munsters, professed himself unable to fill. He had no recollection of +Miss Gostrey, and two or three questions that she put to him about +those members of his circle had, to Strether’s observation, the same +effect he himself had already more directly felt—the effect of +appearing to place all knowledge, for the time, on this original +woman’s side. It interested him indeed to mark the limits of any such +relation for her with his friend as there could possibly be a question +of, and it particularly struck him that they were to be marked +altogether in Waymarsh’s quarter. This added to his own sense of having +gone far with her—gave him an early illustration of a much shorter +course. There was a certitude he immediately grasped—a conviction that +Waymarsh would quite fail, as it were, and on whatever degree of +acquaintances to profit by her. + +There had been after the first interchange among the three a talk of +some five minutes in the hall, and then the two men had adjourned to +the garden, Miss Gostrey for the time disappearing. Strether in due +course accompanied his friend to the room he had bespoken and had, +before going out, scrupulously visited; where at the end of another +half-hour he had no less discreetly left him. On leaving him he +repaired straight to his own room, but with the prompt effect of +feeling the compass of that chamber resented by his condition. There he +enjoyed at once the first consequence of their reunion. A place was too +small for him after it that had seemed large enough before. He had +awaited it with something he would have been sorry, have been almost +ashamed not to recognise as emotion, yet with a tacit assumption at the +same time that emotion would in the event find itself relieved. The +actual oddity was that he was only more excited; and his excitement—to +which indeed he would have found it difficult instantly to give a +name—brought him once more downstairs and caused him for some minutes +vaguely to wander. He went once more to the garden; he looked into the +public room, found Miss Gostrey writing letters and backed out; he +roamed, fidgeted and wasted time; but he was to have his more intimate +session with his friend before the evening closed. + +It was late—not till Strether had spent an hour upstairs with him—that +this subject consented to betake himself to doubtful rest. Dinner and +the subsequent stroll by moonlight—a dream, on Strether’s part, of +romantic effects rather prosaically merged in a mere missing of thicker +coats—had measurably intervened, and this midnight conference was the +result of Waymarsh’s having (when they were free, as he put it, of +their fashionable friend) found the smoking-room not quite what he +wanted, and yet bed what he wanted less. His most frequent form of +words was that he knew himself, and they were applied on this occasion +to his certainty of not sleeping. He knew himself well enough to know +that he should have a night of prowling unless he should succeed, as a +preliminary, in getting prodigiously tired. If the effort directed to +this end involved till a late hour the presence of Strether—consisted, +that is, in the detention of the latter for full discourse—there was +yet an impression of minor discipline involved for our friend in the +picture Waymarsh made as he sat in trousers and shirt on the edge of +his couch. With his long legs extended and his large back much bent, he +nursed alternately, for an almost incredible time, his elbows and his +beard. He struck his visitor as extremely, as almost wilfully +uncomfortable; yet what had this been for Strether, from that first +glimpse of him disconcerted in the porch of the hotel, but the +predominant notes. The discomfort was in a manner contagious, as well +as also in a manner inconsequent and unfounded; the visitor felt that +unless he should get used to it—or unless Waymarsh himself should—it +would constitute a menace for his own prepared, his own already +confirmed, consciousness of the agreeable. On their first going up +together to the room Strether had selected for him Waymarsh had looked +it over in silence and with a sigh that represented for his companion, +if not the habit of disapprobation, at least the despair of felicity; +and this look had recurred to Strether as the key of much he had since +observed. “Europe,” he had begun to gather from these things, had up to +now rather failed of its message to him; he hadn’t got into tune with +it and had at the end of three months almost renounced any such +expectation. + +He really appeared at present to insist on that by just perching there +with the gas in his eyes. This of itself somehow conveyed the futility +of single rectifications in a multiform failure. He had a large +handsome head and a large sallow seamed face—a striking significant +physiognomic total, the upper range of which, the great political brow, +the thick loose hair, the dark fuliginous eyes, recalled even to a +generation whose standard had dreadfully deviated the impressive image, +familiar by engravings and busts, of some great national worthy of the +earlier part of the mid-century. He was of the personal type—and it was +an element in the power and promise that in their early time Strether +had found in him—of the American statesman, the statesman trained in +“Congressional halls,” of an elder day. The legend had been in later +years that as the lower part of his face, which was weak, and slightly +crooked, spoiled the likeness, this was the real reason for the growth +of his beard, which might have seemed to spoil it for those not in the +secret. He shook his mane; he fixed, with his admirable eyes, his +auditor or his observer; he wore no glasses and had a way, partly +formidable, yet also partly encouraging, as from a representative to a +constituent, of looking very hard at those who approached him. He met +you as if you had knocked and he had bidden you enter. Strether, who +hadn’t seen him for so long an interval, apprehended him now with a +freshness of taste, and had perhaps never done him such ideal justice. +The head was bigger, the eyes finer, than they need have been for the +career; but that only meant, after all, that the career was itself +expressive. What it expressed at midnight in the gas-glaring bedroom at +Chester was that the subject of it had, at the end of years, barely +escaped, by flight in time, a general nervous collapse. But this very +proof of the full life, as the full life was understood at Milrose, +would have made to Strether’s imagination an element in which Waymarsh +could have floated easily had he only consented to float. Alas nothing +so little resembled floating as the rigour with which, on the edge of +his bed, he hugged his posture of prolonged impermanence. It suggested +to his comrade something that always, when kept up, worried him—a +person established in a railway-coach with a forward inclination. It +represented the angle at which poor Waymarsh was to sit through the +ordeal of Europe. + +Thanks to the stress of occupation, the strain of professions, the +absorption and embarrassment of each, they had not, at home, during +years before this sudden brief and almost bewildering reign of +comparative ease, found so much as a day for a meeting; a fact that was +in some degree an explanation of the sharpness with which most of his +friend’s features stood out to Strether. Those he had lost sight of +since the early time came back to him; others that it was never +possible to forget struck him now as sitting, clustered and expectant, +like a somewhat defiant family-group, on the doorstep of their +residence. The room was narrow for its length, and the occupant of the +bed thrust so far a pair of slippered feet that the visitor had almost +to step over them in his recurrent rebounds from his chair to fidget +back and forth. There were marks the friends made on things to talk +about, and on things not to, and one of the latter in particular fell +like the tap of chalk on the blackboard. Married at thirty, Waymarsh +had not lived with his wife for fifteen years, and it came up vividly +between them in the glare of the gas that Strether wasn’t to ask about +her. He knew they were still separate and that she lived at hotels, +travelled in Europe, painted her face and wrote her husband abusive +letters, of not one of which, to a certainty, that sufferer spared +himself the perusal; but he respected without difficulty the cold +twilight that had settled on this side of his companion’s life. It was +a province in which mystery reigned and as to which Waymarsh had never +spoken the informing word. Strether, who wanted to do him the highest +justice wherever he _could_ do it, singularly admired him for the +dignity of this reserve, and even counted it as one of the +grounds—grounds all handled and numbered—for ranking him, in the range +of their acquaintance, as a success. He _was_ a success, Waymarsh, in +spite of overwork, or prostration, of sensible shrinkage, of his wife’s +letters and of his not liking Europe. Strether would have reckoned his +own career less futile had he been able to put into it anything so +handsome as so much fine silence. One might one’s self easily have left +Mrs. Waymarsh; and one would assuredly have paid one’s tribute to the +ideal in covering with that attitude the derision of having been left +by her. Her husband had held his tongue and had made a large income; +and these were in especial the achievements as to which Strether envied +him. Our friend had had indeed on his side too a subject for silence, +which he fully appreciated; but it was a matter of a different sort, +and the figure of the income he had arrived at had never been high +enough to look any one in the face. + +“I don’t know as I quite see what you require it for. You don’t appear +sick to speak of.” It was of Europe Waymarsh thus finally spoke. + +“Well,” said Strether, who fell as much as possible into step, “I guess +I don’t _feel_ sick now that I’ve started. But I had pretty well run +down before I did start.” + +Waymarsh raised his melancholy look. “Ain’t you about up to your usual +average?” + +It was not quite pointedly sceptical, but it seemed somehow a plea for +the purest veracity, and it thereby affected our friend as the very +voice of Milrose. He had long since made a mental distinction—though +never in truth daring to betray it—between the voice of Milrose and the +voice even of Woollett. It was the former he felt, that was most in the +real tradition. There had been occasions in his past when the sound of +it had reduced him to temporary confusion, and the present, for some +reason, suddenly became such another. It was nevertheless no light +matter that the very effect of his confusion should be to make him +again prevaricate. “That description hardly does justice to a man to +whom it has done such a lot of good to see _you_.” + +Waymarsh fixed on his washing-stand the silent detached stare with +which Milrose in person, as it were, might have marked the +unexpectedness of a compliment from Woollett, and Strether for his +part, felt once more like Woollett in person. “I mean,” his friend +presently continued, “that your appearance isn’t as bad as I’ve seen +it: it compares favourably with what it was when I last noticed it.” On +this appearance Waymarsh’s eyes yet failed to rest; it was almost as if +they obeyed an instinct of propriety, and the effect was still stronger +when, always considering the basin and jug, he added: “You’ve filled +out some since then.” + +“I’m afraid I have,” Strether laughed: “one does fill out some with all +one takes in, and I’ve taken in, I dare say, more than I’ve natural +room for. I was dog-tired when I sailed.” It had the oddest sound of +cheerfulness. + +“_I_ was dog-tired,” his companion returned, “when I arrived, and it’s +this wild hunt for rest that takes all the life out of me. The fact is, +Strether—and it’s a comfort to have you here at last to say it to; +though I don’t know, after all, that I’ve really waited; I’ve told it +to people I’ve met in the cars—the fact is, such a country as this +ain’t my _kind_ of country anyway. There ain’t a country I’ve seen over +here that _does_ seem my kind. Oh I don’t say but what there are plenty +of pretty places and remarkable old things; but the trouble is that I +don’t seem to feel anywhere in tune. That’s one of the reasons why I +suppose I’ve gained so little. I haven’t had the first sign of that +lift I was led to expect.” With this he broke out more earnestly. “Look +here—I want to go back.” + +His eyes were all attached to Strether’s now, for he was one of the men +who fully face you when they talk of themselves. This enabled his +friend to look at him hard and immediately to appear to the highest +advantage in his eyes by doing so. “That’s a genial thing to say to a +fellow who has come out on purpose to meet you!” + +Nothing could have been finer, on this, than Waymarsh’s sombre glow. +“_Have_ you come out on purpose?” + +“Well—very largely.” + +“I thought from the way you wrote there was something back of it.” + +Strether hesitated. “Back of my desire to be with you?” + +“Back of your prostration.” + +Strether, with a smile made more dim by a certain consciousness, shook +his head. “There are all the causes of it!” + +“And no particular cause that seemed most to drive you?” + +Our friend could at last conscientiously answer. “Yes. One. There _is_ +a matter that has had much to do with my coming out.” + +Waymarsh waited a little. “Too private to mention?” + +“No, not too private—for _you_. Only rather complicated.” + +“Well,” said Waymarsh, who had waited again, “I _may_ lose my mind over +here, but I don’t know as I’ve done so yet.” + +“Oh you shall have the whole thing. But not tonight.” + +Waymarsh seemed to sit stiffer and to hold his elbows tighter. “Why +not—if I can’t sleep?” + +“Because, my dear man, I _can!_” + +“Then where’s your prostration?” + +“Just in that—that I can put in eight hours.” And Strether brought it +out that if Waymarsh didn’t “gain” it was because he didn’t go to bed: +the result of which was, in its order, that, to do the latter justice, +he permitted his friend to insist on his really getting settled. +Strether, with a kind coercive hand for it, assisted him to this +consummation, and again found his own part in their relation +auspiciously enlarged by the smaller touches of lowering the lamp and +seeing to a sufficiency of blanket. It somehow ministered for him to +indulgence to feel Waymarsh, who looked unnaturally big and black in +bed, as much tucked in as a patient in a hospital and, with his +covering up to his chin, as much simplified by it. He hovered in vague +pity, to be brief, while his companion challenged him out of the +bedclothes. “Is she really after you? Is that what’s behind?” + +Strether felt an uneasiness at the direction taken by his companion’s +insight, but he played a little at uncertainty. “Behind my coming out?” + +“Behind your prostration or whatever. It’s generally felt, you know, +that she follows you up pretty close.” + +Strether’s candour was never very far off. “Oh it has occurred to you +that I’m literally running away from Mrs. Newsome?” + +“Well, I haven’t _known_ but what you are. You’re a very attractive +man, Strether. You’ve seen for yourself,” said Waymarsh “what that lady +downstairs makes of it. Unless indeed,” he rambled on with an effect +between the ironic and the anxious, “it’s you who are after _her_. Is +Mrs. Newsome _over_ here?” He spoke as with a droll dread of her. + +It made his friend—though rather dimly—smile. “Dear no; she’s safe, +thank goodness—as I think I more and more feel—at home. She thought of +coming, but she gave it up. I’ve come in a manner instead of her; and +come to that extent—for you’re right in your inference—on her business. +So you see there _is_ plenty of connexion.” + +Waymarsh continued to see at least all there was. “Involving +accordingly the particular one I’ve referred to?” + +Strether took another turn about the room, giving a twitch to his +companion’s blanket and finally gaining the door. His feeling was that +of a nurse who had earned personal rest by having made everything +straight. “Involving more things than I can think of breaking ground on +now. But don’t be afraid—you shall have them from me: you’ll probably +find yourself having quite as much of them as you can do with. I +shall—if we keep together—very much depend on your impression of some +of them.” + +Waymarsh’s acknowledgement of this tribute was characteristically +indirect. “You mean to say you don’t believe we _will_ keep together?” + +“I only glance at the danger,” Strether paternally said, “because when +I hear you wail to go back I seem to see you open up such possibilities +of folly.” + +Waymarsh took it—silent a little—like a large snubbed child “What are +you going to do with me?” + +It was the very question Strether himself had put to Miss Gostrey, and +he wondered if he had sounded like that. But _he_ at least could be +more definite. “I’m going to take you right down to London.” + +“Oh I’ve been down to London!” Waymarsh more softly moaned. “I’ve no +use, Strether, for anything down there.” + +“Well,” said Strether, good-humouredly, “I guess you’ve some use for +_me_.” + +“So I’ve got to go?” + +“Oh you’ve got to go further yet.” + +“Well,” Waymarsh sighed, “do your damnedest! Only you _will_ tell me +before you lead me on all the way—?” + +Our friend had again so lost himself, both for amusement and for +contrition, in the wonder of whether he had made, in his own challenge +that afternoon, such another figure, that he for an instant missed the +thread. “Tell you—?” + +“Why what you’ve got on hand.” + +Strether hesitated. “Why it’s such a matter as that even if I +positively wanted I shouldn’t be able to keep it from you.” + +Waymarsh gloomily gazed. “What does that mean then but that your trip +is just _for_ her?” + +“For Mrs. Newsome? Oh it certainly is, as I say. Very much.” + +“Then why do you also say it’s for me?” + +Strether, in impatience, violently played with his latch. “It’s simple +enough. It’s for both of you.” + +Waymarsh at last turned over with a groan. “Well, _I_ won’t marry you!” + +“Neither, when it comes to that—!” But the visitor had already laughed +and escaped. + + + III + +He had told Miss Gostrey he should probably take, for departure with +Waymarsh, some afternoon train, and it thereupon in the morning +appeared that this lady had made her own plan for an earlier one. She +had breakfasted when Strether came into the coffee-room; but, Waymarsh +not having yet emerged, he was in time to recall her to the terms of +their understanding and to pronounce her discretion overdone. She was +surely not to break away at the very moment she had created a want. He +had met her as she rose from her little table in a window, where, with +the morning papers beside her, she reminded him, as he let her know, of +Major Pendennis breakfasting at his club—a compliment of which she +professed a deep appreciation; and he detained her as pleadingly as if +he had already—and notably under pressure of the visions of the +night—learned to be unable to do without her. She must teach him at all +events, before she went, to order breakfast as breakfast was ordered in +Europe, and she must especially sustain him in the problem of ordering +for Waymarsh. The latter had laid upon his friend, by desperate sounds +through the door of his room, dreadful divined responsibilities in +respect to beefsteak and oranges—responsibilities which Miss Gostrey +took over with an alertness of action that matched her quick +intelligence. She had before this weaned the expatriated from +traditions compared with which the matutinal beefsteak was but the +creature of an hour, and it was not for her, with some of her memories, +to falter in the path though she freely enough declared, on reflexion, +that there was always in such cases a choice of opposed policies. +“There are times when to give them their head, you know—!” + +They had gone to wait together in the garden for the dressing of the +meal, and Strether found her more suggestive than ever “Well, what?” + +“Is to bring about for them such a complexity of relations—unless +indeed we call it a simplicity!—that the situation _has_ to wind itself +up. They want to go back.” + +“And you want them to go!” Strether gaily concluded. + +“I always want them to go, and I send them as fast as I can.’ + +“Oh I know—you take them to Liverpool.” + +“Any port will serve in a storm. I’m—with all my other functions—an +agent for repatriation. I want to re-people our stricken country. What +will become of it else? I want to discourage others.” + +The ordered English garden, in the freshness of the day, was delightful +to Strether, who liked the sound, under his feet, of the tight fine +gravel, packed with the chronic damp, and who had the idlest eye for +the deep smoothness of turf and the clean curves of paths. “Other +people?” + +“Other countries. Other people—yes. I want to encourage our own.” + +Strether wondered. “Not to come? Why then do you ‘meet’ them—since it +doesn’t appear to be to stop them?” + +“Oh that they shouldn’t come is as yet too much to ask. What I attend +to is that they come quickly and return still more so. I meet them to +help it to be over as soon as possible, and though I don’t stop them +I’ve my way of putting them through. That’s my little system; and, if +you want to know,” said Maria Gostrey, “it’s my real secret, my +innermost mission and use. I only seem, you see, to beguile and +approve; but I’ve thought it all out and I’m working all the while +underground. I can’t perhaps quite give you my formula, but I think +that practically I succeed. I send you back spent. So you stay back. +Passed through my hands—” + +“We don’t turn up again?” The further she went the further he always +saw himself able to follow. “I don’t want your formula—I feel quite +enough, as I hinted yesterday, your abysses. Spent!” he echoed. “If +that’s how you’re arranging so subtly to send me I thank you for the +warning.” + +For a minute, amid the pleasantness—poetry in tariffed items, but all +the more, for guests already convicted, a challenge to consumption—they +smiled at each other in confirmed fellowship. “Do you call it subtly? +It’s a plain poor tale. Besides, you’re a special case.” + +“Oh special cases—that’s weak!” She was weak enough, further still, to +defer her journey and agree to accompany the gentlemen on their own, +might a separate carriage mark her independence; though it was in spite +of this to befall after luncheon that she went off alone and that, with +a tryst taken for a day of her company in London, they lingered another +night. She had, during the morning—spent in a way that he was to +remember later on as the very climax of his foretaste, as warm with +presentiments, with what he would have called collapses—had all sorts +of things out with Strether; and among them the fact that though there +was never a moment of her life when she wasn’t “due” somewhere, there +was yet scarce a perfidy to others of which she wasn’t capable for his +sake. She explained moreover that wherever she happened to be she found +a dropped thread to pick up, a ragged edge to repair, some familiar +appetite in ambush, jumping out as she approached, yet appeasable with +a temporary biscuit. It became, on her taking the risk of the deviation +imposed on him by her insidious arrangement of his morning meal, a +point of honour for her not to fail with Waymarsh of the larger success +too; and her subsequent boast to Strether was that she had made their +friend fare—and quite without his knowing what was the matter—as Major +Pendennis would have fared at the Megatherium. She had made him +breakfast like a gentleman, and it was nothing, she forcibly asserted, +to what she would yet make him do. She made him participate in the slow +reiterated ramble with which, for Strether, the new day amply filled +itself; and it was by her art that he somehow had the air, on the +ramparts and in the Rows, of carrying a point of his own. + +The three strolled and stared and gossiped, or at least the two did; +the case really yielding for their comrade, if analysed, but the +element of stricken silence. This element indeed affected Strether as +charged with audible rumblings, but he was conscious of the care of +taking it explicitly as a sign of pleasant peace. He wouldn’t appeal +too much, for that provoked stiffness; yet he wouldn’t be too freely +tacit, for that suggested giving up. Waymarsh himself adhered to an +ambiguous dumbness that might have represented either the growth of a +perception or the despair of one; and at times and in places—where the +low-browed galleries were darkest, the opposite gables queerest, the +solicitations of every kind densest—the others caught him fixing hard +some object of minor interest, fixing even at moments nothing +discernible, as if he were indulging it with a truce. When he met +Strether’s eye on such occasions he looked guilty and furtive, fell the +next minute into some attitude of retractation. Our friend couldn’t +show him the right things for fear of provoking some total +renouncement, and was tempted even to show him the wrong in order to +make him differ with triumph. There were moments when he himself felt +shy of professing the full sweetness of the taste of leisure, and there +were others when he found himself feeling as if his passages of +interchange with the lady at his side might fall upon the third member +of their party very much as Mr. Burchell, at Dr. Primrose’s fireside, +was influenced by the high flights of the visitors from London. The +smallest things so arrested and amused him that he repeatedly almost +apologised—brought up afresh in explanation his plea of a previous +grind. He was aware at the same time that his grind had been as nothing +to Waymarsh’s, and he repeatedly confessed that, to cover his +frivolity, he was doing his best for his previous virtue. Do what he +might, in any case, his previous virtue was still there, and it seemed +fairly to stare at him out of the windows of shops that were not as the +shops of Woollett, fairly to make him want things that he shouldn’t +know what to do with. It was by the oddest, the least admissible of +laws demoralising him now; and the way it boldly took was to make him +want more wants. These first walks in Europe were in fact a kind of +finely lurid intimation of what one might find at the end of that +process. Had he come back after long years, in something already so +like the evening of life, only to be exposed to it? It was at all +events over the shop-windows that he made, with Waymarsh, most free; +though it would have been easier had not the latter most sensibly +yielded to the appeal of the merely useful trades. He pierced with his +sombre detachment the plate-glass of ironmongers and saddlers, while +Strether flaunted an affinity with the dealers in stamped letter-paper +and in smart neckties. Strether was in fact recurrently shameless in +the presence of the tailors, though it was just over the heads of the +tailors that his countryman most loftily looked. This gave Miss Gostrey +a grasped opportunity to back up Waymarsh at his expense. The weary +lawyer—it was unmistakeable—had a conception of dress; but that, in +view of some of the features of the effect produced, was just what made +the danger of insistence on it. Strether wondered if he by this time +thought Miss Gostrey less fashionable or Lambert Strether more so; and +it appeared probable that most of the remarks exchanged between this +latter pair about passers, figures, faces, personal types, exemplified +in their degree the disposition to talk as “society” talked. + +Was what was happening to himself then, was what already _had_ +happened, really that a woman of fashion was floating him into society +and that an old friend deserted on the brink was watching the force of +the current? When the woman of fashion permitted Strether—as she +permitted him at the most—the purchase of a pair of gloves, the terms +she made about it, the prohibition of neckties and other items till she +should be able to guide him through the Burlington Arcade, were such as +to fall upon a sensitive ear as a challenge to just imputations. Miss +Gostrey was such a woman of fashion as could make without a symptom of +vulgar blinking an appointment for the Burlington Arcade. Mere +discriminations about a pair of gloves could thus at any rate +represent—always for such sensitive ears as were in +question—possibilities of something that Strether could make a mark +against only as the peril of apparent wantonness. He had quite the +consciousness of his new friend, for their companion, that he might +have had of a Jesuit in petticoats, a representative of the recruiting +interests of the Catholic Church. The Catholic Church, for +Waymarsh—that was to say the enemy, the monster of bulging eyes and +far-reaching quivering groping tentacles—was exactly society, exactly +the multiplication of shibboleths, exactly the discrimination of types +and tones, exactly the wicked old Rows of Chester, rank with feudalism; +exactly in short Europe. + +There was light for observation, however, in an incident that occurred +just before they turned back to luncheon. Waymarsh had been for a +quarter of an hour exceptionally mute and distant, and something, or +other—Strether was never to make out exactly what—proved, as it were, +too much for him after his comrades had stood for three minutes taking +in, while they leaned on an old balustrade that guarded the edge of the +Row, a particularly crooked and huddled street-view. “He thinks us +sophisticated, he thinks us worldly, he thinks us wicked, he thinks us +all sorts of queer things,” Strether reflected; for wondrous were the +vague quantities our friend had within a couple of short days acquired +the habit of conveniently and conclusively lumping together. There +seemed moreover a direct connexion between some such inference and a +sudden grim dash taken by Waymarsh to the opposite side. This movement +was startlingly sudden, and his companions at first supposed him to +have espied, to be pursuing, the glimpse of an acquaintance. They next +made out, however, that an open door had instantly received him, and +they then recognised him as engulfed in the establishment of a +jeweller, behind whose glittering front he was lost to view. The fact +had somehow the note of a demonstration, and it left each of the others +to show a face almost of fear. But Miss Gostrey broke into a laugh. +“What’s the matter with him?” + +“Well,” said Strether, “he can’t stand it.” + +“But can’t stand what?” + +“Anything. Europe.” + +“Then how will that jeweller help him?” + +Strether seemed to make it out, from their position, between the +interstices of arrayed watches, of close-hung dangling gewgaws. “You’ll +see.” + +“Ah that’s just what—if he buys anything—I’m afraid of: that I shall +see something rather dreadful.” + +Strether studied the finer appearances. “He may buy everything.” + +“Then don’t you think we ought to follow him?” + +“Not for worlds. Besides we can’t. We’re paralysed. We exchange a long +scared look, we publicly tremble. The thing is, you see, we ‘realise.’ +He has struck for freedom.” + +She wondered but she laughed. “Ah what a price to pay! And I was +preparing some for him so cheap.” + +“No, no,” Strether went on, frankly amused now; “don’t call it that: +the kind of freedom you deal in is dear.” Then as to justify himself: +“Am I not in _my_ way trying it? It’s this.” + +“Being here, you mean, with me?” + +“Yes, and talking to you as I do. I’ve known you a few hours, and I’ve +known _him_ all my life; so that if the ease I thus take with you about +him isn’t magnificent”—and the thought of it held him a moment—“why +it’s rather base.” + +“It’s magnificent!” said Miss Gostrey to make an end of it. “And you +should hear,” she added, “the ease _I_ take—and I above all intend to +take—with Mr. Waymarsh.” + +Strether thought. “About _me?_ Ah that’s no equivalent. The equivalent +would be Waymarsh’s himself serving me up—his remorseless analysis of +me. And he’ll never do that”—he was sadly clear. “He’ll never +remorselessly analyse me.” He quite held her with the authority of +this. “He’ll never say a word to you about me.” + +She took it in; she did it justice; yet after an instant her reason, +her restless irony, disposed of it. “Of course he won’t. For what do +you take people, that they’re able to say words about anything, able +remorselessly to analyse? There are not many like you and me. It will +be only because he’s too stupid.” + +It stirred in her friend a sceptical echo which was at the same time +the protest of the faith of years. “Waymarsh stupid?” + +“Compared with you.” + +Strether had still his eyes on the jeweller’s front, and he waited a +moment to answer. “He’s a success of a kind that I haven’t approached.” + +“Do you mean he has made money?” + +“He makes it—to my belief. And I,” said Strether, “though with a back +quite as bent, have never made anything. I’m a perfectly equipped +failure.” + +He feared an instant she’d ask him if he meant he was poor; and he was +glad she didn’t, for he really didn’t know to what the truth on this +unpleasant point mightn’t have prompted her. She only, however, +confirmed his assertion. “Thank goodness you’re a failure—it’s why I so +distinguish you! Anything else to-day is too hideous. Look about +you—look at the successes. Would you _be_ one, on your honour? Look, +moreover,” she continued, “at me.” + +For a little accordingly their eyes met. “I see,” Strether returned. +“You too are out of it.” + +“The superiority you discern in me,” she concurred, “announces my +futility. If you knew,” she sighed, “the dreams of my youth! But our +realities are what has brought us together. We’re beaten brothers in +arms.” + +He smiled at her kindly enough, but he shook his head. “It doesn’t +alter the fact that you’re expensive. You’ve cost me already—!” + +But he had hung fire. “Cost you what?” + +“Well, my past—in one great lump. But no matter,” he laughed: “I’ll pay +with my last penny.” + +Her attention had unfortunately now been engaged by their comrade’s +return, for Waymarsh met their view as he came out of his shop. “I hope +he hasn’t paid,” she said, “with _his_ last; though I’m convinced he +has been splendid, and has been so for you.” + +“Ah no—not that!” + +“Then for me?” + +“Quite as little.” Waymarsh was by this time near enough to show signs +his friend could read, though he seemed to look almost carefully at +nothing in particular. + +“Then for himself?” + +“For nobody. For nothing. For freedom.” + +“But what has freedom to do with it?” + +Strether’s answer was indirect. “To be as good as you and me. But +different.” + +She had had time to take in their companion’s face; and with it, as +such things were easy for her, she took in all. “Different—yes. But +better!” + +If Waymarsh was sombre he was also indeed almost sublime. He told them +nothing, left his absence unexplained, and though they were convinced +he had made some extraordinary purchase they were never to learn its +nature. He only glowered grandly at the tops of the old gables. “It’s +the sacred rage,” Strether had had further time to say; and this sacred +rage was to become between them, for convenient comprehension, the +description of one of his periodical necessities. It was Strether who +eventually contended that it did make him better than they. But by that +time Miss Gostrey was convinced that she didn’t want to be better than +Strether. + + + + +Book Second + + + I + +Those occasions on which Strether was, in association with the exile +from Milrose, to see the sacred rage glimmer through would doubtless +have their due periodicity; but our friend had meanwhile to find names +for many other matters. On no evening of his life perhaps, as he +reflected, had he had to supply so many as on the third of his short +stay in London; an evening spent by Miss Gostrey’s side at one of the +theatres, to which he had found himself transported, without his own +hand raised, on the mere expression of a conscientious wonder. She knew +her theatre, she knew her play, as she had triumphantly known, three +days running, everything else, and the moment filled to the brim, for +her companion, that apprehension of the interesting which, whether or +no the interesting happened to filter through his guide, strained now +to its limits his brief opportunity. Waymarsh hadn’t come with them; he +had seen plays enough, he signified, before Strether had joined him—an +affirmation that had its full force when his friend ascertained by +questions that he had seen two and a circus. Questions as to what he +had seen had on him indeed an effect only less favourable than +questions as to what he hadn’t. He liked the former to be +discriminated; but how could it be done, Strether asked of their +constant counsellor, without discriminating the latter? + +Miss Gostrey had dined with him at his hotel, face to face over a small +table on which the lighted candles had rose-coloured shades; and the +rose-coloured shades and the small table and the soft fragrance of the +lady—had anything to his mere sense ever been so soft?—were so many +touches in he scarce knew what positive high picture. He had been to +the theatre, even to the opera, in Boston, with Mrs. Newsome, more than +once acting as her only escort; but there had been no little confronted +dinner, no pink lights, no whiff of vague sweetness, as a preliminary: +one of the results of which was that at present, mildly rueful, though +with a sharpish accent, he actually asked himself _why_ there hadn’t. +There was much the same difference in his impression of the noticed +state of his companion, whose dress was “cut down,” as he believed the +term to be, in respect to shoulders and bosom, in a manner quite other +than Mrs. Newsome’s, and who wore round her throat a broad red velvet +band with an antique jewel—he was rather complacently sure it was +antique—attached to it in front. Mrs. Newsome’s dress was never in any +degree “cut down,” and she never wore round her throat a broad red +velvet band: if she had, moreover, would it ever have served so to +carry on and complicate, as he now almost felt, his vision? + +It would have been absurd of him to trace into ramifications the effect +of the ribbon from which Miss Gostrey’s trinket depended, had he not +for the hour, at the best, been so given over to uncontrolled +perceptions. What was it but an uncontrolled perception that his +friend’s velvet band somehow added, in her appearance, to the value of +every other item—to that of her smile and of the way she carried her +head, to that of her complexion, of her lips, her teeth, her eyes, her +hair? What, certainly, had a man conscious of a man’s work in the world +to do with red velvet bands? He wouldn’t for anything have so exposed +himself as to tell Miss Gostrey how much he liked hers, yet he _had_ +none the less not only caught himself in the act—frivolous, no doubt, +idiotic, and above all unexpected—of liking it: he had in addition +taken it as a starting-point for fresh backward, fresh forward, fresh +lateral flights. The manner in which Mrs. Newsome’s throat _was_ +encircled suddenly represented for him, in an alien order, almost as +many things as the manner in which Miss Gostrey’s was. Mrs. Newsome +wore, at operatic hours, a black silk dress—very handsome, he knew it +was “handsome”—and an ornament that his memory was able further to +identify as a ruche. He had his association indeed with the ruche, but +it was rather imperfectly romantic. He had once said to the wearer—and +it was as “free” a remark as he had ever made to her—that she looked, +with her ruff and other matters, like Queen Elizabeth; and it had after +this in truth been his fancy that, as a consequence of that tenderness +and an acceptance of the idea, the form of this special tribute to the +“frill” had grown slightly more marked. The connexion, as he sat there +and let his imagination roam, was to strike him as vaguely pathetic; +but there it all was, and pathetic was doubtless in the conditions the +best thing it could possibly be. It had assuredly existed at any rate; +for it seemed now to come over him that no gentleman of his age at +Woollett could ever, to a lady of Mrs. Newsome’s, which was not much +less than his, have embarked on such a simile. + +All sorts of things in fact now seemed to come over him, comparatively +few of which his chronicler can hope for space to mention. It came over +him for instance that Miss Gostrey looked perhaps like Mary Stuart: +Lambert Strether had a candour of fancy which could rest for an instant +gratified in such an antithesis. It came over him that never before—no, +literally never—had a lady dined with him at a public place before +going to the play. The publicity of the place was just, in the matter, +for Strether, the rare strange thing; it affected him almost as the +achievement of privacy might have affected a man of a different +experience. He had married, in the far-away years, so young as to have +missed the time natural in Boston for taking girls to the Museum; and +it was absolutely true of hint that—even after the close of the period +of conscious detachment occupying the centre of his life, the grey +middle desert of the two deaths, that of his wife and that, ten years +later, of his boy—he had never taken any one anywhere. It came over him +in especial—though the monition had, as happened, already sounded, +fitfully gleamed, in other forms—that the business he had come out on +hadn’t yet been so brought home to him as by the sight of the people +about him. She gave him the impression, his friend, at first, more +straight than he got it for himself—gave it simply by saying with +off-hand illumination: “Oh yes, they’re types!”—but after he had taken +it he made to the full his own use of it; both while he kept silence +for the four acts and while he talked in the intervals. It was an +evening, it was a world of types, and this was a connexion above all in +which the figures and faces in the stalls were interchangeable with +those on the stage. + +He felt as if the play itself penetrated him with the naked elbow of +his neighbour, a great stripped handsome red-haired lady who conversed +with a gentleman on her other side in stray dissyllables which had for +his ear, in the oddest way in the world, so much sound that he wondered +they hadn’t more sense; and he recognised by the same law, beyond the +footlights, what he was pleased to take for the very flush of English +life. He had distracted drops in which he couldn’t have said if it were +actors or auditors who were most true, and the upshot of which, each +time, was the consciousness of new contacts. However he viewed his job +it was “types” he should have to tackle. Those before him and around +him were not as the types of Woollett, where, for that matter, it had +begun to seem to him that there must only have been the male and the +female. These made two exactly, even with the individual varieties. +Here, on the other hand, apart from the personal and the sexual +range—which might be greater or less—a series of strong stamps had been +applied, as it were, from without; stamps that his observation played +with as, before a glass case on a table, it might have passed from +medal to medal and from copper to gold. It befell that in the drama +precisely there was a bad woman in a yellow frock who made a pleasant +weak good-looking young man in perpetual evening dress do the most +dreadful things. Strether felt himself on the whole not afraid of the +yellow frock, but he was vaguely anxious over a certain kindness into +which he found himself drifting for its victim. He hadn’t come out, he +reminded himself, to be too kind, or indeed to be kind at all, to +Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad also be in perpetual evening dress? He +somehow rather hoped it—it seemed so to add to _this_ young man’s +general amenability; though he wondered too if, to fight him with his +own weapons, he himself (a thought almost startling) would have +likewise to be. This young man furthermore would have been much more +easy to handle—at least for _him_—than appeared probable in respect to +Chad. + +It came up for him with Miss Gostrey that there were things of which +she would really perhaps after all have heard, and she admitted when a +little pressed that she was never quite sure of what she heard as +distinguished from things such as, on occasions like the present, she +only extravagantly guessed. “I seem with this freedom, you see, to have +guessed Mr. Chad. He’s a young man on whose head high hopes are placed +at Woollett; a young man a wicked woman has got hold of and whom his +family over there have sent you out to rescue. You’ve accepted the +mission of separating him from the wicked woman. Are you quite sure +she’s very bad for him?” + +Something in his manner showed it as quite pulling him up. “Of course +we are. Wouldn’t _you_ be?” + +“Oh I don’t know. One never does—does one?—beforehand. One can only +judge on the facts. Yours are quite new to me; I’m really not in the +least, as you see, in possession of them: so it will be awfully +interesting to have them from you. If you’re satisfied, that’s all +that’s required. I mean if you’re sure you _are_ sure: sure it won’t +do.” + +“That he should lead such a life? Rather!” + +“Oh but I don’t know, you see, about his life; you’ve not told me about +his life. She may be charming—his life!” + +“Charming?”—Strether stared before him. “She’s base, venal—out of the +streets.” + +“I see. And _he_—?” + +“Chad, wretched boy?” + +“Of what type and temper is he?” she went on as Strether had lapsed. + +“Well—the obstinate.” It was as if for a moment he had been going to +say more and had then controlled himself. + +That was scarce what she wished. “Do you like him?” + +This time he was prompt. “No. How _can_ I?” + +“Do you mean because of your being so saddled with him?” + +“I’m thinking of his mother,” said Strether after a moment. “He has +darkened her admirable life.” He spoke with austerity. “He has worried +her half to death.” + +“Oh that’s of course odious.” She had a pause as if for renewed +emphasis of this truth, but it ended on another note. “Is her life very +admirable?” + +“Extraordinarily.” + +There was so much in the tone that Miss Gostrey had to devote another +pause to the appreciation of it. “And has he only _her?_ I don’t mean +the bad woman in Paris,” she quickly added—“for I assure you I +shouldn’t even at the best be disposed to allow him more than one. But +has he only his mother?” + +“He has also a sister, older than himself and married; and they’re both +remarkably fine women.” + +“Very handsome, you mean?” + +This promptitude—almost, as he might have thought, this precipitation, +gave him a brief drop; but he came up again. “Mrs. Newsome, I think, is +handsome, though she’s not of course, with a son of twenty-eight and a +daughter of thirty, in her very first youth. She married, however, +extremely young.” + +“And is wonderful,” Miss Gostrey asked, “for her age?” + +Strether seemed to feel with a certain disquiet the pressure of it. “I +don’t say she’s wonderful. Or rather,” he went on the next moment, “I +do say it. It’s exactly what she _is_—wonderful. But I wasn’t thinking +of her appearance,” he explained—“striking as that doubtless is. I was +thinking—well, of many other things.” He seemed to look at these as if +to mention some of them; then took, pulling himself up, another turn. +“About Mrs. Pocock people may differ.” + +“Is that the daughter’s name—‘Pocock’?” + +“That’s the daughter’s name,” Strether sturdily confessed. + +“And people may differ, you mean, about _her_ beauty?” + +“About everything.” + +“But _you_ admire her?” + +He gave his friend a glance as to show how he could bear this “I’m +perhaps a little afraid of her.” + +“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “I see her from here! You may say then I see +very fast and very far, but I’ve already shown you I do. The young man +and the two ladies,” she went on, “are at any rate all the family?” + +“Quite all. His father has been dead ten years, and there’s no brother, +nor any other sister. They’d do,” said Strether, “anything in the world +for him.” + +“And you’d do anything in the world for _them?_” + +He shifted again; she had made it perhaps just a shade too affirmative +for his nerves. “Oh I don’t know!” + +“You’d do at any rate this, and the ‘anything’ they’d do is represented +by their _making_ you do it.” + +“Ah they couldn’t have come—either of them. They’re very busy people +and Mrs. Newsome in particular has a large full life. She’s moreover +highly nervous—and not at all strong.” + +“You mean she’s an American invalid?” + +He carefully distinguished. “There’s nothing she likes less than to be +called one, but she would consent to be one of those things, I think,” +he laughed, “if it were the only way to be the other.” + +“Consent to be an American in order to be an invalid?” + +“No,” said Strether, “the other way round. She’s at any rate delicate +sensitive high-strung. She puts so much of herself into everything—” + +Ah Maria knew these things! “That she has nothing left for anything +else? Of course she hasn’t. To whom do you say it? High-strung? Don’t I +spend my life, for them, jamming down the pedal? I see moreover how it +has told on you.” + +Strether took this more lightly. “Oh I jam down the pedal too!” + +“Well,” she lucidly returned, “we must from this moment bear on it +together with all our might.” And she forged ahead. “Have they money?” + +But it was as if, while her energetic image still held him, her enquiry +fell short. “Mrs. Newsome,” he wished further to explain, “hasn’t +moreover your courage on the question of contact. If she had come it +would have been to see the person herself.” + +“The woman? Ah but that’s courage.” + +“No—it’s exaltation, which is a very different thing. Courage,” he, +however, accommodatingly threw out, “is what _you_ have.” + +She shook her head. “You say that only to patch me up—to cover the +nudity of my want of exaltation. I’ve neither the one nor the other. +I’ve mere battered indifference. I see that what you mean,” Miss +Gostrey pursued, “is that if your friend _had_ come she would take +great views, and the great views, to put it simply, would be too much +for her.” + +Strether looked amused at her notion of the simple, but he adopted her +formula. “Everything’s too much for her.” + +“Ah then such a service as this of yours—” + +“Is more for her than anything else? Yes—far more. But so long as it +isn’t too much for _me_—!” + +“Her condition doesn’t matter? Surely not; we leave her condition out; +we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her condition, as behind +and beneath you; yet at the same time I see it as bearing you up.” + +“Oh it does bear me up!” Strether laughed. + +“Well then as yours bears _me_ nothing more’s needed.” With which she +put again her question. “Has Mrs. Newsome money?” + +This time he heeded. “Oh plenty. That’s the root of the evil. There’s +money, to very large amounts, in the concern. Chad has had the free use +of a great deal. But if he’ll pull himself together and come home, all +the same, he’ll find his account in it.” + +She had listened with all her interest. “And I hope to goodness you’ll +find yours!” + +“He’ll take up his definite material reward,” said Strether without +acknowledgement of this. “He’s at the parting of the ways. He can come +into the business now—he can’t come later.” + +“Is there a business?” + +“Lord, yes—a big brave bouncing business. A roaring trade.” + +“A great shop?” + +“Yes—a workshop; a great production, a great industry. The concern’s a +manufacture—and a manufacture that, if it’s only properly looked after, +may well be on the way to become a monopoly. It’s a little thing they +make—make better, it appears, than other people can, or than other +people, at any rate, do. Mr. Newsome, being a man of ideas, at least in +that particular line,” Strether explained, “put them on it with great +effect, and gave the place altogether, in his time, an immense lift.” + +“It’s a place in itself?” + +“Well, quite a number of buildings; almost a little industrial colony. +But above all it’s a thing. The article produced.” + +“And what _is_ the article produced?” + +Strether looked about him as in slight reluctance to say; then the +curtain, which he saw about to rise, came to his aid. “I’ll tell you +next time.” But when the next time came he only said he’d tell her +later on—after they should have left the theatre; for she had +immediately reverted to their topic, and even for himself the picture +of the stage was now overlaid with another image. His postponements, +however, made her wonder—wonder if the article referred to were +anything bad. And she explained that she meant improper or ridiculous +or wrong. But Strether, so far as that went, could satisfy her. +“Unmentionable? Oh no, we constantly talk of it; we are quite familiar +and brazen about it. Only, as a small, trivial, rather ridiculous +object of the commonest domestic use, it’s just wanting in—what shall I +say? Well, dignity, or the least approach to distinction. Right here +therefore, with everything about us so grand—!” In short he shrank. + +“It’s a false note?” + +“Sadly. It’s vulgar.” + +“But surely not vulgarer than this.” Then on his wondering as she +herself had done: “Than everything about us.” She seemed a trifle +irritated. “What do you take this for?” + +“Why for—comparatively—divine!” + +“This dreadful London theatre? It’s impossible, if you really want to +know.” + +“Oh then,” laughed Strether, “I _don’t_ really want to know!” + +It made between them a pause, which she, however, still fascinated by +the mystery of the production at Woollett, presently broke. “‘Rather +ridiculous’? Clothes-pins? Saleratus? Shoe-polish?” + +It brought him round. “No—you don’t even ‘burn.’ I don’t think, you +know, you’ll guess it.” + +“How then can I judge how vulgar it is?” + +“You’ll judge when I do tell you”—and he persuaded her to patience. But +it may even now frankly be mentioned that he in the sequel never _was_ +to tell her. He actually never did so, and it moreover oddly occurred +that by the law, within her, of the incalculable, her desire for the +information dropped and her attitude to the question converted itself +into a positive cultivation of ignorance. In ignorance she could humour +her fancy, and that proved a useful freedom. She could treat the little +nameless object as indeed unnameable—she could make their abstention +enormously definite. There might indeed have been for Strether the +portent of this in what she next said. + +“Is it perhaps then because it’s so bad—because your industry as you +call it, _is_ so vulgar—that Mr. Chad won’t come back? Does he feel the +taint? Is he staying away not to be mixed up in it?” + +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “it wouldn’t appear—would it?—that he feels +‘taints’! He’s glad enough of the money from it, and the money’s his +whole basis. There’s appreciation in that—I mean as to the allowance +his mother has hitherto made him. She has of course the resource of +cutting this allowance off; but even then he has unfortunately, and on +no small scale, his independent supply—money left him by his +grandfather, her own father.” + +“Wouldn’t the fact you mention then,” Miss Gostrey asked, “make it just +more easy for him to be particular? Isn’t he conceivable as fastidious +about the source—the apparent and public source—of his income?” + +Strether was able quite good-humouredly to entertain the proposition. +“The source of his grandfather’s wealth—and thereby of his own share in +it—was not particularly noble.” + +“And what source was it?” + +Strether cast about. “Well—practices.” + +“In business? Infamies? He was an old swindler?” + +“Oh,” he said with more emphasis than spirit, “I shan’t describe _him_ +nor narrate his exploits.” + +“Lord, what abysses! And the late Mr. Newsome then?” + +“Well, what about him?” + +“Was he like the grandfather?” + +“No—he was on the other side of the house. And he was different.” + +Miss Gostrey kept it up. “Better?” + +Her friend for a moment hung fire. “No.” + +Her comment on his hesitation was scarce the less marked for being +mute. “Thank you. _Now_ don’t you see,” she went on, “why the boy +doesn’t come home? He’s drowning his shame.” + +“His shame? What shame?” + +“What shame? Comment donc? _The_ shame.” + +“But where and when,” Strether asked, “is ‘_the_ shame’—where is any +shame—to-day? The men I speak of—they did as every one does; and +(besides being ancient history) it was all a matter of appreciation.” + +She showed how she understood. “Mrs. Newsome has appreciated?” + +“Ah I can’t speak for _her!_” + +“In the midst of such doings—and, as I understand you, profiting by +them, she at least has remained exquisite?” + +“Oh I can’t talk of her!” Strether said. + +“I thought she was just what you _could_ talk of. You _don’t_ trust +me,” Miss Gostrey after a moment declared. + +It had its effect. “Well, her money is spent, her life conceived and +carried on with a large beneficence—” + +“That’s a kind of expiation of wrongs? Gracious,” she added before he +could speak, “how intensely you make me see her!” + +“If you see her,” Strether dropped, “it’s all that’s necessary.” + +She really seemed to have her. “I feel that. She _is_, in spite of +everything, handsome.” + +This at least enlivened him. “What do you mean by everything?” + +“Well, I mean _you_.” With which she had one of her swift changes of +ground. “You say the concern needs looking after; but doesn’t Mrs. +Newsome look after it?” + +“So far as possible. She’s wonderfully able, but it’s not her affair, +and her life’s a good deal overcharged. She has many, many things.” + +“And you also?” + +“Oh yes—I’ve many too, if you will.” + +“I see. But what I mean is,” Miss Gostrey amended, “do you also look +after the business?” + +“Oh no, I don’t touch the business.” + +“Only everything else?” + +“Well, yes—some things.” + +“As for instance—?” + +Strether obligingly thought. “Well, the Review.” + +“The Review?—you have a Review?” + +“Certainly. Woollett has a Review—which Mrs. Newsome, for the most +part, magnificently pays for and which I, not at all magnificently, +edit. My name’s on the cover,” Strether pursued, “and I’m really rather +disappointed and hurt that you seem never to have heard of it.” + +She neglected for a moment this grievance. “And what kind of a Review +is it?” + +His serenity was now completely restored. “Well, it’s green.” + +“Do you mean in political colour as they say here—in thought?” + +“No; I mean the cover’s green—of the most lovely shade.” + +“And with Mrs. Newsome’s name on it too?” + +He waited a little. “Oh as for that you must judge if she peeps out. +She’s behind the whole thing; but she’s of a delicacy and a +discretion—!” + +Miss Gostrey took it all. “I’m sure. She _would_ be. I don’t underrate +her. She must be rather a swell.” + +“Oh yes, she’s rather a swell!” + +“A Woollett swell—_bon!_ I like the idea of a Woollett swell. And you +must be rather one too, to be so mixed up with her.” + +“Ah no,” said Strether, “that’s not the way it works.” + +But she had already taken him up. “The way it works—you needn’t tell +me!—is of course that you efface yourself.” + +“With my name on the cover?” he lucidly objected. + +“Ah but you don’t put it on for yourself.” + +“I beg your pardon—that’s exactly what I do put it on for. It’s exactly +the thing that I’m reduced to doing for myself. It seems to rescue a +little, you see, from the wreck of hopes and ambitions, the refuse-heap +of disappointments and failures, my one presentable little scrap of an +identity.” + +On this she looked at him as to say many things, but what she at last +simply said was: “She likes to see it there. You’re the bigger swell of +the two,” she immediately continued, “because you think you’re not one. +She thinks she _is_ one. However,” Miss Gostrey added, “she thinks +you’re one too. You’re at all events the biggest she can get hold of.” +She embroidered, she abounded. “I don’t say it to interfere between +you, but on the day she gets hold of a bigger one—!” Strether had +thrown back his head as in silent mirth over something that struck him +in her audacity or felicity, and her flight meanwhile was already +higher. “Therefore close with her—!” + +“Close with her?” he asked as she seemed to hang poised. + +“Before you lose your chance.” + +Their eyes met over it. “What do you mean by closing?” + +“And what do I mean by your chance? I’ll tell you when you tell me all +the things _you_ don’t. Is it her _greatest_ fad?” she briskly pursued. + +“The Review?” He seemed to wonder how he could best describe it. This +resulted however but in a sketch. “It’s her tribute to the ideal.” + +“I see. You go in for tremendous things.” + +“We go in for the unpopular side—that is so far as we dare.” + +“And how far _do_ you dare?” + +“Well, she very far. I much less. I don’t begin to have her faith. She +provides,” said Strether, “three fourths of that. And she provides, as +I’ve confided to you, _all_ the money.” + +It evoked somehow a vision of gold that held for a little Miss +Gostrey’s eyes, and she looked as if she heard the bright dollars +shovelled in. “I hope then you make a good thing—” + +“I _never_ made a good thing!” he at once returned. + +She just waited. “Don’t you call it a good thing to be loved?” + +“Oh we’re not loved. We’re not even hated. We’re only just sweetly +ignored.” + +She had another pause. “You don’t trust me!” she once more repeated. + +“Don’t I when I lift the last veil?—tell you the very secret of the +prison-house?” + +Again she met his eyes, but to the result that after an instant her own +turned away with impatience. “You don’t sell? Oh I’m glad of _that!_” +After which however, and before he could protest, she was off again. +“She’s just a _moral_ swell.” + +He accepted gaily enough the definition. “Yes—I really think that +describes her.” + +But it had for his friend the oddest connexion. “How does she do her +hair?” + +He laughed out. “Beautifully!” + +“Ah that doesn’t tell me. However, it doesn’t matter—I know. It’s +tremendously neat—a real reproach; quite remarkably thick and without, +as yet, a single strand of white. There!” + +He blushed for her realism, but gaped at her truth. “You’re the very +deuce.” + +“What else _should_ I be? It was as the very deuce I pounced on you. +But don’t let it trouble you, for everything but the very deuce—at our +age—is a bore and a delusion, and even he himself, after all, but half +a joy.” With which, on a single sweep of her wing, she resumed. “You +assist her to expiate—which is rather hard when you’ve yourself not +sinned.” + +“It’s she who hasn’t sinned,” Strether replied. “I’ve sinned the most.” + +“Ah,” Miss Gostrey cynically laughed, “what a picture of _her!_ Have +you robbed the widow and the orphan?” + +“I’ve sinned enough,” said Strether. + +“Enough for whom? Enough for what?” + +“Well, to be where I am.” + +“Thank you!” They were disturbed at this moment by the passage between +their knees and the back of the seats before them of a gentleman who +had been absent during a part of the performance and who now returned +for the close; but the interruption left Miss Gostrey time, before the +subsequent hush, to express as a sharp finality her sense of the moral +of all their talk. “I knew you had something up your sleeve!” This +finality, however, left them in its turn, at the end of the play, as +disposed to hang back as if they had still much to say; so that they +easily agreed to let every one go before them—they found an interest in +waiting. They made out from the lobby that the night had turned to +rain; yet Miss Gostrey let her friend know that he wasn’t to see her +home. He was simply to put her, by herself, into a four-wheeler; she +liked so in London, of wet nights after wild pleasures, thinking things +over, on the return, in lonely four-wheelers. This was her great time, +she intimated, for pulling herself together. The delays caused by the +weather, the struggle for vehicles at the door, gave them occasion to +subside on a divan at the back of the vestibule and just beyond the +reach of the fresh damp gusts from the street. Here Strether’s comrade +resumed that free handling of the subject to which his own imagination +of it already owed so much. “Does your young friend in Paris like you?” + +It had almost, after the interval, startled him. “Oh I hope not! Why +_should_ he?” + +“Why shouldn’t he?” Miss Gostrey asked. “That you’re coming down on him +need have nothing to do with it.” + +“You see more in it,” he presently returned, “than I.” + +“Of course I see _you_ in it.” + +“Well then you see more in ‘me’!” + +“Than you see in yourself? Very likely. That’s always one’s right. What +I was thinking of,” she explained, “is the possible particular effect +on him of his _milieu_.” + +“Oh his _milieu_—!” Strether really felt he could imagine it better now +than three hours before. + +“Do you mean it can only have been so lowering?” + +“Why that’s my very starting-point.” + +“Yes, but you start so far back. What do his letters say?” + +“Nothing. He practically ignores us—or spares us. He doesn’t write.” + +“I see. But there are all the same,” she went on, “two quite distinct +things that—given the wonderful place he’s in—may have happened to him. +One is that he may have got brutalised. The other is that he may have +got refined.” + +Strether stared—this _was_ a novelty. “Refined?” + +“Oh,” she said quietly, “there _are_ refinements.” + +The way of it made him, after looking at her, break into a laugh. +“_You_ have them!” + +“As one of the signs,” she continued in the same tone, “they constitute +perhaps the worst.” + +He thought it over and his gravity returned. “Is it a refinement not to +answer his mother’s letters?” + +She appeared to have a scruple, but she brought it out. “Oh I should +say the greatest of all.” + +“Well,” said Strether, “_I’m_ quite content to let it, as one of the +signs, pass for the worst that I know he believes he can do what he +likes with me.” + +This appeared to strike her. “How do you know it?” + +“Oh I’m sure of it. I feel it in my bones.” + +“Feel he _can_ do it?” + +“Feel that he believes he can. It may come to the same thing!” Strether +laughed. + +She wouldn’t, however, have this. “Nothing for you will ever come to +the same thing as anything else.” And she understood what she meant, it +seemed, sufficiently to go straight on. “You say that if he does break +he’ll come in for things at home?” + +“Quite positively. He’ll come in for a particular chance—a chance that +any properly constituted young man would jump at. The business has so +developed that an opening scarcely apparent three years ago, but which +his father’s will took account of as in certain conditions possible and +which, under that will, attaches to Chad’s availing himself of it a +large contingent advantage—this opening, the conditions having come +about, now simply awaits him. His mother has kept it for him, holding +out against strong pressure, till the last possible moment. It +requires, naturally, as it carries with it a handsome ‘part,’ a large +share in profits, his being on the spot and making a big effort for a +big result. That’s what I mean by his chance. If he misses it he comes +in, as you say, for nothing. And to see that he doesn’t miss it is, in +a word, what I’ve come out for.” + +She let it all sink in. “What you’ve come out for then is simply to +render him an immense service.” + +Well, poor Strether was willing to take it so. “Ah if you like.” + +“He stands, as they say, if you succeed with him, to gain—” + +“Oh a lot of advantages.” Strether had them clearly at his fingers’ +ends. + +“By which you mean of course a lot of money.” + +“Well, not only. I’m acting with a sense for him of other things too. +Consideration and comfort and security—the general safety of being +anchored by a strong chain. He wants, as I see him, to be protected. +Protected I mean from life.” + +“Ah voilà!”—her thought fitted with a click. “From life. What you +_really_ want to get him home for is to marry him.” + +“Well, that’s about the size of it.” + +“Of course,” she said, “it’s rudimentary. But to any one in +particular?” + +He smiled at this, looking a little more conscious. “You get everything +out.” + +For a moment again their eyes met. “You put everything in!” + +He acknowledged the tribute by telling her. “To Mamie Pocock.” + +She wondered; then gravely, even exquisitely, as if to make the oddity +also fit: “His own niece?” + +“Oh you must yourself find a name for the relation. His +brother-in-law’s sister. Mrs. Jim’s sister-in-law.” + +It seemed to have on Miss Gostrey a certain hardening effect. “And who +in the world’s Mrs. Jim?” + +“Chad’s sister—who was Sarah Newsome. She’s married—didn’t I mention +it?—to Jim Pocock.” + +“Ah yes,” she tacitly replied; but he had mentioned things—! Then, +however, with all the sound it could have, “Who in the world’s Jim +Pocock?” she asked. + +“Why Sally’s husband. That’s the only way we distinguish people at +Woollett,” he good-humoredly explained. + +“And is it a great distinction—being Sally’s husband?” + +He considered. “I think there can be scarcely a greater—unless it may +become one, in the future, to be Chad’s wife.” + +“Then how do they distinguish _you?_” + +“They _don’t_—except, as I’ve told you, by the green cover.” + +Once more their eyes met on it, and she held him an instant. “The green +cover won’t—nor will _any_ cover—avail you with _me_. You’re of a depth +of duplicity!” Still, she could in her own large grasp of the real +condone it. “Is Mamie a great _parti?_” + +“Oh the greatest we have—our prettiest brightest girl.” + +Miss Gostrey seemed to fix the poor child. “I know what they _can_ be. +And with money?” + +“Not perhaps with a great deal of that—but with so much of everything +else that we don’t miss it. We _don’t_ miss money much, you know,” +Strether added, “in general, in America, in pretty girls.” + +“No,” she conceded; “but I know also what you do sometimes miss. And do +you,” she asked, “yourself admire her?” + +It was a question, he indicated, that there might be several ways of +taking; but he decided after an instant for the humorous. “Haven’t I +sufficiently showed you how I admire _any_ pretty girl?” + +Her interest in his problem was by this time such that it scarce left +her freedom, and she kept close to the facts. “I supposed that at +Woollett you wanted them—what shall I call it?—blameless. I mean your +young men for your pretty girls.” + +“So did I!” Strether confessed. “But you strike there a curious +fact—the fact that Woollett too accommodates itself to the spirit of +the age and the increasing mildness of manners. Everything changes, and +I hold that our situation precisely marks a date. We _should_ prefer +them blameless, but we have to make the best of them as we find them. +Since the spirit of the age and the increasing mildness send them so +much more to Paris—” + +“You’ve to take them back as they come. When they _do_ come. _Bon!_” +Once more she embraced it all, but she had a moment of thought. “Poor +Chad!” + +“Ah,” said Strether cheerfully “Mamie will save him!” + +She was looking away, still in her vision, and she spoke with +impatience and almost as if he hadn’t understood her. “_You’ll_ save +him. That’s who’ll save him.” + +“Oh but with Mamie’s aid. Unless indeed you mean,” he added, “that I +shall effect so much more with yours!” + +It made her at last again look at him. “You’ll do more—as you’re so +much better—than all of us put together.” + +“I think I’m only better since I’ve known _you!_” Strether bravely +returned. + +The depletion of the place, the shrinkage of the crowd and now +comparatively quiet withdrawal of its last elements had already brought +them nearer the door and put them in relation with a messenger of whom +he bespoke Miss Gostrey’s cab. But this left them a few minutes more, +which she was clearly in no mood not to use. “You’ve spoken to me of +what—by your success—Mr. Chad stands to gain. But you’ve not spoken to +me of what you do.” + +“Oh I’ve nothing more to gain,” said Strether very simply. + +She took it as even quite too simple. “You mean you’ve got it all +‘down’? You’ve been paid in advance?” + +“Ah don’t talk about payment!” he groaned. + +Something in the tone of it pulled her up, but as their messenger still +delayed she had another chance and she put it in another way. “What—by +failure—do you stand to lose?” + +He still, however, wouldn’t have it. “Nothing!” he exclaimed, and on +the messenger’s at this instant reappearing he was able to sink the +subject in their responsive advance. When, a few steps up the street, +under a lamp, he had put her into her four-wheeler and she had asked +him if the man had called for him no second conveyance, he replied +before the door was closed. “You won’t take me with you?” + +“Not for the world.” + +“Then I shall walk.” + +“In the rain?” + +“I like the rain,” said Strether. “Good-night!” + +She kept him a moment, while his hand was on the door, by not +answering; after which she answered by repeating her question. “What do +you stand to lose?” + +Why the question now affected him as other he couldn’t have said; he +could only this time meet it otherwise. “Everything.” + +“So I thought. Then you shall succeed. And to that end I’m yours—” + +“Ah, dear lady!” he kindly breathed. + +“Till death!” said Maria Gostrey. “Good-night.” + + + II + +Strether called, his second morning in Paris, on the bankers of the Rue +Scribe to whom his letter of credit was addressed, and he made this +visit attended by Waymarsh, in whose company he had crossed from London +two days before. They had hastened to the Rue Scribe on the morrow of +their arrival, but Strether had not then found the letters the hope of +which prompted this errand. He had had as yet none at all; hadn’t +expected them in London, but had counted on several in Paris, and, +disconcerted now, had presently strolled back to the Boulevard with a +sense of injury that he felt himself taking for as good a start as any +other. It would serve, this spur to his spirit, he reflected, as, +pausing at the top of the street, he looked up and down the great +foreign avenue, it would serve to begin business with. His idea was to +begin business immediately, and it did much for him the rest of his day +that the beginning of business awaited him. He did little else till +night but ask himself what he should do if he hadn’t fortunately had so +much to do; but he put himself the question in many different +situations and connexions. What carried him hither and yon was an +admirable theory that nothing he could do wouldn’t be in some manner +related to what he fundamentally had on hand, or _would_ be—should he +happen to have a scruple—wasted for it. He did happen to have a +scruple—a scruple about taking no definite step till he should get +letters; but this reasoning carried it off. A single day to feel his +feet—he had felt them as yet only at Chester and in London—was he could +consider, none too much; and having, as he had often privately +expressed it, Paris to reckon with, he threw these hours of freshness +consciously into the reckoning. They made it continually greater, but +that was what it had best be if it was to be anything at all, and he +gave himself up till far into the evening, at the theatre and on the +return, after the theatre, along the bright congested Boulevard, to +feeling it grow. Waymarsh had accompanied him this time to the play, +and the two men had walked together, as a first stage, from the Gymnase +to the Café Riche, into the crowded “terrace” of which +establishment—the night, or rather the morning, for midnight had +struck, being bland and populous—they had wedged themselves for +refreshment. Waymarsh, as a result of some discussion with his friend, +had made a marked virtue of his having now let himself go; and there +had been elements of impression in their half-hour over their watered +beer-glasses that gave him his occasion for conveying that he held this +compromise with his stiffer self to have become extreme. He conveyed +it—for it was still, after all, his stiffer self who gloomed out of the +glare of the terrace—in solemn silence; and there was indeed a great +deal of critical silence, every way, between the companions, even till +they gained the Place de l’Opéra, as to the character of their +nocturnal progress. + +This morning there _were_ letters—letters which had reached London, +apparently all together, the day of Strether’s journey, and had taken +their time to follow him; so that, after a controlled impulse to go +into them in the reception-room of the bank, which, reminding him of +the post-office at Woollett, affected him as the abutment of some +transatlantic bridge, he slipped them into the pocket of his loose grey +overcoat with a sense of the felicity of carrying them off. Waymarsh, +who had had letters yesterday, had had them again to-day, and Waymarsh +suggested in this particular no controlled impulses. The last one he +was at all events likely to be observed to struggle with was clearly +that of bringing to a premature close any visit to the Rue Scribe. +Strether had left him there yesterday; he wanted to see the papers, and +he had spent, by what his friend could make out, a succession of hours +with the papers. He spoke of the establishment, with emphasis, as a +post of superior observation; just as he spoke generally of his actual +damnable doom as a device for hiding from him what was going on. Europe +was best described, to his mind, as an elaborate engine for +dissociating the confined American from that indispensable knowledge, +and was accordingly only rendered bearable by these occasional stations +of relief, traps for the arrest of wandering western airs. Strether, on +his side, set himself to walk again—he had his relief in his pocket; +and indeed, much as he had desired his budget, the growth of +restlessness might have been marked in him from the moment he had +assured himself of the superscription of most of the missives it +contained. This restlessness became therefore his temporary law; he +knew he should recognise as soon as see it the best place of all for +settling down with his chief correspondent. He had for the next hour an +accidental air of looking for it in the windows of shops; he came down +the Rue de la Paix in the sun and, passing across the Tuileries and the +river, indulged more than once—as if on finding himself determined—in a +sudden pause before the book-stalls of the opposite quay. In the garden +of the Tuileries he had lingered, on two or three spots, to look; it +was as if the wonderful Paris spring had stayed him as he roamed. The +prompt Paris morning struck its cheerful notes—in a soft breeze and a +sprinkled smell, in the light flit, over the garden-floor, of +bareheaded girls with the buckled strap of oblong boxes, in the type of +ancient thrifty persons basking betimes where terrace-walls were warm, +in the blue-frocked brass-labelled officialism of humble rakers and +scrapers, in the deep references of a straight-pacing priest or the +sharp ones of a white-gaitered red-legged soldier. He watched little +brisk figures, figures whose movement was as the tick of the great +Paris clock, take their smooth diagonal from point to point; the air +had a taste as of something mixed with art, something that presented +nature as a white-capped master-chef. The palace was gone, Strether +remembered the palace; and when he gazed into the irremediable void of +its site the historic sense in him might have been freely at play—the +play under which in Paris indeed it so often winces like a touched +nerve. He filled out spaces with dim symbols of scenes; he caught the +gleam of white statues at the base of which, with his letters out, he +could tilt back a straw-bottomed chair. But his drift was, for reasons, +to the other side, and it floated him unspent up the Rue de Seine and +as far as the Luxembourg. In the Luxembourg Gardens he pulled up; here +at last he found his nook, and here, on a penny chair from which +terraces, alleys, vistas, fountains, little trees in green tubs, little +women in white caps and shrill little girls at play all sunnily +“composed” together, he passed an hour in which the cup of his +impressions seemed truly to overflow. But a week had elapsed since he +quitted the ship, and there were more things in his mind than so few +days could account for. More than once, during the time, he had +regarded himself as admonished; but the admonition this morning was +formidably sharp. It took as it hadn’t done yet the form of a +question—the question of what he was doing with such an extraordinary +sense of escape. This sense was sharpest after he had read his letters, +but that was also precisely why the question pressed. Four of the +letters were from Mrs. Newsome and none of them short; she had lost no +time, had followed on his heels while he moved, so expressing herself +that he now could measure the probable frequency with which he should +hear. They would arrive, it would seem, her communications, at the rate +of several a week; he should be able to count, it might even prove, on +more than one by each mail. If he had begun yesterday with a small +grievance he had therefore an opportunity to begin to-day with its +opposite. He read the letters successively and slowly, putting others +back into his pocket but keeping these for a long time afterwards +gathered in his lap. He held them there, lost in thought, as if to +prolong the presence of what they gave him; or as if at the least to +assure them their part in the constitution of some lucidity. His friend +wrote admirably, and her tone was even more in her style than in her +voice—he might almost, for the hour, have had to come this distance to +get its full carrying quality; yet the plentitude of his consciousness +of difference consorted perfectly with the deepened intensity of the +connexion. It was the difference, the difference of being just where he +was and _as_ he was, that formed the escape—this difference was so much +greater than he had dreamed it would be; and what he finally sat there +turning over was the strange logic of his finding himself so free. He +felt it in a manner his duty to think out his state, to approve the +process, and when he came in fact to trace the steps and add up the +items they sufficiently accounted for the sum. He had never +expected—that was the truth of it—again to find himself young, and all +the years and other things it had taken to make him so were exactly his +present arithmetic. He had to make sure of them to put his scruple to +rest. + +It all sprang at bottom from the beauty of Mrs. Newsome’s desire that +he should be worried with nothing that was not of the essence of his +task; by insisting that he should thoroughly intermit and break she had +so provided for his freedom that she would, as it were, have only +herself to thank. Strether could not at this point indeed have +completed his thought by the image of what she might have to thank +herself _for_: the image, at best, of his own likeness—poor Lambert +Strether washed up on the sunny strand by the waves of a single day, +poor Lambert Strether thankful for breathing-time and stiffening +himself while he gasped. There he was, and with nothing in his aspect +or his posture to scandalise: it was only true that if he had seen Mrs. +Newsome coming he would instinctively have jumped up to walk away a +little. He would have come round and back to her bravely, but he would +have had first to pull himself together. She abounded in news of the +situation at home, proved to him how perfectly she was arranging for +his absence, told him who would take up this and who take up that +exactly where he had left it, gave him in fact chapter and verse for +the moral that nothing would suffer. It filled for him, this tone of +hers, all the air; yet it struck him at the same time as the hum of +vain things. This latter effect was what he tried to justify—and with +the success that, grave though the appearance, he at last lighted on a +form that was happy. He arrived at it by the inevitable recognition of +his having been a fortnight before one of the weariest of men. If ever +a man had come off tired Lambert Strether was that man; and hadn’t it +been distinctly on the ground of his fatigue that his wonderful friend +at home had so felt for him and so contrived? It seemed to him somehow +at these instants that, could he only maintain with sufficient firmness +his grasp of that truth, it might become in a manner his compass and +his helm. What he wanted most was some idea that would simplify, and +nothing would do this so much as the fact that he was done for and +finished. If it had been in such a light that he had just detected in +his cup the dregs of youth, that was a mere flaw of the surface of his +scheme. He was so distinctly fagged-out that it must serve precisely as +his convenience, and if he could but consistently be good for little +enough he might do everything he wanted. + +Everything he wanted was comprised moreover in a single boon—the common +unattainable art of taking things as they came. He appeared to himself +to have given his best years to an active appreciation of the way they +didn’t come; but perhaps—as they would seemingly here be things quite +other—this long ache might at last drop to rest. He could easily see +that from the moment he should accept the notion of his foredoomed +collapse the last thing he would lack would be reasons and memories. Oh +if he _should_ do the sum no slate would hold the figures! The fact +that he had failed, as he considered, in everything, in each relation +and in half a dozen trades, as he liked luxuriously to put it, might +have made, might still make, for an empty present; but it stood solidly +for a crowded past. It had not been, so much achievement missed, a +light yoke nor a short load. It was at present as if the backward +picture had hung there, the long crooked course, grey in the shadow of +his solitude. It had been a dreadful cheerful sociable solitude, a +solitude of life or choice, of community; but though there had been +people enough all round it there had been but three or four persons +_in_ it. Waymarsh was one of these, and the fact struck him just now as +marking the record. Mrs. Newsome was another, and Miss Gostrey had of a +sudden shown signs of becoming a third. Beyond, behind them was the +pale figure of his real youth, which held against its breast the two +presences paler than itself—the young wife he had early lost and the +young son he had stupidly sacrificed. He had again and again made out +for himself that he might have kept his little boy, his little dull boy +who had died at school of rapid diphtheria, if he had not in those +years so insanely given himself to merely missing the mother. It was +the soreness of his remorse that the child had in all likelihood not +really been dull—had been dull, as he had been banished and neglected, +mainly because the father had been unwittingly selfish. This was +doubtless but the secret habit of sorrow, which had slowly given way to +time; yet there remained an ache sharp enough to make the spirit, at +the sight now and again of some fair young man just growing up, wince +with the thought of an opportunity lost. Had ever a man, he had finally +fallen into the way of asking himself, lost so much and even done so +much for so little? There had been particular reasons why all +yesterday, beyond other days, he should have had in one ear this cold +enquiry. His name on the green cover, where he had put it for Mrs. +Newsome, expressed him doubtless just enough to make the world—the +world as distinguished, both for more and for less, from Woollett—ask +who he was. He had incurred the ridicule of having to have his +explanation explained. He was Lambert Strether because he was on the +cover, whereas it should have been, for anything like glory, that he +was on the cover because he was Lambert Strether. He would have done +anything for Mrs. Newsome, have been still more ridiculous—as he might, +for that matter, have occasion to be yet; which came to saying that +this acceptance of fate was all he had to show at fifty-five. + +He judged the quantity as small because it _was_ small, and all the +more egregiously since it couldn’t, as he saw the case, so much as +thinkably have been larger. He hadn’t had the gift of making the most +of what he tried, and if he had tried and tried again—no one but +himself knew how often—it appeared to have been that he might +demonstrate what else, in default of that, _could_ be made. Old ghosts +of experiments came back to him, old drudgeries and delusions, and +disgusts, old recoveries with their relapses, old fevers with their +chills, broken moments of good faith, others of still better doubt; +adventures, for the most part, of the sort qualified as lessons. The +special spring that had constantly played for him the day before was +the recognition—frequent enough to surprise him—of the promises to +himself that he had after his other visit never kept. The reminiscence +to-day most quickened for him was that of the vow taken in the course +of the pilgrimage that, newly-married, with the War just over, and +helplessly young in spite of it, he had recklessly made with the +creature who was so much younger still. It had been a bold dash, for +which they had taken money set apart for necessities, but kept sacred +at the moment in a hundred ways, and in none more so than by this +private pledge of his own to treat the occasion as a relation formed +with the higher culture and see that, as they said at Woollett, it +should bear a good harvest. He had believed, sailing home again, that +he had gained something great, and his theory—with an elaborate +innocent plan of reading, digesting, coming back even, every few +years—had then been to preserve, cherish and extend it. As such plans +as these had come to nothing, however, in respect to acquisitions still +more precious, it was doubtless little enough of a marvel that he +should have lost account of that handful of seed. Buried for long years +in dark corners at any rate these few germs had sprouted again under +forty-eight hours of Paris. The process of yesterday had really been +the process of feeling the general stirred life of connexions long +since individually dropped. Strether had become acquainted even on this +ground with short gusts of speculation—sudden flights of fancy in +Louvre galleries, hungry gazes through clear plates behind which +lemon-coloured volumes were as fresh as fruit on the tree. + +There were instants at which he could ask whether, since there had been +fundamentally so little question of his keeping anything, the fate +after all decreed for him hadn’t been only to _be_ kept. Kept for +something, in that event, that he didn’t pretend, didn’t possibly dare +as yet to divine; something that made him hover and wonder and laugh +and sigh, made him advance and retreat, feeling half ashamed of his +impulse to plunge and more than half afraid of his impulse to wait. He +remembered for instance how he had gone back in the sixties with +lemon-coloured volumes in general on the brain as well as with a +dozen—selected for his wife too—in his trunk; and nothing had at the +moment shown more confidence than this invocation of the finer taste. +They were still somewhere at home, the dozen—stale and soiled and never +sent to the binder; but what had become of the sharp initiation they +represented? They represented now the mere sallow paint on the door of +the temple of taste that he had dreamed of raising up—a structure he +had practically never carried further. Strether’s present highest +flights were perhaps those in which this particular lapse figured to +him as a symbol, a symbol of his long grind and his want of odd +moments, his want moreover of money, of opportunity, of positive +dignity. That the memory of the vow of his youth should, in order to +throb again, have had to wait for this last, as he felt it, of all his +accidents—that was surely proof enough of how his conscience had been +encumbered. If any further proof were needed it would have been to be +found in the fact that, as he perfectly now saw, he had ceased even to +measure his meagreness, a meagreness that sprawled, in this retrospect, +vague and comprehensive, stretching back like some unmapped Hinterland +from a rough coast-settlement. His conscience had been amusing itself +for the forty-eight hours by forbidding him the purchase of a book; he +held off from that, held off from everything; from the moment he didn’t +yet call on Chad he wouldn’t for the world have taken any other step. +On this evidence, however, of the way they actually affected him he +glared at the lemon-coloured covers in confession of the +subconsciousness that, all the same, in the great desert of the years, +he must have had of them. The green covers at home comprised, by the +law of their purpose, no tribute to letters; it was of a mere rich +kernel of economics, politics, ethics that, glazed and, as Mrs. Newsome +maintained rather against _his_ view, pre-eminently pleasant to touch, +they formed the specious shell. Without therefore any needed +instinctive knowledge of what was coming out, in Paris, on the bright +highway, he struck himself at present as having more than once flushed +with a suspicion: he couldn’t otherwise at present be feeling so many +fears confirmed. There were “movements” he was too late for: weren’t +they, with the fun of them, already spent? There were sequences he had +missed and great gaps in the procession: he might have been watching it +all recede in a golden cloud of dust. If the playhouse wasn’t closed +his seat had at least fallen to somebody else. He had had an uneasy +feeling the night before that if he was at the theatre at all—though he +indeed justified the theatre, in the specific sense, and with a +grotesqueness to which his imagination did all honour, as something he +owed poor Waymarsh—he should have been there with, and as might have +been said, _for_ Chad. + +This suggested the question of whether he could properly have taken him +to such a play, and what effect—it was a point that suddenly rose—his +peculiar responsibility might be held in general to have on his choice +of entertainment. It had literally been present to him at the +Gymnase—where one was held moreover comparatively safe—that having his +young friend at his side would have been an odd feature of the work of +redemption; and this quite in spite of the fact that the picture +presented might well, confronted with Chad’s own private stage, have +seemed the pattern of propriety. He clearly hadn’t come out in the name +of propriety but to visit unattended equivocal performances; yet still +less had he done so to undermine his authority by sharing them with the +graceless youth. Was he to renounce all amusement for the sweet sake of +that authority? and _would_ such renouncement give him for Chad a moral +glamour? The little problem bristled the more by reason of poor +Strether’s fairly open sense of the irony of things. Were there then +sides on which his predicament threatened to look rather droll to him? +Should he have to pretend to believe—either to himself or the wretched +boy—that there was anything that could make the latter worse? Wasn’t +some such pretence on the other hand involved in the assumption of +possible processes that would make him better? His greatest uneasiness +seemed to peep at him out of the imminent impression that almost any +acceptance of Paris might give one’s authority away. It hung before him +this morning, the vast bright Babylon, like some huge iridescent +object, a jewel brilliant and hard, in which parts were not to be +discriminated nor differences comfortably marked. It twinkled and +trembled and melted together, and what seemed all surface one moment +seemed all depth the next. It was a place of which, unmistakeably, Chad +was fond; wherefore if he, Strether, should like it too much, what on +earth, with such a bond, would become of either of them? It all +depended of course—which was a gleam of light—on how the “too much” was +measured; though indeed our friend fairly felt, while he prolonged the +meditation I describe, that for himself even already a certain measure +had been reached. It will have been sufficiently seen that he was not a +man to neglect any good chance for reflexion. Was it at all possible +for instance to like Paris enough without liking it too much? He +luckily however hadn’t promised Mrs. Newsome not to like it at all. He +was ready to recognise at this stage that such an engagement _would_ +have tied his hands. The Luxembourg Gardens were incontestably just so +adorable at this hour by reason—in addition to their intrinsic charm—of +his not having taken it. The only engagement he had taken, when he +looked the thing in the face, was to do what he reasonably could. + +It upset him a little none the less and after a while to find himself +at last remembering on what current of association he had been floated +so far. Old imaginations of the Latin Quarter had played their part for +him, and he had duly recalled its having been with this scene of rather +ominous legend that, like so many young men in fiction as well as in +fact, Chad had begun. He was now quite out of it, with his “home,” as +Strether figured the place, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, now; which +was perhaps why, repairing, not to fail of justice either, to the elder +neighbourhood, our friend had felt he could allow for the element of +the usual, the immemorial, without courting perturbation. He was not at +least in danger of seeing the youth and the particular Person flaunt by +together; and yet he was in the very air of which—just to feel what the +early natural note must have been—he wished most to take counsel. It +became at once vivid to him that he had originally had, for a few days, +an almost envious vision of the boy’s romantic privilege. Melancholy +Mürger, with Francine and Musette and Rodolphe, at home, was, in the +company of the tattered, one—if he not in his single self two or +three—of the unbound, the paper-covered dozen on the shelf; and when +Chad had written, five years ago, after a sojourn then already +prolonged to six months, that he had decided to go in for economy and +the real thing, Strether’s fancy had quite fondly accompanied him in +this migration, which was to convey him, as they somewhat confusedly +learned at Woollett, across the bridges and up the Montagne +Sainte-Geneviève. This was the region—Chad had been quite distinct +about it—in which the best French, and many other things, were to be +learned at least cost, and in which all sorts of clever fellows, +compatriots there for a purpose, formed an awfully pleasant set. The +clever fellows, the friendly countrymen were mainly young painters, +sculptors, architects, medical students; but they were, Chad sagely +opined, a much more profitable lot to be with—even on the footing of +not being quite one of them—than the “terrible toughs” (Strether +remembered the edifying discrimination) of the American bars and banks +roundabout the Opéra. Chad had thrown out, in the communications +following this one—for at that time he did once in a while +communicate—that several members of a band of earnest workers under one +of the great artists had taken him right in, making him dine every +night, almost for nothing, at their place, and even pressing him not to +neglect the hypothesis of there being as much “in him” as in any of +them. There had been literally a moment at which it appeared there +might be something in him; there had been at any rate a moment at which +he had written that he didn’t know but what a month or two more might +see him enrolled in some _atelier_. The season had been one at which +Mrs. Newsome was moved to gratitude for small mercies; it had broken on +them all as a blessing that their absentee _had_ perhaps a +conscience—that he was sated in fine with idleness, was ambitious of +variety. The exhibition was doubtless as yet not brilliant, but +Strether himself, even by that time much enlisted and immersed, had +determined, on the part of the two ladies, a temperate approval and in +fact, as he now recollected, a certain austere enthusiasm. + +But the very next thing that happened had been a dark drop of the +curtain. The son and brother had not browsed long on the Montagne +Sainte-Geneviève—his effective little use of the name of which, like +his allusion to the best French, appeared to have been but one of the +notes of his rough cunning. The light refreshment of these vain +appearances had not accordingly carried any of them very far. On the +other hand it had gained Chad time; it had given him a chance, +unchecked, to strike his roots, had paved the way for initiations more +direct and more deep. It was Strether’s belief that he had been +comparatively innocent before this first migration, and even that the +first effects of the migration would not have been, without some +particular bad accident, to have been deplored. There had been three +months—he had sufficiently figured it out—in which Chad had wanted to +try. He _had_ tried, though not very hard—he had had his little hour of +good faith. The weakness of this principle in him was that almost any +accident attestedly bad enough was stronger. Such had at any rate +markedly been the case for the precipitation of a special series of +impressions. They had proved, successively, these impressions—all of +Musette and Francine, but Musette and Francine vulgarised by the larger +evolution of the type—irresistibly sharp: he had “taken up,” by what +was at the time to be shrinkingly gathered, as it was scantly +mentioned, with one ferociously “interested” little person after +another. Strether had read somewhere of a Latin motto, a description of +the hours, observed on a clock by a traveller in Spain; and he had been +led to apply it in thought to Chad’s number one, number two, number +three. _Omnes vulnerant, ultima necat_—they had all morally wounded, +the last had morally killed. The last had been longest in possession—in +possession, that is, of whatever was left of the poor boy’s finer +mortality. And it hadn’t been she, it had been one of her early +predecessors, who had determined the second migration, the expensive +return and relapse, the exchange again, as was fairly to be presumed, +of the vaunted best French for some special variety of the worst. + +He pulled himself then at last together for his own progress back; not +with the feeling that he had taken his walk in vain. He prolonged it a +little, in the immediate neighbourhood, after he had quitted his chair; +and the upshot of the whole morning for him was that his campaign had +begun. He had wanted to put himself in relation, and he would be hanged +if he were _not_ in relation. He was that at no moment so much as +while, under the old arches of the Odéon, he lingered before the +charming open-air array of literature classic and casual. He found the +effect of tone and tint, in the long charged tables and shelves, +delicate and appetising; the impression—substituting one kind of +low-priced _consommation_ for another—might have been that of one of +the pleasant cafés that overlapped, under an awning, to the pavement; +but he edged along, grazing the tables, with his hands firmly behind +him. He wasn’t there to dip, to consume—he was there to reconstruct. He +wasn’t there for his own profit—not, that is, the direct; he was there +on some chance of feeling the brush of the wing of the stray spirit of +youth. He felt it in fact, he had it beside him; the old arcade indeed, +as his inner sense listened, gave out the faint sound, as from far off, +of the wild waving of wings. They were folded now over the breasts of +buried generations; but a flutter or two lived again in the turned page +of shock-headed slouch-hatted loiterers whose young intensity of type, +in the direction of pale acuteness, deepened his vision, and even his +appreciation, of racial differences, and whose manipulation of the +uncut volume was too often, however, but a listening at closed doors. +He reconstructed a possible groping Chad of three or four years before, +a Chad who had, after all, simply—for that was the only way to see +it—been too vulgar for his privilege. Surely it _was_ a privilege to +have been young and happy just there. Well, the best thing Strether +knew of him was that he had had such a dream. + +But his own actual business, half an hour later, was with a third floor +on the Boulevard Malesherbes—so much as that was definite; and the fact +of the enjoyment by the third-floor windows of a continuous balcony, to +which he was helped by this knowledge, had perhaps something to do with +his lingering for five minutes on the opposite side of the street. +There were points as to which he had quite made up his mind, and one of +these bore precisely on the wisdom of the abruptness to which events +had finally committed him, a policy that he was pleased to find not at +all shaken as he now looked at his watch and wondered. He _had_ +announced himself—six months before; had written out at least that Chad +wasn’t to be surprised should he see him some day turn up. Chad had +thereupon, in a few words of rather carefully colourless answer, +offered him a general welcome; and Strether, ruefully reflecting that +he might have understood the warning as a hint to hospitality, a bid +for an invitation, had fallen back upon silence as the corrective most +to his own taste. He had asked Mrs. Newsome moreover not to announce +him again; he had so distinct an opinion on his attacking his job, +should he attack it at all, in his own way. Not the least of this +lady’s high merits for him was that he could absolutely rest on her +word. She was the only woman he had known, even at Woollett, as to whom +his conviction was positive that to lie was beyond her art. Sarah +Pocock, for instance, her own daughter, though with social ideals, as +they said, in some respects different—Sarah who _was_, in her way, +æsthetic, had never refused to human commerce that mitigation of +rigour; there were occasions when he had distinctly seen her apply it. +Since, accordingly, at all events, he had had it from Mrs. Newsome that +she had, at whatever cost to her more strenuous view, conformed, in the +matter of preparing Chad, wholly to his restrictions, he now looked up +at the fine continuous balcony with a safe sense that if the case had +been bungled the mistake was at least his property. Was there perhaps +just a suspicion of that in his present pause on the edge of the +Boulevard and well in the pleasant light? + +Many things came over him here, and one of them was that he should +doubtless presently know whether he had been shallow or sharp. Another +was that the balcony in question didn’t somehow show as a convenience +easy to surrender. Poor Strether had at this very moment to recognise +the truth that wherever one paused in Paris the imagination reacted +before one could stop it. This perpetual reaction put a price, if one +would, on pauses; but it piled up consequences till there was scarce +room to pick one’s steps among them. What call had he, at such a +juncture, for example, to like Chad’s very house? High broad clear—he +was expert enough to make out in a moment that it was admirably +built—it fairly embarrassed our friend by the quality that, as he would +have said, it “sprang” on him. He had struck off the fancy that it +might, as a preliminary, be of service to him to be seen, by a happy +accident, from the third-story windows, which took all the March sun, +but of what service was it to find himself making out after a moment +that the quality “sprung,” the quality produced by measure and balance, +the fine relation of part to part and space to space, was +probably—aided by the presence of ornament as positive as it was +discreet, and by the complexion of the stone, a cold fair grey, warmed +and polished a little by life—neither more nor less than a case of +distinction, such a case as he could only feel unexpectedly as a sort +of delivered challenge? Meanwhile, however, the chance he had allowed +for—the chance of being seen in time from the balcony—had become a +fact. Two or three of the windows stood open to the violet air; and, +before Strether had cut the knot by crossing, a young man had come out +and looked about him, had lighted a cigarette and tossed the match +over, and then, resting on the rail, had given himself up to watching +the life below while he smoked. His arrival contributed, in its order, +to keeping Strether in position; the result of which in turn was that +Strether soon felt himself noticed. The young man began to look at him +as in acknowledgement of his being himself in observation. + +This was interesting so far as it went, but the interest was affected +by the young man’s not being Chad. Strether wondered at first if he +were perhaps Chad altered, and then saw that this was asking too much +of alteration. The young man was light bright and alert—with an air too +pleasant to have been arrived at by patching. Strether had conceived +Chad as patched, but not beyond recognition. He was in presence, he +felt, of amendments enough as they stood; it was a sufficient amendment +that the gentleman up there should be Chad’s friend. He was young too +then, the gentleman up there—he was very young; young enough apparently +to be amused at an elderly watcher, to be curious even to see what the +elderly watcher would do on finding himself watched. There was youth in +that, there was youth in the surrender to the balcony, there was youth +for Strether at this moment in everything but his own business; and +Chad’s thus pronounced association with youth had given the next +instant an extraordinary quick lift to the issue. The balcony, the +distinguished front, testified suddenly, for Strether’s fancy, to +something that was up and up; they placed the whole case materially, +and as by an admirable image, on a level that he found himself at the +end of another moment rejoicing to think he might reach. The young man +looked at him still, he looked at the young man; and the issue, by a +rapid process, was that this knowledge of a perched privacy appeared to +him the last of luxuries. To him too the perched privacy was open, and +he saw it now but in one light—that of the only domicile, the only +fireside, in the great ironic city, on which he had the shadow of a +claim. Miss Gostrey had a fireside; she had told him of it, and it was +something that doubtless awaited him; but Miss Gostrey hadn’t yet +arrived—she mightn’t arrive for days; and the sole attenuation of his +excluded state was his vision of the small, the admittedly secondary +hotel in the bye-street from the Rue de la Paix, in which her +solicitude for his purse had placed him, which affected him somehow as +all indoor chill, glass-roofed court and slippery staircase, and which, +by the same token, expressed the presence of Waymarsh even at times +when Waymarsh might have been certain to be round at the bank. It came +to pass before he moved that Waymarsh, and Waymarsh alone, Waymarsh not +only undiluted but positively strengthened, struck him as the present +alternative to the young man in the balcony. When he did move it was +fairly to escape that alternative. Taking his way over the street at +last and passing through the _porte-cochère_ of the house was like +consciously leaving Waymarsh out. However, he would tell him all about +it. + + + + +Book Third + + + I + +Strether told Waymarsh all about it that very evening, on their dining +together at the hotel; which needn’t have happened, he was all the +while aware, hadn’t he chosen to sacrifice to this occasion a rarer +opportunity. The mention to his companion of the sacrifice was moreover +exactly what introduced his recital—or, as he would have called it with +more confidence in his interlocutor, his confession. His confession was +that he had been captured and that one of the features of the affair +had just failed to be his engaging himself on the spot to dinner. As by +such a freedom Waymarsh would have lost him he had obeyed his scruple; +and he had likewise obeyed another scruple—which bore on the question +of his himself bringing a guest. + +Waymarsh looked gravely ardent, over the finished soup, at this array +of scruples; Strether hadn’t yet got quite used to being so unprepared +for the consequences of the impression he produced. It was +comparatively easy to explain, however, that he hadn’t felt sure his +guest would please. The person was a young man whose acquaintance he +had made but that afternoon in the course of rather a hindered enquiry +for another person—an enquiry his new friend had just prevented in fact +from being vain. “Oh,” said Strether, “I’ve all sorts of things to tell +you!”—and he put it in a way that was a virtual hint to Waymarsh to +help him to enjoy the telling. He waited for his fish, he drank of his +wine, he wiped his long moustache, he leaned back in his chair, he took +in the two English ladies who had just creaked past them and whom he +would even have articulately greeted if they hadn’t rather chilled the +impulse; so that all he could do was—by way of doing something—to say +“Merci, François!” out quite loud when his fish was brought. Everything +was there that he wanted, everything that could make the moment an +occasion, that would do beautifully—everything but what Waymarsh might +give. The little waxed salle-à-manger was sallow and sociable; +François, dancing over it, all smiles, was a man and a brother; the +high-shouldered patronne, with her high-held, much-rubbed hands, seemed +always assenting exuberantly to something unsaid; the Paris evening in +short was, for Strether, in the very taste of the soup, in the +goodness, as he was innocently pleased to think it, of the wine, in the +pleasant coarse texture of the napkin and the crunch of the +thick-crusted bread. These all were things congruous with his +confession, and his confession was that he _had_—it would come out +properly just there if Waymarsh would only take it properly—agreed to +breakfast out, at twelve literally, the next day. He didn’t quite know +where; the delicacy of the case came straight up in the remembrance of +his new friend’s “We’ll see; I’ll take you somewhere!”—for it had +required little more than that, after all, to let him right in. He was +affected after a minute, face to face with his actual comrade, by the +impulse to overcolour. There had already been things in respect to +which he knew himself tempted by this perversity. If Waymarsh thought +them bad he should at least have his reason for his discomfort; so +Strether showed them as worse. Still, he was now, in his way, sincerely +perplexed. + +Chad had been absent from the Boulevard Malesherbes—was absent from +Paris altogether; he had learned that from the concierge, but had +nevertheless gone up, and gone up—there were no two ways about it—from +an uncontrollable, a really, if one would, depraved curiosity. The +concierge had mentioned to him that a friend of the tenant of the +troisième was for the time in possession; and this had been Strether’s +pretext for a further enquiry, an experiment carried on, under Chad’s +roof, without his knowledge. “I found his friend in fact there keeping +the place warm, as he called it, for him; Chad himself being, as +appears, in the south. He went a month ago to Cannes and though his +return begins to be looked for it can’t be for some days. I might, you +see, perfectly have waited a week; might have beaten a retreat as soon +as I got this essential knowledge. But I beat no retreat; I did the +opposite; I stayed, I dawdled, I trifled; above all I looked round. I +saw, in fine; and—I don’t know what to call it—I sniffed. It’s a +detail, but it’s as if there were something—something very good—_to_ +sniff.” + +Waymarsh’s face had shown his friend an attention apparently so remote +that the latter was slightly surprised to find it at this point abreast +with him. “Do you mean a smell? What of?” + +“A charming scent. But I don’t know.” + +Waymarsh gave an inferential grunt. “Does he live there with a woman?” + +“I don’t know.” + +Waymarsh waited an instant for more, then resumed. “Has he taken her +off with him?” + +“And will he bring her back?”—Strether fell into the enquiry. But he +wound it up as before. “I don’t know.” + +The way he wound it up, accompanied as this was with another drop back, +another degustation of the Léoville, another wipe of his moustache and +another good word for François, seemed to produce in his companion a +slight irritation. “Then what the devil _do_ you know?” + +“Well,” said Strether almost gaily, “I guess I don’t know anything!” +His gaiety might have been a tribute to the fact that the state he had +been reduced to did for him again what had been done by his talk of the +matter with Miss Gostrey at the London theatre. It was somehow +enlarging; and the air of that amplitude was now doubtless more or +less—and all for Waymarsh to feel—in his further response. “That’s what +I found out from the young man.” + +“But I thought you said you found out nothing.” + +“Nothing but that—that I don’t know anything.” + +“And what good does that do you?” + +“It’s just,” said Strether, “what I’ve come to you to help me to +discover. I mean anything about anything over here. I _felt_ that, up +there. It regularly rose before me in its might. The young man +moreover—Chad’s friend—as good as told me so.” + +“As good as told you you know nothing about anything?” Waymarsh +appeared to look at some one who might have as good as told _him_. “How +old is he?” + +“Well, I guess not thirty.” + +“Yet you had to take that from him?” + +“Oh I took a good deal more—since, as I tell you, I took an invitation +to déjeuner.” + +“And are you _going_ to that unholy meal?” + +“If you’ll come with me. He wants you too, you know. I told him about +you. He gave me his card,” Strether pursued, “and his name’s rather +funny. It’s John Little Bilham, and he says his two surnames are, on +account of his being small, inevitably used together.” + +“Well,” Waymarsh asked with due detachment from these details, “what’s +he doing up there?” + +“His account of himself is that he’s ‘only a little artist-man.’ That +seemed to me perfectly to describe him. But he’s yet in the phase of +study; this, you know, is the great art-school—to pass a certain number +of years in which he came over. And he’s a great friend of Chad’s, and +occupying Chad’s rooms just now because they’re so pleasant. _He’s_ +very pleasant and curious too,” Strether added—“though he’s not from +Boston.” + +Waymarsh looked already rather sick of him. “Where _is_ he from?” + +Strether thought. “I don’t know that, either. But he’s ‘notoriously,’ +as he put it himself, not from Boston.” + +“Well,” Waymarsh moralised from dry depths, “every one can’t +notoriously _be_ from Boston. Why,” he continued, “is he curious?” + +“Perhaps just for _that_—for one thing! But really,” Strether added, +“for everything. When you meet him you’ll see.” + +“Oh I don’t want to meet him,” Waymarsh impatiently growled. “Why don’t +he go home?” + +Strether hesitated. “Well, because he likes it over here.” + +This appeared in particular more than Waymarsh could bear. “He ought +then to be ashamed of himself, and, as you admit that you think so too, +why drag him in?” + +Strether’s reply again took time. “Perhaps I do think so myself—though +I don’t quite yet admit it. I’m not a bit sure—it’s again one of the +things I want to find out. I liked him, and _can_ you like people—? But +no matter.” He pulled himself up. “There’s no doubt I want you to come +down on me and squash me.” + +Waymarsh helped himself to the next course, which, however proving not +the dish he had just noted as supplied to the English ladies, had the +effect of causing his imagination temporarily to wander. But it +presently broke out at a softer spot. “Have they got a handsome place +up there?” + +“Oh a charming place; full of beautiful and valuable things. I never +saw such a place”—and Strether’s thought went back to it. “For a little +artist-man—!” He could in fact scarce express it. + +But his companion, who appeared now to have a view, insisted. “Well?” + +“Well, life can hold nothing better. Besides, they’re things of which +he’s in charge.” + +“So that he does doorkeeper for your precious pair? Can life,” Waymarsh +enquired, “hold nothing better than _that?_” Then as Strether, silent, +seemed even yet to wonder, “Doesn’t he know what _she_ is?” he went on. + +“_I_ don’t know. I didn’t ask him. I couldn’t. It was impossible. You +wouldn’t either. Besides I didn’t want to. No more would you.” Strether +in short explained it at a stroke. “You can’t make out over here what +people do know.” + +“Then what did you come over for?” + +“Well, I suppose exactly to see for myself—without their aid.” + +“Then what do you want mine for?” + +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “you’re not one of _them!_ I do know what _you_ +know.” + +As, however, this last assertion caused Waymarsh again to look at him +hard—such being the latter’s doubt of its implications—he felt his +justification lame. Which was still more the case when Waymarsh +presently said: “Look here, Strether. Quit this.” + +Our friend smiled with a doubt of his own. “Do you mean my tone?” + +“No—damn your tone. I mean your nosing round. Quit the whole job. Let +them stew in their juice. You’re being used for a thing you ain’t fit +for. People don’t take a fine-tooth comb to groom a horse.” + +“Am I a fine-tooth comb?” Strether laughed. “It’s something I never +called myself!” + +“It’s what you are, all the same. You ain’t so young as you were, but +you’ve kept your teeth.” + +He acknowledged his friend’s humour. “Take care I don’t get them into +_you!_ You’d like them, my friends at home, Waymarsh,” he declared; +“you’d really particularly like them. And I know”—it was slightly +irrelevant, but he gave it sudden and singular force—“I know they’d +like you!” + +“Oh don’t work them off on _me!_” Waymarsh groaned. + +Yet Strether still lingered with his hands in his pockets. “It’s really +quite as indispensable as I say that Chad should be got back.” + +“Indispensable to whom? To you?” + +“Yes,” Strether presently said. + +“Because if you get him you also get Mrs. Newsome?” + +Strether faced it. “Yes.” + +“And if you don’t get him you don’t get her?” + +It might be merciless, but he continued not to flinch. “I think it +might have some effect on our personal understanding. Chad’s of real +importance—or can easily become so if he will—to the business.” + +“And the business is of real importance to his mother’s husband?” + +“Well, I naturally want what my future wife wants. And the thing will +be much better if we have our own man in it.” + +“If you have your own man in it, in other words,” Waymarsh said, +“you’ll marry—you personally—more money. She’s already rich, as I +understand you, but she’ll be richer still if the business can be made +to boom on certain lines that you’ve laid down.” + +“_I_ haven’t laid them down,” Strether promptly returned. “Mr. +Newsome—who knew extraordinarily well what he was about—laid them down +ten years ago.” + +Oh well, Waymarsh seemed to indicate with a shake of his mane, _that_ +didn’t matter! “You’re fierce for the boom anyway.” + +His friend weighed a moment in silence the justice of the charge. “I +can scarcely be called fierce, I think, when I so freely take my chance +of the possibility, the danger, of being influenced in a sense counter +to Mrs. Newsome’s own feelings.” + +Waymarsh gave this proposition a long hard look. “I see. You’re afraid +yourself of being squared. But you’re a humbug,” he added, “all the +same.” + +“Oh!” Strether quickly protested. + +“Yes, you ask me for protection—which makes you very interesting; and +then you won’t take it. You say you want to be squashed—” + +“Ah but not so easily! Don’t you see,” Strether demanded “where my +interest, as already shown you, lies? It lies in my not being squared. +If I’m squared where’s my marriage? If I miss my errand I miss that; +and if I miss that I miss everything—I’m nowhere.” + +Waymarsh—but all relentlessly—took this in. “What do I care where you +are if you’re spoiled?” + +Their eyes met on it an instant. “Thank you awfully,” Strether at last +said. “But don’t you think _her_ judgement of that—?” + +“Ought to content me? No.” + +It kept them again face to face, and the end of this was that Strether +again laughed. “You do her injustice. You really _must_ know her. +Good-night.” + +He breakfasted with Mr. Bilham on the morrow, and, as inconsequently +befell, with Waymarsh massively of the party. The latter announced, at +the eleventh hour and much to his friend’s surprise, that, damn it, he +would as soon join him as do anything else; on which they proceeded +together, strolling in a state of detachment practically luxurious for +them to the Boulevard Malesherbes, a couple engaged that day with the +sharp spell of Paris as confessedly, it might have been seen, as any +couple among the daily thousands so compromised. They walked, wandered, +wondered and, a little, lost themselves; Strether hadn’t had for years +so rich a consciousness of time—a bag of gold into which he constantly +dipped for a handful. It was present to him that when the little +business with Mr. Bilham should be over he would still have shining +hours to use absolutely as he liked. There was no great pulse of haste +yet in this process of saving Chad; nor was that effect a bit more +marked as he sat, half an hour later, with his legs under Chad’s +mahogany, with Mr. Bilham on one side, with a friend of Mr. Bilham’s on +the other, with Waymarsh stupendously opposite, and with the great hum +of Paris coming up in softness, vagueness—for Strether himself indeed +already positive sweetness—through the sunny windows toward which, the +day before, his curiosity had raised its wings from below. The feeling +strongest with him at that moment had borne fruit almost faster than he +could taste it, and Strether literally felt at the present hour that +there was a precipitation in his fate. He had known nothing and nobody +as he stood in the street; but hadn’t his view now taken a bound in the +direction of every one and of every thing? + +“What’s he up to, what’s he up to?”—something like that was at the back +of his head all the while in respect to little Bilham; but meanwhile, +till he should make out, every one and every thing were as good as +represented for him by the combination of his host and the lady on his +left. The lady on his left, the lady thus promptly and ingeniously +invited to “meet” Mr. Strether and Mr. Waymarsh—it was the way she +herself expressed her case—was a very marked person, a person who had +much to do with our friend’s asking himself if the occasion weren’t in +its essence the most baited, the most gilded of traps. Baited it could +properly be called when the repast was of so wise a savour, and gilded +surrounding objects seemed inevitably to need to be when Miss +Barrace—which was the lady’s name—looked at them with convex Parisian +eyes and through a glass with a remarkably long tortoise-shell handle. +Why Miss Barrace, mature meagre erect and eminently gay, highly +adorned, perfectly familiar, freely contradictious and reminding him of +some last-century portrait of a clever head without powder—why Miss +Barrace should have been in particular the note of a “trap” Strether +couldn’t on the spot have explained; he blinked in the light of a +conviction that he should know later on, and know well—as it came over +him, for that matter, with force, that he should need to. He wondered +what he was to think exactly of either of his new friends; since the +young man, Chad’s intimate and deputy, had, in thus constituting the +scene, practised so much more subtly than he had been prepared for, and +since in especial Miss Barrace, surrounded clearly by every +consideration, hadn’t scrupled to figure as a familiar object. It was +interesting to him to feel that he was in the presence of new measures, +other standards, a different scale of relations, and that evidently +here were a happy pair who didn’t think of things at all as he and +Waymarsh thought. Nothing was less to have been calculated in the +business than that it should now be for him as if he and Waymarsh were +comparatively quite at one. + +The latter was magnificent—this at least was an assurance privately +given him by Miss Barrace. “Oh your friend’s a type, the grand old +American—what shall one call it? The Hebrew prophet, Ezekiel, Jeremiah, +who used when I was a little girl in the Rue Montaigne to come to see +my father and who was usually the American Minister to the Tuileries or +some other court. I haven’t seen one these ever so many years; the +sight of it warms my poor old chilled heart; this specimen is +wonderful; in the right quarter, you know, he’ll have a _succès fou_.” +Strether hadn’t failed to ask what the right quarter might be, much as +he required his presence of mind to meet such a change in their scheme. +“Oh the artist-quarter and that kind of thing; _here_ already, for +instance, as you see.” He had been on the point of echoing “‘Here’?—is +_this_ the artist-quarter?” but she had already disposed of the +question with a wave of all her tortoise-shell and an easy “Bring him +to _me!_” He knew on the spot how little he should be able to bring +him, for the very air was by this time, to his sense, thick and hot +with poor Waymarsh’s judgement of it. He was in the trap still more +than his companion and, unlike his companion, not making the best of +it; which was precisely what doubtless gave him his admirable sombre +glow. Little did Miss Barrace know that what was behind it was his +grave estimate of her own laxity. The general assumption with which our +two friends had arrived had been that of finding Mr. Bilham ready to +conduct them to one or other of those resorts of the earnest, the +æsthetic fraternity which were shown among the sights of Paris. In this +character it would have justified them in a proper insistence on +discharging their score. Waymarsh’s only proviso at the last had been +that nobody should pay for him; but he found himself, as the occasion +developed, paid for on a scale as to which Strether privately made out +that he already nursed retribution. Strether was conscious across the +table of what worked in him, conscious when they passed back to the +small salon to which, the previous evening, he himself had made so rich +a reference; conscious most of all as they stepped out to the balcony +in which one would have had to be an ogre not to recognise the perfect +place for easy aftertastes. These things were enhanced for Miss Barrace +by a succession of excellent cigarettes—acknowledged, acclaimed, as a +part of the wonderful supply left behind him by Chad—in an almost equal +absorption of which Strether found himself blindly, almost wildly +pushing forward. He might perish by the sword as well as by famine, and +he knew that his having abetted the lady by an excess that was rare +with him would count for little in the sum—as Waymarsh might so easily +add it up—of her licence. Waymarsh had smoked of old, smoked hugely; +but Waymarsh did nothing now, and that gave him his advantage over +people who took things up lightly just when others had laid them +heavily down. Strether had never smoked, and he felt as if he flaunted +at his friend that this had been only because of a reason. The reason, +it now began to appear even to himself, was that he had never had a +lady to smoke with. + +It was this lady’s being there at all, however, that was the strange +free thing; perhaps, since she _was_ there, her smoking was the least +of her freedoms. If Strether had been sure at each juncture of +what—with Bilham in especial—she talked about, he might have traced +others and winced at them and felt Waymarsh wince; but he was in fact +so often at sea that his sense of the range of reference was merely +general and that he on several different occasions guessed and +interpreted only to doubt. He wondered what they meant, but there were +things he scarce thought they could be supposed to mean, and “Oh no—not +_that!_” was at the end of most of his ventures. This was the very +beginning with him of a condition as to which, later on, it will be +seen, he found cause to pull himself up; and he was to remember the +moment duly as the first step in a process. The central fact of the +place was neither more nor less, when analysed—and a pressure +superficial sufficed—than the fundamental impropriety of Chad’s +situation, round about which they thus seemed cynically clustered. +Accordingly, since they took it for granted, they took for granted all +that was in connexion with it taken for granted at Woollett—matters as +to which, verily, he had been reduced with Mrs. Newsome to the last +intensity of silence. That was the consequence of their being too bad +to be talked about, and was the accompaniment, by the same token, of a +deep conception of their badness. It befell therefore that when poor +Strether put it to himself that their badness was ultimately, or +perhaps even insolently, what such a scene as the one before him was, +so to speak, built upon, he could scarce shirk the dilemma of reading a +roundabout echo of them into almost anything that came up. This, he was +well aware, was a dreadful necessity; but such was the stern logic, he +could only gather, of a relation to the irregular life. + +It was the way the irregular life sat upon Bilham and Miss Barrace that +was the insidious, the delicate marvel. He was eager to concede that +their relation to it was all indirect, for anything else in him would +have shown the grossness of bad manners; but the indirectness was none +the less consonant—_that_ was striking—with a grateful enjoyment of +everything that was Chad’s. They spoke of him repeatedly, invoking his +good name and good nature, and the worst confusion of mind for Strether +was that all their mention of him was of a kind to do him honour. They +commended his munificence and approved his taste, and in doing so sat +down, as it seemed to Strether, in the very soil out of which these +things flowered. Our friend’s final predicament was that he himself was +sitting down, for the time, _with_ them, and there was a supreme moment +at which, compared with his collapse, Waymarsh’s erectness affected him +as really high. One thing was certain—he saw he must make up his mind. +He must approach Chad, must wait for him, deal with him, master him, +but he mustn’t dispossess himself of the faculty of seeing things as +they were. He must bring him to _him_—not go himself, as it were, so +much of the way. He must at any rate be clearer as to what—should he +continue to do that for convenience—he was still condoning. It was on +the detail of this quantity—and what could the fact be but +mystifying?—that Bilham and Miss Barrace threw so little light. So +there they were. + + + II + +When Miss Gostrey arrived, at the end of a week, she made him a sign; +he went immediately to see her, and it wasn’t till then that he could +again close his grasp on the idea of a corrective. This idea however +was luckily all before him again from the moment he crossed the +threshold of the little entresol of the Quartier Marbœuf into which she +had gathered, as she said, picking them up in a thousand flights and +funny little passionate pounces, the makings of a final nest. He +recognised in an instant that there really, there only, he should find +the boon with the vision of which he had first mounted Chad’s stairs. +He might have been a little scared at the picture of how much more, in +this place, he should know himself “in” hadn’t his friend been on the +spot to measure the amount to his appetite. Her compact and crowded +little chambers, almost dusky, as they at first struck him, with +accumulations, represented a supreme general adjustment to +opportunities and conditions. Wherever he looked he saw an old ivory or +an old brocade, and he scarce knew where to sit for fear of a +misappliance. The life of the occupant struck him of a sudden as more +charged with possession even than Chad’s or than Miss Barrace’s; wide +as his glimpse had lately become of the empire of “things,” what was +before him still enlarged it; the lust of the eyes and the pride of +life had indeed thus their temple. It was the innermost nook of the +shrine—as brown as a pirate’s cave. In the brownness were glints of +gold; patches of purple were in the gloom; objects all that caught, +through the muslin, with their high rarity, the light of the low +windows. Nothing was clear about them but that they were precious, and +they brushed his ignorance with their contempt as a flower, in a +liberty taken with him, might have been whisked under his nose. But +after a full look at his hostess he knew none the less what most +concerned him. The circle in which they stood together was warm with +life, and every question between them would live there as nowhere else. +A question came up as soon as they had spoken, for his answer, with a +laugh, was quickly: “Well, they’ve got hold of me!” Much of their talk +on this first occasion was his development of that truth. He was +extraordinarily glad to see her, expressing to her frankly what she +most showed him, that one might live for years without a blessing +unsuspected, but that to know it at last for no more than three days +was to need it or miss it for ever. She was the blessing that had now +become his need, and what could prove it better than that without her +he had lost himself? + +“What do you mean?” she asked with an absence of alarm that, correcting +him as if he had mistaken the “period” of one of her pieces, gave him +afresh a sense of her easy movement through the maze he had but begun +to tread. “What in the name of all the Pococks have you managed to do?” + +“Why exactly the wrong thing. I’ve made a frantic friend of little +Bilham.” + +“Ah that sort of thing was of the essence of your case and to have been +allowed for from the first.” And it was only after this that, quite as +a minor matter, she asked who in the world little Bilham might be. When +she learned that he was a friend of Chad’s and living for the time in +Chad’s rooms in Chad’s absence, quite as if acting in Chad’s spirit and +serving Chad’s cause, she showed, however, more interest. “Should you +mind my seeing him? Only once, you know,” she added. + +“Oh the oftener the better: he’s amusing—he’s original.” + +“He doesn’t shock you?” Miss Gostrey threw out. + +“Never in the world! We escape that with a perfection—! I feel it to be +largely, no doubt, because I don’t half-understand him; but our _modus +vivendi_ isn’t spoiled even by that. You must dine with me to meet +him,” Strether went on. “Then you’ll see.’ + +“Are you giving dinners?” + +“Yes—there I am. That’s what I mean.” + +All her kindness wondered. “That you’re spending too much money?” + +“Dear no—they seem to cost so little. But that I do it to _them_. I +ought to hold off.” + +She thought again—she laughed. “The money you must be spending to think +it cheap! But I must be out of it—to the naked eye.” + +He looked for a moment as if she were really failing him. “Then you +won’t meet them?” It was almost as if she had developed an unexpected +personal prudence. + +She hesitated. “Who are they—first?” + +“Why little Bilham to begin with.” He kept back for the moment Miss +Barrace. “And Chad—when he comes—you must absolutely see.” + +“When then does he come?” + +“When Bilham has had time to write him, and hear from him about me. +Bilham, however,” he pursued, “will report favourably—favourably for +Chad. That will make him not afraid to come. I want you the more +therefore, you see, for my bluff.” + +“Oh you’ll do yourself for your bluff.” She was perfectly easy. “At the +rate you’ve gone I’m quiet.” + +“Ah but I haven’t,” said Strether, “made one protest.” + +She turned it over. “Haven’t you been seeing what there’s to protest +about?” + +He let her, with this, however ruefully, have the whole truth. “I +haven’t yet found a single thing.” + +“Isn’t there any one _with_ him then?” + +“Of the sort I came out about?” Strether took a moment. “How do I know? +And what do I care?” + +“Oh oh!”—and her laughter spread. He was struck in fact by the effect +on her of his joke. He saw now how he meant it as a joke. _She_ saw, +however, still other things, though in an instant she had hidden them. +“You’ve got at no facts at all?” + +He tried to muster them. “Well, he has a lovely home.” + +“Ah that, in Paris,” she quickly returned, “proves nothing. That is +rather it _dis_proves nothing. They may very well, you see, the people +your mission is concerned with, have done it _for_ him.” + +“Exactly. And it was on the scene of their doings then that Waymarsh +and I sat guzzling.” + +“Oh if you forbore to guzzle here on scenes of doings,” she replied, +“you might easily die of starvation.” With which she smiled at him. +“You’ve worse before you.” + +“Ah I’ve _everything_ before me. But on our hypothesis, you know, they +must be wonderful.” + +“They _are!_” said Miss Gostrey. “You’re not therefore, you see,” she +added, “wholly without facts. They’ve _been_, in effect, wonderful.” + +To have got at something comparatively definite appeared at last a +little to help—a wave by which moreover, the next moment, recollection +was washed. “My young man does admit furthermore that they’re our +friend’s great interest.” + +“Is that the expression he uses?” + +Strether more exactly recalled. “No—not quite.” + +“Something more vivid? Less?” + +He had bent, with neared glasses, over a group of articles on a small +stand; and at this he came up. “It was a mere allusion, but, on the +lookout as I was, it struck me. ‘Awful, you know, as Chad is’—those +were Bilham’s words.” + +“‘Awful, you know’—? Oh!”—and Miss Gostrey turned them over. She +seemed, however, satisfied. “Well, what more do you want?” + +He glanced once more at a bibelot or two, and everything sent him back. +“But it _is_ all the same as if they wished to let me have it between +the eyes.” + +She wondered. “Quoi donc?” + +“Why what I speak of. The amenity. They can stun you with that as well +as with anything else.” + +“Oh,” she answered, “you’ll come round! I must see them each,” she went +on, “for myself. I mean Mr. Bilham and Mr. Newsome—Mr. Bilham naturally +first. Once only—once for each; that will do. But face to face—for half +an hour. What’s Mr. Chad,” she immediately pursued, “doing at Cannes? +Decent men don’t go to Cannes with the—well, with the kind of ladies +you mean.” + +“Don’t they?” Strether asked with an interest in decent men that amused +her. + +“No, elsewhere, but not to Cannes. Cannes is different. Cannes is +better. Cannes is best. I mean it’s all people you know—when you do +know them. And if _he_ does, why that’s different too. He must have +gone alone. She can’t be with him.” + +“I haven’t,” Strether confessed in his weakness, “the least idea.” +There seemed much in what she said, but he was able after a little to +help her to a nearer impression. The meeting with little Bilham took +place, by easy arrangement, in the great gallery of the Louvre; and +when, standing with his fellow visitor before one of the splendid +Titians—the overwhelming portrait of the young man with the +strangely-shaped glove and the blue-grey eyes—he turned to see the +third member of their party advance from the end of the waxed and +gilded vista, he had a sense of having at last taken hold. He had +agreed with Miss Gostrey—it dated even from Chester—for a morning at +the Louvre, and he had embraced independently the same idea as thrown +out by little Bilham, whom he had already accompanied to the museum of +the Luxembourg. The fusion of these schemes presented no difficulty, +and it was to strike him again that in little Bilham’s company +contrarieties in general dropped. + +“Oh he’s all right—he’s one of _us!_” Miss Gostrey, after the first +exchange, soon found a chance to murmur to her companion; and Strether, +as they proceeded and paused and while a quick unanimity between the +two appeared to have phrased itself in half a dozen remarks—Strether +knew that he knew almost immediately what she meant, and took it as +still another sign that he had got his job in hand. This was the more +grateful to him that he could think of the intelligence now serving him +as an acquisition positively new. He wouldn’t have known even the day +before what she meant—that is if she meant, what he assumed, that they +were intense Americans together. He had just worked round—and with a +sharper turn of the screw than any yet—to the conception of an American +intense as little Bilham was intense. The young man was his first +specimen; the specimen had profoundly perplexed him; at present however +there was light. It was by little Bilham’s amazing serenity that he had +at first been affected, but he had inevitably, in his circumspection, +felt it as the trail of the serpent, the corruption, as he might +conveniently have said, of Europe; whereas the promptness with which it +came up for Miss Gostrey but as a special little form of the oldest +thing they knew justified it at once to his own vision as well. He +wanted to be able to like his specimen with a clear good conscience, +and this fully permitted it. What had muddled him was precisely the +small artist-man’s way—it was so complete—of being more American than +anybody. But it now for the time put Strether vastly at his ease to +have this view of a new way. + +The amiable youth then looked out, as it had first struck Strether, at +a world in respect to which he hadn’t a prejudice. The one our friend +most instantly missed was the usual one in favour of an occupation +accepted. Little Bilham had an occupation, but it was only an +occupation declined; and it was by his general exemption from alarm, +anxiety or remorse on this score that the impression of his serenity +was made. He had come out to Paris to paint—to fathom, that is, at +large, that mystery; but study had been fatal to him so far as anything +_could_ be fatal, and his productive power faltered in proportion as +his knowledge grew. Strether had gathered from him that at the moment +of his finding him in Chad’s rooms he hadn’t saved from his shipwreck a +scrap of anything but his beautiful intelligence and his confirmed +habit of Paris. He referred to these things with an equal fond +familiarity, and it was sufficiently clear that, as an outfit, they +still served him. They were charming to Strether through the hour spent +at the Louvre, where indeed they figured for him as an unseparated part +of the charged iridescent air, the glamour of the name, the splendour +of the space, the colour of the masters. Yet they were present too +wherever the young man led, and the day after the visit to the Louvre +they hung, in a different walk, about the steps of our party. He had +invited his companions to cross the river with him, offering to show +them his own poor place; and his own poor place, which was very poor, +gave to his idiosyncrasies, for Strether—the small sublime indifference +and independences that had struck the latter as fresh—an odd and +engaging dignity. He lived at the end of an alley that went out of an +old short cobbled street, a street that went in turn out of a new long +smooth avenue—street and avenue and alley having, however, in common a +sort of social shabbiness; and he introduced them to the rather cold +and blank little studio which he had lent to a comrade for the term of +his elegant absence. The comrade was another ingenuous compatriot, to +whom he had wired that tea was to await them “regardless,” and this +reckless repast, and the second ingenuous compatriot, and the faraway +makeshift life, with its jokes and its gaps, its delicate daubs and its +three or four chairs, its overflow of taste and conviction and its lack +of nearly all else—these things wove round the occasion a spell to +which our hero unreservedly surrendered. + +He liked the ingenuous compatriots—for two or three others soon +gathered; he liked the delicate daubs and the free +discriminations—involving references indeed, involving enthusiasms and +execrations that made him, as they said, sit up; he liked above all the +legend of good-humoured poverty, of mutual accommodation fairly raised +to the romantic, that he soon read into the scene. The ingenuous +compatriots showed a candour, he thought, surpassing even the candour +of Woollett; they were red-haired and long-legged, they were quaint and +queer and dear and droll; they made the place resound with the +vernacular, which he had never known so marked as when figuring for the +chosen language, he must suppose, of contemporary art. They twanged +with a vengeance the æsthetic lyre—they drew from it wonderful airs. +This aspect of their life had an admirable innocence; and he looked on +occasion at Maria Gostrey to see to what extent that element reached +her. She gave him however for the hour, as she had given him the +previous day, no further sign than to show how she dealt with boys; +meeting them with the air of old Parisian practice that she had for +every one, for everything, in turn. Wonderful about the delicate daubs, +masterful about the way to make tea, trustful about the legs of chairs +and familiarly reminiscent of those, in the other time, the named, the +numbered or the caricatured, who had flourished or failed, disappeared +or arrived, she had accepted with the best grace her second course of +little Bilham, and had said to Strether, the previous afternoon on his +leaving them, that, since her impression was to be renewed, she would +reserve judgement till after the new evidence. + +The new evidence was to come, as it proved, in a day or two. He soon +had from Maria a message to the effect that an excellent box at the +Français had been lent her for the following night; it seeming on such +occasions not the least of her merits that she was subject to such +approaches. The sense of how she was always paying for something in +advance was equalled on Strether’s part only by the sense of how she +was always being paid; all of which made for his consciousness, in the +larger air, of a lively bustling traffic, the exchange of such values +as were not for him to handle. She hated, he knew, at the French play, +anything but a box—just as she hated at the English anything but a +stall; and a box was what he was already in this phase girding himself +to press upon her. But she had for that matter her community with +little Bilham: she too always, on the great issues, showed as having +known in time. It made her constantly beforehand with him and gave him +mainly the chance to ask himself how on the day of their settlement +their account would stand. He endeavoured even now to keep it a little +straight by arranging that if he accepted her invitation she should +dine with him first; but the upshot of this scruple was that at eight +o’clock on the morrow he awaited her with Waymarsh under the pillared +portico. She hadn’t dined with him, and it was characteristic of their +relation that she had made him embrace her refusal without in the least +understanding it. She ever caused her rearrangements to affect him as +her tenderest touches. It was on that principle for instance that, +giving him the opportunity to be amiable again to little Bilham, she +had suggested his offering the young man a seat in their box. Strether +had dispatched for this purpose a small blue missive to the Boulevard +Malesherbes, but up to the moment of their passing into the theatre he +had received no response to his message. He held, however, even after +they had been for some time conveniently seated, that their friend, who +knew his way about, would come in at his own right moment. His +temporary absence moreover seemed, as never yet, to make the right +moment for Miss Gostrey. Strether had been waiting till tonight to get +back from her in some mirrored form her impressions and conclusions. +She had elected, as they said, to see little Bilham once; but now she +had seen him twice and had nevertheless not said more than a word. + +Waymarsh meanwhile sat opposite him with their hostess between; and +Miss Gostrey spoke of herself as an instructor of youth introducing her +little charges to a work that was one of the glories of literature. The +glory was happily unobjectionable, and the little charges were candid; +for herself she had travelled that road and she merely waited on their +innocence. But she referred in due time to their absent friend, whom it +was clear they should have to give up. “He either won’t have got your +note,” she said, “or you won’t have got his: he has had some kind of +hindrance, and, of course, for that matter, you know, a man never +writes about coming to a box.” She spoke as if, with her look, it might +have been Waymarsh who had written to the youth, and the latter’s face +showed a mixture of austerity and anguish. She went on however as if to +meet this. “He’s far and away, you know, the best of them.” + +“The best of whom, ma’am?” + +“Why of all the long procession—the boys, the girls, or the old men and +old women as they sometimes really are; the hope, as one may say, of +our country. They’ve all passed, year after year; but there has been no +one in particular I’ve ever wanted to stop. I feel—don’t _you?_—that I +want to stop little Bilham; he’s so exactly right as he is.” She +continued to talk to Waymarsh. “He’s too delightful. If he’ll only not +spoil it! But they always _will_; they always do; they always have.” + +“I don’t think Waymarsh knows,” Strether said after a moment, “quite +what it’s open to Bilham to spoil.” + +“It can’t be a good American,” Waymarsh lucidly enough replied; “for it +didn’t strike me the young man had developed much in _that_ shape.” + +“Ah,” Miss Gostrey sighed, “the name of the good American is as easily +given as taken away! What _is_ it, to begin with, to _be_ one, and +what’s the extraordinary hurry? Surely nothing that’s so pressing was +ever so little defined. It’s such an order, really, that before we cook +you the dish we must at least have your receipt. Besides the poor +chicks have time! What I’ve seen so often spoiled,” she pursued, “is +the happy attitude itself, the state of faith and—what shall I call +it?—the sense of beauty. You’re right about him”—she now took in +Strether; “little Bilham has them to a charm, we must keep little +Bilham along.” Then she was all again for Waymarsh. “The others have +all wanted so dreadfully to do something, and they’ve gone and done it +in too many cases indeed. It leaves them never the same afterwards; the +charm’s always somehow broken. Now _he_, I think, you know, really +won’t. He won’t do the least dreadful little thing. We shall continue +to enjoy him just as he is. No—he’s quite beautiful. He sees +everything. He isn’t a bit ashamed. He has every scrap of the courage +of it that one could ask. Only think what he _might_ do. One wants +really—for fear of some accident—to keep him in view. At this very +moment perhaps what mayn’t he be up to? I’ve had my disappointments—the +poor things are never really safe; or only at least when you have them +under your eye. One can never completely trust them. One’s uneasy, and +I think that’s why I most miss him now.” + +She had wound up with a laugh of enjoyment over her embroidery of her +idea—an enjoyment that her face communicated to Strether, who almost +wished none the less at this moment that she would let poor Waymarsh +alone. _He_ knew more or less what she meant; but the fact wasn’t a +reason for her not pretending to Waymarsh that he didn’t. It was craven +of him perhaps, but he would, for the high amenity of the occasion, +have liked Waymarsh not to be so sure of his wit. Her recognition of it +gave him away and, before she had done with him or with that article, +would give him worse. What was he, all the same, to do? He looked +across the box at his friend; their eyes met; something queer and +stiff, something that bore on the situation but that it was better not +to touch, passed in silence between them. Well, the effect of it for +Strether was an abrupt reaction, a final impatience of his own tendency +to temporise. Where was that taking him anyway? It was one of the quiet +instants that sometimes settle more matters than the outbreaks dear to +the historic muse. The only qualification of the quietness was the +synthetic “Oh hang it!” into which Strether’s share of the silence +soundlessly flowered. It represented, this mute ejaculation, a final +impulse to burn his ships. These ships, to the historic muse, may seem +of course mere cockles, but when he presently spoke to Miss Gostrey it +was with the sense at least of applying the torch. “Is it then a +conspiracy?” + +“Between the two young men? Well, I don’t pretend to be a seer or a +prophetess,” she presently replied; “but if I’m simply a woman of sense +he’s working for you to-night. I don’t quite know how—but it’s in my +bones.” And she looked at him at last as if, little material as she yet +gave him, he’d really understand. “For an opinion _that’s_ my opinion. +He makes you out too well not to.” + +“Not to work for me to-night?” Strether wondered. “Then I hope he isn’t +doing anything very bad.” + +“They’ve got you,” she portentously answered. + +“Do you mean he _is_—?” + +“They’ve got you,” she merely repeated. Though she disclaimed the +prophetic vision she was at this instant the nearest approach he had +ever met to the priestess of the oracle. The light was in her eyes. +“You must face it now.” + +He faced it on the spot. “They _had_ arranged—?” + +“Every move in the game. And they’ve been arranging ever since. He has +had every day his little telegram from Cannes.” + +It made Strether open his eyes. “Do you _know_ that?” + +“I do better. I see it. This was, before I met him, what I wondered +whether I _was_ to see. But as soon as I met him I ceased to wonder, +and our second meeting made me sure. I took him all in. He was +acting—he is still—on his daily instructions.” + +“So that Chad has done the whole thing?” + +“Oh no—not the whole. _We’ve_ done some of it. You and I and ‘Europe.’” + +“Europe—yes,” Strether mused. + +“Dear old Paris,” she seemed to explain. But there was more, and, with +one of her turns, she risked it. “And dear old Waymarsh. You,” she +declared, “have been a good bit of it.” + +He sat massive. “A good bit of what, ma’am?” + +“Why of the wonderful consciousness of our friend here. You’ve helped +too in your way to float him to where he is.” + +“And where the devil _is_ he?” + +She passed it on with a laugh. “Where the devil, Strether, are you?” + +He spoke as if he had just been thinking it out. “Well, quite already +in Chad’s hands, it would seem.” And he had had with this another +thought. “Will that be—just all through Bilham—the way he’s going to +work it? It would be, for him, you know, an idea. And Chad with an +idea—!” + +“Well?” she asked while the image held him. + +“Well, is Chad—what shall I say?—monstrous?” + +“Oh as much as you like! But the idea you speak of,” she said, “won’t +have been his best. He’ll have a better. It won’t be all through little +Bilham that he’ll work it.” + +This already sounded almost like a hope destroyed. “Through whom else +then?” + +“That’s what we shall see!” But quite as she spoke she turned, and +Strether turned; for the door of the box had opened, with the click of +the _ouvreuse_, from the lobby, and a gentleman, a stranger to them, +had come in with a quick step. The door closed behind him, and, though +their faces showed him his mistake, his air, which was striking, was +all good confidence. The curtain had just again arisen, and, in the +hush of the general attention, Strether’s challenge was tacit, as was +also the greeting, with a quickly deprecating hand and smile, of the +unannounced visitor. He discreetly signed that he would wait, would +stand, and these things and his face, one look from which she had +caught, had suddenly worked for Miss Gostrey. She fitted to them all an +answer for Strether’s last question. The solid stranger was simply the +answer—as she now, turning to her friend, indicated. She brought it +straight out for him—it presented the intruder. “Why, through this +gentleman!” The gentleman indeed, at the same time, though sounding for +Strether a very short name, did practically as much to explain. +Strether gasped the name back—then only had he seen Miss Gostrey had +said more than she knew. They were in presence of Chad himself. + +Our friend was to go over it afterwards again and again—he was going +over it much of the time that they were together, and they were +together constantly for three or four days: the note had been so +strongly struck during that first half-hour that everything happening +since was comparatively a minor development. The fact was that his +perception of the young man’s identity—so absolutely checked for a +minute—had been quite one of the sensations that count in life; he +certainly had never known one that had acted, as he might have said, +with more of a crowded rush. And the rush though both vague and +multitudinous, had lasted a long time, protected, as it were, yet at +the same time aggravated, by the circumstance of its coinciding with a +stretch of decorous silence. They couldn’t talk without disturbing the +spectators in the part of the balcony just below them; and it, for that +matter, came to Strether—being a thing of the sort that did come to +him—that these were the accidents of a high civilisation; the imposed +tribute to propriety, the frequent exposure to conditions, usually +brilliant, in which relief has to await its time. Relief was never +quite near at hand for kings, queens, comedians and other such people, +and though you might be yourself not exactly one of those, you could +yet, in leading the life of high pressure, guess a little how they +sometimes felt. It was truly the life of high pressure that Strether +had seemed to feel himself lead while he sat there, close to Chad, +during the long tension of the act. He was in presence of a fact that +occupied his whole mind, that occupied for the half-hour his senses +themselves all together; but he couldn’t without inconvenience show +anything—which moreover might count really as luck. What he might have +shown, had he shown at all, was exactly the kind of emotion—the emotion +of bewilderment—that he had proposed to himself from the first, +whatever should occur, to show least. The phenomenon that had suddenly +sat down there with him was a phenomenon of change so complete that his +imagination, which had worked so beforehand, felt itself, in the +connexion, without margin or allowance. It had faced every contingency +but that Chad should not _be_ Chad, and this was what it now had to +face with a mere strained smile and an uncomfortable flush. + +He asked himself if, by any chance, before he should have in some way +to commit himself, he might feel his mind settled to the new vision, +might habituate it, so to speak, to the remarkable truth. But oh it was +too remarkable, the truth; for what could be more remarkable than this +sharp rupture of an identity? You could deal with a man as himself—you +couldn’t deal with him as somebody else. It was a small source of peace +moreover to be reduced to wondering how little he might know in such an +event what a sum he was setting you. He couldn’t absolutely not know, +for you couldn’t absolutely not let him. It was a _case_ then simply, a +strong case, as people nowadays called such things, a case of +transformation unsurpassed, and the hope was but in the general law +that strong cases were liable to control from without. Perhaps he, +Strether himself, was the only person after all aware of it. Even Miss +Gostrey, with all her science, wouldn’t be, would she?—and he had never +seen any one less aware of anything than Waymarsh as he glowered at +Chad. The social sightlessness of his old friend’s survey marked for +him afresh, and almost in an humiliating way, the inevitable limits of +direct aid from this source. He was not certain, however, of not +drawing a shade of compensation from the privilege, as yet untasted, of +knowing more about something in particular than Miss Gostrey did. His +situation too was a case, for that matter, and he was now so +interested, quite so privately agog, about it, that he had already an +eye to the fun it would be to open up to her afterwards. He derived +during his half-hour no assistance from her, and just this fact of her +not meeting his eyes played a little, it must be confessed, into his +predicament. + +He had introduced Chad, in the first minutes, under his breath, and +there was never the primness in her of the person unacquainted; but she +had none the less betrayed at first no vision but of the stage, where +she occasionally found a pretext for an appreciative moment that she +invited Waymarsh to share. The latter’s faculty of participation had +never had, all round, such an assault to meet; the pressure on him +being the sharper for this chosen attitude in her, as Strether judged +it, of isolating, for their natural intercourse, Chad and himself. This +intercourse was meanwhile restricted to a frank friendly look from the +young man, something markedly like a smile, but falling far short of a +grin, and to the vivacity of Strether’s private speculation as to +whether _he_ carried himself like a fool. He didn’t quite see how he +could so feel as one without somehow showing as one. The worst of that +question moreover was that he knew it as a symptom the sense of which +annoyed him. “If I’m going to be odiously conscious of how I may strike +the fellow,” he reflected, “it was so little what I came out for that I +may as well stop before I begin.” This sage consideration too, +distinctly, seemed to leave untouched the fact that he _was_ going to +be conscious. He was conscious of everything but of what would have +served him. + +He was to know afterwards, in the watches of the night, that nothing +would have been more open to him than after a minute or two to propose +to Chad to seek with him the refuge of the lobby. He hadn’t only not +proposed it, but had lacked even the presence of mind to see it as +possible. He had stuck there like a schoolboy wishing not to miss a +minute of the show; though for that portion of the show then presented +he hadn’t had an instant’s real attention. He couldn’t when the curtain +fell have given the slightest account of what had happened. He had +therefore, further, not at that moment acknowledged the amenity added +by this acceptance of his awkwardness to Chad’s general patience. +Hadn’t he none the less known at the very time—known it stupidly and +without reaction—that the boy was accepting something? He was modestly +benevolent, the boy—that was at least what he had been capable of the +superiority of making out his chance to be; and one had one’s self +literally not had the gumption to get in ahead of him. If we should go +into all that occupied our friend in the watches of the night we should +have to mend our pen; but an instance or two may mark for us the +vividness with which he could remember. He remembered the two +absurdities that, if his presence of mind _had_ failed, were the things +that had had most to do with it. He had never in his life seen a young +man come into a box at ten o’clock at night, and would, if challenged +on the question in advance, have scarce been ready to pronounce as to +different ways of doing so. But it was in spite of this definite to him +that Chad had had a way that was wonderful: a fact carrying with it an +implication that, as one might imagine it, he knew, he had learned, +how. + +Here already then were abounding results; he had on the spot and +without the least trouble of intention taught Strether that even in so +small a thing as that there were different ways. He had done in the +same line still more than this; had by a mere shake or two of the head +made his old friend observe that the change in him was perhaps more +than anything else, for the eye, a matter of the marked streaks of +grey, extraordinary at his age, in his thick black hair; as well as +that this new feature was curiously becoming to him, did something for +him, as characterisation, also even—of all things in the world—as +refinement, that had been a good deal wanted. Strether felt, however, +he would have had to confess, that it wouldn’t have been easy just now, +on this and other counts, in the presence of what had been supplied, to +be quite clear as to what had been missed. A reflexion a candid critic +might have made of old, for instance, was that it would have been +happier for the son to look more like the mother; but this was a +reflexion that at present would never occur. The ground had quite +fallen away from it, yet no resemblance whatever to the mother had +supervened. It would have been hard for a young man’s face and air to +disconnect themselves more completely than Chad’s at this juncture from +any discerned, from any imaginable aspect of a New England female +parent. That of course was no more than had been on the cards; but it +produced in Strether none the less one of those frequent phenomena of +mental reference with which all judgement in him was actually beset. + +Again and again as the days passed he had had a sense of the pertinence +of communicating quickly with Woollett—communicating with a quickness +with which telegraphy alone would rhyme; the fruit really of a fine +fancy in him for keeping things straight, for the happy forestalment of +error. No one could explain better when needful, nor put more +conscience into an account or a report; which burden of conscience is +perhaps exactly the reason why his heart always sank when the clouds of +explanation gathered. His highest ingenuity was in keeping the sky of +life clear of them. Whether or no he had a grand idea of the lucid, he +held that nothing ever was in fact—for any one else—explained. One went +through the vain motions, but it was mostly a waste of life. A personal +relation was a relation only so long as people either perfectly +understood or, better still, didn’t care if they didn’t. From the +moment they cared if they didn’t it was living by the sweat of one’s +brow; and the sweat of one’s brow was just what one might buy one’s +self off from by keeping the ground free of the wild weed of delusion. +It easily grew too fast, and the Atlantic cable now alone could race +with it. That agency would each day have testified for him to something +that was not what Woollett had argued. He was not at this moment +absolutely sure that the effect of the morrow’s—or rather of the +night’s—appreciation of the crisis wouldn’t be to determine some brief +missive. “Have at last seen him, but oh dear!”—some temporary relief of +that sort seemed to hover before him. It hovered somehow as preparing +them all—yet preparing them for what? If he might do so more luminously +and cheaply he would tick out in four words: “Awfully old—grey hair.” +To this particular item in Chad’s appearance he constantly, during +their mute half-hour, reverted; as if so very much more than he could +have said had been involved in it. The most he could have said would +have been: “If he’s going to make me feel young—!” which indeed, +however, carried with it quite enough. If Strether was to feel young, +that is, it would be because Chad was to feel old; and an aged and +hoary sinner had been no part of the scheme. + +The question of Chadwick’s true time of life was, doubtless, what came +up quickest after the adjournment of the two, when the play was over, +to a café in the Avenue de l’Opéra. Miss Gostrey had in due course been +perfect for such a step; she had known exactly what they wanted—to go +straight somewhere and talk; and Strether had even felt she had known +what he wished to say and that he was arranging immediately to begin. +She hadn’t pretended this, as she _had_ pretended on the other hand, to +have divined Waymarsh’s wish to extend to her an independent protection +homeward; but Strether nevertheless found how, after he had Chad +opposite to him at a small table in the brilliant halls that his +companion straightway selected, sharply and easily discriminated from +others, it was quite, to his mind, as if she heard him speak; as if, +sitting up, a mile away, in the little apartment he knew, she would +listen hard enough to catch. He found too that he liked that idea, and +he wished that, by the same token, Mrs. Newsome might have caught as +well. For what had above all been determined in him as a necessity of +the first order was not to lose another hour, nor a fraction of one; +was to advance, to overwhelm, with a rush. This was how he would +anticipate—by a night-attack, as might be—any forced maturity that a +crammed consciousness of Paris was likely to take upon itself to assert +on behalf of the boy. He knew to the full, on what he had just +extracted from Miss Gostrey, Chad’s marks of alertness; but they were a +reason the more for not dawdling. If he was himself moreover to be +treated as young he wouldn’t at all events be so treated before he +should have struck out at least once. His arms might be pinioned +afterwards, but it would have been left on record that he was fifty. +The importance of this he had indeed begun to feel before they left the +theatre; it had become a wild unrest, urging him to seize his chance. +He could scarcely wait for it as they went; he was on the verge of the +indecency of bringing up the question in the street; he fairly caught +himself going on—so he afterwards invidiously named it—as if there +would be for him no second chance should the present be lost. Not till, +on the purple divan before the perfunctory _bock_, he had brought out +the words themselves, was he sure, for that matter, that the present +would be saved. + + + + +Book Fourth + + + I + +“I’ve come, you know, to make you break with everything, neither more +nor less, and take you straight home; so you’ll be so good as +immediately and favourably to consider it!”—Strether, face to face with +Chad after the play, had sounded these words almost breathlessly, and +with an effect at first positively disconcerting to himself alone. For +Chad’s receptive attitude was that of a person who had been gracefully +quiet while the messenger at last reaching him has run a mile through +the dust. During some seconds after he had spoken Strether felt as if +_he_ had made some such exertion; he was not even certain that the +perspiration wasn’t on his brow. It was the kind of consciousness for +which he had to thank the look that, while the strain lasted, the young +man’s eyes gave him. They reflected—and the deuce of the thing was that +they reflected really with a sort of shyness of kindness—his +momentarily disordered state; which fact brought on in its turn for our +friend the dawn of a fear that Chad might simply “take it out”—take +everything out—in being sorry for him. Such a fear, any fear, was +unpleasant. But everything was unpleasant; it was odd how everything +had suddenly turned so. This however was no reason for letting the +least thing go. Strether had the next minute proceeded as roundly as if +with an advantage to follow up. “Of course I’m a busybody, if you want +to fight the case to the death; but after all mainly in the sense of +having known you and having given you such attention as you kindly +permitted when you were in jackets and knickerbockers. Yes—it was +knickerbockers, I’m busybody enough to remember that; and that you had, +for your age—I speak of the first far-away time—tremendously stout +legs. Well, we want you to break. Your mother’s heart’s passionately +set upon it, but she has above and beyond that excellent arguments and +reasons. I’ve not put them into her head—I needn’t remind you how +little she’s a person who needs that. But they exist—you must take it +from me as a friend both of hers and yours—for myself as well. I didn’t +invent them, I didn’t originally work them out; but I understand them, +I think I can explain them—by which I mean make you actively do them +justice; and that’s why you see me here. You had better know the worst +at once. It’s a question of an immediate rupture and an immediate +return. I’ve been conceited enough to dream I can sugar that pill. I +take at any rate the greatest interest in the question. I took it +already before I left home, and I don’t mind telling you that, altered +as you are, I take it still more now that I’ve seen you. You’re older +and—I don’t know what to call it!—more of a handful; but you’re by so +much the more, I seem to make out, to our purpose.” + +“Do I strike you as improved?” Strether was to recall that Chad had at +this point enquired. + +He was likewise to recall—and it had to count for some time as his +greatest comfort—that it had been “given” him, as they said at +Woollett, to reply with some presence of mind: “I haven’t the least +idea.” He was really for a while to like thinking he had been +positively hard. On the point of conceding that Chad had improved in +appearance, but that to the question of appearance the remark must be +confined, he checked even that compromise and left his reservation +bare. Not only his moral, but also, as it were, his æsthetic sense had +a little to pay for this, Chad being unmistakeably—and wasn’t it a +matter of the confounded grey hair again?—handsomer than he had ever +promised. That however fell in perfectly with what Strether had said. +They had no desire to keep down his proper expansion, and he wouldn’t +be less to their purpose for not looking, as he had too often done of +old, only bold and wild. There was indeed a signal particular in which +he would distinctly be more so. Strether didn’t, as he talked, +absolutely follow himself; he only knew he was clutching his thread and +that he held it from moment to moment a little tighter; his mere +uninterruptedness during the few minutes helped him to do that. He had +frequently for a month, turned over what he should say on this very +occasion, and he seemed at last to have said nothing he had thought +of—everything was so totally different. + +But in spite of all he had put the flag at the window. This was what he +had done, and there was a minute during which he affected himself as +having shaken it hard, flapped it with a mighty flutter, straight in +front of his companion’s nose. It gave him really almost the sense of +having already acted his part. The momentary relief—as if from the +knowledge that nothing of _that_ at least could be undone—sprang from a +particular cause, the cause that had flashed into operation, in Miss +Gostrey’s box, with direct apprehension, with amazed recognition, and +that had been concerned since then in every throb of his consciousness. +What it came to was that with an absolutely _new_ quantity to deal with +one simply couldn’t know. The new quantity was represented by the fact +that Chad had been made over. That was all; whatever it was it was +everything. Strether had never seen the thing so done before—it was +perhaps a speciality of Paris. If one had been present at the process +one might little by little have mastered the result; but he was face to +face, as matters stood, with the finished business. It had freely been +noted for him that he might be received as a dog among skittles, but +that was on the basis of the old quantity. He had originally thought of +lines and tones as things to be taken, but these possibilities had now +quite melted away. There was no computing at all what the young man +before him would think or feel or say on any subject whatever. This +intelligence Strether had afterwards, to account for his nervousness, +reconstituted as he might, just as he had also reconstituted the +promptness with which Chad had corrected his uncertainty. An +extraordinarily short time had been required for the correction, and +there had ceased to be anything negative in his companion’s face and +air as soon as it was made. “Your engagement to my mother has become +then what they call here a _fait accompli?_”—it had consisted, the +determinant touch, in nothing more than that. + +Well, that was enough, Strether had felt while his answer hung fire. He +had felt at the same time, however, that nothing could less become him +than that it should hang fire too long. “Yes,” he said brightly, “it +was on the happy settlement of the question that I started. You see +therefore to what tune I’m in your family. Moreover,” he added, “I’ve +been supposing you’d suppose it.” + +“Oh I’ve been supposing it for a long time, and what you tell me helps +me to understand that you should want to do something. To do something, +I mean,” said Chad, “to commemorate an event so—what do they call +it?—so auspicious. I see you make out, and not unnaturally,” he +continued, “that bringing me home in triumph as a sort of +wedding-present to Mother would commemorate it better than anything +else. You want to make a bonfire in fact,” he laughed, “and you pitch +me on. Thank you, thank you!” he laughed again. + +He was altogether easy about it, and this made Strether now see how at +bottom, and in spite of the shade of shyness that really cost him +nothing, he had from the first moment been easy about everything. The +shade of shyness was mere good taste. People with manners formed could +apparently have, as one of their best cards, the shade of shyness too. +He had leaned a little forward to speak; his elbows were on the table; +and the inscrutable new face that he had got somewhere and somehow was +brought by the movement nearer to his critic’s. There was a fascination +for that critic in its not being, this ripe physiognomy, the face that, +under observation at least, he had originally carried away from +Woollett. Strether found a certain freedom on his own side in defining +it as that of a man of the world—a formula that indeed seemed to come +now in some degree to his relief; that of a man to whom things had +happened and were variously known. In gleams, in glances, the past did +perhaps peep out of it; but such lights were faint and instantly +merged. Chad was brown and thick and strong, and of old Chad had been +rough. Was all the difference therefore that he was actually smooth? +Possibly; for that he _was_ smooth was as marked as in the taste of a +sauce or in the rub of a hand. The effect of it was general—it had +retouched his features, drawn them with a cleaner line. It had cleared +his eyes and settled his colour and polished his fine square teeth—the +main ornament of his face; and at the same time that it had given him a +form and a surface, almost a design, it had toned his voice, +established his accent, encouraged his smile to more play and his other +motions to less. He had formerly, with a great deal of action, +expressed very little; and he now expressed whatever was necessary with +almost none at all. It was as if in short he had really, copious +perhaps but shapeless, been put into a firm mould and turned +successfully out. The phenomenon—Strether kept eyeing it as a +phenomenon, an eminent case—was marked enough to be touched by the +finger. He finally put his hand across the table and laid it on Chad’s +arm. “If you’ll promise me—here on the spot and giving me your word of +honour—to break straight off, you’ll make the future the real right +thing for all of us alike. You’ll ease off the strain of this decent +but none the less acute suspense in which I’ve for so many days been +waiting for you, and let me turn in to rest. I shall leave you with my +blessing and go to bed in peace.” + +Chad again fell back at this and, his hands pocketed, settled himself a +little; in which posture he looked, though he rather anxiously smiled, +only the more earnest. Then Strether seemed to see that he was really +nervous, and he took that as what he would have called a wholesome +sign. The only mark of it hitherto had been his more than once taking +off and putting on his wide-brimmed crush hat. He had at this moment +made the motion again to remove it, then had only pushed it back, so +that it hung informally on his strong young grizzled crop. It was a +touch that gave the note of the familiar—the intimate and the +belated—to their quiet colloquy; and it was indeed by some such trivial +aid that Strether became aware at the same moment of something else. +The observation was at any rate determined in him by some light too +fine to distinguish from so many others, but it was none the less +sharply determined. Chad looked unmistakeably during these +instants—well, as Strether put it to himself, all he was worth. Our +friend had a sudden apprehension of what that would on certain sides +be. He saw him in a flash as the young man marked out by women; and for +a concentrated minute the dignity, the comparative austerity, as he +funnily fancied it, of this character affected him almost with awe. +There was an experience on his interlocutor’s part that looked out at +him from under the displaced hat, and that looked out moreover by a +force of its own, the deep fact of its quantity and quality, and not +through Chad’s intending bravado or swagger. That was then the way men +marked out by women _were_—and also the men by whom the women were +doubtless in turn sufficiently distinguished. It affected Strether for +thirty seconds as a relevant truth, a truth which, however, the next +minute, had fallen into its relation. “Can’t you imagine there being +some questions,” Chad asked, “that a fellow—however much impressed by +your charming way of stating things—would like to put to you first?” + +“Oh yes—easily. I’m here to answer everything. I think I can even tell +you things, of the greatest interest to you, that you won’t know enough +to ask me. We’ll take as many days to it as you like. But I want,” +Strether wound up, “to go to bed now.” + +“Really?” + +Chad had spoken in such surprise that he was amused. “Can’t you believe +it?—with what you put me through?” + +The young man seemed to consider. “Oh I haven’t put you through +much—yet.” + +“Do you mean there’s so much more to come?” Strether laughed. “All the +more reason then that I should gird myself.” And as if to mark what he +felt he could by this time count on he was already on his feet. + +Chad, still seated, stayed him, with a hand against him, as he passed +between their table and the next. “Oh we shall get on!” + +The tone was, as who should say, everything Strether could have +desired; and quite as good the expression of face with which the +speaker had looked up at him and kindly held him. All these things +lacked was their not showing quite so much as the fruit of experience. +Yes, experience was what Chad did play on him, if he didn’t play any +grossness of defiance. Of course experience was in a manner defiance; +but it wasn’t, at any rate—rather indeed quite the contrary!—grossness; +which was so much gained. He fairly grew older, Strether thought, while +he himself so reasoned. Then with his mature pat of his visitor’s arm +he also got up; and there had been enough of it all by this time to +make the visitor feel that something _was_ settled. Wasn’t it settled +that he had at least the testimony of Chad’s own belief in a +settlement? Strether found himself treating Chad’s profession that they +would get on as a sufficient basis for going to bed. He hadn’t +nevertheless after this gone to bed directly; for when they had again +passed out together into the mild bright night a check had virtually +sprung from nothing more than a small circumstance which might have +acted only as confirming quiescence. There were people, expressive +sound, projected light, still abroad, and after they had taken in for a +moment, through everything, the great clear architectural street, they +turned off in tacit union to the quarter of Strether’s hotel. “Of +course,” Chad here abruptly began, “of course Mother’s making things +out with you about me has been natural—and of course also you’ve had a +good deal to go upon. Still, you must have filled out.” + +He had stopped, leaving his friend to wonder a little what point he +wished to make; and this it was that enabled Strether meanwhile to make +one. “Oh we’ve never pretended to go into detail. We weren’t in the +least bound to _that_. It was ‘filling out’ enough to miss you as we +did.” + +But Chad rather oddly insisted, though under the high lamp at their +corner, where they paused, he had at first looked as if touched by +Strether’s allusion to the long sense, at home, of his absence. “What I +mean is you must have imagined.” + +“Imagined what?” + +“Well—horrors.” + +It affected Strether: horrors were so little—superficially at least—in +this robust and reasoning image. But he was none the less there to be +veracious. “Yes, I dare say we _have_ imagined horrors. But where’s the +harm if we haven’t been wrong?” + +Chad raised his face to the lamp, and it was one of the moments at +which he had, in his extraordinary way, most his air of designedly +showing himself. It was as if at these instants he just presented +himself, his identity so rounded off, his palpable presence and his +massive young manhood, as such a link in the chain as might practically +amount to a kind of demonstration. It was as if—and how but +anomalously?—he couldn’t after all help thinking sufficiently well of +these things to let them go for what they were worth. What could there +be in this for Strether but the hint of some self-respect, some sense +of power, oddly perverted; something latent and beyond access, ominous +and perhaps enviable? The intimation had the next thing, in a flash, +taken on a name—a name on which our friend seized as he asked himself +if he weren’t perhaps really dealing with an irreducible young Pagan. +This description—he quite jumped at it—had a sound that gratified his +mental ear, so that of a sudden he had already adopted it. Pagan—yes, +that was, wasn’t it? what Chad _would_ logically be. It was what he +must be. It was what he was. The idea was a clue and, instead of +darkening the prospect, projected a certain clearness. Strether made +out in this quick ray that a Pagan was perhaps, at the pass they had +come to, the thing most wanted at Woollett. They’d be able to do with +one—a good one; he’d find an opening—yes; and Strether’s imagination +even now prefigured and accompanied the first appearance there of the +rousing personage. He had only the slight discomfort of feeling, as the +young man turned away from the lamp, that his thought had in the +momentary silence possibly been guessed. “Well, I’ve no doubt,” said +Chad, “you’ve come near enough. The details, as you say, don’t matter. +It _has_ been generally the case that I’ve let myself go. But I’m +coming round—I’m not so bad now.” With which they walked on again to +Strether’s hotel. + +“Do you mean,” the latter asked as they approached the door, “that +there isn’t any woman with you now?” + +“But pray what has that to do with it?” + +“Why it’s the whole question.” + +“Of my going home?” Chad was clearly surprised. “Oh not much! Do you +think that when I want to go any one will have any power—” + +“To keep you”—Strether took him straight up—“from carrying out your +wish? Well, our idea has been that somebody has hitherto—or a good many +persons perhaps—kept you pretty well from ‘wanting.’ That’s what—if +you’re in anybody’s hands—may again happen. You don’t answer my +question”—he kept it up; “but if you aren’t in anybody’s hands so much +the better. There’s nothing then but what makes for your going.” + +Chad turned this over. “I don’t answer your question?” He spoke quite +without resenting it. “Well, such questions have always a rather +exaggerated side. One doesn’t know quite what you mean by being in +women’s ‘hands.’ It’s all so vague. One is when one isn’t. One isn’t +when one is. And then one can’t quite give people away.” He seemed +kindly to explain. “I’ve _never_ got stuck—so very hard; and, as +against anything at any time really better, I don’t think I’ve ever +been afraid.” There was something in it that held Strether to wonder, +and this gave him time to go on. He broke out as with a more helpful +thought. “Don’t you know how I like Paris itself?” + +The upshot was indeed to make our friend marvel. “Oh if _that’s_ all +that’s the matter with you—!” It was _he_ who almost showed resentment. + +Chad’s smile of a truth more than met it. “But isn’t that enough?” + +Strether hesitated, but it came out. “Not enough for your mother!” +Spoken, however, it sounded a trifle odd—the effect of which was that +Chad broke into a laugh. Strether, at this, succumbed as well, though +with extreme brevity. “Permit us to have still our theory. But if you +_are_ so free and so strong you’re inexcusable. I’ll write in the +morning,” he added with decision. “I’ll say I’ve got you.” + +This appeared to open for Chad a new interest. “How often do you +write?” + +“Oh perpetually.” + +“And at great length?” + +Strether had become a little impatient. “I hope it’s not found too +great.” + +“Oh I’m sure not. And you hear as often?” + +Again Strether paused. “As often as I deserve.” + +“Mother writes,” said Chad, “a lovely letter.” + +Strether, before the closed _porte-cochère_, fixed him a moment. “It’s +more, my boy, than _you_ do! But our suppositions don’t matter,” he +added, “if you’re actually not entangled.” + +Chad’s pride seemed none the less a little touched. “I never _was_ +that—let me insist. I always had my own way.” With which he pursued: +“And I have it at present.” + +“Then what are you here for? What has kept you,” Strether asked, “if +you _have_ been able to leave?” + +It made Chad, after a stare, throw himself back. “Do you think one’s +kept only by women?” His surprise and his verbal emphasis rang out so +clear in the still street that Strether winced till he remembered the +safety of their English speech. “Is that,” the young man demanded, +“what they think at Woollett?” At the good faith in the question +Strether had changed colour, feeling that, as he would have said, he +had put his foot in it. He had appeared stupidly to misrepresent what +they thought at Woollett; but before he had time to rectify Chad again +was upon him. “I must say then you show a low mind!” + +It so fell in, unhappily for Strether, with that reflexion of his own +prompted in him by the pleasant air of the Boulevard Malesherbes, that +its disconcerting force was rather unfairly great. It was a dig that, +administered by himself—and administered even to poor Mrs. Newsome—was +no more than salutary; but administered by Chad—and quite logically—it +came nearer drawing blood. They _hadn’t_ a low mind—nor any approach to +one; yet incontestably they had worked, and with a certain smugness, on +a basis that might be turned against them. Chad had at any rate pulled +his visitor up; he had even pulled up his admirable mother; he had +absolutely, by a turn of the wrist and a jerk of the far-flung noose, +pulled up, in a bunch, Woollett browsing in its pride. There was no +doubt Woollett _had_ insisted on his coarseness; and what he at present +stood there for in the sleeping street was, by his manner of striking +the other note, to make of such insistence a preoccupation compromising +to the insisters. It was exactly as if they had imputed to him a +vulgarity that he had by a mere gesture caused to fall from him. The +devil of the case was that Strether felt it, by the same stroke, as +falling straight upon himself. He had been wondering a minute ago if +the boy weren’t a Pagan, and he found himself wondering now if he +weren’t by chance a gentleman. It didn’t in the least, on the spot, +spring up helpfully for him that a person couldn’t at the same time be +both. There was nothing at this moment in the air to challenge the +combination; there was everything to give it on the contrary something +of a flourish. It struck Strether into the bargain as doing something +to meet the most difficult of the questions; though perhaps indeed only +by substituting another. Wouldn’t it be precisely by having learned to +be a gentleman that he had mastered the consequent trick of looking so +well that one could scarce speak to him straight? But what in the world +was the clue to such a prime producing cause? There were too many clues +then that Strether still lacked, and these clues to clues were among +them. What it accordingly amounted to for him was that he had to take +full in the face a fresh attribution of ignorance. He had grown used by +this time to reminders, especially from his own lips, of what he didn’t +know; but he had borne them because in the first place they were +private and because in the second they practically conveyed a tribute. +He didn’t know what was bad, and—as others didn’t know how little he +knew it—he could put up with his state. But if he didn’t know, in so +important a particular, what was good, Chad at least was now aware he +didn’t; and that, for some reason, affected our friend as curiously +public. It was in fact an exposed condition that the young man left him +in long enough for him to feel its chill—till he saw fit, in a word, +generously again to cover him. This last was in truth what Chad quite +gracefully did. But he did it as with a simple thought that met the +whole of the case. “Oh I’m all right!” It was what Strether had rather +bewilderedly to go to bed on. + + + II + +It really looked true moreover from the way Chad was to behave after +this. He was full of attentions to his mother’s ambassador; in spite of +which, all the while, the latter’s other relations rather remarkably +contrived to assert themselves. Strether’s sittings pen in hand with +Mrs. Newsome up in his own room were broken, yet they were richer; and +they were more than ever interspersed with the hours in which he +reported himself, in a different fashion, but with scarce less +earnestness and fulness, to Maria Gostrey. Now that, as he would have +expressed it, he had really something to talk about he found himself, +in respect to any oddity that might reside for him in the double +connexion, at once more aware and more indifferent. He had been fine to +Mrs. Newsome about his useful friend, but it had begun to haunt his +imagination that Chad, taking up again for her benefit a pen too long +disused, might possibly be finer. It wouldn’t at all do, he saw, that +anything should come up for him at Chad’s hand but what specifically +_was_ to have come; the greatest divergence from which would be +precisely the element of any lubrication of their intercourse by +levity. It was accordingly to forestall such an accident that he +frankly put before the young man the several facts, just as they had +occurred, of his funny alliance. He spoke of these facts, pleasantly +and obligingly, as “the whole story,” and felt that he might qualify +the alliance as funny if he remained sufficiently grave about it. He +flattered himself that he even exaggerated the wild freedom of his +original encounter with the wonderful lady; he was scrupulously +definite about the absurd conditions in which they had made +acquaintance—their having picked each other up almost in the street; +and he had (finest inspiration of all!) a conception of carrying the +war into the enemy’s country by showing surprise at the enemy’s +ignorance. + +He had always had a notion that this last was the grand style of +fighting; the greater therefore the reason for it, as he couldn’t +remember that he had ever before fought in the grand style. Every one, +according to this, knew Miss Gostrey: how came it Chad didn’t know her? +The difficulty, the impossibility, was really to escape it; Strether +put on him, by what he took for granted, the burden of proof of the +contrary. This tone was so far successful as that Chad quite appeared +to recognise her as a person whose fame had reached him, but against +his acquaintance with whom much mischance had worked. He made the point +at the same time that his social relations, such as they could be +called, were perhaps not to the extent Strether supposed with the +rising flood of their compatriots. He hinted at his having more and +more given way to a different principle of selection; the moral of +which seemed to be that he went about little in the “colony.” For the +moment certainly he had quite another interest. It was deep, what he +understood, and Strether, for himself, could only so observe it. He +couldn’t see as yet how deep. Might he not all too soon! For there was +really too much of their question that Chad had already committed +himself to liking. He liked, to begin with, his prospective stepfather; +which was distinctly what had not been on the cards. His hating him was +the untowardness for which Strether had been best prepared; he hadn’t +expected the boy’s actual form to give him more to do than his imputed. +It gave him more through suggesting that he must somehow make up to +himself for not being sure he was sufficiently disagreeable. That had +really been present to him as his only way to be sure he was +sufficiently thorough. The point was that if Chad’s tolerance of his +thoroughness were insincere, were but the best of devices for gaining +time, it none the less did treat everything as tacitly concluded. + +That seemed at the end of ten days the upshot of the abundant, the +recurrent talk through which Strether poured into him all it concerned +him to know, put him in full possession of facts and figures. Never +cutting these colloquies short by a minute, Chad behaved, looked and +spoke as if he were rather heavily, perhaps even a trifle gloomily, but +none the less fundamentally and comfortably free. He made no crude +profession of eagerness to yield, but he asked the most intelligent +questions, probed, at moments, abruptly, even deeper than his friend’s +layer of information, justified by these touches the native estimate of +his latent stuff, and had in every way the air of trying to live, +reflectively, into the square bright picture. He walked up and down in +front of this production, sociably took Strether’s arm at the points at +which he stopped, surveyed it repeatedly from the right and from the +left, inclined a critical head to either quarter, and, while he puffed +a still more critical cigarette, animadverted to his companion on this +passage and that. Strether sought relief—there were hours when he +required it—in repeating himself; it was in truth not to be blinked +that Chad had a way. The main question as yet was of what it was a way +_to_. It made vulgar questions no more easy; but that was unimportant +when all questions save those of his own asking had dropped. That he +was free was answer enough, and it wasn’t quite ridiculous that this +freedom should end by presenting itself as what was difficult to move. +His changed state, his lovely home, his beautiful things, his easy +talk, his very appetite for Strether, insatiable and, when all was +said, flattering—what were such marked matters all but the notes of his +freedom? He had the effect of making a sacrifice of it just in these +handsome forms to his visitor; which was mainly the reason the visitor +was privately, for the time, a little out of countenance. Strether was +at this period again and again thrown back on a felt need to remodel +somehow his plan. He fairly caught himself shooting rueful glances, shy +looks of pursuit, toward the embodied influence, the definite +adversary, who had by a stroke of her own failed him and on a fond +theory of whose palpable presence he had, under Mrs. Newsome’s +inspiration, altogether proceeded. He had once or twice, in secret, +literally expressed the irritated wish that _she_ would come out and +find her. + +He couldn’t quite yet force it upon Woollett that such a career, such a +perverted young life, showed after all a certain plausible side, _did_ +in the case before them flaunt something like an impunity for the +social man; but he could at least treat himself to the statement that +would prepare him for the sharpest echo. This echo—as distinct over +there in the dry thin air as some shrill “heading” above a column of +print—seemed to reach him even as he wrote. “He says there’s no woman,” +he could hear Mrs. Newsome report, in capitals almost of newspaper +size, to Mrs. Pocock; and he could focus in Mrs. Pocock the response of +the reader of the journal. He could see in the younger lady’s face the +earnestness of her attention and catch the full scepticism of her but +slightly delayed “What is there then?” Just so he could again as little +miss the mother’s clear decision: “There’s plenty of disposition, no +doubt, to pretend there isn’t.” Strether had, after posting his letter, +the whole scene out; and it was a scene during which, coming and going, +as befell, he kept his eye not least upon the daughter. He had his fine +sense of the conviction Mrs. Pocock would take occasion to reaffirm—a +conviction bearing, as he had from the first deeply divined it to bear, +on Mr. Strether’s essential inaptitude. She had looked him in his +conscious eyes even before he sailed, and that she didn’t believe _he_ +would find the woman had been written in her book. Hadn’t she at the +best but a scant faith in his ability to find women? It wasn’t even as +if he had found her mother—so much more, to her discrimination, had her +mother performed the finding. Her mother had, in a case her private +judgement of which remained educative of Mrs. Pocock’s critical sense, +found the man. The man owed his unchallenged state, in general, to the +fact that Mrs. Newsome’s discoveries were accepted at Woollett; but he +knew in his bones, our friend did, how almost irresistibly Mrs. Pocock +would now be moved to show what she thought of his own. Give _her_ a +free hand, would be the moral, and the woman would soon be found. + +His impression of Miss Gostrey after her introduction to Chad was +meanwhile an impression of a person almost unnaturally on her guard. He +struck himself as at first unable to extract from her what he wished; +though indeed _of_ what he wished at this special juncture he would +doubtless have contrived to make but a crude statement. It sifted and +settled nothing to put to her, _tout bêtement_, as she often said, “Do +you like him, eh?”—thanks to his feeling it actually the least of his +needs to heap up the evidence in the young man’s favour. He repeatedly +knocked at her door to let her have it afresh that Chad’s case—whatever +else of minor interest it might yield—was first and foremost a miracle +almost monstrous. It was the alteration of the entire man, and was so +signal an instance that nothing else, for the intelligent observer, +could—_could_ it?—signify. “It’s a plot,” he declared—“there’s more in +it than meets the eye.” He gave the rein to his fancy. “It’s a plant!” + +His fancy seemed to please her. “Whose then?” + +“Well, the party responsible is, I suppose, the fate that waits for +one, the dark doom that rides. What I mean is that with such elements +one can’t count. I’ve but my poor individual, my modest human means. It +isn’t playing the game to turn on the uncanny. All one’s energy goes to +facing it, to tracking it. One wants, confound it, don’t you see?” he +confessed with a queer face—“one wants to enjoy anything so rare. Call +it then life”—he puzzled it out—“call it poor dear old life simply that +springs the surprise. Nothing alters the fact that the surprise is +paralysing, or at any rate engrossing—all, practically, hang it, that +one sees, that one _can_ see.” + +Her silences were never barren, nor even dull. “Is that what you’ve +written home?” + +He tossed it off. “Oh dear, yes!” + +She had another pause while, across her carpets, he had another walk. +“If you don’t look out you’ll have them straight over.” + +“Oh but I’ve said he’ll go back.” + +“And _will_ he?” Miss Gostrey asked. + +The special tone of it made him, pulling up, look at her long. “What’s +that but just the question I’ve spent treasures of patience and +ingenuity in giving _you_, by the sight of him—after everything had led +up—every facility to answer? What is it but just the thing I came here +to-day to get out of you? Will he?” + +“No—he won’t,” she said at last. “He’s not free.” + +The air of it held him. “Then you’ve all the while known—?” + +“I’ve known nothing but what I’ve seen; and I wonder,” she declared +with some impatience, “that you didn’t see as much. It was enough to be +with him there—” + +“In the box? Yes,” he rather blankly urged. + +“Well—to feel sure.” + +“Sure of what?” + +She got up from her chair, at this, with a nearer approach than she had +ever yet shown to dismay at his dimness. She even, fairly pausing for +it, spoke with a shade of pity. “Guess!” + +It was a shade, fairly, that brought a flush into his face; so that for +a moment, as they waited together, their difference was between them. +“You mean that just your hour with him told you so much of his story? +Very good; I’m not such a fool, on my side, as that I don’t understand +you, or as that I didn’t in some degree understand _him_. That he has +done what he liked most isn’t, among any of us, a matter the least in +dispute. There’s equally little question at this time of day of what it +is he does like most. But I’m not talking,” he reasonably explained, +“of any mere wretch he may still pick up. I’m talking of some person +who in his present situation may have held her own, may really have +counted.” + +“That’s exactly what _I_ am!” said Miss Gostrey. But she as quickly +made her point. “I thought you thought—or that they think at +Woollett—that that’s what mere wretches necessarily do. Mere wretches +necessarily _don’t!_” she declared with spirit. “There must, behind +every appearance to the contrary, still be somebody—somebody who’s not +a mere wretch, since we accept the miracle. What else but such a +somebody can such a miracle be?” + +He took it in. “Because the fact itself _is_ the woman?” + +“_A_ woman. Some woman or other. It’s one of the things that _have_ to +be.” + +“But you mean then at least a good one.” + +“A good woman?” She threw up her arms with a laugh. “I should call her +excellent!” + +“Then why does he deny her?” + +Miss Gostrey thought a moment. “Because she’s too good to admit! Don’t +you see,” she went on, “how she accounts for him?” + +Strether clearly, more and more, did see; yet it made him also see +other things. “But isn’t what we want that he shall account for _her?_” + +“Well, he does. What you have before you is his way. You must forgive +him if it isn’t quite outspoken. In Paris such debts are tacit.” + +Strether could imagine; but still—! “Even when the woman’s good?” + +Again she laughed out. “Yes, and even when the man is! There’s always a +caution in such cases,” she more seriously explained—“for what it may +seem to show. There’s nothing that’s taken as showing so much here as +sudden unnatural goodness.” + +“Ah then you’re speaking now,” Strether said, “of people who are _not_ +nice.” + +“I delight,” she replied, “in your classifications. But do you want +me,” she asked, “to give you in the matter, on this ground, the wisest +advice I’m capable of? Don’t consider her, don’t judge her at all in +herself. Consider her and judge her only in Chad.” + +He had the courage at least of his companion’s logic. “Because then I +shall like her?” He almost looked, with his quick imagination as if he +already did, though seeing at once also the full extent of how little +it would suit his book. “But is that what I came out for?” + +She had to confess indeed that it wasn’t. But there was something else. +“Don’t make up your mind. There are all sorts of things. You haven’t +seen him all.” + +This on his side Strether recognised; but his acuteness none the less +showed him the danger. “Yes, but if the more I see the better he +seems?” + +Well, she found something. “That may be—but his disavowal of her isn’t, +all the same, pure consideration. There’s a hitch.” She made it out. +“It’s the effort to sink her.” + +Strether winced at the image. “To ‘sink’—?” + +“Well, I mean there’s a struggle, and a part of it is just what he +hides. Take time—that’s the only way not to make some mistake that +you’ll regret. Then you’ll see. He does really want to shake her off.” + +Our friend had by this time so got into the vision that he almost +gasped. “After all she has done for him?” + +Miss Gostrey gave him a look which broke the next moment into a +wonderful smile. “He’s not so good as you think!” + +They remained with him, these words, promising him, in their character +of warning, considerable help; but the support he tried to draw from +them found itself on each renewal of contact with Chad defeated by +something else. What could it be, this disconcerting force, he asked +himself, but the sense, constantly renewed, that Chad _was_—quite in +fact insisted on being—as good as he thought? It seemed somehow as if +he couldn’t _but_ be as good from the moment he wasn’t as bad. There +was a succession of days at all events when contact with him—and in its +immediate effect, as if it could produce no other—elbowed out of +Strether’s consciousness everything but itself. Little Bilham once more +pervaded the scene, but little Bilham became even in a higher degree +than he had originally been one of the numerous forms of the inclusive +relation; a consequence promoted, to our friend’s sense, by two or +three incidents with which we have yet to make acquaintance. Waymarsh +himself, for the occasion, was drawn into the eddy; it absolutely, +though but temporarily, swallowed him down, and there were days when +Strether seemed to bump against him as a sinking swimmer might brush a +submarine object. The fathomless medium held them—Chad’s manner was the +fathomless medium; and our friend felt as if they passed each other, in +their deep immersion, with the round impersonal eye of silent fish. It +was practically produced between them that Waymarsh was giving him then +his chance; and the shade of discomfort that Strether drew from the +allowance resembled not a little the embarrassment he had known at +school, as a boy, when members of his family had been present at +exhibitions. He could perform before strangers, but relatives were +fatal, and it was now as if, comparatively, Waymarsh were a relative. +He seemed to hear him say “Strike up then!” and to enjoy a foretaste of +conscientious domestic criticism. He _had_ struck up, so far as he +actually could; Chad knew by this time in profusion what he wanted; and +what vulgar violence did his fellow pilgrim expect of him when he had +really emptied his mind? It went somehow to and fro that what poor +Waymarsh meant was “I told you so—that you’d lose your immortal soul!” +but it was also fairly explicit that Strether had his own challenge and +that, since they must go to the bottom of things, he wasted no more +virtue in watching Chad than Chad wasted in watching him. His dip for +duty’s sake—where was it worse than Waymarsh’s own? For _he_ needn’t +have stopped resisting and refusing, needn’t have parleyed, at that +rate, with the foe. + +The strolls over Paris to see something or call somewhere were +accordingly inevitable and natural, and the late sessions in the +wondrous troisième, the lovely home, when men dropped in and the +picture composed more suggestively through the haze of tobacco, of +music more or less good and of talk more or less polyglot, were on a +principle not to be distinguished from that of the mornings and the +afternoons. Nothing, Strether had to recognise as he leaned back and +smoked, could well less resemble a scene of violence than even the +liveliest of these occasions. They were occasions of discussion, none +the less, and Strether had never in his life heard so many opinions on +so many subjects. There were opinions at Woollett, but only on three or +four. The differences were there to match; if they were doubtless deep, +though few, they were quiet—they were, as might be said, almost as shy +as if people had been ashamed of them. People showed little diffidence +about such things, on the other hand, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, and +were so far from being ashamed of them—or indeed of anything else—that +they often seemed to have invented them to avert those agreements that +destroy the taste of talk. No one had ever done that at Woollett, +though Strether could remember times when he himself had been tempted +to it without quite knowing why. He saw why at present—he had but +wanted to promote intercourse. + +These, however, were but parenthetic memories, and the turn taken by +his affair on the whole was positively that if his nerves were on the +stretch it was because he missed violence. When he asked himself if +none would then, in connexion with it, ever come at all, he might +almost have passed as wondering how to provoke it. It would be too +absurd if such a vision as _that_ should have to be invoked for relief; +it was already marked enough as absurd that he should actually have +begun with flutters and dignities on the score of a single accepted +meal. What sort of a brute had he expected Chad to be, anyway?—Strether +had occasion to make the enquiry but was careful to make it in private. +He could himself, comparatively recent as it was—it was truly but the +fact of a few days since—focus his primal crudity; but he would on the +approach of an observer, as if handling an illicit possession, have +slipped the reminiscence out of sight. There were echoes of it still in +Mrs. Newsome’s letters, and there were moments when these echoes made +him exclaim on her want of tact. He blushed of course, at once, still +more for the explanation than for the ground of it: it came to him in +time to save his manners that she couldn’t at the best become tactful +as quickly as he. Her tact had to reckon with the Atlantic Ocean, the +General Post-Office and the extravagant curve of the globe. Chad had +one day offered tea at the Boulevard Malesherbes to a chosen few, a +group again including the unobscured Miss Barrace; and Strether had on +coming out walked away with the acquaintance whom in his letters to +Mrs. Newsome he always spoke of as the little artist-man. He had had +full occasion to mention him as the other party, so oddly, to the only +close personal alliance observation had as yet detected in Chad’s +existence. Little Bilham’s way this afternoon was not Strether’s, but +he had none the less kindly come with him, and it was somehow a part of +his kindness that as it had sadly begun to rain they suddenly found +themselves seated for conversation at a café in which they had taken +refuge. He had passed no more crowded hour in Chad’s society than the +one just ended; he had talked with Miss Barrace, who had reproached him +with not having come to see her, and he had above all hit on a happy +thought for causing Waymarsh’s tension to relax. Something might +possibly be extracted for the latter from the idea of his success with +that lady, whose quick apprehension of what might amuse her had given +Strether a free hand. What had she meant if not to ask whether she +couldn’t help him with his splendid encumbrance, and mightn’t the +sacred rage at any rate be kept a little in abeyance by thus creating +for his comrade’s mind even in a world of irrelevance the possibility +of a relation? What was it but a relation to be regarded as so +decorative and, in especial, on the strength of it, to be whirled away, +amid flounces and feathers, in a coupé lined, by what Strether could +make out, with dark blue brocade? He himself had never been whirled +away—never at least in a coupé and behind a footman; he had driven with +Miss Gostrey in cabs, with Mrs. Pocock, a few times, in an open buggy, +with Mrs. Newsome in a four-seated cart and, occasionally up at the +mountains, on a buckboard; but his friend’s actual adventure +transcended his personal experience. He now showed his companion soon +enough indeed how inadequate, as a general monitor, this last queer +quantity could once more feel itself. + +“What game under the sun is he playing?” He signified the next moment +that his allusion was not to the fat gentleman immersed in dominoes on +whom his eyes had begun by resting, but to their host of the previous +hour, as to whom, there on the velvet bench, with a final collapse of +all consistency, he treated himself to the comfort of indiscretion. +“Where do you see him come out?” + +Little Bilham, in meditation, looked at him with a kindness almost +paternal. “Don’t you like it over here?” + +Strether laughed out—for the tone was indeed droll; he let himself go. +“What has that to do with it? The only thing I’ve any business to like +is to feel that I’m moving him. That’s why I ask you whether you +believe I _am?_ Is the creature”—and he did his best to show that he +simply wished to ascertain—“honest?” + +His companion looked responsible, but looked it through a small dim +smile. “What creature do you mean?” + +It was on this that they did have for a little a mute interchange. “Is +it untrue that he’s free? How then,” Strether asked wondering “does he +arrange his life?” + +“Is the creature you mean Chad himself?” little Bilham said. + +Strether here, with a rising hope, just thought, “We must take one of +them at a time.” But his coherence lapsed. “_Is_ there some woman? Of +whom he’s really afraid of course I mean—or who does with him what she +likes.” + +“It’s awfully charming of you,” Bilham presently remarked, “not to have +asked me that before.” + +“Oh I’m not fit for my job!” + +The exclamation had escaped our friend, but it made little Bilham more +deliberate. “Chad’s a rare case!” he luminously observed. “He’s awfully +changed,” he added. + +“Then you see it too?” + +“The way he has improved? Oh yes—I think every one must see it. But I’m +not sure,” said little Bilham, “that I didn’t like him about as well in +his other state.” + +“Then this _is_ really a new state altogether?” + +“Well,” the young man after a moment returned, “I’m not sure he was +really meant by nature to be quite so good. It’s like the new edition +of an old book that one has been fond of—revised and amended, brought +up to date, but not quite the thing one knew and loved. However that +may be at all events,” he pursued, “I don’t think, you know, that he’s +really playing, as you call it, any game. I believe he really wants to +go back and take up a career. He’s capable of one, you know, that will +improve and enlarge him still more. He won’t then,” little Bilham +continued to remark, “be my pleasant well-rubbed old-fashioned volume +at all. But of course I’m beastly immoral. I’m afraid it would be a +funny world altogether—a world with things the way I like them. I +ought, I dare say, to go home and go into business myself. Only I’d +simply rather die—simply. And I’ve not the least difficulty in making +up my mind not to, and in knowing exactly why, and in defending my +ground against all comers. All the same,” he wound up, “I assure you I +don’t say a word against it—for himself, I mean—to Chad. I seem to see +it as much the best thing for him. You see he’s not happy.” + +“_Do_ I?”—Strether stared. “I’ve been supposing I see just the +opposite—an extraordinary case of the equilibrium arrived at and +assured.” + +“Oh there’s a lot behind it.” + +“Ah there you are!” Strether exclaimed. “That’s just what I want to get +at. You speak of your familiar volume altered out of recognition. Well, +who’s the editor?” + +Little Bilham looked before him a minute in silence. “He ought to get +married. _That_ would do it. And he wants to.” + +“Wants to marry her?” + +Again little Bilham waited, and, with a sense that he had information, +Strether scarce knew what was coming. “He wants to be free. He isn’t +used, you see,” the young man explained in his lucid way, “to being so +good.” + +Strether hesitated. “Then I may take it from you that he _is_ good?” + +His companion matched his pause, but making it up with a quiet fulness. +“_Do_ take it from me.” + +“Well then why isn’t he free? He swears to me he is, but meanwhile does +nothing—except of course that he’s so kind to me—to prove it; and +couldn’t really act much otherwise if he weren’t. My question to you +just now was exactly on this queer impression of his diplomacy: as if +instead of really giving ground his line were to keep me on here and +set me a bad example.” + +As the half-hour meanwhile had ebbed Strether paid his score, and the +waiter was presently in the act of counting out change. Our friend +pushed back to him a fraction of it, with which, after an emphatic +recognition, the personage in question retreated. “You give too much,” +little Bilham permitted himself benevolently to observe. + +“Oh I always give too much!” Strether helplessly sighed. “But you +don’t,” he went on as if to get quickly away from the contemplation of +that doom, “answer my question. Why isn’t he free?” + +Little Bilham had got up as if the transaction with the waiter had been +a signal, and had already edged out between the table and the divan. +The effect of this was that a minute later they had quitted the place, +the gratified waiter alert again at the open door. Strether had found +himself deferring to his companion’s abruptness as to a hint that he +should be answered as soon as they were more isolated. This happened +when after a few steps in the outer air they had turned the next +corner. There our friend had kept it up. “Why isn’t he free if he’s +good?” + +Little Bilham looked him full in the face. “Because it’s a virtuous +attachment.” + +This had settled the question so effectually for the time—that is for +the next few days—that it had given Strether almost a new lease of +life. It must be added however that, thanks to his constant habit of +shaking the bottle in which life handed him the wine of experience, he +presently found the taste of the lees rising as usual into his draught. +His imagination had in other words already dealt with his young +friend’s assertion; of which it had made something that sufficiently +came out on the very next occasion of his seeing Maria Gostrey. This +occasion moreover had been determined promptly by a new circumstance—a +circumstance he was the last man to leave her for a day in ignorance +of. “When I said to him last night,” he immediately began, “that +without some definite word from him now that will enable me to speak to +them over there of our sailing—or at least of mine, giving them some +sort of date—my responsibility becomes uncomfortable and my situation +awkward; when I said that to him what do you think was his reply?” And +then as she this time gave it up: “Why that he has two particular +friends, two ladies, mother and daughter, about to arrive in +Paris—coming back from an absence; and that he wants me so furiously to +meet them, know them and like them, that I shall oblige him by kindly +not bringing our business to a crisis till he has had a chance to see +them again himself. Is that,” Strether enquired, “the way he’s going to +try to get off? These are the people,” he explained, “that he must have +gone down to see before I arrived. They’re the best friends he has in +the world, and they take more interest than any one else in what +concerns him. As I’m his next best he sees a thousand reasons why we +should comfortably meet. He hasn’t broached the question sooner because +their return was uncertain—seemed in fact for the present impossible. +But he more than intimates that—if you can believe it—their desire to +make my acquaintance has had to do with their surmounting +difficulties.” + +“They’re dying to see you?” Miss Gostrey asked. + +“Dying. Of course,” said Strether, “they’re the virtuous attachment.” +He had already told her about that—had seen her the day after his talk +with little Bilham; and they had then threshed out together the bearing +of the revelation. She had helped him to put into it the logic in which +little Bilham had left it slightly deficient Strether hadn’t pressed +him as to the object of the preference so unexpectedly described; +feeling in the presence of it, with one of his irrepressible scruples, +a delicacy from which he had in the quest of the quite other article +worked himself sufficiently free. He had held off, as on a small +principle of pride, from permitting his young friend to mention a name; +wishing to make with this the great point that Chad’s virtuous +attachments were none of his business. He had wanted from the first not +to think too much of his dignity, but that was no reason for not +allowing it any little benefit that might turn up. He had often enough +wondered to what degree his interference might pass for interested; so +that there was no want of luxury in letting it be seen whenever he +could that he didn’t interfere. That had of course at the same time not +deprived him of the further luxury of much private astonishment; which +however he had reduced to some order before communicating his +knowledge. When he had done this at last it was with the remark that, +surprised as Miss Gostrey might, like himself, at first be, she would +probably agree with him on reflexion that such an account of the matter +did after all fit the confirmed appearances. Nothing certainly, on all +the indications, could have been a greater change for him than a +virtuous attachment, and since they had been in search of the “word” as +the French called it, of that change, little Bilham’s +announcement—though so long and so oddly delayed—would serve as well as +another. She had assured Strether in fact after a pause that the more +she thought of it the more it did serve; and yet her assurance hadn’t +so weighed with him as that before they parted he hadn’t ventured to +challenge her sincerity. Didn’t she believe the attachment _was_ +virtuous?—he had made sure of her again with the aid of that question. +The tidings he brought her on this second occasion were moreover such +as would help him to make surer still. + +She showed at first none the less as only amused. “You say there are +two? An attachment to them both then would, I suppose, almost +necessarily be innocent.” + +Our friend took the point, but he had his clue. “Mayn’t he be still in +the stage of not quite knowing which of them, mother or daughter, he +likes best?” + +She gave it more thought. “Oh it must be the daughter—at his age.” + +“Possibly. Yet what do we know,” Strether asked, “about hers? She may +be old enough.” + +“Old enough for what?” + +“Why to marry Chad. That may be, you know, what they want. And if Chad +wants it too, and little Bilham wants it, and even _we_, at a pinch, +could do with it—that is if she doesn’t prevent repatriation—why it may +be plain sailing yet.” + +It was always the case for him in these counsels that each of his +remarks, as it came, seemed to drop into a deeper well. He had at all +events to wait a moment to hear the slight splash of this one. “I don’t +see why if Mr. Newsome wants to marry the young lady he hasn’t already +done it or hasn’t been prepared with some statement to you about it. +And if he both wants to marry her and is on good terms with them why +isn’t he ‘free’?” + +Strether, responsively, wondered indeed. “Perhaps the girl herself +doesn’t like him.” + +“Then why does he speak of them to you as he does?” + +Strether’s mind echoed the question, but also again met it. “Perhaps +it’s with the mother he’s on good terms.” + +“As against the daughter?” + +“Well, if she’s trying to persuade the daughter to consent to him, what +could make him like the mother more? Only,” Strether threw out, “why +shouldn’t the daughter consent to him?” + +“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “mayn’t it be that every one else isn’t quite +so struck with him as you?” + +“Doesn’t regard him you mean as such an ‘eligible’ young man? _Is_ that +what I’ve come to?” he audibly and rather gravely sought to know. +“However,” he went on, “his marriage is what his mother most +desires—that is if it will help. And oughtn’t _any_ marriage to help? +They must want him”—he had already worked it out—“to be better off. +Almost any girl he may marry will have a direct interest in his taking +up his chances. It won’t suit _her_ at least that he shall miss them.” + +Miss Gostrey cast about. “No—you reason well! But of course on the +other hand there’s always dear old Woollett itself.” + +“Oh yes,” he mused—“there’s always dear old Woollett itself.” + +She waited a moment. “The young lady mayn’t find herself able to +swallow _that_ quantity. She may think it’s paying too much; she may +weigh one thing against another.” + +Strether, ever restless in such debates, took a vague turn “It will all +depend on who she is. That of course—the proved ability to deal with +dear old Woollett, since I’m sure she does deal with it—is what makes +so strongly for Mamie.” + +“Mamie?” + +He stopped short, at her tone, before her; then, though seeing that it +represented not vagueness, but a momentary embarrassed fulness, let his +exclamation come. “You surely haven’t forgotten about Mamie!” + +“No, I haven’t forgotten about Mamie,” she smiled. “There’s no doubt +whatever that there’s ever so much to be said for her. Mamie’s _my_ +girl!” she roundly declared. + +Strether resumed for a minute his walk. “She’s really perfectly lovely, +you know. Far prettier than any girl I’ve seen over here yet.” + +“That’s precisely on what I perhaps most build.” And she mused a moment +in her friend’s way. “I should positively like to take her in hand!” + +He humoured the fancy, though indeed finally to deprecate it. “Oh but +don’t, in your zeal, go over to her! I need you most and can’t, you +know, be left.” + +But she kept it up. “I wish they’d send her out to me!” + +“If they knew you,” he returned, “they would.” + +“Ah but don’t they?—after all that, as I’ve understood you you’ve told +them about me?” + +He had paused before her again, but he continued his course “They +_will_—before, as you say, I’ve done.” Then he came out with the point +he had wished after all most to make. “It seems to give away now his +game. This is what he has been doing—keeping me along for. He has been +waiting for them.” + +Miss Gostrey drew in her lips. “You see a good deal in it!” + +“I doubt if I see as much as you. Do you pretend,” he went on, “that +you don’t see—?” + +“Well, what?”—she pressed him as he paused. + +“Why that there must be a lot between them—and that it has been going +on from the first; even from before I came.” + +She took a minute to answer. “Who are they then—if it’s so grave?” + +“It mayn’t be grave—it may be gay. But at any rate it’s marked. Only I +don’t know,” Strether had to confess, “anything about them. Their name +for instance was a thing that, after little Bilham’s information, I +found it a kind of refreshment not to feel obliged to follow up.” + +“Oh,” she returned, “if you think you’ve got off—!” + +Her laugh produced in him a momentary gloom. “I don’t think I’ve got +off. I only think I’m breathing for about five minutes. I dare say I +_shall_ have, at the best, still to get on.” A look, over it all, +passed between them, and the next minute he had come back to good +humour. “I don’t meanwhile take the smallest interest in their name.” + +“Nor in their nationality?—American, French, English, Polish?” + +“I don’t care the least little ‘hang,’” he smiled, “for their +nationality. It would be nice if they’re Polish!” he almost immediately +added. + +“Very nice indeed.” The transition kept up her spirits. “So you see you +do care.” + +He did this contention a modified justice. “I think I should if they +_were_ Polish. Yes,” he thought—“there might be joy in _that_.” + +“Let us then hope for it.” But she came after this nearer to the +question. “If the girl’s of the right age of course the mother can’t +be. I mean for the virtuous attachment. If the girl’s twenty—and she +can’t be less—the mother must be at least forty. So it puts the mother +out. _She’s_ too old for him.” + +Strether, arrested again, considered and demurred. “Do you think so? Do +you think any one would be too old for him? _I’m_ eighty, and I’m too +young. But perhaps the girl,” he continued, “_isn’t_ twenty. Perhaps +she’s only ten—but such a little dear that Chad finds himself counting +her in as an attraction of the acquaintance. Perhaps she’s only five. +Perhaps the mother’s but five-and-twenty—a charming young widow.” + +Miss Gostrey entertained the suggestion. “She _is_ a widow then?” + +“I haven’t the least idea!” They once more, in spite of this vagueness, +exchanged a look—a look that was perhaps the longest yet. It seemed in +fact, the next thing, to require to explain itself; which it did as it +could. “I only feel what I’ve told you—that he has some reason.” + +Miss Gostrey’s imagination had taken its own flight. “Perhaps she’s +_not_ a widow.” + +Strether seemed to accept the possibility with reserve. Still he +accepted it. “Then that’s why the attachment—if it’s to her—is +virtuous.” + +But she looked as if she scarce followed. “Why is it virtuous if—since +she’s free—there’s nothing to impose on it any condition?” + +He laughed at her question. “Oh I perhaps don’t mean as virtuous as +_that!_ Your idea is that it can be virtuous—in any sense worthy of the +name—only if she’s _not_ free? But what does it become then,” he asked, +“for _her?_” + +“Ah that’s another matter.” He said nothing for a moment, and she soon +went on. “I dare say you’re right, at any rate, about Mr. Newsome’s +little plan. He _has_ been trying you—has been reporting on you to +these friends.” + +Strether meanwhile had had time to think more. “Then where’s his +straightness?” + +“Well, as we say, it’s struggling up, breaking out, asserting itself as +it can. We can be on the side, you see, of his straightness. We can +help him. But he has made out,” said Miss Gostrey, “that you’ll do.” + +“Do for what?” + +“Why, for _them_—for _ces dames_. He has watched you, studied you, +liked you—and recognised that _they_ must. It’s a great compliment to +you, my dear man; for I’m sure they’re particular. You came out for a +success. Well,” she gaily declared, “you’re having it!” + +He took it from her with momentary patience and then turned abruptly +away. It was always convenient to him that there were so many fine +things in her room to look at. But the examination of two or three of +them appeared soon to have determined a speech that had little to do +with them. “You don’t believe in it!” + +“In what?” + +“In the character of the attachment. In its innocence.” + +But she defended herself. “I don’t pretend to know anything about it. +Everything’s possible. We must see.” + +“See?” he echoed with a groan. “Haven’t we seen enough?” + +“_I_ haven’t,” she smiled. + +“But do you suppose then little Bilham has lied?” + +“You must find out.” + +It made him almost turn pale. “Find out any _more?_” + +He had dropped on a sofa for dismay; but she seemed, as she stood over +him, to have the last word. “Wasn’t what you came out for to find out +_all?_” + + + + +Book Fifth + + + I + +The Sunday of the next week was a wonderful day, and Chad Newsome had +let his friend know in advance that he had provided for it. There had +already been a question of his taking him to see the great Gloriani, +who was at home on Sunday afternoons and at whose house, for the most +part, fewer bores were to be met than elsewhere; but the project, +through some accident, had not had instant effect, and now revived in +happier conditions. Chad had made the point that the celebrated +sculptor had a queer old garden, for which the weather—spring at last +frank and fair—was propitious; and two or three of his other allusions +had confirmed for Strether the expectation of something special. He had +by this time, for all introductions and adventures, let himself +recklessly go, cherishing the sense that whatever the young man showed +him he was showing at least himself. He could have wished indeed, so +far as this went, that Chad were less of a mere cicerone; for he was +not without the impression—now that the vision of his game, his plan, +his deep diplomacy, did recurrently assert itself—of his taking refuge +from the realities of their intercourse in profusely dispensing, as our +friend mentally phrased it, _panem et circenses_. Our friend continued +to feel rather smothered in flowers, though he made in his other +moments the almost angry inference that this was only because of his +odious ascetic suspicion of any form of beauty. He periodically assured +himself—for his reactions were sharp—that he shouldn’t reach the truth +of anything till he had at least got rid of that. + +He had known beforehand that Madame de Vionnet and her daughter would +probably be on view, an intimation to that effect having constituted +the only reference again made by Chad to his good friends from the +south. The effect of Strether’s talk about them with Miss Gostrey had +been quite to consecrate his reluctance to pry; something in the very +air of Chad’s silence—judged in the light of that talk—offered it to +him as a reserve he could markedly match. It shrouded them about with +he scarce knew what, a consideration, a distinction; he was in presence +at any rate—so far as it placed him there—of ladies; and the one thing +that was definite for him was that they themselves should be, to the +extent of his responsibility, in presence of a gentleman. Was it +because they were very beautiful, very clever, or even very good—was it +for one of these reasons that Chad was, so to speak, nursing his +effect? Did he wish to spring them, in the Woollett phrase, with a +fuller force—to confound his critic, slight though as yet the +criticism, with some form of merit exquisitely incalculable? The most +the critic had at all events asked was whether the persons in question +were French; and that enquiry had been but a proper comment on the +sound of their name. “Yes. That is no!” had been Chad’s reply; but he +had immediately added that their English was the most charming in the +world, so that if Strether were wanting an excuse for not getting on +with them he wouldn’t in the least find one. Never in fact had +Strether—in the mood into which the place had quickly launched +him—felt, for himself, less the need of an excuse. Those he might have +found would have been, at the worst, all for the others, the people +before him, in whose liberty to be as they were he was aware that he +positively rejoiced. His fellow guests were multiplying, and these +things, their liberty, their intensity, their variety, their conditions +at large, were in fusion in the admirable medium of the scene. + +The place itself was a great impression—a small pavilion, clear-faced +and sequestered, an effect of polished parquet, of fine white panel and +spare sallow gilt, of decoration delicate and rare, in the heart of the +Faubourg Saint-Germain and on the edge of a cluster of gardens attached +to old noble houses. Far back from streets and unsuspected by crowds, +reached by a long passage and a quiet court, it was as striking to the +unprepared mind, he immediately saw, as a treasure dug up; giving him +too, more than anything yet, the note of the range of the immeasurable +town and sweeping away, as by a last brave brush, his usual landmarks +and terms. It was in the garden, a spacious cherished remnant, out of +which a dozen persons had already passed, that Chad’s host presently +met them while the tall bird-haunted trees, all of a twitter with the +spring and the weather, and the high party-walls, on the other side of +which grave _hôtels_ stood off for privacy, spoke of survival, +transmission, association, a strong indifferent persistent order. The +day was so soft that the little party had practically adjourned to the +open air but the open air was in such conditions all a chamber of +state. Strether had presently the sense of a great convent, a convent +of missions, famous for he scarce knew what, a nursery of young +priests, of scattered shade, of straight alleys and chapel-bells, that +spread its mass in one quarter; he had the sense of names in the air, +of ghosts at the windows, of signs and tokens, a whole range of +expression, all about him, too thick for prompt discrimination. + +This assault of images became for a moment, in the address of the +distinguished sculptor, almost formidable: Gloriani showed him, in such +perfect confidence, on Chad’s introduction of him, a fine worn handsome +face, a face that was like an open letter in a foreign tongue. With his +genius in his eyes, his manners on his lips, his long career behind him +and his honours and rewards all round, the great artist, in the course +of a single sustained look and a few words of delight at receiving him, +affected our friend as a dazzling prodigy of type. Strether had seen in +museums—in the Luxembourg as well as, more reverently, later on, in the +New York of the billionaires—the work of his hand; knowing too that +after an earlier time in his native Rome he had migrated, in +mid-career, to Paris, where, with a personal lustre almost violent, he +shone in a constellation: all of which was more than enough to crown +him, for his guest, with the light, with the romance, of glory. +Strether, in contact with that element as he had never yet so +intimately been, had the consciousness of opening to it, for the happy +instant, all the windows of his mind, of letting this rather grey +interior drink in for once the sun of a clime not marked in his old +geography. He was to remember again repeatedly the medal-like Italian +face, in which every line was an artist’s own, in which time told only +as tone and consecration; and he was to recall in especial, as the +penetrating radiance, as the communication of the illustrious spirit +itself, the manner in which, while they stood briefly, in welcome and +response, face to face, he was held by the sculptor’s eyes. He wasn’t +soon to forget them, was to think of them, all unconscious, +unintending, preoccupied though they were, as the source of the deepest +intellectual sounding to which he had ever been exposed. He was in fact +quite to cherish his vision of it, to play with it in idle hours; only +speaking of it to no one and quite aware he couldn’t have spoken +without appearing to talk nonsense. Was what it had told him or what it +had asked him the greater of the mysteries? Was it the most special +flare, unequalled, supreme, of the æsthetic torch, lighting that +wondrous world for ever, or was it above all the long straight shaft +sunk by a personal acuteness that life had seasoned to steel? Nothing +on earth could have been stranger and no one doubtless more surprised +than the artist himself, but it was for all the world to Strether just +then as if in the matter of his accepted duty he had positively been on +trial. The deep human expertness in Gloriani’s charming smile—oh the +terrible life behind it!—was flashed upon him as a test of his stuff. + +Chad meanwhile, after having easily named his companion, had still more +easily turned away and was already greeting other persons present. He +was as easy, clever Chad, with the great artist as with his obscure +compatriot, and as easy with every one else as with either: this fell +into its place for Strether and made almost a new light, giving him, as +a concatenation, something more he could enjoy. He liked Gloriani, but +should never see him again; of that he was sufficiently sure. Chad +accordingly, who was wonderful with both of them, was a kind of link +for hopeless fancy, an implication of possibilities—oh if everything +had been different! Strether noted at all events that he was thus on +terms with illustrious spirits, and also that—yes, distinctly—he hadn’t +in the least swaggered about it. Our friend hadn’t come there only for +this figure of Abel Newsome’s son, but that presence threatened to +affect the observant mind as positively central. Gloriani indeed, +remembering something and excusing himself, pursued Chad to speak to +him, and Strether was left musing on many things. One of them was the +question of whether, since he had been tested, he had passed. Did the +artist drop him from having made out that he wouldn’t do? He really +felt just to-day that he might do better than usual. Hadn’t he done +well enough, so far as that went, in being exactly so dazzled? and in +not having too, as he almost believed, wholly hidden from his host that +he felt the latter’s plummet? Suddenly, across the garden, he saw +little Bilham approach, and it was a part of the fit that was on him +that as their eyes met he guessed also _his_ knowledge. If he had said +to him on the instant what was uppermost he would have said: “_Have_ I +passed?—for of course I know one has to pass here.” Little Bilham would +have reassured him, have told him that he exaggerated, and have adduced +happily enough the argument of little Bilham’s own very presence; +which, in truth, he could see, was as easy a one as Gloriani’s own or +as Chad’s. He himself would perhaps then after a while cease to be +frightened, would get the point of view for some of the faces—types +tremendously alien, alien to Woollett—that he had already begun to take +in. Who were they all, the dispersed groups and couples, the ladies +even more unlike those of Woollett than the gentlemen?—this was the +enquiry that, when his young friend had greeted him, he did find +himself making. + +“Oh they’re every one—all sorts and sizes; of course I mean within +limits, though limits down perhaps rather more than limits up. There +are always artists—he’s beautiful and inimitable to the _cher +confrère_; and then _gros bonnets_ of many kinds—ambassadors, cabinet +ministers, bankers, generals, what do I know? even Jews. Above all +always some awfully nice women—and not too many; sometimes an actress, +an artist, a great performer—but only when they’re not monsters; and in +particular the right _femmes du monde_. You can fancy his history on +that side—I believe it’s fabulous: they _never_ give him up. Yet he +keeps them down: no one knows how he manages; it’s too beautiful and +bland. Never too many—and a mighty good thing too; just a perfect +choice. But there are not in any way many bores; it has always been so; +he has some secret. It’s extraordinary. And you don’t find it out. He’s +the same to every one. He doesn’t ask questions.’ + +“Ah doesn’t he?” Strether laughed. + +Bilham met it with all his candour. “How then should _I_ be here? + +“Oh for what you tell me. You’re part of the perfect choice.” + +Well, the young man took in the scene. “It seems rather good to-day.” + +Strether followed the direction of his eyes. “Are they all, this time, +_femmes du monde?_” + +Little Bilham showed his competence. “Pretty well.” + +This was a category our friend had a feeling for; a light, romantic and +mysterious, on the feminine element, in which he enjoyed for a little +watching it. “Are there any Poles?” + +His companion considered. “I think I make out a ‘Portuguee.’ But I’ve +seen Turks.” + +Strether wondered, desiring justice. “They seem—all the women—very +harmonious.” + +“Oh in closer quarters they come out!” And then, while Strether was +aware of fearing closer quarters, though giving himself again to the +harmonies, “Well,” little Bilham went on, “it _is_ at the worst rather +good, you know. If you like it, you feel it, this way, that shows +you’re not in the least out. But you always know things,” he handsomely +added, “immediately.” + +Strether liked it and felt it only too much; so “I say, don’t lay traps +for me!” he rather helplessly murmured. + +“Well,” his companion returned, “he’s wonderfully kind to _us_.” + +“To us Americans you mean?” + +“Oh no—he doesn’t know anything about _that_. That’s half the battle +here—that you can never hear politics. We don’t talk them. I mean to +poor young wretches of all sorts. And yet it’s always as charming as +this; it’s as if, by something in the air, our squalor didn’t show. It +puts us all back—into the last century.” + +“I’m afraid,” Strether said, amused, “that it puts me rather forward: +oh ever so far!” + +“Into the next? But isn’t that only,” little Bilham asked, “because +you’re really of the century before?” + +“The century before the last? Thank you!” Strether laughed. “If I ask +you about some of the ladies it can’t be then that I may hope, as such +a specimen of the rococo, to please them.” + +“On the contrary they adore—we all adore here—the rococo, and where is +there a better setting for it than the whole thing, the pavilion and +the garden, together? There are lots of people with collections,” +little Bilham smiled as he glanced round. “You’ll be secured!” + +It made Strether for a moment give himself again to contemplation. +There were faces he scarce knew what to make of. Were they charming or +were they only strange? He mightn’t talk politics, yet he suspected a +Pole or two. The upshot was the question at the back of his head from +the moment his friend had joined him. “Have Madame de Vionnet and her +daughter arrived?” + +“I haven’t seen them yet, but Miss Gostrey has come. She’s in the +pavilion looking at objects. One can see _she’s_ a collector,” little +Bilham added without offence. + +“Oh yes, she’s a collector, and I knew she was to come. Is Madame de +Vionnet a collector?” Strether went on. + +“Rather, I believe; almost celebrated.” The young man met, on it, a +little, his friend’s eyes. “I happen to know—from Chad, whom I saw last +night—that they’ve come back; but only yesterday. He wasn’t sure—up to +the last. This, accordingly,” little Bilham went on, “will be—if they +_are_ here—their first appearance after their return.” + +Strether, very quickly, turned these things over. “Chad told you last +night? To me, on our way here, he said nothing about it.” + +“But did you ask him?” + +Strether did him the justice. “I dare say not.” + +“Well,” said little Bilham, “you’re not a person to whom it’s easy to +tell things you don’t want to know. Though it _is_ easy, I admit—it’s +quite beautiful,” he benevolently added, “when you do want to.” + +Strether looked at him with an indulgence that matched his +intelligence. “Is that the deep reasoning on which—about these +ladies—you’ve been yourself so silent?” + +Little Bilham considered the depth of his reasoning. “I haven’t been +silent. I spoke of them to you the other day, the day we sat together +after Chad’s tea-party.” + +Strether came round to it. “They then are the virtuous attachment?” + +“I can only tell you that it’s what they pass for. But isn’t that +enough? What more than a vain appearance does the wisest of us know? I +commend you,” the young man declared with a pleasant emphasis, “the +vain appearance.” + +Strether looked more widely round, and what he saw, from face to face, +deepened the effect of his young friend’s words. “Is it so good?” + +“Magnificent.” + +Strether had a pause. “The husband’s dead?” + +“Dear no. Alive.” + +“Oh!” said Strether. After which, as his companion laughed: “How then +can it be so good?” + +“You’ll see for yourself. One does see.” + +“Chad’s in love with the daughter?” + +“That’s what I mean.” + +Strether wondered. “Then where’s the difficulty?” + +“Why, aren’t you and I—with our grander bolder ideas?” + +“Oh mine—!” Strether said rather strangely. But then as if to +attenuate: “You mean they won’t hear of Woollett?” + +Little Bilham smiled. “Isn’t that just what you must see about?” + +It had brought them, as she caught the last words, into relation with +Miss Barrace, whom Strether had already observed—as he had never before +seen a lady at a party—moving about alone. Coming within sound of them +she had already spoken, and she took again, through her long-handled +glass, all her amused and amusing possession. “How much, poor Mr. +Strether, you seem to have to see about! But you can’t say,” she gaily +declared, “that I don’t do what I can to help you. Mr. Waymarsh is +placed. I’ve left him in the house with Miss Gostrey.” + +“The way,” little Bilham exclaimed, “Mr. Strether gets the ladies to +work for him! He’s just preparing to draw in another; to pounce—don’t +you see him?—on Madame de Vionnet.” + +“Madame de Vionnet? Oh, oh, oh!” Miss Barrace cried in a wonderful +crescendo. There was more in it, our friend made out, than met the ear. +Was it after all a joke that he should be serious about anything? He +envied Miss Barrace at any rate her power of not being. She seemed, +with little cries and protests and quick recognitions, movements like +the darts of some fine high-feathered free-pecking bird, to stand +before life as before some full shop-window. You could fairly hear, as +she selected and pointed, the tap of her tortoise-shell against the +glass. “It’s certain that we do need seeing about; only I’m glad it’s +not I who have to do it. One does, no doubt, begin that way; then +suddenly one finds that one has given it up. It’s too much, it’s too +difficult. You’re wonderful, you people,” she continued to Strether, +“for not feeling those things—by which I mean impossibilities. You +never feel them. You face them with a fortitude that makes it a lesson +to watch you.” + +“Ah but”—little Bilham put it with discouragement—“what do we achieve +after all? We see about you and report—when we even go so far as +reporting. But nothing’s done.” + +“Oh you, Mr. Bilham,” she replied as with an impatient rap on the +glass, “you’re not worth sixpence! You come over to convert the +savages—for I know you verily did, I remember you—and the savages +simply convert _you_.” + +“Not even!” the young man woefully confessed: “they haven’t gone +through that form. They’ve simply—the cannibals!—eaten me; converted me +if you like, but converted me into food. I’m but the bleached bones of +a Christian.” + +“Well then there we are! Only”—and Miss Barrace appealed again to +Strether—“don’t let it discourage you. You’ll break down soon enough, +but you’ll meanwhile have had your moments. _Il faut en avoir_. I +always like to see you while you last. And I’ll tell you who _will_ +last.” + +“Waymarsh?”—he had already taken her up. + +She laughed out as at the alarm of it. “He’ll resist even Miss Gostrey: +so grand is it not to understand. He’s wonderful.” + +“He is indeed,” Strether conceded. “He wouldn’t tell me of this +affair—only said he had an engagement; but with such a gloom, you must +let me insist, as if it had been an engagement to be hanged. Then +silently and secretly he turns up here with you. Do you call _that_ +‘lasting’?” + +“Oh I hope it’s lasting!” Miss Barrace said. “But he only, at the best, +bears with me. He doesn’t understand—not one little scrap. He’s +delightful. He’s wonderful,” she repeated. + +“Michelangelesque!”—little Bilham completed her meaning. “He _is_ a +success. Moses, on the ceiling, brought down to the floor; +overwhelming, colossal, but somehow portable.” + +“Certainly, if you mean by portable,” she returned, “looking so well in +one’s carriage. He’s too funny beside me in his corner; he looks like +somebody, somebody foreign and famous, _en exil_; so that people +wonder—it’s very amusing—whom I’m taking about. I show him Paris, show +him everything, and he never turns a hair. He’s like the Indian chief +one reads about, who, when he comes up to Washington to see the Great +Father, stands wrapt in his blanket and gives no sign. _I_ might be the +Great Father—from the way he takes everything.” She was delighted at +this hit of her identity with that personage—it fitted so her +character; she declared it was the title she meant henceforth to adopt. +“And the way he sits, too, in the corner of my room, only looking at my +visitors very hard and as if he wanted to start something! They wonder +what he does want to start. But he’s wonderful,” Miss Barrace once more +insisted. “He has never started anything yet.” + +It presented him none the less, in truth, to her actual friends, who +looked at each other in intelligence, with frank amusement on Bilham’s +part and a shade of sadness on Strether’s. Strether’s sadness +sprang—for the image had its grandeur—from his thinking how little he +himself was wrapt in his blanket, how little, in marble halls, all too +oblivious of the Great Father, he resembled a really majestic +aboriginal. But he had also another reflexion. “You’ve all of you here +so much visual sense that you’ve somehow all ‘run’ to it. There are +moments when it strikes one that you haven’t any other.” + +“Any moral,” little Bilham explained, watching serenely, across the +garden, the several _femmes du monde_. “But Miss Barrace has a moral +distinction,” he kindly continued; speaking as if for Strether’s +benefit not less than for her own. + +“_Have_ you?” Strether, scarce knowing what he was about, asked of her +almost eagerly. + +“Oh not a distinction”—she was mightily amused at his tone—“Mr. +Bilham’s too good. But I think I may say a sufficiency. Yes, a +sufficiency. Have you supposed strange things of me?”—and she fixed him +again, through all her tortoise-shell, with the droll interest of it. +“You _are_ all indeed wonderful. I should awfully disappoint you. I do +take my stand on my sufficiency. But I know, I confess,” she went on, +“strange people. I don’t know how it happens; I don’t do it on purpose; +it seems to be my doom—as if I were always one of their habits: it’s +wonderful! I dare say moreover,” she pursued with an interested +gravity, “that I do, that we all do here, run too much to mere eye. But +how can it be helped? We’re all looking at each other—and in the light +of Paris one sees what things resemble. That’s what the light of Paris +seems always to show. It’s the fault of the light of Paris—dear old +light!” + +“Dear old Paris!” little Bilham echoed. + +“Everything, every one shows,” Miss Barrace went on. + +“But for what they really are?” Strether asked. + +“Oh I like your Boston ‘reallys’! But sometimes—yes.” + +“Dear old Paris then!” Strether resignedly sighed while for a moment +they looked at each other. Then he broke out: “Does Madame de Vionnet +do that? I mean really show for what she is?” + +Her answer was prompt. “She’s charming. She’s perfect.” + +“Then why did you a minute ago say ‘Oh, oh, oh!’ at her name?” + +She easily remembered. “Why just because—! She’s wonderful.” + +“Ah she too?”—Strether had almost a groan. + +But Miss Barrace had meanwhile perceived relief. “Why not put your +question straight to the person who can answer it best?” + +“No,” said little Bilham; “don’t put any question; wait, rather—it will +be much more fun—to judge for yourself. He has come to take you to +her.” + + + II + +On which Strether saw that Chad was again at hand, and he afterwards +scarce knew, absurd as it may seem, what had then quickly occurred. The +moment concerned him, he felt, more deeply than he could have +explained, and he had a subsequent passage of speculation as to +whether, on walking off with Chad, he hadn’t looked either pale or red. +The only thing he was clear about was that, luckily, nothing indiscreet +had in fact been said and that Chad himself was more than ever, in Miss +Barrace’s great sense, wonderful. It was one of the connexions—though +really why it should be, after all, was none so apparent—in which the +whole change in him came out as most striking. Strether recalled as +they approached the house that he had impressed him that first night as +knowing how to enter a box. Well, he impressed him scarce less now as +knowing how to make a presentation. It did something for Strether’s own +quality—marked it as estimated; so that our poor friend, conscious and +passive, really seemed to feel himself quite handed over and delivered; +absolutely, as he would have said, made a present of, given away. As +they reached the house a young woman, about to come forth, appeared, +unaccompanied, on the steps; at the exchange with whom of a word on +Chad’s part Strether immediately perceived that, obligingly, kindly, +she was there to meet them. Chad had left her in the house, but she had +afterwards come halfway and then the next moment had joined them in the +garden. Her air of youth, for Strether, was at first almost +disconcerting, while his second impression was, not less sharply, a +degree of relief at there not having just been, with the others, any +freedom used about her. It was upon him at a touch that she was no +subject for that, and meanwhile, on Chad’s introducing him, she had +spoken to him, very simply and gently, in an English clearly of the +easiest to her, yet unlike any other he had ever heard. It wasn’t as if +she tried; nothing, he could see after they had been a few minutes +together, was as if she tried; but her speech, charming correct and +odd, was like a precaution against her passing for a Pole. There were +precautions, he seemed indeed to see, only when there were really +dangers. + +Later on he was to feel many more of them, but by that time he was to +feel other things besides. She was dressed in black, but in black that +struck him as light and transparent; she was exceedingly fair, and, +though she was as markedly slim, her face had a roundness, with eyes +far apart and a little strange. Her smile was natural and dim; her hat +not extravagant; he had only perhaps a sense of the clink, beneath her +fine black sleeves, of more gold bracelets and bangles than he had ever +seen a lady wear. Chad was excellently free and light about their +encounter; it was one of the occasions on which Strether most wished he +himself might have arrived at such ease and such humour: “Here you are +then, face to face at last; you’re made for each other—_vous allez +voir_; and I bless your union.” It was indeed, after he had gone off, +as if he had been partly serious too. This latter motion had been +determined by an enquiry from him about “Jeanne”; to which her mother +had replied that she was probably still in the house with Miss Gostrey, +to whom she had lately committed her. “Ah but you know,” the young man +had rejoined, “he must see her”; with which, while Strether pricked up +his ears, he had started as if to bring her, leaving the other objects +of his interest together. Strether wondered to find Miss Gostrey +already involved, feeling that he missed a link; but feeling also, with +small delay, how much he should like to talk with her of Madame de +Vionnet on this basis of evidence. + +The evidence as yet in truth was meagre; which, for that matter, was +perhaps a little why his expectation had had a drop. There was somehow +not quite a wealth in her; and a wealth was all that, in his +simplicity, he had definitely prefigured. Still, it was too much to be +sure already that there was but a poverty. They moved away from the +house, and, with eyes on a bench at some distance, he proposed that +they should sit down. “I’ve heard a great deal about you,” she said as +they went; but he had an answer to it that made her stop short. “Well, +about _you_, Madame de Vionnet, I’ve heard, I’m bound to say, almost +nothing”—those struck him as the only words he himself could utter with +any lucidity; conscious as he was, and as with more reason, of the +determination to be in respect to the rest of his business perfectly +plain and go perfectly straight. It hadn’t at any rate been in the +least his idea to spy on Chad’s proper freedom. It was possibly, +however, at this very instant and under the impression of Madame de +Vionnet’s pause, that going straight began to announce itself as a +matter for care. She had only after all to smile at him ever so gently +in order to make him ask himself if he weren’t already going crooked. +It might be going crooked to find it of a sudden just only clear that +she intended very definitely to be what he would have called nice to +him. This was what passed between them while, for another instant, they +stood still; he couldn’t at least remember afterwards what else it +might have been. The thing indeed really unmistakeable was its rolling +over him as a wave that he had been, in conditions incalculable and +unimaginable, a subject of discussion. He had been, on some ground that +concerned her, answered for; which gave her an advantage he should +never be able to match. + +“Hasn’t Miss Gostrey,” she asked, “said a good word for me?” + +What had struck him first was the way he was bracketed with that lady; +and he wondered what account Chad would have given of their +acquaintance. Something not as yet traceable, at all events, had +obviously happened. “I didn’t even know of her knowing you.” + +“Well, now she’ll tell you all. I’m so glad you’re in relation with +her.” + +This was one of the things—the “all” Miss Gostrey would now tell +him—that, with every deference to present preoccupation, was uppermost +for Strether after they had taken their seat. One of the others was, at +the end of five minutes, that she—oh incontestably, yes—_differed_ +less; differed, that is, scarcely at all—well, superficially speaking, +from Mrs. Newsome or even from Mrs. Pocock. She was ever so much +younger than the one and not so young as the other; but what _was_ +there in her, if anything, that would have made it impossible he should +meet her at Woollett? And wherein was her talk during their moments on +the bench together not the same as would have been found adequate for a +Woollett garden-party?—unless perhaps truly in not being quite so +bright. She observed to him that Mr. Newsome had, to her knowledge, +taken extraordinary pleasure in his visit; but there was no good lady +at Woollett who wouldn’t have been at least up to that. Was there in +Chad, by chance, after all, deep down, a principle of aboriginal +loyalty that had made him, for sentimental ends, attach himself to +elements, happily encountered, that would remind him most of the old +air and the old soil? Why accordingly be in a flutter—Strether could +even put it that way—about this unfamiliar phenomenon of the _femme du +monde?_ On these terms Mrs. Newsome herself was as much of one. Little +Bilham verily had testified that they came out, the ladies of the type, +in close quarters; but it was just in these quarters—now comparatively +close—that he felt Madame de Vionnet’s common humanity. She did come +out, and certainly to his relief, but she came out as the usual thing. +There might be motives behind, but so could there often be even at +Woollett. The only thing was that if she showed him she wished to like +him—as the motives behind might conceivably prompt—it would possibly +have been more thrilling for him that she should have shown as more +vividly alien. Ah she was neither Turk nor Pole!—which would be indeed +flat once more for Mrs. Newsome and Mrs. Pocock. A lady and two +gentlemen had meanwhile, however, approached their bench, and this +accident stayed for the time further developments. + +They presently addressed his companion, the brilliant strangers; she +rose to speak to them, and Strether noted how the escorted lady, though +mature and by no means beautiful, had more of the bold high look, the +range of expensive reference, that he had, as might have been said, +made his plans for. Madame de Vionnet greeted her as “Duchesse” and was +greeted in turn, while talk started in French, as “Ma toute-belle”; +little facts that had their due, their vivid interest for Strether. +Madame de Vionnet didn’t, none the less, introduce him—a note he was +conscious of as false to the Woollett scale and the Woollett humanity; +though it didn’t prevent the Duchess, who struck him as confident and +free, very much what he had obscurely supposed duchesses, from looking +at him as straight and as hard—for it _was_ hard—as if she would have +liked, all the same, to know him. “Oh yes, my dear, it’s all right, +it’s _me_; and who are _you_, with your interesting wrinkles and your +most effective (is it the handsomest, is it the ugliest?) of +noses?”—some such loose handful of bright flowers she seemed, +fragrantly enough, to fling at him. Strether almost wondered—at such a +pace was he going—if some divination of the influence of either party +were what determined Madame de Vionnet’s abstention. One of the +gentlemen, in any case, succeeded in placing himself in close relation +with our friend’s companion; a gentleman rather stout and importantly +short, in a hat with a wonderful wide curl to its brim and a frock coat +buttoned with an effect of superlative decision. His French had quickly +turned to equal English, and it occurred to Strether that he might well +be one of the ambassadors. His design was evidently to assert a claim +to Madame de Vionnet’s undivided countenance, and he made it good in +the course of a minute—led her away with a trick of three words; a +trick played with a social art of which Strether, looking after them as +the four, whose backs were now all turned, moved off, felt himself no +master. + +He sank again upon his bench and, while his eyes followed the party, +reflected, as he had done before, on Chad’s strange communities. He sat +there alone for five minutes, with plenty to think of; above all with +his sense of having suddenly been dropped by a charming woman overlaid +now by other impressions and in fact quite cleared and indifferent. He +hadn’t yet had so quiet a surrender; he didn’t in the least care if +nobody spoke to him more. He might have been, by his attitude, in for +something of a march so broad that the want of ceremony with which he +had just been used could fall into its place as but a minor incident of +the procession. Besides, there would be incidents enough, as he felt +when this term of contemplation was closed by the reappearance of +little Bilham, who stood before him a moment with a suggestive “Well?” +in which he saw himself reflected as disorganised, as possibly floored. +He replied with a “Well!” intended to show that he wasn’t floored in +the least. No indeed; he gave it out, as the young man sat down beside +him, that if, at the worst, he had been overturned at all, he had been +overturned into the upper air, the sublimer element with which he had +an affinity and in which he might be trusted a while to float. It +wasn’t a descent to earth to say after an instant and in sustained +response to the reference: “You’re quite sure her husband’s living?” + +“Oh dear, yes.” + +“Ah then—!” + +“Ah then what?” + +Strether had after all to think. “Well, I’m sorry for them.” But it +didn’t for the moment matter more than that. He assured his young +friend he was quite content. They wouldn’t stir; were all right as they +were. He didn’t want to be introduced; had been introduced already +about as far as he could go. He had seen moreover an immensity; liked +Gloriani, who, as Miss Barrace kept saying, was wonderful; had made +out, he was sure, the half-dozen other men who were distinguished, the +artists, the critics and oh the great dramatist—_him_ it was easy to +spot; but wanted—no, thanks, really—to talk with none of them; having +nothing at all to say and finding it would do beautifully as it was; do +beautifully because what it was—well, was just simply too late. And +when after this little Bilham, submissive and responsive, but with an +eye to the consolation nearest, easily threw off some “Better late than +never!” all he got in return for it was a sharp “Better early than +late!” This note indeed the next thing overflowed for Strether into a +quiet stream of demonstration that as soon as he had let himself go he +felt as the real relief. It had consciously gathered to a head, but the +reservoir had filled sooner than he knew, and his companion’s touch was +to make the waters spread. There were some things that had to come in +time if they were to come at all. If they didn’t come in time they were +lost for ever. It was the general sense of them that had overwhelmed +him with its long slow rush. + +“It’s not too late for _you_, on any side, and you don’t strike me as +in danger of missing the train; besides which people can be in general +pretty well trusted, of course—with the clock of their freedom ticking +as loud as it seems to do here—to keep an eye on the fleeting hour. All +the same don’t forget that you’re young—blessedly young; be glad of it +on the contrary and live up to it. Live all you can; it’s a mistake not +to. It doesn’t so much matter what you do in particular, so long as you +have your life. If you haven’t had that what _have_ you had? This place +and these impressions—mild as you may find them to wind a man up so; +all my impressions of Chad and of people I’ve seen at _his_ place—well, +have had their abundant message for me, have just dropped _that_ into +my mind. I see it now. I haven’t done so enough before—and now I’m old; +too old at any rate for what I see. Oh I _do_ see, at least; and more +than you’d believe or I can express. It’s too late. And it’s as if the +train had fairly waited at the station for me without my having had the +gumption to know it was there. Now I hear its faint receding whistle +miles and miles down the line. What one loses one loses; make no +mistake about that. The affair—I mean the affair of life—couldn’t, no +doubt, have been different for me; for it’s at the best a tin mould, +either fluted and embossed, with ornamental excrescences, or else +smooth and dreadfully plain, into which, a helpless jelly, one’s +consciousness is poured—so that one ‘takes’ the form as the great cook +says, and is more or less compactly held by it: one lives in fine as +one can. Still, one has the illusion of freedom; therefore don’t be, +like me, without the memory of that illusion. I was either, at the +right time, too stupid or too intelligent to have it; I don’t quite +know which. Of course at present I’m a case of reaction against the +mistake; and the voice of reaction should, no doubt, always be taken +with an allowance. But that doesn’t affect the point that the right +time is now yours. The right time is _any_ time that one is still so +lucky as to have. You’ve plenty; that’s the great thing; you’re, as I +say, damn you, so happily and hatefully young. Don’t at any rate miss +things out of stupidity. Of course I don’t take you for a fool, or I +shouldn’t be addressing you thus awfully. Do what you like so long as +you don’t make _my_ mistake. For it was a mistake. Live!” ... Slowly +and sociably, with full pauses and straight dashes, Strether had so +delivered himself; holding little Bilham from step to step deeply and +gravely attentive. The end of all was that the young man had turned +quite solemn, and that this was a contradiction of the innocent gaiety +the speaker had wished to promote. He watched for a moment the +consequence of his words, and then, laying a hand on his listener’s +knee and as if to end with the proper joke: “And now for the eye I +shall keep on you!” + +“Oh but I don’t know that I want to be, at your age, too different from +you!” + +“Ah prepare while you’re about it,” said Strether, “to be more +amusing.” + +Little Bilham continued to think, but at last had a smile. “Well, you +_are_ amusing—to _me_.” + +“_Impayable_, as you say, no doubt. But what am I to myself?” Strether +had risen with this, giving his attention now to an encounter that, in +the middle of the garden, was in the act of taking place between their +host and the lady at whose side Madame de Vionnet had quitted him. This +lady, who appeared within a few minutes to have left her friends, +awaited Gloriani’s eager approach with words on her lips that Strether +couldn’t catch, but of which her interesting witty face seemed to give +him the echo. He was sure she was prompt and fine, but also that she +had met her match, and he liked—in the light of what he was quite sure +was the Duchess’s latent insolence—the good humour with which the great +artist asserted equal resources. Were they, this pair, of the “great +world”?—and was he himself, for the moment and thus related to them by +his observation, _in_ it? Then there was something in the great world +covertly tigerish, which came to him across the lawn and in the +charming air as a waft from the jungle. Yet it made him admire most of +the two, made him envy, the glossy male tiger, magnificently marked. +These absurdities of the stirred sense, fruits of suggestion ripening +on the instant, were all reflected in his next words to little Bilham. +“I know—if we talk of that—whom _I_ should enjoy being like!” + +Little Bilham followed his eyes; but then as with a shade of knowing +surprise: “Gloriani?” + +Our friend had in fact already hesitated, though not on the hint of his +companion’s doubt, in which there were depths of critical reserve. He +had just made out, in the now full picture, something and somebody +else; another impression had been superimposed. A young girl in a white +dress and a softly plumed white hat had suddenly come into view, and +what was presently clear was that her course was toward them. What was +clearer still was that the handsome young man at her side was Chad +Newsome, and what was clearest of all was that she was therefore +Mademoiselle de Vionnet, that she was unmistakeably pretty—bright +gentle shy happy wonderful—and that Chad now, with a consummate +calculation of effect, was about to present her to his old friend’s +vision. What was clearest of all indeed was something much more than +this, something at the single stroke of which—and wasn’t it simply +juxtaposition?—all vagueness vanished. It was the click of a spring—he +saw the truth. He had by this time also met Chad’s look; there was more +of it in that; and the truth, accordingly, so far as Bilham’s enquiry +was concerned, had thrust in the answer. “Oh Chad!”—it was that rare +youth he should have enjoyed being “like.” The virtuous attachment +would be all there before him; the virtuous attachment would be in the +very act of appeal for his blessing; Jeanne de Vionnet, this charming +creature, would be exquisitely, intensely now—the object of it. Chad +brought her straight up to him, and Chad was, oh yes, at this +moment—for the glory of Woollett or whatever—better still even than +Gloriani. He had plucked this blossom; he had kept it over-night in +water; and at last as he held it up to wonder he did enjoy his effect. +That was why Strether had felt at first the breath of calculation—and +why moreover, as he now knew, his look at the girl would be, for the +young man, a sign of the latter’s success. What young man had ever +paraded about that way, without a reason, a maiden in her flower? And +there was nothing in his reason at present obscure. Her type +sufficiently told of it—they wouldn’t, they couldn’t, want her to go to +Woollett. Poor Woollett, and what it might miss!—though brave Chad +indeed too, and what it might gain! Brave Chad however had just +excellently spoken. “This is a good little friend of mine who knows all +about you and has moreover a message for you. And this, my dear”—he had +turned to the child herself—“is the best man in the world, who has it +in his power to do a great deal for us and whom I want you to like and +revere as nearly as possible as much as I do.” + +She stood there quite pink, a little frightened, prettier and prettier +and not a bit like her mother. There was in this last particular no +resemblance but that of youth to youth; and here was in fact suddenly +Strether’s sharpest impression. It went wondering, dazed, embarrassed, +back to the woman he had just been talking with; it was a revelation in +the light of which he already saw she would become more interesting. So +slim and fresh and fair, she had yet put forth this perfection; so that +for really believing it of her, for seeing her to any such developed +degree as a mother, comparison would be urgent. Well, what was it now +but fairly thrust upon him? “Mamma wishes me to tell you before we go,” +the girl said, “that she hopes very much you’ll come to see us very +soon. She has something important to say to you.” + +“She quite reproaches herself,” Chad helpfully explained: “you were +interesting her so much when she accidentally suffered you to be +interrupted.” + +“Ah don’t mention it!” Strether murmured, looking kindly from one to +the other and wondering at many things. + +“And I’m to ask you for myself,” Jeanne continued with her hands +clasped together as if in some small learnt prayer—“I’m to ask you for +myself if you won’t positively come.” + +“Leave it to me, dear—I’ll take care of it!” Chad genially declared in +answer to this, while Strether himself almost held his breath. What was +in the girl was indeed too soft, too unknown for direct dealing; so +that one could only gaze at it as at a picture, quite staying one’s own +hand. But with Chad he was now on ground—Chad he could meet; so +pleasant a confidence in that and in everything did the young man +freely exhale. There was the whole of a story in his tone to his +companion, and he spoke indeed as if already of the family. It made +Strether guess the more quickly what it might be about which Madame de +Vionnet was so urgent. Having seen him then she had found him easy; she +wished to have it out with him that some way for the young people must +be discovered, some way that would not impose as a condition the +transplantation of her daughter. He already saw himself discussing with +this lady the attractions of Woollett as a residence for Chad’s +companion. Was that youth going now to trust her with the affair—so +that it would be after all with one of his “lady-friends” that his +mother’s missionary should be condemned to deal? It was quite as if for +an instant the two men looked at each other on this question. But there +was no mistaking at last Chad’s pride in the display of such a +connexion. This was what had made him so carry himself while, three +minutes before, he was bringing it into view; what had caused his +friend, first catching sight of him, to be so struck with his air. It +was, in a word, just when he thus finally felt Chad putting things +straight off on him that he envied him, as he had mentioned to little +Bilham, most. The whole exhibition however was but a matter of three or +four minutes, and the author of it had soon explained that, as Madame +de Vionnet was immediately going “on,” this could be for Jeanne but a +snatch. They would all meet again soon, and Strether was meanwhile to +stay and amuse himself—“I’ll pick you up again in plenty of time.” He +took the girl off as he had brought her, and Strether, with the faint +sweet foreignness of her “Au revoir, monsieur!” in his ears as a note +almost unprecedented, watched them recede side by side and felt how, +once more, her companion’s relation to her got an accent from it. They +disappeared among the others and apparently into the house; whereupon +our friend turned round to give out to little Bilham the conviction of +which he was full. But there was no little Bilham any more; little +Bilham had within the few moments, for reasons of his own, proceeded +further: a circumstance by which, in its order, Strether was also +sensibly affected. + + + III + +Chad was not in fact on this occasion to keep his promise of coming +back; but Miss Gostrey had soon presented herself with an explanation +of his failure. There had been reasons at the last for his going off +with _ces dames_; and he had asked her with much instance to come out +and take charge of their friend. She did so, Strether felt as she took +her place beside him, in a manner that left nothing to desire. He had +dropped back on his bench, alone again for a time, and the more +conscious for little Bilham’s defection of his unexpressed thought; in +respect to which however this next converser was a still more capacious +vessel. “It’s the child!” he had exclaimed to her almost as soon as she +appeared; and though her direct response was for some time delayed he +could feel in her meanwhile the working of this truth. It might have +been simply, as she waited, that they were now in presence altogether +of truth spreading like a flood and not for the moment to be offered +her in the mere cupful; inasmuch as who should _ces dames_ prove to be +but persons about whom—once thus face to face with them—she found she +might from the first have told him almost everything? This would have +freely come had he taken the simple precaution of giving her their +name. There could be no better example—and she appeared to note it with +high amusement—than the way, making things out already so much for +himself, he was at last throwing precautions to the winds. They were +neither more nor less, she and the child’s mother, than old +school-friends—friends who had scarcely met for years but whom this +unlooked-for chance had brought together with a rush. It was a relief, +Miss Gostrey hinted, to feel herself no longer groping; she was +unaccustomed to grope and as a general thing, he might well have seen, +made straight enough for her clue. With the one she had now picked up +in her hands there need be at least no waste of wonder. “She’s coming +to see me—that’s for _you_,” Strether’s counsellor continued; “but I +don’t require it to know where I am.” + +The waste of wonder might be proscribed; but Strether, +characteristically, was even by this time in the immensity of space. +“By which you mean that you know where _she_ is?” + +She just hesitated. “I mean that if she comes to see me I shall—now +that I’ve pulled myself round a bit after the shock—not be at home.” + +Strether hung poised. “You call it—your recognition—a shock?” + +She gave one of her rare flickers of impatience. “It was a surprise, an +emotion. Don’t be so literal. I wash my hands of her.” + +Poor Strether’s face lengthened. “She’s impossible—?” + +“She’s even more charming than I remembered her.” + +“Then what’s the matter?” + +She had to think how to put it. “Well, _I’m_ impossible. It’s +impossible. Everything’s impossible.” + +He looked at her an instant. “I see where you’re coming out. +Everything’s possible.” Their eyes had on it in fact an exchange of +some duration; after which he pursued: “Isn’t it that beautiful child?” +Then as she still said nothing: “Why don’t you mean to receive her?” + +Her answer in an instant rang clear. “Because I wish to keep out of the +business.” + +It provoked in him a weak wail. “You’re going to abandon me _now?_” + +“No, I’m only going to abandon _her_. She’ll want me to help her with +you. And I won’t.” + +“You’ll only help me with her? Well then—!” Most of the persons +previously gathered had, in the interest of tea, passed into the house, +and they had the gardens mainly to themselves. The shadows were long, +the last call of the birds, who had made a home of their own in the +noble interspaced quarter, sounded from the high trees in the other +gardens as well, those of the old convent and of the old _hôtels_; it +was as if our friends had waited for the full charm to come out. +Strether’s impressions were still present; it was as if something had +happened that “nailed” them, made them more intense; but he was to ask +himself soon afterwards, that evening, what really _had_ +happened—conscious as he could after all remain that for a gentleman +taken, and taken the first time, into the “great world,” the world of +ambassadors and duchesses, the items made a meagre total. It was +nothing new to him, however, as we know, that a man might have—at all +events such a man as he—an amount of experience out of any proportion +to his adventures; so that, though it was doubtless no great adventure +to sit on there with Miss Gostrey and hear about Madame de Vionnet, the +hour, the picture, the immediate, the recent, the possible—as well as +the communication itself, not a note of which failed to +reverberate—only gave the moments more of the taste of history. + +It was history, to begin with, that Jeanne’s mother had been +three-and-twenty years before, at Geneva, schoolmate and good +girlfriend to Maria Gostrey, who had moreover enjoyed since then, +though interruptedly and above all with a long recent drop, other +glimpses of her. Twenty-three years put them both on, no doubt; and +Madame de Vionnet—though she had married straight after school—couldn’t +be today an hour less than thirty-eight. This made her ten years older +than Chad—though ten years, also, if Strether liked, older than she +looked; the least, at any rate, that a prospective mother-in-law could +be expected to do with. She would be of all mothers-in-law the most +charming; unless indeed, through some perversity as yet insupposeable, +she should utterly belie herself in that relation. There was none +surely in which, as Maria remembered her, she mustn’t be charming; and +this frankly in spite of the stigma of failure in the tie where failure +always most showed. It was no test there—when indeed _was_ it a test +there?—for Monsieur de Vionnet had been a brute. She had lived for +years apart from him—which was of course always a horrid position; but +Miss Gostrey’s impression of the matter had been that she could scarce +have made a better thing of it had she done it on purpose to show she +was amiable. She was so amiable that nobody had had a word to say; +which was luckily not the case for her husband. He was so impossible +that she had the advantage of all her merits. + +It was still history for Strether that the Comte de Vionnet—it being +also history that the lady in question was a Countess—should now, under +Miss Gostrey’s sharp touch, rise before him as a high distinguished +polished impertinent reprobate, the product of a mysterious order; it +was history, further, that the charming girl so freely sketched by his +companion should have been married out of hand by a mother, another +figure of striking outline, full of dark personal motive; it was +perhaps history most of all that this company was, as a matter of +course, governed by such considerations as put divorce out of the +question. “_Ces gens-là_ don’t divorce, you know, any more than they +emigrate or abjure—they think it impious and vulgar”; a fact in the +light of which they seemed but the more richly special. It was all +special; it was all, for Strether’s imagination, more or less rich. The +girl at the Genevese school, an isolated interesting attaching +creature, then both sensitive and violent, audacious but always +forgiven, was the daughter of a French father and an English mother +who, early left a widow, had married again—tried afresh with a +foreigner; in her career with whom she had apparently given her child +no example of comfort. All these people—the people of the English +mother’s side—had been of condition more or less eminent; yet with +oddities and disparities that had often since made Maria, thinking them +over, wonder what they really quite rhymed to. It was in any case her +belief that the mother, interested and prone to adventure, had been +without conscience, had only thought of ridding herself most quickly of +a possible, an actual encumbrance. The father, by her impression, a +Frenchman with a name one knew, had been a different matter, leaving +his child, she clearly recalled, a memory all fondness, as well as an +assured little fortune which was unluckily to make her more or less of +a prey later on. She had been in particular, at school, dazzlingly, +though quite booklessly, clever; as polyglot as a little Jewess (which +she wasn’t, oh no!) and chattering French, English, German, Italian, +anything one would, in a way that made a clean sweep, if not of prizes +and parchments, at least of every “part,” whether memorised or +improvised, in the curtained costumed school repertory, and in especial +of all mysteries of race and vagueness of reference, all swagger about +“home,” among their variegated mates. + +It would doubtless be difficult to-day, as between French and English, +to name her and place her; she would certainly show, on knowledge, Miss +Gostrey felt, as one of those convenient types who don’t keep you +explaining—minds with doors as numerous as the many-tongued cluster of +confessionals at Saint Peter’s. You might confess to her with +confidence in Roumelian, and even Roumelian sins. Therefore—! But +Strether’s narrator covered her implication with a laugh; a laugh by +which his betrayal of a sense of the lurid in the picture was also +perhaps sufficiently protected. He had a moment of wondering, while his +friend went on, what sins might be especially Roumelian. She went on at +all events to the mention of her having met the young thing—again by +some Swiss lake—in her first married state, which had appeared for the +few intermediate years not at least violently disturbed. She had been +lovely at that moment, delightful to _her_, full of responsive emotion, +of amused recognitions and amusing reminders, and then once more, much +later, after a long interval, equally but differently charming—touching +and rather mystifying for the five minutes of an encounter at a +railway-station _en province_, during which it had come out that her +life was all changed. Miss Gostrey had understood enough to see, +essentially, what had happened, and yet had beautifully dreamed that +she was herself faultless. There were doubtless depths in her, but she +was all right; Strether would see if she wasn’t. She was another person +however—that had been promptly marked—from the small child of nature at +the Geneva school, a little person quite made over (as foreign women +_were_, compared with American) by marriage. Her situation too had +evidently cleared itself up; there would have been—all that was +possible—a judicial separation. She had settled in Paris, brought up +her daughter, steered her boat. It was no very pleasant boat—especially +there—to be in; but Marie de Vionnet would have headed straight. She +would have friends, certainly—and very good ones. There she was at all +events—and it was very interesting. Her knowing Mr. Chad didn’t in the +least prove she hadn’t friends; what it proved was what good ones _he_ +had. “I saw that,” said Miss Gostrey, “that night at the Français; it +came out for me in three minutes. I saw _her_—or somebody like her. And +so,” she immediately added, “did you.” + +“Oh no—not anybody like her!” Strether laughed. “But you mean,” he as +promptly went on, “that she has had such an influence on him?” + +Miss Gostrey was on her feet; it was time for them to go. “She has +brought him up for her daughter.” + +Their eyes, as so often, in candid conference, through their settled +glasses, met over it long; after which Strether’s again took in the +whole place. They were quite alone there now. “Mustn’t she rather—in +the time then—have rushed it?” + +“Ah she won’t of course have lost an hour. But that’s just the good +mother—the good French one. You must remember that of her—that as a +mother she’s French, and that for them there’s a special providence. It +precisely however—that she mayn’t have been able to begin as far back +as she’d have liked—makes her grateful for aid.” + +Strether took this in as they slowly moved to the house on their way +out. “She counts on me then to put the thing through?” + +“Yes—she counts on you. Oh and first of all of course,” Miss Gostrey +added, “on her—well, convincing you.” + +“Ah,” her friend returned, “she caught Chad young!” + +“Yes, but there are women who are for all your ‘times of life.’ They’re +the most wonderful sort.” + +She had laughed the words out, but they brought her companion, the next +thing, to a stand. “Is what you mean that she’ll try to make a fool of +me?” + +“Well, I’m wondering what she _will_—with an opportunity—make.” + +“What do you call,” Strether asked, “an opportunity? My going to see +her?” + +“Ah you must go to see her”—Miss Gostrey was a trifle evasive. “You +can’t not do that. You’d have gone to see the other woman. I mean if +there had been one—a different sort. It’s what you came out for.” + +It might be; but Strether distinguished. “I didn’t come out to see +_this_ sort.” + +She had a wonderful look at him now. “Are you disappointed she isn’t +worse?” + +He for a moment entertained the question, then found for it the +frankest of answers. “Yes. If she were worse she’d be better for our +purpose. It would be simpler.” + +“Perhaps,” she admitted. “But won’t this be pleasanter?” + +“Ah you know,” he promptly replied, “I didn’t come out—wasn’t that just +what you originally reproached me with?—for the pleasant.” + +“Precisely. Therefore I say again what I said at first. You must take +things as they come. Besides,” Miss Gostrey added, “I’m not afraid for +myself.” + +“For yourself—?” + +“Of your seeing her. I trust her. There’s nothing she’ll say about me. +In fact there’s nothing she _can_.” + +Strether wondered—little as he had thought of this. Then he broke out. +“Oh you women!” + +There was something in it at which she flushed. “Yes—there we are. +We’re abysses.” At last she smiled. “But I risk her!” + +He gave himself a shake. “Well then so do I!” But he added as they +passed into the house that he would see Chad the first thing in the +morning. + +This was the next day the more easily effected that the young man, as +it happened, even before he was down, turned up at his hotel. Strether +took his coffee, by habit, in the public room; but on his descending +for this purpose Chad instantly proposed an adjournment to what he +called greater privacy. He had himself as yet had nothing—they would +sit down somewhere together; and when after a few steps and a turn into +the Boulevard they had, for their greater privacy, sat down among +twenty others, our friend saw in his companion’s move a fear of the +advent of Waymarsh. It was the first time Chad had to that extent given +this personage “away”; and Strether found himself wondering of what it +was symptomatic. He made out in a moment that the youth was in earnest +as he hadn’t yet seen him; which in its turn threw a ray perhaps a +trifle startling on what they had each up to that time been treating as +earnestness. It was sufficiently flattering however that the real +thing—if this _was_ at last the real thing—should have been determined, +as appeared, precisely by an accretion of Strether’s importance. For +this was what it quickly enough came to—that Chad, rising with the +lark, had rushed down to let him know while his morning consciousness +was yet young that he had literally made the afternoon before a +tremendous impression. Madame de Vionnet wouldn’t, couldn’t rest till +she should have some assurance from him that he _would_ consent again +to see her. The announcement was made, across their marble-topped +table, while the foam of the hot milk was in their cups and its plash +still in the air, with the smile of Chad’s easiest urbanity; and this +expression of his face caused our friend’s doubts to gather on the spot +into a challenge of the lips. “See here”—that was all; he only for the +moment said again “See here.” Chad met it with all his air of straight +intelligence, while Strether remembered again that fancy of the first +impression of him, the happy young Pagan, handsome and hard but oddly +indulgent, whose mysterious measure he had under the street-lamp tried +mentally to take. The young Pagan, while a long look passed between +them, sufficiently understood. Strether scarce needed at last to say +the rest—“I want to know where I am.” But he said it, adding before any +answer something more. “Are you engaged to be married—is that your +secret?—to the young lady?” + +Chad shook his head with the slow amenity that was one of his ways of +conveying that there was time for everything. “I have no secret—though +I may have secrets! I haven’t at any rate that one. We’re not engaged. +No.” + +“Then where’s the hitch?” + +“Do you mean why I haven’t already started with you?” Chad, beginning +his coffee and buttering his roll, was quite ready to explain. “Nothing +would have induced me—nothing will still induce me—not to try to keep +you here as long as you can be made to stay. It’s too visibly good for +you.” Strether had himself plenty to say about this, but it was amusing +also to measure the march of Chad’s tone. He had never been more a man +of the world, and it was always in his company present to our friend +that one was seeing how in successive connexions a man of the world +acquitted himself. Chad kept it up beautifully. “My idea—_voyons!_—is +simply that you should let Madame de Vionnet know you, simply that you +should consent to know _her_. I don’t in the least mind telling you +that, clever and charming as she is, she’s ever so much in my +confidence. All I ask of you is to let her talk to you. You’ve asked me +about what you call my hitch, and so far as it goes she’ll explain it +to you. She’s herself my hitch, hang it—if you must really have it all +out. But in a sense,” he hastened in the most wonderful manner to add, +“that you’ll quite make out for yourself. She’s too good a friend, +confound her. Too good, I mean, for me to leave without—without—” It +was his first hesitation. + +“Without what?” + +“Well, without my arranging somehow or other the damnable terms of my +sacrifice.” + +“It _will_ be a sacrifice then?” + +“It will be the greatest loss I ever suffered. I owe her so much.” + +It was beautiful, the way Chad said these things, and his plea was now +confessedly—oh quite flagrantly and publicly—interesting. The moment +really took on for Strether an intensity. Chad owed Madame de Vionnet +so much? What _did_ that do then but clear up the whole mystery? He was +indebted for alterations, and she was thereby in a position to have +sent in her bill for expenses incurred in reconstruction. What was this +at bottom but what had been to be arrived at? Strether sat there +arriving at it while he munched toast and stirred his second cup. To do +this with the aid of Chad’s pleasant earnest face was also to do more +besides. No, never before had he been so ready to take him as he was. +What was it that had suddenly so cleared up? It was just everybody’s +character; that is everybody’s but—in a measure—his own. Strether felt +_his_ character receive for the instant a smutch from all the wrong +things he had suspected or believed. The person to whom Chad owed it +that he could positively turn out such a comfort to other persons—such +a person was sufficiently raised above any “breath” by the nature of +her work and the young man’s steady light. All of which was vivid +enough to come and go quickly; though indeed in the midst of it +Strether could utter a question. “Have I your word of honour that if I +surrender myself to Madame de Vionnet you’ll surrender yourself to +_me?_” + +Chad laid his hand firmly on his friend’s. “My dear man, you have it.” + +There was finally something in his felicity almost embarrassing and +oppressive—Strether had begun to fidget under it for the open air and +the erect posture. He had signed to the waiter that he wished to pay, +and this transaction took some moments, during which he thoroughly +felt, while he put down money and pretended—it was quite hollow—to +estimate change, that Chad’s higher spirit, his youth, his practice, +his paganism, his felicity, his assurance, his impudence, whatever it +might be, had consciously scored a success. Well, that was all right so +far as it went; his sense of the thing in question covered our friend +for a minute like a veil through which—as if he had been muffled—he +heard his interlocutor ask him if he mightn’t take him over about five. +“Over” was over the river, and over the river was where Madame de +Vionnet lived, and five was that very afternoon. They got at last out +of the place—got out before he answered. He lighted, in the street, a +cigarette, which again gave him more time. But it was already sharp for +him that there was no use in time. “What does she propose to do to me?” +he had presently demanded. + +Chad had no delays. “Are you afraid of her?” + +“Oh immensely. Don’t you see it?” + +“Well,” said Chad, “she won’t do anything worse to you than make you +like her.” + +“It’s just of that I’m afraid.” + +“Then it’s not fair to me.” + +Strether cast about. “It’s fair to your mother.” + +“Oh,” said Chad, “are you afraid of _her?_” + +“Scarcely less. Or perhaps even more. But is this lady against your +interests at home?” Strether went on. + +“Not directly, no doubt; but she’s greatly in favour of them here.” + +“And what—‘here’—does she consider them to be?” + +“Well, good relations!” + +“With herself?” + +“With herself.” + +“And what is it that makes them so good?” + +“What? Well, that’s exactly what you’ll make out if you’ll only go, as +I’m supplicating you, to see her.” + +Strether stared at him with a little of the wanness, no doubt, that the +vision of more to “make out” could scarce help producing. “I mean _how_ +good are they?” + +“Oh awfully good.” + +Again Strether had faltered, but it was brief. It was all very well, +but there was nothing now he wouldn’t risk. “Excuse me, but I must +really—as I began by telling you—know where I am. Is she bad?” + +“‘Bad’?”—Chad echoed it, but without a shock. “Is that what’s +implied—?” + +“When relations are good?” Strether felt a little silly, and was even +conscious of a foolish laugh, at having it imposed on him to have +appeared to speak so. What indeed was he talking about? His stare had +relaxed; he looked now all round him. But something in him brought him +back, though he still didn’t know quite how to turn it. The two or +three ways he thought of, and one of them in particular, were, even +with scruples dismissed, too ugly. He none the less at last found +something. “Is her life without reproach?” + +It struck him, directly he had found it, as pompous and priggish; so +much so that he was thankful to Chad for taking it only in the right +spirit. The young man spoke so immensely to the point that the effect +was practically of positive blandness. “Absolutely without reproach. A +beautiful life. _Allez donc voir!_” + +These last words were, in the liberality of their confidence, so +imperative that Strether went through no form of assent; but before +they separated it had been confirmed that he should be picked up at a +quarter to five. + + + + +Book Sixth + + + I + +It was quite by half-past five—after the two men had been together in +Madame de Vionnet’s drawing-room not more than a dozen minutes—that +Chad, with a look at his watch and then another at their hostess, said +genially, gaily: “I’ve an engagement, and I know you won’t complain if +I leave him with you. He’ll interest you immensely; and as for her,” he +declared to Strether, “I assure you, if you’re at all nervous, she’s +perfectly safe.” + +He had left them to be embarrassed or not by this guarantee, as they +could best manage, and embarrassment was a thing that Strether wasn’t +at first sure Madame de Vionnet escaped. He escaped it himself, to his +surprise; but he had grown used by this time to thinking of himself as +brazen. She occupied, his hostess, in the Rue de Bellechasse, the first +floor of an old house to which our visitors had had access from an old +clean court. The court was large and open, full of revelations, for our +friend, of the habit of privacy, the peace of intervals, the dignity of +distances and approaches; the house, to his restless sense, was in the +high homely style of an elder day, and the ancient Paris that he was +always looking for—sometimes intensely felt, sometimes more acutely +missed—was in the immemorial polish of the wide waxed staircase and in +the fine _boiseries_, the medallions, mouldings, mirrors, great clear +spaces, of the greyish-white salon into which he had been shown. He +seemed at the very outset to see her in the midst of possessions not +vulgarly numerous, but hereditary cherished charming. While his eyes +turned after a little from those of his hostess and Chad freely +talked—not in the least about _him_, but about other people, people he +didn’t know, and quite as if he did know them—he found himself making +out, as a background of the occupant, some glory, some prosperity of +the First Empire, some Napoleonic glamour, some dim lustre of the great +legend; elements clinging still to all the consular chairs and +mythological brasses and sphinxes’ heads and faded surfaces of satin +striped with alternate silk. + +The place itself went further back—that he guessed, and how old Paris +continued in a manner to echo there; but the post-revolutionary period, +the world he vaguely thought of as the world of Châteaubriand, of +Madame de Staël, even of the young Lamartine, had left its stamp of +harps and urns and torches, a stamp impressed on sundry small objects, +ornaments and relics. He had never before, to his knowledge, had +present to him relics, of any special dignity, of a private +order—little old miniatures, medallions, pictures, books; books in +leather bindings, pinkish and greenish, with gilt garlands on the back, +ranged, together with other promiscuous properties, under the glass of +brass-mounted cabinets. His attention took them all tenderly into +account. They were among the matters that marked Madame de Vionnet’s +apartment as something quite different from Miss Gostrey’s little +museum of bargains and from Chad’s lovely home; he recognised it as +founded much more on old accumulations that had possibly from time to +time shrunken than on any contemporary method of acquisition or form of +curiosity. Chad and Miss Gostrey had rummaged and purchased and picked +up and exchanged, sifting, selecting, comparing; whereas the mistress +of the scene before him, beautifully passive under the spell of +transmission—transmission from her father’s line, he quite made up his +mind—had only received, accepted and been quiet. When she hadn’t been +quiet she had been moved at the most to some occult charity for some +fallen fortune. There had been objects she or her predecessors might +even conceivably have parted with under need, but Strether couldn’t +suspect them of having sold old pieces to get “better” ones. They would +have felt no difference as to better or worse. He could but imagine +their having felt—perhaps in emigration, in proscription, for his +sketch was slight and confused—the pressure of want or the obligation +of sacrifice. + +The pressure of want—whatever might be the case with the other +force—was, however, presumably not active now, for the tokens of a +chastened ease still abounded after all, many marks of a taste whose +discriminations might perhaps have been called eccentric. He guessed at +intense little preferences and sharp little exclusions, a deep +suspicion of the vulgar and a personal view of the right. The general +result of this was something for which he had no name on the spot quite +ready, but something he would have come nearest to naming in speaking +of it as the air of supreme respectability, the consciousness, small, +still, reserved, but none the less distinct and diffused, of private +honour. The air of supreme respectability—that was a strange blank wall +for his adventure to have brought him to break his nose against. It had +in fact, as he was now aware, filled all the approaches, hovered in the +court as he passed, hung on the staircase as he mounted, sounded in the +grave rumble of the old bell, as little electric as possible, of which +Chad, at the door, had pulled the ancient but neatly-kept tassel; it +formed in short the clearest medium of its particular kind that he had +ever breathed. He would have answered for it at the end of a quarter of +an hour that some of the glass cases contained swords and epaulettes of +ancient colonels and generals; medals and orders once pinned over +hearts that had long since ceased to beat; snuff-boxes bestowed on +ministers and envoys; copies of works presented, with inscriptions, by +authors now classic. At bottom of it all for him was the sense of her +rare unlikeness to the women he had known. This sense had grown, since +the day before, the more he recalled her, and had been above all +singularly fed by his talk with Chad in the morning. Everything in fine +made her immeasurably new, and nothing so new as the old house and the +old objects. There were books, two or three, on a small table near his +chair, but they hadn’t the lemon-coloured covers with which his eye had +begun to dally from the hour of his arrival and to the opportunity of a +further acquaintance with which he had for a fortnight now altogether +succumbed. On another table, across the room, he made out the great +_Revue_; but even that familiar face, conspicuous in Mrs. Newsome’s +parlours, scarce counted here as a modern note. He was sure on the +spot—and he afterwards knew he was right—that this was a touch of +Chad’s own hand. What would Mrs. Newsome say to the circumstance that +Chad’s interested “influence” kept her paper-knife in the _Revue_? The +interested influence at any rate had, as we say, gone straight to the +point—had in fact soon left it quite behind. + +She was seated, near the fire, on a small stuffed and fringed chair one +of the few modern articles in the room, and she leaned back in it with +her hands clasped in her lap and no movement, in all her person, but +the fine prompt play of her deep young face. The fire, under the low +white marble, undraped and academic, had burnt down to the silver ashes +of light wood, one of the windows, at a distance, stood open to the +mildness and stillness, out of which, in the short pauses, came the +faint sound, pleasant and homely, almost rustic, of a plash and a +clatter of _sabots_ from some coach-house on the other side of the +court. Madame de Vionnet, while Strether sat there, wasn’t to shift her +posture by an inch. “I don’t think you seriously believe in what you’re +doing,” she said; “but all the same, you know, I’m going to treat you +quite as if I did.” + +“By which you mean,” Strether directly replied, “quite as if you +didn’t! I assure you it won’t make the least difference with me how you +treat me.” + +“Well,” she said, taking that menace bravely and philosophically +enough, “the only thing that really matters is that you shall get on +with me.” + +“Ah but I don’t!” he immediately returned. + +It gave her another pause; which, however, she happily enough shook +off. “Will you consent to go on with me a little—provisionally—as if +you did?” + +Then it was that he saw how she had decidedly come all the way; and +there accompanied it an extraordinary sense of her raising from +somewhere below him her beautiful suppliant eyes. He might have been +perched at his door-step or at his window and she standing in the road. +For a moment he let her stand and couldn’t moreover have spoken. It had +been sad, of a sudden, with a sadness that was like a cold breath in +his face. “What can I do,” he finally asked, “but listen to you as I +promised Chadwick?” + +“Ah but what I’m asking you,” she quickly said, “isn’t what Mr. Newsome +had in mind.” She spoke at present, he saw, as if to take courageously +_all_ her risk. “This is my own idea and a different thing.” + +It gave poor Strether in truth—uneasy as it made him too—something of +the thrill of a bold perception justified. “Well,” he answered kindly +enough, “I was sure a moment since that some idea of your own had come +to you.” + +She seemed still to look up at him, but now more serenely. “I made out +you were sure—and that helped it to come. So you see,” she continued, +“we do get on.” + +“Oh but it appears to me I don’t at all meet your request. How can I +when I don’t understand it?” + +“It isn’t at all necessary you should understand; it will do quite well +enough if you simply remember it. Only feel I trust you—and for nothing +so tremendous after all. Just,” she said with a wonderful smile, “for +common civility.” + +Strether had a long pause while they sat again face to face, as they +had sat, scarce less conscious, before the poor lady had crossed the +stream. She was the poor lady for Strether now because clearly she had +some trouble, and her appeal to him could only mean that her trouble +was deep. He couldn’t help it; it wasn’t his fault; he had done +nothing; but by a turn of the hand she had somehow made their encounter +a relation. And the relation profited by a mass of things that were not +strictly in it or of it; by the very air in which they sat, by the high +cold delicate room, by the world outside and the little plash in the +court, by the First Empire and the relics in the stiff cabinets, by +matters as far off as those and by others as near as the unbroken clasp +of her hands in her lap and the look her expression had of being most +natural when her eyes were most fixed. “You count upon me of course for +something really much greater than it sounds.” + +“Oh it sounds great enough too!” she laughed at this. + +He found himself in time on the point of telling her that she was, as +Miss Barrace called it, wonderful; but, catching himself up, he said +something else instead. “What was it Chad’s idea then that you should +say to me?” + +“Ah his idea was simply what a man’s idea always is—to put every effort +off on the woman.” + +“The ‘woman’—?” Strether slowly echoed. + +“The woman he likes—and just in proportion as he likes her. In +proportion too—for shifting the trouble—as she likes _him_.” + +Strether followed it; then with an abruptness of his own: “How much do +you like Chad?” + +“Just as much as _that_—to take all, with you, on myself.” But she got +at once again away from this. “I’ve been trembling as if we were to +stand or fall by what you may think of me; and I’m even now,” she went +on wonderfully, “drawing a long breath—and, yes, truly taking a great +courage—from the hope that I don’t in fact strike you as impossible.” + +“That’s at all events, clearly,” he observed after an instant, “the way +I don’t strike _you_.” + +“Well,” she so far assented, “as you haven’t yet said you _won’t_ have +the little patience with me I ask for—” + +“You draw splendid conclusions? Perfectly. But I don’t understand +them,” Strether pursued. “You seem to me to ask for much more than you +need. What, at the worst for you, what at the best for myself, can I +after all do? I can use no pressure that I haven’t used. You come +really late with your request. I’ve already done all that for myself +the case admits of. I’ve said my say, and here I am.” + +“Yes, here you are, fortunately!” Madame de Vionnet laughed. “Mrs. +Newsome,” she added in another tone, “didn’t think you can do so +little.” + +He had an hesitation, but he brought the words out. “Well, she thinks +so now.” + +“Do you mean by that—?” But she also hung fire. + +“Do I mean what?” + +She still rather faltered. “Pardon me if I touch on it, but if I’m +saying extraordinary things, why, perhaps, mayn’t I? Besides, doesn’t +it properly concern us to know?” + +“To know what?” he insisted as after thus beating about the bush she +had again dropped. + +She made the effort. “Has she given you up?” + +He was amazed afterwards to think how simply and quietly he had met it. +“Not yet.” It was almost as if he were a trifle disappointed—had +expected still more of her freedom. But he went straight on. “Is that +what Chad has told you will happen to me?” + +She was evidently charmed with the way he took it. “If you mean if +we’ve talked of it—most certainly. And the question’s not what has had +least to do with my wishing to see you.” + +“To judge if I’m the sort of man a woman _can_—?” + +“Precisely,” she exclaimed—“you wonderful gentleman! I do judge—I +_have_ judged. A woman can’t. You’re safe—with every right to be. You’d +be much happier if you’d only believe it.” + +Strether was silent a little; then he found himself speaking with a +cynicism of confidence of which even at the moment the sources were +strange to him. “I try to believe it. But it’s a marvel,” he exclaimed, +“how _you_ already get at it!” + +Oh she was able to say. “Remember how much I was on the way to it +through Mr. Newsome—before I saw you. He thinks everything of your +strength.” + +“Well, I can bear almost anything!” our friend briskly interrupted. +Deep and beautiful on this her smile came back, and with the effect of +making him hear what he had said just as she had heard it. He easily +enough felt that it gave him away, but what in truth had everything +done but that? It had been all very well to think at moments that he +was holding her nose down and that he had coerced her: what had he by +this time done but let her practically see that he accepted their +relation? What was their relation moreover—though light and brief +enough in form as yet—but whatever she might choose to make it? Nothing +could prevent her—certainly he couldn’t—from making it pleasant. At the +back of his head, behind everything, was the sense that she was—there, +before him, close to him, in vivid imperative form—one of the rare +women he had so often heard of, read of, thought of, but never met, +whose very presence, look, voice, the mere contemporaneous _fact_ of +whom, from the moment it was at all presented, made a relation of mere +recognition. That was not the kind of woman he had ever found Mrs. +Newsome, a contemporaneous fact who had been distinctly slow to +establish herself; and at present, confronted with Madame de Vionnet, +he felt the simplicity of his original impression of Miss Gostrey. She +certainly had been a fact of rapid growth; but the world was wide, each +day was more and more a new lesson. There were at any rate even among +the stranger ones relations and relations. “Of course I suit Chad’s +grand way,” he quickly added. “He hasn’t had much difficulty in working +me in.” + +She seemed to deny a little, on the young man’s behalf, by the rise of +her eyebrows, an intention of any process at all inconsiderate. “You +must know how grieved he’d be if you were to lose anything. He believes +you can keep his mother patient.” + +Strether wondered with his eyes on her. “I see. _That’s_ then what you +really want of me. And how am I to do it? Perhaps you’ll tell me that.” + +“Simply tell her the truth.” + +“And what do you call the truth?” + +“Well, _any_ truth—about us all—that you see yourself. I leave it to +you.” + +“Thank you very much. I like,” Strether laughed with a slight +harshness, “the way you leave things!” + +But she insisted kindly, gently, as if it wasn’t so bad. “Be perfectly +honest. Tell her all.” + +“All?” he oddly echoed. + +“Tell her the simple truth,” Madame de Vionnet again pleaded. + +“But what _is_ the simple truth? The simple truth is exactly what I’m +trying to discover.” + +She looked about a while, but presently she came back to him. “Tell +her, fully and clearly, about _us_.” + +Strether meanwhile had been staring. “You and your daughter?” + +“Yes—little Jeanne and me. Tell her,” she just slightly quavered, “you +like us.” + +“And what good will that do me? Or rather”—he caught himself up—“what +good will it do _you?_” + +She looked graver. “None, you believe, really?” + +Strether debated. “She didn’t send me out to ‘like’ you.” + +“Oh,” she charmingly contended, “she sent you out to face the facts.” + +He admitted after an instant that there was something in that. “But how +can I face them till I know what they are? Do you want him,” he then +braced himself to ask, “to marry your daughter?” + +She gave a headshake as noble as it was prompt. “No—not that.” + +“And he really doesn’t want to himself?” + +She repeated the movement, but now with a strange light in her face. +“He likes her too much.” + +Strether wondered. “To be willing to consider, you mean, the question +of taking her to America?” + +“To be willing to do anything with her but be immensely kind and +nice—really tender of her. We watch over her, and you must help us. You +must see her again.” + +Strether felt awkward. “Ah with pleasure—she’s so remarkably +attractive.” + +The mother’s eagerness with which Madame de Vionnet jumped at this was +to come back to him later as beautiful in its grace. “The dear thing +_did_ please you?” Then as he met it with the largest “Oh!” of +enthusiasm: “She’s perfect. She’s my joy.” + +“Well, I’m sure that—if one were near her and saw more of her—she’d be +mine.” + +“Then,” said Madame de Vionnet, “tell Mrs. Newsome that!” + +He wondered the more. “What good will that do you?” As she appeared +unable at once to say, however, he brought out something else. “Is your +daughter in love with our friend?” + +“Ah,” she rather startlingly answered, “I wish you’d find out!” + +He showed his surprise. “I? A stranger?” + +“Oh you won’t be a stranger—presently. You shall see her quite, I +assure you, as if you weren’t.” + +It remained for him none the less an extraordinary notion. “It seems to +me surely that if her mother can’t—” + +“Ah little girls and their mothers to-day!” she rather inconsequently +broke in. But she checked herself with something she seemed to give out +as after all more to the point. “Tell her I’ve been good for him. Don’t +you think I have?” + +It had its effect on him—more than at the moment he quite measured. Yet +he was consciously enough touched. “Oh if it’s all _you_—!” + +“Well, it may not be ‘all,’” she interrupted, “but it’s to a great +extent. Really and truly,” she added in a tone that was to take its +place with him among things remembered. + +“Then it’s very wonderful.” He smiled at her from a face that he felt +as strained, and her own face for a moment kept him so. At last she +also got up. “Well, don’t you think that for that—” + +“I ought to save you?” So it was that the way to meet her—and the way, +as well, in a manner, to get off—came over him. He heard himself use +the exorbitant word, the very sound of which helped to determine his +flight. “I’ll save you if I can.” + + + II + +In Chad’s lovely home, however, one evening ten days later, he felt +himself present at the collapse of the question of Jeanne de Vionnet’s +shy secret. He had been dining there in the company of that young lady +and her mother, as well as of other persons, and he had gone into the +_petit salon_, at Chad’s request, on purpose to talk with her. The +young man had put this to him as a favour—“I should like so awfully to +know what you think of her. It will really be a chance for you,” he had +said, “to see the _jeune fille_—I mean the type—as she actually is, and +I don’t think that, as an observer of manners, it’s a thing you ought +to miss. It will be an impression that—whatever else you take—you can +carry home with you, where you’ll find again so much to compare it +with.” + +Strether knew well enough with what Chad wished him to compare it, and +though he entirely assented he hadn’t yet somehow been so deeply +reminded that he was being, as he constantly though mutely expressed +it, used. He was as far as ever from making out exactly to what end; +but he was none the less constantly accompanied by a sense of the +service he rendered. He conceived only that this service was highly +agreeable to those who profited by it; and he was indeed still waiting +for the moment at which he should catch it in the act of proving +disagreeable, proving in some degree intolerable, to himself. He failed +quite to see how his situation could clear up at all logically except +by some turn of events that would give him the pretext of disgust. He +was building from day to day on the possibility of disgust, but each +day brought forth meanwhile a new and more engaging bend of the road. +That possibility was now ever so much further from sight than on the +eve of his arrival, and he perfectly felt that, should it come at all, +it would have to be at best inconsequent and violent. He struck himself +as a little nearer to it only when he asked himself what service, in +such a life of utility, he was after all rendering Mrs. Newsome. When +he wished to help himself to believe that he was still all right he +reflected—and in fact with wonder—on the unimpaired frequency of their +correspondence; in relation to which what was after all more natural +than that it should become more frequent just in proportion as their +problem became more complicated? + +Certain it is at any rate that he now often brought himself balm by the +question, with the rich consciousness of yesterday’s letter, “Well, +what can I do more than that—what can I do more than tell her +everything?” To persuade himself that he did tell her, had told her, +everything, he used to try to think of particular things he hadn’t told +her. When at rare moments and in the watches of the night he pounced on +one it generally showed itself to be—to a deeper scrutiny—not quite +truly of the essence. When anything new struck him as coming up, or +anything already noted as reappearing, he always immediately wrote, as +if for fear that if he didn’t he would miss something; and also that he +might be able to say to himself from time to time “She knows it +_now_—even while I worry.” It was a great comfort to him in general not +to have left past things to be dragged to light and explained; not to +have to produce at so late a stage anything not produced, or anything +even veiled and attenuated, at the moment. She knew it now: that was +what he said to himself to-night in relation to the fresh fact of +Chad’s acquaintance with the two ladies—not to speak of the fresher one +of his own. Mrs. Newsome knew in other words that very night at +Woollett that he himself knew Madame de Vionnet and that he had +conscientiously been to see her; also that he had found her remarkably +attractive and that there would probably be a good deal more to tell. +But she further knew, or would know very soon, that, again +conscientiously, he hadn’t repeated his visit; and that when Chad had +asked him on the Countess’s behalf—Strether made her out vividly, with +a thought at the back of his head, a Countess—if he wouldn’t name a day +for dining with her, he had replied lucidly: “Thank you very +much—impossible.” He had begged the young man would present his excuses +and had trusted him to understand that it couldn’t really strike one as +quite the straight thing. He hadn’t reported to Mrs. Newsome that he +had promised to “save” Madame de Vionnet; but, so far as he was +concerned with that reminiscence, he hadn’t at any rate promised to +haunt her house. What Chad had understood could only, in truth, be +inferred from Chad’s behaviour, which had been in this connexion as +easy as in every other. He was easy, always, when he understood; he was +easier still, if possible, when he didn’t; he had replied that he would +make it all right; and he had proceeded to do this by substituting the +present occasion—as he was ready to substitute others—for any, for +every occasion as to which his old friend should have a funny scruple. + +“Oh but I’m not a little foreign girl; I’m just as English as I can +be,” Jeanne de Vionnet had said to him as soon as, in the _petit +salon_, he sank, shyly enough on his own side, into the place near her +vacated by Madame Gloriani at his approach. Madame Gloriani, who was in +black velvet, with white lace and powdered hair, and whose somewhat +massive majesty melted, at any contact, into the graciousness of some +incomprehensible tongue, moved away to make room for the vague +gentleman, after benevolent greetings to him which embodied, as he +believed, in baffling accents, some recognition of his face from a +couple of Sundays before. Then he had remarked—making the most of the +advantage of his years—that it frightened him quite enough to find +himself dedicated to the entertainment of a little foreign girl. There +were girls he wasn’t afraid of—he was quite bold with little Americans. +Thus it was that she had defended herself to the end—“Oh but I’m almost +American too. That’s what mamma has wanted me to be—I mean _like_ that; +for she has wanted me to have lots of freedom. She has known such good +results from it.” + +She was fairly beautiful to him—a faint pastel in an oval frame: he +thought of her already as of some lurking image in a long gallery, the +portrait of a small old-time princess of whom nothing was known but +that she had died young. Little Jeanne wasn’t, doubtless, to die young, +but one couldn’t, all the same, bear on her lightly enough. It was +bearing hard, it was bearing as _he_, in any case, wouldn’t bear, to +concern himself, in relation to her, with the question of a young man. +Odious really the question of a young man; one didn’t treat such a +person as a maid-servant suspected of a “follower.” And then young men, +young men—well, the thing was their business simply, or was at all +events hers. She was fluttered, fairly fevered—to the point of a little +glitter that came and went in her eyes and a pair of pink spots that +stayed in her cheeks—with the great adventure of dining out and with +the greater one still, possibly, of finding a gentleman whom she must +think of as very, very old, a gentleman with eye-glasses, wrinkles, a +long grizzled moustache. She spoke the prettiest English, our friend +thought, that he had ever heard spoken, just as he had believed her a +few minutes before to be speaking the prettiest French. He wondered +almost wistfully if such a sweep of the lyre didn’t react on the spirit +itself; and his fancy had in fact, before he knew it, begun so to stray +and embroider that he finally found himself, absent and extravagant, +sitting with the child in a friendly silence. Only by this time he felt +her flutter to have fortunately dropped and that she was more at her +ease. She trusted him, liked him, and it was to come back to him +afterwards that she had told him things. She had dipped into the +waiting medium at last and found neither surge nor chill—nothing but +the small splash she could herself make in the pleasant warmth, nothing +but the safety of dipping and dipping again. At the end of the ten +minutes he was to spend with her his impression—with all it had thrown +off and all it had taken in—was complete. She had been free, as she +knew freedom, partly to show him that, unlike other little persons she +knew, she had imbibed that ideal. She was delightfully quaint about +herself, but the vision of what she had imbibed was what most held him. +It really consisted, he was soon enough to feel, in just one great +little matter, the fact that, whatever her nature, she was +thoroughly—he had to cast about for the word, but it came—bred. He +couldn’t of course on so short an acquaintance speak for her nature, +but the idea of breeding was what she had meanwhile dropped into his +mind. He had never yet known it so sharply presented. Her mother gave +it, no doubt; but her mother, to make that less sensible, gave so much +else besides, and on neither of the two previous occasions, +extraordinary woman, Strether felt, anything like what she was giving +tonight. Little Jeanne was a case, an exquisite case of education; +whereas the Countess, whom it so amused him to think of by that +denomination, was a case, also exquisite, of—well, he didn’t know what. + +“He has wonderful taste, _notre jeune homme_”: this was what Gloriani +said to him on turning away from the inspection of a small picture +suspended near the door of the room. The high celebrity in question had +just come in, apparently in search of Mademoiselle de Vionnet, but +while Strether had got up from beside her their fellow guest, with his +eye sharply caught, had paused for a long look. The thing was a +landscape, of no size, but of the French school, as our friend was glad +to feel he knew, and also of a quality—which he liked to think he +should also have guessed; its frame was large out of proportion to the +canvas, and he had never seen a person look at anything, he thought, +just as Gloriani, with his nose very near and quick movements of the +head from side to side and bottom to top, examined this feature of +Chad’s collection. The artist used that word the next moment smiling +courteously, wiping his nippers and looking round him further—paying +the place in short by the very manner of his presence and by something +Strether fancied he could make out in this particular glance, such a +tribute as, to the latter’s sense, settled many things once for all. +Strether was conscious at this instant, for that matter, as he hadn’t +yet been, of how, round about him, quite without him, they _were_ +consistently settled. Gloriani’s smile, deeply Italian, he considered, +and finely inscrutable, had had for him, during dinner, at which they +were not neighbours, an indefinite greeting; but the quality in it was +gone that had appeared on the other occasion to turn him inside out; it +was as if even the momentary link supplied by the doubt between them +had snapped. He was conscious now of the final reality, which was that +there wasn’t so much a doubt as a difference altogether; all the more +that over the difference the famous sculptor seemed to signal almost +condolingly, yet oh how vacantly! as across some great flat sheet of +water. He threw out the bridge of a charming hollow civility on which +Strether wouldn’t have trusted his own full weight a moment. That idea, +even though but transient and perhaps belated, had performed the office +of putting Strether more at his ease, and the blurred picture had +already dropped—dropped with the sound of something else said and with +his becoming aware, by another quick turn, that Gloriani was now on the +sofa talking with Jeanne, while he himself had in his ears again the +familiar friendliness and the elusive meaning of the “Oh, oh, oh!” that +had made him, a fortnight before, challenge Miss Barrace in vain. She +had always the air, this picturesque and original lady, who struck him, +so oddly, as both antique and modern—she had always the air of taking +up some joke that one had already had out with her. The point itself, +no doubt, was what was antique, and the use she made of it what was +modern. He felt just now that her good-natured irony did bear on +something, and it troubled him a little that she wouldn’t be more +explicit only assuring him, with the pleasure of observation so visible +in her, that she wouldn’t tell him more for the world. He could take +refuge but in asking her what she had done with Waymarsh, though it +must be added that he felt himself a little on the way to a clue after +she had answered that this personage was, in the other room, engaged in +conversation with Madame de Vionnet. He stared a moment at the image of +such a conjunction; then, for Miss Barrace’s benefit, he wondered. “Is +she too then under the charm—?” + +“No, not a bit”—Miss Barrace was prompt. “She makes nothing of him. +She’s bored. She won’t help you with him.” + +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “she can’t do everything. + +“Of course not—wonderful as she is. Besides, he makes nothing of _her_. +She won’t take him from me—though she wouldn’t, no doubt, having other +affairs in hand, even if she could. I’ve never,” said Miss Barrace, +“seen her fail with any one before. And to-night, when she’s so +magnificent, it would seem to her strange—if she minded. So at any rate +I have him all. _Je suis tranquille!_” + +Strether understood, so far as that went; but he was feeling for his +clue. “She strikes you to-night as particularly magnificent?” + +“Surely. Almost as I’ve never seen her. Doesn’t she you? Why it’s _for_ +you.” + +He persisted in his candour. “‘For’ me—?” + +“Oh, oh, oh!” cried Miss Barrace, who persisted in the opposite of that +quality. + +“Well,” he acutely admitted, “she _is_ different. She’s gay.” + +“She’s gay!” Miss Barrace laughed. “And she has beautiful +shoulders—though there’s nothing different in that.” + +“No,” said Strether, “one was sure of her shoulders. It isn’t her +shoulders.” + +His companion, with renewed mirth and the finest sense, between the +puffs of her cigarette, of the drollery of things, appeared to find +their conversation highly delightful. “Yes, it isn’t her shoulders.” + +“What then is it?” Strether earnestly enquired. + +“Why, it’s _she_—simply. It’s her mood. It’s her charm.” + +“Of course it’s her charm, but we’re speaking of the difference.” +“Well,” Miss Barrace explained, “she’s just brilliant, as we used to +say. That’s all. She’s various. She’s fifty women.” + +“Ah but only one”—Strether kept it clear—“at a time.” + +“Perhaps. But in fifty times—!” + +“Oh we shan’t come to that,” our friend declared; and the next moment +he had moved in another direction. “Will you answer me a plain +question? Will she ever divorce?” + +Miss Barrace looked at him through all her tortoise-shell. “Why should +she?” + +It wasn’t what he had asked for, he signified; but he met it well +enough. “To marry Chad.” + +“Why should she marry Chad?” + +“Because I’m convinced she’s very fond of him. She has done wonders for +him.” + +“Well then, how could she do more? Marrying a man, or woman either,” +Miss Barrace sagely went on, “is never the wonder for any Jack and Jill +can bring _that_ off. The wonder is their doing such things without +marrying.” + +Strether considered a moment this proposition. “You mean it’s so +beautiful for our friends simply to go on so?” + +But whatever he said made her laugh. “Beautiful.” + +He nevertheless insisted. “And _that_ because it’s disinterested?” + +She was now, however, suddenly tired of the question. “Yes then—call it +that. Besides, she’ll never divorce. Don’t, moreover,” she added, +“believe everything you hear about her husband.” + +“He’s not then,” Strether asked, “a wretch?” + +“Oh yes. But charming.” + +“Do you know him?” + +“I’ve met him. He’s _bien aimable_.” + +“To every one but his wife?” + +“Oh for all I know, to her too—to any, to every woman. I hope you at +any rate,” she pursued with a quick change, “appreciate the care I take +of Mr. Waymarsh.” + +“Oh immensely.” But Strether was not yet in line. “At all events,” he +roundly brought out, “the attachment’s an innocent one.” + +“Mine and his? Ah,” she laughed, “don’t rob it of _all_ interest!” + +“I mean our friend’s here—to the lady we’ve been speaking of.” That was +what he had settled to as an indirect but none the less closely +involved consequence of his impression of Jeanne. That was where he +meant to stay. “It’s innocent,” he repeated—“I see the whole thing.” + +Mystified by his abrupt declaration, she had glanced over at Gloriani +as at the unnamed subject of his allusion, but the next moment she had +understood; though indeed not before Strether had noticed her momentary +mistake and wondered what might possibly be behind that too. He already +knew that the sculptor admired Madame de Vionnet; but did this +admiration also represent an attachment of which the innocence was +discussable? He was moving verily in a strange air and on ground not of +the firmest. He looked hard for an instant at Miss Barrace, but she had +already gone on. “All right with Mr. Newsome? Why of course she +is!”—and she got gaily back to the question of her own good friend. “I +dare say you’re surprised that I’m not worn out with all I see—it being +so much!—of Sitting Bull. But I’m not, you know—I don’t mind him; I +bear up, and we get on beautifully. I’m very strange; I’m like that; +and often I can’t explain. There are people who are supposed +interesting or remarkable or whatever, and who bore me to death; and +then there are others as to whom nobody can understand what anybody +sees in them—in whom I see no end of things.” Then after she had smoked +a moment, “He’s touching, you know,” she said. + +“‘Know’?” Strether echoed—“don’t I, indeed? We must move you almost to +tears.” + +“Oh but I don’t mean _you!_” she laughed. + +“You ought to then, for the worst sign of all—as I must have it for +you—is that you can’t help me. That’s when a woman pities.” + +“Ah but I do help you!” she cheerfully insisted. + +Again he looked at her hard, and then after a pause: “No you don’t!” + +Her tortoise-shell, on its long chain, rattled down. “I help you with +Sitting Bull. That’s a good deal.” + +“Oh that, yes.” But Strether hesitated. “Do you mean he talks of me?” + +“So that I have to defend you? No, never.’ + +“I see,” Strether mused. “It’s too deep.” + +“That’s his only fault,” she returned—“that everything, with him, is +too deep. He has depths of silence—which he breaks only at the longest +intervals by a remark. And when the remark comes it’s always something +he has seen or felt for himself—never a bit banal. _That_ would be what +one might have feared and what would kill me. But never.” She smoked +again as she thus, with amused complacency, appreciated her +acquisition. “And never about you. We keep clear of you. We’re +wonderful. But I’ll tell you what he does do,” she continued: “he tries +to make me presents.” + +“Presents?” poor Strether echoed, conscious with a pang that _he_ +hadn’t yet tried that in any quarter. + +“Why you see,” she explained, “he’s as fine as ever in the victoria; so +that when I leave him, as I often do almost for hours—he likes it so—at +the doors of shops, the sight of him there helps me, when I come out, +to know my carriage away off in the rank. But sometimes, for a change, +he goes with me into the shops, and then I’ve all I can do to prevent +his buying me things.” + +“He wants to ‘treat’ you?” Strether almost gasped at all he himself +hadn’t thought of. He had a sense of admiration. “Oh he’s much more in +the real tradition than I. Yes,” he mused, “it’s the sacred rage.” + +“The sacred rage, exactly!”—and Miss Barrace, who hadn’t before heard +this term applied, recognised its bearing with a clap of her gemmed +hands. “Now I do know why he’s not banal. But I do prevent him all the +same—and if you saw what he sometimes selects—from buying. I save him +hundreds and hundreds. I only take flowers.” + +“Flowers?” Strether echoed again with a rueful reflexion. How many +nosegays had her present converser sent? + +“Innocent flowers,” she pursued, “as much as he likes. And he sends me +splendours; he knows all the best places—he has found them for himself; +he’s wonderful.” + +“He hasn’t told them to _me_,” her friend smiled, “he has a life of his +own.” But Strether had swung back to the consciousness that for himself +after all it never would have done. Waymarsh hadn’t Mrs. Waymarsh in +the least to consider, whereas Lambert Strether had constantly, in the +inmost honour of his thoughts, to consider Mrs. Newsome. He liked +moreover to feel how much his friend was in the real tradition. Yet he +had his conclusion. “_What_ a rage it is!” He had worked it out. “It’s +an opposition.” + +She followed, but at a distance. “That’s what I feel. Yet to what?” + +“Well, he thinks, you know, that _I’ve_ a life of my own. And I +haven’t!” + +“You haven’t?” She showed doubt, and her laugh confirmed it. “Oh, oh, +oh!” + +“No—not for myself. I seem to have a life only for other people.” + +“Ah for them and _with_ them! Just now for instance with—” + +“Well, with whom?” he asked before she had had time to say. + +His tone had the effect of making her hesitate and even, as he guessed, +speak with a difference. “Say with Miss Gostrey. What do you do for +_her?_” It really made him wonder. “Nothing at all!” + + + III + +Madame de Vionnet, having meanwhile come in, was at present close to +them, and Miss Barrace hereupon, instead of risking a rejoinder, became +again with a look that measured her from top to toe all mere +long-handled appreciative tortoise-shell. She had struck our friend, +from the first of her appearing, as dressed for a great occasion, and +she met still more than on either of the others the conception +reawakened in him at their garden-party, the idea of the _femme du +monde_ in her habit as she lived. Her bare shoulders and arms were +white and beautiful; the materials of her dress, a mixture, as he +supposed, of silk and crape, were of a silvery grey so artfully +composed as to give an impression of warm splendour; and round her neck +she wore a collar of large old emeralds, the green note of which was +more dimly repeated, at other points of her apparel, in embroidery, in +enamel, in satin, in substances and textures vaguely rich. Her head, +extremely fair and exquisitely festal, was like a happy fancy, a notion +of the antique, on an old precious medal, some silver coin of the +Renaissance; while her slim lightness and brightness, her gaiety, her +expression, her decision, contributed to an effect that might have been +felt by a poet as half mythological and half conventional. He could +have compared her to a goddess still partly engaged in a morning cloud, +or to a sea-nymph waist-high in the summer surge. Above all she +suggested to him the reflexion that the _femme du monde_—in these +finest developments of the type—was, like Cleopatra in the play, indeed +various and multifold. She had aspects, characters, days, nights—or had +them at least, showed them by a mysterious law of her own, when in +addition to everything she happened also to be a woman of genius. She +was an obscure person, a muffled person one day, and a showy person, an +uncovered person the next. He thought of Madame de Vionnet to-night as +showy and uncovered, though he felt the formula rough, because, thanks +to one of the short-cuts of genius she had taken all his categories by +surprise. Twice during dinner he had met Chad’s eyes in a longish look; +but these communications had in truth only stirred up again old +ambiguities—so little was it clear from them whether they were an +appeal or an admonition. “You see how I’m fixed,” was what they +appeared to convey; yet how he was fixed was exactly what Strether +didn’t see. However, perhaps he should see now. + +“Are you capable of the very great kindness of going to relieve +Newsome, for a few minutes, of the rather crushing responsibility of +Madame Gloriani, while I say a word, if he’ll allow me, to Mr. +Strether, of whom I’ve a question to ask? Our host ought to talk a bit +to those other ladies, and I’ll come back in a minute to your rescue.” +She made this proposal to Miss Barrace as if her consciousness of a +special duty had just flickered-up, but that lady’s recognition of +Strether’s little start at it—as at a betrayal on the speaker’s part of +a domesticated state—was as mute as his own comment; and after an +instant, when their fellow guest had good-naturedly left them, he had +been given something else to think of. “Why has Maria so suddenly gone? +Do you know?” That was the question Madame de Vionnet had brought with +her. + +“I’m afraid I’ve no reason to give you but the simple reason I’ve had +from her in a note—the sudden obligation to join in the south a sick +friend who has got worse.” + +“Ah then she has been writing you?” + +“Not since she went—I had only a brief explanatory word before she +started. I went to see her,” Strether explained—“it was the day after I +called on you—but she was already on her way, and her concierge told me +that in case of my coming I was to be informed she had written to me. I +found her note when I got home.” + +Madame de Vionnet listened with interest and with her eyes on +Strether’s face; then her delicately decorated head had a small +melancholy motion. “She didn’t write to _me_. I went to see her,” she +added, “almost immediately after I had seen you, and as I assured her I +would do when I met her at Gloriani’s. She hadn’t then told me she was +to be absent, and I felt at her door as if I understood. She’s +absent—with all respect to her sick friend, though I know indeed she +has plenty—so that I may not see her. She doesn’t want to meet me +again. Well,” she continued with a beautiful conscious mildness, “I +liked and admired her beyond every one in the old time, and she knew +it—perhaps that’s precisely what has made her go—and I dare say I +haven’t lost her for ever.” Strether still said nothing; he had a +horror, as he now thought of himself, of being in question between +women—was in fact already quite enough on his way to that, and there +was moreover, as it came to him, perceptibly, something behind these +allusions and professions that, should he take it in, would square but +ill with his present resolve to simplify. It was as if, for him, all +the same, her softness and sadness were sincere. He felt that not less +when she soon went on: “I’m extremely glad of her happiness.” But it +also left him mute—sharp and fine though the imputation it conveyed. +What it conveyed was that _he_ was Maria Gostrey’s happiness, and for +the least little instant he had the impulse to challenge the thought. +He could have done so however only by saying “What then do you suppose +to be between us?” and he was wonderfully glad a moment later not to +have spoken. He would rather seem stupid any day than fatuous, and he +drew back as well, with a smothered inward shudder, from the +consideration of what women—of highly-developed type in +particular—might think of each other. Whatever he had come out for he +hadn’t come to go into that; so that he absolutely took up nothing his +interlocutress had now let drop. Yet, though he had kept away from her +for days, had laid wholly on herself the burden of their meeting again, +she hadn’t a gleam of irritation to show him. “Well, about Jeanne now?” +she smiled—it had the gaiety with which she had originally come in. He +felt it on the instant to represent her motive and real errand. But he +had been schooling her of a truth to say much in proportion to his +little. “_Do_ you make out that she has a sentiment? I mean for Mr. +Newsome.” + +Almost resentful, Strether could at last be prompt. “How can I make out +such things?” + +She remained perfectly good-natured. “Ah but they’re beautiful little +things, and you make out—don’t pretend—everything in the world. Haven’t +you,” she asked, “been talking with her?” + +“Yes, but not about Chad. At least not much.” + +“Oh you don’t require ‘much’!” she reassuringly declared. But she +immediately changed her ground. “I hope you remember your promise of +the other day.” + +“To ‘save’ you, as you called it?” + +“I call it so still. You _will?_” she insisted. “You haven’t repented?” + +He wondered. “No—but I’ve been thinking what I meant.” + +She kept it up. “And not, a little, what _I_ did?” + +“No—that’s not necessary. It will be enough if I know what I meant +myself.” + +“And don’t you know,” she asked, “by this time?” + +Again he had a pause. “I think you ought to leave it to me. But how +long,” he added, “do you give me?” + +“It seems to me much more a question of how long you give _me_. Doesn’t +our friend here himself, at any rate,” she went on, “perpetually make +me present to you?” + +“Not,” Strether replied, “by ever speaking of you to me.” + +“He never does that?” + +“Never.” + +She considered, and, if the fact was disconcerting to her, effectually +concealed it. The next minute indeed she had recovered. “No, he +wouldn’t. But do you _need_ that?” + +Her emphasis was wonderful, and though his eyes had been wandering he +looked at her longer now. “I see what you mean.” + +“Of course you see what I mean.” + +Her triumph was gentle, and she really had tones to make justice weep. +“I’ve before me what he owes you.” + +“Admit then that that’s something,” she said, yet still with the same +discretion in her pride. + +He took in this note but went straight on. “You’ve made of him what I +see, but what I don’t see is how in the world you’ve done it.” + +“Ah that’s another question!” she smiled. “The point is of what use is +your declining to know me when to know Mr. Newsome—as you do me the +honour to find him—_is_ just to know me.” + +“I see,” he mused, still with his eyes on her. “I shouldn’t have met +you to-night.” + +She raised and dropped her linked hands. “It doesn’t matter. If I trust +you why can’t you a little trust me too? And why can’t you also,” she +asked in another tone, “trust yourself?” But she gave him no time to +reply. “Oh I shall be so easy for you! And I’m glad at any rate you’ve +seen my child.” + +“I’m glad too,” he said; “but she does you no good.” + +“No good?”—Madame de Vionnet had a clear stare. “Why she’s an angel of +light.” + +“That’s precisely the reason. Leave her alone. Don’t try to find out. I +mean,” he explained, “about what you spoke to me of—the way she feels.” + +His companion wondered. “Because one really won’t?” + +“Well, because I ask you, as a favour to myself, not to. She’s the most +charming creature I’ve ever seen. Therefore don’t touch her. Don’t +know—don’t want to know. And moreover—yes—you _won’t_.” + +It was an appeal, of a sudden, and she took it in. “As a favour to +you?” + +“Well—since you ask me.” + +“Anything, everything you ask,” she smiled. “I shan’t know then—never. +Thank you,” she added with peculiar gentleness as she turned away. + +The sound of it lingered with him, making him fairly feel as if he had +been tripped up and had a fall. In the very act of arranging with her +for his independence he had, under pressure from a particular +perception, inconsistently, quite stupidly, committed himself, and, +with her subtlety sensitive on the spot to an advantage, she had driven +in by a single word a little golden nail, the sharp intention of which +he signally felt. He hadn’t detached, he had more closely connected +himself, and his eyes, as he considered with some intensity this +circumstance, met another pair which had just come within their range +and which struck him as reflecting his sense of what he had done. He +recognised them at the same moment as those of little Bilham, who had +apparently drawn near on purpose to speak to him, and little Bilham +wasn’t, in the conditions, the person to whom his heart would be most +closed. They were seated together a minute later at the angle of the +room obliquely opposite the corner in which Gloriani was still engaged +with Jeanne de Vionnet, to whom at first and in silence their attention +had been benevolently given. “I can’t see for my life,” Strether had +then observed, “how a young fellow of any spirit—such a one as you for +instance—can be admitted to the sight of that young lady without being +hard hit. Why don’t you go in, little Bilham?” He remembered the tone +into which he had been betrayed on the garden-bench at the sculptor’s +reception, and this might make up for that by being much more the right +sort of thing to say to a young man worthy of any advice at all. “There +_would_ be some reason.” + +“Some reason for what?” + +“Why for hanging on here.” + +“To offer my hand and fortune to Mademoiselle de Vionnet?” + +“Well,” Strether asked, “to what lovelier apparition _could_ you offer +them? She’s the sweetest little thing I’ve ever seen.” + +“She’s certainly immense. I mean she’s the real thing. I believe the +pale pink petals are folded up there for some wondrous efflorescence in +time; to open, that is, to some great golden sun. _I’m_ unfortunately +but a small farthing candle. What chance in such a field for a poor +little painter-man?” + +“Oh you’re good enough,” Strether threw out. + +“Certainly I’m good enough. We’re good enough, I consider, _nous +autres_, for anything. But she’s _too_ good. There’s the difference. +They wouldn’t look at me.” + +Strether, lounging on his divan and still charmed by the young girl, +whose eyes had consciously strayed to him, he fancied, with a vague +smile—Strether, enjoying the whole occasion as with dormant pulses at +last awake and in spite of new material thrust upon him, thought over +his companion’s words. “Whom do you mean by ‘they’? She and her +mother?” + +“She and her mother. And she has a father too, who, whatever else he +may be, certainly can’t be indifferent to the possibilities she +represents. Besides, there’s Chad.” + +Strether was silent a little. “Ah but he doesn’t care for her—not, I +mean, it appears, after all, in the sense I’m speaking of. He’s _not_ +in love with her.” + +“No—but he’s her best friend; after her mother. He’s very fond of her. +He has his ideas about what can be done for her.” + +“Well, it’s very strange!” Strether presently remarked with a sighing +sense of fulness. + +“Very strange indeed. That’s just the beauty of it. Isn’t it very much +the kind of beauty you had in mind,” little Bilham went on, “when you +were so wonderful and so inspiring to me the other day? Didn’t you +adjure me, in accents I shall never forget, to see, while I’ve a +chance, everything I can?—and _really_ to see, for it must have been +that only you meant. Well, you did me no end of good, and I’m doing my +best. I _do_ make it out a situation.” + +“So do I!” Strether went on after a moment. But he had the next minute +an inconsequent question. “How comes Chad so mixed up, anyway?” + +“Ah, ah, ah!”—and little Bilham fell back on his cushions. + +It reminded our friend of Miss Barrace, and he felt again the brush of +his sense of moving in a maze of mystic closed allusions. Yet he kept +hold of his thread. “Of course I understand really; only the general +transformation makes me occasionally gasp. Chad with such a voice in +the settlement of the future of a little countess—no,” he declared, “it +takes more time! You say moreover,” he resumed, “that we’re inevitably, +people like you and me, out of the running. The curious fact remains +that Chad himself isn’t. The situation doesn’t make for it, but in a +different one he could have her if he would.” + +“Yes, but that’s only because he’s rich and because there’s a +possibility of his being richer. They won’t think of anything but a +great name or a great fortune.” + +“Well,” said Strether, “he’ll have no great fortune on _these_ lines. +He must stir his stumps.” + +“Is that,” little Bilham enquired, “what you were saying to Madame de +Vionnet?” + +“No—I don’t say much to her. Of course, however,” Strether continued, +“he can make sacrifices if he likes.” + +Little Bilham had a pause. “Oh he’s not keen for sacrifices; or thinks, +that is, possibly, that he has made enough.” + +“Well, it _is_ virtuous,” his companion observed with some decision. + +“That’s exactly,” the young man dropped after a moment, “what I mean.” + +It kept Strether himself silent a little. “I’ve made it out for +myself,” he then went on; “I’ve really, within the last half-hour, got +hold of it. I understand it in short at last; which at first—when you +originally spoke to me—I didn’t. Nor when Chad originally spoke to me +either.” + +“Oh,” said little Bilham, “I don’t think that at that time you believed +me.” + +“Yes—I did; and I believed Chad too. It would have been odious and +unmannerly—as well as quite perverse—if I hadn’t. What interest have +you in deceiving me?” + +The young man cast about. “What interest have I?” + +“Yes. Chad _might_ have. But you?” + +“Ah, ah, ah!” little Bilham exclaimed. + +It might, on repetition, as a mystification, have irritated our friend +a little, but he knew, once more, as we have seen, where he was, and +his being proof against everything was only another attestation that he +meant to stay there. “I couldn’t, without my own impression, realise. +She’s a tremendously clever brilliant capable woman, and with an +extraordinary charm on top of it all—the charm we surely all of us this +evening know what to think of. It isn’t every clever brilliant capable +woman that has it. In fact it’s rare with any woman. So there you are,” +Strether proceeded as if not for little Bilham’s benefit alone. “I +understand what a relation with such a woman—what such a high fine +friendship—may be. It can’t be vulgar or coarse, anyway—and that’s the +point.” + +“Yes, that’s the point,” said little Bilham. “It can’t be vulgar or +coarse. And, bless us and save us, it _isn’t!_ It’s, upon my word, the +very finest thing I ever saw in my life, and the most distinguished.” + +Strether, from beside him and leaning back with him as he leaned, +dropped on him a momentary look which filled a short interval and of +which he took no notice. He only gazed before him with intent +participation. “Of course what it has done for him,” Strether at all +events presently pursued, “of course what it has done for him—that is +as to _how_ it has so wonderfully worked—isn’t a thing I pretend to +understand. I’ve to take it as I find it. There he is.” + +“There he is!” little Bilham echoed. “And it’s really and truly she. I +don’t understand either, even with my longer and closer opportunity. +But I’m like you,” he added; “I can admire and rejoice even when I’m a +little in the dark. You see I’ve watched it for some three years, and +especially for this last. He wasn’t so bad before it as I seem to have +made out that you think—” + +“Oh I don’t think anything now!” Strether impatiently broke in: “that +is but what I _do_ think! I mean that originally, for her to have cared +for him—” + +“There must have been stuff in him? Oh yes, there was stuff indeed, and +much more of it than ever showed, I dare say, at home. Still, you +know,” the young man in all fairness developed, “there was room for +her, and that’s where she came in. She saw her chance and took it. +That’s what strikes me as having been so fine. But of course,” he wound +up, “he liked her first.” + +“Naturally,” said Strether. + +“I mean that they first met somehow and somewhere—I believe in some +American house—and she, without in the least then intending it, made +her impression. Then with time and opportunity he made his; and after +_that_ she was as bad as he.” + +Strether vaguely took it up. “As ‘bad’?” + +“She began, that is, to care—to care very much. Alone, and in her +horrid position, she found it, when once she had started, an interest. +It was, it is, an interest, and it did—it continues to do—a lot for +herself as well. So she still cares. She cares in fact,” said little +Bilham thoughtfully “more.” + +Strether’s theory that it was none of his business was somehow not +damaged by the way he took this. “More, you mean, than he?” On which +his companion looked round at him, and now for an instant their eyes +met. “More than he?” he repeated. + +Little Bilham, for as long, hung fire. “Will you never tell any one?” + +Strether thought. “Whom should I tell?” + +“Why I supposed you reported regularly—” + +“To people at home?”—Strether took him up. “Well, I won’t tell them +this.” + +The young man at last looked away. “Then she does now care more than +he.” + +“Oh!” Strether oddly exclaimed. + +But his companion immediately met it. “Haven’t you after all had your +impression of it? That’s how you’ve got hold of him.” + +“Ah but I haven’t got hold of him!” + +“Oh I say!” But it was all little Bilham said. + +“It’s at any rate none of my business. I mean,” Strether explained, +“nothing else than getting hold of him is.” It appeared, however, to +strike him as his business to add: “The fact remains nevertheless that +she has saved him.” + +Little Bilham just waited. “I thought that was what _you_ were to do.” + +But Strether had his answer ready. “I’m speaking—in connexion with +her—of his manners and morals, his character and life. I’m speaking of +him as a person to deal with and talk with and live with—speaking of +him as a social animal.” + +“And isn’t it as a social animal that you also want him?” + +“Certainly; so that it’s as if she had saved him _for_ us.” + +“It strikes you accordingly then,” the young man threw out, “as for you +all to save _her?_” + +“Oh for us ‘all’—!” Strether could but laugh at that. It brought him +back, however, to the point he had really wished to make. “They’ve +accepted their situation—hard as it is. They’re not free—at least she’s +not; but they take what’s left to them. It’s a friendship, of a +beautiful sort; and that’s what makes them so strong. They’re straight, +they feel; and they keep each other up. It’s doubtless she, however, +who, as you yourself have hinted, feels it most.” + +Little Bilham appeared to wonder what he had hinted. “Feels most that +they’re straight?” + +“Well, feels that _she_ is, and the strength that comes from it. She +keeps _him_ up—she keeps the whole thing up. When people are able to +it’s fine. She’s wonderful, wonderful, as Miss Barrace says; and he is, +in his way, too; however, as a mere man, he may sometimes rebel and not +feel that he finds his account in it. She has simply given him an +immense moral lift, and what that can explain is prodigious. That’s why +I speak of it as a situation. It _is_ one, if there ever was.” And +Strether, with his head back and his eyes on the ceiling, seemed to +lose himself in the vision of it. + +His companion attended deeply. “You state it much better than I could.” +“Oh you see it doesn’t concern you.” + +Little Bilham considered. “I thought you said just now that it doesn’t +concern you either.” + +“Well, it doesn’t a bit as Madame de Vionnet’s affair. But as we were +again saying just now, what did I come out for but to save him?” + +“Yes—to remove him.” + +“To save him _by_ removal; to win him over to _himself_ thinking it +best he shall take up business—thinking he must immediately do +therefore what’s necessary to that end.” + +“Well,” said little Bilham after a moment, “you _have_ won him over. He +does think it best. He has within a day or two again said to me as +much.” + +“And that,” Strether asked, “is why you consider that he cares less +than she?” + +“Cares less for her than she for him? Yes, that’s one of the reasons. +But other things too have given me the impression. A man, don’t you +think?” little Bilham presently pursued, “_Can’t_, in such conditions, +care so much as a woman. It takes different conditions to make him, and +then perhaps he cares more. Chad,” he wound up, “has his possible +future before him.” + +“Are you speaking of his business future?” + +“No—on the contrary; of the other, the future of what you so justly +call their situation. M. de Vionnet may live for ever.” + +“So that they can’t marry?” + +The young man waited a moment. “Not being able to marry is all they’ve +with any confidence to look forward to. A woman—a particular woman—may +stand that strain. But can a man?” he propounded. + +Strether’s answer was as prompt as if he had already, for himself, +worked it out. “Not without a very high ideal of conduct. But that’s +just what we’re attributing to Chad. And how, for that matter,” he +mused, “does his going to America diminish the particular strain? +Wouldn’t it seem rather to add to it?” + +“Out of sight out of mind!” his companion laughed. Then more bravely: +“Wouldn’t distance lessen the torment?” But before Strether could +reply, “The thing is, you see, Chad ought to marry!” he wound up. + +Strether, for a little, appeared to think of it. “If you talk of +torments you don’t diminish mine!” he then broke out. The next moment +he was on his feet with a question. “He ought to marry whom?” + +Little Bilham rose more slowly. “Well, some one he _can_—some +thoroughly nice girl.” + +Strether’s eyes, as they stood together, turned again to Jeanne. “Do +you mean _her?_” + +His friend made a sudden strange face. “After being in love with her +mother? No.” + +“But isn’t it exactly your idea that he _isn’t_ in love with her +mother?” + +His friend once more had a pause. “Well, he isn’t at any rate in love +with Jeanne.” + +“I dare say not.” + +“How _can_ he be with any other woman?” + +“Oh that I admit. But being in love isn’t, you know, here”—little +Bilham spoke in friendly reminder—“thought necessary, in strictness, +for marriage.” + +“And what torment—to call a torment—can there ever possibly be with a +woman like that?” As if from the interest of his own question Strether +had gone on without hearing. “Is it for her to have turned a man out so +wonderfully, too, only for somebody else?” He appeared to make a point +of this, and little Bilham looked at him now. “When it’s for each other +that people give things up they don’t miss them.” Then he threw off as +with an extravagance of which he was conscious: “Let them face the +future together!” + +Little Bilham looked at him indeed. “You mean that after all he +shouldn’t go back?” + +“I mean that if he gives her up—!” + +“Yes?” + +“Well, he ought to be ashamed of himself.” But Strether spoke with a +sound that might have passed for a laugh. + + + + + Volume II + + + + +Book Seventh + + + I + +It wasn’t the first time Strether had sat alone in the great dim +church—still less was it the first of his giving himself up, so far as +conditions permitted, to its beneficent action on his nerves. He had +been to Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had been there with Miss Gostrey, +he had been there with Chad Newsome, and had found the place, even in +company, such a refuge from the obsession of his problem that, with +renewed pressure from that source, he had not unnaturally recurred to a +remedy meeting the case, for the moment, so indirectly, no doubt, but +so relievingly. He was conscious enough that it was only for the +moment, but good moments—if he could call them good—still had their +value for a man who by this time struck himself as living almost +disgracefully from hand to mouth. Having so well learnt the way, he had +lately made the pilgrimage more than once by himself—had quite stolen +off, taking an unnoticed chance and making no point of speaking of the +adventure when restored to his friends. + +His great friend, for that matter, was still absent, as well as +remarkably silent; even at the end of three weeks Miss Gostrey hadn’t +come back. She wrote to him from Mentone, admitting that he must judge +her grossly inconsequent—perhaps in fact for the time odiously +faithless; but asking for patience, for a deferred sentence, throwing +herself in short on his generosity. For her too, she could assure him, +life was complicated—more complicated than he could have guessed; she +had moreover made certain of him—certain of not wholly missing him on +her return—before her disappearance. If furthermore she didn’t burden +him with letters it was frankly because of her sense of the other great +commerce he had to carry on. He himself, at the end of a fortnight, had +written twice, to show how his generosity could be trusted; but he +reminded himself in each case of Mrs. Newsome’s epistolary manner at +the times when Mrs. Newsome kept off delicate ground. He sank his +problem, he talked of Waymarsh and Miss Barrace, of little Bilham and +the set over the river, with whom he had again had tea, and he was +easy, for convenience, about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and Jeanne. He +admitted that he continued to see them, he was decidedly so confirmed a +haunter of Chad’s premises and that young man’s practical intimacy with +them was so undeniably great; but he had his reason for not attempting +to render for Miss Gostrey’s benefit the impression of these last days. +That would be to tell her too much about himself—it being at present +just from himself he was trying to escape. + +This small struggle sprang not a little, in its way, from the same +impulse that had now carried him across to Notre Dame; the impulse to +let things be, to give them time to justify themselves or at least to +pass. He was aware of having no errand in such a place but the desire +not to be, for the hour, in certain other places; a sense of safety, of +simplification, which each time he yielded to it he amused himself by +thinking of as a private concession to cowardice. The great church had +no altar for his worship, no direct voice for his soul; but it was none +the less soothing even to sanctity; for he could feel while there what +he couldn’t elsewhere, that he was a plain tired man taking the holiday +he had earned. He was tired, but he wasn’t plain—that was the pity and +the trouble of it; he was able, however, to drop his problem at the +door very much as if it had been the copper piece that he deposited, on +the threshold, in the receptacle of the inveterate blind beggar. He +trod the long dim nave, sat in the splendid choir, paused before the +cluttered chapels of the east end, and the mighty monument laid upon +him its spell. He might have been a student under the charm of a +museum—which was exactly what, in a foreign town, in the afternoon of +life, he would have liked to be free to be. This form of sacrifice did +at any rate for the occasion as well as another; it made him quite +sufficiently understand how, within the precinct, for the real refugee, +the things of the world could fall into abeyance. That was the +cowardice, probably—to dodge them, to beg the question, not to deal +with it in the hard outer light; but his own oblivions were too brief, +too vain, to hurt any one but himself, and he had a vague and fanciful +kindness for certain persons whom he met, figures of mystery and +anxiety, and whom, with observation for his pastime, he ranked as those +who were fleeing from justice. Justice was outside, in the hard light, +and injustice too; but one was as absent as the other from the air of +the long aisles and the brightness of the many altars. + +Thus it was at all events that, one morning some dozen days after the +dinner in the Boulevard Malesherbes at which Madame de Vionnet had been +present with her daughter, he was called upon to play his part in an +encounter that deeply stirred his imagination. He had the habit, in +these contemplations, of watching a fellow visitant, here and there, +from a respectable distance, remarking some note of behaviour, of +penitence, of prostration, of the absolved, relieved state; this was +the manner in which his vague tenderness took its course, the degree of +demonstration to which it naturally had to confine itself. It hadn’t +indeed so felt its responsibility as when on this occasion he suddenly +measured the suggestive effect of a lady whose supreme stillness, in +the shade of one of the chapels, he had two or three times noticed as +he made, and made once more, his slow circuit. She wasn’t prostrate—not +in any degree bowed, but she was strangely fixed, and her prolonged +immobility showed her, while he passed and paused, as wholly given up +to the need, whatever it was, that had brought her there. She only sat +and gazed before her, as he himself often sat; but she had placed +herself, as he never did, within the focus of the shrine, and she had +lost herself, he could easily see, as he would only have liked to do. +She was not a wandering alien, keeping back more than she gave, but one +of the familiar, the intimate, the fortunate, for whom these dealings +had a method and a meaning. She reminded our friend—since it was the +way of nine tenths of his current impressions to act as recalls of +things imagined—of some fine firm concentrated heroine of an old story, +something he had heard, read, something that, had he had a hand for +drama, he might himself have written, renewing her courage, renewing +her clearness, in splendidly-protected meditation. Her back, as she +sat, was turned to him, but his impression absolutely required that she +should be young and interesting, and she carried her head moreover, +even in the sacred shade, with a discernible faith in herself, a kind +of implied conviction of consistency, security, impunity. But what had +such a woman come for if she hadn’t come to pray? Strether’s reading of +such matters was, it must be owned, confused; but he wondered if her +attitude were some congruous fruit of absolution, of “indulgence.” He +knew but dimly what indulgence, in such a place, might mean; yet he +had, as with a soft sweep, a vision of how it might indeed add to the +zest of active rites. All this was a good deal to have been denoted by +a mere lurking figure who was nothing to him; but, the last thing +before leaving the church, he had the surprise of a still deeper +quickening. + +He had dropped upon a seat halfway down the nave and, again in the +museum mood, was trying with head thrown back and eyes aloft, to +reconstitute a past, to reduce it in fact to the convenient terms of +Victor Hugo, whom, a few days before, giving the rein for once in a way +to the joy of life, he had purchased in seventy bound volumes, a +miracle of cheapness, parted with, he was assured by the shopman, at +the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, doubtless, while he +played his eternal nippers over Gothic glooms, sufficiently rapt in +reverence; but what his thought had finally bumped against was the +question of where, among packed accumulations, so multiform a wedge +would be able to enter. Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold to be +perhaps what he should most substantially have to show at Woollett as +the fruit of his mission? It was a possibility that held him a +minute—held him till he happened to feel that some one, unnoticed, had +approached him and paused. Turning, he saw that a lady stood there as +for a greeting, and he sprang up as he next took her, securely, for +Madame de Vionnet, who appeared to have recognised him as she passed +near him on her way to the door. She checked, quickly and gaily, a +certain confusion in him, came to meet it, turned it back, by an art of +her own; the confusion having threatened him as he knew her for the +person he had lately been observing. She was the lurking figure of the +dim chapel; she had occupied him more than she guessed; but it came to +him in time, luckily, that he needn’t tell her and that no harm, after +all, had been done. She herself, for that matter, straightway showing +she felt their encounter as the happiest of accidents, had for him a +“You come here too?” that despoiled surprise of every awkwardness. + +“I come often,” she said. “I love this place, but I’m terrible, in +general, for churches. The old women who live in them all know me; in +fact I’m already myself one of the old women. It’s like that, at all +events, that I foresee I shall end.” Looking about for a chair, so that +he instantly pulled one nearer, she sat down with him again to the +sound of an “Oh, I like so much your also being fond—!” + +He confessed the extent of his feeling, though she left the object +vague; and he was struck with the tact, the taste of her vagueness, +which simply took for granted in him a sense of beautiful things. He +was conscious of how much it was affected, this sense, by something +subdued and discreet in the way she had arranged herself for her +special object and her morning walk—he believed her to have come on +foot; the way her slightly thicker veil was drawn—a mere touch, but +everything; the composed gravity of her dress, in which, here and +there, a dull wine-colour seemed to gleam faintly through black; the +charming discretion of her small compact head; the quiet note, as she +sat, of her folded, grey-gloved hands. It was, to Strether’s mind, as +if she sat on her own ground, the light honours of which, at an open +gate, she thus easily did him, while all the vastness and mystery of +the domain stretched off behind. When people were so completely in +possession they could be extraordinarily civil; and our friend had +indeed at this hour a kind of revelation of her heritage. She was +romantic for him far beyond what she could have guessed, and again he +found his small comfort in the conviction that, subtle though she was, +his impression must remain a secret from her. The thing that, once +more, made him uneasy for secrets in general was this particular +patience she could have with his own want of colour; albeit that on the +other hand his uneasiness pretty well dropped after he had been for ten +minutes as colourless as possible and at the same time as responsive. + +The moments had already, for that matter, drawn their deepest tinge +from the special interest excited in him by his vision of his +companion’s identity with the person whose attitude before the +glimmering altar had so impressed him. This attitude fitted admirably +into the stand he had privately taken about her connexion with Chad on +the last occasion of his seeing them together. It helped him to stick +fast at the point he had then reached; it was there he had resolved +that he _would_ stick, and at no moment since had it seemed as easy to +do so. Unassailably innocent was a relation that could make one of the +parties to it so carry herself. If it wasn’t innocent why did she haunt +the churches?—into which, given the woman he could believe he made out, +she would never have come to flaunt an insolence of guilt. She haunted +them for continued help, for strength, for peace—sublime support which, +if one were able to look at it so, she found from day to day. They +talked, in low easy tones and with lifted lingering looks, about the +great monument and its history and its beauty—all of which, Madame de +Vionnet professed, came to her most in the other, the outer view. +“We’ll presently, after we go,” she said, “walk round it again if you +like. I’m not in a particular hurry, and it will be pleasant to look at +it well with you.” He had spoken of the great romancer and the great +romance, and of what, to his imagination, they had done for the whole, +mentioning to her moreover the exorbitance of his purchase, the seventy +blazing volumes that were so out of proportion. + +“Out of proportion to what?” + +“Well, to any other plunge.” Yet he felt even as he spoke how at that +instant he was plunging. He had made up his mind and was impatient to +get into the air; for his purpose was a purpose to be uttered outside, +and he had a fear that it might with delay still slip away from him. +She however took her time; she drew out their quiet gossip as if she +had wished to profit by their meeting, and this confirmed precisely an +interpretation of her manner, of her mystery. While she rose, as he +would have called it, to the question of Victor Hugo, her voice itself, +the light low quaver of her deference to the solemnity about them, +seemed to make her words mean something that they didn’t mean openly. +Help, strength, peace, a sublime support—she hadn’t found so much of +these things as that the amount wouldn’t be sensibly greater for any +scrap his appearance of faith in her might enable her to feel in her +hand. Every little, in a long strain, helped, and if he happened to +affect her as a firm object she could hold on by, he wouldn’t jerk +himself out of her reach. People in difficulties held on by what was +nearest, and he was perhaps after all not further off than sources of +comfort more abstract. It was as to this he had made up his mind; he +had made it up, that is, to give her a sign. The sign would be +that—though it was her own affair—he understood; the sign would be +that—though it was her own affair—she was free to clutch. Since she +took him for a firm object—much as he might to his own sense appear at +times to rock—he would do his best to _be_ one. + +The end of it was that half an hour later they were seated together for +an early luncheon at a wonderful, a delightful house of entertainment +on the left bank—a place of pilgrimage for the knowing, they were both +aware, the knowing who came, for its great renown, the homage of +restless days, from the other end of the town. Strether had already +been there three times—first with Miss Gostrey, then with Chad, then +with Chad again and with Waymarsh and little Bilham, all of whom he had +himself sagaciously entertained; and his pleasure was deep now on +learning that Madame de Vionnet hadn’t yet been initiated. When he had +said as they strolled round the church, by the river, acting at last on +what, within, he had made up his mind to, “Will you, if you have time, +come to déjeuner with me somewhere? For instance, if you know it, over +there on the other side, which is so easy a walk”—and then had named +the place; when he had done this she stopped short as for quick +intensity, and yet deep difficulty, of response. She took in the +proposal as if it were almost too charming to be true; and there had +perhaps never yet been for her companion so unexpected a moment of +pride—so fine, so odd a case, at any rate, as his finding himself thus +able to offer to a person in such universal possession a new, a rare +amusement. She had heard of the happy spot, but she asked him in reply +to a further question how in the world he could suppose her to have +been there. He supposed himself to have supposed that Chad might have +taken her, and she guessed this the next moment to his no small +discomfort. + +“Ah, let me explain,” she smiled, “that I don’t go about with him in +public; I never have such chances—not having them otherwise—and it’s +just the sort of thing that, as a quiet creature living in my hole, I +adore.” It was more than kind of him to have thought of it—though, +frankly, if he asked whether she had time she hadn’t a single minute. +That however made no difference—she’d throw everything over. Every duty +at home, domestic, maternal, social, awaited her; but it was a case for +a high line. Her affairs would go to smash, but hadn’t one a right to +one’s snatch of scandal when one was prepared to pay? It was on this +pleasant basis of costly disorder, consequently, that they eventually +seated themselves, on either side of a small table, at a window +adjusted to the busy quay and the shining barge-burdened Seine; where, +for an hour, in the matter of letting himself go, of diving deep, +Strether was to feel he had touched bottom. He was to feel many things +on this occasion, and one of the first of them was that he had +travelled far since that evening in London, before the theatre, when +his dinner with Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded candles, had +struck him as requiring so many explanations. He had at that time +gathered them in, the explanations—he had stored them up; but it was at +present as if he had either soared above or sunk below them—he couldn’t +tell which; he could somehow think of none that didn’t seem to leave +the appearance of collapse and cynicism easier for him than lucidity. +How could he wish it to be lucid for others, for any one, that he, for +the hour, saw reasons enough in the mere way the bright clean ordered +water-side life came in at the open window?—the mere way Madame de +Vionnet, opposite him over their intensely white table-linen, their +_omelette aux tomates_, their bottle of straw-coloured Chablis, thanked +him for everything almost with the smile of a child, while her grey +eyes moved in and out of their talk, back to the quarter of the warm +spring air, in which early summer had already begun to throb, and then +back again to his face and their human questions. + +Their human questions became many before they had done—many more, as +one after the other came up, than our friend’s free fancy had at all +foreseen. The sense he had had before, the sense he had had repeatedly, +the sense that the situation was running away with him, had never been +so sharp as now; and all the more that he could perfectly put his +finger on the moment it had taken the bit in its teeth. That accident +had definitely occurred, the other evening, after Chad’s dinner; it had +occurred, as he fully knew, at the moment when he interposed between +this lady and her child, when he suffered himself so to discuss with +her a matter closely concerning them that her own subtlety, marked by +its significant “Thank you!” instantly sealed the occasion in her +favour. Again he had held off for ten days, but the situation had +continued out of hand in spite of that; the fact that it was running so +fast being indeed just _why_ he had held off. What had come over him as +he recognised her in the nave of the church was that holding off could +be but a losing game from the instant she was worked for not only by +her subtlety, but by the hand of fate itself. If all the accidents were +to fight on her side—and by the actual showing they loomed large—he +could only give himself up. This was what he had done in privately +deciding then and there to propose she should breakfast with him. What +did the success of his proposal in fact resemble but the smash in which +a regular runaway properly ends? The smash was their walk, their +déjeuner, their omelette, the Chablis, the place, the view, their +present talk and his present pleasure in it—to say nothing, wonder of +wonders, of her own. To this tune and nothing less, accordingly, was +his surrender made good. It sufficiently lighted up at least the folly +of holding off. Ancient proverbs sounded, for his memory, in the tone +of their words and the clink of their glasses, in the hum of the town +and the plash of the river. It _was_ clearly better to suffer as a +sheep than as a lamb. One might as well perish by the sword as by +famine. + +“Maria’s still away?”—that was the first thing she had asked him; and +when he had found the frankness to be cheerful about it in spite of the +meaning he knew her to attach to Miss Gostrey’s absence, she had gone +on to enquire if he didn’t tremendously miss her. There were reasons +that made him by no means sure, yet he nevertheless answered +“Tremendously”; which she took in as if it were all she had wished to +prove. Then, “A man in trouble _must_ be possessed somehow of a woman,” +she said; “if she doesn’t come in one way she comes in another.” + +“Why do you call me a man in trouble?” + +“Ah because that’s the way you strike me.” She spoke ever so gently and +as if with all fear of wounding him while she sat partaking of his +bounty. “_Aren’t_ you in trouble?” + +He felt himself colour at the question, and then hated that—hated to +pass for anything so idiotic as woundable. Woundable by Chad’s lady, in +respect to whom he had come out with such a fund of indifference—was he +already at that point? Perversely, none the less, his pause gave a +strange air of truth to her supposition; and what was he in fact but +disconcerted at having struck her just in the way he had most dreamed +of not doing? “I’m not in trouble yet,” he at last smiled. “I’m not in +trouble now.” + +“Well, I’m always so. But that you sufficiently know.” She was a woman +who, between courses, could be graceful with her elbows on the table. +It was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but it was easy for a _femme +du monde_. “Yes—I am ‘now’!” + +“There was a question you put to me,” he presently returned, “the night +of Chad’s dinner. I didn’t answer it then, and it has been very +handsome of you not to have sought an occasion for pressing me about it +since.” + +She was instantly all there. “Of course I know what you allude to. I +asked you what you had meant by saying, the day you came to see me, +just before you left me, that you’d save me. And you then said—at our +friend’s—that you’d have really to wait to see, for yourself, what you +did mean.” + +“Yes, I asked for time,” said Strether. “And it sounds now, as you put +it, like a very ridiculous speech.” + +“Oh!” she murmured—she was full of attenuation. But she had another +thought. “If it does sound ridiculous why do you deny that you’re in +trouble?” + +“Ah if I were,” he replied, “it wouldn’t be the trouble of fearing +ridicule. I don’t fear it.” + +“What then do you?” + +“Nothing—now.” And he leaned back in his chair. + +“I like your ‘now’!” she laughed across at him. + +“Well, it’s precisely that it fully comes to me at present that I’ve +kept you long enough. I know by this time, at any rate, what I meant by +my speech; and I really knew it the night of Chad’s dinner.” + +“Then why didn’t you tell me?” + +“Because it was difficult at the moment. I had already at that moment +done something for you, in the sense of what I had said the day I went +to see you; but I wasn’t then sure of the importance I might represent +this as having.” + +She was all eagerness. “And you’re sure now?” + +“Yes; I see that, practically, I’ve done for you—had done for you when +you put me your question—all that it’s as yet possible to me to do. I +feel now,” he went on, “that it may go further than I thought. What I +did after my visit to you,” he explained, “was to write straight off to +Mrs. Newsome about you, and I’m at last, from one day to the other, +expecting her answer. It’s this answer that will represent, as I +believe, the consequences.” + +Patient and beautiful was her interest. “I see—the consequences of your +speaking for me.” And she waited as if not to hustle him. + +He acknowledged it by immediately going on. “The question, you +understand, was _how_ I should save you. Well, I’m trying it by thus +letting her know that I consider you worth saving.” + +“I see—I see.” Her eagerness broke through. + +“How can I thank you enough?” He couldn’t tell her that, however, and +she quickly pursued. “You do really, for yourself, consider it?” + +His only answer at first was to help her to the dish that had been +freshly put before them. “I’ve written to her again since then—I’ve +left her in no doubt of what I think. I’ve told her all about you.” + +“Thanks—not so much. ‘All about’ me,” she went on—“yes.” + +“All it seems to me you’ve done for him.” + +“Ah and you might have added all it seems to _me!_” She laughed again, +while she took up her knife and fork, as in the cheer of these +assurances. “But you’re not sure how she’ll take it.” + +“No, I’ll not pretend I’m sure.” + +“Voilà.” And she waited a moment. “I wish you’d tell me about her.” + +“Oh,” said Strether with a slightly strained smile, “all that need +concern you about her is that she’s really a grand person.” + +Madame de Vionnet seemed to demur. “Is that all that need concern me +about her?” + +But Strether neglected the question. “Hasn’t Chad talked to you?” + +“Of his mother? Yes, a great deal—immensely. But not from your point of +view.” + +“He can’t,” our friend returned, “have said any ill of her.” + +“Not the least bit. He has given me, like you, the assurance that she’s +really grand. But her being really grand is somehow just what hasn’t +seemed to simplify our case. Nothing,” she continued, “is further from +me than to wish to say a word against her; but of course I feel how +little she can like being told of her owing me anything. No woman ever +enjoys such an obligation to another woman.” + +This was a proposition Strether couldn’t contradict. “And yet what +other way could I have expressed to her what I felt? It’s what there +was most to say about you.” + +“Do you mean then that she _will_ be good to me?” + +“It’s what I’m waiting to see. But I’ve little doubt she would,” he +added, “if she could comfortably see you.” + +It seemed to strike her as a happy, a beneficent thought. “Oh then +couldn’t that be managed? Wouldn’t she come out? Wouldn’t she if you so +put it to her? _Did_ you by any possibility?” she faintly quavered. + +“Oh no”—he was prompt. “Not that. It would be, much more, to give an +account of you that—since there’s no question of _your_ paying the +visit—I should go home first.” + +It instantly made her graver. “And are you thinking of that?” + +“Oh all the while, naturally.” + +“Stay with us—stay with us!” she exclaimed on this. “That’s your only +way to make sure.” + +“To make sure of what?” + +“Why that he doesn’t break up. You didn’t come out to do that to him.” + +“Doesn’t it depend,” Strether returned after a moment, “on what you +mean by breaking up?” + +“Oh you know well enough what I mean!” + +His silence seemed again for a little to denote an understanding. “You +take for granted remarkable things.” + +“Yes, I do—to the extent that I don’t take for granted vulgar ones. +You’re perfectly capable of seeing that what you came out for wasn’t +really at all to do what you’d now have to do.” + +“Ah it’s perfectly simple,” Strether good-humouredly pleaded. “I’ve had +but one thing to do—to put our case before him. To put it as it could +only be put here on the spot—by personal pressure. My dear lady,” he +lucidly pursued, “my work, you see, is really done, and my reasons for +staying on even another day are none of the best. Chad’s in possession +of our case and professes to do it full justice. What remains is with +himself. I’ve had my rest, my amusement and refreshment; I’ve had, as +we say at Woollett, a lovely time. Nothing in it has been more lovely +than this happy meeting with you—in these fantastic conditions to which +you’ve so delightfully consented. I’ve a sense of success. It’s what I +wanted. My getting all this good is what Chad has waited for, and I +gather that if I’m ready to go he’s the same.” + +She shook her head with a finer deeper wisdom. “You’re not ready. If +you’re ready why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the sense you’ve +mentioned to me?” + +Strether considered. “I shan’t go before I hear from her. You’re too +much afraid of her,” he added. + +It produced between them a long look from which neither shrank. “I +don’t think you believe that—believe I’ve not really reason to fear +her.” + +“She’s capable of great generosity,” Strether presently stated. + +“Well then let her trust me a little. That’s all I ask. Let her +recognise in spite of everything what I’ve done.” + +“Ah remember,” our friend replied, “that she can’t effectually +recognise it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and show +her what you’ve done, and let him plead with her there for it and, as +it were, for _you_.” + +She measured the depth of this suggestion. “Do you give me your word of +honour that if she once has him there she won’t do her best to marry +him?” + +It made her companion, this enquiry, look again a while out at the +view; after which he spoke without sharpness. “When she sees for +herself what he is—” + +But she had already broken in. “It’s when she sees for herself what he +is that she’ll want to marry him most.” + +Strether’s attitude, that of due deference to what she said, permitted +him to attend for a minute to his luncheon. “I doubt if that will come +off. It won’t be easy to make it.” + +“It will be easy if he remains there—and he’ll remain for the money. +The money appears to be, as a probability, so hideously much.” + +“Well,” Strether presently concluded, “nothing _could_ really hurt you +but his marrying.” + +She gave a strange light laugh. “Putting aside what may really hurt +_him_.” + +But her friend looked at her as if he had thought of that too. “The +question will come up, of course, of the future that you yourself offer +him.” + +She was leaning back now, but she fully faced him. “Well, let it come +up!” + +“The point is that it’s for Chad to make of it what he can. His being +proof against marriage will show what he does make.” + +“If he _is_ proof, yes”—she accepted the proposition. “But for myself,” +she added, “the question is what _you_ make.” + +“Ah I make nothing. It’s not my affair.” + +“I beg your pardon. It’s just there that, since you’ve taken it up and +are committed to it, it most intensely becomes yours. You’re not saving +me, I take it, for your interest in myself, but for your interest in +our friend. The one’s at any rate wholly dependent on the other. You +can’t in honour not see me through,” she wound up, “because you can’t +in honour not see _him_.” + +Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet soft acuteness. The thing +that most moved him was really that she was so deeply serious. She had +none of the portentous forms of it, but he had never come in contact, +it struck him, with a force brought to so fine a head. Mrs. Newsome, +goodness knew, was serious; but it was nothing to this. He took it all +in, he saw it all together. “No,” he mused, “I can’t in honour not see +him.” + +Her face affected him as with an exquisite light. “You _will_ then?” + +“I will.” + +At this she pushed back her chair and was the next moment on her feet. +“Thank you!” she said with her hand held out to him across the table +and with no less a meaning in the words than her lips had so +particularly given them after Chad’s dinner. The golden nail she had +then driven in pierced a good inch deeper. Yet he reflected that he +himself had only meanwhile done what he had made up his mind to on the +same occasion. So far as the essence of the matter went he had simply +stood fast on the spot on which he had then planted his feet. + + + II + +He received three days after this a communication from America, in the +form of a scrap of blue paper folded and gummed, not reaching him +through his bankers, but delivered at his hotel by a small boy in +uniform, who, under instructions from the concierge, approached him as +he slowly paced the little court. It was the evening hour, but daylight +was long now and Paris more than ever penetrating. The scent of flowers +was in the streets, he had the whiff of violets perpetually in his +nose; and he had attached himself to sounds and suggestions, vibrations +of the air, human and dramatic, he imagined, as they were not in other +places, that came out for him more and more as the mild afternoons +deepened—a far-off hum, a sharp near click on the asphalt, a voice +calling, replying, somewhere and as full of tone as an actor’s in a +play. He was to dine at home, as usual, with Waymarsh—they had settled +to that for thrift and simplicity; and he now hung about before his +friend came down. + +He read his telegram in the court, standing still a long time where he +had opened it and giving five minutes afterwards to the renewed study +of it. At last, quickly, he crumpled it up as if to get it out of the +way; in spite of which, however, he kept it there—still kept it when, +at the end of another turn, he had dropped into a chair placed near a +small table. Here, with his scrap of paper compressed in his fist and +further concealed by his folding his arms tight, he sat for some time +in thought, gazed before him so straight that Waymarsh appeared and +approached him without catching his eye. The latter in fact, struck +with his appearance, looked at him hard for a single instant and then, +as if determined to that course by some special vividness in it, +dropped back into the _salon de lecture_ without addressing him. But +the pilgrim from Milrose permitted himself still to observe the scene +from behind the clear glass plate of that retreat. Strether ended, as +he sat, by a fresh scrutiny of his compressed missive, which he +smoothed out carefully again as he placed it on his table. There it +remained for some minutes, until, at last looking up, he saw Waymarsh +watching him from within. It was on this that their eyes met—met for a +moment during which neither moved. But Strether then got up, folding +his telegram more carefully and putting it into his waistcoat pocket. + +A few minutes later the friends were seated together at dinner; but +Strether had meanwhile said nothing about it, and they eventually +parted, after coffee in the court, with nothing said on either side. +Our friend had moreover the consciousness that even less than usual was +on this occasion said between them, so that it was almost as if each +had been waiting for something from the other. Waymarsh had always more +or less the air of sitting at the door of his tent, and silence, after +so many weeks, had come to play its part in their concert. This note +indeed, to Strether’s sense, had lately taken a fuller tone, and it was +his fancy to-night that they had never quite so drawn it out. Yet it +befell, none the less that he closed the door to confidence when his +companion finally asked him if there were anything particular the +matter with him. “Nothing,” he replied, “more than usual.” + +On the morrow, however, at an early hour, he found occasion to give an +answer more in consonance with the facts. What was the matter had +continued to be so all the previous evening, the first hours of which, +after dinner, in his room, he had devoted to the copious composition of +a letter. He had quitted Waymarsh for this purpose, leaving him to his +own resources with less ceremony than their wont, but finally coming +down again with his letter unconcluded and going forth into the streets +without enquiry for his comrade. He had taken a long vague walk, and +one o’clock had struck before his return and his re-ascent to his room +by the aid of the glimmering candle-end left for him on the shelf +outside the porter’s lodge. He had possessed himself, on closing his +door, of the numerous loose sheets of his unfinished composition, and +then, without reading them over, had torn them into small pieces. He +had thereupon slept—as if it had been in some measure thanks to that +sacrifice—the sleep of the just, and had prolonged his rest +considerably beyond his custom. Thus it was that when, between nine and +ten, the tap of the knob of a walking-stick sounded on his door, he had +not yet made himself altogether presentable. Chad Newsome’s bright deep +voice determined quickly enough none the less the admission of the +visitor. The little blue paper of the evening before, plainly an object +the more precious for its escape from premature destruction, now lay on +the sill of the open window, smoothed out afresh and kept from blowing +away by the superincumbent weight of his watch. Chad, looking about +with careless and competent criticism, as he looked wherever he went +immediately espied it and permitted himself to fix it for a moment +rather hard. After which he turned his eyes to his host. “It has come +then at last?” + +Strether paused in the act of pinning his necktie. “Then you know—? +You’ve had one too?” + +“No, I’ve had nothing, and I only know what I see. I see that thing and +I guess. Well,” he added, “it comes as pat as in a play, for I’ve +precisely turned up this morning—as I would have done yesterday, but it +was impossible—to take you.” + +“To take me?” Strether had turned again to his glass. + +“Back, at last, as I promised. I’m ready—I’ve really been ready this +month. I’ve only been waiting for you—as was perfectly right. But +you’re better now; you’re safe—I see that for myself; you’ve got all +your good. You’re looking, this morning, as fit as a flea.” + +Strether, at his glass, finished dressing; consulting that witness +moreover on this last opinion. _Was_ he looking preternaturally fit? +There was something in it perhaps for Chad’s wonderful eye, but he had +felt himself for hours rather in pieces. Such a judgement, however, was +after all but a contribution to his resolve; it testified unwittingly +to his wisdom. He was still firmer, apparently—since it shone in him as +a light—than he had flattered himself. His firmness indeed was slightly +compromised, as he faced about to his friend, by the way this very +personage looked—though the case would of course have been worse hadn’t +the secret of personal magnificence been at every hour Chad’s unfailing +possession. There he was in all the pleasant morning freshness of +it—strong and sleek and gay, easy and fragrant and fathomless, with +happy health in his colour, and pleasant silver in his thick young +hair, and the right word for everything on the lips that his clear +brownness caused to show as red. He had never struck Strether as +personally such a success; it was as if now, for his definite +surrender, he had gathered himself vividly together. This, sharply and +rather strangely, was the form in which he was to be presented to +Woollett. Our friend took him in again—he was always taking him in and +yet finding that parts of him still remained out; though even thus his +image showed through a mist of other things. “I’ve had a cable,” +Strether said, “from your mother.” + +“I dare say, my dear man. I hope she’s well.” + +Strether hesitated. “No—she’s not well, I’m sorry to have to tell you.” + +“Ah,” said Chad, “I must have had the instinct of it. All the more +reason then that we should start straight off.” + +Strether had now got together hat, gloves and stick, but Chad had +dropped on the sofa as if to show where he wished to make his point. He +kept observing his companion’s things; he might have been judging how +quickly they could be packed. He might even have wished to hint that +he’d send his own servant to assist. “What do you mean,” Strether +enquired, “by ‘straight off’?” + +“Oh by one of next week’s boats. Everything at this season goes out so +light that berths will be easy anywhere.” + +Strether had in his hand his telegram, which he had kept there after +attaching his watch, and he now offered it to Chad, who, however, with +an odd movement, declined to take it. “Thanks, I’d rather not. Your +correspondence with Mother’s your own affair. I’m only _with_ you both +on it, whatever it is.” Strether, at this, while their eyes met, slowly +folded the missive and put it in his pocket; after which, before he had +spoken again, Chad broke fresh ground. “Has Miss Gostrey come back?” + +But when Strether presently spoke it wasn’t in answer. “It’s not, I +gather, that your mother’s physically ill; her health, on the whole, +this spring, seems to have been better than usual. But she’s worried, +she’s anxious, and it appears to have risen within the last few days to +a climax. We’ve tired out, between us, her patience.” + +“Oh it isn’t _you!_” Chad generously protested. + +“I beg your pardon—it _is_ me.” Strether was mild and melancholy, but +firm. He saw it far away and over his companion’s head. “It’s very +particularly me.” + +“Well then all the more reason. _Marchons, marchons!_” said the young +man gaily. His host, however, at this, but continued to stand agaze; +and he had the next thing repeated his question of a moment before. +“Has Miss Gostrey come back?” + +“Yes, two days ago.” + +“Then you’ve seen her?” + +“No—I’m to see her to-day.” But Strether wouldn’t linger now on Miss +Gostrey. “Your mother sends me an ultimatum. If I can’t bring you I’m +to leave you; I’m to come at any rate myself.” + +“Ah but you _can_ bring me now,” Chad, from his sofa, reassuringly +replied. + +Strether had a pause. “I don’t think I understand you. Why was it that, +more than a month ago, you put it to me so urgently to let Madame de +Vionnet speak for you?” + +“‘Why’?” Chad considered, but he had it at his fingers’ ends. “Why but +because I knew how well she’d do it? It was the way to keep you quiet +and, to that extent, do you good. Besides,” he happily and comfortably +explained, “I wanted you really to know her and to get the impression +of her—and you see the good that _has_ done you.” + +“Well,” said Strether, “the way she has spoken for you, all the same—so +far as I’ve given her a chance—has only made me feel how much she +wishes to keep you. If you make nothing of that I don’t see why you +wanted me to listen to her.” + +“Why my dear man,” Chad exclaimed, “I make everything of it! How can +you doubt—?” + +“I doubt only because you come to me this morning with your signal to +start.” + +Chad stared, then gave a laugh. “And isn’t my signal to start just what +you’ve been waiting for?” + +Strether debated; he took another turn. “This last month I’ve been +awaiting, I think, more than anything else, the message I have here.” + +“You mean you’ve been afraid of it?” + +“Well, I was doing my business in my own way. And I suppose your +present announcement,” Strether went on, “isn’t merely the result of +your sense of what I’ve expected. Otherwise you wouldn’t have put me in +relation—” But he paused, pulling up. + +At this Chad rose. “Ah _her_ wanting me not to go has nothing to do +with it! It’s only because she’s afraid—afraid of the way that, over +there, I may get caught. But her fear’s groundless.” + +He had met again his companion’s sufficiently searching look. “Are you +tired of her?” + +Chad gave him in reply to this, with a movement of the head, the +strangest slow smile he had ever had from him. “Never.” + +It had immediately, on Strether’s imagination, so deep and soft an +effect that our friend could only for the moment keep it before him. +“Never?” + +“Never,” Chad obligingly and serenely repeated. + +It made his companion take several more steps. “Then _you’re_ not +afraid.” + +“Afraid to go?” + +Strether pulled up again. “Afraid to stay.” + +The young man looked brightly amazed. “You want me now to ‘stay’?” + +“If I don’t immediately sail the Pococks will immediately come out. +That’s what I mean,” said Strether, “by your mother’s ultimatum.” + +Chad showed a still livelier, but not an alarmed interest. “She has +turned on Sarah and Jim?” + +Strether joined him for an instant in the vision. “Oh and you may be +sure Mamie. _That’s_ whom she’s turning on.” + +This also Chad saw—he laughed out. “Mamie—to corrupt me?” + +“Ah,” said Strether, “she’s very charming.” + +“So you’ve already more than once told me. I should like to see her.” + +Something happy and easy, something above all unconscious, in the way +he said this, brought home again to his companion the facility of his +attitude and the enviability of his state. “See her then by all means. +And consider too,” Strether went on, “that you really give your sister +a lift in letting her come to you. You give her a couple of months of +Paris, which she hasn’t seen, if I’m not mistaken, since just after she +was married, and which I’m sure she wants but the pretext to visit.” + +Chad listened, but with all his own knowledge of the world. “She has +had it, the pretext, these several years, yet she has never taken it.” + +“Do you mean _you?_” Strether after an instant enquired. + +“Certainly—the lone exile. And whom do you mean?” said Chad. + +“Oh I mean _me_. I’m her pretext. That is—for it comes to the same +thing—I’m your mother’s.” + +“Then why,” Chad asked, “doesn’t Mother come herself?” + +His friend gave him a long look. “Should you like her to?” And as he +for the moment said nothing: “It’s perfectly open to you to cable for +her.” + +Chad continued to think. “Will she come if I do?” + +“Quite possibly. But try, and you’ll see.” + +“Why don’t _you_ try?” Chad after a moment asked. + +“Because I don’t want to.” + +Chad thought. “Don’t desire her presence here?” + +Strether faced the question, and his answer was the more emphatic. +“Don’t put it off, my dear boy, on _me!_” + +“Well—I see what you mean. I’m sure you’d behave beautifully but you +_don’t_ want to see her. So I won’t play you that trick.’ + +“Ah,” Strether declared, “I shouldn’t call it a trick. You’ve a perfect +right, and it would be perfectly straight of you.” Then he added in a +different tone: “You’d have moreover, in the person of Madame de +Vionnet, a very interesting relation prepared for her.” + +Their eyes, on this proposition, continued to meet, but Chad’s pleasant +and bold, never flinched for a moment. He got up at last and he said +something with which Strether was struck. “She wouldn’t understand her, +but that makes no difference. Madame de Vionnet would like to see her. +She’d like to be charming to her. She believes she could work it.” + +Strether thought a moment, affected by this, but finally turning away. +“She couldn’t!” + +“You’re quite sure?” Chad asked. + +“Well, risk it if you like!” + +Strether, who uttered this with serenity, had urged a plea for their +now getting into the air; but the young man still waited. “Have you +sent your answer?” + +“No, I’ve done nothing yet.” + +“Were you waiting to see me?” + +“No, not that.” + +“Only waiting”—and Chad, with this, had a smile for him—“to see Miss +Gostrey?” + +“No—not even Miss Gostrey. I wasn’t waiting to see any one. I had only +waited, till now, to make up my mind—in complete solitude; and, since I +of course absolutely owe you the information, was on the point of going +out with it quite made up. Have therefore a little more patience with +me. Remember,” Strether went on, “that that’s what you originally asked +_me_ to have. I’ve had it, you see, and you see what has come of it. +Stay on with me.” + +Chad looked grave. “How much longer?” + +“Well, till I make you a sign. I can’t myself, you know, at the best, +or at the worst, stay for ever. Let the Pococks come,” Strether +repeated. + +“Because it gains you time?” + +“Yes—it gains me time.” + +Chad, as if it still puzzled him, waited a minute. “You don’t want to +get back to Mother?” + +“Not just yet. I’m not ready.” + +“You feel,” Chad asked in a tone of his own, “the charm of life over +here?” + +“Immensely.” Strether faced it. “You’ve helped me so to feel it that +that surely needn’t surprise you.” + +“No, it doesn’t surprise me, and I’m delighted. But what, my dear man,” +Chad went on with conscious queerness, “does it all lead to for you?” + +The change of position and of relation, for each, was so oddly betrayed +in the question that Chad laughed out as soon as he had uttered +it—which made Strether also laugh. “Well, to my having a certitude that +has been tested—that has passed through the fire. But oh,” he couldn’t +help breaking out, “if within my first month here you had been willing +to move with me—!” + +“Well?” said Chad, while he broke down as for weight of thought. + +“Well, we should have been over there by now.” + +“Ah but you wouldn’t have had your fun!” + +“I should have had a month of it; and I’m having now, if you want to +know,” Strether continued, “enough to last me for the rest of my days.” + +Chad looked amused and interested, yet still somewhat in the dark; +partly perhaps because Strether’s estimate of fun had required of him +from the first a good deal of elucidation. “It wouldn’t do if I left +you—?” + +“Left me?”—Strether remained blank. + +“Only for a month or two—time to go and come. Madame de Vionnet,” Chad +smiled, “would look after you in the interval.” + +“To go back by yourself, I remaining here?” Again for an instant their +eyes had the question out; after which Strether said: “Grotesque!” + +“But I want to see Mother,” Chad presently returned. “Remember how long +it is since I’ve seen Mother.” + +“Long indeed; and that’s exactly why I was originally so keen for +moving you. Hadn’t you shown us enough how beautifully you could do +without it?” + +“Oh but,” said Chad wonderfully, “I’m better now.” + +There was an easy triumph in it that made his friend laugh out again. +“Oh if you were worse I _should_ know what to do with you. In that case +I believe I’d have you gagged and strapped down, carried on board +resisting, kicking. How _much_,” Strether asked, “do you want to see +Mother?” + +“How much?”—Chad seemed to find it in fact difficult to say. + +“How much.” + +“Why as much as you’ve made me. I’d give anything to see her. And +you’ve left me,” Chad went on, “in little enough doubt as to how much +_she_ wants it.” + +Strether thought a minute. “Well then if those things are really your +motive catch the French steamer and sail to-morrow. Of course, when it +comes to that, you’re absolutely free to do as you choose. From the +moment you can’t hold yourself I can only accept your flight.” + +“I’ll fly in a minute then,” said Chad, “if you’ll stay here.” + +“I’ll stay here till the next steamer—then I’ll follow you.” + +“And do you call that,” Chad asked, “accepting my flight?” + +“Certainly—it’s the only thing to call it. The only way to keep me +here, accordingly,” Strether explained, “is by staying yourself.” + +Chad took it in. “All the more that I’ve really dished you, eh?” + +“Dished me?” Strether echoed as inexpressively as possible. + +“Why if she sends out the Pococks it will be that she doesn’t trust +you, and if she doesn’t trust you, that bears upon—well, you know +what.” + +Strether decided after a moment that he did know what, and in +consonance with this he spoke. “You see then all the more what you owe +me.” + +“Well, if I do see, how can I pay?” + +“By not deserting me. By standing by me.” + +“Oh I say—!” But Chad, as they went downstairs, clapped a firm hand, in +the manner of a pledge, upon his shoulder. They descended slowly +together and had, in the court of the hotel, some further talk, of +which the upshot was that they presently separated. Chad Newsome +departed, and Strether, left alone, looked about, superficially, for +Waymarsh. But Waymarsh hadn’t yet, it appeared, come down, and our +friend finally went forth without sight of him. + + + III + +At four o’clock that afternoon he had still not seen him, but he was +then, as to make up for this, engaged in talk about him with Miss +Gostrey. Strether had kept away from home all day, given himself up to +the town and to his thoughts, wandered and mused, been at once restless +and absorbed—and all with the present climax of a rich little welcome +in the Quartier Marbœuf. “Waymarsh has been, ‘unbeknown’ to me, I’m +convinced”—for Miss Gostrey had enquired—“in communication with +Woollett: the consequence of which was, last night, the loudest +possible call for me.” + +“Do you mean a letter to bring you home?” + +“No—a cable, which I have at this moment in my pocket: a ‘Come back by +the first ship.’” + +Strether’s hostess, it might have been made out, just escaped changing +colour. Reflexion arrived but in time and established a provisional +serenity. It was perhaps exactly this that enabled her to say with +duplicity: “And you’re going—?” + +“You almost deserve it when you abandon me so.” + +She shook her head as if this were not worth taking up. “My absence has +helped you—as I’ve only to look at you to see. It was my calculation, +and I’m justified. You’re not where you were. And the thing,” she +smiled, “was for me not to be there either. You can go of yourself.” + +“Oh but I feel to-day,” he comfortably declared, “that I shall want you +yet.” + +She took him all in again. “Well, I promise you not again to leave you, +but it will only be to follow you. You’ve got your momentum and can +toddle alone.” + +He intelligently accepted it. “Yes—I suppose I can toddle. It’s the +sight of that in fact that has upset Waymarsh. He can bear it—the way I +strike him as going—no longer. That’s only the climax of his original +feeling. He wants me to quit; and he must have written to Woollett that +I’m in peril of perdition.” + +“Ah good!” she murmured. “But is it only your supposition?” + +“I make it out—it explains.” + +“Then he denies?—or you haven’t asked him?” + +“I’ve not had time,” Strether said; “I made it out but last night, +putting various things together, and I’ve not been since then face to +face with him.” + +She wondered. “Because you’re too disgusted? You can’t trust yourself?” + +He settled his glasses on his nose. “Do I look in a great rage?” + +“You look divine!” + +“There’s nothing,” he went on, “to be angry about. He has done me on +the contrary a service.” + +She made it out. “By bringing things to a head?” + +“How well you understand!” he almost groaned. “Waymarsh won’t in the +least, at any rate, when I have it out with him, deny or extenuate. He +has acted from the deepest conviction, with the best conscience and +after wakeful nights. He’ll recognise that he’s fully responsible, and +will consider that he has been highly successful; so that any +discussion we may have will bring us quite together again—bridge the +dark stream that has kept us so thoroughly apart. We shall have at +last, in the consequences of his act, something we can definitely talk +about.” + +She was silent a little. “How wonderfully you take it! But you’re +always wonderful.” + +He had a pause that matched her own; then he had, with an adequate +spirit, a complete admission. “It’s quite true. I’m extremely wonderful +just now. I dare say in fact I’m quite fantastic, and I shouldn’t be at +all surprised if I were mad.” + +“Then tell me!” she earnestly pressed. As he, however, for the time +answered nothing, only returning the look with which she watched him, +she presented herself where it was easier to meet her. “What will Mr. +Waymarsh exactly have done?” + +“Simply have written a letter. One will have been quite enough. He has +told them I want looking after.” + +“And _do_ you?”—she was all interest. + +“Immensely. And I shall get it.” + +“By which you mean you don’t budge?” + +“I don’t budge.” + +“You’ve cabled?” + +“No—I’ve made Chad do it.” + +“That you decline to come?” + +“That _he_ declines. We had it out this morning and I brought him +round. He had come in, before I was down, to tell me he was +ready—ready, I mean, to return. And he went off, after ten minutes with +me, to say he wouldn’t.” + +Miss Gostrey followed with intensity. “Then you’ve _stopped_ him?” + +Strether settled himself afresh in his chair. “I’ve stopped him. That +is for the time. That”—he gave it to her more vividly—“is where I am.” + +“I see, I see. But where’s Mr. Newsome? He was ready,” she asked, “to +go?” + +“All ready.” + +“And sincerely—believing _you’d_ be?” + +“Perfectly, I think; so that he was amazed to find the hand I had laid +on him to pull him over suddenly converted into an engine for keeping +him still.” + +It was an account of the matter Miss Gostrey could weigh. “Does he +think the conversion sudden?” + +“Well,” said Strether, “I’m not altogether sure what he thinks. I’m not +sure of anything that concerns him, except that the more I’ve seen of +him the less I’ve found him what I originally expected. He’s obscure, +and that’s why I’m waiting.” + +She wondered. “But for what in particular?” + +“For the answer to his cable.” + +“And what was his cable?” + +“I don’t know,” Strether replied; “it was to be, when he left me, +according to his own taste. I simply said to him: ‘I want to stay, and +the only way for me to do so is for _you_ to.’ That I wanted to stay +seemed to interest him, and he acted on that.” + +Miss Gostrey turned it over. “He wants then himself to stay.” + +“He half wants it. That is he half wants to go. My original appeal has +to that extent worked in him. Nevertheless,” Strether pursued, “he +won’t go. Not, at least, so long as I’m here.” + +“But you can’t,” his companion suggested, “stay here always. I wish you +could.” + +“By no means. Still, I want to see him a little further. He’s not in +the least the case I supposed, he’s quite another case. And it’s as +such that he interests me.” It was almost as if for his own +intelligence that, deliberate and lucid, our friend thus expressed the +matter. “I don’t want to give him up.” + +Miss Gostrey but desired to help his lucidity. She had however to be +light and tactful. “Up, you mean—a—to his mother?” + +“Well, I’m not thinking of his mother now. I’m thinking of the plan of +which I was the mouthpiece, which, as soon as we met, I put before him +as persuasively as I knew how, and which was drawn up, as it were, in +complete ignorance of all that, in this last long period, has been +happening to him. It took no account whatever of the impression I was +here on the spot immediately to begin to receive from him—impressions +of which I feel sure I’m far from having had the last.” + +Miss Gostrey had a smile of the most genial criticism. “So your idea +is—more or less—to stay out of curiosity?” + +“Call it what you like! I don’t care what it’s called—” + +“So long as you do stay? Certainly not then. I call it, all the same, +immense fun,” Maria Gostrey declared; “and to see you work it out will +be one of the sensations of my life. It _is_ clear you can toddle +alone!” + +He received this tribute without elation. “I shan’t be alone when the +Pococks have come.” + +Her eyebrows went up. “The Pococks are coming?” + +“That, I mean, is what will happen—and happen as quickly as possible—in +consequence of Chad’s cable. They’ll simply embark. Sarah will come to +speak for her mother—with an effect different from _my_ muddle.” + +Miss Gostrey more gravely wondered. “_She_ then will take him back?” + +“Very possibly—and we shall see. She must at any rate have the chance, +and she may be trusted to do all she can.” + +“And do you _want_ that?” + +“Of course,” said Strether, “I want it. I want to play fair.” + +But she had lost for a moment the thread. “If it devolves on the +Pococks why do you stay?” + +“Just to see that I _do_ play fair—and a little also, no doubt, that +they do.” Strether was luminous as he had never been. “I came out to +find myself in presence of new facts—facts that have kept striking me +as less and less met by our old reasons. The matter’s perfectly simple. +New reasons—reasons as new as the facts themselves—are wanted; and of +this our friends at Woollett—Chad’s and mine—were at the earliest +moment definitely notified. If any are producible Mrs. Pocock will +produce them; she’ll bring over the whole collection. They’ll be,” he +added with a pensive smile “a part of the ‘fun’ you speak of.” + +She was quite in the current now and floating by his side. “It’s +Mamie—so far as I’ve had it from you—who’ll be their great card.” And +then as his contemplative silence wasn’t a denial she significantly +added: “I think I’m sorry for her.” + +“I think _I_ am!”—and Strether sprang up, moving about a little as her +eyes followed him. “But it can’t be helped.” + +“You mean her coming out can’t be?” + +He explained after another turn what he meant. “The only way for her +not to come is for me to go home—as I believe that on the spot I could +prevent it. But the difficulty as to that is that if I do go home—” + +“I see, I see”—she had easily understood. “Mr. Newsome will do the +same, and that’s not”—she laughed out now—“to be thought of.” + +Strether had no laugh; he had only a quiet comparatively placid look +that might have shown him as proof against ridicule. “Strange, isn’t +it?” + +They had, in the matter that so much interested them, come so far as +this without sounding another name—to which however their present +momentary silence was full of a conscious reference. Strether’s +question was a sufficient implication of the weight it had gained with +him during the absence of his hostess; and just for that reason a +single gesture from her could pass for him as a vivid answer. Yet he +was answered still better when she said in a moment: “Will Mr. Newsome +introduce his sister—?” + +“To Madame de Vionnet?” Strether spoke the name at last. “I shall be +greatly surprised if he doesn’t.” + +She seemed to gaze at the possibility. “You mean you’ve thought of it +and you’re prepared.” + +“I’ve thought of it and I’m prepared.” + +It was to her visitor now that she applied her consideration. “Bon! You +_are_ magnificent!” + +“Well,” he answered after a pause and a little wearily, but still +standing there before her—“well, that’s what, just once in all my dull +days, I think I shall like to have been!” + +Two days later he had news from Chad of a communication from Woollett +in response to their determinant telegram, this missive being addressed +to Chad himself and announcing the immediate departure for France of +Sarah and Jim and Mamie. Strether had meanwhile on his own side cabled; +he had but delayed that act till after his visit to Miss Gostrey, an +interview by which, as so often before, he felt his sense of things +cleared up and settled. His message to Mrs. Newsome, in answer to her +own, had consisted of the words: “Judge best to take another month, but +with full appreciation of all re-enforcements.” He had added that he +was writing, but he was of course always writing; it was a practice +that continued, oddly enough, to relieve him, to make him come nearer +than anything else to the consciousness of doing something: so that he +often wondered if he hadn’t really, under his recent stress, acquired +some hollow trick, one of the specious arts of make-believe. Wouldn’t +the pages he still so freely dispatched by the American post have been +worthy of a showy journalist, some master of the great new science of +beating the sense out of words? Wasn’t he writing against time, and +mainly to show he was kind?—since it had become quite his habit not to +like to read himself over. On those lines he could still be liberal, +yet it was at best a sort of whistling in the dark. It was +unmistakeable moreover that the sense of being in the dark now pressed +on him more sharply—creating thereby the need for a louder and livelier +whistle. He whistled long and hard after sending his message; he +whistled again and again in celebration of Chad’s news; there was an +interval of a fortnight in which this exercise helped him. He had no +great notion of what, on the spot, Sarah Pocock would have to say, +though he had indeed confused premonitions; but it shouldn’t be in her +power to say—it shouldn’t be in any one’s anywhere to say—that he was +neglecting her mother. He might have written before more freely, but he +had never written more copiously; and he frankly gave for a reason at +Woollett that he wished to fill the void created there by Sarah’s +departure. + +The increase of his darkness, however, and the quickening, as I have +called it, of his tune, resided in the fact that he was hearing almost +nothing. He had for some time been aware that he was hearing less than +before, and he was now clearly following a process by which Mrs. +Newsome’s letters could but logically stop. He hadn’t had a line for +many days, and he needed no proof—though he was, in time, to have +plenty—that she wouldn’t have put pen to paper after receiving the hint +that had determined her telegram. She wouldn’t write till Sarah should +have seen him and reported on him. It was strange, though it might well +be less so than his own behaviour appeared at Woollett. It was at any +rate significant, and what _was_ remarkable was the way his friend’s +nature and manner put on for him, through this very drop of +demonstration, a greater intensity. It struck him really that he had +never so lived with her as during this period of her silence; the +silence was a sacred hush, a finer clearer medium, in which her +idiosyncrasies showed. He walked about with her, sat with her, drove +with her and dined face-to-face with her—a rare treat “in his life,” as +he could perhaps have scarce escaped phrasing it; and if he had never +seen her so soundless he had never, on the other hand, felt her so +highly, so almost austerely, herself: pure and by the vulgar estimate +“cold,” but deep devoted delicate sensitive noble. Her vividness in +these respects became for him, in the special conditions, almost an +obsession; and though the obsession sharpened his pulses, adding really +to the excitement of life, there were hours at which, to be less on the +stretch, he directly sought forgetfulness. He knew it for the queerest +of adventures—a circumstance capable of playing such a part only for +Lambert Strether—that in Paris itself, of all places, he should find +this ghost of the lady of Woollett more importunate than any other +presence. + +When he went back to Maria Gostrey it was for the change to something +else. And yet after all the change scarcely operated for he talked to +her of Mrs. Newsome in these days as he had never talked before. He had +hitherto observed in that particular a discretion and a law; +considerations that at present broke down quite as if relations had +altered. They hadn’t _really_ altered, he said to himself, so much as +that came to; for if what had occurred was of course that Mrs. Newsome +had ceased to trust him, there was nothing on the other hand to prove +that he shouldn’t win back her confidence. It was quite his present +theory that he would leave no stone unturned to do so; and in fact if +he now told Maria things about her that he had never told before this +was largely because it kept before him the idea of the honour of such a +woman’s esteem. His relation with Maria as well was, strangely enough, +no longer quite the same; this truth—though not too disconcertingly—had +come up between them on the renewal of their meetings. It was all +contained in what she had then almost immediately said to him; it was +represented by the remark she had needed but ten minutes to make and +that he hadn’t been disposed to gainsay. He could toddle alone, and the +difference that showed was extraordinary. The turn taken by their talk +had promptly confirmed this difference; his larger confidence on the +score of Mrs. Newsome did the rest; and the time seemed already far off +when he had held out his small thirsty cup to the spout of her pail. +Her pail was scarce touched now, and other fountains had flowed for +him; she fell into her place as but one of his tributaries; and there +was a strange sweetness—a melancholy mildness that touched him—in her +acceptance of the altered order. + +It marked for himself the flight of time, or at any rate what he was +pleased to think of with irony and pity as the rush of experience; it +having been but the day before yesterday that he sat at her feet and +held on by her garment and was fed by her hand. It was the proportions +that were changed, and the proportions were at all times, he +philosophised, the very conditions of perception, the terms of thought. +It was as if, with her effective little _entresol_ and and her wide +acquaintance, her activities, varieties, promiscuities, the duties and +devotions that took up nine tenths of her time and of which he got, +guardedly, but the side-wind—it was as if she had shrunk to a secondary +element and had consented to the shrinkage with the perfection of tact. +This perfection had never failed her; it had originally been greater +than his prime measure for it; it had kept him quite apart, kept him +out of the shop, as she called her huge general acquaintance, made +their commerce as quiet, as much a thing of the home alone—the opposite +of the shop—as if she had never another customer. She had been +wonderful to him at first, with the memory of her little _entresol_, +the image to which, on most mornings at that time, his eyes directly +opened; but now she mainly figured for him as but part of the bristling +total—though of course always as a person to whom he should never cease +to be indebted. It would never be given to him certainly to inspire a +greater kindness. She had decked him out for others, and he saw at this +point at least nothing she would ever ask for. She only wondered and +questioned and listened, rendering him the homage of a wistful +speculation. She expressed it repeatedly; he was already far beyond +her, and she must prepare herself to lose him. There was but one little +chance for her. + +Often as she had said it he met it—for it was a touch he liked—each +time the same way. “My coming to grief?” + +“Yes—then I might patch you up.” + +“Oh for my real smash, if it takes place, there will be no patching.” + +“But you surely don’t mean it will kill you.” + +“No—worse. It will make me old.” + +“Ah nothing can do that! The wonderful and special thing about you is +that you _are_, at this time of day, youth.” Then she always made, +further, one of those remarks that she had completely ceased to adorn +with hesitations or apologies, and that had, by the same token, in +spite of their extreme straightness, ceased to produce in Strether the +least embarrassment. She made him believe them, and they became thereby +as impersonal as truth itself. “It’s just your particular charm.” + +His answer too was always the same. “Of course I’m youth—youth for the +trip to Europe. I began to be young, or at least to get the benefit of +it, the moment I met you at Chester, and that’s what has been taking +place ever since. I never had the benefit at the proper time—which +comes to saying that I never had the thing itself. I’m having the +benefit at this moment; I had it the other day when I said to Chad +‘Wait’; I shall have it still again when Sarah Pocock arrives. It’s a +benefit that would make a poor show for many people; and I don’t know +who else but you and I, frankly, could begin to see in it what I feel. +I don’t get drunk; I don’t pursue the ladies; I don’t spend money; I +don’t even write sonnets. But nevertheless I’m making up late for what +I didn’t have early. I cultivate my little benefit in my own little +way. It amuses me more than anything that has happened to me in all my +life. They may say what they like—it’s my surrender, it’s my tribute, +to youth. One puts that in where one can—it has to come in somewhere, +if only out of the lives, the conditions, the feelings of other +persons. Chad gives me the sense of it, for all his grey hairs, which +merely make it solid in him and safe and serene; and _she_ does the +same, for all her being older than he, for all her marriageable +daughter, her separated husband, her agitated history. Though they’re +young enough, my pair, I don’t say they’re, in the freshest way, their +_own_ absolutely prime adolescence; for that has nothing to do with it. +The point is that they’re mine. Yes, they’re my youth; since somehow at +the right time nothing else ever was. What I meant just now therefore +is that it would all go—go before doing its work—if they were to fail +me.” + +On which, just here, Miss Gostrey inveterately questioned. “What do +you, in particular, call its work?” + +“Well, to see me through.” + +“But through what?”—she liked to get it all out of him. + +“Why through this experience.” That was all that would come. + +It regularly gave her none the less the last word. “Don’t you remember +how in those first days of our meeting it was _I_ who was to see you +through?” + +“Remember? Tenderly, deeply”—he always rose to it. “You’re just doing +your part in letting me maunder to you thus.” + +“Ah don’t speak as if my part were small; since whatever else fails +you—” + +“_You_ won’t, ever, ever, ever?”—he thus took her up. “Oh I beg your +pardon; you necessarily, you inevitably _will_. Your conditions—that’s +what I mean—won’t allow me anything to do for you.” + +“Let alone—I see what you mean—that I’m drearily dreadfully old. I +_am_, but there’s a service—possible for you to render—that I know, all +the same, I shall think of.” + +“And what will it be?” + +This, in fine, however, she would never tell him. “You shall hear only +if your smash takes place. As that’s really out of the question, I +won’t expose myself”—a point at which, for reasons of his own, Strether +ceased to press. + +He came round, for publicity—it was the easiest thing—to the idea that +his smash _was_ out of the question, and this rendered idle the +discussion of what might follow it. He attached an added importance, as +the days elapsed, to the arrival of the Pococks; he had even a shameful +sense of waiting for it insincerely and incorrectly. He accused himself +of making believe to his own mind that Sarah’s presence, her +impression, her judgement would simplify and harmonise, he accused +himself of being so afraid of what they _might_ do that he sought +refuge, to beg the whole question, in a vain fury. He had abundantly +seen at home what they were in the habit of doing, and he had not at +present the smallest ground. His clearest vision was when he made out +that what he most desired was an account more full and free of Mrs. +Newsome’s state of mind than any he felt he could now expect from +herself; that calculation at least went hand in hand with the sharp +consciousness of wishing to prove to himself that he was not afraid to +look his behaviour in the face. If he was by an inexorable logic to pay +for it he was literally impatient to know the cost, and he held himself +ready to pay in instalments. The first instalment would be precisely +this entertainment of Sarah; as a consequence of which moreover, he +should know vastly better how he stood. + + + + +Book Eighth + + + I + +Strether rambled alone during these few days, the effect of the +incident of the previous week having been to simplify in a marked +fashion his mixed relations with Waymarsh. Nothing had passed between +them in reference to Mrs. Newsome’s summons but that our friend had +mentioned to his own the departure of the deputation actually at +sea—giving him thus an opportunity to confess to the occult +intervention he imputed to him. Waymarsh however in the event confessed +to nothing; and though this falsified in some degree Strether’s +forecast the latter amusedly saw in it the same depth of good +conscience out of which the dear man’s impertinence had originally +sprung. He was patient with the dear man now and delighted to observe +how unmistakeably he had put on flesh; he felt his own holiday so +successfully large and free that he was full of allowances and +charities in respect to those cabined and confined: his instinct toward +a spirit so strapped down as Waymarsh’s was to walk round it on tiptoe +for fear of waking it up to a sense of losses by this time +irretrievable. It was all very funny he knew, and but the difference, +as he often said to himself, of tweedledum and tweedledee—an +emancipation so purely comparative that it was like the advance of the +door-mat on the scraper; yet the present crisis was happily to profit +by it and the pilgrim from Milrose to know himself more than ever in +the right. + +Strether felt that when he heard of the approach of the Pococks the +impulse of pity quite sprang up in him beside the impulse of triumph. +That was exactly why Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes in which the +heat of justice was measured and shaded. He had looked very hard, as if +affectionately sorry for the friend—the friend of fifty-five—whose +frivolity had had thus to be recorded; becoming, however, but obscurely +sententious and leaving his companion to formulate a charge. It was in +this general attitude that he had of late altogether taken refuge; with +the drop of discussion they were solemnly sadly superficial; Strether +recognised in him the mere portentous rumination to which Miss Barrace +had so good-humouredly described herself as assigning a corner of her +salon. It was quite as if he knew his surreptitious step had been +divined, and it was also as if he missed the chance to explain the +purity of his motive; but this privation of relief should be precisely +his small penance: it was not amiss for Strether that he should find +himself to that degree uneasy. If he had been challenged or accused, +rebuked for meddling or otherwise pulled up, he would probably have +shown, on his own system, all the height of his consistency, all the +depth of his good faith. Explicit resentment of his course would have +made him take the floor, and the thump of his fist on the table would +have affirmed him as consciously incorruptible. Had what now really +prevailed with Strether been but a dread of that thump—a dread of +wincing a little painfully at what it might invidiously demonstrate? +However this might be, at any rate, one of the marks of the crisis was +a visible, a studied lapse, in Waymarsh, of betrayed concern. As if to +make up to his comrade for the stroke by which he had played providence +he now conspicuously ignored his movements, withdrew himself from the +pretension to share them, stiffened up his sensibility to neglect, and, +clasping his large empty hands and swinging his large restless foot, +clearly looked to another quarter for justice. + +This made for independence on Strether’s part, and he had in truth at +no moment of his stay been so free to go and come. The early summer +brushed the picture over and blurred everything but the near; it made a +vast warm fragrant medium in which the elements floated together on the +best of terms, in which rewards were immediate and reckonings +postponed. Chad was out of town again, for the first time since his +visitor’s first view of him; he had explained this necessity—without +detail, yet also without embarrassment, the circumstance was one of +those which, in the young man’s life, testified to the variety of his +ties. Strether wasn’t otherwise concerned with it than for its so +testifying—a pleasant multitudinous image in which he took comfort. He +took comfort, by the same stroke, in the swing of Chad’s pendulum back +from that other swing, the sharp jerk towards Woollett, so stayed by +his own hand. He had the entertainment of thinking that if he had for +that moment stopped the clock it was to promote the next minute this +still livelier motion. He himself did what he hadn’t done before; he +took two or three times whole days off—irrespective of others, of two +or three taken with Miss Gostrey, two or three taken with little +Bilham: he went to Chartres and cultivated, before the front of the +cathedral, a general easy beatitude; he went to Fontainebleau and +imagined himself on the way to Italy; he went to Rouen with a little +handbag and inordinately spent the night. + +One afternoon he did something quite different; finding himself in the +neighbourhood of a fine old house across the river, he passed under the +great arch of its doorway and asked at the porter’s lodge for Madame de +Vionnet. He had already hovered more than once about that possibility, +been aware of it, in the course of ostensible strolls, as lurking but +round the corner. Only it had perversely happened, after his morning at +Notre Dame, that his consistency, as he considered and intended it, had +come back to him; whereby he had reflected that the encounter in +question had been none of his making; clinging again intensely to the +strength of his position, which was precisely that there was nothing in +it for himself. From the moment he actively pursued the charming +associate of his adventure, from that moment his position weakened, for +he was then acting in an interested way. It was only within a few days +that he had fixed himself a limit: he promised himself his consistency +should end with Sarah’s arrival. It was arguing correctly to feel the +title to a free hand conferred on him by this event. If he wasn’t to be +let alone he should be merely a dupe to act with delicacy. If he wasn’t +to be trusted he could at least take his ease. If he was to be placed +under control he gained leave to try what his position _might_ +agreeably give him. An ideal rigour would perhaps postpone the trial +till after the Pococks had shown their spirit; and it was to an ideal +rigour that he had quite promised himself to conform. + +Suddenly, however, on this particular day, he felt a particular fear +under which everything collapsed. He knew abruptly that he was afraid +of himself—and yet not in relation to the effect on his sensibilities +of another hour of Madame de Vionnet. What he dreaded was the effect of +a single hour of Sarah Pocock, as to whom he was visited, in troubled +nights, with fantastic waking dreams. She loomed at him larger than +life; she increased in volume as she drew nearer; she so met his eyes +that, his imagination taking, after the first step, all, and more than +all, the strides, he already felt her come down on him, already burned, +under her reprobation, with the blush of guilt, already consented, by +way of penance, to the instant forfeiture of everything. He saw +himself, under her direction, recommitted to Woollett as juvenile +offenders are committed to reformatories. It wasn’t of course that +Woollett was really a place of discipline; but he knew in advance that +Sarah’s salon at the hotel would be. His danger, at any rate, in such +moods of alarm, was some concession, on this ground, that would involve +a sharp rupture with the actual; therefore if he waited to take leave +of that actual he might wholly miss his chance. It was represented with +supreme vividness by Madame de Vionnet, and that is why, in a word, he +waited no longer. He had seen in a flash that he must anticipate Mrs. +Pocock. He was accordingly much disappointed on now learning from the +portress that the lady of his quest was not in Paris. She had gone for +some days to the country. There was nothing in this accident but what +was natural; yet it produced for poor Strether a drop of all +confidence. It was suddenly as if he should never see her again, and as +if moreover he had brought it on himself by not having been quite kind +to her. + +It was the advantage of his having let his fancy lose itself for a +little in the gloom that, as by reaction, the prospect began really to +brighten from the moment the deputation from Woollett alighted on the +platform of the station. They had come straight from Havre, having +sailed from New York to that port, and having also, thanks to a happy +voyage, made land with a promptitude that left Chad Newsome, who had +meant to meet them at the dock, belated. He had received their +telegram, with the announcement of their immediate further advance, +just as he was taking the train for Havre, so that nothing had remained +for him but to await them in Paris. He hastily picked up Strether, at +the hotel, for this purpose, and he even, with easy pleasantry, +suggested the attendance of Waymarsh as well—Waymarsh, at the moment +his cab rattled up, being engaged, under Strether’s contemplative +range, in a grave perambulation of the familiar court. Waymarsh had +learned from his companion, who had already had a note, delivered by +hand, from Chad, that the Pococks were due, and had ambiguously, +though, as always, impressively, glowered at him over the circumstance; +carrying himself in a manner in which Strether was now expert enough to +recognise his uncertainty, in the premises, as to the best tone. The +only tone he aimed at with confidence was a full tone—which was +necessarily difficult in the absence of a full knowledge. The Pococks +were a quantity as yet unmeasured, and, as he had practically brought +them over, so this witness had to that extent exposed himself. He +wanted to feel right about it, but could only, at the best, for the +time, feel vague. “I shall look to you, you know, immensely,” our +friend had said, “to help me with them,” and he had been quite +conscious of the effect of the remark, and of others of the same sort, +on his comrade’s sombre sensibility. He had insisted on the fact that +Waymarsh would quite like Mrs. Pocock—one could be certain he would: he +would be with her about everything, and she would also be with _him_, +and Miss Barrace’s nose, in short, would find itself out of joint. + +Strether had woven this web of cheerfulness while they waited in the +court for Chad; he had sat smoking cigarettes to keep himself quiet +while, caged and leonine, his fellow traveller paced and turned before +him. Chad Newsome was doubtless to be struck, when he arrived, with the +sharpness of their opposition at this particular hour; he was to +remember, as a part of it, how Waymarsh came with him and with Strether +to the street and stood there with a face half-wistful and half-rueful. +They talked of him, the two others, as they drove, and Strether put +Chad in possession of much of his own strained sense of things. He had +already, a few days before, named to him the wire he was convinced +their friend had pulled—a confidence that had made on the young man’s +part quite hugely for curiosity and diversion. The action of the +matter, moreover, Strether could see, was to penetrate; he saw that is, +how Chad judged a system of influence in which Waymarsh had served as a +determinant—an impression just now quickened again; with the whole +bearing of such a fact on the youth’s view of his relatives. As it came +up between them that they might now take their friend for a feature of +the control of these latter now sought to be exerted from Woollett, +Strether felt indeed how it would be stamped all over him, half an hour +later for Sarah Pocock’s eyes, that he was as much on Chad’s “side” as +Waymarsh had probably described him. He was letting himself at present, +go; there was no denying it; it might be desperation, it might be +confidence; he should offer himself to the arriving travellers +bristling with all the lucidity he had cultivated. + +He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in the court to Waymarsh; +how there was no doubt whatever that his sister would find the latter a +kindred spirit, no doubt of the alliance, based on an exchange of +views, that the pair would successfully strike up. They would become as +thick as thieves—which moreover was but a development of what Strether +remembered to have said in one of his first discussions with his mate, +struck as he had then already been with the elements of affinity +between that personage and Mrs. Newsome herself. “I told him, one day, +when he had questioned me on your mother, that she was a person who, +when he should know her, would rouse in him, I was sure, a special +enthusiasm; and that hangs together with the conviction we now +feel—this certitude that Mrs. Pocock will take him into her boat. For +it’s your mother’s own boat that she’s pulling.” + +“Ah,” said Chad, “Mother’s worth fifty of Sally!” + +“A thousand; but when you presently meet her, all the same you’ll be +meeting your mother’s representative—just as I shall. I feel like the +outgoing ambassador,” said Strether, “doing honour to his appointed +successor.” A moment after speaking as he had just done he felt he had +inadvertently rather cheapened Mrs. Newsome to her son; an impression +audibly reflected, as at first seen, in Chad’s prompt protest. He had +recently rather failed of apprehension of the young man’s attitude and +temper—remaining principally conscious of how little worry, at the +worst, he wasted, and he studied him at this critical hour with renewed +interest. Chad had done exactly what he had promised him a fortnight +previous—had accepted without another question his plea for delay. He +was waiting cheerfully and handsomely, but also inscrutably and with a +slight increase perhaps of the hardness originally involved in his +acquired high polish. He was neither excited nor depressed; was easy +and acute and deliberate—unhurried unflurried unworried, only at most a +little less amused than usual. Strether felt him more than ever a +justification of the extraordinary process of which his own absurd +spirit had been the arena; he knew as their cab rolled along, knew as +he hadn’t even yet known, that nothing else than what Chad had done and +had been would have led to his present showing. They had made him, +these things, what he was, and the business hadn’t been easy; it had +taken time and trouble, it had cost, above all, a price. The result at +any rate was now to be offered to Sally; which Strether, so far as that +was concerned, was glad to be there to witness. Would she in the least +make it out or take it in, the result, or would she in the least care +for it if she did? He scratched his chin as he asked himself by what +name, when challenged—as he was sure he should be—he could call it for +her. Oh those were determinations she must herself arrive at; since she +wanted so much to see, let her see then and welcome. She had come out +in the pride of her competence, yet it hummed in Strether’s inner sense +that she practically wouldn’t see. + +That this was moreover what Chad shrewdly suspected was clear from a +word that next dropped from him. “They’re children; they play at +life!”—and the exclamation was significant and reassuring. It implied +that he hadn’t then, for his companion’s sensibility, appeared to give +Mrs. Newsome away; and it facilitated our friend’s presently asking him +if it were his idea that Mrs. Pocock and Madame de Vionnet should +become acquainted. Strether was still more sharply struck, hereupon, +with Chad’s lucidity. “Why, isn’t that exactly—to get a sight of the +company I keep—what she has come out for?” + +“Yes—I’m afraid it is,” Strether unguardedly replied. + +Chad’s quick rejoinder lighted his precipitation. “Why do you say +you’re afraid?” + +“Well, because I feel a certain responsibility. It’s my testimony, I +imagine, that will have been at the bottom of Mrs. Pocock’s curiosity. +My letters, as I’ve supposed you to understand from the beginning, have +spoken freely. I’ve certainly said my little say about Madame de +Vionnet.” + +All that, for Chad, was beautifully obvious. “Yes, but you’ve only +spoken handsomely.” + +“Never more handsomely of any woman. But it’s just that tone—!” + +“That tone,” said Chad, “that has fetched her? I dare say; but I’ve no +quarrel with you about it. And no more has Madame de Vionnet. Don’t you +know by this time how she likes you?” + +“Oh!”—and Strether had, with his groan, a real pang of melancholy. “For +all I’ve done for her!” + +“Ah you’ve done a great deal.” + +Chad’s urbanity fairly shamed him, and he was at this moment absolutely +impatient to see the face Sarah Pocock would present to a sort of +thing, as he synthetically phrased it to himself, with no adequate +forecast of which, despite his admonitions, she would certainly arrive. +“I’ve done _this!_” + +“Well, this is all right. She likes,” Chad comfortably remarked, “to be +liked.” + + +It gave his companion a moment’s thought. “And she’s sure Mrs. Pocock +_will_—?” + +“No, I say that for you. She likes your liking her; it’s so much, as it +were,” Chad laughed, “to the good. However, she doesn’t despair of +Sarah either, and is prepared, on her own side, to go all lengths.” + +“In the way of appreciation?” + +“Yes, and of everything else. In the way of general amiability, +hospitality and welcome. She’s under arms,” Chad laughed again; “she’s +prepared.” + +Strether took it in; then as if an echo of Miss Barrace were in the +air: “She’s wonderful.” + +“You don’t begin to know _how_ wonderful!” + +There was a depth in it, to Strether’s ear, of confirmed luxury—almost +a kind of unconscious insolence of proprietorship; but the effect of +the glimpse was not at this moment to foster speculation: there was +something so conclusive in so much graceful and generous assurance. It +was in fact a fresh evocation; and the evocation had before many +minutes another consequence. “Well, I shall see her oftener now. I +shall see her as much as I like—by your leave; which is what I hitherto +haven’t done.” + +“It has been,” said Chad, but without reproach, “only your own fault. I +tried to bring you together, and _she_, my dear fellow—I never saw her +more charming to any man. But you’ve got your extraordinary ideas.” + +“Well, I _did_ have,” Strether murmured, while he felt both how they +had possessed him and how they had now lost their authority. He +couldn’t have traced the sequence to the end, but it was all because of +Mrs. Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be because of Mrs. Newsome, but that was +still to be proved. What came over him was the sense of having stupidly +failed to profit where profit would have been precious. It had been +open to him to see so much more of her, and he had but let the good +days pass. Fierce in him almost was the resolve to lose no more of +them, and he whimsically reflected, while at Chad’s side he drew nearer +to his destination, that it was after all Sarah who would have +quickened his chance. What her visit of inquisition might achieve in +other directions was as yet all obscure—only not obscure that it would +do supremely much to bring two earnest persons together. He had but to +listen to Chad at this moment to feel it; for Chad was in the act of +remarking to him that they of course both counted on him—he himself and +the other earnest person—for cheer and support. It was brave to +Strether to hear him talk as if the line of wisdom they had struck out +was to make things ravishing to the Pococks. No, if Madame de Vionnet +compassed _that_, compassed the ravishment of the Pococks, Madame de +Vionnet would be prodigious. It would be a beautiful plan if it +succeeded, and it all came to the question of Sarah’s being really +bribeable. The precedent of his own case helped Strether perhaps but +little to consider she might prove so; it being distinct that her +character would rather make for every possible difference. This idea of +his own bribeability set him apart for himself; with the further mark +in fact that his case was absolutely proved. He liked always, where +Lambert Strether was concerned, to know the worst, and what he now +seemed to know was not only that he was bribeable, but that he had been +effectually bribed. The only difficulty was that he couldn’t quite have +said with what. It was as if he had sold himself, but hadn’t somehow +got the cash. That, however, was what, characteristically, _would_ +happen to him. It would naturally be his kind of traffic. While he +thought of these things he reminded Chad of the truth they mustn’t lose +sight of—the truth that, with all deference to her susceptibility to +new interests, Sarah would have come out with a high firm definite +purpose. “She hasn’t come out, you know, to be bamboozled. We may all +be ravishing—nothing perhaps can be more easy for us; but she hasn’t +come out to be ravished. She has come out just simply to take you +home.” + +“Oh well, with _her_ I’ll go,” said Chad good-humouredly. “I suppose +you’ll allow _that_.” And then as for a minute Strether said nothing: +“Or is your idea that when I’ve seen her I shan’t want to go?” As this +question, however, again left his friend silent he presently went on: +“My own idea at any rate is that they shall have while they’re here the +best sort of time.” + +It was at this that Strether spoke. “Ah there you are! I think if you +really wanted to go—!” + +“Well?” said Chad to bring it out. + +“Well, you wouldn’t trouble about our good time. You wouldn’t care what +sort of a time we have.” + +Chad could always take in the easiest way in the world any ingenious +suggestion. “I see. But can I help it? I’m too decent.” + +“Yes, you’re too decent!” Strether heavily sighed. And he felt for the +moment as if it were the preposterous end of his mission. + +It ministered for the time to this temporary effect that Chad made no +rejoinder. But he spoke again as they came in sight of the station. “Do +you mean to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?” + +As to this Strether was ready. “No.” + +“But haven’t you told me they know about her?” + +“I think I’ve told you your mother knows.” + +“And won’t she have told Sally?” + +“That’s one of the things I want to see.” + +“And if you find she _has_—?” + +“Will I then, you mean, bring them together?” + +“Yes,” said Chad with his pleasant promptness: “to show her there’s +nothing in it.” + +Strether hesitated. “I don’t know that I care very much what she may +think there’s in it.” + +“Not if it represents what Mother thinks?” + +“Ah what _does_ your mother think?” There was in this some sound of +bewilderment. + +But they were just driving up, and help, of a sort, might after all be +quite at hand. “Isn’t that, my dear man, what we’re both just going to +make out?” + + + II + +Strether quitted the station half an hour later in different company. +Chad had taken charge, for the journey to the hotel, of Sarah, Mamie, +the maid and the luggage, all spaciously installed and conveyed; and it +was only after the four had rolled away that his companion got into a +cab with Jim. A strange new feeling had come over Strether, in +consequence of which his spirits had risen; it was as if what had +occurred on the alighting of his critics had been something other than +his fear, though his fear had yet not been of an instant scene of +violence. His impression had been nothing but what was inevitable—he +said that to himself; yet relief and reassurance had softly dropped +upon him. Nothing could be so odd as to be indebted for these things to +the look of faces and the sound of voices that had been with him to +satiety, as he might have said, for years; but he now knew, all the +same, how uneasy he had felt; that was brought home to him by his +present sense of a respite. It had come moreover in the flash of an +eye, it had come in the smile with which Sarah, whom, at the window of +her compartment, they had effusively greeted from the platform, rustled +down to them a moment later, fresh and handsome from her cool June +progress through the charming land. It was only a sign, but enough: she +was going to be gracious and unallusive, she was going to play the +larger game—which was still more apparent, after she had emerged from +Chad’s arms, in her direct greeting to the valued friend of her family. + +Strether _was_ then as much as ever the valued friend of her family, it +was something he could at all events go on with; and the manner of his +response to it expressed even for himself how little he had enjoyed the +prospect of ceasing to figure in that likeness. He had always seen +Sarah gracious—had in fact rarely seen her shy or dry, her marked +thin-lipped smile, intense without brightness and as prompt to act as +the scrape of a safety-match; the protrusion of her rather remarkably +long chin, which in her case represented invitation and urbanity, and +not, as in most others, pugnacity and defiance; the penetration of her +voice to a distance, the general encouragement and approval of her +manner, were all elements with which intercourse had made him familiar, +but which he noted today almost as if she had been a new acquaintance. +This first glimpse of her had given a brief but vivid accent to her +resemblance to her mother; he could have taken her for Mrs. Newsome +while she met his eyes as the train rolled into the station. It was an +impression that quickly dropped; Mrs. Newsome was much handsomer, and +while Sarah inclined to the massive her mother had, at an age, still +the girdle of a maid; also the latter’s chin was rather short, than +long, and her smile, by good fortune, much more, oh ever so much more, +mercifully vague. Strether had seen Mrs. Newsome reserved; he had +literally heard her silent, though he had never known her unpleasant. +It was the case with Mrs. Pocock that he had known _her_ unpleasant, +even though he had never known her not affable. She had forms of +affability that were in a high degree assertive; nothing for instance +had ever been more striking than that she was affable to Jim. + +What had told in any case at the window of the train was her high clear +forehead, that forehead which her friends, for some reason, always +thought of as a “brow”; the long reach of her eyes—it came out at this +juncture in such a manner as to remind him, oddly enough, also of that +of Waymarsh’s; and the unusual gloss of her dark hair, dressed and +hatted, after her mother’s refined example, with such an avoidance of +extremes that it was always spoken of at Woollett as “their own.” +Though this analogy dropped as soon as she was on the platform it had +lasted long enough to make him feel all the advantage, as it were, of +his relief. The woman at home, the woman to whom he was attached, was +before him just long enough to give him again the measure of the +wretchedness, in fact really of the shame, of their having to recognise +the formation, between them, of a “split.” He had taken this measure in +solitude and meditation: but the catastrophe, as Sarah steamed up, +looked for its seconds unprecedentedly dreadful—or proved, more +exactly, altogether unthinkable; so that his finding something free and +familiar to respond to brought with it an instant renewal of his +loyalty. He had suddenly sounded the whole depth, had gasped at what he +might have lost. + +Well, he could now, for the quarter of an hour of their detention hover +about the travellers as soothingly as if their direct message to him +was that he had lost nothing. He wasn’t going to have Sarah write to +her mother that night that he was in any way altered or strange. There +had been times enough for a month when it had seemed to him that he was +strange, that he was altered, in every way; but that was a matter for +himself; he knew at least whose business it was _not_; it was not at +all events such a circumstance as Sarah’s own unaided lights would help +her to. Even if she had come out to flash those lights more than yet +appeared she wouldn’t make much headway against mere pleasantness. He +counted on being able to be merely pleasant to the end, and if only +from incapacity moreover to formulate anything different. He couldn’t +even formulate to himself his being changed and queer; it had taken +place, the process, somewhere deep down; Maria Gostrey had caught +glimpses of it; but how was he to fish it up, even if he desired, for +Mrs. Pocock? This was then the spirit in which he hovered, and with the +easier throb in it much indebted furthermore to the impression of high +and established adequacy as a pretty girl promptly produced in him by +Mamie. He had wondered vaguely—turning over many things in the fidget +of his thoughts—if Mamie _were_ as pretty as Woollett published her; as +to which issue seeing her now again was to be so swept away by +Woollett’s opinion that this consequence really let loose for the +imagination an avalanche of others. There were positively five minutes +in which the last word seemed of necessity to abide with a Woollett +represented by a Mamie. This was the sort of truth the place itself +would feel; it would send her forth in confidence; it would point to +her with triumph; it would take its stand on her with assurance; it +would be conscious of no requirements she didn’t meet, of no question +she couldn’t answer. + +Well, it was right, Strether slipped smoothly enough into the +cheerfulness of saying: granted that a community _might_ be best +represented by a young lady of twenty-two, Mamie perfectly played the +part, played it as if she were used to it, and looked and spoke and +dressed the character. He wondered if she mightn’t, in the high light +of Paris, a cool full studio-light, becoming yet treacherous, show as +too conscious of these matters; but the next moment he felt satisfied +that her consciousness was after all empty for its size, rather too +simple than too mixed, and that the kind way with her would be not to +take many things out of it, but to put as many as possible in. She was +robust and conveniently tall; just a trifle too bloodlessly fair +perhaps, but with a pleasant public familiar radiance that affirmed her +vitality. She might have been “receiving” for Woollett, wherever she +found herself, and there was something in her manner, her tone, her +motion, her pretty blue eyes, her pretty perfect teeth and her very +small, too small, nose, that immediately placed her, to the fancy, +between the windows of a hot bright room in which voices were high—up +at that end to which people were brought to be “presented.” They were +there to congratulate, these images, and Strether’s renewed vision, on +this hint, completed the idea. What Mamie was like was the happy bride, +the bride after the church and just before going away. She wasn’t the +mere maiden, and yet was only as much married as that quantity came to. +She was in the brilliant acclaimed festal stage. Well, might it last +her long! + +Strether rejoiced in these things for Chad, who was all genial +attention to the needs of his friends, besides having arranged that his +servant should reinforce him; the ladies were certainly pleasant to +see, and Mamie would be at any time and anywhere pleasant to exhibit. +She would look extraordinarily like his young wife—the wife of a +honeymoon, should he go about with her; but that was his own affair—or +perhaps it was hers; it was at any rate something she couldn’t help. +Strether remembered how he had seen him come up with Jeanne de Vionnet +in Gloriani’s garden, and the fancy he had had about that—the fancy +obscured now, thickly overlaid with others; the recollection was during +these minutes his only note of trouble. He had often, in spite of +himself, wondered if Chad but too probably were not with Jeanne the +object of a still and shaded flame. It was on the cards that the child +_might_ be tremulously in love, and this conviction now flickered up +not a bit the less for his disliking to think of it, for its being, in +a complicated situation, a complication the more, and for something +indescribable in Mamie, something at all events straightway lent her by +his own mind, something that gave her value, gave her intensity and +purpose, as the symbol of an opposition. Little Jeanne wasn’t really at +all in question—how _could_ she be?—yet from the moment Miss Pocock had +shaken her skirts on the platform, touched up the immense bows of her +hat and settled properly over her shoulder the strap of her +morocco-and-gilt travelling-satchel, from that moment little Jeanne was +opposed. + +It was in the cab with Jim that impressions really crowded on Strether, +giving him the strangest sense of length of absence from people among +whom he had lived for years. Having them thus come out to him was as if +he had returned to find them: and the droll promptitude of Jim’s mental +reaction threw his own initiation far back into the past. Whoever might +or mightn’t be suited by what was going on among them, Jim, for one, +would certainly be: his instant recognition—frank and whimsical—of what +the affair was for _him_ gave Strether a glow of pleasure. “I say, you +know, this _is_ about my shape, and if it hadn’t been for _you_—!” so +he broke out as the charming streets met his healthy appetite; and he +wound up, after an expressive nudge, with a clap of his companion’s +knee and an “Oh you, you—you _are_ doing it!” that was charged with +rich meaning. Strether felt in it the intention of homage, but, with a +curiosity otherwise occupied, postponed taking it up. What he was +asking himself for the time was how Sarah Pocock, in the opportunity +already given her, had judged her brother—from whom he himself, as they +finally, at the station, separated for their different conveyances, had +had a look into which he could read more than one message. However +Sarah was judging her brother, Chad’s conclusion about his sister, and +about her husband and her husband’s sister, was at the least on the way +not to fail of confidence. Strether felt the confidence, and that, as +the look between them was an exchange, what he himself gave back was +relatively vague. This comparison of notes however could wait; +everything struck him as depending on the effect produced by Chad. +Neither Sarah nor Mamie had in any way, at the station—where they had +had after all ample time—broken out about it; which, to make up for +this, was what our friend had expected of Jim as soon as they should +find themselves together. + +It was queer to him that he had that noiseless brush with Chad; an +ironic intelligence with this youth on the subject of his relatives, an +intelligence carried on under their nose and, as might be said, at +their expense—such a matter marked again for him strongly the number of +stages he had come; albeit that if the number seemed great the time +taken for the final one was but the turn of a hand. He had before this +had many moments of wondering if he himself weren’t perhaps changed +even as Chad was changed. Only what in Chad was conspicuous +improvement—well, he had no name ready for the working, in his own +organism, of his own more timid dose. He should have to see first what +this action would amount to. And for his occult passage with the young +man, after all, the directness of it had no greater oddity than the +fact that the young man’s way with the three travellers should have +been so happy a manifestation. Strether liked him for it, on the spot, +as he hadn’t yet liked him; it affected him while it lasted as he might +have been affected by some light pleasant perfect work of art: to that +degree that he wondered if they were really worthy of it, took it in +and did it justice; to that degree that it would have been scarce a +miracle if, there in the luggage-room, while they waited for their +things, Sarah had pulled his sleeve and drawn him aside. “You’re right; +we haven’t quite known what you mean, Mother and I, but now we see. +Chad’s magnificent; what can one want more? If _this_ is the kind of +thing—!” On which they might, as it were, have embraced and begun to +work together. + +Ah how much, as it was, for all her bridling brightness—which was +merely general and noticed nothing—_would_ they work together? Strether +knew he was unreasonable; he set it down to his being nervous: people +couldn’t notice everything and speak of everything in a quarter of an +hour. Possibly, no doubt, also, he made too much of Chad’s display. +Yet, none the less, when, at the end of five minutes, in the cab, Jim +Pocock had said nothing either—hadn’t said, that is, what Strether +wanted, though he had said much else—it all suddenly bounced back to +their being either stupid or wilful. It was more probably on the whole +the former; so that that would be the drawback of the bridling +brightness. Yes, they would bridle and be bright; they would make the +best of what was before them, but their observation would fail; it +would be beyond them; they simply wouldn’t understand. Of what use +would it be then that they had come?—if they weren’t to be intelligent +up to _that_ point: unless indeed he himself were utterly deluded and +extravagant? Was he, on this question of Chad’s improvement, fantastic +and away from the truth? Did he live in a false world, a world that had +grown simply to suit him, and was his present slight irritation—in the +face now of Jim’s silence in particular—but the alarm of the vain thing +menaced by the touch of the real? Was this contribution of the real +possibly the mission of the Pococks?—had they come to make the work of +observation, as _he_ had practised observation, crack and crumble, and +to reduce Chad to the plain terms in which honest minds could deal with +him? Had they come in short to be sane where Strether was destined to +feel that he himself had only been silly? + +He glanced at such a contingency, but it failed to hold him long when +once he had reflected that he would have been silly, in this case, with +Maria Gostrey and little Bilham, with Madame de Vionnet and little +Jeanne, with Lambert Strether, in fine, and above all with Chad Newsome +himself. Wouldn’t it be found to have made more for reality to be silly +with these persons than sane with Sarah and Jim? Jim in fact, he +presently made up his mind, was individually out of it; Jim didn’t +care; Jim hadn’t come out either for Chad or for him; Jim in short left +the moral side to Sally and indeed simply availed himself now, for the +sense of recreation, of the fact that he left almost everything to +Sally. He was nothing compared to Sally, and not so much by reason of +Sally’s temper and will as by that of her more developed type and +greater acquaintance with the world. He quite frankly and serenely +confessed, as he sat there with Strether, that he felt his type hang +far in the rear of his wife’s and still further, if possible, in the +rear of his sister’s. Their types, he well knew, were recognised and +acclaimed; whereas the most a leading Woollett business-man could hope +to achieve socially, and for that matter industrially, was a certain +freedom to play into this general glamour. + +The impression he made on our friend was another of the things that +marked our friend’s road. It was a strange impression, especially as so +soon produced; Strether had received it, he judged, all in the twenty +minutes; it struck him at least as but in a minor degree the work of +the long Woollett years. Pocock was normally and consentingly though +not quite wittingly out of the question. It was despite his being +normal; it was despite his being cheerful; it was despite his being a +leading Woollett business-man; and the determination of his fate left +him thus perfectly usual—as everything else about it was clearly, to +his sense, not less so. He seemed to say that there was a whole side of +life on which the perfectly usual _was_ for leading Woollett +business-men to be out of the question. He made no more of it than +that, and Strether, so far as Jim was concerned, desired to make no +more. Only Strether’s imagination, as always, worked, and he asked +himself if this side of life were not somehow connected, for those who +figured on it with the fact of marriage. Would _his_ relation to it, +had he married ten years before, have become now the same as Pocock’s? +Might it even become the same should he marry in a few months? Should +he ever know himself as much out of the question for Mrs. Newsome as +Jim knew himself—in a dim way—for Mrs. Jim? + +To turn his eyes in that direction was to be personally reassured; he +was different from Pocock; he had affirmed himself differently and was +held after all in higher esteem. What none the less came home to him, +however, at this hour, was that the society over there, that of which +Sarah and Mamie—and, in a more eminent way, Mrs. Newsome herself—were +specimens, was essentially a society of women, and that poor Jim wasn’t +in it. He himself Lambert Strether, _was_ as yet in some degree—which +was an odd situation for a man; but it kept coming back to him in a +whimsical way that he should perhaps find his marriage had cost him his +place. This occasion indeed, whatever that fancy represented, was not a +time of sensible exclusion for Jim, who was in a state of manifest +response to the charm of his adventure. Small and fat and constantly +facetious, straw-coloured and destitute of marks, he would have been +practically indistinguishable hadn’t his constant preference for +light-grey clothes, for white hats, for very big cigars and very little +stories, done what it could for his identity. There were signs in him, +though none of them plaintive, of always paying for others; and the +principal one perhaps was just this failure of type. It was with this +that he paid, rather than with fatigue or waste; and also doubtless a +little with the effort of humour—never irrelevant to the conditions, to +the relations, with which he was acquainted. + +He gurgled his joy as they rolled through the happy streets; he +declared that his trip was a regular windfall, and that he wasn’t +there, he was eager to remark, to hang back from anything: he didn’t +know quite what Sally had come for, but _he_ had come for a good time. +Strether indulged him even while wondering if what Sally wanted her +brother to go back for was to become like her husband. He trusted that +a good time was to be, out and out, the programme for all of them; and +he assented liberally to Jim’s proposal that, disencumbered and +irresponsible—his things were in the omnibus with those of the +others—they should take a further turn round before going to the hotel. +It wasn’t for _him_ to tackle Chad—it was Sally’s job; and as it would +be like her, he felt, to open fire on the spot, it wouldn’t be amiss of +them to hold off and give her time. Strether, on his side, only asked +to give her time; so he jogged with his companion along boulevards and +avenues, trying to extract from meagre material some forecast of his +catastrophe. He was quick enough to see that Jim Pocock declined +judgement, had hovered quite round the outer edge of discussion and +anxiety, leaving all analysis of their question to the ladies alone and +now only feeling his way toward some small droll cynicism. It broke out +afresh, the cynicism—it had already shown a flicker—in a but slightly +deferred: “Well, hanged if I would if _I_ were he!” + +“You mean you wouldn’t in Chad’s place—?” + +“Give up this to go back and boss the advertising!” Poor Jim, with his +arms folded and his little legs out in the open fiacre, drank in the +sparkling Paris noon and carried his eyes from one side of their vista +to the other. “Why I want to come right out and live here myself. And I +want to live while I _am_ here too. I feel with _you_—oh you’ve been +grand, old man, and I’ve twigged—that it ain’t right to worry Chad. _I_ +don’t mean to persecute him; I couldn’t in conscience. It’s thanks to +you at any rate that I’m here, and I’m sure I’m much obliged. You’re a +lovely pair.” + +There were things in this speech that Strether let pass for the time. +“Don’t you then think it important the advertising should be thoroughly +taken in hand? Chad _will_ be, so far as capacity is concerned,” he +went on, “the man to do it.” + +“Where did he get his capacity,” Jim asked, “over here?” + +“He didn’t get it over here, and the wonderful thing is that over here +he hasn’t inevitably lost it. He has a natural turn for business, an +extraordinary head. He comes by that,” Strether explained, “honestly +enough. He’s in that respect his father’s son, and also—for she’s +wonderful in her way too—his mother’s. He has other tastes and other +tendencies; but Mrs. Newsome and your wife are quite right about his +having that. He’s very remarkable.” + +“Well, I guess he is!” Jim Pocock comfortably sighed. “But if you’ve +believed so in his making us hum, why have you so prolonged the +discussion? Don’t you know we’ve been quite anxious about you?” + +These questions were not informed with earnestness, but Strether saw he +must none the less make a choice and take a line. “Because, you see, +I’ve greatly liked it. I’ve liked my Paris, I dare say I’ve liked it +too much.” + +“Oh you old wretch!” Jim gaily exclaimed. + +“But nothing’s concluded,” Strether went on. “The case is more complex +than it looks from Woollett.” + +“Oh well, it looks bad enough from Woollett!” Jim declared. + +“Even after all I’ve written?” + +Jim bethought himself. “Isn’t it what you’ve written that has made Mrs. +Newsome pack us off? That at least and Chad’s not turning up?” + +Strether made a reflexion of his own. “I see. That she should do +something was, no doubt, inevitable, and your wife has therefore of +course come out to act.” + +“Oh yes,” Jim concurred—“to act. But Sally comes out to act, you know,” +he lucidly added, “every time she leaves the house. She never comes out +but she _does_ act. She’s acting moreover now for her mother, and that +fixes the scale.” Then he wound up, opening all his senses to it, with +a renewed embrace of pleasant Paris. “We haven’t all the same at +Woollett got anything like this.” + +Strether continued to consider. “I’m bound to say for you all that you +strike me as having arrived in a very mild and reasonable frame of +mind. You don’t show your claws. I felt just now in Mrs. Pocock no +symptom of that. She isn’t fierce,” he went on. “I’m such a nervous +idiot that I thought she might be.” + +“Oh don’t you know her well enough,” Pocock asked, “to have noticed +that she never gives herself away, any more than her mother ever does? +They ain’t fierce, either of ‘em; they let you come quite close. They +wear their fur the smooth side out—the warm side in. Do you know what +they are?” Jim pursued as he looked about him, giving the question, as +Strether felt, but half his care—“do you know what they are? They’re +about as intense as they can live.” + +“Yes”—and Strether’s concurrence had a positive precipitation; “they’re +about as intense as they can live.” + +“They don’t lash about and shake the cage,” said Jim, who seemed +pleased with his analogy; “and it’s at feeding-time that they’re +quietest. But they always get there.” + +“They do indeed—they always get there!” Strether replied with a laugh +that justified his confession of nervousness. He disliked to be talking +sincerely of Mrs. Newsome with Pocock; he could have talked +insincerely. But there was something he wanted to know, a need created +in him by her recent intermission, by his having given from the first +so much, as now more than ever appeared to him, and got so little. It +was as if a queer truth in his companion’s metaphor had rolled over him +with a rush. She _had_ been quiet at feeding-time; she had fed, and +Sarah had fed with her, out of the big bowl of all his recent free +communication, his vividness and pleasantness, his ingenuity and even +his eloquence, while the current of her response had steadily run thin. +Jim meanwhile however, it was true, slipped characteristically into +shallowness from the moment he ceased to speak out of the experience of +a husband. + +“But of course Chad has now the advantage of being there before her. If +he doesn’t work that for all it’s worth—!” He sighed with contingent +pity at his brother-in-law’s possible want of resource. “He has worked +it on _you_, pretty well, eh?” and he asked the next moment if there +were anything new at the Varieties, which he pronounced in the American +manner. They talked about the Varieties—Strether confessing to a +knowledge which produced again on Pocock’s part a play of innuendo as +vague as a nursery-rhyme, yet as aggressive as an elbow in his side; +and they finished their drive under the protection of easy themes. +Strether waited to the end, but still in vain, for any show that Jim +had seen Chad as different; and he could scarce have explained the +discouragement he drew from the absence of this testimony. It was what +he had taken his own stand on, so far as he had taken a stand; and if +they were all only going to see nothing he had only wasted his time. He +gave his friend till the very last moment, till they had come into +sight of the hotel; and when poor Pocock only continued cheerful and +envious and funny he fairly grew to dislike him, to feel him +extravagantly common. If they were _all_ going to see nothing!—Strether +knew, as this came back to him, that he was also letting Pocock +represent for him what Mrs. Newsome wouldn’t see. He went on disliking, +in the light of Jim’s commonness, to talk to him about that lady; yet +just before the cab pulled up he knew the extent of his desire for the +real word from Woollett. + +“Has Mrs. Newsome at all given way—?” + +“‘Given way’?”—Jim echoed it with the practical derision of his sense +of a long past. + +“Under the strain, I mean, of hope deferred, of disappointment repeated +and thereby intensified.” + +“Oh is she prostrate, you mean?”—he had his categories in hand. “Why +yes, she’s prostrate—just as Sally is. But they’re never so lively, you +know, as when they’re prostrate.” + +“Ah Sarah’s prostrate?” Strether vaguely murmured. + +“It’s when they’re prostrate that they most sit up.” + +“And Mrs. Newsome’s sitting up?” + +“All night, my boy—for _you!_” And Jim fetched him, with a vulgar +little guffaw, a thrust that gave relief to the picture. But he had got +what he wanted. He felt on the spot that this _was_ the real word from +Woollett. “So don’t you go home!” Jim added while he alighted and while +his friend, letting him profusely pay the cabman, sat on in a momentary +muse. Strether wondered if that were the real word too. + + + III + +As the door of Mrs. Pocock’s salon was pushed open for him, the next +day, well before noon, he was reached by a voice with a charming sound +that made him just falter before crossing the threshold. Madame de +Vionnet was already on the field, and this gave the drama a quicker +pace than he felt it as yet—though his suspense had increased—in the +power of any act of his own to do. He had spent the previous evening +with all his old friends together yet he would still have described +himself as quite in the dark in respect to a forecast of their +influence on his situation. It was strange now, none the less, that in +the light of this unexpected note of her presence he felt Madame de +Vionnet a part of that situation as she hadn’t even yet been. She was +alone, he found himself assuming, with Sarah, and there was a bearing +in that—somehow beyond his control—on his personal fate. Yet she was +only saying something quite easy and independent—the thing she had +come, as a good friend of Chad’s, on purpose to say. “There isn’t +anything at all—? I should be so delighted.” + +It was clear enough, when they were there before him, how she had been +received. He saw this, as Sarah got up to greet him, from something +fairly hectic in Sarah’s face. He saw furthermore that they weren’t, as +had first come to him, alone together; he was at no loss as to the +identity of the broad high back presented to him in the embrasure of +the window furthest from the door. Waymarsh, whom he had to-day not yet +seen, whom he only knew to have left the hotel before him, and who had +taken part, the night previous, on Mrs. Pocock’s kind invitation, +conveyed by Chad, in the entertainment, informal but cordial, promptly +offered by that lady—Waymarsh had anticipated him even as Madame de +Vionnet had done, and, with his hands in his pockets and his attitude +unaffected by Strether’s entrance, was looking out, in marked +detachment, at the Rue de Rivoli. The latter felt it in the air—it was +immense how Waymarsh could mark things—-that he had remained deeply +dissociated from the overture to their hostess that we have recorded on +Madame de Vionnet’s side. He had, conspicuously, tact, besides a stiff +general view; and this was why he had left Mrs. Pocock to struggle +alone. He would outstay the visitor; he would unmistakeably wait; to +what had he been doomed for months past but waiting? Therefore she was +to feel that she had him in reserve. What support she drew from this +was still to be seen, for, although Sarah was vividly bright, she had +given herself up for the moment to an ambiguous flushed formalism. She +had had to reckon more quickly than she expected; but it concerned her +first of all to signify that she was not to be taken unawares. Strether +arrived precisely in time for her showing it. “Oh you’re too good; but +I don’t think I feel quite helpless. I have my brother—and these +American friends. And then you know I’ve been to Paris. I _know_ +Paris,” said Sally Pocock in a tone that breathed a certain chill on +Strether’s heart. + +“Ah but a woman, in this tiresome place where everything’s always +changing, a woman of good will,” Madame de Vionnet threw off, “can +always help a woman. I’m sure you ‘know’—but we know perhaps different +things.” She too, visibly, wished to make no mistake; but it was a fear +of a different order and more kept out of sight. She smiled in welcome +at Strether; she greeted him more familiarly than Mrs. Pocock; she put +out her hand to him without moving from her place; and it came to him +in the course of a minute and in the oddest way that—yes, +positively—she was giving him over to ruin. She was all kindness and +ease, but she couldn’t help so giving him; she was exquisite, and her +being just as she was poured for Sarah a sudden rush of meaning into +his own equivocations. How could she know how she was hurting him? She +wanted to show as simple and humble—in the degree compatible with +operative charm; but it was just this that seemed to put him on her +side. She struck him as dressed, as arranged, as prepared infinitely to +conciliate—with the very poetry of good taste in her view of the +conditions of her early call. She was ready to advise about dressmakers +and shops; she held herself wholly at the disposition of Chad’s family. +Strether noticed her card on the table—her coronet and her +“Comtesse”—and the imagination was sharp in him of certain private +adjustments in Sarah’s mind. She had never, he was sure, sat with a +“Comtesse” before, and such was the specimen of that class he had been +keeping to play on her. She had crossed the sea very particularly for a +look at her; but he read in Madame de Vionnet’s own eyes that this +curiosity hadn’t been so successfully met as that she herself wouldn’t +now have more than ever need of him. She looked much as she had looked +to him that morning at Notre Dame; he noted in fact the suggestive +sameness of her discreet and delicate dress. It seemed to speak—perhaps +a little prematurely or too finely—of the sense in which she would help +Mrs. Pocock with the shops. The way that lady took her in, moreover, +added depth to his impression of what Miss Gostrey, by their common +wisdom, had escaped. He winced as he saw himself but for that timely +prudence ushering in Maria as a guide and an example. There was however +a touch of relief for him in his glimpse, so far as he had got it, of +Sarah’s line. She “knew Paris.” Madame de Vionnet had, for that matter, +lightly taken this up. “Ah then you’ve a turn for that, an affinity +that belongs to your family. Your brother, though his long experience +makes a difference, I admit, has become one of us in a marvellous way.” +And she appealed to Strether in the manner of a woman who could always +glide off with smoothness into another subject. Wasn’t _he_ struck with +the way Mr. Newsome had made the place his own, and hadn’t he been in a +position to profit by his friend’s wondrous expertness? + +Strether felt the bravery, at the least, of her presenting herself so +promptly to sound that note, and yet asked himself what other note, +after all, she _could_ strike from the moment she presented herself at +all. She could meet Mrs. Pocock only on the ground of the obvious, and +what feature of Chad’s situation was more eminent than the fact that he +had created for himself a new set of circumstances? Unless she hid +herself altogether she could show but as one of these, an illustration +of his domiciled and indeed of his confirmed condition. And the +consciousness of all this in her charming eyes was so clear and fine +that as she thus publicly drew him into her boat she produced in him +such a silent agitation as he was not to fail afterwards to denounce as +pusillanimous. “Ah don’t be so charming to me!—for it makes us +intimate, and after all what _is_ between us when I’ve been so +tremendously on my guard and have seen you but half a dozen times?” He +recognised once more the perverse law that so inveterately governed his +poor personal aspects: it would be exactly _like_ the way things always +turned out for him that he should affect Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh as +launched in a relation in which he had really never been launched at +all. They were at this very moment—they could only be—attributing to +him the full licence of it, and all by the operation of her own tone +with him; whereas his sole licence had been to cling with intensity to +the brink, not to dip so much as a toe into the flood. But the flicker +of his fear on this occasion was not, as may be added, to repeat +itself; it sprang up, for its moment, only to die down and then go out +for ever. To meet his fellow visitor’s invocation and, with Sarah’s +brilliant eyes on him, answer, _was_ quite sufficiently to step into +her boat. During the rest of the time her visit lasted he felt himself +proceed to each of the proper offices, successively, for helping to +keep the adventurous skiff afloat. It rocked beneath him, but he +settled himself in his place. He took up an oar and, since he was to +have the credit of pulling, pulled. + +“That will make it all the pleasanter if it so happens that we _do_ +meet,” Madame de Vionnet had further observed in reference to Mrs. +Pocock’s mention of her initiated state; and she had immediately added +that, after all, her hostess couldn’t be in need with the good offices +of Mr. Strether so close at hand. “It’s he, I gather, who has learnt to +know his Paris, and to love it, better than any one ever before in so +short a time; so that between him and your brother, when it comes to +the point, how can you possibly want for good guidance? The great +thing, Mr. Strether will show you,” she smiled, “is just to let one’s +self go.” + +“Oh I’ve not let myself go very far,” Strether answered, feeling quite +as if he had been called upon to hint to Mrs. Pocock how Parisians +could talk. “I’m only afraid of showing I haven’t let myself go far +enough. I’ve taken a good deal of time, but I must quite have had the +air of not budging from one spot.” He looked at Sarah in a manner that +he thought she might take as engaging, and he made, under Madame de +Vionnet’s protection, as it were, his first personal point. “What has +really happened has been that, all the while, I’ve done what I came out +for.” + +Yet it only at first gave Madame de Vionnet a chance immediately to +take him up. “You’ve renewed acquaintance with your friend—you’ve +learnt to know him again.” She spoke with such cheerful helpfulness +that they might, in a common cause, have been calling together and +pledged to mutual aid. + +Waymarsh, at this, as if he had been in question, straightway turned +from the window. “Oh yes, Countess—he has renewed acquaintance with +_me_, and he _has_, I guess, learnt something about me, though I don’t +know how much he has liked it. It’s for Strether himself to say whether +he has felt it justifies his course.” + +“Oh but _you_,” said the Countess gaily, “are not in the least what he +came out for—is he really, Strether? and I hadn’t you at all in my +mind. I was thinking of Mr. Newsome, of whom we think so much and with +whom, precisely, Mrs. Pocock has given herself the opportunity to take +up threads. What a pleasure for you both!” Madame de Vionnet, with her +eyes on Sarah, bravely continued. + +Mrs. Pocock met her handsomely, but Strether quickly saw she meant to +accept no version of her movements or plans from any other lips. She +required no patronage and no support, which were but other names for a +false position; she would show in her own way what she chose to show, +and this she expressed with a dry glitter that recalled to him a fine +Woollett winter morning. “I’ve never wanted for opportunities to see my +brother. We’ve many things to think of at home, and great +responsibilities and occupations, and our home’s not an impossible +place. We’ve plenty of reasons,” Sarah continued a little piercingly, +“for everything we do”—and in short she wouldn’t give herself the least +little scrap away. But she added as one who was always bland and who +could afford a concession: “I’ve come because—well, because we do +come.” + +“Ah then fortunately!”—Madame de Vionnet breathed it to the air. Five +minutes later they were on their feet for her to take leave, standing +together in an affability that had succeeded in surviving a further +exchange of remarks; only with the emphasised appearance on Waymarsh’s +part of a tendency to revert, in a ruminating manner and as with an +instinctive or a precautionary lightening of his tread, to an open +window and his point of vantage. The glazed and gilded room, all red +damask, ormolu, mirrors, clocks, looked south, and the shutters were +bowed upon the summer morning; but the Tuileries garden and what was +beyond it, over which the whole place hung, were things visible through +gaps; so that the far-spreading presence of Paris came up in coolness, +dimness and invitation, in the twinkle of gilt-tipped palings, the +crunch of gravel, the click of hoofs, the crack of whips, things that +suggested some parade of the circus. “I think it probable,” said Mrs. +Pocock, “that I shall have the opportunity of going to my brother’s. +I’ve no doubt it’s very pleasant indeed.” She spoke as to Strether, but +her face was turned with an intensity of brightness to Madame de +Vionnet, and there was a moment during which, while she thus fronted +her, our friend expected to hear her add: “I’m much obliged to you, I’m +sure, for inviting me there.” He guessed that for five seconds these +words were on the point of coming; he heard them as clearly as if they +had been spoken; but he presently knew they had just failed—knew it by +a glance, quick and fine, from Madame de Vionnet, which told him that +she too had felt them in the air, but that the point had luckily not +been made in any manner requiring notice. This left her free to reply +only to what had been said. + +“That the Boulevard Malesherbes may be common ground for us offers me +the best prospect I see for the pleasure of meeting you again.” + +“Oh I shall come to see you, since you’ve been so good”: and Mrs. +Pocock looked her invader well in the eyes. The flush in Sarah’s cheeks +had by this time settled to a small definite crimson spot that was not +without its own bravery; she held her head a good deal up, and it came +to Strether that of the two, at this moment, she was the one who most +carried out the idea of a Countess. He quite took in, however, that she +would really return her visitor’s civility: she wouldn’t report again +at Woollett without at least so much producible history as that in her +pocket. + +“I want extremely to be able to show you my little daughter.” Madame de +Vionnet went on; “and I should have brought her with me if I hadn’t +wished first to ask your leave. I was in hopes I should perhaps find +Miss Pocock, of whose being with you I’ve heard from Mr. Newsome and +whose acquaintance I should so much like my child to make. If I have +the pleasure of seeing her and you do permit it I shall venture to ask +her to be kind to Jeanne. Mr. Strether will tell you”—she beautifully +kept it up—“that my poor girl is gentle and good and rather lonely. +They’ve made friends, he and she, ever so happily, and he doesn’t, I +believe, think ill of her. As for Jeanne herself he has had the same +success with her that I know he has had here wherever he has turned.” +She seemed to ask him for permission to say these things, or seemed +rather to take it, softly and happily, with the ease of intimacy, for +granted, and he had quite the consciousness now that not to meet her at +any point more than halfway would be odiously, basely to abandon her. +Yes, he was _with_ her, and, opposed even in this covert, this +semi-safe fashion to those who were not, he felt, strangely and +confusedly, but excitedly, inspiringly, how much and how far. It was as +if he had positively waited in suspense for something from her that +would let him in deeper, so that he might show her how he could take +it. And what did in fact come as she drew out a little her farewell +served sufficiently the purpose. “As his success is a matter that I’m +sure he’ll never mention for himself, I feel, you see, the less +scruple; which it’s very good of me to say, you know, by the way,” she +added as she addressed herself to him; “considering how little direct +advantage I’ve gained from your triumphs with _me_. When does one ever +see you? I wait at home and I languish. You’ll have rendered me the +service, Mrs. Pocock, at least,” she wound up, “of giving me one of my +much-too-rare glimpses of this gentleman.” + +“I certainly should be sorry to deprive you of anything that seems so +much, as you describe it, your natural due. Mr. Strether and I are very +old friends,” Sarah allowed, “but the privilege of his society isn’t a +thing I shall quarrel about with any one.” + +“And yet, dear Sarah,” he freely broke in, “I feel, when I hear you say +that, that you don’t quite do justice to the important truth of the +extent to which—as you’re also mine—I’m _your_ natural due. I should +like much better,” he laughed, “to see you fight for me.” + +She met him, Mrs. Pocock, on this, with an arrest of speech—with a +certain breathlessness, as he immediately fancied, on the score of a +freedom for which she wasn’t quite prepared. It had flared up—for all +the harm he had intended by it—because, confoundedly, he didn’t want +any more to be afraid about her than he wanted to be afraid about +Madame de Vionnet. He had never, naturally, called her anything but +Sarah at home, and though he had perhaps never quite so markedly +invoked her as his “dear,” that was somehow partly because no occasion +had hitherto laid so effective a trap for it. But something admonished +him now that it was too late—unless indeed it were possibly too early; +and that he at any rate shouldn’t have pleased Mrs. Pocock the more by +it. “Well, Mr. Strether—!” she murmured with vagueness, yet with +sharpness, while her crimson spot burned a trifle brighter and he was +aware that this must be for the present the limit of her response. +Madame de Vionnet had already, however, come to his aid, and Waymarsh, +as if for further participation, moved again back to them. It was true +that the aid rendered by Madame de Vionnet was questionable; it was a +sign that, for all one might confess to with her, and for all she might +complain of not enjoying, she could still insidiously show how much of +the material of conversation had accumulated between them. + +“The real truth is, you know, that you sacrifice one without mercy to +dear old Maria. She leaves no room in your life for anybody else. Do +you know,” she enquired of Mrs. Pocock, “about dear old Maria? The +worst is that Miss Gostrey is really a wonderful woman.” + +“Oh yes indeed,” Strether answered for her, “Mrs. Pocock knows about +Miss Gostrey. Your mother, Sarah, must have told you about her; your +mother knows everything,” he sturdily pursued. “And I cordially admit,” +he added with his conscious gaiety of courage, “that she’s as wonderful +a woman as you like.” + +“Ah it isn’t _I_ who ‘like,’ dear Mr. Strether, anything to do with the +matter!” Sarah Pocock promptly protested; “and I’m by no means sure I +have—from my mother or from any one else—a notion of whom you’re +talking about.” + +“Well, he won’t let you see her, you know,” Madame de Vionnet +sympathetically threw in. “He never lets _me_—old friends as we are: I +mean as I am with Maria. He reserves her for his best hours; keeps her +consummately to himself; only gives us others the crumbs of the feast.” + +“Well, Countess, _I’ve_ had some of the crumbs,” Waymarsh observed with +weight and covering her with his large look; which led her to break in +before he could go on. + +“_Comment donc_, he shares her with _you?_” she exclaimed in droll +stupefaction. “Take care you don’t have, before you go much further, +rather more of all _ces dames_ than you may know what to do with!” + +But he only continued in his massive way. “I can post you about the +lady, Mrs. Pocock, so far as you may care to hear. I’ve seen her quite +a number of times, and I was practically present when they made +acquaintance. I’ve kept my eye on her right along, but I don’t know as +there’s any real harm in her.” + +“‘Harm’?” Madame de Vionnet quickly echoed. “Why she’s the dearest and +cleverest of all the clever and dear.” + +“Well, you run her pretty close, Countess,” Waymarsh returned with +spirit; “though there’s no doubt she’s pretty well up in things. She +knows her way round Europe. Above all there’s no doubt she does love +Strether.” + +“Ah but we all do that—we all love Strether: it isn’t a merit!” their +fellow visitor laughed, keeping to her idea with a good conscience at +which our friend was aware that he marvelled, though he trusted also +for it, as he met her exquisitely expressive eyes, to some later light. + +The prime effect of her tone, however—and it was a truth which his own +eyes gave back to her in sad ironic play—could only be to make him feel +that, to say such things to a man in public, a woman must practically +think of him as ninety years old. He had turned awkwardly, responsively +red, he knew, at her mention of Maria Gostrey; Sarah Pocock’s +presence—the particular quality of it—had made this inevitable; and +then he had grown still redder in proportion as he hated to have shown +anything at all. He felt indeed that he was showing much, as, +uncomfortably and almost in pain, he offered up his redness to +Waymarsh, who, strangely enough, seemed now to be looking at him with a +certain explanatory yearning. Something deep—something built on their +old old relation—passed, in this complexity, between them; he got the +side-wind of a loyalty that stood behind all actual queer questions. +Waymarsh’s dry bare humour—as it gave itself to be taken—gloomed out to +demand justice. “Well, if you talk of Miss Barrace I’ve _my_ chance +too,” it appeared stiffly to nod, and it granted that it was giving him +away, but struggled to add that it did so only to save him. The sombre +glow stared it at him till it fairly sounded out—“to save you, poor old +man, to save you; to save you in spite of yourself.” Yet it was somehow +just this communication that showed him to himself as more than ever +lost. Still another result of it was to put before him as never yet +that between his comrade and the interest represented by Sarah there +was already a basis. Beyond all question now, yes: Waymarsh had been in +occult relation with Mrs. Newsome—out, out it all came in the very +effort of his face. “Yes, you’re feeling my hand”—he as good as +proclaimed it; “but only because this at least I _shall_ have got out +of the damned Old World: that I shall have picked up the pieces into +which it has caused you to crumble.” It was as if in short, after an +instant, Strether had not only had it from him, but had recognised that +so far as this went the instant had cleared the air. Our friend +understood and approved; he had the sense that they wouldn’t otherwise +speak of it. This would be all, and it would mark in himself a kind of +intelligent generosity. It was with grim Sarah then—Sarah grim for all +her grace—that Waymarsh had begun at ten o’clock in the morning to save +him. Well—if he _could_, poor dear man, with his big bleak kindness! +The upshot of which crowded perception was that Strether, on his own +side, still showed no more than he absolutely had to. He showed the +least possible by saying to Mrs. Pocock after an interval much briefer +than our glance at the picture reflected in him: “Oh it’s as true as +they please!—There’s no Miss Gostrey for any one but me—not the least +little peep. I keep her to myself.” + +“Well, it’s very good of you to notify me,” Sarah replied without +looking at him and thrown for a moment by this discrimination, as the +direction of her eyes showed, upon a dimly desperate little community +with Madame de Vionnet. “But I hope I shan’t miss her too much.” + +Madame de Vionnet instantly rallied. “And you know—though it might +occur to one—it isn’t in the least that he’s ashamed of her. She’s +really—in a way—extremely good-looking.” + +“Ah but extremely!” Strether laughed while he wondered at the odd part +he found thus imposed on him. + +It continued to be so by every touch from Madame de Vionnet. “Well, as +I say, you know, I wish you would keep _me_ a little more to yourself. +Couldn’t you name some day for me, some hour—and better soon than late? +I’ll be at home whenever it best suits you. There—I can’t say fairer.” + +Strether thought a moment while Waymarsh and Mrs. Pocock affected him +as standing attentive. “I did lately call on you. Last week—while Chad +was out of town.” + +“Yes—and I was away, as it happened, too. You choose your moments well. +But don’t wait for my next absence, for I shan’t make another,” Madame +de Vionnet declared, “while Mrs. Pocock’s here.” + +“That vow needn’t keep you long, fortunately,” Sarah observed with +reasserted suavity. “I shall be at present but a short time in Paris. I +have my plans for other countries. I meet a number of charming +friends”—and her voice seemed to caress that description of these +persons. + +“Ah then,” her visitor cheerfully replied, “all the more reason! +To-morrow, for instance, or next day?” she continued to Strether. +“Tuesday would do for me beautifully.” + +“Tuesday then with pleasure.” + +“And at half-past five?—or at six?” + +It was ridiculous, but Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh struck him as fairly +waiting for his answer. It was indeed as if they were arranged, +gathered for a performance, the performance of “Europe” by his +confederate and himself. Well, the performance could only go on. “Say +five forty-five.” + +“Five forty-five—good.” And now at last Madame de Vionnet must leave +them, though it carried, for herself, the performance a little further. +“I _did_ hope so much also to see Miss Pocock. Mayn’t I still?” + +Sarah hesitated, but she rose equal. “She’ll return your visit with me. +She’s at present out with Mr. Pocock and my brother.” + +“I see—of course Mr. Newsome has everything to show them. He has told +me so much about her. My great desire’s to give my daughter the +opportunity of making her acquaintance. I’m always on the lookout for +such chances for her. If I didn’t bring her to-day it was only to make +sure first that you’d let me.” After which the charming woman risked a +more intense appeal. “It wouldn’t suit _you_ also to mention some near +time, so that we shall be sure not to lose you?” Strether on his side +waited, for Sarah likewise had, after all, to perform; and it occupied +him to have been thus reminded that she had stayed at home—and on her +first morning of Paris—while Chad led the others forth. Oh she was up +to her eyes; if she had stayed at home she had stayed by an +understanding, arrived at the evening before, that Waymarsh would come +and find her alone. This was beginning well—for a first day in Paris; +and the thing might be amusing yet. But Madame de Vionnet’s earnestness +was meanwhile beautiful. “You may think me indiscreet, but I’ve _such_ +a desire my Jeanne shall know an American girl of the really delightful +kind. You see I throw myself for it on your charity.” + +The manner of this speech gave Strether such a sense of depths below it +and behind it as he hadn’t yet had—ministered in a way that almost +frightened him to his dim divinations of reasons; but if Sarah still, +in spite of it, faltered, this was why he had time for a sign of +sympathy with her petitioner. “Let me say then, dear lady, to back your +plea, that Miss Mamie is of the most delightful kind of all—is charming +among the charming.” + +Even Waymarsh, though with more to produce on the subject, could get +into motion in time. “Yes, Countess, the American girl’s a thing that +your country must at least allow ours the privilege to say we _can_ +show you. But her full beauty is only for those who know how to make +use of her.” + +“Ah then,” smiled Madame de Vionnet, “that’s exactly what I want to do. +I’m sure she has much to teach us.” + +It was wonderful, but what was scarce less so was that Strether found +himself, by the quick effect of it, moved another way. “Oh that may be! +But don’t speak of your own exquisite daughter, you know, as if she +weren’t pure perfection. _I_ at least won’t take that from you. +Mademoiselle de Vionnet,” he explained, in considerable form, to Mrs. +Pocock, “_is_ pure perfection. Mademoiselle de Vionnet _is_ exquisite.” + +It had been perhaps a little portentous, but “Ah?” Sarah simply +glittered. + +Waymarsh himself, for that matter, apparently recognised, in respect to +the facts, the need of a larger justice, and he had with it an +inclination to Sarah. “Miss Jane’s strikingly handsome—in the regular +French style.” + +It somehow made both Strether and Madame de Vionnet laugh out, though +at the very moment he caught in Sarah’s eyes, as glancing at the +speaker, a vague but unmistakeable “You too?” It made Waymarsh in fact +look consciously over her head. Madame de Vionnet meanwhile, however, +made her point in her own way. “I wish indeed I could offer you my poor +child as a dazzling attraction: it would make one’s position simple +enough! She’s as good as she can be, but of course she’s different, and +the question is now—in the light of the way things seem to go—if she +isn’t after all _too_ different: too different I mean from the splendid +type every one is so agreed that your wonderful country produces. On +the other hand of course Mr. Newsome, who knows it so well, has, as a +good friend, dear kind man that he is, done everything he can—to keep +us from fatal benightedness—for my small shy creature. Well,” she wound +up after Mrs. Pocock had signified, in a murmur still a little stiff, +that she would speak to her own young charge on the question—“well, we +shall sit, my child and I, and wait and wait and wait for you.” But her +last fine turn was for Strether. “Do speak of us in such a way—!” + +“As that something can’t but come of it? Oh something _shall_ come of +it! I take a great interest!” he further declared; and in proof of it, +the next moment, he had gone with her down to her carriage. + + + + +Book Ninth + + + I + +“The difficulty is,” Strether said to Madame de Vionnet a couple of +days later, “that I can’t surprise them into the smallest sign of his +not being the same old Chad they’ve been for the last three years +glowering at across the sea. They simply won’t give any, and as a +policy, you know—what you call a _parti pris_, a deep game—that’s +positively remarkable.” + +It was so remarkable that our friend had pulled up before his hostess +with the vision of it; he had risen from his chair at the end of ten +minutes and begun, as a help not to worry, to move about before her +quite as he moved before Maria. He had kept his appointment with her to +the minute and had been intensely impatient, though divided in truth +between the sense of having everything to tell her and the sense of +having nothing at all. The short interval had, in the face of their +complication, multiplied his impressions—it being meanwhile to be +noted, moreover, that he already frankly, already almost publicly, +viewed the complication as common to them. If Madame de Vionnet, under +Sarah’s eyes, had pulled him into her boat, there was by this time no +doubt whatever that he had remained in it and that what he had really +most been conscious of for many hours together was the movement of the +vessel itself. They were in it together this moment as they hadn’t yet +been, and he hadn’t at present uttered the least of the words of alarm +or remonstrance that had died on his lips at the hotel. He had other +things to say to her than that she had put him in a position; so +quickly had his position grown to affect him as quite excitingly, +altogether richly, inevitable. That the outlook, however—given the +point of exposure—hadn’t cleared up half so much as he had reckoned was +the first warning she received from him on his arrival. She had replied +with indulgence that he was in too great a hurry, and had remarked +soothingly that if she knew how to be patient surely _he_ might be. He +felt her presence, on the spot, he felt her tone and everything about +her, as an aid to that effort; and it was perhaps one of the proofs of +her success with him that he seemed so much to take his ease while they +talked. By the time he had explained to her why his impressions, though +multiplied, still baffled him, it was as if he had been familiarly +talking for hours. They baffled him because Sarah—well, Sarah was deep, +deeper than she had ever yet had a chance to show herself. He didn’t +say that this was partly the effect of her opening so straight down, as +it were, into her mother, and that, given Mrs. Newsome’s profundity, +the shaft thus sunk might well have a reach; but he wasn’t without a +resigned apprehension that, at such a rate of confidence between the +two women, he was likely soon to be moved to show how already, at +moments, it had been for him as if he were dealing directly with Mrs. +Newsome. Sarah, to a certainty, would have begun herself to feel it in +him—and this naturally put it in her power to torment him the more. +From the moment she knew he _could_ be tormented—! + +“But _why_ can you be?”—his companion was surprised at his use of the +word. + +“Because I’m made so—I think of everything.” + +“Ah one must never do that,” she smiled. “One must think of as few +things as possible.” + +“Then,” he answered, “one must pick them out right. But all I mean +is—for I express myself with violence—that she’s in a position to watch +me. There’s an element of suspense for me, and she can see me wriggle. +But my wriggling doesn’t matter,” he pursued. “I can bear it. Besides, +I shall wriggle out.” + +The picture at any rate stirred in her an appreciation that he felt to +be sincere. “I don’t see how a man can be kinder to a woman than you +are to me.” + +Well, kind was what he wanted to be; yet even while her charming eyes +rested on him with the truth of this he none the less had his humour of +honesty. “When I say suspense I mean, you know,” he laughed, “suspense +about my own case too!” + +“Oh yes—about your own case too!” It diminished his magnanimity, but +she only looked at him the more tenderly. + +“Not, however,” he went on, “that I want to talk to you about that. +It’s my own little affair, and I mentioned it simply as part of Mrs. +Pocock’s advantage.” No, no; though there was a queer present +temptation in it, and his suspense was so real that to fidget was a +relief, he wouldn’t talk to her about Mrs. Newsome, wouldn’t work off +on her the anxiety produced in him by Sarah’s calculated omissions of +reference. The effect she produced of representing her mother had been +produced—and that was just the immense, the uncanny part of it—without +her having so much as mentioned that lady. She had brought no message, +had alluded to no question, had only answered his enquiries with +hopeless limited propriety. She had invented a way of meeting them—as +if he had been a polite perfunctory poor relation, of distant +degree—that made them almost ridiculous in him. He couldn’t moreover on +his own side ask much without appearing to publish how he had lately +lacked news; a circumstance of which it was Sarah’s profound policy not +to betray a suspicion. These things, all the same, he wouldn’t breathe +to Madame de Vionnet—much as they might make him walk up and down. And +what he didn’t say—as well as what _she_ didn’t, for she had also her +high decencies—enhanced the effect of his being there with her at the +end of ten minutes more intimately on the basis of saving her than he +had yet had occasion to be. It ended in fact by being quite beautiful +between them, the number of things they had a manifest consciousness of +not saying. He would have liked to turn her, critically, to the subject +of Mrs. Pocock, but he so stuck to the line he felt to be the point of +honour and of delicacy that he scarce even asked her what her personal +impression had been. He knew it, for that matter, without putting her +to trouble: that she wondered how, with such elements, Sarah could +still have no charm, was one of the principal things she held her +tongue about. Strether would have been interested in her estimate of +the elements—indubitably there, some of them, and to be appraised +according to taste—but he denied himself even the luxury of this +diversion. The way Madame de Vionnet affected him to-day was in itself +a kind of demonstration of the happy employment of gifts. How could a +woman think Sarah had charm who struck one as having arrived at it +herself by such different roads? On the other hand of course Sarah +wasn’t obliged to have it. He felt as if somehow Madame de Vionnet +_was_. The great question meanwhile was what Chad thought of his +sister; which was naturally ushered in by that of Sarah’s apprehension +of Chad. _That_ they could talk of, and with a freedom purchased by +their discretion in other senses. The difficulty however was that they +were reduced as yet to conjecture. He had given them in the day or two +as little of a lead as Sarah, and Madame de Vionnet mentioned that she +hadn’t seen him since his sister’s arrival. + +“And does that strike you as such an age?” + +She met it in all honesty. “Oh I won’t pretend I don’t miss him. +Sometimes I see him every day. Our friendship’s like that. Make what +you will of it!” she whimsically smiled; a little flicker of the kind, +occasional in her, that had more than once moved him to wonder what he +might best make of _her_. “But he’s perfectly right,” she hastened to +add, “and I wouldn’t have him fail in any way at present for the world. +I’d sooner not see him for three months. I begged him to be beautiful +to them, and he fully feels it for himself.” + +Strether turned away under his quick perception; she was so odd a +mixture of lucidity and mystery. She fell in at moments with the theory +about her he most cherished, and she seemed at others to blow it into +air. She spoke now as if her art were all an innocence, and then again +as if her innocence were all an art. “Oh he’s giving himself up, and +he’ll do so to the end. How can he but want, now that it’s within +reach, his full impression?—which is much more important, you know, +than either yours or mine. But he’s just soaking,” Strether said as he +came back; “he’s going in conscientiously for a saturation. I’m bound +to say he _is_ very good.” + +“Ah,” she quietly replied, “to whom do you say it?” And then more +quietly still: “He’s capable of anything.” + +Strether more than reaffirmed—“Oh he’s excellent. I more and more +like,” he insisted, “to see him with them;” though the oddity of this +tone between them grew sharper for him even while they spoke. It placed +the young man so before them as the result of her interest and the +product of her genius, acknowledged so her part in the phenomenon and +made the phenomenon so rare, that more than ever yet he might have been +on the very point of asking her for some more detailed account of the +whole business than he had yet received from her. The occasion almost +forced upon him some question as to how she had managed and as to the +appearance such miracles presented from her own singularly close place +of survey. The moment in fact however passed, giving way to more +present history, and he continued simply to mark his appreciation of +the happy truth. “It’s a tremendous comfort to feel how one can trust +him.” And then again while for a little she said nothing—as if after +all to _her_ trust there might be a special limit: “I mean for making a +good show to them.” + +“Yes,” she thoughtfully returned—“but if they shut their eyes to it!” + +Strether for an instant had his own thought. “Well perhaps that won’t +matter!” + +“You mean because he probably—do what they will—won’t like them?” + +“Oh ‘do what they will’—! They won’t do much; especially if Sarah +hasn’t more—well, more than one has yet made out—to give.” + +Madame de Vionnet weighed it. “Ah she has all her grace!” It was a +statement over which, for a little, they could look at each other +sufficiently straight, and though it produced no protest from Strether +the effect was somehow as if he had treated it as a joke. “She may be +persuasive and caressing with him; she may be eloquent beyond words. +She may get hold of him,” she wound up—“well, as neither you nor I +have.” + +“Yes, she _may_”—and now Strether smiled. “But he has spent all his +time each day with Jim. He’s still showing Jim round.” + +She visibly wondered. “Then how about Jim?” + +Strether took a turn before he answered. “Hasn’t he given you Jim? +Hasn’t he before this ‘done’ him for you?” He was a little at a loss. +“Doesn’t he tell you things?” + +She hesitated. “No”—and their eyes once more gave and took. “Not as you +do. You somehow make me see them—or at least feel them. And I haven’t +asked too much,” she added; “I’ve of late wanted so not to worry him.” + +“Ah for that, so have I,” he said with encouraging assent; so that—as +if she had answered everything—they were briefly sociable on it. It +threw him back on his other thought, with which he took another turn; +stopping again, however, presently with something of a glow. “You see +Jim’s really immense. I think it will be Jim who’ll do it.” + +She wondered. “Get hold of him?” + +“No—just the other thing. Counteract Sarah’s spell.” And he showed now, +our friend, how far he had worked it out. “Jim’s intensely cynical.” + +“Oh dear Jim!” Madame de Vionnet vaguely smiled. + +“Yes, literally—dear Jim! He’s awful. What _he_ wants, heaven forgive +him, is to help us.” + +“You mean”—she was eager—“help _me?_” + +“Well, Chad and me in the first place. But he throws you in too, though +without as yet seeing you much. Only, so far as he does see you—if you +don’t mind—he sees you as awful.” + +“‘Awful’?”—she wanted it all. + +“A regular bad one—though of course of a tremendously superior kind. +Dreadful, delightful, irresistible.” + +“Ah dear Jim! I should like to know him. I _must_.” + +“Yes, naturally. But will it do? You may, you know,” Strether +suggested, “disappoint him.” + +She was droll and humble about it. “I can but try. But my wickedness +then,” she went on, “is my recommendation for him?” + +“Your wickedness and the charms with which, in such a degree as yours, +he associates it. He understands, you see, that Chad and I have above +all wanted to have a good time, and his view is simple and sharp. +Nothing will persuade him—in the light, that is, of my behaviour—that I +really didn’t, quite as much as Chad, come over to have one before it +was too late. He wouldn’t have expected it of me; but men of my age, at +Woollett—and especially the least likely ones—have been noted as liable +to strange outbreaks, belated uncanny clutches at the unusual, the +ideal. It’s an effect that a lifetime of Woollett has quite been +observed as having; and I thus give it to you, in Jim’s view, for what +it’s worth. Now his wife and his mother-in-law,” Strether continued to +explain, “have, as in honour bound, no patience with such phenomena, +late or early—which puts Jim, as against his relatives, on the other +side. Besides,” he added, “I don’t think he really wants Chad back. If +Chad doesn’t come—” + +“He’ll have”—Madame de Vionnet quite apprehended—“more of the free +hand?” + +“Well, Chad’s the bigger man.” + +“So he’ll work now, _en dessous_, to keep him quiet?” + +“No—he won’t ‘work’ at all, and he won’t do anything _en dessous_. He’s +very decent and won’t be a traitor in the camp. But he’ll be amused +with his own little view of our duplicity, he’ll sniff up what he +supposes to be Paris from morning till night, and he’ll be, as to the +rest, for Chad—well, just what he is.” + +She thought it over. “A warning?” + +He met it almost with glee. “You _are_ as wonderful as everybody says!” +And then to explain all he meant: “I drove him about for his first +hour, and do you know what—all beautifully unconscious—he most put +before me? Why that something like _that_ is at bottom, as an +improvement to his present state, as in fact the real redemption of it, +what they think it may not be too late to make of our friend.” With +which, as, taking it in, she seemed, in her recurrent alarm, bravely to +gaze at the possibility, he completed his statement. “But it _is_ too +late. Thanks to you!” + +It drew from her again one of her indefinite reflexions. “Oh ‘me’—after +all!” + +He stood before her so exhilarated by his demonstration that he could +fairly be jocular. “Everything’s comparative. You’re better than +_that_.” + +“You”—she could but answer him—“are better than anything.” But she had +another thought. “_Will_ Mrs. Pocock come to me?” + +“Oh yes—she’ll do that. As soon, that is, as my friend Waymarsh—_her_ +friend now—leaves her leisure.” + +She showed an interest. “Is he so much her friend as that?” + +“Why, didn’t you see it all at the hotel?” + +“Oh”—she was amused—“‘all’ is a good deal to say. I don’t know—I +forget. I lost myself in _her_.” + +“You were splendid,” Strether returned—“but ‘all’ isn’t a good deal to +say: it’s only a little. Yet it’s charming so far as it goes. She wants +a man to herself.” + +“And hasn’t she got _you?_” + +“Do you think she looked at me—or even at you—as if she had?” Strether +easily dismissed that irony. “Every one, you see, must strike her as +having somebody. You’ve got Chad—and Chad has got you.” + +“I see”—she made of it what she could. “And you’ve got Maria.” + +Well, he on his side accepted that. “I’ve got Maria. And Maria has got +me. So it goes.” + +“But Mr. Jim—whom has he got?” + +“Oh he has got—or it’s as _if_ he had—the whole place.” + +“But for Mr. Waymarsh”—she recalled—“isn’t Miss Barrace before any one +else?” + +He shook his head. “Miss Barrace is a _raffinée_, and her amusement +won’t lose by Mrs. Pocock. It will gain rather—especially if Sarah +triumphs and she comes in for a view of it.” + +“How well you know us!” Madame de Vionnet, at this, frankly sighed. + +“No—it seems to me it’s we that I know. I know Sarah—it’s perhaps on +that ground only that my feet are firm. Waymarsh will take her round +while Chad takes Jim—and I shall be, I assure you, delighted for both +of them. Sarah will have had what she requires—she will have paid her +tribute to the ideal; and he will have done about the same. In Paris +it’s in the air—so what can one do less? If there’s a point that, +beyond any other, Sarah wants to make, it’s that she didn’t come out to +be narrow. We shall feel at least that.” + +“Oh,” she sighed, “the quantity we seem likely to ‘feel’! But what +becomes, in these conditions, of the girl?” + +“Of Mamie—if we’re all provided? Ah for that,” said Strether, “you can +trust Chad.” + +“To be, you mean, all right to her?” + +“To pay her every attention as soon as he has polished off Jim. He +wants what Jim can give him—and what Jim really won’t—though he has had +it all, and more than all, from me. He wants in short his own personal +impression, and he’ll get it—strong. But as soon as he has got it Mamie +won’t suffer.” + +“Oh Mamie mustn’t _suffer!_” Madame de Vionnet soothingly emphasised. + +But Strether could reassure her. “Don’t fear. As soon as he has done +with Jim, Jim will fall to me. And then you’ll see.” + +It was as if in a moment she saw already; yet she still waited. Then +“Is she really quite charming?” she asked. + +He had got up with his last words and gathered in his hat and gloves. +“I don’t know; I’m watching. I’m studying the case, as it were—and I +dare say I shall be able to tell you.” + +She wondered. “Is it a case?” + +“Yes—I think so. At any rate I shall see.’ + +“But haven’t you known her before?” + +“Yes,” he smiled—“but somehow at home she wasn’t a case. She has become +one since.” It was as if he made it out for himself. “She has become +one here.” + +“So very very soon?” + +He measured it, laughing. “Not sooner than I did.” + +“And you became one—?” + +“Very very soon. The day I arrived.” + +Her intelligent eyes showed her thought of it. “Ah but the day you +arrived you met Maria. Whom has Miss Pocock met?” + +He paused again, but he brought it out. “Hasn’t she met Chad?” + +“Certainly—but not for the first time. He’s an old friend.” At which +Strether had a slow amused significant headshake that made her go on: +“You mean that for _her_ at least he’s a new person—that she sees him +as different?” + +“She sees him as different.” + +“And how does she see him?” + +Strether gave it up. “How can one tell how a deep little girl sees a +deep young man?” + +“Is every one so deep? Is she too?” + +“So it strikes me deeper than I thought. But wait a little—between us +we’ll make it out. You’ll judge for that matter yourself.” + +Madame de Vionnet looked for the moment fairly bent on the chance. +“Then she _will_ come with her?—I mean Mamie with Mrs. Pocock?” + +“Certainly. Her curiosity, if nothing else, will in any case work that. +But leave it all to Chad.” + +“Ah,” wailed Madame de Vionnet, turning away a little wearily, “the +things I leave to Chad!” + +The tone of it made him look at her with a kindness that showed his +vision of her suspense. But he fell back on his confidence. “Oh +well—trust him. Trust him all the way.” He had indeed no sooner so +spoken than the queer displacement of his point of view appeared again +to come up for him in the very sound, which drew from him a short +laugh, immediately checked. He became still more advisory. “When they +do come give them plenty of Miss Jeanne. Let Mamie see her well.” + +She looked for a moment as if she placed them face to face. “For Mamie +to hate her?” + +He had another of his corrective headshakes. “Mamie won’t. Trust +_them_.” + +She looked at him hard, and then as if it were what she must always +come back to: “It’s _you_ I trust. But I was sincere,” she said, “at +the hotel. I did, I do, want my child—” + +“Well?”—Strether waited with deference while she appeared to hesitate +as to how to put it. + +“Well, to do what she can for me.” + +Strether for a little met her eyes on it; after which something that +might have been unexpected to her came from him. “Poor little duck!” + +Not more expected for himself indeed might well have been her echo of +it. “Poor little duck! But she immensely wants herself,” she said, “to +see our friend’s cousin.” + +“Is that what she thinks her?” + +“It’s what we call the young lady.” + +He thought again; then with a laugh: “Well, your daughter will help +you.” + +And now at last he took leave of her, as he had been intending for five +minutes. But she went part of the way with him, accompanying him out of +the room and into the next and the next. Her noble old apartment +offered a succession of three, the first two of which indeed, on +entering, smaller than the last, but each with its faded and formal +air, enlarged the office of the antechamber and enriched the sense of +approach. Strether fancied them, liked them, and, passing through them +with her more slowly now, met a sharp renewal of his original +impression. He stopped, he looked back; the whole thing made a vista, +which he found high melancholy and sweet—full, once more, of dim +historic shades, of the faint faraway cannon-roar of the great Empire. +It was doubtless half the projection of his mind, but his mind was a +thing that, among old waxed parquets, pale shades of pink and green, +pseudo-classic candelabra, he had always needfully to reckon with. They +could easily make him irrelevant. The oddity, the originality, the +poetry—he didn’t know what to call it—of Chad’s connexion reaffirmed +for him its romantic side. “They ought to see this, you know. They +_must_.” + +“The Pococks?”—she looked about in deprecation; she seemed to see gaps +he didn’t. + +“Mamie and Sarah—Mamie in particular.” + +“My shabby old place? But _their_ things—!” + +“Oh their things! You were talking of what will do something for you—” + +“So that it strikes you,” she broke in, “that my poor place may? Oh,” +she ruefully mused, “that _would_ be desperate!” + +“Do you know what I wish?” he went on. “I wish Mrs. Newsome herself +could have a look.” + +She stared, missing a little his logic. “It would make a difference?” + +Her tone was so earnest that as he continued to look about he laughed. +“It might!” + +“But you’ve told her, you tell me—” + +“All about you? Yes, a wonderful story. But there’s all the +indescribable—what one gets only on the spot.” + +“Thank you!” she charmingly and sadly smiled. + +“It’s all about me here,” he freely continued. “Mrs. Newsome feels +things.” + +But she seemed doomed always to come back to doubt. “No one feels so +much as _you_. No—not any one.” + +“So much the worse then for every one. It’s very easy.” + +They were by this time in the antechamber, still alone together, as she +hadn’t rung for a servant. The antechamber was high and square, grave +and suggestive too, a little cold and slippery even in summer, and with +a few old prints that were precious, Strether divined, on the walls. He +stood in the middle, slightly lingering, vaguely directing his glasses, +while, leaning against the door-post of the room, she gently pressed +her cheek to the side of the recess. “_You_ would have been a friend.” + +“I?”—it startled him a little. + +“For the reason you say. You’re not stupid.” And then abruptly, as if +bringing it out were somehow founded on that fact: “We’re marrying +Jeanne.” + +It affected him on the spot as a move in a game, and he was even then +not without the sense that that wasn’t the way Jeanne should be +married. But he quickly showed his interest, though—as quickly +afterwards struck him—with an absurd confusion of mind. “‘You’? You +and—a—not Chad?” Of course it was the child’s father who made the ‘we,’ +but to the child’s father it would have cost him an effort to allude. +Yet didn’t it seem the next minute that Monsieur de Vionnet was after +all not in question?—since she had gone on to say that it was indeed to +Chad she referred and that he had been in the whole matter kindness +itself. + +“If I must tell you all, it is he himself who has put us in the way. I +mean in the way of an opportunity that, so far as I can yet see, is all +I could possibly have dreamed of. For all the trouble Monsieur de +Vionnet will ever take!” It was the first time she had spoken to him of +her husband, and he couldn’t have expressed how much more intimate with +her it suddenly made him feel. It wasn’t much, in truth—there were +other things in what she was saying that were far more; but it was as +if, while they stood there together so easily in these cold chambers of +the past, the single touch had shown the reach of her confidence. “But +our friend,” she asked, “hasn’t then told you?” + +“He has told me nothing.” + +“Well, it has come with rather a rush—all in a very few days; and +hasn’t moreover yet taken a form that permits an announcement. It’s +only for you—absolutely you alone—that I speak; I so want you to know.” +The sense he had so often had, since the first hour of his +disembarkment, of being further and further “in,” treated him again at +this moment to another twinge; but in this wonderful way of her putting +him in there continued to be something exquisitely remorseless. +“Monsieur de Vionnet will accept what he _must_ accept. He has proposed +half a dozen things—each one more impossible than the other; and he +wouldn’t have found this if he lives to a hundred. Chad found it,” she +continued with her lighted, faintly flushed, her conscious confidential +face, “in the quietest way in the world. Or rather it found _him_—for +everything finds him; I mean finds him right. You’ll think we do such +things strangely—but at my age,” she smiled, “one has to accept one’s +conditions. Our young man’s people had seen her; one of his sisters, a +charming woman—we know all about them—had observed her somewhere with +me. She had spoken to her brother—turned him on; and we were again +observed, poor Jeanne and I, without our in the least knowing it. It +was at the beginning of the winter; it went on for some time; it +outlasted our absence; it began again on our return; and it luckily +seems all right. The young man had met Chad, and he got a friend to +approach him—as having a decent interest in us. Mr. Newsome looked well +before he leaped; he kept beautifully quiet and satisfied himself +fully; then only he spoke. It’s what has for some time past occupied +us. It seems as if it were what would do; really, really all one could +wish. There are only two or three points to be settled—they depend on +her father. But this time I think we’re safe.” + +Strether, consciously gaping a little, had fairly hung upon her lips. +“I hope so with all my heart.” And then he permitted himself: “Does +nothing depend on _her?_” + +“Ah naturally; everything did. But she’s pleased _comme tout_. She has +been perfectly free; and he—our young friend—is really a combination. I +quite adore him.” + +Strether just made sure. “You mean your future son-in-law?” + +“Future if we all bring it off.” + +“Ah well,” said Strether decorously, “I heartily hope you may.” There +seemed little else for him to say, though her communication had the +oddest effect on him. Vaguely and confusedly he was troubled by it; +feeling as if he had even himself been concerned in something deep and +dim. He had allowed for depths, but these were greater: and it was as +if, oppressively—indeed absurdly—he was responsible for what they had +now thrown up to the surface. It was—through something ancient and cold +in it—what he would have called the real thing. In short his hostess’s +news, though he couldn’t have explained why, was a sensible shock, and +his oppression a weight he felt he must somehow or other immediately +get rid of. There were too many connexions missing to make it tolerable +he should do anything else. He was prepared to suffer—before his own +inner tribunal—for Chad; he was prepared to suffer even for Madame de +Vionnet. But he wasn’t prepared to suffer for the little girl. So now +having said the proper thing, he wanted to get away. She held him an +instant, however, with another appeal. + +“Do I seem to you very awful?” + +“Awful? Why so?” But he called it to himself, even as he spoke, his +biggest insincerity yet. + +“Our arrangements are so different from yours.” + +“Mine?” Oh he could dismiss that too! “I haven’t any arrangements.” + +“Then you must accept mine; all the more that they’re excellent. +They’re founded on a _vieille sagesse_. There will be much more, if all +goes well, for you to hear and to know, and everything, believe me, for +you to like. Don’t be afraid; you’ll be satisfied.” Thus she could talk +to him of what, of her innermost life—for that was what it came to—he +must “accept”; thus she could extraordinarily speak as if in such an +affair his being satisfied had an importance. It was all a wonder and +made the whole case larger. He had struck himself at the hotel, before +Sarah and Waymarsh, as being in her boat; but where on earth was he +now? This question was in the air till her own lips quenched it with +another. “And do you suppose _he_—who loves her so—would do anything +reckless or cruel?” + +He wondered what he supposed. “Do you mean your young man—?” + +“I mean yours. I mean Mr. Newsome.” It flashed for Strether the next +moment a finer light, and the light deepened as she went on. “He takes, +thank God, the truest tenderest interest in her.” + +It deepened indeed. “Oh I’m sure of that!” + +“You were talking,” she said, “about one’s trusting him. You see then +how I do.” + +He waited a moment—it all came. “I see—I see.” He felt he really did +see. + +“He wouldn’t hurt her for the world, nor—assuming she marries at +all—risk anything that might make against her happiness. And—willingly, +at least—he would never hurt _me_.” + +Her face, with what he had by this time grasped, told him more than her +words; whether something had come into it, or whether he only read +clearer, her whole story—what at least he then took for such—reached +out to him from it. With the initiative she now attributed to Chad it +all made a sense, and this sense—a light, a lead, was what had abruptly +risen before him. He wanted, once more, to get off with these things; +which was at last made easy, a servant having, for his assistance, on +hearing voices in the hall, just come forward. All that Strether had +made out was, while the man opened the door and impersonally waited, +summed up in his last word. “I don’t think, you know, Chad will tell me +anything.” + +“No—perhaps not yet.” + +“And I won’t as yet speak to him.” + +“Ah that’s as you’ll think best. You must judge.” + +She had finally given him her hand, which he held a moment. “How _much_ +I have to judge!” + +“Everything,” said Madame de Vionnet: a remark that was indeed—with the +refined disguised suppressed passion of her face—what he most carried +away. + + + II + +So far as a direct approach was concerned Sarah had neglected him, for +the week now about to end, with a civil consistency of chill that, +giving him a higher idea of her social resource, threw him back on the +general reflexion that a woman could always be amazing. It indeed +helped a little to console him that he felt sure she had for the same +period also left Chad’s curiosity hanging; though on the other hand, +for his personal relief, Chad could at least go through the various +motions—and he made them extraordinarily numerous—of seeing she had a +good time. There wasn’t a motion on which, in her presence, poor +Strether could so much as venture, and all he could do when he was out +of it was to walk over for a talk with Maria. He walked over of course +much less than usual, but he found a special compensation in a certain +half-hour during which, toward the close of a crowded empty expensive +day, his several companions seemed to him so disposed of as to give his +forms and usages a rest. He had been with them in the morning and had +nevertheless called on the Pococks in the afternoon; but their whole +group, he then found, had dispersed after a fashion of which it would +amuse Miss Gostrey to hear. He was sorry again, gratefully sorry she +was so out of it—she who had really put him in; but she had fortunately +always her appetite for news. The pure flame of the disinterested +burned in her cave of treasures as a lamp in a Byzantine vault. It was +just now, as happened, that for so fine a sense as hers a near view +would have begun to pay. Within three days, precisely, the situation on +which he was to report had shown signs of an equilibrium; the effect of +his look in at the hotel was to confirm this appearance. If the +equilibrium might only prevail! Sarah was out with Waymarsh, Mamie was +out with Chad, and Jim was out alone. Later on indeed he himself was +booked to Jim, was to take him that evening to the Varieties—which +Strether was careful to pronounce as Jim pronounced them. + +Miss Gostrey drank it in. “What then to-night do the others do?” + +“Well, it has been arranged. Waymarsh takes Sarah to dine at Bignon’s.” + +She wondered. “And what do they do after? They can’t come straight +home.” + +“No, they can’t come straight home—at least Sarah can’t. It’s their +secret, but I think I’ve guessed it.” Then as she waited: “The circus.” + +It made her stare a moment longer, then laugh almost to extravagance. +“There’s no one like you!” + +“Like _me?_”—he only wanted to understand. + +“Like all of you together—like all of us: Woollett, Milrose and their +products. We’re abysmal—but may we never be less so! Mr. Newsome,” she +continued, “meanwhile takes Miss Pocock—?” + +“Precisely—to the Français: to see what _you_ took Waymarsh and me to, +a family-bill.” + +“Ah then may Mr. Chad enjoy it as _I_ did!” But she saw so much in +things. “Do they spend their evenings, your young people, like that, +alone together?” + +“Well, they’re young people—but they’re old friends.” + +“I see, I see. And do _they_ dine—for a difference—at Brébant’s?” + +“Oh where they dine is their secret too. But I’ve my idea that it will +be, very quietly, at Chad’s own place.” + +“She’ll come to him there alone?” + +They looked at each other a moment. “He has known her from a child. +Besides,” said Strether with emphasis, “Mamie’s remarkable. She’s +splendid.” + +She wondered. “Do you mean she expects to bring it off?” + +“Getting hold of him? No—I think not.” + +“She doesn’t want him enough?—or doesn’t believe in her power?” On +which as he said nothing she continued: “She finds she doesn’t care for +him?” + +“No—I think she finds she does. But that’s what I mean by so describing +her. It’s _if_ she does that she’s splendid. But we’ll see,” he wound +up, “where she comes out.” + +“You seem to show me sufficiently,” Miss Gostrey laughed, “where she +goes in! But is her childhood’s friend,” she asked, “permitting himself +recklessly to flirt with her?” + +“No—not that. Chad’s also splendid. They’re _all_ splendid!” he +declared with a sudden strange sound of wistfulness and envy. “They’re +at least _happy_.” + +“Happy?”—it appeared, with their various difficulties, to surprise her. + +“Well—I seem to myself among them the only one who isn’t.” + +She demurred. “With your constant tribute to the ideal?” + +He had a laugh at his tribute to the ideal, but he explained after a +moment his impression. “I mean they’re living. They’re rushing about. +I’ve already had my rushing. I’m waiting.” + +“But aren’t you,” she asked by way of cheer, “waiting with _me?_” + +He looked at her in all kindness. “Yes—if it weren’t for that!” + +“And you help me to wait,” she said. “However,” she went on, “I’ve +really something for you that will help you to wait and which you shall +have in a minute. Only there’s something more I want from you first. I +revel in Sarah.” + +“So do I. If it weren’t,” he again amusedly sighed, “for _that_—!” + +“Well, you owe more to women than any man I ever saw. We do seem to +keep you going. Yet Sarah, as I see her, must be great.” + +“She _is_” Strether fully assented: “great! Whatever happens, she +won’t, with these unforgettable days, have lived in vain.” + +Miss Gostrey had a pause. “You mean she has fallen in love?” + +“I mean she wonders if she hasn’t—and it serves all her purpose.” + +“It has indeed,” Maria laughed, “served women’s purposes before!” + +“Yes—for giving in. But I doubt if the idea—as an idea—has ever up to +now answered so well for holding out. That’s _her_ tribute to the +ideal—we each have our own. It’s her romance—and it seems to me better +on the whole than mine. To have it in Paris too,” he explained—“on this +classic ground, in this charged infectious air, with so sudden an +intensity: well, it’s more than she expected. She has had in short to +recognise the breaking out for her of a real affinity—and with +everything to enhance the drama.” + +Miss Gostrey followed. “Jim for instance?” + +“Jim. Jim hugely enhances. Jim was made to enhance. And then Mr. +Waymarsh. It’s the crowning touch—it supplies the colour. He’s +positively separated.” + +“And she herself unfortunately isn’t—that supplies the colour too.” +Miss Gostrey was all there. But somehow—! “Is _he_ in love?” + +Strether looked at her a long time; then looked all about the room; +then came a little nearer. “Will you never tell any one in the world as +long as ever you live?” + +“Never.” It was charming. + +“He thinks Sarah really is. But he has no fear,” Strether hastened to +add. + +“Of her being affected by it?” + +“Of _his_ being. He likes it, but he knows she can hold out. He’s +helping her, he’s floating her over, by kindness.” + +Maria rather funnily considered it. “Floating her over in champagne? +The kindness of dining her, nose to nose, at the hour when all Paris is +crowding to profane delights, and in the—well, in the great temple, as +one hears of it, of pleasure?” + +“That’s just _it_, for both of them,” Strether insisted—“and all of a +supreme innocence. The Parisian place, the feverish hour, the putting +before her of a hundred francs’ worth of food and drink, which they’ll +scarcely touch—all that’s the dear man’s own romance; the expensive +kind, expensive in francs and centimes, in which he abounds. And the +circus afterwards—which is cheaper, but which he’ll find some means of +making as dear as possible—that’s also _his_ tribute to the ideal. It +does for him. He’ll see her through. They won’t talk of anything worse +than you and me.” + +“Well, we’re bad enough perhaps, thank heaven,” she laughed, “to upset +them! Mr. Waymarsh at any rate is a hideous old coquette.” And the next +moment she had dropped everything for a different pursuit. “What you +don’t appear to know is that Jeanne de Vionnet has become engaged. +She’s to marry—it has been definitely arranged—young Monsieur de +Montbron.” + +He fairly blushed. “Then—if you know it—it’s ‘out’?” + +“Don’t I often know things that are _not_ out? However,” she said, +“this will be out to-morrow. But I see I’ve counted too much on your +possible ignorance. You’ve been before me, and I don’t make you jump as +I hoped.” + +He gave a gasp at her insight. “You never fail! I’ve _had_ my jump. I +had it when I first heard.” + +“Then if you knew why didn’t you tell me as soon as you came in?” + +“Because I had it from her as a thing not yet to be spoken of.” + +Miss Gostrey wondered. “From Madame de Vionnet herself?” + +“As a probability—not quite a certainty: a good cause in which Chad has +been working. So I’ve waited.” + +“You need wait no longer,” she returned. “It reached me +yesterday—roundabout and accidental, but by a person who had had it +from one of the young man’s own people—as a thing quite settled. I was +only keeping it for you.” + +“You thought Chad wouldn’t have told me?” + +She hesitated. “Well, if he hasn’t—” + +“He hasn’t. And yet the thing appears to have been practically his +doing. So there we are.” + +“There we are!” Maria candidly echoed. + +“That’s why I jumped. I jumped,” he continued to explain, “because it +means, this disposition of the daughter, that there’s now nothing else: +nothing else but him and the mother.” + +“Still—it simplifies.” + +“It simplifies”—he fully concurred. “But that’s precisely where we are. +It marks a stage in his relation. The act is his answer to Mrs. +Newsome’s demonstration.” + +“It tells,” Maria asked, “the worst?” + +“The worst.” + +“But is the worst what he wants Sarah to know?” + +“He doesn’t care for Sarah.” + +At which Miss Gostrey’s eyebrows went up. “You mean she has already +dished herself?” + +Strether took a turn about; he had thought it out again and again +before this, to the end; but the vista seemed each time longer. “He +wants his good friend to know the best. I mean the measure of his +attachment. She asked for a sign, and he thought of that one. There it +is.” + +“A concession to her jealousy?” + +Strether pulled up. “Yes—call it that. Make it lurid—for that makes my +problem richer.” + +“Certainly, let us have it lurid—for I quite agree with you that we +want none of our problems poor. But let us also have it clear. Can he, +in the midst of such a preoccupation, or on the heels of it, have +seriously cared for Jeanne?—cared, I mean, as a young man at liberty +would have cared?” + +Well, Strether had mastered it. “I think he can have thought it would +be charming if he _could_ care. It would be nicer.” + +“Nicer than being tied up to Marie?” + +“Yes—than the discomfort of an attachment to a person he can never +hope, short of a catastrophe, to marry. And he was quite right,” said +Strether. “It would certainly have been nicer. Even when a thing’s +already nice there mostly _is_ some other thing that would have been +nicer—or as to which we wonder if it wouldn’t. But his question was all +the same a dream. He _couldn’t_ care in that way. He _is_ tied up to +Marie. The relation is too special and has gone too far. It’s the very +basis, and his recent lively contribution toward establishing Jeanne in +life has been his definite and final acknowledgement to Madame de +Vionnet that he has ceased squirming. I doubt meanwhile,” he went on, +“if Sarah has at all directly attacked him.” + +His companion brooded. “But won’t he wish for his own satisfaction to +make his ground good to her?” + +“No—he’ll leave it to me, he’ll leave everything to me. I ‘sort of’ +feel”—he worked it out—“that the whole thing will come upon me. Yes, I +shall have every inch and every ounce of it. I shall be _used_ for +it—!” And Strether lost himself in the prospect. Then he fancifully +expressed the issue. “To the last drop of my blood.” + +Maria, however, roundly protested. “Ah you’ll please keep a drop for +_me_. I shall have a use for it!”—which she didn’t however follow up. +She had come back the next moment to another matter. “Mrs. Pocock, with +her brother, is trusting only to her general charm?” + +“So it would seem.” + +“And the charm’s not working?” + +Well, Strether put it otherwise, “She’s sounding the note of home—which +is the very best thing she can do.” + +“The best for Madame de Vionnet?” + +“The best for home itself. The natural one; the right one.” + +“Right,” Maria asked, “when it fails?” + +Strether had a pause. “The difficulty’s Jim. Jim’s the note of home.” + +She debated. “Ah surely not the note of Mrs. Newsome.” + +But he had it all. “The note of the home for which Mrs. Newsome wants +him—the home of the business. Jim stands, with his little legs apart, +at the door of _that_ tent; and Jim _is_, frankly speaking, extremely +awful.” + +Maria stared. “And you in, you poor thing, for your evening with him?” + +“Oh he’s all right for _me!_” Strether laughed. “Any one’s good enough +for _me_. But Sarah shouldn’t, all the same, have brought him. She +doesn’t appreciate him.” + +His friend was amused with this statement of it. “Doesn’t know, you +mean, how bad he is?” + +Strether shook his head with decision. “Not really.” + +She wondered. “Then doesn’t Mrs. Newsome?” + +It made him frankly do the same. “Well, no—since you ask me.” + +Maria rubbed it in. “Not really either?” + +“Not at all. She rates him rather high.” With which indeed, +immediately, he took himself up. “Well, he _is_ good too, in his way. +It depends on what you want him for.” + +Miss Gostrey, however, wouldn’t let it depend on anything—wouldn’t have +it, and wouldn’t want him, at any price. “It suits my book,” she said, +“that he should be impossible; and it suits it still better,” she more +imaginatively added, “that Mrs. Newsome doesn’t know he is.” + +Strether, in consequence, had to take it from her, but he fell back on +something else. “I’ll tell you who does really know.” + +“Mr. Waymarsh? Never!” + +“Never indeed. I’m not _always_ thinking of Mr. Waymarsh; in fact I +find now I never am.” Then he mentioned the person as if there were a +good deal in it. “Mamie.” + +“His own sister?” Oddly enough it but let her down. “What good will +that do?” + +“None perhaps. But there—as usual—we are!” + + + III + +There they were yet again, accordingly, for two days more; when +Strether, on being, at Mrs. Pocock’s hotel, ushered into that lady’s +salon, found himself at first assuming a mistake on the part of the +servant who had introduced him and retired. The occupants hadn’t come +in, for the room looked empty as only a room can look in Paris, of a +fine afternoon when the faint murmur of the huge collective life, +carried on out of doors, strays among scattered objects even as a +summer air idles in a lonely garden. Our friend looked about and +hesitated; observed, on the evidence of a table charged with purchases +and other matters, that Sarah had become possessed—by no aid from +_him_—of the last number of the salmon-coloured Revue; noted further +that Mamie appeared to have received a present of Fromentin’s “Maîtres +d’Autrefois” from Chad, who had written her name on the cover; and +pulled up at the sight of a heavy letter addressed in a hand he knew. +This letter, forwarded by a banker and arriving in Mrs. Pocock’s +absence, had been placed in evidence, and it drew from the fact of its +being unopened a sudden queer power to intensify the reach of its +author. It brought home to him the scale on which Mrs. Newsome—for she +had been copious indeed this time—was writing to her daughter while she +kept _him_ in durance; and it had altogether such an effect upon him as +made him for a few minutes stand still and breathe low. In his own +room, at his own hotel, he had dozens of well-filled envelopes +superscribed in that character; and there was actually something in the +renewal of his interrupted vision of the character that played straight +into the so frequent question of whether he weren’t already +disinherited beyond appeal. It was such an assurance as the sharp +downstrokes of her pen hadn’t yet had occasion to give him; but they +somehow at the present crisis stood for a probable absoluteness in any +decree of the writer. He looked at Sarah’s name and address, in short, +as if he had been looking hard into her mother’s face, and then turned +from it as if the face had declined to relax. But since it was in a +manner as if Mrs. Newsome were thereby all the more, instead of the +less, in the room, and were conscious, sharply and sorely conscious, of +himself, so he felt both held and hushed, summoned to stay at least and +take his punishment. By staying, accordingly, he took it—creeping +softly and vaguely about and waiting for Sarah to come in. She _would_ +come in if he stayed long enough, and he had now more than ever the +sense of her success in leaving him a prey to anxiety. It wasn’t to be +denied that she had had a happy instinct, from the point of view of +Woollett, in placing him thus at the mercy of her own initiative. It +was very well to try to say he didn’t care—that she might break ground +when she would, might never break it at all if she wouldn’t, and that +he had no confession whatever to wait upon her with: he breathed from +day to day an air that damnably required clearing, and there were +moments when he quite ached to precipitate that process. He couldn’t +doubt that, should she only oblige him by surprising him just as he +then was, a clarifying scene of some sort would result from the +concussion. + +He humbly circulated in this spirit till he suddenly had a fresh +arrest. Both the windows of the room stood open to the balcony, but it +was only now that, in the glass of the leaf of one of them, folded +back, he caught a reflexion quickly recognised as the colour of a +lady’s dress. Somebody had been then all the while on the balcony, and +the person, whoever it might be, was so placed between the windows as +to be hidden from him; while on the other hand the many sounds of the +street had covered his own entrance and movements. If the person were +Sarah he might on the spot therefore be served to his taste. He might +lead her by a move or two up to the remedy for his vain tension; as to +which, should he get nothing else from it, he would at least have the +relief of pulling down the roof on their heads. There was fortunately +no one at hand to observe—in respect to his valour—that even on this +completed reasoning he still hung fire. He had been waiting for Mrs. +Pocock and the sound of the oracle; but he had to gird himself +afresh—which he did in the embrasure of the window, neither advancing +nor retreating—before provoking the revelation. It was apparently for +Sarah to come more into view; he was in that case there at her service. +She did however, as meanwhile happened, come more into view; only she +luckily came at the last minute as a contradiction of Sarah. The +occupant of the balcony was after all quite another person, a person +presented, on a second look, by a charming back and a slight shift of +her position, as beautiful brilliant unconscious Mamie—Mamie alone at +home, Mamie passing her time in her own innocent way, Mamie in short +rather shabbily used, but Mamie absorbed interested and interesting. +With her arms on the balustrade and her attention dropped to the street +she allowed Strether to watch her, to consider several things, without +her turning round. + +But the oddity was that when he _had_ so watched and considered he +simply stepped back into the room without following up his advantage. +He revolved there again for several minutes, quite as with something +new to think of and as if the bearings of the possibility of Sarah had +been superseded. For frankly, yes, it _had_ bearings thus to find the +girl in solitary possession. There was something in it that touched him +to a point not to have been reckoned beforehand, something that softly +but quite pressingly spoke to him, and that spoke the more each time he +paused again at the edge of the balcony and saw her still unaware. Her +companions were plainly scattered; Sarah would be off somewhere with +Waymarsh and Chad off somewhere with Jim. Strether didn’t at all +mentally impute to Chad that he was with his “good friend”; he gave him +the benefit of supposing him involved in appearances that, had he had +to describe them—for instance to Maria—he would have conveniently +qualified as more subtle. It came to him indeed the next thing that +there was perhaps almost an excess of refinement in having left Mamie +in such weather up there alone; however she might in fact have +extemporised, under the charm of the Rue de Rivoli, a little makeshift +Paris of wonder and fancy. Our friend in any case now recognised—and it +was as if at the recognition Mrs. Newsome’s fixed intensity had +suddenly, with a deep audible gasp, grown thin and vague—that day after +day he had been conscious in respect to his young lady of something odd +and ambiguous, yet something into which he could at last read a +meaning. It had been at the most, this mystery, an obsession—oh an +obsession agreeable; and it had just now fallen into its place as at +the touch of a spring. It had represented the possibility between them +of some communication baffled by accident and delay—the possibility +even of some relation as yet unacknowledged. + +There was always their old relation, the fruit of the Woollett years; +but that—and it was what was strangest—had nothing whatever in common +with what was now in the air. As a child, as a “bud,” and then again as +a flower of expansion, Mamie had bloomed for him, freely, in the almost +incessantly open doorways of home; where he remembered her as first +very forward, as then very backward—for he had carried on at one +period, in Mrs. Newsome’s parlours (oh Mrs. Newsome’s phases and his +own!) a course of English Literature re-enforced by exams and teas—and +once more, finally, as very much in advance. But he had kept no great +sense of points of contact; it not being in the nature of things at +Woollett that the freshest of the buds should find herself in the same +basket with the most withered of the winter apples. The child had given +sharpness, above all, to his sense of the flight of time; it was but +the day before yesterday that he had tripped up on her hoop, yet his +experience of remarkable women—destined, it would seem, remarkably to +grow—felt itself ready this afternoon, quite braced itself, to include +her. She had in fine more to say to him than he had ever dreamed the +pretty girl of the moment _could_ have; and the proof of the +circumstance was that, visibly, unmistakeably, she had been able to say +it to no one else. It was something she could mention neither to her +brother, to her sister-in-law nor to Chad; though he could just imagine +that had she still been at home she might have brought it out, as a +supreme tribute to age, authority and attitude, for Mrs. Newsome. It +was moreover something in which they all took an interest; the strength +of their interest was in truth just the reason of her prudence. All +this then, for five minutes, was vivid to Strether, and it put before +him that, poor child, she had now but her prudence to amuse her. That, +for a pretty girl in Paris, struck him, with a rush, as a sorry state; +so that under the impression he went out to her with a step as +hypocritically alert, he was well aware, as if he had just come into +the room. She turned with a start at his voice; preoccupied with him +though she might be, she was just a scrap disappointed. “Oh I thought +you were Mr. Bilham!” + +The remark had been at first surprising and our friend’s private +thought, under the influence of it, temporarily blighted; yet we are +able to add that he presently recovered his inward tone and that many a +fresh flower of fancy was to bloom in the same air. Little Bilham—since +little Bilham was, somewhat incongruously, expected—appeared +behindhand; a circumstance by which Strether was to profit. They came +back into the room together after a little, the couple on the balcony, +and amid its crimson-and-gold elegance, with the others still absent, +Strether passed forty minutes that he appraised even at the time as +far, in the whole queer connexion, from his idlest. Yes indeed, since +he had the other day so agreed with Maria about the inspiration of the +lurid, here was something for his problem that surely didn’t make it +shrink and that was floated in upon him as part of a sudden flood. He +was doubtless not to know till afterwards, on turning them over in +thought, of how many elements his impression was composed; but he none +the less felt, as he sat with the charming girl, the signal growth of a +confidence. For she _was_ charming, when all was said—and none the less +so for the visible habit and practice of freedom and fluency. She was +charming, he was aware, in spite of the fact that if he hadn’t found +her so he would have found her something he should have been in peril +of expressing as “funny.” Yes, she was funny, wonderful Mamie, and +without dreaming it; she was bland, she was bridal—with never, that he +could make out as yet, a bridegroom to support it; she was handsome and +portly and easy and chatty, soft and sweet and almost disconcertingly +reassuring. She was dressed, if we might so far discriminate, less as a +young lady than as an old one—had an old one been supposable to +Strether as so committed to vanity; the complexities of her hair missed +moreover also the looseness of youth; and she had a mature manner of +bending a little, as to encourage and reward, while she held neatly +together in front of her a pair of strikingly polished hands: the +combination of all of which kept up about her the glamour of her +“receiving,” placed her again perpetually between the windows and +within sound of the ice-cream plates, suggested the enumeration of all +the names, all the Mr. Brookses and Mr. Snookses, gregarious specimens +of a single type, she was happy to “meet.” But if all this was where +she was funny, and if what was funnier than the rest was the contrast +between her beautiful benevolent patronage—such a hint of the +polysyllabic as might make her something of a bore toward middle +age—and her rather flat little voice, the voice, naturally, +unaffectedly yet, of a girl of fifteen; so Strether, none the less, at +the end of ten minutes, felt in her a quiet dignity that pulled things +bravely together. If quiet dignity, almost more than matronly, with +voluminous, too voluminous clothes, was the effect she proposed to +produce, that was an ideal one could like in her when once one had got +into relation. The great thing now for her visitor was that this was +exactly what he had done; it made so extraordinary a mixture of the +brief and crowded hour. It was the mark of a relation that he had begun +so quickly to find himself sure she was, of all people, as might have +been said, on the side and of the party of Mrs. Newsome’s original +ambassador. She was in _his_ interest and not in Sarah’s, and some sign +of that was precisely what he had been feeling in her, these last days, +as imminent. Finally placed, in Paris, in immediate presence of the +situation and of the hero of it—by whom Strether was incapable of +meaning any one but Chad—she had accomplished, and really in a manner +all unexpected to herself, a change of base; deep still things had come +to pass within her, and by the time she had grown sure of them Strether +had become aware of the little drama. When she knew where she was, in +short, he had made it out; and he made it out at present still better; +though with never a direct word passing between them all the while on +the subject of his own predicament. There had been at first, as he sat +there with her, a moment during which he wondered if she meant to break +ground in respect to his prime undertaking. That door stood so +strangely ajar that he was half-prepared to be conscious, at any +juncture, of her having, of any one’s having, quite bounced in. But, +friendly, familiar, light of touch and happy of tact, she exquisitely +stayed out; so that it was for all the world as if to show she could +deal with him without being reduced to—well, scarcely anything. + +It fully came up for them then, by means of their talking of everything +_but_ Chad, that Mamie, unlike Sarah, unlike Jim, knew perfectly what +had become of him. It fully came up that she had taken to the last +fraction of an inch the measure of the change in him, and that she +wanted Strether to know what a secret she proposed to make of it. They +talked most conveniently—as if they had had no chance yet—about +Woollett; and that had virtually the effect of their keeping the secret +more close. The hour took on for Strether, little by little, a queer +sad sweetness of quality, he had such a revulsion in Mamie’s favour and +on behalf of her social value as might have come from remorse at some +early injustice. She made him, as under the breath of some vague +western whiff, homesick and freshly restless; he could really for the +time have fancied himself stranded with her on a far shore, during an +ominous calm, in a quaint community of shipwreck. Their little +interview was like a picnic on a coral strand; they passed each other, +with melancholy smiles and looks sufficiently allusive, such cupfuls of +water as they had saved. Especially sharp in Strether meanwhile was the +conviction that his companion really knew, as we have hinted, where she +had come out. It was at a very particular place—only _that_ she would +never tell him; it would be above all what he should have to puzzle for +himself. This was what he hoped for, because his interest in the girl +wouldn’t be complete without it. No more would the appreciation to +which she was entitled—so assured was he that the more he saw of her +process the more he should see of her pride. She saw, herself, +everything; but she knew what she didn’t want, and that it was that had +helped her. What didn’t she want?—there was a pleasure lost for her old +friend in not yet knowing, as there would doubtless be a thrill in +getting a glimpse. Gently and sociably she kept that dark to him, and +it was as if she soothed and beguiled him in other ways to make up for +it. She came out with her impression of Madame de Vionnet—of whom she +had “heard so much”; she came out with her impression of Jeanne, whom +she had been “dying to see”: she brought it out with a blandness by +which her auditor was really stirred that she had been with Sarah early +that very afternoon, and after dreadful delays caused by all sorts of +things, mainly, eternally, by the purchase of clothes—clothes that +unfortunately wouldn’t be themselves eternal—to call in the Rue de +Bellechasse. + +At the sound of these names Strether almost blushed to feel that he +couldn’t have sounded them first—and yet couldn’t either have justified +his squeamishness. Mamie made them easy as he couldn’t have begun to +do, and yet it could only have cost her more than he should ever have +had to spend. It was as friends of Chad’s, friends special, +distinguished, desirable, enviable, that she spoke of them, and she +beautifully carried it off that much as she had heard of them—though +she didn’t say how or where, which was a touch of her own—she had found +them beyond her supposition. She abounded in praise of them, and after +the manner of Woollett—which made the manner of Woollett a loveable +thing again to Strether. He had never so felt the true inwardness of it +as when his blooming companion pronounced the elder of the ladies of +the Rue de Bellechasse too fascinating for words and declared of the +younger that she was perfectly ideal, a real little monster of charm. +“Nothing,” she said of Jeanne, “ought ever to happen to her—she’s so +awfully right as she is. Another touch will spoil her—so she oughtn’t +to _be_ touched.” + +“Ah but things, here in Paris,” Strether observed, “do happen to little +girls.” And then for the joke’s and the occasion’s sake: “Haven’t you +found that yourself?” + +“That things happen—? Oh I’m not a little girl. I’m a big battered +blowsy one. _I_ don’t care,” Mamie laughed, “_what_ happens.” + +Strether had a pause while he wondered if it mightn’t happen that he +should give her the pleasure of learning that he found her nicer than +he had really dreamed—a pause that ended when he had said to himself +that, so far as it at all mattered for her, she had in fact perhaps +already made this out. He risked accordingly a different +question—though conscious, as soon as he had spoken, that he seemed to +place it in relation to her last speech. “But that Mademoiselle de +Vionnet is to be married—I suppose you’ve heard of _that_.” + +For all, he then found, he need fear! “Dear, yes; the gentleman was +there: Monsieur de Montbron, whom Madame de Vionnet presented to us.” + +“And was he nice?” + +Mamie bloomed and bridled with her best reception manner. “Any man’s +nice when he’s in love.” + +It made Strether laugh. “But is Monsieur de Montbron in +love—already—with _you?_” + +“Oh that’s not necessary—it’s so much better he should be so with +_her_: which, thank goodness, I lost no time in discovering for myself. +He’s perfectly gone—and I couldn’t have borne it for her if he hadn’t +been. She’s just too sweet.” + +Strether hesitated. “And through being in love too?” + +On which with a smile that struck him as wonderful Mamie had a +wonderful answer. “She doesn’t know if she is or not.” + +It made him again laugh out. “Oh but _you_ do!” + +She was willing to take it that way. “Oh yes, I know everything.” And +as she sat there rubbing her polished hands and making the best of +it—only holding her elbows perhaps a little too much out—the momentary +effect for Strether was that every one else, in all their affair, +seemed stupid. + +“Know that poor little Jeanne doesn’t know what’s the matter with her?” + +It was as near as they came to saying that she was probably in love +with Chad; but it was quite near enough for what Strether wanted; which +was to be confirmed in his certitude that, whether in love or not, she +appealed to something large and easy in the girl before him. Mamie +would be fat, too fat, at thirty; but she would always be the person +who, at the present sharp hour, had been disinterestedly tender. “If I +see a little more of her, as I hope I shall, I think she’ll like me +enough—for she seemed to like me to-day—to want me to tell her.” + +“And _shall_ you?” + +“Perfectly. I shall tell her the matter with her is that she wants only +too much to do right. To do right for her, naturally,” said Mamie, “is +to please.” + +“Her mother, do you mean?” + +“Her mother first.” + +Strether waited. “And then?” + +“Well, ‘then’—Mr. Newsome.” + +There was something really grand for him in the serenity of this +reference. “And last only Monsieur de Montbron?” + +“Last only”—she good-humouredly kept it up. + +Strether considered. “So that every one after all then will be suited?” + +She had one of her few hesitations, but it was a question only of a +moment; and it was her nearest approach to being explicit with him +about what was between them. “I think I can speak for myself. _I_ shall +be.” + +It said indeed so much, told such a story of her being ready to help +him, so committed to him that truth, in short, for such use as he might +make of it toward those ends of his own with which, patiently and +trustfully, she had nothing to do—it so fully achieved all this that he +appeared to himself simply to meet it in its own spirit by the last +frankness of admiration. Admiration was of itself almost accusatory, +but nothing less would serve to show her how nearly he understood. He +put out his hand for good-bye with a “Splendid, splendid, splendid!” +And he left her, in her splendour, still waiting for little Bilham. + + + + +Book Tenth + + + I + +Strether occupied beside little Bilham, three evenings after his +interview with Mamie Pocock, the same deep divan they had enjoyed +together on the first occasion of our friend’s meeting Madame de +Vionnet and her daughter in the apartment of the Boulevard Malesherbes, +where his position affirmed itself again as ministering to an easy +exchange of impressions. The present evening had a different stamp; if +the company was much more numerous, so, inevitably, were the ideas set +in motion. It was on the other hand, however, now strongly marked that +the talkers moved, in respect to such matters, round an inner, a +protected circle. They knew at any rate what really concerned them +to-night, and Strether had begun by keeping his companion close to it. +Only a few of Chad’s guests had dined—that is fifteen or twenty, a few +compared with the large concourse offered to sight by eleven o’clock; +but number and mass, quantity and quality, light, fragrance, sound, the +overflow of hospitality meeting the high tide of response, had all from +the first pressed upon Strether’s consciousness, and he felt himself +somehow part and parcel of the most festive scene, as the term was, in +which he had ever in his life been engaged. He had perhaps seen, on +Fourths of July and on dear old domestic Commencements, more people +assembled, but he had never seen so many in proportion to the space, or +had at all events never known so great a promiscuity to show so +markedly as picked. Numerous as was the company, it had still been made +so by selection, and what was above all rare for Strether was that, by +no fault of his own, he was in the secret of the principle that had +worked. He hadn’t enquired, he had averted his head, but Chad had put +him a pair of questions that themselves smoothed the ground. He hadn’t +answered the questions, he had replied that they were the young man’s +own affair; and he had then seen perfectly that the latter’s direction +was already settled. + +Chad had applied for counsel only by way of intimating that he knew +what to do; and he had clearly never known it better than in now +presenting to his sister the whole circle of his society. This was all +in the sense and the spirit of the note struck by him on that lady’s +arrival; he had taken at the station itself a line that led him without +a break, and that enabled him to lead the Pococks—though dazed a +little, no doubt, breathless, no doubt, and bewildered—to the uttermost +end of the passage accepted by them perforce as pleasant. He had made +it for them violently pleasant and mercilessly full; the upshot of +which was, to Strether’s vision, that they had come all the way without +discovering it to be really no passage at all. It was a brave blind +alley, where to pass was impossible and where, unless they stuck fast, +they would have—which was always awkward—publicly to back out. They +were touching bottom assuredly tonight; the whole scene represented the +terminus of the _cul-de-sac_. So could things go when there was a hand +to keep them consistent—a hand that pulled the wire with a skill at +which the elder man more and more marvelled. The elder man felt +responsible, but he also felt successful, since what had taken place +was simply the issue of his own contention, six weeks before, that they +properly should wait to see what their friends would have really to +say. He had determined Chad to wait, he had determined him to see; he +was therefore not to quarrel with the time given up to the business. As +much as ever, accordingly, now that a fortnight had elapsed, the +situation created for Sarah, and against which she had raised no +protest, was that of her having accommodated herself to her adventure +as to a pleasure-party surrendered perhaps even somewhat in excess to +bustle and to “pace.” If her brother had been at any point the least +bit open to criticism it might have been on the ground of his spicing +the draught too highly and pouring the cup too full. Frankly treating +the whole occasion of the presence of his relatives as an opportunity +for amusement, he left it, no doubt, but scant margin as an opportunity +for anything else. He suggested, invented, abounded—yet all the while +with the loosest easiest rein. Strether, during his own weeks, had +gained a sense of knowing Paris; but he saw it afresh, and with fresh +emotion, in the form of the knowledge offered to his colleague. + +A thousand unuttered thoughts hummed for him in the air of these +observations; not the least frequent of which was that Sarah might well +of a truth not quite know whither she was drifting. She was in no +position not to appear to expect that Chad should treat her handsomely; +yet she struck our friend as privately stiffening a little each time +she missed the chance of marking the great _nuance_. The great _nuance_ +was in brief that of course her brother must treat her handsomely—she +should like to see him not; but that treating her handsomely, none the +less, wasn’t all in all—treating her handsomely buttered no parsnips; +and that in fine there were moments when she felt the fixed eyes of +their admirable absent mother fairly screw into the flat of her back. +Strether, watching, after his habit, and overscoring with thought, +positively had moments of his own in which he found himself sorry for +her—occasions on which she affected him as a person seated in a runaway +vehicle and turning over the question of a possible jump. _Would_ she +jump, could she, would _that_ be a safe place?—this question, at such +instants, sat for him in her lapse into pallor, her tight lips, her +conscious eyes. It came back to the main point at issue: would she be, +after all, to be squared? He believed on the whole she would jump; yet +his alternations on this subject were the more especial stuff of his +suspense. One thing remained well before him—a conviction that was in +fact to gain sharpness from the impressions of this evening: that if +she _should_ gather in her skirts, close her eyes and quit the carriage +while in motion, he would promptly enough become aware. She would +alight from her headlong course more or less directly upon him; it +would be appointed to him, unquestionably, to receive her entire +weight. Signs and portents of the experience thus in reserve for him +had as it happened, multiplied even through the dazzle of Chad’s party. +It was partly under the nervous consciousness of such a prospect that, +leaving almost every one in the two other rooms, leaving those of the +guests already known to him as well as a mass of brilliant strangers of +both sexes and of several varieties of speech, he had desired five +quiet minutes with little Bilham, whom he always found soothing and +even a little inspiring, and to whom he had actually moreover something +distinct and important to say. + +He had felt of old—for it already seemed long ago—rather humiliated at +discovering he could learn in talk with a personage so much his junior +the lesson of a certain moral ease; but he had now got used to +that—whether or no the mixture of the fact with other humiliations had +made it indistinct, whether or no directly from little Bilham’s +example, the example of his being contentedly just the obscure and +acute little Bilham he was. It worked so for him, Strether seemed to +see; and our friend had at private hours a wan smile over the fact that +he himself, after so many more years, was still in search of something +that would work. However, as we have said, it worked just now for them +equally to have found a corner a little apart. What particularly kept +it apart was the circumstance that the music in the salon was +admirable, with two or three such singers as it was a privilege to hear +in private. Their presence gave a distinction to Chad’s entertainment, +and the interest of calculating their effect on Sarah was actually so +sharp as to be almost painful. Unmistakeably, in her single person, the +motive of the composition and dressed in a splendour of crimson which +affected Strether as the sound of a fall through a skylight, she would +now be in the forefront of the listening circle and committed by it up +to her eyes. Those eyes during the wonderful dinner itself he hadn’t +once met; having confessedly—perhaps a little pusillanimously—arranged +with Chad that he should be on the same side of the table. But there +was no use in having arrived now with little Bilham at an unprecedented +point of intimacy unless he could pitch everything into the pot. “You +who sat where you could see her, what does she make of it all? By which +I mean on what terms does she take it?” + +“Oh she takes it, I judge, as proving that the claim of his family is +more than ever justified.” + +“She isn’t then pleased with what he has to show?” + +“On the contrary; she’s pleased with it as with his capacity to do this +kind of thing—more than she has been pleased with anything for a long +time. But she wants him to show it _there_. He has no right to waste it +on the likes of us.” + +Strether wondered. “She wants him to move the whole thing over?” + +“The whole thing—with an important exception. Everything he has ‘picked +up’—and the way he knows how. She sees no difficulty in that. She’d run +the show herself, and she’ll make the handsome concession that Woollett +would be on the whole in some ways the better for it. Not that it +wouldn’t be also in some ways the better for Woollett. The people there +are just as good.” + +“Just as good as you and these others? Ah that may be. But such an +occasion as this, whether or no,” Strether said, “isn’t the people. +It’s what has made the people possible.” + +“Well then,” his friend replied, “there you are; I give you my +impression for what it’s worth. Mrs. Pocock has _seen_, and that’s +to-night how she sits there. If you were to have a glimpse of her face +you’d understand me. She has made up her mind—to the sound of expensive +music.” + +Strether took it freely in. “Ah then I shall have news of her.” + +“I don’t want to frighten you, but I think that likely. However,” +little Bilham continued, “if I’m of the least use to you to hold on +by—!” + +“You’re not of the least!”—and Strether laid an appreciative hand on +him to say it. “No one’s of the least.” With which, to mark how gaily +he could take it, he patted his companion’s knee. “I must meet my fate +alone, and I _shall_—oh you’ll see! And yet,” he pursued the next +moment, “you _can_ help me too. You once said to me”—he followed this +further—“that you held Chad should marry. I didn’t see then so well as +I know now that you meant he should marry Miss Pocock. Do you still +consider that he should? Because if you do”—he kept it up—“I want you +immediately to change your mind. You can help me that way.” + +“Help you by thinking he should _not_ marry?” + +“Not marry at all events Mamie.” + +“And who then?” + +“Ah,” Strether returned, “that I’m not obliged to say. But Madame de +Vionnet—I suggest—when he can.’ + +“Oh!” said little Bilham with some sharpness. + +“Oh precisely! But he needn’t marry at all—I’m at any rate not obliged +to provide for it. Whereas in your case I rather feel that I _am_.” + +Little Bilham was amused. “Obliged to provide for my marrying?” + +“Yes—after all I’ve done to you!” + +The young man weighed it. “Have you done as much as that?” + +“Well,” said Strether, thus challenged, “of course I must remember what +you’ve also done to _me_. We may perhaps call it square. But all the +same,” he went on, “I wish awfully you’d marry Mamie Pocock yourself.” + +Little Bilham laughed out. “Why it was only the other night, in this +very place, that you were proposing to me a different union +altogether.” + +“Mademoiselle de Vionnet?” Well, Strether easily confessed it. “That, I +admit, was a vain image. _This_ is practical politics. I want to do +something good for both of you—I wish you each so well; and you can see +in a moment the trouble it will save me to polish you off by the same +stroke. She likes you, you know. You console her. And she’s splendid.” + +Little Bilham stared as a delicate appetite stares at an overheaped +plate. “What do I console her for?” + +It just made his friend impatient. “Oh come, you know!” + +“And what proves for you that she likes me?” + +“Why the fact that I found her three days ago stopping at home alone +all the golden afternoon on the mere chance that you’d come to her, and +hanging over her balcony on that of seeing your cab drive up. I don’t +know what you want more.” + +Little Bilham after a moment found it. “Only just to know what proves +to you that I like _her_.” + +“Oh if what I’ve just mentioned isn’t enough to make you do it, you’re +a stony-hearted little fiend. Besides”—Strether encouraged his fancy’s +flight—“you showed your inclination in the way you kept her waiting, +kept her on purpose to see if she cared enough for you.” + +His companion paid his ingenuity the deference of a pause. “I didn’t +keep her waiting. I came at the hour. I wouldn’t have kept her waiting +for the world,” the young man honourably declared. + +“Better still—then there you are!” And Strether, charmed, held him the +faster. “Even if you didn’t do her justice, moreover,” he continued, “I +should insist on your immediately coming round to it. I want awfully to +have worked it. I want”—and our friend spoke now with a yearning that +was really earnest—“at least to have done _that_.” + +“To have married me off—without a penny?” + +“Well, I shan’t live long; and I give you my word, now and here, that +I’ll leave you every penny of my own. I haven’t many, unfortunately, +but you shall have them all. And Miss Pocock, I think, has a few. I +want,” Strether went on, “to have been at least to that extent +constructive even expiatory. I’ve been sacrificing so to strange gods +that I feel I want to put on record, somehow, my fidelity—fundamentally +unchanged after all—to our own. I feel as if my hands were embrued with +the blood of monstrous alien altars—of another faith altogether. There +it is—it’s done.” And then he further explained. “It took hold of me +because the idea of getting her quite out of the way for Chad helps to +clear my ground.” + +The young man, at this, bounced about, and it brought them face to face +in admitted amusement. “You want me to marry as a convenience to Chad?” + +“No,” Strether debated—“_he_ doesn’t care whether you marry or not. +It’s as a convenience simply to my own plan _for_ him.” + +“‘Simply’!”—and little Bilham’s concurrence was in itself a lively +comment. “Thank you. But I thought,” he continued, “you had exactly +_no_ plan ‘for’ him.” + +“Well then call it my plan for myself—which may be well, as you say, to +have none. His situation, don’t you see? is reduced now to the bare +facts one has to recognise. Mamie doesn’t want him, and he doesn’t want +Mamie: so much as that these days have made clear. It’s a thread we can +wind up and tuck in.” + +But little Bilham still questioned. “_You_ can—since you seem so much +to want to. But why should I?” + +Poor Strether thought it over, but was obliged of course to admit that +his demonstration did superficially fail. “Seriously, there _is_ no +reason. It’s my affair—I must do it alone. I’ve only my fantastic need +of making my dose stiff.” + +Little Bilham wondered. “What do you call your dose?” + +“Why what I have to swallow. I want my conditions unmitigated.” + +He had spoken in the tone of talk for talk’s sake, and yet with an +obscure truth lurking in the loose folds; a circumstance presently not +without its effect on his young friend. Little Bilham’s eyes rested on +him a moment with some intensity; then suddenly, as if everything had +cleared up, he gave a happy laugh. It seemed to say that if pretending, +or even trying, or still even hoping, to be able to care for Mamie +would be of use, he was all there for the job. “I’ll do anything in the +world for you!” + +“Well,” Strether smiled, “anything in the world is all I want. I don’t +know anything that pleased me in her more,” he went on, “than the way +that, on my finding her up there all alone, coming on her unawares and +feeling greatly for her being so out of it, she knocked down my tall +house of cards with her instant and cheerful allusion to the next young +man. It was somehow so the note I needed—her staying at home to receive +him.” + +“It was Chad of course,” said little Bilham, “who asked the next young +man—I like your name for me!—to call.” + +“So I supposed—all of which, thank God, is in our innocent and natural +manners. But do you know,” Strether asked, “if Chad knows—?” And then +as this interlocutor seemed at a loss: “Why where she has come out.” + +Little Bilham, at this, met his face with a conscious look—it was as +if, more than anything yet, the allusion had penetrated. “Do you know +yourself?” + +Strether lightly shook his head. “There I stop. Oh, odd as it may +appear to you, there _are_ things I don’t know. I only got the sense +from her of something very sharp, and yet very deep down, that she was +keeping all to herself. That is I had begun with the belief that she +_had_ kept it to herself; but face to face with her there I soon made +out that there was a person with whom she would have shared it. I had +thought she possibly might with _me_—but I saw then that I was only +half in her confidence. When, turning to me to greet me—for she was on +the balcony and I had come in without her knowing it—she showed me she +had been expecting _you_ and was proportionately disappointed, I got +hold of the tail of my conviction. Half an hour later I was in +possession of all the rest of it. You know what has happened.” He +looked at his young friend hard—then he felt sure. “For all you say, +you’re up to your eyes. So there you are.” + +Little Bilham after an instant pulled half round. “I assure you she +hasn’t told me anything.” + +“Of course she hasn’t. For what do you suggest that I suppose her to +take you? But you’ve been with her every day, you’ve seen her freely, +you’ve liked her greatly—I stick to that—and you’ve made your profit of +it. You know what she has been through as well as you know that she has +dined here to-night—which must have put her, by the way, through a good +deal more.” + +The young man faced this blast; after which he pulled round the rest of +the way. “I haven’t in the least said she hasn’t been nice to me. But +she’s proud.” + +“And quite properly. But not too proud for that.” + +“It’s just her pride that has made her. Chad,” little Bilham loyally +went on, “has really been as kind to her as possible. It’s awkward for +a man when a girl’s in love with him.” + +“Ah but she isn’t—now.” + +Little Bilham sat staring before him; then he sprang up as if his +friend’s penetration, recurrent and insistent, made him really after +all too nervous. “No—she isn’t now. It isn’t in the least,” he went on, +“Chad’s fault. He’s really all right. I mean he would have been +willing. But she came over with ideas. Those she had got at home. They +had been her motive and support in joining her brother and his wife. +She was to _save_ our friend.” + +“Ah like me, poor thing?” Strether also got to his feet. + +“Exactly—she had a bad moment. It was very soon distinct to her, to +pull her up, to let her down, that, alas, he was, he _is_, saved. +There’s nothing left for her to do.” + +“Not even to love him?” + +“She would have loved him better as she originally believed him.” + +Strether wondered. “Of course one asks one’s self what notion a little +girl forms, where a young man’s in question, of such a history and such +a state.” + +“Well, this little girl saw them, no doubt, as obscure, but she saw +them practically as wrong. The wrong for her _was_ the obscure. Chad +turns out at any rate right and good and disconcerting, while what she +was all prepared for, primed and girded and wound up for, was to deal +with him as the general opposite.” + +“Yet wasn’t her whole point”—Strether weighed it—“that he was to be, +that he _could_ be, made better, redeemed?” + +Little Bilham fixed it all a moment, and then with a small headshake +that diffused a tenderness: “She’s too late. Too late for the miracle.” + +“Yes”—his companion saw enough. “Still, if the worst fault of his +condition is that it may be all there for her to profit by—?” + +“Oh she doesn’t want to ‘profit,’ in that flat way. She doesn’t want to +profit by another woman’s work—she wants the miracle to have been her +own miracle. _That’s_ what she’s too late for.” + +Strether quite felt how it all fitted, yet there seemed one loose +piece. “I’m bound to say, you know, that she strikes one, on these +lines, as fastidious—what you call here _difficile_.” + +Little Bilham tossed up his chin. “Of course she’s _difficile_—on any +lines! What else in the world _are_ our Mamies—the real, the right +ones?” + +“I see, I see,” our friend repeated, charmed by the responsive wisdom +he had ended by so richly extracting. “Mamie is one of the real and the +right.” + +“The very thing itself.” + +“And what it comes to then,” Strether went on, “is that poor awful Chad +is simply too good for her.” + +“Ah too good was what he was after all to be; but it was she herself, +and she herself only, who was to have made him so.” + +It hung beautifully together, but with still a loose end. “Wouldn’t he +do for her even if he should after all break—” + +“With his actual influence?” Oh little Bilham had for this enquiry the +sharpest of all his controls. “How can he ‘do’—on any terms +whatever—when he’s flagrantly spoiled?” + +Strether could only meet the question with his passive, his receptive +pleasure. “Well, thank goodness, _you’re_ not! _You_ remain for her to +save, and I come back, on so beautiful and full a demonstration, to my +contention of just now—that of your showing distinct signs of her +having already begun.” + +The most he could further say to himself—as his young friend turned +away—was that the charge encountered for the moment no renewed denial. +Little Bilham, taking his course back to the music, only shook his +good-natured ears an instant, in the manner of a terrier who has got +wet; while Strether relapsed into the sense—which had for him in these +days most of comfort—that he was free to believe in anything that from +hour to hour kept him going. He had positively motions and flutters of +this conscious hour-to-hour kind, temporary surrenders to irony, to +fancy, frequent instinctive snatches at the growing rose of +observation, constantly stronger for him, as he felt, in scent and +colour, and in which he could bury his nose even to wantonness. This +last resource was offered him, for that matter, in the very form of his +next clear perception—the vision of a prompt meeting, in the doorway of +the room, between little Bilham and brilliant Miss Barrace, who was +entering as Bilham withdrew. She had apparently put him a question, to +which he had replied by turning to indicate his late interlocutor; +toward whom, after an interrogation further aided by a resort to that +optical machinery which seemed, like her other ornaments, curious and +archaic, the genial lady, suggesting more than ever for her fellow +guest the old French print, the historic portrait, directed herself +with an intention that Strether instantly met. He knew in advance the +first note she would sound, and took in as she approached all her need +of sounding it. Nothing yet had been so “wonderful” between them as the +present occasion; and it was her special sense of this quality in +occasions that she was there, as she was in most places, to feed. That +sense had already been so well fed by the situation about them that she +had quitted the other room, forsaken the music, dropped out of the +play, abandoned, in a word, the stage itself, that she might stand a +minute behind the scenes with Strether and so perhaps figure as one of +the famous augurs replying, behind the oracle, to the wink of the +other. Seated near him presently where little Bilham had sat, she +replied in truth to many things; beginning as soon as he had said to +her—what he hoped he said without fatuity—“All you ladies are +extraordinarily kind to me.” + +She played her long handle, which shifted her observation; she saw in +an instant all the absences that left them free. “How can we be +anything else? But isn’t that exactly your plight? ‘We ladies’—oh we’re +nice, and you must be having enough of us! As one of us, you know, I +don’t pretend I’m crazy about us. But Miss Gostrey at least to-night +has left you alone, hasn’t she?” With which she again looked about as +if Maria might still lurk. + +“Oh yes,” said Strether; “she’s only sitting up for me at home.” And +then as this elicited from his companion her gay “Oh, oh, oh!” he +explained that he meant sitting up in suspense and prayer. “We thought +it on the whole better she shouldn’t be present; and either way of +course it’s a terrible worry for her.” He abounded in the sense of his +appeal to the ladies, and they might take their choice of his doing so +from humility or from pride. “Yet she inclines to believe I shall come +out.” + +“Oh I incline to believe too you’ll come out!”—Miss Barrace, with her +laugh, was not to be behind. “Only the question’s about _where_, isn’t +it? However,” she happily continued, “if it’s anywhere at all it must +be very far on, mustn’t it? To do us justice, I think, you know,” she +laughed, “we do, among us all, want you rather far on. Yes, yes,” she +repeated in her quick droll way; “we want you very, _very_ far on!” +After which she wished to know why he had thought it better Maria +shouldn’t be present. + +“Oh,” he replied, “it was really her own idea. I should have wished it. +But she dreads responsibility.” + +“And isn’t that a new thing for her?” + +“To dread it? No doubt—no doubt. But her nerve has given way.” + +Miss Barrace looked at him a moment. “She has too much at stake.” Then +less gravely: “Mine, luckily for me, holds out.” + +“Luckily for me too”—Strether came back to that. “My own isn’t so firm, +_my_ appetite for responsibility isn’t so sharp, as that I haven’t felt +the very principle of this occasion to be ‘the more the merrier.’ If we +_are_ so merry it’s because Chad has understood so well.” + +“He has understood amazingly,” said Miss Barrace. + +“It’s wonderful—Strether anticipated for her. + +“It’s wonderful!” she, to meet it, intensified; so that, face to face +over it, they largely and recklessly laughed. But she presently added: +“Oh I see the principle. If one didn’t one would be lost. But when once +one has got hold of it—” + +“It’s as simple as twice two! From the moment he had to do something—” + +“A crowd”—she took him straight up—“was the only thing? Rather, rather: +a rumpus of sound,” she laughed, “or nothing. Mrs. Pocock’s built in, +or built out—whichever you call it; she’s packed so tight she can’t +move. She’s in splendid isolation”—Miss Barrace embroidered the theme. + +Strether followed, but scrupulous of justice. “Yet with every one in +the place successively introduced to her.” + +“Wonderfully—but just so that it does build her out. She’s bricked up, +she’s buried alive!” + +Strether seemed for a moment to look at it; but it brought him to a +sigh. “Oh but she’s not dead! It will take more than this to kill her.” + +His companion had a pause that might have been for pity. “No, I can’t +pretend I think she’s finished—or that it’s for more than to-night.” +She remained pensive as if with the same compunction. “It’s only up to +her chin.” Then again for the fun of it: “She can breathe.” + +“She can breathe!”—he echoed it in the same spirit. “And do you know,” +he went on, “what’s really all this time happening to me?—through the +beauty of music, the gaiety of voices, the uproar in short of our revel +and the felicity of your wit? The sound of Mrs. Pocock’s respiration +drowns for me, I assure you, every other. It’s literally all I hear.” + +She focussed him with her clink of chains. “Well—!” she breathed ever +so kindly. + +“Well, what?” + +“She _is_ free from her chin up,” she mused; “and that _will_ be enough +for her.” + +“It will be enough for me!” Strether ruefully laughed. “Waymarsh has +really,” he then asked, “brought her to see you?” + +“Yes—but that’s the worst of it. I could do you no good. And yet I +tried hard.” + +Strether wondered. “And how did you try?” + +“Why I didn’t speak of you.” + +“I see. That was better.” + +“Then what would have been worse? For speaking or silent,” she lightly +wailed, “I somehow ‘compromise.’ And it has never been any one but +you.” + +“That shows”—he was magnanimous—“that it’s something not in you, but in +one’s self. It’s _my_ fault.” + +She was silent a little. “No, it’s Mr. Waymarsh’s. It’s the fault of +his having brought her.” + +“Ah then,” said Strether good-naturedly, “why _did_ he bring her?” + +“He couldn’t afford not to.” + +“Oh you were a trophy—one of the spoils of conquest? But why in that +case, since you do ‘compromise’—” + +“Don’t I compromise _him_ as well? I do compromise him as well,” Miss +Barrace smiled. “I compromise him as hard as I can. But for Mr. +Waymarsh it isn’t fatal. It’s—so far as his wonderful relation with +Mrs. Pocock is concerned—favourable.” And then, as he still seemed +slightly at sea: “The man who had succeeded with _me_, don’t you see? +For her to get him from me was such an added incentive.” + +Strether saw, but as if his path was still strewn with surprises. “It’s +‘from’ you then that she has got him?” + +She was amused at his momentary muddle. “You can fancy my fight! She +believes in her triumph. I think it has been part of her joy. + +“Oh her joy!” Strether sceptically murmured. + +“Well, she thinks she has had her own way. And what’s to-night for her +but a kind of apotheosis? Her frock’s really good.” + +“Good enough to go to heaven in? For after a real apotheosis,” Strether +went on, “there’s nothing _but_ heaven. For Sarah there’s only +to-morrow.” + +“And you mean that she won’t find to-morrow heavenly?” + +“Well, I mean that I somehow feel to-night—on her behalf—too good to be +true. She has had her cake; that is she’s in the act now of having it, +of swallowing the largest and sweetest piece. There won’t be another +left for her. Certainly _I_ haven’t one. It can only, at the best, be +Chad.” He continued to make it out as for their common entertainment. +“He may have one, as it were, up his sleeve; yet it’s borne in upon me +that if he had—” + +“He wouldn’t”—she quite understood—“have taken all _this_ trouble? I +dare say not, and, if I may be quite free and dreadful, I very much +hope he won’t take any more. Of course I won’t pretend now,” she added, +“not to know what it’s a question of.” + +“Oh every one must know now,” poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; “and +it’s strange enough and funny enough that one should feel everybody +here at this very moment to be knowing and watching and waiting.” + +“Yes—isn’t it indeed funny?” Miss Barrace quite rose to it. “That’s the +way we _are_ in Paris.” She was always pleased with a new contribution +to that queerness. “It’s wonderful! But, you know,” she declared, “it +all depends on you. I don’t want to turn the knife in your vitals, but +that’s naturally what you just now meant by our all being on top of +you. We know you as the hero of the drama, and we’re gathered to see +what you’ll do.” + +Strether looked at her a moment with a light perhaps slightly obscured. +“I think that must be why the hero has taken refuge in this corner. +He’s scared at his heroism—he shrinks from his part.” + +“Ah but we nevertheless believe he’ll play it. That’s why,” Miss +Barrace kindly went on, “we take such an interest in you. We feel +you’ll come up to the scratch.” And then as he seemed perhaps not quite +to take fire: “Don’t let him do it.” + +“Don’t let Chad go?” + +“Yes, keep hold of him. With all this”—and she indicated the general +tribute—“he has done enough. We love him here—he’s charming.” + +“It’s beautiful,” said Strether, “the way you all can simplify when you +will.” + +But she gave it to him back. “It’s nothing to the way _you_ will when +you must.” + +He winced at it as at the very voice of prophecy, and it kept him a +moment quiet. He detained her, however, on her appearing about to leave +him alone in the rather cold clearance their talk had made. “There +positively isn’t a sign of a hero to-night; the hero’s dodging and +shirking, the hero’s ashamed. Therefore, you know, I think, what you +must all _really_ be occupied with is the heroine.” + +Miss Barrace took a minute. “The heroine?” + +“The heroine. I’ve treated her,” said Strether, “not a bit like a hero. +Oh,” he sighed, “I don’t do it well!” + +She eased him off. “You do it as you can.” And then after another +hesitation: “I think she’s satisfied.” + +But he remained compunctious. “I haven’t been near her. I haven’t +looked at her.” + +“Ah then you’ve lost a good deal!” + +He showed he knew it. “She’s more wonderful than ever?” + +“Than ever. With Mr. Pocock.” + +Strether wondered. “Madame de Vionnet—with Jim?” + +“Madame de Vionnet—with ‘Jim.’” Miss Barrace was historic. + +“And what’s she doing with him?” + +“Ah you must ask _him!_” + +Strether’s face lighted again at the prospect. “It _will_ be amusing to +do so.” Yet he continued to wonder. “But she must have some idea.” + +“Of course she has—she has twenty ideas. She has in the first place,” +said Miss Barrace, swinging a little her tortoise-shell, “that of doing +her part. Her part is to help _you_.” + +It came out as nothing had come yet; links were missing and connexions +unnamed, but it was suddenly as if they were at the heart of their +subject. “Yes; how much more she does it,” Strether gravely reflected, +“than I help _her!_” It all came over him as with the near presence of +the beauty, the grace, the intense, dissimulated spirit with which he +had, as he said, been putting off contact. “_She_ has courage.” + +“Ah she has courage!” Miss Barrace quite agreed; and it was as if for a +moment they saw the quantity in each other’s face. + +But indeed the whole thing was present. “How much she must care!” + +“Ah there it is. She does care. But it isn’t, is it,” Miss Barrace +considerately added, “as if you had ever had any doubt of that?” + +Strether seemed suddenly to like to feel that he really never had. “Why +of course it’s the whole point.” + +“Voilà!” Miss Barrace smiled. + +“It’s why one came out,” Strether went on. “And it’s why one has stayed +so long. And it’s also”—he abounded—“why one’s going home. It’s why, +it’s why—” + +“It’s why everything!” she concurred. “It’s why she might be +to-night—for all she looks and shows, and for all your friend ‘Jim’ +does—about twenty years old. That’s another of her ideas; to be for +him, and to be quite easily and charmingly, as young as a little girl.” + +Strether assisted at his distance. “‘For him’? For Chad—?” + +“For Chad, in a manner, naturally, always. But in particular to-night +for Mr. Pocock.” And then as her friend still stared: “Yes, it _is_ of +a bravery! But that’s what she has: her high sense of duty.” It was +more than sufficiently before them. “When Mr. Newsome has his hands so +embarrassed with his sister—” + +“It’s quite the least”—Strether filled it out—“that she should take his +sister’s husband? Certainly—quite the least. So she has taken him.” + +“She has taken him.” It was all Miss Barrace had meant. + +Still it remained enough. “It must be funny.” + +“Oh it _is_ funny.” That of course essentially went with it. + +But it brought them back. “How indeed then she must care!” In answer to +which Strether’s entertainer dropped a comprehensive “Ah!” expressive +perhaps of some impatience for the time he took to get used to it. She +herself had got used to it long before. + + + II + +When one morning within the week he perceived the whole thing to be +really at last upon him Strether’s immediate feeling was all relief. He +had known this morning that something was about to happen—known it, in +a moment, by Waymarsh’s manner when Waymarsh appeared before him during +his brief consumption of coffee and a roll in the small slippery +_salle-à-manger_ so associated with rich rumination. Strether had taken +there of late various lonely and absent-minded meals; he communed +there, even at the end of June, with a suspected chill, the air of old +shivers mixed with old savours, the air in which so many of his +impressions had perversely matured; the place meanwhile renewing its +message to him by the very circumstance of his single state. He now sat +there, for the most part, to sigh softly, while he vaguely tilted his +carafe, over the vision of how much better Waymarsh was occupied. That +was really his success by the common measure—to have led this companion +so on and on. He remembered how at first there had been scarce a +squatting-place he could beguile him into passing; the actual outcome +of which at last was that there was scarce one that could arrest him in +his rush. His rush—as Strether vividly and amusedly figured +it—continued to be all with Sarah, and contained perhaps moreover the +word of the whole enigma, whipping up in its fine full-flavoured froth +the very principle, for good or for ill, of his own, of Strether’s +destiny. It might after all, to the end, only be that they had united +to save him, and indeed, so far as Waymarsh was concerned, that _had_ +to be the spring of action. Strether was glad at all events, in +connexion with the case, that the saving he required was not more +scant; so constituted a luxury was it in certain lights just to lurk +there out of the full glare. He had moments of quite seriously +wondering whether Waymarsh wouldn’t in fact, thanks to old friendship +and a conceivable indulgence, make about as good terms for him as he +might make for himself. They wouldn’t be the same terms of course; but +they might have the advantage that he himself probably should be able +to make none at all. + +He was never in the morning very late, but Waymarsh had already been +out, and, after a peep into the dim refectory, he presented himself +with much less than usual of his large looseness. He had made sure, +through the expanse of glass exposed to the court, that they would be +alone; and there was now in fact that about him that pretty well took +up the room. He was dressed in the garments of summer; and save that +his white waistcoat was redundant and bulging these things favoured, +they determined, his expression. He wore a straw hat such as his friend +hadn’t yet seen in Paris, and he showed a buttonhole freshly adorned +with a magnificent rose. Strether read on the instant his story—how, +astir for the previous hour, the sprinkled newness of the day, so +pleasant at that season in Paris, he was fairly panting with the pulse +of adventure and had been with Mrs. Pocock, unmistakeably, to the +Marché aux Fleurs. Strether really knew in this vision of him a joy +that was akin to envy; so reversed as he stood there did their old +positions seem; so comparatively doleful now showed, by the sharp turn +of the wheel, the posture of the pilgrim from Woollett. He wondered, +this pilgrim, if he had originally looked to Waymarsh so brave and +well, so remarkably launched, as it was at present the latter’s +privilege to appear. He recalled that his friend had remarked to him +even at Chester that his aspect belied his plea of prostration; but +there certainly couldn’t have been, for an issue, an aspect less +concerned than Waymarsh’s with the menace of decay. Strether had at any +rate never resembled a Southern planter of the great days—which was the +image picturesquely suggested by the happy relation between the +fuliginous face and the wide panama of his visitor. This type, it +further amused him to guess, had been, on Waymarsh’s part, the object +of Sarah’s care; he was convinced that her taste had not been a +stranger to the conception and purchase of the hat, any more than her +fine fingers had been guiltless of the bestowal of the rose. It came to +him in the current of thought, as things so oddly did come, that _he_ +had never risen with the lark to attend a brilliant woman to the Marché +aux Fleurs; this could be fastened on him in connexion neither with +Miss Gostrey nor with Madame de Vionnet; the practice of getting up +early for adventures could indeed in no manner be fastened on him. It +came to him in fact that just here was his usual case: he was for ever +missing things through his general genius for missing them, while +others were for ever picking them up through a contrary bent. And it +was others who looked abstemious and he who looked greedy; it was he +somehow who finally paid, and it was others who mainly partook. Yes, he +should go to the scaffold yet for he wouldn’t know quite whom. He +almost, for that matter, felt on the scaffold now and really quite +enjoying it. It worked out as _because_ he was anxious there—it worked +out as for this reason that Waymarsh was so blooming. It was _his_ trip +for health, for a change, that proved the success—which was just what +Strether, planning and exerting himself, had desired it should be. That +truth already sat full-blown on his companion’s lips; benevolence +breathed from them as with the warmth of active exercise, and also a +little as with the bustle of haste. + +“Mrs. Pocock, whom I left a quarter of an hour ago at her hotel, has +asked me to mention to you that she would like to find you at home here +in about another hour. She wants to see you; she has something to +say—or considers, I believe, that you may have: so that I asked her +myself why she shouldn’t come right round. She hasn’t _been_ round +yet—to see our place; and I took upon myself to say that I was sure +you’d be glad to have her. The thing’s therefore, you see, to keep +right here till she comes.” + +The announcement was sociably, even though, after Waymarsh’s wont, +somewhat solemnly made; but Strether quickly felt other things in it +than these light features. It was the first approach, from that +quarter, to admitted consciousness; it quickened his pulse; it simply +meant at last that he should have but himself to thank if he didn’t +know where he was. He had finished his breakfast; he pushed it away and +was on his feet. There were plenty of elements of surprise, but only +one of doubt. “The thing’s for _you_ to keep here too?” Waymarsh had +been slightly ambiguous. + +He wasn’t ambiguous, however, after this enquiry; and Strether’s +understanding had probably never before opened so wide and effective a +mouth as it was to open during the next five minutes. It was no part of +his friend’s wish, as appeared, to help to receive Mrs. Pocock; he +quite understood the spirit in which she was to present herself, but +his connexion with her visit was limited to his having—well, as he +might say—perhaps a little promoted it. He had thought, and had let her +know it, that Strether possibly would think she might have been round +before. At any rate, as turned out, she had been wanting herself, quite +a while, to come. “I told her,” said Waymarsh, “that it would have been +a bright idea if she had only carried it out before.” + +Strether pronounced it so bright as to be almost dazzling. “But why +_hasn’t_ she carried it out before? She has seen me every day—she had +only to name her hour. I’ve been waiting and waiting.” + +“Well, I told her you had. And she has been waiting too.” It was, in +the oddest way in the world, on the showing of this tone, a genial new +pressing coaxing Waymarsh; a Waymarsh conscious with a different +consciousness from any he had yet betrayed, and actually rendered by it +almost insinuating. He lacked only time for full persuasion, and +Strether was to see in a moment why. Meantime, however, our friend +perceived, he was announcing a step of some magnanimity on Mrs. +Pocock’s part, so that he could deprecate a sharp question. It was his +own high purpose in fact to have smoothed sharp questions to rest. He +looked his old comrade very straight in the eyes, and he had never +conveyed to him in so mute a manner so much kind confidence and so much +good advice. Everything that was between them was again in his face, +but matured and shelved and finally disposed of. “At any rate,” he +added, “she’s coming now.” + +Considering how many pieces had to fit themselves, it all fell, in +Strether’s brain, into a close rapid order. He saw on the spot what had +happened, and what probably would yet; and it was all funny enough. It +was perhaps just this freedom of appreciation that wound him up to his +flare of high spirits. “What is she coming _for?_—to kill me?” + +“She’s coming to be very _very_ kind to you, and you must let me say +that I greatly hope you’ll not be less so to herself.” + +This was spoken by Waymarsh with much gravity of admonition, and as +Strether stood there he knew he had but to make a movement to take the +attitude of a man gracefully receiving a present. The present was that +of the opportunity dear old Waymarsh had flattered himself he had +divined in him the slight soreness of not having yet thoroughly +enjoyed; so he had brought it to him thus, as on a little silver +breakfast-tray, familiarly though delicately—without oppressive pomp; +and he was to bend and smile and acknowledge, was to take and use and +be grateful. He was not—that was the beauty of it—to be asked to +deflect too much from his dignity. No wonder the old boy bloomed in +this bland air of his own distillation. Strether felt for a moment as +if Sarah were actually walking up and down outside. Wasn’t she hanging +about the _porte-cochère_ while her friend thus summarily opened a way? +Strether would meet her but to take it, and everything would be for the +best in the best of possible worlds. He had never so much known what +any one meant as, in the light of this demonstration, he knew what Mrs. +Newsome did. It had reached Waymarsh from Sarah, but it had reached +Sarah from her mother, and there was no break in the chain by which it +reached _him_. “Has anything particular happened,” he asked after a +minute—“so suddenly to determine her? Has she heard anything unexpected +from home?” + +Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him, looked at him harder than ever. +“‘Unexpected’?” He had a brief hesitation; then, however, he was firm. +“We’re leaving Paris.” + +“Leaving? That _is_ sudden.” + +Waymarsh showed a different opinion. “Less so than it may seem. The +purpose of Mrs. Pocock’s visit is to explain to you in fact that it’s +_not_.” + +Strether didn’t at all know if he had really an advantage—anything that +would practically count as one; but he enjoyed for the moment—as for +the first time in his life—the sense of so carrying it off. He +wondered—it was amusing—if he felt as the impudent feel. “I shall take +great pleasure, I assure you, in any explanation. I shall be delighted +to receive Sarah.” + +The sombre glow just darkened in his comrade’s eyes; but he was struck +with the way it died out again. It was too mixed with another +consciousness—it was too smothered, as might be said, in flowers. He +really for the time regretted it—poor dear old sombre glow! Something +straight and simple, something heavy and empty, had been eclipsed in +its company; something by which he had best known his friend. Waymarsh +wouldn’t _be_ his friend, somehow, without the occasional ornament of +the sacred rage, and the right to the sacred rage—inestimably precious +for Strether’s charity—he also seemed in a manner, and at Mrs. Pocock’s +elbow, to have forfeited. Strether remembered the occasion early in +their stay when on that very spot he had come out with his earnest, his +ominous “Quit it!”—and, so remembering, felt it hang by a hair that he +didn’t himself now utter the same note. Waymarsh was having a good +time—this was the truth that was embarrassing for him, and he was +having it then and there, he was having it in Europe, he was having it +under the very protection of circumstances of which he didn’t in the +least approve; all of which placed him in a false position, with no +issue possible—none at least by the grand manner. It was practically in +the manner of any one—it was all but in poor Strether’s own—that +instead of taking anything up he merely made the most of having to be +himself explanatory. “I’m not leaving for the United States direct. Mr. +and Mrs. Pocock and Miss Mamie are thinking of a little trip before +their own return, and we’ve been talking for some days past of our +joining forces. We’ve settled it that we do join and that we sail +together the end of next month. But we start to-morrow for Switzerland. +Mrs. Pocock wants some scenery. She hasn’t had much yet.” + +He was brave in his way too, keeping nothing back, confessing all there +was, and only leaving Strether to make certain connexions. “Is what +Mrs. Newsome had cabled her daughter an injunction to break off short?” + +The grand manner indeed at this just raised its head a little. “I know +nothing about Mrs. Newsome’s cables.” + +Their eyes met on it with some intensity—during the few seconds of +which something happened quite out of proportion to the time. It +happened that Strether, looking thus at his friend, didn’t take his +answer for truth—and that something more again occurred in consequence +of _that_. Yes—Waymarsh just _did_ know about Mrs. Newsome’s cables: to +what other end than that had they dined together at Bignon’s? Strether +almost felt for the instant that it was to Mrs. Newsome herself the +dinner had been given; and, for that matter, quite felt how she must +have known about it and, as he might think, protected and consecrated +it. He had a quick blurred view of daily cables, questions, answers, +signals: clear enough was his vision of the expense that, when so wound +up, the lady at home was prepared to incur. Vivid not less was his +memory of what, during his long observation of her, some of her +attainments of that high pitch had cost her. Distinctly she was at the +highest now, and Waymarsh, who imagined himself an independent +performer, was really, forcing his fine old natural voice, an +overstrained accompanist. The whole reference of his errand seemed to +mark her for Strether as by this time consentingly familiar to him, and +nothing yet had so despoiled her of a special shade of consideration. +“You don’t know,” he asked, “whether Sarah has been directed from home +to try me on the matter of my also going to Switzerland?” + +“I know,” said Waymarsh as manfully as possible, “nothing whatever +about her private affairs; though I believe her to be acting in +conformity with things that have my highest respect.” It was as manful +as possible, but it was still the false note—as it had to be to convey +so sorry a statement. He knew everything, Strether more and more felt, +that he thus disclaimed, and his little punishment was just in this +doom to a second fib. What falser position—given the man—could the most +vindictive mind impose? He ended by squeezing through a passage in +which three months before he would certainly have stuck fast. “Mrs +Pocock will probably be ready herself to answer any enquiry you may put +to her. But,” he continued, “_but_—!” He faltered on it. + +“But what? Don’t put her too many?” + +Waymarsh looked large, but the harm was done; he couldn’t, do what he +would, help looking rosy. “Don’t do anything you’ll be sorry for.” + +It was an attenuation, Strether guessed, of something else that had +been on his lips; it was a sudden drop to directness, and was thereby +the voice of sincerity. He had fallen to the supplicating note, and +that immediately, for our friend, made a difference and reinstated him. +They were in communication as they had been, that first morning, in +Sarah’s salon and in her presence and Madame de Vionnet’s; and the same +recognition of a great good will was again, after all, possible. Only +the amount of response Waymarsh had then taken for granted was doubled, +decupled now. This came out when he presently said: “Of course I +needn’t assure you _I_ hope you’ll come with us.” Then it was that his +implications and expectations loomed up for Strether as almost +pathetically gross. + +The latter patted his shoulder while he thanked him, giving the go-by +to the question of joining the Pococks; he expressed the joy he felt at +seeing him go forth again so brave and free, and he in fact almost took +leave of him on the spot. “I shall see you again of course before you +go; but I’m meanwhile much obliged to you for arranging so conveniently +for what you’ve told me. I shall walk up and down in the court +there—dear little old court which we’ve each bepaced so, this last +couple of months, to the tune of our flights and our drops, our +hesitations and our plunges: I shall hang about there, all impatience +and excitement, please let Sarah know, till she graciously presents +herself. Leave me with her without fear,” he laughed; “I assure you I +shan’t hurt her. I don’t think either she’ll hurt _me_: I’m in a +situation in which damage was some time ago discounted. Besides, _that_ +isn’t what worries you—but don’t, don’t explain! We’re all right as we +are: which was the degree of success our adventure was pledged to for +each of us. We weren’t, it seemed, all right as we were before; and +we’ve got over the ground, all things considered, quickly. I hope +you’ll have a lovely time in the Alps.” + +Waymarsh fairly looked up at him as from the foot of them. “I don’t +know as I _ought_ really to go.” + +It was the conscience of Milrose in the very voice of Milrose, but, oh +it was feeble and flat! Strether suddenly felt quite ashamed for him; +he breathed a greater boldness. “_Let_ yourself, on the contrary, go—in +all agreeable directions. These are precious hours—at our age they +mayn’t recur. Don’t have it to say to yourself at Milrose, next winter, +that you hadn’t courage for them.” And then as his comrade queerly +stared: “Live up to Mrs. Pocock.” + +“Live up to her?” + +“You’re a great help to her.” + +Waymarsh looked at it as at one of the uncomfortable things that were +certainly true and that it was yet ironical to say. “It’s more then +than you are.” + +“That’s exactly your own chance and advantage. Besides,” said Strether, +“I do in my way contribute. I know what I’m about.” + +Waymarsh had kept on his great panama, and, as he now stood nearer the +door, his last look beneath the shade of it had turned again to +darkness and warning. “So do I! See here, Strether.” + +“I know what you’re going to say. ‘Quit this’?” + +“Quit this!” But it lacked its old intensity; nothing of it remained; +it went out of the room with him. + + + III + +Almost the first thing, strangely enough, that, about an hour later, +Strether found himself doing in Sarah’s presence was to remark +articulately on this failure, in their friend, of what had been +superficially his great distinction. It was as if—he alluded of course +to the grand manner—the dear man had sacrificed it to some other +advantage; which would be of course only for himself to measure. It +might be simply that he was physically so much more sound than on his +first coming out; this was all prosaic, comparatively cheerful and +vulgar. And fortunately, if one came to that, his improvement in health +was really itself grander than any manner it could be conceived as +having cost him. “You yourself alone, dear Sarah”—Strether took the +plunge—“have done him, it strikes me, in these three weeks, as much +good as all the rest of his time together.” + +It was a plunge because somehow the range of reference was, in the +conditions, “funny,” and made funnier still by Sarah’s attitude, by the +turn the occasion had, with her appearance, so sensibly taken. Her +appearance was really indeed funnier than anything else—the spirit in +which he felt her to be there as soon as she was there, the shade of +obscurity that cleared up for him as soon as he was seated with her in +the small _salon de lecture_ that had, for the most part, in all the +weeks, witnessed the wane of his early vivacity of discussion with +Waymarsh. It was an immense thing, quite a tremendous thing, for her to +have come: this truth opened out to him in spite of his having already +arrived for himself at a fairly vivid view of it. He had done exactly +what he had given Waymarsh his word for—had walked and re-walked the +court while he awaited her advent; acquiring in this exercise an amount +of light that affected him at the time as flooding the scene. She had +decided upon the step in order to give him the benefit of a doubt, in +order to be able to say to her mother that she had, even to abjectness, +smoothed the way for him. The doubt had been as to whether he mightn’t +take her as not having smoothed it—and the admonition had possibly come +from Waymarsh’s more detached spirit. Waymarsh had at any rate, +certainly, thrown his weight into the scale—he had pointed to the +importance of depriving their friend of a grievance. She had done +justice to the plea, and it was to set herself right with a high ideal +that she actually sat there in her state. Her calculation was sharp in +the immobility with which she held her tall parasol-stick upright and +at arm’s length, quite as if she had struck the place to plant her +flag; in the separate precautions she took not to show as nervous; in +the aggressive repose in which she did quite nothing but wait for him. +Doubt ceased to be possible from the moment he had taken in that she +had arrived with no proposal whatever; that her concern was simply to +show what she had come to receive. She had come to receive his +submission, and Waymarsh was to have made it plain to him that she +would expect nothing less. He saw fifty things, her host, at this +convenient stage; but one of those he most saw was that their anxious +friend hadn’t quite had the hand required of him. Waymarsh _had_, +however, uttered the request that she might find him mild, and while +hanging about the court before her arrival he had turned over with zeal +the different ways in which he could be so. The difficulty was that if +he was mild he wasn’t, for her purpose, conscious. If she wished him +conscious—as everything about her cried aloud that she did—she must +accordingly be at costs to make him so. Conscious he _was_, for +himself—but only of too many things; so she must choose the one she +required. + +Practically, however, it at last got itself named, and when once that +had happened they were quite at the centre of their situation. One +thing had really done as well as another; when Strether had spoken of +Waymarsh’s leaving him, and that had necessarily brought on a reference +to Mrs. Pocock’s similar intention, the jump was but short to supreme +lucidity. Light became indeed after that so intense that Strether would +doubtless have but half made out, in the prodigious glare, by which of +the two the issue had been in fact precipitated. It was, in their +contracted quarters, as much there between them as if it had been +something suddenly spilled with a crash and a splash on the floor. The +form of his submission was to be an engagement to acquit himself within +the twenty-four hours. “He’ll go in a moment if you give him the +word—he assures me on his honour he’ll do that”: this came in its +order, out of its order, in respect to Chad, after the crash had +occurred. It came repeatedly during the time taken by Strether to feel +that he was even more fixed in his rigour than he had supposed—the time +he was not above adding to a little by telling her that such a way of +putting it on her brother’s part left him sufficiently surprised. She +wasn’t at all funny at last—she was really fine; and he felt easily +where she was strong—strong for herself. It hadn’t yet so come home to +him that she was nobly and appointedly officious. She was acting in +interests grander and clearer than that of her poor little personal, +poor little Parisian equilibrium, and all his consciousness of her +mother’s moral pressure profited by this proof of its sustaining force. +She would be held up; she would be strengthened; he needn’t in the +least be anxious for her. What would once more have been distinct to +him had he tried to make it so was that, as Mrs. Newsome was +essentially all moral pressure, the presence of this element was almost +identical with her own presence. It wasn’t perhaps that he felt he was +dealing with her straight, but it was certainly as if she had been +dealing straight with _him_. She was reaching him somehow by the +lengthened arm of the spirit, and he was having to that extent to take +her into account; but he wasn’t reaching her in turn, not making her +take _him_; he was only reaching Sarah, who appeared to take so little +of him. “Something has clearly passed between you and Chad,” he +presently said, “that I think I ought to know something more about. +Does he put it all,” he smiled, “on me?” + +“Did you come out,” she asked, “to put it all on _him?_” + +But he replied to this no further than, after an instant, by saying: +“Oh it’s all right. Chad I mean’s all right in having said to you—well +anything he may have said. I’ll _take_ it all—what he does put on me. +Only I must see him before I see you again.” + +She hesitated, but she brought it out. “Is it absolutely necessary you +should see me again?” + +“Certainly, if I’m to give you any definite word about anything.” + +“Is it your idea then,” she returned, “that I shall keep on meeting you +only to be exposed to fresh humiliation?” + +He fixed her a longer time. “Are your instructions from Mrs. Newsome +that you shall, even at the worst, absolutely and irretrievably break +with me?” + +“My instructions from Mrs. Newsome are, if you please, my affair. You +know perfectly what your own were, and you can judge for yourself of +what it can do for you to have made what you have of them. You can +perfectly see, at any rate, I’ll go so far as to say, that if I wish +not to expose myself I must wish still less to expose _her_.” She had +already said more than she had quite expected; but, though she had also +pulled up, the colour in her face showed him he should from one moment +to the other have it all. He now indeed felt the high importance of his +having it. “What is your conduct,” she broke out as if to explain—“what +is your conduct but an outrage to women like _us?_ I mean your acting +as if there can be a doubt—as between us and such another—of his duty?” + +He thought a moment. It was rather much to deal with at once; not only +the question itself, but the sore abysses it revealed. “Of course +they’re totally different kinds of duty.” + +“And do you pretend that he has any at all—to such another?” + +“Do you mean to Madame de Vionnet?” He uttered the name not to affront +her, but yet again to gain time—time that he needed for taking in +something still other and larger than her demand of a moment before. It +wasn’t at once that he could see all that was in her actual challenge; +but when he did he found himself just checking a low vague sound, a +sound which was perhaps the nearest approach his vocal chords had ever +known to a growl. Everything Mrs. Pocock had failed to give a sign of +recognising in Chad as a particular part of a transformation—everything +that had lent intention to this particular failure—affected him as +gathered into a large loose bundle and thrown, in her words, into his +face. The missile made him to that extent catch his breath; which +however he presently recovered. “Why when a woman’s at once so charming +and so beneficent—” + +“You can sacrifice mothers and sisters to her without a blush and can +make them cross the ocean on purpose to feel the more and take from you +the straighter, _how_ you do it?” + +Yes, she had taken him up as short and as sharply as that, but he tried +not to flounder in her grasp. “I don’t think there’s anything I’ve done +in any such calculated way as you describe. Everything has come as a +sort of indistinguishable part of everything else. Your coming out +belonged closely to my having come before you, and my having come was a +result of our general state of mind. Our general state of mind had +proceeded, on its side, from our queer ignorance, our queer +misconceptions and confusions—from which, since then, an inexorable +tide of light seems to have floated us into our perhaps still queerer +knowledge. Don’t you _like_ your brother as he is,” he went on, “and +haven’t you given your mother an intelligible account of all that that +comes to?” + +It put to her also, doubtless, his own tone, too many things, this at +least would have been the case hadn’t his final challenge directly +helped her. Everything, at the stage they had reached, directly helped +her, because everything betrayed in him such a basis of intention. He +saw—the odd way things came out!—that he would have been held less +monstrous had he only been a little wilder. What exposed him was just +his poor old trick of quiet inwardness, what exposed him was his +_thinking_ such offence. He hadn’t in the least however the desire to +irritate that Sarah imputed to him, and he could only at last +temporise, for the moment, with her indignant view. She was altogether +more inflamed than he had expected, and he would probably understand +this better when he should learn what had occurred for her with Chad. +Till then her view of his particular blackness, her clear surprise at +his not clutching the pole she held out, must pass as extravagant. “I +leave you to flatter yourself,” she returned, “that what you speak of +is what _you’ve_ beautifully done. When a thing has been already +described in such a lovely way—!” But she caught herself up, and her +comment on his description rang out sufficiently loud. “Do you consider +her even an apology for a decent woman?” + +Ah there it was at last! She put the matter more crudely than, for his +own mixed purposes, he had yet had to do; but essentially it was all +one matter. It was so much—so much; and she treated it, poor lady, as +so little. He grew conscious, as he was now apt to do, of a strange +smile, and the next moment he found himself talking like Miss Barrace. +“She has struck me from the first as wonderful. I’ve been thinking too +moreover that, after all, she would probably have represented even for +yourself something rather new and rather good.” + +He was to have given Mrs. Pocock with this, however, but her best +opportunity for a sound of derision. “Rather new? I hope so with all my +heart!” + +“I mean,” he explained, “that she might have affected you by her +exquisite amiability—a real revelation, it has seemed to myself; her +high rarity, her distinction of every sort.” + +He had been, with these words, consciously a little “precious”; but he +had had to be—he couldn’t give her the truth of the case without them; +and it seemed to him moreover now that he didn’t care. He had at all +events not served his cause, for she sprang at its exposed side. “A +‘revelation’—to _me_: I’ve come to such a woman for a revelation? You +talk to me about ‘distinction’—_you_, you who’ve had your +privilege?—when the most distinguished woman we shall either of us have +seen in this world sits there insulted, in her loneliness, by your +incredible comparison!” + +Strether forbore, with an effort, from straying; but he looked all +about him. “Does your mother herself make the point that she sits +insulted?” + +Sarah’s answer came so straight, so “pat,” as might have been said, +that he felt on the instant its origin. “She has confided to my +judgement and my tenderness the expression of her personal sense of +everything, and the assertion of her personal dignity.” + +They were the very words of the lady of Woollett—he would have known +them in a thousand; her parting charge to her child. Mrs. Pocock +accordingly spoke to this extent by book, and the fact immensely moved +him. “If she does really feel as you say it’s of course very very +dreadful. I’ve given sufficient proof, one would have thought,” he +added, “of my deep admiration for Mrs. Newsome.” + +“And pray what proof would one have thought you’d _call_ sufficient? +That of thinking this person here so far superior to her?” + +He wondered again; he waited. “Ah dear Sarah, you must _leave_ me this +person here!” + +In his desire to avoid all vulgar retorts, to show how, even +perversely, he clung to his rag of reason, he had softly almost wailed +this plea. Yet he knew it to be perhaps the most positive declaration +he had ever made in his life, and his visitor’s reception of it +virtually gave it that importance. “That’s exactly what I’m delighted +to do. God knows _we_ don’t want her! You take good care not to meet,” +she observed in a still higher key, “my question about their life. If +you do consider it a thing one can even _speak_ of, I congratulate you +on your taste!” + +The life she alluded to was of course Chad’s and Madame de Vionnet’s, +which she thus bracketed together in a way that made him wince a +little; there being nothing for him but to take home her full +intention. It was none the less his inconsequence that while he had +himself been enjoying for weeks the view of the brilliant woman’s +specific action, he just suffered from any characterisation of it by +other lips. “I think tremendously well of her, at the same time that I +seem to feel her ‘life’ to be really none of my business. It’s my +business, that is, only so far as Chad’s own life is affected by it; +and what has happened, don’t you see? is that Chad’s has been affected +so beautifully. The proof of the pudding’s in the eating”—he tried, +with no great success, to help it out with a touch of pleasantry, while +she let him go on as if to sink and sink. He went on however well +enough, as well as he could do without fresh counsel; he indeed +shouldn’t stand quite firm, he felt, till he should have re-established +his communications with Chad. Still, he could always speak for the +woman he had so definitely promised to “save.” This wasn’t quite for +her the air of salvation; but as that chill fairly deepened what did it +become but a reminder that one might at the worst perish _with_ her? +And it was simple enough—it was rudimentary: not, not to give her away. +“I find in her more merits than you would probably have patience with +my counting over. And do you know,” he enquired, “the effect you +produce on me by alluding to her in such terms? It’s as if you had some +motive in not recognising all she has done for your brother, and so +shut your eyes to each side of the matter, in order, whichever side +comes up, to get rid of the other. I don’t, you must allow me to say, +see how you can with any pretence to candour get rid of the side +nearest you.” + +“Near me—_that_ sort of thing?” And Sarah gave a jerk back of her head +that well might have nullified any active proximity. + +It kept her friend himself at his distance, and he respected for a +moment the interval. Then with a last persuasive effort he bridged it. +“You don’t, on your honour, appreciate Chad’s fortunate development?” + +“Fortunate?” she echoed again. And indeed she was prepared. “I call it +hideous.” + +Her departure had been for some minutes marked as imminent, and she was +already at the door that stood open to the court, from the threshold of +which she delivered herself of this judgement. It rang out so loud as +to produce for the time the hush of everything else. Strether quite, as +an effect of it, breathed less bravely; he could acknowledge it, but +simply enough. “Oh if you think _that_—!” + +“Then all’s at an end? So much the better. I do think that!” She passed +out as she spoke and took her way straight across the court, beyond +which, separated from them by the deep arch of the _porte-cochère_ the +low victoria that had conveyed her from her own hotel was drawn up. She +made for it with decision, and the manner of her break, the sharp shaft +of her rejoinder, had an intensity by which Strether was at first kept +in arrest. She had let fly at him as from a stretched cord, and it took +him a minute to recover from the sense of being pierced. It was not the +penetration of surprise; it was that, much more, of certainty; his case +being put for him as he had as yet only put it to himself. She was away +at any rate; she had distanced him—with rather a grand spring, an +effect of pride and ease, after all; she had got into her carriage +before he could overtake her, and the vehicle was already in motion. He +stopped halfway; he stood there in the court only seeing her go and +noting that she gave him no other look. The way he had put it to +himself was that all quite _might_ be at an end. Each of her movements, +in this resolute rupture, reaffirmed, re-enforced that idea. Sarah +passed out of sight in the sunny street while, planted there in the +centre of the comparatively grey court, he continued merely to look +before him. It probably _was_ all at an end. + + + + +Book Eleventh + + + [Note: In the 1909 New York Edition the following two chapters were + placed in the reverse of the order appearing below. Since 1950, most + scholars have agreed, because of the internal evidence of the two + chapters, that an editorial error caused them to be printed in reverse + order. This Etext, like other editions of the past four decades, + corrects the apparent error.—Richard D. Hathaway, preparer of this + electronic text] + + + I + +He went late that evening to the Boulevard Malesherbes, having his +impression that it would be vain to go early, and having also, more +than once in the course of the day, made enquiries of the concierge. +Chad hadn’t come in and had left no intimation; he had affairs, +apparently, at this juncture—as it occurred to Strether he so well +might have—that kept him long abroad. Our friend asked once for him at +the hotel in the Rue de Rivoli, but the only contribution offered there +was the fact that every one was out. It was with the idea that he would +have to come home to sleep that Strether went up to his rooms, from +which however he was still absent, though, from the balcony, a few +moments later, his visitor heard eleven o’clock strike. Chad’s servant +had by this time answered for his reappearance; he _had_, the visitor +learned, come quickly in to dress for dinner and vanish again. Strether +spent an hour in waiting for him—an hour full of strange suggestions, +persuasions, recognitions; one of those that he was to recall, at the +end of his adventure, as the particular handful that most had counted. +The mellowest lamplight and the easiest chair had been placed at his +disposal by Baptiste, subtlest of servants; the novel half-uncut, the +novel lemon-coloured and tender, with the ivory knife athwart it like +the dagger in a contadina’s hair, had been pushed within the soft +circle—a circle which, for some reason, affected Strether as softer +still after the same Baptiste had remarked that in the absence of a +further need of anything by Monsieur he would betake himself to bed. +The night was hot and heavy and the single lamp sufficient; the great +flare of the lighted city, rising high, spending itself afar, played up +from the Boulevard and, through the vague vista of the successive +rooms, brought objects into view and added to their dignity. Strether +found himself in possession as he never yet had been; he had been there +alone, had turned over books and prints, had invoked, in Chad’s +absence, the spirit of the place, but never at the witching hour and +never with a relish quite so like a pang. + +He spent a long time on the balcony; he hung over it as he had seen +little Bilham hang the day of his first approach, as he had seen Mamie +hang over her own the day little Bilham himself might have seen her +from below; he passed back into the rooms, the three that occupied the +front and that communicated by wide doors; and, while he circulated and +rested, tried to recover the impression that they had made on him three +months before, to catch again the voice in which they had seemed then +to speak to him. That voice, he had to note, failed audibly to sound; +which he took as the proof of all the change in himself. He had heard, +of old, only what he _could_ then hear; what he could do now was to +think of three months ago as a point in the far past. All voices had +grown thicker and meant more things; they crowded on him as he moved +about—it was the way they sounded together that wouldn’t let him be +still. He felt, strangely, as sad as if he had come for some wrong, and +yet as excited as if he had come for some freedom. But the freedom was +what was most in the place and the hour, it was the freedom that most +brought him round again to the youth of his own that he had long ago +missed. He could have explained little enough to-day either why he had +missed it or why, after years and years, he should care that he had; +the main truth of the actual appeal of everything was none the less +that everything represented the substance of his loss put it within +reach, within touch, made it, to a degree it had never been, an affair +of the senses. That was what it became for him at this singular time, +the youth he had long ago missed—a queer concrete presence, full of +mystery, yet full of reality, which he could handle, taste, smell, the +deep breathing of which he could positively hear. It was in the outside +air as well as within; it was in the long watch, from the balcony, in +the summer night, of the wide late life of Paris, the unceasing soft +quick rumble, below, of the little lighted carriages that, in the +press, always suggested the gamblers he had seen of old at Monte Carlo +pushing up to the tables. This image was before him when he at last +became aware that Chad was behind. + +“She tells me you put it all on _me_”—he had arrived after this +promptly enough at that information; which expressed the case however +quite as the young man appeared willing for the moment to leave it. +Other things, with this advantage of their virtually having the night +before them, came up for them, and had, as well, the odd effect of +making the occasion, instead of hurried and feverish, one of the +largest, loosest and easiest to which Strether’s whole adventure was to +have treated him. He had been pursuing Chad from an early hour and had +overtaken him only now; but now the delay was repaired by their being +so exceptionally confronted. They had foregathered enough of course in +all the various times; they had again and again, since that first night +at the theatre, been face to face over their question; but they had +never been so alone together as they were actually alone—their talk +hadn’t yet been so supremely for themselves. And if many things +moreover passed before them, none passed more distinctly for Strether +than that striking truth about Chad of which he had been so often moved +to take note: the truth that everything came happily back with him to +his knowing how to live. It had been seated in his pleased smile—a +smile that pleased exactly in the right degree—as his visitor turned +round, on the balcony, to greet his advent; his visitor in fact felt on +the spot that there was nothing their meeting would so much do as bear +witness to that facility. He surrendered himself accordingly to so +approved a gift; for what was the meaning of the facility but that +others _did_ surrender themselves? He didn’t want, luckily, to prevent +Chad from living; but he was quite aware that even if he had he would +himself have thoroughly gone to pieces. It was in truth essentially by +bringing down his personal life to a function all subsidiary to the +young man’s own that he held together. And the great point, above all, +the sign of how completely Chad possessed the knowledge in question, +was that one thus became, not only with a proper cheerfulness, but with +wild native impulses, the feeder of his stream. Their talk had +accordingly not lasted three minutes without Strether’s feeling basis +enough for the excitement in which he had waited. This overflow fairly +deepened, wastefully abounded, as he observed the smallness of anything +corresponding to it on the part of his friend. That was exactly this +friend’s happy case; he “put out” his excitement, or whatever other +emotion the matter involved, as he put out his washing; than which no +arrangement could make more for domestic order. It was quite for +Strether himself in short to feel a personal analogy with the laundress +bringing home the triumphs of the mangle. + +When he had reported on Sarah’s visit, which he did very fully, Chad +answered his question with perfect candour. “I positively referred her +to you—told her she must absolutely see you. This was last night, and +it all took place in ten minutes. It was our first free talk—really the +first time she had tackled me. She knew I also knew what her line had +been with yourself; knew moreover how little you had been doing to make +anything difficult for her. So I spoke for you frankly—assured her you +were all at her service. I assured her _I_ was too,” the young man +continued; “and I pointed out how she could perfectly, at any time, +have got at me. Her difficulty has been simply her not finding the +moment she fancied.” + +“Her difficulty,” Strether returned, “has been simply that she finds +she’s afraid of you. She’s not afraid of _me_, Sarah, one little scrap; +and it was just because she has seen how I can fidget when I give my +mind to it that she has felt her best chance, rightly enough to be in +making me as uneasy as possible. I think she’s at bottom as pleased to +_have_ you put it on me as you yourself can possibly be to put it.” + +“But what in the world, my dear man,” Chad enquired in objection to +this luminosity, “have I done to make Sally afraid?” + +“You’ve been ‘wonderful, wonderful,’ as we say—we poor people who watch +the play from the pit; and that’s what has, admirably, made her. Made +her all the more effectually that she could see you didn’t set about it +on purpose—I mean set about affecting her as with fear.” + +Chad cast a pleasant backward glance over his possibilities of motive. +“I’ve only wanted to be kind and friendly, to be decent and +attentive—and I still only want to be.” + +Strether smiled at his comfortable clearness. “Well, there can +certainly be no way for it better than by my taking the onus. It +reduces your personal friction and your personal offence to almost +nothing.” + +Ah but Chad, with his completer conception of the friendly, wouldn’t +quite have this! They had remained on the balcony, where, after their +day of great and premature heat, the midnight air was delicious; and +they leaned back in turn against the balustrade, all in harmony with +the chairs and the flower-pots, the cigarettes and the starlight. “The +onus isn’t _really_ yours—after our agreeing so to wait together and +judge together. That was all my answer to Sally,” Chad pursued—“that we +have been, that we are, just judging together.” + +“I’m not afraid of the burden,” Strether explained; “I haven’t come in +the least that you should take it off me. I’ve come very much, it seems +to me, to double up my fore legs in the manner of the camel when he +gets down on his knees to make his back convenient. But I’ve supposed +you all this while to have been doing a lot of special and private +judging—about which I haven’t troubled you; and I’ve only wished to +have your conclusion first from you. I don’t ask more than that; I’m +quite ready to take it as it has come.” + +Chad turned up his face to the sky with a slow puff of his smoke. +“Well, I’ve seen.” + +Strether waited a little. “I’ve left you wholly alone; haven’t, I think +I may say, since the first hour or two—when I merely preached +patience—so much as breathed on you.” + +“Oh you’ve been awfully good!” + +“We’ve both been good then—we’ve played the game. We’ve given them the +most liberal conditions.” + +“Ah,” said Chad, “splendid conditions! It was open to them, open to +them”—he seemed to make it out, as he smoked, with his eyes still on +the stars. He might in quiet sport have been reading their horoscope. +Strether wondered meanwhile what had been open to them, and he finally +let him have it. “It was open to them simply to let me alone; to have +made up their minds, on really seeing me for themselves, that I could +go on well enough as I was.” + +Strether assented to this proposition with full lucidity, his +companion’s plural pronoun, which stood all for Mrs. Newsome and her +daughter, having no ambiguity for him. There was nothing, apparently, +to stand for Mamie and Jim; and this added to our friend’s sense of +Chad’s knowing what he thought. “But they’ve made up their minds to the +opposite—that you _can’t_ go on as you are.” + +“No,” Chad continued in the same way; “they won’t have it for a +minute.” + +Strether on his side also reflectively smoked. It was as if their high +place really represented some moral elevation from which they could +look down on their recent past. “There never was the smallest chance, +do you know, that they _would_ have it for a moment.” + +“Of course not—no real chance. But if they were willing to think there +was—!” + +“They weren’t willing.” Strether had worked it all out. “It wasn’t for +you they came out, but for me. It wasn’t to see for themselves what +you’re doing, but what I’m doing. The first branch of their curiosity +was inevitably destined, under my culpable delay, to give way to the +second; and it’s on the second that, if I may use the expression and +you don’t mind my marking the invidious fact, they’ve been of late +exclusively perched. When Sarah sailed it was me, in other words, they +were after.” + +Chad took it in both with intelligence and with indulgence. “It _is_ +rather a business then—what I’ve let you in for!” + +Strether had again a brief pause; which ended in a reply that seemed to +dispose once for all of this element of compunction. Chad was to treat +it, at any rate, so far as they were again together, as having done so. +“I was ‘in’ when you found me.” + +“Ah but it was you,” the young man laughed, “who found _me_.” + +“I only found you out. It was you who found me in. It was all in the +day’s work for them, at all events, that they should come. And they’ve +greatly enjoyed it,” Strether declared. + +“Well, I’ve tried to make them,” said Chad. + +His companion did himself presently the same justice. “So have I. I +tried even this very morning—while Mrs. Pocock was with me. She enjoys +for instance, almost as much as anything else, not being, as I’ve said, +afraid of me; and I think I gave her help in that.” + +Chad took a deeper interest. “Was she very very nasty?” + +Strether debated. “Well, she was the most important thing—she was +definite. She was—at last—crystalline. And I felt no remorse. I saw +that they must have come.” + +“Oh I wanted to see them for myself; so that if it were only for +_that_—!” Chad’s own remorse was as small. + +This appeared almost all Strether wanted. “Isn’t your having seen them +for yourself then _the_ thing, beyond all others, that has come of +their visit?” + +Chad looked as if he thought it nice of his old friend to put it so. +“Don’t you count it as anything that you’re dished—if you _are_ dished? +Are you, my dear man, dished?” + +It sounded as if he were asking if he had caught cold or hurt his foot, +and Strether for a minute but smoked and smoked. “I want to see her +again. I must see her.” + +“Of course you must.” Then Chad hesitated. “Do you mean—a—Mother +herself?” + +“Oh your mother—that will depend.” + +It was as if Mrs. Newsome had somehow been placed by the words very far +off. Chad however endeavoured in spite of this to reach the place. +“What do you mean it will depend on?” + +Strether, for all answer, gave him a longish look. “I was speaking of +Sarah. I must positively—though she quite cast me off—see _her_ again. +I can’t part with her that way.” + +“Then she was awfully unpleasant?” + +Again Strether exhaled. “She was what she had to be. I mean that from +the moment they’re not delighted they can only be—well what I admit she +was. We gave them,” he went on, “their chance to be delighted, and +they’ve walked up to it, and looked all round it, and not taken it.” + +“You can bring a horse to water—!” Chad suggested. + +“Precisely. And the tune to which this morning Sarah wasn’t +delighted—the tune to which, to adopt your metaphor, she refused to +drink—leaves us on that side nothing more to hope.” + +Chad had a pause, and then as if consolingly: “It was never of course +really the least on the cards that they would be ‘delighted.’” + +“Well, I don’t know, after all,” Strether mused. “I’ve had to come as +far round. However”—he shook it off—“it’s doubtless _my_ performance +that’s absurd.” + +“There are certainly moments,” said Chad, “when you seem to me too good +to be true. Yet if you are true,” he added, “that seems to be all that +need concern me.” + +“I’m true, but I’m incredible. I’m fantastic and ridiculous—I don’t +explain myself even _to_ myself. How can they then,” Strether asked, +“understand me? So I don’t quarrel with them.” + +“I see. They quarrel,” said Chad rather comfortably, “with _us_.” +Strether noted once more the comfort, but his young friend had already +gone on. “I should feel greatly ashamed, all the same, if I didn’t put +it before you again that you ought to think, after all, tremendously +well. I mean before giving up beyond recall—” With which insistence, as +from a certain delicacy, dropped. + +Ah but Strether wanted it. “Say it all, say it all.” + +“Well, at your age, and with what—when all’s said and done—Mother might +do for you and be for you.” + +Chad had said it all, from his natural scruple, only to that extent; so +that Strether after an instant himself took a hand. “My absence of an +assured future. The little I have to show toward the power to take care +of myself. The way, the wonderful way, she would certainly take care of +me. Her fortune, her kindness, and the constant miracle of her having +been disposed to go even so far. Of course, of course”—he summed it up. +“There are those sharp facts.” + +Chad had meanwhile thought of another still. “And don’t you really +care—?” + +His friend slowly turned round to him. “Will you go?” + +“I’ll go if you’ll say you now consider I should. You know,” he went +on, “I was ready six weeks ago.” + +“Ah,” said Strether, “that was when you didn’t know _I_ wasn’t! You’re +ready at present because you do know it.” + +“That may be,” Chad returned; “but all the same I’m sincere. You talk +about taking the whole thing on your shoulders, but in what light do +you regard me that you think me capable of letting you pay?” Strether +patted his arm, as they stood together against the parapet, +reassuringly—seeming to wish to contend that he _had_ the wherewithal; +but it was again round this question of purchase and price that the +young man’s sense of fairness continued to hover. “What it literally +comes to for you, if you’ll pardon my putting it so, is that you give +up money. Possibly a good deal of money.” + +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “if it were only just enough you’d still be +justified in putting it so! But I’ve on my side to remind you too that +_you_ give up money; and more than ‘possibly’—quite certainly, as I +should suppose—a good deal.” + +“True enough; but I’ve got a certain quantity,” Chad returned after a +moment. “Whereas you, my dear man, you—” + +“I can’t be at all said”—Strether took him up—“to have a ‘quantity’ +certain or uncertain? Very true. Still, I shan’t starve.” + +“Oh you mustn’t _starve!_” Chad pacifically emphasised; and so, in the +pleasant conditions, they continued to talk; though there was, for that +matter, a pause in which the younger companion might have been taken as +weighing again the delicacy of his then and there promising the elder +some provision against the possibility just mentioned. This, however, +he presumably thought best not to do, for at the end of another minute +they had moved in quite a different direction. Strether had broken in +by returning to the subject of Chad’s passage with Sarah and enquiring +if they had arrived, in the event, at anything in the nature of a +“scene.” To this Chad replied that they had on the contrary kept +tremendously polite; adding moreover that Sally was after all not the +woman to have made the mistake of not being. “Her hands are a good deal +tied, you see. I got so, from the first,” he sagaciously observed, “the +start of her.” + +“You mean she has taken so much from you?” + +“Well, I couldn’t of course in common decency give less: only she +hadn’t expected, I think, that I’d give her nearly so much. And she +began to take it before she knew it.” + +“And she began to like it,” said Strether, “as soon as she began to +take it!” + +“Yes, she has liked it—also more than she expected.” After which Chad +observed: “But she doesn’t like _me_. In fact she hates me.” + +Strether’s interest grew. “Then why does she want you at home?” + +“Because when you hate you want to triumph, and if she should get me +neatly stuck there she _would_ triumph.” + +Strether followed afresh, but looking as he went. “Certainly—in a +manner. But it would scarce be a triumph worth having if, once +entangled, feeling her dislike and possibly conscious in time of a +certain quantity of your own, you should on the spot make yourself +unpleasant to her.” + +“Ah,” said Chad, “she can bear _me_—could bear me at least at home. +It’s my being there that would be her triumph. She hates me in Paris.” + +“She hates in other words—” + +“Yes, _that’s_ it!”—Chad had quickly understood this understanding; +which formed on the part of each as near an approach as they had yet +made to naming Madame de Vionnet. The limitations of their distinctness +didn’t, however, prevent its fairly lingering in the air that it was +this lady Mrs. Pocock hated. It added one more touch moreover to their +established recognition of the rare intimacy of Chad’s association with +her. He had never yet more twitched away the last light veil from this +phenomenon than in presenting himself as confounded and submerged in +the feeling she had created at Woollett. “And I’ll tell you who hates +me too,” he immediately went on. + +Strether knew as immediately whom he meant, but with as prompt a +protest. “Ah no! Mamie doesn’t hate—well,” he caught himself in +time—“anybody at all. Mamie’s beautiful.” + +Chad shook his head. “That’s just why I mind it. She certainly doesn’t +like me.” + +“How much do you mind it? What would you do for her?” + +“Well, I’d like her if she’d like me. Really, really,” Chad declared. + +It gave his companion a moment’s pause. “You asked me just now if I +don’t, as you said, ‘care’ about a certain person. You rather tempt me +therefore to put the question in my turn. Don’t _you_ care about a +certain other person?” + +Chad looked at him hard in the lamplight of the window. “The difference +is that I don’t want to.” + +Strether wondered. “‘Don’t want’ to?” + +“I try not to—that is I _have_ tried. I’ve done my best. You can’t be +surprised,” the young man easily went on, “when you yourself set me on +it. I was indeed,” he added, “already on it a little; but you set me +harder. It was six weeks ago that I thought I had come out.” + +Strether took it well in. “But you haven’t come out!” + +“I don’t know—it’s what I _want_ to know,” said Chad. “And if I could +have sufficiently wanted—by myself—to go back, I think I might have +found out.” + +“Possibly”—Strether considered. “But all you were able to achieve was +to want to want to! And even then,” he pursued, “only till our friends +there came. Do you want to want to still?” As with a sound +half-dolorous, half-droll and all vague and equivocal, Chad buried his +face for a little in his hands, rubbing it in a whimsical way that +amounted to an evasion, he brought it out more sharply: “_Do_ you?” + +Chad kept for a time his attitude, but at last he looked up, and then +abruptly, “Jim _is_ a damned dose!” he declared. + +“Oh I don’t ask you to abuse or describe or in any way pronounce on +your relatives; I simply put it to you once more whether you’re _now_ +ready. You say you’ve ‘seen.’ Is what you’ve seen that you can’t +resist?” + +Chad gave him a strange smile—the nearest approach he had ever shown to +a troubled one. “Can’t you make me _not_ resist?” + +“What it comes to,” Strether went on very gravely now and as if he +hadn’t heard him, “what it comes to is that more has been done for you, +I think, than I’ve ever seen done—attempted perhaps, but never so +successfully done—by one human being for another.” + +“Oh an immense deal certainly”—Chad did it full justice. “And you +yourself are adding to it.” + +It was without heeding this either that his visitor continued. “And our +friends there won’t have it.” + +“No, they simply won’t.” + +“They demand you on the basis, as it were, of repudiation and +ingratitude; and what has been the matter with me,” Strether went on, +“is that I haven’t seen my way to working with you for repudiation.” + +Chad appreciated this. “Then as you haven’t seen yours you naturally +haven’t seen mine. There it is.” After which he proceeded, with a +certain abruptness, to a sharp interrogation. “_Now_ do you say she +doesn’t hate me?” + +Strether hesitated. “‘She’—?” + +“Yes—Mother. We called it Sarah, but it comes to the same thing.” + +“Ah,” Strether objected, “not to the same thing as her hating _you_.” + +On which—though as if for an instant it had hung fire—Chad remarkably +replied: “Well, if they hate my good friend, _that_ comes to the same +thing.” It had a note of inevitable truth that made Strether take it as +enough, feel he wanted nothing more. The young man spoke in it for his +“good friend” more than he had ever yet directly spoken, confessed to +such deep identities between them as he might play with the idea of +working free from, but which at a given moment could still draw him +down like a whirlpool. And meanwhile he had gone on. “Their hating you +too moreover—that also comes to a good deal.” + +“Ah,” said Strether, “your mother doesn’t.” + +Chad, however, loyally stuck to it—loyally, that is, to Strether. “She +will if you don’t look out.” + +“Well, I do look out. I am, after all, looking out. That’s just why,” +our friend explained, “I want to see her again.” + +It drew from Chad again the same question. “To see Mother?” + +“To see—for the present—Sarah.” + +“Ah then there you are! And what I don’t for the life of me make out,” +Chad pursued with resigned perplexity, “is what you _gain_ by it.” + +Oh it would have taken his companion too long to say! “That’s because +you have, I verily believe, no imagination. You’ve other qualities. But +no imagination, don’t you see? at all.” + +“I dare say. I do see.” It was an idea in which Chad showed interest. +“But haven’t you yourself rather too much?” + +“Oh _rather_—!” So that after an instant, under this reproach and as if +it were at last a fact really to escape from, Strether made his move +for departure. + + + II + +One of the features of the restless afternoon passed by him after Mrs. +Pocock’s visit was an hour spent, shortly before dinner, with Maria +Gostrey, whom of late, in spite of so sustained a call on his attention +from other quarters, he had by no means neglected. And that he was +still not neglecting her will appear from the fact that he was with her +again at the same hour on the very morrow—with no less fine a +consciousness moreover of being able to hold her ear. It continued +inveterately to occur, for that matter, that whenever he had taken one +of his greater turns he came back to where she so faithfully awaited +him. None of these excursions had on the whole been livelier than the +pair of incidents—the fruit of the short interval since his previous +visit—on which he had now to report to her. He had seen Chad Newsome +late the night before, and he had had that morning, as a sequel to this +conversation, a second interview with Sarah. “But they’re all off,” he +said, “at last.” + +It puzzled her a moment. “All?—Mr. Newsome with them?” + +“Ah not yet! Sarah and Jim and Mamie. But Waymarsh with them—for Sarah. +It’s too beautiful,” Strether continued; “I find I don’t get over +that—it’s always a fresh joy. But it’s a fresh joy too,” he added, +“that—well, what do you think? Little Bilham also goes. But he of +course goes for Mamie.” + +Miss Gostrey wondered. “‘For’ her? Do you mean they’re already +engaged?” + +“Well,” said Strether, “say then for _me_. He’ll do anything for me; +just as I will, for that matter—anything I can—for him. Or for Mamie +either. _She’ll_ do anything for me.” + +Miss Gostrey gave a comprehensive sigh. “The way you reduce people to +subjection!” + +“It’s certainly, on one side, wonderful. But it’s quite equalled, on +another, by the way I don’t. I haven’t reduced Sarah, since yesterday; +though I’ve succeeded in seeing her again, as I’ll presently tell you. +The others however are really all right. Mamie, by that blessed law of +ours, absolutely must have a young man.” + +“But what must poor Mr. Bilham have? Do you mean they’ll _marry_ for +you?” + +“I mean that, by the same blessed law, it won’t matter a grain if they +don’t—I shan’t have in the least to worry.” + +She saw as usual what he meant. “And Mr. Jim?—who goes for him?” + +“Oh,” Strether had to admit, “I couldn’t manage _that_. He’s thrown, as +usual, on the world; the world which, after all, by his account—for he +has prodigious adventures—seems very good to him. He fortunately—‘over +here,’ as he says—finds the world everywhere; and his most prodigious +adventure of all,” he went on, “has been of course of the last few +days.” + +Miss Gostrey, already knowing, instantly made the connexion. “He has +seen Marie de Vionnet again?” + +“He went, all by himself, the day after Chad’s party—didn’t I tell +you?—to tea with her. By her invitation—all alone.” + +“Quite like yourself!” Maria smiled. + +“Oh but he’s more wonderful about her than I am!” And then as his +friend showed how she could believe it, filling it out, fitting it on +to old memories of the wonderful woman: “What I should have liked to +manage would have been _her_ going.” + +“To Switzerland with the party?” + +“For Jim—and for symmetry. If it had been workable moreover for a +fortnight she’d have gone. She’s ready”—he followed up his renewed +vision of her—“for anything.” + +Miss Gostrey went with him a minute. “She’s too perfect!” + +“She _will_, I think,” he pursued, “go to-night to the station.” + +“To see him off?” + +“With Chad—marvellously—as part of their general attention. And she +does it”—it kept before him—“with a light, light grace, a free, free +gaiety, that may well softly bewilder Mr. Pocock.” + +It kept her so before him that his companion had after an instant a +friendly comment. “As in short it has softly bewildered a saner man. +Are you really in love with her?” Maria threw off. + +“It’s of no importance I should know,” he replied. “It matters so +little—has nothing to do, practically, with either of us.” + +“All the same”—Maria continued to smile—“they go, the five, as I +understand you, and you and Madame de Vionnet stay.” + +“Oh and Chad.” To which Strether added: “And you.” + +“Ah ‘me’!”—she gave a small impatient wail again, in which something of +the unreconciled seemed suddenly to break out. “_I_ don’t stay, it +somehow seems to me, much to my advantage. In the presence of all you +cause to pass before me I’ve a tremendous sense of privation.” + +Strether hesitated. “But your privation, your keeping out of +everything, has been—hasn’t it?—by your own choice.” + +“Oh yes; it has been necessary—that is it has been better for you. What +I mean is only that I seem to have ceased to serve you.” + +“How can you tell that?” he asked. “You don’t know how you serve me. +When you cease—” + +“Well?” she said as he dropped. + +“Well, I’ll _let_ you know. Be quiet till then.” + +She thought a moment. “Then you positively like me to stay?” + +“Don’t I treat you as if I did?” + +“You’re certainly very kind to me. But that,” said Maria, “is for +myself. It’s getting late, as you see, and Paris turning rather hot and +dusty. People are scattering, and some of them, in other places want +me. But if you want me here—!” + +She had spoken as resigned to his word, but he had of a sudden a still +sharper sense than he would have expected of desiring not to lose her. +“I want you here.” + +She took it as if the words were all she had wished; as if they brought +her, gave her something that was the compensation of her case. “Thank +you,” she simply answered. And then as he looked at her a little +harder, “Thank you very much,” she repeated. + +It had broken as with a slight arrest into the current of their talk, +and it held him a moment longer. “Why, two months, or whatever the time +was, ago, did you so suddenly dash off? The reason you afterwards gave +me for having kept away three weeks wasn’t the real one.” + +She recalled. “I never supposed you believed it was. Yet,” she +continued, “if you didn’t guess it that was just what helped you.” + +He looked away from her on this; he indulged, so far as space +permitted, in one of his slow absences. “I’ve often thought of it, but +never to feel that I could guess it. And you see the consideration with +which I’ve treated you in never asking till now.” + +“Now then why _do_ you ask?” + +“To show you how I miss you when you’re not here, and what it does for +me.” + +“It doesn’t seem to have done,” she laughed, “all it might! However,” +she added, “if you’ve really never guessed the truth I’ll tell it you.” + +“I’ve never guessed it,” Strether declared. + +“Never?” + +“Never.” + +“Well then I dashed off, as you say, so as not to have the confusion of +being there if Marie de Vionnet should tell you anything to my +detriment.” + +He looked as if he considerably doubted. “You even then would have had +to face it on your return.” + +“Oh if I had found reason to believe it something very bad I’d have +left you altogether.” + +“So then,” he continued, “it was only on guessing she had been on the +whole merciful that you ventured back?” + +Maria kept it together. “I owe her thanks. Whatever her temptation she +didn’t separate us. That’s one of my reasons,” she went on “for +admiring her so.” + +“Let it pass then,” said Strether, “for one of mine as well. But what +would have been her temptation?” + +“What are ever the temptations of women?” + +He thought—but hadn’t, naturally, to think too long. “Men?” + +“She would have had you, with it, more for herself. But she saw she +could have you without it.” + +“Oh ‘have’ me!” Strether a trifle ambiguously sighed. “_You_,” he +handsomely declared, “would have had me at any rate _with_ it.” + +“Oh ‘have’ you!”—she echoed it as he had done. “I do have you, +however,” she less ironically said, “from the moment you express a +wish.” + +He stopped before her, full of the disposition. “I’ll express fifty.” + +Which indeed begot in her, with a certain inconsequence, a return of +her small wail. “Ah there you are!” + +There, if it were so, he continued for the rest of the time to be, and +it was as if to show her how she could still serve him that, coming +back to the departure of the Pococks, he gave her the view, vivid with +a hundred more touches than we can reproduce, of what had happened for +him that morning. He had had ten minutes with Sarah at her hotel, ten +minutes reconquered, by irresistible pressure, from the time over which +he had already described her to Miss Gostrey as having, at the end of +their interview on his own premises, passed the great sponge of the +future. He had caught her by not announcing himself, had found her in +her sitting-room with a dressmaker and a _lingère_ whose accounts she +appeared to have been more or less ingenuously settling and who soon +withdrew. Then he had explained to her how he had succeeded, late the +night before, in keeping his promise of seeing Chad. “I told her I’d +take it all.” + +“You’d ‘take’ it?” + +“Why if he doesn’t go.” + +Maria waited. “And who takes it if he does?” she enquired with a +certain grimness of gaiety. + +“Well,” said Strether, “I think I take, in any event, everything.” + +“By which I suppose you mean,” his companion brought out after a +moment, “that you definitely understand you now lose everything.” + +He stood before her again. “It does come perhaps to the same thing. But +Chad, now that he has seen, doesn’t really want it.” + +She could believe that, but she made, as always, for clearness. “Still, +what, after all, _has_ he seen?” + +“What they want of him. And it’s enough.” + +“It contrasts so unfavourably with what Madame de Vionnet wants?” + +“It contrasts—just so; all round, and tremendously.” + +“Therefore, perhaps, most of all with what _you_ want?” + +“Oh,” said Strether, “what I want is a thing I’ve ceased to measure or +even to understand.” + +But his friend none the less went on. “Do you want Mrs. Newsome—after +such a way of treating you?” + +It was a straighter mode of dealing with this lady than they had as +yet—such was their high form—permitted themselves; but it seemed not +wholly for this that he delayed a moment. “I dare say it has been, +after all, the only way she could have imagined.” + +“And does that make you want her any more?” + +“I’ve tremendously disappointed her,” Strether thought it worth while +to mention. + +“Of course you have. That’s rudimentary; that was plain to us long ago. +But isn’t it almost as plain,” Maria went on, “that you’ve even yet +your straight remedy? Really drag him away, as I believe you still can, +and you’d cease to have to count with her disappointment.” + +“Ah then,” he laughed, “I should have to count with yours!” + +But this barely struck her now. “What, in that case, should you call +counting? You haven’t come out where you are, I think, to please _me_.” + +“Oh,” he insisted, “that too, you know, has been part of it. I can’t +separate—it’s all one; and that’s perhaps why, as I say, I don’t +understand.” But he was ready to declare again that this didn’t in the +least matter; all the more that, as he affirmed, he _hadn’t_ really as +yet “come out.” “She gives me after all, on its coming to the pinch, a +last mercy, another chance. They don’t sail, you see, for five or six +weeks more, and they haven’t—she admits that—expected Chad would take +part in their tour. It’s still open to him to join them, at the last, +at Liverpool.” + +Miss Gostrey considered. “How in the world is it ‘open’ unless you open +it? How can he join them at Liverpool if he but sinks deeper into his +situation here?” + +“He has given her—as I explained to you that she let me know +yesterday—his word of honour to do as I say.” + +Maria stared. “But if you say nothing!” + +Well, he as usual walked about on it. “I did say something this +morning. I gave her my answer—the word I had promised her after hearing +from himself what _he_ had promised. What she demanded of me yesterday, +you’ll remember, was the engagement then and there to make him take up +this vow.” + +“Well then,” Miss Gostrey enquired, “was the purpose of your visit to +her only to decline?” + +“No; it was to ask, odd as that may seem to you, for another delay.” + +“Ah that’s weak!” + +“Precisely!” She had spoken with impatience, but, so far as that at +least, he knew where he was. “If I _am_ weak I want to find it out. If +I don’t find it out I shall have the comfort, the little glory, of +thinking I’m strong.” + +“It’s all the comfort, I judge,” she returned, “that you _will_ have!” + +“At any rate,” he said, “it will have been a month more. Paris may +grow, from day to day, hot and dusty, as you say; but there are other +things that are hotter and dustier. I’m not afraid to stay on; the +summer here must be amusing in a wild—if it isn’t a tame—way of its +own; the place at no time more picturesque. I think I shall like it. +And then,” he benevolently smiled for her, “there will be always you.” + +“Oh,” she objected, “it won’t be as a part of the picturesqueness that +I shall stay, for I shall be the plainest thing about you. You may, you +see, at any rate,” she pursued, “have nobody else. Madame de Vionnet +may very well be going off, mayn’t she?—and Mr. Newsome by the same +stroke: unless indeed you’ve had an assurance from them to the +contrary. So that if your idea’s to stay for them”—it was her duty to +suggest it—“you may be left in the lurch. Of course if they do +stay”—she kept it up—“they would be part of the picturesqueness. Or +else indeed you might join them somewhere.” + +Strether seemed to face it as if it were a happy thought; but the next +moment he spoke more critically. “Do you mean that they’ll probably go +off together?” + +She just considered. “I think it will be treating you quite without +ceremony if they do; though after all,” she added, “it would be +difficult to see now quite what degree of ceremony properly meets your +case.” + +“Of course,” Strether conceded, “my attitude toward them is +extraordinary.” + +“Just so; so that one may ask one’s self what style of proceeding on +their own part can altogether match it. The attitude of their own that +won’t pale in its light they’ve doubtless still to work out. The really +handsome thing perhaps,” she presently threw off, “_would_ be for them +to withdraw into more secluded conditions, offering at the same time to +share them with you.” He looked at her, on this, as if some generous +irritation—all in his interest—had suddenly again flickered in her; and +what she next said indeed half-explained it. “Don’t really be afraid to +tell me if what now holds you _is_ the pleasant prospect of the empty +town, with plenty of seats in the shade, cool drinks, deserted museums, +drives to the Bois in the evening, and our wonderful woman all to +yourself.” And she kept it up still more. “The handsomest thing of +_all_, when one makes it out, would, I dare say, be that Mr. Chad +should for a while go off by himself. It’s a pity, from that point of +view,” she wound up, “that he doesn’t pay his mother a visit. It would +at least occupy your interval.” The thought in fact held her a moment. +“Why doesn’t he pay his mother a visit? Even a week, at this good +moment, would do.” + +“My dear lady,” Strether replied—and he had it even to himself +surprisingly ready—“my dear lady, his mother has paid _him_ a visit. +Mrs. Newsome has been with him, this month, with an intensity that I’m +sure he has thoroughly felt; he has lavishly entertained her, and she +has let him have her thanks. Do you suggest he shall go back for more +of them?” + +Well, she succeeded after a little in shaking it off. “I see. It’s what +you don’t suggest—what you haven’t suggested. And you know.” + +“So would you, my dear,” he kindly said, “if you had so much as seen +her.” + +“As seen Mrs. Newsome?” + +“No, Sarah—which, both for Chad and for myself, has served all the +purpose.” + +“And served it in a manner,” she responsively mused, “so +extraordinary!” + +“Well, you see,” he partly explained, “what it comes to is that she’s +all cold thought—which Sarah could serve to us cold without its really +losing anything. So it is that we know what she thinks of us.” + +Maria had followed, but she had an arrest. “What I’ve never made out, +if you come to that, is what you think—I mean you personally—of _her_. +Don’t you so much, when all’s said, as care a little?” + +“That,” he answered with no loss of promptness, “is what even Chad +himself asked me last night. He asked me if I don’t mind the loss—well, +the loss of an opulent future. Which moreover,” he hastened to add, +“was a perfectly natural question.” + +“I call your attention, all the same,” said Miss Gostrey, “to the fact +that I don’t ask it. What I venture to ask is whether it’s to Mrs. +Newsome herself that you’re indifferent.” + +“I haven’t been so”—he spoke with all assurance. “I’ve been the very +opposite. I’ve been, from the first moment, preoccupied with the +impression everything might be making on her—quite oppressed, haunted, +tormented by it. I’ve been interested _only_ in her seeing what I’ve +seen. And I’ve been as disappointed in her refusal to see it as she has +been in what has appeared to her the perversity of my insistence.” + +“Do you mean that she has shocked you as you’ve shocked her?” + +Strether weighed it. “I’m probably not so shockable. But on the other +hand I’ve gone much further to meet her. She, on her side, hasn’t +budged an inch.” + +“So that you’re now at last”—Maria pointed the moral—“in the sad stage +of recriminations.” + +“No—it’s only to you I speak. I’ve been like a lamb to Sarah. I’ve only +put my back to the wall. It’s to _that_ one naturally staggers when one +has been violently pushed there.” + +She watched him a moment. “Thrown over?” + +“Well, as I feel I’ve landed somewhere I think I must have been +thrown.” + +She turned it over, but as hoping to clarify much rather than to +harmonise. “The thing is that I suppose you’ve been disappointing—” + +“Quite from the very first of my arrival? I dare say. I admit I was +surprising even to myself.” + +“And then of course,” Maria went on, “I had much to do with it.” + +“With my being surprising—?” + +“That will do,” she laughed, “if you’re too delicate to call it _my_ +being! Naturally,” she added, “you came over more or less for +surprises.” + +“Naturally!”—he valued the reminder. + +“But they were to have been all for you”—she continued to piece it +out—“and none of them for _her_.” + +Once more he stopped before her as if she had touched the point. +“That’s just her difficulty—that she doesn’t admit surprises. It’s a +fact that, I think, describes and represents her; and it falls in with +what I tell you—that she’s all, as I’ve called it, fine cold thought. +She had, to her own mind, worked the whole thing out in advance, and +worked it out for me as well as for herself. Whenever she has done +that, you see, there’s no room left; no margin, as it were, for any +alteration. She’s filled as full, packed as tight, as she’ll hold and +if you wish to get anything more or different either out or in—” + +“You’ve got to make over altogether the woman herself?” + +“What it comes to,” said Strether, “is that you’ve got morally and +intellectually to get rid of her.” + +“Which would appear,” Maria returned, “to be practically what you’ve +done.” + +But her friend threw back his head. “I haven’t touched her. She won’t +_be_ touched. I see it now as I’ve never done; and she hangs together +with a perfection of her own,” he went on, “that does suggest a kind of +wrong in _any_ change of her composition. It was at any rate,” he wound +up, “the woman herself, as you call her the whole moral and +intellectual being or block, that Sarah brought me over to take or to +leave.” + +It turned Miss Gostrey to deeper thought. “Fancy having to take at the +point of the bayonet a whole moral and intellectual being or block!” + +“It was in fact,” said Strether, “what, at home, I _had_ done. But +somehow over there I didn’t quite know it.” + +“One never does, I suppose,” Miss Gostrey concurred, “realise in +advance, in such a case, the size, as you may say, of the block. Little +by little it looms up. It has been looming for you more and more till +at last you see it all.” + +“I see it all,” he absently echoed, while his eyes might have been +fixing some particularly large iceberg in a cool blue northern sea. +“It’s magnificent!” he then rather oddly exclaimed. + +But his friend, who was used to this kind of inconsequence in him, kept +the thread. “There’s nothing so magnificent—for making others feel +you—as to have no imagination.” + +It brought him straight round. “Ah there you are! It’s what I said last +night to Chad. That he himself, I mean, has none.” + +“Then it would appear,” Maria suggested, “that he has, after all, +something in common with his mother.” + +“He has in common that he makes one, as you say, ‘feel’ him. And yet,” +he added, as if the question were interesting, “one feels others too, +even when they have plenty.” + +Miss Gostrey continued suggestive. “Madame de Vionnet?” + +“_She_ has plenty.” + +“Certainly—she had quantities of old. But there are different ways of +making one’s self felt.” + +“Yes, it comes, no doubt, to that. You now—” + +He was benevolently going on, but she wouldn’t have it. “Oh I _don’t_ +make myself felt; so my quantity needn’t be settled. Yours, you know,” +she said, “is monstrous. No one has ever had so much.” + +It struck him for a moment. “That’s what Chad also thinks.” + +“There _you_ are then—though it isn’t for him to complain of it!” + +“Oh he doesn’t complain of it,” said Strether. + +“That’s all that would be wanting! But apropos of what,” Maria went on, +“did the question come up?” + +“Well, of his asking me what it is I gain.” + +She had a pause. “Then as I’ve asked you too it settles _my_ case. Oh +you _have_,” she repeated, “treasures of imagination.” + +But he had been for an instant thinking away from this, and he came up +in another place. “And yet Mrs. Newsome—it’s a thing to remember—_has_ +imagined, did, that is, imagine, and apparently still does, horrors +about what I should have found. I was booked, by her +vision—extraordinarily intense, after all—to find them; and that I +didn’t, that I couldn’t, that, as she evidently felt, I wouldn’t—this +evidently didn’t at all, as they say, ‘suit’ her book. It was more than +she could bear. That was her disappointment.” + +“You mean you were to have found Chad himself horrible?” + +“I was to have found the woman.” + +“Horrible?” + +“Found her as she imagined her.” And Strether paused as if for his own +expression of it he could add no touch to that picture. + +His companion had meanwhile thought. “She imagined stupidly—so it comes +to the same thing.” + +“Stupidly? Oh!” said Strether. + +But she insisted. “She imagined meanly.” + +He had it, however, better. “It couldn’t but be ignorantly.” + +“Well, intensity with ignorance—what do you want worse?” + +This question might have held him, but he let it pass. “Sarah isn’t +ignorant—now; she keeps up the theory of the horrible.” + +“Ah but she’s intense—and that by itself will do sometimes as well. If +it doesn’t do, in this case, at any rate, to deny that Marie’s +charming, it will do at least to deny that she’s good.” + +“What I claim is that she’s good for Chad.” + +“You don’t claim”—she seemed to like it clear—“that she’s good for +_you_.” + +But he continued without heeding. “That’s what I wanted them to come +out for—to see for themselves if she’s bad for him.” + +“And now that they’ve done so they won’t admit that she’s good even for +anything?” + +“They do think,” Strether presently admitted, “that she’s on the whole +about as bad for me. But they’re consistent of course, inasmuch as +they’ve their clear view of what’s good for both of us.” + +“For you, to begin with”—Maria, all responsive, confined the question +for the moment—“to eliminate from your existence and if possible even +from your memory the dreadful creature that _I_ must gruesomely shadow +forth for them, even more than to eliminate the distincter evil—thereby +a little less portentous—of the person whose confederate you’ve +suffered yourself to become. However, that’s comparatively simple. You +can easily, at the worst, after all, give me up.” + +“I can easily at the worst, after all, give you up.” The irony was so +obvious that it needed no care. “I can easily at the worst, after all, +even forget you.” + +“Call that then workable. But Mr. Newsome has much more to forget. How +can _he_ do it?” + +“Ah there again we are! That’s just what I was to have made him do; +just where I was to have worked with him and helped.” + +She took it in silence and without attenuation—as if perhaps from very +familiarity with the facts; and her thought made a connexion without +showing the links. “Do you remember how we used to talk at Chester and +in London about my seeing you through?” She spoke as of far-off things +and as if they had spent weeks at the places she named. + +“It’s just what you _are_ doing.” + +“Ah but the worst—since you’ve left such a margin—may be still to come. +You may yet break down.” + +“Yes, I may yet break down. But will you take me—?” + +He had hesitated, and she waited. “Take you?” + +“For as long as I can bear it.” + +She also debated “Mr. Newsome and Madame de Vionnet may, as we were +saying, leave town. How long do you think you can bear it without +them?” + +Strether’s reply to this was at first another question. “Do you mean in +order to get away from me?” + +Her answer had an abruptness. “Don’t find me rude if I say I should +think they’d want to!” + +He looked at her hard again—seemed even for an instant to have an +intensity of thought under which his colour changed. But he smiled. +“You mean after what they’ve done to me?” + +“After what _she_ has.” + +At this, however, with a laugh, he was all right again. “Ah but she +hasn’t done it yet!” + + + III + +He had taken the train a few days after this from a station—as well as +_to_ a station—selected almost at random; such days, whatever should +happen, were numbered, and he had gone forth under the impulse—artless +enough, no doubt—to give the whole of one of them to that French +ruralism, with its cool special green, into which he had hitherto +looked only through the little oblong window of the picture-frame. It +had been as yet for the most part but a land of fancy for him—the +background of fiction, the medium of art, the nursery of letters; +practically as distant as Greece, but practically also well-nigh as +consecrated. Romance could weave itself, for Strether’s sense, out of +elements mild enough; and even after what he had, as he felt, lately +“been through,” he could thrill a little at the chance of seeing +something somewhere that would remind him of a certain small Lambinet +that had charmed him, long years before, at a Boston dealer’s and that +he had quite absurdly never forgotten. It had been offered, he +remembered, at a price he had been instructed to believe the lowest +ever named for a Lambinet, a price he had never felt so poor as on +having to recognise, all the same, as beyond a dream of possibility. He +had dreamed—had turned and twisted possibilities for an hour: it had +been the only adventure of his life in connexion with the purchase of a +work of art. The adventure, it will be perceived, was modest; but the +memory, beyond all reason and by some accident of association, was +sweet. The little Lambinet abode with him as the picture he _would_ +have bought—the particular production that had made him for the moment +overstep the modesty of nature. He was quite aware that if he were to +see it again he should perhaps have a drop or a shock, and he never +found himself wishing that the wheel of time would turn it up again, +just as he had seen it in the maroon-coloured, sky-lighted inner shrine +of Tremont Street. It would be a different thing, however, to see the +remembered mixture resolved back into its elements—to assist at the +restoration to nature of the whole far-away hour: the dusty day in +Boston, the background of the Fitchburg Depot, of the maroon-coloured +sanctum, the special-green vision, the ridiculous price, the poplars, +the willows, the rushes, the river, the sunny silvery sky, the shady +woody horizon. + +He observed in respect to his train almost no condition save that it +should stop a few times after getting out of the _banlieue_; he threw +himself on the general amiability of the day for the hint of where to +alight. His theory of his excursion was that he could alight +anywhere—not nearer Paris than an hour’s run—on catching a suggestion +of the particular note required. It made its sign, the +suggestion—weather, air, light, colour and his mood all favouring—at +the end of some eighty minutes; the train pulled up just at the right +spot, and he found himself getting out as securely as if to keep an +appointment. It will be felt of him that he could amuse himself, at his +age, with very small things if it be again noted that his appointment +was only with a superseded Boston fashion. He hadn’t gone far without +the quick confidence that it would be quite sufficiently kept. The +oblong gilt frame disposed its enclosing lines; the poplars and +willows, the reeds and river—a river of which he didn’t know, and +didn’t want to know, the name—fell into a composition, full of +felicity, within them; the sky was silver and turquoise and varnish; +the village on the left was white and the church on the right was grey; +it was all there, in short—it was what he wanted: it was Tremont +Street, it was France, it was Lambinet. Moreover he was freely walking +about in it. He did this last, for an hour, to his heart’s content, +making for the shady woody horizon and boring so deep into his +impression and his idleness that he might fairly have got through them +again and reached the maroon-coloured wall. It was a wonder, no doubt, +that the taste of idleness for him shouldn’t need more time to sweeten; +but it had in fact taken the few previous days; it had been sweetening +in truth ever since the retreat of the Pococks. He walked and walked as +if to show himself how little he had now to do; he had nothing to do +but turn off to some hillside where he might stretch himself and hear +the poplars rustle, and whence—in the course of an afternoon so spent, +an afternoon richly suffused too with the sense of a book in his +pocket—he should sufficiently command the scene to be able to pick out +just the right little rustic inn for an experiment in respect to +dinner. There was a train back to Paris at 9.20, and he saw himself +partaking, at the close of the day, with the enhancements of a coarse +white cloth and a sanded door, of something fried and felicitous, +washed down with authentic wine; after which he might, as he liked, +either stroll back to his station in the gloaming or propose for the +local _carriole_ and converse with his driver, a driver who naturally +wouldn’t fail of a stiff clean blouse, of a knitted nightcap and of the +genius of response—who, in fine, would sit on the shafts, tell him what +the French people were thinking, and remind him, as indeed the whole +episode would incidentally do, of Maupassant. Strether heard his lips, +for the first time in French air, as this vision assumed consistency, +emit sounds of expressive intention without fear of his company. He had +been afraid of Chad and of Maria and of Madame de Vionnet; he had been +most of all afraid of Waymarsh, in whose presence, so far as they had +mixed together in the light of the town, he had never without somehow +paying for it aired either his vocabulary or his accent. He usually +paid for it by meeting immediately afterwards Waymarsh’s eye. + +Such were the liberties with which his fancy played after he had turned +off to the hillside that did really and truly, as well as most amiably, +await him beneath the poplars, the hillside that made him feel, for a +murmurous couple of hours, how happy had been his thought. He had the +sense of success, of a finer harmony in things; nothing but what had +turned out as yet according to his plan. It most of all came home to +him, as he lay on his back on the grass, that Sarah had really gone, +that his tension was really relaxed; the peace diffused in these ideas +might be delusive, but it hung about him none the less for the time. It +fairly, for half an hour, sent him to sleep; he pulled his straw hat +over his eyes—he had bought it the day before with a reminiscence of +Waymarsh’s—and lost himself anew in Lambinet. It was as if he had found +out he was tired—tired not from his walk, but from that inward exercise +which had known, on the whole, for three months, so little +intermission. That was it—when once they were off he had dropped; this +moreover was what he had dropped to, and now he was touching bottom. He +was kept luxuriously quiet, soothed and amused by the consciousness of +what he had found at the end of his descent. It was very much what he +had told Maria Gostrey he should like to stay on for, the +hugely-distributed Paris of summer, alternately dazzling and dusky, +with a weight lifted for him off its columns and cornices and with +shade and air in the flutter of awnings as wide as avenues. It was +present to him without attenuation that, reaching out, the day after +making the remark, for some proof of his freedom, he had gone that very +afternoon to see Madame de Vionnet. He had gone again the next day but +one, and the effect of the two visits, the after-sense of the couple of +hours spent with her, was almost that of fulness and frequency. The +brave intention of frequency, so great with him from the moment of his +finding himself unjustly suspected at Woollett, had remained rather +theoretic, and one of the things he could muse about under his poplars +was the source of the special shyness that had still made him careful. +He had surely got rid of it now, this special shyness; what had become +of it if it hadn’t precisely, within the week, rubbed off? + +It struck him now in fact as sufficiently plain that if he had still +been careful he had been so for a reason. He had really feared, in his +behaviour, a lapse from good faith; if there was a danger of one’s +liking such a woman too much one’s best safety was in waiting at least +till one had the right to do so. In the light of the last few days the +danger was fairly vivid; so that it was proportionately fortunate that +the right was likewise established. It seemed to our friend that he had +on each occasion profited to the utmost by the latter: how could he +have done so more, he at all events asked himself, than in having +immediately let her know that, if it was all the same to her, he +preferred not to talk about anything tiresome? He had never in his life +so sacrificed an armful of high interests as in that remark; he had +never so prepared the way for the comparatively frivolous as in +addressing it to Madame de Vionnet’s intelligence. It hadn’t been till +later that he quite recalled how in conjuring away everything but the +pleasant he had conjured away almost all they had hitherto talked +about; it was not till later even that he remembered how, with their +new tone, they hadn’t so much as mentioned the name of Chad himself. +One of the things that most lingered with him on his hillside was this +delightful facility, with such a woman, of arriving at a new tone; he +thought, as he lay on his back, of all the tones she might make +possible if one were to try her, and at any rate of the probability +that one could trust her to fit them to occasions. He had wanted her to +feel that, as he was disinterested now, so she herself should be, and +she had showed she felt it, and he had showed he was grateful, and it +had been for all the world as if he were calling for the first time. +They had had other, but irrelevant, meetings; it was quite as if, had +they sooner known how much they _really_ had in common, there were +quantities of comparatively dull matters they might have skipped. Well, +they were skipping them now, even to graceful gratitude, even to +handsome “Don’t mention it!”—and it was amazing what could still come +up without reference to what had been going on between them. It might +have been, on analysis, nothing more than Shakespeare and the musical +glasses; but it had served all the purpose of his appearing to have +said to her: “Don’t like me, if it’s a question of liking me, for +anything obvious and clumsy that I’ve, as they call it, ‘done’ for you: +like me—well, like me, hang it, for anything else you choose. So, by +the same propriety, don’t be for me simply the person I’ve come to know +through my awkward connexion with Chad—was ever anything, by the way, +_more_ awkward? Be for me, please, with all your admirable tact and +trust, just whatever I may show you it’s a present pleasure to me to +think you.” It had been a large indication to meet; but if she hadn’t +met it what _had_ she done, and how had their time together slipped +along so smoothly, mild but not slow, and melting, liquefying, into his +happy illusion of idleness? He could recognise on the other hand that +he had probably not been without reason, in his prior, his restricted +state, for keeping an eye on his liability to lapse from good faith. + +He really continued in the picture—that being for himself his +situation—all the rest of this rambling day; so that the charm was +still, was indeed more than ever upon him when, toward six o’clock he +found himself amicably engaged with a stout white-capped deep-voiced +woman at the door of the _auberge_ of the biggest village, a village +that affected him as a thing of whiteness, blueness and crookedness, +set in coppery green, and that had the river flowing behind or before +it—one couldn’t say which; at the bottom, in particular, of the +inn-garden. He had had other adventures before this; had kept along the +height, after shaking off slumber; had admired, had almost coveted, +another small old church, all steep roof and dim slate-colour without +and all whitewash and paper flowers within; had lost his way and had +found it again; had conversed with rustics who struck him perhaps a +little more as men of the world than he had expected; had acquired at a +bound a fearless facility in French; had had, as the afternoon waned, a +watery _bock_, all pale and Parisian, in the café of the furthest +village, which was not the biggest; and had meanwhile not once +overstepped the oblong gilt frame. The frame had drawn itself out for +him, as much as you please; but that was just his luck. He had finally +come down again to the valley, to keep within touch of stations and +trains, turning his face to the quarter from which he had started; and +thus it was that he had at last pulled up before the hostess of the +Cheval Blanc, who met him, with a rough readiness that was like the +clatter of sabots over stones, on their common ground of a _côtelette +de veau à l’oseille_ and a subsequent lift. He had walked many miles +and didn’t know he was tired; but he still knew he was amused, and even +that, though he had been alone all day, he had never yet so struck +himself as engaged with others and in midstream of his drama. It might +have passed for finished his drama, with its catastrophe all but +reached: it had, however, none the less been vivid again for him as he +thus gave it its fuller chance. He had only had to be at last well out +of it to feel it, oddly enough, still going on. + +For this had been all day at bottom the spell of the picture—that it +was essentially more than anything else a scene and a stage, that the +very air of the play was in the rustle of the willows and the tone of +the sky. The play and the characters had, without his knowing it till +now, peopled all his space for him, and it seemed somehow quite happy +that they should offer themselves, in the conditions so supplied, with +a kind of inevitability. It was as if the conditions made them not only +inevitable, but so much more nearly natural and right as that they were +at least easier, pleasanter, to put up with. The conditions had nowhere +so asserted their difference from those of Woollett as they appeared to +him to assert it in the little court of the Cheval Blanc while he +arranged with his hostess for a comfortable climax. They were few and +simple, scant and humble, but they were _the thing_, as he would have +called it, even to a greater degree than Madame de Vionnet’s old high +salon where the ghost of the Empire walked. “The” thing was the thing +that implied the greatest number of other things of the sort he had had +to tackle; and it was queer of course, but so it was—the implication +here was complete. Not a single one of his observations but somehow +fell into a place in it; not a breath of the cooler evening that wasn’t +somehow a syllable of the text. The text was simply, when condensed, +that in _these_ places such things were, and that if it was in them one +elected to move about one had to make one’s account with what one +lighted on. Meanwhile at all events it was enough that they did affect +one—so far as the village aspect was concerned—as whiteness, +crookedness and blueness set in coppery green; there being positively, +for that matter, an outer wall of the White Horse that was painted the +most improbable shade. That was part of the amusement—as if to show +that the fun was harmless; just as it was enough, further, that the +picture and the play seemed supremely to melt together in the good +woman’s broad sketch of what she could do for her visitor’s appetite. +He felt in short a confidence, and it was general, and it was all he +wanted to feel. It suffered no shock even on her mentioning that she +had in fact just laid the cloth for two persons who, unlike Monsieur, +had arrived by the river—in a boat of their own; who had asked her, +half an hour before, what she could do for them, and had then paddled +away to look at something a little further up—from which promenade they +would presently return. Monsieur might meanwhile, if he liked, pass +into the garden, such as it was, where she would serve him, should he +wish it—for there were tables and benches in plenty—a “bitter” before +his repast. Here she would also report to him on the possibility of a +conveyance to his station, and here at any rate he would have the +_agrément_ of the river. + +It may be mentioned without delay that Monsieur had the _agrément_ of +everything, and in particular, for the next twenty minutes, of a small +and primitive pavilion that, at the garden’s edge, almost overhung the +water, testifying, in its somewhat battered state, to much fond +frequentation. It consisted of little more than a platform, slightly +raised, with a couple of benches and a table, a protecting rail and a +projecting roof; but it raked the full grey-blue stream, which, taking +a turn a short distance above, passed out of sight to reappear much +higher up; and it was clearly in esteemed requisition for Sundays and +other feasts. Strether sat there and, though hungry, felt at peace; the +confidence that had so gathered for him deepened with the lap of the +water, the ripple of the surface, the rustle of the reeds on the +opposite bank, the faint diffused coolness and the slight rock of a +couple of small boats attached to a rough landing-place hard by. The +valley on the further side was all copper-green level and glazed pearly +sky, a sky hatched across with screens of trimmed trees, which looked +flat, like espaliers; and though the rest of the village straggled away +in the near quarter the view had an emptiness that made one of the +boats suggestive. Such a river set one afloat almost before one could +take up the oars—the idle play of which would be moreover the aid to +the full impression. This perception went so far as to bring him to his +feet; but that movement, in turn, made him feel afresh that he was +tired, and while he leaned against a post and continued to look out he +saw something that gave him a sharper arrest. + + + IV + +What he saw was exactly the right thing—a boat advancing round the bend +and containing a man who held the paddles and a lady, at the stern, +with a pink parasol. It was suddenly as if these figures, or something +like them, had been wanted in the picture, had been wanted more or less +all day, and had now drifted into sight, with the slow current, on +purpose to fill up the measure. They came slowly, floating down, +evidently directed to the landing-place near their spectator and +presenting themselves to him not less clearly as the two persons for +whom his hostess was already preparing a meal. For two very happy +persons he found himself straightway taking them—a young man in +shirt-sleeves, a young woman easy and fair, who had pulled pleasantly +up from some other place and, being acquainted with the neighbourhood, +had known what this particular retreat could offer them. The air quite +thickened, at their approach, with further intimations; the intimation +that they were expert, familiar, frequent—that this wouldn’t at all +events be the first time. They knew how to do it, he vaguely felt—and +it made them but the more idyllic, though at the very moment of the +impression, as happened, their boat seemed to have begun to drift wide, +the oarsman letting it go. It had by this time none the less come much +nearer—near enough for Strether to dream the lady in the stern had for +some reason taken account of his being there to watch them. She had +remarked on it sharply, yet her companion hadn’t turned round; it was +in fact almost as if our friend had felt her bid him keep still. She +had taken in something as a result of which their course had wavered, +and it continued to waver while they just stood off. This little effect +was sudden and rapid, so rapid that Strether’s sense of it was separate +only for an instant from a sharp start of his own. He too had within +the minute taken in something, taken in that he knew the lady whose +parasol, shifting as if to hide her face, made so fine a pink point in +the shining scene. It was too prodigious, a chance in a million, but, +if he knew the lady, the gentleman, who still presented his back and +kept off, the gentleman, the coatless hero of the idyll, who had +responded to her start, was, to match the marvel, none other than Chad. + +Chad and Madame de Vionnet were then like himself taking a day in the +country—though it was as queer as fiction, as farce, that their country +could happen to be exactly his; and she had been the first at +recognition, the first to feel, across the water, the shock—for it +appeared to come to that—of their wonderful accident. Strether became +aware, with this, of what was taking place—that her recognition had +been even stranger for the pair in the boat, that her immediate impulse +had been to control it, and that she was quickly and intensely debating +with Chad the risk of betrayal. He saw they would show nothing if they +could feel sure he hadn’t made them out; so that he had before him for +a few seconds his own hesitation. It was a sharp fantastic crisis that +had popped up as if in a dream, and it had had only to last the few +seconds to make him feel it as quite horrible. They were thus, on +either side, _trying_ the other side, and all for some reason that +broke the stillness like some unprovoked harsh note. It seemed to him +again, within the limit, that he had but one thing to do—to settle +their common question by some sign of surprise and joy. He hereupon +gave large play to these things, agitating his hat and his stick and +loudly calling out—a demonstration that brought him relief as soon as +he had seen it answered. The boat, in mid-stream, still went a little +wild—which seemed natural, however, while Chad turned round, half +springing up; and his good friend, after blankness and wonder, began +gaily to wave her parasol. Chad dropped afresh to his paddles and the +boat headed round, amazement and pleasantry filling the air meanwhile, +and relief, as Strether continued to fancy, superseding mere violence. +Our friend went down to the water under this odd impression as of +violence averted—the violence of their having “cut” him, out there in +the eye of nature, on the assumption that he wouldn’t know it. He +awaited them with a face from which he was conscious of not being able +quite to banish this idea that they would have gone on, not seeing and +not knowing, missing their dinner and disappointing their hostess, had +he himself taken a line to match. That at least was what darkened his +vision for the moment. Afterwards, after they had bumped at the +landing-place and he had assisted their getting ashore, everything +found itself sponged over by the mere miracle of the encounter. + +They could so much better at last, on either side, treat it as a wild +extravagance of hazard, that the situation was made elastic by the +amount of explanation called into play. Why indeed—apart from +oddity—the situation should have been really stiff was a question +naturally not practical at the moment, and in fact, so far as we are +concerned, a question tackled, later on and in private, only by +Strether himself. He was to reflect later on and in private that it was +mainly _he_ who had explained—as he had had moreover comparatively +little difficulty in doing. He was to have at all events meanwhile the +worrying thought of their perhaps secretly suspecting him of having +plotted this coincidence, taking such pains as might be to give it the +semblance of an accident. That possibility—as their imputation—didn’t +of course bear looking into for an instant; yet the whole incident was +so manifestly, arrange it as they would, an awkward one, that he could +scarce keep disclaimers in respect to his own presence from rising to +his lips. Disclaimers of intention would have been as tactless as his +presence was practically gross; and the narrowest escape they either of +them had was his lucky escape, in the event, from making any. Nothing +of the sort, so far as surface and sound were involved, was even in +question; surface and sound all made for their common ridiculous good +fortune, for the general _invraisemblance_ of the occasion, for the +charming chance that they had, the others, in passing, ordered some +food to be ready, the charming chance that he had himself not eaten, +the charming chance, even more, that their little plans, their hours, +their train, in short, from _là-bas_, would all match for their return +together to Paris. The chance that was most charming of all, the chance +that drew from Madame de Vionnet her clearest, gayest “_Comme cela se +trouve!_” was the announcement made to Strether after they were seated +at table, the word given him by their hostess in respect to his +carriage for the station, on which he might now count. It settled the +matter for his friends as well; the conveyance—it _was_ all too +lucky!—would serve for them; and nothing was more delightful than his +being in a position to make the train so definite. It might have been, +for themselves—to hear Madame de Vionnet—almost unnaturally vague, a +detail left to be fixed; though Strether indeed was afterwards to +remember that Chad had promptly enough intervened to forestall this +appearance, laughing at his companion’s flightiness and making the +point that he had after all, in spite of the bedazzlement of a day out +with her, known what he was about. + +Strether was to remember afterwards further that this had had for him +the effect of forming Chad’s almost sole intervention; and indeed he +was to remember further still, in subsequent meditation, many things +that, as it were, fitted together. Another of them was for instance +that the wonderful woman’s overflow of surprise and amusement was +wholly into French, which she struck him as speaking with an +unprecedented command of idiomatic turns, but in which she got, as he +might have said, somewhat away from him, taking all at once little +brilliant jumps that he could but lamely match. The question of his own +French had never come up for them; it was the one thing she wouldn’t +have permitted—it belonged, for a person who had been through much, to +mere boredom; but the present result was odd, fairly veiling her +identity, shifting her back into a mere voluble class or race to the +intense audibility of which he was by this time inured. When she spoke +the charming slightly strange English he best knew her by he seemed to +feel her as a creature, among all the millions, with a language quite +to herself, the real monopoly of a special shade of speech, beautifully +easy for her, yet of a colour and a cadence that were both inimitable +and matters of accident. She came back to these things after they had +shaken down in the inn-parlour and knew, as it were, what was to become +of them; it was inevitable that loud ejaculation over the prodigy of +their convergence should at last wear itself out. Then it was that his +impression took fuller form—the impression, destined only to deepen, to +complete itself, that they had something to put a face upon, to carry +off and make the best of, and that it was she who, admirably on the +whole, was doing this. It was familiar to him of course that they had +something to put a face upon; their friendship, their connexion, took +any amount of explaining—that would have been made familiar by his +twenty minutes with Mrs. Pocock if it hadn’t already been so. Yet his +theory, as we know, had bountifully been that the facts were +specifically none of his business, and were, over and above, so far as +one had to do with them, intrinsically beautiful; and this might have +prepared him for anything, as well as rendered him proof against +mystification. When he reached home that night, however, he knew he had +been, at bottom, neither prepared nor proof; and since we have spoken +of what he was, after his return, to recall and interpret, it may as +well immediately be said that his real experience of these few hours +put on, in that belated vision—for he scarce went to bed till +morning—the aspect that is most to our purpose. + +He then knew more or less how he had been affected—he but half knew at +the time. There had been plenty to affect him even after, as has been +said, they had shaken down; for his consciousness, though muffled, had +its sharpest moments during this passage, a marked drop into innocent +friendly Bohemia. They then had put their elbows on the table, +deploring the premature end of their two or three dishes; which they +had tried to make up with another bottle while Chad joked a little +spasmodically, perhaps even a little irrelevantly, with the hostess. +What it all came to had been that fiction and fable _were_, inevitably, +in the air, and not as a simple term of comparison, but as a result of +things said; also that they were blinking it, all round, and that they +yet needn’t, so much as that, have blinked it—though indeed if they +hadn’t Strether didn’t quite see what else they could have done. +Strether didn’t quite see _that_ even at an hour or two past midnight, +even when he had, at his hotel, for a long time, without a light and +without undressing, sat back on his bedroom sofa and stared straight +before him. He was, at that point of vantage, in full possession, to +make of it all what he could. He kept making of it that there had been +simply a _lie_ in the charming affair—a lie on which one could now, +detached and deliberate, perfectly put one’s finger. It was with the +lie that they had eaten and drunk and talked and laughed, that they had +waited for their _carriole_ rather impatiently, and had then got into +the vehicle and, sensibly subsiding, driven their three or four miles +through the darkening summer night. The eating and drinking, which had +been a resource, had had the effect of having served its turn; the talk +and laughter had done as much; and it was during their somewhat tedious +progress to the station, during the waits there, the further delays, +their submission to fatigue, their silences in the dim compartment of +the much-stopping train, that he prepared himself for reflexions to +come. It had been a performance, Madame de Vionnet’s manner, and though +it had to that degree faltered toward the end, as through her ceasing +to believe in it, as if she had asked herself, or Chad had found a +moment surreptitiously to ask her, what after all was the use, a +performance it had none the less quite handsomely remained, with the +final fact about it that it was on the whole easier to keep up than to +abandon. + +From the point of view of presence of mind it had been very wonderful +indeed, wonderful for readiness, for beautiful assurance, for the way +her decision was taken on the spot, without time to confer with Chad, +without time for anything. Their only conference could have been the +brief instants in the boat before they confessed to recognising the +spectator on the bank, for they hadn’t been alone together a moment +since and must have communicated all in silence. It was a part of the +deep impression for Strether, and not the least of the deep interest, +that they _could_ so communicate—that Chad in particular could let her +know he left it to her. He habitually left things to others, as +Strether was so well aware, and it in fact came over our friend in +these meditations that there had been as yet no such vivid illustration +of his famous knowing how to live. It was as if he had humoured her to +the extent of letting her lie without correction—almost as if, really, +he would be coming round in the morning to set the matter, as between +Strether and himself, right. Of course he couldn’t quite come; it was a +case in which a man was obliged to accept the woman’s version, even +when fantastic; if she had, with more flurry than she cared to show, +elected, as the phrase was, to represent that they had left Paris that +morning, and with no design but of getting back within the day—if she +had so sized-up, in the Woollett phrase, their necessity, she knew best +her own measure. There were things, all the same, it was impossible to +blink and which made this measure an odd one—the too evident fact for +instance that she hadn’t started out for the day dressed and hatted and +shod, and even, for that matter, pink parasol’d, as she had been in the +boat. From what did the drop in her assurance proceed as the tension +increased—from what did this slightly baffled ingenuity spring but from +her consciousness of not presenting, as night closed in, with not so +much as a shawl to wrap her round, an appearance that matched her +story? She admitted that she was cold, but only to blame her imprudence +which Chad suffered her to give such account of as she might. Her shawl +and Chad’s overcoat and her other garments, and his, those they had +each worn the day before, were at the place, best known to themselves—a +quiet retreat enough, no doubt—at which they had been spending the +twenty-four hours, to which they had fully meant to return that +evening, from which they had so remarkably swum into Strether’s ken, +and the tacit repudiation of which had been thus the essence of her +comedy. Strether saw how she had perceived in a flash that they +couldn’t quite look to going back there under his nose; though, +honestly, as he gouged deeper into the matter, he was somewhat +surprised, as Chad likewise had perhaps been, at the uprising of this +scruple. He seemed even to divine that she had entertained it rather +for Chad than for herself, and that, as the young man had lacked the +chance to enlighten her, she had had to go on with it, he meanwhile +mistaking her motive. + +He was rather glad, none the less, that they had in point of fact not +parted at the Cheval Blanc, that he hadn’t been reduced to giving them +his blessing for an idyllic retreat down the river. He had had in the +actual case to make-believe more than he liked, but this was nothing, +it struck him, to what the other event would have required. Could he, +literally, quite have faced the other event? Would he have been capable +of making the best of it with them? This was what he was trying to do +now; but with the advantage of his being able to give more time to it a +good deal counteracted by his sense of what, over and above the central +fact itself, he had to swallow. It was the quantity of make-believe +involved and so vividly exemplified that most disagreed with his +spiritual stomach. He moved, however, from the consideration of that +quantity—to say nothing of the consciousness of that organ—back to the +other feature of the show, the deep, deep truth of the intimacy +revealed. That was what, in his vain vigil, he oftenest reverted to: +intimacy, at such a point, was _like_ that—and what in the world else +would one have wished it to be like? It was all very well for him to +feel the pity of its being so much like lying; he almost blushed, in +the dark, for the way he had dressed the possibility in vagueness, as a +little girl might have dressed her doll. He had made them—and by no +fault of their own—momentarily pull it for him, the possibility, out of +this vagueness; and must he not therefore take it now as they had had +simply, with whatever thin attenuations, to give it to him? The very +question, it may be added, made him feel lonely and cold. There was the +element of the awkward all round, but Chad and Madame de Vionnet had at +least the comfort that they could talk it over together. With whom +could _he_ talk of such things?—unless indeed always, at almost any +stage, with Maria? He foresaw that Miss Gostrey would come again into +requisition on the morrow; though it wasn’t to be denied that he was +already a little afraid of her “What on earth—that’s what I want to +know now—had you then supposed?” He recognised at last that he had +really been trying all along to suppose nothing. Verily, verily, his +labour had been lost. He found himself supposing innumerable and +wonderful things. + + + + +Book Twelfth + + + I + +Strether couldn’t have said he had during the previous hours definitely +expected it; yet when, later on, that morning—though no later indeed +than for his coming forth at ten o’clock—he saw the concierge produce, +on his approach, a _petit bleu_ delivered since his letters had been +sent up, he recognised the appearance as the first symptom of a sequel. +He then knew he had been thinking of some early sign from Chad as more +likely, after all, than not; and this would be precisely the early +sign. He took it so for granted that he opened the _petit bleu_ just +where he had stopped, in the pleasant cool draught of the +_porte-cochère_—only curious to see where the young man would, at such +a juncture, break out. His curiosity, however, was more than gratified; +the small missive, whose gummed edge he had detached without attention +to the address, not being from the young man at all, but from the +person whom the case gave him on the spot as still more worth while. +Worth while or not, he went round to the nearest telegraph-office, the +big one on the Boulevard, with a directness that almost confessed to a +fear of the danger of delay. He might have been thinking that if he +didn’t go before he could think he wouldn’t perhaps go at all. He at +any rate kept, in the lower side-pocket of his morning coat, a very +deliberate hand on his blue missive, crumpling it up rather tenderly +than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the Boulevard, also in the form of a +_petit bleu_—which was quickly done, under pressure of the place, +inasmuch as, like Madame de Vionnet’s own communication, it consisted +of the fewest words. She had asked him if he could do her the very +great kindness of coming to see her that evening at half-past nine, and +he answered, as if nothing were easier, that he would present himself +at the hour she named. She had added a line of postscript, to the +effect that she would come to him elsewhere and at his own hour if he +preferred; but he took no notice of this, feeling that if he saw her at +all half the value of it would be in seeing her where he had already +seen her best. He mightn’t see her at all; that was one of the +reflexions he made after writing and before he dropped his closed card +into the box; he mightn’t see any one at all any more at all; he might +make an end as well now as ever, leaving things as they were, since he +was doubtless not to leave them better, and taking his way home so far +as should appear that a home remained to him. This alternative was for +a few minutes so sharp that if he at last did deposit his missive it +was perhaps because the pressure of the place had an effect. + +There was none other, however, than the common and constant pressure, +familiar to our friend under the rubric of _Postes et Télégraphes_—the +something in the air of these establishments; the vibration of the vast +strange life of the town, the influence of the types, the performers +concocting their messages; the little prompt Paris women, arranging, +pretexting goodness knew what, driving the dreadful needle-pointed +public pen at the dreadful sand-strewn public table: implements that +symbolised for Strether’s too interpretative innocence something more +acute in manners, more sinister in morals, more fierce in the national +life. After he had put in his paper he had ranged himself, he was +really amused to think, on the side of the fierce, the sinister, the +acute. He was carrying on a correspondence, across the great city, +quite in the key of the _Postes et Télégraphes_ in general; and it was +fairly as if the acceptance of that fact had come from something in his +state that sorted with the occupation of his neighbours. He was mixed +up with the typical tale of Paris, and so were they, poor things—how +could they all together help being? They were no worse than he, in +short, and he no worse than they—if, queerly enough, no better; and at +all events he had settled his hash, so that he went out to begin, from +that moment, his day of waiting. The great settlement was, as he felt, +in his preference for seeing his correspondent in her own best +conditions. _That_ was part of the typical tale, the part most +significant in respect to himself. He liked the place she lived in, the +picture that each time squared itself, large and high and clear, around +her: every occasion of seeing it was a pleasure of a different shade. +Yet what precisely was he doing with shades of pleasure now, and why +hadn’t he properly and logically compelled her to commit herself to +whatever of disadvantage and penalty the situation might throw up? He +might have proposed, as for Sarah Pocock, the cold hospitality of his +own _salon de lecture_, in which the chill of Sarah’s visit seemed +still to abide and shades of pleasure were dim; he might have suggested +a stone bench in the dusty Tuileries or a penny chair at the back part +of the Champs Elysées. These things would have been a trifle stern, and +sternness alone now wouldn’t be sinister. An instinct in him cast about +for some form of discipline in which they might meet—some awkwardness +they would suffer from, some danger, or at least some grave +inconvenience, they would incur. This would give a sense—which the +spirit required, rather ached and sighed in the absence of—that +somebody was paying something somewhere and somehow, that they were at +least not all floating together on the silver stream of impunity. Just +instead of that to go and see her late in the evening, as if, for all +the world—well, as if he were as much in the swim as anybody else: this +had as little as possible in common with the penal form. + +Even when he had felt that objection melt away, however, the practical +difference was small; the long stretch of his interval took the colour +it would, and if he lived on thus with the sinister from hour to hour +it proved an easier thing than one might have supposed in advance. He +reverted in thought to his old tradition, the one he had been brought +up on and which even so many years of life had but little worn away; +the notion that the state of the wrongdoer, or at least this person’s +happiness, presented some special difficulty. What struck him now +rather was the ease of it—for nothing in truth appeared easier. It was +an ease he himself fairly tasted of for the rest of the day; giving +himself quite up; not so much as trying to dress it out, in any +particular whatever, as a difficulty; not after all going to see +Maria—which would have been in a manner a result of such dressing; only +idling, lounging, smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade and +consuming ices. The day had turned to heat and eventual thunder, and he +now and again went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn’t been +there. He hadn’t yet struck himself, since leaving Woollett, so much as +a loafer, though there had been times when he believed himself touching +bottom. This was a deeper depth than any, and with no foresight, +scarcely with a care, as to what he should bring up. He almost wondered +if he didn’t _look_ demoralised and disreputable; he had the fanciful +vision, as he sat and smoked, of some accidental, some motived, return +of the Pococks, who would be passing along the Boulevard and would +catch this view of him. They would have distinctly, on his appearance, +every ground for scandal. But fate failed to administer even that +sternness; the Pococks never passed and Chad made no sign. Strether +meanwhile continued to hold off from Miss Gostrey, keeping her till +to-morrow; so that by evening his irresponsibility, his impunity, his +luxury, had become—there was no other word for them—immense. + +Between nine and ten, at last, in the high clear picture—he was moving +in these days, as in a gallery, from clever canvas to clever canvas—he +drew a long breath: it was so presented to him from the first that the +spell of his luxury wouldn’t be broken. He wouldn’t have, that is, to +become responsible—this was admirably in the air: she had sent for him +precisely to let him feel it, so that he might go on with the comfort +(comfort already established, hadn’t it been?) of regarding his ordeal, +the ordeal of the weeks of Sarah’s stay and of their climax, as safely +traversed and left behind him. Didn’t she just wish to assure him that +_she_ now took it all and so kept it; that he was absolutely not to +worry any more, was only to rest on his laurels and continue generously +to help her? The light in her beautiful formal room was dim, though it +would do, as everything would always do; the hot night had kept out +lamps, but there was a pair of clusters of candles that glimmered over +the chimney-piece like the tall tapers of an altar. The windows were +all open, their redundant hangings swaying a little, and he heard once +more, from the empty court, the small plash of the fountain. From +beyond this, and as from a great distance—beyond the court, beyond the +_corps de logis_ forming the front—came, as if excited and exciting, +the vague voice of Paris. Strether had all along been subject to sudden +gusts of fancy in connexion with such matters as these—odd starts of +the historic sense, suppositions and divinations with no warrant but +their intensity. Thus and so, on the eve of the great recorded dates, +the days and nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the omens, +the beginnings broken out. They were the smell of revolution, the smell +of the public temper—or perhaps simply the smell of blood. + +It was at present queer beyond words, “subtle,” he would have risked +saying, that such suggestions should keep crossing the scene; but it +was doubtless the effect of the thunder in the air, which had hung +about all day without release. His hostess was dressed as for +thunderous times, and it fell in with the kind of imagination we have +just attributed to him that she should be in simplest coolest white, of +a character so old-fashioned, if he were not mistaken, that Madame +Roland must on the scaffold have worn something like it. This effect +was enhanced by a small black fichu or scarf, of crape or gauze, +disposed quaintly round her bosom and now completing as by a mystic +touch the pathetic, the noble analogy. Poor Strether in fact scarce +knew what analogy was evoked for him as the charming woman, receiving +him and making him, as she could do such things, at once familiarly and +gravely welcome, moved over her great room with her image almost +repeated in its polished floor, which had been fully bared for summer. +The associations of the place, all felt again; the gleam here and +there, in the subdued light, of glass and gilt and parquet, with the +quietness of her own note as the centre—these things were at first as +delicate as if they had been ghostly, and he was sure in a moment that, +whatever he should find he had come for, it wouldn’t be for an +impression that had previously failed him. That conviction held him +from the outset, and, seeming singularly to simplify, certified to him +that the objects about would help him, would really help them both. No, +he might never see them again—this was only too probably the last time; +and he should certainly see nothing in the least degree like them. He +should soon be going to where such things were not, and it would be a +small mercy for memory, for fancy, to have, in that stress, a loaf on +the shelf. He knew in advance he should look back on the perception +actually sharpest with him as on the view of something old, old, old, +the oldest thing he had ever personally touched; and he also knew, even +while he took his companion in as the feature among features, that +memory and fancy couldn’t help being enlisted for her. She might intend +what she would, but this was beyond anything she could intend, with +things from far back—tyrannies of history, facts of type, values, as +the painters said, of expression—all working for her and giving her the +supreme chance, the chance of the happy, the really luxurious few, the +chance, on a great occasion, to be natural and simple. She had never, +with him, been more so; or if it was the perfection of art it would +never—and that came to the same thing—be proved against her. + +What was truly wonderful was her way of differing so from time to time +without detriment to her simplicity. Caprices, he was sure she felt, +were before anything else bad manners, and that judgement in her was by +itself a thing making more for safety of intercourse than anything that +in his various own past intercourses he had had to reckon on. If +therefore her presence was now quite other than the one she had shown +him the night before, there was nothing of violence in the change—it +was all harmony and reason. It gave him a mild deep person, whereas he +had had on the occasion to which their interview was a direct reference +a person committed to movement and surface and abounding in them; but +she was in either character more remarkable for nothing than for her +bridging of intervals, and this now fell in with what he understood he +was to leave to her. The only thing was that, if he was to leave it +_all_ to her, why exactly had she sent for him? He had had, vaguely, in +advance, his explanation, his view of the probability of her wishing to +set something right, to deal in some way with the fraud so lately +practised on his presumed credulity. Would she attempt to carry it +further or would she blot it out? Would she throw over it some more or +less happy colour; or would she do nothing about it at all? He +perceived soon enough at least that, however reasonable she might be, +she wasn’t vulgarly confused, and it herewith pressed upon him that +their eminent “lie,” Chad’s and hers, was simply after all such an +inevitable tribute to good taste as he couldn’t have wished them not to +render. Away from them, during his vigil, he had seemed to wince at the +amount of comedy involved; whereas in his present posture he could only +ask himself how he should enjoy any attempt from her to take the comedy +back. He shouldn’t enjoy it at all; but, once more and yet once more, +he could trust her. That is he could trust her to make deception right. +As she presented things the ugliness—goodness knew why—went out of +them; none the less too that she could present them, with an art of her +own, by not so much as touching them. She let the matter, at all +events, lie where it was—where the previous twenty-four hours had +placed it; appearing merely to circle about it respectfully, tenderly, +almost piously, while she took up another question. + +She knew she hadn’t really thrown dust in his eyes; this, the previous +night, before they separated, had practically passed between them; and, +as she had sent for him to see what the difference thus made for him +might amount to, so he was conscious at the end of five minutes that he +had been tried and tested. She had settled with Chad after he left them +that she would, for her satisfaction, assure herself of this quantity, +and Chad had, as usual, let her have her way. Chad was always letting +people have their way when he felt that it would somehow turn his wheel +for him; it somehow always did turn his wheel. Strether felt, oddly +enough, before these facts, freshly and consentingly passive; they +again so rubbed it into him that the couple thus fixing his attention +were intimate, that his intervention had absolutely aided and +intensified their intimacy, and that in fine he must accept the +consequence of that. He had absolutely become, himself, with his +perceptions and his mistakes, his concessions and his reserves, the +droll mixture, as it must seem to them, of his braveries and his fears, +the general spectacle of his art and his innocence, almost an added +link and certainly a common priceless ground for them to meet upon. It +was as if he had been hearing their very tone when she brought out a +reference that was comparatively straight. “The last twice that you’ve +been here, you know, I never asked you,” she said with an abrupt +transition—they had been pretending before this to talk simply of the +charm of yesterday and of the interest of the country they had seen. +The effort was confessedly vain; not for such talk had she invited him; +and her impatient reminder was of their having done for it all the +needful on his coming to her after Sarah’s flight. What she hadn’t +asked him then was to state to her where and how he stood for her; she +had been resting on Chad’s report of their midnight hour together in +the Boulevard Malesherbes. The thing therefore she at present desired +was ushered in by this recall of the two occasions on which, +disinterested and merciful, she hadn’t worried him. To-night truly she +_would_ worry him, and this was her appeal to him to let her risk it. +He wasn’t to mind if she bored him a little: she had behaved, after +all—hadn’t she?—so awfully, awfully well. + + + II + +“Oh, you’re all right, you’re all right,” he almost impatiently +declared; his impatience being moreover not for her pressure, but for +her scruple. More and more distinct to him was the tune to which she +would have had the matter out with Chad: more and more vivid for him +the idea that she had been nervous as to what he might be able to +“stand.” Yes, it had been a question if he had “stood” what the scene +on the river had given him, and, though the young man had doubtless +opined in favour of his recuperation, her own last word must have been +that she should feel easier in seeing for herself. That was it, +unmistakeably; she _was_ seeing for herself. What he could stand was +thus, in these moments, in the balance for Strether, who reflected, as +he became fully aware of it, that he must properly brace himself. He +wanted fully to appear to stand all he might; and there was a certain +command of the situation for him in this very wish not to look too much +at sea. She was ready with everything, but so, sufficiently, was he; +that is he was at one point the more prepared of the two, inasmuch as, +for all her cleverness, she couldn’t produce on the spot—and it was +surprising—an account of the motive of her note. He had the advantage +that his pronouncing her “all right” gave him for an enquiry. “May I +ask, delighted as I’ve been to come, if you’ve wished to say something +special?” He spoke as if she might have seen he had been waiting for +it—not indeed with discomfort, but with natural interest. Then he saw +that she was a little taken aback, was even surprised herself at the +detail she had neglected—the only one ever yet; having somehow assumed +he would know, would recognise, would leave some things not to be said. +She looked at him, however, an instant as if to convey that if he +wanted them _all_—! + +“Selfish and vulgar—that’s what I must seem to you. You’ve done +everything for me, and here I am as if I were asking for more. But it +isn’t,” she went on, “because I’m afraid—though I _am_ of course +afraid, as a woman in my position always is. I mean it isn’t because +one lives in terror—it isn’t because of that one is selfish, for I’m +ready to give you my word to-night that I don’t care; don’t care what +still may happen and what I may lose. I don’t ask you to raise your +little finger for me again, nor do I wish so much as to mention to you +what we’ve talked of before, either my danger or my safety, or his +mother, or his sister, or the girl he may marry, or the fortune he may +make or miss, or the right or the wrong, of any kind, he may do. If +after the help one has had from you one can’t either take care of one’s +self or simply hold one’s tongue, one must renounce all claim to be an +object of interest. It’s in the name of what I _do_ care about that +I’ve tried still to keep hold of you. How can I be indifferent,” she +asked, “to how I appear to you?” And as he found himself unable +immediately to say: “Why, if you’re going, _need_ you, after all? Is it +impossible you should stay on—so that one mayn’t lose you?” + +“Impossible I should live with you here instead of going home?” + +“Not ‘with’ us, if you object to that, but near enough to us, +somewhere, for us to see you—well,” she beautifully brought out, “when +we feel we _must_. How shall we not sometimes feel it? I’ve wanted to +see you often when I couldn’t,” she pursued, “all these last weeks. How +shan’t I then miss you now, with the sense of your being gone forever?” +Then as if the straightness of this appeal, taking him unprepared, had +visibly left him wondering: “Where _is_ your ‘home’ moreover now—what +has become of it? I’ve made a change in your life, I know I have; I’ve +upset everything in your mind as well; in your sense of—what shall I +call it?—all the decencies and possibilities. It gives me a kind of +detestation—” She pulled up short. + +Oh but he wanted to hear. “Detestation of what?” + +“Of everything—of life.” + +“Ah that’s too much,” he laughed—“or too little!” + +“Too little, precisely”—she was eager. “What I hate is myself—when I +think that one has to take so much, to be happy, out of the lives of +others, and that one isn’t happy even then. One does it to cheat one’s +self and to stop one’s mouth—but that’s only at the best for a little. +The wretched self is always there, always making one somehow a fresh +anxiety. What it comes to is that it’s not, that it’s never, a +happiness, any happiness at all, to _take_. The only safe thing is to +give. It’s what plays you least false.” Interesting, touching, +strikingly sincere as she let these things come from her, she yet +puzzled and troubled him—so fine was the quaver of her quietness. He +felt what he had felt before with her, that there was always more +behind what she showed, and more and more again behind that. “You know +so, at least,” she added, “where you are!” + +“_You_ ought to know it indeed then; for isn’t what you’ve been giving +exactly what has brought us together this way? You’ve been making, as +I’ve so fully let you know I’ve felt,” Strether said, “the most +precious present I’ve ever seen made, and if you can’t sit down +peacefully on that performance you _are_, no doubt, born to torment +yourself. But you ought,” he wound up, “to be easy.” + +“And not trouble you any more, no doubt—not thrust on you even the +wonder and the beauty of what I’ve done; only let you regard our +business as over, and well over, and see you depart in a peace that +matches my own? No doubt, no doubt, no doubt,” she nervously +repeated—“all the more that I don’t really pretend I believe you +couldn’t, for yourself, _not_ have done what you have. I don’t pretend +you feel yourself victimised, for this evidently is the way you live, +and it’s what—we’re agreed—is the best way. Yes, as you say,” she +continued after a moment, “I ought to be easy and rest on my work. Well +then here am I doing so. I _am_ easy. You’ll have it for your last +impression. When is it you say you go?” she asked with a quick change. + +He took some time to reply—his last impression was more and more so +mixed a one. It produced in him a vague disappointment, a drop that was +deeper even than the fall of his elation the previous night. The good +of what he had done, if he had done so much, wasn’t there to enliven +him quite to the point that would have been ideal for a grand gay +finale. Women were thus endlessly absorbent, and to deal with them was +to walk on water. What was at bottom the matter with her, embroider as +she might and disclaim as she might—what was at bottom the matter with +her was simply Chad himself. It was of Chad she was after all renewedly +afraid; the strange strength of her passion was the very strength of +her fear; she clung to _him_, Lambert Strether, as to a source of +safety she had tested, and, generous graceful truthful as she might try +to be, exquisite as she was, she dreaded the term of his being within +reach. With this sharpest perception yet, it was like a chill in the +air to him, it was almost appalling, that a creature so fine could be, +by mysterious forces, a creature so exploited. For at the end of all +things they _were_ mysterious: she had but made Chad what he was—so why +could she think she had made him infinite? She had made him better, she +had made him best, she had made him anything one would; but it came to +our friend with supreme queerness that he was none the less only Chad. +Strether had the sense that _he_, a little, had made him too; his high +appreciation had as it were, consecrated her work The work, however +admirable, was nevertheless of the strict human order, and in short it +was marvellous that the companion of mere earthly joys, of comforts, +aberrations (however one classed them) within the common experience +should be so transcendently prized. It might have made Strether hot or +shy, as such secrets of others brought home sometimes do make us; but +he was held there by something so hard that it was fairly grim. This +was not the discomposure of last night; that had quite passed—such +discomposures were a detail; the real coercion was to see a man +ineffably adored. There it was again—it took women, it took women; if +to deal with them was to walk on water what wonder that the water rose? +And it had never surely risen higher than round this woman. He +presently found himself taking a long look from her, and the next thing +he knew he had uttered all his thought. “You’re afraid for your life!” + +It drew out her long look, and he soon enough saw why. A spasm came +into her face, the tears she had already been unable to hide overflowed +at first in silence, and then, as the sound suddenly comes from a +child, quickened to gasps, to sobs. She sat and covered her face with +her hands, giving up all attempt at a manner. “It’s how you see me, +it’s how you see me”—she caught her breath with it—“and it’s as I _am_, +and as I must take myself, and of course it’s no matter.” Her emotion +was at first so incoherent that he could only stand there at a loss, +stand with his sense of having upset her, though of having done it by +the truth. He had to listen to her in a silence that he made no +immediate effort to attenuate, feeling her doubly woeful amid all her +dim diffused elegance; consenting to it as he had consented to the +rest, and even conscious of some vague inward irony in the presence of +such a fine free range of bliss and bale. He couldn’t say it was _not_ +no matter; for he was serving her to the end, he now knew, anyway—quite +as if what he thought of her had nothing to do with it. It was actually +moreover as if he didn’t think of her at all, as if he could think of +nothing but the passion, mature, abysmal, pitiful, she represented, and +the possibilities she betrayed. She was older for him to-night, visibly +less exempt from the touch of time; but she was as much as ever the +finest and subtlest creature, the happiest apparition, it had been +given him, in all his years, to meet; and yet he could see her there as +vulgarly troubled, in very truth, as a maidservant crying for her young +man. The only thing was that she judged herself as the maidservant +wouldn’t; the weakness of which wisdom too, the dishonour of which +judgement, seemed but to sink her lower. Her collapse, however, no +doubt, was briefer and she had in a manner recovered herself before he +intervened. “Of course I’m afraid for my life. But that’s nothing. It +isn’t that.” + +He was silent a little longer, as if thinking what it might be. +“There’s something I have in mind that I can still do.” + +But she threw off at last, with a sharp sad headshake, drying her eyes, +what he could still do. “I don’t care for that. Of course, as I’ve +said, you’re acting, in your wonderful way, for yourself; and what’s +for yourself is no more my business—though I may reach out unholy hands +so clumsily to touch it—than if it were something in Timbuctoo. It’s +only that you don’t snub me, as you’ve had fifty chances to do—it’s +only your beautiful patience that makes one forget one’s manners. In +spite of your patience, all the same,” she went on, “you’d do anything +rather than be with us here, even if that were possible. You’d do +everything for us but be mixed up with us—which is a statement you can +easily answer to the advantage of your own manners. You can say ‘What’s +the use of talking of things that at the best are impossible?’ What +_is_ of course the use? It’s only my little madness. You’d talk if you +were tormented. And I don’t mean now about _him_. Oh for him—!” +Positively, strangely, bitterly, as it seemed to Strether, she gave +“him,” for the moment, away. “You don’t care what I think of you; but I +happen to care what you think of me. And what you _might_,” she added. +“What you perhaps even did.” + +He gained time. “What I did—?” + +“Did think before. Before this. _Didn’t_ you think—?” + +But he had already stopped her. “I didn’t think anything. I never think +a step further than I’m obliged to.” + +“That’s perfectly false, I believe,” she returned—“except that you may, +no doubt, often pull up when things become _too_ ugly; or even, I’ll +say, to save you a protest, too beautiful. At any rate, even so far as +it’s true, we’ve thrust on you appearances that you’ve had to take in +and that have therefore made your obligation. Ugly or beautiful—it +doesn’t matter what we call them—you were getting on without them, and +that’s where we’re detestable. We bore you—that’s where we are. And we +may well—for what we’ve cost you. All you can do _now_ is not to think +at all. And I who should have liked to seem to you—well, sublime!” + +He could only after a moment re-echo Miss Barrace. “You’re wonderful!” + +“I’m old and abject and hideous”—she went on as without hearing him. +“Abject above all. Or old above all. It’s when one’s old that it’s +worst. I don’t care what becomes of it—let what _will_; there it is. +It’s a doom—I know it; you can’t see it more than I do myself. Things +have to happen as they will.” With which she came back again to what, +face to face with him, had so quite broken down. “Of course you +wouldn’t, even if possible, and no matter what may happen to you, be +near us. But think of me, think of me—!” She exhaled it into air. + +He took refuge in repeating something he had already said and that she +had made nothing of. “There’s something I believe I can still do.” And +he put his hand out for good-bye. + +She again made nothing of it; she went on with her insistence. “That +won’t help you. There’s nothing to help you.” + +“Well, it may help _you_,” he said. + +She shook her head. “There’s not a grain of certainty in my future—for +the only certainty is that I shall be the loser in the end.” + +She hadn’t taken his hand, but she moved with him to the door. “That’s +cheerful,” he laughed, “for your benefactor!” + +“What’s cheerful for _me_,” she replied, “is that we might, you and I, +have been friends. That’s it—that’s it. You see how, as I say, I want +everything. I’ve wanted you too.” + +“Ah but you’ve _had_ me!” he declared, at the door, with an emphasis +that made an end. + + + III + +His purpose had been to see Chad the next day, and he had prefigured +seeing him by an early call; having in general never stood on ceremony +in respect to visits at the Boulevard Malesherbes. It had been more +often natural for him to go there than for Chad to come to the small +hotel, the attractions of which were scant; yet it nevertheless, just +now, at the eleventh hour, did suggest itself to Strether to begin by +giving the young man a chance. It struck him that, in the inevitable +course, Chad would be “round,” as Waymarsh used to say—Waymarsh who +already, somehow, seemed long ago. He hadn’t come the day before, +because it had been arranged between them that Madame de Vionnet should +see their friend first; but now that this passage had taken place he +would present himself, and their friend wouldn’t have long to wait. +Strether assumed, he became aware, on this reasoning, that the +interesting parties to the arrangement would have met betimes, and that +the more interesting of the two—as she was after all—would have +communicated to the other the issue of her appeal. Chad would know +without delay that his mother’s messenger had been with her, and, +though it was perhaps not quite easy to see how she could qualify what +had occurred, he would at least have been sufficiently advised to feel +he could go on. The day, however, brought, early or late, no word from +him, and Strether felt, as a result of this, that a change had +practically come over their intercourse. It was perhaps a premature +judgement; or it only meant perhaps—how could he tell?—that the +wonderful pair he protected had taken up again together the excursion +he had accidentally checked. They might have gone back to the country, +and gone back but with a long breath drawn; that indeed would best mark +Chad’s sense that reprobation hadn’t rewarded Madame de Vionnet’s +request for an interview. At the end of the twenty-four hours, at the +end of the forty-eight, there was still no overture; so that Strether +filled up the time, as he had so often filled it before, by going to +see Miss Gostrey. + +He proposed amusements to her; he felt expert now in proposing +amusements; and he had thus, for several days, an odd sense of leading +her about Paris, of driving her in the Bois, of showing her the penny +steamboats—those from which the breeze of the Seine was to be best +enjoyed—that might have belonged to a kindly uncle doing the honours of +the capital to an intelligent niece from the country. He found means +even to take her to shops she didn’t know, or that she pretended she +didn’t; while she, on her side, was, like the country maiden, all +passive modest and grateful—going in fact so far as to emulate +rusticity in occasional fatigues and bewilderments. Strether described +these vague proceedings to himself, described them even to her, as a +happy interlude; the sign of which was that the companions said for the +time no further word about the matter they had talked of to satiety. He +proclaimed satiety at the outset, and she quickly took the hint; as +docile both in this and in everything else as the intelligent obedient +niece. He told her as yet nothing of his late adventure—for as an +adventure it now ranked with him; he pushed the whole business +temporarily aside and found his interest in the fact of her beautiful +assent. She left questions unasked—she who for so long had been all +questions; she gave herself up to him with an understanding of which +mere mute gentleness might have seemed the sufficient expression. She +knew his sense of his situation had taken still another step—of that he +was quite aware; but she conveyed that, whatever had thus happened for +him, it was thrown into the shade by what was happening for herself. +This—though it mightn’t to a detached spirit have seemed much—was the +major interest, and she met it with a new directness of response, +measuring it from hour to hour with her grave hush of acceptance. +Touched as he had so often been by her before, he was, for his part +too, touched afresh; all the more that though he could be duly aware of +the principle of his own mood he couldn’t be equally so of the +principle of hers. He knew, that is, in a manner—knew roughly and +resignedly—what he himself was hatching; whereas he had to take the +chance of what he called to himself Maria’s calculations. It was all he +needed that she liked him enough for what they were doing, and even +should they do a good deal more would still like him enough for that; +the essential freshness of a relation so simple was a cool bath to the +soreness produced by other relations. These others appeared to him now +horribly complex; they bristled with fine points, points all +unimaginable beforehand, points that pricked and drew blood; a fact +that gave to an hour with his present friend on a _bateau-mouche_, or +in the afternoon shade of the Champs Elysées, something of the innocent +pleasure of handling rounded ivory. His relation with Chad +personally—from the moment he had got his point of view—had been of the +simplest; yet this also struck him as bristling, after a third and a +fourth blank day had passed. It was as if at last however his care for +such indications had dropped; there came a fifth blank day and he +ceased to enquire or to heed. + +They now took on to his fancy, Miss Gostrey and he, the image of the +Babes in the Wood; they could trust the merciful elements to let them +continue at peace. He had been great already, as he knew, at +postponements; but he had only to get afresh into the rhythm of one to +feel its fine attraction. It amused him to say to himself that he might +for all the world have been going to die—die resignedly; the scene was +filled for him with so deep a death-bed hush, so melancholy a charm. +That meant the postponement of everything else—which made so for the +quiet lapse of life; and the postponement in especial of the reckoning +to come—unless indeed the reckoning to come were to be one and the same +thing with extinction. It faced him, the reckoning, over the shoulder +of much interposing experience—which also faced him; and one would +float to it doubtless duly through these caverns of Kubla Khan. It was +really behind everything; it hadn’t merged in what he had done; his +final appreciation of what he had done—his appreciation on the +spot—would provide it with its main sharpness. The spot so focussed was +of course Woollett, and he was to see, at the best, what Woollett would +be with everything there changed for him. Wouldn’t _that_ revelation +practically amount to the wind-up of his career? Well, the summer’s end +would show; his suspense had meanwhile exactly the sweetness of vain +delay; and he had with it, we should mention, other pastimes than +Maria’s company—plenty of separate musings in which his luxury failed +him but at one point. He was well in port, the outer sea behind him, +and it was only a matter of getting ashore. There was a question that +came and went for him, however, as he rested against the side of his +ship, and it was a little to get rid of the obsession that he prolonged +his hours with Miss Gostrey. It was a question about himself, but it +could only be settled by seeing Chad again; it was indeed his principal +reason for wanting to see Chad. After that it wouldn’t signify—it was a +ghost that certain words would easily lay to rest. Only the young man +must be there to take the words. Once they were taken he wouldn’t have +a question left; none, that is, in connexion with this particular +affair. It wouldn’t then matter even to himself that he might now have +been guilty of speaking _because_ of what he had forfeited. That was +the refinement of his supreme scruple—he wished so to leave what he had +forfeited out of account. He wished not to do anything because he had +missed something else, because he was sore or sorry or impoverished, +because he was maltreated or desperate; he wished to do everything +because he was lucid and quiet, just the same for himself on all +essential points as he had ever been. Thus it was that while he +virtually hung about for Chad he kept mutely putting it: “You’ve been +chucked, old boy; but what has that to do with it?” It would have +sickened him to feel vindictive. + +These tints of feeling indeed were doubtless but the iridescence of his +idleness, and they were presently lost in a new light from Maria. She +had a fresh fact for him before the week was out, and she practically +met him with it on his appearing one night. He hadn’t on this day seen +her, but had planned presenting himself in due course to ask her to +dine with him somewhere out of doors, on one of the terraces, in one of +the gardens, of which the Paris of summer was profuse. It had then come +on to rain, so that, disconcerted, he changed his mind; dining alone at +home, a little stuffily and stupidly, and waiting on her afterwards to +make up his loss. He was sure within a minute that something had +happened; it was so in the air of the rich little room that he had +scarcely to name his thought. Softly lighted, the whole colour of the +place, with its vague values, was in cool fusion—an effect that made +the visitor stand for a little agaze. It was as if in doing so now he +had felt a recent presence—his recognition of the passage of which his +hostess in turn divined. She had scarcely to say it—“Yes, she has been +here, and this time I received her.” It wasn’t till a minute later that +she added: “There being, as I understand you, no reason _now_—!” + +“None for your refusing?” + +“No—if you’ve done what you’ve had to do.” + +“I’ve certainly so far done it,” Strether said, “as that you needn’t +fear the effect, or the appearance of coming between us. There’s +nothing between us now but what we ourselves have put there, and not an +inch of room for anything else whatever. Therefore you’re only +beautifully _with_ us as always—though doubtless now, if she has talked +to you, rather more with us than less. Of course if she came,” he +added, “it was to talk to you.” + +“It was to talk to me,” Maria returned; on which he was further sure +that she was practically in possession of what he himself hadn’t yet +told her. He was even sure she was in possession of things he himself +couldn’t have told; for the consciousness of them was now all in her +face and accompanied there with a shade of sadness that marked in her +the close of all uncertainties. It came out for him more than ever yet +that she had had from the first a knowledge she believed him not to +have had, a knowledge the sharp acquisition of which might be destined +to make a difference for him. The difference for him might not +inconceivably be an arrest of his independence and a change in his +attitude—in other words a revulsion in favour of the principles of +Woollett. She had really prefigured the possibility of a shock that +would send him swinging back to Mrs. Newsome. He hadn’t, it was true, +week after week, shown signs of receiving it, but the possibility had +been none the less in the air. What Maria accordingly had had now to +take in was that the shock had descended and that he hadn’t, all the +same, swung back. He had grown clear, in a flash, on a point long since +settled for herself; but no reapproximation to Mrs. Newsome had +occurred in consequence. Madame de Vionnet had by her visit held up the +torch to these truths, and what now lingered in poor Maria’s face was +the somewhat smoky light of the scene between them. If the light +however wasn’t, as we have hinted, the glow of joy, the reasons for +this also were perhaps discernible to Strether even through the blur +cast over them by his natural modesty. She had held herself for months +with a firm hand; she hadn’t interfered on any chance—and chances were +specious enough—that she might interfere to her profit. She had turned +her back on the dream that Mrs. Newsome’s rupture, their friend’s +forfeiture—the engagement, the relation itself, broken beyond all +mending—might furnish forth her advantage; and, to stay her hand from +promoting these things, she had on private, difficult, but rigid, +lines, played strictly fair. She couldn’t therefore but feel that, +though, as the end of all, the facts in question had been stoutly +confirmed, her ground for personal, for what might have been called +interested, elation remained rather vague. Strether might easily have +made out that she had been asking herself, in the hours she had just +sat through, if there were still for her, or were only not, a fair +shade of uncertainty. Let us hasten to add, however, that what he at +first made out on this occasion he also at first kept to himself. He +only asked what in particular Madame de Vionnet had come for, and as to +this his companion was ready. + +“She wants tidings of Mr. Newsome, whom she appears not to have seen +for some days.” + +“Then she hasn’t been away with him again?” + +“She seemed to think,” Maria answered, “that he might have gone away +with _you_.” + +“And did you tell her I know nothing of him?” + +She had her indulgent headshake. “I’ve known nothing of what you know. +I could only tell her I’d ask you.” + +“Then I’ve not seen him for a week—and of course I’ve wondered.” His +wonderment showed at this moment as sharper, but he presently went on. +“Still, I dare say I can put my hand on him. Did she strike you,” he +asked, “as anxious?” + +“She’s always anxious.” + +“After all I’ve done for her?” And he had one of the last flickers of +his occasional mild mirth. “To think that was just what I came out to +prevent!” + +She took it up but to reply. “You don’t regard him then as safe?” + +“I was just going to ask you how in that respect you regard Madame de +Vionnet.” + +She looked at him a little. “What woman was _ever_ safe? She told me,” +she added—and it was as if at the touch of the connexion—“of your +extraordinary meeting in the country. After that _à quoi se fier?_” + +“It was, as an accident, in all the possible or impossible chapter,” +Strether conceded, “amazing enough. But still, but still—!” + +“But still she didn’t mind?” + +“She doesn’t mind anything.” + +“Well, then, as you don’t either, we may all sink to rest!” + +He appeared to agree with her, but he had his reservation. “I do mind +Chad’s disappearance.” + +“Oh you’ll get him back. But now you know,” she said, “why I went to +Mentone.” He had sufficiently let her see that he had by this time +gathered things together, but there was nature in her wish to make them +clearer still. “I didn’t want you to put it to me.” + +“To put it to you—?” + +“The question of what you were at last—a week ago—to see for yourself. +I didn’t want to have to lie for her. I felt that to be too much for +me. A man of course is always expected to do it—to do it, I mean, for a +woman; but not a woman for another woman; unless perhaps on the +tit-for-tat principle, as an indirect way of protecting herself. I +don’t need protection, so that I was free to ‘funk’ you—simply to dodge +your test. The responsibility was too much for me. I gained time, and +when I came back the need of a test had blown over.” + +Strether thought of it serenely. “Yes; when you came back little Bilham +had shown me what’s expected of a gentleman. Little Bilham had lied +like one.” + +“And like what you believed him?” + +“Well,” said Strether, “it was but a technical lie—he classed the +attachment as virtuous. That was a view for which there was much to be +said—and the virtue came out for me hugely There was of course a great +deal of it. I got it full in the face, and I haven’t, you see, done +with it yet.” + +“What I see, what I saw,” Maria returned, “is that you dressed up even +the virtue. You were wonderful—you were beautiful, as I’ve had the +honour of telling you before; but, if you wish really to know,” she +sadly confessed, “I never quite knew _where_ you were. There were +moments,” she explained, “when you struck me as grandly cynical; there +were others when you struck me as grandly vague.” + +Her friend considered. “I had phases. I had flights.” + +“Yes, but things must have a basis.” + +“A basis seemed to me just what her beauty supplied.” + +“Her beauty of person?” + +“Well, her beauty of everything. The impression she makes. She has such +variety and yet such harmony.” + +She considered him with one of her deep returns of indulgence—returns +out of all proportion to the irritations they flooded over. “You’re +complete.” + +“You’re always too personal,” he good-humouredly said; “but that’s +precisely how I wondered and wandered.” + +“If you mean,” she went on, “that she was from the first for you the +most charming woman in the world, nothing’s more simple. Only that was +an odd foundation.” + +“For what I reared on it?” + +“For what you didn’t!” + +“Well, it was all not a fixed quantity. And it had for me—it has +still—such elements of strangeness. Her greater age than his, her +different world, traditions, association; her other opportunities, +liabilities, standards.” + +His friend listened with respect to his enumeration of these +disparities; then she disposed of them at a stroke. “Those things are +nothing when a woman’s hit. It’s very awful. She was hit.” + +Strether, on his side, did justice to that plea. “Oh of course I saw +she was hit. That she was hit was what we were busy with; that she was +hit was our great affair. But somehow I couldn’t think of her as down +in the dust. And as put there by _our_ little Chad!” + +“Yet wasn’t ‘your’ little Chad just your miracle?” + +Strether admitted it. “Of course I moved among miracles. It was all +phantasmagoric. But the great fact was that so much of it was none of +my business—as I saw my business. It isn’t even now.” + +His companion turned away on this, and it might well have been yet +again with the sharpness of a fear of how little his philosophy could +bring her personally. “I wish _she_ could hear you!” + +“Mrs. Newsome?” + +“No—not Mrs. Newsome; since I understand you that it doesn’t matter now +what Mrs. Newsome hears. Hasn’t she heard everything?” + +“Practically—yes.” He had thought a moment, but he went on. “You wish +Madame de Vionnet could hear me?” + +“Madame de Vionnet.” She had come back to him. “She thinks just the +contrary of what you say. That you distinctly judge her.” + +He turned over the scene as the two women thus placed together for him +seemed to give it. “She might have known—!” + +“Might have known you don’t?” Miss Gostrey asked as he let it drop. +“She was sure of it at first,” she pursued as he said nothing; “she +took it for granted, at least, as any woman in her position would. But +after that she changed her mind; she believed you believed—” + +“Well?”—he was curious. + +“Why in her sublimity. And that belief had remained with her, I make +out, till the accident of the other day opened your eyes. For that it +did,” said Maria, “open them—” + +“She can’t help”—he had taken it up—“being aware? No,” he mused; “I +suppose she thinks of that even yet.” + +“Then they _were_ closed? There you are! However, if you see her as the +most charming woman in the world it comes to the same thing. And if +you’d like me to tell her that you do still so see her—!” Miss Gostrey, +in short, offered herself for service to the end. + +It was an offer he could temporarily entertain; but he decided. “She +knows perfectly how I see her.” + +“Not favourably enough, she mentioned to me, to wish ever to see her +again. She told me you had taken a final leave of her. She says you’ve +done with her.” + +“So I have.” + +Maria had a pause; then she spoke as if for conscience. “She wouldn’t +have done with _you_. She feels she has lost you—yet that she might +have been better for you.” + +“Oh she has been quite good enough!” Strether laughed. + +“She thinks you and she might at any rate have been friends.” + +“We might certainly. That’s just”—he continued to laugh—“why I’m +going.” + +It was as if Maria could feel with this then at last that she had done +her best for each. But she had still an idea. “Shall I tell her that?” + +“No. Tell her nothing.” + +“Very well then.” To which in the next breath Miss Gostrey added: “Poor +dear thing!” + +Her friend wondered; then with raised eyebrows: “Me?” + +“Oh no. Marie de Vionnet.” + +He accepted the correction, but he wondered still. “Are you so sorry +for her as that?” + +It made her think a moment—made her even speak with a smile. But she +didn’t really retract. “I’m sorry for us all!” + + + IV + +He was to delay no longer to re-establish communication with Chad, and +we have just seen that he had spoken to Miss Gostrey of this intention +on hearing from her of the young man’s absence. It was not moreover +only the assurance so given that prompted him; it was the need of +causing his conduct to square with another profession still—the motive +he had described to her as his sharpest for now getting away. If he was +to get away because of some of the relations involved in staying, the +cold attitude toward them might look pedantic in the light of lingering +on. He must do both things; he must see Chad, but he must go. The more +he thought of the former of these duties the more he felt himself make +a subject of insistence of the latter. They were alike intensely +present to him as he sat in front of a quiet little café into which he +had dropped on quitting Maria’s entresol. The rain that had spoiled his +evening with her was over; for it was still to him as if his evening +_had_ been spoiled—though it mightn’t have been wholly the rain. It was +late when he left the café, yet not too late; he couldn’t in any case +go straight to bed, and he would walk round by the Boulevard +Malesherbes—rather far round—on his way home. Present enough always was +the small circumstance that had originally pressed for him the spring +of so big a difference—the accident of little Bilham’s appearance on +the balcony of the mystic troisième at the moment of his first visit, +and the effect of it on his sense of what was then before him. He +recalled his watch, his wait, and the recognition that had proceeded +from the young stranger, that had played frankly into the air and had +presently brought him up—things smoothing the way for his first +straight step. He had since had occasion, a few times, to pass the +house without going in; but he had never passed it without again +feeling how it had then spoken to him. He stopped short to-night on +coming to sight of it: it was as if his last day were oddly copying his +first. The windows of Chad’s apartment were open to the balcony—a pair +of them lighted; and a figure that had come out and taken up little +Bilham’s attitude, a figure whose cigarette-spark he could see leaned +on the rail and looked down at him. It denoted however no reappearance +of his younger friend; it quickly defined itself in the tempered +darkness as Chad’s more solid shape; so that Chad’s was the attention +that after he had stepped forward into the street and signalled, he +easily engaged; Chad’s was the voice that, sounding into the night with +promptness and seemingly with joy, greeted him and called him up. + +That the young man had been visible there just in this position +expressed somehow for Strether that, as Maria Gostrey had reported, he +had been absent and silent; and our friend drew breath on each +landing—the lift, at that hour, having ceased to work—before the +implications of the fact. He had been for a week intensely away, away +to a distance and alone; but he was more back than ever, and the +attitude in which Strether had surprised him was something more than a +return—it was clearly a conscious surrender. He had arrived but an hour +before, from London, from Lucerne, from Homburg, from no matter +where—though the visitor’s fancy, on the staircase, liked to fill it +out; and after a bath, a talk with Baptiste and a supper of light cold +clever French things, which one could see the remains of there in the +circle of the lamp, pretty and ultra-Parisian, he had come into the air +again for a smoke, was occupied at the moment of Strether’s approach in +what might have been called taking up his life afresh. His life, his +life!—Strether paused anew, on the last flight, at this final rather +breathless sense of what Chad’s life was doing with Chad’s mother’s +emissary. It was dragging him, at strange hours, up the staircases of +the rich; it was keeping him out of bed at the end of long hot days; it +was transforming beyond recognition the simple, subtle, conveniently +uniform thing that had anciently passed with him for a life of his own. +Why should it concern him that Chad was to be fortified in the pleasant +practice of smoking on balconies, of supping on salads, of feeling his +special conditions agreeably reaffirm themselves, of finding +reassurance in comparisons and contrasts? There was no answer to such a +question but that he was still practically committed—he had perhaps +never yet so much known it. It made him feel old, and he would buy his +railway-ticket—feeling, no doubt, older—the next day; but he had +meanwhile come up four flights, counting the entresol, at midnight and +without a lift, for Chad’s life. The young man, hearing him by this +time, and with Baptiste sent to rest, was already at the door; so that +Strether had before him in full visibility the cause in which he was +labouring and even, with the troisième fairly gained, panting a little. + +Chad offered him, as always, a welcome in which the cordial and the +formal—so far as the formal was the respectful—handsomely met; and +after he had expressed a hope that he would let him put him up for the +night Strether was in full possession of the key, as it might have been +called, to what had lately happened. If he had just thought of himself +as old Chad was at sight of him thinking of him as older: he wanted to +put him up for the night just because he was ancient and weary. It +could never be said the tenant of these quarters wasn’t nice to him; a +tenant who, if he might indeed now keep him, was probably prepared to +work it all still more thoroughly. Our friend had in fact the +impression that with the minimum of encouragement Chad would propose to +keep him indefinitely; an impression in the lap of which one of his own +possibilities seemed to sit. Madame de Vionnet had wished him to +stay—so why didn’t that happily fit? He could enshrine himself for the +rest of his days in his young host’s _chambre d’ami_ and draw out these +days at his young host’s expense: there could scarce be greater logical +expression of the countenance he had been moved to give. There was +literally a minute—it was strange enough—during which he grasped the +idea that as he _was_ acting, as he could only act, he was +inconsistent. The sign that the inward forces he had obeyed really hung +together would be that—in default always of another career—he should +promote the good cause by mounting guard on it. These things, during +his first minutes, came and went; but they were after all practically +disposed of as soon as he had mentioned his errand. He had come to say +good-bye—yet that was only a part; so that from the moment Chad +accepted his farewell the question of a more ideal affirmation gave way +to something else. He proceeded with the rest of his business. “You’ll +be a brute, you know—you’ll be guilty of the last infamy—if you ever +forsake her.” + +That, uttered there at the solemn hour, uttered in the place that was +full of her influence, was the rest of his business; and when once he +had heard himself say it he felt that his message had never before been +spoken. It placed his present call immediately on solid ground, and the +effect of it was to enable him quite to play with what we have called +the key. Chad showed no shade of embarrassment, but had none the less +been troubled for him after their meeting in the country; had had fears +and doubts on the subject of his comfort. He was disturbed, as it were, +only _for_ him, and had positively gone away to ease him off, to let +him down—if it wasn’t indeed rather to screw him up—the more gently. +Seeing him now fairly jaded he had come, with characteristic good +humour, all the way to meet him, and what Strether thereupon supremely +made out was that he would abound for him to the end in conscientious +assurances. This was what was between them while the visitor remained; +so far from having to go over old ground he found his entertainer keen +to agree to everything. It couldn’t be put too strongly for him that +he’d be a brute. “Oh rather!—if I should do anything of _that_ sort. I +hope you believe I really feel it.” + +“I want it,” said Strether, “to be my last word of all to you. I can’t +say more, you know; and I don’t see how I can do more, in every way, +than I’ve done.” + +Chad took this, almost artlessly, as a direct allusion. “You’ve seen +her?” + +“Oh yes—to say good-bye. And if I had doubted the truth of what I tell +you—” + +“She’d have cleared up your doubt?” Chad understood—“rather”—again! It +even kept him briefly silent. But he made that up. “She must have been +wonderful.” + +“She _was_,” Strether candidly admitted—all of which practically told +as a reference to the conditions created by the accident of the +previous week. + +They appeared for a little to be looking back at it; and that came out +still more in what Chad next said. “I don’t know what you’ve really +thought, all along; I never did know—for anything, with you, seemed to +be possible. But of course—of course—” Without confusion, quite with +nothing but indulgence, he broke down, he pulled up. “After all, you +understand. I spoke to you originally only as I _had_ to speak. There’s +only one way—isn’t there?—about such things. However,” he smiled with a +final philosophy, “I see it’s all right.” + +Strether met his eyes with a sense of multiplying thoughts. What was it +that made him at present, late at night and after journeys, so +renewedly, so substantially young? Strether saw in a moment what it +was—it was that he was younger again than Madame de Vionnet. He himself +said immediately none of the things that he was thinking; he said +something quite different. “You _have_ really been to a distance?” + +“I’ve been to England.” Chad spoke cheerfully and promptly, but gave no +further account of it than to say: “One must sometimes get off.” + +Strether wanted no more facts—he only wanted to justify, as it were, +his question. “Of course you do as you’re free to do. But I hope, this +time, that you didn’t go for _me_.” + +“For very shame at bothering you really too much? My dear man,” Chad +laughed, “what _wouldn’t_ I do for you?” + +Strether’s easy answer for this was that it was a disposition he had +exactly come to profit by. “Even at the risk of being in your way I’ve +waited on, you know, for a definite reason.” + +Chad took it in. “Oh yes—for us to make if possible a still better +impression.” And he stood there happily exhaling his full general +consciousness. “I’m delighted to gather that you feel we’ve made it.” + +There was a pleasant irony in the words, which his guest, preoccupied +and keeping to the point, didn’t take up. “If I had my sense of wanting +the rest of the time—the time of their being still on this side,” he +continued to explain—“I know now why I wanted it.” + +He was as grave, as distinct, as a demonstrator before a blackboard, +and Chad continued to face him like an intelligent pupil. “You wanted +to have been put through the whole thing.” + +Strether again, for a moment, said nothing; he turned his eyes away, +and they lost themselves, through the open window, in the dusky outer +air. “I shall learn from the Bank here where they’re now having their +letters, and my last word, which I shall write in the morning and which +they’re expecting as my ultimatum, will so immediately reach them.” The +light of his plural pronoun was sufficiently reflected in his +companion’s face as he again met it; and he completed his +demonstration. He pursued indeed as if for himself. “Of course I’ve +first to justify what I shall do.” + +“You’re justifying it beautifully!” Chad declared. + +“It’s not a question of advising you not to go,” Strether said, “but of +absolutely preventing you, if possible, from so much as thinking of it. +Let me accordingly appeal to you by all you hold sacred.” + +Chad showed a surprise. “What makes you think me capable—?” + +“You’d not only be, as I say, a brute; you’d be,” his companion went on +in the same way, “a criminal of the deepest dye.” + +Chad gave a sharper look, as if to gauge a possible suspicion. “I don’t +know what should make you think I’m tired of her.” + +Strether didn’t quite know either, and such impressions, for the +imaginative mind, were always too fine, too floating, to produce on the +spot their warrant. There was none the less for him, in the very manner +of his host’s allusion to satiety as a thinkable motive, a slight +breath of the ominous. “I feel how much more she can do for you. She +hasn’t done it all yet. Stay with her at least till she has.” + +“And leave her _then?_” + +Chad had kept smiling, but its effect in Strether was a shade of +dryness. “Don’t leave her _before_. When you’ve got all that can be +got—I don’t say,” he added a trifle grimly. “That will be the proper +time. But as, for you, from such a woman, there will always be +something to be got, my remark’s not a wrong to her.” Chad let him go +on, showing every decent deference, showing perhaps also a candid +curiosity for this sharper accent. “I remember you, you know, as you +were.” + +“An awful ass, wasn’t I?” + +The response was as prompt as if he had pressed a spring; it had a +ready abundance at which he even winced; so that he took a moment to +meet it. “You certainly then wouldn’t have seemed worth all you’ve let +me in for. You’ve defined yourself better. Your value has quintupled.” + +“Well then, wouldn’t that be enough—?” + +Chad had risked it jocosely, but Strether remained blank. “Enough?” + +“If one _should_ wish to live on one’s accumulations?” After which, +however, as his friend appeared cold to the joke, the young man as +easily dropped it. “Of course I really never forget, night or day, what +I owe her. I owe her everything. I give you my word of honour,” he +frankly rang out, “that I’m not a bit tired of her.” Strether at this +only gave him a stare: the way youth could express itself was again and +again a wonder. He meant no harm, though he might after all be capable +of much; yet he spoke of being “tired” of her almost as he might have +spoken of being tired of roast mutton for dinner. “She has never for a +moment yet bored me—never been wanting, as the cleverest women +sometimes are, in tact. She has never talked about her tact—as even +they too sometimes talk; but she has always had it. She has never had +it more”—he handsomely made the point—“than just lately.” And he +scrupulously went further. “She has never been anything I could call a +burden.” + +Strether for a moment said nothing; then he spoke gravely, with his +shade of dryness deepened. “Oh if you didn’t do her justice—!” + +“I _should_ be a beast, eh?” + +Strether devoted no time to saying what he would be; _that_, visibly, +would take them far. If there was nothing for it but to repeat, +however, repetition was no mistake. “You owe her everything—very much +more than she can ever owe you. You’ve in other words duties to her, of +the most positive sort; and I don’t see what other duties—as the others +are presented to you—can be held to go before them.” + +Chad looked at him with a smile. “And you know of course about the +others, eh?—since it’s you yourself who have done the presenting.” + +“Much of it—yes—and to the best of my ability. But not all—from the +moment your sister took my place.” + +“She didn’t,” Chad returned. “Sally took a place, certainly; but it was +never, I saw from the first moment, to be yours. No one—with us—will +ever take yours. It wouldn’t be possible.” + +“Ah of course,” sighed Strether, “I knew it. I believe you’re right. No +one in the world, I imagine, was ever so portentously solemn. There I +am,” he added with another sigh, as if weary enough, on occasion, of +this truth. “I was made so.” + +Chad appeared for a little to consider the way he was made; he might +for this purpose have measured him up and down. His conclusion favoured +the fact. “_You_ have never needed any one to make you better. There +has never been any one good enough. They couldn’t,” the young man +declared. + +His friend hesitated. “I beg your pardon. They _have_.” + +Chad showed, not without amusement, his doubt. “Who then?” + +Strether—though a little dimly—smiled at him. “Women—too.” + +“‘Two’?”—Chad stared and laughed. “Oh I don’t believe, for such work, +in any more than one! So you’re proving too much. And what _is_ +beastly, at all events,” he added, “is losing you.” + +Strether had set himself in motion for departure, but at this he +paused. “Are you afraid?” + +“Afraid—?” + +“Of doing wrong. I mean away from my eye.” Before Chad could speak, +however, he had taken himself up. “I _am_, certainly,” he laughed, +“prodigious.” + +“Yes, you spoil us for all the stupid—!” This might have been, on +Chad’s part, in its extreme emphasis, almost too freely extravagant; +but it was full, plainly enough, of the intention of comfort, it +carried with it a protest against doubt and a promise, positively, of +performance. Picking up a hat in the vestibule he came out with his +friend, came downstairs, took his arm, affectionately, as to help and +guide him, treating him if not exactly as aged and infirm, yet as a +noble eccentric who appealed to tenderness, and keeping on with him, +while they walked, to the next corner and the next. “You needn’t tell +me, you needn’t tell me!”—this again as they proceeded, he wished to +make Strether feel. What he needn’t tell him was now at last, in the +geniality of separation, anything at all it concerned him to know. He +knew, up to the hilt—that really came over Chad; he understood, felt, +recorded his vow; and they lingered on it as they had lingered in their +walk to Strether’s hotel the night of their first meeting. The latter +took, at this hour, all he could get; he had given all he had had to +give; he was as depleted as if he had spent his last sou. But there was +just one thing for which, before they broke off, Chad seemed disposed +slightly to bargain. His companion needn’t, as he said, tell him, but +he might himself mention that he had been getting some news of the art +of advertisement. He came out quite suddenly with this announcement +while Strether wondered if his revived interest were what had taken +him, with strange inconsequence, over to London. He appeared at all +events to have been looking into the question and had encountered a +revelation. Advertising scientifically worked presented itself thus as +the great new force. “It really does the thing, you know.” + +They were face to face under the street-lamp as they had been the first +night, and Strether, no doubt, looked blank. “Affects, you mean, the +sale of the object advertised?” + +“Yes—but affects it extraordinarily; really beyond what one had +supposed. I mean of course when it’s done as one makes out that in our +roaring age, it _can_ be done. I’ve been finding out a little, though +it doubtless doesn’t amount to much more than what you originally, so +awfully vividly—and all, very nearly, that first night—put before me. +It’s an art like another, and infinite like all the arts.” He went on +as if for the joke of it—almost as if his friend’s face amused him. “In +the hands, naturally, of a master. The right man must take hold. With +the right man to work it _c’est un monde_.” + +Strether had watched him quite as if, there on the pavement without a +pretext, he had begun to dance a fancy step. “Is what you’re thinking +of that you yourself, in the case you have in mind, would be the right +man?” + +Chad had thrown back his light coat and thrust each of his thumbs into +an armhole of his waistcoat; in which position his fingers played up +and down. “Why, what is he but what you yourself, as I say, took me for +when you first came out?” + +Strether felt a little faint, but he coerced his attention. “Oh yes, +and there’s no doubt that, with your natural parts, you’d have much in +common with him. Advertising is clearly at this time of day the secret +of trade. It’s quite possible it will be open to you—giving the whole +of your mind to it—to make the whole place hum with you. Your mother’s +appeal is to the whole of your mind, and that’s exactly the strength of +her case.” + +Chad’s fingers continued to twiddle, but he had something of a drop. +“Ah we’ve been through my mother’s case!” + +“So I thought. Why then do you speak of the matter?” + +“Only because it was part of our original discussion. To wind up where +we began, my interest’s purely platonic. There at any rate the fact +is—the fact of the possible. I mean the money in it.” + +“Oh damn the money in it!” said Strether. And then as the young man’s +fixed smile seemed to shine out more strange: “Shall you give your +friend up for the money in it?” + +Chad preserved his handsome grimace as well as the rest of his +attitude. “You’re not altogether—in your so great ‘solemnity’—kind. +Haven’t I been drinking you in—showing you all I feel you’re worth to +me? What have I done, what am I doing, but cleave to her to the death? +The only thing is,” he good-humouredly explained, “that one can’t but +have it before one, in the cleaving—the point where the death comes in. +Don’t be afraid for _that_. It’s pleasant to a fellow’s feelings,” he +developed, “to ‘size-up’ the bribe he applies his foot to.” + +“Oh then if all you want’s a kickable surface the bribe’s enormous.” + +“Good. Then there it goes!” Chad administered his kick with fantastic +force and sent an imaginary object flying. It was accordingly as if +they were once more rid of the question and could come back to what +really concerned him. “Of course I shall see you tomorrow.” + +But Strether scarce heeded the plan proposed for this; he had still the +impression—not the slighter for the simulated kick—of an irrelevant +hornpipe or jig. “You’re restless.” + +“Ah,” returned Chad as they parted, “you’re exciting.” + + + V + +He had, however, within two days, another separation to face. He had +sent Maria Gostrey a word early, by hand, to ask if he might come to +breakfast; in consequence of which, at noon, she awaited him in the +cool shade of her little Dutch-looking dining-room. This retreat was at +the back of the house, with a view of a scrap of old garden that had +been saved from modern ravage; and though he had on more than one other +occasion had his legs under its small and peculiarly polished table of +hospitality, the place had never before struck him as so sacred to +pleasant knowledge, to intimate charm, to antique order, to a neatness +that was almost august. To sit there was, as he had told his hostess +before, to see life reflected for the time in ideally kept pewter; +which was somehow becoming, improving to life, so that one’s eyes were +held and comforted. Strether’s were comforted at all events now—and the +more that it was the last time—with the charming effect, on the board +bare of a cloth and proud of its perfect surface, of the small old +crockery and old silver, matched by the more substantial pieces happily +disposed about the room. The specimens of vivid Delf, in particular had +the dignity of family portraits; and it was in the midst of them that +our friend resignedly expressed himself. He spoke even with a certain +philosophic humour. “There’s nothing more to wait for; I seem to have +done a good day’s work. I’ve let them have it all round. I’ve seen +Chad, who has been to London and come back. He tells me I’m ‘exciting,’ +and I seem indeed pretty well to have upset every one. I’ve at any rate +excited _him_. He’s distinctly restless.” + +“You’ve excited _me_,” Miss Gostrey smiled. “_I’m_ distinctly +restless.” + +“Oh you were that when I found you. It seems to me I’ve rather got you +out of it. What’s this,” he asked as he looked about him, “but a haunt +of ancient peace?” + +“I wish with all my heart,” she presently replied, “I could make you +treat it as a haven of rest.” On which they fronted each other, across +the table, as if things unuttered were in the air. + +Strether seemed, in his way, when he next spoke, to take some of them +up. “It wouldn’t give me—that would be the trouble—what it will, no +doubt, still give you. I’m not,” he explained, leaning back in his +chair, but with his eyes on a small ripe round melon—“in real harmony +with what surrounds me. You _are_. I take it too hard. You _don’t_. It +makes—that’s what it comes to in the end—a fool of me.” Then at a +tangent, “What has he been doing in London?” he demanded. + +“Ah one may go to London,” Maria laughed. “You know _I_ did.” + +Yes—he took the reminder. “And you brought _me_ back.” He brooded there +opposite to her, but without gloom. “Whom has Chad brought? He’s full +of ideas. And I wrote to Sarah,” he added, “the first thing this +morning. So I’m square. I’m ready for them.” + +She neglected certain parts of this speech in the interest of others. +“Marie said to me the other day that she felt him to have the makings +of an immense man of business.” + +“There it is. He’s the son of his father!” + +“But _such_ a father!” + +“Ah just the right one from that point of view! But it isn’t his father +in him,” Strether added, “that troubles me.” + +“What is it then?” He came back to his breakfast; he partook presently +of the charming melon, which she liberally cut for him; and it was only +after this that he met her question. Then moreover it was but to remark +that he’d answer her presently. She waited, she watched, she served him +and amused him, and it was perhaps with this last idea that she soon +reminded him of his having never even yet named to her the article +produced at Woollett. “Do you remember our talking of it in London—that +night at the play?” Before he could say yes, however, she had put it to +him for other matters. Did he remember, did he remember—this and that +of their first days? He remembered everything, bringing up with humour +even things of which she professed no recollection, things she +vehemently denied; and falling back above all on the great interest of +their early time, the curiosity felt by both of them as to where he +would “come out.” They had so assumed it was to be in some wonderful +place—they had thought of it as so very _much_ out. Well, that was +doubtless what it had been—since he had come out just there. He was +out, in truth, as far as it was possible to be, and must now rather +bethink himself of getting in again. He found on the spot the image of +his recent history; he was like one of the figures of the old clock at +Berne. _They_ came out, on one side, at their hour, jigged along their +little course in the public eye, and went in on the other side. He too +had jigged his little course—him too a modest retreat awaited. He +offered now, should she really like to know, to name the great product +of Woollett. It would be a great commentary on everything. At this she +stopped him off; she not only had no wish to know, but she wouldn’t +know for the world. She had done with the products of Woollett—for all +the good she had got from them. She desired no further news of them, +and she mentioned that Madame de Vionnet herself had, to her knowledge, +lived exempt from the information he was ready to supply. She had never +consented to receive it, though she would have taken it, under stress, +from Mrs. Pocock. But it was a matter about which Mrs. Pocock appeared +to have had little to say—never sounding the word—and it didn’t signify +now. There was nothing clearly for Maria Gostrey that signified +now—save one sharp point, that is, to which she came in time. “I don’t +know whether it’s before you as a possibility that, left to himself, +Mr. Chad may after all go back. I judge that it _is_ more or less so +before you, from what you just now said of him.” + +Her guest had his eyes on her, kindly but attentively, as if foreseeing +what was to follow this. “I don’t think it will be for the money.” And +then as she seemed uncertain: “I mean I don’t believe it will be for +that he’ll give her up.” + +“Then he _will_ give her up?” + +Strether waited a moment, rather slow and deliberate now, drawing out a +little this last soft stage, pleading with her in various suggestive +and unspoken ways for patience and understanding. “What were you just +about to ask me?” + +“Is there anything he can do that would make you patch it up?” + +“With Mrs. Newsome?” + +Her assent, as if she had had a delicacy about sounding the name, was +only in her face; but she added with it: “Or is there anything he can +do that would make _her_ try it?” + +“To patch it up with me?” His answer came at last in a conclusive +headshake. “There’s nothing any one can do. It’s over. Over for both of +us.” + +Maria wondered, seemed a little to doubt. “Are you so sure for her?” + +“Oh yes—sure now. Too much has happened. I’m different for her.” + +She took it in then, drawing a deeper breath. “I see. So that as she’s +different for _you_—” + +“Ah but,” he interrupted, “she’s not.” And as Miss Gostrey wondered +again: “She’s the same. She’s more than ever the same. But I do what I +didn’t before—I _see_ her.” + +He spoke gravely and as if responsibly—since he had to pronounce; and +the effect of it was slightly solemn, so that she simply exclaimed +“Oh!” Satisfied and grateful, however, she showed in her own next words +an acceptance of his statement. “What then do you go home to?” + +He had pushed his plate a little away, occupied with another side of +the matter; taking refuge verily in that side and feeling so moved that +he soon found himself on his feet. He was affected in advance by what +he believed might come from her, and he would have liked to forestall +it and deal with it tenderly; yet in the presence of it he wished still +more to be—though as smoothly as possible—deterrent and conclusive. He +put her question by for the moment; he told her more about Chad. “It +would have been impossible to meet me more than he did last night on +the question of the infamy of not sticking to her.” + +“Is that what you called it for him—‘infamy’?” + +“Oh rather! I described to him in detail the base creature he’d be, and +he quite agrees with me about it.” + +“So that it’s really as if you had nailed him?” + +“Quite really as if—! I told him I should curse him.” + +“Oh,” she smiled, “you _have_ done it.” And then having thought again: +“You _can’t_ after that propose—!” Yet she scanned his face. + +“Propose again to Mrs. Newsome?” + +She hesitated afresh, but she brought it out. “I’ve never believed, you +know, that you did propose. I always believed it was really she—and, so +far as that goes, I can understand it. What I mean is,” she explained, +“that with such a spirit—the spirit of curses!—your breach is past +mending. She has only to know what you’ve done to him never again to +raise a finger.” + +“I’ve done,” said Strether, “what I could—one can’t do more. He +protests his devotion and his horror. But I’m not sure I’ve saved him. +He protests too much. He asks how one can dream of his being tired. But +he has all life before him.” + +Maria saw what he meant. “He’s formed to please.” + +“And it’s our friend who has formed him.” Strether felt in it the +strange irony. + +“So it’s scarcely his fault!” + +“It’s at any rate his danger. I mean,” said Strether, “it’s hers. But +she knows it.” + +“Yes, she knows it. And is your idea,” Miss Gostrey asked, “that there +was some other woman in London?” + +“Yes. No. That is I _have_ no ideas. I’m afraid of them. I’ve done with +them.” And he put out his hand to her. “Good-bye.” + +It brought her back to her unanswered question. “To what do you go +home?” + +“I don’t know. There will always be something.” + +“To a great difference,” she said as she kept his hand. + +“A great difference—no doubt. Yet I shall see what I can make of it.” + +“Shall you make anything so good—?” But, as if remembering what Mrs. +Newsome had done, it was as far as she went. + +He had sufficiently understood. “So good as this place at this moment? +So good as what _you_ make of everything you touch?” He took a moment +to say, for, really and truly, what stood about him there in her +offer—which was as the offer of exquisite service, of lightened care, +for the rest of his days—might well have tempted. It built him softly +round, it roofed him warmly over, it rested, all so firm, on selection. +And what ruled selection was beauty and knowledge. It was awkward, it +was almost stupid, not to seem to prize such things; yet, none the +less, so far as they made his opportunity they made it only for a +moment. She’d moreover understand—she always understood. + +That indeed might be, but meanwhile she was going on. “There’s nothing, +you know, I wouldn’t do for you.” + +“Oh yes—I know.” + +“There’s nothing,” she repeated, “in all the world.” + +“I know. I know. But all the same I must go.” He had got it at last. +“To be right.” + +“To be right?” + +She had echoed it in vague deprecation, but he felt it already clear +for her. “That, you see, is my only logic. Not, out of the whole +affair, to have got anything for myself.” + +She thought. “But with your wonderful impressions you’ll have got a +great deal.” + +“A great deal”—he agreed. “But nothing like _you_. It’s you who would +make me wrong!” + +Honest and fine, she couldn’t greatly pretend she didn’t see it. Still +she could pretend just a little. “But why should you be so dreadfully +right?” + +“That’s the way that—if I must go—you yourself would be the first to +want me. And I can’t do anything else.” + +So then she had to take it, though still with her defeated protest. “It +isn’t so much your _being_ ‘right’—it’s your horrible sharp eye for +what makes you so.” + +“Oh but you’re just as bad yourself. You can’t resist me when I point +that out.” + +She sighed it at last all comically, all tragically, away. “I can’t +indeed resist you.” + +“Then there we are!” said Strether. + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE AMBASSADORS *** + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions will +be renamed. + +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the +United States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. Special rules, set forth in the General Terms of Use part +of this license, apply to copying and distributing Project +Gutenberg-tm electronic works to protect the PROJECT GUTENBERG-tm +concept and trademark. 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Hathaway and Julia P DeRanek</div> +<div style='margin-top:2em; margin-bottom:4em'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE AMBASSADORS ***</div> + +<div class="fig" style="width:70%;"> +<img src="images/cover.jpg" style="width:100%;" alt="cover" /> +</div> + +<h1>The Ambassadors</h1> + +<h2 class="no-break">by Henry James</h2> + +<h4> New York Edition (1909) </h4> + +<hr /> + +<h2>Contents</h2> + +<table summary="" style="margin-right: auto; margin-left: auto"> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#volume01"><b>Volume I</b></a><br/><br/></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#preface">Preface</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap01">Book First</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap02">Book Second</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap03">Book Third</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap04">Book Fourth</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap05">Book Fifth</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap06">Book Sixth</a><br/><br/></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#volume02"><b>Volume II</b></a><br/><br/></td> +</tr> + + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap07">Book Seventh</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap08">Book Eighth</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap09">Book Ninth</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap10">Book Tenth</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap11">Book Book Eleventh</a></td> +</tr> + +<tr> +<td> <a href="#chap12">Book Twelfth</a></td> +</tr> + +</table> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="volume01"></a>Volume I</h2> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="preface"></a>Preface</h2> + +<p> +Nothing is more easy than to state the subject of “The +Ambassadors,” which first appeared in twelve numbers of <i>The North +American Review</i> (1903) and was published as a whole the same year. The +situation involved is gathered up betimes, that is in the second chapter of +Book Fifth, for the reader’s benefit, into as few words as +possible—planted or “sunk,” stiffly and saliently, in the +centre of the current, almost perhaps to the obstruction of traffic. Never can +a composition of this sort have sprung straighter from a dropped grain of +suggestion, and never can that grain, developed, overgrown and smothered, have +yet lurked more in the mass as an independent particle. The whole case, in +fine, is in Lambert Strether’s irrepressible outbreak to little Bilham on +the Sunday afternoon in Gloriani’s garden, the candour with which he +yields, for his young friend’s enlightenment, to the charming admonition +of that crisis. The idea of the tale resides indeed in the very fact that an +hour of such unprecedented ease should have been felt by him <i>as</i> a +crisis, and he is at pains to express it for us as neatly as we could desire. +The remarks to which he thus gives utterance contain the essence of “The +Ambassadors,” his fingers close, before he has done, round the stem of +the full-blown flower; which, after that fashion, he continues officiously to +present to us. “Live all you can; it’s a mistake not to. It +doesn’t so much matter what you do in particular so long as you have your +life. If you haven’t had that what <i>have</i> you had? I’m too +old—too old at any rate for what I see. What one loses one loses; make no +mistake about that. Still, we have the illusion of freedom; therefore +don’t, like me to-day, be without the memory of that illusion. I was +either, at the right time, too stupid or too intelligent to have it, and now +I’m a case of reaction against the mistake. Do what you like so long as +you don’t make it. For it <i>was</i> a mistake. Live, live!” Such +is the gist of Strether’s appeal to the impressed youth, whom he likes +and whom he desires to befriend; the word “mistake” occurs several +times, it will be seen, in the course of his remarks—which gives the +measure of the signal warning he feels attached to his case. He has accordingly +missed too much, though perhaps after all constitutionally qualified for a +better part, and he wakes up to it in conditions that press the spring of a +terrible question. <i>Would</i> there yet perhaps be time for +reparation?—reparation, that is, for the injury done his character; for +the affront, he is quite ready to say, so stupidly put upon it and in which he +has even himself had so clumsy a hand? The answer to which is that he now at +all events <i>sees</i>; so that the business of my tale and the march of my +action, not to say the precious moral of everything, is just my demonstration +of this process of vision. +</p> + +<p> +Nothing can exceed the closeness with which the whole fits again into its germ. +That had been given me bodily, as usual, by the spoken word, for I was to take +the image over exactly as I happened to have met it. A friend had repeated to +me, with great appreciation, a thing or two said to him by a man of +distinction, much his senior, and to which a sense akin to that of +Strether’s melancholy eloquence might be imputed—said as chance +would have, and so easily might, in Paris, and in a charming old garden +attached to a house of art, and on a Sunday afternoon of summer, many persons +of great interest being present. The observation there listened to and gathered +up had contained part of the “note” that I was to recognise on the +spot as to my purpose—had contained in fact the greater part; the rest +was in the place and the time and the scene they sketched: these constituents +clustered and combined to give me further support, to give me what I may call +the note absolute. There it stands, accordingly, full in the tideway; driven +in, with hard taps, like some strong stake for the noose of a cable, the swirl +of the current roundabout it. What amplified the hint to more than the bulk of +hints in general was the gift with it of the old Paris garden, for in that +token were sealed up values infinitely precious. There was of course the seal +to break and each item of the packet to count over and handle and estimate; but +somehow, in the light of the hint, all the elements of a situation of the sort +most to my taste were there. I could even remember no occasion on which, so +confronted, I had found it of a livelier interest to take stock, in this +fashion, of suggested wealth. For I think, verily, that there are degrees of +merit in subjects—in spite of the fact that to treat even one of the most +ambiguous with due decency we must for the time, for the feverish and +prejudiced hour, at least figure its merit and its dignity as <i>possibly</i> +absolute. What it comes to, doubtless, is that even among the supremely +good—since with such alone is it one’s theory of one’s honour +to be concerned—there is an ideal <i>beauty</i> of goodness the invoked +action of which is to raise the artistic faith to its maximum. Then truly, I +hold, one’s theme may be said to shine, and that of “The +Ambassadors,” I confess, wore this glow for me from beginning to end. +Fortunately thus I am able to estimate this as, frankly, quite the best, +“all round,” of all my productions; any failure of that +justification would have made such an extreme of complacency publicly fatuous. +</p> + +<p> +I recall then in this connexion no moment of subjective intermittence, never +one of those alarms as for a suspected hollow beneath one’s feet, a felt +ingratitude in the scheme adopted, under which confidence fails and opportunity +seems but to mock. If the motive of “The Wings of the Dove,” as I +have noted, was to worry me at moments by a sealing-up of its face—though +without prejudice to its again, of a sudden, fairly grimacing with +expression—so in this other business I had absolute conviction and +constant clearness to deal with; it had been a frank proposition, the whole +bunch of data, installed on my premises like a monotony of fine weather. (The +order of composition, in these things, I may mention, was reversed by the order +of publication; the earlier written of the two books having appeared as the +later.) Even under the weight of my hero’s years I could feel my +postulate firm; even under the strain of the difference between those of Madame +de Vionnet and those of Chad Newsome, a difference liable to be denounced as +shocking, I could still feel it serene. Nothing resisted, nothing betrayed, I +seem to make out, in this full and sound sense of the matter; it shed from any +side I could turn it to the same golden glow. I rejoiced in the promise of a +hero so mature, who would give me thereby the more to bite into—since +it’s only into thickened motive and accumulated character, I think, that +the painter of life bites more than a little. My poor friend should have +accumulated character, certainly; or rather would be quite naturally and +handsomely possessed of it, in the sense that he would have, and would always +have felt he had, imagination galore, and that this yet wouldn’t have +wrecked him. It was immeasurable, the opportunity to “do” a man of +imagination, for if <i>there</i> mightn’t be a chance to +“bite,” where in the world might it be? This personage of course, +so enriched, wouldn’t give me, for his type, imagination in +<i>predominance</i> or as his prime faculty, nor should I, in view of other +matters, have found that convenient. So particular a luxury—some +occasion, that is, for study of the high gift in <i>supreme</i> command of a +case or of a career—would still doubtless come on the day I should be +ready to pay for it; and till then might, as from far back, remain hung up well +in view and just out of reach. The comparative case meanwhile would +serve—it was only on the minor scale that I had treated myself even to +comparative cases. +</p> + +<p> +I was to hasten to add however that, happy stopgaps as the minor scale had thus +yielded, the instance in hand should enjoy the advantage of the full range of +the major; since most immediately to the point was the question of that +<i>supplement</i> of situation logically involved in our gentleman’s +impulse to deliver himself in the Paris garden on the Sunday afternoon—or +if not involved by strict logic then all ideally and enchantingly implied in +it. (I say “ideally,” because I need scarce mention that for +development, for expression of its maximum, my glimmering story was, at the +earliest stage, to have nipped the thread of connexion with the possibilities +of the actual reported speaker. <i>He</i> remains but the happiest of +accidents; his actualities, all too definite, precluded any range of +possibilities; it had only been his charming office to project upon that wide +field of the artist’s vision—which hangs there ever in place like +the white sheet suspended for the figures of a child’s +magic-lantern—a more fantastic and more moveable shadow.) No privilege of +the teller of tales and the handler of puppets is more delightful, or has more +of the suspense and the thrill of a game of difficulty breathlessly played, +than just this business of looking for the unseen and the occult, in a scheme +half-grasped, by the light or, so to speak, by the clinging scent, of the gage +already in hand. No dreadful old pursuit of the hidden slave with bloodhounds +and the rag of association can ever, for “excitement,” I judge, +have bettered it at its best. For the dramatist always, by the very law of his +genius, believes not only in a possible right issue from the rightly-conceived +tight place; he does much more than this—he believes, irresistibly, in +the necessary, the precious “tightness” of the place (whatever the +issue) on the strength of any respectable hint. It being thus the respectable +hint that I had with such avidity picked up, what would be the story to which +it would most inevitably form the centre? It is part of the charm attendant on +such questions that the “story,” with the omens true, as I say, +puts on from this stage the authenticity of concrete existence. It then is, +essentially—it begins to be, though it may more or less obscurely lurk, +so that the point is not in the least what to make of it, but only, very +delightfully and very damnably, where to put one’s hand on it. +</p> + +<p> +In which truth resides surely much of the interest of that admirable mixture +for salutary application which we know as art. Art deals with what we see, it +must first contribute full-handed that ingredient; it plucks its material, +otherwise expressed, in the garden of life—which material elsewhere grown +is stale and uneatable. But it has no sooner done this than it has to take +account of a <i>process</i>—from which only when it’s the basest of +the servants of man, incurring ignominious dismissal with no +“character,” does it, and whether under some muddled pretext of +morality or on any other, pusillanimously edge away. The process, that of the +expression, the literal squeezing-out, of value is another affair—with +which the happy luck of mere finding has little to do. The joys of finding, at +this stage, are pretty well over; that quest of the subject as a whole by +“matching,” as the ladies say at the shops, the big piece with the +snippet, having ended, we assume, with a capture. The subject is found, and if +the problem is then transferred to the ground of what to do with it the field +opens out for any amount of doing. This is precisely the infusion that, as I +submit, completes the strong mixture. It is on the other hand the part of the +business that can least be likened to the chase with horn and hound. It’s +all a sedentary part—involves as much ciphering, of sorts, as would merit +the highest salary paid to a chief accountant. Not, however, that the chief +accountant hasn’t <i>his</i> gleams of bliss; for the felicity, or at +least the equilibrium of the artist’s state dwells less, surely, in the +further delightful complications he can smuggle in than in those he succeeds in +keeping out. He sows his seed at the risk of too thick a crop; wherefore yet +again, like the gentlemen who audit ledgers, he must keep his head at any +price. In consequence of all which, for the interest of the matter, I might +seem here to have my choice of narrating my “hunt” for Lambert +Strether, of describing the capture of the shadow projected by my +friend’s anecdote, or of reporting on the occurrences subsequent to that +triumph. But I had probably best attempt a little to glance in each direction; +since it comes to me again and again, over this licentious record, that +one’s bag of adventures, conceived or conceivable, has been only +half-emptied by the mere telling of one’s story. It depends so on what +one means by that equivocal quantity. There is the story of one’s hero, +and then, thanks to the intimate connexion of things, the story of one’s +story itself. I blush to confess it, but if one’s a dramatist one’s +a dramatist, and the latter imbroglio is liable on occasion to strike me as +really the more objective of the two. +</p> + +<p> +The philosophy imputed to him in that beautiful outbreak, the hour there, amid +such happy provision, striking for him, would have been then, on behalf of my +man of imagination, to be logically and, as the artless craft of comedy has it, +“led up” to; the probable course to such a goal, the goal of so +conscious a predicament, would have in short to be finely calculated. Where has +he come from and why has he come, what is he doing (as we Anglo-Saxons, and we +only, say, in our foredoomed clutch of exotic aids to expression) in that +<i>galère?</i> To answer these questions plausibly, to answer them as under +cross-examination in the witness-box by counsel for the prosecution, in other +words satisfactorily to account for Strether and for his “peculiar +tone,” was to possess myself of the entire fabric. At the same time the +clue to its whereabouts would lie in a certain principle of probability: he +wouldn’t have indulged in his peculiar tone without a reason; it would +take a felt predicament or a false position to give him so ironic an accent. +One hadn’t been noting “tones” all one’s life without +recognising when one heard it the voice of the false position. The dear man in +the Paris garden was then admirably and unmistakeably <i>in</i> one—which +was no small point gained; what next accordingly concerned us was the +determination of <i>this</i> identity. One could only go by probabilities, but +there was the advantage that the most general of the probabilities were virtual +certainties. Possessed of our friend’s nationality, to start with, there +was a general probability in his narrower localism; which, for that matter, one +had really but to keep under the lens for an hour to see it give up its +secrets. He would have issued, our rueful worthy, from the very heart of New +England—at the heels of which matter of course a perfect train of secrets +tumbled for me into the light. They had to be sifted and sorted, and I shall +not reproduce the detail of that process; but unmistakeably they were all +there, and it was but a question, auspiciously, of picking among them. What the +“position” would infallibly be, and why, on his hands, it had +turned “false”—these inductive steps could only be as rapid +as they were distinct. I accounted for everything—and +“everything” had by this time become the most promising +quantity—by the view that he had come to Paris in some state of mind +which was literally undergoing, as a result of new and unexpected assaults and +infusions, a change almost from hour to hour. He had come with a view that +might have been figured by a clear green liquid, say, in a neat glass phial; +and the liquid, once poured into the open cup of <i>application</i>, once +exposed to the action of another air, had begun to turn from green to red, or +whatever, and might, for all he knew, be on its way to purple, to black, to +yellow. At the still wilder extremes represented perhaps, for all he could say +to the contrary, by a variability so violent, he would at first, naturally, but +have gazed in surprise and alarm; whereby the <i>situation</i> clearly would +spring from the play of wildness and the development of extremes. I saw in a +moment that, should this development proceed both with force and logic, my +“story” would leave nothing to be desired. There is always, of +course, for the story-teller, the irresistible determinant and the incalculable +advantage of his interest in the story <i>as such</i>; it is ever, obviously, +overwhelmingly, the prime and precious thing (as other than this I have never +been able to see it); as to which what makes for it, with whatever headlong +energy, may be said to pale before the energy with which it simply makes for +itself. It rejoices, none the less, at its best, to seem to offer itself in a +light, to seem to know, and with the very last knowledge, what it’s +about—liable as it yet is at moments to be caught by us with its tongue +in its cheek and absolutely no warrant but its splendid impudence. Let us grant +then that the impudence is always there—there, so to speak, for grace and +effect and <i>allure</i>; there, above all, because the Story is just the +spoiled child of art, and because, as we are always disappointed when the +pampered don’t “play up,” we like it, to that extent, to look +all its character. It probably does so, in truth, even when we most flatter +ourselves that we negotiate with it by treaty. +</p> + +<p> +All of which, again, is but to say that the <i>steps</i>, for my fable, placed +themselves with a prompt and, as it were, functional assurance—an air +quite as of readiness to have dispensed with logic had I been in fact too +stupid for my clue. Never, positively, none the less, as the links multiplied, +had I felt less stupid than for the determination of poor Strether’s +errand and for the apprehension of his issue. These things continued to fall +together, as by the neat action of their own weight and form, even while their +commentator scratched his head about them; he easily sees now that they were +always well in advance of him. As the case completed itself he had in fact, +from a good way behind, to catch up with them, breathless and a little +flurried, as he best could. <i>The</i> false position, for our belated man of +the world—belated because he had endeavoured so long to escape being one, +and now at last had really to face his doom—the false position for him, I +say, was obviously to have presented himself at the gate of that boundless +menagerie primed with a moral scheme of the most approved pattern which was yet +framed to break down on any approach to vivid facts; that is to any at all +liberal appreciation of them. There would have been of course the case of the +Strether prepared, wherever presenting himself, only to judge and to feel +meanly; but <i>he</i> would have moved for me, I confess, enveloped in no +legend whatever. The actual man’s note, from the first of our seeing it +struck, is the note of discrimination, just as his drama is to become, under +stress, the drama of discrimination. It would have been his blest imagination, +we have seen, that had already helped him to discriminate; the element that was +for so much of the pleasure of my cutting thick, as I have intimated, into his +intellectual, into his moral substance. Yet here it was, at the same time, just +here, that a shade for a moment fell across the scene. +</p> + +<p> +There was the dreadful little old tradition, one of the platitudes of the human +comedy, that people’s moral scheme <i>does</i> break down in Paris; that +nothing is more frequently observed; that hundreds of thousands of more or less +hypocritical or more or less cynical persons annually visit the place for the +sake of the probable catastrophe, and that I came late in the day to work +myself up about it. There was in fine the <i>trivial</i> association, one of +the vulgarest in the world; but which give me pause no longer, I think, simply +because its vulgarity is so advertised. The revolution performed by Strether +under the influence of the most interesting of great cities was to have nothing +to do with any <i>bêtise</i> of the imputably “tempted” state; he +was to be thrown forward, rather, thrown quite with violence, upon his lifelong +trick of intense reflexion: which friendly test indeed was to bring him out, +through winding passages, through alternations of darkness and light, very much +<i>in</i> Paris, but with the surrounding scene itself a minor matter, a mere +symbol for more things than had been dreamt of in the philosophy of Woollett. +Another surrounding scene would have done as well for our show could it have +represented a place in which Strether’s errand was likely to lie and his +crisis to await him. The <i>likely</i> place had the great merit of sparing me +preparations; there would have been too many involved—not at all +impossibilities, only rather worrying and delaying difficulties—in +positing elsewhere Chad Newsome’s interesting relation, his so +interesting complexity of relations. Strether’s appointed stage, in fine, +could be but Chad’s most luckily selected one. The young man had gone in, +as they say, for circumjacent charm; and where he would have found it, by the +turn of his mind, most “authentic,” was where his earnest +friend’s analysis would most find <i>him</i>; as well as where, for that +matter, the former’s whole analytic faculty would be led such a wonderful +dance. +</p> + +<p> +“The Ambassadors” had been, all conveniently, “arranged +for”; its first appearance was from month to month, in the <i>North +American Review</i> during 1903, and I had been open from far back to any +pleasant provocation for ingenuity that might reside in one’s actively +adopting—so as to make it, in its way, a small compositional +law—recurrent breaks and resumptions. I had made up my mind here +regularly to exploit and enjoy these often rather rude jolts—having +found, as I believed an admirable way to it; yet every question of form and +pressure, I easily remember, paled in the light of the major propriety, +recognised as soon as really weighed; that of employing but one centre and +keeping it all within my hero’s compass. The thing was to be so much this +worthy’s intimate adventure that even the projection of his consciousness +upon it from beginning to end without intermission or deviation would probably +still leave a part of its value for him, and <i>a fortiori</i> for ourselves, +unexpressed. I might, however, express every grain of it that there would be +room for—on condition of contriving a splendid particular economy. Other +persons in no small number were to people the scene, and each with his or her +axe to grind, his or her situation to treat, his or her coherency not to fail +of, his or her relation to my leading motive, in a word, to establish and carry +on. But Strether’s sense of these things, and Strether’s only, +should avail me for showing them; I should know them but through his more or +less groping knowledge of them, since his very gropings would figure among his +most interesting motions, and a full observance of the rich rigour I speak of +would give me more of the effect I should be most “after” than all +other possible observances together. It would give me a large unity, and that +in turn would crown me with the grace to which the enlightened story-teller +will at any time, for his interest, sacrifice if need be all other graces +whatever. I refer of course to the grace of intensity, which there are ways of +signally achieving and ways of signally missing—as we see it, all round +us, helplessly and woefully missed. Not that it isn’t, on the other hand, +a virtue eminently subject to appreciation—there being no strict, no +absolute measure of it; so that one may hear it acclaimed where it has quite +escaped one’s perception, and see it unnoticed where one has gratefully +hailed it. After all of which I am not sure, either, that the immense amusement +of the whole cluster of difficulties so arrayed may not operate, for the fond +fabulist, when judicious not less than fond, as his best of determinants. That +charming principle is always there, at all events, to keep interest fresh: it +is a principle, we remember, essentially ravenous, without scruple and without +mercy, appeased with no cheap nor easy nourishment. It enjoys the costly +sacrifice and rejoices thereby in the very odour of difficulty—even as +ogres, with their “Fee-faw-fum!” rejoice in the smell of the blood +of Englishmen. +</p> + +<p> +Thus it was, at all events, that the ultimate, though after all so speedy, +definition of my gentleman’s job—his coming out, all solemnly +appointed and deputed, to “save” Chad, and his then finding the +young man so disobligingly and, at first, so bewilderingly not lost that a new +issue altogether, in the connexion, prodigiously faces them, which has to be +dealt with in a new light—promised as many calls on ingenuity and on the +higher branches of the compositional art as one could possibly desire. Again +and yet again, as, from book to book, I proceed with my survey, I find no +source of interest equal to this verification after the fact, as I may call it, +and the more in detail the better, of the scheme of consistency “gone +in” for. As always—since the charm never fails—the retracing +of the process from point to point brings back the old illusion. The old +intentions bloom again and flower—in spite of all the blossoms they were +to have dropped by the way. This is the charm, as I say, of adventure +<i>transposed</i>—the thrilling ups and downs, the intricate ins and outs +of the compositional problem, made after such a fashion admirably objective, +becoming the question at issue and keeping the author’s heart in his +mouth. Such an element, for instance, as his intention that Mrs. Newsome, away +off with her finger on the pulse of Massachusetts, should yet be no less +intensely than circuitously present through the whole thing, should be no less +felt as to be reckoned with than the most direct exhibition, the finest +portrayal at first hand could make her, such a sign of artistic good faith, I +say, once it’s unmistakeably there, takes on again an actuality not too +much impaired by the comparative dimness of the particular success. Cherished +intention too inevitably acts and operates, in the book, about fifty times as +little as I had fondly dreamt it might; but that scarce spoils for me the +pleasure of recognising the fifty ways in which I had sought to provide for it. +The mere charm of seeing such an idea constituent, in its degree; the fineness +of the measures taken—a real extension, if successful, of the very terms +and possibilities of representation and figuration—such things alone +were, after this fashion, inspiring, such things alone were a gage of the +probable success of that dissimulated calculation with which the whole effort +was to square. But oh the cares begotten, none the less, of that same +“judicious” sacrifice to a particular form of interest! One’s +work should have composition, because composition alone is positive beauty; but +all the while—apart from one’s inevitable consciousness too of the +dire paucity of readers ever recognising or ever missing positive +beauty—how, as to the cheap and easy, at every turn, how, as to immediacy +and facility, and even as to the commoner vivacity, positive beauty might have +to be sweated for and paid for! Once achieved and installed it may always be +trusted to make the poor seeker feel he would have blushed to the roots of his +hair for failing of it; yet, how, as its virtue can be essentially but the +virtue of the whole, the wayside traps set in the interest of muddlement and +pleading but the cause of the moment, of the particular bit in itself, have to +be kicked out of the path! All the sophistications in life, for example, might +have appeared to muster on behalf of the menace—the menace to a bright +variety—involved in Strether’s having all the subjective +“say,” as it were, to himself. +</p> + +<p> +Had I, meanwhile, made him at once hero and historian, endowed him with the +romantic privilege of the “first person”—the darkest abyss of +romance this, inveterately, when enjoyed on the grand scale—variety, and +many other queer matters as well, might have been smuggled in by a back door. +Suffice it, to be brief, that the first person, in the long piece, is a form +foredoomed to looseness and that looseness, never much my affair, had never +been so little so as on this particular occasion. All of which reflexions +flocked to the standard from the moment—a very early one—the +question of how to keep my form amusing while sticking so close to my central +figure and constantly taking its pattern from him had to be faced. He arrives +(arrives at Chester) as for the dreadful purpose of giving his creator +“no end” to tell about him—before which rigorous mission the +serenest of creators might well have quailed. I was far from the serenest; I +was more than agitated enough to reflect that, grimly deprived of one +alternative or one substitute for “telling,” I must address myself +tooth and nail to another. I couldn’t, save by implication, make other +persons tell <i>each other</i> about him—blest resource, blest necessity, +of the drama, which reaches its effects of unity, all remarkably, by paths +absolutely opposite to the paths of the novel: with other persons, save as they +were primarily <i>his</i> persons (not he primarily but one of theirs), I had +simply nothing to do. I had relations for him none the less, by the mercy of +Providence, quite as much as if my exhibition was to be a muddle; if I could +only by implication and a show of consequence make other persons tell each +other about him, I could at least make him tell <i>them</i> whatever in the +world he must; and could so, by the same token—which was a further luxury +thrown in—see straight into the deep differences between what that could +do for me, or at all events for <i>him</i>, and the large ease of +“autobiography.” It may be asked why, if one so keeps to +one’s hero, one shouldn’t make a single mouthful of +“method,” shouldn’t throw the reins on his neck and, letting +them flap there as free as in “Gil Blas” or in “David +Copperfield,” equip him with the double privilege of subject and +object—a course that has at least the merit of brushing away questions at +a sweep. The answer to which is, I think, that one makes that surrender only if +one is prepared <i>not</i> to make certain precious discriminations. +</p> + +<p> +The “first person” then, so employed, is addressed by the author +directly to ourselves, his possible readers, whom he has to reckon with, at the +best, by our English tradition, so loosely and vaguely after all, so little +respectfully, on so scant a presumption of exposure to criticism. Strether, on +the other hand, encaged and provided for as “The Ambassadors” +encages and provides, has to keep in view proprieties much stiffer and more +salutary than any our straight and credulous gape are likely to bring home to +him, has exhibitional conditions to meet, in a word, that forbid the terrible +<i>fluidity</i> of self-revelation. I may seem not to better the case for my +discrimination if I say that, for my first care, I had thus inevitably to set +him up a confidant or two, to wave away with energy the custom of the seated +mass of explanation after the fact, the inserted block of merely referential +narrative, which flourishes so, to the shame of the modern impatience, on the +serried page of Balzac, but which seems simply to appal our actual, our general +weaker, digestion. “Harking back to make up” took at any rate more +doing, as the phrase is, not only than the reader of to-day demands, but than +he will tolerate at any price any call upon him either to understand or +remotely to measure; and for the beauty of the thing when done the current +editorial mind in particular appears wholly without sense. It is not, however, +primarily for either of these reasons, whatever their weight, that +Strether’s friend Waymarsh is so keenly clutched at, on the threshold of +the book, or that no less a pounce is made on Maria Gostrey—without even +the pretext, either, of <i>her</i> being, in essence, Strether’s friend. +She is the reader’s friend much rather—in consequence of +dispositions that make him so eminently require one; and she acts in that +capacity, and <i>really</i> in that capacity alone, with exemplary devotion +from beginning to and of the book. She is an enrolled, a direct, aid to +lucidity; she is in fine, to tear off her mask, the most unmitigated and +abandoned of <i>ficelles</i>. Half the dramatist’s art, as we well +know—since if we don’t it’s not the fault of the proofs that +lie scattered about us—is in the use of <i>ficelles</i>; by which I mean +in a deep dissimulation of his dependence on them. Waymarsh only to a slighter +degree belongs, in the whole business, less to my subject than to my treatment +of it; the interesting proof, in these connexions, being that one has but to +take one’s subject for the stuff of drama to interweave with enthusiasm +as many Gostreys as need be. +</p> + +<p> +The material of “The Ambassadors,” conforming in this respect +exactly to that of “The Wings of the Dove,” published just before +it, is taken absolutely for the stuff of drama; so that, availing myself of the +opportunity given me by this edition for some prefatory remarks on the latter +work, I had mainly to make on its behalf the point of its scenic consistency. +It disguises that virtue, in the oddest way in the world, by just +<i>looking</i>, as we turn its pages, as little scenic as possible; but it +sharply divides itself, just as the composition before us does, into the parts +that prepare, that tend in fact to over-prepare, for scenes, and the parts, or +otherwise into the scenes, that justify and crown the preparation. It may +definitely be said, I think, that everything in it that is not scene (not, I of +course mean, complete and functional scene, treating <i>all</i> the submitted +matter, as by logical start, logical turn, and logical finish) is discriminated +preparation, is the fusion and synthesis of picture. These alternations propose +themselves all recogniseably, I think, from an early stage, as the very form +and figure of “The Ambassadors”; so that, to repeat, such an agent +as Miss Gostrey pre-engaged at a high salary, but waits in the draughty wing +with her shawl and her smelling-salts. Her function speaks at once for itself, +and by the time she has dined with Strether in London and gone to a play with +him her intervention as a <i>ficelle</i> is, I hold, expertly justified. Thanks +to it we have treated scenically, and scenically alone, the whole lumpish +question of Strether’s “past,” which has seen us more happily +on the way than anything else could have done; we have strained to a high +lucidity and vivacity (or at least we hope we have) certain indispensable +facts; we have seen our two or three immediate friends all conveniently and +profitably in “action”; to say nothing of our beginning to descry +others, of a remoter intensity, getting into motion, even if a bit vaguely as +yet, for our further enrichment. Let my first point be here that the scene in +question, that in which the whole situation at Woollett and the complex forces +that have propelled my hero to where this lively extractor of his value and +distiller of his essence awaits him, is normal and entire, is really an +excellent <i>standard</i> scene; copious, comprehensive, and accordingly never +short, but with its office as definite as that of the hammer on the gong of the +clock, the office of expressing <i>all that is in</i> the hour. +</p> + +<p> +The “<i>ficelle</i>” character of the subordinate party is as +artfully dissimulated, throughout, as may be, and to that extent that, with the +seams or joints of Maria Gostrey’s ostensible connectedness taken +particular care of, duly smoothed over, that is, and anxiously kept from +showing as “pieced on,” this figure doubtless achieves, after a +fashion, something of the dignity of a prime idea: which circumstance but shows +us afresh how many quite incalculable but none the less clear sources of +enjoyment for the infatuated artist, how many copious springs of our +never-to-be-slighted “fun” for the reader and critic susceptible of +contagion, may sound their incidental plash as soon as an artistic process +begins to enjoy free development. Exquisite—in illustration of +this—the mere interest and amusement of such at once +“creative” and critical questions as how and where and why to make +Miss Gostrey’s false connexion carry itself, under a due high polish, as +a real one. Nowhere is it more of an artful expedient for mere consistency of +form, to mention a case, than in the last “scene” of the book, +where its function is to give or to add nothing whatever, but only to express +as vividly as possible certain things quite other than itself and that are of +the already fixed and appointed measure. Since, however, all art is +<i>expression</i>, and is thereby vividness, one was to find the door open here +to any amount of delightful dissimulation. These verily are the refinements and +ecstasies of method—amid which, or certainly under the influence of any +exhilarated demonstration of which, one must keep one’s head and not lose +one’s way. To cultivate an adequate intelligence for them and to make +that sense operative is positively to find a charm in any produced ambiguity of +appearance that is not by the same stroke, and all helplessly, an ambiguity of +sense. To project imaginatively, for my hero, a relation that has nothing to do +with the matter (the matter of my subject) but has everything to do with the +manner (the manner of my presentation of the same) and yet to treat it, at +close quarters and for fully economic expression’s possible sake, as if +it were important and essential—to do that sort of thing and yet muddle +nothing may easily become, as one goes, a signally attaching proposition; even +though it all remains but part and parcel, I hasten to recognise, of the merely +general and related question of expressional curiosity and expressional +decency. +</p> + +<p> +I am moved to add after so much insistence on the scenic side of my labour that +I have found the steps of re-perusal almost as much waylaid here by quite +another style of effort in the same signal interest—or have in other +words not failed to note how, even so associated and so discriminated, the +finest proprieties and charms of the non-scenic may, under the right hand for +them, still keep their intelligibility and assert their office. Infinitely +suggestive such an observation as this last on the whole delightful head, where +representation is concerned, of possible variety, of effective expressional +change and contrast. One would like, at such an hour as this, for critical +licence, to go into the matter of the noted inevitable deviation (from too fond +an original vision) that the exquisite treachery even of the straightest +execution may ever be trusted to inflict even on the most mature plan—the +case being that, though one’s last reconsidered production always seems +to bristle with that particular evidence, “The Ambassadors” would +place a flood of such light at my service. I must attach to my final remark +here a different import; noting in the other connexion I just glanced at that +such passages as that of my hero’s first encounter with Chad Newsome, +absolute attestations of the non-scenic form though they be, yet lay the +firmest hand too—so far at least as intention goes—on +representational effect. To report at all closely and completely of what +“passes” on a given occasion is inevitably to become more or less +scenic; and yet in the instance I allude to, <i>with</i> the conveyance, +expressional curiosity and expressional decency are sought and arrived at under +quite another law. The true inwardness of this may be at bottom but that one of +the suffered treacheries has consisted precisely, for Chad’s whole figure +and presence, of a direct presentability diminished and +compromised—despoiled, that is, of its <i>proportional</i> advantage; so +that, in a word, the whole economy of his author’s relation to him has at +important points to be redetermined. The book, however, critically viewed, is +touchingly full of these disguised and repaired losses, these insidious +recoveries, these intensely redemptive consistencies. The pages in which Mamie +Pocock gives her appointed and, I can’t but think, duly felt lift to the +whole action by the so inscrutably-applied side-stroke or short-cut of our just +watching and as quite at an angle of vision as yet untried, her single hour of +suspense in the hotel salon, in our partaking of her concentrated study of the +sense of matters bearing on her own case, all the bright warm Paris afternoon, +from the balcony that overlooks the Tuileries garden—these are as marked +an example of the representational virtue that insists here and there on being, +for the charm of opposition and renewal, other than the scenic. It +wouldn’t take much to make me further argue that from an equal play of +such oppositions the book gathers an intensity that fairly adds to the +dramatic—though the latter is supposed to be the sum of all intensities; +or that has at any rate nothing to fear from juxtaposition with it. I +consciously fail to shrink in fact from that extravagance—I risk it +rather, for the sake of the moral involved; which is not that the particular +production before us exhausts the interesting questions it raises, but that the +Novel remains still, under the right persuasion, the most independent, most +elastic, most prodigious of literary forms. +</p> + +<p class="right"> HENRY JAMES. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap01"></a>Book First</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +Strether’s first question, when he reached the hotel, was about his +friend; yet on his learning that Waymarsh was apparently not to arrive till +evening he was not wholly disconcerted. A telegram from him bespeaking a room +“only if not noisy,” reply paid, was produced for the enquirer at +the office, so that the understanding they should meet at Chester rather than +at Liverpool remained to that extent sound. The same secret principle, however, +that had prompted Strether not absolutely to desire Waymarsh’s presence +at the dock, that had led him thus to postpone for a few hours his enjoyment of +it, now operated to make him feel he could still wait without disappointment. +They would dine together at the worst, and, with all respect to dear old +Waymarsh—if not even, for that matter, to himself—there was little +fear that in the sequel they shouldn’t see enough of each other. The +principle I have just mentioned as operating had been, with the most newly +disembarked of the two men, wholly instinctive—the fruit of a sharp sense +that, delightful as it would be to find himself looking, after so much +separation, into his comrade’s face, his business would be a trifle +bungled should he simply arrange for this countenance to present itself to the +nearing steamer as the first “note,” of Europe. Mixed with +everything was the apprehension, already, on Strether’s part, that it +would, at best, throughout, prove the note of Europe in quite a sufficient +degree. +</p> + +<p> +That note had been meanwhile—since the previous afternoon, thanks to this +happier device—such a consciousness of personal freedom as he +hadn’t known for years; such a deep taste of change and of having above +all for the moment nobody and nothing to consider, as promised already, if +headlong hope were not too foolish, to colour his adventure with cool success. +There were people on the ship with whom he had easily consorted—so far as +ease could up to now be imputed to him—and who for the most part plunged +straight into the current that set from the landing-stage to London; there were +others who had invited him to a tryst at the inn and had even invoked his aid +for a “look round” at the beauties of Liverpool; but he had stolen +away from every one alike, had kept no appointment and renewed no acquaintance, +had been indifferently aware of the number of persons who esteemed themselves +fortunate in being, unlike himself, “met,” and had even +independently, unsociably, alone, without encounter or relapse and by mere +quiet evasion, given his afternoon and evening to the immediate and the +sensible. They formed a qualified draught of Europe, an afternoon and an +evening on the banks of the Mersey, but such as it was he took his potion at +least undiluted. He winced a little, truly, at the thought that Waymarsh might +be already at Chester; he reflected that, should he have to describe himself +there as having “got in” so early, it would be difficult to make +the interval look particularly eager; but he was like a man who, elatedly +finding in his pocket more money than usual, handles it a while and idly and +pleasantly chinks it before addressing himself to the business of spending. +That he was prepared to be vague to Waymarsh about the hour of the ship’s +touching, and that he both wanted extremely to see him and enjoyed extremely +the duration of delay—these things, it is to be conceived, were early +signs in him that his relation to his actual errand might prove none of the +simplest. He was burdened, poor Strether—it had better be confessed at +the outset—with the oddity of a double consciousness. There was +detachment in his zeal and curiosity in his indifference. +</p> + +<p> +After the young woman in the glass cage had held up to him across her counter +the pale-pink leaflet bearing his friend’s name, which she neatly +pronounced, he turned away to find himself, in the hall, facing a lady who met +his eyes as with an intention suddenly determined, and whose features—not +freshly young, not markedly fine, but on happy terms with each other—came +back to him as from a recent vision. For a moment they stood confronted; then +the moment placed her: he had noticed her the day before, noticed her at his +previous inn, where—again in the hall—she had been briefly engaged +with some people of his own ship’s company. Nothing had actually passed +between them, and he would as little have been able to say what had been the +sign of her face for him on the first occasion as to name the ground of his +present recognition. Recognition at any rate appeared to prevail on her own +side as well—which would only have added to the mystery. All she now +began by saying to him nevertheless was that, having chanced to catch his +enquiry, she was moved to ask, by his leave, if it were possibly a question of +Mr. Waymarsh of Milrose Connecticut—Mr. Waymarsh the American lawyer. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes,” he replied, “my very well-known friend. He’s +to meet me here, coming up from Malvern, and I supposed he’d already have +arrived. But he doesn’t come till later, and I’m relieved not to +have kept him. Do you know him?” Strether wound up. +</p> + +<p> +It wasn’t till after he had spoken that he became aware of how much there +had been in him of response; when the tone of her own rejoinder, as well as the +play of something more in her face—something more, that is, than its +apparently usual restless light—seemed to notify him. “I’ve +met him at Milrose—where I used sometimes, a good while ago, to stay; I +had friends there who were friends of his, and I’ve been at his house. I +won’t answer for it that he would know me,” Strether’s new +acquaintance pursued; “but I should be delighted to see him. +Perhaps,” she added, “I shall—for I’m staying +over.” She paused while our friend took in these things, and it was as if +a good deal of talk had already passed. They even vaguely smiled at it, and +Strether presently observed that Mr. Waymarsh would, no doubt, be easily to be +seen. This, however, appeared to affect the lady as if she might have advanced +too far. She appeared to have no reserves about anything. “Oh,” she +said, “he won’t care!”—and she immediately thereupon +remarked that she believed Strether knew the Munsters; the Munsters being the +people he had seen her with at Liverpool. +</p> + +<p> +But he didn’t, it happened, know the Munsters well enough to give the +case much of a lift; so that they were left together as if over the mere laid +table of conversation. Her qualification of the mentioned connexion had rather +removed than placed a dish, and there seemed nothing else to serve. Their +attitude remained, none the less, that of not forsaking the board; and the +effect of this in turn was to give them the appearance of having accepted each +other with an absence of preliminaries practically complete. They moved along +the hall together, and Strether’s companion threw off that the hotel had +the advantage of a garden. He was aware by this time of his strange +inconsequence: he had shirked the intimacies of the steamer and had muffled the +shock of Waymarsh only to find himself forsaken, in this sudden case, both of +avoidance and of caution. He passed, under this unsought protection and before +he had so much as gone up to his room, into the garden of the hotel, and at the +end of ten minutes had agreed to meet there again, as soon as he should have +made himself tidy, the dispenser of such good assurances. He wanted to look at +the town, and they would forthwith look together. It was almost as if she had +been in possession and received him as a guest. Her acquaintance with the place +presented her in a manner as a hostess, and Strether had a rueful glance for +the lady in the glass cage. It was as if this personage had seen herself +instantly superseded. +</p> + +<p> +When in a quarter of an hour he came down, what his hostess saw, what she might +have taken in with a vision kindly adjusted, was the lean, the slightly loose +figure of a man of the middle height and something more perhaps than the middle +age—a man of five-and-fifty, whose most immediate signs were a marked +bloodless brownness of face, a thick dark moustache, of characteristically +American cut, growing strong and falling low, a head of hair still abundant but +irregularly streaked with grey, and a nose of bold free prominence, the even +line, the high finish, as it might have been called, of which, had a certain +effect of mitigation. A perpetual pair of glasses astride of this fine ridge, +and a line, unusually deep and drawn, the prolonged pen-stroke of time, +accompanying the curve of the moustache from nostril to chin, did something to +complete the facial furniture that an attentive observer would have seen +catalogued, on the spot, in the vision of the other party to Strether’s +appointment. She waited for him in the garden, the other party, drawing on a +pair of singularly fresh soft and elastic light gloves and presenting herself +with a superficial readiness which, as he approached her over the small smooth +lawn and in the watery English sunshine, he might, with his rougher +preparation, have marked as the model for such an occasion. She had, this lady, +a perfect plain propriety, an expensive subdued suitability, that her companion +was not free to analyse, but that struck him, so that his consciousness of it +was instantly acute, as a quality quite new to him. Before reaching her he +stopped on the grass and went through the form of feeling for something, +possibly forgotten, in the light overcoat he carried on his arm; yet the +essence of the act was no more than the impulse to gain time. Nothing could +have been odder than Strether’s sense of himself as at that moment +launched in something of which the sense would be quite disconnected from the +sense of his past and which was literally beginning there and then. It had +begun in fact already upstairs and before the dressing glass that struck him as +blocking further, so strangely, the dimness of the window of his dull bedroom; +begun with a sharper survey of the elements of Appearance than he had for a +long time been moved to make. He had during those moments felt these elements +to be not so much to his hand as he should have liked, and then had fallen back +on the thought that they were precisely a matter as to which help was supposed +to come from what he was about to do. He was about to go up to London, so that +hat and necktie might wait. What had come as straight to him as a ball in a +well-played game—and caught moreover not less neatly—was just the +air, in the person of his friend, of having seen and chosen, the air of +achieved possession of those vague qualities and quantities that collectively +figured to him as the advantage snatched from lucky chances. Without pomp or +circumstance, certainly, as her original address to him, equally with his own +response, had been, he would have sketched to himself his impression of her as: +“Well, she’s more thoroughly civilized—!” If +“More thoroughly than <i>whom?</i>” would not have been for him a +sequel to this remark, that was just by reason of his deep consciousness of the +bearing of his comparison. +</p> + +<p> +The amusement, at all events, of a civilisation intenser was +what—familiar compatriot as she was, with the full tone of the compatriot +and the rattling link not with mystery but only with dear dyspeptic +Waymarsh—she appeared distinctly to promise. His pause while he felt in +his overcoat was positively the pause of confidence, and it enabled his eyes to +make out as much of a case for her, in proportion, as her own made out for +himself. She affected him as almost insolently young; but an easily carried +five-and-thirty could still do that. She was, however, like himself marked and +wan; only it naturally couldn’t have been known to him how much a +spectator looking from one to the other might have discerned that they had in +common. It wouldn’t for such a spectator have been altogether +insupposable that, each so finely brown and so sharply spare, each confessing +so to dents of surface and aids to sight, to a disproportionate nose and a head +delicately or grossly grizzled, they might have been brother and sister. On +this ground indeed there would have been a residuum of difference; such a +sister having surely known in respect to such a brother the extremity of +separation, and such a brother now feeling in respect to such a sister the +extremity of surprise. Surprise, it was true, was not on the other hand what +the eyes of Strether’s friend most showed him while she gave him, +stroking her gloves smoother, the time he appreciated. They had taken hold of +him straightway measuring him up and down as if they knew how; as if he were +human material they had already in some sort handled. Their possessor was in +truth, it may be communicated, the mistress of a hundred cases or categories, +receptacles of the mind, subdivisions for convenience, in which, from a full +experience, she pigeon-holed her fellow mortals with a hand as free as that of +a compositor scattering type. She was as equipped in this particular as +Strether was the reverse, and it made an opposition between them which he might +well have shrunk from submitting to if he had fully suspected it. So far as he +did suspect it he was on the contrary, after a short shake of his +consciousness, as pleasantly passive as might be. He really had a sort of sense +of what she knew. He had quite the sense that she knew things he didn’t, +and though this was a concession that in general he found not easy to make to +women, he made it now as good-humouredly as if it lifted a burden. His eyes +were so quiet behind his eternal nippers that they might almost have been +absent without changing his face, which took its expression mainly, and not +least its stamp of sensibility, from other sources, surface and grain and form. +He joined his guide in an instant, and then felt she had profited still better +than he by his having been for the moments just mentioned, so at the disposal +of her intelligence. She knew even intimate things about him that he +hadn’t yet told her and perhaps never would. He wasn’t unaware that +he had told her rather remarkably many for the time, but these were not the +real ones. Some of the real ones, however, precisely, were what she knew. +</p> + +<p> +They were to pass again through the hall of the inn to get into the street, and +it was here she presently checked him with a question. “Have you looked +up my name?” +</p> + +<p> +He could only stop with a laugh. “Have you looked up mine?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh dear, yes—as soon as you left me. I went to the office and +asked. Hadn’t <i>you</i> better do the same?” +</p> + +<p> +He wondered. “Find out who you are?—after the uplifted young woman +there has seen us thus scrape acquaintance!” +</p> + +<p> +She laughed on her side now at the shade of alarm in his amusement. +“Isn’t it a reason the more? If what you’re afraid of is the +injury for me—my being seen to walk off with a gentleman who has to ask +who I am—I assure you I don’t in the least mind. Here, +however,” she continued, “is my card, and as I find there’s +something else again I have to say at the office, you can just study it during +the moment I leave you.” +</p> + +<p> +She left him after he had taken from her the small pasteboard she had extracted +from her pocket-book, and he had extracted another from his own, to exchange +with it, before she came back. He read thus the simple designation “Maria +Gostrey,” to which was attached, in a corner of the card, with a number, +the name of a street, presumably in Paris, without other appreciable identity +than its foreignness. He put the card into his waistcoat pocket, keeping his +own meanwhile in evidence; and as he leaned against the door-post he met with +the smile of a straying thought what the expanse before the hotel offered to +his view. It was positively droll to him that he should already have Maria +Gostrey, whoever she was—of which he hadn’t really the least +idea—in a place of safe keeping. He had somehow an assurance that he +should carefully preserve the little token he had just tucked in. He gazed with +unseeing lingering eyes as he followed some of the implications of his act, +asking himself if he really felt admonished to qualify it as disloyal. It was +prompt, it was possibly even premature, and there was little doubt of the +expression of face the sight of it would have produced in a certain person. But +if it was “wrong”—why then he had better not have come out at +all. At this, poor man, had he already—and even before meeting +Waymarsh—arrived. He had believed he had a limit, but the limit had been +transcended within thirty-six hours. By how long a space on the plane of +manners or even of morals, moreover, he felt still more sharply after Maria +Gostrey had come back to him and with a gay decisive “So +now—!” led him forth into the world. This counted, it struck him as +he walked beside her with his overcoat on an arm, his umbrella under another +and his personal pasteboard a little stiffly retained between forefinger and +thumb, this struck him as really, in comparison his introduction to things. It +hadn’t been “Europe” at Liverpool no—not even in the +dreadful delightful impressive streets the night before—to the extent his +present companion made it so. She hadn’t yet done that so much as when, +after their walk had lasted a few minutes and he had had time to wonder if a +couple of sidelong glances from her meant that he had best have put on gloves +she almost pulled him up with an amused challenge. “But why—fondly +as it’s so easy to imagine your clinging to it—don’t you put +it away? Or if it’s an inconvenience to you to carry it, one’s +often glad to have one’s card back. The fortune one spends in +them!” +</p> + +<p> +Then he saw both that his way of marching with his own prepared tribute had +affected her as a deviation in one of those directions he couldn’t yet +measure, and that she supposed this emblem to be still the one he had received +from her. He accordingly handed her the card as if in restitution, but as soon +as she had it she felt the difference and, with her eyes on it, stopped short +for apology. “I like,” she observed, “your name.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” he answered, “you won’t have heard of it!” +Yet he had his reasons for not being sure but that she perhaps might. +</p> + +<p> +Ah it was but too visible! She read it over again as one who had never seen it. +“‘Mr. Lewis Lambert Strether’”—she sounded it +almost as freely as for any stranger. She repeated however that she liked +it—“particularly the Lewis Lambert. It’s the name of a novel +of Balzac’s.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I know that!” said Strether. +</p> + +<p> +“But the novel’s an awfully bad one.” +</p> + +<p> +“I know that too,” Strether smiled. To which he added with an +irrelevance that was only superficial: “I come from Woollett +Massachusetts.” It made her for some reason—the irrelevance or +whatever—laugh. Balzac had described many cities, but hadn’t +described Woollett Massachusetts. “You say that,” she returned, +“as if you wanted one immediately to know the worst.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I think it’s a thing,” he said, “that you must +already have made out. I feel it so that I certainly must look it, speak it, +and, as people say there, ‘act’ it. It sticks out of me, and you +knew surely for yourself as soon as you looked at me.” +</p> + +<p> +“The worst, you mean?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, the fact of where I come from. There at any rate it <i>is</i>; so +that you won’t be able, if anything happens, to say I’ve not been +straight with you.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see”—and Miss Gostrey looked really interested in the +point he had made. “But what do you think of as happening?” +</p> + +<p> +Though he wasn’t shy—which was rather anomalous—Strether +gazed about without meeting her eyes; a motion that was frequent with him in +talk, yet of which his words often seemed not at all the effect. “Why +that you should find me too hopeless.” With which they walked on again +together while she answered, as they went, that the most “hopeless” +of her countryfolk were in general precisely those she liked best. All sorts of +other pleasant small things—small things that were yet large for +him—flowered in the air of the occasion, but the bearing of the occasion +itself on matters still remote concerns us too closely to permit us to multiply +our illustrations. Two or three, however, in truth, we should perhaps regret to +lose. The tortuous wall—girdle, long since snapped, of the little swollen +city, half held in place by careful civic hands—wanders in narrow file +between parapets smoothed by peaceful generations, pausing here and there for a +dismantled gate or a bridged gap, with rises and drops, steps up and steps +down, queer twists, queer contacts, peeps into homely streets and under the +brows of gables, views of cathedral tower and waterside fields, of huddled +English town and ordered English country. Too deep almost for words was the +delight of these things to Strether; yet as deeply mixed with it were certain +images of his inward picture. He had trod this walks in the far-off time, at +twenty-five; but that, instead of spoiling it, only enriched it for present +feeling and marked his renewal as a thing substantial enough to share. It was +with Waymarsh he should have shared it, and he was now accordingly taking from +him something that was his due. He looked repeatedly at his watch, and when he +had done so for the fifth time Miss Gostrey took him up. +</p> + +<p> +“You’re doing something that you think not right.” +</p> + +<p> +It so touched the place that he quite changed colour and his laugh grew almost +awkward. “Am I enjoying it as much as <i>that?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re not enjoying it, I think, so much as you ought.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see”—he appeared thoughtfully to agree. “Great is my +privilege.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh it’s not your privilege! It has nothing to do with <i>me</i>. +It has to do with yourself. Your failure’s general.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah there you are!” he laughed. “It’s the failure of +Woollett. <i>That’s</i> general.” +</p> + +<p> +“The failure to enjoy,” Miss Gostrey explained, “is what I +mean.” +</p> + +<p> +“Precisely. Woollett isn’t sure it ought to enjoy. If it were it +would. But it hasn’t, poor thing,” Strether continued, “any +one to show it how. It’s not like me. I have somebody.” +</p> + +<p> +They had stopped, in the afternoon sunshine—constantly pausing, in their +stroll, for the sharper sense of what they saw—and Strether rested on one +of the high sides of the old stony groove of the little rampart. He leaned back +on this support with his face to the tower of the cathedral, now admirably +commanded by their station, the high red-brown mass, square and subordinately +spired and crocketed, retouched and restored, but charming to his long-sealed +eyes and with the first swallows of the year weaving their flight all round it. +Miss Gostrey lingered near him, full of an air, to which she more and more +justified her right, of understanding the effect of things. She quite +concurred. “You’ve indeed somebody.” And she added: “I +wish you <i>would</i> let me show you how!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’m afraid of you!” he cheerfully pleaded. +</p> + +<p> +She kept on him a moment, through her glasses and through his own, a certain +pleasant pointedness. “Ah no, you’re not! You’re not in the +least, thank goodness! If you had been we shouldn’t so soon have found +ourselves here together. I think,” she comfortably concluded, “you +trust me.” +</p> + +<p> +“I think I do!—but that’s exactly what I’m afraid of. I +shouldn’t mind if I didn’t. It’s falling thus in twenty +minutes so utterly into your hands. I dare say,” Strether continued, +“it’s a sort of thing you’re thoroughly familiar with; but +nothing more extraordinary has ever happened to me.” +</p> + +<p> +She watched him with all her kindness. “That means simply that +you’ve recognised me—which <i>is</i> rather beautiful and rare. You +see what I am.” As on this, however, he protested, with a good-humoured +headshake, a resignation of any such claim, she had a moment of explanation. +“If you’ll only come on further as you <i>have</i> come +you’ll at any rate make out. My own fate has been too many for me, and +I’ve succumbed to it. I’m a general guide—to +‘Europe,’ don’t you know? I wait for people—I put them +through. I pick them up—I set them down. I’m a sort of superior +‘courier-maid.’ I’m a companion at large. I take people, as +I’ve told you, about. I never sought it—it has come to me. It has +been my fate, and one’s fate one accepts. It’s a dreadful thing to +have to say, in so wicked a world, but I verily believe that, such as you see +me, there’s nothing I don’t know. I know all the shops and the +prices—but I know worse things still. I bear on my back the huge load of +our national consciousness, or, in other words—for it comes to +that—of our nation itself. Of what is our nation composed but of the men +and women individually on my shoulders? I don’t do it, you know, for any +particular advantage. I don’t do it, for instance—some people do, +you know—for money.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether could only listen and wonder and weigh his chance. “And yet, +affected as you are then to so many of your clients, you can scarcely be said +to do it for love.” He waited a moment. “How do we reward +you?” +</p> + +<p> +She had her own hesitation, but “You don’t!” she finally +returned, setting him again in motion. They went on, but in a few minutes, +though while still thinking over what she had said, he once more took out his +watch; mechanically, unconsciously and as if made nervous by the mere +exhilaration of what struck him as her strange and cynical wit. He looked at +the hour without seeing it, and then, on something again said by his companion, +had another pause. “You’re really in terror of him.” +</p> + +<p> +He smiled a smile that he almost felt to be sickly. “Now you can see why +I’m afraid of you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Because I’ve such illuminations? Why they’re all for your +help! It’s what I told you,” she added, “just now. You feel +as if this were wrong.” +</p> + +<p> +He fell back once more, settling himself against the parapet as if to hear more +about it. “Then get me out!” +</p> + +<p> +Her face fairly brightened for the joy of the appeal, but, as if it were a +question of immediate action, she visibly considered. “Out of waiting for +him?—of seeing him at all?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no—not that,” said poor Strether, looking grave. +“I’ve got to wait for him—and I want very much to see him. +But out of the terror. You did put your finger on it a few minutes ago. +It’s general, but it avails itself of particular occasions. That’s +what it’s doing for me now. I’m always considering something else; +something else, I mean, than the thing of the moment. The obsession of the +other thing is the terror. I’m considering at present for instance +something else than <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +She listened with charming earnestness. “Oh you oughtn’t to do +that!” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s what I admit. Make it then impossible.” +</p> + +<p> +She continued to think. “Is it really an ‘order’ from +you?—that I shall take the job? <i>Will</i> you give yourself up?” +</p> + +<p> +Poor Strether heaved his sigh. “If I only could! But that’s the +deuce of it—that I never can. No—I can’t.” +</p> + +<p> +She wasn’t, however, discouraged. “But you want to at least?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh unspeakably!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then, if you’ll try!”—and she took over the job, as +she had called it, on the spot. “Trust me!” she exclaimed, and the +action of this, as they retraced their steps, was presently to make him pass +his hand into her arm in the manner of a benign dependent paternal old person +who wishes to be “nice” to a younger one. If he drew it out again +indeed as they approached the inn this may have been because, after more talk +had passed between them, the relation of age, or at least of +experience—which, for that matter, had already played to and fro with +some freedom—affected him as incurring a readjustment. It was at all +events perhaps lucky that they arrived in sufficiently separate fashion within +range of the hotel-door. The young lady they had left in the glass cage watched +as if she had come to await them on the threshold. At her side stood a person +equally interested, by his attitude, in their return, and the effect of the +sight of whom was instantly to determine for Strether another of those +responsive arrests that we have had so repeatedly to note. He left it to Miss +Gostrey to name, with the fine full bravado as it almost struck him, of her +“Mr. Waymarsh!” what was to have been, what—he more than ever +felt as his short stare of suspended welcome took things in—would have +been, but for herself, his doom. It was already upon him even at that +distance—Mr. Waymarsh was for <i>his</i> part joyless. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +He had none the less to confess to this friend that evening that he knew almost +nothing about her, and it was a deficiency that Waymarsh, even with his memory +refreshed by contact, by her own prompt and lucid allusions and enquiries, by +their having publicly partaken of dinner in her company, and by another stroll, +to which she was not a stranger, out into the town to look at the cathedral by +moonlight—it was a blank that the resident of Milrose, though admitting +acquaintance with the Munsters, professed himself unable to fill. He had no +recollection of Miss Gostrey, and two or three questions that she put to him +about those members of his circle had, to Strether’s observation, the +same effect he himself had already more directly felt—the effect of +appearing to place all knowledge, for the time, on this original woman’s +side. It interested him indeed to mark the limits of any such relation for her +with his friend as there could possibly be a question of, and it particularly +struck him that they were to be marked altogether in Waymarsh’s quarter. +This added to his own sense of having gone far with her—gave him an early +illustration of a much shorter course. There was a certitude he immediately +grasped—a conviction that Waymarsh would quite fail, as it were, and on +whatever degree of acquaintances to profit by her. +</p> + +<p> +There had been after the first interchange among the three a talk of some five +minutes in the hall, and then the two men had adjourned to the garden, Miss +Gostrey for the time disappearing. Strether in due course accompanied his +friend to the room he had bespoken and had, before going out, scrupulously +visited; where at the end of another half-hour he had no less discreetly left +him. On leaving him he repaired straight to his own room, but with the prompt +effect of feeling the compass of that chamber resented by his condition. There +he enjoyed at once the first consequence of their reunion. A place was too +small for him after it that had seemed large enough before. He had awaited it +with something he would have been sorry, have been almost ashamed not to +recognise as emotion, yet with a tacit assumption at the same time that emotion +would in the event find itself relieved. The actual oddity was that he was only +more excited; and his excitement—to which indeed he would have found it +difficult instantly to give a name—brought him once more downstairs and +caused him for some minutes vaguely to wander. He went once more to the garden; +he looked into the public room, found Miss Gostrey writing letters and backed +out; he roamed, fidgeted and wasted time; but he was to have his more intimate +session with his friend before the evening closed. +</p> + +<p> +It was late—not till Strether had spent an hour upstairs with +him—that this subject consented to betake himself to doubtful rest. +Dinner and the subsequent stroll by moonlight—a dream, on +Strether’s part, of romantic effects rather prosaically merged in a mere +missing of thicker coats—had measurably intervened, and this midnight +conference was the result of Waymarsh’s having (when they were free, as +he put it, of their fashionable friend) found the smoking-room not quite what +he wanted, and yet bed what he wanted less. His most frequent form of words was +that he knew himself, and they were applied on this occasion to his certainty +of not sleeping. He knew himself well enough to know that he should have a +night of prowling unless he should succeed, as a preliminary, in getting +prodigiously tired. If the effort directed to this end involved till a late +hour the presence of Strether—consisted, that is, in the detention of the +latter for full discourse—there was yet an impression of minor discipline +involved for our friend in the picture Waymarsh made as he sat in trousers and +shirt on the edge of his couch. With his long legs extended and his large back +much bent, he nursed alternately, for an almost incredible time, his elbows and +his beard. He struck his visitor as extremely, as almost wilfully +uncomfortable; yet what had this been for Strether, from that first glimpse of +him disconcerted in the porch of the hotel, but the predominant notes. The +discomfort was in a manner contagious, as well as also in a manner inconsequent +and unfounded; the visitor felt that unless he should get used to it—or +unless Waymarsh himself should—it would constitute a menace for his own +prepared, his own already confirmed, consciousness of the agreeable. On their +first going up together to the room Strether had selected for him Waymarsh had +looked it over in silence and with a sigh that represented for his companion, +if not the habit of disapprobation, at least the despair of felicity; and this +look had recurred to Strether as the key of much he had since observed. +“Europe,” he had begun to gather from these things, had up to now +rather failed of its message to him; he hadn’t got into tune with it and +had at the end of three months almost renounced any such expectation. +</p> + +<p> +He really appeared at present to insist on that by just perching there with the +gas in his eyes. This of itself somehow conveyed the futility of single +rectifications in a multiform failure. He had a large handsome head and a large +sallow seamed face—a striking significant physiognomic total, the upper +range of which, the great political brow, the thick loose hair, the dark +fuliginous eyes, recalled even to a generation whose standard had dreadfully +deviated the impressive image, familiar by engravings and busts, of some great +national worthy of the earlier part of the mid-century. He was of the personal +type—and it was an element in the power and promise that in their early +time Strether had found in him—of the American statesman, the statesman +trained in “Congressional halls,” of an elder day. The legend had +been in later years that as the lower part of his face, which was weak, and +slightly crooked, spoiled the likeness, this was the real reason for the growth +of his beard, which might have seemed to spoil it for those not in the secret. +He shook his mane; he fixed, with his admirable eyes, his auditor or his +observer; he wore no glasses and had a way, partly formidable, yet also partly +encouraging, as from a representative to a constituent, of looking very hard at +those who approached him. He met you as if you had knocked and he had bidden +you enter. Strether, who hadn’t seen him for so long an interval, +apprehended him now with a freshness of taste, and had perhaps never done him +such ideal justice. The head was bigger, the eyes finer, than they need have +been for the career; but that only meant, after all, that the career was itself +expressive. What it expressed at midnight in the gas-glaring bedroom at Chester +was that the subject of it had, at the end of years, barely escaped, by flight +in time, a general nervous collapse. But this very proof of the full life, as +the full life was understood at Milrose, would have made to Strether’s +imagination an element in which Waymarsh could have floated easily had he only +consented to float. Alas nothing so little resembled floating as the rigour +with which, on the edge of his bed, he hugged his posture of prolonged +impermanence. It suggested to his comrade something that always, when kept up, +worried him—a person established in a railway-coach with a forward +inclination. It represented the angle at which poor Waymarsh was to sit through +the ordeal of Europe. +</p> + +<p> +Thanks to the stress of occupation, the strain of professions, the absorption +and embarrassment of each, they had not, at home, during years before this +sudden brief and almost bewildering reign of comparative ease, found so much as +a day for a meeting; a fact that was in some degree an explanation of the +sharpness with which most of his friend’s features stood out to Strether. +Those he had lost sight of since the early time came back to him; others that +it was never possible to forget struck him now as sitting, clustered and +expectant, like a somewhat defiant family-group, on the doorstep of their +residence. The room was narrow for its length, and the occupant of the bed +thrust so far a pair of slippered feet that the visitor had almost to step over +them in his recurrent rebounds from his chair to fidget back and forth. There +were marks the friends made on things to talk about, and on things not to, and +one of the latter in particular fell like the tap of chalk on the blackboard. +Married at thirty, Waymarsh had not lived with his wife for fifteen years, and +it came up vividly between them in the glare of the gas that Strether +wasn’t to ask about her. He knew they were still separate and that she +lived at hotels, travelled in Europe, painted her face and wrote her husband +abusive letters, of not one of which, to a certainty, that sufferer spared +himself the perusal; but he respected without difficulty the cold twilight that +had settled on this side of his companion’s life. It was a province in +which mystery reigned and as to which Waymarsh had never spoken the informing +word. Strether, who wanted to do him the highest justice wherever he +<i>could</i> do it, singularly admired him for the dignity of this reserve, and +even counted it as one of the grounds—grounds all handled and +numbered—for ranking him, in the range of their acquaintance, as a +success. He <i>was</i> a success, Waymarsh, in spite of overwork, or +prostration, of sensible shrinkage, of his wife’s letters and of his not +liking Europe. Strether would have reckoned his own career less futile had he +been able to put into it anything so handsome as so much fine silence. One +might one’s self easily have left Mrs. Waymarsh; and one would assuredly +have paid one’s tribute to the ideal in covering with that attitude the +derision of having been left by her. Her husband had held his tongue and had +made a large income; and these were in especial the achievements as to which +Strether envied him. Our friend had had indeed on his side too a subject for +silence, which he fully appreciated; but it was a matter of a different sort, +and the figure of the income he had arrived at had never been high enough to +look any one in the face. +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know as I quite see what you require it for. You +don’t appear sick to speak of.” It was of Europe Waymarsh thus +finally spoke. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, who fell as much as possible into step, +“I guess I don’t <i>feel</i> sick now that I’ve started. But +I had pretty well run down before I did start.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh raised his melancholy look. “Ain’t you about up to your +usual average?” +</p> + +<p> +It was not quite pointedly sceptical, but it seemed somehow a plea for the +purest veracity, and it thereby affected our friend as the very voice of +Milrose. He had long since made a mental distinction—though never in +truth daring to betray it—between the voice of Milrose and the voice even +of Woollett. It was the former he felt, that was most in the real tradition. +There had been occasions in his past when the sound of it had reduced him to +temporary confusion, and the present, for some reason, suddenly became such +another. It was nevertheless no light matter that the very effect of his +confusion should be to make him again prevaricate. “That description +hardly does justice to a man to whom it has done such a lot of good to see +<i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh fixed on his washing-stand the silent detached stare with which +Milrose in person, as it were, might have marked the unexpectedness of a +compliment from Woollett, and Strether for his part, felt once more like +Woollett in person. “I mean,” his friend presently continued, +“that your appearance isn’t as bad as I’ve seen it: it +compares favourably with what it was when I last noticed it.” On this +appearance Waymarsh’s eyes yet failed to rest; it was almost as if they +obeyed an instinct of propriety, and the effect was still stronger when, always +considering the basin and jug, he added: “You’ve filled out some +since then.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m afraid I have,” Strether laughed: “one does fill +out some with all one takes in, and I’ve taken in, I dare say, more than +I’ve natural room for. I was dog-tired when I sailed.” It had the +oddest sound of cheerfulness. +</p> + +<p> +“<i>I</i> was dog-tired,” his companion returned, “when I +arrived, and it’s this wild hunt for rest that takes all the life out of +me. The fact is, Strether—and it’s a comfort to have you here at +last to say it to; though I don’t know, after all, that I’ve really +waited; I’ve told it to people I’ve met in the cars—the fact +is, such a country as this ain’t my <i>kind</i> of country anyway. There +ain’t a country I’ve seen over here that <i>does</i> seem my kind. +Oh I don’t say but what there are plenty of pretty places and remarkable +old things; but the trouble is that I don’t seem to feel anywhere in +tune. That’s one of the reasons why I suppose I’ve gained so +little. I haven’t had the first sign of that lift I was led to +expect.” With this he broke out more earnestly. “Look here—I +want to go back.” +</p> + +<p> +His eyes were all attached to Strether’s now, for he was one of the men +who fully face you when they talk of themselves. This enabled his friend to +look at him hard and immediately to appear to the highest advantage in his eyes +by doing so. “That’s a genial thing to say to a fellow who has come +out on purpose to meet you!” +</p> + +<p> +Nothing could have been finer, on this, than Waymarsh’s sombre glow. +“<i>Have</i> you come out on purpose?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well—very largely.” +</p> + +<p> +“I thought from the way you wrote there was something back of it.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “Back of my desire to be with you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Back of your prostration.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, with a smile made more dim by a certain consciousness, shook his +head. “There are all the causes of it!” +</p> + +<p> +“And no particular cause that seemed most to drive you?” +</p> + +<p> +Our friend could at last conscientiously answer. “Yes. One. There +<i>is</i> a matter that has had much to do with my coming out.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh waited a little. “Too private to mention?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, not too private—for <i>you</i>. Only rather +complicated.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Waymarsh, who had waited again, “I <i>may</i> +lose my mind over here, but I don’t know as I’ve done so +yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you shall have the whole thing. But not tonight.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh seemed to sit stiffer and to hold his elbows tighter. “Why +not—if I can’t sleep?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because, my dear man, I <i>can!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Then where’s your prostration?” +</p> + +<p> +“Just in that—that I can put in eight hours.” And Strether +brought it out that if Waymarsh didn’t “gain” it was because +he didn’t go to bed: the result of which was, in its order, that, to do +the latter justice, he permitted his friend to insist on his really getting +settled. Strether, with a kind coercive hand for it, assisted him to this +consummation, and again found his own part in their relation auspiciously +enlarged by the smaller touches of lowering the lamp and seeing to a +sufficiency of blanket. It somehow ministered for him to indulgence to feel +Waymarsh, who looked unnaturally big and black in bed, as much tucked in as a +patient in a hospital and, with his covering up to his chin, as much simplified +by it. He hovered in vague pity, to be brief, while his companion challenged +him out of the bedclothes. “Is she really after you? Is that what’s +behind?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether felt an uneasiness at the direction taken by his companion’s +insight, but he played a little at uncertainty. “Behind my coming +out?” +</p> + +<p> +“Behind your prostration or whatever. It’s generally felt, you +know, that she follows you up pretty close.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s candour was never very far off. “Oh it has occurred to +you that I’m literally running away from Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I haven’t <i>known</i> but what you are. You’re a very +attractive man, Strether. You’ve seen for yourself,” said Waymarsh +“what that lady downstairs makes of it. Unless indeed,” he rambled +on with an effect between the ironic and the anxious, “it’s you who +are after <i>her</i>. Is Mrs. Newsome <i>over</i> here?” He spoke as with +a droll dread of her. +</p> + +<p> +It made his friend—though rather dimly—smile. “Dear no; +she’s safe, thank goodness—as I think I more and more feel—at +home. She thought of coming, but she gave it up. I’ve come in a manner +instead of her; and come to that extent—for you’re right in your +inference—on her business. So you see there <i>is</i> plenty of +connexion.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh continued to see at least all there was. “Involving accordingly +the particular one I’ve referred to?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took another turn about the room, giving a twitch to his +companion’s blanket and finally gaining the door. His feeling was that of +a nurse who had earned personal rest by having made everything straight. +“Involving more things than I can think of breaking ground on now. But +don’t be afraid—you shall have them from me: you’ll probably +find yourself having quite as much of them as you can do with. I shall—if +we keep together—very much depend on your impression of some of +them.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh’s acknowledgement of this tribute was characteristically +indirect. “You mean to say you don’t believe we <i>will</i> keep +together?” +</p> + +<p> +“I only glance at the danger,” Strether paternally said, +“because when I hear you wail to go back I seem to see you open up such +possibilities of folly.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh took it—silent a little—like a large snubbed child +“What are you going to do with me?” +</p> + +<p> +It was the very question Strether himself had put to Miss Gostrey, and he +wondered if he had sounded like that. But <i>he</i> at least could be more +definite. “I’m going to take you right down to London.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’ve been down to London!” Waymarsh more softly moaned. +“I’ve no use, Strether, for anything down there.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, good-humouredly, “I guess you’ve +some use for <i>me</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“So I’ve got to go?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you’ve got to go further yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” Waymarsh sighed, “do your damnedest! Only you +<i>will</i> tell me before you lead me on all the way—?” +</p> + +<p> +Our friend had again so lost himself, both for amusement and for contrition, in +the wonder of whether he had made, in his own challenge that afternoon, such +another figure, that he for an instant missed the thread. “Tell +you—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why what you’ve got on hand.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “Why it’s such a matter as that even if I +positively wanted I shouldn’t be able to keep it from you.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh gloomily gazed. “What does that mean then but that your trip is +just <i>for</i> her?” +</p> + +<p> +“For Mrs. Newsome? Oh it certainly is, as I say. Very much.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why do you also say it’s for me?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, in impatience, violently played with his latch. “It’s +simple enough. It’s for both of you.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh at last turned over with a groan. “Well, <i>I</i> won’t +marry you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Neither, when it comes to that—!” But the visitor had +already laughed and escaped. +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +He had told Miss Gostrey he should probably take, for departure with Waymarsh, +some afternoon train, and it thereupon in the morning appeared that this lady +had made her own plan for an earlier one. She had breakfasted when Strether +came into the coffee-room; but, Waymarsh not having yet emerged, he was in time +to recall her to the terms of their understanding and to pronounce her +discretion overdone. She was surely not to break away at the very moment she +had created a want. He had met her as she rose from her little table in a +window, where, with the morning papers beside her, she reminded him, as he let +her know, of Major Pendennis breakfasting at his club—a compliment of +which she professed a deep appreciation; and he detained her as pleadingly as +if he had already—and notably under pressure of the visions of the +night—learned to be unable to do without her. She must teach him at all +events, before she went, to order breakfast as breakfast was ordered in Europe, +and she must especially sustain him in the problem of ordering for Waymarsh. +The latter had laid upon his friend, by desperate sounds through the door of +his room, dreadful divined responsibilities in respect to beefsteak and +oranges—responsibilities which Miss Gostrey took over with an alertness +of action that matched her quick intelligence. She had before this weaned the +expatriated from traditions compared with which the matutinal beefsteak was but +the creature of an hour, and it was not for her, with some of her memories, to +falter in the path though she freely enough declared, on reflexion, that there +was always in such cases a choice of opposed policies. “There are times +when to give them their head, you know—!” +</p> + +<p> +They had gone to wait together in the garden for the dressing of the meal, and +Strether found her more suggestive than ever “Well, what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Is to bring about for them such a complexity of relations—unless +indeed we call it a simplicity!—that the situation <i>has</i> to wind +itself up. They want to go back.” +</p> + +<p> +“And you want them to go!” Strether gaily concluded. +</p> + +<p> +“I always want them to go, and I send them as fast as I can.’ +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I know—you take them to Liverpool.” +</p> + +<p> +“Any port will serve in a storm. I’m—with all my other +functions—an agent for repatriation. I want to re-people our stricken +country. What will become of it else? I want to discourage others.” +</p> + +<p> +The ordered English garden, in the freshness of the day, was delightful to +Strether, who liked the sound, under his feet, of the tight fine gravel, packed +with the chronic damp, and who had the idlest eye for the deep smoothness of +turf and the clean curves of paths. “Other people?” +</p> + +<p> +“Other countries. Other people—yes. I want to encourage our +own.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “Not to come? Why then do you ‘meet’ +them—since it doesn’t appear to be to stop them?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh that they shouldn’t come is as yet too much to ask. What I +attend to is that they come quickly and return still more so. I meet them to +help it to be over as soon as possible, and though I don’t stop them +I’ve my way of putting them through. That’s my little system; and, +if you want to know,” said Maria Gostrey, “it’s my real +secret, my innermost mission and use. I only seem, you see, to beguile and +approve; but I’ve thought it all out and I’m working all the while +underground. I can’t perhaps quite give you my formula, but I think that +practically I succeed. I send you back spent. So you stay back. Passed through +my hands—” +</p> + +<p> +“We don’t turn up again?” The further she went the further he +always saw himself able to follow. “I don’t want your +formula—I feel quite enough, as I hinted yesterday, your abysses. +Spent!” he echoed. “If that’s how you’re arranging so +subtly to send me I thank you for the warning.” +</p> + +<p> +For a minute, amid the pleasantness—poetry in tariffed items, but all the +more, for guests already convicted, a challenge to consumption—they +smiled at each other in confirmed fellowship. “Do you call it subtly? +It’s a plain poor tale. Besides, you’re a special case.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh special cases—that’s weak!” She was weak enough, +further still, to defer her journey and agree to accompany the gentlemen on +their own, might a separate carriage mark her independence; though it was in +spite of this to befall after luncheon that she went off alone and that, with a +tryst taken for a day of her company in London, they lingered another night. +She had, during the morning—spent in a way that he was to remember later +on as the very climax of his foretaste, as warm with presentiments, with what +he would have called collapses—had all sorts of things out with Strether; +and among them the fact that though there was never a moment of her life when +she wasn’t “due” somewhere, there was yet scarce a perfidy to +others of which she wasn’t capable for his sake. She explained moreover +that wherever she happened to be she found a dropped thread to pick up, a +ragged edge to repair, some familiar appetite in ambush, jumping out as she +approached, yet appeasable with a temporary biscuit. It became, on her taking +the risk of the deviation imposed on him by her insidious arrangement of his +morning meal, a point of honour for her not to fail with Waymarsh of the larger +success too; and her subsequent boast to Strether was that she had made their +friend fare—and quite without his knowing what was the matter—as +Major Pendennis would have fared at the Megatherium. She had made him breakfast +like a gentleman, and it was nothing, she forcibly asserted, to what she would +yet make him do. She made him participate in the slow reiterated ramble with +which, for Strether, the new day amply filled itself; and it was by her art +that he somehow had the air, on the ramparts and in the Rows, of carrying a +point of his own. +</p> + +<p> +The three strolled and stared and gossiped, or at least the two did; the case +really yielding for their comrade, if analysed, but the element of stricken +silence. This element indeed affected Strether as charged with audible +rumblings, but he was conscious of the care of taking it explicitly as a sign +of pleasant peace. He wouldn’t appeal too much, for that provoked +stiffness; yet he wouldn’t be too freely tacit, for that suggested giving +up. Waymarsh himself adhered to an ambiguous dumbness that might have +represented either the growth of a perception or the despair of one; and at +times and in places—where the low-browed galleries were darkest, the +opposite gables queerest, the solicitations of every kind densest—the +others caught him fixing hard some object of minor interest, fixing even at +moments nothing discernible, as if he were indulging it with a truce. When he +met Strether’s eye on such occasions he looked guilty and furtive, fell +the next minute into some attitude of retractation. Our friend couldn’t +show him the right things for fear of provoking some total renouncement, and +was tempted even to show him the wrong in order to make him differ with +triumph. There were moments when he himself felt shy of professing the full +sweetness of the taste of leisure, and there were others when he found himself +feeling as if his passages of interchange with the lady at his side might fall +upon the third member of their party very much as Mr. Burchell, at Dr. +Primrose’s fireside, was influenced by the high flights of the visitors +from London. The smallest things so arrested and amused him that he repeatedly +almost apologised—brought up afresh in explanation his plea of a previous +grind. He was aware at the same time that his grind had been as nothing to +Waymarsh’s, and he repeatedly confessed that, to cover his frivolity, he +was doing his best for his previous virtue. Do what he might, in any case, his +previous virtue was still there, and it seemed fairly to stare at him out of +the windows of shops that were not as the shops of Woollett, fairly to make him +want things that he shouldn’t know what to do with. It was by the oddest, +the least admissible of laws demoralising him now; and the way it boldly took +was to make him want more wants. These first walks in Europe were in fact a +kind of finely lurid intimation of what one might find at the end of that +process. Had he come back after long years, in something already so like the +evening of life, only to be exposed to it? It was at all events over the +shop-windows that he made, with Waymarsh, most free; though it would have been +easier had not the latter most sensibly yielded to the appeal of the merely +useful trades. He pierced with his sombre detachment the plate-glass of +ironmongers and saddlers, while Strether flaunted an affinity with the dealers +in stamped letter-paper and in smart neckties. Strether was in fact recurrently +shameless in the presence of the tailors, though it was just over the heads of +the tailors that his countryman most loftily looked. This gave Miss Gostrey a +grasped opportunity to back up Waymarsh at his expense. The weary +lawyer—it was unmistakeable—had a conception of dress; but that, in +view of some of the features of the effect produced, was just what made the +danger of insistence on it. Strether wondered if he by this time thought Miss +Gostrey less fashionable or Lambert Strether more so; and it appeared probable +that most of the remarks exchanged between this latter pair about passers, +figures, faces, personal types, exemplified in their degree the disposition to +talk as “society” talked. +</p> + +<p> +Was what was happening to himself then, was what already <i>had</i> happened, +really that a woman of fashion was floating him into society and that an old +friend deserted on the brink was watching the force of the current? When the +woman of fashion permitted Strether—as she permitted him at the +most—the purchase of a pair of gloves, the terms she made about it, the +prohibition of neckties and other items till she should be able to guide him +through the Burlington Arcade, were such as to fall upon a sensitive ear as a +challenge to just imputations. Miss Gostrey was such a woman of fashion as +could make without a symptom of vulgar blinking an appointment for the +Burlington Arcade. Mere discriminations about a pair of gloves could thus at +any rate represent—always for such sensitive ears as were in +question—possibilities of something that Strether could make a mark +against only as the peril of apparent wantonness. He had quite the +consciousness of his new friend, for their companion, that he might have had of +a Jesuit in petticoats, a representative of the recruiting interests of the +Catholic Church. The Catholic Church, for Waymarsh—that was to say the +enemy, the monster of bulging eyes and far-reaching quivering groping +tentacles—was exactly society, exactly the multiplication of shibboleths, +exactly the discrimination of types and tones, exactly the wicked old Rows of +Chester, rank with feudalism; exactly in short Europe. +</p> + +<p> +There was light for observation, however, in an incident that occurred just +before they turned back to luncheon. Waymarsh had been for a quarter of an hour +exceptionally mute and distant, and something, or other—Strether was +never to make out exactly what—proved, as it were, too much for him after +his comrades had stood for three minutes taking in, while they leaned on an old +balustrade that guarded the edge of the Row, a particularly crooked and huddled +street-view. “He thinks us sophisticated, he thinks us worldly, he thinks +us wicked, he thinks us all sorts of queer things,” Strether reflected; +for wondrous were the vague quantities our friend had within a couple of short +days acquired the habit of conveniently and conclusively lumping together. +There seemed moreover a direct connexion between some such inference and a +sudden grim dash taken by Waymarsh to the opposite side. This movement was +startlingly sudden, and his companions at first supposed him to have espied, to +be pursuing, the glimpse of an acquaintance. They next made out, however, that +an open door had instantly received him, and they then recognised him as +engulfed in the establishment of a jeweller, behind whose glittering front he +was lost to view. The fact had somehow the note of a demonstration, and it left +each of the others to show a face almost of fear. But Miss Gostrey broke into a +laugh. “What’s the matter with him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “he can’t stand it.” +</p> + +<p> +“But can’t stand what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Anything. Europe.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then how will that jeweller help him?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed to make it out, from their position, between the interstices of +arrayed watches, of close-hung dangling gewgaws. “You’ll +see.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that’s just what—if he buys anything—I’m +afraid of: that I shall see something rather dreadful.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether studied the finer appearances. “He may buy everything.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then don’t you think we ought to follow him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not for worlds. Besides we can’t. We’re paralysed. We +exchange a long scared look, we publicly tremble. The thing is, you see, we +‘realise.’ He has struck for freedom.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered but she laughed. “Ah what a price to pay! And I was +preparing some for him so cheap.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, no,” Strether went on, frankly amused now; “don’t +call it that: the kind of freedom you deal in is dear.” Then as to +justify himself: “Am I not in <i>my</i> way trying it? It’s +this.” +</p> + +<p> +“Being here, you mean, with me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, and talking to you as I do. I’ve known you a few hours, and +I’ve known <i>him</i> all my life; so that if the ease I thus take with +you about him isn’t magnificent”—and the thought of it held +him a moment—“why it’s rather base.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s magnificent!” said Miss Gostrey to make an end of it. +“And you should hear,” she added, “the ease <i>I</i> +take—and I above all intend to take—with Mr. Waymarsh.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought. “About <i>me?</i> Ah that’s no equivalent. The +equivalent would be Waymarsh’s himself serving me up—his +remorseless analysis of me. And he’ll never do that”—he was +sadly clear. “He’ll never remorselessly analyse me.” He quite +held her with the authority of this. “He’ll never say a word to you +about me.” +</p> + +<p> +She took it in; she did it justice; yet after an instant her reason, her +restless irony, disposed of it. “Of course he won’t. For what do +you take people, that they’re able to say words about anything, able +remorselessly to analyse? There are not many like you and me. It will be only +because he’s too stupid.” +</p> + +<p> +It stirred in her friend a sceptical echo which was at the same time the +protest of the faith of years. “Waymarsh stupid?” +</p> + +<p> +“Compared with you.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had still his eyes on the jeweller’s front, and he waited a +moment to answer. “He’s a success of a kind that I haven’t +approached.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean he has made money?” +</p> + +<p> +“He makes it—to my belief. And I,” said Strether, +“though with a back quite as bent, have never made anything. I’m a +perfectly equipped failure.” +</p> + +<p> +He feared an instant she’d ask him if he meant he was poor; and he was +glad she didn’t, for he really didn’t know to what the truth on +this unpleasant point mightn’t have prompted her. She only, however, +confirmed his assertion. “Thank goodness you’re a +failure—it’s why I so distinguish you! Anything else to-day is too +hideous. Look about you—look at the successes. Would you <i>be</i> one, +on your honour? Look, moreover,” she continued, “at me.” +</p> + +<p> +For a little accordingly their eyes met. “I see,” Strether +returned. “You too are out of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“The superiority you discern in me,” she concurred, +“announces my futility. If you knew,” she sighed, “the dreams +of my youth! But our realities are what has brought us together. We’re +beaten brothers in arms.” +</p> + +<p> +He smiled at her kindly enough, but he shook his head. “It doesn’t +alter the fact that you’re expensive. You’ve cost me +already—!” +</p> + +<p> +But he had hung fire. “Cost you what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, my past—in one great lump. But no matter,” he laughed: +“I’ll pay with my last penny.” +</p> + +<p> +Her attention had unfortunately now been engaged by their comrade’s +return, for Waymarsh met their view as he came out of his shop. “I hope +he hasn’t paid,” she said, “with <i>his</i> last; though +I’m convinced he has been splendid, and has been so for you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah no—not that!” +</p> + +<p> +“Then for me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite as little.” Waymarsh was by this time near enough to show +signs his friend could read, though he seemed to look almost carefully at +nothing in particular. +</p> + +<p> +“Then for himself?” +</p> + +<p> +“For nobody. For nothing. For freedom.” +</p> + +<p> +“But what has freedom to do with it?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s answer was indirect. “To be as good as you and me. But +different.” +</p> + +<p> +She had had time to take in their companion’s face; and with it, as such +things were easy for her, she took in all. “Different—yes. But +better!” +</p> + +<p> +If Waymarsh was sombre he was also indeed almost sublime. He told them nothing, +left his absence unexplained, and though they were convinced he had made some +extraordinary purchase they were never to learn its nature. He only glowered +grandly at the tops of the old gables. “It’s the sacred +rage,” Strether had had further time to say; and this sacred rage was to +become between them, for convenient comprehension, the description of one of +his periodical necessities. It was Strether who eventually contended that it +did make him better than they. But by that time Miss Gostrey was convinced that +she didn’t want to be better than Strether. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap02"></a>Book Second</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +Those occasions on which Strether was, in association with the exile from +Milrose, to see the sacred rage glimmer through would doubtless have their due +periodicity; but our friend had meanwhile to find names for many other matters. +On no evening of his life perhaps, as he reflected, had he had to supply so +many as on the third of his short stay in London; an evening spent by Miss +Gostrey’s side at one of the theatres, to which he had found himself +transported, without his own hand raised, on the mere expression of a +conscientious wonder. She knew her theatre, she knew her play, as she had +triumphantly known, three days running, everything else, and the moment filled +to the brim, for her companion, that apprehension of the interesting which, +whether or no the interesting happened to filter through his guide, strained +now to its limits his brief opportunity. Waymarsh hadn’t come with them; +he had seen plays enough, he signified, before Strether had joined him—an +affirmation that had its full force when his friend ascertained by questions +that he had seen two and a circus. Questions as to what he had seen had on him +indeed an effect only less favourable than questions as to what he +hadn’t. He liked the former to be discriminated; but how could it be +done, Strether asked of their constant counsellor, without discriminating the +latter? +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey had dined with him at his hotel, face to face over a small table +on which the lighted candles had rose-coloured shades; and the rose-coloured +shades and the small table and the soft fragrance of the lady—had +anything to his mere sense ever been so soft?—were so many touches in he +scarce knew what positive high picture. He had been to the theatre, even to the +opera, in Boston, with Mrs. Newsome, more than once acting as her only escort; +but there had been no little confronted dinner, no pink lights, no whiff of +vague sweetness, as a preliminary: one of the results of which was that at +present, mildly rueful, though with a sharpish accent, he actually asked +himself <i>why</i> there hadn’t. There was much the same difference in +his impression of the noticed state of his companion, whose dress was +“cut down,” as he believed the term to be, in respect to shoulders +and bosom, in a manner quite other than Mrs. Newsome’s, and who wore +round her throat a broad red velvet band with an antique jewel—he was +rather complacently sure it was antique—attached to it in front. Mrs. +Newsome’s dress was never in any degree “cut down,” and she +never wore round her throat a broad red velvet band: if she had, moreover, +would it ever have served so to carry on and complicate, as he now almost felt, +his vision? +</p> + +<p> +It would have been absurd of him to trace into ramifications the effect of the +ribbon from which Miss Gostrey’s trinket depended, had he not for the +hour, at the best, been so given over to uncontrolled perceptions. What was it +but an uncontrolled perception that his friend’s velvet band somehow +added, in her appearance, to the value of every other item—to that of her +smile and of the way she carried her head, to that of her complexion, of her +lips, her teeth, her eyes, her hair? What, certainly, had a man conscious of a +man’s work in the world to do with red velvet bands? He wouldn’t +for anything have so exposed himself as to tell Miss Gostrey how much he liked +hers, yet he <i>had</i> none the less not only caught himself in the +act—frivolous, no doubt, idiotic, and above all unexpected—of +liking it: he had in addition taken it as a starting-point for fresh backward, +fresh forward, fresh lateral flights. The manner in which Mrs. Newsome’s +throat <i>was</i> encircled suddenly represented for him, in an alien order, +almost as many things as the manner in which Miss Gostrey’s was. Mrs. +Newsome wore, at operatic hours, a black silk dress—very handsome, he +knew it was “handsome”—and an ornament that his memory was +able further to identify as a ruche. He had his association indeed with the +ruche, but it was rather imperfectly romantic. He had once said to the +wearer—and it was as “free” a remark as he had ever made to +her—that she looked, with her ruff and other matters, like Queen +Elizabeth; and it had after this in truth been his fancy that, as a consequence +of that tenderness and an acceptance of the idea, the form of this special +tribute to the “frill” had grown slightly more marked. The +connexion, as he sat there and let his imagination roam, was to strike him as +vaguely pathetic; but there it all was, and pathetic was doubtless in the +conditions the best thing it could possibly be. It had assuredly existed at any +rate; for it seemed now to come over him that no gentleman of his age at +Woollett could ever, to a lady of Mrs. Newsome’s, which was not much less +than his, have embarked on such a simile. +</p> + +<p> +All sorts of things in fact now seemed to come over him, comparatively few of +which his chronicler can hope for space to mention. It came over him for +instance that Miss Gostrey looked perhaps like Mary Stuart: Lambert Strether +had a candour of fancy which could rest for an instant gratified in such an +antithesis. It came over him that never before—no, literally +never—had a lady dined with him at a public place before going to the +play. The publicity of the place was just, in the matter, for Strether, the +rare strange thing; it affected him almost as the achievement of privacy might +have affected a man of a different experience. He had married, in the far-away +years, so young as to have missed the time natural in Boston for taking girls +to the Museum; and it was absolutely true of hint that—even after the +close of the period of conscious detachment occupying the centre of his life, +the grey middle desert of the two deaths, that of his wife and that, ten years +later, of his boy—he had never taken any one anywhere. It came over him +in especial—though the monition had, as happened, already sounded, +fitfully gleamed, in other forms—that the business he had come out on +hadn’t yet been so brought home to him as by the sight of the people +about him. She gave him the impression, his friend, at first, more straight +than he got it for himself—gave it simply by saying with off-hand +illumination: “Oh yes, they’re types!”—but after he had +taken it he made to the full his own use of it; both while he kept silence for +the four acts and while he talked in the intervals. It was an evening, it was a +world of types, and this was a connexion above all in which the figures and +faces in the stalls were interchangeable with those on the stage. +</p> + +<p> +He felt as if the play itself penetrated him with the naked elbow of his +neighbour, a great stripped handsome red-haired lady who conversed with a +gentleman on her other side in stray dissyllables which had for his ear, in the +oddest way in the world, so much sound that he wondered they hadn’t more +sense; and he recognised by the same law, beyond the footlights, what he was +pleased to take for the very flush of English life. He had distracted drops in +which he couldn’t have said if it were actors or auditors who were most +true, and the upshot of which, each time, was the consciousness of new +contacts. However he viewed his job it was “types” he should have +to tackle. Those before him and around him were not as the types of Woollett, +where, for that matter, it had begun to seem to him that there must only have +been the male and the female. These made two exactly, even with the individual +varieties. Here, on the other hand, apart from the personal and the sexual +range—which might be greater or less—a series of strong stamps had +been applied, as it were, from without; stamps that his observation played with +as, before a glass case on a table, it might have passed from medal to medal +and from copper to gold. It befell that in the drama precisely there was a bad +woman in a yellow frock who made a pleasant weak good-looking young man in +perpetual evening dress do the most dreadful things. Strether felt himself on +the whole not afraid of the yellow frock, but he was vaguely anxious over a +certain kindness into which he found himself drifting for its victim. He +hadn’t come out, he reminded himself, to be too kind, or indeed to be +kind at all, to Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad also be in perpetual evening +dress? He somehow rather hoped it—it seemed so to add to <i>this</i> +young man’s general amenability; though he wondered too if, to fight him +with his own weapons, he himself (a thought almost startling) would have +likewise to be. This young man furthermore would have been much more easy to +handle—at least for <i>him</i>—than appeared probable in respect to +Chad. +</p> + +<p> +It came up for him with Miss Gostrey that there were things of which she would +really perhaps after all have heard, and she admitted when a little pressed +that she was never quite sure of what she heard as distinguished from things +such as, on occasions like the present, she only extravagantly guessed. +“I seem with this freedom, you see, to have guessed Mr. Chad. He’s +a young man on whose head high hopes are placed at Woollett; a young man a +wicked woman has got hold of and whom his family over there have sent you out +to rescue. You’ve accepted the mission of separating him from the wicked +woman. Are you quite sure she’s very bad for him?” +</p> + +<p> +Something in his manner showed it as quite pulling him up. “Of course we +are. Wouldn’t <i>you</i> be?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I don’t know. One never does—does one?—beforehand. +One can only judge on the facts. Yours are quite new to me; I’m really +not in the least, as you see, in possession of them: so it will be awfully +interesting to have them from you. If you’re satisfied, that’s all +that’s required. I mean if you’re sure you <i>are</i> sure: sure it +won’t do.” +</p> + +<p> +“That he should lead such a life? Rather!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but I don’t know, you see, about his life; you’ve not +told me about his life. She may be charming—his life!” +</p> + +<p> +“Charming?”—Strether stared before him. “She’s +base, venal—out of the streets.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see. And <i>he</i>—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Chad, wretched boy?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of what type and temper is he?” she went on as Strether had +lapsed. +</p> + +<p> +“Well—the obstinate.” It was as if for a moment he had been +going to say more and had then controlled himself. +</p> + +<p> +That was scarce what she wished. “Do you like him?” +</p> + +<p> +This time he was prompt. “No. How <i>can</i> I?” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean because of your being so saddled with him?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m thinking of his mother,” said Strether after a moment. +“He has darkened her admirable life.” He spoke with austerity. +“He has worried her half to death.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh that’s of course odious.” She had a pause as if for +renewed emphasis of this truth, but it ended on another note. “Is her +life very admirable?” +</p> + +<p> +“Extraordinarily.” +</p> + +<p> +There was so much in the tone that Miss Gostrey had to devote another pause to +the appreciation of it. “And has he only <i>her?</i> I don’t mean +the bad woman in Paris,” she quickly added—“for I assure you +I shouldn’t even at the best be disposed to allow him more than one. But +has he only his mother?” +</p> + +<p> +“He has also a sister, older than himself and married; and they’re +both remarkably fine women.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very handsome, you mean?” +</p> + +<p> +This promptitude—almost, as he might have thought, this precipitation, +gave him a brief drop; but he came up again. “Mrs. Newsome, I think, is +handsome, though she’s not of course, with a son of twenty-eight and a +daughter of thirty, in her very first youth. She married, however, extremely +young.” +</p> + +<p> +“And is wonderful,” Miss Gostrey asked, “for her age?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed to feel with a certain disquiet the pressure of it. “I +don’t say she’s wonderful. Or rather,” he went on the next +moment, “I do say it. It’s exactly what she +<i>is</i>—wonderful. But I wasn’t thinking of her +appearance,” he explained—“striking as that doubtless is. I +was thinking—well, of many other things.” He seemed to look at +these as if to mention some of them; then took, pulling himself up, another +turn. “About Mrs. Pocock people may differ.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is that the daughter’s name—‘Pocock’?” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s the daughter’s name,” Strether sturdily +confessed. +</p> + +<p> +“And people may differ, you mean, about <i>her</i> beauty?” +</p> + +<p> +“About everything.” +</p> + +<p> +“But <i>you</i> admire her?” +</p> + +<p> +He gave his friend a glance as to show how he could bear this “I’m +perhaps a little afraid of her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “I see her from here! You may say +then I see very fast and very far, but I’ve already shown you I do. The +young man and the two ladies,” she went on, “are at any rate all +the family?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite all. His father has been dead ten years, and there’s no +brother, nor any other sister. They’d do,” said Strether, +“anything in the world for him.” +</p> + +<p> +“And you’d do anything in the world for <i>them?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +He shifted again; she had made it perhaps just a shade too affirmative for his +nerves. “Oh I don’t know!” +</p> + +<p> +“You’d do at any rate this, and the ‘anything’ +they’d do is represented by their <i>making</i> you do it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah they couldn’t have come—either of them. They’re +very busy people and Mrs. Newsome in particular has a large full life. +She’s moreover highly nervous—and not at all strong.” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean she’s an American invalid?” +</p> + +<p> +He carefully distinguished. “There’s nothing she likes less than to +be called one, but she would consent to be one of those things, I think,” +he laughed, “if it were the only way to be the other.” +</p> + +<p> +“Consent to be an American in order to be an invalid?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” said Strether, “the other way round. She’s at any +rate delicate sensitive high-strung. She puts so much of herself into +everything—” +</p> + +<p> +Ah Maria knew these things! “That she has nothing left for anything else? +Of course she hasn’t. To whom do you say it? High-strung? Don’t I +spend my life, for them, jamming down the pedal? I see moreover how it has told +on you.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took this more lightly. “Oh I jam down the pedal too!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” she lucidly returned, “we must from this moment bear +on it together with all our might.” And she forged ahead. “Have +they money?” +</p> + +<p> +But it was as if, while her energetic image still held him, her enquiry fell +short. “Mrs. Newsome,” he wished further to explain, +“hasn’t moreover your courage on the question of contact. If she +had come it would have been to see the person herself.” +</p> + +<p> +“The woman? Ah but that’s courage.” +</p> + +<p> +“No—it’s exaltation, which is a very different thing. +Courage,” he, however, accommodatingly threw out, “is what +<i>you</i> have.” +</p> + +<p> +She shook her head. “You say that only to patch me up—to cover the +nudity of my want of exaltation. I’ve neither the one nor the other. +I’ve mere battered indifference. I see that what you mean,” Miss +Gostrey pursued, “is that if your friend <i>had</i> come she would take +great views, and the great views, to put it simply, would be too much for +her.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether looked amused at her notion of the simple, but he adopted her formula. +“Everything’s too much for her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then such a service as this of yours—” +</p> + +<p> +“Is more for her than anything else? Yes—far more. But so long as +it isn’t too much for <i>me</i>—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Her condition doesn’t matter? Surely not; we leave her condition +out; we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her condition, as behind and +beneath you; yet at the same time I see it as bearing you up.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh it does bear me up!” Strether laughed. +</p> + +<p> +“Well then as yours bears <i>me</i> nothing more’s needed.” +With which she put again her question. “Has Mrs. Newsome money?” +</p> + +<p> +This time he heeded. “Oh plenty. That’s the root of the evil. +There’s money, to very large amounts, in the concern. Chad has had the +free use of a great deal. But if he’ll pull himself together and come +home, all the same, he’ll find his account in it.” +</p> + +<p> +She had listened with all her interest. “And I hope to goodness +you’ll find yours!” +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll take up his definite material reward,” said Strether +without acknowledgement of this. “He’s at the parting of the ways. +He can come into the business now—he can’t come later.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is there a business?” +</p> + +<p> +“Lord, yes—a big brave bouncing business. A roaring trade.” +</p> + +<p> +“A great shop?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—a workshop; a great production, a great industry. The +concern’s a manufacture—and a manufacture that, if it’s only +properly looked after, may well be on the way to become a monopoly. It’s +a little thing they make—make better, it appears, than other people can, +or than other people, at any rate, do. Mr. Newsome, being a man of ideas, at +least in that particular line,” Strether explained, “put them on it +with great effect, and gave the place altogether, in his time, an immense +lift.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s a place in itself?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, quite a number of buildings; almost a little industrial colony. +But above all it’s a thing. The article produced.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what <i>is</i> the article produced?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether looked about him as in slight reluctance to say; then the curtain, +which he saw about to rise, came to his aid. “I’ll tell you next +time.” But when the next time came he only said he’d tell her later +on—after they should have left the theatre; for she had immediately +reverted to their topic, and even for himself the picture of the stage was now +overlaid with another image. His postponements, however, made her +wonder—wonder if the article referred to were anything bad. And she +explained that she meant improper or ridiculous or wrong. But Strether, so far +as that went, could satisfy her. “Unmentionable? Oh no, we constantly +talk of it; we are quite familiar and brazen about it. Only, as a small, +trivial, rather ridiculous object of the commonest domestic use, it’s +just wanting in—what shall I say? Well, dignity, or the least approach to +distinction. Right here therefore, with everything about us so +grand—!” In short he shrank. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s a false note?” +</p> + +<p> +“Sadly. It’s vulgar.” +</p> + +<p> +“But surely not vulgarer than this.” Then on his wondering as she +herself had done: “Than everything about us.” She seemed a trifle +irritated. “What do you take this for?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why for—comparatively—divine!” +</p> + +<p> +“This dreadful London theatre? It’s impossible, if you really want +to know.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh then,” laughed Strether, “I <i>don’t</i> really +want to know!” +</p> + +<p> +It made between them a pause, which she, however, still fascinated by the +mystery of the production at Woollett, presently broke. “‘Rather +ridiculous’? Clothes-pins? Saleratus? Shoe-polish?” +</p> + +<p> +It brought him round. “No—you don’t even ‘burn.’ +I don’t think, you know, you’ll guess it.” +</p> + +<p> +“How then can I judge how vulgar it is?” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll judge when I do tell you”—and he persuaded her +to patience. But it may even now frankly be mentioned that he in the sequel +never <i>was</i> to tell her. He actually never did so, and it moreover oddly +occurred that by the law, within her, of the incalculable, her desire for the +information dropped and her attitude to the question converted itself into a +positive cultivation of ignorance. In ignorance she could humour her fancy, and +that proved a useful freedom. She could treat the little nameless object as +indeed unnameable—she could make their abstention enormously definite. +There might indeed have been for Strether the portent of this in what she next +said. +</p> + +<p> +“Is it perhaps then because it’s so bad—because your industry +as you call it, <i>is</i> so vulgar—that Mr. Chad won’t come back? +Does he feel the taint? Is he staying away not to be mixed up in it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “it wouldn’t appear—would +it?—that he feels ‘taints’! He’s glad enough of the +money from it, and the money’s his whole basis. There’s +appreciation in that—I mean as to the allowance his mother has hitherto +made him. She has of course the resource of cutting this allowance off; but +even then he has unfortunately, and on no small scale, his independent +supply—money left him by his grandfather, her own father.” +</p> + +<p> +“Wouldn’t the fact you mention then,” Miss Gostrey asked, +“make it just more easy for him to be particular? Isn’t he +conceivable as fastidious about the source—the apparent and public +source—of his income?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether was able quite good-humouredly to entertain the proposition. +“The source of his grandfather’s wealth—and thereby of his +own share in it—was not particularly noble.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what source was it?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether cast about. “Well—practices.” +</p> + +<p> +“In business? Infamies? He was an old swindler?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” he said with more emphasis than spirit, “I shan’t +describe <i>him</i> nor narrate his exploits.” +</p> + +<p> +“Lord, what abysses! And the late Mr. Newsome then?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, what about him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Was he like the grandfather?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—he was on the other side of the house. And he was +different.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey kept it up. “Better?” +</p> + +<p> +Her friend for a moment hung fire. “No.” +</p> + +<p> +Her comment on his hesitation was scarce the less marked for being mute. +“Thank you. <i>Now</i> don’t you see,” she went on, +“why the boy doesn’t come home? He’s drowning his +shame.” +</p> + +<p> +“His shame? What shame?” +</p> + +<p> +“What shame? Comment donc? <i>The</i> shame.” +</p> + +<p> +“But where and when,” Strether asked, “is ‘<i>the</i> +shame’—where is any shame—to-day? The men I speak +of—they did as every one does; and (besides being ancient history) it was +all a matter of appreciation.” +</p> + +<p> +She showed how she understood. “Mrs. Newsome has appreciated?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah I can’t speak for <i>her!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“In the midst of such doings—and, as I understand you, profiting by +them, she at least has remained exquisite?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I can’t talk of her!” Strether said. +</p> + +<p> +“I thought she was just what you <i>could</i> talk of. You +<i>don’t</i> trust me,” Miss Gostrey after a moment declared. +</p> + +<p> +It had its effect. “Well, her money is spent, her life conceived and +carried on with a large beneficence—” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s a kind of expiation of wrongs? Gracious,” she added +before he could speak, “how intensely you make me see her!” +</p> + +<p> +“If you see her,” Strether dropped, “it’s all +that’s necessary.” +</p> + +<p> +She really seemed to have her. “I feel that. She <i>is</i>, in spite of +everything, handsome.” +</p> + +<p> +This at least enlivened him. “What do you mean by everything?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I mean <i>you</i>.” With which she had one of her swift +changes of ground. “You say the concern needs looking after; but +doesn’t Mrs. Newsome look after it?” +</p> + +<p> +“So far as possible. She’s wonderfully able, but it’s not her +affair, and her life’s a good deal overcharged. She has many, many +things.” +</p> + +<p> +“And you also?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—I’ve many too, if you will.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see. But what I mean is,” Miss Gostrey amended, “do you +also look after the business?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no, I don’t touch the business.” +</p> + +<p> +“Only everything else?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, yes—some things.” +</p> + +<p> +“As for instance—?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether obligingly thought. “Well, the Review.” +</p> + +<p> +“The Review?—you have a Review?” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly. Woollett has a Review—which Mrs. Newsome, for the most +part, magnificently pays for and which I, not at all magnificently, edit. My +name’s on the cover,” Strether pursued, “and I’m really +rather disappointed and hurt that you seem never to have heard of it.” +</p> + +<p> +She neglected for a moment this grievance. “And what kind of a Review is +it?” +</p> + +<p> +His serenity was now completely restored. “Well, it’s green.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean in political colour as they say here—in +thought?” +</p> + +<p> +“No; I mean the cover’s green—of the most lovely +shade.” +</p> + +<p> +“And with Mrs. Newsome’s name on it too?” +</p> + +<p> +He waited a little. “Oh as for that you must judge if she peeps out. +She’s behind the whole thing; but she’s of a delicacy and a +discretion—!” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey took it all. “I’m sure. She <i>would</i> be. I +don’t underrate her. She must be rather a swell.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes, she’s rather a swell!” +</p> + +<p> +“A Woollett swell—<i>bon!</i> I like the idea of a Woollett swell. +And you must be rather one too, to be so mixed up with her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah no,” said Strether, “that’s not the way it +works.” +</p> + +<p> +But she had already taken him up. “The way it works—you +needn’t tell me!—is of course that you efface yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +“With my name on the cover?” he lucidly objected. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but you don’t put it on for yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +“I beg your pardon—that’s exactly what I do put it on for. +It’s exactly the thing that I’m reduced to doing for myself. It +seems to rescue a little, you see, from the wreck of hopes and ambitions, the +refuse-heap of disappointments and failures, my one presentable little scrap of +an identity.” +</p> + +<p> +On this she looked at him as to say many things, but what she at last simply +said was: “She likes to see it there. You’re the bigger swell of +the two,” she immediately continued, “because you think +you’re not one. She thinks she <i>is</i> one. However,” Miss +Gostrey added, “she thinks you’re one too. You’re at all +events the biggest she can get hold of.” She embroidered, she abounded. +“I don’t say it to interfere between you, but on the day she gets +hold of a bigger one—!” Strether had thrown back his head as in +silent mirth over something that struck him in her audacity or felicity, and +her flight meanwhile was already higher. “Therefore close with +her—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Close with her?” he asked as she seemed to hang poised. +</p> + +<p> +“Before you lose your chance.” +</p> + +<p> +Their eyes met over it. “What do you mean by closing?” +</p> + +<p> +“And what do I mean by your chance? I’ll tell you when you tell me +all the things <i>you</i> don’t. Is it her <i>greatest</i> fad?” +she briskly pursued. +</p> + +<p> +“The Review?” He seemed to wonder how he could best describe it. +This resulted however but in a sketch. “It’s her tribute to the +ideal.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see. You go in for tremendous things.” +</p> + +<p> +“We go in for the unpopular side—that is so far as we dare.” +</p> + +<p> +“And how far <i>do</i> you dare?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, she very far. I much less. I don’t begin to have her faith. +She provides,” said Strether, “three fourths of that. And she +provides, as I’ve confided to you, <i>all</i> the money.” +</p> + +<p> +It evoked somehow a vision of gold that held for a little Miss Gostrey’s +eyes, and she looked as if she heard the bright dollars shovelled in. “I +hope then you make a good thing—” +</p> + +<p> +“I <i>never</i> made a good thing!” he at once returned. +</p> + +<p> +She just waited. “Don’t you call it a good thing to be +loved?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh we’re not loved. We’re not even hated. We’re only +just sweetly ignored.” +</p> + +<p> +She had another pause. “You don’t trust me!” she once more +repeated. +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t I when I lift the last veil?—tell you the very secret +of the prison-house?” +</p> + +<p> +Again she met his eyes, but to the result that after an instant her own turned +away with impatience. “You don’t sell? Oh I’m glad of +<i>that!</i>” After which however, and before he could protest, she was +off again. “She’s just a <i>moral</i> swell.” +</p> + +<p> +He accepted gaily enough the definition. “Yes—I really think that +describes her.” +</p> + +<p> +But it had for his friend the oddest connexion. “How does she do her +hair?” +</p> + +<p> +He laughed out. “Beautifully!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that doesn’t tell me. However, it doesn’t matter—I +know. It’s tremendously neat—a real reproach; quite remarkably +thick and without, as yet, a single strand of white. There!” +</p> + +<p> +He blushed for her realism, but gaped at her truth. “You’re the +very deuce.” +</p> + +<p> +“What else <i>should</i> I be? It was as the very deuce I pounced on you. +But don’t let it trouble you, for everything but the very deuce—at +our age—is a bore and a delusion, and even he himself, after all, but +half a joy.” With which, on a single sweep of her wing, she resumed. +“You assist her to expiate—which is rather hard when you’ve +yourself not sinned.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s she who hasn’t sinned,” Strether replied. +“I’ve sinned the most.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” Miss Gostrey cynically laughed, “what a picture of +<i>her!</i> Have you robbed the widow and the orphan?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve sinned enough,” said Strether. +</p> + +<p> +“Enough for whom? Enough for what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, to be where I am.” +</p> + +<p> +“Thank you!” They were disturbed at this moment by the passage +between their knees and the back of the seats before them of a gentleman who +had been absent during a part of the performance and who now returned for the +close; but the interruption left Miss Gostrey time, before the subsequent hush, +to express as a sharp finality her sense of the moral of all their talk. +“I knew you had something up your sleeve!” This finality, however, +left them in its turn, at the end of the play, as disposed to hang back as if +they had still much to say; so that they easily agreed to let every one go +before them—they found an interest in waiting. They made out from the +lobby that the night had turned to rain; yet Miss Gostrey let her friend know +that he wasn’t to see her home. He was simply to put her, by herself, +into a four-wheeler; she liked so in London, of wet nights after wild +pleasures, thinking things over, on the return, in lonely four-wheelers. This +was her great time, she intimated, for pulling herself together. The delays +caused by the weather, the struggle for vehicles at the door, gave them +occasion to subside on a divan at the back of the vestibule and just beyond the +reach of the fresh damp gusts from the street. Here Strether’s comrade +resumed that free handling of the subject to which his own imagination of it +already owed so much. “Does your young friend in Paris like you?” +</p> + +<p> +It had almost, after the interval, startled him. “Oh I hope not! Why +<i>should</i> he?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why shouldn’t he?” Miss Gostrey asked. “That +you’re coming down on him need have nothing to do with it.” +</p> + +<p> +“You see more in it,” he presently returned, “than I.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course I see <i>you</i> in it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then you see more in ‘me’!” +</p> + +<p> +“Than you see in yourself? Very likely. That’s always one’s +right. What I was thinking of,” she explained, “is the possible +particular effect on him of his <i>milieu</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh his <i>milieu</i>—!” Strether really felt he could +imagine it better now than three hours before. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean it can only have been so lowering?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why that’s my very starting-point.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, but you start so far back. What do his letters say?” +</p> + +<p> +“Nothing. He practically ignores us—or spares us. He doesn’t +write.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see. But there are all the same,” she went on, “two quite +distinct things that—given the wonderful place he’s in—may +have happened to him. One is that he may have got brutalised. The other is that +he may have got refined.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether stared—this <i>was</i> a novelty. “Refined?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she said quietly, “there <i>are</i> refinements.” +</p> + +<p> +The way of it made him, after looking at her, break into a laugh. +“<i>You</i> have them!” +</p> + +<p> +“As one of the signs,” she continued in the same tone, “they +constitute perhaps the worst.” +</p> + +<p> +He thought it over and his gravity returned. “Is it a refinement not to +answer his mother’s letters?” +</p> + +<p> +She appeared to have a scruple, but she brought it out. “Oh I should say +the greatest of all.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “<i>I’m</i> quite content to let +it, as one of the signs, pass for the worst that I know he believes he can do +what he likes with me.” +</p> + +<p> +This appeared to strike her. “How do you know it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’m sure of it. I feel it in my bones.” +</p> + +<p> +“Feel he <i>can</i> do it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Feel that he believes he can. It may come to the same thing!” +Strether laughed. +</p> + +<p> +She wouldn’t, however, have this. “Nothing for you will ever come +to the same thing as anything else.” And she understood what she meant, +it seemed, sufficiently to go straight on. “You say that if he does break +he’ll come in for things at home?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite positively. He’ll come in for a particular chance—a +chance that any properly constituted young man would jump at. The business has +so developed that an opening scarcely apparent three years ago, but which his +father’s will took account of as in certain conditions possible and +which, under that will, attaches to Chad’s availing himself of it a large +contingent advantage—this opening, the conditions having come about, now +simply awaits him. His mother has kept it for him, holding out against strong +pressure, till the last possible moment. It requires, naturally, as it carries +with it a handsome ‘part,’ a large share in profits, his being on +the spot and making a big effort for a big result. That’s what I mean by +his chance. If he misses it he comes in, as you say, for nothing. And to see +that he doesn’t miss it is, in a word, what I’ve come out +for.” +</p> + +<p> +She let it all sink in. “What you’ve come out for then is simply to +render him an immense service.” +</p> + +<p> +Well, poor Strether was willing to take it so. “Ah if you like.” +</p> + +<p> +“He stands, as they say, if you succeed with him, to gain—” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh a lot of advantages.” Strether had them clearly at his +fingers’ ends. +</p> + +<p> +“By which you mean of course a lot of money.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, not only. I’m acting with a sense for him of other things +too. Consideration and comfort and security—the general safety of being +anchored by a strong chain. He wants, as I see him, to be protected. Protected +I mean from life.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah voilà!”—her thought fitted with a click. “From +life. What you <i>really</i> want to get him home for is to marry him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, that’s about the size of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course,” she said, “it’s rudimentary. But to any +one in particular?” +</p> + +<p> +He smiled at this, looking a little more conscious. “You get everything +out.” +</p> + +<p> +For a moment again their eyes met. “You put everything in!” +</p> + +<p> +He acknowledged the tribute by telling her. “To Mamie Pocock.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered; then gravely, even exquisitely, as if to make the oddity also +fit: “His own niece?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you must yourself find a name for the relation. His +brother-in-law’s sister. Mrs. Jim’s sister-in-law.” +</p> + +<p> +It seemed to have on Miss Gostrey a certain hardening effect. “And who in +the world’s Mrs. Jim?” +</p> + +<p> +“Chad’s sister—who was Sarah Newsome. She’s +married—didn’t I mention it?—to Jim Pocock.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah yes,” she tacitly replied; but he had mentioned things—! +Then, however, with all the sound it could have, “Who in the +world’s Jim Pocock?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Why Sally’s husband. That’s the only way we distinguish +people at Woollett,” he good-humoredly explained. +</p> + +<p> +“And is it a great distinction—being Sally’s husband?” +</p> + +<p> +He considered. “I think there can be scarcely a greater—unless it +may become one, in the future, to be Chad’s wife.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then how do they distinguish <i>you?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“They <i>don’t</i>—except, as I’ve told you, by the +green cover.” +</p> + +<p> +Once more their eyes met on it, and she held him an instant. “The green +cover won’t—nor will <i>any</i> cover—avail you with +<i>me</i>. You’re of a depth of duplicity!” Still, she could in her +own large grasp of the real condone it. “Is Mamie a great +<i>parti?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh the greatest we have—our prettiest brightest girl.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey seemed to fix the poor child. “I know what they <i>can</i> +be. And with money?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not perhaps with a great deal of that—but with so much of +everything else that we don’t miss it. We <i>don’t</i> miss money +much, you know,” Strether added, “in general, in America, in pretty +girls.” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” she conceded; “but I know also what you do sometimes +miss. And do you,” she asked, “yourself admire her?” +</p> + +<p> +It was a question, he indicated, that there might be several ways of taking; +but he decided after an instant for the humorous. “Haven’t I +sufficiently showed you how I admire <i>any</i> pretty girl?” +</p> + +<p> +Her interest in his problem was by this time such that it scarce left her +freedom, and she kept close to the facts. “I supposed that at Woollett +you wanted them—what shall I call it?—blameless. I mean your young +men for your pretty girls.” +</p> + +<p> +“So did I!” Strether confessed. “But you strike there a +curious fact—the fact that Woollett too accommodates itself to the spirit +of the age and the increasing mildness of manners. Everything changes, and I +hold that our situation precisely marks a date. We <i>should</i> prefer them +blameless, but we have to make the best of them as we find them. Since the +spirit of the age and the increasing mildness send them so much more to +Paris—” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ve to take them back as they come. When they <i>do</i> come. +<i>Bon!</i>” Once more she embraced it all, but she had a moment of +thought. “Poor Chad!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Strether cheerfully “Mamie will save him!” +</p> + +<p> +She was looking away, still in her vision, and she spoke with impatience and +almost as if he hadn’t understood her. “<i>You’ll</i> save +him. That’s who’ll save him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but with Mamie’s aid. Unless indeed you mean,” he added, +“that I shall effect so much more with yours!” +</p> + +<p> +It made her at last again look at him. “You’ll do more—as +you’re so much better—than all of us put together.” +</p> + +<p> +“I think I’m only better since I’ve known <i>you!</i>” +Strether bravely returned. +</p> + +<p> +The depletion of the place, the shrinkage of the crowd and now comparatively +quiet withdrawal of its last elements had already brought them nearer the door +and put them in relation with a messenger of whom he bespoke Miss +Gostrey’s cab. But this left them a few minutes more, which she was +clearly in no mood not to use. “You’ve spoken to me of +what—by your success—Mr. Chad stands to gain. But you’ve not +spoken to me of what you do.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’ve nothing more to gain,” said Strether very simply. +</p> + +<p> +She took it as even quite too simple. “You mean you’ve got it all +‘down’? You’ve been paid in advance?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah don’t talk about payment!” he groaned. +</p> + +<p> +Something in the tone of it pulled her up, but as their messenger still delayed +she had another chance and she put it in another way. “What—by +failure—do you stand to lose?” +</p> + +<p> +He still, however, wouldn’t have it. “Nothing!” he exclaimed, +and on the messenger’s at this instant reappearing he was able to sink +the subject in their responsive advance. When, a few steps up the street, under +a lamp, he had put her into her four-wheeler and she had asked him if the man +had called for him no second conveyance, he replied before the door was closed. +“You won’t take me with you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not for the world.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then I shall walk.” +</p> + +<p> +“In the rain?” +</p> + +<p> +“I like the rain,” said Strether. “Good-night!” +</p> + +<p> +She kept him a moment, while his hand was on the door, by not answering; after +which she answered by repeating her question. “What do you stand to +lose?” +</p> + +<p> +Why the question now affected him as other he couldn’t have said; he +could only this time meet it otherwise. “Everything.” +</p> + +<p> +“So I thought. Then you shall succeed. And to that end I’m +yours—” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, dear lady!” he kindly breathed. +</p> + +<p> +“Till death!” said Maria Gostrey. “Good-night.” +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +Strether called, his second morning in Paris, on the bankers of the Rue Scribe +to whom his letter of credit was addressed, and he made this visit attended by +Waymarsh, in whose company he had crossed from London two days before. They had +hastened to the Rue Scribe on the morrow of their arrival, but Strether had not +then found the letters the hope of which prompted this errand. He had had as +yet none at all; hadn’t expected them in London, but had counted on +several in Paris, and, disconcerted now, had presently strolled back to the +Boulevard with a sense of injury that he felt himself taking for as good a +start as any other. It would serve, this spur to his spirit, he reflected, as, +pausing at the top of the street, he looked up and down the great foreign +avenue, it would serve to begin business with. His idea was to begin business +immediately, and it did much for him the rest of his day that the beginning of +business awaited him. He did little else till night but ask himself what he +should do if he hadn’t fortunately had so much to do; but he put himself +the question in many different situations and connexions. What carried him +hither and yon was an admirable theory that nothing he could do wouldn’t +be in some manner related to what he fundamentally had on hand, or <i>would</i> +be—should he happen to have a scruple—wasted for it. He did happen +to have a scruple—a scruple about taking no definite step till he should +get letters; but this reasoning carried it off. A single day to feel his +feet—he had felt them as yet only at Chester and in London—was he +could consider, none too much; and having, as he had often privately expressed +it, Paris to reckon with, he threw these hours of freshness consciously into +the reckoning. They made it continually greater, but that was what it had best +be if it was to be anything at all, and he gave himself up till far into the +evening, at the theatre and on the return, after the theatre, along the bright +congested Boulevard, to feeling it grow. Waymarsh had accompanied him this time +to the play, and the two men had walked together, as a first stage, from the +Gymnase to the Café Riche, into the crowded “terrace” of which +establishment—the night, or rather the morning, for midnight had struck, +being bland and populous—they had wedged themselves for refreshment. +Waymarsh, as a result of some discussion with his friend, had made a marked +virtue of his having now let himself go; and there had been elements of +impression in their half-hour over their watered beer-glasses that gave him his +occasion for conveying that he held this compromise with his stiffer self to +have become extreme. He conveyed it—for it was still, after all, his +stiffer self who gloomed out of the glare of the terrace—in solemn +silence; and there was indeed a great deal of critical silence, every way, +between the companions, even till they gained the Place de l’Opéra, as to +the character of their nocturnal progress. +</p> + +<p> +This morning there <i>were</i> letters—letters which had reached London, +apparently all together, the day of Strether’s journey, and had taken +their time to follow him; so that, after a controlled impulse to go into them +in the reception-room of the bank, which, reminding him of the post-office at +Woollett, affected him as the abutment of some transatlantic bridge, he slipped +them into the pocket of his loose grey overcoat with a sense of the felicity of +carrying them off. Waymarsh, who had had letters yesterday, had had them again +to-day, and Waymarsh suggested in this particular no controlled impulses. The +last one he was at all events likely to be observed to struggle with was +clearly that of bringing to a premature close any visit to the Rue Scribe. +Strether had left him there yesterday; he wanted to see the papers, and he had +spent, by what his friend could make out, a succession of hours with the +papers. He spoke of the establishment, with emphasis, as a post of superior +observation; just as he spoke generally of his actual damnable doom as a device +for hiding from him what was going on. Europe was best described, to his mind, +as an elaborate engine for dissociating the confined American from that +indispensable knowledge, and was accordingly only rendered bearable by these +occasional stations of relief, traps for the arrest of wandering western airs. +Strether, on his side, set himself to walk again—he had his relief in his +pocket; and indeed, much as he had desired his budget, the growth of +restlessness might have been marked in him from the moment he had assured +himself of the superscription of most of the missives it contained. This +restlessness became therefore his temporary law; he knew he should recognise as +soon as see it the best place of all for settling down with his chief +correspondent. He had for the next hour an accidental air of looking for it in +the windows of shops; he came down the Rue de la Paix in the sun and, passing +across the Tuileries and the river, indulged more than once—as if on +finding himself determined—in a sudden pause before the book-stalls of +the opposite quay. In the garden of the Tuileries he had lingered, on two or +three spots, to look; it was as if the wonderful Paris spring had stayed him as +he roamed. The prompt Paris morning struck its cheerful notes—in a soft +breeze and a sprinkled smell, in the light flit, over the garden-floor, of +bareheaded girls with the buckled strap of oblong boxes, in the type of ancient +thrifty persons basking betimes where terrace-walls were warm, in the +blue-frocked brass-labelled officialism of humble rakers and scrapers, in the +deep references of a straight-pacing priest or the sharp ones of a +white-gaitered red-legged soldier. He watched little brisk figures, figures +whose movement was as the tick of the great Paris clock, take their smooth +diagonal from point to point; the air had a taste as of something mixed with +art, something that presented nature as a white-capped master-chef. The palace +was gone, Strether remembered the palace; and when he gazed into the +irremediable void of its site the historic sense in him might have been freely +at play—the play under which in Paris indeed it so often winces like a +touched nerve. He filled out spaces with dim symbols of scenes; he caught the +gleam of white statues at the base of which, with his letters out, he could +tilt back a straw-bottomed chair. But his drift was, for reasons, to the other +side, and it floated him unspent up the Rue de Seine and as far as the +Luxembourg. In the Luxembourg Gardens he pulled up; here at last he found his +nook, and here, on a penny chair from which terraces, alleys, vistas, +fountains, little trees in green tubs, little women in white caps and shrill +little girls at play all sunnily “composed” together, he passed an +hour in which the cup of his impressions seemed truly to overflow. But a week +had elapsed since he quitted the ship, and there were more things in his mind +than so few days could account for. More than once, during the time, he had +regarded himself as admonished; but the admonition this morning was formidably +sharp. It took as it hadn’t done yet the form of a question—the +question of what he was doing with such an extraordinary sense of escape. This +sense was sharpest after he had read his letters, but that was also precisely +why the question pressed. Four of the letters were from Mrs. Newsome and none +of them short; she had lost no time, had followed on his heels while he moved, +so expressing herself that he now could measure the probable frequency with +which he should hear. They would arrive, it would seem, her communications, at +the rate of several a week; he should be able to count, it might even prove, on +more than one by each mail. If he had begun yesterday with a small grievance he +had therefore an opportunity to begin to-day with its opposite. He read the +letters successively and slowly, putting others back into his pocket but +keeping these for a long time afterwards gathered in his lap. He held them +there, lost in thought, as if to prolong the presence of what they gave him; or +as if at the least to assure them their part in the constitution of some +lucidity. His friend wrote admirably, and her tone was even more in her style +than in her voice—he might almost, for the hour, have had to come this +distance to get its full carrying quality; yet the plentitude of his +consciousness of difference consorted perfectly with the deepened intensity of +the connexion. It was the difference, the difference of being just where he was +and <i>as</i> he was, that formed the escape—this difference was so much +greater than he had dreamed it would be; and what he finally sat there turning +over was the strange logic of his finding himself so free. He felt it in a +manner his duty to think out his state, to approve the process, and when he +came in fact to trace the steps and add up the items they sufficiently +accounted for the sum. He had never expected—that was the truth of +it—again to find himself young, and all the years and other things it had +taken to make him so were exactly his present arithmetic. He had to make sure +of them to put his scruple to rest. +</p> + +<p> +It all sprang at bottom from the beauty of Mrs. Newsome’s desire that he +should be worried with nothing that was not of the essence of his task; by +insisting that he should thoroughly intermit and break she had so provided for +his freedom that she would, as it were, have only herself to thank. Strether +could not at this point indeed have completed his thought by the image of what +she might have to thank herself <i>for</i>: the image, at best, of his own +likeness—poor Lambert Strether washed up on the sunny strand by the waves +of a single day, poor Lambert Strether thankful for breathing-time and +stiffening himself while he gasped. There he was, and with nothing in his +aspect or his posture to scandalise: it was only true that if he had seen Mrs. +Newsome coming he would instinctively have jumped up to walk away a little. He +would have come round and back to her bravely, but he would have had first to +pull himself together. She abounded in news of the situation at home, proved to +him how perfectly she was arranging for his absence, told him who would take up +this and who take up that exactly where he had left it, gave him in fact +chapter and verse for the moral that nothing would suffer. It filled for him, +this tone of hers, all the air; yet it struck him at the same time as the hum +of vain things. This latter effect was what he tried to justify—and with +the success that, grave though the appearance, he at last lighted on a form +that was happy. He arrived at it by the inevitable recognition of his having +been a fortnight before one of the weariest of men. If ever a man had come off +tired Lambert Strether was that man; and hadn’t it been distinctly on the +ground of his fatigue that his wonderful friend at home had so felt for him and +so contrived? It seemed to him somehow at these instants that, could he only +maintain with sufficient firmness his grasp of that truth, it might become in a +manner his compass and his helm. What he wanted most was some idea that would +simplify, and nothing would do this so much as the fact that he was done for +and finished. If it had been in such a light that he had just detected in his +cup the dregs of youth, that was a mere flaw of the surface of his scheme. He +was so distinctly fagged-out that it must serve precisely as his convenience, +and if he could but consistently be good for little enough he might do +everything he wanted. +</p> + +<p> +Everything he wanted was comprised moreover in a single boon—the common +unattainable art of taking things as they came. He appeared to himself to have +given his best years to an active appreciation of the way they didn’t +come; but perhaps—as they would seemingly here be things quite +other—this long ache might at last drop to rest. He could easily see that +from the moment he should accept the notion of his foredoomed collapse the last +thing he would lack would be reasons and memories. Oh if he <i>should</i> do +the sum no slate would hold the figures! The fact that he had failed, as he +considered, in everything, in each relation and in half a dozen trades, as he +liked luxuriously to put it, might have made, might still make, for an empty +present; but it stood solidly for a crowded past. It had not been, so much +achievement missed, a light yoke nor a short load. It was at present as if the +backward picture had hung there, the long crooked course, grey in the shadow of +his solitude. It had been a dreadful cheerful sociable solitude, a solitude of +life or choice, of community; but though there had been people enough all round +it there had been but three or four persons <i>in</i> it. Waymarsh was one of +these, and the fact struck him just now as marking the record. Mrs. Newsome was +another, and Miss Gostrey had of a sudden shown signs of becoming a third. +Beyond, behind them was the pale figure of his real youth, which held against +its breast the two presences paler than itself—the young wife he had +early lost and the young son he had stupidly sacrificed. He had again and again +made out for himself that he might have kept his little boy, his little dull +boy who had died at school of rapid diphtheria, if he had not in those years so +insanely given himself to merely missing the mother. It was the soreness of his +remorse that the child had in all likelihood not really been dull—had +been dull, as he had been banished and neglected, mainly because the father had +been unwittingly selfish. This was doubtless but the secret habit of sorrow, +which had slowly given way to time; yet there remained an ache sharp enough to +make the spirit, at the sight now and again of some fair young man just growing +up, wince with the thought of an opportunity lost. Had ever a man, he had +finally fallen into the way of asking himself, lost so much and even done so +much for so little? There had been particular reasons why all yesterday, beyond +other days, he should have had in one ear this cold enquiry. His name on the +green cover, where he had put it for Mrs. Newsome, expressed him doubtless just +enough to make the world—the world as distinguished, both for more and +for less, from Woollett—ask who he was. He had incurred the ridicule of +having to have his explanation explained. He was Lambert Strether because he +was on the cover, whereas it should have been, for anything like glory, that he +was on the cover because he was Lambert Strether. He would have done anything +for Mrs. Newsome, have been still more ridiculous—as he might, for that +matter, have occasion to be yet; which came to saying that this acceptance of +fate was all he had to show at fifty-five. +</p> + +<p> +He judged the quantity as small because it <i>was</i> small, and all the more +egregiously since it couldn’t, as he saw the case, so much as thinkably +have been larger. He hadn’t had the gift of making the most of what he +tried, and if he had tried and tried again—no one but himself knew how +often—it appeared to have been that he might demonstrate what else, in +default of that, <i>could</i> be made. Old ghosts of experiments came back to +him, old drudgeries and delusions, and disgusts, old recoveries with their +relapses, old fevers with their chills, broken moments of good faith, others of +still better doubt; adventures, for the most part, of the sort qualified as +lessons. The special spring that had constantly played for him the day before +was the recognition—frequent enough to surprise him—of the promises +to himself that he had after his other visit never kept. The reminiscence +to-day most quickened for him was that of the vow taken in the course of the +pilgrimage that, newly-married, with the War just over, and helplessly young in +spite of it, he had recklessly made with the creature who was so much younger +still. It had been a bold dash, for which they had taken money set apart for +necessities, but kept sacred at the moment in a hundred ways, and in none more +so than by this private pledge of his own to treat the occasion as a relation +formed with the higher culture and see that, as they said at Woollett, it +should bear a good harvest. He had believed, sailing home again, that he had +gained something great, and his theory—with an elaborate innocent plan of +reading, digesting, coming back even, every few years—had then been to +preserve, cherish and extend it. As such plans as these had come to nothing, +however, in respect to acquisitions still more precious, it was doubtless +little enough of a marvel that he should have lost account of that handful of +seed. Buried for long years in dark corners at any rate these few germs had +sprouted again under forty-eight hours of Paris. The process of yesterday had +really been the process of feeling the general stirred life of connexions long +since individually dropped. Strether had become acquainted even on this ground +with short gusts of speculation—sudden flights of fancy in Louvre +galleries, hungry gazes through clear plates behind which lemon-coloured +volumes were as fresh as fruit on the tree. +</p> + +<p> +There were instants at which he could ask whether, since there had been +fundamentally so little question of his keeping anything, the fate after all +decreed for him hadn’t been only to <i>be</i> kept. Kept for something, +in that event, that he didn’t pretend, didn’t possibly dare as yet +to divine; something that made him hover and wonder and laugh and sigh, made +him advance and retreat, feeling half ashamed of his impulse to plunge and more +than half afraid of his impulse to wait. He remembered for instance how he had +gone back in the sixties with lemon-coloured volumes in general on the brain as +well as with a dozen—selected for his wife too—in his trunk; and +nothing had at the moment shown more confidence than this invocation of the +finer taste. They were still somewhere at home, the dozen—stale and +soiled and never sent to the binder; but what had become of the sharp +initiation they represented? They represented now the mere sallow paint on the +door of the temple of taste that he had dreamed of raising up—a structure +he had practically never carried further. Strether’s present highest +flights were perhaps those in which this particular lapse figured to him as a +symbol, a symbol of his long grind and his want of odd moments, his want +moreover of money, of opportunity, of positive dignity. That the memory of the +vow of his youth should, in order to throb again, have had to wait for this +last, as he felt it, of all his accidents—that was surely proof enough of +how his conscience had been encumbered. If any further proof were needed it +would have been to be found in the fact that, as he perfectly now saw, he had +ceased even to measure his meagreness, a meagreness that sprawled, in this +retrospect, vague and comprehensive, stretching back like some unmapped +Hinterland from a rough coast-settlement. His conscience had been amusing +itself for the forty-eight hours by forbidding him the purchase of a book; he +held off from that, held off from everything; from the moment he didn’t +yet call on Chad he wouldn’t for the world have taken any other step. On +this evidence, however, of the way they actually affected him he glared at the +lemon-coloured covers in confession of the subconsciousness that, all the same, +in the great desert of the years, he must have had of them. The green covers at +home comprised, by the law of their purpose, no tribute to letters; it was of a +mere rich kernel of economics, politics, ethics that, glazed and, as Mrs. +Newsome maintained rather against <i>his</i> view, pre-eminently pleasant to +touch, they formed the specious shell. Without therefore any needed instinctive +knowledge of what was coming out, in Paris, on the bright highway, he struck +himself at present as having more than once flushed with a suspicion: he +couldn’t otherwise at present be feeling so many fears confirmed. There +were “movements” he was too late for: weren’t they, with the +fun of them, already spent? There were sequences he had missed and great gaps +in the procession: he might have been watching it all recede in a golden cloud +of dust. If the playhouse wasn’t closed his seat had at least fallen to +somebody else. He had had an uneasy feeling the night before that if he was at +the theatre at all—though he indeed justified the theatre, in the +specific sense, and with a grotesqueness to which his imagination did all +honour, as something he owed poor Waymarsh—he should have been there +with, and as might have been said, <i>for</i> Chad. +</p> + +<p> +This suggested the question of whether he could properly have taken him to such +a play, and what effect—it was a point that suddenly rose—his +peculiar responsibility might be held in general to have on his choice of +entertainment. It had literally been present to him at the Gymnase—where +one was held moreover comparatively safe—that having his young friend at +his side would have been an odd feature of the work of redemption; and this +quite in spite of the fact that the picture presented might well, confronted +with Chad’s own private stage, have seemed the pattern of propriety. He +clearly hadn’t come out in the name of propriety but to visit unattended +equivocal performances; yet still less had he done so to undermine his +authority by sharing them with the graceless youth. Was he to renounce all +amusement for the sweet sake of that authority? and <i>would</i> such +renouncement give him for Chad a moral glamour? The little problem bristled the +more by reason of poor Strether’s fairly open sense of the irony of +things. Were there then sides on which his predicament threatened to look +rather droll to him? Should he have to pretend to believe—either to +himself or the wretched boy—that there was anything that could make the +latter worse? Wasn’t some such pretence on the other hand involved in the +assumption of possible processes that would make him better? His greatest +uneasiness seemed to peep at him out of the imminent impression that almost any +acceptance of Paris might give one’s authority away. It hung before him +this morning, the vast bright Babylon, like some huge iridescent object, a +jewel brilliant and hard, in which parts were not to be discriminated nor +differences comfortably marked. It twinkled and trembled and melted together, +and what seemed all surface one moment seemed all depth the next. It was a +place of which, unmistakeably, Chad was fond; wherefore if he, Strether, should +like it too much, what on earth, with such a bond, would become of either of +them? It all depended of course—which was a gleam of light—on how +the “too much” was measured; though indeed our friend fairly felt, +while he prolonged the meditation I describe, that for himself even already a +certain measure had been reached. It will have been sufficiently seen that he +was not a man to neglect any good chance for reflexion. Was it at all possible +for instance to like Paris enough without liking it too much? He luckily +however hadn’t promised Mrs. Newsome not to like it at all. He was ready +to recognise at this stage that such an engagement <i>would</i> have tied his +hands. The Luxembourg Gardens were incontestably just so adorable at this hour +by reason—in addition to their intrinsic charm—of his not having +taken it. The only engagement he had taken, when he looked the thing in the +face, was to do what he reasonably could. +</p> + +<p> +It upset him a little none the less and after a while to find himself at last +remembering on what current of association he had been floated so far. Old +imaginations of the Latin Quarter had played their part for him, and he had +duly recalled its having been with this scene of rather ominous legend that, +like so many young men in fiction as well as in fact, Chad had begun. He was +now quite out of it, with his “home,” as Strether figured the +place, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, now; which was perhaps why, repairing, not +to fail of justice either, to the elder neighbourhood, our friend had felt he +could allow for the element of the usual, the immemorial, without courting +perturbation. He was not at least in danger of seeing the youth and the +particular Person flaunt by together; and yet he was in the very air of +which—just to feel what the early natural note must have been—he +wished most to take counsel. It became at once vivid to him that he had +originally had, for a few days, an almost envious vision of the boy’s +romantic privilege. Melancholy Mürger, with Francine and Musette and Rodolphe, +at home, was, in the company of the tattered, one—if he not in his single +self two or three—of the unbound, the paper-covered dozen on the shelf; +and when Chad had written, five years ago, after a sojourn then already +prolonged to six months, that he had decided to go in for economy and the real +thing, Strether’s fancy had quite fondly accompanied him in this +migration, which was to convey him, as they somewhat confusedly learned at +Woollett, across the bridges and up the Montagne Sainte-Geneviève. This was the +region—Chad had been quite distinct about it—in which the best +French, and many other things, were to be learned at least cost, and in which +all sorts of clever fellows, compatriots there for a purpose, formed an awfully +pleasant set. The clever fellows, the friendly countrymen were mainly young +painters, sculptors, architects, medical students; but they were, Chad sagely +opined, a much more profitable lot to be with—even on the footing of not +being quite one of them—than the “terrible toughs” (Strether +remembered the edifying discrimination) of the American bars and banks +roundabout the Opéra. Chad had thrown out, in the communications following this +one—for at that time he did once in a while communicate—that +several members of a band of earnest workers under one of the great artists had +taken him right in, making him dine every night, almost for nothing, at their +place, and even pressing him not to neglect the hypothesis of there being as +much “in him” as in any of them. There had been literally a moment +at which it appeared there might be something in him; there had been at any +rate a moment at which he had written that he didn’t know but what a +month or two more might see him enrolled in some <i>atelier</i>. The season had +been one at which Mrs. Newsome was moved to gratitude for small mercies; it had +broken on them all as a blessing that their absentee <i>had</i> perhaps a +conscience—that he was sated in fine with idleness, was ambitious of +variety. The exhibition was doubtless as yet not brilliant, but Strether +himself, even by that time much enlisted and immersed, had determined, on the +part of the two ladies, a temperate approval and in fact, as he now +recollected, a certain austere enthusiasm. +</p> + +<p> +But the very next thing that happened had been a dark drop of the curtain. The +son and brother had not browsed long on the Montagne Sainte-Geneviève—his +effective little use of the name of which, like his allusion to the best +French, appeared to have been but one of the notes of his rough cunning. The +light refreshment of these vain appearances had not accordingly carried any of +them very far. On the other hand it had gained Chad time; it had given him a +chance, unchecked, to strike his roots, had paved the way for initiations more +direct and more deep. It was Strether’s belief that he had been +comparatively innocent before this first migration, and even that the first +effects of the migration would not have been, without some particular bad +accident, to have been deplored. There had been three months—he had +sufficiently figured it out—in which Chad had wanted to try. He +<i>had</i> tried, though not very hard—he had had his little hour of good +faith. The weakness of this principle in him was that almost any accident +attestedly bad enough was stronger. Such had at any rate markedly been the case +for the precipitation of a special series of impressions. They had proved, +successively, these impressions—all of Musette and Francine, but Musette +and Francine vulgarised by the larger evolution of the type—irresistibly +sharp: he had “taken up,” by what was at the time to be shrinkingly +gathered, as it was scantly mentioned, with one ferociously +“interested” little person after another. Strether had read +somewhere of a Latin motto, a description of the hours, observed on a clock by +a traveller in Spain; and he had been led to apply it in thought to +Chad’s number one, number two, number three. <i>Omnes vulnerant, ultima +necat</i>—they had all morally wounded, the last had morally killed. The +last had been longest in possession—in possession, that is, of whatever +was left of the poor boy’s finer mortality. And it hadn’t been she, +it had been one of her early predecessors, who had determined the second +migration, the expensive return and relapse, the exchange again, as was fairly +to be presumed, of the vaunted best French for some special variety of the +worst. +</p> + +<p> +He pulled himself then at last together for his own progress back; not with the +feeling that he had taken his walk in vain. He prolonged it a little, in the +immediate neighbourhood, after he had quitted his chair; and the upshot of the +whole morning for him was that his campaign had begun. He had wanted to put +himself in relation, and he would be hanged if he were <i>not</i> in relation. +He was that at no moment so much as while, under the old arches of the Odéon, +he lingered before the charming open-air array of literature classic and +casual. He found the effect of tone and tint, in the long charged tables and +shelves, delicate and appetising; the impression—substituting one kind of +low-priced <i>consommation</i> for another—might have been that of one of +the pleasant cafés that overlapped, under an awning, to the pavement; but he +edged along, grazing the tables, with his hands firmly behind him. He +wasn’t there to dip, to consume—he was there to reconstruct. He +wasn’t there for his own profit—not, that is, the direct; he was +there on some chance of feeling the brush of the wing of the stray spirit of +youth. He felt it in fact, he had it beside him; the old arcade indeed, as his +inner sense listened, gave out the faint sound, as from far off, of the wild +waving of wings. They were folded now over the breasts of buried generations; +but a flutter or two lived again in the turned page of shock-headed +slouch-hatted loiterers whose young intensity of type, in the direction of pale +acuteness, deepened his vision, and even his appreciation, of racial +differences, and whose manipulation of the uncut volume was too often, however, +but a listening at closed doors. He reconstructed a possible groping Chad of +three or four years before, a Chad who had, after all, simply—for that +was the only way to see it—been too vulgar for his privilege. Surely it +<i>was</i> a privilege to have been young and happy just there. Well, the best +thing Strether knew of him was that he had had such a dream. +</p> + +<p> +But his own actual business, half an hour later, was with a third floor on the +Boulevard Malesherbes—so much as that was definite; and the fact of the +enjoyment by the third-floor windows of a continuous balcony, to which he was +helped by this knowledge, had perhaps something to do with his lingering for +five minutes on the opposite side of the street. There were points as to which +he had quite made up his mind, and one of these bore precisely on the wisdom of +the abruptness to which events had finally committed him, a policy that he was +pleased to find not at all shaken as he now looked at his watch and wondered. +He <i>had</i> announced himself—six months before; had written out at +least that Chad wasn’t to be surprised should he see him some day turn +up. Chad had thereupon, in a few words of rather carefully colourless answer, +offered him a general welcome; and Strether, ruefully reflecting that he might +have understood the warning as a hint to hospitality, a bid for an invitation, +had fallen back upon silence as the corrective most to his own taste. He had +asked Mrs. Newsome moreover not to announce him again; he had so distinct an +opinion on his attacking his job, should he attack it at all, in his own way. +Not the least of this lady’s high merits for him was that he could +absolutely rest on her word. She was the only woman he had known, even at +Woollett, as to whom his conviction was positive that to lie was beyond her +art. Sarah Pocock, for instance, her own daughter, though with social ideals, +as they said, in some respects different—Sarah who <i>was</i>, in her +way, æsthetic, had never refused to human commerce that mitigation of rigour; +there were occasions when he had distinctly seen her apply it. Since, +accordingly, at all events, he had had it from Mrs. Newsome that she had, at +whatever cost to her more strenuous view, conformed, in the matter of preparing +Chad, wholly to his restrictions, he now looked up at the fine continuous +balcony with a safe sense that if the case had been bungled the mistake was at +least his property. Was there perhaps just a suspicion of that in his present +pause on the edge of the Boulevard and well in the pleasant light? +</p> + +<p> +Many things came over him here, and one of them was that he should doubtless +presently know whether he had been shallow or sharp. Another was that the +balcony in question didn’t somehow show as a convenience easy to +surrender. Poor Strether had at this very moment to recognise the truth that +wherever one paused in Paris the imagination reacted before one could stop it. +This perpetual reaction put a price, if one would, on pauses; but it piled up +consequences till there was scarce room to pick one’s steps among them. +What call had he, at such a juncture, for example, to like Chad’s very +house? High broad clear—he was expert enough to make out in a moment that +it was admirably built—it fairly embarrassed our friend by the quality +that, as he would have said, it “sprang” on him. He had struck off +the fancy that it might, as a preliminary, be of service to him to be seen, by +a happy accident, from the third-story windows, which took all the March sun, +but of what service was it to find himself making out after a moment that the +quality “sprung,” the quality produced by measure and balance, the +fine relation of part to part and space to space, was probably—aided by +the presence of ornament as positive as it was discreet, and by the complexion +of the stone, a cold fair grey, warmed and polished a little by +life—neither more nor less than a case of distinction, such a case as he +could only feel unexpectedly as a sort of delivered challenge? Meanwhile, +however, the chance he had allowed for—the chance of being seen in time +from the balcony—had become a fact. Two or three of the windows stood +open to the violet air; and, before Strether had cut the knot by crossing, a +young man had come out and looked about him, had lighted a cigarette and tossed +the match over, and then, resting on the rail, had given himself up to watching +the life below while he smoked. His arrival contributed, in its order, to +keeping Strether in position; the result of which in turn was that Strether +soon felt himself noticed. The young man began to look at him as in +acknowledgement of his being himself in observation. +</p> + +<p> +This was interesting so far as it went, but the interest was affected by the +young man’s not being Chad. Strether wondered at first if he were perhaps +Chad altered, and then saw that this was asking too much of alteration. The +young man was light bright and alert—with an air too pleasant to have +been arrived at by patching. Strether had conceived Chad as patched, but not +beyond recognition. He was in presence, he felt, of amendments enough as they +stood; it was a sufficient amendment that the gentleman up there should be +Chad’s friend. He was young too then, the gentleman up there—he was +very young; young enough apparently to be amused at an elderly watcher, to be +curious even to see what the elderly watcher would do on finding himself +watched. There was youth in that, there was youth in the surrender to the +balcony, there was youth for Strether at this moment in everything but his own +business; and Chad’s thus pronounced association with youth had given the +next instant an extraordinary quick lift to the issue. The balcony, the +distinguished front, testified suddenly, for Strether’s fancy, to +something that was up and up; they placed the whole case materially, and as by +an admirable image, on a level that he found himself at the end of another +moment rejoicing to think he might reach. The young man looked at him still, he +looked at the young man; and the issue, by a rapid process, was that this +knowledge of a perched privacy appeared to him the last of luxuries. To him too +the perched privacy was open, and he saw it now but in one light—that of +the only domicile, the only fireside, in the great ironic city, on which he had +the shadow of a claim. Miss Gostrey had a fireside; she had told him of it, and +it was something that doubtless awaited him; but Miss Gostrey hadn’t yet +arrived—she mightn’t arrive for days; and the sole attenuation of +his excluded state was his vision of the small, the admittedly secondary hotel +in the bye-street from the Rue de la Paix, in which her solicitude for his +purse had placed him, which affected him somehow as all indoor chill, +glass-roofed court and slippery staircase, and which, by the same token, +expressed the presence of Waymarsh even at times when Waymarsh might have been +certain to be round at the bank. It came to pass before he moved that Waymarsh, +and Waymarsh alone, Waymarsh not only undiluted but positively strengthened, +struck him as the present alternative to the young man in the balcony. When he +did move it was fairly to escape that alternative. Taking his way over the +street at last and passing through the <i>porte-cochère</i> of the house was +like consciously leaving Waymarsh out. However, he would tell him all about it. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap03"></a>Book Third</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +Strether told Waymarsh all about it that very evening, on their dining together +at the hotel; which needn’t have happened, he was all the while aware, +hadn’t he chosen to sacrifice to this occasion a rarer opportunity. The +mention to his companion of the sacrifice was moreover exactly what introduced +his recital—or, as he would have called it with more confidence in his +interlocutor, his confession. His confession was that he had been captured and +that one of the features of the affair had just failed to be his engaging +himself on the spot to dinner. As by such a freedom Waymarsh would have lost +him he had obeyed his scruple; and he had likewise obeyed another +scruple—which bore on the question of his himself bringing a guest. +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh looked gravely ardent, over the finished soup, at this array of +scruples; Strether hadn’t yet got quite used to being so unprepared for +the consequences of the impression he produced. It was comparatively easy to +explain, however, that he hadn’t felt sure his guest would please. The +person was a young man whose acquaintance he had made but that afternoon in the +course of rather a hindered enquiry for another person—an enquiry his new +friend had just prevented in fact from being vain. “Oh,” said +Strether, “I’ve all sorts of things to tell you!”—and +he put it in a way that was a virtual hint to Waymarsh to help him to enjoy the +telling. He waited for his fish, he drank of his wine, he wiped his long +moustache, he leaned back in his chair, he took in the two English ladies who +had just creaked past them and whom he would even have articulately greeted if +they hadn’t rather chilled the impulse; so that all he could do +was—by way of doing something—to say “Merci, François!” +out quite loud when his fish was brought. Everything was there that he wanted, +everything that could make the moment an occasion, that would do +beautifully—everything but what Waymarsh might give. The little waxed +salle-à-manger was sallow and sociable; François, dancing over it, all smiles, +was a man and a brother; the high-shouldered patronne, with her high-held, +much-rubbed hands, seemed always assenting exuberantly to something unsaid; the +Paris evening in short was, for Strether, in the very taste of the soup, in the +goodness, as he was innocently pleased to think it, of the wine, in the +pleasant coarse texture of the napkin and the crunch of the thick-crusted +bread. These all were things congruous with his confession, and his confession +was that he <i>had</i>—it would come out properly just there if Waymarsh +would only take it properly—agreed to breakfast out, at twelve literally, +the next day. He didn’t quite know where; the delicacy of the case came +straight up in the remembrance of his new friend’s “We’ll +see; I’ll take you somewhere!”—for it had required little +more than that, after all, to let him right in. He was affected after a minute, +face to face with his actual comrade, by the impulse to overcolour. There had +already been things in respect to which he knew himself tempted by this +perversity. If Waymarsh thought them bad he should at least have his reason for +his discomfort; so Strether showed them as worse. Still, he was now, in his +way, sincerely perplexed. +</p> + +<p> +Chad had been absent from the Boulevard Malesherbes—was absent from Paris +altogether; he had learned that from the concierge, but had nevertheless gone +up, and gone up—there were no two ways about it—from an +uncontrollable, a really, if one would, depraved curiosity. The concierge had +mentioned to him that a friend of the tenant of the troisième was for the time +in possession; and this had been Strether’s pretext for a further +enquiry, an experiment carried on, under Chad’s roof, without his +knowledge. “I found his friend in fact there keeping the place warm, as +he called it, for him; Chad himself being, as appears, in the south. He went a +month ago to Cannes and though his return begins to be looked for it +can’t be for some days. I might, you see, perfectly have waited a week; +might have beaten a retreat as soon as I got this essential knowledge. But I +beat no retreat; I did the opposite; I stayed, I dawdled, I trifled; above all +I looked round. I saw, in fine; and—I don’t know what to call +it—I sniffed. It’s a detail, but it’s as if there were +something—something very good—<i>to</i> sniff.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh’s face had shown his friend an attention apparently so remote +that the latter was slightly surprised to find it at this point abreast with +him. “Do you mean a smell? What of?” +</p> + +<p> +“A charming scent. But I don’t know.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh gave an inferential grunt. “Does he live there with a +woman?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh waited an instant for more, then resumed. “Has he taken her off +with him?” +</p> + +<p> +“And will he bring her back?”—Strether fell into the enquiry. +But he wound it up as before. “I don’t know.” +</p> + +<p> +The way he wound it up, accompanied as this was with another drop back, another +degustation of the Léoville, another wipe of his moustache and another good +word for François, seemed to produce in his companion a slight irritation. +“Then what the devil <i>do</i> you know?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether almost gaily, “I guess I don’t +know anything!” His gaiety might have been a tribute to the fact that the +state he had been reduced to did for him again what had been done by his talk +of the matter with Miss Gostrey at the London theatre. It was somehow +enlarging; and the air of that amplitude was now doubtless more or +less—and all for Waymarsh to feel—in his further response. +“That’s what I found out from the young man.” +</p> + +<p> +“But I thought you said you found out nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nothing but that—that I don’t know anything.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what good does that do you?” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s just,” said Strether, “what I’ve come to +you to help me to discover. I mean anything about anything over here. I +<i>felt</i> that, up there. It regularly rose before me in its might. The young +man moreover—Chad’s friend—as good as told me so.” +</p> + +<p> +“As good as told you you know nothing about anything?” Waymarsh +appeared to look at some one who might have as good as told <i>him</i>. +“How old is he?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I guess not thirty.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yet you had to take that from him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I took a good deal more—since, as I tell you, I took an +invitation to déjeuner.” +</p> + +<p> +“And are you <i>going</i> to that unholy meal?” +</p> + +<p> +“If you’ll come with me. He wants you too, you know. I told him +about you. He gave me his card,” Strether pursued, “and his +name’s rather funny. It’s John Little Bilham, and he says his two +surnames are, on account of his being small, inevitably used together.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” Waymarsh asked with due detachment from these details, +“what’s he doing up there?” +</p> + +<p> +“His account of himself is that he’s ‘only a little +artist-man.’ That seemed to me perfectly to describe him. But he’s +yet in the phase of study; this, you know, is the great art-school—to +pass a certain number of years in which he came over. And he’s a great +friend of Chad’s, and occupying Chad’s rooms just now because +they’re so pleasant. <i>He’s</i> very pleasant and curious +too,” Strether added—“though he’s not from +Boston.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh looked already rather sick of him. “Where <i>is</i> he +from?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought. “I don’t know that, either. But he’s +‘notoriously,’ as he put it himself, not from Boston.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” Waymarsh moralised from dry depths, “every one +can’t notoriously <i>be</i> from Boston. Why,” he continued, +“is he curious?” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps just for <i>that</i>—for one thing! But really,” +Strether added, “for everything. When you meet him you’ll +see.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I don’t want to meet him,” Waymarsh impatiently growled. +“Why don’t he go home?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “Well, because he likes it over here.” +</p> + +<p> +This appeared in particular more than Waymarsh could bear. “He ought then +to be ashamed of himself, and, as you admit that you think so too, why drag him +in?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s reply again took time. “Perhaps I do think so +myself—though I don’t quite yet admit it. I’m not a bit +sure—it’s again one of the things I want to find out. I liked him, +and <i>can</i> you like people—? But no matter.” He pulled himself +up. “There’s no doubt I want you to come down on me and squash +me.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh helped himself to the next course, which, however proving not the dish +he had just noted as supplied to the English ladies, had the effect of causing +his imagination temporarily to wander. But it presently broke out at a softer +spot. “Have they got a handsome place up there?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh a charming place; full of beautiful and valuable things. I never saw +such a place”—and Strether’s thought went back to it. +“For a little artist-man—!” He could in fact scarce express +it. +</p> + +<p> +But his companion, who appeared now to have a view, insisted. +“Well?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, life can hold nothing better. Besides, they’re things of +which he’s in charge.” +</p> + +<p> +“So that he does doorkeeper for your precious pair? Can life,” +Waymarsh enquired, “hold nothing better than <i>that?</i>” Then as +Strether, silent, seemed even yet to wonder, “Doesn’t he know what +<i>she</i> is?” he went on. +</p> + +<p> +“<i>I</i> don’t know. I didn’t ask him. I couldn’t. It +was impossible. You wouldn’t either. Besides I didn’t want to. No +more would you.” Strether in short explained it at a stroke. “You +can’t make out over here what people do know.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then what did you come over for?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I suppose exactly to see for myself—without their +aid.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then what do you want mine for?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “you’re not one of <i>them!</i> +I do know what <i>you</i> know.” +</p> + +<p> +As, however, this last assertion caused Waymarsh again to look at him +hard—such being the latter’s doubt of its implications—he +felt his justification lame. Which was still more the case when Waymarsh +presently said: “Look here, Strether. Quit this.” +</p> + +<p> +Our friend smiled with a doubt of his own. “Do you mean my tone?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—damn your tone. I mean your nosing round. Quit the whole job. +Let them stew in their juice. You’re being used for a thing you +ain’t fit for. People don’t take a fine-tooth comb to groom a +horse.” +</p> + +<p> +“Am I a fine-tooth comb?” Strether laughed. “It’s +something I never called myself!” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s what you are, all the same. You ain’t so young as you +were, but you’ve kept your teeth.” +</p> + +<p> +He acknowledged his friend’s humour. “Take care I don’t get +them into <i>you!</i> You’d like them, my friends at home, +Waymarsh,” he declared; “you’d really particularly like them. +And I know”—it was slightly irrelevant, but he gave it sudden and +singular force—“I know they’d like you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh don’t work them off on <i>me!</i>” Waymarsh groaned. +</p> + +<p> +Yet Strether still lingered with his hands in his pockets. “It’s +really quite as indispensable as I say that Chad should be got back.” +</p> + +<p> +“Indispensable to whom? To you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” Strether presently said. +</p> + +<p> +“Because if you get him you also get Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether faced it. “Yes.” +</p> + +<p> +“And if you don’t get him you don’t get her?” +</p> + +<p> +It might be merciless, but he continued not to flinch. “I think it might +have some effect on our personal understanding. Chad’s of real +importance—or can easily become so if he will—to the +business.” +</p> + +<p> +“And the business is of real importance to his mother’s +husband?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I naturally want what my future wife wants. And the thing will be +much better if we have our own man in it.” +</p> + +<p> +“If you have your own man in it, in other words,” Waymarsh said, +“you’ll marry—you personally—more money. She’s +already rich, as I understand you, but she’ll be richer still if the +business can be made to boom on certain lines that you’ve laid +down.” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>I</i> haven’t laid them down,” Strether promptly +returned. “Mr. Newsome—who knew extraordinarily well what he was +about—laid them down ten years ago.” +</p> + +<p> +Oh well, Waymarsh seemed to indicate with a shake of his mane, <i>that</i> +didn’t matter! “You’re fierce for the boom anyway.” +</p> + +<p> +His friend weighed a moment in silence the justice of the charge. “I can +scarcely be called fierce, I think, when I so freely take my chance of the +possibility, the danger, of being influenced in a sense counter to Mrs. +Newsome’s own feelings.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh gave this proposition a long hard look. “I see. You’re +afraid yourself of being squared. But you’re a humbug,” he added, +“all the same.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” Strether quickly protested. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, you ask me for protection—which makes you very interesting; +and then you won’t take it. You say you want to be squashed—” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but not so easily! Don’t you see,” Strether demanded +“where my interest, as already shown you, lies? It lies in my not being +squared. If I’m squared where’s my marriage? If I miss my errand I +miss that; and if I miss that I miss everything—I’m nowhere.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh—but all relentlessly—took this in. “What do I care +where you are if you’re spoiled?” +</p> + +<p> +Their eyes met on it an instant. “Thank you awfully,” Strether at +last said. “But don’t you think <i>her</i> judgement of +that—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ought to content me? No.” +</p> + +<p> +It kept them again face to face, and the end of this was that Strether again +laughed. “You do her injustice. You really <i>must</i> know her. +Good-night.” +</p> + +<p> +He breakfasted with Mr. Bilham on the morrow, and, as inconsequently befell, +with Waymarsh massively of the party. The latter announced, at the eleventh +hour and much to his friend’s surprise, that, damn it, he would as soon +join him as do anything else; on which they proceeded together, strolling in a +state of detachment practically luxurious for them to the Boulevard +Malesherbes, a couple engaged that day with the sharp spell of Paris as +confessedly, it might have been seen, as any couple among the daily thousands +so compromised. They walked, wandered, wondered and, a little, lost themselves; +Strether hadn’t had for years so rich a consciousness of time—a bag +of gold into which he constantly dipped for a handful. It was present to him +that when the little business with Mr. Bilham should be over he would still +have shining hours to use absolutely as he liked. There was no great pulse of +haste yet in this process of saving Chad; nor was that effect a bit more marked +as he sat, half an hour later, with his legs under Chad’s mahogany, with +Mr. Bilham on one side, with a friend of Mr. Bilham’s on the other, with +Waymarsh stupendously opposite, and with the great hum of Paris coming up in +softness, vagueness—for Strether himself indeed already positive +sweetness—through the sunny windows toward which, the day before, his +curiosity had raised its wings from below. The feeling strongest with him at +that moment had borne fruit almost faster than he could taste it, and Strether +literally felt at the present hour that there was a precipitation in his fate. +He had known nothing and nobody as he stood in the street; but hadn’t his +view now taken a bound in the direction of every one and of every thing? +</p> + +<p> +“What’s he up to, what’s he up to?”—something +like that was at the back of his head all the while in respect to little +Bilham; but meanwhile, till he should make out, every one and every thing were +as good as represented for him by the combination of his host and the lady on +his left. The lady on his left, the lady thus promptly and ingeniously invited +to “meet” Mr. Strether and Mr. Waymarsh—it was the way she +herself expressed her case—was a very marked person, a person who had +much to do with our friend’s asking himself if the occasion weren’t +in its essence the most baited, the most gilded of traps. Baited it could +properly be called when the repast was of so wise a savour, and gilded +surrounding objects seemed inevitably to need to be when Miss +Barrace—which was the lady’s name—looked at them with convex +Parisian eyes and through a glass with a remarkably long tortoise-shell handle. +Why Miss Barrace, mature meagre erect and eminently gay, highly adorned, +perfectly familiar, freely contradictious and reminding him of some +last-century portrait of a clever head without powder—why Miss Barrace +should have been in particular the note of a “trap” Strether +couldn’t on the spot have explained; he blinked in the light of a +conviction that he should know later on, and know well—as it came over +him, for that matter, with force, that he should need to. He wondered what he +was to think exactly of either of his new friends; since the young man, +Chad’s intimate and deputy, had, in thus constituting the scene, +practised so much more subtly than he had been prepared for, and since in +especial Miss Barrace, surrounded clearly by every consideration, hadn’t +scrupled to figure as a familiar object. It was interesting to him to feel that +he was in the presence of new measures, other standards, a different scale of +relations, and that evidently here were a happy pair who didn’t think of +things at all as he and Waymarsh thought. Nothing was less to have been +calculated in the business than that it should now be for him as if he and +Waymarsh were comparatively quite at one. +</p> + +<p> +The latter was magnificent—this at least was an assurance privately given +him by Miss Barrace. “Oh your friend’s a type, the grand old +American—what shall one call it? The Hebrew prophet, Ezekiel, Jeremiah, +who used when I was a little girl in the Rue Montaigne to come to see my father +and who was usually the American Minister to the Tuileries or some other court. +I haven’t seen one these ever so many years; the sight of it warms my +poor old chilled heart; this specimen is wonderful; in the right quarter, you +know, he’ll have a <i>succès fou</i>.” Strether hadn’t failed +to ask what the right quarter might be, much as he required his presence of +mind to meet such a change in their scheme. “Oh the artist-quarter and +that kind of thing; <i>here</i> already, for instance, as you see.” He +had been on the point of echoing “‘Here’?—is +<i>this</i> the artist-quarter?” but she had already disposed of the +question with a wave of all her tortoise-shell and an easy “Bring him to +<i>me!</i>” He knew on the spot how little he should be able to bring +him, for the very air was by this time, to his sense, thick and hot with poor +Waymarsh’s judgement of it. He was in the trap still more than his +companion and, unlike his companion, not making the best of it; which was +precisely what doubtless gave him his admirable sombre glow. Little did Miss +Barrace know that what was behind it was his grave estimate of her own laxity. +The general assumption with which our two friends had arrived had been that of +finding Mr. Bilham ready to conduct them to one or other of those resorts of +the earnest, the æsthetic fraternity which were shown among the sights of +Paris. In this character it would have justified them in a proper insistence on +discharging their score. Waymarsh’s only proviso at the last had been +that nobody should pay for him; but he found himself, as the occasion +developed, paid for on a scale as to which Strether privately made out that he +already nursed retribution. Strether was conscious across the table of what +worked in him, conscious when they passed back to the small salon to which, the +previous evening, he himself had made so rich a reference; conscious most of +all as they stepped out to the balcony in which one would have had to be an +ogre not to recognise the perfect place for easy aftertastes. These things were +enhanced for Miss Barrace by a succession of excellent +cigarettes—acknowledged, acclaimed, as a part of the wonderful supply +left behind him by Chad—in an almost equal absorption of which Strether +found himself blindly, almost wildly pushing forward. He might perish by the +sword as well as by famine, and he knew that his having abetted the lady by an +excess that was rare with him would count for little in the sum—as +Waymarsh might so easily add it up—of her licence. Waymarsh had smoked of +old, smoked hugely; but Waymarsh did nothing now, and that gave him his +advantage over people who took things up lightly just when others had laid them +heavily down. Strether had never smoked, and he felt as if he flaunted at his +friend that this had been only because of a reason. The reason, it now began to +appear even to himself, was that he had never had a lady to smoke with. +</p> + +<p> +It was this lady’s being there at all, however, that was the strange free +thing; perhaps, since she <i>was</i> there, her smoking was the least of her +freedoms. If Strether had been sure at each juncture of what—with Bilham +in especial—she talked about, he might have traced others and winced at +them and felt Waymarsh wince; but he was in fact so often at sea that his sense +of the range of reference was merely general and that he on several different +occasions guessed and interpreted only to doubt. He wondered what they meant, +but there were things he scarce thought they could be supposed to mean, and +“Oh no—not <i>that!</i>” was at the end of most of his +ventures. This was the very beginning with him of a condition as to which, +later on, it will be seen, he found cause to pull himself up; and he was to +remember the moment duly as the first step in a process. The central fact of +the place was neither more nor less, when analysed—and a pressure +superficial sufficed—than the fundamental impropriety of Chad’s +situation, round about which they thus seemed cynically clustered. Accordingly, +since they took it for granted, they took for granted all that was in connexion +with it taken for granted at Woollett—matters as to which, verily, he had +been reduced with Mrs. Newsome to the last intensity of silence. That was the +consequence of their being too bad to be talked about, and was the +accompaniment, by the same token, of a deep conception of their badness. It +befell therefore that when poor Strether put it to himself that their badness +was ultimately, or perhaps even insolently, what such a scene as the one before +him was, so to speak, built upon, he could scarce shirk the dilemma of reading +a roundabout echo of them into almost anything that came up. This, he was well +aware, was a dreadful necessity; but such was the stern logic, he could only +gather, of a relation to the irregular life. +</p> + +<p> +It was the way the irregular life sat upon Bilham and Miss Barrace that was the +insidious, the delicate marvel. He was eager to concede that their relation to +it was all indirect, for anything else in him would have shown the grossness of +bad manners; but the indirectness was none the less consonant—<i>that</i> +was striking—with a grateful enjoyment of everything that was +Chad’s. They spoke of him repeatedly, invoking his good name and good +nature, and the worst confusion of mind for Strether was that all their mention +of him was of a kind to do him honour. They commended his munificence and +approved his taste, and in doing so sat down, as it seemed to Strether, in the +very soil out of which these things flowered. Our friend’s final +predicament was that he himself was sitting down, for the time, <i>with</i> +them, and there was a supreme moment at which, compared with his collapse, +Waymarsh’s erectness affected him as really high. One thing was +certain—he saw he must make up his mind. He must approach Chad, must wait +for him, deal with him, master him, but he mustn’t dispossess himself of +the faculty of seeing things as they were. He must bring him to +<i>him</i>—not go himself, as it were, so much of the way. He must at any +rate be clearer as to what—should he continue to do that for +convenience—he was still condoning. It was on the detail of this +quantity—and what could the fact be but mystifying?—that Bilham and +Miss Barrace threw so little light. So there they were. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +When Miss Gostrey arrived, at the end of a week, she made him a sign; he went +immediately to see her, and it wasn’t till then that he could again close +his grasp on the idea of a corrective. This idea however was luckily all before +him again from the moment he crossed the threshold of the little entresol of +the Quartier Marbœuf into which she had gathered, as she said, picking them up +in a thousand flights and funny little passionate pounces, the makings of a +final nest. He recognised in an instant that there really, there only, he +should find the boon with the vision of which he had first mounted Chad’s +stairs. He might have been a little scared at the picture of how much more, in +this place, he should know himself “in” hadn’t his friend +been on the spot to measure the amount to his appetite. Her compact and crowded +little chambers, almost dusky, as they at first struck him, with accumulations, +represented a supreme general adjustment to opportunities and conditions. +Wherever he looked he saw an old ivory or an old brocade, and he scarce knew +where to sit for fear of a misappliance. The life of the occupant struck him of +a sudden as more charged with possession even than Chad’s or than Miss +Barrace’s; wide as his glimpse had lately become of the empire of +“things,” what was before him still enlarged it; the lust of the +eyes and the pride of life had indeed thus their temple. It was the innermost +nook of the shrine—as brown as a pirate’s cave. In the brownness +were glints of gold; patches of purple were in the gloom; objects all that +caught, through the muslin, with their high rarity, the light of the low +windows. Nothing was clear about them but that they were precious, and they +brushed his ignorance with their contempt as a flower, in a liberty taken with +him, might have been whisked under his nose. But after a full look at his +hostess he knew none the less what most concerned him. The circle in which they +stood together was warm with life, and every question between them would live +there as nowhere else. A question came up as soon as they had spoken, for his +answer, with a laugh, was quickly: “Well, they’ve got hold of +me!” Much of their talk on this first occasion was his development of +that truth. He was extraordinarily glad to see her, expressing to her frankly +what she most showed him, that one might live for years without a blessing +unsuspected, but that to know it at last for no more than three days was to +need it or miss it for ever. She was the blessing that had now become his need, +and what could prove it better than that without her he had lost himself? +</p> + +<p> +“What do you mean?” she asked with an absence of alarm that, +correcting him as if he had mistaken the “period” of one of her +pieces, gave him afresh a sense of her easy movement through the maze he had +but begun to tread. “What in the name of all the Pococks have you managed +to do?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why exactly the wrong thing. I’ve made a frantic friend of little +Bilham.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that sort of thing was of the essence of your case and to have been +allowed for from the first.” And it was only after this that, quite as a +minor matter, she asked who in the world little Bilham might be. When she +learned that he was a friend of Chad’s and living for the time in +Chad’s rooms in Chad’s absence, quite as if acting in Chad’s +spirit and serving Chad’s cause, she showed, however, more interest. +“Should you mind my seeing him? Only once, you know,” she added. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh the oftener the better: he’s amusing—he’s +original.” +</p> + +<p> +“He doesn’t shock you?” Miss Gostrey threw out. +</p> + +<p> +“Never in the world! We escape that with a perfection—! I feel it +to be largely, no doubt, because I don’t half-understand him; but our +<i>modus vivendi</i> isn’t spoiled even by that. You must dine with me to +meet him,” Strether went on. “Then you’ll see.’ +</p> + +<p> +“Are you giving dinners?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—there I am. That’s what I mean.” +</p> + +<p> +All her kindness wondered. “That you’re spending too much +money?” +</p> + +<p> +“Dear no—they seem to cost so little. But that I do it to +<i>them</i>. I ought to hold off.” +</p> + +<p> +She thought again—she laughed. “The money you must be spending to +think it cheap! But I must be out of it—to the naked eye.” +</p> + +<p> +He looked for a moment as if she were really failing him. “Then you +won’t meet them?” It was almost as if she had developed an +unexpected personal prudence. +</p> + +<p> +She hesitated. “Who are they—first?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why little Bilham to begin with.” He kept back for the moment Miss +Barrace. “And Chad—when he comes—you must absolutely +see.” +</p> + +<p> +“When then does he come?” +</p> + +<p> +“When Bilham has had time to write him, and hear from him about me. +Bilham, however,” he pursued, “will report +favourably—favourably for Chad. That will make him not afraid to come. I +want you the more therefore, you see, for my bluff.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you’ll do yourself for your bluff.” She was perfectly +easy. “At the rate you’ve gone I’m quiet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but I haven’t,” said Strether, “made one +protest.” +</p> + +<p> +She turned it over. “Haven’t you been seeing what there’s to +protest about?” +</p> + +<p> +He let her, with this, however ruefully, have the whole truth. “I +haven’t yet found a single thing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Isn’t there any one <i>with</i> him then?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of the sort I came out about?” Strether took a moment. “How +do I know? And what do I care?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh oh!”—and her laughter spread. He was struck in fact by +the effect on her of his joke. He saw now how he meant it as a joke. <i>She</i> +saw, however, still other things, though in an instant she had hidden them. +“You’ve got at no facts at all?” +</p> + +<p> +He tried to muster them. “Well, he has a lovely home.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that, in Paris,” she quickly returned, “proves nothing. +That is rather it <i>dis</i>proves nothing. They may very well, you see, the +people your mission is concerned with, have done it <i>for</i> him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Exactly. And it was on the scene of their doings then that Waymarsh and +I sat guzzling.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh if you forbore to guzzle here on scenes of doings,” she +replied, “you might easily die of starvation.” With which she +smiled at him. “You’ve worse before you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah I’ve <i>everything</i> before me. But on our hypothesis, you +know, they must be wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +“They <i>are!</i>” said Miss Gostrey. “You’re not +therefore, you see,” she added, “wholly without facts. +They’ve <i>been</i>, in effect, wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +To have got at something comparatively definite appeared at last a little to +help—a wave by which moreover, the next moment, recollection was washed. +“My young man does admit furthermore that they’re our +friend’s great interest.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is that the expression he uses?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether more exactly recalled. “No—not quite.” +</p> + +<p> +“Something more vivid? Less?” +</p> + +<p> +He had bent, with neared glasses, over a group of articles on a small stand; +and at this he came up. “It was a mere allusion, but, on the lookout as I +was, it struck me. ‘Awful, you know, as Chad is’—those were +Bilham’s words.” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Awful, you know’—? Oh!”—and Miss Gostrey +turned them over. She seemed, however, satisfied. “Well, what more do you +want?” +</p> + +<p> +He glanced once more at a bibelot or two, and everything sent him back. +“But it <i>is</i> all the same as if they wished to let me have it +between the eyes.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “Quoi donc?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why what I speak of. The amenity. They can stun you with that as well as +with anything else.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she answered, “you’ll come round! I must see them +each,” she went on, “for myself. I mean Mr. Bilham and Mr. +Newsome—Mr. Bilham naturally first. Once only—once for each; that +will do. But face to face—for half an hour. What’s Mr. Chad,” +she immediately pursued, “doing at Cannes? Decent men don’t go to +Cannes with the—well, with the kind of ladies you mean.” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t they?” Strether asked with an interest in decent men +that amused her. +</p> + +<p> +“No, elsewhere, but not to Cannes. Cannes is different. Cannes is better. +Cannes is best. I mean it’s all people you know—when you do know +them. And if <i>he</i> does, why that’s different too. He must have gone +alone. She can’t be with him.” +</p> + +<p> +“I haven’t,” Strether confessed in his weakness, “the +least idea.” There seemed much in what she said, but he was able after a +little to help her to a nearer impression. The meeting with little Bilham took +place, by easy arrangement, in the great gallery of the Louvre; and when, +standing with his fellow visitor before one of the splendid Titians—the +overwhelming portrait of the young man with the strangely-shaped glove and the +blue-grey eyes—he turned to see the third member of their party advance +from the end of the waxed and gilded vista, he had a sense of having at last +taken hold. He had agreed with Miss Gostrey—it dated even from +Chester—for a morning at the Louvre, and he had embraced independently +the same idea as thrown out by little Bilham, whom he had already accompanied +to the museum of the Luxembourg. The fusion of these schemes presented no +difficulty, and it was to strike him again that in little Bilham’s +company contrarieties in general dropped. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh he’s all right—he’s one of <i>us!</i>” Miss +Gostrey, after the first exchange, soon found a chance to murmur to her +companion; and Strether, as they proceeded and paused and while a quick +unanimity between the two appeared to have phrased itself in half a dozen +remarks—Strether knew that he knew almost immediately what she meant, and +took it as still another sign that he had got his job in hand. This was the +more grateful to him that he could think of the intelligence now serving him as +an acquisition positively new. He wouldn’t have known even the day before +what she meant—that is if she meant, what he assumed, that they were +intense Americans together. He had just worked round—and with a sharper +turn of the screw than any yet—to the conception of an American intense +as little Bilham was intense. The young man was his first specimen; the +specimen had profoundly perplexed him; at present however there was light. It +was by little Bilham’s amazing serenity that he had at first been +affected, but he had inevitably, in his circumspection, felt it as the trail of +the serpent, the corruption, as he might conveniently have said, of Europe; +whereas the promptness with which it came up for Miss Gostrey but as a special +little form of the oldest thing they knew justified it at once to his own +vision as well. He wanted to be able to like his specimen with a clear good +conscience, and this fully permitted it. What had muddled him was precisely the +small artist-man’s way—it was so complete—of being more +American than anybody. But it now for the time put Strether vastly at his ease +to have this view of a new way. +</p> + +<p> +The amiable youth then looked out, as it had first struck Strether, at a world +in respect to which he hadn’t a prejudice. The one our friend most +instantly missed was the usual one in favour of an occupation accepted. Little +Bilham had an occupation, but it was only an occupation declined; and it was by +his general exemption from alarm, anxiety or remorse on this score that the +impression of his serenity was made. He had come out to Paris to paint—to +fathom, that is, at large, that mystery; but study had been fatal to him so far +as anything <i>could</i> be fatal, and his productive power faltered in +proportion as his knowledge grew. Strether had gathered from him that at the +moment of his finding him in Chad’s rooms he hadn’t saved from his +shipwreck a scrap of anything but his beautiful intelligence and his confirmed +habit of Paris. He referred to these things with an equal fond familiarity, and +it was sufficiently clear that, as an outfit, they still served him. They were +charming to Strether through the hour spent at the Louvre, where indeed they +figured for him as an unseparated part of the charged iridescent air, the +glamour of the name, the splendour of the space, the colour of the masters. Yet +they were present too wherever the young man led, and the day after the visit +to the Louvre they hung, in a different walk, about the steps of our party. He +had invited his companions to cross the river with him, offering to show them +his own poor place; and his own poor place, which was very poor, gave to his +idiosyncrasies, for Strether—the small sublime indifference and +independences that had struck the latter as fresh—an odd and engaging +dignity. He lived at the end of an alley that went out of an old short cobbled +street, a street that went in turn out of a new long smooth avenue—street +and avenue and alley having, however, in common a sort of social shabbiness; +and he introduced them to the rather cold and blank little studio which he had +lent to a comrade for the term of his elegant absence. The comrade was another +ingenuous compatriot, to whom he had wired that tea was to await them +“regardless,” and this reckless repast, and the second ingenuous +compatriot, and the faraway makeshift life, with its jokes and its gaps, its +delicate daubs and its three or four chairs, its overflow of taste and +conviction and its lack of nearly all else—these things wove round the +occasion a spell to which our hero unreservedly surrendered. +</p> + +<p> +He liked the ingenuous compatriots—for two or three others soon gathered; +he liked the delicate daubs and the free discriminations—involving +references indeed, involving enthusiasms and execrations that made him, as they +said, sit up; he liked above all the legend of good-humoured poverty, of mutual +accommodation fairly raised to the romantic, that he soon read into the scene. +The ingenuous compatriots showed a candour, he thought, surpassing even the +candour of Woollett; they were red-haired and long-legged, they were quaint and +queer and dear and droll; they made the place resound with the vernacular, +which he had never known so marked as when figuring for the chosen language, he +must suppose, of contemporary art. They twanged with a vengeance the æsthetic +lyre—they drew from it wonderful airs. This aspect of their life had an +admirable innocence; and he looked on occasion at Maria Gostrey to see to what +extent that element reached her. She gave him however for the hour, as she had +given him the previous day, no further sign than to show how she dealt with +boys; meeting them with the air of old Parisian practice that she had for every +one, for everything, in turn. Wonderful about the delicate daubs, masterful +about the way to make tea, trustful about the legs of chairs and familiarly +reminiscent of those, in the other time, the named, the numbered or the +caricatured, who had flourished or failed, disappeared or arrived, she had +accepted with the best grace her second course of little Bilham, and had said +to Strether, the previous afternoon on his leaving them, that, since her +impression was to be renewed, she would reserve judgement till after the new +evidence. +</p> + +<p> +The new evidence was to come, as it proved, in a day or two. He soon had from +Maria a message to the effect that an excellent box at the Français had been +lent her for the following night; it seeming on such occasions not the least of +her merits that she was subject to such approaches. The sense of how she was +always paying for something in advance was equalled on Strether’s part +only by the sense of how she was always being paid; all of which made for his +consciousness, in the larger air, of a lively bustling traffic, the exchange of +such values as were not for him to handle. She hated, he knew, at the French +play, anything but a box—just as she hated at the English anything but a +stall; and a box was what he was already in this phase girding himself to press +upon her. But she had for that matter her community with little Bilham: she too +always, on the great issues, showed as having known in time. It made her +constantly beforehand with him and gave him mainly the chance to ask himself +how on the day of their settlement their account would stand. He endeavoured +even now to keep it a little straight by arranging that if he accepted her +invitation she should dine with him first; but the upshot of this scruple was +that at eight o’clock on the morrow he awaited her with Waymarsh under +the pillared portico. She hadn’t dined with him, and it was +characteristic of their relation that she had made him embrace her refusal +without in the least understanding it. She ever caused her rearrangements to +affect him as her tenderest touches. It was on that principle for instance +that, giving him the opportunity to be amiable again to little Bilham, she had +suggested his offering the young man a seat in their box. Strether had +dispatched for this purpose a small blue missive to the Boulevard Malesherbes, +but up to the moment of their passing into the theatre he had received no +response to his message. He held, however, even after they had been for some +time conveniently seated, that their friend, who knew his way about, would come +in at his own right moment. His temporary absence moreover seemed, as never +yet, to make the right moment for Miss Gostrey. Strether had been waiting till +tonight to get back from her in some mirrored form her impressions and +conclusions. She had elected, as they said, to see little Bilham once; but now +she had seen him twice and had nevertheless not said more than a word. +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh meanwhile sat opposite him with their hostess between; and Miss +Gostrey spoke of herself as an instructor of youth introducing her little +charges to a work that was one of the glories of literature. The glory was +happily unobjectionable, and the little charges were candid; for herself she +had travelled that road and she merely waited on their innocence. But she +referred in due time to their absent friend, whom it was clear they should have +to give up. “He either won’t have got your note,” she said, +“or you won’t have got his: he has had some kind of hindrance, and, +of course, for that matter, you know, a man never writes about coming to a +box.” She spoke as if, with her look, it might have been Waymarsh who had +written to the youth, and the latter’s face showed a mixture of austerity +and anguish. She went on however as if to meet this. “He’s far and +away, you know, the best of them.” +</p> + +<p> +“The best of whom, ma’am?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why of all the long procession—the boys, the girls, or the old men +and old women as they sometimes really are; the hope, as one may say, of our +country. They’ve all passed, year after year; but there has been no one +in particular I’ve ever wanted to stop. I feel—don’t +<i>you?</i>—that I want to stop little Bilham; he’s so exactly +right as he is.” She continued to talk to Waymarsh. “He’s too +delightful. If he’ll only not spoil it! But they always <i>will</i>; they +always do; they always have.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t think Waymarsh knows,” Strether said after a moment, +“quite what it’s open to Bilham to spoil.” +</p> + +<p> +“It can’t be a good American,” Waymarsh lucidly enough +replied; “for it didn’t strike me the young man had developed much +in <i>that</i> shape.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” Miss Gostrey sighed, “the name of the good American is +as easily given as taken away! What <i>is</i> it, to begin with, to <i>be</i> +one, and what’s the extraordinary hurry? Surely nothing that’s so +pressing was ever so little defined. It’s such an order, really, that +before we cook you the dish we must at least have your receipt. Besides the +poor chicks have time! What I’ve seen so often spoiled,” she +pursued, “is the happy attitude itself, the state of faith and—what +shall I call it?—the sense of beauty. You’re right about +him”—she now took in Strether; “little Bilham has them to a +charm, we must keep little Bilham along.” Then she was all again for +Waymarsh. “The others have all wanted so dreadfully to do something, and +they’ve gone and done it in too many cases indeed. It leaves them never +the same afterwards; the charm’s always somehow broken. Now <i>he</i>, I +think, you know, really won’t. He won’t do the least dreadful +little thing. We shall continue to enjoy him just as he is. No—he’s +quite beautiful. He sees everything. He isn’t a bit ashamed. He has every +scrap of the courage of it that one could ask. Only think what he <i>might</i> +do. One wants really—for fear of some accident—to keep him in view. +At this very moment perhaps what mayn’t he be up to? I’ve had my +disappointments—the poor things are never really safe; or only at least +when you have them under your eye. One can never completely trust them. +One’s uneasy, and I think that’s why I most miss him now.” +</p> + +<p> +She had wound up with a laugh of enjoyment over her embroidery of her +idea—an enjoyment that her face communicated to Strether, who almost +wished none the less at this moment that she would let poor Waymarsh alone. +<i>He</i> knew more or less what she meant; but the fact wasn’t a reason +for her not pretending to Waymarsh that he didn’t. It was craven of him +perhaps, but he would, for the high amenity of the occasion, have liked +Waymarsh not to be so sure of his wit. Her recognition of it gave him away and, +before she had done with him or with that article, would give him worse. What +was he, all the same, to do? He looked across the box at his friend; their eyes +met; something queer and stiff, something that bore on the situation but that +it was better not to touch, passed in silence between them. Well, the effect of +it for Strether was an abrupt reaction, a final impatience of his own tendency +to temporise. Where was that taking him anyway? It was one of the quiet +instants that sometimes settle more matters than the outbreaks dear to the +historic muse. The only qualification of the quietness was the synthetic +“Oh hang it!” into which Strether’s share of the silence +soundlessly flowered. It represented, this mute ejaculation, a final impulse to +burn his ships. These ships, to the historic muse, may seem of course mere +cockles, but when he presently spoke to Miss Gostrey it was with the sense at +least of applying the torch. “Is it then a conspiracy?” +</p> + +<p> +“Between the two young men? Well, I don’t pretend to be a seer or a +prophetess,” she presently replied; “but if I’m simply a +woman of sense he’s working for you to-night. I don’t quite know +how—but it’s in my bones.” And she looked at him at last as +if, little material as she yet gave him, he’d really understand. +“For an opinion <i>that’s</i> my opinion. He makes you out too well +not to.” +</p> + +<p> +“Not to work for me to-night?” Strether wondered. “Then I +hope he isn’t doing anything very bad.” +</p> + +<p> +“They’ve got you,” she portentously answered. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean he <i>is</i>—?” +</p> + +<p> +“They’ve got you,” she merely repeated. Though she disclaimed +the prophetic vision she was at this instant the nearest approach he had ever +met to the priestess of the oracle. The light was in her eyes. “You must +face it now.” +</p> + +<p> +He faced it on the spot. “They <i>had</i> arranged—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Every move in the game. And they’ve been arranging ever since. He +has had every day his little telegram from Cannes.” +</p> + +<p> +It made Strether open his eyes. “Do you <i>know</i> that?” +</p> + +<p> +“I do better. I see it. This was, before I met him, what I wondered +whether I <i>was</i> to see. But as soon as I met him I ceased to wonder, and +our second meeting made me sure. I took him all in. He was acting—he is +still—on his daily instructions.” +</p> + +<p> +“So that Chad has done the whole thing?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no—not the whole. <i>We’ve</i> done some of it. You and I +and ‘Europe.’” +</p> + +<p> +“Europe—yes,” Strether mused. +</p> + +<p> +“Dear old Paris,” she seemed to explain. But there was more, and, +with one of her turns, she risked it. “And dear old Waymarsh. You,” +she declared, “have been a good bit of it.” +</p> + +<p> +He sat massive. “A good bit of what, ma’am?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why of the wonderful consciousness of our friend here. You’ve +helped too in your way to float him to where he is.” +</p> + +<p> +“And where the devil <i>is</i> he?” +</p> + +<p> +She passed it on with a laugh. “Where the devil, Strether, are +you?” +</p> + +<p> +He spoke as if he had just been thinking it out. “Well, quite already in +Chad’s hands, it would seem.” And he had had with this another +thought. “Will that be—just all through Bilham—the way +he’s going to work it? It would be, for him, you know, an idea. And Chad +with an idea—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well?” she asked while the image held him. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, is Chad—what shall I say?—monstrous?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh as much as you like! But the idea you speak of,” she said, +“won’t have been his best. He’ll have a better. It +won’t be all through little Bilham that he’ll work it.” +</p> + +<p> +This already sounded almost like a hope destroyed. “Through whom else +then?” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s what we shall see!” But quite as she spoke she +turned, and Strether turned; for the door of the box had opened, with the click +of the <i>ouvreuse</i>, from the lobby, and a gentleman, a stranger to them, +had come in with a quick step. The door closed behind him, and, though their +faces showed him his mistake, his air, which was striking, was all good +confidence. The curtain had just again arisen, and, in the hush of the general +attention, Strether’s challenge was tacit, as was also the greeting, with +a quickly deprecating hand and smile, of the unannounced visitor. He discreetly +signed that he would wait, would stand, and these things and his face, one look +from which she had caught, had suddenly worked for Miss Gostrey. She fitted to +them all an answer for Strether’s last question. The solid stranger was +simply the answer—as she now, turning to her friend, indicated. She +brought it straight out for him—it presented the intruder. “Why, +through this gentleman!” The gentleman indeed, at the same time, though +sounding for Strether a very short name, did practically as much to explain. +Strether gasped the name back—then only had he seen Miss Gostrey had said +more than she knew. They were in presence of Chad himself. +</p> + +<p> +Our friend was to go over it afterwards again and again—he was going over +it much of the time that they were together, and they were together constantly +for three or four days: the note had been so strongly struck during that first +half-hour that everything happening since was comparatively a minor +development. The fact was that his perception of the young man’s +identity—so absolutely checked for a minute—had been quite one of +the sensations that count in life; he certainly had never known one that had +acted, as he might have said, with more of a crowded rush. And the rush though +both vague and multitudinous, had lasted a long time, protected, as it were, +yet at the same time aggravated, by the circumstance of its coinciding with a +stretch of decorous silence. They couldn’t talk without disturbing the +spectators in the part of the balcony just below them; and it, for that matter, +came to Strether—being a thing of the sort that did come to +him—that these were the accidents of a high civilisation; the imposed +tribute to propriety, the frequent exposure to conditions, usually brilliant, +in which relief has to await its time. Relief was never quite near at hand for +kings, queens, comedians and other such people, and though you might be +yourself not exactly one of those, you could yet, in leading the life of high +pressure, guess a little how they sometimes felt. It was truly the life of high +pressure that Strether had seemed to feel himself lead while he sat there, +close to Chad, during the long tension of the act. He was in presence of a fact +that occupied his whole mind, that occupied for the half-hour his senses +themselves all together; but he couldn’t without inconvenience show +anything—which moreover might count really as luck. What he might have +shown, had he shown at all, was exactly the kind of emotion—the emotion +of bewilderment—that he had proposed to himself from the first, whatever +should occur, to show least. The phenomenon that had suddenly sat down there +with him was a phenomenon of change so complete that his imagination, which had +worked so beforehand, felt itself, in the connexion, without margin or +allowance. It had faced every contingency but that Chad should not <i>be</i> +Chad, and this was what it now had to face with a mere strained smile and an +uncomfortable flush. +</p> + +<p> +He asked himself if, by any chance, before he should have in some way to commit +himself, he might feel his mind settled to the new vision, might habituate it, +so to speak, to the remarkable truth. But oh it was too remarkable, the truth; +for what could be more remarkable than this sharp rupture of an identity? You +could deal with a man as himself—you couldn’t deal with him as +somebody else. It was a small source of peace moreover to be reduced to +wondering how little he might know in such an event what a sum he was setting +you. He couldn’t absolutely not know, for you couldn’t absolutely +not let him. It was a <i>case</i> then simply, a strong case, as people +nowadays called such things, a case of transformation unsurpassed, and the hope +was but in the general law that strong cases were liable to control from +without. Perhaps he, Strether himself, was the only person after all aware of +it. Even Miss Gostrey, with all her science, wouldn’t be, would +she?—and he had never seen any one less aware of anything than Waymarsh +as he glowered at Chad. The social sightlessness of his old friend’s +survey marked for him afresh, and almost in an humiliating way, the inevitable +limits of direct aid from this source. He was not certain, however, of not +drawing a shade of compensation from the privilege, as yet untasted, of knowing +more about something in particular than Miss Gostrey did. His situation too was +a case, for that matter, and he was now so interested, quite so privately agog, +about it, that he had already an eye to the fun it would be to open up to her +afterwards. He derived during his half-hour no assistance from her, and just +this fact of her not meeting his eyes played a little, it must be confessed, +into his predicament. +</p> + +<p> +He had introduced Chad, in the first minutes, under his breath, and there was +never the primness in her of the person unacquainted; but she had none the less +betrayed at first no vision but of the stage, where she occasionally found a +pretext for an appreciative moment that she invited Waymarsh to share. The +latter’s faculty of participation had never had, all round, such an +assault to meet; the pressure on him being the sharper for this chosen attitude +in her, as Strether judged it, of isolating, for their natural intercourse, +Chad and himself. This intercourse was meanwhile restricted to a frank friendly +look from the young man, something markedly like a smile, but falling far short +of a grin, and to the vivacity of Strether’s private speculation as to +whether <i>he</i> carried himself like a fool. He didn’t quite see how he +could so feel as one without somehow showing as one. The worst of that question +moreover was that he knew it as a symptom the sense of which annoyed him. +“If I’m going to be odiously conscious of how I may strike the +fellow,” he reflected, “it was so little what I came out for that I +may as well stop before I begin.” This sage consideration too, +distinctly, seemed to leave untouched the fact that he <i>was</i> going to be +conscious. He was conscious of everything but of what would have served him. +</p> + +<p> +He was to know afterwards, in the watches of the night, that nothing would have +been more open to him than after a minute or two to propose to Chad to seek +with him the refuge of the lobby. He hadn’t only not proposed it, but had +lacked even the presence of mind to see it as possible. He had stuck there like +a schoolboy wishing not to miss a minute of the show; though for that portion +of the show then presented he hadn’t had an instant’s real +attention. He couldn’t when the curtain fell have given the slightest +account of what had happened. He had therefore, further, not at that moment +acknowledged the amenity added by this acceptance of his awkwardness to +Chad’s general patience. Hadn’t he none the less known at the very +time—known it stupidly and without reaction—that the boy was +accepting something? He was modestly benevolent, the boy—that was at +least what he had been capable of the superiority of making out his chance to +be; and one had one’s self literally not had the gumption to get in ahead +of him. If we should go into all that occupied our friend in the watches of the +night we should have to mend our pen; but an instance or two may mark for us +the vividness with which he could remember. He remembered the two absurdities +that, if his presence of mind <i>had</i> failed, were the things that had had +most to do with it. He had never in his life seen a young man come into a box +at ten o’clock at night, and would, if challenged on the question in +advance, have scarce been ready to pronounce as to different ways of doing so. +But it was in spite of this definite to him that Chad had had a way that was +wonderful: a fact carrying with it an implication that, as one might imagine +it, he knew, he had learned, how. +</p> + +<p> +Here already then were abounding results; he had on the spot and without the +least trouble of intention taught Strether that even in so small a thing as +that there were different ways. He had done in the same line still more than +this; had by a mere shake or two of the head made his old friend observe that +the change in him was perhaps more than anything else, for the eye, a matter of +the marked streaks of grey, extraordinary at his age, in his thick black hair; +as well as that this new feature was curiously becoming to him, did something +for him, as characterisation, also even—of all things in the +world—as refinement, that had been a good deal wanted. Strether felt, +however, he would have had to confess, that it wouldn’t have been easy +just now, on this and other counts, in the presence of what had been supplied, +to be quite clear as to what had been missed. A reflexion a candid critic might +have made of old, for instance, was that it would have been happier for the son +to look more like the mother; but this was a reflexion that at present would +never occur. The ground had quite fallen away from it, yet no resemblance +whatever to the mother had supervened. It would have been hard for a young +man’s face and air to disconnect themselves more completely than +Chad’s at this juncture from any discerned, from any imaginable aspect of +a New England female parent. That of course was no more than had been on the +cards; but it produced in Strether none the less one of those frequent +phenomena of mental reference with which all judgement in him was actually +beset. +</p> + +<p> +Again and again as the days passed he had had a sense of the pertinence of +communicating quickly with Woollett—communicating with a quickness with +which telegraphy alone would rhyme; the fruit really of a fine fancy in him for +keeping things straight, for the happy forestalment of error. No one could +explain better when needful, nor put more conscience into an account or a +report; which burden of conscience is perhaps exactly the reason why his heart +always sank when the clouds of explanation gathered. His highest ingenuity was +in keeping the sky of life clear of them. Whether or no he had a grand idea of +the lucid, he held that nothing ever was in fact—for any one +else—explained. One went through the vain motions, but it was mostly a +waste of life. A personal relation was a relation only so long as people either +perfectly understood or, better still, didn’t care if they didn’t. +From the moment they cared if they didn’t it was living by the sweat of +one’s brow; and the sweat of one’s brow was just what one might buy +one’s self off from by keeping the ground free of the wild weed of +delusion. It easily grew too fast, and the Atlantic cable now alone could race +with it. That agency would each day have testified for him to something that +was not what Woollett had argued. He was not at this moment absolutely sure +that the effect of the morrow’s—or rather of the +night’s—appreciation of the crisis wouldn’t be to determine +some brief missive. “Have at last seen him, but oh +dear!”—some temporary relief of that sort seemed to hover before +him. It hovered somehow as preparing them all—yet preparing them for +what? If he might do so more luminously and cheaply he would tick out in four +words: “Awfully old—grey hair.” To this particular item in +Chad’s appearance he constantly, during their mute half-hour, reverted; +as if so very much more than he could have said had been involved in it. The +most he could have said would have been: “If he’s going to make me +feel young—!” which indeed, however, carried with it quite enough. +If Strether was to feel young, that is, it would be because Chad was to feel +old; and an aged and hoary sinner had been no part of the scheme. +</p> + +<p> +The question of Chadwick’s true time of life was, doubtless, what came up +quickest after the adjournment of the two, when the play was over, to a café in +the Avenue de l’Opéra. Miss Gostrey had in due course been perfect for +such a step; she had known exactly what they wanted—to go straight +somewhere and talk; and Strether had even felt she had known what he wished to +say and that he was arranging immediately to begin. She hadn’t pretended +this, as she <i>had</i> pretended on the other hand, to have divined +Waymarsh’s wish to extend to her an independent protection homeward; but +Strether nevertheless found how, after he had Chad opposite to him at a small +table in the brilliant halls that his companion straightway selected, sharply +and easily discriminated from others, it was quite, to his mind, as if she +heard him speak; as if, sitting up, a mile away, in the little apartment he +knew, she would listen hard enough to catch. He found too that he liked that +idea, and he wished that, by the same token, Mrs. Newsome might have caught as +well. For what had above all been determined in him as a necessity of the first +order was not to lose another hour, nor a fraction of one; was to advance, to +overwhelm, with a rush. This was how he would anticipate—by a +night-attack, as might be—any forced maturity that a crammed +consciousness of Paris was likely to take upon itself to assert on behalf of +the boy. He knew to the full, on what he had just extracted from Miss Gostrey, +Chad’s marks of alertness; but they were a reason the more for not +dawdling. If he was himself moreover to be treated as young he wouldn’t +at all events be so treated before he should have struck out at least once. His +arms might be pinioned afterwards, but it would have been left on record that +he was fifty. The importance of this he had indeed begun to feel before they +left the theatre; it had become a wild unrest, urging him to seize his chance. +He could scarcely wait for it as they went; he was on the verge of the +indecency of bringing up the question in the street; he fairly caught himself +going on—so he afterwards invidiously named it—as if there would be +for him no second chance should the present be lost. Not till, on the purple +divan before the perfunctory <i>bock</i>, he had brought out the words +themselves, was he sure, for that matter, that the present would be saved. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap04"></a>Book Fourth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +“I’ve come, you know, to make you break with everything, neither +more nor less, and take you straight home; so you’ll be so good as +immediately and favourably to consider it!”—Strether, face to face +with Chad after the play, had sounded these words almost breathlessly, and with +an effect at first positively disconcerting to himself alone. For Chad’s +receptive attitude was that of a person who had been gracefully quiet while the +messenger at last reaching him has run a mile through the dust. During some +seconds after he had spoken Strether felt as if <i>he</i> had made some such +exertion; he was not even certain that the perspiration wasn’t on his +brow. It was the kind of consciousness for which he had to thank the look that, +while the strain lasted, the young man’s eyes gave him. They +reflected—and the deuce of the thing was that they reflected really with +a sort of shyness of kindness—his momentarily disordered state; which +fact brought on in its turn for our friend the dawn of a fear that Chad might +simply “take it out”—take everything out—in being sorry +for him. Such a fear, any fear, was unpleasant. But everything was unpleasant; +it was odd how everything had suddenly turned so. This however was no reason +for letting the least thing go. Strether had the next minute proceeded as +roundly as if with an advantage to follow up. “Of course I’m a +busybody, if you want to fight the case to the death; but after all mainly in +the sense of having known you and having given you such attention as you kindly +permitted when you were in jackets and knickerbockers. Yes—it was +knickerbockers, I’m busybody enough to remember that; and that you had, +for your age—I speak of the first far-away time—tremendously stout +legs. Well, we want you to break. Your mother’s heart’s +passionately set upon it, but she has above and beyond that excellent arguments +and reasons. I’ve not put them into her head—I needn’t remind +you how little she’s a person who needs that. But they exist—you +must take it from me as a friend both of hers and yours—for myself as +well. I didn’t invent them, I didn’t originally work them out; but +I understand them, I think I can explain them—by which I mean make you +actively do them justice; and that’s why you see me here. You had better +know the worst at once. It’s a question of an immediate rupture and an +immediate return. I’ve been conceited enough to dream I can sugar that +pill. I take at any rate the greatest interest in the question. I took it +already before I left home, and I don’t mind telling you that, altered as +you are, I take it still more now that I’ve seen you. You’re older +and—I don’t know what to call it!—more of a handful; but +you’re by so much the more, I seem to make out, to our purpose.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do I strike you as improved?” Strether was to recall that Chad had +at this point enquired. +</p> + +<p> +He was likewise to recall—and it had to count for some time as his +greatest comfort—that it had been “given” him, as they said +at Woollett, to reply with some presence of mind: “I haven’t the +least idea.” He was really for a while to like thinking he had been +positively hard. On the point of conceding that Chad had improved in +appearance, but that to the question of appearance the remark must be confined, +he checked even that compromise and left his reservation bare. Not only his +moral, but also, as it were, his æsthetic sense had a little to pay for this, +Chad being unmistakeably—and wasn’t it a matter of the confounded +grey hair again?—handsomer than he had ever promised. That however fell +in perfectly with what Strether had said. They had no desire to keep down his +proper expansion, and he wouldn’t be less to their purpose for not +looking, as he had too often done of old, only bold and wild. There was indeed +a signal particular in which he would distinctly be more so. Strether +didn’t, as he talked, absolutely follow himself; he only knew he was +clutching his thread and that he held it from moment to moment a little +tighter; his mere uninterruptedness during the few minutes helped him to do +that. He had frequently for a month, turned over what he should say on this +very occasion, and he seemed at last to have said nothing he had thought +of—everything was so totally different. +</p> + +<p> +But in spite of all he had put the flag at the window. This was what he had +done, and there was a minute during which he affected himself as having shaken +it hard, flapped it with a mighty flutter, straight in front of his +companion’s nose. It gave him really almost the sense of having already +acted his part. The momentary relief—as if from the knowledge that +nothing of <i>that</i> at least could be undone—sprang from a particular +cause, the cause that had flashed into operation, in Miss Gostrey’s box, +with direct apprehension, with amazed recognition, and that had been concerned +since then in every throb of his consciousness. What it came to was that with +an absolutely <i>new</i> quantity to deal with one simply couldn’t know. +The new quantity was represented by the fact that Chad had been made over. That +was all; whatever it was it was everything. Strether had never seen the thing +so done before—it was perhaps a speciality of Paris. If one had been +present at the process one might little by little have mastered the result; but +he was face to face, as matters stood, with the finished business. It had +freely been noted for him that he might be received as a dog among skittles, +but that was on the basis of the old quantity. He had originally thought of +lines and tones as things to be taken, but these possibilities had now quite +melted away. There was no computing at all what the young man before him would +think or feel or say on any subject whatever. This intelligence Strether had +afterwards, to account for his nervousness, reconstituted as he might, just as +he had also reconstituted the promptness with which Chad had corrected his +uncertainty. An extraordinarily short time had been required for the +correction, and there had ceased to be anything negative in his +companion’s face and air as soon as it was made. “Your engagement +to my mother has become then what they call here a <i>fait +accompli?</i>”—it had consisted, the determinant touch, in nothing +more than that. +</p> + +<p> +Well, that was enough, Strether had felt while his answer hung fire. He had +felt at the same time, however, that nothing could less become him than that it +should hang fire too long. “Yes,” he said brightly, “it was +on the happy settlement of the question that I started. You see therefore to +what tune I’m in your family. Moreover,” he added, +“I’ve been supposing you’d suppose it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’ve been supposing it for a long time, and what you tell me +helps me to understand that you should want to do something. To do something, I +mean,” said Chad, “to commemorate an event so—what do they +call it?—so auspicious. I see you make out, and not unnaturally,” +he continued, “that bringing me home in triumph as a sort of +wedding-present to Mother would commemorate it better than anything else. You +want to make a bonfire in fact,” he laughed, “and you pitch me on. +Thank you, thank you!” he laughed again. +</p> + +<p> +He was altogether easy about it, and this made Strether now see how at bottom, +and in spite of the shade of shyness that really cost him nothing, he had from +the first moment been easy about everything. The shade of shyness was mere good +taste. People with manners formed could apparently have, as one of their best +cards, the shade of shyness too. He had leaned a little forward to speak; his +elbows were on the table; and the inscrutable new face that he had got +somewhere and somehow was brought by the movement nearer to his critic’s. +There was a fascination for that critic in its not being, this ripe +physiognomy, the face that, under observation at least, he had originally +carried away from Woollett. Strether found a certain freedom on his own side in +defining it as that of a man of the world—a formula that indeed seemed to +come now in some degree to his relief; that of a man to whom things had +happened and were variously known. In gleams, in glances, the past did perhaps +peep out of it; but such lights were faint and instantly merged. Chad was brown +and thick and strong, and of old Chad had been rough. Was all the difference +therefore that he was actually smooth? Possibly; for that he <i>was</i> smooth +was as marked as in the taste of a sauce or in the rub of a hand. The effect of +it was general—it had retouched his features, drawn them with a cleaner +line. It had cleared his eyes and settled his colour and polished his fine +square teeth—the main ornament of his face; and at the same time that it +had given him a form and a surface, almost a design, it had toned his voice, +established his accent, encouraged his smile to more play and his other motions +to less. He had formerly, with a great deal of action, expressed very little; +and he now expressed whatever was necessary with almost none at all. It was as +if in short he had really, copious perhaps but shapeless, been put into a firm +mould and turned successfully out. The phenomenon—Strether kept eyeing it +as a phenomenon, an eminent case—was marked enough to be touched by the +finger. He finally put his hand across the table and laid it on Chad’s +arm. “If you’ll promise me—here on the spot and giving me +your word of honour—to break straight off, you’ll make the future +the real right thing for all of us alike. You’ll ease off the strain of +this decent but none the less acute suspense in which I’ve for so many +days been waiting for you, and let me turn in to rest. I shall leave you with +my blessing and go to bed in peace.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad again fell back at this and, his hands pocketed, settled himself a little; +in which posture he looked, though he rather anxiously smiled, only the more +earnest. Then Strether seemed to see that he was really nervous, and he took +that as what he would have called a wholesome sign. The only mark of it +hitherto had been his more than once taking off and putting on his wide-brimmed +crush hat. He had at this moment made the motion again to remove it, then had +only pushed it back, so that it hung informally on his strong young grizzled +crop. It was a touch that gave the note of the familiar—the intimate and +the belated—to their quiet colloquy; and it was indeed by some such +trivial aid that Strether became aware at the same moment of something else. +The observation was at any rate determined in him by some light too fine to +distinguish from so many others, but it was none the less sharply determined. +Chad looked unmistakeably during these instants—well, as Strether put it +to himself, all he was worth. Our friend had a sudden apprehension of what that +would on certain sides be. He saw him in a flash as the young man marked out by +women; and for a concentrated minute the dignity, the comparative austerity, as +he funnily fancied it, of this character affected him almost with awe. There +was an experience on his interlocutor’s part that looked out at him from +under the displaced hat, and that looked out moreover by a force of its own, +the deep fact of its quantity and quality, and not through Chad’s +intending bravado or swagger. That was then the way men marked out by women +<i>were</i>—and also the men by whom the women were doubtless in turn +sufficiently distinguished. It affected Strether for thirty seconds as a +relevant truth, a truth which, however, the next minute, had fallen into its +relation. “Can’t you imagine there being some questions,” +Chad asked, “that a fellow—however much impressed by your charming +way of stating things—would like to put to you first?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—easily. I’m here to answer everything. I think I can +even tell you things, of the greatest interest to you, that you won’t +know enough to ask me. We’ll take as many days to it as you like. But I +want,” Strether wound up, “to go to bed now.” +</p> + +<p> +“Really?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had spoken in such surprise that he was amused. “Can’t you +believe it?—with what you put me through?” +</p> + +<p> +The young man seemed to consider. “Oh I haven’t put you through +much—yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean there’s so much more to come?” Strether laughed. +“All the more reason then that I should gird myself.” And as if to +mark what he felt he could by this time count on he was already on his feet. +</p> + +<p> +Chad, still seated, stayed him, with a hand against him, as he passed between +their table and the next. “Oh we shall get on!” +</p> + +<p> +The tone was, as who should say, everything Strether could have desired; and +quite as good the expression of face with which the speaker had looked up at +him and kindly held him. All these things lacked was their not showing quite so +much as the fruit of experience. Yes, experience was what Chad did play on him, +if he didn’t play any grossness of defiance. Of course experience was in +a manner defiance; but it wasn’t, at any rate—rather indeed quite +the contrary!—grossness; which was so much gained. He fairly grew older, +Strether thought, while he himself so reasoned. Then with his mature pat of his +visitor’s arm he also got up; and there had been enough of it all by this +time to make the visitor feel that something <i>was</i> settled. Wasn’t +it settled that he had at least the testimony of Chad’s own belief in a +settlement? Strether found himself treating Chad’s profession that they +would get on as a sufficient basis for going to bed. He hadn’t +nevertheless after this gone to bed directly; for when they had again passed +out together into the mild bright night a check had virtually sprung from +nothing more than a small circumstance which might have acted only as +confirming quiescence. There were people, expressive sound, projected light, +still abroad, and after they had taken in for a moment, through everything, the +great clear architectural street, they turned off in tacit union to the quarter +of Strether’s hotel. “Of course,” Chad here abruptly began, +“of course Mother’s making things out with you about me has been +natural—and of course also you’ve had a good deal to go upon. +Still, you must have filled out.” +</p> + +<p> +He had stopped, leaving his friend to wonder a little what point he wished to +make; and this it was that enabled Strether meanwhile to make one. “Oh +we’ve never pretended to go into detail. We weren’t in the least +bound to <i>that</i>. It was ‘filling out’ enough to miss you as we +did.” +</p> + +<p> +But Chad rather oddly insisted, though under the high lamp at their corner, +where they paused, he had at first looked as if touched by Strether’s +allusion to the long sense, at home, of his absence. “What I mean is you +must have imagined.” +</p> + +<p> +“Imagined what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well—horrors.” +</p> + +<p> +It affected Strether: horrors were so little—superficially at +least—in this robust and reasoning image. But he was none the less there +to be veracious. “Yes, I dare say we <i>have</i> imagined horrors. But +where’s the harm if we haven’t been wrong?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad raised his face to the lamp, and it was one of the moments at which he +had, in his extraordinary way, most his air of designedly showing himself. It +was as if at these instants he just presented himself, his identity so rounded +off, his palpable presence and his massive young manhood, as such a link in the +chain as might practically amount to a kind of demonstration. It was as +if—and how but anomalously?—he couldn’t after all help +thinking sufficiently well of these things to let them go for what they were +worth. What could there be in this for Strether but the hint of some +self-respect, some sense of power, oddly perverted; something latent and beyond +access, ominous and perhaps enviable? The intimation had the next thing, in a +flash, taken on a name—a name on which our friend seized as he asked +himself if he weren’t perhaps really dealing with an irreducible young +Pagan. This description—he quite jumped at it—had a sound that +gratified his mental ear, so that of a sudden he had already adopted it. +Pagan—yes, that was, wasn’t it? what Chad <i>would</i> logically +be. It was what he must be. It was what he was. The idea was a clue and, +instead of darkening the prospect, projected a certain clearness. Strether made +out in this quick ray that a Pagan was perhaps, at the pass they had come to, +the thing most wanted at Woollett. They’d be able to do with one—a +good one; he’d find an opening—yes; and Strether’s +imagination even now prefigured and accompanied the first appearance there of +the rousing personage. He had only the slight discomfort of feeling, as the +young man turned away from the lamp, that his thought had in the momentary +silence possibly been guessed. “Well, I’ve no doubt,” said +Chad, “you’ve come near enough. The details, as you say, +don’t matter. It <i>has</i> been generally the case that I’ve let +myself go. But I’m coming round—I’m not so bad now.” +With which they walked on again to Strether’s hotel. +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean,” the latter asked as they approached the door, +“that there isn’t any woman with you now?” +</p> + +<p> +“But pray what has that to do with it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why it’s the whole question.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of my going home?” Chad was clearly surprised. “Oh not much! +Do you think that when I want to go any one will have any power—” +</p> + +<p> +“To keep you”—Strether took him straight up—“from +carrying out your wish? Well, our idea has been that somebody has +hitherto—or a good many persons perhaps—kept you pretty well from +‘wanting.’ That’s what—if you’re in +anybody’s hands—may again happen. You don’t answer my +question”—he kept it up; “but if you aren’t in +anybody’s hands so much the better. There’s nothing then but what +makes for your going.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad turned this over. “I don’t answer your question?” He +spoke quite without resenting it. “Well, such questions have always a +rather exaggerated side. One doesn’t know quite what you mean by being in +women’s ‘hands.’ It’s all so vague. One is when one +isn’t. One isn’t when one is. And then one can’t quite give +people away.” He seemed kindly to explain. “I’ve <i>never</i> +got stuck—so very hard; and, as against anything at any time really +better, I don’t think I’ve ever been afraid.” There was +something in it that held Strether to wonder, and this gave him time to go on. +He broke out as with a more helpful thought. “Don’t you know how I +like Paris itself?” +</p> + +<p> +The upshot was indeed to make our friend marvel. “Oh if +<i>that’s</i> all that’s the matter with you—!” It was +<i>he</i> who almost showed resentment. +</p> + +<p> +Chad’s smile of a truth more than met it. “But isn’t that +enough?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated, but it came out. “Not enough for your mother!” +Spoken, however, it sounded a trifle odd—the effect of which was that +Chad broke into a laugh. Strether, at this, succumbed as well, though with +extreme brevity. “Permit us to have still our theory. But if you +<i>are</i> so free and so strong you’re inexcusable. I’ll write in +the morning,” he added with decision. “I’ll say I’ve +got you.” +</p> + +<p> +This appeared to open for Chad a new interest. “How often do you +write?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh perpetually.” +</p> + +<p> +“And at great length?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had become a little impatient. “I hope it’s not found too +great.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’m sure not. And you hear as often?” +</p> + +<p> +Again Strether paused. “As often as I deserve.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mother writes,” said Chad, “a lovely letter.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, before the closed <i>porte-cochère</i>, fixed him a moment. +“It’s more, my boy, than <i>you</i> do! But our suppositions +don’t matter,” he added, “if you’re actually not +entangled.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad’s pride seemed none the less a little touched. “I never +<i>was</i> that—let me insist. I always had my own way.” With which +he pursued: “And I have it at present.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then what are you here for? What has kept you,” Strether asked, +“if you <i>have</i> been able to leave?” +</p> + +<p> +It made Chad, after a stare, throw himself back. “Do you think +one’s kept only by women?” His surprise and his verbal emphasis +rang out so clear in the still street that Strether winced till he remembered +the safety of their English speech. “Is that,” the young man +demanded, “what they think at Woollett?” At the good faith in the +question Strether had changed colour, feeling that, as he would have said, he +had put his foot in it. He had appeared stupidly to misrepresent what they +thought at Woollett; but before he had time to rectify Chad again was upon him. +“I must say then you show a low mind!” +</p> + +<p> +It so fell in, unhappily for Strether, with that reflexion of his own prompted +in him by the pleasant air of the Boulevard Malesherbes, that its disconcerting +force was rather unfairly great. It was a dig that, administered by +himself—and administered even to poor Mrs. Newsome—was no more than +salutary; but administered by Chad—and quite logically—it came +nearer drawing blood. They <i>hadn’t</i> a low mind—nor any +approach to one; yet incontestably they had worked, and with a certain +smugness, on a basis that might be turned against them. Chad had at any rate +pulled his visitor up; he had even pulled up his admirable mother; he had +absolutely, by a turn of the wrist and a jerk of the far-flung noose, pulled +up, in a bunch, Woollett browsing in its pride. There was no doubt Woollett +<i>had</i> insisted on his coarseness; and what he at present stood there for +in the sleeping street was, by his manner of striking the other note, to make +of such insistence a preoccupation compromising to the insisters. It was +exactly as if they had imputed to him a vulgarity that he had by a mere gesture +caused to fall from him. The devil of the case was that Strether felt it, by +the same stroke, as falling straight upon himself. He had been wondering a +minute ago if the boy weren’t a Pagan, and he found himself wondering now +if he weren’t by chance a gentleman. It didn’t in the least, on the +spot, spring up helpfully for him that a person couldn’t at the same time +be both. There was nothing at this moment in the air to challenge the +combination; there was everything to give it on the contrary something of a +flourish. It struck Strether into the bargain as doing something to meet the +most difficult of the questions; though perhaps indeed only by substituting +another. Wouldn’t it be precisely by having learned to be a gentleman +that he had mastered the consequent trick of looking so well that one could +scarce speak to him straight? But what in the world was the clue to such a +prime producing cause? There were too many clues then that Strether still +lacked, and these clues to clues were among them. What it accordingly amounted +to for him was that he had to take full in the face a fresh attribution of +ignorance. He had grown used by this time to reminders, especially from his own +lips, of what he didn’t know; but he had borne them because in the first +place they were private and because in the second they practically conveyed a +tribute. He didn’t know what was bad, and—as others didn’t +know how little he knew it—he could put up with his state. But if he +didn’t know, in so important a particular, what was good, Chad at least +was now aware he didn’t; and that, for some reason, affected our friend +as curiously public. It was in fact an exposed condition that the young man +left him in long enough for him to feel its chill—till he saw fit, in a +word, generously again to cover him. This last was in truth what Chad quite +gracefully did. But he did it as with a simple thought that met the whole of +the case. “Oh I’m all right!” It was what Strether had rather +bewilderedly to go to bed on. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +It really looked true moreover from the way Chad was to behave after this. He +was full of attentions to his mother’s ambassador; in spite of which, all +the while, the latter’s other relations rather remarkably contrived to +assert themselves. Strether’s sittings pen in hand with Mrs. Newsome up +in his own room were broken, yet they were richer; and they were more than ever +interspersed with the hours in which he reported himself, in a different +fashion, but with scarce less earnestness and fulness, to Maria Gostrey. Now +that, as he would have expressed it, he had really something to talk about he +found himself, in respect to any oddity that might reside for him in the double +connexion, at once more aware and more indifferent. He had been fine to Mrs. +Newsome about his useful friend, but it had begun to haunt his imagination that +Chad, taking up again for her benefit a pen too long disused, might possibly be +finer. It wouldn’t at all do, he saw, that anything should come up for +him at Chad’s hand but what specifically <i>was</i> to have come; the +greatest divergence from which would be precisely the element of any +lubrication of their intercourse by levity. It was accordingly to forestall +such an accident that he frankly put before the young man the several facts, +just as they had occurred, of his funny alliance. He spoke of these facts, +pleasantly and obligingly, as “the whole story,” and felt that he +might qualify the alliance as funny if he remained sufficiently grave about it. +He flattered himself that he even exaggerated the wild freedom of his original +encounter with the wonderful lady; he was scrupulously definite about the +absurd conditions in which they had made acquaintance—their having picked +each other up almost in the street; and he had (finest inspiration of all!) a +conception of carrying the war into the enemy’s country by showing +surprise at the enemy’s ignorance. +</p> + +<p> +He had always had a notion that this last was the grand style of fighting; the +greater therefore the reason for it, as he couldn’t remember that he had +ever before fought in the grand style. Every one, according to this, knew Miss +Gostrey: how came it Chad didn’t know her? The difficulty, the +impossibility, was really to escape it; Strether put on him, by what he took +for granted, the burden of proof of the contrary. This tone was so far +successful as that Chad quite appeared to recognise her as a person whose fame +had reached him, but against his acquaintance with whom much mischance had +worked. He made the point at the same time that his social relations, such as +they could be called, were perhaps not to the extent Strether supposed with the +rising flood of their compatriots. He hinted at his having more and more given +way to a different principle of selection; the moral of which seemed to be that +he went about little in the “colony.” For the moment certainly he +had quite another interest. It was deep, what he understood, and Strether, for +himself, could only so observe it. He couldn’t see as yet how deep. Might +he not all too soon! For there was really too much of their question that Chad +had already committed himself to liking. He liked, to begin with, his +prospective stepfather; which was distinctly what had not been on the cards. +His hating him was the untowardness for which Strether had been best prepared; +he hadn’t expected the boy’s actual form to give him more to do +than his imputed. It gave him more through suggesting that he must somehow make +up to himself for not being sure he was sufficiently disagreeable. That had +really been present to him as his only way to be sure he was sufficiently +thorough. The point was that if Chad’s tolerance of his thoroughness were +insincere, were but the best of devices for gaining time, it none the less did +treat everything as tacitly concluded. +</p> + +<p> +That seemed at the end of ten days the upshot of the abundant, the recurrent +talk through which Strether poured into him all it concerned him to know, put +him in full possession of facts and figures. Never cutting these colloquies +short by a minute, Chad behaved, looked and spoke as if he were rather heavily, +perhaps even a trifle gloomily, but none the less fundamentally and comfortably +free. He made no crude profession of eagerness to yield, but he asked the most +intelligent questions, probed, at moments, abruptly, even deeper than his +friend’s layer of information, justified by these touches the native +estimate of his latent stuff, and had in every way the air of trying to live, +reflectively, into the square bright picture. He walked up and down in front of +this production, sociably took Strether’s arm at the points at which he +stopped, surveyed it repeatedly from the right and from the left, inclined a +critical head to either quarter, and, while he puffed a still more critical +cigarette, animadverted to his companion on this passage and that. Strether +sought relief—there were hours when he required it—in repeating +himself; it was in truth not to be blinked that Chad had a way. The main +question as yet was of what it was a way <i>to</i>. It made vulgar questions no +more easy; but that was unimportant when all questions save those of his own +asking had dropped. That he was free was answer enough, and it wasn’t +quite ridiculous that this freedom should end by presenting itself as what was +difficult to move. His changed state, his lovely home, his beautiful things, +his easy talk, his very appetite for Strether, insatiable and, when all was +said, flattering—what were such marked matters all but the notes of his +freedom? He had the effect of making a sacrifice of it just in these handsome +forms to his visitor; which was mainly the reason the visitor was privately, +for the time, a little out of countenance. Strether was at this period again +and again thrown back on a felt need to remodel somehow his plan. He fairly +caught himself shooting rueful glances, shy looks of pursuit, toward the +embodied influence, the definite adversary, who had by a stroke of her own +failed him and on a fond theory of whose palpable presence he had, under Mrs. +Newsome’s inspiration, altogether proceeded. He had once or twice, in +secret, literally expressed the irritated wish that <i>she</i> would come out +and find her. +</p> + +<p> +He couldn’t quite yet force it upon Woollett that such a career, such a +perverted young life, showed after all a certain plausible side, <i>did</i> in +the case before them flaunt something like an impunity for the social man; but +he could at least treat himself to the statement that would prepare him for the +sharpest echo. This echo—as distinct over there in the dry thin air as +some shrill “heading” above a column of print—seemed to reach +him even as he wrote. “He says there’s no woman,” he could +hear Mrs. Newsome report, in capitals almost of newspaper size, to Mrs. Pocock; +and he could focus in Mrs. Pocock the response of the reader of the journal. He +could see in the younger lady’s face the earnestness of her attention and +catch the full scepticism of her but slightly delayed “What is there +then?” Just so he could again as little miss the mother’s clear +decision: “There’s plenty of disposition, no doubt, to pretend +there isn’t.” Strether had, after posting his letter, the whole +scene out; and it was a scene during which, coming and going, as befell, he +kept his eye not least upon the daughter. He had his fine sense of the +conviction Mrs. Pocock would take occasion to reaffirm—a conviction +bearing, as he had from the first deeply divined it to bear, on Mr. +Strether’s essential inaptitude. She had looked him in his conscious eyes +even before he sailed, and that she didn’t believe <i>he</i> would find +the woman had been written in her book. Hadn’t she at the best but a +scant faith in his ability to find women? It wasn’t even as if he had +found her mother—so much more, to her discrimination, had her mother +performed the finding. Her mother had, in a case her private judgement of which +remained educative of Mrs. Pocock’s critical sense, found the man. The +man owed his unchallenged state, in general, to the fact that Mrs. +Newsome’s discoveries were accepted at Woollett; but he knew in his +bones, our friend did, how almost irresistibly Mrs. Pocock would now be moved +to show what she thought of his own. Give <i>her</i> a free hand, would be the +moral, and the woman would soon be found. +</p> + +<p> +His impression of Miss Gostrey after her introduction to Chad was meanwhile an +impression of a person almost unnaturally on her guard. He struck himself as at +first unable to extract from her what he wished; though indeed <i>of</i> what +he wished at this special juncture he would doubtless have contrived to make +but a crude statement. It sifted and settled nothing to put to her, <i>tout +bêtement</i>, as she often said, “Do you like him, +eh?”—thanks to his feeling it actually the least of his needs to +heap up the evidence in the young man’s favour. He repeatedly knocked at +her door to let her have it afresh that Chad’s case—whatever else +of minor interest it might yield—was first and foremost a miracle almost +monstrous. It was the alteration of the entire man, and was so signal an +instance that nothing else, for the intelligent observer, +could—<i>could</i> it?—signify. “It’s a plot,” he +declared—“there’s more in it than meets the eye.” He +gave the rein to his fancy. “It’s a plant!” +</p> + +<p> +His fancy seemed to please her. “Whose then?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, the party responsible is, I suppose, the fate that waits for one, +the dark doom that rides. What I mean is that with such elements one +can’t count. I’ve but my poor individual, my modest human means. It +isn’t playing the game to turn on the uncanny. All one’s energy +goes to facing it, to tracking it. One wants, confound it, don’t you +see?” he confessed with a queer face—“one wants to enjoy +anything so rare. Call it then life”—he puzzled it +out—“call it poor dear old life simply that springs the surprise. +Nothing alters the fact that the surprise is paralysing, or at any rate +engrossing—all, practically, hang it, that one sees, that one <i>can</i> +see.” +</p> + +<p> +Her silences were never barren, nor even dull. “Is that what you’ve +written home?” +</p> + +<p> +He tossed it off. “Oh dear, yes!” +</p> + +<p> +She had another pause while, across her carpets, he had another walk. “If +you don’t look out you’ll have them straight over.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but I’ve said he’ll go back.” +</p> + +<p> +“And <i>will</i> he?” Miss Gostrey asked. +</p> + +<p> +The special tone of it made him, pulling up, look at her long. +“What’s that but just the question I’ve spent treasures of +patience and ingenuity in giving <i>you</i>, by the sight of him—after +everything had led up—every facility to answer? What is it but just the +thing I came here to-day to get out of you? Will he?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—he won’t,” she said at last. “He’s not +free.” +</p> + +<p> +The air of it held him. “Then you’ve all the while +known—?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve known nothing but what I’ve seen; and I wonder,” +she declared with some impatience, “that you didn’t see as much. It +was enough to be with him there—” +</p> + +<p> +“In the box? Yes,” he rather blankly urged. +</p> + +<p> +“Well—to feel sure.” +</p> + +<p> +“Sure of what?” +</p> + +<p> +She got up from her chair, at this, with a nearer approach than she had ever +yet shown to dismay at his dimness. She even, fairly pausing for it, spoke with +a shade of pity. “Guess!” +</p> + +<p> +It was a shade, fairly, that brought a flush into his face; so that for a +moment, as they waited together, their difference was between them. “You +mean that just your hour with him told you so much of his story? Very good; +I’m not such a fool, on my side, as that I don’t understand you, or +as that I didn’t in some degree understand <i>him</i>. That he has done +what he liked most isn’t, among any of us, a matter the least in dispute. +There’s equally little question at this time of day of what it is he does +like most. But I’m not talking,” he reasonably explained, “of +any mere wretch he may still pick up. I’m talking of some person who in +his present situation may have held her own, may really have counted.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s exactly what <i>I</i> am!” said Miss Gostrey. But she +as quickly made her point. “I thought you thought—or that they +think at Woollett—that that’s what mere wretches necessarily do. +Mere wretches necessarily <i>don’t!</i>” she declared with spirit. +“There must, behind every appearance to the contrary, still be +somebody—somebody who’s not a mere wretch, since we accept the +miracle. What else but such a somebody can such a miracle be?” +</p> + +<p> +He took it in. “Because the fact itself <i>is</i> the woman?” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>A</i> woman. Some woman or other. It’s one of the things that +<i>have</i> to be.” +</p> + +<p> +“But you mean then at least a good one.” +</p> + +<p> +“A good woman?” She threw up her arms with a laugh. “I should +call her excellent!” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why does he deny her?” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey thought a moment. “Because she’s too good to admit! +Don’t you see,” she went on, “how she accounts for +him?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether clearly, more and more, did see; yet it made him also see other +things. “But isn’t what we want that he shall account for +<i>her?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, he does. What you have before you is his way. You must forgive him +if it isn’t quite outspoken. In Paris such debts are tacit.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether could imagine; but still—! “Even when the woman’s +good?” +</p> + +<p> +Again she laughed out. “Yes, and even when the man is! There’s +always a caution in such cases,” she more seriously +explained—“for what it may seem to show. There’s nothing +that’s taken as showing so much here as sudden unnatural goodness.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then you’re speaking now,” Strether said, “of +people who are <i>not</i> nice.” +</p> + +<p> +“I delight,” she replied, “in your classifications. But do +you want me,” she asked, “to give you in the matter, on this +ground, the wisest advice I’m capable of? Don’t consider her, +don’t judge her at all in herself. Consider her and judge her only in +Chad.” +</p> + +<p> +He had the courage at least of his companion’s logic. “Because then +I shall like her?” He almost looked, with his quick imagination as if he +already did, though seeing at once also the full extent of how little it would +suit his book. “But is that what I came out for?” +</p> + +<p> +She had to confess indeed that it wasn’t. But there was something else. +“Don’t make up your mind. There are all sorts of things. You +haven’t seen him all.” +</p> + +<p> +This on his side Strether recognised; but his acuteness none the less showed +him the danger. “Yes, but if the more I see the better he seems?” +</p> + +<p> +Well, she found something. “That may be—but his disavowal of her +isn’t, all the same, pure consideration. There’s a hitch.” +She made it out. “It’s the effort to sink her.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether winced at the image. “To ‘sink’—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I mean there’s a struggle, and a part of it is just what he +hides. Take time—that’s the only way not to make some mistake that +you’ll regret. Then you’ll see. He does really want to shake her +off.” +</p> + +<p> +Our friend had by this time so got into the vision that he almost gasped. +“After all she has done for him?” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey gave him a look which broke the next moment into a wonderful +smile. “He’s not so good as you think!” +</p> + +<p> +They remained with him, these words, promising him, in their character of +warning, considerable help; but the support he tried to draw from them found +itself on each renewal of contact with Chad defeated by something else. What +could it be, this disconcerting force, he asked himself, but the sense, +constantly renewed, that Chad <i>was</i>—quite in fact insisted on +being—as good as he thought? It seemed somehow as if he couldn’t +<i>but</i> be as good from the moment he wasn’t as bad. There was a +succession of days at all events when contact with him—and in its +immediate effect, as if it could produce no other—elbowed out of +Strether’s consciousness everything but itself. Little Bilham once more +pervaded the scene, but little Bilham became even in a higher degree than he +had originally been one of the numerous forms of the inclusive relation; a +consequence promoted, to our friend’s sense, by two or three incidents +with which we have yet to make acquaintance. Waymarsh himself, for the +occasion, was drawn into the eddy; it absolutely, though but temporarily, +swallowed him down, and there were days when Strether seemed to bump against +him as a sinking swimmer might brush a submarine object. The fathomless medium +held them—Chad’s manner was the fathomless medium; and our friend +felt as if they passed each other, in their deep immersion, with the round +impersonal eye of silent fish. It was practically produced between them that +Waymarsh was giving him then his chance; and the shade of discomfort that +Strether drew from the allowance resembled not a little the embarrassment he +had known at school, as a boy, when members of his family had been present at +exhibitions. He could perform before strangers, but relatives were fatal, and +it was now as if, comparatively, Waymarsh were a relative. He seemed to hear +him say “Strike up then!” and to enjoy a foretaste of conscientious +domestic criticism. He <i>had</i> struck up, so far as he actually could; Chad +knew by this time in profusion what he wanted; and what vulgar violence did his +fellow pilgrim expect of him when he had really emptied his mind? It went +somehow to and fro that what poor Waymarsh meant was “I told you +so—that you’d lose your immortal soul!” but it was also +fairly explicit that Strether had his own challenge and that, since they must +go to the bottom of things, he wasted no more virtue in watching Chad than Chad +wasted in watching him. His dip for duty’s sake—where was it worse +than Waymarsh’s own? For <i>he</i> needn’t have stopped resisting +and refusing, needn’t have parleyed, at that rate, with the foe. +</p> + +<p> +The strolls over Paris to see something or call somewhere were accordingly +inevitable and natural, and the late sessions in the wondrous troisième, the +lovely home, when men dropped in and the picture composed more suggestively +through the haze of tobacco, of music more or less good and of talk more or +less polyglot, were on a principle not to be distinguished from that of the +mornings and the afternoons. Nothing, Strether had to recognise as he leaned +back and smoked, could well less resemble a scene of violence than even the +liveliest of these occasions. They were occasions of discussion, none the less, +and Strether had never in his life heard so many opinions on so many subjects. +There were opinions at Woollett, but only on three or four. The differences +were there to match; if they were doubtless deep, though few, they were +quiet—they were, as might be said, almost as shy as if people had been +ashamed of them. People showed little diffidence about such things, on the +other hand, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, and were so far from being ashamed of +them—or indeed of anything else—that they often seemed to have +invented them to avert those agreements that destroy the taste of talk. No one +had ever done that at Woollett, though Strether could remember times when he +himself had been tempted to it without quite knowing why. He saw why at +present—he had but wanted to promote intercourse. +</p> + +<p> +These, however, were but parenthetic memories, and the turn taken by his affair +on the whole was positively that if his nerves were on the stretch it was +because he missed violence. When he asked himself if none would then, in +connexion with it, ever come at all, he might almost have passed as wondering +how to provoke it. It would be too absurd if such a vision as <i>that</i> +should have to be invoked for relief; it was already marked enough as absurd +that he should actually have begun with flutters and dignities on the score of +a single accepted meal. What sort of a brute had he expected Chad to be, +anyway?—Strether had occasion to make the enquiry but was careful to make +it in private. He could himself, comparatively recent as it was—it was +truly but the fact of a few days since—focus his primal crudity; but he +would on the approach of an observer, as if handling an illicit possession, +have slipped the reminiscence out of sight. There were echoes of it still in +Mrs. Newsome’s letters, and there were moments when these echoes made him +exclaim on her want of tact. He blushed of course, at once, still more for the +explanation than for the ground of it: it came to him in time to save his +manners that she couldn’t at the best become tactful as quickly as he. +Her tact had to reckon with the Atlantic Ocean, the General Post-Office and the +extravagant curve of the globe. Chad had one day offered tea at the Boulevard +Malesherbes to a chosen few, a group again including the unobscured Miss +Barrace; and Strether had on coming out walked away with the acquaintance whom +in his letters to Mrs. Newsome he always spoke of as the little artist-man. He +had had full occasion to mention him as the other party, so oddly, to the only +close personal alliance observation had as yet detected in Chad’s +existence. Little Bilham’s way this afternoon was not Strether’s, +but he had none the less kindly come with him, and it was somehow a part of his +kindness that as it had sadly begun to rain they suddenly found themselves +seated for conversation at a café in which they had taken refuge. He had passed +no more crowded hour in Chad’s society than the one just ended; he had +talked with Miss Barrace, who had reproached him with not having come to see +her, and he had above all hit on a happy thought for causing Waymarsh’s +tension to relax. Something might possibly be extracted for the latter from the +idea of his success with that lady, whose quick apprehension of what might +amuse her had given Strether a free hand. What had she meant if not to ask +whether she couldn’t help him with his splendid encumbrance, and +mightn’t the sacred rage at any rate be kept a little in abeyance by thus +creating for his comrade’s mind even in a world of irrelevance the +possibility of a relation? What was it but a relation to be regarded as so +decorative and, in especial, on the strength of it, to be whirled away, amid +flounces and feathers, in a coupé lined, by what Strether could make out, with +dark blue brocade? He himself had never been whirled away—never at least +in a coupé and behind a footman; he had driven with Miss Gostrey in cabs, with +Mrs. Pocock, a few times, in an open buggy, with Mrs. Newsome in a four-seated +cart and, occasionally up at the mountains, on a buckboard; but his +friend’s actual adventure transcended his personal experience. He now +showed his companion soon enough indeed how inadequate, as a general monitor, +this last queer quantity could once more feel itself. +</p> + +<p> +“What game under the sun is he playing?” He signified the next +moment that his allusion was not to the fat gentleman immersed in dominoes on +whom his eyes had begun by resting, but to their host of the previous hour, as +to whom, there on the velvet bench, with a final collapse of all consistency, +he treated himself to the comfort of indiscretion. “Where do you see him +come out?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham, in meditation, looked at him with a kindness almost paternal. +“Don’t you like it over here?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether laughed out—for the tone was indeed droll; he let himself go. +“What has that to do with it? The only thing I’ve any business to +like is to feel that I’m moving him. That’s why I ask you whether +you believe I <i>am?</i> Is the creature”—and he did his best to +show that he simply wished to ascertain—“honest?” +</p> + +<p> +His companion looked responsible, but looked it through a small dim smile. +“What creature do you mean?” +</p> + +<p> +It was on this that they did have for a little a mute interchange. “Is it +untrue that he’s free? How then,” Strether asked wondering +“does he arrange his life?” +</p> + +<p> +“Is the creature you mean Chad himself?” little Bilham said. +</p> + +<p> +Strether here, with a rising hope, just thought, “We must take one of +them at a time.” But his coherence lapsed. “<i>Is</i> there some +woman? Of whom he’s really afraid of course I mean—or who does with +him what she likes.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s awfully charming of you,” Bilham presently remarked, +“not to have asked me that before.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’m not fit for my job!” +</p> + +<p> +The exclamation had escaped our friend, but it made little Bilham more +deliberate. “Chad’s a rare case!” he luminously observed. +“He’s awfully changed,” he added. +</p> + +<p> +“Then you see it too?” +</p> + +<p> +“The way he has improved? Oh yes—I think every one must see it. But +I’m not sure,” said little Bilham, “that I didn’t like +him about as well in his other state.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then this <i>is</i> really a new state altogether?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” the young man after a moment returned, “I’m not +sure he was really meant by nature to be quite so good. It’s like the new +edition of an old book that one has been fond of—revised and amended, +brought up to date, but not quite the thing one knew and loved. However that +may be at all events,” he pursued, “I don’t think, you know, +that he’s really playing, as you call it, any game. I believe he really +wants to go back and take up a career. He’s capable of one, you know, +that will improve and enlarge him still more. He won’t then,” +little Bilham continued to remark, “be my pleasant well-rubbed +old-fashioned volume at all. But of course I’m beastly immoral. I’m +afraid it would be a funny world altogether—a world with things the way I +like them. I ought, I dare say, to go home and go into business myself. Only +I’d simply rather die—simply. And I’ve not the least +difficulty in making up my mind not to, and in knowing exactly why, and in +defending my ground against all comers. All the same,” he wound up, +“I assure you I don’t say a word against it—for himself, I +mean—to Chad. I seem to see it as much the best thing for him. You see +he’s not happy.” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>Do</i> I?”—Strether stared. “I’ve been +supposing I see just the opposite—an extraordinary case of the +equilibrium arrived at and assured.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh there’s a lot behind it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah there you are!” Strether exclaimed. “That’s just +what I want to get at. You speak of your familiar volume altered out of +recognition. Well, who’s the editor?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham looked before him a minute in silence. “He ought to get +married. <i>That</i> would do it. And he wants to.” +</p> + +<p> +“Wants to marry her?” +</p> + +<p> +Again little Bilham waited, and, with a sense that he had information, Strether +scarce knew what was coming. “He wants to be free. He isn’t used, +you see,” the young man explained in his lucid way, “to being so +good.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “Then I may take it from you that he <i>is</i> +good?” +</p> + +<p> +His companion matched his pause, but making it up with a quiet fulness. +“<i>Do</i> take it from me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then why isn’t he free? He swears to me he is, but meanwhile +does nothing—except of course that he’s so kind to me—to +prove it; and couldn’t really act much otherwise if he weren’t. My +question to you just now was exactly on this queer impression of his diplomacy: +as if instead of really giving ground his line were to keep me on here and set +me a bad example.” +</p> + +<p> +As the half-hour meanwhile had ebbed Strether paid his score, and the waiter +was presently in the act of counting out change. Our friend pushed back to him +a fraction of it, with which, after an emphatic recognition, the personage in +question retreated. “You give too much,” little Bilham permitted +himself benevolently to observe. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I always give too much!” Strether helplessly sighed. “But +you don’t,” he went on as if to get quickly away from the +contemplation of that doom, “answer my question. Why isn’t he +free?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham had got up as if the transaction with the waiter had been a +signal, and had already edged out between the table and the divan. The effect +of this was that a minute later they had quitted the place, the gratified +waiter alert again at the open door. Strether had found himself deferring to +his companion’s abruptness as to a hint that he should be answered as +soon as they were more isolated. This happened when after a few steps in the +outer air they had turned the next corner. There our friend had kept it up. +“Why isn’t he free if he’s good?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham looked him full in the face. “Because it’s a virtuous +attachment.” +</p> + +<p> +This had settled the question so effectually for the time—that is for the +next few days—that it had given Strether almost a new lease of life. It +must be added however that, thanks to his constant habit of shaking the bottle +in which life handed him the wine of experience, he presently found the taste +of the lees rising as usual into his draught. His imagination had in other +words already dealt with his young friend’s assertion; of which it had +made something that sufficiently came out on the very next occasion of his +seeing Maria Gostrey. This occasion moreover had been determined promptly by a +new circumstance—a circumstance he was the last man to leave her for a +day in ignorance of. “When I said to him last night,” he +immediately began, “that without some definite word from him now that +will enable me to speak to them over there of our sailing—or at least of +mine, giving them some sort of date—my responsibility becomes +uncomfortable and my situation awkward; when I said that to him what do you +think was his reply?” And then as she this time gave it up: “Why +that he has two particular friends, two ladies, mother and daughter, about to +arrive in Paris—coming back from an absence; and that he wants me so +furiously to meet them, know them and like them, that I shall oblige him by +kindly not bringing our business to a crisis till he has had a chance to see +them again himself. Is that,” Strether enquired, “the way +he’s going to try to get off? These are the people,” he explained, +“that he must have gone down to see before I arrived. They’re the +best friends he has in the world, and they take more interest than any one else +in what concerns him. As I’m his next best he sees a thousand reasons why +we should comfortably meet. He hasn’t broached the question sooner +because their return was uncertain—seemed in fact for the present +impossible. But he more than intimates that—if you can believe +it—their desire to make my acquaintance has had to do with their +surmounting difficulties.” +</p> + +<p> +“They’re dying to see you?” Miss Gostrey asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Dying. Of course,” said Strether, “they’re the +virtuous attachment.” He had already told her about that—had seen +her the day after his talk with little Bilham; and they had then threshed out +together the bearing of the revelation. She had helped him to put into it the +logic in which little Bilham had left it slightly deficient Strether +hadn’t pressed him as to the object of the preference so unexpectedly +described; feeling in the presence of it, with one of his irrepressible +scruples, a delicacy from which he had in the quest of the quite other article +worked himself sufficiently free. He had held off, as on a small principle of +pride, from permitting his young friend to mention a name; wishing to make with +this the great point that Chad’s virtuous attachments were none of his +business. He had wanted from the first not to think too much of his dignity, +but that was no reason for not allowing it any little benefit that might turn +up. He had often enough wondered to what degree his interference might pass for +interested; so that there was no want of luxury in letting it be seen whenever +he could that he didn’t interfere. That had of course at the same time +not deprived him of the further luxury of much private astonishment; which +however he had reduced to some order before communicating his knowledge. When +he had done this at last it was with the remark that, surprised as Miss Gostrey +might, like himself, at first be, she would probably agree with him on +reflexion that such an account of the matter did after all fit the confirmed +appearances. Nothing certainly, on all the indications, could have been a +greater change for him than a virtuous attachment, and since they had been in +search of the “word” as the French called it, of that change, +little Bilham’s announcement—though so long and so oddly +delayed—would serve as well as another. She had assured Strether in fact +after a pause that the more she thought of it the more it did serve; and yet +her assurance hadn’t so weighed with him as that before they parted he +hadn’t ventured to challenge her sincerity. Didn’t she believe the +attachment <i>was</i> virtuous?—he had made sure of her again with the +aid of that question. The tidings he brought her on this second occasion were +moreover such as would help him to make surer still. +</p> + +<p> +She showed at first none the less as only amused. “You say there are two? +An attachment to them both then would, I suppose, almost necessarily be +innocent.” +</p> + +<p> +Our friend took the point, but he had his clue. “Mayn’t he be still +in the stage of not quite knowing which of them, mother or daughter, he likes +best?” +</p> + +<p> +She gave it more thought. “Oh it must be the daughter—at his +age.” +</p> + +<p> +“Possibly. Yet what do we know,” Strether asked, “about hers? +She may be old enough.” +</p> + +<p> +“Old enough for what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why to marry Chad. That may be, you know, what they want. And if Chad +wants it too, and little Bilham wants it, and even <i>we</i>, at a pinch, could +do with it—that is if she doesn’t prevent repatriation—why it +may be plain sailing yet.” +</p> + +<p> +It was always the case for him in these counsels that each of his remarks, as +it came, seemed to drop into a deeper well. He had at all events to wait a +moment to hear the slight splash of this one. “I don’t see why if +Mr. Newsome wants to marry the young lady he hasn’t already done it or +hasn’t been prepared with some statement to you about it. And if he both +wants to marry her and is on good terms with them why isn’t he +‘free’?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, responsively, wondered indeed. “Perhaps the girl herself +doesn’t like him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why does he speak of them to you as he does?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s mind echoed the question, but also again met it. +“Perhaps it’s with the mother he’s on good terms.” +</p> + +<p> +“As against the daughter?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, if she’s trying to persuade the daughter to consent to him, +what could make him like the mother more? Only,” Strether threw out, +“why shouldn’t the daughter consent to him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “mayn’t it be that every one +else isn’t quite so struck with him as you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Doesn’t regard him you mean as such an ‘eligible’ +young man? <i>Is</i> that what I’ve come to?” he audibly and rather +gravely sought to know. “However,” he went on, “his marriage +is what his mother most desires—that is if it will help. And +oughtn’t <i>any</i> marriage to help? They must want him”—he +had already worked it out—“to be better off. Almost any girl he may +marry will have a direct interest in his taking up his chances. It won’t +suit <i>her</i> at least that he shall miss them.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey cast about. “No—you reason well! But of course on the +other hand there’s always dear old Woollett itself.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes,” he mused—“there’s always dear old +Woollett itself.” +</p> + +<p> +She waited a moment. “The young lady mayn’t find herself able to +swallow <i>that</i> quantity. She may think it’s paying too much; she may +weigh one thing against another.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, ever restless in such debates, took a vague turn “It will all +depend on who she is. That of course—the proved ability to deal with dear +old Woollett, since I’m sure she does deal with it—is what makes so +strongly for Mamie.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mamie?” +</p> + +<p> +He stopped short, at her tone, before her; then, though seeing that it +represented not vagueness, but a momentary embarrassed fulness, let his +exclamation come. “You surely haven’t forgotten about Mamie!” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I haven’t forgotten about Mamie,” she smiled. +“There’s no doubt whatever that there’s ever so much to be +said for her. Mamie’s <i>my</i> girl!” she roundly declared. +</p> + +<p> +Strether resumed for a minute his walk. “She’s really perfectly +lovely, you know. Far prettier than any girl I’ve seen over here +yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s precisely on what I perhaps most build.” And she +mused a moment in her friend’s way. “I should positively like to +take her in hand!” +</p> + +<p> +He humoured the fancy, though indeed finally to deprecate it. “Oh but +don’t, in your zeal, go over to her! I need you most and can’t, you +know, be left.” +</p> + +<p> +But she kept it up. “I wish they’d send her out to me!” +</p> + +<p> +“If they knew you,” he returned, “they would.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but don’t they?—after all that, as I’ve understood +you you’ve told them about me?” +</p> + +<p> +He had paused before her again, but he continued his course “They +<i>will</i>—before, as you say, I’ve done.” Then he came out +with the point he had wished after all most to make. “It seems to give +away now his game. This is what he has been doing—keeping me along for. +He has been waiting for them.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey drew in her lips. “You see a good deal in it!” +</p> + +<p> +“I doubt if I see as much as you. Do you pretend,” he went on, +“that you don’t see—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, what?”—she pressed him as he paused. +</p> + +<p> +“Why that there must be a lot between them—and that it has been +going on from the first; even from before I came.” +</p> + +<p> +She took a minute to answer. “Who are they then—if it’s so +grave?” +</p> + +<p> +“It mayn’t be grave—it may be gay. But at any rate it’s +marked. Only I don’t know,” Strether had to confess, +“anything about them. Their name for instance was a thing that, after +little Bilham’s information, I found it a kind of refreshment not to feel +obliged to follow up.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she returned, “if you think you’ve got +off—!” +</p> + +<p> +Her laugh produced in him a momentary gloom. “I don’t think +I’ve got off. I only think I’m breathing for about five minutes. I +dare say I <i>shall</i> have, at the best, still to get on.” A look, over +it all, passed between them, and the next minute he had come back to good +humour. “I don’t meanwhile take the smallest interest in their +name.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nor in their nationality?—American, French, English, +Polish?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t care the least little ‘hang,’” he +smiled, “for their nationality. It would be nice if they’re +Polish!” he almost immediately added. +</p> + +<p> +“Very nice indeed.” The transition kept up her spirits. “So +you see you do care.” +</p> + +<p> +He did this contention a modified justice. “I think I should if they +<i>were</i> Polish. Yes,” he thought—“there might be joy in +<i>that</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Let us then hope for it.” But she came after this nearer to the +question. “If the girl’s of the right age of course the mother +can’t be. I mean for the virtuous attachment. If the girl’s +twenty—and she can’t be less—the mother must be at least +forty. So it puts the mother out. <i>She’s</i> too old for him.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, arrested again, considered and demurred. “Do you think so? Do +you think any one would be too old for him? <i>I’m</i> eighty, and +I’m too young. But perhaps the girl,” he continued, +“<i>isn’t</i> twenty. Perhaps she’s only ten—but such a +little dear that Chad finds himself counting her in as an attraction of the +acquaintance. Perhaps she’s only five. Perhaps the mother’s but +five-and-twenty—a charming young widow.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey entertained the suggestion. “She <i>is</i> a widow +then?” +</p> + +<p> +“I haven’t the least idea!” They once more, in spite of this +vagueness, exchanged a look—a look that was perhaps the longest yet. It +seemed in fact, the next thing, to require to explain itself; which it did as +it could. “I only feel what I’ve told you—that he has some +reason.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey’s imagination had taken its own flight. “Perhaps +she’s <i>not</i> a widow.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed to accept the possibility with reserve. Still he accepted it. +“Then that’s why the attachment—if it’s to her—is +virtuous.” +</p> + +<p> +But she looked as if she scarce followed. “Why is it virtuous +if—since she’s free—there’s nothing to impose on it any +condition?” +</p> + +<p> +He laughed at her question. “Oh I perhaps don’t mean as virtuous as +<i>that!</i> Your idea is that it can be virtuous—in any sense worthy of +the name—only if she’s <i>not</i> free? But what does it become +then,” he asked, “for <i>her?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that’s another matter.” He said nothing for a moment, and +she soon went on. “I dare say you’re right, at any rate, about Mr. +Newsome’s little plan. He <i>has</i> been trying you—has been +reporting on you to these friends.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether meanwhile had had time to think more. “Then where’s his +straightness?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, as we say, it’s struggling up, breaking out, asserting +itself as it can. We can be on the side, you see, of his straightness. We can +help him. But he has made out,” said Miss Gostrey, “that +you’ll do.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do for what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why, for <i>them</i>—for <i>ces dames</i>. He has watched you, +studied you, liked you—and recognised that <i>they</i> must. It’s a +great compliment to you, my dear man; for I’m sure they’re +particular. You came out for a success. Well,” she gaily declared, +“you’re having it!” +</p> + +<p> +He took it from her with momentary patience and then turned abruptly away. It +was always convenient to him that there were so many fine things in her room to +look at. But the examination of two or three of them appeared soon to have +determined a speech that had little to do with them. “You don’t +believe in it!” +</p> + +<p> +“In what?” +</p> + +<p> +“In the character of the attachment. In its innocence.” +</p> + +<p> +But she defended herself. “I don’t pretend to know anything about +it. Everything’s possible. We must see.” +</p> + +<p> +“See?” he echoed with a groan. “Haven’t we seen +enough?” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>I</i> haven’t,” she smiled. +</p> + +<p> +“But do you suppose then little Bilham has lied?” +</p> + +<p> +“You must find out.” +</p> + +<p> +It made him almost turn pale. “Find out any <i>more?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +He had dropped on a sofa for dismay; but she seemed, as she stood over him, to +have the last word. “Wasn’t what you came out for to find out +<i>all?</i>” +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap05"></a>Book Fifth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +The Sunday of the next week was a wonderful day, and Chad Newsome had let his +friend know in advance that he had provided for it. There had already been a +question of his taking him to see the great Gloriani, who was at home on Sunday +afternoons and at whose house, for the most part, fewer bores were to be met +than elsewhere; but the project, through some accident, had not had instant +effect, and now revived in happier conditions. Chad had made the point that the +celebrated sculptor had a queer old garden, for which the weather—spring +at last frank and fair—was propitious; and two or three of his other +allusions had confirmed for Strether the expectation of something special. He +had by this time, for all introductions and adventures, let himself recklessly +go, cherishing the sense that whatever the young man showed him he was showing +at least himself. He could have wished indeed, so far as this went, that Chad +were less of a mere cicerone; for he was not without the impression—now +that the vision of his game, his plan, his deep diplomacy, did recurrently +assert itself—of his taking refuge from the realities of their +intercourse in profusely dispensing, as our friend mentally phrased it, +<i>panem et circenses</i>. Our friend continued to feel rather smothered in +flowers, though he made in his other moments the almost angry inference that +this was only because of his odious ascetic suspicion of any form of beauty. He +periodically assured himself—for his reactions were sharp—that he +shouldn’t reach the truth of anything till he had at least got rid of +that. +</p> + +<p> +He had known beforehand that Madame de Vionnet and her daughter would probably +be on view, an intimation to that effect having constituted the only reference +again made by Chad to his good friends from the south. The effect of +Strether’s talk about them with Miss Gostrey had been quite to consecrate +his reluctance to pry; something in the very air of Chad’s +silence—judged in the light of that talk—offered it to him as a +reserve he could markedly match. It shrouded them about with he scarce knew +what, a consideration, a distinction; he was in presence at any rate—so +far as it placed him there—of ladies; and the one thing that was definite +for him was that they themselves should be, to the extent of his +responsibility, in presence of a gentleman. Was it because they were very +beautiful, very clever, or even very good—was it for one of these reasons +that Chad was, so to speak, nursing his effect? Did he wish to spring them, in +the Woollett phrase, with a fuller force—to confound his critic, slight +though as yet the criticism, with some form of merit exquisitely incalculable? +The most the critic had at all events asked was whether the persons in question +were French; and that enquiry had been but a proper comment on the sound of +their name. “Yes. That is no!” had been Chad’s reply; but he +had immediately added that their English was the most charming in the world, so +that if Strether were wanting an excuse for not getting on with them he +wouldn’t in the least find one. Never in fact had Strether—in the +mood into which the place had quickly launched him—felt, for himself, +less the need of an excuse. Those he might have found would have been, at the +worst, all for the others, the people before him, in whose liberty to be as +they were he was aware that he positively rejoiced. His fellow guests were +multiplying, and these things, their liberty, their intensity, their variety, +their conditions at large, were in fusion in the admirable medium of the scene. +</p> + +<p> +The place itself was a great impression—a small pavilion, clear-faced and +sequestered, an effect of polished parquet, of fine white panel and spare +sallow gilt, of decoration delicate and rare, in the heart of the Faubourg +Saint-Germain and on the edge of a cluster of gardens attached to old noble +houses. Far back from streets and unsuspected by crowds, reached by a long +passage and a quiet court, it was as striking to the unprepared mind, he +immediately saw, as a treasure dug up; giving him too, more than anything yet, +the note of the range of the immeasurable town and sweeping away, as by a last +brave brush, his usual landmarks and terms. It was in the garden, a spacious +cherished remnant, out of which a dozen persons had already passed, that +Chad’s host presently met them while the tall bird-haunted trees, all of +a twitter with the spring and the weather, and the high party-walls, on the +other side of which grave <i>hôtels</i> stood off for privacy, spoke of +survival, transmission, association, a strong indifferent persistent order. The +day was so soft that the little party had practically adjourned to the open air +but the open air was in such conditions all a chamber of state. Strether had +presently the sense of a great convent, a convent of missions, famous for he +scarce knew what, a nursery of young priests, of scattered shade, of straight +alleys and chapel-bells, that spread its mass in one quarter; he had the sense +of names in the air, of ghosts at the windows, of signs and tokens, a whole +range of expression, all about him, too thick for prompt discrimination. +</p> + +<p> +This assault of images became for a moment, in the address of the distinguished +sculptor, almost formidable: Gloriani showed him, in such perfect confidence, +on Chad’s introduction of him, a fine worn handsome face, a face that was +like an open letter in a foreign tongue. With his genius in his eyes, his +manners on his lips, his long career behind him and his honours and rewards all +round, the great artist, in the course of a single sustained look and a few +words of delight at receiving him, affected our friend as a dazzling prodigy of +type. Strether had seen in museums—in the Luxembourg as well as, more +reverently, later on, in the New York of the billionaires—the work of his +hand; knowing too that after an earlier time in his native Rome he had +migrated, in mid-career, to Paris, where, with a personal lustre almost +violent, he shone in a constellation: all of which was more than enough to +crown him, for his guest, with the light, with the romance, of glory. Strether, +in contact with that element as he had never yet so intimately been, had the +consciousness of opening to it, for the happy instant, all the windows of his +mind, of letting this rather grey interior drink in for once the sun of a clime +not marked in his old geography. He was to remember again repeatedly the +medal-like Italian face, in which every line was an artist’s own, in +which time told only as tone and consecration; and he was to recall in +especial, as the penetrating radiance, as the communication of the illustrious +spirit itself, the manner in which, while they stood briefly, in welcome and +response, face to face, he was held by the sculptor’s eyes. He +wasn’t soon to forget them, was to think of them, all unconscious, +unintending, preoccupied though they were, as the source of the deepest +intellectual sounding to which he had ever been exposed. He was in fact quite +to cherish his vision of it, to play with it in idle hours; only speaking of it +to no one and quite aware he couldn’t have spoken without appearing to +talk nonsense. Was what it had told him or what it had asked him the greater of +the mysteries? Was it the most special flare, unequalled, supreme, of the +æsthetic torch, lighting that wondrous world for ever, or was it above all the +long straight shaft sunk by a personal acuteness that life had seasoned to +steel? Nothing on earth could have been stranger and no one doubtless more +surprised than the artist himself, but it was for all the world to Strether +just then as if in the matter of his accepted duty he had positively been on +trial. The deep human expertness in Gloriani’s charming smile—oh +the terrible life behind it!—was flashed upon him as a test of his stuff. +</p> + +<p> +Chad meanwhile, after having easily named his companion, had still more easily +turned away and was already greeting other persons present. He was as easy, +clever Chad, with the great artist as with his obscure compatriot, and as easy +with every one else as with either: this fell into its place for Strether and +made almost a new light, giving him, as a concatenation, something more he +could enjoy. He liked Gloriani, but should never see him again; of that he was +sufficiently sure. Chad accordingly, who was wonderful with both of them, was a +kind of link for hopeless fancy, an implication of possibilities—oh if +everything had been different! Strether noted at all events that he was thus on +terms with illustrious spirits, and also that—yes, distinctly—he +hadn’t in the least swaggered about it. Our friend hadn’t come +there only for this figure of Abel Newsome’s son, but that presence +threatened to affect the observant mind as positively central. Gloriani indeed, +remembering something and excusing himself, pursued Chad to speak to him, and +Strether was left musing on many things. One of them was the question of +whether, since he had been tested, he had passed. Did the artist drop him from +having made out that he wouldn’t do? He really felt just to-day that he +might do better than usual. Hadn’t he done well enough, so far as that +went, in being exactly so dazzled? and in not having too, as he almost +believed, wholly hidden from his host that he felt the latter’s plummet? +Suddenly, across the garden, he saw little Bilham approach, and it was a part +of the fit that was on him that as their eyes met he guessed also <i>his</i> +knowledge. If he had said to him on the instant what was uppermost he would +have said: “<i>Have</i> I passed?—for of course I know one has to +pass here.” Little Bilham would have reassured him, have told him that he +exaggerated, and have adduced happily enough the argument of little +Bilham’s own very presence; which, in truth, he could see, was as easy a +one as Gloriani’s own or as Chad’s. He himself would perhaps then +after a while cease to be frightened, would get the point of view for some of +the faces—types tremendously alien, alien to Woollett—that he had +already begun to take in. Who were they all, the dispersed groups and couples, +the ladies even more unlike those of Woollett than the gentlemen?—this +was the enquiry that, when his young friend had greeted him, he did find +himself making. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh they’re every one—all sorts and sizes; of course I mean +within limits, though limits down perhaps rather more than limits up. There are +always artists—he’s beautiful and inimitable to the <i>cher +confrère</i>; and then <i>gros bonnets</i> of many kinds—ambassadors, +cabinet ministers, bankers, generals, what do I know? even Jews. Above all +always some awfully nice women—and not too many; sometimes an actress, an +artist, a great performer—but only when they’re not monsters; and +in particular the right <i>femmes du monde</i>. You can fancy his history on +that side—I believe it’s fabulous: they <i>never</i> give him up. +Yet he keeps them down: no one knows how he manages; it’s too beautiful +and bland. Never too many—and a mighty good thing too; just a perfect +choice. But there are not in any way many bores; it has always been so; he has +some secret. It’s extraordinary. And you don’t find it out. +He’s the same to every one. He doesn’t ask questions.’ +</p> + +<p> +“Ah doesn’t he?” Strether laughed. +</p> + +<p> +Bilham met it with all his candour. “How then should <i>I</i> be here? +</p> + +<p> +“Oh for what you tell me. You’re part of the perfect choice.” +</p> + +<p> +Well, the young man took in the scene. “It seems rather good +to-day.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether followed the direction of his eyes. “Are they all, this time, +<i>femmes du monde?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham showed his competence. “Pretty well.” +</p> + +<p> +This was a category our friend had a feeling for; a light, romantic and +mysterious, on the feminine element, in which he enjoyed for a little watching +it. “Are there any Poles?” +</p> + +<p> +His companion considered. “I think I make out a ‘Portuguee.’ +But I’ve seen Turks.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered, desiring justice. “They seem—all the +women—very harmonious.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh in closer quarters they come out!” And then, while Strether was +aware of fearing closer quarters, though giving himself again to the harmonies, +“Well,” little Bilham went on, “it <i>is</i> at the worst +rather good, you know. If you like it, you feel it, this way, that shows +you’re not in the least out. But you always know things,” he +handsomely added, “immediately.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether liked it and felt it only too much; so “I say, don’t lay +traps for me!” he rather helplessly murmured. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” his companion returned, “he’s wonderfully kind +to <i>us</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“To us Americans you mean?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no—he doesn’t know anything about <i>that</i>. +That’s half the battle here—that you can never hear politics. We +don’t talk them. I mean to poor young wretches of all sorts. And yet +it’s always as charming as this; it’s as if, by something in the +air, our squalor didn’t show. It puts us all back—into the last +century.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m afraid,” Strether said, amused, “that it puts me +rather forward: oh ever so far!” +</p> + +<p> +“Into the next? But isn’t that only,” little Bilham asked, +“because you’re really of the century before?” +</p> + +<p> +“The century before the last? Thank you!” Strether laughed. +“If I ask you about some of the ladies it can’t be then that I may +hope, as such a specimen of the rococo, to please them.” +</p> + +<p> +“On the contrary they adore—we all adore here—the rococo, and +where is there a better setting for it than the whole thing, the pavilion and +the garden, together? There are lots of people with collections,” little +Bilham smiled as he glanced round. “You’ll be secured!” +</p> + +<p> +It made Strether for a moment give himself again to contemplation. There were +faces he scarce knew what to make of. Were they charming or were they only +strange? He mightn’t talk politics, yet he suspected a Pole or two. The +upshot was the question at the back of his head from the moment his friend had +joined him. “Have Madame de Vionnet and her daughter arrived?” +</p> + +<p> +“I haven’t seen them yet, but Miss Gostrey has come. She’s in +the pavilion looking at objects. One can see <i>she’s</i> a +collector,” little Bilham added without offence. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes, she’s a collector, and I knew she was to come. Is Madame +de Vionnet a collector?” Strether went on. +</p> + +<p> +“Rather, I believe; almost celebrated.” The young man met, on it, a +little, his friend’s eyes. “I happen to know—from Chad, whom +I saw last night—that they’ve come back; but only yesterday. He +wasn’t sure—up to the last. This, accordingly,” little Bilham +went on, “will be—if they <i>are</i> here—their first +appearance after their return.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, very quickly, turned these things over. “Chad told you last +night? To me, on our way here, he said nothing about it.” +</p> + +<p> +“But did you ask him?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether did him the justice. “I dare say not.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said little Bilham, “you’re not a person to +whom it’s easy to tell things you don’t want to know. Though it +<i>is</i> easy, I admit—it’s quite beautiful,” he +benevolently added, “when you do want to.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether looked at him with an indulgence that matched his intelligence. +“Is that the deep reasoning on which—about these +ladies—you’ve been yourself so silent?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham considered the depth of his reasoning. “I haven’t +been silent. I spoke of them to you the other day, the day we sat together +after Chad’s tea-party.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether came round to it. “They then are the virtuous attachment?” +</p> + +<p> +“I can only tell you that it’s what they pass for. But isn’t +that enough? What more than a vain appearance does the wisest of us know? I +commend you,” the young man declared with a pleasant emphasis, “the +vain appearance.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether looked more widely round, and what he saw, from face to face, deepened +the effect of his young friend’s words. “Is it so good?” +</p> + +<p> +“Magnificent.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had a pause. “The husband’s dead?” +</p> + +<p> +“Dear no. Alive.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” said Strether. After which, as his companion laughed: +“How then can it be so good?” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll see for yourself. One does see.” +</p> + +<p> +“Chad’s in love with the daughter?” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s what I mean.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “Then where’s the difficulty?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why, aren’t you and I—with our grander bolder ideas?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh mine—!” Strether said rather strangely. But then as if to +attenuate: “You mean they won’t hear of Woollett?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham smiled. “Isn’t that just what you must see +about?” +</p> + +<p> +It had brought them, as she caught the last words, into relation with Miss +Barrace, whom Strether had already observed—as he had never before seen a +lady at a party—moving about alone. Coming within sound of them she had +already spoken, and she took again, through her long-handled glass, all her +amused and amusing possession. “How much, poor Mr. Strether, you seem to +have to see about! But you can’t say,” she gaily declared, +“that I don’t do what I can to help you. Mr. Waymarsh is placed. +I’ve left him in the house with Miss Gostrey.” +</p> + +<p> +“The way,” little Bilham exclaimed, “Mr. Strether gets the +ladies to work for him! He’s just preparing to draw in another; to +pounce—don’t you see him?—on Madame de Vionnet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Madame de Vionnet? Oh, oh, oh!” Miss Barrace cried in a wonderful +crescendo. There was more in it, our friend made out, than met the ear. Was it +after all a joke that he should be serious about anything? He envied Miss +Barrace at any rate her power of not being. She seemed, with little cries and +protests and quick recognitions, movements like the darts of some fine +high-feathered free-pecking bird, to stand before life as before some full +shop-window. You could fairly hear, as she selected and pointed, the tap of her +tortoise-shell against the glass. “It’s certain that we do need +seeing about; only I’m glad it’s not I who have to do it. One does, +no doubt, begin that way; then suddenly one finds that one has given it up. +It’s too much, it’s too difficult. You’re wonderful, you +people,” she continued to Strether, “for not feeling those +things—by which I mean impossibilities. You never feel them. You face +them with a fortitude that makes it a lesson to watch you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but”—little Bilham put it with +discouragement—“what do we achieve after all? We see about you and +report—when we even go so far as reporting. But nothing’s +done.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you, Mr. Bilham,” she replied as with an impatient rap on the +glass, “you’re not worth sixpence! You come over to convert the +savages—for I know you verily did, I remember you—and the savages +simply convert <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Not even!” the young man woefully confessed: “they +haven’t gone through that form. They’ve simply—the +cannibals!—eaten me; converted me if you like, but converted me into +food. I’m but the bleached bones of a Christian.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then there we are! Only”—and Miss Barrace appealed +again to Strether—“don’t let it discourage you. You’ll +break down soon enough, but you’ll meanwhile have had your moments. <i>Il +faut en avoir</i>. I always like to see you while you last. And I’ll tell +you who <i>will</i> last.” +</p> + +<p> +“Waymarsh?”—he had already taken her up. +</p> + +<p> +She laughed out as at the alarm of it. “He’ll resist even Miss +Gostrey: so grand is it not to understand. He’s wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +“He is indeed,” Strether conceded. “He wouldn’t tell me +of this affair—only said he had an engagement; but with such a gloom, you +must let me insist, as if it had been an engagement to be hanged. Then silently +and secretly he turns up here with you. Do you call <i>that</i> +‘lasting’?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I hope it’s lasting!” Miss Barrace said. “But he +only, at the best, bears with me. He doesn’t understand—not one +little scrap. He’s delightful. He’s wonderful,” she repeated. +</p> + +<p> +“Michelangelesque!”—little Bilham completed her meaning. +“He <i>is</i> a success. Moses, on the ceiling, brought down to the +floor; overwhelming, colossal, but somehow portable.” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly, if you mean by portable,” she returned, “looking +so well in one’s carriage. He’s too funny beside me in his corner; +he looks like somebody, somebody foreign and famous, <i>en exil</i>; so that +people wonder—it’s very amusing—whom I’m taking about. +I show him Paris, show him everything, and he never turns a hair. He’s +like the Indian chief one reads about, who, when he comes up to Washington to +see the Great Father, stands wrapt in his blanket and gives no sign. <i>I</i> +might be the Great Father—from the way he takes everything.” She +was delighted at this hit of her identity with that personage—it fitted +so her character; she declared it was the title she meant henceforth to adopt. +“And the way he sits, too, in the corner of my room, only looking at my +visitors very hard and as if he wanted to start something! They wonder what he +does want to start. But he’s wonderful,” Miss Barrace once more +insisted. “He has never started anything yet.” +</p> + +<p> +It presented him none the less, in truth, to her actual friends, who looked at +each other in intelligence, with frank amusement on Bilham’s part and a +shade of sadness on Strether’s. Strether’s sadness sprang—for +the image had its grandeur—from his thinking how little he himself was +wrapt in his blanket, how little, in marble halls, all too oblivious of the +Great Father, he resembled a really majestic aboriginal. But he had also +another reflexion. “You’ve all of you here so much visual sense +that you’ve somehow all ‘run’ to it. There are moments when +it strikes one that you haven’t any other.” +</p> + +<p> +“Any moral,” little Bilham explained, watching serenely, across the +garden, the several <i>femmes du monde</i>. “But Miss Barrace has a moral +distinction,” he kindly continued; speaking as if for Strether’s +benefit not less than for her own. +</p> + +<p> +“<i>Have</i> you?” Strether, scarce knowing what he was about, +asked of her almost eagerly. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh not a distinction”—she was mightily amused at his +tone—“Mr. Bilham’s too good. But I think I may say a +sufficiency. Yes, a sufficiency. Have you supposed strange things of +me?”—and she fixed him again, through all her tortoise-shell, with +the droll interest of it. “You <i>are</i> all indeed wonderful. I should +awfully disappoint you. I do take my stand on my sufficiency. But I know, I +confess,” she went on, “strange people. I don’t know how it +happens; I don’t do it on purpose; it seems to be my doom—as if I +were always one of their habits: it’s wonderful! I dare say +moreover,” she pursued with an interested gravity, “that I do, that +we all do here, run too much to mere eye. But how can it be helped? We’re +all looking at each other—and in the light of Paris one sees what things +resemble. That’s what the light of Paris seems always to show. It’s +the fault of the light of Paris—dear old light!” +</p> + +<p> +“Dear old Paris!” little Bilham echoed. +</p> + +<p> +“Everything, every one shows,” Miss Barrace went on. +</p> + +<p> +“But for what they really are?” Strether asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I like your Boston ‘reallys’! But +sometimes—yes.” +</p> + +<p> +“Dear old Paris then!” Strether resignedly sighed while for a +moment they looked at each other. Then he broke out: “Does Madame de +Vionnet do that? I mean really show for what she is?” +</p> + +<p> +Her answer was prompt. “She’s charming. She’s perfect.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why did you a minute ago say ‘Oh, oh, oh!’ at her +name?” +</p> + +<p> +She easily remembered. “Why just because—! She’s +wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah she too?”—Strether had almost a groan. +</p> + +<p> +But Miss Barrace had meanwhile perceived relief. “Why not put your +question straight to the person who can answer it best?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” said little Bilham; “don’t put any question; +wait, rather—it will be much more fun—to judge for yourself. He has +come to take you to her.” +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +On which Strether saw that Chad was again at hand, and he afterwards scarce +knew, absurd as it may seem, what had then quickly occurred. The moment +concerned him, he felt, more deeply than he could have explained, and he had a +subsequent passage of speculation as to whether, on walking off with Chad, he +hadn’t looked either pale or red. The only thing he was clear about was +that, luckily, nothing indiscreet had in fact been said and that Chad himself +was more than ever, in Miss Barrace’s great sense, wonderful. It was one +of the connexions—though really why it should be, after all, was none so +apparent—in which the whole change in him came out as most striking. +Strether recalled as they approached the house that he had impressed him that +first night as knowing how to enter a box. Well, he impressed him scarce less +now as knowing how to make a presentation. It did something for +Strether’s own quality—marked it as estimated; so that our poor +friend, conscious and passive, really seemed to feel himself quite handed over +and delivered; absolutely, as he would have said, made a present of, given +away. As they reached the house a young woman, about to come forth, appeared, +unaccompanied, on the steps; at the exchange with whom of a word on +Chad’s part Strether immediately perceived that, obligingly, kindly, she +was there to meet them. Chad had left her in the house, but she had afterwards +come halfway and then the next moment had joined them in the garden. Her air of +youth, for Strether, was at first almost disconcerting, while his second +impression was, not less sharply, a degree of relief at there not having just +been, with the others, any freedom used about her. It was upon him at a touch +that she was no subject for that, and meanwhile, on Chad’s introducing +him, she had spoken to him, very simply and gently, in an English clearly of +the easiest to her, yet unlike any other he had ever heard. It wasn’t as +if she tried; nothing, he could see after they had been a few minutes together, +was as if she tried; but her speech, charming correct and odd, was like a +precaution against her passing for a Pole. There were precautions, he seemed +indeed to see, only when there were really dangers. +</p> + +<p> +Later on he was to feel many more of them, but by that time he was to feel +other things besides. She was dressed in black, but in black that struck him as +light and transparent; she was exceedingly fair, and, though she was as +markedly slim, her face had a roundness, with eyes far apart and a little +strange. Her smile was natural and dim; her hat not extravagant; he had only +perhaps a sense of the clink, beneath her fine black sleeves, of more gold +bracelets and bangles than he had ever seen a lady wear. Chad was excellently +free and light about their encounter; it was one of the occasions on which +Strether most wished he himself might have arrived at such ease and such +humour: “Here you are then, face to face at last; you’re made for +each other—<i>vous allez voir</i>; and I bless your union.” It was +indeed, after he had gone off, as if he had been partly serious too. This +latter motion had been determined by an enquiry from him about +“Jeanne”; to which her mother had replied that she was probably +still in the house with Miss Gostrey, to whom she had lately committed her. +“Ah but you know,” the young man had rejoined, “he must see +her”; with which, while Strether pricked up his ears, he had started as +if to bring her, leaving the other objects of his interest together. Strether +wondered to find Miss Gostrey already involved, feeling that he missed a link; +but feeling also, with small delay, how much he should like to talk with her of +Madame de Vionnet on this basis of evidence. +</p> + +<p> +The evidence as yet in truth was meagre; which, for that matter, was perhaps a +little why his expectation had had a drop. There was somehow not quite a wealth +in her; and a wealth was all that, in his simplicity, he had definitely +prefigured. Still, it was too much to be sure already that there was but a +poverty. They moved away from the house, and, with eyes on a bench at some +distance, he proposed that they should sit down. “I’ve heard a +great deal about you,” she said as they went; but he had an answer to it +that made her stop short. “Well, about <i>you</i>, Madame de Vionnet, +I’ve heard, I’m bound to say, almost nothing”—those +struck him as the only words he himself could utter with any lucidity; +conscious as he was, and as with more reason, of the determination to be in +respect to the rest of his business perfectly plain and go perfectly straight. +It hadn’t at any rate been in the least his idea to spy on Chad’s +proper freedom. It was possibly, however, at this very instant and under the +impression of Madame de Vionnet’s pause, that going straight began to +announce itself as a matter for care. She had only after all to smile at him +ever so gently in order to make him ask himself if he weren’t already +going crooked. It might be going crooked to find it of a sudden just only clear +that she intended very definitely to be what he would have called nice to him. +This was what passed between them while, for another instant, they stood still; +he couldn’t at least remember afterwards what else it might have been. +The thing indeed really unmistakeable was its rolling over him as a wave that +he had been, in conditions incalculable and unimaginable, a subject of +discussion. He had been, on some ground that concerned her, answered for; which +gave her an advantage he should never be able to match. +</p> + +<p> +“Hasn’t Miss Gostrey,” she asked, “said a good word for +me?” +</p> + +<p> +What had struck him first was the way he was bracketed with that lady; and he +wondered what account Chad would have given of their acquaintance. Something +not as yet traceable, at all events, had obviously happened. “I +didn’t even know of her knowing you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, now she’ll tell you all. I’m so glad you’re in +relation with her.” +</p> + +<p> +This was one of the things—the “all” Miss Gostrey would now +tell him—that, with every deference to present preoccupation, was +uppermost for Strether after they had taken their seat. One of the others was, +at the end of five minutes, that she—oh incontestably, +yes—<i>differed</i> less; differed, that is, scarcely at all—well, +superficially speaking, from Mrs. Newsome or even from Mrs. Pocock. She was +ever so much younger than the one and not so young as the other; but what +<i>was</i> there in her, if anything, that would have made it impossible he +should meet her at Woollett? And wherein was her talk during their moments on +the bench together not the same as would have been found adequate for a +Woollett garden-party?—unless perhaps truly in not being quite so bright. +She observed to him that Mr. Newsome had, to her knowledge, taken extraordinary +pleasure in his visit; but there was no good lady at Woollett who +wouldn’t have been at least up to that. Was there in Chad, by chance, +after all, deep down, a principle of aboriginal loyalty that had made him, for +sentimental ends, attach himself to elements, happily encountered, that would +remind him most of the old air and the old soil? Why accordingly be in a +flutter—Strether could even put it that way—about this unfamiliar +phenomenon of the <i>femme du monde?</i> On these terms Mrs. Newsome herself +was as much of one. Little Bilham verily had testified that they came out, the +ladies of the type, in close quarters; but it was just in these +quarters—now comparatively close—that he felt Madame de +Vionnet’s common humanity. She did come out, and certainly to his relief, +but she came out as the usual thing. There might be motives behind, but so +could there often be even at Woollett. The only thing was that if she showed +him she wished to like him—as the motives behind might conceivably +prompt—it would possibly have been more thrilling for him that she should +have shown as more vividly alien. Ah she was neither Turk nor Pole!—which +would be indeed flat once more for Mrs. Newsome and Mrs. Pocock. A lady and two +gentlemen had meanwhile, however, approached their bench, and this accident +stayed for the time further developments. +</p> + +<p> +They presently addressed his companion, the brilliant strangers; she rose to +speak to them, and Strether noted how the escorted lady, though mature and by +no means beautiful, had more of the bold high look, the range of expensive +reference, that he had, as might have been said, made his plans for. Madame de +Vionnet greeted her as “Duchesse” and was greeted in turn, while +talk started in French, as “Ma toute-belle”; little facts that had +their due, their vivid interest for Strether. Madame de Vionnet didn’t, +none the less, introduce him—a note he was conscious of as false to the +Woollett scale and the Woollett humanity; though it didn’t prevent the +Duchess, who struck him as confident and free, very much what he had obscurely +supposed duchesses, from looking at him as straight and as hard—for it +<i>was</i> hard—as if she would have liked, all the same, to know him. +“Oh yes, my dear, it’s all right, it’s <i>me</i>; and who are +<i>you</i>, with your interesting wrinkles and your most effective (is it the +handsomest, is it the ugliest?) of noses?”—some such loose handful +of bright flowers she seemed, fragrantly enough, to fling at him. Strether +almost wondered—at such a pace was he going—if some divination of +the influence of either party were what determined Madame de Vionnet’s +abstention. One of the gentlemen, in any case, succeeded in placing himself in +close relation with our friend’s companion; a gentleman rather stout and +importantly short, in a hat with a wonderful wide curl to its brim and a frock +coat buttoned with an effect of superlative decision. His French had quickly +turned to equal English, and it occurred to Strether that he might well be one +of the ambassadors. His design was evidently to assert a claim to Madame de +Vionnet’s undivided countenance, and he made it good in the course of a +minute—led her away with a trick of three words; a trick played with a +social art of which Strether, looking after them as the four, whose backs were +now all turned, moved off, felt himself no master. +</p> + +<p> +He sank again upon his bench and, while his eyes followed the party, reflected, +as he had done before, on Chad’s strange communities. He sat there alone +for five minutes, with plenty to think of; above all with his sense of having +suddenly been dropped by a charming woman overlaid now by other impressions and +in fact quite cleared and indifferent. He hadn’t yet had so quiet a +surrender; he didn’t in the least care if nobody spoke to him more. He +might have been, by his attitude, in for something of a march so broad that the +want of ceremony with which he had just been used could fall into its place as +but a minor incident of the procession. Besides, there would be incidents +enough, as he felt when this term of contemplation was closed by the +reappearance of little Bilham, who stood before him a moment with a suggestive +“Well?” in which he saw himself reflected as disorganised, as +possibly floored. He replied with a “Well!” intended to show that +he wasn’t floored in the least. No indeed; he gave it out, as the young +man sat down beside him, that if, at the worst, he had been overturned at all, +he had been overturned into the upper air, the sublimer element with which he +had an affinity and in which he might be trusted a while to float. It +wasn’t a descent to earth to say after an instant and in sustained +response to the reference: “You’re quite sure her husband’s +living?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh dear, yes.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then what?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had after all to think. “Well, I’m sorry for them.” +But it didn’t for the moment matter more than that. He assured his young +friend he was quite content. They wouldn’t stir; were all right as they +were. He didn’t want to be introduced; had been introduced already about +as far as he could go. He had seen moreover an immensity; liked Gloriani, who, +as Miss Barrace kept saying, was wonderful; had made out, he was sure, the +half-dozen other men who were distinguished, the artists, the critics and oh +the great dramatist—<i>him</i> it was easy to spot; but wanted—no, +thanks, really—to talk with none of them; having nothing at all to say +and finding it would do beautifully as it was; do beautifully because what it +was—well, was just simply too late. And when after this little Bilham, +submissive and responsive, but with an eye to the consolation nearest, easily +threw off some “Better late than never!” all he got in return for +it was a sharp “Better early than late!” This note indeed the next +thing overflowed for Strether into a quiet stream of demonstration that as soon +as he had let himself go he felt as the real relief. It had consciously +gathered to a head, but the reservoir had filled sooner than he knew, and his +companion’s touch was to make the waters spread. There were some things +that had to come in time if they were to come at all. If they didn’t come +in time they were lost for ever. It was the general sense of them that had +overwhelmed him with its long slow rush. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s not too late for <i>you</i>, on any side, and you don’t +strike me as in danger of missing the train; besides which people can be in +general pretty well trusted, of course—with the clock of their freedom +ticking as loud as it seems to do here—to keep an eye on the fleeting +hour. All the same don’t forget that you’re young—blessedly +young; be glad of it on the contrary and live up to it. Live all you can; +it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t so much matter what you do in +particular, so long as you have your life. If you haven’t had that what +<i>have</i> you had? This place and these impressions—mild as you may +find them to wind a man up so; all my impressions of Chad and of people +I’ve seen at <i>his</i> place—well, have had their abundant message +for me, have just dropped <i>that</i> into my mind. I see it now. I +haven’t done so enough before—and now I’m old; too old at any +rate for what I see. Oh I <i>do</i> see, at least; and more than you’d +believe or I can express. It’s too late. And it’s as if the train +had fairly waited at the station for me without my having had the gumption to +know it was there. Now I hear its faint receding whistle miles and miles down +the line. What one loses one loses; make no mistake about that. The +affair—I mean the affair of life—couldn’t, no doubt, have +been different for me; for it’s at the best a tin mould, either fluted +and embossed, with ornamental excrescences, or else smooth and dreadfully +plain, into which, a helpless jelly, one’s consciousness is +poured—so that one ‘takes’ the form as the great cook says, +and is more or less compactly held by it: one lives in fine as one can. Still, +one has the illusion of freedom; therefore don’t be, like me, without the +memory of that illusion. I was either, at the right time, too stupid or too +intelligent to have it; I don’t quite know which. Of course at present +I’m a case of reaction against the mistake; and the voice of reaction +should, no doubt, always be taken with an allowance. But that doesn’t +affect the point that the right time is now yours. The right time is <i>any</i> +time that one is still so lucky as to have. You’ve plenty; that’s +the great thing; you’re, as I say, damn you, so happily and hatefully +young. Don’t at any rate miss things out of stupidity. Of course I +don’t take you for a fool, or I shouldn’t be addressing you thus +awfully. Do what you like so long as you don’t make <i>my</i> mistake. +For it was a mistake. Live!” ... Slowly and sociably, with full pauses +and straight dashes, Strether had so delivered himself; holding little Bilham +from step to step deeply and gravely attentive. The end of all was that the +young man had turned quite solemn, and that this was a contradiction of the +innocent gaiety the speaker had wished to promote. He watched for a moment the +consequence of his words, and then, laying a hand on his listener’s knee +and as if to end with the proper joke: “And now for the eye I shall keep +on you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but I don’t know that I want to be, at your age, too different +from you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah prepare while you’re about it,” said Strether, “to +be more amusing.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham continued to think, but at last had a smile. “Well, you +<i>are</i> amusing—to <i>me</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>Impayable</i>, as you say, no doubt. But what am I to myself?” +Strether had risen with this, giving his attention now to an encounter that, in +the middle of the garden, was in the act of taking place between their host and +the lady at whose side Madame de Vionnet had quitted him. This lady, who +appeared within a few minutes to have left her friends, awaited +Gloriani’s eager approach with words on her lips that Strether +couldn’t catch, but of which her interesting witty face seemed to give +him the echo. He was sure she was prompt and fine, but also that she had met +her match, and he liked—in the light of what he was quite sure was the +Duchess’s latent insolence—the good humour with which the great +artist asserted equal resources. Were they, this pair, of the “great +world”?—and was he himself, for the moment and thus related to them +by his observation, <i>in</i> it? Then there was something in the great world +covertly tigerish, which came to him across the lawn and in the charming air as +a waft from the jungle. Yet it made him admire most of the two, made him envy, +the glossy male tiger, magnificently marked. These absurdities of the stirred +sense, fruits of suggestion ripening on the instant, were all reflected in his +next words to little Bilham. “I know—if we talk of that—whom +<i>I</i> should enjoy being like!” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham followed his eyes; but then as with a shade of knowing surprise: +“Gloriani?” +</p> + +<p> +Our friend had in fact already hesitated, though not on the hint of his +companion’s doubt, in which there were depths of critical reserve. He had +just made out, in the now full picture, something and somebody else; another +impression had been superimposed. A young girl in a white dress and a softly +plumed white hat had suddenly come into view, and what was presently clear was +that her course was toward them. What was clearer still was that the handsome +young man at her side was Chad Newsome, and what was clearest of all was that +she was therefore Mademoiselle de Vionnet, that she was unmistakeably +pretty—bright gentle shy happy wonderful—and that Chad now, with a +consummate calculation of effect, was about to present her to his old +friend’s vision. What was clearest of all indeed was something much more +than this, something at the single stroke of which—and wasn’t it +simply juxtaposition?—all vagueness vanished. It was the click of a +spring—he saw the truth. He had by this time also met Chad’s look; +there was more of it in that; and the truth, accordingly, so far as +Bilham’s enquiry was concerned, had thrust in the answer. “Oh +Chad!”—it was that rare youth he should have enjoyed being +“like.” The virtuous attachment would be all there before him; the +virtuous attachment would be in the very act of appeal for his blessing; Jeanne +de Vionnet, this charming creature, would be exquisitely, intensely +now—the object of it. Chad brought her straight up to him, and Chad was, +oh yes, at this moment—for the glory of Woollett or whatever—better +still even than Gloriani. He had plucked this blossom; he had kept it +over-night in water; and at last as he held it up to wonder he did enjoy his +effect. That was why Strether had felt at first the breath of +calculation—and why moreover, as he now knew, his look at the girl would +be, for the young man, a sign of the latter’s success. What young man had +ever paraded about that way, without a reason, a maiden in her flower? And +there was nothing in his reason at present obscure. Her type sufficiently told +of it—they wouldn’t, they couldn’t, want her to go to +Woollett. Poor Woollett, and what it might miss!—though brave Chad indeed +too, and what it might gain! Brave Chad however had just excellently spoken. +“This is a good little friend of mine who knows all about you and has +moreover a message for you. And this, my dear”—he had turned to the +child herself—“is the best man in the world, who has it in his +power to do a great deal for us and whom I want you to like and revere as +nearly as possible as much as I do.” +</p> + +<p> +She stood there quite pink, a little frightened, prettier and prettier and not +a bit like her mother. There was in this last particular no resemblance but +that of youth to youth; and here was in fact suddenly Strether’s sharpest +impression. It went wondering, dazed, embarrassed, back to the woman he had +just been talking with; it was a revelation in the light of which he already +saw she would become more interesting. So slim and fresh and fair, she had yet +put forth this perfection; so that for really believing it of her, for seeing +her to any such developed degree as a mother, comparison would be urgent. Well, +what was it now but fairly thrust upon him? “Mamma wishes me to tell you +before we go,” the girl said, “that she hopes very much +you’ll come to see us very soon. She has something important to say to +you.” +</p> + +<p> +“She quite reproaches herself,” Chad helpfully explained: +“you were interesting her so much when she accidentally suffered you to +be interrupted.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah don’t mention it!” Strether murmured, looking kindly from +one to the other and wondering at many things. +</p> + +<p> +“And I’m to ask you for myself,” Jeanne continued with her +hands clasped together as if in some small learnt prayer—“I’m +to ask you for myself if you won’t positively come.” +</p> + +<p> +“Leave it to me, dear—I’ll take care of it!” Chad +genially declared in answer to this, while Strether himself almost held his +breath. What was in the girl was indeed too soft, too unknown for direct +dealing; so that one could only gaze at it as at a picture, quite staying +one’s own hand. But with Chad he was now on ground—Chad he could +meet; so pleasant a confidence in that and in everything did the young man +freely exhale. There was the whole of a story in his tone to his companion, and +he spoke indeed as if already of the family. It made Strether guess the more +quickly what it might be about which Madame de Vionnet was so urgent. Having +seen him then she had found him easy; she wished to have it out with him that +some way for the young people must be discovered, some way that would not +impose as a condition the transplantation of her daughter. He already saw +himself discussing with this lady the attractions of Woollett as a residence +for Chad’s companion. Was that youth going now to trust her with the +affair—so that it would be after all with one of his +“lady-friends” that his mother’s missionary should be +condemned to deal? It was quite as if for an instant the two men looked at each +other on this question. But there was no mistaking at last Chad’s pride +in the display of such a connexion. This was what had made him so carry himself +while, three minutes before, he was bringing it into view; what had caused his +friend, first catching sight of him, to be so struck with his air. It was, in a +word, just when he thus finally felt Chad putting things straight off on him +that he envied him, as he had mentioned to little Bilham, most. The whole +exhibition however was but a matter of three or four minutes, and the author of +it had soon explained that, as Madame de Vionnet was immediately going +“on,” this could be for Jeanne but a snatch. They would all meet +again soon, and Strether was meanwhile to stay and amuse +himself—“I’ll pick you up again in plenty of time.” He +took the girl off as he had brought her, and Strether, with the faint sweet +foreignness of her “Au revoir, monsieur!” in his ears as a note +almost unprecedented, watched them recede side by side and felt how, once more, +her companion’s relation to her got an accent from it. They disappeared +among the others and apparently into the house; whereupon our friend turned +round to give out to little Bilham the conviction of which he was full. But +there was no little Bilham any more; little Bilham had within the few moments, +for reasons of his own, proceeded further: a circumstance by which, in its +order, Strether was also sensibly affected. +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +Chad was not in fact on this occasion to keep his promise of coming back; but +Miss Gostrey had soon presented herself with an explanation of his failure. +There had been reasons at the last for his going off with <i>ces dames</i>; and +he had asked her with much instance to come out and take charge of their +friend. She did so, Strether felt as she took her place beside him, in a manner +that left nothing to desire. He had dropped back on his bench, alone again for +a time, and the more conscious for little Bilham’s defection of his +unexpressed thought; in respect to which however this next converser was a +still more capacious vessel. “It’s the child!” he had +exclaimed to her almost as soon as she appeared; and though her direct response +was for some time delayed he could feel in her meanwhile the working of this +truth. It might have been simply, as she waited, that they were now in presence +altogether of truth spreading like a flood and not for the moment to be offered +her in the mere cupful; inasmuch as who should <i>ces dames</i> prove to be but +persons about whom—once thus face to face with them—she found she +might from the first have told him almost everything? This would have freely +come had he taken the simple precaution of giving her their name. There could +be no better example—and she appeared to note it with high +amusement—than the way, making things out already so much for himself, he +was at last throwing precautions to the winds. They were neither more nor less, +she and the child’s mother, than old school-friends—friends who had +scarcely met for years but whom this unlooked-for chance had brought together +with a rush. It was a relief, Miss Gostrey hinted, to feel herself no longer +groping; she was unaccustomed to grope and as a general thing, he might well +have seen, made straight enough for her clue. With the one she had now picked +up in her hands there need be at least no waste of wonder. “She’s +coming to see me—that’s for <i>you</i>,” Strether’s +counsellor continued; “but I don’t require it to know where I +am.” +</p> + +<p> +The waste of wonder might be proscribed; but Strether, characteristically, was +even by this time in the immensity of space. “By which you mean that you +know where <i>she</i> is?” +</p> + +<p> +She just hesitated. “I mean that if she comes to see me I shall—now +that I’ve pulled myself round a bit after the shock—not be at +home.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hung poised. “You call it—your recognition—a +shock?” +</p> + +<p> +She gave one of her rare flickers of impatience. “It was a surprise, an +emotion. Don’t be so literal. I wash my hands of her.” +</p> + +<p> +Poor Strether’s face lengthened. “She’s +impossible—?” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s even more charming than I remembered her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then what’s the matter?” +</p> + +<p> +She had to think how to put it. “Well, <i>I’m</i> impossible. +It’s impossible. Everything’s impossible.” +</p> + +<p> +He looked at her an instant. “I see where you’re coming out. +Everything’s possible.” Their eyes had on it in fact an exchange of +some duration; after which he pursued: “Isn’t it that beautiful +child?” Then as she still said nothing: “Why don’t you mean +to receive her?” +</p> + +<p> +Her answer in an instant rang clear. “Because I wish to keep out of the +business.” +</p> + +<p> +It provoked in him a weak wail. “You’re going to abandon me +<i>now?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I’m only going to abandon <i>her</i>. She’ll want me to +help her with you. And I won’t.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ll only help me with her? Well then—!” Most of the +persons previously gathered had, in the interest of tea, passed into the house, +and they had the gardens mainly to themselves. The shadows were long, the last +call of the birds, who had made a home of their own in the noble interspaced +quarter, sounded from the high trees in the other gardens as well, those of the +old convent and of the old <i>hôtels</i>; it was as if our friends had waited +for the full charm to come out. Strether’s impressions were still +present; it was as if something had happened that “nailed” them, +made them more intense; but he was to ask himself soon afterwards, that +evening, what really <i>had</i> happened—conscious as he could after all +remain that for a gentleman taken, and taken the first time, into the +“great world,” the world of ambassadors and duchesses, the items +made a meagre total. It was nothing new to him, however, as we know, that a man +might have—at all events such a man as he—an amount of experience +out of any proportion to his adventures; so that, though it was doubtless no +great adventure to sit on there with Miss Gostrey and hear about Madame de +Vionnet, the hour, the picture, the immediate, the recent, the +possible—as well as the communication itself, not a note of which failed +to reverberate—only gave the moments more of the taste of history. +</p> + +<p> +It was history, to begin with, that Jeanne’s mother had been +three-and-twenty years before, at Geneva, schoolmate and good girlfriend to +Maria Gostrey, who had moreover enjoyed since then, though interruptedly and +above all with a long recent drop, other glimpses of her. Twenty-three years +put them both on, no doubt; and Madame de Vionnet—though she had married +straight after school—couldn’t be today an hour less than +thirty-eight. This made her ten years older than Chad—though ten years, +also, if Strether liked, older than she looked; the least, at any rate, that a +prospective mother-in-law could be expected to do with. She would be of all +mothers-in-law the most charming; unless indeed, through some perversity as yet +insupposeable, she should utterly belie herself in that relation. There was +none surely in which, as Maria remembered her, she mustn’t be charming; +and this frankly in spite of the stigma of failure in the tie where failure +always most showed. It was no test there—when indeed <i>was</i> it a test +there?—for Monsieur de Vionnet had been a brute. She had lived for years +apart from him—which was of course always a horrid position; but Miss +Gostrey’s impression of the matter had been that she could scarce have +made a better thing of it had she done it on purpose to show she was amiable. +She was so amiable that nobody had had a word to say; which was luckily not the +case for her husband. He was so impossible that she had the advantage of all +her merits. +</p> + +<p> +It was still history for Strether that the Comte de Vionnet—it being also +history that the lady in question was a Countess—should now, under Miss +Gostrey’s sharp touch, rise before him as a high distinguished polished +impertinent reprobate, the product of a mysterious order; it was history, +further, that the charming girl so freely sketched by his companion should have +been married out of hand by a mother, another figure of striking outline, full +of dark personal motive; it was perhaps history most of all that this company +was, as a matter of course, governed by such considerations as put divorce out +of the question. “<i>Ces gens-là</i> don’t divorce, you know, any +more than they emigrate or abjure—they think it impious and +vulgar”; a fact in the light of which they seemed but the more richly +special. It was all special; it was all, for Strether’s imagination, more +or less rich. The girl at the Genevese school, an isolated interesting +attaching creature, then both sensitive and violent, audacious but always +forgiven, was the daughter of a French father and an English mother who, early +left a widow, had married again—tried afresh with a foreigner; in her +career with whom she had apparently given her child no example of comfort. All +these people—the people of the English mother’s side—had been +of condition more or less eminent; yet with oddities and disparities that had +often since made Maria, thinking them over, wonder what they really quite +rhymed to. It was in any case her belief that the mother, interested and prone +to adventure, had been without conscience, had only thought of ridding herself +most quickly of a possible, an actual encumbrance. The father, by her +impression, a Frenchman with a name one knew, had been a different matter, +leaving his child, she clearly recalled, a memory all fondness, as well as an +assured little fortune which was unluckily to make her more or less of a prey +later on. She had been in particular, at school, dazzlingly, though quite +booklessly, clever; as polyglot as a little Jewess (which she wasn’t, oh +no!) and chattering French, English, German, Italian, anything one would, in a +way that made a clean sweep, if not of prizes and parchments, at least of every +“part,” whether memorised or improvised, in the curtained costumed +school repertory, and in especial of all mysteries of race and vagueness of +reference, all swagger about “home,” among their variegated mates. +</p> + +<p> +It would doubtless be difficult to-day, as between French and English, to name +her and place her; she would certainly show, on knowledge, Miss Gostrey felt, +as one of those convenient types who don’t keep you +explaining—minds with doors as numerous as the many-tongued cluster of +confessionals at Saint Peter’s. You might confess to her with confidence +in Roumelian, and even Roumelian sins. Therefore—! But Strether’s +narrator covered her implication with a laugh; a laugh by which his betrayal of +a sense of the lurid in the picture was also perhaps sufficiently protected. He +had a moment of wondering, while his friend went on, what sins might be +especially Roumelian. She went on at all events to the mention of her having +met the young thing—again by some Swiss lake—in her first married +state, which had appeared for the few intermediate years not at least violently +disturbed. She had been lovely at that moment, delightful to <i>her</i>, full +of responsive emotion, of amused recognitions and amusing reminders, and then +once more, much later, after a long interval, equally but differently +charming—touching and rather mystifying for the five minutes of an +encounter at a railway-station <i>en province</i>, during which it had come out +that her life was all changed. Miss Gostrey had understood enough to see, +essentially, what had happened, and yet had beautifully dreamed that she was +herself faultless. There were doubtless depths in her, but she was all right; +Strether would see if she wasn’t. She was another person +however—that had been promptly marked—from the small child of +nature at the Geneva school, a little person quite made over (as foreign women +<i>were</i>, compared with American) by marriage. Her situation too had +evidently cleared itself up; there would have been—all that was +possible—a judicial separation. She had settled in Paris, brought up her +daughter, steered her boat. It was no very pleasant boat—especially +there—to be in; but Marie de Vionnet would have headed straight. She +would have friends, certainly—and very good ones. There she was at all +events—and it was very interesting. Her knowing Mr. Chad didn’t in +the least prove she hadn’t friends; what it proved was what good ones +<i>he</i> had. “I saw that,” said Miss Gostrey, “that night +at the Français; it came out for me in three minutes. I saw <i>her</i>—or +somebody like her. And so,” she immediately added, “did you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no—not anybody like her!” Strether laughed. “But +you mean,” he as promptly went on, “that she has had such an +influence on him?” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey was on her feet; it was time for them to go. “She has +brought him up for her daughter.” +</p> + +<p> +Their eyes, as so often, in candid conference, through their settled glasses, +met over it long; after which Strether’s again took in the whole place. +They were quite alone there now. “Mustn’t she rather—in the +time then—have rushed it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah she won’t of course have lost an hour. But that’s just +the good mother—the good French one. You must remember that of +her—that as a mother she’s French, and that for them there’s +a special providence. It precisely however—that she mayn’t have +been able to begin as far back as she’d have liked—makes her +grateful for aid.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took this in as they slowly moved to the house on their way out. +“She counts on me then to put the thing through?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—she counts on you. Oh and first of all of course,” Miss +Gostrey added, “on her—well, convincing you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” her friend returned, “she caught Chad young!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, but there are women who are for all your ‘times of +life.’ They’re the most wonderful sort.” +</p> + +<p> +She had laughed the words out, but they brought her companion, the next thing, +to a stand. “Is what you mean that she’ll try to make a fool of +me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’m wondering what she <i>will</i>—with an +opportunity—make.” +</p> + +<p> +“What do you call,” Strether asked, “an opportunity? My going +to see her?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah you must go to see her”—Miss Gostrey was a trifle +evasive. “You can’t not do that. You’d have gone to see the +other woman. I mean if there had been one—a different sort. It’s +what you came out for.” +</p> + +<p> +It might be; but Strether distinguished. “I didn’t come out to see +<i>this</i> sort.” +</p> + +<p> +She had a wonderful look at him now. “Are you disappointed she +isn’t worse?” +</p> + +<p> +He for a moment entertained the question, then found for it the frankest of +answers. “Yes. If she were worse she’d be better for our purpose. +It would be simpler.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps,” she admitted. “But won’t this be +pleasanter?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah you know,” he promptly replied, “I didn’t come +out—wasn’t that just what you originally reproached me +with?—for the pleasant.” +</p> + +<p> +“Precisely. Therefore I say again what I said at first. You must take +things as they come. Besides,” Miss Gostrey added, “I’m not +afraid for myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“For yourself—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of your seeing her. I trust her. There’s nothing she’ll say +about me. In fact there’s nothing she <i>can</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered—little as he had thought of this. Then he broke out. +“Oh you women!” +</p> + +<p> +There was something in it at which she flushed. “Yes—there we are. +We’re abysses.” At last she smiled. “But I risk her!” +</p> + +<p> +He gave himself a shake. “Well then so do I!” But he added as they +passed into the house that he would see Chad the first thing in the morning. +</p> + +<p> +This was the next day the more easily effected that the young man, as it +happened, even before he was down, turned up at his hotel. Strether took his +coffee, by habit, in the public room; but on his descending for this purpose +Chad instantly proposed an adjournment to what he called greater privacy. He +had himself as yet had nothing—they would sit down somewhere together; +and when after a few steps and a turn into the Boulevard they had, for their +greater privacy, sat down among twenty others, our friend saw in his +companion’s move a fear of the advent of Waymarsh. It was the first time +Chad had to that extent given this personage “away”; and Strether +found himself wondering of what it was symptomatic. He made out in a moment +that the youth was in earnest as he hadn’t yet seen him; which in its +turn threw a ray perhaps a trifle startling on what they had each up to that +time been treating as earnestness. It was sufficiently flattering however that +the real thing—if this <i>was</i> at last the real thing—should +have been determined, as appeared, precisely by an accretion of +Strether’s importance. For this was what it quickly enough came +to—that Chad, rising with the lark, had rushed down to let him know while +his morning consciousness was yet young that he had literally made the +afternoon before a tremendous impression. Madame de Vionnet wouldn’t, +couldn’t rest till she should have some assurance from him that he +<i>would</i> consent again to see her. The announcement was made, across their +marble-topped table, while the foam of the hot milk was in their cups and its +plash still in the air, with the smile of Chad’s easiest urbanity; and +this expression of his face caused our friend’s doubts to gather on the +spot into a challenge of the lips. “See here”—that was all; +he only for the moment said again “See here.” Chad met it with all +his air of straight intelligence, while Strether remembered again that fancy of +the first impression of him, the happy young Pagan, handsome and hard but oddly +indulgent, whose mysterious measure he had under the street-lamp tried mentally +to take. The young Pagan, while a long look passed between them, sufficiently +understood. Strether scarce needed at last to say the rest—“I want +to know where I am.” But he said it, adding before any answer something +more. “Are you engaged to be married—is that your secret?—to +the young lady?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad shook his head with the slow amenity that was one of his ways of conveying +that there was time for everything. “I have no secret—though I may +have secrets! I haven’t at any rate that one. We’re not engaged. +No.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then where’s the hitch?” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean why I haven’t already started with you?” Chad, +beginning his coffee and buttering his roll, was quite ready to explain. +“Nothing would have induced me—nothing will still induce +me—not to try to keep you here as long as you can be made to stay. +It’s too visibly good for you.” Strether had himself plenty to say +about this, but it was amusing also to measure the march of Chad’s tone. +He had never been more a man of the world, and it was always in his company +present to our friend that one was seeing how in successive connexions a man of +the world acquitted himself. Chad kept it up beautifully. “My +idea—<i>voyons!</i>—is simply that you should let Madame de Vionnet +know you, simply that you should consent to know <i>her</i>. I don’t in +the least mind telling you that, clever and charming as she is, she’s +ever so much in my confidence. All I ask of you is to let her talk to you. +You’ve asked me about what you call my hitch, and so far as it goes +she’ll explain it to you. She’s herself my hitch, hang it—if +you must really have it all out. But in a sense,” he hastened in the most +wonderful manner to add, “that you’ll quite make out for yourself. +She’s too good a friend, confound her. Too good, I mean, for me to leave +without—without—” It was his first hesitation. +</p> + +<p> +“Without what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, without my arranging somehow or other the damnable terms of my +sacrifice.” +</p> + +<p> +“It <i>will</i> be a sacrifice then?” +</p> + +<p> +“It will be the greatest loss I ever suffered. I owe her so much.” +</p> + +<p> +It was beautiful, the way Chad said these things, and his plea was now +confessedly—oh quite flagrantly and publicly—interesting. The +moment really took on for Strether an intensity. Chad owed Madame de Vionnet so +much? What <i>did</i> that do then but clear up the whole mystery? He was +indebted for alterations, and she was thereby in a position to have sent in her +bill for expenses incurred in reconstruction. What was this at bottom but what +had been to be arrived at? Strether sat there arriving at it while he munched +toast and stirred his second cup. To do this with the aid of Chad’s +pleasant earnest face was also to do more besides. No, never before had he been +so ready to take him as he was. What was it that had suddenly so cleared up? It +was just everybody’s character; that is everybody’s but—in a +measure—his own. Strether felt <i>his</i> character receive for the +instant a smutch from all the wrong things he had suspected or believed. The +person to whom Chad owed it that he could positively turn out such a comfort to +other persons—such a person was sufficiently raised above any +“breath” by the nature of her work and the young man’s steady +light. All of which was vivid enough to come and go quickly; though indeed in +the midst of it Strether could utter a question. “Have I your word of +honour that if I surrender myself to Madame de Vionnet you’ll surrender +yourself to <i>me?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +Chad laid his hand firmly on his friend’s. “My dear man, you have +it.” +</p> + +<p> +There was finally something in his felicity almost embarrassing and +oppressive—Strether had begun to fidget under it for the open air and the +erect posture. He had signed to the waiter that he wished to pay, and this +transaction took some moments, during which he thoroughly felt, while he put +down money and pretended—it was quite hollow—to estimate change, +that Chad’s higher spirit, his youth, his practice, his paganism, his +felicity, his assurance, his impudence, whatever it might be, had consciously +scored a success. Well, that was all right so far as it went; his sense of the +thing in question covered our friend for a minute like a veil through +which—as if he had been muffled—he heard his interlocutor ask him +if he mightn’t take him over about five. “Over” was over the +river, and over the river was where Madame de Vionnet lived, and five was that +very afternoon. They got at last out of the place—got out before he +answered. He lighted, in the street, a cigarette, which again gave him more +time. But it was already sharp for him that there was no use in time. +“What does she propose to do to me?” he had presently demanded. +</p> + +<p> +Chad had no delays. “Are you afraid of her?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh immensely. Don’t you see it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Chad, “she won’t do anything worse to you +than make you like her.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s just of that I’m afraid.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then it’s not fair to me.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether cast about. “It’s fair to your mother.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said Chad, “are you afraid of <i>her?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Scarcely less. Or perhaps even more. But is this lady against your +interests at home?” Strether went on. +</p> + +<p> +“Not directly, no doubt; but she’s greatly in favour of them +here.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what—‘here’—does she consider them to +be?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, good relations!” +</p> + +<p> +“With herself?” +</p> + +<p> +“With herself.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what is it that makes them so good?” +</p> + +<p> +“What? Well, that’s exactly what you’ll make out if +you’ll only go, as I’m supplicating you, to see her.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether stared at him with a little of the wanness, no doubt, that the vision +of more to “make out” could scarce help producing. “I mean +<i>how</i> good are they?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh awfully good.” +</p> + +<p> +Again Strether had faltered, but it was brief. It was all very well, but there +was nothing now he wouldn’t risk. “Excuse me, but I must +really—as I began by telling you—know where I am. Is she +bad?” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Bad’?”—Chad echoed it, but without a shock. +“Is that what’s implied—?” +</p> + +<p> +“When relations are good?” Strether felt a little silly, and was +even conscious of a foolish laugh, at having it imposed on him to have appeared +to speak so. What indeed was he talking about? His stare had relaxed; he looked +now all round him. But something in him brought him back, though he still +didn’t know quite how to turn it. The two or three ways he thought of, +and one of them in particular, were, even with scruples dismissed, too ugly. He +none the less at last found something. “Is her life without +reproach?” +</p> + +<p> +It struck him, directly he had found it, as pompous and priggish; so much so +that he was thankful to Chad for taking it only in the right spirit. The young +man spoke so immensely to the point that the effect was practically of positive +blandness. “Absolutely without reproach. A beautiful life. <i>Allez donc +voir!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +These last words were, in the liberality of their confidence, so imperative +that Strether went through no form of assent; but before they separated it had +been confirmed that he should be picked up at a quarter to five. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap06"></a>Book Sixth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +It was quite by half-past five—after the two men had been together in +Madame de Vionnet’s drawing-room not more than a dozen minutes—that +Chad, with a look at his watch and then another at their hostess, said +genially, gaily: “I’ve an engagement, and I know you won’t +complain if I leave him with you. He’ll interest you immensely; and as +for her,” he declared to Strether, “I assure you, if you’re +at all nervous, she’s perfectly safe.” +</p> + +<p> +He had left them to be embarrassed or not by this guarantee, as they could best +manage, and embarrassment was a thing that Strether wasn’t at first sure +Madame de Vionnet escaped. He escaped it himself, to his surprise; but he had +grown used by this time to thinking of himself as brazen. She occupied, his +hostess, in the Rue de Bellechasse, the first floor of an old house to which +our visitors had had access from an old clean court. The court was large and +open, full of revelations, for our friend, of the habit of privacy, the peace +of intervals, the dignity of distances and approaches; the house, to his +restless sense, was in the high homely style of an elder day, and the ancient +Paris that he was always looking for—sometimes intensely felt, sometimes +more acutely missed—was in the immemorial polish of the wide waxed +staircase and in the fine <i>boiseries</i>, the medallions, mouldings, mirrors, +great clear spaces, of the greyish-white salon into which he had been shown. He +seemed at the very outset to see her in the midst of possessions not vulgarly +numerous, but hereditary cherished charming. While his eyes turned after a +little from those of his hostess and Chad freely talked—not in the least +about <i>him</i>, but about other people, people he didn’t know, and +quite as if he did know them—he found himself making out, as a background +of the occupant, some glory, some prosperity of the First Empire, some +Napoleonic glamour, some dim lustre of the great legend; elements clinging +still to all the consular chairs and mythological brasses and sphinxes’ +heads and faded surfaces of satin striped with alternate silk. +</p> + +<p> +The place itself went further back—that he guessed, and how old Paris +continued in a manner to echo there; but the post-revolutionary period, the +world he vaguely thought of as the world of Châteaubriand, of Madame de Staël, +even of the young Lamartine, had left its stamp of harps and urns and torches, +a stamp impressed on sundry small objects, ornaments and relics. He had never +before, to his knowledge, had present to him relics, of any special dignity, of +a private order—little old miniatures, medallions, pictures, books; books +in leather bindings, pinkish and greenish, with gilt garlands on the back, +ranged, together with other promiscuous properties, under the glass of +brass-mounted cabinets. His attention took them all tenderly into account. They +were among the matters that marked Madame de Vionnet’s apartment as +something quite different from Miss Gostrey’s little museum of bargains +and from Chad’s lovely home; he recognised it as founded much more on old +accumulations that had possibly from time to time shrunken than on any +contemporary method of acquisition or form of curiosity. Chad and Miss Gostrey +had rummaged and purchased and picked up and exchanged, sifting, selecting, +comparing; whereas the mistress of the scene before him, beautifully passive +under the spell of transmission—transmission from her father’s +line, he quite made up his mind—had only received, accepted and been +quiet. When she hadn’t been quiet she had been moved at the most to some +occult charity for some fallen fortune. There had been objects she or her +predecessors might even conceivably have parted with under need, but Strether +couldn’t suspect them of having sold old pieces to get +“better” ones. They would have felt no difference as to better or +worse. He could but imagine their having felt—perhaps in emigration, in +proscription, for his sketch was slight and confused—the pressure of want +or the obligation of sacrifice. +</p> + +<p> +The pressure of want—whatever might be the case with the other +force—was, however, presumably not active now, for the tokens of a +chastened ease still abounded after all, many marks of a taste whose +discriminations might perhaps have been called eccentric. He guessed at intense +little preferences and sharp little exclusions, a deep suspicion of the vulgar +and a personal view of the right. The general result of this was something for +which he had no name on the spot quite ready, but something he would have come +nearest to naming in speaking of it as the air of supreme respectability, the +consciousness, small, still, reserved, but none the less distinct and diffused, +of private honour. The air of supreme respectability—that was a strange +blank wall for his adventure to have brought him to break his nose against. It +had in fact, as he was now aware, filled all the approaches, hovered in the +court as he passed, hung on the staircase as he mounted, sounded in the grave +rumble of the old bell, as little electric as possible, of which Chad, at the +door, had pulled the ancient but neatly-kept tassel; it formed in short the +clearest medium of its particular kind that he had ever breathed. He would have +answered for it at the end of a quarter of an hour that some of the glass cases +contained swords and epaulettes of ancient colonels and generals; medals and +orders once pinned over hearts that had long since ceased to beat; snuff-boxes +bestowed on ministers and envoys; copies of works presented, with inscriptions, +by authors now classic. At bottom of it all for him was the sense of her rare +unlikeness to the women he had known. This sense had grown, since the day +before, the more he recalled her, and had been above all singularly fed by his +talk with Chad in the morning. Everything in fine made her immeasurably new, +and nothing so new as the old house and the old objects. There were books, two +or three, on a small table near his chair, but they hadn’t the +lemon-coloured covers with which his eye had begun to dally from the hour of +his arrival and to the opportunity of a further acquaintance with which he had +for a fortnight now altogether succumbed. On another table, across the room, he +made out the great <i>Revue</i>; but even that familiar face, conspicuous in +Mrs. Newsome’s parlours, scarce counted here as a modern note. He was +sure on the spot—and he afterwards knew he was right—that this was +a touch of Chad’s own hand. What would Mrs. Newsome say to the +circumstance that Chad’s interested “influence” kept her +paper-knife in the <i>Revue</i>? The interested influence at any rate had, as +we say, gone straight to the point—had in fact soon left it quite behind. +</p> + +<p> +She was seated, near the fire, on a small stuffed and fringed chair one of the +few modern articles in the room, and she leaned back in it with her hands +clasped in her lap and no movement, in all her person, but the fine prompt play +of her deep young face. The fire, under the low white marble, undraped and +academic, had burnt down to the silver ashes of light wood, one of the windows, +at a distance, stood open to the mildness and stillness, out of which, in the +short pauses, came the faint sound, pleasant and homely, almost rustic, of a +plash and a clatter of <i>sabots</i> from some coach-house on the other side of +the court. Madame de Vionnet, while Strether sat there, wasn’t to shift +her posture by an inch. “I don’t think you seriously believe in +what you’re doing,” she said; “but all the same, you know, +I’m going to treat you quite as if I did.” +</p> + +<p> +“By which you mean,” Strether directly replied, “quite as if +you didn’t! I assure you it won’t make the least difference with me +how you treat me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” she said, taking that menace bravely and philosophically +enough, “the only thing that really matters is that you shall get on with +me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but I don’t!” he immediately returned. +</p> + +<p> +It gave her another pause; which, however, she happily enough shook off. +“Will you consent to go on with me a little—provisionally—as +if you did?” +</p> + +<p> +Then it was that he saw how she had decidedly come all the way; and there +accompanied it an extraordinary sense of her raising from somewhere below him +her beautiful suppliant eyes. He might have been perched at his door-step or at +his window and she standing in the road. For a moment he let her stand and +couldn’t moreover have spoken. It had been sad, of a sudden, with a +sadness that was like a cold breath in his face. “What can I do,” +he finally asked, “but listen to you as I promised Chadwick?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but what I’m asking you,” she quickly said, +“isn’t what Mr. Newsome had in mind.” She spoke at present, +he saw, as if to take courageously <i>all</i> her risk. “This is my own +idea and a different thing.” +</p> + +<p> +It gave poor Strether in truth—uneasy as it made him too—something +of the thrill of a bold perception justified. “Well,” he answered +kindly enough, “I was sure a moment since that some idea of your own had +come to you.” +</p> + +<p> +She seemed still to look up at him, but now more serenely. “I made out +you were sure—and that helped it to come. So you see,” she +continued, “we do get on.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but it appears to me I don’t at all meet your request. How can +I when I don’t understand it?” +</p> + +<p> +“It isn’t at all necessary you should understand; it will do quite +well enough if you simply remember it. Only feel I trust you—and for +nothing so tremendous after all. Just,” she said with a wonderful smile, +“for common civility.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had a long pause while they sat again face to face, as they had sat, +scarce less conscious, before the poor lady had crossed the stream. She was the +poor lady for Strether now because clearly she had some trouble, and her appeal +to him could only mean that her trouble was deep. He couldn’t help it; it +wasn’t his fault; he had done nothing; but by a turn of the hand she had +somehow made their encounter a relation. And the relation profited by a mass of +things that were not strictly in it or of it; by the very air in which they +sat, by the high cold delicate room, by the world outside and the little plash +in the court, by the First Empire and the relics in the stiff cabinets, by +matters as far off as those and by others as near as the unbroken clasp of her +hands in her lap and the look her expression had of being most natural when her +eyes were most fixed. “You count upon me of course for something really +much greater than it sounds.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh it sounds great enough too!” she laughed at this. +</p> + +<p> +He found himself in time on the point of telling her that she was, as Miss +Barrace called it, wonderful; but, catching himself up, he said something else +instead. “What was it Chad’s idea then that you should say to +me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah his idea was simply what a man’s idea always is—to put +every effort off on the woman.” +</p> + +<p> +“The ‘woman’—?” Strether slowly echoed. +</p> + +<p> +“The woman he likes—and just in proportion as he likes her. In +proportion too—for shifting the trouble—as she likes +<i>him</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether followed it; then with an abruptness of his own: “How much do +you like Chad?” +</p> + +<p> +“Just as much as <i>that</i>—to take all, with you, on +myself.” But she got at once again away from this. “I’ve been +trembling as if we were to stand or fall by what you may think of me; and +I’m even now,” she went on wonderfully, “drawing a long +breath—and, yes, truly taking a great courage—from the hope that I +don’t in fact strike you as impossible.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s at all events, clearly,” he observed after an +instant, “the way I don’t strike <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” she so far assented, “as you haven’t yet said +you <i>won’t</i> have the little patience with me I ask for—” +</p> + +<p> +“You draw splendid conclusions? Perfectly. But I don’t understand +them,” Strether pursued. “You seem to me to ask for much more than +you need. What, at the worst for you, what at the best for myself, can I after +all do? I can use no pressure that I haven’t used. You come really late +with your request. I’ve already done all that for myself the case admits +of. I’ve said my say, and here I am.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, here you are, fortunately!” Madame de Vionnet laughed. +“Mrs. Newsome,” she added in another tone, “didn’t +think you can do so little.” +</p> + +<p> +He had an hesitation, but he brought the words out. “Well, she thinks so +now.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean by that—?” But she also hung fire. +</p> + +<p> +“Do I mean what?” +</p> + +<p> +She still rather faltered. “Pardon me if I touch on it, but if I’m +saying extraordinary things, why, perhaps, mayn’t I? Besides, +doesn’t it properly concern us to know?” +</p> + +<p> +“To know what?” he insisted as after thus beating about the bush +she had again dropped. +</p> + +<p> +She made the effort. “Has she given you up?” +</p> + +<p> +He was amazed afterwards to think how simply and quietly he had met it. +“Not yet.” It was almost as if he were a trifle +disappointed—had expected still more of her freedom. But he went straight +on. “Is that what Chad has told you will happen to me?” +</p> + +<p> +She was evidently charmed with the way he took it. “If you mean if +we’ve talked of it—most certainly. And the question’s not +what has had least to do with my wishing to see you.” +</p> + +<p> +“To judge if I’m the sort of man a woman <i>can</i>—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Precisely,” she exclaimed—“you wonderful gentleman! I +do judge—I <i>have</i> judged. A woman can’t. You’re +safe—with every right to be. You’d be much happier if you’d +only believe it.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether was silent a little; then he found himself speaking with a cynicism of +confidence of which even at the moment the sources were strange to him. +“I try to believe it. But it’s a marvel,” he exclaimed, +“how <i>you</i> already get at it!” +</p> + +<p> +Oh she was able to say. “Remember how much I was on the way to it through +Mr. Newsome—before I saw you. He thinks everything of your +strength.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I can bear almost anything!” our friend briskly interrupted. +Deep and beautiful on this her smile came back, and with the effect of making +him hear what he had said just as she had heard it. He easily enough felt that +it gave him away, but what in truth had everything done but that? It had been +all very well to think at moments that he was holding her nose down and that he +had coerced her: what had he by this time done but let her practically see that +he accepted their relation? What was their relation moreover—though light +and brief enough in form as yet—but whatever she might choose to make it? +Nothing could prevent her—certainly he couldn’t—from making +it pleasant. At the back of his head, behind everything, was the sense that she +was—there, before him, close to him, in vivid imperative form—one +of the rare women he had so often heard of, read of, thought of, but never met, +whose very presence, look, voice, the mere contemporaneous <i>fact</i> of whom, +from the moment it was at all presented, made a relation of mere recognition. +That was not the kind of woman he had ever found Mrs. Newsome, a +contemporaneous fact who had been distinctly slow to establish herself; and at +present, confronted with Madame de Vionnet, he felt the simplicity of his +original impression of Miss Gostrey. She certainly had been a fact of rapid +growth; but the world was wide, each day was more and more a new lesson. There +were at any rate even among the stranger ones relations and relations. +“Of course I suit Chad’s grand way,” he quickly added. +“He hasn’t had much difficulty in working me in.” +</p> + +<p> +She seemed to deny a little, on the young man’s behalf, by the rise of +her eyebrows, an intention of any process at all inconsiderate. “You must +know how grieved he’d be if you were to lose anything. He believes you +can keep his mother patient.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered with his eyes on her. “I see. <i>That’s</i> then +what you really want of me. And how am I to do it? Perhaps you’ll tell me +that.” +</p> + +<p> +“Simply tell her the truth.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what do you call the truth?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, <i>any</i> truth—about us all—that you see yourself. I +leave it to you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Thank you very much. I like,” Strether laughed with a slight +harshness, “the way you leave things!” +</p> + +<p> +But she insisted kindly, gently, as if it wasn’t so bad. “Be +perfectly honest. Tell her all.” +</p> + +<p> +“All?” he oddly echoed. +</p> + +<p> +“Tell her the simple truth,” Madame de Vionnet again pleaded. +</p> + +<p> +“But what <i>is</i> the simple truth? The simple truth is exactly what +I’m trying to discover.” +</p> + +<p> +She looked about a while, but presently she came back to him. “Tell her, +fully and clearly, about <i>us</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether meanwhile had been staring. “You and your daughter?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—little Jeanne and me. Tell her,” she just slightly +quavered, “you like us.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what good will that do me? Or rather”—he caught himself +up—“what good will it do <i>you?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +She looked graver. “None, you believe, really?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether debated. “She didn’t send me out to ‘like’ +you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she charmingly contended, “she sent you out to face the +facts.” +</p> + +<p> +He admitted after an instant that there was something in that. “But how +can I face them till I know what they are? Do you want him,” he then +braced himself to ask, “to marry your daughter?” +</p> + +<p> +She gave a headshake as noble as it was prompt. “No—not +that.” +</p> + +<p> +“And he really doesn’t want to himself?” +</p> + +<p> +She repeated the movement, but now with a strange light in her face. “He +likes her too much.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “To be willing to consider, you mean, the question of +taking her to America?” +</p> + +<p> +“To be willing to do anything with her but be immensely kind and +nice—really tender of her. We watch over her, and you must help us. You +must see her again.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether felt awkward. “Ah with pleasure—she’s so remarkably +attractive.” +</p> + +<p> +The mother’s eagerness with which Madame de Vionnet jumped at this was to +come back to him later as beautiful in its grace. “The dear thing +<i>did</i> please you?” Then as he met it with the largest +“Oh!” of enthusiasm: “She’s perfect. She’s my +joy.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’m sure that—if one were near her and saw more of +her—she’d be mine.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then,” said Madame de Vionnet, “tell Mrs. Newsome +that!” +</p> + +<p> +He wondered the more. “What good will that do you?” As she appeared +unable at once to say, however, he brought out something else. “Is your +daughter in love with our friend?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” she rather startlingly answered, “I wish you’d +find out!” +</p> + +<p> +He showed his surprise. “I? A stranger?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you won’t be a stranger—presently. You shall see her +quite, I assure you, as if you weren’t.” +</p> + +<p> +It remained for him none the less an extraordinary notion. “It seems to +me surely that if her mother can’t—” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah little girls and their mothers to-day!” she rather +inconsequently broke in. But she checked herself with something she seemed to +give out as after all more to the point. “Tell her I’ve been good +for him. Don’t you think I have?” +</p> + +<p> +It had its effect on him—more than at the moment he quite measured. Yet +he was consciously enough touched. “Oh if it’s all +<i>you</i>—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it may not be ‘all,’” she interrupted, +“but it’s to a great extent. Really and truly,” she added in +a tone that was to take its place with him among things remembered. +</p> + +<p> +“Then it’s very wonderful.” He smiled at her from a face that +he felt as strained, and her own face for a moment kept him so. At last she +also got up. “Well, don’t you think that for that—” +</p> + +<p> +“I ought to save you?” So it was that the way to meet her—and +the way, as well, in a manner, to get off—came over him. He heard himself +use the exorbitant word, the very sound of which helped to determine his +flight. “I’ll save you if I can.” +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +In Chad’s lovely home, however, one evening ten days later, he felt +himself present at the collapse of the question of Jeanne de Vionnet’s +shy secret. He had been dining there in the company of that young lady and her +mother, as well as of other persons, and he had gone into the <i>petit +salon</i>, at Chad’s request, on purpose to talk with her. The young man +had put this to him as a favour—“I should like so awfully to know +what you think of her. It will really be a chance for you,” he had said, +“to see the <i>jeune fille</i>—I mean the type—as she +actually is, and I don’t think that, as an observer of manners, +it’s a thing you ought to miss. It will be an impression +that—whatever else you take—you can carry home with you, where +you’ll find again so much to compare it with.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether knew well enough with what Chad wished him to compare it, and though +he entirely assented he hadn’t yet somehow been so deeply reminded that +he was being, as he constantly though mutely expressed it, used. He was as far +as ever from making out exactly to what end; but he was none the less +constantly accompanied by a sense of the service he rendered. He conceived only +that this service was highly agreeable to those who profited by it; and he was +indeed still waiting for the moment at which he should catch it in the act of +proving disagreeable, proving in some degree intolerable, to himself. He failed +quite to see how his situation could clear up at all logically except by some +turn of events that would give him the pretext of disgust. He was building from +day to day on the possibility of disgust, but each day brought forth meanwhile +a new and more engaging bend of the road. That possibility was now ever so much +further from sight than on the eve of his arrival, and he perfectly felt that, +should it come at all, it would have to be at best inconsequent and violent. He +struck himself as a little nearer to it only when he asked himself what +service, in such a life of utility, he was after all rendering Mrs. Newsome. +When he wished to help himself to believe that he was still all right he +reflected—and in fact with wonder—on the unimpaired frequency of +their correspondence; in relation to which what was after all more natural than +that it should become more frequent just in proportion as their problem became +more complicated? +</p> + +<p> +Certain it is at any rate that he now often brought himself balm by the +question, with the rich consciousness of yesterday’s letter, “Well, +what can I do more than that—what can I do more than tell her +everything?” To persuade himself that he did tell her, had told her, +everything, he used to try to think of particular things he hadn’t told +her. When at rare moments and in the watches of the night he pounced on one it +generally showed itself to be—to a deeper scrutiny—not quite truly +of the essence. When anything new struck him as coming up, or anything already +noted as reappearing, he always immediately wrote, as if for fear that if he +didn’t he would miss something; and also that he might be able to say to +himself from time to time “She knows it <i>now</i>—even while I +worry.” It was a great comfort to him in general not to have left past +things to be dragged to light and explained; not to have to produce at so late +a stage anything not produced, or anything even veiled and attenuated, at the +moment. She knew it now: that was what he said to himself to-night in relation +to the fresh fact of Chad’s acquaintance with the two ladies—not to +speak of the fresher one of his own. Mrs. Newsome knew in other words that very +night at Woollett that he himself knew Madame de Vionnet and that he had +conscientiously been to see her; also that he had found her remarkably +attractive and that there would probably be a good deal more to tell. But she +further knew, or would know very soon, that, again conscientiously, he +hadn’t repeated his visit; and that when Chad had asked him on the +Countess’s behalf—Strether made her out vividly, with a thought at +the back of his head, a Countess—if he wouldn’t name a day for +dining with her, he had replied lucidly: “Thank you very +much—impossible.” He had begged the young man would present his +excuses and had trusted him to understand that it couldn’t really strike +one as quite the straight thing. He hadn’t reported to Mrs. Newsome that +he had promised to “save” Madame de Vionnet; but, so far as he was +concerned with that reminiscence, he hadn’t at any rate promised to haunt +her house. What Chad had understood could only, in truth, be inferred from +Chad’s behaviour, which had been in this connexion as easy as in every +other. He was easy, always, when he understood; he was easier still, if +possible, when he didn’t; he had replied that he would make it all right; +and he had proceeded to do this by substituting the present occasion—as +he was ready to substitute others—for any, for every occasion as to which +his old friend should have a funny scruple. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but I’m not a little foreign girl; I’m just as English as +I can be,” Jeanne de Vionnet had said to him as soon as, in the <i>petit +salon</i>, he sank, shyly enough on his own side, into the place near her +vacated by Madame Gloriani at his approach. Madame Gloriani, who was in black +velvet, with white lace and powdered hair, and whose somewhat massive majesty +melted, at any contact, into the graciousness of some incomprehensible tongue, +moved away to make room for the vague gentleman, after benevolent greetings to +him which embodied, as he believed, in baffling accents, some recognition of +his face from a couple of Sundays before. Then he had remarked—making the +most of the advantage of his years—that it frightened him quite enough to +find himself dedicated to the entertainment of a little foreign girl. There +were girls he wasn’t afraid of—he was quite bold with little +Americans. Thus it was that she had defended herself to the end—“Oh +but I’m almost American too. That’s what mamma has wanted me to +be—I mean <i>like</i> that; for she has wanted me to have lots of +freedom. She has known such good results from it.” +</p> + +<p> +She was fairly beautiful to him—a faint pastel in an oval frame: he +thought of her already as of some lurking image in a long gallery, the portrait +of a small old-time princess of whom nothing was known but that she had died +young. Little Jeanne wasn’t, doubtless, to die young, but one +couldn’t, all the same, bear on her lightly enough. It was bearing hard, +it was bearing as <i>he</i>, in any case, wouldn’t bear, to concern +himself, in relation to her, with the question of a young man. Odious really +the question of a young man; one didn’t treat such a person as a +maid-servant suspected of a “follower.” And then young men, young +men—well, the thing was their business simply, or was at all events hers. +She was fluttered, fairly fevered—to the point of a little glitter that +came and went in her eyes and a pair of pink spots that stayed in her +cheeks—with the great adventure of dining out and with the greater one +still, possibly, of finding a gentleman whom she must think of as very, very +old, a gentleman with eye-glasses, wrinkles, a long grizzled moustache. She +spoke the prettiest English, our friend thought, that he had ever heard spoken, +just as he had believed her a few minutes before to be speaking the prettiest +French. He wondered almost wistfully if such a sweep of the lyre didn’t +react on the spirit itself; and his fancy had in fact, before he knew it, begun +so to stray and embroider that he finally found himself, absent and +extravagant, sitting with the child in a friendly silence. Only by this time he +felt her flutter to have fortunately dropped and that she was more at her ease. +She trusted him, liked him, and it was to come back to him afterwards that she +had told him things. She had dipped into the waiting medium at last and found +neither surge nor chill—nothing but the small splash she could herself +make in the pleasant warmth, nothing but the safety of dipping and dipping +again. At the end of the ten minutes he was to spend with her his +impression—with all it had thrown off and all it had taken in—was +complete. She had been free, as she knew freedom, partly to show him that, +unlike other little persons she knew, she had imbibed that ideal. She was +delightfully quaint about herself, but the vision of what she had imbibed was +what most held him. It really consisted, he was soon enough to feel, in just +one great little matter, the fact that, whatever her nature, she was +thoroughly—he had to cast about for the word, but it came—bred. He +couldn’t of course on so short an acquaintance speak for her nature, but +the idea of breeding was what she had meanwhile dropped into his mind. He had +never yet known it so sharply presented. Her mother gave it, no doubt; but her +mother, to make that less sensible, gave so much else besides, and on neither +of the two previous occasions, extraordinary woman, Strether felt, anything +like what she was giving tonight. Little Jeanne was a case, an exquisite case +of education; whereas the Countess, whom it so amused him to think of by that +denomination, was a case, also exquisite, of—well, he didn’t know +what. +</p> + +<p> +“He has wonderful taste, <i>notre jeune homme</i>”: this was what +Gloriani said to him on turning away from the inspection of a small picture +suspended near the door of the room. The high celebrity in question had just +come in, apparently in search of Mademoiselle de Vionnet, but while Strether +had got up from beside her their fellow guest, with his eye sharply caught, had +paused for a long look. The thing was a landscape, of no size, but of the +French school, as our friend was glad to feel he knew, and also of a +quality—which he liked to think he should also have guessed; its frame +was large out of proportion to the canvas, and he had never seen a person look +at anything, he thought, just as Gloriani, with his nose very near and quick +movements of the head from side to side and bottom to top, examined this +feature of Chad’s collection. The artist used that word the next moment +smiling courteously, wiping his nippers and looking round him +further—paying the place in short by the very manner of his presence and +by something Strether fancied he could make out in this particular glance, such +a tribute as, to the latter’s sense, settled many things once for all. +Strether was conscious at this instant, for that matter, as he hadn’t yet +been, of how, round about him, quite without him, they <i>were</i> consistently +settled. Gloriani’s smile, deeply Italian, he considered, and finely +inscrutable, had had for him, during dinner, at which they were not neighbours, +an indefinite greeting; but the quality in it was gone that had appeared on the +other occasion to turn him inside out; it was as if even the momentary link +supplied by the doubt between them had snapped. He was conscious now of the +final reality, which was that there wasn’t so much a doubt as a +difference altogether; all the more that over the difference the famous +sculptor seemed to signal almost condolingly, yet oh how vacantly! as across +some great flat sheet of water. He threw out the bridge of a charming hollow +civility on which Strether wouldn’t have trusted his own full weight a +moment. That idea, even though but transient and perhaps belated, had performed +the office of putting Strether more at his ease, and the blurred picture had +already dropped—dropped with the sound of something else said and with +his becoming aware, by another quick turn, that Gloriani was now on the sofa +talking with Jeanne, while he himself had in his ears again the familiar +friendliness and the elusive meaning of the “Oh, oh, oh!” that had +made him, a fortnight before, challenge Miss Barrace in vain. She had always +the air, this picturesque and original lady, who struck him, so oddly, as both +antique and modern—she had always the air of taking up some joke that one +had already had out with her. The point itself, no doubt, was what was antique, +and the use she made of it what was modern. He felt just now that her +good-natured irony did bear on something, and it troubled him a little that she +wouldn’t be more explicit only assuring him, with the pleasure of +observation so visible in her, that she wouldn’t tell him more for the +world. He could take refuge but in asking her what she had done with Waymarsh, +though it must be added that he felt himself a little on the way to a clue +after she had answered that this personage was, in the other room, engaged in +conversation with Madame de Vionnet. He stared a moment at the image of such a +conjunction; then, for Miss Barrace’s benefit, he wondered. “Is she +too then under the charm—?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, not a bit”—Miss Barrace was prompt. “She makes +nothing of him. She’s bored. She won’t help you with him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “she can’t do everything. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course not—wonderful as she is. Besides, he makes nothing of +<i>her</i>. She won’t take him from me—though she wouldn’t, +no doubt, having other affairs in hand, even if she could. I’ve +never,” said Miss Barrace, “seen her fail with any one before. And +to-night, when she’s so magnificent, it would seem to her +strange—if she minded. So at any rate I have him all. <i>Je suis +tranquille!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +Strether understood, so far as that went; but he was feeling for his clue. +“She strikes you to-night as particularly magnificent?” +</p> + +<p> +“Surely. Almost as I’ve never seen her. Doesn’t she you? Why +it’s <i>for</i> you.” +</p> + +<p> +He persisted in his candour. “‘For’ me—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh, oh, oh!” cried Miss Barrace, who persisted in the opposite of +that quality. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” he acutely admitted, “she <i>is</i> different. +She’s gay.” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s gay!” Miss Barrace laughed. “And she has +beautiful shoulders—though there’s nothing different in +that.” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” said Strether, “one was sure of her shoulders. It +isn’t her shoulders.” +</p> + +<p> +His companion, with renewed mirth and the finest sense, between the puffs of +her cigarette, of the drollery of things, appeared to find their conversation +highly delightful. “Yes, it isn’t her shoulders.” +</p> + +<p> +“What then is it?” Strether earnestly enquired. +</p> + +<p> +“Why, it’s <i>she</i>—simply. It’s her mood. It’s +her charm.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course it’s her charm, but we’re speaking of the +difference.” “Well,” Miss Barrace explained, +“she’s just brilliant, as we used to say. That’s all. +She’s various. She’s fifty women.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but only one”—Strether kept it clear—“at a +time.” +</p> + +<p> +“Perhaps. But in fifty times—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh we shan’t come to that,” our friend declared; and the +next moment he had moved in another direction. “Will you answer me a +plain question? Will she ever divorce?” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Barrace looked at him through all her tortoise-shell. “Why should +she?” +</p> + +<p> +It wasn’t what he had asked for, he signified; but he met it well enough. +“To marry Chad.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why should she marry Chad?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because I’m convinced she’s very fond of him. She has done +wonders for him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then, how could she do more? Marrying a man, or woman +either,” Miss Barrace sagely went on, “is never the wonder for any +Jack and Jill can bring <i>that</i> off. The wonder is their doing such things +without marrying.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether considered a moment this proposition. “You mean it’s so +beautiful for our friends simply to go on so?” +</p> + +<p> +But whatever he said made her laugh. “Beautiful.” +</p> + +<p> +He nevertheless insisted. “And <i>that</i> because it’s +disinterested?” +</p> + +<p> +She was now, however, suddenly tired of the question. “Yes +then—call it that. Besides, she’ll never divorce. Don’t, +moreover,” she added, “believe everything you hear about her +husband.” +</p> + +<p> +“He’s not then,” Strether asked, “a wretch?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes. But charming.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know him?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve met him. He’s <i>bien aimable</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“To every one but his wife?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh for all I know, to her too—to any, to every woman. I hope you +at any rate,” she pursued with a quick change, “appreciate the care +I take of Mr. Waymarsh.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh immensely.” But Strether was not yet in line. “At all +events,” he roundly brought out, “the attachment’s an +innocent one.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mine and his? Ah,” she laughed, “don’t rob it of +<i>all</i> interest!” +</p> + +<p> +“I mean our friend’s here—to the lady we’ve been +speaking of.” That was what he had settled to as an indirect but none the +less closely involved consequence of his impression of Jeanne. That was where +he meant to stay. “It’s innocent,” he repeated—“I +see the whole thing.” +</p> + +<p> +Mystified by his abrupt declaration, she had glanced over at Gloriani as at the +unnamed subject of his allusion, but the next moment she had understood; though +indeed not before Strether had noticed her momentary mistake and wondered what +might possibly be behind that too. He already knew that the sculptor admired +Madame de Vionnet; but did this admiration also represent an attachment of +which the innocence was discussable? He was moving verily in a strange air and +on ground not of the firmest. He looked hard for an instant at Miss Barrace, +but she had already gone on. “All right with Mr. Newsome? Why of course +she is!”—and she got gaily back to the question of her own good +friend. “I dare say you’re surprised that I’m not worn out +with all I see—it being so much!—of Sitting Bull. But I’m +not, you know—I don’t mind him; I bear up, and we get on +beautifully. I’m very strange; I’m like that; and often I +can’t explain. There are people who are supposed interesting or +remarkable or whatever, and who bore me to death; and then there are others as +to whom nobody can understand what anybody sees in them—in whom I see no +end of things.” Then after she had smoked a moment, “He’s +touching, you know,” she said. +</p> + +<p> +“‘Know’?” Strether echoed—“don’t I, +indeed? We must move you almost to tears.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but I don’t mean <i>you!</i>” she laughed. +</p> + +<p> +“You ought to then, for the worst sign of all—as I must have it for +you—is that you can’t help me. That’s when a woman +pities.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but I do help you!” she cheerfully insisted. +</p> + +<p> +Again he looked at her hard, and then after a pause: “No you +don’t!” +</p> + +<p> +Her tortoise-shell, on its long chain, rattled down. “I help you with +Sitting Bull. That’s a good deal.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh that, yes.” But Strether hesitated. “Do you mean he talks +of me?” +</p> + +<p> +“So that I have to defend you? No, never.’ +</p> + +<p> +“I see,” Strether mused. “It’s too deep.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s his only fault,” she returned—“that +everything, with him, is too deep. He has depths of silence—which he +breaks only at the longest intervals by a remark. And when the remark comes +it’s always something he has seen or felt for himself—never a bit +banal. <i>That</i> would be what one might have feared and what would kill me. +But never.” She smoked again as she thus, with amused complacency, +appreciated her acquisition. “And never about you. We keep clear of you. +We’re wonderful. But I’ll tell you what he does do,” she +continued: “he tries to make me presents.” +</p> + +<p> +“Presents?” poor Strether echoed, conscious with a pang that +<i>he</i> hadn’t yet tried that in any quarter. +</p> + +<p> +“Why you see,” she explained, “he’s as fine as ever in +the victoria; so that when I leave him, as I often do almost for hours—he +likes it so—at the doors of shops, the sight of him there helps me, when +I come out, to know my carriage away off in the rank. But sometimes, for a +change, he goes with me into the shops, and then I’ve all I can do to +prevent his buying me things.” +</p> + +<p> +“He wants to ‘treat’ you?” Strether almost gasped at +all he himself hadn’t thought of. He had a sense of admiration. “Oh +he’s much more in the real tradition than I. Yes,” he mused, +“it’s the sacred rage.” +</p> + +<p> +“The sacred rage, exactly!”—and Miss Barrace, who +hadn’t before heard this term applied, recognised its bearing with a clap +of her gemmed hands. “Now I do know why he’s not banal. But I do +prevent him all the same—and if you saw what he sometimes +selects—from buying. I save him hundreds and hundreds. I only take +flowers.” +</p> + +<p> +“Flowers?” Strether echoed again with a rueful reflexion. How many +nosegays had her present converser sent? +</p> + +<p> +“Innocent flowers,” she pursued, “as much as he likes. And he +sends me splendours; he knows all the best places—he has found them for +himself; he’s wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +“He hasn’t told them to <i>me</i>,” her friend smiled, +“he has a life of his own.” But Strether had swung back to the +consciousness that for himself after all it never would have done. Waymarsh +hadn’t Mrs. Waymarsh in the least to consider, whereas Lambert Strether +had constantly, in the inmost honour of his thoughts, to consider Mrs. Newsome. +He liked moreover to feel how much his friend was in the real tradition. Yet he +had his conclusion. “<i>What</i> a rage it is!” He had worked it +out. “It’s an opposition.” +</p> + +<p> +She followed, but at a distance. “That’s what I feel. Yet to +what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, he thinks, you know, that <i>I’ve</i> a life of my own. And +I haven’t!” +</p> + +<p> +“You haven’t?” She showed doubt, and her laugh confirmed it. +“Oh, oh, oh!” +</p> + +<p> +“No—not for myself. I seem to have a life only for other +people.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah for them and <i>with</i> them! Just now for instance +with—” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, with whom?” he asked before she had had time to say. +</p> + +<p> +His tone had the effect of making her hesitate and even, as he guessed, speak +with a difference. “Say with Miss Gostrey. What do you do for +<i>her?</i>” It really made him wonder. “Nothing at all!” +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +Madame de Vionnet, having meanwhile come in, was at present close to them, and +Miss Barrace hereupon, instead of risking a rejoinder, became again with a look +that measured her from top to toe all mere long-handled appreciative +tortoise-shell. She had struck our friend, from the first of her appearing, as +dressed for a great occasion, and she met still more than on either of the +others the conception reawakened in him at their garden-party, the idea of the +<i>femme du monde</i> in her habit as she lived. Her bare shoulders and arms +were white and beautiful; the materials of her dress, a mixture, as he +supposed, of silk and crape, were of a silvery grey so artfully composed as to +give an impression of warm splendour; and round her neck she wore a collar of +large old emeralds, the green note of which was more dimly repeated, at other +points of her apparel, in embroidery, in enamel, in satin, in substances and +textures vaguely rich. Her head, extremely fair and exquisitely festal, was +like a happy fancy, a notion of the antique, on an old precious medal, some +silver coin of the Renaissance; while her slim lightness and brightness, her +gaiety, her expression, her decision, contributed to an effect that might have +been felt by a poet as half mythological and half conventional. He could have +compared her to a goddess still partly engaged in a morning cloud, or to a +sea-nymph waist-high in the summer surge. Above all she suggested to him the +reflexion that the <i>femme du monde</i>—in these finest developments of +the type—was, like Cleopatra in the play, indeed various and multifold. +She had aspects, characters, days, nights—or had them at least, showed +them by a mysterious law of her own, when in addition to everything she +happened also to be a woman of genius. She was an obscure person, a muffled +person one day, and a showy person, an uncovered person the next. He thought of +Madame de Vionnet to-night as showy and uncovered, though he felt the formula +rough, because, thanks to one of the short-cuts of genius she had taken all his +categories by surprise. Twice during dinner he had met Chad’s eyes in a +longish look; but these communications had in truth only stirred up again old +ambiguities—so little was it clear from them whether they were an appeal +or an admonition. “You see how I’m fixed,” was what they +appeared to convey; yet how he was fixed was exactly what Strether didn’t +see. However, perhaps he should see now. +</p> + +<p> +“Are you capable of the very great kindness of going to relieve Newsome, +for a few minutes, of the rather crushing responsibility of Madame Gloriani, +while I say a word, if he’ll allow me, to Mr. Strether, of whom +I’ve a question to ask? Our host ought to talk a bit to those other +ladies, and I’ll come back in a minute to your rescue.” She made +this proposal to Miss Barrace as if her consciousness of a special duty had +just flickered-up, but that lady’s recognition of Strether’s little +start at it—as at a betrayal on the speaker’s part of a +domesticated state—was as mute as his own comment; and after an instant, +when their fellow guest had good-naturedly left them, he had been given +something else to think of. “Why has Maria so suddenly gone? Do you +know?” That was the question Madame de Vionnet had brought with her. +</p> + +<p> +“I’m afraid I’ve no reason to give you but the simple reason +I’ve had from her in a note—the sudden obligation to join in the +south a sick friend who has got worse.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then she has been writing you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not since she went—I had only a brief explanatory word before she +started. I went to see her,” Strether explained—“it was the +day after I called on you—but she was already on her way, and her +concierge told me that in case of my coming I was to be informed she had +written to me. I found her note when I got home.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame de Vionnet listened with interest and with her eyes on Strether’s +face; then her delicately decorated head had a small melancholy motion. +“She didn’t write to <i>me</i>. I went to see her,” she +added, “almost immediately after I had seen you, and as I assured her I +would do when I met her at Gloriani’s. She hadn’t then told me she +was to be absent, and I felt at her door as if I understood. She’s +absent—with all respect to her sick friend, though I know indeed she has +plenty—so that I may not see her. She doesn’t want to meet me +again. Well,” she continued with a beautiful conscious mildness, “I +liked and admired her beyond every one in the old time, and she knew +it—perhaps that’s precisely what has made her go—and I dare +say I haven’t lost her for ever.” Strether still said nothing; he +had a horror, as he now thought of himself, of being in question between +women—was in fact already quite enough on his way to that, and there was +moreover, as it came to him, perceptibly, something behind these allusions and +professions that, should he take it in, would square but ill with his present +resolve to simplify. It was as if, for him, all the same, her softness and +sadness were sincere. He felt that not less when she soon went on: +“I’m extremely glad of her happiness.” But it also left him +mute—sharp and fine though the imputation it conveyed. What it conveyed +was that <i>he</i> was Maria Gostrey’s happiness, and for the least +little instant he had the impulse to challenge the thought. He could have done +so however only by saying “What then do you suppose to be between +us?” and he was wonderfully glad a moment later not to have spoken. He +would rather seem stupid any day than fatuous, and he drew back as well, with a +smothered inward shudder, from the consideration of what women—of +highly-developed type in particular—might think of each other. Whatever +he had come out for he hadn’t come to go into that; so that he absolutely +took up nothing his interlocutress had now let drop. Yet, though he had kept +away from her for days, had laid wholly on herself the burden of their meeting +again, she hadn’t a gleam of irritation to show him. “Well, about +Jeanne now?” she smiled—it had the gaiety with which she had +originally come in. He felt it on the instant to represent her motive and real +errand. But he had been schooling her of a truth to say much in proportion to +his little. “<i>Do</i> you make out that she has a sentiment? I mean for +Mr. Newsome.” +</p> + +<p> +Almost resentful, Strether could at last be prompt. “How can I make out +such things?” +</p> + +<p> +She remained perfectly good-natured. “Ah but they’re beautiful +little things, and you make out—don’t pretend—everything in +the world. Haven’t you,” she asked, “been talking with +her?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, but not about Chad. At least not much.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you don’t require ‘much’!” she reassuringly +declared. But she immediately changed her ground. “I hope you remember +your promise of the other day.” +</p> + +<p> +“To ‘save’ you, as you called it?” +</p> + +<p> +“I call it so still. You <i>will?</i>” she insisted. “You +haven’t repented?” +</p> + +<p> +He wondered. “No—but I’ve been thinking what I meant.” +</p> + +<p> +She kept it up. “And not, a little, what <i>I</i> did?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—that’s not necessary. It will be enough if I know what I +meant myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“And don’t you know,” she asked, “by this time?” +</p> + +<p> +Again he had a pause. “I think you ought to leave it to me. But how +long,” he added, “do you give me?” +</p> + +<p> +“It seems to me much more a question of how long you give <i>me</i>. +Doesn’t our friend here himself, at any rate,” she went on, +“perpetually make me present to you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not,” Strether replied, “by ever speaking of you to +me.” +</p> + +<p> +“He never does that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Never.” +</p> + +<p> +She considered, and, if the fact was disconcerting to her, effectually +concealed it. The next minute indeed she had recovered. “No, he +wouldn’t. But do you <i>need</i> that?” +</p> + +<p> +Her emphasis was wonderful, and though his eyes had been wandering he looked at +her longer now. “I see what you mean.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course you see what I mean.” +</p> + +<p> +Her triumph was gentle, and she really had tones to make justice weep. +“I’ve before me what he owes you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Admit then that that’s something,” she said, yet still with +the same discretion in her pride. +</p> + +<p> +He took in this note but went straight on. “You’ve made of him what +I see, but what I don’t see is how in the world you’ve done +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that’s another question!” she smiled. “The point is +of what use is your declining to know me when to know Mr. Newsome—as you +do me the honour to find him—<i>is</i> just to know me.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see,” he mused, still with his eyes on her. “I +shouldn’t have met you to-night.” +</p> + +<p> +She raised and dropped her linked hands. “It doesn’t matter. If I +trust you why can’t you a little trust me too? And why can’t you +also,” she asked in another tone, “trust yourself?” But she +gave him no time to reply. “Oh I shall be so easy for you! And I’m +glad at any rate you’ve seen my child.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m glad too,” he said; “but she does you no +good.” +</p> + +<p> +“No good?”—Madame de Vionnet had a clear stare. “Why +she’s an angel of light.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s precisely the reason. Leave her alone. Don’t try to +find out. I mean,” he explained, “about what you spoke to me +of—the way she feels.” +</p> + +<p> +His companion wondered. “Because one really won’t?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, because I ask you, as a favour to myself, not to. She’s the +most charming creature I’ve ever seen. Therefore don’t touch her. +Don’t know—don’t want to know. And +moreover—yes—you <i>won’t</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +It was an appeal, of a sudden, and she took it in. “As a favour to +you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well—since you ask me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Anything, everything you ask,” she smiled. “I shan’t +know then—never. Thank you,” she added with peculiar gentleness as +she turned away. +</p> + +<p> +The sound of it lingered with him, making him fairly feel as if he had been +tripped up and had a fall. In the very act of arranging with her for his +independence he had, under pressure from a particular perception, +inconsistently, quite stupidly, committed himself, and, with her subtlety +sensitive on the spot to an advantage, she had driven in by a single word a +little golden nail, the sharp intention of which he signally felt. He +hadn’t detached, he had more closely connected himself, and his eyes, as +he considered with some intensity this circumstance, met another pair which had +just come within their range and which struck him as reflecting his sense of +what he had done. He recognised them at the same moment as those of little +Bilham, who had apparently drawn near on purpose to speak to him, and little +Bilham wasn’t, in the conditions, the person to whom his heart would be +most closed. They were seated together a minute later at the angle of the room +obliquely opposite the corner in which Gloriani was still engaged with Jeanne +de Vionnet, to whom at first and in silence their attention had been +benevolently given. “I can’t see for my life,” Strether had +then observed, “how a young fellow of any spirit—such a one as you +for instance—can be admitted to the sight of that young lady without +being hard hit. Why don’t you go in, little Bilham?” He remembered +the tone into which he had been betrayed on the garden-bench at the +sculptor’s reception, and this might make up for that by being much more +the right sort of thing to say to a young man worthy of any advice at all. +“There <i>would</i> be some reason.” +</p> + +<p> +“Some reason for what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why for hanging on here.” +</p> + +<p> +“To offer my hand and fortune to Mademoiselle de Vionnet?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” Strether asked, “to what lovelier apparition +<i>could</i> you offer them? She’s the sweetest little thing I’ve +ever seen.” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s certainly immense. I mean she’s the real thing. I +believe the pale pink petals are folded up there for some wondrous +efflorescence in time; to open, that is, to some great golden sun. +<i>I’m</i> unfortunately but a small farthing candle. What chance in such +a field for a poor little painter-man?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you’re good enough,” Strether threw out. +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly I’m good enough. We’re good enough, I consider, +<i>nous autres</i>, for anything. But she’s <i>too</i> good. +There’s the difference. They wouldn’t look at me.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, lounging on his divan and still charmed by the young girl, whose eyes +had consciously strayed to him, he fancied, with a vague smile—Strether, +enjoying the whole occasion as with dormant pulses at last awake and in spite +of new material thrust upon him, thought over his companion’s words. +“Whom do you mean by ‘they’? She and her mother?” +</p> + +<p> +“She and her mother. And she has a father too, who, whatever else he may +be, certainly can’t be indifferent to the possibilities she represents. +Besides, there’s Chad.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether was silent a little. “Ah but he doesn’t care for +her—not, I mean, it appears, after all, in the sense I’m speaking +of. He’s <i>not</i> in love with her.” +</p> + +<p> +“No—but he’s her best friend; after her mother. He’s +very fond of her. He has his ideas about what can be done for her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it’s very strange!” Strether presently remarked with a +sighing sense of fulness. +</p> + +<p> +“Very strange indeed. That’s just the beauty of it. Isn’t it +very much the kind of beauty you had in mind,” little Bilham went on, +“when you were so wonderful and so inspiring to me the other day? +Didn’t you adjure me, in accents I shall never forget, to see, while +I’ve a chance, everything I can?—and <i>really</i> to see, for it +must have been that only you meant. Well, you did me no end of good, and +I’m doing my best. I <i>do</i> make it out a situation.” +</p> + +<p> +“So do I!” Strether went on after a moment. But he had the next +minute an inconsequent question. “How comes Chad so mixed up, +anyway?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, ah, ah!”—and little Bilham fell back on his cushions. +</p> + +<p> +It reminded our friend of Miss Barrace, and he felt again the brush of his +sense of moving in a maze of mystic closed allusions. Yet he kept hold of his +thread. “Of course I understand really; only the general transformation +makes me occasionally gasp. Chad with such a voice in the settlement of the +future of a little countess—no,” he declared, “it takes more +time! You say moreover,” he resumed, “that we’re inevitably, +people like you and me, out of the running. The curious fact remains that Chad +himself isn’t. The situation doesn’t make for it, but in a +different one he could have her if he would.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, but that’s only because he’s rich and because +there’s a possibility of his being richer. They won’t think of +anything but a great name or a great fortune.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “he’ll have no great fortune on +<i>these</i> lines. He must stir his stumps.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is that,” little Bilham enquired, “what you were saying to +Madame de Vionnet?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—I don’t say much to her. Of course, however,” +Strether continued, “he can make sacrifices if he likes.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham had a pause. “Oh he’s not keen for sacrifices; or +thinks, that is, possibly, that he has made enough.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it <i>is</i> virtuous,” his companion observed with some +decision. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s exactly,” the young man dropped after a moment, +“what I mean.” +</p> + +<p> +It kept Strether himself silent a little. “I’ve made it out for +myself,” he then went on; “I’ve really, within the last +half-hour, got hold of it. I understand it in short at last; which at +first—when you originally spoke to me—I didn’t. Nor when Chad +originally spoke to me either.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said little Bilham, “I don’t think that at that +time you believed me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—I did; and I believed Chad too. It would have been odious and +unmannerly—as well as quite perverse—if I hadn’t. What +interest have you in deceiving me?” +</p> + +<p> +The young man cast about. “What interest have I?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes. Chad <i>might</i> have. But you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, ah, ah!” little Bilham exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +It might, on repetition, as a mystification, have irritated our friend a +little, but he knew, once more, as we have seen, where he was, and his being +proof against everything was only another attestation that he meant to stay +there. “I couldn’t, without my own impression, realise. She’s +a tremendously clever brilliant capable woman, and with an extraordinary charm +on top of it all—the charm we surely all of us this evening know what to +think of. It isn’t every clever brilliant capable woman that has it. In +fact it’s rare with any woman. So there you are,” Strether +proceeded as if not for little Bilham’s benefit alone. “I +understand what a relation with such a woman—what such a high fine +friendship—may be. It can’t be vulgar or coarse, anyway—and +that’s the point.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, that’s the point,” said little Bilham. “It +can’t be vulgar or coarse. And, bless us and save us, it +<i>isn’t!</i> It’s, upon my word, the very finest thing I ever saw +in my life, and the most distinguished.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, from beside him and leaning back with him as he leaned, dropped on +him a momentary look which filled a short interval and of which he took no +notice. He only gazed before him with intent participation. “Of course +what it has done for him,” Strether at all events presently pursued, +“of course what it has done for him—that is as to <i>how</i> it has +so wonderfully worked—isn’t a thing I pretend to understand. +I’ve to take it as I find it. There he is.” +</p> + +<p> +“There he is!” little Bilham echoed. “And it’s really +and truly she. I don’t understand either, even with my longer and closer +opportunity. But I’m like you,” he added; “I can admire and +rejoice even when I’m a little in the dark. You see I’ve watched it +for some three years, and especially for this last. He wasn’t so bad +before it as I seem to have made out that you think—” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I don’t think anything now!” Strether impatiently broke +in: “that is but what I <i>do</i> think! I mean that originally, for her +to have cared for him—” +</p> + +<p> +“There must have been stuff in him? Oh yes, there was stuff indeed, and +much more of it than ever showed, I dare say, at home. Still, you know,” +the young man in all fairness developed, “there was room for her, and +that’s where she came in. She saw her chance and took it. That’s +what strikes me as having been so fine. But of course,” he wound up, +“he liked her first.” +</p> + +<p> +“Naturally,” said Strether. +</p> + +<p> +“I mean that they first met somehow and somewhere—I believe in some +American house—and she, without in the least then intending it, made her +impression. Then with time and opportunity he made his; and after <i>that</i> +she was as bad as he.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether vaguely took it up. “As ‘bad’?” +</p> + +<p> +“She began, that is, to care—to care very much. Alone, and in her +horrid position, she found it, when once she had started, an interest. It was, +it is, an interest, and it did—it continues to do—a lot for herself +as well. So she still cares. She cares in fact,” said little Bilham +thoughtfully “more.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s theory that it was none of his business was somehow not +damaged by the way he took this. “More, you mean, than he?” On +which his companion looked round at him, and now for an instant their eyes met. +“More than he?” he repeated. +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham, for as long, hung fire. “Will you never tell any +one?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought. “Whom should I tell?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why I supposed you reported regularly—” +</p> + +<p> +“To people at home?”—Strether took him up. “Well, I +won’t tell them this.” +</p> + +<p> +The young man at last looked away. “Then she does now care more than +he.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” Strether oddly exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +But his companion immediately met it. “Haven’t you after all had +your impression of it? That’s how you’ve got hold of him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but I haven’t got hold of him!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I say!” But it was all little Bilham said. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s at any rate none of my business. I mean,” Strether +explained, “nothing else than getting hold of him is.” It appeared, +however, to strike him as his business to add: “The fact remains +nevertheless that she has saved him.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham just waited. “I thought that was what <i>you</i> were to +do.” +</p> + +<p> +But Strether had his answer ready. “I’m speaking—in connexion +with her—of his manners and morals, his character and life. I’m +speaking of him as a person to deal with and talk with and live +with—speaking of him as a social animal.” +</p> + +<p> +“And isn’t it as a social animal that you also want him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly; so that it’s as if she had saved him <i>for</i> +us.” +</p> + +<p> +“It strikes you accordingly then,” the young man threw out, +“as for you all to save <i>her?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh for us ‘all’—!” Strether could but laugh at +that. It brought him back, however, to the point he had really wished to make. +“They’ve accepted their situation—hard as it is. +They’re not free—at least she’s not; but they take +what’s left to them. It’s a friendship, of a beautiful sort; and +that’s what makes them so strong. They’re straight, they feel; and +they keep each other up. It’s doubtless she, however, who, as you +yourself have hinted, feels it most.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham appeared to wonder what he had hinted. “Feels most that +they’re straight?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, feels that <i>she</i> is, and the strength that comes from it. She +keeps <i>him</i> up—she keeps the whole thing up. When people are able to +it’s fine. She’s wonderful, wonderful, as Miss Barrace says; and he +is, in his way, too; however, as a mere man, he may sometimes rebel and not +feel that he finds his account in it. She has simply given him an immense moral +lift, and what that can explain is prodigious. That’s why I speak of it +as a situation. It <i>is</i> one, if there ever was.” And Strether, with +his head back and his eyes on the ceiling, seemed to lose himself in the vision +of it. +</p> + +<p> +His companion attended deeply. “You state it much better than I +could.” “Oh you see it doesn’t concern you.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham considered. “I thought you said just now that it +doesn’t concern you either.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it doesn’t a bit as Madame de Vionnet’s affair. But as +we were again saying just now, what did I come out for but to save him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—to remove him.” +</p> + +<p> +“To save him <i>by</i> removal; to win him over to <i>himself</i> +thinking it best he shall take up business—thinking he must immediately +do therefore what’s necessary to that end.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said little Bilham after a moment, “you <i>have</i> +won him over. He does think it best. He has within a day or two again said to +me as much.” +</p> + +<p> +“And that,” Strether asked, “is why you consider that he +cares less than she?” +</p> + +<p> +“Cares less for her than she for him? Yes, that’s one of the +reasons. But other things too have given me the impression. A man, don’t +you think?” little Bilham presently pursued, “<i>Can’t</i>, +in such conditions, care so much as a woman. It takes different conditions to +make him, and then perhaps he cares more. Chad,” he wound up, “has +his possible future before him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Are you speaking of his business future?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—on the contrary; of the other, the future of what you so justly +call their situation. M. de Vionnet may live for ever.” +</p> + +<p> +“So that they can’t marry?” +</p> + +<p> +The young man waited a moment. “Not being able to marry is all +they’ve with any confidence to look forward to. A woman—a +particular woman—may stand that strain. But can a man?” he +propounded. +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s answer was as prompt as if he had already, for himself, worked +it out. “Not without a very high ideal of conduct. But that’s just +what we’re attributing to Chad. And how, for that matter,” he +mused, “does his going to America diminish the particular strain? +Wouldn’t it seem rather to add to it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Out of sight out of mind!” his companion laughed. Then more +bravely: “Wouldn’t distance lessen the torment?” But before +Strether could reply, “The thing is, you see, Chad ought to marry!” +he wound up. +</p> + +<p> +Strether, for a little, appeared to think of it. “If you talk of torments +you don’t diminish mine!” he then broke out. The next moment he was +on his feet with a question. “He ought to marry whom?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham rose more slowly. “Well, some one he <i>can</i>—some +thoroughly nice girl.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s eyes, as they stood together, turned again to Jeanne. +“Do you mean <i>her?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +His friend made a sudden strange face. “After being in love with her +mother? No.” +</p> + +<p> +“But isn’t it exactly your idea that he <i>isn’t</i> in love +with her mother?” +</p> + +<p> +His friend once more had a pause. “Well, he isn’t at any rate in +love with Jeanne.” +</p> + +<p> +“I dare say not.” +</p> + +<p> +“How <i>can</i> he be with any other woman?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh that I admit. But being in love isn’t, you know, +here”—little Bilham spoke in friendly reminder—“thought +necessary, in strictness, for marriage.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what torment—to call a torment—can there ever possibly +be with a woman like that?” As if from the interest of his own question +Strether had gone on without hearing. “Is it for her to have turned a man +out so wonderfully, too, only for somebody else?” He appeared to make a +point of this, and little Bilham looked at him now. “When it’s for +each other that people give things up they don’t miss them.” Then +he threw off as with an extravagance of which he was conscious: “Let them +face the future together!” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham looked at him indeed. “You mean that after all he +shouldn’t go back?” +</p> + +<p> +“I mean that if he gives her up—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, he ought to be ashamed of himself.” But Strether spoke with +a sound that might have passed for a laugh. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="volume02"></a>Volume II</h2> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap07"></a>Book Seventh</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +It wasn’t the first time Strether had sat alone in the great dim +church—still less was it the first of his giving himself up, so far as +conditions permitted, to its beneficent action on his nerves. He had been to +Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had been there with Miss Gostrey, he had been +there with Chad Newsome, and had found the place, even in company, such a +refuge from the obsession of his problem that, with renewed pressure from that +source, he had not unnaturally recurred to a remedy meeting the case, for the +moment, so indirectly, no doubt, but so relievingly. He was conscious enough +that it was only for the moment, but good moments—if he could call them +good—still had their value for a man who by this time struck himself as +living almost disgracefully from hand to mouth. Having so well learnt the way, +he had lately made the pilgrimage more than once by himself—had quite +stolen off, taking an unnoticed chance and making no point of speaking of the +adventure when restored to his friends. +</p> + +<p> +His great friend, for that matter, was still absent, as well as remarkably +silent; even at the end of three weeks Miss Gostrey hadn’t come back. She +wrote to him from Mentone, admitting that he must judge her grossly +inconsequent—perhaps in fact for the time odiously faithless; but asking +for patience, for a deferred sentence, throwing herself in short on his +generosity. For her too, she could assure him, life was complicated—more +complicated than he could have guessed; she had moreover made certain of +him—certain of not wholly missing him on her return—before her +disappearance. If furthermore she didn’t burden him with letters it was +frankly because of her sense of the other great commerce he had to carry on. He +himself, at the end of a fortnight, had written twice, to show how his +generosity could be trusted; but he reminded himself in each case of Mrs. +Newsome’s epistolary manner at the times when Mrs. Newsome kept off +delicate ground. He sank his problem, he talked of Waymarsh and Miss Barrace, +of little Bilham and the set over the river, with whom he had again had tea, +and he was easy, for convenience, about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and Jeanne. +He admitted that he continued to see them, he was decidedly so confirmed a +haunter of Chad’s premises and that young man’s practical intimacy +with them was so undeniably great; but he had his reason for not attempting to +render for Miss Gostrey’s benefit the impression of these last days. That +would be to tell her too much about himself—it being at present just from +himself he was trying to escape. +</p> + +<p> +This small struggle sprang not a little, in its way, from the same impulse that +had now carried him across to Notre Dame; the impulse to let things be, to give +them time to justify themselves or at least to pass. He was aware of having no +errand in such a place but the desire not to be, for the hour, in certain other +places; a sense of safety, of simplification, which each time he yielded to it +he amused himself by thinking of as a private concession to cowardice. The +great church had no altar for his worship, no direct voice for his soul; but it +was none the less soothing even to sanctity; for he could feel while there what +he couldn’t elsewhere, that he was a plain tired man taking the holiday +he had earned. He was tired, but he wasn’t plain—that was the pity +and the trouble of it; he was able, however, to drop his problem at the door +very much as if it had been the copper piece that he deposited, on the +threshold, in the receptacle of the inveterate blind beggar. He trod the long +dim nave, sat in the splendid choir, paused before the cluttered chapels of the +east end, and the mighty monument laid upon him its spell. He might have been a +student under the charm of a museum—which was exactly what, in a foreign +town, in the afternoon of life, he would have liked to be free to be. This form +of sacrifice did at any rate for the occasion as well as another; it made him +quite sufficiently understand how, within the precinct, for the real refugee, +the things of the world could fall into abeyance. That was the cowardice, +probably—to dodge them, to beg the question, not to deal with it in the +hard outer light; but his own oblivions were too brief, too vain, to hurt any +one but himself, and he had a vague and fanciful kindness for certain persons +whom he met, figures of mystery and anxiety, and whom, with observation for his +pastime, he ranked as those who were fleeing from justice. Justice was outside, +in the hard light, and injustice too; but one was as absent as the other from +the air of the long aisles and the brightness of the many altars. +</p> + +<p> +Thus it was at all events that, one morning some dozen days after the dinner in +the Boulevard Malesherbes at which Madame de Vionnet had been present with her +daughter, he was called upon to play his part in an encounter that deeply +stirred his imagination. He had the habit, in these contemplations, of watching +a fellow visitant, here and there, from a respectable distance, remarking some +note of behaviour, of penitence, of prostration, of the absolved, relieved +state; this was the manner in which his vague tenderness took its course, the +degree of demonstration to which it naturally had to confine itself. It +hadn’t indeed so felt its responsibility as when on this occasion he +suddenly measured the suggestive effect of a lady whose supreme stillness, in +the shade of one of the chapels, he had two or three times noticed as he made, +and made once more, his slow circuit. She wasn’t prostrate—not in +any degree bowed, but she was strangely fixed, and her prolonged immobility +showed her, while he passed and paused, as wholly given up to the need, +whatever it was, that had brought her there. She only sat and gazed before her, +as he himself often sat; but she had placed herself, as he never did, within +the focus of the shrine, and she had lost herself, he could easily see, as he +would only have liked to do. She was not a wandering alien, keeping back more +than she gave, but one of the familiar, the intimate, the fortunate, for whom +these dealings had a method and a meaning. She reminded our friend—since +it was the way of nine tenths of his current impressions to act as recalls of +things imagined—of some fine firm concentrated heroine of an old story, +something he had heard, read, something that, had he had a hand for drama, he +might himself have written, renewing her courage, renewing her clearness, in +splendidly-protected meditation. Her back, as she sat, was turned to him, but +his impression absolutely required that she should be young and interesting, +and she carried her head moreover, even in the sacred shade, with a discernible +faith in herself, a kind of implied conviction of consistency, security, +impunity. But what had such a woman come for if she hadn’t come to pray? +Strether’s reading of such matters was, it must be owned, confused; but +he wondered if her attitude were some congruous fruit of absolution, of +“indulgence.” He knew but dimly what indulgence, in such a place, +might mean; yet he had, as with a soft sweep, a vision of how it might indeed +add to the zest of active rites. All this was a good deal to have been denoted +by a mere lurking figure who was nothing to him; but, the last thing before +leaving the church, he had the surprise of a still deeper quickening. +</p> + +<p> +He had dropped upon a seat halfway down the nave and, again in the museum mood, +was trying with head thrown back and eyes aloft, to reconstitute a past, to +reduce it in fact to the convenient terms of Victor Hugo, whom, a few days +before, giving the rein for once in a way to the joy of life, he had purchased +in seventy bound volumes, a miracle of cheapness, parted with, he was assured +by the shopman, at the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, doubtless, +while he played his eternal nippers over Gothic glooms, sufficiently rapt in +reverence; but what his thought had finally bumped against was the question of +where, among packed accumulations, so multiform a wedge would be able to enter. +Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold to be perhaps what he should most +substantially have to show at Woollett as the fruit of his mission? It was a +possibility that held him a minute—held him till he happened to feel that +some one, unnoticed, had approached him and paused. Turning, he saw that a lady +stood there as for a greeting, and he sprang up as he next took her, securely, +for Madame de Vionnet, who appeared to have recognised him as she passed near +him on her way to the door. She checked, quickly and gaily, a certain confusion +in him, came to meet it, turned it back, by an art of her own; the confusion +having threatened him as he knew her for the person he had lately been +observing. She was the lurking figure of the dim chapel; she had occupied him +more than she guessed; but it came to him in time, luckily, that he +needn’t tell her and that no harm, after all, had been done. She herself, +for that matter, straightway showing she felt their encounter as the happiest +of accidents, had for him a “You come here too?” that despoiled +surprise of every awkwardness. +</p> + +<p> +“I come often,” she said. “I love this place, but I’m +terrible, in general, for churches. The old women who live in them all know me; +in fact I’m already myself one of the old women. It’s like that, at +all events, that I foresee I shall end.” Looking about for a chair, so +that he instantly pulled one nearer, she sat down with him again to the sound +of an “Oh, I like so much your also being fond—!” +</p> + +<p> +He confessed the extent of his feeling, though she left the object vague; and +he was struck with the tact, the taste of her vagueness, which simply took for +granted in him a sense of beautiful things. He was conscious of how much it was +affected, this sense, by something subdued and discreet in the way she had +arranged herself for her special object and her morning walk—he believed +her to have come on foot; the way her slightly thicker veil was drawn—a +mere touch, but everything; the composed gravity of her dress, in which, here +and there, a dull wine-colour seemed to gleam faintly through black; the +charming discretion of her small compact head; the quiet note, as she sat, of +her folded, grey-gloved hands. It was, to Strether’s mind, as if she sat +on her own ground, the light honours of which, at an open gate, she thus easily +did him, while all the vastness and mystery of the domain stretched off behind. +When people were so completely in possession they could be extraordinarily +civil; and our friend had indeed at this hour a kind of revelation of her +heritage. She was romantic for him far beyond what she could have guessed, and +again he found his small comfort in the conviction that, subtle though she was, +his impression must remain a secret from her. The thing that, once more, made +him uneasy for secrets in general was this particular patience she could have +with his own want of colour; albeit that on the other hand his uneasiness +pretty well dropped after he had been for ten minutes as colourless as possible +and at the same time as responsive. +</p> + +<p> +The moments had already, for that matter, drawn their deepest tinge from the +special interest excited in him by his vision of his companion’s identity +with the person whose attitude before the glimmering altar had so impressed +him. This attitude fitted admirably into the stand he had privately taken about +her connexion with Chad on the last occasion of his seeing them together. It +helped him to stick fast at the point he had then reached; it was there he had +resolved that he <i>would</i> stick, and at no moment since had it seemed as +easy to do so. Unassailably innocent was a relation that could make one of the +parties to it so carry herself. If it wasn’t innocent why did she haunt +the churches?—into which, given the woman he could believe he made out, +she would never have come to flaunt an insolence of guilt. She haunted them for +continued help, for strength, for peace—sublime support which, if one +were able to look at it so, she found from day to day. They talked, in low easy +tones and with lifted lingering looks, about the great monument and its history +and its beauty—all of which, Madame de Vionnet professed, came to her +most in the other, the outer view. “We’ll presently, after we +go,” she said, “walk round it again if you like. I’m not in a +particular hurry, and it will be pleasant to look at it well with you.” +He had spoken of the great romancer and the great romance, and of what, to his +imagination, they had done for the whole, mentioning to her moreover the +exorbitance of his purchase, the seventy blazing volumes that were so out of +proportion. +</p> + +<p> +“Out of proportion to what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, to any other plunge.” Yet he felt even as he spoke how at +that instant he was plunging. He had made up his mind and was impatient to get +into the air; for his purpose was a purpose to be uttered outside, and he had a +fear that it might with delay still slip away from him. She however took her +time; she drew out their quiet gossip as if she had wished to profit by their +meeting, and this confirmed precisely an interpretation of her manner, of her +mystery. While she rose, as he would have called it, to the question of Victor +Hugo, her voice itself, the light low quaver of her deference to the solemnity +about them, seemed to make her words mean something that they didn’t mean +openly. Help, strength, peace, a sublime support—she hadn’t found +so much of these things as that the amount wouldn’t be sensibly greater +for any scrap his appearance of faith in her might enable her to feel in her +hand. Every little, in a long strain, helped, and if he happened to affect her +as a firm object she could hold on by, he wouldn’t jerk himself out of +her reach. People in difficulties held on by what was nearest, and he was +perhaps after all not further off than sources of comfort more abstract. It was +as to this he had made up his mind; he had made it up, that is, to give her a +sign. The sign would be that—though it was her own affair—he +understood; the sign would be that—though it was her own affair—she +was free to clutch. Since she took him for a firm object—much as he might +to his own sense appear at times to rock—he would do his best to +<i>be</i> one. +</p> + +<p> +The end of it was that half an hour later they were seated together for an +early luncheon at a wonderful, a delightful house of entertainment on the left +bank—a place of pilgrimage for the knowing, they were both aware, the +knowing who came, for its great renown, the homage of restless days, from the +other end of the town. Strether had already been there three times—first +with Miss Gostrey, then with Chad, then with Chad again and with Waymarsh and +little Bilham, all of whom he had himself sagaciously entertained; and his +pleasure was deep now on learning that Madame de Vionnet hadn’t yet been +initiated. When he had said as they strolled round the church, by the river, +acting at last on what, within, he had made up his mind to, “Will you, if +you have time, come to déjeuner with me somewhere? For instance, if you know +it, over there on the other side, which is so easy a walk”—and then +had named the place; when he had done this she stopped short as for quick +intensity, and yet deep difficulty, of response. She took in the proposal as if +it were almost too charming to be true; and there had perhaps never yet been +for her companion so unexpected a moment of pride—so fine, so odd a case, +at any rate, as his finding himself thus able to offer to a person in such +universal possession a new, a rare amusement. She had heard of the happy spot, +but she asked him in reply to a further question how in the world he could +suppose her to have been there. He supposed himself to have supposed that Chad +might have taken her, and she guessed this the next moment to his no small +discomfort. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah, let me explain,” she smiled, “that I don’t go +about with him in public; I never have such chances—not having them +otherwise—and it’s just the sort of thing that, as a quiet creature +living in my hole, I adore.” It was more than kind of him to have thought +of it—though, frankly, if he asked whether she had time she hadn’t +a single minute. That however made no difference—she’d throw +everything over. Every duty at home, domestic, maternal, social, awaited her; +but it was a case for a high line. Her affairs would go to smash, but +hadn’t one a right to one’s snatch of scandal when one was prepared +to pay? It was on this pleasant basis of costly disorder, consequently, that +they eventually seated themselves, on either side of a small table, at a window +adjusted to the busy quay and the shining barge-burdened Seine; where, for an +hour, in the matter of letting himself go, of diving deep, Strether was to feel +he had touched bottom. He was to feel many things on this occasion, and one of +the first of them was that he had travelled far since that evening in London, +before the theatre, when his dinner with Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded +candles, had struck him as requiring so many explanations. He had at that time +gathered them in, the explanations—he had stored them up; but it was at +present as if he had either soared above or sunk below them—he +couldn’t tell which; he could somehow think of none that didn’t +seem to leave the appearance of collapse and cynicism easier for him than +lucidity. How could he wish it to be lucid for others, for any one, that he, +for the hour, saw reasons enough in the mere way the bright clean ordered +water-side life came in at the open window?—the mere way Madame de +Vionnet, opposite him over their intensely white table-linen, their <i>omelette +aux tomates</i>, their bottle of straw-coloured Chablis, thanked him for +everything almost with the smile of a child, while her grey eyes moved in and +out of their talk, back to the quarter of the warm spring air, in which early +summer had already begun to throb, and then back again to his face and their +human questions. +</p> + +<p> +Their human questions became many before they had done—many more, as one +after the other came up, than our friend’s free fancy had at all +foreseen. The sense he had had before, the sense he had had repeatedly, the +sense that the situation was running away with him, had never been so sharp as +now; and all the more that he could perfectly put his finger on the moment it +had taken the bit in its teeth. That accident had definitely occurred, the +other evening, after Chad’s dinner; it had occurred, as he fully knew, at +the moment when he interposed between this lady and her child, when he suffered +himself so to discuss with her a matter closely concerning them that her own +subtlety, marked by its significant “Thank you!” instantly sealed +the occasion in her favour. Again he had held off for ten days, but the +situation had continued out of hand in spite of that; the fact that it was +running so fast being indeed just <i>why</i> he had held off. What had come +over him as he recognised her in the nave of the church was that holding off +could be but a losing game from the instant she was worked for not only by her +subtlety, but by the hand of fate itself. If all the accidents were to fight on +her side—and by the actual showing they loomed large—he could only +give himself up. This was what he had done in privately deciding then and there +to propose she should breakfast with him. What did the success of his proposal +in fact resemble but the smash in which a regular runaway properly ends? The +smash was their walk, their déjeuner, their omelette, the Chablis, the place, +the view, their present talk and his present pleasure in it—to say +nothing, wonder of wonders, of her own. To this tune and nothing less, +accordingly, was his surrender made good. It sufficiently lighted up at least +the folly of holding off. Ancient proverbs sounded, for his memory, in the tone +of their words and the clink of their glasses, in the hum of the town and the +plash of the river. It <i>was</i> clearly better to suffer as a sheep than as a +lamb. One might as well perish by the sword as by famine. +</p> + +<p> +“Maria’s still away?”—that was the first thing she had +asked him; and when he had found the frankness to be cheerful about it in spite +of the meaning he knew her to attach to Miss Gostrey’s absence, she had +gone on to enquire if he didn’t tremendously miss her. There were reasons +that made him by no means sure, yet he nevertheless answered +“Tremendously”; which she took in as if it were all she had wished +to prove. Then, “A man in trouble <i>must</i> be possessed somehow of a +woman,” she said; “if she doesn’t come in one way she comes +in another.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why do you call me a man in trouble?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah because that’s the way you strike me.” She spoke ever so +gently and as if with all fear of wounding him while she sat partaking of his +bounty. “<i>Aren’t</i> you in trouble?” +</p> + +<p> +He felt himself colour at the question, and then hated that—hated to pass +for anything so idiotic as woundable. Woundable by Chad’s lady, in +respect to whom he had come out with such a fund of indifference—was he +already at that point? Perversely, none the less, his pause gave a strange air +of truth to her supposition; and what was he in fact but disconcerted at having +struck her just in the way he had most dreamed of not doing? “I’m +not in trouble yet,” he at last smiled. “I’m not in trouble +now.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’m always so. But that you sufficiently know.” She +was a woman who, between courses, could be graceful with her elbows on the +table. It was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but it was easy for a <i>femme +du monde</i>. “Yes—I am ‘now’!” +</p> + +<p> +“There was a question you put to me,” he presently returned, +“the night of Chad’s dinner. I didn’t answer it then, and it +has been very handsome of you not to have sought an occasion for pressing me +about it since.” +</p> + +<p> +She was instantly all there. “Of course I know what you allude to. I +asked you what you had meant by saying, the day you came to see me, just before +you left me, that you’d save me. And you then said—at our +friend’s—that you’d have really to wait to see, for yourself, +what you did mean.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I asked for time,” said Strether. “And it sounds now, +as you put it, like a very ridiculous speech.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” she murmured—she was full of attenuation. But she had +another thought. “If it does sound ridiculous why do you deny that +you’re in trouble?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah if I were,” he replied, “it wouldn’t be the trouble +of fearing ridicule. I don’t fear it.” +</p> + +<p> +“What then do you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Nothing—now.” And he leaned back in his chair. +</p> + +<p> +“I like your ‘now’!” she laughed across at him. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it’s precisely that it fully comes to me at present that +I’ve kept you long enough. I know by this time, at any rate, what I meant +by my speech; and I really knew it the night of Chad’s dinner.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why didn’t you tell me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because it was difficult at the moment. I had already at that moment +done something for you, in the sense of what I had said the day I went to see +you; but I wasn’t then sure of the importance I might represent this as +having.” +</p> + +<p> +She was all eagerness. “And you’re sure now?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes; I see that, practically, I’ve done for you—had done for +you when you put me your question—all that it’s as yet possible to +me to do. I feel now,” he went on, “that it may go further than I +thought. What I did after my visit to you,” he explained, “was to +write straight off to Mrs. Newsome about you, and I’m at last, from one +day to the other, expecting her answer. It’s this answer that will +represent, as I believe, the consequences.” +</p> + +<p> +Patient and beautiful was her interest. “I see—the consequences of +your speaking for me.” And she waited as if not to hustle him. +</p> + +<p> +He acknowledged it by immediately going on. “The question, you +understand, was <i>how</i> I should save you. Well, I’m trying it by thus +letting her know that I consider you worth saving.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see—I see.” Her eagerness broke through. +</p> + +<p> +“How can I thank you enough?” He couldn’t tell her that, +however, and she quickly pursued. “You do really, for yourself, consider +it?” +</p> + +<p> +His only answer at first was to help her to the dish that had been freshly put +before them. “I’ve written to her again since then—I’ve +left her in no doubt of what I think. I’ve told her all about you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Thanks—not so much. ‘All about’ me,” she went +on—“yes.” +</p> + +<p> +“All it seems to me you’ve done for him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah and you might have added all it seems to <i>me!</i>” She +laughed again, while she took up her knife and fork, as in the cheer of these +assurances. “But you’re not sure how she’ll take it.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I’ll not pretend I’m sure.” +</p> + +<p> +“Voilà.” And she waited a moment. “I wish you’d tell me +about her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said Strether with a slightly strained smile, “all that +need concern you about her is that she’s really a grand person.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame de Vionnet seemed to demur. “Is that all that need concern me +about her?” +</p> + +<p> +But Strether neglected the question. “Hasn’t Chad talked to +you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of his mother? Yes, a great deal—immensely. But not from your +point of view.” +</p> + +<p> +“He can’t,” our friend returned, “have said any ill of +her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Not the least bit. He has given me, like you, the assurance that +she’s really grand. But her being really grand is somehow just what +hasn’t seemed to simplify our case. Nothing,” she continued, +“is further from me than to wish to say a word against her; but of course +I feel how little she can like being told of her owing me anything. No woman +ever enjoys such an obligation to another woman.” +</p> + +<p> +This was a proposition Strether couldn’t contradict. “And yet what +other way could I have expressed to her what I felt? It’s what there was +most to say about you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean then that she <i>will</i> be good to me?” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s what I’m waiting to see. But I’ve little doubt +she would,” he added, “if she could comfortably see you.” +</p> + +<p> +It seemed to strike her as a happy, a beneficent thought. “Oh then +couldn’t that be managed? Wouldn’t she come out? Wouldn’t she +if you so put it to her? <i>Did</i> you by any possibility?” she faintly +quavered. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no”—he was prompt. “Not that. It would be, much +more, to give an account of you that—since there’s no question of +<i>your</i> paying the visit—I should go home first.” +</p> + +<p> +It instantly made her graver. “And are you thinking of that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh all the while, naturally.” +</p> + +<p> +“Stay with us—stay with us!” she exclaimed on this. +“That’s your only way to make sure.” +</p> + +<p> +“To make sure of what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why that he doesn’t break up. You didn’t come out to do that +to him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Doesn’t it depend,” Strether returned after a moment, +“on what you mean by breaking up?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you know well enough what I mean!” +</p> + +<p> +His silence seemed again for a little to denote an understanding. “You +take for granted remarkable things.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I do—to the extent that I don’t take for granted vulgar +ones. You’re perfectly capable of seeing that what you came out for +wasn’t really at all to do what you’d now have to do.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah it’s perfectly simple,” Strether good-humouredly pleaded. +“I’ve had but one thing to do—to put our case before him. To +put it as it could only be put here on the spot—by personal pressure. My +dear lady,” he lucidly pursued, “my work, you see, is really done, +and my reasons for staying on even another day are none of the best. +Chad’s in possession of our case and professes to do it full justice. +What remains is with himself. I’ve had my rest, my amusement and +refreshment; I’ve had, as we say at Woollett, a lovely time. Nothing in +it has been more lovely than this happy meeting with you—in these +fantastic conditions to which you’ve so delightfully consented. +I’ve a sense of success. It’s what I wanted. My getting all this +good is what Chad has waited for, and I gather that if I’m ready to go +he’s the same.” +</p> + +<p> +She shook her head with a finer deeper wisdom. “You’re not ready. +If you’re ready why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the sense +you’ve mentioned to me?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether considered. “I shan’t go before I hear from her. +You’re too much afraid of her,” he added. +</p> + +<p> +It produced between them a long look from which neither shrank. “I +don’t think you believe that—believe I’ve not really reason +to fear her.” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s capable of great generosity,” Strether presently +stated. +</p> + +<p> +“Well then let her trust me a little. That’s all I ask. Let her +recognise in spite of everything what I’ve done.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah remember,” our friend replied, “that she can’t +effectually recognise it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and +show her what you’ve done, and let him plead with her there for it and, +as it were, for <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +She measured the depth of this suggestion. “Do you give me your word of +honour that if she once has him there she won’t do her best to marry +him?” +</p> + +<p> +It made her companion, this enquiry, look again a while out at the view; after +which he spoke without sharpness. “When she sees for herself what he +is—” +</p> + +<p> +But she had already broken in. “It’s when she sees for herself what +he is that she’ll want to marry him most.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s attitude, that of due deference to what she said, permitted +him to attend for a minute to his luncheon. “I doubt if that will come +off. It won’t be easy to make it.” +</p> + +<p> +“It will be easy if he remains there—and he’ll remain for the +money. The money appears to be, as a probability, so hideously much.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” Strether presently concluded, “nothing <i>could</i> +really hurt you but his marrying.” +</p> + +<p> +She gave a strange light laugh. “Putting aside what may really hurt +<i>him</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +But her friend looked at her as if he had thought of that too. “The +question will come up, of course, of the future that you yourself offer +him.” +</p> + +<p> +She was leaning back now, but she fully faced him. “Well, let it come +up!” +</p> + +<p> +“The point is that it’s for Chad to make of it what he can. His +being proof against marriage will show what he does make.” +</p> + +<p> +“If he <i>is</i> proof, yes”—she accepted the proposition. +“But for myself,” she added, “the question is what <i>you</i> +make.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah I make nothing. It’s not my affair.” +</p> + +<p> +“I beg your pardon. It’s just there that, since you’ve taken +it up and are committed to it, it most intensely becomes yours. You’re +not saving me, I take it, for your interest in myself, but for your interest in +our friend. The one’s at any rate wholly dependent on the other. You +can’t in honour not see me through,” she wound up, “because +you can’t in honour not see <i>him</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet soft acuteness. The thing that most +moved him was really that she was so deeply serious. She had none of the +portentous forms of it, but he had never come in contact, it struck him, with a +force brought to so fine a head. Mrs. Newsome, goodness knew, was serious; but +it was nothing to this. He took it all in, he saw it all together. +“No,” he mused, “I can’t in honour not see him.” +</p> + +<p> +Her face affected him as with an exquisite light. “You <i>will</i> +then?” +</p> + +<p> +“I will.” +</p> + +<p> +At this she pushed back her chair and was the next moment on her feet. +“Thank you!” she said with her hand held out to him across the +table and with no less a meaning in the words than her lips had so particularly +given them after Chad’s dinner. The golden nail she had then driven in +pierced a good inch deeper. Yet he reflected that he himself had only meanwhile +done what he had made up his mind to on the same occasion. So far as the +essence of the matter went he had simply stood fast on the spot on which he had +then planted his feet. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +He received three days after this a communication from America, in the form of +a scrap of blue paper folded and gummed, not reaching him through his bankers, +but delivered at his hotel by a small boy in uniform, who, under instructions +from the concierge, approached him as he slowly paced the little court. It was +the evening hour, but daylight was long now and Paris more than ever +penetrating. The scent of flowers was in the streets, he had the whiff of +violets perpetually in his nose; and he had attached himself to sounds and +suggestions, vibrations of the air, human and dramatic, he imagined, as they +were not in other places, that came out for him more and more as the mild +afternoons deepened—a far-off hum, a sharp near click on the asphalt, a +voice calling, replying, somewhere and as full of tone as an actor’s in a +play. He was to dine at home, as usual, with Waymarsh—they had settled to +that for thrift and simplicity; and he now hung about before his friend came +down. +</p> + +<p> +He read his telegram in the court, standing still a long time where he had +opened it and giving five minutes afterwards to the renewed study of it. At +last, quickly, he crumpled it up as if to get it out of the way; in spite of +which, however, he kept it there—still kept it when, at the end of +another turn, he had dropped into a chair placed near a small table. Here, with +his scrap of paper compressed in his fist and further concealed by his folding +his arms tight, he sat for some time in thought, gazed before him so straight +that Waymarsh appeared and approached him without catching his eye. The latter +in fact, struck with his appearance, looked at him hard for a single instant +and then, as if determined to that course by some special vividness in it, +dropped back into the <i>salon de lecture</i> without addressing him. But the +pilgrim from Milrose permitted himself still to observe the scene from behind +the clear glass plate of that retreat. Strether ended, as he sat, by a fresh +scrutiny of his compressed missive, which he smoothed out carefully again as he +placed it on his table. There it remained for some minutes, until, at last +looking up, he saw Waymarsh watching him from within. It was on this that their +eyes met—met for a moment during which neither moved. But Strether then +got up, folding his telegram more carefully and putting it into his waistcoat +pocket. +</p> + +<p> +A few minutes later the friends were seated together at dinner; but Strether +had meanwhile said nothing about it, and they eventually parted, after coffee +in the court, with nothing said on either side. Our friend had moreover the +consciousness that even less than usual was on this occasion said between them, +so that it was almost as if each had been waiting for something from the other. +Waymarsh had always more or less the air of sitting at the door of his tent, +and silence, after so many weeks, had come to play its part in their concert. +This note indeed, to Strether’s sense, had lately taken a fuller tone, +and it was his fancy to-night that they had never quite so drawn it out. Yet it +befell, none the less that he closed the door to confidence when his companion +finally asked him if there were anything particular the matter with him. +“Nothing,” he replied, “more than usual.” +</p> + +<p> +On the morrow, however, at an early hour, he found occasion to give an answer +more in consonance with the facts. What was the matter had continued to be so +all the previous evening, the first hours of which, after dinner, in his room, +he had devoted to the copious composition of a letter. He had quitted Waymarsh +for this purpose, leaving him to his own resources with less ceremony than +their wont, but finally coming down again with his letter unconcluded and going +forth into the streets without enquiry for his comrade. He had taken a long +vague walk, and one o’clock had struck before his return and his +re-ascent to his room by the aid of the glimmering candle-end left for him on +the shelf outside the porter’s lodge. He had possessed himself, on +closing his door, of the numerous loose sheets of his unfinished composition, +and then, without reading them over, had torn them into small pieces. He had +thereupon slept—as if it had been in some measure thanks to that +sacrifice—the sleep of the just, and had prolonged his rest considerably +beyond his custom. Thus it was that when, between nine and ten, the tap of the +knob of a walking-stick sounded on his door, he had not yet made himself +altogether presentable. Chad Newsome’s bright deep voice determined +quickly enough none the less the admission of the visitor. The little blue +paper of the evening before, plainly an object the more precious for its escape +from premature destruction, now lay on the sill of the open window, smoothed +out afresh and kept from blowing away by the superincumbent weight of his +watch. Chad, looking about with careless and competent criticism, as he looked +wherever he went immediately espied it and permitted himself to fix it for a +moment rather hard. After which he turned his eyes to his host. “It has +come then at last?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether paused in the act of pinning his necktie. “Then you know—? +You’ve had one too?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I’ve had nothing, and I only know what I see. I see that thing +and I guess. Well,” he added, “it comes as pat as in a play, for +I’ve precisely turned up this morning—as I would have done +yesterday, but it was impossible—to take you.” +</p> + +<p> +“To take me?” Strether had turned again to his glass. +</p> + +<p> +“Back, at last, as I promised. I’m ready—I’ve really +been ready this month. I’ve only been waiting for you—as was +perfectly right. But you’re better now; you’re safe—I see +that for myself; you’ve got all your good. You’re looking, this +morning, as fit as a flea.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, at his glass, finished dressing; consulting that witness moreover on +this last opinion. <i>Was</i> he looking preternaturally fit? There was +something in it perhaps for Chad’s wonderful eye, but he had felt himself +for hours rather in pieces. Such a judgement, however, was after all but a +contribution to his resolve; it testified unwittingly to his wisdom. He was +still firmer, apparently—since it shone in him as a light—than he +had flattered himself. His firmness indeed was slightly compromised, as he +faced about to his friend, by the way this very personage looked—though +the case would of course have been worse hadn’t the secret of personal +magnificence been at every hour Chad’s unfailing possession. There he was +in all the pleasant morning freshness of it—strong and sleek and gay, +easy and fragrant and fathomless, with happy health in his colour, and pleasant +silver in his thick young hair, and the right word for everything on the lips +that his clear brownness caused to show as red. He had never struck Strether as +personally such a success; it was as if now, for his definite surrender, he had +gathered himself vividly together. This, sharply and rather strangely, was the +form in which he was to be presented to Woollett. Our friend took him in +again—he was always taking him in and yet finding that parts of him still +remained out; though even thus his image showed through a mist of other things. +“I’ve had a cable,” Strether said, “from your +mother.” +</p> + +<p> +“I dare say, my dear man. I hope she’s well.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “No—she’s not well, I’m sorry to +have to tell you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Chad, “I must have had the instinct of it. All the +more reason then that we should start straight off.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had now got together hat, gloves and stick, but Chad had dropped on +the sofa as if to show where he wished to make his point. He kept observing his +companion’s things; he might have been judging how quickly they could be +packed. He might even have wished to hint that he’d send his own servant +to assist. “What do you mean,” Strether enquired, “by +‘straight off’?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh by one of next week’s boats. Everything at this season goes out +so light that berths will be easy anywhere.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had in his hand his telegram, which he had kept there after attaching +his watch, and he now offered it to Chad, who, however, with an odd movement, +declined to take it. “Thanks, I’d rather not. Your correspondence +with Mother’s your own affair. I’m only <i>with</i> you both on it, +whatever it is.” Strether, at this, while their eyes met, slowly folded +the missive and put it in his pocket; after which, before he had spoken again, +Chad broke fresh ground. “Has Miss Gostrey come back?” +</p> + +<p> +But when Strether presently spoke it wasn’t in answer. “It’s +not, I gather, that your mother’s physically ill; her health, on the +whole, this spring, seems to have been better than usual. But she’s +worried, she’s anxious, and it appears to have risen within the last few +days to a climax. We’ve tired out, between us, her patience.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh it isn’t <i>you!</i>” Chad generously protested. +</p> + +<p> +“I beg your pardon—it <i>is</i> me.” Strether was mild and +melancholy, but firm. He saw it far away and over his companion’s head. +“It’s very particularly me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then all the more reason. <i>Marchons, marchons!</i>” said +the young man gaily. His host, however, at this, but continued to stand agaze; +and he had the next thing repeated his question of a moment before. “Has +Miss Gostrey come back?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, two days ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then you’ve seen her?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—I’m to see her to-day.” But Strether wouldn’t +linger now on Miss Gostrey. “Your mother sends me an ultimatum. If I +can’t bring you I’m to leave you; I’m to come at any rate +myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but you <i>can</i> bring me now,” Chad, from his sofa, +reassuringly replied. +</p> + +<p> +Strether had a pause. “I don’t think I understand you. Why was it +that, more than a month ago, you put it to me so urgently to let Madame de +Vionnet speak for you?” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Why’?” Chad considered, but he had it at his +fingers’ ends. “Why but because I knew how well she’d do it? +It was the way to keep you quiet and, to that extent, do you good. +Besides,” he happily and comfortably explained, “I wanted you +really to know her and to get the impression of her—and you see the good +that <i>has</i> done you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “the way she has spoken for you, all +the same—so far as I’ve given her a chance—has only made me +feel how much she wishes to keep you. If you make nothing of that I don’t +see why you wanted me to listen to her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why my dear man,” Chad exclaimed, “I make everything of it! +How can you doubt—?” +</p> + +<p> +“I doubt only because you come to me this morning with your signal to +start.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad stared, then gave a laugh. “And isn’t my signal to start just +what you’ve been waiting for?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether debated; he took another turn. “This last month I’ve been +awaiting, I think, more than anything else, the message I have here.” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean you’ve been afraid of it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I was doing my business in my own way. And I suppose your present +announcement,” Strether went on, “isn’t merely the result of +your sense of what I’ve expected. Otherwise you wouldn’t have put +me in relation—” But he paused, pulling up. +</p> + +<p> +At this Chad rose. “Ah <i>her</i> wanting me not to go has nothing to do +with it! It’s only because she’s afraid—afraid of the way +that, over there, I may get caught. But her fear’s groundless.” +</p> + +<p> +He had met again his companion’s sufficiently searching look. “Are +you tired of her?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad gave him in reply to this, with a movement of the head, the strangest slow +smile he had ever had from him. “Never.” +</p> + +<p> +It had immediately, on Strether’s imagination, so deep and soft an effect +that our friend could only for the moment keep it before him. +“Never?” +</p> + +<p> +“Never,” Chad obligingly and serenely repeated. +</p> + +<p> +It made his companion take several more steps. “Then <i>you’re</i> +not afraid.” +</p> + +<p> +“Afraid to go?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether pulled up again. “Afraid to stay.” +</p> + +<p> +The young man looked brightly amazed. “You want me now to +‘stay’?” +</p> + +<p> +“If I don’t immediately sail the Pococks will immediately come out. +That’s what I mean,” said Strether, “by your mother’s +ultimatum.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad showed a still livelier, but not an alarmed interest. “She has +turned on Sarah and Jim?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether joined him for an instant in the vision. “Oh and you may be sure +Mamie. <i>That’s</i> whom she’s turning on.” +</p> + +<p> +This also Chad saw—he laughed out. “Mamie—to corrupt +me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Strether, “she’s very charming.” +</p> + +<p> +“So you’ve already more than once told me. I should like to see +her.” +</p> + +<p> +Something happy and easy, something above all unconscious, in the way he said +this, brought home again to his companion the facility of his attitude and the +enviability of his state. “See her then by all means. And consider +too,” Strether went on, “that you really give your sister a lift in +letting her come to you. You give her a couple of months of Paris, which she +hasn’t seen, if I’m not mistaken, since just after she was married, +and which I’m sure she wants but the pretext to visit.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad listened, but with all his own knowledge of the world. “She has had +it, the pretext, these several years, yet she has never taken it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean <i>you?</i>” Strether after an instant enquired. +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly—the lone exile. And whom do you mean?” said Chad. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I mean <i>me</i>. I’m her pretext. That is—for it comes +to the same thing—I’m your mother’s.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then why,” Chad asked, “doesn’t Mother come +herself?” +</p> + +<p> +His friend gave him a long look. “Should you like her to?” And as +he for the moment said nothing: “It’s perfectly open to you to +cable for her.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad continued to think. “Will she come if I do?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite possibly. But try, and you’ll see.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why don’t <i>you</i> try?” Chad after a moment asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Because I don’t want to.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad thought. “Don’t desire her presence here?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether faced the question, and his answer was the more emphatic. +“Don’t put it off, my dear boy, on <i>me!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Well—I see what you mean. I’m sure you’d behave +beautifully but you <i>don’t</i> want to see her. So I won’t play +you that trick.’ +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” Strether declared, “I shouldn’t call it a trick. +You’ve a perfect right, and it would be perfectly straight of you.” +Then he added in a different tone: “You’d have moreover, in the +person of Madame de Vionnet, a very interesting relation prepared for +her.” +</p> + +<p> +Their eyes, on this proposition, continued to meet, but Chad’s pleasant +and bold, never flinched for a moment. He got up at last and he said something +with which Strether was struck. “She wouldn’t understand her, but +that makes no difference. Madame de Vionnet would like to see her. She’d +like to be charming to her. She believes she could work it.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought a moment, affected by this, but finally turning away. +“She couldn’t!” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re quite sure?” Chad asked. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, risk it if you like!” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, who uttered this with serenity, had urged a plea for their now +getting into the air; but the young man still waited. “Have you sent your +answer?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I’ve done nothing yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Were you waiting to see me?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, not that.” +</p> + +<p> +“Only waiting”—and Chad, with this, had a smile for +him—“to see Miss Gostrey?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—not even Miss Gostrey. I wasn’t waiting to see any one. I +had only waited, till now, to make up my mind—in complete solitude; and, +since I of course absolutely owe you the information, was on the point of going +out with it quite made up. Have therefore a little more patience with me. +Remember,” Strether went on, “that that’s what you originally +asked <i>me</i> to have. I’ve had it, you see, and you see what has come +of it. Stay on with me.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad looked grave. “How much longer?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, till I make you a sign. I can’t myself, you know, at the +best, or at the worst, stay for ever. Let the Pococks come,” Strether +repeated. +</p> + +<p> +“Because it gains you time?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—it gains me time.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad, as if it still puzzled him, waited a minute. “You don’t want +to get back to Mother?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not just yet. I’m not ready.” +</p> + +<p> +“You feel,” Chad asked in a tone of his own, “the charm of +life over here?” +</p> + +<p> +“Immensely.” Strether faced it. “You’ve helped me so to +feel it that that surely needn’t surprise you.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, it doesn’t surprise me, and I’m delighted. But what, my +dear man,” Chad went on with conscious queerness, “does it all lead +to for you?” +</p> + +<p> +The change of position and of relation, for each, was so oddly betrayed in the +question that Chad laughed out as soon as he had uttered it—which made +Strether also laugh. “Well, to my having a certitude that has been +tested—that has passed through the fire. But oh,” he couldn’t +help breaking out, “if within my first month here you had been willing to +move with me—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well?” said Chad, while he broke down as for weight of thought. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, we should have been over there by now.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but you wouldn’t have had your fun!” +</p> + +<p> +“I should have had a month of it; and I’m having now, if you want +to know,” Strether continued, “enough to last me for the rest of my +days.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad looked amused and interested, yet still somewhat in the dark; partly +perhaps because Strether’s estimate of fun had required of him from the +first a good deal of elucidation. “It wouldn’t do if I left +you—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Left me?”—Strether remained blank. +</p> + +<p> +“Only for a month or two—time to go and come. Madame de +Vionnet,” Chad smiled, “would look after you in the +interval.” +</p> + +<p> +“To go back by yourself, I remaining here?” Again for an instant +their eyes had the question out; after which Strether said: +“Grotesque!” +</p> + +<p> +“But I want to see Mother,” Chad presently returned. +“Remember how long it is since I’ve seen Mother.” +</p> + +<p> +“Long indeed; and that’s exactly why I was originally so keen for +moving you. Hadn’t you shown us enough how beautifully you could do +without it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but,” said Chad wonderfully, “I’m better +now.” +</p> + +<p> +There was an easy triumph in it that made his friend laugh out again. “Oh +if you were worse I <i>should</i> know what to do with you. In that case I +believe I’d have you gagged and strapped down, carried on board +resisting, kicking. How <i>much</i>,” Strether asked, “do you want +to see Mother?” +</p> + +<p> +“How much?”—Chad seemed to find it in fact difficult to say. +</p> + +<p> +“How much.” +</p> + +<p> +“Why as much as you’ve made me. I’d give anything to see her. +And you’ve left me,” Chad went on, “in little enough doubt as +to how much <i>she</i> wants it.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought a minute. “Well then if those things are really your +motive catch the French steamer and sail to-morrow. Of course, when it comes to +that, you’re absolutely free to do as you choose. From the moment you +can’t hold yourself I can only accept your flight.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll fly in a minute then,” said Chad, “if +you’ll stay here.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll stay here till the next steamer—then I’ll follow +you.” +</p> + +<p> +“And do you call that,” Chad asked, “accepting my +flight?” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly—it’s the only thing to call it. The only way to +keep me here, accordingly,” Strether explained, “is by staying +yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad took it in. “All the more that I’ve really dished you, +eh?” +</p> + +<p> +“Dished me?” Strether echoed as inexpressively as possible. +</p> + +<p> +“Why if she sends out the Pococks it will be that she doesn’t trust +you, and if she doesn’t trust you, that bears upon—well, you know +what.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether decided after a moment that he did know what, and in consonance with +this he spoke. “You see then all the more what you owe me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, if I do see, how can I pay?” +</p> + +<p> +“By not deserting me. By standing by me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I say—!” But Chad, as they went downstairs, clapped a +firm hand, in the manner of a pledge, upon his shoulder. They descended slowly +together and had, in the court of the hotel, some further talk, of which the +upshot was that they presently separated. Chad Newsome departed, and Strether, +left alone, looked about, superficially, for Waymarsh. But Waymarsh +hadn’t yet, it appeared, come down, and our friend finally went forth +without sight of him. +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +At four o’clock that afternoon he had still not seen him, but he was +then, as to make up for this, engaged in talk about him with Miss Gostrey. +Strether had kept away from home all day, given himself up to the town and to +his thoughts, wandered and mused, been at once restless and absorbed—and +all with the present climax of a rich little welcome in the Quartier Marbœuf. +“Waymarsh has been, ‘unbeknown’ to me, I’m +convinced”—for Miss Gostrey had enquired—“in +communication with Woollett: the consequence of which was, last night, the +loudest possible call for me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean a letter to bring you home?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—a cable, which I have at this moment in my pocket: a +‘Come back by the first ship.’” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s hostess, it might have been made out, just escaped changing +colour. Reflexion arrived but in time and established a provisional serenity. +It was perhaps exactly this that enabled her to say with duplicity: “And +you’re going—?” +</p> + +<p> +“You almost deserve it when you abandon me so.” +</p> + +<p> +She shook her head as if this were not worth taking up. “My absence has +helped you—as I’ve only to look at you to see. It was my +calculation, and I’m justified. You’re not where you were. And the +thing,” she smiled, “was for me not to be there either. You can go +of yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but I feel to-day,” he comfortably declared, “that I +shall want you yet.” +</p> + +<p> +She took him all in again. “Well, I promise you not again to leave you, +but it will only be to follow you. You’ve got your momentum and can +toddle alone.” +</p> + +<p> +He intelligently accepted it. “Yes—I suppose I can toddle. +It’s the sight of that in fact that has upset Waymarsh. He can bear +it—the way I strike him as going—no longer. That’s only the +climax of his original feeling. He wants me to quit; and he must have written +to Woollett that I’m in peril of perdition.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah good!” she murmured. “But is it only your +supposition?” +</p> + +<p> +“I make it out—it explains.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then he denies?—or you haven’t asked him?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve not had time,” Strether said; “I made it out but +last night, putting various things together, and I’ve not been since then +face to face with him.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “Because you’re too disgusted? You can’t trust +yourself?” +</p> + +<p> +He settled his glasses on his nose. “Do I look in a great rage?” +</p> + +<p> +“You look divine!” +</p> + +<p> +“There’s nothing,” he went on, “to be angry about. He +has done me on the contrary a service.” +</p> + +<p> +She made it out. “By bringing things to a head?” +</p> + +<p> +“How well you understand!” he almost groaned. “Waymarsh +won’t in the least, at any rate, when I have it out with him, deny or +extenuate. He has acted from the deepest conviction, with the best conscience +and after wakeful nights. He’ll recognise that he’s fully +responsible, and will consider that he has been highly successful; so that any +discussion we may have will bring us quite together again—bridge the dark +stream that has kept us so thoroughly apart. We shall have at last, in the +consequences of his act, something we can definitely talk about.” +</p> + +<p> +She was silent a little. “How wonderfully you take it! But you’re +always wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +He had a pause that matched her own; then he had, with an adequate spirit, a +complete admission. “It’s quite true. I’m extremely wonderful +just now. I dare say in fact I’m quite fantastic, and I shouldn’t +be at all surprised if I were mad.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then tell me!” she earnestly pressed. As he, however, for the time +answered nothing, only returning the look with which she watched him, she +presented herself where it was easier to meet her. “What will Mr. +Waymarsh exactly have done?” +</p> + +<p> +“Simply have written a letter. One will have been quite enough. He has +told them I want looking after.” +</p> + +<p> +“And <i>do</i> you?”—she was all interest. +</p> + +<p> +“Immensely. And I shall get it.” +</p> + +<p> +“By which you mean you don’t budge?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t budge.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ve cabled?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—I’ve made Chad do it.” +</p> + +<p> +“That you decline to come?” +</p> + +<p> +“That <i>he</i> declines. We had it out this morning and I brought him +round. He had come in, before I was down, to tell me he was ready—ready, +I mean, to return. And he went off, after ten minutes with me, to say he +wouldn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey followed with intensity. “Then you’ve <i>stopped</i> +him?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether settled himself afresh in his chair. “I’ve stopped him. +That is for the time. That”—he gave it to her more +vividly—“is where I am.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see, I see. But where’s Mr. Newsome? He was ready,” she +asked, “to go?” +</p> + +<p> +“All ready.” +</p> + +<p> +“And sincerely—believing <i>you’d</i> be?” +</p> + +<p> +“Perfectly, I think; so that he was amazed to find the hand I had laid on +him to pull him over suddenly converted into an engine for keeping him +still.” +</p> + +<p> +It was an account of the matter Miss Gostrey could weigh. “Does he think +the conversion sudden?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “I’m not altogether sure what he +thinks. I’m not sure of anything that concerns him, except that the more +I’ve seen of him the less I’ve found him what I originally +expected. He’s obscure, and that’s why I’m waiting.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “But for what in particular?” +</p> + +<p> +“For the answer to his cable.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what was his cable?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know,” Strether replied; “it was to be, when +he left me, according to his own taste. I simply said to him: ‘I want to +stay, and the only way for me to do so is for <i>you</i> to.’ That I +wanted to stay seemed to interest him, and he acted on that.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey turned it over. “He wants then himself to stay.” +</p> + +<p> +“He half wants it. That is he half wants to go. My original appeal has to +that extent worked in him. Nevertheless,” Strether pursued, “he +won’t go. Not, at least, so long as I’m here.” +</p> + +<p> +“But you can’t,” his companion suggested, “stay here +always. I wish you could.” +</p> + +<p> +“By no means. Still, I want to see him a little further. He’s not +in the least the case I supposed, he’s quite another case. And it’s +as such that he interests me.” It was almost as if for his own +intelligence that, deliberate and lucid, our friend thus expressed the matter. +“I don’t want to give him up.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey but desired to help his lucidity. She had however to be light and +tactful. “Up, you mean—a—to his mother?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’m not thinking of his mother now. I’m thinking of +the plan of which I was the mouthpiece, which, as soon as we met, I put before +him as persuasively as I knew how, and which was drawn up, as it were, in +complete ignorance of all that, in this last long period, has been happening to +him. It took no account whatever of the impression I was here on the spot +immediately to begin to receive from him—impressions of which I feel sure +I’m far from having had the last.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey had a smile of the most genial criticism. “So your idea +is—more or less—to stay out of curiosity?” +</p> + +<p> +“Call it what you like! I don’t care what it’s +called—” +</p> + +<p> +“So long as you do stay? Certainly not then. I call it, all the same, +immense fun,” Maria Gostrey declared; “and to see you work it out +will be one of the sensations of my life. It <i>is</i> clear you can toddle +alone!” +</p> + +<p> +He received this tribute without elation. “I shan’t be alone when +the Pococks have come.” +</p> + +<p> +Her eyebrows went up. “The Pococks are coming?” +</p> + +<p> +“That, I mean, is what will happen—and happen as quickly as +possible—in consequence of Chad’s cable. They’ll simply +embark. Sarah will come to speak for her mother—with an effect different +from <i>my</i> muddle.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey more gravely wondered. “<i>She</i> then will take him +back?” +</p> + +<p> +“Very possibly—and we shall see. She must at any rate have the +chance, and she may be trusted to do all she can.” +</p> + +<p> +“And do you <i>want</i> that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course,” said Strether, “I want it. I want to play +fair.” +</p> + +<p> +But she had lost for a moment the thread. “If it devolves on the Pococks +why do you stay?” +</p> + +<p> +“Just to see that I <i>do</i> play fair—and a little also, no +doubt, that they do.” Strether was luminous as he had never been. +“I came out to find myself in presence of new facts—facts that have +kept striking me as less and less met by our old reasons. The matter’s +perfectly simple. New reasons—reasons as new as the facts +themselves—are wanted; and of this our friends at +Woollett—Chad’s and mine—were at the earliest moment +definitely notified. If any are producible Mrs. Pocock will produce them; +she’ll bring over the whole collection. They’ll be,” he added +with a pensive smile “a part of the ‘fun’ you speak +of.” +</p> + +<p> +She was quite in the current now and floating by his side. “It’s +Mamie—so far as I’ve had it from you—who’ll be their +great card.” And then as his contemplative silence wasn’t a denial +she significantly added: “I think I’m sorry for her.” +</p> + +<p> +“I think <i>I</i> am!”—and Strether sprang up, moving about a +little as her eyes followed him. “But it can’t be helped.” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean her coming out can’t be?” +</p> + +<p> +He explained after another turn what he meant. “The only way for her not +to come is for me to go home—as I believe that on the spot I could +prevent it. But the difficulty as to that is that if I do go home—” +</p> + +<p> +“I see, I see”—she had easily understood. “Mr. Newsome +will do the same, and that’s not”—she laughed out +now—“to be thought of.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had no laugh; he had only a quiet comparatively placid look that might +have shown him as proof against ridicule. “Strange, isn’t +it?” +</p> + +<p> +They had, in the matter that so much interested them, come so far as this +without sounding another name—to which however their present momentary +silence was full of a conscious reference. Strether’s question was a +sufficient implication of the weight it had gained with him during the absence +of his hostess; and just for that reason a single gesture from her could pass +for him as a vivid answer. Yet he was answered still better when she said in a +moment: “Will Mr. Newsome introduce his sister—?” +</p> + +<p> +“To Madame de Vionnet?” Strether spoke the name at last. “I +shall be greatly surprised if he doesn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +She seemed to gaze at the possibility. “You mean you’ve thought of +it and you’re prepared.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve thought of it and I’m prepared.” +</p> + +<p> +It was to her visitor now that she applied her consideration. “Bon! You +<i>are</i> magnificent!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” he answered after a pause and a little wearily, but still +standing there before her—“well, that’s what, just once in +all my dull days, I think I shall like to have been!” +</p> + +<p> +Two days later he had news from Chad of a communication from Woollett in +response to their determinant telegram, this missive being addressed to Chad +himself and announcing the immediate departure for France of Sarah and Jim and +Mamie. Strether had meanwhile on his own side cabled; he had but delayed that +act till after his visit to Miss Gostrey, an interview by which, as so often +before, he felt his sense of things cleared up and settled. His message to Mrs. +Newsome, in answer to her own, had consisted of the words: “Judge best to +take another month, but with full appreciation of all re-enforcements.” +He had added that he was writing, but he was of course always writing; it was a +practice that continued, oddly enough, to relieve him, to make him come nearer +than anything else to the consciousness of doing something: so that he often +wondered if he hadn’t really, under his recent stress, acquired some +hollow trick, one of the specious arts of make-believe. Wouldn’t the +pages he still so freely dispatched by the American post have been worthy of a +showy journalist, some master of the great new science of beating the sense out +of words? Wasn’t he writing against time, and mainly to show he was +kind?—since it had become quite his habit not to like to read himself +over. On those lines he could still be liberal, yet it was at best a sort of +whistling in the dark. It was unmistakeable moreover that the sense of being in +the dark now pressed on him more sharply—creating thereby the need for a +louder and livelier whistle. He whistled long and hard after sending his +message; he whistled again and again in celebration of Chad’s news; there +was an interval of a fortnight in which this exercise helped him. He had no +great notion of what, on the spot, Sarah Pocock would have to say, though he +had indeed confused premonitions; but it shouldn’t be in her power to +say—it shouldn’t be in any one’s anywhere to say—that +he was neglecting her mother. He might have written before more freely, but he +had never written more copiously; and he frankly gave for a reason at Woollett +that he wished to fill the void created there by Sarah’s departure. +</p> + +<p> +The increase of his darkness, however, and the quickening, as I have called it, +of his tune, resided in the fact that he was hearing almost nothing. He had for +some time been aware that he was hearing less than before, and he was now +clearly following a process by which Mrs. Newsome’s letters could but +logically stop. He hadn’t had a line for many days, and he needed no +proof—though he was, in time, to have plenty—that she +wouldn’t have put pen to paper after receiving the hint that had +determined her telegram. She wouldn’t write till Sarah should have seen +him and reported on him. It was strange, though it might well be less so than +his own behaviour appeared at Woollett. It was at any rate significant, and +what <i>was</i> remarkable was the way his friend’s nature and manner put +on for him, through this very drop of demonstration, a greater intensity. It +struck him really that he had never so lived with her as during this period of +her silence; the silence was a sacred hush, a finer clearer medium, in which +her idiosyncrasies showed. He walked about with her, sat with her, drove with +her and dined face-to-face with her—a rare treat “in his +life,” as he could perhaps have scarce escaped phrasing it; and if he had +never seen her so soundless he had never, on the other hand, felt her so +highly, so almost austerely, herself: pure and by the vulgar estimate +“cold,” but deep devoted delicate sensitive noble. Her vividness in +these respects became for him, in the special conditions, almost an obsession; +and though the obsession sharpened his pulses, adding really to the excitement +of life, there were hours at which, to be less on the stretch, he directly +sought forgetfulness. He knew it for the queerest of adventures—a +circumstance capable of playing such a part only for Lambert +Strether—that in Paris itself, of all places, he should find this ghost +of the lady of Woollett more importunate than any other presence. +</p> + +<p> +When he went back to Maria Gostrey it was for the change to something else. And +yet after all the change scarcely operated for he talked to her of Mrs. Newsome +in these days as he had never talked before. He had hitherto observed in that +particular a discretion and a law; considerations that at present broke down +quite as if relations had altered. They hadn’t <i>really</i> altered, he +said to himself, so much as that came to; for if what had occurred was of +course that Mrs. Newsome had ceased to trust him, there was nothing on the +other hand to prove that he shouldn’t win back her confidence. It was +quite his present theory that he would leave no stone unturned to do so; and in +fact if he now told Maria things about her that he had never told before this +was largely because it kept before him the idea of the honour of such a +woman’s esteem. His relation with Maria as well was, strangely enough, no +longer quite the same; this truth—though not too +disconcertingly—had come up between them on the renewal of their +meetings. It was all contained in what she had then almost immediately said to +him; it was represented by the remark she had needed but ten minutes to make +and that he hadn’t been disposed to gainsay. He could toddle alone, and +the difference that showed was extraordinary. The turn taken by their talk had +promptly confirmed this difference; his larger confidence on the score of Mrs. +Newsome did the rest; and the time seemed already far off when he had held out +his small thirsty cup to the spout of her pail. Her pail was scarce touched +now, and other fountains had flowed for him; she fell into her place as but one +of his tributaries; and there was a strange sweetness—a melancholy +mildness that touched him—in her acceptance of the altered order. +</p> + +<p> +It marked for himself the flight of time, or at any rate what he was pleased to +think of with irony and pity as the rush of experience; it having been but the +day before yesterday that he sat at her feet and held on by her garment and was +fed by her hand. It was the proportions that were changed, and the proportions +were at all times, he philosophised, the very conditions of perception, the +terms of thought. It was as if, with her effective little <i>entresol</i> and +and her wide acquaintance, her activities, varieties, promiscuities, the duties +and devotions that took up nine tenths of her time and of which he got, +guardedly, but the side-wind—it was as if she had shrunk to a secondary +element and had consented to the shrinkage with the perfection of tact. This +perfection had never failed her; it had originally been greater than his prime +measure for it; it had kept him quite apart, kept him out of the shop, as she +called her huge general acquaintance, made their commerce as quiet, as much a +thing of the home alone—the opposite of the shop—as if she had +never another customer. She had been wonderful to him at first, with the memory +of her little <i>entresol</i>, the image to which, on most mornings at that +time, his eyes directly opened; but now she mainly figured for him as but part +of the bristling total—though of course always as a person to whom he +should never cease to be indebted. It would never be given to him certainly to +inspire a greater kindness. She had decked him out for others, and he saw at +this point at least nothing she would ever ask for. She only wondered and +questioned and listened, rendering him the homage of a wistful speculation. She +expressed it repeatedly; he was already far beyond her, and she must prepare +herself to lose him. There was but one little chance for her. +</p> + +<p> +Often as she had said it he met it—for it was a touch he liked—each +time the same way. “My coming to grief?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—then I might patch you up.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh for my real smash, if it takes place, there will be no +patching.” +</p> + +<p> +“But you surely don’t mean it will kill you.” +</p> + +<p> +“No—worse. It will make me old.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah nothing can do that! The wonderful and special thing about you is +that you <i>are</i>, at this time of day, youth.” Then she always made, +further, one of those remarks that she had completely ceased to adorn with +hesitations or apologies, and that had, by the same token, in spite of their +extreme straightness, ceased to produce in Strether the least embarrassment. +She made him believe them, and they became thereby as impersonal as truth +itself. “It’s just your particular charm.” +</p> + +<p> +His answer too was always the same. “Of course I’m +youth—youth for the trip to Europe. I began to be young, or at least to +get the benefit of it, the moment I met you at Chester, and that’s what +has been taking place ever since. I never had the benefit at the proper +time—which comes to saying that I never had the thing itself. I’m +having the benefit at this moment; I had it the other day when I said to Chad +‘Wait’; I shall have it still again when Sarah Pocock arrives. +It’s a benefit that would make a poor show for many people; and I +don’t know who else but you and I, frankly, could begin to see in it what +I feel. I don’t get drunk; I don’t pursue the ladies; I don’t +spend money; I don’t even write sonnets. But nevertheless I’m +making up late for what I didn’t have early. I cultivate my little +benefit in my own little way. It amuses me more than anything that has happened +to me in all my life. They may say what they like—it’s my +surrender, it’s my tribute, to youth. One puts that in where one +can—it has to come in somewhere, if only out of the lives, the +conditions, the feelings of other persons. Chad gives me the sense of it, for +all his grey hairs, which merely make it solid in him and safe and serene; and +<i>she</i> does the same, for all her being older than he, for all her +marriageable daughter, her separated husband, her agitated history. Though +they’re young enough, my pair, I don’t say they’re, in the +freshest way, their <i>own</i> absolutely prime adolescence; for that has +nothing to do with it. The point is that they’re mine. Yes, they’re +my youth; since somehow at the right time nothing else ever was. What I meant +just now therefore is that it would all go—go before doing its +work—if they were to fail me.” +</p> + +<p> +On which, just here, Miss Gostrey inveterately questioned. “What do you, +in particular, call its work?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, to see me through.” +</p> + +<p> +“But through what?”—she liked to get it all out of him. +</p> + +<p> +“Why through this experience.” That was all that would come. +</p> + +<p> +It regularly gave her none the less the last word. “Don’t you +remember how in those first days of our meeting it was <i>I</i> who was to see +you through?” +</p> + +<p> +“Remember? Tenderly, deeply”—he always rose to it. +“You’re just doing your part in letting me maunder to you +thus.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah don’t speak as if my part were small; since whatever else fails +you—” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>You</i> won’t, ever, ever, ever?”—he thus took her +up. “Oh I beg your pardon; you necessarily, you inevitably <i>will</i>. +Your conditions—that’s what I mean—won’t allow me +anything to do for you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Let alone—I see what you mean—that I’m drearily +dreadfully old. I <i>am</i>, but there’s a service—possible for you +to render—that I know, all the same, I shall think of.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what will it be?” +</p> + +<p> +This, in fine, however, she would never tell him. “You shall hear only if +your smash takes place. As that’s really out of the question, I +won’t expose myself”—a point at which, for reasons of his +own, Strether ceased to press. +</p> + +<p> +He came round, for publicity—it was the easiest thing—to the idea +that his smash <i>was</i> out of the question, and this rendered idle the +discussion of what might follow it. He attached an added importance, as the +days elapsed, to the arrival of the Pococks; he had even a shameful sense of +waiting for it insincerely and incorrectly. He accused himself of making +believe to his own mind that Sarah’s presence, her impression, her +judgement would simplify and harmonise, he accused himself of being so afraid +of what they <i>might</i> do that he sought refuge, to beg the whole question, +in a vain fury. He had abundantly seen at home what they were in the habit of +doing, and he had not at present the smallest ground. His clearest vision was +when he made out that what he most desired was an account more full and free of +Mrs. Newsome’s state of mind than any he felt he could now expect from +herself; that calculation at least went hand in hand with the sharp +consciousness of wishing to prove to himself that he was not afraid to look his +behaviour in the face. If he was by an inexorable logic to pay for it he was +literally impatient to know the cost, and he held himself ready to pay in +instalments. The first instalment would be precisely this entertainment of +Sarah; as a consequence of which moreover, he should know vastly better how he +stood. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap08"></a>Book Eighth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +Strether rambled alone during these few days, the effect of the incident of the +previous week having been to simplify in a marked fashion his mixed relations +with Waymarsh. Nothing had passed between them in reference to Mrs. +Newsome’s summons but that our friend had mentioned to his own the +departure of the deputation actually at sea—giving him thus an +opportunity to confess to the occult intervention he imputed to him. Waymarsh +however in the event confessed to nothing; and though this falsified in some +degree Strether’s forecast the latter amusedly saw in it the same depth +of good conscience out of which the dear man’s impertinence had +originally sprung. He was patient with the dear man now and delighted to +observe how unmistakeably he had put on flesh; he felt his own holiday so +successfully large and free that he was full of allowances and charities in +respect to those cabined and confined: his instinct toward a spirit so strapped +down as Waymarsh’s was to walk round it on tiptoe for fear of waking it +up to a sense of losses by this time irretrievable. It was all very funny he +knew, and but the difference, as he often said to himself, of tweedledum and +tweedledee—an emancipation so purely comparative that it was like the +advance of the door-mat on the scraper; yet the present crisis was happily to +profit by it and the pilgrim from Milrose to know himself more than ever in the +right. +</p> + +<p> +Strether felt that when he heard of the approach of the Pococks the impulse of +pity quite sprang up in him beside the impulse of triumph. That was exactly why +Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes in which the heat of justice was measured +and shaded. He had looked very hard, as if affectionately sorry for the +friend—the friend of fifty-five—whose frivolity had had thus to be +recorded; becoming, however, but obscurely sententious and leaving his +companion to formulate a charge. It was in this general attitude that he had of +late altogether taken refuge; with the drop of discussion they were solemnly +sadly superficial; Strether recognised in him the mere portentous rumination to +which Miss Barrace had so good-humouredly described herself as assigning a +corner of her salon. It was quite as if he knew his surreptitious step had been +divined, and it was also as if he missed the chance to explain the purity of +his motive; but this privation of relief should be precisely his small penance: +it was not amiss for Strether that he should find himself to that degree +uneasy. If he had been challenged or accused, rebuked for meddling or otherwise +pulled up, he would probably have shown, on his own system, all the height of +his consistency, all the depth of his good faith. Explicit resentment of his +course would have made him take the floor, and the thump of his fist on the +table would have affirmed him as consciously incorruptible. Had what now really +prevailed with Strether been but a dread of that thump—a dread of wincing +a little painfully at what it might invidiously demonstrate? However this might +be, at any rate, one of the marks of the crisis was a visible, a studied lapse, +in Waymarsh, of betrayed concern. As if to make up to his comrade for the +stroke by which he had played providence he now conspicuously ignored his +movements, withdrew himself from the pretension to share them, stiffened up his +sensibility to neglect, and, clasping his large empty hands and swinging his +large restless foot, clearly looked to another quarter for justice. +</p> + +<p> +This made for independence on Strether’s part, and he had in truth at no +moment of his stay been so free to go and come. The early summer brushed the +picture over and blurred everything but the near; it made a vast warm fragrant +medium in which the elements floated together on the best of terms, in which +rewards were immediate and reckonings postponed. Chad was out of town again, +for the first time since his visitor’s first view of him; he had +explained this necessity—without detail, yet also without embarrassment, +the circumstance was one of those which, in the young man’s life, +testified to the variety of his ties. Strether wasn’t otherwise concerned +with it than for its so testifying—a pleasant multitudinous image in +which he took comfort. He took comfort, by the same stroke, in the swing of +Chad’s pendulum back from that other swing, the sharp jerk towards +Woollett, so stayed by his own hand. He had the entertainment of thinking that +if he had for that moment stopped the clock it was to promote the next minute +this still livelier motion. He himself did what he hadn’t done before; he +took two or three times whole days off—irrespective of others, of two or +three taken with Miss Gostrey, two or three taken with little Bilham: he went +to Chartres and cultivated, before the front of the cathedral, a general easy +beatitude; he went to Fontainebleau and imagined himself on the way to Italy; +he went to Rouen with a little handbag and inordinately spent the night. +</p> + +<p> +One afternoon he did something quite different; finding himself in the +neighbourhood of a fine old house across the river, he passed under the great +arch of its doorway and asked at the porter’s lodge for Madame de +Vionnet. He had already hovered more than once about that possibility, been +aware of it, in the course of ostensible strolls, as lurking but round the +corner. Only it had perversely happened, after his morning at Notre Dame, that +his consistency, as he considered and intended it, had come back to him; +whereby he had reflected that the encounter in question had been none of his +making; clinging again intensely to the strength of his position, which was +precisely that there was nothing in it for himself. From the moment he actively +pursued the charming associate of his adventure, from that moment his position +weakened, for he was then acting in an interested way. It was only within a few +days that he had fixed himself a limit: he promised himself his consistency +should end with Sarah’s arrival. It was arguing correctly to feel the +title to a free hand conferred on him by this event. If he wasn’t to be +let alone he should be merely a dupe to act with delicacy. If he wasn’t +to be trusted he could at least take his ease. If he was to be placed under +control he gained leave to try what his position <i>might</i> agreeably give +him. An ideal rigour would perhaps postpone the trial till after the Pococks +had shown their spirit; and it was to an ideal rigour that he had quite +promised himself to conform. +</p> + +<p> +Suddenly, however, on this particular day, he felt a particular fear under +which everything collapsed. He knew abruptly that he was afraid of +himself—and yet not in relation to the effect on his sensibilities of +another hour of Madame de Vionnet. What he dreaded was the effect of a single +hour of Sarah Pocock, as to whom he was visited, in troubled nights, with +fantastic waking dreams. She loomed at him larger than life; she increased in +volume as she drew nearer; she so met his eyes that, his imagination taking, +after the first step, all, and more than all, the strides, he already felt her +come down on him, already burned, under her reprobation, with the blush of +guilt, already consented, by way of penance, to the instant forfeiture of +everything. He saw himself, under her direction, recommitted to Woollett as +juvenile offenders are committed to reformatories. It wasn’t of course +that Woollett was really a place of discipline; but he knew in advance that +Sarah’s salon at the hotel would be. His danger, at any rate, in such +moods of alarm, was some concession, on this ground, that would involve a sharp +rupture with the actual; therefore if he waited to take leave of that actual he +might wholly miss his chance. It was represented with supreme vividness by +Madame de Vionnet, and that is why, in a word, he waited no longer. He had seen +in a flash that he must anticipate Mrs. Pocock. He was accordingly much +disappointed on now learning from the portress that the lady of his quest was +not in Paris. She had gone for some days to the country. There was nothing in +this accident but what was natural; yet it produced for poor Strether a drop of +all confidence. It was suddenly as if he should never see her again, and as if +moreover he had brought it on himself by not having been quite kind to her. +</p> + +<p> +It was the advantage of his having let his fancy lose itself for a little in +the gloom that, as by reaction, the prospect began really to brighten from the +moment the deputation from Woollett alighted on the platform of the station. +They had come straight from Havre, having sailed from New York to that port, +and having also, thanks to a happy voyage, made land with a promptitude that +left Chad Newsome, who had meant to meet them at the dock, belated. He had +received their telegram, with the announcement of their immediate further +advance, just as he was taking the train for Havre, so that nothing had +remained for him but to await them in Paris. He hastily picked up Strether, at +the hotel, for this purpose, and he even, with easy pleasantry, suggested the +attendance of Waymarsh as well—Waymarsh, at the moment his cab rattled +up, being engaged, under Strether’s contemplative range, in a grave +perambulation of the familiar court. Waymarsh had learned from his companion, +who had already had a note, delivered by hand, from Chad, that the Pococks were +due, and had ambiguously, though, as always, impressively, glowered at him over +the circumstance; carrying himself in a manner in which Strether was now expert +enough to recognise his uncertainty, in the premises, as to the best tone. The +only tone he aimed at with confidence was a full tone—which was +necessarily difficult in the absence of a full knowledge. The Pococks were a +quantity as yet unmeasured, and, as he had practically brought them over, so +this witness had to that extent exposed himself. He wanted to feel right about +it, but could only, at the best, for the time, feel vague. “I shall look +to you, you know, immensely,” our friend had said, “to help me with +them,” and he had been quite conscious of the effect of the remark, and +of others of the same sort, on his comrade’s sombre sensibility. He had +insisted on the fact that Waymarsh would quite like Mrs. Pocock—one could +be certain he would: he would be with her about everything, and she would also +be with <i>him</i>, and Miss Barrace’s nose, in short, would find itself +out of joint. +</p> + +<p> +Strether had woven this web of cheerfulness while they waited in the court for +Chad; he had sat smoking cigarettes to keep himself quiet while, caged and +leonine, his fellow traveller paced and turned before him. Chad Newsome was +doubtless to be struck, when he arrived, with the sharpness of their opposition +at this particular hour; he was to remember, as a part of it, how Waymarsh came +with him and with Strether to the street and stood there with a face +half-wistful and half-rueful. They talked of him, the two others, as they +drove, and Strether put Chad in possession of much of his own strained sense of +things. He had already, a few days before, named to him the wire he was +convinced their friend had pulled—a confidence that had made on the young +man’s part quite hugely for curiosity and diversion. The action of the +matter, moreover, Strether could see, was to penetrate; he saw that is, how +Chad judged a system of influence in which Waymarsh had served as a +determinant—an impression just now quickened again; with the whole +bearing of such a fact on the youth’s view of his relatives. As it came +up between them that they might now take their friend for a feature of the +control of these latter now sought to be exerted from Woollett, Strether felt +indeed how it would be stamped all over him, half an hour later for Sarah +Pocock’s eyes, that he was as much on Chad’s “side” as +Waymarsh had probably described him. He was letting himself at present, go; +there was no denying it; it might be desperation, it might be confidence; he +should offer himself to the arriving travellers bristling with all the lucidity +he had cultivated. +</p> + +<p> +He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in the court to Waymarsh; how there +was no doubt whatever that his sister would find the latter a kindred spirit, +no doubt of the alliance, based on an exchange of views, that the pair would +successfully strike up. They would become as thick as thieves—which +moreover was but a development of what Strether remembered to have said in one +of his first discussions with his mate, struck as he had then already been with +the elements of affinity between that personage and Mrs. Newsome herself. +“I told him, one day, when he had questioned me on your mother, that she +was a person who, when he should know her, would rouse in him, I was sure, a +special enthusiasm; and that hangs together with the conviction we now +feel—this certitude that Mrs. Pocock will take him into her boat. For +it’s your mother’s own boat that she’s pulling.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Chad, “Mother’s worth fifty of Sally!” +</p> + +<p> +“A thousand; but when you presently meet her, all the same you’ll +be meeting your mother’s representative—just as I shall. I feel +like the outgoing ambassador,” said Strether, “doing honour to his +appointed successor.” A moment after speaking as he had just done he felt +he had inadvertently rather cheapened Mrs. Newsome to her son; an impression +audibly reflected, as at first seen, in Chad’s prompt protest. He had +recently rather failed of apprehension of the young man’s attitude and +temper—remaining principally conscious of how little worry, at the worst, +he wasted, and he studied him at this critical hour with renewed interest. Chad +had done exactly what he had promised him a fortnight previous—had +accepted without another question his plea for delay. He was waiting cheerfully +and handsomely, but also inscrutably and with a slight increase perhaps of the +hardness originally involved in his acquired high polish. He was neither +excited nor depressed; was easy and acute and deliberate—unhurried +unflurried unworried, only at most a little less amused than usual. Strether +felt him more than ever a justification of the extraordinary process of which +his own absurd spirit had been the arena; he knew as their cab rolled along, +knew as he hadn’t even yet known, that nothing else than what Chad had +done and had been would have led to his present showing. They had made him, +these things, what he was, and the business hadn’t been easy; it had +taken time and trouble, it had cost, above all, a price. The result at any rate +was now to be offered to Sally; which Strether, so far as that was concerned, +was glad to be there to witness. Would she in the least make it out or take it +in, the result, or would she in the least care for it if she did? He scratched +his chin as he asked himself by what name, when challenged—as he was sure +he should be—he could call it for her. Oh those were determinations she +must herself arrive at; since she wanted so much to see, let her see then and +welcome. She had come out in the pride of her competence, yet it hummed in +Strether’s inner sense that she practically wouldn’t see. +</p> + +<p> +That this was moreover what Chad shrewdly suspected was clear from a word that +next dropped from him. “They’re children; they play at +life!”—and the exclamation was significant and reassuring. It +implied that he hadn’t then, for his companion’s sensibility, +appeared to give Mrs. Newsome away; and it facilitated our friend’s +presently asking him if it were his idea that Mrs. Pocock and Madame de Vionnet +should become acquainted. Strether was still more sharply struck, hereupon, +with Chad’s lucidity. “Why, isn’t that exactly—to get a +sight of the company I keep—what she has come out for?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—I’m afraid it is,” Strether unguardedly replied. +</p> + +<p> +Chad’s quick rejoinder lighted his precipitation. “Why do you say +you’re afraid?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, because I feel a certain responsibility. It’s my testimony, +I imagine, that will have been at the bottom of Mrs. Pocock’s curiosity. +My letters, as I’ve supposed you to understand from the beginning, have +spoken freely. I’ve certainly said my little say about Madame de +Vionnet.” +</p> + +<p> +All that, for Chad, was beautifully obvious. “Yes, but you’ve only +spoken handsomely.” +</p> + +<p> +“Never more handsomely of any woman. But it’s just that +tone—!” +</p> + +<p> +“That tone,” said Chad, “that has fetched her? I dare say; +but I’ve no quarrel with you about it. And no more has Madame de Vionnet. +Don’t you know by this time how she likes you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!”—and Strether had, with his groan, a real pang of +melancholy. “For all I’ve done for her!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah you’ve done a great deal.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad’s urbanity fairly shamed him, and he was at this moment absolutely +impatient to see the face Sarah Pocock would present to a sort of thing, as he +synthetically phrased it to himself, with no adequate forecast of which, +despite his admonitions, she would certainly arrive. “I’ve done +<i>this!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, this is all right. She likes,” Chad comfortably remarked, +“to be liked.”<br /> +</p> + +<p> +It gave his companion a moment’s thought. “And she’s sure +Mrs. Pocock <i>will</i>—?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, I say that for you. She likes your liking her; it’s so much, +as it were,” Chad laughed, “to the good. However, she doesn’t +despair of Sarah either, and is prepared, on her own side, to go all +lengths.” +</p> + +<p> +“In the way of appreciation?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, and of everything else. In the way of general amiability, +hospitality and welcome. She’s under arms,” Chad laughed again; +“she’s prepared.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took it in; then as if an echo of Miss Barrace were in the air: +“She’s wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +“You don’t begin to know <i>how</i> wonderful!” +</p> + +<p> +There was a depth in it, to Strether’s ear, of confirmed +luxury—almost a kind of unconscious insolence of proprietorship; but the +effect of the glimpse was not at this moment to foster speculation: there was +something so conclusive in so much graceful and generous assurance. It was in +fact a fresh evocation; and the evocation had before many minutes another +consequence. “Well, I shall see her oftener now. I shall see her as much +as I like—by your leave; which is what I hitherto haven’t +done.” +</p> + +<p> +“It has been,” said Chad, but without reproach, “only your +own fault. I tried to bring you together, and <i>she</i>, my dear +fellow—I never saw her more charming to any man. But you’ve got +your extraordinary ideas.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I <i>did</i> have,” Strether murmured, while he felt both +how they had possessed him and how they had now lost their authority. He +couldn’t have traced the sequence to the end, but it was all because of +Mrs. Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be because of Mrs. Newsome, but that was still +to be proved. What came over him was the sense of having stupidly failed to +profit where profit would have been precious. It had been open to him to see so +much more of her, and he had but let the good days pass. Fierce in him almost +was the resolve to lose no more of them, and he whimsically reflected, while at +Chad’s side he drew nearer to his destination, that it was after all +Sarah who would have quickened his chance. What her visit of inquisition might +achieve in other directions was as yet all obscure—only not obscure that +it would do supremely much to bring two earnest persons together. He had but to +listen to Chad at this moment to feel it; for Chad was in the act of remarking +to him that they of course both counted on him—he himself and the other +earnest person—for cheer and support. It was brave to Strether to hear +him talk as if the line of wisdom they had struck out was to make things +ravishing to the Pococks. No, if Madame de Vionnet compassed <i>that</i>, +compassed the ravishment of the Pococks, Madame de Vionnet would be prodigious. +It would be a beautiful plan if it succeeded, and it all came to the question +of Sarah’s being really bribeable. The precedent of his own case helped +Strether perhaps but little to consider she might prove so; it being distinct +that her character would rather make for every possible difference. This idea +of his own bribeability set him apart for himself; with the further mark in +fact that his case was absolutely proved. He liked always, where Lambert +Strether was concerned, to know the worst, and what he now seemed to know was +not only that he was bribeable, but that he had been effectually bribed. The +only difficulty was that he couldn’t quite have said with what. It was as +if he had sold himself, but hadn’t somehow got the cash. That, however, +was what, characteristically, <i>would</i> happen to him. It would naturally be +his kind of traffic. While he thought of these things he reminded Chad of the +truth they mustn’t lose sight of—the truth that, with all deference +to her susceptibility to new interests, Sarah would have come out with a high +firm definite purpose. “She hasn’t come out, you know, to be +bamboozled. We may all be ravishing—nothing perhaps can be more easy for +us; but she hasn’t come out to be ravished. She has come out just simply +to take you home.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh well, with <i>her</i> I’ll go,” said Chad +good-humouredly. “I suppose you’ll allow <i>that</i>.” And +then as for a minute Strether said nothing: “Or is your idea that when +I’ve seen her I shan’t want to go?” As this question, +however, again left his friend silent he presently went on: “My own idea +at any rate is that they shall have while they’re here the best sort of +time.” +</p> + +<p> +It was at this that Strether spoke. “Ah there you are! I think if you +really wanted to go—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well?” said Chad to bring it out. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, you wouldn’t trouble about our good time. You wouldn’t +care what sort of a time we have.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad could always take in the easiest way in the world any ingenious +suggestion. “I see. But can I help it? I’m too decent.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, you’re too decent!” Strether heavily sighed. And he +felt for the moment as if it were the preposterous end of his mission. +</p> + +<p> +It ministered for the time to this temporary effect that Chad made no +rejoinder. But he spoke again as they came in sight of the station. “Do +you mean to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?” +</p> + +<p> +As to this Strether was ready. “No.” +</p> + +<p> +“But haven’t you told me they know about her?” +</p> + +<p> +“I think I’ve told you your mother knows.” +</p> + +<p> +“And won’t she have told Sally?” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s one of the things I want to see.” +</p> + +<p> +“And if you find she <i>has</i>—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Will I then, you mean, bring them together?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” said Chad with his pleasant promptness: “to show her +there’s nothing in it.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “I don’t know that I care very much what she +may think there’s in it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Not if it represents what Mother thinks?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah what <i>does</i> your mother think?” There was in this some +sound of bewilderment. +</p> + +<p> +But they were just driving up, and help, of a sort, might after all be quite at +hand. “Isn’t that, my dear man, what we’re both just going to +make out?” +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +Strether quitted the station half an hour later in different company. Chad had +taken charge, for the journey to the hotel, of Sarah, Mamie, the maid and the +luggage, all spaciously installed and conveyed; and it was only after the four +had rolled away that his companion got into a cab with Jim. A strange new +feeling had come over Strether, in consequence of which his spirits had risen; +it was as if what had occurred on the alighting of his critics had been +something other than his fear, though his fear had yet not been of an instant +scene of violence. His impression had been nothing but what was +inevitable—he said that to himself; yet relief and reassurance had softly +dropped upon him. Nothing could be so odd as to be indebted for these things to +the look of faces and the sound of voices that had been with him to satiety, as +he might have said, for years; but he now knew, all the same, how uneasy he had +felt; that was brought home to him by his present sense of a respite. It had +come moreover in the flash of an eye, it had come in the smile with which +Sarah, whom, at the window of her compartment, they had effusively greeted from +the platform, rustled down to them a moment later, fresh and handsome from her +cool June progress through the charming land. It was only a sign, but enough: +she was going to be gracious and unallusive, she was going to play the larger +game—which was still more apparent, after she had emerged from +Chad’s arms, in her direct greeting to the valued friend of her family. +</p> + +<p> +Strether <i>was</i> then as much as ever the valued friend of her family, it +was something he could at all events go on with; and the manner of his response +to it expressed even for himself how little he had enjoyed the prospect of +ceasing to figure in that likeness. He had always seen Sarah gracious—had +in fact rarely seen her shy or dry, her marked thin-lipped smile, intense +without brightness and as prompt to act as the scrape of a safety-match; the +protrusion of her rather remarkably long chin, which in her case represented +invitation and urbanity, and not, as in most others, pugnacity and defiance; +the penetration of her voice to a distance, the general encouragement and +approval of her manner, were all elements with which intercourse had made him +familiar, but which he noted today almost as if she had been a new +acquaintance. This first glimpse of her had given a brief but vivid accent to +her resemblance to her mother; he could have taken her for Mrs. Newsome while +she met his eyes as the train rolled into the station. It was an impression +that quickly dropped; Mrs. Newsome was much handsomer, and while Sarah inclined +to the massive her mother had, at an age, still the girdle of a maid; also the +latter’s chin was rather short, than long, and her smile, by good +fortune, much more, oh ever so much more, mercifully vague. Strether had seen +Mrs. Newsome reserved; he had literally heard her silent, though he had never +known her unpleasant. It was the case with Mrs. Pocock that he had known +<i>her</i> unpleasant, even though he had never known her not affable. She had +forms of affability that were in a high degree assertive; nothing for instance +had ever been more striking than that she was affable to Jim. +</p> + +<p> +What had told in any case at the window of the train was her high clear +forehead, that forehead which her friends, for some reason, always thought of +as a “brow”; the long reach of her eyes—it came out at this +juncture in such a manner as to remind him, oddly enough, also of that of +Waymarsh’s; and the unusual gloss of her dark hair, dressed and hatted, +after her mother’s refined example, with such an avoidance of extremes +that it was always spoken of at Woollett as “their own.” Though +this analogy dropped as soon as she was on the platform it had lasted long +enough to make him feel all the advantage, as it were, of his relief. The woman +at home, the woman to whom he was attached, was before him just long enough to +give him again the measure of the wretchedness, in fact really of the shame, of +their having to recognise the formation, between them, of a +“split.” He had taken this measure in solitude and meditation: but +the catastrophe, as Sarah steamed up, looked for its seconds unprecedentedly +dreadful—or proved, more exactly, altogether unthinkable; so that his +finding something free and familiar to respond to brought with it an instant +renewal of his loyalty. He had suddenly sounded the whole depth, had gasped at +what he might have lost. +</p> + +<p> +Well, he could now, for the quarter of an hour of their detention hover about +the travellers as soothingly as if their direct message to him was that he had +lost nothing. He wasn’t going to have Sarah write to her mother that +night that he was in any way altered or strange. There had been times enough +for a month when it had seemed to him that he was strange, that he was altered, +in every way; but that was a matter for himself; he knew at least whose +business it was <i>not</i>; it was not at all events such a circumstance as +Sarah’s own unaided lights would help her to. Even if she had come out to +flash those lights more than yet appeared she wouldn’t make much headway +against mere pleasantness. He counted on being able to be merely pleasant to +the end, and if only from incapacity moreover to formulate anything different. +He couldn’t even formulate to himself his being changed and queer; it had +taken place, the process, somewhere deep down; Maria Gostrey had caught +glimpses of it; but how was he to fish it up, even if he desired, for Mrs. +Pocock? This was then the spirit in which he hovered, and with the easier throb +in it much indebted furthermore to the impression of high and established +adequacy as a pretty girl promptly produced in him by Mamie. He had wondered +vaguely—turning over many things in the fidget of his thoughts—if +Mamie <i>were</i> as pretty as Woollett published her; as to which issue seeing +her now again was to be so swept away by Woollett’s opinion that this +consequence really let loose for the imagination an avalanche of others. There +were positively five minutes in which the last word seemed of necessity to +abide with a Woollett represented by a Mamie. This was the sort of truth the +place itself would feel; it would send her forth in confidence; it would point +to her with triumph; it would take its stand on her with assurance; it would be +conscious of no requirements she didn’t meet, of no question she +couldn’t answer. +</p> + +<p> +Well, it was right, Strether slipped smoothly enough into the cheerfulness of +saying: granted that a community <i>might</i> be best represented by a young +lady of twenty-two, Mamie perfectly played the part, played it as if she were +used to it, and looked and spoke and dressed the character. He wondered if she +mightn’t, in the high light of Paris, a cool full studio-light, becoming +yet treacherous, show as too conscious of these matters; but the next moment he +felt satisfied that her consciousness was after all empty for its size, rather +too simple than too mixed, and that the kind way with her would be not to take +many things out of it, but to put as many as possible in. She was robust and +conveniently tall; just a trifle too bloodlessly fair perhaps, but with a +pleasant public familiar radiance that affirmed her vitality. She might have +been “receiving” for Woollett, wherever she found herself, and +there was something in her manner, her tone, her motion, her pretty blue eyes, +her pretty perfect teeth and her very small, too small, nose, that immediately +placed her, to the fancy, between the windows of a hot bright room in which +voices were high—up at that end to which people were brought to be +“presented.” They were there to congratulate, these images, and +Strether’s renewed vision, on this hint, completed the idea. What Mamie +was like was the happy bride, the bride after the church and just before going +away. She wasn’t the mere maiden, and yet was only as much married as +that quantity came to. She was in the brilliant acclaimed festal stage. Well, +might it last her long! +</p> + +<p> +Strether rejoiced in these things for Chad, who was all genial attention to the +needs of his friends, besides having arranged that his servant should reinforce +him; the ladies were certainly pleasant to see, and Mamie would be at any time +and anywhere pleasant to exhibit. She would look extraordinarily like his young +wife—the wife of a honeymoon, should he go about with her; but that was +his own affair—or perhaps it was hers; it was at any rate something she +couldn’t help. Strether remembered how he had seen him come up with +Jeanne de Vionnet in Gloriani’s garden, and the fancy he had had about +that—the fancy obscured now, thickly overlaid with others; the +recollection was during these minutes his only note of trouble. He had often, +in spite of himself, wondered if Chad but too probably were not with Jeanne the +object of a still and shaded flame. It was on the cards that the child +<i>might</i> be tremulously in love, and this conviction now flickered up not a +bit the less for his disliking to think of it, for its being, in a complicated +situation, a complication the more, and for something indescribable in Mamie, +something at all events straightway lent her by his own mind, something that +gave her value, gave her intensity and purpose, as the symbol of an opposition. +Little Jeanne wasn’t really at all in question—how <i>could</i> she +be?—yet from the moment Miss Pocock had shaken her skirts on the +platform, touched up the immense bows of her hat and settled properly over her +shoulder the strap of her morocco-and-gilt travelling-satchel, from that moment +little Jeanne was opposed. +</p> + +<p> +It was in the cab with Jim that impressions really crowded on Strether, giving +him the strangest sense of length of absence from people among whom he had +lived for years. Having them thus come out to him was as if he had returned to +find them: and the droll promptitude of Jim’s mental reaction threw his +own initiation far back into the past. Whoever might or mightn’t be +suited by what was going on among them, Jim, for one, would certainly be: his +instant recognition—frank and whimsical—of what the affair was for +<i>him</i> gave Strether a glow of pleasure. “I say, you know, this +<i>is</i> about my shape, and if it hadn’t been for +<i>you</i>—!” so he broke out as the charming streets met his +healthy appetite; and he wound up, after an expressive nudge, with a clap of +his companion’s knee and an “Oh you, you—you <i>are</i> doing +it!” that was charged with rich meaning. Strether felt in it the +intention of homage, but, with a curiosity otherwise occupied, postponed taking +it up. What he was asking himself for the time was how Sarah Pocock, in the +opportunity already given her, had judged her brother—from whom he +himself, as they finally, at the station, separated for their different +conveyances, had had a look into which he could read more than one message. +However Sarah was judging her brother, Chad’s conclusion about his +sister, and about her husband and her husband’s sister, was at the least +on the way not to fail of confidence. Strether felt the confidence, and that, +as the look between them was an exchange, what he himself gave back was +relatively vague. This comparison of notes however could wait; everything +struck him as depending on the effect produced by Chad. Neither Sarah nor Mamie +had in any way, at the station—where they had had after all ample +time—broken out about it; which, to make up for this, was what our friend +had expected of Jim as soon as they should find themselves together. +</p> + +<p> +It was queer to him that he had that noiseless brush with Chad; an ironic +intelligence with this youth on the subject of his relatives, an intelligence +carried on under their nose and, as might be said, at their expense—such +a matter marked again for him strongly the number of stages he had come; albeit +that if the number seemed great the time taken for the final one was but the +turn of a hand. He had before this had many moments of wondering if he himself +weren’t perhaps changed even as Chad was changed. Only what in Chad was +conspicuous improvement—well, he had no name ready for the working, in +his own organism, of his own more timid dose. He should have to see first what +this action would amount to. And for his occult passage with the young man, +after all, the directness of it had no greater oddity than the fact that the +young man’s way with the three travellers should have been so happy a +manifestation. Strether liked him for it, on the spot, as he hadn’t yet +liked him; it affected him while it lasted as he might have been affected by +some light pleasant perfect work of art: to that degree that he wondered if +they were really worthy of it, took it in and did it justice; to that degree +that it would have been scarce a miracle if, there in the luggage-room, while +they waited for their things, Sarah had pulled his sleeve and drawn him aside. +“You’re right; we haven’t quite known what you mean, Mother +and I, but now we see. Chad’s magnificent; what can one want more? If +<i>this</i> is the kind of thing—!” On which they might, as it +were, have embraced and begun to work together. +</p> + +<p> +Ah how much, as it was, for all her bridling brightness—which was merely +general and noticed nothing—<i>would</i> they work together? Strether +knew he was unreasonable; he set it down to his being nervous: people +couldn’t notice everything and speak of everything in a quarter of an +hour. Possibly, no doubt, also, he made too much of Chad’s display. Yet, +none the less, when, at the end of five minutes, in the cab, Jim Pocock had +said nothing either—hadn’t said, that is, what Strether wanted, +though he had said much else—it all suddenly bounced back to their being +either stupid or wilful. It was more probably on the whole the former; so that +that would be the drawback of the bridling brightness. Yes, they would bridle +and be bright; they would make the best of what was before them, but their +observation would fail; it would be beyond them; they simply wouldn’t +understand. Of what use would it be then that they had come?—if they +weren’t to be intelligent up to <i>that</i> point: unless indeed he +himself were utterly deluded and extravagant? Was he, on this question of +Chad’s improvement, fantastic and away from the truth? Did he live in a +false world, a world that had grown simply to suit him, and was his present +slight irritation—in the face now of Jim’s silence in +particular—but the alarm of the vain thing menaced by the touch of the +real? Was this contribution of the real possibly the mission of the +Pococks?—had they come to make the work of observation, as <i>he</i> had +practised observation, crack and crumble, and to reduce Chad to the plain terms +in which honest minds could deal with him? Had they come in short to be sane +where Strether was destined to feel that he himself had only been silly? +</p> + +<p> +He glanced at such a contingency, but it failed to hold him long when once he +had reflected that he would have been silly, in this case, with Maria Gostrey +and little Bilham, with Madame de Vionnet and little Jeanne, with Lambert +Strether, in fine, and above all with Chad Newsome himself. Wouldn’t it +be found to have made more for reality to be silly with these persons than sane +with Sarah and Jim? Jim in fact, he presently made up his mind, was +individually out of it; Jim didn’t care; Jim hadn’t come out either +for Chad or for him; Jim in short left the moral side to Sally and indeed +simply availed himself now, for the sense of recreation, of the fact that he +left almost everything to Sally. He was nothing compared to Sally, and not so +much by reason of Sally’s temper and will as by that of her more +developed type and greater acquaintance with the world. He quite frankly and +serenely confessed, as he sat there with Strether, that he felt his type hang +far in the rear of his wife’s and still further, if possible, in the rear +of his sister’s. Their types, he well knew, were recognised and +acclaimed; whereas the most a leading Woollett business-man could hope to +achieve socially, and for that matter industrially, was a certain freedom to +play into this general glamour. +</p> + +<p> +The impression he made on our friend was another of the things that marked our +friend’s road. It was a strange impression, especially as so soon +produced; Strether had received it, he judged, all in the twenty minutes; it +struck him at least as but in a minor degree the work of the long Woollett +years. Pocock was normally and consentingly though not quite wittingly out of +the question. It was despite his being normal; it was despite his being +cheerful; it was despite his being a leading Woollett business-man; and the +determination of his fate left him thus perfectly usual—as everything +else about it was clearly, to his sense, not less so. He seemed to say that +there was a whole side of life on which the perfectly usual <i>was</i> for +leading Woollett business-men to be out of the question. He made no more of it +than that, and Strether, so far as Jim was concerned, desired to make no more. +Only Strether’s imagination, as always, worked, and he asked himself if +this side of life were not somehow connected, for those who figured on it with +the fact of marriage. Would <i>his</i> relation to it, had he married ten years +before, have become now the same as Pocock’s? Might it even become the +same should he marry in a few months? Should he ever know himself as much out +of the question for Mrs. Newsome as Jim knew himself—in a dim +way—for Mrs. Jim? +</p> + +<p> +To turn his eyes in that direction was to be personally reassured; he was +different from Pocock; he had affirmed himself differently and was held after +all in higher esteem. What none the less came home to him, however, at this +hour, was that the society over there, that of which Sarah and Mamie—and, +in a more eminent way, Mrs. Newsome herself—were specimens, was +essentially a society of women, and that poor Jim wasn’t in it. He +himself Lambert Strether, <i>was</i> as yet in some degree—which was an +odd situation for a man; but it kept coming back to him in a whimsical way that +he should perhaps find his marriage had cost him his place. This occasion +indeed, whatever that fancy represented, was not a time of sensible exclusion +for Jim, who was in a state of manifest response to the charm of his adventure. +Small and fat and constantly facetious, straw-coloured and destitute of marks, +he would have been practically indistinguishable hadn’t his constant +preference for light-grey clothes, for white hats, for very big cigars and very +little stories, done what it could for his identity. There were signs in him, +though none of them plaintive, of always paying for others; and the principal +one perhaps was just this failure of type. It was with this that he paid, +rather than with fatigue or waste; and also doubtless a little with the effort +of humour—never irrelevant to the conditions, to the relations, with +which he was acquainted. +</p> + +<p> +He gurgled his joy as they rolled through the happy streets; he declared that +his trip was a regular windfall, and that he wasn’t there, he was eager +to remark, to hang back from anything: he didn’t know quite what Sally +had come for, but <i>he</i> had come for a good time. Strether indulged him +even while wondering if what Sally wanted her brother to go back for was to +become like her husband. He trusted that a good time was to be, out and out, +the programme for all of them; and he assented liberally to Jim’s +proposal that, disencumbered and irresponsible—his things were in the +omnibus with those of the others—they should take a further turn round +before going to the hotel. It wasn’t for <i>him</i> to tackle +Chad—it was Sally’s job; and as it would be like her, he felt, to +open fire on the spot, it wouldn’t be amiss of them to hold off and give +her time. Strether, on his side, only asked to give her time; so he jogged with +his companion along boulevards and avenues, trying to extract from meagre +material some forecast of his catastrophe. He was quick enough to see that Jim +Pocock declined judgement, had hovered quite round the outer edge of discussion +and anxiety, leaving all analysis of their question to the ladies alone and now +only feeling his way toward some small droll cynicism. It broke out afresh, the +cynicism—it had already shown a flicker—in a but slightly deferred: +“Well, hanged if I would if <i>I</i> were he!” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean you wouldn’t in Chad’s place—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Give up this to go back and boss the advertising!” Poor Jim, with +his arms folded and his little legs out in the open fiacre, drank in the +sparkling Paris noon and carried his eyes from one side of their vista to the +other. “Why I want to come right out and live here myself. And I want to +live while I <i>am</i> here too. I feel with <i>you</i>—oh you’ve +been grand, old man, and I’ve twigged—that it ain’t right to +worry Chad. <i>I</i> don’t mean to persecute him; I couldn’t in +conscience. It’s thanks to you at any rate that I’m here, and +I’m sure I’m much obliged. You’re a lovely pair.” +</p> + +<p> +There were things in this speech that Strether let pass for the time. +“Don’t you then think it important the advertising should be +thoroughly taken in hand? Chad <i>will</i> be, so far as capacity is +concerned,” he went on, “the man to do it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Where did he get his capacity,” Jim asked, “over +here?” +</p> + +<p> +“He didn’t get it over here, and the wonderful thing is that over +here he hasn’t inevitably lost it. He has a natural turn for business, an +extraordinary head. He comes by that,” Strether explained, +“honestly enough. He’s in that respect his father’s son, and +also—for she’s wonderful in her way too—his mother’s. +He has other tastes and other tendencies; but Mrs. Newsome and your wife are +quite right about his having that. He’s very remarkable.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I guess he is!” Jim Pocock comfortably sighed. “But if +you’ve believed so in his making us hum, why have you so prolonged the +discussion? Don’t you know we’ve been quite anxious about +you?” +</p> + +<p> +These questions were not informed with earnestness, but Strether saw he must +none the less make a choice and take a line. “Because, you see, +I’ve greatly liked it. I’ve liked my Paris, I dare say I’ve +liked it too much.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you old wretch!” Jim gaily exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +“But nothing’s concluded,” Strether went on. “The case +is more complex than it looks from Woollett.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh well, it looks bad enough from Woollett!” Jim declared. +</p> + +<p> +“Even after all I’ve written?” +</p> + +<p> +Jim bethought himself. “Isn’t it what you’ve written that has +made Mrs. Newsome pack us off? That at least and Chad’s not turning +up?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether made a reflexion of his own. “I see. That she should do +something was, no doubt, inevitable, and your wife has therefore of course come +out to act.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes,” Jim concurred—“to act. But Sally comes out to +act, you know,” he lucidly added, “every time she leaves the house. +She never comes out but she <i>does</i> act. She’s acting moreover now +for her mother, and that fixes the scale.” Then he wound up, opening all +his senses to it, with a renewed embrace of pleasant Paris. “We +haven’t all the same at Woollett got anything like this.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether continued to consider. “I’m bound to say for you all that +you strike me as having arrived in a very mild and reasonable frame of mind. +You don’t show your claws. I felt just now in Mrs. Pocock no symptom of +that. She isn’t fierce,” he went on. “I’m such a +nervous idiot that I thought she might be.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh don’t you know her well enough,” Pocock asked, “to +have noticed that she never gives herself away, any more than her mother ever +does? They ain’t fierce, either of ‘em; they let you come quite +close. They wear their fur the smooth side out—the warm side in. Do you +know what they are?” Jim pursued as he looked about him, giving the +question, as Strether felt, but half his care—“do you know what +they are? They’re about as intense as they can live.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes”—and Strether’s concurrence had a positive +precipitation; “they’re about as intense as they can live.” +</p> + +<p> +“They don’t lash about and shake the cage,” said Jim, who +seemed pleased with his analogy; “and it’s at feeding-time that +they’re quietest. But they always get there.” +</p> + +<p> +“They do indeed—they always get there!” Strether replied with +a laugh that justified his confession of nervousness. He disliked to be talking +sincerely of Mrs. Newsome with Pocock; he could have talked insincerely. But +there was something he wanted to know, a need created in him by her recent +intermission, by his having given from the first so much, as now more than ever +appeared to him, and got so little. It was as if a queer truth in his +companion’s metaphor had rolled over him with a rush. She <i>had</i> been +quiet at feeding-time; she had fed, and Sarah had fed with her, out of the big +bowl of all his recent free communication, his vividness and pleasantness, his +ingenuity and even his eloquence, while the current of her response had +steadily run thin. Jim meanwhile however, it was true, slipped +characteristically into shallowness from the moment he ceased to speak out of +the experience of a husband. +</p> + +<p> +“But of course Chad has now the advantage of being there before her. If +he doesn’t work that for all it’s worth—!” He sighed +with contingent pity at his brother-in-law’s possible want of resource. +“He has worked it on <i>you</i>, pretty well, eh?” and he asked the +next moment if there were anything new at the Varieties, which he pronounced in +the American manner. They talked about the Varieties—Strether confessing +to a knowledge which produced again on Pocock’s part a play of innuendo +as vague as a nursery-rhyme, yet as aggressive as an elbow in his side; and +they finished their drive under the protection of easy themes. Strether waited +to the end, but still in vain, for any show that Jim had seen Chad as +different; and he could scarce have explained the discouragement he drew from +the absence of this testimony. It was what he had taken his own stand on, so +far as he had taken a stand; and if they were all only going to see nothing he +had only wasted his time. He gave his friend till the very last moment, till +they had come into sight of the hotel; and when poor Pocock only continued +cheerful and envious and funny he fairly grew to dislike him, to feel him +extravagantly common. If they were <i>all</i> going to see +nothing!—Strether knew, as this came back to him, that he was also +letting Pocock represent for him what Mrs. Newsome wouldn’t see. He went +on disliking, in the light of Jim’s commonness, to talk to him about that +lady; yet just before the cab pulled up he knew the extent of his desire for +the real word from Woollett. +</p> + +<p> +“Has Mrs. Newsome at all given way—?” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Given way’?”—Jim echoed it with the practical +derision of his sense of a long past. +</p> + +<p> +“Under the strain, I mean, of hope deferred, of disappointment repeated +and thereby intensified.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh is she prostrate, you mean?”—he had his categories in +hand. “Why yes, she’s prostrate—just as Sally is. But +they’re never so lively, you know, as when they’re +prostrate.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah Sarah’s prostrate?” Strether vaguely murmured. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s when they’re prostrate that they most sit up.” +</p> + +<p> +“And Mrs. Newsome’s sitting up?” +</p> + +<p> +“All night, my boy—for <i>you!</i>” And Jim fetched him, with +a vulgar little guffaw, a thrust that gave relief to the picture. But he had +got what he wanted. He felt on the spot that this <i>was</i> the real word from +Woollett. “So don’t you go home!” Jim added while he alighted +and while his friend, letting him profusely pay the cabman, sat on in a +momentary muse. Strether wondered if that were the real word too. +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +As the door of Mrs. Pocock’s salon was pushed open for him, the next day, +well before noon, he was reached by a voice with a charming sound that made him +just falter before crossing the threshold. Madame de Vionnet was already on the +field, and this gave the drama a quicker pace than he felt it as +yet—though his suspense had increased—in the power of any act of +his own to do. He had spent the previous evening with all his old friends +together yet he would still have described himself as quite in the dark in +respect to a forecast of their influence on his situation. It was strange now, +none the less, that in the light of this unexpected note of her presence he +felt Madame de Vionnet a part of that situation as she hadn’t even yet +been. She was alone, he found himself assuming, with Sarah, and there was a +bearing in that—somehow beyond his control—on his personal fate. +Yet she was only saying something quite easy and independent—the thing +she had come, as a good friend of Chad’s, on purpose to say. “There +isn’t anything at all—? I should be so delighted.” +</p> + +<p> +It was clear enough, when they were there before him, how she had been +received. He saw this, as Sarah got up to greet him, from something fairly +hectic in Sarah’s face. He saw furthermore that they weren’t, as +had first come to him, alone together; he was at no loss as to the identity of +the broad high back presented to him in the embrasure of the window furthest +from the door. Waymarsh, whom he had to-day not yet seen, whom he only knew to +have left the hotel before him, and who had taken part, the night previous, on +Mrs. Pocock’s kind invitation, conveyed by Chad, in the entertainment, +informal but cordial, promptly offered by that lady—Waymarsh had +anticipated him even as Madame de Vionnet had done, and, with his hands in his +pockets and his attitude unaffected by Strether’s entrance, was looking +out, in marked detachment, at the Rue de Rivoli. The latter felt it in the +air—it was immense how Waymarsh could mark things—-that he had +remained deeply dissociated from the overture to their hostess that we have +recorded on Madame de Vionnet’s side. He had, conspicuously, tact, +besides a stiff general view; and this was why he had left Mrs. Pocock to +struggle alone. He would outstay the visitor; he would unmistakeably wait; to +what had he been doomed for months past but waiting? Therefore she was to feel +that she had him in reserve. What support she drew from this was still to be +seen, for, although Sarah was vividly bright, she had given herself up for the +moment to an ambiguous flushed formalism. She had had to reckon more quickly +than she expected; but it concerned her first of all to signify that she was +not to be taken unawares. Strether arrived precisely in time for her showing +it. “Oh you’re too good; but I don’t think I feel quite +helpless. I have my brother—and these American friends. And then you know +I’ve been to Paris. I <i>know</i> Paris,” said Sally Pocock in a +tone that breathed a certain chill on Strether’s heart. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but a woman, in this tiresome place where everything’s always +changing, a woman of good will,” Madame de Vionnet threw off, “can +always help a woman. I’m sure you ‘know’—but we know +perhaps different things.” She too, visibly, wished to make no mistake; +but it was a fear of a different order and more kept out of sight. She smiled +in welcome at Strether; she greeted him more familiarly than Mrs. Pocock; she +put out her hand to him without moving from her place; and it came to him in +the course of a minute and in the oddest way that—yes, +positively—she was giving him over to ruin. She was all kindness and +ease, but she couldn’t help so giving him; she was exquisite, and her +being just as she was poured for Sarah a sudden rush of meaning into his own +equivocations. How could she know how she was hurting him? She wanted to show +as simple and humble—in the degree compatible with operative charm; but +it was just this that seemed to put him on her side. She struck him as dressed, +as arranged, as prepared infinitely to conciliate—with the very poetry of +good taste in her view of the conditions of her early call. She was ready to +advise about dressmakers and shops; she held herself wholly at the disposition +of Chad’s family. Strether noticed her card on the table—her +coronet and her “Comtesse”—and the imagination was sharp in +him of certain private adjustments in Sarah’s mind. She had never, he was +sure, sat with a “Comtesse” before, and such was the specimen of +that class he had been keeping to play on her. She had crossed the sea very +particularly for a look at her; but he read in Madame de Vionnet’s own +eyes that this curiosity hadn’t been so successfully met as that she +herself wouldn’t now have more than ever need of him. She looked much as +she had looked to him that morning at Notre Dame; he noted in fact the +suggestive sameness of her discreet and delicate dress. It seemed to +speak—perhaps a little prematurely or too finely—of the sense in +which she would help Mrs. Pocock with the shops. The way that lady took her in, +moreover, added depth to his impression of what Miss Gostrey, by their common +wisdom, had escaped. He winced as he saw himself but for that timely prudence +ushering in Maria as a guide and an example. There was however a touch of +relief for him in his glimpse, so far as he had got it, of Sarah’s line. +She “knew Paris.” Madame de Vionnet had, for that matter, lightly +taken this up. “Ah then you’ve a turn for that, an affinity that +belongs to your family. Your brother, though his long experience makes a +difference, I admit, has become one of us in a marvellous way.” And she +appealed to Strether in the manner of a woman who could always glide off with +smoothness into another subject. Wasn’t <i>he</i> struck with the way Mr. +Newsome had made the place his own, and hadn’t he been in a position to +profit by his friend’s wondrous expertness? +</p> + +<p> +Strether felt the bravery, at the least, of her presenting herself so promptly +to sound that note, and yet asked himself what other note, after all, she +<i>could</i> strike from the moment she presented herself at all. She could +meet Mrs. Pocock only on the ground of the obvious, and what feature of +Chad’s situation was more eminent than the fact that he had created for +himself a new set of circumstances? Unless she hid herself altogether she could +show but as one of these, an illustration of his domiciled and indeed of his +confirmed condition. And the consciousness of all this in her charming eyes was +so clear and fine that as she thus publicly drew him into her boat she produced +in him such a silent agitation as he was not to fail afterwards to denounce as +pusillanimous. “Ah don’t be so charming to me!—for it makes +us intimate, and after all what <i>is</i> between us when I’ve been so +tremendously on my guard and have seen you but half a dozen times?” He +recognised once more the perverse law that so inveterately governed his poor +personal aspects: it would be exactly <i>like</i> the way things always turned +out for him that he should affect Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh as launched in a +relation in which he had really never been launched at all. They were at this +very moment—they could only be—attributing to him the full licence +of it, and all by the operation of her own tone with him; whereas his sole +licence had been to cling with intensity to the brink, not to dip so much as a +toe into the flood. But the flicker of his fear on this occasion was not, as +may be added, to repeat itself; it sprang up, for its moment, only to die down +and then go out for ever. To meet his fellow visitor’s invocation and, +with Sarah’s brilliant eyes on him, answer, <i>was</i> quite sufficiently +to step into her boat. During the rest of the time her visit lasted he felt +himself proceed to each of the proper offices, successively, for helping to +keep the adventurous skiff afloat. It rocked beneath him, but he settled +himself in his place. He took up an oar and, since he was to have the credit of +pulling, pulled. +</p> + +<p> +“That will make it all the pleasanter if it so happens that we <i>do</i> +meet,” Madame de Vionnet had further observed in reference to Mrs. +Pocock’s mention of her initiated state; and she had immediately added +that, after all, her hostess couldn’t be in need with the good offices of +Mr. Strether so close at hand. “It’s he, I gather, who has learnt +to know his Paris, and to love it, better than any one ever before in so short +a time; so that between him and your brother, when it comes to the point, how +can you possibly want for good guidance? The great thing, Mr. Strether will +show you,” she smiled, “is just to let one’s self go.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I’ve not let myself go very far,” Strether answered, +feeling quite as if he had been called upon to hint to Mrs. Pocock how +Parisians could talk. “I’m only afraid of showing I haven’t +let myself go far enough. I’ve taken a good deal of time, but I must +quite have had the air of not budging from one spot.” He looked at Sarah +in a manner that he thought she might take as engaging, and he made, under +Madame de Vionnet’s protection, as it were, his first personal point. +“What has really happened has been that, all the while, I’ve done +what I came out for.” +</p> + +<p> +Yet it only at first gave Madame de Vionnet a chance immediately to take him +up. “You’ve renewed acquaintance with your +friend—you’ve learnt to know him again.” She spoke with such +cheerful helpfulness that they might, in a common cause, have been calling +together and pledged to mutual aid. +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh, at this, as if he had been in question, straightway turned from the +window. “Oh yes, Countess—he has renewed acquaintance with +<i>me</i>, and he <i>has</i>, I guess, learnt something about me, though I +don’t know how much he has liked it. It’s for Strether himself to +say whether he has felt it justifies his course.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but <i>you</i>,” said the Countess gaily, “are not in the +least what he came out for—is he really, Strether? and I hadn’t you +at all in my mind. I was thinking of Mr. Newsome, of whom we think so much and +with whom, precisely, Mrs. Pocock has given herself the opportunity to take up +threads. What a pleasure for you both!” Madame de Vionnet, with her eyes +on Sarah, bravely continued. +</p> + +<p> +Mrs. Pocock met her handsomely, but Strether quickly saw she meant to accept no +version of her movements or plans from any other lips. She required no +patronage and no support, which were but other names for a false position; she +would show in her own way what she chose to show, and this she expressed with a +dry glitter that recalled to him a fine Woollett winter morning. +“I’ve never wanted for opportunities to see my brother. We’ve +many things to think of at home, and great responsibilities and occupations, +and our home’s not an impossible place. We’ve plenty of +reasons,” Sarah continued a little piercingly, “for everything we +do”—and in short she wouldn’t give herself the least little +scrap away. But she added as one who was always bland and who could afford a +concession: “I’ve come because—well, because we do +come.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then fortunately!”—Madame de Vionnet breathed it to the +air. Five minutes later they were on their feet for her to take leave, standing +together in an affability that had succeeded in surviving a further exchange of +remarks; only with the emphasised appearance on Waymarsh’s part of a +tendency to revert, in a ruminating manner and as with an instinctive or a +precautionary lightening of his tread, to an open window and his point of +vantage. The glazed and gilded room, all red damask, ormolu, mirrors, clocks, +looked south, and the shutters were bowed upon the summer morning; but the +Tuileries garden and what was beyond it, over which the whole place hung, were +things visible through gaps; so that the far-spreading presence of Paris came +up in coolness, dimness and invitation, in the twinkle of gilt-tipped palings, +the crunch of gravel, the click of hoofs, the crack of whips, things that +suggested some parade of the circus. “I think it probable,” said +Mrs. Pocock, “that I shall have the opportunity of going to my +brother’s. I’ve no doubt it’s very pleasant indeed.” +She spoke as to Strether, but her face was turned with an intensity of +brightness to Madame de Vionnet, and there was a moment during which, while she +thus fronted her, our friend expected to hear her add: “I’m much +obliged to you, I’m sure, for inviting me there.” He guessed that +for five seconds these words were on the point of coming; he heard them as +clearly as if they had been spoken; but he presently knew they had just +failed—knew it by a glance, quick and fine, from Madame de Vionnet, which +told him that she too had felt them in the air, but that the point had luckily +not been made in any manner requiring notice. This left her free to reply only +to what had been said. +</p> + +<p> +“That the Boulevard Malesherbes may be common ground for us offers me the +best prospect I see for the pleasure of meeting you again.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I shall come to see you, since you’ve been so good”: and +Mrs. Pocock looked her invader well in the eyes. The flush in Sarah’s +cheeks had by this time settled to a small definite crimson spot that was not +without its own bravery; she held her head a good deal up, and it came to +Strether that of the two, at this moment, she was the one who most carried out +the idea of a Countess. He quite took in, however, that she would really return +her visitor’s civility: she wouldn’t report again at Woollett +without at least so much producible history as that in her pocket. +</p> + +<p> +“I want extremely to be able to show you my little daughter.” +Madame de Vionnet went on; “and I should have brought her with me if I +hadn’t wished first to ask your leave. I was in hopes I should perhaps +find Miss Pocock, of whose being with you I’ve heard from Mr. Newsome and +whose acquaintance I should so much like my child to make. If I have the +pleasure of seeing her and you do permit it I shall venture to ask her to be +kind to Jeanne. Mr. Strether will tell you”—she beautifully kept it +up—“that my poor girl is gentle and good and rather lonely. +They’ve made friends, he and she, ever so happily, and he doesn’t, +I believe, think ill of her. As for Jeanne herself he has had the same success +with her that I know he has had here wherever he has turned.” She seemed +to ask him for permission to say these things, or seemed rather to take it, +softly and happily, with the ease of intimacy, for granted, and he had quite +the consciousness now that not to meet her at any point more than halfway would +be odiously, basely to abandon her. Yes, he was <i>with</i> her, and, opposed +even in this covert, this semi-safe fashion to those who were not, he felt, +strangely and confusedly, but excitedly, inspiringly, how much and how far. It +was as if he had positively waited in suspense for something from her that +would let him in deeper, so that he might show her how he could take it. And +what did in fact come as she drew out a little her farewell served sufficiently +the purpose. “As his success is a matter that I’m sure he’ll +never mention for himself, I feel, you see, the less scruple; which it’s +very good of me to say, you know, by the way,” she added as she addressed +herself to him; “considering how little direct advantage I’ve +gained from your triumphs with <i>me</i>. When does one ever see you? I wait at +home and I languish. You’ll have rendered me the service, Mrs. Pocock, at +least,” she wound up, “of giving me one of my much-too-rare +glimpses of this gentleman.” +</p> + +<p> +“I certainly should be sorry to deprive you of anything that seems so +much, as you describe it, your natural due. Mr. Strether and I are very old +friends,” Sarah allowed, “but the privilege of his society +isn’t a thing I shall quarrel about with any one.” +</p> + +<p> +“And yet, dear Sarah,” he freely broke in, “I feel, when I +hear you say that, that you don’t quite do justice to the important truth +of the extent to which—as you’re also mine—I’m +<i>your</i> natural due. I should like much better,” he laughed, +“to see you fight for me.” +</p> + +<p> +She met him, Mrs. Pocock, on this, with an arrest of speech—with a +certain breathlessness, as he immediately fancied, on the score of a freedom +for which she wasn’t quite prepared. It had flared up—for all the +harm he had intended by it—because, confoundedly, he didn’t want +any more to be afraid about her than he wanted to be afraid about Madame de +Vionnet. He had never, naturally, called her anything but Sarah at home, and +though he had perhaps never quite so markedly invoked her as his +“dear,” that was somehow partly because no occasion had hitherto +laid so effective a trap for it. But something admonished him now that it was +too late—unless indeed it were possibly too early; and that he at any +rate shouldn’t have pleased Mrs. Pocock the more by it. “Well, Mr. +Strether—!” she murmured with vagueness, yet with sharpness, while +her crimson spot burned a trifle brighter and he was aware that this must be +for the present the limit of her response. Madame de Vionnet had already, +however, come to his aid, and Waymarsh, as if for further participation, moved +again back to them. It was true that the aid rendered by Madame de Vionnet was +questionable; it was a sign that, for all one might confess to with her, and +for all she might complain of not enjoying, she could still insidiously show +how much of the material of conversation had accumulated between them. +</p> + +<p> +“The real truth is, you know, that you sacrifice one without mercy to +dear old Maria. She leaves no room in your life for anybody else. Do you +know,” she enquired of Mrs. Pocock, “about dear old Maria? The +worst is that Miss Gostrey is really a wonderful woman.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes indeed,” Strether answered for her, “Mrs. Pocock +knows about Miss Gostrey. Your mother, Sarah, must have told you about her; +your mother knows everything,” he sturdily pursued. “And I +cordially admit,” he added with his conscious gaiety of courage, +“that she’s as wonderful a woman as you like.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah it isn’t <i>I</i> who ‘like,’ dear Mr. Strether, +anything to do with the matter!” Sarah Pocock promptly protested; +“and I’m by no means sure I have—from my mother or from any +one else—a notion of whom you’re talking about.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, he won’t let you see her, you know,” Madame de Vionnet +sympathetically threw in. “He never lets <i>me</i>—old friends as +we are: I mean as I am with Maria. He reserves her for his best hours; keeps +her consummately to himself; only gives us others the crumbs of the +feast.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, Countess, <i>I’ve</i> had some of the crumbs,” +Waymarsh observed with weight and covering her with his large look; which led +her to break in before he could go on. +</p> + +<p> +“<i>Comment donc</i>, he shares her with <i>you?</i>” she exclaimed +in droll stupefaction. “Take care you don’t have, before you go +much further, rather more of all <i>ces dames</i> than you may know what to do +with!” +</p> + +<p> +But he only continued in his massive way. “I can post you about the lady, +Mrs. Pocock, so far as you may care to hear. I’ve seen her quite a number +of times, and I was practically present when they made acquaintance. I’ve +kept my eye on her right along, but I don’t know as there’s any +real harm in her.” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Harm’?” Madame de Vionnet quickly echoed. “Why +she’s the dearest and cleverest of all the clever and dear.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, you run her pretty close, Countess,” Waymarsh returned with +spirit; “though there’s no doubt she’s pretty well up in +things. She knows her way round Europe. Above all there’s no doubt she +does love Strether.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but we all do that—we all love Strether: it isn’t a +merit!” their fellow visitor laughed, keeping to her idea with a good +conscience at which our friend was aware that he marvelled, though he trusted +also for it, as he met her exquisitely expressive eyes, to some later light. +</p> + +<p> +The prime effect of her tone, however—and it was a truth which his own +eyes gave back to her in sad ironic play—could only be to make him feel +that, to say such things to a man in public, a woman must practically think of +him as ninety years old. He had turned awkwardly, responsively red, he knew, at +her mention of Maria Gostrey; Sarah Pocock’s presence—the +particular quality of it—had made this inevitable; and then he had grown +still redder in proportion as he hated to have shown anything at all. He felt +indeed that he was showing much, as, uncomfortably and almost in pain, he +offered up his redness to Waymarsh, who, strangely enough, seemed now to be +looking at him with a certain explanatory yearning. Something +deep—something built on their old old relation—passed, in this +complexity, between them; he got the side-wind of a loyalty that stood behind +all actual queer questions. Waymarsh’s dry bare humour—as it gave +itself to be taken—gloomed out to demand justice. “Well, if you +talk of Miss Barrace I’ve <i>my</i> chance too,” it appeared +stiffly to nod, and it granted that it was giving him away, but struggled to +add that it did so only to save him. The sombre glow stared it at him till it +fairly sounded out—“to save you, poor old man, to save you; to save +you in spite of yourself.” Yet it was somehow just this communication +that showed him to himself as more than ever lost. Still another result of it +was to put before him as never yet that between his comrade and the interest +represented by Sarah there was already a basis. Beyond all question now, yes: +Waymarsh had been in occult relation with Mrs. Newsome—out, out it all +came in the very effort of his face. “Yes, you’re feeling my +hand”—he as good as proclaimed it; “but only because this at +least I <i>shall</i> have got out of the damned Old World: that I shall have +picked up the pieces into which it has caused you to crumble.” It was as +if in short, after an instant, Strether had not only had it from him, but had +recognised that so far as this went the instant had cleared the air. Our friend +understood and approved; he had the sense that they wouldn’t otherwise +speak of it. This would be all, and it would mark in himself a kind of +intelligent generosity. It was with grim Sarah then—Sarah grim for all +her grace—that Waymarsh had begun at ten o’clock in the morning to +save him. Well—if he <i>could</i>, poor dear man, with his big bleak +kindness! The upshot of which crowded perception was that Strether, on his own +side, still showed no more than he absolutely had to. He showed the least +possible by saying to Mrs. Pocock after an interval much briefer than our +glance at the picture reflected in him: “Oh it’s as true as they +please!—There’s no Miss Gostrey for any one but me—not the +least little peep. I keep her to myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it’s very good of you to notify me,” Sarah replied +without looking at him and thrown for a moment by this discrimination, as the +direction of her eyes showed, upon a dimly desperate little community with +Madame de Vionnet. “But I hope I shan’t miss her too much.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame de Vionnet instantly rallied. “And you know—though it might +occur to one—it isn’t in the least that he’s ashamed of her. +She’s really—in a way—extremely good-looking.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but extremely!” Strether laughed while he wondered at the odd +part he found thus imposed on him. +</p> + +<p> +It continued to be so by every touch from Madame de Vionnet. “Well, as I +say, you know, I wish you would keep <i>me</i> a little more to yourself. +Couldn’t you name some day for me, some hour—and better soon than +late? I’ll be at home whenever it best suits you. There—I +can’t say fairer.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought a moment while Waymarsh and Mrs. Pocock affected him as +standing attentive. “I did lately call on you. Last week—while Chad +was out of town.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—and I was away, as it happened, too. You choose your moments +well. But don’t wait for my next absence, for I shan’t make +another,” Madame de Vionnet declared, “while Mrs. Pocock’s +here.” +</p> + +<p> +“That vow needn’t keep you long, fortunately,” Sarah observed +with reasserted suavity. “I shall be at present but a short time in +Paris. I have my plans for other countries. I meet a number of charming +friends”—and her voice seemed to caress that description of these +persons. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then,” her visitor cheerfully replied, “all the more +reason! To-morrow, for instance, or next day?” she continued to Strether. +“Tuesday would do for me beautifully.” +</p> + +<p> +“Tuesday then with pleasure.” +</p> + +<p> +“And at half-past five?—or at six?” +</p> + +<p> +It was ridiculous, but Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh struck him as fairly waiting +for his answer. It was indeed as if they were arranged, gathered for a +performance, the performance of “Europe” by his confederate and +himself. Well, the performance could only go on. “Say five +forty-five.” +</p> + +<p> +“Five forty-five—good.” And now at last Madame de Vionnet +must leave them, though it carried, for herself, the performance a little +further. “I <i>did</i> hope so much also to see Miss Pocock. Mayn’t +I still?” +</p> + +<p> +Sarah hesitated, but she rose equal. “She’ll return your visit with +me. She’s at present out with Mr. Pocock and my brother.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see—of course Mr. Newsome has everything to show them. He has +told me so much about her. My great desire’s to give my daughter the +opportunity of making her acquaintance. I’m always on the lookout for +such chances for her. If I didn’t bring her to-day it was only to make +sure first that you’d let me.” After which the charming woman +risked a more intense appeal. “It wouldn’t suit <i>you</i> also to +mention some near time, so that we shall be sure not to lose you?” +Strether on his side waited, for Sarah likewise had, after all, to perform; and +it occupied him to have been thus reminded that she had stayed at +home—and on her first morning of Paris—while Chad led the others +forth. Oh she was up to her eyes; if she had stayed at home she had stayed by +an understanding, arrived at the evening before, that Waymarsh would come and +find her alone. This was beginning well—for a first day in Paris; and the +thing might be amusing yet. But Madame de Vionnet’s earnestness was +meanwhile beautiful. “You may think me indiscreet, but I’ve +<i>such</i> a desire my Jeanne shall know an American girl of the really +delightful kind. You see I throw myself for it on your charity.” +</p> + +<p> +The manner of this speech gave Strether such a sense of depths below it and +behind it as he hadn’t yet had—ministered in a way that almost +frightened him to his dim divinations of reasons; but if Sarah still, in spite +of it, faltered, this was why he had time for a sign of sympathy with her +petitioner. “Let me say then, dear lady, to back your plea, that Miss +Mamie is of the most delightful kind of all—is charming among the +charming.” +</p> + +<p> +Even Waymarsh, though with more to produce on the subject, could get into +motion in time. “Yes, Countess, the American girl’s a thing that +your country must at least allow ours the privilege to say we <i>can</i> show +you. But her full beauty is only for those who know how to make use of +her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then,” smiled Madame de Vionnet, “that’s exactly +what I want to do. I’m sure she has much to teach us.” +</p> + +<p> +It was wonderful, but what was scarce less so was that Strether found himself, +by the quick effect of it, moved another way. “Oh that may be! But +don’t speak of your own exquisite daughter, you know, as if she +weren’t pure perfection. <i>I</i> at least won’t take that from +you. Mademoiselle de Vionnet,” he explained, in considerable form, to +Mrs. Pocock, “<i>is</i> pure perfection. Mademoiselle de Vionnet +<i>is</i> exquisite.” +</p> + +<p> +It had been perhaps a little portentous, but “Ah?” Sarah simply +glittered. +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh himself, for that matter, apparently recognised, in respect to the +facts, the need of a larger justice, and he had with it an inclination to +Sarah. “Miss Jane’s strikingly handsome—in the regular French +style.” +</p> + +<p> +It somehow made both Strether and Madame de Vionnet laugh out, though at the +very moment he caught in Sarah’s eyes, as glancing at the speaker, a +vague but unmistakeable “You too?” It made Waymarsh in fact look +consciously over her head. Madame de Vionnet meanwhile, however, made her point +in her own way. “I wish indeed I could offer you my poor child as a +dazzling attraction: it would make one’s position simple enough! +She’s as good as she can be, but of course she’s different, and the +question is now—in the light of the way things seem to go—if she +isn’t after all <i>too</i> different: too different I mean from the +splendid type every one is so agreed that your wonderful country produces. On +the other hand of course Mr. Newsome, who knows it so well, has, as a good +friend, dear kind man that he is, done everything he can—to keep us from +fatal benightedness—for my small shy creature. Well,” she wound up +after Mrs. Pocock had signified, in a murmur still a little stiff, that she +would speak to her own young charge on the question—“well, we shall +sit, my child and I, and wait and wait and wait for you.” But her last +fine turn was for Strether. “Do speak of us in such a way—!” +</p> + +<p> +“As that something can’t but come of it? Oh something <i>shall</i> +come of it! I take a great interest!” he further declared; and in proof +of it, the next moment, he had gone with her down to her carriage. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap09"></a>Book Ninth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +“The difficulty is,” Strether said to Madame de Vionnet a couple of +days later, “that I can’t surprise them into the smallest sign of +his not being the same old Chad they’ve been for the last three years +glowering at across the sea. They simply won’t give any, and as a policy, +you know—what you call a <i>parti pris</i>, a deep +game—that’s positively remarkable.” +</p> + +<p> +It was so remarkable that our friend had pulled up before his hostess with the +vision of it; he had risen from his chair at the end of ten minutes and begun, +as a help not to worry, to move about before her quite as he moved before +Maria. He had kept his appointment with her to the minute and had been +intensely impatient, though divided in truth between the sense of having +everything to tell her and the sense of having nothing at all. The short +interval had, in the face of their complication, multiplied his +impressions—it being meanwhile to be noted, moreover, that he already +frankly, already almost publicly, viewed the complication as common to them. If +Madame de Vionnet, under Sarah’s eyes, had pulled him into her boat, +there was by this time no doubt whatever that he had remained in it and that +what he had really most been conscious of for many hours together was the +movement of the vessel itself. They were in it together this moment as they +hadn’t yet been, and he hadn’t at present uttered the least of the +words of alarm or remonstrance that had died on his lips at the hotel. He had +other things to say to her than that she had put him in a position; so quickly +had his position grown to affect him as quite excitingly, altogether richly, +inevitable. That the outlook, however—given the point of +exposure—hadn’t cleared up half so much as he had reckoned was the +first warning she received from him on his arrival. She had replied with +indulgence that he was in too great a hurry, and had remarked soothingly that +if she knew how to be patient surely <i>he</i> might be. He felt her presence, +on the spot, he felt her tone and everything about her, as an aid to that +effort; and it was perhaps one of the proofs of her success with him that he +seemed so much to take his ease while they talked. By the time he had explained +to her why his impressions, though multiplied, still baffled him, it was as if +he had been familiarly talking for hours. They baffled him because +Sarah—well, Sarah was deep, deeper than she had ever yet had a chance to +show herself. He didn’t say that this was partly the effect of her +opening so straight down, as it were, into her mother, and that, given Mrs. +Newsome’s profundity, the shaft thus sunk might well have a reach; but he +wasn’t without a resigned apprehension that, at such a rate of confidence +between the two women, he was likely soon to be moved to show how already, at +moments, it had been for him as if he were dealing directly with Mrs. Newsome. +Sarah, to a certainty, would have begun herself to feel it in him—and +this naturally put it in her power to torment him the more. From the moment she +knew he <i>could</i> be tormented—! +</p> + +<p> +“But <i>why</i> can you be?”—his companion was surprised at +his use of the word. +</p> + +<p> +“Because I’m made so—I think of everything.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah one must never do that,” she smiled. “One must think of +as few things as possible.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then,” he answered, “one must pick them out right. But all I +mean is—for I express myself with violence—that she’s in a +position to watch me. There’s an element of suspense for me, and she can +see me wriggle. But my wriggling doesn’t matter,” he pursued. +“I can bear it. Besides, I shall wriggle out.” +</p> + +<p> +The picture at any rate stirred in her an appreciation that he felt to be +sincere. “I don’t see how a man can be kinder to a woman than you +are to me.” +</p> + +<p> +Well, kind was what he wanted to be; yet even while her charming eyes rested on +him with the truth of this he none the less had his humour of honesty. +“When I say suspense I mean, you know,” he laughed, “suspense +about my own case too!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—about your own case too!” It diminished his +magnanimity, but she only looked at him the more tenderly. +</p> + +<p> +“Not, however,” he went on, “that I want to talk to you about +that. It’s my own little affair, and I mentioned it simply as part of +Mrs. Pocock’s advantage.” No, no; though there was a queer present +temptation in it, and his suspense was so real that to fidget was a relief, he +wouldn’t talk to her about Mrs. Newsome, wouldn’t work off on her +the anxiety produced in him by Sarah’s calculated omissions of reference. +The effect she produced of representing her mother had been produced—and +that was just the immense, the uncanny part of it—without her having so +much as mentioned that lady. She had brought no message, had alluded to no +question, had only answered his enquiries with hopeless limited propriety. She +had invented a way of meeting them—as if he had been a polite perfunctory +poor relation, of distant degree—that made them almost ridiculous in him. +He couldn’t moreover on his own side ask much without appearing to +publish how he had lately lacked news; a circumstance of which it was +Sarah’s profound policy not to betray a suspicion. These things, all the +same, he wouldn’t breathe to Madame de Vionnet—much as they might +make him walk up and down. And what he didn’t say—as well as what +<i>she</i> didn’t, for she had also her high decencies—enhanced the +effect of his being there with her at the end of ten minutes more intimately on +the basis of saving her than he had yet had occasion to be. It ended in fact by +being quite beautiful between them, the number of things they had a manifest +consciousness of not saying. He would have liked to turn her, critically, to +the subject of Mrs. Pocock, but he so stuck to the line he felt to be the point +of honour and of delicacy that he scarce even asked her what her personal +impression had been. He knew it, for that matter, without putting her to +trouble: that she wondered how, with such elements, Sarah could still have no +charm, was one of the principal things she held her tongue about. Strether +would have been interested in her estimate of the elements—indubitably +there, some of them, and to be appraised according to taste—but he denied +himself even the luxury of this diversion. The way Madame de Vionnet affected +him to-day was in itself a kind of demonstration of the happy employment of +gifts. How could a woman think Sarah had charm who struck one as having arrived +at it herself by such different roads? On the other hand of course Sarah +wasn’t obliged to have it. He felt as if somehow Madame de Vionnet +<i>was</i>. The great question meanwhile was what Chad thought of his sister; +which was naturally ushered in by that of Sarah’s apprehension of Chad. +<i>That</i> they could talk of, and with a freedom purchased by their +discretion in other senses. The difficulty however was that they were reduced +as yet to conjecture. He had given them in the day or two as little of a lead +as Sarah, and Madame de Vionnet mentioned that she hadn’t seen him since +his sister’s arrival. +</p> + +<p> +“And does that strike you as such an age?” +</p> + +<p> +She met it in all honesty. “Oh I won’t pretend I don’t miss +him. Sometimes I see him every day. Our friendship’s like that. Make what +you will of it!” she whimsically smiled; a little flicker of the kind, +occasional in her, that had more than once moved him to wonder what he might +best make of <i>her</i>. “But he’s perfectly right,” she +hastened to add, “and I wouldn’t have him fail in any way at +present for the world. I’d sooner not see him for three months. I begged +him to be beautiful to them, and he fully feels it for himself.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether turned away under his quick perception; she was so odd a mixture of +lucidity and mystery. She fell in at moments with the theory about her he most +cherished, and she seemed at others to blow it into air. She spoke now as if +her art were all an innocence, and then again as if her innocence were all an +art. “Oh he’s giving himself up, and he’ll do so to the end. +How can he but want, now that it’s within reach, his full +impression?—which is much more important, you know, than either yours or +mine. But he’s just soaking,” Strether said as he came back; +“he’s going in conscientiously for a saturation. I’m bound to +say he <i>is</i> very good.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” she quietly replied, “to whom do you say it?” And +then more quietly still: “He’s capable of anything.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether more than reaffirmed—“Oh he’s excellent. I more and +more like,” he insisted, “to see him with them;” though the +oddity of this tone between them grew sharper for him even while they spoke. It +placed the young man so before them as the result of her interest and the +product of her genius, acknowledged so her part in the phenomenon and made the +phenomenon so rare, that more than ever yet he might have been on the very +point of asking her for some more detailed account of the whole business than +he had yet received from her. The occasion almost forced upon him some question +as to how she had managed and as to the appearance such miracles presented from +her own singularly close place of survey. The moment in fact however passed, +giving way to more present history, and he continued simply to mark his +appreciation of the happy truth. “It’s a tremendous comfort to feel +how one can trust him.” And then again while for a little she said +nothing—as if after all to <i>her</i> trust there might be a special +limit: “I mean for making a good show to them.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” she thoughtfully returned—“but if they shut +their eyes to it!” +</p> + +<p> +Strether for an instant had his own thought. “Well perhaps that +won’t matter!” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean because he probably—do what they will—won’t +like them?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh ‘do what they will’—! They won’t do much; +especially if Sarah hasn’t more—well, more than one has yet made +out—to give.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame de Vionnet weighed it. “Ah she has all her grace!” It was a +statement over which, for a little, they could look at each other sufficiently +straight, and though it produced no protest from Strether the effect was +somehow as if he had treated it as a joke. “She may be persuasive and +caressing with him; she may be eloquent beyond words. She may get hold of +him,” she wound up—“well, as neither you nor I have.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, she <i>may</i>”—and now Strether smiled. “But he +has spent all his time each day with Jim. He’s still showing Jim +round.” +</p> + +<p> +She visibly wondered. “Then how about Jim?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took a turn before he answered. “Hasn’t he given you Jim? +Hasn’t he before this ‘done’ him for you?” He was a +little at a loss. “Doesn’t he tell you things?” +</p> + +<p> +She hesitated. “No”—and their eyes once more gave and took. +“Not as you do. You somehow make me see them—or at least feel them. +And I haven’t asked too much,” she added; “I’ve of late +wanted so not to worry him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah for that, so have I,” he said with encouraging assent; so +that—as if she had answered everything—they were briefly sociable +on it. It threw him back on his other thought, with which he took another turn; +stopping again, however, presently with something of a glow. “You see +Jim’s really immense. I think it will be Jim who’ll do it.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “Get hold of him?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—just the other thing. Counteract Sarah’s spell.” +And he showed now, our friend, how far he had worked it out. “Jim’s +intensely cynical.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh dear Jim!” Madame de Vionnet vaguely smiled. +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, literally—dear Jim! He’s awful. What <i>he</i> wants, +heaven forgive him, is to help us.” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean”—she was eager—“help <i>me?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, Chad and me in the first place. But he throws you in too, though +without as yet seeing you much. Only, so far as he does see you—if you +don’t mind—he sees you as awful.” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Awful’?”—she wanted it all. +</p> + +<p> +“A regular bad one—though of course of a tremendously superior +kind. Dreadful, delightful, irresistible.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah dear Jim! I should like to know him. I <i>must</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, naturally. But will it do? You may, you know,” Strether +suggested, “disappoint him.” +</p> + +<p> +She was droll and humble about it. “I can but try. But my wickedness +then,” she went on, “is my recommendation for him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Your wickedness and the charms with which, in such a degree as yours, he +associates it. He understands, you see, that Chad and I have above all wanted +to have a good time, and his view is simple and sharp. Nothing will persuade +him—in the light, that is, of my behaviour—that I really +didn’t, quite as much as Chad, come over to have one before it was too +late. He wouldn’t have expected it of me; but men of my age, at +Woollett—and especially the least likely ones—have been noted as +liable to strange outbreaks, belated uncanny clutches at the unusual, the +ideal. It’s an effect that a lifetime of Woollett has quite been observed +as having; and I thus give it to you, in Jim’s view, for what it’s +worth. Now his wife and his mother-in-law,” Strether continued to +explain, “have, as in honour bound, no patience with such phenomena, late +or early—which puts Jim, as against his relatives, on the other side. +Besides,” he added, “I don’t think he really wants Chad back. +If Chad doesn’t come—” +</p> + +<p> +“He’ll have”—Madame de Vionnet quite +apprehended—“more of the free hand?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, Chad’s the bigger man.” +</p> + +<p> +“So he’ll work now, <i>en dessous</i>, to keep him quiet?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—he won’t ‘work’ at all, and he won’t do +anything <i>en dessous</i>. He’s very decent and won’t be a traitor +in the camp. But he’ll be amused with his own little view of our +duplicity, he’ll sniff up what he supposes to be Paris from morning till +night, and he’ll be, as to the rest, for Chad—well, just what he +is.” +</p> + +<p> +She thought it over. “A warning?” +</p> + +<p> +He met it almost with glee. “You <i>are</i> as wonderful as everybody +says!” And then to explain all he meant: “I drove him about for his +first hour, and do you know what—all beautifully unconscious—he +most put before me? Why that something like <i>that</i> is at bottom, as an +improvement to his present state, as in fact the real redemption of it, what +they think it may not be too late to make of our friend.” With which, as, +taking it in, she seemed, in her recurrent alarm, bravely to gaze at the +possibility, he completed his statement. “But it <i>is</i> too late. +Thanks to you!” +</p> + +<p> +It drew from her again one of her indefinite reflexions. “Oh +‘me’—after all!” +</p> + +<p> +He stood before her so exhilarated by his demonstration that he could fairly be +jocular. “Everything’s comparative. You’re better than +<i>that</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“You”—she could but answer him—“are better than +anything.” But she had another thought. “<i>Will</i> Mrs. Pocock +come to me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—she’ll do that. As soon, that is, as my friend +Waymarsh—<i>her</i> friend now—leaves her leisure.” +</p> + +<p> +She showed an interest. “Is he so much her friend as that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why, didn’t you see it all at the hotel?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh”—she was amused—“‘all’ is a good +deal to say. I don’t know—I forget. I lost myself in +<i>her</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“You were splendid,” Strether returned—“but +‘all’ isn’t a good deal to say: it’s only a little. Yet +it’s charming so far as it goes. She wants a man to herself.” +</p> + +<p> +“And hasn’t she got <i>you?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you think she looked at me—or even at you—as if she +had?” Strether easily dismissed that irony. “Every one, you see, +must strike her as having somebody. You’ve got Chad—and Chad has +got you.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see”—she made of it what she could. “And +you’ve got Maria.” +</p> + +<p> +Well, he on his side accepted that. “I’ve got Maria. And Maria has +got me. So it goes.” +</p> + +<p> +“But Mr. Jim—whom has he got?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh he has got—or it’s as <i>if</i> he had—the whole +place.” +</p> + +<p> +“But for Mr. Waymarsh”—she recalled—“isn’t +Miss Barrace before any one else?” +</p> + +<p> +He shook his head. “Miss Barrace is a <i>raffinée</i>, and her amusement +won’t lose by Mrs. Pocock. It will gain rather—especially if Sarah +triumphs and she comes in for a view of it.” +</p> + +<p> +“How well you know us!” Madame de Vionnet, at this, frankly sighed. +</p> + +<p> +“No—it seems to me it’s we that I know. I know +Sarah—it’s perhaps on that ground only that my feet are firm. +Waymarsh will take her round while Chad takes Jim—and I shall be, I +assure you, delighted for both of them. Sarah will have had what she +requires—she will have paid her tribute to the ideal; and he will have +done about the same. In Paris it’s in the air—so what can one do +less? If there’s a point that, beyond any other, Sarah wants to make, +it’s that she didn’t come out to be narrow. We shall feel at least +that.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she sighed, “the quantity we seem likely to +‘feel’! But what becomes, in these conditions, of the girl?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of Mamie—if we’re all provided? Ah for that,” said +Strether, “you can trust Chad.” +</p> + +<p> +“To be, you mean, all right to her?” +</p> + +<p> +“To pay her every attention as soon as he has polished off Jim. He wants +what Jim can give him—and what Jim really won’t—though he has +had it all, and more than all, from me. He wants in short his own personal +impression, and he’ll get it—strong. But as soon as he has got it +Mamie won’t suffer.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh Mamie mustn’t <i>suffer!</i>” Madame de Vionnet +soothingly emphasised. +</p> + +<p> +But Strether could reassure her. “Don’t fear. As soon as he has +done with Jim, Jim will fall to me. And then you’ll see.” +</p> + +<p> +It was as if in a moment she saw already; yet she still waited. Then “Is +she really quite charming?” she asked. +</p> + +<p> +He had got up with his last words and gathered in his hat and gloves. “I +don’t know; I’m watching. I’m studying the case, as it +were—and I dare say I shall be able to tell you.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “Is it a case?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—I think so. At any rate I shall see.’ +</p> + +<p> +“But haven’t you known her before?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes,” he smiled—“but somehow at home she wasn’t +a case. She has become one since.” It was as if he made it out for +himself. “She has become one here.” +</p> + +<p> +“So very very soon?” +</p> + +<p> +He measured it, laughing. “Not sooner than I did.” +</p> + +<p> +“And you became one—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Very very soon. The day I arrived.” +</p> + +<p> +Her intelligent eyes showed her thought of it. “Ah but the day you +arrived you met Maria. Whom has Miss Pocock met?” +</p> + +<p> +He paused again, but he brought it out. “Hasn’t she met +Chad?” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly—but not for the first time. He’s an old +friend.” At which Strether had a slow amused significant headshake that +made her go on: “You mean that for <i>her</i> at least he’s a new +person—that she sees him as different?” +</p> + +<p> +“She sees him as different.” +</p> + +<p> +“And how does she see him?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether gave it up. “How can one tell how a deep little girl sees a deep +young man?” +</p> + +<p> +“Is every one so deep? Is she too?” +</p> + +<p> +“So it strikes me deeper than I thought. But wait a little—between +us we’ll make it out. You’ll judge for that matter yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +Madame de Vionnet looked for the moment fairly bent on the chance. “Then +she <i>will</i> come with her?—I mean Mamie with Mrs. Pocock?” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly. Her curiosity, if nothing else, will in any case work that. +But leave it all to Chad.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” wailed Madame de Vionnet, turning away a little wearily, +“the things I leave to Chad!” +</p> + +<p> +The tone of it made him look at her with a kindness that showed his vision of +her suspense. But he fell back on his confidence. “Oh well—trust +him. Trust him all the way.” He had indeed no sooner so spoken than the +queer displacement of his point of view appeared again to come up for him in +the very sound, which drew from him a short laugh, immediately checked. He +became still more advisory. “When they do come give them plenty of Miss +Jeanne. Let Mamie see her well.” +</p> + +<p> +She looked for a moment as if she placed them face to face. “For Mamie to +hate her?” +</p> + +<p> +He had another of his corrective headshakes. “Mamie won’t. Trust +<i>them</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +She looked at him hard, and then as if it were what she must always come back +to: “It’s <i>you</i> I trust. But I was sincere,” she said, +“at the hotel. I did, I do, want my child—” +</p> + +<p> +“Well?”—Strether waited with deference while she appeared to +hesitate as to how to put it. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, to do what she can for me.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether for a little met her eyes on it; after which something that might have +been unexpected to her came from him. “Poor little duck!” +</p> + +<p> +Not more expected for himself indeed might well have been her echo of it. +“Poor little duck! But she immensely wants herself,” she said, +“to see our friend’s cousin.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is that what she thinks her?” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s what we call the young lady.” +</p> + +<p> +He thought again; then with a laugh: “Well, your daughter will help +you.” +</p> + +<p> +And now at last he took leave of her, as he had been intending for five +minutes. But she went part of the way with him, accompanying him out of the +room and into the next and the next. Her noble old apartment offered a +succession of three, the first two of which indeed, on entering, smaller than +the last, but each with its faded and formal air, enlarged the office of the +antechamber and enriched the sense of approach. Strether fancied them, liked +them, and, passing through them with her more slowly now, met a sharp renewal +of his original impression. He stopped, he looked back; the whole thing made a +vista, which he found high melancholy and sweet—full, once more, of dim +historic shades, of the faint faraway cannon-roar of the great Empire. It was +doubtless half the projection of his mind, but his mind was a thing that, among +old waxed parquets, pale shades of pink and green, pseudo-classic candelabra, +he had always needfully to reckon with. They could easily make him irrelevant. +The oddity, the originality, the poetry—he didn’t know what to call +it—of Chad’s connexion reaffirmed for him its romantic side. +“They ought to see this, you know. They <i>must</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“The Pococks?”—she looked about in deprecation; she seemed to +see gaps he didn’t. +</p> + +<p> +“Mamie and Sarah—Mamie in particular.” +</p> + +<p> +“My shabby old place? But <i>their</i> things—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh their things! You were talking of what will do something for +you—” +</p> + +<p> +“So that it strikes you,” she broke in, “that my poor place +may? Oh,” she ruefully mused, “that <i>would</i> be +desperate!” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you know what I wish?” he went on. “I wish Mrs. Newsome +herself could have a look.” +</p> + +<p> +She stared, missing a little his logic. “It would make a +difference?” +</p> + +<p> +Her tone was so earnest that as he continued to look about he laughed. +“It might!” +</p> + +<p> +“But you’ve told her, you tell me—” +</p> + +<p> +“All about you? Yes, a wonderful story. But there’s all the +indescribable—what one gets only on the spot.” +</p> + +<p> +“Thank you!” she charmingly and sadly smiled. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s all about me here,” he freely continued. “Mrs. +Newsome feels things.” +</p> + +<p> +But she seemed doomed always to come back to doubt. “No one feels so much +as <i>you</i>. No—not any one.” +</p> + +<p> +“So much the worse then for every one. It’s very easy.” +</p> + +<p> +They were by this time in the antechamber, still alone together, as she +hadn’t rung for a servant. The antechamber was high and square, grave and +suggestive too, a little cold and slippery even in summer, and with a few old +prints that were precious, Strether divined, on the walls. He stood in the +middle, slightly lingering, vaguely directing his glasses, while, leaning +against the door-post of the room, she gently pressed her cheek to the side of +the recess. “<i>You</i> would have been a friend.” +</p> + +<p> +“I?”—it startled him a little. +</p> + +<p> +“For the reason you say. You’re not stupid.” And then +abruptly, as if bringing it out were somehow founded on that fact: +“We’re marrying Jeanne.” +</p> + +<p> +It affected him on the spot as a move in a game, and he was even then not +without the sense that that wasn’t the way Jeanne should be married. But +he quickly showed his interest, though—as quickly afterwards struck +him—with an absurd confusion of mind. “‘You’? You +and—a—not Chad?” Of course it was the child’s father +who made the ‘we,’ but to the child’s father it would have +cost him an effort to allude. Yet didn’t it seem the next minute that +Monsieur de Vionnet was after all not in question?—since she had gone on +to say that it was indeed to Chad she referred and that he had been in the +whole matter kindness itself. +</p> + +<p> +“If I must tell you all, it is he himself who has put us in the way. I +mean in the way of an opportunity that, so far as I can yet see, is all I could +possibly have dreamed of. For all the trouble Monsieur de Vionnet will ever +take!” It was the first time she had spoken to him of her husband, and he +couldn’t have expressed how much more intimate with her it suddenly made +him feel. It wasn’t much, in truth—there were other things in what +she was saying that were far more; but it was as if, while they stood there +together so easily in these cold chambers of the past, the single touch had +shown the reach of her confidence. “But our friend,” she asked, +“hasn’t then told you?” +</p> + +<p> +“He has told me nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it has come with rather a rush—all in a very few days; and +hasn’t moreover yet taken a form that permits an announcement. It’s +only for you—absolutely you alone—that I speak; I so want you to +know.” The sense he had so often had, since the first hour of his +disembarkment, of being further and further “in,” treated him again +at this moment to another twinge; but in this wonderful way of her putting him +in there continued to be something exquisitely remorseless. “Monsieur de +Vionnet will accept what he <i>must</i> accept. He has proposed half a dozen +things—each one more impossible than the other; and he wouldn’t +have found this if he lives to a hundred. Chad found it,” she continued +with her lighted, faintly flushed, her conscious confidential face, “in +the quietest way in the world. Or rather it found <i>him</i>—for +everything finds him; I mean finds him right. You’ll think we do such +things strangely—but at my age,” she smiled, “one has to +accept one’s conditions. Our young man’s people had seen her; one +of his sisters, a charming woman—we know all about them—had +observed her somewhere with me. She had spoken to her brother—turned him +on; and we were again observed, poor Jeanne and I, without our in the least +knowing it. It was at the beginning of the winter; it went on for some time; it +outlasted our absence; it began again on our return; and it luckily seems all +right. The young man had met Chad, and he got a friend to approach him—as +having a decent interest in us. Mr. Newsome looked well before he leaped; he +kept beautifully quiet and satisfied himself fully; then only he spoke. +It’s what has for some time past occupied us. It seems as if it were what +would do; really, really all one could wish. There are only two or three points +to be settled—they depend on her father. But this time I think +we’re safe.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, consciously gaping a little, had fairly hung upon her lips. “I +hope so with all my heart.” And then he permitted himself: “Does +nothing depend on <i>her?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah naturally; everything did. But she’s pleased <i>comme tout</i>. +She has been perfectly free; and he—our young friend—is really a +combination. I quite adore him.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether just made sure. “You mean your future son-in-law?” +</p> + +<p> +“Future if we all bring it off.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah well,” said Strether decorously, “I heartily hope you +may.” There seemed little else for him to say, though her communication +had the oddest effect on him. Vaguely and confusedly he was troubled by it; +feeling as if he had even himself been concerned in something deep and dim. He +had allowed for depths, but these were greater: and it was as if, +oppressively—indeed absurdly—he was responsible for what they had +now thrown up to the surface. It was—through something ancient and cold +in it—what he would have called the real thing. In short his +hostess’s news, though he couldn’t have explained why, was a +sensible shock, and his oppression a weight he felt he must somehow or other +immediately get rid of. There were too many connexions missing to make it +tolerable he should do anything else. He was prepared to suffer—before +his own inner tribunal—for Chad; he was prepared to suffer even for +Madame de Vionnet. But he wasn’t prepared to suffer for the little girl. +So now having said the proper thing, he wanted to get away. She held him an +instant, however, with another appeal. +</p> + +<p> +“Do I seem to you very awful?” +</p> + +<p> +“Awful? Why so?” But he called it to himself, even as he spoke, his +biggest insincerity yet. +</p> + +<p> +“Our arrangements are so different from yours.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mine?” Oh he could dismiss that too! “I haven’t any +arrangements.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then you must accept mine; all the more that they’re excellent. +They’re founded on a <i>vieille sagesse</i>. There will be much more, if +all goes well, for you to hear and to know, and everything, believe me, for you +to like. Don’t be afraid; you’ll be satisfied.” Thus she +could talk to him of what, of her innermost life—for that was what it +came to—he must “accept”; thus she could extraordinarily +speak as if in such an affair his being satisfied had an importance. It was all +a wonder and made the whole case larger. He had struck himself at the hotel, +before Sarah and Waymarsh, as being in her boat; but where on earth was he now? +This question was in the air till her own lips quenched it with another. +“And do you suppose <i>he</i>—who loves her so—would do +anything reckless or cruel?” +</p> + +<p> +He wondered what he supposed. “Do you mean your young man—?” +</p> + +<p> +“I mean yours. I mean Mr. Newsome.” It flashed for Strether the +next moment a finer light, and the light deepened as she went on. “He +takes, thank God, the truest tenderest interest in her.” +</p> + +<p> +It deepened indeed. “Oh I’m sure of that!” +</p> + +<p> +“You were talking,” she said, “about one’s trusting +him. You see then how I do.” +</p> + +<p> +He waited a moment—it all came. “I see—I see.” He felt +he really did see. +</p> + +<p> +“He wouldn’t hurt her for the world, nor—assuming she marries +at all—risk anything that might make against her happiness. +And—willingly, at least—he would never hurt <i>me</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Her face, with what he had by this time grasped, told him more than her words; +whether something had come into it, or whether he only read clearer, her whole +story—what at least he then took for such—reached out to him from +it. With the initiative she now attributed to Chad it all made a sense, and +this sense—a light, a lead, was what had abruptly risen before him. He +wanted, once more, to get off with these things; which was at last made easy, a +servant having, for his assistance, on hearing voices in the hall, just come +forward. All that Strether had made out was, while the man opened the door and +impersonally waited, summed up in his last word. “I don’t think, +you know, Chad will tell me anything.” +</p> + +<p> +“No—perhaps not yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“And I won’t as yet speak to him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that’s as you’ll think best. You must judge.” +</p> + +<p> +She had finally given him her hand, which he held a moment. “How +<i>much</i> I have to judge!” +</p> + +<p> +“Everything,” said Madame de Vionnet: a remark that was +indeed—with the refined disguised suppressed passion of her +face—what he most carried away. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +So far as a direct approach was concerned Sarah had neglected him, for the week +now about to end, with a civil consistency of chill that, giving him a higher +idea of her social resource, threw him back on the general reflexion that a +woman could always be amazing. It indeed helped a little to console him that he +felt sure she had for the same period also left Chad’s curiosity hanging; +though on the other hand, for his personal relief, Chad could at least go +through the various motions—and he made them extraordinarily +numerous—of seeing she had a good time. There wasn’t a motion on +which, in her presence, poor Strether could so much as venture, and all he +could do when he was out of it was to walk over for a talk with Maria. He +walked over of course much less than usual, but he found a special compensation +in a certain half-hour during which, toward the close of a crowded empty +expensive day, his several companions seemed to him so disposed of as to give +his forms and usages a rest. He had been with them in the morning and had +nevertheless called on the Pococks in the afternoon; but their whole group, he +then found, had dispersed after a fashion of which it would amuse Miss Gostrey +to hear. He was sorry again, gratefully sorry she was so out of it—she +who had really put him in; but she had fortunately always her appetite for +news. The pure flame of the disinterested burned in her cave of treasures as a +lamp in a Byzantine vault. It was just now, as happened, that for so fine a +sense as hers a near view would have begun to pay. Within three days, +precisely, the situation on which he was to report had shown signs of an +equilibrium; the effect of his look in at the hotel was to confirm this +appearance. If the equilibrium might only prevail! Sarah was out with Waymarsh, +Mamie was out with Chad, and Jim was out alone. Later on indeed he himself was +booked to Jim, was to take him that evening to the Varieties—which +Strether was careful to pronounce as Jim pronounced them. +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey drank it in. “What then to-night do the others do?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it has been arranged. Waymarsh takes Sarah to dine at +Bignon’s.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “And what do they do after? They can’t come straight +home.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, they can’t come straight home—at least Sarah +can’t. It’s their secret, but I think I’ve guessed it.” +Then as she waited: “The circus.” +</p> + +<p> +It made her stare a moment longer, then laugh almost to extravagance. +“There’s no one like you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Like <i>me?</i>”—he only wanted to understand. +</p> + +<p> +“Like all of you together—like all of us: Woollett, Milrose and +their products. We’re abysmal—but may we never be less so! Mr. +Newsome,” she continued, “meanwhile takes Miss +Pocock—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Precisely—to the Français: to see what <i>you</i> took Waymarsh +and me to, a family-bill.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then may Mr. Chad enjoy it as <i>I</i> did!” But she saw so +much in things. “Do they spend their evenings, your young people, like +that, alone together?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, they’re young people—but they’re old +friends.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see, I see. And do <i>they</i> dine—for a difference—at +Brébant’s?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh where they dine is their secret too. But I’ve my idea that it +will be, very quietly, at Chad’s own place.” +</p> + +<p> +“She’ll come to him there alone?” +</p> + +<p> +They looked at each other a moment. “He has known her from a child. +Besides,” said Strether with emphasis, “Mamie’s remarkable. +She’s splendid.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “Do you mean she expects to bring it off?” +</p> + +<p> +“Getting hold of him? No—I think not.” +</p> + +<p> +“She doesn’t want him enough?—or doesn’t believe in her +power?” On which as he said nothing she continued: “She finds she +doesn’t care for him?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—I think she finds she does. But that’s what I mean by so +describing her. It’s <i>if</i> she does that she’s splendid. But +we’ll see,” he wound up, “where she comes out.” +</p> + +<p> +“You seem to show me sufficiently,” Miss Gostrey laughed, +“where she goes in! But is her childhood’s friend,” she +asked, “permitting himself recklessly to flirt with her?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—not that. Chad’s also splendid. They’re <i>all</i> +splendid!” he declared with a sudden strange sound of wistfulness and +envy. “They’re at least <i>happy</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Happy?”—it appeared, with their various difficulties, to +surprise her. +</p> + +<p> +“Well—I seem to myself among them the only one who +isn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +She demurred. “With your constant tribute to the ideal?” +</p> + +<p> +He had a laugh at his tribute to the ideal, but he explained after a moment his +impression. “I mean they’re living. They’re rushing about. +I’ve already had my rushing. I’m waiting.” +</p> + +<p> +“But aren’t you,” she asked by way of cheer, “waiting +with <i>me?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +He looked at her in all kindness. “Yes—if it weren’t for +that!” +</p> + +<p> +“And you help me to wait,” she said. “However,” she +went on, “I’ve really something for you that will help you to wait +and which you shall have in a minute. Only there’s something more I want +from you first. I revel in Sarah.” +</p> + +<p> +“So do I. If it weren’t,” he again amusedly sighed, +“for <i>that</i>—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, you owe more to women than any man I ever saw. We do seem to keep +you going. Yet Sarah, as I see her, must be great.” +</p> + +<p> +“She <i>is</i>” Strether fully assented: “great! Whatever +happens, she won’t, with these unforgettable days, have lived in +vain.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey had a pause. “You mean she has fallen in love?” +</p> + +<p> +“I mean she wonders if she hasn’t—and it serves all her +purpose.” +</p> + +<p> +“It has indeed,” Maria laughed, “served women’s +purposes before!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—for giving in. But I doubt if the idea—as an +idea—has ever up to now answered so well for holding out. That’s +<i>her</i> tribute to the ideal—we each have our own. It’s her +romance—and it seems to me better on the whole than mine. To have it in +Paris too,” he explained—“on this classic ground, in this +charged infectious air, with so sudden an intensity: well, it’s more than +she expected. She has had in short to recognise the breaking out for her of a +real affinity—and with everything to enhance the drama.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey followed. “Jim for instance?” +</p> + +<p> +“Jim. Jim hugely enhances. Jim was made to enhance. And then Mr. +Waymarsh. It’s the crowning touch—it supplies the colour. +He’s positively separated.” +</p> + +<p> +“And she herself unfortunately isn’t—that supplies the colour +too.” Miss Gostrey was all there. But somehow—! “Is <i>he</i> +in love?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether looked at her a long time; then looked all about the room; then came a +little nearer. “Will you never tell any one in the world as long as ever +you live?” +</p> + +<p> +“Never.” It was charming. +</p> + +<p> +“He thinks Sarah really is. But he has no fear,” Strether hastened +to add. +</p> + +<p> +“Of her being affected by it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of <i>his</i> being. He likes it, but he knows she can hold out. +He’s helping her, he’s floating her over, by kindness.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria rather funnily considered it. “Floating her over in champagne? The +kindness of dining her, nose to nose, at the hour when all Paris is crowding to +profane delights, and in the—well, in the great temple, as one hears of +it, of pleasure?” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s just <i>it</i>, for both of them,” Strether +insisted—“and all of a supreme innocence. The Parisian place, the +feverish hour, the putting before her of a hundred francs’ worth of food +and drink, which they’ll scarcely touch—all that’s the dear +man’s own romance; the expensive kind, expensive in francs and centimes, +in which he abounds. And the circus afterwards—which is cheaper, but +which he’ll find some means of making as dear as +possible—that’s also <i>his</i> tribute to the ideal. It does for +him. He’ll see her through. They won’t talk of anything worse than +you and me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, we’re bad enough perhaps, thank heaven,” she laughed, +“to upset them! Mr. Waymarsh at any rate is a hideous old +coquette.” And the next moment she had dropped everything for a different +pursuit. “What you don’t appear to know is that Jeanne de Vionnet +has become engaged. She’s to marry—it has been definitely +arranged—young Monsieur de Montbron.” +</p> + +<p> +He fairly blushed. “Then—if you know it—it’s +‘out’?” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t I often know things that are <i>not</i> out? However,” +she said, “this will be out to-morrow. But I see I’ve counted too +much on your possible ignorance. You’ve been before me, and I don’t +make you jump as I hoped.” +</p> + +<p> +He gave a gasp at her insight. “You never fail! I’ve <i>had</i> my +jump. I had it when I first heard.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then if you knew why didn’t you tell me as soon as you came +in?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because I had it from her as a thing not yet to be spoken of.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey wondered. “From Madame de Vionnet herself?” +</p> + +<p> +“As a probability—not quite a certainty: a good cause in which Chad +has been working. So I’ve waited.” +</p> + +<p> +“You need wait no longer,” she returned. “It reached me +yesterday—roundabout and accidental, but by a person who had had it from +one of the young man’s own people—as a thing quite settled. I was +only keeping it for you.” +</p> + +<p> +“You thought Chad wouldn’t have told me?” +</p> + +<p> +She hesitated. “Well, if he hasn’t—” +</p> + +<p> +“He hasn’t. And yet the thing appears to have been practically his +doing. So there we are.” +</p> + +<p> +“There we are!” Maria candidly echoed. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s why I jumped. I jumped,” he continued to explain, +“because it means, this disposition of the daughter, that there’s +now nothing else: nothing else but him and the mother.” +</p> + +<p> +“Still—it simplifies.” +</p> + +<p> +“It simplifies”—he fully concurred. “But that’s +precisely where we are. It marks a stage in his relation. The act is his answer +to Mrs. Newsome’s demonstration.” +</p> + +<p> +“It tells,” Maria asked, “the worst?” +</p> + +<p> +“The worst.” +</p> + +<p> +“But is the worst what he wants Sarah to know?” +</p> + +<p> +“He doesn’t care for Sarah.” +</p> + +<p> +At which Miss Gostrey’s eyebrows went up. “You mean she has already +dished herself?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took a turn about; he had thought it out again and again before this, +to the end; but the vista seemed each time longer. “He wants his good +friend to know the best. I mean the measure of his attachment. She asked for a +sign, and he thought of that one. There it is.” +</p> + +<p> +“A concession to her jealousy?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether pulled up. “Yes—call it that. Make it lurid—for that +makes my problem richer.” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly, let us have it lurid—for I quite agree with you that we +want none of our problems poor. But let us also have it clear. Can he, in the +midst of such a preoccupation, or on the heels of it, have seriously cared for +Jeanne?—cared, I mean, as a young man at liberty would have cared?” +</p> + +<p> +Well, Strether had mastered it. “I think he can have thought it would be +charming if he <i>could</i> care. It would be nicer.” +</p> + +<p> +“Nicer than being tied up to Marie?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—than the discomfort of an attachment to a person he can never +hope, short of a catastrophe, to marry. And he was quite right,” said +Strether. “It would certainly have been nicer. Even when a thing’s +already nice there mostly <i>is</i> some other thing that would have been +nicer—or as to which we wonder if it wouldn’t. But his question was +all the same a dream. He <i>couldn’t</i> care in that way. He <i>is</i> +tied up to Marie. The relation is too special and has gone too far. It’s +the very basis, and his recent lively contribution toward establishing Jeanne +in life has been his definite and final acknowledgement to Madame de Vionnet +that he has ceased squirming. I doubt meanwhile,” he went on, “if +Sarah has at all directly attacked him.” +</p> + +<p> +His companion brooded. “But won’t he wish for his own satisfaction +to make his ground good to her?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—he’ll leave it to me, he’ll leave everything to me. +I ‘sort of’ feel”—he worked it out—“that +the whole thing will come upon me. Yes, I shall have every inch and every ounce +of it. I shall be <i>used</i> for it—!” And Strether lost himself +in the prospect. Then he fancifully expressed the issue. “To the last +drop of my blood.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria, however, roundly protested. “Ah you’ll please keep a drop +for <i>me</i>. I shall have a use for it!”—which she didn’t +however follow up. She had come back the next moment to another matter. +“Mrs. Pocock, with her brother, is trusting only to her general +charm?” +</p> + +<p> +“So it would seem.” +</p> + +<p> +“And the charm’s not working?” +</p> + +<p> +Well, Strether put it otherwise, “She’s sounding the note of +home—which is the very best thing she can do.” +</p> + +<p> +“The best for Madame de Vionnet?” +</p> + +<p> +“The best for home itself. The natural one; the right one.” +</p> + +<p> +“Right,” Maria asked, “when it fails?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had a pause. “The difficulty’s Jim. Jim’s the note +of home.” +</p> + +<p> +She debated. “Ah surely not the note of Mrs. Newsome.” +</p> + +<p> +But he had it all. “The note of the home for which Mrs. Newsome wants +him—the home of the business. Jim stands, with his little legs apart, at +the door of <i>that</i> tent; and Jim <i>is</i>, frankly speaking, extremely +awful.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria stared. “And you in, you poor thing, for your evening with +him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh he’s all right for <i>me!</i>” Strether laughed. +“Any one’s good enough for <i>me</i>. But Sarah shouldn’t, +all the same, have brought him. She doesn’t appreciate him.” +</p> + +<p> +His friend was amused with this statement of it. “Doesn’t know, you +mean, how bad he is?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether shook his head with decision. “Not really.” +</p> + +<p> +She wondered. “Then doesn’t Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +It made him frankly do the same. “Well, no—since you ask me.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria rubbed it in. “Not really either?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not at all. She rates him rather high.” With which indeed, +immediately, he took himself up. “Well, he <i>is</i> good too, in his +way. It depends on what you want him for.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey, however, wouldn’t let it depend on +anything—wouldn’t have it, and wouldn’t want him, at any +price. “It suits my book,” she said, “that he should be +impossible; and it suits it still better,” she more imaginatively added, +“that Mrs. Newsome doesn’t know he is.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, in consequence, had to take it from her, but he fell back on +something else. “I’ll tell you who does really know.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mr. Waymarsh? Never!” +</p> + +<p> +“Never indeed. I’m not <i>always</i> thinking of Mr. Waymarsh; in +fact I find now I never am.” Then he mentioned the person as if there +were a good deal in it. “Mamie.” +</p> + +<p> +“His own sister?” Oddly enough it but let her down. “What +good will that do?” +</p> + +<p> +“None perhaps. But there—as usual—we are!” +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +There they were yet again, accordingly, for two days more; when Strether, on +being, at Mrs. Pocock’s hotel, ushered into that lady’s salon, +found himself at first assuming a mistake on the part of the servant who had +introduced him and retired. The occupants hadn’t come in, for the room +looked empty as only a room can look in Paris, of a fine afternoon when the +faint murmur of the huge collective life, carried on out of doors, strays among +scattered objects even as a summer air idles in a lonely garden. Our friend +looked about and hesitated; observed, on the evidence of a table charged with +purchases and other matters, that Sarah had become possessed—by no aid +from <i>him</i>—of the last number of the salmon-coloured Revue; noted +further that Mamie appeared to have received a present of Fromentin’s +“Maîtres d’Autrefois” from Chad, who had written her name on +the cover; and pulled up at the sight of a heavy letter addressed in a hand he +knew. This letter, forwarded by a banker and arriving in Mrs. Pocock’s +absence, had been placed in evidence, and it drew from the fact of its being +unopened a sudden queer power to intensify the reach of its author. It brought +home to him the scale on which Mrs. Newsome—for she had been copious +indeed this time—was writing to her daughter while she kept <i>him</i> in +durance; and it had altogether such an effect upon him as made him for a few +minutes stand still and breathe low. In his own room, at his own hotel, he had +dozens of well-filled envelopes superscribed in that character; and there was +actually something in the renewal of his interrupted vision of the character +that played straight into the so frequent question of whether he weren’t +already disinherited beyond appeal. It was such an assurance as the sharp +downstrokes of her pen hadn’t yet had occasion to give him; but they +somehow at the present crisis stood for a probable absoluteness in any decree +of the writer. He looked at Sarah’s name and address, in short, as if he +had been looking hard into her mother’s face, and then turned from it as +if the face had declined to relax. But since it was in a manner as if Mrs. +Newsome were thereby all the more, instead of the less, in the room, and were +conscious, sharply and sorely conscious, of himself, so he felt both held and +hushed, summoned to stay at least and take his punishment. By staying, +accordingly, he took it—creeping softly and vaguely about and waiting for +Sarah to come in. She <i>would</i> come in if he stayed long enough, and he had +now more than ever the sense of her success in leaving him a prey to anxiety. +It wasn’t to be denied that she had had a happy instinct, from the point +of view of Woollett, in placing him thus at the mercy of her own initiative. It +was very well to try to say he didn’t care—that she might break +ground when she would, might never break it at all if she wouldn’t, and +that he had no confession whatever to wait upon her with: he breathed from day +to day an air that damnably required clearing, and there were moments when he +quite ached to precipitate that process. He couldn’t doubt that, should +she only oblige him by surprising him just as he then was, a clarifying scene +of some sort would result from the concussion. +</p> + +<p> +He humbly circulated in this spirit till he suddenly had a fresh arrest. Both +the windows of the room stood open to the balcony, but it was only now that, in +the glass of the leaf of one of them, folded back, he caught a reflexion +quickly recognised as the colour of a lady’s dress. Somebody had been +then all the while on the balcony, and the person, whoever it might be, was so +placed between the windows as to be hidden from him; while on the other hand +the many sounds of the street had covered his own entrance and movements. If +the person were Sarah he might on the spot therefore be served to his taste. He +might lead her by a move or two up to the remedy for his vain tension; as to +which, should he get nothing else from it, he would at least have the relief of +pulling down the roof on their heads. There was fortunately no one at hand to +observe—in respect to his valour—that even on this completed +reasoning he still hung fire. He had been waiting for Mrs. Pocock and the sound +of the oracle; but he had to gird himself afresh—which he did in the +embrasure of the window, neither advancing nor retreating—before +provoking the revelation. It was apparently for Sarah to come more into view; +he was in that case there at her service. She did however, as meanwhile +happened, come more into view; only she luckily came at the last minute as a +contradiction of Sarah. The occupant of the balcony was after all quite another +person, a person presented, on a second look, by a charming back and a slight +shift of her position, as beautiful brilliant unconscious Mamie—Mamie +alone at home, Mamie passing her time in her own innocent way, Mamie in short +rather shabbily used, but Mamie absorbed interested and interesting. With her +arms on the balustrade and her attention dropped to the street she allowed +Strether to watch her, to consider several things, without her turning round. +</p> + +<p> +But the oddity was that when he <i>had</i> so watched and considered he simply +stepped back into the room without following up his advantage. He revolved +there again for several minutes, quite as with something new to think of and as +if the bearings of the possibility of Sarah had been superseded. For frankly, +yes, it <i>had</i> bearings thus to find the girl in solitary possession. There +was something in it that touched him to a point not to have been reckoned +beforehand, something that softly but quite pressingly spoke to him, and that +spoke the more each time he paused again at the edge of the balcony and saw her +still unaware. Her companions were plainly scattered; Sarah would be off +somewhere with Waymarsh and Chad off somewhere with Jim. Strether didn’t +at all mentally impute to Chad that he was with his “good friend”; +he gave him the benefit of supposing him involved in appearances that, had he +had to describe them—for instance to Maria—he would have +conveniently qualified as more subtle. It came to him indeed the next thing +that there was perhaps almost an excess of refinement in having left Mamie in +such weather up there alone; however she might in fact have extemporised, under +the charm of the Rue de Rivoli, a little makeshift Paris of wonder and fancy. +Our friend in any case now recognised—and it was as if at the recognition +Mrs. Newsome’s fixed intensity had suddenly, with a deep audible gasp, +grown thin and vague—that day after day he had been conscious in respect +to his young lady of something odd and ambiguous, yet something into which he +could at last read a meaning. It had been at the most, this mystery, an +obsession—oh an obsession agreeable; and it had just now fallen into its +place as at the touch of a spring. It had represented the possibility between +them of some communication baffled by accident and delay—the possibility +even of some relation as yet unacknowledged. +</p> + +<p> +There was always their old relation, the fruit of the Woollett years; but +that—and it was what was strangest—had nothing whatever in common +with what was now in the air. As a child, as a “bud,” and then +again as a flower of expansion, Mamie had bloomed for him, freely, in the +almost incessantly open doorways of home; where he remembered her as first very +forward, as then very backward—for he had carried on at one period, in +Mrs. Newsome’s parlours (oh Mrs. Newsome’s phases and his own!) a +course of English Literature re-enforced by exams and teas—and once more, +finally, as very much in advance. But he had kept no great sense of points of +contact; it not being in the nature of things at Woollett that the freshest of +the buds should find herself in the same basket with the most withered of the +winter apples. The child had given sharpness, above all, to his sense of the +flight of time; it was but the day before yesterday that he had tripped up on +her hoop, yet his experience of remarkable women—destined, it would seem, +remarkably to grow—felt itself ready this afternoon, quite braced itself, +to include her. She had in fine more to say to him than he had ever dreamed the +pretty girl of the moment <i>could</i> have; and the proof of the circumstance +was that, visibly, unmistakeably, she had been able to say it to no one else. +It was something she could mention neither to her brother, to her sister-in-law +nor to Chad; though he could just imagine that had she still been at home she +might have brought it out, as a supreme tribute to age, authority and attitude, +for Mrs. Newsome. It was moreover something in which they all took an interest; +the strength of their interest was in truth just the reason of her prudence. +All this then, for five minutes, was vivid to Strether, and it put before him +that, poor child, she had now but her prudence to amuse her. That, for a pretty +girl in Paris, struck him, with a rush, as a sorry state; so that under the +impression he went out to her with a step as hypocritically alert, he was well +aware, as if he had just come into the room. She turned with a start at his +voice; preoccupied with him though she might be, she was just a scrap +disappointed. “Oh I thought you were Mr. Bilham!” +</p> + +<p> +The remark had been at first surprising and our friend’s private thought, +under the influence of it, temporarily blighted; yet we are able to add that he +presently recovered his inward tone and that many a fresh flower of fancy was +to bloom in the same air. Little Bilham—since little Bilham was, somewhat +incongruously, expected—appeared behindhand; a circumstance by which +Strether was to profit. They came back into the room together after a little, +the couple on the balcony, and amid its crimson-and-gold elegance, with the +others still absent, Strether passed forty minutes that he appraised even at +the time as far, in the whole queer connexion, from his idlest. Yes indeed, +since he had the other day so agreed with Maria about the inspiration of the +lurid, here was something for his problem that surely didn’t make it +shrink and that was floated in upon him as part of a sudden flood. He was +doubtless not to know till afterwards, on turning them over in thought, of how +many elements his impression was composed; but he none the less felt, as he sat +with the charming girl, the signal growth of a confidence. For she <i>was</i> +charming, when all was said—and none the less so for the visible habit +and practice of freedom and fluency. She was charming, he was aware, in spite +of the fact that if he hadn’t found her so he would have found her +something he should have been in peril of expressing as “funny.” +Yes, she was funny, wonderful Mamie, and without dreaming it; she was bland, +she was bridal—with never, that he could make out as yet, a bridegroom to +support it; she was handsome and portly and easy and chatty, soft and sweet and +almost disconcertingly reassuring. She was dressed, if we might so far +discriminate, less as a young lady than as an old one—had an old one been +supposable to Strether as so committed to vanity; the complexities of her hair +missed moreover also the looseness of youth; and she had a mature manner of +bending a little, as to encourage and reward, while she held neatly together in +front of her a pair of strikingly polished hands: the combination of all of +which kept up about her the glamour of her “receiving,” placed her +again perpetually between the windows and within sound of the ice-cream plates, +suggested the enumeration of all the names, all the Mr. Brookses and Mr. +Snookses, gregarious specimens of a single type, she was happy to +“meet.” But if all this was where she was funny, and if what was +funnier than the rest was the contrast between her beautiful benevolent +patronage—such a hint of the polysyllabic as might make her something of +a bore toward middle age—and her rather flat little voice, the voice, +naturally, unaffectedly yet, of a girl of fifteen; so Strether, none the less, +at the end of ten minutes, felt in her a quiet dignity that pulled things +bravely together. If quiet dignity, almost more than matronly, with voluminous, +too voluminous clothes, was the effect she proposed to produce, that was an +ideal one could like in her when once one had got into relation. The great +thing now for her visitor was that this was exactly what he had done; it made +so extraordinary a mixture of the brief and crowded hour. It was the mark of a +relation that he had begun so quickly to find himself sure she was, of all +people, as might have been said, on the side and of the party of Mrs. +Newsome’s original ambassador. She was in <i>his</i> interest and not in +Sarah’s, and some sign of that was precisely what he had been feeling in +her, these last days, as imminent. Finally placed, in Paris, in immediate +presence of the situation and of the hero of it—by whom Strether was +incapable of meaning any one but Chad—she had accomplished, and really in +a manner all unexpected to herself, a change of base; deep still things had +come to pass within her, and by the time she had grown sure of them Strether +had become aware of the little drama. When she knew where she was, in short, he +had made it out; and he made it out at present still better; though with never +a direct word passing between them all the while on the subject of his own +predicament. There had been at first, as he sat there with her, a moment during +which he wondered if she meant to break ground in respect to his prime +undertaking. That door stood so strangely ajar that he was half-prepared to be +conscious, at any juncture, of her having, of any one’s having, quite +bounced in. But, friendly, familiar, light of touch and happy of tact, she +exquisitely stayed out; so that it was for all the world as if to show she +could deal with him without being reduced to—well, scarcely anything. +</p> + +<p> +It fully came up for them then, by means of their talking of everything +<i>but</i> Chad, that Mamie, unlike Sarah, unlike Jim, knew perfectly what had +become of him. It fully came up that she had taken to the last fraction of an +inch the measure of the change in him, and that she wanted Strether to know +what a secret she proposed to make of it. They talked most +conveniently—as if they had had no chance yet—about Woollett; and +that had virtually the effect of their keeping the secret more close. The hour +took on for Strether, little by little, a queer sad sweetness of quality, he +had such a revulsion in Mamie’s favour and on behalf of her social value +as might have come from remorse at some early injustice. She made him, as under +the breath of some vague western whiff, homesick and freshly restless; he could +really for the time have fancied himself stranded with her on a far shore, +during an ominous calm, in a quaint community of shipwreck. Their little +interview was like a picnic on a coral strand; they passed each other, with +melancholy smiles and looks sufficiently allusive, such cupfuls of water as +they had saved. Especially sharp in Strether meanwhile was the conviction that +his companion really knew, as we have hinted, where she had come out. It was at +a very particular place—only <i>that</i> she would never tell him; it +would be above all what he should have to puzzle for himself. This was what he +hoped for, because his interest in the girl wouldn’t be complete without +it. No more would the appreciation to which she was entitled—so assured +was he that the more he saw of her process the more he should see of her pride. +She saw, herself, everything; but she knew what she didn’t want, and that +it was that had helped her. What didn’t she want?—there was a +pleasure lost for her old friend in not yet knowing, as there would doubtless +be a thrill in getting a glimpse. Gently and sociably she kept that dark to +him, and it was as if she soothed and beguiled him in other ways to make up for +it. She came out with her impression of Madame de Vionnet—of whom she had +“heard so much”; she came out with her impression of Jeanne, whom +she had been “dying to see”: she brought it out with a blandness by +which her auditor was really stirred that she had been with Sarah early that +very afternoon, and after dreadful delays caused by all sorts of things, +mainly, eternally, by the purchase of clothes—clothes that unfortunately +wouldn’t be themselves eternal—to call in the Rue de Bellechasse. +</p> + +<p> +At the sound of these names Strether almost blushed to feel that he +couldn’t have sounded them first—and yet couldn’t either have +justified his squeamishness. Mamie made them easy as he couldn’t have +begun to do, and yet it could only have cost her more than he should ever have +had to spend. It was as friends of Chad’s, friends special, +distinguished, desirable, enviable, that she spoke of them, and she beautifully +carried it off that much as she had heard of them—though she didn’t +say how or where, which was a touch of her own—she had found them beyond +her supposition. She abounded in praise of them, and after the manner of +Woollett—which made the manner of Woollett a loveable thing again to +Strether. He had never so felt the true inwardness of it as when his blooming +companion pronounced the elder of the ladies of the Rue de Bellechasse too +fascinating for words and declared of the younger that she was perfectly ideal, +a real little monster of charm. “Nothing,” she said of Jeanne, +“ought ever to happen to her—she’s so awfully right as she +is. Another touch will spoil her—so she oughtn’t to <i>be</i> +touched.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but things, here in Paris,” Strether observed, “do happen +to little girls.” And then for the joke’s and the occasion’s +sake: “Haven’t you found that yourself?” +</p> + +<p> +“That things happen—? Oh I’m not a little girl. I’m a +big battered blowsy one. <i>I</i> don’t care,” Mamie laughed, +“<i>what</i> happens.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had a pause while he wondered if it mightn’t happen that he +should give her the pleasure of learning that he found her nicer than he had +really dreamed—a pause that ended when he had said to himself that, so +far as it at all mattered for her, she had in fact perhaps already made this +out. He risked accordingly a different question—though conscious, as soon +as he had spoken, that he seemed to place it in relation to her last speech. +“But that Mademoiselle de Vionnet is to be married—I suppose +you’ve heard of <i>that</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +For all, he then found, he need fear! “Dear, yes; the gentleman was +there: Monsieur de Montbron, whom Madame de Vionnet presented to us.” +</p> + +<p> +“And was he nice?” +</p> + +<p> +Mamie bloomed and bridled with her best reception manner. “Any +man’s nice when he’s in love.” +</p> + +<p> +It made Strether laugh. “But is Monsieur de Montbron in +love—already—with <i>you?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh that’s not necessary—it’s so much better he should +be so with <i>her</i>: which, thank goodness, I lost no time in discovering for +myself. He’s perfectly gone—and I couldn’t have borne it for +her if he hadn’t been. She’s just too sweet.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “And through being in love too?” +</p> + +<p> +On which with a smile that struck him as wonderful Mamie had a wonderful +answer. “She doesn’t know if she is or not.” +</p> + +<p> +It made him again laugh out. “Oh but <i>you</i> do!” +</p> + +<p> +She was willing to take it that way. “Oh yes, I know everything.” +And as she sat there rubbing her polished hands and making the best of +it—only holding her elbows perhaps a little too much out—the +momentary effect for Strether was that every one else, in all their affair, +seemed stupid. +</p> + +<p> +“Know that poor little Jeanne doesn’t know what’s the matter +with her?” +</p> + +<p> +It was as near as they came to saying that she was probably in love with Chad; +but it was quite near enough for what Strether wanted; which was to be +confirmed in his certitude that, whether in love or not, she appealed to +something large and easy in the girl before him. Mamie would be fat, too fat, +at thirty; but she would always be the person who, at the present sharp hour, +had been disinterestedly tender. “If I see a little more of her, as I +hope I shall, I think she’ll like me enough—for she seemed to like +me to-day—to want me to tell her.” +</p> + +<p> +“And <i>shall</i> you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Perfectly. I shall tell her the matter with her is that she wants only +too much to do right. To do right for her, naturally,” said Mamie, +“is to please.” +</p> + +<p> +“Her mother, do you mean?” +</p> + +<p> +“Her mother first.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether waited. “And then?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, ‘then’—Mr. Newsome.” +</p> + +<p> +There was something really grand for him in the serenity of this reference. +“And last only Monsieur de Montbron?” +</p> + +<p> +“Last only”—she good-humouredly kept it up. +</p> + +<p> +Strether considered. “So that every one after all then will be +suited?” +</p> + +<p> +She had one of her few hesitations, but it was a question only of a moment; and +it was her nearest approach to being explicit with him about what was between +them. “I think I can speak for myself. <i>I</i> shall be.” +</p> + +<p> +It said indeed so much, told such a story of her being ready to help him, so +committed to him that truth, in short, for such use as he might make of it +toward those ends of his own with which, patiently and trustfully, she had +nothing to do—it so fully achieved all this that he appeared to himself +simply to meet it in its own spirit by the last frankness of admiration. +Admiration was of itself almost accusatory, but nothing less would serve to +show her how nearly he understood. He put out his hand for good-bye with a +“Splendid, splendid, splendid!” And he left her, in her splendour, +still waiting for little Bilham. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap10"></a>Book Tenth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +Strether occupied beside little Bilham, three evenings after his interview with +Mamie Pocock, the same deep divan they had enjoyed together on the first +occasion of our friend’s meeting Madame de Vionnet and her daughter in +the apartment of the Boulevard Malesherbes, where his position affirmed itself +again as ministering to an easy exchange of impressions. The present evening +had a different stamp; if the company was much more numerous, so, inevitably, +were the ideas set in motion. It was on the other hand, however, now strongly +marked that the talkers moved, in respect to such matters, round an inner, a +protected circle. They knew at any rate what really concerned them to-night, +and Strether had begun by keeping his companion close to it. Only a few of +Chad’s guests had dined—that is fifteen or twenty, a few compared +with the large concourse offered to sight by eleven o’clock; but number +and mass, quantity and quality, light, fragrance, sound, the overflow of +hospitality meeting the high tide of response, had all from the first pressed +upon Strether’s consciousness, and he felt himself somehow part and +parcel of the most festive scene, as the term was, in which he had ever in his +life been engaged. He had perhaps seen, on Fourths of July and on dear old +domestic Commencements, more people assembled, but he had never seen so many in +proportion to the space, or had at all events never known so great a +promiscuity to show so markedly as picked. Numerous as was the company, it had +still been made so by selection, and what was above all rare for Strether was +that, by no fault of his own, he was in the secret of the principle that had +worked. He hadn’t enquired, he had averted his head, but Chad had put him +a pair of questions that themselves smoothed the ground. He hadn’t +answered the questions, he had replied that they were the young man’s own +affair; and he had then seen perfectly that the latter’s direction was +already settled. +</p> + +<p> +Chad had applied for counsel only by way of intimating that he knew what to do; +and he had clearly never known it better than in now presenting to his sister +the whole circle of his society. This was all in the sense and the spirit of +the note struck by him on that lady’s arrival; he had taken at the +station itself a line that led him without a break, and that enabled him to +lead the Pococks—though dazed a little, no doubt, breathless, no doubt, +and bewildered—to the uttermost end of the passage accepted by them +perforce as pleasant. He had made it for them violently pleasant and +mercilessly full; the upshot of which was, to Strether’s vision, that +they had come all the way without discovering it to be really no passage at +all. It was a brave blind alley, where to pass was impossible and where, unless +they stuck fast, they would have—which was always awkward—publicly +to back out. They were touching bottom assuredly tonight; the whole scene +represented the terminus of the <i>cul-de-sac</i>. So could things go when +there was a hand to keep them consistent—a hand that pulled the wire with +a skill at which the elder man more and more marvelled. The elder man felt +responsible, but he also felt successful, since what had taken place was simply +the issue of his own contention, six weeks before, that they properly should +wait to see what their friends would have really to say. He had determined Chad +to wait, he had determined him to see; he was therefore not to quarrel with the +time given up to the business. As much as ever, accordingly, now that a +fortnight had elapsed, the situation created for Sarah, and against which she +had raised no protest, was that of her having accommodated herself to her +adventure as to a pleasure-party surrendered perhaps even somewhat in excess to +bustle and to “pace.” If her brother had been at any point the +least bit open to criticism it might have been on the ground of his spicing the +draught too highly and pouring the cup too full. Frankly treating the whole +occasion of the presence of his relatives as an opportunity for amusement, he +left it, no doubt, but scant margin as an opportunity for anything else. He +suggested, invented, abounded—yet all the while with the loosest easiest +rein. Strether, during his own weeks, had gained a sense of knowing Paris; but +he saw it afresh, and with fresh emotion, in the form of the knowledge offered +to his colleague. +</p> + +<p> +A thousand unuttered thoughts hummed for him in the air of these observations; +not the least frequent of which was that Sarah might well of a truth not quite +know whither she was drifting. She was in no position not to appear to expect +that Chad should treat her handsomely; yet she struck our friend as privately +stiffening a little each time she missed the chance of marking the great +<i>nuance</i>. The great <i>nuance</i> was in brief that of course her brother +must treat her handsomely—she should like to see him not; but that +treating her handsomely, none the less, wasn’t all in all—treating +her handsomely buttered no parsnips; and that in fine there were moments when +she felt the fixed eyes of their admirable absent mother fairly screw into the +flat of her back. Strether, watching, after his habit, and overscoring with +thought, positively had moments of his own in which he found himself sorry for +her—occasions on which she affected him as a person seated in a runaway +vehicle and turning over the question of a possible jump. <i>Would</i> she +jump, could she, would <i>that</i> be a safe place?—this question, at +such instants, sat for him in her lapse into pallor, her tight lips, her +conscious eyes. It came back to the main point at issue: would she be, after +all, to be squared? He believed on the whole she would jump; yet his +alternations on this subject were the more especial stuff of his suspense. One +thing remained well before him—a conviction that was in fact to gain +sharpness from the impressions of this evening: that if she <i>should</i> +gather in her skirts, close her eyes and quit the carriage while in motion, he +would promptly enough become aware. She would alight from her headlong course +more or less directly upon him; it would be appointed to him, unquestionably, +to receive her entire weight. Signs and portents of the experience thus in +reserve for him had as it happened, multiplied even through the dazzle of +Chad’s party. It was partly under the nervous consciousness of such a +prospect that, leaving almost every one in the two other rooms, leaving those +of the guests already known to him as well as a mass of brilliant strangers of +both sexes and of several varieties of speech, he had desired five quiet +minutes with little Bilham, whom he always found soothing and even a little +inspiring, and to whom he had actually moreover something distinct and +important to say. +</p> + +<p> +He had felt of old—for it already seemed long ago—rather humiliated +at discovering he could learn in talk with a personage so much his junior the +lesson of a certain moral ease; but he had now got used to that—whether +or no the mixture of the fact with other humiliations had made it indistinct, +whether or no directly from little Bilham’s example, the example of his +being contentedly just the obscure and acute little Bilham he was. It worked so +for him, Strether seemed to see; and our friend had at private hours a wan +smile over the fact that he himself, after so many more years, was still in +search of something that would work. However, as we have said, it worked just +now for them equally to have found a corner a little apart. What particularly +kept it apart was the circumstance that the music in the salon was admirable, +with two or three such singers as it was a privilege to hear in private. Their +presence gave a distinction to Chad’s entertainment, and the interest of +calculating their effect on Sarah was actually so sharp as to be almost +painful. Unmistakeably, in her single person, the motive of the composition and +dressed in a splendour of crimson which affected Strether as the sound of a +fall through a skylight, she would now be in the forefront of the listening +circle and committed by it up to her eyes. Those eyes during the wonderful +dinner itself he hadn’t once met; having confessedly—perhaps a +little pusillanimously—arranged with Chad that he should be on the same +side of the table. But there was no use in having arrived now with little +Bilham at an unprecedented point of intimacy unless he could pitch everything +into the pot. “You who sat where you could see her, what does she make of +it all? By which I mean on what terms does she take it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh she takes it, I judge, as proving that the claim of his family is +more than ever justified.” +</p> + +<p> +“She isn’t then pleased with what he has to show?” +</p> + +<p> +“On the contrary; she’s pleased with it as with his capacity to do +this kind of thing—more than she has been pleased with anything for a +long time. But she wants him to show it <i>there</i>. He has no right to waste +it on the likes of us.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “She wants him to move the whole thing over?” +</p> + +<p> +“The whole thing—with an important exception. Everything he has +‘picked up’—and the way he knows how. She sees no difficulty +in that. She’d run the show herself, and she’ll make the handsome +concession that Woollett would be on the whole in some ways the better for it. +Not that it wouldn’t be also in some ways the better for Woollett. The +people there are just as good.” +</p> + +<p> +“Just as good as you and these others? Ah that may be. But such an +occasion as this, whether or no,” Strether said, “isn’t the +people. It’s what has made the people possible.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then,” his friend replied, “there you are; I give you +my impression for what it’s worth. Mrs. Pocock has <i>seen</i>, and +that’s to-night how she sits there. If you were to have a glimpse of her +face you’d understand me. She has made up her mind—to the sound of +expensive music.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took it freely in. “Ah then I shall have news of her.” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t want to frighten you, but I think that likely. +However,” little Bilham continued, “if I’m of the least use +to you to hold on by—!” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re not of the least!”—and Strether laid an +appreciative hand on him to say it. “No one’s of the least.” +With which, to mark how gaily he could take it, he patted his companion’s +knee. “I must meet my fate alone, and I <i>shall</i>—oh +you’ll see! And yet,” he pursued the next moment, “you +<i>can</i> help me too. You once said to me”—he followed this +further—“that you held Chad should marry. I didn’t see then +so well as I know now that you meant he should marry Miss Pocock. Do you still +consider that he should? Because if you do”—he kept it +up—“I want you immediately to change your mind. You can help me +that way.” +</p> + +<p> +“Help you by thinking he should <i>not</i> marry?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not marry at all events Mamie.” +</p> + +<p> +“And who then?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” Strether returned, “that I’m not obliged to say. +But Madame de Vionnet—I suggest—when he can.’ +</p> + +<p> +“Oh!” said little Bilham with some sharpness. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh precisely! But he needn’t marry at all—I’m at any +rate not obliged to provide for it. Whereas in your case I rather feel that I +<i>am</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham was amused. “Obliged to provide for my marrying?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—after all I’ve done to you!” +</p> + +<p> +The young man weighed it. “Have you done as much as that?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, thus challenged, “of course I must +remember what you’ve also done to <i>me</i>. We may perhaps call it +square. But all the same,” he went on, “I wish awfully you’d +marry Mamie Pocock yourself.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham laughed out. “Why it was only the other night, in this very +place, that you were proposing to me a different union altogether.” +</p> + +<p> +“Mademoiselle de Vionnet?” Well, Strether easily confessed it. +“That, I admit, was a vain image. <i>This</i> is practical politics. I +want to do something good for both of you—I wish you each so well; and +you can see in a moment the trouble it will save me to polish you off by the +same stroke. She likes you, you know. You console her. And she’s +splendid.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham stared as a delicate appetite stares at an overheaped plate. +“What do I console her for?” +</p> + +<p> +It just made his friend impatient. “Oh come, you know!” +</p> + +<p> +“And what proves for you that she likes me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why the fact that I found her three days ago stopping at home alone all +the golden afternoon on the mere chance that you’d come to her, and +hanging over her balcony on that of seeing your cab drive up. I don’t +know what you want more.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham after a moment found it. “Only just to know what proves to +you that I like <i>her</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh if what I’ve just mentioned isn’t enough to make you do +it, you’re a stony-hearted little fiend. Besides”—Strether +encouraged his fancy’s flight—“you showed your inclination in +the way you kept her waiting, kept her on purpose to see if she cared enough +for you.” +</p> + +<p> +His companion paid his ingenuity the deference of a pause. “I +didn’t keep her waiting. I came at the hour. I wouldn’t have kept +her waiting for the world,” the young man honourably declared. +</p> + +<p> +“Better still—then there you are!” And Strether, charmed, +held him the faster. “Even if you didn’t do her justice, +moreover,” he continued, “I should insist on your immediately +coming round to it. I want awfully to have worked it. I want”—and +our friend spoke now with a yearning that was really earnest—“at +least to have done <i>that</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“To have married me off—without a penny?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I shan’t live long; and I give you my word, now and here, +that I’ll leave you every penny of my own. I haven’t many, +unfortunately, but you shall have them all. And Miss Pocock, I think, has a +few. I want,” Strether went on, “to have been at least to that +extent constructive even expiatory. I’ve been sacrificing so to strange +gods that I feel I want to put on record, somehow, my +fidelity—fundamentally unchanged after all—to our own. I feel as if +my hands were embrued with the blood of monstrous alien altars—of another +faith altogether. There it is—it’s done.” And then he further +explained. “It took hold of me because the idea of getting her quite out +of the way for Chad helps to clear my ground.” +</p> + +<p> +The young man, at this, bounced about, and it brought them face to face in +admitted amusement. “You want me to marry as a convenience to +Chad?” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” Strether debated—“<i>he</i> doesn’t care +whether you marry or not. It’s as a convenience simply to my own plan +<i>for</i> him.” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Simply’!”—and little Bilham’s concurrence +was in itself a lively comment. “Thank you. But I thought,” he +continued, “you had exactly <i>no</i> plan ‘for’ him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then call it my plan for myself—which may be well, as you +say, to have none. His situation, don’t you see? is reduced now to the +bare facts one has to recognise. Mamie doesn’t want him, and he +doesn’t want Mamie: so much as that these days have made clear. +It’s a thread we can wind up and tuck in.” +</p> + +<p> +But little Bilham still questioned. “<i>You</i> can—since you seem +so much to want to. But why should I?” +</p> + +<p> +Poor Strether thought it over, but was obliged of course to admit that his +demonstration did superficially fail. “Seriously, there <i>is</i> no +reason. It’s my affair—I must do it alone. I’ve only my +fantastic need of making my dose stiff.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham wondered. “What do you call your dose?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why what I have to swallow. I want my conditions unmitigated.” +</p> + +<p> +He had spoken in the tone of talk for talk’s sake, and yet with an +obscure truth lurking in the loose folds; a circumstance presently not without +its effect on his young friend. Little Bilham’s eyes rested on him a +moment with some intensity; then suddenly, as if everything had cleared up, he +gave a happy laugh. It seemed to say that if pretending, or even trying, or +still even hoping, to be able to care for Mamie would be of use, he was all +there for the job. “I’ll do anything in the world for you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” Strether smiled, “anything in the world is all I +want. I don’t know anything that pleased me in her more,” he went +on, “than the way that, on my finding her up there all alone, coming on +her unawares and feeling greatly for her being so out of it, she knocked down +my tall house of cards with her instant and cheerful allusion to the next young +man. It was somehow so the note I needed—her staying at home to receive +him.” +</p> + +<p> +“It was Chad of course,” said little Bilham, “who asked the +next young man—I like your name for me!—to call.” +</p> + +<p> +“So I supposed—all of which, thank God, is in our innocent and +natural manners. But do you know,” Strether asked, “if Chad +knows—?” And then as this interlocutor seemed at a loss: “Why +where she has come out.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham, at this, met his face with a conscious look—it was as if, +more than anything yet, the allusion had penetrated. “Do you know +yourself?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether lightly shook his head. “There I stop. Oh, odd as it may appear +to you, there <i>are</i> things I don’t know. I only got the sense from +her of something very sharp, and yet very deep down, that she was keeping all +to herself. That is I had begun with the belief that she <i>had</i> kept it to +herself; but face to face with her there I soon made out that there was a +person with whom she would have shared it. I had thought she possibly might +with <i>me</i>—but I saw then that I was only half in her confidence. +When, turning to me to greet me—for she was on the balcony and I had come +in without her knowing it—she showed me she had been expecting <i>you</i> +and was proportionately disappointed, I got hold of the tail of my conviction. +Half an hour later I was in possession of all the rest of it. You know what has +happened.” He looked at his young friend hard—then he felt sure. +“For all you say, you’re up to your eyes. So there you are.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham after an instant pulled half round. “I assure you she +hasn’t told me anything.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course she hasn’t. For what do you suggest that I suppose her +to take you? But you’ve been with her every day, you’ve seen her +freely, you’ve liked her greatly—I stick to that—and +you’ve made your profit of it. You know what she has been through as well +as you know that she has dined here to-night—which must have put her, by +the way, through a good deal more.” +</p> + +<p> +The young man faced this blast; after which he pulled round the rest of the +way. “I haven’t in the least said she hasn’t been nice to me. +But she’s proud.” +</p> + +<p> +“And quite properly. But not too proud for that.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s just her pride that has made her. Chad,” little Bilham +loyally went on, “has really been as kind to her as possible. It’s +awkward for a man when a girl’s in love with him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but she isn’t—now.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham sat staring before him; then he sprang up as if his +friend’s penetration, recurrent and insistent, made him really after all +too nervous. “No—she isn’t now. It isn’t in the +least,” he went on, “Chad’s fault. He’s really all +right. I mean he would have been willing. But she came over with ideas. Those +she had got at home. They had been her motive and support in joining her +brother and his wife. She was to <i>save</i> our friend.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah like me, poor thing?” Strether also got to his feet. +</p> + +<p> +“Exactly—she had a bad moment. It was very soon distinct to her, to +pull her up, to let her down, that, alas, he was, he <i>is</i>, saved. +There’s nothing left for her to do.” +</p> + +<p> +“Not even to love him?” +</p> + +<p> +“She would have loved him better as she originally believed him.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “Of course one asks one’s self what notion a +little girl forms, where a young man’s in question, of such a history and +such a state.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, this little girl saw them, no doubt, as obscure, but she saw them +practically as wrong. The wrong for her <i>was</i> the obscure. Chad turns out +at any rate right and good and disconcerting, while what she was all prepared +for, primed and girded and wound up for, was to deal with him as the general +opposite.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yet wasn’t her whole point”—Strether weighed +it—“that he was to be, that he <i>could</i> be, made better, +redeemed?” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham fixed it all a moment, and then with a small headshake that +diffused a tenderness: “She’s too late. Too late for the +miracle.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes”—his companion saw enough. “Still, if the worst +fault of his condition is that it may be all there for her to profit +by—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh she doesn’t want to ‘profit,’ in that flat way. She +doesn’t want to profit by another woman’s work—she wants the +miracle to have been her own miracle. <i>That’s</i> what she’s too +late for.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether quite felt how it all fitted, yet there seemed one loose piece. +“I’m bound to say, you know, that she strikes one, on these lines, +as fastidious—what you call here <i>difficile</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Little Bilham tossed up his chin. “Of course she’s +<i>difficile</i>—on any lines! What else in the world <i>are</i> our +Mamies—the real, the right ones?” +</p> + +<p> +“I see, I see,” our friend repeated, charmed by the responsive +wisdom he had ended by so richly extracting. “Mamie is one of the real +and the right.” +</p> + +<p> +“The very thing itself.” +</p> + +<p> +“And what it comes to then,” Strether went on, “is that poor +awful Chad is simply too good for her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah too good was what he was after all to be; but it was she herself, and +she herself only, who was to have made him so.” +</p> + +<p> +It hung beautifully together, but with still a loose end. “Wouldn’t +he do for her even if he should after all break—” +</p> + +<p> +“With his actual influence?” Oh little Bilham had for this enquiry +the sharpest of all his controls. “How can he ‘do’—on +any terms whatever—when he’s flagrantly spoiled?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether could only meet the question with his passive, his receptive pleasure. +“Well, thank goodness, <i>you’re</i> not! <i>You</i> remain for her +to save, and I come back, on so beautiful and full a demonstration, to my +contention of just now—that of your showing distinct signs of her having +already begun.” +</p> + +<p> +The most he could further say to himself—as his young friend turned +away—was that the charge encountered for the moment no renewed denial. +Little Bilham, taking his course back to the music, only shook his good-natured +ears an instant, in the manner of a terrier who has got wet; while Strether +relapsed into the sense—which had for him in these days most of +comfort—that he was free to believe in anything that from hour to hour +kept him going. He had positively motions and flutters of this conscious +hour-to-hour kind, temporary surrenders to irony, to fancy, frequent +instinctive snatches at the growing rose of observation, constantly stronger +for him, as he felt, in scent and colour, and in which he could bury his nose +even to wantonness. This last resource was offered him, for that matter, in the +very form of his next clear perception—the vision of a prompt meeting, in +the doorway of the room, between little Bilham and brilliant Miss Barrace, who +was entering as Bilham withdrew. She had apparently put him a question, to +which he had replied by turning to indicate his late interlocutor; toward whom, +after an interrogation further aided by a resort to that optical machinery +which seemed, like her other ornaments, curious and archaic, the genial lady, +suggesting more than ever for her fellow guest the old French print, the +historic portrait, directed herself with an intention that Strether instantly +met. He knew in advance the first note she would sound, and took in as she +approached all her need of sounding it. Nothing yet had been so +“wonderful” between them as the present occasion; and it was her +special sense of this quality in occasions that she was there, as she was in +most places, to feed. That sense had already been so well fed by the situation +about them that she had quitted the other room, forsaken the music, dropped out +of the play, abandoned, in a word, the stage itself, that she might stand a +minute behind the scenes with Strether and so perhaps figure as one of the +famous augurs replying, behind the oracle, to the wink of the other. Seated +near him presently where little Bilham had sat, she replied in truth to many +things; beginning as soon as he had said to her—what he hoped he said +without fatuity—“All you ladies are extraordinarily kind to +me.” +</p> + +<p> +She played her long handle, which shifted her observation; she saw in an +instant all the absences that left them free. “How can we be anything +else? But isn’t that exactly your plight? ‘We +ladies’—oh we’re nice, and you must be having enough of us! +As one of us, you know, I don’t pretend I’m crazy about us. But +Miss Gostrey at least to-night has left you alone, hasn’t she?” +With which she again looked about as if Maria might still lurk. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes,” said Strether; “she’s only sitting up for me +at home.” And then as this elicited from his companion her gay “Oh, +oh, oh!” he explained that he meant sitting up in suspense and prayer. +“We thought it on the whole better she shouldn’t be present; and +either way of course it’s a terrible worry for her.” He abounded in +the sense of his appeal to the ladies, and they might take their choice of his +doing so from humility or from pride. “Yet she inclines to believe I +shall come out.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I incline to believe too you’ll come out!”—Miss +Barrace, with her laugh, was not to be behind. “Only the question’s +about <i>where</i>, isn’t it? However,” she happily continued, +“if it’s anywhere at all it must be very far on, mustn’t it? +To do us justice, I think, you know,” she laughed, “we do, among us +all, want you rather far on. Yes, yes,” she repeated in her quick droll +way; “we want you very, <i>very</i> far on!” After which she wished +to know why he had thought it better Maria shouldn’t be present. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” he replied, “it was really her own idea. I should have +wished it. But she dreads responsibility.” +</p> + +<p> +“And isn’t that a new thing for her?” +</p> + +<p> +“To dread it? No doubt—no doubt. But her nerve has given +way.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Barrace looked at him a moment. “She has too much at stake.” +Then less gravely: “Mine, luckily for me, holds out.” +</p> + +<p> +“Luckily for me too”—Strether came back to that. “My +own isn’t so firm, <i>my</i> appetite for responsibility isn’t so +sharp, as that I haven’t felt the very principle of this occasion to be +‘the more the merrier.’ If we <i>are</i> so merry it’s +because Chad has understood so well.” +</p> + +<p> +“He has understood amazingly,” said Miss Barrace. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s wonderful—Strether anticipated for her. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s wonderful!” she, to meet it, intensified; so that, face +to face over it, they largely and recklessly laughed. But she presently added: +“Oh I see the principle. If one didn’t one would be lost. But when +once one has got hold of it—” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s as simple as twice two! From the moment he had to do +something—” +</p> + +<p> +“A crowd”—she took him straight up—“was the only +thing? Rather, rather: a rumpus of sound,” she laughed, “or +nothing. Mrs. Pocock’s built in, or built out—whichever you call +it; she’s packed so tight she can’t move. She’s in splendid +isolation”—Miss Barrace embroidered the theme. +</p> + +<p> +Strether followed, but scrupulous of justice. “Yet with every one in the +place successively introduced to her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Wonderfully—but just so that it does build her out. She’s +bricked up, she’s buried alive!” +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed for a moment to look at it; but it brought him to a sigh. +“Oh but she’s not dead! It will take more than this to kill +her.” +</p> + +<p> +His companion had a pause that might have been for pity. “No, I +can’t pretend I think she’s finished—or that it’s for +more than to-night.” She remained pensive as if with the same +compunction. “It’s only up to her chin.” Then again for the +fun of it: “She can breathe.” +</p> + +<p> +“She can breathe!”—he echoed it in the same spirit. +“And do you know,” he went on, “what’s really all this +time happening to me?—through the beauty of music, the gaiety of voices, +the uproar in short of our revel and the felicity of your wit? The sound of +Mrs. Pocock’s respiration drowns for me, I assure you, every other. +It’s literally all I hear.” +</p> + +<p> +She focussed him with her clink of chains. “Well—!” she +breathed ever so kindly. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, what?” +</p> + +<p> +“She <i>is</i> free from her chin up,” she mused; “and that +<i>will</i> be enough for her.” +</p> + +<p> +“It will be enough for me!” Strether ruefully laughed. +“Waymarsh has really,” he then asked, “brought her to see +you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—but that’s the worst of it. I could do you no good. And +yet I tried hard.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “And how did you try?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why I didn’t speak of you.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see. That was better.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then what would have been worse? For speaking or silent,” she +lightly wailed, “I somehow ‘compromise.’ And it has never +been any one but you.” +</p> + +<p> +“That shows”—he was magnanimous—“that it’s +something not in you, but in one’s self. It’s <i>my</i> +fault.” +</p> + +<p> +She was silent a little. “No, it’s Mr. Waymarsh’s. It’s +the fault of his having brought her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then,” said Strether good-naturedly, “why <i>did</i> he +bring her?” +</p> + +<p> +“He couldn’t afford not to.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you were a trophy—one of the spoils of conquest? But why in +that case, since you do ‘compromise’—” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t I compromise <i>him</i> as well? I do compromise him as +well,” Miss Barrace smiled. “I compromise him as hard as I can. But +for Mr. Waymarsh it isn’t fatal. It’s—so far as his wonderful +relation with Mrs. Pocock is concerned—favourable.” And then, as he +still seemed slightly at sea: “The man who had succeeded with <i>me</i>, +don’t you see? For her to get him from me was such an added +incentive.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether saw, but as if his path was still strewn with surprises. +“It’s ‘from’ you then that she has got him?” +</p> + +<p> +She was amused at his momentary muddle. “You can fancy my fight! She +believes in her triumph. I think it has been part of her joy. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh her joy!” Strether sceptically murmured. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, she thinks she has had her own way. And what’s to-night for +her but a kind of apotheosis? Her frock’s really good.” +</p> + +<p> +“Good enough to go to heaven in? For after a real apotheosis,” +Strether went on, “there’s nothing <i>but</i> heaven. For Sarah +there’s only to-morrow.” +</p> + +<p> +“And you mean that she won’t find to-morrow heavenly?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I mean that I somehow feel to-night—on her behalf—too +good to be true. She has had her cake; that is she’s in the act now of +having it, of swallowing the largest and sweetest piece. There won’t be +another left for her. Certainly <i>I</i> haven’t one. It can only, at the +best, be Chad.” He continued to make it out as for their common +entertainment. “He may have one, as it were, up his sleeve; yet +it’s borne in upon me that if he had—” +</p> + +<p> +“He wouldn’t”—she quite understood—“have +taken all <i>this</i> trouble? I dare say not, and, if I may be quite free and +dreadful, I very much hope he won’t take any more. Of course I +won’t pretend now,” she added, “not to know what it’s a +question of.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh every one must know now,” poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; +“and it’s strange enough and funny enough that one should feel +everybody here at this very moment to be knowing and watching and +waiting.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—isn’t it indeed funny?” Miss Barrace quite rose to +it. “That’s the way we <i>are</i> in Paris.” She was always +pleased with a new contribution to that queerness. “It’s wonderful! +But, you know,” she declared, “it all depends on you. I don’t +want to turn the knife in your vitals, but that’s naturally what you just +now meant by our all being on top of you. We know you as the hero of the drama, +and we’re gathered to see what you’ll do.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether looked at her a moment with a light perhaps slightly obscured. +“I think that must be why the hero has taken refuge in this corner. +He’s scared at his heroism—he shrinks from his part.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but we nevertheless believe he’ll play it. That’s +why,” Miss Barrace kindly went on, “we take such an interest in +you. We feel you’ll come up to the scratch.” And then as he seemed +perhaps not quite to take fire: “Don’t let him do it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t let Chad go?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, keep hold of him. With all this”—and she indicated the +general tribute—“he has done enough. We love him +here—he’s charming.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s beautiful,” said Strether, “the way you all can +simplify when you will.” +</p> + +<p> +But she gave it to him back. “It’s nothing to the way <i>you</i> +will when you must.” +</p> + +<p> +He winced at it as at the very voice of prophecy, and it kept him a moment +quiet. He detained her, however, on her appearing about to leave him alone in +the rather cold clearance their talk had made. “There positively +isn’t a sign of a hero to-night; the hero’s dodging and shirking, +the hero’s ashamed. Therefore, you know, I think, what you must all +<i>really</i> be occupied with is the heroine.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Barrace took a minute. “The heroine?” +</p> + +<p> +“The heroine. I’ve treated her,” said Strether, “not a +bit like a hero. Oh,” he sighed, “I don’t do it well!” +</p> + +<p> +She eased him off. “You do it as you can.” And then after another +hesitation: “I think she’s satisfied.” +</p> + +<p> +But he remained compunctious. “I haven’t been near her. I +haven’t looked at her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then you’ve lost a good deal!” +</p> + +<p> +He showed he knew it. “She’s more wonderful than ever?” +</p> + +<p> +“Than ever. With Mr. Pocock.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “Madame de Vionnet—with Jim?” +</p> + +<p> +“Madame de Vionnet—with ‘Jim.’” Miss Barrace was +historic. +</p> + +<p> +“And what’s she doing with him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah you must ask <i>him!</i>” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s face lighted again at the prospect. “It <i>will</i> be +amusing to do so.” Yet he continued to wonder. “But she must have +some idea.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course she has—she has twenty ideas. She has in the first +place,” said Miss Barrace, swinging a little her tortoise-shell, +“that of doing her part. Her part is to help <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +It came out as nothing had come yet; links were missing and connexions unnamed, +but it was suddenly as if they were at the heart of their subject. “Yes; +how much more she does it,” Strether gravely reflected, “than I +help <i>her!</i>” It all came over him as with the near presence of the +beauty, the grace, the intense, dissimulated spirit with which he had, as he +said, been putting off contact. “<i>She</i> has courage.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah she has courage!” Miss Barrace quite agreed; and it was as if +for a moment they saw the quantity in each other’s face. +</p> + +<p> +But indeed the whole thing was present. “How much she must care!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah there it is. She does care. But it isn’t, is it,” Miss +Barrace considerately added, “as if you had ever had any doubt of +that?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed suddenly to like to feel that he really never had. “Why +of course it’s the whole point.” +</p> + +<p> +“Voilà!” Miss Barrace smiled. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s why one came out,” Strether went on. “And +it’s why one has stayed so long. And it’s also”—he +abounded—“why one’s going home. It’s why, it’s +why—” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s why everything!” she concurred. “It’s why +she might be to-night—for all she looks and shows, and for all your +friend ‘Jim’ does—about twenty years old. That’s +another of her ideas; to be for him, and to be quite easily and charmingly, as +young as a little girl.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether assisted at his distance. “‘For him’? For +Chad—?” +</p> + +<p> +“For Chad, in a manner, naturally, always. But in particular to-night for +Mr. Pocock.” And then as her friend still stared: “Yes, it +<i>is</i> of a bravery! But that’s what she has: her high sense of +duty.” It was more than sufficiently before them. “When Mr. Newsome +has his hands so embarrassed with his sister—” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s quite the least”—Strether filled it +out—“that she should take his sister’s husband? +Certainly—quite the least. So she has taken him.” +</p> + +<p> +“She has taken him.” It was all Miss Barrace had meant. +</p> + +<p> +Still it remained enough. “It must be funny.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh it <i>is</i> funny.” That of course essentially went with it. +</p> + +<p> +But it brought them back. “How indeed then she must care!” In +answer to which Strether’s entertainer dropped a comprehensive +“Ah!” expressive perhaps of some impatience for the time he took to +get used to it. She herself had got used to it long before. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +When one morning within the week he perceived the whole thing to be really at +last upon him Strether’s immediate feeling was all relief. He had known +this morning that something was about to happen—known it, in a moment, by +Waymarsh’s manner when Waymarsh appeared before him during his brief +consumption of coffee and a roll in the small slippery <i>salle-à-manger</i> so +associated with rich rumination. Strether had taken there of late various +lonely and absent-minded meals; he communed there, even at the end of June, +with a suspected chill, the air of old shivers mixed with old savours, the air +in which so many of his impressions had perversely matured; the place meanwhile +renewing its message to him by the very circumstance of his single state. He +now sat there, for the most part, to sigh softly, while he vaguely tilted his +carafe, over the vision of how much better Waymarsh was occupied. That was +really his success by the common measure—to have led this companion so on +and on. He remembered how at first there had been scarce a squatting-place he +could beguile him into passing; the actual outcome of which at last was that +there was scarce one that could arrest him in his rush. His rush—as +Strether vividly and amusedly figured it—continued to be all with Sarah, +and contained perhaps moreover the word of the whole enigma, whipping up in its +fine full-flavoured froth the very principle, for good or for ill, of his own, +of Strether’s destiny. It might after all, to the end, only be that they +had united to save him, and indeed, so far as Waymarsh was concerned, that +<i>had</i> to be the spring of action. Strether was glad at all events, in +connexion with the case, that the saving he required was not more scant; so +constituted a luxury was it in certain lights just to lurk there out of the +full glare. He had moments of quite seriously wondering whether Waymarsh +wouldn’t in fact, thanks to old friendship and a conceivable indulgence, +make about as good terms for him as he might make for himself. They +wouldn’t be the same terms of course; but they might have the advantage +that he himself probably should be able to make none at all. +</p> + +<p> +He was never in the morning very late, but Waymarsh had already been out, and, +after a peep into the dim refectory, he presented himself with much less than +usual of his large looseness. He had made sure, through the expanse of glass +exposed to the court, that they would be alone; and there was now in fact that +about him that pretty well took up the room. He was dressed in the garments of +summer; and save that his white waistcoat was redundant and bulging these +things favoured, they determined, his expression. He wore a straw hat such as +his friend hadn’t yet seen in Paris, and he showed a buttonhole freshly +adorned with a magnificent rose. Strether read on the instant his +story—how, astir for the previous hour, the sprinkled newness of the day, +so pleasant at that season in Paris, he was fairly panting with the pulse of +adventure and had been with Mrs. Pocock, unmistakeably, to the Marché aux +Fleurs. Strether really knew in this vision of him a joy that was akin to envy; +so reversed as he stood there did their old positions seem; so comparatively +doleful now showed, by the sharp turn of the wheel, the posture of the pilgrim +from Woollett. He wondered, this pilgrim, if he had originally looked to +Waymarsh so brave and well, so remarkably launched, as it was at present the +latter’s privilege to appear. He recalled that his friend had remarked to +him even at Chester that his aspect belied his plea of prostration; but there +certainly couldn’t have been, for an issue, an aspect less concerned than +Waymarsh’s with the menace of decay. Strether had at any rate never +resembled a Southern planter of the great days—which was the image +picturesquely suggested by the happy relation between the fuliginous face and +the wide panama of his visitor. This type, it further amused him to guess, had +been, on Waymarsh’s part, the object of Sarah’s care; he was +convinced that her taste had not been a stranger to the conception and purchase +of the hat, any more than her fine fingers had been guiltless of the bestowal +of the rose. It came to him in the current of thought, as things so oddly did +come, that <i>he</i> had never risen with the lark to attend a brilliant woman +to the Marché aux Fleurs; this could be fastened on him in connexion neither +with Miss Gostrey nor with Madame de Vionnet; the practice of getting up early +for adventures could indeed in no manner be fastened on him. It came to him in +fact that just here was his usual case: he was for ever missing things through +his general genius for missing them, while others were for ever picking them up +through a contrary bent. And it was others who looked abstemious and he who +looked greedy; it was he somehow who finally paid, and it was others who mainly +partook. Yes, he should go to the scaffold yet for he wouldn’t know quite +whom. He almost, for that matter, felt on the scaffold now and really quite +enjoying it. It worked out as <i>because</i> he was anxious there—it +worked out as for this reason that Waymarsh was so blooming. It was <i>his</i> +trip for health, for a change, that proved the success—which was just +what Strether, planning and exerting himself, had desired it should be. That +truth already sat full-blown on his companion’s lips; benevolence +breathed from them as with the warmth of active exercise, and also a little as +with the bustle of haste. +</p> + +<p> +“Mrs. Pocock, whom I left a quarter of an hour ago at her hotel, has +asked me to mention to you that she would like to find you at home here in +about another hour. She wants to see you; she has something to say—or +considers, I believe, that you may have: so that I asked her myself why she +shouldn’t come right round. She hasn’t <i>been</i> round +yet—to see our place; and I took upon myself to say that I was sure +you’d be glad to have her. The thing’s therefore, you see, to keep +right here till she comes.” +</p> + +<p> +The announcement was sociably, even though, after Waymarsh’s wont, +somewhat solemnly made; but Strether quickly felt other things in it than these +light features. It was the first approach, from that quarter, to admitted +consciousness; it quickened his pulse; it simply meant at last that he should +have but himself to thank if he didn’t know where he was. He had finished +his breakfast; he pushed it away and was on his feet. There were plenty of +elements of surprise, but only one of doubt. “The thing’s for +<i>you</i> to keep here too?” Waymarsh had been slightly ambiguous. +</p> + +<p> +He wasn’t ambiguous, however, after this enquiry; and Strether’s +understanding had probably never before opened so wide and effective a mouth as +it was to open during the next five minutes. It was no part of his +friend’s wish, as appeared, to help to receive Mrs. Pocock; he quite +understood the spirit in which she was to present herself, but his connexion +with her visit was limited to his having—well, as he might +say—perhaps a little promoted it. He had thought, and had let her know +it, that Strether possibly would think she might have been round before. At any +rate, as turned out, she had been wanting herself, quite a while, to come. +“I told her,” said Waymarsh, “that it would have been a +bright idea if she had only carried it out before.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether pronounced it so bright as to be almost dazzling. “But why +<i>hasn’t</i> she carried it out before? She has seen me every +day—she had only to name her hour. I’ve been waiting and +waiting.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I told her you had. And she has been waiting too.” It was, +in the oddest way in the world, on the showing of this tone, a genial new +pressing coaxing Waymarsh; a Waymarsh conscious with a different consciousness +from any he had yet betrayed, and actually rendered by it almost insinuating. +He lacked only time for full persuasion, and Strether was to see in a moment +why. Meantime, however, our friend perceived, he was announcing a step of some +magnanimity on Mrs. Pocock’s part, so that he could deprecate a sharp +question. It was his own high purpose in fact to have smoothed sharp questions +to rest. He looked his old comrade very straight in the eyes, and he had never +conveyed to him in so mute a manner so much kind confidence and so much good +advice. Everything that was between them was again in his face, but matured and +shelved and finally disposed of. “At any rate,” he added, +“she’s coming now.” +</p> + +<p> +Considering how many pieces had to fit themselves, it all fell, in +Strether’s brain, into a close rapid order. He saw on the spot what had +happened, and what probably would yet; and it was all funny enough. It was +perhaps just this freedom of appreciation that wound him up to his flare of +high spirits. “What is she coming <i>for?</i>—to kill me?” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s coming to be very <i>very</i> kind to you, and you must let +me say that I greatly hope you’ll not be less so to herself.” +</p> + +<p> +This was spoken by Waymarsh with much gravity of admonition, and as Strether +stood there he knew he had but to make a movement to take the attitude of a man +gracefully receiving a present. The present was that of the opportunity dear +old Waymarsh had flattered himself he had divined in him the slight soreness of +not having yet thoroughly enjoyed; so he had brought it to him thus, as on a +little silver breakfast-tray, familiarly though delicately—without +oppressive pomp; and he was to bend and smile and acknowledge, was to take and +use and be grateful. He was not—that was the beauty of it—to be +asked to deflect too much from his dignity. No wonder the old boy bloomed in +this bland air of his own distillation. Strether felt for a moment as if Sarah +were actually walking up and down outside. Wasn’t she hanging about the +<i>porte-cochère</i> while her friend thus summarily opened a way? Strether +would meet her but to take it, and everything would be for the best in the best +of possible worlds. He had never so much known what any one meant as, in the +light of this demonstration, he knew what Mrs. Newsome did. It had reached +Waymarsh from Sarah, but it had reached Sarah from her mother, and there was no +break in the chain by which it reached <i>him</i>. “Has anything +particular happened,” he asked after a minute—“so suddenly to +determine her? Has she heard anything unexpected from home?” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him, looked at him harder than ever. +“‘Unexpected’?” He had a brief hesitation; then, +however, he was firm. “We’re leaving Paris.” +</p> + +<p> +“Leaving? That <i>is</i> sudden.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh showed a different opinion. “Less so than it may seem. The +purpose of Mrs. Pocock’s visit is to explain to you in fact that +it’s <i>not</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether didn’t at all know if he had really an advantage—anything +that would practically count as one; but he enjoyed for the moment—as for +the first time in his life—the sense of so carrying it off. He +wondered—it was amusing—if he felt as the impudent feel. “I +shall take great pleasure, I assure you, in any explanation. I shall be +delighted to receive Sarah.” +</p> + +<p> +The sombre glow just darkened in his comrade’s eyes; but he was struck +with the way it died out again. It was too mixed with another +consciousness—it was too smothered, as might be said, in flowers. He +really for the time regretted it—poor dear old sombre glow! Something +straight and simple, something heavy and empty, had been eclipsed in its +company; something by which he had best known his friend. Waymarsh +wouldn’t <i>be</i> his friend, somehow, without the occasional ornament +of the sacred rage, and the right to the sacred rage—inestimably precious +for Strether’s charity—he also seemed in a manner, and at Mrs. +Pocock’s elbow, to have forfeited. Strether remembered the occasion early +in their stay when on that very spot he had come out with his earnest, his +ominous “Quit it!”—and, so remembering, felt it hang by a +hair that he didn’t himself now utter the same note. Waymarsh was having +a good time—this was the truth that was embarrassing for him, and he was +having it then and there, he was having it in Europe, he was having it under +the very protection of circumstances of which he didn’t in the least +approve; all of which placed him in a false position, with no issue +possible—none at least by the grand manner. It was practically in the +manner of any one—it was all but in poor Strether’s own—that +instead of taking anything up he merely made the most of having to be himself +explanatory. “I’m not leaving for the United States direct. Mr. and +Mrs. Pocock and Miss Mamie are thinking of a little trip before their own +return, and we’ve been talking for some days past of our joining forces. +We’ve settled it that we do join and that we sail together the end of +next month. But we start to-morrow for Switzerland. Mrs. Pocock wants some +scenery. She hasn’t had much yet.” +</p> + +<p> +He was brave in his way too, keeping nothing back, confessing all there was, +and only leaving Strether to make certain connexions. “Is what Mrs. +Newsome had cabled her daughter an injunction to break off short?” +</p> + +<p> +The grand manner indeed at this just raised its head a little. “I know +nothing about Mrs. Newsome’s cables.” +</p> + +<p> +Their eyes met on it with some intensity—during the few seconds of which +something happened quite out of proportion to the time. It happened that +Strether, looking thus at his friend, didn’t take his answer for +truth—and that something more again occurred in consequence of +<i>that</i>. Yes—Waymarsh just <i>did</i> know about Mrs. Newsome’s +cables: to what other end than that had they dined together at Bignon’s? +Strether almost felt for the instant that it was to Mrs. Newsome herself the +dinner had been given; and, for that matter, quite felt how she must have known +about it and, as he might think, protected and consecrated it. He had a quick +blurred view of daily cables, questions, answers, signals: clear enough was his +vision of the expense that, when so wound up, the lady at home was prepared to +incur. Vivid not less was his memory of what, during his long observation of +her, some of her attainments of that high pitch had cost her. Distinctly she +was at the highest now, and Waymarsh, who imagined himself an independent +performer, was really, forcing his fine old natural voice, an overstrained +accompanist. The whole reference of his errand seemed to mark her for Strether +as by this time consentingly familiar to him, and nothing yet had so despoiled +her of a special shade of consideration. “You don’t know,” he +asked, “whether Sarah has been directed from home to try me on the matter +of my also going to Switzerland?” +</p> + +<p> +“I know,” said Waymarsh as manfully as possible, “nothing +whatever about her private affairs; though I believe her to be acting in +conformity with things that have my highest respect.” It was as manful as +possible, but it was still the false note—as it had to be to convey so +sorry a statement. He knew everything, Strether more and more felt, that he +thus disclaimed, and his little punishment was just in this doom to a second +fib. What falser position—given the man—could the most vindictive +mind impose? He ended by squeezing through a passage in which three months +before he would certainly have stuck fast. “Mrs Pocock will probably be +ready herself to answer any enquiry you may put to her. But,” he +continued, “<i>but</i>—!” He faltered on it. +</p> + +<p> +“But what? Don’t put her too many?” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh looked large, but the harm was done; he couldn’t, do what he +would, help looking rosy. “Don’t do anything you’ll be sorry +for.” +</p> + +<p> +It was an attenuation, Strether guessed, of something else that had been on his +lips; it was a sudden drop to directness, and was thereby the voice of +sincerity. He had fallen to the supplicating note, and that immediately, for +our friend, made a difference and reinstated him. They were in communication as +they had been, that first morning, in Sarah’s salon and in her presence +and Madame de Vionnet’s; and the same recognition of a great good will +was again, after all, possible. Only the amount of response Waymarsh had then +taken for granted was doubled, decupled now. This came out when he presently +said: “Of course I needn’t assure you <i>I</i> hope you’ll +come with us.” Then it was that his implications and expectations loomed +up for Strether as almost pathetically gross. +</p> + +<p> +The latter patted his shoulder while he thanked him, giving the go-by to the +question of joining the Pococks; he expressed the joy he felt at seeing him go +forth again so brave and free, and he in fact almost took leave of him on the +spot. “I shall see you again of course before you go; but I’m +meanwhile much obliged to you for arranging so conveniently for what +you’ve told me. I shall walk up and down in the court there—dear +little old court which we’ve each bepaced so, this last couple of months, +to the tune of our flights and our drops, our hesitations and our plunges: I +shall hang about there, all impatience and excitement, please let Sarah know, +till she graciously presents herself. Leave me with her without fear,” he +laughed; “I assure you I shan’t hurt her. I don’t think +either she’ll hurt <i>me</i>: I’m in a situation in which damage +was some time ago discounted. Besides, <i>that</i> isn’t what worries +you—but don’t, don’t explain! We’re all right as we +are: which was the degree of success our adventure was pledged to for each of +us. We weren’t, it seemed, all right as we were before; and we’ve +got over the ground, all things considered, quickly. I hope you’ll have a +lovely time in the Alps.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh fairly looked up at him as from the foot of them. “I don’t +know as I <i>ought</i> really to go.” +</p> + +<p> +It was the conscience of Milrose in the very voice of Milrose, but, oh it was +feeble and flat! Strether suddenly felt quite ashamed for him; he breathed a +greater boldness. “<i>Let</i> yourself, on the contrary, go—in all +agreeable directions. These are precious hours—at our age they +mayn’t recur. Don’t have it to say to yourself at Milrose, next +winter, that you hadn’t courage for them.” And then as his comrade +queerly stared: “Live up to Mrs. Pocock.” +</p> + +<p> +“Live up to her?” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re a great help to her.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh looked at it as at one of the uncomfortable things that were certainly +true and that it was yet ironical to say. “It’s more then than you +are.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s exactly your own chance and advantage. Besides,” said +Strether, “I do in my way contribute. I know what I’m about.” +</p> + +<p> +Waymarsh had kept on his great panama, and, as he now stood nearer the door, +his last look beneath the shade of it had turned again to darkness and warning. +“So do I! See here, Strether.” +</p> + +<p> +“I know what you’re going to say. ‘Quit this’?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quit this!” But it lacked its old intensity; nothing of it +remained; it went out of the room with him. +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +Almost the first thing, strangely enough, that, about an hour later, Strether +found himself doing in Sarah’s presence was to remark articulately on +this failure, in their friend, of what had been superficially his great +distinction. It was as if—he alluded of course to the grand +manner—the dear man had sacrificed it to some other advantage; which +would be of course only for himself to measure. It might be simply that he was +physically so much more sound than on his first coming out; this was all +prosaic, comparatively cheerful and vulgar. And fortunately, if one came to +that, his improvement in health was really itself grander than any manner it +could be conceived as having cost him. “You yourself alone, dear +Sarah”—Strether took the plunge—“have done him, it +strikes me, in these three weeks, as much good as all the rest of his time +together.” +</p> + +<p> +It was a plunge because somehow the range of reference was, in the conditions, +“funny,” and made funnier still by Sarah’s attitude, by the +turn the occasion had, with her appearance, so sensibly taken. Her appearance +was really indeed funnier than anything else—the spirit in which he felt +her to be there as soon as she was there, the shade of obscurity that cleared +up for him as soon as he was seated with her in the small <i>salon de +lecture</i> that had, for the most part, in all the weeks, witnessed the wane +of his early vivacity of discussion with Waymarsh. It was an immense thing, +quite a tremendous thing, for her to have come: this truth opened out to him in +spite of his having already arrived for himself at a fairly vivid view of it. +He had done exactly what he had given Waymarsh his word for—had walked +and re-walked the court while he awaited her advent; acquiring in this exercise +an amount of light that affected him at the time as flooding the scene. She had +decided upon the step in order to give him the benefit of a doubt, in order to +be able to say to her mother that she had, even to abjectness, smoothed the way +for him. The doubt had been as to whether he mightn’t take her as not +having smoothed it—and the admonition had possibly come from +Waymarsh’s more detached spirit. Waymarsh had at any rate, certainly, +thrown his weight into the scale—he had pointed to the importance of +depriving their friend of a grievance. She had done justice to the plea, and it +was to set herself right with a high ideal that she actually sat there in her +state. Her calculation was sharp in the immobility with which she held her tall +parasol-stick upright and at arm’s length, quite as if she had struck the +place to plant her flag; in the separate precautions she took not to show as +nervous; in the aggressive repose in which she did quite nothing but wait for +him. Doubt ceased to be possible from the moment he had taken in that she had +arrived with no proposal whatever; that her concern was simply to show what she +had come to receive. She had come to receive his submission, and Waymarsh was +to have made it plain to him that she would expect nothing less. He saw fifty +things, her host, at this convenient stage; but one of those he most saw was +that their anxious friend hadn’t quite had the hand required of him. +Waymarsh <i>had</i>, however, uttered the request that she might find him mild, +and while hanging about the court before her arrival he had turned over with +zeal the different ways in which he could be so. The difficulty was that if he +was mild he wasn’t, for her purpose, conscious. If she wished him +conscious—as everything about her cried aloud that she did—she must +accordingly be at costs to make him so. Conscious he <i>was</i>, for +himself—but only of too many things; so she must choose the one she +required. +</p> + +<p> +Practically, however, it at last got itself named, and when once that had +happened they were quite at the centre of their situation. One thing had really +done as well as another; when Strether had spoken of Waymarsh’s leaving +him, and that had necessarily brought on a reference to Mrs. Pocock’s +similar intention, the jump was but short to supreme lucidity. Light became +indeed after that so intense that Strether would doubtless have but half made +out, in the prodigious glare, by which of the two the issue had been in fact +precipitated. It was, in their contracted quarters, as much there between them +as if it had been something suddenly spilled with a crash and a splash on the +floor. The form of his submission was to be an engagement to acquit himself +within the twenty-four hours. “He’ll go in a moment if you give him +the word—he assures me on his honour he’ll do that”: this +came in its order, out of its order, in respect to Chad, after the crash had +occurred. It came repeatedly during the time taken by Strether to feel that he +was even more fixed in his rigour than he had supposed—the time he was +not above adding to a little by telling her that such a way of putting it on +her brother’s part left him sufficiently surprised. She wasn’t at +all funny at last—she was really fine; and he felt easily where she was +strong—strong for herself. It hadn’t yet so come home to him that +she was nobly and appointedly officious. She was acting in interests grander +and clearer than that of her poor little personal, poor little Parisian +equilibrium, and all his consciousness of her mother’s moral pressure +profited by this proof of its sustaining force. She would be held up; she would +be strengthened; he needn’t in the least be anxious for her. What would +once more have been distinct to him had he tried to make it so was that, as +Mrs. Newsome was essentially all moral pressure, the presence of this element +was almost identical with her own presence. It wasn’t perhaps that he +felt he was dealing with her straight, but it was certainly as if she had been +dealing straight with <i>him</i>. She was reaching him somehow by the +lengthened arm of the spirit, and he was having to that extent to take her into +account; but he wasn’t reaching her in turn, not making her take +<i>him</i>; he was only reaching Sarah, who appeared to take so little of him. +“Something has clearly passed between you and Chad,” he presently +said, “that I think I ought to know something more about. Does he put it +all,” he smiled, “on me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Did you come out,” she asked, “to put it all on +<i>him?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +But he replied to this no further than, after an instant, by saying: “Oh +it’s all right. Chad I mean’s all right in having said to +you—well anything he may have said. I’ll <i>take</i> it +all—what he does put on me. Only I must see him before I see you +again.” +</p> + +<p> +She hesitated, but she brought it out. “Is it absolutely necessary you +should see me again?” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly, if I’m to give you any definite word about +anything.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is it your idea then,” she returned, “that I shall keep on +meeting you only to be exposed to fresh humiliation?” +</p> + +<p> +He fixed her a longer time. “Are your instructions from Mrs. Newsome that +you shall, even at the worst, absolutely and irretrievably break with +me?” +</p> + +<p> +“My instructions from Mrs. Newsome are, if you please, my affair. You +know perfectly what your own were, and you can judge for yourself of what it +can do for you to have made what you have of them. You can perfectly see, at +any rate, I’ll go so far as to say, that if I wish not to expose myself I +must wish still less to expose <i>her</i>.” She had already said more +than she had quite expected; but, though she had also pulled up, the colour in +her face showed him he should from one moment to the other have it all. He now +indeed felt the high importance of his having it. “What is your +conduct,” she broke out as if to explain—“what is your +conduct but an outrage to women like <i>us?</i> I mean your acting as if there +can be a doubt—as between us and such another—of his duty?” +</p> + +<p> +He thought a moment. It was rather much to deal with at once; not only the +question itself, but the sore abysses it revealed. “Of course +they’re totally different kinds of duty.” +</p> + +<p> +“And do you pretend that he has any at all—to such another?” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean to Madame de Vionnet?” He uttered the name not to +affront her, but yet again to gain time—time that he needed for taking in +something still other and larger than her demand of a moment before. It +wasn’t at once that he could see all that was in her actual challenge; +but when he did he found himself just checking a low vague sound, a sound which +was perhaps the nearest approach his vocal chords had ever known to a growl. +Everything Mrs. Pocock had failed to give a sign of recognising in Chad as a +particular part of a transformation—everything that had lent intention to +this particular failure—affected him as gathered into a large loose +bundle and thrown, in her words, into his face. The missile made him to that +extent catch his breath; which however he presently recovered. “Why when +a woman’s at once so charming and so beneficent—” +</p> + +<p> +“You can sacrifice mothers and sisters to her without a blush and can +make them cross the ocean on purpose to feel the more and take from you the +straighter, <i>how</i> you do it?” +</p> + +<p> +Yes, she had taken him up as short and as sharply as that, but he tried not to +flounder in her grasp. “I don’t think there’s anything +I’ve done in any such calculated way as you describe. Everything has come +as a sort of indistinguishable part of everything else. Your coming out +belonged closely to my having come before you, and my having come was a result +of our general state of mind. Our general state of mind had proceeded, on its +side, from our queer ignorance, our queer misconceptions and +confusions—from which, since then, an inexorable tide of light seems to +have floated us into our perhaps still queerer knowledge. Don’t you +<i>like</i> your brother as he is,” he went on, “and haven’t +you given your mother an intelligible account of all that that comes to?” +</p> + +<p> +It put to her also, doubtless, his own tone, too many things, this at least +would have been the case hadn’t his final challenge directly helped her. +Everything, at the stage they had reached, directly helped her, because +everything betrayed in him such a basis of intention. He saw—the odd way +things came out!—that he would have been held less monstrous had he only +been a little wilder. What exposed him was just his poor old trick of quiet +inwardness, what exposed him was his <i>thinking</i> such offence. He +hadn’t in the least however the desire to irritate that Sarah imputed to +him, and he could only at last temporise, for the moment, with her indignant +view. She was altogether more inflamed than he had expected, and he would +probably understand this better when he should learn what had occurred for her +with Chad. Till then her view of his particular blackness, her clear surprise +at his not clutching the pole she held out, must pass as extravagant. “I +leave you to flatter yourself,” she returned, “that what you speak +of is what <i>you’ve</i> beautifully done. When a thing has been already +described in such a lovely way—!” But she caught herself up, and +her comment on his description rang out sufficiently loud. “Do you +consider her even an apology for a decent woman?” +</p> + +<p> +Ah there it was at last! She put the matter more crudely than, for his own +mixed purposes, he had yet had to do; but essentially it was all one matter. It +was so much—so much; and she treated it, poor lady, as so little. He grew +conscious, as he was now apt to do, of a strange smile, and the next moment he +found himself talking like Miss Barrace. “She has struck me from the +first as wonderful. I’ve been thinking too moreover that, after all, she +would probably have represented even for yourself something rather new and +rather good.” +</p> + +<p> +He was to have given Mrs. Pocock with this, however, but her best opportunity +for a sound of derision. “Rather new? I hope so with all my heart!” +</p> + +<p> +“I mean,” he explained, “that she might have affected you by +her exquisite amiability—a real revelation, it has seemed to myself; her +high rarity, her distinction of every sort.” +</p> + +<p> +He had been, with these words, consciously a little “precious”; but +he had had to be—he couldn’t give her the truth of the case without +them; and it seemed to him moreover now that he didn’t care. He had at +all events not served his cause, for she sprang at its exposed side. “A +‘revelation’—to <i>me</i>: I’ve come to such a woman +for a revelation? You talk to me about +‘distinction’—<i>you</i>, you who’ve had your +privilege?—when the most distinguished woman we shall either of us have +seen in this world sits there insulted, in her loneliness, by your incredible +comparison!” +</p> + +<p> +Strether forbore, with an effort, from straying; but he looked all about him. +“Does your mother herself make the point that she sits insulted?” +</p> + +<p> +Sarah’s answer came so straight, so “pat,” as might have been +said, that he felt on the instant its origin. “She has confided to my +judgement and my tenderness the expression of her personal sense of everything, +and the assertion of her personal dignity.” +</p> + +<p> +They were the very words of the lady of Woollett—he would have known them +in a thousand; her parting charge to her child. Mrs. Pocock accordingly spoke +to this extent by book, and the fact immensely moved him. “If she does +really feel as you say it’s of course very very dreadful. I’ve +given sufficient proof, one would have thought,” he added, “of my +deep admiration for Mrs. Newsome.” +</p> + +<p> +“And pray what proof would one have thought you’d <i>call</i> +sufficient? That of thinking this person here so far superior to her?” +</p> + +<p> +He wondered again; he waited. “Ah dear Sarah, you must <i>leave</i> me +this person here!” +</p> + +<p> +In his desire to avoid all vulgar retorts, to show how, even perversely, he +clung to his rag of reason, he had softly almost wailed this plea. Yet he knew +it to be perhaps the most positive declaration he had ever made in his life, +and his visitor’s reception of it virtually gave it that importance. +“That’s exactly what I’m delighted to do. God knows <i>we</i> +don’t want her! You take good care not to meet,” she observed in a +still higher key, “my question about their life. If you do consider it a +thing one can even <i>speak</i> of, I congratulate you on your taste!” +</p> + +<p> +The life she alluded to was of course Chad’s and Madame de +Vionnet’s, which she thus bracketed together in a way that made him wince +a little; there being nothing for him but to take home her full intention. It +was none the less his inconsequence that while he had himself been enjoying for +weeks the view of the brilliant woman’s specific action, he just suffered +from any characterisation of it by other lips. “I think tremendously well +of her, at the same time that I seem to feel her ‘life’ to be +really none of my business. It’s my business, that is, only so far as +Chad’s own life is affected by it; and what has happened, don’t you +see? is that Chad’s has been affected so beautifully. The proof of the +pudding’s in the eating”—he tried, with no great success, to +help it out with a touch of pleasantry, while she let him go on as if to sink +and sink. He went on however well enough, as well as he could do without fresh +counsel; he indeed shouldn’t stand quite firm, he felt, till he should +have re-established his communications with Chad. Still, he could always speak +for the woman he had so definitely promised to “save.” This +wasn’t quite for her the air of salvation; but as that chill fairly +deepened what did it become but a reminder that one might at the worst perish +<i>with</i> her? And it was simple enough—it was rudimentary: not, not to +give her away. “I find in her more merits than you would probably have +patience with my counting over. And do you know,” he enquired, “the +effect you produce on me by alluding to her in such terms? It’s as if you +had some motive in not recognising all she has done for your brother, and so +shut your eyes to each side of the matter, in order, whichever side comes up, +to get rid of the other. I don’t, you must allow me to say, see how you +can with any pretence to candour get rid of the side nearest you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Near me—<i>that</i> sort of thing?” And Sarah gave a jerk +back of her head that well might have nullified any active proximity. +</p> + +<p> +It kept her friend himself at his distance, and he respected for a moment the +interval. Then with a last persuasive effort he bridged it. “You +don’t, on your honour, appreciate Chad’s fortunate +development?” +</p> + +<p> +“Fortunate?” she echoed again. And indeed she was prepared. +“I call it hideous.” +</p> + +<p> +Her departure had been for some minutes marked as imminent, and she was already +at the door that stood open to the court, from the threshold of which she +delivered herself of this judgement. It rang out so loud as to produce for the +time the hush of everything else. Strether quite, as an effect of it, breathed +less bravely; he could acknowledge it, but simply enough. “Oh if you +think <i>that</i>—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Then all’s at an end? So much the better. I do think that!” +She passed out as she spoke and took her way straight across the court, beyond +which, separated from them by the deep arch of the <i>porte-cochère</i> the low +victoria that had conveyed her from her own hotel was drawn up. She made for it +with decision, and the manner of her break, the sharp shaft of her rejoinder, +had an intensity by which Strether was at first kept in arrest. She had let fly +at him as from a stretched cord, and it took him a minute to recover from the +sense of being pierced. It was not the penetration of surprise; it was that, +much more, of certainty; his case being put for him as he had as yet only put +it to himself. She was away at any rate; she had distanced him—with +rather a grand spring, an effect of pride and ease, after all; she had got into +her carriage before he could overtake her, and the vehicle was already in +motion. He stopped halfway; he stood there in the court only seeing her go and +noting that she gave him no other look. The way he had put it to himself was +that all quite <i>might</i> be at an end. Each of her movements, in this +resolute rupture, reaffirmed, re-enforced that idea. Sarah passed out of sight +in the sunny street while, planted there in the centre of the comparatively +grey court, he continued merely to look before him. It probably <i>was</i> all +at an end. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap11"></a>Book Eleventh</h2> + +<p class="footnote"> [Note: In the 1909 New York Edition the following two +chapters were placed in the reverse of the order appearing below. Since 1950, +most scholars have agreed, because of the internal evidence of the two +chapters, that an editorial error caused them to be printed in reverse order. +This Etext, like other editions of the past four decades, corrects the apparent +error.—Richard D. Hathaway, preparer of this electronic text] +</p> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +He went late that evening to the Boulevard Malesherbes, having his impression +that it would be vain to go early, and having also, more than once in the +course of the day, made enquiries of the concierge. Chad hadn’t come in +and had left no intimation; he had affairs, apparently, at this +juncture—as it occurred to Strether he so well might have—that kept +him long abroad. Our friend asked once for him at the hotel in the Rue de +Rivoli, but the only contribution offered there was the fact that every one was +out. It was with the idea that he would have to come home to sleep that +Strether went up to his rooms, from which however he was still absent, though, +from the balcony, a few moments later, his visitor heard eleven o’clock +strike. Chad’s servant had by this time answered for his reappearance; he +<i>had</i>, the visitor learned, come quickly in to dress for dinner and vanish +again. Strether spent an hour in waiting for him—an hour full of strange +suggestions, persuasions, recognitions; one of those that he was to recall, at +the end of his adventure, as the particular handful that most had counted. The +mellowest lamplight and the easiest chair had been placed at his disposal by +Baptiste, subtlest of servants; the novel half-uncut, the novel lemon-coloured +and tender, with the ivory knife athwart it like the dagger in a +contadina’s hair, had been pushed within the soft circle—a circle +which, for some reason, affected Strether as softer still after the same +Baptiste had remarked that in the absence of a further need of anything by +Monsieur he would betake himself to bed. The night was hot and heavy and the +single lamp sufficient; the great flare of the lighted city, rising high, +spending itself afar, played up from the Boulevard and, through the vague vista +of the successive rooms, brought objects into view and added to their dignity. +Strether found himself in possession as he never yet had been; he had been +there alone, had turned over books and prints, had invoked, in Chad’s +absence, the spirit of the place, but never at the witching hour and never with +a relish quite so like a pang. +</p> + +<p> +He spent a long time on the balcony; he hung over it as he had seen little +Bilham hang the day of his first approach, as he had seen Mamie hang over her +own the day little Bilham himself might have seen her from below; he passed +back into the rooms, the three that occupied the front and that communicated by +wide doors; and, while he circulated and rested, tried to recover the +impression that they had made on him three months before, to catch again the +voice in which they had seemed then to speak to him. That voice, he had to +note, failed audibly to sound; which he took as the proof of all the change in +himself. He had heard, of old, only what he <i>could</i> then hear; what he +could do now was to think of three months ago as a point in the far past. All +voices had grown thicker and meant more things; they crowded on him as he moved +about—it was the way they sounded together that wouldn’t let him be +still. He felt, strangely, as sad as if he had come for some wrong, and yet as +excited as if he had come for some freedom. But the freedom was what was most +in the place and the hour, it was the freedom that most brought him round again +to the youth of his own that he had long ago missed. He could have explained +little enough to-day either why he had missed it or why, after years and years, +he should care that he had; the main truth of the actual appeal of everything +was none the less that everything represented the substance of his loss put it +within reach, within touch, made it, to a degree it had never been, an affair +of the senses. That was what it became for him at this singular time, the youth +he had long ago missed—a queer concrete presence, full of mystery, yet +full of reality, which he could handle, taste, smell, the deep breathing of +which he could positively hear. It was in the outside air as well as within; it +was in the long watch, from the balcony, in the summer night, of the wide late +life of Paris, the unceasing soft quick rumble, below, of the little lighted +carriages that, in the press, always suggested the gamblers he had seen of old +at Monte Carlo pushing up to the tables. This image was before him when he at +last became aware that Chad was behind. +</p> + +<p> +“She tells me you put it all on <i>me</i>”—he had arrived +after this promptly enough at that information; which expressed the case +however quite as the young man appeared willing for the moment to leave it. +Other things, with this advantage of their virtually having the night before +them, came up for them, and had, as well, the odd effect of making the +occasion, instead of hurried and feverish, one of the largest, loosest and +easiest to which Strether’s whole adventure was to have treated him. He +had been pursuing Chad from an early hour and had overtaken him only now; but +now the delay was repaired by their being so exceptionally confronted. They had +foregathered enough of course in all the various times; they had again and +again, since that first night at the theatre, been face to face over their +question; but they had never been so alone together as they were actually +alone—their talk hadn’t yet been so supremely for themselves. And +if many things moreover passed before them, none passed more distinctly for +Strether than that striking truth about Chad of which he had been so often +moved to take note: the truth that everything came happily back with him to his +knowing how to live. It had been seated in his pleased smile—a smile that +pleased exactly in the right degree—as his visitor turned round, on the +balcony, to greet his advent; his visitor in fact felt on the spot that there +was nothing their meeting would so much do as bear witness to that facility. He +surrendered himself accordingly to so approved a gift; for what was the meaning +of the facility but that others <i>did</i> surrender themselves? He +didn’t want, luckily, to prevent Chad from living; but he was quite aware +that even if he had he would himself have thoroughly gone to pieces. It was in +truth essentially by bringing down his personal life to a function all +subsidiary to the young man’s own that he held together. And the great +point, above all, the sign of how completely Chad possessed the knowledge in +question, was that one thus became, not only with a proper cheerfulness, but +with wild native impulses, the feeder of his stream. Their talk had accordingly +not lasted three minutes without Strether’s feeling basis enough for the +excitement in which he had waited. This overflow fairly deepened, wastefully +abounded, as he observed the smallness of anything corresponding to it on the +part of his friend. That was exactly this friend’s happy case; he +“put out” his excitement, or whatever other emotion the matter +involved, as he put out his washing; than which no arrangement could make more +for domestic order. It was quite for Strether himself in short to feel a +personal analogy with the laundress bringing home the triumphs of the mangle. +</p> + +<p> +When he had reported on Sarah’s visit, which he did very fully, Chad +answered his question with perfect candour. “I positively referred her to +you—told her she must absolutely see you. This was last night, and it all +took place in ten minutes. It was our first free talk—really the first +time she had tackled me. She knew I also knew what her line had been with +yourself; knew moreover how little you had been doing to make anything +difficult for her. So I spoke for you frankly—assured her you were all at +her service. I assured her <i>I</i> was too,” the young man continued; +“and I pointed out how she could perfectly, at any time, have got at me. +Her difficulty has been simply her not finding the moment she fancied.” +</p> + +<p> +“Her difficulty,” Strether returned, “has been simply that +she finds she’s afraid of you. She’s not afraid of <i>me</i>, +Sarah, one little scrap; and it was just because she has seen how I can fidget +when I give my mind to it that she has felt her best chance, rightly enough to +be in making me as uneasy as possible. I think she’s at bottom as pleased +to <i>have</i> you put it on me as you yourself can possibly be to put +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“But what in the world, my dear man,” Chad enquired in objection to +this luminosity, “have I done to make Sally afraid?” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ve been ‘wonderful, wonderful,’ as we say—we +poor people who watch the play from the pit; and that’s what has, +admirably, made her. Made her all the more effectually that she could see you +didn’t set about it on purpose—I mean set about affecting her as +with fear.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad cast a pleasant backward glance over his possibilities of motive. +“I’ve only wanted to be kind and friendly, to be decent and +attentive—and I still only want to be.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether smiled at his comfortable clearness. “Well, there can certainly +be no way for it better than by my taking the onus. It reduces your personal +friction and your personal offence to almost nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +Ah but Chad, with his completer conception of the friendly, wouldn’t +quite have this! They had remained on the balcony, where, after their day of +great and premature heat, the midnight air was delicious; and they leaned back +in turn against the balustrade, all in harmony with the chairs and the +flower-pots, the cigarettes and the starlight. “The onus isn’t +<i>really</i> yours—after our agreeing so to wait together and judge +together. That was all my answer to Sally,” Chad +pursued—“that we have been, that we are, just judging +together.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m not afraid of the burden,” Strether explained; “I +haven’t come in the least that you should take it off me. I’ve come +very much, it seems to me, to double up my fore legs in the manner of the camel +when he gets down on his knees to make his back convenient. But I’ve +supposed you all this while to have been doing a lot of special and private +judging—about which I haven’t troubled you; and I’ve only +wished to have your conclusion first from you. I don’t ask more than +that; I’m quite ready to take it as it has come.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad turned up his face to the sky with a slow puff of his smoke. “Well, +I’ve seen.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether waited a little. “I’ve left you wholly alone; +haven’t, I think I may say, since the first hour or two—when I +merely preached patience—so much as breathed on you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you’ve been awfully good!” +</p> + +<p> +“We’ve both been good then—we’ve played the game. +We’ve given them the most liberal conditions.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Chad, “splendid conditions! It was open to them, +open to them”—he seemed to make it out, as he smoked, with his eyes +still on the stars. He might in quiet sport have been reading their horoscope. +Strether wondered meanwhile what had been open to them, and he finally let him +have it. “It was open to them simply to let me alone; to have made up +their minds, on really seeing me for themselves, that I could go on well enough +as I was.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether assented to this proposition with full lucidity, his companion’s +plural pronoun, which stood all for Mrs. Newsome and her daughter, having no +ambiguity for him. There was nothing, apparently, to stand for Mamie and Jim; +and this added to our friend’s sense of Chad’s knowing what he +thought. “But they’ve made up their minds to the +opposite—that you <i>can’t</i> go on as you are.” +</p> + +<p> +“No,” Chad continued in the same way; “they won’t have +it for a minute.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether on his side also reflectively smoked. It was as if their high place +really represented some moral elevation from which they could look down on +their recent past. “There never was the smallest chance, do you know, +that they <i>would</i> have it for a moment.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course not—no real chance. But if they were willing to think +there was—!” +</p> + +<p> +“They weren’t willing.” Strether had worked it all out. +“It wasn’t for you they came out, but for me. It wasn’t to +see for themselves what you’re doing, but what I’m doing. The first +branch of their curiosity was inevitably destined, under my culpable delay, to +give way to the second; and it’s on the second that, if I may use the +expression and you don’t mind my marking the invidious fact, +they’ve been of late exclusively perched. When Sarah sailed it was me, in +other words, they were after.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad took it in both with intelligence and with indulgence. “It <i>is</i> +rather a business then—what I’ve let you in for!” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had again a brief pause; which ended in a reply that seemed to dispose +once for all of this element of compunction. Chad was to treat it, at any rate, +so far as they were again together, as having done so. “I was +‘in’ when you found me.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but it was you,” the young man laughed, “who found +<i>me</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“I only found you out. It was you who found me in. It was all in the +day’s work for them, at all events, that they should come. And +they’ve greatly enjoyed it,” Strether declared. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’ve tried to make them,” said Chad. +</p> + +<p> +His companion did himself presently the same justice. “So have I. I tried +even this very morning—while Mrs. Pocock was with me. She enjoys for +instance, almost as much as anything else, not being, as I’ve said, +afraid of me; and I think I gave her help in that.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad took a deeper interest. “Was she very very nasty?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether debated. “Well, she was the most important thing—she was +definite. She was—at last—crystalline. And I felt no remorse. I saw +that they must have come.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I wanted to see them for myself; so that if it were only for +<i>that</i>—!” Chad’s own remorse was as small. +</p> + +<p> +This appeared almost all Strether wanted. “Isn’t your having seen +them for yourself then <i>the</i> thing, beyond all others, that has come of +their visit?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad looked as if he thought it nice of his old friend to put it so. +“Don’t you count it as anything that you’re dished—if +you <i>are</i> dished? Are you, my dear man, dished?” +</p> + +<p> +It sounded as if he were asking if he had caught cold or hurt his foot, and +Strether for a minute but smoked and smoked. “I want to see her again. I +must see her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course you must.” Then Chad hesitated. “Do you +mean—a—Mother herself?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh your mother—that will depend.” +</p> + +<p> +It was as if Mrs. Newsome had somehow been placed by the words very far off. +Chad however endeavoured in spite of this to reach the place. “What do +you mean it will depend on?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, for all answer, gave him a longish look. “I was speaking of +Sarah. I must positively—though she quite cast me off—see +<i>her</i> again. I can’t part with her that way.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then she was awfully unpleasant?” +</p> + +<p> +Again Strether exhaled. “She was what she had to be. I mean that from the +moment they’re not delighted they can only be—well what I admit she +was. We gave them,” he went on, “their chance to be delighted, and +they’ve walked up to it, and looked all round it, and not taken +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“You can bring a horse to water—!” Chad suggested. +</p> + +<p> +“Precisely. And the tune to which this morning Sarah wasn’t +delighted—the tune to which, to adopt your metaphor, she refused to +drink—leaves us on that side nothing more to hope.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had a pause, and then as if consolingly: “It was never of course +really the least on the cards that they would be +‘delighted.’” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I don’t know, after all,” Strether mused. +“I’ve had to come as far round. However”—he shook it +off—“it’s doubtless <i>my</i> performance that’s +absurd.” +</p> + +<p> +“There are certainly moments,” said Chad, “when you seem to +me too good to be true. Yet if you are true,” he added, “that seems +to be all that need concern me.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m true, but I’m incredible. I’m fantastic and +ridiculous—I don’t explain myself even <i>to</i> myself. How can +they then,” Strether asked, “understand me? So I don’t +quarrel with them.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see. They quarrel,” said Chad rather comfortably, “with +<i>us</i>.” Strether noted once more the comfort, but his young friend +had already gone on. “I should feel greatly ashamed, all the same, if I +didn’t put it before you again that you ought to think, after all, +tremendously well. I mean before giving up beyond recall—” With +which insistence, as from a certain delicacy, dropped. +</p> + +<p> +Ah but Strether wanted it. “Say it all, say it all.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, at your age, and with what—when all’s said and +done—Mother might do for you and be for you.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had said it all, from his natural scruple, only to that extent; so that +Strether after an instant himself took a hand. “My absence of an assured +future. The little I have to show toward the power to take care of myself. The +way, the wonderful way, she would certainly take care of me. Her fortune, her +kindness, and the constant miracle of her having been disposed to go even so +far. Of course, of course”—he summed it up. “There are those +sharp facts.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had meanwhile thought of another still. “And don’t you really +care—?” +</p> + +<p> +His friend slowly turned round to him. “Will you go?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ll go if you’ll say you now consider I should. You +know,” he went on, “I was ready six weeks ago.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Strether, “that was when you didn’t know +<i>I</i> wasn’t! You’re ready at present because you do know +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“That may be,” Chad returned; “but all the same I’m +sincere. You talk about taking the whole thing on your shoulders, but in what +light do you regard me that you think me capable of letting you pay?” +Strether patted his arm, as they stood together against the parapet, +reassuringly—seeming to wish to contend that he <i>had</i> the +wherewithal; but it was again round this question of purchase and price that +the young man’s sense of fairness continued to hover. “What it +literally comes to for you, if you’ll pardon my putting it so, is that +you give up money. Possibly a good deal of money.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” Strether laughed, “if it were only just enough +you’d still be justified in putting it so! But I’ve on my side to +remind you too that <i>you</i> give up money; and more than +‘possibly’—quite certainly, as I should suppose—a good +deal.” +</p> + +<p> +“True enough; but I’ve got a certain quantity,” Chad returned +after a moment. “Whereas you, my dear man, you—” +</p> + +<p> +“I can’t be at all said”—Strether took him +up—“to have a ‘quantity’ certain or uncertain? Very +true. Still, I shan’t starve.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you mustn’t <i>starve!</i>” Chad pacifically emphasised; +and so, in the pleasant conditions, they continued to talk; though there was, +for that matter, a pause in which the younger companion might have been taken +as weighing again the delicacy of his then and there promising the elder some +provision against the possibility just mentioned. This, however, he presumably +thought best not to do, for at the end of another minute they had moved in +quite a different direction. Strether had broken in by returning to the subject +of Chad’s passage with Sarah and enquiring if they had arrived, in the +event, at anything in the nature of a “scene.” To this Chad replied +that they had on the contrary kept tremendously polite; adding moreover that +Sally was after all not the woman to have made the mistake of not being. +“Her hands are a good deal tied, you see. I got so, from the +first,” he sagaciously observed, “the start of her.” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean she has taken so much from you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I couldn’t of course in common decency give less: only she +hadn’t expected, I think, that I’d give her nearly so much. And she +began to take it before she knew it.” +</p> + +<p> +“And she began to like it,” said Strether, “as soon as she +began to take it!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, she has liked it—also more than she expected.” After +which Chad observed: “But she doesn’t like <i>me</i>. In fact she +hates me.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s interest grew. “Then why does she want you at +home?” +</p> + +<p> +“Because when you hate you want to triumph, and if she should get me +neatly stuck there she <i>would</i> triumph.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether followed afresh, but looking as he went. “Certainly—in a +manner. But it would scarce be a triumph worth having if, once entangled, +feeling her dislike and possibly conscious in time of a certain quantity of +your own, you should on the spot make yourself unpleasant to her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Chad, “she can bear <i>me</i>—could bear me +at least at home. It’s my being there that would be her triumph. She +hates me in Paris.” +</p> + +<p> +“She hates in other words—” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, <i>that’s</i> it!”—Chad had quickly understood +this understanding; which formed on the part of each as near an approach as +they had yet made to naming Madame de Vionnet. The limitations of their +distinctness didn’t, however, prevent its fairly lingering in the air +that it was this lady Mrs. Pocock hated. It added one more touch moreover to +their established recognition of the rare intimacy of Chad’s association +with her. He had never yet more twitched away the last light veil from this +phenomenon than in presenting himself as confounded and submerged in the +feeling she had created at Woollett. “And I’ll tell you who hates +me too,” he immediately went on. +</p> + +<p> +Strether knew as immediately whom he meant, but with as prompt a protest. +“Ah no! Mamie doesn’t hate—well,” he caught himself in +time—“anybody at all. Mamie’s beautiful.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad shook his head. “That’s just why I mind it. She certainly +doesn’t like me.” +</p> + +<p> +“How much do you mind it? What would you do for her?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’d like her if she’d like me. Really, really,” +Chad declared. +</p> + +<p> +It gave his companion a moment’s pause. “You asked me just now if I +don’t, as you said, ‘care’ about a certain person. You rather +tempt me therefore to put the question in my turn. Don’t <i>you</i> care +about a certain other person?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad looked at him hard in the lamplight of the window. “The difference +is that I don’t want to.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wondered. “‘Don’t want’ to?” +</p> + +<p> +“I try not to—that is I <i>have</i> tried. I’ve done my best. +You can’t be surprised,” the young man easily went on, “when +you yourself set me on it. I was indeed,” he added, “already on it +a little; but you set me harder. It was six weeks ago that I thought I had come +out.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether took it well in. “But you haven’t come out!” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know—it’s what I <i>want</i> to know,” +said Chad. “And if I could have sufficiently wanted—by +myself—to go back, I think I might have found out.” +</p> + +<p> +“Possibly”—Strether considered. “But all you were able +to achieve was to want to want to! And even then,” he pursued, +“only till our friends there came. Do you want to want to still?” +As with a sound half-dolorous, half-droll and all vague and equivocal, Chad +buried his face for a little in his hands, rubbing it in a whimsical way that +amounted to an evasion, he brought it out more sharply: “<i>Do</i> +you?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad kept for a time his attitude, but at last he looked up, and then abruptly, +“Jim <i>is</i> a damned dose!” he declared. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh I don’t ask you to abuse or describe or in any way pronounce on +your relatives; I simply put it to you once more whether you’re +<i>now</i> ready. You say you’ve ‘seen.’ Is what you’ve +seen that you can’t resist?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad gave him a strange smile—the nearest approach he had ever shown to a +troubled one. “Can’t you make me <i>not</i> resist?” +</p> + +<p> +“What it comes to,” Strether went on very gravely now and as if he +hadn’t heard him, “what it comes to is that more has been done for +you, I think, than I’ve ever seen done—attempted perhaps, but never +so successfully done—by one human being for another.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh an immense deal certainly”—Chad did it full justice. +“And you yourself are adding to it.” +</p> + +<p> +It was without heeding this either that his visitor continued. “And our +friends there won’t have it.” +</p> + +<p> +“No, they simply won’t.” +</p> + +<p> +“They demand you on the basis, as it were, of repudiation and +ingratitude; and what has been the matter with me,” Strether went on, +“is that I haven’t seen my way to working with you for +repudiation.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad appreciated this. “Then as you haven’t seen yours you +naturally haven’t seen mine. There it is.” After which he +proceeded, with a certain abruptness, to a sharp interrogation. +“<i>Now</i> do you say she doesn’t hate me?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “‘She’—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—Mother. We called it Sarah, but it comes to the same +thing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” Strether objected, “not to the same thing as her hating +<i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +On which—though as if for an instant it had hung fire—Chad +remarkably replied: “Well, if they hate my good friend, <i>that</i> comes +to the same thing.” It had a note of inevitable truth that made Strether +take it as enough, feel he wanted nothing more. The young man spoke in it for +his “good friend” more than he had ever yet directly spoken, +confessed to such deep identities between them as he might play with the idea +of working free from, but which at a given moment could still draw him down +like a whirlpool. And meanwhile he had gone on. “Their hating you too +moreover—that also comes to a good deal.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” said Strether, “your mother doesn’t.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad, however, loyally stuck to it—loyally, that is, to Strether. +“She will if you don’t look out.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I do look out. I am, after all, looking out. That’s just +why,” our friend explained, “I want to see her again.” +</p> + +<p> +It drew from Chad again the same question. “To see Mother?” +</p> + +<p> +“To see—for the present—Sarah.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then there you are! And what I don’t for the life of me make +out,” Chad pursued with resigned perplexity, “is what you +<i>gain</i> by it.” +</p> + +<p> +Oh it would have taken his companion too long to say! “That’s +because you have, I verily believe, no imagination. You’ve other +qualities. But no imagination, don’t you see? at all.” +</p> + +<p> +“I dare say. I do see.” It was an idea in which Chad showed +interest. “But haven’t you yourself rather too much?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh <i>rather</i>—!” So that after an instant, under this +reproach and as if it were at last a fact really to escape from, Strether made +his move for departure. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +One of the features of the restless afternoon passed by him after Mrs. +Pocock’s visit was an hour spent, shortly before dinner, with Maria +Gostrey, whom of late, in spite of so sustained a call on his attention from +other quarters, he had by no means neglected. And that he was still not +neglecting her will appear from the fact that he was with her again at the same +hour on the very morrow—with no less fine a consciousness moreover of +being able to hold her ear. It continued inveterately to occur, for that +matter, that whenever he had taken one of his greater turns he came back to +where she so faithfully awaited him. None of these excursions had on the whole +been livelier than the pair of incidents—the fruit of the short interval +since his previous visit—on which he had now to report to her. He had +seen Chad Newsome late the night before, and he had had that morning, as a +sequel to this conversation, a second interview with Sarah. “But +they’re all off,” he said, “at last.” +</p> + +<p> +It puzzled her a moment. “All?—Mr. Newsome with them?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah not yet! Sarah and Jim and Mamie. But Waymarsh with them—for +Sarah. It’s too beautiful,” Strether continued; “I find I +don’t get over that—it’s always a fresh joy. But it’s a +fresh joy too,” he added, “that—well, what do you think? +Little Bilham also goes. But he of course goes for Mamie.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey wondered. “‘For’ her? Do you mean they’re +already engaged?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “say then for <i>me</i>. He’ll +do anything for me; just as I will, for that matter—anything I +can—for him. Or for Mamie either. <i>She’ll</i> do anything for +me.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey gave a comprehensive sigh. “The way you reduce people to +subjection!” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s certainly, on one side, wonderful. But it’s quite +equalled, on another, by the way I don’t. I haven’t reduced Sarah, +since yesterday; though I’ve succeeded in seeing her again, as I’ll +presently tell you. The others however are really all right. Mamie, by that +blessed law of ours, absolutely must have a young man.” +</p> + +<p> +“But what must poor Mr. Bilham have? Do you mean they’ll +<i>marry</i> for you?” +</p> + +<p> +“I mean that, by the same blessed law, it won’t matter a grain if +they don’t—I shan’t have in the least to worry.” +</p> + +<p> +She saw as usual what he meant. “And Mr. Jim?—who goes for +him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” Strether had to admit, “I couldn’t manage +<i>that</i>. He’s thrown, as usual, on the world; the world which, after +all, by his account—for he has prodigious adventures—seems very +good to him. He fortunately—‘over here,’ as he +says—finds the world everywhere; and his most prodigious adventure of +all,” he went on, “has been of course of the last few days.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey, already knowing, instantly made the connexion. “He has seen +Marie de Vionnet again?” +</p> + +<p> +“He went, all by himself, the day after Chad’s +party—didn’t I tell you?—to tea with her. By her +invitation—all alone.” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite like yourself!” Maria smiled. +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but he’s more wonderful about her than I am!” And then as +his friend showed how she could believe it, filling it out, fitting it on to +old memories of the wonderful woman: “What I should have liked to manage +would have been <i>her</i> going.” +</p> + +<p> +“To Switzerland with the party?” +</p> + +<p> +“For Jim—and for symmetry. If it had been workable moreover for a +fortnight she’d have gone. She’s ready”—he followed up +his renewed vision of her—“for anything.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey went with him a minute. “She’s too perfect!” +</p> + +<p> +“She <i>will</i>, I think,” he pursued, “go to-night to the +station.” +</p> + +<p> +“To see him off?” +</p> + +<p> +“With Chad—marvellously—as part of their general attention. +And she does it”—it kept before him—“with a light, +light grace, a free, free gaiety, that may well softly bewilder Mr. +Pocock.” +</p> + +<p> +It kept her so before him that his companion had after an instant a friendly +comment. “As in short it has softly bewildered a saner man. Are you +really in love with her?” Maria threw off. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s of no importance I should know,” he replied. “It +matters so little—has nothing to do, practically, with either of +us.” +</p> + +<p> +“All the same”—Maria continued to smile—“they go, +the five, as I understand you, and you and Madame de Vionnet stay.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh and Chad.” To which Strether added: “And you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah ‘me’!”—she gave a small impatient wail again, +in which something of the unreconciled seemed suddenly to break out. +“<i>I</i> don’t stay, it somehow seems to me, much to my advantage. +In the presence of all you cause to pass before me I’ve a tremendous +sense of privation.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether hesitated. “But your privation, your keeping out of everything, +has been—hasn’t it?—by your own choice.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes; it has been necessary—that is it has been better for you. +What I mean is only that I seem to have ceased to serve you.” +</p> + +<p> +“How can you tell that?” he asked. “You don’t know how +you serve me. When you cease—” +</p> + +<p> +“Well?” she said as he dropped. +</p> + +<p> +“Well, I’ll <i>let</i> you know. Be quiet till then.” +</p> + +<p> +She thought a moment. “Then you positively like me to stay?” +</p> + +<p> +“Don’t I treat you as if I did?” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re certainly very kind to me. But that,” said Maria, +“is for myself. It’s getting late, as you see, and Paris turning +rather hot and dusty. People are scattering, and some of them, in other places +want me. But if you want me here—!” +</p> + +<p> +She had spoken as resigned to his word, but he had of a sudden a still sharper +sense than he would have expected of desiring not to lose her. “I want +you here.” +</p> + +<p> +She took it as if the words were all she had wished; as if they brought her, +gave her something that was the compensation of her case. “Thank +you,” she simply answered. And then as he looked at her a little harder, +“Thank you very much,” she repeated. +</p> + +<p> +It had broken as with a slight arrest into the current of their talk, and it +held him a moment longer. “Why, two months, or whatever the time was, +ago, did you so suddenly dash off? The reason you afterwards gave me for having +kept away three weeks wasn’t the real one.” +</p> + +<p> +She recalled. “I never supposed you believed it was. Yet,” she +continued, “if you didn’t guess it that was just what helped +you.” +</p> + +<p> +He looked away from her on this; he indulged, so far as space permitted, in one +of his slow absences. “I’ve often thought of it, but never to feel +that I could guess it. And you see the consideration with which I’ve +treated you in never asking till now.” +</p> + +<p> +“Now then why <i>do</i> you ask?” +</p> + +<p> +“To show you how I miss you when you’re not here, and what it does +for me.” +</p> + +<p> +“It doesn’t seem to have done,” she laughed, “all it +might! However,” she added, “if you’ve really never guessed +the truth I’ll tell it you.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve never guessed it,” Strether declared. +</p> + +<p> +“Never?” +</p> + +<p> +“Never.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then I dashed off, as you say, so as not to have the confusion of +being there if Marie de Vionnet should tell you anything to my +detriment.” +</p> + +<p> +He looked as if he considerably doubted. “You even then would have had to +face it on your return.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh if I had found reason to believe it something very bad I’d have +left you altogether.” +</p> + +<p> +“So then,” he continued, “it was only on guessing she had +been on the whole merciful that you ventured back?” +</p> + +<p> +Maria kept it together. “I owe her thanks. Whatever her temptation she +didn’t separate us. That’s one of my reasons,” she went on +“for admiring her so.” +</p> + +<p> +“Let it pass then,” said Strether, “for one of mine as well. +But what would have been her temptation?” +</p> + +<p> +“What are ever the temptations of women?” +</p> + +<p> +He thought—but hadn’t, naturally, to think too long. +“Men?” +</p> + +<p> +“She would have had you, with it, more for herself. But she saw she could +have you without it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh ‘have’ me!” Strether a trifle ambiguously sighed. +“<i>You</i>,” he handsomely declared, “would have had me at +any rate <i>with</i> it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh ‘have’ you!”—she echoed it as he had done. +“I do have you, however,” she less ironically said, “from the +moment you express a wish.” +</p> + +<p> +He stopped before her, full of the disposition. “I’ll express +fifty.” +</p> + +<p> +Which indeed begot in her, with a certain inconsequence, a return of her small +wail. “Ah there you are!” +</p> + +<p> +There, if it were so, he continued for the rest of the time to be, and it was +as if to show her how she could still serve him that, coming back to the +departure of the Pococks, he gave her the view, vivid with a hundred more +touches than we can reproduce, of what had happened for him that morning. He +had had ten minutes with Sarah at her hotel, ten minutes reconquered, by +irresistible pressure, from the time over which he had already described her to +Miss Gostrey as having, at the end of their interview on his own premises, +passed the great sponge of the future. He had caught her by not announcing +himself, had found her in her sitting-room with a dressmaker and a +<i>lingère</i> whose accounts she appeared to have been more or less +ingenuously settling and who soon withdrew. Then he had explained to her how he +had succeeded, late the night before, in keeping his promise of seeing Chad. +“I told her I’d take it all.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’d ‘take’ it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Why if he doesn’t go.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria waited. “And who takes it if he does?” she enquired with a +certain grimness of gaiety. +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “I think I take, in any event, +everything.” +</p> + +<p> +“By which I suppose you mean,” his companion brought out after a +moment, “that you definitely understand you now lose everything.” +</p> + +<p> +He stood before her again. “It does come perhaps to the same thing. But +Chad, now that he has seen, doesn’t really want it.” +</p> + +<p> +She could believe that, but she made, as always, for clearness. “Still, +what, after all, <i>has</i> he seen?” +</p> + +<p> +“What they want of him. And it’s enough.” +</p> + +<p> +“It contrasts so unfavourably with what Madame de Vionnet wants?” +</p> + +<p> +“It contrasts—just so; all round, and tremendously.” +</p> + +<p> +“Therefore, perhaps, most of all with what <i>you</i> want?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” said Strether, “what I want is a thing I’ve +ceased to measure or even to understand.” +</p> + +<p> +But his friend none the less went on. “Do you want Mrs. +Newsome—after such a way of treating you?” +</p> + +<p> +It was a straighter mode of dealing with this lady than they had as +yet—such was their high form—permitted themselves; but it seemed +not wholly for this that he delayed a moment. “I dare say it has been, +after all, the only way she could have imagined.” +</p> + +<p> +“And does that make you want her any more?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve tremendously disappointed her,” Strether thought it +worth while to mention. +</p> + +<p> +“Of course you have. That’s rudimentary; that was plain to us long +ago. But isn’t it almost as plain,” Maria went on, “that +you’ve even yet your straight remedy? Really drag him away, as I believe +you still can, and you’d cease to have to count with her +disappointment.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah then,” he laughed, “I should have to count with +yours!” +</p> + +<p> +But this barely struck her now. “What, in that case, should you call +counting? You haven’t come out where you are, I think, to please +<i>me</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” he insisted, “that too, you know, has been part of it. +I can’t separate—it’s all one; and that’s perhaps why, +as I say, I don’t understand.” But he was ready to declare again +that this didn’t in the least matter; all the more that, as he affirmed, +he <i>hadn’t</i> really as yet “come out.” “She gives +me after all, on its coming to the pinch, a last mercy, another chance. They +don’t sail, you see, for five or six weeks more, and they +haven’t—she admits that—expected Chad would take part in +their tour. It’s still open to him to join them, at the last, at +Liverpool.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey considered. “How in the world is it ‘open’ +unless you open it? How can he join them at Liverpool if he but sinks deeper +into his situation here?” +</p> + +<p> +“He has given her—as I explained to you that she let me know +yesterday—his word of honour to do as I say.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria stared. “But if you say nothing!” +</p> + +<p> +Well, he as usual walked about on it. “I did say something this morning. +I gave her my answer—the word I had promised her after hearing from +himself what <i>he</i> had promised. What she demanded of me yesterday, +you’ll remember, was the engagement then and there to make him take up +this vow.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then,” Miss Gostrey enquired, “was the purpose of your +visit to her only to decline?” +</p> + +<p> +“No; it was to ask, odd as that may seem to you, for another +delay.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that’s weak!” +</p> + +<p> +“Precisely!” She had spoken with impatience, but, so far as that at +least, he knew where he was. “If I <i>am</i> weak I want to find it out. +If I don’t find it out I shall have the comfort, the little glory, of +thinking I’m strong.” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s all the comfort, I judge,” she returned, “that +you <i>will</i> have!” +</p> + +<p> +“At any rate,” he said, “it will have been a month more. +Paris may grow, from day to day, hot and dusty, as you say; but there are other +things that are hotter and dustier. I’m not afraid to stay on; the summer +here must be amusing in a wild—if it isn’t a tame—way of its +own; the place at no time more picturesque. I think I shall like it. And +then,” he benevolently smiled for her, “there will be always +you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she objected, “it won’t be as a part of the +picturesqueness that I shall stay, for I shall be the plainest thing about you. +You may, you see, at any rate,” she pursued, “have nobody else. +Madame de Vionnet may very well be going off, mayn’t she?—and Mr. +Newsome by the same stroke: unless indeed you’ve had an assurance from +them to the contrary. So that if your idea’s to stay for +them”—it was her duty to suggest it—“you may be left in +the lurch. Of course if they do stay”—she kept it +up—“they would be part of the picturesqueness. Or else indeed you +might join them somewhere.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed to face it as if it were a happy thought; but the next moment +he spoke more critically. “Do you mean that they’ll probably go off +together?” +</p> + +<p> +She just considered. “I think it will be treating you quite without +ceremony if they do; though after all,” she added, “it would be +difficult to see now quite what degree of ceremony properly meets your +case.” +</p> + +<p> +“Of course,” Strether conceded, “my attitude toward them is +extraordinary.” +</p> + +<p> +“Just so; so that one may ask one’s self what style of proceeding +on their own part can altogether match it. The attitude of their own that +won’t pale in its light they’ve doubtless still to work out. The +really handsome thing perhaps,” she presently threw off, +“<i>would</i> be for them to withdraw into more secluded conditions, +offering at the same time to share them with you.” He looked at her, on +this, as if some generous irritation—all in his interest—had +suddenly again flickered in her; and what she next said indeed half-explained +it. “Don’t really be afraid to tell me if what now holds you +<i>is</i> the pleasant prospect of the empty town, with plenty of seats in the +shade, cool drinks, deserted museums, drives to the Bois in the evening, and +our wonderful woman all to yourself.” And she kept it up still more. +“The handsomest thing of <i>all</i>, when one makes it out, would, I dare +say, be that Mr. Chad should for a while go off by himself. It’s a pity, +from that point of view,” she wound up, “that he doesn’t pay +his mother a visit. It would at least occupy your interval.” The thought +in fact held her a moment. “Why doesn’t he pay his mother a visit? +Even a week, at this good moment, would do.” +</p> + +<p> +“My dear lady,” Strether replied—and he had it even to +himself surprisingly ready—“my dear lady, his mother has paid +<i>him</i> a visit. Mrs. Newsome has been with him, this month, with an +intensity that I’m sure he has thoroughly felt; he has lavishly +entertained her, and she has let him have her thanks. Do you suggest he shall +go back for more of them?” +</p> + +<p> +Well, she succeeded after a little in shaking it off. “I see. It’s +what you don’t suggest—what you haven’t suggested. And you +know.” +</p> + +<p> +“So would you, my dear,” he kindly said, “if you had so much +as seen her.” +</p> + +<p> +“As seen Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +“No, Sarah—which, both for Chad and for myself, has served all the +purpose.” +</p> + +<p> +“And served it in a manner,” she responsively mused, “so +extraordinary!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, you see,” he partly explained, “what it comes to is +that she’s all cold thought—which Sarah could serve to us cold +without its really losing anything. So it is that we know what she thinks of +us.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria had followed, but she had an arrest. “What I’ve never made +out, if you come to that, is what you think—I mean you +personally—of <i>her</i>. Don’t you so much, when all’s said, +as care a little?” +</p> + +<p> +“That,” he answered with no loss of promptness, “is what even +Chad himself asked me last night. He asked me if I don’t mind the +loss—well, the loss of an opulent future. Which moreover,” he +hastened to add, “was a perfectly natural question.” +</p> + +<p> +“I call your attention, all the same,” said Miss Gostrey, “to +the fact that I don’t ask it. What I venture to ask is whether it’s +to Mrs. Newsome herself that you’re indifferent.” +</p> + +<p> +“I haven’t been so”—he spoke with all assurance. +“I’ve been the very opposite. I’ve been, from the first +moment, preoccupied with the impression everything might be making on +her—quite oppressed, haunted, tormented by it. I’ve been interested +<i>only</i> in her seeing what I’ve seen. And I’ve been as +disappointed in her refusal to see it as she has been in what has appeared to +her the perversity of my insistence.” +</p> + +<p> +“Do you mean that she has shocked you as you’ve shocked her?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether weighed it. “I’m probably not so shockable. But on the +other hand I’ve gone much further to meet her. She, on her side, +hasn’t budged an inch.” +</p> + +<p> +“So that you’re now at last”—Maria pointed the +moral—“in the sad stage of recriminations.” +</p> + +<p> +“No—it’s only to you I speak. I’ve been like a lamb to +Sarah. I’ve only put my back to the wall. It’s to <i>that</i> one +naturally staggers when one has been violently pushed there.” +</p> + +<p> +She watched him a moment. “Thrown over?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, as I feel I’ve landed somewhere I think I must have been +thrown.” +</p> + +<p> +She turned it over, but as hoping to clarify much rather than to harmonise. +“The thing is that I suppose you’ve been +disappointing—” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite from the very first of my arrival? I dare say. I admit I was +surprising even to myself.” +</p> + +<p> +“And then of course,” Maria went on, “I had much to do with +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“With my being surprising—?” +</p> + +<p> +“That will do,” she laughed, “if you’re too delicate to +call it <i>my</i> being! Naturally,” she added, “you came over more +or less for surprises.” +</p> + +<p> +“Naturally!”—he valued the reminder. +</p> + +<p> +“But they were to have been all for you”—she continued to +piece it out—“and none of them for <i>her</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Once more he stopped before her as if she had touched the point. +“That’s just her difficulty—that she doesn’t admit +surprises. It’s a fact that, I think, describes and represents her; and +it falls in with what I tell you—that she’s all, as I’ve +called it, fine cold thought. She had, to her own mind, worked the whole thing +out in advance, and worked it out for me as well as for herself. Whenever she +has done that, you see, there’s no room left; no margin, as it were, for +any alteration. She’s filled as full, packed as tight, as she’ll +hold and if you wish to get anything more or different either out or +in—” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ve got to make over altogether the woman herself?” +</p> + +<p> +“What it comes to,” said Strether, “is that you’ve got +morally and intellectually to get rid of her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Which would appear,” Maria returned, “to be practically what +you’ve done.” +</p> + +<p> +But her friend threw back his head. “I haven’t touched her. She +won’t <i>be</i> touched. I see it now as I’ve never done; and she +hangs together with a perfection of her own,” he went on, “that +does suggest a kind of wrong in <i>any</i> change of her composition. It was at +any rate,” he wound up, “the woman herself, as you call her the +whole moral and intellectual being or block, that Sarah brought me over to take +or to leave.” +</p> + +<p> +It turned Miss Gostrey to deeper thought. “Fancy having to take at the +point of the bayonet a whole moral and intellectual being or block!” +</p> + +<p> +“It was in fact,” said Strether, “what, at home, I <i>had</i> +done. But somehow over there I didn’t quite know it.” +</p> + +<p> +“One never does, I suppose,” Miss Gostrey concurred, “realise +in advance, in such a case, the size, as you may say, of the block. Little by +little it looms up. It has been looming for you more and more till at last you +see it all.” +</p> + +<p> +“I see it all,” he absently echoed, while his eyes might have been +fixing some particularly large iceberg in a cool blue northern sea. +“It’s magnificent!” he then rather oddly exclaimed. +</p> + +<p> +But his friend, who was used to this kind of inconsequence in him, kept the +thread. “There’s nothing so magnificent—for making others +feel you—as to have no imagination.” +</p> + +<p> +It brought him straight round. “Ah there you are! It’s what I said +last night to Chad. That he himself, I mean, has none.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then it would appear,” Maria suggested, “that he has, after +all, something in common with his mother.” +</p> + +<p> +“He has in common that he makes one, as you say, ‘feel’ him. +And yet,” he added, as if the question were interesting, “one feels +others too, even when they have plenty.” +</p> + +<p> +Miss Gostrey continued suggestive. “Madame de Vionnet?” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>She</i> has plenty.” +</p> + +<p> +“Certainly—she had quantities of old. But there are different ways +of making one’s self felt.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, it comes, no doubt, to that. You now—” +</p> + +<p> +He was benevolently going on, but she wouldn’t have it. “Oh I +<i>don’t</i> make myself felt; so my quantity needn’t be settled. +Yours, you know,” she said, “is monstrous. No one has ever had so +much.” +</p> + +<p> +It struck him for a moment. “That’s what Chad also thinks.” +</p> + +<p> +“There <i>you</i> are then—though it isn’t for him to +complain of it!” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh he doesn’t complain of it,” said Strether. +</p> + +<p> +“That’s all that would be wanting! But apropos of what,” +Maria went on, “did the question come up?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, of his asking me what it is I gain.” +</p> + +<p> +She had a pause. “Then as I’ve asked you too it settles <i>my</i> +case. Oh you <i>have</i>,” she repeated, “treasures of +imagination.” +</p> + +<p> +But he had been for an instant thinking away from this, and he came up in +another place. “And yet Mrs. Newsome—it’s a thing to +remember—<i>has</i> imagined, did, that is, imagine, and apparently still +does, horrors about what I should have found. I was booked, by her +vision—extraordinarily intense, after all—to find them; and that I +didn’t, that I couldn’t, that, as she evidently felt, I +wouldn’t—this evidently didn’t at all, as they say, +‘suit’ her book. It was more than she could bear. That was her +disappointment.” +</p> + +<p> +“You mean you were to have found Chad himself horrible?” +</p> + +<p> +“I was to have found the woman.” +</p> + +<p> +“Horrible?” +</p> + +<p> +“Found her as she imagined her.” And Strether paused as if for his +own expression of it he could add no touch to that picture. +</p> + +<p> +His companion had meanwhile thought. “She imagined stupidly—so it +comes to the same thing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Stupidly? Oh!” said Strether. +</p> + +<p> +But she insisted. “She imagined meanly.” +</p> + +<p> +He had it, however, better. “It couldn’t but be ignorantly.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, intensity with ignorance—what do you want worse?” +</p> + +<p> +This question might have held him, but he let it pass. “Sarah isn’t +ignorant—now; she keeps up the theory of the horrible.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but she’s intense—and that by itself will do sometimes as +well. If it doesn’t do, in this case, at any rate, to deny that +Marie’s charming, it will do at least to deny that she’s +good.” +</p> + +<p> +“What I claim is that she’s good for Chad.” +</p> + +<p> +“You don’t claim”—she seemed to like it +clear—“that she’s good for <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +But he continued without heeding. “That’s what I wanted them to +come out for—to see for themselves if she’s bad for him.” +</p> + +<p> +“And now that they’ve done so they won’t admit that +she’s good even for anything?” +</p> + +<p> +“They do think,” Strether presently admitted, “that +she’s on the whole about as bad for me. But they’re consistent of +course, inasmuch as they’ve their clear view of what’s good for +both of us.” +</p> + +<p> +“For you, to begin with”—Maria, all responsive, confined the +question for the moment—“to eliminate from your existence and if +possible even from your memory the dreadful creature that <i>I</i> must +gruesomely shadow forth for them, even more than to eliminate the distincter +evil—thereby a little less portentous—of the person whose +confederate you’ve suffered yourself to become. However, that’s +comparatively simple. You can easily, at the worst, after all, give me +up.” +</p> + +<p> +“I can easily at the worst, after all, give you up.” The irony was +so obvious that it needed no care. “I can easily at the worst, after all, +even forget you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Call that then workable. But Mr. Newsome has much more to forget. How +can <i>he</i> do it?” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah there again we are! That’s just what I was to have made him do; +just where I was to have worked with him and helped.” +</p> + +<p> +She took it in silence and without attenuation—as if perhaps from very +familiarity with the facts; and her thought made a connexion without showing +the links. “Do you remember how we used to talk at Chester and in London +about my seeing you through?” She spoke as of far-off things and as if +they had spent weeks at the places she named. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s just what you <i>are</i> doing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but the worst—since you’ve left such a margin—may +be still to come. You may yet break down.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, I may yet break down. But will you take me—?” +</p> + +<p> +He had hesitated, and she waited. “Take you?” +</p> + +<p> +“For as long as I can bear it.” +</p> + +<p> +She also debated “Mr. Newsome and Madame de Vionnet may, as we were +saying, leave town. How long do you think you can bear it without them?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s reply to this was at first another question. “Do you +mean in order to get away from me?” +</p> + +<p> +Her answer had an abruptness. “Don’t find me rude if I say I should +think they’d want to!” +</p> + +<p> +He looked at her hard again—seemed even for an instant to have an +intensity of thought under which his colour changed. But he smiled. “You +mean after what they’ve done to me?” +</p> + +<p> +“After what <i>she</i> has.” +</p> + +<p> +At this, however, with a laugh, he was all right again. “Ah but she +hasn’t done it yet!” +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +He had taken the train a few days after this from a station—as well as +<i>to</i> a station—selected almost at random; such days, whatever should +happen, were numbered, and he had gone forth under the impulse—artless +enough, no doubt—to give the whole of one of them to that French +ruralism, with its cool special green, into which he had hitherto looked only +through the little oblong window of the picture-frame. It had been as yet for +the most part but a land of fancy for him—the background of fiction, the +medium of art, the nursery of letters; practically as distant as Greece, but +practically also well-nigh as consecrated. Romance could weave itself, for +Strether’s sense, out of elements mild enough; and even after what he +had, as he felt, lately “been through,” he could thrill a little at +the chance of seeing something somewhere that would remind him of a certain +small Lambinet that had charmed him, long years before, at a Boston +dealer’s and that he had quite absurdly never forgotten. It had been +offered, he remembered, at a price he had been instructed to believe the lowest +ever named for a Lambinet, a price he had never felt so poor as on having to +recognise, all the same, as beyond a dream of possibility. He had +dreamed—had turned and twisted possibilities for an hour: it had been the +only adventure of his life in connexion with the purchase of a work of art. The +adventure, it will be perceived, was modest; but the memory, beyond all reason +and by some accident of association, was sweet. The little Lambinet abode with +him as the picture he <i>would</i> have bought—the particular production +that had made him for the moment overstep the modesty of nature. He was quite +aware that if he were to see it again he should perhaps have a drop or a shock, +and he never found himself wishing that the wheel of time would turn it up +again, just as he had seen it in the maroon-coloured, sky-lighted inner shrine +of Tremont Street. It would be a different thing, however, to see the +remembered mixture resolved back into its elements—to assist at the +restoration to nature of the whole far-away hour: the dusty day in Boston, the +background of the Fitchburg Depot, of the maroon-coloured sanctum, the +special-green vision, the ridiculous price, the poplars, the willows, the +rushes, the river, the sunny silvery sky, the shady woody horizon. +</p> + +<p> +He observed in respect to his train almost no condition save that it should +stop a few times after getting out of the <i>banlieue</i>; he threw himself on +the general amiability of the day for the hint of where to alight. His theory +of his excursion was that he could alight anywhere—not nearer Paris than +an hour’s run—on catching a suggestion of the particular note +required. It made its sign, the suggestion—weather, air, light, colour +and his mood all favouring—at the end of some eighty minutes; the train +pulled up just at the right spot, and he found himself getting out as securely +as if to keep an appointment. It will be felt of him that he could amuse +himself, at his age, with very small things if it be again noted that his +appointment was only with a superseded Boston fashion. He hadn’t gone far +without the quick confidence that it would be quite sufficiently kept. The +oblong gilt frame disposed its enclosing lines; the poplars and willows, the +reeds and river—a river of which he didn’t know, and didn’t +want to know, the name—fell into a composition, full of felicity, within +them; the sky was silver and turquoise and varnish; the village on the left was +white and the church on the right was grey; it was all there, in short—it +was what he wanted: it was Tremont Street, it was France, it was Lambinet. +Moreover he was freely walking about in it. He did this last, for an hour, to +his heart’s content, making for the shady woody horizon and boring so +deep into his impression and his idleness that he might fairly have got through +them again and reached the maroon-coloured wall. It was a wonder, no doubt, +that the taste of idleness for him shouldn’t need more time to sweeten; +but it had in fact taken the few previous days; it had been sweetening in truth +ever since the retreat of the Pococks. He walked and walked as if to show +himself how little he had now to do; he had nothing to do but turn off to some +hillside where he might stretch himself and hear the poplars rustle, and +whence—in the course of an afternoon so spent, an afternoon richly +suffused too with the sense of a book in his pocket—he should +sufficiently command the scene to be able to pick out just the right little +rustic inn for an experiment in respect to dinner. There was a train back to +Paris at 9.20, and he saw himself partaking, at the close of the day, with the +enhancements of a coarse white cloth and a sanded door, of something fried and +felicitous, washed down with authentic wine; after which he might, as he liked, +either stroll back to his station in the gloaming or propose for the local +<i>carriole</i> and converse with his driver, a driver who naturally +wouldn’t fail of a stiff clean blouse, of a knitted nightcap and of the +genius of response—who, in fine, would sit on the shafts, tell him what +the French people were thinking, and remind him, as indeed the whole episode +would incidentally do, of Maupassant. Strether heard his lips, for the first +time in French air, as this vision assumed consistency, emit sounds of +expressive intention without fear of his company. He had been afraid of Chad +and of Maria and of Madame de Vionnet; he had been most of all afraid of +Waymarsh, in whose presence, so far as they had mixed together in the light of +the town, he had never without somehow paying for it aired either his +vocabulary or his accent. He usually paid for it by meeting immediately +afterwards Waymarsh’s eye. +</p> + +<p> +Such were the liberties with which his fancy played after he had turned off to +the hillside that did really and truly, as well as most amiably, await him +beneath the poplars, the hillside that made him feel, for a murmurous couple of +hours, how happy had been his thought. He had the sense of success, of a finer +harmony in things; nothing but what had turned out as yet according to his +plan. It most of all came home to him, as he lay on his back on the grass, that +Sarah had really gone, that his tension was really relaxed; the peace diffused +in these ideas might be delusive, but it hung about him none the less for the +time. It fairly, for half an hour, sent him to sleep; he pulled his straw hat +over his eyes—he had bought it the day before with a reminiscence of +Waymarsh’s—and lost himself anew in Lambinet. It was as if he had +found out he was tired—tired not from his walk, but from that inward +exercise which had known, on the whole, for three months, so little +intermission. That was it—when once they were off he had dropped; this +moreover was what he had dropped to, and now he was touching bottom. He was +kept luxuriously quiet, soothed and amused by the consciousness of what he had +found at the end of his descent. It was very much what he had told Maria +Gostrey he should like to stay on for, the hugely-distributed Paris of summer, +alternately dazzling and dusky, with a weight lifted for him off its columns +and cornices and with shade and air in the flutter of awnings as wide as +avenues. It was present to him without attenuation that, reaching out, the day +after making the remark, for some proof of his freedom, he had gone that very +afternoon to see Madame de Vionnet. He had gone again the next day but one, and +the effect of the two visits, the after-sense of the couple of hours spent with +her, was almost that of fulness and frequency. The brave intention of +frequency, so great with him from the moment of his finding himself unjustly +suspected at Woollett, had remained rather theoretic, and one of the things he +could muse about under his poplars was the source of the special shyness that +had still made him careful. He had surely got rid of it now, this special +shyness; what had become of it if it hadn’t precisely, within the week, +rubbed off? +</p> + +<p> +It struck him now in fact as sufficiently plain that if he had still been +careful he had been so for a reason. He had really feared, in his behaviour, a +lapse from good faith; if there was a danger of one’s liking such a woman +too much one’s best safety was in waiting at least till one had the right +to do so. In the light of the last few days the danger was fairly vivid; so +that it was proportionately fortunate that the right was likewise established. +It seemed to our friend that he had on each occasion profited to the utmost by +the latter: how could he have done so more, he at all events asked himself, +than in having immediately let her know that, if it was all the same to her, he +preferred not to talk about anything tiresome? He had never in his life so +sacrificed an armful of high interests as in that remark; he had never so +prepared the way for the comparatively frivolous as in addressing it to Madame +de Vionnet’s intelligence. It hadn’t been till later that he quite +recalled how in conjuring away everything but the pleasant he had conjured away +almost all they had hitherto talked about; it was not till later even that he +remembered how, with their new tone, they hadn’t so much as mentioned the +name of Chad himself. One of the things that most lingered with him on his +hillside was this delightful facility, with such a woman, of arriving at a new +tone; he thought, as he lay on his back, of all the tones she might make +possible if one were to try her, and at any rate of the probability that one +could trust her to fit them to occasions. He had wanted her to feel that, as he +was disinterested now, so she herself should be, and she had showed she felt +it, and he had showed he was grateful, and it had been for all the world as if +he were calling for the first time. They had had other, but irrelevant, +meetings; it was quite as if, had they sooner known how much they <i>really</i> +had in common, there were quantities of comparatively dull matters they might +have skipped. Well, they were skipping them now, even to graceful gratitude, +even to handsome “Don’t mention it!”—and it was amazing +what could still come up without reference to what had been going on between +them. It might have been, on analysis, nothing more than Shakespeare and the +musical glasses; but it had served all the purpose of his appearing to have +said to her: “Don’t like me, if it’s a question of liking me, +for anything obvious and clumsy that I’ve, as they call it, +‘done’ for you: like me—well, like me, hang it, for anything +else you choose. So, by the same propriety, don’t be for me simply the +person I’ve come to know through my awkward connexion with Chad—was +ever anything, by the way, <i>more</i> awkward? Be for me, please, with all +your admirable tact and trust, just whatever I may show you it’s a +present pleasure to me to think you.” It had been a large indication to +meet; but if she hadn’t met it what <i>had</i> she done, and how had +their time together slipped along so smoothly, mild but not slow, and melting, +liquefying, into his happy illusion of idleness? He could recognise on the +other hand that he had probably not been without reason, in his prior, his +restricted state, for keeping an eye on his liability to lapse from good faith. +</p> + +<p> +He really continued in the picture—that being for himself his +situation—all the rest of this rambling day; so that the charm was still, +was indeed more than ever upon him when, toward six o’clock he found +himself amicably engaged with a stout white-capped deep-voiced woman at the +door of the <i>auberge</i> of the biggest village, a village that affected him +as a thing of whiteness, blueness and crookedness, set in coppery green, and +that had the river flowing behind or before it—one couldn’t say +which; at the bottom, in particular, of the inn-garden. He had had other +adventures before this; had kept along the height, after shaking off slumber; +had admired, had almost coveted, another small old church, all steep roof and +dim slate-colour without and all whitewash and paper flowers within; had lost +his way and had found it again; had conversed with rustics who struck him +perhaps a little more as men of the world than he had expected; had acquired at +a bound a fearless facility in French; had had, as the afternoon waned, a +watery <i>bock</i>, all pale and Parisian, in the café of the furthest village, +which was not the biggest; and had meanwhile not once overstepped the oblong +gilt frame. The frame had drawn itself out for him, as much as you please; but +that was just his luck. He had finally come down again to the valley, to keep +within touch of stations and trains, turning his face to the quarter from which +he had started; and thus it was that he had at last pulled up before the +hostess of the Cheval Blanc, who met him, with a rough readiness that was like +the clatter of sabots over stones, on their common ground of a <i>côtelette de +veau à l’oseille</i> and a subsequent lift. He had walked many miles and +didn’t know he was tired; but he still knew he was amused, and even that, +though he had been alone all day, he had never yet so struck himself as engaged +with others and in midstream of his drama. It might have passed for finished +his drama, with its catastrophe all but reached: it had, however, none the less +been vivid again for him as he thus gave it its fuller chance. He had only had +to be at last well out of it to feel it, oddly enough, still going on. +</p> + +<p> +For this had been all day at bottom the spell of the picture—that it was +essentially more than anything else a scene and a stage, that the very air of +the play was in the rustle of the willows and the tone of the sky. The play and +the characters had, without his knowing it till now, peopled all his space for +him, and it seemed somehow quite happy that they should offer themselves, in +the conditions so supplied, with a kind of inevitability. It was as if the +conditions made them not only inevitable, but so much more nearly natural and +right as that they were at least easier, pleasanter, to put up with. The +conditions had nowhere so asserted their difference from those of Woollett as +they appeared to him to assert it in the little court of the Cheval Blanc while +he arranged with his hostess for a comfortable climax. They were few and +simple, scant and humble, but they were <i>the thing</i>, as he would have +called it, even to a greater degree than Madame de Vionnet’s old high +salon where the ghost of the Empire walked. “The” thing was the +thing that implied the greatest number of other things of the sort he had had +to tackle; and it was queer of course, but so it was—the implication here +was complete. Not a single one of his observations but somehow fell into a +place in it; not a breath of the cooler evening that wasn’t somehow a +syllable of the text. The text was simply, when condensed, that in <i>these</i> +places such things were, and that if it was in them one elected to move about +one had to make one’s account with what one lighted on. Meanwhile at all +events it was enough that they did affect one—so far as the village +aspect was concerned—as whiteness, crookedness and blueness set in +coppery green; there being positively, for that matter, an outer wall of the +White Horse that was painted the most improbable shade. That was part of the +amusement—as if to show that the fun was harmless; just as it was enough, +further, that the picture and the play seemed supremely to melt together in the +good woman’s broad sketch of what she could do for her visitor’s +appetite. He felt in short a confidence, and it was general, and it was all he +wanted to feel. It suffered no shock even on her mentioning that she had in +fact just laid the cloth for two persons who, unlike Monsieur, had arrived by +the river—in a boat of their own; who had asked her, half an hour before, +what she could do for them, and had then paddled away to look at something a +little further up—from which promenade they would presently return. +Monsieur might meanwhile, if he liked, pass into the garden, such as it was, +where she would serve him, should he wish it—for there were tables and +benches in plenty—a “bitter” before his repast. Here she +would also report to him on the possibility of a conveyance to his station, and +here at any rate he would have the <i>agrément</i> of the river. +</p> + +<p> +It may be mentioned without delay that Monsieur had the <i>agrément</i> of +everything, and in particular, for the next twenty minutes, of a small and +primitive pavilion that, at the garden’s edge, almost overhung the water, +testifying, in its somewhat battered state, to much fond frequentation. It +consisted of little more than a platform, slightly raised, with a couple of +benches and a table, a protecting rail and a projecting roof; but it raked the +full grey-blue stream, which, taking a turn a short distance above, passed out +of sight to reappear much higher up; and it was clearly in esteemed requisition +for Sundays and other feasts. Strether sat there and, though hungry, felt at +peace; the confidence that had so gathered for him deepened with the lap of the +water, the ripple of the surface, the rustle of the reeds on the opposite bank, +the faint diffused coolness and the slight rock of a couple of small boats +attached to a rough landing-place hard by. The valley on the further side was +all copper-green level and glazed pearly sky, a sky hatched across with screens +of trimmed trees, which looked flat, like espaliers; and though the rest of the +village straggled away in the near quarter the view had an emptiness that made +one of the boats suggestive. Such a river set one afloat almost before one +could take up the oars—the idle play of which would be moreover the aid +to the full impression. This perception went so far as to bring him to his +feet; but that movement, in turn, made him feel afresh that he was tired, and +while he leaned against a post and continued to look out he saw something that +gave him a sharper arrest. +</p> + +<h3>IV</h3> + +<p> +What he saw was exactly the right thing—a boat advancing round the bend +and containing a man who held the paddles and a lady, at the stern, with a pink +parasol. It was suddenly as if these figures, or something like them, had been +wanted in the picture, had been wanted more or less all day, and had now +drifted into sight, with the slow current, on purpose to fill up the measure. +They came slowly, floating down, evidently directed to the landing-place near +their spectator and presenting themselves to him not less clearly as the two +persons for whom his hostess was already preparing a meal. For two very happy +persons he found himself straightway taking them—a young man in +shirt-sleeves, a young woman easy and fair, who had pulled pleasantly up from +some other place and, being acquainted with the neighbourhood, had known what +this particular retreat could offer them. The air quite thickened, at their +approach, with further intimations; the intimation that they were expert, +familiar, frequent—that this wouldn’t at all events be the first +time. They knew how to do it, he vaguely felt—and it made them but the +more idyllic, though at the very moment of the impression, as happened, their +boat seemed to have begun to drift wide, the oarsman letting it go. It had by +this time none the less come much nearer—near enough for Strether to +dream the lady in the stern had for some reason taken account of his being +there to watch them. She had remarked on it sharply, yet her companion +hadn’t turned round; it was in fact almost as if our friend had felt her +bid him keep still. She had taken in something as a result of which their +course had wavered, and it continued to waver while they just stood off. This +little effect was sudden and rapid, so rapid that Strether’s sense of it +was separate only for an instant from a sharp start of his own. He too had +within the minute taken in something, taken in that he knew the lady whose +parasol, shifting as if to hide her face, made so fine a pink point in the +shining scene. It was too prodigious, a chance in a million, but, if he knew +the lady, the gentleman, who still presented his back and kept off, the +gentleman, the coatless hero of the idyll, who had responded to her start, was, +to match the marvel, none other than Chad. +</p> + +<p> +Chad and Madame de Vionnet were then like himself taking a day in the +country—though it was as queer as fiction, as farce, that their country +could happen to be exactly his; and she had been the first at recognition, the +first to feel, across the water, the shock—for it appeared to come to +that—of their wonderful accident. Strether became aware, with this, of +what was taking place—that her recognition had been even stranger for the +pair in the boat, that her immediate impulse had been to control it, and that +she was quickly and intensely debating with Chad the risk of betrayal. He saw +they would show nothing if they could feel sure he hadn’t made them out; +so that he had before him for a few seconds his own hesitation. It was a sharp +fantastic crisis that had popped up as if in a dream, and it had had only to +last the few seconds to make him feel it as quite horrible. They were thus, on +either side, <i>trying</i> the other side, and all for some reason that broke +the stillness like some unprovoked harsh note. It seemed to him again, within +the limit, that he had but one thing to do—to settle their common +question by some sign of surprise and joy. He hereupon gave large play to these +things, agitating his hat and his stick and loudly calling out—a +demonstration that brought him relief as soon as he had seen it answered. The +boat, in mid-stream, still went a little wild—which seemed natural, +however, while Chad turned round, half springing up; and his good friend, after +blankness and wonder, began gaily to wave her parasol. Chad dropped afresh to +his paddles and the boat headed round, amazement and pleasantry filling the air +meanwhile, and relief, as Strether continued to fancy, superseding mere +violence. Our friend went down to the water under this odd impression as of +violence averted—the violence of their having “cut” him, out +there in the eye of nature, on the assumption that he wouldn’t know it. +He awaited them with a face from which he was conscious of not being able quite +to banish this idea that they would have gone on, not seeing and not knowing, +missing their dinner and disappointing their hostess, had he himself taken a +line to match. That at least was what darkened his vision for the moment. +Afterwards, after they had bumped at the landing-place and he had assisted +their getting ashore, everything found itself sponged over by the mere miracle +of the encounter. +</p> + +<p> +They could so much better at last, on either side, treat it as a wild +extravagance of hazard, that the situation was made elastic by the amount of +explanation called into play. Why indeed—apart from oddity—the +situation should have been really stiff was a question naturally not practical +at the moment, and in fact, so far as we are concerned, a question tackled, +later on and in private, only by Strether himself. He was to reflect later on +and in private that it was mainly <i>he</i> who had explained—as he had +had moreover comparatively little difficulty in doing. He was to have at all +events meanwhile the worrying thought of their perhaps secretly suspecting him +of having plotted this coincidence, taking such pains as might be to give it +the semblance of an accident. That possibility—as their +imputation—didn’t of course bear looking into for an instant; yet +the whole incident was so manifestly, arrange it as they would, an awkward one, +that he could scarce keep disclaimers in respect to his own presence from +rising to his lips. Disclaimers of intention would have been as tactless as his +presence was practically gross; and the narrowest escape they either of them +had was his lucky escape, in the event, from making any. Nothing of the sort, +so far as surface and sound were involved, was even in question; surface and +sound all made for their common ridiculous good fortune, for the general +<i>invraisemblance</i> of the occasion, for the charming chance that they had, +the others, in passing, ordered some food to be ready, the charming chance that +he had himself not eaten, the charming chance, even more, that their little +plans, their hours, their train, in short, from <i>là-bas</i>, would all match +for their return together to Paris. The chance that was most charming of all, +the chance that drew from Madame de Vionnet her clearest, gayest +“<i>Comme cela se trouve!</i>” was the announcement made to +Strether after they were seated at table, the word given him by their hostess +in respect to his carriage for the station, on which he might now count. It +settled the matter for his friends as well; the conveyance—it <i>was</i> +all too lucky!—would serve for them; and nothing was more delightful than +his being in a position to make the train so definite. It might have been, for +themselves—to hear Madame de Vionnet—almost unnaturally vague, a +detail left to be fixed; though Strether indeed was afterwards to remember that +Chad had promptly enough intervened to forestall this appearance, laughing at +his companion’s flightiness and making the point that he had after all, +in spite of the bedazzlement of a day out with her, known what he was about. +</p> + +<p> +Strether was to remember afterwards further that this had had for him the +effect of forming Chad’s almost sole intervention; and indeed he was to +remember further still, in subsequent meditation, many things that, as it were, +fitted together. Another of them was for instance that the wonderful +woman’s overflow of surprise and amusement was wholly into French, which +she struck him as speaking with an unprecedented command of idiomatic turns, +but in which she got, as he might have said, somewhat away from him, taking all +at once little brilliant jumps that he could but lamely match. The question of +his own French had never come up for them; it was the one thing she +wouldn’t have permitted—it belonged, for a person who had been +through much, to mere boredom; but the present result was odd, fairly veiling +her identity, shifting her back into a mere voluble class or race to the +intense audibility of which he was by this time inured. When she spoke the +charming slightly strange English he best knew her by he seemed to feel her as +a creature, among all the millions, with a language quite to herself, the real +monopoly of a special shade of speech, beautifully easy for her, yet of a +colour and a cadence that were both inimitable and matters of accident. She +came back to these things after they had shaken down in the inn-parlour and +knew, as it were, what was to become of them; it was inevitable that loud +ejaculation over the prodigy of their convergence should at last wear itself +out. Then it was that his impression took fuller form—the impression, +destined only to deepen, to complete itself, that they had something to put a +face upon, to carry off and make the best of, and that it was she who, +admirably on the whole, was doing this. It was familiar to him of course that +they had something to put a face upon; their friendship, their connexion, took +any amount of explaining—that would have been made familiar by his twenty +minutes with Mrs. Pocock if it hadn’t already been so. Yet his theory, as +we know, had bountifully been that the facts were specifically none of his +business, and were, over and above, so far as one had to do with them, +intrinsically beautiful; and this might have prepared him for anything, as well +as rendered him proof against mystification. When he reached home that night, +however, he knew he had been, at bottom, neither prepared nor proof; and since +we have spoken of what he was, after his return, to recall and interpret, it +may as well immediately be said that his real experience of these few hours put +on, in that belated vision—for he scarce went to bed till +morning—the aspect that is most to our purpose. +</p> + +<p> +He then knew more or less how he had been affected—he but half knew at +the time. There had been plenty to affect him even after, as has been said, +they had shaken down; for his consciousness, though muffled, had its sharpest +moments during this passage, a marked drop into innocent friendly Bohemia. They +then had put their elbows on the table, deploring the premature end of their +two or three dishes; which they had tried to make up with another bottle while +Chad joked a little spasmodically, perhaps even a little irrelevantly, with the +hostess. What it all came to had been that fiction and fable <i>were</i>, +inevitably, in the air, and not as a simple term of comparison, but as a result +of things said; also that they were blinking it, all round, and that they yet +needn’t, so much as that, have blinked it—though indeed if they +hadn’t Strether didn’t quite see what else they could have done. +Strether didn’t quite see <i>that</i> even at an hour or two past +midnight, even when he had, at his hotel, for a long time, without a light and +without undressing, sat back on his bedroom sofa and stared straight before +him. He was, at that point of vantage, in full possession, to make of it all +what he could. He kept making of it that there had been simply a <i>lie</i> in +the charming affair—a lie on which one could now, detached and +deliberate, perfectly put one’s finger. It was with the lie that they had +eaten and drunk and talked and laughed, that they had waited for their +<i>carriole</i> rather impatiently, and had then got into the vehicle and, +sensibly subsiding, driven their three or four miles through the darkening +summer night. The eating and drinking, which had been a resource, had had the +effect of having served its turn; the talk and laughter had done as much; and +it was during their somewhat tedious progress to the station, during the waits +there, the further delays, their submission to fatigue, their silences in the +dim compartment of the much-stopping train, that he prepared himself for +reflexions to come. It had been a performance, Madame de Vionnet’s +manner, and though it had to that degree faltered toward the end, as through +her ceasing to believe in it, as if she had asked herself, or Chad had found a +moment surreptitiously to ask her, what after all was the use, a performance it +had none the less quite handsomely remained, with the final fact about it that +it was on the whole easier to keep up than to abandon. +</p> + +<p> +From the point of view of presence of mind it had been very wonderful indeed, +wonderful for readiness, for beautiful assurance, for the way her decision was +taken on the spot, without time to confer with Chad, without time for anything. +Their only conference could have been the brief instants in the boat before +they confessed to recognising the spectator on the bank, for they hadn’t +been alone together a moment since and must have communicated all in silence. +It was a part of the deep impression for Strether, and not the least of the +deep interest, that they <i>could</i> so communicate—that Chad in +particular could let her know he left it to her. He habitually left things to +others, as Strether was so well aware, and it in fact came over our friend in +these meditations that there had been as yet no such vivid illustration of his +famous knowing how to live. It was as if he had humoured her to the extent of +letting her lie without correction—almost as if, really, he would be +coming round in the morning to set the matter, as between Strether and himself, +right. Of course he couldn’t quite come; it was a case in which a man was +obliged to accept the woman’s version, even when fantastic; if she had, +with more flurry than she cared to show, elected, as the phrase was, to +represent that they had left Paris that morning, and with no design but of +getting back within the day—if she had so sized-up, in the Woollett +phrase, their necessity, she knew best her own measure. There were things, all +the same, it was impossible to blink and which made this measure an odd +one—the too evident fact for instance that she hadn’t started out +for the day dressed and hatted and shod, and even, for that matter, pink +parasol’d, as she had been in the boat. From what did the drop in her +assurance proceed as the tension increased—from what did this slightly +baffled ingenuity spring but from her consciousness of not presenting, as night +closed in, with not so much as a shawl to wrap her round, an appearance that +matched her story? She admitted that she was cold, but only to blame her +imprudence which Chad suffered her to give such account of as she might. Her +shawl and Chad’s overcoat and her other garments, and his, those they had +each worn the day before, were at the place, best known to themselves—a +quiet retreat enough, no doubt—at which they had been spending the +twenty-four hours, to which they had fully meant to return that evening, from +which they had so remarkably swum into Strether’s ken, and the tacit +repudiation of which had been thus the essence of her comedy. Strether saw how +she had perceived in a flash that they couldn’t quite look to going back +there under his nose; though, honestly, as he gouged deeper into the matter, he +was somewhat surprised, as Chad likewise had perhaps been, at the uprising of +this scruple. He seemed even to divine that she had entertained it rather for +Chad than for herself, and that, as the young man had lacked the chance to +enlighten her, she had had to go on with it, he meanwhile mistaking her motive. +</p> + +<p> +He was rather glad, none the less, that they had in point of fact not parted at +the Cheval Blanc, that he hadn’t been reduced to giving them his blessing +for an idyllic retreat down the river. He had had in the actual case to +make-believe more than he liked, but this was nothing, it struck him, to what +the other event would have required. Could he, literally, quite have faced the +other event? Would he have been capable of making the best of it with them? +This was what he was trying to do now; but with the advantage of his being able +to give more time to it a good deal counteracted by his sense of what, over and +above the central fact itself, he had to swallow. It was the quantity of +make-believe involved and so vividly exemplified that most disagreed with his +spiritual stomach. He moved, however, from the consideration of that +quantity—to say nothing of the consciousness of that organ—back to +the other feature of the show, the deep, deep truth of the intimacy revealed. +That was what, in his vain vigil, he oftenest reverted to: intimacy, at such a +point, was <i>like</i> that—and what in the world else would one have +wished it to be like? It was all very well for him to feel the pity of its +being so much like lying; he almost blushed, in the dark, for the way he had +dressed the possibility in vagueness, as a little girl might have dressed her +doll. He had made them—and by no fault of their own—momentarily +pull it for him, the possibility, out of this vagueness; and must he not +therefore take it now as they had had simply, with whatever thin attenuations, +to give it to him? The very question, it may be added, made him feel lonely and +cold. There was the element of the awkward all round, but Chad and Madame de +Vionnet had at least the comfort that they could talk it over together. With +whom could <i>he</i> talk of such things?—unless indeed always, at almost +any stage, with Maria? He foresaw that Miss Gostrey would come again into +requisition on the morrow; though it wasn’t to be denied that he was +already a little afraid of her “What on earth—that’s what I +want to know now—had you then supposed?” He recognised at last that +he had really been trying all along to suppose nothing. Verily, verily, his +labour had been lost. He found himself supposing innumerable and wonderful +things. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div class="chapter"> + +<h2><a name="chap12"></a>Book Twelfth</h2> + +<h3>I</h3> + +<p> +Strether couldn’t have said he had during the previous hours definitely +expected it; yet when, later on, that morning—though no later indeed than +for his coming forth at ten o’clock—he saw the concierge produce, +on his approach, a <i>petit bleu</i> delivered since his letters had been sent +up, he recognised the appearance as the first symptom of a sequel. He then knew +he had been thinking of some early sign from Chad as more likely, after all, +than not; and this would be precisely the early sign. He took it so for granted +that he opened the <i>petit bleu</i> just where he had stopped, in the pleasant +cool draught of the <i>porte-cochère</i>—only curious to see where the +young man would, at such a juncture, break out. His curiosity, however, was +more than gratified; the small missive, whose gummed edge he had detached +without attention to the address, not being from the young man at all, but from +the person whom the case gave him on the spot as still more worth while. Worth +while or not, he went round to the nearest telegraph-office, the big one on the +Boulevard, with a directness that almost confessed to a fear of the danger of +delay. He might have been thinking that if he didn’t go before he could +think he wouldn’t perhaps go at all. He at any rate kept, in the lower +side-pocket of his morning coat, a very deliberate hand on his blue missive, +crumpling it up rather tenderly than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the +Boulevard, also in the form of a <i>petit bleu</i>—which was quickly +done, under pressure of the place, inasmuch as, like Madame de Vionnet’s +own communication, it consisted of the fewest words. She had asked him if he +could do her the very great kindness of coming to see her that evening at +half-past nine, and he answered, as if nothing were easier, that he would +present himself at the hour she named. She had added a line of postscript, to +the effect that she would come to him elsewhere and at his own hour if he +preferred; but he took no notice of this, feeling that if he saw her at all +half the value of it would be in seeing her where he had already seen her best. +He mightn’t see her at all; that was one of the reflexions he made after +writing and before he dropped his closed card into the box; he mightn’t +see any one at all any more at all; he might make an end as well now as ever, +leaving things as they were, since he was doubtless not to leave them better, +and taking his way home so far as should appear that a home remained to him. +This alternative was for a few minutes so sharp that if he at last did deposit +his missive it was perhaps because the pressure of the place had an effect. +</p> + +<p> +There was none other, however, than the common and constant pressure, familiar +to our friend under the rubric of <i>Postes et Télégraphes</i>—the +something in the air of these establishments; the vibration of the vast strange +life of the town, the influence of the types, the performers concocting their +messages; the little prompt Paris women, arranging, pretexting goodness knew +what, driving the dreadful needle-pointed public pen at the dreadful +sand-strewn public table: implements that symbolised for Strether’s too +interpretative innocence something more acute in manners, more sinister in +morals, more fierce in the national life. After he had put in his paper he had +ranged himself, he was really amused to think, on the side of the fierce, the +sinister, the acute. He was carrying on a correspondence, across the great +city, quite in the key of the <i>Postes et Télégraphes</i> in general; and it +was fairly as if the acceptance of that fact had come from something in his +state that sorted with the occupation of his neighbours. He was mixed up with +the typical tale of Paris, and so were they, poor things—how could they +all together help being? They were no worse than he, in short, and he no worse +than they—if, queerly enough, no better; and at all events he had settled +his hash, so that he went out to begin, from that moment, his day of waiting. +The great settlement was, as he felt, in his preference for seeing his +correspondent in her own best conditions. <i>That</i> was part of the typical +tale, the part most significant in respect to himself. He liked the place she +lived in, the picture that each time squared itself, large and high and clear, +around her: every occasion of seeing it was a pleasure of a different shade. +Yet what precisely was he doing with shades of pleasure now, and why +hadn’t he properly and logically compelled her to commit herself to +whatever of disadvantage and penalty the situation might throw up? He might +have proposed, as for Sarah Pocock, the cold hospitality of his own <i>salon de +lecture</i>, in which the chill of Sarah’s visit seemed still to abide +and shades of pleasure were dim; he might have suggested a stone bench in the +dusty Tuileries or a penny chair at the back part of the Champs Elysées. These +things would have been a trifle stern, and sternness alone now wouldn’t +be sinister. An instinct in him cast about for some form of discipline in which +they might meet—some awkwardness they would suffer from, some danger, or +at least some grave inconvenience, they would incur. This would give a +sense—which the spirit required, rather ached and sighed in the absence +of—that somebody was paying something somewhere and somehow, that they +were at least not all floating together on the silver stream of impunity. Just +instead of that to go and see her late in the evening, as if, for all the +world—well, as if he were as much in the swim as anybody else: this had +as little as possible in common with the penal form. +</p> + +<p> +Even when he had felt that objection melt away, however, the practical +difference was small; the long stretch of his interval took the colour it +would, and if he lived on thus with the sinister from hour to hour it proved an +easier thing than one might have supposed in advance. He reverted in thought to +his old tradition, the one he had been brought up on and which even so many +years of life had but little worn away; the notion that the state of the +wrongdoer, or at least this person’s happiness, presented some special +difficulty. What struck him now rather was the ease of it—for nothing in +truth appeared easier. It was an ease he himself fairly tasted of for the rest +of the day; giving himself quite up; not so much as trying to dress it out, in +any particular whatever, as a difficulty; not after all going to see +Maria—which would have been in a manner a result of such dressing; only +idling, lounging, smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade and +consuming ices. The day had turned to heat and eventual thunder, and he now and +again went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn’t been there. He +hadn’t yet struck himself, since leaving Woollett, so much as a loafer, +though there had been times when he believed himself touching bottom. This was +a deeper depth than any, and with no foresight, scarcely with a care, as to +what he should bring up. He almost wondered if he didn’t <i>look</i> +demoralised and disreputable; he had the fanciful vision, as he sat and smoked, +of some accidental, some motived, return of the Pococks, who would be passing +along the Boulevard and would catch this view of him. They would have +distinctly, on his appearance, every ground for scandal. But fate failed to +administer even that sternness; the Pococks never passed and Chad made no sign. +Strether meanwhile continued to hold off from Miss Gostrey, keeping her till +to-morrow; so that by evening his irresponsibility, his impunity, his luxury, +had become—there was no other word for them—immense. +</p> + +<p> +Between nine and ten, at last, in the high clear picture—he was moving in +these days, as in a gallery, from clever canvas to clever canvas—he drew +a long breath: it was so presented to him from the first that the spell of his +luxury wouldn’t be broken. He wouldn’t have, that is, to become +responsible—this was admirably in the air: she had sent for him precisely +to let him feel it, so that he might go on with the comfort (comfort already +established, hadn’t it been?) of regarding his ordeal, the ordeal of the +weeks of Sarah’s stay and of their climax, as safely traversed and left +behind him. Didn’t she just wish to assure him that <i>she</i> now took +it all and so kept it; that he was absolutely not to worry any more, was only +to rest on his laurels and continue generously to help her? The light in her +beautiful formal room was dim, though it would do, as everything would always +do; the hot night had kept out lamps, but there was a pair of clusters of +candles that glimmered over the chimney-piece like the tall tapers of an altar. +The windows were all open, their redundant hangings swaying a little, and he +heard once more, from the empty court, the small plash of the fountain. From +beyond this, and as from a great distance—beyond the court, beyond the +<i>corps de logis</i> forming the front—came, as if excited and exciting, +the vague voice of Paris. Strether had all along been subject to sudden gusts +of fancy in connexion with such matters as these—odd starts of the +historic sense, suppositions and divinations with no warrant but their +intensity. Thus and so, on the eve of the great recorded dates, the days and +nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the omens, the beginnings broken +out. They were the smell of revolution, the smell of the public temper—or +perhaps simply the smell of blood. +</p> + +<p> +It was at present queer beyond words, “subtle,” he would have +risked saying, that such suggestions should keep crossing the scene; but it was +doubtless the effect of the thunder in the air, which had hung about all day +without release. His hostess was dressed as for thunderous times, and it fell +in with the kind of imagination we have just attributed to him that she should +be in simplest coolest white, of a character so old-fashioned, if he were not +mistaken, that Madame Roland must on the scaffold have worn something like it. +This effect was enhanced by a small black fichu or scarf, of crape or gauze, +disposed quaintly round her bosom and now completing as by a mystic touch the +pathetic, the noble analogy. Poor Strether in fact scarce knew what analogy was +evoked for him as the charming woman, receiving him and making him, as she +could do such things, at once familiarly and gravely welcome, moved over her +great room with her image almost repeated in its polished floor, which had been +fully bared for summer. The associations of the place, all felt again; the +gleam here and there, in the subdued light, of glass and gilt and parquet, with +the quietness of her own note as the centre—these things were at first as +delicate as if they had been ghostly, and he was sure in a moment that, +whatever he should find he had come for, it wouldn’t be for an impression +that had previously failed him. That conviction held him from the outset, and, +seeming singularly to simplify, certified to him that the objects about would +help him, would really help them both. No, he might never see them +again—this was only too probably the last time; and he should certainly +see nothing in the least degree like them. He should soon be going to where +such things were not, and it would be a small mercy for memory, for fancy, to +have, in that stress, a loaf on the shelf. He knew in advance he should look +back on the perception actually sharpest with him as on the view of something +old, old, old, the oldest thing he had ever personally touched; and he also +knew, even while he took his companion in as the feature among features, that +memory and fancy couldn’t help being enlisted for her. She might intend +what she would, but this was beyond anything she could intend, with things from +far back—tyrannies of history, facts of type, values, as the painters +said, of expression—all working for her and giving her the supreme +chance, the chance of the happy, the really luxurious few, the chance, on a +great occasion, to be natural and simple. She had never, with him, been more +so; or if it was the perfection of art it would never—and that came to +the same thing—be proved against her. +</p> + +<p> +What was truly wonderful was her way of differing so from time to time without +detriment to her simplicity. Caprices, he was sure she felt, were before +anything else bad manners, and that judgement in her was by itself a thing +making more for safety of intercourse than anything that in his various own +past intercourses he had had to reckon on. If therefore her presence was now +quite other than the one she had shown him the night before, there was nothing +of violence in the change—it was all harmony and reason. It gave him a +mild deep person, whereas he had had on the occasion to which their interview +was a direct reference a person committed to movement and surface and abounding +in them; but she was in either character more remarkable for nothing than for +her bridging of intervals, and this now fell in with what he understood he was +to leave to her. The only thing was that, if he was to leave it <i>all</i> to +her, why exactly had she sent for him? He had had, vaguely, in advance, his +explanation, his view of the probability of her wishing to set something right, +to deal in some way with the fraud so lately practised on his presumed +credulity. Would she attempt to carry it further or would she blot it out? +Would she throw over it some more or less happy colour; or would she do nothing +about it at all? He perceived soon enough at least that, however reasonable she +might be, she wasn’t vulgarly confused, and it herewith pressed upon him +that their eminent “lie,” Chad’s and hers, was simply after +all such an inevitable tribute to good taste as he couldn’t have wished +them not to render. Away from them, during his vigil, he had seemed to wince at +the amount of comedy involved; whereas in his present posture he could only ask +himself how he should enjoy any attempt from her to take the comedy back. He +shouldn’t enjoy it at all; but, once more and yet once more, he could +trust her. That is he could trust her to make deception right. As she presented +things the ugliness—goodness knew why—went out of them; none the +less too that she could present them, with an art of her own, by not so much as +touching them. She let the matter, at all events, lie where it was—where +the previous twenty-four hours had placed it; appearing merely to circle about +it respectfully, tenderly, almost piously, while she took up another question. +</p> + +<p> +She knew she hadn’t really thrown dust in his eyes; this, the previous +night, before they separated, had practically passed between them; and, as she +had sent for him to see what the difference thus made for him might amount to, +so he was conscious at the end of five minutes that he had been tried and +tested. She had settled with Chad after he left them that she would, for her +satisfaction, assure herself of this quantity, and Chad had, as usual, let her +have her way. Chad was always letting people have their way when he felt that +it would somehow turn his wheel for him; it somehow always did turn his wheel. +Strether felt, oddly enough, before these facts, freshly and consentingly +passive; they again so rubbed it into him that the couple thus fixing his +attention were intimate, that his intervention had absolutely aided and +intensified their intimacy, and that in fine he must accept the consequence of +that. He had absolutely become, himself, with his perceptions and his mistakes, +his concessions and his reserves, the droll mixture, as it must seem to them, +of his braveries and his fears, the general spectacle of his art and his +innocence, almost an added link and certainly a common priceless ground for +them to meet upon. It was as if he had been hearing their very tone when she +brought out a reference that was comparatively straight. “The last twice +that you’ve been here, you know, I never asked you,” she said with +an abrupt transition—they had been pretending before this to talk simply +of the charm of yesterday and of the interest of the country they had seen. The +effort was confessedly vain; not for such talk had she invited him; and her +impatient reminder was of their having done for it all the needful on his +coming to her after Sarah’s flight. What she hadn’t asked him then +was to state to her where and how he stood for her; she had been resting on +Chad’s report of their midnight hour together in the Boulevard +Malesherbes. The thing therefore she at present desired was ushered in by this +recall of the two occasions on which, disinterested and merciful, she +hadn’t worried him. To-night truly she <i>would</i> worry him, and this +was her appeal to him to let her risk it. He wasn’t to mind if she bored +him a little: she had behaved, after all—hadn’t she?—so +awfully, awfully well. +</p> + +<h3>II</h3> + +<p> +“Oh, you’re all right, you’re all right,” he almost +impatiently declared; his impatience being moreover not for her pressure, but +for her scruple. More and more distinct to him was the tune to which she would +have had the matter out with Chad: more and more vivid for him the idea that +she had been nervous as to what he might be able to “stand.” Yes, +it had been a question if he had “stood” what the scene on the +river had given him, and, though the young man had doubtless opined in favour +of his recuperation, her own last word must have been that she should feel +easier in seeing for herself. That was it, unmistakeably; she <i>was</i> seeing +for herself. What he could stand was thus, in these moments, in the balance for +Strether, who reflected, as he became fully aware of it, that he must properly +brace himself. He wanted fully to appear to stand all he might; and there was a +certain command of the situation for him in this very wish not to look too much +at sea. She was ready with everything, but so, sufficiently, was he; that is he +was at one point the more prepared of the two, inasmuch as, for all her +cleverness, she couldn’t produce on the spot—and it was +surprising—an account of the motive of her note. He had the advantage +that his pronouncing her “all right” gave him for an enquiry. +“May I ask, delighted as I’ve been to come, if you’ve wished +to say something special?” He spoke as if she might have seen he had been +waiting for it—not indeed with discomfort, but with natural interest. +Then he saw that she was a little taken aback, was even surprised herself at +the detail she had neglected—the only one ever yet; having somehow +assumed he would know, would recognise, would leave some things not to be said. +She looked at him, however, an instant as if to convey that if he wanted them +<i>all</i>—! +</p> + +<p> +“Selfish and vulgar—that’s what I must seem to you. +You’ve done everything for me, and here I am as if I were asking for +more. But it isn’t,” she went on, “because I’m +afraid—though I <i>am</i> of course afraid, as a woman in my position +always is. I mean it isn’t because one lives in terror—it +isn’t because of that one is selfish, for I’m ready to give you my +word to-night that I don’t care; don’t care what still may happen +and what I may lose. I don’t ask you to raise your little finger for me +again, nor do I wish so much as to mention to you what we’ve talked of +before, either my danger or my safety, or his mother, or his sister, or the +girl he may marry, or the fortune he may make or miss, or the right or the +wrong, of any kind, he may do. If after the help one has had from you one +can’t either take care of one’s self or simply hold one’s +tongue, one must renounce all claim to be an object of interest. It’s in +the name of what I <i>do</i> care about that I’ve tried still to keep +hold of you. How can I be indifferent,” she asked, “to how I appear +to you?” And as he found himself unable immediately to say: “Why, +if you’re going, <i>need</i> you, after all? Is it impossible you should +stay on—so that one mayn’t lose you?” +</p> + +<p> +“Impossible I should live with you here instead of going home?” +</p> + +<p> +“Not ‘with’ us, if you object to that, but near enough to us, +somewhere, for us to see you—well,” she beautifully brought out, +“when we feel we <i>must</i>. How shall we not sometimes feel it? +I’ve wanted to see you often when I couldn’t,” she pursued, +“all these last weeks. How shan’t I then miss you now, with the +sense of your being gone forever?” Then as if the straightness of this +appeal, taking him unprepared, had visibly left him wondering: “Where +<i>is</i> your ‘home’ moreover now—what has become of it? +I’ve made a change in your life, I know I have; I’ve upset +everything in your mind as well; in your sense of—what shall I call +it?—all the decencies and possibilities. It gives me a kind of +detestation—” She pulled up short. +</p> + +<p> +Oh but he wanted to hear. “Detestation of what?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of everything—of life.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah that’s too much,” he laughed—“or too +little!” +</p> + +<p> +“Too little, precisely”—she was eager. “What I hate is +myself—when I think that one has to take so much, to be happy, out of the +lives of others, and that one isn’t happy even then. One does it to cheat +one’s self and to stop one’s mouth—but that’s only at +the best for a little. The wretched self is always there, always making one +somehow a fresh anxiety. What it comes to is that it’s not, that +it’s never, a happiness, any happiness at all, to <i>take</i>. The only +safe thing is to give. It’s what plays you least false.” +Interesting, touching, strikingly sincere as she let these things come from +her, she yet puzzled and troubled him—so fine was the quaver of her +quietness. He felt what he had felt before with her, that there was always more +behind what she showed, and more and more again behind that. “You know +so, at least,” she added, “where you are!” +</p> + +<p> +“<i>You</i> ought to know it indeed then; for isn’t what +you’ve been giving exactly what has brought us together this way? +You’ve been making, as I’ve so fully let you know I’ve +felt,” Strether said, “the most precious present I’ve ever +seen made, and if you can’t sit down peacefully on that performance you +<i>are</i>, no doubt, born to torment yourself. But you ought,” he wound +up, “to be easy.” +</p> + +<p> +“And not trouble you any more, no doubt—not thrust on you even the +wonder and the beauty of what I’ve done; only let you regard our business +as over, and well over, and see you depart in a peace that matches my own? No +doubt, no doubt, no doubt,” she nervously repeated—“all the +more that I don’t really pretend I believe you couldn’t, for +yourself, <i>not</i> have done what you have. I don’t pretend you feel +yourself victimised, for this evidently is the way you live, and it’s +what—we’re agreed—is the best way. Yes, as you say,” +she continued after a moment, “I ought to be easy and rest on my work. +Well then here am I doing so. I <i>am</i> easy. You’ll have it for your +last impression. When is it you say you go?” she asked with a quick +change. +</p> + +<p> +He took some time to reply—his last impression was more and more so mixed +a one. It produced in him a vague disappointment, a drop that was deeper even +than the fall of his elation the previous night. The good of what he had done, +if he had done so much, wasn’t there to enliven him quite to the point +that would have been ideal for a grand gay finale. Women were thus endlessly +absorbent, and to deal with them was to walk on water. What was at bottom the +matter with her, embroider as she might and disclaim as she might—what +was at bottom the matter with her was simply Chad himself. It was of Chad she +was after all renewedly afraid; the strange strength of her passion was the +very strength of her fear; she clung to <i>him</i>, Lambert Strether, as to a +source of safety she had tested, and, generous graceful truthful as she might +try to be, exquisite as she was, she dreaded the term of his being within +reach. With this sharpest perception yet, it was like a chill in the air to +him, it was almost appalling, that a creature so fine could be, by mysterious +forces, a creature so exploited. For at the end of all things they <i>were</i> +mysterious: she had but made Chad what he was—so why could she think she +had made him infinite? She had made him better, she had made him best, she had +made him anything one would; but it came to our friend with supreme queerness +that he was none the less only Chad. Strether had the sense that <i>he</i>, a +little, had made him too; his high appreciation had as it were, consecrated her +work The work, however admirable, was nevertheless of the strict human order, +and in short it was marvellous that the companion of mere earthly joys, of +comforts, aberrations (however one classed them) within the common experience +should be so transcendently prized. It might have made Strether hot or shy, as +such secrets of others brought home sometimes do make us; but he was held there +by something so hard that it was fairly grim. This was not the discomposure of +last night; that had quite passed—such discomposures were a detail; the +real coercion was to see a man ineffably adored. There it was again—it +took women, it took women; if to deal with them was to walk on water what +wonder that the water rose? And it had never surely risen higher than round +this woman. He presently found himself taking a long look from her, and the +next thing he knew he had uttered all his thought. “You’re afraid +for your life!” +</p> + +<p> +It drew out her long look, and he soon enough saw why. A spasm came into her +face, the tears she had already been unable to hide overflowed at first in +silence, and then, as the sound suddenly comes from a child, quickened to +gasps, to sobs. She sat and covered her face with her hands, giving up all +attempt at a manner. “It’s how you see me, it’s how you see +me”—she caught her breath with it—“and it’s as I +<i>am</i>, and as I must take myself, and of course it’s no +matter.” Her emotion was at first so incoherent that he could only stand +there at a loss, stand with his sense of having upset her, though of having +done it by the truth. He had to listen to her in a silence that he made no +immediate effort to attenuate, feeling her doubly woeful amid all her dim +diffused elegance; consenting to it as he had consented to the rest, and even +conscious of some vague inward irony in the presence of such a fine free range +of bliss and bale. He couldn’t say it was <i>not</i> no matter; for he +was serving her to the end, he now knew, anyway—quite as if what he +thought of her had nothing to do with it. It was actually moreover as if he +didn’t think of her at all, as if he could think of nothing but the +passion, mature, abysmal, pitiful, she represented, and the possibilities she +betrayed. She was older for him to-night, visibly less exempt from the touch of +time; but she was as much as ever the finest and subtlest creature, the +happiest apparition, it had been given him, in all his years, to meet; and yet +he could see her there as vulgarly troubled, in very truth, as a maidservant +crying for her young man. The only thing was that she judged herself as the +maidservant wouldn’t; the weakness of which wisdom too, the dishonour of +which judgement, seemed but to sink her lower. Her collapse, however, no doubt, +was briefer and she had in a manner recovered herself before he intervened. +“Of course I’m afraid for my life. But that’s nothing. It +isn’t that.” +</p> + +<p> +He was silent a little longer, as if thinking what it might be. +“There’s something I have in mind that I can still do.” +</p> + +<p> +But she threw off at last, with a sharp sad headshake, drying her eyes, what he +could still do. “I don’t care for that. Of course, as I’ve +said, you’re acting, in your wonderful way, for yourself; and +what’s for yourself is no more my business—though I may reach out +unholy hands so clumsily to touch it—than if it were something in +Timbuctoo. It’s only that you don’t snub me, as you’ve had +fifty chances to do—it’s only your beautiful patience that makes +one forget one’s manners. In spite of your patience, all the same,” +she went on, “you’d do anything rather than be with us here, even +if that were possible. You’d do everything for us but be mixed up with +us—which is a statement you can easily answer to the advantage of your +own manners. You can say ‘What’s the use of talking of things that +at the best are impossible?’ What <i>is</i> of course the use? It’s +only my little madness. You’d talk if you were tormented. And I +don’t mean now about <i>him</i>. Oh for him—!” Positively, +strangely, bitterly, as it seemed to Strether, she gave “him,” for +the moment, away. “You don’t care what I think of you; but I happen +to care what you think of me. And what you <i>might</i>,” she added. +“What you perhaps even did.” +</p> + +<p> +He gained time. “What I did—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Did think before. Before this. <i>Didn’t</i> you +think—?” +</p> + +<p> +But he had already stopped her. “I didn’t think anything. I never +think a step further than I’m obliged to.” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s perfectly false, I believe,” she +returned—“except that you may, no doubt, often pull up when things +become <i>too</i> ugly; or even, I’ll say, to save you a protest, too +beautiful. At any rate, even so far as it’s true, we’ve thrust on +you appearances that you’ve had to take in and that have therefore made +your obligation. Ugly or beautiful—it doesn’t matter what we call +them—you were getting on without them, and that’s where we’re +detestable. We bore you—that’s where we are. And we may +well—for what we’ve cost you. All you can do <i>now</i> is not to +think at all. And I who should have liked to seem to you—well, +sublime!” +</p> + +<p> +He could only after a moment re-echo Miss Barrace. “You’re +wonderful!” +</p> + +<p> +“I’m old and abject and hideous”—she went on as without +hearing him. “Abject above all. Or old above all. It’s when +one’s old that it’s worst. I don’t care what becomes of +it—let what <i>will</i>; there it is. It’s a doom—I know it; +you can’t see it more than I do myself. Things have to happen as they +will.” With which she came back again to what, face to face with him, had +so quite broken down. “Of course you wouldn’t, even if possible, +and no matter what may happen to you, be near us. But think of me, think of +me—!” She exhaled it into air. +</p> + +<p> +He took refuge in repeating something he had already said and that she had made +nothing of. “There’s something I believe I can still do.” And +he put his hand out for good-bye. +</p> + +<p> +She again made nothing of it; she went on with her insistence. “That +won’t help you. There’s nothing to help you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it may help <i>you</i>,” he said. +</p> + +<p> +She shook her head. “There’s not a grain of certainty in my +future—for the only certainty is that I shall be the loser in the +end.” +</p> + +<p> +She hadn’t taken his hand, but she moved with him to the door. +“That’s cheerful,” he laughed, “for your +benefactor!” +</p> + +<p> +“What’s cheerful for <i>me</i>,” she replied, “is that +we might, you and I, have been friends. That’s it—that’s it. +You see how, as I say, I want everything. I’ve wanted you too.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but you’ve <i>had</i> me!” he declared, at the door, with +an emphasis that made an end. +</p> + +<h3>III</h3> + +<p> +His purpose had been to see Chad the next day, and he had prefigured seeing him +by an early call; having in general never stood on ceremony in respect to +visits at the Boulevard Malesherbes. It had been more often natural for him to +go there than for Chad to come to the small hotel, the attractions of which +were scant; yet it nevertheless, just now, at the eleventh hour, did suggest +itself to Strether to begin by giving the young man a chance. It struck him +that, in the inevitable course, Chad would be “round,” as Waymarsh +used to say—Waymarsh who already, somehow, seemed long ago. He +hadn’t come the day before, because it had been arranged between them +that Madame de Vionnet should see their friend first; but now that this passage +had taken place he would present himself, and their friend wouldn’t have +long to wait. Strether assumed, he became aware, on this reasoning, that the +interesting parties to the arrangement would have met betimes, and that the +more interesting of the two—as she was after all—would have +communicated to the other the issue of her appeal. Chad would know without +delay that his mother’s messenger had been with her, and, though it was +perhaps not quite easy to see how she could qualify what had occurred, he would +at least have been sufficiently advised to feel he could go on. The day, +however, brought, early or late, no word from him, and Strether felt, as a +result of this, that a change had practically come over their intercourse. It +was perhaps a premature judgement; or it only meant perhaps—how could he +tell?—that the wonderful pair he protected had taken up again together +the excursion he had accidentally checked. They might have gone back to the +country, and gone back but with a long breath drawn; that indeed would best +mark Chad’s sense that reprobation hadn’t rewarded Madame de +Vionnet’s request for an interview. At the end of the twenty-four hours, +at the end of the forty-eight, there was still no overture; so that Strether +filled up the time, as he had so often filled it before, by going to see Miss +Gostrey. +</p> + +<p> +He proposed amusements to her; he felt expert now in proposing amusements; and +he had thus, for several days, an odd sense of leading her about Paris, of +driving her in the Bois, of showing her the penny steamboats—those from +which the breeze of the Seine was to be best enjoyed—that might have +belonged to a kindly uncle doing the honours of the capital to an intelligent +niece from the country. He found means even to take her to shops she +didn’t know, or that she pretended she didn’t; while she, on her +side, was, like the country maiden, all passive modest and grateful—going +in fact so far as to emulate rusticity in occasional fatigues and +bewilderments. Strether described these vague proceedings to himself, described +them even to her, as a happy interlude; the sign of which was that the +companions said for the time no further word about the matter they had talked +of to satiety. He proclaimed satiety at the outset, and she quickly took the +hint; as docile both in this and in everything else as the intelligent obedient +niece. He told her as yet nothing of his late adventure—for as an +adventure it now ranked with him; he pushed the whole business temporarily +aside and found his interest in the fact of her beautiful assent. She left +questions unasked—she who for so long had been all questions; she gave +herself up to him with an understanding of which mere mute gentleness might +have seemed the sufficient expression. She knew his sense of his situation had +taken still another step—of that he was quite aware; but she conveyed +that, whatever had thus happened for him, it was thrown into the shade by what +was happening for herself. This—though it mightn’t to a detached +spirit have seemed much—was the major interest, and she met it with a new +directness of response, measuring it from hour to hour with her grave hush of +acceptance. Touched as he had so often been by her before, he was, for his part +too, touched afresh; all the more that though he could be duly aware of the +principle of his own mood he couldn’t be equally so of the principle of +hers. He knew, that is, in a manner—knew roughly and +resignedly—what he himself was hatching; whereas he had to take the +chance of what he called to himself Maria’s calculations. It was all he +needed that she liked him enough for what they were doing, and even should they +do a good deal more would still like him enough for that; the essential +freshness of a relation so simple was a cool bath to the soreness produced by +other relations. These others appeared to him now horribly complex; they +bristled with fine points, points all unimaginable beforehand, points that +pricked and drew blood; a fact that gave to an hour with his present friend on +a <i>bateau-mouche</i>, or in the afternoon shade of the Champs Elysées, +something of the innocent pleasure of handling rounded ivory. His relation with +Chad personally—from the moment he had got his point of view—had +been of the simplest; yet this also struck him as bristling, after a third and +a fourth blank day had passed. It was as if at last however his care for such +indications had dropped; there came a fifth blank day and he ceased to enquire +or to heed. +</p> + +<p> +They now took on to his fancy, Miss Gostrey and he, the image of the Babes in +the Wood; they could trust the merciful elements to let them continue at peace. +He had been great already, as he knew, at postponements; but he had only to get +afresh into the rhythm of one to feel its fine attraction. It amused him to say +to himself that he might for all the world have been going to die—die +resignedly; the scene was filled for him with so deep a death-bed hush, so +melancholy a charm. That meant the postponement of everything else—which +made so for the quiet lapse of life; and the postponement in especial of the +reckoning to come—unless indeed the reckoning to come were to be one and +the same thing with extinction. It faced him, the reckoning, over the shoulder +of much interposing experience—which also faced him; and one would float +to it doubtless duly through these caverns of Kubla Khan. It was really behind +everything; it hadn’t merged in what he had done; his final appreciation +of what he had done—his appreciation on the spot—would provide it +with its main sharpness. The spot so focussed was of course Woollett, and he +was to see, at the best, what Woollett would be with everything there changed +for him. Wouldn’t <i>that</i> revelation practically amount to the +wind-up of his career? Well, the summer’s end would show; his suspense +had meanwhile exactly the sweetness of vain delay; and he had with it, we +should mention, other pastimes than Maria’s company—plenty of +separate musings in which his luxury failed him but at one point. He was well +in port, the outer sea behind him, and it was only a matter of getting ashore. +There was a question that came and went for him, however, as he rested against +the side of his ship, and it was a little to get rid of the obsession that he +prolonged his hours with Miss Gostrey. It was a question about himself, but it +could only be settled by seeing Chad again; it was indeed his principal reason +for wanting to see Chad. After that it wouldn’t signify—it was a +ghost that certain words would easily lay to rest. Only the young man must be +there to take the words. Once they were taken he wouldn’t have a question +left; none, that is, in connexion with this particular affair. It +wouldn’t then matter even to himself that he might now have been guilty +of speaking <i>because</i> of what he had forfeited. That was the refinement of +his supreme scruple—he wished so to leave what he had forfeited out of +account. He wished not to do anything because he had missed something else, +because he was sore or sorry or impoverished, because he was maltreated or +desperate; he wished to do everything because he was lucid and quiet, just the +same for himself on all essential points as he had ever been. Thus it was that +while he virtually hung about for Chad he kept mutely putting it: +“You’ve been chucked, old boy; but what has that to do with +it?” It would have sickened him to feel vindictive. +</p> + +<p> +These tints of feeling indeed were doubtless but the iridescence of his +idleness, and they were presently lost in a new light from Maria. She had a +fresh fact for him before the week was out, and she practically met him with it +on his appearing one night. He hadn’t on this day seen her, but had +planned presenting himself in due course to ask her to dine with him somewhere +out of doors, on one of the terraces, in one of the gardens, of which the Paris +of summer was profuse. It had then come on to rain, so that, disconcerted, he +changed his mind; dining alone at home, a little stuffily and stupidly, and +waiting on her afterwards to make up his loss. He was sure within a minute that +something had happened; it was so in the air of the rich little room that he +had scarcely to name his thought. Softly lighted, the whole colour of the +place, with its vague values, was in cool fusion—an effect that made the +visitor stand for a little agaze. It was as if in doing so now he had felt a +recent presence—his recognition of the passage of which his hostess in +turn divined. She had scarcely to say it—“Yes, she has been here, +and this time I received her.” It wasn’t till a minute later that +she added: “There being, as I understand you, no reason +<i>now</i>—!” +</p> + +<p> +“None for your refusing?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—if you’ve done what you’ve had to do.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve certainly so far done it,” Strether said, “as +that you needn’t fear the effect, or the appearance of coming between us. +There’s nothing between us now but what we ourselves have put there, and +not an inch of room for anything else whatever. Therefore you’re only +beautifully <i>with</i> us as always—though doubtless now, if she has +talked to you, rather more with us than less. Of course if she came,” he +added, “it was to talk to you.” +</p> + +<p> +“It was to talk to me,” Maria returned; on which he was further +sure that she was practically in possession of what he himself hadn’t yet +told her. He was even sure she was in possession of things he himself +couldn’t have told; for the consciousness of them was now all in her face +and accompanied there with a shade of sadness that marked in her the close of +all uncertainties. It came out for him more than ever yet that she had had from +the first a knowledge she believed him not to have had, a knowledge the sharp +acquisition of which might be destined to make a difference for him. The +difference for him might not inconceivably be an arrest of his independence and +a change in his attitude—in other words a revulsion in favour of the +principles of Woollett. She had really prefigured the possibility of a shock +that would send him swinging back to Mrs. Newsome. He hadn’t, it was +true, week after week, shown signs of receiving it, but the possibility had +been none the less in the air. What Maria accordingly had had now to take in +was that the shock had descended and that he hadn’t, all the same, swung +back. He had grown clear, in a flash, on a point long since settled for +herself; but no reapproximation to Mrs. Newsome had occurred in consequence. +Madame de Vionnet had by her visit held up the torch to these truths, and what +now lingered in poor Maria’s face was the somewhat smoky light of the +scene between them. If the light however wasn’t, as we have hinted, the +glow of joy, the reasons for this also were perhaps discernible to Strether +even through the blur cast over them by his natural modesty. She had held +herself for months with a firm hand; she hadn’t interfered on any +chance—and chances were specious enough—that she might interfere to +her profit. She had turned her back on the dream that Mrs. Newsome’s +rupture, their friend’s forfeiture—the engagement, the relation +itself, broken beyond all mending—might furnish forth her advantage; and, +to stay her hand from promoting these things, she had on private, difficult, +but rigid, lines, played strictly fair. She couldn’t therefore but feel +that, though, as the end of all, the facts in question had been stoutly +confirmed, her ground for personal, for what might have been called interested, +elation remained rather vague. Strether might easily have made out that she had +been asking herself, in the hours she had just sat through, if there were still +for her, or were only not, a fair shade of uncertainty. Let us hasten to add, +however, that what he at first made out on this occasion he also at first kept +to himself. He only asked what in particular Madame de Vionnet had come for, +and as to this his companion was ready. +</p> + +<p> +“She wants tidings of Mr. Newsome, whom she appears not to have seen for +some days.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then she hasn’t been away with him again?” +</p> + +<p> +“She seemed to think,” Maria answered, “that he might have +gone away with <i>you</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“And did you tell her I know nothing of him?” +</p> + +<p> +She had her indulgent headshake. “I’ve known nothing of what you +know. I could only tell her I’d ask you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then I’ve not seen him for a week—and of course I’ve +wondered.” His wonderment showed at this moment as sharper, but he +presently went on. “Still, I dare say I can put my hand on him. Did she +strike you,” he asked, “as anxious?” +</p> + +<p> +“She’s always anxious.” +</p> + +<p> +“After all I’ve done for her?” And he had one of the last +flickers of his occasional mild mirth. “To think that was just what I +came out to prevent!” +</p> + +<p> +She took it up but to reply. “You don’t regard him then as +safe?” +</p> + +<p> +“I was just going to ask you how in that respect you regard Madame de +Vionnet.” +</p> + +<p> +She looked at him a little. “What woman was <i>ever</i> safe? She told +me,” she added—and it was as if at the touch of the +connexion—“of your extraordinary meeting in the country. After that +<i>à quoi se fier?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +“It was, as an accident, in all the possible or impossible +chapter,” Strether conceded, “amazing enough. But still, but +still—!” +</p> + +<p> +“But still she didn’t mind?” +</p> + +<p> +“She doesn’t mind anything.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, then, as you don’t either, we may all sink to rest!” +</p> + +<p> +He appeared to agree with her, but he had his reservation. “I do mind +Chad’s disappearance.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you’ll get him back. But now you know,” she said, +“why I went to Mentone.” He had sufficiently let her see that he +had by this time gathered things together, but there was nature in her wish to +make them clearer still. “I didn’t want you to put it to me.” +</p> + +<p> +“To put it to you—?” +</p> + +<p> +“The question of what you were at last—a week ago—to see for +yourself. I didn’t want to have to lie for her. I felt that to be too +much for me. A man of course is always expected to do it—to do it, I +mean, for a woman; but not a woman for another woman; unless perhaps on the +tit-for-tat principle, as an indirect way of protecting herself. I don’t +need protection, so that I was free to ‘funk’ you—simply to +dodge your test. The responsibility was too much for me. I gained time, and +when I came back the need of a test had blown over.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether thought of it serenely. “Yes; when you came back little Bilham +had shown me what’s expected of a gentleman. Little Bilham had lied like +one.” +</p> + +<p> +“And like what you believed him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well,” said Strether, “it was but a technical lie—he +classed the attachment as virtuous. That was a view for which there was much to +be said—and the virtue came out for me hugely There was of course a great +deal of it. I got it full in the face, and I haven’t, you see, done with +it yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“What I see, what I saw,” Maria returned, “is that you +dressed up even the virtue. You were wonderful—you were beautiful, as +I’ve had the honour of telling you before; but, if you wish really to +know,” she sadly confessed, “I never quite knew <i>where</i> you +were. There were moments,” she explained, “when you struck me as +grandly cynical; there were others when you struck me as grandly vague.” +</p> + +<p> +Her friend considered. “I had phases. I had flights.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, but things must have a basis.” +</p> + +<p> +“A basis seemed to me just what her beauty supplied.” +</p> + +<p> +“Her beauty of person?” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, her beauty of everything. The impression she makes. She has such +variety and yet such harmony.” +</p> + +<p> +She considered him with one of her deep returns of indulgence—returns out +of all proportion to the irritations they flooded over. “You’re +complete.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re always too personal,” he good-humouredly said; +“but that’s precisely how I wondered and wandered.” +</p> + +<p> +“If you mean,” she went on, “that she was from the first for +you the most charming woman in the world, nothing’s more simple. Only +that was an odd foundation.” +</p> + +<p> +“For what I reared on it?” +</p> + +<p> +“For what you didn’t!” +</p> + +<p> +“Well, it was all not a fixed quantity. And it had for me—it has +still—such elements of strangeness. Her greater age than his, her +different world, traditions, association; her other opportunities, liabilities, +standards.” +</p> + +<p> +His friend listened with respect to his enumeration of these disparities; then +she disposed of them at a stroke. “Those things are nothing when a +woman’s hit. It’s very awful. She was hit.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether, on his side, did justice to that plea. “Oh of course I saw she +was hit. That she was hit was what we were busy with; that she was hit was our +great affair. But somehow I couldn’t think of her as down in the dust. +And as put there by <i>our</i> little Chad!” +</p> + +<p> +“Yet wasn’t ‘your’ little Chad just your +miracle?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether admitted it. “Of course I moved among miracles. It was all +phantasmagoric. But the great fact was that so much of it was none of my +business—as I saw my business. It isn’t even now.” +</p> + +<p> +His companion turned away on this, and it might well have been yet again with +the sharpness of a fear of how little his philosophy could bring her +personally. “I wish <i>she</i> could hear you!” +</p> + +<p> +“Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +“No—not Mrs. Newsome; since I understand you that it doesn’t +matter now what Mrs. Newsome hears. Hasn’t she heard everything?” +</p> + +<p> +“Practically—yes.” He had thought a moment, but he went on. +“You wish Madame de Vionnet could hear me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Madame de Vionnet.” She had come back to him. “She thinks +just the contrary of what you say. That you distinctly judge her.” +</p> + +<p> +He turned over the scene as the two women thus placed together for him seemed +to give it. “She might have known—!” +</p> + +<p> +“Might have known you don’t?” Miss Gostrey asked as he let it +drop. “She was sure of it at first,” she pursued as he said +nothing; “she took it for granted, at least, as any woman in her position +would. But after that she changed her mind; she believed you +believed—” +</p> + +<p> +“Well?”—he was curious. +</p> + +<p> +“Why in her sublimity. And that belief had remained with her, I make out, +till the accident of the other day opened your eyes. For that it did,” +said Maria, “open them—” +</p> + +<p> +“She can’t help”—he had taken it up—“being +aware? No,” he mused; “I suppose she thinks of that even +yet.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then they <i>were</i> closed? There you are! However, if you see her as +the most charming woman in the world it comes to the same thing. And if +you’d like me to tell her that you do still so see her—!” +Miss Gostrey, in short, offered herself for service to the end. +</p> + +<p> +It was an offer he could temporarily entertain; but he decided. “She +knows perfectly how I see her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Not favourably enough, she mentioned to me, to wish ever to see her +again. She told me you had taken a final leave of her. She says you’ve +done with her.” +</p> + +<p> +“So I have.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria had a pause; then she spoke as if for conscience. “She +wouldn’t have done with <i>you</i>. She feels she has lost you—yet +that she might have been better for you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh she has been quite good enough!” Strether laughed. +</p> + +<p> +“She thinks you and she might at any rate have been friends.” +</p> + +<p> +“We might certainly. That’s just”—he continued to +laugh—“why I’m going.” +</p> + +<p> +It was as if Maria could feel with this then at last that she had done her best +for each. But she had still an idea. “Shall I tell her that?” +</p> + +<p> +“No. Tell her nothing.” +</p> + +<p> +“Very well then.” To which in the next breath Miss Gostrey added: +“Poor dear thing!” +</p> + +<p> +Her friend wondered; then with raised eyebrows: “Me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh no. Marie de Vionnet.” +</p> + +<p> +He accepted the correction, but he wondered still. “Are you so sorry for +her as that?” +</p> + +<p> +It made her think a moment—made her even speak with a smile. But she +didn’t really retract. “I’m sorry for us all!” +</p> + +<h3>IV</h3> + +<p> +He was to delay no longer to re-establish communication with Chad, and we have +just seen that he had spoken to Miss Gostrey of this intention on hearing from +her of the young man’s absence. It was not moreover only the assurance so +given that prompted him; it was the need of causing his conduct to square with +another profession still—the motive he had described to her as his +sharpest for now getting away. If he was to get away because of some of the +relations involved in staying, the cold attitude toward them might look +pedantic in the light of lingering on. He must do both things; he must see +Chad, but he must go. The more he thought of the former of these duties the +more he felt himself make a subject of insistence of the latter. They were +alike intensely present to him as he sat in front of a quiet little café into +which he had dropped on quitting Maria’s entresol. The rain that had +spoiled his evening with her was over; for it was still to him as if his +evening <i>had</i> been spoiled—though it mightn’t have been wholly +the rain. It was late when he left the café, yet not too late; he +couldn’t in any case go straight to bed, and he would walk round by the +Boulevard Malesherbes—rather far round—on his way home. Present +enough always was the small circumstance that had originally pressed for him +the spring of so big a difference—the accident of little Bilham’s +appearance on the balcony of the mystic troisième at the moment of his first +visit, and the effect of it on his sense of what was then before him. He +recalled his watch, his wait, and the recognition that had proceeded from the +young stranger, that had played frankly into the air and had presently brought +him up—things smoothing the way for his first straight step. He had since +had occasion, a few times, to pass the house without going in; but he had never +passed it without again feeling how it had then spoken to him. He stopped short +to-night on coming to sight of it: it was as if his last day were oddly copying +his first. The windows of Chad’s apartment were open to the +balcony—a pair of them lighted; and a figure that had come out and taken +up little Bilham’s attitude, a figure whose cigarette-spark he could see +leaned on the rail and looked down at him. It denoted however no reappearance +of his younger friend; it quickly defined itself in the tempered darkness as +Chad’s more solid shape; so that Chad’s was the attention that +after he had stepped forward into the street and signalled, he easily engaged; +Chad’s was the voice that, sounding into the night with promptness and +seemingly with joy, greeted him and called him up. +</p> + +<p> +That the young man had been visible there just in this position expressed +somehow for Strether that, as Maria Gostrey had reported, he had been absent +and silent; and our friend drew breath on each landing—the lift, at that +hour, having ceased to work—before the implications of the fact. He had +been for a week intensely away, away to a distance and alone; but he was more +back than ever, and the attitude in which Strether had surprised him was +something more than a return—it was clearly a conscious surrender. He had +arrived but an hour before, from London, from Lucerne, from Homburg, from no +matter where—though the visitor’s fancy, on the staircase, liked to +fill it out; and after a bath, a talk with Baptiste and a supper of light cold +clever French things, which one could see the remains of there in the circle of +the lamp, pretty and ultra-Parisian, he had come into the air again for a +smoke, was occupied at the moment of Strether’s approach in what might +have been called taking up his life afresh. His life, his life!—Strether +paused anew, on the last flight, at this final rather breathless sense of what +Chad’s life was doing with Chad’s mother’s emissary. It was +dragging him, at strange hours, up the staircases of the rich; it was keeping +him out of bed at the end of long hot days; it was transforming beyond +recognition the simple, subtle, conveniently uniform thing that had anciently +passed with him for a life of his own. Why should it concern him that Chad was +to be fortified in the pleasant practice of smoking on balconies, of supping on +salads, of feeling his special conditions agreeably reaffirm themselves, of +finding reassurance in comparisons and contrasts? There was no answer to such a +question but that he was still practically committed—he had perhaps never +yet so much known it. It made him feel old, and he would buy his +railway-ticket—feeling, no doubt, older—the next day; but he had +meanwhile come up four flights, counting the entresol, at midnight and without +a lift, for Chad’s life. The young man, hearing him by this time, and +with Baptiste sent to rest, was already at the door; so that Strether had +before him in full visibility the cause in which he was labouring and even, +with the troisième fairly gained, panting a little. +</p> + +<p> +Chad offered him, as always, a welcome in which the cordial and the +formal—so far as the formal was the respectful—handsomely met; and +after he had expressed a hope that he would let him put him up for the night +Strether was in full possession of the key, as it might have been called, to +what had lately happened. If he had just thought of himself as old Chad was at +sight of him thinking of him as older: he wanted to put him up for the night +just because he was ancient and weary. It could never be said the tenant of +these quarters wasn’t nice to him; a tenant who, if he might indeed now +keep him, was probably prepared to work it all still more thoroughly. Our +friend had in fact the impression that with the minimum of encouragement Chad +would propose to keep him indefinitely; an impression in the lap of which one +of his own possibilities seemed to sit. Madame de Vionnet had wished him to +stay—so why didn’t that happily fit? He could enshrine himself for +the rest of his days in his young host’s <i>chambre d’ami</i> and +draw out these days at his young host’s expense: there could scarce be +greater logical expression of the countenance he had been moved to give. There +was literally a minute—it was strange enough—during which he +grasped the idea that as he <i>was</i> acting, as he could only act, he was +inconsistent. The sign that the inward forces he had obeyed really hung +together would be that—in default always of another career—he +should promote the good cause by mounting guard on it. These things, during his +first minutes, came and went; but they were after all practically disposed of +as soon as he had mentioned his errand. He had come to say good-bye—yet +that was only a part; so that from the moment Chad accepted his farewell the +question of a more ideal affirmation gave way to something else. He proceeded +with the rest of his business. “You’ll be a brute, you +know—you’ll be guilty of the last infamy—if you ever forsake +her.” +</p> + +<p> +That, uttered there at the solemn hour, uttered in the place that was full of +her influence, was the rest of his business; and when once he had heard himself +say it he felt that his message had never before been spoken. It placed his +present call immediately on solid ground, and the effect of it was to enable +him quite to play with what we have called the key. Chad showed no shade of +embarrassment, but had none the less been troubled for him after their meeting +in the country; had had fears and doubts on the subject of his comfort. He was +disturbed, as it were, only <i>for</i> him, and had positively gone away to +ease him off, to let him down—if it wasn’t indeed rather to screw +him up—the more gently. Seeing him now fairly jaded he had come, with +characteristic good humour, all the way to meet him, and what Strether +thereupon supremely made out was that he would abound for him to the end in +conscientious assurances. This was what was between them while the visitor +remained; so far from having to go over old ground he found his entertainer +keen to agree to everything. It couldn’t be put too strongly for him that +he’d be a brute. “Oh rather!—if I should do anything of +<i>that</i> sort. I hope you believe I really feel it.” +</p> + +<p> +“I want it,” said Strether, “to be my last word of all to +you. I can’t say more, you know; and I don’t see how I can do more, +in every way, than I’ve done.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad took this, almost artlessly, as a direct allusion. “You’ve +seen her?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—to say good-bye. And if I had doubted the truth of what I +tell you—” +</p> + +<p> +“She’d have cleared up your doubt?” Chad +understood—“rather”—again! It even kept him briefly +silent. But he made that up. “She must have been wonderful.” +</p> + +<p> +“She <i>was</i>,” Strether candidly admitted—all of which +practically told as a reference to the conditions created by the accident of +the previous week. +</p> + +<p> +They appeared for a little to be looking back at it; and that came out still +more in what Chad next said. “I don’t know what you’ve really +thought, all along; I never did know—for anything, with you, seemed to be +possible. But of course—of course—” Without confusion, quite +with nothing but indulgence, he broke down, he pulled up. “After all, you +understand. I spoke to you originally only as I <i>had</i> to speak. +There’s only one way—isn’t there?—about such things. +However,” he smiled with a final philosophy, “I see it’s all +right.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether met his eyes with a sense of multiplying thoughts. What was it that +made him at present, late at night and after journeys, so renewedly, so +substantially young? Strether saw in a moment what it was—it was that he +was younger again than Madame de Vionnet. He himself said immediately none of +the things that he was thinking; he said something quite different. “You +<i>have</i> really been to a distance?” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve been to England.” Chad spoke cheerfully and promptly, +but gave no further account of it than to say: “One must sometimes get +off.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether wanted no more facts—he only wanted to justify, as it were, his +question. “Of course you do as you’re free to do. But I hope, this +time, that you didn’t go for <i>me</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +“For very shame at bothering you really too much? My dear man,” +Chad laughed, “what <i>wouldn’t</i> I do for you?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether’s easy answer for this was that it was a disposition he had +exactly come to profit by. “Even at the risk of being in your way +I’ve waited on, you know, for a definite reason.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad took it in. “Oh yes—for us to make if possible a still better +impression.” And he stood there happily exhaling his full general +consciousness. “I’m delighted to gather that you feel we’ve +made it.” +</p> + +<p> +There was a pleasant irony in the words, which his guest, preoccupied and +keeping to the point, didn’t take up. “If I had my sense of wanting +the rest of the time—the time of their being still on this side,” +he continued to explain—“I know now why I wanted it.” +</p> + +<p> +He was as grave, as distinct, as a demonstrator before a blackboard, and Chad +continued to face him like an intelligent pupil. “You wanted to have been +put through the whole thing.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether again, for a moment, said nothing; he turned his eyes away, and they +lost themselves, through the open window, in the dusky outer air. “I +shall learn from the Bank here where they’re now having their letters, +and my last word, which I shall write in the morning and which they’re +expecting as my ultimatum, will so immediately reach them.” The light of +his plural pronoun was sufficiently reflected in his companion’s face as +he again met it; and he completed his demonstration. He pursued indeed as if +for himself. “Of course I’ve first to justify what I shall +do.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’re justifying it beautifully!” Chad declared. +</p> + +<p> +“It’s not a question of advising you not to go,” Strether +said, “but of absolutely preventing you, if possible, from so much as +thinking of it. Let me accordingly appeal to you by all you hold sacred.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad showed a surprise. “What makes you think me capable—?” +</p> + +<p> +“You’d not only be, as I say, a brute; you’d be,” his +companion went on in the same way, “a criminal of the deepest dye.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad gave a sharper look, as if to gauge a possible suspicion. “I +don’t know what should make you think I’m tired of her.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether didn’t quite know either, and such impressions, for the +imaginative mind, were always too fine, too floating, to produce on the spot +their warrant. There was none the less for him, in the very manner of his +host’s allusion to satiety as a thinkable motive, a slight breath of the +ominous. “I feel how much more she can do for you. She hasn’t done +it all yet. Stay with her at least till she has.” +</p> + +<p> +“And leave her <i>then?</i>” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had kept smiling, but its effect in Strether was a shade of dryness. +“Don’t leave her <i>before</i>. When you’ve got all that can +be got—I don’t say,” he added a trifle grimly. “That +will be the proper time. But as, for you, from such a woman, there will always +be something to be got, my remark’s not a wrong to her.” Chad let +him go on, showing every decent deference, showing perhaps also a candid +curiosity for this sharper accent. “I remember you, you know, as you +were.” +</p> + +<p> +“An awful ass, wasn’t I?” +</p> + +<p> +The response was as prompt as if he had pressed a spring; it had a ready +abundance at which he even winced; so that he took a moment to meet it. +“You certainly then wouldn’t have seemed worth all you’ve let +me in for. You’ve defined yourself better. Your value has +quintupled.” +</p> + +<p> +“Well then, wouldn’t that be enough—?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had risked it jocosely, but Strether remained blank. “Enough?” +</p> + +<p> +“If one <i>should</i> wish to live on one’s accumulations?” +After which, however, as his friend appeared cold to the joke, the young man as +easily dropped it. “Of course I really never forget, night or day, what I +owe her. I owe her everything. I give you my word of honour,” he frankly +rang out, “that I’m not a bit tired of her.” Strether at this +only gave him a stare: the way youth could express itself was again and again a +wonder. He meant no harm, though he might after all be capable of much; yet he +spoke of being “tired” of her almost as he might have spoken of +being tired of roast mutton for dinner. “She has never for a moment yet +bored me—never been wanting, as the cleverest women sometimes are, in +tact. She has never talked about her tact—as even they too sometimes +talk; but she has always had it. She has never had it more”—he +handsomely made the point—“than just lately.” And he +scrupulously went further. “She has never been anything I could call a +burden.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether for a moment said nothing; then he spoke gravely, with his shade of +dryness deepened. “Oh if you didn’t do her justice—!” +</p> + +<p> +“I <i>should</i> be a beast, eh?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether devoted no time to saying what he would be; <i>that</i>, visibly, +would take them far. If there was nothing for it but to repeat, however, +repetition was no mistake. “You owe her everything—very much more +than she can ever owe you. You’ve in other words duties to her, of the +most positive sort; and I don’t see what other duties—as the others +are presented to you—can be held to go before them.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad looked at him with a smile. “And you know of course about the +others, eh?—since it’s you yourself who have done the +presenting.” +</p> + +<p> +“Much of it—yes—and to the best of my ability. But not +all—from the moment your sister took my place.” +</p> + +<p> +“She didn’t,” Chad returned. “Sally took a place, +certainly; but it was never, I saw from the first moment, to be yours. No +one—with us—will ever take yours. It wouldn’t be +possible.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah of course,” sighed Strether, “I knew it. I believe +you’re right. No one in the world, I imagine, was ever so portentously +solemn. There I am,” he added with another sigh, as if weary enough, on +occasion, of this truth. “I was made so.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad appeared for a little to consider the way he was made; he might for this +purpose have measured him up and down. His conclusion favoured the fact. +“<i>You</i> have never needed any one to make you better. There has never +been any one good enough. They couldn’t,” the young man declared. +</p> + +<p> +His friend hesitated. “I beg your pardon. They <i>have</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad showed, not without amusement, his doubt. “Who then?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether—though a little dimly—smiled at him. +“Women—too.” +</p> + +<p> +“‘Two’?”—Chad stared and laughed. “Oh I +don’t believe, for such work, in any more than one! So you’re +proving too much. And what <i>is</i> beastly, at all events,” he added, +“is losing you.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had set himself in motion for departure, but at this he paused. +“Are you afraid?” +</p> + +<p> +“Afraid—?” +</p> + +<p> +“Of doing wrong. I mean away from my eye.” Before Chad could speak, +however, he had taken himself up. “I <i>am</i>, certainly,” he +laughed, “prodigious.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, you spoil us for all the stupid—!” This might have +been, on Chad’s part, in its extreme emphasis, almost too freely +extravagant; but it was full, plainly enough, of the intention of comfort, it +carried with it a protest against doubt and a promise, positively, of +performance. Picking up a hat in the vestibule he came out with his friend, +came downstairs, took his arm, affectionately, as to help and guide him, +treating him if not exactly as aged and infirm, yet as a noble eccentric who +appealed to tenderness, and keeping on with him, while they walked, to the next +corner and the next. “You needn’t tell me, you needn’t tell +me!”—this again as they proceeded, he wished to make Strether feel. +What he needn’t tell him was now at last, in the geniality of separation, +anything at all it concerned him to know. He knew, up to the hilt—that +really came over Chad; he understood, felt, recorded his vow; and they lingered +on it as they had lingered in their walk to Strether’s hotel the night of +their first meeting. The latter took, at this hour, all he could get; he had +given all he had had to give; he was as depleted as if he had spent his last +sou. But there was just one thing for which, before they broke off, Chad seemed +disposed slightly to bargain. His companion needn’t, as he said, tell +him, but he might himself mention that he had been getting some news of the art +of advertisement. He came out quite suddenly with this announcement while +Strether wondered if his revived interest were what had taken him, with strange +inconsequence, over to London. He appeared at all events to have been looking +into the question and had encountered a revelation. Advertising scientifically +worked presented itself thus as the great new force. “It really does the +thing, you know.” +</p> + +<p> +They were face to face under the street-lamp as they had been the first night, +and Strether, no doubt, looked blank. “Affects, you mean, the sale of the +object advertised?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes—but affects it extraordinarily; really beyond what one had +supposed. I mean of course when it’s done as one makes out that in our +roaring age, it <i>can</i> be done. I’ve been finding out a little, +though it doubtless doesn’t amount to much more than what you originally, +so awfully vividly—and all, very nearly, that first night—put +before me. It’s an art like another, and infinite like all the +arts.” He went on as if for the joke of it—almost as if his +friend’s face amused him. “In the hands, naturally, of a master. +The right man must take hold. With the right man to work it <i>c’est un +monde</i>.” +</p> + +<p> +Strether had watched him quite as if, there on the pavement without a pretext, +he had begun to dance a fancy step. “Is what you’re thinking of +that you yourself, in the case you have in mind, would be the right man?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad had thrown back his light coat and thrust each of his thumbs into an +armhole of his waistcoat; in which position his fingers played up and down. +“Why, what is he but what you yourself, as I say, took me for when you +first came out?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether felt a little faint, but he coerced his attention. “Oh yes, and +there’s no doubt that, with your natural parts, you’d have much in +common with him. Advertising is clearly at this time of day the secret of +trade. It’s quite possible it will be open to you—giving the whole +of your mind to it—to make the whole place hum with you. Your +mother’s appeal is to the whole of your mind, and that’s exactly +the strength of her case.” +</p> + +<p> +Chad’s fingers continued to twiddle, but he had something of a drop. +“Ah we’ve been through my mother’s case!” +</p> + +<p> +“So I thought. Why then do you speak of the matter?” +</p> + +<p> +“Only because it was part of our original discussion. To wind up where we +began, my interest’s purely platonic. There at any rate the fact +is—the fact of the possible. I mean the money in it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh damn the money in it!” said Strether. And then as the young +man’s fixed smile seemed to shine out more strange: “Shall you give +your friend up for the money in it?” +</p> + +<p> +Chad preserved his handsome grimace as well as the rest of his attitude. +“You’re not altogether—in your so great +‘solemnity’—kind. Haven’t I been drinking you +in—showing you all I feel you’re worth to me? What have I done, +what am I doing, but cleave to her to the death? The only thing is,” he +good-humouredly explained, “that one can’t but have it before one, +in the cleaving—the point where the death comes in. Don’t be afraid +for <i>that</i>. It’s pleasant to a fellow’s feelings,” he +developed, “to ‘size-up’ the bribe he applies his foot +to.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh then if all you want’s a kickable surface the bribe’s +enormous.” +</p> + +<p> +“Good. Then there it goes!” Chad administered his kick with +fantastic force and sent an imaginary object flying. It was accordingly as if +they were once more rid of the question and could come back to what really +concerned him. “Of course I shall see you tomorrow.” +</p> + +<p> +But Strether scarce heeded the plan proposed for this; he had still the +impression—not the slighter for the simulated kick—of an irrelevant +hornpipe or jig. “You’re restless.” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah,” returned Chad as they parted, “you’re +exciting.” +</p> + +<h3>V</h3> + +<p> +He had, however, within two days, another separation to face. He had sent Maria +Gostrey a word early, by hand, to ask if he might come to breakfast; in +consequence of which, at noon, she awaited him in the cool shade of her little +Dutch-looking dining-room. This retreat was at the back of the house, with a +view of a scrap of old garden that had been saved from modern ravage; and +though he had on more than one other occasion had his legs under its small and +peculiarly polished table of hospitality, the place had never before struck him +as so sacred to pleasant knowledge, to intimate charm, to antique order, to a +neatness that was almost august. To sit there was, as he had told his hostess +before, to see life reflected for the time in ideally kept pewter; which was +somehow becoming, improving to life, so that one’s eyes were held and +comforted. Strether’s were comforted at all events now—and the more +that it was the last time—with the charming effect, on the board bare of +a cloth and proud of its perfect surface, of the small old crockery and old +silver, matched by the more substantial pieces happily disposed about the room. +The specimens of vivid Delf, in particular had the dignity of family portraits; +and it was in the midst of them that our friend resignedly expressed himself. +He spoke even with a certain philosophic humour. “There’s nothing +more to wait for; I seem to have done a good day’s work. I’ve let +them have it all round. I’ve seen Chad, who has been to London and come +back. He tells me I’m ‘exciting,’ and I seem indeed pretty +well to have upset every one. I’ve at any rate excited <i>him</i>. +He’s distinctly restless.” +</p> + +<p> +“You’ve excited <i>me</i>,” Miss Gostrey smiled. +“<i>I’m</i> distinctly restless.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh you were that when I found you. It seems to me I’ve rather got +you out of it. What’s this,” he asked as he looked about him, +“but a haunt of ancient peace?” +</p> + +<p> +“I wish with all my heart,” she presently replied, “I could +make you treat it as a haven of rest.” On which they fronted each other, +across the table, as if things unuttered were in the air. +</p> + +<p> +Strether seemed, in his way, when he next spoke, to take some of them up. +“It wouldn’t give me—that would be the trouble—what it +will, no doubt, still give you. I’m not,” he explained, leaning +back in his chair, but with his eyes on a small ripe round +melon—“in real harmony with what surrounds me. You <i>are</i>. I +take it too hard. You <i>don’t</i>. It makes—that’s what it +comes to in the end—a fool of me.” Then at a tangent, “What +has he been doing in London?” he demanded. +</p> + +<p> +“Ah one may go to London,” Maria laughed. “You know <i>I</i> +did.” +</p> + +<p> +Yes—he took the reminder. “And you brought <i>me</i> back.” +He brooded there opposite to her, but without gloom. “Whom has Chad +brought? He’s full of ideas. And I wrote to Sarah,” he added, +“the first thing this morning. So I’m square. I’m ready for +them.” +</p> + +<p> +She neglected certain parts of this speech in the interest of others. +“Marie said to me the other day that she felt him to have the makings of +an immense man of business.” +</p> + +<p> +“There it is. He’s the son of his father!” +</p> + +<p> +“But <i>such</i> a father!” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah just the right one from that point of view! But it isn’t his +father in him,” Strether added, “that troubles me.” +</p> + +<p> +“What is it then?” He came back to his breakfast; he partook +presently of the charming melon, which she liberally cut for him; and it was +only after this that he met her question. Then moreover it was but to remark +that he’d answer her presently. She waited, she watched, she served him +and amused him, and it was perhaps with this last idea that she soon reminded +him of his having never even yet named to her the article produced at Woollett. +“Do you remember our talking of it in London—that night at the +play?” Before he could say yes, however, she had put it to him for other +matters. Did he remember, did he remember—this and that of their first +days? He remembered everything, bringing up with humour even things of which +she professed no recollection, things she vehemently denied; and falling back +above all on the great interest of their early time, the curiosity felt by both +of them as to where he would “come out.” They had so assumed it was +to be in some wonderful place—they had thought of it as so very +<i>much</i> out. Well, that was doubtless what it had been—since he had +come out just there. He was out, in truth, as far as it was possible to be, and +must now rather bethink himself of getting in again. He found on the spot the +image of his recent history; he was like one of the figures of the old clock at +Berne. <i>They</i> came out, on one side, at their hour, jigged along their +little course in the public eye, and went in on the other side. He too had +jigged his little course—him too a modest retreat awaited. He offered +now, should she really like to know, to name the great product of Woollett. It +would be a great commentary on everything. At this she stopped him off; she not +only had no wish to know, but she wouldn’t know for the world. She had +done with the products of Woollett—for all the good she had got from +them. She desired no further news of them, and she mentioned that Madame de +Vionnet herself had, to her knowledge, lived exempt from the information he was +ready to supply. She had never consented to receive it, though she would have +taken it, under stress, from Mrs. Pocock. But it was a matter about which Mrs. +Pocock appeared to have had little to say—never sounding the +word—and it didn’t signify now. There was nothing clearly for Maria +Gostrey that signified now—save one sharp point, that is, to which she +came in time. “I don’t know whether it’s before you as a +possibility that, left to himself, Mr. Chad may after all go back. I judge that +it <i>is</i> more or less so before you, from what you just now said of +him.” +</p> + +<p> +Her guest had his eyes on her, kindly but attentively, as if foreseeing what +was to follow this. “I don’t think it will be for the money.” +And then as she seemed uncertain: “I mean I don’t believe it will +be for that he’ll give her up.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then he <i>will</i> give her up?” +</p> + +<p> +Strether waited a moment, rather slow and deliberate now, drawing out a little +this last soft stage, pleading with her in various suggestive and unspoken ways +for patience and understanding. “What were you just about to ask +me?” +</p> + +<p> +“Is there anything he can do that would make you patch it up?” +</p> + +<p> +“With Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +Her assent, as if she had had a delicacy about sounding the name, was only in +her face; but she added with it: “Or is there anything he can do that +would make <i>her</i> try it?” +</p> + +<p> +“To patch it up with me?” His answer came at last in a conclusive +headshake. “There’s nothing any one can do. It’s over. Over +for both of us.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria wondered, seemed a little to doubt. “Are you so sure for +her?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—sure now. Too much has happened. I’m different for +her.” +</p> + +<p> +She took it in then, drawing a deeper breath. “I see. So that as +she’s different for <i>you</i>—” +</p> + +<p> +“Ah but,” he interrupted, “she’s not.” And as +Miss Gostrey wondered again: “She’s the same. She’s more than +ever the same. But I do what I didn’t before—I <i>see</i> +her.” +</p> + +<p> +He spoke gravely and as if responsibly—since he had to pronounce; and the +effect of it was slightly solemn, so that she simply exclaimed +“Oh!” Satisfied and grateful, however, she showed in her own next +words an acceptance of his statement. “What then do you go home +to?” +</p> + +<p> +He had pushed his plate a little away, occupied with another side of the +matter; taking refuge verily in that side and feeling so moved that he soon +found himself on his feet. He was affected in advance by what he believed might +come from her, and he would have liked to forestall it and deal with it +tenderly; yet in the presence of it he wished still more to be—though as +smoothly as possible—deterrent and conclusive. He put her question by for +the moment; he told her more about Chad. “It would have been impossible +to meet me more than he did last night on the question of the infamy of not +sticking to her.” +</p> + +<p> +“Is that what you called it for him—‘infamy’?” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh rather! I described to him in detail the base creature he’d be, +and he quite agrees with me about it.” +</p> + +<p> +“So that it’s really as if you had nailed him?” +</p> + +<p> +“Quite really as if—! I told him I should curse him.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh,” she smiled, “you <i>have</i> done it.” And then +having thought again: “You <i>can’t</i> after that +propose—!” Yet she scanned his face. +</p> + +<p> +“Propose again to Mrs. Newsome?” +</p> + +<p> +She hesitated afresh, but she brought it out. “I’ve never believed, +you know, that you did propose. I always believed it was really she—and, +so far as that goes, I can understand it. What I mean is,” she explained, +“that with such a spirit—the spirit of curses!—your breach is +past mending. She has only to know what you’ve done to him never again to +raise a finger.” +</p> + +<p> +“I’ve done,” said Strether, “what I could—one +can’t do more. He protests his devotion and his horror. But I’m not +sure I’ve saved him. He protests too much. He asks how one can dream of +his being tired. But he has all life before him.” +</p> + +<p> +Maria saw what he meant. “He’s formed to please.” +</p> + +<p> +“And it’s our friend who has formed him.” Strether felt in it +the strange irony. +</p> + +<p> +“So it’s scarcely his fault!” +</p> + +<p> +“It’s at any rate his danger. I mean,” said Strether, +“it’s hers. But she knows it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes, she knows it. And is your idea,” Miss Gostrey asked, +“that there was some other woman in London?” +</p> + +<p> +“Yes. No. That is I <i>have</i> no ideas. I’m afraid of them. +I’ve done with them.” And he put out his hand to her. +“Good-bye.” +</p> + +<p> +It brought her back to her unanswered question. “To what do you go +home?” +</p> + +<p> +“I don’t know. There will always be something.” +</p> + +<p> +“To a great difference,” she said as she kept his hand. +</p> + +<p> +“A great difference—no doubt. Yet I shall see what I can make of +it.” +</p> + +<p> +“Shall you make anything so good—?” But, as if remembering +what Mrs. Newsome had done, it was as far as she went. +</p> + +<p> +He had sufficiently understood. “So good as this place at this moment? So +good as what <i>you</i> make of everything you touch?” He took a moment +to say, for, really and truly, what stood about him there in her +offer—which was as the offer of exquisite service, of lightened care, for +the rest of his days—might well have tempted. It built him softly round, +it roofed him warmly over, it rested, all so firm, on selection. And what ruled +selection was beauty and knowledge. It was awkward, it was almost stupid, not +to seem to prize such things; yet, none the less, so far as they made his +opportunity they made it only for a moment. She’d moreover +understand—she always understood. +</p> + +<p> +That indeed might be, but meanwhile she was going on. “There’s +nothing, you know, I wouldn’t do for you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh yes—I know.” +</p> + +<p> +“There’s nothing,” she repeated, “in all the +world.” +</p> + +<p> +“I know. I know. But all the same I must go.” He had got it at +last. “To be right.” +</p> + +<p> +“To be right?” +</p> + +<p> +She had echoed it in vague deprecation, but he felt it already clear for her. +“That, you see, is my only logic. Not, out of the whole affair, to have +got anything for myself.” +</p> + +<p> +She thought. “But with your wonderful impressions you’ll have got a +great deal.” +</p> + +<p> +“A great deal”—he agreed. “But nothing like <i>you</i>. +It’s you who would make me wrong!” +</p> + +<p> +Honest and fine, she couldn’t greatly pretend she didn’t see it. +Still she could pretend just a little. “But why should you be so +dreadfully right?” +</p> + +<p> +“That’s the way that—if I must go—you yourself would be +the first to want me. And I can’t do anything else.” +</p> + +<p> +So then she had to take it, though still with her defeated protest. “It +isn’t so much your <i>being</i> ‘right’—it’s your +horrible sharp eye for what makes you so.” +</p> + +<p> +“Oh but you’re just as bad yourself. You can’t resist me when +I point that out.” +</p> + +<p> +She sighed it at last all comically, all tragically, away. “I can’t +indeed resist you.” +</p> + +<p> +“Then there we are!” said Strether. +</p> + +</div><!--end chapter--> + +<div style='display:block; margin-top:4em'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE AMBASSADORS ***</div> +<div style='text-align:left'> + +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +Updated editions will replace the previous one—the old editions will +be renamed. +</div> + +<div style='display:block; margin:1em 0'> +Creating the works from print editions not protected by U.S. copyright +law means that no one owns a United States copyright in these works, +so the Foundation (and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United +States without permission and without paying copyright +royalties. 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The situation +involved is gathered up betimes, that is in the second chapter of Book +Fifth, for the reader's benefit, into as few words as possible--planted +or "sunk," stiffly and saliently, in the centre of the current, almost +perhaps to the obstruction of traffic. Never can a composition of this +sort have sprung straighter from a dropped grain of suggestion, and +never can that grain, developed, overgrown and smothered, have yet +lurked more in the mass as an independent particle. The whole case, in +fine, is in Lambert Strether's irrepressible outbreak to little Bilham +on the Sunday afternoon in Gloriani's garden, the candour with which he +yields, for his young friend's enlightenment, to the charming +admonition of that crisis. The idea of the tale resides indeed in the +very fact that an hour of such unprecedented ease should have been felt +by him AS a crisis, and he is at pains to express it for us as neatly +as we could desire. The remarks to which he thus gives utterance +contain the essence of "The Ambassadors," his fingers close, before he +has done, round the stem of the full-blown flower; which, after that +fashion, he continues officiously to present to us. "Live all you can; +it's a mistake not to. It doesn't so much matter what you do in +particular so long as you have your life. If you haven't had that what +HAVE you had? I'm too old--too old at any rate for what I see. What +one loses one loses; make no mistake about that. Still, we have the +illusion of freedom; therefore don't, like me to-day, be without the +memory of that illusion. I was either, at the right time, too stupid or +too intelligent to have it, and now I'm a case of reaction against the +mistake. Do what you like so long as you don't make it. For it WAS a +mistake. Live, live!" Such is the gist of Strether's appeal to the +impressed youth, whom he likes and whom he desires to befriend; the +word "mistake" occurs several times, it will be seen, in the course of +his remarks--which gives the measure of the signal warning he feels +attached to his case. He has accordingly missed too much, though +perhaps after all constitutionally qualified for a better part, and he +wakes up to it in conditions that press the spring of a terrible +question. WOULD there yet perhaps be time for reparation?--reparation, +that is, for the injury done his character; for the affront, he is +quite ready to say, so stupidly put upon it and in which he has even +himself had so clumsy a hand? The answer to which is that he now at +all events SEES; so that the business of my tale and the march of my +action, not to say the precious moral of everything, is just my +demonstration of this process of vision. + +Nothing can exceed the closeness with which the whole fits again into +its germ. That had been given me bodily, as usual, by the spoken word, +for I was to take the image over exactly as I happened to have met it. +A friend had repeated to me, with great appreciation, a thing or two +said to him by a man of distinction, much his senior, and to which a +sense akin to that of Strether's melancholy eloquence might be +imputed--said as chance would have, and so easily might, in Paris, and +in a charming old garden attached to a house of art, and on a Sunday +afternoon of summer, many persons of great interest being present. The +observation there listened to and gathered up had contained part of the +"note" that I was to recognise on the spot as to my purpose--had +contained in fact the greater part; the rest was in the place and the +time and the scene they sketched: these constituents clustered and +combined to give me further support, to give me what I may call the +note absolute. There it stands, accordingly, full in the tideway; +driven in, with hard taps, like some strong stake for the noose of a +cable, the swirl of the current roundabout it. What amplified the hint +to more than the bulk of hints in general was the gift with it of the +old Paris garden, for in that token were sealed up values infinitely +precious. There was of course the seal to break and each item of the +packet to count over and handle and estimate; but somehow, in the light +of the hint, all the elements of a situation of the sort most to my +taste were there. I could even remember no occasion on which, so +confronted, I had found it of a livelier interest to take stock, in +this fashion, of suggested wealth. For I think, verily, that there are +degrees of merit in subjects--in spite of the fact that to treat even +one of the most ambiguous with due decency we must for the time, for +the feverish and prejudiced hour, at least figure its merit and its +dignity as POSSIBLY absolute. What it comes to, doubtless, is that +even among the supremely good--since with such alone is it one's theory +of one's honour to be concerned--there is an ideal BEAUTY of goodness +the invoked action of which is to raise the artistic faith to its +maximum. Then truly, I hold, one's theme may be said to shine, and +that of "The Ambassadors," I confess, wore this glow for me from +beginning to end. Fortunately thus I am able to estimate this as, +frankly, quite the best, "all round," of all my productions; any +failure of that justification would have made such an extreme of +complacency publicly fatuous. + +I recall then in this connexion no moment of subjective intermittence, +never one of those alarms as for a suspected hollow beneath one's feet, +a felt ingratitude in the scheme adopted, under which confidence fails +and opportunity seems but to mock. If the motive of "The Wings of the +Dove," as I have noted, was to worry me at moments by a sealing-up of +its face--though without prejudice to its again, of a sudden, fairly +grimacing with expression--so in this other business I had absolute +conviction and constant clearness to deal with; it had been a frank +proposition, the whole bunch of data, installed on my premises like a +monotony of fine weather. (The order of composition, in these things, +I may mention, was reversed by the order of publication; the earlier +written of the two books having appeared as the later.) Even under the +weight of my hero's years I could feel my postulate firm; even under +the strain of the difference between those of Madame de Vionnet and +those of Chad Newsome, a difference liable to be denounced as shocking, +I could still feel it serene. Nothing resisted, nothing betrayed, I +seem to make out, in this full and sound sense of the matter; it shed +from any side I could turn it to the same golden glow. I rejoiced in +the promise of a hero so mature, who would give me thereby the more to +bite into--since it's only into thickened motive and accumulated +character, I think, that the painter of life bites more than a little. +My poor friend should have accumulated character, certainly; or rather +would be quite naturally and handsomely possessed of it, in the sense +that he would have, and would always have felt he had, imagination +galore, and that this yet wouldn't have wrecked him. It was +immeasurable, the opportunity to "do" a man of imagination, for if +THERE mightn't be a chance to "bite," where in the world might it be? +This personage of course, so enriched, wouldn't give me, for his type, +imagination in PREDOMINANCE or as his prime faculty, nor should I, in +view of other matters, have found that convenient. So particular a +luxury--some occasion, that is, for study of the high gift in SUPREME +command of a case or of a career--would still doubtless come on the day +I should be ready to pay for it; and till then might, as from far back, +remain hung up well in view and just out of reach. The comparative case +meanwhile would serve--it was only on the minor scale that I had +treated myself even to comparative cases. + +I was to hasten to add however that, happy stopgaps as the minor scale +had thus yielded, the instance in hand should enjoy the advantage of +the full range of the major; since most immediately to the point was +the question of that SUPPLEMENT of situation logically involved in our +gentleman's impulse to deliver himself in the Paris garden on the +Sunday afternoon--or if not involved by strict logic then all ideally +and enchantingly implied in it. (I say "ideally," because I need +scarce mention that for development, for expression of its maximum, my +glimmering story was, at the earliest stage, to have nipped the thread +of connexion with the possibilities of the actual reported speaker. HE +remains but the happiest of accidents; his actualities, all too +definite, precluded any range of possibilities; it had only been his +charming office to project upon that wide field of the artist's +vision--which hangs there ever in place like the white sheet suspended +for the figures of a child's magic-lantern--a more fantastic and more +moveable shadow.) No privilege of the teller of tales and the handler +of puppets is more delightful, or has more of the suspense and the +thrill of a game of difficulty breathlessly played, than just this +business of looking for the unseen and the occult, in a scheme +half-grasped, by the light or, so to speak, by the clinging scent, of +the gage already in hand. No dreadful old pursuit of the hidden slave +with bloodhounds and the rag of association can ever, for "excitement," +I judge, have bettered it at its best. For the dramatist always, by +the very law of his genius, believes not only in a possible right issue +from the rightly-conceived tight place; he does much more than this--he +believes, irresistibly, in the necessary, the precious "tightness" of +the place (whatever the issue) on the strength of any respectable hint. +It being thus the respectable hint that I had with such avidity picked +up, what would be the story to which it would most inevitably form the +centre? It is part of the charm attendant on such questions that the +"story," with the omens true, as I say, puts on from this stage the +authenticity of concrete existence. It then is, essentially--it begins +to be, though it may more or less obscurely lurk, so that the point is +not in the least what to make of it, but only, very delightfully and +very damnably, where to put one's hand on it. + +In which truth resides surely much of the interest of that admirable +mixture for salutary application which we know as art. Art deals with +what we see, it must first contribute full-handed that ingredient; it +plucks its material, otherwise expressed, in the garden of life--which +material elsewhere grown is stale and uneatable. But it has no sooner +done this than it has to take account of a PROCESS--from which only +when it's the basest of the servants of man, incurring ignominious +dismissal with no "character," does it, and whether under some muddled +pretext of morality or on any other, pusillanimously edge away. The +process, that of the expression, the literal squeezing-out, of value is +another affair--with which the happy luck of mere finding has little to +do. The joys of finding, at this stage, are pretty well over; that +quest of the subject as a whole by "matching," as the ladies say at the +shops, the big piece with the snippet, having ended, we assume, with a +capture. The subject is found, and if the problem is then transferred +to the ground of what to do with it the field opens out for any amount +of doing. This is precisely the infusion that, as I submit, completes +the strong mixture. It is on the other hand the part of the business +that can least be likened to the chase with horn and hound. It's all a +sedentary part--involves as much ciphering, of sorts, as would merit +the highest salary paid to a chief accountant. Not, however, that the +chief accountant hasn't HIS gleams of bliss; for the felicity, or at +least the equilibrium of the artist's state dwells less, surely, in the +further delightful complications he can smuggle in than in those he +succeeds in keeping out. He sows his seed at the risk of too thick a +crop; wherefore yet again, like the gentlemen who audit ledgers, he +must keep his head at any price. In consequence of all which, for the +interest of the matter, I might seem here to have my choice of +narrating my "hunt" for Lambert Strether, of describing the capture of +the shadow projected by my friend's anecdote, or of reporting on the +occurrences subsequent to that triumph. But I had probably best +attempt a little to glance in each direction; since it comes to me +again and again, over this licentious record, that one's bag of +adventures, conceived or conceivable, has been only half-emptied by the +mere telling of one's story. It depends so on what one means by that +equivocal quantity. There is the story of one's hero, and then, thanks +to the intimate connexion of things, the story of one's story itself. I +blush to confess it, but if one's a dramatist one's a dramatist, and +the latter imbroglio is liable on occasion to strike me as really the +more objective of the two. + +The philosophy imputed to him in that beautiful outbreak, the hour +there, amid such happy provision, striking for him, would have been +then, on behalf of my man of imagination, to be logically and, as the +artless craft of comedy has it, "led up" to; the probable course to +such a goal, the goal of so conscious a predicament, would have in +short to be finely calculated. Where has he come from and why has he +come, what is he doing (as we Anglo-Saxons, and we only, say, in our +foredoomed clutch of exotic aids to expression) in that galere? To +answer these questions plausibly, to answer them as under +cross-examination in the witness-box by counsel for the prosecution, in +other words satisfactorily to account for Strether and for his +"peculiar tone," was to possess myself of the entire fabric. At the +same time the clue to its whereabouts would lie in a certain principle +of probability: he wouldn't have indulged in his peculiar tone without +a reason; it would take a felt predicament or a false position to give +him so ironic an accent. One hadn't been noting "tones" all one's life +without recognising when one heard it the voice of the false position. +The dear man in the Paris garden was then admirably and unmistakeably +IN one--which was no small point gained; what next accordingly +concerned us was the determination of THIS identity. One could only go +by probabilities, but there was the advantage that the most general of +the probabilities were virtual certainties. Possessed of our friend's +nationality, to start with, there was a general probability in his +narrower localism; which, for that matter, one had really but to keep +under the lens for an hour to see it give up its secrets. He would +have issued, our rueful worthy, from the very heart of New England--at +the heels of which matter of course a perfect train of secrets tumbled +for me into the light. They had to be sifted and sorted, and I shall +not reproduce the detail of that process; but unmistakeably they were +all there, and it was but a question, auspiciously, of picking among +them. What the "position" would infallibly be, and why, on his hands, +it had turned "false"--these inductive steps could only be as rapid as +they were distinct. I accounted for everything--and "everything" had +by this time become the most promising quantity--by the view that he +had come to Paris in some state of mind which was literally undergoing, +as a result of new and unexpected assaults and infusions, a change +almost from hour to hour. He had come with a view that might have been +figured by a clear green liquid, say, in a neat glass phial; and the +liquid, once poured into the open cup of APPLICATION, once exposed to +the action of another air, had begun to turn from green to red, or +whatever, and might, for all he knew, be on its way to purple, to +black, to yellow. At the still wilder extremes represented perhaps, +for all he could say to the contrary, by a variability so violent, he +would at first, naturally, but have gazed in surprise and alarm; +whereby the SITUATION clearly would spring from the play of wildness +and the development of extremes. I saw in a moment that, should this +development proceed both with force and logic, my "story" would leave +nothing to be desired. There is always, of course, for the +story-teller, the irresistible determinant and the incalculable +advantage of his interest in the story AS SUCH; it is ever, obviously, +overwhelmingly, the prime and precious thing (as other than this I have +never been able to see it); as to which what makes for it, with +whatever headlong energy, may be said to pale before the energy with +which it simply makes for itself. It rejoices, none the less, at its +best, to seem to offer itself in a light, to seem to know, and with the +very last knowledge, what it's about--liable as it yet is at moments to +be caught by us with its tongue in its cheek and absolutely no warrant +but its splendid impudence. Let us grant then that the impudence is +always there--there, so to speak, for grace and effect and ALLURE; +there, above all, because the Story is just the spoiled child of art, +and because, as we are always disappointed when the pampered don't +"play up," we like it, to that extent, to look all its character. It +probably does so, in truth, even when we most flatter ourselves that we +negotiate with it by treaty. + +All of which, again, is but to say that the STEPS, for my fable, placed +themselves with a prompt and, as it were, functional assurance--an air +quite as of readiness to have dispensed with logic had I been in fact +too stupid for my clue. Never, positively, none the less, as the links +multiplied, had I felt less stupid than for the determination of poor +Strether's errand and for the apprehension of his issue. These things +continued to fall together, as by the neat action of their own weight +and form, even while their commentator scratched his head about them; +he easily sees now that they were always well in advance of him. As +the case completed itself he had in fact, from a good way behind, to +catch up with them, breathless and a little flurried, as he best could. +THE false position, for our belated man of the world--belated because +he had endeavoured so long to escape being one, and now at last had +really to face his doom--the false position for him, I say, was +obviously to have presented himself at the gate of that boundless +menagerie primed with a moral scheme of the most approved pattern which +was yet framed to break down on any approach to vivid facts; that is to +any at all liberal appreciation of them. There would have been of +course the case of the Strether prepared, wherever presenting himself, +only to judge and to feel meanly; but HE would have moved for me, I +confess, enveloped in no legend whatever. The actual man's note, from +the first of our seeing it struck, is the note of discrimination, just +as his drama is to become, under stress, the drama of discrimination. +It would have been his blest imagination, we have seen, that had +already helped him to discriminate; the element that was for so much of +the pleasure of my cutting thick, as I have intimated, into his +intellectual, into his moral substance. Yet here it was, at the same +time, just here, that a shade for a moment fell across the scene. + +There was the dreadful little old tradition, one of the platitudes of +the human comedy, that people's moral scheme DOES break down in Paris; +that nothing is more frequently observed; that hundreds of thousands of +more or less hypocritical or more or less cynical persons annually +visit the place for the sake of the probable catastrophe, and that I +came late in the day to work myself up about it. There was in fine the +TRIVIAL association, one of the vulgarest in the world; but which give +me pause no longer, I think, simply because its vulgarity is so +advertised. The revolution performed by Strether under the influence +of the most interesting of great cities was to have nothing to do with +any betise of the imputably "tempted" state; he was to be thrown +forward, rather, thrown quite with violence, upon his lifelong trick of +intense reflexion: which friendly test indeed was to bring him out, +through winding passages, through alternations of darkness and light, +very much IN Paris, but with the surrounding scene itself a minor +matter, a mere symbol for more things than had been dreamt of in the +philosophy of Woollett. Another surrounding scene would have done as +well for our show could it have represented a place in which Strether's +errand was likely to lie and his crisis to await him. The LIKELY place +had the great merit of sparing me preparations; there would have been +too many involved--not at all impossibilities, only rather worrying and +delaying difficulties--in positing elsewhere Chad Newsome's interesting +relation, his so interesting complexity of relations. Strether's +appointed stage, in fine, could be but Chad's most luckily selected +one. The young man had gone in, as they say, for circumjacent charm; +and where he would have found it, by the turn of his mind, most +"authentic," was where his earnest friend's analysis would most find +HIM; as well as where, for that matter, the former's whole analytic +faculty would be led such a wonderful dance. + +"The Ambassadors" had been, all conveniently, "arranged for"; its first +appearance was from month to month, in the _North American Review_ +during 1903, and I had been open from far back to any pleasant +provocation for ingenuity that might reside in one's actively +adopting--so as to make it, in its way, a small compositional +law--recurrent breaks and resumptions. I had made up my mind here +regularly to exploit and enjoy these often rather rude jolts--having +found, as I believed an admirable way to it; yet every question of form +and pressure, I easily remember, paled in the light of the major +propriety, recognised as soon as really weighed; that of employing but +one centre and keeping it all within my hero's compass. The thing was +to be so much this worthy's intimate adventure that even the projection +of his consciousness upon it from beginning to end without intermission +or deviation would probably still leave a part of its value for him, +and a fortiori for ourselves, unexpressed. I might, however, express +every grain of it that there would be room for--on condition of +contriving a splendid particular economy. Other persons in no small +number were to people the scene, and each with his or her axe to grind, +his or her situation to treat, his or her coherency not to fail of, his +or her relation to my leading motive, in a word, to establish and carry +on. But Strether's sense of these things, and Strether's only, should +avail me for showing them; I should know them but through his more or +less groping knowledge of them, since his very gropings would figure +among his most interesting motions, and a full observance of the rich +rigour I speak of would give me more of the effect I should be most +"after" than all other possible observances together. It would give me +a large unity, and that in turn would crown me with the grace to which +the enlightened story-teller will at any time, for his interest, +sacrifice if need be all other graces whatever. I refer of course to +the grace of intensity, which there are ways of signally achieving and +ways of signally missing--as we see it, all round us, helplessly and +woefully missed. Not that it isn't, on the other hand, a virtue +eminently subject to appreciation--there being no strict, no absolute +measure of it; so that one may hear it acclaimed where it has quite +escaped one's perception, and see it unnoticed where one has gratefully +hailed it. After all of which I am not sure, either, that the immense +amusement of the whole cluster of difficulties so arrayed may not +operate, for the fond fabulist, when judicious not less than fond, as +his best of determinants. That charming principle is always there, at +all events, to keep interest fresh: it is a principle, we remember, +essentially ravenous, without scruple and without mercy, appeased with +no cheap nor easy nourishment. It enjoys the costly sacrifice and +rejoices thereby in the very odour of difficulty--even as ogres, with +their "Fee-faw-fum!" rejoice in the smell of the blood of Englishmen. + +Thus it was, at all events, that the ultimate, though after all so +speedy, definition of my gentleman's job--his coming out, all solemnly +appointed and deputed, to "save" Chad, and his then finding the young +man so disobligingly and, at first, so bewilderingly not lost that a +new issue altogether, in the connexion, prodigiously faces them, which +has to be dealt with in a new light--promised as many calls on +ingenuity and on the higher branches of the compositional art as one +could possibly desire. Again and yet again, as, from book to book, I +proceed with my survey, I find no source of interest equal to this +verification after the fact, as I may call it, and the more in detail +the better, of the scheme of consistency "gone in" for. As +always--since the charm never fails--the retracing of the process from +point to point brings back the old illusion. The old intentions bloom +again and flower--in spite of all the blossoms they were to have +dropped by the way. This is the charm, as I say, of adventure +TRANSPOSED--the thrilling ups and downs, the intricate ins and outs of +the compositional problem, made after such a fashion admirably +objective, becoming the question at issue and keeping the author's +heart in his mouth. Such an element, for instance, as his intention +that Mrs. Newsome, away off with her finger on the pulse of +Massachusetts, should yet be no less intensely than circuitously +present through the whole thing, should be no less felt as to be +reckoned with than the most direct exhibition, the finest portrayal at +first hand could make her, such a sign of artistic good faith, I say, +once it's unmistakeably there, takes on again an actuality not too much +impaired by the comparative dimness of the particular success. +Cherished intention too inevitably acts and operates, in the book, +about fifty times as little as I had fondly dreamt it might; but that +scarce spoils for me the pleasure of recognising the fifty ways in +which I had sought to provide for it. The mere charm of seeing such an +idea constituent, in its degree; the fineness of the measures taken--a +real extension, if successful, of the very terms and possibilities of +representation and figuration--such things alone were, after this +fashion, inspiring, such things alone were a gage of the probable +success of that dissimulated calculation with which the whole effort +was to square. But oh the cares begotten, none the less, of that same +"judicious" sacrifice to a particular form of interest! One's work +should have composition, because composition alone is positive beauty; +but all the while--apart from one's inevitable consciousness too of the +dire paucity of readers ever recognising or ever missing positive +beauty--how, as to the cheap and easy, at every turn, how, as to +immediacy and facility, and even as to the commoner vivacity, positive +beauty might have to be sweated for and paid for! Once achieved and +installed it may always be trusted to make the poor seeker feel he +would have blushed to the roots of his hair for failing of it; yet, +how, as its virtue can be essentially but the virtue of the whole, the +wayside traps set in the interest of muddlement and pleading but the +cause of the moment, of the particular bit in itself, have to be kicked +out of the path! All the sophistications in life, for example, might +have appeared to muster on behalf of the menace--the menace to a bright +variety--involved in Strether's having all the subjective "say," as it +were, to himself. + +Had I, meanwhile, made him at once hero and historian, endowed him with +the romantic privilege of the "first person"--the darkest abyss of +romance this, inveterately, when enjoyed on the grand scale--variety, +and many other queer matters as well, might have been smuggled in by a +back door. Suffice it, to be brief, that the first person, in the long +piece, is a form foredoomed to looseness and that looseness, never much +my affair, had never been so little so as on this particular occasion. +All of which reflexions flocked to the standard from the moment--a very +early one--the question of how to keep my form amusing while sticking +so close to my central figure and constantly taking its pattern from +him had to be faced. He arrives (arrives at Chester) as for the +dreadful purpose of giving his creator "no end" to tell about +him--before which rigorous mission the serenest of creators might well +have quailed. I was far from the serenest; I was more than agitated +enough to reflect that, grimly deprived of one alternative or one +substitute for "telling," I must address myself tooth and nail to +another. I couldn't, save by implication, make other persons tell EACH +OTHER about him--blest resource, blest necessity, of the drama, which +reaches its effects of unity, all remarkably, by paths absolutely +opposite to the paths of the novel: with other persons, save as they +were primarily HIS persons (not he primarily but one of theirs), I had +simply nothing to do. I had relations for him none the less, by the +mercy of Providence, quite as much as if my exhibition was to be a +muddle; if I could only by implication and a show of consequence make +other persons tell each other about him, I could at least make him tell +THEM whatever in the world he must; and could so, by the same +token--which was a further luxury thrown in--see straight into the deep +differences between what that could do for me, or at all events for +HIM, and the large ease of "autobiography." It may be asked why, if +one so keeps to one's hero, one shouldn't make a single mouthful of +"method," shouldn't throw the reins on his neck and, letting them flap +there as free as in "Gil Blas" or in "David Copperfield," equip him +with the double privilege of subject and object--a course that has at +least the merit of brushing away questions at a sweep. The answer to +which is, I think, that one makes that surrender only if one is +prepared NOT to make certain precious discriminations. + +The "first person" then, so employed, is addressed by the author +directly to ourselves, his possible readers, whom he has to reckon +with, at the best, by our English tradition, so loosely and vaguely +after all, so little respectfully, on so scant a presumption of +exposure to criticism. Strether, on the other hand, encaged and +provided for as "The Ambassadors" encages and provides, has to keep in +view proprieties much stiffer and more salutary than any our straight +and credulous gape are likely to bring home to him, has exhibitional +conditions to meet, in a word, that forbid the terrible FLUIDITY of +self-revelation. I may seem not to better the case for my +discrimination if I say that, for my first care, I had thus inevitably +to set him up a confidant or two, to wave away with energy the custom +of the seated mass of explanation after the fact, the inserted block of +merely referential narrative, which flourishes so, to the shame of the +modern impatience, on the serried page of Balzac, but which seems +simply to appal our actual, our general weaker, digestion. "Harking +back to make up" took at any rate more doing, as the phrase is, not +only than the reader of to-day demands, but than he will tolerate at +any price any call upon him either to understand or remotely to +measure; and for the beauty of the thing when done the current +editorial mind in particular appears wholly without sense. It is not, +however, primarily for either of these reasons, whatever their weight, +that Strether's friend Waymarsh is so keenly clutched at, on the +threshold of the book, or that no less a pounce is made on Maria +Gostrey--without even the pretext, either, of HER being, in essence, +Strether's friend. She is the reader's friend much rather--in +consequence of dispositions that make him so eminently require one; and +she acts in that capacity, and REALLY in that capacity alone, with +exemplary devotion from beginning to and of the book. She is an +enrolled, a direct, aid to lucidity; she is in fine, to tear off her +mask, the most unmitigated and abandoned of ficelles. Half the +dramatist's art, as we well know--since if we don't it's not the fault +of the proofs that lie scattered about us--is in the use of ficelles; +by which I mean in a deep dissimulation of his dependence on them. +Waymarsh only to a slighter degree belongs, in the whole business, less +to my subject than to my treatment of it; the interesting proof, in +these connexions, being that one has but to take one's subject for the +stuff of drama to interweave with enthusiasm as many Gostreys as need +be. + +The material of "The Ambassadors," conforming in this respect exactly +to that of "The Wings of the Dove," published just before it, is taken +absolutely for the stuff of drama; so that, availing myself of the +opportunity given me by this edition for some prefatory remarks on the +latter work, I had mainly to make on its behalf the point of its scenic +consistency. It disguises that virtue, in the oddest way in the world, +by just LOOKING, as we turn its pages, as little scenic as possible; +but it sharply divides itself, just as the composition before us does, +into the parts that prepare, that tend in fact to over-prepare, for +scenes, and the parts, or otherwise into the scenes, that justify and +crown the preparation. It may definitely be said, I think, that +everything in it that is not scene (not, I of course mean, complete and +functional scene, treating ALL the submitted matter, as by logical +start, logical turn, and logical finish) is discriminated preparation, +is the fusion and synthesis of picture. These alternations propose +themselves all recogniseably, I think, from an early stage, as the very +form and figure of "The Ambassadors"; so that, to repeat, such an agent +as Miss Gostrey pre-engaged at a high salary, but waits in the draughty +wing with her shawl and her smelling-salts. Her function speaks at +once for itself, and by the time she has dined with Strether in London +and gone to a play with him her intervention as a ficelle is, I hold, +expertly justified. Thanks to it we have treated scenically, and +scenically alone, the whole lumpish question of Strether's "past," +which has seen us more happily on the way than anything else could have +done; we have strained to a high lucidity and vivacity (or at least we +hope we have) certain indispensable facts; we have seen our two or +three immediate friends all conveniently and profitably in "action"; to +say nothing of our beginning to descry others, of a remoter intensity, +getting into motion, even if a bit vaguely as yet, for our further +enrichment. Let my first point be here that the scene in question, +that in which the whole situation at Woollett and the complex forces +that have propelled my hero to where this lively extractor of his value +and distiller of his essence awaits him, is normal and entire, is +really an excellent STANDARD scene; copious, comprehensive, and +accordingly never short, but with its office as definite as that of the +hammer on the gong of the clock, the office of expressing ALL THAT IS +IN the hour. + +The "ficelle" character of the subordinate party is as artfully +dissimulated, throughout, as may be, and to that extent that, with the +seams or joints of Maria Gostrey's ostensible connectedness taken +particular care of, duly smoothed over, that is, and anxiously kept +from showing as "pieced on;" this figure doubtless achieves, after a +fashion, something of the dignity of a prime idea: which circumstance +but shows us afresh how many quite incalculable but none the less clear +sources of enjoyment for the infatuated artist, how many copious +springs of our never-to-be-slighted "fun" for the reader and critic +susceptible of contagion, may sound their incidental plash as soon as +an artistic process begins to enjoy free development. Exquisite--in +illustration of this--the mere interest and amusement of such at once +"creative" and critical questions as how and where and why to make Miss +Gostrey's false connexion carry itself, under a due high polish, as a +real one. Nowhere is it more of an artful expedient for mere +consistency of form, to mention a case, than in the last "scene" of the +book, where its function is to give or to add nothing whatever, but +only to express as vividly as possible certain things quite other than +itself and that are of the already fixed and appointed measure. Since, +however, all art is EXPRESSION, and is thereby vividness, one was to +find the door open here to any amount of delightful dissimulation. +These verily are the refinements and ecstasies of method--amid which, +or certainly under the influence of any exhilarated demonstration of +which, one must keep one's head and not lose one's way. To cultivate +an adequate intelligence for them and to make that sense operative is +positively to find a charm in any produced ambiguity of appearance that +is not by the same stroke, and all helplessly, an ambiguity of sense. +To project imaginatively, for my hero, a relation that has nothing to +do with the matter (the matter of my subject) but has everything to do +with the manner (the manner of my presentation of the same) and yet to +treat it, at close quarters and for fully economic expression's +possible sake, as if it were important and essential--to do that sort +of thing and yet muddle nothing may easily become, as one goes, a +signally attaching proposition; even though it all remains but part and +parcel, I hasten to recognise, of the merely general and related +question of expressional curiosity and expressional decency. + +I am moved to add after so much insistence on the scenic side of my +labour that I have found the steps of re-perusal almost as much waylaid +here by quite another style of effort in the same signal interest--or +have in other words not failed to note how, even so associated and so +discriminated, the finest proprieties and charms of the non-scenic may, +under the right hand for them, still keep their intelligibility and +assert their office. Infinitely suggestive such an observation as this +last on the whole delightful head, where representation is concerned, +of possible variety, of effective expressional change and contrast. One +would like, at such an hour as this, for critical licence, to go into +the matter of the noted inevitable deviation (from too fond an original +vision) that the exquisite treachery even of the straightest execution +may ever be trusted to inflict even on the most mature plan--the case +being that, though one's last reconsidered production always seems to +bristle with that particular evidence, "The Ambassadors" would place a +flood of such light at my service. I must attach to my final remark +here a different import; noting in the other connexion I just glanced +at that such passages as that of my hero's first encounter with Chad +Newsome, absolute attestations of the non-scenic form though they be, +yet lay the firmest hand too--so far at least as intention goes--on +representational effect. To report at all closely and completely of +what "passes" on a given occasion is inevitably to become more or less +scenic; and yet in the instance I allude to, WITH the conveyance, +expressional curiosity and expressional decency are sought and arrived +at under quite another law. The true inwardness of this may be at +bottom but that one of the suffered treacheries has consisted +precisely, for Chad's whole figure and presence, of a direct +presentability diminished and compromised--despoiled, that is, of its +PROPORTIONAL advantage; so that, in a word, the whole economy of his +author's relation to him has at important points to be redetermined. +The book, however, critically viewed, is touchingly full of these +disguised and repaired losses, these insidious recoveries, these +intensely redemptive consistencies. The pages in which Mamie Pocock +gives her appointed and, I can't but think, duly felt lift to the whole +action by the so inscrutably-applied side-stroke or short-cut of our +just watching and as quite at an angle of vision as yet untried, her +single hour of suspense in the hotel salon, in our partaking of her +concentrated study of the sense of matters bearing on her own case, all +the bright warm Paris afternoon, from the balcony that overlooks the +Tuileries garden--these are as marked an example of the +representational virtue that insists here and there on being, for the +charm of opposition and renewal, other than the scenic. It wouldn't +take much to make me further argue that from an equal play of such +oppositions the book gathers an intensity that fairly adds to the +dramatic--though the latter is supposed to be the sum of all +intensities; or that has at any rate nothing to fear from juxtaposition +with it. I consciously fail to shrink in fact from that +extravagance--I risk it rather, for the sake of the moral involved; +which is not that the particular production before us exhausts the +interesting questions it raises, but that the Novel remains still, +under the right persuasion, the most independent, most elastic, most +prodigious of literary forms. + + +HENRY JAMES. + + + + + +Book First + + + +I + +Strether's first question, when he reached the hotel, was about his +friend; yet on his learning that Waymarsh was apparently not to arrive +till evening he was not wholly disconcerted. A telegram from him +bespeaking a room "only if not noisy," reply paid, was produced for the +enquirer at the office, so that the understanding they should meet at +Chester rather than at Liverpool remained to that extent sound. The +same secret principle, however, that had prompted Strether not +absolutely to desire Waymarsh's presence at the dock, that had led him +thus to postpone for a few hours his enjoyment of it, now operated to +make him feel he could still wait without disappointment. They would +dine together at the worst, and, with all respect to dear old +Waymarsh--if not even, for that matter, to himself--there was little +fear that in the sequel they shouldn't see enough of each other. The +principle I have just mentioned as operating had been, with the most +newly disembarked of the two men, wholly instinctive--the fruit of a +sharp sense that, delightful as it would be to find himself looking, +after so much separation, into his comrade's face, his business would +be a trifle bungled should he simply arrange for this countenance to +present itself to the nearing steamer as the first "note," of Europe. +Mixed with everything was the apprehension, already, on Strether's +part, that it would, at best, throughout, prove the note of Europe in +quite a sufficient degree. + +That note had been meanwhile--since the previous afternoon, thanks to +this happier device--such a consciousness of personal freedom as he +hadn't known for years; such a deep taste of change and of having above +all for the moment nobody and nothing to consider, as promised already, +if headlong hope were not too foolish, to colour his adventure with +cool success. There were people on the ship with whom he had easily +consorted--so far as ease could up to now be imputed to him--and who +for the most part plunged straight into the current that set from the +landing-stage to London; there were others who had invited him to a +tryst at the inn and had even invoked his aid for a "look round" at the +beauties of Liverpool; but he had stolen away from every one alike, had +kept no appointment and renewed no acquaintance, had been indifferently +aware of the number of persons who esteemed themselves fortunate in +being, unlike himself, "met," and had even independently, unsociably, +alone, without encounter or relapse and by mere quiet evasion, given +his afternoon and evening to the immediate and the sensible. They +formed a qualified draught of Europe, an afternoon and an evening on +the banks of the Mersey, but such as it was he took his potion at least +undiluted. He winced a little, truly, at the thought that Waymarsh +might be already at Chester; he reflected that, should he have to +describe himself there as having "got in" so early, it would be +difficult to make the interval look particularly eager; but he was like +a man who, elatedly finding in his pocket more money than usual, +handles it a while and idly and pleasantly chinks it before addressing +himself to the business of spending. That he was prepared to be vague +to Waymarsh about the hour of the ship's touching, and that he both +wanted extremely to see him and enjoyed extremely the duration of +delay--these things, it is to be conceived, were early signs in him +that his relation to his actual errand might prove none of the +simplest. He was burdened, poor Strether--it had better be confessed +at the outset--with the oddity of a double consciousness. There was +detachment in his zeal and curiosity in his indifference. + +After the young woman in the glass cage had held up to him across her +counter the pale-pink leaflet bearing his friend's name, which she +neatly pronounced, he turned away to find himself, in the hall, facing +a lady who met his eyes as with an intention suddenly determined, and +whose features--not freshly young, not markedly fine, but on happy +terms with each other--came back to him as from a recent vision. For a +moment they stood confronted; then the moment placed her: he had +noticed her the day before, noticed her at his previous inn, +where--again in the hall--she had been briefly engaged with some people +of his own ship's company. Nothing had actually passed between them, +and he would as little have been able to say what had been the sign of +her face for him on the first occasion as to name the ground of his +present recognition. Recognition at any rate appeared to prevail on her +own side as well--which would only have added to the mystery. All she +now began by saying to him nevertheless was that, having chanced to +catch his enquiry, she was moved to ask, by his leave, if it were +possibly a question of Mr. Waymarsh of Milrose Connecticut--Mr. +Waymarsh the American lawyer. + +"Oh yes," he replied, "my very well-known friend. He's to meet me +here, coming up from Malvern, and I supposed he'd already have arrived. +But he doesn't come till later, and I'm relieved not to have kept him. +Do you know him?" Strether wound up. + +It wasn't till after he had spoken that he became aware of how much +there had been in him of response; when the tone of her own rejoinder, +as well as the play of something more in her face--something more, that +is, than its apparently usual restless light--seemed to notify him. +"I've met him at Milrose--where I used sometimes, a good while ago, to +stay; I had friends there who were friends of his, and I've been at his +house. I won't answer for it that he would know me," Strether's new +acquaintance pursued; "but I should be delighted to see him. Perhaps," +she added, "I shall--for I'm staying over." She paused while our +friend took in these things, and it was as if a good deal of talk had +already passed. They even vaguely smiled at it, and Strether presently +observed that Mr. Waymarsh would, no doubt, be easily to be seen. This, +however, appeared to affect the lady as if she might have advanced too +far. She appeared to have no reserves about anything. "Oh," she said, +"he won't care!"--and she immediately thereupon remarked that she +believed Strether knew the Munsters; the Munsters being the people he +had seen her with at Liverpool. + +But he didn't, it happened, know the Munsters well enough to give the +case much of a lift; so that they were left together as if over the +mere laid table of conversation. Her qualification of the mentioned +connexion had rather removed than placed a dish, and there seemed +nothing else to serve. Their attitude remained, none the less, that of +not forsaking the board; and the effect of this in turn was to give +them the appearance of having accepted each other with an absence of +preliminaries practically complete. They moved along the hall +together, and Strether's companion threw off that the hotel had the +advantage of a garden. He was aware by this time of his strange +inconsequence: he had shirked the intimacies of the steamer and had +muffled the shock of Waymarsh only to find himself forsaken, in this +sudden case, both of avoidance and of caution. He passed, under this +unsought protection and before he had so much as gone up to his room, +into the garden of the hotel, and at the end of ten minutes had agreed +to meet there again, as soon as he should have made himself tidy, the +dispenser of such good assurances. He wanted to look at the town, and +they would forthwith look together. It was almost as if she had been +in possession and received him as a guest. Her acquaintance with the +place presented her in a manner as a hostess, and Strether had a rueful +glance for the lady in the glass cage. It was as if this personage had +seen herself instantly superseded. + +When in a quarter of an hour he came down, what his hostess saw, what +she might have taken in with a vision kindly adjusted, was the lean, +the slightly loose figure of a man of the middle height and something +more perhaps than the middle age--a man of five-and-fifty, whose most +immediate signs were a marked bloodless brownness of face, a thick dark +moustache, of characteristically American cut, growing strong and +falling low, a head of hair still abundant but irregularly streaked +with grey, and a nose of bold free prominence, the even line, the high +finish, as it might have been called, of which, had a certain effect of +mitigation. A perpetual pair of glasses astride of this fine ridge, +and a line, unusually deep and drawn, the prolonged pen-stroke of time, +accompanying the curve of the moustache from nostril to chin, did +something to complete the facial furniture that an attentive observer +would have seen catalogued, on the spot, in the vision of the other +party to Strether's appointment. She waited for him in the garden, the +other party, drawing on a pair of singularly fresh soft and elastic +light gloves and presenting herself with a superficial readiness which, +as he approached her over the small smooth lawn and in the watery +English sunshine, he might, with his rougher preparation, have marked +as the model for such an occasion. She had, this lady, a perfect plain +propriety, an expensive subdued suitability, that her companion was not +free to analyse, but that struck him, so that his consciousness of it +was instantly acute, as a quality quite new to him. Before reaching +her he stopped on the grass and went through the form of feeling for +something, possibly forgotten, in the light overcoat he carried on his +arm; yet the essence of the act was no more than the impulse to gain +time. Nothing could have been odder than Strether's sense of himself +as at that moment launched in something of which the sense would be +quite disconnected from the sense of his past and which was literally +beginning there and then. It had begun in fact already upstairs and +before the dressing glass that struck him as blocking further, so +strangely, the dimness of the window of his dull bedroom; begun with a +sharper survey of the elements of Appearance than he had for a long +time been moved to make. He had during those moments felt these +elements to be not so much to his hand as he should have liked, and +then had fallen back on the thought that they were precisely a matter +as to which help was supposed to come from what he was about to do. He +was about to go up to London, so that hat and necktie might wait. What +had come as straight to him as a ball in a well-played game--and caught +moreover not less neatly--was just the air, in the person of his +friend, of having seen and chosen, the air of achieved possession of +those vague qualities and quantities that collectively figured to him +as the advantage snatched from lucky chances. Without pomp or +circumstance, certainly, as her original address to him, equally with +his own response, had been, he would have sketched to himself his +impression of her as: "Well, she's more thoroughly civilized--!" If +"More thoroughly than WHOM?" would not have been for him a sequel to +this remark, that was just by reason of his deep consciousness of the +bearing of his comparison. + +The amusement, at all events, of a civilisation intenser was +what--familiar compatriot as she was, with the full tone of the +compatriot and the rattling link not with mystery but only with dear +dyspeptic Waymarsh--she appeared distinctly to promise. His pause +while he felt in his overcoat was positively the pause of confidence, +and it enabled his eyes to make out as much of a case for her, in +proportion, as her own made out for himself. She affected him as +almost insolently young; but an easily carried five-and-thirty could +still do that. She was, however, like himself marked and wan; only it +naturally couldn't have been known to him how much a spectator looking +from one to the other might have discerned that they had in common. It +wouldn't for such a spectator have been altogether insupposable that, +each so finely brown and so sharply spare, each confessing so to dents +of surface and aids to sight, to a disproportionate nose and a head +delicately or grossly grizzled, they might have been brother and +sister. On this ground indeed there would have been a residuum of +difference; such a sister having surely known in respect to such a +brother the extremity of separation, and such a brother now feeling in +respect to such a sister the extremity of surprise. Surprise, it was +true, was not on the other hand what the eyes of Strether's friend most +showed him while she gave him, stroking her gloves smoother, the time +he appreciated. They had taken hold of him straightway measuring him +up and down as if they knew how; as if he were human material they had +already in some sort handled. Their possessor was in truth, it may be +communicated, the mistress of a hundred cases or categories, +receptacles of the mind, subdivisions for convenience, in which, from a +full experience, she pigeon-holed her fellow mortals with a hand as +free as that of a compositor scattering type. She was as equipped in +this particular as Strether was the reverse, and it made an opposition +between them which he might well have shrunk from submitting to if he +had fully suspected it. So far as he did suspect it he was on the +contrary, after a short shake of his consciousness, as pleasantly +passive as might be. He really had a sort of sense of what she knew. +He had quite the sense that she knew things he didn't, and though this +was a concession that in general he found not easy to make to women, he +made it now as good-humouredly as if it lifted a burden. His eyes were +so quiet behind his eternal nippers that they might almost have been +absent without changing his face, which took its expression mainly, and +not least its stamp of sensibility, from other sources, surface and +grain and form. He joined his guide in an instant, and then felt she +had profited still better than he by his having been for the moments +just mentioned, so at the disposal of her intelligence. She knew even +intimate things about him that he hadn't yet told her and perhaps never +would. He wasn't unaware that he had told her rather remarkably many +for the time, but these were not the real ones. Some of the real ones, +however, precisely, were what she knew. + +They were to pass again through the hall of the inn to get into the +street, and it was here she presently checked him with a question. +"Have you looked up my name?" + +He could only stop with a laugh. "Have you looked up mine?" + +"Oh dear, yes--as soon as you left me. I went to the office and asked. +Hadn't YOU better do the same?" + +He wondered. "Find out who you are?--after the uplifted young woman +there has seen us thus scrape acquaintance!" + +She laughed on her side now at the shade of alarm in his amusement. +"Isn't it a reason the more? If what you're afraid of is the injury +for me--my being seen to walk off with a gentleman who has to ask who I +am--I assure you I don't in the least mind. Here, however," she +continued, "is my card, and as I find there's something else again I +have to say at the office, you can just study it during the moment I +leave you." + +She left him after he had taken from her the small pasteboard she had +extracted from her pocket-book, and he had extracted another from his +own, to exchange with it, before she came back. He read thus the +simple designation "Maria Gostrey," to which was attached, in a corner +of the card, with a number, the name of a street, presumably in Paris, +without other appreciable identity than its foreignness. He put the +card into his waistcoat pocket, keeping his own meanwhile in evidence; +and as he leaned against the door-post he met with the smile of a +straying thought what the expanse before the hotel offered to his view. +It was positively droll to him that he should already have Maria +Gostrey, whoever she was--of which he hadn't really the least idea--in +a place of safe keeping. He had somehow an assurance that he should +carefully preserve the little token he had just tucked in. He gazed +with unseeing lingering eyes as he followed some of the implications of +his act, asking himself if he really felt admonished to qualify it as +disloyal. It was prompt, it was possibly even premature, and there was +little doubt of the expression of face the sight of it would have +produced in a certain person. But if it was "wrong"--why then he had +better not have come out at all. At this, poor man, had he +already--and even before meeting Waymarsh--arrived. He had believed he +had a limit, but the limit had been transcended within thirty-six +hours. By how long a space on the plane of manners or even of morals, +moreover, he felt still more sharply after Maria Gostrey had come back +to him and with a gay decisive "So now--!" led him forth into the +world. This counted, it struck him as he walked beside her with his +overcoat on an arm, his umbrella under another and his personal +pasteboard a little stiffly retained between forefinger and thumb, this +struck him as really, in comparison his introduction to things. It +hadn't been "Europe" at Liverpool no--not even in the dreadful +delightful impressive streets the night before--to the extent his +present companion made it so. She hadn't yet done that so much as +when, after their walk had lasted a few minutes and he had had time to +wonder if a couple of sidelong glances from her meant that he had best +have put on gloves she almost pulled him up with an amused challenge. +"But why--fondly as it's so easy to imagine your clinging to it--don't +you put it away? Or if it's an inconvenience to you to carry it, one's +often glad to have one's card back. The fortune one spends in them!" + +Then he saw both that his way of marching with his own prepared tribute +had affected her as a deviation in one of those directions he couldn't +yet measure, and that she supposed this emblem to be still the one he +had received from her. He accordingly handed her the card as if in +restitution, but as soon as she had it she felt the difference and, +with her eyes on it, stopped short for apology. "I like," she observed, +"your name." + +"Oh," he answered, "you won't have heard of it!" Yet he had his reasons +for not being sure but that she perhaps might. + +Ah it was but too visible! She read it over again as one who had never +seen it. "'Mr. Lewis Lambert Strether'"--she sounded it almost as +freely as for any stranger. She repeated however that she liked +it--"particularly the Lewis Lambert. It's the name of a novel of +Balzac's." + +"Oh I know that!" said Strether. + +"But the novel's an awfully bad one." + +"I know that too," Strether smiled. To which he added with an +irrelevance that was only superficial: "I come from Woollett +Massachusetts." It made her for some reason--the irrelevance or +whatever--laugh. Balzac had described many cities, but hadn't +described Woollett Massachusetts. "You say that," she returned, "as if +you wanted one immediately to know the worst." + +"Oh I think it's a thing," he said, "that you must already have made +out. I feel it so that I certainly must look it, speak it, and, as +people say there, 'act' it. It sticks out of me, and you knew surely +for yourself as soon as you looked at me." + +"The worst, you mean?" + +"Well, the fact of where I come from. There at any rate it IS; so that +you won't be able, if anything happens, to say I've not been straight +with you." + +"I see"--and Miss Gostrey looked really interested in the point he had +made. "But what do you think of as happening?" + +Though he wasn't shy--which was rather anomalous--Strether gazed about +without meeting her eyes; a motion that was frequent with him in talk, +yet of which his words often seemed not at all the effect. "Why that +you should find me too hopeless." With which they walked on again +together while she answered, as they went, that the most "hopeless" of +her countryfolk were in general precisely those she liked best. All +sorts of other pleasant small things-small things that were yet large +for him--flowered in the air of the occasion, but the bearing of the +occasion itself on matters still remote concerns us too closely to +permit us to multiply our illustrations. Two or three, however, in +truth, we should perhaps regret to lose. The tortuous wall--girdle, +long since snapped, of the little swollen city, half held in place by +careful civic hands--wanders in narrow file between parapets smoothed +by peaceful generations, pausing here and there for a dismantled gate +or a bridged gap, with rises and drops, steps up and steps down, queer +twists, queer contacts, peeps into homely streets and under the brows +of gables, views of cathedral tower and waterside fields, of huddled +English town and ordered English country. Too deep almost for words +was the delight of these things to Strether; yet as deeply mixed with +it were certain images of his inward picture. He had trod this walks +in the far-off time, at twenty-five; but that, instead of spoiling it, +only enriched it for present feeling and marked his renewal as a thing +substantial enough to share. It was with Waymarsh he should have +shared it, and he was now accordingly taking from him something that +was his due. He looked repeatedly at his watch, and when he had done +so for the fifth time Miss Gostrey took him up. + +"You're doing something that you think not right." + +It so touched the place that he quite changed colour and his laugh grew +almost awkward. "Am I enjoying it as much as THAT?" + +"You're not enjoying it, I think, so much as you ought." + +"I see"--he appeared thoughtfully to agree. "Great is my privilege." + +"Oh it's not your privilege! It has nothing to do with me. It has to +do with yourself. Your failure's general." + +"Ah there you are!" he laughed. "It's the failure of Woollett. THAT'S +general." + +"The failure to enjoy," Miss Gostrey explained, "is what I mean." + +"Precisely. Woollett isn't sure it ought to enjoy. If it were it +would. But it hasn't, poor thing," Strether continued, "any one to +show it how. It's not like me. I have somebody." + +They had stopped, in the afternoon sunshine--constantly pausing, in +their stroll, for the sharper sense of what they saw--and Strether +rested on one of the high sides of the old stony groove of the little +rampart. He leaned back on this support with his face to the tower of +the cathedral, now admirably commanded by their station, the high +red-brown mass, square and subordinately spired and crocketed, +retouched and restored, but charming to his long-sealed eyes and with +the first swallows of the year weaving their flight all round it. Miss +Gostrey lingered near him, full of an air, to which she more and more +justified her right, of understanding the effect of things. She quite +concurred. "You've indeed somebody." And she added: "I wish you WOULD +let me show you how!" + +"Oh I'm afraid of you!" he cheerfully pleaded. + +She kept on him a moment, through her glasses and through his own, a +certain pleasant pointedness. "Ah no, you're not! You're not in the +least, thank goodness! If you had been we shouldn't so soon have found +ourselves here together. I think," she comfortably concluded, "you +trust me." + +"I think I do!--but that's exactly what I'm afraid of. I shouldn't +mind if I didn't. It's falling thus in twenty minutes so utterly into +your hands. I dare say," Strether continued, "it's a sort of thing +you're thoroughly familiar with; but nothing more extraordinary has +ever happened to me." + +She watched him with all her kindness. "That means simply that you've +recognised me--which IS rather beautiful and rare. You see what I am." +As on this, however, he protested, with a good-humoured headshake, a +resignation of any such claim, she had a moment of explanation. "If +you'll only come on further as you HAVE come you'll at any rate make +out. My own fate has been too many for me, and I've succumbed to it. +I'm a general guide--to 'Europe,' don't you know? I wait for people--I +put them through. I pick them up--I set them down. I'm a sort of +superior 'courier-maid.' I'm a companion at large. I take people, as +I've told you, about. I never sought it--it has come to me. It has +been my fate, and one's fate one accepts. It's a dreadful thing to +have to say, in so wicked a world, but I verily believe that, such as +you see me, there's nothing I don't know. I know all the shops and the +prices--but I know worse things still. I bear on my back the huge load +of our national consciousness, or, in other words--for it comes to +that--of our nation itself. Of what is our nation composed but of the +men and women individually on my shoulders? I don't do it, you know, +for any particular advantage. I don't do it, for instance--some people +do, you know--for money." + +Strether could only listen and wonder and weigh his chance. "And yet, +affected as you are then to so many of your clients, you can scarcely +be said to do it for love." He waited a moment. "How do we reward +you?" + +She had her own hesitation, but "You don't!" she finally returned, +setting him again in motion. They went on, but in a few minutes, +though while still thinking over what she had said, he once more took +out his watch; mechanically, unconsciously and as if made nervous by +the mere exhilaration of what struck him as her strange and cynical +wit. He looked at the hour without seeing it, and then, on something +again said by his companion, had another pause. "You're really in +terror of him." + +He smiled a smile that he almost felt to be sickly. "Now you can see +why I'm afraid of you." + +"Because I've such illuminations? Why they're all for your help! It's +what I told you," she added, "just now. You feel as if this were +wrong." + +He fell back once more, settling himself against the parapet as if to +hear more about it. "Then get me out!" + +Her face fairly brightened for the joy of the appeal, but, as if it +were a question of immediate action, she visibly considered. "Out of +waiting for him?--of seeing him at all?" + +"Oh no--not that," said poor Strether, looking grave. "I've got to +wait for him--and I want very much to see him. But out of the terror. +You did put your finger on it a few minutes ago. It's general, but it +avails itself of particular occasions. That's what it's doing for me +now. I'm always considering something else; something else, I mean, +than the thing of the moment. The obsession of the other thing is the +terror. I'm considering at present for instance something else than +YOU." + +She listened with charming earnestness. "Oh you oughtn't to do that!" + +"It's what I admit. Make it then impossible." + +She continued to think. "Is it really an 'order' from you?--that I +shall take the job? WILL you give yourself up?" + +Poor Strether heaved his sigh. "If I only could! But that's the deuce +of it--that I never can. No--I can't." + +She wasn't, however, discouraged. "But you want to at least?" + +"Oh unspeakably!" + +"Ah then, if you'll try!"--and she took over the job, as she had called +it, on the spot. "Trust me!" she exclaimed, and the action of this, as +they retraced their steps, was presently to make him pass his hand into +her arm in the manner of a benign dependent paternal old person who +wishes to be "nice" to a younger one. If he drew it out again indeed +as they approached the inn this may have been because, after more talk +had passed between them, the relation of age, or at least of +experience--which, for that matter, had already played to and fro with +some freedom--affected him as incurring a readjustment. It was at all +events perhaps lucky that they arrived in sufficiently separate fashion +within range of the hotel-door. The young lady they had left in the +glass cage watched as if she had come to await them on the threshold. +At her side stood a person equally interested, by his attitude, in +their return, and the effect of the sight of whom was instantly to +determine for Strether another of those responsive arrests that we have +had so repeatedly to note. He left it to Miss Gostrey to name, with +the fine full bravado as it almost struck him, of her "Mr. Waymarsh!" +what was to have been, what--he more than ever felt as his short stare +of suspended welcome took things in--would have been, but for herself, +his doom. It was already upon him even at that distance--Mr. Waymarsh +was for HIS part joyless. + + + +II + +He had none the less to confess to this friend that evening that he +knew almost nothing about her, and it was a deficiency that Waymarsh, +even with his memory refreshed by contact, by her own prompt and lucid +allusions and enquiries, by their having publicly partaken of dinner in +her company, and by another stroll, to which she was not a stranger, +out into the town to look at the cathedral by moonlight--it was a blank +that the resident of Milrose, though admitting acquaintance with the +Munsters, professed himself unable to fill. He had no recollection of +Miss Gostrey, and two or three questions that she put to him about +those members of his circle had, to Strether's observation, the same +effect he himself had already more directly felt--the effect of +appearing to place all knowledge, for the time, on this original +woman's side. It interested him indeed to mark the limits of any such +relation for her with his friend as there could possibly be a question +of, and it particularly struck him that they were to be marked +altogether in Waymarsh's quarter. This added to his own sense of +having gone far with her-gave him an early illustration of a much +shorter course. There was a certitude he immediately grasped--a +conviction that Waymarsh would quite fail, as it were, and on whatever +degree of acquaintances to profit by her. + +There had been after the first interchange among the three a talk of +some five minutes in the hall, and then the two men had adjourned to +the garden, Miss Gostrey for the time disappearing. Strether in due +course accompanied his friend to the room he had bespoken and had, +before going out, scrupulously visited; where at the end of another +half-hour he had no less discreetly left him. On leaving him he +repaired straight to his own room, but with the prompt effect of +feeling the compass of that chamber resented by his condition. There +he enjoyed at once the first consequence of their reunion. A place was +too small for him after it that had seemed large enough before. He had +awaited it with something he would have been sorry, have been almost +ashamed not to recognise as emotion, yet with a tacit assumption at the +same time that emotion would in the event find itself relieved. The +actual oddity was that he was only more excited; and his excitement-to +which indeed he would have found it difficult instantly to give a +name--brought him once more downstairs and caused him for some minutes +vaguely to wander. He went once more to the garden; he looked into the +public room, found Miss Gostrey writing letters and backed out; he +roamed, fidgeted and wasted time; but he was to have his more intimate +session with his friend before the evening closed. + +It was late--not till Strether had spent an hour upstairs with +him--that this subject consented to betake himself to doubtful rest. +Dinner and the subsequent stroll by moonlight--a dream, on Strether's +part, of romantic effects rather prosaically merged in a mere missing +of thicker coats--had measurably intervened, and this midnight +conference was the result of Waymarsh's having (when they were free, as +he put it, of their fashionable friend) found the smoking-room not +quite what he wanted, and yet bed what he wanted less. His most +frequent form of words was that he knew himself, and they were applied +on this occasion to his certainty of not sleeping. He knew himself +well enough to know that he should have a night of prowling unless he +should succeed, as a preliminary, in getting prodigiously tired. If +the effort directed to this end involved till a late hour the presence +of Strether--consisted, that is, in the detention of the latter for +full discourse--there was yet an impression of minor discipline +involved for our friend in the picture Waymarsh made as he sat in +trousers and shirt on the edge of his couch. With his long legs +extended and his large back much bent, he nursed alternately, for an +almost incredible time, his elbows and his beard. He struck his +visitor as extremely, as almost wilfully uncomfortable; yet what had +this been for Strether, from that first glimpse of him disconcerted in +the porch of the hotel, but the predominant notes. The discomfort was +in a manner contagious, as well as also in a manner inconsequent and +unfounded; the visitor felt that unless he should get used to it--or +unless Waymarsh himself should--it would constitute a menace for his +own prepared, his own already confirmed, consciousness of the +agreeable. On their first going up together to the room Strether had +selected for him Waymarsh had looked it over in silence and with a sigh +that represented for his companion, if not the habit of disapprobation, +at least the despair of felicity; and this look had recurred to +Strether as the key of much he had since observed. "Europe," he had +begun to gather from these things, had up to now rather failed of its +message to him; he hadn't got into tune with it and had at the end of +three months almost renounced any such expectation. + +He really appeared at present to insist on that by just perching there +with the gas in his eyes. This of itself somehow conveyed the futility +of single rectifications in a multiform failure. He had a large +handsome head and a large sallow seamed face--a striking significant +physiognomic total, the upper range of which, the great political brow, +the thick loose hair, the dark fuliginous eyes, recalled even to a +generation whose standard had dreadfully deviated the impressive image, +familiar by engravings and busts, of some great national worthy of the +earlier part of the mid-century. He was of the personal type--and it +was an element in the power and promise that in their early time +Strether had found in him--of the American statesman, the statesman +trained in "Congressional halls," of an elder day. The legend had been +in later years that as the lower part of his face, which was weak, and +slightly crooked, spoiled the likeness, this was the real reason for +the growth of his beard, which might have seemed to spoil it for those +not in the secret. He shook his mane; he fixed, with his admirable +eyes, his auditor or his observer; he wore no glasses and had a way, +partly formidable, yet also partly encouraging, as from a +representative to a constituent, of looking very hard at those who +approached him. He met you as if you had knocked and he had bidden you +enter. Strether, who hadn't seen him for so long an interval, +apprehended him now with a freshness of taste, and had perhaps never +done him such ideal justice. The head was bigger, the eyes finer, than +they need have been for the career; but that only meant, after all, +that the career was itself expressive. What it expressed at midnight +in the gas-glaring bedroom at Chester was that the subject of it had, +at the end of years, barely escaped, by flight in time, a general +nervous collapse. But this very proof of the full life, as the full +life was understood at Milrose, would have made to Strether's +imagination an element in which Waymarsh could have floated easily had +he only consented to float. Alas nothing so little resembled floating +as the rigour with which, on the edge of his bed, he hugged his posture +of prolonged impermanence. It suggested to his comrade something that +always, when kept up, worried him--a person established in a +railway-coach with a forward inclination. It represented the angle at +which poor Waymarsh was to sit through the ordeal of Europe. + +Thanks to the stress of occupation, the strain of professions, the +absorption and embarrassment of each, they had not, at home, during +years before this sudden brief and almost bewildering reign of +comparative ease, found so much as a day for a meeting; a fact that was +in some degree an explanation of the sharpness with which most of his +friend's features stood out to Strether. Those he had lost sight of +since the early time came back to him; others that it was never +possible to forget struck him now as sitting, clustered and expectant, +like a somewhat defiant family-group, on the doorstep of their +residence. The room was narrow for its length, and the occupant of the +bed thrust so far a pair of slippered feet that the visitor had almost +to step over them in his recurrent rebounds from his chair to fidget +back and forth. There were marks the friends made on things to talk +about, and on things not to, and one of the latter in particular fell +like the tap of chalk on the blackboard. Married at thirty, Waymarsh +had not lived with his wife for fifteen years, and it came up vividly +between them in the glare of the gas that Strether wasn't to ask about +her. He knew they were still separate and that she lived at hotels, +travelled in Europe, painted her face and wrote her husband abusive +letters, of not one of which, to a certainty, that sufferer spared +himself the perusal; but he respected without difficulty the cold +twilight that had settled on this side of his companion's life. It was +a province in which mystery reigned and as to which Waymarsh had never +spoken the informing word. Strether, who wanted to do him the highest +justice wherever he COULD do it, singularly admired him for the dignity +of this reserve, and even counted it as one of the grounds--grounds all +handled and numbered--for ranking him, in the range of their +acquaintance, as a success. He WAS a success, Waymarsh, in spite of +overwork, or prostration, of sensible shrinkage, of his wife's letters +and of his not liking Europe. Strether would have reckoned his own +career less futile had he been able to put into it anything so handsome +as so much fine silence. One might one's self easily have left Mrs. +Waymarsh; and one would assuredly have paid one's tribute to the ideal +in covering with that attitude the derision of having been left by her. +Her husband had held his tongue and had made a large income; and these +were in especial the achievements as to which Strether envied him. Our +friend had had indeed on his side too a subject for silence, which he +fully appreciated; but it was a matter of a different sort, and the +figure of the income he had arrived at had never been high enough to +look any one in the face. + +"I don't know as I quite see what you require it for. You don't appear +sick to speak of." It was of Europe Waymarsh thus finally spoke. + +"Well," said Strether, who fell as much as possible into step, "I guess +I don't FEEL sick now that I've started. But I had pretty well run +down before I did start." + +Waymarsh raised his melancholy look. "Ain't you about up to your usual +average?" + +It was not quite pointedly sceptical, but it seemed somehow a plea for +the purest veracity, and it thereby affected our friend as the very +voice of Milrose. He had long since made a mental distinction--though +never in truth daring to betray it--between the voice of Milrose and +the voice even of Woollett. It was the former he felt, that was most +in the real tradition. There had been occasions in his past when the +sound of it had reduced him to temporary confusion, and the present, +for some reason, suddenly became such another. It was nevertheless no +light matter that the very effect of his confusion should be to make +him again prevaricate. "That description hardly does justice to a man +to whom it has done such a lot of good to see YOU." + +Waymarsh fixed on his washing-stand the silent detached stare with +which Milrose in person, as it were, might have marked the +unexpectedness of a compliment from Woollett, and Strether for his +part, felt once more like Woollett in person. "I mean," his friend +presently continued, "that your appearance isn't as bad as I've seen +it: it compares favourably with what it was when I last noticed it." +On this appearance Waymarsh's eyes yet failed to rest; it was almost as +if they obeyed an instinct of propriety, and the effect was still +stronger when, always considering the basin and jug, he added: "You've +filled out some since then." + +"I'm afraid I have," Strether laughed: "one does fill out some with +all one takes in, and I've taken in, I dare say, more than I've natural +room for. I was dog-tired when I sailed." It had the oddest sound of +cheerfulness. + +"I was dog-tired," his companion returned, "when I arrived, and it's +this wild hunt for rest that takes all the life out of me. The fact +is, Strether--and it's a comfort to have you here at last to say it to; +though I don't know, after all, that I've really waited; I've told it +to people I've met in the cars--the fact is, such a country as this +ain't my KIND of country anyway. There ain't a country I've seen over +here that DOES seem my kind. Oh I don't say but what there are plenty +of pretty places and remarkable old things; but the trouble is that I +don't seem to feel anywhere in tune. That's one of the reasons why I +suppose I've gained so little. I haven't had the first sign of that +lift I was led to expect." With this he broke out more earnestly. +"Look here--I want to go back." + +His eyes were all attached to Strether's now, for he was one of the men +who fully face you when they talk of themselves. This enabled his +friend to look at him hard and immediately to appear to the highest +advantage in his eyes by doing so. "That's a genial thing to say to a +fellow who has come out on purpose to meet you!" + +Nothing could have been finer, on this, than Waymarsh's sombre glow. +"HAVE you come out on purpose?" + +"Well--very largely." + +"I thought from the way you wrote there was something back of it." + +Strether hesitated. "Back of my desire to be with you?" + +"Back of your prostration." + +Strether, with a smile made more dim by a certain consciousness, shook +his head. "There are all the causes of it!" + +"And no particular cause that seemed most to drive you?" + +Our friend could at last conscientiously answer. "Yes. One. There IS +a matter that has had much to do with my coming out." + +Waymarsh waited a little. "Too private to mention?" + +"No, not too private--for YOU. Only rather complicated." + +"Well," said Waymarsh, who had waited again, "I MAY lose my mind over +here, but I don't know as I've done so yet." + +"Oh you shall have the whole thing. But not tonight." + +Waymarsh seemed to sit stiffer and to hold his elbows tighter. "Why +not--if I can't sleep?" + +"Because, my dear man, I CAN!" + +"Then where's your prostration?" + +"Just in that--that I can put in eight hours." And Strether brought it +out that if Waymarsh didn't "gain" it was because he didn't go to bed: +the result of which was, in its order, that, to do the latter justice, +he permitted his friend to insist on his really getting settled. +Strether, with a kind coercive hand for it, assisted him to this +consummation, and again found his own part in their relation +auspiciously enlarged by the smaller touches of lowering the lamp and +seeing to a sufficiency of blanket. It somehow ministered for him to +indulgence to feel Waymarsh, who looked unnaturally big and black in +bed, as much tucked in as a patient in a hospital and, with his +covering up to his chin, as much simplified by it He hovered in vague +pity, to be brief, while his companion challenged him out of the +bedclothes. "Is she really after you? Is that what's behind?" + +Strether felt an uneasiness at the direction taken by his companion's +insight, but he played a little at uncertainty. "Behind my coming out?" + +"Behind your prostration or whatever. It's generally felt, you know, +that she follows you up pretty close." + +Strether's candour was never very far off. "Oh it has occurred to you +that I'm literally running away from Mrs. Newsome?" + +"Well, I haven't KNOWN but what you are. You're a very attractive man, +Strether. You've seen for yourself," said Waymarsh "what that lady +downstairs makes of it. Unless indeed," he rambled on with an effect +between the ironic and the anxious, "it's you who are after HER. IS +Mrs. Newsome OVER here?" He spoke as with a droll dread of her. + +It made his friend--though rather dimly--smile. "Dear no she's safe, +thank goodness--as I think I more and more feel--at home. She thought +of coming, but she gave it up. I've come in a manner instead of her; +and come to that extent--for you're right in your inference--on her +business. So you see there IS plenty of connexion." + +Waymarsh continued to see at least all there was. "Involving +accordingly the particular one I've referred to?" + +Strether took another turn about the room, giving a twitch to his +companion's blanket and finally gaining the door. His feeling was that +of a nurse who had earned personal rest by having made everything +straight. "Involving more things than I can think of breaking ground +on now. But don't be afraid--you shall have them from me: you'll +probably find yourself having quite as much of them as you can do with. +I shall--if we keep together--very much depend on your impression of +some of them." + +Waymarsh's acknowledgement of this tribute was characteristically +indirect. "You mean to say you don't believe we WILL keep together?" + +"I only glance at the danger," Strether paternally said, "because when +I hear you wail to go back I seem to see you open up such possibilities +of folly." + +Waymarsh took it--silent a little--like a large snubbed child "What are +you going to do with me?" + +It was the very question Strether himself had put to Miss Gostrey, and +he wondered if he had sounded like that. But HE at least could be more +definite. "I'm going to take you right down to London." + +"Oh I've been down to London!" Waymarsh more softly moaned. "I've no +use, Strether, for anything down there." + +"Well," said Strether, good-humouredly, "I guess you've some use for +me." + +"So I've got to go?" + +"Oh you've got to go further yet." + +"Well," Waymarsh sighed, "do your damnedest! Only you WILL tell me +before you lead me on all the way--?" + +Our friend had again so lost himself, both for amusement and for +contrition, in the wonder of whether he had made, in his own challenge +that afternoon, such another figure, that he for an instant missed the +thread. "Tell you--?" + +"Why what you've got on hand." + +Strether hesitated. "Why it's such a matter as that even if I +positively wanted I shouldn't be able to keep it from you." + +Waymarsh gloomily gazed. "What does that mean then but that your trip +is just FOR her?" + +"For Mrs. Newsome? Oh it certainly is, as I say. Very much." + +"Then why do you also say it's for me?" + +Strether, in impatience, violently played with his latch. "It's simple +enough. It's for both of you." + +Waymarsh at last turned over with a groan. "Well, I won't marry you!" + +"Neither, when it comes to that--!" But the visitor had already laughed +and escaped. + + + +III + +He had told Miss Gostrey he should probably take, for departure with +Waymarsh, some afternoon train, and it thereupon in the morning +appeared that this lady had made her own plan for an earlier one. She +had breakfasted when Strether came into the coffee-room; but, Waymarsh +not having yet emerged, he was in time to recall her to the terms of +their understanding and to pronounce her discretion overdone. She was +surely not to break away at the very moment she had created a want. He +had met her as she rose from her little table in a window, where, with +the morning papers beside her, she reminded him, as he let her know, of +Major Pendennis breakfasting at his club--a compliment of which she +professed a deep appreciation; and he detained her as pleadingly as if +he had already--and notably under pressure of the visions of the +night--learned to be unable to do without her. She must teach him at +all events, before she went, to order breakfast as breakfast was +ordered in Europe, and she must especially sustain him in the problem +of ordering for Waymarsh. The latter had laid upon his friend, by +desperate sounds through the door of his room, dreadful divined +responsibilities in respect to beefsteak and oranges--responsibilities +which Miss Gostrey took over with an alertness of action that matched +her quick intelligence. She had before this weaned the expatriated +from traditions compared with which the matutinal beefsteak was but the +creature of an hour, and it was not for her, with some of her memories, +to falter in the path though she freely enough declared, on reflexion, +that there was always in such cases a choice of opposed policies. +"There are times when to give them their head, you know--!" + +They had gone to wait together in the garden for the dressing of the +meal, and Strether found her more suggestive than ever "Well, what?" + +"Is to bring about for them such a complexity of relations-unless +indeed we call it a simplicity!--that the situation HAS to wind itself +up. They want to go back." + +"And you want them to go!" Strether gaily concluded. + +"I always want them to go, and I send them as fast as I can.' + +"Oh I know--you take them to Liverpool." + +"Any port will serve in a storm. I'm--with all my other functions--an +agent for repatriation. I want to re-people our stricken country. What +will become of it else? I want to discourage others." + +The ordered English garden, in the freshness of the day, was +delightful to Strether, who liked the sound, under his feet, of the +tight fine gravel, packed with the chronic damp, and who had the idlest +eye for the deep smoothness of turf and the clean curves of paths. +"Other people?" + +"Other countries. Other people--yes. I want to encourage our own." + +Strether wondered. "Not to come? Why then do you 'meet' them--since +it doesn't appear to be to stop them?" + +"Oh that they shouldn't come is as yet too much to ask. What I attend +to is that they come quickly and return still more so. I meet them to +help it to be over as soon as possible, and though I don't stop them +I've my way of putting them through. That's my little system; and, if +you want to know," said Maria Gostrey, "it's my real secret, my +innermost mission and use. I only seem, you see, to beguile and +approve; but I've thought it all out and I'm working all the while +underground. I can't perhaps quite give you my formula, but I think +that practically I succeed. I send you back spent. So you stay back. +Passed through my hands--" + +"We don't turn up again?" The further she went the further he always +saw himself able to follow. "I don't want your formula--I feel quite +enough, as I hinted yesterday, your abysses. Spent!" he echoed. "If +that's how you're arranging so subtly to send me I thank you for the +warning." + +For a minute, amid the pleasantness--poetry in tariffed items, but all +the more, for guests already convicted, a challenge to consumption--they +smiled at each other in confirmed fellowship. "Do you call it subtly? +It's a plain poor tale. Besides, you're a special case." + +"Oh special cases--that's weak!" She was weak enough, further still, to +defer her journey and agree to accompany the gentlemen on their own, +might a separate carriage mark her independence; though it was in spite +of this to befall after luncheon that she went off alone and that, with +a tryst taken for a day of her company in London, they lingered another +night. She had, during the morning--spent in a way that he was to +remember later on as the very climax of his foretaste, as warm with +presentiments, with what he would have called collapses--had all sorts +of things out with Strether; and among them the fact that though there +was never a moment of her life when she wasn't "due" somewhere, there +was yet scarce a perfidy to others of which she wasn't capable for his +sake. She explained moreover that wherever she happened to be she +found a dropped thread to pick up, a ragged edge to repair, some +familiar appetite in ambush, jumping out as she approached, yet +appeasable with a temporary biscuit. It became, on her taking the risk +of the deviation imposed on him by her insidious arrangement of his +morning meal, a point of honour for her not to fail with Waymarsh of +the larger success too; and her subsequent boast to Strether was that +she had made their friend fare--and quite without his knowing what was +the matter--as Major Pendennis would have fared at the Megatherium. She +had made him breakfast like a gentleman, and it was nothing, she +forcibly asserted, to what she would yet make him do. She made him +participate in the slow reiterated ramble with which, for Strether, the +new day amply filled itself; and it was by her art that he somehow had +the air, on the ramparts and in the Rows, of carrying a point of his +own. + +The three strolled and stared and gossiped, or at least the two did; +the case really yielding for their comrade, if analysed, but the +element of stricken silence. This element indeed affected Strether as +charged with audible rumblings, but he was conscious of the care of +taking it explicitly as a sign of pleasant peace. He wouldn't appeal +too much, for that provoked stiffness; yet he wouldn't be too freely +tacit, for that suggested giving up. Waymarsh himself adhered to an +ambiguous dumbness that might have represented either the growth of a +perception or the despair of one; and at times and in places--where the +low-browed galleries were darkest, the opposite gables queerest, the +solicitations of every kind densest--the others caught him fixing hard +some object of minor interest, fixing even at moments nothing +discernible, as if he were indulging it with a truce. When he met +Strether's eye on such occasions he looked guilty and furtive, fell the +next minute into some attitude of retractation. Our friend couldn't +show him the right things for fear of provoking some total +renouncement, and was tempted even to show him the wrong in order to +make him differ with triumph. There were moments when he himself felt +shy of professing the full sweetness of the taste of leisure, and there +were others when he found himself feeling as if his passages of +interchange with the lady at his side might fall upon the third member +of their party very much as Mr. Burchell, at Dr. Primrose's fireside, +was influenced by the high flights of the visitors from London. The +smallest things so arrested and amused him that he repeatedly almost +apologised--brought up afresh in explanation his plea of a previous +grind. He was aware at the same time that his grind had been as +nothing to Waymarsh's, and he repeatedly confessed that, to cover his +frivolity, he was doing his best for his previous virtue. Do what he +might, in any case, his previous virtue was still there, and it seemed +fairly to stare at him out of the windows of shops that were not as the +shops of Woollett, fairly to make him want things that he shouldn't +know what to do with. It was by the oddest, the least admissible of +laws demoralising him now; and the way it boldly took was to make him +want more wants. These first walks in Europe were in fact a kind of +finely lurid intimation of what one might find at the end of that +process. Had he come back after long years, in something already so +like the evening of life, only to be exposed to it? It was at all +events over the shop-windows that he made, with Waymarsh, most free; +though it would have been easier had not the latter most sensibly +yielded to the appeal of the merely useful trades. He pierced with his +sombre detachment the plate-glass of ironmongers and saddlers, while +Strether flaunted an affinity with the dealers in stamped letter-paper +and in smart neckties. Strether was in fact recurrently shameless in +the presence of the tailors, though it was just over the heads of the +tailors that his countryman most loftily looked. This gave Miss +Gostrey a grasped opportunity to back up Waymarsh at his expense. The +weary lawyer--it was unmistakeable--had a conception of dress; but +that, in view of some of the features of the effect produced, was just +what made the danger of insistence on it. Strether wondered if he by +this time thought Miss Gostrey less fashionable or Lambert Strether +more so; and it appeared probable that most of the remarks exchanged +between this latter pair about passers, figures, faces, personal types, +exemplified in their degree the disposition to talk as "society" talked. + +Was what was happening to himself then, was what already HAD happened, +really that a woman of fashion was floating him into society and that +an old friend deserted on the brink was watching the force of the +current? When the woman of fashion permitted Strether--as she +permitted him at the most--the purchase of a pair of gloves, the terms +she made about it, the prohibition of neckties and other items till she +should be able to guide him through the Burlington Arcade, were such as +to fall upon a sensitive ear as a challenge to just imputations. Miss +Gostrey was such a woman of fashion as could make without a symptom of +vulgar blinking an appointment for the Burlington Arcade. Mere +discriminations about a pair of gloves could thus at any rate +represent--always for such sensitive ears as were in +question--possibilities of something that Strether could make a mark +against only as the peril of apparent wantonness. He had quite the +consciousness of his new friend, for their companion, that he might +have had of a Jesuit in petticoats, a representative of the recruiting +interests of the Catholic Church. The Catholic Church, for +Waymarsh-that was to say the enemy, the monster of bulging eyes and +far-reaching quivering groping tentacles--was exactly society, exactly +the multiplication of shibboleths, exactly the discrimination of types +and tones, exactly the wicked old Rows of Chester, rank with feudalism; +exactly in short Europe. + +There was light for observation, however, in an incident that occurred +just before they turned back to luncheon. Waymarsh had been for a +quarter of an hour exceptionally mute and distant, and something, or +other--Strether was never to make out exactly what--proved, as it were, +too much for him after his comrades had stood for three minutes taking +in, while they leaned on an old balustrade that guarded the edge of the +Row, a particularly crooked and huddled street-view. "He thinks us +sophisticated, he thinks us worldly, he thinks us wicked, he thinks us +all sorts of queer things," Strether reflected; for wondrous were the +vague quantities our friend had within a couple of short days acquired +the habit of conveniently and conclusively lumping together. There +seemed moreover a direct connexion between some such inference and a +sudden grim dash taken by Waymarsh to the opposite side. This movement +was startlingly sudden, and his companions at first supposed him to +have espied, to be pursuing, the glimpse of an acquaintance. They next +made out, however, that an open door had instantly received him, and +they then recognised him as engulfed in the establishment of a +jeweller, behind whose glittering front he was lost to view. The fact +had somehow the note of a demonstration, and it left each of the others +to show a face almost of fear. But Miss Gostrey broke into a laugh. +"What's the matter with him?" + +"Well," said Strether, "he can't stand it." + +"But can't stand what?" + +"Anything. Europe." + +"Then how will that jeweller help him?" + +Strether seemed to make it out, from their position, between the +interstices of arrayed watches, of close-hung dangling gewgaws. "You'll +see." + +"Ah that's just what--if he buys anything--I'm afraid of: that I shall +see something rather dreadful." + +Strether studied the finer appearances. "He may buy everything." + +"Then don't you think we ought to follow him?" + +"Not for worlds. Besides we can't. We're paralysed. We exchange a +long scared look, we publicly tremble. The thing is, you see, we +'realise.' He has struck for freedom." + +She wondered but she laughed. "Ah what a price to pay! And I was +preparing some for him so cheap." + +"No, no," Strether went on, frankly amused now; "don't call it that: +the kind of freedom you deal in is dear." Then as to justify himself: +"Am I not in MY way trying it? It's this." + +"Being here, you mean, with me?" + +"Yes, and talking to you as I do. I've known you a few hours, and I've +known HIM all my life; so that if the ease I thus take with you about +him isn't magnificent"--and the thought of it held him a moment--"why +it's rather base." + +"It's magnificent!" said Miss Gostrey to make an end of it. "And you +should hear," she added, "the ease I take--and I above all intend to +take--with Mr. Waymarsh." + +Strether thought. "About ME? Ah that's no equivalent. The equivalent +would be Waymarsh's himself serving me up--his remorseless analysis of +me. And he'll never do that"--he was sadly clear. "He'll never +remorselessly analyse me." He quite held her with the authority of +this. "He'll never say a word to you about me." + +She took it in; she did it justice; yet after an instant her reason, +her restless irony, disposed of it. "Of course he won't. For what do +you take people, that they're able to say words about anything, able +remorselessly to analyse? There are not many like you and me. It will +be only because he's too stupid." + +It stirred in her friend a sceptical echo which was at the same time +the protest of the faith of years. "Waymarsh stupid?" + +"Compared with you." + +Strether had still his eyes on the jeweller's front, and he waited a +moment to answer. "He's a success of a kind that I haven't approached." + +"Do you mean he has made money?" + +"He makes it--to my belief. And I," said Strether, "though with a back +quite as bent, have never made anything. I'm a perfectly equipped +failure." + +He feared an instant she'd ask him if he meant he was poor; and he was +glad she didn't, for he really didn't know to what the truth on this +unpleasant point mightn't have prompted her. She only, however, +confirmed his assertion. "Thank goodness you're a failure--it's why I +so distinguish you! Anything else to-day is too hideous. Look about +you--look at the successes. Would you BE one, on your honour? Look, +moreover," she continued, "at me." + +For a little accordingly their eyes met. "I see," Strether returned. +"You too are out of it." + +"The superiority you discern in me," she concurred, "announces my +futility. If you knew," she sighed, "the dreams of my youth! But our +realities are what has brought us together. We're beaten brothers in +arms." + +He smiled at her kindly enough, but he shook his head. "It doesn't +alter the fact that you're expensive. You've cost me already--!" + +But he had hung fire. "Cost you what?" + +"Well, my past--in one great lump. But no matter," he laughed: "I'll +pay with my last penny." + +Her attention had unfortunately now been engaged by their comrade's +return, for Waymarsh met their view as he came out of his shop. "I +hope he hasn't paid," she said, "with HIS last; though I'm convinced he +has been splendid, and has been so for you." + +"Ah no--not that!" + +"Then for me?" + +"Quite as little." Waymarsh was by this time near enough to show signs +his friend could read, though he seemed to look almost carefully at +nothing in particular. + +"Then for himself?" + +"For nobody. For nothing. For freedom." + +"But what has freedom to do with it?" + +Strether's answer was indirect. "To be as good as you and me. But +different." + +She had had time to take in their companion's face; and with it, as +such things were easy for her, she took in all. "Different--yes. But +better!" + +If Waymarsh was sombre he was also indeed almost sublime. He told them +nothing, left his absence unexplained, and though they were convinced +he had made some extraordinary purchase they were never to learn its +nature. He only glowered grandly at the tops of the old gables. "It's +the sacred rage," Strether had had further time to say; and this sacred +rage was to become between them, for convenient comprehension, the +description of one of his periodical necessities. It was Strether who +eventually contended that it did make him better than they. But by +that time Miss Gostrey was convinced that she didn't want to be better +than Strether. + + + + + +Book Second + + + + +I + + +Those occasions on which Strether was, in association with the exile +from Milrose, to see the sacred rage glimmer through would doubtless +have their due periodicity; but our friend had meanwhile to find names +for many other matters. On no evening of his life perhaps, as he +reflected, had he had to supply so many as on the third of his short +stay in London; an evening spent by Miss Gostrey's side at one of the +theatres, to which he had found himself transported, without his own +hand raised, on the mere expression of a conscientious wonder. She +knew her theatre, she knew her play, as she had triumphantly known, +three days running, everything else, and the moment filled to the brim, +for her companion, that apprehension of the interesting which, whether +or no the interesting happened to filter through his guide, strained +now to its limits his brief opportunity. Waymarsh hadn't come with +them; he had seen plays enough, he signified, before Strether had +joined him--an affirmation that had its full force when his friend +ascertained by questions that he had seen two and a circus. Questions +as to what he had seen had on him indeed an effect only less favourable +than questions as to what he hadn't. He liked the former to be +discriminated; but how could it be done, Strether asked of their +constant counsellor, without discriminating the latter? + +Miss Gostrey had dined with him at his hotel, face to face over a small +table on which the lighted candles had rose-coloured shades; and the +rose-coloured shades and the small table and the soft fragrance of the +lady--had anything to his mere sense ever been so soft?--were so many +touches in he scarce knew what positive high picture. He had been to +the theatre, even to the opera, in Boston, with Mrs. Newsome, more than +once acting as her only escort; but there had been no little confronted +dinner, no pink lights, no whiff of vague sweetness, as a preliminary: +one of the results of which was that at present, mildly rueful, though +with a sharpish accent, he actually asked himself WHY there hadn't. +There was much the same difference in his impression of the noticed +state of his companion, whose dress was "cut down," as he believed the +term to be, in respect to shoulders and bosom, in a manner quite other +than Mrs. Newsome's, and who wore round her throat a broad red velvet +band with an antique jewel--he was rather complacently sure it was +antique--attached to it in front. Mrs. Newsome's dress was never in +any degree "cut down," and she never wore round her throat a broad red +velvet band: if she had, moreover, would it ever have served so to +carry on and complicate, as he now almost felt, his vision? + +It would have been absurd of him to trace into ramifications the effect +of the ribbon from which Miss Gostrey's trinket depended, had he not +for the hour, at the best, been so given over to uncontrolled +perceptions. What was it but an uncontrolled perception that his +friend's velvet band somehow added, in her appearance, to the value of +every other item--to that of her smile and of the way she carried her +head, to that of her complexion, of her lips, her teeth, her eyes, her +hair? What, certainly, had a man conscious of a man's work in the +world to do with red velvet bands? He wouldn't for anything have so +exposed himself as to tell Miss Gostrey how much he liked hers, yet he +HAD none the less not only caught himself in the act--frivolous, no +doubt, idiotic, and above all unexpected--of liking it: he had in +addition taken it as a starting-point for fresh backward, fresh +forward, fresh lateral flights. The manner in which Mrs. Newsome's +throat WAS encircled suddenly represented for him, in an alien order, +almost as many things as the manner in which Miss Gostrey's was. Mrs. +Newsome wore, at operatic hours, a black silk dress--very handsome, he +knew it was "handsome"--and an ornament that his memory was able +further to identify as a ruche. He had his association indeed with the +ruche, but it was rather imperfectly romantic. He had once said to the +wearer--and it was as "free" a remark as he had ever made to her--that +she looked, with her ruff and other matters, like Queen Elizabeth; and +it had after this in truth been his fancy that, as a consequence of +that tenderness and an acceptance of the idea, the form of this special +tribute to the "frill" had grown slightly more marked. The connexion, +as he sat there and let his imagination roam, was to strike him as +vaguely pathetic; but there it all was, and pathetic was doubtless in +the conditions the best thing it could possibly be. It had assuredly +existed at any rate; for it seemed now to come over him that no +gentleman of his age at Woollett could ever, to a lady of Mrs. +Newsome's, which was not much less than his, have embarked on such a +simile. + +All sorts of things in fact now seemed to come over him, comparatively +few of which his chronicler can hope for space to mention. It came +over him for instance that Miss Gostrey looked perhaps like Mary +Stuart: Lambert Strether had a candour of fancy which could rest for +an instant gratified in such an antithesis. It came over him that +never before--no, literally never--had a lady dined with him at a +public place before going to the play. The publicity of the place was +just, in the matter, for Strether, the rare strange thing; it affected +him almost as the achievement of privacy might have affected a man of a +different experience. He had married, in the far-away years, so young +as to have missed the time natural in Boston for taking girls to the +Museum; and it was absolutely true of hint that--even after the close +of the period of conscious detachment occupying the centre of his life, +the grey middle desert of the two deaths, that of his wife and that, +ten years later, of his boy--he had never taken any one anywhere. It +came over him in especial--though the monition had, as happened, +already sounded, fitfully gleamed, in other forms--that the business he +had come out on hadn't yet been so brought home to him as by the sight +of the people about him. She gave him the impression, his friend, at +first, more straight than he got it for himself--gave it simply by +saying with off-hand illumination: "Oh yes, they're types!"--but after +he had taken it he made to the full his own use of it; both while he +kept silence for the four acts and while he talked in the intervals. It +was an evening, it was a world of types, and this was a connexion above +all in which the figures and faces in the stalls were interchangeable +with those on the stage. + +He felt as if the play itself penetrated him with the naked elbow of +his neighbour, a great stripped handsome red-haired lady who conversed +with a gentleman on her other side in stray dissyllables which had for +his ear, in the oddest way in the world, so much sound that he wondered +they hadn't more sense; and he recognised by the same law, beyond the +footlights, what he was pleased to take for the very flush of English +life. He had distracted drops in which he couldn't have said if it +were actors or auditors who were most true, and the upshot of which, +each time, was the consciousness of new contacts. However he viewed +his job it was "types" he should have to tackle. Those before him and +around him were not as the types of Woollett, where, for that matter, +it had begun to seem to him that there must only have been the male and +the female. These made two exactly, even with the individual varieties. +Here, on the other hand, apart from the personal and the sexual +range--which might be greater or less--a series of strong stamps had +been applied, as it were, from without; stamps that his observation +played with as, before a glass case on a table, it might have passed +from medal to medal and from copper to gold. It befell that in the +drama precisely there was a bad woman in a yellow frock who made a +pleasant weak good-looking young man in perpetual evening dress do the +most dreadful things. Strether felt himself on the whole not afraid of +the yellow frock, but he was vaguely anxious over a certain kindness +into which he found himself drifting for its victim. He hadn't come +out, he reminded himself, to be too kind, or indeed to be kind at all, +to Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad also be in perpetual evening dress? +He somehow rather hoped it--it seemed so to add to THIS young man's +general amenability; though he wondered too if, to fight him with his +own weapons, he himself (a thought almost startling) would have +likewise to be. This young man furthermore would have been much more +easy to handle--at least for HIM--than appeared probable in respect to +Chad. + +It came up for him with Miss Gostrey that there were things of which +she would really perhaps after all have heard, and she admitted when a +little pressed that she was never quite sure of what she heard as +distinguished from things such as, on occasions like the present, she +only extravagantly guessed. "I seem with this freedom, you see, to +have guessed Mr. Chad. He's a young man on whose head high hopes are +placed at Woollett; a young man a wicked woman has got hold of and whom +his family over there have sent you out to rescue. You've accepted the +mission of separating him from the wicked woman. Are you quite sure +she's very bad for him?" + +Something in his manner showed it as quite pulling him up. "Of course +we are. Wouldn't YOU be?" + +"Oh I don't know. One never does--does one?--beforehand. One can only +judge on the facts. Yours are quite new to me; I'm really not in the +least, as you see, in possession of them: so it will be awfully +interesting to have them from you. If you're satisfied, that's all +that's required. I mean if you're sure you ARE sure: sure it won't do." + +"That he should lead such a life? Rather!" + +"Oh but I don't know, you see, about his life; you've not told me about +his life. She may be charming--his life!" + +"Charming?"--Strether stared before him. "She's base, venal-out of the +streets." + +"I see. And HE--?" + +"Chad, wretched boy?" + +"Of what type and temper is he?" she went on as Strether had lapsed. + +"Well--the obstinate." It was as if for a moment he had been going to +say more and had then controlled himself. + +That was scarce what she wished. "Do you like him?" + +This time he was prompt. "No. How CAN I?" + +"Do you mean because of your being so saddled with him?" + +"I'm thinking of his mother," said Strether after a moment. "He has +darkened her admirable life." He spoke with austerity. "He has +worried her half to death." + +"Oh that's of course odious." She had a pause as if for renewed +emphasis of this truth, but it ended on another note. "Is her life +very admirable?" + +"Extraordinarily." + +There was so much in the tone that Miss Gostrey had to devote another +pause to the appreciation of it. "And has he only HER? I don't mean +the bad woman in Paris," she quickly added--"for I assure you I +shouldn't even at the best be disposed to allow him more than one. But +has he only his mother?" + +"He has also a sister, older than himself and married; and they're both +remarkably fine women." + +"Very handsome, you mean?" + +This promptitude--almost, as he might have thought, this precipitation, +gave him a brief drop; but he came up again. "Mrs. Newsome, I think, is +handsome, though she's not of course, with a son of twenty-eight and a +daughter of thirty, in her very first youth. She married, however, +extremely young." + +"And is wonderful," Miss Gostrey asked, "for her age?" + +Strether seemed to feel with a certain disquiet the pressure of it. "I +don't say she's wonderful. Or rather," he went on the next moment, "I +do say it. It's exactly what she IS--wonderful. But I wasn't thinking +of her appearance," he explained--"striking as that doubtless is. I +was thinking--well, of many other things." He seemed to look at these +as if to mention some of them; then took, pulling himself up, another +turn. "About Mrs. Pocock people may differ." + +"Is that the daughter's name--'Pocock'?" + +"That's the daughter's name," Strether sturdily confessed. + +"And people may differ, you mean, about HER beauty?" + +"About everything." + +"But YOU admire her?" + +He gave his friend a glance as to show how he could bear this "I'm +perhaps a little afraid of her." + +"Oh," said Miss Gostrey, "I see her from here! You may say then I see +very fast and very far, but I've already shown you I do. The young man +and the two ladies," she went on, "are at any rate all the family?" + +"Quite all. His father has been dead ten years, and there's no +brother, nor any other sister. They'd do," said Strether, "anything in +the world for him." + +"And you'd do anything in the world for THEM?" + +He shifted again; she had made it perhaps just a shade too affirmative +for his nerves. "Oh I don't know!" + +"You'd do at any rate this, and the 'anything' they'd do is represented +by their MAKING you do it." + +"Ah they couldn't have come--either of them. They're very busy people +and Mrs. Newsome in particular has a large full life. She's moreover +highly nervous--and not at all strong." + +"You mean she's an American invalid?" + +He carefully distinguished. "There's nothing she likes less than to be +called one, but she would consent to be one of those things, I think," +he laughed, "if it were the only way to be the other." + +"Consent to be an American in order to be an invalid?" + +"No," said Strether, "the other way round. She's at any rate delicate +sensitive high-strung. She puts so much of herself into everything--" + +Ah Maria knew these things! "That she has nothing left for anything +else? Of course she hasn't. To whom do you say it? High-strung? +Don't I spend my life, for them, jamming down the pedal? I see +moreover how it has told on you." + +Strether took this more lightly. "Oh I jam down the pedal too!" + +"Well," she lucidly returned, "we must from this moment bear on it +together with all our might." And she forged ahead. "Have they money?" + +But it was as if, while her energetic image still held him, her enquiry +fell short. "Mrs. Newsome," he wished further to explain, "hasn't +moreover your courage on the question of contact. If she had come it +would have been to see the person herself." + +"The woman? Ah but that's courage." + +"No--it's exaltation, which is a very different thing. Courage," he, +however, accommodatingly threw out, "is what YOU have." + +She shook her head. "You say that only to patch me up--to cover the +nudity of my want of exaltation. I've neither the one nor the other. +I've mere battered indifference. I see that what you mean," Miss +Gostrey pursued, "is that if your friend HAD come she would take great +views, and the great views, to put it simply, would be too much for +her." + +Strether looked amused at her notion of the simple, but he adopted her +formula. "Everything's too much for her." + +"Ah then such a service as this of yours--" + +"Is more for her than anything else? Yes--far more. But so long as it +isn't too much for ME--!" + +"Her condition doesn't matter? Surely not; we leave her condition out; +we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her condition, as behind +and beneath you; yet at the same time I see it as bearing you up." + +"Oh it does bear me up!" Strether laughed. + +"Well then as yours bears ME nothing more's needed." With which she +put again her question. "Has Mrs. Newsome money?" + +This time he heeded. "Oh plenty. That's the root of the evil. There's +money, to very large amounts, in the concern. Chad has had the free +use of a great deal. But if he'll pull himself together and come home, +all the same, he'll find his account in it." + +She had listened with all her interest. "And I hope to goodness you'll +find yours!" + +"He'll take up his definite material reward," said Strether without +acknowledgement of this. "He's at the parting of the ways. He can +come into the business now--he can't come later." + +"Is there a business?" + +"Lord, yes--a big brave bouncing business. A roaring trade." + +"A great shop?" + +"Yes--a workshop; a great production, a great industry. The concern's +a manufacture--and a manufacture that, if it's only properly looked +after, may well be on the way to become a monopoly. It's a little thing +they make--make better, it appears, than other people can, or than +other people, at any rate, do. Mr. Newsome, being a man of ideas, at +least in that particular line," Strether explained, "put them on it +with great effect, and gave the place altogether, in his time, an +immense lift." + +"It's a place in itself?" + +"Well, quite a number of buildings; almost a little industrial colony. +But above all it's a thing. The article produced." + +"And what IS the article produced?" + +Strether looked about him as in slight reluctance to say; then the +curtain, which he saw about to rise, came to his aid. "I'll tell you +next time." But when the next time came he only said he'd tell her +later on--after they should have left the theatre; for she had +immediately reverted to their topic, and even for himself the picture +of the stage was now overlaid with another image. His postponements, +however, made her wonder--wonder if the article referred to were +anything bad. And she explained that she meant improper or ridiculous +or wrong. But Strether, so far as that went, could satisfy her. +"Unmentionable? Oh no, we constantly talk of it; we are quite familiar +and brazen about it. Only, as a small, trivial, rather ridiculous +object of the commonest domestic use, it's just wanting in-what shall I +say? Well, dignity, or the least approach to distinction. Right here +therefore, with everything about us so grand--!" In short he shrank. + +"It's a false note?" + +"Sadly. It's vulgar." + +"But surely not vulgarer than this." Then on his wondering as she +herself had done: "Than everything about us." She seemed a trifle +irritated. "What do you take this for?" + +"Why for--comparatively--divine!" + +"This dreadful London theatre? It's impossible, if you really want to +know." + +"Oh then," laughed Strether, "I DON'T really want to know!" + +It made between them a pause, which she, however, still fascinated by +the mystery of the production at Woollett, presently broke. "'Rather +ridiculous'? Clothes-pins? Saleratus? Shoe-polish?" + +It brought him round. "No--you don't even 'burn.' I don't think, you +know, you'll guess it." + +"How then can I judge how vulgar it is?" + +"You'll judge when I do tell you"--and he persuaded her to patience. +But it may even now frankly be mentioned that he in the sequel never +WAS to tell her. He actually never did so, and it moreover oddly +occurred that by the law, within her, of the incalculable, her desire +for the information dropped and her attitude to the question converted +itself into a positive cultivation of ignorance. In ignorance she +could humour her fancy, and that proved a useful freedom. She could +treat the little nameless object as indeed unnameable--she could make +their abstention enormously definite. There might indeed have been for +Strether the portent of this in what she next said. + +"Is it perhaps then because it's so bad--because your industry as you +call it, IS so vulgar--that Mr. Chad won't come back? Does he feel the +taint? Is he staying away not to be mixed up in it?" + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "it wouldn't appear--would it?--that he feels +'taints'! He's glad enough of the money from it, and the money's his +whole basis. There's appreciation in that--I mean as to the allowance +his mother has hitherto made him. She has of course the resource of +cutting this allowance off; but even then he has unfortunately, and on +no small scale, his independent supply--money left him by his +grandfather, her own father." + +"Wouldn't the fact you mention then," Miss Gostrey asked, "make it just +more easy for him to be particular? Isn't he conceivable as fastidious +about the source--the apparent and public source--of his income?" + +Strether was able quite good-humouredly to entertain the proposition. +"The source of his grandfather's wealth--and thereby of his own share +in it--was not particularly noble." + +"And what source was it?" + +Strether cast about. "Well--practices." + +"In business? Infamies? He was an old swindler?" + +"Oh," he said with more emphasis than spirit, "I shan't describe HIM +nor narrate his exploits." + +"Lord, what abysses! And the late Mr. Newsome then?" + +"Well, what about him?" + +"Was he like the grandfather?" + +"No--he was on the other side of the house. And he was different." + +Miss Gostrey kept it up. "Better?" + +Her friend for a moment hung fire. "No." + +Her comment on his hesitation was scarce the less marked for being +mute. "Thank you. NOW don't you see," she went on, "why the boy +doesn't come home? He's drowning his shame." + +"His shame? What shame?" + +"What shame? Comment donc? THE shame." + +"But where and when," Strether asked, "is 'THE shame'--where is any +shame--to-day? The men I speak of--they did as every one does; and +(besides being ancient history) it was all a matter of appreciation." + +She showed how she understood. "Mrs. Newsome has appreciated?" + +"Ah I can't speak for HER!" + +"In the midst of such doings--and, as I understand you, profiting by +them, she at least has remained exquisite?" + +"Oh I can't talk of her!" Strether said. + +"I thought she was just what you COULD talk of. You DON'T trust me," +Miss Gostrey after a moment declared. + +It had its effect. "Well, her money is spent, her life conceived and +carried on with a large beneficence--" + +"That's a kind of expiation of wrongs? Gracious," she added before he +could speak, "how intensely you make me see her!" + +"If you see her," Strether dropped, "it's all that's necessary." + +She really seemed to have her. "I feel that. She IS, in spite of +everything, handsome." + +This at least enlivened him. "What do you mean by everything?" + +"Well, I mean YOU." With which she had one of her swift changes of +ground. "You say the concern needs looking after; but doesn't Mrs. +Newsome look after it?" + +"So far as possible. She's wonderfully able, but it's not her affair, +and her life's a good deal overcharged. She has many, many things." + +"And you also?" + +"Oh yes--I've many too, if you will." + +"I see. But what I mean is," Miss Gostrey amended, "do you also look +after the business?" + +"Oh no, I don't touch the business." + +"Only everything else?" + +"Well, yes--some things." + +"As for instance--?" + +Strether obligingly thought. "Well, the Review." + +"The Review?--you have a Review?" + +"Certainly. Woollett has a Review--which Mrs. Newsome, for the most +part, magnificently pays for and which I, not at all magnificently, +edit. My name's on the cover," Strether pursued, "and I'm really +rather disappointed and hurt that you seem never to have heard of it." + +She neglected for a moment this grievance. "And what kind of a Review +is it?" + +His serenity was now completely restored. "Well, it's green." + +"Do you mean in political colour as they say here--in thought?" + +"No; I mean the cover's green--of the most lovely shade." + +"And with Mrs. Newsome's name on it too?" + +He waited a little. "Oh as for that you must judge if she peeps out. +She's behind the whole thing; but she's of a delicacy and a +discretion--!" + +Miss Gostrey took it all. "I'm sure. She WOULD be. I don't underrate +her. She must be rather a swell." + +"Oh yes, she's rather a swell!" + +"A Woollett swell--bon! I like the idea of a Woollett swell. And you +must be rather one too, to be so mixed up with her." + +"Ah no," said Strether, "that's not the way it works." + +But she had already taken him up. "The way it works--you needn't tell +me!--is of course that you efface yourself." + +"With my name on the cover?" he lucidly objected. + +"Ah but you don't put it on for yourself." + +"I beg your pardon--that's exactly what I do put it on for. It's +exactly the thing that I'm reduced to doing for myself. It seems to +rescue a little, you see, from the wreck of hopes and ambitions, the +refuse-heap of disappointments and failures, my one presentable little +scrap of an identity." + +On this she looked at him as to say many things, but what she at last +simply said was: "She likes to see it there. You're the bigger swell +of the two," she immediately continued, "because you think you're not +one. She thinks she IS one. However," Miss Gostrey added, "she +thinks you're one too. You're at all events the biggest she can get +hold of." She embroidered, she abounded. "I don't say it to interfere +between you, but on the day she gets hold of a bigger one--!" Strether +had thrown back his head as in silent mirth over something that struck +him in her audacity or felicity, and her flight meanwhile was already +higher. "Therefore close with her--!" + +"Close with her?" he asked as she seemed to hang poised. + +"Before you lose your chance." + +Their eyes met over it. "What do you mean by closing?" + +"And what do I mean by your chance? I'll tell you when you tell me all +the things YOU don't. Is it her GREATEST fad?" she briskly pursued. + +"The Review?" He seemed to wonder how he could best describe it. This +resulted however but in a sketch. "It's her tribute to the ideal." + +"I see. You go in for tremendous things." + +"We go in for the unpopular side--that is so far as we dare." + +"And how far DO you dare?" + +"Well, she very far. I much less. I don't begin to have her faith. +She provides," said Strether, "three fourths of that. And she +provides, as I've confided to you, ALL the money." + +It evoked somehow a vision of gold that held for a little Miss +Gostrey's eyes, and she looked as if she heard the bright dollars +shovelled in. "I hope then you make a good thing--" + +"I NEVER made a good thing!" he at once returned. + +She just waited. "Don't you call it a good thing to be loved?" + +"Oh we're not loved. We're not even hated. We're only just sweetly +ignored." + +She had another pause. "You don't trust me!" she once more repeated. + +"Don't I when I lift the last veil?--tell you the very secret of the +prison-house?" + +Again she met his eyes, but to the result that after an instant her own +turned away with impatience. "You don't sell? Oh I'm glad of THAT!" +After which however, and before he could protest, she was off again. +"She's just a MORAL swell." + +He accepted gaily enough the definition. "Yes--I really think that +describes her." + +But it had for his friend the oddest connexion. "How does she do her +hair?" + +He laughed out. "Beautifully!" + +"Ah that doesn't tell me. However, it doesn't matter--I know. It's +tremendously neat--a real reproach; quite remarkably thick and without, +as yet, a single strand of white. There!" + +He blushed for her realism, but gaped at her truth. "You're the very +deuce." + +"What else SHOULD I be? It was as the very deuce I pounced on you. But +don't let it trouble you, for everything but the very deuce--at our +age--is a bore and a delusion, and even he himself, after all, but half +a joy." With which, on a single sweep of her wing, she resumed. "You +assist her to expiate--which is rather hard when you've yourself not +sinned." + +"It's she who hasn't sinned," Strether replied. "I've sinned the most." + +"Ah," Miss Gostrey cynically laughed, "what a picture of HER! Have you +robbed the widow and the orphan?" + +"I've sinned enough," said Strether. + +"Enough for whom? Enough for what?" + +"Well, to be where I am." + +"Thank you!" They were disturbed at this moment by the passage between +their knees and the back of the seats before them of a gentleman who +had been absent during a part of the performance and who now returned +for the close; but the interruption left Miss Gostrey time, before the +subsequent hush, to express as a sharp finality her sense of the moral +of all their talk. "I knew you had something up your sleeve!" This +finality, however, left them in its turn, at the end of the play, as +disposed to hang back as if they had still much to say; so that they +easily agreed to let every one go before them--they found an interest +in waiting. They made out from the lobby that the night had turned to +rain; yet Miss Gostrey let her friend know that he wasn't to see her +home. He was simply to put her, by herself, into a four-wheeler; she +liked so in London, of wet nights after wild pleasures, thinking things +over, on the return, in lonely four-wheelers. This was her great time, +she intimated, for pulling herself together. The delays caused by the +weather, the struggle for vehicles at the door, gave them occasion to +subside on a divan at the back of the vestibule and just beyond the +reach of the fresh damp gusts from the street. Here Strether's comrade +resumed that free handling of the subject to which his own imagination +of it already owed so much. "Does your young friend in Paris like you?" + +It had almost, after the interval, startled him. "Oh I hope not! Why +SHOULD he?" + +"Why shouldn't he?" Miss Gostrey asked. "That you're coming down on +him need have nothing to do with it." + +"You see more in it," he presently returned, "than I." + +"Of course I see you in it." + +"Well then you see more in 'me'!" + +"Than you see in yourself? Very likely. That's always one's right. +What I was thinking of," she explained, "is the possible particular +effect on him of his milieu." + +"Oh his milieu--!" Strether really felt he could imagine it better now +than three hours before. + +"Do you mean it can only have been so lowering?" + +"Why that's my very starting-point." + +"Yes, but you start so far back. What do his letters say?" + +"Nothing. He practically ignores us--or spares us. He doesn't write." + +"I see. But there are all the same," she went on, "two quite distinct +things that--given the wonderful place he's in--may have happened to +him. One is that he may have got brutalised. The other is that he may +have got refined." + +Strether stared--this WAS a novelty. "Refined?" + +"Oh," she said quietly, "there ARE refinements." + +The way of it made him, after looking at her, break into a laugh. "YOU +have them!" + +"As one of the signs," she continued in the same tone, "they constitute +perhaps the worst." + +He thought it over and his gravity returned. "Is it a refinement not +to answer his mother's letters?" + +She appeared to have a scruple, but she brought it out. "Oh I should +say the greatest of all." + +"Well," said Strether, "I'M quite content to let it, as one of the +signs, pass for the worst that I know he believes he can do what he +likes with me." + +This appeared to strike her. "How do you know it?" + +"Oh I'm sure of it. I feel it in my bones." + +"Feel he CAN do it?" + +"Feel that he believes he can. It may come to the same thing!" +Strether laughed. + +She wouldn't, however, have this. "Nothing for you will ever come to +the same thing as anything else." And she understood what she meant, +it seemed, sufficiently to go straight on. "You say that if he does +break he'll come in for things at home?" + +"Quite positively. He'll come in for a particular chance--a chance +that any properly constituted young man would jump at. The business +has so developed that an opening scarcely apparent three years ago, but +which his father's will took account of as in certain conditions +possible and which, under that will, attaches to Chad's availing +himself of it a large contingent advantage--this opening, the +conditions having come about, now simply awaits him. His mother has +kept it for him, holding out against strong pressure, till the last +possible moment. It requires, naturally, as it carries with it a +handsome 'part,' a large share in profits, his being on the spot and +making a big effort for a big result. That's what I mean by his chance. +If he misses it he comes in, as you say, for nothing. And to see that +he doesn't miss it is, in a word, what I've come out for." + +She let it all sink in. "What you've come out for then is simply to +render him an immense service." + +Well, poor Strether was willing to take it so. "Ah if you like." + +"He stands, as they say, if you succeed with him, to gain--" + +"Oh a lot of advantages." Strether had them clearly at his fingers' +ends. + +"By which you mean of course a lot of money." + +"Well, not only. I'm acting with a sense for him of other things too. +Consideration and comfort and security--the general safety of being +anchored by a strong chain. He wants, as I see him, to be protected. +Protected I mean from life." + +"Ah voila!"--her thought fitted with a click. "From life. What you +REALLY want to get him home for is to marry him." + +"Well, that's about the size of it." + +"Of course," she said, "it's rudimentary. But to any one in +particular?" + +He smiled at this, looking a little more conscious. "You get +everything out." + +For a moment again their eyes met. "You put everything in!" + +He acknowledged the tribute by telling her. "To Mamie Pocock." + +She wondered; then gravely, even exquisitely, as if to make the oddity +also fit: "His own niece?" + +"Oh you must yourself find a name for the relation. His +brother-in-law's sister. Mrs. Jim's sister-in-law." + +It seemed to have on Miss Gostrey a certain hardening effect. "And who +in the world's Mrs. Jim?" + +"Chad's sister--who was Sarah Newsome. She's married--didn't I mention +it?--to Jim Pocock." + +"Ah yes," she tacitly replied; but he had mentioned things--! Then, +however, with all the sound it could have, "Who in the world's Jim +Pocock?" she asked. + +"Why Sally's husband. That's the only way we distinguish people at +Woollett," he good-humoredly explained. + +"And is it a great distinction--being Sally's husband?" + +He considered. "I think there can be scarcely a greater--unless it may +become one, in the future, to be Chad's wife." + +"Then how do they distinguish YOU?" + +"They DON'T--except, as I've told you, by the green cover." + +Once more their eyes met on it, and she held him an instant. "The +green cover won't--nor will ANY cover--avail you with ME. You're of a +depth of duplicity!" Still, she could in her own large grasp of the +real condone it. "Is Mamie a great parti?" + +"Oh the greatest we have--our prettiest brightest girl." + +Miss Gostrey seemed to fix the poor child. "I know what they CAN be. +And with money?" + +"Not perhaps with a great deal of that--but with so much of everything +else that we don't miss it. We DON'T miss money much, you know," +Strether added, "in general, in America, in pretty girls." + +"No," she conceded; "but I know also what you do sometimes miss. And do +you," she asked, "yourself admire her?" + +It was a question, he indicated, that there might be several ways of +taking; but he decided after an instant for the humorous. "Haven't I +sufficiently showed you how I admire ANY pretty girl?" + +Her interest in his problem was by this time such that it scarce left +her freedom, and she kept close to the facts. "I supposed that at +Woollett you wanted them--what shall I call it?--blameless. I mean +your young men for your pretty girls." + +"So did I!" Strether confessed. "But you strike there a curious +fact--the fact that Woollett too accommodates itself to the spirit of +the age and the increasing mildness of manners. Everything changes, +and I hold that our situation precisely marks a date. We SHOULD prefer +them blameless, but we have to make the best of them as we find them. +Since the spirit of the age and the increasing mildness send them so +much more to Paris--" + +"You've to take them back as they come. When they DO come. Bon!" Once +more she embraced it all, but she had a moment of thought. "Poor Chad!" + +"Ah," said Strether cheerfully "Mamie will save him!" + +She was looking away, still in her vision, and she spoke with +impatience and almost as if he hadn't understood her. "YOU'LL save +him. That's who'll save him." + +"Oh but with Mamie's aid. Unless indeed you mean," he added, "that I +shall effect so much more with yours!" + +It made her at last again look at him. "You'll do more--as you're so +much better--than all of us put together." + +"I think I'm only better since I've known YOU!" Strether bravely +returned. + +The depletion of the place, the shrinkage of the crowd and now +comparatively quiet withdrawal of its last elements had already brought +them nearer the door and put them in relation with a messenger of whom +he bespoke Miss Gostrey's cab. But this left them a few minutes more, +which she was clearly in no mood not to use. "You've spoken to me of +what--by your success--Mr. Chad stands to gain. But you've not spoken +to me of what you do." + +"Oh I've nothing more to gain," said Strether very simply. + +She took it as even quite too simple. "You mean you've got it all +'down'? You've been paid in advance?" + +"Ah don't talk about payment!" he groaned. + +Something in the tone of it pulled her up, but as their messenger still +delayed she had another chance and she put it in another way. "What--by +failure--do you stand to lose?" + +He still, however, wouldn't have it. "Nothing!" he exclaimed, and on +the messenger's at this instant reappearing he was able to sink the +subject in their responsive advance. When, a few steps up the street, +under a lamp, he had put her into her four-wheeler and she had asked +him if the man had called for him no second conveyance, he replied +before the door was closed. "You won't take me with you?" + +"Not for the world." + +"Then I shall walk." + +"In the rain?" + +"I like the rain," said Strether. "Good-night!" + +She kept him a moment, while his hand was on the door, by not +answering; after which she answered by repeating her question. "What do +you stand to lose?" + +Why the question now affected him as other he couldn't have said; he +could only this time meet it otherwise. "Everything." + +"So I thought. Then you shall succeed. And to that end I'm yours--" + +"Ah, dear lady!" he kindly breathed. + +"Till death!" said Maria Gostrey. "Good-night." + + + +II + + +Strether called, his second morning in Paris, on the bankers of the Rue +Scribe to whom his letter of credit was addressed, and he made this +visit attended by Waymarsh, in whose company he had crossed from London +two days before. They had hastened to the Rue Scribe on the morrow of +their arrival, but Strether had not then found the letters the hope of +which prompted this errand. He had had as yet none at all; hadn't +expected them in London, but had counted on several in Paris, and, +disconcerted now, had presently strolled back to the Boulevard with a +sense of injury that he felt himself taking for as good a start as any +other. It would serve, this spur to his spirit, he reflected, as, +pausing at the top of the street, he looked up and down the great +foreign avenue, it would serve to begin business with. His idea was to +begin business immediately, and it did much for him the rest of his day +that the beginning of business awaited him. He did little else till +night but ask himself what he should do if he hadn't fortunately had so +much to do; but he put himself the question in many different +situations and connexions. What carried him hither and yon was an +admirable theory that nothing he could do wouldn't be in some manner +related to what he fundamentally had on hand, or WOULD be--should he +happen to have a scruple--wasted for it. He did happen to have a +scruple--a scruple about taking no definite step till he should get +letters; but this reasoning carried it off. A single day to feel his +feet--he had felt them as yet only at Chester and in London--was he +could consider, none too much; and having, as he had often privately +expressed it, Paris to reckon with, he threw these hours of freshness +consciously into the reckoning. They made it continually greater, but +that was what it had best be if it was to be anything at all, and he +gave himself up till far into the evening, at the theatre and on the +return, after the theatre, along the bright congested Boulevard, to +feeling it grow. Waymarsh had accompanied him this time to the play, +and the two men had walked together, as a first stage, from the Gymnase +to the Cafe Riche, into the crowded "terrace" of which +establishment--the night, or rather the morning, for midnight had +struck, being bland and populous--they had wedged themselves for +refreshment. Waymarsh, as a result of some discussion with his friend, +had made a marked virtue of his having now let himself go; and there +had been elements of impression in their half-hour over their watered +beer-glasses that gave him his occasion for conveying that he held this +compromise with his stiffer self to have become extreme. He conveyed +it--for it was still, after all, his stiffer self who gloomed out of +the glare of the terrace--in solemn silence; and there was indeed a +great deal of critical silence, every way, between the companions, even +till they gained the Place de l'Opera, as to the character of their +nocturnal progress. + +This morning there WERE letters--letters which had reached London, +apparently all together, the day of Strether's journey, and had taken +their time to follow him; so that, after a controlled impulse to go +into them in the reception-room of the bank, which, reminding him of +the post-office at Woollett, affected him as the abutment of some +transatlantic bridge, he slipped them into the pocket of his loose grey +overcoat with a sense of the felicity of carrying them off. Waymarsh, +who had had letters yesterday, had had them again to-day, and Waymarsh +suggested in this particular no controlled impulses. The last one he +was at all events likely to be observed to struggle with was clearly +that of bringing to a premature close any visit to the Rue Scribe. +Strether had left him there yesterday; he wanted to see the papers, and +he had spent, by what his friend could make out, a succession of hours +with the papers. He spoke of the establishment, with emphasis, as a +post of superior observation; just as he spoke generally of his actual +damnable doom as a device for hiding from him what was going on. Europe +was best described, to his mind, as an elaborate engine for +dissociating the confined American from that indispensable knowledge, +and was accordingly only rendered bearable by these occasional stations +of relief, traps for the arrest of wandering western airs. Strether, +on his side, set himself to walk again--he had his relief in his +pocket; and indeed, much as he had desired his budget, the growth of +restlessness might have been marked in him from the moment he had +assured himself of the superscription of most of the missives it +contained. This restlessness became therefore his temporary law; he +knew he should recognise as soon as see it the best place of all for +settling down with his chief correspondent. He had for the next hour +an accidental air of looking for it in the windows of shops; he came +down the Rue de la Paix in the sun and, passing across the Tuileries +and the river, indulged more than once--as if on finding himself +determined--in a sudden pause before the book-stalls of the opposite +quay. In the garden of the Tuileries he had lingered, on two or three +spots, to look; it was as if the wonderful Paris spring had stayed him +as he roamed. The prompt Paris morning struck its cheerful notes--in a +soft breeze and a sprinkled smell, in the light flit, over the +garden-floor, of bareheaded girls with the buckled strap of oblong +boxes, in the type of ancient thrifty persons basking betimes where +terrace-walls were warm, in the blue-frocked brass-labelled officialism +of humble rakers and scrapers, in the deep references of a +straight-pacing priest or the sharp ones of a white-gaitered red-legged +soldier. He watched little brisk figures, figures whose movement was +as the tick of the great Paris clock, take their smooth diagonal from +point to point; the air had a taste as of something mixed with art, +something that presented nature as a white-capped master-chef. The +palace was gone, Strether remembered the palace; and when he gazed into +the irremediable void of its site the historic sense in him might have +been freely at play--the play under which in Paris indeed it so often +winces like a touched nerve. He filled out spaces with dim symbols of +scenes; he caught the gleam of white statues at the base of which, with +his letters out, he could tilt back a straw-bottomed chair. But his +drift was, for reasons, to the other side, and it floated him unspent +up the Rue de Seine and as far as the Luxembourg. In the Luxembourg +Gardens he pulled up; here at last he found his nook, and here, on a +penny chair from which terraces, alleys, vistas, fountains, little +trees in green tubs, little women in white caps and shrill little girls +at play all sunnily "composed" together, he passed an hour in which the +cup of his impressions seemed truly to overflow. But a week had elapsed +since he quitted the ship, and there were more things in his mind than +so few days could account for. More than once, during the time, he had +regarded himself as admonished; but the admonition this morning was +formidably sharp. It took as it hadn't done yet the form of a +question--the question of what he was doing with such an extraordinary +sense of escape. This sense was sharpest after he had read his +letters, but that was also precisely why the question pressed. Four of +the letters were from Mrs. Newsome and none of them short; she had lost +no time, had followed on his heels while he moved, so expressing +herself that he now could measure the probable frequency with which he +should hear. They would arrive, it would seem, her communications, at +the rate of several a week; he should be able to count, it might even +prove, on more than one by each mail. If he had begun yesterday with a +small grievance he had therefore an opportunity to begin to-day with +its opposite. He read the letters successively and slowly, putting +others back into his pocket but keeping these for a long time +afterwards gathered in his lap. He held them there, lost in thought, +as if to prolong the presence of what they gave him; or as if at the +least to assure them their part in the constitution of some lucidity. +His friend wrote admirably, and her tone was even more in her style +than in her voice--he might almost, for the hour, have had to come this +distance to get its full carrying quality; yet the plentitude of his +consciousness of difference consorted perfectly with the deepened +intensity of the connexion. It was the difference, the difference of +being just where he was and AS he was, that formed the escape--this +difference was so much greater than he had dreamed it would be; and +what he finally sat there turning over was the strange logic of his +finding himself so free. He felt it in a manner his duty to think out +his state, to approve the process, and when he came in fact to trace +the steps and add up the items they sufficiently accounted for the sum. +He had never expected--that was the truth of it--again to find himself +young, and all the years and other things it had taken to make him so +were exactly his present arithmetic. He had to make sure of them to +put his scruple to rest. + +It all sprang at bottom from the beauty of Mrs. Newsome's desire that +he should be worried with nothing that was not of the essence of his +task; by insisting that he should thoroughly intermit and break she had +so provided for his freedom that she would, as it were, have only +herself to thank. Strether could not at this point indeed have +completed his thought by the image of what she might have to thank +herself FOR: the image, at best, of his own likeness-poor Lambert +Strether washed up on the sunny strand by the waves of a single day, +poor Lambert Strether thankful for breathing-time and stiffening +himself while he gasped. There he was, and with nothing in his aspect +or his posture to scandalise: it was only true that if he had seen Mrs. +Newsome coming he would instinctively have jumped up to walk away a +little. He would have come round and back to her bravely, but he would +have had first to pull himself together. She abounded in news of the +situation at home, proved to him how perfectly she was arranging for +his absence, told him who would take up this and who take up that +exactly where he had left it, gave him in fact chapter and verse for +the moral that nothing would suffer. It filled for him, this tone of +hers, all the air; yet it struck him at the same time as the hum of +vain things. This latter effect was what he tried to justify--and with +the success that, grave though the appearance, he at last lighted on a +form that was happy. He arrived at it by the inevitable recognition of +his having been a fortnight before one of the weariest of men. If ever +a man had come off tired Lambert Strether was that man; and hadn't it +been distinctly on the ground of his fatigue that his wonderful friend +at home had so felt for him and so contrived? It seemed to him somehow +at these instants that, could he only maintain with sufficient firmness +his grasp of that truth, it might become in a manner his compass and +his helm. What he wanted most was some idea that would simplify, and +nothing would do this so much as the fact that he was done for and +finished. If it had been in such a light that he had just detected in +his cup the dregs of youth, that was a mere flaw of the surface of his +scheme. He was so distinctly fagged-out that it must serve precisely +as his convenience, and if he could but consistently be good for little +enough he might do everything he wanted. + +Everything he wanted was comprised moreover in a single boon--the +common unattainable art of taking things as they came. He appeared to +himself to have given his best years to an active appreciation of the +way they didn't come; but perhaps--as they would seemingly here be +things quite other--this long ache might at last drop to rest. He +could easily see that from the moment he should accept the notion of +his foredoomed collapse the last thing he would lack would be reasons +and memories. Oh if he SHOULD do the sum no slate would hold the +figures! The fact that he had failed, as he considered, in everything, +in each relation and in half a dozen trades, as he liked luxuriously to +put it, might have made, might still make, for an empty present; but it +stood solidly for a crowded past. It had not been, so much achievement +missed, a light yoke nor a short load. It was at present as if +the backward picture had hung there, the long crooked course, grey in +the shadow of his solitude. It had been a dreadful cheerful sociable +solitude, a solitude of life or choice, of community; but though there +had been people enough all round it there had been but three or four +persons IN it. Waymarsh was one of these, and the fact struck him just +now as marking the record. Mrs. Newsome was another, and Miss Gostrey +had of a sudden shown signs of becoming a third. Beyond, behind them +was the pale figure of his real youth, which held against its breast +the two presences paler than itself--the young wife he had early lost +and the young son he had stupidly sacrificed. He had again and again +made out for himself that he might have kept his little boy, his little +dull boy who had died at school of rapid diphtheria, if he had not in +those years so insanely given himself to merely missing the mother. It +was the soreness of his remorse that the child had in all likelihood +not really been dull--had been dull, as he had been banished and +neglected, mainly because the father had been unwittingly selfish. This +was doubtless but the secret habit of sorrow, which had slowly given +way to time; yet there remained an ache sharp enough to make the +spirit, at the sight now and again of some fair young man just growing +up, wince with the thought of an opportunity lost. Had ever a man, he +had finally fallen into the way of asking himself, lost so much and +even done so much for so little? There had been particular reasons why +all yesterday, beyond other days, he should have had in one ear this +cold enquiry. His name on the green cover, where he had put it for +Mrs. Newsome, expressed him doubtless just enough to make the +world--the world as distinguished, both for more and for less, from +Woollett--ask who he was. He had incurred the ridicule of having to +have his explanation explained. He was Lambert Strether because he was +on the cover, whereas it should have been, for anything like glory, +that he was on the cover because he was Lambert Strether. He would +have done anything for Mrs. Newsome, have been still more +ridiculous--as he might, for that matter, have occasion to be yet; +which came to saying that this acceptance of fate was all he had to +show at fifty-five. + +He judged the quantity as small because it WAS small, and all the more +egregiously since it couldn't, as he saw the case, so much as thinkably +have been larger. He hadn't had the gift of making the most of what he +tried, and if he had tried and tried again--no one but himself knew how +often--it appeared to have been that he might demonstrate what else, in +default of that, COULD be made. Old ghosts of experiments came back to +him, old drudgeries and delusions, and disgusts, old recoveries with +their relapses, old fevers with their chills, broken moments of good +faith, others of still better doubt; adventures, for the most part, of +the sort qualified as lessons. The special spring that had constantly +played for him the day before was the recognition--frequent enough to +surprise him--of the promises to himself that he had after his other +visit never kept. The reminiscence to-day most quickened for him was +that of the vow taken in the course of the pilgrimage that, +newly-married, with the War just over, and helplessly young in spite of +it, he had recklessly made with the creature who was so much younger +still. It had been a bold dash, for which they had taken money set +apart for necessities, but kept sacred at the moment in a hundred ways, +and in none more so than by this private pledge of his own to treat the +occasion as a relation formed with the higher culture and see that, as +they said at Woollett, it should bear a good harvest. He had believed, +sailing home again, that he had gained something great, and his +theory--with an elaborate innocent plan of reading, digesting, coming +back even, every few years--had then been to preserve, cherish and +extend it. As such plans as these had come to nothing, however, in +respect to acquisitions still more precious, it was doubtless little +enough of a marvel that he should have lost account of that handful of +seed. Buried for long years in dark corners at any rate these few +germs had sprouted again under forty-eight hours of Paris. The process +of yesterday had really been the process of feeling the general stirred +life of connexions long since individually dropped. Strether had +become acquainted even on this ground with short gusts of +speculation--sudden flights of fancy in Louvre galleries, hungry gazes +through clear plates behind which lemon-coloured volumes were as fresh +as fruit on the tree. + +There were instants at which he could ask whether, since there had been +fundamentally so little question of his keeping anything, the fate +after all decreed for him hadn't been only to BE kept. Kept for +something, in that event, that he didn't pretend, didn't possibly dare +as yet to divine; something that made him hover and wonder and laugh +and sigh, made him advance and retreat, feeling half ashamed of his +impulse to plunge and more than half afraid of his impulse to wait. He +remembered for instance how he had gone back in the sixties with +lemon-coloured volumes in general on the brain as well as with a +dozen--selected for his wife too--in his trunk; and nothing had at the +moment shown more confidence than this invocation of the finer taste. +They were still somewhere at home, the dozen--stale and soiled and +never sent to the binder; but what had become of the sharp initiation +they represented? They represented now the mere sallow paint on the +door of the temple of taste that he had dreamed of raising up--a +structure he had practically never carried further. Strether's present +highest flights were perhaps those in which this particular lapse +figured to him as a symbol, a symbol of his long grind and his want of +odd moments, his want moreover of money, of opportunity, of positive +dignity. That the memory of the vow of his youth should, in order to +throb again, have had to wait for this last, as he felt it, of all his +accidents--that was surely proof enough of how his conscience had been +encumbered. If any further proof were needed it would have been to be +found in the fact that, as he perfectly now saw, he had ceased even to +measure his meagreness, a meagreness that sprawled, in this retrospect, +vague and comprehensive, stretching back like some unmapped Hinterland +from a rough coast-settlement. His conscience had been amusing itself +for the forty-eight hours by forbidding him the purchase of a book; he +held off from that, held off from everything; from the moment he didn't +yet call on Chad he wouldn't for the world have taken any other step. +On this evidence, however, of the way they actually affected him he +glared at the lemon-coloured covers in confession of the +subconsciousness that, all the same, in the great desert of the years, +he must have had of them. The green covers at home comprised, by the +law of their purpose, no tribute to letters; it was of a mere rich +kernel of economics, politics, ethics that, glazed and, as Mrs. Newsome +maintained rather against HIS view, pre-eminently pleasant to touch, +they formed the specious shell. Without therefore any needed +instinctive knowledge of what was coming out, in Paris, on the bright +highway, he struck himself at present as having more than once flushed +with a suspicion: he couldn't otherwise at present be feeling so many +fears confirmed. There were "movements" he was too late for: weren't +they, with the fun of them, already spent? There were sequences he had +missed and great gaps in the procession: he might have been watching +it all recede in a golden cloud of dust. If the playhouse wasn't +closed his seat had at least fallen to somebody else. He had had an +uneasy feeling the night before that if he was at the theatre at +all--though he indeed justified the theatre, in the specific sense, and +with a grotesqueness to which his imagination did all honour, as +something he owed poor Waymarsh--he should have been there with, and as +might have been said, FOR Chad. + +This suggested the question of whether he could properly have taken him +to such a play, and what effect--it was a point that suddenly rose--his +peculiar responsibility might be held in general to have on his choice +of entertainment. It had literally been present to him at the +Gymnase--where one was held moreover comparatively safe--that having +his young friend at his side would have been an odd feature of the work +of redemption; and this quite in spite of the fact that the picture +presented might well, confronted with Chad's own private stage, have +seemed the pattern of propriety. He clearly hadn't come out in the +name of propriety but to visit unattended equivocal performances; yet +still less had he done so to undermine his authority by sharing them +with the graceless youth. Was he to renounce all amusement for the +sweet sake of that authority? and WOULD such renouncement give him for +Chad a moral glamour? The little problem bristled the more by reason +of poor Strether's fairly open sense of the irony of things. Were +there then sides on which his predicament threatened to look rather +droll to him? Should he have to pretend to believe--either to himself +or the wretched boy--that there was anything that could make the latter +worse? Wasn't some such pretence on the other hand involved in the +assumption of possible processes that would make him better? His +greatest uneasiness seemed to peep at him out of the imminent +impression that almost any acceptance of Paris might give one's +authority away. It hung before him this morning, the vast bright +Babylon, like some huge iridescent object, a jewel brilliant and hard, +in which parts were not to be discriminated nor differences comfortably +marked. It twinkled and trembled and melted together, and what seemed +all surface one moment seemed all depth the next. It was a place of +which, unmistakeably, Chad was fond; wherefore if he, Strether, should +like it too much, what on earth, with such a bond, would become of +either of them? It all depended of course--which was a gleam of +light--on how the "too much" was measured; though indeed our friend +fairly felt, while he prolonged the meditation I describe, that for +himself even already a certain measure had been reached. It will have +been sufficiently seen that he was not a man to neglect any good chance +for reflexion. Was it at all possible for instance to like Paris +enough without liking it too much? He luckily however hadn't promised +Mrs. Newsome not to like it at all. He was ready to recognise at this +stage that such an engagement WOULD have tied his hands. The +Luxembourg Gardens were incontestably just so adorable at this hour by +reason--in addition to their intrinsic charm--of his not having taken +it. The only engagement he had taken, when he looked the thing in the +face, was to do what he reasonably could. + +It upset him a little none the less and after a while to find himself +at last remembering on what current of association he had been floated +so far. Old imaginations of the Latin Quarter had played their part +for him, and he had duly recalled its having been with this scene of +rather ominous legend that, like so many young men in fiction as well +as in fact, Chad had begun. He was now quite out of it, with his +"home," as Strether figured the place, in the Boulevard Malesherbes; +which was perhaps why, repairing, not to fail of justice either, to the +elder neighbourhood, our friend had felt he could allow for the element +of the usual, the immemorial, without courting perturbation. He was +not at least in danger of seeing the youth and the particular Person +flaunt by together; and yet he was in the very air of which--just to +feel what the early natural note must have been--he wished most to take +counsel. It became at once vivid to him that he had originally had, +for a few days, an almost envious vision of the boy's romantic +privilege. Melancholy Murger, with Francine and Musette and Rodolphe, +at home, in the company of the tattered, one--if he not in his single +self two or three--of the unbound, the paper-covered dozen on the +shelf; and when Chad had written, five years ago, after a sojourn then +already prolonged to six months, that he had decided to go in for +economy and the real thing, Strether's fancy had quite fondly +accompanied him in this migration, which was to convey him, as they +somewhat confusedly learned at Woollett, across the bridges and up the +Montagne Sainte-Genevieve. This was the region--Chad had been quite +distinct about it--in which the best French, and many other things, +were to be learned at least cost, and in which all sorts of clever +fellows, compatriots there for a purpose, formed an awfully pleasant +set. The clever fellows, the friendly countrymen were mainly young +painters, sculptors, architects, medical students; but they were, Chad +sagely opined, a much more profitable lot to be with--even on the +footing of not being quite one of them--than the "terrible toughs" +(Strether remembered the edifying discrimination) of the American bars +and banks roundabout the Opera. Chad had thrown out, in the +communications following this one--for at that time he did once in a +while communicate--that several members of a band of earnest workers +under one of the great artists had taken him right in, making him dine +every night, almost for nothing, at their place, and even pressing him +not to neglect the hypothesis of there being as much "in him" as in any +of them. There had been literally a moment at which it appeared there +might be something in him; there had been at any rate a moment at which +he had written that he didn't know but what a month or two more might +see him enrolled in some atelier. The season had been one at which +Mrs. Newsome was moved to gratitude for small mercies; it had broken on +them all as a blessing that their absentee HAD perhaps a +conscience--that he was sated in fine with idleness, was ambitious of +variety. The exhibition was doubtless as yet not brilliant, but +Strether himself, even by that time much enlisted and immersed, had +determined, on the part of the two ladies, a temperate approval and in +fact, as he now recollected, a certain austere enthusiasm. + +But the very next thing that happened had been a dark drop of the +curtain. The son and brother had not browsed long on the Montagne +Sainte-Genevieve--his effective little use of the name of which, like +his allusion to the best French, appeared to have been but one of the +notes of his rough cunning. The light refreshment of these vain +appearances had not accordingly carried any of them very far. On the +other hand it had gained Chad time; it had given him a chance, +unchecked, to strike his roots, had paved the way for initiations more +direct and more deep. It was Strether's belief that he had been +comparatively innocent before this first migration, and even that the +first effects of the migration would not have been, without some +particular bad accident, to have been deplored. There had been three +months--he had sufficiently figured it out--in which Chad had wanted to +try. He HAD tried, though not very hard--he had had his little hour of +good faith. The weakness of this principle in him was that almost any +accident attestedly bad enough was stronger. Such had at any rate +markedly been the case for the precipitation of a special series of +impressions. They had proved, successively, these impressions--all of +Musette and Francine, but Musette and Francine vulgarised by the larger +evolution of the type--irresistibly sharp: he had "taken up," by what +was at the time to be shrinkingly gathered, as it was scantly +mentioned, with one ferociously "interested" little person after +another. Strether had read somewhere of a Latin motto, a description +of the hours, observed on a clock by a traveller in Spain; and he had +been led to apply it in thought to Chad's number one, number two, +number three. Omnes vulnerant, ultima necat--they had all morally +wounded, the last had morally killed. The last had been longest in +possession--in possession, that is, of whatever was left of the poor +boy's finer mortality. And it hadn't been she, it had been one of her +early predecessors, who had determined the second migration, the +expensive return and relapse, the exchange again, as was fairly to be +presumed, of the vaunted best French for some special variety of the +worst. + +He pulled himself then at last together for his own progress back; not +with the feeling that he had taken his walk in vain. He prolonged it a +little, in the immediate neighbourhood, after he had quitted his chair; +and the upshot of the whole morning for him was that his campaign had +begun. He had wanted to put himself in relation, and he would be +hanged if he were NOT in relation. He was that at no moment so much as +while, under the old arches of the Odeon, he lingered before the +charming open-air array of literature classic and casual. He found the +effect of tone and tint, in the long charged tables and shelves, +delicate and appetising; the impression--substituting one kind of +low-priced consommation for another--might have been that of one of the +pleasant cafes that overlapped, under an awning, to the pavement; but +he edged along, grazing the tables, with his hands firmly behind him. +He wasn't there to dip, to consume--he was there to reconstruct. He +wasn't there for his own profit--not, that is, the direct; he was there +on some chance of feeling the brush of the wing of the stray spirit of +youth. He felt it in fact, he had it beside him; the old arcade +indeed, as his inner sense listened, gave out the faint sound, as from +far off, of the wild waving of wings. They were folded now over the +breasts of buried generations; but a flutter or two lived again in the +turned page of shock-headed slouch-hatted loiterers whose young +intensity of type, in the direction of pale acuteness, deepened his +vision, and even his appreciation, of racial differences, and whose +manipulation of the uncut volume was too often, however, but a +listening at closed doors. He reconstructed a possible groping Chad of +three or four years before, a Chad who had, after all, simply--for that +was the only way to see it--been too vulgar for his privilege. Surely +it WAS a privilege to have been young and happy just there. Well, the +best thing Strether knew of him was that he had had such a dream. + +But his own actual business half an hour later was with a third floor +on the Boulevard Malesherbes--so much as that was definite; and the +fact of the enjoyment by the third-floor windows of a continuous +balcony, to which he was helped by this knowledge, had perhaps +something to do with his lingering for five minutes on the opposite +side of the street. There were points as to which he had quite made up +his mind, and one of these bore precisely on the wisdom of the +abruptness to which events had finally committed him, a policy that he +was pleased to find not at all shaken as he now looked at his watch and +wondered. He HAD announced himself--six months before; had written out +at least that Chad wasn't to be surprised should he see him some day +turn up. Chad had thereupon, in a few words of rather carefully +colourless answer, offered him a general welcome; and Strether, +ruefully reflecting that he might have understood the warning as a hint +to hospitality, a bid for an invitation, had fallen back upon silence +as the corrective most to his own taste. He had asked Mrs. Newsome +moreover not to announce him again; he had so distinct an opinion on +his attacking his job, should he attack it at all, in his own way. Not +the least of this lady's high merits for him was that he could +absolutely rest on her word. She was the only woman he had known, even +at Woollett, as to whom his conviction was positive that to lie was +beyond her art. Sarah Pocock, for instance, her own daughter, though +with social ideals, as they said, in some respects different--Sarah who +WAS, in her way, aesthetic, had never refused to human commerce that +mitigation of rigour; there were occasions when he had distinctly seen +her apply it. Since, accordingly, at all events, he had had it from +Mrs. Newsome that she had, at whatever cost to her more strenuous view, +conformed, in the matter of preparing Chad, wholly to his restrictions, +he now looked up at the fine continuous balcony with a safe sense that +if the case had been bungled the mistake was at least his property. Was +there perhaps just a suspicion of that in his present pause on the edge +of the Boulevard and well in the pleasant light? + +Many things came over him here, and one of them was that he should +doubtless presently know whether he had been shallow or sharp. Another +was that the balcony in question didn't somehow show as a convenience +easy to surrender. Poor Strether had at this very moment to recognise +the truth that wherever one paused in Paris the imagination reacted +before one could stop it. This perpetual reaction put a price, if one +would, on pauses; but it piled up consequences till there was scarce +room to pick one's steps among them. What call had he, at such a +juncture, for example, to like Chad's very house? High broad clear--he +was expert enough to make out in a moment that it was admirably +built--it fairly embarrassed our friend by the quality that, as he +would have said, it "sprang" on him. He had struck off the fancy that +it might, as a preliminary, be of service to him to be seen, by a happy +accident, from the third-story windows, which took all the March sun, +but of what service was it to find himself making out after a moment +that the quality "sprung," the quality produced by measure and balance, +the fine relation of part to part and space to space, was +probably--aided by the presence of ornament as positive as it was +discreet, and by the complexion of the stone, a cold fair grey, warmed +and polished a little by life--neither more nor less than a case of +distinction, such a case as he could only feel unexpectedly as a sort +of delivered challenge? Meanwhile, however, the chance he had allowed +for--the chance of being seen in time from the balcony--had become a +fact. Two or three of the windows stood open to the violet air; and, +before Strether had cut the knot by crossing, a young man had come out +and looked about him, had lighted a cigarette and tossed the match +over, and then, resting on the rail, had given himself up to watching +the life below while he smoked. His arrival contributed, in its order, +to keeping Strether in position; the result of which in turn was that +Strether soon felt himself noticed. The young man began to look at him +as in acknowledgement of his being himself in observation. + +This was interesting so far as it went, but the interest was affected +by the young man's not being Chad. Strether wondered at first if he +were perhaps Chad altered, and then saw that this was asking too much +of alteration. The young man was light bright and alert--with an air +too pleasant to have been arrived at by patching. Strether had +conceived Chad as patched, but not beyond recognition. He was in +presence, he felt, of amendments enough as they stood; it was a +sufficient amendment that the gentleman up there should be Chad's +friend. He was young too then, the gentleman up there--he was very +young; young enough apparently to be amused at an elderly watcher, to +be curious even to see what the elderly watcher would do on finding +himself watched. There was youth in that, there was youth in the +surrender to the balcony, there was youth for Strether at this moment +in everything but his own business; and Chad's thus pronounced +association with youth had given the next instant an extraordinary +quick lift to the issue. The balcony, the distinguished front, +testified suddenly, for Strether's fancy, to something that was up and +up; they placed the whole case materially, and as by an admirable +image, on a level that he found himself at the end of another moment +rejoicing to think he might reach. The young man looked at him still, +he looked at the young man; and the issue, by a rapid process, was that +this knowledge of a perched privacy appeared to him the last of +luxuries. To him too the perched privacy was open, and he saw it now +but in one light--that of the only domicile, the only fireside, in the +great ironic city, on which he had the shadow of a claim. Miss Gostrey +had a fireside; she had told him of it, and it was something that +doubtless awaited him; but Miss Gostrey hadn't yet arrived--she +mightn't arrive for days; and the sole attenuation of his excluded +state was his vision of the small, the admittedly secondary hotel in +the bye-street from the Rue de la Paix, in which her solicitude for his +purse had placed him, which affected him somehow as all indoor chill, +glass-roofed court and slippery staircase, and which, by the same +token, expressed the presence of Waymarsh even at times when Waymarsh +might have been certain to be round at the bank. It came to pass +before he moved that Waymarsh, and Waymarsh alone, Waymarsh not only +undiluted but positively strengthened, struck him as the present +alternative to the young man in the balcony. When he did move it was +fairly to escape that alternative. Taking his way over the street at +last and passing through the porte-cochere of the house was like +consciously leaving Waymarsh out. However, he would tell him all about +it. + + + + + +Book Third + + + + +I + + +Strether told Waymarsh all about it that very evening, on their dining +together at the hotel; which needn't have happened, he was all the +while aware, hadn't he chosen to sacrifice to this occasion a rarer +opportunity. The mention to his companion of the sacrifice was +moreover exactly what introduced his recital--or, as he would have +called it with more confidence in his interlocutor, his confession. His +confession was that he had been captured and that one of the features +of the affair had just failed to be his engaging himself on the spot to +dinner. As by such a freedom Waymarsh would have lost him he had +obeyed his scruple; and he had likewise obeyed another scruple--which +bore on the question of his himself bringing a guest. + +Waymarsh looked gravely ardent, over the finished soup, at this array +of scruples; Strether hadn't yet got quite used to being so unprepared +for the consequences of the impression he produced. It was +comparatively easy to explain, however, that he hadn't felt sure his +guest would please. The person was a young man whose acquaintance he +had made but that afternoon in the course of rather a hindered enquiry +for another person--an enquiry his new friend had just prevented in +fact from being vain. "Oh," said Strether, "I've all sorts of things +to tell you!"--and he put it in a way that was a virtual hint to +Waymarsh to help him to enjoy the telling. He waited for his fish, he +drank of his wine, he wiped his long moustache, he leaned back in his +chair, he took in the two English ladies who had just creaked past them +and whom he would even have articulately greeted if they hadn't rather +chilled the impulse; so that all he could do was--by way of doing +something--to say "Merci, Francois!" out quite loud when his fish was +brought. Everything was there that he wanted, everything that could +make the moment an occasion, that would do beautifully--everything but +what Waymarsh might give. The little waxed salle-a-manger was sallow +and sociable; Francois, dancing over it, all smiles, was a man and a +brother; the high-shouldered patronne, with her high-held, much-rubbed +hands, seemed always assenting exuberantly to something unsaid; the +Paris evening in short was, for Strether, in the very taste of the +soup, in the goodness, as he was innocently pleased to think it, of the +wine, in the pleasant coarse texture of the napkin and the crunch of +the thick-crusted bread. These all were things congruous with his +confession, and his confession was that he HAD--it would come out +properly just there if Waymarsh would only take it properly--agreed to +breakfast out, at twelve literally, the next day. He didn't quite know +where; the delicacy of the case came straight up in the remembrance of +his new friend's "We'll see; I'll take you somewhere!"--for it had +required little more than that, after all, to let him right in. He was +affected after a minute, face to face with his actual comrade, by the +impulse to overcolour. There had already been things in respect to +which he knew himself tempted by this perversity. If Waymarsh thought +them bad he should at least have his reason for his discomfort; so +Strether showed them as worse. Still, he was now, in his way, +sincerely perplexed. + +Chad had been absent from the Boulevard Malesherbes--was absent from +Paris altogether; he had learned that from the concierge, but had +nevertheless gone up, and gone up--there were no two ways about +it--from an uncontrollable, a really, if one would, depraved curiosity. +The concierge had mentioned to him that a friend of the tenant of the +troisieme was for the time in possession; and this had been Strether's +pretext for a further enquiry, an experiment carried on, under Chad's +roof, without his knowledge. "I found his friend in fact there keeping +the place warm, as he called it, for him; Chad himself being, as +appears, in the south. He went a month ago to Cannes and though his +return begins to be looked for it can't be for some days. I might, you +see, perfectly have waited a week; might have beaten a retreat as soon +as I got this essential knowledge. But I beat no retreat; I did the +opposite; I stayed, I dawdled, I trifled; above all I looked round. I +saw, in fine; and--I don't know what to call it--I sniffed. It's a +detail, but it's as if there were something--something very good--TO +sniff." + +Waymarsh's face had shown his friend an attention apparently so remote +that the latter was slightly surprised to find it at this point abreast +with him. "Do you mean a smell? What of?" + +"A charming scent. But I don't know." + +Waymarsh gave an inferential grunt. "Does he live there with a woman?" + +"I don't know." + +Waymarsh waited an instant for more, then resumed. "Has he taken her +off with him?" + +"And will he bring her back?"--Strether fell into the enquiry. But he +wound it up as before. "I don't know." + +The way he wound it up, accompanied as this was with another drop back, +another degustation of the Leoville, another wipe of his moustache and +another good word for Francois, seemed to produce in his companion a +slight irritation. "Then what the devil DO you know?" + +"Well," said Strether almost gaily, "I guess I don't know anything!" +His gaiety might have been a tribute to the fact that the state he had +been reduced to did for him again what had been done by his talk of the +matter with Miss Gostrey at the London theatre. It was somehow +enlarging; and the air of that amplitude was now doubtless more or +less--and all for Waymarsh to feel--in his further response. "That's +what I found out from the young man." + +"But I thought you said you found out nothing." + +"Nothing but that--that I don't know anything." + +"And what good does that do you?" + +"It's just," said Strether, "what I've come to you to help me to +discover. I mean anything about anything over here. I FELT that, up +there. It regularly rose before me in its might. The young man +moreover--Chad's friend--as good as told me so." + +"As good as told you you know nothing about anything?" Waymarsh +appeared to look at some one who might have as good as told HIM. "How +old is he?" + +"Well, I guess not thirty." + +"Yet you had to take that from him?" + +"Oh I took a good deal more--since, as I tell you, I took an invitation +to dejeuner." + +"And are you GOING to that unholy meal?" + +"If you'll come with me. He wants you too, you know. I told him about +you. He gave me his card," Strether pursued, "and his name's rather +funny. It's John Little Bilham, and he says his two surnames are, on +account of his being small, inevitably used together." + +"Well," Waymarsh asked with due detachment from these details, "what's +he doing up there?" + +"His account of himself is that he's 'only a little artist-man.' That +seemed to me perfectly to describe him. But he's yet in the phase of +study; this, you know, is the great art-school--to pass a certain +number of years in which he came over. And he's a great friend of +Chad's, and occupying Chad's rooms just now because they're so +pleasant. HE'S very pleasant and curious too," Strether added--"though +he's not from Boston." + +Waymarsh looked already rather sick of him. "Where is he from?" + +Strether thought. "I don't know that, either. But he's 'notoriously,' +as he put it himself, not from Boston." + +"Well," Waymarsh moralised from dry depths, "every one can't +notoriously be from Boston. Why," he continued, "is he curious?" + +"Perhaps just for THAT--for one thing! But really," Strether added, +"for everything. When you meet him you'll see." + +"Oh I don't want to meet him," Waymarsh impatiently growled. "Why +don't he go home?" + +Strether hesitated. "Well, because he likes it over here." + +This appeared in particular more than Waymarsh could bear. "He ought +then to be ashamed of himself, and, as you admit that you think so too, +why drag him in?" + +Strether's reply again took time. "Perhaps I do think so +myself--though I don't quite yet admit it. I'm not a bit sure--it's +again one of the things I want to find out. I liked him, and CAN you +like people--? But no matter." He pulled himself up. "There's no +doubt I want you to come down on me and squash me." + +Waymarsh helped himself to the next course, which, however proving not +the dish he had just noted as supplied to the English ladies, had the +effect of causing his imagination temporarily to wander. But it +presently broke out at a softer spot. "Have they got a handsome place +up there?" + +"Oh a charming place; full of beautiful and valuable things. I never +saw such a place"--and Strether's thought went back to it. "For a +little artist-man--!" He could in fact scarce express it. + +But his companion, who appeared now to have a view, insisted. "Well?" + +"Well, life can hold nothing better. Besides, they're things of which +he's in charge." + +"So that he does doorkeeper for your precious pair? Can life," Waymarsh +enquired, "hold nothing better than THAT?" Then as Strether, silent, +seemed even yet to wonder, "Doesn't he know what SHE is?" he went on. + +"I don't know. I didn't ask him. I couldn't. It was impossible. You +wouldn't either. Besides I didn't want to. No more would you." +Strether in short explained it at a stroke. "You can't make out over +here what people do know." + +"Then what did you come over for?" + +"Well, I suppose exactly to see for myself--without their aid." + +"Then what do you want mine for?" + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "you're not one of THEM! I do know what you +know." + +As, however, this last assertion caused Waymarsh again to look at him +hard--such being the latter's doubt of its implications--he felt his +justification lame. Which was still more the case when Waymarsh +presently said: "Look here, Strether. Quit this." + +Our friend smiled with a doubt of his own. "Do you mean my tone?" + +"No--damn your tone. I mean your nosing round. Quit the whole job. +Let them stew in their juice. You're being used for a thing you ain't +fit for. People don't take a fine-tooth comb to groom a horse." + +"Am I a fine-tooth comb?" Strether laughed. "It's something I never +called myself!" + +"It's what you are, all the same. You ain't so young as you were, but +you've kept your teeth." + +He acknowledged his friend's humour. "Take care I don't get them into +YOU! You'd like them, my friends at home, Waymarsh," he declared; +"you'd really particularly like them. And I know"--it was slightly +irrelevant, but he gave it sudden and singular force--"I know they'd +like you!" + +"Oh don't work them off on ME!" Waymarsh groaned. + +Yet Strether still lingered with his hands in his pockets. "It's +really quite as indispensable as I say that Chad should be got back." + +"Indispensable to whom? To you?" + +"Yes," Strether presently said. + +"Because if you get him you also get Mrs. Newsome?" + +Strether faced it. "Yes." + +"And if you don't get him you don't get her?" + +It might be merciless, but he continued not to flinch. "I think it +might have some effect on our personal understanding. Chad's of real +importance--or can easily become so if he will--to the business." + +"And the business is of real importance to his mother's husband?" + +"Well, I naturally want what my future wife wants. And the thing will +be much better if we have our own man in it." + +"If you have your own man in it, in other words," Waymarsh said, +"you'll marry--you personally--more money. She's already rich, as I +understand you, but she'll be richer still if the business can be made +to boom on certain lines that you've laid down." + +"I haven't laid them down," Strether promptly returned. "Mr. +Newsome--who knew extraordinarily well what he was about--laid them +down ten years ago." + +Oh well, Waymarsh seemed to indicate with a shake of his mane, THAT +didn't matter! "You're fierce for the boom anyway." + +His friend weighed a moment in silence the justice of the charge. "I +can scarcely be called fierce, I think, when I so freely take my chance +of the possibility, the danger, of being influenced in a sense counter +to Mrs. Newsome's own feelings." + +Waymarsh gave this proposition a long hard look. "I see. You're +afraid yourself of being squared. But you're a humbug," he added, "all +the same." + +"Oh!" Strether quickly protested. + +"Yes, you ask me for protection--which makes you very interesting; and +then you won't take it. You say you want to be squashed--" + +"Ah but not so easily! Don't you see," Strether demanded "where my +interest, as already shown you, lies? It lies in my not being squared. +If I'm squared where's my marriage? If I miss my errand I miss that; +and if I miss that I miss everything--I'm nowhere." + +Waymarsh--but all relentlessly--took this in. "What do I care where +you are if you're spoiled?" + +Their eyes met on it an instant. "Thank you awfully," Strether at last +said. "But don't you think HER judgement of that--?" + +"Ought to content me? No." + +It kept them again face to face, and the end of this was that Strether +again laughed. "You do her injustice. You really MUST know her. +Good-night." + +He breakfasted with Mr. Bilham on the morrow, and, as inconsequently +befell, with Waymarsh massively of the party. The latter announced, at +the eleventh hour and much to his friend's surprise, that, damn it, he +would as soon join him as do anything else; on which they proceeded +together, strolling in a state of detachment practically luxurious for +them to the Boulevard Malesherbes, a couple engaged that day with the +sharp spell of Paris as confessedly, it might have been seen, as any +couple among the daily thousands so compromised. They walked, +wandered, wondered and, a little, lost themselves; Strether hadn't had +for years so rich a consciousness of time--a bag of gold into which he +constantly dipped for a handful. It was present to him that when the +little business with Mr. Bilham should be over he would still have +shining hours to use absolutely as he liked. There was no great pulse +of haste yet in this process of saving Chad; nor was that effect a bit +more marked as he sat, half an hour later, with his legs under Chad's +mahogany, with Mr. Bilham on one side, with a friend of Mr. Bilham's on +the other, with Waymarsh stupendously opposite, and with the great hum +of Paris coming up in softness, vagueness-for Strether himself indeed +already positive sweetness--through the sunny windows toward which, the +day before, his curiosity had raised its wings from below. The feeling +strongest with him at that moment had borne fruit almost faster than he +could taste it, and Strether literally felt at the present hour that +there was a precipitation in his fate. He had known nothing and nobody +as he stood in the street; but hadn't his view now taken a bound in the +direction of every one and of every thing? + +"What's he up to, what's he up to?"--something like that was at the +back of his head all the while in respect to little Bilham; but +meanwhile, till he should make out, every one and every thing were as +good as represented for him by the combination of his host and the lady +on his left. The lady on his left, the lady thus promptly and +ingeniously invited to "meet" Mr. Strether and Mr. Waymarsh--it was the +way she herself expressed her case--was a very marked person, a person +who had much to do with our friend's asking himself if the occasion +weren't in its essence the most baited, the most gilded of traps. +Baited it could properly be called when the repast was of so wise a +savour, and gilded surrounding objects seemed inevitably to need to be +when Miss Barrace--which was the lady's name--looked at them with +convex Parisian eyes and through a glass with a remarkably long +tortoise-shell handle. Why Miss Barrace, mature meagre erect and +eminently gay, highly adorned, perfectly familiar, freely +contradictions and reminding him of some last-century portrait of a +clever head without powder--why Miss Barrace should have been in +particular the note of a "trap" Strether couldn't on the spot have +explained; he blinked in the light of a conviction that he should know +later on, and know well--as it came over him, for that matter, with +force, that he should need to. He wondered what he was to think +exactly of either of his new friends; since the young man, Chad's +intimate and deputy, had, in thus constituting the scene, practised so +much more subtly than he had been prepared for, and since in especial +Miss Barrace, surrounded clearly by every consideration, hadn't +scrupled to figure as a familiar object. It was interesting to him to +feel that he was in the presence of new measures, other standards, a +different scale of relations, and that evidently here were a happy pair +who didn't think of things at all as he and Waymarsh thought. Nothing +was less to have been calculated in the business than that it should +now be for him as if he and Waymarsh were comparatively quite at one. + +The latter was magnificent--this at least was an assurance privately +given him by Miss Barrace. "Oh your friend's a type, the grand old +American--what shall one call it? The Hebrew prophet, Ezekiel, +Jeremiah, who used when I was a little girl in the Rue Montaigne to +come to see my father and who was usually the American Minister to the +Tuileries or some other court. I haven't seen one these ever so many +years; the sight of it warms my poor old chilled heart; this specimen +is wonderful; in the right quarter, you know, he'll have a succes fou." +Strether hadn't failed to ask what the right quarter might be, much as +he required his presence of mind to meet such a change in their scheme. +"Oh the artist-quarter and that kind of thing; HERE already, for +instance, as you see." He had been on the point of echoing +"'Here'?--is THIS the artist-quarter?" but she had already disposed of +the question with a wave of all her tortoise-shell and an easy "Bring +him to ME!" He knew on the spot how little he should be able to bring +him, for the very air was by this time, to his sense, thick and hot +with poor Waymarsh's judgement of it. He was in the trap still more +than his companion and, unlike his companion, not making the best of +it; which was precisely what doubtless gave him his admirable sombre +glow. Little did Miss Barrace know that what was behind it was his +grave estimate of her own laxity. The general assumption with which our +two friends had arrived had been that of finding Mr. Bilham ready to +conduct them to one or other of those resorts of the earnest, the +aesthetic fraternity which were shown among the sights of Paris. In +this character it would have justified them in a proper insistence on +discharging their score. Waymarsh's only proviso at the last had been +that nobody should pay for him; but he found himself, as the occasion +developed, paid for on a scale as to which Strether privately made out +that he already nursed retribution. Strether was conscious across the +table of what worked in him, conscious when they passed back to the +small salon to which, the previous evening, he himself had made so rich +a reference; conscious most of all as they stepped out to the balcony +in which one would have had to be an ogre not to recognise the perfect +place for easy aftertastes. These things were enhanced for Miss +Barrace by a succession of excellent cigarettes--acknowledged, +acclaimed, as a part of the wonderful supply left behind him by +Chad--in an almost equal absorption of which Strether found himself +blindly, almost wildly pushing forward. He might perish by the sword +as well as by famine, and he knew that his having abetted the lady by +an excess that was rare with him would count for little in the sum--as +Waymarsh might so easily add it up--of her licence. Waymarsh had +smoked of old, smoked hugely; but Waymarsh did nothing now, and that +gave him his advantage over people who took things up lightly just when +others had laid them heavily down. Strether had never smoked, and he +felt as if he flaunted at his friend that this had been only because of +a reason. The reason, it now began to appear even to himself, was that +he had never had a lady to smoke with. + +It was this lady's being there at all, however, that was the strange +free thing; perhaps, since she WAS there, her smoking was the least of +her freedoms. If Strether had been sure at each juncture of what--with +Bilham in especial--she talked about, he might have traced others and +winced at them and felt Waymarsh wince; but he was in fact so often at +sea that his sense of the range of reference was merely general and +that he on several different occasions guessed and interpreted only to +doubt. He wondered what they meant, but there were things he scarce +thought they could be supposed to mean, and "Oh no--not THAT!" was at +the end of most of his ventures. This was the very beginning with him +of a condition as to which, later on, it will be seen, he found cause +to pull himself up; and he was to remember the moment duly as the first +step in a process. The central fact of the place was neither more nor +less, when analysed--and a pressure superficial sufficed--than the +fundamental impropriety of Chad's situation, round about which they +thus seemed cynically clustered. Accordingly, since they took it for +granted, they took for granted all that was in connexion with it taken +for granted at Woollett--matters as to which, verily, he had been +reduced with Mrs. Newsome to the last intensity of silence. That was +the consequence of their being too bad to be talked about, and was the +accompaniment, by the same token, of a deep conception of their +badness. It befell therefore that when poor Strether put it to himself +that their badness was ultimately, or perhaps even insolently, what +such a scene as the one before him was, so to speak, built upon, he +could scarce shirk the dilemma of reading a roundabout echo of them +into almost anything that came up. This, he was well aware, was a +dreadful necessity; but such was the stern logic, he could only gather, +of a relation to the irregular life. + +It was the way the irregular life sat upon Bilham and Miss Barrace that +was the insidious, the delicate marvel. He was eager to concede that +their relation to it was all indirect, for anything else in him would +have shown the grossness of bad manners; but the indirectness was none +the less consonant--THAT was striking-with a grateful enjoyment of +everything that was Chad's. They spoke of him repeatedly, invoking his +good name and good nature, and the worst confusion of mind for Strether +was that all their mention of him was of a kind to do him honour. They +commended his munificence and approved his taste, and in doing so sat +down, as it seemed to Strether, in the very soil out of which these +things flowered. Our friend's final predicament was that he himself +was sitting down, for the time, WITH them, and there was a supreme +moment at which, compared with his collapse, Waymarsh's erectness +affected him as really high. One thing was certain--he saw he must +make up his mind. He must approach Chad, must wait for him, deal with +him, master him, but he mustn't dispossess himself of the faculty of +seeing things as they were. He must bring him to HIM--not go himself, +as it were, so much of the way. He must at any rate be clearer as to +what--should he continue to do that for convenience--he was still +condoning. It was on the detail of this quantity--and what could the +fact be but mystifying?-that Bilham and Miss Barrace threw so little +light. So there they were. + + + +II + + +When Miss Gostrey arrived, at the end of a week, she made him a sign; +he went immediately to see her, and it wasn't till then that he could +again close his grasp on the idea of a corrective. This idea however +was luckily all before him again from the moment he crossed the +threshold of the little entresol of the Quartier Marboeuf into which +she had gathered, as she said, picking them up in a thousand flights +and funny little passionate pounces, the makings of a final nest. He +recognised in an instant that there really, there only, he should find +the boon with the vision of which he had first mounted Chad's stairs. +He might have been a little scared at the picture of how much more, in +this place, he should know himself "in" hadn't his friend been on the +spot to measure the amount to his appetite. Her compact and crowded +little chambers, almost dusky, as they at first struck him, with +accumulations, represented a supreme general adjustment to +opportunities and conditions. Wherever he looked he saw an old ivory +or an old brocade, and he scarce knew where to sit for fear of a +misappliance. The life of the occupant struck him of a sudden as more +charged with possession even than Chad's or than Miss Barrace's; wide +as his glimpse had lately become of the empire of "things," what was +before him still enlarged it; the lust of the eyes and the pride of +life had indeed thus their temple. It was the innermost nook of the +shrine--as brown as a pirate's cave. In the brownness were glints of +gold; patches of purple were in the gloom; objects all that caught, +through the muslin, with their high rarity, the light of the low +windows. Nothing was clear about them but that they were precious, and +they brushed his ignorance with their contempt as a flower, in a +liberty taken with him, might have been whisked under his nose. But +after a full look at his hostess he knew none the less what most +concerned him. The circle in which they stood together was warm with +life, and every question between them would live there as nowhere else. +A question came up as soon as they had spoken, for his answer, with a +laugh, was quickly: "Well, they've got hold of me!" Much of their +talk on this first occasion was his development of that truth. He was +extraordinarily glad to see her, expressing to her frankly what she +most showed him, that one might live for years without a blessing +unsuspected, but that to know it at last for no more than three days +was to need it or miss it for ever. She was the blessing that had now +become his need, and what could prove it better than that without her +he had lost himself? + +"What do you mean?" she asked with an absence of alarm that, correcting +him as if he had mistaken the "period" of one of her pieces, gave him +afresh a sense of her easy movement through the maze he had but begun +to tread. "What in the name of all the Pococks have you managed to do?" + +"Why exactly the wrong thing. I've made a frantic friend of little +Bilham." + +"Ah that sort of thing was of the essence of your case and to have been +allowed for from the first." And it was only after this that, quite as +a minor matter, she asked who in the world little Bilham might be. When +she learned that he was a friend of Chad's and living for the time in +Chad's rooms in Chad's absence, quite as if acting in Chad's spirit and +serving Chad's cause, she showed, however, more interest. "Should you +mind my seeing him? Only once, you know," she added. + +"Oh the oftener the better: he's amusing--he's original." + +"He doesn't shock you?" Miss Gostrey threw out. + +"Never in the world! We escape that with a perfection--! I feel it to +be largely, no doubt, because I don't half-understand him; but our +modus vivendi isn't spoiled even by that. You must dine with me to +meet him," Strether went on. "Then you'll see.' + +"Are you giving dinners?" + +"Yes--there I am. That's what I mean." + +All her kindness wondered. "That you're spending too much money?" + +"Dear no--they seem to cost so little. But that I do it to THEM. I +ought to hold off." + +She thought again--she laughed. "The money you must be spending to +think it cheap! But I must be out of it--to the naked eye." + +He looked for a moment as if she were really failing him. "Then you +won't meet them?" It was almost as if she had developed an unexpected +personal prudence. + +She hesitated. "Who are they--first?" + +"Why little Bilham to begin with." He kept back for the moment Miss +Barrace. "And Chad--when he comes--you must absolutely see." + +"When then does he come?" + +"When Bilham has had time to write him, and hear from him about me. +Bilham, however," he pursued, "will report favourably--favourably for +Chad. That will make him not afraid to come. I want you the more +therefore, you see, for my bluff." + +"Oh you'll do yourself for your bluff." She was perfectly easy. "At +the rate you've gone I'm quiet." + +"Ah but I haven't," said Strether, "made one protest." + +She turned it over. "Haven't you been seeing what there's to protest +about?" + +He let her, with this, however ruefully, have the whole truth. "I +haven't yet found a single thing." + +"Isn't there any one WITH him then?" + +"Of the sort I came out about?" Strether took a moment. "How do I +know? And what do I care?" + +"Oh oh!"--and her laughter spread. He was struck in fact by the effect +on her of his joke. He saw now how he meant it as a joke. SHE saw, +however, still other things, though in an instant she had hidden them. +"You've got at no facts at all?" + +He tried to muster them. "Well, he has a lovely home." + +"Ah that, in Paris," she quickly returned, "proves nothing. That is +rather it DISproves nothing. They may very well, you see, the people +your mission is concerned with, have done it FOR him." + +"Exactly. And it was on the scene of their doings then that Waymarsh +and I sat guzzling." + +"Oh if you forbore to guzzle here on scenes of doings," she replied, +"you might easily die of starvation." With which she smiled at him. +"You've worse before you." + +"Ah I've EVERYTHING before me. But on our hypothesis, you know, they +must be wonderful." + +"They ARE!" said Miss Gostrey. "You're not therefore, you see," she +added, "wholly without facts. They've BEEN, in effect, wonderful." + +To have got at something comparatively definite appeared at last a +little to help--a wave by which moreover, the next moment, recollection +was washed. "My young man does admit furthermore that they're our +friend's great interest." + +"Is that the expression he uses?" + +Strether more exactly recalled. "No--not quite." + +"Something more vivid? Less?" + +He had bent, with neared glasses, over a group of articles on a small +stand; and at this he came up. "It was a mere allusion, but, on the +lookout as I was, it struck me. 'Awful, you know, as Chad is'--those +were Bilham's words." + +"'Awful, you know'--? Oh!"--and Miss Gostrey turned them over. She +seemed, however, satisfied. "Well, what more do you want?" + +He glanced once more at a bibelot or two, and everything sent him back. +"But it is all the same as if they wished to let me have it between the +eyes." + +She wondered. "Quoi donc?" + +"Why what I speak of. The amenity. They can stun you with that as +well as with anything else." + +"Oh," she answered, "you'll come round! I must see them each," she went +on, "for myself. I mean Mr. Bilham and Mr. Newsome--Mr. Bilham +naturally first. Once only--once for each; that will do. But face to +face--for half an hour. What's Mr. Chad," she immediately pursued, +"doing at Cannes? Decent men don't go to Cannes with the--well, with +the kind of ladies you mean." + +"Don't they?" Strether asked with an interest in decent men that +amused her. + +"No, elsewhere, but not to Cannes. Cannes is different. Cannes is +better. Cannes is best. I mean it's all people you know--when you do +know them. And if HE does, why that's different too. He must have +gone alone. She can't be with him." + +"I haven't," Strether confessed in his weakness, "the least idea." +There seemed much in what she said, but he was able after a little to +help her to a nearer impression. The meeting with little Bilham took +place, by easy arrangement, in the great gallery of the Louvre; and +when, standing with his fellow visitor before one of the splendid +Titians--the overwhelming portrait of the young man with the +strangely-shaped glove and the blue-grey eyes--he turned to see the +third member of their party advance from the end of the waxed and +gilded vista, he had a sense of having at last taken hold. He had +agreed with Miss Gostrey--it dated even from Chester--for a morning at +the Louvre, and he had embraced independently the same idea as thrown +out by little Bilham, whom he had already accompanied to the museum of +the Luxembourg. The fusion of these schemes presented no difficulty, +and it was to strike him again that in little Bilham's company +contrarieties in general dropped. + +"Oh he's all right--he's one of US!" Miss Gostrey, after the first +exchange, soon found a chance to murmur to her companion; and Strether, +as they proceeded and paused and while a quick unanimity between the +two appeared to have phrased itself in half a dozen remarks--Strether +knew that he knew almost immediately what she meant, and took it as +still another sign that he had got his job in hand. This was the more +grateful to him that he could think of the intelligence now serving him +as an acquisition positively new. He wouldn't have known even the day +before what she meant--that is if she meant, what he assumed, that they +were intense Americans together. He had just worked round--and with a +sharper turn of the screw than any yet--to the conception of an +American intense as little Bilham was intense. The young man was his +first specimen; the specimen had profoundly perplexed him; at present +however there was light. It was by little Bilham's amazing serenity +that he had at first been affected, but he had inevitably, in his +circumspection, felt it as the trail of the serpent, the corruption, as +he might conveniently have said, of Europe; whereas the promptness with +which it came up for Miss Gostrey but as a special little form of the +oldest thing they knew justified it at once to his own vision as well. +He wanted to be able to like his specimen with a clear good conscience, +and this fully permitted it. What had muddled him was precisely the +small artist-man's way--it was so complete--of being more American than +anybody. But it now for the time put Strether vastly at his ease to +have this view of a new way. + +The amiable youth then looked out, as it had first struck Strether, at +a world in respect to which he hadn't a prejudice. The one our friend +most instantly missed was the usual one in favour of an occupation +accepted. Little Bilham had an occupation, but it was only an +occupation declined; and it was by his general exemption from alarm, +anxiety or remorse on this score that the impression of his serenity +was made. He had come out to Paris to paint--to fathom, that is, at +large, that mystery; but study had been fatal to him so far as anything +COULD be fatal, and his productive power faltered in proportion as his +knowledge grew. Strether had gathered from him that at the moment of +his finding him in Chad's rooms he hadn't saved from his shipwreck a +scrap of anything but his beautiful intelligence and his confirmed +habit of Paris. He referred to these things with an equal fond +familiarity, and it was sufficiently clear that, as an outfit, they +still served him. They were charming to Strether through the hour +spent at the Louvre, where indeed they figured for him as an +unseparated part of the charged iridescent air, the glamour of the +name, the splendour of the space, the colour of the masters. Yet they +were present too wherever the young man led, and the day after the +visit to the Louvre they hung, in a different walk, about the steps of +our party. He had invited his companions to cross the river with him, +offering to show them his own poor place; and his own poor place, which +was very poor, gave to his idiosyncrasies, for Strether--the small +sublime indifference and independences that had struck the latter as +fresh--an odd and engaging dignity. He lived at the end of an alley +that went out of an old short cobbled street, a street that went in +turn out of a new long smooth avenue--street and avenue and alley +having, however, in common a sort of social shabbiness; and he +introduced them to the rather cold and blank little studio which he had +lent to a comrade for the term of his elegant absence. The comrade was +another ingenuous compatriot, to whom he had wired that tea was to +await them "regardless," and this reckless repast, and the second +ingenuous compatriot, and the faraway makeshift life, with its jokes +and its gaps, its delicate daubs and its three or four chairs, its +overflow of taste and conviction and its lack of nearly all else--these +things wove round the occasion a spell to which our hero unreservedly +surrendered. + +He liked the ingenuous compatriots--for two or three others soon +gathered; he liked the delicate daubs and the free +discriminations--involving references indeed, involving enthusiasms and +execrations that made him, as they said, sit up; he liked above all the +legend of good-humoured poverty, of mutual accommodation fairly raised +to the romantic, that he soon read into the scene. The ingenuous +compatriots showed a candour, he thought, surpassing even the candour +of Woollett; they were red-haired and long-legged, they were quaint and +queer and dear and droll; they made the place resound with the +vernacular, which he had never known so marked as when figuring for the +chosen language, he must suppose, of contemporary art. They twanged +with a vengeance the aesthetic lyre--they drew from it wonderful airs. +This aspect of their life had an admirable innocence; and he looked on +occasion at Maria Gostrey to see to what extent that element reached +her. She gave him however for the hour, as she had given him the +previous day, no further sign than to show how she dealt with boys; +meeting them with the air of old Parisian practice that she had for +every one, for everything, in turn. Wonderful about the delicate daubs, +masterful about the way to make tea, trustful about the legs of chairs +and familiarly reminiscent of those, in the other time, the named, the +numbered or the caricatured, who had flourished or failed, disappeared +or arrived, she had accepted with the best grace her second course of +little Bilham, and had said to Strether, the previous afternoon on his +leaving them, that, since her impression was to be renewed, she would +reserve judgement till after the new evidence. + +The new evidence was to come, as it proved, in a day or two. He soon +had from Maria a message to the effect that an excellent box at the +Francais had been lent her for the following night; it seeming on such +occasions not the least of her merits that she was subject to such +approaches. The sense of how she was always paying for something in +advance was equalled on Strether's part only by the sense of how she +was always being paid; all of which made for his consciousness, in the +larger air, of a lively bustling traffic, the exchange of such values +as were not for him to handle. She hated, he knew, at the French play, +anything but a box--just as she hated at the English anything but a +stall; and a box was what he was already in this phase girding himself +to press upon her. But she had for that matter her community with +little Bilham: she too always, on the great issues, showed as having +known in time. It made her constantly beforehand with him and gave him +mainly the chance to ask himself how on the day of their settlement +their account would stand. He endeavoured even now to keep it a little +straight by arranging that if he accepted her invitation she should +dine with him first; but the upshot of this scruple was that at eight +o'clock on the morrow he awaited her with Waymarsh under the pillared +portico. She hadn't dined with him, and it was characteristic of their +relation that she had made him embrace her refusal without in the least +understanding it. She ever caused her rearrangements to affect him as +her tenderest touches. It was on that principle for instance that, +giving him the opportunity to be amiable again to little Bilham, she +had suggested his offering the young man a seat in their box. Strether +had dispatched for this purpose a small blue missive to the Boulevard +Malesherbes, but up to the moment of their passing into the theatre he +had received no response to his message. He held, however, even after +they had been for some time conveniently seated, that their friend, who +knew his way about, would come in at his own right moment. His +temporary absence moreover seemed, as never yet, to make the right +moment for Miss Gostrey. Strether had been waiting till tonight to get +back from her in some mirrored form her impressions and conclusions. +She had elected, as they said, to see little Bilham once; but now she +had seen him twice and had nevertheless not said more than a word. + +Waymarsh meanwhile sat opposite him with their hostess between; and +Miss Gostrey spoke of herself as an instructor of youth introducing her +little charges to a work that was one of the glories of literature. The +glory was happily unobjectionable, and the little charges were candid; +for herself she had travelled that road and she merely waited on their +innocence. But she referred in due time to their absent friend, whom +it was clear they should have to give up. "He either won't have got +your note," she said, "or you won't have got his: he has had some kind +of hindrance, and, of course, for that matter, you know, a man never +writes about coming to a box." She spoke as if, with her look, it +might have been Waymarsh who had written to the youth, and the latter's +face showed a mixture of austerity and anguish. She went on however as +if to meet this. "He's far and away, you know, the best of them." + +"The best of whom, ma'am?" + +"Why of all the long procession--the boys, the girls, or the old men +and old women as they sometimes really are; the hope, as one may say, +of our country. They've all passed, year after year; but there has +been no one in particular I've ever wanted to stop. I feel--don't +YOU?--that I want to stop little Bilham; he's so exactly right as he +is." She continued to talk to Waymarsh. "He's too delightful. If +he'll only not spoil it! But they always WILL; they always do; they +always have." + +"I don't think Waymarsh knows," Strether said after a moment, "quite +what it's open to Bilham to spoil." + +"It can't be a good American," Waymarsh lucidly enough replied; "for it +didn't strike me the young man had developed much in THAT shape." + +"Ah," Miss Gostrey sighed, "the name of the good American is as easily +given as taken away! What IS it, to begin with, to BE one, and what's +the extraordinary hurry? Surely nothing that's so pressing was ever so +little defined. It's such an order, really, that before we cook you +the dish we must at least have your receipt. Besides the poor chicks +have time! What I've seen so often spoiled," she pursued, "is the happy +attitude itself, the state of faith and--what shall I call it?--the +sense of beauty. You're right about him"--she now took in Strether; +"little Bilham has them to a charm, we must keep little Bilham along." +Then she was all again for Waymarsh. "The others have all wanted so +dreadfully to do something, and they've gone and done it in too many +cases indeed. It leaves them never the same afterwards; the charm's +always somehow broken. Now HE, I think, you know, really won't. He +won't do the least dreadful little thing. We shall continue to enjoy +him just as he is. No--he's quite beautiful. He sees everything. He +isn't a bit ashamed. He has every scrap of the courage of it that one +could ask. Only think what he MIGHT do. One wants really--for fear of +some accident--to keep him in view. At this very moment perhaps what +mayn't he be up to? I've had my disappointments--the poor things are +never really safe; or only at least when you have them under your eye. +One can never completely trust them. One's uneasy, and I think that's +why I most miss him now." + +She had wound up with a laugh of enjoyment over her embroidery of her +idea--an enjoyment that her face communicated to Strether, who almost +wished none the less at this moment that she would let poor Waymarsh +alone. HE knew more or less what she meant; but the fact wasn't a +reason for her not pretending to Waymarsh that he didn't. It was +craven of him perhaps, but he would, for the high amenity of the +occasion, have liked Waymarsh not to be so sure of his wit. Her +recognition of it gave him away and, before she had done with him or +with that article, would give him worse. What was he, all the same, to +do? He looked across the box at his friend; their eyes met; something +queer and stiff, something that bore on the situation but that it was +better not to touch, passed in silence between them. Well, the effect +of it for Strether was an abrupt reaction, a final impatience of his +own tendency to temporise. Where was that taking him anyway? It was +one of the quiet instants that sometimes settle more matters than the +outbreaks dear to the historic muse. The only qualification of the +quietness was the synthetic "Oh hang it!" into which Strether's share +of the silence soundlessly flowered. It represented, this mute +ejaculation, a final impulse to burn his ships. These ships, to the +historic muse, may seem of course mere cockles, but when he presently +spoke to Miss Gostrey it was with the sense at least of applying the +torch. "Is it then a conspiracy?" + +"Between the two young men? Well, I don't pretend to be a seer or a +prophetess," she presently replied; "but if I'm simply a woman of sense +he's working for you to-night. I don't quite know how--but it's in my +bones." And she looked at him at last as if, little material as she +yet gave him, he'd really understand. "For an opinion THAT'S my +opinion. He makes you out too well not to." + +"Not to work for me to-night?" Strether wondered. "Then I hope he +isn't doing anything very bad." + +"They've got you," she portentously answered. + +"Do you mean he IS--?" + +"They've got you," she merely repeated. Though she disclaimed the +prophetic vision she was at this instant the nearest approach he had +ever met to the priestess of the oracle. The light was in her eyes. +"You must face it now." + +He faced it on the spot. "They HAD arranged--?" + +"Every move in the game. And they've been arranging ever since. He +has had every day his little telegram from Cannes." + +It made Strether open his eyes. "Do you KNOW that?" + +"I do better. I see it. This was, before I met him, what I wondered +whether I WAS to see. But as soon as I met him I ceased to wonder, and +our second meeting made me sure. I took him all in. He was acting--he +is still--on his daily instructions." + +"So that Chad has done the whole thing?" + +"Oh no--not the whole. WE'VE done some of it. You and I and 'Europe.'" + +"Europe--yes," Strether mused. + +"Dear old Paris," she seemed to explain. But there was more, and, with +one of her turns, she risked it. "And dear old Waymarsh. You," she +declared, "have been a good bit of it." + +He sat massive. "A good bit of what, ma'am?" + +"Why of the wonderful consciousness of our friend here. You've helped +too in your way to float him to where he is." + +"And where the devil IS he?" + +She passed it on with a laugh. "Where the devil, Strether, are you?" + +He spoke as if he had just been thinking it out. "Well, quite already +in Chad's hands, it would seem." And he had had with this another +thought. "Will that be--just all through Bilham--the way he's going to +work it? It would be, for him, you know, an idea. And Chad with an +idea--!" + +"Well?" she asked while the image held him. + +"Well, is Chad--what shall I say?--monstrous?" + +"Oh as much as you like! But the idea you speak of," she said, "won't +have been his best. He'll have a better. It won't be all through +little Bilham that he'll work it." + +This already sounded almost like a hope destroyed. "Through whom else +then?" + +"That's what we shall see!" But quite as she spoke she turned, and +Strether turned; for the door of the box had opened, with the click of +the ouvreuse, from the lobby, and a gentleman, a stranger to them, had +come in with a quick step. The door closed behind him, and, though +their faces showed him his mistake, his air, which was striking, was +all good confidence. The curtain had just again arisen, and, in the +hush of the general attention, Strether's challenge was tacit, as was +also the greeting, with a quickly deprecating hand and smile, of the +unannounced visitor. He discreetly signed that he would wait, would +stand, and these things and his face, one look from which she had +caught, had suddenly worked for Miss Gostrey. She fitted to them all +an answer for Strether's last question. The solid stranger was simply +the answer--as she now, turning to her friend, indicated. She brought +it straight out for him--it presented the intruder. "Why, through this +gentleman!" The gentleman indeed, at the same time, though sounding +for Strether a very short name, did practically as much to explain. +Strether gasped the name back--then only had he seen Miss Gostrey had +said more than she knew. They were in presence of Chad himself. + +Our friend was to go over it afterwards again and again--he was going +over it much of the time that they were together, and they were +together constantly for three or four days: the note had been so +strongly struck during that first half-hour that everything happening +since was comparatively a minor development. The fact was that his +perception of the young man's identity--so absolutely checked for a +minute--had been quite one of the sensations that count in life; he +certainly had never known one that had acted, as he might have said, +with more of a crowded rush. And the rush though both vague and +multitudinous, had lasted a long time, protected, as it were, yet at +the same time aggravated, by the circumstance of its coinciding with a +stretch of decorous silence. They couldn't talk without disturbing the +spectators in the part of the balcony just below them; and it, for that +matter, came to Strether--being a thing of the sort that did come to +him--that these were the accidents of a high civilisation; the imposed +tribute to propriety, the frequent exposure to conditions, usually +brilliant, in which relief has to await its time. Relief was never +quite near at hand for kings, queens, comedians and other such people, +and though you might be yourself not exactly one of those, you could +yet, in leading the life of high pressure, guess a little how they +sometimes felt. It was truly the life of high pressure that Strether +had seemed to feel himself lead while he sat there, close to Chad, +during the long tension of the act. He was in presence of a fact that +occupied his whole mind, that occupied for the half-hour his senses +themselves all together; but he couldn't without inconvenience show +anything--which moreover might count really as luck. What he might +have shown, had he shown at all, was exactly the kind of emotion--the +emotion of bewilderment--that he had proposed to himself from the +first, whatever should occur, to show least. The phenomenon that had +suddenly sat down there with him was a phenomenon of change so complete +that his imagination, which had worked so beforehand, felt itself, in +the connexion, without margin or allowance. It had faced every +contingency but that Chad should not BE Chad, and this was what it now +had to face with a mere strained smile and an uncomfortable flush. + +He asked himself if, by any chance, before he should have in some way +to commit himself, he might feel his mind settled to the new vision, +might habituate it, so to speak, to the remarkable truth. But oh it was +too remarkable, the truth; for what could be more remarkable than this +sharp rupture of an identity? You could deal with a man as +himself--you couldn't deal with him as somebody else. It was a small +source of peace moreover to be reduced to wondering how little he might +know in such an event what a sum he was setting you. He couldn't +absolutely not know, for you couldn't absolutely not let him. It was a +CASE then simply, a strong case, as people nowadays called such +things,' a case of transformation unsurpassed, and the hope was but in +the general law that strong cases were liable to control from without. +Perhaps he, Strether himself, was the only person after all aware of +it. Even Miss Gostrey, with all her science, wouldn't be, would +she?--and he had never seen any one less aware of anything than +Waymarsh as he glowered at Chad. The social sightlessness of his old +friend's survey marked for him afresh, and almost in an humiliating +way, the inevitable limits of direct aid from this source. He was not +certain, however, of not drawing a shade of compensation from the +privilege, as yet untasted, of knowing more about something in +particular than Miss Gostrey did. His situation too was a case, for +that matter, and he was now so interested, quite so privately agog, +about it, that he had already an eye to the fun it would be to open up +to her afterwards. He derived during his half-hour no assistance from +her, and just this fact of her not meeting his eyes played a little, it +must be confessed, into his predicament. + +He had introduced Chad, in the first minutes, under his breath, and +there was never the primness in her of the person unacquainted; but she +had none the less betrayed at first no vision but of the stage, where +she occasionally found a pretext for an appreciative moment that she +invited Waymarsh to share. The latter's faculty of participation had +never had, all round, such an assault to meet; the pressure on him +being the sharper for this chosen attitude in her, as Strether judged +it, of isolating, for their natural intercourse, Chad and himself. This +intercourse was meanwhile restricted to a frank friendly look from the +young man, something markedly like a smile, but falling far short of a +grin, and to the vivacity of Strether's private speculation as to +whether HE carried himself like a fool. He didn't quite see how he +could so feel as one without somehow showing as one. The worst of that +question moreover was that he knew it as a symptom the sense of which +annoyed him. "If I'm going to be odiously conscious of how I may +strike the fellow," he reflected, "it was so little what I came out for +that I may as well stop before I begin." This sage consideration too, +distinctly, seemed to leave untouched the fact that he WAS going to be +conscious. He was conscious of everything but of what would have +served him. + +He was to know afterwards, in the watches of the night, that nothing +would have been more open to him than after a minute or two to propose +to Chad to seek with him the refuge of the lobby. He hadn't only not +proposed it, but had lacked even the presence of mind to see it as +possible. He had stuck there like a schoolboy wishing not to miss a +minute of the show; though for that portion of the show then presented +he hadn't had an instant's real attention. He couldn't when the +curtain fell have given the slightest account of what had happened. He +had therefore, further, not at that moment acknowledged the amenity +added by this acceptance of his awkwardness to Chad's general patience. +Hadn't he none the less known at the very time--known it stupidly and +without reaction--that the boy was accepting something? He was +modestly benevolent, the boy--that was at least what he had been +capable of the superiority of making out his chance to be; and one had +one's self literally not had the gumption to get in ahead of him. If +we should go into all that occupied our friend in the watches of the +night we should have to mend our pen; but an instance or two may mark +for us the vividness with which he could remember. He remembered the +two absurdities that, if his presence of mind HAD failed, were the +things that had had most to do with it. He had never in his life seen +a young man come into a box at ten o'clock at night, and would, if +challenged on the question in advance, have scarce been ready to +pronounce as to different ways of doing so. But it was in spite of +this definite to him that Chad had had a way that was wonderful: a +fact carrying with it an implication that, as one might imagine it, he +knew, he had learned, how. + +Here already then were abounding results; he had on the spot and +without the least trouble of intention taught Strether that even in so +small a thing as that there were different ways. He had done in the +same line still more than this; had by a mere shake or two of the head +made his old friend observe that the change in him was perhaps more +than anything else, for the eye, a matter of the marked streaks of +grey, extraordinary at his age, in his thick black hair; as well as +that this new feature was curiously becoming to him, did something for +him, as characterisation, also even--of all things in the world--as +refinement, that had been a good deal wanted. Strether felt, however, +he would have had to confess, that it wouldn't have been easy just now, +on this and other counts, in the presence of what had been supplied, to +be quite clear as to what had been missed. A reflexion a candid critic +might have made of old, for instance, was that it would have been +happier for the son to look more like the mother; but this was a +reflexion that at present would never occur. The ground had quite +fallen away from it, yet no resemblance whatever to the mother had +supervened. It would have been hard for a young man's face and air to +disconnect themselves more completely than Chad's at this juncture from +any discerned, from any imaginable aspect of a New England female +parent. That of course was no more than had been on the cards; but it +produced in Strether none the less one of those frequent phenomena of +mental reference with which all judgement in him was actually beset. + +Again and again as the days passed he had had a sense of the pertinence +of communicating quickly with Woollett--communicating with a quickness +with which telegraphy alone would rhyme; the fruit really of a fine +fancy in him for keeping things straight, for the happy forestalment of +error. No one could explain better when needful, nor put more +conscience into an account or a report; which burden of conscience is +perhaps exactly the reason why his heart always sank when the clouds of +explanation gathered. His highest ingenuity was in keeping the sky of +life clear of them. Whether or no he had a grand idea of the lucid, he +held that nothing ever was in fact--for any one else--explained. One +went through the vain motions, but it was mostly a waste of life. A +personal relation was a relation only so long as people either +perfectly understood or, better still, didn't care if they didn't. From +the moment they cared if they didn't it was living by the sweat of +one's brow; and the sweat of one's brow was just what one might buy +one's self off from by keeping the ground free of the wild weed of +delusion. It easily grew too fast, and the Atlantic cable now alone +could race with it. That agency would each day have testified for him +to something that was not what Woollett had argued. He was not at this +moment absolutely sure that the effect of the morrow's--or rather of +the night's--appreciation of the crisis wouldn't be to determine some +brief missive. "Have at last seen him, but oh dear!"--some temporary +relief of that sort seemed to hover before him. It hovered somehow as +preparing them all--yet preparing them for what? If he might do so +more luminously and cheaply he would tick out in four words: "Awfully +old--grey hair." To this particular item in Chad's appearance he +constantly, during their mute half-hour, reverted; as if so very much +more than he could have said had been involved in it. The most he +could have said would have been: "If he's going to make me feel +young--!" which indeed, however, carried with it quite enough. If +Strether was to feel young, that is, it would be because Chad was to +feel old; and an aged and hoary sinner had been no part of the scheme. + +The question of Chadwick's true time of life was, doubtless, what came +up quickest after the adjournment of the two, when the play was over, +to a cafe in the Avenue de l'Opera. Miss Gostrey had in due course +been perfect for such a step; she had known exactly what they +wanted--to go straight somewhere and talk; and Strether had even felt +she had known what he wished to say and that he was arranging +immediately to begin. She hadn't pretended this, as she HAD pretended +on the other hand, to have divined Waymarsh's wish to extend to her an +independent protection homeward; but Strether nevertheless found how, +after he had Chad opposite to him at a small table in the brilliant +halls that his companion straightway selected, sharply and easily +discriminated from others, it was quite, to his mind, as if she heard +him speak; as if, sitting up, a mile away, in the little apartment he +knew, she would listen hard enough to catch. He found too that he +liked that idea, and he wished that, by the same token, Mrs. Newsome +might have caught as well. For what had above all been determined in +him as a necessity of the first order was not to lose another hour, nor +a fraction of one; was to advance, to overwhelm, with a rush. This was +how he would anticipate--by a night-attack, as might be--any forced +maturity that a crammed consciousness of Paris was likely to take upon +itself to assert on behalf of the boy. He knew to the full, on what he +had just extracted from Miss Gostrey, Chad's marks of alertness; but +they were a reason the more for not dawdling. If he was himself +moreover to be treated as young he wouldn't at all events be so treated +before he should have struck out at least once. His arms might be +pinioned afterwards, but it would have been left on record that he was +fifty. The importance of this he had indeed begun to feel before they +left the theatre; it had become a wild unrest, urging him to seize his +chance. He could scarcely wait for it as they went; he was on the +verge of the indecency of bringing up the question in the street; he +fairly caught himself going on--so he afterwards invidiously named +it--as if there would be for him no second chance should the present be +lost. Not till, on the purple divan before the perfunctory bock, he +had brought out the words themselves, was he sure, for that matter, +that the present would be saved. + + + + + +Book Fourth + + + + +I + + +"I've come, you know, to make you break with everything, neither more +nor less, and take you straight home; so you'll be so good as +immediately and favourably to consider it!"--Strether, face to face +with Chad after the play, had sounded these words almost breathlessly, +and with an effect at first positively disconcerting to himself alone. +For Chad's receptive attitude was that of a person who had been +gracefully quiet while the messenger at last reaching him has run a +mile through the dust. During some seconds after he had spoken +Strether felt as if HE had made some such exertion; he was not even +certain that the perspiration wasn't on his brow. It was the kind of +consciousness for which he had to thank the look that, while the strain +lasted, the young man's eyes gave him. They reflected--and the deuce +of the thing was that they reflected really with a sort of shyness of +kindness--his momentarily disordered state; which fact brought on in +its turn for our friend the dawn of a fear that Chad might simply "take +it out"--take everything out--in being sorry for him. Such a fear, any +fear, was unpleasant. But everything was unpleasant; it was odd how +everything had suddenly turned so. This however was no reason for +letting the least thing go. Strether had the next minute proceeded as +roundly as if with an advantage to follow up. "Of course I'm a +busybody, if you want to fight the case to the death; but after all +mainly in the sense of having known you and having given you such +attention as you kindly permitted when you were in jackets and +knickerbockers. Yes--it was knickerbockers, I'm busybody enough to +remember that; and that you had, for your age--I speak of the first +far-away time--tremendously stout legs. Well, we want you to break. +Your mother's heart's passionately set upon it, but she has above and +beyond that excellent arguments and reasons. I've not put them into +her head--I needn't remind you how little she's a person who needs +that. But they exist--you must take it from me as a friend both of +hers and yours--for myself as well. I didn't invent them, I didn't +originally work them out; but I understand them, I think I can explain +them--by which I mean make you actively do them justice; and that's why +you see me here. You had better know the worst at once. It's a +question of an immediate rupture and an immediate return. I've been +conceited enough to dream I can sugar that pill. I take at any rate +the greatest interest in the question. I took it already before I left +home, and I don't mind telling you that, altered as you are, I take it +still more now that I've seen you. You're older and--I don't know what +to call it!--more of a handful; but you're by so much the more, I seem +to make out, to our purpose." + +"Do I strike you as improved?" Strether was to recall that Chad had at +this point enquired. + +He was likewise to recall--and it had to count for some time as his +greatest comfort--that it had been "given" him, as they said at +Woollett, to reply with some presence of mind: "I haven't the least +idea." He was really for a while to like thinking he had been +positively hard. On the point of conceding that Chad had improved in +appearance, but that to the question of appearance the remark must be +confined, he checked even that compromise and left his reservation +bare. Not only his moral, but also, as it were, his aesthetic sense +had a little to pay for this, Chad being unmistakeably--and wasn't it a +matter of the confounded grey hair again?--handsomer than he had ever +promised. That however fell in perfectly with what Strether had said. +They had no desire to keep down his proper expansion, and he wouldn't +be less to their purpose for not looking, as he had too often done of +old, only bold and wild. There was indeed a signal particular in which +he would distinctly be more so. Strether didn't, as he talked, +absolutely follow himself; he only knew he was clutching his thread and +that he held it from moment to moment a little tighter; his mere +uninterruptedness during the few minutes helped him to do that. He had +frequently for a month, turned over what he should say on this very +occasion, and he seemed at last to have said nothing he had thought +of--everything was so totally different. + +But in spite of all he had put the flag at the window. This was what +he had done, and there was a minute during which he affected himself as +having shaken it hard, flapped it with a mighty flutter, straight in +front of his companion's nose. It gave him really almost the sense of +having already acted his part. The momentary relief--as if from the +knowledge that nothing of THAT at least could be undone--sprang from a +particular cause, the cause that had flashed into operation, in Miss +Gostrey's box, with direct apprehension, with amazed recognition, and +that had been concerned since then in every throb of his consciousness. +What it came to was that with an absolutely new quantity to deal with +one simply couldn't know. The new quantity was represented by the fact +that Chad had been made over. That was all; whatever it was it was +everything. Strether had never seen the thing so done before--it was +perhaps a speciality of Paris. If one had been present at the process +one might little by little have mastered the result; but he was face to +face, as matters stood, with the finished business. It had freely been +noted for him that he might be received as a dog among skittles, but +that was on the basis of the old quantity. He had originally thought of +lines and tones as things to be taken, but these possibilities had now +quite melted away. There was no computing at all what the young man +before him would think or feel or say on any subject whatever. This +intelligence Strether had afterwards, to account for his nervousness, +reconstituted as he might, just as he had also reconstituted the +promptness with which Chad had corrected his uncertainty. An +extraordinarily short time had been required for the correction, and +there had ceased to be anything negative in his companion's face and +air as soon as it was made. "Your engagement to my mother has become +then what they call here a fait accompli?"--it had consisted, the +determinant touch, in nothing more than that. + +Well, that was enough, Strether had felt while his answer hung fire. He +had felt at the same time, however, that nothing could less become him +than that it should hang fire too long. "Yes," he said brightly, "it +was on the happy settlement of the question that I started. You see +therefore to what tune I'm in your family. Moreover," he added, "I've +been supposing you'd suppose it." + +"Oh I've been supposing it for a long time, and what you tell me helps +me to understand that you should want to do something. To do +something, I mean," said Chad, "to commemorate an event so--what do +they call it?--so auspicious. I see you make out, and not +unnaturally," he continued, "that bringing me home in triumph as a sort +of wedding-present to Mother would commemorate it better than anything +else. You want to make a bonfire in fact," he laughed, "and you pitch +me on. Thank you, thank you!" he laughed again. + +He was altogether easy about it, and this made Strether now see how at +bottom, and in spite of the shade of shyness that really cost him +nothing, he had from the first moment been easy about everything. The +shade of shyness was mere good taste. People with manners formed could +apparently have, as one of their best cards, the shade of shyness too. +He had leaned a little forward to speak; his elbows were on the table; +and the inscrutable new face that he had got somewhere and somehow was +brought by the movement nearer to his critics There was a fascination +for that critic in its not being, this ripe physiognomy, the face that, +under observation at least, he had originally carried away from +Woollett. Strether found a certain freedom on his own side in defining +it as that of a man of the world--a formula that indeed seemed to come +now in some degree to his relief; that of a man to whom things had +happened and were variously known. In gleams, in glances, the past did +perhaps peep out of it; but such lights were faint and instantly +merged. Chad was brown and thick and strong, and of old Chad had been +rough. Was all the difference therefore that he was actually smooth? +Possibly; for that he WAS smooth was as marked as in the taste of a +sauce or in the rub of a hand. The effect of it was general--it had +retouched his features, drawn them with a cleaner line. It had cleared +his eyes and settled his colour and polished his fine square teeth--the +main ornament of his face; and at the same time that it had given him a +form and a surface, almost a design, it had toned his voice, +established his accent, encouraged his smile to more play and his other +motions to less. He had formerly, with a great deal of action, +expressed very little; and he now expressed whatever was necessary with +almost none at all. It was as if in short he had really, copious +perhaps but shapeless, been put into a firm mould and turned +successfully out. The phenomenon--Strether kept eyeing it as a +phenomenon, an eminent case--was marked enough to be touched by the +finger. He finally put his hand across the table and laid it on Chad's +arm. "If you'll promise me--here on the spot and giving me your word of +honour--to break straight off, you'll make the future the real right +thing for all of us alike. You'll ease off the strain of this decent +but none the less acute suspense in which I've for so many days been +waiting for you, and let me turn in to rest. I shall leave you with my +blessing and go to bed in peace." + +Chad again fell back at this and, his hands pocketed, settled himself a +little; in which posture he looked, though he rather anxiously smiled, +only the more earnest. Then Strether seemed to see that he was really +nervous, and he took that as what he would have called a wholesome +sign. The only mark of it hitherto had been his more than once taking +off and putting on his wide-brimmed crush hat. He had at this moment +made the motion again to remove it, then had only pushed it back, so +that it hung informally on his strong young grizzled crop. It was a +touch that gave the note of the familiar--the intimate and the +belated--to their quiet colloquy; and it was indeed by some such +trivial aid that Strether became aware at the same moment of something +else. The observation was at any rate determined in him by some light +too fine to distinguish from so many others, but it was none the less +sharply determined. Chad looked unmistakeably during these +instants--well, as Strether put it to himself, all he was worth. Our +friend had a sudden apprehension of what that would on certain sides +be. He saw him in a flash as the young man marked out by women; and for +a concentrated minute the dignity, the comparative austerity, as he +funnily fancied it, of this character affected him almost with awe. +There was an experience on his interlocutor's part that looked out at +him from under the displaced hat, and that looked out moreover by a +force of its own, the deep fact of its quantity and quality, and not +through Chad's intending bravado or swagger. That was then the way men +marked out by women WERE--and also the men by whom the women were +doubtless in turn sufficiently distinguished. It affected Strether for +thirty seconds as a relevant truth, a truth which, however, the next +minute, had fallen into its relation. "Can't you imagine there being +some questions," Chad asked, "that a fellow--however much impressed by +your charming way of stating things--would like to put to you first?" + +"Oh yes--easily. I'm here to answer everything. I think I can even +tell you things, of the greatest interest to you, that you won't know +enough to ask me. We'll take as many days to it as you like. But I +want," Strether wound up, "to go to bed now." + +"Really?" + +Chad had spoken in such surprise that he was amused. "Can't you +believe it?--with what you put me through?" + +The young man seemed to consider. "Oh I haven't put you through +much--yet." + +"Do you mean there's so much more to come?" Strether laughed. "All +the more reason then that I should gird myself." And as if to mark +what he felt he could by this time count on he was already on his feet. + +Chad, still seated, stayed him, with a hand against him, as he passed +between their table and the next. "Oh we shall get on!" + +The tone was, as who should say, everything Strether could have +desired; and quite as good the expression of face with which the +speaker had looked up at him and kindly held him. All these things +lacked was their not showing quite so much as the fruit of experience. +Yes, experience was what Chad did play on him, if he didn't play any +grossness of defiance. Of course experience was in a manner defiance; +but it wasn't, at any rate--rather indeed quite the +contrary!--grossness; which was so much gained. He fairly grew older, +Strether thought, while he himself so reasoned. Then with his mature +pat of his visitor's arm he also got up; and there had been enough of +it all by this time to make the visitor feel that something WAS +settled. Wasn't it settled that he had at least the testimony of +Chad's own belief in a settlement? Strether found himself treating +Chad's profession that they would get on as a sufficient basis for +going to bed. He hadn't nevertheless after this gone to bed directly; +for when they had again passed out together into the mild bright night +a check had virtually sprung from nothing more than a small +circumstance which might have acted only as confirming quiescence. +There were people, expressive sound, projected light, still abroad, and +after they had taken in for a moment, through everything, the great +clear architectural street, they turned off in tacit union to the +quarter of Strether's hotel. "Of course," Chad here abruptly began, +"of course Mother's making things out with you about me has been +natural--and of course also you've had a good deal to go upon. Still, +you must have filled out." + +He had stopped, leaving his friend to wonder a little what point he +wished to make; and this it was that enabled Strether meanwhile to make +one. "Oh we've never pretended to go into detail. We weren't in the +least bound to THAT. It was 'filling out' enough to miss you as we +did." + +But Chad rather oddly insisted, though under the high lamp at their +corner, where they paused, he had at first looked as if touched by +Strether's allusion to the long sense, at home, of his absence. "What +I mean is you must have imagined." + +"Imagined what?" + +"Well--horrors." + +It affected Strether: horrors were so little--superficially at +least--in this robust and reasoning image. But he was none the less +there to be veracious. "Yes, I dare say we HAVE imagined horrors. But +where's the harm if we haven't been wrong?" + +Chad raised his face to the lamp, and it was one of the moments at +which he had, in his extraordinary way, most his air of designedly +showing himself. It was as if at these instants he just presented +himself, his identity so rounded off, his palpable presence and his +massive young manhood, as such a link in the chain as might practically +amount to a kind of demonstration. It was as if--and how but +anomalously?--he couldn't after all help thinking sufficiently well of +these things to let them go for what they were worth. What could there +be in this for Strether but the hint of some self-respect, some sense +of power, oddly perverted; something latent and beyond access, ominous +and perhaps enviable? The intimation had the next thing, in a flash, +taken on a name--a name on which our friend seized as he asked himself +if he weren't perhaps really dealing with an irreducible young Pagan. +This description--he quite jumped at it--had a sound that gratified his +mental ear, so that of a sudden he had already adopted it. Pagan--yes, +that was, wasn't it? what Chad WOULD logically be. It was what he +must be. It was what he was. The idea was a clue and, instead of +darkening the prospect, projected a certain clearness. Strether made +out in this quick ray that a Pagan was perhaps, at the pass they had +come to, the thing most wanted at Woollett. They'd be able to do with +one--a good one; he'd find an opening--yes; and Strether's imagination +even now prefigured and accompanied the first appearance there of the +rousing personage. He had only the slight discomfort of feeling, as the +young man turned away from the lamp, that his thought had in the +momentary silence possibly been guessed. "Well, I've no doubt," said +Chad, "you've come near enough. The details, as you say, don't matter. +It HAS been generally the case that I've let myself go. But I'm coming +round--I'm not so bad now." With which they walked on again to +Strether's hotel. + +"Do you mean," the latter asked as they approached the door, "that +there isn't any woman with you now?" + +"But pray what has that to do with it?" + +"Why it's the whole question." + +"Of my going home?" Chad was clearly surprised. "Oh not much! Do you +think that when I want to go any one will have any power--" + +"To keep you"--Strether took him straight up--"from carrying out your +wish? Well, our idea has been that somebody has hitherto--or a good +many persons perhaps--kept you pretty well from 'wanting.' That's +what--if you're in anybody's hands--may again happen. You don't answer +my question"--he kept it up; "but if you aren't in anybody's hands so +much the better. There's nothing then but what makes for your going." + +Chad turned this over. "I don't answer your question?" He spoke quite +without resenting it. "Well, such questions have always a rather +exaggerated side. One doesn't know quite what you mean by being in +women's 'hands.' It's all so vague. One is when one isn't. One isn't +when one is. And then one can't quite give people away." He seemed +kindly to explain. "I've NEVER got stuck--so very hard; and, as +against anything at any time really better, I don't think I've ever +been afraid." There was something in it that held Strether to wonder, +and this gave him time to go on. He broke out as with a more helpful +thought. "Don't you know how I like Paris itself?" + +The upshot was indeed to make our friend marvel. "Oh if THAT'S all +that's the matter with you--!" It was HE who almost showed resentment. + +Chad's smile of a truth more than met it. "But isn't that enough?" + +Strether hesitated, but it came out. "Not enough for your mother!" +Spoken, however, it sounded a trifle odd--the effect of which was that +Chad broke into a laugh. Strether, at this, succumbed as well, though +with extreme brevity. "Permit us to have still our theory. But if you +ARE so free and so strong you're inexcusable. I'll write in the +morning," he added with decision. "I'll say I've got you." + +This appeared to open for Chad a new interest. "How often do you +write?" + +"Oh perpetually." + +"And at great length?" + +Strether had become a little impatient. "I hope it's not found too +great." + +"Oh I'm sure not. And you hear as often?" + +Again Strether paused. "As often as I deserve." + +"Mother writes," said Chad, "a lovely letter." + +Strether, before the closed porte-cochere, fixed him a moment. "It's +more, my boy, than YOU do! But our suppositions don't matter," he +added, "if you're actually not entangled." + +Chad's pride seemed none the less a little touched. "I never WAS +that--let me insist. I always had my own way." With which he pursued: +"And I have it at present." + +"Then what are you here for? What has kept you," Strether asked, "if +you HAVE been able to leave?" + +It made Chad, after a stare, throw himself back. "Do you think one's +kept only by women?" His surprise and his verbal emphasis rang out so +clear in the still street that Strether winced till he remembered the +safety of their English speech. "Is that," the young man demanded, +"what they think at Woollett?" At the good faith in the question +Strether had changed colour, feeling that, as he would have said, he +had put his foot in it. He had appeared stupidly to misrepresent what +they thought at Woollett; but before he had time to rectify Chad again +was upon him. "I must say then you show a low mind!" + +It so fell in, unhappily for Strether, with that reflexion of his own +prompted in him by the pleasant air of the Boulevard Malesherbes, that +its disconcerting force was rather unfairly great. It was a dig that, +administered by himself--and administered even to poor Mrs. +Newsome--was no more than salutary; but administered by Chad--and quite +logically--it came nearer drawing blood. They HADn't a low mind--nor +any approach to one; yet incontestably they had worked, and with a +certain smugness, on a basis that might be turned against them. Chad +had at any rate pulled his visitor up; he had even pulled up his +admirable mother; he had absolutely, by a turn of the wrist and a jerk +of the far-flung noose, pulled up, in a bunch, Woollett browsing in its +pride. There was no doubt Woollett HAD insisted on his coarseness; and +what he at present stood there for in the sleeping street was, by his +manner of striking the other note, to make of such insistence a +preoccupation compromising to the insisters. It was exactly as if they +had imputed to him a vulgarity that he had by a mere gesture caused to +fall from him. The devil of the case was that Strether felt it, by the +same stroke, as falling straight upon himself. He had been wondering a +minute ago if the boy weren't a Pagan, and he found himself wondering +now if he weren't by chance a gentleman. It didn't in the least, on +the spot, spring up helpfully for him that a person couldn't at the +same time be both. There was nothing at this moment in the air to +challenge the combination; there was everything to give it on the +contrary something of a flourish. It struck Strether into the bargain +as doing something to meet the most difficult of the questions; though +perhaps indeed only by substituting another. Wouldn't it be precisely +by having learned to be a gentleman that he had mastered the consequent +trick of looking so well that one could scarce speak to him straight? +But what in the world was the clue to such a prime producing cause? +There were too many clues then that Strether still lacked, and these +clues to clues were among them. What it accordingly amounted to for him +was that he had to take full in the face a fresh attribution of +ignorance. He had grown used by this time to reminders, especially +from his own lips, of what he didn't know; but he had borne them +because in the first place they were private and because in the second +they practically conveyed a tribute. He didn't know what was bad, +and--as others didn't know how little he knew it--he could put up with +his state. But if he didn't know, in so important a particular, what +was good, Chad at least was now aware he didn't; and that, for some +reason, affected our friend as curiously public. It was in fact an +exposed condition that the young man left him in long enough for him to +feel its chill--till he saw fit, in a word, generously again to cover +him. This last was in truth what Chad quite gracefully did. But he +did it as with a simple thought that met the whole of the case. "Oh +I'm all right!" It was what Strether had rather bewilderedly to go to +bed on. + + + +II + + +It really looked true moreover from the way Chad was to behave after +this. He was full of attentions to his mother's ambassador; in spite +of which, all the while, the latter's other relations rather remarkably +contrived to assert themselves. Strether's sittings pen in hand with +Mrs. Newsome up in his own room were broken, yet they were richer; and +they were more than ever interspersed with the hours in which he +reported himself, in a different fashion, but with scarce less +earnestness and fulness, to Maria Gostrey. Now that, as he would have +expressed it, he had really something to talk about he found himself, +in respect to any oddity that might reside for him in the double +connexion, at once more aware and more indifferent. He had been fine +to Mrs. Newsome about his useful friend, but it had begun to haunt his +imagination that Chad, taking up again for her benefit a pen too long +disused, might possibly be finer. It wouldn't at all do, he saw, that +anything should come up for him at Chad's hand but what specifically +was to have come; the greatest divergence from which would be precisely +the element of any lubrication of their intercourse by levity It was +accordingly to forestall such an accident that he frankly put before +the young man the several facts, just as they had occurred, of his +funny alliance. He spoke of these facts, pleasantly and obligingly, as +"the whole story," and felt that he might qualify the alliance as funny +if he remained sufficiently grave about it. He flattered himself that +he even exaggerated the wild freedom of his original encounter with the +wonderful lady; he was scrupulously definite about the absurd +conditions in which they had made acquaintance--their having picked +each other up almost in the street; and he had (finest inspiration of +all!) a conception of carrying the war into the enemy's country by +showing surprise at the enemy's ignorance. + +He had always had a notion that this last was the grand style of +fighting; the greater therefore the reason for it, as he couldn't +remember that he had ever before fought in the grand style. Every one, +according to this, knew Miss Gostrey: how came it Chad didn't know +her? The difficulty, the impossibility, was really to escape it; +Strether put on him, by what he took for granted, the burden of proof +of the contrary. This tone was so far successful as that Chad quite +appeared to recognise her as a person whose fame had reached him, but +against his acquaintance with whom much mischance had worked. He made +the point at the same time that his social relations, such as they +could be called, were perhaps not to the extent Strether supposed with +the rising flood of their compatriots. He hinted at his having more +and more given way to a different principle of selection; the moral of +which seemed to be that he went about little in the "colony." For the +moment certainly he had quite another interest. It was deep, what he +understood, and Strether, for himself, could only so observe it. He +couldn't see as yet how deep. Might he not all too soon! For there was +really too much of their question that Chad had already committed +himself to liking. He liked, to begin with, his prospective +stepfather; which was distinctly what had not been on the cards. His +hating him was the untowardness for which Strether had been best +prepared; he hadn't expected the boy's actual form to give him more to +do than his imputed. It gave him more through suggesting that he must +somehow make up to himself for not being sure he was sufficiently +disagreeable. That had really been present to him as his only way to +be sure he was sufficiently thorough. The point was that if Chad's +tolerance of his thoroughness were insincere, were but the best of +devices for gaining time, it none the less did treat everything as +tacitly concluded. + +That seemed at the end of ten days the upshot of the abundant, the +recurrent talk through which Strether poured into him all it concerned +him to know, put him in full possession of facts and figures. Never +cutting these colloquies short by a minute, Chad behaved, looked and +spoke as if he were rather heavily, perhaps even a trifle gloomily, but +none the less fundamentally and comfortably free. He made no crude +profession of eagerness to yield, but he asked the most intelligent +questions, probed, at moments, abruptly, even deeper than his friend's +layer of information, justified by these touches the native estimate of +his latent stuff, and had in every way the air of trying to live, +reflectively, into the square bright picture. He walked up and down in +front of this production, sociably took Strether's arm at the points at +which he stopped, surveyed it repeatedly from the right and from the +left, inclined a critical head to either quarter, and, while he puffed +a still more critical cigarette, animadverted to his companion on this +passage and that. Strether sought relief--there were hours when he +required it--in repeating himself; it was in truth not to be blinked +that Chad had a way. The main question as yet was of what it was a way +TO. It made vulgar questions no more easy; but that was unimportant +when all questions save those of his own asking had dropped. That he +was free was answer enough, and it wasn't quite ridiculous that this +freedom should end by presenting itself as what was difficult to move. +His changed state, his lovely home, his beautiful things, his easy +talk, his very appetite for Strether, insatiable and, when all was +said, flattering--what were such marked matters all but the notes of +his freedom? He had the effect of making a sacrifice of it just in +these handsome forms to his visitor; which was mainly the reason the +visitor was privately, for the time, a little out of countenance. +Strether was at this period again and again thrown back on a felt need +to remodel somehow his plan. He fairly caught himself shooting rueful +glances, shy looks of pursuit, toward the embodied influence, the +definite adversary, who had by a stroke of her own failed him and on a +fond theory of whose palpable presence he had, under Mrs. Newsome's +inspiration, altogether proceeded. He had once or twice, in secret, +literally expressed the irritated wish that SHE would come out and find +her. + +He couldn't quite yet force it upon Woollett that such a career, such a +perverted young life, showed after all a certain plausible side, DID in +the case before them flaunt something like an impunity for the social +man; but he could at least treat himself to the statement that would +prepare him for the sharpest echo. This echo--as distinct over there in +the dry thin air as some shrill "heading" above a column of +print--seemed to reach him even as he wrote. "He says there's no +woman," he could hear Mrs. Newsome report, in capitals almost of +newspaper size, to Mrs. Pocock; and he could focus in Mrs. Pocock the +response of the reader of the journal. He could see in the younger +lady's face the earnestness of her attention and catch the full +scepticism of her but slightly delayed "What is there then?" Just so +he could again as little miss the mother's clear decision: "There's +plenty of disposition, no doubt, to pretend there isn't." Strether +had, after posting his letter, the whole scene out; and it was a scene +during which, coming and going, as befell, he kept his eye not least +upon the daughter. He had his fine sense of the conviction Mrs. Pocock +would take occasion to reaffirm--a conviction bearing, as he had from +the first deeply divined it to bear, on Mr. Strether's essential +inaptitude. She had looked him in his conscious eyes even before he +sailed, and that she didn't believe HE would find the woman had been +written in her book. Hadn't she at the best but a scant faith in +his ability to find women? It wasn't even as if he had found her +mother--so much more, to her discrimination, had her mother performed +the finding. Her mother had, in a case her private judgement of which +remained educative of Mrs. Pocock's critical sense, found the man. The +man owed his unchallenged state, in general, to the fact that Mrs. +Newsome's discoveries were accepted at Woollett; but he knew in his +bones, our friend did, how almost irresistibly Mrs. Pocock would now be +moved to show what she thought of his own. Give HER a free hand, would +be the moral, and the woman would soon be found. + +His impression of Miss Gostrey after her introduction to Chad was +meanwhile an impression of a person almost unnaturally on her guard. He +struck himself as at first unable to extract from her what he wished; +though indeed OF what he wished at this special juncture he would +doubtless have contrived to make but a crude statement. It sifted and +settled nothing to put to her, tout betement, as she often said, "Do +you like him, eh?"--thanks to his feeling it actually the least of his +needs to heap up the evidence in the young man's favour. He repeatedly +knocked at her door to let her have it afresh that Chad's +case--whatever else of minor interest it might yield--was first and +foremost a miracle almost monstrous. It was the alteration of the +entire man, and was so signal an instance that nothing else, for the +intelligent observer, could--COULD it?--signify. "It's a plot," he +declared--"there's more in it than meets the eye." He gave the rein to +his fancy. "It's a plant!" + +His fancy seemed to please her. "Whose then?" + +"Well, the party responsible is, I suppose, the fate that waits for +one, the dark doom that rides. What I mean is that with such elements +one can't count. I've but my poor individual, my modest human means. +It isn't playing the game to turn on the uncanny. All one's energy +goes to facing it, to tracking it. One wants, confound it, don't you +see?" he confessed with a queer face--"one wants to enjoy anything so +rare. Call it then life"--he puzzled it out--"call it poor dear old +life simply that springs the surprise. Nothing alters the fact that the +surprise is paralysing, or at any rate engrossing--all, practically, +hang it, that one sees, that one CAN see." + +Her silences were never barren, nor even dull. "Is that what you've +written home?" + +He tossed it off. "Oh dear, yes!" + +She had another pause while, across her carpets, he had another walk. +"If you don't look out you'll have them straight over." + +"Oh but I've said he'll go back." + +"And WILL he?" Miss Gostrey asked. + +The special tone of it made him, pulling up, look at her long. "What's +that but just the question I've spent treasures of patience and +ingenuity in giving you, by the sight of him--after everything had led +up--every facility to answer? What is it but just the thing I came +here to-day to get out of you? Will he?" + +"No--he won't," she said at last. "He's not free." + +The air of it held him. "Then you've all the while known--?" + +"I've known nothing but what I've seen; and I wonder," she declared +with some impatience, "that you didn't see as much. It was enough to be +with him there--" + +"In the box? Yes," he rather blankly urged. + +"Well--to feel sure." + +"Sure of what?" + +She got up from her chair, at this, with a nearer approach than she had +ever yet shown to dismay at his dimness. She even, fairly pausing for +it, spoke with a shade of pity. "Guess!" + +It was a shade, fairly, that brought a flush into his face; so that for +a moment, as they waited together, their difference was between them. +"You mean that just your hour with him told you so much of his story? +Very good; I'm not such a fool, on my side, as that I don't understand +you, or as that I didn't in some degree understand HIM. That he has +done what he liked most isn't, among any of us, a matter the least in +dispute. There's equally little question at this time of day of what +it is he does like most. But I'm not talking," he reasonably +explained, "of any mere wretch he may still pick up. I'm talking of +some person who in his present situation may have held her own, may +really have counted." + +"That's exactly what I am!" said Miss Gostrey. But she as quickly made +her point. "I thought you thought--or that they think at +Woollett--that that's what mere wretches necessarily do. Mere wretches +necessarily DON'T!" she declared with spirit. "There must, behind +every appearance to the contrary, still be somebody--somebody who's not +a mere wretch, since we accept the miracle. What else but such a +somebody can such a miracle be?" + +He took it in. "Because the fact itself IS the woman?" + +"A woman. Some woman or other. It's one of the things that HAVE to +be." + +"But you mean then at least a good one." + +"A good woman?" She threw up her arms with a laugh. "I should call +her excellent!" + +"Then why does he deny her?" + +Miss Gostrey thought a moment. "Because she's too good to admit! Don't +you see," she went on, "how she accounts for him?" + +Strether clearly, more and more, did see; yet it made him also see +other things. "But isn't what we want that he shall account for HER?" + +"Well, he does. What you have before you is his way. You must forgive +him if it isn't quite outspoken. In Paris such debts are tacit." + +Strether could imagine; but still--! "Even when the woman's good?" + +Again she laughed out. "Yes, and even when the man is! There's always +a caution in such cases," she more seriously explained--"for what it +may seem to show. There's nothing that's taken as showing so much here +as sudden unnatural goodness." + +"Ah then you're speaking now," Strether said, "of people who are NOT +nice." + +"I delight," she replied, "in your classifications. But do you want +me," she asked, "to give you in the matter, on this ground, the wisest +advice I'm capable of? Don't consider her, don't judge her at all in +herself. Consider her and judge her only in Chad." + +He had the courage at least of his companion's logic. "Because then I +shall like her?" He almost looked, with his quick imagination as if he +already did, though seeing at once also the full extent of how little +it would suit his book. "But is that what I came out for?" + +She had to confess indeed that it wasn't. But there was something +else. "Don't make up your mind. There are all sorts of things. You +haven't seen him all." + +This on his side Strether recognised; but his acuteness none the less +showed him the danger. "Yes, but if the more I see the better he +seems?" + +Well, she found something. "That may be--but his disavowal of her +isn't, all the same, pure consideration. There's a hitch." She made +it out. "It's the effort to sink her." + +Strether winced at the image. "To 'sink'--?" + +"Well, I mean there's a struggle, and a part of it is just what he +hides. Take time--that's the only way not to make some mistake that +you'll regret. Then you'll see. He does really want to shake her off." + +Our friend had by this time so got into the vision that he almost +gasped. "After all she has done for him?" + +Miss Gostrey gave him a look which broke the next moment into a +wonderful smile. "He's not so good as you think!" + +They remained with him, these words, promising him, in their character +of warning, considerable help; but the support he tried to draw from +them found itself on each renewal of contact with Chad defeated by +something else. What could it be, this disconcerting force, he asked +himself, but the sense, constantly renewed, that Chad WAS--quite in +fact insisted on being--as good as he thought? It seemed somehow as if +he couldn't BUT be as good from the moment he wasn't as bad. There was +a succession of days at all events when contact with him--and in its +immediate effect, as if it could produce no other--elbowed out of +Strether's consciousness everything but itself. Little Bilham once +more pervaded the scene, but little Bilham became even in a higher +degree than he had originally been one of the numerous forms of the +inclusive relation; a consequence promoted, to our friend's sense, by +two or three incidents with which we have yet to make acquaintance. +Waymarsh himself, for the occasion, was drawn into the eddy; it +absolutely, though but temporarily, swallowed him down, and there were +days when Strether seemed to bump against him as a sinking swimmer +might brush a submarine object. The fathomless medium held +them--Chad's manner was the fathomless medium; and our friend felt as +if they passed each other, in their deep immersion, with the round +impersonal eye of silent fish. It was practically produced between +them that Waymarsh was giving him then his chance; and the shade of +discomfort that Strether drew from the allowance resembled not a little +the embarrassment he had known at school, as a boy, when members of his +family had been present at exhibitions. He could perform before +strangers, but relatives were fatal, and it was now as if, +comparatively, Waymarsh were a relative. He seemed to hear him say +"Strike up then!" and to enjoy a foretaste of conscientious domestic +criticism. He HAD struck up, so far as he actually could; Chad knew by +this time in profusion what he wanted; and what vulgar violence did his +fellow pilgrim expect of him when he had really emptied his mind? It +went somehow to and fro that what poor Waymarsh meant was "I told you +so--that you'd lose your immortal soul!" but it was also fairly +explicit that Strether had his own challenge and that, since they must +go to the bottom of things, he wasted no more virtue in watching Chad +than Chad wasted in watching him. His dip for duty's sake--where was +it worse than Waymarsh's own? For HE needn't have stopped resisting +and refusing, needn't have parleyed, at that rate, with the foe. + +The strolls over Paris to see something or call somewhere were +accordingly inevitable and natural, and the late sessions in the +wondrous troisieme, the lovely home, when men dropped in and the +picture composed more suggestively through the haze of tobacco, of +music more or less good and of talk more or less polyglot, were on a +principle not to be distinguished from that of the mornings and the +afternoons. Nothing, Strether had to recognise as he leaned back and +smoked, could well less resemble a scene of violence than even the +liveliest of these occasions. They were occasions of discussion, none +the less, and Strether had never in his life heard so many opinions on +so many subjects. There were opinions at Woollett, but only on three +or four. The differences were there to match; if they were doubtless +deep, though few, they were quiet--they were, as might be said, almost +as shy as if people had been ashamed of them. People showed little +diffidence about such things, on the other hand, in the Boulevard +Malesherbes, and were so far from being ashamed of them--or indeed of +anything else--that they often seemed to have invented them to avert +those agreements that destroy the taste of talk. No one had ever done +that at Woollett, though Strether could remember times when he himself +had been tempted to it without quite knowing why. He saw why at +present--he had but wanted to promote intercourse. + +These, however, were but parenthetic memories, and the turn taken by +his affair on the whole was positively that if his nerves were on the +stretch it was because he missed violence. When he asked himself if +none would then, in connexion with it, ever come at all, he might +almost have passed as wondering how to provoke it. It would be too +absurd if such a vision as THAT should have to be invoked for relief; +it was already marked enough as absurd that he should actually have +begun with flutters and dignities on the score of a single accepted +meal. What sort of a brute had he expected Chad to be, +anyway?--Strether had occasion to make the enquiry but was careful to +make it in private. He could himself, comparatively recent as it +was--it was truly but the fact of a few days since--focus his primal +crudity; but he would on the approach of an observer, as if handling an +illicit possession, have slipped the reminiscence out of sight. There +were echoes of it still in Mrs. Newsome's letters, and there were +moments when these echoes made him exclaim on her want of tact. He +blushed of course, at once, still more for the explanation than for the +ground of it: it came to him in time to save his manners that she +couldn't at the best become tactful as quickly as he. Her tact had to +reckon with the Atlantic Ocean, the General Post-Office and the +extravagant curve of the globe. Chad had one day offered tea at the +Boulevard Malesherbes to a chosen few, a group again including the +unobscured Miss Barrace; and Strether had on coming out walked away +with the acquaintance whom in his letters to Mrs. Newsome he always +spoke of as the little artist-man. He had had full occasion to mention +him as the other party, so oddly, to the only close personal alliance +observation had as yet detected in Chad's existence. Little Bilham's +way this afternoon was not Strether's, but he had none the less kindly +come with him, and it was somehow a part of his kindness that as it had +sadly begun to rain they suddenly found themselves seated for +conversation at a cafe in which they had taken refuge. He had passed +no more crowded hour in Chad's society than the one just ended; he had +talked with Miss Barrace, who had reproached him with not having come +to see her, and he had above all hit on a happy thought for causing +Waymarsh's tension to relax. Something might possibly be extracted for +the latter from the idea of his success with that lady, whose quick +apprehension of what might amuse her had given Strether a free hand. +What had she meant if not to ask whether she couldn't help him with his +splendid encumbrance, and mightn't the sacred rage at any rate be kept +a little in abeyance by thus creating for his comrade's mind even in a +world of irrelevance the possibility of a relation? What was it but a +relation to be regarded as so decorative and, in especial, on the +strength of it, to be whirled away, amid flounces and feathers, in a +coupe lined, by what Strether could make out, with dark blue brocade? +He himself had never been whirled away--never at least in a coupe and +behind a footman; he had driven with Miss Gostrey in cabs, with Mrs. +Pocock, a few times, in an open buggy, with Mrs. Newsome in a +four-seated cart and, occasionally up at the mountains, on a buckboard; +but his friend's actual adventure transcended his personal experience. +He now showed his companion soon enough indeed how inadequate, as a +general monitor, this last queer quantity could once more feel itself. + +"What game under the sun is he playing?" He signified the next moment +that his allusion was not to the fat gentleman immersed in dominoes on +whom his eyes had begun by resting, but to their host of the previous +hour, as to whom, there on the velvet bench, with a final collapse of +all consistency, he treated himself to the comfort of indiscretion. +"Where do you see him come out?" + +Little Bilham, in meditation, looked at him with a kindness almost +paternal. "Don't you like it over here?" + +Strether laughed out--for the tone was indeed droll; he let himself go. +"What has that to do with it? The only thing I've any business to like +is to feel that I'm moving him. That's why I ask you whether you +believe I AM? Is the creature"--and he did his best to show that he +simply wished to ascertain--"honest?" + +His companion looked responsible, but looked it through a small dim +smile. "What creature do you mean?" + +It was on this that they did have for a little a mute interchange. "Is +it untrue that he's free? How then," Strether asked wondering "does he +arrange his life?" + +"Is the creature you mean Chad himself?" little Bilham said. + +Strether here, with a rising hope, just thought, "We must take one of +them at a time." But his coherence lapsed. "IS there some woman? Of +whom he's really afraid of course I mean--or who does with him what she +likes." + +"It's awfully charming of you," Bilham presently remarked, "not to have +asked me that before." + +"Oh I'm not fit for my job!" + +The exclamation had escaped our friend, but it made little Bilham more +deliberate. "Chad's a rare case!" he luminously observed. "He's +awfully changed," he added. + +"Then you see it too?" + +"The way he has improved? Oh yes--I think every one must see it. But +I'm not sure," said little Bilham, "that I didn't like him about as +well in his other state." + +"Then this IS really a new state altogether?" + +"Well," the young man after a moment returned, "I'm not sure he was +really meant by nature to be quite so good. It's like the new edition +of an old book that one has been fond of--revised and amended, brought +up to date, but not quite the thing one knew and loved. However that +may be at all events," he pursued, "I don't think, you know, that he's +really playing, as you call it, any game. I believe he really wants to +go back and take up a career. He's capable of one, you know, that will +improve and enlarge him still more. He won't then," little Bilham +continued to remark, "be my pleasant well-rubbed old-fashioned volume +at all. But of course I'm beastly immoral. I'm afraid it would be a +funny world altogether--a world with things the way I like them. I +ought, I dare say, to go home and go into business myself. Only I'd +simply rather die--simply. And I've not the least difficulty in making +up my mind not to, and in knowing exactly why, and in defending my +ground against all comers. All the same," he wound up, "I assure you I +don't say a word against it--for himself, I mean--to Chad. I seem to +see it as much the best thing for him. You see he's not happy." + +"DO I?"--Strether stared. "I've been supposing I see just the +opposite--an extraordinary case of the equilibrium arrived at and +assured." + +"Oh there's a lot behind it." + +"Ah there you are!" Strether exclaimed. "That's just what I want to +get at. You speak of your familiar volume altered out of recognition. +Well, who's the editor?" + +Little Bilham looked before him a minute in silence. "He ought to get +married. THAT would do it. And he wants to." + +"Wants to marry her?" + +Again little Bilham waited, and, with a sense that he had information, +Strether scarce knew what was coming. "He wants to be free. He isn't +used, you see," the young man explained in his lucid way, "to being so +good." + +Strether hesitated. "Then I may take it from you that he IS good?" + +His companion matched his pause, but making it up with a quiet fulness. +"DO take it from me." + +"Well then why isn't he free? He swears to me he is, but meanwhile +does nothing--except of course that he's so kind to me--to prove it; +and couldn't really act much otherwise if he weren't. My question to +you just now was exactly on this queer impression of his diplomacy: as +if instead of really giving ground his line were to keep me on here and +set me a bad example." + +As the half-hour meanwhile had ebbed Strether paid his score, and the +waiter was presently in the act of counting out change. Our friend +pushed back to him a fraction of it, with which, after an emphatic +recognition, the personage in question retreated. "You give too much," +little Bilham permitted himself benevolently to observe. + +"Oh I always give too much!" Strether helplessly sighed. "But you +don't," he went on as if to get quickly away from the contemplation of +that doom, "answer my question. Why isn't he free?" + +Little Bilham had got up as if the transaction with the waiter had been +a signal, and had already edged out between the table and the divan. +The effect of this was that a minute later they had quitted the place, +the gratified waiter alert again at the open door. Strether had found +himself deferring to his companion's abruptness as to a hint that he +should be answered as soon as they were more isolated. This happened +when after a few steps in the outer air they had turned the next comer. +There our friend had kept it up. "Why isn't he free if he's good?" + +Little Bilham looked him full in the face. "Because it's a virtuous +attachment." + +This had settled the question so effectually for the time--that is for +the next few days--that it had given Strether almost a new lease of +life. It must be added however that, thanks to his constant habit of +shaking the bottle in which life handed him the wine of experience, he +presently found the taste of the lees rising as usual into his draught. +His imagination had in other words already dealt with his young +friend's assertion; of which it had made something that sufficiently +came out on the very next occasion of his seeing Maria Gostrey. This +occasion moreover had been determined promptly by a new circumstance--a +circumstance he was the last man to leave her for a day in ignorance +of. "When I said to him last night," he immediately began, "that +without some definite word from him now that will enable me to speak to +them over there of our sailing--or at least of mine, giving them some +sort of date--my responsibility becomes uncomfortable and my situation +awkward; when I said that to him what do you think was his reply?" And +then as she this time gave it up: "Why that he has two particular +friends, two ladies, mother and daughter, about to arrive in +Paris--coming back from an absence; and that he wants me so furiously +to meet them, know them and like them, that I shall oblige him by +kindly not bringing our business to a crisis till he has had a chance +to see them again himself. Is that," Strether enquired, "the way he's +going to try to get off? These are the people," he explained, "that he +must have gone down to see before I arrived. They're the best friends +he has in the world, and they take more interest than any one else in +what concerns him. As I'm his next best he sees a thousand reasons why +we should comfortably meet. He hasn't broached the question sooner +because their return was uncertain--seemed in fact for the present +impossible. But he more than intimates that--if you can believe +it--their desire to make my acquaintance has had to do with their +surmounting difficulties." + +"They're dying to see you?" Miss Gostrey asked. + +"Dying. Of course," said Strether, "they're the virtuous attachment." +He had already told her about that--had seen her the day after his talk +with little Bilham; and they had then threshed out together the bearing +of the revelation. She had helped him to put into it the logic in +which little Bilham had left it slightly deficient Strether hadn't +pressed him as to the object of the preference so unexpectedly +described; feeling in the presence of it, with one of his irrepressible +scruples, a delicacy from which he had in the quest of the quite other +article worked himself sufficiently free. He had held off, as on a +small principle of pride, from permitting his young friend to mention a +name; wishing to make with this the great point that Chad's virtuous +attachments were none of his business. He had wanted from the first +not to think too much of his dignity, but that was no reason for not +allowing it any little benefit that might turn up. He had often enough +wondered to what degree his interference might pass for interested; so +that there was no want of luxury in letting it be seen whenever he +could that he didn't interfere. That had of course at the same time +not deprived him of the further luxury of much private astonishment; +which however he had reduced to some order before communicating his +knowledge. When he had done this at last it was with the remark that, +surprised as Miss Gostrey might, like himself, at first be, she would +probably agree with him on reflexion that such an account of the matter +did after all fit the confirmed appearances. Nothing certainly, on all +the indications, could have been a greater change for him than a +virtuous attachment, and since they had been in search of the "word" as +the French called it, of that change, little Bilham's +announcement--though so long and so oddly delayed--would serve as well +as another. She had assured Strether in fact after a pause that the +more she thought of it the more it did serve; and yet her assurance +hadn't so weighed with him as that before they parted he hadn't +ventured to challenge her sincerity. Didn't she believe the attachment +was virtuous?--he had made sure of her again with the aid of that +question. The tidings he brought her on this second occasion were +moreover such as would help him to make surer still. + +She showed at first none the less as only amused. "You say there are +two? An attachment to them both then would, I suppose, almost +necessarily be innocent." + +Our friend took the point, but he had his clue. "Mayn't he be still in +the stage of not quite knowing which of them, mother or daughter, he +likes best?" + +She gave it more thought. "Oh it must be the daughter--at his age." + +"Possibly. Yet what do we know," Strether asked, "about hers? She may +be old enough." + +"Old enough for what?" + +"Why to marry Chad. That may be, you know, what they want. And if +Chad wants it too, and little Bilham wants it, and even we, at a pinch, +could do with it--that is if she doesn't prevent repatriation--why it +may be plain sailing yet." + +It was always the case for him in these counsels that each of his +remarks, as it came, seemed to drop into a deeper well. He had at all +events to wait a moment to hear the slight splash of this one. "I don't +see why if Mr. Newsome wants to marry the young lady he hasn't already +done it or hasn't been prepared with some statement to you about it. +And if he both wants to marry her and is on good terms with them why +isn't he 'free'?" + +Strether, responsively, wondered indeed. "Perhaps the girl herself +doesn't like him." + +"Then why does he speak of them to you as he does?" + +Strether's mind echoed the question, but also again met it. "Perhaps +it's with the mother he's on good terms." + +"As against the daughter?" + +"Well, if she's trying to persuade the daughter to consent to him, what +could make him like the mother more? Only," Strether threw out, "why +shouldn't the daughter consent to him?" + +"Oh," said Miss Gostrey, "mayn't it be that every one else isn't quite +so struck with him as you?" + +"Doesn't regard him you mean as such an 'eligible' young man? Is that +what I've come to?" he audibly and rather gravely sought to know. +"However," he went on, "his marriage is what his mother most +desires--that is if it will help. And oughtn't ANY marriage to help? +They must want him"--he had already worked it out--"to be better off. +Almost any girl he may marry will have a direct interest in his taking +up his chances. It won't suit HER at least that he shall miss them." + +Miss Gostrey cast about. "No--you reason well! But of course on the +other hand there's always dear old Woollett itself." + +"Oh yes," he mused--"there's always dear old Woollett itself." + +She waited a moment. "The young lady mayn't find herself able to +swallow THAT quantity. She may think it's paying too much; she may +weigh one thing against another." + +Strether, ever restless in such debates, took a vague turn "It will all +depend on who she is. That of course--the proved ability to deal with +dear old Woollett, since I'm sure she does deal with it--is what makes +so strongly for Mamie." + +"Mamie?" + +He stopped short, at her tone, before her; then, though seeing that it +represented not vagueness, but a momentary embarrassed fulness, let his +exclamation come. "You surely haven't forgotten about Mamie!" + +"No, I haven't forgotten about Mamie," she smiled. "There's no doubt +whatever that there's ever so much to be said for her. Mamie's MY +girl!" she roundly declared. + +Strether resumed for a minute his walk. "She's really perfectly +lovely, you know. Far prettier than any girl I've seen over here yet." + +"That's precisely on what I perhaps most build." And she mused a +moment in her friend's way. "I should positively like to take her in +hand!" + +He humoured the fancy, though indeed finally to deprecate it. "Oh but +don't, in your zeal, go over to her! I need you most and can't, you +know, be left." + +But she kept it up. "I wish they'd send her out to me!" + +"If they knew you," he returned, "they would." + +"Ah but don't they?--after all that, as I've understood you you've told +them about me?" + +He had paused before her again, but he continued his course "They +WILL--before, as you say, I've done." Then he came out with the point +he had wished after all most to make. "It seems to give away now his +game. This is what he has been doing--keeping me along for. He has +been waiting for them." + +Miss Gostrey drew in her lips. "You see a good deal in it!" + +"I doubt if I see as much as you. Do you pretend," he went on, "that +you don't see--?" + +"Well, what?"--she pressed him as he paused. + +"Why that there must be a lot between them--and that it has been going +on from the first; even from before I came." + +She took a minute to answer. "Who are they then--if it's so grave?" + +"It mayn't be grave--it may be gay. But at any rate it's marked. Only +I don't know," Strether had to confess, "anything about them. Their +name for instance was a thing that, after little Bilham's information, +I found it a kind of refreshment not to feel obliged to follow up." + +"Oh," she returned, "if you think you've got off--!" + +Her laugh produced in him a momentary gloom. "I don't think I've got +off. I only think I'm breathing for about five minutes. I dare say I +SHALL have, at the best, still to get on." A look, over it all, passed +between them, and the next minute he had come back to good humour. "I +don't meanwhile take the smallest interest in their name." + +"Nor in their nationality?--American, French, English, Polish?" + +"I don't care the least little 'hang,'" he smiled, "for their +nationality. It would be nice if they're Polish!" he almost +immediately added. + +"Very nice indeed." The transition kept up her spirits. "So you see +you do care." + +He did this contention a modified justice. "I think I should if they +WERE Polish. Yes," he thought--"there might be joy in THAT." + +"Let us then hope for it." But she came after this nearer to the +question. "If the girl's of the right age of course the mother can't +be. I mean for the virtuous attachment. If the girl's twenty--and she +can't be less--the mother must be at least forty. So it puts the mother +out. SHE'S too old for him." + +Strether, arrested again, considered and demurred. "Do you think so? +Do you think any one would be too old for him? I'M eighty, and I'm too +young. But perhaps the girl," he continued, "ISn't twenty. Perhaps +she's only ten--but such a little dear that Chad finds himself counting +her in as an attraction of the acquaintance. Perhaps she's only five. +Perhaps the mother's but five-and-twenty--a charming young widow." + +Miss Gostrey entertained the suggestion. "She IS a widow then?" + +"I haven't the least idea!" They once more, in spite of this +vagueness, exchanged a look--a look that was perhaps the longest yet. +It seemed in fact, the next thing, to require to explain itself; which +it did as it could. "I only feel what I've told you--that he has some +reason." + +Miss Gostrey's imagination had taken its own flight. "Perhaps she's +NOT a widow." + +Strether seemed to accept the possibility with reserve. Still he +accepted it. "Then that's why the attachment--if it's to her--is +virtuous." + +But she looked as if she scarce followed. "Why is it virtuous +if--since she's free--there's nothing to impose on it any condition?" + +He laughed at her question. "Oh I perhaps don't mean as virtuous as +THAT! Your idea is that it can be virtuous--in any sense worthy of the +name--only if she's NOT free? But what does it become then," he asked, +"for HER?" + +"Ah that's another matter." He said nothing for a moment, and she soon +went on. "I dare say you're right, at any rate, about Mr. Newsome's +little plan. He HAS been trying you--has been reporting on you to +these friends." + +Strether meanwhile had had time to think more. "Then where's his +straightness?" + +"Well, as we say, it's struggling up, breaking out, asserting itself as +it can. We can be on the side, you see, of his straightness. We can +help him. But he has made out," said Miss Gostrey, "that you'll do." + +"Do for what?" + +"Why, for THEM--for ces dames. He has watched you, studied you, liked +you--and recognised that THEY must. It's a great compliment to you, my +dear man; for I'm sure they're particular. You came out for a success. +Well," she gaily declared, "you're having it!" + +He took it from her with momentary patience and then turned abruptly +away. It was always convenient to him that there were so many fine +things in her room to look at. But the examination of two or three of +them appeared soon to have determined a speech that had little to do +with them. "You don't believe in it!" + +"In what?" + +"In the character of the attachment. In its innocence." + +But she defended herself. "I don't pretend to know anything about it. +Everything's possible. We must see." + +"See?" he echoed with a groan. "Haven't we seen enough?" + +"I haven't," she smiled. + +"But do you suppose then little Bilham has lied?" + +"You must find out." + +It made him almost turn pale. "Find out any MORE?" + +He had dropped on a sofa for dismay; but she seemed, as she stood over +him, to have the last word. "Wasn't what you came out for to find out +ALL?" + + + + + +Book Fifth + + + + +I + + +The Sunday of the next week was a wonderful day, and Chad Newsome had +let his friend know in advance that he had provided for it. There had +already been a question of his taking him to see the great Gloriani, +who was at home on Sunday afternoons and at whose house, for the most +part, fewer bores were to be met than elsewhere; but the project, +through some accident, had not had instant effect, and now revived in +happier conditions. Chad had made the point that the celebrated +sculptor had a queer old garden, for which the weather--spring at last +frank and fair--was propitious; and two or three of his other allusions +had confirmed for Strether the expectation of something special. He +had by this time, for all introductions and adventures, let himself +recklessly go, cherishing the sense that whatever the young man showed +him he was showing at least himself. He could have wished indeed, so +far as this went, that Chad were less of a mere cicerone; for he was +not without the impression--now that the vision of his game, his plan, +his deep diplomacy, did recurrently assert itself--of his taking refuge +from the realities of their intercourse in profusely dispensing, as our +friend mentally phrased et panem et circenses. Our friend continued to +feel rather smothered in flowers, though he made in his other moments +the almost angry inference that this was only because of his odious +ascetic suspicion of any form of beauty. He periodically assured +himself--for his reactions were sharp--that he shouldn't reach the +truth of anything till he had at least got rid of that. + +He had known beforehand that Madame de Vionnet and her daughter would +probably be on view, an intimation to that effect having constituted +the only reference again made by Chad to his good friends from the +south. The effect of Strether's talk about them with Miss Gostrey had +been quite to consecrate his reluctance to pry; something in the very +air of Chad's silence--judged in the light of that talk--offered it to +him as a reserve he could markedly match. It shrouded them about with +he scarce knew what, a consideration, a distinction; he was in presence +at any rate--so far as it placed him there--of ladies; and the one +thing that was definite for him was that they themselves should be, to +the extent of his responsibility, in presence of a gentleman. Was it +because they were very beautiful, very clever, or even very good--was +it for one of these reasons that Chad was, so to speak, nursing his +effect? Did he wish to spring them, in the Woollett phrase, with a +fuller force--to confound his critic, slight though as yet the +criticism, with some form of merit exquisitely incalculable? The most +the critic had at all events asked was whether the persons in question +were French; and that enquiry had been but a proper comment on the +sound of their name. "Yes. That is no!" had been Chad's reply; but he +had immediately added that their English was the most charming in the +world, so that if Strether were wanting an excuse for not getting on +with them he wouldn't in the least find one. Never in fact had +Strether--in the mood into which the place had quickly launched +him--felt, for himself, less the need of an excuse. Those he might +have found would have been, at the worst, all for the others, the +people before him, in whose liberty to be as they were he was aware +that he positively rejoiced. His fellow guests were multiplying, and +these things, their liberty, their intensity, their variety, their +conditions at large, were in fusion in the admirable medium of the +scene. + +The place itself was a great impression--a small pavilion, clear-faced +and sequestered, an effect of polished parquet, of fine white panel and +spare sallow gilt, of decoration delicate and rare, in the heart of the +Faubourg Saint-Germain and on the edge of a cluster of gardens attached +to old noble houses. Far back from streets and unsuspected by crowds, +reached by a long passage and a quiet court, it was as striking to the +unprepared mind, he immediately saw, as a treasure dug up; giving him +too, more than anything yet, the note of the range of the immeasurable +town and sweeping away, as by a last brave brush, his usual landmarks +and terms. It was in the garden, a spacious cherished remnant, out of +which a dozen persons had already passed, that Chad's host presently +met them while the tall bird-haunted trees, all of a twitter with the +spring and the weather, and the high party-walls, on the other side of +which grave hotels stood off for privacy, spoke of survival, +transmission, association, a strong indifferent persistent order. The +day was so soft that the little party had practically adjourned to the +open air but the open air was in such conditions all a chamber of +state. Strether had presently the sense of a great convent, a convent +of missions, famous for he scarce knew what, a nursery of young +priests, of scattered shade, of straight alleys and chapel-bells, that +spread its mass in one quarter; he had the sense of names in the air, +of ghosts at the windows, of signs and tokens, a whole range of +expression, all about him, too thick for prompt discrimination. + +This assault of images became for a moment, in the address of the +distinguished sculptor, almost formidable: Gloriani showed him, in +such perfect confidence, on Chad's introduction of him, a fine worn +handsome face, a face that was like an open letter in a foreign tongue. +With his genius in his eyes, his manners on his lips, his long career +behind him and his honours and rewards all round, the great artist, in +the course of a single sustained look and a few words of delight at +receiving him, affected our friend as a dazzling prodigy of type. +Strether had seen in museums--in the Luxembourg as well as, more +reverently, later on, in the New York of the billionaires--the work of +his hand; knowing too that after an earlier time in his native Rome he +had migrated, in mid-career, to Paris, where, with a personal lustre +almost violent, he shone in a constellation: all of which was more +than enough to crown him, for his guest, with the light, with the +romance, of glory. Strether, in contact with that element as he had +never yet so intimately been, had the consciousness of opening to it, +for the happy instant, all the windows of his mind, of letting this +rather grey interior drink in for once the sun of a clime not marked in +his old geography. He was to remember again repeatedly the medal-like +Italian face, in which every line was an artist's own, in which time +told only as tone and consecration; and he was to recall in especial, +as the penetrating radiance, as the communication of the illustrious +spirit itself, the manner in which, while they stood briefly, in +welcome and response, face to face, he was held by the sculptor's eyes. +He wasn't soon to forget them, was to think of them, all unconscious, +unintending, preoccupied though they were, as the source of the deepest +intellectual sounding to which he had ever been exposed. He was in +fact quite to cherish his vision of it, to play with it in idle hours; +only speaking of it to no one and quite aware he couldn't have spoken +without appearing to talk nonsense. Was what it had told him or what +it had asked him the greater of the mysteries? Was it the most special +flare, unequalled, supreme, of the aesthetic torch, lighting that +wondrous world for ever, or was it above all the long straight shaft +sunk by a personal acuteness that life had seasoned to steel? Nothing +on earth could have been stranger and no one doubtless more surprised +than the artist himself, but it was for all the world to Strether just +then as if in the matter of his accepted duty he had positively been on +trial. The deep human expertness in Gloriani's charming smile--oh the +terrible life behind it!--was flashed upon him as a test of his stuff. + +Chad meanwhile, after having easily named his companion, had still more +easily turned away and was already greeting other persons present. He +was as easy, clever Chad, with the great artist as with his obscure +compatriot, and as easy with every one else as with either: this fell +into its place for Strether and made almost a new light, giving him, as +a concatenation, something more he could enjoy. He liked Gloriani, but +should never see him again; of that he was sufficiently sure. Chad +accordingly, who was wonderful with both of them, was a kind of link +for hopeless fancy, an implication of possibilities--oh if everything +had been different! Strether noted at all events that he was thus on +terms with illustrious spirits, and also that--yes, distinctly--he +hadn't in the least swaggered about it. Our friend hadn't come there +only for this figure of Abel Newsome's son, but that presence +threatened to affect the observant mind as positively central. Gloriani +indeed, remembering something and excusing himself, pursued Chad to +speak to him, and Strether was left musing on many things. One of them +was the question of whether, since he had been tested, he had passed. +Did the artist drop him from having made out that he wouldn't do? He +really felt just to-day that he might do better than usual. Hadn't he +done well enough, so far as that went, in being exactly so dazzled? and +in not having too, as he almost believed, wholly hidden from his host +that he felt the latter's plummet? Suddenly, across the garden, he saw +little Bilham approach, and it was a part of the fit that was on him +that as their eyes met he guessed also HIS knowledge. If he had said to +him on the instant what was uppermost he would have said: "HAVE I +passed?--for of course I know one has to pass here." Little Bilham +would have reassured him, have told him that he exaggerated, and have +adduced happily enough the argument of little Bilham's own very +presence; which, in truth, he could see, was as easy a one as +Gloriani's own or as Chad's. He himself would perhaps then after a +while cease to be frightened, would get the point of view for some of +the faces--types tremendously alien, alien to Woollett--that he had +already begun to take in. Who were they all, the dispersed groups and +couples, the ladies even more unlike those of Woollett than the +gentlemen?--this was the enquiry that, when his young friend had +greeted him, he did find himself making. + +"Oh they're every one--all sorts and sizes; of course I mean within +limits, though limits down perhaps rather more than limits up. There +are always artists--he's beautiful and inimitable to the cher confrere; +and then gros bonnets of many kinds--ambassadors, cabinet ministers, +bankers, generals, what do I know? even Jews. Above all always some +awfully nice women--and not too many; sometimes an actress, an artist, +a great performer--but only when they're not monsters; and in +particular the right femmes du monde. You can fancy his history on that +side--I believe it's fabulous: they NEVER give him up. Yet he keeps +them down: no one knows how he manages; it's too beautiful and bland. +Never too many--and a mighty good thing too; just a perfect choice. But +there are not in any way many bores; it has always been so; he has some +secret. It's extraordinary. And you don't find it out. He's the same +to every one. He doesn't ask questions.' + +"Ah doesn't he?" Strether laughed. + +Bilham met it with all his candour. "How then should I be here? + +"Oh for what you tell me. You're part of the perfect choice." + +Well, the young man took in the scene. "It seems rather good to-day." + +Strether followed the direction of his eyes. "Are they all, this time, +femmes du monde?" + +Little Bilham showed his competence. "Pretty well." + +This was a category our friend had a feeling for; a light, romantic and +mysterious, on the feminine element, in which he enjoyed for a little +watching it. "Are there any Poles?" + +His companion considered. "I think I make out a 'Portuguee.' But I've +seen Turks." + +Strether wondered, desiring justice. "They seem--all the women--very +harmonious." + +"Oh in closer quarters they come out!" And then, while Strether was +aware of fearing closer quarters, though giving himself again to the +harmonies, "Well," little Bilham went on, "it IS at the worst rather +good, you know. If you like it, you feel it, this way, that shows +you're not in the least out But you always know things," he handsomely +added, "immediately." + +Strether liked it and felt it only too much; so "I say, don't lay traps +for me!" he rather helplessly murmured. + +"Well," his companion returned, "he's wonderfully kind to us." + +"To us Americans you mean?" + +"Oh no--he doesn't know anything about THAT. That's half the battle +here--that you can never hear politics. We don't talk them. I mean to +poor young wretches of all sorts. And yet it's always as charming as +this; it's as if, by something in the air, our squalor didn't show. It +puts us all back--into the last century." + +"I'm afraid," Strether said, amused, "that it puts me rather forward: +oh ever so far!" + +"Into the next? But isn't that only," little Bilham asked, "because +you're really of the century before?" + +"The century before the last? Thank you!" Strether laughed. "If I ask +you about some of the ladies it can't be then that I may hope, as such +a specimen of the rococo, to please them." + +"On the contrary they adore--we all adore here--the rococo, and where +is there a better setting for it than the whole thing, the pavilion and +the garden, together? There are lots of people with collections," +little Bilham smiled as he glanced round. "You'll be secured!" + +It made Strether for a moment give himself again to contemplation. +There were faces he scarce knew what to make of. Were they charming or +were they only strange? He mightn't talk politics, yet he suspected a +Pole or two. The upshot was the question at the back of his head from +the moment his friend had joined him. "Have Madame de Vionnet and her +daughter arrived?" + +"I haven't seen them yet, but Miss Gostrey has come. She's in the +pavilion looking at objects. One can see SHE'S a collector," little +Bilham added without offence. + +"Oh yes, she's a collector, and I knew she was to come. Is Madame de +Vionnet a collector?" Strether went on. + +"Rather, I believe; almost celebrated." The young man met, on it, a +little, his friend's eyes. "I happen to know--from Chad, whom I saw +last night--that they've come back; but only yesterday. He wasn't +sure--up to the last. This, accordingly," little Bilham went on, "will +be--if they ARE here--their first appearance after their return." + +Strether, very quickly, turned these things over. "Chad told you last +night? To me, on our way here, he said nothing about it." + +"But did you ask him?" + +Strether did him the justice. "I dare say not." + +"Well," said little Bilham, "you're not a person to whom it's easy to +tell things you don't want to know. Though it is easy, I admit--it's +quite beautiful," he benevolently added, "when you do want to." + +Strether looked at him with an indulgence that matched his +intelligence. "Is that the deep reasoning on which--about these +ladies--you've been yourself so silent?" + +Little Bilham considered the depth of his reasoning. "I haven't been +silent. I spoke of them to you the other day, the day we sat together +after Chad's tea-party." + +Strether came round to it. "They then are the virtuous attachment?" + +"I can only tell you that it's what they pass for. But isn't that +enough? What more than a vain appearance does the wisest of us know? I +commend you," the young man declared with a pleasant emphasis, "the +vain appearance." + +Strether looked more widely round, and what he saw, from face to face, +deepened the effect of his young friend's words. "Is it so good?" + +"Magnificent." + +Strether had a pause. "The husband's dead?" + +"Dear no. Alive." + +"Oh!" said Strether. After which, as his companion laughed: "How then +can it be so good?" + +"You'll see for yourself. One does see." + +"Chad's in love with the daughter?" + +"That's what I mean." + +Strether wondered. "Then where's the difficulty?" + +"Why, aren't you and I--with our grander bolder ideas?" + +"Oh mine--!" Strether said rather strangely. But then as if to +attenuate: "You mean they won't hear of Woollett?" + +Little Bilham smiled. "Isn't that just what you must see about?" + +It had brought them, as she caught the last words, into relation with +Miss Barrace, whom Strether had already observed--as he had never +before seen a lady at a party--moving about alone. Coming within sound +of them she had already spoken, and she took again, through her +long-handled glass, all her amused and amusing possession. "How much, +poor Mr. Strether, you seem to have to see about! But you can't say," +she gaily declared, "that I don't do what I can to help you. Mr. +Waymarsh is placed. I've left him in the house with Miss Gostrey." + +"The way," little Bilham exclaimed, "Mr. Strether gets the ladies to +work for him! He's just preparing to draw in another; to pounce--don't +you see him?--on Madame de Vionnet." + +"Madame de Vionnet? Oh, oh, oh!" Miss Barrace cried in a wonderful +crescendo. There was more in it, our friend made out, than met the +ear. Was it after all a joke that he should be serious about anything? +He envied Miss Barrace at any rate her power of not being. She seemed, +with little cries and protests and quick recognitions, movements like +the darts of some fine high-feathered free-pecking bird, to stand +before life as before some full shop-window. You could fairly hear, as +she selected and pointed, the tap of her tortoise-shell against the +glass. "It's certain that we do need seeing about; only I'm glad it's +not I who have to do it. One does, no doubt, begin that way; then +suddenly one finds that one has given it up. It's too much, it's too +difficult. You're wonderful, you people," she continued to Strether, +"for not feeling those things--by which I mean impossibilities. You +never feel them. You face them with a fortitude that makes it a lesson +to watch you." + +"Ah but"--little Bilham put it with discouragement--"what do we achieve +after all? We see about you and report--when we even go so far as +reporting. But nothing's done." + +"Oh you, Mr. Bilham," she replied as with an impatient rap on the +glass, "you're not worth sixpence! You come over to convert the +savages--for I know you verily did, I remember you--and the savages +simply convert YOU." + +"Not even!" the young man woefully confessed: "they haven't gone +through that form. They've simply--the cannibals!--eaten me; converted +me if you like, but converted me into food. I'm but the bleached bones +of a Christian." + +"Well then there we are! Only"--and Miss Barrace appealed again to +Strether--"don't let it discourage you. You'll break down soon enough, +but you'll meanwhile have had your moments. Il faut en avoir. I +always like to see you while you last. And I'll tell you who WILL +last." + +"Waymarsh?"--he had already taken her up. + +She laughed out as at the alarm of it. "He'll resist even Miss +Gostrey: so grand is it not to understand. He's wonderful." + +"He is indeed," Strether conceded. "He wouldn't tell me of this +affair--only said he had an engagement; but with such a gloom, you must +let me insist, as if it had been an engagement to be hanged. Then +silently and secretly he turns up here with you. Do you call THAT +'lasting'?" + +"Oh I hope it's lasting!" Miss Barrace said. "But he only, at the +best, bears with me. He doesn't understand--not one little scrap. He's +delightful. He's wonderful," she repeated. + +"Michelangelesque!"--little Bilham completed her meaning. "He IS a +success. Moses, on the ceiling, brought down to the floor; +overwhelming, colossal, but somehow portable." + +"Certainly, if you mean by portable," she returned, "looking so well in +one's carriage. He's too funny beside me in his comer; he looks like +somebody, somebody foreign and famous, en exil; so that people +wonder--it's very amusing--whom I'm taking about. I show him Paris, +show him everything, and he never turns a hair. He's like the Indian +chief one reads about, who, when he comes up to Washington to see the +Great Father, stands wrapt in his blanket and gives no sign. I might +be the Great Father--from the way he takes everything." She was +delighted at this hit of her identity with that personage--it fitted so +her character; she declared it was the title she meant henceforth to +adopt. "And the way he sits, too, in the corner of my room, only +looking at my visitors very hard and as if he wanted to start +something! They wonder what he does want to start. But he's +wonderful," Miss Barrace once more insisted. "He has never started +anything yet." + +It presented him none the less, in truth, to her actual friends, who +looked at each other in intelligence, with frank amusement on Bilham's +part and a shade of sadness on Strether's. Strether's sadness +sprang--for the image had its grandeur--from his thinking how little he +himself was wrapt in his blanket, how little, in marble halls, all too +oblivious of the Great Father, he resembled a really majestic +aboriginal. But he had also another reflexion. "You've all of you here +so much visual sense that you've somehow all 'run' to it. There are +moments when it strikes one that you haven't any other." + +"Any moral," little Bilham explained, watching serenely, across the +garden, the several femmes du monde. "But Miss Barrace has a moral +distinction," he kindly continued; speaking as if for Strether's +benefit not less than for her own. + +"HAVE you?" Strether, scarce knowing what he was about, asked of her +almost eagerly. + +"Oh not a distinction"--she was mightily amused at his tone--"Mr. +Bilham's too good. But I think I may say a sufficiency. Yes, a +sufficiency. Have you supposed strange things of me?"--and she fixed +him again, through all her tortoise-shell, with the droll interest of +it. "You ARE all indeed wonderful. I should awfully disappoint you. I +do take my stand on my sufficiency. But I know, I confess," she went +on, "strange people. I don't know how it happens; I don't do it on +purpose; it seems to be my doom--as if I were always one of their +habits: it's wonderful! I dare say moreover," she pursued with an +interested gravity, "that I do, that we all do here, run too much to +mere eye. But how can it be helped? We're all looking at each +other--and in the light of Paris one sees what things resemble. That's +what the light of Paris seems always to show. It's the fault of the +light of Paris--dear old light!" + +"Dear old Paris!" little Bilham echoed. + +"Everything, every one shows," Miss Barrace went on. + +"But for what they really are?" Strether asked. + +"Oh I like your Boston 'reallys'! But sometimes--yes." + +"Dear old Paris then!" Strether resignedly sighed while for a moment +they looked at each other. Then he broke out: "Does Madame de Vionnet +do that? I mean really show for what she is?" + +Her answer was prompt. "She's charming. She's perfect." + +"Then why did you a minute ago say 'Oh, oh, oh!' at her name?" + +She easily remembered. "Why just because--! She's wonderful." + +"Ah she too?"--Strether had almost a groan. + +But Miss Barrace had meanwhile perceived relief. "Why not put your +question straight to the person who can answer it best?" + +"No," said little Bilham; "don't put any question; wait, rather--it +will be much more fun--to judge for yourself. He has come to take you +to her." + + + +II + + +On which Strether saw that Chad was again at hand, and he afterwards +scarce knew, absurd as it may seem, what had then quickly occurred. The +moment concerned him, he felt, more deeply than he could have +explained, and he had a subsequent passage of speculation as to +whether, on walking off with Chad, he hadn't looked either pale or red. +The only thing he was clear about was that, luckily, nothing indiscreet +had in fact been said and that Chad himself was more than ever, in Miss +Barrace's great sense, wonderful. It was one of the connexions--though +really why it should be, after all, was none so apparent--in which the +whole change in him came out as most striking. Strether recalled as +they approached the house that he had impressed him that first night as +knowing how to enter a box. Well, he impressed him scarce less now as +knowing how to make a presentation. It did something for Strether's +own quality--marked it as estimated; so that our poor friend, conscious +and passive, really seemed to feel himself quite handed over and +delivered; absolutely, as he would have said, made a present of, given +away. As they reached the house a young woman, about to come forth, +appeared, unaccompanied, on the steps; at the exchange with whom of a +word on Chad's part Strether immediately perceived that, obligingly, +kindly, she was there to meet them. Chad had left her in the house, but +she had afterwards come halfway and then the next moment had joined +them in the garden. Her air of youth, for Strether, was at first almost +disconcerting, while his second impression was, not less sharply, a +degree of relief at there not having just been, with the others, any +freedom used about her. It was upon him at a touch that she was no +subject for that, and meanwhile, on Chad's introducing him, she had +spoken to him, very simply and gently, in an English clearly of the +easiest to her, yet unlike any other he had ever heard. It wasn't as +if she tried; nothing, he could see after they had been a few minutes +together, was as if she tried; but her speech, charming correct and +odd, was like a precaution against her passing for a Pole. There were +precautions, he seemed indeed to see, only when there were really +dangers. + +Later on he was to feel many more of them, but by that time he was to +feel other things besides. She was dressed in black, but in black that +struck him as light and transparent; she was exceedingly fair, and, +though she was as markedly slim, her face had a roundness, with eyes +far apart and a little strange. Her smile was natural and dim; her hat +not extravagant; he had only perhaps a sense of the clink, beneath her +fine black sleeves, of more gold bracelets and bangles than he had ever +seen a lady wear. Chad was excellently free and light about their +encounter; it was one of the occasions on which Strether most wished he +himself might have arrived at such ease and such humour: "Here you are +then, face to face at last; you're made for each other--vous allez +voir; and I bless your union." It was indeed, after he had gone off, +as if he had been partly serious too. This latter motion had been +determined by an enquiry from him about "Jeanne"; to which her mother +had replied that she was probably still in the house with Miss Gostrey, +to whom she had lately committed her. "Ah but you know," the young man +had rejoined, "he must see her"; with which, while Strether pricked up +his ears, he had started as if to bring her, leaving the other objects +of his interest together. Strether wondered to find Miss Gostrey +already involved, feeling that he missed a link; but feeling also, with +small delay, how much he should like to talk with her of Madame de +Vionnet on this basis of evidence. + +The evidence as yet in truth was meagre; which, for that matter, was +perhaps a little why his expectation had had a drop. There was somehow +not quite a wealth in her; and a wealth was all that, in his +simplicity, he had definitely prefigured. Still, it was too much to be +sure already that there was but a poverty. They moved away from the +house, and, with eyes on a bench at some distance, he proposed that +they should sit down. "I've heard a great deal about you," she said as +they went; but he had an answer to it that made her stop short. "Well, +about YOU, Madame de Vionnet, I've heard, I'm bound to say, almost +nothing"--those struck him as the only words he himself could utter +with any lucidity; conscious as he was, and as with more reason, of the +determination to be in respect to the rest of his business perfectly +plain and go perfectly straight. It hadn't at any rate been in the +least his idea to spy on Chad's proper freedom. It was possibly, +however, at this very instant and under the impression of Madame de +Vionnet's pause, that going straight began to announce itself as a +matter for care. She had only after all to smile at him ever so gently +in order to make him ask himself if he weren't already going crooked. +It might be going crooked to find it of a sudden just only clear that +she intended very definitely to be what he would have called nice to +him. This was what passed between them while, for another instant, +they stood still; he couldn't at least remember afterwards what else it +might have been. The thing indeed really unmistakeable was its rolling +over him as a wave that he had been, in conditions incalculable and +unimaginable, a subject of discussion. He had been, on some ground +that concerned her, answered for; which gave her an advantage he should +never be able to match. + +"Hasn't Miss Gostrey," she asked, "said a good word for me?" + +What had struck him first was the way he was bracketed with that lady; +and he wondered what account Chad would have given of their +acquaintance. Something not as yet traceable, at all events, had +obviously happened. "I didn't even know of her knowing you." + +"Well, now she'll tell you all. I'm so glad you're in relation with +her." + +This was one of the things--the "all" Miss Gostrey would now tell +him--that, with every deference to present preoccupation, was uppermost +for Strether after they had taken their seat. One of the others was, +at the end of five minutes, that she--oh incontestably, yes--DIFFERED +less; differed, that is, scarcely at all--well, superficially speaking, +from Mrs. Newsome or even from Mrs. Pocock. She was ever so much +younger than the one and not so young as the other; but what WAS there +in her, if anything, that would have made it impossible he should meet +her at Woollett? And wherein was her talk during their moments on the +bench together not the same as would have been found adequate for a +Woollett garden-party?--unless perhaps truly in not being quite so +bright. She observed to him that Mr. Newsome had, to her knowledge, +taken extraordinary pleasure in his visit; but there was no good lady +at Woollett who wouldn't have been at least up to that. Was there in +Chad, by chance, after all, deep down, a principle of aboriginal +loyalty that had made him, for sentimental ends, attach himself to +elements, happily encountered, that would remind him most of the old +air and the old soil? Why accordingly be in a flutter--Strether could +even put it that way--about this unfamiliar phenomenon of the femme du +monde? On these terms Mrs. Newsome herself was as much of one. Little +Bilham verily had testified that they came out, the ladies of the type, +in close quarters; but it was just in these quarters--now comparatively +close--that he felt Madame de Vionnet's common humanity. She did come +out, and certainly to his relief, but she came out as the usual thing. +There might be motives behind, but so could there often be even at +Woollett. The only thing was that if she showed him she wished to like +him--as the motives behind might conceivably prompt--it would possibly +have been more thrilling for him that she should have shown as more +vividly alien. Ah she was neither Turk nor Pole!--which would be +indeed flat once more for Mrs. Newsome and Mrs. Pocock. A lady and two +gentlemen had meanwhile, however, approached their bench, and this +accident stayed for the time further developments. + +They presently addressed his companion, the brilliant strangers; she +rose to speak to them, and Strether noted how the escorted lady, though +mature and by no means beautiful, had more of the bold high look, the +range of expensive reference, that he had, as might have been said, +made his plans for. Madame de Vionnet greeted her as "Duchesse" and +was greeted in turn, while talk started in French, as "Ma toute-belle"; +little facts that had their due, their vivid interest for Strether. +Madame de Vionnet didn't, none the less, introduce him--a note he was +conscious of as false to the Woollett scale and the Woollett humanity; +though it didn't prevent the Duchess, who struck him as confident and +free, very much what he had obscurely supposed duchesses, from looking +at him as straight and as hard--for it WAS hard--as if she would have +liked, all the same, to know him. "Oh yes, my dear, it's all right, +it's ME; and who are YOU, with your interesting wrinkles and your most +effective (is it the handsomest, is it the ugliest?) of noses?"--some +such loose handful of bright flowers she seemed, fragrantly enough, to +fling at him. Strether almost wondered--at such a pace was he +going--if some divination of the influence of either party were what +determined Madame de Vionnet's abstention. One of the gentlemen, in +any case, succeeded in placing himself in close relation with our +friend's companion; a gentleman rather stout and importantly short, in +a hat with a wonderful wide curl to its brim and a frock coat buttoned +with an effect of superlative decision. His French had quickly turned +to equal English, and it occurred to Strether that he might well be one +of the ambassadors. His design was evidently to assert a claim to +Madame de Vionnet's undivided countenance, and he made it good in the +course of a minute--led her away with a trick of three words; a trick +played with a social art of which Strether, looking after them as the +four, whose backs were now all turned, moved off, felt himself no +master. + +He sank again upon his bench and, while his eyes followed the party, +reflected, as he had done before, on Chad's strange communities. He +sat there alone for five minutes, with plenty to think of; above all +with his sense of having suddenly been dropped by a charming woman +overlaid now by other impressions and in fact quite cleared and +indifferent. He hadn't yet had so quiet a surrender; he didn't in the +least care if nobody spoke to him more. He might have been, by his +attitude, in for something of a march so broad that the want of +ceremony with which he had just been used could fall into its place as +but a minor incident of the procession. Besides, there would be +incidents enough, as he felt when this term of contemplation was closed +by the reappearance of little Bilham, who stood before him a moment +with a suggestive "Well?" in which he saw himself reflected as +disorganised, as possibly floored. He replied with a "Well!" intended +to show that he wasn't floored in the least. No indeed; he gave it +out, as the young man sat down beside him, that if, at the worst, he +had been overturned at all, he had been overturned into the upper air, +the sublimer element with which he had an affinity and in which he +might be trusted a while to float. It wasn't a descent to earth to say +after an instant and in sustained response to the reference: "You're +quite sure her husband's living?" + +"Oh dear, yes." + +"Ah then--!" + +"Ah then what?" + +Strether had after all to think. "Well, I'm sorry for them." But it +didn't for the moment matter more than that. He assured his young +friend he was quite content. They wouldn't stir; were all right as +they were. He didn't want to be introduced; had been introduced +already about as far as he could go. He had seen moreover an +immensity; liked Gloriani, who, as Miss Barrace kept saying, was +wonderful; had made out, he was sure, the half-dozen other 'men who +were distinguished, the artists, the critics and oh the great +dramatist--HIM it was easy to spot; but wanted--no, thanks, really--to +talk with none of them; having nothing at all to say and finding it +would do beautifully as it was; do beautifully because what it +was--well, was just simply too late. And when after this little Bilham, +submissive and responsive, but with an eye to the consolation nearest, +easily threw off some "Better late than never!" all he got in return +for it was a sharp "Better early than late!" This note indeed the next +thing overflowed for Strether into a quiet stream of demonstration that +as soon as he had let himself go he felt as the real relief. It had +consciously gathered to a head, but the reservoir had filled sooner +than he knew, and his companion's touch was to make the waters spread. +There were some things that had to come in time if they were to come at +all. If they didn't come in time they were lost for ever. It was the +general sense of them that had overwhelmed him with its long slow rush. + +"It's not too late for YOU, on any side, and you don't strike me as in +danger of missing the train; besides which people can be in general +pretty well trusted, of course--with the clock of their freedom ticking +as loud as it seems to do here--to keep an eye on the fleeting hour. +All the same don't forget that you're young--blessedly young; be glad +of it on the contrary and live up to it. Live all you can; it's a +mistake not to. It doesn't so much matter what you do in particular, +so long as you have your life. If you haven't had that what HAVE you +had? This place and these impressions--mild as you may find them to +wind a man up so; all my impressions of Chad and of people I've seen at +HIS place--well, have had their abundant message for me, have just +dropped THAT into my mind. I see it now. I haven't done so enough +before--and now I'm old; too old at any rate for what I see. Oh I DO +see, at least; and more than you'd believe or I can express. It's too +late. And it's as if the train had fairly waited at the station for me +without my having had the gumption to know it was there. Now I hear its +faint receding whistle miles and miles down the line. What one loses +one loses; make no mistake about that. The affair--I mean the affair +of life--couldn't, no doubt, have been different for me; for it's at +the best a tin mould, either fluted and embossed, with ornamental +excrescences, or else smooth and dreadfully plain, into which, a +helpless jelly, one's consciousness is poured--so that one 'takes' the +form as the great cook says, and is more or less compactly held by it: +one lives in fine as one can. Still, one has the illusion of freedom; +therefore don't be, like me, without the memory of that illusion. I +was either, at the right time, too stupid or too intelligent to have +it; I don't quite know which. Of course at present I'm a case of +reaction against the mistake; and the voice of reaction should, no +doubt, always be taken with an allowance. But that doesn't affect the +point that the right time is now yours. The right time is ANY time +that one is still so lucky as to have. You've plenty; that's the great +thing; you're, as I say, damn you, so happily and hatefully young. +Don't at any rate miss things out of stupidity. Of course I don't take +you for a fool, or I shouldn't be addressing you thus awfully. Do what +you like so long as you don't make MY mistake. For it was a mistake. +Live!" ... Slowly and sociably, with full pauses and straight +dashes, Strether had so delivered himself; holding little Bilham from +step to step deeply and gravely attentive. The end of all was that the +young man had turned quite solemn, and that this was a contradiction of +the innocent gaiety the speaker had wished to promote. He watched for +a moment the consequence of his words, and then, laying a hand on his +listener's knee and as if to end with the proper joke: "And now for +the eye I shall keep on you!" + +"Oh but I don't know that I want to be, at your age, too different from +you!" + +"Ah prepare while you're about it," said Strether, "to be more amusing." + +Little Bilham continued to think, but at last had a smile. "Well, you +ARE amusing--to ME." + +"Impayable, as you say, no doubt. But what am I to myself?" Strether +had risen with this, giving his attention now to an encounter that, in +the middle of the garden, was in the act of taking place between their +host and the lady at whose side Madame de Vionnet had quitted him. This +lady, who appeared within a few minutes to have left her friends, +awaited Gloriani's eager approach with words on her lips that Strether +couldn't catch, but of which her interesting witty face seemed to give +him the echo. He was sure she was prompt and fine, but also that she +had met her match, and he liked--in the light of what he was quite sure +was the Duchess's latent insolence--the good humour with which the +great artist asserted equal resources. Were they, this pair, of the +"great world"?--and was he himself, for the moment and thus related to +them by his observation, IN it? Then there was something in the great +world covertly tigerish, which came to him across the lawn and in the +charming air as a waft from the jungle. Yet it made him admire most of +the two, made him envy, the glossy male tiger, magnificently marked. +These absurdities of the stirred sense, fruits of suggestion ripening +on the instant, were all reflected in his next words to little Bilham. +"I know--if we talk of that--whom I should enjoy being like!" + +Little Bilham followed his eyes; but then as with a shade of knowing +surprise: "Gloriani?" + +Our friend had in fact already hesitated, though not on the hint of his +companion's doubt, in which there were depths of critical reserve. He +had just made out, in the now full picture, something and somebody +else; another impression had been superimposed. A young girl in a +white dress and a softly plumed white hat had suddenly come into view, +and what was presently clear was that her course was toward them. What +was clearer still was that the handsome young man at her side was Chad +Newsome, and what was clearest of all was that she was therefore +Mademoiselle de Vionnet, that she was unmistakeably pretty--bright +gentle shy happy wonderful--and that Chad now, with a consummate +calculation of effect, was about to present her to his old friend's +vision. What was clearest of all indeed was something much more than +this, something at the single stroke of which--and wasn't it simply +juxtaposition?--all vagueness vanished. It was the click of a +spring--he saw the truth. He had by this time also met Chad's look; +there was more of it in that; and the truth, accordingly, so far as +Bilham's enquiry was concerned, had thrust in the answer. "Oh +Chad!"--it was that rare youth he should have enjoyed being "like." The +virtuous attachment would be all there before him; the virtuous +attachment would be in the very act of appeal for his blessing; Jeanne +de Vionnet, this charming creature, would be exquisitely, intensely +now--the object of it. Chad brought her straight up to him, and Chad +was, oh yes, at this moment--for the glory of Woollett or +whatever--better still even than Gloriani. He had plucked this +blossom; he had kept it over-night in water; and at last as he held it +up to wonder he did enjoy his effect. That was why Strether had felt +at first the breath of calculation--and why moreover, as he now knew, +his look at the girl would be, for the young man, a sign of the +latter's success. What young man had ever paraded about that way, +without a reason, a maiden in her flower? And there was nothing in his +reason at present obscure. Her type sufficiently told of it--they +wouldn't, they couldn't, want her to go to Woollett. Poor Woollett, +and what it might miss!--though brave Chad indeed too, and what it +might gain! Brave Chad however had just excellently spoken. "This is a +good little friend of mine who knows all about you and has moreover a +message for you. And this, my dear"--he had turned to the child +herself--"is the best man in the world, who has it in his power to do a +great deal for us and whom I want you to like and revere as nearly as +possible as much as I do." + +She stood there quite pink, a little frightened, prettier and prettier +and not a bit like her mother. There was in this last particular no +resemblance but that of youth to youth; and here was in fact suddenly +Strether's sharpest impression. It went wondering, dazed, embarrassed, +back to the woman he had just been talking with; it was a revelation in +the light of which he already saw she would become more interesting. So +slim and fresh and fair, she had yet put forth this perfection; so that +for really believing it of her, for seeing her to any such developed +degree as a mother, comparison would be urgent. Well, what was it now +but fairly thrust upon him? "Mamma wishes me to tell you before we +go," the girl said, "that she hopes very much you'll come to see us +very soon. She has something important to say to you." + +"She quite reproaches herself," Chad helpfully explained: "you were +interesting her so much when she accidentally suffered you to be +interrupted." + +"Ah don't mention it!" Strether murmured, looking kindly from one to +the other and wondering at many things. + +"And I'm to ask you for myself," Jeanne continued with her hands +clasped together as if in some small learnt prayer--"I'm to ask you for +myself if you won't positively come." + +"Leave it to me, dear--I'll take care of it!" Chad genially declared in +answer to this, while Strether himself almost held his breath. What +was in the girl was indeed too soft, too unknown for direct dealing; so +that one could only gaze at it as at a picture, quite staying one's own +hand. But with Chad he was now on ground--Chad he could meet; so +pleasant a confidence in that and in everything did the young man +freely exhale. There was the whole of a story in his tone to his +companion, and he spoke indeed as if already of the family. It made +Strether guess the more quickly what it might be about which Madame de +Vionnet was so urgent. Having seen him then she had found him easy; +she wished to have it out with him that some way for the young people +must be discovered, some way that would not impose as a condition the +transplantation of her daughter. He already saw himself discussing +with this lady the attractions of Woollett as a residence for Chad's +companion. Was that youth going now to trust her with the affair--so +that it would be after all with one of his "lady-friends" that his +mother's missionary should be condemned to deal? It was quite as if +for an instant the two men looked at each other on this question. But +there was no mistaking at last Chad's pride in the display of such a +connexion. This was what had made him so carry himself while, three +minutes before, he was bringing it into view; what had caused his +friend, first catching sight of him, to be so struck with his air. It +was, in a word, just when he thus finally felt Chad putting things +straight off on him that he envied him, as he had mentioned to little +Bilham, most. The whole exhibition however was but a matter of three +or four minutes, and the author of it had soon explained that, as +Madame de Vionnet was immediately going "on," this could be for Jeanne +but a snatch. They would all meet again soon, and Strether was +meanwhile to stay and amuse himself--"I'll pick you up again in plenty +of time." He took the girl off as he had brought her, and Strether, +with the faint sweet foreignness of her "Au revoir, monsieur!" in his +ears as a note almost unprecedented, watched them recede side by side +and felt how, once more, her companion's relation to her got an accent +from it. They disappeared among the others and apparently into the +house; whereupon our friend turned round to give out to little Bilham +the conviction of which he was full. But there was no little Bilham +any more; little Bilham had within the few moments, for reasons of his +own, proceeded further: a circumstance by which, in its order, +Strether was also sensibly affected. + + + +III + + +Chad was not in fact on this occasion to keep his promise of coming +back; but Miss Gostrey had soon presented herself with an explanation +of his failure. There had been reasons at the last for his going off +with ces dames; and he had asked her with much instance to come out and +take charge of their friend. She did so, Strether felt as she took her +place beside him, in a manner that left nothing to desire. He had +dropped back on his bench, alone again for a time, and the more +conscious for little Bilham's defection of his unexpressed thought; in +respect to which however this next converser was a still more capacious +vessel. "It's the child!" he had exclaimed to her almost as soon as +she appeared; and though her direct response was for some time delayed +he could feel in her meanwhile the working of this truth. It might +have been simply, as she waited, that they were now in presence +altogether of truth spreading like a flood and not for the moment to be +offered her in the mere cupful; inasmuch as who should ces dames prove +to be but persons about whom--once thus face to face with them--she +found she might from the first have told him almost everything? This +would have freely come had he taken the simple precaution of giving her +their name. There could be no better example--and she appeared to note +it with high amusement--than the way, making things out already so much +for himself, he was at last throwing precautions to the winds. They +were neither more nor less, she and the child's mother, than old +school-friends--friends who had scarcely met for years but whom this +unlooked-for chance had brought together with a rush. It was a relief, +Miss Gostrey hinted, to feel herself no longer groping; she was +unaccustomed to grope and as a general thing, he might well have seen, +made straight enough for her clue. With the one she had now picked up +in her hands there need be at least no waste of wonder. "She's coming +to see me--that's for YOU," Strether's counsellor continued; "but I +don't require it to know where I am." + +The waste of wonder might be proscribed; but Strether, +characteristically, was even by this time in the immensity of space. +"By which you mean that you know where SHE is?" + +She just hesitated. "I mean that if she comes to see me I shall--now +that I've pulled myself round a bit after the shock--not be at home." + +Strether hung poised. "You call it--your recognition--a shock?" + +She gave one of her rare flickers of impatience. "It was a surprise, +an emotion. Don't be so literal. I wash my hands of her." + +Poor Strether's face lengthened. "She's impossible--?" + +"She's even more charming than I remembered her." + +"Then what's the matter?" + +She had to think how to put it. "Well, I'M impossible. It's +impossible. Everything's impossible." + +He looked at her an instant. "I see where you're coming out. +Everything's possible." Their eyes had on it in fact an exchange of +some duration; after which he pursued: "Isn't it that beautiful +child?" Then as she still said nothing: "Why don't you mean to receive +her?" + +Her answer in an instant rang clear. "Because I wish to keep out of +the business." + +It provoked in him a weak wail. "You're going to abandon me NOW?" + +"No, I'm only going to abandon HER. She'll want me to help her with +you. And I won't." + +"You'll only help me with her? Well then--!" Most of the persons +previously gathered had, in the interest of tea, passed into the house, +and they had the gardens mainly to themselves. The shadows were long, +the last call of the birds, who had made a home of their own in the +noble interspaced quarter, sounded from the high trees in the other +gardens as well, those of the old convent and of the old hotels; it was +as if our friends had waited for the full charm to come out. Strether's +impressions were still present; it was as if something had happened +that "nailed" them, made them more intense; but he was to ask himself +soon afterwards, that evening, what really HAD happened--conscious as +he could after all remain that for a gentleman taken, and taken the +first time, into the "great world," the world of ambassadors and +duchesses, the items made a meagre total. It was nothing new to him, +however, as we know, that a man might have--at all events such a man as +he--an amount of experience out of any proportion to his adventures; so +that, though it was doubtless no great adventure to sit on there with +Miss Gostrey and hear about Madame de Vionnet, the hour, the picture, +the immediate, the recent, the possible--as well as the communication +itself, not a note of which failed to reverberate--only gave the +moments more of the taste of history. + +It was history, to begin with, that Jeanne's mother had been +three-and-twenty years before, at Geneva, schoolmate and good +girlfriend to Maria Gostrey, who had moreover enjoyed since then, +though interruptedly and above all with a long recent drop, other +glimpses of her. Twenty-three years put them both on, no doubt; and +Madame de Vionnet--though she had married straight after +school--couldn't be today an hour less than thirty-eight. This made her +ten years older than Chad--though ten years, also, if Strether liked, +older than she looked; the least, at any rate, that a prospective +mother-in-law could be expected to do with. She would be of all +mothers-in-law the most charming; unless indeed, through some +perversity as yet insupposeable, she should utterly belie herself in +that relation. There was none surely in which, as Maria remembered +her, she mustn't be charming; and this frankly in spite of the stigma +of failure in the tie where failure always most showed. It was no test +there--when indeed WAS it a test there?--for Monsieur de Vionnet had +been a brute. She had lived for years apart from him--which was of +course always a horrid position; but Miss Gostrey's impression of the +matter had been that she could scarce have made a better thing of it +had she done it on purpose to show she was amiable. She was so amiable +that nobody had had a word to say; which was luckily not the case for +her husband. He was so impossible that she had the advantage of all +her merits. + +It was still history for Strether that the Comte de Vionnet--it being +also history that the lady in question was a Countess--should now, +under Miss Gostrey's sharp touch, rise before him as a high +distinguished polished impertinent reprobate, the product of a +mysterious order; it was history, further, that the charming girl so +freely sketched by his companion should have been married out of hand +by a mother, another figure of striking outline, full of dark personal +motive; it was perhaps history most of all that this company was, as a +matter of course, governed by such considerations as put divorce out of +the question. "Ces gens-la don't divorce, you know, any more than they +emigrate or abjure--they think it impious and vulgar"; a fact in the +light of which they seemed but the more richly special. It was all +special; it was all, for Strether's imagination, more or less rich. The +girl at the Genevese school, an isolated interesting attaching +creature, then both sensitive and violent, audacious but always +forgiven, was the daughter of a French father and an English mother +who, early left a widow, had married again--tried afresh with a +foreigner; in her career with whom she had apparently given her child +no example of comfort. All these people--the people of the English +mother's side--had been of condition more or less eminent; yet with +oddities and disparities that had often since made Maria, thinking them +over, wonder what they really quite rhymed to. It was in any case her +belief that the mother, interested and prone to adventure, had been +without conscience, had only thought of ridding herself most quickly of +a possible, an actual encumbrance. The father, by her impression, a +Frenchman with a name one knew, had been a different matter, leaving +his child, she clearly recalled, a memory all fondness, as well as an +assured little fortune which was unluckily to make her more or less of +a prey later on. She had been in particular, at school, dazzlingly, +though quite booklessly, clever; as polyglot as a little Jewess (which +she wasn't, oh no!) and chattering French, English, German, Italian, +anything one would, in a way that made a clean sweep, if not of prizes +and parchments, at least of every "part," whether memorised or +improvised, in the curtained costumed school repertory, and in especial +of all mysteries of race and vagueness of reference, all swagger about +"home," among their variegated mates. + +It would doubtless be difficult to-day, as between French and English, +to name her and place her; she would certainly show, on knowledge, Miss +Gostrey felt, as one of those convenient types who don't keep you +explaining--minds with doors as numerous as the many-tongued cluster of +confessionals at Saint Peter's. You might confess to her with +confidence in Roumelian, and even Roumelian sins. Therefore--! But +Strether's narrator covered her implication with a laugh; a laugh by +which his betrayal of a sense of the lurid in the picture was also +perhaps sufficiently protected. He had a moment of wondering, while +his friend went on, what sins might be especially Roumelian. She went +on at all events to the mention of her having met the young +thing--again by some Swiss lake--in her first married state, which had +appeared for the few intermediate years not at least violently +disturbed. She had been lovely at that moment, delightful to HER, full +of responsive emotion, of amused recognitions and amusing reminders, +and then once more, much later, after a long interval, equally but +differently charming--touching and rather mystifying for the five +minutes of an encounter at a railway-station en province, during which +it had come out that her life was all changed. Miss Gostrey had +understood enough to see, essentially, what had happened, and yet had +beautifully dreamed that she was herself faultless. There were +doubtless depths in her, but she was all right; Strether would see if +she wasn't. She was another person however--that had been promptly +marked--from the small child of nature at the Geneva school, a little +person quite made over (as foreign women WERE, compared with American) +by marriage. Her situation too had evidently cleared itself up; there +would have been--all that was possible--a judicial separation. She had +settled in Paris, brought up her daughter, steered her boat. It was no +very pleasant boat--especially there--to be in; but Marie de Vionnet +would have headed straight. She would have friends, certainly--and +very good ones. There she was at all events--and it was very +interesting. Her knowing Mr. Chad didn't in the least prove she hadn't +friends; what it proved was what good ones HE had. "I saw that," said +Miss Gostrey, "that night at the Francais; it came out for me in three +minutes. I saw HER--or somebody like her. And so," she immediately +added, "did you." + +"Oh no--not anybody like her!" Strether laughed. "But you mean," he as +promptly went on, "that she has had such an influence on him?" + +Miss Gostrey was on her feet; it was time for them to go. "She has +brought him up for her daughter." + +Their eyes, as so often, in candid conference, through their settled +glasses, met over it long; after which Strether's again took in the +whole place. They were quite alone there now. "Mustn't she rather--in +the time then--have rushed it?" + +"Ah she won't of course have lost an hour. But that's just the good +mother--the good French one. You must remember that of her--that as a +mother she's French, and that for them there's a special providence. It +precisely however--that she mayn't have been able to begin as far back +as she'd have liked--makes her grateful for aid." + +Strether took this in as they slowly moved to the house on their way +out. "She counts on me then to put the thing through?" + +"Yes--she counts on you. Oh and first of all of course," Miss Gostrey +added, "on her--well, convincing you." + +"Ah," her friend returned, "she caught Chad young!" + +"Yes, but there are women who are for all your 'times of life.' They're +the most wonderful sort." + +She had laughed the words out, but they brought her companion, the next +thing, to a stand. "Is what you mean that she'll try to make a fool of +me?" + +"Well, I'm wondering what she WILL--with an opportunity--make." + +"What do you call," Strether asked, "an opportunity? My going to see +her?" + +"Ah you must go to see her"--Miss Gostrey was a trifle evasive. "You +can't not do that. You'd have gone to see the other woman. I mean if +there had been one--a different sort. It's what you came out for." + +It might be; but Strether distinguished. "I didn't come out to see +THIS sort." + +She had a wonderful look at him now. "Are you disappointed she isn't +worse?" + +He for a moment entertained the question, then found for it the +frankest of answers. "Yes. If she were worse she'd be better for our +purpose. It would be simpler." + +"Perhaps," she admitted. "But won't this be pleasanter?" + +"Ah you know," he promptly replied, "I didn't come out--wasn't that +just what you originally reproached me with?--for the pleasant." + +"Precisely. Therefore I say again what I said at first. You must take +things as they come. Besides," Miss Gostrey added, "I'm not afraid for +myself." + +"For yourself--?" + +"Of your seeing her. I trust her. There's nothing she'll say about +me. In fact there's nothing she CAN." + +Strether wondered--little as he had thought of this. Then he broke +out. "Oh you women!" + +There was something in it at which she flushed. "Yes--there we are. +We're abysses." At last she smiled. "But I risk her!" + +He gave himself a shake. "Well then so do I!" But he added as they +passed into the house that he would see Chad the first thing in the +morning. + +This was the next day the more easily effected that the young man, as +it happened, even before he was down, turned up at his hotel. Strether +took his coffee, by habit, in the public room; but on his descending +for this purpose Chad instantly proposed an adjournment to what he +called greater privacy. He had himself as yet had nothing--they would +sit down somewhere together; and when after a few steps and a turn into +the Boulevard they had, for their greater privacy, sat down among +twenty others, our friend saw in his companion's move a fear of the +advent of Waymarsh. It was the first time Chad had to that extent +given this personage "away"; and Strether found himself wondering of +what it was symptomatic. He made out in a moment that the youth was in +earnest as he hadn't yet seen him; which in its turn threw a ray +perhaps a trifle startling on what they had each up to that time been +treating as earnestness. It was sufficiently flattering however that +the real thing--if this WAS at last the real thing--should have been +determined, as appeared, precisely by an accretion of Strether's +importance. For this was what it quickly enough came to--that Chad, +rising with the lark, had rushed down to let him know while his morning +consciousness was yet young that he had literally made the afternoon +before a tremendous impression. Madame de Vionnet wouldn't, couldn't +rest till she should have some assurance from him that he WOULD consent +again to see her. The announcement was made, across their +marble-topped table, while the foam of the hot milk was in their cups +and its plash still in the air, with the smile of Chad's easiest +urbanity; and this expression of his face caused our friend's doubts to +gather on the spot into a challenge of the lips. "See here"--that was +all; he only for the moment said again "See here." Chad met it with all +his air of straight intelligence, while Strether remembered again that +fancy of the first impression of him, the happy young Pagan, handsome +and hard but oddly indulgent, whose mysterious measure he had under the +street-lamp tried mentally to take. The young Pagan, while a long look +passed between them, sufficiently understood. Strether scarce needed +at last to say the rest--"I want to know where I am." But he said it, +adding before any answer something more. "Are you engaged to be +married--is that your secret?--to the young lady?" + +Chad shook his head with the slow amenity that was one of his ways of +conveying that there was time for everything. "I have no +secret--though I may have secrets! I haven't at any rate that one. +We're not engaged. No." + +"Then where's the hitch?" + +"Do you mean why I haven't already started with you?" Chad, beginning +his coffee and buttering his roll, was quite ready to explain. "Nothing +would have induced me--nothing will still induce me--not to try to keep +you here as long as you can be made to stay. It's too visibly good for +you." Strether had himself plenty to say about this, but it was amusing +also to measure the march of Chad's tone. He had never been more a man +of the world, and it was always in his company present to our friend +that one was seeing how in successive connexions a man of the world +acquitted himself. Chad kept it up beautifully. "My idea--voyons!--is +simply that you should let Madame de Vionnet know you, simply that you +should consent to know HER. I don't in the least mind telling you +that, clever and charming as she is, she's ever so much in my +confidence. All I ask of you is to let her talk to you. You've asked me +about what you call my hitch, and so far as it goes she'll explain it +to you. She's herself my hitch, hang it--if you must really have it +all out. But in a sense," he hastened in the most wonderful manner to +add, "that you'll quite make out for yourself. She's too good a friend, +confound her. Too good, I mean, for me to leave without--without--" It +was his first hesitation. + +"Without what?" + +"Well, without my arranging somehow or other the damnable terms of my +sacrifice." + +"It WILL be a sacrifice then?" + +"It will be the greatest loss I ever suffered. I owe her so much." + +It was beautiful, the way Chad said these things, and his plea was now +confessedly--oh quite flagrantly and publicly--interesting. The moment +really took on for Strether an intensity. Chad owed Madame de Vionnet +so much? What DID that do then but clear up the whole mystery? He was +indebted for alterations, and she was thereby in a position to have +sent in her bill for expenses incurred in reconstruction. What was +this at bottom but what had been to be arrived at? Strether sat there +arriving at it while he munched toast and stirred his second cup. To +do this with the aid of Chad's pleasant earnest face was also to do +more besides. No, never before had he been so ready to take him as he +was. What was it that had suddenly so cleared up? It was just +everybody's character; that is everybody's but--in a measure--his own. +Strether felt HIS character receive for the instant a smutch from all +the wrong things he had suspected or believed. The person to whom Chad +owed it that he could positively turn out such a comfort to other +persons--such a person was sufficiently raised above any "breath" by +the nature of her work and the young man's steady light. All of which +was vivid enough to come and go quickly; though indeed in the midst of +it Strether could utter a question. "Have I your word of honour that +if I surrender myself to Madame de Vionnet you'll surrender yourself to +me?" + +Chad laid his hand firmly on his friend's. "My dear man, you have it." + +There was finally something in his felicity almost embarrassing and +oppressive--Strether had begun to fidget under it for the open air and +the erect posture. He had signed to the waiter that he wished to pay, +and this transaction took some moments, during which he thoroughly +felt, while he put down money and pretended--it was quite hollow--to +estimate change, that Chad's higher spirit, his youth, his practice, +his paganism, his felicity, his assurance, his impudence, whatever it +might be, had consciously scored a success. Well, that was all right so +far as it went; his sense of the thing in question covered our friend +for a minute like a veil through which--as if he had been muffled--he +heard his interlocutor ask him if he mightn't take him over about five. +"Over" was over the river, and over the river was where Madame de +Vionnet lived, and five was that very afternoon. They got at last out +of the place--got out before he answered. He lighted, in the street, a +cigarette, which again gave him more time. But it was already sharp +for him that there was no use in time. "What does she propose to do to +me?" he had presently demanded. + +Chad had no delays. "Are you afraid of her?" + +"Oh immensely. Don't you see it?" + +"Well," said Chad, "she won't do anything worse to you than make you +like her." + +"It's just of that I'm afraid." + +"Then it's not fair to me." + +Strether cast about. "It's fair to your mother." + +"Oh," said Chad, "are you afraid of HER?" + +"Scarcely less. Or perhaps even more. But is this lady against your +interests at home?" Strether went on. + +"Not directly, no doubt; but she's greatly in favour of them here." + +"And what--'here'--does she consider them to be?" + +"Well, good relations!" + +"With herself?" + +"With herself." + +"And what is it that makes them so good?" + +"What? Well, that's exactly what you'll make out if you'll only go, as +I'm supplicating you, to see her." + +Strether stared at him with a little of the wanness, no doubt, that the +vision of more to "make out" could scarce help producing. "I mean HOW +good are they?" + +"Oh awfully good." + +Again Strether had faltered, but it was brief. It was all very well, +but there was nothing now he wouldn't risk. "Excuse me, but I must +really--as I began by telling you--know where I am. Is she bad?" + +"'Bad'?"--Chad echoed it, but without a shock. "Is that what's +implied--?" + +"When relations are good?" Strether felt a little silly, and was even +conscious of a foolish laugh, at having it imposed on him to have +appeared to speak so. What indeed was he talking about? His stare had +relaxed; he looked now all round him. But something in him brought him +back, though he still didn't know quite how to turn it. The two or +three ways he thought of, and one of them in particular, were, even +with scruples dismissed, too ugly. He none the less at last found +something. "Is her life without reproach?" + +It struck him, directly he had found it, as pompous and priggish; so +much so that he was thankful to Chad for taking it only in the right +spirit. The young man spoke so immensely to the point that the effect +was practically of positive blandness. "Absolutely without reproach. A +beautiful life. Allez donc voir!" + +These last words were, in the liberality of their confidence, so +imperative that Strether went through no form of assent; but before +they separated it had been confirmed that he should be picked up at a +quarter to five. + + + + + +Book Sixth + + + + +I + + +It was quite by half-past five--after the two men had been together in +Madame de Vionnet's drawing-room not more than a dozen minutes--that +Chad, with a look at his watch and then another at their hostess, said +genially, gaily: "I've an engagement, and I know you won't complain if +I leave him with you. He'll interest you immensely; and as for her," +he declared to Strether, "I assure you, if you're at all nervous, she's +perfectly safe." + +He had left them to be embarrassed or not by this guarantee, as they +could best manage, and embarrassment was a thing that Strether wasn't +at first sure Madame de Vionnet escaped. He escaped it himself, to his +surprise; but he had grown used by this time to thinking of himself as +brazen. She occupied, his hostess, in the Rue de Bellechasse, the +first floor of an old house to which our visitors had had access from +an old clean court. The court was large and open, full of revelations, +for our friend, of the habit of privacy, the peace of intervals, the +dignity of distances and approaches; the house, to his restless sense, +was in the high homely style of an elder day, and the ancient Paris +that he was always looking for--sometimes intensely felt, sometimes +more acutely missed--was in the immemorial polish of the wide waxed +staircase and in the fine boiseries, the medallions, mouldings, +mirrors, great clear spaces, of the greyish-white salon into which he +had been shown. He seemed at the very outset to see her in the midst +of possessions not vulgarly numerous, but hereditary cherished +charming. While his eyes turned after a little from those of his +hostess and Chad freely talked--not in the least about HIM, but about +other people, people he didn't know, and quite as if he did know +them--he found himself making out, as a background of the occupant, +some glory, some prosperity of the First Empire, some Napoleonic +glamour, some dim lustre of the great legend; elements clinging still +to all the consular chairs and mythological brasses and sphinxes' heads +and faded surfaces of satin striped with alternate silk. + +The place itself went further back--that he guessed, and how old Paris +continued in a manner to echo there; but the post-revolutionary period, +the world he vaguely thought of as the world of Chateaubriand, of +Madame de Stael, even of the young Lamartine, had left its stamp of +harps and urns and torches, a stamp impressed on sundry small objects, +ornaments and relics. He had never before, to his knowledge, had +present to him relics, of any special dignity, of a private +order--little old miniatures, medallions, pictures, books; books in +leather bindings, pinkish and greenish, with gilt garlands on the back, +ranged, together with other promiscuous properties, under the glass of +brass-mounted cabinets. His attention took them all tenderly into +account. They were among the matters that marked Madame de Vionnet's +apartment as something quite different from Miss Gostrey's little +museum of bargains and from Chad's lovely home; he recognised it as +founded much more on old accumulations that had possibly from time to +time shrunken than on any contemporary method of acquisition or form of +curiosity. Chad and Miss Gostrey had rummaged and purchased and picked +up and exchanged, sifting, selecting, comparing; whereas the mistress +of the scene before him, beautifully passive under the spell of +transmission--transmission from her father's line, he quite made up his +mind--had only received, accepted and been quiet. When she hadn't been +quiet she had been moved at the most to some occult charity for some +fallen fortune. There had been objects she or her predecessors might +even conceivably have parted with under need, but Strether couldn't +suspect them of having sold old pieces to get "better" ones. They +would have felt no difference as to better or worse. He could but +imagine their having felt--perhaps in emigration, in proscription, for +his sketch was slight and confused--the pressure of want or the +obligation of sacrifice. + +The pressure of want--whatever might be the case with the other +force--was, however, presumably not active now, for the tokens of a +chastened ease still abounded after all, many marks of a taste whose +discriminations might perhaps have been called eccentric. He guessed +at intense little preferences and sharp little exclusions, a deep +suspicion of the vulgar and a personal view of the right. The general +result of this was something for which he had no name on the spot quite +ready, but something he would have come nearest to naming in speaking +of it as the air of supreme respectability, the consciousness, small, +still, reserved, but none the less distinct and diffused, of private +honour. The air of supreme respectability--that was a strange blank +wall for his adventure to have brought him to break his nose against. +It had in fact, as he was now aware, filled all the approaches, hovered +in the court as he passed, hung on the staircase as he mounted, sounded +in the grave rumble of the old bell, as little electric as possible, of +which Chad, at the door, had pulled the ancient but neatly-kept tassel; +it formed in short the clearest medium of its particular kind that he +had ever breathed. He would have answered for it at the end of a +quarter of an hour that some of the glass cases contained swords and +epaulettes of ancient colonels and generals; medals and orders once +pinned over hearts that had long since ceased to beat; snuff-boxes +bestowed on ministers and envoys; copies of works presented, with +inscriptions, by authors now classic. At bottom of it all for him was +the sense of her rare unlikeness to the women he had known. This sense +had grown, since the day before, the more he recalled her, and had been +above all singularly fed by his talk with Chad in the morning. +Everything in fine made her immeasurably new, and nothing so new as the +old house and the old objects. There were books, two or three, on a +small table near his chair, but they hadn't the lemon-coloured covers +with which his eye had begun to dally from the hour of his arrival and +to the opportunity of a further acquaintance with which he had for a +fortnight now altogether succumbed. On another table, across the room, +he made out the great _Revue_; but even that familiar face, conspicuous +in Mrs. Newsome's parlours, scarce counted here as a modern note. He +was sure on the spot--and he afterwards knew he was right--that this +was a touch of Chad's own hand. What would Mrs. Newsome say to the +circumstance that Chad's interested "influence" kept her paper-knife in +the _Revue_? The interested influence at any rate had, as we say, gone +straight to the point--had in fact soon left it quite behind. + +She was seated, near the fire, on a small stuffed and fringed chair one +of the few modern articles in the room, and she leaned back in it with +her hands clasped in her lap and no movement, in all her person, but +the fine prompt play of her deep young face. The fire, under the low +white marble, undraped and academic, had burnt down to the silver ashes +of light wood, one of the windows, at a distance, stood open to the +mildness and stillness, out of which, in the short pauses, came the +faint sound, pleasant and homely, almost rustic, of a plash and a +clatter of sabots from some coach-house on the other side of the court. +Madame de Vionnet, while Strether sat there, wasn't to shift her +posture by an inch. "I don't think you seriously believe in what you're +doing," she said; "but all the same, you know, I'm going to treat you +quite as if I did." + +"By which you mean," Strether directly replied, "quite as if you +didn't! I assure you it won't make the least difference with me how +you treat me." + +"Well," she said, taking that menace bravely and philosophically +enough, "the only thing that really matters is that you shall get on +with me." + +"Ah but I don't!" he immediately returned. + +It gave her another pause; which, however, she happily enough shook +off. "Will you consent to go on with me a little--provisionally--as if +you did?" + +Then it was that he saw how she had decidedly come all the way; and +there accompanied it an extraordinary sense of her raising from +somewhere below him her beautiful suppliant eyes. He might have been +perched at his door-step or at his window and she standing in the road. +For a moment he let her stand and couldn't moreover have spoken. It +had been sad, of a sudden, with a sadness that was like a cold breath +in his face. "What can I do," he finally asked, "but listen to you as +I promised Chadwick?" + +"Ah but what I'm asking you," she quickly said, "isn't what Mr. Newsome +had in mind." She spoke at present, he saw, as if to take courageously +ALL her risk. "This is my own idea and a different thing." + +It gave poor Strether in truth--uneasy as it made him too--something of +the thrill of a bold perception justified. "Well," he answered kindly +enough, "I was sure a moment since that some idea of your own had come +to you." + +She seemed still to look up at him, but now more serenely. "I made out +you were sure--and that helped it to come. So you see," she continued, +"we do get on." + +"Oh but it appears to me I don't at all meet your request. How can I +when I don't understand it?" + +"It isn't at all necessary you should understand; it will do quite well +enough if you simply remember it. Only feel I trust you--and for +nothing so tremendous after all. Just," she said with a wonderful +smile, "for common civility." + +Strether had a long pause while they sat again face to face, as they +had sat, scarce less conscious, before the poor lady had crossed the +stream. She was the poor lady for Strether now because clearly she had +some trouble, and her appeal to him could only mean that her trouble +was deep. He couldn't help it; it wasn't his fault; he had done +nothing; but by a turn of the hand she had somehow made their encounter +a relation. And the relation profited by a mass of things that were +not strictly in it or of it; by the very air in which they sat, by the +high cold delicate room, by the world outside and the little plash in +the court, by the First Empire and the relics in the stiff cabinets, by +matters as far off as those and by others as near as the unbroken clasp +of her hands in her lap and the look her expression had of being most +natural when her eyes were most fixed. "You count upon me of course +for something really much greater than it sounds." + +"Oh it sounds great enough too!" she laughed at this. + +He found himself in time on the point of telling her that she was, as +Miss Barrace called it, wonderful; but, catching himself up, he said +something else instead. "What was it Chad's idea then that you should +say to me?" + +"Ah his idea was simply what a man's idea always is--to put every +effort off on the woman." + +"The 'woman'--?" Strether slowly echoed. + +"The woman he likes--and just in proportion as he likes her. In +proportion too--for shifting the trouble--as she likes HIM." + +Strether followed it; then with an abruptness of his own: "How much do +you like Chad?" + +"Just as much as THAT--to take all, with you, on myself." But she got +at once again away from this. "I've been trembling as if we were to +stand or fall by what you may think of me; and I'm even now," she went +on wonderfully, "drawing a long breath--and, yes, truly taking a great +courage--from the hope that I don't in fact strike you as impossible." + +"That's at all events, clearly," he observed after an instant, "the way +I don't strike YOU." + +"Well," she so far assented, "as you haven't yet said you WON'T have +the little patience with me I ask for--" + +"You draw splendid conclusions? Perfectly. But I don't understand +them," Strether pursued. "You seem to me to ask for much more than you +need. What, at the worst for you, what at the best for myself, can I +after all do? I can use no pressure that I haven't used. You come +really late with your request. I've already done all that for myself +the case admits of. I've said my say, and here I am." + +"Yes, here you are, fortunately!" Madame de Vionnet laughed. "Mrs. +Newsome," she added in another tone, "didn't think you can do so +little." + +He had an hesitation, but he brought the words out. "Well, she thinks +so now." + +"Do you mean by that--?" But she also hung fire. + +"Do I mean what?" + +She still rather faltered. "Pardon me if I touch on it, but if I'm +saying extraordinary things, why, perhaps, mayn't I? Besides, doesn't +it properly concern us to know?" + +"To know what?" he insisted as after thus beating about the bush she +had again dropped. + +She made the effort. "Has she given you up?" + +He was amazed afterwards to think how simply and quietly he had met it. +"Not yet." It was almost as if he were a trifle disappointed--had +expected still more of her freedom. But he went straight on. "Is that +what Chad has told you will happen to me?" + +She was evidently charmed with the way he took it. "If you mean if +we've talked of it--most certainly. And the question's not what has +had least to do with my wishing to see you." + +"To judge if I'm the sort of man a woman CAN--?" + +"Precisely," she exclaimed--"you wonderful gentleman! I do judge--I +HAVE judged. A woman can't. You're safe--with every right to be. +You'd be much happier if you'd only believe it." + +Strether was silent a little; then he found himself speaking with a +cynicism of confidence of which even at the moment the sources were +strange to him. "I try to believe it. But it's a marvel," he +exclaimed, "how YOU already get at it!" + +Oh she was able to say. "Remember how much I was on the way to it +through Mr. Newsome--before I saw you. He thinks everything of your +strength." + +"Well, I can bear almost anything!" our friend briskly interrupted. +Deep and beautiful on this her smile came back, and with the effect of +making him hear what he had said just as she had heard it. He easily +enough felt that it gave him away, but what in truth had everything +done but that? It had been all very well to think at moments that he +was holding her nose down and that he had coerced her: what had he by +this time done but let her practically see that he accepted their +relation? What was their relation moreover--though light and brief +enough in form as yet--but whatever she might choose to make it? +Nothing could prevent her--certainly he couldn't--from making it +pleasant. At the back of his head, behind everything, was the sense +that she was--there, before him, close to him, in vivid imperative +form--one of the rare women he had so often heard of, read of, thought +of, but never met, whose very presence, look, voice, the mere +contemporaneous FACT of whom, from the moment it was at all presented, +made a relation of mere recognition. That was not the kind of woman he +had ever found Mrs. Newsome, a contemporaneous fact who had been +distinctly slow to establish herself; and at present, confronted with +Madame de Vionnet, he felt the simplicity of his original impression of +Miss Gostrey. She certainly had been a fact of rapid growth; but the +world was wide, each day was more and more a new lesson. There were at +any rate even among the stranger ones relations and relations. "Of +course I suit Chad's grand way," he quickly added. "He hasn't had much +difficulty in working me in." + +She seemed to deny a little, on the young man's behalf, by the rise of +her eyebrows, an intention of any process at all inconsiderate. "You +must know how grieved he'd be if you were to lose anything. He +believes you can keep his mother patient." + +Strether wondered with his eyes on her. "I see. THAT'S then what you +really want of me. And how am I to do it? Perhaps you'll tell me +that." + +"Simply tell her the truth." + +"And what do you call the truth?" + +"Well, any truth--about us all--that you see yourself. I leave it to +you." + +"Thank you very much. I like," Strether laughed with a slight +harshness, "the way you leave things!" + +But she insisted kindly, gently, as if it wasn't so bad. "Be perfectly +honest. Tell her all." + +"All?" he oddly echoed. + +"Tell her the simple truth," Madame de Vionnet again pleaded. + +"But what is the simple truth? The simple truth is exactly what I'm +trying to discover." + +She looked about a while, but presently she came back to him. "Tell +her, fully and clearly, about US." + +Strether meanwhile had been staring. "You and your daughter?" + +"Yes--little Jeanne and me. Tell her," she just slightly quavered, +"you like us." + +"And what good will that do me? Or rather"--he caught himself +up--"what good will it do YOU?" + +She looked graver. "None, you believe, really?" + +Strether debated. "She didn't send me out to 'like' you." + +"Oh," she charmingly contended, "she sent you out to face the facts." + +He admitted after an instant that there was something in that. "But +how can I face them till I know what they are? Do you want him," he +then braced himself to ask, "to marry your daughter?" + +She gave a headshake as noble as it was prompt. "No--not that." + +"And he really doesn't want to himself?" + +She repeated the movement, but now with a strange light in her face. +"He likes her too much." + +Strether wondered. "To be willing to consider, you mean, the question +of taking her to America?" + +"To be willing to do anything with her but be immensely kind and +nice--really tender of her. We watch over her, and you must help us. +You must see her again." + +Strether felt awkward. "Ah with pleasure--she's so remarkably +attractive." + +The mother's eagerness with which Madame de Vionnet jumped at this was +to come back to him later as beautiful in its grace. "The dear thing +DID please you?" Then as he met it with the largest "Oh!" of +enthusiasm: "She's perfect. She's my joy." + +"Well, I'm sure that--if one were near her and saw more of her--she'd +be mine." + +"Then," said Madame de Vionnet, "tell Mrs. Newsome that!" + +He wondered the more. "What good will that do you?" As she appeared +unable at once to say, however, he brought out something else. "Is +your daughter in love with our friend?" + +"Ah," she rather startlingly answered, "I wish you'd find out!" + +He showed his surprise. "I? A stranger?" + +"Oh you won't be a stranger--presently. You shall see her quite, I +assure you, as if you weren't." + +It remained for him none the less an extraordinary notion. "It seems +to me surely that if her mother can't--" + +"Ah little girls and their mothers to-day!" she rather inconsequently +broke in. But she checked herself with something she seemed to give +out as after all more to the point. "Tell her I've been good for him. +Don't you think I have?" + +It had its effect on him--more than at the moment he quite measured. +Yet he was consciously enough touched. "Oh if it's all you--!" + +"Well, it may not be 'all,'" she interrupted, "but it's to a great +extent. Really and truly," she added in a tone that was to take its +place with him among things remembered. + +"Then it's very wonderful." He smiled at her from a face that he felt +as strained, and her own face for a moment kept him so. At last she +also got up. "Well, don't you think that for that--" + +"I ought to save you?" So it was that the way to meet her--and the +way, as well, in a manner, to get off--came over him. He heard himself +use the exorbitant word, the very sound of which helped to determine +his flight. "I'll save you if I can." + + + +II + + +In Chad's lovely home, however, one evening ten days later, he felt +himself present at the collapse of the question of Jeanne de Vionnet's +shy secret. He had been dining there in the company of that young lady +and her mother, as well as of other persons, and he had gone into the +petit salon, at Chad's request, on purpose to talk with her. The young +man had put this to him as a favour--"I should like so awfully to know +what you think of her. It will really be a chance for you," he had +said, "to see the jeune fille--I mean the type--as she actually is, and +I don't think that, as an observer of manners, it's a thing you ought +to miss. It will be an impression that--whatever else you take--you +can carry home with you, where you'll find again so much to compare it +with." + +Strether knew well enough with what Chad wished him to compare it, and +though he entirely assented he hadn't yet somehow been so deeply +reminded that he was being, as he constantly though mutely expressed +it, used. He was as far as ever from making out exactly to what end; +but he was none the less constantly accompanied by a sense of the +service he rendered. He conceived only that this service was highly +agreeable to those who profited by it; and he was indeed still waiting +for the moment at which he should catch it in the act of proving +disagreeable, proving in some degree intolerable, to himself. He +failed quite to see how his situation could clear up at all logically +except by some turn of events that would give him the pretext of +disgust. He was building from day to day on the possibility of +disgust, but each day brought forth meanwhile a new and more engaging +bend of the road. That possibility was now ever so much further from +sight than on the eve of his arrival, and he perfectly felt that, +should it come at all, it would have to be at best inconsequent and +violent. He struck himself as a little nearer to it only when he asked +himself what service, in such a life of utility, he was after all +rendering Mrs. Newsome. When he wished to help himself to believe that +he was still all right he reflected--and in fact with wonder--on the +unimpaired frequency of their correspondence; in relation to which what +was after all more natural than that it should become more frequent +just in proportion as their problem became more complicated? + +Certain it is at any rate that he now often brought himself balm by the +question, with the rich consciousness of yesterday's letter, "Well, +what can I do more than that--what can I do more than tell her +everything?" To persuade himself that he did tell her, had told her, +everything, he used to try to think of particular things he hadn't told +her. When at rare moments and in the watches of the night he pounced +on one it generally showed itself to be--to a deeper scrutiny--not +quite truly of the essence. When anything new struck him as coming up, +or anything already noted as reappearing, he always immediately wrote, +as if for fear that if he didn't he would miss something; and also that +he might be able to say to himself from time to time "She knows it +NOW--even while I worry." It was a great comfort to him in general not +to have left past things to be dragged to light and explained; not to +have to produce at so late a stage anything not produced, or anything +even veiled and attenuated, at the moment. She knew it now: that was +what he said to himself to-night in relation to the fresh fact of +Chad's acquaintance with the two ladies--not to speak of the fresher +one of his own. Mrs. Newsome knew in other words that very night at +Woollett that he himself knew Madame de Vionnet and that he had +conscientiously been to see her; also that he had found her remarkably +attractive and that there would probably be a good deal more to tell. +But she further knew, or would know very soon, that, again +conscientiously, he hadn't repeated his visit; and that when Chad had +asked him on the Countess's behalf--Strether made her out vividly, with +a thought at the back of his head, a Countess--if he wouldn't name a +day for dining with her, he had replied lucidly: "Thank you very +much--impossible." He had begged the young man would present his +excuses and had trusted him to understand that it couldn't really +strike one as quite the straight thing. He hadn't reported to Mrs. +Newsome that he had promised to "save" Madame de Vionnet; but, so far +as he was concerned with that reminiscence, he hadn't at any rate +promised to haunt her house. What Chad had understood could only, in +truth, be inferred from Chad's behaviour, which had been in this +connexion as easy as in every other. He was easy, always, when he +understood; he was easier still, if possible, when he didn't; he had +replied that he would make it all right; and he had proceeded to do +this by substituting the present occasion--as he was ready to +substitute others--for any, for every occasion as to which his old +friend should have a funny scruple. + +"Oh but I'm not a little foreign girl; I'm just as English as I can +be," Jeanne de Vionnet had said to him as soon as, in the petit salon, +he sank, shyly enough on his own side, into the place near her vacated +by Madame Gloriani at his approach. Madame Gloriani, who was in black +velvet, with white lace and powdered hair, and whose somewhat massive +majesty melted, at any contact, into the graciousness of some +incomprehensible tongue, moved away to make room for the vague +gentleman, after benevolent greetings to him which embodied, as he +believed, in baffling accents, some recognition of his face from a +couple of Sundays before. Then he had remarked--making the most of the +advantage of his years--that it frightened him quite enough to find +himself dedicated to the entertainment of a little foreign girl. There +were girls he wasn't afraid of--he was quite bold with little +Americans. Thus it was that she had defended herself to the end--"Oh +but I'm almost American too. That's what mamma has wanted me to be--I +mean LIKE that; for she has wanted me to have lots of freedom. She has +known such good results from it." + +She was fairly beautiful to him--a faint pastel in an oval frame: he +thought of her already as of some lurking image in a long gallery, the +portrait of a small old-time princess of whom nothing was known but +that she had died young. Little Jeanne wasn't, doubtless, to die +young, but one couldn't, all the same, bear on her lightly enough. It +was bearing hard, it was bearing as HE, in any case, wouldn't bear, to +concern himself, in relation to her, with the question of a young man. +Odious really the question of a young man; one didn't treat such a +person as a maid-servant suspected of a "follower." And then young +men, young men--well, the thing was their business simply, or was at +all events hers. She was fluttered, fairly fevered--to the point of a +little glitter that came and went in her eyes and a pair of pink spots +that stayed in her cheeks--with the great adventure of dining out and +with the greater one still, possibly, of finding a gentleman whom she +must think of as very, very old, a gentleman with eye-glasses, +wrinkles, a long grizzled moustache. She spoke the prettiest English, +our friend thought, that he had ever heard spoken, just as he had +believed her a few minutes before to be speaking the prettiest French. +He wondered almost wistfully if such a sweep of the lyre didn't react +on the spirit itself; and his fancy had in fact, before he knew it, +begun so to stray and embroider that he finally found himself, absent +and extravagant, sitting with the child in a friendly silence. Only by +this time he felt her flutter to have fortunately dropped and that she +was more at her ease. She trusted him, liked him, and it was to come +back to him afterwards that she had told him things. She had dipped +into the waiting medium at last and found neither surge nor +chill--nothing but the small splash she could herself make in the +pleasant warmth, nothing but the safety of dipping and dipping again. +At the end of the ten minutes he was to spend with her his +impression--with all it had thrown off and all it had taken in--was +complete. She had been free, as she knew freedom, partly to show him +that, unlike other little persons she knew, she had imbibed that ideal. +She was delightfully quaint about herself, but the vision of what she +had imbibed was what most held him. It really consisted, he was soon +enough to feel, in just one great little matter, the fact that, +whatever her nature, she was thoroughly--he had to cast about for the +word, but it came--bred. He couldn't of course on so short an +acquaintance speak for her nature, but the idea of breeding was what +she had meanwhile dropped into his mind. He had never yet known it so +sharply presented. Her mother gave it, no doubt; but her mother, to +make that less sensible, gave so much else besides, and on neither of +the two previous occasions, extraordinary woman, Strether felt, +anything like what she was giving tonight. Little Jeanne was a case, +an exquisite case of education; whereas the Countess, whom it so amused +him to think of by that denomination, was a case, also exquisite, +of--well, he didn't know what. + +"He has wonderful taste, notre jeune homme": this was what Gloriani +said to him on turning away from the inspection of a small picture +suspended near the door of the room. The high celebrity in question +had just come in, apparently in search of Mademoiselle de Vionnet, but +while Strether had got up from beside her their fellow guest, with his +eye sharply caught, had paused for a long look. The thing was a +landscape, of no size, but of the French school, as our friend was glad +to feel he knew, and also of a quality--which he liked to think he +should also have guessed; its frame was large out of proportion to the +canvas, and he had never seen a person look at anything, he thought, +just as Gloriani, with his nose very near and quick movements of the +head from side to side and bottom to top, examined this feature of +Chad's collection. The artist used that word the next moment smiling +courteously, wiping his nippers and looking round him further--paying +the place in short by the very manner of his presence and by something +Strether fancied he could make out in this particular glance, such a +tribute as, to the latter's sense, settled many things once for all. +Strether was conscious at this instant, for that matter, as he hadn't +yet been, of how, round about him, quite without him, they WERE +consistently settled. Gloriani's smile, deeply Italian, he considered, +and finely inscrutable, had had for him, during dinner, at which they +were not neighbours, an indefinite greeting; but the quality in it was +gone that had appeared on the other occasion to turn him inside out; it +was as if even the momentary link supplied by the doubt between them +had snapped. He was conscious now of the final reality, which was that +there wasn't so much a doubt as a difference altogether; all the more +that over the difference the famous sculptor seemed to signal almost +condolingly, yet oh how vacantly! as across some great flat sheet of +water. He threw out the bridge of a charming hollow civility on which +Strether wouldn't have trusted his own full weight a moment. That +idea, even though but transient and perhaps belated, had performed the +office of putting Strether more at his ease, and the blurred picture +had already dropped--dropped with the sound of something else said and +with his becoming aware, by another quick turn, that Gloriani was now +on the sofa talking with Jeanne, while he himself had in his ears again +the familiar friendliness and the elusive meaning of the "Oh, oh, oh!" +that had made him, a fortnight before, challenge Miss Barrace in vain. +She had always the air, this picturesque and original lady, who struck +him, so oddly, as both antique and modern--she had always the air of +taking up some joke that one had already had out with her. The point +itself, no doubt, was what was antique, and the use she made of it what +was modern. He felt just now that her good-natured irony did bear on +something, and it troubled him a little that she wouldn't be more +explicit only assuring him, with the pleasure of observation so visible +in her, that she wouldn't tell him more for the world. He could take +refuge but in asking her what she had done with Waymarsh, though it +must be added that he felt himself a little on the way to a clue after +she had answered that this personage was, in the other room, engaged in +conversation with Madame de Vionnet. He stared a moment at the image +of such a conjunction; then, for Miss Barrace's benefit, he wondered. +"Is she too then under the charm--?" + +"No, not a bit"--Miss Barrace was prompt. "She makes nothing of him. +She's bored. She won't help you with him." + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "she can't do everything. + +"Of course not--wonderful as she is. Besides, he makes nothing of HER. +She won't take him from me--though she wouldn't, no doubt, having other +affairs in hand, even if she could. I've never," said Miss Barrace, +"seen her fail with any one before. And to-night, when she's so +magnificent, it would seem to her strange--if she minded. So at any +rate I have him all. Je suis tranquille!" + +Strether understood, so far as that went; but he was feeling for his +clue. "She strikes you to-night as particularly magnificent?" + +"Surely. Almost as I've never seen her. Doesn't she you? Why it's FOR +you." + +He persisted in his candour. "'For' me--?" + +"Oh, oh, oh!" cried Miss Barrace, who persisted in the opposite of that +quality. + +"Well," he acutely admitted, "she IS different. She's gay." + +"She's gay!" Miss Barrace laughed. "And she has beautiful +shoulders--though there's nothing different in that." + +"No," said Strether, "one was sure of her shoulders. It isn't her +shoulders." + +His companion, with renewed mirth and the finest sense, between the +puffs of her cigarette, of the drollery of things, appeared to find +their conversation highly delightful. "Yes, it isn't her shoulders ." + +"What then is it?" Strether earnestly enquired. + +"Why, it's SHE--simply. It's her mood. It's her charm." + +"Of course it's her charm, but we're speaking of the difference." +"Well," Miss Barrace explained, "she's just brilliant, as we used to +say. That's all. She's various. She's fifty women." + +"Ah but only one"--Strether kept it clear--"at a time." + +"Perhaps. But in fifty times--!" + +"Oh we shan't come to that," our friend declared; and the next moment +he had moved in another direction. "Will you answer me a plain +question? Will she ever divorce?" + +Miss Barrace looked at him through all her tortoise-shell. "Why should +she?" + +It wasn't what he had asked for, he signified; but he met it well +enough. "To marry Chad." + +"Why should she marry Chad?" + +"Because I'm convinced she's very fond of him. She has done wonders +for him." + +"Well then, how could she do more? Marrying a man, or woman either," +Miss Barrace sagely went on, "is never the wonder for any Jack and Jill +can bring THAT off. The wonder is their doing such things without +marrying." + +Strether considered a moment this proposition. "You mean it's so +beautiful for our friends simply to go on so?" + +But whatever he said made her laugh. "Beautiful." + +He nevertheless insisted. "And THAT because it's disinterested?" + +She was now, however, suddenly tired of the question. "Yes then--call +it that. Besides, she'll never divorce. Don't, moreover," she added, +"believe everything you hear about her husband." + +"He's not then," Strether asked, "a wretch?" + +"Oh yes. But charming." + +"Do you know him?" + +"I've met him. He's bien aimable." + +"To every one but his wife?" + +"Oh for all I know, to her too--to any, to every woman. I hope you at +any rate," she pursued with a quick change, "appreciate the care I take +of Mr. Waymarsh." + +"Oh immensely." But Strether was not yet in line. "At all events," he +roundly brought out, "the attachment's an innocent one." + +"Mine and his? Ah," she laughed, "don't rob it of ALL interest!" + +"I mean our friend's here--to the lady we've been speaking of." That +was what he had settled to as an indirect but none the less closely +involved consequence of his impression of Jeanne. That was where he +meant to stay. "It's innocent," he repeated--"I see the whole thing." + +Mystified by his abrupt declaration, she had glanced over at Gloriani +as at the unnamed subject of his allusion, but the next moment she had +understood; though indeed not before Strether had noticed her momentary +mistake and wondered what might possibly be behind that too. He +already knew that the sculptor admired Madame de Vionnet; but did this +admiration also represent an attachment of which the innocence was +discussable? He was moving verily in a strange air and on ground not +of the firmest. He looked hard for an instant at Miss Barrace, but she +had already gone on. "All right with Mr. Newsome? Why of course she +is!"--and she got gaily back to the question of her own good friend. "I +dare say you're surprised that I'm not worn out with all I see--it +being so much!--of Sitting Bull. But I'm not, you know--I don't mind +him; I bear up, and we get on beautifully. I'm very strange; I'm like +that; and often I can't explain. There are people who are supposed +interesting or remarkable or whatever, and who bore me to death; and +then there are others as to whom nobody can understand what anybody +sees in them--in whom I see no end of things." Then after she had +smoked a moment, "He's touching, you know," she said. + +"'Know'?" Strether echoed--"don't I, indeed? We must move you almost +to tears." + +"Oh but I don't mean YOU!" she laughed. + +"You ought to then, for the worst sign of all--as I must have it for +you--is that you can't help me. That's when a woman pities." + +"Ah but I do help you!" she cheerfully insisted. + +Again he looked at her hard, and then after a pause: "No you don't!" + +Her tortoise-shell, on its long chain, rattled down. "I help you with +Sitting Bull. That's a good deal." + +"Oh that, yes." But Strether hesitated. "Do you mean he talks of me?" + +"So that I have to defend you? No, never.' + +"I see," Strether mused. "It's too deep." + +"That's his only fault," she returned--"that everything, with him, is +too deep. He has depths of silence--which he breaks only at the +longest intervals by a remark. And when the remark comes it's always +something he has seen or felt for himself--never a bit banal THAT would +be what one might have feared and what would kill me But never." She +smoked again as she thus, with amused complacency, appreciated her +acquisition. "And never about you. We keep clear of you. We're +wonderful. But I'll tell you what he does do," she continued: "he +tries to make me presents." + +"Presents?" poor Strether echoed, conscious with a pang that HE hadn't +yet tried that in any quarter. + +"Why you see," she explained, "he's as fine as ever in the victoria; so +that when I leave him, as I often do almost for hours--he likes it +so--at the doors of shops, the sight of him there helps me, when I come +out, to know my carriage away off in the rank. But sometimes, for a +change, he goes with me into the shops, and then I've all I can do to +prevent his buying me things." + +"He wants to 'treat' you?" Strether almost gasped at all he himself +hadn't thought of. He had a sense of admiration. "Oh he's much more +in the real tradition than I. Yes," he mused, "it's the sacred rage." + +"The sacred rage, exactly!"--and Miss Barrace, who hadn't before heard +this term applied, recognised its bearing with a clap of her gemmed +hands. "Now I do know why he's not banal. But I do prevent him all +the same--and if you saw what he sometimes selects--from buying. I +save him hundreds and hundreds. I only take flowers." + +"Flowers?" Strether echoed again with a rueful reflexion. How many +nosegays had her present converser sent? + +"Innocent flowers," she pursued, "as much as he likes. And he sends me +splendours; he knows all the best places--he has found them for +himself; he's wonderful." + +"He hasn't told them to me," her friend smiled, "he has a life of his +own." But Strether had swung back to the consciousness that for +himself after all it never would have done. Waymarsh hadn't Mrs. +Waymarsh in the least to consider, whereas Lambert Strether had +constantly, in the inmost honour of his thoughts, to consider Mrs. +Newsome. He liked moreover to feel how much his friend was in the real +tradition. Yet he had his conclusion. "WHAT a rage it is!" He had +worked it out. "It's an opposition." + +She followed, but at a distance. "That's what I feel. Yet to what?" + +"Well, he thinks, you know, that I'VE a life of my own. And I haven't!" + +"You haven't?" She showed doubt, and her laugh confirmed it. "Oh, oh, +oh!" + +"No--not for myself. I seem to have a life only for other people." + +"Ah for them and WITH them! Just now for instance with--" + +"Well, with whom?" he asked before she had had time to say. + +His tone had the effect of making her hesitate and even, as he guessed, +speak with a difference. "Say with Miss Gostrey. What do you do for +HER?" It really made him wonder. "Nothing at all!" + + + +III + + +Madame de Vionnet, having meanwhile come in, was at present close to +them, and Miss Barrace hereupon, instead of risking a rejoinder, became +again with a look that measured her from top to toe all mere +long-handled appreciative tortoise-shell. She had struck our friend, +from the first of her appearing, as dressed for a great occasion, and +she met still more than on either of the others the conception +reawakened in him at their garden-party, the idea of the femme du monde +in her habit as she lived. Her bare shoulders and arms were white and +beautiful; the materials of her dress, a mixture, as he supposed, of +silk and crape, were of a silvery grey so artfully composed as to give +an impression of warm splendour; and round her neck she wore a collar +of large old emeralds, the green note of which was more dimly repeated, +at other points of her apparel, in embroidery, in enamel, in satin, in +substances and textures vaguely rich. Her head, extremely fair and +exquisitely festal, was like a happy fancy, a notion of the antique, on +an old precious medal, some silver coin of the Renaissance; while her +slim lightness and brightness, her gaiety, her expression, her +decision, contributed to an effect that might have been felt by a poet +as half mythological and half conventional. He could have compared her +to a goddess still partly engaged in a morning cloud, or to a sea-nymph +waist-high in the summer surge. Above all she suggested to him the +reflexion that the femme du monde--in these finest developments of the +type--was, like Cleopatra in the play, indeed various and multifold. +She had aspects, characters, days, nights--or had them at least, showed +them by a mysterious law of her own, when in addition to everything she +happened also to be a woman of genius. She was an obscure person, a +muffled person one day, and a showy person, an uncovered person the +next. He thought of Madame de Vionnet to-night as showy and uncovered, +though he felt the formula rough, because, thanks to one of the +short-cuts of genius she had taken all his categories by surprise. +Twice during dinner he had met Chad's eyes in a longish look; but these +communications had in truth only stirred up again old ambiguities--so +little was it clear from them whether they were an appeal or an +admonition. "You see how I'm fixed," was what they appeared to convey; +yet how he was fixed was exactly what Strether didn't see. However, +perhaps he should see now. + +"Are you capable of the very great kindness of going to relieve +Newsome, for a few minutes, of the rather crushing responsibility of +Madame Gloriani, while I say a word, if he'll allow me, to Mr. +Strether, of whom I've a question to ask? Our host ought to talk a bit +to those other ladies, and I'll come back in a minute to your rescue." +She made this proposal to Miss Barrace as if her consciousness of a +special duty had just flickered-up, but that lady's recognition of +Strether's little start at it--as at a betrayal on the speaker's part +of a domesticated state--was as mute as his own comment; and after an +instant, when their fellow guest had good-naturedly left them, he had +been given something else to think of. "Why has Maria so suddenly +gone? Do you know?" That was the question Madame de Vionnet had +brought with her. + +"I'm afraid I've no reason to give you but the simple reason I've had +from her in a note--the sudden obligation to join in the south a sick +friend who has got worse." + +"Ah then she has been writing you?" + +"Not since she went--I had only a brief explanatory word before she +started. I went to see her," Strether explained--"it was the day after +I called on you--but she was already on her way, and her concierge told +me that in case of my coming I was to be informed she had written to +me. I found her note when I got home." + +Madame de Vionnet listened with interest and with her eyes on +Strether's face; then her delicately decorated head had a small +melancholy motion. "She didn't write to ME. I went to see her," she +added, "almost immediately after I had seen you, and as I assured her I +would do when I met her at Gloriani's. She hadn't then told me she was +to be absent, and I felt at her door as if I understood. She's +absent--with all respect to her sick friend, though I know indeed she +has plenty--so that I may not see her. She doesn't want to meet me +again. Well," she continued with a beautiful conscious mildness, "I +liked and admired her beyond every one in the old time, and she knew +it--perhaps that's precisely what has made her go--and I dare say I +haven't lost her for ever." Strether still said nothing; he had a +horror, as he now thought of himself, of being in question between +women--was in fact already quite enough on his way to that, and there +was moreover, as it came to him, perceptibly, something behind these +allusions and professions that, should he take it in, would square but +ill with his present resolve to simplify. It was as if, for him, all +the same, her softness and sadness were sincere. He felt that not less +when she soon went on: "I'm extremely glad of her happiness." But it +also left him mute--sharp and fine though the imputation it conveyed. +What it conveyed was that HE was Maria Gostrey's happiness, and for the +least little instant he had the impulse to challenge the thought. He +could have done so however only by saying "What then do you suppose to +be between us?" and he was wonderfully glad a moment later not to have +spoken. He would rather seem stupid any day than fatuous, and he drew +back as well, with a smothered inward shudder, from the consideration +of what women--of highly-developed type in particular--might think of +each other. Whatever he had come out for he hadn't come to go into +that; so that he absolutely took up nothing his interlocutress had now +let drop. Yet, though he had kept away from her for days, had laid +wholly on herself the burden of their meeting again, she hadn't a gleam +of irritation to show him. "Well, about Jeanne now?" she smiled--it +had the gaiety with which she had originally come in. He felt it on the +instant to represent her motive and real errand. But he had been +schooling her of a truth to say much in proportion to his little. "Do +you make out that she has a sentiment? I mean for Mr. Newsome." + +Almost resentful, Strether could at last be prompt. "How can I make +out such things?" + +She remained perfectly good-natured. "Ah but they're beautiful little +things, and you make out--don't pretend--everything in the world. +Haven't you," she asked, "been talking with her?" + +"Yes, but not about Chad. At least not much." + +"Oh you don't require 'much'!" she reassuringly declared. But she +immediately changed her ground. "I hope you remember your promise of +the other day." + +"To 'save' you, as you called it?" + +"I call it so still. You WILL?" she insisted. "You haven't repented?" + +He wondered. "No--but I've been thinking what I meant." + +She kept it up. "And not, a little, what I did?" + +"No--that's not necessary. It will be enough if I know what I meant +myself." + +"And don't you know," she asked, "by this time?" + +Again he had a pause. "I think you ought to leave it to me. But how +long," he added, "do you give me?" + +"It seems to me much more a question of how long you give ME. Doesn't +our friend here himself, at any rate," she went on, "perpetually make +me present to you?" + +"Not," Strether replied, "by ever speaking of you to me." + +"He never does that?" + +"Never." + +She considered, and, if the fact was disconcerting to her, effectually +concealed it. The next minute indeed she had recovered. "No, he +wouldn't. But do you NEED that?" + +Her emphasis was wonderful, and though his eyes had been wandering he +looked at her longer now. "I see what you mean." + +"Of course you see what I mean." + +Her triumph was gentle, and she really had tones to make justice weep. +"I've before me what he owes you." + +"Admit then that that's something," she said, yet still with the same +discretion in her pride. + +He took in this note but went straight on. "You've made of him what I +see, but what I don't see is how in the world you've done it." + +"Ah that's another question!" she smiled. "The point is of what use is +your declining to know me when to know Mr. Newsome--as you do me the +honour to find him--IS just to know me." + +"I see," he mused, still with his eyes on her. "I shouldn't have met +you to-night." + +She raised and dropped her linked hands. "It doesn't matter. If I +trust you why can't you a little trust me too? And why can't you +also," she asked in another tone, "trust yourself?" But she gave him +no time to reply. "Oh I shall be so easy for you! And I'm glad at any +rate you've seen my child." + +"I'm glad too," he said; "but she does you no good." + +"No good?"--Madame de Vionnet had a clear stare. "Why she's an angel +of light." + +"That's precisely the reason. Leave her alone. Don't try to find out. +I mean," he explained, "about what you spoke to me of--the way she +feels." + +His companion wondered. "Because one really won't?" + +"Well, because I ask you, as a favour to myself, not to. She's the +most charming creature I've ever seen. Therefore don't touch her. +Don't know--don't want to know. And moreover--yes--you won't." + +It was an appeal, of a sudden, and she took it in. "As a favour to +you?" + +"Well--since you ask me." + +"Anything, everything you ask," she smiled. "I shan't know +then--never. Thank you," she added with peculiar gentleness as she +turned away. + +The sound of it lingered with him, making him fairly feel as if he had +been tripped up and had a fall. In the very act of arranging with her +for his independence he had, under pressure from a particular +perception, inconsistently, quite stupidly, committed himself, and, +with her subtlety sensitive on the spot to an advantage, she had driven +in by a single word a little golden nail, the sharp intention of which +he signally felt. He hadn't detached, he had more closely connected +himself, and his eyes, as he considered with some intensity this +circumstance, met another pair which had just come within their range +and which struck him as reflecting his sense of what he had done. He +recognised them at the same moment as those of little Bilham, who had +apparently drawn near on purpose to speak to him, and little Bilham +wasn't, in the conditions, the person to whom his heart would be most +closed. They were seated together a minute later at the angle of the +room obliquely opposite the corner in which Gloriani was still engaged +with Jeanne de Vionnet, to whom at first and in silence their attention +had been benevolently given. "I can't see for my life," Strether had +then observed, "how a young fellow of any spirit--such a one as you for +instance--can be admitted to the sight of that young lady without being +hard hit. Why don't you go in, little Bilham?" He remembered the tone +into which he had been betrayed on the garden-bench at the sculptor's +reception, and this might make up for that by being much more the right +sort of thing to say to a young man worthy of any advice at all. "There +WOULD be some reason." + +"Some reason for what?" + +"Why for hanging on here." + +"To offer my hand and fortune to Mademoiselle de Vionnet?" + +"Well," Strether asked, "to what lovelier apparition COULD you offer +them? She's the sweetest little thing I've ever seen." + +"She's certainly immense. I mean she's the real thing. I believe the +pale pink petals are folded up there for some wondrous efflorescence in +time; to open, that is, to some great golden sun. I'M unfortunately but +a small farthing candle. What chance in such a field for a poor little +painter-man?" + +"Oh you're good enough," Strether threw out. + +"Certainly I'm good enough. We're good enough, I consider, nous +autres, for anything. But she's TOO good. There's the difference. +They wouldn't look at me." + +Strether, lounging on his divan and still charmed by the young girl, +whose eyes had consciously strayed to him, he fancied, with a vague +smile--Strether, enjoying the whole occasion as with dormant pulses at +last awake and in spite of new material thrust upon him, thought over +his companion's words. "Whom do you mean by 'they'? She and her +mother?" + +"She and her mother. And she has a father too, who, whatever else he +may be, certainly can't be indifferent to the possibilities she +represents. Besides, there's Chad." + +Strether was silent a little. "Ah but he doesn't care for her--not, I +mean, it appears, after all, in the sense I'm speaking of. He's NOT in +love with her." + +"No--but he's her best friend; after her mother. He's very fond of +her. He has his ideas about what can be done for her." + +"Well, it's very strange!" Strether presently remarked with a sighing +sense of fulness. + +"Very strange indeed. That's just the beauty of it. Isn't it very +much the kind of beauty you had in mind," little Bilham went on, "when +you were so wonderful and so inspiring to me the other day? Didn't you +adjure me, in accents I shall never forget, to see, while I've a +chance, everything I can?--and REALLY to see, for it must have been +that only you meant. Well, you did me no end of good, and I'm doing my +best. I DO make it out a situation." + +"So do I!" Strether went on after a moment. But he had the next minute +an inconsequent question. "How comes Chad so mixed up, anyway?" + +"Ah, ah, ah!"--and little Bilham fell back on his cushions. + +It reminded our friend of Miss Barrace, and he felt again the brush of +his sense of moving in a maze of mystic closed allusions. Yet he kept +hold of his thread. "Of course I understand really; only the general +transformation makes me occasionally gasp. Chad with such a voice in +the settlement of the future of a little countess--no," he declared, +"it takes more time! You say moreover," he resumed, "that we're +inevitably, people like you and me, out of the running. The curious +fact remains that Chad himself isn't. The situation doesn't make for +it, but in a different one he could have her if he would." + +"Yes, but that's only because he's rich and because there's a +possibility of his being richer. They won't think of anything but a +great name or a great fortune." + +"Well," said Strether, "he'll have no great fortune on THESE lines. He +must stir his stumps." + +"Is that," little Bilham enquired, "what you were saying to Madame de +Vionnet?" + +"No--I don't say much to her. Of course, however," Strether continued, +"he can make sacrifices if he likes." + +Little Bilham had a pause. "Oh he's not keen for sacrifices; or +thinks, that is, possibly, that he has made enough." + +"Well, it IS virtuous," his companion observed with some decision. + +"That's exactly," the young man dropped after a moment, "what I mean." + +It kept Strether himself silent a little. "I've made it out for +myself," he then went on; "I've really, within the last half-hour, got +hold of it. I understand it in short at last; which at first--when you +originally spoke to me--I didn't. Nor when Chad originally spoke to me +either." + +"Oh," said little Bilham, "I don't think that at that time you believed +me." + +"Yes--I did; and I believed Chad too. It would have been odious and +unmannerly--as well as quite perverse--if I hadn't. What interest have +you in deceiving me?" + +The young man cast about. "What interest have I?" + +"Yes. Chad MIGHT have. But you?" + +"Ah, ah, ah!" little Bilham exclaimed. + +It might, on repetition, as a mystification, have irritated our friend +a little, but he knew, once more, as we have seen, where he was, and +his being proof against everything was only another attestation that he +meant to stay there. "I couldn't, without my own impression, realise. +She's a tremendously clever brilliant capable woman, and with an +extraordinary charm on top of it all--the charm we surely all of us +this evening know what to think of. It isn't every clever brilliant +capable woman that has it. In fact it's rare with any woman. So there +you are," Strether proceeded as if not for little Bilham's benefit +alone. "I understand what a relation with such a woman--what such a +high fine friendship--may be. It can't be vulgar or coarse, +anyway--and that's the point." + +"Yes, that's the point," said little Bilham. "It can't be vulgar or +coarse. And, bless us and save us, it ISn't! It's, upon my word, the +very finest thing I ever saw in my life, and the most distinguished." + +Strether, from beside him and leaning back with him as he leaned, +dropped on him a momentary look which filled a short interval and of +which he took no notice. He only gazed before him with intent +participation. "Of course what it has done for him," Strether at all +events presently pursued, "of course what it has done for him--that is +as to HOW it has so wonderfully worked--isn't a thing I pretend to +understand. I've to take it as I find it. There he is." + +"There he is!" little Bilham echoed. "And it's really and truly she. I +don't understand either, even with my longer and closer opportunity. +But I'm like you," he added; "I can admire and rejoice even when I'm a +little in the dark. You see I've watched it for some three years, and +especially for this last. He wasn't so bad before it as I seem to have +made out that you think--" + +"Oh I don't think anything now!" Strether impatiently broke in: "that +is but what I DO think! I mean that originally, for her to have cared +for him--" + +"There must have been stuff in him? Oh yes, there was stuff indeed, +and much more of it than ever showed, I dare say, at home. Still, you +know," the young man in all fairness developed, "there was room for +her, and that's where she came in. She saw her chance and took it. +That's what strikes me as having been so fine. But of course," he +wound up, "he liked her first." + +"Naturally," said Strether. + +"I mean that they first met somehow and somewhere--I believe in some +American house--and she, without in the least then intending it, made +her impression. Then with time and opportunity he made his; and after +THAT she was as bad as he." + +Strether vaguely took it up. "As 'bad'?" + +"She began, that is, to care--to care very much. Alone, and in her +horrid position, she found it, when once she had started, an interest. +It was, it is, an interest, and it did--it continues to do--a lot for +herself as well. So she still cares. She cares in fact," said little +Bilham thoughtfully "more." + +Strether's theory that it was none of his business was somehow not +damaged by the way he took this. "More, you mean, than he?" On which +his companion looked round at him, and now for an instant their eyes +met. "More than he?" he repeated. + +Little Bilham, for as long, hung fire. "Will you never tell any one?" + +Strether thought. "Whom should I tell?" + +"Why I supposed you reported regularly--" + +"To people at home?"--Strether took him up. "Well, I won't tell them +this." + +The young man at last looked away. "Then she does now care more than +he." + +"Oh!" Strether oddly exclaimed. + +But his companion immediately met it. "Haven't you after all had your +impression of it? That's how you've got hold of him." + +"Ah but I haven't got hold of him!" + +"Oh I say!" But it was all little Bilham said. + +"It's at any rate none of my business. I mean," Strether explained, +"nothing else than getting hold of him is." It appeared, however, to +strike him as his business to add: "The fact remains nevertheless that +she has saved him." + +Little Bilham just waited. "I thought that was what you were to do." + +But Strether had his answer ready. "I'm speaking--in connexion with +her--of his manners and morals, his character and life. I'm speaking +of him as a person to deal with and talk with and live with--speaking +of him as a social animal." + +"And isn't it as a social animal that you also want him?" + +"Certainly; so that it's as if she had saved him FOR us." + +"It strikes you accordingly then," the young man threw out, "as for you +all to save HER?" + +"Oh for us 'all'--!" Strether could but laugh at that. It brought him +back, however, to the point he had really wished to make. "They've +accepted their situation--hard as it is. They're not free--at least +she's not; but they take what's left to them. It's a friendship, of a +beautiful sort; and that's what makes them so strong. They're +straight, they feel; and they keep each other up. It's doubtless she, +however, who, as you yourself have hinted, feels it most." + +Little Bilham appeared to wonder what he had hinted. "Feels most that +they're straight?" + +"Well, feels that SHE is, and the strength that comes from it. She +keeps HIM up--she keeps the whole thing up. When people are able to +it's fine. She's wonderful, wonderful, as Miss Barrace says; and he +is, in his way, too; however, as a mere man, he may sometimes rebel and +not feel that he finds his account in it. She has simply given him an +immense moral lift, and what that can explain is prodigious. That's why +I speak of it as a situation. It IS one, if there ever was." And +Strether, with his head back and his eyes on the ceiling, seemed to +lose himself in the vision of it. + +His companion attended deeply. "You state it much better than I +could." "Oh you see it doesn't concern you." + +Little Bilham considered. "I thought you said just now that it doesn't +concern you either." + +"Well, it doesn't a bit as Madame de Vionnet's affair. But as we were +again saying just now, what did I come out for but to save him?" + +"Yes--to remove him." + +"To save him by removal; to win him over to HIMSELF thinking it best he +shall take up business--thinking he must immediately do therefore +what's necessary to that end." + +"Well," said little Bilham after a moment, "you HAVE won him over. He +does think it best. He has within a day or two again said to me as +much." + +"And that," Strether asked, "is why you consider that he cares less +than she?" + +"Cares less for her than she for him? Yes, that's one of the reasons. +But other things too have given me the impression. A man, don't you +think?" little Bilham presently pursued, "CAN'T, in such conditions, +care so much as a woman. It takes different conditions to make him, +and then perhaps he cares more. Chad," he wound up, "has his possible +future before him." + +"Are you speaking of his business future?" + +"No--on the contrary; of the other, the future of what you so justly +call their situation. M. de Vionnet may live for ever." + +"So that they can't marry?" + +The young man waited a moment. "Not being able to marry is all they've +with any confidence to look forward to. A woman--a particular +woman--may stand that strain. But can a man?" he propounded. + +Strether's answer was as prompt as if he had already, for himself, +worked it out. "Not without a very high ideal of conduct. But that's +just what we're attributing to Chad. And how, for that matter," he +mused, "does his going to America diminish the particular strain? +Wouldn't it seem rather to add to it?" + +"Out of sight out of mind!" his companion laughed. Then more bravely: +"Wouldn't distance lessen the torment?" But before Strether could +reply, "The thing is, you see, Chad ought to marry!" he wound up. + +Strether, for a little, appeared to think of it. "If you talk of +torments you don't diminish mine!" he then broke out. The next moment +he was on his feet with a question. "He ought to marry whom?" + +Little Bilham rose more slowly. "Well, some one he CAN--some +thoroughly nice girl." + +Strether's eyes, as they stood together, turned again to Jeanne. "Do +you mean HER?" + +His friend made a sudden strange face. "After being in love with her +mother? No." + +"But isn't it exactly your idea that he ISn't in love with her mother?" + +His friend once more had a pause. "Well, he isn't at any rate in love +with Jeanne." + +"I dare say not." + +"How CAN he be with any other woman?" + +"Oh that I admit. But being in love isn't, you know, here"--little +Bilham spoke in friendly reminder--"thought necessary, in strictness, +for marriage." + +"And what torment--to call a torment--can there ever possibly be with a +woman like that?" As if from the interest of his own question Strether +had gone on without hearing. "Is it for her to have turned a man out +so wonderfully, too, only for somebody else?" He appeared to make a +point of this, and little Bilham looked at him now. "When it's for +each other that people give things up they don't miss them." Then he +threw off as with an extravagance of which he was conscious: "Let them +face the future together!" + +Little Bilham looked at him indeed. "You mean that after all he +shouldn't go back?" + +"I mean that if he gives her up--!" + +"Yes?" + +"Well, he ought to be ashamed of himself." But Strether spoke with a +sound that might have passed for a laugh. + + + + + +Volume II + +Book Seventh + + + + +I + + +It wasn't the first time Strether had sat alone in the great dim +church--still less was it the first of his giving himself up, so far as +conditions permitted, to its beneficent action on his nerves. He had +been to Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had been there with Miss Gostrey, +he had been there with Chad Newsome, and had found the place, even in +company, such a refuge from the obsession of his problem that, with +renewed pressure from that source, he had not unnaturally recurred to a +remedy meeting the case, for the moment, so indirectly, no doubt, but +so relievingly. He was conscious enough that it was only for the +moment, but good moments--if he could call them good--still had their +value for a man who by this time struck himself as living almost +disgracefully from hand to mouth. Having so well learnt the way, he +had lately made the pilgrimage more than once by himself--had quite +stolen off, taking an unnoticed chance and making no point of speaking +of the adventure when restored to his friends. + +His great friend, for that matter, was still absent, as well as +remarkably silent; even at the end of three weeks Miss Gostrey hadn't +come back. She wrote to him from Mentone, admitting that he must judge +her grossly inconsequent--perhaps in fact for the time odiously +faithless; but asking for patience, for a deferred sentence, throwing +herself in short on his generosity. For her too, she could assure him, +life was complicated--more complicated than he could have guessed; she +had moreover made certain of him--certain of not wholly missing him on +her return--before her disappearance. If furthermore she didn't burden +him with letters it was frankly because of her sense of the other great +commerce he had to carry on. He himself, at the end of a fortnight, +had written twice, to show how his generosity could be trusted; but he +reminded himself in each case of Mrs. Newsome's epistolary manner at +the times when Mrs. Newsome kept off delicate ground. He sank his +problem, he talked of Waymarsh and Miss Barrace, of little Bilham and +the set over the river, with whom he had again had tea, and he was +easy, for convenience, about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and Jeanne. He +admitted that he continued to see them, he was decidedly so confirmed a +haunter of Chad's premises and that young man's practical intimacy with +them was so undeniably great; but he had his reason for not attempting +to render for Miss Gostrey's benefit the impression of these last days. +That would be to tell her too much about himself--it being at present +just from himself he was trying to escape. + +This small struggle sprang not a little, in its way, from the same +impulse that had now carried him across to Notre Dame; the impulse to +let things be, to give them time to justify themselves or at least to +pass. He was aware of having no errand in such a place but the desire +not to be, for the hour, in certain other places; a sense of safety, of +simplification, which each time he yielded to it he amused himself by +thinking of as a private concession to cowardice. The great church had +no altar for his worship, no direct voice for his soul; but it was none +the less soothing even to sanctity; for he could feel while there what +he couldn't elsewhere, that he was a plain tired man taking the holiday +he had earned. He was tired, but he wasn't plain--that was the pity +and the trouble of it; he was able, however, to drop his problem at the +door very much as if it had been the copper piece that he deposited, on +the threshold, in the receptacle of the inveterate blind beggar. He +trod the long dim nave, sat in the splendid choir, paused before the +cluttered chapels of the east end, and the mighty monument laid upon +him its spell. He might have been a student under the charm of a +museum--which was exactly what, in a foreign town, in the afternoon of +life, he would have liked to be free to be. This form of sacrifice did +at any rate for the occasion as well as another; it made him quite +sufficiently understand how, within the precinct, for the real refugee, +the things of the world could fall into abeyance. That was the +cowardice, probably--to dodge them, to beg the question, not to deal +with it in the hard outer light; but his own oblivions were too brief, +too vain, to hurt any one but himself, and he had a vague and fanciful +kindness for certain persons whom he met, figures of mystery and +anxiety, and whom, with observation for his pastime, he ranked as those +who were fleeing from justice. Justice was outside, in the hard light, +and injustice too; but one was as absent as the other from the air of +the long aisles and the brightness of the many altars. + +Thus it was at all events that, one morning some dozen days after the +dinner in the Boulevard Malesherbes at which Madame de Vionnet had been +present with her daughter, he was called upon to play his part in an +encounter that deeply stirred his imagination. He had the habit, in +these contemplations, of watching a fellow visitant, here and there, +from a respectable distance, remarking some note of behaviour, of +penitence, of prostration, of the absolved, relieved state; this was +the manner in which his vague tenderness took its course, the degree of +demonstration to which it naturally had to confine itself. It hadn't +indeed so felt its responsibility as when on this occasion he suddenly +measured the suggestive effect of a lady whose supreme stillness, in +the shade of one of the chapels, he had two or three times noticed as +he made, and made once more, his slow circuit. She wasn't +prostrate--not in any degree bowed, but she was strangely fixed, and +her prolonged immobility showed her, while he passed and paused, as +wholly given up to the need, whatever it was, that had brought her +there. She only sat and gazed before her, as he himself often sat; but +she had placed herself, as he never did, within the focus of the +shrine, and she had lost herself, he could easily see, as he would only +have liked to do. She was not a wandering alien, keeping back more than +she gave, but one of the familiar, the intimate, the fortunate, for +whom these dealings had a method and a meaning. She reminded our +friend--since it was the way of nine tenths of his current impressions +to act as recalls of things imagined--of some fine firm concentrated +heroine of an old story, something he had heard, read, something that, +had he had a hand for drama, he might himself have written, renewing +her courage, renewing her clearness, in splendidly-protected +meditation. Her back, as she sat, was turned to him, but his +impression absolutely required that she should be young and +interesting, and she carried her head moreover, even in the sacred +shade, with a discernible faith in herself, a kind of implied +conviction of consistency, security, impunity. But what had such a +woman come for if she hadn't come to pray? Strether's reading of such +matters was, it must be owned, confused; but he wondered if her +attitude were some congruous fruit of absolution, of "indulgence." He +knew but dimly what indulgence, in such a place, might mean; yet he +had, as with a soft sweep, a vision of how it might indeed add to the +zest of active rites. All this was a good deal to have been denoted by +a mere lurking figure who was nothing to him; but, the last thing +before leaving the church, he had the surprise of a still deeper +quickening. + +He had dropped upon a seat halfway down the nave and, again in the +museum mood, was trying with head thrown back and eyes aloft, to +reconstitute a past, to reduce it in fact to the convenient terms of +Victor Hugo, whom, a few days before, giving the rein for once in a way +to the joy of life, he had purchased in seventy bound volumes, a +miracle of cheapness, parted with, he was assured by the shopman, at +the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, doubtless, while he +played his eternal nippers over Gothic glooms, sufficiently rapt in +reverence; but what his thought had finally bumped against was the +question of where, among packed accumulations, so multiform a wedge +would be able to enter. Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold to be +perhaps what he should most substantially have to show at Woollett as +the fruit of his mission? It was a possibility that held him a +minute--held him till he happened to feel that some one, unnoticed, had +approached him and paused. Turning, he saw that a lady stood there as +for a greeting, and he sprang up as he next took her, securely, for +Madame de Vionnet, who appeared to have recognised him as she passed +near him on her way to the door. She checked, quickly and gaily, a +certain confusion in him, came to meet it, turned it back, by an art of +her own; the confusion having threatened him as he knew her for the +person he had lately been observing. She was the lurking figure of the +dim chapel; she had occupied him more than she guessed; but it came to +him in time, luckily, that he needn't tell her and that no harm, after +all, had been done. She herself, for that matter, straightway showing +she felt their encounter as the happiest of accidents, had for him a +"You come here too?" that despoiled surprise of every awkwardness. + +"I come often," she said. "I love this place, but I'm terrible, in +general, for churches. The old women who live in them all know me; in +fact I'm already myself one of the old women. It's like that, at all +events, that I foresee I shall end." Looking about for a chair, so +that he instantly pulled one nearer, she sat down with him again to the +sound of an "Oh, I like so much your also being fond--!" + +He confessed the extent of his feeling, though she left the object +vague; and he was struck with the tact, the taste of her vagueness, +which simply took for granted in him a sense of beautiful things. He +was conscious of how much it was affected, this sense, by something +subdued and discreet in the way she had arranged herself for her +special object and her morning walk--he believed her to have come on +foot; the way her slightly thicker veil was drawn--a mere touch, but +everything; the composed gravity of her dress, in which, here and +there, a dull wine-colour seemed to gleam faintly through black; the +charming discretion of her small compact head; the quiet note, as she +sat, of her folded, grey-gloved hands. It was, to Strether's mind, as +if she sat on her own ground, the light honours of which, at an open +gate, she thus easily did him, while all the vastness and mystery of +the domain stretched off behind. When people were so completely in +possession they could be extraordinarily civil; and our friend had +indeed at this hour a kind of revelation of her heritage. She was +romantic for him far beyond what she could have guessed, and again he +found his small comfort in the conviction that, subtle though she was, +his impression must remain a secret from her. The thing that, once +more, made him uneasy for secrets in general was this particular +patience she could have with his own want of colour; albeit that on the +other hand his uneasiness pretty well dropped after he had been for ten +minutes as colourless as possible and at the same time as responsive. + +The moments had already, for that matter, drawn their deepest tinge +from the special interest excited in him by his vision of his +companion's identity with the person whose attitude before the +glimmering altar had so impressed him. This attitude fitted admirably +into the stand he had privately taken about her connexion with Chad on +the last occasion of his seeing them together. It helped him to stick +fast at the point he had then reached; it was there he had resolved +that he WOULD stick, and at no moment since had it seemed as easy to do +so. Unassailably innocent was a relation that could make one of the +parties to it so carry herself. If it wasn't innocent why did she haunt +the churches?--into which, given the woman he could believe he made +out, she would never have come to flaunt an insolence of guilt. She +haunted them for continued help, for strength, for peace--sublime +support which, if one were able to look at it so, she found from day to +day. They talked, in low easy tones and with lifted lingering looks, +about the great monument and its history and its beauty--all of which, +Madame de Vionnet professed, came to her most in the other, the outer +view. "We'll presently, after we go," she said, "walk round it again +if you like. I'm not in a particular hurry, and it will be pleasant to +look at it well with you." He had spoken of the great romancer and the +great romance, and of what, to his imagination, they had done for the +whole, mentioning to her moreover the exorbitance of his purchase, the +seventy blazing volumes that were so out of proportion. + +"Out of proportion to what?" + +"Well, to any other plunge." Yet he felt even as he spoke how at that +instant he was plunging. He had made up his mind and was impatient to +get into the air; for his purpose was a purpose to be uttered outside, +and he had a fear that it might with delay still slip away from him. +She however took her time; she drew out their quiet gossip as if she +had wished to profit by their meeting, and this confirmed precisely an +interpretation of her manner, of her mystery. While she rose, as he +would have called it, to the question of Victor Hugo, her voice itself, +the light low quaver of her deference to the solemnity about them, +seemed to make her words mean something that they didn't mean openly. +Help, strength, peace, a sublime support--she hadn't found so much of +these things as that the amount wouldn't be sensibly greater for any +scrap his appearance of faith in her might enable her to feel in her +hand. Every little, in a long strain, helped, and if he happened to +affect her as a firm object she could hold on by, he wouldn't jerk +himself out of her reach. People in difficulties held on by what was +nearest, and he was perhaps after all not further off than sources of +comfort more abstract. It was as to this he had made up his mind; he +had made it up, that is, to give her a sign. The sign would be +that--though it was her own affair--he understood; the sign would be +that--though it was her own affair--she was free to clutch. Since she +took him for a firm object--much as he might to his own sense appear at +times to rock--he would do his best to BE one. + +The end of it was that half an hour later they were seated together for +an early luncheon at a wonderful, a delightful house of entertainment +on the left bank--a place of pilgrimage for the knowing, they were both +aware, the knowing who came, for its great renown, the homage of +restless days, from the other end of the town. Strether had already +been there three times--first with Miss Gostrey, then with Chad, then +with Chad again and with Waymarsh and little Bilham, all of whom he had +himself sagaciously entertained; and his pleasure was deep now on +learning that Madame de Vionnet hadn't yet been initiated. When he had +said as they strolled round the church, by the river, acting at last on +what, within, he had made up his mind to, "Will you, if you have time, +come to dejeuner with me somewhere? For instance, if you know it, over +there on the other side, which is so easy a walk"--and then had named +the place; when he had done this she stopped short as for quick +intensity, and yet deep difficulty, of response. She took in the +proposal as if it were almost too charming to be true; and there had +perhaps never yet been for her companion so unexpected a moment of +pride--so fine, so odd a case, at any rate, as his finding himself thus +able to offer to a person in such universal possession a new, a rare +amusement. She had heard of the happy spot, but she asked him in reply +to a further question how in the world he could suppose her to have +been there. He supposed himself to have supposed that Chad might have +taken her, and she guessed this the next moment to his no small +discomfort. + +"Ah, let me explain," she smiled, "that I don't go about with him in +public; I never have such chances--not having them otherwise--and it's +just the sort of thing that, as a quiet creature living in my hole, I +adore." It was more than kind of him to have thought of it--though, +frankly, if he asked whether she had time she hadn't a single minute. +That however made no difference--she'd throw everything over. Every +duty at home, domestic, maternal, social, awaited her; but it was a +case for a high line. Her affairs would go to smash, but hadn't one a +right to one's snatch of scandal when one was prepared to pay? It was +on this pleasant basis of costly disorder, consequently, that they +eventually seated themselves, on either side of a small table, at a +window adjusted to the busy quay and the shining barge-burdened Seine; +where, for an hour, in the matter of letting himself go, of diving +deep, Strether was to feel he had touched bottom. He was to feel many +things on this occasion, and one of the first of them was that he had +travelled far since that evening in London, before the theatre, when +his dinner with Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded candles, had +struck him as requiring so many explanations. He had at that time +gathered them in, the explanations--he had stored them up; but it was +at present as if he had either soared above or sunk below them--he +couldn't tell which; he could somehow think of none that didn't seem to +leave the appearance of collapse and cynicism easier for him than +lucidity. How could he wish it to be lucid for others, for any one, +that he, for the hour, saw reasons enough in the mere way the bright +clean ordered water-side life came in at the open window?--the mere way +Madame de Vionnet, opposite him over their intensely white table-linen, +their omelette aux tomates, their bottle of straw-coloured Chablis, +thanked him for everything almost with the smile of a child, while her +grey eyes moved in and out of their talk, back to the quarter of the +warm spring air, in which early summer had already begun to throb, and +then back again to his face and their human questions. + +Their human questions became many before they had done--many more, as +one after the other came up, than our friend's free fancy had at all +foreseen. The sense he had had before, the sense he had had +repeatedly, the sense that the situation was running away with him, had +never been so sharp as now; and all the more that he could perfectly +put his finger on the moment it had taken the bit in its teeth. That +accident had definitely occurred, the other evening, after Chad's +dinner; it had occurred, as he fully knew, at the moment when he +interposed between this lady and her child, when he suffered himself so +to discuss with her a matter closely concerning them that her own +subtlety, marked by its significant "Thank you!" instantly sealed the +occasion in her favour. Again he had held off for ten days, but the +situation had continued out of hand in spite of that; the fact that it +was running so fast being indeed just WHY he had held off. What had +come over him as he recognised her in the nave of the church was that +holding off could be but a losing game from the instant she was worked +for not only by her subtlety, but by the hand of fate itself. If all +the accidents were to fight on her side--and by the actual showing they +loomed large--he could only give himself up. This was what he had done +in privately deciding then and there to propose she should breakfast +with him. What did the success of his proposal in fact resemble but the +smash in which a regular runaway properly ends? The smash was their +walk, their dejeuner, their omelette, the Chablis, the place, the view, +their present talk and his present pleasure in it--to say nothing, +wonder of wonders, of her own. To this tune and nothing less, +accordingly, was his surrender made good. It sufficiently lighted up +at least the folly of holding off. Ancient proverbs sounded, for his +memory, in the tone of their words and the clink of their glasses, in +the hum of the town and the plash of the river. It WAS clearly better +to suffer as a sheep than as a lamb. One might as well perish by the +sword as by famine. + +"Maria's still away?"--that was the first thing she had asked him; and +when he had found the frankness to be cheerful about it in spite of the +meaning he knew her to attach to Miss Gostrey's absence, she had gone +on to enquire if he didn't tremendously miss her. There were reasons +that made him by no means sure, yet he nevertheless answered +"Tremendously"; which she took in as if it were all she had wished to +prove. Then, "A man in trouble MUST be possessed somehow of a woman," +she said; "if she doesn't come in one way she comes in another." + +"Why do you call me a man in trouble?" + +"Ah because that's the way you strike me." She spoke ever so gently +and as if with all fear of wounding him while she sat partaking of his +bounty. "AREn't you in trouble?" + +He felt himself colour at the question, and then hated that--hated to +pass for anything so idiotic as woundable. Woundable by Chad's lady, +in respect to whom he had come out with such a fund of +indifference--was he already at that point? Perversely, none the less, +his pause gave a strange air of truth to her supposition; and what was +he in fact but disconcerted at having struck her just in the way he had +most dreamed of not doing? "I'm not in trouble yet," he at last +smiled. "I'm not in trouble now." + +"Well, I'm always so. But that you sufficiently know." She was a +woman who, between courses, could be graceful with her elbows on the +table. It was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but it was easy for a +femme du monde. "Yes--I am 'now'!" + +"There was a question you put to me," he presently returned, "the night +of Chad's dinner. I didn't answer it then, and it has been very +handsome of you not to have sought an occasion for pressing me about it +since." + +She was instantly all there. "Of course I know what you allude to. I +asked you what you had meant by saying, the day you came to see me, +just before you left me, that you'd save me. And you then said--at our +friend's--that you'd have really to wait to see, for yourself, what you +did mean." + +"Yes, I asked for time," said Strether. "And it sounds now, as you put +it, like a very ridiculous speech." + +"Oh!" she murmured--she was full of attenuation. But she had another +thought. "If it does sound ridiculous why do you deny that you're in +trouble?" + +"Ah if I were," he replied, "it wouldn't be the trouble of fearing +ridicule. I don't fear it." + +"What then do you?" + +"Nothing--now." And he leaned back in his chair. + +"I like your 'now'!" she laughed across at him. + +"Well, it's precisely that it fully comes to me at present that I've +kept you long enough. I know by this time, at any rate, what I meant +by my speech; and I really knew it the night of Chad's dinner." + +"Then why didn't you tell me?" + +"Because it was difficult at the moment. I had already at that moment +done something for you, in the sense of what I had said the day I went +to see you; but I wasn't then sure of the importance I might represent +this as having." + +She was all eagerness. "And you're sure now?" + +"Yes; I see that, practically, I've done for you--had done for you when +you put me your question--all that it's as yet possible to me to do. I +feel now," he went on, "that it may go further than I thought. What I +did after my visit to you," he explained, "was to write straight off to +Mrs. Newsome about you, and I'm at last, from one day to the other, +expecting her answer. It's this answer that will represent, as I +believe, the consequences." + +Patient and beautiful was her interest. "I see--the consequences of +your speaking for me." And she waited as if not to hustle him. + +He acknowledged it by immediately going on. "The question, you +understand, was HOW I should save you. Well, I'm trying it by thus +letting her know that I consider you worth saving." + +"I see--I see." Her eagerness broke through. + +"How can I thank you enough?" He couldn't tell her that, however, and +she quickly pursued. "You do really, for yourself, consider it?" + +His only answer at first was to help her to the dish that had been +freshly put before them. "I've written to her again since then--I've +left her in no doubt of what I think. I've told her all about you." + +"Thanks--not so much. 'All about' me," she went on--"yes." + +"All it seems to me you've done for him." + +"Ah and you might have added all it seems to ME!" She laughed again, +while she took up her knife and fork, as in the cheer of these +assurances. "But you're not sure how she'll take it." + +"No, I'll not pretend I'm sure." + +"Voila." And she waited a moment. "I wish you'd tell me about her." + +"Oh," said Strether with a slightly strained smile, "all that need +concern you about her is that she's really a grand person." + +Madame de Vionnet seemed to demur. "Is that all that need concern me +about her?" + +But Strether neglected the question. "Hasn't Chad talked to you?" + +"Of his mother? Yes, a great deal--immensely. But not from your point +of view." + +"He can't," our friend returned, "have said any ill of her." + +"Not the least bit. He has given me, like you, the assurance that +she's really grand. But her being really grand is somehow just what +hasn't seemed to simplify our case. Nothing," she continued, "is +further from me than to wish to say a word against her; but of course I +feel how little she can like being told of her owing me anything. No +woman ever enjoys such an obligation to another woman." + +This was a proposition Strether couldn't contradict. "And yet what +other way could I have expressed to her what I felt? It's what there +was most to say about you." + +"Do you mean then that she WILL be good to me?" + +"It's what I'm waiting to see. But I've little doubt she would," he +added, "if she could comfortably see you." + +It seemed to strike her as a happy, a beneficent thought. "Oh then +couldn't that be managed? Wouldn't she come out? Wouldn't she if you +so put it to her? DID you by any possibility?" she faintly quavered. + +"Oh no"--he was prompt. "Not that. It would be, much more, to give an +account of you that--since there's no question of YOUR paying the +visit--I should go home first." + +It instantly made her graver. "And are you thinking of that?" + +"Oh all the while, naturally." + +"Stay with us--stay with us!" she exclaimed on this. "That's your only +way to make sure." + +"To make sure of what?" + +"Why that he doesn't break up. You didn't come out to do that to him." + +"Doesn't it depend," Strether returned after a moment, "on what you +mean by breaking up?" + +"Oh you know well enough what I mean!" + +His silence seemed again for a little to denote an understanding. "You +take for granted remarkable things." + +"Yes, I do--to the extent that I don't take for granted vulgar ones. +You're perfectly capable of seeing that what you came out for wasn't +really at all to do what you'd now have to do." + +"Ah it's perfectly simple," Strether good-humouredly pleaded. "I've +had but one thing to do--to put our case before him. To put it as it +could only be put here on the spot--by personal pressure. My dear +lady," he lucidly pursued, "my work, you see, is really done, and my +reasons for staying on even another day are none of the best. Chad's +in possession of our case and professes to do it full justice. What +remains is with himself. I've had my rest, my amusement and +refreshment; I've had, as we say at Woollett, a lovely time. Nothing +in it has been more lovely than this happy meeting with you--in these +fantastic conditions to which you've so delightfully consented. I've a +sense of success. It's what I wanted. My getting all this good is +what Chad has waited for, and I gather that if I'm ready to go he's the +same." + +She shook her head with a finer deeper wisdom. "You're not ready. If +you're ready why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the sense you've +mentioned to me?" + +Strether considered. "I shan't go before I hear from her. You're too +much afraid of her," he added. + +It produced between them a long look from which neither shrank. "I +don't think you believe that--believe I've not really reason to fear +her." + +"She's capable of great generosity," Strether presently stated. + +"Well then let her trust me a little. That's all I ask. Let her +recognise in spite of everything what I've done." + +"Ah remember," our friend replied, "that she can't effectually +recognise it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and show +her what you've done, and let him plead with her there for it and, as +it were, for YOU." + +She measured the depth of this suggestion. "Do you give me your word +of honour that if she once has him there she won't do her best to marry +him?" + +It made her companion, this enquiry, look again a while out at the +view; after which he spoke without sharpness. "When she sees for +herself what he is--" + +But she had already broken in. "It's when she sees for herself what he +is that she'll want to marry him most." + +Strether's attitude, that of due deference to what she said, permitted +him to attend for a minute to his luncheon. "I doubt if that will come +off. It won't be easy to make it." + +"It will be easy if he remains there--and he'll remain for the money. +The money appears to be, as a probability, so hideously much." + +"Well," Strether presently concluded, "nothing COULD really hurt you +but his marrying." + +She gave a strange light laugh. "Putting aside what may really hurt +HIM." + +But her friend looked at her as if he had thought of that too. "The +question will come up, of course, of the future that you yourself offer +him." + +She was leaning back now, but she fully faced him. "Well, let it come +up!" + +"The point is that it's for Chad to make of it what he can. His being +proof against marriage will show what he does make." + +"If he IS proof, yes"--she accepted the proposition. "But for myself," +she added, "the question is what YOU make." + +"Ah I make nothing. It's not my affair." + +"I beg your pardon. It's just there that, since you've taken it up and +are committed to it, it most intensely becomes yours. You're not +saving me, I take it, for your interest in myself, but for your +interest in our friend. The one's at any rate wholly dependent on the +other. You can't in honour not see me through," she wound up, "because +you can't in honour not see HIM." + +Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet soft acuteness. The thing +that most moved him was really that she was so deeply serious. She had +none of the portentous forms of it, but he had never come in contact, +it struck him, with a force brought to so fine a head. Mrs. Newsome, +goodness knew, was serious; but it was nothing to this. He took it all +in, he saw it all together. "No," he mused, "I can't in honour not see +him." + +Her face affected him as with an exquisite light. "You WILL then?" + +"I will." + +At this she pushed back her chair and was the next moment on her feet. +"Thank you!" she said with her hand held out to him across the table +and with no less a meaning in the words than her lips had so +particularly given them after Chad's dinner. The golden nail she had +then driven in pierced a good inch deeper. Yet he reflected that he +himself had only meanwhile done what he had made up his mind to on the +same occasion. So far as the essence of the matter went he had simply +stood fast on the spot on which he had then planted his feet. + + + +II + + +He received three days after this a communication from America, in the +form of a scrap of blue paper folded and gummed, not reaching him +through his bankers, but delivered at his hotel by a small boy in +uniform, who, under instructions from the concierge, approached him as +he slowly paced the little court. It was the evening hour, but +daylight was long now and Paris more than ever penetrating. The scent +of flowers was in the streets, he had the whiff of violets perpetually +in his nose; and he had attached himself to sounds and suggestions, +vibrations of the air, human and dramatic, he imagined, as they were +not in other places, that came out for him more and more as the mild +afternoons deepened--a far-off hum, a sharp near click on the asphalt, +a voice calling, replying, somewhere and as full of tone as an actor's +in a play. He was to dine at home, as usual, with Waymarsh--they had +settled to that for thrift and simplicity; and he now hung about before +his friend came down. + +He read his telegram in the court, standing still a long time where he +had opened it and giving five minutes afterwards to the renewed study +of it. At last, quickly, he crumpled it up as if to get it out of the +way; in spite of which, however, he kept it there--still kept it when, +at the end of another turn, he had dropped into a chair placed near a +small table. Here, with his scrap of paper compressed in his fist and +further concealed by his folding his arms tight, he sat for some time +in thought, gazed before him so straight that Waymarsh appeared and +approached him without catching his eye. The latter in fact, struck +with his appearance, looked at him hard for a single instant and then, +as if determined to that course by some special vividness in it, +dropped back into the salon de lecture without addressing him. But the +pilgrim from Milrose permitted himself still to observe the scene from +behind the clear glass plate of that retreat. Strether ended, as he +sat, by a fresh scrutiny of his compressed missive, which he smoothed +out carefully again as he placed it on his table. There it remained +for some minutes, until, at last looking up, he saw Waymarsh watching +him from within. It was on this that their eyes met--met for a moment +during which neither moved. But Strether then got up, folding his +telegram more carefully and putting it into his waistcoat pocket. + +A few minutes later the friends were seated together at dinner; but +Strether had meanwhile said nothing about it, and they eventually +parted, after coffee in the court, with nothing said on either side. +Our friend had moreover the consciousness that even less than usual was +on this occasion said between them, so that it was almost as if each +had been waiting for something from the other. Waymarsh had always +more or less the air of sitting at the door of his tent, and silence, +after so many weeks, had come to play its part in their concert. This +note indeed, to Strether's sense, had lately taken a fuller tone, and +it was his fancy to-night that they had never quite so drawn it out. +Yet it befell, none the less that he closed the door to confidence when +his companion finally asked him if there were anything particular the +matter with him. "Nothing," he replied, "more than usual." + +On the morrow, however, at an early hour, he found occasion to give an +answer more in consonance with the facts. What was the matter had +continued to be so all the previous evening, the first hours of which, +after dinner, in his room, he had devoted to the copious composition of +a letter. He had quitted Waymarsh for this purpose, leaving him to his +own resources with less ceremony than their wont, but finally coming +down again with his letter unconcluded and going forth into the streets +without enquiry for his comrade. He had taken a long vague walk, and +one o'clock had struck before his return and his re-ascent to his room +by the aid of the glimmering candle-end left for him on the shelf +outside the porter's lodge. He had possessed himself, on closing his +door, of the numerous loose sheets of his unfinished composition, and +then, without reading them over, had torn them into small pieces. He +had thereupon slept--as if it had been in some measure thanks to that +sacrifice--the sleep of the just, and had prolonged his rest +considerably beyond his custom. Thus it was that when, between nine +and ten, the tap of the knob of a walking-stick sounded on his door, he +had not yet made himself altogether presentable. Chad Newsome's bright +deep voice determined quickly enough none the less the admission of the +visitor. The little blue paper of the evening before, plainly an +object the more precious for its escape from premature destruction, now +lay on the sill of the open window, smoothed out afresh and kept from +blowing away by the superincumbent weight of his watch. Chad, looking +about with careless and competent criticism, as he looked wherever he +went immediately espied it and permitted himself to fix it for a moment +rather hard. After which he turned his eyes to his host. "It has come +then at last?" + +Strether paused in the act of pinning his necktie. "Then you know--? +You've had one too?" + +"No, I've had nothing, and I only know what I see. I see that thing +and I guess. Well," he added, "it comes as pat as in a play, for I've +precisely turned up this morning--as I would have done yesterday, but +it was impossible--to take you." + +"To take me?" Strether had turned again to his glass. + +"Back, at last, as I promised. I'm ready--I've really been ready this +month. I've only been waiting for you--as was perfectly right. But +you're better now; you're safe--I see that for myself; you've got all +your good. You're looking, this morning, as fit as a flea." + +Strether, at his glass, finished dressing; consulting that witness +moreover on this last opinion. WAS he looking preternaturally fit? +There was something in it perhaps for Chad's wonderful eye, but he had +felt himself for hours rather in pieces. Such a judgement, however, +was after all but a contribution to his resolve; it testified +unwittingly to his wisdom. He was still firmer, apparently--since it +shone in him as a light--than he had flattered himself. His firmness +indeed was slightly compromised, as he faced about to his friend, by +the way this very personage looked--though the case would of course +have been worse hadn't the secret of personal magnificence been at +every hour Chad's unfailing possession. There he was in all the +pleasant morning freshness of it--strong and sleek and gay, easy and +fragrant and fathomless, with happy health in his colour, and pleasant +silver in his thick young hair, and the right word for everything on +the lips that his clear brownness caused to show as red. He had never +struck Strether as personally such a success; it was as if now, for his +definite surrender, he had gathered himself vividly together. This, +sharply and rather strangely, was the form in which he was to be +presented to Woollett. Our friend took him in again--he was always +taking him in and yet finding that parts of him still remained out; +though even thus his image showed through a mist of other things. "I've +had a cable," Strether said, "from your mother." + +"I dare say, my dear man. I hope she's well." + +Strether hesitated. "No--she's not well, I'm sorry to have to tell +you." + +"Ah," said Chad, "I must have had the instinct of it. All the more +reason then that we should start straight off." + +Strether had now got together hat, gloves and stick, but Chad had +dropped on the sofa as if to show where he wished to make his point. He +kept observing his companion's things; he might have been judging how +quickly they could be packed. He might even have wished to hint that +he'd send his own servant to assist. "What do you mean," Strether +enquired, "by 'straight off'?" + +"Oh by one of next week's boats. Everything at this season goes out so +light that berths will be easy anywhere." + +Strether had in his hand his telegram, which he had kept there after +attaching his watch, and he now offered it to Chad, who, however, with +an odd movement, declined to take it. "Thanks, I'd rather not. Your +correspondence with Mother's your own affair. I'm only WITH you both +on it, whatever it is." Strether, at this, while their eyes met, +slowly folded the missive and put it in his pocket; after which, before +he had spoken again, Chad broke fresh ground. "Has Miss Gostrey come +back?" + +But when Strether presently spoke it wasn't in answer. "It's not, I +gather, that your mother's physically ill; her health, on the whole, +this spring, seems to have been better than usual. But she's worried, +she's anxious, and it appears to have risen within the last few days to +a climax. We've tired out, between us, her patience." + +"Oh it isn't YOU!" Chad generously protested. + +"I beg your pardon--it IS me." Strether was mild and melancholy, but +firm. He saw it far away and over his companion's head. "It's very +particularly me." + +"Well then all the more reason. Marchons, marchons!" said the young +man gaily. His host, however, at this, but continued to stand agaze; +and he had the next thing repeated his question of a moment before. +"Has Miss Gostrey come back?" + +"Yes, two days ago." + +"Then you've seen her?" + +"No--I'm to see her to-day." But Strether wouldn't linger now on Miss +Gostrey. "Your mother sends me an ultimatum. If I can't bring you I'm +to leave you; I'm to come at any rate myself." + +"Ah but you CAN bring me now," Chad, from his sofa, reassuringly +replied. + +Strether had a pause. "I don't think I understand you. Why was it +that, more than a month ago, you put it to me so urgently to let Madame +de Vionnet speak for you?" + +"'Why'?" Chad considered, but he had it at his fingers' ends. "Why +but because I knew how well she'd do it? It was the way to keep you +quiet and, to that extent, do you good. Besides," he happily and +comfortably explained, "I wanted you really to know her and to get the +impression of her--and you see the good that HAS done you." + +"Well," said Strether, "the way she has spoken for you, all the +same--so far as I've given her a chance--has only made me feel how much +she wishes to keep you. If you make nothing of that I don't see why +you wanted me to listen to her." + +"Why my dear man," Chad exclaimed, "I make everything of it! How can +you doubt--?" + +"I doubt only because you come to me this morning with your signal to +start." + +Chad stared, then gave a laugh. "And isn't my signal to start just +what you've been waiting for?" + +Strether debated; he took another turn. "This last month I've been +awaiting, I think, more than anything else, the message I have here." + +"You mean you've been afraid of it?" + +"Well, I was doing my business in my own way. And I suppose your +present announcement," Strether went on, "isn't merely the result of +your sense of what I've expected. Otherwise you wouldn't have put me +in relation--" But he paused, pulling up. + +At this Chad rose. "Ah HER wanting me not to go has nothing to do with +it! It's only because she's afraid--afraid of the way that, over there, +I may get caught. But her fear's groundless." + +He had met again his companion's sufficiently searching look. "Are you +tired of her?" + +Chad gave him in reply to this, with a movement of the head, the +strangest slow smile he had ever had from him. "Never." + +It had immediately, on Strether's imagination, so deep and soft an +effect that our friend could only for the moment keep it before him. +"Never?" + +"Never," Chad obligingly and serenely repeated. + +It made his companion take several more steps. "Then YOU'RE not +afraid." + +"Afraid to go?" + +Strether pulled up again. "Afraid to stay." + +The young man looked brightly amazed. "You want me now to 'stay'?" + +"If I don't immediately sail the Pococks will immediately come out. +That's what I mean," said Strether, "by your mother's ultimatum ." + +Chad showed a still livelier, but not an alarmed interest. "She has +turned on Sarah and Jim?" + +Strether joined him for an instant in the vision. "Oh and you may be +sure Mamie. THAT'S whom she's turning on." + +This also Chad saw--he laughed out. "Mamie--to corrupt me?" + +"Ah," said Strether, "she's very charming." + +"So you've already more than once told me. I should like to see her." + +Something happy and easy, something above all unconscious, in the way +he said this, brought home again to his companion the facility of his +attitude and the enviability of his state. "See her then by all means. +And consider too," Strether went on, "that you really give your sister +a lift in letting her come to you. You give her a couple of months of +Paris, which she hasn't seen, if I'm not mistaken, since just after she +was married, and which I'm sure she wants but the pretext to visit." + +Chad listened, but with all his own knowledge of the world. "She has +had it, the pretext, these several years, yet she has never taken it." + +"Do you mean YOU?" Strether after an instant enquired. + +"Certainly--the lone exile. And whom do you mean?" said Chad. + +"Oh I mean ME. I'm her pretext. That is--for it comes to the same +thing--I'm your mother's." + +"Then why," Chad asked, "doesn't Mother come herself?" + +His friend gave him a long look. "Should you like her to?" And as he +for the moment said nothing: "It's perfectly open to you to cable for +her." + +Chad continued to think. "Will she come if I do?" + +"Quite possibly. But try, and you'll see." + +"Why don't YOU try?" Chad after a moment asked. + +"Because I don't want to." + +Chad thought. "Don't desire her presence here?" + +Strether faced the question, and his answer was the more emphatic. +"Don't put it off, my dear boy, on ME!" + +"Well--I see what you mean. I'm sure you'd behave beautifully but you +DON'T want to see her. So I won't play you that trick.' + +"Ah," Strether declared, "I shouldn't call it a trick. You've a +perfect right, and it would be perfectly straight of you." Then he +added in a different tone: "You'd have moreover, in the person of +Madame de Vionnet, a very interesting relation prepared for her." + +Their eyes, on this proposition, continued to meet, but Chad's pleasant +and bold, never flinched for a moment. He got up at last and he said +something with which Strether was struck. "She wouldn't understand +her, but that makes no difference. Madame de Vionnet would like to see +her. She'd like to be charming to her. She believes she could work +it." + +Strether thought a moment, affected by this, but finally turning away. +"She couldn't!" + +"You're quite sure?" Chad asked. + +"Well, risk it if you like!" + +Strether, who uttered this with serenity, had urged a plea for their +now getting into the air; but the young man still waited. "Have you +sent your answer?" + +"No, I've done nothing yet." + +"Were you waiting to see me?" + +"No, not that." + +"Only waiting"--and Chad, with this, had a smile for him--"to see Miss +Gostrey?" + +"No--not even Miss Gostrey. I wasn't waiting to see any one. I had +only waited, till now, to make up my mind--in complete solitude; and, +since I of course absolutely owe you the information, was on the point +of going out with it quite made up. Have therefore a little more +patience with me. Remember," Strether went on, "that that's what you +originally asked ME to have. I've had it, you see, and you see what +has come of it. Stay on with me." + +Chad looked grave. "How much longer?" + +"Well, till I make you a sign. I can't myself, you know, at the best, +or at the worst, stay for ever. Let the Pococks come," Strether +repeated. + +"Because it gains you time?" + +"Yes--it gains me time." + +Chad, as if it still puzzled him, waited a minute. "You don't want to +get back to Mother?" + +"Not just yet. I'm not ready." + +"You feel," Chad asked in a tone of his own, "the charm of life over +here?" + +"Immensely." Strether faced it. "You've helped me so to feel it that +that surely needn't surprise you." + +"No, it doesn't surprise me, and I'm delighted. But what, my dear +man," Chad went on with conscious queerness, "does it all lead to for +you?" + +The change of position and of relation, for each, was so oddly betrayed +in the question that Chad laughed out as soon as he had uttered +it--which made Strether also laugh. "Well, to my having a certitude +that has been tested--that has passed through the fire. But oh," he +couldn't help breaking out, "if within my first month here you had been +willing to move with me--!" + +"Well?" said Chad, while he broke down as for weight of thought. + +"Well, we should have been over there by now." + +"Ah but you wouldn't have had your fun!" + +"I should have had a month of it; and I'm having now, if you want to +know," Strether continued, "enough to last me for the rest of my days." + +Chad looked amused and interested, yet still somewhat in the dark; +partly perhaps because Strether's estimate of fun had required of him +from the first a good deal of elucidation. "It wouldn't do if I left +you--?" + +"Left me?"--Strether remained blank. + +"Only for a month or two--time to go and come. Madame de Vionnet," +Chad smiled, "would look after you in the interval." + +"To go back by yourself, I remaining here?" Again for an instant their +eyes had the question out; after which Strether said: "Grotesque!" + +"But I want to see Mother," Chad presently returned. "Remember how +long it is since I've seen Mother." + +"Long indeed; and that's exactly why I was originally so keen for +moving you. Hadn't you shown us enough how beautifully you could do +without it?" + +"Oh but," said Chad wonderfully, "I'm better now." + +There was an easy triumph in it that made his friend laugh out again. +"Oh if you were worse I SHOULD know what to do with you. In that case +I believe I'd have you gagged and strapped down, carried on board +resisting, kicking. How MUCH," Strether asked, "do you want to see +Mother?" + +"How much?"--Chad seemed to find it in fact difficult to say. + +"How much." + +"Why as much as you've made me. I'd give anything to see her. And +you've left me," Chad went on, "in little enough doubt as to how much +SHE wants it." + +Strether thought a minute. "Well then if those things are really your +motive catch the French steamer and sail to-morrow. Of course, when it +comes to that, you're absolutely free to do as you choose. From the +moment you can't hold yourself I can only accept your flight." + +"I'll fly in a minute then," said Chad, "if you'll stay here." + +"I'll stay here till the next steamer--then I'll follow you." + +"And do you call that," Chad asked, "accepting my flight?" + +"Certainly--it's the only thing to call it. The only way to keep me +here, accordingly," Strether explained, "is by staying yourself." + +Chad took it in. "All the more that I've really dished you, eh?" + +"Dished me?" Strether echoed as inexpressively as possible. + +"Why if she sends out the Pococks it will be that she doesn't trust +you, and if she doesn't trust you, that bears upon--well, you know +what." + +Strether decided after a moment that he did know what, and in +consonance with this he spoke. "You see then all the more what you owe +me." + +"Well, if I do see, how can I pay?" + +"By not deserting me. By standing by me." + +"Oh I say--!" But Chad, as they went downstairs, clapped a firm hand, +in the manner of a pledge, upon his shoulder. They descended slowly +together and had, in the court of the hotel, some further talk, of +which the upshot was that they presently separated. Chad Newsome +departed, and Strether, left alone, looked about, superficially, for +Waymarsh. But Waymarsh hadn't yet, it appeared, come down, and our +friend finally went forth without sight of him. + + + +III + + +At four o'clock that afternoon he had still not seen him, but he was +then, as to make up for this, engaged in talk about him with Miss +Gostrey. Strether had kept away from home all day, given himself up to +the town and to his thoughts, wandered and mused, been at once restless +and absorbed--and all with the present climax of a rich little welcome +in the Quartier Marboeuf. "Waymarsh has been, 'unbeknown' to me, I'm +convinced"--for Miss Gostrey had enquired--"in communication with +Woollett: the consequence of which was, last night, the loudest +possible call for me." + +"Do you mean a letter to bring you home?" + +"No--a cable, which I have at this moment in my pocket: a 'Come back by +the first ship.'" + +Strether's hostess, it might have been made out, just escaped changing +colour. Reflexion arrived but in time and established a provisional +serenity. It was perhaps exactly this that enabled her to say with +duplicity: "And you're going--?" + +"You almost deserve it when you abandon me so." + +She shook her head as if this were not worth taking up. "My absence +has helped you--as I've only to look at you to see. It was my +calculation, and I'm justified. You're not where you were. And the +thing," she smiled, "was for me not to be there either. You can go of +yourself." + +"Oh but I feel to-day," he comfortably declared, "that I shall want you +yet." + +She took him all in again. "Well, I promise you not again to leave +you, but it will only be to follow you. You've got your momentum and +can toddle alone." + +He intelligently accepted it. "Yes--I suppose I can toddle. It's the +sight of that in fact that has upset Waymarsh. He can bear it--the way +I strike him as going--no longer. That's only the climax of his +original feeling. He wants me to quit; and he must have written to +Woollett that I'm in peril of perdition." + +"Ah good!" she murmured. "But is it only your supposition?" + +"I make it out--it explains." + +"Then he denies?--or you haven't asked him?" + +"I've not had time," Strether said; "I made it out but last night, +putting various things together, and I've not been since then face to +face with him." + +She wondered. "Because you're too disgusted? You can't trust +yourself?" + +He settled his glasses on his nose. "Do I look in a great rage?" + +"You look divine!" + +"There's nothing," he went on, "to be angry about. He has done me on +the contrary a service." + +She made it out. "By bringing things to a head?" + +"How well you understand!" he almost groaned. "Waymarsh won't in the +least, at any rate, when I have it out with him, deny or extenuate. He +has acted from the deepest conviction, with the best conscience and +after wakeful nights. He'll recognise that he's fully responsible, and +will consider that he has been highly successful; so that any +discussion we may have will bring us quite together again--bridge the +dark stream that has kept us so thoroughly apart. We shall have at +last, in the consequences of his act, something we can definitely talk +about." + +She was silent a little. "How wonderfully you take it! But you're +always wonderful." + +He had a pause that matched her own; then he had, with an adequate +spirit, a complete admission. "It's quite true. I'm extremely +wonderful just now. I dare say in fact I'm quite fantastic, and I +shouldn't be at all surprised if I were mad." + +"Then tell me!" she earnestly pressed. As he, however, for the time +answered nothing, only returning the look with which she watched him, +she presented herself where it was easier to meet her. "What will Mr. +Waymarsh exactly have done?" + +"Simply have written a letter. One will have been quite enough. He +has told them I want looking after." + +"And DO you?"--she was all interest. + +"Immensely. And I shall get it." + +"By which you mean you don't budge?" + +"I don't budge." + +"You've cabled?" + +"No--I've made Chad do it." + +"That you decline to come?" + +"That HE declines. We had it out this morning and I brought him round. +He had come in, before I was down, to tell me he was ready--ready, I +mean, to return. And he went off, after ten minutes with me, to say he +wouldn't." + +Miss Gostrey followed with intensity. "Then you've STOPPED him?" + +Strether settled himself afresh in his chair. "I've stopped him. That +is for the time. That"--he gave it to her more vividly--"is where I +am." + +"I see, I see. But where's Mr. Newsome? He was ready," she asked, "to +go?" + +"All ready." + +"And sincerely--believing YOU'D be?" + +"Perfectly, I think; so that he was amazed to find the hand I had laid +on him to pull him over suddenly converted into an engine for keeping +him still." + +It was an account of the matter Miss Gostrey could weigh. "Does he +think the conversion sudden?" + +"Well," said Strether, "I'm not altogether sure what he thinks. I'm +not sure of anything that concerns him, except that the more I've seen +of him the less I've found him what I originally expected. He's +obscure, and that's why I'm waiting." + +She wondered. "But for what in particular?" + +"For the answer to his cable." + +"And what was his cable?" + +"I don't know," Strether replied; "it was to be, when he left me, +according to his own taste. I simply said to him: 'I want to stay, and +the only way for me to do so is for you to.' That I wanted to stay +seemed to interest him, and he acted on that." + +Miss Gostrey turned it over. "He wants then himself to stay." + +"He half wants it. That is he half wants to go. My original appeal +has to that extent worked in him. Nevertheless," Strether pursued, "he +won't go. Not, at least, so long as I'm here." + +"But you can't," his companion suggested, "stay here always. I wish +you could." + +"By no means. Still, I want to see him a little further. He's not in +the least the case I supposed, he's quite another case. And it's as +such that he interests me." It was almost as if for his own +intelligence that, deliberate and lucid, our friend thus expressed the +matter. "I don't want to give him up." + +Miss Gostrey but desired to help his lucidity. She had however to be +light and tactful. "Up, you mean--a--to his mother?" + +"Well, I'm not thinking of his mother now. I'm thinking of the plan of +which I was the mouthpiece, which, as soon as we met, I put before him +as persuasively as I knew how, and which was drawn up, as it were, in +complete ignorance of all that, in this last long period, has been +happening to him. It took no account whatever of the impression I was +here on the spot immediately to begin to receive from him--impressions +of which I feel sure I'm far from having had the last." + +Miss Gostrey had a smile of the most genial criticism. "So your idea +is--more or less--to stay out of curiosity?" + +"Call it what you like! I don't care what it's called--" + +"So long as you do stay? Certainly not then. I call it, all the same, +immense fun," Maria Gostrey declared; "and to see you work it out will +be one of the sensations of my life. It IS clear you can toddle alone!" + +He received this tribute without elation. "I shan't be alone when the +Pococks have come." + +Her eyebrows went up. "The Pococks are coming?" + +"That, I mean, is what will happen--and happen as quickly as +possible--in consequence of Chad's cable. They'll simply embark. Sarah +will come to speak for her mother--with an effect different from MY +muddle." + +Miss Gostrey more gravely wondered. "SHE then will take him back?" + +"Very possibly--and we shall see. She must at any rate have the +chance, and she may be trusted to do all she can." + +"And do you WANT that?" + +"Of course," said Strether, "I want it. I want to play fair." + +But she had lost for a moment the thread. "If it devolves on the +Pococks why do you stay?" + +"Just to see that I DO play fair--and a little also, no doubt, that +they do." Strether was luminous as he had never been. "I came out to +find myself in presence of new facts--facts that have kept striking me +as less and less met by our old reasons. The matter's perfectly +simple. New reasons--reasons as new as the facts themselves--are +wanted; and of this our friends at Woollett--Chad's and mine--were at +the earliest moment definitely notified. If any are producible Mrs. +Pocock will produce them; she'll bring over the whole collection. +They'll be," he added with a pensive smile "a part of the 'fun' you +speak of." + +She was quite in the current now and floating by his side. "It's +Mamie--so far as I've had it from you--who'll be their great card." And +then as his contemplative silence wasn't a denial she significantly +added: "I think I'm sorry for her." + +"I think I am!"--and Strether sprang up, moving about a little as her +eyes followed him. "But it can't be helped." + +"You mean her coming out can't be?" + +He explained after another turn what he meant. "The only way for her +not to come is for me to go home--as I believe that on the spot I could +prevent it. But the difficulty as to that is that if I do go home--" + +"I see, I see"--she had easily understood. "Mr. Newsome will do the +same, and that's not"--she laughed out now--"to be thought of." + +Strether had no laugh; he had only a quiet comparatively placid look +that might have shown him as proof against ridicule. "Strange, isn't +it?" + +They had, in the matter that so much interested them, come so far as +this without sounding another name--to which however their present +momentary silence was full of a conscious reference. Strether's +question was a sufficient implication of the weight it had gained with +him during the absence of his hostess; and just for that reason a +single gesture from her could pass for him as a vivid answer. Yet he +was answered still better when she said in a moment: "Will Mr. Newsome +introduce his sister--?" + +"To Madame de Vionnet?" Strether spoke the name at last. "I shall be +greatly surprised if he doesn't." + +She seemed to gaze at the possibility. "You mean you've thought of it +and you're prepared." + +"I've thought of it and I'm prepared." + +It was to her visitor now that she applied her consideration. "Bon! +You ARE magnificent!" + +"Well," he answered after a pause and a little wearily, but still +standing there before her--"well, that's what, just once in all my dull +days, I think I shall like to have been!" + +Two days later he had news from Chad of a communication from Woollett +in response to their determinant telegram, this missive being addressed +to Chad himself and announcing the immediate departure for France of +Sarah and Jim and Mamie. Strether had meanwhile on his own side +cabled; he had but delayed that act till after his visit to Miss +Gostrey, an interview by which, as so often before, he felt his sense +of things cleared up and settled. His message to Mrs. Newsome, in +answer to her own, had consisted of the words: "Judge best to take +another month, but with full appreciation of all re-enforcements." He +had added that he was writing, but he was of course always writing; it +was a practice that continued, oddly enough, to relieve him, to make +him come nearer than anything else to the consciousness of doing +something: so that he often wondered if he hadn't really, under his +recent stress, acquired some hollow trick, one of the specious arts of +make-believe. Wouldn't the pages he still so freely dispatched by the +American post have been worthy of a showy journalist, some master of +the great new science of beating the sense out of words? Wasn't he +writing against time, and mainly to show he was kind?--since it had +become quite his habit not to like to read himself over. On those +lines he could still be liberal, yet it was at best a sort of whistling +in the dark. It was unmistakeable moreover that the sense of being in +the dark now pressed on him more sharply--creating thereby the need for +a louder and livelier whistle. He whistled long and hard after sending +his message; he whistled again and again in celebration of Chad's news; +there was an interval of a fortnight in which this exercise helped him. +He had no great notion of what, on the spot, Sarah Pocock would have to +say, though he had indeed confused premonitions; but it shouldn't be in +her power to say--it shouldn't be in any one's anywhere to say--that he +was neglecting her mother. He might have written before more freely, +but he had never written more copiously; and he frankly gave for a +reason at Woollett that he wished to fill the void created there by +Sarah's departure. + +The increase of his darkness, however, and the quickening, as I have +called it, of his tune, resided in the fact that he was hearing almost +nothing. He had for some time been aware that he was hearing less than +before, and he was now clearly following a process by which Mrs. +Newsome's letters could but logically stop. He hadn't had a line for +many days, and he needed no proof--though he was, in time, to have +plenty--that she wouldn't have put pen to paper after receiving the +hint that had determined her telegram. She wouldn't write till Sarah +should have seen him and reported on him. It was strange, though it +might well be less so than his own behaviour appeared at Woollett. It +was at any rate significant, and what WAS remarkable was the way his +friend's nature and manner put on for him, through this very drop of +demonstration, a greater intensity. It struck him really that he had +never so lived with her as during this period of her silence; the +silence was a sacred hush, a finer clearer medium, in which her +idiosyncrasies showed. He walked about with her, sat with her, drove +with her and dined face-to-face with her--a rare treat "in his life," +as he could perhaps have scarce escaped phrasing it; and if he had +never seen her so soundless he had never, on the other hand, felt her +so highly, so almost austerely, herself: pure and by the vulgar +estimate "cold," but deep devoted delicate sensitive noble. Her +vividness in these respects became for him, in the special conditions, +almost an obsession; and though the obsession sharpened his pulses, +adding really to the excitement of life, there were hours at which, to +be less on the stretch, he directly sought forgetfulness. He knew it +for the queerest of adventures--a circumstance capable of playing such +a part only for Lambert Strether--that in Paris itself, of all places, +he should find this ghost of the lady of Woollett more importunate than +any other presence. + +When he went back to Maria Gostrey it was for the change to something +else. And yet after all the change scarcely operated for he talked to +her of Mrs. Newsome in these days as he had never talked before. He +had hitherto observed in that particular a discretion and a law; +considerations that at present broke down quite as if relations had +altered. They hadn't REALLY altered, he said to himself, so much as +that came to; for if what had occurred was of course that Mrs. Newsome +had ceased to trust him, there was nothing on the other hand to prove +that he shouldn't win back her confidence. It was quite his present +theory that he would leave no stone unturned to do so; and in fact if +he now told Maria things about her that he had never told before this +was largely because it kept before him the idea of the honour of such a +woman's esteem. His relation with Maria as well was, strangely enough, +no longer quite the same; this truth--though not too +disconcertingly--had come up between them on the renewal of their +meetings. It was all contained in what she had then almost immediately +said to him; it was represented by the remark she had needed but ten +minutes to make and that he hadn't been disposed to gainsay. He could +toddle alone, and the difference that showed was extraordinary. The +turn taken by their talk had promptly confirmed this difference; his +larger confidence on the score of Mrs. Newsome did the rest; and the +time seemed already far off when he had held out his small thirsty cup +to the spout of her pail. Her pail was scarce touched now, and other +fountains had flowed for him; she fell into her place as but one of his +tributaries; and there was a strange sweetness--a melancholy mildness +that touched him--in her acceptance of the altered order. + +It marked for himself the flight of time, or at any rate what he was +pleased to think of with irony and pity as the rush of experience; it +having been but the day before yesterday that he sat at her feet and +held on by her garment and was fed by her hand. It was the proportions +that were changed, and the proportions were at all times, he +philosophised, the very conditions of perception, the terms of thought. +It was as if, with her effective little entresol and and her wide +acquaintance, her activities, varieties, promiscuities, the duties and +devotions that took up nine tenths of her time and of which he got, +guardedly, but the side-wind--it was as if she had shrunk to a +secondary element and had consented to the shrinkage with the +perfection of tact. This perfection had never failed her; it had +originally been greater than his prime measure for it; it had kept him +quite apart, kept him out of the shop, as she called her huge general +acquaintance, made their commerce as quiet, as much a thing of the home +alone--the opposite of the shop--as if she had never another customer. +She had been wonderful to him at first, with the memory of her little +entresol, the image to which, on most mornings at that time, his eyes +directly opened; but now she mainly figured for him as but part of the +bristling total--though of course always as a person to whom he should +never cease to be indebted. It would never be given to him certainly +to inspire a greater kindness. She had decked him out for others, and +he saw at this point at least nothing she would ever ask for. She only +wondered and questioned and listened, rendering him the homage of a +wistful speculation. She expressed it repeatedly; he was already far +beyond her, and she must prepare herself to lose him. There was but +one little chance for her. + +Often as she had said it he met it--for it was a touch he liked--each +time the same way. "My coming to grief?" + +"Yes--then I might patch you up." + +"Oh for my real smash, if it takes place, there will be no patching." + +"But you surely don't mean it will kill you." + +"No--worse. It will make me old." + +"Ah nothing can do that! The wonderful and special thing about you is +that you ARE, at this time of day, youth." Then she always made, +further, one of those remarks that she had completely ceased to adorn +with hesitations or apologies, and that had, by the same token, in +spite of their extreme straightness, ceased to produce in Strether the +least embarrassment. She made him believe them, and they became +thereby as impersonal as truth itself. "It's just your particular +charm." + +His answer too was always the same. "Of course I'm youth--youth for +the trip to Europe. I began to be young, or at least to get the +benefit of it, the moment I met you at Chester, and that's what has +been taking place ever since. I never had the benefit at the proper +time--which comes to saying that I never had the thing itself. I'm +having the benefit at this moment; I had it the other day when I said +to Chad 'Wait'; I shall have it still again when Sarah Pocock arrives. +It's a benefit that would make a poor show for many people; and I don't +know who else but you and I, frankly, could begin to see in it what I +feel. I don't get drunk; I don't pursue the ladies; I don't spend +money; I don't even write sonnets. But nevertheless I'm making up late +for what I didn't have early. I cultivate my little benefit in my own +little way. It amuses me more than anything that has happened to me in +all my life. They may say what they like--it's my surrender, it's my +tribute, to youth. One puts that in where one can--it has to come in +somewhere, if only out of the lives, the conditions, the feelings of +other persons. Chad gives me the sense of it, for all his grey hairs, +which merely make it solid in him and safe and serene; and SHE does the +same, for all her being older than he, for all her marriageable +daughter, her separated husband, her agitated history. Though they're +young enough, my pair, I don't say they're, in the freshest way, their +own absolutely prime adolescence; for that has nothing to do with it. +The point is that they're mine. Yes, they're my youth; since somehow +at the right time nothing else ever was. What I meant just now +therefore is that it would all go--go before doing its work--if they +were to fail me." + +On which, just here, Miss Gostrey inveterately questioned. "What do +you, in particular, call its work?" + +"Well, to see me through." + +"But through what?"--she liked to get it all out of him. + +"Why through this experience." That was all that would come. + +It regularly gave her none the less the last word. "Don't you remember +how in those first days of our meeting it was I who was to see you +through?" + +"Remember? Tenderly, deeply"--he always rose to it. "You're just +doing your part in letting me maunder to you thus." + +"Ah don't speak as if my part were small; since whatever else fails +you--" + +"YOU won't, ever, ever, ever?"--he thus took her up. "Oh I beg your +pardon; you necessarily, you inevitably WILL. Your conditions--that's +what I mean--won't allow me anything to do for you." + +"Let alone--I see what you mean--that I'm drearily dreadfully old. I +AM, but there's a service--possible for you to render--that I know, all +the same, I shall think of." + +"And what will it be?" + +This, in fine, however, she would never tell him. "You shall hear only +if your smash takes place. As that's really out of the question, I +won't expose myself"--a point at which, for reasons of his own, +Strether ceased to press. + +He came round, for publicity--it was the easiest thing--to the idea +that his smash WAS out of the question, and this rendered idle the +discussion of what might follow it. He attached an added importance, +as the days elapsed, to the arrival of the Pococks; he had even a +shameful sense of waiting for it insincerely and incorrectly. He +accused himself of making believe to his own mind that Sarah's +presence, her impression, her judgement would simplify and harmonise, +he accused himself of being so afraid of what they MIGHT do that he +sought refuge, to beg the whole question, in a vain fury. He had +abundantly seen at home what they were in the habit of doing, and he +had not at present the smallest ground. His clearest vision was when +he made out that what he most desired was an account more full and free +of Mrs. Newsome's state of mind than any he felt he could now expect +from herself; that calculation at least went hand in hand with the +sharp consciousness of wishing to prove to himself that he was not +afraid to look his behaviour in the face. If he was by an inexorable +logic to pay for it he was literally impatient to know the cost, and he +held himself ready to pay in instalments. The first instalment would +be precisely this entertainment of Sarah; as a consequence of which +moreover, he should know vastly better how he stood. + + + + + +Book Eighth + + + + +I + + +Strether rambled alone during these few days, the effect of the +incident of the previous week having been to simplify in a marked +fashion his mixed relations with Waymarsh. Nothing had passed between +them in reference to Mrs. Newsome's summons but that our friend had +mentioned to his own the departure of the deputation actually at +sea--giving him thus an opportunity to confess to the occult +intervention he imputed to him. Waymarsh however in the event +confessed to nothing; and though this falsified in some degree +Strether's forecast the latter amusedly saw in it the same depth of +good conscience out of which the dear man's impertinence had originally +sprung. He was patient with the dear man now and delighted to observe +how unmistakeably he had put on flesh; he felt his own holiday so +successfully large and free that he was full of allowances and +charities in respect to those cabined and confined' his instinct toward +a spirit so strapped down as Waymarsh's was to walk round it on tiptoe +for fear of waking it up to a sense of losses by this time +irretrievable. It was all very funny he knew, and but the difference, +as he often said to himself, of tweedledum and tweedledee--an +emancipation so purely comparative that it was like the advance of the +door-mat on the scraper; yet the present crisis was happily to profit +by it and the pilgrim from Milrose to know himself more than ever in +the right. + +Strether felt that when he heard of the approach of the Pococks the +impulse of pity quite sprang up in him beside the impulse of triumph. +That was exactly why Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes in which the +heat of justice was measured and shaded. He had looked very hard, as +if affectionately sorry for the friend--the friend of fifty-five--whose +frivolity had had thus to be recorded; becoming, however, but obscurely +sententious and leaving his companion to formulate a charge. It was in +this general attitude that he had of late altogether taken refuge; with +the drop of discussion they were solemnly sadly superficial; Strether +recognised in him the mere portentous rumination to which Miss Barrace +had so good-humouredly described herself as assigning a corner of her +salon. It was quite as if he knew his surreptitious step had been +divined, and it was also as if he missed the chance to explain the +purity of his motive; but this privation of relief should be precisely +his small penance: it was not amiss for Strether that he should find +himself to that degree uneasy. If he had been challenged or accused, +rebuked for meddling or otherwise pulled up, he would probably have +shown, on his own system, all the height of his consistency, all the +depth of his good faith. Explicit resentment of his course would have +made him take the floor, and the thump of his fist on the table would +have affirmed him as consciously incorruptible. Had what now really +prevailed with Strether been but a dread of that thump--a dread of +wincing a little painfully at what it might invidiously demonstrate? +However this might be, at any rate, one of the marks of the crisis was +a visible, a studied lapse, in Waymarsh, of betrayed concern. As if to +make up to his comrade for the stroke by which he had played providence +he now conspicuously ignored his movements, withdrew himself from the +pretension to share them, stiffened up his sensibility to neglect, and, +clasping his large empty hands and swinging his large restless foot, +clearly looked to another quarter for justice. + +This made for independence on Strether's part, and he had in truth at +no moment of his stay been so free to go and come. The early summer +brushed the picture over and blurred everything but the near; it made a +vast warm fragrant medium in which the elements floated together on the +best of terms, in which rewards were immediate and reckonings +postponed. Chad was out of town again, for the first time since his +visitor's first view of him; he had explained this necessity--without +detail, yet also without embarrassment, the circumstance was one of +those which, in the young man's life, testified to the variety of his +ties. Strether wasn't otherwise concerned with it than for its so +testifying--a pleasant multitudinous image in which he took comfort. He +took comfort, by the same stroke, in the swing of Chad's pendulum back +from that other swing, the sharp jerk towards Woollett, so stayed by +his own hand. He had the entertainment of thinking that if he had for +that moment stopped the clock it was to promote the next minute this +still livelier motion. He himself did what he hadn't done before; he +took two or three times whole days off--irrespective of others, of two +or three taken with Miss Gostrey, two or three taken with little +Bilham: he went to Chartres and cultivated, before the front of the +cathedral, a general easy beatitude; he went to Fontainebleau and +imagined himself on the way to Italy; he went to Rouen with a little +handbag and inordinately spent the night. + +One afternoon he did something quite different; finding himself in the +neighbourhood of a fine old house across the river, he passed under the +great arch of its doorway and asked at the porter's lodge for Madame de +Vionnet. He had already hovered more than once about that possibility, +been aware of it, in the course of ostensible strolls, as lurking but +round the corner. Only it had perversely happened, after his morning +at Notre Dame, that his consistency, as he considered and intended it, +had come back to him; whereby he had reflected that the encounter in +question had been none of his making; clinging again intensely to the +strength of his position, which was precisely that there was nothing in +it for himself. From the moment he actively pursued the charming +associate of his adventure, from that moment his position weakened, for +he was then acting in an interested way. It was only within a few days +that he had fixed himself a limit: he promised himself his consistency +should end with Sarah's arrival. It was arguing correctly to feel the +title to a free hand conferred on him by this event. If he wasn't to +be let alone he should be merely a dupe to act with delicacy. If he +wasn't to be trusted he could at least take his ease. If he was to be +placed under control he gained leave to try what his position MIGHT +agreeably give him. An ideal rigour would perhaps postpone the trial +till after the Pococks had shown their spirit; and it was to an ideal +rigour that he had quite promised himself to conform. + +Suddenly, however, on this particular day, he felt a particular fear +under which everything collapsed. He knew abruptly that he was afraid +of himself--and yet not in relation to the effect on his sensibilities +of another hour of Madame de Vionnet. What he dreaded was the effect +of a single hour of Sarah Pocock, as to whom he was visited, in +troubled nights, with fantastic waking dreams. She loomed at him +larger than life; she increased in volume as she drew nearer; she so +met his eyes that, his imagination taking, after the first step, all, +and more than all, the strides, he already felt her come down on him, +already burned, under her reprobation, with the blush of guilt, already +consented, by way of penance, to the instant forfeiture of everything. +He saw himself, under her direction, recommitted to Woollett as +juvenile offenders are committed to reformatories. It wasn't of course +that Woollett was really a place of discipline; but he knew in advance +that Sarah's salon at the hotel would be. His danger, at any rate, in +such moods of alarm, was some concession, on this ground, that would +involve a sharp rupture with the actual; therefore if he waited to take +leave of that actual he might wholly miss his chance. It was +represented with supreme vividness by Madame de Vionnet, and that is +why, in a word, he waited no longer. He had seen in a flash that he +must anticipate Mrs. Pocock. He was accordingly much disappointed on +now learning from the portress that the lady of his quest was not in +Paris. She had gone for some days to the country. There was nothing +in this accident but what was natural; yet it produced for poor +Strether a drop of all confidence. It was suddenly as if he should +never see her again, and as if moreover he had brought it on himself by +not having been quite kind to her. + +It was the advantage of his having let his fancy lose itself for a +little in the gloom that, as by reaction, the prospect began really to +brighten from the moment the deputation from Woollett alighted on the +platform of the station. They had come straight from Havre, having +sailed from New York to that port, and having also, thanks to a happy +voyage, made land with a promptitude that left Chad Newsome, who had +meant to meet them at the dock, belated. He had received their +telegram, with the announcement of their immediate further advance, +just as he was taking the train for Havre, so that nothing had remained +for him but to await them in Paris. He hastily picked up Strether, at +the hotel, for this purpose, and he even, with easy pleasantry, +suggested the attendance of Waymarsh as well--Waymarsh, at the moment +his cab rattled up, being engaged, under Strether's contemplative +range, in a grave perambulation of the familiar court. Waymarsh had +learned from his companion, who had already had a note, delivered by +hand, from Chad, that the Pococks were due, and had ambiguously, +though, as always, impressively, glowered at him over the circumstance; +carrying himself in a manner in which Strether was now expert enough to +recognise his uncertainty, in the premises, as to the best tone. The +only tone he aimed at with confidence was a full tone--which was +necessarily difficult in the absence of a full knowledge. The Pococks +were a quantity as yet unmeasured, and, as he had practically brought +them over, so this witness had to that extent exposed himself. He +wanted to feel right about it, but could only, at the best, for the +time, feel vague. "I shall look to you, you know, immensely," our +friend had said, "to help me with them," and he had been quite +conscious of the effect of the remark, and of others of the same sort, +on his comrade's sombre sensibility. He had insisted on the fact that +Waymarsh would quite like Mrs. Pocock--one could be certain he would: +he would be with her about everything, and she would also be with HIM, +and Miss Barrace's nose, in short, would find itself out of joint. + +Strether had woven this web of cheerfulness while they waited in the +court for Chad; he had sat smoking cigarettes to keep himself quiet +while, caged and leonine, his fellow traveller paced and turned before +him. Chad Newsome was doubtless to be struck, when he arrived, with +the sharpness of their opposition at this particular hour; he was to +remember, as a part of it, how Waymarsh came with him and with Strether +to the street and stood there with a face half-wistful and half-rueful. +They talked of him, the two others, as they drove, and Strether put +Chad in possession of much of his own strained sense of things. He had +already, a few days before, named to him the wire he was convinced +their friend had pulled--a confidence that had made on the young man's +part quite hugely for curiosity and diversion. The action of the +matter, moreover, Strether could see, was to penetrate; he saw that is, +how Chad judged a system of influence in which Waymarsh had served as a +determinant--an impression just now quickened again; with the whole +bearing of such a fact on the youth's view of his relatives. As it +came up between them that they might now take their friend for a +feature of the control of these latter now sought to be exerted from +Woollett, Strether felt indeed how it would be stamped all over him, +half an hour later for Sarah Pocock's eyes, that he was as much on +Chad's "side" as Waymarsh had probably described him. He was letting +himself at present, go; there was no denying it; it might be +desperation, it might be confidence; he should offer himself to the +arriving travellers bristling with all the lucidity he had cultivated. + +He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in the court to Waymarsh; +how there was no doubt whatever that his sister would find the latter a +kindred spirit, no doubt of the alliance, based on an exchange of +views, that the pair would successfully strike up. They would become +as thick as thieves--which moreover was but a development of what +Strether remembered to have said in one of his first discussions with +his mate, struck as he had then already been with the elements of +affinity between that personage and Mrs. Newsome herself. "I told him, +one day, when he had questioned me on your mother, that she was a +person who, when he should know her, would rouse in him, I was sure, a +special enthusiasm; and that hangs together with the conviction we now +feel--this certitude that Mrs. Pocock will take him into her boat. For +it's your mother's own boat that she's pulling." + +"Ah," said Chad, "Mother's worth fifty of Sally!" + +"A thousand; but when you presently meet her, all the same you'll be +meeting your mother's representative--just as I shall. I feel like the +outgoing ambassador," said Strether, "doing honour to his appointed +successor." A moment after speaking as he had just done he felt he had +inadvertently rather cheapened Mrs. Newsome to her son; an impression +audibly reflected, as at first seen, in Chad's prompt protest. He had +recently rather failed of apprehension of the young man's attitude and +temper--remaining principally conscious of how little worry, at the +worst, he wasted, and he studied him at this critical hour with renewed +interest. Chad had done exactly what he had promised him a fortnight +previous--had accepted without another question his plea for delay. He +was waiting cheerfully and handsomely, but also inscrutably and with a +slight increase perhaps of the hardness originally involved in his +acquired high polish. He was neither excited nor depressed; was easy +and acute and deliberate--unhurried unflurried unworried, only at most +a little less amused than usual. Strether felt him more than ever a +justification of the extraordinary process of which his own absurd +spirit had been the arena; he knew as their cab rolled along, knew as +he hadn't even yet known, that nothing else than what Chad had done and +had been would have led to his present showing. They had made him, +these things, what he was, and the business hadn't been easy; it had +taken time and trouble, it had cost, above all, a price. The result at +any rate was now to be offered to Sally; which Strether, so far as that +was concerned, was glad to be there to witness. Would she in the least +make it out or take it in, the result, or would she in the least care +for it if she did? He scratched his chin as he asked himself by what +name, when challenged--as he was sure he should be--he could call it +for her. Oh those were determinations she must herself arrive at; +since she wanted so much to see, let her see then and welcome. She had +come out in the pride of her competence, yet it hummed in Strether's +inner sense that she practically wouldn't see. + +That this was moreover what Chad shrewdly suspected was clear from a +word that next dropped from him. "They're children; they play at +life!"--and the exclamation was significant and reassuring. It implied +that he hadn't then, for his companion's sensibility, appeared to give +Mrs. Newsome away; and it facilitated our friend's presently asking him +if it were his idea that Mrs. Pocock and Madame de Vionnet should +become acquainted. Strether was still more sharply struck, hereupon, +with Chad's lucidity. "Why, isn't that exactly--to get a sight of the +company I keep--what she has come out for?" + +"Yes--I'm afraid it is," Strether unguardedly replied. + +Chad's quick rejoinder lighted his precipitation. "Why do you say +you're afraid?" + +"Well, because I feel a certain responsibility. It's my testimony, I +imagine, that will have been at the bottom of Mrs. Pocock's curiosity. +My letters, as I've supposed you to understand from the beginning, have +spoken freely. I've certainly said my little say about Madame de +Vionnet." + +All that, for Chad, was beautifully obvious. "Yes, but you've only +spoken handsomely." + +"Never more handsomely of any woman. But it's just that tone--!" + +"That tone," said Chad, "that has fetched her? I dare say; but I've no +quarrel with you about it. And no more has Madame de Vionnet. Don't +you know by this time how she likes you?" + +"Oh!"--and Strether had, with his groan, a real pang of melancholy. +"For all I've done for her!" + +"Ah you've done a great deal." + +Chad's urbanity fairly shamed him, and he was at this moment absolutely +impatient to see the face Sarah Pocock would present to a sort of +thing, as he synthetically phrased it to himself, with no adequate +forecast of which, despite his admonitions, she would certainly arrive. +"I've done THIS!" + +"Well, this is all right. She likes," Chad comfortably remarked, + "to be liked." + +It gave his companion a moment's thought. "And she's sure Mrs. Pocock +WILL--?" + +"No, I say that for you. She likes your liking her; it's so much, as +it were," Chad laughed, "to the good. However, she doesn't despair of +Sarah either, and is prepared, on her own side, to go all lengths." + +"In the way of appreciation?" + +"Yes, and of everything else. In the way of general amiability, +hospitality and welcome. She's under arms," Chad laughed again; "she's +prepared." + +Strether took it in; then as if an echo of Miss Barrace were in the +air: "She's wonderful." + +"You don't begin to know HOW wonderful!" + +There was a depth in it, to Strether's ear, of confirmed luxury--almost +a kind of unconscious insolence of proprietorship; but the effect of +the glimpse was not at this moment to foster speculation: there was +something so conclusive in so much graceful and generous assurance. It +was in fact a fresh evocation; and the evocation had before many +minutes another consequence. "Well, I shall see her oftener now. I +shall see her as much as I like--by your leave; which is what I +hitherto haven't done." + +"It has been," said Chad, but without reproach, "only your own fault. I +tried to bring you together, and SHE, my dear fellow--I never saw her +more charming to any man. But you've got your extraordinary ideas." + +"Well, I DID have," Strether murmured, while he felt both how they had +possessed him and how they had now lost their authority. He couldn't +have traced the sequence to the end, but it was all because of Mrs. +Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be because of Mrs. Newsome, but that was +still to be proved. What came over him was the sense of having +stupidly failed to profit where profit would have been precious. It +had been open to him to see so much more of her, and he had but let the +good days pass. Fierce in him almost was the resolve to lose no more +of them, and he whimsically reflected, while at Chad's side he drew +nearer to his destination, that it was after all Sarah who would have +quickened his chance. What her visit of inquisition might achieve in +other directions was as yet all obscure--only not obscure that it would +do supremely much to bring two earnest persons together. He had but to +listen to Chad at this moment to feel it; for Chad was in the act of +remarking to him that they of course both counted on him--he himself +and the other earnest person--for cheer and support. It was brave to +Strether to hear him talk as if the line of wisdom they had struck out +was to make things ravishing to the Pococks. No, if Madame de Vionnet +compassed THAT, compassed the ravishment of the Pococks, Madame de +Vionnet would be prodigious. It would be a beautiful plan if it +succeeded, and it all came to the question of Sarah's being really +bribeable. The precedent of his own case helped Strether perhaps but +little to consider she might prove so; it being distinct that her +character would rather make for every possible difference. This idea +of his own bribeability set him apart for himself; with the further +mark in fact that his case was absolutely proved. He liked always, +where Lambert Strether was concerned, to know the worst, and what he +now seemed to know was not only that he was bribeable, but that he had +been effectually bribed. The only difficulty was that he couldn't +quite have said with what. It was as if he had sold himself, but +hadn't somehow got the cash. That, however, was what, +characteristically, WOULD happen to him. It would naturally be his +kind of traffic. While he thought of these things he reminded Chad of +the truth they mustn't lose sight of--the truth that, with all +deference to her susceptibility to new interests, Sarah would have come +out with a high firm definite purpose. "She hasn't come out, you know, +to be bamboozled. We may all be ravishing--nothing perhaps can be more +easy for us; but she hasn't come out to be ravished. She has come out +just simply to take you home." + +"Oh well, with HER I'll go," said Chad good-humouredly. "I suppose +you'll allow THAT." And then as for a minute Strether said nothing: +"Or is your idea that when I've seen her I shan't want to go?" As this +question, however, again left his friend silent he presently went on: +"My own idea at any rate is that they shall have while they're here the +best sort of time." + +It was at this that Strether spoke. "Ah there you are! I think if you +really wanted to go--!" + +"Well?" said Chad to bring it out. + +"Well, you wouldn't trouble about our good time. You wouldn't care +what sort of a time we have." + +Chad could always take in the easiest way in the world any ingenious +suggestion. "I see. But can I help it? I'm too decent." + +"Yes, you're too decent!" Strether heavily sighed. And he felt for the +moment as if it were the preposterous end of his mission. + +It ministered for the time to this temporary effect that Chad made no +rejoinder. But he spoke again as they came in sight of the station. +"Do you mean to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?" + +As to this Strether was ready. "No." + +"But haven't you told me they know about her?" + +"I think I've told you your mother knows." + +"And won't she have told Sally?" + +"That's one of the things I want to see." + +"And if you find she HAS--?" + +"Will I then, you mean, bring them together?" + +"Yes," said Chad with his pleasant promptness: "to show her there's +nothing in it." + +Strether hesitated. "I don't know that I care very much what she may +think there's in it." + +"Not if it represents what Mother thinks?" + +"Ah what DOES your mother think?" There was in this some sound of +bewilderment. + +But they were just driving up, and help, of a sort, might after all be +quite at hand. "Isn't that, my dear man, what we're both just going to +make out?" + + + +II + + +Strether quitted the station half an hour later in different company. +Chad had taken charge, for the journey to the hotel, of Sarah, Mamie, +the maid and the luggage, all spaciously installed and conveyed; and it +was only after the four had rolled away that his companion got into a +cab with Jim. A strange new feeling had come over Strether, in +consequence of which his spirits had risen; it was as if what had +occurred on the alighting of his critics had been something other than +his fear, though his fear had vet not been of an instant scene of +violence. His impression had been nothing but what was inevitable--he +said that to himself; yet relief and reassurance had softly dropped +upon him. Nothing could be so odd as to be indebted for these things +to the look of faces and the sound of voices that had been with him to +satiety, as he might have said, for years; but he now knew, all the +same, how uneasy he had felt; that was brought home to him by his +present sense of a respite. It had come moreover in the flash of an +eye, it had come in the smile with which Sarah, whom, at the window of +her compartment, they had effusively greeted from the platform, rustled +down to them a moment later, fresh and handsome from her cool June +progress through the charming land. It was only a sign, but enough: +she was going to be gracious and unallusive, she was going to play the +larger game--which was still more apparent, after she had emerged from +Chad's arms, in her direct greeting to the valued friend of her family. + +Strether WAS then as much as ever the valued friend of her family, it +was something he could at all events go on with; and the manner of his +response to it expressed even for himself how little he had enjoyed the +prospect of ceasing to figure in that likeness. He had always seen +Sarah gracious--had in fact rarely seen her shy or dry, her marked +thin-lipped smile, intense without brightness and as prompt to act as +the scrape of a safety-match; the protrusion of her rather remarkably +long chin, which in her case represented invitation and urbanity, and +not, as in most others, pugnacity and defiance; the penetration of her +voice to a distance, the general encouragement and approval of her +manner, were all elements with which intercourse had made him familiar, +but which he noted today almost as if she had been a new acquaintance. +This first glimpse of her had given a brief but vivid accent to her +resemblance to her mother; he could have taken her for Mrs. Newsome +while she met his eyes as the train rolled into the station. It was an +impression that quickly dropped; Mrs. Newsome was much handsomer, and +while Sarah inclined to the massive her mother had, at an age, still +the girdle of a maid; also the latter's chin was rather short, than +long, and her smile, by good fortune, much more, oh ever so much more, +mercifully vague. Strether had seen Mrs. Newsome reserved; he had +literally heard her silent, though he had never known her unpleasant. +It was the case with Mrs. Pocock that he had known HER unpleasant, even +though he had never known her not affable. She had forms of affability +that were in a high degree assertive; nothing for instance had ever +been more striking than that she was affable to Jim. + +What had told in any case at the window of the train was her high clear +forehead, that forehead which her friends, for some reason, always +thought of as a "brow"; the long reach of her eyes--it came out at this +juncture in such a manner as to remind him, oddly enough, also of that +of Waymarsh's; and the unusual gloss of her dark hair, dressed and +hatted, after her mother's refined example, with such an avoidance of +extremes that it was always spoken of at Woollett as "their own." +Though this analogy dropped as soon as she was on the platform it had +lasted long enough to make him feel all the advantage, as it were, of +his relief. The woman at home, the woman to whom he was attached, was +before him just long enough to give him again the measure of the +wretchedness, in fact really of the shame, of their having to recognise +the formation, between them, of a "split." He had taken this measure +in solitude and meditation: but the catastrophe, as Sarah steamed up, +looked for its seconds unprecedentedly dreadful--or proved, more +exactly, altogether unthinkable; so that his finding something free and +familiar to respond to brought with it an instant renewal of his +loyalty. He had suddenly sounded the whole depth, had gasped at what +he might have lost. + +Well, he could now, for the quarter of an hour of their detention hover +about the travellers as soothingly as if their direct message to him +was that he had lost nothing. He wasn't going to have Sarah write to +her mother that night that he was in any way altered or strange. There +had been times enough for a month when it had seemed to him that he was +strange, that he was altered, in every way; but that was a matter for +himself; he knew at least whose business it was not; it was not at all +events such a circumstance as Sarah's own unaided lights would help her +to. Even if she had come out to flash those lights more than yet +appeared she wouldn't make much headway against mere pleasantness. He +counted on being able to be merely pleasant to the end, and if only +from incapacity moreover to formulate anything different. He couldn't +even formulate to himself his being changed and queer; it had taken +place, the process, somewhere deep down; Maria Gostrey had caught +glimpses of it; but how was he to fish it up, even if he desired, for +Mrs. Pocock? This was then the spirit in which he hovered, and with +the easier throb in it much indebted furthermore to the impression of +high and established adequacy as a pretty girl promptly produced in him +by Mamie. He had wondered vaguely--turning over many things in the +fidget of his thoughts--if Mamie WERE as pretty as Woollett published +her; as to which issue seeing her now again was to be so swept away by +Woollett's opinion that this consequence really let loose for the +imagination an avalanche of others. There were positively five minutes +in which the last word seemed of necessity to abide with a Woollett +represented by a Mamie. This was the sort of truth the place itself +would feel; it would send her forth in confidence; it would point to +her with triumph; it would take its stand on her with assurance; it +would be conscious of no requirements she didn't meet, of no question +she couldn't answer. + +Well, it was right, Strether slipped smoothly enough into the +cheerfulness of saying: granted that a community MIGHT be best +represented by a young lady of twenty-two, Mamie perfectly played the +part, played it as if she were used to it, and looked and spoke and +dressed the character. He wondered if she mightn't, in the high light +of Paris, a cool full studio-light, becoming yet treacherous, show as +too conscious of these matters; but the next moment he felt satisfied +that her consciousness was after all empty for its size, rather too +simple than too mixed, and that the kind way with her would be not to +take many things out of it, but to put as many as possible in. She was +robust and conveniently tall; just a trifle too bloodlessly fair +perhaps, but with a pleasant public familiar radiance that affirmed her +vitality. She might have been "receiving" for Woollett, wherever she +found herself, and there was something in her manner, her tone, her +motion, her pretty blue eyes, her pretty perfect teeth and her very +small, too small, nose, that immediately placed her, to the fancy, +between the windows of a hot bright room in which voices were high--up +at that end to which people were brought to be "presented." They were +there to congratulate, these images, and Strether's renewed vision, on +this hint, completed the idea. What Mamie was like was the happy +bride, the bride after the church and just before going away. She +wasn't the mere maiden, and yet was only as much married as that +quantity came to. She was in the brilliant acclaimed festal stage. +Well, might it last her long! + +Strether rejoiced in these things for Chad, who was all genial +attention to the needs of his friends, besides having arranged that his +servant should reinforce him; the ladies were certainly pleasant to +see, and Mamie would be at any time and anywhere pleasant to exhibit. +She would look extraordinarily like his young wife--the wife of a +honeymoon, should he go about with her; but that was his own affair--or +perhaps it was hers; it was at any rate something she couldn't help. +Strether remembered how he had seen him come up with Jeanne de Vionnet +in Gloriani's garden, and the fancy he had had about that--the fancy +obscured now, thickly overlaid with others; the recollection was during +these minutes his only note of trouble. He had often, in spite of +himself, wondered if Chad but too probably were not with Jeanne the +object of a still and shaded flame. It was on the cards that the child +MIGHT be tremulously in love, and this conviction now flickered up not +a bit the less for his disliking to think of it, for its being, in a +complicated situation, a complication the more, and for something +indescribable in Mamie, something at all events straightway lent her by +his own mind, something that gave her value, gave her intensity and +purpose, as the symbol of an opposition. Little Jeanne wasn't really +at all in question--how COULD she be?--yet from the moment Miss Pocock +had shaken her skirts on the platform, touched up the immense bows of +her hat and settled properly over her shoulder the strap of her +morocco-and-gilt travelling-satchel, from that moment little Jeanne was +opposed. + +It was in the cab with Jim that impressions really crowded on Strether, +giving him the strangest sense of length of absence from people among +whom he had lived for years. Having them thus come out to him was as +if he had returned to find them: and the droll promptitude of Jim's +mental reaction threw his own initiation far back into the past. +Whoever might or mightn't be suited by what was going on among them, +Jim, for one, would certainly be: his instant recognition--frank and +whimsical--of what the affair was for HIM gave Strether a glow of +pleasure. "I say, you know, this IS about my shape, and if it hadn't +been for YOU--!" so he broke out as the charming streets met his +healthy appetite; and he wound up, after an expressive nudge, with a +clap of his companion's knee and an "Oh you, you--you ARE doing it!" +that was charged with rich meaning. Strether felt in it the intention +of homage, but, with a curiosity otherwise occupied, postponed taking +it up. What he was asking himself for the time was how Sarah Pocock, +in the opportunity already given her, had judged her brother--from whom +he himself, as they finally, at the station, separated for their +different conveyances, had had a look into which he could read more +than one message. However Sarah was judging her brother, Chad's +conclusion about his sister, and about her husband and her husband's +sister, was at the least on the way not to fail of confidence. Strether +felt the confidence, and that, as the look between them was an +exchange, what he himself gave back was relatively vague. This +comparison of notes however could wait; everything struck him as +depending on the effect produced by Chad. Neither Sarah nor Mamie had +in any way, at the station--where they had had after all ample +time--broken out about it; which, to make up for this, was what our +friend had expected of Jim as soon as they should find themselves +together. + +It was queer to him that he had that noiseless brush with Chad; an +ironic intelligence with this youth on the subject of his relatives, an +intelligence carried on under their nose and, as might be said, at +their expense--such a matter marked again for him strongly the number +of stages he had come; albeit that if the number seemed great the time +taken for the final one was but the turn of a hand. He had before this +had many moments of wondering if he himself weren't perhaps changed +even as Chad was changed. Only what in Chad was conspicuous +improvement--well, he had no name ready for the working, in his own +organism, of his own more timid dose. He should have to see first what +this action would amount to. And for his occult passage with the young +man, after all, the directness of it had no greater oddity than the +fact that the young man's way with the three travellers should have +been so happy a manifestation. Strether liked him for it, on the spot, +as he hadn't yet liked him; it affected him while it lasted as he might +have been affected by some light pleasant perfect work of art: to that +degree that he wondered if they were really worthy of it, took it in +and did it justice; to that degree that it would have been scarce a +miracle if, there in the luggage-room, while they waited for their +things, Sarah had pulled his sleeve and drawn him aside. "You're right; +we haven't quite known what you mean, Mother and I, but now we see. +Chad's magnificent; what can one want more? If THIS is the kind of +thing--!" On which they might, as it were, have embraced and begun to +work together. + +Ah how much, as it was, for all her bridling brightness--which was +merely general and noticed nothing--WOULD they work together? Strether +knew he was unreasonable; he set it down to his being nervous: people +couldn't notice everything and speak of everything in a quarter of an +hour. Possibly, no doubt, also, he made too much of Chad's display. +Yet, none the less, when, at the end of five minutes, in the cab, Jim +Pocock had said nothing either--hadn't said, that is, what Strether +wanted, though he had said much else--it all suddenly bounced back to +their being either stupid or wilful. It was more probably on the whole +the former; so that that would be the drawback of the bridling +brightness. Yes, they would bridle and be bright; they would make the +best of what was before them, but their observation would fail; it +would be beyond them; they simply wouldn't understand. Of what use +would it be then that they had come?--if they weren't to be intelligent +up to THAT point: unless indeed he himself were utterly deluded and +extravagant? Was he, on this question of Chad's improvement, fantastic +and away from the truth? Did he live in a false world, a world that +had grown simply to suit him, and was his present slight irritation--in +the face now of Jim's silence in particular--but the alarm of the vain +thing menaced by the touch of the real? Was this contribution of the +real possibly the mission of the Pococks?--had they come to make the +work of observation, as HE had practised observation, crack and +crumble, and to reduce Chad to the plain terms in which honest minds +could deal with him? Had they come in short to be sane where Strether +was destined to feel that he himself had only been silly? + +He glanced at such a contingency, but it failed to hold him long when +once he had reflected that he would have been silly, in this case, with +Maria Gostrey and little Bilham, with Madame de Vionnet and little +Jeanne, with Lambert Strether, in fine, and above all with Chad Newsome +himself. Wouldn't it be found to have made more for reality to be +silly with these persons than sane with Sarah and Jim? Jim in fact, he +presently made up his mind, was individually out of it; Jim didn't +care; Jim hadn't come out either for Chad or for him; Jim in short left +the moral side to Sally and indeed simply availed himself now, for the +sense of recreation, of the fact that he left almost everything to +Sally. He was nothing compared to Sally, and not so much by reason of +Sally's temper and will as by that of her more developed type and +greater acquaintance with the world. He quite frankly and serenely +confessed, as he sat there with Strether, that he felt his type hang +far in the rear of his wife's and still further, if possible, in the +rear of his sister's. Their types, he well knew, were recognised and +acclaimed; whereas the most a leading Woollett business-man could hope +to achieve socially, and for that matter industrially, was a certain +freedom to play into this general glamour. + +The impression he made on our friend was another of the things that +marked our friend's road. It was a strange impression, especially as +so soon produced; Strether had received it, he judged, all in the +twenty minutes; it struck him at least as but in a minor degree the +work of the long Woollett years. Pocock was normally and consentingly +though not quite wittingly out of the question. It was despite his +being normal; it was despite his being cheerful; it was despite his +being a leading Woollett business-man; and the determination of his +fate left him thus perfectly usual--as everything else about it was +clearly, to his sense, not less so. He seemed to say that there was a +whole side of life on which the perfectly usual WAS for leading +Woollett business-men to be out of the question. He made no more of it +than that, and Strether, so far as Jim was concerned, desired to make +no more. Only Strether's imagination, as always, worked, and he asked +himself if this side of life were not somehow connected, for those who +figured on it with the fact of marriage. Would HIS relation to it, had +he married ten years before, have become now the same as Pocock's? +Might it even become the same should he marry in a few months? Should +he ever know himself as much out of the question for Mrs. Newsome as +Jim knew himself--in a dim way--for Mrs. Jim? + +To turn his eyes in that direction was to be personally reassured; he +was different from Pocock; he had affirmed himself differently and was +held after all in higher esteem. What none the less came home to him, +however, at this hour, was that the society over there, that of which +Sarah and Mamie--and, in a more eminent way, Mrs. Newsome herself--were +specimens, was essentially a society of women, and that poor Jim wasn't +in it. He himself Lambert Strether, WAS as yet in some degree--which +was an odd situation for a man; but it kept coming back to him in a +whimsical way that he should perhaps find his marriage had cost him his +place. This occasion indeed, whatever that fancy represented, was not +a time of sensible exclusion for Jim, who was in a state of manifest +response to the charm of his adventure. Small and fat and constantly +facetious, straw-coloured and destitute of marks, he would have been +practically indistinguishable hadn't his constant preference for +light-grey clothes, for white hats, for very big cigars and very little +stories, done what it could for his identity. There were signs in him, +though none of them plaintive, of always paying for others; and the +principal one perhaps was just this failure of type. It was with this +that he paid, rather than with fatigue or waste; and also doubtless a +little with the effort of humour--never irrelevant to the conditions, +to the relations, with which he was acquainted. + +He gurgled his joy as they rolled through the happy streets; he +declared that his trip was a regular windfall, and that he wasn't +there, he was eager to remark, to hang back from anything: he didn't +know quite what Sally had come for, but HE had come for a good time. +Strether indulged him even while wondering if what Sally wanted her +brother to go back for was to become like her husband. He trusted that +a good time was to be, out and out, the programme for all of them; and +he assented liberally to Jim's proposal that, disencumbered and +irresponsible--his things were in the omnibus with those of the +others--they should take a further turn round before going to the +hotel. It wasn't for HIM to tackle Chad--it was Sally's job; and as it +would be like her, he felt, to open fire on the spot, it wouldn't be +amiss of them to hold off and give her time. Strether, on his side, +only asked to give her time; so he jogged with his companion along +boulevards and avenues, trying to extract from meagre material some +forecast of his catastrophe. He was quick enough to see that Jim +Pocock declined judgement, had hovered quite round the outer edge of +discussion and anxiety, leaving all analysis of their question to the +ladies alone and now only feeling his way toward some small droll +cynicism. It broke out afresh, the cynicism--it had already shown a +flicker--in a but slightly deferred: "Well, hanged if I would if I +were he!" + +"You mean you wouldn't in Chad's place--?" + +"Give up this to go back and boss the advertising!" Poor Jim, with his +arms folded and his little legs out in the open fiacre, drank in the +sparkling Paris noon and carried his eyes from one side of their vista +to the other. "Why I want to come right out and live here myself. And +I want to live while I AM here too. I feel with YOU--oh you've been +grand, old man, and I've twigged--that it ain't right to worry Chad. I +don't mean to persecute him; I couldn't in conscience. It's thanks to +you at any rate that I'm here, and I'm sure I'm much obliged. You're a +lovely pair." + +There were things in this speech that Strether let pass for the time. +"Don't you then think it important the advertising should be thoroughly +taken in hand? Chad WILL be, so far as capacity is concerned," he went +on, "the man to do it." + +"Where did he get his capacity," Jim asked, "over here?" + +"He didn't get it over here, and the wonderful thing is that over here +he hasn't inevitably lost it. He has a natural turn for business, an +extraordinary head. He comes by that," Strether explained, "honestly +enough. He's in that respect his father's son, and also--for she's +wonderful in her way too--his mother's. He has other tastes and other +tendencies; but Mrs. Newsome and your wife are quite right about his +having that. He's very remarkable." + +"Well, I guess he is!" Jim Pocock comfortably sighed. "But if you've +believed so in his making us hum, why have you so prolonged the +discussion? Don't you know we've been quite anxious about you?" + +These questions were not informed with earnestness, but Strether saw he +must none the less make a choice and take a line. "Because, you see, +I've greatly liked it. I've liked my Paris, I dare say I've liked it +too much." + +"Oh you old wretch!" Jim gaily exclaimed. + +"But nothing's concluded," Strether went on. "The case is more complex +than it looks from Woollett." + +"Oh well, it looks bad enough from Woollett!" Jim declared. + +"Even after all I've written?" + +Jim bethought himself. "Isn't it what you've written that has made +Mrs. Newsome pack us off? That at least and Chad's not turning up?" + +Strether made a reflexion of his own. "I see. That she should do +something was, no doubt, inevitable, and your wife has therefore of +course come out to act." + +"Oh yes," Jim concurred--"to act. But Sally comes out to act, you +know," he lucidly added, "every time she leaves the house. She never +comes out but she DOES act. She's acting moreover now for her mother, +and that fixes the scale." Then he wound up, opening all his senses to +it, with a renewed embrace of pleasant Paris. "We haven't all the same +at Woollett got anything like this." + +Strether continued to consider. "I'm bound to say for you all that you +strike me as having arrived in a very mild and reasonable frame of +mind. You don't show your claws. I felt just now in Mrs. Pocock no +symptom of that. She isn't fierce," he went on. "I'm such a nervous +idiot that I thought she might be." + +"Oh don't you know her well enough," Pocock asked, "to have noticed +that she never gives herself away, any more than her mother ever does? +They ain't fierce, either of 'em; they let you come quite close. They +wear their fur the smooth side out--the warm side in. Do you know what +they are?" Jim pursued as he looked about him, giving the question, as +Strether felt, but half his care--"do you know what they are? They're +about as intense as they can live." + +"Yes"--and Strether's concurrence had a positive precipitation; +"they're about as intense as they can live." + +"They don't lash about and shake the cage," said Jim, who seemed +pleased with his analogy; "and it's at feeding-time that they're +quietest. But they always get there." + +"They do indeed--they always get there!" Strether replied with a laugh +that justified his confession of nervousness. He disliked to be +talking sincerely of Mrs. Newsome with Pocock; he could have talked +insincerely. But there was something he wanted to know, a need created +in him by her recent intermission, by his having given from the first +so much, as now more than ever appeared to him, and got so little. It +was as if a queer truth in his companion's metaphor had rolled over him +with a rush. She HAD been quiet at feeding-time; she had fed, and +Sarah had fed with her, out of the big bowl of all his recent free +communication, his vividness and pleasantness, his ingenuity and even +his eloquence, while the current of her response had steadily run thin. +Jim meanwhile however, it was true, slipped characteristically into +shallowness from the moment he ceased to speak out of the experience of +a husband. + +"But of course Chad has now the advantage of being there before her. If +he doesn't work that for all it's worth--!" He sighed with contingent +pity at his brother-in-law's possible want of resource. "He has worked +it on YOU, pretty well, eh?" and he asked the next moment if there were +anything new at the Varieties, which he pronounced in the American +manner. They talked about the Varieties--Strether confessing to a +knowledge which produced again on Pocock's part a play of innuendo as +vague as a nursery-rhyme, yet as aggressive as an elbow in his side; +and they finished their drive under the protection of easy themes. +Strether waited to the end, but still in vain, for any show that Jim +had seen Chad as different; and he could scarce have explained the +discouragement he drew from the absence of this testimony. It was what +he had taken his own stand on, so far as he had taken a stand; and if +they were all only going to see nothing he had only wasted his time. He +gave his friend till the very last moment, till they had come into +sight of the hotel; and when poor Pocock only continued cheerful and +envious and funny he fairly grew to dislike him, to feel him +extravagantly common. If they were ALL going to see +nothing!--Strether knew, as this came back to him, that he was also +letting Pocock represent for him what Mrs. Newsome wouldn't see. He +went on disliking, in the light of Jim's commonness, to talk to him +about that lady; yet just before the cab pulled up he knew the extent +of his desire for the real word from Woollett. + +"Has Mrs. Newsome at all given way--?" + +"'Given way'?"--Jim echoed it with the practical derision of his sense +of a long past. + +"Under the strain, I mean, of hope deferred, of disappointment repeated +and thereby intensified." + +"Oh is she prostrate, you mean?"--he had his categories in hand. "Why +yes, she's prostrate--just as Sally is. But they're never so lively, +you know, as when they're prostrate." + +"Ah Sarah's prostrate?" Strether vaguely murmured. + +"It's when they're prostrate that they most sit up." + +"And Mrs. Newsome's sitting up?" + +"All night, my boy--for YOU!" And Jim fetched him, with a vulgar +little guffaw, a thrust that gave relief to the picture. But he had +got what he wanted. He felt on the spot that this WAS the real word +from Woollett. "So don't you go home!" Jim added while he alighted and +while his friend, letting him profusely pay the cabman, sat on in a +momentary muse. Strether wondered if that were the real word too. + + + +III + + +As the door of Mrs. Pocock's salon was pushed open for him, the next +day, well before noon, he was reached by a voice with a charming sound +that made him just falter before crossing the threshold. Madame de +Vionnet was already on the field, and this gave the drama a quicker +pace than he felt it as yet--though his suspense had increased--in the +power of any act of his own to do. He had spent the previous evening +with all his old friends together yet he would still have described +himself as quite in the dark in respect to a forecast of their +influence on his situation. It was strange now, none the less, that in +the light of this unexpected note of her presence he felt Madame de +Vionnet a part of that situation as she hadn't even yet been. She was +alone, he found himself assuming, with Sarah, and there was a bearing +in that--somehow beyond his control--on his personal fate. Yet she was +only saying something quite easy and independent--the thing she had +come, as a good friend of Chad's, on purpose to say. "There isn't +anything at all--? I should be so delighted." + +It was clear enough, when they were there before him, how she had been +received. He saw this, as Sarah got up to greet him, from something +fairly hectic in Sarah's face. He saw furthermore that they weren't, +as had first come to him, alone together; he was at no loss as to the +identity of the broad high back presented to him in the embrasure of +the window furthest from the door. Waymarsh, whom he had to-day not yet +seen, whom he only knew to have left the hotel before him, and who +had taken part, the night previous, on Mrs. Pocock's kind invitation, +conveyed by Chad, in the entertainment, informal but cordial, promptly +offered by that lady--Waymarsh had anticipated him even as Madame de +Vionnet had done, and, with his hands in his pockets and his attitude +unaffected by Strether's entrance, was looking out, in marked +detachment, at the Rue de Rivoli. The latter felt it in the air--it +was immense how Waymarsh could mark things---that he had remained +deeply dissociated from the overture to their hostess that we have +recorded on Madame de Vionnet's side. He had, conspicuously, tact, +besides a stiff general view; and this was why he had left Mrs. Pocock +to struggle alone. He would outstay the visitor; he would +unmistakeably wait; to what had he been doomed for months past but +waiting? Therefore she was to feel that she had him in reserve. What +support she drew from this was still to be seen, for, although Sarah +was vividly bright, she had given herself up for the moment to an +ambiguous flushed formalism. She had had to reckon more quickly than +she expected; but it concerned her first of all to signify that she was +not to be taken unawares. Strether arrived precisely in time for her +showing it. "Oh you're too good; but I don't think I feel quite +helpless. I have my brother--and these American friends. And then you +know I've been to Paris. I KNOW Paris," said Sally Pocock in a tone +that breathed a certain chill on Strether's heart. + +"Ah but a woman, in this tiresome place where everything's always +changing, a woman of good will," Madame de Vionnet threw off, "can +always help a woman. I'm sure you 'know'--but we know perhaps +different things." She too, visibly, wished to make no mistake; but it +was a fear of a different order and more kept out of sight. She smiled +in welcome at Strether; she greeted him more familiarly than Mrs. +Pocock; she put out her hand to him without moving from her place; and +it came to him in the course of a minute and in the oddest way +that--yes, positively--she was giving him over to ruin. She was all +kindness and ease, but she couldn't help so giving him; she was +exquisite, and her being just as she was poured for Sarah a sudden rush +of meaning into his own equivocations. How could she know how she was +hurting him? She wanted to show as simple and humble--in the degree +compatible with operative charm; but it was just this that seemed to +put him on her side. She struck him as dressed, as arranged, as +prepared infinitely to conciliate--with the very poetry of good taste +in her view of the conditions of her early call. She was ready to +advise about dressmakers and shops; she held herself wholly at the +disposition of Chad's family. Strether noticed her card on the +table--her coronet and her "Comtesse"--and the imagination was sharp in +him of certain private adjustments in Sarah's mind. She had never, he +was sure, sat with a "Comtesse" before, and such was the specimen of +that class he had been keeping to play on her. She had crossed the sea +very particularly for a look at her; but he read in Madame de Vionnet's +own eyes that this curiosity hadn't been so successfully met as that +she herself wouldn't now have more than ever need of him. She looked +much as she had looked to him that morning at Notre Dame; he noted in +fact the suggestive sameness of her discreet and delicate dress. It +seemed to speak--perhaps a little prematurely or too finely--of the +sense in which she would help Mrs. Pocock with the shops. The way that +lady took her in, moreover, added depth to his impression of what Miss +Gostrey, by their common wisdom, had escaped. He winced as he saw +himself but for that timely prudence ushering in Maria as a guide and +an example. There was however a touch of relief for him in his +glimpse, so far as he had got it, of Sarah's line. She "knew Paris." +Madame de Vionnet had, for that matter, lightly taken this up. "Ah +then you've a turn for that, an affinity that belongs to your family. +Your brother, though his long experience makes a difference, I admit, +has become one of us in a marvellous way." And she appealed to Strether +in the manner of a woman who could always glide off with smoothness +into another subject. Wasn't HE struck with the way Mr. Newsome had +made the place his own, and hadn't he been in a position to profit by +his friend's wondrous expertness? + +Strether felt the bravery, at the least, of her presenting herself so +promptly to sound that note, and yet asked himself what other note, +after all, she COULD strike from the moment she presented herself at +all. She could meet Mrs. Pocock only on the ground of the obvious, and +what feature of Chad's situation was more eminent than the fact that he +had created for himself a new set of circumstances? Unless she hid +herself altogether she could show but as one of these, an illustration +of his domiciled and indeed of his confirmed condition. And the +consciousness of all this in her charming eyes was so clear and fine +that as she thus publicly drew him into her boat she produced in him +such a silent agitation as he was not to fail afterwards to denounce as +pusillanimous. "Ah don't be so charming to me!--for it makes us +intimate, and after all what IS between us when I've been so +tremendously on my guard and have seen you but half a dozen times?" He +recognised once more the perverse law that so inveterately governed his +poor personal aspects: it would be exactly LIKE the way things always +turned out for him that he should affect Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh as +launched in a relation in which he had really never been launched at +all. They were at this very moment--they could only be--attributing to +him the full licence of it, and all by the operation of her own tone +with him; whereas his sole licence had been to cling with intensity to +the brink, not to dip so much as a toe into the flood. But the flicker +of his fear on this occasion was not, as may be added, to repeat +itself; it sprang up, for its moment, only to die down and then go out +for ever. To meet his fellow visitor's invocation and, with Sarah's +brilliant eyes on him, answer, WAS quite sufficiently to step into her +boat. During the rest of the time her visit lasted he felt himself +proceed to each of the proper offices, successively, for helping to +keep the adventurous skiff afloat. It rocked beneath him, but he +settled himself in his place. He took up an oar and, since he was to +have the credit of pulling, pulled. + +"That will make it all the pleasanter if it so happens that we DO +meet," Madame de Vionnet had further observed in reference to Mrs. +Pocock's mention of her initiated state; and she had immediately added +that, after all, her hostess couldn't be in need with the good offices +of Mr. Strether so close at hand. "It's he, I gather, who has learnt +to know his Paris, and to love it, better than any one ever before in +so short a time; so that between him and your brother, when it comes to +the point, how can you possibly want for good guidance? The great +thing, Mr. Strether will show you," she smiled, "is just to let one's +self go." + +"Oh I've not let myself go very far," Strether answered, feeling quite +as if he had been called upon to hint to Mrs. Pocock how Parisians +could talk. "I'm only afraid of showing I haven't let myself go far +enough. I've taken a good deal of time, but I must quite have had the +air of not budging from one spot." He looked at Sarah in a manner that +he thought she might take as engaging, and he made, under Madame de +Vionnet's protection, as it were, his first personal point. "What has +really happened has been that, all the while, I've done what I came out +for." + +Yet it only at first gave Madame de Vionnet a chance immediately to +take him up. "You've renewed acquaintance with your friend--you've +learnt to know him again." She spoke with such cheerful helpfulness +that they might, in a common cause, have been calling together and +pledged to mutual aid. + +Waymarsh, at this, as if he had been in question, straightway turned +from the window. "Oh yes, Countess--he has renewed acquaintance with +ME, and he HAS, I guess, learnt something about me, though I don't know +how much he has liked it. It's for Strether himself to say whether he +has felt it justifies his course." + +"Oh but YOU," said the Countess gaily, "are not in the least what he +came out for--is he really, Strether? and I hadn't you at all in my +mind. I was thinking of Mr. Newsome, of whom we think so much and with +whom, precisely, Mrs. Pocock has given herself the opportunity to take +up threads. What a pleasure for you both!" Madame de Vionnet, with her +eyes on Sarah, bravely continued. + +Mrs. Pocock met her handsomely, but Strether quickly saw she meant to +accept no version of her movements or plans from any other lips. She +required no patronage and no support, which were but other names for a +false position; she would show in her own way what she chose to show, +and this she expressed with a dry glitter that recalled to him a fine +Woollett winter morning. "I've never wanted for opportunities to see +my brother. We've many things to think of at home, and great +responsibilities and occupations, and our home's not an impossible +place. We've plenty of reasons," Sarah continued a little piercingly, +"for everything we do"--and in short she wouldn't give herself the +least little scrap away. But she added as one who was always bland and +who could afford a concession: "I've come because--well, because we do +come." + +"Ah then fortunately!"--Madame de Vionnet breathed it to the air. Five +minutes later they were on their feet for her to take leave, standing +together in an affability that had succeeded in surviving a further +exchange of remarks; only with the emphasised appearance on Waymarsh's +part of a tendency to revert, in a ruminating manner and as with an +instinctive or a precautionary lightening of his tread, to an open +window and his point of vantage. The glazed and gilded room, all red +damask, ormolu, mirrors, clocks, looked south, and the shutters were +bowed upon the summer morning; but the Tuileries garden and what was +beyond it, over which the whole place hung, were things visible through +gaps; so that the far-spreading presence of Paris came up in coolness, +dimness and invitation, in the twinkle of gilt-tipped palings, the +crunch of gravel, the click of hoofs, the crack of whips, things that +suggested some parade of the circus. "I think it probable," said Mrs. +Pocock, "that I shall have the opportunity of going to my brother's +I've no doubt it's very pleasant indeed." She spoke as to Strether, but +her face was turned with an intensity of brightness to Madame de +Vionnet, and there was a moment during which, while she thus fronted +her, our friend expected to hear her add: "I'm much obliged to you, +I'm sure, for inviting me there." He guessed that for five seconds +these words were on the point of coming; he heard them as clearly as if +they had been spoken; but he presently knew they had just failed--knew +it by a glance, quick and fine, from Madame de Vionnet, which told him +that she too had felt them in the air, but that the point had luckily +not been made in any manner requiring notice. This left her free to +reply only to what had been said. + +"That the Boulevard Malesherbes may be common ground for us offers me +the best prospect I see for the pleasure of meeting you again." + +"Oh I shall come to see you, since you've been so good": and Mrs. +Pocock looked her invader well in the eyes. The flush in Sarah's +cheeks had by this time settled to a small definite crimson spot that +was not without its own bravery; she held her head a good deal up, and +it came to Strether that of the two, at this moment, she was the one +who most carried out the idea of a Countess. He quite took in, +however, that she would really return her visitor's civility: she +wouldn't report again at Woollett without at least so much producible +history as that in her pocket. + +"I want extremely to be able to show you my little daughter." Madame de +Vionnet went on; "and I should have brought her with me if I hadn't +wished first to ask your leave. I was in hopes I should perhaps find +Miss Pocock, of whose being with you I've heard from Mr. Newsome and +whose acquaintance I should so much like my child to make. If I have +the pleasure of seeing her and you do permit it I shall venture to ask +her to be kind to Jeanne. Mr. Strether will tell you"--she beautifully +kept it up--"that my poor girl is gentle and good and rather lonely. +They've made friends, he and she, ever so happily, and he doesn't, I +believe, think ill of her. As for Jeanne herself he has had the same +success with her that I know he has had here wherever he has turned." +She seemed to ask him for permission to say these things, or seemed +rather to take it, softly and happily, with the ease of intimacy, for +granted, and he had quite the consciousness now that not to meet her at +any point more than halfway would be odiously, basely to abandon her. +Yes, he was WITH her, and, opposed even in this covert, this semi-safe +fashion to those who were not, he felt, strangely and confusedly, but +excitedly, inspiringly, how much and how far. It was as if he had +positively waited in suspense for something from her that would let him +in deeper, so that he might show her how he could take it. And what +did in fact come as she drew out a little her farewell served +sufficiently the purpose. "As his success is a matter that I'm sure +he'll never mention for himself, I feel, you see, the less scruple; +which it's very good of me to say, you know, by the way," she added as +she addressed herself to him; "considering how little direct advantage +I've gained from your triumphs with ME. When does one ever see you? I +wait at home and I languish. You'll have rendered me the service, Mrs. +Pocock, at least," she wound up, "of giving me one of my much-too-rare +glimpses of this gentleman." + +"I certainly should be sorry to deprive you of anything that seems so +much, as you describe it, your natural due. Mr. Strether and I are +very old friends," Sarah allowed, "but the privilege of his society +isn't a thing I shall quarrel about with any one." + +"And yet, dear Sarah," he freely broke in, "I feel, when I hear you say +that, that you don't quite do justice to the important truth of the +extent to which--as you're also mine--I'm your natural due. I should +like much better," he laughed, "to see you fight for me." + +She met him, Mrs. Pocock, on this, with an arrest of speech--with a +certain breathlessness, as he immediately fancied, on the score of a +freedom for which she wasn't quite prepared. It had flared up--for all +the harm he had intended by it--because, confoundedly, he didn't want +any more to be afraid about her than he wanted to be afraid about +Madame de Vionnet. He had never, naturally, called her anything but +Sarah at home, and though he had perhaps never quite so markedly +invoked her as his "dear," that was somehow partly because no occasion +had hitherto laid so effective a trap for it. But something admonished +him now that it was too late--unless indeed it were possibly too early; +and that he at any rate shouldn't have pleased Mrs. Pocock the more by +it. "Well, Mr. Strether--!" she murmured with vagueness, yet with +sharpness, while her crimson spot burned a trifle brighter and he was +aware that this must be for the present the limit of her response. +Madame de Vionnet had already, however, come to his aid, and Waymarsh, +as if for further participation, moved again back to them. It was true +that the aid rendered by Madame de Vionnet was questionable; it was a +sign that, for all one might confess to with her, and for all she might +complain of not enjoying, she could still insidiously show how much of +the material of conversation had accumulated between them. + +"The real truth is, you know, that you sacrifice one without mercy to +dear old Maria. She leaves no room in your life for anybody else. Do +you know," she enquired of Mrs. Pocock, "about dear old Maria? The +worst is that Miss Gostrey is really a wonderful woman." + +"Oh yes indeed," Strether answered for her, "Mrs. Pocock knows about +Miss Gostrey. Your mother, Sarah, must have told you about her; your +mother knows everything," he sturdily pursued. "And I cordially +admit," he added with his conscious gaiety of courage, "that she's as +wonderful a woman as you like." + +"Ah it isn't I who 'like,' dear Mr. Strether, anything to do with the +matter!" Sarah Pocock promptly protested; "and I'm by no means sure I +have--from my mother or from any one else--a notion of whom you're +talking about." + +"Well, he won't let you see her, you know," Madame de Vionnet +sympathetically threw in. "He never lets me--old friends as we are: I +mean as I am with Maria. He reserves her for his best hours; keeps her +consummately to himself; only gives us others the crumbs of the feast." + +"Well, Countess, I'VE had some of the crumbs," Waymarsh observed with +weight and covering her with his large look; which led her to break in +before he could go on. + +"Comment donc, he shares her with YOU?" she exclaimed in droll +stupefaction. "Take care you don't have, before you go much further, +rather more of all ces dames than you may know what to do with!" + +But he only continued in his massive way. "I can post you about the +lady, Mrs. Pocock, so far as you may care to hear. I've seen her quite +a number of times, and I was practically present when they made +acquaintance. I've kept my eye on her right along, but I don't know as +there's any real harm in her." + +"'Harm'?" Madame de Vionnet quickly echoed. "Why she's the dearest and +cleverest of all the clever and dear." + +"Well, you run her pretty close, Countess," Waymarsh returned with +spirit; "though there's no doubt she's pretty well up in things. She +knows her way round Europe. Above all there's no doubt she does love +Strether." + +"Ah but we all do that--we all love Strether: it isn't a merit!" their +fellow visitor laughed, keeping to her idea with a good conscience at +which our friend was aware that he marvelled, though he trusted also +for it, as he met her exquisitely expressive eyes, to some later light. + +The prime effect of her tone, however--and it was a truth which his own +eyes gave back to her in sad ironic play--could only be to make him +feel that, to say such things to a man in public, a woman must +practically think of him as ninety years old. He had turned awkwardly, +responsively red, he knew, at her mention of Maria Gostrey; Sarah +Pocock's presence--the particular quality of it--had made this +inevitable; and then he had grown still redder in proportion as he +hated to have shown anything at all. He felt indeed that he was +showing much, as, uncomfortably and almost in pain, he offered up his +redness to Waymarsh, who, strangely enough, seemed now to be looking at +him with a certain explanatory yearning. Something deep--something +built on their old old relation--passed, in this complexity, between +them; he got the side-wind of a loyalty that stood behind all actual +queer questions. Waymarsh's dry bare humour--as it gave itself to be +taken--gloomed out to demand justice. "Well, if you talk of Miss +Barrace I've MY chance too," it appeared stiffly to nod, and it granted +that it was giving him away, but struggled to add that it did so only +to save him. The sombre glow stared it at him till it fairly sounded +out--"to save you, poor old man, to save you; to save you in spite of +yourself." Yet it was somehow just this communication that showed him +to himself as more than ever lost. Still another result of it was to +put before him as never yet that between his comrade and the interest +represented by Sarah there was already a basis. Beyond all question +now, yes: Waymarsh had been in occult relation with Mrs. Newsome--out, +out it all came in the very effort of his face. "Yes, you're feeling +my hand"--he as good as proclaimed it; "but only because this at least +I SHALL have got out of the damned Old World: that I shall have picked +up the pieces into which it has caused you to crumble." It was as if in +short, after an instant, Strether had not only had it from him, but had +recognised that so far as this went the instant had cleared the air. +Our friend understood and approved; he had the sense that they wouldn't +otherwise speak of it. This would be all, and it would mark in himself +a kind of intelligent generosity. It was with grim Sarah then--Sarah +grim for all her grace--that Waymarsh had begun at ten o'clock in the +morning to save him. Well--if he COULD, poor dear man, with his big +bleak kindness! The upshot of which crowded perception was that +Strether, on his own side, still showed no more than he absolutely had +to. He showed the least possible by saying to Mrs. Pocock after an +interval much briefer than our glance at the picture reflected in him: +"Oh it's as true as they please!--There's no Miss Gostrey for any one +but me--not the least little peep. I keep her to myself." + +"Well, it's very good of you to notify me," Sarah replied without +looking at him and thrown for a moment by this discrimination, as the +direction of her eyes showed, upon a dimly desperate little community +with Madame de Vionnet. "But I hope I shan't miss her too much." + +Madame de Vionnet instantly rallied. "And you know--though it might +occur to one--it isn't in the least that he's ashamed of her. She's +really--in a way--extremely good-looking." + +"Ah but extremely!" Strether laughed while he wondered at the odd part +he found thus imposed on him. + +It continued to be so by every touch from Madame de Vionnet. "Well, as +I say, you know, I wish you would keep ME a little more to yourself. +Couldn't you name some day for me, some hour--and better soon than +late? I'll be at home whenever it best suits you. There--I can't say +fairer." + +Strether thought a moment while Waymarsh and Mrs. Pocock affected him +as standing attentive. "I did lately call on you. Last week--while +Chad was out of town." + +"Yes--and I was away, as it happened, too. You choose your moments +well. But don't wait for my next absence, for I shan't make another," +Madame de Vionnet declared, "while Mrs. Pocock's here." + +"That vow needn't keep you long, fortunately," Sarah observed with +reasserted suavity. "I shall be at present but a short time in Paris. +I have my plans for other countries. I meet a number of charming +friends"--and her voice seemed to caress that description of these +persons. + +"Ah then," her visitor cheerfully replied, "all the more reason! +To-morrow, for instance, or next day?" she continued to Strether. +"Tuesday would do for me beautifully." + +"Tuesday then with pleasure." + +"And at half-past five?--or at six?" + +It was ridiculous, but Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh struck him as fairly +waiting for his answer. It was indeed as if they were arranged, +gathered for a performance, the performance of "Europe" by his +confederate and himself. Well, the performance could only go on. "Say +five forty-five." + +"Five forty-five--good." And now at last Madame de Vionnet must leave +them, though it carried, for herself, the performance a little further. +"I DID hope so much also to see Miss Pocock. Mayn't I still?" + +Sarah hesitated, but she rose equal. "She'll return your visit with +me. She's at present out with Mr. Pocock and my brother." + +"I see--of course Mr. Newsome has everything to show them. He has told +me so much about her. My great desire's to give my daughter the +opportunity of making her acquaintance. I'm always on the lookout for +such chances for her. If I didn't bring her to-day it was only to make +sure first that you'd let me." After which the charming woman risked a +more intense appeal. "It wouldn't suit you also to mention some near +time, so that we shall be sure not to lose you?" Strether on his side +waited, for Sarah likewise had, after all, to perform; and it occupied +him to have been thus reminded that she had stayed at home--and on her +first morning of Paris--while Chad led the others forth. Oh she was up +to her eyes; if she had stayed at home she had stayed by an +understanding, arrived at the evening before, that Waymarsh would come +and find her alone. This was beginning well--for a first day in Paris; +and the thing might be amusing yet. But Madame de Vionnet's +earnestness was meanwhile beautiful. "You may think me indiscreet, but +I've SUCH a desire my Jeanne shall know an American girl of the really +delightful kind. You see I throw myself for it on your charity." + +The manner of this speech gave Strether such a sense of depths below it +and behind it as he hadn't yet had--ministered in a way that almost +frightened him to his dim divinations of reasons; but if Sarah still, +in spite of it, faltered, this was why he had time for a sign of +sympathy with her petitioner. "Let me say then, dear lady, to back +your plea, that Miss Mamie is of the most delightful kind of all--is +charming among the charming." + +Even Waymarsh, though with more to produce on the subject, could get +into motion in time. "Yes, Countess, the American girl's a thing that +your country must at least allow ours the privilege to say we CAN show +you. But her full beauty is only for those who know how to make use of +her." + +"Ah then," smiled Madame de Vionnet, "that's exactly what I want to do. +I'm sure she has much to teach us." + +It was wonderful, but what was scarce less so was that Strether found +himself, by the quick effect of it, moved another way. "Oh that may +be! But don't speak of your own exquisite daughter, you know, as if +she weren't pure perfection. I at least won't take that from you. +Mademoiselle de Vionnet," he explained, in considerable form, to Mrs. +Pocock, "IS pure perfection. Mademoiselle de Vionnet IS exquisite." + +It had been perhaps a little portentous, but "Ah?" Sarah simply +glittered. + +Waymarsh himself, for that matter, apparently recognised, in respect to +the facts, the need of a larger justice, and he had with it an +inclination to Sarah. "Miss Jane's strikingly handsome--in the regular +French style." + +It somehow made both Strether and Madame de Vionnet laugh out, though +at the very moment he caught in Sarah's eyes, as glancing at the +speaker, a vague but unmistakeable "You too?" It made Waymarsh in fact +look consciously over her head. Madame de Vionnet meanwhile, however, +made her point in her own way. "I wish indeed I could offer you my +poor child as a dazzling attraction: it would make one's position +simple enough! She's as good as she can be, but of course she's +different, and the question is now--in the light of the way things seem +to go--if she isn't after all TOO different: too different I mean from +the splendid type every one is so agreed that your wonderful country +produces. On the other hand of course Mr. Newsome, who knows it so +well, has, as a good friend, dear kind man that he is, done everything +he can--to keep us from fatal benightedness--for my small shy creature. +Well," she wound up after Mrs. Pocock had signified, in a murmur still +a little stiff, that she would speak to her own young charge on the +question--"well, we shall sit, my child and I, and wait and wait and +wait for you." But her last fine turn was for Strether. "Do speak of +us in such a way--!" + +"As that something can't but come of it? Oh something SHALL come of +it! I take a great interest!" he further declared; and in proof of it, +the next moment, he had gone with her down to her carriage. + + + + + +Book Ninth + + + + +I + + +"The difficulty is," Strether said to Madame de Vionnet a couple of +days later, "that I can't surprise them into the smallest sign of his +not being the same old Chad they've been for the last three years +glowering at across the sea. They simply won't give any, and as a +policy, you know--what you call a parti pris, a deep game--that's +positively remarkable." + +It was so remarkable that our friend had pulled up before his hostess +with the vision of it; he had risen from his chair at the end of ten +minutes and begun, as a help not to worry, to move about before her +quite as he moved before Maria. He had kept his appointment with her +to the minute and had been intensely impatient, though divided in truth +between the sense of having everything to tell her and the sense of +having nothing at all. The short interval had, in the face of their +complication, multiplied his impressions--it being meanwhile to be +noted, moreover, that he already frankly, already almost publicly, +viewed the complication as common to them. If Madame de Vionnet, under +Sarah's eyes, had pulled him into her boat, there was by this time no +doubt whatever that he had remained in it and that what he had really +most been conscious of for many hours together was the movement of the +vessel itself. They were in it together this moment as they hadn't yet +been, and he hadn't at present uttered the least of the words of alarm +or remonstrance that had died on his lips at the hotel. He had other +things to say to her than that she had put him in a position; so +quickly had his position grown to affect him as quite excitingly, +altogether richly, inevitable. That the outlook, however--given the +point of exposure--hadn't cleared up half so much as he had reckoned +was the first warning she received from him on his arrival. She had +replied with indulgence that he was in too great a hurry, and had +remarked soothingly that if she knew how to be patient surely HE might +be. He felt her presence, on the spot, he felt her tone and everything +about her, as an aid to that effort; and it was perhaps one of the +proofs of her success with him that he seemed so much to take his ease +while they talked. By the time he had explained to her why his +impressions, though multiplied, still baffled him, it was as if he had +been familiarly talking for hours. They baffled him because +Sarah--well, Sarah was deep, deeper than she had ever yet had a chance +to show herself. He didn't say that this was partly the effect of her +opening so straight down, as it were, into her mother, and that, given +Mrs. Newsome's profundity, the shaft thus sunk might well have a reach; +but he wasn't without a resigned apprehension that, at such a rate of +confidence between the two women, he was likely soon to be moved to +show how already, at moments, it had been for him as if he were dealing +directly with Mrs. Newsome. Sarah, to a certainty, would have begun +herself to feel it in him--and this naturally put it in her power to +torment him the more. From the moment she knew he COULD be tormented--! + +"But WHY can you be?"--his companion was surprised at his use of the +word. + +"Because I'm made so--I think of everything." + +"Ah one must never do that," she smiled. "One must think of as few +things as possible." + +"Then," he answered, "one must pick them out right. But all I mean +is--for I express myself with violence--that she's in a position to +watch me. There's an element of suspense for me, and she can see me +wriggle. But my wriggling doesn't matter," he pursued. "I can bear +it. Besides, I shall wriggle out." + +The picture at any rate stirred in her an appreciation that he felt to +be sincere. "I don't see how a man can be kinder to a woman than you +are to me." + +Well, kind was what he wanted to be; yet even while her charming eyes +rested on him with the truth of this he none the less had his humour of +honesty. "When I say suspense I mean, you know," he laughed, "suspense +about my own case too!" + +"Oh yes--about your own case too!" It diminished his magnanimity, but +she only looked at him the more tenderly. + +"Not, however," he went on, "that I want to talk to you about that. +It's my own little affair, and I mentioned it simply as part of Mrs. +Pocock's advantage." No, no; though there was a queer present +temptation in it, and his suspense was so real that to fidget was a +relief, he wouldn't talk to her about Mrs. Newsome, wouldn't work off +on her the anxiety produced in him by Sarah's calculated omissions of +reference. The effect she produced of representing her mother had been +produced--and that was just the immense, the uncanny part of +it--without her having so much as mentioned that lady. She had brought +no message, had alluded to no question, had only answered his enquiries +with hopeless limited propriety. She had invented a way of meeting +them--as if he had been a polite perfunctory poor relation, of distant +degree--that made them almost ridiculous in him. He couldn't moreover +on his own side ask much without appearing to publish how he had lately +lacked news; a circumstance of which it was Sarah's profound policy not +to betray a suspicion. These things, all the same, he wouldn't breathe +to Madame de Vionnet--much as they might make him walk up and down. And +what he didn't say--as well as what SHE didn't, for she had also her +high decencies--enhanced the effect of his being there with her at the +end of ten minutes more intimately on the basis of saving her than he +had yet had occasion to be. It ended in fact by being quite beautiful +between them, the number of things they had a manifest consciousness of +not saying. He would have liked to turn her, critically, to the +subject of Mrs. Pocock, but he so stuck to the line he felt to be the +point of honour and of delicacy that he scarce even asked her what her +personal impression had been. He knew it, for that matter, without +putting her to trouble: that she wondered how, with such elements, +Sarah could still have no charm, was one of the principal things she +held her tongue about. Strether would have been interested in her +estimate of the elements--indubitably there, some of them, and to be +appraised according to taste--but he denied himself even the luxury of +this diversion. The way Madame de Vionnet affected him to-day was in +itself a kind of demonstration of the happy employment of gifts. How +could a woman think Sarah had charm who struck one as having arrived at +it herself by such different roads? On the other hand of course Sarah +wasn't obliged to have it. He felt as if somehow Madame de Vionnet +WAS. The great question meanwhile was what Chad thought of his sister; +which was naturally ushered in by that of Sarah's apprehension of Chad. +THAT they could talk of, and with a freedom purchased by their +discretion in other senses. The difficulty however was that they were +reduced as yet to conjecture. He had given them in the day or two as +little of a lead as Sarah, and Madame de Vionnet mentioned that she +hadn't seen him since his sister's arrival. + +"And does that strike you as such an age?" + +She met it in all honesty. "Oh I won't pretend I don't miss him. +Sometimes I see him every day. Our friendship's like that. Make what +you will of it!" she whimsically smiled; a little flicker of the kind, +occasional in her, that had more than once moved him to wonder what he +might best make of HER. "But he's perfectly right," she hastened to +add, "and I wouldn't have him fail in any way at present for the world. +I'd sooner not see him for three months. I begged him to be beautiful +to them, and he fully feels it for himself." + +Strether turned away under his quick perception; she was so odd a +mixture of lucidity and mystery. She fell in at moments with the +theory about her he most cherished, and she seemed at others to blow it +into air. She spoke now as if her art were all an innocence, and then +again as if her innocence were all an art. "Oh he's giving himself up, +and he'll do so to the end. How can he but want, now that it's within +reach, his full impression?--which is much more important, you know, +than either yours or mine. But he's just soaking," Strether said as he +came back; "he's going in conscientiously for a saturation. I'm bound +to say he IS very good." + +"Ah," she quietly replied, "to whom do you say it?" And then more +quietly still: "He's capable of anything." + +Strether more than reaffirmed--"Oh he's excellent. I more and more +like," he insisted, "to see him with them;" though the oddity of this +tone between them grew sharper for him even while they spoke. It placed +the young man so before them as the result of her interest and the +product of her genius, acknowledged so her part in the phenomenon and +made the phenomenon so rare, that more than ever yet he might have been +on the very point of asking her for some more detailed account of the +whole business than he had yet received from her. The occasion almost +forced upon him some question as to how she had managed and as to the +appearance such miracles presented from her own singularly close place +of survey. The moment in fact however passed, giving way to more +present history, and he continued simply to mark his appreciation of +the happy truth. "It's a tremendous comfort to feel how one can trust +him." And then again while for a little she said nothing--as if after +all to HER trust there might be a special limit: "I mean for making a +good show to them." + +"Yes," she thoughtfully returned--"but if they shut their eyes to it!" + +Strether for an instant had his own thought. "Well perhaps that won't +matter!" + +"You mean because he probably--do what they will--won't like them?" + +"Oh 'do what they will'--! They won't do much; especially if Sarah +hasn't more--well, more than one has yet made out--to give." + +Madame de Vionnet weighed it. "Ah she has all her grace!" It was a +statement over which, for a little, they could look at each other +sufficiently straight, and though it produced no protest from Strether +the effect was somehow as if he had treated it as a joke. "She may be +persuasive and caressing with him; she may be eloquent beyond words. +She may get hold of him," she wound up--"well, as neither you nor I +have." + +"Yes, she MAY"--and now Strether smiled. "But he has spent all his +time each day with Jim. He's still showing Jim round." + +She visibly wondered. "Then how about Jim?" + +Strether took a turn before he answered. "Hasn't he given you Jim? +Hasn't he before this 'done' him for you?" He was a little at a loss. +"Doesn't he tell you things?" + +She hesitated. "No"--and their eyes once more gave and took. "Not as +you do. You somehow make me see them--or at least feel them. And I +haven't asked too much," she added; "I've of late wanted so not to +worry him." + +"Ah for that, so have I," he said with encouraging assent; so that--as +if she had answered everything--they were briefly sociable on it. It +threw him back on his other thought, with which he took another turn; +stopping again, however, presently with something of a glow. "You see +Jim's really immense. I think it will be Jim who'll do it." + +She wondered. "Get hold of him?" + +"No--just the other thing. Counteract Sarah's spell." And he showed +now, our friend, how far he had worked it out. "Jim's intensely +cynical." + +"Oh dear Jim!" Madame de Vionnet vaguely smiled. + +"Yes, literally--dear Jim! He's awful. What HE wants, heaven forgive +him, is to help us." + +"You mean"--she was eager--"help ME?" + +"Well, Chad and me in the first place. But he throws you in too, +though without as yet seeing you much. Only, so far as he does see +you--if you don't mind--he sees you as awful." + +"'Awful'?"--she wanted it all. + +"A regular bad one--though of course of a tremendously superior kind. +Dreadful, delightful, irresistible." + +"Ah dear Jim! I should like to know him. I MUST." + +"Yes, naturally. But will it do? You may, you know," Strether +suggested, "disappoint him." + +She was droll and humble about it. "I can but try. But my wickedness +then," she went on, "is my recommendation for him?" + +"Your wickedness and the charms with which, in such a degree as yours, +he associates it. He understands, you see, that Chad and I have above +all wanted to have a good time, and his view is simple and sharp. +Nothing will persuade him--in the light, that is, of my behaviour--that +I really didn't, quite as much as Chad, come over to have one before it +was too late. He wouldn't have expected it of me; but men of my age, +at Woollett--and especially the least likely ones--have been noted as +liable to strange outbreaks, belated uncanny clutches at the unusual, +the ideal. It's an effect that a lifetime of Woollett has quite been +observed as having; and I thus give it to you, in Jim's view, for what +it's worth. Now his wife and his mother-in-law," Strether continued to +explain, "have, as in honour bound, no patience with such phenomena, +late or early--which puts Jim, as against his relatives, on the other +side. Besides," he added, "I don't think he really wants Chad back. If +Chad doesn't come--" + +"He'll have"--Madame de Vionnet quite apprehended--"more of the free +hand?" + +"Well, Chad's the bigger man." + +"So he'll work now, en dessous, to keep him quiet?" + +"No--he won't 'work' at all, and he won't do anything en dessous. He's +very decent and won't be a traitor in the camp. But he'll be amused +with his own little view of our duplicity, he'll sniff up what he +supposes to be Paris from morning till night, and he'll be, as to the +rest, for Chad--well, just what he is." + +She thought it over. "A warning?" + +He met it almost with glee. "You ARE as wonderful as everybody says!" +And then to explain all he meant: "I drove him about for his first +hour, and do you know what--all beautifully unconscious--he most put +before me? Why that something like THAT is at bottom, as an +improvement to his present state, as in fact the real redemption of it, +what they think it may not be too late to make of our friend." With +which, as, taking it in, she seemed, in her recurrent alarm, bravely to +gaze at the possibility, he completed his statement. "But it IS too +late. Thanks to you!" + +It drew from her again one of her indefinite reflexions. "Oh +'me'--after all!" + +He stood before her so exhilarated by his demonstration that he could +fairly be jocular. "Everything's comparative. You're better than +THAT." + +"You"--she could but answer him--"are better than anything." But she +had another thought. "WILL Mrs. Pocock come to me?" + +"Oh yes--she'll do that. As soon, that is, as my friend Waymarsh--HER +friend now--leaves her leisure." + +She showed an interest. "Is he so much her friend as that?" + +"Why, didn't you see it all at the hotel?" + +"Oh"--she was amused--"'all' is a good deal to say. I don't know--I +forget. I lost myself in HER." + +"You were splendid," Strether returned--"but 'all' isn't a good deal to +say: it's only a little. Yet it's charming so far as it goes. She +wants a man to herself." + +"And hasn't she got you?" + +"Do you think she looked at me--or even at you--as if she had?" +Strether easily dismissed that irony. "Every one, you see, must strike +her as having somebody. You've got Chad--and Chad has got you." + +"I see"--she made of it what she could. "And you've got Maria." + +Well, he on his side accepted that. "I've got Maria. And Maria has +got me. So it goes." + +"But Mr. Jim--whom has he got?" + +"Oh he has got--or it's as IF he had--the whole place." + +"But for Mr. Waymarsh"--she recalled--"isn't Miss Barrace before any +one else?" + +He shook his head. "Miss Barrace is a raffinee, and her amusement +won't lose by Mrs. Pocock. It will gain rather--especially if Sarah +triumphs and she comes in for a view of it." + +"How well you know us!" Madame de Vionnet, at this, frankly sighed. + +"No--it seems to me it's we that I know. I know Sarah--it's perhaps on +that ground only that my feet are firm. Waymarsh will take her round +while Chad takes Jim--and I shall be, I assure you delighted for both +of them. Sarah will have had what she requires--she will have paid her +tribute to the ideal; and he will have done about the same. In Paris +it's in the air--so what can one do less? If there's a point that, +beyond any other, Sarah wants to make, it's that she didn't come out to +be narrow. We shall feel at least that." + +"Oh," she sighed, "the quantity we seem likely to 'feel'! But what +becomes, in these conditions, of the girl?" + +"Of Mamie--if we're all provided? Ah for that," said Strether, "you +can trust Chad." + +"To be, you mean, all right to her?" + +"To pay her every attention as soon as he has polished off Jim. He +wants what Jim can give him--and what Jim really won't--though he has +had it all, and more than all, from me. He wants in short his own +personal impression, and he'll get it--strong. But as soon as he has +got it Mamie won't suffer." + +"Oh Mamie mustn't SUFFER!" Madame de Vionnet soothingly emphasised. + +But Strether could reassure her. "Don't fear. As soon as he has done +with Jim, Jim will fall to me. And then you'll see." + +It was as if in a moment she saw already; yet she still waited. Then +"Is she really quite charming?" she asked. + +He had got up with his last words and gathered in his hat and gloves. +"I don't know; I'm watching. I'm studying the case, as it were--and I +dare say I shall be able to tell you." + +She wondered. "Is it a case?" + +"Yes--I think so. At any rate I shall see.' + +"But haven't you known her before?" + +"Yes," he smiled--"but somehow at home she wasn't a case. She has +become one since." It was as if he made it out for himself. "She has +become one here." + +"So very very soon?" + +He measured it, laughing. "Not sooner than I did." + +"And you became one--?" + +"Very very soon. The day I arrived." + +Her intelligent eyes showed her thought of it. "Ah but the day you +arrived you met Maria. Whom has Miss Pocock met?" + +He paused again, but he brought it out. "Hasn't she met Chad?" + +"Certainly--but not for the first time. He's an old friend." At which +Strether had a slow amused significant headshake that made her go on: +"You mean that for HER at least he's a new person--that she sees him as +different?" + +"She sees him as different." + +"And how does she see him?" + +Strether gave it up. "How can one tell how a deep little girl sees a +deep young man?" + +"Is every one so deep? Is she too?" + +"So it strikes me deeper than I thought. But wait a little--between us +we'll make it out. You'll judge for that matter yourself." + +Madame de Vionnet looked for the moment fairly bent on the chance. +"Then she WILL come with her?--I mean Mamie with Mrs. Pocock?" + +"Certainly. Her curiosity, if nothing else, will in any case work +that. But leave it all to Chad." + +"Ah," wailed Madame de Vionnet, turning away a little wearily, "the +things I leave to Chad!" + +The tone of it made him look at her with a kindness that showed his +vision of her suspense. But he fell back on his confidence. "Oh +well--trust him. Trust him all the way." He had indeed no sooner so +spoken than the queer displacement of his point of view appeared again +to come up for him in the very sound, which drew from him a short +laugh, immediately checked. He became still more advisory. "When they +do come give them plenty of Miss Jeanne. Let Mamie see her well." + +She looked for a moment as if she placed them face to face. "For Mamie +to hate her?" + +He had another of his corrective headshakes. "Mamie won't. Trust THEM." + +She looked at him hard, and then as if it were what she must always +come back to: "It's you I trust. But I was sincere," she said, "at +the hotel. I did, I do, want my child--" + +"Well?"--Strether waited with deference while she appeared to hesitate +as to how to put it. + +"Well, to do what she can for me." + +Strether for a little met her eyes on it; after which something that +might have been unexpected to her came from him. "Poor little duck!" + +Not more expected for himself indeed might well have been her echo of +it. "Poor little duck! But she immensely wants herself," she said, +"to see our friend's cousin." + +"Is that what she thinks her?" + +"It's what we call the young lady." + +He thought again; then with a laugh: "Well, your daughter will help +you." + +And now at last he took leave of her, as he had been intending for five +minutes. But she went part of the way with him, accompanying him out +of the room and into the next and the next. Her noble old apartment +offered a succession of three, the first two of which indeed, on +entering, smaller than the last, but each with its faded and formal +air, enlarged the office of the antechamber and enriched the sense of +approach. Strether fancied them, liked them, and, passing through them +with her more slowly now, met a sharp renewal of his original +impression. He stopped, he looked back; the whole thing made a vista, +which he found high melancholy and sweet--full, once more, of dim +historic shades, of the faint faraway cannon-roar of the great Empire. +It was doubtless half the projection of his mind, but his mind was a +thing that, among old waxed parquets, pale shades of pink and green, +pseudo-classic candelabra, he had always needfully to reckon with. They +could easily make him irrelevant. The oddity, the originality, the +poetry--he didn't know what to call it--of Chad's connexion reaffirmed +for him its romantic side. "They ought to see this, you know. They +MUST." + +"The Pococks?"--she looked about in deprecation; she seemed to see gaps +he didn't. + +"Mamie and Sarah--Mamie in particular." + +"My shabby old place? But THEIR things--!" + +"Oh their things! You were talking of what will do something for you--" + +"So that it strikes you," she broke in, "that my poor place may? Oh," +she ruefully mused, "that WOULD be desperate!" + +"Do you know what I wish?" he went on. "I wish Mrs. Newsome herself +could have a look." + +She stared, missing a little his logic. "It would make a difference?" + +Her tone was so earnest that as he continued to look about he laughed. +"It might!" + +"But you've told her, you tell me--" + +"All about you? Yes, a wonderful story. But there's all the +indescribable--what one gets only on the spot." + +"Thank you!" she charmingly and sadly smiled. + +"It's all about me here," he freely continued. "Mrs. Newsome feels +things." + +But she seemed doomed always to come back to doubt. "No one feels so +much as YOU. No--not any one." + +"So much the worse then for every one. It's very easy." + +They were by this time in the antechamber, still alone together, as she +hadn't rung for a servant. The antechamber was high and square, grave +and suggestive too, a little cold and slippery even in summer, and with +a few old prints that were precious, Strether divined, on the walls. He +stood in the middle, slightly lingering, vaguely directing his glasses, +while, leaning against the door-post of the room, she gently pressed +her cheek to the side of the recess. "YOU would have been a friend." + +"I?"--it startled him a little. + +"For the reason you say. You're not stupid." And then abruptly, as if +bringing it out were somehow founded on that fact: "We're marrying +Jeanne." + +It affected him on the spot as a move in a game, and he was even then +not without the sense that that wasn't the way Jeanne should be +married. But he quickly showed his interest, though--as quickly +afterwards struck him--with an absurd confusion of mind. "'You'? You +and--a--not Chad?" Of course it was the child's father who made the +'we,' but to the child's father it would have cost him an effort to +allude. Yet didn't it seem the next minute that Monsieur de Vionnet +was after all not in question?--since she had gone on to say that it +was indeed to Chad she referred and that he had been in the whole +matter kindness itself. + +"If I must tell you all, it is he himself who has put us in the way. I +mean in the way of an opportunity that, so far as I can yet see, is all +I could possibly have dreamed of. For all the trouble Monsieur de +Vionnet will ever take!" It was the first time she had spoken to him +of her husband, and he couldn't have expressed how much more intimate +with her it suddenly made him feel. It wasn't much, in truth--there +were other things in what she was saying that were far more; but it was +as if, while they stood there together so easily in these cold chambers +of the past, the single touch had shown the reach of her confidence. +"But our friend," she asked, "hasn't then told you?" + +"He has told me nothing." + +"Well, it has come with rather a rush--all in a very few days; and +hasn't moreover yet taken a form that permits an announcement. It's +only for you--absolutely you alone--that I speak; I so want you to +know." The sense he had so often had, since the first hour of his +disembarkment, of being further and further "in," treated him again at +this moment to another twinge; but in this wonderful way of her putting +him in there continued to be something exquisitely remorseless. +"Monsieur de Vionnet will accept what he MUST accept. He has proposed +half a dozen things--each one more impossible than the other; and he +wouldn't have found this if he lives to a hundred. Chad found it," she +continued with her lighted, faintly flushed, her conscious confidential +face, "in the quietest way in the world. Or rather it found HIM--for +everything finds him; I mean finds him right. You'll think we do such +things strangely--but at my age," she smiled, "one has to accept one's +conditions. Our young man's people had seen her; one of his sisters, a +charming woman--we know all about them--had observed her somewhere with +me. She had spoken to her brother--turned him on; and we were again +observed, poor Jeanne and I, without our in the least knowing it. It +was at the beginning of the winter; it went on for some time; it +outlasted our absence; it began again on our return; and it luckily +seems all right. The young man had met Chad, and he got a friend to +approach him--as having a decent interest in us. Mr. Newsome looked +well before he leaped; he kept beautifully quiet and satisfied himself +fully; then only he spoke. It's what has for some time past occupied +us. It seems as if it were what would do; really, really all one could +wish. There are only two or three points to be settled--they depend on +her father. But this time I think we're safe." + +Strether, consciously gaping a little, had fairly hung upon her lips. +"I hope so with all my heart." And then he permitted himself: "Does +nothing depend on HER?" + +"Ah naturally; everything did. But she's pleased comme tout. She has +been perfectly free; and he--our young friend--is really a combination. +I quite adore him." + +Strether just made sure. "You mean your future son-in-law?" + +"Future if we all bring it off." + +"Ah well," said Strether decorously, "I heartily hope you may." There +seemed little else for him to say, though her communication had the +oddest effect on him. Vaguely and confusedly he was troubled by it; +feeling as if he had even himself been concerned in something deep and +dim. He had allowed for depths, but these were greater: and it was as +if, oppressively--indeed absurdly--he was responsible for what they had +now thrown up to the surface. It was--through something ancient and +cold in it--what he would have called the real thing. In short his +hostess's news, though he couldn't have explained why, was a sensible +shock, and his oppression a weight he felt he must somehow or other +immediately get rid of. There were too many connexions missing to make +it tolerable he should do anything else. He was prepared to +suffer--before his own inner tribunal--for Chad; he was prepared to +suffer even for Madame de Vionnet. But he wasn't prepared to suffer +for the little girl So now having said the proper thing, he wanted to +get away. She held him an instant, however, with another appeal. + +"Do I seem to you very awful?" + +"Awful? Why so?" But he called it to himself, even as he spoke, his +biggest insincerity yet. + +"Our arrangements are so different from yours." + +"Mine?" Oh he could dismiss that too! "I haven't any arrangements." + +"Then you must accept mine; all the more that they're excellent. +They're founded on a vieille sagesse. There will be much more, if all +goes well, for you to hear and to know, and everything, believe me, for +you to like. Don't be afraid; you'll be satisfied." Thus she could +talk to him of what, of her innermost life--for that was what it came +to--he must "accept"; thus she could extraordinarily speak as if in +such an affair his being satisfied had an importance. It was all a +wonder and made the whole case larger. He had struck himself at the +hotel, before Sarah and Waymarsh, as being in her boat; but where on +earth was he now? This question was in the air till her own lips +quenched it with another. "And do you suppose HE--who loves her +so--would do anything reckless or cruel?" + +He wondered what he supposed. "Do you mean your young man--?" + +"I mean yours. I mean Mr. Newsome." It flashed for Strether the next +moment a finer light, and the light deepened as she went on. "He takes, +thank God, the truest tenderest interest in her." + +It deepened indeed. "Oh I'm sure of that!" + +"You were talking," she said, "about one's trusting him. You see then +how I do." + +He waited a moment--it all came. "I see--I see." He felt he really did +see. + +"He wouldn't hurt her for the world, nor--assuming she marries at +all--risk anything that might make against her happiness. +And--willingly, at least--he would never hurt ME." + +Her face, with what he had by this time grasped, told him more than her +words; whether something had come into it, or whether he only read +clearer, her whole story--what at least he then took for such--reached +out to him from it. With the initiative she now attributed to Chad it +all made a sense, and this sense--a light, a lead, was what had +abruptly risen before him. He wanted, once more, to get off with these +things; which was at last made easy, a servant having, for his +assistance, on hearing voices in the hall, just come forward. All that +Strether had made out was, while the man opened the door and +impersonally waited, summed up in his last word. "I don't think, you +know, Chad will tell me anything." + +"No--perhaps not yet." + +"And I won't as yet speak to him." + +"Ah that's as you'll think best. You must judge." + +She had finally given him her hand, which he held a moment. "How MUCH +I have to judge!" + +"Everything," said Madame de Vionnet: a remark that was indeed--with +the refined disguised suppressed passion of her face--what he most +carried away. + + + +II + + +So far as a direct approach was concerned Sarah had neglected him, for +the week now about to end, with a civil consistency of chill that, +giving him a higher idea of her social resource, threw him back on the +general reflexion that a woman could always be amazing. It indeed +helped a little to console him that he felt sure she had for the same +period also left Chad's curiosity hanging; though on the other hand, +for his personal relief, Chad could at least go through the various +motions--and he made them extraordinarily numerous--of seeing she had a +good time. There wasn't a motion on which, in her presence, poor +Strether could so much as venture, and all he could do when he was out +of it was to walk over for a talk with Maria. He walked over of course +much less than usual, but he found a special compensation in a certain +half-hour during which, toward the close of a crowded empty expensive +day, his several companions seemed to him so disposed of as to give his +forms and usages a rest. He had been with them in the morning and had +nevertheless called on the Pococks in the afternoon; but their whole +group, he then found, had dispersed after a fashion of which it would +amuse Miss Gostrey to hear. He was sorry again, gratefully sorry she +was so out of it--she who had really put him in; but she had +fortunately always her appetite for news. The pure flame of the +disinterested burned in her cave of treasures as a lamp in a Byzantine +vault. It was just now, as happened, that for so fine a sense as hers +a near view would have begun to pay. Within three days, precisely, the +situation on which he was to report had shown signs of an equilibrium; +the effect of his look in at the hotel was to confirm this appearance. +If the equilibrium might only prevail! Sarah was out with Waymarsh, +Mamie was out with Chad, and Jim was out alone. Later on indeed he +himself was booked to Jim, was to take him that evening to the +Varieties--which Strether was careful to pronounce as Jim pronounced +them. + +Miss Gostrey drank it in. "What then to-night do the others do?" + +"Well, it has been arranged. Waymarsh takes Sarah to dine at Bignons." + +She wondered. "And what do they do after? They can't come straight +home." + +"No, they can't come straight home--at least Sarah can't. It's their +secret, but I think I've guessed it." Then as she waited: "The circus." + +It made her stare a moment longer, then laugh almost to extravagance. +"There's no one like you!" + +"Like ME?"--he only wanted to understand. + +"Like all of you together--like all of us: Woollett, Milrose and their +products. We're abysmal--but may we never be less so! Mr. Newsome," +she continued, "meanwhile takes Miss Pocock--?" + +"Precisely--to the Francais: to see what you took Waymarsh and me to, +a family-bill." + +"Ah then may Mr. Chad enjoy it as I did!" But she saw so much in +things. "Do they spend their evenings, your young people, like that, +alone together?" + +"Well, they're young people--but they're old friends." + +"I see, I see. And do THEY dine--for a difference--at Brebant's?" + +"Oh where they dine is their secret too. But I've my idea that it will +be, very quietly, at Chad's own place." + +"She'll come to him there alone?" + +They looked at each other a moment. "He has known her from a child. +Besides," said Strether with emphasis, "Mamie's remarkable. She's +splendid." + +She wondered. "Do you mean she expects to bring it off?" + +"Getting hold of him? No--I think not." + +"She doesn't want him enough?--or doesn't believe in her power?" On +which as he said nothing she continued: "She finds she doesn't care +for him?" + +"No--I think she finds she does. But that's what I mean by so +describing her. It's IF she does that she's splendid. But we'll see," +he wound up, "where she comes out." + +"You seem to show me sufficiently," Miss Gostrey laughed, "where she +goes in! But is her childhood's friend," she asked, "permitting +himself recklessly to flirt with her?" + +"No--not that. Chad's also splendid. They're ALL splendid!" he +declared with a sudden strange sound of wistfulness and envy. "They're +at least HAPPY." + +"Happy?"--it appeared, with their various difficulties, to surprise her. + +"Well--I seem to myself among them the only one who isn't." + +She demurred. "With your constant tribute to the ideal?" + +He had a laugh at his tribute to the ideal, but he explained after a +moment his impression. "I mean they're living. They're rushing about. +I've already had my rushing. I'm waiting." + +"But aren't you," she asked by way of cheer, "waiting with ME?" + +He looked at her in all kindness. "Yes--if it weren't for that!" + +"And you help me to wait," she said. "However," she went on, "I've +really something for you that will help you to wait and which you shall +have in a minute. Only there's something more I want from you first. I +revel in Sarah." + +"So do I. If it weren't," he again amusedly sighed, "for THAT--!" + +"Well, you owe more to women than any man I ever saw. We do seem to +keep you going. Yet Sarah, as I see her, must be great." + +"She IS" Strether fully assented: "great! Whatever happens, she +won't, with these unforgettable days, have lived in vain." + +Miss Gostrey had a pause. "You mean she has fallen in love?" + +"I mean she wonders if she hasn't--and it serves all her purpose." + +"It has indeed," Maria laughed, "served women's purposes before!" + +"Yes--for giving in. But I doubt if the idea--as an idea--has ever up +to now answered so well for holding out. That's HER tribute to the +ideal--we each have our own. It's her romance--and it seems to me +better on the whole than mine. To have it in Paris too," he +explained--"on this classic ground, in this charged infectious air, +with so sudden an intensity: well, it's more than she expected. She +has had in short to recognise the breaking out for her of a real +affinity--and with everything to enhance the drama." + +Miss Gostrey followed. "Jim for instance?" + +"Jim. Jim hugely enhances. Jim was made to enhance. And then Mr. +Waymarsh. It's the crowning touch--it supplies the colour. He's +positively separated." + +"And she herself unfortunately isn't--that supplies the colour too." +Miss Gostrey was all there. But somehow--! "Is HE in love?" + +Strether looked at her a long time; then looked all about the room; +then came a little nearer. "Will you never tell any one in the world +as long as ever you live?" + +"Never." It was charming. + +"He thinks Sarah really is. But he has no fear," Strether hastened to +add. + +"Of her being affected by it?" + +"Of HIS being. He likes it, but he knows she can hold out. He's +helping her, he's floating her over, by kindness." + +Maria rather funnily considered it. "Floating her over in champagne? +The kindness of dining her, nose to nose, at the hour when all Paris is +crowding to profane delights, and in the--well, in the great temple, as +one hears of it, of pleasure?" + +"That's just IT, for both of them," Strether insisted--"and all of a +supreme innocence. The Parisian place, the feverish hour, the +putting before her of a hundred francs' worth of food and drink, which +they'll scarcely touch--all that's the dear man's own romance; the +expensive kind, expensive in francs and centimes, in which he abounds. +And the circus afterwards--which is cheaper, but which he'll find some +means of making as dear as possible--that's also HIS tribute to the +ideal. It does for him. He'll see her through. They won't talk of +anything worse than you and me." + +"Well, we're bad enough perhaps, thank heaven," she laughed, "to upset +them! Mr. Waymarsh at any rate is a hideous old coquette." And the +next moment she had dropped everything for a different pursuit. "What +you don't appear to know is that Jeanne de Vionnet has become engaged. +She's to marry--it has been definitely arranged--young Monsieur de +Montbron." + +He fairly blushed. "Then--if you know it--it's 'out'?" + +"Don't I often know things that are NOT out? However," she said, "this +will be out to-morrow. But I see I've counted too much on your +possible ignorance. You've been before me, and I don't make you jump +as I hoped." + +He gave a gasp at her insight. "You never fail! I've HAD my jump. I +had it when I first heard." + +"Then if you knew why didn't you tell me as soon as you came in?" + +"Because I had it from her as a thing not yet to be spoken of." + +Miss Gostrey wondered. "From Madame de Vionnet herself?" + +"As a probability--not quite a certainty: a good cause in which Chad +has been working. So I've waited." + +"You need wait no longer," she returned. "It reached me +yesterday--roundabout and accidental, but by a person who had had it +from one of the young man's own people--as a thing quite settled. I +was only keeping it for you." + +"You thought Chad wouldn't have told me?" + +She hesitated. "Well, if he hasn't--" + +"He hasn't. And yet the thing appears to have been practically his +doing. So there we are." + +"There we are!" Maria candidly echoed. + +"That's why I jumped. I jumped," he continued to explain, "because it +means, this disposition of the daughter, that there's now nothing else: +nothing else but him and the mother." + +"Still--it simplifies." + +"It simplifies"--he fully concurred. "But that's precisely where we +are. It marks a stage in his relation. The act is his answer to Mrs. +Newsome's demonstration." + +"It tells," Maria asked, "the worst?" + +"The worst." + +"But is the worst what he wants Sarah to know?" + +"He doesn't care for Sarah." + +At which Miss Gostrey's eyebrows went up. "You mean she has already +dished herself?" + +Strether took a turn about; he had thought it out again and again +before this, to the end; but the vista seemed each time longer. "He +wants his good friend to know the best. I mean the measure of his +attachment. She asked for a sign, and he thought of that one. There +it is." + +"A concession to her jealousy?" + +Strether pulled up. "Yes--call it that. Make it lurid--for that makes +my problem richer." + +"Certainly, let us have it lurid--for I quite agree with you that we +want none of our problems poor. But let us also have it clear. Can he, +in the midst of such a preoccupation, or on the heels of it, have +seriously cared for Jeanne?--cared, I mean, as a young man at liberty +would have cared?" + +Well, Strether had mastered it. "I think he can have thought it would +be charming if he COULD care. It would be nicer." + +"Nicer than being tied up to Marie?" + +"Yes--than the discomfort of an attachment to a person he can never +hope, short of a catastrophe, to marry. And he was quite right," said +Strether. "It would certainly have been nicer. Even when a thing's +already nice there mostly is some other thing that would have been +nicer--or as to which we wonder if it wouldn't. But his question was +all the same a dream. He COULDn't care in that way. He IS tied up to +Marie. The relation is too special and has gone too far. It's the +very basis, and his recent lively contribution toward establishing +Jeanne in life has been his definite and final acknowledgement to +Madame de Vionnet that he has ceased squirming. I doubt meanwhile," he +went on, "if Sarah has at all directly attacked him." + +His companion brooded. "But won't he wish for his own satisfaction to +make his ground good to her?" + +"No--he'll leave it to me, he'll leave everything to me. I 'sort of' +feel"--he worked it out--"that the whole thing will come upon me. Yes, +I shall have every inch and every ounce of it. I shall be USED for +it--!" And Strether lost himself in the prospect. Then he fancifully +expressed the issue. "To the last drop of my blood." + +Maria, however, roundly protested. "Ah you'll please keep a drop for +ME. I shall have a use for it!"--which she didn't however follow up. +She had come back the next moment to another matter. "Mrs. Pocock, with +her brother, is trusting only to her general charm?" + +"So it would seem." + +"And the charm's not working?" + +Well, Strether put it otherwise, "She's sounding the note of +home--which is the very best thing she can do." + +"The best for Madame de Vionnet?" + +"The best for home itself. The natural one; the right one." + +"Right," Maria asked, "when it fails?" + +Strether had a pause. "The difficulty's Jim. Jim's the note of home." + +She debated. "Ah surely not the note of Mrs. Newsome." + +But he had it all. "The note of the home for which Mrs. Newsome wants +him--the home of the business. Jim stands, with his little legs apart, +at the door of THAT tent; and Jim is, frankly speaking, extremely +awful." + +Maria stared. "And you in, you poor thing, for your evening with him?" + +"Oh he's all right for ME!" Strether laughed. "Any one's good enough +for ME. But Sarah shouldn't, all the same, have brought him. She +doesn't appreciate him." + +His friend was amused with this statement of it. "Doesn't know, you +mean, how bad he is?" + +Strether shook his head with decision. "Not really." + +She wondered. "Then doesn't Mrs. Newsome?" + +It made him frankly do the same. "Well, no--since you ask me." + +Maria rubbed it in. "Not really either?" + +"Not at all. She rates him rather high." With which indeed, +immediately, he took himself up. "Well, he IS good too, in his way. It +depends on what you want him for." + +Miss Gostrey, however, wouldn't let it depend on anything--wouldn't +have it, and wouldn't want him, at any price. "It suits my book," she +said, "that he should be impossible; and it suits it still better," she +more imaginatively added, "that Mrs. Newsome doesn't know he is." + +Strether, in consequence, had to take it from her, but he fell back on +something else. "I'll tell you who does really know." + +"Mr. Waymarsh? Never!" + +"Never indeed. I'm not ALWAYS thinking of Mr. Waymarsh; in fact I find +now I never am." Then he mentioned the person as if there were a good +deal in it. "Mamie." + +"His own sister?" Oddly enough it but let her down. "What good will +that do?" + +"None perhaps. But there--as usual--we are!" + + + +III + + +There they were yet again, accordingly, for two days more; when +Strether, on being, at Mrs. Pocock's hotel, ushered into that lady's +salon, found himself at first assuming a mistake on the part of the +servant who had introduced him and retired. The occupants hadn't come +in, for the room looked empty as only a room can look in Paris, of a +fine afternoon when the faint murmur of the huge collective life, +carried on out of doors, strays among scattered objects even as a +summer air idles in a lonely garden. Our friend looked about and +hesitated; observed, on the evidence of a table charged with purchases +and other matters, that Sarah had become possessed--by no aid from +HIM--of the last number of the salmon-coloured Revue; noted further +that Mamie appeared to have received a present of Fromentin's "Maitres +d'Autrefois" from Chad, who had written her name on the cover; and +pulled up at the sight of a heavy letter addressed in a hand he knew. +This letter, forwarded by a banker and arriving in Mrs. Pocock's +absence, had been placed in evidence, and it drew from the fact of its +being unopened a sudden queer power to intensify the reach of its +author. It brought home to him the scale on which Mrs. Newsome--for +she had been copious indeed this time--was writing to her daughter +while she kept HIM in durance; and it had altogether such an effect +upon him as made him for a few minutes stand still and breathe low. In +his own room, at his own hotel, he had dozens of well-filled envelopes +superscribed in that character; and there was actually something in the +renewal of his interrupted vision of the character that played straight +into the so frequent question of whether he weren't already +disinherited beyond appeal. It was such an assurance as the sharp +downstrokes of her pen hadn't yet had occasion to give him; but they +somehow at the present crisis stood for a probable absoluteness in any +decree of the writer. He looked at Sarah's name and address, in short, +as if he had been looking hard into her mother's face, and then turned +from it as if the face had declined to relax. But since it was in a +manner as if Mrs. Newsome were thereby all the more, instead of the +less, in the room, and were conscious, sharply and sorely conscious, of +himself, so he felt both held and hushed, summoned to stay at least and +take his punishment. By staying, accordingly, he took it--creeping +softly and vaguely about and waiting for Sarah to come in. She WOULD +come in if he stayed long enough, and he had now more than ever the +sense of her success in leaving him a prey to anxiety. It wasn't to be +denied that she had had a happy instinct, from the point of view of +Woollett, in placing him thus at the mercy of her own initiative. It +was very well to try to say he didn't care--that she might break ground +when she would, might never break it at all if she wouldn't, and that +he had no confession whatever to wait upon her with: he breathed from +day to day an air that damnably required clearing, and there were +moments when he quite ached to precipitate that process. He couldn't +doubt that, should she only oblige him by surprising him just as he +then was, a clarifying scene of some sort would result from the +concussion. + +He humbly circulated in this spirit till he suddenly had a fresh +arrest. Both the windows of the room stood open to the balcony, but it +was only now that, in the glass of the leaf of one of them, folded +back, he caught a reflexion quickly recognised as the colour of a +lady's dress. Somebody had been then all the while on the balcony, and +the person, whoever it might be, was so placed between the windows as +to be hidden from him; while on the other hand the many sounds of the +street had covered his own entrance and movements. If the person were +Sarah he might on the spot therefore be served to his taste. He might +lead her by a move or two up to the remedy for his vain tension; as to +which, should he get nothing else from it, he would at least have the +relief of pulling down the roof on their heads. There was fortunately +no one at hand to observe--in respect to his valour--that even on this +completed reasoning he still hung fire. He had been waiting for Mrs. +Pocock and the sound of the oracle; but he had to gird himself +afresh--which he did in the embrasure of the window, neither advancing +nor retreating--before provoking the revelation. It was apparently for +Sarah to come more into view; he was in that case there at her service. +She did however, as meanwhile happened, come more into view; only she +luckily came at the last minute as a contradiction of Sarah. The +occupant of the balcony was after all quite another person, a person +presented, on a second look, by a charming back and a slight shift of +her position, as beautiful brilliant unconscious Mamie--Mamie alone at +home, Mamie passing her time in her own innocent way, Mamie in short +rather shabbily used, but Mamie absorbed interested and interesting. +With her arms on the balustrade and her attention dropped to the street +she allowed Strether to watch her, to consider several things, without +her turning round. + +But the oddity was that when he HAD so watched and considered he simply +stepped back into the room without following up his advantage. He +revolved there again for several minutes, quite as with something new +to think of and as if the bearings of the possibility of Sarah had been +superseded. For frankly, yes, it HAD bearings thus to find the girl in +solitary possession. There was something in it that touched him to a +point not to have been reckoned beforehand, something that softly but +quite pressingly spoke to him, and that spoke the more each time he +paused again at the edge of the balcony and saw her still unaware. Her +companions were plainly scattered; Sarah would be off somewhere with +Waymarsh and Chad off somewhere with Jim. Strether didn't at all +mentally impute to Chad that he was with his "good friend"; he gave him +the benefit of supposing him involved in appearances that, had he had +to describe them--for instance to Maria--he would have conveniently +qualified as more subtle. It came to him indeed the next thing that +there was perhaps almost an excess of refinement in having left Mamie +in such weather up there alone; however she might in fact have +extemporised, under the charm of the Rue de Rivoli, a little makeshift +Paris of wonder arid fancy. Our friend in any case now recognised--and +it was as if at the recognition Mrs. Newsome's fixed intensity had +suddenly, with a deep audible gasp, grown thin and vague--that day +after day he had been conscious in respect to his young lady of +something odd and ambiguous, yet something into which he could at last +read a meaning. It had been at the most, this mystery, an +obsession--oh an obsession agreeable; and it had just now fallen into +its place as at the touch of a spring. It had represented the +possibility between them of some communication baffled by accident and +delay--the possibility even of some relation as yet unacknowledged. + +There was always their old relation, the fruit of the Woollett years; +but that--and it was what was strangest--had nothing whatever in common +with what was now in the air. As a child, as a "bud," and then again +as a flower of expansion, Mamie had bloomed for him, freely, in the +almost incessantly open doorways of home; where he remembered her as +first very forward, as then very backward--for he had carried on at one +period, in Mrs. Newsome's parlours (oh Mrs. Newsome's phases and his +own!) a course of English Literature re-enforced by exams and teas--and +once more, finally, as very much in advance. But he had kept no great +sense of points of contact; it not being in the nature of things at +Woollett that the freshest of the buds should find herself in the same +basket with the most withered of the winter apples. The child had +given sharpness, above all, to his sense of the flight of time; it was +but the day before yesterday that he had tripped up on her hoop, yet +his experience of remarkable women--destined, it would seem, remarkably +to grow--felt itself ready this afternoon, quite braced itself, to +include her. She had in fine more to say to him than he had ever +dreamed the pretty girl of the moment COULD have; and the proof of the +circumstance was that, visibly, unmistakeably, she had been able to say +it to no one else. It was something she could mention neither to her +brother, to her sister-in-law nor to Chad; though he could just imagine +that had she still been at home she might have brought it out, as a +supreme tribute to age, authority and attitude, for Mrs. Newsome. It +was moreover something in which they all took an interest; the strength +of their interest was in truth just the reason of her prudence. All +this then, for five minutes, was vivid to Strether, and it put before +him that, poor child, she had now but her prudence to amuse her. That, +for a pretty girl in Paris, struck him, with a rush, as a sorry state; +so that under the impression he went out to her with a step as +hypocritically alert, he was well aware, as if he had just come into +the room. She turned with a start at his voice; preoccupied with him +though she might be, she was just a scrap disappointed. "Oh I thought +you were Mr. Bilham!" + +The remark had been at first surprising and our friend's private +thought, under the influence of it, temporarily blighted; yet we are +able to add that he presently recovered his inward tone and that many a +fresh flower of fancy was to bloom in the same air. Little +Bilham--since little Bilham was, somewhat incongruously, +expected--appeared behindhand; a circumstance by which Strether was to +profit. They came back into the room together after a little, the +couple on the balcony, and amid its crimson-and-gold elegance, with the +others still absent, Strether passed forty minutes that he appraised +even at the time as far, in the whole queer connexion, from his idlest. +Yes indeed, since he had the other day so agreed with Maria about the +inspiration of the lurid, here was something for his problem that +surely didn't make it shrink and that was floated in upon him as part +of a sudden flood. He was doubtless not to know till afterwards, on +turning them over in thought, of how many elements his impression was +composed; but he none the less felt, as he sat with the charming girl, +the signal growth of a confidence. For she WAS charming, when all was +said--and none the less so for the visible habit and practice of +freedom and fluency. She was charming, he was aware, in spite of the +fact that if he hadn't found her so he would have found her something +he should have been in peril of expressing as "funny." Yes, she was +funny, wonderful Mamie, and without dreaming it; she was bland, she was +bridal--with never, that he could make out as yet, a bridegroom to +support it; she was handsome and portly and easy and chatty, soft and +sweet and almost disconcertingly reassuring. She was dressed, if we +might so far discriminate, less as a young lady than as an old one--had +an old one been supposable to Strether as so committed to vanity; the +complexities of her hair missed moreover also the looseness of youth; +and she had a mature manner of bending a little, as to encourage and +reward, while she held neatly together in front of her a pair of +strikingly polished hands: the combination of all of which kept up +about her the glamour of her "receiving," placed her again perpetually +between the windows and within sound of the ice-cream plates, suggested +the enumeration of all the names, all the Mr. Brookses and Mr. +Snookses, gregarious specimens of a single type, she was happy to +"meet." But if all this was where she was funny, and if what was +funnier than the rest was the contrast between her beautiful benevolent +patronage--such a hint of the polysyllabic as might make her something +of a bore toward middle age--and her rather flat little voice, the +voice, naturally, unaffectedly yet, of a girl of fifteen; so Strether, +none the less, at the end of ten minutes, felt in her a quiet dignity +that pulled things bravely together. If quiet dignity, almost more +than matronly, with voluminous, too voluminous clothes, was the effect +she proposed to produce, that was an ideal one could like in her when +once one had got into relation. The great thing now for her visitor +was that this was exactly what he had done; it made so extraordinary a +mixture of the brief and crowded hour. It was the mark of a relation +that he had begun so quickly to find himself sure she was, of all +people, as might have been said, on the side and of the party of Mrs. +Newsome's original ambassador. She was in HIS interest and not in +Sarah's, and some sign of that was precisely what he had been feeling +in her, these last days, as imminent. Finally placed, in Paris, in +immediate presence of the situation and of the hero of it--by whom +Strether was incapable of meaning any one but Chad--she had +accomplished, and really in a manner all unexpected to herself, a +change of base; deep still things had come to pass within her, and by +the time she had grown sure of them Strether had become aware of the +little drama. When she knew where she was, in short, he had made it +out; and he made it out at present still better; though with never a +direct word passing between them all the while on the subject of his +own predicament. There had been at first, as he sat there with her, a +moment during which he wondered if she meant to break ground in respect +to his prime undertaking. That door stood so strangely ajar that he +was half-prepared to be conscious, at any juncture, of her having, of +any one's having, quite bounced in. But, friendly, familiar, light of +touch and happy of tact, she exquisitely stayed out; so that it was for +all the world as if to show she could deal with him without being +reduced to--well, scarcely anything. + +It fully came up for them then, by means of their talking of everything +BUT Chad, that Mamie, unlike Sarah, unlike Jim, knew perfectly what had +become of him. It fully came up that she had taken to the last +fraction of an inch the measure of the change in him, and that she +wanted Strether to know what a secret she proposed to make of it. They +talked most conveniently--as if they had had no chance yet--about +Woollett; and that had virtually the effect of their keeping the secret +more close. The hour took on for Strether, little by little, a queer +sad sweetness of quality, he had such a revulsion in Mamie's favour and +on behalf of her social value as might have come from remorse at some +early injustice. She made him, as under the breath of some vague +western whiff, homesick and freshly restless; he could really for the +time have fancied himself stranded with her on a far shore, during an +ominous calm, in a quaint community of shipwreck. Their little +interview was like a picnic on a coral strand; they passed each other, +with melancholy smiles and looks sufficiently allusive, such cupfuls of +water as they had saved. Especially sharp in Strether meanwhile was +the conviction that his companion really knew, as we have hinted, where +she had come out. It was at a very particular place--only THAT she +would never tell him; it would be above all what he should have to +puzzle for himself. This was what he hoped for, because his interest +in the girl wouldn't be complete without it. No more would the +appreciation to which she was entitled--so assured was he that the more +he saw of her process the more he should see of her pride. She saw, +herself, everything; but she knew what she didn't want, and that it was +that had helped her. What didn't she want?--there was a pleasure lost +for her old friend in not yet knowing, as there would doubtless be a +thrill in getting a glimpse. Gently and sociably she kept that dark to +him, and it was as if she soothed and beguiled him in other ways to +make up for it. She came out with her impression of Madame de +Vionnet--of whom she had "heard so much"; she came out with her +impression of Jeanne, whom she had been "dying to see": she brought it +out with a blandness by which her auditor was really stirred that she +had been with Sarah early that very afternoon, and after dreadful +delays caused by all sorts of things, mainly, eternally, by the +purchase of clothes--clothes that unfortunately wouldn't be themselves +eternal--to call in the Rue de Bellechasse. + +At the sound of these names Strether almost blushed to feel that he +couldn't have sounded them first--and yet couldn't either have +justified his squeamishness. Mamie made them easy as he couldn't have +begun to do, and yet it could only have cost her more than he should +ever have had to spend. It was as friends of Chad's, friends special, +distinguished, desirable, enviable, that she spoke of them, and she +beautifully carried it off that much as she had heard of them--though +she didn't say how or where, which was a touch of her own--she had +found them beyond her supposition. She abounded in praise of them, and +after the manner of Woollett--which made the manner of Woollett a +loveable thing again to Strether. He had never so felt the true +inwardness of it as when his blooming companion pronounced the elder of +the ladies of the Rue de Bellechasse too fascinating for words and +declared of the younger that she was perfectly ideal, a real little +monster of charm. "Nothing," she said of Jeanne, "ought ever to happen +to her--she's so awfully right as she is. Another touch will spoil +her--so she oughtn't to BE touched." + +"Ah but things, here in Paris," Strether observed, "do happen to little +girls." And then for the joke's and the occasion's sake: "Haven't you +found that yourself?" + +"That things happen--? Oh I'm not a little girl. I'm a big battered +blowsy one. I don't care," Mamie laughed, "WHAT happens." + +Strether had a pause while he wondered if it mightn't happen that he +should give her the pleasure of learning that he found her nicer than +he had really dreamed--a pause that ended when he had said to himself +that, so far as it at all mattered for her, she had in fact perhaps +already made this out. He risked accordingly a different +question--though conscious, as soon as he had spoken, that he seemed to +place it in relation to her last speech. "But that Mademoiselle de +Vionnet is to be married--I suppose you've heard of THAT." For all, he +then found, he need fear! "Dear, yes; the gentleman was there: +Monsieur de Montbron, whom Madame de Vionnet presented to us." + +"And was he nice?" + +Mamie bloomed and bridled with her best reception manner. "Any man's +nice when he's in love." + +It made Strether laugh. "But is Monsieur de Montbron in +love--already--with YOU?" + +"Oh that's not necessary--it's so much better he should be so with HER: +which, thank goodness, I lost no time in discovering for myself. He's +perfectly gone--and I couldn't have borne it for her if he hadn't been. +She's just too sweet." + +Strether hesitated. "And through being in love too?" + +On which with a smile that struck him as wonderful Mamie had a +wonderful answer. "She doesn't know if she is or not." + +It made him again laugh out. "Oh but YOU do!" + +She was willing to take it that way. "Oh yes, I know everything." And +as she sat there rubbing her polished hands and making the best of +it--only holding her elbows perhaps a little too much out--the +momentary effect for Strether was that every one else, in all their +affair, seemed stupid. + +"Know that poor little Jeanne doesn't know what's the matter with her?" + +It was as near as they came to saying that she was probably in love +with Chad; but it was quite near enough for what Strether wanted; which +was to be confirmed in his certitude that, whether in love or not, she +appealed to something large and easy in the girl before him. Mamie +would be fat, too fat, at thirty; but she would always be the person +who, at the present sharp hour, had been disinterestedly tender. "If I +see a little more of her, as I hope I shall, I think she'll like me +enough--for she seemed to like me to-day--to want me to tell her." + +"And SHALL you?" + +"Perfectly. I shall tell her the matter with her is that she wants +only too much to do right. To do right for her, naturally," said +Mamie, "is to please." + +"Her mother, do you mean?" + +"Her mother first." + +Strether waited. "And then?" + +"Well, 'then'--Mr. Newsome." + +There was something really grand for him in the serenity of this +reference. "And last only Monsieur de Montbron?" + +"Last only"--she good-humouredly kept it up. + +Strether considered. "So that every one after all then will be suited?" + +She had one of her few hesitations, but it was a question only of a +moment; and it was her nearest approach to being explicit with him +about what was between them. "I think I can speak for myself. I shall +be." + +It said indeed so much, told such a story of her being ready to help +him, so committed to him that truth, in short, for such use as he might +make of it toward those ends of his own with which, patiently and +trustfully, she had nothing to do--it so fully achieved all this that +he appeared to himself simply to meet it in its own spirit by the last +frankness of admiration. Admiration was of itself almost accusatory, +but nothing less would serve to show her how nearly he understood. He +put out his hand for good-bye with a "Splendid, splendid, splendid!" +And he left her, in her splendour, still waiting for little Bilham. + + + + + +Book Tenth + + + + +I + + +Strether occupied beside little Bilham, three evenings after his +interview with Mamie Pocock, the same deep divan they had enjoyed +together on the first occasion of our friend's meeting Madame de +Vionnet and her daughter in the apartment of the Boulevard Malesherbes, +where his position affirmed itself again as ministering to an easy +exchange of impressions. The present evening had a different stamp; if +the company was much more numerous, so, inevitably, were the ideas set +in motion. It was on the other hand, however, now strongly marked that +the talkers moved, in respect to such matters, round an inner, a +protected circle. They knew at any rate what really concerned them +to-night, and Strether had begun by keeping his companion close to it. +Only a few of Chad's guests had dined--that is fifteen or twenty, a few +compared with the large concourse offered to sight by eleven o'clock; +but number and mass, quantity and quality, light, fragrance, sound, the +overflow of hospitality meeting the high tide of response, had all from +the first pressed upon Strether's consciousness, and he felt himself +somehow part and parcel of the most festive scene, as the term was, in +which he had ever in his life been engaged. He had perhaps seen, on +Fourths of July and on dear old domestic Commencements, more people +assembled, but he had never seen so many in proportion to the space, or +had at all events never known so great a promiscuity to show so +markedly as picked. Numerous as was the company, it had still been made +so by selection, and what was above all rare for Strether was that, by +no fault of his own, he was in the secret of the principle that had +worked. He hadn't enquired, he had averted his head, but Chad had put +him a pair of questions that themselves smoothed the ground. He hadn't +answered the questions, he had replied that they were the young man's +own affair; and he had then seen perfectly that the latter's direction +was already settled. + +Chad had applied for counsel only by way of intimating that he knew +what to do; and he had clearly never known it better than in now +presenting to his sister the whole circle of his society. This was all +in the sense and the spirit of the note struck by him on that lady's +arrival; he had taken at the station itself a line that led him without +a break, and that enabled him to lead the Pococks--though dazed a +little, no doubt, breathless, no doubt, and bewildered--to the +uttermost end of the passage accepted by them perforce as pleasant. He +had made it for them violently pleasant and mercilessly full; the +upshot of which was, to Strether's vision, that they had come all the +way without discovering it to be really no passage at all. It was a +brave blind alley, where to pass was impossible and where, unless they +stuck fast, they would have--which was always awkward--publicly to back +out. They were touching bottom assuredly tonight; the whole scene +represented the terminus of the cul-de-sac. So could things go when +there was a hand to keep them consistent--a hand that pulled the wire +with a skill at which the elder man more and more marvelled. The elder +man felt responsible, but he also felt successful, since what had taken +place was simply the issue of his own contention, six weeks before, +that they properly should wait to see what their friends would have +really to say. He had determined Chad to wait, he had determined him +to see; he was therefore not to quarrel with the time given up to the +business. As much as ever, accordingly, now that a fortnight had +elapsed, the situation created for Sarah, and against which she had +raised no protest, was that of her having accommodated herself to her +adventure as to a pleasure-party surrendered perhaps even somewhat in +excess to bustle and to "pace." If her brother had been at any point +the least bit open to criticism it might have been on the ground of his +spicing the draught too highly and pouring the cup too full. Frankly +treating the whole occasion of the presence of his relatives as an +opportunity for amusement, he left it, no doubt, but scant margin as an +opportunity for anything else. He suggested, invented, abounded--yet +all the while with the loosest easiest rein. Strether, during his own +weeks, had gained a sense of knowing Paris; but he saw it afresh, and +with fresh emotion, in the form of the knowledge offered to his +colleague. + +A thousand unuttered thoughts hummed for him in the air of these +observations; not the least frequent of which was that Sarah might well +of a truth not quite know whither she was drifting. She was in no +position not to appear to expect that Chad should treat her handsomely; +yet she struck our friend as privately stiffening a little each time +she missed the chance of marking the great nuance. The great nuance was +in brief that of course her brother must treat her handsomely--she +should like to see him not; but that treating her handsomely, none the +less, wasn't all in all--treating her handsomely buttered no parsnips; +and that in fine there were moments when she felt the fixed eyes of +their admirable absent mother fairly screw into the flat of her back. +Strether, watching, after his habit, and overscoring with thought, +positively had moments of his own in which he found himself sorry for +her--occasions on which she affected him as a person seated in a +runaway vehicle and turning over the question of a possible jump. WOULD +she jump, could she, would THAT be a safe placed--this question, at +such instants, sat for him in her lapse into pallor, her tight lips, +her conscious eyes. It came back to the main point at issue: would she +be, after all, to be squared? He believed on the whole she would jump; +yet his alternations on this subject were the more especial stuff of +his suspense. One thing remained well before him--a conviction that +was in fact to gain sharpness from the impressions of this evening: +that if she SHOULD gather in her skirts, close her eyes and quit the +carriage while in motion, he would promptly enough become aware. She +would alight from her headlong course more or less directly upon him; +it would be appointed to him, unquestionably, to receive her entire +weight. Signs and portents of the experience thus in reserve for him +had as it happened, multiplied even through the dazzle of Chad's party. +It was partly under the nervous consciousness of such a prospect that, +leaving almost every one in the two other rooms, leaving those of the +guests already known to him as well as a mass of brilliant strangers of +both sexes and of several varieties of speech, he had desired five +quiet minutes with little Bilham, whom he always found soothing and +even a little inspiring, and to whom he had actually moreover something +distinct and important to say. + +He had felt of old--for it already seemed long ago--rather humiliated +at discovering he could learn in talk with a personage so much his +junior the lesson of a certain moral ease; but he had now got used to +that--whether or no the mixture of the fact with other humiliations had +made it indistinct, whether or no directly from little Bilham's +example, the example of his being contentedly just the obscure and +acute little Bilham he was. It worked so for him, Strether seemed to +see; and our friend had at private hours a wan smile over the fact that +he himself, after so many more years, was still in search of something +that would work. However, as we have said, it worked just now for them +equally to have found a corner a little apart. What particularly kept +it apart was the circumstance that the music in the salon was +admirable, with two or three such singers as it was a privilege to hear +in private. Their presence gave a distinction to Chad's entertainment, +and the interest of calculating their effect on Sarah was actually so +sharp as to be almost painful. Unmistakeably, in her single person, +the motive of the composition and dressed in a splendour of crimson +which affected Strether as the sound of a fall through a skylight, she +would now be in the forefront of the listening circle and committed by +it up to her eyes. Those eyes during the wonderful dinner itself he +hadn't once met; having confessedly--perhaps a little +pusillanimously--arranged with Chad that he should be on the same side +of the table. But there was no use in having arrived now with little +Bilham at an unprecedented point of intimacy unless he could pitch +everything into the pot. "You who sat where you could see her, what +does she make of it all? By which I mean on what terms does she take +it?" + +"Oh she takes it, I judge, as proving that the claim of his family is +more than ever justified." + +"She isn't then pleased with what he has to show?" + +"On the contrary; she's pleased with it as with his capacity to do this +kind of thing--more than she has been pleased with anything for a long +time. But she wants him to show it THERE. He has no right to waste it +on the likes of us." + +Strether wondered. "She wants him to move the whole thing over?" + +"The whole thing--with an important exception. Everything he has +'picked up'--and the way he knows how. She sees no difficulty in that. +She'd run the show herself, and she'll make the handsome concession +that Woollett would be on the whole in some ways the better for it. Not +that it wouldn't be also in some ways the better for Woollett. The +people there are just as good." + +"Just as good as you and these others? Ah that may be. But such an +occasion as this, whether or no," Strether said, "isn't the people. +It's what has made the people possible." + +"Well then," his friend replied, "there you are; I give you my +impression for what it's worth. Mrs. Pocock has SEEN, and that's +to-night how she sits there. If you were to have a glimpse of her face +you'd understand me. She has made up her mind--to the sound of +expensive music." + +Strether took it freely in. "Ah then I shall have news of her." + +"I don't want to frighten you, but I think that likely. However," +little Bilham continued, "if I'm of the least use to you to hold on +by--!" + +"You're not of the least!"--and Strether laid an appreciative hand on +him to say it. "No one's of the least." With which, to mark how gaily +he could take it, he patted his companion's knee. "I must meet my fate +alone, and I SHALL--oh you'll see! And yet," he pursued the next +moment, "you CAN help me too. You once said to me"--he followed this +further--"that you held Chad should marry. I didn't see then so well as +I know now that you meant he should marry Miss Pocock. Do you still +consider that he should? Because if you do"--he kept it up--"I want +you immediately to change your mind. You can help me that way." + +"Help you by thinking he should NOT marry?" + +"Not marry at all events Mamie." + +"And who then?" + +"Ah," Strether returned, "that I'm not obliged to say. But Madame de +Vionnet--I suggest--when he can.' + +"Oh!" said little Bilham with some sharpness. + +"Oh precisely! But he needn't marry at all--I'm at any rate not +obliged to provide for it. Whereas in your case I rather feel that I +AM." + +Little Bilham was amused. "Obliged to provide for my marrying?" + +"Yes--after all I've done to you!" + +The young man weighed it. "Have you done as much as that?" + +"Well," said Strether, thus challenged, "of course I must remember what +you've also done to ME. We may perhaps call it square. But all the +same," he went on, "I wish awfully you'd marry Mamie Pocock yourself." + +Little Bilham laughed out. "Why it was only the other night, in this +very place, that you were proposing to me a different union altogether." + +"Mademoiselle de Vionnet?" Well, Strether easily confessed it. "That, +I admit, was a vain image. THIS is practical politics. I want to do +something good for both of you--I wish you each so well; and you can +see in a moment the trouble it will save me to polish you off by the +same stroke. She likes you, you know. You console her. And she's +splendid." + +Little Bilham stared as a delicate appetite stares at an overheaped +plate. "What do I console her for?" + +It just made his friend impatient. "Oh come, you knows" + +"And what proves for you that she likes me?" + +"Why the fact that I found her three days ago stopping at home alone +all the golden afternoon on the mere chance that you'd come to her, and +hanging over her balcony on that of seeing your cab drive up. I don't +know what you want more." + +Little Bilham after a moment found it. "Only just to know what proves +to you that I like HER." + +"Oh if what I've just mentioned isn't enough to make you do it, you're +a stony-hearted little fiend. Besides"--Strether encouraged his +fancy's flight--"you showed your inclination in the way you kept her +waiting, kept her on purpose to see if she cared enough for you." + +His companion paid his ingenuity the deference of a pause. "I didn't +keep her waiting. I came at the hour. I wouldn't have kept her +waiting for the world," the young man honourably declared. + +"Better still--then there you are!" And Strether, charmed, held him +the faster. "Even if you didn't do her justice, moreover," he +continued, "I should insist on your immediately coming round to it. I +want awfully to have worked it. I want"--and our friend spoke now with +a yearning that was really earnest--"at least to have done THAT." + +"To have married me off--without a penny?" + +"Well, I shan't live long; and I give you my word, now and here, that +I'll leave you every penny of my own. I haven't many, unfortunately, +but you shall have them all. And Miss Pocock, I think, has a few. I +want," Strether went on, "to have been at least to that extent +constructive even expiatory. I've been sacrificing so to strange gods +that I feel I want to put on record, somehow, my +fidelity--fundamentally unchanged after all--to our own. I feel as if +my hands were embrued with the blood of monstrous alien altars--of +another faith altogether. There it is--it's done." And then he further +explained. "It took hold of me because the idea of getting her quite +out of the way for Chad helps to clear my ground." + +The young man, at this, bounced about, and it brought them face to face +in admitted amusement. "You want me to marry as a convenience to Chad?" + +"No," Strether debated--"HE doesn't care whether you marry or not. It's +as a convenience simply to my own plan FOR him." + +"'Simply'!"--and little Bilham's concurrence was in itself a lively +comment. "Thank you. But I thought," he continued, "you had exactly +NO plan 'for' him." + +"Well then call it my plan for myself--which may be well, as you say, +to have none. His situation, don't you see? is reduced now to the bare +facts one has to recognise. Mamie doesn't want him, and he doesn't +want Mamie: so much as that these days have made clear. It's a thread +we can wind up and tuck in." + +But little Bilham still questioned. "YOU can--since you seem so much +to want to. But why should I?" + +Poor Strether thought it over, but was obliged of course to admit that +his demonstration did superficially fail. "Seriously, there is no +reason. It's my affair--I must do it alone. I've only my fantastic +need of making my dose stiff." + +Little Bilham wondered. "What do you call your dose?" + +"Why what I have to swallow. I want my conditions unmitigated." + +He had spoken in the tone of talk for talk's sake, and yet with an +obscure truth lurking in the loose folds; a circumstance presently not +without its effect on his young friend. Little Bilham's eyes rested on +him a moment with some intensity; then suddenly, as if everything had +cleared up, he gave a happy laugh. It seemed to say that if +pretending, or even trying, or still even hoping, to be able to care +for Mamie would be of use, he was all there for the job. "I'll do +anything in the world for you!" + +"Well," Strether smiled, "anything in the world is all I want. I don't +know anything that pleased me in her more," he went on, "than the way +that, on my finding her up there all alone, coming on her unawares and +feeling greatly for her being so out of it, she knocked down my tall +house of cards with her instant and cheerful allusion to the next young +man. It was somehow so the note I needed--her staying at home to +receive him." + +"It was Chad of course," said little Bilham, "who asked the next young +man--I like your name for me!--to call." + +"So I supposed--all of which, thank God, is in our innocent and natural +manners. But do you know," Strether asked, "if Chad knows--?" And +then as this interlocutor seemed at a loss: "Why where she has come +out." + +Little Bilham, at this, met his face with a conscious look--it was as +if, more than anything yet, the allusion had penetrated. "Do you know +yourself?" + +Strether lightly shook his head. "There I stop. Oh, odd as it may +appear to you, there ARE things I don't know. I only got the sense +from her of something very sharp, and yet very deep down, that she was +keeping all to herself. That is I had begun with the belief that she +HAD kept it to herself; but face to face with her there I soon made out +that there was a person with whom she would have shared it. I had +thought she possibly might with ME--but I saw then that I was only half +in her confidence. When, turning to me to greet me--for she was on the +balcony and I had come in without her knowing it--she showed me she had +been expecting YOU and was proportionately disappointed, I got hold of +the tail of my conviction. Half an hour later I was in possession of +all the rest of it. You know what has happened." He looked at his +young friend hard--then he felt sure. "For all you say, you're up to +your eyes. So there you are." + +Little Bilham after an instant pulled half round. "I assure you she +hasn't told me anything." + +"Of course she hasn't. For what do you suggest that I suppose her to +take you? But you've been with her every day, you've seen her freely, +you've liked her greatly--I stick to that--and you've made your profit +of it. You know what she has been through as well as you know that she +has dined here to-night--which must have put her, by the way, through a +good deal more." + +The young man faced this blast; after which he pulled round the rest of +the way. "I haven't in the least said she hasn't been nice to me. But +she's proud." + +"And quite properly. But not too proud for that." + +"It's just her pride that has made her. Chad," little Bilham loyally +went on, "has really been as kind to her as possible. It's awkward for +a man when a girl's in love with him." + +"Ah but she isn't--now." + +Little Bilham sat staring before him; then he sprang up as if his +friend's penetration, recurrent and insistent, made him really after +all too nervous. "No--she isn't now. It isn't in the least," he went +on, "Chad's fault. He's really all right. I mean he would have been +willing. But she came over with ideas. Those she had got at home. +They had been her motive and support in joining her brother and his +wife. She was to SAVE our friend." + +"Ah like me, poor thing?" Strether also got to his feet. + +"Exactly--she had a bad moment. It was very soon distinct to her, to +pull her up, to let her down, that, alas, he was, he IS, saved. There's +nothing left for her to do." + +"Not even to love him?" + +"She would have loved him better as she originally believed him." + +Strether wondered "Of course one asks one's self what notion a little +girl forms, where a young man's in question, of such a history and such +a state." + +"Well, this little girl saw them, no doubt, as obscure, but she saw +them practically as wrong. The wrong for her WAS the obscure. Chad +turns out at any rate right and good and disconcerting, while what she +was all prepared for, primed and girded and wound up for, was to deal +with him as the general opposite." + +"Yet wasn't her whole point"--Strether weighed it--"that he was to be, +that he COULD be, made better, redeemed?" + +Little Bilham fixed it all a moment, and then with a small headshake +that diffused a tenderness: "She's too late. Too late for the +miracle." + +"Yes"--his companion saw enough. "Still, if the worst fault of his +condition is that it may be all there for her to profit by--?" + +"Oh she doesn't want to 'profit,' in that flat way. She doesn't want +to profit by another woman's work--she wants the miracle to have been +her own miracle. THAT'S what she's too late for." + +Strether quite felt how it all fitted, yet there seemed one loose +piece. "I'm bound to say, you know, that she strikes one, on these +lines, as fastidious--what you call here difficile." + +Little Bilham tossed up his chin. "Of course she's difficile--on any +lines! What else in the world ARE our Mamies--the real, the right +ones?" + +"I see, I see," our friend repeated, charmed by the responsive wisdom +he had ended by so richly extracting. "Mamie is one of the real and +the right." + +"The very thing itself." + +"And what it comes to then," Strether went on, "is that poor awful Chad +is simply too good for her." + +"Ah too good was what he was after all to be; but it was she herself, +and she herself only, who was to have made him so." + +It hung beautifully together, but with still a loose end. "Wouldn't he +do for her even if he should after all break--" + +"With his actual influence?" Oh little Bilham had for this enquiry the +sharpest of all his controls. "How can he 'do'--on any terms +whatever--when he's flagrantly spoiled?" + +Strether could only meet the question with his passive, his receptive +pleasure. "Well, thank goodness, YOU'RE not! You remain for her to +save, and I come back, on so beautiful and full a demonstration, to my +contention of just now--that of your showing distinct signs of her +having already begun." + +The most he could further say to himself--as his young friend turned +away--was that the charge encountered for the moment no renewed denial. +Little Bilham, taking his course back to the music, only shook his +good-natured ears an instant, in the manner of a terrier who has got +wet; while Strether relapsed into the sense--which had for him in these +days most of comfort--that he was free to believe in anything that from +hour to hour kept him going. He had positively motions and flutters of +this conscious hour-to-hour kind, temporary surrenders to irony, to +fancy, frequent instinctive snatches at the growing rose of +observation, constantly stronger for him, as he felt, in scent and +colour, and in which he could bury his nose even to wantonness. This +last resource was offered him, for that matter, in the very form of his +next clear perception--the vision of a prompt meeting, in the doorway +of the room, between little Bilham and brilliant Miss Barrace, who was +entering as Bilham withdrew. She had apparently put him a question, to +which he had replied by turning to indicate his late interlocutor; +toward whom, after an interrogation further aided by a resort to that +optical machinery which seemed, like her other ornaments, curious and +archaic, the genial lady, suggesting more than ever for her fellow +guest the old French print, the historic portrait, directed herself +with an intention that Strether instantly met. He knew in advance the +first note she would sound, and took in as she approached all her need +of sounding it. Nothing yet had been so "wonderful" between them as +the present occasion; and it was her special sense of this quality in +occasions that she was there, as she was in most places, to feed. That +sense had already been so well fed by the situation about them that she +had quitted the other room, forsaken the music, dropped out of the +play, abandoned, in a word, the stage itself, that she might stand a +minute behind the scenes with Strether and so perhaps figure as one of +the famous augurs replying, behind the oracle, to the wink of the +other. Seated near him presently where little Bilham had sat, she +replied in truth to many things; beginning as soon as he had said to +her--what he hoped he said without fatuity--"All you ladies are +extraordinarily kind to me." + +She played her long handle, which shifted her observation; she saw in +an instant all the absences that left them free. "How can we be +anything else? But isn't that exactly your plight? 'We ladies'--oh +we're nice, and you must be having enough of us! As one of us, you +know, I don't pretend I'm crazy about us. But Miss Gostrey at least +to-night has left you alone, hasn't she?" With which she again looked +about as if Maria might still lurk. + +"Oh yes," said Strether; "she's only sitting up for me at home." And +then as this elicited from his companion her gay "Oh, oh, oh!" he +explained that he meant sitting up in suspense and prayer. "We thought +it on the whole better she shouldn't be present; and either way of +course it's a terrible worry for her." He abounded in the sense of his +appeal to the ladies, and they might take their choice of his doing so +from humility or from pride. "Yet she inclines to believe I shall come +out." + +"Oh I incline to believe too you'll come out!"--Miss Barrace, with her +laugh, was not to be behind. "Only the question's about WHERE, isn't +it? However," she happily continued, "if it's anywhere at all it must +be very far on, mustn't it? To do us justice, I think, you know," she +laughed, "we do, among us all, want you rather far on. Yes, yes," she +repeated in her quick droll way; "we want you very, VERY far on!" After +which she wished to know why he had thought it better Maria shouldn't +be present. + +"Oh," he replied, "it was really her own idea. I should have wished +it. But she dreads responsibility." + +"And isn't that a new thing for her?" + +"To dread it? No doubt--no doubt. But her nerve has given way." + +Miss Barrace looked at him a moment. "She has too much at stake." Then +less gravely: "Mine, luckily for me, holds out." + +"Luckily for me too"--Strether came back to that. "My own isn't so +firm, MY appetite for responsibility isn't so sharp, as that I haven't +felt the very principle of this occasion to be 'the more the merrier.' +If we ARE so merry it's because Chad has understood so well." + +"He has understood amazingly," said Miss Barrace. + +"It's wonderful--Strether anticipated for her. + +"It's wonderful!" she, to meet it, intensified; so that, face to face +over it, they largely and recklessly laughed. But she presently added: +"Oh I see the principle. If one didn't one would be lost. But when +once one has got hold of it--" + +"It's as simple as twice two! From the moment he had to do something--" + +"A crowd"--she took him straight up--"was the only thing? Rather, +rather: a rumpus of sound," she laughed, "or nothing. Mrs. Pocock's +built in, or built out--whichever you call it; she's packed so tight +she can't move. She's in splendid isolation"--Miss Barrace embroidered +the theme. + +Strether followed, but scrupulous of justice. "Yet with every one in +the place successively introduced to her." + +"Wonderfully--but just so that it does build her out. She's bricked +up, she's buried alive!" + +Strether seemed for a moment to look at it; but it brought him to a +sigh. "Oh but she's not dead! It will take more than this to kill +her." + +His companion had a pause that might have been for pity. "No, I can't +pretend I think she's finished--or that it's for more than to-night." +She remained pensive as if with the same compunction. "It's only up to +her chin." Then again for the fun of it: "She can breathe." + +"She can breathe!"--he echoed it in the same spirit. "And do you +know," he went on, "what's really all this time happening to +me?--through the beauty of music, the gaiety of voices, the uproar in +short of our revel and the felicity of your wit? The sound of Mrs. +Pocock's respiration drowns for me, I assure you, every other. It's +literally all I hear." + +She focussed him with her clink of chains. "Well--!" she breathed ever +so kindly. + +"Well, what?" + +"She IS free from her chin up," she mused; "and that WILL be enough for +her." + +"It will be enough for me!" Strether ruefully laughed. "Waymarsh has +really," he then asked, "brought her to see you?" + +"Yes--but that's the worst of it. I could do you no good. And yet I +tried hard." + +Strether wondered. "And how did you try?" + +"Why I didn't speak of you." + +"I see. That was better." + +"Then what would have been worse? For speaking or silent," she lightly +wailed, "I somehow 'compromise.' And it has never been any one but you." + +"That shows"--he was magnanimous--"that it's something not in you, but +in one's self. It's MY fault." + +She was silent a little. "No, it's Mr. Waymarsh's. It's the fault of +his having brought her." + +"Ah then," said Strether good-naturedly, "why DID he bring her?" + +"He couldn't afford not to." + +"Oh you were a trophy--one of the spoils of conquest? But why in that +case, since you do 'compromise'--" + +"Don't I compromise HIM as well? I do compromise him as well," Miss +Barrace smiled. "I compromise him as hard as I can. But for Mr. +Waymarsh it isn't fatal. It's--so far as his wonderful relation with +Mrs. Pocock is concerned--favourable." And then, as he still seemed +slightly at sea: "The man who had succeeded with ME, don't you see? +For her to get him from me was such an added incentive." + +Strether saw, but as if his path was still strewn with surprises. "It's +'from' you then that she has got him?" + +She was amused at his momentary muddle. "You can fancy my fight! She +believes in her triumph. I think it has been part of her joy. + +"Oh her joy!" Strether sceptically murmured. + +"Well, she thinks she has had her own way. And what's to-night for her +but a kind of apotheosis? Her frock's really good." + +"Good enough to go to heaven in? For after a real apotheosis," +Strether went on, "there's nothing BUT heaven. For Sarah there's only +to-morrow." + +"And you mean that she won't find to-morrow heavenly?" + +"Well, I mean that I somehow feel to-night--on her behalf--too good to +be true. She has had her cake; that is she's in the act now of having +it, of swallowing the largest and sweetest piece. There won't be +another left for her. Certainly I haven't one. It can only, at the +best, be Chad." He continued to make it out as for their common +entertainment. "He may have one, as it were, up his sleeve; yet it's +borne in upon me that if he had--" + +"He wouldn't"--she quite understood--"have taken all THIS trouble? I +dare say not, and, if I may be quite free and dreadful, I very much +hope he won't take any more. Of course I won't pretend now," she +added, "not to know what it's a question of." + +"Oh every one must know now," poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; "and +it's strange enough and funny enough that one should feel everybody +here at this very moment to be knowing and watching and waiting." + +"Yes--isn't it indeed funny?" Miss Barrace quite rose to it. "That's +the way we ARE in Paris." She was always pleased with a new +contribution to that queerness. "It's wonderful! But, you know," she +declared, "it all depends on you. I don't want to turn the knife in +your vitals, but that's naturally what you just now meant by our all +being on top of you. We know you as the hero of the drama, and we're +gathered to see what you'll do." + +Strether looked at her a moment with a light perhaps slightly obscured. +"I think that must be why the hero has taken refuge in this corner. +He's scared at his heroism--he shrinks from his part." + +"Ah but we nevertheless believe he'll play it. That's why," Miss +Barrace kindly went on, "we take such an interest in you. We feel +you'll come up to the scratch." And then as he seemed perhaps not quite +to take fire: "Don't let him do it." + +"Don't let Chad go?" + +"Yes, keep hold of him. With all this"--and she indicated the general +tribute--"he has done enough. We love him here--he's charming." + +"It's beautiful," said Strether, "the way you all can simplify when you +will." + +But she gave it to him back. "It's nothing to the way you will when +you must." + +He winced at it as at the very voice of prophecy, and it kept him a +moment quiet. He detained her, however, on her appearing about to +leave him alone in the rather cold clearance their talk had made. +"There positively isn't a sign of a hero to-night; the hero's dodging +and shirking, the hero's ashamed. Therefore, you know, I think, what +you must all REALLY be occupied with is the heroine." + +Miss Barrace took a minute. "The heroine?" + +"The heroine. I've treated her," said Strether, "not a bit like a +hero. Oh," he sighed, "I don't do it well!" + +She eased him off. "You do it as you can." And then after another +hesitation: "I think she's satisfied." + +But he remained compunctious. "I haven't been near her. I haven't +looked at her." + +"Ah then you've lost a good deal!" + +He showed he knew it. "She's more wonderful than ever?" + +"Than ever. With Mr. Pocock." + +Strether wondered. "Madame de Vionnet--with Jim?" + +"Madame de Vionnet--with 'Jim.'" Miss Barrace was historic. + +"And what's she doing with him?" + +"Ah you must ask HIM!" + +Strether's face lighted again at the prospect. "It WILL be amusing to +do so." Yet he continued to wonder. "But she must have some idea." + +"Of course she has--she has twenty ideas. She has in the first place," +said Miss Barrace, swinging a little her tortoise-shell, "that of doing +her part. Her part is to help YOU." + +It came out as nothing had come yet; links were missing and connexions +unnamed, but it was suddenly as if they were at the heart of their +subject. "Yes; how much more she does it," Strether gravely reflected, +"than I help HER!" It all came over him as with the near presence of +the beauty, the grace, the intense, dissimulated spirit with which he +had, as he said, been putting off contact. "SHE has courage." + +"Ah she has courage!" Miss Barrace quite agreed; and it was as if for a +moment they saw the quantity in each other's face. + +But indeed the whole thing was present. "How much she must care!" + +"Ah there it is. She does care. But it isn't, is it," Miss Barrace +considerately added, "as if you had ever had any doubt of that?" + +Strether seemed suddenly to like to feel that he really never had. "Why +of course it's the whole point." + +"Voila!" Miss Barrace smiled. + +"It's why one came out," Strether went on. "And it's why one has +stayed so long. And it's also"--he abounded--"why one's going home. +It's why, it's why--" + +"It's why everything!" she concurred. "It's why she might be +to-night--for all she looks and shows, and for all your friend 'Jim' +does--about twenty years old. That's another of her ideas; to be for +him, and to be quite easily and charmingly, as young as a little girl." + +Strether assisted at his distance. "'For him'? For Chad--?" + +"For Chad, in a manner, naturally, always. But in particular to-night +for Mr. Pocock." And then as her friend still stared: "Yes, it IS of +a bravery But that's what she has: her high sense of duty." It was +more than sufficiently before them. "When Mr. Newsome has his hands so +embarrassed with his sister--" + +"It's quite the least"--Strether filled it out--"that she should take +his sister's husband? Certainly--quite the least. So she has taken +him." + +"She has taken him." It was all Miss Barrace had meant. + +Still it remained enough. "It must be funny." + +"Oh it IS funny." That of course essentially went with it. + +But it brought them back. "How indeed then she must care!" In answer to +which Strether's entertainer dropped a comprehensive "Ah!" expressive +perhaps of some impatience for the time he took to get used to it. She +herself had got used to it long before. + + + +II + + +When one morning within the week he perceived the whole thing to be +really at last upon him Strether's immediate feeling was all relief. He +had known this morning that something was about to happen--known it, in +a moment, by Waymarsh's manner when Waymarsh appeared before him during +his brief consumption of coffee and a roll in the small slippery +salle-a-manger so associated with rich rumination. Strether had taken +there of late various lonely and absent-minded meals; he communed +there, even at the end of June, with a suspected chill, the air of old +shivers mixed with old savours, the air in which so many of his +impressions had perversely matured; the place meanwhile renewing its +message to him by the very circumstance of his single state. He now +sat there, for the most part, to sigh softly, while he vaguely tilted +his carafe, over the vision of how much better Waymarsh was occupied. +That was really his success by the common measure--to have led this +companion so on and on. He remembered how at first there had been +scarce a squatting-place he could beguile him into passing; the actual +outcome of which at last was that there was scarce one that could +arrest him in his rush. His rush--as Strether vividly and amusedly +figured it--continued to be all with Sarah, and contained perhaps +moreover the word of the whole enigma, whipping up in its fine +full-flavoured froth the very principle, for good or for ill, of his +own, of Strether's destiny. It might after all, to the end, only be +that they had united to save him, and indeed, so far as Waymarsh was +concerned, that HAD to be the spring of action. Strether was glad at +all events, in connexion with the case, that the saving he required was +not more scant; so constituted a luxury was it in certain lights just +to lurk there out of the full glare. He had moments of quite seriously +wondering whether Waymarsh wouldn't in fact, thanks to old friendship +and a conceivable indulgence, make about as good terms for him as he +might make for himself. They wouldn't be the same terms of course; but +they might have the advantage that he himself probably should be able +to make none at all. + +He was never in the morning very late, but Waymarsh had already been +out, and, after a peep into the dim refectory, he presented himself +with much less than usual of his large looseness. He had made sure, +through the expanse of glass exposed to the court, that they would be +alone; and there was now in fact that about him that pretty well took +up the room. He was dressed in the garments of summer; and save that +his white waistcoat was redundant and bulging these things favoured, +they determined, his expression. He wore a straw hat such as his +friend hadn't yet seen in Paris, and he showed a buttonhole freshly +adorned with a magnificent rose. Strether read on the instant his +story--how, astir for the previous hour, the sprinkled newness of the +day, so pleasant at that season in Paris, he was fairly panting with +the pulse of adventure and had been with Mrs. Pocock, unmistakeably, to +the Marche aux Fleurs. Strether really knew in this vision of him a joy +that was akin to envy; so reversed as he stood there did their old +positions seem; so comparatively doleful now showed, by the sharp turn +of the wheel, the posture of the pilgrim from Woollett. He wondered, +this pilgrim, if he had originally looked to Waymarsh so brave and +well, so remarkably launched, as it was at present the latter's +privilege to appear. He recalled that his friend had remarked to him +even at Chester that his aspect belied his plea of prostration; but +there certainly couldn't have been, for an issue, an aspect less +concerned than Waymarsh's with the menace of decay. Strether had at +any rate never resembled a Southern planter of the great days--which +was the image picturesquely suggested by the happy relation between the +fuliginous face and the wide panama of his visitor. This type, it +further amused him to guess, had been, on Waymarsh's part, the object +of Sarah's care; he was convinced that her taste had not been a +stranger to the conception and purchase of the hat, any more than her +fine fingers had been guiltless of the bestowal of the rose. It came +to him in the current of thought, as things so oddly did come, that HE +had never risen with the lark to attend a brilliant woman to the Marche +aux Fleurs; this could be fastened on him in connexion neither with +Miss Gostrey nor with Madame de Vionnet; the practice of getting up +early for adventures could indeed in no manner be fastened on him. It +came to him in fact that just here was his usual case: he was for ever +missing things through his general genius for missing them, while +others were for ever picking them up through a contrary bent. And it +was others who looked abstemious and he who looked greedy; it was he +somehow who finally paid, and it was others who mainly partook. Yes, +he should go to the scaffold yet for he wouldn't know quite whom. He +almost, for that matter, felt on the scaffold now and really quite +enjoying it. It worked out as BECAUSE he was anxious there--it worked +out as for this reason that Waymarsh was so blooming. It was HIS trip +for health, for a change, that proved the success--which was just what +Strether, planning and exerting himself, had desired it should be. That +truth already sat full-blown on his companion's lips; benevolence +breathed from them as with the warmth of active exercise, and also a +little as with the bustle of haste. + +"Mrs. Pocock, whom I left a quarter of an hour ago at her hotel, has +asked me to mention to you that she would like to find you at home here +in about another hour. She wants to see you; she has something to +say--or considers, I believe, that you may have: so that I asked her +myself why she shouldn't come right round. She hasn't BEEN round +yet--to see our place; and I took upon myself to say that I was sure +you'd be glad to have her. The thing's therefore, you see, to keep +right here till she comes." + +The announcement was sociably, even though, after Waymarsh's wont, +somewhat solemnly made; but Strether quickly felt other things in it +than these light features. It was the first approach, from that +quarter, to admitted consciousness; it quickened his pulse; it simply +meant at last that he should have but himself to thank if he didn't +know where he was. He had finished his breakfast; he pushed it away +and was on his feet. There were plenty of elements of surprise, but +only one of doubt. "The thing's for YOU to keep here too?" Waymarsh +had been slightly ambiguous. + +He wasn't ambiguous, however, after this enquiry; and Strether's +understanding had probably never before opened so wide and effective a +mouth as it was to open during the next five minutes. It was no part of +his friend's wish, as appeared, to help to receive Mrs. Pocock; he +quite understood the spirit in which she was to present herself, but +his connexion with her visit was limited to his having--well, as he +might say--perhaps a little promoted it. He had thought, and had let +her know it, that Strether possibly would think she might have been +round before. At any rate, as turned out, she had been wanting +herself, quite a while, to come. "I told her," said Waymarsh, "that it +would have been a bright idea if she had only carried it out before." + +Strether pronounced it so bright as to be almost dazzling. "But why +HASn't she carried it out before? She has seen me every day--she had +only to name her hour. I've been waiting and waiting." + +"Well, I told her you had. And she has been waiting too." It was, in +the oddest way in the world, on the showing of this tone, a genial new +pressing coaxing Waymarsh; a Waymarsh conscious with a different +consciousness from any he had yet betrayed, and actually rendered by it +almost insinuating. He lacked only time for full persuasion, and +Strether was to see in a moment why. Meantime, however, our friend +perceived, he was announcing a step of some magnanimity on Mrs. +Pocock's part, so that he could deprecate a sharp question. It was his +own high purpose in fact to have smoothed sharp questions to rest. He +looked his old comrade very straight in the eyes, and he had never +conveyed to him in so mute a manner so much kind confidence and so much +good advice. Everything that was between them was again in his face, +but matured and shelved and finally disposed of. "At any rate," he +added, "she's coming now." + +Considering how many pieces had to fit themselves, it all fell, in +Strether's brain, into a close rapid order. He saw on the spot what +had happened, and what probably would yet; and it was all funny enough. +It was perhaps just this freedom of appreciation that wound him up to +his flare of high spirits. "What is she coming FOR?--to kill me?" + +"She's coming to be very VERY kind to you, and you must let me say that +I greatly hope you'll not be less so to herself." + +This was spoken by Waymarsh with much gravity of admonition, and as +Strether stood there he knew he had but to make a movement to take the +attitude of a man gracefully receiving a present. The present was that +of the opportunity dear old Waymarsh had flattered himself he had +divined in him the slight soreness of not having yet thoroughly +enjoyed; so he had brought it to him thus, as on a little silver +breakfast-tray, familiarly though delicately--without oppressive pomp; +and he was to bend and smile and acknowledge, was to take and use and +be grateful. He was not--that was the beauty of it--to be asked to +deflect too much from his dignity. No wonder the old boy bloomed in +this bland air of his own distillation. Strether felt for a moment as +if Sarah were actually walking up and down outside. Wasn't she hanging +about the porte-cochere while her friend thus summarily opened a way? +Strether would meet her but to take it, and everything would be for the +best in the best of possible worlds. He had never so much known what +any one meant as, in the light of this demonstration, he knew what Mrs. +Newsome did. It had reached Waymarsh from Sarah, but it had reached +Sarah from her mother, and there was no break in the chain by which it +reached HIM. "Has anything particular happened," he asked after a +minute--"so suddenly to determine her? Has she heard anything +unexpected from home?" + +Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him, looked at him harder than ever. +"'Unexpected'?" He had a brief hesitation; then, however, he was firm. +"We're leaving Paris." + +"Leaving? That IS sudden." + +Waymarsh showed a different opinion. "Less so than it may seem. The +purpose of Mrs. Pocock's visit is to explain to you in fact that it's +NOT." + +Strether didn't at all know if he had really an advantage--anything +that would practically count as one; but he enjoyed for the moment--as +for the first time in his life--the sense of so carrying it off. He +wondered--it was amusing--if he felt as the impudent feel. "I shall +take great pleasure, I assure you, in any explanation. I shall be +delighted to receive Sarah." + +The sombre glow just darkened in his comrade's eyes; but he was struck +with the way it died out again. It was too mixed with another +consciousness--it was too smothered, as might be said, in flowers. He +really for the time regretted it--poor dear old sombre glow! Something +straight and simple, something heavy and empty, had been eclipsed in +its company; something by which he had best known his friend. Waymarsh +wouldn't BE his friend, somehow, without the occasional ornament of the +sacred rage, and the right to the sacred rage--inestimably precious for +Strether's charity--he also seemed in a manner, and at Mrs. Pocock's +elbow, to have forfeited. Strether remembered the occasion early in +their stay when on that very spot he had come out with his earnest, his +ominous "Quit it!"--and, so remembering, felt it hang by a hair that he +didn't himself now utter the same note. Waymarsh was having a good +time--this was the truth that was embarrassing for him, and he was +having it then and there, he was having it in Europe, he was having it +under the very protection of circumstances of which he didn't in the +least approve; all of which placed him in a false position, with no +issue possible--none at least by the grand manner. It was practically +in the manner of any one--it was all but in poor Strether's own--that +instead of taking anything up he merely made the most of having to be +himself explanatory. "I'm not leaving for the United States direct. +Mr. and Mrs. Pocock and Miss Mamie are thinking of a little trip before +their own return, and we've been talking for some days past of our +joining forces. We've settled it that we do join and that we sail +together the end of next month. But we start to-morrow for Switzerland. +Mrs. Pocock wants some scenery. She hasn't had much yet." + +He was brave in his way too, keeping nothing back, confessing all there +was, and only leaving Strether to make certain connexions. "Is what +Mrs. Newsome had cabled her daughter an injunction to break off short?" + +The grand manner indeed at this just raised its head a little. "I know +nothing about Mrs. Newsome's cables." + +Their eyes met on it with some intensity--during the few seconds of +which something happened quite out of proportion to the time. It +happened that Strether, looking thus at his friend, didn't take his +answer for truth--and that something more again occurred in consequence +of THAT. Yes--Waymarsh just DID know about Mrs. Newsome's cables: to +what other end than that had they dined together at Bignon's? Strether +almost felt for the instant that it was to Mrs. Newsome herself the +dinner had been given; and, for that matter, quite felt how she must +have known about it and, as he might think, protected and consecrated +it. He had a quick blurred view of daily cables, questions, answers, +signals: clear enough was his vision of the expense that, when so +wound up, the lady at home was prepared to incur. Vivid not less was +his memory of what, during his long observation of her, some of her +attainments of that high pitch had cost her. Distinctly she was at the +highest now, and Waymarsh, who imagined himself an independent +performer, was really, forcing his fine old natural voice, an +overstrained accompanist. The whole reference of his errand seemed to +mark her for Strether as by this time consentingly familiar to him, and +nothing yet had so despoiled her of a special shade of consideration. +"You don't know," he asked, "whether Sarah has been directed from home +to try me on the matter of my also going to Switzerland?" + +"I know," said Waymarsh as manfully as possible, "nothing whatever +about her private affairs; though I believe her to be acting in +conformity with things that have my highest respect." It was as manful +as possible, but it was still the false note--as it had to be to convey +so sorry a statement. He knew everything, Strether more and more felt, +that he thus disclaimed, and his little punishment was just in this +doom to a second fib. What falser position--given the man--could the +most vindictive mind impose? He ended by squeezing through a passage in +which three months before he would certainly have stuck fast. "Mrs +Pocock will probably be ready herself to answer any enquiry you may put +to her. But," he continued, "BUT--!" He faltered on it. + +"But what? Don't put her too many?" + +Waymarsh looked large, but the harm was done; he couldn't, do what he +would, help looking rosy. "Don't do anything you'll be sorry for." + +It was an attenuation, Strether guessed, of something else that had +been on his lips; it was a sudden drop to directness, and was thereby +the voice of sincerity. He had fallen to the supplicating note, and +that immediately, for our friend, made a difference and reinstated him. +They were in communication as they had been, that first morning, in +Sarah's salon and in her presence and Madame de Vionnet's; and the same +recognition of a great good will was again, after all, possible. Only +the amount of response Waymarsh had then taken for granted was doubled, +decupled now. This came out when he presently said: "Of course I +needn't assure you I hope you'll come with us." Then it was that his +implications and expectations loomed up for Strether as almost +pathetically gross. + +The latter patted his shoulder while he thanked him, giving the go-by +to the question of joining the Pococks; he expressed the joy he felt at +seeing him go forth again so brave and free, and he in fact almost took +leave of him on the spot. "I shall see you again of course before you +go; but I'm meanwhile much obliged to you for arranging so conveniently +for what you've told me. I shall walk up and down in the court +there--dear little old court which we've each bepaced so, this last +couple of months, to the tune of our flights and our drops, our +hesitations and our plunges: I shall hang about there, all impatience +and excitement, please let Sarah know, till she graciously presents +herself. Leave me with her without fear," he laughed; "I assure you I +shan't hurt her. I don't think either she'll hurt ME: I'm in a +situation in which damage was some time ago discounted. Besides, THAT +isn't what worries you--but don't, don't explain! We're all right as we +are: which was the degree of success our adventure was pledged to for +each of us. We weren't, it seemed, all right as we were before; and +we've got over the ground, all things considered, quickly. I hope +you'll have a lovely time in the Alps." + +Waymarsh fairly looked up at him as from the foot of them. "I don't +know as I OUGHT really to go." + +It was the conscience of Milrose in the very voice of Milrose, but, oh +it was feeble and flat! Strether suddenly felt quite ashamed for him; +he breathed a greater boldness. "LET yourself, on the contrary, go--in +all agreeable directions. These are precious hours--at our age they +mayn't recur. Don't have it to say to yourself at Milrose, next +winter, that you hadn't courage for them." And then as his comrade +queerly stared: "Live up to Mrs. Pocock." + +"Live up to her?" + +"You're a great help to her." + +Waymarsh looked at it as at one of the uncomfortable things that were +certainly true and that it was yet ironical to say. "It's more then +than you are." + +"That's exactly your own chance and advantage. Besides," said +Strether, "I do in my way contribute. I know what I'm about." + +Waymarsh had kept on his great panama, and, as he now stood nearer the +door, his last look beneath the shade of it had turned again to +darkness and warning. "So do I! See here, Strether." + +"I know what you're going to say. 'Quit this'?" + +"Quit this!" But it lacked its old intensity; nothing of it remained; +it went out of the room with him. + + + +III + + +Almost the first thing, strangely enough, that, about an hour later, +Strether found himself doing in Sarah's presence was to remark +articulately on this failure, in their friend, of what had been +superficially his great distinction. It was as if--he alluded of +course to the grand manner--the dear man had sacrificed it to some +other advantage; which would be of course only for himself to measure. +It might be simply that he was physically so much more sound than on +his first coming out; this was all prosaic, comparatively cheerful and +vulgar. And fortunately, if one came to that, his improvement in +health was really itself grander than any manner it could be conceived +as having cost him. "You yourself alone, dear Sarah"--Strether took +the plunge--"have done him, it strikes me, in these three weeks, as +much good as all the rest of his time together." + +It was a plunge because somehow the range of reference was, in the +conditions, "funny," and made funnier still by Sarah's attitude, by the +turn the occasion had, with her appearance, so sensibly taken. Her +appearance was really indeed funnier than anything else--the spirit in +which he felt her to be there as soon as she was there, the shade of +obscurity that cleared up for him as soon as he was seated with her in +the small salon de lecture that had, for the most part, in all the +weeks, witnessed the wane of his early vivacity of discussion with +Waymarsh. It was an immense thing, quite a tremendous thing, for her +to have come: this truth opened out to him in spite of his having +already arrived for himself at a fairly vivid view of it. He had done +exactly what he had given Waymarsh his word for--had walked and +re-walked the court while he awaited her advent; acquiring in this +exercise an amount of light that affected him at the time as flooding +the scene. She had decided upon the step in order to give him the +benefit of a doubt, in order to be able to say to her mother that she +had, even to abjectness, smoothed the way for him. The doubt had been +as to whether he mightn't take her as not having smoothed it--and the +admonition had possibly come from Waymarsh's more detached spirit. +Waymarsh had at any rate, certainly, thrown his weight into the +scale--he had pointed to the importance of depriving their friend of a +grievance. She had done justice to the plea, and it was to set herself +right with a high ideal that she actually sat there in her state. Her +calculation was sharp in the immobility with which she held her tall +parasol-stick upright and at arm's length, quite as if she had struck +the place to plant her flag; in the separate precautions she took not +to show as nervous; in the aggressive repose in which she did quite +nothing but wait for him. Doubt ceased to be possible from the moment +he had taken in that she had arrived with no proposal whatever; that +her concern was simply to show what she had come to receive. She had +come to receive his submission, and Waymarsh was to have made it plain +to him that she would expect nothing less. He saw fifty things, her +host, at this convenient stage; but one of those he most saw was that +their anxious friend hadn't quite had the hand required of him. +Waymarsh HAD, however, uttered the request that she might find him +mild, and while hanging about the court before her arrival he had +turned over with zeal the different ways in which he could be so. The +difficulty was that if he was mild he wasn't, for her purpose, +conscious. If she wished him conscious--as everything about her cried +aloud that she did--she must accordingly be at costs to make him so. +Conscious he was, for himself--but only of too many things; so she must +choose the one she required. + +Practically, however, it at last got itself named, and when once that +had happened they were quite at the centre of their situation. One +thing had really done as well as another; when Strether had spoken of +Waymarsh's leaving him, and that had necessarily brought on a reference +to Mrs. Pocock's similar intention, the jump was but short to supreme +lucidity. Light became indeed after that so intense that Strether +would doubtless have but half made out, in the prodigious glare, by +which of the two the issue had been in fact precipitated. It was, in +their contracted quarters, as much there between them as if it had been +something suddenly spilled with a crash and a splash on the floor. The +form of his submission was to be an engagement to acquit himself within +the twenty-four hours. "He'll go in a moment if you give him the +word--he assures me on his honour he'll do that": this came in its +order, out of its order, in respect to Chad, after the crash had +occurred. It came repeatedly during the time taken by Strether to feel +that he was even more fixed in his rigour than he had supposed--the +time he was not above adding to a little by telling her that such a way +of putting it on her brother's part left him sufficiently surprised. +She wasn't at all funny at last--she was really fine; and he felt +easily where she was strong--strong for herself. It hadn't yet so come +home to him that she was nobly and appointedly officious. She was +acting in interests grander and clearer than that of her poor little +personal, poor little Parisian equilibrium, and all his consciousness +of her mother's moral pressure profited by this proof of its sustaining +force. She would be held up; she would be strengthened; he needn't in +the least be anxious for her. What would once more have been distinct +to him had he tried to make it so was that, as Mrs. Newsome was +essentially all moral pressure, the presence of this element was almost +identical with her own presence. It wasn't perhaps that he felt he was +dealing with her straight, but it was certainly as if she had been +dealing straight with HIM. She was reaching him somehow by the +lengthened arm of the spirit, and he was having to that extent to take +her into account; but he wasn't reaching her in turn, not making her +take HIM; he was only reaching Sarah, who appeared to take so little of +him. "Something has clearly passed between you and Chad," he presently +said, "that I think I ought to know something more about. Does he put +it all," he smiled, "on me?" + +"Did you come out," she asked, "to put it all on HIM?" + +But he replied to this no further than, after an instant, by saying: +"Oh it's all right. Chad I mean's all right in having said to +you--well anything he may have said. I'll TAKE it all--what he does +put on me. Only I must see him before I see you again." + +She hesitated, but she brought it out. "Is it absolutely necessary you +should see me again?" + +"Certainly, if I'm to give you any definite word about anything." + +"Is it your idea then," she returned, "that I shall keep on meeting you +only to be exposed to fresh humiliation?" + +He fixed her a longer time. "Are your instructions from Mrs. Newsome +that you shall, even at the worst, absolutely and irretrievably break +with me?" + +"My instructions from Mrs. Newsome are, if you please, my affair. You +know perfectly what your own were, and you can judge for yourself of +what it can do for you to have made what you have of them. You can +perfectly see, at any rate, I'll go so far as to say, that if I wish +not to expose myself I must wish still less to expose HER." She had +already said more than she had quite expected; but, though she had also +pulled up, the colour in her face showed him he should from one moment +to the other have it all. He now indeed felt the high importance of his +having it. "What is your conduct," she broke out as if to +explain--"what is your conduct but an outrage to women like US? I mean +your acting as if there can be a doubt--as between us and such +another--of his duty?" + +He thought a moment. It was rather much to deal with at once; not only +the question itself, but the sore abysses it revealed. "Of course +they're totally different kinds of duty." + +"And do you pretend that he has any at all--to such another?" + +"Do you mean to Madame de Vionnet?" He uttered the name not to affront +her, but yet again to gain time--time that he needed for taking in +something still other and larger than her demand of a moment before. It +wasn't at once that he could see all that was in her actual challenge; +but when he did he found himself just checking a low vague sound, a +sound which was perhaps the nearest approach his vocal chords had ever +known to a growl. Everything Mrs. Pocock had failed to give a sign of +recognising in Chad as a particular part of a +transformation--everything that had lent intention to this particular +failure--affected him as gathered into a large loose bundle and thrown, +in her words, into his face. The missile made him to that extent catch +his breath; which however he presently recovered. "Why when a woman's +at once so charming and so beneficent--" + +"You can sacrifice mothers and sisters to her without a blush and can +make them cross the ocean on purpose to feel the more and take from you +the straighter, HOW you do it?" + +Yes, she had taken him up as short and as sharply as that, but he tried +not to flounder in her grasp. "I don't think there's anything I've +done in any such calculated way as you describe. Everything has come as +a sort of indistinguishable part of everything else. Your coming out +belonged closely to my having come before you, and my having come was a +result of our general state of mind. Our general state of mind had +proceeded, on its side, from our queer ignorance, our queer +misconceptions and confusions--from which, since then, an inexorable +tide of light seems to have floated us into our perhaps still queerer +knowledge. Don't you LIKE your brother as he is," he went on, "and +haven't you given your mother an intelligible account of all that that +comes to?" + +It put to her also, doubtless, his own tone, too many things, this at +least would have been the case hadn't his final challenge directly +helped her. Everything, at the stage they had reached, directly helped +her, because everything betrayed in him such a basis of intention. He +saw--the odd way things came out!--that he would have been held less +monstrous had he only been a little wilder. What exposed him was just +his poor old trick of quiet inwardness, what exposed him was his +THINKING such offence. He hadn't in the least however the desire to +irritate that Sarah imputed to him, and he could only at last +temporise, for the moment, with her indignant view. She was altogether +more inflamed than he had expected, and he would probably understand +this better when he should learn what had occurred for her with Chad. +Till then her view of his particular blackness, her clear surprise at +his not clutching the pole she held out, must pass as extravagant. "I +leave you to flatter yourself," she returned, "that what you speak of +is what YOU'VE beautifully done. When a thing has been already +described in such a lovely way--!" But she caught herself up, and her +comment on his description rang out sufficiently loud. "Do you +consider her even an apology for a decent woman?" + +Ah there it was at last! She put the matter more crudely than, for his +own mixed purposes, he had yet had to do; but essentially it was all +one matter. It was so much--so much; and she treated it, poor lady, as +so little. He grew conscious, as he was now apt to do, of a strange +smile, and the next moment he found himself talking like Miss Barrace. +"She has struck me from the first as wonderful. I've been thinking too +moreover that, after all, she would probably have represented even for +yourself something rather new and rather good." + +He was to have given Mrs. Pocock with this, however, but her best +opportunity for a sound of derision. "Rather new? I hope so with all +my heart!" + +"I mean," he explained, "that she might have affected you by her +exquisite amiability--a real revelation, it has seemed to myself; her +high rarity, her distinction of every sort." + +He had been, with these words, consciously a little "precious"; but he +had had to be--he couldn't give her the truth of the case without them; +and it seemed to him moreover now that he didn't care. He had at all +events not served his cause, for she sprang at its exposed side. "A +'revelation'--to ME: I've come to such a woman for a revelation? You +talk to me about 'distinction'--YOU, you who've had your +privilege?--when the most distinguished woman we shall either of us +have seen in this world sits there insulted, in her loneliness, by your +incredible comparison!" + +Strether forbore, with an effort, from straying; but he looked all +about him. "Does your mother herself make the point that she sits +insulted?" + +Sarah's answer came so straight, so "pat," as might have been said, +that he felt on the instant its origin. "She has confided to my +judgement and my tenderness the expression of her personal sense of +everything, and the assertion of her personal dignity." + +They were the very words of the lady of Woollett--he would have known +them in a thousand; her parting charge to her child. Mrs. Pocock +accordingly spoke to this extent by book, and the fact immensely moved +him. "If she does really feel as you say it's of course very very +dreadful. I've given sufficient proof, one would have thought," he +added, "of my deep admiration for Mrs. Newsome." + +"And pray what proof would one have thought you'd CALL sufficient? That +of thinking this person here so far superior to her?" + +He wondered again; he waited. "Ah dear Sarah, you must LEAVE me this +person here!" + +In his desire to avoid all vulgar retorts, to show how, even +perversely, he clung to his rag of reason, he had softly almost wailed +this plea. Yet he knew it to be perhaps the most positive declaration +he had ever made in his life, and his visitor's reception of it +virtually gave it that importance. "That's exactly what I'm delighted +to do. God knows WE don't want her! You take good care not to meet," +she observed in a still higher key, "my question about their life. If +you do consider it a thing one can even SPEAK of, I congratulate you on +your taste!" + +The life she alluded to was of course Chad's and Madame de Vionnet's, +which she thus bracketed together in a way that made him wince a +little; there being nothing for him but to take home her full +intention. It was none the less his inconsequence that while he had +himself been enjoying for weeks the view of the brilliant woman's +specific action, he just suffered from any characterisation of it by +other lips. "I think tremendously well of her, at the same time that I +seem to feel her 'life' to be really none of my business. It's my +business, that is, only so far as Chad's own life is affected by it; +and what has happened, don't you see? is that Chad's has been affected +so beautifully. The proof of the pudding's in the eating"--he tried, +with no great success, to help it out with a touch of pleasantry, while +she let him go on as if to sink and sink. He went on however well +enough, as well as he could do without fresh counsel; he indeed +shouldn't stand quite firm, he felt, till he should have re-established +his communications with Chad. Still, he could always speak for the +woman he had so definitely promised to "save." This wasn't quite for +her the air of salvation; but as that chill fairly deepened what did it +become but a reminder that one might at the worst perish WITH her? And +it was simple enough--it was rudimentary: not, not to give her away. +"I find in her more merits than you would probably have patience with +my counting over. And do you know," he enquired, "the effect you +produce on me by alluding to her in such terms? It's as if you had +some motive in not recognising all she has done for your brother, and +so shut your eyes to each side of the matter, in order, whichever side +comes up, to get rid of the other. I don't, you must allow me to say, +see how you can with any pretence to candour get rid of the side +nearest you." + +"Near me--THAT sort of thing?" And Sarah gave a jerk back of her head +that well might have nullified any active proximity. + +It kept her friend himself at his distance, and he respected for a +moment the interval. Then with a last persuasive effort he bridged it. +"You don't, on your honour, appreciate Chad's fortunate development?" + +"Fortunate?" she echoed again. And indeed she was prepared. "I call it +hideous." + +Her departure had been for some minutes marked as imminent, and she was +already at the door that stood open to the court, from the threshold of +which she delivered herself of this judgement. It rang out so loud as +to produce for the time the hush of everything else. Strether quite, +as an effect of it, breathed less bravely; he could acknowledge it, but +simply enough. "Oh if you think THAT--!" + +"Then all's at an end? So much the better. I do think that!" She +passed out as she spoke and took her way straight across the court, +beyond which, separated from them by the deep arch of the porte-cochere +the low victoria that had conveyed her from her own hotel was drawn up. +She made for it with decision, and the manner of her break, the sharp +shaft of her rejoinder, had an intensity by which Strether was at first +kept in arrest. She had let fly at him as from a stretched cord, and +it took him a minute to recover from the sense of being pierced. It +was not the penetration of surprise; it was that, much more, of +certainty; his case being put for him as he had as yet only put it to +himself. She was away at any rate; she had distanced him--with rather +a grand spring, an effect of pride and ease, after all; she had got +into her carriage before he could overtake her, and the vehicle was +already in motion. He stopped halfway; he stood there in the court +only seeing her go and noting that she gave him no other look. The way +he had put it to himself was that all quite MIGHT be at an end. Each +of her movements, in this resolute rupture, reaffirmed, re-enforced +that idea. Sarah passed out of sight in the sunny street while, planted +there in the centre of the comparatively grey court, he continued +merely to look before him. It probably WAS all at an end. + + + + + +Book Eleventh + +[Note: In the 1909 New York Edition the following two chapters were +placed in the reverse of the order appearing below. Since 1950, most +scholars have agreed, because of the internal evidence of the two +chapters, that an editorial error caused them to be printed in reverse +order. This Etext, like other editions of the past four decades, +corrects the apparent error.--Richard D. Hathaway, preparer of this +electronic text] + + + + +I + + +He went late that evening to the Boulevard Malesherbes, having his +impression that it would be vain to go early, and having also, more +than once in the course of the day, made enquiries of the concierge. +Chad hadn't come in and had left no intimation; he had affairs, +apparently, at this juncture--as it occurred to Strether he so well +might have--that kept him long abroad. Our friend asked once for him +at the hotel in the Rue de Rivoli, but the only contribution offered +there was the fact that every one was out. It was with the idea that +he would have to come home to sleep that Strether went up to his rooms, +from which however he was still absent, though, from the balcony, a few +moments later, his visitor heard eleven o'clock strike. Chad's servant +had by this time answered for his reappearance; he HAD, the visitor +learned, come quickly in to dress for dinner and vanish again. Strether +spent an hour in waiting for him--an hour full of strange suggestions, +persuasions, recognitions; one of those that he was to recall, at the +end of his adventure, as the particular handful that most had counted. +The mellowest lamplight and the easiest chair had been placed at his +disposal by Baptiste, subtlest of servants; the novel half-uncut, the +novel lemon-coloured and tender, with the ivory knife athwart it like +the dagger in a contadina's hair, had been pushed within the soft +circle--a circle which, for some reason, affected Strether as softer +still after the same Baptiste had remarked that in the absence of a +further need of anything by Monsieur he would betake himself to bed. +The night was hot and heavy and the single lamp sufficient; the great +flare of the lighted city, rising high, spending itself afar, played up +from the Boulevard and, through the vague vista of the successive +rooms, brought objects into view and added to their dignity. Strether +found himself in possession as he never yet had been; he had been there +alone, had turned over books and prints, had invoked, in Chad's +absence, the spirit of the place, but never at the witching hour and +never with a relish quite so like a pang. + +He spent a long time on the balcony; he hung over it as he had seen +little Bilham hang the day of his first approach, as he had seen Mamie +hang over her own the day little Bilham himself might have seen her +from below; he passed back into the rooms, the three that occupied the +front and that communicated by wide doors; and, while he circulated and +rested, tried to recover the impression that they had made on him three +months before, to catch again the voice in which they had seemed then +to speak to him. That voice, he had to note, failed audibly to sound; +which he took as the proof of all the change in himself. He had heard, +of old, only what he COULD then hear; what he could do now was to think +of three months ago as a point in the far past. All voices had grown +thicker and meant more things; they crowded on him as he moved +about--it was the way they sounded together that wouldn't let him be +still. He felt, strangely, as sad as if he had come for some wrong, +and yet as excited as if he had come for some freedom. But the freedom +was what was most in the place and the hour, it was the freedom that +most brought him round again to the youth of his own that he had long +ago missed. He could have explained little enough to-day either why he +had missed it or why, after years and years, he should care that he +had; the main truth of the actual appeal of everything was none the +less that everything represented the substance of his loss put it +within reach, within touch, made it, to a degree it had never been, an +affair of the senses. That was what it became for him at this singular +time, the youth he had long ago missed--a queer concrete presence, full +of mystery, yet full of reality, which he could handle, taste, smell, +the deep breathing of which he could positively hear. It was in the +outside air as well as within; it was in the long watch, from the +balcony, in the summer night, of the wide late life of Paris, the +unceasing soft quick rumble, below, of the little lighted carriages +that, in the press, always suggested the gamblers he had seen of old at +Monte Carlo pushing up to the tables. This image was before him when +he at last became aware that Chad was behind. + +"She tells me you put it all on ME"--he had arrived after this promptly +enough at that information; which expressed the case however quite as +the young man appeared willing for the moment to leave it. Other +things, with this advantage of their virtually having the night before +them, came up for them, and had, as well, the odd effect of making the +occasion, instead of hurried and feverish, one of the largest, loosest +and easiest to which Strether's whole adventure was to have treated +him. He had been pursuing Chad from an early hour and had overtaken +him only now; but now the delay was repaired by their being so +exceptionally confronted. They had foregathered enough of course in +all the various times; they had again and again, since that first night +at the theatre, been face to face over their question; but they had +never been so alone together as they were actually alone--their talk +hadn't yet been so supremely for themselves. And if many things +moreover passed before them, none passed more distinctly for Strether +than that striking truth about Chad of which he had been so often moved +to take note: the truth that everything came happily back with him to +his knowing how to live. It had been seated in his pleased smile--a +smile that pleased exactly in the right degree--as his visitor turned +round, on the balcony, to greet his advent; his visitor in fact felt on +the spot that there was nothing their meeting would so much do as bear +witness to that facility. He surrendered himself accordingly to so +approved a gift; for what was the meaning of the facility but that +others DID surrender themselves? He didn't want, luckily, to prevent +Chad from living; but he was quite aware that even if he had he would +himself have thoroughly gone to pieces. It was in truth essentially by +bringing down his personal life to a function all subsidiary to the +young man's own that he held together. And the great point, above all, +the sign of how completely Chad possessed the knowledge in question, +was that one thus became, not only with a proper cheerfulness, but with +wild native impulses, the feeder of his stream. Their talk had +accordingly not lasted three minutes without Strether's feeling basis +enough for the excitement in which he had waited. This overflow fairly +deepened, wastefully abounded, as he observed the smallness of anything +corresponding to it on the part of his friend. That was exactly this +friend's happy case; he "put out" his excitement, or whatever other +emotion the matter involved, as he put out his washing; than which no +arrangement could make more for domestic order. It was quite for +Strether himself in short to feel a personal analogy with the laundress +bringing home the triumphs of the mangle. + +When he had reported on Sarah's visit, which he did very fully, Chad +answered his question with perfect candour. "I positively referred her +to you--told her she must absolutely see you. This was last night, and +it all took place in ten minutes. It was our first free talk--really +the first time she had tackled me. She knew I also knew what her line +had been with yourself; knew moreover how little you had been doing to +make anything difficult for her. So I spoke for you frankly--assured +her you were all at her service. I assured her I was too," the young +man continued; "and I pointed out how she could perfectly, at any time, +have got at me. Her difficulty has been simply her not finding the +moment she fancied." + +"Her difficulty," Strether returned, "has been simply that she finds +she's afraid of you. She's not afraid of ME, Sarah, one little scrap; +and it was just because she has seen how I can fidget when I give my +mind to it that she has felt her best chance, rightly enough to be in +making me as uneasy as possible. I think she's at bottom as pleased to +HAVE you put it on me as you yourself can possibly be to put it." + +"But what in the world, my dear man," Chad enquired in objection to +this luminosity, "have I done to make Sally afraid?" + +"You've been 'wonderful, wonderful,' as we say--we poor people who +watch the play from the pit; and that's what has, admirably, made her. +Made her all the more effectually that she could see you didn't set +about it on purpose--I mean set about affecting her as with fear." + +Chad cast a pleasant backward glance over his possibilities of motive. +"I've only wanted to be kind and friendly, to be decent and +attentive--and I still only want to be." + +Strether smiled at his comfortable clearness. "Well, there can +certainly be no way for it better than by my taking the onus. It +reduces your personal friction and your personal offence to almost +nothing." + +Ah but Chad, with his completer conception of the friendly, wouldn't +quite have this! They had remained on the balcony, where, after their +day of great and premature heat, the midnight air was delicious; and +they leaned back in turn against the balustrade, all in harmony with +the chairs and the flower-pots, the cigarettes and the starlight. "The +onus isn't REALLY yours--after our agreeing so to wait together and +judge together. That was all my answer to Sally," Chad pursued--"that +we have been, that we are, just judging together." + +"I'm not afraid of the burden," Strether explained; "I haven't come in +the least that you should take it off me. I've come very much, it +seems to me, to double up my fore legs in the manner of the camel when +he gets down on his knees to make his back convenient. But I've +supposed you all this while to have been doing a lot of special and +private judging--about which I haven't troubled you; and I've only +wished to have your conclusion first from you. I don't ask more than +that; I'm quite ready to take it as it has come." + +Chad turned up his face to the sky with a slow puff of his smoke. +"Well, I've seen." + +Strether waited a little. "I've left you wholly alone; haven't, I +think I may say, since the first hour or two--when I merely preached +patience--so much as breathed on you." + +"Oh you've been awfully good!" + +"We've both been good then--we've played the game. We've given them +the most liberal conditions." + +"Ah," said Chad, "splendid conditions! It was open to them, open to +them"--he seemed to make it out, as he smoked, with his eyes still on +the stars. He might in quiet sport have been reading their horoscope. +Strether wondered meanwhile what had been open to them, and he finally +let him have it. "It was open to them simply to let me alone; to have +made up their minds, on really seeing me for themselves, that I could +go on well enough as I was." + +Strether assented to this proposition with full lucidity, his +companion's plural pronoun, which stood all for Mrs. Newsome and her +daughter, having no ambiguity for him. There was nothing, apparently, +to stand for Mamie and Jim; and this added to our friend's sense of +Chad's knowing what he thought. "But they've made up their minds to +the opposite--that you CAN'T go on as you are." + +"No," Chad continued in the same way; "they won't have it for a minute." + +Strether on his side also reflectively smoked. It was as if their high +place really represented some moral elevation from which they could +look down on their recent past. "There never was the smallest chance, +do you know, that they WOULD have it for a moment." + +"Of course not--no real chance. But if they were willing to think +there was--!" + +"They weren't willing." Strether had worked it all out. "It wasn't for +you they came out, but for me. It wasn't to see for themselves what +you're doing, but what I'm doing. The first branch of their curiosity +was inevitably destined, under my culpable delay, to give way to the +second; and it's on the second that, if I may use the expression and +you don't mind my marking the invidious fact, they've been of late +exclusively perched. When Sarah sailed it was me, in other words, they +were after." + +Chad took it in both with intelligence and with indulgence. "It IS +rather a business then--what I've let you in for!" + +Strether had again a brief pause; which ended in a reply that seemed to +dispose once for all of this element of compunction. Chad was to treat +it, at any rate, so far as they were again together, as having done so. +"I was 'in' when you found me." + +"Ah but it was you," the young man laughed, "who found ME." + +"I only found you out. It was you who found me in. It was all in the +day's work for them, at all events, that they should come. And they've +greatly enjoyed it," Strether declared. + +"Well, I've tried to make them," said Chad. + +His companion did himself presently the same justice. "So have I. I +tried even this very morning--while Mrs. Pocock was with me. She +enjoys for instance, almost as much as anything else, not being, as +I've said, afraid of me; and I think I gave her help in that." + +Chad took a deeper interest. "Was she very very nasty?" + +Strether debated. "Well, she was the most important thing--she was +definite. She was--at last--crystalline. And I felt no remorse. I saw +that they must have come." + +"Oh I wanted to see them for myself; so that if it were only for +THAT--!" Chad's own remorse was as small. + +This appeared almost all Strether wanted. "Isn't your having seen them +for yourself then THE thing, beyond all others, that has come of their +visit?" + +Chad looked as if he thought it nice of his old friend to put it so. +"Don't you count it as anything that you're dished--if you ARE dished? +Are you, my dear man, dished?" + +It sounded as if he were asking if he had caught cold or hurt his foot, +and Strether for a minute but smoked and smoked. "I want to see her +again. I must see her." + +"Of course you must." Then Chad hesitated. "Do you mean--a--Mother +herself?" + +"Oh your mother--that will depend." + +It was as if Mrs. Newsome had somehow been placed by the words very far +off. Chad however endeavoured in spite of this to reach the place. +"What do you mean it will depend on?" + +Strether, for all answer, gave him a longish look. "I was speaking of +Sarah. I must positively--though she quite cast me off--see HER again. +I can't part with her that way." + +"Then she was awfully unpleasant?" + +Again Strether exhaled. "She was what she had to be. I mean that from +the moment they're not delighted they can only be--well what I admit +she was. We gave them," he went on, "their chance to be delighted, and +they've walked up to it, and looked all round it, and not taken it." + +"You can bring a horse to water--!" Chad suggested. + +"Precisely. And the tune to which this morning Sarah wasn't +delighted--the tune to which, to adopt your metaphor, she refused to +drink--leaves us on that side nothing more to hope." + +Chad had a pause, and then as if consolingly: "It was never of course +really the least on the cards that they would be 'delighted.'" + +"Well, I don't know, after all," Strether mused. "I've had to come as +far round. However"--he shook it off--"it's doubtless MY performance +that's absurd." + +"There are certainly moments," said Chad, "when you seem to me too good +to be true. Yet if you are true," he added, "that seems to be all that +need concern me." + +"I'm true, but I'm incredible. I'm fantastic and ridiculous--I don't +explain myself even TO myself. How can they then," Strether asked, +"understand me? So I don't quarrel with them." + +"I see. They quarrel," said Chad rather comfortably, "with US." +Strether noted once more the comfort, but his young friend had already +gone on. "I should feel greatly ashamed, all the same, if I didn't put +it before you again that you ought to think, after all, tremendously +well. I mean before giving up beyond recall--" With which insistence, +as from a certain delicacy, dropped. + +Ah but Strether wanted it. "Say it all, say it all." + +"Well, at your age, and with what--when all's said and done--Mother +might do for you and be for you." + +Chad had said it all, from his natural scruple, only to that extent; so +that Strether after an instant himself took a hand. "My absence of an +assured future. The little I have to show toward the power to take +care of myself. The way, the wonderful way, she would certainly take +care of me. Her fortune, her kindness, and the constant miracle of her +having been disposed to go even so far. Of course, of course"--he +summed it up. "There are those sharp facts." + +Chad had meanwhile thought of another still. "And don't you really +care--?" + +His friend slowly turned round to him. "Will you go?" + +"I'll go if you'll say you now consider I should. You know," he went +on, "I was ready six weeks ago." + +"Ah," said Strether, "that was when you didn't know I wasn't! You're +ready at present because you do know it." + +"That may be," Chad returned; "but all the same I'm sincere. You talk +about taking the whole thing on your shoulders, but in what light do +you regard me that you think me capable of letting you pay?" Strether +patted his arm, as they stood together against the parapet, +reassuringly--seeming to wish to contend that he HAD the wherewithal; +but it was again round this question of purchase and price that the +young man's sense of fairness continued to hover. "What it literally +comes to for you, if you'll pardon my putting it so, is that you give +up money. Possibly a good deal of money." + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "if it were only just enough you'd still be +justified in putting it so! But I've on my side to remind you too that +YOU give up money; and more than 'possibly'--quite certainly, as I +should suppose--a good deal." + +"True enough; but I've got a certain quantity," Chad returned after a +moment. "Whereas you, my dear man, you--" + +"I can't be at all said"--Strether took him up--"to have a 'quantity' +certain or uncertain? Very true. Still, I shan't starve." + +"Oh you mustn't STARVE!" Chad pacifically emphasised; and so, in the +pleasant conditions, they continued to talk; though there was, for that +matter, a pause in which the younger companion might have been taken as +weighing again the delicacy of his then and there promising the elder +some provision against the possibility just mentioned. This, however, +he presumably thought best not to do, for at the end of another minute +they had moved in quite a different direction. Strether had broken in +by returning to the subject of Chad's passage with Sarah and enquiring +if they had arrived, in the event, at anything in the nature of a +"scene." To this Chad replied that they had on the contrary kept +tremendously polite; adding moreover that Sally was after all not the +woman to have made the mistake of not being. "Her hands are a good +deal tied, you see. I got so, from the first," he sagaciously +observed, "the start of her." + +"You mean she has taken so much from you?" + +"Well, I couldn't of course in common decency give less: only she +hadn't expected, I think, that I'd give her nearly so much. And she +began to take it before she knew it." + +"And she began to like it," said Strether, "as soon as she began to +take it!" + +"Yes, she has liked it--also more than she expected." After which Chad +observed: "But she doesn't like ME. In fact she hates me." + +Strether's interest grew. "Then why does she want you at home?" + +"Because when you hate you want to triumph, and if she should get me +neatly stuck there she WOULD triumph." + +Strether followed afresh, but looking as he went. "Certainly--in a +manner. But it would scarce be a triumph worth having if, once +entangled, feeling her dislike and possibly conscious in time of a +certain quantity of your own, you should on the spot make yourself +unpleasant to her." + +"Ah," said Chad, "she can bear ME--could bear me at least at home. It's +my being there that would be her triumph. She hates me in Paris." + +"She hates in other words--" + +"Yes, THAT'S it!"--Chad had quickly understood this understanding; +which formed on the part of each as near an approach as they had yet +made to naming Madame de Vionnet. The limitations of their +distinctness didn't, however, prevent its fairly lingering in the air +that it was this lady Mrs. Pocock hated. It added one more touch +moreover to their established recognition of the rare intimacy of +Chad's association with her. He had never yet more twitched away the +last light veil from this phenomenon than in presenting himself as +confounded and submerged in the feeling she had created at Woollett. +"And I'll tell you who hates me too," he immediately went on. + +Strether knew as immediately whom he meant, but with as prompt a +protest. "Ah no! Mamie doesn't hate--well," he caught himself in +time--"anybody at all. Mamie's beautiful." + +Chad shook his head. "That's just why I mind it. She certainly +doesn't like me." + +"How much do you mind it? What would you do for her?" + +"Well, I'd like her if she'd like me. Really, really," Chad declared. + +It gave his companion a moment's pause. "You asked me just now if I +don't, as you said, 'care' about a certain person. You rather tempt me +therefore to put the question in my turn. Don't YOU care about a +certain other person?" + +Chad looked at him hard in the lamplight of the window. "The +difference is that I don't want to." + +Strether wondered. "'Don't want' to?" + +"I try not to--that is I HAVE tried. I've done my best. You can't be +surprised," the young man easily went on, "when you yourself set me on +it. I was indeed," he added, "already on it a little; but you set me +harder. It was six weeks ago that I thought I had come out." + +Strether took it well in. "But you haven't come out!" + +"I don't know--it's what I WANT to know," said Chad. "And if I could +have sufficiently wanted--by myself--to go back, I think I might have +found out." + +"Possibly"--Strether considered. "But all you were able to achieve was +to want to want to! And even then," he pursued, "only till our friends +there came. Do you want to want to still?" As with a sound +half-dolorous, half-droll and all vague and equivocal, Chad buried his +face for a little in his hands, rubbing it in a whimsical way that +amounted to an evasion, he brought it out more sharply: "DO you?" + +Chad kept for a time his attitude, but at last he looked up, and then +abruptly, "Jim IS a damned dose!" he declared. + +"Oh I don't ask you to abuse or describe or in any way pronounce on +your relatives; I simply put it to you once more whether you're NOW +ready. You say you've 'seen.' Is what you've seen that you can't +resist?" + +Chad gave him a strange smile--the nearest approach he had ever shown +to a troubled one. "Can't you make me NOT resist?" + +"What it comes to," Strether went on very gravely now and as if he +hadn't heard him, "what it comes to is that more has been done for you, +I think, than I've ever seen done--attempted perhaps, but never so +successfully done--by one human being for another." + +"Oh an immense deal certainly"--Chad did it full justice. "And you +yourself are adding to it." + +It was without heeding this either that his visitor continued. "And our +friends there won't have it." + +"No, they simply won't." + +"They demand you on the basis, as it were, of repudiation and +ingratitude; and what has been the matter with me," Strether went on, +"is that I haven't seen my way to working with you for repudiation." + +Chad appreciated this. "Then as you haven't seen yours you naturally +haven't seen mine. There it is." After which he proceeded, with a +certain abruptness, to a sharp interrogation. "NOW do you say she +doesn't hate me?" + +Strether hesitated. "'She'--?" + +"Yes--Mother. We called it Sarah, but it comes to the same thing." + +"Ah," Strether objected, "not to the same thing as her hating YOU." + +On which--though as if for an instant it had hung fire--Chad remarkably +replied: "Well, if they hate my good friend, THAT comes to the same +thing." It had a note of inevitable truth that made Strether take it as +enough, feel he wanted nothing more. The young man spoke in it for his +"good friend" more than he had ever yet directly spoken, confessed to +such deep identities between them as he might play with the idea of +working free from, but which at a given moment could still draw him +down like a whirlpool. And meanwhile he had gone on. "Their hating +you too moreover--that also comes to a good deal." + +"Ah," said Strether, "your mother doesn't." + +Chad, however, loyally stuck to it--loyally, that is, to Strether. "She +will if you don't look out." + +"Well, I do look out. I am, after all, looking out. That's just why," +our friend explained, "I want to see her again." + +It drew from Chad again the same question. "To see Mother?" + +"To see--for the present--Sarah." + +"Ah then there you are! And what I don't for the life of me make out," +Chad pursued with resigned perplexity, "is what you GAIN by it." + +Oh it would have taken his companion too long to say! "That's because +you have, I verily believe, no imagination. You've other qualities. +But no imagination, don't you see? at all." + +"I dare say. I do see." It was an idea in which Chad showed interest. +"But haven't you yourself rather too much?" + +"Oh RATHER--!" So that after an instant, under this reproach and as if +it were at last a fact really to escape from, Strether made his move +for departure. + + + +II + + +One of the features of the restless afternoon passed by him after Mrs. +Pocock's visit was an hour spent, shortly before dinner, with Maria +Gostrey, whom of late, in spite of so sustained a call on his attention +from other quarters, he had by no means neglected. And that he was +still not neglecting her will appear from the fact that he was with her +again at the same hour on the very morrow--with no less fine a +consciousness moreover of being able to hold her ear. It continued +inveterately to occur, for that matter, that whenever he had taken one +of his greater turns he came back to where she so faithfully awaited +him. None of these excursions had on the whole been livelier than the +pair of incidents--the fruit of the short interval since his previous +visit--on which he had now to report to her. He had seen Chad Newsome +late the night before, and he had had that morning, as a sequel to this +conversation, a second interview with Sarah. "But they're all off," he +said, "at last." + +It puzzled her a moment. "All?--Mr. Newsome with them?" + +"Ah not yet! Sarah and Jim and Mamie. But Waymarsh with them--for +Sarah. It's too beautiful," Strether continued; "I find I don't get +over that--it's always a fresh joy. But it's a fresh joy too," he +added, "that--well, what do you think? Little Bilham also goes. But he +of course goes for Mamie." + +Miss Gostrey wondered. "'For' her? Do you mean they're already +engaged?" + +"Well," said Strether, "say then for ME. He'll do anything for me; +just as I will, for that matter--anything I can--for him. Or for Mamie +either. SHE'LL do anything for me." + +Miss Gostrey gave a comprehensive sigh. "The way you reduce people to +subjection!" + +"It's certainly, on one side, wonderful. But it's quite equalled, on +another, by the way I don't. I haven't reduced Sarah, since yesterday; +though I've succeeded in seeing her again, as I'll presently tell you. +The others however are really all right. Mamie, by that blessed law of +ours, absolutely must have a young man." + +"But what must poor Mr. Bilham have? Do you mean they'll MARRY for +you?" + +"I mean that, by the same blessed law, it won't matter a grain if they +don't--I shan't have in the least to worry." + +She saw as usual what he meant. "And Mr. Jim?--who goes for him?" + +"Oh," Strether had to admit, "I couldn't manage THAT. He's thrown, as +usual, on the world; the world which, after all, by his account--for he +has prodigious adventures--seems very good to him. He +fortunately--'over here,' as he says--finds the world everywhere; and +his most prodigious adventure of all," he went on, "has been of course +of the last few days." + +Miss Gostrey, already knowing, instantly made the connexion. "He has +seen Marie de Vionnet again?" + +"He went, all by himself, the day after Chad's party--didn't I tell +you?--to tea with her. By her invitation--all alone." + +"Quite like yourself!" Maria smiled. + +"Oh but he's more wonderful about her than I am!" And then as his +friend showed how she could believe it, filling it out, fitting it on +to old memories of the wonderful woman: "What I should have liked to +manage would have been HER going." + +"To Switzerland with the party?" + +"For Jim--and for symmetry. If it had been workable moreover for a +fortnight she'd have gone. She's ready"--he followed up his renewed +vision of her--"for anything." + +Miss Gostrey went with him a minute. "She's too perfect!" + +"She WILL, I think," he pursued, "go to-night to the station." + +"To see him off?" + +"With Chad--marvellously--as part of their general attention. And she +does it"--it kept before him--"with a light, light grace, a free, free +gaiety, that may well softly bewilder Mr. Pocock." + +It kept her so before him that his companion had after an instant a +friendly comment. "As in short it has softly bewildered a saner man. +Are you really in love with her?" Maria threw off. + +"It's of no importance I should know," he replied. "It matters so +little--has nothing to do, practically, with either of us." + +"All the same"--Maria continued to smile--"they go, the five, as I +understand you, and you and Madame de Vionnet stay." + +"Oh and Chad." To which Strether added: "And you." + +"Ah 'me'!"--she gave a small impatient wail again, in which something +of the unreconciled seemed suddenly to break out. "I don't stay, it +somehow seems to me, much to my advantage. In the presence of all you +cause to pass before me I've a tremendous sense of privation." + +Strether hesitated. "But your privation, your keeping out of +everything, has been--hasn't it?--by your own choice." + +"Oh yes; it has been necessary--that is it has been better for you. +What I mean is only that I seem to have ceased to serve you." + +"How can you tell that?" he asked. "You don't know how you serve me. +When you cease--" + +"Well?" she said as he dropped. + +"Well, I'll LET you know. Be quiet till then." + +She thought a moment. "Then you positively like me to stay?" + +"Don't I treat you as if I did?" + +"You're certainly very kind to me. But that," said Maria, "is for +myself. It's getting late, as you see, and Paris turning rather hot +and dusty. People are scattering, and some of them, in other places +want me. But if you want me here--!" + +She had spoken as resigned to his word, but he had of a sudden a still +sharper sense than he would have expected of desiring not to lose her. +"I want you here." + +She took it as if the words were all she had wished; as if they brought +her, gave her something that was the compensation of her case. "Thank +you," she simply answered. And then as he looked at her a little +harder, "Thank you very much," she repeated. + +It had broken as with a slight arrest into the current of their talk, +and it held him a moment longer. "Why, two months, or whatever the +time was, ago, did you so suddenly dash off? The reason you afterwards +gave me for having kept away three weeks wasn't the real one." + +She recalled. "I never supposed you believed it was. Yet," she +continued, "if you didn't guess it that was just what helped you." + +He looked away from her on this; he indulged, so far as space +permitted, in one of his slow absences. "I've often thought of it, but +never to feel that I could guess it. And you see the consideration +with which I've treated you in never asking till now." + +"Now then why DO you ask?" + +"To show you how I miss you when you're not here, and what it does for +me." + +"It doesn't seem to have done," she laughed, "all it might! However," +she added, "if you've really never guessed the truth I'll tell it you." + +"I've never guessed it," Strether declared. + +"Never?" + +"Never." + +"Well then I dashed off, as you say, so as not to have the confusion of +being there if Marie de Vionnet should tell you anything to my +detriment." + +He looked as if he considerably doubted. "You even then would have had +to face it on your return." + +"Oh if I had found reason to believe it something very bad I'd have +left you altogether." + +"So then," he continued, "it was only on guessing she had been on the +whole merciful that you ventured back?" + +Maria kept it together. "I owe her thanks. Whatever her temptation +she didn't separate us. That's one of my reasons," she went on "for +admiring her so." + +"Let it pass then," said Strether, "for one of mine as well. But what +would have been her temptation?" + +"What are ever the temptations of women?" + +He thought--but hadn't, naturally, to think too long. "Men?" + +"She would have had you, with it, more for herself. But she saw she +could have you without it." + +"Oh 'have' me!" Strether a trifle ambiguously sighed. "YOU," he +handsomely declared, "would have had me at any rate WITH it." + +"Oh 'have' you!"--she echoed it as he had done. "I do have you, +however," she less ironically said, "from the moment you express a +wish." + +He stopped before her, full of the disposition. "I'll express fifty." + +Which indeed begot in her, with a certain inconsequence, a return of +her small wail. "Ah there you are!" + +There, if it were so, he continued for the rest of the time to be, and +it was as if to show her how she could still serve him that, coming +back to the departure of the Pococks, he gave her the view, vivid with +a hundred more touches than we can reproduce, of what had happened for +him that morning. He had had ten minutes with Sarah at her hotel, ten +minutes reconquered, by irresistible pressure, from the time over which +he had already described her to Miss Gostrey as having, at the end of +their interview on his own premises, passed the great sponge of the +future. He had caught her by not announcing himself, had found her in +her sitting-room with a dressmaker and a lingere whose accounts she +appeared to have been more or less ingenuously settling and who soon +withdrew. Then he had explained to her how he had succeeded, late the +night before, in keeping his promise of seeing Chad. "I told her I'd +take it all." + +"You'd 'take' it?" + +"Why if he doesn't go." + +Maria waited. "And who takes it if he does?" she enquired with a +certain grimness of gaiety. + +"Well," said Strether, "I think I take, in any event, everything." + +"By which I suppose you mean," his companion brought out after a +moment, "that you definitely understand you now lose everything." + +He stood before her again. "It does come perhaps to the same thing. +But Chad, now that he has seen, doesn't really want it." + +She could believe that, but she made, as always, for clearness. "Still, +what, after all, HAS he seen?" + +"What they want of him. And it's enough." + +"It contrasts so unfavourably with what Madame de Vionnet wants?" + +"It contrasts--just so; all round, and tremendously." + +"Therefore, perhaps, most of all with what YOU want?" + +"Oh," said Strether, "what I want is a thing I've ceased to measure or +even to understand." + +But his friend none the less went on. "Do you want Mrs. Newsome--after +such a way of treating you?" + +It was a straighter mode of dealing with this lady than they had as +yet--such was their high form--permitted themselves; but it seemed not +wholly for this that he delayed a moment. "I dare say it has been, +after all, the only way she could have imagined." + +"And does that make you want her any more?" + +"I've tremendously disappointed her," Strether thought it worth while +to mention. + +"Of course you have. That's rudimentary; that was plain to us long +ago. But isn't it almost as plain," Maria went on, "that you've even +yet your straight remedy? Really drag him away, as I believe you still +can, and you'd cease to have to count with her disappointment." + +"Ah then," he laughed, "I should have to count with yours!" + +But this barely struck her now. "What, in that case, should you call +counting? You haven't come out where you are, I think, to please ME." + +"Oh," he insisted, "that too, you know, has been part of it. I can't +separate--it's all one; and that's perhaps why, as I say, I don't +understand." But he was ready to declare again that this didn't in the +least matter; all the more that, as he affirmed, he HADn't really as +yet "come out." "She gives me after all, on its coming to the pinch, a +last mercy, another chance. They don't sail, you see, for five or six +weeks more, and they haven't--she admits that--expected Chad would take +part in their tour. It's still open to him to join them, at the last, +at Liverpool." + +Miss Gostrey considered. "How in the world is it 'open' unless you +open it? How can he join them at Liverpool if he but sinks deeper into +his situation here?" + +"He has given her--as I explained to you that she let me know +yesterday--his word of honour to do as I say." + +Maria stared. "But if you say nothing!" + +Well, he as usual walked about on it. "I did say something this +morning. I gave her my answer--the word I had promised her after +hearing from himself what HE had promised. What she demanded of me +yesterday, you'll remember, was the engagement then and there to make +him take up this vow." + +"Well then," Miss Gostrey enquired, "was the purpose of your visit to +her only to decline?" + +"No; it was to ask, odd as that may seem to you, for another delay." + +"Ah that's weak!" + +"Precisely!" She had spoken with impatience, but, so far as that at +least, he knew where he was. "If I AM weak I want to find it out. If +I don't find it out I shall have the comfort, the little glory, of +thinking I'm strong." + +"It's all the comfort, I judge," she returned, "that you WILL have!" + +"At any rate," he said, "it will have been a month more. Paris may +grow, from day to day, hot and dusty, as you say; but there are other +things that are hotter and dustier. I'm not afraid to stay on; the +summer here must be amusing in a wild--if it isn't a tame--way of its +own; the place at no time more picturesque. I think I shall like it. +And then," he benevolently smiled for her, "there will be always you." + +"Oh," she objected, "it won't be as a part of the picturesqueness that +I shall stay, for I shall be the plainest thing about you. You may, you +see, at any rate," she pursued, "have nobody else. Madame de Vionnet +may very well be going off, mayn't she?--and Mr. Newsome by the same +stroke: unless indeed you've had an assurance from them to the +contrary. So that if your idea's to stay for them"--it was her duty to +suggest it--"you may be left in the lurch. Of course if they do +stay"--she kept it up--"they would be part of the picturesqueness. Or +else indeed you might join them somewhere." + +Strether seemed to face it as if it were a happy thought; but the next +moment he spoke more critically. "Do you mean that they'll probably go +off together?" + +She just considered. "I think it will be treating you quite without +ceremony if they do; though after all," she added, "it would be +difficult to see now quite what degree of ceremony properly meets your +case." + +"Of course," Strether conceded, "my attitude toward them is +extraordinary." + +"Just so; so that one may ask one's self what style of proceeding on +their own part can altogether match it. The attitude of their own that +won't pale in its light they've doubtless still to work out. The +really handsome thing perhaps," she presently threw off, "WOULD be for +them to withdraw into more secluded conditions, offering at the same +time to share them with you." He looked at her, on this, as if some +generous irritation--all in his interest--had suddenly again flickered +in her; and what she next said indeed half-explained it. "Don't really +be afraid to tell me if what now holds you IS the pleasant prospect of +the empty town, with plenty of seats in the shade, cool drinks, +deserted museums, drives to the Bois in the evening, and our wonderful +woman all to yourself." And she kept it up still more. "The handsomest +thing of ALL, when one makes it out, would, I dare say, be that Mr. +Chad should for a while go off by himself. It's a pity, from that +point of view," she wound up, "that he doesn't pay his mother a visit. +It would at least occupy your interval." The thought in fact held her a +moment. "Why doesn't he pay his mother a visit? Even a week, at this +good moment, would do." + +"My dear lady," Strether replied--and he had it even to himself +surprisingly ready--"my dear lady, his mother has paid HIM a visit. +Mrs. Newsome has been with him, this month, with an intensity that I'm +sure he has thoroughly felt; he has lavishly entertained her, and she +has let him have her thanks. Do you suggest he shall go back for more +of them?" + +Well, she succeeded after a little in shaking it off. "I see. It's +what you don't suggest--what you haven't suggested. And you know." + +"So would you, my dear," he kindly said, "if you had so much as seen +her." + +"As seen Mrs. Newsome?" + +"No, Sarah--which, both for Chad and for myself, has served all the +purpose." + +"And served it in a manner," she responsively mused, "so extraordinary!" + +"Well, you see," he partly explained, "what it comes to is that she's +all cold thought--which Sarah could serve to us cold without its really +losing anything. So it is that we know what she thinks of us." + +Maria had followed, but she had an arrest. "What I've never made out, +if you come to that, is what you think--I mean you personally--of HER. +Don't you so much, when all's said, as care a little?" + +"That," he answered with no loss of promptness, "is what even Chad +himself asked me last night. He asked me if I don't mind the +loss--well, the loss of an opulent future. Which moreover," he +hastened to add, "was a perfectly natural question." + +"I call your attention, all the same," said Miss Gostrey, "to the fact +that I don't ask it. What I venture to ask is whether it's to Mrs. +Newsome herself that you're indifferent." + +"I haven't been so"--he spoke with all assurance. "I've been the very +opposite. I've been, from the first moment, preoccupied with the +impression everything might be making on her--quite oppressed, haunted, +tormented by it. I've been interested ONLY in her seeing what I've +seen. And I've been as disappointed in her refusal to see it as she +has been in what has appeared to her the perversity of my insistence." + +"Do you mean that she has shocked you as you've shocked her?" + +Strether weighed it. "I'm probably not so shockable. But on the other +hand I've gone much further to meet her. She, on her side, hasn't +budged an inch." + +"So that you're now at last"--Maria pointed the moral--"in the sad +stage of recriminations." + +"No--it's only to you I speak. I've been like a lamb to Sarah. I've +only put my back to the wall. It's to THAT one naturally staggers when +one has been violently pushed there." + +She watched him a moment. "Thrown over?" + +"Well, as I feel I've landed somewhere I think I must have been thrown." + +She turned it over, but as hoping to clarify much rather than to +harmonise. "The thing is that I suppose you've been disappointing--" + +"Quite from the very first of my arrival? I dare say. I admit I was +surprising even to myself." + +"And then of course," Maria went on, "I had much to do with it." + +"With my being surprising--?" + +"That will do," she laughed, "if you're too delicate to call it MY +being! Naturally," she added, "you came over more or less for +surprises." + +"Naturally!"--he valued the reminder. + +"But they were to have been all for you"--she continued to piece it +out--"and none of them for HER." + +Once more he stopped before her as if she had touched the point. +"That's just her difficulty--that she doesn't admit surprises. It's a +fact that, I think, describes and represents her; and it falls in with +what I tell you--that she's all, as I've called it, fine cold thought. +She had, to her own mind, worked the whole thing out in advance, and +worked it out for me as well as for herself. Whenever she has done +that, you see, there's no room left; no margin, as it were, for any +alteration. She's filled as full, packed as tight, as she'll hold and +if you wish to get anything more or different either out or in--" + +"You've got to make over altogether the woman herself?" + +"What it comes to," said Strether, "is that you've got morally and +intellectually to get rid of her." + +"Which would appear," Maria returned, "to be practically what you've +done." + +But her friend threw back his head. "I haven't touched her. She won't +BE touched. I see it now as I've never done; and she hangs together +with a perfection of her own," he went on, "that does suggest a kind of +wrong in ANY change of her composition. It was at any rate," he wound +up, "the woman herself, as you call her the whole moral and +intellectual being or block, that Sarah brought me over to take or to +leave." + +It turned Miss Gostrey to deeper thought. "Fancy having to take at the +point of the bayonet a whole moral and intellectual being or block!" + +"It was in fact," said Strether, "what, at home, I HAD done. But +somehow over there I didn't quite know it." + +"One never does, I suppose," Miss Gostrey concurred, "realise in +advance, in such a case, the size, as you may say, of the block. Little +by little it looms up. It has been looming for you more and more till +at last you see it all." + +"I see it all," he absently echoed, while his eyes might have been +fixing some particularly large iceberg in a cool blue northern sea. +"It's magnificent!" he then rather oddly exclaimed. + +But his friend, who was used to this kind of inconsequence in him, kept +the thread. "There's nothing so magnificent--for making others feel +you--as to have no imagination." + +It brought him straight round. "Ah there you are! It's what I said +last night to Chad. That he himself, I mean, has none." + +"Then it would appear," Maria suggested, "that he has, after all, +something in common with his mother." + +"He has in common that he makes one, as you say, 'feel' him. And yet," +he added, as if the question were interesting, "one feels others too, +even when they have plenty." + +Miss Gostrey continued suggestive. "Madame de Vionnet?" + +"SHE has plenty." + +"Certainly--she had quantities of old. But there are different ways of +making one's self felt." + +"Yes, it comes, no doubt, to that. You now--" + +He was benevolently going on, but she wouldn't have it. "Oh I DON'T +make myself felt; so my quantity needn't be settled. Yours, you know," +she said, "is monstrous. No one has ever had so much." + +It struck him for a moment. "That's what Chad also thinks." + +"There YOU are then--though it isn't for him to complain of it!" + +"Oh he doesn't complain of it," said Strether. + +"That's all that would be wanting! But apropos of what," Maria went on, +"did the question come up?" + +"Well, of his asking me what it is I gain." + +She had a pause. "Then as I've asked you too it settles my case. Oh +you HAVE," she repeated, "treasures of imagination." + +But he had been for an instant thinking away from this, and he came up +in another place. "And yet Mrs. Newsome--it's a thing to remember--HAS +imagined, did, that is, imagine, and apparently still does, horrors +about what I should have found. I was booked, by her +vision--extraordinarily intense, after all--to find them; and that I +didn't, that I couldn't, that, as she evidently felt, I wouldn't--this +evidently didn't at all, as they say, 'suit' her book. It was more than +she could bear. That was her disappointment." + +"You mean you were to have found Chad himself horrible?" + +"I was to have found the woman." + +"Horrible?" + +"Found her as she imagined her." And Strether paused as if for his own +expression of it he could add no touch to that picture. + +His companion had meanwhile thought. "She imagined stupidly--so it +comes to the same thing." + +"Stupidly? Oh!" said Strether. + +But she insisted. "She imagined meanly." + +He had it, however, better. "It couldn't but be ignorantly." + +"Well, intensity with ignorance--what do you want worse?" + +This question might have held him, but he let it pass. "Sarah isn't +ignorant--now; she keeps up the theory of the horrible." + +"Ah but she's intense--and that by itself will do sometimes as well. If +it doesn't do, in this case, at any rate, to deny that Marie's +charming, it will do at least to deny that she's good." + +"What I claim is that she's good for Chad." + +"You don't claim"--she seemed to like it clear--"that she's good for +YOU." + +But he continued without heeding. "That's what I wanted them to come +out for--to see for themselves if she's bad for him." + +"And now that they've done so they won't admit that she's good even for +anything?" + +"They do think," Strether presently admitted, "that she's on the whole +about as bad for me. But they're consistent of course, inasmuch as +they've their clear view of what's good for both of us." + +"For you, to begin with"--Maria, all responsive, confined the question +for the moment--"to eliminate from your existence and if possible even +from your memory the dreadful creature that I must gruesomely shadow +forth for them, even more than to eliminate the distincter +evil--thereby a little less portentous--of the person whose confederate +you've suffered yourself to become. However, that's comparatively +simple. You can easily, at the worst, after all, give me up." + +"I can easily at the worst, after all, give you up." The irony was so +obvious that it needed no care. "I can easily at the worst, after all, +even forget you." + +"Call that then workable. But Mr. Newsome has much more to forget. How +can HE do it?" + +"Ah there again we are! That's just what I was to have made him do; +just where I was to have worked with him and helped." + +She took it in silence and without attenuation--as if perhaps from very +familiarity with the facts; and her thought made a connexion without +showing the links. "Do you remember how we used to talk at Chester and +in London about my seeing you through?" She spoke as of far-off +things and as if they had spent weeks at the places she named. + +"It's just what you ARE doing." + +"Ah but the worst--since you've left such a margin--may be still to +come. You may yet break down." + +"Yes, I may yet break down. But will you take me--?" + +He had hesitated, and she waited. "Take you?" + +"For as long as I can bear it." + +She also debated "Mr. Newsome and Madame de Vionnet may, as we were +saying, leave town. How long do you think you can bear it without +them?" + +Strether's reply to this was at first another question. "Do you mean +in order to get away from me?" + +Her answer had an abruptness. "Don't find me rude if I say I should +think they'd want to!" + +He looked at her hard again--seemed even for an instant to have an +intensity of thought under which his colour changed. But he smiled. +"You mean after what they've done to me?" + +"After what SHE has." + +At this, however, with a laugh, he was all right again. "Ah but she +hasn't done it yet!" + + + +III + + +He had taken the train a few days after this from a station--as well as +to a station--selected almost at random; such days, whatever should +happen, were numbered, and he had gone forth under the impulse--artless +enough, no doubt--to give the whole of one of them to that French +ruralism, with its cool special green, into which he had hitherto +looked only through the little oblong window of the picture-frame. It +had been as yet for the most part but a land of fancy for him--the +background of fiction, the medium of art, the nursery of letters; +practically as distant as Greece, but practically also well-nigh as +consecrated. Romance could weave itself, for Strether's sense, out of +elements mild enough; and even after what he had, as he felt, lately +"been through," he could thrill a little at the chance of seeing +something somewhere that would remind him of a certain small Lambinet +that had charmed him, long years before, at a Boston dealer's and that +he had quite absurdly never forgotten. It had been offered, he +remembered, at a price he had been instructed to believe the lowest +ever named for a Lambinet, a price he had never felt so poor as on +having to recognise, all the same, as beyond a dream of possibility. He +had dreamed--had turned and twisted possibilities for an hour: it had +been the only adventure of his life in connexion with the purchase of a +work of art. The adventure, it will be perceived, was modest; but the +memory, beyond all reason and by some accident of association, was +sweet. The little Lambinet abode with him as the picture he WOULD have +bought--the particular production that had made him for the moment +overstep the modesty of nature. He was quite aware that if he were to +see it again he should perhaps have a drop or a shock, and he never +found himself wishing that the wheel of time would turn it up again, +just as he had seen it in the maroon-coloured, sky-lighted inner shrine +of Tremont Street. It would be a different thing, however, to see the +remembered mixture resolved back into its elements--to assist at the +restoration to nature of the whole far-away hour: the dusty day in +Boston, the background of the Fitchburg Depot, of the maroon-coloured +sanctum, the special-green vision, the ridiculous price, the poplars, +the willows, the rushes, the river, the sunny silvery sky, the shady +woody horizon. + +He observed in respect to his train almost no condition save that it +should stop a few times after getting out of the banlieue; he threw +himself on the general amiability of the day for the hint of where to +alight. His theory of his excursion was that he could alight +anywhere--not nearer Paris than an hour's run--on catching a suggestion +of the particular note required. It made its sign, the +suggestion--weather, air, light, colour and his mood all favouring--at +the end of some eighty minutes; the train pulled up just at the right +spot, and he found himself getting out as securely as if to keep an +appointment. It will be felt of him that he could amuse himself, at +his age, with very small things if it be again noted that his +appointment was only with a superseded Boston fashion. He hadn't gone +far without the quick confidence that it would be quite sufficiently +kept. The oblong gilt frame disposed its enclosing lines; the poplars +and willows, the reeds and river--a river of which he didn't know, and +didn't want to know, the name--fell into a composition, full of +felicity, within them; the sky was silver and turquoise and varnish; +the village on the left was white and the church on the right was grey; +it was all there, in short--it was what he wanted: it was Tremont +Street, it was France, it was Lambinet. Moreover he was freely walking +about in it. He did this last, for an hour, to his heart's content, +making for the shady woody horizon and boring so deep into his +impression and his idleness that he might fairly have got through them +again and reached the maroon-coloured wall. It was a wonder, no doubt, +that the taste of idleness for him shouldn't need more time to sweeten; +but it had in fact taken the few previous days; it had been sweetening +in truth ever since the retreat of the Pococks. He walked and walked as +if to show himself how little he had now to do; he had nothing to do +but turn off to some hillside where he might stretch himself and hear +the poplars rustle, and whence--in the course of an afternoon so spent, +an afternoon richly suffused too with the sense of a book in his +pocket--he should sufficiently command the scene to be able to pick out +just the right little rustic inn for an experiment in respect to +dinner. There was a train back to Paris at 9.20, and he saw himself +partaking, at the close of the day, with the enhancements of a coarse +white cloth and a sanded door, of something fried and felicitous, +washed down with authentic wine; after which he might, as he liked, +either stroll back to his station in the gloaming or propose for the +local carriole and converse with his driver, a driver who naturally +wouldn't fail of a stiff clean blouse, of a knitted nightcap and of the +genius of response--who, in fine, would sit on the shafts, tell him +what the French people were thinking, and remind him, as indeed the +whole episode would incidentally do, of Maupassant. Strether heard his +lips, for the first time in French air, as this vision assumed +consistency, emit sounds of expressive intention without fear of his +company. He had been afraid of Chad and of Maria and of Madame de +Vionnet; he had been most of all afraid of Waymarsh, in whose presence, +so far as they had mixed together in the light of the town, he had +never without somehow paying for it aired either his vocabulary or his +accent. He usually paid for it by meeting immediately afterwards +Waymarsh's eye. + +Such were the liberties with which his fancy played after he had turned +off to the hillside that did really and truly, as well as most amiably, +await him beneath the poplars, the hillside that made him feel, for a +murmurous couple of hours, how happy had been his thought. He had the +sense of success, of a finer harmony in things; nothing but what had +turned out as yet according to his plan. It most of all came home to +him, as he lay on his back on the grass, that Sarah had really gone, +that his tension was really relaxed; the peace diffused in these ideas +might be delusive, but it hung about him none the less for the time. It +fairly, for half an hour, sent him to sleep; he pulled his straw hat +over his eyes--he had bought it the day before with a reminiscence of +Waymarsh's--and lost himself anew in Lambinet. It was as if he had +found out he was tired--tired not from his walk, but from that inward +exercise which had known, on the whole, for three months, so little +intermission. That was it--when once they were off he had dropped; +this moreover was what he had dropped to, and now he was touching +bottom. He was kept luxuriously quiet, soothed and amused by the +consciousness of what he had found at the end of his descent. It was +very much what he had told Maria Gostrey he should like to stay on for, +the hugely-distributed Paris of summer, alternately dazzling and dusky, +with a weight lifted for him off its columns and cornices and with +shade and air in the flutter of awnings as wide as avenues. It was +present to him without attenuation that, reaching out, the day after +making the remark, for some proof of his freedom, he had gone that very +afternoon to see Madame de Vionnet. He had gone again the next day but +one, and the effect of the two visits, the after-sense of the couple of +hours spent with her, was almost that of fulness and frequency. The +brave intention of frequency, so great with him from the moment of his +finding himself unjustly suspected at Woollett, had remained rather +theoretic, and one of the things he could muse about under his poplars +was the source of the special shyness that had still made him careful. +He had surely got rid of it now, this special shyness; what had become +of it if it hadn't precisely, within the week, rubbed off? + +It struck him now in fact as sufficiently plain that if he had still +been careful he had been so for a reason. He had really feared, in his +behaviour, a lapse from good faith; if there was a danger of one's +liking such a woman too much one's best safety was in waiting at least +till one had the right to do so. In the light of the last few days the +danger was fairly vivid; so that it was proportionately fortunate that +the right was likewise established. It seemed to our friend that he had +on each occasion profited to the utmost by the latter: how could he +have done so more, he at all events asked himself, than in having +immediately let her know that, if it was all the same to her, he +preferred not to talk about anything tiresome? He had never in his +life so sacrificed an armful of high interests as in that remark; he +had never so prepared the way for the comparatively frivolous as in +addressing it to Madame de Vionnet's intelligence. It hadn't been till +later that he quite recalled how in conjuring away everything but the +pleasant he had conjured away almost all they had hitherto talked +about; it was not till later even that he remembered how, with their +new tone, they hadn't so much as mentioned the name of Chad himself. +One of the things that most lingered with him on his hillside was this +delightful facility, with such a woman, of arriving at a new tone; he +thought, as he lay on his back, of all the tones she might make +possible if one were to try her, and at any rate of the probability +that one could trust her to fit them to occasions. He had wanted her +to feel that, as he was disinterested now, so she herself should be, +and she had showed she felt it, and he had showed he was grateful, and +it had been for all the world as if he were calling for the first time. +They had had other, but irrelevant, meetings; it was quite as if, had +they sooner known how much they REALLY had in common, there were +quantities of comparatively dull matters they might have skipped. Well, +they were skipping them now, even to graceful gratitude, even to +handsome "Don't mention it!"--and it was amazing what could still come +up without reference to what had been going on between them. It might +have been, on analysis, nothing more than Shakespeare and the musical +glasses; but it had served all the purpose of his appearing to have +said to her: "Don't like me, if it's a question of liking me, for +anything obvious and clumsy that I've, as they call it, 'done' for you: +like me--well, like me, hang it, for anything else you choose. So, by +the same propriety, don't be for me simply the person I've come to know +through my awkward connexion with Chad--was ever anything, by the way, +MORE awkward? Be for me, please, with all your admirable tact and +trust, just whatever I may show you it's a present pleasure to me to +think you." It had been a large indication to meet; but if she hadn't +met it what HAD she done, and how had their time together slipped along +so smoothly, mild but not slow, and melting, liquefying, into his happy +illusion of idleness? He could recognise on the other hand that he had +probably not been without reason, in his prior, his restricted state, +for keeping an eye on his liability to lapse from good faith. + +He really continued in the picture--that being for himself his +situation--all the rest of this rambling day; so that the charm was +still, was indeed more than ever upon him when, toward six o'clock he +found himself amicably engaged with a stout white-capped deep-voiced +woman at the door of the auberge of the biggest village, a village that +affected him as a thing of whiteness, blueness and crookedness, set in +coppery green, and that had the river flowing behind or before it--one +couldn't say which; at the bottom, in particular, of the inn-garden. He +had had other adventures before this; had kept along the height, after +shaking off slumber; had admired, had almost coveted, another small old +church, all steep roof and dim slate-colour without and all whitewash +and paper flowers within; had lost his way and had found it again; had +conversed with rustics who struck him perhaps a little more as men of +the world than he had expected; had acquired at a bound a fearless +facility in French; had had, as the afternoon waned, a watery bock, all +pale and Parisian, in the cafe of the furthest village, which was not +the biggest; and had meanwhile not once overstepped the oblong gilt +frame. The frame had drawn itself out for him, as much as you please; +but that was just his luck. He had finally come down again to the +valley, to keep within touch of stations and trains, turning his face +to the quarter from which he had started; and thus it was that he had +at last pulled up before the hostess of the Cheval Blanc, who met him, +with a rough readiness that was like the clatter of sabots over stones, +on their common ground of a cotelette de veau a l'oseille and a +subsequent lift. He had walked many miles and didn't know he was +tired; but he still knew he was amused, and even that, though he had +been alone all day, he had never yet so struck himself as engaged with +others and in midstream of his drama. It might have passed for +finished his drama, with its catastrophe all but reached: it had, +however, none the less been vivid again for him as he thus gave it its +fuller chance. He had only had to be at last well out of it to feel +it, oddly enough, still going on. + +For this had been all day at bottom the spell of the picture--that it +was essentially more than anything else a scene and a stage, that the +very air of the play was in the rustle of the willows and the tone of +the sky. The play and the characters had, without his knowing it till +now, peopled all his space for him, and it seemed somehow quite happy +that they should offer themselves, in the conditions so supplied, with +a kind of inevitability. It was as if the conditions made them not +only inevitable, but so much more nearly natural and right as that they +were at least easier, pleasanter, to put up with. The conditions had +nowhere so asserted their difference from those of Woollett as they +appeared to him to assert it in the little court of the Cheval Blanc +while he arranged with his hostess for a comfortable climax. They were +few and simple, scant and humble, but they were THE THING, as he would +have called it, even to a greater degree than Madame de Vionnet's old +high salon where the ghost of the Empire walked. "The" thing was the +thing that implied the greatest number of other things of the sort he +had had to tackle; and it was queer of course, but so it was--the +implication here was complete. Not a single one of his observations +but somehow fell into a place in it; not a breath of the cooler evening +that wasn't somehow a syllable of the text. The text was simply, when +condensed, that in THESE places such things were, and that if it was in +them one elected to move about one had to make one's account with what +one lighted on. Meanwhile at all events it was enough that they did +affect one--so far as the village aspect was concerned--as whiteness, +crookedness and blueness set in coppery green; there being positively, +for that matter, an outer wall of the White Horse that was painted the +most improbable shade. That was part of the amusement--as if to show +that the fun was harmless; just as it was enough, further, that the +picture and the play seemed supremely to melt together in the good +woman's broad sketch of what she could do for her visitor's appetite. +He felt in short a confidence, and it was general, and it was all he +wanted to feel. It suffered no shock even on her mentioning that she +had in fact just laid the cloth for two persons who, unlike Monsieur, +had arrived by the river--in a boat of their own; who had asked her, +half an hour before, what she could do for them, and had then paddled +away to look at something a little further up--from which promenade +they would presently return. Monsieur might meanwhile, if he liked, +pass into the garden, such as it was, where she would serve him, should +he wish it--for there were tables and benches in plenty--a "bitter" +before his repast. Here she would also report to him on the possibility +of a conveyance to his station, and here at any rate he would have the +agrement of the river. + +It may be mentioned without delay that Monsieur had the agrement of +everything, and in particular, for the next twenty minutes, of a small +and primitive pavilion that, at the garden's edge, almost overhung the +water, testifying, in its somewhat battered state, to much fond +frequentation. It consisted of little more than a platform, slightly +raised, with a couple of benches and a table, a protecting rail and a +projecting roof; but it raked the full grey-blue stream, which, taking +a turn a short distance above, passed out of sight to reappear much +higher up; and it was clearly in esteemed requisition for Sundays and +other feasts. Strether sat there and, though hungry, felt at peace; +the confidence that had so gathered for him deepened with the lap of +the water, the ripple of the surface, the rustle of the reeds on the +opposite bank, the faint diffused coolness and the slight rock of a +couple of small boats attached to a rough landing-place hard by. The +valley on the further side was all copper-green level and glazed pearly +sky, a sky hatched across with screens of trimmed trees, which looked +flat, like espaliers; and though the rest of the village straggled away +in the near quarter the view had an emptiness that made one of the +boats suggestive. Such a river set one afloat almost before one could +take up the oars--the idle play of which would be moreover the aid to +the full impression. This perception went so far as to bring him to +his feet; but that movement, in turn, made him feel afresh that he was +tired, and while he leaned against a post and continued to look out he +saw something that gave him a sharper arrest. + + + +IV + +What he saw was exactly the right thing--a boat advancing round the +bend and containing a man who held the paddles and a lady, at the +stern, with a pink parasol. It was suddenly as if these figures, or +something like them, had been wanted in the picture, had been wanted +more or less all day, and had now drifted into sight, with the slow +current, on purpose to fill up the measure. They came slowly, floating +down, evidently directed to the landing-place near their spectator and +presenting themselves to him not less clearly as the two persons for +whom his hostess was already preparing a meal. For two very happy +persons he found himself straightway taking them--a young man in +shirt-sleeves, a young woman easy and fair, who had pulled pleasantly +up from some other place and, being acquainted with the neighbourhood, +had known what this particular retreat could offer them. The air quite +thickened, at their approach, with further intimations; the intimation +that they were expert, familiar, frequent--that this wouldn't at all +events be the first time. They knew how to do it, he vaguely felt--and +it made them but the more idyllic, though at the very moment of the +impression, as happened, their boat seemed to have begun to drift wide, +the oarsman letting it go. It had by this time none the less come +much nearer--near enough for Strether to dream the lady in the stern +had for some reason taken account of his being there to watch them. She +had remarked on it sharply, yet her companion hadn't turned round; it +was in fact almost as if our friend had felt her bid him keep still. +She had taken in something as a result of which their course had +wavered, and it continued to waver while they just stood off. This +little effect was sudden and rapid, so rapid that Strether's sense of +it was separate only for an instant from a sharp start of his own. He +too had within the minute taken in something, taken in that he knew the +lady whose parasol, shifting as if to hide her face, made so fine a +pink point in the shining scene. It was too prodigious, a chance in a +million, but, if he knew the lady, the gentleman, who still presented +his back and kept off, the gentleman, the coatless hero of the idyll, +who had responded to her start, was, to match the marvel, none other +than Chad. + +Chad and Madame de Vionnet were then like himself taking a day in the +country--though it was as queer as fiction, as farce, that their +country could happen to be exactly his; and she had been the first at +recognition, the first to feel, across the water, the shock--for it +appeared to come to that--of their wonderful accident. Strether became +aware, with this, of what was taking place--that her recognition had +been even stranger for the pair in the boat, that her immediate impulse +had been to control it, and that she was quickly and intensely debating +with Chad the risk of betrayal. He saw they would show nothing if they +could feel sure he hadn't made them out; so that he had before him for +a few seconds his own hesitation. It was a sharp fantastic crisis that +had popped up as if in a dream, and it had had only to last the few +seconds to make him feel it as quite horrible. They were thus, on +either side, TRYING the other side, and all for some reason that broke +the stillness like some unprovoked harsh note. It seemed to him again, +within the limit, that he had but one thing to do--to settle their +common question by some sign of surprise and joy. He hereupon gave +large play to these things, agitating his hat and his stick and loudly +calling out--a demonstration that brought him relief as soon as he had +seen it answered. The boat, in mid-stream, still went a little +wild--which seemed natural, however, while Chad turned round, half +springing up; and his good friend, after blankness and wonder, began +gaily to wave her parasol. Chad dropped afresh to his paddles and the +boat headed round, amazement and pleasantry filling the air meanwhile, +and relief, as Strether continued to fancy, superseding mere violence. +Our friend went down to the water under this odd impression as of +violence averted--the violence of their having "cut" him, out there in +the eye of nature, on the assumption that he wouldn't know it. He +awaited them with a face from which he was conscious of not being able +quite to banish this idea that they would have gone on, not seeing and +not knowing, missing their dinner and disappointing their hostess, had +he himself taken a line to match. That at least was what darkened his +vision for the moment. Afterwards, after they had bumped at the +landing-place and he had assisted their getting ashore, everything +found itself sponged over by the mere miracle of the encounter. + +They could so much better at last, on either side, treat it as a wild +extravagance of hazard, that the situation was made elastic by the +amount of explanation called into play. Why indeed--apart from +oddity--the situation should have been really stiff was a question +naturally not practical at the moment, and in fact, so far as we are +concerned, a question tackled, later on and in private, only by +Strether himself. He was to reflect later on and in private that it +was mainly HE who had explained--as he had had moreover comparatively +little difficulty in doing. He was to have at all events meanwhile the +worrying thought of their perhaps secretly suspecting him of having +plotted this coincidence, taking such pains as might be to give it the +semblance of an accident. That possibility--as their +imputation--didn't of course bear looking into for an instant; yet the +whole incident was so manifestly, arrange it as they would, an awkward +one, that he could scarce keep disclaimers in respect to his own +presence from rising to his lips. Disclaimers of intention would have +been as tactless as his presence was practically gross; and the +narrowest escape they either of them had was his lucky escape, in the +event, from making any. Nothing of the sort, so far as surface and +sound were involved, was even in question; surface and sound all made +for their common ridiculous good fortune, for the general +invraisemblance of the occasion, for the charming chance that they had, +the others, in passing, ordered some food to be ready, the charming +chance that he had himself not eaten, the charming chance, even more, +that their little plans, their hours, their train, in short, from +la-bas, would all match for their return together to Paris. The chance +that was most charming of all, the chance that drew from Madame de +Vionnet her clearest, gayest "Comme cela se trouve!" was the +announcement made to Strether after they were seated at table, the word +given him by their hostess in respect to his carriage for the station, +on which he might now count. It settled the matter for his friends as +well; the conveyance--it WAS all too lucky!--would serve for them; and +nothing was more delightful than his being in a position to make the +train so definite. It might have been, for themselves--to hear Madame +de Vionnet--almost unnaturally vague, a detail left to be fixed; though +Strether indeed was afterwards to remember that Chad had promptly +enough intervened to forestall this appearance, laughing at his +companion's flightiness and making the point that he had after all, in +spite of the bedazzlement of a day out with her, known what he was +about. + +Strether was to remember afterwards further that this had had for him +the effect of forming Chad's almost sole intervention; and indeed he +was to remember further still, in subsequent meditation, many things +that, as it were, fitted together. Another of them was for instance +that the wonderful woman's overflow of surprise and amusement was +wholly into French, which she struck him as speaking with an +unprecedented command of idiomatic turns, but in which she got, as he +might have said, somewhat away from him, taking all at once little +brilliant jumps that he could but lamely match. The question of his +own French had never come up for them; it was the one thing she +wouldn't have permitted--it belonged, for a person who had been through +much, to mere boredom; but the present result was odd, fairly veiling +her identity, shifting her back into a mere voluble class or race to +the intense audibility of which he was by this time inured. When she +spoke the charming slightly strange English he best knew her by he +seemed to feel her as a creature, among all the millions, with a +language quite to herself, the real monopoly of a special shade of +speech, beautifully easy for her, yet of a colour and a cadence that +were both inimitable and matters of accident. She came back to these +things after they had shaken down in the inn-parlour and knew, as it +were, what was to become of them; it was inevitable that loud +ejaculation over the prodigy of their convergence should at last wear +itself out. Then it was that his impression took fuller form--the +impression, destined only to deepen, to complete itself, that they had +something to put a face upon, to carry off and make the best of, and +that it was she who, admirably on the whole, was doing this. It was +familiar to him of course that they had something to put a face upon; +their friendship, their connexion, took any amount of explaining--that +would have been made familiar by his twenty minutes with Mrs. Pocock if +it hadn't already been so. Yet his theory, as we know, had bountifully +been that the facts were specifically none of his business, and were, +over and above, so far as one had to do with them, intrinsically +beautiful; and this might have prepared him for anything, as well as +rendered him proof against mystification. When he reached home that +night, however, he knew he had been, at bottom, neither prepared nor +proof; and since we have spoken of what he was, after his return, to +recall and interpret, it may as well immediately be said that his real +experience of these few hours put on, in that belated vision--for he +scarce went to bed till morning--the aspect that is most to our purpose. + +He then knew more or less how he had been affected--he but half knew at +the time. There had been plenty to affect him even after, as has been +said, they had shaken down; for his consciousness, though muffled, had +its sharpest moments during this passage, a marked drop into innocent +friendly Bohemia. They then had put their elbows on the table, +deploring the premature end of their two or three dishes; which they +had tried to make up with another bottle while Chad joked a little +spasmodically, perhaps even a little irrelevantly, with the hostess. +What it all came to had been that fiction and fable WERE, inevitably, +in the air, and not as a simple term of comparison, but as a result of +things said; also that they were blinking it, all round, and that they +yet needn't, so much as that, have blinked it--though indeed if they +hadn't Strether didn't quite see what else they could have done. +Strether didn't quite see THAT even at an hour or two past midnight, +even when he had, at his hotel, for a long time, without a light and +without undressing, sat back on his bedroom sofa and stared straight +before him. He was, at that point of vantage, in full possession, to +make of it all what he could. He kept making of it that there had been +simply a LIE in the charming affair--a lie on which one could now, +detached and deliberate, perfectly put one's finger. It was with the +lie that they had eaten and drunk and talked and laughed, that they had +waited for their carriole rather impatiently, and had then got into the +vehicle and, sensibly subsiding, driven their three or four miles +through the darkening summer night. The eating and drinking, which had +been a resource, had had the effect of having served its turn; the talk +and laughter had done as much; and it was during their somewhat tedious +progress to the station, during the waits there, the further delays, +their submission to fatigue, their silences in the dim compartment of +the much-stopping train, that he prepared himself for reflexions to +come. It had been a performance, Madame de Vionnet's manner, and though +it had to that degree faltered toward the end, as through her ceasing +to believe in it, as if she had asked herself, or Chad had found a +moment surreptitiously to ask her, what after all was the use, a +performance it had none the less quite handsomely remained, with the +final fact about it that it was on the whole easier to keep up than to +abandon. + +From the point of view of presence of mind it had been very wonderful +indeed, wonderful for readiness, for beautiful assurance, for the way +her decision was taken on the spot, without time to confer with Chad, +without time for anything. Their only conference could have been the +brief instants in the boat before they confessed to recognising the +spectator on the bank, for they hadn't been alone together a moment +since and must have communicated all in silence. It was a part of the +deep impression for Strether, and not the least of the deep interest, +that they COULD so communicate--that Chad in particular could let her +know he left it to her. He habitually left things to others, as +Strether was so well aware, and it in fact came over our friend in +these meditations that there had been as yet no such vivid illustration +of his famous knowing how to live. It was as if he had humoured her to +the extent of letting her lie without correction--almost as if, really, +he would be coming round in the morning to set the matter, as between +Strether and himself, right. Of course he couldn't quite come; it was +a case in which a man was obliged to accept the woman's version, even +when fantastic; if she had, with more flurry than she cared to show, +elected, as the phrase was, to represent that they had left Paris that +morning, and with no design but of getting back within the day--if she +had so sized-up, in the Woollett phrase, their necessity, she knew best +her own measure. There were things, all the same, it was impossible to +blink and which made this measure an odd one--the too evident fact for +instance that she hadn't started out for the day dressed and hatted and +shod, and even, for that matter, pink parasol'd, as she had been in the +boat. From what did the drop in her assurance proceed as the tension +increased--from what did this slightly baffled ingenuity spring but +from her consciousness of not presenting, as night closed in, with not +so much as a shawl to wrap her round, an appearance that matched her +story? She admitted that she was cold, but only to blame her +imprudence which Chad suffered her to give such account of as she +might. Her shawl and Chad's overcoat and her other garments, and his, +those they had each worn the day before, were at the place, best known +to themselves--a quiet retreat enough, no doubt--at which they had been +spending the twenty-four hours, to which they had fully meant to return +that evening, from which they had so remarkably swum into Strether's +ken, and the tacit repudiation of which had been thus the essence of +her comedy. Strether saw how she had perceived in a flash that they +couldn't quite look to going back there under his nose; though, +honestly, as he gouged deeper into the matter, he was somewhat +surprised, as Chad likewise had perhaps been, at the uprising of this +scruple. He seemed even to divine that she had entertained it rather +for Chad than for herself, and that, as the young man had lacked the +chance to enlighten her, she had had to go on with it, he meanwhile +mistaking her motive. + +He was rather glad, none the less, that they had in point of fact not +parted at the Cheval Blanc, that he hadn't been reduced to giving them +his blessing for an idyllic retreat down the river. He had had in the +actual case to make-believe more than he liked, but this was nothing, +it struck him, to what the other event would have required. Could he, +literally, quite have faced the other event? Would he have been +capable of making the best of it with them? This was what he was +trying to do now; but with the advantage of his being able to give more +time to it a good deal counteracted by his sense of what, over and +above the central fact itself, he had to swallow. It was the quantity +of make-believe involved and so vividly exemplified that most disagreed +with his spiritual stomach. He moved, however, from the consideration +of that quantity--to say nothing of the consciousness of that +organ--back to the other feature of the show, the deep, deep truth of +the intimacy revealed. That was what, in his vain vigil, he oftenest +reverted to: intimacy, at such a point, was LIKE that--and what in the +world else would one have wished it to be like? It was all very well +for him to feel the pity of its being so much like lying; he almost +blushed, in the dark, for the way he had dressed the possibility in +vagueness, as a little girl might have dressed her doll. He had made +them--and by no fault of their own--momentarily pull it for him, the +possibility, out of this vagueness; and must he not therefore take it +now as they had had simply, with whatever thin attenuations, to give it +to him? The very question, it may be added, made him feel lonely and +cold. There was the element of the awkward all round, but Chad and +Madame de Vionnet had at least the comfort that they could talk it over +together. With whom could HE talk of such things?--unless indeed +always, at almost any stage, with Maria? He foresaw that Miss Gostrey +would come again into requisition on the morrow; though it wasn't to be +denied that he was already a little afraid of her "What on +earth--that's what I want to know now--had you then supposed?" He +recognised at last that he had really been trying all along to suppose +nothing. Verily, verily, his labour had been lost. He found himself +supposing innumerable and wonderful things. + + + + + +Book Twelfth + + + + +I + + +Strether couldn't have said he had during the previous hours definitely +expected it; yet when, later on, that morning--though no later indeed +than for his coming forth at ten o'clock--he saw the concierge produce, +on his approach, a petit bleu delivered since his letters had been sent +up, he recognised the appearance as the first symptom of a sequel. He +then knew he had been thinking of some early sign from Chad as more +likely, after all, than not; and this would be precisely the early +sign. He took it so for granted that he opened the petit bleu just +where he had stopped, in the pleasant cool draught of the +porte-cochere--only curious to see where the young man would, at such a +juncture, break out. His curiosity, however, was more than gratified; +the small missive, whose gummed edge he had detached without attention +to the address, not being from the young man at all, but from the +person whom the case gave him on the spot as still more worth while. +Worth while or not, he went round to the nearest telegraph-office, the +big one on the Boulevard, with a directness that almost confessed to a +fear of the danger of delay. He might have been thinking that if he +didn't go before he could think he wouldn't perhaps go at all. He at +any rate kept, in the lower side-pocket of his morning coat, a very +deliberate hand on his blue missive, crumpling it up rather tenderly +than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the Boulevard, also in the form of +a petit bleu--which was quickly done, under pressure of the place, +inasmuch as, like Madame de Vionnet's own communication, it consisted +of the fewest words. She had asked him if he could do her the very +great kindness of coming to see her that evening at half-past nine, and +he answered, as if nothing were easier, that he would present himself +at the hour she named. She had added a line of postscript, to the +effect that she would come to him elsewhere and at his own hour if he +preferred; but he took no notice of this, feeling that if he saw her at +all half the value of it would be in seeing her where he had already +seen her best. He mightn't see her at all; that was one of the +reflexions he made after writing and before he dropped his closed card +into the box; he mightn't see any one at all any more at all; he might +make an end as well now as ever, leaving things as they were, since he +was doubtless not to leave them better, and taking his way home so far +as should appear that a home remained to him. This alternative was for +a few minutes so sharp that if he at last did deposit his missive it +was perhaps because the pressure of the place had an effect. + +There was none other, however, than the common and constant pressure, +familiar to our friend under the rubric of Postes et Telegraphes--the +something in the air of these establishments; the vibration of the vast +strange life of the town, the influence of the types, the performers +concocting their messages; the little prompt Paris women, arranging, +pretexting goodness knew what, driving the dreadful needle-pointed +public pen at the dreadful sand-strewn public table: implements that +symbolised for Strether's too interpretative innocence something more +acute in manners, more sinister in morals, more fierce in the national +life. After he had put in his paper he had ranged himself, he was +really amused to think, on the side of the fierce, the sinister, the +acute. He was carrying on a correspondence, across the great city, +quite in the key of the Postes et Telegraphes in general; and it was +fairly as if the acceptance of that fact had come from something in his +state that sorted with the occupation of his neighbours. He was mixed +up with the typical tale of Paris, and so were they, poor things--how +could they all together help being? They were no worse than he, in +short, and he no worse than they--if, queerly enough, no better; and at +all events he had settled his hash, so that he went out to begin, from +that moment, his day of waiting. The great settlement was, as he felt, +in his preference for seeing his correspondent in her own best +conditions. THAT was part of the typical tale, the part most +significant in respect to himself. He liked the place she lived in, +the picture that each time squared itself, large and high and clear, +around her: every occasion of seeing it was a pleasure of a different +shade. Yet what precisely was he doing with shades of pleasure now, +and why hadn't he properly and logically compelled her to commit +herself to whatever of disadvantage and penalty the situation might +throw up? He might have proposed, as for Sarah Pocock, the cold +hospitality of his own salon de lecture, in which the chill of Sarah's +visit seemed still to abide and shades of pleasure were dim; he might +have suggested a stone bench in the dusty Tuileries or a penny chair at +the back part of the Champs Elysees. These things would have been a +trifle stern, and sternness alone now wouldn't be sinister. An +instinct in him cast about for some form of discipline in which they +might meet--some awkwardness they would suffer from, some danger, or at +least some grave inconvenience, they would incur. This would give a +sense--which the spirit required, rather ached and sighed in the +absence of--that somebody was paying something somewhere and somehow, +that they were at least not all floating together on the silver stream +of impunity. Just instead of that to go and see her late in the +evening, as if, for all the world--well, as if he were as much in the +swim as anybody else: this had as little as possible in common with +the penal form. + +Even when he had felt that objection melt away, however, the practical +difference was small; the long stretch of his interval took the colour +it would, and if he lived on thus with the sinister from hour to hour +it proved an easier thing than one might have supposed in advance. He +reverted in thought to his old tradition, the one he had been brought +up on and which even so many years of life had but little worn away; +the notion that the state of the wrongdoer, or at least this person's +happiness, presented some special difficulty. What struck him now +rather was the ease of it--for nothing in truth appeared easier. It +was an ease he himself fairly tasted of for the rest of the day; giving +himself quite up; not so much as trying to dress it out, in any +particular whatever, as a difficulty; not after all going to see +Maria--which would have been in a manner a result of such dressing; +only idling, lounging, smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade +and consuming ices. The day had turned to heat and eventual thunder, +and he now and again went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn't +been there. He hadn't yet struck himself, since leaving Woollett, so +much as a loafer, though there had been times when he believed himself +touching bottom. This was a deeper depth than any, and with no +foresight, scarcely with a care, as to what he should bring up. He +almost wondered if he didn't LOOK demoralised and disreputable; he had +the fanciful vision, as he sat and smoked, of some accidental, some +motived, return of the Pococks, who would be passing along the +Boulevard and would catch this view of him. They would have distinctly, +on his appearance, every ground for scandal. But fate failed to +administer even that sternness; the Pococks never passed and Chad made +no sign. Strether meanwhile continued to hold off from Miss Gostrey, +keeping her till to-morrow; so that by evening his irresponsibility, +his impunity, his luxury, had become--there was no other word for +them--immense. + +Between nine and ten, at last, in the high clear picture--he was moving +in these days, as in a gallery, from clever canvas to clever canvas--he +drew a long breath: it was so presented to him from the first that the +spell of his luxury wouldn't be broken. He wouldn't have, that is, to +become responsible--this was admirably in the air: she had sent for him +precisely to let him feel it, so that he might go on with the comfort +(comfort already established, hadn't it been?) of regarding his ordeal, +the ordeal of the weeks of Sarah's stay and of their climax, as safely +traversed and left behind him. Didn't she just wish to assure him that +SHE now took it all and so kept it; that he was absolutely not to worry +any more, was only to rest on his laurels and continue generously to +help her? The light in her beautiful formal room was dim, though it +would do, as everything would always do; the hot night had kept out +lamps, but there was a pair of clusters of candles that glimmered over +the chimney-piece like the tall tapers of an altar. The windows were +all open, their redundant hangings swaying a little, and he heard once +more, from the empty court, the small plash of the fountain. From +beyond this, and as from a great distance--beyond the court, beyond the +corps de logis forming the front--came, as if excited and exciting, the +vague voice of Paris. Strether had all along been subject to sudden +gusts of fancy in connexion with such matters as these--odd starts of +the historic sense, suppositions and divinations with no warrant but +their intensity. Thus and so, on the eve of the great recorded dates, +the days and nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the omens, +the beginnings broken out. They were the smell of revolution, the +smell of the public temper--or perhaps simply the smell of blood. + +It was at present queer beyond words, "subtle," he would have risked +saying, that such suggestions should keep crossing the scene; but it +was doubtless the effect of the thunder in the air, which had hung +about all day without release. His hostess was dressed as for +thunderous times, and it fell in with the kind of imagination we have +just attributed to him that she should be in simplest coolest white, of +a character so old-fashioned, if he were not mistaken, that Madame +Roland must on the scaffold have worn something like it. This effect +was enhanced by a small black fichu or scarf, of crape or gauze, +disposed quaintly round her bosom and now completing as by a mystic +touch the pathetic, the noble analogy. Poor Strether in fact scarce +knew what analogy was evoked for him as the charming woman, receiving +him and making him, as she could do such things, at once familiarly and +gravely welcome, moved over her great room with her image almost +repeated in its polished floor, which had been fully bared for summer. +The associations of the place, all felt again; the gleam here and +there, in the subdued light, of glass and gilt and parquet, with the +quietness of her own note as the centre--these things were at first as +delicate as if they had been ghostly, and he was sure in a moment that, +whatever he should find he had come for, it wouldn't be for an +impression that had previously failed him. That conviction held him +from the outset, and, seeming singularly to simplify, certified to him +that the objects about would help him, would really help them both. No, +he might never see them again--this was only too probably the last +time; and he should certainly see nothing in the least degree like +them. He should soon be going to where such things were not, and it +would be a small mercy for memory, for fancy, to have, in that stress, +a loaf on the shelf. He knew in advance he should look back on the +perception actually sharpest with him as on the view of something old, +old, old, the oldest thing he had ever personally touched; and he also +knew, even while he took his companion in as the feature among +features, that memory and fancy couldn't help being enlisted for her. +She might intend what she would, but this was beyond anything she could +intend, with things from far back--tyrannies of history, facts of type, +values, as the painters said, of expression--all working for her and +giving her the supreme chance, the chance of the happy, the really +luxurious few, the chance, on a great occasion, to be natural and +simple. She had never, with him, been more so; or if it was the +perfection of art it would never--and that came to the same thing--be +proved against her. + +What was truly wonderful was her way of differing so from time to time +without detriment to her simplicity. Caprices, he was sure she felt, +were before anything else bad manners, and that judgement in her was by +itself a thing making more for safety of intercourse than anything that +in his various own past intercourses he had had to reckon on. If +therefore her presence was now quite other than the one she had shown +him the night before, there was nothing of violence in the change--it +was all harmony and reason. It gave him a mild deep person, whereas he +had had on the occasion to which their interview was a direct reference +a person committed to movement and surface and abounding in them; but +she was in either character more remarkable for nothing than for her +bridging of intervals, and this now fell in with what he understood he +was to leave to her. The only thing was that, if he was to leave it +ALL to her, why exactly had she sent for him? He had had, vaguely, in +advance, his explanation, his view of the probability of her wishing to +set something right, to deal in some way with the fraud so lately +practised on his presumed credulity. Would she attempt to carry it +further or would she blot it out? Would she throw over it some more or +less happy colour; or would she do nothing about it at all? He +perceived soon enough at least that, however reasonable she might be, +she wasn't vulgarly confused, and it herewith pressed upon him that +their eminent "lie," Chad's and hers, was simply after all such an +inevitable tribute to good taste as he couldn't have wished them not to +render. Away from them, during his vigil, he had seemed to wince at +the amount of comedy involved; whereas in his present posture he could +only ask himself how he should enjoy any attempt from her to take the +comedy back. He shouldn't enjoy it at all; but, once more and yet once +more, he could trust her. That is he could trust her to make deception +right. As she presented things the ugliness--goodness knew why--went +out of them; none the less too that she could present them, with an art +of her own, by not so much as touching them. She let the matter, at +all events, lie where it was--where the previous twenty-four hours had +placed it; appearing merely to circle about it respectfully, tenderly, +almost piously, while she took up another question. + +She knew she hadn't really thrown dust in his eyes; this, the previous +night, before they separated, had practically passed between them; and, +as she had sent for him to see what the difference thus made for him +might amount to, so he was conscious at the end of five minutes that he +had been tried and tested. She had settled with Chad after he left +them that she would, for her satisfaction, assure herself of this +quantity, and Chad had, as usual, let her have her way. Chad was +always letting people have their way when he felt that it would somehow +turn his wheel for him; it somehow always did turn his wheel. Strether +felt, oddly enough, before these facts, freshly and consentingly +passive; they again so rubbed it into him that the couple thus fixing +his attention were intimate, that his intervention had absolutely aided +and intensified their intimacy, and that in fine he must accept the +consequence of that. He had absolutely become, himself, with his +perceptions and his mistakes, his concessions and his reserves, the +droll mixture, as it must seem to them, of his braveries and his fears, +the general spectacle of his art and his innocence, almost an added +link and certainly a common priceless ground for them to meet upon. It +was as if he had been hearing their very tone when she brought out a +reference that was comparatively straight. "The last twice that you've +been here, you know, I never asked you," she said with an abrupt +transition--they had been pretending before this to talk simply of the +charm of yesterday and of the interest of the country they had seen. +The effort was confessedly vain; not for such talk had she invited him; +and her impatient reminder was of their having done for it all the +needful on his coming to her after Sarah's flight. What she hadn't +asked him then was to state to her where and how he stood for her; she +had been resting on Chad's report of their midnight hour together in +the Boulevard Malesherbes. The thing therefore she at present desired +was ushered in by this recall of the two occasions on which, +disinterested and merciful, she hadn't worried him. To-night truly she +WOULD worry him, and this was her appeal to him to let her risk it. He +wasn't to mind if she bored him a little: she had behaved, after +all--hadn't she?--so awfully, awfully well. + + + +II + + +"Oh, you're all right, you're all right," he almost impatiently +declared; his impatience being moreover not for her pressure, but for +her scruple. More and more distinct to him was the tune to which she +would have had the matter out with Chad: more and more vivid for him +the idea that she had been nervous as to what he might be able to +"stand." Yes, it had been a question if he had "stood" what the scene +on the river had given him, and, though the young man had doubtless +opined in favour of his recuperation, her own last word must have been +that she should feel easier in seeing for herself. That was it, +unmistakeably; she WAS seeing for herself. What he could stand was +thus, in these moments, in the balance for Strether, who reflected, as +he became fully aware of it, that he must properly brace himself. He +wanted fully to appear to stand all he might; and there was a certain +command of the situation for him in this very wish not to look too much +at sea. She was ready with everything, but so, sufficiently, was he; +that is he was at one point the more prepared of the two, inasmuch as, +for all her cleverness, she couldn't produce on the spot--and it was +surprising--an account of the motive of her note. He had the advantage +that his pronouncing her "all right" gave him for an enquiry. "May I +ask, delighted as I've been to come, if you've wished to say something +special?" He spoke as if she might have seen he had been waiting for +it--not indeed with discomfort, but with natural interest. Then he saw +that she was a little taken aback, was even surprised herself at the +detail she had neglected--the only one ever yet; having somehow assumed +he would know, would recognise, would leave some things not to be said. +She looked at him, however, an instant as if to convey that if he +wanted them ALL--! + +"Selfish and vulgar--that's what I must seem to you. You've done +everything for me, and here I am as if I were asking for more. But it +isn't," she went on, "because I'm afraid--though I AM of course afraid, +as a woman in my position always is. I mean it isn't because one lives +in terror--it isn't because of that one is selfish, for I'm ready to +give you my word to-night that I don't care; don't care what still may +happen and what I may lose. I don't ask you to raise your little +finger for me again, nor do I wish so much as to mention to you what +we've talked of before, either my danger or my safety, or his mother, +or his sister, or the girl he may marry, or the fortune he may make or +miss, or the right or the wrong, of any kind, he may do. If after the +help one has had from you one can't either take care of one's self or +simply hold one's tongue, one must renounce all claim to be an object +of interest. It's in the name of what I DO care about that I've tried +still to keep hold of you. How can I be indifferent," she asked, "to +how I appear to you?" And as he found himself unable immediately to +say: "Why, if you're going, NEED you, after all? Is it impossible you +should stay on--so that one mayn't lose you?" + +"Impossible I should live with you here instead of going home?" + +"Not 'with' us, if you object to that, but near enough to us, +somewhere, for us to see you--well," she beautifully brought out, "when +we feel we MUST. How shall we not sometimes feel it? I've wanted to +see you often when I couldn't," she pursued, "all these last weeks. How +shan't I then miss you now, with the sense of your being gone forever?" +Then as if the straightness of this appeal, taking him unprepared, had +visibly left him wondering: "Where IS your 'home' moreover now--what +has become of it? I've made a change in your life, I know I have; I've +upset everything in your mind as well; in your sense of--what shall I +call it?--all the decencies and possibilities. It gives me a kind of +detestation--" She pulled up short. + +Oh but he wanted to hear. "Detestation of what?" + +"Of everything--of life." + +"Ah that's too much," he laughed--"or too little!" + +"Too little, precisely"--she was eager. "What I hate is myself--when I +think that one has to take so much, to be happy, out of the lives of +others, and that one isn't happy even then. One does it to cheat one's +self and to stop one's mouth--but that's only at the best for a little. +The wretched self is always there, always making one somehow a fresh +anxiety. What it comes to is that it's not, that it's never, a +happiness, any happiness at all, to TAKE. The only safe thing is to +give. It's what plays you least false." Interesting, touching, +strikingly sincere as she let these things come from her, she yet +puzzled and troubled him--so fine was the quaver of her quietness. He +felt what he had felt before with her, that there was always more +behind what she showed, and more and more again behind that. "You know +so, at least," she added, "where you are!" + +"YOU ought to know it indeed then; for isn't what you've been giving +exactly what has brought us together this way? You've been making, as +I've so fully let you know I've felt," Strether said, "the most +precious present I've ever seen made, and if you can't sit down +peacefully on that performance you ARE, no doubt, born to torment +yourself. But you ought," he wound up, "to be easy." + +"And not trouble you any more, no doubt--not thrust on you even the +wonder and the beauty of what I've done; only let you regard our +business as over, and well over, and see you depart in a peace that +matches my own? No doubt, no doubt, no doubt," she nervously +repeated--"all the more that I don't really pretend I believe you +couldn't, for yourself, NOT have done what you have. I don't pretend +you feel yourself victimised, for this evidently is the way you live, +and it's what--we're agreed--is the best way. Yes, as you say," she +continued after a moment, "I ought to be easy and rest on my work. Well +then here am I doing so. I AM easy. You'll have it for your last +impression. When is it you say you go?" she asked with a quick change. + +He took some time to reply--his last impression was more and more so +mixed a one. It produced in him a vague disappointment, a drop that +was deeper even than the fall of his elation the previous night. The +good of what he had done, if he had done so much, wasn't there to +enliven him quite to the point that would have been ideal for a grand +gay finale. Women were thus endlessly absorbent, and to deal with them +was to walk on water. What was at bottom the matter with her, +embroider as she might and disclaim as she might--what was at bottom +the matter with her was simply Chad himself. It was of Chad she was +after all renewedly afraid; the strange strength of her passion was the +very strength of her fear; she clung to HIM, Lambert Strether, as to a +source of safety she had tested, and, generous graceful truthful as she +might try to be, exquisite as she was, she dreaded the term of his +being within reach. With this sharpest perception yet, it was like a +chill in the air to him, it was almost appalling, that a creature so +fine could be, by mysterious forces, a creature so exploited. For at +the end of all things they WERE mysterious: she had but made Chad what +he was--so why could she think she had made him infinite? She had made +him better, she had made him best, she had made him anything one would; +but it came to our friend with supreme queerness that he was none the +less only Chad. Strether had the sense that HE, a little, had made him +too; his high appreciation had as it were, consecrated her work The +work, however admirable, was nevertheless of the strict human order, +and in short it was marvellous that the companion of mere earthly joys, +of comforts, aberrations (however one classed them) within the common +experience should be so transcendently prized. It might have made +Strether hot or shy, as such secrets of others brought home sometimes +do make us; but he was held there by something so hard that it was +fairly grim. This was not the discomposure of last night; that had +quite passed--such discomposures were a detail; the real coercion was +to see a man ineffably adored. There it was again--it took women, it +took women; if to deal with them was to walk on water what wonder that +the water rose? And it had never surely risen higher than round this +woman. He presently found himself taking a long look from her, and the +next thing he knew he had uttered all his thought. "You're afraid for +your life!" + +It drew out her long look, and he soon enough saw why. A spasm came +into her face, the tears she had already been unable to hide overflowed +at first in silence, and then, as the sound suddenly comes from a +child, quickened to gasps, to sobs. She sat and covered her face with +her hands, giving up all attempt at a manner. "It's how you see me, +it's how you see me"--she caught her breath with it--"and it's as I AM, +and as I must take myself, and of course it's no matter." Her emotion +was at first so incoherent that he could only stand there at a loss, +stand with his sense of having upset her, though of having done it by +the truth. He had to listen to her in a silence that he made no +immediate effort to attenuate, feeling her doubly woeful amid all her +dim diffused elegance; consenting to it as he had consented to the +rest, and even conscious of some vague inward irony in the presence of +such a fine free range of bliss and bale. He couldn't say it was NOT +no matter; for he was serving her to the end, he now knew, +anyway--quite as if what he thought of her had nothing to do with it. +It was actually moreover as if he didn't think of her at all, as if he +could think of nothing but the passion, mature, abysmal, pitiful, she +represented, and the possibilities she betrayed. She was older for him +to-night, visibly less exempt from the touch of time; but she was as +much as ever the finest and subtlest creature, the happiest apparition, +it had been given him, in all his years, to meet; and yet he could see +her there as vulgarly troubled, in very truth, as a maidservant crying +for her young man. The only thing was that she judged herself as the +maidservant wouldn't; the weakness of which wisdom too, the dishonour +of which judgement, seemed but to sink her lower. Her collapse, +however, no doubt, was briefer and she had in a manner recovered +herself before he intervened. "Of course I'm afraid for my life. But +that's nothing. It isn't that." + +He was silent a little longer, as if thinking what it might be. +"There's something I have in mind that I can still do." + +But she threw off at last, with a sharp sad headshake, drying her eyes, +what he could still do. "I don't care for that. Of course, as I've +said, you're acting, in your wonderful way, for yourself; and what's +for yourself is no more my business--though I may reach out unholy +hands so clumsily to touch it--than if it were something in Timbuctoo. +It's only that you don't snub me, as you've had fifty chances to +do--it's only your beautiful patience that makes one forget one's +manners. In spite of your patience, all the same," she went on, "you'd +do anything rather than be with us here, even if that were possible. +You'd do everything for us but be mixed up with us--which is a +statement you can easily answer to the advantage of your own manners. +You can say 'What's the use of talking of things that at the best are +impossible?' What IS of course the use? It's only my little madness. +You'd talk if you were tormented. And I don't mean now about HIM. Oh +for him--!" Positively, strangely, bitterly, as it seemed to Strether, +she gave "him," for the moment, away. "You don't care what I think of +you; but I happen to care what you think of me. And what you MIGHT," +she added. "What you perhaps even did." + +He gained time. "What I did--?" + +"Did think before. Before this. DIDn't you think--?" + +But he had already stopped her. "I didn't think anything. I never +think a step further than I'm obliged to." + +"That's perfectly false, I believe," she returned--"except that you +may, no doubt, often pull up when things become TOO ugly; or even, I'll +say, to save you a protest, too beautiful. At any rate, even so far as +it's true, we've thrust on you appearances that you've had to take in +and that have therefore made your obligation. Ugly or beautiful--it +doesn't matter what we call them--you were getting on without them, and +that's where we're detestable. We bore you--that's where we are. And +we may well--for what we've cost you. All you can do NOW is not to +think at all. And I who should have liked to seem to you--well, +sublime!" + +He could only after a moment re-echo Miss Barrace. "You're wonderful!" + +"I'm old and abject and hideous"--she went on as without hearing him. +"Abject above all. Or old above all. It's when one's old that it's +worst. I don't care what becomes of it--let what WILL; there it is. +It's a doom--I know it; you can't see it more than I do myself. Things +have to happen as they will." With which she came back again to what, +face to face with him, had so quite broken down. "Of course you +wouldn't, even if possible, and no matter what may happen to you, be +near us. But think of me, think of me--!" She exhaled it into air. + +He took refuge in repeating something he had already said and that she +had made nothing of. "There's something I believe I can still do." And +he put his hand out for good-bye. + +She again made nothing of it; she went on with her insistence. "That +won't help you. There's nothing to help you." + +"Well, it may help YOU," he said. + +She shook her head. "There's not a grain of certainty in my +future--for the only certainty is that I shall be the loser in the end." + +She hadn't taken his hand, but she moved with him to the door. "That's +cheerful," he laughed, "for your benefactor!" + +"What's cheerful for ME," she replied, "is that we might, you and I, +have been friends. That's it--that's it. You see how, as I say, I +want everything. I've wanted you too." + +"Ah but you've HAD me!" he declared, at the door, with an emphasis that +made an end. + + + +III + + +His purpose had been to see Chad the next day, and he had prefigured +seeing him by an early call; having in general never stood on ceremony +in respect to visits at the Boulevard Malesherbes. It had been more +often natural for him to go there than for Chad to come to the small +hotel, the attractions of which were scant; yet it nevertheless, just +now, at the eleventh hour, did suggest itself to Strether to begin by +giving the young man a chance. It struck him that, in the inevitable +course, Chad would be "round," as Waymarsh used to say--Waymarsh who +already, somehow, seemed long ago. He hadn't come the day before, +because it had been arranged between them that Madame de Vionnet should +see their friend first; but now that this passage had taken place he +would present himself, and their friend wouldn't have long to wait. +Strether assumed, he became aware, on this reasoning, that the +interesting parties to the arrangement would have met betimes, and that +the more interesting of the two--as she was after all--would have +communicated to the other the issue of her appeal. Chad would know +without delay that his mother's messenger had been with her, and, +though it was perhaps not quite easy to see how she could qualify what +had occurred, he would at least have been sufficiently advised to feel +he could go on. The day, however, brought, early or late, no word from +him, and Strether felt, as a result of this, that a change had +practically come over their intercourse. It was perhaps a premature +judgement; or it only meant perhaps--how could he tell?--that the +wonderful pair he protected had taken up again together the excursion +he had accidentally checked. They might have gone back to the country, +and gone back but with a long breath drawn; that indeed would best mark +Chad's sense that reprobation hadn't rewarded Madame de Vionnet's +request for an interview. At the end of the twenty-four hours, at the +end of the forty-eight, there was still no overture; so that Strether +filled up the time, as he had so often filled it before, by going to +see Miss Gostrey. + +He proposed amusements to her; he felt expert now in proposing +amusements; and he had thus, for several days, an odd sense of leading +her about Paris, of driving her in the Bois, of showing her the penny +steamboats--those from which the breeze of the Seine was to be best +enjoyed--that might have belonged to a kindly uncle doing the honours +of the capital to an Intelligent niece from the country. He found +means even to take her to shops she didn't know, or that she pretended +she didn't; while she, on her side, was, like the country maiden, all +passive modest and grateful--going in fact so far as to emulate +rusticity in occasional fatigues and bewilderments. Strether described +these vague proceedings to himself, described them even to her, as a +happy interlude; the sign of which was that the companions said for the +time no further word about the matter they had talked of to satiety. He +proclaimed satiety at the outset, and she quickly took the hint; as +docile both in this and in everything else as the intelligent obedient +niece. He told her as yet nothing of his late adventure--for as an +adventure it now ranked with him; he pushed the whole business +temporarily aside and found his interest in the fact of her beautiful +assent. She left questions unasked--she who for so long had been all +questions; she gave herself up to him with an understanding of which +mere mute gentleness might have seemed the sufficient expression. She +knew his sense of his situation had taken still another step--of that +he was quite aware; but she conveyed that, whatever had thus happened +for him, it was thrown into the shade by what was happening for +herself. This--though it mightn't to a detached spirit have seemed +much--was the major interest, and she met it with a new directness of +response, measuring it from hour to hour with her grave hush of +acceptance. Touched as he had so often been by her before, he was, for +his part too, touched afresh; all the more that though he could be duly +aware of the principle of his own mood he couldn't be equally so of the +principle of hers. He knew, that is, in a manner--knew roughly and +resignedly--what he himself was hatching; whereas he had to take the +chance of what he called to himself Maria's calculations. It was all +he needed that she liked him enough for what they were doing, and even +should they do a good deal more would still like him enough for that; +the essential freshness of a relation so simple was a cool bath to the +soreness produced by other relations. These others appeared to him now +horribly complex; they bristled with fine points, points all +unimaginable beforehand, points that pricked and drew blood; a fact +that gave to an hour with his present friend on a bateau-mouche, or in +the afternoon shade of the Champs Elysees, something of the innocent +pleasure of handling rounded ivory. His relation with Chad +personally--from the moment he had got his point of view--had been of +the simplest; yet this also struck him as bristling, after a third and +a fourth blank day had passed. It was as if at last however his care +for such indications had dropped; there came a fifth blank day and he +ceased to enquire or to heed. + +They now took on to his fancy, Miss Gostrey and he, the image of the +Babes in the Wood; they could trust the merciful elements to let them +continue at peace. He had been great already, as he knew, at +postponements; but he had only to get afresh into the rhythm of one to +feel its fine attraction. It amused him to say to himself that he +might for all the world have been going to die--die resignedly; the +scene was filled for him with so deep a death-bed hush, so melancholy a +charm. That meant the postponement of everything else--which made so +for the quiet lapse of life; and the postponement in especial of the +reckoning to come--unless indeed the reckoning to come were to be one +and the same thing with extinction. It faced him, the reckoning, over +the shoulder of much interposing experience--which also faced him; and +one would float to it doubtless duly through these caverns of Kubla +Khan. It was really behind everything; it hadn't merged in what he had +done; his final appreciation of what he had done--his appreciation on +the spot--would provide it with its main sharpness. The spot so +focussed was of course Woollett, and he was to see, at the best, what +Woollett would be with everything there changed for him. Wouldn't THAT +revelation practically amount to the wind-up of his career? Well, the +summer's end would show; his suspense had meanwhile exactly the +sweetness of vain delay; and he had with it, we should mention, other +pastimes than Maria's company--plenty of separate musings in which his +luxury failed him but at one point. He was well in port, the outer sea +behind him, and it was only a matter of getting ashore. There was a +question that came and went for him, however, as he rested against the +side of his ship, and it was a little to get rid of the obsession that +he prolonged his hours with Miss Gostrey. It was a question about +himself, but it could only be settled by seeing Chad again; it was +indeed his principal reason for wanting to see Chad. After that it +wouldn't signify--it was a ghost that certain words would easily lay to +rest. Only the young man must be there to take the words. Once they +were taken he wouldn't have a question left; none, that is, in +connexion with this particular affair. It wouldn't then matter even to +himself that he might now have been guilty of speaking BECAUSE of what +he had forfeited. That was the refinement of his supreme scruple--he +wished so to leave what he had forfeited out of account. He wished not +to do anything because he had missed something else, because he was +sore or sorry or impoverished, because he was maltreated or desperate; +he wished to do everything because he was lucid and quiet, just the +same for himself on all essential points as he had ever been. Thus it +was that while he virtually hung about for Chad he kept mutely putting +it: "You've been chucked, old boy; but what has that to do with it?" +It would have sickened him to feel vindictive. + +These tints of feeling indeed were doubtless but the iridescence of his +idleness, and they were presently lost in a new light from Maria. She +had a fresh fact for him before the week was out, and she practically +met him with it on his appearing one night. He hadn't on this day seen +her, but had planned presenting himself in due course to ask her to +dine with him somewhere out of doors, on one of the terraces, in one of +the gardens, of which the Paris of summer was profuse. It had then +come on to rain, so that, disconcerted, he changed his mind; dining +alone at home, a little stuffily and stupidly, and waiting on her +afterwards to make up his loss. He was sure within a minute that +something had happened; it was so in the air of the rich little room +that he had scarcely to name his thought. Softly lighted, the whole +colour of the place, with its vague values, was in cool fusion--an +effect that made the visitor stand for a little agaze. It was as if in +doing so now he had felt a recent presence--his recognition of the +passage of which his hostess in turn divined. She had scarcely to say +it--"Yes, she has been here, and this time I received her." It wasn't +till a minute later that she added: "There being, as I understand you, +no reason NOW--!" + +"None for your refusing?" + +"No--if you've done what you've had to do." + +"I've certainly so far done it," Strether said, "as that you needn't +fear the effect, or the appearance of coming between us. There's +nothing between us now but what we ourselves have put there, and not an +inch of room for anything else whatever. Therefore you're only +beautifully WITH us as always--though doubtless now, if she has talked +to you, rather more with us than less. Of course if she came," he +added, "it was to talk to you." + +"It was to talk to me," Maria returned; on which he was further sure +that she was practically in possession of what he himself hadn't yet +told her. He was even sure she was in possession of things he himself +couldn't have told; for the consciousness of them was now all in her +face and accompanied there with a shade of sadness that marked in her +the close of all uncertainties. It came out for him more than ever yet +that she had had from the first a knowledge she believed him not to +have had, a knowledge the sharp acquisition of which might be destined +to make a difference for him. The difference for him might not +inconceivably be an arrest of his independence and a change in his +attitude--in other words a revulsion in favour of the principles of +Woollett. She had really prefigured the possibility of a shock that +would send him swinging back to Mrs. Newsome. He hadn't, it was true, +week after week, shown signs of receiving it, but the possibility had +been none the less in the air. What Maria accordingly had had now to +take in was that the shock had descended and that he hadn't, all the +same, swung back. He had grown clear, in a flash, on a point long +since settled for herself; but no reapproximation to Mrs. Newsome had +occurred in consequence. Madame de Vionnet had by her visit held up +the torch to these truths, and what now lingered in poor Maria's face +was the somewhat smoky light of the scene between them. If the light +however wasn't, as we have hinted, the glow of joy, the reasons for +this also were perhaps discernible to Strether even through the blur +cast over them by his natural modesty. She had held herself for months +with a firm hand; she hadn't interfered on any chance--and chances were +specious enough--that she might interfere to her profit. She had +turned her back on the dream that Mrs. Newsome's rupture, their +friend's forfeiture--the engagement the relation itself, broken beyond +all mending--might furnish forth her advantage; and, to stay her hand +from promoting these things, she had on private, difficult, but rigid, +lines, played strictly fair. She couldn't therefore but feel that, +though, as the end of all, the facts in question had been stoutly +confirmed, her ground for personal, for what might have been called +interested, elation remained rather vague. Strether might easily have +made out that she had been asking herself, in the hours she had just +sat through, if there were still for her, or were only not, a fair +shade of uncertainty. Let us hasten to add, however, that what he at +first made out on this occasion he also at first kept to himself. He +only asked what in particular Madame de Vionnet had come for, and as to +this his companion was ready. + +"She wants tidings of Mr. Newsome, whom she appears not to have seen +for some days." + +"Then she hasn't been away with him again?" + +"She seemed to think," Maria answered, "that he might have gone away +with YOU." + +"And did you tell her I know nothing of him?" + +She had her indulgent headshake. "I've known nothing of what you know. +I could only tell her I'd ask you." + +"Then I've not seen him for a week--and of course I've wondered." His +wonderment showed at this moment as sharper, but he presently went on. +"Still, I dare say I can put my hand on him. Did she strike you," he +asked, "as anxious?" + +"She's always anxious." + +"After all I've done for her?" And he had one of the last flickers of +his occasional mild mirth. "To think that was just what I came out to +prevent!" + +She took it up but to reply. "You don't regard him then as safe?" + +"I was just going to ask you how in that respect you regard Madame de +Vionnet." + +She looked at him a little. "What woman was EVER safe? She told me," +she added--and it was as if at the touch of the connexion--"of your +extraordinary meeting in the country. After that a quoi se fier?" + +"It was, as an accident, in all the possible or impossible chapter," +Strether conceded, "amazing enough. But still, but still--!" + +"But still she didn't mind?" + +"She doesn't mind anything." + +"Well, then, as you don't either, we may all sink to rest!" + +He appeared to agree with her, but he had his reservation. "I do mind +Chad's disappearance." + +"Oh you'll get him back. But now you know," she said, "why I went to +Mentone." He had sufficiently let her see that he had by this time +gathered things together, but there was nature in her wish to make them +clearer still. "I didn't want you to put it to me." + +"To put it to you--?" + +"The question of what you were at last--a week ago--to see for +yourself. I didn't want to have to lie for her. I felt that to be too +much for me. A man of course is always expected to do it--to do it, I +mean, for a woman; but not a woman for another woman; unless perhaps on +the tit-for-tat principle, as an indirect way of protecting herself. I +don't need protection, so that I was free to 'funk' you--simply to +dodge your test. The responsibility was too much for me. I gained +time, and when I came back the need of a test had blown over." + +Strether thought of it serenely. "Yes; when you came back little +Bilham had shown me what's expected of a gentleman. Little Bilham had +lied like one." + +"And like what you believed him?" + +"Well," said Strether, "it was but a technical lie--he classed the +attachment as virtuous. That was a view for which there was much to be +said--and the virtue came out for me hugely There was of course a great +deal of it. I got it full in the face, and I haven't, you see, done +with it yet." + +"What I see, what I saw," Maria returned, "is that you dressed up even +the virtue. You were wonderful--you were beautiful, as I've had the +honour of telling you before; but, if you wish really to know," she +sadly confessed, "I never quite knew WHERE you were. There were +moments," she explained, "when you struck me as grandly cynical; there +were others when you struck me as grandly vague." + +Her friend considered. "I had phases. I had flights." + +"Yes, but things must have a basis." + +"A basis seemed to me just what her beauty supplied." + +"Her beauty of person?" + +"Well, her beauty of everything. The impression she makes. She has +such variety and yet such harmony." + +She considered him with one of her deep returns of indulgence--returns +out of all proportion to the irritations they flooded over. "You're +complete." + +"You're always too personal," he good-humouredly said; "but that's +precisely how I wondered and wandered." + +"If you mean," she went on, "that she was from the first for you the +most charming woman in the world, nothing's more simple. Only that was +an odd foundation." + +"For what I reared on it?" + +"For what you didn't!" + +"Well, it was all not a fixed quantity. And it had for me--it has +still--such elements of strangeness. Her greater age than his, her +different world, traditions, association; her other opportunities, +liabilities, standards." + +His friend listened with respect to his enumeration of these +disparities; then she disposed of them at a stroke. "Those things are +nothing when a woman's hit. It's very awful. She was hit." + +Strether, on his side, did justice to that plea. "Oh of course I saw +she was hit. That she was hit was what we were busy with; that she was +hit was our great affair. But somehow I couldn't think of her as down +in the dust. And as put there by OUR little Chad!" + +"Yet wasn't 'your' little Chad just your miracle?" + +Strether admitted it. "Of course I moved among miracles. It was all +phantasmagoric. But the great fact was that so much of it was none of +my business--as I saw my business. It isn't even now." + +His companion turned away on this, and it might well have been yet +again with the sharpness of a fear of how little his philosophy could +bring her personally. "I wish SHE could hear you!" + +"Mrs. Newsome?" + +"No--not Mrs. Newsome; since I understand you that it doesn't matter +now what Mrs. Newsome hears. Hasn't she heard everything?" + +"Practically--yes." He had thought a moment, but he went on. "You wish +Madame de Vionnet could hear me?" + +"Madame de Vionnet." She had come back to him. "She thinks just the +contrary of what you say. That you distinctly judge her." + +He turned over the scene as the two women thus placed together for him +seemed to give it. "She might have known--!" + +"Might have known you don't?" Miss Gostrey asked as he let it drop. +"She was sure of it at first," she pursued as he said nothing; "she +took it for granted, at least, as any woman in her position would. But +after that she changed her mind; she believed you believed--" + +"Well?"--he was curious. + +"Why in her sublimity. And that belief had remained with her, I make +out, till the accident of the other day opened your eyes. For that it +did," said Maria, "open them--" + +"She can't help"--he had taken it up--"being aware? No," he mused; "I +suppose she thinks of that even yet." + +"Then they WERE closed? There you are! However, if you see her as the +most charming woman in the world it comes to the same thing. And if +you'd like me to tell her that you do still so see her--!" Miss +Gostrey, in short, offered herself for service to the end. + +It was an offer he could temporarily entertain; but he decided. "She +knows perfectly how I see her." + +"Not favourably enough, she mentioned to me, to wish ever to see her +again. She told me you had taken a final leave of her. She says +you've done with her." + +"So I have." + +Maria had a pause; then she spoke as if for conscience. "She wouldn't +have done with YOU. She feels she has lost you--yet that she might +have been better for you." + +"Oh she has been quite good enough!" Strether laughed. + +"She thinks you and she might at any rate have been friends." + +"We might certainly. That's just"--he continued to laugh--"why I'm +going." + +It was as if Maria could feel with this then at last that she had done +her best for each. But she had still an idea. "Shall I tell her that?" + +"No. Tell her nothing." + +"Very well then." To which in the next breath Miss Gostrey added: "Poor +dear thing!" + +Her friend wondered; then with raised eyebrows: "Me?" + +"Oh no. Marie de Vionnet." + +He accepted the correction, but he wondered still. "Are you so sorry +for her as that?" + +It made her think a moment--made her even speak with a smile. But she +didn't really retract. "I'm sorry for us all!" + + + +IV + +He was to delay no longer to re-establish communication with Chad, and +we have just seen that he had spoken to Miss Gostrey of this intention +on hearing from her of the young man's absence. It was not moreover +only the assurance so given that prompted him; it was the need of +causing his conduct to square with another profession still--the motive +he had described to her as his sharpest for now getting away. If he +was to get away because of some of the relations involved in staying, +the cold attitude toward them might look pedantic in the light of +lingering on. He must do both things; he must see Chad, but he must +go. The more he thought of the former of these duties the more he felt +himself make a subject of insistence of the latter. They were alike +intensely present to him as he sat in front of a quiet little cafe into +which he had dropped on quitting Maria's entresol. The rain that had +spoiled his evening with her was over; for it was still to him as if +his evening HAD been spoiled--though it mightn't have been wholly the +rain. It was late when he left the cafe, yet not too late; he couldn't +in any case go straight to bed, and he would walk round by the +Boulevard Malesherbes--rather far round--on his way home. Present +enough always was the small circumstance that had originally pressed +for him the spring of so big a difference--the accident of little +Bilham's appearance on the balcony of the mystic troisieme at the +moment of his first visit, and the effect of it on his sense of what +was then before him. He recalled his watch, his wait, and the +recognition that had proceeded from the young stranger, that had played +frankly into the air and had presently brought him up--things smoothing +the way for his first straight step. He had since had occasion, a few +times, to pass the house without going in; but he had never passed it +without again feeling how it had then spoken to him. He stopped short +to-night on coming to sight of it: it was as if his last day were +oddly copying his first. The windows of Chad's apartment were open to +the balcony--a pair of them lighted; and a figure that had come out and +taken up little Bilham's attitude, a figure whose cigarette-spark he +could see leaned on the rail and looked down at him. It denoted +however no reappearance of his younger friend; it quickly defined +itself in the tempered darkness as Chad's more solid shape; so that +Chad's was the attention that after he had stepped forward into the +street and signalled, he easily engaged; Chad's was the voice that, +sounding into the night with promptness and seemingly with joy, greeted +him and called him up. + +That the young man had been visible there just in this position +expressed somehow for Strether that, as Maria Gostrey had reported, he +had been absent and silent; and our friend drew breath on each +landing--the lift, at that hour, having ceased to work--before the +implications of the fact. He had been for a week intensely away, away +to a distance and alone; but he was more back than ever, and the +attitude in which Strether had surprised him was something more than a +return--it was clearly a conscious surrender. He had arrived but an +hour before, from London, from Lucerne, from Homburg, from no matter +where--though the visitor's fancy, on the staircase, liked to fill it +out; and after a bath, a talk with Baptiste and a supper of light cold +clever French things, which one could see the remains of there in the +circle of the lamp, pretty and ultra-Parisian, he had come into the air +again for a smoke, was occupied at the moment of Strether's approach in +what might have been called taking up his life afresh. His life, his +life!--Strether paused anew, on the last flight, at this final rather +breathless sense of what Chad's life was doing with Chad's mother's +emissary. It was dragging him, at strange hours, up the staircases of +the rich; it was keeping him out of bed at the end of long hot days; it +was transforming beyond recognition the simple, subtle, conveniently +uniform thing that had anciently passed with him for a life of his own. +Why should it concern him that Chad was to be fortified in the pleasant +practice of smoking on balconies, of supping on salads, of feeling his +special conditions agreeably reaffirm themselves, of finding +reassurance in comparisons and contrasts? There was no answer to such +a question but that he was still practically committed--he had perhaps +never yet so much known it. It made him feel old, and he would buy his +railway-ticket--feeling, no doubt, older--the next day; but he had +meanwhile come up four flights, counting the entresol, at midnight and +without a lift, for Chad's life. The young man, hearing him by this +time, and with Baptiste sent to rest, was already at the door; so that +Strether had before him in full visibility the cause in which he was +labouring and even, with the troisieme fairly gained, panting a little. + +Chad offered him, as always, a welcome in which the cordial and the +formal--so far as the formal was the respectful--handsomely met; and +after he had expressed a hope that he would let him put him up for the +night Strether was in full possession of the key, as it might have been +called, to what had lately happened. If he had just thought of himself +as old Chad was at sight of him thinking of him as older: he wanted to +put him up for the night just because he was ancient and weary. It +could never be said the tenant of these quarters wasn't nice to him; a +tenant who, if he might indeed now keep him, was probably prepared to +work it all still more thoroughly. Our friend had in fact the +impression that with the minimum of encouragement Chad would propose to +keep him indefinitely; an impression in the lap of which one of his own +possibilities seemed to sit. Madame de Vionnet had wished him to +stay--so why didn't that happily fit? He could enshrine himself for +the rest of his days in his young host's chambre d'ami and draw out +these days at his young host's expense: there could scarce be greater +logical expression of the countenance he had been moved to give. There +was literally a minute--it was strange enough--during which he grasped +the idea that as he WAS acting, as he could only act, he was +inconsistent. The sign that the inward forces he had obeyed really +hung together would be that--in default always of another career--he +should promote the good cause by mounting guard on it. These things, +during his first minutes, came and went; but they were after all +practically disposed of as soon as he had mentioned his errand. He had +come to say good-bye--yet that was only a part; so that from the moment +Chad accepted his farewell the question of a more ideal affirmation +gave way to something else. He proceeded with the rest of his business. +"You'll be a brute, you know--you'll be guilty of the last infamy--if +you ever forsake her." + +That, uttered there at the solemn hour, uttered in the place that was +full of her influence, was the rest of his business; and when once he +had heard himself say it he felt that his message had never before been +spoken. It placed his present call immediately on solid ground, and +the effect of it was to enable him quite to play with what we have +called the key. Chad showed no shade of embarrassment, but had none +the less been troubled for him after their meeting in the country; had +had fears and doubts on the subject of his comfort. He was disturbed, +as it were, only FOR him, and had positively gone away to ease him off, +to let him down--if it wasn't indeed rather to screw him up--the more +gently. Seeing him now fairly jaded he had come, with characteristic +good humour, all the way to meet him, and what Strether thereupon +supremely made out was that he would abound for him to the end in +conscientious assurances. This was what was between them while the +visitor remained; so far from having to go over old ground he found his +entertainer keen to agree to everything. It couldn't be put too +strongly for him that he'd be a brute. "Oh rather!--if I should do +anything of THAT sort. I hope you believe I really feel it." + +"I want it," said Strether, "to be my last word of all to you. I can't +say more, you know; and I don't see how I can do more, in every way, +than I've done." + +Chad took this, almost artlessly, as a direct allusion. "You've seen +her?" + +"Oh yes--to say good-bye. And if I had doubted the truth of what I +tell you--" + +"She'd have cleared up your doubt?" Chad understood--"rather"--again! +It even kept him briefly silent. But he made that up. "She must have +been wonderful." + +"She WAS," Strether candidly admitted--all of which practically told as +a reference to the conditions created by the accident of the previous +week. + +They appeared for a little to be looking back at it; and that came out +still more in what Chad next said. "I don't know what you've really +thought, all along; I never did know--for anything, with you, seemed to +be possible. But of course--of course--" Without confusion, quite +with nothing but indulgence, he broke down, he pulled up. "After all, +you understand. I spoke to you originally only as I HAD to speak. +There's only one way--isn't there?--about such things. However," he +smiled with a final philosophy, "I see it's all right." + +Strether met his eyes with a sense of multiplying thoughts. What was +it that made him at present, late at night and after journeys, so +renewedly, so substantially young? Strether saw in a moment what it +was--it was that he was younger again than Madame de Vionnet. He +himself said immediately none of the things that he was thinking; he +said something quite different. "You HAVE really been to a distance?" + +"I've been to England." Chad spoke cheerfully and promptly, but gave no +further account of it than to say: "One must sometimes get off." + +Strether wanted no more facts--he only wanted to justify, as it were, +his question. "Of course you do as you're free to do. But I hope, +this time, that you didn't go for ME." + +"For very shame at bothering you really too much? My dear man," Chad +laughed, "what WOULDn't I do for you?" + +Strether's easy answer for this was that it was a disposition he had +exactly come to profit by. "Even at the risk of being in your way I've +waited on, you know, for a definite reason." + +Chad took it in. "Oh yes--for us to make if possible a still better +impression." And he stood there happily exhaling his full general +consciousness. "I'm delighted to gather that you feel we've made it." + +There was a pleasant irony in the words, which his guest, preoccupied +and keeping to the point, didn't take up. "If I had my sense of +wanting the rest of the time--the time of their being still on this +side," he continued to explain--"I know now why I wanted it." + +He was as grave, as distinct, as a demonstrator before a blackboard, +and Chad continued to face him like an intelligent pupil. "You wanted +to have been put through the whole thing." + +Strether again, for a moment, said nothing; he turned his eyes away, +and they lost themselves, through the open window, in the dusky outer +air. "I shall learn from the Bank here where they're now having their +letters, and my last word, which I shall write in the morning and which +they're expecting as my ultimatum, will so immediately reach them." The +light of his plural pronoun was sufficiently reflected in his +companion's face as he again met it; and he completed his +demonstration. He pursued indeed as if for himself. "Of course I've +first to justify what I shall do." + +"You're justifying it beautifully!" Chad declared. + +"It's not a question of advising you not to go," Strether said, "but of +absolutely preventing you, if possible, from so much as thinking of it. +Let me accordingly appeal to you by all you hold sacred." + +Chad showed a surprise. "What makes you think me capable--?" + +"You'd not only be, as I say, a brute; you'd be," his companion went on +in the same way, "a criminal of the deepest dye." + +Chad gave a sharper look, as if to gauge a possible suspicion. "I don't +know what should make you think I'm tired of her." + +Strether didn't quite know either, and such impressions, for the +imaginative mind, were always too fine, too floating, to produce on the +spot their warrant. There was none the less for him, in the very +manner of his host's allusion to satiety as a thinkable motive, a +slight breath of the ominous. "I feel how much more she can do for +you. She hasn't done it all yet. Stay with her at least till she has." + +"And leave her THEN?" + +Chad had kept smiling, but its effect in Strether was a shade of +dryness. "Don't leave her BEFORE. When you've got all that can be +got--I don't say," he added a trifle grimly. "That will be the proper +time. But as, for you, from such a woman, there will always be +something to be got, my remark's not a wrong to her." Chad let him go +on, showing every decent deference, showing perhaps also a candid +curiosity for this sharper accent. "I remember you, you know, as you +were." + +"An awful ass, wasn't I?" + +The response was as prompt as if he had pressed a spring; it had a +ready abundance at which he even winced; so that he took a moment to +meet it. "You certainly then wouldn't have seemed worth all you've let +me in for. You've defined yourself better. Your value has quintupled." + +"Well then, wouldn't that be enough--?" + +Chad had risked it jocosely, but Strether remained blank. "Enough?" + +"If one SHOULD wish to live on one's accumulations?" After which, +however, as his friend appeared cold to the joke, the young man as +easily dropped it. "Of course I really never forget, night or day, +what I owe her. I owe her everything. I give you my word of honour," +he frankly rang out, "that I'm not a bit tired of her." Strether at +this only gave him a stare: the way youth could express itself was +again and again a wonder. He meant no harm, though he might after all +be capable of much; yet he spoke of being "tired" of her almost as he +might have spoken of being tired of roast mutton for dinner. "She has +never for a moment yet bored me--never been wanting, as the cleverest +women sometimes are, in tact. She has never talked about her tact--as +even they too sometimes talk; but she has always had it. She has never +had it more"--he handsomely made the point--"than just lately." And he +scrupulously went further. "She has never been anything I could call a +burden." + +Strether for a moment said nothing; then he spoke gravely, with his +shade of dryness deepened. "Oh if you didn't do her justice--!" + +"I SHOULD be a beast, eh?" + +Strether devoted no time to saying what he would be; THAT, visibly, +would take them far. If there was nothing for it but to repeat, +however, repetition was no mistake. "You owe her everything--very much +more than she can ever owe you. You've in other words duties to her, +of the most positive sort; and I don't see what other duties--as the +others are presented to you--can be held to go before them." + +Chad looked at him with a smile. "And you know of course about the +others, eh?--since it's you yourself who have done the presenting." + +"Much of it--yes--and to the best of my ability. But not all--from the +moment your sister took my place." + +"She didn't," Chad returned. "Sally took a place, certainly; but it +was never, I saw from the first moment, to be yours. No one--with +us--will ever take yours. It wouldn't be possible." + +"Ah of course," sighed Strether, "I knew it. I believe you're right. +No one in the world, I imagine, was ever so portentously solemn. There +I am," he added with another sigh, as if weary enough, on occasion, of +this truth. "I was made so." + +Chad appeared for a little to consider the way he was made; he might +for this purpose have measured him up and down. His conclusion favoured +the fact. "YOU have never needed any one to make you better. There +has never been any one good enough. They couldn't," the young man +declared. + +His friend hesitated. "I beg your pardon. They HAVE." + +Chad showed, not without amusement, his doubt. "Who then?" + +Strether--though a little dimly--smiled at him. "Women--too." + +"'Two'?"--Chad stared and laughed. "Oh I don't believe, for such work, +in any more than one! So you're proving too much. And what IS +beastly, at all events," he added, "is losing you." + +Strether had set himself in motion for departure, but at this he +paused. "Are you afraid?" + +"Afraid--?" + +"Of doing wrong. I mean away from my eye." Before Chad could speak, +however, he had taken himself up. "I AM, certainly," he laughed, +"prodigious." + +"Yes, you spoil us for all the stupid--!" This might have been, on +Chad's part, in its extreme emphasis, almost too freely extravagant; +but it was full, plainly enough, of the intention of comfort, it +carried with it a protest against doubt and a promise, positively, of +performance. Picking up a hat in the vestibule he came out with his +friend, came downstairs, took his arm, affectionately, as to help and +guide him, treating him if not exactly as aged and infirm, yet as a +noble eccentric who appealed to tenderness, and keeping on with him, +while they walked, to the next corner and the next. "You needn't tell +me, you needn't tell me!"--this again as they proceeded, he wished to +make Strether feel. What he needn't tell him was now at last, in the +geniality of separation, anything at all it concerned him to know. He +knew, up to the hilt--that really came over Chad; he understood, felt, +recorded his vow; and they lingered on it as they had lingered in their +walk to Strether's hotel the night of their first meeting. The latter +took, at this hour, all he could get; he had given all he had had to +give; he was as depleted as if he had spent his last sou. But there +was just one thing for which, before they broke off, Chad seemed +disposed slightly to bargain. His companion needn't, as he said, tell +him, but he might himself mention that he had been getting some news of +the art of advertisement. He came out quite suddenly with this +announcement while Strether wondered if his revived interest were what +had taken him, with strange inconsequence, over to London. He appeared +at all events to have been looking into the question and had +encountered a revelation. Advertising scientifically worked presented +itself thus as the great new force. "It really does the thing, you +know." + +They were face to face under the street-lamp as they had been the first +night, and Strether, no doubt, looked blank. "Affects, you mean, the +sale of the object advertised?" + +"Yes--but affects it extraordinarily; really beyond what one had +supposed. I mean of course when it's done as one makes out that in our +roaring age, it CAN be done. I've been finding out a little, though it +doubtless doesn't amount to much more than what you originally, so +awfully vividly--and all, very nearly, that first night--put before me. +It's an art like another, and infinite like all the arts." He went on +as if for the joke of it--almost as if his friend's face amused him. +"In the hands, naturally, of a master. The right man must take hold. +With the right man to work it c'est un monde." + +Strether had watched him quite as if, there on the pavement without a +pretext, he had begun to dance a fancy step. "Is what you're thinking +of that you yourself, in the case you have in mind, would be the right +man?" + +Chad had thrown back his light coat and thrust each of his thumbs into +an armhole of his waistcoat; in which position his fingers played up +and down. "Why, what is he but what you yourself, as I say, took me +for when you first came out?" + +Strether felt a little faint, but he coerced his attention. "Oh yes, +and there's no doubt that, with your natural parts, you'd have much in +common with him. Advertising is clearly at this time of day the secret +of trade. It's quite possible it will be open to you--giving the whole +of your mind to it--to make the whole place hum with you. Your +mother's appeal is to the whole of your mind, and that's exactly the +strength of her case." + +Chad's fingers continued to twiddle, but he had something of a drop. +"Ah we've been through my mother's case!" + +"So I thought. Why then do you speak of the matter?" + +"Only because it was part of our original discussion. To wind up where +we began, my interest's purely platonic. There at any rate the fact +is--the fact of the possible. I mean the money in it." + +"Oh damn the money in it!" said Strether. And then as the young man's +fixed smile seemed to shine out more strange: "Shall you give your +friend up for the money in it?" + +Chad preserved his handsome grimace as well as the rest of his +attitude. "You're not altogether--in your so great 'solemnity'--kind. +Haven't I been drinking you in--showing you all I feel you're worth to +me? What have I done, what am I doing, but cleave to her to the death? +The only thing is," he good-humouredly explained, "that one can't but +have it before one, in the cleaving--the point where the death comes +in. Don't be afraid for THAT. It's pleasant to a fellow's feelings," +he developed, "to 'size-up' the bribe he applies his foot to." + +"Oh then if all you want's a kickable surface the bribe's enormous." + +"Good. Then there it goes!" Chad administered his kick with fantastic +force and sent an imaginary object flying. It was accordingly as if +they were once more rid of the question and could come back to what +really concerned him. "Of course I shall see you tomorrow." + +But Strether scarce heeded the plan proposed for this; he had still the +impression--not the slighter for the simulated kick--of an irrelevant +hornpipe or jig. "You're restless." + +"Ah," returned Chad as they parted, "you're exciting." + + + +V + + +He had, however, within two days, another separation to face. He had +sent Maria Gostrey a word early, by hand, to ask if he might come to +breakfast; in consequence of which, at noon, she awaited him in the +cool shade of her little Dutch-looking dining-room. This retreat was at +the back of the house, with a view of a scrap of old garden that had +been saved from modern ravage; and though he had on more than one other +occasion had his legs under its small and peculiarly polished table of +hospitality, the place had never before struck him as so sacred to +pleasant knowledge, to intimate charm, to antique order, to a neatness +that was almost august. To sit there was, as he had told his hostess +before, to see life reflected for the time in ideally kept pewter; +which was somehow becoming, improving to life, so that one's eyes were +held and comforted. Strether's were comforted at all events now--and +the more that it was the last time--with the charming effect, on the +board bare of a cloth and proud of its perfect surface, of the small +old crockery and old silver, matched by the more substantial pieces +happily disposed about the room. The specimens of vivid Delf, in +particular had the dignity of family portraits; and it was in the midst +of them that our friend resignedly expressed himself. He spoke even +with a certain philosophic humour. "There's nothing more to wait for; +I seem to have done a good day's work. I've let them have it all +round. I've seen Chad, who has been to London and come back. He tells +me I'm 'exciting,' and I seem indeed pretty well to have upset every +one. I've at any rate excited HIM. He's distinctly restless." + +"You've excited ME," Miss Gostrey smiled. "I'M distinctly restless." + +"Oh you were that when I found you. It seems to me I've rather got you +out of it. What's this," he asked as he looked about him, "but a haunt +of ancient peace?" + +"I wish with all my heart," she presently replied, "I could make you +treat it as a haven of rest." On which they fronted each other, across +the table, as if things unuttered were in the air. + +Strether seemed, in his way, when he next spoke, to take some of them +up. "It wouldn't give me--that would be the trouble--what it will, no +doubt, still give you. I'm not," he explained, leaning back in his +chair, but with his eyes on a small ripe round melon--"in real harmony +with what surrounds me. You ARE. I take it too hard. You DON'T. It +makes--that's what it comes to in the end--a fool of me." Then at a +tangent, "What has he been doing in London?" he demanded. + +"Ah one may go to London," Maria laughed. "You know I did." + +Yes--he took the reminder. "And you brought ME back." He brooded there +opposite to her, but without gloom. "Whom has Chad brought? He's full +of ideas. And I wrote to Sarah," he added, "the first thing this +morning. So I'm square. I'm ready for them." + +She neglected certain parts of this speech in the interest of others. +"Marie said to me the other day that she felt him to have the makings +of an immense man of business." + +"There it is. He's the son of his father!" + +"But SUCH a father!" + +"Ah just the right one from that point of view! But it isn't his +father in him," Strether added, "that troubles me." + +"What is it then?" He came back to his breakfast; he partook presently +of the charming melon, which she liberally cut for him; and it was only +after this that he met her question. Then moreover it was but to +remark that he'd answer her presently. She waited, she watched, she +served him and amused him, and it was perhaps with this last idea that +she soon reminded him of his having never even yet named to her the +article produced at Woollett. "Do you remember our talking of it in +London--that night at the play?" Before he could say yes, however, she +had put it to him for other matters. Did he remember, did he +remember--this and that of their first days? He remembered everything, +bringing up with humour even things of which she professed no +recollection, things she vehemently denied; and falling back above all +on the great interest of their early time, the curiosity felt by both +of them as to where he would "come out." They had so assumed it was to +be in some wonderful place--they had thought of it as so very MUCH out. +Well, that was doubtless what it had been--since he had come out just +there. He was out, in truth, as far as it was possible to be, and must +now rather bethink himself of getting in again. He found on the spot +the image of his recent history; he was like one of the figures of the +old clock at Berne. THEY came out, on one side, at their hour, jigged +along their little course in the public eye, and went in on the other +side. He too had jigged his little course--him too a modest retreat +awaited. He offered now, should she really like to know, to name the +great product of Woollett. It would be a great commentary on +everything. At this she stopped him off; she not only had no wish to +know, but she wouldn't know for the world. She had done with the +products of Woollett--for all the good she had got from them. She +desired no further news of them, and she mentioned that Madame de +Vionnet herself had, to her knowledge, lived exempt from the +information he was ready to supply. She had never consented to receive +it, though she would have taken it, under stress, from Mrs. Pocock. But +it was a matter about which Mrs. Pocock appeared to have had little to +say--never sounding the word--and it didn't signify now. There was +nothing clearly for Maria Gostrey that signified now--save one sharp +point, that is, to which she came in time. "I don't know whether it's +before you as a possibility that, left to himself, Mr. Chad may after +all go back. I judge that it IS more or less so before you, from what +you just now said of him." + +Her guest had his eyes on her, kindly but attentively, as if foreseeing +what was to follow this. "I don't think it will be for the money." And +then as she seemed uncertain: "I mean I don't believe it will be for +that he'll give her up." + +"Then he WILL give her up?" + +Strether waited a moment, rather slow and deliberate now, drawing out a +little this last soft stage, pleading with her in various suggestive +and unspoken ways for patience and understanding. "What were you just +about to ask me?" + +"Is there anything he can do that would make you patch it up?" + +"With Mrs. Newsome?" + +Her assent, as if she had had a delicacy about sounding the name, was +only in her face; but she added with it: "Or is there anything he can +do that would make HER try it?" + +"To patch it up with me?" His answer came at last in a conclusive +headshake. "There's nothing any one can do. It's over. Over for both +of us." + +Maria wondered, seemed a little to doubt. "Are you so sure for her?" + +"Oh yes--sure now. Too much has happened. I'm different for her." + +She took it in then, drawing a deeper breath. "I see. So that as +she's different for YOU--" + +"Ah but," he interrupted, "she's not." And as Miss Gostrey wondered +again: "She's the same. She's more than ever the same. But I do what +I didn't before--I SEE her." + +He spoke gravely and as if responsibly--since he had to pronounce; and +the effect of it was slightly solemn, so that she simply exclaimed +"Oh!" Satisfied and grateful, however, she showed in her own next +words an acceptance of his statement. "What then do you go home to?" + +He had pushed his plate a little away, occupied with another side of +the matter; taking refuge verily in that side and feeling so moved that +he soon found himself on his feet. He was affected in advance by what +he believed might come from her, and he would have liked to forestall +it and deal with it tenderly; yet in the presence of it he wished +still more to be--though as smoothly as possible--deterrent and +conclusive. He put her question by for the moment; he told her more +about Chad. "It would have been impossible to meet me more than he did +last night on the question of the infamy of not sticking to her." + +"Is that what you called it for him--'infamy'?" + +"Oh rather! I described to him in detail the base creature he'd be, +and he quite agrees with me about it." + +"So that it's really as if you had nailed him?" + +"Quite really as if--! I told him I should curse him." + +"Oh," she smiled, "you HAVE done it." And then having thought again: +"You CAN'T after that propose--!" Yet she scanned his face. + +"Propose again to Mrs. Newsome?" + +She hesitated afresh, but she brought it out. "I've never believed, +you know, that you did propose. I always believed it was really +she--and, so far as that goes, I can understand it. What I mean is," +she explained, "that with such a spirit--the spirit of curses!--your +breach is past mending. She has only to know what you've done to him +never again to raise a finger." + +"I've done," said Strether, "what I could--one can't do more. He +protests his devotion and his horror. But I'm not sure I've saved him. +He protests too much. He asks how one can dream of his being tired. +But he has all life before him." + +Maria saw what he meant. "He's formed to please." + +"And it's our friend who has formed him." Strether felt in it the +strange irony. + +"So it's scarcely his fault!" + +"It's at any rate his danger. I mean," said Strether, "it's hers. But +she knows it." + +"Yes, she knows it. And is your idea," Miss Gostrey asked, "that there +was some other woman in London?" + +"Yes. No. That is I HAVE no ideas. I'm afraid of them. I've done +with them." And he put out his hand to her. "Good-bye." + +It brought her back to her unanswered question. "To what do you go +home?" + +"I don't know. There will always be something." + +"To a great difference," she said as she kept his hand. + +"A great difference--no doubt. Yet I shall see what I can make of it." + +"Shall you make anything so good--?" But, as if remembering what Mrs. +Newsome had done, it was as far as she went. + +He had sufficiently understood. "So good as this place at this moment? +So good as what YOU make of everything you touch?" He took a moment to +say, for, really and truly, what stood about him there in her +offer--which was as the offer of exquisite service, of lightened care, +for the rest of his days--might well have tempted. It built him softly +round, it roofed him warmly over, it rested, all so firm, on selection. +And what ruled selection was beauty and knowledge. It was awkward, it +was almost stupid, not to seem to prize such things; yet, none the +less, so far as they made his opportunity they made it only for a +moment. She'd moreover understand--she always understood. + +That indeed might be, but meanwhile she was going on. "There's nothing, +you know, I wouldn't do for you." + +"Oh yes--I know." + +"There's nothing," she repeated, "in all the world." + +"I know. I know. But all the same I must go." He had got it at last. +"To be right." + +"To be right?" + +She had echoed it in vague deprecation, but he felt it already clear +for her. "That, you see, is my only logic. Not, out of the whole +affair, to have got anything for myself." + +She thought. "But with your wonderful impressions you'll have got a +great deal." + +"A great deal"--he agreed. "But nothing like YOU. It's you who would +make me wrong!" + +Honest and fine, she couldn't greatly pretend she didn't see it. Still +she could pretend just a little. "But why should you be so dreadfully +right?" + +"That's the way that--if I must go--you yourself would be the first to +want me. And I can't do anything else." + +So then she had to take it, though still with her defeated protest. "It +isn't so much your BEING 'right'--it's your horrible sharp eye for what +makes you so." + +"Oh but you're just as bad yourself. You can't resist me when I point +that out." + +She sighed it at last all comically, all tragically, away. "I can't +indeed resist you." + +"Then there we are!" said Strether. + + + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of The Ambassadors, by Henry James + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE AMBASSADORS *** + +***** This file should be named 432.txt or 432.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/4/3/432/ + +Produced by Richard D. 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DeRanek + + + +Volume I + + + +Preface + + +Nothing is more easy than to state the subject of "The Ambassadors," +which first appeared in twelve numbers of _The North American Review_ +(1903) and was published as a whole the same year. The situation +involved is gathered up betimes, that is in the second chapter of +Book Fifth, for the reader's benefit, into as few words as possible-- +planted or "sunk," stiffly and saliently, in the centre of the current, +almost perhaps to the obstruction of traffic. Never can a composition +of this sort have sprung straighter from a dropped grain of suggestion, +and never can that grain, developed, overgrown and smothered, have yet +lurked more in the mass as an independent particle. The whole case, +in fine, is in Lambert Strether's irrepressible outbreak to little Bilham +on the Sunday afternoon in Gloriani's garden, the candour with which he +yields, for his young friend's enlightenment, to the charming admonition +of that crisis. The idea of the tale resides indeed in the very fact +that an hour of such unprecedented ease should have been felt by him AS +a crisis, and he is at pains to express it for us as neatly as we could +desire. The remarks to which he thus gives utterance contain the essence of +"The Ambassadors," his fingers close, before he has done, round the +stem of the full-blown flower; which, after that fashion, he continues +officiously to present to us. "Live all you can; it's a mistake not to. +It doesn't so much matter what you do in particular so long as you +have your life. If you haven't had that what HAVE you had? I'm too +old--too old at any rate for what I see. What one loses one loses; +make no mistake about that. Still, we have the illusion of freedom; +therefore don't, like me to-day, be without the memory of that illusion. +I was either, at the right time, too stupid or too intelligent to have it, +and now I'm a case of reaction against the mistake. Do what you like +so long as you don't make it. For it WAS a mistake. Live, live!" +Such is the gist of Strether's appeal to the impressed youth, whom +he likes and whom he desires to befriend; the word "mistake" occurs +several times, it will be seen, in the course of his remarks-- +which gives the measure of the signal warning he feels attached +to his case. He has accordingly missed too much, though perhaps +after all constitutionally qualified for a better part, and he wakes up +to it in conditions that press the spring of a terrible question. +WOULD there yet perhaps be time for reparation?--reparation, that is, +for the injury done his character; for the affront, he is quite ready to +say, so stupidly put upon it and in which he has even himself had +so clumsy a hand? The answer to which is that he now at all events SEES; +so that the business of my tale and the march of my action, not to say +the precious moral of everything, is just my demonstration of this +process of vision. + +Nothing can exceed the closeness with which the whole fits again +into its germ. That had been given me bodily, as usual, by the +spoken word, for I was to take the image over exactly as I +happened to have met it. A friend had repeated to me, with great +appreciation, a thing or two said to him by a man of distinction, +much his senior, and to which a sense akin to that of Strether's +melancholy eloquence might be imputed--said as chance would have, +and so easily might, in Paris, and in a charming old garden +attached to a house of art, and on a Sunday afternoon of summer, +many persons of great interest being present. The observation +there listened to and gathered up had contained part of the "note" +that I was to recognise on the spot as to my purpose--had contained +in fact the greater part; the rest was in the place and the time +and the scene they sketched: these constituents clustered +and combined to give me further support, to give me what I may +call the note absolute. There it stands, accordingly, full in the +tideway; driven in, with hard taps, like some strong stake for the +noose of a cable, the swirl of the current roundabout it. What +amplified the hint to more than the bulk of hints in general was +the gift with it of the old Paris garden, for in that token were +sealed up values infinitely precious. There was of course the seal +to break and each item of the packet to count over and handle and +estimate; but somehow, in the light of the hint, all the elements +of a situation of the sort most to my taste were there. I could +even remember no occasion on which, so confronted, I had found it +of a livelier interest to take stock, in this fashion, of +suggested wealth. For I think, verily, that there are degrees of +merit in subjects--in spite of the fact that to treat even one of +the most ambiguous with due decency we must for the time, for the +feverish and prejudiced hour, at least figure its merit and its +dignity as POSSIBLY absolute. What it comes to, doubtless, is that +even among the supremely good--since with such alone is it one's +theory of one's honour to be concerned--there is an ideal BEAUTY +of goodness the invoked action of which is to raise the artistic +faith to its maximum. Then truly, I hold, one's theme may be said +to shine, and that of "The Ambassadors," I confess, wore this glow +for me from beginning to end. Fortunately thus I am able to +estimate this as, frankly, quite the best, "all round," of all my +productions; any failure of that justification would have made +such an extreme of complacency publicly fatuous. + +I recall then in this connexion no moment of subjective +intermittence, never one of those alarms as for a suspected hollow +beneath one's feet, a felt ingratitude in the scheme adopted, +under which confidence fails and opportunity seems but to mock. +If the motive of "The Wings of the Dove," as I have noted, was to +worry me at moments by a sealing-up of its face--though without +prejudice to its again, of a sudden, fairly grimacing with +expression--so in this other business I had absolute conviction +and constant clearness to deal with; it had been a frank +proposition, the whole bunch of data, installed on my premises +like a monotony of fine weather. (The order of composition, in +these things, I may mention, was reversed by the order of +publication; the earlier written of the two books having appeared +as the later.) Even under the weight of my hero's years I could +feel my postulate firm; even under the strain of the difference +between those of Madame de Vionnet and those of Chad Newsome, a +difference liable to be denounced as shocking, I could still feel +it serene. Nothing resisted, nothing betrayed, I seem to make out, +in this full and sound sense of the matter; it shed from any side +I could turn it to the same golden glow. I rejoiced in the promise +of a hero so mature, who would give me thereby the more to bite +into--since it's only into thickened motive and accumulated +character, I think, that the painter of life bites more than a +little. My poor friend should have accumulated character, +certainly; or rather would be quite naturally and handsomely +possessed of it, in the sense that he would have, and would always +have felt he had, imagination galore, and that this yet wouldn't +have wrecked him. It was immeasurable, the opportunity to "do" a +man of imagination, for if THERE mightn't be a chance to "bite," +where in the world might it be? This personage of course, so +enriched, wouldn't give me, for his type, imagination in +PREDOMINANCE or as his prime faculty, nor should I, in view of +other matters, have found that convenient. So particular a luxury +--some occasion, that is, for study of the high gift in SUPREME +command of a case or of a career--would still doubtless come on +the day I should be ready to pay for it; and till then might, as +from far back, remain hung up well in view and just out of reach. +The comparative case meanwhile would serve--it was only on the +minor scale that I had treated myself even to comparative cases. + +I was to hasten to add however that, happy stopgaps as the minor +scale had thus yielded, the instance in hand should enjoy the +advantage of the full range of the major; since most immediately +to the point was the question of that SUPPLEMENT of situation +logically involved in our gentleman's impulse to deliver himself +in the Paris garden on the Sunday afternoon--or if not involved by +strict logic then all ideally and enchantingly implied in it. (I +say "ideally," because I need scarce mention that for development, +for expression of its maximum, my glimmering story was, at the +earliest stage, to have nipped the thread of connexion with the +possibilities of the actual reported speaker. HE remains but the +happiest of accidents; his actualities, all too definite, +precluded any range of possibilities; it had only been his +charming office to project upon that wide field of the artist's +vision--which hangs there ever in place like the white sheet +suspended for the figures of a child's magic-lantern--a more +fantastic and more moveable shadow.) No privilege of the teller of +tales and the handler of puppets is more delightful, or has more +of the suspense and the thrill of a game of difficulty +breathlessly played, than just this business of looking for the +unseen and the occult, in a scheme half-grasped, by the light or, +so to speak, by the clinging scent, of the gage already in hand. +No dreadful old pursuit of the hidden slave with bloodhounds and +the rag of association can ever, for "excitement," I judge, have +bettered it at its best. For the dramatist always, by the very law +of his genius, believes not only in a possible right issue from +the rightly-conceived tight place; he does much more than this--he +believes, irresistibly, in the necessary, the precious "tightness" +of the place (whatever the issue) on the strength of any +respectable hint. It being thus the respectable hint that I had +with such avidity picked up, what would be the story to which it +would most inevitably form the centre? It is part of the charm +attendant on such questions that the "story," with the omens true, +as I say, puts on from this stage the authenticity of concrete +existence. It then is, essentially--it begins to be, though it may +more or less obscurely lurk, so that the point is not in the least +what to make of it, but only, very delightfully and very damnably, +where to put one's hand on it. + +In which truth resides surely much of the interest of that +admirable mixture for salutary application which we know as art. +Art deals with what we see, it must first contribute full-handed +that ingredient; it plucks its material, otherwise expressed, in +the garden of life--which material elsewhere grown is stale and +uneatable. But it has no sooner done this than it has to take +account of a PROCESS--from which only when it's the basest of the +servants of man, incurring ignominious dismissal with no +"character," does it, and whether under some muddled pretext of +morality or on any other, pusillanimously edge away. The process, +that of the expression, the literal squeezing-out, of value is +another affair--with which the happy luck of mere finding has +little to do. The joys of finding, at this stage, are pretty well +over; that quest of the subject as a whole by "matching," as the +ladies say at the shops, the big piece with the snippet, having +ended, we assume, with a capture. The subject is found, and if the +problem is then transferred to the ground of what to do with it +the field opens out for any amount of doing. This is precisely the +infusion that, as I submit, completes the strong mixture. It is on +the other hand the part of the business that can least be likened +to the chase with horn and hound. It's all a sedentary part-- +involves as much ciphering, of sorts, as would merit the highest +salary paid to a chief accountant. Not, however, that the chief +accountant hasn't HIS gleams of bliss; for the felicity, or at +least the equilibrium of the artist's state dwells less, surely, +in the further delightful complications he can smuggle in than in +those he succeeds in keeping out. He sows his seed at the risk of +too thick a crop; wherefore yet again, like the gentlemen who +audit ledgers, he must keep his head at any price. In consequence +of all which, for the interest of the matter, I might seem here to +have my choice of narrating my "hunt" for Lambert Strether, of +describing the capture of the shadow projected by my friend's +anecdote, or of reporting on the occurrences subsequent to that +triumph. But I had probably best attempt a little to glance in +each direction; since it comes to me again and again, over this +licentious record, that one's bag of adventures, conceived or +conceivable, has been only half-emptied by the mere telling of +one's story. It depends so on what one means by that equivocal +quantity. There is the story of one's hero, and then, thanks to +the intimate connexion of things, the story of one's story itself. +I blush to confess it, but if one's a dramatist one's a dramatist, +and the latter imbroglio is liable on occasion to strike me as +really the more objective of the two. + +The philosophy imputed to him in that beautiful outbreak, the hour +there, amid such happy provision, striking for him, would have +been then, on behalf of my man of imagination, to be logically +and, as the artless craft of comedy has it, "led up" to; the +probable course to such a goal, the goal of so conscious a +predicament, would have in short to be finely calculated. Where +has he come from and why has he come, what is he doing (as we +Anglo-Saxons, and we only, say, in our foredoomed clutch of exotic +aids to expression) in that galere? To answer these questions +plausibly, to answer them as under cross-examination in the +witness-box by counsel for the prosecution, in other words +satisfactorily to account for Strether and for his "peculiar +tone," was to possess myself of the entire fabric. At the same +time the clue to its whereabouts would lie in a certain principle +of probability: he wouldn't have indulged in his peculiar tone +without a reason; it would take a felt predicament or a false +position to give him so ironic an accent. One hadn't been noting +"tones" all one's life without recognising when one heard it the +voice of the false position. The dear man in the Paris garden was +then admirably and unmistakeably IN one--which was no small point +gained; what next accordingly concerned us was the determination +of THIS identity. One could only go by probabilities, but there +was the advantage that the most general of the probabilities were +virtual certainties. Possessed of our friend's nationality, to +start with, there was a general probability in his narrower +localism; which, for that matter, one had really but to keep under +the lens for an hour to see it give up its secrets. He would have +issued, our rueful worthy, from the very heart of New England--at +the heels of which matter of course a perfect train of secrets +tumbled for me into the light. They had to be sifted and sorted, +and I shall not reproduce the detail of that process; but +unmistakeably they were all there, and it was but a question, +auspiciously, of picking among them. What the "position" would +infallibly be, and why, on his hands, it had turned "false"--these +inductive steps could only be as rapid as they were distinct. I +accounted for everything--and "everything" had by this time become +the most promising quantity--by the view that he had come to Paris +in some state of mind which was literally undergoing, as a result +of new and unexpected assaults and infusions, a change almost from +hour to hour. He had come with a view that might have been figured +by a clear green liquid, say, in a neat glass phial; and the +liquid, once poured into the open cup of APPLICATION, once exposed +to the action of another air, had begun to turn from green to red, +or whatever, and might, for all he knew, be on its way to purple, +to black, to yellow. At the still wilder extremes represented +perhaps, for all he could say to the contrary, by a variability so +violent, he would at first, naturally, but have gazed in surprise +and alarm; whereby the SITUATION clearly would spring from the +play of wildness and the development of extremes. I saw in a +moment that, should this development proceed both with force and +logic, my "story" would leave nothing to be desired. There is +always, of course, for the story-teller, the irresistible +determinant and the incalculable advantage of his interest in the +story AS SUCH; it is ever, obviously, overwhelmingly, the prime +and precious thing (as other than this I have never been able to +see it); as to which what makes for it, with whatever headlong +energy, may be said to pale before the energy with which it simply +makes for itself. It rejoices, none the less, at its best, to seem +to offer itself in a light, to seem to know, and with the very +last knowledge, what it's about--liable as it yet is at moments to +be caught by us with its tongue in its cheek and absolutely no +warrant but its splendid impudence. Let us grant then that the +impudence is always there--there, so to speak, for grace and +effect and ALLURE; there, above all, because the Story is just the +spoiled child of art, and because, as we are always disappointed +when the pampered don't "play up," we like it, to that extent, to +look all its character. It probably does so, in truth, even when +we most flatter ourselves that we negotiate with it by treaty. + +All of which, again, is but to say that the STEPS, for my fable, +placed themselves with a prompt and, as it were, functional +assurance--an air quite as of readiness to have dispensed with +logic had I been in fact too stupid for my clue. Never, +positively, none the less, as the links multiplied, had I felt +less stupid than for the determination of poor Strether's errand +and for the apprehension of his issue. These things continued to +fall together, as by the neat action of their own weight and form, +even while their commentator scratched his head about them; he +easily sees now that they were always well in advance of him. As +the case completed itself he had in fact, from a good way behind, +to catch up with them, breathless and a little flurried, as he +best could. THE false position, for our belated man of the world-- +belated because he had endeavoured so long to escape being one, +and now at last had really to face his doom--the false position +for him, I say, was obviously to have presented himself at the +gate of that boundless menagerie primed with a moral scheme of the +most approved pattern which was yet framed to break down on any +approach to vivid facts; that is to any at all liberal +appreciation of them. There would have been of course the case of +the Strether prepared, wherever presenting himself, only to judge +and to feel meanly; but HE would have moved for me, I confess, +enveloped in no legend whatever. The actual man's note, from the +first of our seeing it struck, is the note of discrimination, just +as his drama is to become, under stress, the drama of +discrimination. It would have been his blest imagination, we have +seen, that had already helped him to discriminate; the element +that was for so much of the pleasure of my cutting thick, as I +have intimated, into his intellectual, into his moral substance. +Yet here it was, at the same time, just here, that a shade for a +moment fell across the scene. + +There was the dreadful little old tradition, one of the platitudes +of the human comedy, that people's moral scheme DOES break down in +Paris; that nothing is more frequently observed; that hundreds of +thousands of more or less hypocritical or more or less cynical +persons annually visit the place for the sake of the probable +catastrophe, and that I came late in the day to work myself up +about it. There was in fine the TRIVIAL association, one of the +vulgarest in the world; but which give me pause no longer, I +think, simply because its vulgarity is so advertised. The +revolution performed by Strether under the influence of the most +interesting of great cities was to have nothing to do with any +betise of the imputably "tempted" state; he was to be thrown +forward, rather, thrown quite with violence, upon his lifelong +trick of intense reflexion: which friendly test indeed was to +bring him out, through winding passages, through alternations of +darkness and light, very much IN Paris, but with the surrounding +scene itself a minor matter, a mere symbol for more things than +had been dreamt of in the philosophy of Woollett. Another +surrounding scene would have done as well for our show could it +have represented a place in which Strether's errand was likely to +lie and his crisis to await him. The LIKELY place had the great +merit of sparing me preparations; there would have been too many +involved--not at all impossibilities, only rather worrying and +delaying difficulties--in positing elsewhere Chad Newsome's +interesting relation, his so interesting complexity of relations. +Strether's appointed stage, in fine, could be but Chad's most +luckily selected one. The young man had gone in, as they say, for +circumjacent charm; and where he would have found it, by the turn +of his mind, most "authentic," was where his earnest friend's analysis +would most find HIM; as well as where, for that matter, the former's +whole analytic faculty would be led such a wonderful dance. + +"The Ambassadors" had been, all conveniently, "arranged for"; its +first appearance was from month to month, in the _North American +Review_ during 1903, and I had been open from far back to any +pleasant provocation for ingenuity that might reside in one's +actively adopting--so as to make it, in its way, a small compositional +law--recurrent breaks and resumptions. I had made up my mind here +regularly to exploit and enjoy these often rather rude jolts-- +having found, as I believed an admirable way to it; yet every question +of form and pressure, I easily remember, paled in the light of the +major propriety, recognised as soon as really weighed; that of +employing but one centre and keeping it all within my hero's compass. +The thing was to be so much this worthy's intimate adventure that +even the projection of his consciousness upon it from beginning to end +without intermission or deviation would probably still leave a part of +its value for him, and a fortiori for ourselves, unexpressed. +I might, however, express every grain of it that there would be +room for--on condition of contriving a splendid particular economy. +Other persons in no small number were to people the scene, and each +with his or her axe to grind, his or her situation to treat, his or her +coherency not to fail of, his or her relation to my leading motive, +in a word, to establish and carry on. But Strether's sense of these +things, and Strether's only, should avail me for showing them; +I should know them but through his more or less groping knowledge +of them, since his very gropings would figure among his most interesting +motions, and a full observance of the rich rigour I speak of would +give me more of the effect I should be most "after" than all other +possible observances together. It would give me a large unity, +and that in turn would crown me with the grace to which the +enlightened story-teller will at any time, for his interest, +sacrifice if need be all other graces whatever. I refer of course +to the grace of intensity, which there are ways of signally achieving +and ways of signally missing--as we see it, all round us, helplessly +and woefully missed. Not that it isn't, on the other hand, a virtue +eminently subject to appreciation--there being no strict, no absolute +measure of it; so that one may hear it acclaimed where it has quite +escaped one's perception, and see it unnoticed where one has gratefully +hailed it. After all of which I am not sure, either, that the immense +amusement of the whole cluster of difficulties so arrayed may not operate, +for the fond fabulist, when judicious not less than fond, as his best of +determinants. That charming principle is always there, at all events, +to keep interest fresh: it is a principle, we remember, essentially +ravenous, without scruple and without mercy, appeased with no cheap +nor easy nourishment. It enjoys the costly sacrifice and rejoices +thereby in the very odour of difficulty--even as ogres, with their +"Fee-faw-fum!" rejoice in the smell of the blood of Englishmen. + +Thus it was, at all events, that the ultimate, though after all so +speedy, definition of my gentleman's job--his coming out, all +solemnly appointed and deputed, to "save" Chad, and his then +finding the young man so disobligingly and, at first, so +bewilderingly not lost that a new issue altogether, in the +connexion, prodigiously faces them, which has to be dealt with in +a new light--promised as many calls on ingenuity and on the higher +branches of the compositional art as one could possibly desire. +Again and yet again, as, from book to book, I proceed with my +survey, I find no source of interest equal to this verification +after the fact, as I may call it, and the more in detail the +better, of the scheme of consistency "gone in" for. As always-- +since the charm never fails--the retracing of the process from +point to point brings back the old illusion. The old intentions +bloom again and flower--in spite of all the blossoms they were to +have dropped by the way. This is the charm, as I say, of adventure +TRANSPOSED--the thrilling ups and downs, the intricate ins and +outs of the compositional problem, made after such a fashion +admirably objective, becoming the question at issue and keeping +the author's heart in his mouth. Such an element, for instance, as +his intention that Mrs. Newsome, away off with her finger on the +pulse of Massachusetts, should yet be no less intensely than +circuitously present through the whole thing, should be no less +felt as to be reckoned with than the most direct exhibition, the +finest portrayal at first hand could make her, such a sign of +artistic good faith, I say, once it's unmistakeably there, takes +on again an actuality not too much impaired by the comparative +dimness of the particular success. Cherished intention too +inevitably acts and operates, in the book, about fifty times as +little as I had fondly dreamt it might; but that scarce spoils for +me the pleasure of recognising the fifty ways in which I had +sought to provide for it. The mere charm of seeing such an idea +constituent, in its degree; the fineness of the measures taken--a +real extension, if successful, of the very terms and possibilities +of representation and figuration--such things alone were, after +this fashion, inspiring, such things alone were a gage of the +probable success of that dissimulated calculation with which the +whole effort was to square. But oh the cares begotten, none the +less, of that same "judicious" sacrifice to a particular form of +interest! One's work should have composition, because composition +alone is positive beauty; but all the while--apart from one's +inevitable consciousness too of the dire paucity of readers ever +recognising or ever missing positive beauty--how, as to the cheap +and easy, at every turn, how, as to immediacy and facility, and +even as to the commoner vivacity, positive beauty might have to be +sweated for and paid for! Once achieved and installed it may +always be trusted to make the poor seeker feel he would have +blushed to the roots of his hair for failing of it; yet, how, as +its virtue can be essentially but the virtue of the whole, the +wayside traps set in the interest of muddlement and pleading but +the cause of the moment, of the particular bit in itself, have to +be kicked out of the path! All the sophistications in life, for +example, might have appeared to muster on behalf of the menace-- +the menace to a bright variety--involved in Strether's having all +the subjective "say," as it were, to himself. + +Had I, meanwhile, made him at once hero and historian, endowed him +with the romantic privilege of the "first person"--the darkest +abyss of romance this, inveterately, when enjoyed on the grand +scale--variety, and many other queer matters as well, might have +been smuggled in by a back door. Suffice it, to be brief, that the +first person, in the long piece, is a form foredoomed to looseness +and that looseness, never much my affair, had never been so little +so as on this particular occasion. All of which reflexions flocked +to the standard from the moment--a very early one--the question of +how to keep my form amusing while sticking so close to my central +figure and constantly taking its pattern from him had to be faced. +He arrives (arrives at Chester) as for the dreadful purpose of +giving his creator "no end" to tell about him--before which +rigorous mission the serenest of creators might well have quailed. +I was far from the serenest; I was more than agitated enough to +reflect that, grimly deprived of one alternative or one substitute +for "telling," I must address myself tooth and nail to another. I +couldn't, save by implication, make other persons tell EACH OTHER +about him--blest resource, blest necessity, of the drama, which +reaches its effects of unity, all remarkably, by paths absolutely +opposite to the paths of the novel: with other persons, save as +they were primarily HIS persons (not he primarily but one of +theirs), I had simply nothing to do. I had relations for him none +the less, by the mercy of Providence, quite as much as if my +exhibition was to be a muddle; if I could only by implication and +a show of consequence make other persons tell each other about +him, I could at least make him tell THEM whatever in the world he +must; and could so, by the same token--which was a further luxury +thrown in--see straight into the deep differences between what +that could do for me, or at all events for HIM, and the large ease +of "autobiography." It may be asked why, if one so keeps to one's +hero, one shouldn't make a single mouthful of "method," shouldn't +throw the reins on his neck and, letting them flap there as free +as in "Gil Blas" or in "David Copperfield," equip him with the +double privilege of subject and object--a course that has at +least the merit of brushing away questions at a sweep. The answer +to which is, I think, that one makes that surrender only if one is +prepared NOT to make certain precious discriminations. + +The "first person" then, so employed, is addressed by the author +directly to ourselves, his possible readers, whom he has to reckon +with, at the best, by our English tradition, so loosely and +vaguely after all, so little respectfully, on so scant a +presumption of exposure to criticism. Strether, on the other hand, +encaged and provided for as "The Ambassadors" encages and +provides, has to keep in view proprieties much stiffer and more +salutary than any our straight and credulous gape are likely to +bring home to him, has exhibitional conditions to meet, in a word, +that forbid the terrible FLUIDITY of self-revelation. I may seem +not to better the case for my discrimination if I say that, for my +first care, I had thus inevitably to set him up a confidant or +two, to wave away with energy the custom of the seated mass of +explanation after the fact, the inserted block of merely +referential narrative, which flourishes so, to the shame of the +modern impatience, on the serried page of Balzac, but which seems +simply to appal our actual, our general weaker, digestion. +"Harking back to make up" took at any rate more doing, as the +phrase is, not only than the reader of to-day demands, but than he +will tolerate at any price any call upon him either to understand +or remotely to measure; and for the beauty of the thing when done +the current editorial mind in particular appears wholly without +sense. It is not, however, primarily for either of these reasons, +whatever their weight, that Strether's friend Waymarsh is so +keenly clutched at, on the threshold of the book, or that no less +a pounce is made on Maria Gostrey--without even the pretext, +either, of HER being, in essence, Strether's friend. She is the +reader's friend much rather--in consequence of dispositions that +make him so eminently require one; and she acts in that capacity, +and REALLY in that capacity alone, with exemplary devotion from +beginning to and of the book. She is an enrolled, a direct, aid to +lucidity; she is in fine, to tear off her mask, the most +unmitigated and abandoned of ficelles. Half the dramatist's art, +as we well know--since if we don't it's not the fault of the +proofs that lie scattered about us--is in the use of ficelles; by +which I mean in a deep dissimulation of his dependence on them. +Waymarsh only to a slighter degree belongs, in the whole business, +less to my subject than to my treatment of it; the interesting +proof, in these connexions, being that one has but to take one's +subject for the stuff of drama to interweave with enthusiasm as +many Gostreys as need be. + +The material of "The Ambassadors," conforming in this respect +exactly to that of "The Wings of the Dove," published just before +it, is taken absolutely for the stuff of drama; so that, availing +myself of the opportunity given me by this edition for some +prefatory remarks on the latter work, I had mainly to make on its +behalf the point of its scenic consistency. It disguises that +virtue, in the oddest way in the world, by just LOOKING, as we +turn its pages, as little scenic as possible; but it sharply +divides itself, just as the composition before us does, into the +parts that prepare, that tend in fact to over-prepare, for scenes, +and the parts, or otherwise into the scenes, that justify and +crown the preparation. It may definitely be said, I think, that +everything in it that is not scene (not, I of course mean, +complete and functional scene, treating ALL the submitted matter, +as by logical start, logical turn, and logical finish) is +discriminated preparation, is the fusion and synthesis of picture. +These alternations propose themselves all recogniseably, I think, +from an early stage, as the very form and figure of "The +Ambassadors"; so that, to repeat, such an agent as Miss Gostrey +pre-engaged at a high salary, but waits in the draughty wing with +her shawl and her smelling-salts. Her function speaks at once for +itself, and by the time she has dined with Strether in London and +gone to a play with him her intervention as a ficelle is, I hold, +expertly justified. Thanks to it we have treated scenically, and +scenically alone, the whole lumpish question of Strether's "past," +which has seen us more happily on the way than anything else could +have done; we have strained to a high lucidity and vivacity (or at +least we hope we have) certain indispensable facts; we have seen +our two or three immediate friends all conveniently and profitably +in "action"; to say nothing of our beginning to descry others, of +a remoter intensity, getting into motion, even if a bit vaguely as +yet, for our further enrichment. Let my first point be here that +the scene in question, that in which the whole situation at +Woollett and the complex forces that have propelled my hero to +where this lively extractor of his value and distiller of his +essence awaits him, is normal and entire, is really an excellent +STANDARD scene; copious, comprehensive, and accordingly never +short, but with its office as definite as that of the hammer on +the gong of the clock, the office of expressing ALL THAT IS IN the +hour. + +The "ficelle" character of the subordinate party is as artfully +dissimulated, throughout, as may be, and to that extent that, with +the seams or joints of Maria Gostrey's ostensible connectedness +taken particular care of, duly smoothed over, that is, and +anxiously kept from showing as "pieced on;" this figure doubtless +achieves, after a fashion, something of the dignity of a prime +idea: which circumstance but shows us afresh how many quite +incalculable but none the less clear sources of enjoyment for the +infatuated artist, how many copious springs of our never-to-be-slighted +"fun" for the reader and critic susceptible of contagion, may +sound their incidental plash as soon as an artistic process begins +to enjoy free development. Exquisite--in illustration of this-- +the mere interest and amusement of such at once "creative" and +critical questions as how and where and why to make Miss Gostrey's +false connexion carry itself, under a due high polish, as a real one. +Nowhere is it more of an artful expedient for mere consistency +of form, to mention a case, than in the last "scene" of the book, +where its function is to give or to add nothing whatever, +but only to express as vividly as possible certain things quite +other than itself and that are of the already fixed and appointed +measure. Since, however, all art is EXPRESSION, and is thereby +vividness, one was to find the door open here to any amount of +delightful dissimulation. These verily are the refinements and +ecstasies of method--amid which, or certainly under the influence +of any exhilarated demonstration of which, one must keep one's head +and not lose one's way. To cultivate an adequate intelligence +for them and to make that sense operative is positively to find +a charm in any produced ambiguity of appearance that is not +by the same stroke, and all helplessly, an ambiguity of sense. +To project imaginatively, for my hero, a relation that has +nothing to do with the matter (the matter of my subject) but has +everything to do with the manner (the manner of my presentation +of the same) and yet to treat it, at close quarters and for fully +economic expression's possible sake, as if it were important and +essential--to do that sort of thing and yet muddle nothing may +easily become, as one goes, a signally attaching proposition; +even though it all remains but part and parcel, I hasten to +recognise, of the merely general and related question of expressional +curiosity and expressional decency. + +I am moved to add after so much insistence on the scenic side of +my labour that I have found the steps of re-perusal almost as much +waylaid here by quite another style of effort in the same signal +interest--or have in other words not failed to note how, even so +associated and so discriminated, the finest proprieties and charms +of the non-scenic may, under the right hand for them, still keep +their intelligibility and assert their office. Infinitely +suggestive such an observation as this last on the whole +delightful head, where representation is concerned, of possible +variety, of effective expressional change and contrast. One would +like, at such an hour as this, for critical licence, to go into +the matter of the noted inevitable deviation (from too fond an +original vision) that the exquisite treachery even of the +straightest execution may ever be trusted to inflict even on the +most mature plan--the case being that, though one's last +reconsidered production always seems to bristle with that +particular evidence, "The Ambassadors" would place a flood of such +light at my service. I must attach to my final remark here a +different import; noting in the other connexion I just glanced at +that such passages as that of my hero's first encounter with Chad +Newsome, absolute attestations of the non-scenic form though they +be, yet lay the firmest hand too--so far at least as intention +goes--on representational effect. To report at all closely and +completely of what "passes" on a given occasion is inevitably to +become more or less scenic; and yet in the instance I allude to, +WITH the conveyance, expressional curiosity and expressional +decency are sought and arrived at under quite another law. The +true inwardness of this may be at bottom but that one of the +suffered treacheries has consisted precisely, for Chad's whole +figure and presence, of a direct presentability diminished and +compromised--despoiled, that is, of its PROPORTIONAL advantage; +so that, in a word, the whole economy of his author's relation +to him has at important points to be redetermined. The book, +however, critically viewed, is touchingly full of these disguised +and repaired losses, these insidious recoveries, these intensely +redemptive consistencies. The pages in which Mamie Pocock gives +her appointed and, I can't but think, duly felt lift to the whole +action by the so inscrutably-applied side-stroke or short-cut of +our just watching and as quite at an angle of vision as yet +untried, her single hour of suspense in the hotel salon, in our +partaking of her concentrated study of the sense of matters +bearing on her own case, all the bright warm Paris afternoon, from +the balcony that overlooks the Tuileries garden--these are as +marked an example of the representational virtue that insists here +and there on being, for the charm of opposition and renewal, other +than the scenic. It wouldn't take much to make me further argue +that from an equal play of such oppositions the book gathers an +intensity that fairly adds to the dramatic--though the latter is +supposed to be the sum of all intensities; or that has at any rate +nothing to fear from juxtaposition with it. I consciously fail to +shrink in fact from that extravagance--I risk it rather, for the +sake of the moral involved; which is not that the particular +production before us exhausts the interesting questions it raises, +but that the Novel remains still, under the right persuasion, the +most independent, most elastic, most prodigious of literary forms. + + +HENRY JAMES. + + + + + +Book First + + + + +I + + +Strether's first question, when he reached the hotel, was about his +friend; yet on his learning that Waymarsh was apparently not to +arrive till evening he was not wholly disconcerted. A telegram from +him bespeaking a room "only if not noisy," reply paid, was produced +for the enquirer at the office, so that the understanding they +should meet at Chester rather than at Liverpool remained to that +extent sound. The same secret principle, however, that had prompted +Strether not absolutely to desire Waymarsh's presence at the dock, +that had led him thus to postpone for a few hours his enjoyment of +it, now operated to make him feel he could still wait without +disappointment. They would dine together at the worst, and, with +all respect to dear old Waymarsh--if not even, for that matter, to +himself--there was little fear that in the sequel they shouldn't +see enough of each other. The principle I have just mentioned as +operating had been, with the most newly disembarked of the two men, +wholly instinctive--the fruit of a sharp sense that, delightful as +it would be to find himself looking, after so much separation, into +his comrade's face, his business would be a trifle bungled should +he simply arrange for this countenance to present itself to the +nearing steamer as the first "note," of Europe. Mixed with +everything was the apprehension, already, on Strether's part, that +it would, at best, throughout, prove the note of Europe in quite a +sufficient degree. + +That note had been meanwhile--since the previous afternoon, thanks +to this happier device--such a consciousness of personal freedom as +he hadn't known for years; such a deep taste of change and of +having above all for the moment nobody and nothing to consider, as +promised already, if headlong hope were not too foolish, to colour +his adventure with cool success. There were people on the ship with +whom he had easily consorted--so far as ease could up to now be +imputed to him--and who for the most part plunged straight into the +current that set from the landing-stage to London; there were +others who had invited him to a tryst at the inn and had even +invoked his aid for a "look round" at the beauties of Liverpool; +but he had stolen away from every one alike, had kept no +appointment and renewed no acquaintance, had been indifferently +aware of the number of persons who esteemed themselves fortunate in +being, unlike himself, "met," and had even independently, +unsociably, alone, without encounter or relapse and by mere quiet +evasion, given his afternoon and evening to the immediate and the +sensible. They formed a qualified draught of Europe, an afternoon +and an evening on the banks of the Mersey, but such as it was he +took his potion at least undiluted. He winced a little, truly, at +the thought that Waymarsh might be already at Chester; he reflected +that, should he have to describe himself there as having "got in" +so early, it would be difficult to make the interval look +particularly eager; but he was like a man who, elatedly finding in +his pocket more money than usual, handles it a while and idly and +pleasantly chinks it before addressing himself to the business of +spending. That he was prepared to be vague to Waymarsh about the +hour of the ship's touching, and that he both wanted extremely to +see him and enjoyed extremely the duration of delay--these things, +it is to be conceived, were early signs in him that his relation to +his actual errand might prove none of the simplest. He was +burdened, poor Strether--it had better be confessed at the outset-- +with the oddity of a double consciousness. There was detachment in +his zeal and curiosity in his indifference. + +After the young woman in the glass cage had held up to him across +her counter the pale-pink leaflet bearing his friend's name, which +she neatly pronounced, he turned away to find himself, in the hall, +facing a lady who met his eyes as with an intention suddenly +determined, and whose features--not freshly young, not markedly +fine, but on happy terms with each other--came back to him as from +a recent vision. For a moment they stood confronted; then the +moment placed her: he had noticed her the day before, noticed her +at his previous inn, where--again in the hall--she had been briefly +engaged with some people of his own ship's company. Nothing had +actually passed between them, and he would as little have been able +to say what had been the sign of her face for him on the first +occasion as to name the ground of his present recognition. +Recognition at any rate appeared to prevail on her own side as +well--which would only have added to the mystery. All she now began +by saying to him nevertheless was that, having chanced to catch his +enquiry, she was moved to ask, by his leave, if it were possibly a +question of Mr. Waymarsh of Milrose Connecticut--Mr. Waymarsh the +American lawyer. + +"Oh yes," he replied, "my very well-known friend. He's to meet me +here, coming up from Malvern, and I supposed he'd already have +arrived. But he doesn't come till later, and I'm relieved not to +have kept him. Do you know him?" Strether wound up. + +It wasn't till after he had spoken that he became aware of how much +there had been in him of response; when the tone of her own +rejoinder, as well as the play of something more in her face-- +something more, that is, than its apparently usual restless light-- +seemed to notify him. "I've met him at Milrose--where I used +sometimes, a good while ago, to stay; I had friends there who were +friends of his, and I've been at his house. I won't answer for it +that he would know me," Strether's new acquaintance pursued; "but I +should be delighted to see him. Perhaps," she added, "I shall--for +I'm staying over." She paused while our friend took in these +things, and it was as if a good deal of talk had already passed. +They even vaguely smiled at it, and Strether presently observed +that Mr. Waymarsh would, no doubt, be easily to be seen. This, +however, appeared to affect the lady as if she might have advanced +too far. She appeared to have no reserves about anything. "Oh," she +said, "he won't care!"--and she immediately thereupon remarked that +she believed Strether knew the Munsters; the Munsters being the +people he had seen her with at Liverpool. + +But he didn't, it happened, know the Munsters well enough to give +the case much of a lift; so that they were left together as if over +the mere laid table of conversation. Her qualification of the +mentioned connexion had rather removed than placed a dish, and +there seemed nothing else to serve. Their attitude remained, none +the less, that of not forsaking the board; and the effect of this +in turn was to give them the appearance of having accepted each +other with an absence of preliminaries practically complete. They +moved along the hall together, and Strether's companion threw off +that the hotel had the advantage of a garden. He was aware by this +time of his strange inconsequence: he had shirked the intimacies of +the steamer and had muffled the shock of Waymarsh only to find +himself forsaken, in this sudden case, both of avoidance and of +caution. He passed, under this unsought protection and before he +had so much as gone up to his room, into the garden of the hotel, +and at the end of ten minutes had agreed to meet there again, as +soon as he should have made himself tidy, the dispenser of such +good assurances. He wanted to look at the town, and they would +forthwith look together. It was almost as if she had been in +possession and received him as a guest. Her acquaintance with the +place presented her in a manner as a hostess, and Strether had a +rueful glance for the lady in the glass cage. It was as if this +personage had seen herself instantly superseded. + +When in a quarter of an hour he came down, what his hostess saw, +what she might have taken in with a vision kindly adjusted, was the +lean, the slightly loose figure of a man of the middle height and +something more perhaps than the middle age--a man of five-and-fifty, +whose most immediate signs were a marked bloodless brownness of face, +a thick dark moustache, of characteristically American cut, +growing strong and falling low, a head of hair still abundant +but irregularly streaked with grey, and a nose of bold free +prominence, the even line, the high finish, as it might have been +called, of which, had a certain effect of mitigation. A perpetual +pair of glasses astride of this fine ridge, and a line, unusually +deep and drawn, the prolonged pen-stroke of time, accompanying the +curve of the moustache from nostril to chin, did something to +complete the facial furniture that an attentive observer would have +seen catalogued, on the spot, in the vision of the other party to +Strether's appointment. She waited for him in the garden, the other +party, drawing on a pair of singularly fresh soft and elastic light +gloves and presenting herself with a superficial readiness which, +as he approached her over the small smooth lawn and in the watery +English sunshine, he might, with his rougher preparation, have +marked as the model for such an occasion. She had, this lady, a +perfect plain propriety, an expensive subdued suitability, that her +companion was not free to analyse, but that struck him, so that his +consciousness of it was instantly acute, as a quality quite new to +him. Before reaching her he stopped on the grass and went through +the form of feeling for something, possibly forgotten, in the light +overcoat he carried on his arm; yet the essence of the act was no +more than the impulse to gain time. Nothing could have been odder +than Strether's sense of himself as at that moment launched in +something of which the sense would be quite disconnected from the +sense of his past and which was literally beginning there and then. +It had begun in fact already upstairs and before the dressing glass +that struck him as blocking further, so strangely, the dimness of +the window of his dull bedroom; begun with a sharper survey of the +elements of Appearance than he had for a long time been moved to +make. He had during those moments felt these elements to be not so +much to his hand as he should have liked, and then had fallen back +on the thought that they were precisely a matter as to which help +was supposed to come from what he was about to do. He was about to +go up to London, so that hat and necktie might wait. What had come +as straight to him as a ball in a well-played game--and caught +moreover not less neatly--was just the air, in the person of his +friend, of having seen and chosen, the air of achieved possession +of those vague qualities and quantities that collectively figured +to him as the advantage snatched from lucky chances. Without pomp +or circumstance, certainly, as her original address to him, equally +with his own response, had been, he would have sketched to himself +his impression of her as: "Well, she's more thoroughly civilized--!" +If "More thoroughly than WHOM?" would not have been for him a +sequel to this remark, that was just by reason of his deep +consciousness of the bearing of his comparison. + +The amusement, at all events, of a civilisation intenser was what-- +familiar compatriot as she was, with the full tone of the +compatriot and the rattling link not with mystery but only with +dear dyspeptic Waymarsh--she appeared distinctly to promise. His +pause while he felt in his overcoat was positively the pause of +confidence, and it enabled his eyes to make out as much of a case +for her, in proportion, as her own made out for himself. She +affected him as almost insolently young; but an easily carried +five-and-thirty could still do that. She was, however, like himself +marked and wan; only it naturally couldn't have been known to him +how much a spectator looking from one to the other might have +discerned that they had in common. It wouldn't for such a spectator +have been altogether insupposable that, each so finely brown and so +sharply spare, each confessing so to dents of surface and aids to +sight, to a disproportionate nose and a head delicately or grossly +grizzled, they might have been brother and sister. On this ground +indeed there would have been a residuum of difference; such a +sister having surely known in respect to such a brother the +extremity of separation, and such a brother now feeling in respect +to such a sister the extremity of surprise. Surprise, it was true, +was not on the other hand what the eyes of Strether's friend most +showed him while she gave him, stroking her gloves smoother, the +time he appreciated. They had taken hold of him straightway +measuring him up and down as if they knew how; as if he were human +material they had already in some sort handled. Their possessor was +in truth, it may be communicated, the mistress of a hundred cases +or categories, receptacles of the mind, subdivisions for +convenience, in which, from a full experience, she pigeon-holed her +fellow mortals with a hand as free as that of a compositor +scattering type. She was as equipped in this particular as Strether +was the reverse, and it made an opposition between them which he +might well have shrunk from submitting to if he had fully suspected +it. So far as he did suspect it he was on the contrary, after a +short shake of his consciousness, as pleasantly passive as might +be. He really had a sort of sense of what she knew. He had quite +the sense that she knew things he didn't, and though this was a +concession that in general he found not easy to make to women, he +made it now as good-humouredly as if it lifted a burden. His eyes +were so quiet behind his eternal nippers that they might almost +have been absent without changing his face, which took its +expression mainly, and not least its stamp of sensibility, from +other sources, surface and grain and form. He joined his guide in +an instant, and then felt she had profited still better than he by +his having been for the moments just mentioned, so at the disposal +of her intelligence. She knew even intimate things about him that +he hadn't yet told her and perhaps never would. He wasn't unaware +that he had told her rather remarkably many for the time, but these +were not the real ones. Some of the real ones, however, precisely, +were what she knew. + +They were to pass again through the hall of the inn to get into the +street, and it was here she presently checked him with a question. +"Have you looked up my name?" + +He could only stop with a laugh. "Have you looked up mine?" + +"Oh dear, yes--as soon as you left me. I went to the office and +asked. Hadn't YOU better do the same?" + +He wondered. "Find out who you are?--after the uplifted young woman +there has seen us thus scrape acquaintance!" + +She laughed on her side now at the shade of alarm in his amusement. +"Isn't it a reason the more? If what you're afraid of is the injury +for me--my being seen to walk off with a gentleman who has to ask +who I am--l assure you I don't in the least mind. Here, however," +she continued, "is my card, and as I find there's something else +again I have to say at the office, you can just study it during the +moment I leave you." + +She left him after he had taken from her the small pasteboard she +had extracted from her pocket-book, and he had extracted another +from his own, to exchange with it, before she came back. He read +thus the simple designation "Maria Gostrey," to which was attached, +in a corner of the card, with a number, the name of a street, +presumably in Paris, without other appreciable identity than its +foreignness. He put the card into his waistcoat pocket, keeping his +own meanwhile in evidence; and as he leaned against the door-post +he met with the smile of a straying thought what the expanse before +the hotel offered to his view. It was positively droll to him that +he should already have Maria Gostrey, whoever she was--of which he +hadn't really the least idea--in a place of safe keeping. He had +somehow an assurance that he should carefully preserve the little +token he had just tucked in. He gazed with unseeing lingering eyes +as he followed some of the implications of his act, asking himself +if he really felt admonished to qualify it as disloyal. It was +prompt, it was possibly even premature, and there was little doubt +of the expression of face the sight of it would have produced in a +certain person. But if it was "wrong"--why then he had better not +have come out at all. At this, poor man, had he already--and even +before meeting Waymarsh--arrived. He had believed he had a limit, +but the limit had been transcended within thirty-six hours. By how +long a space on the plane of manners or even of morals, moreover, +he felt still more sharply after Maria Gostrey had come back to him +and with a gay decisive "So now--!" led him forth into the world. +This counted, it struck him as he walked beside her with his +overcoat on an arm, his umbrella under another and his personal +pasteboard a little stiffly retained between forefinger and thumb, +this struck him as really, in comparison his introduction to +things. It hadn't been "Europe" at Liverpool no--not even in the +dreadful delightful impressive streets the night before--to the +extent his present companion made it so. She hadn't yet done that +so much as when, after their walk had lasted a few minutes and he +had had time to wonder if a couple of sidelong glances from her +meant that he had best have put on gloves she almost pulled him up +with an amused challenge. "But why--fondly as it's so easy to +imagine your clinging to it--don't you put it away? Or if it's an +inconvenience to you to carry it, one's often glad to have one's +card back. The fortune one spends in them!" + +Then he saw both that his way of marching with his own prepared +tribute had affected her as a deviation in one of those directions +he couldn't yet measure, and that she supposed this emblem to be +still the one he had received from her. He accordingly handed her +the card as if in restitution, but as soon as she had it she felt +the difference and, with her eyes on it, stopped short for apology. +"I like," she observed, "your name." + +"Oh," he answered, "you won't have heard of it!" Yet he had his +reasons for not being sure but that she perhaps might. + +Ah it was but too visible! She read it over again as one who had +never seen it. "'Mr. Lewis Lambert Strether'"--she sounded it +almost as freely as for any stranger. She repeated however that she +liked it--"particularly the Lewis Lambert. It's the name of a novel +of Balzac's." + +"Oh I know that!" said Strether. + +"But the novel's an awfully bad one." + +"I know that too," Strether smiled. To which he added with an +irrelevance that was only superficial: "I come from Woollett +Massachusetts." It made her for some reason--the irrelevance or +whatever--laugh. Balzac had described many cities, but hadn't +described Woollett Massachusetts. "You say that," she returned, +"as if you wanted one immediately to know the worst." + +"Oh I think it's a thing," he said, "that you must already have +made out. I feel it so that I certainly must look it, speak it, +and, as people say there, 'act' it. It sticks out of me, and you +knew surely for yourself as soon as you looked at me." + +"The worst, you mean?" + +"Well, the fact of where I come from. There at any rate it IS; so +that you won't be able, if anything happens, to say I've not been +straight with you." + +"I see"--and Miss Gostrey looked really interested in the point he +had made. "But what do you think of as happening?" + +Though he wasn't shy--which was rather anomalous--Strether gazed +about without meeting her eyes; a motion that was frequent with him +in talk, yet of which his words often seemed not at all the effect. +"Why that you should find me too hopeless." With which they walked +on again together while she answered, as they went, that the most +"hopeless" of her countryfolk were in general precisely those she +liked best. All sorts of other pleasant small things-small things +that were yet large for him--flowered in the air of the occasion, +but the bearing of the occasion itself on matters still remote +concerns us too closely to permit us to multiply our illustrations. +Two or three, however, in truth, we should perhaps regret to lose. +The tortuous wall--girdle, long since snapped, of the little +swollen city, half held in place by careful civic hands--wanders in +narrow file between parapets smoothed by peaceful generations, +pausing here and there for a dismantled gate or a bridged gap, with +rises and drops, steps up and steps down, queer twists, queer +contacts, peeps into homely streets and under the brows of gables, +views of cathedral tower and waterside fields, of huddled English +town and ordered English country. Too deep almost for words was the +delight of these things to Strether; yet as deeply mixed with it +were certain images of his inward picture. He had trod this walks +in the far-off time, at twenty-five; but that, instead of spoiling +it, only enriched it for present feeling and marked his renewal as +a thing substantial enough to share. It was with Waymarsh he should +have shared it. and he was now accordingly taking from him +something that was his due. He looked repeatedly at his watch, and +when he had done so for the fifth time Miss Gostrey took him up. + +"You're doing something that you think not right." + +It so touched the place that he quite changed colour and his laugh +grew almost awkward. "Am I enjoying it as much as THAT?" + +"You're not enjoying it, I think, so much as you ought." + +"I see"--he appeared thoughtfully to agree. "Great is my privilege." + +"Oh it's not your privilege! It has nothing to do with me. It has +to do with yourself. Your failure's general." + +"Ah there you are!" he laughed. "It's the failure of Woollett. +THAT'S general." + +"The failure to enjoy," Miss Gostrey explained, "is what I mean." + +"Precisely. Woollett isn't sure it ought to enjoy. If it were it +would. But it hasn't, poor thing," Strether continued, "any one to +show it how. It's not like me. I have somebody." + +They had stopped, in the afternoon sunshine--constantly pausing, in +their stroll, for the sharper sense of what they saw--and Strether +rested on one of the high sides of the old stony groove of the +little rampart. He leaned back on this support with his face to the +tower of the cathedral, now admirably commanded by their station, +the high red-brown mass, square and subordinately spired and +crocketed, retouched and restored, but charming to his long-sealed +eyes and with the first swallows of the year weaving their flight +all round it. Miss Gostrey lingered near him, full of an air, to +which she more and more justified her right, of understanding the +effect of things. She quite concurred. "You've indeed somebody." +And she added: "I wish you WOULD let me show you how!" + +"Oh I'm afraid of you!" he cheerfully pleaded. + +She kept on him a moment, through her glasses and through his own, +a certain pleasant pointedness. "Ah no, you're not! You're not in +the least, thank goodness! If you had been we shouldn't so soon +have found ourselves here together. I think," she comfortably +concluded, "you trust me." + +"I think I do!--but that's exactly what I'm afraid of. I shouldn't +mind if I didn't. It's falling thus in twenty minutes so utterly +into your hands. I dare say," Strether continued, "it's a sort of +thing you're thoroughly familiar with; but nothing more +extraordinary has ever happened to me." + +She watched him with all her kindness. "That means simply that +you've recognised me--which IS rather beautiful and rare. You see +what I am." As on this, however, he protested, with a good-humoured +headshake, a resignation of any such claim, she had a moment of +explanation. "If you'll only come on further as you HAVE come +you'll at any rate make out. My own fate has been too many for me, +and I've succumbed to it. I'm a general guide--to 'Europe,' don't +you know? I wait for people--l put them through. I pick them up-- +I set them down. I'm a sort of superior 'courier-maid.' I'm a +companion at large. I take people, as I've told you, about. I never +sought it--it has come to me. It has been my fate, and one's fate +one accepts. It's a dreadful thing to have to say, in so wicked a +world, but I verily believe that, such as you see me, there's +nothing I don't know. I know all the shops and the prices--but I +know worse things still. I bear on my back the huge load of our +national consciousness, or, in other words--for it comes to that-- +of our nation itself. Of what is our nation composed but of the men +and women individually on my shoulders? I don't do it, you know, +for any particular advantage. I don't do it, for instance--some +people do, you know--for money." + +Strether could only listen and wonder and weigh his chance. "And +yet, affected as you are then to so many of your clients, you can +scarcely be said to do it for love." He waited a moment. "How do we +reward you?" + +She had her own hesitation, but "You don't!" she finally returned, +setting him again in motion. They went on, but in a few minutes, +though while still thinking over what she had said, he once more +took out his watch; mechanically, unconsciously and as if made +nervous by the mere exhilaration of what struck him as her strange +and cynical wit. He looked at the hour without seeing it, and then, +on something again said by his companion, had another pause. +"You're really in terror of him." + +He smiled a smile that he almost felt to be sickly. "Now you can +see why I'm afraid of you." + +"Because I've such illuminations? Why they're all for your help! +It's what I told you," she added, "just now. You feel as if this +were wrong." + +He fell back once more, settling himself against the parapet as if +to hear more about it. "Then get me out!" + +Her face fairly brightened for the joy of the appeal, but, as if it +were a question of immediate action, she visibly considered. "Out +of waiting for him?--of seeing him at all?" + +"Oh no--not that," said poor Strether, looking grave. "I've got to +wait for him--and I want very much to see him. But out of the +terror. You did put your finger on it a few minutes ago. It's +general, but it avails itself of particular occasions. That's what +it's doing for me now. I'm always considering something else; +something else, I mean, than the thing of the moment. The obsession +of the other thing is the terror. I'm considering at present for +instance something else than YOU." + +She listened with charming earnestness. "Oh you oughtn't to do +that!" + +"It's what I admit. Make it then impossible." + +She continued to think. "Is it really an 'order' from you?--that I +shall take the job? WILL you give yourself up?" + +Poor Strether heaved his sigh. "If I only could! But that's the +deuce of it--that I never can. No--I can't." + +She wasn't, however, discouraged. "But you want to at least?" + +"Oh unspeakably!" + +"Ah then, if you'll try!"--and she took over the job, as she had +called it, on the spot. "Trust me!" she exclaimed, and the action +of this, as they retraced their steps, was presently to make him +pass his hand into her arm in the manner of a benign dependent +paternal old person who wishes to be "nice" to a younger one. If he +drew it out again indeed as they approached the inn this may have +been because, after more talk had passed between them, the relation +of age, or at least of experience--which, for that matter, had +already played to and fro with some freedom--affected him as +incurring a readjustment. It was at all events perhaps lucky that +they arrived in sufficiently separate fashion within range of the +hotel-door. The young lady they had left in the glass cage watched +as if she had come to await them on the threshold. At her side +stood a person equally interested, by his attitude, in their +return, and the effect of the sight of whom was instantly to +determine for Strether another of those responsive arrests that we +have had so repeatedly to note. He left it to Miss Gostrey to name, +with the fine full bravado as it almost struck him, of her +"Mr. Waymarsh!" what was to have been, what--he more than ever felt +as his short stare of suspended welcome took things in--would have +been, but for herself, his doom. It was already upon him even at +that distance--Mr. Waymarsh was for HIS part joyless. + + + +II + + +He had none the less to confess to this friend that evening that he +knew almost nothing about her, and it was a deficiency that +Waymarsh, even with his memory refreshed by contact, by her own +prompt and lucid allusions and enquiries, by their having publicly +partaken of dinner in her company, and by another stroll, to which +she was not a stranger, out into the town to look at the cathedral +by moonlight--it was a blank that the resident of Milrose, though +admitting acquaintance with the Munsters, professed himself unable +to fill. He had no recollection of Miss Gostrey, and two or three +questions that she put to him about those members of his circle +had, to Strether's observation, the same effect he himself had +already more directly felt--the effect of appearing to place all +knowledge, for the time, on this original woman's side. It +interested him indeed to mark the limits of any such relation for +her with his friend as there could possibly be a question of, and +it particularly struck him that they were to be marked altogether +in Waymarsh's quarter. This added to his own sense of having gone +far with her-gave him an early illustration of a much shorter +course. There was a certitude he immediately grasped--a conviction +that Waymarsh would quite fail, as it were, and on whatever degree +of acquaintances to profit by her. + +There had been after the first interchange among the three a talk +of some five minutes in the hall, and then the two men had +adjourned to the garden, Miss Gostrey for the time disappearing. +Strether in due course accompanied his friend to the room he had +bespoken and had, before going out, scrupulously visited; where at +the end of another half-hour he had no less discreetly left him. +On leaving him he repaired straight to his own room, but with the +prompt effect of feeling the compass of that chamber resented by +his condition. There he enjoyed at once the first consequence of +their reunion. A place was too small for him after it that had +seemed large enough before. He had awaited it with something he +would have been sorry, have been almost ashamed not to recognise as +emotion, yet with a tacit assumption at the same time that emotion +would in the event find itself relieved. The actual oddity was that +he was only more excited; and his excitement-to which indeed he +would have found it difficult instantly to give a name--brought him +once more downstairs and caused him for some minutes vaguely to +wander. He went once more to the garden; he looked into the public +room, found Miss Gostrey writing letters and backed out; he roamed, +fidgeted and wasted time; but he was to have his more intimate +session with his friend before the evening closed. + +It was late--not till Strether had spent an hour upstairs with him-- +that this subject consented to betake himself to doubtful rest. +Dinner and the subsequent stroll by moonlight--a dream, on +Strether's part, of romantic effects rather prosaically merged in a +mere missing of thicker coats--had measurably intervened, and this +midnight conference was the result of Waymarsh's having (when they +were free, as he put it, of their fashionable friend) found the +smoking-room not quite what he wanted, and yet bed what he wanted +less. His most frequent form of words was that he knew himself, and +they were applied on this occasion to his certainty of not +sleeping. He knew himself well enough to know that he should have a +night of prowling unless he should succeed, as a preliminary, in +getting prodigiously tired. If the effort directed to this end +involved till a late hour the presence of Strether--consisted, +that is, in the detention of the latter for full discourse--there +was yet an impression of minor discipline involved for our friend +in the picture Waymarsh made as he sat in trousers and shirt on the +edge of his couch. With his long legs extended and his large back +much bent, he nursed alternately, for an almost incredible time, +his elbows and his beard. He struck his visitor as extremely, as +almost wilfully uncomfortable; yet what had this been for Strether, +from that first glimpse of him disconcerted in the porch of the +hotel, but the predominant notes. The discomfort was in a manner +contagious, as well as also in a manner inconsequent and unfounded; +the visitor felt that unless he should get used to it--or unless +Waymarsh himself should--it would constitute a menace for his own +prepared, his own already confirmed, consciousness of the +agreeable. On their first going up together to the room Strether +had selected for him Waymarsh had looked it over in silence and +with a sigh that represented for his companion, if not the habit of +disapprobation, at least the despair of felicity; and this look had +recurred to Strether as the key of much he had since observed. +"Europe," he had begun to gather from these things, had up to now +rather failed of its message to him; he hadn't got into tune with +it and had at the end of three months almost renounced any such +expectation. + +He really appeared at present to insist on that by just perching +there with the gas in his eyes. This of itself somehow conveyed the +futility of single rectifications in a multiform failure. He had a +large handsome head and a large sallow seamed face--a striking +significant physiognomic total, the upper range of which, the great +political brow, the thick loose hair, the dark fuliginous eyes, +recalled even to a generation whose standard had dreadfully +deviated the impressive image, familiar by engravings and busts, of +some great national worthy of the earlier part of the mid-century. +He was of the personal type--and it was an element in the power and +promise that in their early time Strether had found in him--of the +American statesman, the statesman trained in "Congressional halls," +of an elder day. The legend had been in later years that as the +lower part of his face, which was weak, and slightly crooked, +spoiled the likeness, this was the real reason for the growth of +his beard, which might have seemed to spoil it for those not in the +secret. He shook his mane; he fixed, with his admirable eyes, his +auditor or his observer; he wore no glasses and had a way, partly +formidable, yet also partly encouraging, as from a representative +to a constituent, of looking very hard at those who approached him. +He met you as if you had knocked and he had bidden you enter. +Strether, who hadn't seen him for so long an interval, apprehended +him now with a freshness of taste, and had perhaps never done him +such ideal justice. The head was bigger, the eyes finer, than they +need have been for the career; but that only meant, after all, that +the career was itself expressive. What it expressed at midnight in +the gas-glaring bedroom at Chester was that the subject of it had, +at the end of years, barely escaped, by flight in time, a general +nervous collapse. But this very proof of the full life, as the full +life was understood at Milrose, would have made to Strether's +imagination an element in which Waymarsh could have floated easily +had he only consented to float. Alas nothing so little resembled +floating as the rigour with which, on the edge of his bed, he +hugged his posture of prolonged impermanence. It suggested to his +comrade something that always, when kept up, worried him--a person +established in a railway-coach with a forward inclination. It +represented the angle at which poor Waymarsh was to sit through the +ordeal of Europe. + +Thanks to the stress of occupation, the strain of professions, the +absorption and embarrassment of each, they had not, at home, during +years before this sudden brief and almost bewildering reign of +comparative ease, found so much as a day for a meeting; a fact that +was in some degree an explanation of the sharpness with which most +of his friend's features stood out to Strether. Those he had lost +sight of since the early time came back to him; others that it was +never possible to forget struck him now as sitting, clustered and +expectant, like a somewhat defiant family-group, on the doorstep of +their residence. The room was narrow for its length, and the +occupant of the bed thrust so far a pair of slippered feet that the +visitor had almost to step over them in his recurrent rebounds from +his chair to fidget back and forth. There were marks the friends +made on things to talk about, and on things not to, and one of the +latter in particular fell like the tap of chalk on the blackboard. +Married at thirty, Waymarsh had not lived with his wife for fifteen +years, and it came up vividly between them in the glare of the gas +that Strether wasn't to ask about her. He knew they were still +separate and that she lived at hotels, travelled in Europe, painted +her face and wrote her husband abusive letters, of not one of +which, to a certainty, that sufferer spared himself the perusal; +but he respected without difficulty the cold twilight that had +settled on this side of his companion's life. It was a province in +which mystery reigned and as to which Waymarsh had never spoken the +informing word. Strether, who wanted to do him the highest justice +wherever he COULD do it, singularly admired him for the dignity of +this reserve, and even counted it as one of the grounds--grounds +all handled and numbered--for ranking him, in the range of their +acquaintance, as a success. He WAS a success, Waymarsh, in spite of +overwork, or prostration, of sensible shrinkage, of his wife's +letters and of his not liking Europe. Strether would have reckoned +his own career less futile had he been able to put into it anything +so handsome as so much fine silence. One might one's self easily +have left Mrs. Waymarsh; and one would assuredly have paid one's +tribute to the ideal in covering with that attitude the derision of +having been left by her. Her husband had held his tongue and had +made a large income; and these were in especial the achievements as +to which Strether envied him. Our friend had had indeed on his side +too a subject for silence, which he fully appreciated; but it was a +matter of a different sort, and the figure of the income he had +arrived at had never been high enough to look any one in the face. + +"I don't know as I quite see what you require it for. You don't +appear sick to speak of." It was of Europe Waymarsh thus finally +spoke. + +"Well," said Strether, who fell as much as possible into step, "I +guess I don't FEEL sick now that I've started. But I had pretty +well run down before I did start." + +Waymarsh raised his melancholy look. "Ain't you about up to your +usual average?" + +It was not quite pointedly sceptical, but it seemed somehow a plea +for the purest veracity, and it thereby affected our friend as the +very voice of Milrose. He had long since made a mental distinction-- +though never in truth daring to betray it--between the voice of +Milrose and the voice even of Woollett. It was the former he felt, +that was most in the real tradition. There had been occasions in +his past when the sound of it had reduced him to temporary +confusion, and the present, for some reason, suddenly became such +another. It was nevertheless no light matter that the very effect +of his confusion should be to make him again prevaricate. "That +description hardly does justice to a man to whom it has done such a +lot of good to see YOU." + +Waymarsh fixed on his washing-stand the silent detached stare with +which Milrose in person, as it were, might have marked the +unexpectedness of a compliment from Woollett, and Strether for his +part, felt once more like Woollett in person. "I mean," his friend +presently continued, "that your appearance isn't as bad as I've +seen it: it compares favourably with what it was when I last +noticed it." On this appearance Waymarsh's eyes yet failed to rest; +it was almost as if they obeyed an instinct of propriety, and the +effect was still stronger when, always considering the basin and +jug, he added: "You've filled out some since then." + +"I'm afraid I have," Strether laughed: "one does fill out some with +all one takes in, and I've taken in, I dare say, more than I've +natural room for. I was dog-tired when I sailed." It had the oddest +sound of cheerfulness. + +"I was dog-tired," his companion returned, "when I arrived, and it's +this wild hunt for rest that takes all the life out of me. The fact +is, Strether--and it's a comfort to have you here at last to say it to; +though I don't know, after all, that I've really waited; I've told +it to people I've met in the cars--the fact is, such a country as this +ain't my KIND of country anyway. There ain't a country I've seen over +here that DOES seem my kind. Oh I don't say but what there are plenty +of pretty places and remarkable old things; but the trouble is that I +don't seem to feel anywhere in tune. That's one of the reasons why I +suppose I've gained so little. I haven't had the first sign of that +lift I was led to expect." With this he broke out more earnestly. +"Look here--I want to go back." + +His eyes were all attached to Strether's now, for he was one of the +men who fully face you when they talk of themselves. This enabled +his friend to look at him hard and immediately to appear to the +highest advantage in his eyes by doing so. "That's a genial thing +to say to a fellow who has come out on purpose to meet you!" + +Nothing could have been finer, on this, than Waymarsh's sombre +glow. "HAVE you come out on purpose?" + +"Well--very largely." + +"I thought from the way you wrote there was something back of it." + +Strether hesitated. "Back of my desire to be with you?" + +"Back of your prostration." + +Strether, with a smile made more dim by a certain consciousness, +shook his head. "There are all the causes of it!" + +"And no particular cause that seemed most to drive you?" + +Our friend could at last conscientiously answer. "Yes. One. There +IS a matter that has had much to do with my coming out." + +Waymarsh waited a little. "Too private to mention?" + +"No, not too private--for YOU. Only rather complicated." + +"Well," said Waymarsh, who had waited again, "I MAY lose my mind +over here, but I don't know as I've done so yet." + +"Oh you shall have the whole thing. But not tonight." + +Waymarsh seemed to sit stiffer and to hold his elbows tighter. "Why +not--if I can't sleep?" + +"Because, my dear man, I CAN!" + +"Then where's your prostration?" + +"Just in that--that I can put in eight hours." And Strether brought +it out that if Waymarsh didn't "gain" it was because he didn't go +to bed: the result of which was, in its order, that, to do the +latter justice, he permitted his friend to insist on his really +getting settled. Strether, with a kind coercive hand for it, +assisted him to this consummation, and again found his own part in +their relation auspiciously enlarged by the smaller touches of +lowering the lamp and seeing to a sufficiency of blanket. It +somehow ministered for him to indulgence to feel Waymarsh, who +looked unnaturally big and black in bed, as much tucked in as a +patient in a hospital and, with his covering up to his chin, as +much simplified by it He hovered in vague pity, to be brief, while +his companion challenged him out of the bedclothes. "Is she really +after you? Is that what's behind?" + +Strether felt an uneasiness at the direction taken by his +companion's insight, but he played a little at uncertainty. "Behind +my coming out?" + +"Behind your prostration or whatever. It's generally felt, you +know, that she follows you up pretty close." + +Strether's candour was never very far off. "Oh it has occurred to +you that I'm literally running away from Mrs. Newsome?" + +"Well, I haven't KNOWN but what you are. You're a very attractive +man, Strether. You've seen for yourself," said Waymarsh "what that +lady downstairs makes of it. Unless indeed," he rambled on with an +effect between the ironic and the anxious, "it's you who are after +HER. IS Mrs. Newsome OVER here?" He spoke as with a droll dread of +her. + +It made his friend--though rather dimly--smile. "Dear no she's +safe, thank goodness--as I think I more and more feel--at home. She +thought of coming, but she gave it up. I've come in a manner +instead of her; and come to that extent--for you're right in your +inference--on her business. So you see there IS plenty of +connexion." + +Waymarsh continued to see at least all there was. "Involving +accordingly the particular one I've referred to?" + +Strether took another turn about the room, giving a twitch to his +companion's blanket and finally gaining the door. His feeling was +that of a nurse who had earned personal rest by having made +everything straight. "Involving more things than I can think of +breaking ground on now. But don't be afraid--you shall have them +from me: you'll probably find yourself having quite as much of them +as you can do with. I shall--if we keep together--very much depend +on your impression of some of them." + +Waymarsh's acknowledgement of this tribute was characteristically +indirect. "You mean to say you don't believe we WILL keep +together?" + +"I only glance at the danger," Strether paternally said, "because +when I hear you wail to go back I seem to see you open up such +possibilities of folly." + +Waymarsh took it--silent a little--like a large snubbed child "What +are you going to do with me?" + +It was the very question Strether himself had put to Miss Gostrey, +and he wondered if he had sounded like that. But HE at least could +be more definite. "I'm going to take you right down to London." + +"Oh I've been down to London!" Waymarsh more softly moaned. "I've +no use, Strether, for anything down there." + +"Well," said Strether, good-humouredly, "I guess you've some use +for me." + +"So I've got to go?" + +"Oh you've got to go further yet." + +"Well," Waymarsh sighed, "do your damnedest! Only you WILL tell me +before you lead me on all the way--?" + +Our friend had again so lost himself, both for amusement and for +contrition, in the wonder of whether he had made, in his own +challenge that afternoon, such another figure, that he for an +instant missed the thread. "Tell you--?" + +"Why what you've got on hand." + +Strether hesitated. "Why it's such a matter as that even if I +positively wanted I shouldn't be able to keep it from you." + +Waymarsh gloomily gazed. "What does that mean then but that your +trip is just FOR her?" + +"For Mrs. Newsome? Oh it certainly is, as I say. Very much." + +"Then why do you also say it's for me?" + +Strether, in impatience, violently played with his latch. "It's +simple enough. It's for both of you." + +Waymarsh at last turned over with a groan. "Well, I won't marry +you!" + +"Neither, when it comes to that--!" But the visitor had already +laughed and escaped. + + + +III + + +He had told Miss Gostrey he should probably take, for departure +with Waymarsh, some afternoon train, and it thereupon in the +morning appeared that this lady had made her own plan for an +earlier one. She had breakfasted when Strether came into the +coffee-room; but, Waymarsh not having yet emerged, he was in time +to recall her to the terms of their understanding and to pronounce +her discretion overdone. She was surely not to break away at the +very moment she had created a want. He had met her as she rose +from her little table in a window, where, with the morning papers +beside her, she reminded him, as he let her know, of Major +Pendennis breakfasting at his club--a compliment of which she +professed a deep appreciation; and he detained her as pleadingly +as if he had already--and notably under pressure of the visions of +the night--learned to be unable to do without her. She must teach +him at all events, before she went, to order breakfast as +breakfast was ordered in Europe, and she must especially sustain +him in the problem of ordering for Waymarsh. The latter had laid +upon his friend, by desperate sounds through the door of his room, +dreadful divined responsibilities in respect to beefsteak and +oranges--responsibilities which Miss Gostrey took over with an +alertness of action that matched her quick intelligence. She had +before this weaned the expatriated from traditions compared with +which the matutinal beefsteak was but the creature of an hour, and +it was not for her, with some of her memories, to falter in the +path though she freely enough declared, on reflexion, that there +was always in such cases a choice of opposed policies. "There are +times when to give them their head, you know--!" + +They had gone to wait together in the garden for the dressing of +the meal, and Strether found her more suggestive than ever "Well, +what?" + +"Is to bring about for them such a complexity of relations-unless +indeed we call it a simplicity!--that the situation HAS to wind +itself up. They want to go back." + +"And you want them to go!" Strether gaily concluded. + +"I always want them to go, and I send them as fast as I can.' + +"Oh I know--you take them to Liverpool." + +"Any port will serve in a storm. I'm--with all my other functions-- +an agent for repatriation. I want to re-people our stricken +country. What will become of it else? I want to discourage others." + +The ordered English garden, in the freshness of the day, was +delightful to Strether, who liked the sound, under his feet, of +the tight fine gravel, packed with the chronic damp, and who had +the idlest eye for the deep smoothness of turf and the clean +curves of paths. "Other people?" + +"Other countries. Other people--yes. I want to encourage our own." + +Strether wondered. "Not to come? Why then do you 'meet' them-- +since it doesn't appear to be to stop them?" + +"Oh that they shouldn't come is as yet too much to ask. What I +attend to is that they come quickly and return still more so. I +meet them to help it to be over as soon as possible, and though I +don't stop them I've my way of putting them through. That's my +little system; and, if you want to know," said Maria Gostrey, +"it's my real secret, my innermost mission and use. I only seem, +you see, to beguile and approve; but I've thought it all out and +I'm working all the while underground. I can't perhaps quite give +you my formula, but I think that practically I succeed. I send you +back spent. So you stay back. Passed through my hands--" + +"We don't turn up again?" The further she went the further he +always saw himself able to follow. "I don't want your formula--I +feel quite enough, as I hinted yesterday, your abysses. Spent!" he +echoed. "If that's how you're arranging so subtly to send me I +thank you for the warning." + +For a minute, amid the pleasantness--poetry in tariffed items, but +all the more, for guests already convicted, a challenge to +consumption--they smiled at each other in confirmed fellowship. "Do +you call it subtly? It's a plain poor tale. Besides, you're a +special case." + +"Oh special cases--that's weak!" She was weak enough, further +still, to defer her journey and agree to accompany the gentlemen on +their own, might a separate carriage mark her independence; though +it was in spite of this to befall after luncheon that she went off +alone and that, with a tryst taken for a day of her company in +London, they lingered another night. She had, during the morning-- +spent in a way that he was to remember later on as the very climax +of his foretaste, as warm with presentiments, with what he would +have called collapses--had all sorts of things out with Strether; +and among them the fact that though there was never a moment of her +life when she wasn't "due" somewhere, there was yet scarce a +perfidy to others of which she wasn't capable for his sake. She +explained moreover that wherever she happened to be she found a +dropped thread to pick up, a ragged edge to repair, some familiar +appetite in ambush, jumping out as she approached, yet appeasable +with a temporary biscuit. It became, on her taking the risk of the +deviation imposed on him by her insidious arrangement of his +morning meal, a point of honour for her not to fail with Waymarsh +of the larger success too; and her subsequent boast to Strether was +that she had made their friend fare--and quite without his knowing +what was the matter--as Major Pendennis would have fared at the +Megatherium. She had made him breakfast like a gentleman, and it +was nothing, she forcibly asserted, to what she would yet make him +do. She made him participate in the slow reiterated ramble with +which, for Strether, the new day amply filled itself; and it was by +her art that he somehow had the air, on the ramparts and in the +Rows, of carrying a point of his own. + +The three strolled and stared and gossiped, or at least the +two did; the case really yielding for their comrade, if analysed, +but the element of stricken silence. This element indeed affected +Strether as charged with audible rumblings, but he was conscious of +the care of taking it explicitly as a sign of pleasant peace. He +wouldn't appeal too much, for that provoked stiffness; yet he +wouldn't be too freely tacit, for that suggested giving up. +Waymarsh himself adhered to an ambiguous dumbness that might have +represented either the growth of a perception or the despair of +one; and at times and in places--where the low-browed galleries +were darkest, the opposite gables queerest, the solicitations of +every kind densest--the others caught him fixing hard some object +of minor interest, fixing even at moments nothing discernible, as +if he were indulging it with a truce. When he met Strether's eye on +such occasions he looked guilty and furtive, fell the next minute +into some attitude of retractation. Our friend couldn't show him +the right things for fear of provoking some total renouncement, and +was tempted even to show him the wrong in order to make him differ +with triumph. There were moments when he himself felt shy of +professing the full sweetness of the taste of leisure, and there +were others when he found himself feeling as if his passages of +interchange with the lady at his side might fall upon the third +member of their party very much as Mr. Burchell, at Dr. Primrose's +fireside, was influenced by the high flights of the visitors from +London. The smallest things so arrested and amused him that he +repeatedly almost apologised--brought up afresh in explanation his +plea of a previous grind. He was aware at the same time that his +grind had been as nothing to Waymarsh's, and he repeatedly +confessed that, to cover his frivolity, he was doing his best for +his previous virtue. Do what he might, in any case, his previous +virtue was still there, and it seemed fairly to stare at him out of +the windows of shops that were not as the shops of Woollett, fairly +to make him want things that he shouldn't know what to do with. It +was by the oddest, the least admissible of laws demoralising him +now; and the way it boldly took was to make him want more wants. +These first walks in Europe were in fact a kind of finely lurid +intimation of what one might find at the end of that process. Had +he come back after long years, in something already so like the +evening of life, only to be exposed to it? It was at all events +over the shop-windows that he made, with Waymarsh, most free; +though it would have been easier had not the latter most sensibly +yielded to the appeal of the merely useful trades. He pierced with +his sombre detachment the plate-glass of ironmongers and saddlers, +while Strether flaunted an affinity with the dealers in stamped +letter-paper and in smart neckties. Strether was in fact +recurrently shameless in the presence of the tailors, though it was +just over the heads of the tailors that his countryman most loftily +looked. This gave Miss Gostrey a grasped opportunity to back up +Waymarsh at his expense. The weary lawyer--it was unmistakeable-- +had a conception of dress; but that, in view of some of the +features of the effect produced, was just what made the danger of +insistence on it. Strether wondered if he by this time thought Miss +Gostrey less fashionable or Lambert Strether more so; and it +appeared probable that most of the remarks exchanged between this +latter pair about passers, figures, faces, personal types, +exemplified in their degree the disposition to talk as "society" +talked. + +Was what was happening to himself then, was what already HAD +happened, really that a woman of fashion was floating him into +society and that an old friend deserted on the brink was watching +the force of the current? When the woman of fashion permitted +Strether--as she permitted him at the most--the purchase of a pair +of gloves, the terms she made about it, the prohibition of neckties +and other items till she should be able to guide him through the +Burlington Arcade, were such as to fall upon a sensitive ear as a +challenge to just imputations. Miss Gostrey was such a woman of +fashion as could make without a symptom of vulgar blinking an +appointment for the Burlington Arcade. Mere discriminations about a +pair of gloves could thus at any rate represent--always for such +sensitive ears as were in question--possibilities of something that +Strether could make a mark against only as the peril of apparent +wantonness. He had quite the consciousness of his new friend, for +their companion, that he might have had of a Jesuit in petticoats, +a representative of the recruiting interests of the Catholic +Church. The Catholic Church, for Waymarsh-that was to say the +enemy, the monster of bulging eyes and far-reaching quivering +groping tentacles--was exactly society, exactly the multiplication +of shibboleths, exactly the discrimination of types and tones, +exactly the wicked old Rows of Chester, rank with feudalism; +exactly in short Europe. + +There was light for observation, however, in an incident that +occurred just before they turned back to luncheon. Waymarsh had +been for a quarter of an hour exceptionally mute and distant, and +something, or other--Strether was never to make out exactly what-- +proved, as it were, too much for him after his comrades had stood +for three minutes taking in, while they leaned on an old balustrade +that guarded the edge of the Row, a particularly crooked and +huddled street-view. "He thinks us sophisticated, he thinks us +worldly, he thinks us wicked, he thinks us all sorts of queer +things," Strether reflected; for wondrous were the vague quantities +our friend had within a couple of short days acquired the habit of +conveniently and conclusively lumping together. There seemed +moreover a direct connexion between some such inference and a +sudden grim dash taken by Waymarsh to the opposite side. This +movement was startlingly sudden, and his companions at first +supposed him to have espied, to be pursuing, the glimpse of an +acquaintance. They next made out, however, that an open door had +instantly received him, and they then recognised him as engulfed in +the establishment of a jeweller, behind whose glittering front he +was lost to view. The fact had somehow the note of a demonstration, +and it left each of the others to show a face almost of fear. But +Miss Gostrey broke into a laugh. "What's the matter with him?" + +"Well," said Strether, "he can't stand it." + +"But can't stand what?" + +"Anything. Europe." + +"Then how will that jeweller help him?" + +Strether seemed to make it out, from their position, between the +interstices of arrayed watches, of close-hung dangling gewgaws. +"You'll see." + +"Ah that's just what--if he buys anything--I'm afraid of: that I +shall see something rather dreadful." + +Strether studied the finer appearances. "He may buy everything." + +"Then don't you think we ought to follow him?" + +"Not for worlds. Besides we can't. We're paralysed. We exchange a +long scared look, we publicly tremble. The thing is, you see, we +'realise.' He has struck for freedom." + +She wondered but she laughed. "Ah what a price to pay! And I was +preparing some for him so cheap." + +"No, no," Strether went on, frankly amused now; "don't call it +that: the kind of freedom you deal in is dear." Then as to justify +himself: "Am I not in MY way trying it? It's this." + +"Being here, you mean, with me?'' + +"Yes, and talking to you as I do. I've known you a few hours, and +I've known HIM all my life; so that if the ease I thus take with +you about him isn't magnificent"--and the thought of it held him a +moment--"why it's rather base." + +"It's magnificent!" said Miss Gostrey to make an end of it. "And +you should hear," she added, "the ease I take--and I above all +intend to take--with Mr. Waymarsh." + +Strether thought. "About ME? Ah that's no equivalent. +The equivalent would be Waymarsh's himself serving me up-- +his remorseless analysis of me. And he'll never do that"-- +he was sadly clear. "He'll never remorselessly analyse me." +He quite held her with the authority of this. "He'll never +say a word to you about me." + +She took it in; she did it justice; yet after an instant her +reason, her restless irony, disposed of it. "Of course he won't. +For what do you take people, that they're able to say words about +anything, able remorselessly to analyse? There are not many like +you and me. It will be only because he's too stupid." + +It stirred in her friend a sceptical echo which was at the same +time the protest of the faith of years. "Waymarsh stupid?" + +"Compared with you." + +Strether had still his eyes on the jeweller's front, and he waited +a moment to answer. "He's a success of a kind that I haven't +approached." + +"Do you mean he has made money?" + +"He makes it--to my belief. And I," said Strether, "though with a +back quite as bent, have never made anything. I'm a perfectly +equipped failure." + +He feared an instant she'd ask him if he meant he was poor; and he +was glad she didn't, for he really didn't know to what the truth on +this unpleasant point mightn't have prompted her. She only, +however, confirmed his assertion. "Thank goodness you're a failure-- +it's why I so distinguish you! Anything else to-day is too +hideous. Look about you--look at the successes. Would you BE one, +on your honour? Look, moreover," she continued, "at me." + +For a little accordingly their eyes met. "I see," Strether +returned. "You too are out of it." + +"The superiority you discern in me," she concurred, "announces my +futility. If you knew," she sighed, "the dreams of my youth! But +our realities are what has brought us together. We're beaten +brothers in arms." + +He smiled at her kindly enough, but he shook his head. "It doesn't +alter the fact that you're expensive. You've cost me already--!" + +But he had hung fire. "Cost you what?" + +"Well, my past--in one great lump. But no matter," he laughed: +"I'll pay with my last penny." + +Her attention had unfortunately now been engaged by their comrade's +return, for Waymarsh met their view as he came out of his shop. "I +hope he hasn't paid," she said, "with HIS last; though I'm +convinced he has been splendid, and has been so for you." + +"Ah no--not that!" + +"Then for me?" + +"Quite as little." Waymarsh was by this time near enough to show +signs his friend could read, though he seemed to look almost +carefully at nothing in particular. + +"Then for himself?" + +"For nobody. For nothing. For freedom." + +"But what has freedom to do with it?" + +Strether's answer was indirect. "To be as good as you and me. But +different." + +She had had time to take in their companion's face; and with it, as +such things were easy for her, she took in all. "Different--yes. +But better!" + +If Waymarsh was sombre he was also indeed almost sublime. He told +them nothing, left his absence unexplained, and though they were +convinced he had made some extraordinary purchase they were never +to learn its nature. He only glowered grandly at the tops of the +old gables. "It's the sacred rage," Strether had had further time +to say; and this sacred rage was to become between them, for +convenient comprehension, the description of one of his periodical +necessities. It was Strether who eventually contended that it did +make him better than they. But by that time Miss Gostrey was +convinced that she didn't want to be better than Strether. + + + + + +Book Second + + + + +I + + +Those occasions on which Strether was, in association with the +exile from Milrose, to see the sacred rage glimmer through would +doubtless have their due periodicity; but our friend had meanwhile +to find names for many other matters. On no evening of his life +perhaps, as he reflected, had he had to supply so many as on the +third of his short stay in London; an evening spent by Miss +Gostrey's side at one of the theatres, to which he had found +himself transported, without his own hand raised, on the mere +expression of a conscientious wonder. She knew her theatre, she +knew her play, as she had triumphantly known, three days running, +everything else, and the moment filled to the brim, for her +companion, that apprehension of the interesting which, whether or +no the interesting happened to filter through his guide, strained +now to its limits his brief opportunity. Waymarsh hadn't come with +them; he had seen plays enough, he signified, before Strether had +joined him--an affirmation that had its full force when his friend +ascertained by questions that he had seen two and a circus. +Questions as to what he had seen had on him indeed an effect only +less favourable than questions as to what he hadn't. He liked the +former to be discriminated; but how could it be done, Strether +asked of their constant counsellor, without discriminating the +latter? + +Miss Gostrey had dined with him at his hotel, face to face over a +small table on which the lighted candles had rose-coloured shades; +and the rose-coloured shades and the small table and the soft +fragrance of the lady--had anything to his mere sense ever been so +soft?--were so many touches in he scarce knew what positive high +picture. He had been to the theatre, even to the opera, in Boston, +with Mrs. Newsome, more than once acting as her only escort; but +there had been no little confronted dinner, no pink lights, no +whiff of vague sweetness, as a preliminary: one of the results of +which was that at present, mildly rueful, though with a sharpish +accent, he actually asked himself WHY there hadn't. There was much +the same difference in his impression of the noticed state of his +companion, whose dress was "cut down," as he believed the term to +be, in respect to shoulders and bosom, in a manner quite other than +Mrs. Newsome's, and who wore round her throat a broad red velvet +band with an antique jewel--he was rather complacently sure it was +antique--attached to it in front. Mrs. Newsome's dress was never in +any degree "cut down," and she never wore round her throat a broad +red velvet band: if she had, moreover, would it ever have served so +to carry on and complicate, as he now almost felt, his vision? + +It would have been absurd of him to trace into ramifications the +effect of the ribbon from which Miss Gostrey's trinket depended, +had he not for the hour, at the best, been so given over to +uncontrolled perceptions. What was it but an uncontrolled +perception that his friend's velvet band somehow added, in her +appearance, to the value of every other item--to that of her smile +and of the way she carried her head, to that of her complexion, of +her lips, her teeth, her eyes, her hair? What, certainly, had a man +conscious of a man's work in the world to do with red velvet bands? +He wouldn't for anything have so exposed himself as to tell Miss +Gostrey how much he liked hers, yet he HAD none the less not only +caught himself in the act--frivolous, no doubt, idiotic, and above +all unexpected--of liking it: he had in addition taken it as a +starting-point for fresh backward, fresh forward, fresh lateral +flights. The manner in which Mrs. Newsome's throat WAS encircled +suddenly represented for him, in an alien order, almost as many +things as the manner in which Miss Gostrey's was. Mrs. Newsome +wore, at operatic hours, a black silk dress--very handsome, he knew +it was "handsome"--and an ornament that his memory was able further +to identify as a ruche. He had his association indeed with the +ruche, but it was rather imperfectly romantic. He had once said to +the wearer--and it was as "free" a remark as he had ever made to +her--that she looked, with her ruff and other matters, like Queen +Elizabeth; and it had after this in truth been his fancy that, as a +consequence of that tenderness and an acceptance of the idea, the +form of this special tribute to the "frill" had grown slightly more +marked. The connexion, as he sat there and let his imagination +roam, was to strike him as vaguely pathetic; but there it all was, +and pathetic was doubtless in the conditions the best thing it +could possibly be. It had assuredly existed at any rate; for it +seemed now to come over him that no gentleman of his age at +Woollett could ever, to a lady of Mrs. Newsome's, which was not +much less than his, have embarked on such a simile. + +All sorts of things in fact now seemed to come over him, +comparatively few of which his chronicler can hope for space to +mention. It came over him for instance that Miss Gostrey looked +perhaps like Mary Stuart: Lambert Strether had a candour of fancy +which could rest for an instant gratified in such an antithesis. It +came over him that never before--no, literally never--had a lady +dined with him at a public place before going to the play. The +publicity of the place was just, in the matter, for Strether, the +rare strange thing; it affected him almost as the achievement of +privacy might have affected a man of a different experience. He had +married, in the far-away years, so young as to have missed the time +natural in Boston for taking girls to the Museum; and it was +absolutely true of hint that--even after the close of the period of +conscious detachment occupying the centre of his life, the grey +middle desert of the two deaths, that of his wife and that, ten +years later, of his boy--he had never taken any one anywhere. It +came over him in especial--though the monition had, as happened, +already sounded, fitfully gleamed, in other forms--that the +business he had come out on hadn't yet been so brought home to him +as by the sight of the people about him. She gave him the +impression, his friend, at first, more straight than he got it for +himself--gave it simply by saying with off-hand illumination: "Oh +yes, they're types!"--but after he had taken it he made to the full +his own use of it; both while he kept silence for the four acts and +while he talked in the intervals. It was an evening, it was a world +of types, and this was a connexion above all in which the figures +and faces in the stalls were interchangeable with those on the +stage. + +He felt as if the play itself penetrated him with the naked elbow +of his neighbour, a great stripped handsome red-haired lady who +conversed with a gentleman on her other side in stray dissyllables +which had for his ear, in the oddest way in the world, so much +sound that he wondered they hadn't more sense; and he recognised by +the same law, beyond the footlights, what he was pleased to take +for the very flush of English life. He had distracted drops in +which he couldn't have said if it were actors or auditors who were +most true, and the upshot of which, each time, was the consciousness +of new contacts. However he viewed his job it was "types" he should +have to tackle. Those before him and around him were not as the +types of Woollett, where, for that matter, it had begun to seem to +him that there must only have been the male and the female. +These made two exactly, even with the individual varieties. Here, +on the other hand, apart from the personal and the sexual range-- +which might be greater or less--a series of strong stamps had been +applied, as it were, from without; stamps that his observation +played with as, before a glass case on a table, it might have +passed from medal to medal and from copper to gold. It befell that +in the drama precisely there was a bad woman in a yellow frock who +made a pleasant weak good-looking young man in perpetual evening +dress do the most dreadful things. Strether felt himself on the +whole not afraid of the yellow frock, but he was vaguely anxious +over a certain kindness into which he found himself drifting for +its victim. He hadn't come out, he reminded himself, to be too +kind, or indeed to be kind at all, to Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad +also be in perpetual evening dress? He somehow rather hoped it--it +seemed so to add to THIS young man's general amenability; though he +wondered too if, to fight him with his own weapons, he himself (a +thought almost startling) would have likewise to be. This young man +furthermore would have been much more easy to handle--at least for +HIM--than appeared probable in respect to Chad. + +It came up for him with Miss Gostrey that there were things of +which she would really perhaps after all have heard, and she admitted +when a little pressed that she was never quite sure of what she +heard as distinguished from things such as, on occasions like +the present, she only extravagantly guessed. "I seem with this +freedom, you see, to have guessed Mr. Chad. He's a young man on +whose head high hopes are placed at Woollett; a young man a wicked +woman has got hold of and whom his family over there have sent you +out to rescue. You've accepted the mission of separating him from +the wicked woman. Are you quite sure she's very bad for him?" + +Something in his manner showed it as quite pulling him up. "Of +course we are. Wouldn't YOU be?" + +"Oh I don't know. One never does--does one?--beforehand. One can +only judge on the facts. Yours are quite new to me; I'm really not +in the least, as you see, in possession of them: so it will be +awfully interesting to have them from you. If you're satisfied, +that's all that's required. I mean if you're sure you ARE sure: +sure it won't do." + +"That he should lead such a life? Rather!" + +"Oh but I don't know, you see, about his life; you've not told me +about his life. She may be charming--his life!" + +"Charming?"--Strether stared before him. "She's base, venal-out of +the streets." + +"I see. And HE--?" + +"Chad, wretched boy?" + +"Of what type and temper is he?" she went on as Strether had +lapsed. + +"Well--the obstinate." It was as if for a moment he had been going +to say more and had then controlled himself. + +That was scarce what she wished. "Do you like him?" + +This time he was prompt. "No. How CAN I?" + +"Do you mean because of your being so saddled with him?" + +"I'm thinking of his mother," said Strether after a moment. "He has +darkened her admirable life." He spoke with austerity. "He has +worried her half to death." + +"Oh that's of course odious." She had a pause as if for renewed +emphasis of this truth, but it ended on another note. "Is her life +very admirable?" + +"Extraordinarily." + +There was so much in the tone that Miss Gostrey had to devote +another pause to the appreciation of it. "And has he only HER? I +don't mean the bad woman in Paris," she quickly added--"for I +assure you I shouldn't even at the best be disposed to allow him +more than one. But has he only his mother?" + +"He has also a sister, older than himself and married; and they're +both remarkably fine women." + +"Very handsome, you mean?" + +This promptitude--almost, as he might have thought, this +precipitation, gave him a brief drop; but he came up again. +"Mrs. Newsome, I think, is handsome, though she's not of course, +with a son of twenty-eight and a daughter of thirty, in her very +first youth. She married, however, extremely young." + +"And is wonderful," Miss Gostrey asked, "for her age?" + +Strether seemed to feel with a certain disquiet the pressure of it. +"I don't say she's wonderful. Or rather," he went on the next moment, +"I do say it. It's exactly what she IS--wonderful. But I wasn't +thinking of her appearance," he explained--"striking as that doubtless +is. I was thinking--well, of many other things." He seemed to look at +these as if to mention some of them; then took, pulling himself up, +another turn. "About Mrs. Pocock people may differ." + +"Is that the daughter's name--'Pocock'?" + +"That's the daughter's name," Strether sturdily confessed. + +"And people may differ, you mean, about HER beauty?" + +"About everything." + +"But YOU admire her?" + +He gave his friend a glance as to show how he could bear this "I'm +perhaps a little afraid of her." + +"Oh," said Miss Gostrey, "I see her from here! You may say then I +see very fast and very far, but I've already shown you I do. The +young man and the two ladies," she went on, "are at any rate all +the family?" + +"Quite all. His father has been dead ten years, and there's no +brother, nor any other sister. They'd do," said Strether, "anything +in the world for him." + +"And you'd do anything in the world for THEM?" + +He shifted again; she had made it perhaps just a shade too affirmative +for his nerves. "Oh I don't know!" + +"You'd do at any rate this, and the 'anything' they'd do is +represented by their MAKING you do it." + +"Ah they couldn't have come--either of them. They're very busy +people and Mrs. Newsome in particular has a large full life. She's +moreover highly nervous--and not at all strong." + +"You mean she's an American invalid?" + +He carefully distinguished. "There's nothing she likes less than to +be called one, but she would consent to be one of those things, I +think," he laughed, "if it were the only way to be the other." + +"Consent to be an American in order to be an invalid?" + +"No," said Strether, "the other way round. She's at any rate +delicate sensitive high-strung. She puts so much of herself into +everything--" + +Ah Maria knew these things! "That she has nothing left for anything +else? Of course she hasn't. To whom do you say it? High-strung? +Don't I spend my life, for them, jamming down the pedal? I see +moreover how it has told on you." + +Strether took this more lightly. "Oh I jam down the pedal too!" + +"Well," she lucidly returned, "we must from this moment bear on it +together with all our might." And she forged ahead. "Have they +money?" + +But it was as if, while her energetic image still held him, her +enquiry fell short. "Mrs. Newsome," he wished further to explain, +"hasn't moreover your courage on the question of contact. If she +had come it would have been to see the person herself." + +"The woman? Ah but that's courage." + +"No--it's exaltation, which is a very different thing. Courage," +he, however, accommodatingly threw out, "is what YOU have." + +She shook her head. "You say that only to patch me up--to cover the +nudity of my want of exaltation. I've neither the one nor the +other. I've mere battered indifference. I see that what you mean," +Miss Gostrey pursued, "is that if your friend HAD come she would +take great views, and the great views, to put it simply, would be +too much for her." + +Strether looked amused at her notion of the simple, but he adopted +her formula. "Everything's too much for her." + +"Ah then such a service as this of yours--" + +"Is more for her than anything else? Yes--far more. But so long as +it isn't too much for ME--!" + +"Her condition doesn't matter? Surely not; we leave her condition +out; we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her condition, as +behind and beneath you; yet at the same time I see it as bearing +you up." + +"Oh it does bear me up!" Strether laughed. + +"Well then as yours bears ME nothing more's needed." With which she +put again her question. "Has Mrs. Newsome money?" + +This time he heeded. "Oh plenty. That's the root of the evil. +There's money, to very large amounts, in the concern. Chad has had +the free use of a great deal. But if he'll pull himself together +and come home, all the same, he'll find his account in it." + +She had listened with all her interest. "And I hope to goodness +you'll find yours!" + +"He'll take up his definite material reward," said Strether without +acknowledgement of this. "He's at the parting of the ways. He can +come into the business now--he can't come later." + +"Is there a business?" + +"Lord, yes--a big brave bouncing business. A roaring trade." + +"A great shop?" + +"Yes--a workshop; a great production, a great industry. The +concern's a manufacture--and a manufacture that, if it's only +properly looked after, may well be on the way to become a monopoly. +It's a little thing they make--make better, it appears, than other +people can, or than other people, at any rate, do. Mr. Newsome, +being a man of ideas, at least in that particular line," Strether +explained, "put them on it with great effect, and gave the place +altogether, in his time, an immense lift." + +"It's a place in itself?" + +"Well, quite a number of buildings; almost a little industrial +colony. But above all it's a thing. The article produced." + +"And what IS the article produced?" + +Strether looked about him as in slight reluctance to say; then the +curtain, which he saw about to rise, came to his aid. "I'll tell +you next time." But when the next time came he only said he'd tell +her later on--after they should have left the theatre; for she had +immediately reverted to their topic, and even for himself the +picture of the stage was now overlaid with another image. His +postponements, however, made her wonder--wonder if the article +referred to were anything bad. And she explained that she meant +improper or ridiculous or wrong. But Strether, so far as that went, +could satisfy her. "Unmentionable? Oh no, we constantly talk of it; +we are quite familiar and brazen about it. Only, as a small, +trivial, rather ridiculous object of the commonest domestic use, +it's just wanting in-what shall I say? Well, dignity, or the least +approach to distinction. Right here therefore, with everything +about us so grand--!" In short he shrank. + +"It's a false note?" + +"Sadly. It's vulgar." + +"But surely not vulgarer than this." Then on his wondering as she +herself had done: "Than everything about us." She seemed a trifle +irritated. "What do you take this for?" + +"Why for--comparatively--divine! " + +"This dreadful London theatre? It's impossible, if you really want +to know." + +"Oh then," laughed Strether, "I DON'T really want to know!" + +It made between them a pause, which she, however, still fascinated +by the mystery of the production at Woollett, presently broke. +"'Rather ridiculous'? Clothes-pins? Saleratus? Shoe-polish?" + +It brought him round. "No--you don't even 'burn.' I don't think, +you know, you'll guess it." + +"How then can I judge how vulgar it is?" + +"You'll judge when I do tell you"--and he persuaded her to +patience. But it may even now frankly be mentioned that he in the +sequel never WAS to tell her. He actually never did so, and it +moreover oddly occurred that by the law, within her, of the +incalculable, her desire for the information dropped and her +attitude to the question converted itself into a positive +cultivation of ignorance. In ignorance she could humour her fancy, +and that proved a useful freedom. She could treat the little +nameless object as indeed unnameable--she could make their +abstention enormously definite. There might indeed have been for +Strether the portent of this in what she next said. + +"Is it perhaps then because it's so bad--because your industry as +you call it, IS so vulgar--that Mr. Chad won't come back? Does he +feel the taint? Is he staying away not to be mixed up in it?" + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "it wouldn't appear--would it?--that he +feels 'taints'! He's glad enough of the money from it, and the +money's his whole basis. There's appreciation in that--I mean as to +the allowance his mother has hitherto made him. She has of course +the resource of cutting this allowance off; but even then he has +unfortunately, and on no small scale, his independent supply--money +left him by his grandfather, her own father." + +"Wouldn't the fact you mention then," Miss Gostrey asked, "make it +just more easy for him to be particular? Isn't he conceivable as +fastidious about the source--the apparent and public source--of his +income?" + +Strether was able quite good-humouredly to entertain the +proposition. "The source of his grandfather's wealth--and thereby +of his own share in it--was not particularly noble." + +"And what source was it?" + +Strether cast about. "Well--practices." + +"In business? Infamies? He was an old swindler?" + +"Oh," he said with more emphasis than spirit, "I shan't describe +HIM nor narrate his exploits." + +"Lord, what abysses! And the late Mr. Newsome then?" + +"Well, what about him?" + +"Was he like the grandfather?" + +"No--he was on the other side of the house. And he was different." + +Miss Gostrey kept it up. "Better?" + +Her friend for a moment hung fire. "No." + +Her comment on his hesitation was scarce the less marked for being +mute. "Thank you. NOW don't you see," she went on, "why the boy +doesn't come home? He's drowning his shame." + +"His shame? What shame?" + +"What shame? Comment donc? THE shame." + +"But where and when," Strether asked, "is 'THE shame'--where is any +shame--to-day? The men I speak of--they did as every one does; and +(besides being ancient history) it was all a matter of appreciation." + +She showed how she understood. "Mrs. Newsome has appreciated?" + +"Ah I can't speak for HER!" + +"In the midst of such doings--and, as I understand you, profiting +by them, she at least has remained exquisite?" + +"Oh I can't talk of her!" Strether said. + +"I thought she was just what you COULD talk of. You DON'T trust +me," Miss Gostrey after a moment declared. + +It had its effect. "Well, her money is spent, her life conceived +and carried on with a large beneficence--" + +"That's a kind of expiation of wrongs? Gracious," she added before +he could speak, "how intensely you make me see her!" + +"If you see her," Strether dropped, "it's all that's necessary." + +She really seemed to have her. "I feel that. She IS, in spite of +everything, handsome." + +This at least enlivened him. "What do you mean by everything?" + +"Well, I mean YOU." With which she had one of her swift changes of +ground. "You say the concern needs looking after; but doesn't +Mrs. Newsome look after it?" + +"So far as possible. She's wonderfully able, but it's not her +affair, and her life's a good deal overcharged. She has many, +many things." + +"And you also?" + +"Oh yes--I've many too, if you will." + +"I see. But what I mean is," Miss Gostrey amended, "do you also +look after the business?" + +"Oh no, I don't touch the business." + +"Only everything else?" + +"Well, yes--some things." + +"As for instance--?" + +Strether obligingly thought. "Well, the Review." + +"The Review?--you have a Review?" + +"Certainly. Woollett has a Review--which Mrs. Newsome, for the +most part, magnificently pays for and which I, not at all +magnificently, edit. My name's on the cover," Strether pursued, +"and I'm really rather disappointed and hurt that you seem never +to have heard of it." + +She neglected for a moment this grievance. "And what kind of a +Review is it?" + +His serenity was now completely restored. "Well, it's green." + +"Do you mean in political colour as they say here--in thought?" + +"No; I mean the cover's green--of the most lovely shade." + +"And with Mrs. Newsome's name on it too?" + +He waited a little. "Oh as for that you must judge if she peeps +out. She's behind the whole thing; but she's of a delicacy and a +discretion--!" + +Miss Gostrey took it all. "I'm sure. She WOULD be. I don't +underrate her. She must be rather a swell." + +"Oh yes, she's rather a swell!" + +"A Woollett swell--bon! I like the idea of a Woollett swell. And +you must be rather one too, to be so mixed up with her." + +"Ah no," said Strether, "that's not the way it works." + +But she had already taken him up. "The way it works--you needn't +tell me!--is of course that you efface yourself." + +"With my name on the cover?" he lucidly objected. + +"Ah but you don't put it on for yourself." + +"I beg your pardon--that's exactly what I do put it on for. It's +exactly the thing that I'm reduced to doing for myself. It seems +to rescue a little, you see, from the wreck of hopes and ambitions, +the refuse-heap of disappointments and failures, my one presentable +little scrap of an identity." + +On this she looked at him as to say many things, but what she at +last simply said was: "She likes to see it there. You're the +bigger swell of the two," she immediately continued, "because you +think you're not one. She thinks she IS one. However," Miss +Gostrey added, "she thinks you're one too. You're at all events +the biggest she can get hold of." She embroidered, she abounded. +"I don't say it to interfere between you, but on the day she gets +hold of a bigger one--!" Strether had thrown back his head as in +silent mirth over something that struck him in her audacity or +felicity, and her flight meanwhile was already higher. "Therefore +close with her--!" + +"Close with her?" he asked as she seemed to hang poised. + +"Before you lose your chance." + +Their eyes met over it. "What do you mean by closing?" + +"And what do I mean by your chance? I'll tell you when you tell me +all the things YOU don't. Is it her GREATEST fad?" she briskly +pursued. + +"The Review?" He seemed to wonder how he could best describe it. +This resulted however but in a sketch. "It's her tribute to the +ideal." + +"I see. You go in for tremendous things." + +"We go in for the unpopular side--that is so far as we dare." + +"And how far DO you dare?" + +"Well, she very far. I much less. I don't begin to have her faith. +She provides," said Strether, "three fourths of that. And she +provides, as I've confided to you, ALL the money." + +It evoked somehow a vision of gold that held for a little Miss +Gostrey's eyes, and she looked as if she heard the bright dollars +shovelled in. "I hope then you make a good thing--" + +"I NEVER made a good thing!" he at once returned. + +She just waited. "Don't you call it a good thing to be loved?" + +"Oh we're not loved. We're not even hated. We're only just sweetly +ignored." + +She had another pause. "You don't trust me!" she once more repeated. + +"Don't I when I lift the last veil?--tell you the very secret of +the prison-house?" + +Again she met his eyes, but to the result that after an instant +her own turned away with impatience. "You don't sell? Oh I'm glad +of THAT!" After which however, and before he could protest, she was +off again. "She's just a MORAL swell." + +He accepted gaily enough the definition. "Yes--I really think that +describes her." + +But it had for his friend the oddest connexion. "How does she do +her hair?" + +He laughed out. "Beautifully!" + +"Ah that doesn't tell me. However, it doesn't matter--I know. It's +tremendously neat--a real reproach; quite remarkably thick and +without, as yet, a single strand of white. There!" + +He blushed for her realism, but gaped at her truth. "You're the +very deuce." + +"What else SHOULD I be? It was as the very deuce I pounced on you. +But don't let it trouble you, for everything but the very deuce-- +at our age--is a bore and a delusion, and even he himself, after all, +but half a joy." With which, on a single sweep of her wing, she +resumed. "You assist her to expiate--which is rather hard when +you've yourself not sinned." + +"It's she who hasn't sinned," Strether replied. "I've sinned the +most." + +"Ah," Miss Gostrey cynically laughed, "what a picture of HER! +Have you robbed the widow and the orphan?" + +"I've sinned enough," said Strether. + +"Enough for whom? Enough for what?" + +"Well, to be where I am." + +"Thank you!" They were disturbed at this moment by the passage +between their knees and the back of the seats before them of a +gentleman who had been absent during a part of the performance and +who now returned for the close; but the interruption left Miss +Gostrey time, before the subsequent hush, to express as a sharp +finality her sense of the moral of all their talk. "I knew you had +something up your sleeve!" This finality, however, left them in its +turn, at the end of the play, as disposed to hang back as if they +had still much to say; so that they easily agreed to let every one +go before them--they found an interest in waiting. They made out +from the lobby that the night had turned to rain; yet Miss Gostrey +let her friend know that he wasn't to see her home. He was simply +to put her, by herself, into a four-wheeler; she liked so in +London, of wet nights after wild pleasures, thinking things over, +on the return, in lonely four-wheelers. This was her great time, +she intimated, for pulling herself together. The delays caused by +the weather, the struggle for vehicles at the door, gave them +occasion to subside on a divan at the back of the vestibule and +just beyond the reach of the fresh damp gusts from the street. Here +Strether's comrade resumed that free handling of the subject to +which his own imagination of it already owed so much. "Does your +young friend in Paris like you?" + +It had almost, after the interval, startled him. "Oh I hope not! +Why SHOULD he?" + +"Why shouldn't he?" Miss Gostrey asked. "That you're coming down on +him need have nothing to do with it." + +"You see more in it," he presently returned, "than I." + +"Of course I see you in it." + +"Well then you see more in 'me'!" + +"Than you see in yourself? Very likely. That's always one's right. +What I was thinking of," she explained, "is the possible particular +effect on him of his milieu." + +"Oh his milieu--!" Strether really felt he could imagine it better +now than three hours before. + +"Do you mean it can only have been so lowering?" + +"Why that's my very starting-point." + +"Yes, but you start so far back. What do his letters say?" + +"Nothing. He practically ignores us--or spares us. He doesn't +write." + +"I see. But there are all the same," she went on, "two quite +distinct things that--given the wonderful place he's in--may have +happened to him. One is that he may have got brutalised. The other +is that he may have got refined." + +Strether stared--this WAS a novelty. "Refined?" + +"Oh," she said quietly, "there ARE refinements." + +The way of it made him, after looking at her, break into a laugh. +"YOU have them!" + +"As one of the signs," she continued in the same tone, "they +constitute perhaps the worst." + +He thought it over and his gravity returned. "Is it a refinement +not to answer his mother's letters?" + +She appeared to have a scruple, but she brought it out. "Oh I +should say the greatest of all." + +"Well," said Strether, "I'M quite content to let it, as one of the +signs, pass for the worst that I know he believes he can do what he +likes with me." + +This appeared to strike her. "How do you know it?" + +"Oh I'm sure of it. I feel it in my bones." + +"Feel he CAN do it?" + +"Feel that he believes he can. It may come to the same thing!" +Strether laughed. + +She wouldn't, however, have this. "Nothing for you will ever come +to the same thing as anything else." And she understood what she +meant, it seemed, sufficiently to go straight on. "You say that if +he does break he'll come in for things at home?" + +"Quite positively. He'll come in for a particular chance--a chance +that any properly constituted young man would jump at. The +business has so developed that an opening scarcely apparent three +years ago, but which his father's will took account of as in +certain conditions possible and which, under that will, attaches +to Chad's availing himself of it a large contingent advantage-- +this opening, the conditions having come about, now simply awaits +him. His mother has kept it for him, holding out against strong +pressure, till the last possible moment. It requires, naturally, +as it carries with it a handsome 'part,' a large share in profits, +his being on the spot and making a big effort for a big result. +That's what I mean by his chance. If he misses it he comes in, as +you say, for nothing. And to see that he doesn't miss it is, in a +word, what I've come out for." + +She let it all sink in. "What you've come out for then is simply +to render him an immense service." + +Well, poor Strether was willing to take it so. "Ah if you like." + +"He stands, as they say, if you succeed with him, to gain--" + +"Oh a lot of advantages." Strether had them clearly at his +fingers' ends. + +"By which you mean of course a lot of money." + +"Well, not only. I'm acting with a sense for him of other things +too. Consideration and comfort and security--the general safety of +being anchored by a strong chain. He wants, as I see him, to be +protected. Protected I mean from life." + +"Ah voila!"--her thought fitted with a click. "From life. What you +REALLY want to get him home for is to marry him." + +"Well, that's about the size of it." + +"Of course," she said, "it's rudimentary. But to any one in +particular?" + +He smiled at this, looking a little more conscious. "You get +everything out." + +For a moment again their eyes met. "You put everything in!" + +He acknowledged the tribute by telling her. "To Mamie Pocock." + +She wondered; then gravely, even exquisitely, as if to make the +oddity also fit: "His own niece?" + +"Oh you must yourself find a name for the relation. His +brother-in-law's sister. Mrs. Jim's sister-in-law." + +It seemed to have on Miss Gostrey a certain hardening effect. "And +who in the world's Mrs. Jim?" + +"Chad's sister--who was Sarah Newsome. She's married--didn't I +mention it?--to Jim Pocock." + +"Ah yes," she tacitly replied; but he had mentioned things--! +Then, however, with all the sound it could have, "Who in the +world's Jim Pocock?" she asked. + +"Why Sally's husband. That's the only way we distinguish people at +Woollett," he good-humoredly explained. + +"And is it a great distinction--being Sally's husband?" + +He considered. "I think there can be scarcely a greater--unless it +may become one, in the future, to be Chad's wife." + +"Then how do they distinguish YOU?" + +"They DON'T--except, as I've told you, by the green cover." + +Once more their eyes met on it, and she held him an instant. "The +green cover won't--nor will ANY cover--avail you with ME. You're +of a depth of duplicity!" Still, she could in her own large grasp +of the real condone it. "Is Mamie a great parti?" + +"Oh the greatest we have--our prettiest brightest girl." + +Miss Gostrey seemed to fix the poor child. "I know what they CAN +be. And with money?" + +"Not perhaps with a great deal of that--but with so much of +everything else that we don't miss it. We DON'T miss money much, +you know," Strether added, "in general, in America, in pretty +girls." + +"No," she conceded; "but I know also what you do sometimes miss. +And do you," she asked, "yourself admire her?" + +It was a question, he indicated, that there might be several ways +of taking; but he decided after an instant for the humorous. +"Haven't I sufficiently showed you how I admire ANY pretty girl?'; + +Her interest in his problem was by this time such that it scarce +left her freedom, and she kept close to the facts. "I supposed +that at Woollett you wanted them--what shall I call it?-- +blameless. I mean your young men for your pretty girls." + +"So did I!" Strether confessed. "But you strike there a curious +fact--the fact that Woollett too accommodates itself to the spirit +of the age and the increasing mildness of manners. Everything +changes, and I hold that our situation precisely marks a date. We +SHOULD prefer them blameless, but we have to make the best of them +as we find them. Since the spirit of the age and the increasing +mildness send them so much more to Paris--" + +"You've to take them back as they come. When they DO come. Bon!" +Once more she embraced it all, but she had a moment of thought. +"Poor Chad!" + +"Ah," said Strether cheerfully "Mamie will save him!" + +She was looking away, still in her vision, and she spoke with +impatience and almost as if he hadn't understood her. "YOU'LL save +him. That's who'll save him." + +"Oh but with Mamie's aid. Unless indeed you mean," he added, "that +I shall effect so much more with yours!" + +It made her at last again look at him. "You'll do more--as you're +so much better--than all of us put together." + +"I think I'm only better since I've known YOU!" Strether bravely +returned. + +The depletion of the place, the shrinkage of the crowd and now +comparatively quiet withdrawal of its last elements had already +brought them nearer the door and put them in relation with a +messenger of whom he bespoke Miss Gostrey's cab. But this left +them a few minutes more, which she was clearly in no mood not to +use. "You've spoken to me of what--by your success--Mr. Chad +stands to gain. But you've not spoken to me of what you do." + +"Oh I've nothing more to gain," said Strether very simply. + +She took it as even quite too simple. "You mean you've got it all +'down'? You've been paid in advance?" + +"Ah don't talk about payment!" he groaned. + +Something in the tone of it pulled her up, but as their messenger +still delayed she had another chance and she put it in another +way. "What--by failure--do you stand to lose?" + +He still, however, wouldn't have it. "Nothing!" he exclaimed, and +on the messenger's at this instant reappearing he was able to sink +the subject in their responsive advance. When, a few steps up the +street, under a lamp, he had put her into her four-wheeler and she +had asked him if the man had called for him no second conveyance, +he replied before the door was closed. "You won't take me with +you?" + +"Not for the world." + +"Then I shall walk." + +"In the rain?" + +"I like the rain," said Strether. "Good-night!" + +She kept him a moment, while his hand was on the door, by not +answering; after which she answered by repeating her question. +"What do you stand to lose?" + +Why the question now affected him as other he couldn't have said; +he could only this time meet it otherwise. "Everything." + +"So I thought. Then you shall succeed. And to that end I'm yours--" + +"Ah, dear lady!" he kindly breathed. + +"Till death!" said Maria Gostrey. "Good-night." + + + +II + + +Strether called, his second morning in Paris, on the bankers of +the Rue Scribe to whom his letter of credit was addressed, and he +made this visit attended by Waymarsh, in whose company he had +crossed from London two days before. They had hastened to the Rue +Scribe on the morrow of their arrival, but Strether had not then +found the letters the hope of which prompted this errand. He had +had as yet none at all; hadn't expected them in London, but had +counted on several in Paris, and, disconcerted now, had presently +strolled back to the Boulevard with a sense of injury that he felt +himself taking for as good a start as any other. It would serve, +this spur to his spirit, he reflected, as, pausing at the top of +the street, he looked up and down the great foreign avenue, it +would serve to begin business with. His idea was to begin business +immediately, and it did much for him the rest of his day that the +beginning of business awaited him. He did little else till night +but ask himself what he should do if he hadn't fortunately had so +much to do; but he put himself the question in many different +situations and connexions. What carried him hither and yon was an +admirable theory that nothing he could do wouldn't be in some +manner related to what he fundamentally had on hand, or WOULD be-- +should he happen to have a scruple--wasted for it. He did happen +to have a scruple--a scruple about taking no definite step till he +should get letters; but this reasoning carried it off. A single +day to feel his feet--he had felt them as yet only at Chester and +in London--was he could consider, none too much; and having, as he +had often privately expressed it, Paris to reckon with, he threw +these hours of freshness consciously into the reckoning. They made +it continually greater, but that was what it had best be if it was +to be anything at all, and he gave himself up till far into the +evening, at the theatre and on the return, after the theatre, +along the bright congested Boulevard, to feeling it grow. Waymarsh +had accompanied him this time to the play, and the two men had +walked together, as a first stage, from the Gymnase to the Cafe +Riche, into the crowded "terrace" of which establishment--the +night, or rather the morning, for midnight had struck, being bland +and populous--they had wedged themselves for refreshment. +Waymarsh, as a result of some discussion with his friend, had made +a marked virtue of his having now let himself go; and there had +been elements of impression in their half-hour over their watered +beer-glasses that gave him his occasion for conveying that he held +this compromise with his stiffer self to have become extreme. He +conveyed it--for it was still, after all, his stiffer self who +gloomed out of the glare of the terrace--in solemn silence; and +there was indeed a great deal of critical silence, every way, +between the companions, even till they gained the Place de l'Opera, +as to the character of their nocturnal progress. + +This morning there WERE letters--letters which had reached London, +apparently all together, the day of Strether's journey, and had +taken their time to follow him; so that, after a controlled +impulse to go into them in the reception-room of the bank, which, +reminding him of the post-office at Woollett, affected him as the +abutment of some transatlantic bridge, he slipped them into the +pocket of his loose grey overcoat with a sense of the felicity of +carrying them off. Waymarsh, who had had letters yesterday, had +had them again to-day, and Waymarsh suggested in this particular +no controlled impulses. The last one he was at all events likely +to be observed to struggle with was clearly that of bringing to a +premature close any visit to the Rue Scribe. Strether had left him +there yesterday; he wanted to see the papers, and he had spent, by +what his friend could make out, a succession of hours with the +papers. He spoke of the establishment, with emphasis, as a post of +superior observation; just as he spoke generally of his actual +damnable doom as a device for hiding from him what was going on. +Europe was best described, to his mind, as an elaborate engine for +dissociating the confined American from that indispensable +knowledge, and was accordingly only rendered bearable by these +occasional stations of relief, traps for the arrest of wandering +western airs. Strether, on his side, set himself to walk again--he +had his relief in his pocket; and indeed, much as he had desired +his budget, the growth of restlessness might have been marked in +him from the moment he had assured himself of the superscription +of most of the missives it contained. This restlessness became +therefore his temporary law; he knew he should recognise as soon +as see it the best place of all for settling down with his chief +correspondent. He had for the next hour an accidental air of +looking for it in the windows of shops; he came down the Rue de la +Paix in the sun and, passing across the Tuileries and the river, +indulged more than once--as if on finding himself determined--in a +sudden pause before the book-stalls of the opposite quay. In the +garden of the Tuileries he had lingered, on two or three spots, to +look; it was as if the wonderful Paris spring had stayed him as he +roamed. The prompt Paris morning struck its cheerful notes--in a +soft breeze and a sprinkled smell, in the light flit, over the +garden-floor, of bareheaded girls with the buckled strap of oblong +boxes, in the type of ancient thrifty persons basking betimes +where terrace-walls were warm, in the blue-frocked brass-labelled +officialism of humble rakers and scrapers, in the deep references +of a straight-pacing priest or the sharp ones of a white-gaitered +red-legged soldier. He watched little brisk figures, figures whose +movement was as the tick of the great Paris clock, take their +smooth diagonal from point to point; the air had a taste as of +something mixed with art, something that presented nature as a +white-capped master-chef. The palace was gone, Strether remembered +the palace; and when he gazed into the irremediable void of its +site the historic sense in him might have been freely at play--the +play under which in Paris indeed it so often winces like a touched +nerve. He filled out spaces with dim symbols of scenes; he caught +the gleam of white statues at the base of which, with his letters +out, he could tilt back a straw-bottomed chair. But his drift was, +for reasons, to the other side, and it floated him unspent up the +Rue de Seine and as far as the Luxembourg. In the Luxembourg +Gardens he pulled up; here at last he found his nook, and here, on +a penny chair from which terraces, alleys, vistas, fountains, +little trees in green tubs, little women in white caps and shrill +little girls at play all sunnily "composed" together, he passed an +hour in which the cup of his impressions seemed truly to overflow. +But a week had elapsed since he quitted the ship, and there were +more things in his mind than so few days could account for. More +than once, during the time, he had regarded himself as admonished; +but the admonition this morning was formidably sharp. It took as +it hadn't done yet the form of a question--the question of what he +was doing with such an extraordinary sense of escape. This sense +was sharpest after he had read his letters, but that was also +precisely why the question pressed. Four of the letters were from +Mrs. Newsome and none of them short; she had lost no time, had +followed on his heels while he moved, so expressing herself that +he now could measure the probable frequency with which he should +hear. They would arrive, it would seem, her communications, at the +rate of several a week; he should be able to count, it might even +prove, on more than one by each mail. If he had begun yesterday +with a small grievance he had therefore an opportunity to begin +to-day with its opposite. He read the letters successively and +slowly, putting others back into his pocket but keeping these for +a long time afterwards gathered in his lap. He held them there, +lost in thought, as if to prolong the presence of what they gave +him; or as if at the least to assure them their part in the +constitution of some lucidity. His friend wrote admirably, and her +tone was even more in her style than in her voice--he might +almost, for the hour, have had to come this distance to get its +full carrying quality; yet the plentitude of his consciousness of +difference consorted perfectly with the deepened intensity of the +connexion. It was the difference, the difference of being just +where he was and AS he was, that formed the escape--this +difference was so much greater than he had dreamed it would be; +and what he finally sat there turning over was the strange logic +of his finding himself so free. He felt it in a manner his duty to +think out his state, to approve the process, and when he came in +fact to trace the steps and add up the items they sufficiently +accounted for the sum. He had never expected--that was the truth +of it--again to find himself young, and all the years and other +things it had taken to make him so were exactly his present +arithmetic. He had to make sure of them to put his scruple to +rest. + +It all sprang at bottom from the beauty of Mrs. Newsome's desire +that he should be worried with nothing that was not of the essence +of his task; by insisting that he should thoroughly intermit and +break she had so provided for his freedom that she would, as it +were, have only herself to thank. Strether could not at this point +indeed have completed his thought by the image of what she might +have to thank herself FOR: the image, at best, of his own +likeness-poor Lambert Strether washed up on the sunny strand by +the waves of a single day, poor Lambert Strether thankful for +breathing-time and stiffening himself while he gasped. There he +was, and with nothing in his aspect or his posture to scandalise: +it was only true that if he had seen Mrs. Newsome coming he would +instinctively have jumped up to walk away a little. He would have +come round and back to her bravely, but he would have had first to +pull himself together. She abounded in news of the situation at +home, proved to him how perfectly she was arranging for his +absence, told him who would take up this and who take up that +exactly where he had left it, gave him in fact chapter and verse +for the moral that nothing would suffer. It filled for him, this +tone of hers, all the air; yet it struck him at the same time as +the hum of vain things. This latter effect was what he tried to +justify--and with the success that, grave though the appearance, +he at last lighted on a form that was happy. He arrived at it by +the inevitable recognition of his having been a fortnight before +one of the weariest of men. If ever a man had come off tired +Lambert Strether was that man; and hadn't it been distinctly on +the ground of his fatigue that his wonderful friend at home had so +felt for him and so contrived? It seemed to him somehow at these +instants that, could he only maintain with sufficient firmness his +grasp of that truth, it might become in a manner his compass and +his helm. What he wanted most was some idea that would simplify, +and nothing would do this so much as the fact that he was done for +and finished. If it had been in such a light that he had just +detected in his cup the dregs of youth, that was a mere flaw of +the surface of his scheme. He was so distinctly fagged-out that it +must serve precisely as his convenience, and if he could but +consistently be good for little enough he might do everything he +wanted. + +Everything he wanted was comprised moreover in a single boon--the +common unattainable art of taking things as they came. He appeared +to himself to have given his best years to an active appreciation +of the way they didn't come; but perhaps--as they would seemingly +here be things quite other--this long ache might at last drop to +rest. He could easily see that from the moment he should accept +the notion of his foredoomed collapse the last thing he would lack +would be reasons and memories. Oh if he SHOULD do the sum no slate +would hold the figures! The fact that he had failed, as he +considered, in everything, in each relation and in half a dozen +trades, as he liked luxuriously to put it, might have made, might +still make, for an empty present; but it stood solidly for a +crowded past. It had not been, so much achievement missed, a light +yoke nor a short load.[sic] It was at present as if the backward +picture had hung there, the long crooked course, grey in the +shadow of his solitude. It had been a dreadful cheerful sociable +solitude, a solitude of life or choice, of community; but though +there had been people enough all round it there had been but three +or four persons IN it. Waymarsh was one of these, and the fact +struck him just now as marking the record. Mrs. Newsome was +another, and Miss Gostrey had of a sudden shown signs of becoming +a third. Beyond, behind them was the pale figure of his real +youth, which held against its breast the two presences paler than +itself--the young wife he had early lost and the young son he had +stupidly sacrificed. He had again and again made out for himself +that he might have kept his little boy, his little dull boy who +had died at school of rapid diphtheria, if he had not in those +years so insanely given himself to merely missing the mother. It +was the soreness of his remorse that the child had in all +likelihood not really been dull--had been dull, as he had been +banished and neglected, mainly because the father had been +unwittingly selfish. This was doubtless but the secret habit of +sorrow, which had slowly given way to time; yet there remained an +ache sharp enough to make the spirit, at the sight now and again +of some fair young man just growing up, wince with the thought of +an opportunity lost. Had ever a man, he had finally fallen into +the way of asking himself, lost so much and even done so much for +so little? There had been particular reasons why all yesterday, +beyond other days, he should have had in one ear this cold +enquiry. His name on the green cover, where he had put it for Mrs. +Newsome, expressed him doubtless just enough to make the world-- +the world as distinguished, both for more and for less, from +Woollett--ask who he was. He had incurred the ridicule of having +to have his explanation explained. He was Lambert Strether because +he was on the cover, whereas it should have been, for anything +like glory, that he was on the cover because he was Lambert +Strether. He would have done anything for Mrs. Newsome, have been +still more ridiculous--as he might, for that matter, have occasion +to be yet; which came to saying that this acceptance of fate was +all he had to show at fifty-five. + +He judged the quantity as small because it WAS small, and all the +more egregiously since it couldn't, as he saw the case, so much as +thinkably have been larger. He hadn't had the gift of making the +most of what he tried, and if he had tried and tried again--no one +but himself knew how often--it appeared to have been that he might +demonstrate what else, in default of that, COULD be made. Old +ghosts of experiments came back to him, old drudgeries and +delusions, and disgusts, old recoveries with their relapses, old +fevers with their chills, broken moments of good faith, others of +still better doubt; adventures, for the most part, of the sort +qualified as lessons. The special spring that had constantly +played for him the day before was the recognition--frequent enough +to surprise him--of the promises to himself that he had after his +other visit never kept. The reminiscence to-day most quickened for +him was that of the vow taken in the course of the pilgrimage +that, newly-married, with the War just over, and helplessly young +in spite of it, he had recklessly made with the creature who was +so much younger still. It had been a bold dash, for which they had +taken money set apart for necessities, but kept sacred at the +moment in a hundred ways, and in none more so than by this private +pledge of his own to treat the occasion as a relation formed with +the higher culture and see that, as they said at Woollett, it +should bear a good harvest. He had believed, sailing home again, +that he had gained something great, and his theory--with an +elaborate innocent plan of reading, digesting, coming back even, +every few years--had then been to preserve, cherish and extend it. +As such plans as these had come to nothing, however, in respect to +acquisitions still more precious, it was doubtless little enough +of a marvel that he should have lost account of that handful of +seed. Buried for long years in dark corners at any rate these few +germs had sprouted again under forty-eight hours of Paris. The +process of yesterday had really been the process of feeling the +general stirred life of connexions long since individually +dropped. Strether had become acquainted even on this ground with +short gusts of speculation--sudden flights of fancy in Louvre +galleries, hungry gazes through clear plates behind which +lemon-coloured volumes were as fresh as fruit on the tree. + +There were instants at which he could ask whether, since there had +been fundamentally so little question of his keeping anything, the +fate after all decreed for him hadn't been only to BE kept. Kept +for something, in that event, that he didn't pretend, didn't +possibly dare as yet to divine; something that made him hover and +wonder and laugh and sigh, made him advance and retreat, feeling +half ashamed of his impulse to plunge and more than half afraid of +his impulse to wait. He remembered for instance how he had gone +back in the sixties with lemon-coloured volumes in general on the +brain as well as with a dozen--selected for his wife too--in his +trunk; and nothing had at the moment shown more confidence than +this invocation of the finer taste. They were still somewhere at +home, the dozen--stale and soiled and never sent to the binder; +but what had become of the sharp initiation they represented? They +represented now the mere sallow paint on the door of the temple of +taste that he had dreamed of raising up--a structure he had +practically never carried further. Strether's present highest +flights were perhaps those in which this particular lapse figured +to him as a symbol, a symbol of his long grind and his want of odd +moments, his want moreover of money, of opportunity, of positive +dignity. That the memory of the vow of his youth should, in order +to throb again, have had to wait for this last, as he felt it, of +all his accidents--that was surely proof enough of how his +conscience had been encumbered. If any further proof were needed +it would have been to be found in the fact that, as he perfectly +now saw, he had ceased even to measure his meagreness, a +meagreness that sprawled, in this retrospect, vague and +comprehensive, stretching back like some unmapped Hinterland from +a rough coast-settlement. His conscience had been amusing itself +for the forty-eight hours by forbidding him the purchase of a +book; he held off from that, held off from everything; from the +moment he didn't yet call on Chad he wouldn't for the world have +taken any other step. On this evidence, however, of the way they +actually affected him he glared at the lemon-coloured covers in +confession of the subconsciousness that, all the same, in the +great desert of the years, he must have had of them. The green +covers at home comprised, by the law of their purpose, no tribute +to letters; it was of a mere rich kernel of economics, politics, +ethics that, glazed and, as Mrs. Newsome maintained rather against +HIS view, pre-eminently pleasant to touch, they formed the +specious shell. Without therefore any needed instinctive knowledge +of what was coming out, in Paris, on the bright highway, he struck +himself at present as having more than once flushed with a +suspicion: he couldn't otherwise at present be feeling so many +fears confirmed. There were "movements" he was too late for: +weren't they, with the fun of them, already spent? There were +sequences he had missed and great gaps in the procession: he might +have been watching it all recede in a golden cloud of dust. If the +playhouse wasn't closed his seat had at least fallen to somebody +else. He had had an uneasy feeling the night before that if he was +at the theatre at all--though he indeed justified the theatre, in +the specific sense, and with a grotesqueness to which his +imagination did all honour, as something he owed poor Waymarsh--he +should have been there with, and as might have been said, FOR +Chad. + +This suggested the question of whether he could properly have +taken him to such a play, and what effect--it was a point that +suddenly rose--his peculiar responsibility might be held in +general to have on his choice of entertainment. It had literally +been present to him at the Gymnase--where one was held moreover +comparatively safe--that having his young friend at his side would +have been an odd feature of the work of redemption; and this quite +in spite of the fact that the picture presented might well, +confronted with Chad's own private stage, have seemed the pattern +of propriety. He clearly hadn't come out in the name of propriety +but to visit unattended equivocal performances; yet still less had +he done so to undermine his authority by sharing them with the +graceless youth. Was he to renounce all amusement for the sweet +sake of that authority? and WOULD such renouncement give him for +Chad a moral glamour? The little problem bristled the more by +reason of poor Strether's fairly open sense of the irony of +things. Were there then sides on which his predicament threatened +to look rather droll to him? Should he have to pretend to believe-- +either to himself or the wretched boy--that there was anything +that could make the latter worse? Wasn't some such pretence on the +other hand involved in the assumption of possible processes that +would make him better? His greatest uneasiness seemed to peep at +him out of the imminent impression that almost any acceptance of +Paris might give one's authority away. It hung before him this +morning, the vast bright Babylon, like some huge iridescent +object, a jewel brilliant and hard, in which parts were not to be +discriminated nor differences comfortably marked. It twinkled and +trembled and melted together, and what seemed all surface one +moment seemed all depth the next. It was a place of which, +unmistakeably, Chad was fond; wherefore if he, Strether, should +like it too much, what on earth, with such a bond, would become of +either of them? It all depended of course--which was a gleam of +light--on how the "too much" was measured; though indeed our +friend fairly felt, while he prolonged the meditation I describe, +that for himself even already a certain measure had been reached. +It will have been sufficiently seen that he was not a man to +neglect any good chance for reflexion. Was it at all possible for +instance to like Paris enough without liking it too much? He +luckily however hadn't promised Mrs. Newsome not to like it at +all. He was ready to recognise at this stage that such an +engagement WOULD have tied his hands. The Luxembourg Gardens were +incontestably just so adorable at this hour by reason--in addition +to their intrinsic charm--of his not having taken it. The only +engagement he had taken, when he looked the thing in the face, was +to do what he reasonably could. + +It upset him a little none the less and after a while to find +himself at last remembering on what current of association he had +been floated so far. Old imaginations of the Latin Quarter had +played their part for him, and he had duly recalled its having +been with this scene of rather ominous legend that, like so many +young men in fiction as well as in fact, Chad had begun. He was +now quite out of it, with his "home," as Strether figured the +place, in the Boulevard Malesherbes; which was perhaps why, +repairing, not to fail of justice either, to the elder +neighbourhood, our friend had felt he could allow for the element +of the usual, the immemorial, without courting perturbation. He +was not at least in danger of seeing the youth and the particular +Person flaunt by together; and yet he was in the very air of +which--just to feel what the early natural note must have been--he +wished most to take counsel. It became at once vivid to him that +he had originally had, for a few days, an almost envious vision of +the boy's romantic privilege. Melancholy Murger, with Francine and +Musette and Rodolphe, at home, in the company of the tattered, +one--if he not in his single self two or three--of the unbound, +the paper-covered dozen on the shelf; and when Chad had written, +five years ago, after a sojourn then already prolonged to six +months, that he had decided to go in for economy and the real +thing, Strether's fancy had quite fondly accompanied him in this +migration, which was to convey him, as they somewhat confusedly +learned at Woollett, across the bridges and up the Montagne +Sainte-Genevieve. This was the region--Chad had been quite +distinct about it--in which the best French, and many other +things, were to be learned at least cost, and in which all sorts +of clever fellows, compatriots there for a purpose, formed an +awfully pleasant set. The clever fellows, the friendly countrymen +were mainly young painters, sculptors, architects, medical +students; but they were, Chad sagely opined, a much more +profitable lot to be with--even on the footing of not being quite +one of them--than the "terrible toughs" (Strether remembered the +edifying discrimination) of the American bars and banks +roundabout the Opera. Chad had thrown out, in the communications +following this one--for at that time he did once in a while +communicate--that several members of a band of earnest workers +under one of the great artists had taken him right in, making him +dine every night, almost for nothing, at their place, and even +pressing him not to neglect the hypothesis of there being as much +"in him" as in any of them. There had been literally a moment at +which it appeared there might be something in him; there had been +at any rate a moment at which he had written that he didn't know +but what a month or two more might see him enrolled in some +atelier. The season had been one at which Mrs. Newsome was moved +to gratitude for small mercies; it had broken on them all as a +blessing that their absentee HAD perhaps a conscience--that he was +sated in fine with idleness, was ambitious of variety. The +exhibition was doubtless as yet not brilliant, but Strether +himself, even by that time much enlisted and immersed, had +determined, on the part of the two ladies, a temperate approval +and in fact, as he now recollected, a certain austere enthusiasm. + +But the very next thing that happened had been a dark drop of the +curtain. The son and brother had not browsed long on the Montagne +Sainte-Genevieve--his effective little use of the name of which, +like his allusion to the best French, appeared to have been but +one of the notes of his rough cunning. The light refreshment of +these vain appearances had not accordingly carried any of them +very far. On the other hand it had gained Chad time; it had given +him a chance, unchecked, to strike his roots, had paved the way +for initiations more direct and more deep. It was Strether's +belief that he had been comparatively innocent before this first +migration, and even that the first effects of the migration would +not have been, without some particular bad accident, to have been +deplored. There had been three months--he had sufficiently figured +it out--in which Chad had wanted to try. He HAD tried, though not +very hard--he had had his little hour of good faith. The weakness +of this principle in him was that almost any accident attestedly +bad enough was stronger. Such had at any rate markedly been the +case for the precipitation of a special series of impressions. +They had proved, successively, these impressions--all of Musette +and Francine, but Musette and Francine vulgarised by the larger +evolution of the type--irresistibly sharp: he had "taken up," by +what was at the time to be shrinkingly gathered, as it was scantly +mentioned, with one ferociously "interested" little person after +another. Strether had read somewhere of a Latin motto, a +description of the hours, observed on a clock by a traveller in +Spain; and he had been led to apply it in thought to Chad's number +one, number two, number three. Omnes vulnerant, ultima necat--they +had all morally wounded, the last had morally killed. The last had +been longest in possession--in possession, that is, of whatever +was left of the poor boy's finer mortality. And it hadn't been +she, it had been one of her early predecessors, who had determined +the second migration, the expensive return and relapse, the +exchange again, as was fairly to be presumed, of the vaunted best +French for some special variety of the worst. + +He pulled himself then at last together for his own progress back; +not with the feeling that he had taken his walk in vain. He +prolonged it a little, in the immediate neighbourhood, after he +had quitted his chair; and the upshot of the whole morning for him +was that his campaign had begun. He had wanted to put himself in +relation, and he would be hanged if he were NOT in relation. He +was that at no moment so much as while, under the old arches of +the Odeon, he lingered before the charming open-air array of +literature classic and casual. He found the effect of tone and +tint, in the long charged tables and shelves, delicate and +appetising; the impression--substituting one kind of low-priced +consommation for another--might have been that of one of the +pleasant cafes that overlapped, under an awning, to the pavement; +but he edged along, grazing the tables, with his hands firmly +behind him. He wasn't there to dip, to consume--he was there to +reconstruct. He wasn't there for his own profit--not, that is, the +direct; he was there on some chance of feeling the brush of the +wing of the stray spirit of youth. He felt it in fact, he had it +beside him; the old arcade indeed, as his inner sense listened, +gave out the faint sound, as from far off, of the wild waving of +wings. They were folded now over the breasts of buried generations; +but a flutter or two lived again in the turned page of shock-headed +slouch-hatted loiterers whose young intensity of type, in the direction +of pale acuteness, deepened his vision, and even his appreciation, +of racial differences, and whose manipulation of the uncut volume was +too often, however, but a listening at closed doors. He reconstructed +a possible groping Chad of three or four years before, a Chad who had, +after all, simply--for that was the only way to see it--been too vulgar +for his privilege. Surely it WAS a privilege to have been young and +happy just there. Well, the best thing Strether knew of him was that +he had had such a dream. + +But his own actual business half an hour later was with a third +floor on the Boulevard Malesherbes--so much as that was definite; +and the fact of the enjoyment by the third-floor windows of a +continuous balcony, to which he was helped by this knowledge, had +perhaps something to do with his lingering for five minutes on the +opposite side of the street. There were points as to which he had +quite made up his mind, and one of these bore precisely on the +wisdom of the abruptness to which events had finally committed him, +a policy that he was pleased to find not at all shaken as he now +looked at his watch and wondered. He HAD announced himself--six +months before; had written out at least that Chad wasn't to be +surprised should he see him some day turn up. Chad had thereupon, +in a few words of rather carefully colourless answer, offered him a +general welcome; and Strether, ruefully reflecting that he might +have understood the warning as a hint to hospitality, a bid for an +invitation, had fallen back upon silence as the corrective most to +his own taste. He had asked Mrs. Newsome moreover not to announce +him again; he had so distinct an opinion on his attacking his job, +should he attack it at all, in his own way. Not the least of this +lady's high merits for him was that he could absolutely rest on her +word. She was the only woman he had known, even at Woollett, as to +whom his conviction was positive that to lie was beyond her art. +Sarah Pocock, for instance, her own daughter, though with social +ideals, as they said, in some respects different--Sarah who WAS, in +her way, aesthetic, had never refused to human commerce that +mitigation of rigour; there were occasions when he had distinctly +seen her apply it. Since, accordingly, at all events, he had had it +from Mrs. Newsome that she had, at whatever cost to her more +strenuous view, conformed, in the matter of preparing Chad, wholly +to his restrictions, he now looked up at the fine continuous +balcony with a safe sense that if the case had been bungled the +mistake was at least his property. Was there perhaps just a +suspicion of that in his present pause on the edge of the Boulevard +and well in the pleasant light? + +Many things came over him here, and one of them was that he should +doubtless presently know whether he had been shallow or sharp. +Another was that the balcony in question didn't somehow show as a +convenience easy to surrender. Poor Strether had at this very +moment to recognise the truth that wherever one paused in Paris the +imagination reacted before one could stop it. This perpetual +reaction put a price, if one would, on pauses; but it piled up +consequences till there was scarce room to pick one's steps among +them. What call had he, at such a juncture, for example, to like +Chad's very house? High broad clear--he was expert enough to make +out in a moment that it was admirably built--it fairly embarrassed +our friend by the quality that, as he would have said, it "sprang" +on him. He had struck off the fancy that it might, as a +preliminary, be of service to him to be seen, by a happy accident, +from the third-story windows, which took all the March sun, but of +what service was it to find himself making out after a moment that +the quality "sprung," the quality produced by measure and balance, +the fine relation of part to part and space to space, was probably-- +aided by the presence of ornament as positive as it was discreet, +and by the complexion of the stone, a cold fair grey, warmed and +polished a little by life--neither more nor less than a case of +distinction, such a case as he could only feel unexpectedly as a +sort of delivered challenge? Meanwhile, however, the chance he had +allowed for--the chance of being seen in time from the balcony--had +become a fact. Two or three of the windows stood open to the violet +air; and, before Strether had cut the knot by crossing, a young man +had come out and looked about him, had lighted a cigarette and +tossed the match over, and then, resting on the rail, had given +himself up to watching the life below while he smoked. His arrival +contributed, in its order, to keeping Strether in position; the +result of which in turn was that Strether soon felt himself +noticed. The young man began to look at him as in acknowledgement +of his being himself in observation. + +This was interesting so far as it went, but the interest was +affected by the young man's not being Chad. Strether wondered at +first if he were perhaps Chad altered, and then saw that this was +asking too much of alteration. The young man was light bright and +alert--with an air too pleasant to have been arrived at by +patching. Strether had conceived Chad as patched, but not beyond +recognition. He was in presence, he felt, of amendments enough as +they stood; it was a sufficient amendment that the gentleman up +there should be Chad's friend. He was young too then, the gentleman +up there--he was very young; young enough apparently to be amused +at an elderly watcher, to be curious even to see what the elderly +watcher would do on finding himself watched. There was youth in +that, there was youth in the surrender to the balcony, there was +youth for Strether at this moment in everything but his own +business; and Chad's thus pronounced association with youth had +given the next instant an extraordinary quick lift to the issue. +The balcony, the distinguished front, testified suddenly, for +Strether's fancy, to something that was up and up; they placed the +whole case materially, and as by an admirable image, on a level +that he found himself at the end of another moment rejoicing to +think he might reach. The young man looked at him still, he looked +at the young man; and the issue, by a rapid process, was that this +knowledge of a perched privacy appeared to him the last of +luxuries. To him too the perched privacy was open, and he saw it +now but in one light--that of the only domicile, the only fireside, +in the great ironic city, on which he had the shadow of a claim. +Miss Gostrey had a fireside; she had told him of it, and it was +something that doubtless awaited him; but Miss Gostrey hadn't yet +arrived--she mightn't arrive for days; and the sole attenuation of +his excluded state was his vision of the small, the admittedly +secondary hotel in the bye-street from the Rue de la Paix, in which +her solicitude for his purse had placed him, which affected him +somehow as all indoor chill, glass-roofed court and slippery +staircase, and which, by the same token, expressed the presence of +Waymarsh even at times when Waymarsh might have been certain to be +round at the bank. It came to pass before he moved that Waymarsh, +and Waymarsh alone, Waymarsh not only undiluted but positively +strengthened, struck him as the present alternative to the young +man in the balcony. When he did move it was fairly to escape that +alternative. Taking his way over the street at last and passing +through the porte-cochere of the house was like consciously leaving +Waymarsh out. However, he would tell him all about it. + + + + + +Book Third + + + + +I + + +Strether told Waymarsh all about it that very evening, on their +dining together at the hotel; which needn't have happened, he was +all the while aware, hadn't he chosen to sacrifice to this occasion +a rarer opportunity. The mention to his companion of the sacrifice +was moreover exactly what introduced his recital--or, as he would +have called it with more confidence in his interlocutor, his +confession. His confession was that he had been captured and that +one of the features of the affair had just failed to be his +engaging himself on the spot to dinner. As by such a freedom +Waymarsh would have lost him he had obeyed his scruple; and he had +likewise obeyed another scruple--which bore on the question of his +himself bringing a guest. + +Waymarsh looked gravely ardent, over the finished soup, at this +array of scruples; Strether hadn't yet got quite used to being so +unprepared for the consequences of the impression he produced. It +was comparatively easy to explain, however, that he hadn't felt +sure his guest would please. The person was a young man whose +acquaintance he had made but that afternoon in the course of rather +a hindered enquiry for another person--an enquiry his new friend +had just prevented in fact from being vain. "Oh," said Strether, +"I've all sorts of things to tell you!"--and he put it in a way +that was a virtual hint to Waymarsh to help him to enjoy the +telling. He waited for his fish, he drank of his wine, he wiped his +long moustache, he leaned back in his chair, he took in the two +English ladies who had just creaked past them and whom he would +even have articulately greeted if they hadn't rather chilled the +impulse; so that all he could do was--by way of doing something--to +say "Merci, Francois!" out quite loud when his fish was brought. +Everything was there that he wanted, everything that could make the +moment an occasion, that would do beautifully--everything but what +Waymarsh might give. The little waxed salle-a-manger was sallow and +sociable; Francois, dancing over it, all smiles, was a man and a +brother; the high-shouldered patronne, with her high-held, +much-rubbed hands, seemed always assenting exuberantly to something +unsaid; the Paris evening in short was, for Strether, in the very +taste of the soup, in the goodness, as he was innocently pleased to +think it, of the wine, in the pleasant coarse texture of the napkin +and the crunch of the thick-crusted bread. These all were things +congruous with his confession, and his confession was that he HAD-- +it would come out properly just there if Waymarsh would only take +it properly--agreed to breakfast out, at twelve literally, the next +day. He didn't quite know where; the delicacy of the case came +straight up in the remembrance of his new friend's "We'll see; I'll +take you somewhere!"--for it had required little more than that, +after all, to let him right in. He was affected after a minute, +face to face with his actual comrade, by the impulse to overcolour. +There had already been things in respect to which he knew himself +tempted by this perversity. If Waymarsh thought them bad he should +at least have his reason for his discomfort; so Strether showed +them as worse. Still, he was now, in his way, sincerely perplexed. + +Chad had been absent from the Boulevard Malesherbes--was absent +from Paris altogether; he had learned that from the concierge, but +had nevertheless gone up, and gone up--there were no two ways about +it--from an uncontrollable, a really, if one would, depraved +curiosity. The concierge had mentioned to him that a friend of the +tenant of the troisieme was for the time in possession; and this +had been Strether's pretext for a further enquiry, an experiment +carried on, under Chad's roof, without his knowledge. "I found his +friend in fact there keeping the place warm, as he called it, for +him; Chad himself being, as appears, in the south. He went a month +ago to Cannes and though his return begins to be looked for it +can't be for some days. I might, you see, perfectly have waited a +week; might have beaten a retreat as soon as I got this essential +knowledge. But I beat no retreat; I did the opposite; I stayed, I +dawdled, I trifled; above all I looked round. I saw, in fine; and-- +I don't know what to call it--I sniffed. It's a detail, but it's as +if there were something--something very good--TO sniff." + +Waymarsh's face had shown his friend an attention apparently so +remote that the latter was slightly surprised to find it at this +point abreast with him. "Do you mean a smell? What of?" + +"A charming scent. But I don't know." + +Waymarsh gave an inferential grunt. "Does he live there with a +woman?" + +"I don't know." + +Waymarsh waited an instant for more, then resumed. "Has he taken +her off with him?" + +"And will he bring her back?"--Strether fell into the enquiry. But +he wound it up as before. "I don't know." + +The way he wound it up, accompanied as this was with another drop +back, another degustation of the Leoville, another wipe of his +moustache and another good word for Francois, seemed to produce in +his companion a slight irritation. "Then what the devil DO you +know?" + +"Well," said Strether almost gaily, "I guess I don't know anything!" +His gaiety might have been a tribute to the fact that the state he +had been reduced to did for him again what had been done by his talk +of the matter with Miss Gostrey at the London theatre. It was somehow +enlarging; and the air of that amplitude was now doubtless more or +less--and all for Waymarsh to feel--in his further response. "That's +what I found out from the young man." + +"But I thought you said you found out nothing." + +"Nothing but that--that I don't know anything." + +"And what good does that do you?" + +"It's just," said Strether, "what I've come to you to help me to +discover. I mean anything about anything over here. I FELT that, up +there. It regularly rose before me in its might. The young man +moreover--Chad's friend--as good as told me so." + +"As good as told you you know nothing about anything?" Waymarsh +appeared to look at some one who might have as good as told HIM. +"How old is he?" + +"Well, I guess not thirty." + +"Yet you had to take that from him?" + +"Oh I took a good deal more--since, as I tell you, I took an +invitation to dejeuner." + +"And are you GOING to that unholy meal?" + +"If you'll come with me. He wants you too, you know. I told him +about you. He gave me his card," Strether pursued, "and his name's +rather funny. It's John Little Bilham, and he says his two surnames +are, on account of his being small, inevitably used together." + +"Well," Waymarsh asked with due detachment from these details, +"what's he doing up there?" + +"His account of himself is that he's 'only a little artist-man.' +That seemed to me perfectly to describe him. But he's yet in the +phase of study; this, you know, is the great art-school--to pass a +certain number of years in which he came over. And he's a great +friend of Chad's, and occupying Chad's rooms just now because +they're so pleasant. HE'S very pleasant and curious too," Strether +added--"though he's not from Boston." + +Waymarsh looked already rather sick of him. "Where is he from?" + +Strether thought. "I don't know that, either. But he's +'notoriously,' as he put it himself, not from Boston." + +"Well," Waymarsh moralised from dry depths, "every one can't +notoriously be from Boston. Why," he continued, "is he curious?" + +"Perhaps just for THAT--for one thing! But really," Strether added, +"for everything. When you meet him you'll see." + +"Oh I don't want to meet him," Waymarsh impatiently growled. "Why +don't he go home?" + +Strether hesitated. "Well, because he likes it over here." + +This appeared in particular more than Waymarsh could bear. "He +ought then to be ashamed of himself, and, as you admit that you +think so too, why drag him in?" + +Strether's reply again took time. "Perhaps I do think so myself-- +though I don't quite yet admit it. I'm not a bit sure--it's again +one of the things I want to find out. I liked him, and CAN you like +people--? But no matter." He pulled himself up. "There's no doubt I +want you to come down on me and squash me." + +Waymarsh helped himself to the next course, which, however proving +not the dish he had just noted as supplied to the English ladies, +had the effect of causing his imagination temporarily to wander. +But it presently broke out at a softer spot. "Have they got a +handsome place up there?" + +"Oh a charming place; full of beautiful and valuable things. I +never saw such a place"--and Strether's thought went back to it. +"For a little artist-man--!" He could in fact scarce express it. + +But his companion, who appeared now to have a view, insisted. +"Well?" + +"Well, life can hold nothing better. Besides, they're things of +which he's in charge." + +"So that he does doorkeeper for your precious pair? Can life," +Waymarsh enquired, "hold nothing better than THAT?" Then as +Strether, silent, seemed even yet to wonder, "Doesn't he know what +SHE is?" he went on. + +"I don't know. I didn't ask him. I couldn't. It was impossible. You +wouldn't either. Besides I didn't want to. No more would you." +Strether in short explained it at a stroke. "You can't make out +over here what people do know." + +"Then what did you come over for?" + +"Well, I suppose exactly to see for myself--without their aid." + +"Then what do you want mine for?" + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "you're not one of THEM! I do know what you +know." + +As, however, this last assertion caused Waymarsh again to look at +him hard--such being the latter's doubt of its implications--he +felt his justification lame. Which was still more the case when +Waymarsh presently said: "Look here, Strether. Quit this." + +Our friend smiled with a doubt of his own. "Do you mean my tone?" + +"No--damn your tone. I mean your nosing round. Quit the whole job. +Let them stew in their juice. You're being used for a thing you +ain't fit for. People don't take a fine-tooth comb to groom a +horse." + +"Am I a fine-tooth comb?" Strether laughed. "It's something I never +called myself!" + +"It's what you are, all the same. You ain't so young as you were, +but you've kept your teeth." + +He acknowledged his friend's humour. "Take care I don't get them +into YOU! You'd like them, my friends at home, Waymarsh," he +declared; "you'd really particularly like them. And I know"--it was +slightly irrelevant, but he gave it sudden and singular force--"I +know they'd like you!" + +"Oh don't work them off on ME!" Waymarsh groaned. + +Yet Strether still lingered with his hands in his pockets. "It's +really quite as indispensable as I say that Chad should be got +back." + +"Indispensable to whom? To you?" + +"Yes," Strether presently said. + +"Because if you get him you also get Mrs. Newsome?" + +Strether faced it. "Yes." + +"And if you don't get him you don't get her?" + +It might be merciless, but he continued not to flinch. "I think it +might have some effect on our personal understanding. Chad's of +real importance--or can easily become so if he will--to the +business." + +"And the business is of real importance to his mother's husband?" + +"Well, I naturally want what my future wife wants. And the thing +will be much better if we have our own man in it." + +"If you have your own man in it, in other words," Waymarsh said, +"you'll marry--you personally--more money. She's already rich, as I +understand you, but she'll be richer still if the business can be +made to boom on certain lines that you've laid down." + +"I haven't laid them down," Strether promptly returned. "Mr. Newsome +--who knew extraordinarily well what he was about--laid them down +ten years ago." + +Oh well, Waymarsh seemed to indicate with a shake of his mane, THAT +didn't matter! "You're fierce for the boom anyway." + +His friend weighed a moment in silence the justice of the charge. +"I can scarcely be called fierce, I think, when I so freely take my +chance of the possibility, the danger, of being influenced in a +sense counter to Mrs. Newsome's own feelings." + +Waymarsh gave this proposition a long hard look. "I see. You're +afraid yourself of being squared. But you're a humbug," he added, +all the same." + +"Oh!" Strether quickly protested. + +"Yes, you ask me for protection--which makes you very interesting; +and then you won't take it. You say you want to be squashed--" + +"Ah but not so easily! Don't you see," Strether demanded "where my +interest, as already shown you, lies? It lies in my not being +squared. If I'm squared where's my marriage? If I miss my errand I +miss that; and if I miss that I miss everything--I'm nowhere." + +Waymarsh--but all relentlessly--took this in. "What do I care where +you are if you're spoiled?" + +Their eyes met on it an instant. "Thank you awfully," Strether at +last said. "But don't you think HER judgement of that--?" + +"Ought to content me? No." + +It kept them again face to face, and the end of this was that +Strether again laughed. "You do her injustice. You really MUST know +her. Good-night." + +He breakfasted with Mr. Bilham on the morrow, and, as +inconsequently befell, with Waymarsh massively of the party. The +latter announced, at the eleventh hour and much to his friend's +surprise, that, damn it, he would as soon join him as do anything +else; on which they proceeded together, strolling in a state of +detachment practically luxurious for them to the Boulevard +Malesherbes, a couple engaged that day with the sharp spell of +Paris as confessedly, it might have been seen, as any couple +among the daily thousands so compromised. They walked, wandered, +wondered and, a little, lost themselves; Strether hadn't had for +years so rich a consciousness of time--a bag of gold into which +he constantly dipped for a handful. It was present to him that +when the little business with Mr. Bilham should be over he would +still have shining hours to use absolutely as he liked. There was +no great pulse of haste yet in this process of saving Chad; nor +was that effect a bit more marked as he sat, half an hour later, +with his legs under Chad's mahogany, with Mr. Bilham on one side, +with a friend of Mr. Bilham's on the other, with Waymarsh +stupendously opposite, and with the great hum of Paris coming up +in softness, vagueness-for Strether himself indeed already +positive sweetness--through the sunny windows toward which, the +day before, his curiosity had raised its wings from below. The +feeling strongest with him at that moment had borne fruit almost +faster than he could taste it, and Strether literally felt at the +present hour that there was a precipitation in his fate. He had +known nothing and nobody as he stood in the street; but hadn't +his view now taken a bound in the direction of every one and of +every thing? + +"What's he up to, what's he up to?"--something like that was at +the back of his head all the while in respect to little Bilham; +but meanwhile, till he should make out, every one and every thing +were as good as represented for him by the combination of his +host and the lady on his left. The lady on his left, the lady +thus promptly and ingeniously invited to "meet" Mr. Strether and +Mr. Waymarsh--it was the way she herself expressed her case--was +a very marked person, a person who had much to do with our +friend's asking himself if the occasion weren't in its essence +the most baited, the most gilded of traps. Baited it could +properly be called when the repast was of so wise a savour, and +gilded surrounding objects seemed inevitably to need to be when +Miss Barrace--which was the lady's name--looked at them with +convex Parisian eyes and through a glass with a remarkably long +tortoise-shell handle. Why Miss Barrace, mature meagre erect and +eminently gay, highly adorned, perfectly familiar, freely +contradictions and reminding him of some last-century portrait of +a clever head without powder--why Miss Barrace should have been +in particular the note of a "trap" Strether couldn't on the spot +have explained; he blinked in the light of a conviction that he +should know later on, and know well--as it came over him, for +that matter, with force, that he should need to. He wondered what +he was to think exactly of either of his new friends; since the +young man, Chad's intimate and deputy, had, in thus constituting +the scene, practised so much more subtly than he had been +prepared for, and since in especial Miss Barrace, surrounded +clearly by every consideration, hadn't scrupled to figure as a +familiar object. It was interesting to him to feel that he was in +the presence of new measures, other standards, a different scale +of relations, and that evidently here were a happy pair who +didn't think of things at all as he and Waymarsh thought. Nothing +was less to have been calculated in the business than that it +should now be for him as if he and Waymarsh were comparatively +quite at one. + +The latter was magnificent--this at least was an assurance +privately given him by Miss Barrace. "Oh your friend's a type, +the grand old American--what shall one call it? The Hebrew +prophet, Ezekiel, Jeremiah, who used when I was a little girl in +the Rue Montaigne to come to see my father and who was usually +the American Minister to the Tuileries or some other court. I +haven't seen one these ever so many years; the sight of it warms +my poor old chilled heart; this specimen is wonderful; in the +right quarter, you know, he'll have a succes fou." Strether +hadn't failed to ask what the right quarter might be, much as he +required his presence of mind to meet such a change in their +scheme. "Oh the artist-quarter and that kind of thing; HERE +already, for instance, as you see." He had been on the point of +echoing "'Here'?--is THIS the artist-quarter?" but she had +already disposed of the question with a wave of all her tortoise-shell +and an easy "Bring him to ME!" He knew on the spot how little he +should be able to bring him, for the very air was by this time, +to his sense, thick and hot with poor Waymarsh's judgement of it. +He was in the trap still more than his companion and, unlike +his companion, not making the best of it; which was precisely what +doubtless gave him his admirable sombre glow. Little did Miss Barrace +know that what was behind it was his grave estimate of her own laxity. +The general assumption with which our two friends had arrived had been +that of finding Mr. Bilham ready to conduct them to one or other of +those resorts of the earnest, the aesthetic fraternity which were shown +among the sights of Paris. In this character it would have justified +them in a proper insistence on discharging their score. Waymarsh's +only proviso at the last had been that nobody should pay for him; +but he found himself, as the occasion developed, paid for on a +scale as to which Strether privately made out that he already +nursed retribution. Strether was conscious across the table of +what worked in him, conscious when they passed back to the small +salon to which, the previous evening, he himself had made so rich +a reference; conscious most of all as they stepped out to the +balcony in which one would have had to be an ogre not to +recognise the perfect place for easy aftertastes. These things +were enhanced for Miss Barrace by a succession of excellent +cigarettes--acknowledged, acclaimed, as a part of the wonderful +supply left behind him by Chad--in an almost equal absorption of +which Strether found himself blindly, almost wildly pushing +forward. He might perish by the sword as well as by famine, and +he knew that his having abetted the lady by an excess that was +rare with him would count for little in the sum--as Waymarsh +might so easily add it up--of her licence. Waymarsh had smoked of +old, smoked hugely; but Waymarsh did nothing now, and that gave +him his advantage over people who took things up lightly just +when others had laid them heavily down. Strether had never +smoked, and he felt as if he flaunted at his friend that this had +been only because of a reason. The reason, it now began to appear +even to himself, was that he had never had a lady to smoke with. + +It was this lady's being there at all, however, that was the +strange free thing; perhaps, since she WAS there, her smoking was +the least of her freedoms. If Strether had been sure at each +juncture of what--with Bilham in especial--she talked about, he +might have traced others and winced at them and felt Waymarsh +wince; but he was in fact so often at sea that his sense of the +range of reference was merely general and that he on several +different occasions guessed and interpreted only to doubt. He +wondered what they meant, but there were things he scarce thought +they could be supposed to mean, and "Oh no--not THAT!" was at the +end of most of his ventures. This was the very beginning with him +of a condition as to which, later on, it will be seen, he found +cause to pull himself up; and he was to remember the moment duly +as the first step in a process. The central fact of the place was +neither more nor less, when analysed--and a pressure superficial +sufficed--than the fundamental impropriety of Chad's situation, +round about which they thus seemed cynically clustered. +Accordingly, since they took it for granted, they took for +granted all that was in connexion with it taken for granted at +Woollett--matters as to which, verily, he had been reduced with +Mrs. Newsome to the last intensity of silence. That was the +consequence of their being too bad to be talked about, and was +the accompaniment, by the same token, of a deep conception of +their badness. It befell therefore that when poor Strether put it +to himself that their badness was ultimately, or perhaps even +insolently, what such a scene as the one before him was, so to +speak, built upon, he could scarce shirk the dilemma of reading a +roundabout echo of them into almost anything that came up. This, +he was well aware, was a dreadful necessity; but such was the +stern logic, he could only gather, of a relation to the irregular +life. + +It was the way the irregular life sat upon Bilham and Miss +Barrace that was the insidious, the delicate marvel. He was eager +to concede that their relation to it was all indirect, for +anything else in him would have shown the grossness of bad +manners; but the indirectness was none the less consonant--THAT +was striking-with a grateful enjoyment of everything that was +Chad's. They spoke of him repeatedly, invoking his good name and +good nature, and the worst confusion of mind for Strether was +that all their mention of him was of a kind to do him honour. +They commended his munificence and approved his taste, and in +doing so sat down, as it seemed to Strether, in the very soil out +of which these things flowered. Our friend's final predicament +was that he himself was sitting down, for the time, WITH them, +and there was a supreme moment at which, compared with his +collapse, Waymarsh's erectness affected him as really high. One +thing was certain--he saw he must make up his mind. He must +approach Chad, must wait for him, deal with him, master him, but +he mustn't dispossess himself of the faculty of seeing things as +they were. He must bring him to HIM--not go himself, as it were, +so much of the way. He must at any rate be clearer as to what-- +should he continue to do that for convenience--he was still +condoning. It was on the detail of this quantity--and what could +the fact be but mystifying?-that Bilham and Miss Barrace threw so +little light. So there they were. + + + +II + + +When Miss Gostrey arrived, at the end of a week, she made him a +sign; he went immediately to see her, and it wasn't till then +that he could again close his grasp on the idea of a corrective. +This idea however was luckily all before him again from the +moment he crossed the threshold of the little entresol of the +Quartier Marboeuf into which she had gathered, as she said, +picking them up in a thousand flights and funny little passionate +pounces, the makings of a final nest. He recognised in an instant +that there really, there only, he should find the boon with the +vision of which he had first mounted Chad's stairs. He might have +been a little scared at the picture of how much more, in this +place, he should know himself "in" hadn't his friend been on the +spot to measure the amount to his appetite. Her compact and +crowded little chambers, almost dusky, as they at first struck +him, with accumulations, represented a supreme general adjustment +to opportunities and conditions. Wherever he looked he saw an old +ivory or an old brocade, and he scarce knew where to sit for fear +of a misappliance. The life of the occupant struck him of a +sudden as more charged with possession even than Chad's or than +Miss Barrace's; wide as his glimpse had lately become of the +empire of "things," what was before him still enlarged it; the +lust of the eyes and the pride of life had indeed thus their +temple. It was the innermost nook of the shrine--as brown as a +pirate's cave. In the brownness were glints of gold; patches of +purple were in the gloom; objects all that caught, through the +muslin, with their high rarity, the light of the low windows. +Nothing was clear about them but that they were precious, and +they brushed his ignorance with their contempt as a flower, in a +liberty taken with him, might have been whisked under his nose. +But after a full look at his hostess he knew none the less what +most concerned him. The circle in which they stood together was +warm with life, and every question between them would live there +as nowhere else. A question came up as soon as they had spoken, +for his answer, with a laugh, was quickly: "Well, they've got +hold of me!" Much of their talk on this first occasion was his +development of that truth. He was extraordinarily glad to see +her, expressing to her frankly what she most showed him, that one +might live for years without a blessing unsuspected, but that to +know it at last for no more than three days was to need it or +miss it for ever. She was the blessing that had now become his +need, and what could prove it better than that without her he had +lost himself? + +"What do you mean?" she asked with an absence of alarm that, +correcting him as if he had mistaken the "period" of one of her +pieces, gave him afresh a sense of her easy movement through the +maze he had but begun to tread. "What in the name of all the +Pococks have you managed to do?" + +"Why exactly the wrong thing. I've made a frantic friend of +little Bilham." + +"Ah that sort of thing was of the essence of your case and to +have been allowed for from the first." And it was only after this +that, quite as a minor matter, she asked who in the world little +Bilham might be. When she learned that he was a friend of Chad's +and living for the time in Chad's rooms in Chad's absence, quite +as if acting in Chad's spirit and serving Chad's cause, she +showed, however, more interest. "Should you mind my seeing him? +Only once, you know," she added. + +"Oh the oftener the better: he's amusing--he's original." + +"He doesn't shock you?" Miss Gostrey threw out. + +"Never in the world! We escape that with a perfection--! I feel +it to be largely, no doubt, because I don't half-understand him; +but our modus vivendi isn't spoiled even by that. You must dine +with me to meet him," Strether went on. "Then you'll see.' + +"Are you giving dinners?" + +"Yes--there I am. That's what I mean." + +All her kindness wondered. "That you're spending too much money?" + +"Dear no--they seem to cost so little. But that I do it to THEM. +I ought to hold off." + +She thought again--she laughed. "The money you must be spending +to think it cheap! But I must be out of it--to the naked eye." + +He looked for a moment as if she were really failing him. "Then +you won't meet them?" It was almost as if she had developed an +unexpected personal prudence. + +She hesitated. "Who are they--first?" + +"Why little Bilham to begin with." He kept back for the moment +Miss Barrace. "And Chad--when he comes--you must absolutely see." + +"When then does he come?" + +"When Bilham has had time to write him, and hear from him about +me. Bilham, however," he pursued, "will report favourably-- +favourably for Chad. That will make him not afraid to come. I +want you the more therefore, you see, for my bluff." + +"Oh you'll do yourself for your bluff." She was perfectly easy. +"At the rate you've gone I'm quiet." + +"Ah but I haven't," said Strether, "made one protest." + +She turned it over. "Haven't you been seeing what there's to +protest about?" + +He let her, with this, however ruefully, have the whole truth. "I +haven't yet found a single thing." + +"Isn't there any one WITH him then?" + +"Of the sort I came out about?" Strether took a moment. "How do I +know? And what do I care?" + +"Oh oh!"--and her laughter spread. He was struck in fact by the +effect on her of his joke. He saw now how he meant it as a joke. +SHE saw, however, still other things, though in an instant she +had hidden them. "You've got at no facts at all?" + +He tried to muster them. "Well, he has a lovely home." + +"Ah that, in Paris," she quickly returned, "proves nothing. That +is rather it DISproves nothing. They may very well, you see, the +people your mission is concerned with, have done it FOR him." + +"Exactly. And it was on the scene of their doings then that +Waymarsh and I sat guzzling." + +"Oh if you forbore to guzzle here on scenes of doings," she +replied, "you might easily die of starvation." With which she +smiled at him. "You've worse before you." + +"Ah I've EVERYTHING before me. But on our hypothesis, you know, +they must be wonderful." + +"They ARE!" said Miss Gostrey. "You're not therefore, you see," +she added, "wholly without facts. They've BEEN, in effect, +wonderful." + +To have got at something comparatively definite appeared at last a +little to help--a wave by which moreover, the next moment, +recollection was washed. "My young man does admit furthermore that +they're our friend's great interest." + +"Is that the expression he uses?" + +Strether more exactly recalled. "No--not quite." + +"Something more vivid? Less?" + +He had bent, with neared glasses, over a group of articles on a +small stand; and at this he came up. "It was a mere allusion, but, +on the lookout as I was, it struck me. 'Awful, you know, as Chad +is'--those were Bilham's words." + +"'Awful, you know'--? Oh!"--and Miss Gostrey turned them over. She +seemed, however, satisfied. "Well, what more do you want?" + +He glanced once more at a bibelot or two, and everything sent him +back. "But it is all the same as if they wished to let me have it +between the eyes." + +She wondered. "Quoi donc?" + +"Why what I speak of. The amenity. They can stun you with that as +well as with anything else." + +"Oh," she answered, "you'll come round! I must see them each," she +went on, "for myself. I mean Mr. Bilham and Mr. Newsome--Mr. +Bilham naturally first. Once only--once for each; that will do. +But face to face--for half an hour. What's Mr. Chad," she +immediately pursued, "doing at Cannes? Decent men don't go to +Cannes with the--well, with the kind of ladies you mean." + +"Don't they?" Strether asked with an interest in decent men that +amused her. + +"No, elsewhere, but not to Cannes. Cannes is different. Cannes is +better. Cannes is best. I mean it's all people you know--when you +do know them. And if HE does, why that's different too. He must +have gone alone. She can't be with him." + +"I haven't," Strether confessed in his weakness, "the least +idea." There seemed much in what she said, but he was able after a +little to help her to a nearer impression. The meeting with little +Bilham took place, by easy arrangement, in the great gallery of +the Louvre; and when, standing with his fellow visitor before one +of the splendid Titians--the overwhelming portrait of the young +man with the strangely-shaped glove and the blue-grey eyes--he +turned to see the third member of their party advance from the end +of the waxed and gilded vista, he had a sense of having at last +taken hold. He had agreed with Miss Gostrey--it dated even from +Chester--for a morning at the Louvre, and he had embraced +independently the same idea as thrown out by little Bilham, whom +he had already accompanied to the museum of the Luxembourg. The +fusion of these schemes presented no difficulty, and it was to +strike him again that in little Bilham's company contrarieties in +general dropped. + +"Oh he's all right--he's one of US!" Miss Gostrey, after the first +exchange, soon found a chance to murmur to her companion; and +Strether, as they proceeded and paused and while a quick unanimity +between the two appeared to have phrased itself in half a dozen +remarks--Strether knew that he knew almost immediately what she +meant, and took it as still another sign that he had got his job +in hand. This was the more grateful to him that he could think of +the intelligence now serving him as an acquisition positively new. +He wouldn't have known even the day before what she meant--that +is if she meant, what he assumed, that they were intense Americans +together. He had just worked round--and with a sharper turn of the +screw than any yet--to the conception of an American intense as +little Bilham was intense. The young man was his first specimen; +the specimen had profoundly perplexed him; at present however +there was light. It was by little Bilham's amazing serenity that +he had at first been affected, but he had inevitably, in his +circumspection, felt it as the trail of the serpent, the +corruption, as he might conveniently have said, of Europe; whereas +the promptness with which it came up for Miss Gostrey but as a +special little form of the oldest thing they knew justified it at +once to his own vision as well. He wanted to be able to like his +specimen with a clear good conscience, and this fully permitted +it. What had muddled him was precisely the small artist-man's way +--it was so complete--of being more American than anybody. But it +now for the time put Strether vastly at his ease to have this view +of a new way. + +The amiable youth then looked out, as it had first struck +Strether, at a world in respect to which he hadn't a prejudice. +The one our friend most instantly missed was the usual one in +favour of an occupation accepted. Little Bilham had an occupation, +but it was only an occupation declined; and it was by his general +exemption from alarm, anxiety or remorse on this score that the +impression of his serenity was made. He had come out to Paris to +paint--to fathom, that is, at large, that mystery; but study had +been fatal to him so far as anything COULD be fatal, and his +productive power faltered in proportion as his knowledge grew. +Strether had gathered from him that at the moment of his finding +him in Chad's rooms he hadn't saved from his shipwreck a scrap of +anything but his beautiful intelligence and his confirmed habit of +Paris. He referred to these things with an equal fond familiarity, +and it was sufficiently clear that, as an outfit, they still +served him. They were charming to Strether through the hour spent +at the Louvre, where indeed they figured for him as an unseparated +part of the charged iridescent air, the glamour of the name, the +splendour of the space, the colour of the masters. Yet they were +present too wherever the young man led, and the day after the +visit to the Louvre they hung, in a different walk, about the +steps of our party. He had invited his companions to cross the +river with him, offering to show them his own poor place; and his +own poor place, which was very poor, gave to his idiosyncrasies, +for Strether--the small sublime indifference and independences +that had struck the latter as fresh--an odd and engaging dignity. +He lived at the end of an alley that went out of an old short +cobbled street, a street that went in turn out of a new long +smooth avenue--street and avenue and alley having, however, in +common a sort of social shabbiness; and he introduced them to the +rather cold and blank little studio which he had lent to a comrade +for the term of his elegant absence. The comrade was another +ingenuous compatriot, to whom he had wired that tea was to await +them "regardless," and this reckless repast, and the second +ingenuous compatriot, and the faraway makeshift life, with its +jokes and its gaps, its delicate daubs and its three or four +chairs, its overflow of taste and conviction and its lack of +nearly all else--these things wove round the occasion a spell to +which our hero unreservedly surrendered. + +He liked the ingenuous compatriots--for two or three others soon +gathered; he liked the delicate daubs and the free +discriminations--involving references indeed, involving +enthusiasms and execrations that made him, as they said, sit up; +he liked above all the legend of good-humoured poverty, of mutual +accommodation fairly raised to the romantic, that he soon read +into the scene. The ingenuous compatriots showed a candour, he +thought, surpassing even the candour of Woollett; they were +red-haired and long-legged, they were quaint and queer and dear +and droll; they made the place resound with the vernacular, which +he had never known so marked as when figuring for the chosen +language, he must suppose, of contemporary art. They twanged with +a vengeance the aesthetic lyre--they drew from it wonderful airs. +This aspect of their life had an admirable innocence; and he +looked on occasion at Maria Gostrey to see to what extent that +element reached her. She gave him however for the hour, as she had +given him the previous day, no further sign than to show how she +dealt with boys; meeting them with the air of old Parisian +practice that she had for every one, for everything, in turn. +Wonderful about the delicate daubs, masterful about the way to +make tea, trustful about the legs of chairs and familiarly +reminiscent of those, in the other time, the named, the numbered +or the caricatured, who had flourished or failed, disappeared or +arrived, she had accepted with the best grace her second course of +little Bilham, and had said to Strether, the previous afternoon on +his leaving them, that, since her impression was to be renewed, +she would reserve judgement till after the new evidence. + +The new evidence was to come, as it proved, in a day or two. He +soon had from Maria a message to the effect that an excellent box at +the Francais had been lent her for the following night; it seeming +on such occasions not the least of her merits that she was subject +to such approaches. The sense of how she was always paying for +something in advance was equalled on Strether's part only by the +sense of how she was always being paid; all of which made for his +consciousness, in the larger air, of a lively bustling traffic, +the exchange of such values as were not for him to handle. She +hated, he knew, at the French play, anything but a box--just as +she hated at the English anything but a stall; and a box was what +he was already in this phase girding himself to press upon her. +But she had for that matter her community with little Bilham: she +too always, on the great issues, showed as having known in time. +It made her constantly beforehand with him and gave him mainly the +chance to ask himself how on the day of their settlement their +account would stand. He endeavoured even now to keep it a little +straight by arranging that if he accepted her invitation she +should dine with him first; but the upshot of this scruple was +that at eight o'clock on the morrow he awaited her with Waymarsh +under the pillared portico. She hadn't dined with him, and it was +characteristic of their relation that she had made him embrace her +refusal without in the least understanding it. She ever caused her +rearrangements to affect him as her tenderest touches. It was on +that principle for instance that, giving him the opportunity to be +amiable again to little Bilham, she had suggested his offering the +young man a seat in their box. Strether had dispatched for this +purpose a small blue missive to the Boulevard Malesherbes, but up +to the moment of their passing into the theatre he had received no +response to his message. He held, however, even after they had +been for some time conveniently seated, that their friend, who +knew his way about, would come in at his own right moment. His +temporary absence moreover seemed, as never yet, to make the right +moment for Miss Gostrey. Strether had been waiting till tonight to +get back from her in some mirrored form her impressions and +conclusions. She had elected, as they said, to see little Bilham +once; but now she had seen him twice and had nevertheless not said +more than a word. + +Waymarsh meanwhile sat opposite him with their hostess between; +and Miss Gostrey spoke of herself as an instructor of youth +introducing her little charges to a work that was one of the +glories of literature. The glory was happily unobjectionable, and +the little charges were candid; for herself she had travelled that +road and she merely waited on their innocence. But she referred in +due time to their absent friend, whom it was clear they should +have to give up. "He either won't have got your note," she said, +"or you won't have got his: he has had some kind of hindrance, +and, of course, for that matter, you know, a man never writes +about coming to a box." She spoke as if, with her look, it might +have been Waymarsh who had written to the youth, and the latter's +face showed a mixture of austerity and anguish. She went on +however as if to meet this. "He's far and away, you know, the best +of them." + +"The best of whom, ma'am?" + +"Why of all the long procession--the boys, the girls, or the old +men and old women as they sometimes really are; the hope, as one +may say, of our country. They've all passed, year after year; but +there has been no one in particular I've ever wanted to stop. I +feel--don't YOU?--that I want to stop little Bilham; he's so +exactly right as he is." She continued to talk to Waymarsh. "He's +too delightful. If he'll only not spoil it! But they always WILL; +they always do; they always have." + +"I don't think Waymarsh knows," Strether said after a moment, +"quite what it's open to Bilham to spoil." + +"It can't be a good American," Waymarsh lucidly enough replied; +"for it didn't strike me the young man had developed much in THAT +shape." + +"Ah," Miss Gostrey sighed, "the name of the good American is as +easily given as taken away! What IS it, to begin with, to BE one, +and what's the extraordinary hurry? Surely nothing that's so +pressing was ever so little defined. It's such an order, really, +that before we cook you the dish we must at least have your +receipt. Besides the poor chicks have time! What I've seen so +often spoiled," she pursued, "is the happy attitude itself, the +state of faith and--what shall I call it?--the sense of beauty. +You're right about him"--she now took in Strether; "little Bilham +has them to a charm, we must keep little Bilham along." Then she +was all again for Waymarsh. "The others have all wanted so +dreadfully to do something, and they've gone and done it in too +many cases indeed. It leaves them never the same afterwards; the +charm's always somehow broken. Now HE, I think, you know, really +won't. He won't do the least dreadful little thing. We shall +continue to enjoy him just as he is. No--he's quite beautiful. He +sees everything. He isn't a bit ashamed. He has every scrap of +the courage of it that one could ask. Only think what he MIGHT do. +One wants really--for fear of some accident--to keep him in view. +At this very moment perhaps what mayn't he be up to? I've had my +disappointments--the poor things are never really safe; or only at +least when you have them under your eye. One can never completely +trust them. One's uneasy, and I think that's why I most miss him +now." + +She had wound up with a laugh of enjoyment over her embroidery of +her idea--an enjoyment that her face communicated to Strether, who +almost wished none the less at this moment that she would let poor +Waymarsh alone. HE knew more or less what she meant; but the fact +wasn't a reason for her not pretending to Waymarsh that he +didn't. It was craven of him perhaps, but he would, for the high +amenity of the occasion, have liked Waymarsh not to be so sure of +his wit. Her recognition of it gave him away and, before she had +done with him or with that article, would give him worse. What was +he, all the same, to do? He looked across the box at his friend; +their eyes met; something queer and stiff, something that bore on +the situation but that it was better not to touch, passed in +silence between them. Well, the effect of it for Strether was an +abrupt reaction, a final impatience of his own tendency to +temporise. Where was that taking him anyway? It was one of the +quiet instants that sometimes settle more matters than the +outbreaks dear to the historic muse. The only qualification of the +quietness was the synthetic "Oh hang it!" into which Strether's +share of the silence soundlessly flowered. It represented, this +mute ejaculation, a final impulse to burn his ships. These ships, +to the historic muse, may seem of course mere cockles, but when he +presently spoke to Miss Gostrey it was with the sense at least of +applying the torch. "Is it then a conspiracy?" + +"Between the two young men? Well, I don't pretend to be a seer or +a prophetess," she presently replied; "but if I'm simply a woman +of sense he's working for you to-night. I don't quite know how-- +but it's in my bones." And she looked at him at last as if, little +material as she yet gave him, he'd really understand. "For an +opinion THAT'S my opinion. He makes you out too well not to." + +"Not to work for me to-night?" Strether wondered. "Then I hope he +isn't doing anything very bad." + +"They've got you," she portentously answered. + +"Do you mean he IS--?" + +"They've got you," she merely repeated. Though she disclaimed the +prophetic vision she was at this instant the nearest approach he +had ever met to the priestess of the oracle. The light was in her +eyes. "You must face it now." + +He faced it on the spot. "They HAD arranged--?" + +"Every move in the game. And they've been arranging ever since. He +has had every day his little telegram from Cannes." + +It made Strether open his eyes. "Do you KNOW that?" + +"I do better. I see it. This was, before I met him, what I +wondered whether I WAS to see. But as soon as I met him I ceased +to wonder, and our second meeting made me sure. I took him all in. +He was acting--he is still--on his daily instructions." + +"So that Chad has done the whole thing?" + +"Oh no--not the whole. WE'VE done some of it. You and I and +'Europe.'" + +"Europe--yes," Strether mused. + +"Dear old Paris," she seemed to explain. But there was more, and, +with one of her turns, she risked it. "And dear old Waymarsh. +You," she declared, "have been a good bit of it." + +He sat massive. "A good bit of what, ma'am?" + +"Why of the wonderful consciousness of our friend here. You've +helped too in your way to float him to where he is." + +"And where the devil IS he?" + +She passed it on with a laugh. "Where the devil, Strether, are +you?" + +He spoke as if he had just been thinking it out. "Well, quite +already in Chad's hands, it would seem." And he had had with this +another thought. "Will that be--just all through Bilham--the way +he's going to work it? It would be, for him, you know, an idea. +And Chad with an idea--!" + +"Well?" she asked while the image held him. + +"Well, is Chad--what shall I say?--monstrous?" + +"Oh as much as you like! But the idea you speak of," she said, +"won't have been his best. He'll have a better. It won't be all +through little Bilham that he'll work it." + +This already sounded almost like a hope destroyed. "Through whom +else then?" + +"That's what we shall see!" But quite as she spoke she turned, and +Strether turned; for the door of the box had opened, with the +click of the ouvreuse, from the lobby, and a gentleman, a stranger +to them, had come in with a quick step. The door closed behind +him, and, though their faces showed him his mistake, his air, +which was striking, was all good confidence. The curtain had just +again arisen, and, in the hush of the general attention, +Strether's challenge was tacit, as was also the greeting, with a +quickly deprecating hand and smile, of the unannounced visitor. He +discreetly signed that he would wait, would stand, and these +things and his face, one look from which she had caught, had +suddenly worked for Miss Gostrey. She fitted to them all an answer +for Strether's last question. The solid stranger was simply the +answer--as she now, turning to her friend, indicated. She brought +it straight out for him--it presented the intruder. "Why, through +this gentleman!" The gentleman indeed, at the same time, though +sounding for Strether a very short name, did practically as much +to explain. Strether gasped the name back--then only had he seen +Miss Gostrey had said more than she knew. They were in presence of +Chad himself. + +Our friend was to go over it afterwards again and again--he was +going over it much of the time that they were together, and they +were together constantly for three or four days: the note had been +so strongly struck during that first half-hour that everything +happening since was comparatively a minor development. The fact +was that his perception of the young man's identity--so absolutely +checked for a minute--had been quite one of the sensations that +count in life; he certainly had never known one that had acted, as +he might have said, with more of a crowded rush. And the rush +though both vague and multitudinous, had lasted a long time, +protected, as it were, yet at the same time aggravated, by the +circumstance of its coinciding with a stretch of decorous silence. +They couldn't talk without disturbing the spectators in the part +of the balcony just below them; and it, for that matter, came to +Strether--being a thing of the sort that did come to him--that +these were the accidents of a high civilisation; the imposed +tribute to propriety, the frequent exposure to conditions, usually +brilliant, in which relief has to await its time. Relief was never +quite near at hand for kings, queens, comedians and other such +people, and though you might be yourself not exactly one of those, +you could yet, in leading the life of high pressure, guess a +little how they sometimes felt. It was truly the life of high +pressure that Strether had seemed to feel himself lead while he +sat there, close to Chad, during the long tension of the act. He +was in presence of a fact that occupied his whole mind, that +occupied for the half-hour his senses themselves all together; but +he couldn't without inconvenience show anything--which moreover +might count really as luck. What he might have shown, had he shown +at all, was exactly the kind of emotion--the emotion of +bewilderment--that he had proposed to himself from the first, +whatever should occur, to show least. The phenomenon that had +suddenly sat down there with him was a phenomenon of change so +complete that his imagination, which had worked so beforehand, +felt itself, in the connexion, without margin or allowance. It had +faced every contingency but that Chad should not BE Chad, and this +was what it now had to face with a mere strained smile and an +uncomfortable flush. + +He asked himself if, by any chance, before he should have in some +way to commit himself, he might feel his mind settled to the new +vision, might habituate it, so to speak, to the remarkable truth. +But oh it was too remarkable, the truth; for what could be more +remarkable than this sharp rupture of an identity? You could deal +with a man as himself--you couldn't deal with him as somebody +else. It was a small source of peace moreover to be reduced to +wondering how little he might know in such an event what a sum he +was setting you. He couldn't absolutely not know, for you couldn't +absolutely not let him. It was a CASE then simply, a strong +case, as people nowadays called such things,' a case of +transformation unsurpassed, and the hope was but in the general +law that strong cases were liable to control from without. Perhaps +he, Strether himself, was the only person after all aware of it. +Even Miss Gostrey, with all her science, wouldn't be, would she? +--and he had never seen any one less aware of anything than +Waymarsh as he glowered at Chad. The social sightlessness of his +old friend's survey marked for him afresh, and almost in an +humiliating way, the inevitable limits of direct aid from this +source. He was not certain, however, of not drawing a shade of +compensation from the privilege, as yet untasted, of knowing more +about something in particular than Miss Gostrey did. His situation +too was a case, for that matter, and he was now so interested, +quite so privately agog, about it, that he had already an eye to +the fun it would be to open up to her afterwards. He derived +during his half-hour no assistance from her, and just this fact of +her not meeting his eyes played a little, it must be confessed, +into his predicament. + +He had introduced Chad, in the first minutes, under his breath, +and there was never the primness in her of the person +unacquainted; but she had none the less betrayed at first no +vision but of the stage, where she occasionally found a pretext +for an appreciative moment that she invited Waymarsh to share. The +latter's faculty of participation had never had, all round, such +an assault to meet; the pressure on him being the sharper for this +chosen attitude in her, as Strether judged it, of isolating, for +their natural intercourse, Chad and himself. This intercourse was +meanwhile restricted to a frank friendly look from the young man, +something markedly like a smile, but falling far short of a grin, +and to the vivacity of Strether's private speculation as to +whether HE carried himself like a fool. He didn't quite see how +he could so feel as one without somehow showing as one. The worst +of that question moreover was that he knew it as a symptom the +sense of which annoyed him. "If I'm going to be odiously conscious +of how I may strike the fellow," he reflected, "it was so little +what I came out for that I may as well stop before I begin." This +sage consideration too, distinctly, seemed to leave untouched the +fact that he WAS going to be conscious. He was conscious of +everything but of what would have served him. + +He was to know afterwards, in the watches of the night, that +nothing would have been more open to him than after a minute or +two to propose to Chad to seek with him the refuge of the lobby. +He hadn't only not proposed it, but had lacked even the presence +of mind to see it as possible. He had stuck there like a schoolboy +wishing not to miss a minute of the show; though for that portion +of the show then presented he hadn't had an instant's real +attention. He couldn't when the curtain fell have given the +slightest account of what had happened. He had therefore, further, +not at that moment acknowledged the amenity added by this +acceptance of his awkwardness to Chad's general patience. Hadn't +he none the less known at the very time--known it stupidly and +without reaction--that the boy was accepting something? He was +modestly benevolent, the boy--that was at least what he had been +capable of the superiority of making out his chance to be; and one +had one's self literally not had the gumption to get in ahead of +him. If we should go into all that occupied our friend in the +watches of the night we should have to mend our pen; but an +instance or two may mark for us the vividness with which he could +remember. He remembered the two absurdities that, if his presence +of mind HAD failed, were the things that had had most to do with +it. He had never in his life seen a young man come into a box at +ten o'clock at night, and would, if challenged on the question in +advance, have scarce been ready to pronounce as to different ways +of doing so. But it was in spite of this definite to him that Chad +had had a way that was wonderful: a fact carrying with it an +implication that, as one might imagine it, he knew, he had +learned, how. + +Here already then were abounding results; he had on the spot and +without the least trouble of intention taught Strether that even +in so small a thing as that there were different ways. He had +done in the same line still more than this; had by a mere shake or +two of the head made his old friend observe that the change in him +was perhaps more than anything else, for the eye, a matter of the +marked streaks of grey, extraordinary at his age, in his thick +black hair; as well as that this new feature was curiously +becoming to him, did something for him, as characterisation, also +even--of all things in the world--as refinement, that had been a +good deal wanted. Strether felt, however, he would have had to +confess, that it wouldn't have been easy just now, on this and +other counts, in the presence of what had been supplied, to be +quite clear as to what had been missed. A reflexion a candid +critic might have made of old, for instance, was that it would +have been happier for the son to look more like the mother; but +this was a reflexion that at present would never occur. The ground +had quite fallen away from it, yet no resemblance whatever to the +mother had supervened. It would have been hard for a young man's +face and air to disconnect themselves more completely than Chad's +at this juncture from any discerned, from any imaginable aspect of +a New England female parent. That of course was no more than had +been on the cards; but it produced in Strether none the less one +of those frequent phenomena of mental reference with which all +judgement in him was actually beset. + +Again and again as the days passed he had had a sense of the +pertinence of communicating quickly with Woollett--communicating +with a quickness with which telegraphy alone would rhyme; the +fruit really of a fine fancy in him for keeping things straight, +for the happy forestalment of error. No one could explain better +when needful, nor put more conscience into an account or a report; +which burden of conscience is perhaps exactly the reason why his +heart always sank when the clouds of explanation gathered. His +highest ingenuity was in keeping the sky of life clear of them. +Whether or no he had a grand idea of the lucid, he held that nothing +ever was in fact--for any one else--explained. One went through +the vain motions, but it was mostly a waste of life. A personal +relation was a relation only so long as people either perfectly +understood or, better still, didn't care if they didn't. From +the moment they cared if they didn't it was living by the sweat +of one's brow; and the sweat of one's brow was just what one +might buy one's self off from by keeping the ground free of the +wild weed of delusion. It easily grew too fast, and the Atlantic +cable now alone could race with it. That agency would each day +have testified for him to something that was not what Woollett had +argued. He was not at this moment absolutely sure that the effect +of the morrow's--or rather of the night's--appreciation of the +crisis wouldn't be to determine some brief missive. "Have at last +seen him, but oh dear!"--some temporary relief of that sort seemed +to hover before him. It hovered somehow as preparing them all--yet +preparing them for what? If he might do so more luminously and +cheaply he would tick out in four words: "Awfully old--grey hair." +To this particular item in Chad's appearance he constantly, during +their mute half-hour, reverted; as if so very much more than he +could have said had been involved in it. The most he could have +said would have been: "If he's going to make me feel young--!" +which indeed, however, carried with it quite enough. If Strether +was to feel young, that is, it would be because Chad was to feel +old; and an aged and hoary sinner had been no part of the scheme. + +The question of Chadwick's true time of life was, doubtless, what +came up quickest after the adjournment of the two, when the play +was over, to a cafe in the Avenue de l'Opera. Miss Gostrey had in +due course been perfect for such a step; she had known exactly +what they wanted--to go straight somewhere and talk; and Strether +had even felt she had known what he wished to say and that he was +arranging immediately to begin. She hadn't pretended this, as she +HAD pretended on the other hand, to have divined Waymarsh's wish +to extend to her an independent protection homeward; but Strether +nevertheless found how, after he had Chad opposite to him at a +small table in the brilliant halls that his companion straightway +selected, sharply and easily discriminated from others, it was +quite, to his mind, as if she heard him speak; as if, sitting up, +a mile away, in the little apartment he knew, she would listen +hard enough to catch. He found too that he liked that idea, and he +wished that, by the same token, Mrs. Newsome might have caught as +well. For what had above all been determined in him as a necessity +of the first order was not to lose another hour, nor a fraction of +one; was to advance, to overwhelm, with a rush. This was how he +would anticipate--by a night-attack, as might be--any forced +maturity that a crammed consciousness of Paris was likely to take +upon itself to assert on behalf of the boy. He knew to the full, +on what he had just extracted from Miss Gostrey, Chad's marks of +alertness; but they were a reason the more for not dawdling. If he +was himself moreover to be treated as young he wouldn't at all +events be so treated before he should have struck out at least +once. His arms might be pinioned afterwards, but it would have +been left on record that he was fifty. The importance of this he +had indeed begun to feel before they left the theatre; it had +become a wild unrest, urging him to seize his chance. He could +scarcely wait for it as they went; he was on the verge of the +indecency of bringing up the question in the street; he fairly +caught himself going on--so he afterwards invidiously named it--as +if there would be for him no second chance should the present be +lost. Not till, on the purple divan before the perfunctory bock, +he had brought out the words themselves, was he sure, for that +matter, that the present would be saved. + + + + + +Book Fourth + + + + +I + + +"I've come, you know, to make you break with everything, neither +more nor less, and take you straight home; so you'll be so good as +immediately and favourably to consider it!"--Strether, face to +face with Chad after the play, had sounded these words almost +breathlessly, and with an effect at first positively disconcerting +to himself alone. For Chad's receptive attitude was that of a +person who had been gracefully quiet while the messenger at last +reaching him has run a mile through the dust. During some seconds +after he had spoken Strether felt as if HE had made some such +exertion; he was not even certain that the perspiration wasn't on +his brow. It was the kind of consciousness for which he had to +thank the look that, while the strain lasted, the young man's eyes +gave him. They reflected--and the deuce of the thing was that they +reflected really with a sort of shyness of kindness--his +momentarily disordered state; which fact brought on in its turn +for our friend the dawn of a fear that Chad might simply "take it +out"--take everything out--in being sorry for him. Such a fear, +any fear, was unpleasant. But everything was unpleasant; it was +odd how everything had suddenly turned so. This however was no +reason for letting the least thing go. Strether had the next +minute proceeded as roundly as if with an advantage to follow up. +"Of course I'm a busybody, if you want to fight the case to the +death; but after all mainly in the sense of having known you and +having given you such attention as you kindly permitted when you +were in jackets and knickerbockers. Yes--it was knickerbockers, +I'm busybody enough to remember that; and that you had, for your +age--I speak of the first far-away time--tremendously stout legs. +Well, we want you to break. Your mother's heart's passionately set +upon it, but she has above and beyond that excellent arguments and +reasons. I've not put them into her head--I needn't remind you how +little she's a person who needs that. But they exist--you must +take it from me as a friend both of hers and yours--for myself as +well. I didn't invent them, I didn't originally work them out; but +I understand them, I think I can explain them--by which I mean +make you actively do them justice; and that's why you see me here. +You had better know the worst at once. It's a question of an +immediate rupture and an immediate return. I've been conceited +enough to dream I can sugar that pill. I take at any rate the +greatest interest in the question. I took it already before I left +home, and I don't mind telling you that, altered as you are, I +take it still more now that I've seen you. You're older and--I +don't know what to call it!--more of a handful; but you're by so +much the more, I seem to make out, to our purpose." + +"Do I strike you as improved?" Strether was to recall that Chad +had at this point enquired. + +He was likewise to recall--and it had to count for some time as +his greatest comfort--that it had been "given" him, as they said +at Woollett, to reply with some presence of mind: "I haven't the +least idea." He was really for a while to like thinking he had +been positively hard. On the point of conceding that Chad had +improved in appearance, but that to the question of appearance the +remark must be confined, he checked even that compromise and left +his reservation bare. Not only his moral, but also, as it were, +his aesthetic sense had a little to pay for this, Chad being +unmistakeably--and wasn't it a matter of the confounded grey hair +again?--handsomer than he had ever promised. That however fell in +perfectly with what Strether had said. They had no desire to keep +down his proper expansion, and he wouldn't be less to their +purpose for not looking, as he had too often done of old, only +bold and wild. There was indeed a signal particular in which he +would distinctly be more so. Strether didn't, as he talked, +absolutely follow himself; he only knew he was clutching his +thread and that he held it from moment to moment a little tighter; +his mere uninterruptedness during the few minutes helped him to do +that. He had frequently for a month, turned over what he should +say on this very occasion, and he seemed at last to have said +nothing he had thought of--everything was so totally different. + +But in spite of all he had put the flag at the window. This was +what he had done, and there was a minute during which he affected +himself as having shaken it hard, flapped it with a mighty +flutter, straight in front of his companion's nose. It gave him +really almost the sense of having already acted his part. The +momentary relief--as if from the knowledge that nothing of THAT +at least could be undone--sprang from a particular cause, the +cause that had flashed into operation, in Miss Gostrey's box, with +direct apprehension, with amazed recognition, and that had been +concerned since then in every throb of his consciousness. What it +came to was that with an absolutely new quantity to deal with one +simply couldn't know. The new quantity was represented by the fact +that Chad had been made over. That was all; whatever it was it was +everything. Strether had never seen the thing so done before--it +was perhaps a speciality of Paris. If one had been present at the +process one might little by little have mastered the result; but +he was face to face, as matters stood, with the finished business. +It had freely been noted for him that he might be received as a +dog among skittles, but that was on the basis of the old quantity. +He had originally thought of lines and tones as things to be +taken, but these possibilities had now quite melted away. There +was no computing at all what the young man before him would think +or feel or say on any subject whatever. This intelligence Strether +had afterwards, to account for his nervousness, reconstituted as +he might, just as he had also reconstituted the promptness with +which Chad had corrected his uncertainty. An extraordinarily short +time had been required for the correction, and there had ceased to +be anything negative in his companion's face and air as soon as it +was made. "Your engagement to my mother has become then what they +call here a fait accompli?"--it had consisted, the determinant +touch, in nothing more than that. + +Well, that was enough, Strether had felt while his answer hung +fire. He had felt at the same time, however, that nothing could +less become him than that it should hang fire too long. "Yes," he +said brightly, "it was on the happy settlement of the question +that I started. You see therefore to what tune I'm in your family. +Moreover," he added, "I've been supposing you'd suppose it." + +"Oh I've been supposing it for a long time, and what you tell me +helps me to understand that you should want to do something. To do +something, I mean," said Chad, "to commemorate an event so--what +do they call it?--so auspicious. I see you make out, and not +unnaturally," he continued, "that bringing me home in triumph as a +sort of wedding-present to Mother would commemorate it better than +anything else. You want to make a bonfire in fact," he laughed, +"and you pitch me on. Thank you, thank you!" he laughed again. + +He was altogether easy about it, and this made Strether now see +how at bottom, and in spite of the shade of shyness that really +cost him nothing, he had from the first moment been easy about +everything. The shade of shyness was mere good taste. People with +manners formed could apparently have, as one of their best cards, +the shade of shyness too. He had leaned a little forward to speak; +his elbows were on the table; and the inscrutable new face that he +had got somewhere and somehow was brought by the movement nearer +to his critics There was a fascination for that critic in its not +being, this ripe physiognomy, the face that, under observation at +least, he had originally carried away from Woollett. Strether +found a certain freedom on his own side in defining it as that of +a man of the world--a formula that indeed seemed to come now in +some degree to his relief; that of a man to whom things had +happened and were variously known. In gleams, in glances, the past +did perhaps peep out of it; but such lights were faint and +instantly merged. Chad was brown and thick and strong, and of old +Chad had been rough. Was all the difference therefore that he was +actually smooth? Possibly; for that he WAS smooth was as marked as +in the taste of a sauce or in the rub of a hand. The effect of it +was general--it had retouched his features, drawn them with a +cleaner line. It had cleared his eyes and settled his colour and +polished his fine square teeth--the main ornament of his face; and +at the same time that it had given him a form and a surface, +almost a design, it had toned his voice, established his accent, +encouraged his smile to more play and his other motions to less. +He had formerly, with a great deal of action, expressed very +little; and he now expressed whatever was necessary with almost +none at all. It was as if in short he had really, copious perhaps +but shapeless, been put into a firm mould and turned successfully +out. The phenomenon--Strether kept eyeing it as a phenomenon, an +eminent case--was marked enough to be touched by the finger. He +finally put his hand across the table and laid it on Chad's arm. +"If you'll promise me--here on the spot and giving me your word of +honour--to break straight off, you'll make the future the real +right thing for all of us alike. You'll ease off the strain of +this decent but none the less acute suspense in which I've for so +many days been waiting for you, and let me turn in to rest. I +shall leave you with my blessing and go to bed in peace." + +Chad again fell back at this and, his hands pocketed, settled +himself a little; in which posture he looked, though he rather +anxiously smiled, only the more earnest. Then Strether seemed to +see that he was really nervous, and he took that as what he would +have called a wholesome sign. The only mark of it hitherto had +been his more than once taking off and putting on his wide-brimmed +crush hat. He had at this moment made the motion again to remove +it, then had only pushed it back, so that it hung informally on +his strong young grizzled crop. It was a touch that gave the note +of the familiar--the intimate and the belated--to their quiet +colloquy; and it was indeed by some such trivial aid that Strether +became aware at the same moment of something else. The observation +was at any rate determined in him by some light too fine to +distinguish from so many others, but it was none the less sharply +determined. Chad looked unmistakeably during these instants-- +well, as Strether put it to himself, all he was worth. Our friend +had a sudden apprehension of what that would on certain sides be. +He saw him in a flash as the young man marked out by women; and +for a concentrated minute the dignity, the comparative austerity, +as he funnily fancied it, of this character affected him almost +with awe. There was an experience on his interlocutor's part that +looked out at him from under the displaced hat, and that looked +out moreover by a force of its own, the deep fact of its quantity +and quality, and not through Chad's intending bravado or swagger. +That was then the way men marked out by women WERE--and also the +men by whom the women were doubtless in turn sufficiently +distinguished. It affected Strether for thirty seconds as a +relevant truth, a truth which, however, the next minute, had +fallen into its relation. "Can't you imagine there being some +questions," Chad asked, "that a fellow--however much impressed by +your charming way of stating things--would like to put to you +first?" + +"Oh yes--easily. I'm here to answer everything. I think I can even +tell you things, of the greatest interest to you, that you won't +know enough to ask me. We'll take as many days to it as you like. +But I want," Strether wound up, "to go to bed now." + +"Really?" + +Chad had spoken in such surprise that he was amused. "Can't you +believe it?--with what you put me through?" + +The young man seemed to consider. "Oh I haven't put you through +much--yet." + +"Do you mean there's so much more to come?" Strether laughed. "All +the more reason then that I should gird myself." And as if to mark +what he felt he could by this time count on he was already on his +feet. + +Chad, still seated, stayed him, with a hand against him, as he +passed between their table and the next. "Oh we shall get on!" + +The tone was, as who should say, everything Strether could have +desired; and quite as good the expression of face with which the +speaker had looked up at him and kindly held him. All these things +lacked was their not showing quite so much as the fruit of +experience. Yes, experience was what Chad did play on him, if he +didn't play any grossness of defiance. Of course experience was in +a manner defiance; but it wasn't, at any rate--rather indeed quite +the contrary!--grossness; which was so much gained. He fairly grew +older, Strether thought, while he himself so reasoned. Then with +his mature pat of his visitor's arm he also got up; and there had +been enough of it all by this time to make the visitor feel that +something WAS settled. Wasn't it settled that he had at least the +testimony of Chad's own belief in a settlement? Strether found +himself treating Chad's profession that they would get on as a +sufficient basis for going to bed. He hadn't nevertheless after +this gone to bed directly; for when they had again passed out +together into the mild bright night a check had virtually sprung +from nothing more than a small circumstance which might have acted +only as confirming quiescence. There were people, expressive +sound, projected light, still abroad, and after they had taken in +for a moment, through everything, the great clear architectural +street, they turned off in tacit union to the quarter of +Strether's hotel. "Of course," Chad here abruptly began, "of +course Mother's making things out with you about me has been +natural--and of course also you've had a good deal to go upon. +Still, you must have filled out." + +He had stopped, leaving his friend to wonder a little what point +he wished to make; and this it was that enabled Strether meanwhile +to make one. "Oh we've never pretended to go into detail. We +weren't in the least bound to THAT. It was 'filling out' enough to +miss you as we did." + +But Chad rather oddly insisted, though under the high lamp at +their corner, where they paused, he had at first looked as if +touched by Strether's allusion to the long sense, at home, of his +absence. "What I mean is you must have imagined." + +"Imagined what?" + +"Well--horrors." + +It affected Strether: horrors were so little--superficially at +least--in this robust and reasoning image. But he was none the +less there to be veracious. "Yes, I dare say we HAVE imagined +horrors. But where's the harm if we haven't been wrong?" + +Chad raised his face to the lamp, and it was one of the moments at +which he had, in his extraordinary way, most his air of designedly +showing himself. It was as if at these instants he just presented +himself, his identity so rounded off, his palpable presence and +his massive young manhood, as such a link in the chain as might +practically amount to a kind of demonstration. It was as if--and +how but anomalously?--he couldn't after all help thinking +sufficiently well of these things to let them go for what they +were worth. What could there be in this for Strether but the hint +of some self-respect, some sense of power, oddly perverted; +something latent and beyond access, ominous and perhaps enviable? +The intimation had the next thing, in a flash, taken on a name--a +name on which our friend seized as he asked himself if he weren't +perhaps really dealing with an irreducible young Pagan. This +description--he quite jumped at it--had a sound that gratified his +mental ear, so that of a sudden he had already adopted it. Pagan-- +yes, that was, wasn't it? what Chad WOULD logically be. It was +what he must be. It was what he was. The idea was a clue and, +instead of darkening the prospect, projected a certain clearness. +Strether made out in this quick ray that a Pagan was perhaps, at +the pass they had come to, the thing most wanted at Woollett. +They'd be able to do with one--a good one; he'd find an opening-- +yes; and Strether's imagination even now prefigured and +accompanied the first appearance there of the rousing personage. +He had only the slight discomfort of feeling, as the young man +turned away from the lamp, that his thought had in the momentary +silence possibly been guessed. "Well, I've no doubt," said Chad, +"you've come near enough. The details, as you say, don't matter. +It HAS been generally the case that I've let myself go. But I'm +coming round--I'm not so bad now." With which they walked on again +to Strether's hotel. + +"Do you mean," the latter asked as they approached the door, "that +there isn't any woman with you now?" + +"But pray what has that to do with it?" + +"Why it's the whole question." + +"Of my going home?" Chad was clearly surprised. "Oh not much! Do +you think that when I want to go any one will have any power--" + +"To keep you"--Strether took him straight up--"from carrying out +your wish? Well, our idea has been that somebody has hitherto--or +a good many persons perhaps--kept you pretty well from 'wanting.' +That's what--if you're in anybody's hands--may again happen. You +don't answer my question"--he kept it up; "but if you aren't in +anybody's hands so much the better. There's nothing then but what +makes for your going." + +Chad turned this over. "I don't answer your question?" He spoke +quite without resenting it. "Well, such questions have always a +rather exaggerated side. One doesn't know quite what you mean by +being in women's 'hands.' It's all so vague. One is when one +isn't. One isn't when one is. And then one can't quite give people +away." He seemed kindly to explain. "I've NEVER got stuck--so +very hard; and, as against anything at any time really better, I +don't think I've ever been afraid." There was something in it that +held Strether to wonder, and this gave him time to go on. He broke +out as with a more helpful thought. "Don't you know how I like +Paris itself?" + +The upshot was indeed to make our friend marvel. "Oh if THAT'S all +that's the matter with you--!" It was HE who almost showed +resentment. + +Chad's smile of a truth more than met it. "But isn't that enough?" + +Strether hesitated, but it came out. "Not enough for your mother!" +Spoken, however, it sounded a trifle odd--the effect of which was +that Chad broke into a laugh. Strether, at this, succumbed as +well, though with extreme brevity. "Permit us to have still our +theory. But if you ARE so free and so strong you're inexcusable. +I'll write in the morning," he added with decision. "I'll say I've +got you." + +This appeared to open for Chad a new interest. "How often do you +write?" + +"Oh perpetually." + +"And at great length?" + +Strether had become a little impatient. "I hope it's not found too +great." + +"Oh I'm sure not. And you hear as often?" + +Again Strether paused. "As often as I deserve." + +"Mother writes," said Chad, "a lovely letter." + +Strether, before the closed porte-cochere, fixed him a moment. +"It's more, my boy, than YOU do! But our suppositions don't +matter," he added, "if you're actually not entangled." + +Chad's pride seemed none the less a little touched. "I never WAS +that--let me insist. I always had my own way." With which he +pursued: "And I have it at present." + +"Then what are you here for? What has kept you," Strether asked, +"if you HAVE been able to leave?" + +It made Chad, after a stare, throw himself back. "Do you think +one's kept only by women?" His surprise and his verbal emphasis +rang out so clear in the still street that Strether winced till he +remembered the safety of their English speech. "Is that," the +young man demanded, "what they think at Woollett?" At the good +faith in the question Strether had changed colour, feeling that, +as he would have said, he had put his foot in it. He had appeared +stupidly to misrepresent what they thought at Woollett; but before +he had time to rectify Chad again was upon him. "I must say then +you show a low mind!" + +It so fell in, unhappily for Strether, with that reflexion of his +own prompted in him by the pleasant air of the Boulevard +Malesherbes, that its disconcerting force was rather unfairly +great. It was a dig that, administered by himself--and +administered even to poor Mrs. Newsome--was no more than salutary; +but administered by Chad--and quite logically--it came nearer +drawing blood. They HADn't a low mind--nor any approach to one; +yet incontestably they had worked, and with a certain smugness, on +a basis that might be turned against them. Chad had at any rate +pulled his visitor up; he had even pulled up his admirable mother; +he had absolutely, by a turn of the wrist and a jerk of the far-flung +noose, pulled up, in a bunch, Woollett browsing in its pride. There +was no doubt Woollett HAD insisted on his coarseness; and what +he at present stood there for in the sleeping street was, by his +manner of striking the other note, to make of such insistence a +preoccupation compromising to the insisters. It was exactly as +if they had imputed to him a vulgarity that he had by a mere +gesture caused to fall from him. The devil of the case was that +Strether felt it, by the same stroke, as falling straight upon +himself. He had been wondering a minute ago if the boy weren't a +Pagan, and he found himself wondering now if he weren't by chance +a gentleman. It didn't in the least, on the spot, spring up +helpfully for him that a person couldn't at the same time be both. +There was nothing at this moment in the air to challenge the +combination; there was everything to give it on the contrary +something of a flourish. It struck Strether into the bargain as +doing something to meet the most difficult of the questions; +though perhaps indeed only by substituting another. Wouldn't it be +precisely by having learned to be a gentleman that he had mastered +the consequent trick of looking so well that one could scarce +speak to him straight? But what in the world was the clue to such +a prime producing cause? There were too many clues then that +Strether still lacked, and these clues to clues were among them. +What it accordingly amounted to for him was that he had to take +full in the face a fresh attribution of ignorance. He had grown +used by this time to reminders, especially from his own lips, of +what he didn't know; but he had borne them because in the first +place they were private and because in the second they practically +conveyed a tribute. He didn't know what was bad, and--as others +didn't know how little he knew it--he could put up with his state. +But if he didn't know, in so important a particular, what was +good, Chad at least was now aware he didn't; and that, for some +reason, affected our friend as curiously public. It was in fact an +exposed condition that the young man left him in long enough for +him to feel its chill--till he saw fit, in a word, generously +again to cover him. This last was in truth what Chad quite +gracefully did. But he did it as with a simple thought that met +the whole of the case. "Oh I'm all right!" It was what Strether +had rather bewilderedly to go to bed on. + + + +II + + +It really looked true moreover from the way Chad was to behave +after this. He was full of attentions to his mother's ambassador; +in spite of which, all the while, the latter's other relations +rather remarkably contrived to assert themselves. Strether's +sittings pen in hand with Mrs. Newsome up in his own room were +broken, yet they were richer; and they were more than ever +interspersed with the hours in which he reported himself, in a +different fashion, but with scarce less earnestness and fulness, +to Maria Gostrey. Now that, as he would have expressed it, he had +really something to talk about he found himself, in respect to any +oddity that might reside for him in the double connexion, at once +more aware and more indifferent. He had been fine to Mrs. Newsome +about his useful friend, but it had begun to haunt his imagination +that Chad, taking up again for her benefit a pen too long disused, +might possibly be finer. It wouldn't at all do, he saw, that +anything should come up for him at Chad's hand but what +specifically was to have come; the greatest divergence from which +would be precisely the element of any lubrication of their +intercourse by levity It was accordingly to forestall such an +accident that he frankly put before the young man the several +facts, just as they had occurred, of his funny alliance. He spoke +of these facts, pleasantly and obligingly, as "the whole story," +and felt that he might qualify the alliance as funny if he +remained sufficiently grave about it. He flattered himself that he +even exaggerated the wild freedom of his original encounter with +the wonderful lady; he was scrupulously definite about the absurd +conditions in which they had made acquaintance--their having +picked each other up almost in the street; and he had (finest +inspiration of all!) a conception of carrying the war into the +enemy's country by showing surprise at the enemy's ignorance. + +He had always had a notion that this last was the grand style of +fighting; the greater therefore the reason for it, as he couldn't +remember that he had ever before fought in the grand style. Every +one, according to this, knew Miss Gostrey: how came it Chad didn't +know her? The difficulty, the impossibility, was really to escape +it; Strether put on him, by what he took for granted, the burden +of proof of the contrary. This tone was so far successful as that +Chad quite appeared to recognise her as a person whose fame had +reached him, but against his acquaintance with whom much mischance +had worked. He made the point at the same time that his social +relations, such as they could be called, were perhaps not to the +extent Strether supposed with the rising flood of their +compatriots. He hinted at his having more and more given way to a +different principle of selection; the moral of which seemed to be +that he went about little in the "colony." For the moment +certainly he had quite another interest. It was deep, what he +understood, and Strether, for himself, could only so observe it. +He couldn't see as yet how deep. Might he not all too soon! For +there was really too much of their question that Chad had already +committed himself to liking. He liked, to begin with, his +prospective stepfather; which was distinctly what had not been on +the cards. His hating him was the untowardness for which Strether +had been best prepared; he hadn't expected the boy's actual form +to give him more to do than his imputed. It gave him more through +suggesting that he must somehow make up to himself for not being +sure he was sufficiently disagreeable. That had really been +present to him as his only way to be sure he was sufficiently +thorough. The point was that if Chad's tolerance of his +thoroughness were insincere, were but the best of devices for +gaining time, it none the less did treat everything as tacitly +concluded. + +That seemed at the end of ten days the upshot of the abundant, the +recurrent talk through which Strether poured into him all it +concerned him to know, put him in full possession of facts and +figures. Never cutting these colloquies short by a minute, Chad +behaved, looked and spoke as if he were rather heavily, perhaps +even a trifle gloomily, but none the less fundamentally and +comfortably free. He made no crude profession of eagerness to +yield, but he asked the most intelligent questions, probed, at +moments, abruptly, even deeper than his friend's layer of +information, justified by these touches the native estimate of his +latent stuff, and had in every way the air of trying to live, +reflectively, into the square bright picture. He walked up and +down in front of this production, sociably took Strether's arm at +the points at which he stopped, surveyed it repeatedly from the +right and from the left, inclined a critical head to either +quarter, and, while he puffed a still more critical cigarette, +animadverted to his companion on this passage and that. Strether +sought relief--there were hours when he required it--in repeating +himself; it was in truth not to be blinked that Chad had a way. +The main question as yet was of what it was a way TO. It made +vulgar questions no more easy; but that was unimportant when all +questions save those of his own asking had dropped. That he was +free was answer enough, and it wasn't quite ridiculous that this +freedom should end by presenting itself as what was difficult to +move. His changed state, his lovely home, his beautiful things, +his easy talk, his very appetite for Strether, insatiable and, +when all was said, flattering--what were such marked matters all +but the notes of his freedom? He had the effect of making a +sacrifice of it just in these handsome forms to his visitor; which +was mainly the reason the visitor was privately, for the time, a +little out of countenance. Strether was at this period again and +again thrown back on a felt need to remodel somehow his plan. He +fairly caught himself shooting rueful glances, shy looks of +pursuit, toward the embodied influence, the definite adversary, who +had by a stroke of her own failed him and on a fond theory of +whose palpable presence he had, under Mrs. Newsome's inspiration, +altogether proceeded. He had once or twice, in secret, literally +expressed the irritated wish that SHE would come out and find her. + +He couldn't quite yet force it upon Woollett that such a career, +such a perverted young life, showed after all a certain plausible +side, DID in the case before them flaunt something like an +impunity for the social man; but he could at least treat himself +to the statement that would prepare him for the sharpest echo. +This echo--as distinct over there in the dry thin air as some +shrill "heading" above a column of print--seemed to reach him even +as he wrote. "He says there's no woman," he could hear Mrs. +Newsome report, in capitals almost of newspaper size, to Mrs. +Pocock; and he could focus in Mrs. Pocock the response of the +reader of the journal. He could see in the younger lady's face the +earnestness of her attention and catch the full scepticism of her +but slightly delayed "What is there then?" Just so he could again +as little miss the mother's clear decision: "There's plenty of +disposition, no doubt, to pretend there isn't." Strether had, +after posting his letter, the whole scene out; and it was a scene +during which, coming and going, as befell, he kept his eye not +least upon the daughter. He had his fine sense of the conviction +Mrs. Pocock would take occasion to reaffirm--a conviction bearing, +as he had from the first deeply divined it to bear, on Mr. +Strether's essential inaptitude. She had looked him in his +conscious eyes even before he sailed, and that she didn't believe +HE would find the woman had been written in her book. [sic] +Hadn't she at the best but a scant faith in his ability to find women? +It wasn't even as if he had found her mother--so much more, to her +discrimination, had her mother performed the finding. Her mother +had, in a case her private judgement of which remained educative +of Mrs. Pocock's critical sense, found the man. The man owed his +unchallenged state, in general, to the fact that Mrs. Newsome's +discoveries were accepted at Woollett; but he knew in his bones, +our friend did, how almost irresistibly Mrs. Pocock would now be +moved to show what she thought of his own. Give HER a free hand, +would be the moral, and the woman would soon be found. + +His impression of Miss Gostrey after her introduction to Chad was +meanwhile an impression of a person almost unnaturally on her +guard. He struck himself as at first unable to extract from her +what he wished; though indeed OF what he wished at this special +juncture he would doubtless have contrived to make but a crude +statement. It sifted and settled nothing to put to her, tout +betement, as she often said, "Do you like him, eh?"--thanks to his +feeling it actually the least of his needs to heap up the evidence +in the young man's favour. He repeatedly knocked at her door to +let her have it afresh that Chad's case--whatever else of minor +interest it might yield--was first and foremost a miracle almost +monstrous. It was the alteration of the entire man, and was so +signal an instance that nothing else, for the intelligent +observer, could--COULD it?--signify. "It's a plot," he declared-- +"there's more in it than meets the eye." He gave the rein to his +fancy. "It's a plant!" + +His fancy seemed to please her. "Whose then?" + +"Well, the party responsible is, I suppose, the fate that waits +for one, the dark doom that rides. What I mean is that with such +elements one can't count. I've but my poor individual, my modest +human means. It isn't playing the game to turn on the uncanny. All +one's energy goes to facing it, to tracking it. One wants, confound +it, don't you see?" he confessed with a queer face--"one wants to +enjoy anything so rare. Call it then life"--he puzzled it out-- +"call it poor dear old life simply that springs the surprise. +Nothing alters the fact that the surprise is paralysing, or at any +rate engrossing--all, practically, hang it, that one sees, that +one CAN see." + +Her silences were never barren, nor even dull. "Is that what +you've written home?" + +He tossed it off. "Oh dear, yes!" + +She had another pause while, across her carpets, he had another +walk. "If you don't look out you'll have them straight over." + +"Oh but I've said he'll go back." + +"And WILL he?" Miss Gostrey asked. + +The special tone of it made him, pulling up, look at her long. +"What's that but just the question I've spent treasures of +patience and ingenuity in giving you, by the sight of him--after +everything had led up--every facility to answer? What is it but +just the thing I came here to-day to get out of you? Will he?" + +"No--he won't," she said at last. "He's not free." + +The air of it held him. "Then you've all the while known--?" + +"I've known nothing but what I've seen; and I wonder," she +declared with some impatience, that you didn't see as much. It was +enough to be with him there--" + +"In the box? Yes," he rather blankly urged. + +"Well--to feel sure." + +"Sure of what?" + +She got up from her chair, at this, with a nearer approach than +she had ever yet shown to dismay at his dimness. She even, fairly +pausing for it, spoke with a shade of pity. "Guess!" + +It was a shade, fairly, that brought a flush into his face; so +that for a moment, as they waited together, their difference was +between them. "You mean that just your hour with him told you so +much of his story? Very good; I'm not such a fool, on my side, as +that I don't understand you, or as that I didn't in some degree +understand HIM. That he has done what he liked most isn't, among +any of us, a matter the least in dispute. There's equally little +question at this time of day of what it is he does like most. But +I'm not talking," he reasonably explained, "of any mere wretch he +may still pick up. I'm talking of some person who in his present +situation may have held her own, may really have counted." + +"That's exactly what I am!" said Miss Gostrey. But she as quickly +made her point. "I thought you thought--or that they think at +Woollett--that that's what mere wretches necessarily do. Mere +wretches necessarily DON'T!" she declared with spirit. "There +must, behind every appearance to the contrary, still be somebody-- +somebody who's not a mere wretch, since we accept the miracle. +What else but such a somebody can such a miracle be?" + +He took it in. "Because the fact itself IS the woman?" + +"A woman. Some woman or other. It's one of the things that HAVE to +be." + +"But you mean then at least a good one." + +"A good woman?" She threw up her arms with a laugh. "I should call +her excellent!" + +"Then why does he deny her?" + +Miss Gostrey thought a moment. "Because she's too good to admit! +Don't you see," she went on, "how she accounts for him?" + +Strether clearly, more and more, did see; yet it made him also see +other things. "But isn't what we want that he shall account for +HER?" + +"Well, he does. What you have before you is his way. You must +forgive him if it isn't quite outspoken. In Paris such debts are +tacit." + +Strether could imagine; but still--! "Even when the woman's good?" + +Again she laughed out. "Yes, and even when the man is! There's +always a caution in such cases," she more seriously explained-- +"for what it may seem to show. There's nothing that's taken as +showing so much here as sudden unnatural goodness." + +"Ah then you're speaking now," Strether said, "of people who are +NOT nice." + +"I delight," she replied, "in your classifications. But do you +want me," she asked, "to give you in the matter, on this ground, +the wisest advice I'm capable of? Don't consider her, don't judge +her at all in herself. Consider her and judge her only in Chad." + +He had the courage at least of his companion's logic. "Because +then I shall like her?" He almost looked, with his quick imagination +as if he already did, though seeing at once also the full extent +of how little it would suit his book. "But is that what I came +out for?" + +She had to confess indeed that it wasn't. But there was something +else. "Don't make up your mind. There are all sorts of things. You +haven't seen him all." + +This on his side Strether recognised; but his acuteness none the +less showed him the danger. "Yes, but if the more I see the better +he seems?" + +Well, she found something. "That may be--but his disavowal of her +isn't, all the same, pure consideration. There's a hitch." She +made it out. "It's the effort to sink her." + +Strether winced at the image. "To 'sink'--?" + +"Well, I mean there's a struggle, and a part of it is just what he +hides. Take time--that's the only way not to make some mistake +that you'll regret. Then you'll see. He does really want to shake +her off." + +Our friend had by this time so got into the vision that he almost +gasped. "After all she has done for him?" + +Miss Gostrey gave him a look which broke the next moment into a +wonderful smile. "He's not so good as you think!" + +They remained with him, these words, promising him, in their +character of warning, considerable help; but the support he tried +to draw from them found itself on each renewal of contact with +Chad defeated by something else. What could it be, this +disconcerting force, he asked himself, but the sense, constantly +renewed, that Chad WAS--quite in fact insisted on being--as good +as he thought? It seemed somehow as if he couldn't BUT be as good +from the moment he wasn't as bad. There was a succession of days +at all events when contact with him--and in its immediate effect, +as if it could produce no other--elbowed out of Strether's +consciousness everything but itself. Little Bilham once more +pervaded the scene, but little Bilham became even in a higher +degree than he had originally been one of the numerous forms of +the inclusive relation; a consequence promoted, to our friend's +sense, by two or three incidents with which we have yet to make +acquaintance. Waymarsh himself, for the occasion, was drawn into +the eddy; it absolutely, though but temporarily, swallowed him +down, and there were days when Strether seemed to bump against him +as a sinking swimmer might brush a submarine object. The +fathomless medium held them--Chad's manner was the fathomless +medium; and our friend felt as if they passed each other, in their +deep immersion, with the round impersonal eye of silent fish. It +was practically produced between them that Waymarsh was giving him +then his chance; and the shade of discomfort that Strether drew +from the allowance resembled not a little the embarrassment he had +known at school, as a boy, when members of his family had been +present at exhibitions. He could perform before strangers, but +relatives were fatal, and it was now as if, comparatively, +Waymarsh were a relative. He seemed to hear him say "Strike up +then!" and to enjoy a foretaste of conscientious domestic +criticism. He HAD struck up, so far as he actually could; Chad +knew by this time in profusion what he wanted; and what vulgar +violence did his fellow pilgrim expect of him when he had really +emptied his mind? It went somehow to and fro that what poor +Waymarsh meant was "I told you so--that you'd lose your immortal +soul!" but it was also fairly explicit that Strether had his own +challenge and that, since they must go to the bottom of things, he +wasted no more virtue in watching Chad than Chad wasted in +watching him. His dip for duty's sake--where was it worse than +Waymarsh's own? For HE needn't have stopped resisting and +refusing, needn't have parleyed, at that rate, with the foe. + +The strolls over Paris to see something or call somewhere were +accordingly inevitable and natural, and the late sessions in the +wondrous troisieme, the lovely home, when men dropped in and the +picture composed more suggestively through the haze of tobacco, of +music more or less good and of talk more or less polyglot, were on +a principle not to be distinguished from that of the mornings and +the afternoons. Nothing, Strether had to recognise as he leaned +back and smoked, could well less resemble a scene of violence than +even the liveliest of these occasions. They were occasions of +discussion, none the less, and Strether had never in his life +heard so many opinions on so many subjects. There were opinions at +Woollett, but only on three or four. The differences were there to +match; if they were doubtless deep, though few, they were quiet-- +they were, as might be said, almost as shy as if people had been +ashamed of them. People showed little diffidence about such +things, on the other hand, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, and were +so far from being ashamed of them--or indeed of anything else-- +that they often seemed to have invented them to avert those +agreements that destroy the taste of talk. No one had ever done that +at Woollett, though Strether could remember times when he himself had +been tempted to it without quite knowing why. He saw why at present +--he had but wanted to promote intercourse. + +These, however, were but parenthetic memories, and the turn taken +by his affair on the whole was positively that if his nerves were +on the stretch it was because he missed violence. When he asked +himself if none would then, in connexion with it, ever come at +all, he might almost have passed as wondering how to provoke it. +It would be too absurd if such a vision as THAT should have to be +invoked for relief; it was already marked enough as absurd that he +should actually have begun with flutters and dignities on the +score of a single accepted meal. What sort of a brute had he +expected Chad to be, anyway?--Strether had occasion to make the +enquiry but was careful to make it in private. He could himself, +comparatively recent as it was--it was truly but the fact of a few +days since--focus his primal crudity; but he would on the +approach of an observer, as if handling an illicit possession, +have slipped the reminiscence out of sight. There were echoes of +it still in Mrs. Newsome's letters, and there were moments when +these echoes made him exclaim on her want of tact. He blushed of +course, at once, still more for the explanation than for the +ground of it: it came to him in time to save his manners that she +couldn't at the best become tactful as quickly as he. Her tact had +to reckon with the Atlantic Ocean, the General Post-Office and the +extravagant curve of the globe. Chad had one day offered tea at +the Boulevard Malesherbes to a chosen few, a group again including +the unobscured Miss Barrace; and Strether had on coming out walked +away with the acquaintance whom in his letters to Mrs. Newsome he +always spoke of as the little artist-man. He had had full occasion +to mention him as the other party, so oddly, to the only close +personal alliance observation had as yet detected in Chad's +existence. Little Bilham's way this afternoon was not Strether's, +but he had none the less kindly come with him, and it was somehow +a part of his kindness that as it had sadly begun to rain they +suddenly found themselves seated for conversation at a cafe in +which they had taken refuge. He had passed no more crowded hour in +Chad's society than the one just ended; he had talked with Miss +Barrace, who had reproached him with not having come to see her, +and he had above all hit on a happy thought for causing Waymarsh's +tension to relax. Something might possibly be extracted for the +latter from the idea of his success with that lady, whose quick +apprehension of what might amuse her had given Strether a free +hand. What had she meant if not to ask whether she couldn't help +him with his splendid encumbrance, and mightn't the sacred rage at +any rate be kept a little in abeyance by thus creating for his +comrade's mind even in a world of irrelevance the possibility of a +relation? What was it but a relation to be regarded as so +decorative and, in especial, on the strength of it, to be whirled +away, amid flounces and feathers, in a coupe lined, by what +Strether could make out, with dark blue brocade? He himself had +never been whirled away--never at least in a coupe and behind a +footman; he had driven with Miss Gostrey in cabs, with Mrs. +Pocock, a few times, in an open buggy, with Mrs. Newsome in a +four-seated cart and, occasionally up at the mountains, on a +buckboard; but his friend's actual adventure transcended his +personal experience. He now showed his companion soon enough +indeed how inadequate, as a general monitor, this last queer +quantity could once more feel itself. + +"What game under the sun is he playing?" He signified the next +moment that his allusion was not to the fat gentleman immersed in +dominoes on whom his eyes had begun by resting, but to their host +of the previous hour, as to whom, there on the velvet bench, with +a final collapse of all consistency, he treated himself to the +comfort of indiscretion. "Where do you see him come out?" + +Little Bilham, in meditation, looked at him with a kindness almost +paternal. "Don't you like it over here?" + +Strether laughed out--for the tone was indeed droll; he let +himself go. "What has that to do with it? The only thing I've any +business to like is to feel that I'm moving him. That's why I ask +you whether you believe I AM? Is the creature"--and he did his +best to show that he simply wished to ascertain--"honest?" + +His companion looked responsible, but looked it through a small +dim smile. "What creature do you mean?" + +It was on this that they did have for a little a mute interchange. +"Is it untrue that he's free? How then," Strether asked wondering +"does he arrange his life?" + +"Is the creature you mean Chad himself?" little Bilham said. + +Strether here, with a rising hope, just thought, "We must take one +of them at a time." But his coherence lapsed. "IS there some +woman? Of whom he's really afraid of course I mean--or who does +with him what she likes." + +"It's awfully charming of you," Bilham presently remarked, "not to +have asked me that before." + +"Oh I'm not fit for my job!" + +The exclamation had escaped our friend, but it made little Bilham +more deliberate. "Chad's a rare case!" he luminously observed. +"He's awfully changed," he added. + +"Then you see it too?" + +"The way he has improved? Oh yes--I think every one must see it. +But I'm not sure," said little Bilham, "that I didn't like him +about as well in his other state." + +"Then this IS really a new state altogether?" + +"Well," the young man after a moment returned, "I'm not sure he +was really meant by nature to be quite so good. It's like the new +edition of an old book that one has been fond of--revised and +amended, brought up to date, but not quite the thing one knew and +loved. However that may be at all events," he pursued, "I don't +think, you know, that he's really playing, as you call it, any +game. I believe he really wants to go back and take up a career. +He's capable of one, you know, that will improve and enlarge him +still more. He won't then," little Bilham continued to remark, "be +my pleasant well-rubbed old-fashioned volume at all. But of course +I'm beastly immoral. I'm afraid it would be a funny world +altogether--a world with things the way I like them. I ought, I +dare say, to go home and go into business myself. Only I'd simply +rather die--simply. And I've not the least difficulty in making +up my mind not to, and in knowing exactly why, and in defending my +ground against all comers. All the same," he wound up, "I assure +you I don't say a word against it--for himself, I mean--to Chad. I +seem to see it as much the best thing for him. You see he's not +happy." + +"DO I?"--Strether stared. "I've been supposing I see just the +opposite--an extraordinary case of the equilibrium arrived at and +assured." + +"Oh there's a lot behind it." + +"Ah there you are!" Strether exclaimed. "That's just what I want +to get at. You speak of your familiar volume altered out of +recognition. Well, who's the editor?" + +Little Bilham looked before him a minute in silence. "He ought to +get married. THAT would do it. And he wants to." + +"Wants to marry her?" + +Again little Bilham waited, and, with a sense that he had +information, Strether scarce knew what was coming. "He wants to be +free. He isn't used, you see," the young man explained in his +lucid way, "to being so good." + +Strether hesitated. "Then I may take it from you that he IS good?" + +His companion matched his pause, but making it up with a quiet +fulness. "DO take it from me." + +"Well then why isn't he free? He swears to me he is, but meanwhile +does nothing--except of course that he's so kind to me--to prove +it; and couldn't really act much otherwise if he weren't. My +question to you just now was exactly on this queer impression of +his diplomacy: as if instead of really giving ground his line were +to keep me on here and set me a bad example." + +As the half-hour meanwhile had ebbed Strether paid his score, and +the waiter was presently in the act of counting out change. Our +friend pushed back to him a fraction of it, with which, after an +emphatic recognition, the personage in question retreated. "You +give too much," little Bilham permitted himself benevolently to +observe. + +"Oh I always give too much!" Strether helplessly sighed. "But you +don't," he went on as if to get quickly away from the contemplation +of that doom, "answer my question. Why isn't he free?" + +Little Bilham had got up as if the transaction with the waiter had +been a signal, and had already edged out between the table and the +divan. The effect of this was that a minute later they had quitted +the place, the gratified waiter alert again at the open door. +Strether had found himself deferring to his companion's abruptness +as to a hint that he should be answered as soon as they were more +isolated. This happened when after a few steps in the outer air +they had turned the next comer. There our friend had kept it up. +"Why isn't he free if he's good?" + +Little Bilham looked him full in the face. "Because it's a +virtuous attachment." + +This had settled the question so effectually for the time--that is +for the next few days--that it had given Strether almost a new +lease of life. It must be added however that, thanks to his +constant habit of shaking the bottle in which life handed him the +wine of experience, he presently found the taste of the lees +rising as usual into his draught. His imagination had in other +words already dealt with his young friend's assertion; of which it +had made something that sufficiently came out on the very next +occasion of his seeing Maria Gostrey. This occasion moreover had +been determined promptly by a new circumstance--a circumstance he +was the last man to leave her for a day in ignorance of. "When I +said to him last night," he immediately began, "that without some +definite word from him now that will enable me to speak to them +over there of our sailing--or at least of mine, giving them some +sort of date--my responsibility becomes uncomfortable and my +situation awkward; when I said that to him what do you think was +his reply?" And then as she this time gave it up: "Why that he has +two particular friends, two ladies, mother and daughter, about to +arrive in Paris--coming back from an absence; and that he wants +me so furiously to meet them, know them and like them, that I +shall oblige him by kindly not bringing our business to a crisis +till he has had a chance to see them again himself. Is that," +Strether enquired, "the way he's going to try to get off? These +are the people," he explained, "that he must have gone down to see +before I arrived. They're the best friends he has in the world, +and they take more interest than any one else in what concerns +him. As I'm his next best he sees a thousand reasons why we should +comfortably meet. He hasn't broached the question sooner because +their return was uncertain--seemed in fact for the present +impossible. But he more than intimates that--if you can believe +it--their desire to make my acquaintance has had to do with their +surmounting difficulties." + +"They're dying to see you?" Miss Gostrey asked. + +"Dying. Of course," said Strether, "they're the virtuous attachment." +He had already told her about that--had seen her the day after +his talk with little Bilham; and they had then threshed out +together the bearing of the revelation. She had helped him to put +into it the logic in which little Bilham had left it slightly +deficient Strether hadn't pressed him as to the object of the +preference so unexpectedly described; feeling in the presence of +it, with one of his irrepressible scruples, a delicacy from which +he had in the quest of the quite other article worked himself +sufficiently free. He had held off, as on a small principle of +pride, from permitting his young friend to mention a name; wishing +to make with this the great point that Chad's virtuous attachments +were none of his business. He had wanted from the first not to +think too much of his dignity, but that was no reason for not +allowing it any little benefit that might turn up. He had often +enough wondered to what degree his interference might pass for +interested; so that there was no want of luxury in letting it be +seen whenever he could that he didn't interfere. That had of +course at the same time not deprived him of the further luxury of +much private astonishment; which however he had reduced to some +order before communicating his knowledge. When he had done this at +last it was with the remark that, surprised as Miss Gostrey might, +like himself, at first be, she would probably agree with him on +reflexion that such an account of the matter did after all fit the +confirmed appearances. Nothing certainly, on all the indications, +could have been a greater change for him than a virtuous +attachment, and since they had been in search of the "word" as the +French called it, of that change, little Bilham's announcement-- +though so long and so oddly delayed--would serve as well as +another. She had assured Strether in fact after a pause that the +more she thought of it the more it did serve; and yet her +assurance hadn't so weighed with him as that before they parted he +hadn't ventured to challenge her sincerity. Didn't she believe the +attachment was virtuous?--he had made sure of her again with the +aid of that question. The tidings he brought her on this second +occasion were moreover such as would help him to make surer still. + +She showed at first none the less as only amused. "You say there +are two? An attachment to them both then would, I suppose, almost +necessarily be innocent." + +Our friend took the point, but he had his clue. "Mayn't he be +still in the stage of not quite knowing which of them, mother or +daughter, he likes best?" + +She gave it more thought. "Oh it must be the daughter--at his +age." + +"Possibly. Yet what do we know," Strether asked, "about hers? She +may be old enough." + +"Old enough for what?" + +"Why to marry Chad. That may be, you know, what they want. And if +Chad wants it too, and little Bilham wants it, and even we, at a +pinch, could do with it--that is if she doesn't prevent repatriation +--why it may be plain sailing yet." + +It was always the case for him in these counsels that each of his +remarks, as it came, seemed to drop into a deeper well. He had at +all events to wait a moment to hear the slight splash of this one. +"I don't see why if Mr. Newsome wants to marry the young lady he +hasn't already done it or hasn't been prepared with some statement +to you about it. And if he both wants to marry her and is on good +terms with them why isn't he 'free'?" + +Strether, responsively, wondered indeed. "Perhaps the girl herself +doesn't like him." + +"Then why does he speak of them to you as he does?" + +Strether's mind echoed the question, but also again met it. "Perhaps +it's with the mother he's on good terms." + +"As against the daughter?" + +"Well, if she's trying to persuade the daughter to consent to him, +what could make him like the mother more? Only," Strether threw +out, "why shouldn't the daughter consent to him?" + +"Oh," said Miss Gostrey, "mayn't it be that every one else isn't +quite so struck with him as you?" + +"Doesn't regard him you mean as such an 'eligible' young man? Is +that what I've come to?" he audibly and rather gravely sought to +know. "However," he went on, "his marriage is what his mother most +desires--that is if it will help. And oughtn't ANY marriage to +help? They must want him"--he had already worked it out--"to be +better off. Almost any girl he may marry will have a direct +interest in his taking up his chances. It won't suit HER at least +that he shall miss them." + +Miss Gostrey cast about. "No--you reason well! But of course on +the other hand there's always dear old Woollett itself." + +"Oh yes," he mused--"there's always dear old Woollett itself." + +She waited a moment. "The young lady mayn't find herself able to +swallow THAT quantity. She may think it's paying too much; she may +weigh one thing against another." + +Strether, ever restless in such debates, took a vague turn "It +will all depend on who she is. That of course--the proved ability +to deal with dear old Woollett, since I'm sure she does deal with +it--is what makes so strongly for Mamie." + +"Mamie?" + +He stopped short, at her tone, before her; then, though seeing +that it represented not vagueness, but a momentary embarrassed +fulness, let his exclamation come. "You surely haven't forgotten +about Mamie!" + +"No, I haven't forgotten about Mamie," she smiled. "There's no +doubt whatever that there's ever so much to be said for her. +Mamie's MY girl!" she roundly declared. + +Strether resumed for a minute his walk. "She's really perfectly +lovely, you know. Far prettier than any girl I've seen over here +yet." + +"That's precisely on what I perhaps most build." And she mused a +moment in her friend's way. "I should positively like to take her +in hand!" + +He humoured the fancy, though indeed finally to deprecate it. "Oh +but don't, in your zeal, go over to her! I need you most and +can't, you know, be left." + +But she kept it up. "I wish they'd send her out to me!" + +"If they knew you," he returned, "they would " + +"Ah but don't they?--after all that, as I've understood you you've +told them about me?" + +He had paused before her again, but he continued his course "They +WILL--before, as you say, I've done." Then he came out with the +point he had wished after all most to make. "It seems to give away +now his game. This is what he has been doing--keeping me along +for. He has been waiting for them." + +Miss Gostrey drew in her lips. "You see a good deal in it!" + +"I doubt if I see as much as you. Do you pretend," he went on, +"that you don't see--?" + +"Well, what?"--she pressed him as he paused. + +"Why that there must be a lot between them--and that it has been +going on from the first; even from before I came." + +She took a minute to answer. "Who are they then--if it's so +grave?" + +"It mayn't be grave--it may be gay. But at any rate it's marked. +Only I don't know," Strether had to confess, "anything about them. +Their name for instance was a thing that, after little Bilham's +information, I found it a kind of refreshment not to feel obliged +to follow up." + +"Oh," she returned, "if you think you've got off--!" + +Her laugh produced in him a momentary gloom. "I don't think I've +got off. I only think I'm breathing for about five minutes. I dare +say I SHALL have, at the best, still to get on." A look, over it +all, passed between them, and the next minute he had come back to +good humour. "I don't meanwhile take the smallest interest in +their name." + +"Nor in their nationality?--American, French, English, Polish?" + +"I don't care the least little 'hang,'" he smiled, "for their +nationality. It would be nice if they're Polish!" he almost +immediately added. + +"Very nice indeed." The transition kept up her spirits. "So you +see you do care." + +He did this contention a modified justice. "I think I should if +they WERE Polish. Yes," he thought--"there might be joy in THAT." + +"Let us then hope for it." But she came after this nearer to the +question. "If the girl's of the right age of course the mother +can't be. I mean for the virtuous attachment. If the girl's +twenty--and she can't be less--the mother must be at least forty. +So it puts the mother out. SHE'S too old for him." + +Strether, arrested again, considered and demurred. "Do you think +so? Do you think any one would be too old for him? I'M eighty, and +I'm too young. But perhaps the girl," he continued, "ISn't twenty. +Perhaps she's only ten--but such a little dear that Chad finds +himself counting her in as an attraction of the acquaintance. +Perhaps she's only five. Perhaps the mother's but five-and-twenty +--a charming young widow." + +Miss Gostrey entertained the suggestion. "She IS a widow then?" + +"I haven't the least idea!" They once more, in spite of this +vagueness, exchanged a look--a look that was perhaps the longest +yet. It seemed in fact, the next thing, to require to explain +itself; which it did as it could. "I only feel what I've told you +--that he has some reason." + +Miss Gostrey's imagination had taken its own flight. "Perhaps +she's NOT a widow." + +Strether seemed to accept the possibility with reserve. Still he +accepted it. "Then that's why the attachment--if it's to her--is +virtuous." + +But she looked as if she scarce followed. "Why is it virtuous if-- +since she's free--there's nothing to impose on it any condition?" + +He laughed at her question. "Oh I perhaps don't mean as virtuous +as THAT! Your idea is that it can be virtuous--in any sense worthy +of the name--only if she's NOT free? But what does it become +then," he asked, "for HER?" + +"Ah that's another matter." He said nothing for a moment, and she +soon went on. "I dare say you're right, at any rate, about +Mr. Newsome's little plan. He HAS been trying you--has been +reporting on you to these friends." + +Strether meanwhile had had time to think more. "Then where's his +straightness?" + +"Well, as we say, it's struggling up, breaking out, asserting itself +as it can. We can be on the side, you see, of his straightness. +We can help him. But he has made out," said Miss Gostrey, "that +you'll do." + +"Do for what?" + +"Why, for THEM--for ces dames. He has watched you, studied you, +liked you--and recognised that THEY must. It's a great compliment +to you, my dear man; for I'm sure they're particular. You came out +for a success. Well," she gaily declared, "you're having it!" + +He took it from her with momentary patience and then turned +abruptly away. It was always convenient to him that there were so +many fine things in her room to look at. But the examination of +two or three of them appeared soon to have determined a speech +that had little to do with them. "You don't believe in it!" + +"In what?" + +"In the character of the attachment. In its innocence." + +But she defended herself. "I don't pretend to know anything about +it. Everything's possible. We must see." + +"See?" he echoed with a groan. "Haven't we seen enough?" + +"I haven't," she smiled. + +"But do you suppose then little Bilham has lied?" + +"You must find out." + +It made him almost turn pale. "Find out any MORE?" + +He had dropped on a sofa for dismay; but she seemed, as she stood +over him, to have the last word. "Wasn't what you came out for to +find out ALL?" + + + + + +Book Fifth + + + + +I + + +The Sunday of the next week was a wonderful day, and Chad Newsome +had let his friend know in advance that he had provided for it. +There had already been a question of his taking him to see the +great Gloriani, who was at home on Sunday afternoons and at whose +house, for the most part, fewer bores were to be met than +elsewhere; but the project, through some accident, had not had +instant effect, and now revived in happier conditions. Chad had +made the point that the celebrated sculptor had a queer old +garden, for which the weather--spring at last frank and fair--was +propitious; and two or three of his other allusions had confirmed +for Strether the expectation of something special. He had by this +time, for all introductions and adventures, let himself recklessly +go, cherishing the sense that whatever the young man showed him he +was showing at least himself. He could have wished indeed, so far +as this went, that Chad were less of a mere cicerone; for he was +not without the impression--now that the vision of his game, his +plan, his deep diplomacy, did recurrently assert itself--of his +taking refuge from the realities of their intercourse in profusely +dispensing, as our friend mentally phrased et panem et circenses. +Our friend continued to feel rather smothered in flowers, though +he made in his other moments the almost angry inference that this +was only because of his odious ascetic suspicion of any form of +beauty. He periodically assured himself--for his reactions were +sharp--that he shouldn't reach the truth of anything till he had +at least got rid of that. + +He had known beforehand that Madame de Vionnet and her daughter +would probably be on view, an intimation to that effect having +constituted the only reference again made by Chad to his good +friends from the south. The effect of Strether's talk about them +with Miss Gostrey had been quite to consecrate his reluctance to +pry; something in the very air of Chad's silence--judged in the +light of that talk--offered it to him as a reserve he could +markedly match. It shrouded them about with he scarce knew what, a +consideration, a distinction; he was in presence at any rate--so +far as it placed him there--of ladies; and the one thing that was +definite for him was that they themselves should be, to the extent +of his responsibility, in presence of a gentleman. Was it because +they were very beautiful, very clever, or even very good--was it +for one of these reasons that Chad was, so to speak, nursing his +effect? Did he wish to spring them, in the Woollett phrase, with a +fuller force--to confound his critic, slight though as yet the +criticism, with some form of merit exquisitely incalculable? The +most the critic had at all events asked was whether the persons in +question were French; and that enquiry had been but a proper +comment on the sound of their name. "Yes. That is no!" had been +Chad's reply; but he had immediately added that their English was +the most charming in the world, so that if Strether were wanting +an excuse for not getting on with them he wouldn't in the least +find one. Never in fact had Strether--in the mood into which the +place had quickly launched him--felt, for himself, less the need +of an excuse. Those he might have found would have been, at the +worst, all for the others, the people before him, in whose liberty +to be as they were he was aware that he positively rejoiced. His +fellow guests were multiplying, and these things, their liberty, +their intensity, their variety, their conditions at large, were in +fusion in the admirable medium of the scene. + +The place itself was a great impression--a small pavilion, clear-faced +and sequestered, an effect of polished parquet, of fine white panel +and spare sallow gilt, of decoration delicate and rare, in the heart +of the Faubourg Saint-Germain and on the edge of a cluster of gardens +attached to old noble houses. Far back from streets and unsuspected +by crowds, reached by a long passage and a quiet court, +it was as striking to the unprepared mind, he immediately saw, +as a treasure dug up; giving him too, more than anything yet, +the note of the range of the immeasurable town and sweeping away, +as by a last brave brush, his usual landmarks and terms. +It was in the garden, a spacious cherished remnant, out of +which a dozen persons had already passed, that Chad's host +presently met them while the tall bird-haunted trees, all of a twitter +with the spring and the weather, and the high party-walls, +on the other side of which grave hotels stood off for privacy, +spoke of survival, transmission, association, a strong indifferent +persistent order. The day was so soft that the little party had +practically adjourned to the open air but the open air was in such +conditions all a chamber of state. Strether had presently the +sense of a great convent, a convent of missions, famous for he +scarce knew what, a nursery of young priests, of scattered shade, +of straight alleys and chapel-bells, that spread its mass in one +quarter; he had the sense of names in the air, of ghosts at the +windows, of signs and tokens, a whole range of expression, all +about him, too thick for prompt discrimination. + +This assault of images became for a moment, in the address of the +distinguished sculptor, almost formidable: Gloriani showed him, +in such perfect confidence, on Chad's introduction of him, a fine +worn handsome face, a face that was like an open letter in a +foreign tongue. With his genius in his eyes, his manners on his +lips, his long career behind him and his honours and rewards all +round, the great artist, in the course of a single sustained look +and a few words of delight at receiving him, affected our friend +as a dazzling prodigy of type. Strether had seen in museums--in +the Luxembourg as well as, more reverently, later on, in the New +York of the billionaires--the work of his hand; knowing too that +after an earlier time in his native Rome he had migrated, in +mid-career, to Paris, where, with a personal lustre almost violent, +he shone in a constellation: all of which was more than enough +to crown him, for his guest, with the light, with the romance, +of glory. Strether, in contact with that element as he had never +yet so intimately been, had the consciousness of opening to it, +for the happy instant, all the windows of his mind, of letting this +rather grey interior drink in for once the sun of a clime not +marked in his old geography. He was to remember again repeatedly +the medal-like Italian face, in which every line was an artist's +own, in which time told only as tone and consecration; and he was +to recall in especial, as the penetrating radiance, as the +communication of the illustrious spirit itself, the manner in +which, while they stood briefly, in welcome and response, face to +face, he was held by the sculptor's eyes. He wasn't soon to forget +them, was to think of them, all unconscious, unintending, +preoccupied though they were, as the source of the deepest +intellectual sounding to which he had ever been exposed. He was in +fact quite to cherish his vision of it, to play with it in idle +hours; only speaking of it to no one and quite aware he couldn't +have spoken without appearing to talk nonsense. Was what it had +told him or what it had asked him the greater of the mysteries? +Was it the most special flare, unequalled, supreme, of the +aesthetic torch, lighting that wondrous world for ever, or was it +above all the long straight shaft sunk by a personal acuteness +that life had seasoned to steel? Nothing on earth could have been +stranger and no one doubtless more surprised than the artist +himself, but it was for all the world to Strether just then as if +in the matter of his accepted duty he had positively been on trial. +The deep human expertness in Gloriani's charming smile--oh the +terrible life behind it!--was flashed upon him as a test of his stuff. + +Chad meanwhile, after having easily named his companion, had still +more easily turned away and was already greeting other persons present. +He was as easy, clever Chad, with the great artist as with his obscure +compatriot, and as easy with every one else as with either: +this fell into its place for Strether and made almost a new light, +giving him, as a concatenation, something more he could enjoy. +He liked Gloriani, but should never see him again; of that he was +sufficiently sure. Chad accordingly, who was wonderful with both +of them, was a kind of link for hopeless fancy, an implication of +possibilities--oh if everything had been different! Strether noted +at all events that he was thus on terms with illustrious spirits, +and also that--yes, distinctly--he hadn't in the least swaggered +about it. Our friend hadn't come there only for this figure of Abel +Newsome's son, but that presence threatened to affect the observant +mind as positively central. Gloriani indeed, remembering something +and excusing himself, pursued Chad to speak to him, and Strether was +left musing on many things. One of them was the question of whether, +since he had been tested, he had passed. Did the artist drop him +from having made out that he wouldn't do? He really felt just to-day +that he might do better than usual. Hadn't he done well enough, +so far as that went, in being exactly so dazzled? and in not having +too, as he almost believed, wholly hidden from his host that he felt +the latter's plummet? Suddenly, across the garden, he saw little +Bilham approach, and it was a part of the fit that was on him that +as their eyes met he guessed also HIS knowledge. If he had said to +him on the instant what was uppermost he would have said: "HAVE I +passed?--for of course I know one has to pass here." Little Bilham +would have reassured him, have told him that he exaggerated, and +have adduced happily enough the argument of little Bilham's own +very presence; which, in truth, he could see, was as easy a one as +Gloriani's own or as Chad's. He himself would perhaps then after a +while cease to be frightened, would get the point of view for some +of the faces--types tremendously alien, alien to Woollett--that he +had already begun to take in. Who were they all, the dispersed +groups and couples, the ladies even more unlike those of Woollett +than the gentlemen?--this was the enquiry that, when his young +friend had greeted him, he did find himself making. + +"Oh they're every one--all sorts and sizes; of course I mean +within limits, though limits down perhaps rather more than limits +up. There are always artists--he's beautiful and inimitable to the +cher confrere; and then gros bonnets of many kinds--ambassadors, +cabinet ministers, bankers, generals, what do I know? even Jews. +Above all always some awfully nice women--and not too many; +sometimes an actress, an artist, a great performer--but only when +they're not monsters; and in particular the right femmes du monde. +You can fancy his history on that side--I believe it's fabulous: +they NEVER give him up. Yet he keeps them down: no one knows how +he manages; it's too beautiful and bland. Never too many--and a +mighty good thing too; just a perfect choice. But there are not in +any way many bores; it has always been so; he has some secret. +It's extraordinary. And you don't find it out. He's the same to +every one. He doesn't ask questions.' + +"Ah doesn't he?" Strether laughed. + +Bilham met it with all his candour. "How then should I be here? + +"Oh for what you tell me. You're part of the perfect choice." + +Well, the young man took in the scene. "It seems rather good to-day." + +Strether followed the direction of his eyes. "Are they all, this +time, femmes du monde?" + +Little Bilham showed his competence. "Pretty well." + +This was a category our friend had a feeling for; a light, +romantic and mysterious, on the feminine element, in which he +enjoyed for a little watching it. "Are there any Poles?" + +His companion considered. "I think I make out a 'Portuguee.' But +I've seen Turks." + +Strether wondered, desiring justice. "They seem--all the women-- +very harmonious." + +"Oh in closer quarters they come out!" And then, while Strether +was aware of fearing closer quarters, though giving himself again +to the harmonies, "Well," little Bilham went on, "it IS at the +worst rather good, you know. If you like it, you feel it, this +way, that shows you're not in the least out But you always know +things," he handsomely added, "immediately." + +Strether liked it and felt it only too much; so "I say, don't lay +traps for me!" he rather helplessly murmured. + +"Well," his companion returned, "he's wonderfully kind to us." + +"To us Americans you mean?" + +"Oh no--he doesn't know anything about THAT. That's half the +battle here--that you can never hear politics. We don't talk them. +I mean to poor young wretches of all sorts. And yet it's always as +charming as this; it's as if, by something in the air, our squalor +didn't show. It puts us all back--into the last century." + +"I'm afraid," Strether said, amused, "that it puts me rather +forward: oh ever so far!" + +"Into the next? But isn't that only," little Bilham asked, +"because you're really of the century before?" + +"The century before the last? Thank you!" Strether laughed. "If I +ask you about some of the ladies it can't be then that I may hope, +as such a specimen of the rococo, to please them." + +"On the contrary they adore--we all adore here--the rococo, and +where is there a better setting for it than the whole thing, the +pavilion and the garden, together? There are lots of people with +collections," little Bilham smiled as he glanced round. "You'll be +secured!" + +It made Strether for a moment give himself again to contemplation. +There were faces he scarce knew what to make of. Were they +charming or were they only strange? He mightn't talk politics, yet +he suspected a Pole or two. The upshot was the question at the +back of his head from the moment his friend had joined him. "Have +Madame de Vionnet and her daughter arrived?" + +"I haven't seen them yet, but Miss Gostrey has come. She's in the +pavilion looking at objects. One can see SHE'S a collector," +little Bilham added without offence. + +"Oh yes, she's a collector, and I knew she was to come. Is Madame +de Vionnet a collector?" Strether went on. + +"Rather, I believe; almost celebrated." The young man met, on it, +a little, his friend's eyes. "I happen to know--from Chad, whom I +saw last night--that they've come back; but only yesterday. +He wasn't sure--up to the last. This, accordingly," little Bilham +went on, "will be--if they ARE here--their first appearance after +their return." + +Strether, very quickly, turned these things over. "Chad told you +last night? To me, on our way here, he said nothing about it." + +"But did you ask him?" + +Strether did him the justice. "I dare say not." + +"Well," said little Bilham, "you're not a person to whom it's easy +to tell things you don't want to know. Though it is easy, I admit-- +it's quite beautiful," he benevolently added, "when you do want to." + +Strether looked at him with an indulgence that matched his +intelligence. "Is that the deep reasoning on which--about these +ladies--you've been yourself so silent?" + +Little Bilham considered the depth of his reasoning. "I haven't +been silent. I spoke of them to you the other day, the day we sat +together after Chad's tea-party." + +Strether came round to it. "They then are the virtuous attachment?" + +"I can only tell you that it's what they pass for. But isn't that +enough? What more than a vain appearance does the wisest of us +know? I commend you," the young man declared with a pleasant +emphasis, "the vain appearance." + +Strether looked more widely round, and what he saw, from face to face, +deepened the effect of his young friend's words. "Is it so good?" + +"Magnificent." + +Strether had a pause. "The husband's dead?" + +"Dear no. Alive." + +"Oh!" said Strether. After which, as his companion laughed: +"How then can it be so good?" + +"You'll see for yourself. One does see." + +"Chad's in love with the daughter?" + +"That's what I mean." + +Strether wondered. "Then where's the difficulty?" + +"Why, aren't you and I--with our grander bolder ideas?" + +"Oh mine--!" Strether said rather strangely. But then as if to +attenuate: "You mean they won't hear of Woollett?" + +Little Bilham smiled. "Isn't that just what you must see about?" + +It had brought them, as she caught the last words, into relation +with Miss Barrace, whom Strether had already observed--as he had +never before seen a lady at a party--moving about alone. Coming +within sound of them she had already spoken, and she took again, +through her long-handled glass, all her amused and amusing +possession. "How much, poor Mr. Strether, you seem to have to see +about! But you can't say," she gaily declared, "that I don't do +what I can to help you. Mr. Waymarsh is placed. I've left him in +the house with Miss Gostrey." + +"The way," little Bilham exclaimed, "Mr. Strether gets the ladies +to work for him! He's just preparing to draw in another; to +pounce--don't you see him?--on Madame de Vionnet." + +"Madame de Vionnet? Oh, oh, oh!" Miss Barrace cried in a wonderful +crescendo. There was more in it, our friend made out, than met the +ear. Was it after all a joke that he should be serious about +anything? He envied Miss Barrace at any rate her power of not +being. She seemed, with little cries and protests and quick +recognitions, movements like the darts of some fine high-feathered +free-pecking bird, to stand before life as before some full +shop-window. You could fairly hear, as she selected and pointed, +the tap of her tortoise-shell against the glass. "It's certain that +we do need seeing about; only I'm glad it's not I who have to do it. +One does, no doubt, begin that way; then suddenly one finds that +one has given it up. It's too much, it's too difficult. You're +wonderful, you people," she continued to Strether, "for not feeling +those things--by which I mean impossibilities. You never feel them. +You face them with a fortitude that makes it a lesson to watch you." + +"Ah but"--little Bilham put it with discouragement--"what do we +achieve after all? We see about you and report--when we even go so +far as reporting. But nothing's done." + +"Oh you, Mr. Bilham," she replied as with an impatient rap on the +glass, "you're not worth sixpence! You come over to convert the +savages--for I know you verily did, I remember you--and the +savages simply convert YOU." + +"Not even!" the young man woefully confessed: "they haven't gone +through that form. They've simply--the cannibals!--eaten me; +converted me if you like, but converted me into food. I'm but the +bleached bones of a Christian." + +"Well then there we are! Only"--and Miss Barrace appealed again to +Strether--"don't let it discourage you. You'll break down soon +enough, but you'll meanwhile have had your moments. Il faut en +avoir. I always like to see you while you last. And I'll tell you +who WILL last." + +"Waymarsh?"--he had already taken her up. + +She laughed out as at the alarm of it. "He'll resist even Miss +Gostrey: so grand is it not to understand. He's wonderful." + +"He is indeed," Strether conceded. "He wouldn't tell me of this +affair--only said he had an engagement; but with such a gloom, you +must let me insist, as if it had been an engagement to be hanged. +Then silently and secretly he turns up here with you. Do you call +THAT 'lasting'?" + +"Oh I hope it's lasting!" Miss Barrace said. "But he only, at the +best, bears with me. He doesn't understand--not one little scrap. +He's delightful. He's wonderful," she repeated. + +"Michelangelesque!"--little Bilham completed her meaning. "He IS +a success. Moses, on the ceiling, brought down to the floor; +overwhelming, colossal, but somehow portable." + +"Certainly, if you mean by portable," she returned, "looking so +well in one's carriage. He's too funny beside me in his comer; he +looks like somebody, somebody foreign and famous, en exil; so that +people wonder--it's very amusing--whom I'm taking about. I show +him Paris, show him everything, and he never turns a hair. He's +like the Indian chief one reads about, who, when he comes up to +Washington to see the Great Father, stands wrapt in his blanket +and gives no sign. I might be the Great Father--from the way he +takes everything." She was delighted at this hit of her identity +with that personage--it fitted so her character; she declared it +was the title she meant henceforth to adopt. "And the way he sits, +too, in the corner of my room, only looking at my visitors very +hard and as if he wanted to start something! They wonder what he +does want to start. But he's wonderful," Miss Barrace once more +insisted. "He has never started anything yet." + +It presented him none the less, in truth, to her actual friends, +who looked at each other in intelligence, with frank amusement on +Bilham's part and a shade of sadness on Strether's. Strether's +sadness sprang--for the image had its grandeur--from his thinking +how little he himself was wrapt in his blanket, how little, in +marble halls, all too oblivious of the Great Father, he resembled +a really majestic aboriginal. But he had also another reflexion. +"You've all of you here so much visual sense that you've somehow +all 'run' to it. There are moments when it strikes one that you +haven't any other." + +"Any moral," little Bilham explained, watching serenely, across +the garden, the several femmes du monde. "But Miss Barrace has a +moral distinction," he kindly continued; speaking as if for Strether's +benefit not less than for her own. + +"HAVE you?" Strether, scarce knowing what he was about, asked of +her almost eagerly. + +"Oh not a distinction"--she was mightily amused at his tone--"Mr. Bilham's +too good. But I think I may say a sufficiency. Yes, a sufficiency. +Have you supposed strange things of me?"--and she fixed him again, +through all her tortoise-shell, with the droll interest of it. +"You ARE all indeed wonderful. I should awfully disappoint you. +I do take my stand on my sufficiency. But I know, I confess," +she went on, "strange people. I don't know how it happens; +I don't do it on purpose; it seems to be my doom--as if I were +always one of their habits: it's wonderful! I dare say moreover," +she pursued with an interested gravity, "that I do, that we all +do here, run too much to mere eye. But how can it be helped? +We're all looking at each other--and in the light of Paris one +sees what things resemble. That's what the light of Paris seems +always to show. It's the fault of the light of Paris--dear old light!" + +"Dear old Paris!" little Bilham echoed. + +"Everything, every one shows," Miss Barrace went on. + +"But for what they really are?" Strether asked. + +"Oh I like your Boston 'reallys'! But sometimes--yes." + +"Dear old Paris then!" Strether resignedly sighed while for a +moment they looked at each other. Then he broke out: "Does +Madame de Vionnet do that? I mean really show for what she is?" + +Her answer was prompt. "She's charming. She's perfect." + +"Then why did you a minute ago say 'Oh, oh, oh!' at her name?" + +She easily remembered. "Why just because--! She's wonderful." + +"Ah she too?"--Strether had almost a groan. + +But Miss Barrace had meanwhile perceived relief. "Why not put your +question straight to the person who can answer it best?" + +"No," said little Bilham; "don't put any question; wait, rather-- +it will be much more fun--to judge for yourself. He has come to +take you to her." + + + +II + + +On which Strether saw that Chad was again at hand, and he +afterwards scarce knew, absurd as it may seem, what had then +quickly occurred. The moment concerned him, he felt, more deeply +than he could have explained, and he had a subsequent passage of +speculation as to whether, on walking off with Chad, he hadn't +looked either pale or red. The only thing he was clear about was +that, luckily, nothing indiscreet had in fact been said and that +Chad himself was more than ever, in Miss Barrace's great sense, +wonderful. It was one of the connexions--though really why it +should be, after all, was none so apparent--in which the whole +change in him came out as most striking. Strether recalled as they +approached the house that he had impressed him that first night as +knowing how to enter a box. Well, he impressed him scarce less now +as knowing how to make a presentation. It did something for +Strether's own quality--marked it as estimated; so that our poor +friend, conscious and passive, really seemed to feel himself quite +handed over and delivered; absolutely, as he would have said, made +a present of, given away. As they reached the house a young woman, +about to come forth, appeared, unaccompanied, on the steps; at the +exchange with whom of a word on Chad's part Strether immediately +perceived that, obligingly, kindly, she was there to meet them. +Chad had left her in the house, but she had afterwards come +halfway and then the next moment had joined them in the garden. +Her air of youth, for Strether, was at first almost disconcerting, +while his second impression was, not less sharply, a degree of +relief at there not having just been, with the others, any freedom +used about her. It was upon him at a touch that she was no subject +for that, and meanwhile, on Chad's introducing him, she had spoken +to him, very simply and gently, in an English clearly of the +easiest to her, yet unlike any other he had ever heard. It wasn't +as if she tried; nothing, he could see after they had been a few +minutes together, was as if she tried; but her speech, charming +correct and odd, was like a precaution against her passing for a +Pole. There were precautions, he seemed indeed to see, only when +there were really dangers. + +Later on he was to feel many more of them, but by that time he was +to feel other things besides. She was dressed in black, but in +black that struck him as light and transparent; she was +exceedingly fair, and, though she was as markedly slim, her face +had a roundness, with eyes far apart and a little strange. +Her smile was natural and dim; her hat not extravagant; he had only +perhaps a sense of the clink, beneath her fine black sleeves, of +more gold bracelets and bangles than he had ever seen a lady wear. +Chad was excellently free and light about their encounter; it was +one of the occasions on which Strether most wished he himself +might have arrived at such ease and such humour: "Here you are +then, face to face at last; you're made for each other--vous allez +voir; and I bless your union." It was indeed, after he had gone +off, as if he had been partly serious too. This latter motion had +been determined by an enquiry from him about "Jeanne"; to which +her mother had replied that she was probably still in the house +with Miss Gostrey, to whom she had lately committed her. "Ah but +you know," the young man had rejoined, "he must see her"; with +which, while Strether pricked up his ears, he had started as if to +bring her, leaving the other objects of his interest together. +Strether wondered to find Miss Gostrey already involved, feeling +that he missed a link; but feeling also, with small delay, how +much he should like to talk with her of Madame de Vionnet on this +basis of evidence. + +The evidence as yet in truth was meagre; which, for that matter, +was perhaps a little why his expectation had had a drop. There was +somehow not quite a wealth in her; and a wealth was all that, in +his simplicity, he had definitely prefigured. Still, it was too +much to be sure already that there was but a poverty. They moved +away from the house, and, with eyes on a bench at some distance, +he proposed that they should sit down. "I've heard a great deal +about you," she said as they went; but he had an answer to it that +made her stop short. "Well, about YOU, Madame de Vionnet, I've +heard, I'm bound to say, almost nothing"--those struck him as the +only words he himself could utter with any lucidity; conscious as +he was, and as with more reason, of the determination to be in +respect to the rest of his business perfectly plain and go +perfectly straight. It hadn't at any rate been in the least his +idea to spy on Chad's proper freedom. It was possibly, however, at +this very instant and under the impression of Madame de Vionnet's +pause, that going straight began to announce itself as a matter +for care. She had only after all to smile at him ever so gently in +order to make him ask himself if he weren't already going crooked. +It might be going crooked to find it of a sudden just only clear +that she intended very definitely to be what he would have called +nice to him. This was what passed between them while, for another +instant, they stood still; he couldn't at least remember +afterwards what else it might have been. The thing indeed really +unmistakeable was its rolling over him as a wave that he had been, +in conditions incalculable and unimaginable, a subject of +discussion. He had been, on some ground that concerned her, +answered for; which gave her an advantage he should never be able +to match. + +"Hasn't Miss Gostrey," she asked, "said a good word for me?" + +What had struck him first was the way he was bracketed with that +lady; and he wondered what account Chad would have given of their +acquaintance. Something not as yet traceable, at all events. had +obviously happened. "I didn't even know of her knowing you." + +"Well, now she'll tell you all. I'm so glad you're in relation +with her." + +This was one of the things--the "all" Miss Gostrey would now tell +him--that, with every deference to present preoccupation, was +uppermost for Strether after they had taken their seat. One of the +others was, at the end of five minutes, that she--oh incontestably, +yes--DIFFERED less; differed, that is, scarcely at all--well, +superficially speaking, from Mrs. Newsome or even from Mrs. Pocock. +She was ever so much younger than the one and not so young as the other; +but what WAS there in her, if anything, that would have made it +impossible he should meet her at Woollett? And wherein was her talk +during their moments on the bench together not the same as would have been +found adequate for a Woollett garden-party?--unless perhaps truly in +not being quite so bright. She observed to him that Mr. Newsome had, to +her knowledge, taken extraordinary pleasure in his visit; but there was +no good lady at Woollett who wouldn't have been at least up to that. +Was there in Chad, by chance, after all, deep down, a principle of +aboriginal loyalty that had made him, for sentimental ends, attach +himself to elements, happily encountered, that would remind him most +of the old air and the old soil? Why accordingly be in a flutter-- +Strether could even put it that way--about this unfamiliar +phenomenon of the femme du monde? On these terms Mrs. Newsome +herself was as much of one. Little Bilham verily had testified +that they came out, the ladies of the type, in close quarters; but +it was just in these quarters--now comparatively close--that he +felt Madame de Vionnet's common humanity. She did come out, and +certainly to his relief, but she came out as the usual thing. +There might be motives behind, but so could there often be even at +Woollett. The only thing was that if she showed him she wished to +like him--as the motives behind might conceivably prompt--it +would possibly have been more thrilling for him that she should +have shown as more vividly alien. Ah she was neither Turk nor +Pole!--which would be indeed flat once more for Mrs. Newsome and +Mrs. Pocock. A lady and two gentlemen had meanwhile, however, +approached their bench, and this accident stayed for the time +further developments. + +They presently addressed his companion, the brilliant strangers; +she rose to speak to them, and Strether noted how the escorted +lady, though mature and by no means beautiful, had more of the +bold high look, the range of expensive reference, that he had, as +might have been said, made his plans for. Madame de Vionnet +greeted her as "Duchesse" and was greeted in turn, while talk +started in French, as "Ma toute-belle"; little facts that had +their due, their vivid interest for Strether. Madame de Vionnet +didn't, none the less, introduce him--a note he was conscious of +as false to the Woollett scale and the Woollett humanity; though +it didn't prevent the Duchess, who struck him as confident and +free, very much what he had obscurely supposed duchesses, from +looking at him as straight and as hard--for it WAS hard--as if she +would have liked, all the same, to know him. "Oh yes, my dear, +it's all right, it's ME; and who are YOU, with your interesting +wrinkles and your most effective (is it the handsomest, is it the +ugliest?) of noses?"--some such loose handful of bright flowers +she seemed, fragrantly enough, to fling at him. Strether almost +wondered--at such a pace was he going--if some divination of the +influence of either party were what determined Madame de Vionnet's +abstention. One of the gentlemen, in any case, succeeded in +placing himself in close relation with our friend's companion; a +gentleman rather stout and importantly short, in a hat with a +wonderful wide curl to its brim and a frock coat buttoned with an +effect of superlative decision. His French had quickly turned to +equal English, and it occurred to Strether that he might well be +one of the ambassadors. His design was evidently to assert a claim +to Madame de Vionnet's undivided countenance, and he made it good +in the course of a minute--led her away with a trick of three +words; a trick played with a social art of which Strether, looking +after them as the four, whose backs were now all turned, moved +off, felt himself no master. + +He sank again upon his bench and, while his eyes followed the +party, reflected, as he had done before, on Chad's strange +communities. He sat there alone for five minutes, with plenty to +think of; above all with his sense of having suddenly been dropped +by a charming woman overlaid now by other impressions and in fact +quite cleared and indifferent. He hadn't yet had so quiet a +surrender; he didn't in the least care if nobody spoke to him +more. He might have been, by his attitude, in for something of a +march so broad that the want of ceremony with which he had just +been used could fall into its place as but a minor incident of the +procession. Besides, there would be incidents enough, as he felt +when this term of contemplation was closed by the reappearance of +little Bilham, who stood before him a moment with a suggestive +"Well?" in which he saw himself reflected as disorganised, as +possibly floored. He replied with a "Well!" intended to show that +he wasn't floored in the least. No indeed; he gave it out, as the +young man sat down beside him, that if, at the worst, he had been +overturned at all, he had been overturned into the upper air, the +sublimer element with which he had an affinity and in which he +might be trusted a while to float. It wasn't a descent to earth to +say after an instant and in sustained response to the reference: +"You're quite sure her husband's living?" + +"Oh dear, yes." + +"Ah then--!" + +"Ah then what?" + +Strether had after all to think. "Well, I'm sorry for them." But +it didn't for the moment matter more than that. He assured his +young friend he was quite content. They wouldn't stir; were all +right as they were. He didn't want to be introduced; had been +introduced already about as far as he could go. He had seen +moreover an immensity; liked Gloriani, who, as Miss Barrace kept +saying, was wonderful; had made out, he was sure, the half-dozen +other 'men who were distinguished, the artists, the critics and oh +the great dramatist--HIM it was easy to spot; but wanted--no, +thanks, really--to talk with none of them; having nothing at all +to say and finding it would do beautifully as it was; do +beautifully because what it was--well, was just simply too late. +And when after this little Bilham, submissive and responsive, but +with an eye to the consolation nearest, easily threw off some +"Better late than never!" all he got in return for it was a sharp +"Better early than late!" This note indeed the next thing +overflowed for Strether into a quiet stream of demonstration that +as soon as he had let himself go he felt as the real relief. It +had consciously gathered to a head, but the reservoir had filled +sooner than he knew, and his companion's touch was to make the +waters spread. There were some things that had to come in time if +they were to come at all. If they didn't come in time they were +lost for ever. It was the general sense of them that had +overwhelmed him with its long slow rush. + +"It's not too late for YOU, on any side, and you don't strike me +as in danger of missing the train; besides which people can be in +general pretty well trusted, of course--with the clock of their +freedom ticking as loud as it seems to do here--to keep an eye on +the fleeting hour. All the same don't forget that you're young-- +blessedly young; be glad of it on the contrary and live up to it. +Live all you can; it's a mistake not to. It doesn't so much matter +what you do in particular, so long as you have your life. If you +haven't had that what HAVE you had? This place and these +impressions--mild as you may find them to wind a man up so; all my +impressions of Chad and of people I've seen at HIS place--well, +have had their abundant message for me, have just dropped THAT +into my mind. I see it now. I haven't done so enough before-- +and now I'm old; too old at any rate for what I see. Oh I DO see, +at least; and more than you'd believe or I can express. It's too late. +And it's as if the train had fairly waited at the station for me +without my having had the gumption to know it was there. +Now I hear its faint receding whistle miles and miles down the line. +What one loses one loses; make no mistake about that. The affair-- +I mean the affair of life--couldn't, no doubt, have been different +for me; for it's at the best a tin mould, either fluted and embossed, +with ornamental excrescences, or else smooth and dreadfully plain, +into which, a helpless jelly, one's consciousness is poured-- +so that one 'takes' the form as the great cook says, and is more +or less compactly held by it: one lives in fine as one can. +Still, one has the illusion of freedom; therefore don't be, like me, +without the memory of that illusion. I was either, at the right time, +too stupid or too intelligent to have it; I don't quite know which. +Of course at present I'm a case of reaction against the mistake; +and the voice of reaction should, no doubt, always be taken with +an allowance. But that doesn't affect the point that the right time +is now yours. The right time is ANY time that one is still so lucky +as to have. You've plenty; that's the great thing; you're, as I say, +damn you, so happily and hatefully young. Don't at any rate miss things +out of stupidity. Of course I don't take you for a fool, or I +shouldn't be addressing you thus awfully. Do what you like so long +as you don't make MY mistake. For it was a mistake. Live!" . . . +Slowly and sociably, with full pauses and straight dashes, +Strether had so delivered himself; holding little Bilham +from step to step deeply and gravely attentive. The end of all was +that the young man had turned quite solemn, and that this was a +contradiction of the innocent gaiety the speaker had wished to +promote. He watched for a moment the consequence of his words, +and then, laying a hand on his listener's knee and as if to end +with the proper joke: "And now for the eye I shall keep on you!" + +"Oh but I don't know that I want to be, at your age, too different +from you!" + +"Ah prepare while you're about it," said Strether, "to be more +amusing." + +Little Bilham continued to think, but at last had a smile. "Well, +you ARE amusing--to ME." + +"Impayable, as you say, no doubt. But what am I to myself?" +Strether had risen with this, giving his attention now to an +encounter that, in the middle of the garden, was in the act of +taking place between their host and the lady at whose side Madame +de Vionnet had quitted him. This lady, who appeared within a few +minutes to have left her friends, awaited Gloriani's eager +approach with words on her lips that Strether couldn't catch, but +of which her interesting witty face seemed to give him the echo. +He was sure she was prompt and fine, but also that she had met her +match, and he liked--in the light of what he was quite sure was +the Duchess's latent insolence--the good humour with which the +great artist asserted equal resources. Were they, this pair, of +the "great world"?--and was he himself, for the moment and thus +related to them by his observation, IN it? Then there was +something in the great world covertly tigerish, which came to him +across the lawn and in the charming air as a waft from the jungle. +Yet it made him admire most of the two, made him envy, the glossy +male tiger, magnificently marked. These absurdities of the stirred +sense, fruits of suggestion ripening on the instant, were all +reflected in his next words to little Bilham. "I know--if we talk +of that--whom I should enjoy being like!" + +Little Bilham followed his eyes; but then as with a shade of knowing +surprise: "Gloriani?" + +Our friend had in fact already hesitated, though not on the hint +of his companion's doubt, in which there were depths of critical +reserve. He had just made out, in the now full picture, something +and somebody else; another impression had been superimposed. A +young girl in a white dress and a softly plumed white hat had +suddenly come into view, and what was presently clear was that her +course was toward them. What was clearer still was that the +handsome young man at her side was Chad Newsome, and what was +clearest of all was that she was therefore Mademoiselle de Vionnet, +that she was unmistakeably pretty--bright gentle shy happy +wonderful--and that Chad now, with a consummate calculation +of effect, was about to present her to his old friend's vision. +What was clearest of all indeed was something much more than this, +something at the single stroke of which--and wasn't it simply +juxtaposition?--all vagueness vanished. It was the click of a +spring--he saw the truth. He had by this time also met Chad's +look; there was more of it in that; and the truth, accordingly, so +far as Bilham's enquiry was concerned, had thrust in the answer. +"Oh Chad!"--it was that rare youth he should have enjoyed being +"like." The virtuous attachment would be all there before him; the +virtuous attachment would be in the very act of appeal for his blessing; +Jeanne de Vionnet, this charming creature, would be exquisitely, +intensely now--the object of it. Chad brought her straight up to him, +and Chad was, oh yes, at this moment--for the glory of Woollett or +whatever--better still even than Gloriani. He had plucked this +blossom; he had kept it over-night in water; and at last as he held +it up to wonder he did enjoy his effect. That was why Strether had +felt at first the breath of calculation--and why moreover, as he +now knew, his look at the girl would be, for the young man, a sign +of the latter's success. What young man had ever paraded about that +way, without a reason, a maiden in her flower? And there was +nothing in his reason at present obscure. Her type sufficiently +told of it--they wouldn't, they couldn't, want her to go to +Woollett. Poor Woollett, and what it might miss!--though brave Chad +indeed too, and what it might gain! Brave Chad however had just +excellently spoken. "This is a good little friend of mine who knows +all about you and has moreover a message for you. And this, my +dear"--he had turned to the child herself--"is the best man in the +world, who has it in his power to do a great deal for us and whom I +want you to like and revere as nearly as possible as much as I do." + +She stood there quite pink, a little frightened, prettier and +prettier and not a bit like her mother. There was in this last +particular no resemblance but that of youth to youth; and here was +in fact suddenly Strether's sharpest impression. It went wondering, +dazed, embarrassed, back to the woman he had just been talking +with; it was a revelation in the light of which he already saw she +would become more interesting. So slim and fresh and fair, she had +yet put forth this perfection; so that for really believing it of +her, for seeing her to any such developed degree as a mother, +comparison would be urgent. Well, what was it now but fairly thrust +upon him? "Mamma wishes me to tell you before we go," the girl +said, "that she hopes very much you'll come to see us very soon. +She has something important to say to you." + +"She quite reproaches herself," Chad helpfully explained: "you were +interesting her so much when she accidentally suffered you to be +interrupted." + +"Ah don't mention it!" Strether murmured, looking kindly from one +to the other and wondering at many things. + +"And I'm to ask you for myself," Jeanne continued with her hands +clasped together as if in some small learnt prayer--"I'm to ask you +for myself if you won't positively come." + +"Leave it to me, dear--I'll take care of it!" Chad genially +declared in answer to this, while Strether himself almost held his +breath. What was in the girl was indeed too soft, too unknown for +direct dealing; so that one could only gaze at it as at a picture, +quite staying one's own hand. But with Chad he was now on ground-- +Chad he could meet; so pleasant a confidence in that and in +everything did the young man freely exhale. There was the whole of +a story in his tone to his companion, and he spoke indeed as if +already of the family. It made Strether guess the more quickly what +it might be about which Madame de Vionnet was so urgent. Having +seen him then she had found him easy; she wished to have it out +with him that some way for the young people must be discovered, +some way that would not impose as a condition the transplantation +of her daughter. He already saw himself discussing with this lady +the attractions of Woollett as a residence for Chad's companion. +Was that youth going now to trust her with the affair--so that it +would be after all with one of his "lady-friends" that his mother's +missionary should be condemned to deal? It was quite as if for an +instant the two men looked at each other on this question. But +there was no mistaking at last Chad's pride in the display of such +a connexion. This was what had made him so carry himself while, +three minutes before, he was bringing it into view; what had caused +his friend, first catching sight of him, to be so struck with his +air. It was, in a word, just when he thus finally felt Chad putting +things straight off on him that he envied him, as he had mentioned +to little Bilham, most. The whole exhibition however was but a +matter of three or four minutes, and the author of it had soon +explained that, as Madame de Vionnet was immediately going "on," +this could be for Jeanne but a snatch. They would all meet again +soon, and Strether was meanwhile to stay and amuse himself--"I'll +pick you up again in plenty of time." He took the girl off as he +had brought her, and Strether, with the faint sweet foreignness of +her "Au revoir, monsieur!" in his ears as a note almost +unprecedented, watched them recede side by side and felt how, once +more, her companion's relation to her got an accent from it. They +disappeared among the others and apparently into the house; +whereupon our friend turned round to give out to little Bilham the +conviction of which he was full. But there was no little Bilham any +more; little Bilham had within the few moments, for reasons of his +own, proceeded further: a circumstance by which, in its order, +Strether was also sensibly affected. + + + +III + + +Chad was not in fact on this occasion to keep his promise of coming +back; but Miss Gostrey had soon presented herself with an +explanation of his failure. There had been reasons at the last for +his going off with ces dames; and he had asked her with much +instance to come out and take charge of their friend. She did so, +Strether felt as she took her place beside him, in a manner that +left nothing to desire. He had dropped back on his bench, alone +again for a time, and the more conscious for little Bilham's +defection of his unexpressed thought; in respect to which however +this next converser was a still more capacious vessel. "It's the +child!" he had exclaimed to her almost as soon as she appeared; and +though her direct response was for some time delayed he could feel +in her meanwhile the working of this truth. It might have been +simply, as she waited, that they were now in presence altogether of +truth spreading like a flood and not for the moment to be offered +her in the mere cupful; inasmuch as who should ces dames prove to +be but persons about whom--once thus face to face with them--she +found she might from the first have told him almost everything? +This would have freely come had he taken the simple precaution of +giving her their name. There could be no better example--and she +appeared to note it with high amusement--than the way, making +things out already so much for himself, he was at last throwing +precautions to the winds. They were neither more nor less, she and +the child's mother, than old school-friends--friends who had +scarcely met for years but whom this unlooked-for chance had +brought together with a rush. It was a relief, Miss Gostrey hinted, +to feel herself no longer groping; she was unaccustomed to grope +and as a general thing, he might well have seen, made straight +enough for her clue. With the one she had now picked up in her +hands there need be at least no waste of wonder. "She's coming to +see me--that's for YOU," Strether's counsellor continued; "but I +don't require it to know where I am." + +The waste of wonder might be proscribed; but Strether, +characteristically, was even by this time in the immensity of +space. "By which you mean that you know where SHE is?" + +She just hesitated. "I mean that if she comes to see me I shall-- +now that I've pulled myself round a bit after the shock--not be at +home." + +Strether hung poised. "You call it--your recognition--a shock?" + +She gave one of her rare flickers of impatience. "It was a +surprise, an emotion. Don't be so literal. I wash my hands of her." + +Poor Strether's face lengthened. "She's impossible--?" + +"She's even more charming than I remembered her." + +"Then what's the matter?" + +She had to think how to put it. "Well, I'M impossible. It's +impossible. Everything's impossible." + +He looked at her an instant. "I see where you're coming out. +Everything's possible." Their eyes had on it in fact an exchange of +some duration; after which he pursued: "Isn't it that beautiful +child?" Then as she still said nothing: "Why don't you mean to +receive her?" + +Her answer in an instant rang clear. "Because I wish to keep out of +the business." + +It provoked in him a weak wail. "You're going to abandon me NOW?" + +"No, I'm only going to abandon HER. She'll want me to help her with +you. And I won't." + +"You'll only help me with her? Well then--!" Most of the persons +previously gathered had, in the interest of tea, passed into the +house, and they had the gardens mainly to themselves. The shadows +were long, the last call of the birds, who had made a home of their +own in the noble interspaced quarter, sounded from the high trees +in the other gardens as well, those of the old convent and of the +old hotels; it was as if our friends had waited for the full charm +to come out. Strether's impressions were still present; it was as +if something had happened that "nailed" them, made them more +intense; but he was to ask himself soon afterwards, that evening, +what really HAD happened--conscious as he could after all remain +that for a gentleman taken, and taken the first time, into the +"great world," the world of ambassadors and duchesses, the items +made a meagre total. It was nothing new to him, however, as we +know, that a man might have--at all events such a man as he--an +amount of experience out of any proportion to his adventures; so +that, though it was doubtless no great adventure to sit on there +with Miss Gostrey and hear about Madame de Vionnet, the hour, the +picture, the immediate, the recent, the possible--as well as the +communication itself, not a note of which failed to reverberate-- +only gave the moments more of the taste of history. + +It was history, to begin with, that Jeanne's mother had been +three-and-twenty years before, at Geneva, schoolmate and good +girlfriend to Maria Gostrey, who had moreover enjoyed since then, +though interruptedly and above all with a long recent drop, +other glimpses of her. Twenty-three years put them both on, +no doubt; and Madame de Vionnet--though she had married straight +after school--couldn't be today an hour less than thirty-eight. +This made her ten years older than Chad--though ten years, also, if +Strether liked, older than she looked; the least, at any rate, that +a prospective mother-in-law could be expected to do with. She would +be of all mothers-in-law the most charming; unless indeed, through +some perversity as yet insupposeable, she should utterly belie herself +in that relation. There was none surely in which, as Maria remembered +her, she mustn't be charming; and this frankly in spite of the stigma +of failure in the tie where failure always most showed. It was no test +there--when indeed WAS it a test there?--for Monsieur de Vionnet +had been a brute. She had lived for years apart from him--which was +of course always a horrid position; but Miss Gostrey's impression +of the matter had been that she could scarce have made a better +thing of it had she done it on purpose to show she was amiable. She +was so amiable that nobody had had a word to say; which was luckily +not the case for her husband. He was so impossible that she had the +advantage of all her merits. + +It was still history for Strether that the Comte de Vionnet--it +being also history that the lady in question was a Countess--should +now, under Miss Gostrey's sharp touch, rise before him as a high +distinguished polished impertinent reprobate, the product of a +mysterious order; it was history, further, that the charming girl +so freely sketched by his companion should have been married out of +hand by a mother, another figure of striking outline, full of dark +personal motive; it was perhaps history most of all that this +company was, as a matter of course, governed by such considerations +as put divorce out of the question. "Ces gens-la don't divorce, you +know, any more than they emigrate or abjure--they think it impious +and vulgar"; a fact in the light of which they seemed but the more +richly special. It was all special; it was all, for Strether's +imagination, more or less rich. The girl at the Genevese school, an +isolated interesting attaching creature, then both sensitive and +violent, audacious but always forgiven, was the daughter of a +French father and an English mother who, early left a widow, had +married again--tried afresh with a foreigner; in her career with +whom she had apparently given her child no example of comfort. All +these people--the people of the English mother's side--had been of +condition more or less eminent; yet with oddities and disparities +that had often since made Maria, thinking them over, wonder what +they really quite rhymed to. It was in any case her belief that the +mother, interested and prone to adventure, had been without +conscience, had only thought of ridding herself most quickly of a +possible, an actual encumbrance. The father, by her impression, a +Frenchman with a name one knew, had been a different matter, +leaving his child, she clearly recalled, a memory all fondness, as +well as an assured little fortune which was unluckily to make her +more or less of a prey later on. She had been in particular, at +school, dazzlingly, though quite booklessly, clever; as polyglot +as a little Jewess (which she wasn't, oh no!) and chattering French, +English, German, Italian, anything one would, in a way that made a +clean sweep, if not of prizes and parchments, at least of every +"part," whether memorised or improvised, in the curtained costumed +school repertory, and in especial of all mysteries of race and +vagueness of reference, all swagger about "home," among their +variegated mates. + +It would doubtless be difficult to-day, as between French and +English, to name her and place her; she would certainly show, on +knowledge, Miss Gostrey felt, as one of those convenient types who +don't keep you explaining--minds with doors as numerous as the +many-tongued cluster of confessionals at Saint Peter's. You might +confess to her with confidence in Roumelian, and even Roumelian +sins. Therefore--! But Strether's narrator covered her implication +with a laugh; a laugh by which his betrayal of a sense of the lurid +in the picture was also perhaps sufficiently protected. He had a +moment of wondering, while his friend went on, what sins might be +especially Roumelian. She went on at all events to the mention of +her having met the young thing--again by some Swiss lake--in her +first married state, which had appeared for the few intermediate +years not at least violently disturbed. She had been lovely at that +moment, delightful to HER, full of responsive emotion, of amused +recognitions and amusing reminders, and then once more, much later, +after a long interval, equally but differently charming--touching +and rather mystifying for the five minutes of an encounter at a +railway-station en province, during which it had come out that her +life was all changed. Miss Gostrey had understood enough to see, +essentially, what had happened, and yet had beautifully dreamed +that she was herself faultless. There were doubtless depths in her, +but she was all right; Strether would see if she wasn't. She was +another person however--that had been promptly marked--from the +small child of nature at the Geneva school, a little person quite +made over (as foreign women WERE, compared with American) by +marriage. Her situation too had evidently cleared itself up; there +would have been--all that was possible--a judicial separation. She +had settled in Paris, brought up her daughter, steered her boat. It +was no very pleasant boat--especially there--to be in; but Marie de +Vionnet would have headed straight. She would have friends, +certainly--and very good ones. There she was at all events--and it +was very interesting. Her knowing Mr. Chad didn't in the least +prove she hadn't friends; what it proved was what good ones HE had. +"I saw that," said Miss Gostrey, "that night at the Francais; it +came out for me in three minutes. I saw HER--or somebody like her. +And so," she immediately added, "did you." + +"Oh no--not anybody like her!" Strether laughed. "But you mean," he +as promptly went on, "that she has had such an influence on him?" + +Miss Gostrey was on her feet; it was time for them to go. "She has +brought him up for her daughter." + +Their eyes, as so often, in candid conference, through their +settled glasses, met over it long; after which Strether's again +took in the whole place. They were quite alone there now. "Mustn't +she rather--in the time then--have rushed it?" + +"Ah she won't of course have lost an hour. But that's just the good +mother--the good French one. You must remember that of her--that as +a mother she's French, and that for them there's a special +providence. It precisely however--that she mayn't have been able to +begin as far back as she'd have liked--makes her grateful for aid." + +Strether took this in as they slowly moved to the house on their +way out. "She counts on me then to put the thing through?" + +"Yes--she counts on you. Oh and first of all of course," Miss +Gostrey added, "on her--well, convincing you." + +"Ah," her friend returned, "she caught Chad young!" + +"Yes, but there are women who are for all your 'times of life.' +They're the most wonderful sort." + +She had laughed the words out, but they brought her companion, the +next thing, to a stand. "Is what you mean that she'll try to make a +fool of me?" + +"Well, I'm wondering what she WILL--with an opportunity--make." + +"What do you call," Strether asked, "an opportunity? My going to +see her?" + +"Ah you must go to see her"--Miss Gostrey was a trifle evasive. +"You can't not do that. You'd have gone to see the other woman. I +mean if there had been one--a different sort. It's what you came +out for." + +It might be; but Strether distinguished. "I didn't come out to see +THIS sort." + +She had a wonderful look at him now. "Are you disappointed she +isn't worse?" + +He for a moment entertained the question, then found for it the +frankest of answers. "Yes. If she were worse she'd be better for +our purpose. It would be simpler." + +"Perhaps," she admitted. "But won't this be pleasanter?" + +"Ah you know," he promptly replied, "I didn't come out--wasn't that +just what you originally reproached me with?--for the pleasant." + +"Precisely. Therefore I say again what I said at first. You must +take things as they come. Besides," Miss Gostrey added, "I'm not +afraid for myself." + +"For yourself--?" + +"Of your seeing her. I trust her. There's nothing she'll say about +me. In fact there's nothing she CAN." + +Strether wondered--little as he had thought of this. Then he broke +out. "Oh you women!" + +There was something in it at which she flushed. "Yes--there we are. +We're abysses." At last she smiled. "But I risk her!" + +He gave himself a shake. "Well then so do I!" But he added as they +passed into the house that he would see Chad the first thing in the +morning. + +This was the next day the more easily effected that the young man, +as it happened, even before he was down, turned up at his hotel. +Strether took his coffee, by habit, in the public room; but on his +descending for this purpose Chad instantly proposed an adjournment +to what he called greater privacy. He had himself as yet had +nothing--they would sit down somewhere together; and when after a +few steps and a turn into the Boulevard they had, for their greater +privacy, sat down among twenty others, our friend saw in his +companion's move a fear of the advent of Waymarsh. It was the first +time Chad had to that extent given this personage "away"; and +Strether found himself wondering of what it was symptomatic. He +made out in a moment that the youth was in earnest as he hadn't yet +seen him; which in its turn threw a ray perhaps a trifle startling +on what they had each up to that time been treating as earnestness. +It was sufficiently flattering however that the real thing--if +this WAS at last the real thing--should have been determined, as +appeared, precisely by an accretion of Strether's importance. For +this was what it quickly enough came to--that Chad, rising with the +lark, had rushed down to let him know while his morning +consciousness was yet young that he had literally made the +afternoon before a tremendous impression. Madame de Vionnet +wouldn't, couldn't rest till she should have some assurance from +him that he WOULD consent again to see her. The announcement was +made, across their marble-topped table, while the foam of the hot +milk was in their cups and its plash still in the air, with the +smile of Chad's easiest urbanity; and this expression of his face +caused our friend's doubts to gather on the spot into a challenge +of the lips. "See here"--that was all; he only for the moment said +again "See here." Chad met it with all his air of straight +intelligence, while Strether remembered again that fancy of the +first impression of him, the happy young Pagan, handsome and hard +but oddly indulgent, whose mysterious measure he had under the +street-lamp tried mentally to take. The young Pagan, while a long +look passed between them, sufficiently understood. Strether scarce +needed at last to say the rest--"I want to know where I am." But he +said it, adding before any answer something more. "Are you engaged +to be married--is that your secret?--to the young lady?" + +Chad shook his head with the slow amenity that was one of his ways +of conveying that there was time for everything. "I have no secret-- +though I may have secrets! I haven't at any rate that one. We're +not engaged. No." + +"Then where's the hitch?" + +"Do you mean why I haven't already started with you?" Chad, +beginning his coffee and buttering his roll, was quite ready to +explain. "Nothing would have induced me--nothing will still induce +me--not to try to keep you here as long as you can be made to stay. +It's too visibly good for you." Strether had himself plenty to say +about this, but it was amusing also to measure the march of Chad's +tone. He had never been more a man of the world, and it was always +in his company present to our friend that one was seeing how in +successive connexions a man of the world acquitted himself. Chad +kept it up beautifully. "My idea--voyons!--is simply that you +should let Madame de Vionnet know you, simply that you should +consent to know HER. I don't in the least mind telling you that, +clever and charming as she is, she's ever so much in my confidence. +All I ask of you is to let her talk to you. You've asked me about +what you call my hitch, and so far as it goes she'll explain it to +you. She's herself my hitch, hang it--if you must really have it +all out. But in a sense," he hastened in the most wonderful manner +to add, "that you'll quite make out for yourself. She's too good a +friend, confound her. Too good, I mean, for me to leave without-- +without--" It was his first hesitation. + +"Without what?" + +"Well, without my arranging somehow or other the damnable terms of +my sacrifice." + +"It WILL be a sacrifice then?" + +"It will be the greatest loss I ever suffered. I owe her so much." + +It was beautiful, the way Chad said these things, and his plea was +now confessedly--oh quite flagrantly and publicly--interesting. The +moment really took on for Strether an intensity. Chad owed Madame +de Vionnet so much? What DID that do then but clear up the whole +mystery? He was indebted for alterations, and she was thereby in a +position to have sent in her bill for expenses incurred in +reconstruction. What was this at bottom but what had been to be +arrived at? Strether sat there arriving at it while he munched +toast and stirred his second cup. To do this with the aid of Chad's +pleasant earnest face was also to do more besides. No, never before +had he been so ready to take him as he was. What was it that had +suddenly so cleared up? It was just everybody's character; that is +everybody's but--in a measure--his own. Strether felt HIS character +receive for the instant a smutch from all the wrong things he had +suspected or believed. The person to whom Chad owed it that he +could positively turn out such a comfort to other persons--such a +person was sufficiently raised above any "breath" by the nature of +her work and the young man's steady light. All of which was vivid +enough to come and go quickly; though indeed in the midst of it +Strether could utter a question. "Have I your word of honour that +if I surrender myself to Madame de Vionnet you'll surrender +yourself to me?" + +Chad laid his hand firmly on his friend's. "My dear man, you have +it." + +There was finally something in his felicity almost embarrassing and +oppressive--Strether had begun to fidget under it for the open air +and the erect posture. He had signed to the waiter that he wished +to pay, and this transaction took some moments, during which he +thoroughly felt, while he put down money and pretended--it was +quite hollow--to estimate change, that Chad's higher spirit, his +youth, his practice, his paganism, his felicity, his assurance, his +impudence, whatever it might be, had consciously scored a success. +Well, that was all right so far as it went; his sense of the thing +in question covered our friend for a minute like a veil through +which--as if he had been muffled--he heard his interlocutor ask him +if he mightn't take him over about five. "Over" was over the river, +and over the river was where Madame de Vionnet lived, and five was +that very afternoon. They got at last out of the place--got out +before he answered. He lighted, in the street, a cigarette, which +again gave him more time. But it was already sharp for him that +there was no use in time. "What does she propose to do to me?" he +had presently demanded. + +Chad had no delays. "Are you afraid of her?" + +"Oh immensely. Don't you see it?" + +"Well," said Chad, "she won't do anything worse to you than make +you like her." + +"It's just of that I'm afraid." + +"Then it's not fair to me." + +Strether cast about. "It's fair to your mother." + +"Oh," said Chad, "are you afraid of HER?" + +"Scarcely less. Or perhaps even more. But is this lady against your +interests at home?" Strether went on. + +"Not directly, no doubt; but she's greatly in favour of them here." + +"And what--'here'--does she consider them to be?" + +"Well, good relations!" + +"With herself?" + +"With herself." + +"And what is it that makes them so good?" + +"What? Well, that's exactly what you'll make out if you'll only go, +as I'm supplicating you, to see her." + +Strether stared at him with a little of the wanness, no doubt, that +the vision of more to "make out" could scarce help producing. "I +mean HOW good are they?" + +"Oh awfully good." + +Again Strether had faltered, but it was brief. It was all very +well, but there was nothing now he wouldn't risk. "Excuse me, but I +must really--as I began by telling you--know where I am. Is she +bad?" + +"'Bad'?"--Chad echoed it, but without a shock. "Is that what's +implied--?" + +"When relations are good?" Strether felt a little silly, and was +even conscious of a foolish laugh, at having it imposed on him to +have appeared to speak so. What indeed was he talking about? His +stare had relaxed; he looked now all round him. But something in +him brought him back, though he still didn't know quite how to turn +it. The two or three ways he thought of, and one of them in +particular, were, even with scruples dismissed, too ugly. He none +the less at last found something. "Is her life without reproach?" + +It struck him, directly he had found it, as pompous and priggish; +so much so that he was thankful to Chad for taking it only in the +right spirit. The young man spoke so immensely to the point that +the effect was practically of positive blandness. "Absolutely +without reproach. A beautiful life. Allez donc voir!" + +These last words were, in the liberality of their confidence, so +imperative that Strether went through no form of assent; but before +they separated it had been confirmed that he should be picked up at +a quarter to five. + + + + + +Book Sixth + + + + +I + + +It was quite by half-past five--after the two men had been together +in Madame de Vionnet's drawing-room not more than a dozen minutes-- +that Chad, with a look at his watch and then another at their +hostess, said genially, gaily: "I've an engagement, and I know you +won't complain if I leave him with you. He'll interest you +immensely; and as for her," he declared to Strether, "I assure you, +if you're at all nervous, she's perfectly safe." + +He had left them to be embarrassed or not by this guarantee, as +they could best manage, and embarrassment was a thing that Strether +wasn't at first sure Madame de Vionnet escaped. He escaped it +himself, to his surprise; but he had grown used by this time to +thinking of himself as brazen. She occupied, his hostess, in the +Rue de Bellechasse, the first floor of an old house to which our +visitors had had access from an old clean court. The court was +large and open, full of revelations, for our friend, of the habit +of privacy, the peace of intervals, the dignity of distances and +approaches; the house, to his restless sense, was in the high +homely style of an elder day, and the ancient Paris that he was +always looking for--sometimes intensely felt, sometimes more +acutely missed--was in the immemorial polish of the wide waxed +staircase and in the fine boiseries, the medallions, mouldings, +mirrors, great clear spaces, of the greyish-white salon into which +he had been shown. He seemed at the very outset to see her in the +midst of possessions not vulgarly numerous, but hereditary +cherished charming. While his eyes turned after a little from those +of his hostess and Chad freely talked--not in the least about HIM, +but about other people, people he didn't know, and quite as if he +did know them--he found himself making out, as a background of the +occupant, some glory, some prosperity of the First Empire, some +Napoleonic glamour, some dim lustre of the great legend; elements +clinging still to all the consular chairs and mythological brasses +and sphinxes' heads and faded surfaces of satin striped with +alternate silk. + +The place itself went further back--that he guessed, and how old +Paris continued in a manner to echo there; but the post-revolutionary +period, the world he vaguely thought of as the world of Chateaubriand, +of Madame de Stael, even of the young Lamartine, had left its stamp of +harps and urns and torches, a stamp impressed on sundry small objects, +ornaments and relics. He had never before, to his knowledge, had +present to him relics, of any special dignity, of a private order-- +little old miniatures, medallions, pictures, books; books in leather +bindings, pinkish and greenish, with gilt garlands on the back, ranged, +together with other promiscuous properties, under the glass of +brass-mounted cabinets. His attention took them all tenderly into account. +They were among the matters that marked Madame de Vionnet's +apartment as something quite different from Miss Gostrey's little museum +of bargains and from Chad's lovely home; he recognised it as founded +much more on old accumulations that had possibly from time to time +shrunken than on any contemporary method of acquisition or form of +curiosity. Chad and Miss Gostrey had rummaged and purchased and picked +up and exchanged, sifting, selecting, comparing; whereas the mistress of +the scene before him, beautifully passive under the spell of +transmission--transmission from her father's line, he quite made up +his mind--had only received, accepted and been quiet. When she +hadn't been quiet she had been moved at the most to some occult +charity for some fallen fortune. There had been objects she or her +predecessors might even conceivably have parted with under need, +but Strether couldn't suspect them of having sold old pieces to get +"better" ones. They would have felt no difference as to better or +worse. He could but imagine their having felt--perhaps in +emigration, in proscription, for his sketch was slight and +confused--the pressure of want or the obligation of sacrifice. + +The pressure of want--whatever might be the case with the other +force--was, however, presumably not active now, for the tokens of a +chastened ease still abounded after all, many marks of a taste +whose discriminations might perhaps have been called eccentric. He +guessed at intense little preferences and sharp little exclusions, +a deep suspicion of the vulgar and a personal view of the right. +The general result of this was something for which he had no name +on the spot quite ready, but something he would have come nearest +to naming in speaking of it as the air of supreme respectability, +the consciousness, small, still, reserved, but none the less +distinct and diffused, of private honour. The air of supreme +respectability--that was a strange blank wall for his adventure to +have brought him to break his nose against. It had in fact, as he +was now aware, filled all the approaches, hovered in the court as +he passed, hung on the staircase as he mounted, sounded in the +grave rumble of the old bell, as little electric as possible, of +which Chad, at the door, had pulled the ancient but neatly-kept +tassel; it formed in short the clearest medium of its particular +kind that he had ever breathed. He would have answered for it at +the end of a quarter of an hour that some of the glass cases +contained swords and epaulettes of ancient colonels and generals; +medals and orders once pinned over hearts that had long since +ceased to beat; snuff-boxes bestowed on ministers and envoys; +copies of works presented, with inscriptions, by authors now +classic. At bottom of it all for him was the sense of her rare +unlikeness to the women he had known. This sense had grown, since +the day before, the more he recalled her, and had been above all +singularly fed by his talk with Chad in the morning. Everything in +fine made her immeasurably new, and nothing so new as the old house +and the old objects. There were books, two or three, on a small +table near his chair, but they hadn't the lemon-coloured covers +with which his eye had begun to dally from the hour of his arrival +and to the opportunity of a further acquaintance with which he had +for a fortnight now altogether succumbed. On another table, across +the room, he made out the great _Revue_; but even that familiar face, +conspicuous in Mrs. Newsome's parlours, scarce counted here as a +modern note. He was sure on the spot--and he afterwards knew he was +right--that this was a touch of Chad's own hand. What would Mrs. +Newsome say to the circumstance that Chad's interested "influence" +kept her paper-knife in the _Revue_? The interested influence at any +rate had, as we say, gone straight to the point--had in fact soon +left it quite behind. + +She was seated, near the fire, on a small stuffed and fringed chair +one of the few modern articles in the room, and she leaned back in +it with her hands clasped in her lap and no movement, in all her +person, but the fine prompt play of her deep young face. The fire, +under the low white marble, undraped and academic, had burnt down +to the silver ashes of light wood, one of the windows, at a +distance, stood open to the mildness and stillness, out of which, +in the short pauses, came the faint sound, pleasant and homely, +almost rustic, of a plash and a clatter of sabots from some +coach-house on the other side of the court. Madame de Vionnet, +while Strether sat there, wasn't to shift her posture by an inch. +"I don't think you seriously believe in what you're doing," she +said; "but all the same, you know, I'm going to treat you quite as +if I did." + +"By which you mean," Strether directly replied, "quite as if you +didn't! I assure you it won't make the least difference with me how +you treat me." + +"Well," she said, taking that menace bravely and +philosophically enough, "the only thing that really matters is that +you shall get on with me." + +"Ah but I don't!" he immediately returned. + +It gave her another pause; which, however, she happily enough shook +off. "Will you consent to go on with me a little--provisionally-- +as if you did?" + +Then it was that he saw how she had decidedly come all the way; and +there accompanied it an extraordinary sense of her raising from +somewhere below him her beautiful suppliant eyes. He might have +been perched at his door-step or at his window and she standing in +the road. For a moment he let her stand and couldn't moreover have +spoken. It had been sad, of a sudden, with a sadness that was like +a cold breath in his face. "What can I do," he finally asked, "but +listen to you as I promised Chadwick?" + +"Ah but what I'm asking you," she quickly said, "isn't what Mr. +Newsome had in mind." She spoke at present, he saw, as if to take +courageously ALL her risk. "This is my own idea and a different +thing." + +It gave poor Strether in truth--uneasy as it made him too-- +something of the thrill of a bold perception justified. "Well," he +answered kindly enough, "I was sure a moment since that some idea +of your own had come to you." + +She seemed still to look up at him, but now more serenely. "I made +out you were sure--and that helped it to come. So you see," she +continued, "we do get on." + +"Oh but it appears to me I don't at all meet your request. How can +I when I don't understand it?" + +"It isn't at all necessary you should understand; it will do quite +well enough if you simply remember it. Only feel I trust you--and +for nothing so tremendous after all. Just," she said with a +wonderful smile, "for common civility." + +Strether had a long pause while they sat again face to face, as +they had sat, scarce less conscious, before the poor lady had +crossed the stream. She was the poor lady for Strether now because +clearly she had some trouble, and her appeal to him could only mean +that her trouble was deep. He couldn't help it; it wasn't his +fault; he had done nothing; but by a turn of the hand she had +somehow made their encounter a relation. And the relation profited +by a mass of things that were not strictly in it or of it; by the +very air in which they sat, by the high cold delicate room, by the +world outside and the little plash in the court, by the First +Empire and the relics in the stiff cabinets, by matters as far off +as those and by others as near as the unbroken clasp of her hands +in her lap and the look her expression had of being most natural +when her eyes were most fixed. "You count upon me of course for +something really much greater than it sounds." + +"Oh it sounds great enough too!" she laughed at this. + +He found himself in time on the point of telling her that she was, +as Miss Barrace called it, wonderful; but, catching himself up, he +said something else instead. "What was it Chad's idea then that you +should say to me?" + +"Ah his idea was simply what a man's idea always is--to put every +effort off on the woman." + +"The 'woman'--?" Strether slowly echoed. + +"The woman he likes--and just in proportion as he likes her. In +proportion too--for shifting the trouble--as she likes HIM." + +Strether followed it; then with an abruptness of his own: +"How much do you like Chad?" + +"Just as much as THAT--to take all, with you, on myself." But she +got at once again away from this. "I've been trembling as if we +were to stand or fall by what you may think of me; and I'm even +now," she went on wonderfully, "drawing a long breath--and, yes, +truly taking a great courage--from the hope that I don't in fact +strike you as impossible." + +"That's at all events, clearly," he observed after an instant, "the +way I don't strike YOU." + +"Well," she so far assented, "as you haven't yet said you WON'T +have the little patience with me I ask for--" + +"You draw splendid conclusions? Perfectly. But I don't understand +them," Strether pursued. "You seem to me to ask for much more than +you need. What, at the worst for you, what at the best for myself, +can I after all do? I can use no pressure that I haven't used. You +come really late with your request. I've already done all that for +myself the case admits of. I've said my say, and here I am." + +"Yes, here you are, fortunately!" Madame de Vionnet laughed. "Mrs. +Newsome," she added in another tone, "didn't think you can do so +little." + +He had an hesitation, but he brought the words out. "Well, she +thinks so now." + +"Do you mean by that--?" But she also hung fire. + +"Do I mean what?" + +She still rather faltered. "Pardon me if I touch on it, but if I'm +saying extraordinary things, why, perhaps, mayn't I? Besides, +doesn't it properly concern us to know?" + +"To know what?" he insisted as after thus beating about the bush +she had again dropped. + +She made the effort. "Has she given you up?" + +He was amazed afterwards to think how simply and quietly he had met +it. "Not yet." It was almost as if he were a trifle disappointed-- +had expected still more of her freedom. But he went straight on. +"Is that what Chad has told you will happen to me?" + +She was evidently charmed with the way he took it. "If you mean if +we've talked of it--most certainly. And the question's not what has +had least to do with my wishing to see you." + +"To judge if I'm the sort of man a woman CAN--?" + +"Precisely," she exclaimed--"you wonderful gentleman! I do judge--I +HAVE judged. A woman can't. You're safe--with every right to be. +You'd be much happier if you'd only believe it." + +Strether was silent a little; then he found himself speaking with a +cynicism of confidence of which even at the moment the sources were +strange to him. "I try to believe it. But it's a marvel," he +exclaimed, "how YOU already get at it!" + +Oh she was able to say. "Remember how much I was on the way to it +through Mr. Newsome--before I saw you. He thinks everything of your +strength." + +"Well, I can bear almost anything!" our friend briskly interrupted. +Deep and beautiful on this her smile came back, and with the effect +of making him hear what he had said just as she had heard it. He +easily enough felt that it gave him away, but what in truth had +everything done but that? It had been all very well to think at +moments that he was holding her nose down and that he had coerced +her: what had he by this time done but let her practically see that +he accepted their relation? What was their relation moreover-- +though light and brief enough in form as yet--but whatever she +might choose to make it? Nothing could prevent her--certainly he +couldn't--from making it pleasant. At the back of his head, behind +everything, was the sense that she was--there, before him, close to +him, in vivid imperative form--one of the rare women he had so +often heard of, read of, thought of, but never met, whose very +presence, look, voice, the mere contemporaneous FACT of whom, from +the moment it was at all presented, made a relation of mere +recognition. That was not the kind of woman he had ever found Mrs. +Newsome, a contemporaneous fact who had been distinctly slow to +establish herself; and at present, confronted with Madame de +Vionnet, he felt the simplicity of his original impression of Miss +Gostrey. She certainly had been a fact of rapid growth; but the +world was wide, each day was more and more a new lesson. There were +at any rate even among the stranger ones relations and relations. +"Of course I suit Chad's grand way," he quickly added. "He hasn't +had much difficulty in working me in." + +She seemed to deny a little, on the young man's behalf, by the rise +of her eyebrows, an intention of any process at all inconsiderate. +"You must know how grieved he'd be if you were to lose anything. He +believes you can keep his mother patient." + +Strether wondered with his eyes on her. "I see. THAT'S then what +you really want of me. And how am I to do it? Perhaps you'll tell +me that." + +"Simply tell her the truth." + +"And what do you call the truth?" + +"Well, any truth--about us all--that you see yourself. I leave it +to you." + +"Thank you very much. I like," Strether laughed with a slight +harshness, "the way you leave things!" + +But she insisted kindly, gently, as if it wasn't so bad. "Be +perfectly honest. Tell her all." + +"All?" he oddly echoed. + +"Tell her the simple truth," Madame de Vionnet again pleaded. + +"But what is the simple truth? The simple truth is exactly what I'm +trying to discover." + +She looked about a while, but presently she came back to him. "Tell +her, fully and clearly, about US." + +Strether meanwhile had been staring. "You and your daughter?" + +"Yes--little Jeanne and me. Tell her," she just slightly quavered, +"you like us." + +"And what good will that do me? Or rather"--he caught himself up-- +"what good will it do YOU?" + +She looked graver. "None, you believe, really?" + +Strether debated. "She didn't send me out to 'like' you." + +"Oh," she charmingly contended, "she sent you out to face the +facts." + +He admitted after an instant that there was something in that. "But +how can I face them till I know what they are? Do you want him," he +then braced himself to ask, "to marry your daughter?" + +She gave a headshake as noble as it was prompt. "No--not that." + +"And he really doesn't want to himself?" + +She repeated the movement, but now with a strange light in her +face. "He likes her too much." + +Strether wondered. "To be willing to consider, you mean, the +question of taking her to America?" + +"To be willing to do anything with her but be immensely kind and +nice--really tender of her. We watch over her, and you must help +us. You must see her again." + +Strether felt awkward. "Ah with pleasure--she's so remarkably +attractive." + +The mother's eagerness with which Madame de Vionnet jumped at this +was to come back to him later as beautiful in its grace. "The dear +thing DID please you?" Then as he met it with the largest "Oh!" of +enthusiasm: "She's perfect. She's my joy." + +"Well, I'm sure that--if one were near her and saw more of her-- +she'd be mine." + +"Then," said Madame de Vionnet, "tell Mrs. Newsome that!" + +He wondered the more. "What good will that do you?" As she appeared +unable at once to say, however, he brought out something else. "Is +your daughter in love with our friend?" + +"Ah," she rather startlingly answered, "I wish you'd find out!" + +He showed his surprise. "I? A stranger?" + +"Oh you won't be a stranger--presently. You shall see her quite, I +assure you, as if you weren't." + +It remained for him none the less an extraordinary notion. "It +seems to me surely that if her mother can't--" + +"Ah little girls and their mothers to-day!" she rather inconsequently +broke in. But she checked herself with something she seemed to give +out as after all more to the point. "Tell her I've been good for +him. Don't you think I have?" + +It had its effect on him--more than at the moment he quite measured. +Yet he was consciously enough touched. "Oh if it's all you--!" + +"Well, it may not be 'all,'" she interrupted, "but it's to a great +extent. Really and truly," she added in a tone that was to take its +place with him among things remembered. + +"Then it's very wonderful." He smiled at her from a face that he +felt as strained, and her own face for a moment kept him so. At +last she also got up. "Well, don't you think that for that--" + +"I ought to save you?" So it was that the way to meet her--and the +way, as well, in a manner, to get off--came over him. He heard +himself use the exorbitant word, the very sound of which helped to +determine his flight. "I'll save you if I can." + + + +II + + +In Chad's lovely home, however, one evening ten days later, he felt +himself present at the collapse of the question of Jeanne de Vionnet's +shy secret. He had been dining there in the company of that young +lady and her mother, as well as of other persons, and he had gone +into the petit salon, at Chad's request, on purpose to talk with her. +The young man had put this to him as a favour--"I should like so +awfully to know what you think of her. It will really be a chance +for you," he had said, "to see the jeune fille--I mean the type--as she +actually is, and I don't think that, as an observer of manners, +it's a thing you ought to miss. It will be an impression that-- +whatever else you take--you can carry home with you, where you'll +find again so much to compare it with." + +Strether knew well enough with what Chad wished him to compare it, +and though he entirely assented he hadn't yet somehow been so +deeply reminded that he was being, as he constantly though mutely +expressed it, used. He was as far as ever from making out exactly +to what end; but he was none the less constantly accompanied by a +sense of the service he rendered. He conceived only that this +service was highly agreeable to those who profited by it; and he +was indeed still waiting for the moment at which he should catch it +in the act of proving disagreeable, proving in some degree +intolerable, to himself. He failed quite to see how his situation +could clear up at all logically except by some turn of events that +would give him the pretext of disgust. He was building from day to +day on the possibility of disgust, but each day brought forth +meanwhile a new and more engaging bend of the road. That +possibility was now ever so much further from sight than on the eve +of his arrival, and he perfectly felt that, should it come at all, +it would have to be at best inconsequent and violent. He struck +himself as a little nearer to it only when he asked himself what +service, in such a life of utility, he was after all rendering +Mrs. Newsome. When he wished to help himself to believe that he was +still all right he reflected--and in fact with wonder--on the +unimpaired frequency of their correspondence; in relation to which +what was after all more natural than that it should become more +frequent just in proportion as their problem became more complicated? + +Certain it is at any rate that he now often brought himself balm by +the question, with the rich consciousness of yesterday's letter, +"Well, what can I do more than that--what can I do more than tell +her everything?" To persuade himself that he did tell her, had told +her, everything, he used to try to think of particular things he +hadn't told her. When at rare moments and in the watches of the +night he pounced on one it generally showed itself to be--to a +deeper scrutiny--not quite truly of the essence. When anything new +struck him as coming up, or anything already noted as reappearing, +he always immediately wrote, as if for fear that if he didn't he +would miss something; and also that he might be able to say to +himself from time to time "She knows it NOW--even while I worry." +It was a great comfort to him in general not to have left past +things to be dragged to light and explained; not to have to produce +at so late a stage anything not produced, or anything even veiled +and attenuated, at the moment. She knew it now: that was what he +said to himself to-night in relation to the fresh fact of Chad's +acquaintance with the two ladies--not to speak of the fresher one +of his own. Mrs. Newsome knew in other words that very night at +Woollett that he himself knew Madame de Vionnet and that he had +conscientiously been to see her; also that he had found her +remarkably attractive and that there would probably be a good deal +more to tell. But she further knew, or would know very soon, that, +again conscientiously, he hadn't repeated his visit; and that when +Chad had asked him on the Countess's behalf--Strether made her out +vividly, with a thought at the back of his head, a Countess--if he +wouldn't name a day for dining with her, he had replied lucidly: +"Thank you very much--impossible." He had begged the young man +would present his excuses and had trusted him to understand that it +couldn't really strike one as quite the straight thing. He hadn't +reported to Mrs. Newsome that he had promised to "save" Madame de +Vionnet; but, so far as he was concerned with that reminiscence, he +hadn't at any rate promised to haunt her house. What Chad had +understood could only, in truth, be inferred from Chad's behaviour, +which had been in this connexion as easy as in every other. He was +easy, always, when he understood; he was easier still, if possible, +when he didn't; he had replied that he would make it all right; and +he had proceeded to do this by substituting the present occasion-- +as he was ready to substitute others--for any, for every occasion +as to which his old friend should have a funny scruple. + +"Oh but I'm not a little foreign girl; I'm just as English as I can be," +Jeanne de Vionnet had said to him as soon as, in the petit salon, +he sank, shyly enough on his own side, into the place near her +vacated by Madame Gloriani at his approach. Madame Gloriani, +who was in black velvet, with white lace and powdered hair, and +whose somewhat massive majesty melted, at any contact, into the +graciousness of some incomprehensible tongue, moved away to make +room for the vague gentleman, after benevolent greetings to him +which embodied, as he believed, in baffling accents, some +recognition of his face from a couple of Sundays before. Then he +had remarked--making the most of the advantage of his years--that +it frightened him quite enough to find himself dedicated to the +entertainment of a little foreign girl. There were girls he wasn't +afraid of--he was quite bold with little Americans. Thus it was +that she had defended herself to the end--"Oh but I'm almost +American too. That's what mamma has wanted me to be--I mean LIKE +that; for she has wanted me to have lots of freedom. She has known +such good results from it." + +She was fairly beautiful to him--a faint pastel in an oval frame: +he thought of her already as of some lurking image in a long +gallery, the portrait of a small old-time princess of whom nothing +was known but that she had died young. Little Jeanne wasn't, +doubtless, to die young, but one couldn't, all the same, bear on +her lightly enough. It was bearing hard, it was bearing as HE, in +any case, wouldn't bear, to concern himself, in relation to her, +with the question of a young man. Odious really the question of a +young man; one didn't treat such a person as a maid-servant +suspected of a "follower." And then young men, young men--well, the +thing was their business simply, or was at all events hers. She was +fluttered, fairly fevered--to the point of a little glitter that +came and went in her eyes and a pair of pink spots that stayed in +her cheeks--with the great adventure of dining out and with the +greater one still, possibly, of finding a gentleman whom she must +think of as very, very old, a gentleman with eye-glasses, wrinkles, +a long grizzled moustache. She spoke the prettiest English, our +friend thought, that he had ever heard spoken, just as he had +believed her a few minutes before to be speaking the prettiest +French. He wondered almost wistfully if such a sweep of the lyre +didn't react on the spirit itself; and his fancy had in fact, +before he knew it, begun so to stray and embroider that he finally +found himself, absent and extravagant, sitting with the child in a +friendly silence. Only by this time he felt her flutter to have +fortunately dropped and that she was more at her ease. She trusted +him, liked him, and it was to come back to him afterwards that she +had told him things. She had dipped into the waiting medium at last +and found neither surge nor chill--nothing but the small splash she +could herself make in the pleasant warmth, nothing but the safety +of dipping and dipping again. At the end of the ten minutes he was +to spend with her his impression--with all it had thrown off and +all it had taken in--was complete. She had been free, as she knew +freedom, partly to show him that, unlike other little persons she +knew, she had imbibed that ideal. She was delightfully quaint about +herself, but the vision of what she had imbibed was what most held +him. It really consisted, he was soon enough to feel, in just one +great little matter, the fact that, whatever her nature, she was +thoroughly--he had to cast about for the word, but it came--bred. +He couldn't of course on so short an acquaintance speak for her +nature, but the idea of breeding was what she had meanwhile dropped +into his mind. He had never yet known it so sharply presented. Her +mother gave it, no doubt; but her mother, to make that less sensible, +gave so much else besides, and on neither of the two previous occasions, +extraordinary woman, Strether felt, anything like what she was giving +tonight. Little Jeanne was a case, an exquisite case of education; +whereas the Countess, whom it so amused him to think of by that +denomination, was a case, also exquisite, of--well, he didn't know what. + +"He has wonderful taste, notre jeune homme": this was what Gloriani +said to him on turning away from the inspection of a small picture +suspended near the door of the room. The high celebrity in question +had just come in, apparently in search of Mademoiselle de Vionnet, +but while Strether had got up from beside her their fellow guest, +with his eye sharply caught, had paused for a long look. The thing +was a landscape, of no size, but of the French school, as our +friend was glad to feel he knew, and also of a quality--which he +liked to think he should also have guessed; its frame was large out +of proportion to the canvas, and he had never seen a person look at +anything, he thought, just as Gloriani, with his nose very near and +quick movements of the head from side to side and bottom to top, +examined this feature of Chad's collection. The artist used that +word the next moment smiling courteously, wiping his nippers and +looking round him further--paying the place in short by the very +manner of his presence and by something Strether fancied he could +make out in this particular glance, such a tribute as, to the +latter's sense, settled many things once for all. Strether was +conscious at this instant, for that matter, as he hadn't yet been, +of how, round about him, quite without him, they WERE consistently +settled. Gloriani's smile, deeply Italian, he considered, and +finely inscrutable, had had for him, during dinner, at which they +were not neighbours, an indefinite greeting; but the quality in it +was gone that had appeared on the other occasion to turn him inside +out; it was as if even the momentary link supplied by the doubt +between them had snapped. He was conscious now of the final +reality, which was that there wasn't so much a doubt as a +difference altogether; all the more that over the difference the +famous sculptor seemed to signal almost condolingly, yet oh how +vacantly! as across some great flat sheet of water. He threw out +the bridge of a charming hollow civility on which Strether wouldn't +have trusted his own full weight a moment. That idea, even though +but transient and perhaps belated, had performed the office of +putting Strether more at his ease, and the blurred picture had +already dropped--dropped with the sound of something else said and +with his becoming aware, by another quick turn, that Gloriani was +now on the sofa talking with Jeanne, while he himself had in his +ears again the familiar friendliness and the elusive meaning of the +"Oh, oh, oh!" that had made him, a fortnight before, challenge Miss +Barrace in vain. She had always the air, this picturesque and +original lady, who struck him, so oddly, as both antique and +modern--she had always the air of taking up some joke that one had +already had out with her. The point itself, no doubt, was what was +antique, and the use she made of it what was modern. He felt just +now that her good-natured irony did bear on something, and it +troubled him a little that she wouldn't be more explicit only +assuring him, with the pleasure of observation so visible in her, +that she wouldn't tell him more for the world. He could take refuge +but in asking her what she had done with Waymarsh, though it must +be added that he felt himself a little on the way to a clue after +she had answered that this personage was, in the other room, +engaged in conversation with Madame de Vionnet. He stared a moment +at the image of such a conjunction; then, for Miss Barrace's +benefit, he wondered. "Is she too then under the charm--?" + +"No, not a bit"--Miss Barrace was prompt. "She makes nothing of him. +She's bored. She won't help you with him." + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "she can't do everything. + +"Of course not--wonderful as she is. Besides, he makes nothing of +HER. She won't take him from me--though she wouldn't, no doubt, +having other affairs in hand, even if she could. I've never," said +Miss Barrace, "seen her fail with any one before. And to-night, +when she's so magnificent, it would seem to her strange--if she +minded. So at any rate I have him all. Je suis tranquille!'' + +Strether understood, so far as that went; but he was feeling for +his clue. "She strikes you to-night as particularly magnificent?" + +"Surely. Almost as I've never seen her. Doesn't she you? +Why it's FOR you." + +He persisted in his candour. "'For' me--?" + +"Oh, oh, oh!" cried Miss Barrace, who persisted in the opposite of +that quality. + +"Well," he acutely admitted, "she IS different. She's gay. " + +"She's gay!" Miss Barrace laughed. "And she has beautiful +shoulders--though there's nothing different in that." + +"No," said Strether, "one was sure of her shoulders. +It isn't her shoulders." + +His companion, with renewed mirth and the finest sense, between +the puffs of her cigarette, of the drollery of things, appeared to +find their conversation highly delightful. "Yes, it isn't +her shoulders ." + +"What then is it?" Strether earnestly enquired. + +"Why, it's SHE--simply. It's her mood. It's her charm." + +"Of course it's her charm, but we're speaking of the difference." +"Well," Miss Barrace explained, "she's just brilliant, as we used +to say. That's all. She's various. She's fifty women." + +"Ah but only one"--Strether kept it clear--"at a time." + +"Perhaps. But in fifty times--!" + +"Oh we shan't come to that," our friend declared; and the next +moment he had moved in another direction. "Will you answer me a +plain question? Will she ever divorce?" + +Miss Barrace looked at him through all her tortoise-shell. "Why +should she?" + +It wasn't what he had asked for, he signified; but he met it well +enough. "To marry Chad." + +"Why should she marry Chad?" + +"Because I'm convinced she's very fond of him. She has done wonders +for him." + +"Well then, how could she do more? Marrying a man, or woman +either," Miss Barrace sagely went on, "is never the wonder for any +Jack and Jill can bring THAT off. The wonder is their doing such +things without marrying." + +Strether considered a moment this proposition. "You mean it's so +beautiful for our friends simply to go on so?" + +But whatever he said made her laugh. "Beautiful." + +He nevertheless insisted. "And THAT because it's disinterested?" + +She was now, however, suddenly tired of the question. "Yes then-- +call it that. Besides, she'll never divorce. Don't, moreover," she +added, "believe everything you hear about her husband." + +He's not then," Strether asked, "a wretch?" + +"Oh yes. But charming." + +"Do you know him?" + +"I've met him. He's bien aimable." + +"To every one but his wife?" + +"Oh for all I know, to her too--to any, to every woman. I hope you +at any rate," she pursued with a quick change, "appreciate the care +I take of Mr. Waymarsh." + +"Oh immensely." But Strether was not yet in line. "At all events," +he roundly brought out, "the attachment's an innocent one." + +"Mine and his? Ah," she laughed, "don't rob it of ALL interest!" + +"I mean our friend's here--to the lady we've been speaking of." +That was what he had settled to as an indirect but none the less +closely involved consequence of his impression of Jeanne. That was +where he meant to stay. "It's innocent," he repeated--"I see the +whole thing." + +Mystified by his abrupt declaration, she had glanced over at +Gloriani as at the unnamed subject of his allusion, but the next +moment she had understood; though indeed not before Strether had +noticed her momentary mistake and wondered what might possibly be +behind that too. He already knew that the sculptor admired Madame +de Vionnet; but did this admiration also represent an attachment of +which the innocence was discussable? He was moving verily in a +strange air and on ground not of the firmest. He looked hard for an +instant at Miss Barrace, but she had already gone on. "All right +with Mr. Newsome? Why of course she is!"--and she got gaily back +to the question of her own good friend. "I dare say you're +surprised that I'm not worn out with all I see--it being so much!-- +of Sitting Bull. But I'm not, you know--I don't mind him; I bear +up, and we get on beautifully. I'm very strange; I'm like that; and +often I can't explain. There are people who are supposed +interesting or remarkable or whatever, and who bore me to death; +and then there are others as to whom nobody can understand what +anybody sees in them--in whom I see no end of things." Then after +she had smoked a moment, "He's touching, you know," she said. + +"'Know'?" Strether echoed--"don't I, indeed? We must move you +almost to tears." + +"Oh but I don't mean YOU!" she laughed. + +"You ought to then, for the worst sign of all--as I must have it +for you--is that you can't help me. That's when a woman pities." + +"Ah but I do help you!" she cheerfully insisted. + +Again he looked at her hard, and then after a pause: "No you +don't!" + +Her tortoise-shell, on its long chain, rattled down. "I help you +with Sitting Bull. That's a good deal." + +"Oh that, yes." But Strether hesitated. "Do you mean he talks of +me?" + +"So that I have to defend you? No, never.' + +"I see," Strether mused. "It's too deep." + +"That's his only fault," she returned--"that everything, with him, +is too deep. He has depths of silence--which he breaks only at the +longest intervals by a remark. And when the remark comes it's +always something he has seen or felt for himself--never a bit banal +THAT would be what one might have feared and what would kill me But +never." She smoked again as she thus, with amused complacency, +appreciated her acquisition. "And never about you. We keep clear of +you. We're wonderful. But I'll tell you what he does do," she +continued: "he tries to make me presents." + +"Presents?" poor Strether echoed, conscious with a pang that HE +hadn't yet tried that in any quarter. + +"Why you see," she explained, "he's as fine as ever in the +victoria; so that when I leave him, as I often do almost for hours +--he likes it so--at the doors of shops, the sight of him there +helps me, when I come out, to know my carriage away off in the +rank. But sometimes, for a change, he goes with me into the shops, +and then I've all I can do to prevent his buying me things." + +"He wants to 'treat' you?" Strether almost gasped at all he himself +hadn't thought of. He had a sense of admiration. "Oh he's much more +in the real tradition than I. Yes," he mused, "it's the sacred rage." + +"The sacred rage, exactly!"--and Miss Barrace, who hadn't before +heard this term applied, recognised its bearing with a clap of her +gemmed hands. "Now I do know why he's not banal. But I do prevent +him all the same--and if you saw what he sometimes selects--from +buying. I save him hundreds and hundreds. I only take flowers." + +"Flowers?" Strether echoed again with a rueful reflexion. How many +nosegays had her present converser sent? + +"Innocent flowers," she pursued, "as much as he likes. And he sends +me splendours; he knows all the best places--he has found them for +himself; he's wonderful." + +"He hasn't told them to me," her friend smiled, "he has a life of +his own." But Strether had swung back to the consciousness that for +himself after all it never would have done. Waymarsh hadn't Mrs. +Waymarsh in the least to consider, whereas Lambert Strether had +constantly, in the inmost honour of his thoughts, to consider Mrs. +Newsome. He liked moreover to feel how much his friend was in the +real tradition. Yet he had his conclusion. "WHAT a rage it is!" +He had worked it out. "It's an opposition." + +She followed, but at a distance. "That's what I feel. Yet to what?" + +"Well, he thinks, you know, that I'VE a life of my own. And I haven't!" + +"You haven't?" She showed doubt, and her laugh confirmed it. +"Oh, oh, oh!" + +"No--not for myself. I seem to have a life only for other people." + +"Ah for them and WITH them! Just now for instance with--" + +"Well, with whom?" he asked before she had had time to say. + +His tone had the effect of making her hesitate and even, as he +guessed, speak with a difference. "Say with Miss Gostrey. What do +you do for HER?" It really made him wonder. "Nothing at all!" + + + +III + + +Madame de Vionnet, having meanwhile come in, was at present +close to them, and Miss Barrace hereupon, instead of risking a +rejoinder, became again with a look that measured her from top to +toe all mere long-handled appreciative tortoise-shell. She had +struck our friend, from the first of her appearing, as dressed for +a great occasion, and she met still more than on either of the +others the conception reawakened in him at their garden-party, the +idea of the femme du monde in her habit as she lived. Her bare +shoulders and arms were white and beautiful; the materials of her +dress, a mixture, as he supposed, of silk and crape, were of a +silvery grey so artfully composed as to give an impression of warm +splendour; and round her neck she wore a collar of large old +emeralds, the green note of which was more dimly repeated, at other +points of her apparel, in embroidery, in enamel, in satin, in +substances and textures vaguely rich. Her head, extremely fair and +exquisitely festal, was like a happy fancy, a notion of the +antique, on an old precious medal, some silver coin of the +Renaissance; while her slim lightness and brightness, her gaiety, +her expression, her decision, contributed to an effect that might +have been felt by a poet as half mythological and half conventional. +He could have compared her to a goddess still partly engaged +in a morning cloud, or to a sea-nymph waist-high in the summer surge. +Above all she suggested to him the reflexion that the femme du monde-- +in these finest developments of the type--was, like Cleopatra +in the play, indeed various and multifold. She had aspects, characters, +days, nights--or had them at least, showed them by a mysterious law +of her own, when in addition to everything she happened also to be +a woman of genius. She was an obscure person, a muffled person one day, +and a showy person, an uncovered person the next. He thought of +Madame de Vionnet to-night as showy and uncovered, though he felt +the formula rough, because, thanks to one of the short-cuts of genius +she had taken all his categories by surprise. Twice during dinner +he had met Chad's eyes in a longish look; but these communications +had in truth only stirred up again old ambiguities--so little was it +clear from them whether they were an appeal or an admonition. +"You see how I'm fixed," was what they appeared to convey; yet how +he was fixed was exactly what Strether didn't see. However, perhaps +he should see now. + +"Are you capable of the very great kindness of going to relieve +Newsome, for a few minutes, of the rather crushing responsibility +of Madame Gloriani, while I say a word, if he'll allow me, to +Mr. Strether, of whom I've a question to ask? Our host ought to talk +a bit to those other ladies, and I'll come back in a minute to your +rescue." She made this proposal to Miss Barrace as if her +consciousness of a special duty had just flickered-up, but that +lady's recognition of Strether's little start at it--as at a +betrayal on the speaker's part of a domesticated state--was as mute +as his own comment; and after an instant, when their fellow guest +had good-naturedly left them, he had been given something else to +think of. "Why has Maria so suddenly gone? Do you know?" That was +the question Madame de Vionnet had brought with her. + +"I'm afraid I've no reason to give you but the simple reason I've +had from her in a note--the sudden obligation to join in the south +a sick friend who has got worse." + +"Ah then she has been writing you?" + +"Not since she went--I had only a brief explanatory word before she +started. I went to see her," Strether explained--"it was the day +after I called on you--but she was already on her way, and her +concierge told me that in case of my coming I was to be informed +she had written to me. I found her note when I got home." + +Madame de Vionnet listened with interest and with her eyes on +Strether's face; then her delicately decorated head had a small +melancholy motion. "She didn't write to ME. I went to see her," she +added, "almost immediately after I had seen you, and as I assured +her I would do when I met her at Gloriani's. She hadn't then told +me she was to be absent, and I felt at her door as if I understood. +She's absent--with all respect to her sick friend, though I know +indeed she has plenty--so that I may not see her. She doesn't want +to meet me again. Well," she continued with a beautiful conscious +mildness, "I liked and admired her beyond every one in the old +time, and she knew it--perhaps that's precisely what has made her go-- +and I dare say I haven't lost her for ever." Strether still said +nothing; he had a horror, as he now thought of himself, of being +in question between women--was in fact already quite enough on his +way to that, and there was moreover, as it came to him, perceptibly, +something behind these allusions and professions that, should he +take it in, would square but ill with his present resolve to simplify. +It was as if, for him, all the same, her softness and sadness +were sincere. He felt that not less when she soon went on: +"I'm extremely glad of her happiness." But it also left him mute-- +sharp and fine though the imputation it conveyed. What it conveyed +was that HE was Maria Gostrey's happiness, and for the least little +instant he had the impulse to challenge the thought. He could have +done so however only by saying "What then do you suppose to be +between us?" and he was wonderfully glad a moment later not to have +spoken. He would rather seem stupid any day than fatuous, and he +drew back as well, with a smothered inward shudder, from the +consideration of what women--of highly-developed type in particular-- +might think of each other. Whatever he had come out for he hadn't +come to go into that; so that he absolutely took up nothing his +interlocutress had now let drop. Yet, though he had kept away from her +for days, had laid wholly on herself the burden of their meeting again, +she hadn't a gleam of irritation to show him. "Well, about Jeanne now?" +she smiled--it had the gaiety with which she had originally come in. +He felt it on the instant to represent her motive and real errand. +But he had been schooling her of a truth to say much in proportion to +his little. "Do you make out that she has a sentiment? I mean for +Mr. Newsome." + +Almost resentful, Strether could at last be prompt. "How can I make +out such things?" + +She remained perfectly good-natured. "Ah but they're beautiful +little things, and you make out--don't pretend--everything in the +world. Haven't you," she asked, "been talking with her?" + +"Yes, but not about Chad. At least not much." + +"Oh you don't require 'much'!" she reassuringly declared. But she +immediately changed her ground. "I hope you remember your promise +of the other day." + +"To 'save' you, as you called it?" + +"I call it so still. You WILL?" she insisted. "You haven't repented?" + +He wondered. "No--but I've been thinking what I meant." + +She kept it up. "And not, a little, what I did?" + +"No--that's not necessary. It will be enough if I know what I +meant myself." + +"And don't you know," she asked, "by this time?" + +Again he had a pause. "I think you ought to leave it to me. +But how long," he added, "do you give me?" + +"It seems to me much more a question of how long you give ME. +Doesn't our friend here himself, at any rate," she went on, +"perpetually make me present to you?" + +"Not," Strether replied, "by ever speaking of you to me." + +"He never does that?" + +"Never." + +She considered, and, if the fact was disconcerting to her, +effectually concealed it. The next minute indeed she had recovered. +"No, he wouldn't. But do you NEED that?" + +Her emphasis was wonderful, and though his eyes had been wandering +he looked at her longer now. "I see what you mean." + +"Of course you see what I mean." + +Her triumph was gentle, and she really had tones to make justice +weep. "I've before me what he owes you." + +"Admit then that that's something," she said, yet still with the +same discretion in her pride. + +He took in this note but went straight on. "You've made of him what +I see, but what I don't see is how in the world you've done it." + +"Ah that's another question!" she smiled. "The point is of what use +is your declining to know me when to know Mr. Newsome--as you do me +the honour to find him--IS just to know me." + +"I see," he mused, still with his eyes on her. "I shouldn't have +met you to-night." + +She raised and dropped her linked hands. "It doesn't matter. If I +trust you why can't you a little trust me too? And why can't you +also," she asked in another tone, "trust yourself?" But she gave +him no time to reply. "Oh I shall be so easy for you! And I'm glad +at any rate you've seen my child." + +"I'm glad too," he said; "but she does you no good." + +"No good?"--Madame de Vionnet had a clear stare. "Why she's an +angel of light." + +"That's precisely the reason. Leave her alone. Don't try to find +out. I mean," he explained, "about what you spoke to me of-- +the way she feels." + +His companion wondered. "Because one really won't?" + +"Well, because I ask you, as a favour to myself, not to. She's the +most charming creature I've ever seen. Therefore don't touch her. +Don't know--don't want to know. And moreover--yes--you won't." + +It was an appeal, of a sudden, and she took it in. "As a favour to you?" + +"Well--since you ask me." + +"Anything, everything you ask," she smiled. "I shan't know then--never. +Thank you," she added with peculiar gentleness as she turned away. + +The sound of it lingered with him, making him fairly feel as if he +had been tripped up and had a fall. In the very act of arranging +with her for his independence he had, under pressure from a +particular perception, inconsistently, quite stupidly, committed +himself, and, with her subtlety sensitive on the spot to an +advantage, she had driven in by a single word a little golden nail, +the sharp intention of which he signally felt. He hadn't detached, +he had more closely connected himself, and his eyes, as he +considered with some intensity this circumstance, met another pair +which had just come within their range and which struck him as +reflecting his sense of what he had done. He recognised them at the +same moment as those of little Bilham, who had apparently drawn +near on purpose to speak to him, and little Bilham wasn't, in the +conditions, the person to whom his heart would be most closed. +They were seated together a minute later at the angle of the room +obliquely opposite the corner in which Gloriani was still engaged +with Jeanne de Vionnet, to whom at first and in silence their +attention had been benevolently given. "I can't see for my life," +Strether had then observed, "how a young fellow of any spirit--such +a one as you for instance--can be admitted to the sight of that +young lady without being hard hit. Why don't you go in, little +Bilham?" He remembered the tone into which he had been betrayed on +the garden-bench at the sculptor's reception, and this might make +up for that by being much more the right sort of thing to say to a +young man worthy of any advice at all. "There WOULD be some +reason." + +"Some reason for what?" + +"Why for hanging on here." + +"To offer my hand and fortune to Mademoiselle de Vionnet?" + +"Well," Strether asked, "to what lovelier apparition COULD you +offer them? She's the sweetest little thing I've ever seen." + +"She's certainly immense. I mean she's the real thing. I believe +the pale pink petals are folded up there for some wondrous +efflorescence in time; to open, that is, to some great golden sun. +I'M unfortunately but a small farthing candle. What chance in such +a field for a poor little painter-man?" + +"Oh you're good enough," Strether threw out. + +"Certainly I'm good enough. We're good enough, I consider, nous +autres, for anything. But she's TOO good. There's the difference. +They wouldn't look at me." + +Strether, lounging on his divan and still charmed by the young +girl, whose eyes had consciously strayed to him, he fancied, with a +vague smile--Strether, enjoying the whole occasion as with dormant +pulses at last awake and in spite of new material thrust upon him, +thought over his companion's words. "Whom do you mean by 'they'? +She and her mother?" + +"She and her mother. And she has a father too, who, whatever else +he may be, certainly can't be indifferent to the possibilities she +represents. Besides, there's Chad." + +Strether was silent a little. "Ah but he doesn't care for her--not, +I mean, it appears, after all, in the sense I'm speaking of. He's +NOT in love with her." + +"No--but he's her best friend; after her mother. He's very fond +of her. He has his ideas about what can be done for her." + +"Well, it's very strange!" Strether presently remarked with a +sighing sense of fulness. + +"Very strange indeed. That's just the beauty of it. Isn't it very +much the kind of beauty you had in mind," little Bilham went on, +"when you were so wonderful and so inspiring to me the other day? +Didn't you adjure me, in accents I shall never forget, to see, +while I've a chance, everything I can?--and REALLY to see, for it +must have been that only you meant. Well, you did me no end of +good, and I'm doing my best. I DO make it out a situation." + +"So do I!" Strether went on after a moment. But he had the next minute +an inconsequent question. "How comes Chad so mixed up, anyway?" + +"Ah, ah, ah!"--and little Bilham fell back on his cushions. + +It reminded our friend of Miss Barrace, and he felt again the brush +of his sense of moving in a maze of mystic closed allusions. Yet he +kept hold of his thread. "Of course I understand really; only the +general transformation makes me occasionally gasp. Chad with such a +voice in the settlement of the future of a little countess--no," +he declared, "it takes more time! You say moreover," he resumed, "that +we're inevitably, people like you and me, out of the running. The +curious fact remains that Chad himself isn't. The situation doesn't +make for it, but in a different one he could have her if he would." + +"Yes, but that's only because he's rich and because there's a +possibility of his being richer. They won't think of anything but a +great name or a great fortune." + +"Well," said Strether, "he'll have no great fortune on THESE lines. +He must stir his stumps." + +"Is that," little Bilham enquired, "what you were saying to +Madame de Vionnet?" + +"No--I don't say much to her. Of course, however," Strether +continued, "he can make sacrifices if he likes." + +Little Bilham had a pause. "Oh he's not keen for sacrifices; or +thinks, that is, possibly, that he has made enough." + +"Well, it IS virtuous," his companion observed with some decision. + +"That's exactly," the young man dropped after a moment, "what I mean." + +It kept Strether himself silent a little. "I've made it out for +myself," he then went on; "I've really, within the last half-hour, +got hold of it. I understand it in short at last; which at first-- +when you originally spoke to me--I didn't. Nor when Chad originally +spoke to me either." + +"Oh," said little Bilham, "I don't think that at that time you +believed me." + +"Yes--I did; and I believed Chad too. It would have been odious and +unmannerly--as well as quite perverse--if I hadn't. What interest +have you in deceiving me?" + +The young man cast about. "What interest have I?" + +"Yes. Chad MIGHT have. But you?" + +"Ah, ah, ah!" little Bilham exclaimed. + +It might, on repetition, as a mystification, have irritated our +friend a little, but he knew, once more, as we have seen, where he +was, and his being proof against everything was only another +attestation that he meant to stay there. "I couldn't, without my +own impression, realise. She's a tremendously clever brilliant +capable woman, and with an extraordinary charm on top of it all-- +the charm we surely all of us this evening know what to think of. +It isn't every clever brilliant capable woman that has it. In fact +it's rare with any woman. So there you are," Strether proceeded as +if not for little Bilham's benefit alone. "I understand what a +relation with such a woman--what such a high fine friendship-- +may be. It can't be vulgar or coarse, anyway--and that's the point." + +"Yes, that's the point," said little Bilham. "It can't be vulgar or +coarse. And, bless us and save us, it ISn't! It's, upon my word, +the very finest thing I ever saw in my life, and the most +distinguished." + +Strether, from beside him and leaning back with him as he leaned, +dropped on him a momentary look which filled a short interval and +of which he took no notice. He only gazed before him with intent +participation. "Of course what it has done for him," Strether at +all events presently pursued, "of course what it has done for him-- +that is as to HOW it has so wonderfully worked--isn't a thing I +pretend to understand. I've to take it as I find it. There he is." + +"There he is!" little Bilham echoed. "And it's really and truly +she. I don't understand either, even with my longer and closer +opportunity. But I'm like you," he added; "I can admire and rejoice +even when I'm a little in the dark. You see I've watched it for +some three years, and especially for this last. He wasn't so bad +before it as I seem to have made out that you think--" + +"Oh I don't think anything now!" Strether impatiently broke in: +"that is but what I DO think! I mean that originally, for her to +have cared for him--" + +"There must have been stuff in him? Oh yes, there was stuff indeed, +and much more of it than ever showed, I dare say, at home. Still, +you know," the young man in all fairness developed, "there was room +for her, and that's where she came in. She saw her chance and took +it. That's what strikes me as having been so fine. But of course," +he wound up, "he liked her first." + +"Naturally," said Strether. + +"I mean that they first met somehow and somewhere--I believe in +some American house--and she, without in the least then intending +it, made her impression. Then with time and opportunity he made +his; and after THAT she was as bad as he." + +Strether vaguely took it up. "As 'bad'?" + +"She began, that is, to care--to care very much. Alone, and in her +horrid position, she found it, when once she had started, an +interest. It was, it is, an interest, and it did--it continues to +do--a lot for herself as well. So she still cares. She cares in +fact," said little Bilham thoughtfully "more." + +Strether's theory that it was none of his business was somehow not +damaged by the way he took this. "More, you mean, than he?" On +which his companion looked round at him, and now for an instant +their eyes met. "More than he?" he repeated. + +Little Bilham, for as long, hung fire. "Will you never tell any +one?" + +Strether thought. "Whom should I tell?" + +"Why I supposed you reported regularly--" + +"To people at home?"--Strether took him up. "Well, I won't tell +them this." + +The young man at last looked away. "Then she does now care more +than he." + +"Oh!" Strether oddly exclaimed. + +But his companion immediately met it. "Haven't you after all had +your impression of it? That's how you've got hold of him." + +"Ah but I haven't got hold of him!" + +"Oh I say!" But it was all little Bilham said. + +"It's at any rate none of my business. I mean," Strether explained, +"nothing else than getting hold of him is." It appeared, however, +to strike him as his business to add: "The fact remains +nevertheless that she has saved him." + +Little Bilham just waited. "I thought that was what you were to do." + +But Strether had his answer ready. "I'm speaking--in connexion with +her--of his manners and morals, his character and life. I'm +speaking of him as a person to deal with and talk with and live +with--speaking of him as a social animal." + +"And isn't it as a social animal that you also want him?" + +"Certainly; so that it's as if she had saved him FOR us." + +"It strikes you accordingly then," the young man threw out, "as for +you all to save HER?" + +"Oh for us 'all'--!" Strether could but laugh at that. It brought +him back, however, to the point he had really wished to make. +"They've accepted their situation--hard as it is. They're not free +--at least she's not; but they take what's left to them. It's a +friendship, of a beautiful sort; and that's what makes them so +strong. They're straight, they feel; and they keep each other up. +It's doubtless she, however, who, as you yourself have hinted, +feels it most." + +Little Bilham appeared to wonder what he had hinted. "Feels most +that they're straight?" + +"Well, feels that SHE is, and the strength that comes from it. She +keeps HIM up--she keeps the whole thing up. When people are able to +it's fine. She's wonderful, wonderful, as Miss Barrace says; and he +is, in his way, too; however, as a mere man, he may sometimes rebel +and not feel that he finds his account in it. She has simply given +him an immense moral lift, and what that can explain is prodigious. +That's why I speak of it as a situation. It IS one, if there ever +was." And Strether, with his head back and his eyes on the ceiling, +seemed to lose himself in the vision of it. + +His companion attended deeply. "You state it much better than I +could." +"Oh you see it doesn't concern you." + +Little Bilham considered. "I thought you said just now that it +doesn't concern you either." + +"Well, it doesn't a bit as Madame de Vionnet's affair. But as we +were again saying just now, what did I come out for but to save +him?" + +"Yes--to remove him." + +"To save him by removal; to win him over to HIMSELF thinking it +best he shall take up business--thinking he must immediately do +therefore what's necessary to that end." + +"Well," said little Bilham after a moment, "you HAVE won him over. +He does think it best. He has within a day or two again said to me +as much." + +"And that," Strether asked, "is why you consider that he cares less +than she?" + +"Cares less for her than she for him? Yes, that's one of the reasons. +But other things too have given me the impression. A man, don't +you think?" little Bilham presently pursued, "CAN'T, in such +conditions, care so much as a woman. It takes different conditions +to make him, and then perhaps he cares more. Chad," he wound up, +"has his possible future before him." + +"Are you speaking of his business future?" + +"No--on the contrary; of the other, the future of what you so +justly call their situation. M. de Vionnet may live for ever." + +"So that they can't marry?" + +The young man waited a moment. "Not being able to marry is all +they've with any confidence to look forward to. A woman--a +particular woman--may stand that strain. But can a man?" he +propounded. + +Strether's answer was as prompt as if he had already, for himself, +worked it out. "Not without a very high ideal of conduct. But +that's just what we're attributing to Chad. And how, for that +matter," he mused, "does his going to America diminish the +particular strain? Wouldn't it seem rather to add to it?" + +"Out of sight out of mind!" his companion laughed. Then more +bravely: "Wouldn't distance lessen the torment?" But before +Strether could reply, "The thing is, you see, Chad ought to marry!" +he wound up. + +Strether, for a little, appeared to think of it. "If you talk of +torments you don't diminish mine!" he then broke out. The next +moment he was on his feet with a question. "He ought to marry +whom?" + +Little Bilham rose more slowly. "Well, some one he CAN--some +thoroughly nice girl " + +Strether's eyes, as they stood together, turned again to Jeanne. +"Do you mean HER?" + +His friend made a sudden strange face. "After being in love with +her mother? No." + +"But isn't it exactly your idea that he ISn't in love with her +mother?" + +His friend once more had a pause. "Well, he isn't at any rate in +love with Jeanne." + +"I dare say not." + +"How CAN he be with any other woman?" + +"Oh that I admit. But being in love isn't, you know, here"--little +Bilham spoke in friendly reminder--"thought necessary, in strictness, +for marriage." + +"And what torment--to call a torment--can there ever possibly be +with a woman like that?" As if from the interest of his own +question Strether had gone on without hearing. "Is it for her to +have turned a man out so wonderfully, too, only for somebody else?" +He appeared to make a point of this, and little Bilham looked at +him now. "When it's for each other that people give things up they +don't miss them." Then he threw off as with an extravagance of +which he was conscious: "Let them face the future together!" + +Little Bilham looked at him indeed. "You mean that after all he +shouldn't go back?" + +"I mean that if he gives her up--!" + +"Yes?" + +"Well, he ought to be ashamed of himself." But Strether spoke with +a sound that might have passed for a laugh. + + + + + +Volume II + +Book Seventh + + + + +I + + +It wasn't the first time Strether had sat alone in the great dim +church--still less was it the first of his giving himself up, so +far as conditions permitted, to its beneficent action on his +nerves. He had been to Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had been there +with Miss Gostrey, he had been there with Chad Newsome, and had +found the place, even in company, such a refuge from the obsession +of his problem that, with renewed pressure from that source, he had +not unnaturally recurred to a remedy meeting the case, for the +moment, so indirectly, no doubt, but so relievingly. He was +conscious enough that it was only for the moment, but good moments-- +if he could call them good--still had their value for a man who by +this time struck himself as living almost disgracefully from hand +to mouth. Having so well learnt the way, he had lately made the +pilgrimage more than once by himself--had quite stolen off, taking +an unnoticed chance and making no point of speaking of the +adventure when restored to his friends. + +His great friend, for that matter, was still absent, as well as +remarkably silent; even at the end of three weeks Miss Gostrey +hadn't come back. She wrote to him from Mentone, admitting that he +must judge her grossly inconsequent--perhaps in fact for the time +odiously faithless; but asking for patience, for a deferred +sentence, throwing herself in short on his generosity. For her too, +she could assure him, life was complicated--more complicated than +he could have guessed; she had moreover made certain of him-- +certain of not wholly missing him on her return--before her +disappearance. If furthermore she didn't burden him with letters it +was frankly because of her sense of the other great commerce he had +to carry on. He himself, at the end of a fortnight, had written +twice, to show how his generosity could be trusted; but he reminded +himself in each case of Mrs. Newsome's epistolary manner at the +times when Mrs. Newsome kept off delicate ground. He sank his +problem, he talked of Waymarsh and Miss Barrace, of little Bilham +and the set over the river, with whom he had again had tea, and he +was easy, for convenience, about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and +Jeanne. He admitted that he continued to see them, he was decidedly +so confirmed a haunter of Chad's premises and that young man's +practical intimacy with them was so undeniably great; but he had +his reason for not attempting to render for Miss Gostrey's benefit +the impression of these last days. That would be to tell her too +much about himself--it being at present just from himself he was +trying to escape. + +This small struggle sprang not a little, in its way, from the same +impulse that had now carried him across to Notre Dame; the impulse +to let things be, to give them time to justify themselves or at +least to pass. He was aware of having no errand in such a place but +the desire not to be, for the hour, in certain other places; a +sense of safety, of simplification, which each time he yielded to +it he amused himself by thinking of as a private concession to +cowardice. The great church had no altar for his worship, no direct +voice for his soul; but it was none the less soothing even to +sanctity; for he could feel while there what he couldn't elsewhere, +that he was a plain tired man taking the holiday he had earned. He +was tired, but he wasn't plain--that was the pity and the trouble +of it; he was able, however, to drop his problem at the door very +much as if it had been the copper piece that he deposited, on the +threshold, in the receptacle of the inveterate blind beggar. He +trod the long dim nave, sat in the splendid choir, paused before +the cluttered chapels of the east end, and the mighty monument laid +upon him its spell. He might have been a student under the charm of +a museum--which was exactly what, in a foreign town, in the +afternoon of life, he would have liked to be free to be. This form +of sacrifice did at any rate for the occasion as well as another; +it made him quite sufficiently understand how, within the precinct, +for the real refugee, the things of the world could fall into +abeyance. That was the cowardice, probably--to dodge them, to beg +the question, not to deal with it in the hard outer light; but his +own oblivions were too brief, too vain, to hurt any one but +himself, and he had a vague and fanciful kindness for certain +persons whom he met, figures of mystery and anxiety, and whom, with +observation for his pastime, he ranked as those who were fleeing +from justice. Justice was outside, in the hard light, and injustice +too; but one was as absent as the other from the air of the long +aisles and the brightness of the many altars. + +Thus it was at all events that, one morning some dozen days after +the dinner in the Boulevard Malesherbes at which Madame de Vionnet +had been present with her daughter, he was called upon to play his +part in an encounter that deeply stirred his imagination. He had +the habit, in these contemplations, of watching a fellow visitant, +here and there, from a respectable distance, remarking some note of +behaviour, of penitence, of prostration, of the absolved, relieved +state; this was the manner in which his vague tenderness took its +course, the degree of demonstration to which it naturally had to +confine itself. It hadn't indeed so felt its responsibility as when +on this occasion he suddenly measured the suggestive effect of a +lady whose supreme stillness, in the shade of one of the chapels, +he had two or three times noticed as he made, and made once more, +his slow circuit. She wasn't prostrate--not in any degree bowed, +but she was strangely fixed, and her prolonged immobility showed +her, while he passed and paused, as wholly given up to the need, +whatever it was, that had brought her there. She only sat and gazed +before her, as he himself often sat; but she had placed herself, as +he never did, within the focus of the shrine, and she had lost +herself, he could easily see, as he would only have liked to do. +She was not a wandering alien, keeping back more than she gave, but +one of the familiar, the intimate, the fortunate, for whom these +dealings had a method and a meaning. She reminded our friend--since +it was the way of nine tenths of his current impressions to act as +recalls of things imagined--of some fine firm concentrated heroine +of an old story, something he had heard, read, something that, had +he had a hand for drama, he might himself have written, renewing +her courage, renewing her clearness, in splendidly-protected +meditation. Her back, as she sat, was turned to him, but his +impression absolutely required that she should be young and +interesting, and she carried her head moreover, even in the sacred +shade, with a discernible faith in herself, a kind of implied +conviction of consistency, security, impunity. But what had such a +woman come for if she hadn't come to pray? Strether's reading of +such matters was, it must be owned, confused; but he wondered if +her attitude were some congruous fruit of absolution, of +"indulgence." He knew but dimly what indulgence, in such a place, +might mean; yet he had, as with a soft sweep, a vision of how it +might indeed add to the zest of active rites. All this was a good +deal to have been denoted by a mere lurking figure who was nothing +to him; but, the last thing before leaving the church, he had the +surprise of a still deeper quickening. + +He had dropped upon a seat halfway down the nave and, again in the +museum mood, was trying with head thrown back and eyes aloft, +to reconstitute a past, to reduce it in fact to the convenient terms +of Victor Hugo, whom, a few days before, giving the rein for once +in a way to the joy of life, he had purchased in seventy bound volumes, +a miracle of cheapness, parted with, he was assured by the shopman, +at the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, doubtless, while he +played his eternal nippers over Gothic glooms, sufficiently rapt in +reverence; but what his thought had finally bumped against was the +question of where, among packed accumulations, so multiform a wedge +would be able to enter. Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold to be +perhaps what he should most substantially have to show at Woollett +as the fruit of his mission? It was a possibility that held him a +minute--held him till he happened to feel that some one, unnoticed, +had approached him and paused. Turning, he saw that a lady stood +there as for a greeting, and he sprang up as he next took her, +securely, for Madame de Vionnet, who appeared to have recognised +him as she passed near him on her way to the door. She checked, +quickly and gaily, a certain confusion in him, came to meet it, +turned it back, by an art of her own; the confusion having +threatened him as he knew her for the person he had lately been +observing. She was the lurking figure of the dim chapel; she had +occupied him more than she guessed; but it came to him in time, +luckily, that he needn't tell her and that no harm, after all, had +been done. She herself, for that matter, straightway showing she +felt their encounter as the happiest of accidents, had for him a +"You come here too?" that despoiled surprise of every awkwardness. + +"I come often," she said. "I love this place, but I'm terrible, in +general, for churches. The old women who live in them all know me; +in fact I'm already myself one of the old women. It's like that, at +all events, that I foresee I shall end." Looking about for a chair, +so that he instantly pulled one nearer, she sat down with him again +to the sound of an "Oh, I like so much your also being fond--!" + +He confessed the extent of his feeling, though she left the object +vague; and he was struck with the tact, the taste of her vagueness, +which simply took for granted in him a sense of beautiful things. +He was conscious of how much it was affected, this sense, by +something subdued and discreet in the way she had arranged herself +for her special object and her morning walk--he believed her to +have come on foot; the way her slightly thicker veil was drawn--a +mere touch, but everything; the composed gravity of her dress, in +which, here and there, a dull wine-colour seemed to gleam faintly +through black; the charming discretion of her small compact head; +the quiet note, as she sat, of her folded, grey-gloved hands. It +was, to Strether's mind, as if she sat on her own ground, the light +honours of which, at an open gate, she thus easily did him, while +all the vastness and mystery of the domain stretched off behind. +When people were so completely in possession they could be +extraordinarily civil; and our friend had indeed at this hour a +kind of revelation of her heritage. She was romantic for him far +beyond what she could have guessed, and again he found his small +comfort in the conviction that, subtle though she was, his +impression must remain a secret from her. The thing that, once +more, made him uneasy for secrets in general was this particular +patience she could have with his own want of colour; albeit that on +the other hand his uneasiness pretty well dropped after he had been +for ten minutes as colourless as possible and at the same time as +responsive. + +The moments had already, for that matter, drawn their deepest tinge +from the special interest excited in him by his vision of his +companion's identity with the person whose attitude before the +glimmering altar had so impressed him. This attitude fitted +admirably into the stand he had privately taken about her connexion +with Chad on the last occasion of his seeing them together. It +helped him to stick fast at the point he had then reached; it was +there he had resolved that he WOULD stick, and at no moment since +had it seemed as easy to do so. Unassailably innocent was a +relation that could make one of the parties to it so carry herself. +If it wasn't innocent why did she haunt the churches?--into which, +given the woman he could believe he made out, she would never have +come to flaunt an insolence of guilt. She haunted them for +continued help, for strength, for peace--sublime support which, if +one were able to look at it so, she found from day to day. They +talked, in low easy tones and with lifted lingering looks, about +the great monument and its history and its beauty--all of which, +Madame de Vionnet professed, came to her most in the other, the +outer view. "We'll presently, after we go," she said, "walk round +it again if you like. I'm not in a particular hurry, and it will be +pleasant to look at it well with you." He had spoken of the great +romancer and the great romance, and of what, to his imagination, +they had done for the whole, mentioning to her moreover the +exorbitance of his purchase, the seventy blazing volumes that were +so out of proportion. + +"Out of proportion to what?" + +"Well, to any other plunge." Yet he felt even as he spoke how at +that instant he was plunging. He had made up his mind and was +impatient to get into the air; for his purpose was a purpose to be +uttered outside, and he had a fear that it might with delay still +slip away from him. She however took her time; she drew out their +quiet gossip as if she had wished to profit by their meeting, and +this confirmed precisely an interpretation of her manner, of her +mystery. While she rose, as he would have called it, to the +question of Victor Hugo, her voice itself, the light low quaver of +her deference to the solemnity about them, seemed to make her words +mean something that they didn't mean openly. Help, strength, peace, +a sublime support--she hadn't found so much of these things as that +the amount wouldn't be sensibly greater for any scrap his +appearance of faith in her might enable her to feel in her hand. +Every little, in a long strain, helped, and if he happened to +affect her as a firm object she could hold on by, he wouldn't jerk +himself out of her reach. People in difficulties held on by what +was nearest, and he was perhaps after all not further off than +sources of comfort more abstract. It was as to this he had made up +his mind; he had made it up, that is, to give her a sign. The sign +would be that--though it was her own affair--he understood; the +sign would be that--though it was her own affair--she was free to +clutch. Since she took him for a firm object--much as he might to +his own sense appear at times to rock--he would do his best to BE one. + +The end of it was that half an hour later they were seated together +for an early luncheon at a wonderful, a delightful house of +entertainment on the left bank--a place of pilgrimage for the +knowing, they were both aware, the knowing who came, for its great +renown, the homage of restless days, from the other end of the +town. Strether had already been there three times--first with Miss +Gostrey, then with Chad, then with Chad again and with Waymarsh and +little Bilham, all of whom he had himself sagaciously entertained; +and his pleasure was deep now on learning that Madame de Vionnet +hadn't yet been initiated. When he had said as they strolled round +the church, by the river, acting at last on what, within, he had +made up his mind to, "Will you, if you have time, come to dejeuner +with me somewhere? For instance, if you know it, over there on the +other side, which is so easy a walk"--and then had named the +place; when he had done this she stopped short as for quick +intensity, and yet deep difficulty, of response. She took in the +proposal as if it were almost too charming to be true; and there +had perhaps never yet been for her companion so unexpected a moment +of pride--so fine, so odd a case, at any rate, as his finding +himself thus able to offer to a person in such universal possession +a new, a rare amusement. She had heard of the happy spot, but she +asked him in reply to a further question how in the world he could +suppose her to have been there. He supposed himself to have +supposed that Chad might have taken her, and she guessed this the +next moment to his no small discomfort. + +"Ah, let me explain," she smiled, "that I don't go about with him +in public; I never have such chances--not having them otherwise-- +and it's just the sort of thing that, as a quiet creature living in +my hole, I adore." It was more than kind of him to have thought of +it--though, frankly, if he asked whether she had time she hadn't a +single minute. That however made no difference--she'd throw +everything over. Every duty at home, domestic, maternal, social, +awaited her; but it was a case for a high line. Her affairs would +go to smash, but hadn't one a right to one's snatch of scandal when +one was prepared to pay? It was on this pleasant basis of costly +disorder, consequently, that they eventually seated themselves, on +either side of a small table, at a window adjusted to the busy quay +and the shining barge-burdened Seine; where, for an hour, in the +matter of letting himself go, of diving deep, Strether was to feel +he had touched bottom. He was to feel many things on this occasion, +and one of the first of them was that he had travelled far since +that evening in London, before the theatre, when his dinner with +Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded candles, had struck him as +requiring so many explanations. He had at that time gathered them +in, the explanations--he had stored them up; but it was at present +as if he had either soared above or sunk below them--he couldn't +tell which; he could somehow think of none that didn't seem to +leave the appearance of collapse and cynicism easier for him than +lucidity. How could he wish it to be lucid for others, for any one, +that he, for the hour, saw reasons enough in the mere way the +bright clean ordered water-side life came in at the open window?-- +the mere way Madame de Vionnet, opposite him over their intensely +white table-linen, their omelette aux tomates, their bottle of +straw-coloured Chablis, thanked him for everything almost with the +smile of a child, while her grey eyes moved in and out of their +talk, back to the quarter of the warm spring air, in which early +summer had already begun to throb, and then back again to his face +and their human questions. + +Their human questions became many before they had done--many more, +as one after the other came up, than our friend's free fancy had at +all foreseen. The sense he had had before, the sense he had had +repeatedly, the sense that the situation was running away with him, +had never been so sharp as now; and all the more that he could +perfectly put his finger on the moment it had taken the bit in its +teeth. That accident had definitely occurred, the other evening, +after Chad's dinner; it had occurred, as he fully knew, at the +moment when he interposed between this lady and her child, when he +suffered himself so to discuss with her a matter closely concerning +them that her own subtlety, marked by its significant "Thank you!" +instantly sealed the occasion in her favour. Again he had held off +for ten days, but the situation had continued out of hand in spite +of that; the fact that it was running so fast being indeed just WHY +he had held off. What had come over him as he recognised her in the +nave of the church was that holding off could be but a losing game +from the instant she was worked for not only by her subtlety, but +by the hand of fate itself. If all the accidents were to fight on +her side--and by the actual showing they loomed large--he could +only give himself up. This was what he had done in privately +deciding then and there to propose she should breakfast with him. +What did the success of his proposal in fact resemble but the smash +in which a regular runaway properly ends? The smash was their walk, +their dejeuner, their omelette, the Chablis, the place, the view, +their present talk and his present pleasure in it--to say nothing, +wonder of wonders, of her own. To this tune and nothing less, +accordingly, was his surrender made good. It sufficiently lighted +up at least the folly of holding off. Ancient proverbs sounded, for +his memory, in the tone of their words and the clink of their +glasses, in the hum of the town and the plash of the river. It WAS +clearly better to suffer as a sheep than as a lamb. One might as +well perish by the sword as by famine. + +"Maria's still away?"--that was the first thing she had asked him; +and when he had found the frankness to be cheerful about it in +spite of the meaning he knew her to attach to Miss Gostrey's +absence, she had gone on to enquire if he didn't tremendously miss +her. There were reasons that made him by no means sure, yet he +nevertheless answered "Tremendously"; which she took in as if it +were all she had wished to prove. Then, "A man in trouble MUST be +possessed somehow of a woman," she said; "if she doesn't come in +one way she comes in another." + +"Why do you call me a man in trouble?" + +"Ah because that's the way you strike me." She spoke ever so gently +and as if with all fear of wounding him while she sat partaking of +his bounty. "AREn't you in trouble?" + +He felt himself colour at the question, and then hated that--hated +to pass for anything so idiotic as woundable. Woundable by Chad's +lady, in respect to whom he had come out with such a fund of +indifference--was he already at that point? Perversely, none the +less, his pause gave a strange air of truth to her supposition; and +what was he in fact but disconcerted at having struck her just in +the way he had most dreamed of not doing? "I'm not in trouble yet," +he at last smiled. "I'm not in trouble now." + +"Well, I'm always so. But that you sufficiently know." She was a +woman who, between courses, could be graceful with her elbows +on the table. It was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but it was +easy for a femme du monde. "Yes--I am 'now'!" + +"There was a question you put to me," he presently returned, "the +night of Chad's dinner. I didn't answer it then, and it has been +very handsome of you not to have sought an occasion for pressing me +about it since." + +She was instantly all there. "Of course I know what you allude to. +I asked you what you had meant by saying, the day you came to see +me, just before you left me, that you'd save me. And you then said +--at our friend's--that you'd have really to wait to see, for +yourself, what you did mean." + +"Yes, I asked for time," said Strether. "And it sounds now, as you +put it, like a very ridiculous speech." + +"Oh!" she murmured--she was full of attenuation. But she had +another thought. "If it does sound ridiculous why do you deny that +you're in trouble?" + +"Ah if I were," he replied, "it wouldn't be the trouble of fearing +ridicule. I don't fear it." + +"What then do you?" + +"Nothing--now." And he leaned back in his chair. + +"I like your 'now'!" she laughed across at him. + +"Well, it's precisely that it fully comes to me at present that +I've kept you long enough. I know by this time, at any rate, what I +meant by my speech; and I really knew it the night of Chad's +dinner." + +"Then why didn't you tell me?" + +"Because it was difficult at the moment. I had already at that +moment done something for you, in the sense of what I had said the +day I went to see you; but I wasn't then sure of the importance I +might represent this as having." + +She was all eagerness. "And you're sure now?" + +"Yes; I see that, practically, I've done for you--had done for you +when you put me your question--all that it's as yet possible to me +to do. I feel now," he went on, "that it may go further than I +thought. What I did after my visit to you," he explained, "was to +write straight off to Mrs. Newsome about you, and I'm at last, from +one day to the other, expecting her answer. It's this answer that +will represent, as I believe, the consequences." + +Patient and beautiful was her interest. "I see--the consequences of +your speaking for me." And she waited as if not to hustle him. + +He acknowledged it by immediately going on. "The question, you +understand, was HOW I should save you. Well, I'm trying it by thus +letting her know that I consider you worth saving." + +"I see--I see." Her eagerness broke through. + +"How can I thank you enough?" He couldn't tell her that, however, +and she quickly pursued. "You do really, for yourself, consider +it?" + +His only answer at first was to help her to the dish that had been +freshly put before them. "I've written to her again since then-- +I've left her in no doubt of what I think. I've told her all about +you." + +"Thanks--not so much. 'All about' me," she went on--"yes." + +"All it seems to me you've done for him." + +"Ah and you might have added all it seems to ME!" She laughed +again, while she took up her knife and fork, as in the cheer of +these assurances. "But you're not sure how she'll take it." + +"No, I'll not pretend I'm sure." + +"Voila." And she waited a moment. "I wish you'd tell me about her." + +"Oh," said Strether with a slightly strained smile, "all that +need concern you about her is that she's really a grand person." + +Madame de Vionnet seemed to demur. "Is that all that need concern +me about her?" + +But Strether neglected the question. "Hasn't Chad talked to you?" + +"Of his mother? Yes, a great deal--immensely. But not from your +point of view." + +"He can't," our friend returned, "have said any ill of her." + +"Not the least bit. He has given me, like you, the assurance that +she's really grand. But her being really grand is somehow just what +hasn't seemed to simplify our case. Nothing," she continued, "is +further from me than to wish to say a word against her; but of +course I feel how little she can like being told of her owing me +anything. No woman ever enjoys such an obligation to another +woman." + +This was a proposition Strether couldn't contradict. "And yet what +other way could I have expressed to her what I felt? It's what +there was most to say about you." + +"Do you mean then that she WILL be good to me?" + +"It's what I'm waiting to see. But I've little doubt she would," he +added, "if she could comfortably see you." + +It seemed to strike her as a happy, a beneficent thought. "Oh then +couldn't that be managed? Wouldn't she come out? Wouldn't she if +you so put it to her? DID you by any possibility?" she faintly +quavered. + +"Oh no"--he was prompt. "Not that. It would be, much more, to give +an account of you that--since there's no question of YOUR paying +the visit--I should go home first." + +It instantly made her graver. "And are you thinking of that?" + +"Oh all the while, naturally." + +"Stay with us--stay with us!" she exclaimed on this. "That's your +only way to make sure." + +"To make sure of what?" + +"Why that he doesn't break up. You didn't come out to do that to +him." + +"Doesn't it depend," Strether returned after a moment, "on what you +mean by breaking up?" + +"Oh you know well enough what I mean!" + +His silence seemed again for a little to denote an understanding. +"You take for granted remarkable things." + +"Yes, I do--to the extent that I don't take for granted vulgar +ones. You're perfectly capable of seeing that what you came out for +wasn't really at all to do what you'd now have to do." + +"Ah it's perfectly simple," Strether good-humouredly pleaded. "I've +had but one thing to do--to put our case before him. To put it as +it could only be put here on the spot--by personal pressure. My +dear lady," he lucidly pursued, "my work, you see, is really done, +and my reasons for staying on even another day are none of the +best. Chad's in possession of our case and professes to do it full +justice. What remains is with himself. I've had my rest, my +amusement and refreshment; I've had, as we say at Woollett, a +lovely time. Nothing in it has been more lovely than this happy +meeting with you--in these fantastic conditions to which you've so +delightfully consented. I've a sense of success. It's what I +wanted. My getting all this good is what Chad has waited for, and I +gather that if I'm ready to go he's the same." + +She shook her head with a finer deeper wisdom. "You're not ready. +If you're ready why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the sense +you've mentioned to me?" + +Strether considered. "I shan't go before I hear from her. You're +too much afraid of her," he added. + +It produced between them a long look from which neither shrank. "I +don't think you believe that--believe I've not really reason to +fear her." + +"She's capable of great generosity," Strether presently stated. + +"Well then let her trust me a little. That's all I ask. Let her +recognise in spite of everything what I've done." + +"Ah remember," our friend replied, "that she can't effectually +recognise it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and +show her what you've done, and let him plead with her there for it +and, as it were, for YOU." + +She measured the depth of this suggestion. "Do you give me your +word of honour that if she once has him there she won't do her best +to marry him?" + +It made her companion, this enquiry, look again a while out at the +view; after which he spoke without sharpness. "When she sees for +herself what he is--" + +But she had already broken in. "It's when she sees for herself what +he is that she'll want to marry him most." + +Strether's attitude, that of due deference to what she said, +permitted him to attend for a minute to his luncheon. "I doubt if +that will come off. It won't be easy to make it." + +"It will be easy if he remains there--and he'll remain for the +money. The money appears to be, as a probability, so hideously +much." + +"Well," Strether presently concluded, "nothing COULD really hurt +you but his marrying." + +She gave a strange light laugh. "Putting aside what may really hurt +HIM." + +But her friend looked at her as if he had thought of that too. +"The question will come up, of course, of the future that you +yourself offer him." + +She was leaning back now, but she fully faced him. "Well, let it +come up!" + +"The point is that it's for Chad to make of it what he can. His +being proof against marriage will show what he does make." + +"If he IS proof, yes"--she accepted the proposition. "But for +myself," she added, "the question is what YOU make." + +"Ah I make nothing. It's not my affair." + +"I beg your pardon. It's just there that, since you've taken it up +and are committed to it, it most intensely becomes yours. You're +not saving me, I take it, for your interest in myself, but for your +interest in our friend. The one's at any rate wholly dependent on +the other. You can't in honour not see me through," she wound up, +"because you can't in honour not see HIM." + +Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet soft acuteness. The thing +that most moved him was really that she was so deeply serious. She had +none of the portentous forms of it, but he had never come in contact, +it struck him, with a force brought to so fine a head. Mrs. Newsome, +goodness knew, was serious; but it was nothing to this. He took it +all in, he saw it all together. "No," he mused, "I can't in honour +not see him." + +Her face affected him as with an exquisite light. "You WILL then?" + +"I will." + +At this she pushed back her chair and was the next moment on her +feet. "Thank you!" she said with her hand held out to him across +the table and with no less a meaning in the words than her lips had +so particularly given them after Chad's dinner. The golden nail she +had then driven in pierced a good inch deeper. Yet he reflected +that he himself had only meanwhile done what he had made up his mind to +on the same occasion. So far as the essence of the matter went he had +simply stood fast on the spot on which he had then planted his feet. + + + +II + + +He received three days after this a communication from America, in +the form of a scrap of blue paper folded and gummed, not reaching +him through his bankers, but delivered at his hotel by a small boy +in uniform, who, under instructions from the concierge, approached +him as he slowly paced the little court. It was the evening hour, +but daylight was long now and Paris more than ever penetrating. The +scent of flowers was in the streets, he had the whiff of violets +perpetually in his nose; and he had attached himself to sounds and +suggestions, vibrations of the air, human and dramatic, he +imagined, as they were not in other places, that came out for him +more and more as the mild afternoons deepened--a far-off hum, a +sharp near click on the asphalt, a voice calling, replying, +somewhere and as full of tone as an actor's in a play. He was to +dine at home, as usual, with Waymarsh--they had settled to that for +thrift and simplicity; and he now hung about before his friend came +down. + +He read his telegram in the court, standing still a long time where +he had opened it and giving five minutes afterwards to the renewed +study of it. At last, quickly, he crumpled it up as if to get it +out of the way; in spite of which, however, he kept it there-- +still kept it when, at the end of another turn, he had dropped into +a chair placed near a small table. Here, with his scrap of paper +compressed in his fist and further concealed by his folding his +arms tight, he sat for some time in thought, gazed before him so +straight that Waymarsh appeared and approached him without catching +his eye. The latter in fact, struck with his appearance, looked at +him hard for a single instant and then, as if determined to that +course by some special vividness in it, dropped back into the salon +de lecture without addressing him. But the pilgrim from Milrose +permitted himself still to observe the scene from behind the clear +glass plate of that retreat. Strether ended, as he sat, by a fresh +scrutiny of his compressed missive, which he smoothed out carefully +again as he placed it on his table. There it remained for some +minutes, until, at last looking up, he saw Waymarsh watching him +from within. It was on this that their eyes met--met for a moment +during which neither moved. But Strether then got up, folding his +telegram more carefully and putting it into his waistcoat pocket + +A few minutes later the friends were seated together at dinner; but +Strether had meanwhile said nothing about it, and they eventually +parted, after coffee in the court, with nothing said on either +side. Our friend had moreover the consciousness that even less than +usual was on this occasion said between them, so that it was almost +as if each had been waiting for something from the other. Waymarsh +had always more or less the air of sitting at the door of his tent, +and silence, after so many weeks, had come to play its part in +their concert. This note indeed, to Strether's sense, had lately +taken a fuller tone, and it was his fancy to-night that they had +never quite so drawn it out. Yet it befell, none the less that he +closed the door to confidence when his companion finally asked him +if there were anything particular the matter with him. "Nothing," +he replied, "more than usual." + +On the morrow, however, at an early hour, he found occasion to give +an answer more in consonance with the facts. What was the matter +had continued to be so all the previous evening, the first hours of +which, after dinner, in his room, he had devoted to the copious +composition of a letter. He had quitted Waymarsh for this purpose, +leaving him to his own resources with less ceremony than their +wont, but finally coming down again with his letter unconcluded and +going forth into the streets without enquiry for his comrade. He +had taken a long vague walk, and one o'clock had struck before his +return and his re-ascent to his room by the aid of the glimmering +candle-end left for him on the shelf outside the porter's lodge. He +had possessed himself, on closing his door, of the numerous loose +sheets of his unfinished composition, and then, without reading +them over, had torn them into small pieces. He had thereupon slept-- +as if it had been in some measure thanks to that sacrifice--the +sleep of the just, and had prolonged his rest considerably beyond +his custom. Thus it was that when, between nine and ten, the tap of +the knob of a walking-stick sounded on his door, he had not yet +made himself altogether presentable. Chad Newsome's bright deep +voice determined quickly enough none the less the admission of the +visitor. The little blue paper of the evening before, plainly an +object the more precious for its escape from premature destruction, +now lay on the sill of the open window, smoothed out afresh and +kept from blowing away by the superincumbent weight of his watch. +Chad, looking about with careless and competent criticism, as he +looked wherever he went immediately espied it and permitted himself +to fix it for a moment rather hard. After which he turned his eyes +to his host. "It has come then at last?" + +Strether paused in the act of pinning his necktie. "Then you know--? +You've had one too?" + +"No, I've had nothing, and I only know what I see. I see that thing +and I guess. Well," he added, "it comes as pat as in a play, for +I've precisely turned up this morning--as I would have done +yesterday, but it was impossible--to take you." + +"To take me?" Strether had turned again to his glass. + +"Back, at last, as I promised. I'm ready--I've really been ready +this month. I've only been waiting for you--as was perfectly right. +But you're better now; you're safe--I see that for myself; you've +got all your good. You're looking, this morning, as fit as a flea." + +Strether, at his glass, finished dressing; consulting that witness +moreover on this last opinion. WAS he looking preternaturally fit? +There was something in it perhaps for Chad's wonderful eye, but he +had felt himself for hours rather in pieces. Such a judgement, +however, was after all but a contribution to his resolve; it +testified unwittingly to his wisdom. He was still firmer, +apparently--since it shone in him as a light--than he had flattered +himself. His firmness indeed was slightly compromised, as he faced +about to his friend, by the way this very personage looked--though +the case would of course have been worse hadn't the secret of +personal magnificence been at every hour Chad's unfailing +possession. There he was in all the pleasant morning freshness of +it--strong and sleek and gay, easy and fragrant and fathomless, +with happy health in his colour, and pleasant silver in his thick +young hair, and the right word for everything on the lips that his +clear brownness caused to show as red. He had never struck Strether +as personally such a success; it was as if now, for his definite +surrender, he had gathered himself vividly together. This, sharply +and rather strangely, was the form in which he was to be presented +to Woollett. Our friend took him in again--he was always taking him +in and yet finding that parts of him still remained out; though +even thus his image showed through a mist of other things. "I've +had a cable," Strether said, "from your mother." + +"I dare say, my dear man. I hope she's well." + +Strether hesitated. "No--she's not well, I'm sorry to have to tell +you." + +"Ah," said Chad, "I must have had the instinct of it. All the more +reason then that we should start straight off." + +Strether had now got together hat, gloves and stick, but Chad had +dropped on the sofa as if to show where he wished to make his +point. He kept observing his companion's things; he might have been +judging how quickly they could be packed. He might even have wished +to hint that he'd send his own servant to assist. "What do you +mean," Strether enquired, "by 'straight off'?" + +"Oh by one of next week's boats. Everything at this season goes out +so light that berths will be easy anywhere." + +Strether had in his hand his telegram, which he had kept there +after attaching his watch, and he now offered it to Chad, who, +however, with an odd movement, declined to take it. "Thanks, I'd +rather not. Your correspondence with Mother's your own affair. I'm +only WITH you both on it, whatever it is." Strether, at this, while +their eyes met, slowly folded the missive and put it in his pocket; +after which, before he had spoken again, Chad broke fresh ground. +"Has Miss Gostrey come back?" + +But when Strether presently spoke it wasn't in answer. "It's not, I +gather, that your mother's physically ill; her health, on the +whole, this spring, seems to have been better than usual. But she's +worried, she's anxious, and it appears to have risen within the +last few days to a climax. We've tired out, between us, her +patience." + +"Oh it isn't YOU!" Chad generously protested. + +"I beg your pardon--it IS me." Strether was mild and melancholy, +but firm. He saw it far away and over his companion's head. "It's +very particularly me." + +"Well then all the more reason. Marchons, marchons!" said the young +man gaily. His host, however, at this, but continued to stand +agaze; and he had the next thing repeated his question of a moment +before. "Has Miss Gostrey come back?" + +"Yes, two days ago." + +"Then you've seen her?" + +"No--I'm to see her to-day." But Strether wouldn't linger now on +Miss Gostrey. "Your mother sends me an ultimatum. If I can't bring +you I'm to leave you; I'm to come at any rate myself." + +"Ah but you CAN bring me now," Chad, from his sofa, reassuringly +replied. + +Strether had a pause. "I don't think I understand you. Why was it +that, more than a month ago, you put it to me so urgently to let +Madame de Vionnet speak for you?" + +"'Why'?" Chad considered, but he had it at his fingers' ends. "Why +but because I knew how well she'd do it? It was the way to keep you +quiet and, to that extent, do you good. Besides," he happily and +comfortably explained, "I wanted you really to know her and to get +the impression of her--and you see the good that HAS done you." + +"Well," said Strether, "the way she has spoken for you, all the +same--so far as I've given her a chance--has only made me feel how +much she wishes to keep you. If you make nothing of that I don't +see why you wanted me to listen to her." + +"Why my dear man," Chad exclaimed, "I make everything of it! How +can you doubt--?" + +"I doubt only because you come to me this morning with your signal +to start." + +Chad stared, then gave a laugh. "And isn't my signal to start just +what you've been waiting for?" + +Strether debated; he took another turn. "This last month I've been +awaiting, I think, more than anything else, the message I have +here." + +"You mean you've been afraid of it?" + +"Well, I was doing my business in my own way. And I suppose your +present announcement," Strether went on, "isn't merely the result +of your sense of what I've expected. Otherwise you wouldn't have +put me in relation--" But he paused, pulling up. + +At this Chad rose. "Ah HER wanting me not to go has nothing to do +with it! It's only because she's afraid--afraid of the way that, +over there, I may get caught. But her fear's groundless." + +He had met again his companion's sufficiently searching look. "Are +you tired of her?" + +Chad gave him in reply to this, with a movement of the head, the +strangest slow smile he had ever had from him. "Never." + +It had immediately, on Strether's imagination, so deep and soft an +effect that our friend could only for the moment keep it before +him. "Never?" + +"Never," Chad obligingly and serenely repeated. + +It made his companion take several more steps. "Then YOU'RE not +afraid." + +"Afraid to go?" + +Strether pulled up again. "Afraid to stay." + +The young man looked brightly amazed. "You want me now to 'stay'?" + +"If I don't immediately sail the Pococks will immediately come out. +That's what I mean," said Strether, "by your mother's ultimatum ." + +Chad showed a still livelier, but not an alarmed interest. "She has +turned on Sarah and Jim?" + +Strether joined him for an instant in the vision. "Oh and you may +be sure Mamie. THAT'S whom she's turning on." + +This also Chad saw--he laughed out. "Mamie--to corrupt me?" + +"Ah," said Strether, "she's very charming." + +"So you've already more than once told me. I should like to see +her." + +Something happy and easy, something above all unconscious, in the +way he said this, brought home again to his companion the facility +of his attitude and the enviability of his state. "See her then by +all means. And consider too," Strether went on, "that you really +give your sister a lift in letting her come to you. You give her a +couple of months of Paris, which she hasn't seen, if I'm not +mistaken, since just after she was married, and which I'm sure she +wants but the pretext to visit." + +Chad listened, but with all his own knowledge of the world. "She +has had it, the pretext, these several years, yet she has never +taken it." + +"Do you mean YOU?" Strether after an instant enquired. + +"Certainly--the lone exile. And whom do you mean?" said Chad. + +"Oh I mean ME. I'm her pretext. That is--for it comes to the same +thing--I'm your mother's." + +"Then why," Chad asked, "doesn't Mother come herself?" + +His friend gave him a long look. "Should you like her to?" And as +he for the moment said nothing: "It's perfectly open to you to +cable for her." + +Chad continued to think. "Will she come if I do?" + +"Quite possibly. But try, and you'll see." + +"Why don't YOU try?" Chad after a moment asked. + +"Because I don't want to." + +Chad thought. "Don't desire her presence here?" + +Strether faced the question, and his answer was the more emphatic. +"Don't put it off, my dear boy, on ME!" + +"Well--I see what you mean. I'm sure you'd behave beautifully but you +DON'T want to see her. So I won't play you that trick.' + +"Ah," Strether declared, "I shouldn't call it a trick. You've a +perfect right, and it would be perfectly straight of you." Then he +added in a different tone: "You'd have moreover, in the person of +Madame de Vionnet, a very interesting relation prepared for her." + +Their eyes, on this proposition, continued to meet, but Chad's +pleasant and bold, never flinched for a moment. He got up at last +and he said something with which Strether was struck. "She wouldn't +understand her, but that makes no difference. Madame de Vionnet +would like to see her. She'd like to be charming to her. She +believes she could work it." + +Strether thought a moment, affected by this, but finally turning +away. "She couldn't!" + +"You're quite sure?" Chad asked. + +"Well, risk it if you like!" + +Strether, who uttered this with serenity, had urged a plea for their +now getting into the air; but the young man still waited. "Have you +sent your answer?" + +"No, I've done nothing yet." + +"Were you waiting to see me?" + +"No, not that." + +"Only waiting"--and Chad, with this, had a smile for him--"to see +Miss Gostrey?" + +"No--not even Miss Gostrey. I wasn't waiting to see any one. I had +only waited, till now, to make up my mind--in complete solitude; +and, since I of course absolutely owe you the information, was on +the point of going out with it quite made up. Have therefore a +little more patience with me. Remember," Strether went on, "that +that's what you originally asked ME to have. I've had it, you see, +and you see what has come of it. Stay on with me." + +Chad looked grave. "How much longer?" + +"Well, till I make you a sign. I can't myself, you know, at the +best, or at the worst, stay for ever. Let the Pococks come," +Strether repeated. + +"Because it gains you time?" + +"Yes--it gains me time." + +Chad, as if it still puzzled him, waited a minute. "You don't want +to get back to Mother?" + +"Not just yet. I'm not ready." + +"You feel," Chad asked in a tone of his own, "the charm of life +over here?" + +"Immensely." Strether faced it. "You've helped me so to feel it +that that surely needn't surprise you." + +"No, it doesn't surprise me, and I'm delighted. But what, my dear +man," Chad went on with conscious queerness, "does it all lead to +for you?" + +The change of position and of relation, for each, was so oddly +betrayed in the question that Chad laughed out as soon as he had +uttered it--which made Strether also laugh. "Well, to my having a +certitude that has been tested--that has passed through the fire. +But oh," he couldn't help breaking out, "if within my first month +here you had been willing to move with me--!" + +"Well?" said Chad, while he broke down as for weight of thought. + +"Well, we should have been over there by now." + +"Ah but you wouldn't have had your fun!" + +"I should have had a month of it; and I'm having now, if you want +to know," Strether continued, "enough to last me for the rest of my +days." + +Chad looked amused and interested, yet still somewhat in the dark; +partly perhaps because Strether's estimate of fun had required of +him from the first a good deal of elucidation. "It wouldn't do if +I left you--?" + +"Left me?"--Strether remained blank. + +"Only for a month or two--time to go and come. Madame de Vionnet," +Chad smiled, "would look after you in the interval." + +"To go back by yourself, I remaining here?" Again for an instant +their eyes had the question out; after which Strether said: +"Grotesque!" + +"But I want to see Mother," Chad presently returned. "Remember how +long it is since I've seen Mother." + +"Long indeed; and that's exactly why I was originally so keen for +moving you. Hadn't you shown us enough how beautifully you could do +without it?" + +"Oh but," said Chad wonderfully, "I'm better now." + +There was an easy triumph in it that made his friend laugh out +again. "Oh if you were worse I SHOULD know what to do with you. In +that case I believe I'd have you gagged and strapped down, carried +on board resisting, kicking. How MUCH," Strether asked, "do you +want to see Mother?" + +"How much?"--Chad seemed to find it in fact difficult to say. + +"How much." + +"Why as much as you've made me. I'd give anything to see her. And +you've left me," Chad went on, "in little enough doubt as to how +much SHE wants it." + +Strether thought a minute. "Well then if those things are really +your motive catch the French steamer and sail to-morrow. Of course, +when it comes to that, you're absolutely free to do as you choose. +From the moment you can't hold yourself I can only accept your +flight." + +"I'll fly in a minute then," said Chad, "if you'll stay here." + +"I'll stay here till the next steamer--then I'll follow you." + +"And do you call that," Chad asked, "accepting my flight?" + +"Certainly--it's the only thing to call it. The only way to keep me +here, accordingly," Strether explained, "is by staying yourself." + +Chad took it in. "All the more that I've really dished you, eh?" + +"Dished me?" Strether echoed as inexpressively as possible. + +"Why if she sends out the Pococks it will be that she doesn't trust +you, and if she doesn't trust you, that bears upon--well, you know +what." + +Strether decided after a moment that he did know what, and in +consonance with this he spoke. "You see then all the more what you +owe me." + +"Well, if I do see, how can I pay?" + +"By not deserting me. By standing by me." + +"Oh I say--!" But Chad, as they went downstairs, clapped a firm +hand, in the manner of a pledge, upon his shoulder. They descended +slowly together and had, in the court of the hotel, some further +talk, of which the upshot was that they presently separated. Chad +Newsome departed, and Strether, left alone, looked about, superficially, +for Waymarsh. But Waymarsh hadn't yet, it appeared, come down, and +our friend finally went forth without sight of him. + + + +III + + +At four o'clock that afternoon he had still not seen him, but he +was then, as to make up for this, engaged in talk about him with +Miss Gostrey. Strether had kept away from home all day, given +himself up to the town and to his thoughts, wandered and mused, +been at once restless and absorbed--and all with the present climax +of a rich little welcome in the Quartier Marboeuf. "Waymarsh has +been, 'unbeknown' to me, I'm convinced"--for Miss Gostrey had +enquired--"in communication with Woollett: the consequence of which +was, last night, the loudest possible call for me." + +"Do you mean a letter to bring you home?" + +"No--a cable, which I have at this moment in my pocket: a 'Come +back by the first ship.'" + +Strether's hostess, it might have been made out, just escaped +changing colour. Reflexion arrived but in time and established a +provisional serenity. It was perhaps exactly this that enabled her +to say with duplicity: "And you're going--?" + +"You almost deserve it when you abandon me so." + +She shook her head as if this were not worth taking up. "My absence +has helped you--as I've only to look at you to see. It was my +calculation, and I'm justified. You're not where you were. And the +thing," she smiled, "was for me not to be there either. You can go +of yourself." + +"Oh but I feel to-day," he comfortably declared, "that I shall want +you yet." + +She took him all in again. "Well, I promise you not again to leave +you, but it will only be to follow you. You've got your momentum +and can toddle alone." + +He intelligently accepted it. "Yes--I suppose I can toddle. It's +the sight of that in fact that has upset Waymarsh. He can bear it-- +the way I strike him as going--no longer. That's only the climax +of his original feeling. He wants me to quit; and he must have +written to Woollett that I'm in peril of perdition." + +"Ah good!" she murmured. "But is it only your supposition?" + +"I make it out--it explains." + +"Then he denies?--or you haven't asked him?" + +"I've not had time," Strether said; "I made it out but last night, +putting various things together, and I've not been since then face +to face with him." + +She wondered. "Because you're too disgusted? You can't trust +yourself?" + +He settled his glasses on his nose. "Do I look in a great rage?" + +"You look divine!" + +"There's nothing," he went on, "to be angry about. He has done me +on the contrary a service." + +She made it out. "By bringing things to a head?" + +"How well you understand!" he almost groaned. "Waymarsh won't in +the least, at any rate, when I have it out with him, deny or +extenuate. He has acted from the deepest conviction, with the best +conscience and after wakeful nights. He'll recognise that he's +fully responsible, and will consider that he has been highly +successful; so that any discussion we may have will bring us quite +together again--bridge the dark stream that has kept us so +thoroughly apart. We shall have at last, in the consequences of his +act, something we can definitely talk about." + +She was silent a little. "How wonderfully you take it! But you're +always wonderful." + +He had a pause that matched her own; then he had, with an adequate +spirit, a complete admission. "It's quite true. I'm extremely +wonderful just now. I dare say in fact I'm quite fantastic, and I +shouldn't be at all surprised if I were mad." + +"Then tell me!" she earnestly pressed. As he, however, for the time +answered nothing, only returning the look with which she watched +him, she presented herself where it was easier to meet her. "What +will Mr. Waymarsh exactly have done?" + +"Simply have written a letter. One will have been quite enough. He +has told them I want looking after." + +"And DO you?"--she was all interest. + +"Immensely. And I shall get it." + +"By which you mean you don't budge?" + +"I don't budge." + +"You've cabled?" + +"No--I've made Chad do it." + +"That you decline to come?" + +"That HE declines. We had it out this morning and I brought him +round. He had come in, before I was down, to tell me he was ready-- +ready, I mean, to return. And he went off, after ten minutes with +me, to say he wouldn't." + +Miss Gostrey followed with intensity. "Then you've STOPPED him?" + +Strether settled himself afresh in his chair. "I've stopped him. +That is for the time. That"--he gave it to her more vividly--"is +where I am." + +"I see, I see. But where's Mr. Newsome? He was ready," she asked, +"to go?" + +"All ready." + +"And sincerely--believing YOU'D be?" + +"Perfectly, I think; so that he was amazed to find the hand I had +laid on him to pull him over suddenly converted into an engine for +keeping him still." + +It was an account of the matter Miss Gostrey could weigh. "Does he +think the conversion sudden?" + +"Well," said Strether, "I'm not altogether sure what he thinks. I'm +not sure of anything that concerns him, except that the more I've +seen of him the less I've found him what I originally expected. +He's obscure, and that's why I'm waiting." + +She wondered. "But for what in particular?" + +"For the answer to his cable." + +"And what was his cable?" + +"I don't know," Strether replied; "it was to be, when he left me, +according to his own taste. I simply said to him: 'I want to stay, +and the only way for me to do so is for you to.' That I wanted to +stay seemed to interest him, and he acted on that." + +Miss Gostrey turned it over. "He wants then himself to stay." + +"He half wants it. That is he half wants to go. My original appeal +has to that extent worked in him. Nevertheless," Strether pursued, +"he won't go. Not, at least, so long as I'm here." + +"But you can't," his companion suggested, "stay here always. I wish +you could." + +"By no means. Still, I want to see him a little further. He's not +in the least the case I supposed, he's quite another case. And it's +as such that he interests me." It was almost as if for his own +intelligence that, deliberate and lucid, our friend thus expressed +the matter. "I don't want to give him up." + +Miss Gostrey but desired to help his lucidity. She had however to +be light and tactful. "Up, you mean--a--to his mother?" + +"Well, I'm not thinking of his mother now. I'm thinking of the plan +of which I was the mouthpiece, which, as soon as we met, I put +before him as persuasively as I knew how, and which was drawn up, +as it were, in complete ignorance of all that, in this last long +period, has been happening to him. It took no account whatever of +the impression I was here on the spot immediately to begin to +receive from him--impressions of which I feel sure I'm far from +having had the last." + +Miss Gostrey had a smile of the most genial criticism. "So your +idea is--more or less--to stay out of curiosity?" + +"Call it what you like! I don't care what it's called--" + +"So long as you do stay? Certainly not then. I call it, all the +same, immense fun," Maria Gostrey declared; "and to see you work it +out will be one of the sensations of my life. It IS clear you can +toddle alone!" + +He received this tribute without elation. "I shan't be alone when +the Pococks have come." + +Her eyebrows went up. "The Pococks are coming?" + +"That, I mean, is what will happen--and happen as quickly as +possible--in consequence of Chad's cable. They'll simply embark. +Sarah will come to speak for her mother--with an effect different +from MY muddle." + +Miss Gostrey more gravely wondered. "SHE then will take him back?" + +"Very possibly--and we shall see. She must at any rate have the +chance, and she may be trusted to do all she can." + +"And do you WANT that?" + +"Of course," said Strether, "I want it. I want to play fair " + +But she had lost for a moment the thread. "If it devolves on the +Pococks why do you stay?" + +"Just to see that I DO play fair--and a little also, no doubt, that +they do." Strether was luminous as he had never been. "I came out +to find myself in presence of new facts--facts that have kept +striking me as less and less met by our old reasons. The matter's +perfectly simple. New reasons--reasons as new as the facts +themselves--are wanted; and of this our friends at Woollett--Chad's +and mine--were at the earliest moment definitely notified. If any +are producible Mrs. Pocock will produce them; she'll bring over the +whole collection. They'll be," he added with a pensive smile "a +part of the 'fun' you speak of." + +She was quite in the current now and floating by his side. "It's +Mamie--so far as I've had it from you--who'll be their great card." +And then as his contemplative silence wasn't a denial she +significantly added: "I think I'm sorry for her." + +"I think I am!"--and Strether sprang up, moving about a little as +her eyes followed him. "But it can't be helped." + +"You mean her coming out can't be?" + +He explained after another turn what he meant. "The only way for +her not to come is for me to go home--as I believe that on the spot +I could prevent it. But the difficulty as to that is that if I do +go home--" + +"I see, I see"--she had easily understood. "Mr. Newsome will do the +same, and that's not"--she laughed out now--"to be thought of." + +Strether had no laugh; he had only a quiet comparatively placid +look that might have shown him as proof against ridicule. "Strange, +isn't it?" + +They had, in the matter that so much interested them, come so far +as this without sounding another name--to which however their +present momentary silence was full of a conscious reference. +Strether's question was a sufficient implication of the weight it +had gained with him during the absence of his hostess; and just for +that reason a single gesture from her could pass for him as a vivid +answer. Yet he was answered still better when she said in a moment: +"Will Mr. Newsome introduce his sister--?" + +"To Madame de Vionnet?" Strether spoke the name at last. "I shall +be greatly surprised if he doesn't." + +She seemed to gaze at the possibility. "You mean you've thought of +it and you're prepared." + +"I've thought of it and I'm prepared." + +It was to her visitor now that she applied her consideration. "Bon! +You ARE magnificent!" + +"Well," he answered after a pause and a little wearily, but still +standing there before her--"well, that's what, just once in all my +dull days, I think I shall like to have been!" + +Two days later he had news from Chad of a communication from +Woollett in response to their determinant telegram, this missive +being addressed to Chad himself and announcing the immediate +departure for France of Sarah and Jim and Mamie. Strether had +meanwhile on his own side cabled; he had but delayed that act till +after his visit to Miss Gostrey, an interview by which, as so often +before, he felt his sense of things cleared up and settled. His +message to Mrs. Newsome, in answer to her own, had consisted of the +words: "Judge best to take another month, but with full +appreciation of all re-enforcements." He had added that he was +writing, but he was of course always writing; it was a practice +that continued, oddly enough, to relieve him, to make him come +nearer than anything else to the consciousness of doing something: +so that he often wondered if he hadn't really, under his recent +stress, acquired some hollow trick, one of the specious arts of +make-believe. Wouldn't the pages he still so freely dispatched by +the American post have been worthy of a showy journalist, some +master of the great new science of beating the sense out of words? +Wasn't he writing against time, and mainly to show he was kind?-- +since it had become quite his habit not to like to read himself +over. On those lines he could still be liberal, yet it was at best +a sort of whistling in the dark. It was unmistakeable moreover that +the sense of being in the dark now pressed on him more sharply-- +creating thereby the need for a louder and livelier whistle. He +whistled long and hard after sending his message; he whistled again +and again in celebration of Chad's news; there was an interval of a +fortnight in which this exercise helped him. He had no great notion +of what, on the spot, Sarah Pocock would have to say, though he had +indeed confused premonitions; but it shouldn't be in her power to +say--it shouldn't be in any one's anywhere to say--that he was +neglecting her mother. He might have written before more freely, +but he had never written more copiously; and he frankly gave for a +reason at Woollett that he wished to fill the void created there by +Sarah's departure. + +The increase of his darkness, however, and the quickening, as I +have called it, of his tune, resided in the fact that he was +hearing almost nothing. He had for some time been aware that he was +hearing less than before, and he was now clearly following a +process by which Mrs. Newsome's letters could but logically stop. +He hadn't had a line for many days, and he needed no proof--though +he was, in time, to have plenty--that she wouldn't have put pen to +paper after receiving the hint that had determined her telegram. +She wouldn't write till Sarah should have seen him and reported on +him. It was strange, though it might well be less so than his own +behaviour appeared at Woollett. It was at any rate significant, and +what WAS remarkable was the way his friend's nature and manner put +on for him, through this very drop of demonstration, a greater +intensity. It struck him really that he had never so lived with her +as during this period of her silence; the silence was a sacred +hush, a finer clearer medium, in which her idiosyncrasies showed. +He walked about with her, sat with her, drove with her and dined +face-to-face with her--a rare treat "in his life," as he could +perhaps have scarce escaped phrasing it; and if he had never seen +her so soundless he had never, on the other hand, felt her so +highly, so almost austerely, herself: pure and by the vulgar +estimate "cold," but deep devoted delicate sensitive noble. Her +vividness in these respects became for him, in the special +conditions, almost an obsession; and though the obsession sharpened +his pulses, adding really to the excitement of life, there were +hours at which, to be less on the stretch, he directly sought +forgetfulness. He knew it for the queerest of adventures--a +circumstance capable of playing such a part only for Lambert +Strether--that in Paris itself, of all places, he should find this +ghost of the lady of Woollett more importunate than any other +presence. + +When he went back to Maria Gostrey it was for the change to +something else. And yet after all the change scarcely operated for +he talked to her of Mrs. Newsome in these days as he had never +talked before. He had hitherto observed in that particular a +discretion and a law; considerations that at present broke down +quite as if relations had altered. They hadn't REALLY altered, he +said to himself, so much as that came to; for if what had occurred +was of course that Mrs. Newsome had ceased to trust him, there was +nothing on the other hand to prove that he shouldn't win back her +confidence. It was quite his present theory that he would leave no +stone unturned to do so; and in fact if he now told Maria things +about her that he had never told before this was largely because it +kept before him the idea of the honour of such a woman's esteem. +His relation with Maria as well was, strangely enough, no longer +quite the same; this truth--though not too disconcertingly--had +come up between them on the renewal of their meetings. It was all +contained in what she had then almost immediately said to him; it +was represented by the remark she had needed but ten minutes to +make and that he hadn't been disposed to gainsay. He could toddle +alone, and the difference that showed was extraordinary. The turn +taken by their talk had promptly confirmed this difference; his +larger confidence on the score of Mrs. Newsome did the rest; and +the time seemed already far off when he had held out his small +thirsty cup to the spout of her pail. Her pail was scarce touched +now, and other fountains had flowed for him; she fell into her +place as but one of his tributaries; and there was a strange +sweetness--a melancholy mildness that touched him--in her +acceptance of the altered order. + +It marked for himself the flight of time, or at any rate what he +was pleased to think of with irony and pity as the rush of experience; +it having been but the day before yesterday that he sat at her feet +and held on by her garment and was fed by her hand. It was the +proportions that were changed, and the proportions were at all +times, he philosophised, the very conditions of perception, the +terms of thought. It was as if, with her effective little entresol and +and her wide acquaintance, her activities, varieties, promiscuities, +the duties and devotions that took up nine tenths of her time and +of which he got, guardedly, but the side-wind--it was as if she had +shrunk to a secondary element and had consented to the shrinkage +with the perfection of tact. This perfection had never failed +her; it had originally been greater than his prime measure for it; +it had kept him quite apart, kept him out of the shop, as she +called her huge general acquaintance, made their commerce as +quiet, as much a thing of the home alone--the opposite of the +shop--as if she had never another customer. She had been wonderful +to him at first, with the memory of her little entresol, the image +to which, on most mornings at that time, his eyes directly opened; +but now she mainly figured for him as but part of the bristling +total--though of course always as a person to whom he should never +cease to be indebted. It would never be given to him certainly +to inspire a greater kindness. She had decked him out for others, +and he saw at this point at least nothing she would ever ask for. +She only wondered and questioned and listened, rendering him the +homage of a wistful speculation. She expressed it repeatedly; +he was already far beyond her, and she must prepare herself to +lose him. There was but one little chance for her. + +Often as she had said it he met it--for it was a touch he liked-- +each time the same way. "My coming to grief?" + +"Yes--then I might patch you up." + +"Oh for my real smash, if it takes place, there will be no +patching." + +"But you surely don't mean it will kill you." + +"No--worse. It will make me old." + +"Ah nothing can do that! The wonderful and special thing about you +is that you ARE, at this time of day, youth." Then she always made, +further, one of those remarks that she had completely ceased to +adorn with hesitations or apologies, and that had, by the same +token, in spite of their extreme straightness, ceased to produce in +Strether the least embarrassment. She made him believe them, and +they became thereby as impersonal as truth itself. "It's just your +particular charm." + +His answer too was always the same. "Of course I'm youth--youth +for the trip to Europe. I began to be young, or at least to get the +benefit of it, the moment I met you at Chester, and that's what has +been taking place ever since. I never had the benefit at the proper +time--which comes to saying that I never had the thing itself. I'm +having the benefit at this moment; I had it the other day when I +said to Chad 'Wait'; I shall have it still again when Sarah Pocock +arrives. It's a benefit that would make a poor show for many +people; and I don't know who else but you and I, frankly, could +begin to see in it what I feel. I don't get drunk; I don't pursue +the ladies; I don't spend money; I don't even write sonnets. But +nevertheless I'm making up late for what I didn't have early. I +cultivate my little benefit in my own little way. It amuses me more +than anything that has happened to me in all my life. They may say +what they like--it's my surrender, it's my tribute, to youth. One +puts that in where one can--it has to come in somewhere, if only +out of the lives, the conditions, the feelings of other persons. +Chad gives me the sense of it, for all his grey hairs, which merely +make it solid in him and safe and serene; and SHE does the same, +for all her being older than he, for all her marriageable daughter, +her separated husband, her agitated history. Though they're young +enough, my pair, I don't say they're, in the freshest way, their +own absolutely prime adolescence; for that has nothing to do with +it. The point is that they're mine. Yes, they're my youth; since +somehow at the right time nothing else ever was. What I meant just +now therefore is that it would all go--go before doing its work-- +if they were to fail me." + +On which, just here, Miss Gostrey inveterately questioned. "What do +you, in particular, call its work?" + +"Well, to see me through." + +"But through what?"--she liked to get it all out of him. + +"Why through this experience." That was all that would come. + +It regularly gave her none the less the last word. "Don't you +remember how in those first days of our meeting it was I who was to +see you through?" + +"Remember? Tenderly, deeply"--he always rose to it. "You're just +doing your part in letting me maunder to you thus." + +"Ah don't speak as if my part were small; since whatever else fails +you--" + +"YOU won't, ever, ever, ever?"--he thus took her up. "Oh I beg your +pardon; you necessarily, you inevitably WILL. Your conditions--that's +what I mean--won't allow me anything to do for you." + +"Let alone--I see what you mean--that I'm drearily dreadfully old. +I AM, but there's a service--possible for you to render--that I know, +all the same, I shall think of." + +"And what will it be?" + +This, in fine, however, she would never tell him. "You shall hear +only if your smash takes place. As that's really out of the +question, I won't expose myself''--a point at which, for reasons of +his own, Strether ceased to press. + +He came round, for publicity--it was the easiest thing--to the idea +that his smash WAS out of the question, and this rendered idle the +discussion of what might follow it. He attached an added +importance, as the days elapsed, to the arrival of the Pococks; he +had even a shameful sense of waiting for it insincerely and +incorrectly. He accused himself of making believe to his own mind +that Sarah's presence, her impression, her judgement would simplify +and harmonise, he accused himself of being so afraid of what they +MIGHT do that he sought refuge, to beg the whole question, in a +vain fury. He had abundantly seen at home what they were in the +habit of doing, and he had not at present the smallest ground. His +clearest vision was when he made out that what he most desired was +an account more full and free of Mrs. Newsome's state of mind than +any he felt he could now expect from herself; that calculation at +least went hand in hand with the sharp consciousness of wishing to +prove to himself that he was not afraid to look his behaviour in +the face. If he was by an inexorable logic to pay for it he was +literally impatient to know the cost, and he held himself ready to +pay in instalments. The first instalment would be precisely this +entertainment of Sarah; as a consequence of which moreover. he +should know vastly better how he stood. + + + + + +Book Eighth + + + + +I + + +Strether rambled alone during these few days, the effect of the +incident of the previous week having been to simplify in a marked +fashion his mixed relations with Waymarsh. Nothing had passed +between them in reference to Mrs. Newsome's summons but that our +friend had mentioned to his own the departure of the deputation +actually at sea--giving him thus an opportunity to confess to the +occult intervention he imputed to him. Waymarsh however in the +event confessed to nothing; and though this falsified in some +degree Strether's forecast the latter amusedly saw in it the same +depth of good conscience out of which the dear man's impertinence +had originally sprung. He was patient with the dear man now and +delighted to observe how unmistakeably he had put on flesh; he felt +his own holiday so successfully large and free that he was full of +allowances and charities in respect to those cabined and confined' +his instinct toward a spirit so strapped down as Waymarsh's was to +walk round it on tiptoe for fear of waking it up to a sense of +losses by this time irretrievable. It was all very funny he knew, +and but the difference, as he often said to himself, of tweedledum +and tweedledee--an emancipation so purely comparative that it was +like the advance of the door-mat on the scraper; yet the present +crisis was happily to profit by it and the pilgrim from Milrose to +know himself more than ever in the right. + +Strether felt that when he heard of the approach of the Pococks the +impulse of pity quite sprang up in him beside the impulse of +triumph. That was exactly why Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes +in which the heat of justice was measured and shaded. He had looked +very hard, as if affectionately sorry for the friend--the friend of +fifty-five--whose frivolity had had thus to be recorded; becoming, +however, but obscurely sententious and leaving his companion to +formulate a charge. It was in this general attitude that he had of +late altogether taken refuge; with the drop of discussion they were +solemnly sadly superficial; Strether recognised in him the mere +portentous rumination to which Miss Barrace had so good-humouredly +described herself as assigning a corner of her salon. It was quite +as if he knew his surreptitious step had been divined, and it was +also as if he missed the chance to explain the purity of his +motive; but this privation of relief should be precisely his small +penance: it was not amiss for Strether that he should find himself +to that degree uneasy. If he had been challenged or accused, +rebuked for meddling or otherwise pulled up, he would probably have +shown, on his own system, all the height of his consistency, all +the depth of his good faith. Explicit resentment of his course +would have made him take the floor, and the thump of his fist on +the table would have affirmed him as consciously incorruptible. Had +what now really prevailed with Strether been but a dread of that +thump--a dread of wincing a little painfully at what it might +invidiously demonstrate? However this might be, at any rate, one of +the marks of the crisis was a visible, a studied lapse, in +Waymarsh, of betrayed concern. As if to make up to his comrade for +the stroke by which he had played providence he now conspicuously +ignored his movements, withdrew himself from the pretension to +share them, stiffened up his sensibility to neglect, and, clasping +his large empty hands and swinging his large restless foot, clearly +looked to another quarter for justice. + +This made for independence on Strether's part, and he had in truth +at no moment of his stay been so free to go and come. The early +summer brushed the picture over and blurred everything but the +near; it made a vast warm fragrant medium in which the elements +floated together on the best of terms, in which rewards were +immediate and reckonings postponed. Chad was out of town again, for +the first time since his visitor's first view of him; he had +explained this necessity--without detail, yet also without +embarrassment, the circumstance was one of those which, in the +young man's life, testified to the variety of his ties. Strether +wasn't otherwise concerned with it than for its so testifying--a +pleasant multitudinous image in which he took comfort. He took +comfort, by the same stroke, in the swing of Chad's pendulum back +from that other swing, the sharp jerk towards Woollett, so stayed +by his own hand. He had the entertainment of thinking that if he +had for that moment stopped the clock it was to promote the next +minute this still livelier motion. He himself did what he hadn't +done before; he took two or three times whole days off-- +irrespective of others, of two or three taken with Miss Gostrey, +two or three taken with little Bilham: he went to Chartres and +cultivated, before the front of the cathedral, a general easy +beatitude; he went to Fontainebleau and imagined himself on the way +to Italy; he went to Rouen with a little handbag and inordinately +spent the night. + +One afternoon he did something quite different; finding himself in +the neighbourhood of a fine old house across the river, he passed +under the great arch of its doorway and asked at the porter's lodge +for Madame de Vionnet. He had already hovered more than once about +that possibility, been aware of it, in the course of ostensible +strolls, as lurking but round the corner. Only it had perversely +happened, after his morning at Notre Dame, that his consistency, as +he considered and intended it, had come back to him; whereby he had +reflected that the encounter in question had been none of his +making; clinging again intensely to the strength of his position, +which was precisely that there was nothing in it for himself. From +the moment he actively pursued the charming associate of his +adventure, from that moment his position weakened, for he was then +acting in an interested way. It was only within a few days that he +had fixed himself a limit: he promised himself his consistency +should end with Sarah's arrival. It was arguing correctly to feel +the title to a free hand conferred on him by this event. If he +wasn't to be let alone he should be merely a dupe to act with +delicacy. If he wasn't to be trusted he could at least take his +ease. If he was to be placed under control he gained leave to try +what his position MIGHT agreeably give him. An ideal rigour would +perhaps postpone the trial till after the Pococks had shown their +spirit; and it was to an ideal rigour that he had quite promised +himself to conform. + +Suddenly, however, on this particular day, he felt a particular +fear under which everything collapsed. He knew abruptly that he was +afraid of himself--and yet not in relation to the effect on his +sensibilities of another hour of Madame de Vionnet. What he dreaded +was the effect of a single hour of Sarah Pocock, as to whom he was +visited, in troubled nights, with fantastic waking dreams. She +loomed at him larger than life; she increased in volume as she drew +nearer; she so met his eyes that, his imagination taking, after the +first step, all, and more than all, the strides, he already felt +her come down on him, already burned, under her reprobation, with +the blush of guilt, already consented, by way of penance, to the +instant forfeiture of everything. He saw himself, under her +direction, recommitted to Woollett as juvenile offenders are +committed to reformatories. It wasn't of course that Woollett was +really a place of discipline; but he knew in advance that Sarah's +salon at the hotel would be. His danger, at any rate, in such moods +of alarm, was some concession, on this ground, that would involve a +sharp rupture with the actual; therefore if he waited to take leave +of that actual he might wholly miss his chance. It was represented +with supreme vividness by Madame de Vionnet, and that is why, in a +word, he waited no longer. He had seen in a flash that he must +anticipate Mrs. Pocock. He was accordingly much disappointed on now +learning from the portress that the lady of his quest was not in +Paris. She had gone for some days to the country. There was nothing +in this accident but what was natural; yet it produced for poor +Strether a drop of all confidence. It was suddenly as if he should +never see her again, and as if moreover he had brought it on +himself by not having been quite kind to her. + +It was the advantage of his having let his fancy lose itself for a +little in the gloom that, as by reaction, the prospect began really +to brighten from the moment the deputation from Woollett alighted +on the platform of the station. They had come straight from Havre, +having sailed from New York to that port, and having also, thanks +to a happy voyage, made land with a promptitude that left Chad +Newsome, who had meant to meet them at the dock, belated. He had +received their telegram, with the announcement of their immediate +further advance, just as he was taking the train for Havre, so that +nothing had remained for him but to await them in Paris. He hastily +picked up Strether, at the hotel, for this purpose, and he even, +with easy pleasantry, suggested the attendance of Waymarsh as well-- +Waymarsh, at the moment his cab rattled up, being engaged, under +Strether's contemplative range, in a grave perambulation of the +familiar court. Waymarsh had learned from his companion, who had +already had a note, delivered by hand, from Chad, that the Pococks +were due, and had ambiguously, though, as always, impressively, +glowered at him over the circumstance; carrying himself in a manner +in which Strether was now expert enough to recognise his uncertainty, +in the premises, as to the best tone. The only tone he aimed at with +confidence was a full tone--which was necessarily difficult in the +absence of a full knowledge. The Pococks were a quantity as yet +unmeasured, and, as he had practically brought them over, so this +witness had to that extent exposed himself. He wanted to feel right +about it, but could only, at the best, for the time, feel vague. +"I shall look to you, you know, immensely," our friend had said, +"to help me with them," and he had been quite conscious of the +effect of the remark, and of others of the same sort, on his +comrade's sombre sensibility. He had insisted on the fact that +Waymarsh would quite like Mrs. Pocock--one could be certain he +would: he would be with her about everything, and she would also be +with HIM, and Miss Barrace's nose, in short, would find itself out +of joint. + +Strether had woven this web of cheerfulness while they waited in +the court for Chad; he had sat smoking cigarettes to keep himself +quiet while, caged and leonine, his fellow traveller paced and +turned before him. Chad Newsome was doubtless to be struck, when he +arrived, with the sharpness of their opposition at this particular +hour; he was to remember, as a part of it, how Waymarsh came with +him and with Strether to the street and stood there with a face +half-wistful and half-rueful. They talked of him, the two others, as +they drove, and Strether put Chad in possession of much of his own +strained sense of things. He had already, a few days before, named +to him the wire he was convinced their friend had pulled--a +confidence that had made on the young man's part quite hugely for +curiosity and diversion. The action of the matter, moreover, +Strether could see, was to penetrate; he saw that is, how Chad +judged a system of influence in which Waymarsh had served as a +determinant--an impression just now quickened again; with the whole +bearing of such a fact on the youth's view of his relatives. As it +came up between them that they might now take their friend for a +feature of the control of these latter now sought to be exerted +from Woollett, Strether felt indeed how it would be stamped all +over him, half an hour later for Sarah Pocock's eyes, that he was +as much on Chad's "side" as Waymarsh had probably described him. He +was letting himself at present, go; there was no denying it; it +might be desperation, it might be confidence; he should offer +himself to the arriving travellers bristling with all the lucidity +he had cultivated. + +He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in the court to +Waymarsh; how there was no doubt whatever that his sister would +find the latter a kindred spirit, no doubt of the alliance, based +on an exchange of views, that the pair would successfully strike +up. They would become as thick as thieves--which moreover was but a +development of what Strether remembered to have said in one of his +first discussions with his mate, struck as he had then already been +with the elements of affinity between that personage and Mrs. +Newsome herself. "I told him, one day, when he had questioned me on +your mother, that she was a person who, when he should know her, +would rouse in him, I was sure, a special enthusiasm; and that +hangs together with the conviction we now feel--this certitude that +Mrs. Pocock will take him into her boat. For it's your mother's own +boat that she's pulling." + +"Ah," said Chad, "Mother's worth fifty of Sally!" + +"A thousand; but when you presently meet her, all the same you'll +be meeting your mother's representative--just as I shall. I feel +like the outgoing ambassador," said Strether, "doing honour to his +appointed successor." A moment after speaking as he had just done +he felt he had inadvertently rather cheapened Mrs. Newsome to her +son; an impression audibly reflected, as at first seen, in Chad's +prompt protest. He had recently rather failed of apprehension of +the young man's attitude and temper--remaining principally +conscious of how little worry, at the worst, he wasted, and he +studied him at this critical hour with renewed interest. Chad had +done exactly what he had promised him a fortnight previous--had +accepted without another question his plea for delay. He was +waiting cheerfully and handsomely, but also inscrutably and with a +slight increase perhaps of the hardness originally involved in his +acquired high polish. He was neither excited nor depressed; was +easy and acute and deliberate--unhurried unflurried unworried, only +at most a little less amused than usual. Strether felt him more +than ever a justification of the extraordinary process of which his +own absurd spirit had been the arena; he knew as their cab rolled +along, knew as he hadn't even yet known, that nothing else than +what Chad had done and had been would have led to his present +showing. They had made him, these things, what he was, and the +business hadn't been easy; it had taken time and trouble, it had +cost, above all, a price. The result at any rate was now to be +offered to Sally; which Strether, so far as that was concerned, was +glad to be there to witness. Would she in the least make it out or +take it in, the result, or would she in the least care for it if +she did? He scratched his chin as he asked himself by what name, +when challenged--as he was sure he should be--he could call it for +her. Oh those were determinations she must herself arrive at; since +she wanted so much to see, let her see then and welcome. She had +come out in the pride of her competence, yet it hummed in +Strether's inner sense that she practically wouldn't see. + +That this was moreover what Chad shrewdly suspected was clear from +a word that next dropped from him. "They're children; they play at +life!"--and the exclamation was significant and reassuring. It +implied that he hadn't then, for his companion's sensibility, +appeared to give Mrs. Newsome away; and it facilitated our friend's +presently asking him if it were his idea that Mrs. Pocock and +Madame de Vionnet should become acquainted. Strether was still more +sharply struck, hereupon, with Chad's lucidity. "Why, isn't that +exactly--to get a sight of the company I keep--what she has come +out for?" + +"Yes--I'm afraid it is," Strether unguardedly replied. + +Chad's quick rejoinder lighted his precipitation. "Why do you say +you're afraid?" + +"Well, because I feel a certain responsibility. It's my testimony, +I imagine, that will have been at the bottom of Mrs. Pocock's +curiosity. My letters, as I've supposed you to understand from the +beginning, have spoken freely. I've certainly said my little say +about Madame de Vionnet." + +All that, for Chad, was beautifully obvious. "Yes, but you've only +spoken handsomely." + +"Never more handsomely of any woman. But it's just that tone--!" + +"That tone," said Chad, "that has fetched her? I dare say; but I've +no quarrel with you about it. And no more has Madame de Vionnet. +Don't you know by this time how she likes you?" + +"Oh!"--and Strether had, with his groan, a real pang of melancholy. +"For all I've done for her!" + +"Ah you've done a great deal." + +Chad's urbanity fairly shamed him, and he was at this moment +absolutely impatient to see the face Sarah Pocock would present to +a sort of thing, as he synthetically phrased it to himself, with no +adequate forecast of which, despite his admonitions, she would +certainly arrive. "I've done THIS!" + +"Well, this is all right. She likes," Chad comfortably remarked, + "to be liked." + +It gave his companion a moment's thought. "And she's sure Mrs. +Pocock WILL--?" + +"No, I say that for you. She likes your liking her; it's so much, +as it were," Chad laughed, "to the good. However, she doesn't +despair of Sarah either, and is prepared, on her own side, to go +all lengths." + +"In the way of appreciation?" + +"Yes, and of everything else. In the way of general amiability, +hospitality and welcome. She's under arms," Chad laughed again; +"she's prepared." + +Strether took it in; then as if an echo of Miss Barrace were in the +air: "She's wonderful." + +"You don't begin to know HOW wonderful!" + +There was a depth in it, to Strether's ear, of confirmed luxury-- +almost a kind of unconscious insolence of proprietorship; but the +effect of the glimpse was not at this moment to foster speculation: +there was something so conclusive in so much graceful and generous +assurance. It was in fact a fresh evocation; and the evocation had +before many minutes another consequence. "Well, I shall see her +oftener now. I shall see her as much as I like--by your leave; +which is what I hitherto haven't done." + +"It has been," said Chad, but without reproach, "only your own +fault. I tried to bring you together, and SHE, my dear fellow--I +never saw her more charming to any man. But you've got your +extraordinary ideas." + +"Well, I DID have," Strether murmured, while he felt both how they +had possessed him and how they had now lost their authority. He +couldn't have traced the sequence to the end, but it was all +because of Mrs. Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be because of Mrs. Newsome, +but that was still to be proved. What came over him was the sense +of having stupidly failed to profit where profit would have been +precious. It had been open to him to see so much more of her, and +he had but let the good days pass. Fierce in him almost was the +resolve to lose no more of them, and he whimsically reflected, +while at Chad's side he drew nearer to his destination, that it +was after all Sarah who would have quickened his chance. What +her visit of inquisition might achieve in other directions was +as yet all obscure--only not obscure that it would do supremely +much to bring two earnest persons together. He had but to listen +to Chad at this moment to feel it; for Chad was in the act of +remarking to him that they of course both counted on him--he +himself and the other earnest person--for cheer and support. It was +brave to Strether to hear him talk as if the line of wisdom they +had struck out was to make things ravishing to the Pococks. No, if +Madame de Vionnet compassed THAT, compassed the ravishment of the +Pococks, Madame de Vionnet would be prodigious. It would be a +beautiful plan if it succeeded, and it all came to the question of +Sarah's being really bribeable. The precedent of his own case +helped Strether perhaps but little to consider she might prove so; +it being distinct that her character would rather make for every +possible difference. This idea of his own bribeability set him +apart for himself; with the further mark in fact that his case was +absolutely proved. He liked always, where Lambert Strether was +concerned, to know the worst, and what he now seemed to know was +not only that he was bribeable, but that he had been effectually +bribed. The only difficulty was that he couldn't quite have said +with what. It was as if he had sold himself, but hadn't somehow got +the cash. That, however, was what, characteristically, WOULD happen +to him. It would naturally be his kind of traffic. While he thought +of these things he reminded Chad of the truth they mustn't lose +sight of--the truth that, with all deference to her susceptibility +to new interests, Sarah would have come out with a high firm +definite purpose. "She hasn't come out, you know, to be bamboozled. +We may all be ravishing--nothing perhaps can be more easy for us; +but she hasn't come out to be ravished. She has come out just +simply to take you home." + +"Oh well, with HER I'll go," said Chad good-humouredly. "I suppose +you'll allow THAT." And then as for a minute Strether said nothing: +"Or is your idea that when I've seen her I shan't want to go?" As +this question, however, again left his friend silent he presently went +on: "My own idea at any rate is that they shall have while they're here +the best sort of time." + +It was at this that Strether spoke. "Ah there you are! I think if +you really wanted to go--!" + +"Well?" said Chad to bring it out. + +"Well, you wouldn't trouble about our good time. You wouldn't care +what sort of a time we have." + +Chad could always take in the easiest way in the world any +ingenious suggestion. "I see. But can I help it? I'm too decent." + +"Yes, you're too decent!" Strether heavily sighed. And he felt for +the moment as if it were the preposterous end of his mission. + +It ministered for the time to this temporary effect that Chad made +no rejoinder. But he spoke again as they came in sight of the +station. "Do you mean to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?" + +As to this Strether was ready. "No." + +"But haven't you told me they know about her?" + +"I think I've told you your mother knows." + +"And won't she have told Sally?" + +"That's one of the things I want to see." + +"And if you find she HAS--?" + +"Will I then, you mean, bring them together?" + +"Yes," said Chad with his pleasant promptness: "to show her there's +nothing in it." + +Strether hesitated. "I don't know that I care very much what she +may think there's in it." + +"Not if it represents what Mother thinks?" + +"Ah what DOES your mother think?" There was in this some sound of +bewilderment. + +But they were just driving up, and help, of a sort, might after all +be quite at hand. "Isn't that, my dear man, what we're both just +going to make out?" + + + + + +II + + +Strether quitted the station half an hour later in different +company. Chad had taken charge, for the journey to the hotel, of +Sarah, Mamie, the maid and the luggage, all spaciously installed +and conveyed; and it was only after the four had rolled away that +his companion got into a cab with Jim. A strange new feeling had +come over Strether, in consequence of which his spirits had risen; +it was as if what had occurred on the alighting of his critics had +been something other than his fear, though his fear had vet not +been of an instant scene of violence. His impression had been +nothing but what was inevitable--he said that to himself; yet +relief and reassurance had softly dropped upon him. Nothing could +be so odd as to be indebted for these things to the look of faces +and the sound of voices that had been with him to satiety, as he +might have said, for years; but he now knew, all the same, how +uneasy he had felt; that was brought home to him by his present +sense of a respite. It had come moreover in the flash of an eye, it +had come in the smile with which Sarah, whom, at the window of her +compartment, they had effusively greeted from the platform, rustled +down to them a moment later, fresh and handsome from her cool June +progress through the charming land. It was only a sign, but enough: +she was going to be gracious and unallusive, she was going to play +the larger game--which was still more apparent, after she had +emerged from Chad's arms, in her direct greeting to the valued +friend of her family. + +Strether WAS then as much as ever the valued friend of her family, +it was something he could at all events go on with; and the manner +of his response to it expressed even for himself how little he had +enjoyed the prospect of ceasing to figure in that likeness. He had +always seen Sarah gracious--had in fact rarely seen her shy or dry, +her marked thin-lipped smile, intense without brightness and as +prompt to act as the scrape of a safety-match; the protrusion of +her rather remarkably long chin, which in her case represented +invitation and urbanity, and not, as in most others, pugnacity and +defiance; the penetration of her voice to a distance, the general +encouragement and approval of her manner, were all elements with +which intercourse had made him familiar, but which he noted today +almost as if she had been a new acquaintance. This first glimpse of +her had given a brief but vivid accent to her resemblance to her +mother; he could have taken her for Mrs. Newsome while she met his +eyes as the train rolled into the station. It was an impression +that quickly dropped; Mrs. Newsome was much handsomer, and while +Sarah inclined to the massive her mother had, at an age, still the +girdle of a maid; also the latter's chin was rather short, than +long, and her smile, by good fortune, much more, oh ever so much +more, mercifully vague. Strether had seen Mrs. Newsome reserved; he +had literally heard her silent, though he had never known her +unpleasant. It was the case with Mrs. Pocock that he had known HER +unpleasant, even though he had never known her not affable. She had +forms of affability that were in a high degree assertive; nothing +for instance had ever been more striking than that she was affable +to Jim. + +What had told in any case at the window of the train was her high +clear forehead, that forehead which her friends, for some reason, +always thought of as a "brow"; the long reach of her eyes--it came +out at this juncture in such a manner as to remind him, oddly +enough, also of that of Waymarsh's; and the unusual gloss of her +dark hair, dressed and hatted, after her mother's refined example, +with such an avoidance of extremes that it was always spoken of at +Woollett as "their own." Though this analogy dropped as soon as she +was on the platform it had lasted long enough to make him feel all +the advantage, as it were, of his relief. The woman at home, the +woman to whom he was attached, was before him just long enough to +give him again the measure of the wretchedness, in fact really of +the shame, of their having to recognise the formation, between +them, of a "split." He had taken this measure in solitude and +meditation: but the catastrophe, as Sarah steamed up, looked for +its seconds unprecedentedly dreadful--or proved, more exactly, +altogether unthinkable; so that his finding something free and +familiar to respond to brought with it an instant renewal of his +loyalty. He had suddenly sounded the whole depth, had gasped at +what he might have lost. + +Well, he could now, for the quarter of an hour of their detention +hover about the travellers as soothingly as if their direct message +to him was that he had lost nothing. He wasn't going to have Sarah +write to her mother that night that he was in any way altered or +strange. There had been times enough for a month when it had seemed +to him that he was strange, that he was altered, in every way; but +that was a matter for himself; he knew at least whose business it +was not; it was not at all events such a circumstance as Sarah's +own unaided lights would help her to. Even if she had come out to +flash those lights more than yet appeared she wouldn't make much +headway against mere pleasantness. He counted on being able to be +merely pleasant to the end, and if only from incapacity moreover to +formulate anything different. He couldn't even formulate to himself +his being changed and queer; it had taken place, the process, +somewhere deep down; Maria Gostrey had caught glimpses of it; but +how was he to fish it up, even if he desired, for Mrs. Pocock? This +was then the spirit in which he hovered, and with the easier throb +in it much indebted furthermore to the impression of high and +established adequacy as a pretty girl promptly produced in him by +Mamie. He had wondered vaguely--turning over many things in the +fidget of his thoughts--if Mamie WERE as pretty as Woollett +published her; as to which issue seeing her now again was to be so +swept away by Woollett's opinion that this consequence really let +loose for the imagination an avalanche of others. There were +positively five minutes in which the last word seemed of necessity +to abide with a Woollett represented by a Mamie. This was the sort +of truth the place itself would feel; it would send her forth in +confidence; it would point to her with triumph; it would take its +stand on her with assurance; it would be conscious of no +requirements she didn't meet, of no question she couldn't answer. + +Well, it was right, Strether slipped smoothly enough into the +cheerfulness of saying: granted that a community MIGHT be best +represented by a young lady of twenty-two, Mamie perfectly played +the part, played it as if she were used to it, and looked and spoke +and dressed the character. He wondered if she mightn't, in the high +light of Paris, a cool full studio-light, becoming yet treacherous, +show as too conscious of these matters; but the next moment he felt +satisfied that her consciousness was after all empty for its size, +rather too simple than too mixed, and that the kind way with her +would be not to take many things out of it, but to put as many as +possible in. She was robust and conveniently tall; just a trifle +too bloodlessly fair perhaps, but with a pleasant public familiar +radiance that affirmed her vitality. She might have been +"receiving" for Woollett, wherever she found herself, and there was +something in her manner, her tone, her motion, her pretty blue +eyes, her pretty perfect teeth and her very small, too small, nose, +that immediately placed her, to the fancy, between the windows of a +hot bright room in which voices were high--up at that end to which +people were brought to be "presented." They were there to +congratulate, these images, and Strether's renewed vision, on this +hint, completed the idea. What Mamie was like was the happy bride, +the bride after the church and just before going away. She wasn't +the mere maiden, and yet was only as much married as that quantity +came to. She was in the brilliant acclaimed festal stage. Well, +might it last her long! + +Strether rejoiced in these things for Chad, who was all genial +attention to the needs of his friends, besides having arranged that +his servant should reinforce him; the ladies were certainly +pleasant to see, and Mamie would be at any time and anywhere +pleasant to exhibit. She would look extraordinarily like his young +wife--the wife of a honeymoon, should he go about with her; but +that was his own affair--or perhaps it was hers; it was at any rate +something she couldn't help. Strether remembered how he had seen +him come up with Jeanne de Vionnet in Gloriani's garden, and the +fancy he had had about that--the fancy obscured now, thickly +overlaid with others; the recollection was during these minutes his +only note of trouble. He had often, in spite of himself, wondered +if Chad but too probably were not with Jeanne the object of a still +and shaded flame. It was on the cards that the child MIGHT be +tremulously in love, and this conviction now flickered up not a bit +the less for his disliking to think of it, for its being, in a +complicated situation, a complication the more, and for something +indescribable in Mamie, something at all events straightway lent +her by his own mind, something that gave her value, gave her +intensity and purpose, as the symbol of an opposition. Little +Jeanne wasn't really at all in question--how COULD she be?--yet +from the moment Miss Pocock had shaken her skirts on the platform, +touched up the immense bows of her hat and settled properly over +her shoulder the strap of her morocco-and-gilt travelling-satchel, +from that moment little Jeanne was opposed. + +It was in the cab with Jim that impressions really crowded on +Strether, giving him the strangest sense of length of absence from +people among whom he had lived for years. Having them thus come out +to him was as if he had returned to find them: and the droll +promptitude of Jim's mental reaction threw his own initiation far +back into the past. Whoever might or mightn't be suited by what was +going on among them, Jim, for one, would certainly be: his instant +recognition--frank and whimsical--of what the affair was for HIM +gave Strether a glow of pleasure. "I say, you know, this IS about +my shape, and if it hadn't been for YOU--!" so he broke out as the +charming streets met his healthy appetite; and he wound up, after +an expressive nudge, with a clap of his companion's knee and an "Oh +you, you--you ARE doing it!" that was charged with rich meaning. +Strether felt in it the intention of homage, but, with a curiosity +otherwise occupied, postponed taking it up. What he was asking +himself for the time was how Sarah Pocock, in the opportunity +already given her, had judged her brother--from whom he himself, as +they finally, at the station, separated for their different +conveyances, had had a look into which he could read more than one +message. However Sarah was judging her brother, Chad's conclusion +about his sister, and about her husband and her husband's sister, +was at the least on the way not to fail of confidence. Strether +felt the confidence, and that, as the look between them was an +exchange, what he himself gave back was relatively vague. This +comparison of notes however could wait; everything struck him as +depending on the effect produced by Chad. Neither Sarah nor Mamie +had in any way, at the station--where they had had after all ample +time--broken out about it; which, to make up for this, was what our +friend had expected of Jim as soon as they should find themselves +together. + +It was queer to him that he had that noiseless brush with Chad; an +ironic intelligence with this youth on the subject of his +relatives, an intelligence carried on under their nose and, as +might be said, at their expense--such a matter marked again for him +strongly the number of stages he had come; albeit that if the +number seemed great the time taken for the final one was but the +turn of a hand. He had before this had many moments of wondering if +he himself weren't perhaps changed even as Chad was changed. Only +what in Chad was conspicuous improvement--well, he had no name +ready for the working, in his own organism, of his own more timid +dose. He should have to see first what this action would amount to. +And for his occult passage with the young man, after all, the +directness of it had no greater oddity than the fact that the young +man's way with the three travellers should have been so happy a +manifestation. Strether liked him for it, on the spot, as he hadn't +yet liked him; it affected him while it lasted as he might have +been affected by some light pleasant perfect work of art: to that +degree that he wondered if they were really worthy of it, took it +in and did it justice; to that degree that it would have been +scarce a miracle if, there in the luggage-room, while they waited +for their things, Sarah had pulled his sleeve and drawn him aside. +"You're right; we haven't quite known what you mean, Mother and I, +but now we see. Chad's magnificent; what can one want more? If THIS +is the kind of thing--!" On which they might, as it were, have +embraced and begun to work together. + +Ah how much, as it was, for all her bridling brightness--which was +merely general and noticed nothing--WOULD they work together? +Strether knew he was unreasonable; he set it down to his being +nervous: people couldn't notice everything and speak of everything +in a quarter of an hour. Possibly, no doubt, also, he made too much +of Chad's display. Yet, none the less, when, at the end of five +minutes, in the cab, Jim Pocock had said nothing either--hadn't +said, that is, what Strether wanted, though he had said much else-- +it all suddenly bounced back to their being either stupid or +wilful. It was more probably on the whole the former; so that that +would be the drawback of the bridling brightness. Yes, they would +bridle and be bright; they would make the best of what was before +them, but their observation would fail; it would be beyond them; +they simply wouldn't understand. Of what use would it be then that +they had come?--if they weren't to be intelligent up to THAT point: +unless indeed he himself were utterly deluded and extravagant? Was +he, on this question of Chad's improvement, fantastic and away from +the truth? Did he live in a false world, a world that had grown +simply to suit him, and was his present slight irritation--in the +face now of Jim's silence in particular--but the alarm of the vain +thing menaced by the touch of the real? Was this contribution of +the real possibly the mission of the Pococks?--had they come to +make the work of observation, as HE had practised observation, +crack and crumble, and to reduce Chad to the plain terms in which +honest minds could deal with him? Had they come in short to be sane +where Strether was destined to feel that he himself had only been +silly? + +He glanced at such a contingency, but it failed to hold him long +when once he had reflected that he would have been silly, in this +case, with Maria Gostrey and little Bilham, with Madame de Vionnet +and little Jeanne, with Lambert Strether, in fine, and above all +with Chad Newsome himself. Wouldn't it be found to have made more +for reality to be silly with these persons than sane with Sarah and +Jim? Jim in fact, he presently made up his mind, was individually +out of it; Jim didn't care; Jim hadn't come out either for Chad or +for him; Jim in short left the moral side to Sally and indeed +simply availed himself now, for the sense of recreation, of the +fact that he left almost everything to Sally. He was nothing +compared to Sally, and not so much by reason of Sally's temper and +will as by that of her more developed type and greater acquaintance +with the world. He quite frankly and serenely confessed, as he sat +there with Strether, that he felt his type hang far in the rear of +his wife's and still further, if possible, in the rear of his +sister's. Their types, he well knew, were recognised and acclaimed; +whereas the most a leading Woollett business-man could hope to +achieve socially, and for that matter industrially, was a certain +freedom to play into this general glamour. + +The impression he made on our friend was another of the things that +marked our friend's road. It was a strange impression, especially +as so soon produced; Strether had received it, he judged, all in +the twenty minutes; it struck him at least as but in a minor degree +the work of the long Woollett years. Pocock was normally and +consentingly though not quite wittingly out of the question. It was +despite his being normal; it was despite his being cheerful; it was +despite his being a leading Woollett business-man; and the +determination of his fate left him thus perfectly usual--as +everything else about it was clearly, to his sense, not less so. He +seemed to say that there was a whole side of life on which the +perfectly usual WAS for leading Woollett business-men to be out of +the question. He made no more of it than that, and Strether, so far +as Jim was concerned, desired to make no more. Only Strether's +imagination, as always, worked, and he asked himself if this side +of life were not somehow connected, for those who figured on it +with the fact of marriage. Would HIS relation to it, had he married +ten years before, have become now the same as Pocock's? Might it +even become the same should he marry in a few months? Should he +ever know himself as much out of the question for Mrs. Newsome as +Jim knew himself--in a dim way--for Mrs. Jim? + +To turn his eyes in that direction was to be personally reassured; +he was different from Pocock; he had affirmed himself differently +and was held after all in higher esteem. What none the less came +home to him, however, at this hour, was that the society over +there, that of which Sarah and Mamie--and, in a more eminent way, +Mrs. Newsome herself--were specimens, was essentially a society of +women, and that poor Jim wasn't in it. He himself Lambert Strether, +WAS as yet in some degree--which was an odd situation for a man; +but it kept coming back to him in a whimsical way that he should +perhaps find his marriage had cost him his place. This occasion +indeed, whatever that fancy represented, was not a time of sensible +exclusion for Jim, who was in a state of manifest response to the +charm of his adventure. Small and fat and constantly facetious, +straw-coloured and destitute of marks, he would have been +practically indistinguishable hadn't his constant preference for +light-grey clothes, for white hats, for very big cigars and very +little stories, done what it could for his identity. There were +signs in him, though none of them plaintive, of always paying for +others; and the principal one perhaps was just this failure of +type. It was with this that he paid, rather than with fatigue or +waste; and also doubtless a little with the effort of humour--never +irrelevant to the conditions, to the relations, with which he was +acquainted. + +He gurgled his joy as they rolled through the happy streets; he +declared that his trip was a regular windfall, and that he wasn't +there, he was eager to remark, to hang back from anything: he +didn't know quite what Sally had come for, but HE had come for a +good time. Strether indulged him even while wondering if what Sally +wanted her brother to go back for was to become like her husband. +He trusted that a good time was to be, out and out, the programme +for all of them; and he assented liberally to Jim's proposal that, +disencumbered and irresponsible--his things were in the omnibus +with those of the others--they should take a further turn round +before going to the hotel. It wasn't for HIM to tackle Chad--it was +Sally's job; and as it would be like her, he felt, to open fire on +the spot, it wouldn't be amiss of them to hold off and give her +time. Strether, on his side, only asked to give her time; so he +jogged with his companion along boulevards and avenues, trying to +extract from meagre material some forecast of his catastrophe. He +was quick enough to see that Jim Pocock declined judgement, had +hovered quite round the outer edge of discussion and anxiety, +leaving all analysis of their question to the ladies alone and now +only feeling his way toward some small droll cynicism. It broke out +afresh, the cynicism--it had already shown a flicker--in a but +slightly deferred: "Well, hanged if I would if I were he!" + +"You mean you wouldn't in Chad's place--?" + +"Give up this to go back and boss the advertising!" Poor Jim, with +his arms folded and his little legs out in the open fiacre, drank +in the sparkling Paris noon and carried his eyes from one side of +their vista to the other. "Why I want to come right out and live +here myself. And I want to live while I AM here too. I feel with +YOU--oh you've been grand, old man, and I've twigged--that it ain't +right to worry Chad. I don't mean to persecute him; I couldn't in +conscience. It's thanks to you at any rate that I'm here, and I'm +sure I'm much obliged. You're a lovely pair." + +There were things in this speech that Strether let pass for the +time. "Don't you then think it important the advertising should be +thoroughly taken in hand? Chad WILL be, so far as capacity is +concerned," he went on, "the man to do it." + +"Where did he get his capacity," Jim asked, "over here?" + +"He didn't get it over here, and the wonderful thing is that over +here he hasn't inevitably lost it. He has a natural turn for +business, an extraordinary head. He comes by that," Strether +explained, "honestly enough. He's in that respect his father's son, +and also--for she's wonderful in her way too--his mother's. He has +other tastes and other tendencies; but Mrs. Newsome and your wife +are quite right about his having that. He's very remarkable." + +"Well, I guess he is!" Jim Pocock comfortably sighed. "But if +you've believed so in his making us hum, why have you so prolonged +the discussion? Don't you know we've been quite anxious about you?" + +These questions were not informed with earnestness, but Strether +saw he must none the less make a choice and take a line. "Because, +you see, I've greatly liked it. I've liked my Paris, I dare say +I've liked it too much." + +"Oh you old wretch!" Jim gaily exclaimed. + +"But nothing's concluded," Strether went on. "The case is more +complex than it looks from Woollett." + +"Oh well, it looks bad enough from Woollett!" Jim declared. + +"Even after all I've written?" + +Jim bethought himself. "Isn't it what you've written that has made +Mrs. Newsome pack us off? That at least and Chad's not turning up?" + +Strether made a reflexion of his own. "I see. That she should do +something was, no doubt, inevitable, and your wife has therefore of +course come out to act." + +"Oh yes," Jim concurred--"to act. But Sally comes out to act, you +know," he lucidly added, "every time she leaves the house. She +never comes out but she DOES act. She's acting moreover now for her +mother, and that fixes the scale." Then he wound up, opening all +his senses to it, with a renewed embrace of pleasant Paris. "We +haven't all the same at Woollett got anything like this." + +Strether continued to consider. "I'm bound to say for you all that +you strike me as having arrived in a very mild and reasonable frame +of mind. You don't show your claws. I felt just now in Mrs. Pocock +no symptom of that. She isn't fierce," he went on. "I'm such a +nervous idiot that I thought she might be." + +"Oh don't you know her well enough," Pocock asked, "to have noticed +that she never gives herself away, any more than her mother ever +does? They ain't fierce, either of 'em; they let you come quite +close. They wear their fur the smooth side out--the warm side in. +Do you know what they are?" Jim pursued as he looked about him, +giving the question, as Strether felt, but half his care--"do you +know what they are? They're about as intense as they can live." + +"Yes"--and Strether's concurrence had a positive precipitation; +"they're about as intense as they can live." + +"They don't lash about and shake the cage," said Jim, who seemed +pleased with his analogy; "and it's at feeding-time that they're +quietest. But they always get there." + +"They do indeed--they always get there!" Strether replied with a +laugh that justified his confession of nervousness. He disliked to +be talking sincerely of Mrs. Newsome with Pocock; he could have +talked insincerely. But there was something he wanted to know, a +need created in him by her recent intermission, by his having +given from the first so much, as now more than ever appeared to +him, and got so little. It was as if a queer truth in his +companion's metaphor had rolled over him with a rush. She HAD been +quiet at feeding-time; she had fed, and Sarah had fed with her, +out of the big bowl of all his recent free communication, his +vividness and pleasantness, his ingenuity and even his eloquence, +while the current of her response had steadily run thin. Jim +meanwhile however, it was true, slipped characteristically into +shallowness from the moment he ceased to speak out of the +experience of a husband. + +"But of course Chad has now the advantage of being there before +her. If he doesn't work that for all it's worth--!" He sighed with +contingent pity at his brother-in-law's possible want of resource. +"He has worked it on YOU, pretty well, eh?" and he asked the next +moment if there were anything new at the Varieties, which he +pronounced in the American manner. They talked about the +Varieties--Strether confessing to a knowledge which produced again +on Pocock's part a play of innuendo as vague as a nursery-rhyme, +yet as aggressive as an elbow in his side; and they finished their +drive under the protection of easy themes. Strether waited to the +end, but still in vain, for any show that Jim had seen Chad as +different; and he could scarce have explained the discouragement +he drew from the absence of this testimony. It was what he had +taken his own stand on, so far as he had taken a stand; and if +they were all only going to see nothing he had only wasted his +time. He gave his friend till the very last moment, till they had +come into sight of the hotel; and when poor Pocock only continued +cheerful and envious and funny he fairly grew to dislike him, to +feel him extravagantly common. If they were ALL going to see +nothing!--Strether knew, as this came back to him, that he was +also letting Pocock represent for him what Mrs. Newsome wouldn't +see. He went on disliking, in the light of Jim's commonness, to +talk to him about that lady; yet just before the cab pulled up he +knew the extent of his desire for the real word from Woollett. + +"Has Mrs. Newsome at all given way--?" + +"'Given way'?"--Jim echoed it with the practical derision of his +sense of a long past. + +"Under the strain, I mean, of hope deferred, of disappointment +repeated and thereby intensified." + +"Oh is she prostrate, you mean?"--he had his categories in hand. +"Why yes, she's prostrate--just as Sally is. But they're never so +lively, you know, as when they're prostrate." + +"Ah Sarah's prostrate?" Strether vaguely murmured. + +"It's when they're prostrate that they most sit up." + +"And Mrs. Newsome's sitting up?" + +"All night, my boy--for YOU!" And Jim fetched him, with a vulgar +little guffaw, a thrust that gave relief to the picture. But he +had got what he wanted. He felt on the spot that this WAS the real +word from Woollett. "So don't you go home!" Jim added while he +alighted and while his friend, letting him profusely pay the +cabman, sat on in a momentary muse. Strether wondered if that +were the real word too. + + + +III + + +As the door of Mrs. Pocock's salon was pushed open for him, the +next day, well before noon, he was reached by a voice with a +charming sound that made him just falter before crossing the +threshold. Madame de Vionnet was already on the field, and this +gave the drama a quicker pace than he felt it as yet--though his +suspense had increased--in the power of any act of his own to do. +He had spent the previous evening with all his old friends +together yet he would still have described himself as quite in the +dark in respect to a forecast of their influence on his situation. +It was strange now, none the less, that in the light of this +unexpected note of her presence he felt Madame de Vionnet a part +of that situation as she hadn't even yet been. She was alone, he +found himself assuming, with Sarah, and there was a bearing in +that--somehow beyond his control--on his personal fate. Yet she +was only saying something quite easy and independent--the thing +she had come, as a good friend of Chad's, on purpose to say. +"There isn't anything at all--? I should be so delighted." + +It was clear enough, when they were there before him, how she had +been received. He saw this, as Sarah got up to greet him, from +something fairly hectic in Sarah's face. He saw furthermore that +they weren't, as had first come to him, alone together; he was at +no loss as to the identity of the broad high back presented to +him in the embrasure of the window furthest from the door. +Waymarsh, whom he had to-day not yet seen, whom he only knew to +have left the hotel before him, and who had taken part, the night +previous, on Mrs. Pocock's kind invitation, conveyed by Chad, in +the entertainment, informal but cordial, promptly offered by that +lady--Waymarsh had anticipated him even as Madame de Vionnet had +done, and, with his hands in his pockets and his attitude +unaffected by Strether's entrance, was looking out, in marked +detachment, at the Rue de Rivoli. The latter felt it in the air-- +it was immense how Waymarsh could mark things---that he had remained +deeply dissociated from the overture to their hostess that we have +recorded on Madame de Vionnet's side. He had, conspicuously, tact, +besides a stiff general view; and this was why he had left Mrs. +Pocock to struggle alone. He would outstay the visitor; he would +unmistakeably wait; to what had he been doomed for months past but +waiting? Therefore she was to feel that she had him in reserve. +What support she drew from this was still to be seen, for, although +Sarah was vividly bright, she had given herself up for the moment +to an ambiguous flushed formalism. She had had to reckon more +quickly than she expected; but it concerned her first of all to +signify that she was not to be taken unawares. Strether arrived +precisely in time for her showing it. "Oh you're too good; but I +don't think I feel quite helpless. I have my brother--and these +American friends. And then you know I've been to Paris. I KNOW +Paris," said Sally Pocock in a tone that breathed a certain chill +on Strether's heart. + +"Ah but a woman, in this tiresome place where everything's always +changing, a woman of good will," Madame de Vionnet threw off, "can +always help a woman. I'm sure you 'know'--but we know perhaps +different things." She too, visibly, wished to make no mistake; but +it was a fear of a different order and more kept out of sight. She +smiled in welcome at Strether; she greeted him more familiarly than +Mrs. Pocock; she put out her hand to him without moving from her +place; and it came to him in the course of a minute and in the +oddest way that--yes, positively--she was giving him over to ruin. +She was all kindness and ease, but she couldn't help so giving him; +she was exquisite, and her being just as she was poured for Sarah a +sudden rush of meaning into his own equivocations. How could she +know how she was hurting him? She wanted to show as simple and +humble--in the degree compatible with operative charm; but it was +just this that seemed to put him on her side. She struck him as +dressed, as arranged, as prepared infinitely to conciliate--with +the very poetry of good taste in her view of the conditions of her +early call. She was ready to advise about dressmakers and shops; +she held herself wholly at the disposition of Chad's family. +Strether noticed her card on the table--her coronet and her +"Comtesse"--and the imagination was sharp in him of certain private +adjustments in Sarah's mind. She had never, he was sure, sat with a +"Comtesse" before, and such was the specimen of that class he had +been keeping to play on her. She had crossed the sea very +particularly for a look at her; but he read in Madame de Vionnet's +own eyes that this curiosity hadn't been so successfully met as +that she herself wouldn't now have more than ever need of him. She +looked much as she had looked to him that morning at Notre Dame; he +noted in fact the suggestive sameness of her discreet and delicate +dress. It seemed to speak--perhaps a little prematurely or too +finely--of the sense in which she would help Mrs. Pocock with the +shops. The way that lady took her in, moreover, added depth to his +impression of what Miss Gostrey, by their common wisdom, had +escaped. He winced as he saw himself but for that timely prudence +ushering in Maria as a guide and an example. There was however a +touch of relief for him in his glimpse, so far as he had got it, of +Sarah's line. She "knew Paris." Madame de Vionnet had, for that +matter, lightly taken this up. "Ah then you've a turn for that, an +affinity that belongs to your family. Your brother, though his long +experience makes a difference, I admit, has become one of us in a +marvellous way." And she appealed to Strether in the manner of a +woman who could always glide off with smoothness into another +subject. Wasn't HE struck with the way Mr. Newsome had made the +place his own, and hadn't he been in a position to profit by his +friend's wondrous expertness? + +Strether felt the bravery, at the least, of her presenting herself +so promptly to sound that note, and yet asked himself what other +note, after all, she COULD strike from the moment she presented +herself at all. She could meet Mrs. Pocock only on the ground of +the obvious, and what feature of Chad's situation was more eminent +than the fact that he had created for himself a new set of +circumstances? Unless she hid herself altogether she could show but +as one of these, an illustration of his domiciled and indeed of his +confirmed condition. And the consciousness of all this in her +charming eyes was so clear and fine that as she thus publicly drew +him into her boat she produced in him such a silent agitation as he +was not to fail afterwards to denounce as pusillanimous. "Ah don't +be so charming to me!--for it makes us intimate, and after all what +IS between us when I've been so tremendously on my guard and have +seen you but half a dozen times?" He recognised once more the +perverse law that so inveterately governed his poor personal +aspects: it would be exactly LIKE the way things always turned out +for him that he should affect Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh as launched +in a relation in which he had really never been launched at all. +They were at this very moment--they could only be--attributing to +him the full licence of it, and all by the operation of her own +tone with him; whereas his sole licence had been to cling with +intensity to the brink, not to dip so much as a toe into the flood. +But the flicker of his fear on this occasion was not, as may be +added, to repeat itself; it sprang up, for its moment, only to die +down and then go out for ever. To meet his fellow visitor's +invocation and, with Sarah's brilliant eyes on him, answer, WAS +quite sufficiently to step into her boat. During the rest of the +time her visit lasted he felt himself proceed to each of the proper +offices, successively, for helping to keep the adventurous skiff +afloat. It rocked beneath him, but he settled himself in his place. +He took up an oar and, since he was to have the credit of pulling, +pulled. + +"That will make it all the pleasanter if it so happens that we DO +meet," Madame de Vionnet had further observed in reference to Mrs. +Pocock's mention of her initiated state; and she had immediately +added that, after all, her hostess couldn't be in need with the +good offices of Mr. Strether so close at hand. "It's he, I gather, +who has learnt to know his Paris, and to love it, better than any +one ever before in so short a time; so that between him and your +brother, when it comes to the point, how can you possibly want for +good guidance? The great thing, Mr. Strether will show you," she +smiled, "is just to let one's self go." + +"Oh I've not let myself go very far," Strether answered, feeling +quite as if he had been called upon to hint to Mrs. Pocock how +Parisians could talk. "I'm only afraid of showing I haven't let +myself go far enough. I've taken a good deal of time, but I must +quite have had the air of not budging from one spot." He looked at +Sarah in a manner that he thought she might take as engaging, and +he made, under Madame de Vionnet's protection, as it were, his +first personal point. "What has really happened has been that, all +the while, I've done what I came out for." + +Yet it only at first gave Madame de Vionnet a chance immediately to +take him up. "You've renewed acquaintance with your friend--you've +learnt to know him again." She spoke with such cheerful helpfulness +that they might, in a common cause, have been calling together and +pledged to mutual aid. + +Waymarsh, at this, as if he had been in question, straightway +turned from the window. "Oh yes, Countess--he has renewed +acquaintance with ME, and he HAS, I guess, learnt something about +me, though I don't know how much he has liked it. It's for Strether +himself to say whether he has felt it justifies his course." + +"Oh but YOU," said the Countess gaily, "are not in the least what +he came out for--is he really, Strether? and I hadn't you at all in +my mind. I was thinking of Mr. Newsome, of whom we think so much +and with whom, precisely, Mrs. Pocock has given herself the +opportunity to take up threads. What a pleasure for you both!" +Madame de Vionnet, with her eyes on Sarah, bravely continued. + +Mrs. Pocock met her handsomely, but Strether quickly saw she meant +to accept no version of her movements or plans from any other lips. +She required no patronage and no support, which were but other +names for a false position; she would show in her own way what she +chose to show, and this she expressed with a dry glitter that +recalled to him a fine Woollett winter morning. "I've never wanted +for opportunities to see my brother. We've many things to think of +at home, and great responsibilities and occupations, and our home's +not an impossible place. We've plenty of reasons," Sarah continued +a little piercingly, "for everything we do"--and in short she +wouldn't give herself the least little scrap away. But she added as +one who was always bland and who could afford a concession: "I've +come because--well, because we do come." + +"Ah then fortunately!"--Madame de Vionnet breathed it to the air. +Five minutes later they were on their feet for her to take leave, +standing together in an affability that had succeeded in surviving +a further exchange of remarks; only with the emphasised appearance +on Waymarsh's part of a tendency to revert, in a ruminating manner +and as with an instinctive or a precautionary lightening of his +tread, to an open window and his point of vantage. The glazed and +gilded room, all red damask, ormolu, mirrors, clocks, looked south, +and the shutters were bowed upon the summer morning; but the +Tuileries garden and what was beyond it, over which the whole place +hung, were things visible through gaps; so that the far-spreading +presence of Paris came up in coolness, dimness and invitation, in +the twinkle of gilt-tipped palings, the crunch of gravel, the click +of hoofs, the crack of whips, things that suggested some parade of +the circus. "I think it probable," said Mrs. Pocock, "that I shall +have the opportunity of going to my brother's I've no doubt it's +very pleasant indeed." She spoke as to Strether, but her face was +turned with an intensity of brightness to Madame de Vionnet, and +there was a moment during which, while she thus fronted her, our +friend expected to hear her add: "I'm much obliged to you, I'm +sure, for inviting me there." He guessed that for five seconds +these words were on the point of coming; he heard them as clearly +as if they had been spoken; but he presently knew they had just +failed--knew it by a glance, quick and fine, from Madame de +Vionnet, which told him that she too had felt them in the air, but +that the point had luckily not been made in any manner requiring +notice. This left her free to reply only to what had been said. + +"That the Boulevard Malesherbes may be common ground for us offers +me the best prospect I see for the pleasure of meeting you again." + +"Oh I shall come to see you, since you've been so good": and Mrs. +Pocock looked her invader well in the eyes. The flush in Sarah's +cheeks had by this time settled to a small definite crimson spot +that was not without its own bravery; she held her head a good deal +up, and it came to Strether that of the two, at this moment, she +was the one who most carried out the idea of a Countess. He quite +took in, however, that she would really return her visitor's +civility: she wouldn't report again at Woollett without at least so +much producible history as that in her pocket. + +"I want extremely to be able to show you my little daughter." +Madame de Vionnet went on; "and I should have brought her with me +if I hadn't wished first to ask your leave. I was in hopes I should +perhaps find Miss Pocock, of whose being with you I've heard from +Mr. Newsome and whose acquaintance I should so much like my child +to make. If I have the pleasure of seeing her and you do permit it +I shall venture to ask her to be kind to Jeanne. Mr. Strether will +tell you"--she beautifully kept it up--"that my poor girl is gentle +and good and rather lonely. They've made friends, he and she, ever +so happily, and he doesn't, I believe, think ill of her. As for +Jeanne herself he has had the same success with her that I know he +has had here wherever he has turned." She seemed to ask him for +permission to say these things, or seemed rather to take it, softly +and happily, with the ease of intimacy, for granted, and he had +quite the consciousness now that not to meet her at any point more +than halfway would be odiously, basely to abandon her. Yes, he was +WITH her, and, opposed even in this covert, this semi-safe fashion +to those who were not, he felt, strangely and confusedly, but +excitedly, inspiringly, how much and how far. It was as if he had +positively waited in suspense for something from her that would let +him in deeper, so that he might show her how he could take it. And +what did in fact come as she drew out a little her farewell served +sufficiently the purpose. "As his success is a matter that I'm sure +he'll never mention for himself, I feel, you see, the less scruple; +which it's very good of me to say, you know, by the way," she added +as she addressed herself to him; "considering how little direct +advantage I've gained from your triumphs with ME. When does one +ever see you? I wait at home and I languish. You'll have rendered +me the service, Mrs. Pocock, at least," she wound up, "of giving me +one of my much-too-rare glimpses of this gentleman." + +"I certainly should be sorry to deprive you of anything that seems +so much, as you describe it, your natural due. Mr. Strether and I +are very old friends," Sarah allowed, "but the privilege of his +society isn't a thing I shall quarrel about with any one." + +"And yet, dear Sarah," he freely broke in, "I feel, when I hear you +say that, that you don't quite do justice to the important truth of +the extent to which--as you're also mine--I'm your natural due. I +should like much better," he laughed, "to see you fight for me." + +She met him, Mrs. Pocock, on this, with an arrest of speech--with a +certain breathlessness, as he immediately fancied, on the score of +a freedom for which she wasn't quite prepared. It had flared up-- +for all the harm he had intended by it--because, confoundedly, he +didn't want any more to be afraid about her than he wanted to be +afraid about Madame de Vionnet. He had never, naturally, called her +anything but Sarah at home, and though he had perhaps never quite +so markedly invoked her as his "dear," that was somehow partly +because no occasion had hitherto laid so effective a trap for it. +But something admonished him now that it was too late--unless +indeed it were possibly too early; and that he at any rate +shouldn't have pleased Mrs. Pocock the more by it. "Well, Mr. +Strether--!" she murmured with vagueness, yet with sharpness, while +her crimson spot burned a trifle brighter and he was aware that +this must be for the present the limit of her response. Madame de +Vionnet had already, however, come to his aid, and Waymarsh, as if +for further participation, moved again back to them. It was true +that the aid rendered by Madame de Vionnet was questionable; it was +a sign that, for all one might confess to with her, and for all she +might complain of not enjoying, she could still insidiously show +how much of the material of conversation had accumulated between +them. + +"The real truth is, you know, that you sacrifice one without mercy +to dear old Maria. She leaves no room in your life for anybody +else. Do you know," she enquired of Mrs. Pocock, "about dear old +Maria? The worst is that Miss Gostrey is really a wonderful woman." + +"Oh yes indeed," Strether answered for her, "Mrs. Pocock knows +about Miss Gostrey. Your mother, Sarah, must have told you about +her; your mother knows everything," he sturdily pursued. "And I +cordially admit," he added with his conscious gaiety of courage, +"that she's as wonderful a woman as you like." + +"Ah it isn't I who 'like,' dear Mr. Strether, anything to do with +the matter!" Sarah Pocock promptly protested; "and I'm by no means +sure I have--from my mother or from any one else--a notion of whom +you're talking about." + +"Well, he won't let you see her, you know," Madame de Vionnet +sympathetically threw in. "He never lets me--old friends as we are: +I mean as I am with Maria. He reserves her for his best hours; +keeps her consummately to himself; only gives us others the crumbs +of the feast." + +"Well, Countess, I'VE had some of the crumbs," Waymarsh observed +with weight and covering her with his large look; which led her to +break in before he could go on. + +"Comment donc, he shares her with YOU?" she exclaimed in droll +stupefaction. "Take care you don't have, before you go much +further, rather more of all ces dames than you may know what to do +with!" + +But he only continued in his massive way. "I can post you about the +lady, Mrs. Pocock, so far as you may care to hear. I've seen her +quite a number of times, and I was practically present when they +made acquaintance. I've kept my eye on her right along, but I don't +know as there's any real harm in her." + +"'Harm'?" Madame de Vionnet quickly echoed. "Why she's the dearest +and cleverest of all the clever and dear." + +"Well, you run her pretty close, Countess," Waymarsh returned with +spirit; "though there's no doubt she's pretty well up in things. +She knows her way round Europe. Above all there's no doubt she does +love Strether." + +"Ah but we all do that--we all love Strether: it isn't a merit!" +their fellow visitor laughed, keeping to her idea with a good +conscience at which our friend was aware that he marvelled, though +he trusted also for it, as he met her exquisitely expressive eyes, +to some later light. + +The prime effect of her tone, however--and it was a truth which his +own eyes gave back to her in sad ironic play--could only be to make +him feel that, to say such things to a man in public, a woman must +practically think of him as ninety years old. He had turned +awkwardly, responsively red, he knew, at her mention of Maria +Gostrey; Sarah Pocock's presence--the particular quality of it--had +made this inevitable; and then he had grown still redder in +proportion as he hated to have shown anything at all. He felt +indeed that he was showing much, as, uncomfortably and almost in +pain, he offered up his redness to Waymarsh, who, strangely enough, +seemed now to be looking at him with a certain explanatory +yearning. Something deep--something built on their old old +relation--passed, in this complexity, between them; he got the +side-wind of a loyalty that stood behind all actual queer +questions. Waymarsh's dry bare humour--as it gave itself to be +taken--gloomed out to demand justice. "Well, if you talk of Miss +Barrace I've MY chance too," it appeared stiffly to nod, and it +granted that it was giving him away, but struggled to add that it +did so only to save him. The sombre glow stared it at him till it +fairly sounded out--"to save you, poor old man, to save you; to +save you in spite of yourself." Yet it was somehow just this +communication that showed him to himself as more than ever lost. +Still another result of it was to put before him as never yet that +between his comrade and the interest represented by Sarah there was +already a basis. Beyond all question now, yes: Waymarsh had been in +occult relation with Mrs. Newsome--out, out it all came in the very +effort of his face. "Yes, you're feeling my hand"--he as good as +proclaimed it; "but only because this at least I SHALL have got out +of the damned Old World: that I shall have picked up the pieces +into which it has caused you to crumble." It was as if in short, +after an instant, Strether had not only had it from him, but had +recognised that so far as this went the instant had cleared the +air. Our friend understood and approved; he had the sense that they +wouldn't otherwise speak of it. This would be all, and it would +mark in himself a kind of intelligent generosity. It was with grim +Sarah then--Sarah grim for all her grace--that Waymarsh had begun +at ten o'clock in the morning to save him. Well--if he COULD, poor +dear man, with his big bleak kindness! The upshot of which crowded +perception was that Strether, on his own side, still showed no more +than he absolutely had to. He showed the least possible by saying +to Mrs. Pocock after an interval much briefer than our glance at +the picture reflected in him: "Oh it's as true as they please!-- +There's no Miss Gostrey for any one but me--not the least little +peep. I keep her to myself." + +"Well, it's very good of you to notify me," Sarah replied without +looking at him and thrown for a moment by this discrimination, as +the direction of her eyes showed, upon a dimly desperate little +community with Madame de Vionnet. "But I hope I shan't miss her too +much." + +Madame de Vionnet instantly rallied. "And you know--though it might +occur to one--it isn't in the least that he's ashamed of her. +She's really--in a way--extremely good-looking." + +"Ah but extremely!" Strether laughed while he wondered at the odd +part he found thus imposed on him. + +It continued to be so by every touch from Madame de Vionnet. "Well, +as I say, you know, I wish you would keep ME a little more to +yourself. Couldn't you name some day for me, some hour--and better +soon than late? I'll be at home whenever it best suits you. +There--I can't say fairer." + +Strether thought a moment while Waymarsh and Mrs. Pocock affected +him as standing attentive. "I did lately call on you. Last week-- +while Chad was out of town." + +"Yes--and I was away, as it happened, too. You choose your moments +well. But don't wait for my next absence, for I shan't make +another," Madame de Vionnet declared, "while Mrs. Pocock's here." + +"That vow needn't keep you long, fortunately," Sarah observed with +reasserted suavity. "I shall be at present but a short time in +Paris. I have my plans for other countries. I meet a number of +charming friends"--and her voice seemed to caress that description +of these persons. + +"Ah then," her visitor cheerfully replied, "all the more reason! +To-morrow, for instance, or next day?" she continued to Strether. +"Tuesday would do for me beautifully." + +"Tuesday then with pleasure." + +"And at half-past five?--or at six?" + +It was ridiculous, but Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh struck him as +fairly waiting for his answer. It was indeed as if they were +arranged, gathered for a performance, the performance of "Europe" +by his confederate and himself. Well, the performance could only +go on. "Say five forty-five." + +"Five forty-five--good." And now at last Madame de Vionnet must +leave them, though it carried, for herself, the performance a +little further. "I DID hope so much also to see Miss Pocock. +Mayn't I still?" + +Sarah hesitated, but she rose equal. "She'll return your visit with +me. She's at present out with Mr. Pocock and my brother." + +"I see--of course Mr. Newsome has everything to show them. He has +told me so much about her. My great desire's to give my daughter +the opportunity of making her acquaintance. I'm always on the +lookout for such chances for her. If I didn't bring her to-day it +was only to make sure first that you'd let me." After which the +charming woman risked a more intense appeal. "It wouldn't suit you +also to mention some near time, so that we shall be sure not to +lose you?" Strether on his side waited, for Sarah likewise had, +after all, to perform; and it occupied him to have been thus +reminded that she had stayed at home--and on her first morning of +Paris--while Chad led the others forth. Oh she was up to her eyes; +if she had stayed at home she had stayed by an understanding, +arrived at the evening before, that Waymarsh would come and find +her alone. This was beginning well--for a first day in Paris; and +the thing might be amusing yet. But Madame de Vionnet's earnestness +was meanwhile beautiful. "You may think me indiscreet, but I've +SUCH a desire my Jeanne shall know an American girl of the really +delightful kind. You see I throw myself for it on your charity." + +The manner of this speech gave Strether such a sense of depths +below it and behind it as he hadn't yet had--ministered in a way +that almost frightened him to his dim divinations of reasons; but +if Sarah still, in spite of it, faltered, this was why he had time +for a sign of sympathy with her petitioner. "Let me say then, dear +lady, to back your plea, that Miss Mamie is of the most delightful +kind of all--is charming among the charming." + +Even Waymarsh, though with more to produce on the subject, could +get into motion in time. "Yes, Countess, the American girl's a +thing that your country must at least allow ours the privilege to +say we CAN show you. But her full beauty is only for those who know +how to make use of her." + +"Ah then," smiled Madame de Vionnet, "that's exactly what I want to +do. I'm sure she has much to teach us." + +It was wonderful, but what was scarce less so was that Strether +found himself, by the quick effect of it, moved another way. "Oh +that may be! But don't speak of your own exquisite daughter, you +know, as if she weren't pure perfection. I at least won't take that +from you. Mademoiselle de Vionnet," he explained, in considerable +form, to Mrs. Pocock, "IS pure perfection. Mademoiselle de Vionnet +IS exquisite." + +It had been perhaps a little portentous, but "Ah?" Sarah simply +glittered. + +Waymarsh himself, for that matter, apparently recognised, in +respect to the facts, the need of a larger justice, and he had with +it an inclination to Sarah. "Miss Jane's strikingly handsome-- +in the regular French style." + +It somehow made both Strether and Madame de Vionnet laugh out, +though at the very moment he caught in Sarah's eyes, as glancing at +the speaker, a vague but unmistakeable "You too?" It made Waymarsh +in fact look consciously over her head. Madame de Vionnet +meanwhile, however, made her point in her own way. "I wish indeed I +could offer you my poor child as a dazzling attraction: it would +make one's position simple enough! She's as good as she can be, but +of course she's different, and the question is now--in the light of +the way things seem to go--if she isn't after all TOO different: +too different I mean from the splendid type every one is so agreed +that your wonderful country produces. On the other hand of course +Mr. Newsome, who knows it so well, has, as a good friend, dear kind +man that he is, done everything he can--to keep us from fatal +benightedness--for my small shy creature. Well," she wound up after +Mrs. Pocock had signified, in a murmur still a little stiff, that +she would speak to her own young charge on the question--"well, we +shall sit, my child and I, and wait and wait and wait for you." But +her last fine turn was for Strether. "Do speak of us in such a way--!" + +"As that something can't but come of it? Oh something SHALL come of +it! I take a great interest!" he further declared; and in proof of +it, the next moment, he had gone with her down to her carriage. + + + + + +Book Ninth + + + + +I + + +"The difficulty is," Strether said to Madame de Vionnet a couple of +days later, "that I can't surprise them into the smallest sign of +his not being the same old Chad they've been for the last three +years glowering at across the sea. They simply won't give any, and +as a policy, you know--what you call a parti pris, a deep game-- +that's positively remarkable." + +It was so remarkable that our friend had pulled up before his +hostess with the vision of it; he had risen from his chair at the +end of ten minutes and begun, as a help not to worry, to move about +before her quite as he moved before Maria. He had kept his +appointment with her to the minute and had been intensely impatient, +though divided in truth between the sense of having everything +to tell her and the sense of having nothing at all. The short +interval had, in the face of their complication, multiplied his +impressions--it being meanwhile to be noted, moreover, that he +already frankly, already almost publicly, viewed the complication +as common to them. If Madame de Vionnet, under Sarah's eyes, had +pulled him into her boat, there was by this time no doubt whatever +that he had remained in it and that what he had really most been +conscious of for many hours together was the movement of the vessel +itself. They were in it together this moment as they hadn't yet +been, and he hadn't at present uttered the least of the words of +alarm or remonstrance that had died on his lips at the hotel. He +had other things to say to her than that she had put him in a +position; so quickly had his position grown to affect him as quite +excitingly, altogether richly, inevitable. That the outlook, +however--given the point of exposure--hadn't cleared up half so +much as he had reckoned was the first warning she received from him +on his arrival. She had replied with indulgence that he was in too +great a hurry, and had remarked soothingly that if she knew how to +be patient surely HE might be. He felt her presence, on the spot, +he felt her tone and everything about her, as an aid to that effort; +and it was perhaps one of the proofs of her success with him +that he seemed so much to take his ease while they talked. +By the time he had explained to her why his impressions, though +multiplied, still baffled him, it was as if he had been familiarly +talking for hours. They baffled him because Sarah--well, Sarah was +deep, deeper than she had ever yet had a chance to show herself. +He didn't say that this was partly the effect of her opening so +straight down, as it were, into her mother, and that, given +Mrs. Newsome's profundity, the shaft thus sunk might well have a reach; +but he wasn't without a resigned apprehension that, at such a rate +of confidence between the two women, he was likely soon to be moved +to show how already, at moments, it had been for him as if he were +dealing directly with Mrs. Newsome. Sarah, to a certainty, would +have begun herself to feel it in him--and this naturally put it in +her power to torment him the more. From the moment she knew he +COULD be tormented--! + +"But WHY can you be?"--his companion was surprised at his use of +the word. + +"Because I'm made so--I think of everything." + +"Ah one must never do that," she smiled. "One must think of as few +things as possible." + +"Then," he answered, "one must pick them out right. But all I mean +is--for I express myself with violence--that she's in a position to +watch me. There's an element of suspense for me, and she can see me +wriggle. But my wriggling doesn't matter," he pursued. "I can bear +it. Besides, I shall wriggle out." + +The picture at any rate stirred in her an appreciation that he felt +to be sincere. "I don't see how a man can be kinder to a woman than +you are to me." + +Well, kind was what he wanted to be; yet even while her charming +eyes rested on him with the truth of this he none the less had his +humour of honesty. "When I say suspense I mean, you know," he +laughed, "suspense about my own case too!" + +"Oh yes--about your own case too!" It diminished his magnanimity, +but she only looked at him the more tenderly. + +"Not, however," he went on, "that I want to talk to you about that. +It's my own little affair, and I mentioned it simply as part of +Mrs. Pocock's advantage." No, no; though there was a queer present +temptation in it, and his suspense was so real that to fidget was a +relief, he wouldn't talk to her about Mrs. Newsome, wouldn't work +off on her the anxiety produced in him by Sarah's calculated +omissions of reference. The effect she produced of representing her +mother had been produced--and that was just the immense, the +uncanny part of it--without her having so much as mentioned that +lady. She had brought no message, had alluded to no question, had +only answered his enquiries with hopeless limited propriety. She +had invented a way of meeting them--as if he had been a polite +perfunctory poor relation, of distant degree--that made them almost +ridiculous in him. He couldn't moreover on his own side ask much +without appearing to publish how he had lately lacked news; +a circumstance of which it was Sarah's profound policy not to betray +a suspicion. These things, all the same, he wouldn't breathe to +Madame de Vionnet--much as they might make him walk up and down. +And what he didn't say--as well as what SHE didn't, for she had +also her high decencies--enhanced the effect of his being there +with her at the end of ten minutes more intimately on the basis of +saving her than he had yet had occasion to be. It ended in fact by +being quite beautiful between them, the number of things they had a +manifest consciousness of not saying. He would have liked to turn +her, critically, to the subject of Mrs. Pocock, but he so stuck to +the line he felt to be the point of honour and of delicacy that he +scarce even asked her what her personal impression had been. +He knew it, for that matter, without putting her to trouble: +that she wondered how, with such elements, Sarah could still have +no charm, was one of the principal things she held her tongue about. +Strether would have been interested in her estimate of the elements-- +indubitably there, some of them, and to be appraised according to +taste--but he denied himself even the luxury of this diversion. The +way Madame de Vionnet affected him to-day was in itself a kind of +demonstration of the happy employment of gifts. How could a woman +think Sarah had charm who struck one as having arrived at it +herself by such different roads? On the other hand of course Sarah +wasn't obliged to have it. He felt as if somehow Madame de Vionnet +WAS. The great question meanwhile was what Chad thought of his +sister; which was naturally ushered in by that of Sarah's +apprehension of Chad. THAT they could talk of, and with a freedom +purchased by their discretion in other senses. The difficulty +however was that they were reduced as yet to conjecture. He had +given them in the day or two as little of a lead as Sarah, and +Madame de Vionnet mentioned that she hadn't seen him since his +sister's arrival. + +"And does that strike you as such an age?" + +She met it in all honesty. "Oh I won't pretend I don't miss him. +Sometimes I see him every day. Our friendship's like that. Make +what you will of it!" she whimsically smiled; a little flicker of +the kind, occasional in her, that had more than once moved him to +wonder what he might best make of HER. "But he's perfectly right," +she hastened to add, "and I wouldn't have him fail in any way at +present for the world. I'd sooner not see him for three months. +I begged him to be beautiful to them, and he fully feels it for +himself." + +Strether turned away under his quick perception; she was so odd a +mixture of lucidity and mystery. She fell in at moments with the +theory about her he most cherished, and she seemed at others to +blow it into air. She spoke now as if her art were all an +innocence, and then again as if her innocence were all an art. +"Oh he's giving himself up, and he'll do so to the end. How can he +but want, now that it's within reach, his full impression?--which is +much more important, you know, than either yours or mine. But he's +just soaking," Strether said as he came back; "he's going in +conscientiously for a saturation. I'm bound to say he IS very good." + +"Ah," she quietly replied, "to whom do you say it?" And then more +quietly still: "He's capable of anything." + +Strether more than reaffirmed--"Oh he's excellent. I more and more +like," he insisted, "to see him with them;" though the oddity of +this tone between them grew sharper for him even while they spoke. +It placed the young man so before them as the result of her +interest and the product of her genius, acknowledged so her part in +the phenomenon and made the phenomenon so rare, that more than ever +yet he might have been on the very point of asking her for some +more detailed account of the whole business than he had yet +received from her. The occasion almost forced upon him some +question as to how she had managed and as to the appearance such +miracles presented from her own singularly close place of survey. +The moment in fact however passed, giving way to more present +history, and he continued simply to mark his appreciation of the +happy truth. "It's a tremendous comfort to feel how one can trust +him." And then again while for a little she said nothing--as if +after all to HER trust there might be a special limit: "I mean for +making a good show to them." + +"Yes," she thoughtfully returned--"but if they shut their eyes +to it!" + +Strether for an instant had his own thought. "Well perhaps that +won't matter!" + +"You mean because he probably--do what they will--won't like them?" + +"Oh 'do what they will'--! They won't do much; especially if Sarah +hasn't more--well, more than one has yet made out--to give." + +Madame de Vionnet weighed it. "Ah she has all her grace!" It was a +statement over which, for a little, they could look at each other +sufficiently straight, and though it produced no protest from +Strether the effect was somehow as if he had treated it as a joke. +"She may be persuasive and caressing with him; she may be eloquent +beyond words. She may get hold of him," she wound up--"well, as +neither you nor I have." + +"Yes, she MAY"--and now Strether smiled. "But he has spent all his +time each day with Jim. He's still showing Jim round." + +She visibly wondered. "Then how about Jim?" + +Strether took a turn before he answered. "Hasn't he given you Jim? +Hasn't he before this 'done' him for you?" He was a little at a +loss. "Doesn't he tell you things?" + +She hesitated. "No"--and their eyes once more gave and took. +"Not as you do. You somehow make me see them--or at least feel them. +And I haven't asked too much," she added; "I've of late wanted so +not to worry him." + +"Ah for that, so have I," he said with encouraging assent; so that-- +as if she had answered everything--they were briefly sociable on it. +It threw him back on his other thought, with which he took another +turn; stopping again, however, presently with something of a glow. +"You see Jim's really immense. I think it will be Jim who'll do it." + +She wondered. "Get hold of him?" + +"No--just the other thing. Counteract Sarah's spell." And he +showed now, our friend, how far he had worked it out. "Jim's +intensely cynical." + +"Oh dear Jim!" Madame de Vionnet vaguely smiled. + +"Yes, literally--dear Jim! He's awful. What HE wants, heaven +forgive him, is to help us." + +"You mean"--she was eager--"help ME?" + +"Well, Chad and me in the first place. But he throws you in too, +though without as yet seeing you much. Only, so far as he does see +you--if you don't mind--he sees you as awful." + +"'Awful'?"--she wanted it all. + +"A regular bad one--though of course of a tremendously superior kind. +Dreadful, delightful, irresistible." + +"Ah dear Jim! I should like to know him. I MUST." + +"Yes, naturally. But will it do? You may, you know," Strether +suggested, "disappoint him." + +She was droll and humble about it. "I can but try. But my +wickedness then," she went on, "is my recommendation for him?" + +"Your wickedness and the charms with which, in such a degree as +yours, he associates it. He understands, you see, that Chad and I +have above all wanted to have a good time, and his view is simple +and sharp. Nothing will persuade him--in the light, that is, of my +behaviour--that I really didn't, quite as much as Chad, come over +to have one before it was too late. He wouldn't have expected it of +me; but men of my age, at Woollett--and especially the least likely +ones--have been noted as liable to strange outbreaks, belated +uncanny clutches at the unusual, the ideal. It's an effect that a +lifetime of Woollett has quite been observed as having; and I thus +give it to you, in Jim's view, for what it's worth. Now his wife +and his mother-in-law," Strether continued to explain, "have, as in +honour bound, no patience with such phenomena, late or early--which +puts Jim, as against his relatives, on the other side. Besides," he +added, "I don't think he really wants Chad back. If Chad doesn't +come--" + +"He'll have"--Madame de Vionnet quite apprehended--"more of the +free hand?" + +"Well, Chad's the bigger man." + +"So he'll work now, en dessous, to keep him quiet?" + +"No--he won't 'work' at all, and he won't do anything en dessous. +He's very decent and won't be a traitor in the camp. But he'll be +amused with his own little view of our duplicity, he'll sniff up +what he supposes to be Paris from morning till night, and he'll be, +as to the rest, for Chad--well, just what he is." + +She thought it over. "A warning?" + +He met it almost with glee. "You ARE as wonderful as everybody +says!" And then to explain all he meant: "I drove him about for his +first hour, and do you know what--all beautifully unconscious--he +most put before me? Why that something like THAT is at bottom, as +an improvement to his present state, as in fact the real redemption +of it, what they think it may not be too late to make of our +friend." With which, as, taking it in, she seemed, in her recurrent +alarm, bravely to gaze at the possibility, he completed his +statement. "But it IS too late. Thanks to you!" + +It drew from her again one of her indefinite reflexions. "Oh 'me'-- +after all!" + +He stood before her so exhilarated by his demonstration that he +could fairly be jocular. "Everything's comparative. You're better +than THAT." + +"You"--she could but answer him--"are better than anything." But +she had another thought. "WILL Mrs. Pocock come to me?" + +"Oh yes--she'll do that. As soon, that is, as my friend Waymarsh-- +HER friend now--leaves her leisure." + +She showed an interest. "Is he so much her friend as that?" + +"Why, didn't you see it all at the hotel?" + +"Oh"--she was amused--"'all' is a good deal to say. I don't know-- +I forget. I lost myself in HER." + +"You were splendid," Strether returned--"but 'all' isn't a good +deal to say: it's only a little. Yet it's charming so far as it +goes. She wants a man to herself." + +"And hasn't she got you?" + +"Do you think she looked at me--or even at you--as if she had?" +Strether easily dismissed that irony. "Every one, you see, must +strike her as having somebody. You've got Chad--and Chad has +got you." + +"I see"--she made of it what she could. "And you've got Maria." + +Well, he on his side accepted that. "I've got Maria. And Maria has +got me. So it goes." + +"But Mr. Jim--whom has he got?" + +"Oh he has got--or it's as IF he had--the whole place." + +"But for Mr. Waymarsh"--she recalled--"isn't Miss Barrace before +any one else?" + +He shook his head. "Miss Barrace is a raffinee, and her amusement +won't lose by Mrs. Pocock. It will gain rather--especially if Sarah +triumphs and she comes in for a view of it." + +"How well you know us!" Madame de Vionnet, at this, frankly sighed. + +"No--it seems to me it's we that I know. I know Sarah--it's perhaps +on that ground only that my feet are firm. Waymarsh will take her +round while Chad takes Jim--and I shall be, I assure you delighted +for both of them. Sarah will have had what she requires--she will +have paid her tribute to the ideal; and he will have done about the +same. In Paris it's in the air--so what can one do less? If there's +a point that, beyond any other, Sarah wants to make, it's that she +didn't come out to be narrow. We shall feel at least that." + +"Oh," she sighed, "the quantity we seem likely to 'feel'! But what +becomes, in these conditions, of the girl?" + +"Of Mamie--if we're all provided? Ah for that," said Strether, +"you can trust Chad." + +"To be, you mean, all right to her?" + +"To pay her every attention as soon as he has polished off Jim. +He wants what Jim can give him--and what Jim really won't--though he +has had it all, and more than all, from me. He wants in short his +own personal impression, and he'll get it--strong. But as soon as +he has got it Mamie won't suffer." + +"Oh Mamie mustn't SUFFER!" Madame de Vionnet soothingly emphasised. + +But Strether could reassure her. "Don't fear. As soon as he has +done with Jim, Jim will fall to me. And then you'll see." + +It was as if in a moment she saw already; yet she still waited. +Then "Is she really quite charming?" she asked. + +He had got up with his last words and gathered in his hat and gloves. +"I don't know; I'm watching. I'm studying the case, as it were-- +and I dare say I shall be able to tell you." + +She wondered. "Is it a case?" + +"Yes--I think so. At any rate I shall see.' + +"But haven't you known her before?" + +"Yes," he smiled--"but somehow at home she wasn't a case. +She has become one since." It was as if he made it out for himself. +"She has become one here." + +"So very very soon?" + +He measured it, laughing. "Not sooner than I did." + +"And you became one--?" + +"Very very soon. The day I arrived." + +Her intelligent eyes showed her thought of it. "Ah but the day you +arrived you met Maria. Whom has Miss Pocock met?" + +He paused again, but he brought it out. "Hasn't she met Chad?" + +"Certainly--but not for the first time. He's an old friend." At +which Strether had a slow amused significant headshake that made +her go on: "You mean that for HER at least he's a new person-- +that she sees him as different?" + +"She sees him as different." + +"And how does she see him?" + +Strether gave it up. "How can one tell how a deep little girl sees +a deep young man?" + +"Is every one so deep? Is she too?" + +"So it strikes me deeper than I thought. But wait a little--between +us we'll make it out. You'll judge for that matter yourself." + +Madame de Vionnet looked for the moment fairly bent on the chance. +"Then she WILL come with her?--I mean Mamie with Mrs. Pocock?" + +"Certainly. Her curiosity, if nothing else, will in any case work +that. But leave it all to Chad." + +"Ah," wailed Madame de Vionnet, turning away a little wearily, "the +things I leave to Chad!" + +The tone of it made him look at her with a kindness that showed his +vision of her suspense. But he fell back on his confidence. +"Oh well--trust him. Trust him all the way." He had indeed no sooner +so spoken than the queer displacement of his point of view appeared +again to come up for him in the very sound, which drew from him a +short laugh, immediately checked. He became still more advisory. +"When they do come give them plenty of Miss Jeanne. Let Mamie see +her well." + +She looked for a moment as if she placed them face to face. +"For Mamie to hate her?" + +He had another of his corrective headshakes. "Mamie won't. +Trust THEM." + +She looked at him hard, and then as if it were what she must always +come back to: "It's you I trust. But I was sincere," she said, "at +the hotel. I did, I do, want my child--" + +"Well?"--Strether waited with deference while she appeared to hesitate +as to how to put it. + +"Well, to do what she can for me." + +Strether for a little met her eyes on it; after which something +that might have been unexpected to her came from him. "Poor little +duck!" + +Not more expected for himself indeed might well have been her echo +of it. "Poor little duck! But she immensely wants herself," she +said, "to see our friend's cousin." + +"Is that what she thinks her?" + +"It's what we call the young lady." + +He thought again; then with a laugh: "Well, your daughter will +help you." + +And now at last he took leave of her, as he had been intending for +five minutes. But she went part of the way with him, accompanying +him out of the room and into the next and the next. Her noble old +apartment offered a succession of three, the first two of which +indeed, on entering, smaller than the last, but each with its faded +and formal air, enlarged the office of the antechamber and enriched +the sense of approach. Strether fancied them, liked them, and, +passing through them with her more slowly now, met a sharp renewal +of his original impression. He stopped, he looked back; the whole +thing made a vista, which he found high melancholy and sweet--full, +once more, of dim historic shades, of the faint faraway cannon-roar +of the great Empire. It was doubtless half the projection of his +mind, but his mind was a thing that, among old waxed parquets, pale +shades of pink and green, pseudo-classic candelabra, he had always +needfully to reckon with. They could easily make him irrelevant. +The oddity, the originality, the poetry--he didn't know what to +call it--of Chad's connexion reaffirmed for him its romantic side. +"They ought to see this, you know. They MUST." + +"The Pococks?"--she looked about in deprecation; she seemed to see +gaps he didn't. + +"Mamie and Sarah--Mamie in particular." + +"My shabby old place? But THEIR things--!" + +"Oh their things! You were talking of what will do something for +you--" + +"So that it strikes you," she broke in, "that my poor place may? +Oh," she ruefully mused, "that WOULD be desperate!" + +"Do you know what I wish?" he went on. "I wish Mrs. Newsome herself +could have a look." + +She stared, missing a little his logic. "It would make a +difference?" + +Her tone was so earnest that as he continued to look about he +laughed. "It might!" + +"But you've told her, you tell me--" + +"All about you? Yes, a wonderful story. But there's all the +indescribable--what one gets only on the spot." + +"Thank you!" she charmingly and sadly smiled. + +"It's all about me here," he freely continued. "Mrs. Newsome feels +things." + +But she seemed doomed always to come back to doubt. "No one feels +so much as YOU. No--not any one." + +"So much the worse then for every one. It's very easy." + +They were by this time in the antechamber, still alone together, as +she hadn't rung for a servant. The antechamber was high and square, +grave and suggestive too, a little cold and slippery even in +summer, and with a few old prints that were precious, Strether +divined, on the walls. He stood in the middle, slightly lingering, +vaguely directing his glasses, while, leaning against the door-post +of the room, she gently pressed her cheek to the side of the +recess. "YOU would have been a friend." + +"I?"--it startled him a little. + +"For the reason you say. You're not stupid." And then abruptly, as +if bringing it out were somehow founded on that fact: +"We're marrying Jeanne." + +It affected him on the spot as a move in a game, and he was even +then not without the sense that that wasn't the way Jeanne should +be married. But he quickly showed his interest, though--as quickly +afterwards struck him--with an absurd confusion of mind. "'You'? +You and--a--not Chad?" Of course it was the child's father who made +the 'we,' but to the child's father it would have cost him an +effort to allude. Yet didn't it seem the next minute that Monsieur +de Vionnet was after all not in question?--since she had gone on to +say that it was indeed to Chad she referred and that he had been in +the whole matter kindness itself. + +"If I must tell you all, it is he himself who has put us in the +way. I mean in the way of an opportunity that, so far as I can yet +see, is all I could possibly have dreamed of. For all the trouble +Monsieur de Vionnet will ever take!" It was the first time she had +spoken to him of her husband, and he couldn't have expressed how +much more intimate with her it suddenly made him feel. It wasn't +much, in truth--there were other things in what she was saying that +were far more; but it was as if, while they stood there together so +easily in these cold chambers of the past, the single touch had +shown the reach of her confidence. "But our friend," she asked, +"hasn't then told you?" + +"He has told me nothing." + +"Well, it has come with rather a rush--all in a very few days; and +hasn't moreover yet taken a form that permits an announcement. It's +only for you--absolutely you alone--that I speak; I so want you to +know." The sense he had so often had, since the first hour of his +disembarkment, of being further and further "in," treated him again +at this moment to another twinge; but in this wonderful way of her +putting him in there continued to be something exquisitely +remorseless. "Monsieur de Vionnet will accept what he MUST accept. +He has proposed half a dozen things--each one more impossible than +the other; and he wouldn't have found this if he lives to a hundred. +Chad found it," she continued with her lighted, faintly flushed, +her conscious confidential face, "in the quietest way in the world. +Or rather it found HIM--for everything finds him; I mean finds +him right. You'll think we do such things strangely--but at my age," +she smiled, "one has to accept one's conditions. Our young man's people +had seen her; one of his sisters, a charming woman--we know all +about them--had observed her somewhere with me. She had spoken +to her brother--turned him on; and we were again observed, poor Jeanne +and I, without our in the least knowing it. It was at the beginning +of the winter; it went on for some time; it outlasted our absence; it +began again on our return; and it luckily seems all right. The +young man had met Chad, and he got a friend to approach him--as +having a decent interest in us. Mr. Newsome looked well before he +leaped; he kept beautifully quiet and satisfied himself fully; then +only he spoke. It's what has for some time past occupied us. It +seems as if it were what would do; really, really all one could +wish. There are only two or three points to be settled--they depend +on her father. But this time I think we're safe." + +Strether, consciously gaping a little, had fairly hung upon her +lips. "I hope so with all my heart." And then he permitted himself: +"Does nothing depend on HER?" + +"Ah naturally; everything did. But she's pleased comme tout. She +has been perfectly free; and he--our young friend--is really a +combination. I quite adore him." + +Strether just made sure. "You mean your future son-in-law?" + +"Future if we all bring it off." + +"Ah well," said Strether decorously, "I heartily hope you may." +There seemed little else for him to say, though her communication +had the oddest effect on him. Vaguely and confusedly he was +troubled by it; feeling as if he had even himself been concerned in +something deep and dim. He had allowed for depths, but these were +greater: and it was as if, oppressively--indeed absurdly--he was +responsible for what they had now thrown up to the surface. It was-- +through something ancient and cold in it--what he would have +called the real thing. In short his hostess's news, though he +couldn't have explained why, was a sensible shock, and his +oppression a weight he felt he must somehow or other immediately +get rid of. There were too many connexions missing to make it +tolerable he should do anything else. He was prepared to suffer-- +before his own inner tribunal--for Chad; he was prepared to suffer +even for Madame de Vionnet. But he wasn't prepared to suffer for +the little girl So now having said the proper thing, he wanted to +get away. She held him an instant, however, with another appeal. + +"Do I seem to you very awful?" + +"Awful? Why so?" But he called it to himself, even as he spoke, his +biggest insincerity yet. + +"Our arrangements are so different from yours." + +"Mine?" Oh he could dismiss that too! "I haven't any arrangements." + +"Then you must accept mine; all the more that they're excellent. +They're founded on a vieille sagesse. There will be much more, if +all goes well, for you to hear and to know, and everything, believe +me, for you to like. Don't be afraid; you'll be satisfied." Thus +she could talk to him of what, of her innermost life--for that was +what it came to--he must "accept"; thus she could extraordinarily +speak as if in such an affair his being satisfied had an +importance. It was all a wonder and made the whole case larger. He +had struck himself at the hotel, before Sarah and Waymarsh, as +being in her boat; but where on earth was he now? This question was +in the air till her own lips quenched it with another. "And do you +suppose HE--who loves her so--would do anything reckless or cruel?" + +He wondered what he supposed. "Do you mean your young man--?" + +"I mean yours. I mean Mr. Newsome." It flashed for Strether the +next moment a finer light, and the light deepened as she went on. +"He takes, thank God, the truest tenderest interest in her." + +It deepened indeed. "Oh I'm sure of that!" + +"You were talking," she said, "about one's trusting him. You see +then how I do." + +He waited a moment--it all came. "I see--I see." He felt he really +did see. + +"He wouldn't hurt her for the world, nor--assuming she marries at +all--risk anything that might make against her happiness. And-- +willingly, at least--he would never hurt ME." + +Her face, with what he had by this time grasped, told him more than +her words; whether something had come into it, or whether he only read +clearer, her whole story--what at least he then took for such--reached +out to him from it. With the initiative she now attributed to Chad +it all made a sense, and this sense--a light, a lead, was what had +abruptly risen before him. He wanted, once more, to get off with +these things; which was at last made easy, a servant having, for +his assistance, on hearing voices in the hall, just come forward. +All that Strether had made out was, while the man opened the door +and impersonally waited, summed up in his last word. "I don't +think, you know, Chad will tell me anything." + +"No--perhaps not yet." + +"And I won't as yet speak to him." + +"Ah that's as you'll think best. You must judge." + +She had finally given him her hand, which he held a moment. "How +MUCH I have to judge!" + +"Everything," said Madame de Vionnet: a remark that was indeed-- +with the refined disguised suppressed passion of her face--what he +most carried away. + + + +II + + +So far as a direct approach was concerned Sarah had neglected him, +for the week now about to end, with a civil consistency of chill +that, giving him a higher idea of her social resource, threw him +back on the general reflexion that a woman could always be amazing. +It indeed helped a little to console him that he felt sure she had +for the same period also left Chad's curiosity hanging; though on +the other hand, for his personal relief, Chad could at least go +through the various motions--and he made them extraordinarily +numerous--of seeing she had a good time. There wasn't a motion on +which, in her presence, poor Strether could so much as venture, and +all he could do when he was out of it was to walk over for a talk +with Maria. He walked over of course much less than usual, but he +found a special compensation in a certain half-hour during which, +toward the close of a crowded empty expensive day, his several +companions seemed to him so disposed of as to give his forms and +usages a rest. He had been with them in the morning and had +nevertheless called on the Pococks in the afternoon; but their +whole group, he then found, had dispersed after a fashion of which +it would amuse Miss Gostrey to hear. He was sorry again, gratefully +sorry she was so out of it--she who had really put him in; but she +had fortunately always her appetite for news. The pure flame of the +disinterested burned in her cave of treasures as a lamp in a +Byzantine vault. It was just now, as happened, that for so fine a +sense as hers a near view would have begun to pay. Within three +days, precisely, the situation on which he was to report had shown +signs of an equilibrium; the effect of his look in at the hotel was +to confirm this appearance. If the equilibrium might only prevail! +Sarah was out with Waymarsh, Mamie was out with Chad, and Jim was +out alone. Later on indeed he himself was booked to Jim, was to +take him that evening to the Varieties--which Strether was careful +to pronounce as Jim pronounced them. + +Miss Gostrey drank it in. "What then to-night do the others do?" + +"Well, it has been arranged. Waymarsh takes Sarah to dine at +Bignons. + +She wondered. "And what do they do after? They can't come straight +home." + +"No, they can't come straight home--at least Sarah can't. +It's their secret, but I think I've guessed it." Then as she waited: +"The circus." + +It made her stare a moment longer, then laugh almost to +extravagance. "There's no one like you!" + +"Like ME?"--he only wanted to understand. + +"Like all of you together--like all of us: Woollett, Milrose and +their products. We're abysmal--but may we never be less so! +Mr. Newsome," she continued, "meanwhile takes Miss Pocock--?" + +"Precisely--to the Francais: to see what you took Waymarsh and me +to, a family-bill." + +"Ah then may Mr. Chad enjoy it as I did!" But she saw so much in +things. "Do they spend their evenings, your young people, like +that, alone together?" + +"Well, they're young people--but they're old friends." + +"I see, I see. And do THEY dine--for a difference--at Brebant's?" + +"Oh where they dine is their secret too. But I've my idea that it +will be, very quietly, at Chad's own place." + +"She'll come to him there alone?" + +They looked at each other a moment. "He has known her from a child. +Besides," said Strether with emphasis, "Mamie's remarkable. She's +splendid." + +She wondered. "Do you mean she expects to bring it off?" + +"Getting hold of him? No--I think not." + +"She doesn't want him enough?--or doesn't believe in her power?" +On which as he said nothing she continued: "She finds she doesn't +care for him?" + +"No--I think she finds she does. But that's what I mean by so +describing her. It's IF she does that she's splendid. But we'll +see," he wound up, "where she comes out." + +"You seem to show me sufficiently," Miss Gostrey laughed, "where +she goes in! But is her childhood's friend," she asked, "permitting +himself recklessly to flirt with her?" + +"No--not that. Chad's also splendid. They're ALL splendid!" he +declared with a sudden strange sound of wistfulness and envy. +"They're at least HAPPY." + +"Happy?"--it appeared, with their various difficulties, to surprise +her. + +"Well--I seem to myself among them the only one who isn't." + +She demurred. "With your constant tribute to the ideal?" + +He had a laugh at his tribute to the ideal, but he explained after +a moment his impression. "I mean they're living. They're rushing +about. I've already had my rushing. I'm waiting." + +"But aren't you," she asked by way of cheer, "waiting with ME?" + +He looked at her in all kindness. "Yes--if it weren't for that!" + +"And you help me to wait," she said. "However," she went on, "I've +really something for you that will help you to wait and which you +shall have in a minute. Only there's something more I want from you +first. I revel in Sarah." + +"So do I. If it weren't," he again amusedly sighed, "for THAT--!" + +"Well, you owe more to women than any man I ever saw. We do seem to +keep you going. Yet Sarah, as I see her, must be great," + +"She IS "Strether fully assented: "great! Whatever happens, she +won't, with these unforgettable days, have lived in vain." + +Miss Gostrey had a pause. "You mean she has fallen in love?" + +"I mean she wonders if she hasn't--and it serves all her purpose." + +"It has indeed," Maria laughed, "served women's purposes before!" + +"Yes--for giving in. But I doubt if the idea--as an idea--has ever +up to now answered so well for holding out. That's HER tribute to +the ideal--we each have our own. It's her romance--and it seems to +me better on the whole than mine. To have it in Paris too," he +explained--"on this classic ground, in this charged infectious air, +with so sudden an intensity: well, it's more than she expected. She +has had in short to recognise the breaking out for her of a real +affinity--and with everything to enhance the drama." + +Miss Gostrey followed. "Jim for instance?" + +"Jim. Jim hugely enhances. Jim was made to enhance. And then +Mr. Waymarsh. It's the crowning touch--it supplies the colour. +He's positively separated." + +"And she herself unfortunately isn't--that supplies the colour +too." Miss Gostrey was all there. But somehow--! "Is HE in love?" + +Strether looked at her a long time; then looked all about the room; +then came a little nearer. "Will you never tell any one in the +world as long as ever you live?" + +"Never." It was charming. + +"He thinks Sarah really is. But he has no fear," Strether hastened +to add. + +"Of her being affected by it?" + +"Of HIS being. He likes it, but he knows she can hold out. He's +helping her, he's floating her over, by kindness." + +Maria rather funnily considered it. "Floating her over in +champagne? The kindness of dining her, nose to nose, at the hour +when all Paris is crowding to profane delights, and in the--well, +in the great temple, as one hears of it, of pleasure?" + +"That's just IT, for both of them," Strether insisted--"and all of +a supreme innocence. The Parisian place, the feverish hour, the + +putting before her of a hundred francs' worth of food and drink, +which they'll scarcely touch--all that's the dear man's own +romance; the expensive kind, expensive in francs and centimes, in +which he abounds. And the circus afterwards--which is cheaper, but +which he'll find some means of making as dear as possible--that's +also HIS tribute to the ideal. It does for him. He'll see her +through. They won't talk of anything worse than you and me." + +"Well, we're bad enough perhaps, thank heaven," she laughed. "to +upset them! Mr. Waymarsh at any rate is a hideous old coquette." +And the next moment she had dropped everything for a different +pursuit. "What you don't appear to know is that Jeanne de Vionnet +has become engaged. She's to marry--it has been definitely +arranged--young Monsieur de Montbron." + +He fairly blushed. "Then--if you know it--it's 'out'?" + +"Don't I often know things that are NOT out? However," she said, +"this will be out to-morrow. But I see I've counted too much on +your possible ignorance. You've been before me, and I don't make +you jump as I hoped." + +He gave a gasp at her insight. "You never fail! I've HAD my jump. +I had it when I first heard." + +"Then if you knew why didn't you tell me as soon as you came in?" + +"Because I had it from her as a thing not yet to be spoken of." + +Miss Gostrey wondered. "From Madame de Vionnet herself?" + +"As a probability--not quite a certainty: a good cause in which +Chad has been working. So I've waited." + +"You need wait no longer," she returned. "It reached me yesterday-- +roundabout and accidental, but by a person who had had it from one +of the young man's own people--as a thing quite settled. I was only +keeping it for you." + +"You thought Chad wouldn't have told me?" + +She hesitated. "Well, if he hasn't--" + +"He hasn't. And yet the thing appears to have been practically his +doing. So there we are." + +"There we are!" Maria candidly echoed. + +"That's why I jumped. I jumped," he continued to explain, "because +it means, this disposition of the daughter, that there's now +nothing else: nothing else but him and the mother." + +"Still--it simplifies." + +"It simplifies"--he fully concurred. "But that's precisely where we +are. It marks a stage in his relation. The act is his answer to +Mrs. Newsome's demonstration." + +"It tells," Maria asked, "the worst?" + +"The worst." + +"But is the worst what he wants Sarah to know?" + +"He doesn't care for Sarah." + +At which Miss Gostrey's eyebrows went up. "You mean she has already +dished herself?" + +Strether took a turn about; he had thought it out again and again +before this, to the end; but the vista seemed each time longer. "He +wants his good friend to know the best. I mean the measure of his +attachment. She asked for a sign, and he thought of that one. There +it is." + +"A concession to her jealousy?" + +Strether pulled up. "Yes--call it that. Make it lurid--for that +makes my problem richer." + +"Certainly, let us have it lurid--for I quite agree with you that +we want none of our problems poor. But let us also have it clear. +Can he, in the midst of such a preoccupation, or on the heels of +it, have seriously cared for Jeanne?--cared, I mean, as a young man +at liberty would have cared?" + +Well, Strether had mastered it. "I think he can have thought it +would be charming if he COULD care. It would be nicer." + +"Nicer than being tied up to Marie?" + +"Yes--than the discomfort of an attachment to a person he can never +hope, short of a catastrophe, to marry. And he was quite right," +said Strether. "It would certainly have been nicer. Even when a +thing's already nice there mostly is some other thing that would +have been nicer--or as to which we wonder if it wouldn't. But his +question was all the same a dream. He COULDn't care in that way. He +IS tied up to Marie. The relation is too special and has gone too +far. It's the very basis, and his recent lively contribution toward +establishing Jeanne in life has been his definite and final +acknowledgement to Madame de Vionnet that he has ceased squirming. +I doubt meanwhile," he went on, "if Sarah has at all directly +attacked him." + +His companion brooded. "But won't he wish for his own satisfaction +to make his ground good to her?" + +"No--he'll leave it to me, he'll leave everything to me. I 'sort +of' feel"--he worked it out--"that the whole thing will come upon +me. Yes, I shall have every inch and every ounce of it. I shall be +USED for it--!" And Strether lost himself in the prospect. Then he +fancifully expressed the issue. "To the last drop of my blood." + +Maria, however, roundly protested. "Ah you'll please keep a drop +for ME. I shall have a use for it!"--which she didn't however +follow up. She had come back the next moment to another matter. +"Mrs. Pocock, with her brother, is trusting only to her general +charm?" + +"So it would seem." + +"And the charm's not working?" + +Well, Strether put it otherwise, "She's sounding the note of home-- +which is the very best thing she can do." + +"The best for Madame de Vionnet?" + +"The best for home itself. The natural one; the right one." + +"Right," Maria asked, "when it fails?" + +Strether had a pause. "The difficulty's Jim. Jim's the note of +home." + +She debated. "Ah surely not the note of Mrs. Newsome." + +But he had it all. "The note of the home for which Mrs. Newsome +wants him--the home of the business. Jim stands, with his little +legs apart, at the door of THAT tent; and Jim is, frankly speaking, +extremely awful." + +Maria stared. "And you in, you poor thing, for your evening with +him?" + +"Oh he's all right for ME!" Strether laughed. "Any one's good +enough for ME. But Sarah shouldn't, all the same, have brought him. +She doesn't appreciate him." + +His friend was amused with this statement of it. "Doesn't know, you +mean, how bad he is?" + +Strether shook his head with decision. "Not really." + +She wondered. "Then doesn't Mrs. Newsome?" + +It made him frankly do the same. "Well, no--since you ask me." + +Maria rubbed it in. "Not really either?" + +"Not at all. She rates him rather high." With which indeed, +immediately, he took himself up. "Well, he IS good too, in his way. +It depends on what you want him for." + +Miss Gostrey, however, wouldn't let it depend on anything--wouldn't +have it, and wouldn't want him, at any price. "It suits my book," +she said, "that he should be impossible; and it suits it still +better," she more imaginatively added, "that Mrs. Newsome doesn't +know he is." + +Strether, in consequence, had to take it from her, but he fell back +on something else. "I'll tell you who does really know." + +"Mr. Waymarsh? Never!" + +"Never indeed. I'm not ALWAYS thinking of Mr. Waymarsh; in fact I +find now I never am." Then he mentioned the person as if there were +a good deal in it. "Mamie." + +"His own sister?" Oddly enough it but let her down. "What good will +that do?" + +"None perhaps. But there--as usual--we are!" + + + +III + + +There they were yet again, accordingly, for two days more; when +Strether, on being, at Mrs. Pocock's hotel, ushered into that +lady's salon, found himself at first assuming a mistake on the part +of the servant who had introduced him and retired. The occupants +hadn't come in, for the room looked empty as only a room can look +in Paris, of a fine afternoon when the faint murmur of the huge +collective life, carried on out of doors, strays among scattered +objects even as a summer air idles in a lonely garden. Our friend +looked about and hesitated; observed, on the evidence of a table +charged with purchases and other matters, that Sarah had become +possessed--by no aid from HIM--of the last number of the +salmon-coloured Revue; noted further that Mamie appeared to have +received a present of Fromentin's "Maitres d'Autrefois" from Chad, +who had written her name on the cover; and pulled up at the sight of +a heavy letter addressed in a hand he knew. This letter, forwarded +by a banker and arriving in Mrs. Pocock's absence, had been placed +in evidence, and it drew from the fact of its being unopened a sudden +queer power to intensify the reach of its author. It brought home +to him the scale on which Mrs. Newsome--for she had been copious +indeed this time--was writing to her daughter while she kept HIM in +durance; and it had altogether such an effect upon him as made him +for a few minutes stand still and breathe low. In his own room, at +his own hotel, he had dozens of well-filled envelopes superscribed +in that character; and there was actually something in the renewal +of his interrupted vision of the character that played straight +into the so frequent question of whether he weren't already +disinherited beyond appeal. It was such an assurance as the sharp +downstrokes of her pen hadn't yet had occasion to give him; but +they somehow at the present crisis stood for a probable +absoluteness in any decree of the writer. He looked at Sarah's name +and address, in short, as if he had been looking hard into her +mother's face, and then turned from it as if the face had declined +to relax. But since it was in a manner as if Mrs. Newsome were +thereby all the more, instead of the less, in the room, and were +conscious, sharply and sorely conscious, of himself, so he felt +both held and hushed, summoned to stay at least and take his +punishment. By staying, accordingly, he took it--creeping softly +and vaguely about and waiting for Sarah to come in. She WOULD come +in if he stayed long enough, and he had now more than ever the +sense of her success in leaving him a prey to anxiety. It wasn't to +be denied that she had had a happy instinct, from the point of view +of Woollett, in placing him thus at the mercy of her own initiative. +It was very well to try to say he didn't care--that she might +break ground when she would, might never break it at all if she +wouldn't, and that he had no confession whatever to wait upon her +with: he breathed from day to day an air that damnably required +clearing, and there were moments when he quite ached to precipitate +that process. He couldn't doubt that, should she only oblige him by +surprising him just as he then was, a clarifying scene of some sort +would result from the concussion. + +He humbly circulated in this spirit till he suddenly had a fresh +arrest. Both the windows of the room stood open to the balcony, but +it was only now that, in the glass of the leaf of one of them, +folded back, he caught a reflexion quickly recognised as the colour +of a lady's dress. Somebody had been then all the while on the +balcony, and the person, whoever it might be, was so placed between +the windows as to be hidden from him; while on the other hand the +many sounds of the street had covered his own entrance and +movements. If the person were Sarah he might on the spot therefore +be served to his taste. He might lead her by a move or two up to +the remedy for his vain tension; as to which, should he get nothing +else from it, he would at least have the relief of pulling down the +roof on their heads. There was fortunately no one at hand to +observe--in respect to his valour--that even on this completed +reasoning he still hung fire. He had been waiting for Mrs. Pocock +and the sound of the oracle; but he had to gird himself afresh-- +which he did in the embrasure of the window, neither advancing nor +retreating--before provoking the revelation. It was apparently for +Sarah to come more into view; he was in that case there at her +service. She did however, as meanwhile happened, come more into +view; only she luckily came at the last minute as a contradiction +of Sarah. The occupant of the balcony was after all quite another +person, a person presented, on a second look, by a charming back +and a slight shift of her position, as beautiful brilliant +unconscious Mamie--Mamie alone at home, Mamie passing her time in +her own innocent way, Mamie in short rather shabbily used, but +Mamie absorbed interested and interesting. With her arms on the +balustrade and her attention dropped to the street she allowed +Strether to watch her, to consider several things, without her +turning round. + +But the oddity was that when he HAD so watched and considered he +simply stepped back into the room without following up his +advantage. He revolved there again for several minutes, quite as +with something new to think of and as if the bearings of the +possibility of Sarah had been superseded. For frankly, yes, it HAD +bearings thus to find the girl in solitary possession. There was +something in it that touched him to a point not to have been +reckoned beforehand, something that softly but quite pressingly +spoke to him, and that spoke the more each time he paused again at +the edge of the balcony and saw her still unaware. Her companions +were plainly scattered; Sarah would be off somewhere with Waymarsh +and Chad off somewhere with Jim. Strether didn't at all mentally +impute to Chad that he was with his "good friend"; he gave him the +benefit of supposing him involved in appearances that, had he had +to describe them--for instance to Maria--he would have conveniently +qualified as more subtle. It came to him indeed the next thing that +there was perhaps almost an excess of refinement in having left +Mamie in such weather up there alone; however she might in fact +have extemporised, under the charm of the Rue de Rivoli, a little +makeshift Paris of wonder arid fancy. Our friend in any case now +recognised--and it was as if at the recognition Mrs. Newsome's +fixed intensity had suddenly, with a deep audible gasp, grown thin +and vague--that day after day he had been conscious in respect to +his young lady of something odd and ambiguous, yet something into +which he could at last read a meaning. It had been at the most, +this mystery, an obsession--oh an obsession agreeable; and it had +just now fallen into its place as at the touch of a spring. It had +represented the possibility between them of some communication +baffled by accident and delay--the possibility even of some +relation as yet unacknowledged. + +There was always their old relation, the fruit of the Woollett +years; but that--and it was what was strangest--had nothing +whatever in common with what was now in the air. As a child, as a +"bud," and then again as a flower of expansion, Mamie had bloomed +for him, freely, in the almost incessantly open doorways of home; +where he remembered her as first very forward, as then very +backward--for he had carried on at one period, in Mrs. Newsome's +parlours (oh Mrs. Newsome's phases and his own!) a course of +English Literature re-enforced by exams and teas--and once more, +finally, as very much in advance. But he had kept no great sense of +points of contact; it not being in the nature of things at Woollett +that the freshest of the buds should find herself in the same +basket with the most withered of the winter apples. The child had +given sharpness, above all, to his sense of the flight of time; it +was but the day before yesterday that he had tripped up on her +hoop, yet his experience of remarkable women--destined, it would +seem, remarkably to grow--felt itself ready this afternoon, quite +braced itself, to include her. She had in fine more to say to him +than he had ever dreamed the pretty girl of the moment COULD have; +and the proof of the circumstance was that, visibly, unmistakeably, +she had been able to say it to no one else. It was something she +could mention neither to her brother, to her sister-in-law nor to +Chad; though he could just imagine that had she still been at home +she might have brought it out, as a supreme tribute to age, +authority and attitude, for Mrs. Newsome. It was moreover something +in which they all took an interest; the strength of their interest +was in truth just the reason of her prudence. All this then, for +five minutes, was vivid to Strether, and it put before him that, +poor child, she had now but her prudence to amuse her. That, for a +pretty girl in Paris, struck him, with a rush, as a sorry state; so +that under the impression he went out to her with a step as +hypocritically alert, he was well aware, as if he had just come +into the room. She turned with a start at his voice; preoccupied +with him though she might be, she was just a scrap disappointed. +"Oh I thought you were Mr. Bilham!" + +The remark had been at first surprising and our friend's private +thought, under the influence of it, temporarily blighted; yet we +are able to add that he presently recovered his inward tone and +that many a fresh flower of fancy was to bloom in the same air. +Little Bilham--since little Bilham was, somewhat incongruously, +expected--appeared behindhand; a circumstance by which Strether was +to profit. They came back into the room together after a little, +the couple on the balcony, and amid its crimson-and-gold elegance, +with the others still absent, Strether passed forty minutes that he +appraised even at the time as far, in the whole queer connexion, +from his idlest. Yes indeed, since he had the other day so agreed +with Maria about the inspiration of the lurid, here was something +for his problem that surely didn't make it shrink and that was +floated in upon him as part of a sudden flood. He was doubtless not +to know till afterwards, on turning them over in thought, of how +many elements his impression was composed; but he none the less +felt, as he sat with the charming girl, the signal growth of a +confidence. For she WAS charming, when all was said--and none the +less so for the visible habit and practice of freedom and fluency. +She was charming, he was aware, in spite of the fact that if he +hadn't found her so he would have found her something he should +have been in peril of expressing as "funny." Yes, she was funny, +wonderful Mamie, and without dreaming it; she was bland, she was +bridal--with never, that he could make out as yet, a bridegroom to +support it; she was handsome and portly and easy and chatty, soft +and sweet and almost disconcertingly reassuring. She was dressed, +if we might so far discriminate, less as a young lady than as an +old one--had an old one been supposable to Strether as so committed +to vanity; the complexities of her hair missed moreover also the +looseness of youth; and she had a mature manner of bending a +little, as to encourage and reward, while she held neatly together +in front of her a pair of strikingly polished hands: the +combination of all of which kept up about her the glamour of her +"receiving," placed her again perpetually between the windows and +within sound of the ice-cream plates, suggested the enumeration of +all the names, all the Mr. Brookses and Mr. Snookses, gregarious +specimens of a single type. she was happy to "meet." But if all +this was where she was funny, and if what was funnier than the rest +was the contrast between her beautiful benevolent patronage--such a +hint of the polysyllabic as might make her something of a bore +toward middle age--and her rather flat little voice, the voice, +naturally, unaffectedly yet, of a girl of fifteen; so Strether, +none the less, at the end of ten minutes, felt in her a quiet +dignity that pulled things bravely together. If quiet dignity, +almost more than matronly, with voluminous, too voluminous clothes, +was the effect she proposed to produce, that was an ideal one could +like in her when once one had got into relation. The great thing +now for her visitor was that this was exactly what he had done; it +made so extraordinary a mixture of the brief and crowded hour. It +was the mark of a relation that he had begun so quickly to find +himself sure she was, of all people, as might have been said, on +the side and of the party of Mrs. Newsome's original ambassador. +She was in HIS interest and not in Sarah's, and some sign of that +was precisely what he had been feeling in her, these last days, as +imminent. Finally placed, in Paris, in immediate presence of the +situation and of the hero of it--by whom Strether was incapable of +meaning any one but Chad--she had accomplished, and really in a +manner all unexpected to herself, a change of base; deep still +things had come to pass within her, and by the time she had grown +sure of them Strether had become aware of the little drama. When +she knew where she was, in short, he had made it out; and he made +it out at present still better; though with never a direct word +passing between them all the while on the subject of his own +predicament. There had been at first, as he sat there with her, a +moment during which he wondered if she meant to break ground in +respect to his prime undertaking. That door stood so strangely ajar +that he was half-prepared to be conscious, at any juncture, of her +having, of any one's having, quite bounced in. But, friendly, +familiar, light of touch and happy of tact, she exquisitely stayed +out; so that it was for all the world as if to show she could deal +with him without being reduced to--well, scarcely anything. + +It fully came up for them then, by means of their talking of +everything BUT Chad, that Mamie, unlike Sarah, unlike Jim, knew +perfectly what had become of him. It fully came up that she had +taken to the last fraction of an inch the measure of the change in +him, and that she wanted Strether to know what a secret she +proposed to make of it. They talked most conveniently--as if they +had had no chance yet--about Woollett; and that had virtually the +effect of their keeping the secret more close. The hour took on for +Strether, little by little, a queer sad sweetness of quality, he +had such a revulsion in Mamie's favour and on behalf of her social +value as might have come from remorse at some early injustice. She +made him, as under the breath of some vague western whiff, homesick +and freshly restless; he could really for the time have fancied +himself stranded with her on a far shore, during an ominous calm, +in a quaint community of shipwreck. Their little interview was like +a picnic on a coral strand; they passed each other, with melancholy +smiles and looks sufficiently allusive, such cupfuls of water as +they had saved. Especially sharp in Strether meanwhile was the +conviction that his companion really knew, as we have hinted, where +she had come out. It was at a very particular place--only THAT she +would never tell him; it would be above all what he should have to +puzzle for himself. This was what he hoped for, because his interest +in the girl wouldn't be complete without it. No more would the +appreciation to which she was entitled--so assured was he that +the more he saw of her process the more he should see of her pride. +She saw, herself, everything; but she knew what she didn't want, +and that it was that had helped her. What didn't she want?--there +was a pleasure lost for her old friend in not yet knowing, as there +would doubtless be a thrill in getting a glimpse. Gently and +sociably she kept that dark to him, and it was as if she soothed +and beguiled him in other ways to make up for it. She came out with +her impression of Madame de Vionnet--of whom she had "heard so +much"; she came out with her impression of Jeanne, whom she had +been "dying to see": she brought it out with a blandness by which +her auditor was really stirred that she had been with Sarah early +that very afternoon, and after dreadful delays caused by all sorts +of things, mainly, eternally, by the purchase of clothes--clothes +that unfortunately wouldn't be themselves eternal--to call in the +Rue de Bellechasse. + +At the sound of these names Strether almost blushed to feel that he +couldn't have sounded them first--and yet couldn't either have +justified his squeamishness. Mamie made them easy as he couldn't +have begun to do, and yet it could only have cost her more than he +should ever have had to spend. It was as friends of Chad's, friends +special, distinguished, desirable, enviable, that she spoke of +them, and she beautifully carried it off that much as she had heard +of them--though she didn't say how or where, which was a touch of +her own--she had found them beyond her supposition. She abounded in +praise of them, and after the manner of Woollett--which made the +manner of Woollett a loveable thing again to Strether. He had never +so felt the true inwardness of it as when his blooming companion +pronounced the elder of the ladies of the Rue de Bellechasse too +fascinating for words and declared of the younger that she was +perfectly ideal, a real little monster of charm. "Nothing," she said +of Jeanne, "ought ever to happen to her--she's so awfully right as +she is. Another touch will spoil her--so she oughtn't to BE touched." + +"Ah but things, here in Paris," Strether observed, "do happen to +little girls." And then for the joke's and the occasion's sake: +"Haven't you found that yourself?" + +"That things happen--? Oh I'm not a little girl. I'm a big +battered blowsy one. I don't care," Mamie laughed, "WHAT happens." + +Strether had a pause while he wondered if it mightn't happen that +he should give her the pleasure of learning that he found her nicer +than he had really dreamed--a pause that ended when he had said to +himself that, so far as it at all mattered for her, she had in fact +perhaps already made this out. He risked accordingly a different +question--though conscious, as soon as he had spoken, that he +seemed to place it in relation to her last speech. "But that +Mademoiselle de Vionnet is to be married--I suppose you've heard of +THAT." +For all, he then found, he need fear! "Dear, yes; the gentleman +was there: Monsieur de Montbron, whom Madame de Vionnet +presented to us." + +"And was he nice?" + +Mamie bloomed and bridled with her best reception manner. "Any +man's nice when he's in love." + +It made Strether laugh. "But is Monsieur de Montbron in love-- +already--with YOU?" + +"Oh that's not necessary--it's so much better he should be so with +HER: which, thank goodness, I lost no time in discovering for +myself. He's perfectly gone--and I couldn't have borne it for her +if he hadn't been. She's just too sweet." + +Strether hesitated. "And through being in love too?" + +On which with a smile that struck him as wonderful Mamie had a +wonderful answer. "She doesn't know if she is or not." + +It made him again laugh out. "Oh but YOU do!" + +She was willing to take it that way. "Oh yes, I know everything." +And as she sat there rubbing her polished hands and making the best +of it--only holding her elbows perhaps a little too much out--the +momentary effect for Strether was that every one else, in all their +affair, seemed stupid. + +"Know that poor little Jeanne doesn't know what's the matter with +her?" + +It was as near as they came to saying that she was probably in love +with Chad; but it was quite near enough for what Strether wanted; +which was to be confirmed in his certitude that, whether in love or +not, she appealed to something large and easy in the girl before +him. Mamie would be fat, too fat, at thirty; but she would always +be the person who, at the present sharp hour, had been +disinterestedly tender. "If I see a little more of her, as I hope +I shall, I think she'll like me enough--for she seemed to like me +to-day--to want me to tell her." + +"And SHALL you?" + +"Perfectly. I shall tell her the matter with her is that she wants +only too much to do right. To do right for her, naturally," said +Mamie, "is to please." + +"Her mother, do you mean?" + +"Her mother first." + +Strether waited. "And then?" + +"Well, 'then'--Mr. Newsome." + +There was something really grand for him in the serenity of this +reference. "And last only Monsieur de Montbron?" + +"Last only"--she good-humouredly kept it up. + +Strether considered. "So that every one after all then will be +suited?" + +She had one of her few hesitations, but it was a question only of a +moment; and it was her nearest approach to being explicit with him +about what was between them. "I think I can speak for myself. I +shall be." + +It said indeed so much, told such a story of her being ready to +help him, so committed to him that truth, in short, for such use as +he might make of it toward those ends of his own with which, +patiently and trustfully, she had nothing to do--it so fully +achieved all this that he appeared to himself simply to meet it in +its own spirit by the last frankness of admiration. Admiration was +of itself almost accusatory, but nothing less would serve to show +her how nearly he understood. He put out his hand for good-bye +with a "Splendid, splendid, splendid!" And he left her, in her +splendour, still waiting for little Bilham. + + + + + +Book Tenth + + + + +I + + +Strether occupied beside little Bilham, three evenings after his +interview with Mamie Pocock, the same deep divan they had enjoyed +together on the first occasion of our friend's meeting Madame de +Vionnet and her daughter in the apartment of the Boulevard +Malesherbes, where his position affirmed itself again as ministering +to an easy exchange of impressions. The present evening had a +different stamp; if the company was much more numerous, so, +inevitably, were the ideas set in motion. It was on the other +hand, however, now strongly marked that the talkers moved, +in respect to such matters, round an inner, a protected circle. +They knew at any rate what really concerned them to-night, and +Strether had begun by keeping his companion close to it. +Only a few of Chad's guests had dined--that is fifteen or twenty, +a few compared with the large concourse offered to sight by eleven +o'clock; but number and mass, quantity and quality, light, +fragrance, sound, the overflow of hospitality meeting the high tide +of response, had all from the first pressed upon Strether's +consciousness, and he felt himself somehow part and parcel of the +most festive scene, as the term was, in which he had ever in his +life been engaged. He had perhaps seen, on Fourths of July and on +dear old domestic Commencements, more people assembled, but he had +never seen so many in proportion to the space, or had at all events +never known so great a promiscuity to show so markedly as picked. +Numerous as was the company, it had still been made so by +selection, and what was above all rare for Strether was that, by no +fault of his own, he was in the secret of the principle that had +worked. He hadn't enquired, he had averted his head, but Chad had +put him a pair of questions that themselves smoothed the ground. +He hadn't answered the questions, he had replied that they were +the young man's own affair; and he had then seen perfectly that the +latter's direction was already settled. + +Chad had applied for counsel only by way of intimating that he knew +what to do; and he had clearly never known it better than in now +presenting to his sister the whole circle of his society. This was +all in the sense and the spirit of the note struck by him on that +lady's arrival; he had taken at the station itself a line that led +him without a break, and that enabled him to lead the Pococks-- +though dazed a little, no doubt, breathless, no doubt, and +bewildered--to the uttermost end of the passage accepted by them +perforce as pleasant. He had made it for them violently pleasant +and mercilessly full; the upshot of which was, to Strether's +vision, that they had come all the way without discovering it to be +really no passage at all. It was a brave blind alley, where to +pass was impossible and where, unless they stuck fast, they would +have--which was always awkward--publicly to back out. They were +touching bottom assuredly tonight; the whole scene represented the +terminus of the cul-de-sac. So could things go when there was a +hand to keep them consistent--a hand that pulled the wire with a +skill at which the elder man more and more marvelled. The elder +man felt responsible, but he also felt successful, since what had +taken place was simply the issue of his own contention, six weeks +before, that they properly should wait to see what their friends +would have really to say. He had determined Chad to wait, he had +determined him to see; he was therefore not to quarrel with the +time given up to the business. As much as ever, accordingly, now +that a fortnight had elapsed, the situation created for Sarah, and +against which she had raised no protest, was that of her having +accommodated herself to her adventure as to a pleasure-party +surrendered perhaps even somewhat in excess to bustle and to +"pace." If her brother had been at any point the least bit open to +criticism it might have been on the ground of his spicing the +draught too highly and pouring the cup too full. Frankly treating +the whole occasion of the presence of his relatives as an +opportunity for amusement, he left it, no doubt, but scant margin +as an opportunity for anything else. He suggested, invented, +abounded--yet all the while with the loosest easiest rein. +Strether, during his own weeks, had gained a sense of knowing +Paris; but he saw it afresh, and with fresh emotion, in the form of +the knowledge offered to his colleague. + +A thousand unuttered thoughts hummed for him in the air of these +observations; not the least frequent of which was that Sarah might +well of a truth not quite know whither she was drifting. She was +in no position not to appear to expect that Chad should treat her +handsomely; yet she struck our friend as privately stiffening a +little each time she missed the chance of marking the great nuance. +The great nuance was in brief that of course her brother must treat +her handsomely--she should like to see him not; but that treating +her handsomely, none the less, wasn't all in all--treating her +handsomely buttered no parsnips; and that in fine there were +moments when she felt the fixed eyes of their admirable absent +mother fairly screw into the flat of her back. Strether, watching, +after his habit, and overscoring with thought, positively had +moments of his own in which he found himself sorry for her-- +occasions on which she affected him as a person seated in a runaway +vehicle and turning over the question of a possible jump. WOULD +she jump, could she, would THAT be a safe placed--this question, at +such instants, sat for him in her lapse into pallor, her tight +lips, her conscious eyes. It came back to the main point at issue: +would she be, after all, to be squared? He believed on the whole +she would jump; yet his alternations on this subject were the more +especial stuff of his suspense. One thing remained well before +him--a conviction that was in fact to gain sharpness from the +impressions of this evening: that if she SHOULD gather in her +skirts, close her eyes and quit the carriage while in motion, he +would promptly enough become aware. She would alight from her +headlong course more or less directly upon him; it would be +appointed to him, unquestionably, to receive her entire weight. +Signs and portents of the experience thus in reserve for him had as +it happened, multiplied even through the dazzle of Chad's party. +It was partly under the nervous consciousness of such a prospect +that, leaving almost every one in the two other rooms, leaving +those of the guests already known to him as well as a mass of +brilliant strangers of both sexes and of several varieties of +speech, he had desired five quiet minutes with little Bilham, whom +he always found soothing and even a little inspiring, and to whom +he had actually moreover something distinct and important to say. + +He had felt of old--for it already seemed long ago--rather +humiliated at discovering he could learn in talk with a personage +so much his junior the lesson of a certain moral ease; but he had +now got used to that--whether or no the mixture of the fact with +other humiliations had made it indistinct, whether or no directly +from little Bilham's example, the example of his being contentedly +just the obscure and acute little Bilham he was. It worked so for +him, Strether seemed to see; and our friend had at private hours a +wan smile over the fact that he himself, after so many more years, +was still in search of something that would work. However, as we +have said, it worked just now for them equally to have found a +corner a little apart. What particularly kept it apart was the +circumstance that the music in the salon was admirable, with two or +three such singers as it was a privilege to hear in private. Their +presence gave a distinction to Chad's entertainment, and the +interest of calculating their effect on Sarah was actually so sharp +as to be almost painful. Unmistakeably, in her single person, the +motive of the composition and dressed in a splendour of crimson +which affected Strether as the sound of a fall through a skylight, +she would now be in the forefront of the listening circle and +committed by it up to her eyes. Those eyes during the wonderful +dinner itself he hadn't once met; having confessedly--perhaps a +little pusillanimously--arranged with Chad that he should be on the +same side of the table. But there was no use in having arrived now +with little Bilham at an unprecedented point of intimacy unless he +could pitch everything into the pot. "You who sat where you could +see her, what does she make of it all? By which I mean on what +terms does she take it?" + +"Oh she takes it, I judge, as proving that the claim of his family +is more than ever justified " + +"She isn't then pleased with what he has to show?" + +"On the contrary; she's pleased with it as with his capacity to do +this kind of thing--more than she has been pleased with anything +for a long time. But she wants him to show it THERE. He has no +right to waste it on the likes of us." + +Strether wondered. "She wants him to move the whole thing over?" + +"The whole thing--with an important exception. Everything he has +'picked up'--and the way he knows how. She sees no difficulty in +that. She'd run the show herself, and she'll make the handsome +concession that Woollett would be on the whole in some ways the +better for it. Not that it wouldn't be also in some ways the +better for Woollett. The people there are just as good." + +"Just as good as you and these others? Ah that may be. But such +an occasion as this, whether or no," Strether said, "isn't the +people. It's what has made the people possible." + +"Well then," his friend replied, "there you are; I give you my +impression for what it's worth. Mrs. Pocock has SEEN, and that's +to-night how she sits there. If you were to have a glimpse of her +face you'd understand me. She has made up her mind--to the sound +of expensive music." + +Strether took it freely in. "Ah then I shall have news of her." + +"I don't want to frighten you, but I think that likely. However," + +little Bilham continued, "if I'm of the least use to you to hold on +by--!" + +"You're not of the least!"--and Strether laid an appreciative hand +on him to say it. "No one's of the least." With which, to mark how +gaily he could take it, he patted his companion's knee. "I must +meet my fate alone, and I SHALL--oh you'll see! And yet," he +pursued the next moment, "you CAN help me too. You once said to +me"--he followed this further--"that you held Chad should marry. +I didn't see then so well as I know now that you meant he should +marry Miss Pocock. Do you still consider that he should? Because +if you do"--he kept it up--"I want you immediately to change your +mind. You can help me that way." + +"Help you by thinking he should NOT marry?" + +"Not marry at all events Mamie." + +"And who then?" + +"Ah," Strether returned, "that I'm not obliged to say. But Madame +de Vionnet--I suggest--when he can.' + +"Oh!" said little Bilham with some sharpness. + +"Oh precisely! But he needn't marry at all--I'm at any rate not +obliged to provide for it. Whereas in your case I rather feel that +I AM." + +Little Bilham was amused. "Obliged to provide for my marrying?" + +"Yes--after all I've done to you!" + +The young man weighed it. "Have you done as much as that?" + +"Well," said Strether, thus challenged, "of course I must remember +what you've also done to ME. We may perhaps call it square. But +all the same," he went on, "I wish awfully you'd marry Mamie Pocock +yourself." + +Little Bilham laughed out. "Why it was only the other night, in +this very place, that you were proposing to me a different union +altogether." + +''Mademoiselle de Vionnet?" Well, Strether easily confessed it. +"That, I admit, was a vain image. THIS is practical politics. +I want to do something good for both of you--I wish you each so well; +and you can see in a moment the trouble it will save me to polish +you off by the same stroke. She likes you, you know. You console +her. And she's splendid." + +Little Bilham stared as a delicate appetite stares at an overheaped +plate. "What do I console her for?" + +It just made his friend impatient. "Oh come, you knows" + +"And what proves for you that she likes me?" + +"Why the fact that I found her three days ago stopping at home +alone all the golden afternoon on the mere chance that you'd come +to her, and hanging over her balcony on that of seeing your cab +drive up. I don't know what you want more." + +Little Bilham after a moment found it. "Only just to know what +proves to you that I like HER." + +"Oh if what I've just mentioned isn't enough to make you do it, +you're a stony-hearted little fiend. Besides"--Strether encouraged +his fancy's flight--"you showed your inclination in the way you +kept her waiting, kept her on purpose to see if she cared enough +for you." + +His companion paid his ingenuity the deference of a pause. "I didn't +keep her waiting. I came at the hour. I wouldn't have kept her +waiting for the world," the young man honourably declared. + +"Better still--then there you are!" And Strether, charmed, held +him the faster. "Even if you didn't do her justice, moreover," he +continued, "I should insist on your immediately coming round to it. +I want awfully to have worked it. I want"--and our friend spoke +now with a yearning that was really earnest--"at least to have done +THAT." + +"To have married me off--without a penny?" + +"Well, I shan't live long; and I give you my word, now and here, +that I'll leave you every penny of my own. I haven't many, +unfortunately, but you shall have them all. And Miss Pocock, I +think, has a few. I want," Strether went on, "to have been at +least to that extent constructive even expiatory. I've been +sacrificing so to strange gods that I feel I want to put on record, +somehow, my fidelity--fundamentally unchanged after all--to our +own. I feel as if my hands were embrued with the blood of +monstrous alien altars--of another faith altogether. There it is-- +it's done." And then he further explained. "It took hold of me +because the idea of getting her quite out of the way for Chad +helps to clear my ground." + +The young man, at this, bounced about, and it brought them face to +face in admitted amusement. "You want me to marry as a convenience +to Chad?" + +"No," Strether debated--"HE doesn't care whether you marry or not. +It's as a convenience simply to my own plan FOR him." + +"'Simply'!"--and little Bilham's concurrence was in itself a lively +comment. "Thank you. But I thought," he continued, "you had +exactly NO plan 'for' him." + +"Well then call it my plan for myself--which may be well, as you +say, to have none. His situation, don't you see? is reduced now to +the bare facts one has to recognise. Mamie doesn't want him, and +he doesn't want Mamie: so much as that these days have made +clear. It's a thread we can wind up and tuck in." + +But little Bilham still questioned. "YOU can--since you seem so +much to want to. But why should I?" + +Poor Strether thought it over, but was obliged of course to admit +that his demonstration did superficially fail. "Seriously, there +is no reason. It's my affair--I must do it alone. I've only my +fantastic need of making my dose stiff." + +Little Bilham wondered. "What do you call your dose?" + +"Why what I have to swallow. I want my conditions unmitigated." + +He had spoken in the tone of talk for talk's sake, and yet with an +obscure truth lurking in the loose folds; a circumstance presently +not without its effect on his young friend. Little Bilham's eyes +rested on him a moment with some intensity; then suddenly, as if +everything had cleared up, he gave a happy laugh. It seemed to say +that if pretending, or even trying, or still even hoping, to be +able to care for Mamie would be of use, he was all there for the +job. "I'll do anything in the world for you!" + +"Well," Strether smiled, "anything in the world is all I want. I +don't know anything that pleased me in her more," he went on, "than +the way that, on my finding her up there all alone, coming on her +unawares and feeling greatly for her being so out of it, she +knocked down my tall house of cards with her instant and cheerful +allusion to the next young man. It was somehow so the note I +needed--her staying at home to receive him." + +"It was Chad of course," said little Bilham, "who asked the next +young man--I like your name for me!--to call." + +"So I supposed--all of which, thank God, is in our innocent and +natural manners. But do you know," Strether asked, "if Chad +knows--?" And then as this interlocutor seemed at a loss: +"Why where she has come out." + +Little Bilham, at this, met his face with a conscious look--it was +as if, more than anything yet, the allusion had penetrated. "Do +you know yourself?" + +Strether lightly shook his head. "There I stop. Oh, odd as it may +appear to you, there ARE things I don't know. I only got the sense +from her of something very sharp, and yet very deep down, that she +was keeping all to herself. That is I had begun with the belief +that she HAD kept it to herself; but face to face with her there +I soon made out that there was a person with whom she would have +shared it. I had thought she possibly might with ME--but I saw +then that I was only half in her confidence. When, turning to me +to greet me--for she was on the balcony and I had come in without +her knowing it--she showed me she had been expecting YOU and was +proportionately disappointed, I got hold of the tail of my +conviction. Half an hour later I was in possession of all the rest +of it. You know what has happened." He looked at his young friend +hard--then he felt sure. "For all you say, you're up to your eyes. +So there you are." + +Little Bilham after an instant pulled half round. "I assure you +she hasn't told me anything." + +"Of course she hasn't. For what do you suggest that I suppose her +to take you? But you've been with her every day, you've seen her +freely, you've liked her greatly--I stick to that--and you've made +your profit of it. You know what she has been through as well as +you know that she has dined here to-night--which must have put her, +by the way, through a good deal more." + +The young man faced this blast; after which he pulled round the +rest of the way. "I haven't in the least said she hasn't been +nice to me. But she's proud." + +"And quite properly. But not too proud for that." + +"It's just her pride that has made her. Chad," little Bilham +loyally went on, "has really been as kind to her as possible. +It's awkward for a man when a girl's in love with him." + +"Ah but she isn't--now." + +Little Bilham sat staring before him; then he sprang up as if his +friend's penetration, recurrent and insistent, made him really +after all too nervous. "No--she isn't now. It isn't in the +least," he went on, "Chad's fault. He's really all right. I mean +he would have been willing. But she came over with ideas. Those +she had got at home. They had been her motive and support in +joining her brother and his wife. She was to SAVE our friend." + +"Ah like me, poor thing?" Strether also got to his feet. + +"Exactly--she had a bad moment. It was very soon distinct to her, +to pull her up, to let her down, that, alas, he was, he IS, saved. +There's nothing left for her to do." + +"Not even to love him?" + +"She would have loved him better as she originally believed him." + +Strether wondered "Of course one asks one's self what notion a +little girl forms, where a young man's in question, of such a +history and such a state." + +"Well, this little girl saw them, no doubt, as obscure, but she saw +them practically as wrong. The wrong for her WAS the obscure. +Chad turns out at any rate right and good and disconcerting, while +what she was all prepared for, primed and girded and wound up for, +was to deal with him as the general opposite." + +"Yet wasn't her whole point"--Strether weighed it--"that he was to +be, that he COULD be, made better, redeemed?" + +Little Bilham fixed it all a moment, and then with a small +headshake that diffused a tenderness: "She's too late. Too late +for the miracle." + +"Yes"--his companion saw enough. "Still, if the worst fault of his +condition is that it may be all there for her to profit by--?" + +"Oh she doesn't want to 'profit,' in that flat way. She doesn't +want to profit by another woman's work--she wants the miracle to +have been her own miracle. THAT'S what she's too late for." + +Strether quite felt how it all fitted, yet there seemed one loose +piece. "I'm bound to say, you know, that she strikes one, on these +lines, as fastidious--what you call here difficile." + +Little Bilham tossed up his chin. "Of course she's difficile--on +any lines! What else in the world ARE our Mamies--the real, the +right ones?" + +"I see, I see," our friend repeated, charmed by the responsive +wisdom he had ended by so richly extracting. "Mamie is one of the +real and the right." + +"The very thing itself." + +"And what it comes to then," Strether went on, "is that poor awful +Chad is simply too good for her." + +"Ah too good was what he was after all to be; but it was she +herself, and she herself only, who was to have made him so." + +It hung beautifully together, but with still a loose end. "Wouldn't +he do for her even if he should after all break--" + +"With his actual influence?" Oh little Bilham had for this +enquiry the sharpest of all his controls. "How can he 'do'--on any +terms whatever--when he's flagrantly spoiled?" + +Strether could only meet the question with his passive, his +receptive pleasure. "Well, thank goodness, YOU'RE not! You +remain for her to save, and I come back, on so beautiful and full a +demonstration, to my contention of just now--that of your showing +distinct signs of her having already begun." + +The most he could further say to himself--as his young friend turned +away--was that the charge encountered for the moment no renewed +denial. Little Bilham, taking his course back to the music, only +shook his good-natured ears an instant, in the manner of a terrier +who has got wet; while Strether relapsed into the sense--which had +for him in these days most of comfort--that he was free to believe +in anything that from hour to hour kept him going. He had +positively motions and flutters of this conscious hour-to-hour +kind, temporary surrenders to irony, to fancy, frequent instinctive +snatches at the growing rose of observation, constantly stronger +for him, as he felt, in scent and colour, and in which he could +bury his nose even to wantonness. This last resource was offered +him, for that matter, in the very form of his next clear +perception--the vision of a prompt meeting, in the doorway of the +room, between little Bilham and brilliant Miss Barrace, who was +entering as Bilham withdrew. She had apparently put him a +question, to which he had replied by turning to indicate his late +interlocutor; toward whom, after an interrogation further aided by +a resort to that optical machinery which seemed, like her other +ornaments, curious and archaic, the genial lady, suggesting more +than ever for her fellow guest the old French print, the historic +portrait, directed herself with an intention that Strether +instantly met. He knew in advance the first note she would sound, +and took in as she approached all her need of sounding it. Nothing +yet had been so "wonderful" between them as the present occasion; +and it was her special sense of this quality in occasions that she +was there, as she was in most places, to feed. That sense had +already been so well fed by the situation about them that she had +quitted the other room, forsaken the music, dropped out of the +play, abandoned, in a word, the stage itself, that she might stand +a minute behind the scenes with Strether and so perhaps figure as +one of the famous augurs replying, behind the oracle, to the wink +of the other. Seated near him presently where little Bilham had +sat, she replied in truth to many things; beginning as soon as he +had said to her--what he hoped he said without fatuity--"All you +ladies are extraordinarily kind to me." + +She played her long handle, which shifted her observation; she saw +in an instant all the absences that left them free. "How can we be +anything else? But isn't that exactly your plight? 'We ladies'-- +oh we're nice, and you must be having enough of us! As one of us, +you know, I don't pretend I'm crazy about us. But Miss Gostrey at +least to-night has left you alone, hasn't she?" With which she +again looked about as if Maria might still lurk. + +"Oh yes," said Strether; "she's only sitting up for me at home." +And then as this elicited from his companion her gay "Oh, oh, oh!" +he explained that he meant sitting up in suspense and prayer. "We +thought it on the whole better she shouldn't be present; and +either way of course it's a terrible worry for her." He abounded in +the sense of his appeal to the ladies, and they might take their +choice of his doing so from humility or from pride. "Yet she +inclines to believe I shall come out." + +"Oh I incline to believe too you'll come out!"--Miss Barrace, with +her laugh, was not to be behind. "Only the question's about WHERE, +isn't it? However," she happily continued, "if it's anywhere at +all it must be very far on, mustn't it? To do us justice, I +think, you know," she laughed, "we do, among us all, want you +rather far on. Yes, yes," she repeated in her quick droll way; +"we want you very, VERY far on!" After which she wished to know +why he had thought it better Maria shouldn't be present. + +"Oh," he replied, "it was really her own idea. I should have +wished it. But she dreads responsibility." + +"And isn't that a new thing for her?" + +"To dread it? No doubt--no doubt. But her nerve has given way." + +Miss Barrace looked at him a moment. "She has too much at stake." +Then less gravely: "Mine, luckily for me, holds out." + +"Luckily for me too"--Strether came back to that. "My own isn't +so firm, MY appetite for responsibility isn't so sharp, as that I +haven't felt the very principle of this occasion to be 'the more +the merrier.' If we ARE so merry it's because Chad has understood +so well." + +"He has understood amazingly," said Miss Barrace. + +"It's wonderful--Strether anticipated for her. + +"It's wonderful!" she, to meet it, intensified; so that, face to +face over it, they largely and recklessly laughed. But she +presently added: "Oh I see the principle. If one didn't one +would be lost. But when once one has got hold of it--" + +"It's as simple as twice two! From the moment he had to do +something--" + +"A crowd"--she took him straight up--"was the only thing? Rather, +rather: a rumpus of sound," she laughed, "or nothing. Mrs. +Pocock's built in, or built out--whichever you call it; she's +packed so tight she can't move. She's in splendid isolation"-- +Miss Barrace embroidered the theme. + +Strether followed, but scrupulous of justice. "Yet with every one +in the place successively introduced to her." + +"Wonderfully--but just so that it does build her out. She's +bricked up, she's buried alive!" + +Strether seemed for a moment to look at it; but it brought him to +a sigh. "Oh but she's not dead! It will take more than this to +kill her." + +His companion had a pause that might have been for pity. "No, I +can't pretend I think she's finished--or that it's for more than +to-night." She remained pensive as if with the same compunction. +"It's only up to her chin." Then again for the fun of it: "She +can breathe." + +"She can breathe!"--he echoed it in the same spirit. "And do you +know," he went on, "what's really all this time happening to me?-- +through the beauty of music, the gaiety of voices, the uproar in +short of our revel and the felicity of your wit? The sound of +Mrs. Pocock's respiration drowns for me, I assure you, every other. +It's literally all I hear." + +She focussed him with her clink of chains. "Well--!" she breathed +ever so kindly. + +"Well, what?" + +"She IS free from her chin up," she mused; "and that WILL be enough +for her." + +"It will be enough for me!" Strether ruefully laughed. "Waymarsh +has really," he then asked, "brought her to see you?" + +"Yes--but that's the worst of it. I could do you no good. And yet +I tried hard." + +Strether wondered. "And how did you try?" + +"Why I didn't speak of you." + +"I see. That was better." + +"Then what would have been worse? For speaking or silent," she +lightly wailed, "I somehow 'compromise.' And it has never been any +one but you." + +"That shows"--he was magnanimous--"that it's something not in you, +but in one's self. It's MY fault." + +She was silent a little. "No, it's Mr. Waymarsh's. It's the fault +of his having brought her." + +"Ah then," said Strether good-naturedly, "why DID he bring her?" + +"He couldn't afford not to." + +"Oh you were a trophy--one of the spoils of conquest? But why in +that case, since you do 'compromise'--" + +"Don't I compromise HIM as well? I do compromise him as well," +Miss Barrace smiled. "I compromise him as hard as I can. But for +Mr. Waymarsh it isn't fatal. It's--so far as his wonderful +relation with Mrs. Pocock is concerned--favourable." And then, as +he still seemed slightly at sea: "The man who had succeeded with +ME, don't you see? For her to get him from me was such an added +incentive." + +Strether saw, but as if his path was still strewn with surprises. +"It's 'from' you then that she has got him?" + +She was amused at his momentary muddle. "You can fancy my fight! +She believes in her triumph. I think it has been part of her joy. + +"Oh her joy!" Strether sceptically murmured. + +"Well, she thinks she has had her own way. And what's to-night for +her but a kind of apotheosis? Her frock's really good." + +"Good enough to go to heaven in? For after a real apotheosis," +Strether went on, "there's nothing BUT heaven. For Sarah there's +only to-morrow." + +"And you mean that she won't find to-morrow heavenly?" + +"Well, I mean that I somehow feel to-night--on her behalf--too good +to be true. She has had her cake; that is she's in the act now of +having it, of swallowing the largest and sweetest piece. There +won't be another left for her. Certainly I haven't one. It can +only, at the best, be Chad." He continued to make it out as for +their common entertainment. "He may have one, as it were. up his +sleeve; yet it's borne in upon me that if he had--" + +"He wouldn't"--she quite understood--"have taken all THIS trouble? +I dare say not, and, if I may be quite free and dreadful, I very +much hope he won't take any more. Of course I won't pretend now," +she added, "not to know what it's a question of." + +"Oh every one must know now," poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; +"and it's strange enough and funny enough that one should feel +everybody here at this very moment to be knowing and watching and +waiting." + +"Yes--isn't it indeed funny?" Miss Barrace quite rose to it. +"That's the way we ARE in Paris." She was always pleased with a new +contribution to that queerness. "It's wonderful! But, you know," +she declared, "it all depends on you. I don't want to turn the +knife in your vitals, but that's naturally what you just now meant +by our all being on top of you. We know you as the hero of the +drama, and we're gathered to see what you'll do." + +Strether looked at her a moment with a light perhaps slightly +obscured. "I think that must be why the hero has taken refuge in +this corner. He's scared at his heroism--he shrinks from his +part." + +"Ah but we nevertheless believe he'll play it. That's why," +Miss Barrace kindly went on, "we take such an interest in you. +We feel you'll come up to the scratch." And then as he seemed +perhaps not quite to take fire: "Don't let him do it." + +"Don't let Chad go?" + +"Yes, keep hold of him. With all this"--and she indicated the +general tribute--"he has done enough. We love him here-- +he's charming." + +"It's beautiful," said Strether, "the way you all can simplify +when you will." + +But she gave it to him back. "It's nothing to the way you will +when you must." + +He winced at it as at the very voice of prophecy, and it kept him +a moment quiet. He detained her, however, on her appearing about +to leave him alone in the rather cold clearance their talk had +made. "There positively isn't a sign of a hero to-night; the +hero's dodging and shirking, the hero's ashamed. Therefore, you +know, I think, what you must all REALLY be occupied with is the +heroine." + +Miss Barrace took a minute. "The heroine?" + +"The heroine. I've treated her," said Strether, "not a bit like a +hero. Oh," he sighed, "I don't do it well!" + +She eased him off. "You do it as you can." And then after another +hesitation: "I think she's satisfied." + +But he remained compunctious. "I haven't been near her. I haven't +looked at her." + +"Ah then you've lost a good deal!" + +He showed he knew it. "She's more wonderful than ever?" + +"Than ever. With Mr. Pocock." + +Strether wondered. "Madame de Vionnet--with Jim?" + +"Madame de Vionnet--with 'Jim.' " Miss Barrace was historic. + +"And what's she doing with him?" + +"Ah you must ask HIM!" + +Strether's face lighted again at the prospect. "It WILL be amusing +to do so." Yet he continued to wonder. "But she must have some +idea." + +"Of course she has--she has twenty ideas. She has in the first +place," said Miss Barrace, swinging a little her tortoise-shell, +"that of doing her part. Her part is to help YOU." + +It came out as nothing had come yet; links were missing and +connexions unnamed, but it was suddenly as if they were at the +heart of their subject. "Yes; how much more she does it," Strether +gravely reflected, "than I help HER!" It all came over him as with +the near presence of the beauty, the grace, the intense, +dissimulated spirit with which he had, as he said, been putting off +contact. "SHE has courage." + +"Ah she has courage!" Miss Barrace quite agreed; and it was as if +for a moment they saw the quantity in each other's face. + +But indeed the whole thing was present. "How much she must care!" + +"Ah there it is. She does care. But it isn't, is it," Miss +Barrace considerately added, "as if you had ever had any doubt of +that?" + +Strether seemed suddenly to like to feel that he really never had. +"Why of course it's the whole point." + +"Voila!" Miss Barrace smiled. + +"It's why one came out," Strether went on. "And it's why one has +stayed so long. And it's also"--he abounded--"why one's going +home. It's why, it's why--" + +"It's why everything!" she concurred. "It's why she might be +to-night--for all she looks and shows, and for all your friend 'Jim' +does--about twenty years old. That's another of her ideas; to be +for him, and to be quite easily and charmingly, as young as a +little girl." + +Strether assisted at his distance. "'For him'? For Chad--?" + +"For Chad, in a manner, naturally, always. But in particular +to-night for Mr. Pocock." And then as her friend still stared: +"Yes, it IS of a bravery But that's what she has: her high sense +of duty." It was more than sufficiently before them. "When Mr. +Newsome has his hands so embarrassed with his sister--" + +"It's quite the least"--Strether filled it out--"that she should +take his sister's husband? Certainly--quite the least. So she has +taken him." + +"She has taken him." It was all Miss Barrace had meant. + +Still it remained enough. "It must be funny." + +"Oh it IS funny." That of course essentially went with it. + +But it brought them back. "How indeed then she must cared In +answer to which Strether's entertainer dropped a comprehensive +"Ah!" expressive perhaps of some impatience for the time he took to +get used to it. She herself had got used to it long before. + + + +II + + +When one morning within the week he perceived the whole thing to be +really at last upon him Strether's immediate feeling was all +relief. He had known this morning that something was about to +happen--known it, in a moment, by Waymarsh's manner when Waymarsh +appeared before him during his brief consumption of coffee and a +roll in the small slippery salle-a-manger so associated with rich +rumination. Strether had taken there of late various lonely and +absent-minded meals; he communed there, even at the end of June, +with a suspected chill, the air of old shivers mixed with old +savours, the air in which so many of his impressions had perversely +matured; the place meanwhile renewing its message to him by the +very circumstance of his single state. He now sat there, for the +most part, to sigh softly, while he vaguely tilted his carafe, over +the vision of how much better Waymarsh was occupied. That was +really his success by the common measure--to have led this +companion so on and on. He remembered how at first there had been +scarce a squatting-place he could beguile him into passing; +the actual outcome of which at last was that there was scarce one +that could arrest him in his rush. His rush--as Strether vividly and +amusedly figured it--continued to be all with Sarah, and contained +perhaps moreover the word of the whole enigma, whipping up in its +fine full-flavoured froth the very principle, for good or for ill, +of his own, of Strether's destiny. It might after all, to the end, +only be that they had united to save him, and indeed, so far as +Waymarsh was concerned, that HAD to be the spring of action. +Strether was glad at all events, in connexion with the case, that +the saving he required was not more scant; so constituted a luxury +was it in certain lights just to lurk there out of the full glare. +He had moments of quite seriously wondering whether Waymarsh wouldn't +in fact, thanks to old friendship and a conceivable indulgence, +make about as good terms for him as he might make for himself. +They wouldn't be the same terms of course; but they might have the +advantage that he himself probably should be able to make none at +all. + +He was never in the morning very late, but Waymarsh had already +been out, and, after a peep into the dim refectory, he presented +himself with much less than usual of his large looseness. He had +made sure, through the expanse of glass exposed to the court, that +they would be alone; and there was now in fact that about him that +pretty well took up the room. He was dressed in the garments of +summer; and save that his white waistcoat was redundant and bulging +these things favoured, they determined, his expression. He wore a +straw hat such as his friend hadn't yet seen in Paris, and he +showed a buttonhole freshly adorned with a magnificent rose. +Strether read on the instant his story--how, astir for the previous +hour, the sprinkled newness of the day, so pleasant at that season +in Paris, he was fairly panting with the pulse of adventure and had +been with Mrs. Pocock, unmistakeably, to the Marche aux Fleurs. +Strether really knew in this vision of him a joy that was akin to +envy; so reversed as he stood there did their old positions seem; +so comparatively doleful now showed, by the sharp turn of the +wheel, the posture of the pilgrim from Woollett. He wondered, this +pilgrim, if he had originally looked to Waymarsh so brave and well, +so remarkably launched, as it was at present the latter's privilege +to appear. He recalled that his friend had remarked to him even at +Chester that his aspect belied his plea of prostration; but there +certainly couldn't have been, for an issue, an aspect less +concerned than Waymarsh's with the menace of decay. Strether had +at any rate never resembled a Southern planter of the great days-- +which was the image picturesquely suggested by the happy relation +between the fuliginous face and the wide panama of his visitor. +This type, it further amused him to guess, had been, on Waymarsh's +part, the object of Sarah's care; he was convinced that her taste +had not been a stranger to the conception and purchase of the hat, +any more than her fine fingers had been guiltless of the bestowal +of the rose. It came to him in the current of thought, as things +so oddly did come, that HE had never risen with the lark to attend +a brilliant woman to the Marche aux Fleurs; this could be fastened +on him in connexion neither with Miss Gostrey nor with Madame de +Vionnet; the practice of getting up early for adventures could +indeed in no manner be fastened on him. It came to him in fact +that just here was his usual case: he was for ever missing things +through his general genius for missing them, while others were for +ever picking them up through a contrary bent. And it was others +who looked abstemious and he who looked greedy; it was he somehow +who finally paid, and it was others who mainly partook. Yes, he +should go to the scaffold yet for he wouldn't know quite whom. He +almost, for that matter, felt on the scaffold now and really quite +enjoying it. It worked out as BECAUSE he was anxious there--it +worked out as for this reason that Waymarsh was so blooming. It +was HIS trip for health, for a change, that proved the success-- +which was just what Strether, planning and exerting himself, had +desired it should be. That truth already sat full-blown on his +companion's lips; benevolence breathed from them as with the warmth +of active exercise, and also a little as with the bustle of haste. + +"Mrs. Pocock, whom I left a quarter of an hour ago at her hotel, +has asked me to mention to you that she would like to find you at +home here in about another hour. She wants to see you; she has +something to say--or considers, I believe, that you may have: so +that I asked her myself why she shouldn't come right round. She +hasn't BEEN round yet--to see our place; and I took upon myself to +say that I was sure you'd be glad to have her. The thing's +therefore, you see, to keep right here till she comes." + +The announcement was sociably, even though, after Waymarsh's wont, +somewhat solemnly made; but Strether quickly felt other things in +it than these light features. It was the first approach, from that +quarter, to admitted consciousness; it quickened his pulse; it +simply meant at last that he should have but himself to thank if he +didn't know where he was. He had finished his breakfast; he +pushed it away and was on his feet. There were plenty of elements +of surprise, but only one of doubt. "The thing's for YOU to keep +here too?" Waymarsh had been slightly ambiguous. + +He wasn't ambiguous, however, after this enquiry; and Strether's +understanding had probably never before opened so wide and +effective a mouth as it was to open during the next five minutes. +It was no part of his friend's wish, as appeared, to help to +receive Mrs. Pocock; he quite understood the spirit in which she +was to present herself, but his connexion with her visit was +limited to his having--well, as he might say--perhaps a little +promoted it. He had thought, and had let her know it, that +Strether possibly would think she might have been round before. At +any rate, as turned out, she had been wanting herself, quite a +while, to come. "I told her," said Waymarsh, "that it would have +been a bright idea if she had only carried it out before." + +Strether pronounced it so bright as to be almost dazzling. "But +why HASn't she carried it out before? She has seen me every day-- +she had only to name her hour. I've been waiting and waiting." + +"Well, I told her you had. And she has been waiting too." It was, +in the oddest way in the world, on the showing of this tone, a +genial new pressing coaxing Waymarsh; a Waymarsh conscious with a +different consciousness from any he had yet betrayed, and actually +rendered by it almost insinuating. He lacked only time for full +persuasion, and Strether was to see in a moment why. Meantime, +however, our friend perceived, he was announcing a step of some +magnanimity on Mrs. Pocock's part, so that he could deprecate a +sharp question. It was his own high purpose in fact to have +smoothed sharp questions to rest. He looked his old comrade very +straight in the eyes, and he had never conveyed to him in so mute a +manner so much kind confidence and so much good advice. Everything +that was between them was again in his face, but matured and +shelved and finally disposed of. "At any rate," he added, "she's +coming now." + +Considering how many pieces had to fit themselves, it all fell, in +Strether's brain, into a close rapid order. He saw on the spot +what had happened, and what probably would yet; and it was all +funny enough. It was perhaps just this freedom of appreciation +that wound him up to his flare of high spirits. "What is she +coming FOR?--to kill me?" + +"She's coming to be very VERY kind to you, and you must let me say +that I greatly hope you'll not be less so to herself." + +This was spoken by Waymarsh with much gravity of admonition, and as +Strether stood there he knew he had but to make a movement to take +the attitude of a man gracefully receiving a present. The present +was that of the opportunity dear old Waymarsh had flattered himself +he had divined in him the slight soreness of not having yet +thoroughly enjoyed; so he had brought it to him thus, as on a +little silver breakfast-tray, familiarly though delicately--without +oppressive pomp; and he was to bend and smile and acknowledge, was +to take and use and be grateful. He was not--that was the beauty +of it--to be asked to deflect too much from his dignity. No wonder +the old boy bloomed in this bland air of his own distillation. +Strether felt for a moment as if Sarah were actually walking up and +down outside. Wasn't she hanging about the porte-cochere while +her friend thus summarily opened a way? Strether would meet her +but to take it, and everything would be for the best in the best of +possible worlds. He had never so much known what any one meant as, +in the light of this demonstration, he knew what Mrs. Newsome did. +It had reached Waymarsh from Sarah, but it had reached Sarah from +her mother, and there was no break in the chain by which it reached +HIM. "Has anything particular happened," he asked after a minute-- +"so suddenly to determine her? Has she heard anything unexpected +from home?" + +Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him, looked at him harder than +ever. "'Unexpected'?" He had a brief hesitation; then, however, +he was firm. "We're leaving Paris." + +"Leaving? That IS sudden." + +Waymarsh showed a different opinion. "Less so than it may seem. +The purpose of Mrs. Pocock's visit is to explain to you in fact +that it's NOT." + +Strether didn't at all know if he had really an advantage-- +anything that would practically count as one; but he enjoyed for +the moment--as for the first time in his life--the sense of so +carrying it off. He wondered--it was amusing--if he felt as the +impudent feel. "I shall take great pleasure, I assure you, in any +explanation. I shall be delighted to receive Sarah." + +The sombre glow just darkened in his comrade's eyes; but he was +struck with the way it died out again. It was too mixed with +another consciousness--it was too smothered, as might be said, in +flowers. He really for the time regretted it--poor dear old sombre +glow! Something straight and simple, something heavy and empty, had +been eclipsed in its company; something by which he had best known +his friend. Waymarsh wouldn't BE his friend, somehow, without the +occasional ornament of the sacred rage, and the right to the sacred +rage--inestimably precious for Strether's charity--he also seemed +in a manner, and at Mrs. Pocock's elbow, to have forfeited. +Strether remembered the occasion early in their stay when on that +very spot he had come out with his earnest, his ominous "Quit it!"-- +and, so remembering, felt it hang by a hair that he didn't +himself now utter the same note. Waymarsh was having a good time-- +this was the truth that was embarrassing for him, and he was having +it then and there, he was having it in Europe, he was having it +under the very protection of circumstances of which he didn't in +the least approve; all of which placed him in a false position, +with no issue possible--none at least by the grand manner. It was +practically in the manner of any one--it was all but in poor +Strether's own--that instead of taking anything up he merely made +the most of having to be himself explanatory. "I'm not leaving for +the United States direct. Mr. and Mrs. Pocock and Miss Mamie are +thinking of a little trip before their own return, and we've been +talking for some days past of our joining forces. We've settled it +that we do join and that we sail together the end of next month. +But we start to-morrow for Switzerland. Mrs. Pocock wants some +scenery. She hasn't had much yet." + +He was brave in his way too, keeping nothing back, confessing all +there was, and only leaving Strether to make certain connexions. +"Is what Mrs. Newsome had cabled her daughter an injunction to +break off short?" + +The grand manner indeed at this just raised its head a little. +"I know nothing about Mrs. Newsome's cables." + +Their eyes met on it with some intensity--during the few seconds of +which something happened quite out of proportion to the time. +It happened that Strether, looking thus at his friend, didn't take +his answer for truth--and that something more again occurred in +consequence of THAT. Yes--Waymarsh just DID know about +Mrs. Newsome's cables: to what other end than that had they dined +together at Bignon's? Strether almost felt for the instant that it +was to Mrs. Newsome herself the dinner had been given; and, for +that matter, quite felt how she must have known about it and, as he +might think, protected and consecrated it. He had a quick blurred +view of daily cables, questions, answers, signals: clear enough +was his vision of the expense that, when so wound up, the lady at +home was prepared to incur. Vivid not less was his memory of what, +during his long observation of her, some of her attainments of that +high pitch had cost her. Distinctly she was at the highest now, +and Waymarsh, who imagined himself an independent performer, was +really, forcing his fine old natural voice, an overstrained +accompanist. The whole reference of his errand seemed to mark her +for Strether as by this time consentingly familiar to him, and +nothing yet had so despoiled her of a special shade of +consideration. "You don't know," he asked, "whether Sarah has been +directed from home to try me on the matter of my also going to +Switzerland?" + +"I know," said Waymarsh as manfully as possible, "nothing whatever +about her private affairs; though I believe her to be acting in +conformity with things that have my highest respect." It was as +manful as possible, but it was still the false note--as it had to +be to convey so sorry a statement. He knew everything, Strether +more and more felt, that he thus disclaimed, and his little +punishment was just in this doom to a second fib. What falser +position--given the man--could the most vindictive mind impose? +He ended by squeezing through a passage in which three months before +he would certainly have stuck fast. "Mrs Pocock will probably be +ready herself to answer any enquiry you may put to her. But," +he continued, "BUT--!" He faltered on it. + +"But what? Don't put her too many?" + +Waymarsh looked large, but the harm was done; he couldn't, do what +he would, help looking rosy. "Don't do anything you'll be sorry for." + +It was an attenuation, Strether guessed, of something else that had +been on his lips; it was a sudden drop to directness, and was +thereby the voice of sincerity. He had fallen to the supplicating +note, and that immediately, for our friend, made a difference and +reinstated him. They were in communication as they had been, that +first morning, in Sarah's salon and in her presence and Madame de +Vionnet's; and the same recognition of a great good will was again, +after all, possible. Only the amount of response Waymarsh had then +taken for granted was doubled, decupled now. This came out when he +presently said: "Of course I needn't assure you I hope you'll +come with us." Then it was that his implications and expectations +loomed up for Strether as almost pathetically gross. + +The latter patted his shoulder while he thanked him, giving the +go-by to the question of joining the Pococks; he expressed the joy he +felt at seeing him go forth again so brave and free, and he in fact +almost took leave of him on the spot. "I shall see you again of +course before you go; but I'm meanwhile much obliged to you for +arranging so conveniently for what you've told me. I shall walk up +and down in the court there--dear little old court which we've each +bepaced so, this last couple of months, to the tune of our flights +and our drops, our hesitations and our plunges: I shall hang about +there, all impatience and excitement, please let Sarah know, till +she graciously presents herself. Leave me with her without fear," +he laughed; "I assure you I shan't hurt her. I don't think either +she'll hurt ME: I'm in a situation in which damage was some time +ago discounted. Besides, THAT isn't what worries you--but don't, +don't explain! We're all right as we are: which was the degree of +success our adventure was pledged to for each of us. We weren't, +it seemed, all right as we were before; and we've got over the +ground, all things considered, quickly. I hope you'll have a +lovely time in the Alps." + +Waymarsh fairly looked up at him as from the foot of them. "I +don't know as I OUGHT really to go." + +It was the conscience of Milrose in the very voice of Milrose, but, +oh it was feeble and flat! Strether suddenly felt quite ashamed for +him; he breathed a greater boldness. "LET yourself, on the +contrary, go--in all agreeable directions. These are precious +hours--at our age they mayn't recur. Don't have it to say to +yourself at Milrose, next winter, that you hadn't courage for +them." And then as his comrade queerly stared: "Live up to Mrs. +Pocock." + +"Live up to her?" + +"You're a great help to her." + +Waymarsh looked at it as at one of the uncomfortable things that +were certainly true and that it was yet ironical to say. "It's +more then than you are." + +"That's exactly your own chance and advantage. Besides," said +Strether, "I do in my way contribute. I know what I'm about." + +Waymarsh had kept on his great panama, and, as he now stood nearer +the door, his last look beneath the shade of it had turned again to +darkness and warning. "So do I! See here, Strether." + +"I know what you're going to say. 'Quit this'?" + +"Quit this!" But it lacked its old intensity; nothing of it +remained; it went out of the room with him. + + + +III + + +Almost the first thing, strangely enough, that, about an hour +later, Strether found himself doing in Sarah's presence was to +remark articulately on this failure, in their friend, of what had +been superficially his great distinction. It was as if--he alluded +of course to the grand manner--the dear man had sacrificed it to +some other advantage; which would be of course only for himself to +measure. It might be simply that he was physically so much more +sound than on his first coming out; this was all prosaic, +comparatively cheerful and vulgar. And fortunately, if one came to +that, his improvement in health was really itself grander than any +manner it could be conceived as having cost him. "You yourself +alone, dear Sarah"--Strether took the plunge--"have done him, it +strikes me, in these three weeks, as much good as all the rest of +his time together." + +It was a plunge because somehow the range of reference was, in the +conditions, "funny," and made funnier still by Sarah's attitude, by +the turn the occasion had, with her appearance, so sensibly taken. +Her appearance was really indeed funnier than anything else--the +spirit in which he felt her to be there as soon as she was there, +the shade of obscurity that cleared up for him as soon as he was +seated with her in the small salon de lecture that had, for the +most part, in all the weeks, witnessed the wane of his early +vivacity of discussion with Waymarsh. It was an immense thing, +quite a tremendous thing, for her to have come: this truth opened +out to him in spite of his having already arrived for himself at a +fairly vivid view of it. He had done exactly what he had given +Waymarsh his word for--had walked and re-walked the court while he +awaited her advent; acquiring in this exercise an amount of light +that affected him at the time as flooding the scene. She had +decided upon the step in order to give him the benefit of a doubt, +in order to be able to say to her mother that she had, even to +abjectness, smoothed the way for him. The doubt had been as to +whether he mightn't take her as not having smoothed it--and the +admonition had possibly come from Waymarsh's more detached spirit. +Waymarsh had at any rate, certainly, thrown his weight into the +scale--he had pointed to the importance of depriving their friend +of a grievance. She had done justice to the plea, and it was to +set herself right with a high ideal that she actually sat there in +her state. Her calculation was sharp in the immobility with which +she held her tall parasol-stick upright and at arm's length, quite +as if she had struck the place to plant her flag; in the separate +precautions she took not to show as nervous; in the aggressive +repose in which she did quite nothing but wait for him. Doubt +ceased to be possible from the moment he had taken in that she had +arrived with no proposal whatever; that her concern was simply to +show what she had come to receive. She had come to receive his +submission, and Waymarsh was to have made it plain to him that she +would expect nothing less. He saw fifty things, her host, at this +convenient stage; but one of those he most saw was that their +anxious friend hadn't quite had the hand required of him. +Waymarsh HAD, however, uttered the request that she might find him +mild, and while hanging about the court before her arrival he had +turned over with zeal the different ways in which he could be so. +The difficulty was that if he was mild he wasn't, for her purpose, +conscious. If she wished him conscious--as everything about her +cried aloud that she did--she must accordingly be at costs to make +him so. Conscious he was, for himself--but only of too many +things; so she must choose the one she required. + +Practically, however, it at last got itself named, and when once +that had happened they were quite at the centre of their situation. +One thing had really done as well as another; when Strether had +spoken of Waymarsh's leaving him, and that had necessarily brought +on a reference to Mrs. Pocock's similar intention, the jump was but +short to supreme lucidity. Light became indeed after that so +intense that Strether would doubtless have but half made out, in +the prodigious glare, by which of the two the issue had been in +fact precipitated. It was, in their contracted quarters, as much +there between them as if it had been something suddenly spilled +with a crash and a splash on the floor. The form of his submission +was to be an engagement to acquit himself within the twenty-four +hours. "He'll go in a moment if you give him the word--he assures +me on his honour he'll do that": this came in its order, out of +its order, in respect to Chad, after the crash had occurred. It +came repeatedly during the time taken by Strether to feel that he +was even more fixed in his rigour than he had supposed--the time he +was not above adding to a little by telling her that such a way of +putting it on her brother's part left him sufficiently surprised. +She wasn't at all funny at last--she was really fine; and he felt +easily where she was strong--strong for herself. It hadn't yet so +come home to him that she was nobly and appointedly officious. +She was acting in interests grander and clearer than that of her +poor little personal, poor little Parisian equilibrium, and all his +consciousness of her mother's moral pressure profited by this proof +of its sustaining force. She would be held up; she would be +strengthened; he needn't in the least be anxious for her. +What would once more have been distinct to him had he tried to +make it so was that, as Mrs. Newsome was essentially all moral pressure, +the presence of this element was almost identical with her own presence. +It wasn't perhaps that he felt he was dealing with her straight, +but it was certainly as if she had been dealing straight with HIM. +She was reaching him somehow by the lengthened arm of the spirit, +and he was having to that extent to take her into account; +but he wasn't reaching her in turn, not making her take HIM; +he was only reaching Sarah, who appeared to take so little of him. +"Something has clearly passed between you and Chad," he presently said, +"that I think I ought to know something more about. Does he put it all," +he smiled, "on me?" + +"Did you come out," she asked, "to put it all on HIM?" + +But he replied to this no further than, after an instant, by +saying: "Oh it's all right. Chad I mean's all right in having +said to you--well anything he may have said. I'll TAKE it all-- +what he does put on me. Only I must see him before I see you +again." + +She hesitated, but she brought it out. "Is it absolutely necessary +you should see me again?" + +"Certainly, if I'm to give you any definite word about anything." + +"Is it your idea then," she returned, "that I shall keep on meeting +you only to be exposed to fresh humiliation?" + +He fixed her a longer time. "Are your instructions from +Mrs. Newsome that you shall, even at the worst, absolutely and +irretrievably break with me?" + +"My instructions from Mrs. Newsome are, if you please, my affair. +You know perfectly what your own were, and you can judge for +yourself of what it can do for you to have made what you have of +them. You can perfectly see, at any rate, I'll go so far as to +say, that if I wish not to expose myself I must wish still less to +expose HER." She had already said more than she had quite +expected; but, though she had also pulled up, the colour in her +face showed him he should from one moment to the other have it all. +He now indeed felt the high importance of his having it. "What is +your conduct," she broke out as if to explain--"what is your +conduct but an outrage to women like US? I mean your acting as if +there can be a doubt--as between us and such another--of his duty?" + +He thought a moment. It was rather much to deal with at once; not +only the question itself, but the sore abysses it revealed. +"Of course they're totally different kinds of duty." + +"And do you pretend that he has any at all--to such another?" + +"Do you mean to Madame de Vionnet?" He uttered the name not to +affront her, but yet again to gain time--time that he needed for +taking in something still other and larger than her demand of a +moment before. It wasn't at once that he could see all that was +in her actual challenge; but when he did he found himself just +checking a low vague sound, a sound which was perhaps the nearest +approach his vocal chords had ever known to a growl. Everything +Mrs. Pocock had failed to give a sign of recognising in Chad as a +particular part of a transformation--everything that had lent +intention to this particular failure--affected him as gathered into +a large loose bundle and thrown, in her words, into his face. The +missile made him to that extent catch his breath; which however he +presently recovered. "Why when a woman's at once so charming and +so beneficent--" + +"You can sacrifice mothers and sisters to her without a blush and +can make them cross the ocean on purpose to feel the more and take +from you the straighter, HOW you do it?" + +Yes, she had taken him up as short and as sharply as that, but he +tried not to flounder in her grasp. "I don't think there's +anything I've done in any such calculated way as you describe. +Everything has come as a sort of indistinguishable part of +everything else. Your coming out belonged closely to my having +come before you, and my having come was a result of our general +state of mind. Our general state of mind had proceeded, on its +side, from our queer ignorance, our queer misconceptions and +confusions--from which, since then, an inexorable tide of light +seems to have floated us into our perhaps still queerer knowledge. +Don't you LIKE your brother as he is," he went on, "and haven't +you given your mother an intelligible account of all that that +comes to?" + +It put to her also, doubtless, his own tone, too many things, this +at least would have been the case hadn't his final challenge +directly helped her. Everything, at the stage they had reached, +directly helped her, because everything betrayed in him such a +basis of intention. He saw--the odd way things came out!--that he +would have been held less monstrous had he only been a little +wilder. What exposed him was just his poor old trick of quiet +inwardness, what exposed him was his THINKING such offence. He hadn't +in the least however the desire to irritate that Sarah imputed to him, +and he could only at last temporise, for the moment, with her +indignant view. She was altogether more inflamed than he had +expected, and he would probably understand this better when he +should learn what had occurred for her with Chad. Till then her +view of his particular blackness, her clear surprise at his not +clutching the pole she held out, must pass as extravagant. "I +leave you to flatter yourself," she returned, "that what you speak +of is what YOU'VE beautifully done. When a thing has been already +described in such a lovely way--!" But she caught herself up, and +her comment on his description rang out sufficiently loud. "Do you +consider her even an apology for a decent woman?" + +Ah there it was at last! She put the matter more crudely than, for +his own mixed purposes, he had yet had to do; but essentially it +was all one matter. It was so much--so much; and she treated it, +poor lady, as so little. He grew conscious, as he was now apt to +do, of a strange smile, and the next moment he found himself +talking like Miss Barrace. "She has struck me from the first as +wonderful. I've been thinking too moreover that, after all, she +would probably have represented even for yourself something rather +new and rather good." + +He was to have given Mrs. Pocock with this, however, but her best +opportunity for a sound of derision. "Rather new? I hope so with +all my heart!" + +"I mean," he explained, "that she might have affected you by her +exquisite amiability--a real revelation, it has seemed to myself; +her high rarity, her distinction of every sort." + +He had been, with these words, consciously a little "precious"; but +he had had to be--he couldn't give her the truth of the case +without them; and it seemed to him moreover now that he didn't +care. He had at all events not served his cause, for she sprang at +its exposed side. "A 'revelation'--to ME: I've come to such a +woman for a revelation? You talk to me about 'distinction'-- +YOU, you who've had your privilege?--when the most distinguished woman +we shall either of us have seen in this world sits there insulted, +in her loneliness, by your incredible comparison!" + +Strether forbore, with an effort, from straying; but he looked all +about him. "Does your mother herself make the point that she +sits insulted?" + +Sarah's answer came so straight, so "pat," as might have been said, +that he felt on the instant its origin. "She has confided to my +judgement and my tenderness the expression of her personal sense of +everything, and the assertion of her personal dignity." + +They were the very words of the lady of Woollett--he would have +known them in a thousand; her parting charge to her child. Mrs. +Pocock accordingly spoke to this extent by book, and the fact +immensely moved him. "If she does really feel as you say it's of +course very very dreadful. I've given sufficient proof, one would +have thought," he added, "of my deep admiration for Mrs. Newsome." + +"And pray what proof would one have thought you'd CALL sufficient? +That of thinking this person here so far superior to her?" + +He wondered again; he waited. "Ah dear Sarah, you must LEAVE me +this person here!" + +In his desire to avoid all vulgar retorts, to show how, even +perversely, he clung to his rag of reason, he had softly almost +wailed this plea. Yet he knew it to be perhaps the most positive +declaration he had ever made in his life, and his visitor's +reception of it virtually gave it that importance. "That's exactly +what I'm delighted to do. God knows WE don't want her! You take +good care not to meet," she observed in a still higher key, +"my question about their life. If you do consider it a thing +one can even SPEAK of, I congratulate you on your taste!" + +The life she alluded to was of course Chad's and Madame de Vionnet's, +which she thus bracketed together in a way that made him wince +a little; there being nothing for him but to take home her +full intention. It was none the less his inconsequence that while +he had himself been enjoying for weeks the view of the brilliant +woman's specific action, he just suffered from any characterisation +of it by other lips. "I think tremendously well of her, at the +same time that I seem to feel her 'life' to be really none of my +business. It's my business, that is, only so far as Chad's own +life is affected by it; and what has happened, don't you see? is +that Chad's has been affected so beautifully. The proof of the +pudding's in the eating"--he tried, with no great success, to help +it out with a touch of pleasantry, while she let him go on as if to +sink and sink. He went on however well enough, as well as he could +do without fresh counsel; he indeed shouldn't stand quite firm, he +felt, till he should have re-established his communications with +Chad. Still, he could always speak for the woman he had so +definitely promised to "save." This wasn't quite for her the air +of salvation; but as that chill fairly deepened what did it become +but a reminder that one might at the worst perish WITH her? And it +was simple enough--it was rudimentary: not, not to give her away. +"I find in her more merits than you would probably have patience +with my counting over. And do you know," he enquired, "the effect +you produce on me by alluding to her in such terms? It's as if you +had some motive in not recognising all she has done for your +brother, and so shut your eyes to each side of the matter, in +order, whichever side comes up, to get rid of the other. I don't, +you must allow me to say, see how you can with any pretence to +candour get rid of the side nearest you." + +"Near me--THAT sort of thing?" And Sarah gave a jerk back of her +head that well might have nullified any active proximity. + +It kept her friend himself at his distance, and he respected for a +moment the interval. Then with a last persuasive effort he bridged +it. "You don't, on your honour, appreciate Chad's fortunate +development?" + +"Fortunate?" she echoed again. And indeed she was prepared. +"I call it hideous." + +Her departure had been for some minutes marked as imminent, and she +was already at the door that stood open to the court, from the +threshold of which she delivered herself of this judgement. It +rang out so loud as to produce for the time the hush of everything +else. Strether quite, as an effect of it, breathed less bravely; +he could acknowledge it, but simply enough. "Oh if you think THAT--!" + +"Then all's at an end? So much the better. I do think that!" She +passed out as she spoke and took her way straight across the court, +beyond which, separated from them by the deep arch of the +porte-cochere the low victoria that had conveyed her from her own hotel +was drawn up. She made for it with decision, and the manner of her +break, the sharp shaft of her rejoinder, had an intensity by which +Strether was at first kept in arrest. She had let fly at him as +from a stretched cord, and it took him a minute to recover from the +sense of being pierced. It was not the penetration of surprise; +it was that, much more, of certainty; his case being put for him as +he had as yet only put it to himself. She was away at any rate; +she had distanced him--with rather a grand spring, an effect of pride +and ease, after all; she had got into her carriage before he could +overtake her, and the vehicle was already in motion. He stopped +halfway; he stood there in the court only seeing her go and noting +that she gave him no other look. The way he had put it to himself +was that all quite MIGHT be at an end. Each of her movements, +in this resolute rupture, reaffirmed, re-enforced that idea. +Sarah passed out of sight in the sunny street while, planted there +in the centre of the comparatively grey court, he continued merely +to look before him. It probably WAS all at an end. + + + + + +Book Eleventh + +[Note: In the 1909 New York Edition the following two chapters were placed +in the reverse of the order appearing below. Since 1950, most scholars have +agreed, because of the internal evidence of the two chapters, that an +editorial error caused them to be printed in reverse order. This Etext, +like other editions of the past four decades, corrects the apparent error. + -- Richard D. Hathaway, preparer of this electronic text] + + + + +I + + +He went late that evening to the Boulevard Malesherbes, having his +impression that it would be vain to go early, and having also, more +than once in the course of the day, made enquiries of the concierge. +Chad hadn't come in and had left no intimation; he had affairs, +apparently, at this juncture--as it occurred to Strether he so well +might have--that kept him long abroad. Our friend asked once for +him at the hotel in the Rue de Rivoli, but the only contribution +offered there was the fact that every one was out. It was with +the idea that he would have to come home to sleep that Strether +went up to his rooms, from which however he was still absent, though, +from the balcony, a few moments later, his visitor heard eleven +o'clock strike. Chad's servant had by this time answered for his +reappearance; he HAD, the visitor learned, come quickly in to dress +for dinner and vanish again. Strether spent an hour in waiting +for him--an hour full of strange suggestions, persuasions, recognitions; +one of those that he was to recall, at the end of his adventure, as +the particular handful that most had counted. The mellowest lamplight +and the easiest chair had been placed at his disposal by Baptiste, +subtlest of servants; the novel half-uncut, the novel lemon-coloured +and tender, with the ivory knife athwart it like the dagger in a +contadina's hair, had been pushed within the soft circle--a circle +which, for some reason, affected Strether as softer still after +the same Baptiste had remarked that in the absence of a further need +of anything by Monsieur he would betake himself to bed. The night +was hot and heavy and the single lamp sufficient; the great flare +of the lighted city, rising high, spending itself afar, played up +from the Boulevard and, through the vague vista of the successive +rooms, brought objects into view and added to their dignity. +Strether found himself in possession as he never yet had been; +he had been there alone, had turned over books and prints, +had invoked, in Chad's absence, the spirit of the place, +but never at the witching hour and never with a relish quite +so like a pang. + +He spent a long time on the balcony; he hung over it as he had seen +little Bilham hang the day of his first approach, as he had seen +Mamie hang over her own the day little Bilham himself might have +seen her from below; he passed back into the rooms, the three that +occupied the front and that communicated by wide doors; and, while +he circulated and rested, tried to recover the impression that they +had made on him three months before, to catch again the voice in +which they had seemed then to speak to him. That voice, he had to +note, failed audibly to sound; which he took as the proof of all +the change in himself. He had heard, of old, only what he COULD +then hear; what he could do now was to think of three months ago as +a point in the far past. All voices had grown thicker and meant +more things; they crowded on him as he moved about--it was the way +they sounded together that wouldn't let him be still. He felt, +strangely, as sad as if he had come for some wrong, and yet as +excited as if he had come for some freedom. But the freedom was +what was most in the place and the hour, it was the freedom that +most brought him round again to the youth of his own that he had +long ago missed. He could have explained little enough to-day +either why he had missed it or why, after years and years, he +should care that he had; the main truth of the actual appeal of +everything was none the less that everything represented the +substance of his loss put it within reach, within touch, made it, +to a degree it had never been, an affair of the senses. That was +what it became for him at this singular time, the youth he had long +ago missed--a queer concrete presence, full of mystery, yet full of +reality, which he could handle, taste, smell, the deep breathing of +which he could positively hear. It was in the outside air as well +as within; it was in the long watch, from the balcony, in the +summer night, of the wide late life of Paris, the unceasing soft +quick rumble, below, of the little lighted carriages that, in the +press, always suggested the gamblers he had seen of old at Monte +Carlo pushing up to the tables. This image was before him when he +at last became aware that Chad was behind. + +"She tells me you put it all on ME"--he had arrived after this +promptly enough at that information; which expressed the case +however quite as the young man appeared willing for the moment to +leave it. Other things, with this advantage of their virtually +having the night before them, came up for them, and had, as well, +the odd effect of making the occasion, instead of hurried and +feverish, one of the largest, loosest and easiest to which +Strether's whole adventure was to have treated him. He had been +pursuing Chad from an early hour and had overtaken him only now; +but now the delay was repaired by their being so exceptionally +confronted. They had foregathered enough of course in all the +various times; they had again and again, since that first night at +the theatre, been face to face over their question; but they had +never been so alone together as they were actually alone--their +talk hadn't yet been so supremely for themselves. And if many +things moreover passed before them, none passed more distinctly for +Strether than that striking truth about Chad of which he had been +so often moved to take note: the truth that everything came +happily back with him to his knowing how to live. It had been +seated in his pleased smile--a smile that pleased exactly in the +right degree--as his visitor turned round, on the balcony, to greet +his advent; his visitor in fact felt on the spot that there was +nothing their meeting would so much do as bear witness to that +facility. He surrendered himself accordingly to so approved a +gift; for what was the meaning of the facility but that others DID +surrender themselves? He didn't want, luckily, to prevent Chad +from living; but he was quite aware that even if he had he would +himself have thoroughly gone to pieces. It was in truth +essentially by bringing down his personal life to a function all +subsidiary to the young man's own that he held together. And the +great point, above all, the sign of how completely Chad possessed +the knowledge in question, was that one thus became, not only with +a proper cheerfulness, but with wild native impulses, the feeder of +his stream. Their talk had accordingly not lasted three minutes +without Strether's feeling basis enough for the excitement in which +he had waited. This overflow fairly deepened, wastefully abounded, +as he observed the smallness of anything corresponding to it on the +part of his friend. That was exactly this friend's happy case; he +"put out" his excitement, or whatever other emotion the matter +involved, as he put out his washing; than which no arrangement +could make more for domestic order. It was quite for Strether +himself in short to feel a personal analogy with the laundress +bringing home the triumphs of the mangle. + +When he had reported on Sarah's visit, which he did very fully, +Chad answered his question with perfect candour. "I positively +referred her to you--told her she must absolutely see you. This was +last night, and it all took place in ten minutes. It was our first +free talk--really the first time she had tackled me. She knew I +also knew what her line had been with yourself; knew moreover how +little you had been doing to make anything difficult for her. +So I spoke for you frankly--assured her you were all at her service. +I assured her I was too," the young man continued; "and I pointed out +how she could perfectly, at any time, have got at me. Her difficulty +has been simply her not finding the moment she fancied." + +"Her difficulty," Strether returned, "has been simply that she +finds she's afraid of you. She's not afraid of ME, Sarah, one +little scrap; and it was just because she has seen how I can fidget +when I give my mind to it that she has felt her best chance, +rightly enough to be in making me as uneasy as possible. I think +she's at bottom as pleased to HAVE you put it on me as you yourself +can possibly be to put it." + +"But what in the world, my dear man," Chad enquired in objection to +this luminosity, "have I done to make Sally afraid?" + +"You've been 'wonderful, wonderful,' as we say--we poor people who +watch the play from the pit; and that's what has, admirably, made +her. Made her all the more effectually that she could see you didn't +set about it on purpose--I mean set about affecting her as with fear." + +Chad cast a pleasant backward glance over his possibilities of +motive. "I've only wanted to be kind and friendly, to be decent +and attentive--and I still only want to be." + +Strether smiled at his comfortable clearness. "Well, there can +certainly be no way for it better than by my taking the onus. It +reduces your personal friction and your personal offence to almost +nothing." + +Ah but Chad, with his completer conception of the friendly, wouldn't +quite have this! They had remained on the balcony, where, after their +day of great and premature heat, the midnight air was delicious; +and they leaned back in turn against the balustrade, all in harmony with +the chairs and the flower-pots, the cigarettes and the starlight. +"The onus isn't REALLY yours--after our agreeing so to wait together +and judge together. That was all my answer to Sally," Chad pursued-- +"that we have been, that we are, just judging together." + +"I'm not afraid of the burden," Strether explained; "I haven't +come in the least that you should take it off me. I've come very +much, it seems to me, to double up my fore legs in the manner of +the camel when he gets down on his knees to make his back convenient. +But I've supposed you all this while to have been doing a lot of +special and private judging--about which I haven't troubled you; +and I've only wished to have your conclusion first from you. +I don't ask more than that; I'm quite ready to take it as it has come." + +Chad turned up his face to the sky with a slow puff of his smoke. +"Well, I've seen." + +Strether waited a little. "I've left you wholly alone; haven't, I +think I may say, since the first hour or two--when I merely +preached patience--so much as breathed on you." + +"Oh you've been awfully good!" + +"We've both been good then--we've played the game. We've given +them the most liberal conditions." + +"Ah," said Chad, "splendid conditions! It was open to them, open +to them"--he seemed to make it out, as he smoked, with his eyes +still on the stars. He might in quiet sport have been reading +their horoscope. Strether wondered meanwhile what had been open to +them, and he finally let him have it. "It was open to them simply +to let me alone; to have made up their minds, on really seeing me +for themselves, that I could go on well enough as I was." + +Strether assented to this proposition with full lucidity, his +companion's plural pronoun, which stood all for Mrs. Newsome and +her daughter, having no ambiguity for him. There was nothing, +apparently, to stand for Mamie and Jim; and this added to our +friend's sense of Chad's knowing what he thought. "But they've made +up their minds to the opposite--that you CAN'T go on as you are." + +"No," Chad continued in the same way; "they won't have it for a minute." + +Strether on his side also reflectively smoked. It was as if their +high place really represented some moral elevation from which they +could look down on their recent past. "There never was the +smallest chance, do you know, that they WOULD have it for a moment." + +"Of course not--no real chance. But if they were willing to think +there was--!" + +"They weren't willing." Strether had worked it all out. "It wasn't +for you they came out, but for me. It wasn't to see for themselves +what you're doing, but what I'm doing. The first branch of their +curiosity was inevitably destined, under my culpable delay, to give way +to the second; and it's on the second that, if I may use the expression +and you don't mind my marking the invidious fact, they've been of late +exclusively perched. When Sarah sailed it was me, in other words, +they were after." + +Chad took it in both with intelligence and with indulgence. "It IS +rather a business then--what I've let you in for!" + +Strether had again a brief pause; which ended in a reply that +seemed to dispose once for all of this element of compunction. +Chad was to treat it, at any rate, so far as they were again +together, as having done so. "I was 'in' when you found me." + +"Ah but it was you," the young man laughed, "who found ME." + +"I only found you out. It was you who found me in. It was all in +the day's work for them, at all events, that they should come. And +they've greatly enjoyed it," Strether declared. + +"Well, I've tried to make them," said Chad. + +His companion did himself presently the same justice. "So have I. +I tried even this very morning--while Mrs. Pocock was with me. She +enjoys for instance, almost as much as anything else, not being, as +I've said, afraid of me; and I think I gave her help in that." + +Chad took a deeper interest. "Was she very very nasty?" + +Strether debated. "Well, she was the most important thing--she was +definite. She was--at last--crystalline. And I felt no remorse. +I saw that they must have come." + +"Oh I wanted to see them for myself; so that if it were only for +THAT--!" Chad's own remorse was as small. + +This appeared almost all Strether wanted. "Isn't your having seen +them for yourself then THE thing, beyond all others, that has come +of their visit?" + +Chad looked as if he thought it nice of his old friend to put it +so. "Don't you count it as anything that you're dished--if you ARE +dished? Are you, my dear man, dished?" + +It sounded as if he were asking if he had caught cold or hurt his +foot, and Strether for a minute but smoked and smoked. "I want to +see her again. I must see her." + +"Of course you must." Then Chad hesitated. "Do you mean--a--Mother +herself?" + +"Oh your mother--that will depend." + +It was as if Mrs. Newsome had somehow been placed by the words +very far off. Chad however endeavoured in spite of this to reach +the place. "What do you mean it will depend on?" + +Strether, for all answer, gave him a longish look. "I was speaking +of Sarah. I must positively--though she quite cast me off--see HER +again. I can't part with her that way." + +"Then she was awfully unpleasant?" + +Again Strether exhaled. "She was what she had to be. I mean that +from the moment they're not delighted they can only be--well what I +admit she was. We gave them," he went on, "their chance to be +delighted, and they've walked up to it, and looked all round it, +and not taken it." + +"You can bring a horse to water--!" Chad suggested. + +"Precisely. And the tune to which this morning Sarah wasn't +delighted--the tune to which, to adopt your metaphor, she refused +to drink--leaves us on that side nothing more to hope." + +Chad had a pause, and then as if consolingly: "It was never of +course really the least on the cards that they would be 'delighted.'" + +"Well, I don't know, after all," Strether mused. "I've had to come +as far round. However"--he shook it off--"it's doubtless MY +performance that's absurd." + +"There are certainly moments," said Chad, "when you seem to me too +good to be true. Yet if you are true," he added, "that seems to be +all that need concern me." + +"I'm true, but I'm incredible. I'm fantastic and ridiculous-- +I don't explain myself even TO myself. How can they then," +Strether asked, "understand me? So I don't quarrel with them." + +"I see. They quarrel," said Chad rather comfortably, "with US." +Strether noted once more the comfort, but his young friend had +already gone on. "I should feel greatly ashamed, all the same, +if I didn't put it before you again that you ought to think, +after all, tremendously well. I mean before giving up beyond recall--" +With which insistence, as from a certain delicacy, dropped. + +Ah but Strether wanted it. "Say it all, say it all." + +"Well, at your age, and with what--when all's said and done-- +Mother might do for you and be for you." + +Chad had said it all, from his natural scruple, only to that +extent; so that Strether after an instant himself took a hand. +"My absence of an assured future. The little I have to show toward +the power to take care of myself. The way, the wonderful way, +she would certainly take care of me. Her fortune, her kindness, +and the constant miracle of her having been disposed to go even so far. +Of course, of course"--he summed it up. "There are those sharp facts." + +Chad had meanwhile thought of another still. "And don't you really +care--?" + +His friend slowly turned round to him. "Will you go?" + +"I'll go if you'll say you now consider I should. You know," he +went on, "I was ready six weeks ago." + +"Ah," said Strether, "that was when you didn't know I wasn't! +You're ready at present because you do know it." + +"That may be," Chad returned; "but all the same I'm sincere. You +talk about taking the whole thing on your shoulders, but in what +light do you regard me that you think me capable of letting you +pay?" Strether patted his arm, as they stood together against the +parapet, reassuringly--seeming to wish to contend that he HAD the +wherewithal; but it was again round this question of purchase and +price that the young man's sense of fairness continued to hover. +"What it literally comes to for you, if you'll pardon my putting it +so, is that you give up money. Possibly a good deal of money." + +"Oh," Strether laughed, "if it were only just enough you'd still be +justified in putting it so! But I've on my side to remind you too +that YOU give up money; and more than 'possibly'--quite certainly, +as I should suppose--a good deal." + +"True enough; but I've got a certain quantity," Chad returned after +a moment. "Whereas you, my dear man, you--" + +"I can't be at all said"--Strether took him up--"to have a 'quantity' +certain or uncertain? Very true. Still, I shan't starve." + +"Oh you mustn't STARVE!" Chad pacifically emphasised; and so, in +the pleasant conditions, they continued to talk; though there was, +for that matter, a pause in which the younger companion might have +been taken as weighing again the delicacy of his then and there +promising the elder some provision against the possibility just +mentioned. This, however, he presumably thought best not to do, +for at the end of another minute they had moved in quite a different +direction. Strether had broken in by returning to the subject of +Chad's passage with Sarah and enquiring if they had arrived, in the +event, at anything in the nature of a "scene." To this Chad replied +that they had on the contrary kept tremendously polite; adding moreover +that Sally was after all not the woman to have made the mistake of +not being. "Her hands are a good deal tied, you see. I got so, +from the first," he sagaciously observed, "the start of her." + +"You mean she has taken so much from you?" + +"Well, I couldn't of course in common decency give less: only she +hadn't expected, I think, that I'd give her nearly so much. And +she began to take it before she knew it." + +"And she began to like it," said Strether, "as soon as she began to +take it!" + +"Yes, she has liked it--also more than she expected." After which +Chad observed: "But she doesn't like ME. In fact she hates me." + +Strether's interest grew. "Then why does she want you at home?" + +"Because when you hate you want to triumph, and if she should get +me neatly stuck there she WOULD triumph." + +Strether followed afresh, but looking as he went. "Certainly--in a +manner. But it would scarce be a triumph worth having if, once +entangled, feeling her dislike and possibly conscious in time of a +certain quantity of your own, you should on the spot make yourself +unpleasant to her." + +"Ah," said Chad, "she can bear ME--could bear me at least at home. +It's my being there that would be her triumph. She hates me in Paris." + +"She hates in other words--" + +"Yes, THAT'S it!"--Chad had quickly understood this understanding; +which formed on the part of each as near an approach as they had +yet made to naming Madame de Vionnet. The limitations of their +distinctness didn't, however, prevent its fairly lingering in the +air that it was this lady Mrs. Pocock hated. It added one more +touch moreover to their established recognition of the rare intimacy +of Chad's association with her. He had never yet more twitched away +the last light veil from this phenomenon than in presenting himself +as confounded and submerged in the feeling she had created at Woollett. +"And I'll tell you who hates me too," he immediately went on. + +Strether knew as immediately whom he meant, but with as prompt a +protest. "Ah no! Mamie doesn't hate--well," he caught himself in +time--"anybody at all. Mamie's beautiful." + +Chad shook his head. "That's just why I mind it. She certainly +doesn't like me." + +"How much do you mind it? What would you do for her?" + +"Well, I'd like her if she'd like me. Really, really," Chad declared. + +It gave his companion a moment's pause. "You asked me just now if +I don't, as you said, 'care' about a certain person. You rather +tempt me therefore to put the question in my turn. Don't YOU care +about a certain other person?" + +Chad looked at him hard in the lamplight of the window. "The +difference is that I don't want to." + +Strether wondered. "'Don't want' to?" + +"I try not to--that is I HAVE tried. I've done my best. You can't +be surprised," the young man easily went on, "when you yourself set +me on it. I was indeed," he added, "already on it a little; but you +set me harder. It was six weeks ago that I thought I had come out." + +Strether took it well in. "But you haven't come out!" + +"I don't know--it's what I WANT to know," said Chad. "And if I +could have sufficiently wanted--by myself--to go back, I think I +might have found out." + +"Possibly"--Strether considered. "But all you were able to achieve +was to want to want to! And even then," he pursued, "only till our +friends there came. Do you want to want to still?" As with a +sound half-dolorous, half-droll and all vague and equivocal, Chad +buried his face for a little in his hands, rubbing it in a +whimsical way that amounted to an evasion, he brought it out more +sharply: "DO you?" + +Chad kept for a time his attitude, but at last he looked up, and +then abruptly, "Jim IS a damned dose!" he declared. + +"Oh I don't ask you to abuse or describe or in any way pronounce on +your relatives; I simply put it to you once more whether you're NOW +ready. You say you've 'seen.' Is what you've seen that you can't +resist?" + +Chad gave him a strange smile--the nearest approach he had ever +shown to a troubled one. "Can't you make me NOT resist?" + +"What it comes to," Strether went on very gravely now and as if he +hadn't heard him, "what it comes to is that more has been done for +you, I think, than I've ever seen done--attempted perhaps, but +never so successfully done--by one human being for another." + +"Oh an immense deal certainly"--Chad did it full justice. "And you +yourself are adding to it." + +It was without heeding this either that his visitor continued. +"And our friends there won't have it." + +"No, they simply won't." + +"They demand you on the basis, as it were, of repudiation and +ingratitude; and what has been the matter with me," Strether went +on, "is that I haven't seen my way to working with you for +repudiation." + +Chad appreciated this. "Then as you haven't seen yours you +naturally haven't seen mine. There it is." After which he +proceeded, with a certain abruptness, to a sharp interrogation. +"NOW do you say she doesn't hate me?" + +Strether hesitated. "'She'--?" + +"Yes--Mother. We called it Sarah, but it comes to the same thing." + +"Ah," Strether objected, "not to the same thing as her hating YOU." + +On which--though as if for an instant it had hung fire--Chad +remarkably replied: "Well, if they hate my good friend, THAT comes +to the same thing." It had a note of inevitable truth that made +Strether take it as enough, feel he wanted nothing more. The young +man spoke in it for his "good friend" more than he had ever yet +directly spoken, confessed to such deep identities between them as +he might play with the idea of working free from, but which at a +given moment could still draw him down like a whirlpool. And +meanwhile he had gone on. "Their hating you too moreover--that +also comes to a good deal." + +"Ah," said Strether, "your mother doesn't." + +Chad, however, loyally stuck to it--loyally, that is, to Strether. +"She will if you don't look out." + +"Well, I do look out. I am, after all, looking out. That's just +why," our friend explained, "I want to see her again." + +It drew from Chad again the same question. "To see Mother?" + +"To see--for the present--Sarah." + +"Ah then there you are! And what I don't for the life of me make +out," Chad pursued with resigned perplexity, "is what you GAIN by it." + +Oh it would have taken his companion too long to say! "That's +because you have, I verily believe, no imagination. You've other +qualities. But no imagination, don't you see? at all." + +"I dare say. I do see." It was an idea in which Chad showed +interest. "But haven't you yourself rather too much?" + +"Oh RATHER--!" So that after an instant, under this reproach and +as if it were at last a fact really to escape from, Strether made +his move for departure. + + + +II + + +One of the features of the restless afternoon passed by him after +Mrs. Pocock's visit was an hour spent, shortly before dinner, with +Maria Gostrey, whom of late, in spite of so sustained a call on his +attention from other quarters, he had by no means neglected. And +that he was still not neglecting her will appear from the fact that +he was with her again at the same hour on the very morrow--with no +less fine a consciousness moreover of being able to hold her ear. +It continued inveterately to occur, for that matter, that whenever +he had taken one of his greater turns he came back to where she so +faithfully awaited him. None of these excursions had on the whole +been livelier than the pair of incidents--the fruit of the short +interval since his previous visit--on which he had now to report to +her. He had seen Chad Newsome late the night before, and he had +had that morning, as a sequel to this conversation, a second +interview with Sarah. "But they're all off," he said, "at last." + +It puzzled her a moment. "All?--Mr. Newsome with them?" + +"Ah not yet! Sarah and Jim and Mamie. But Waymarsh with them-- +for Sarah. It's too beautiful," Strether continued; "I find I don't +get over that--it's always a fresh joy. But it's a fresh joy too," +he added, "that--well, what do you think? Little Bilham also goes. +But he of course goes for Mamie." + +Miss Gostrey wondered. "'For' her? Do you mean they're already +engaged?" + +"Well," said Strether, "say then for ME. He'll do anything for me; +just as I will, for that matter--anything I can--for him. Or for +Mamie either. SHE'LL do anything for me." + +Miss Gostrey gave a comprehensive sigh. "The way you reduce people +to subjection!" + +"It's certainly, on one side, wonderful. But it's quite equalled, +on another, by the way I don't. I haven't reduced Sarah, since +yesterday; though I've succeeded in seeing her again, as I'll +presently tell you. The others however are really all right. +Mamie, by that blessed law of ours, absolutely must have a young +man." + +"But what must poor Mr. Bilham have? Do you mean they'll MARRY +for you?" + +"I mean that, by the same blessed law, it won't matter a grain if +they don't--I shan't have in the least to worry." + +She saw as usual what he meant. "And Mr. Jim?--who goes for him?" + +"Oh," Strether had to admit, "I couldn't manage THAT. He's +thrown, as usual, on the world; the world which, after all, by his +account--for he has prodigious adventures--seems very good to him. +He fortunately--'over here,' as he says--finds the world +everywhere; and his most prodigious adventure of all," he went on, +"has been of course of the last few days." + +Miss Gostrey, already knowing, instantly made the connexion. "He +has seen Marie de Vionnet again?" + +"He went, all by himself, the day after Chad's party--didn't I +tell you?--to tea with her. By her invitation--all alone." + +"Quite like yourself!" Maria smiled. + +"Oh but he's more wonderful about her than I am!" And then as his +friend showed how she could believe it, filling it out, fitting it +on to old memories of the wonderful woman: "What I should have +liked to manage would have been HER going." + +"To Switzerland with the party?" + +"For Jim--and for symmetry. If it had been workable moreover for +a fortnight she'd have gone. She's ready"--he followed up his +renewed vision of her--"for anything." + +Miss Gostrey went with him a minute. "She's too perfect!" + +"She WILL, I think," he pursued, "go to-night to the station." + +"To see him off?" + +"With Chad--marvellously--as part of their general attention. And +she does it"--it kept before him--"with a light, light grace, a +free, free gaiety, that may well softly bewilder Mr. Pocock." + +It kept her so before him that his companion had after an instant a +friendly comment. "As in short it has softly bewildered a saner +man. Are you really in love with her?" Maria threw off. + +"It's of no importance I should know," he replied. "It matters so +little--has nothing to do, practically, with either of us." + +"All the same"--Maria continued to smile--"they go, the five, as I +understand you, and you and Madame de Vionnet stay." + +"Oh and Chad." To which Strether added: "And you." + +"Ah 'me'!"--she gave a small impatient wail again, in which +something of the unreconciled seemed suddenly to break out. "I +don't stay, it somehow seems to me, much to my advantage. In the +presence of all you cause to pass before me I've a tremendous sense +of privation." + +Strether hesitated. "But your privation, your keeping out of +everything, has been--hasn't it?--by your own choice." + +"Oh yes; it has been necessary--that is it has been better for you. +What I mean is only that I seem to have ceased to serve you." + +"How can you tell that?" he asked. "You don't know how you serve me. +When you cease--" + +"Well?" she said as he dropped. + +"Well, I'll LET you know. Be quiet till then." + +She thought a moment. "Then you positively like me to stay?" + +"Don't I treat you as if I did?" + +"You're certainly very kind to me. But that," said Maria, "is for +myself. It's getting late, as you see, and Paris turning rather +hot and dusty. People are scattering, and some of them, in other +places want me. But if you want me here--!" + +She had spoken as resigned to his word, but he had of a sudden a +still sharper sense than he would have expected of desiring not to +lose her. "I want you here." + +She took it as if the words were all she had wished; as if they +brought her, gave her something that was the compensation of her +case. "Thank you," she simply answered. And then as he looked at +her a little harder, "Thank you very much," she repeated. + +It had broken as with a slight arrest into the current of their +talk, and it held him a moment longer. "Why, two months, or +whatever the time was, ago, did you so suddenly dash off? The +reason you afterwards gave me for having kept away three weeks wasn't +the real one." + +She recalled. "I never supposed you believed it was. Yet," she +continued, "if you didn't guess it that was just what helped you." + +He looked away from her on this; he indulged, so far as space +permitted, in one of his slow absences. "I've often thought of it, +but never to feel that I could guess it. And you see the +consideration with which I've treated you in never asking till now." + +"Now then why DO you ask?" + +"To show you how I miss you when you're not here, and what it does +for me." + +"It doesn't seem to have done," she laughed, "all it might! +However," she added, "if you've really never guessed the truth I'll +tell it you." + +"I've never guessed it," Strether declared. + +"Never?" + +"Never." + +"Well then I dashed off, as you say, so as not to have the +confusion of being there if Marie de Vionnet should tell you +anything to my detriment." + +He looked as if he considerably doubted. "You even then would have +had to face it on your return." + +"Oh if I had found reason to believe it something very bad I'd have +left you altogether." + +"So then," he continued, "it was only on guessing she had been on +the whole merciful that you ventured back?" + +Maria kept it together. "I owe her thanks. Whatever her temptation +she didn't separate us. That's one of my reasons," she went on +"for admiring her so." + +"Let it pass then," said Strether, "for one of mine as well. But +what would have been her temptation?" + +"What are ever the temptations of women?" + +He thought--but hadn't, naturally, to think too long. "Men?" + +"She would have had you, with it, more for herself. But she saw +she could have you without it." + +"Oh 'have' me!" Strether a trifle ambiguously sighed. "YOU," he +handsomely declared, "would have had me at any rate WITH it." + +"Oh 'have' you!"--she echoed it as he had done. "I do have you, +however," she less ironically said, "from the moment you express a +wish." + +He stopped before her, full of the disposition. "I'll express fifty." + +Which indeed begot in her, with a certain inconsequence, a return +of her small wail. "Ah there you are!" + +There, if it were so, he continued for the rest of the time to be, +and it was as if to show her how she could still serve him that, +coming back to the departure of the Pococks, he gave her the view, +vivid with a hundred more touches than we can reproduce, of what +had happened for him that morning. He had had ten minutes with +Sarah at her hotel, ten minutes reconquered, by irresistible pressure, +from the time over which he had already described her to Miss Gostrey +as having, at the end of their interview on his own premises, passed +the great sponge of the future. He had caught her by not announcing +himself, had found her in her sitting-room with a dressmaker and a +lingere whose accounts she appeared to have been more or less +ingenuously settling and who soon withdrew. Then he had explained +to her how he had succeeded, late the night before, in keeping +his promise of seeing Chad. "I told her I'd take it all." + +"You'd 'take' it?" + +"Why if he doesn't go." + +Maria waited. "And who takes it if he does?" she enquired with a +certain grimness of gaiety. + +"Well," said Strether, "I think I take, in any event, everything." + +"By which I suppose you mean," his companion brought out after a +moment, "that you definitely understand you now lose everything." + +He stood before her again. "It does come perhaps to the same +thing. But Chad, now that he has seen, doesn't really want it." + +She could believe that, but she made, as always, for clearness. +"Still, what, after all, HAS he seen?" + +"What they want of him. And it's enough." + +"It contrasts so unfavourably with what Madame de Vionnet wants?" + +"It contrasts--just so; all round, and tremendously." + +"Therefore, perhaps, most of all with what YOU want?" + +"Oh," said Strether, "what I want is a thing I've ceased to measure +or even to understand." + +But his friend none the less went on. "Do you want Mrs. Newsome-- +after such a way of treating you?" + +It was a straighter mode of dealing with this lady than they had as +yet--such was their high form--permitted themselves; but it seemed +not wholly for this that he delayed a moment. "I dare say it has +been, after all, the only way she could have imagined." + +"And does that make you want her any more?" + +"I've tremendously disappointed her," Strether thought it worth +while to mention. + +"Of course you have. That's rudimentary; that was plain to us long +ago. But isn't it almost as plain," Maria went on, "that you've +even yet your straight remedy? Really drag him away, as I believe +you still can, and you'd cease to have to count with her +disappointment." + +"Ah then," he laughed, "I should have to count with yours!" + +But this barely struck her now. "What, in that case, should you +call counting? You haven't come out where you are, I think, to +please ME." + +"Oh," he insisted, "that too, you know, has been part of it. +I can't separate--it's all one; and that's perhaps why, as I say, +I don't understand." But he was ready to declare again that this +didn't in the least matter; all the more that, as he affirmed, +he HADn't really as yet "come out." "She gives me after all, on +its coming to the pinch, a last mercy, another chance. They don't +sail, you see, for five or six weeks more, and they haven't--she +admits that--expected Chad would take part in their tour. It's +still open to him to join them, at the last, at Liverpool." + +Miss Gostrey considered. "How in the world is it 'open' unless you +open it? How can he join them at Liverpool if he but sinks deeper +into his situation here?" + +"He has given her--as I explained to you that she let me know +yesterday--his word of honour to do as I say." + +Maria stared. "But if you say nothing!" + +Well, he as usual walked about on it. "I did say something this +morning. I gave her my answer--the word I had promised her after +hearing from himself what HE had promised. What she demanded of +me yesterday, you'll remember, was the engagement then and there to +make him take up this vow." + +"Well then," Miss Gostrey enquired, "was the purpose of your visit +to her only to decline?" + +"No; it was to ask, odd as that may seem to you, for another delay." + +"Ah that's weak!" + +"Precisely!" She had spoken with impatience, but, so far as that +at least, he knew where he was. "If I AM weak I want to find it +out. If I don't find it out I shall have the comfort, the little +glory, of thinking I'm strong." + +"It's all the comfort, I judge," she returned, "that you WILL have!" + +"At any rate," he said, "it will have been a month more. Paris may +grow, from day to day, hot and dusty, as you say; but there are +other things that are hotter and dustier. I'm not afraid to stay +on; the summer here must be amusing in a wild--if it isn't a tame-- +way of its own; the place at no time more picturesque. I think I +shall like it. And then," he benevolently smiled for her, "there +will be always you." + +"Oh," she objected, "it won't be as a part of the picturesqueness +that I shall stay, for I shall be the plainest thing about you. +You may, you see, at any rate," she pursued, "have nobody else. +Madame de Vionnet may very well be going off, mayn't she?--and +Mr. Newsome by the same stroke: unless indeed you've had an assurance +from them to the contrary. So that if your idea's to stay for them"-- +it was her duty to suggest it--"you may be left in the lurch. +Of course if they do stay"--she kept it up--"they would be part of +the picturesqueness. Or else indeed you might join them somewhere." + +Strether seemed to face it as if it were a happy thought; but the +next moment he spoke more critically. "Do you mean that they'll +probably go off together?" + +She just considered. "I think it will be treating you quite +without ceremony if they do; though after all," she added, "it +would be difficult to see now quite what degree of ceremony properly +meets your case." + +"Of course," Strether conceded, "my attitude toward them is extraordinary." + +"Just so; so that one may ask one's self what style of proceeding +on their own part can altogether match it. The attitude of their +own that won't pale in its light they've doubtless still to work +out. The really handsome thing perhaps," she presently threw off, +"WOULD be for them to withdraw into more secluded conditions, +offering at the same time to share them with you." He looked at +her, on this, as if some generous irritation--all in his interest-- +had suddenly again flickered in her; and what she next said indeed +half-explained it. "Don't really be afraid to tell me if what now +holds you IS the pleasant prospect of the empty town, with plenty +of seats in the shade, cool drinks, deserted museums, drives to the +Bois in the evening, and our wonderful woman all to yourself." And +she kept it up still more. "The handsomest thing of ALL, when one +makes it out, would, I dare say, be that Mr. Chad should for a +while go off by himself. It's a pity, from that point of view," +she wound up, "that he doesn't pay his mother a visit. It would +at least occupy your interval." The thought in fact held her a +moment. "Why doesn't he pay his mother a visit? Even a week, at +this good moment, would do." + +"My dear lady," Strether replied--and he had it even to himself +surprisingly ready--"my dear lady, his mother has paid HIM a visit. +Mrs. Newsome has been with him, this month, with an intensity that +I'm sure he has thoroughly felt; he has lavishly entertained her, +and she has let him have her thanks. Do you suggest he shall go +back for more of them?" + +Well, she succeeded after a little in shaking it off. "I see. +It's what you don't suggest--what you haven't suggested. +And you know." + +"So would you, my dear," he kindly said, "if you had so much as +seen her." + +"As seen Mrs. Newsome?" + +"No, Sarah--which, both for Chad and for myself, has served all +the purpose." + +"And served it in a manner," she responsively mused, "so extraordinary!" + +"Well, you see," he partly explained, "what it comes to is that she's +all cold thought--which Sarah could serve to us cold without its +really losing anything. So it is that we know what she thinks of us." + +Maria had followed, but she had an arrest. "What I've never made +out, if you come to that, is what you think--I mean you personally-- +of HER. Don't you so much, when all's said, as care a little?" + +"That," he answered with no loss of promptness, "is what even Chad +himself asked me last night. He asked me if I don't mind the loss-- +well, the loss of an opulent future. Which moreover," he hastened +to add, "was a perfectly natural question." + +"I call your attention, all the same," said Miss Gostrey, "to the +fact that I don't ask it. What I venture to ask is whether it's to +Mrs. Newsome herself that you're indifferent." + +"I haven't been so"--he spoke with all assurance. "I've been the +very opposite. I've been, from the first moment, preoccupied with +the impression everything might be making on her--quite oppressed, +haunted, tormented by it. I've been interested ONLY in her seeing +what I've seen. And I've been as disappointed in her refusal to +see it as she has been in what has appeared to her the perversity +of my insistence." + +"Do you mean that she has shocked you as you've shocked her?" + +Strether weighed it. "I'm probably not so shockable. But on the +other hand I've gone much further to meet her. She, on her side, +hasn't budged an inch." + +"So that you're now at last"--Maria pointed the moral--"in the sad +stage of recriminations." + +"No--it's only to you I speak. I've been like a lamb to Sarah. +I've only put my back to the wall. It's to THAT one naturally +staggers when one has been violently pushed there." + +She watched him a moment. "Thrown over?" + +"Well, as I feel I've landed somewhere I think I must have been thrown." + +She turned it over, but as hoping to clarify much rather than to +harmonise. "The thing is that I suppose you've been disappointing--" + +"Quite from the very first of my arrival? I dare say. I admit I +was surprising even to myself." + +"And then of course," Maria went on, "I had much to do with it." + +"With my being surprising--?" + +"That will do," she laughed, "if you're too delicate to call it MY +being! Naturally," she added, "you came over more or less for +surprises." + +"Naturally!"--he valued the reminder. + +"But they were to have been all for you"--she continued to piece it +out--"and none of them for HER." + +Once more he stopped before her as if she had touched the point. +"That's just her difficulty--that she doesn't admit surprises. +It's a fact that, I think, describes and represents her; and it +falls in with what I tell you--that she's all, as I've called it, +fine cold thought. She had, to her own mind, worked the whole +thing out in advance, and worked it out for me as well as for +herself. Whenever she has done that, you see, there's no room +left; no margin, as it were, for any alteration. She's filled as +full, packed as tight, as she'll hold and if you wish to get +anything more or different either out or in--" + +"You've got to make over altogether the woman herself?" + +"What it comes to," said Strether, "is that you've got morally and +intellectually to get rid of her." + +"Which would appear," Maria returned, "to be practically what +you've done." + +But her friend threw back his head. "I haven't touched her. She +won't BE touched. I see it now as I've never done; and she hangs +together with a perfection of her own," he went on, "that does +suggest a kind of wrong in ANY change of her composition. It was +at any rate," he wound up, "the woman herself, as you call her the +whole moral and intellectual being or block, that Sarah brought me +over to take or to leave." + +It turned Miss Gostrey to deeper thought. "Fancy having to take at the +point of the bayonet a whole moral and intellectual being or block!" + +"It was in fact," said Strether, "what, at home, I HAD done. +But somehow over there I didn't quite know it." + +"One never does, I suppose," Miss Gostrey concurred, "realise in +advance, in such a case, the size, as you may say, of the block. +Little by little it looms up. It has been looming for you more and +more till at last you see it all." + +"I see it all," he absently echoed, while his eyes might have been +fixing some particularly large iceberg in a cool blue northern sea. +"It's magnificent!" he then rather oddly exclaimed. + +But his friend, who was used to this kind of inconsequence in him, +kept the thread. "There's nothing so magnificent--for making +others feel you--as to have no imagination." + +It brought him straight round. "Ah there you are! It's what I said +last night to Chad. That he himself, I mean, has none." + +"Then it would appear," Maria suggested, "that he has, after all, +something in common with his mother." + +"He has in common that he makes one, as you say, 'feel' him. And +yet," he added, as if the question were interesting, "one feels +others too, even when they have plenty." + +Miss Gostrey continued suggestive. "Madame de Vionnet?" + +"SHE has plenty." + +"Certainly--she had quantities of old. But there are different +ways of making one's self felt." + +"Yes, it comes, no doubt, to that. You now--' + +He was benevolently going on, but she wouldn't have it. +"Oh I DON'T make myself felt; so my quantity needn't be settled. +Yours, you know," she said, "is monstrous. No one has ever had so much." + +It struck him for a moment. "That's what Chad also thinks." + +"There YOU are then--though it isn't for him to complain of it!" + +"Oh he doesn't complain of it," said Strether. + +"That's all that would be wanting! But apropos of what," Maria went +on, "did the question come up?" + +"Well, of his asking me what it is I gain." + +She had a pause. "Then as I've asked you too it settles my case. +Oh you HAVE," she repeated, "treasures of imagination." + +But he had been for an instant thinking away from this, and he came +up in another place. "And yet Mrs. Newsome--it's a thing to +remember--HAS imagined, did, that is, imagine, and apparently still +does, horrors about what I should have found. I was booked, by her +vision--extraordinarily intense, after all--to find them; and that +I didn't, that I couldn't, that, as she evidently felt, I wouldn't-- +this evidently didn't at all, as they say, 'suit' her book. +It was more than she could bear. That was her disappointment." + +"You mean you were to have found Chad himself horrible?" + +"I was to have found the woman." + +"Horrible?" + +"Found her as she imagined her." And Strether paused as if for his +own expression of it he could add no touch to that picture. + +His companion had meanwhile thought. "She imagined stupidly--so it +comes to the same thing." + +"Stupidly? Oh!" said Strether. + +But she insisted. "She imagined meanly." + +He had it, however, better. "It couldn't but be ignorantly." + +"Well, intensity with ignorance--what do you want worse?" + +This question might have held him, but he let it pass. "Sarah +isn't ignorant--now; she keeps up the theory of the horrible." + +"Ah but she's intense--and that by itself will do sometimes as +well. If it doesn't do, in this case, at any rate, to deny that +Marie's charming, it will do at least to deny that she's good." + +"What I claim is that she's good for Chad." + +"You don't claim"--she seemed to like it clear--"that she's good +for YOU." + +But he continued without heeding. "That's what I wanted them to +come out for--to see for themselves if she's bad for him." + +"And now that they've done so they won't admit that she's good even +for anything?" + +"They do think," Strether presently admitted, "that she's on the +whole about as bad for me. But they're consistent of course, +inasmuch as they've their clear view of what's good for both of us." + +"For you, to begin with"--Maria, all responsive, confined the +question for the moment--"to eliminate from your existence and if +possible even from your memory the dreadful creature that I must +gruesomely shadow forth for them, even more than to eliminate the +distincter evil--thereby a little less portentous--of the person +whose confederate you've suffered yourself to become. However, +that's comparatively simple. You can easily, at the worst, after +all, give me up." + +"I can easily at the worst, after all, give you up." The irony was +so obvious that it needed no care. "I can easily at the worst, +after all, even forget you." + +"Call that then workable. But Mr. Newsome has much more to forget. +How can HE do it?" + +"Ah there again we are! That's just what I was to have made him do; +just where I was to have worked with him and helped." + +She took it in silence and without attenuation--as if perhaps from +very familiarity with the facts; and her thought made a connexion +without showing the links. "Do you remember how we used to talk at +Chester and in London about my seeing you through?" She spoke as +of far-off things and as if they had spent weeks at the places +she named. + +"It's just what you ARE doing." + +"Ah but the worst--since you've left such a margin--may be still +to come. You may yet break down." + +"Yes, I may yet break down. But will you take me--?" + +He had hesitated, and she waited. "Take you?" + +"For as long as I can bear it." + +She also debated "Mr. Newsome and Madame de Vionnet may, as we were +saying, leave town. How long do you think you can bear it without them?" + +Strether's reply to this was at first another question. "Do you mean +in order to get away from me?" + +Her answer had an abruptness. "Don't find me rude if I say I should +think they'd want to!" + +He looked at her hard again--seemed even for an instant to have an +intensity of thought under which his colour changed. But he +smiled. "You mean after what they've done to me?" + +"After what SHE has." + +At this, however, with a laugh, he was all right again. "Ah but +she hasn't done it yet!" + + + +III + + +He had taken the train a few days after this from a station-- +as well as to a station--selected almost at random; such days, +whatever should happen, were numbered, and he had gone forth under +the impulse--artless enough, no doubt--to give the whole of one of +them to that French ruralism, with its cool special green, into +which he had hitherto looked only through the little oblong window +of the picture-frame. It had been as yet for the most part but a +land of fancy for him--the background of fiction, the medium of +art, the nursery of letters; practically as distant as Greece, but +practically also well-nigh as consecrated. Romance could weave +itself, for Strether's sense, out of elements mild enough; and even +after what he had, as he felt, lately "been through," he could +thrill a little at the chance of seeing something somewhere that +would remind him of a certain small Lambinet that had charmed him, +long years before, at a Boston dealer's and that he had quite +absurdly never forgotten. It had been offered, he remembered, at a +price he had been instructed to believe the lowest ever named for a +Lambinet, a price he had never felt so poor as on having to recognise, +all the same, as beyond a dream of possibility. He had dreamed-- +had turned and twisted possibilities for an hour: it had been +the only adventure of his life in connexion with the purchase +of a work of art. The adventure, it will be perceived, was modest; +but the memory, beyond all reason and by some accident of +association, was sweet. The little Lambinet abode with him as the +picture he WOULD have bought--the particular production that had +made him for the moment overstep the modesty of nature. He was +quite aware that if he were to see it again he should perhaps have +a drop or a shock, and he never found himself wishing that the +wheel of time would turn it up again, just as he had seen it in the +maroon-coloured, sky-lighted inner shrine of Tremont Street. +It would be a different thing, however, to see the remembered mixture +resolved back into its elements--to assist at the restoration to +nature of the whole far-away hour: the dusty day in Boston, the +background of the Fitchburg Depot, of the maroon-coloured sanctum, +the special-green vision, the ridiculous price, the poplars, the +willows, the rushes, the river, the sunny silvery sky, the shady +woody horizon. + +He observed in respect to his train almost no condition save that +it should stop a few times after getting out of the banlieue; +he threw himself on the general amiability of the day for the hint of +where to alight. His theory of his excursion was that he could +alight anywhere--not nearer Paris than an hour's run--on catching a +suggestion of the particular note required. It made its sign, the +suggestion--weather, air, light, colour and his mood all favouring-- +at the end of some eighty minutes; the train pulled up just at the +right spot, and he found himself getting out as securely as if to +keep an appointment. It will be felt of him that he could amuse +himself, at his age, with very small things if it be again noted +that his appointment was only with a superseded Boston fashion. He +hadn't gone far without the quick confidence that it would be +quite sufficiently kept. The oblong gilt frame disposed its +enclosing lines; the poplars and willows, the reeds and river-- +a river of which he didn't know, and didn't want to know, the name-- +fell into a composition, full of felicity, within them; the sky +was silver and turquoise and varnish; the village on the left was +white and the church on the right was grey; it was all there, in +short--it was what he wanted: it was Tremont Street, it was France, +it was Lambinet. Moreover he was freely walking about in it. +He did this last, for an hour, to his heart's content, making +for the shady woody horizon and boring so deep into his impression +and his idleness that he might fairly have got through them again +and reached the maroon-coloured wall. It was a wonder, no doubt, +that the taste of idleness for him shouldn't need more time to +sweeten; but it had in fact taken the few previous days; it had +been sweetening in truth ever since the retreat of the Pococks. +He walked and walked as if to show himself how little he had now to do; +he had nothing to do but turn off to some hillside where he might +stretch himself and hear the poplars rustle, and whence--in the +course of an afternoon so spent, an afternoon richly suffused too +with the sense of a book in his pocket--he should sufficiently +command the scene to be able to pick out just the right little +rustic inn for an experiment in respect to dinner. There was a +train back to Paris at 9.20, and he saw himself partaking, at the +close of the day, with the enhancements of a coarse white cloth and +a sanded door, of something fried and felicitous, washed down with +authentic wine; after which he might, as he liked, either stroll +back to his station in the gloaming or propose for the local +carriole and converse with his driver, a driver who naturally wouldn't +fail of a stiff clean blouse, of a knitted nightcap and of the genius +of response--who, in fine, would sit on the shafts, tell him what +the French people were thinking, and remind him, as indeed the whole +episode would incidentally do, of Maupassant. Strether heard his lips, +for the first time in French air, as this vision assumed consistency, +emit sounds of expressive intention without fear of his company. +He had been afraid of Chad and of Maria and of Madame de Vionnet; +he had been most of all afraid of Waymarsh, in whose presence, +so far as they had mixed together in the light of the town, he had +never without somehow paying for it aired either his vocabulary +or his accent. He usually paid for it by meeting immediately +afterwards Waymarsh's eye. + +Such were the liberties with which his fancy played after he had +turned off to the hillside that did really and truly, as well as +most amiably, await him beneath the poplars, the hillside that made +him feel, for a murmurous couple of hours, how happy had been his +thought. He had the sense of success, of a finer harmony in +things; nothing but what had turned out as yet according to his plan. +It most of all came home to him, as he lay on his back on the grass, +that Sarah had really gone, that his tension was really relaxed; +the peace diffused in these ideas might be delusive, but it hung about +him none the less for the time. It fairly, for half an hour, +sent him to sleep; he pulled his straw hat over his eyes-- +he had bought it the day before with a reminiscence of Waymarsh's-- +and lost himself anew in Lambinet. It was as if he had found out +he was tired--tired not from his walk, but from that inward +exercise which had known, on the whole, for three months, so little +intermission. That was it--when once they were off he had dropped; +this moreover was what he had dropped to, and now he was touching +bottom. He was kept luxuriously quiet, soothed and amused by the +consciousness of what he had found at the end of his descent. It +was very much what he had told Maria Gostrey he should like to stay +on for, the hugely-distributed Paris of summer, alternately +dazzling and dusky, with a weight lifted for him off its columns +and cornices and with shade and air in the flutter of awnings as +wide as avenues. It was present to him without attenuation that, +reaching out, the day after making the remark, for some proof of +his freedom, he had gone that very afternoon to see Madame de Vionnet. +He had gone again the next day but one, and the effect of the two +visits, the after-sense of the couple of hours spent with her, +was almost that of fulness and frequency. The brave intention of +frequency, so great with him from the moment of his finding himself +unjustly suspected at Woollett, had remained rather theoretic, +and one of the things he could muse about under his poplars was +the source of the special shyness that had still made him careful. +He had surely got rid of it now, this special shyness; what had become +of it if it hadn't precisely, within the week, rubbed off? + +It struck him now in fact as sufficiently plain that if he had +still been careful he had been so for a reason. He had really +feared, in his behaviour, a lapse from good faith; if there was a +danger of one's liking such a woman too much one's best safety was +in waiting at least till one had the right to do so. In the light +of the last few days the danger was fairly vivid; so that it was +proportionately fortunate that the right was likewise established. +It seemed to our friend that he had on each occasion profited to +the utmost by the latter: how could he have done so more, he at +all events asked himself, than in having immediately let her know +that, if it was all the same to her, he preferred not to talk about +anything tiresome? He had never in his life so sacrificed an +armful of high interests as in that remark; he had never so prepared +the way for the comparatively frivolous as in addressing it to +Madame de Vionnet's intelligence. It hadn't been till later that +he quite recalled how in conjuring away everything but the pleasant +he had conjured away almost all they had hitherto talked about; +it was not till later even that he remembered how, with their new tone, +they hadn't so much as mentioned the name of Chad himself. +One of the things that most lingered with him on his hillside was +this delightful facility, with such a woman, of arriving at a new tone; +he thought, as he lay on his back, of all the tones she might make +possible if one were to try her, and at any rate of the probability +that one could trust her to fit them to occasions. He had wanted her +to feel that, as he was disinterested now, so she herself should be, +and she had showed she felt it, and he had showed he was grateful, +and it had been for all the world as if he were calling for +the first time. They had had other, but irrelevant, meetings; +it was quite as if, had they sooner known how much they REALLY +had in common, there were quantities of comparatively dull matters +they might have skipped. Well, they were skipping them now, +even to graceful gratitude, even to handsome "Don't mention it!"-- +and it was amazing what could still come up without reference to +what had been going on between them. It might have been, on analysis, +nothing more than Shakespeare and the musical glasses; but it had +served all the purpose of his appearing to have said to her: +"Don't like me, if it's a question of liking me, for anything obvious +and clumsy that I've, as they call it, 'done' for you: like me-- +well, like me, hang it, for anything else you choose. So, by +the same propriety, don't be for me simply the person I've come to know +through my awkward connexion with Chad--was ever anything, by the way, +MORE awkward? Be for me, please, with all your admirable tact and trust, +just whatever I may show you it's a present pleasure to me to think you." +It had been a large indication to meet; but if she hadn't met it +what HAD she done, and how had their time together slipped along +so smoothly, mild but not slow, and melting, liquefying, into his +happy illusion of idleness? He could recognise on the other hand +that he had probably not been without reason, in his prior, his +restricted state, for keeping an eye on his liability to lapse +from good faith. + +He really continued in the picture--that being for himself his +situation--all the rest of this rambling day; so that the charm was +still, was indeed more than ever upon him when, toward six o'clock +he found himself amicably engaged with a stout white-capped +deep-voiced woman at the door of the auberge of the biggest village, +a village that affected him as a thing of whiteness, blueness and +crookedness, set in coppery green, and that had the river flowing +behind or before it--one couldn't say which; at the bottom, in +particular, of the inn-garden. He had had other adventures before this; +had kept along the height, after shaking off slumber; had admired, +had almost coveted, another small old church, all steep roof and +dim slate-colour without and all whitewash and paper flowers within; +had lost his way and had found it again; had conversed with rustics +who struck him perhaps a little more as men of the world than he had +expected; had acquired at a bound a fearless facility in French; +had had, as the afternoon waned, a watery bock, all pale and Parisian, +in the cafe of the furthest village, which was not the biggest; +and had meanwhile not once overstepped the oblong gilt frame. +The frame had drawn itself out for him, as much as you please; +but that was just his luck. He had finally come down again to the +valley, to keep within touch of stations and trains, turning his face +to the quarter from which he had started; and thus it was that he had +at last pulled up before the hostess of the Cheval Blanc, who met him, +with a rough readiness that was like the clatter of sabots over stones, +on their common ground of a cotelette de veau a l'oseille and a +subsequent lift. He had walked many miles and didn't know he was tired; +but he still knew he was amused, and even that, though he had been +alone all day, he had never yet so struck himself as engaged with +others and in midstream of his drama. It might have passed for +finished his drama, with its catastrophe all but reached: it had, +however, none the less been vivid again for him as he thus gave it +its fuller chance. He had only had to be at last well out of it to +feel it, oddly enough, still going on. + +For this had been all day at bottom the spell of the picture--that +it was essentially more than anything else a scene and a stage, +that the very air of the play was in the rustle of the willows and +the tone of the sky. The play and the characters had, without his +knowing it till now, peopled all his space for him, and it seemed +somehow quite happy that they should offer themselves, in the +conditions so supplied, with a kind of inevitability. It was as if +the conditions made them not only inevitable, but so much more +nearly natural and right as that they were at least easier, +pleasanter, to put up with. The conditions had nowhere so asserted +their difference from those of Woollett as they appeared to him to +assert it in the little court of the Cheval Blanc while he arranged +with his hostess for a comfortable climax. They were few and +simple, scant and humble, but they were THE THING, as he would have +called it, even to a greater degree than Madame de Vionnet's old +high salon where the ghost of the Empire walked. "The" thing was +the thing that implied the greatest number of other things of the +sort he had had to tackle; and it was queer of course, but so it +was--the implication here was complete. Not a single one of his +observations but somehow fell into a place in it; not a breath of +the cooler evening that wasn't somehow a syllable of the text. +The text was simply, when condensed, that in THESE places such +things were, and that if it was in them one elected to move about +one had to make one's account with what one lighted on. Meanwhile +at all events it was enough that they did affect one--so far as the +village aspect was concerned--as whiteness, crookedness and +blueness set in coppery green; there being positively, for that +matter, an outer wall of the White Horse that was painted the most +improbable shade. That was part of the amusement--as if to show +that the fun was harmless; just as it was enough, further, that the +picture and the play seemed supremely to melt together in the good +woman's broad sketch of what she could do for her visitor's +appetite. He felt in short a confidence, and it was general, and +it was all he wanted to feel. It suffered no shock even on her +mentioning that she had in fact just laid the cloth for two persons +who, unlike Monsieur, had arrived by the river--in a boat of their +own; who had asked her, half an hour before, what she could do for +them, and had then paddled away to look at something a little +further up--from which promenade they would presently return. +Monsieur might meanwhile, if he liked, pass into the garden, such +as it was, where she would serve him, should he wish it--for there +were tables and benches in plenty--a "bitter" before his repast. +Here she would also report to him on the possibility of a +conveyance to his station, and here at any rate he would have the +agrement of the river . + +It may be mentioned without delay that Monsieur had the agrement of +everything, and in particular, for the next twenty minutes, +of a small and primitive pavilion that, at the garden's edge, almost +overhung the water, testifying, in its somewhat battered state, to +much fond frequentation. It consisted of little more than a +platform, slightly raised, with a couple of benches and a table, a +protecting rail and a projecting roof; but it raked the full +grey-blue stream, which, taking a turn a short distance above, +passed out of sight to reappear much higher up; and it was clearly +in esteemed requisition for Sundays and other feasts. Strether sat +there and, though hungry, felt at peace; the confidence that had so +gathered for him deepened with the lap of the water, the ripple of +the surface, the rustle of the reeds on the opposite bank, the +faint diffused coolness and the slight rock of a couple of small +boats attached to a rough landing-place hard by. The valley on the +further side was all copper-green level and glazed pearly sky, a +sky hatched across with screens of trimmed trees, which looked +flat, like espaliers; and though the rest of the village straggled +away in the near quarter the view had an emptiness that made one of +the boats suggestive. Such a river set one afloat almost before +one could take up the oars--the idle play of which would be +moreover the aid to the full impression. This perception went so +far as to bring him to his feet; but that movement, in turn, made +him feel afresh that he was tired, and while he leaned against a +post and continued to look out he saw something that gave him a +sharper arrest. + + + +IV + + +What he saw was exactly the right thing--a boat advancing round the +bend and containing a man who held the paddles and a lady, at the +stern, with a pink parasol. It was suddenly as if these figures, +or something like them, had been wanted in the picture, had been +wanted more or less all day, and had now drifted into sight, with +the slow current, on purpose to fill up the measure. They came +slowly, floating down, evidently directed to the landing-place near +their spectator and presenting themselves to him not less clearly +as the two persons for whom his hostess was already preparing a +meal. For two very happy persons he found himself straightway +taking them--a young man in shirt-sleeves, a young woman easy and +fair, who had pulled pleasantly up from some other place and, being +acquainted with the neighbourhood, had known what this particular +retreat could offer them. The air quite thickened, at their +approach, with further intimations; the intimation that they were +expert, familiar, frequent--that this wouldn't at all events be +the first time. They knew how to do it, he vaguely felt--and it +made them but the more idyllic, though at the very moment +of the impression, as happened, their boat seemed to have begun to +drift wide, the oarsman letting it go. It had by this time none +the less come much nearer--near enough for Strether to dream the +lady in the stern had for some reason taken account of his being +there to watch them. She had remarked on it sharply, yet her +companion hadn't turned round; it was in fact almost as if our +friend had felt her bid him keep still. She had taken in something +as a result of which their course had wavered, and it continued to +waver while they just stood off. This little effect was sudden and +rapid, so rapid that Strether's sense of it was separate only for +an instant from a sharp start of his own. He too had within the +minute taken in something, taken in that he knew the lady whose +parasol, shifting as if to hide her face, made so fine a pink point +in the shining scene. It was too prodigious, a chance in a million, +but, if he knew the lady, the gentleman, who still presented his back +and kept off, the gentleman, the coatless hero of the idyll, +who had responded to her start, was, to match the marvel, none other +than Chad. + +Chad and Madame de Vionnet were then like himself taking a day in +the country--though it was as queer as fiction, as farce, that +their country could happen to be exactly his; and she had been the +first at recognition, the first to feel, across the water, the shock-- +for it appeared to come to that--of their wonderful accident. +Strether became aware, with this, of what was taking place-- +that her recognition had been even stranger for the pair in the boat, +that her immediate impulse had been to control it, and that she was +quickly and intensely debating with Chad the risk of betrayal. +He saw they would show nothing if they could feel sure he hadn't +made them out; so that he had before him for a few seconds his +own hesitation. It was a sharp fantastic crisis that had popped up +as if in a dream, and it had had only to last the few seconds to +make him feel it as quite horrible. They were thus, on either side, +TRYING the other side, and all for some reason that broke the stillness +like some unprovoked harsh note. It seemed to him again, within the +limit, that he had but one thing to do--to settle their common question +by some sign of surprise and joy. He hereupon gave large play to +these things, agitating his hat and his stick and loudly calling out-- +a demonstration that brought him relief as soon as he had seen it +answered. The boat, in mid-stream, still went a little wild-- +which seemed natural, however, while Chad turned round, half +springing up; and his good friend, after blankness and wonder, +began gaily to wave her parasol. Chad dropped afresh to his paddles +and the boat headed round, amazement and pleasantry filling the air +meanwhile, and relief, as Strether continued to fancy, superseding +mere violence. Our friend went down to the water under this odd +impression as of violence averted--the violence of their having +"cut" him, out there in the eye of nature, on the assumption that +he wouldn't know it. He awaited them with a face from which he +was conscious of not being able quite to banish this idea that they +would have gone on, not seeing and not knowing, missing their dinner +and disappointing their hostess, had he himself taken a line to match. +That at least was what darkened his vision for the moment. Afterwards, +after they had bumped at the landing-place and he had assisted their +getting ashore, everything found itself sponged over by the mere +miracle of the encounter. + +They could so much better at last, on either side, treat it as a +wild extravagance of hazard, that the situation was made elastic by +the amount of explanation called into play. Why indeed--apart from +oddity--the situation should have been really stiff was a question +naturally not practical at the moment, and in fact, so far as we +are concerned, a question tackled, later on and in private, only by +Strether himself. He was to reflect later on and in private that +it was mainly HE who had explained--as he had had moreover +comparatively little difficulty in doing. He was to have at all +events meanwhile the worrying thought of their perhaps secretly +suspecting him of having plotted this coincidence, taking such +pains as might be to give it the semblance of an accident. That +possibility--as their imputation--didn't of course bear looking +into for an instant; yet the whole incident was so manifestly, +arrange it as they would, an awkward one, that he could scarce keep +disclaimers in respect to his own presence from rising to his lips. +Disclaimers of intention would have been as tactless as his +presence was practically gross; and the narrowest escape they +either of them had was his lucky escape, in the event, from making +any. Nothing of the sort, so far as surface and sound were +involved, was even in question; surface and sound all made for +their common ridiculous good fortune, for the general +invraisemblance of the occasion, for the charming chance that they +had, the others, in passing, ordered some food to be ready, the +charming chance that he had himself not eaten, the charming chance, +even more, that their little plans, their hours, their train, in +short, from la-bas, would all match for their return together to +Paris. The chance that was most charming of all, the chance that +drew from Madame de Vionnet her clearest, gayest "Comme cela se +trouve!" was the announcement made to Strether after they were +seated at table, the word given him by their hostess in respect to +his carriage for the station, on which he might now count. It +settled the matter for his friends as well; the conveyance-- +it WAS all too lucky!--would serve for them; and nothing was more +delightful than his being in a position to make the train so definite. +It might have been, for themselves--to hear Madame de Vionnet-- +almost unnaturally vague, a detail left to be fixed; though Strether +indeed was afterwards to remember that Chad had promptly enough +intervened to forestall this appearance, laughing at his companion's +flightiness and making the point that he had after all, in spite of +the bedazzlement of a day out with her, known what he was about. + +Strether was to remember afterwards further that this had had for +him the effect of forming Chad's almost sole intervention; and +indeed he was to remember further still, in subsequent meditation, +many things that, as it were, fitted together. Another of them was +for instance that the wonderful woman's overflow of surprise and +amusement was wholly into French, which she struck him as speaking +with an unprecedented command of idiomatic turns, but in which she +got, as he might have said, somewhat away from him, taking all at +once little brilliant jumps that he could but lamely match. The +question of his own French had never come up for them; it was the +one thing she wouldn't have permitted--it belonged, for a person +who had been through much, to mere boredom; but the present result +was odd, fairly veiling her identity, shifting her back into a mere +voluble class or race to the intense audibility of which he was by +this time inured. When she spoke the charming slightly strange +English he best knew her by he seemed to feel her as a creature, +among all the millions, with a language quite to herself, the real +monopoly of a special shade of speech, beautifully easy for her, +yet of a colour and a cadence that were both inimitable and matters +of accident. She came back to these things after they had shaken +down in the inn-parlour and knew, as it were, what was to become of +them; it was inevitable that loud ejaculation over the prodigy of +their convergence should at last wear itself out. Then it was that +his impression took fuller form--the impression, destined only to +deepen, to complete itself, that they had something to put a face +upon, to carry off and make the best of, and that it was she who, +admirably on the whole, was doing this. It was familiar to him of +course that they had something to put a face upon; their +friendship, their connexion, took any amount of explaining--that +would have been made familiar by his twenty minutes with Mrs. Pocock +if it hadn't already been so. Yet his theory, as we know, had +bountifully been that the facts were specifically none of his +business, and were, over and above, so far as one had to do with +them, intrinsically beautiful; and this might have prepared him for +anything, as well as rendered him proof against mystification. +When he reached home that night, however, he knew he had been, at +bottom, neither prepared nor proof; and since we have spoken of +what he was, after his return, to recall and interpret, it may as +well immediately be said that his real experience of these few +hours put on, in that belated vision--for he scarce went to bed +till morning--the aspect that is most to our purpose. + +He then knew more or less how he had been affected--he but half +knew at the time. There had been plenty to affect him even after, +as has been said, they had shaken down; for his consciousness, +though muffled, had its sharpest moments during this passage, a +marked drop into innocent friendly Bohemia. They then had put +their elbows on the table, deploring the premature end of their two +or three dishes; which they had tried to make up with another +bottle while Chad joked a little spasmodically, perhaps even a +little irrelevantly, with the hostess. What it all came to had +been that fiction and fable WERE, inevitably, in the air, and not +as a simple term of comparison, but as a result of things said; +also that they were blinking it, all round, and that they yet needn't, +so much as that, have blinked it--though indeed if they hadn't +Strether didn't quite see what else they could have done. +Strether didn't quite see THAT even at an hour or two past midnight, +even when he had, at his hotel, for a long time, without a light +and without undressing, sat back on his bedroom sofa and stared +straight before him. He was, at that point of vantage, in full +possession, to make of it all what he could. He kept making of it +that there had been simply a LIE in the charming affair--a lie +on which one could now, detached and deliberate, perfectly put +one's finger. It was with the lie that they had eaten and drunk +and talked and laughed, that they had waited for their carriole +rather impatiently, and had then got into the vehicle and, sensibly +subsiding, driven their three or four miles through the darkening +summer night. The eating and drinking, which had been a resource, +had had the effect of having served its turn; the talk and laughter +had done as much; and it was during their somewhat tedious progress +to the station, during the waits there, the further delays, their +submission to fatigue, their silences in the dim compartment of the +much-stopping train, that he prepared himself for reflexions to come. +It had been a performance, Madame de Vionnet's manner, and though +it had to that degree faltered toward the end, as through her ceasing +to believe in it, as if she had asked herself, or Chad had found +a moment surreptitiously to ask her, what after all was the use, +a performance it had none the less quite handsomely remained, +with the final fact about it that it was on the whole easier to +keep up than to abandon. + +From the point of view of presence of mind it had been very +wonderful indeed, wonderful for readiness, for beautiful assurance, +for the way her decision was taken on the spot, without time to +confer with Chad, without time for anything. Their only conference +could have been the brief instants in the boat before they confessed +to recognising the spectator on the bank, for they hadn't been alone +together a moment since and must have communicated all in silence. +It was a part of the deep impression for Strether, and not the least +of the deep interest, that they COULD so communicate--that Chad +in particular could let her know he left it to her. He habitually +left things to others, as Strether was so well aware, and it in fact +came over our friend in these meditations that there had been as yet +no such vivid illustration of his famous knowing how to live. +It was as if he had humoured her to the extent of letting her lie +without correction--almost as if, really, he would be coming round +in the morning to set the matter, as between Strether and himself, +right. Of course he couldn't quite come; it was a case in which +a man was obliged to accept the woman's version, even when fantastic; +if she had, with more flurry than she cared to show, elected, +as the phrase was, to represent that they had left Paris that morning, +and with no design but of getting back within the day--if she had +so sized-up, in the Woollett phrase, their necessity, she knew best +her own measure. There were things, all the same, it was impossible +to blink and which made this measure an odd one--the too evident fact +for instance that she hadn't started out for the day dressed and hatted +and shod, and even, for that matter, pink parasol'd, as she had been +in the boat. From what did the drop in her assurance proceed as the +tension increased--from what did this slightly baffled ingenuity spring +but from her consciousness of not presenting, as night closed in, +with not so much as a shawl to wrap her round, an appearance that +matched her story? She admitted that she was cold, but only to +blame her imprudence which Chad suffered her to give such account +of as she might. Her shawl and Chad's overcoat and her other +garments, and his, those they had each worn the day before, were at +the place, best known to themselves--a quiet retreat enough, no +doubt--at which they had been spending the twenty-four hours, to +which they had fully meant to return that evening, from which they +had so remarkably swum into Strether's ken, and the tacit +repudiation of which had been thus the essence of her comedy. +Strether saw how she had perceived in a flash that they couldn't +quite look to going back there under his nose; though, honestly, +as he gouged deeper into the matter, he was somewhat surprised, as +Chad likewise had perhaps been, at the uprising of this scruple. +He seemed even to divine that she had entertained it rather for +Chad than for herself, and that, as the young man had lacked the +chance to enlighten her, she had had to go on with it, he meanwhile +mistaking her motive. + +He was rather glad, none the less, that they had in point of fact +not parted at the Cheval Blanc, that he hadn't been reduced to +giving them his blessing for an idyllic retreat down the river. +He had had in the actual case to make-believe more than he liked, +but this was nothing, it struck him, to what the other event +would have required. Could he, literally, quite have faced the +other event? Would he have been capable of making the best of it +with them? This was what he was trying to do now; but with the +advantage of his being able to give more time to it a good deal +counteracted by his sense of what, over and above the central fact +itself, he had to swallow. It was the quantity of make-believe +involved and so vividly exemplified that most disagreed with his +spiritual stomach. He moved, however, from the consideration of +that quantity--to say nothing of the consciousness of that organ-- +back to the other feature of the show, the deep, deep truth of +the intimacy revealed. That was what, in his vain vigil, he oftenest +reverted to: intimacy, at such a point, was LIKE that--and what in +the world else would one have wished it to be like? It was all +very well for him to feel the pity of its being so much like lying; +he almost blushed, in the dark, for the way he had dressed the +possibility in vagueness, as a little girl might have dressed her doll. +He had made them--and by no fault of their own--momentarily pull it for +him, the possibility, out of this vagueness; and must he not therefore +take it now as they had had simply, with whatever thin attenuations, +to give it to him? The very question, it may be added, made him feel +lonely and cold. There was the element of the awkward all round, but +Chad and Madame de Vionnet had at least the comfort that they could talk +it over together. With whom could HE talk of such things?--unless +indeed always, at almost any stage, with Maria? He foresaw that +Miss Gostrey would come again into requisition on the morrow; +though it wasn't to be denied that he was already a little afraid +of her "What on earth--that's what I want to know now--had you +then supposed?" He recognised at last that he had really been trying +all along to suppose nothing. Verily, verily, his labour had been lost. +He found himself supposing innumerable and wonderful things. + + + + + +Book Twelfth + + + + +I + + +Strether couldn't have said he had during the previous hours +definitely expected it; yet when. later on, that morning--though +no later indeed than for his coming forth at ten o'clock--he saw +the concierge produce, on his approach, a petit bleu delivered +since his letters had been sent up, he recognised the appearance as +the first symptom of a sequel. He then knew he had been thinking +of some early sign from Chad as more likely, after all, than not; +and this would be precisely the early sign. He took it so for +granted that he opened the petit bleu just where he had stopped, in +the pleasant cool draught of the porte-cochere--only curious to see +where the young man would, at such a juncture, break out. His +curiosity, however, was more than gratified; the small missive, +whose gummed edge he had detached without attention to the address, +not being from the young man at all, but from the person whom the +case gave him on the spot as still more worth while. Worth while +or not, he went round to the nearest telegraph-office, the big one +on the Boulevard, with a directness that almost confessed to a fear +of the danger of delay. He might have been thinking that if he didn't +go before he could think he wouldn't perhaps go at all. He at +any rate kept, in the lower side-pocket of his morning coat, a very +deliberate hand on his blue missive, crumpling it up rather tenderly +than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the Boulevard, also in the form +of a petit bleu--which was quickly done, under pressure of the place, +inasmuch as, like Madame de Vionnet's own communication, it consisted +of the fewest words. She had asked him if he could do her the very +great kindness of coming to see her that evening at half-past nine, +and he answered, as if nothing were easier, that he would present +himself at the hour she named. She had added a line of postscript, +to the effect that she would come to him elsewhere and at his own hour +if he preferred; but he took no notice of this, feeling that if he +saw her at all half the value of it would be in seeing her where he +had already seen her best. He mightn't see her at all; that was +one of the reflexions he made after writing and before he dropped +his closed card into the box; he mightn't see any one at all +any more at all; he might make an end as well now as ever, +leaving things as they were, since he was doubtless not to leave +them better, and taking his way home so far as should appear that +a home remained to him. This alternative was for a few minutes +so sharp that if he at last did deposit his missive it was perhaps +because the pressure of the place had an effect. + +There was none other, however, than the common and constant pressure, +familiar to our friend under the rubric of Postes et Telegraphes-- +the something in the air of these establishments; the vibration of +the vast strange life of the town, the influence of the types, +the performers concocting their messages; the little prompt Paris women, +arranging, pretexting goodness knew what, driving the dreadful +needle-pointed public pen at the dreadful sand-strewn public table: +implements that symbolised for Strether's too interpretative innocence +something more acute in manners, more sinister in morals, more fierce +in the national life. After he had put in his paper he had ranged +himself, he was really amused to think, on the side of the fierce, +the sinister, the acute. He was carrying on a correspondence, +across the great city, quite in the key of the Postes et Telegraphes +in general; and it was fairly as if the acceptance of that fact had +come from something in his state that sorted with the occupation of +his neighbours. He was mixed up with the typical tale of Paris, and so +were they, poor things--how could they all together help being? +They were no worse than he, in short, and he no worse than they-- +if, queerly enough, no better; and at all events he had settled his +hash, so that he went out to begin, from that moment, his day of +waiting. The great settlement was, as he felt, in his preference +for seeing his correspondent in her own best conditions. THAT was +part of the typical tale, the part most significant in respect to +himself. He liked the place she lived in, the picture that each +time squared itself, large and high and clear, around her: every +occasion of seeing it was a pleasure of a different shade. Yet +what precisely was he doing with shades of pleasure now, and why +hadn't he properly and logically compelled her to commit herself +to whatever of disadvantage and penalty the situation might throw +up? He might have proposed, as for Sarah Pocock, the cold +hospitality of his own salon de lecture, in which the chill of +Sarah's visit seemed still to abide and shades of pleasure were +dim; he might have suggested a stone bench in the dusty Tuileries +or a penny chair at the back part of the Champs Elysees. These +things would have been a trifle stern, and sternness alone now +wouldn't be sinister. An instinct in him cast about for some form +of discipline in which they might meet--some awkwardness they would +suffer from, some danger, or at least some grave inconvenience, +they would incur. This would give a sense--which the spirit +required, rather ached and sighed in the absence of--that somebody +was paying something somewhere and somehow, that they were at least +not all floating together on the silver stream of impunity. Just +instead of that to go and see her late in the evening, as if, for +all the world--well, as if he were as much in the swim as anybody +else: this had as little as possible in common with the penal form. + +Even when he had felt that objection melt away, however, the +practical difference was small; the long stretch of his interval +took the colour it would, and if he lived on thus with the sinister +from hour to hour it proved an easier thing than one might have +supposed in advance. He reverted in thought to his old tradition, +the one he had been brought up on and which even so many years of +life had but little worn away; the notion that the state of the +wrongdoer, or at least this person's happiness, presented some +special difficulty. What struck him now rather was the ease of it-- +for nothing in truth appeared easier. It was an ease he himself +fairly tasted of for the rest of the day; giving himself quite up; +not so much as trying to dress it out, in any particular whatever, +as a difficulty; not after all going to see Maria--which would have +been in a manner a result of such dressing; only idling, lounging, +smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade and consuming +ices. The day had turned to heat and eventual thunder, and he now +and again went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn't been +there. He hadn't yet struck himself, since leaving Woollett, so +much as a loafer, though there had been times when he believed +himself touching bottom. This was a deeper depth than any, and +with no foresight, scarcely with a care, as to what he should bring +up. He almost wondered if he didn't LOOK demoralised and +disreputable; he had the fanciful vision, as he sat and smoked, +of some accidental, some motived, return of the Pococks, who would +be passing along the Boulevard and would catch this view of him. +They would have distinctly, on his appearance, every ground for scandal. +But fate failed to administer even that sternness; the Pococks never +passed and Chad made no sign. Strether meanwhile continued to hold off +from Miss Gostrey, keeping her till to-morrow; so that by evening +his irresponsibility, his impunity, his luxury, had become--there was +no other word for them--immense. + +Between nine and ten, at last, in the high clear picture--he was +moving in these days, as in a gallery, from clever canvas to clever +canvas--he drew a long breath: it was so presented to him from the +first that the spell of his luxury wouldn't be broken. He wouldn't +have, that is, to become responsible--this was admirably in the air: +she had sent for him precisely to let him feel it, so that he +might go on with the comfort (comfort already established, hadn't +it been?) of regarding his ordeal, the ordeal of the weeks of +Sarah's stay and of their climax, as safely traversed and left +behind him. Didn't she just wish to assure him that SHE now took +it all and so kept it; that he was absolutely not to worry any +more, was only to rest on his laurels and continue generously to +help her? The light in her beautiful formal room was dim, though +it would do, as everything would always do; the hot night had kept +out lamps, but there was a pair of clusters of candles that +glimmered over the chimney-piece like the tall tapers of an altar. +The windows were all open, their redundant hangings swaying a +little, and he heard once more, from the empty court, the small +plash of the fountain. From beyond this, and as from a great +distance--beyond the court, beyond the corps de logis forming the +front--came, as if excited and exciting, the vague voice of Paris. +Strether had all along been subject to sudden gusts of fancy in +connexion with such matters as these--odd starts of the historic +sense, suppositions and divinations with no warrant but their +intensity. Thus and so, on the eve of the great recorded dates, +the days and nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the +omens, the beginnings broken out. They were the smell of +revolution, the smell of the public temper--or perhaps simply the +smell of blood. + +It was at present queer beyond words, "subtle," he would have +risked saying, that such suggestions should keep crossing the +scene; but it was doubtless the effect of the thunder in the air, +which had hung about all day without release. His hostess was +dressed as for thunderous times, and it fell in with the kind of +imagination we have just attributed to him that she should be in +simplest coolest white, of a character so old-fashioned, if he were +not mistaken, that Madame Roland must on the scaffold have worn +something like it. This effect was enhanced by a small black fichu +or scarf, of crape or gauze, disposed quaintly round her bosom and +now completing as by a mystic touch the pathetic, the noble analogy. +Poor Strether in fact scarce knew what analogy was evoked for him +as the charming woman, receiving him and making him, as she could do +such things, at once familiarly and gravely welcome, moved over her +great room with her image almost repeated in its polished floor, +which had been fully bared for summer. The associations of the place, +all felt again; the gleam here and there, in the subdued light, +of glass and gilt and parquet, with the quietness of her own note +as the centre--these things were at first as delicate as if they +had been ghostly, and he was sure in a moment that, whatever he should +find he had come for, it wouldn't be for an impression that had +previously failed him. That conviction held him from the outset, +and, seeming singularly to simplify, certified to him that the objects +about would help him, would really help them both. No, he might +never see them again--this was only too probably the last time; +and he should certainly see nothing in the least degree like them. +He should soon be going to where such things were not, and it would be +a small mercy for memory, for fancy, to have, in that stress, +a loaf on the shelf. He knew in advance he should look back on the +perception actually sharpest with him as on the view of something +old, old, old, the oldest thing he had ever personally touched; +and he also knew, even while he took his companion in as the feature +among features, that memory and fancy couldn't help being enlisted +for her. She might intend what she would, but this was beyond anything +she could intend, with things from far back--tyrannies of history, +facts of type, values, as the painters said, of expression-- +all working for her and giving her the supreme chance, the chance +of the happy, the really luxurious few, the chance, on a great +occasion, to be natural and simple. She had never, with him, +been more so; or if it was the perfection of art it would never-- +and that came to the same thing--be proved against her. + +What was truly wonderful was her way of differing so from time to +time without detriment to her simplicity. Caprices, he was sure +she felt, were before anything else bad manners, and that judgement +in her was by itself a thing making more for safety of intercourse +than anything that in his various own past intercourses he had had +to reckon on. If therefore her presence was now quite other than +the one she had shown him the night before, there was nothing of +violence in the change--it was all harmony and reason. It gave him +a mild deep person, whereas he had had on the occasion to which +their interview was a direct reference a person committed to +movement and surface and abounding in them; but she was in either +character more remarkable for nothing than for her bridging of +intervals, and this now fell in with what he understood he was to +leave to her. The only thing was that, if he was to leave it ALL +to her, why exactly had she sent for him? He had had, vaguely, in +advance, his explanation, his view of the probability of her +wishing to set something right, to deal in some way with the fraud +so lately practised on his presumed credulity. Would she attempt +to carry it further or would she blot it out? Would she throw over +it some more or less happy colour; or would she do nothing about it +at all? He perceived soon enough at least that, however reasonable +she might be, she wasn't vulgarly confused, and it herewith +pressed upon him that their eminent "lie," Chad's and hers, was +simply after all such an inevitable tribute to good taste as he +couldn't have wished them not to render. Away from them, during +his vigil, he had seemed to wince at the amount of comedy involved; +whereas in his present posture he could only ask himself how he +should enjoy any attempt from her to take the comedy back. He +shouldn't enjoy it at all; but, once more and yet once more, he +could trust her. That is he could trust her to make deception +right. As she presented things the ugliness--goodness knew why-- +went out of them; none the less too that she could present them, +with an art of her own, by not so much as touching them. She let +the matter, at all events, lie where it was--where the previous +twenty-four hours had placed it; appearing merely to circle about +it respectfully, tenderly, almost piously, while she took up +another question. + +She knew she hadn't really thrown dust in his eyes; this, the +previous night, before they separated, had practically passed +between them; and, as she had sent for him to see what the +difference thus made for him might amount to, so he was conscious +at the end of five minutes that he had been tried and tested. She +had settled with Chad after he left them that she would, for her +satisfaction, assure herself of this quantity, and Chad had, as +usual, let her have her way. Chad was always letting people have +their way when he felt that it would somehow turn his wheel for +him; it somehow always did turn his wheel. Strether felt, oddly +enough, before these facts, freshly and consentingly passive; they +again so rubbed it into him that the couple thus fixing his +attention were intimate, that his intervention had absolutely aided +and intensified their intimacy, and that in fine he must accept the +consequence of that. He had absolutely become, himself, with his +perceptions and his mistakes, his concessions and his reserves, the +droll mixture, as it must seem to them, of his braveries and his +fears, the general spectacle of his art and his innocence, almost +an added link and certainly a common priceless ground for them to +meet upon. It was as if he had been hearing their very tone when +she brought out a reference that was comparatively straight. +"The last twice that you've been here, you know, I never asked you," +she said with an abrupt transition--they had been pretending before +this to talk simply of the charm of yesterday and of the interest +of the country they had seen. The effort was confessedly vain; not +for such talk had she invited him; and her impatient reminder was +of their having done for it all the needful on his coming to her +after Sarah's flight. What she hadn't asked him then was to state +to her where and how he stood for her; she had been resting on +Chad's report of their midnight hour together in the Boulevard +Malesherbes. The thing therefore she at present desired was +ushered in by this recall of the two occasions on which, +disinterested and merciful, she hadn't worried him. To-night +truly she WOULD worry him, and this was her appeal to him to let +her risk it. He wasn't to mind if she bored him a little: +she had behaved, after all--hadn't she?--so awfully, awfully well. + + + +II + + +"Oh, you're all right, you're all right," he almost impatiently +declared; his impatience being moreover not for her pressure, but +for her scruple. More and more distinct to him was the tune to +which she would have had the matter out with Chad: more and more +vivid for him the idea that she had been nervous as to what he +might be able to "stand." Yes, it had been a question if he had +"stood" what the scene on the river had given him, and, though the +young man had doubtless opined in favour of his recuperation, her +own last word must have been that she should feel easier in seeing +for herself. That was it, unmistakeably; she WAS seeing for +herself. What he could stand was thus, in these moments, in the +balance for Strether, who reflected, as he became fully aware of +it, that he must properly brace himself. He wanted fully to appear +to stand all he might; and there was a certain command of the +situation for him in this very wish not to look too much at sea. +She was ready with everything, but so, sufficiently, was he; that +is he was at one point the more prepared of the two, inasmuch as, +for all her cleverness, she couldn't produce on the spot--and it +was surprising--an account of the motive of her note. He had the +advantage that his pronouncing her "all right" gave him for an +enquiry. "May I ask, delighted as I've been to come, if you've +wished to say something special?" He spoke as if she might have +seen he had been waiting for it--not indeed with discomfort, but +with natural interest. Then he saw that she was a little taken +aback, was even surprised herself at the detail she had neglected-- +the only one ever yet; having somehow assumed he would know, would +recognise, would leave some things not to be said. She looked at +him, however, an instant as if to convey that if he wanted them +ALL--! + +"Selfish and vulgar--that's what I must seem to you. You've done +everything for me, and here I am as if I were asking for more. But +it isn't," she went on, "because I'm afraid--though I AM of course +afraid, as a woman in my position always is. I mean it isn't +because one lives in terror--it isn't because of that one is +selfish, for I'm ready to give you my word to-night that I don't +care; don't care what still may happen and what I may lose. I don't +ask you to raise your little finger for me again, nor do I wish +so much as to mention to you what we've talked of before, either +my danger or my safety, or his mother, or his sister, or the girl +he may marry, or the fortune he may make or miss, or the right +or the wrong, of any kind, he may do. If after the help one has +had from you one can't either take care of one's self or simply +hold one's tongue, one must renounce all claim to be an object of +interest. It's in the name of what I DO care about that I've tried +still to keep hold of you. How can I be indifferent," she asked, +"to how I appear to you?" And as he found himself unable +immediately to say: "Why, if you're going, NEED you, after all? +Is it impossible you should stay on--so that one mayn't lose you?" + +"Impossible I should live with you here instead of going home?" + +"Not 'with' us, if you object to that, but near enough to us, +somewhere, for us to see you--well," she beautifully brought out, +"when we feel we MUST. How shall we not sometimes feel it? I've +wanted to see you often when I couldn't," she pursued, "all these +last weeks. How shan't I then miss you now, with the sense of your +being gone forever?" Then as if the straightness of this appeal, +taking him unprepared, had visibly left him wondering: "Where IS +your 'home' moreover now--what has become of it? I've made a +change in your life, I know I have; I've upset everything in your +mind as well; in your sense of--what shall I call it?--all the +decencies and possibilities. It gives me a kind of detestation--" +She pulled up short. + +Oh but he wanted to hear. "Detestation of what?" + +"Of everything--of life." + +"Ah that's too much," he laughed--"or too little!" + +"Too little, precisely"--she was eager. "What I hate is myself-- +when I think that one has to take so much, to be happy, out of the +lives of others, and that one isn't happy even then. One does it +to cheat one's self and to stop one's mouth--but that's only at the +best for a little. The wretched self is always there, always +making one somehow a fresh anxiety. What it comes to is that it's +not, that it's never, a happiness, any happiness at all, to TAKE. +The only safe thing is to give. It's what plays you least false." +Interesting, touching, strikingly sincere as she let these things +come from her, she yet puzzled and troubled him--so fine was the +quaver of her quietness. He felt what he had felt before with her, +that there was always more behind what she showed, and more and +more again behind that. "You know so, at least," she added, "where +you are!" + +"YOU ought to know it indeed then; for isn't what you've been +giving exactly what has brought us together this way? You've been +making, as I've so fully let you know I've felt," Strether said, +"the most precious present I've ever seen made, and if you can't +sit down peacefully on that performance you ARE, no doubt, born to +torment yourself. But you ought," he wound up, "to be easy." + +"And not trouble you any more, no doubt--not thrust on you even the +wonder and the beauty of what I've done; only let you regard our +business as over, and well over, and see you depart in a peace that +matches my own? No doubt, no doubt, no doubt," she nervously +repeated--"all the more that I don't really pretend I believe you +couldn't, for yourself, NOT have done what you have. I don't +pretend you feel yourself victimised, for this evidently is the way +you live, and it's what--we're agreed--is the best way. Yes, as +you say," she continued after a moment, "I ought to be easy and +rest on my work. Well then here am I doing so. I AM easy. You'll +have it for your last impression. When is it you say you go?" she +asked with a quick change. + +He took some time to reply--his last impression was more and more +so mixed a one. It produced in him a vague disappointment, a drop +that was deeper even than the fall of his elation the previous +night. The good of what he had done, if he had done so much, wasn't +there to enliven him quite to the point that would have been ideal +for a grand gay finale. Women were thus endlessly absorbent, and +to deal with them was to walk on water. What was at bottom the matter +with her, embroider as she might and disclaim as she might-- +what was at bottom the matter with her was simply Chad himself. +It was of Chad she was after all renewedly afraid; the strange +strength of her passion was the very strength of her fear; she clung +to HIM, Lambert Strether, as to a source of safety she had tested, +and, generous graceful truthful as she might try to be, exquisite +as she was, she dreaded the term of his being within reach. +With this sharpest perception yet, it was like a chill in the air +to him, it was almost appalling, that a creature so fine could be, +by mysterious forces, a creature so exploited. For at the end +of all things they WERE mysterious: she had but made Chad what +he was--so why could she think she had made him infinite? +She had made him better, she had made him best, she had made him +anything one would; but it came to our friend with supreme +queerness that he was none the less only Chad. Strether had the +sense that HE, a little, had made him too; his high appreciation +had as it were, consecrated her work The work, however admirable, +was nevertheless of the strict human order, and in short it was +marvellous that the companion of mere earthly joys, of comforts, +aberrations (however one classed them) within the common experience +should be so transcendently prized. It might have made Strether +hot or shy, as such secrets of others brought home sometimes do +make us; but he was held there by something so hard that it was +fairly grim. This was not the discomposure of last night; that had +quite passed--such discomposures were a detail; the real coercion +was to see a man ineffably adored. There it was again--it took +women, it took women; if to deal with them was to walk on water +what wonder that the water rose? And it had never surely risen +higher than round this woman. He presently found himself taking a +long look from her, and the next thing he knew he had uttered all +his thought. "You're afraid for your life!" + +It drew out her long look, and he soon enough saw why. A spasm +came into her face, the tears she had already been unable to hide +overflowed at first in silence, and then, as the sound suddenly +comes from a child, quickened to gasps, to sobs. She sat and +covered her face with her hands, giving up all attempt at a manner. +"It's how you see me, it's how you see me"--she caught her breath +with it--"and it's as I AM, and as I must take myself, and of +course it's no matter." Her emotion was at first so incoherent that +he could only stand there at a loss, stand with his sense of having +upset her, though of having done it by the truth. He had to listen +to her in a silence that he made no immediate effort to attenuate, +feeling her doubly woeful amid all her dim diffused elegance; +consenting to it as he had consented to the rest, and even +conscious of some vague inward irony in the presence of such a fine +free range of bliss and bale. He couldn't say it was NOT no +matter; for he was serving her to the end, he now knew, anyway-- +quite as if what he thought of her had nothing to do with it. +It was actually moreover as if he didn't think of her at all, +as if he could think of nothing but the passion, mature, abysmal, +pitiful, she represented, and the possibilities she betrayed. +She was older for him to-night, visibly less exempt from the +touch of time; but she was as much as ever the finest and +subtlest creature, the happiest apparition, it had been given him, +in all his years, to meet; and yet he could see her there as +vulgarly troubled, in very truth, as a maidservant crying for +her young man. The only thing was that she judged herself as +the maidservant wouldn't; the weakness of which wisdom too, +the dishonour of which judgement, seemed but to sink her lower. +Her collapse, however, no doubt, was briefer and she had in a +manner recovered herself before he intervened. "Of course +I'm afraid for my life. But that's nothing. It isn't that." + +He was silent a little longer, as if thinking what it might be. +"There's something I have in mind that I can still do." + +But she threw off at last, with a sharp sad headshake, drying her +eyes, what he could still do. "I don't care for that. Of course, +as I've said, you're acting, in your wonderful way, for yourself; +and what's for yourself is no more my business--though I may reach +out unholy hands so clumsily to touch it--than if it were something +in Timbuctoo. It's only that you don't snub me, as you've had +fifty chances to do--it's only your beautiful patience that makes +one forget one's manners. In spite of your patience, all the +same," she went on, "you'd do anything rather than be with us here, +even if that were possible. You'd do everything for us but be +mixed up with us--which is a statement you can easily answer to the +advantage of your own manners. You can say 'What's the use of +talking of things that at the best are impossible?' What IS of +course the use? It's only my little madness. You'd talk if you +were tormented. And I don't mean now about HIM. Oh for him--!" +Positively, strangely, bitterly, as it seemed to Strether, she gave +"him," for the moment, away. "You don't care what I think of you; +but I happen to care what you think of me. And what you MIGHT," +she added. "What you perhaps even did." + +He gained time. "What I did--?" + +"Did think before. Before this. DIDn't you think--?" + +But he had already stopped her. "I didn't think anything. I +never think a step further than I'm obliged to." + +"That's perfectly false, I believe," she returned--"except that you +may, no doubt, often pull up when things become TOO ugly; or even, +I'll say, to save you a protest, too beautiful. At any rate, even +so far as it's true, we've thrust on you appearances that you've +had to take in and that have therefore made your obligation. Ugly +or beautiful--it doesn't matter what we call them--you were +getting on without them, and that's where we're detestable. We +bore you--that's where we are. And we may well--for what we've +cost you. All you can do NOW is not to think at all. And I who +should have liked to seem to you--well, sublime!" + +He could only after a moment re-echo Miss Barrace. "You're +wonderful!" + +"I'm old and abject and hideous"--she went on as without hearing +him. "Abject above all. Or old above all. It's when one's old +that it's worst. I don't care what becomes of it--let what WILL; +there it is. It's a doom--I know it; you can't see it more than I +do myself. Things have to happen as they will." With which she +came back again to what, face to face with him, had so quite broken +down. "Of course you wouldn't, even if possible, and no matter +what may happen to you, be near us. But think of me, think of me--!" +She exhaled it into air. + +He took refuge in repeating something he had already said and that +she had made nothing of. "There's something I believe I can still +do." And he put his hand out for good-bye. + +She again made nothing of it; she went on with her insistence. +"That won't help you. There's nothing to help you." + +"Well, it may help YOU," he said. + +She shook her head. "There's not a grain of certainty in my +future--for the only certainty is that I shall be the loser in the +end." + +She hadn't taken his hand, but she moved with him to the door. +"That's cheerful," he laughed, "for your benefactor!" + +"What's cheerful for ME," she replied, "is that we might, you and +I, have been friends. That's it--that's it. You see how, as I +say, I want everything. I've wanted you too." + +"Ah but you've HAD me!" he declared, at the door, with an emphasis +that made an end. + + + +III + + +His purpose had been to see Chad the next day, and he had prefigured +seeing him by an early call; having in general never stood on ceremony +in respect to visits at the Boulevard Malesherbes. It had been +more often natural for him to go there than for Chad to come to the +small hotel, the attractions of which were scant; yet it nevertheless, +just now, at the eleventh hour, did suggest itself to Strether to begin +by giving the young man a chance. It struck him that, in the +inevitable course, Chad would be "round," as Waymarsh used to say-- +Waymarsh who already, somehow, seemed long ago. He hadn't come the +day before, because it had been arranged between them that Madame de Vionnet +should see their friend first; but now that this passage had taken place +he would present himself, and their friend wouldn't have long to wait. +Strether assumed, he became aware, on this reasoning, that the +interesting parties to the arrangement would have met betimes, and +that the more interesting of the two--as she was after all--would +have communicated to the other the issue of her appeal. Chad would +know without delay that his mother's messenger had been with her, +and, though it was perhaps not quite easy to see how she could +qualify what had occurred, he would at least have been sufficiently +advised to feel he could go on. The day, however, brought, early +or late, no word from him, and Strether felt, as a result of this, +that a change had practically come over their intercourse. It was +perhaps a premature judgement; or it only meant perhaps--how could +he tell?--that the wonderful pair he protected had taken up again +together the excursion he had accidentally checked. They might +have gone back to the country, and gone back but with a long breath drawn; +that indeed would best mark Chad's sense that reprobation hadn't +rewarded Madame de Vionnet's request for an interview. At the end of +the twenty-four hours, at the end of the forty-eight, there was still +no overture; so that Strether filled up the time, as he had so often +filled it before, by going to see Miss Gostrey. + +He proposed amusements to her; he felt expert now in proposing +amusements; and he had thus, for several days, an odd sense of +leading her about Paris, of driving her in the Bois, of showing her +the penny steamboats--those from which the breeze of the Seine was +to be best enjoyed--that might have belonged to a kindly uncle +doing the honours of the capital to an Intelligent niece from the +country. He found means even to take her to shops she didn't +know, or that she pretended she didn't; while she, on her side, +was, like the country maiden, all passive modest and grateful-- +going in fact so far as to emulate rusticity in occasional fatigues +and bewilderments. Strether described these vague proceedings to +himself, described them even to her, as a happy interlude; the sign +of which was that the companions said for the time no further word +about the matter they had talked of to satiety. He proclaimed +satiety at the outset, and she quickly took the hint; as docile +both in this and in everything else as the intelligent obedient +niece. He told her as yet nothing of his late adventure--for as +an adventure it now ranked with him; he pushed the whole business +temporarily aside and found his interest in the fact of her +beautiful assent. She left questions unasked--she who for so long +had been all questions; she gave herself up to him with an +understanding of which mere mute gentleness might have seemed the +sufficient expression. She knew his sense of his situation had +taken still another step--of that he was quite aware; but she +conveyed that, whatever had thus happened for him, it was thrown +into the shade by what was happening for herself. This--though it +mightn't to a detached spirit have seemed much--was the major +interest, and she met it with a new directness of response, +measuring it from hour to hour with her grave hush of acceptance. +Touched as he had so often been by her before, he was, for his part +too, touched afresh; all the more that though he could be duly +aware of the principle of his own mood he couldn't be equally so +of the principle of hers. He knew, that is, in a manner--knew +roughly and resignedly--what he himself was hatching; whereas he +had to take the chance of what he called to himself Maria's +calculations. It was all he needed that she liked him enough for +what they were doing, and even should they do a good deal more +would still like him enough for that; the essential freshness of a +relation so simple was a cool bath to the soreness produced by +other relations. These others appeared to him now horribly +complex; they bristled with fine points, points all unimaginable +beforehand, points that pricked and drew blood; a fact that gave to +an hour with his present friend on a bateau-mouche, or in the +afternoon shade of the Champs Elysees, something of the innocent +pleasure of handling rounded ivory. His relation with Chad +personally--from the moment he had got his point of view--had been +of the simplest; yet this also struck him as bristling, after a +third and a fourth blank day had passed. It was as if at last +however his care for such indications had dropped; there came a +fifth blank day and he ceased to enquire or to heed. + +They now took on to his fancy, Miss Gostrey and he, the image of +the Babes in the Wood; they could trust the merciful elements to +let them continue at peace. He had been great already, as he knew, +at postponements; but he had only to get afresh into the rhythm of +one to feel its fine attraction. It amused him to say to himself +that he might for all the world have been going to die--die resignedly; +the scene was filled for him with so deep a death-bed hush, so +melancholy a charm. That meant the postponement of everything else-- +which made so for the quiet lapse of life; and the postponement +in especial of the reckoning to come--unless indeed the reckoning +to come were to be one and the same thing with extinction. It faced +him, the reckoning, over the shoulder of much interposing experience-- +which also faced him; and one would float to it doubtless duly +through these caverns of Kubla Khan. It was really behind everything; +it hadn't merged in what he had done; his final appreciation of what +he had done--his appreciation on the spot--would provide it with +its main sharpness. The spot so focussed was of course Woollett, +and he was to see, at the best, what Woollett would be with everything +there changed for him. Wouldn't THAT revelation practically amount to +the wind-up of his career? Well, the summer's end would show; +his suspense had meanwhile exactly the sweetness of vain delay; +and he had with it, we should mention, other pastimes than Maria's +company--plenty of separate musings in which his luxury failed him +but at one point. He was well in port, the outer sea behind him, +and it was only a matter of getting ashore. There was a question +that came and went for him, however, as he rested against the +side of his ship, and it was a little to get rid of the obsession +that he prolonged his hours with Miss Gostrey. It was a question +about himself, but it could only be settled by seeing Chad again; +it was indeed his principal reason for wanting to see Chad. +After that it wouldn't signify--it was a ghost that certain words +would easily lay to rest. Only the young man must be there to +take the words. Once they were taken he wouldn't have a question left; +none, that is, in connexion with this particular affair. It wouldn't +then matter even to himself that he might now have been guilty of +speaking BECAUSE of what he had forfeited. That was the refinement +of his supreme scruple--he wished so to leave what he had forfeited +out of account. He wished not to do anything because he had missed +something else, because he was sore or sorry or impoverished, +because he was maltreated or desperate; he wished to do everything +because he was lucid and quiet, just the same for himself on all +essential points as he had ever been. Thus it was that while he +virtually hung about for Chad he kept mutely putting it: "You've +been chucked, old boy; but what has that to do with it?" It would +have sickened him to feel vindictive. + +These tints of feeling indeed were doubtless but the iridescence of +his idleness, and they were presently lost in a new light from +Maria. She had a fresh fact for him before the week was out, and +she practically met him with it on his appearing one night. He hadn't +on this day seen her, but had planned presenting himself in due course +to ask her to dine with him somewhere out of doors, on one of the +terraces, in one of the gardens, of which the Paris of summer was +profuse. It had then come on to rain, so that, disconcerted, he changed +his mind; dining alone at home, a little stuffily and stupidly, and +waiting on her afterwards to make up his loss. He was sure within a +minute that something had happened; it was so in the air of the rich +little room that he had scarcely to name his thought. Softly lighted, +the whole colour of the place, with its vague values, was in cool +fusion--an effect that made the visitor stand for a little agaze. It +was as if in doing so now he had felt a recent presence--his recognition +of the passage of which his hostess in turn divined. She had scarcely +to say it--"Yes, she has been here, and this time I received her." It +wasn't till a minute later that she added: "There being, as I +understand you, no reason NOW--!" + +"None for your refusing?" + +"No--if you've done what you've had to do." + +"I've certainly so far done it," Strether said, "as that you needn't +fear the effect, or the appearance of coming between us. There's +nothing between us now but what we ourselves have put there, and +not an inch of room for anything else whatever. Therefore you're +only beautifully WITH us as always--though doubtless now, if she +has talked to you, rather more with us than less. Of course if +she came," he added, "it was to talk to you." + +"It was to talk to me," Maria returned; on which he was further +sure that she was practically in possession of what he himself hadn't +yet told her. He was even sure she was in possession of things +he himself couldn't have told; for the consciousness of them was +now all in her face and accompanied there with a shade of sadness +that marked in her the close of all uncertainties. It came out for +him more than ever yet that she had had from the first a knowledge +she believed him not to have had, a knowledge the sharp acquisition +of which might be destined to make a difference for him. The +difference for him might not inconceivably be an arrest of his +independence and a change in his attitude--in other words a +revulsion in favour of the principles of Woollett. She had really +prefigured the possibility of a shock that would send him swinging +back to Mrs. Newsome. He hadn't, it was true, week after week, +shown signs of receiving it, but the possibility had been none the +less in the air. What Maria accordingly had had now to take in was +that the shock had descended and that he hadn't, all the same, +swung back. He had grown clear, in a flash, on a point long since +settled for herself; but no reapproximation to Mrs. Newsome had +occurred in consequence. Madame de Vionnet had by her visit held +up the torch to these truths, and what now lingered in poor Maria's +face was the somewhat smoky light of the scene between them. +If the light however wasn't, as we have hinted, the glow of joy, +the reasons for this also were perhaps discernible to Strether even +through the blur cast over them by his natural modesty. She had +held herself for months with a firm hand; she hadn't interfered on +any chance--and chances were specious enough--that she might +interfere to her profit. She had turned her back on the dream that +Mrs. Newsome's rupture, their friend's forfeiture--the engagement +the relation itself, broken beyond all mending--might furnish forth +her advantage; and, to stay her hand from promoting these things, +she had on private, difficult, but rigid, lines, played strictly +fair. She couldn't therefore but feel that, though, as the end of +all, the facts in question had been stoutly confirmed, her ground +for personal, for what might have been called interested, elation +remained rather vague. Strether might easily have made out that +she had been asking herself, in the hours she had just sat through, +if there were still for her, or were only not, a fair shade of +uncertainty. Let us hasten to add, however, that what he at first +made out on this occasion he also at first kept to himself. He +only asked what in particular Madame de Vionnet had come for, +and as to this his companion was ready. + +"She wants tidings of Mr. Newsome, whom she appears not to have +seen for some days." + +"Then she hasn't been away with him again?" + +"She seemed to think," Maria answered, "that he might have gone +away with YOU." + +"And did you tell her I know nothing of him?" + +She had her indulgent headshake. "I've known nothing of what you +know. I could only tell her I'd ask you." + +"Then I've not seen him for a week--and of course I've wondered." +His wonderment showed at this moment as sharper, but he presently +went on. "Still, I dare say I can put my hand on him. Did she +strike you," he asked, "as anxious?" + +"She's always anxious." + +"After all I've done for her?" And he had one of the last flickers +of his occasional mild mirth. "To think that was just what I came +out to prevent!" + +She took it up but to reply. "You don't regard him then as safe?" + +"I was just going to ask you how in that respect you regard Madame +de Vionnet." + +She looked at him a little. "What woman was EVER safe? She told +me," she added--and it was as if at the touch of the connexion-- +"of your extraordinary meeting in the country. After that a quoi +se fier?" + +"It was, as an accident, in all the possible or impossible chapter," +Strether conceded, "amazing enough. But still, but still--!" + +"But still she didn't mind?" + +"She doesn't mind anything." + +"Well, then, as you don't either, we may all sink to rest!" + +He appeared to agree with her, but he had his reservation. +"I do mind Chad's disappearance." + +"Oh you'll get him back. But now you know," she said, "why I went +to Mentone." He had sufficiently let her see that he had by this +time gathered things together, but there was nature in her wish to +make them clearer still. "I didn't want you to put it to me." + +"To put it to you--?" + +"The question of what you were at last--a week ago--to see for +yourself. I didn't want to have to lie for her. I felt that to +be too much for me. A man of course is always expected to do it-- +to do it, I mean, for a woman; but not a woman for another woman; +unless perhaps on the tit-for-tat principle, as an indirect way of +protecting herself. I don't need protection, so that I was free to +'funk' you--simply to dodge your test. The responsibility was too +much for me. I gained time, and when I came back the need of a +test had blown over." + +Strether thought of it serenely. "Yes; when you came back little +Bilham had shown me what's expected of a gentleman. Little Bilham +had lied like one." + +"And like what you believed him?" + +"Well," said Strether, "it was but a technical lie--he classed the +attachment as virtuous. That was a view for which there was much +to be said--and the virtue came out for me hugely There was of +course a great deal of it. I got it full in the face, and I haven't, +you see, done with it yet." + +"What I see, what I saw," Maria returned, "is that you dressed up +even the virtue. You were wonderful--you were beautiful, as I've +had the honour of telling you before; but, if you wish really to +know," she sadly confessed, "I never quite knew WHERE you were. +There were moments," she explained, "when you struck me as grandly +cynical; there were others when you struck me as grandly vague." + +Her friend considered. "I had phases. I had flights." + +"Yes, but things must have a basis." + +"A basis seemed to me just what her beauty supplied." + +"Her beauty of person?" + +"Well, her beauty of everything. The impression she makes. She +has such variety and yet such harmony." + +She considered him with one of her deep returns of indulgence-- +returns out of all proportion to the irritations they flooded over. +"You're complete." + +"You're always too personal," he good-humouredly said; "but that's +precisely how I wondered and wandered." + +"If you mean," she went on, "that she was from the first for you +the most charming woman in the world, nothing's more simple. Only +that was an odd foundation." + +"For what I reared on it?" + +"For what you didn't!" + +"Well, it was all not a fixed quantity. And it had for me--it has +still--such elements of strangeness. Her greater age than his, her +different world, traditions, association; her other opportunities, +liabilities, standards." + +His friend listened with respect to his enumeration of these +disparities; then she disposed of them at a stroke. "Those things +are nothing when a woman's hit. It's very awful. She was hit." + +Strether, on his side, did justice to that plea. "Oh of course I +saw she was hit. That she was hit was what we were busy with; that +she was hit was our great affair. But somehow I couldn't think of +her as down in the dust. And as put there by OUR little Chad!" + +"Yet wasn't 'your' little Chad just your miracle?" + +Strether admitted it. "Of course I moved among miracles. It was +all phantasmagoric. But the great fact was that so much of it was +none of my business--as I saw my business. It isn't even now." + +His companion turned away on this, and it might well have been yet +again with the sharpness of a fear of how little his philosophy +could bring her personally. "I wish SHE could hear you!" + +"Mrs. Newsome?" + +"No--not Mrs. Newsome; since I understand you that it doesn't +matter now what Mrs. Newsome hears. Hasn't she heard +everything?" + +"Practically--yes." He had thought a moment, but he went on. "You +wish Madame de Vionnet could hear me?" + +"Madame de Vionnet." She had come back to him. "She thinks just +the contrary of what you say. That you distinctly judge her." + +He turned over the scene as the two women thus placed together for +him seemed to give it. "She might have known--!" + +"Might have known you don't?" Miss Gostrey asked as he let it drop. +"She was sure of it at first," she pursued as he said nothing; "she +took it for granted, at least, as any woman in her position would. +But after that she changed her mind; she believed you believed--" + +"Well?"--he was curious. + +"Why in her sublimity. And that belief had remained with her, I +make out, till the accident of the other day opened your eyes. For +that it did," said Maria, "open them--" + +"She can't help"--he had taken it up--"being aware? No," he mused; +"I suppose she thinks of that even yet." + +"Then they WERE closed? There you are! However, if you see her as +the most charming woman in the world it comes to the same thing. +And if you'd like me to tell her that you do still so see her--!" +Miss Gostrey, in short, offered herself for service to the end. + +It was an offer he could temporarily entertain; but he decided. +"She knows perfectly how I see her." + +"Not favourably enough, she mentioned to me, to wish ever to see +her again. She told me you had taken a final leave of her. She +says you've done with her." + +"So I have." + +Maria had a pause; then she spoke as if for conscience. "She +wouldn't have done with YOU. She feels she has lost you-- +yet that she might have been better for you." + +"Oh she has been quite good enough!" Strether laughed. + +"She thinks you and she might at any rate have been friends." + +"We might certainly. That's just"--he continued to laugh-- +"why I'm going." + +It was as if Maria could feel with this then at last that she had +done her best for each. But she had still an idea. "Shall I tell +her that?" + +"No. Tell her nothing." + +"Very well then." To which in the next breath Miss Gostrey added: +"Poor dear thing!" + +Her friend wondered; then with raised eyebrows: "Me?" + +"Oh no. Marie de Vionnet." + +He accepted the correction, but he wondered still. "Are you so +sorry for her as that?" + +It made her think a moment--made her even speak with a smile. But +she didn't really retract. "I'm sorry for us all!" + + + +IV + +He was to delay no longer to re-establish communication with Chad, +and we have just seen that he had spoken to Miss Gostrey of this +intention on hearing from her of the young man's absence. It was +not moreover only the assurance so given that prompted him; it was +the need of causing his conduct to square with another profession +still--the motive he had described to her as his sharpest for now +getting away. If he was to get away because of some of the +relations involved in staying, the cold attitude toward them might +look pedantic in the light of lingering on. He must do both +things; he must see Chad, but he must go. The more he thought of +the former of these duties the more he felt himself make a subject +of insistence of the latter. They were alike intensely present to +him as he sat in front of a quiet little cafe into which he had +dropped on quitting Maria's entresol. The rain that had spoiled +his evening with her was over; for it was still to him as if his +evening HAD been spoiled--though it mightn't have been wholly the +rain. It was late when he left the cafe, yet not too late; he +couldn't in any case go straight to bed, and he would walk round +by the Boulevard Malesherbes--rather far round--on his way home. +Present enough always was the small circumstance that had +originally pressed for him the spring of so big a difference--the +accident of little Bilham's appearance on the balcony of the mystic +troisieme at the moment of his first visit, and the effect of it on +his sense of what was then before him. He recalled his watch, his +wait, and the recognition that had proceeded from the young +stranger, that had played frankly into the air and had presently +brought him up--things smoothing the way for his first straight +step. He had since had occasion, a few times, to pass the house +without going in; but he had never passed it without again feeling +how it had then spoken to him. He stopped short to-night on coming +to sight of it: it was as if his last day were oddly copying his +first. The windows of Chad's apartment were open to the balcony-- +a pair of them lighted; and a figure that had come out and taken up +little Bilham's attitude, a figure whose cigarette-spark he could +see leaned on the rail and looked down at him. It denoted however +no reappearance of his younger friend; it quickly defined itself in +the tempered darkness as Chad's more solid shape; so that Chad's +was the attention that after he had stepped forward into the street +and signalled, he easily engaged; Chad's was the voice that, +sounding into the night with promptness and seemingly with joy, +greeted him and called him up. + +That the young man had been visible there just in this position +expressed somehow for Strether that, as Maria Gostrey had reported, +he had been absent and silent; and our friend drew breath on each +landing--the lift, at that hour, having ceased to work--before the +implications of the fact. He had been for a week intensely away, +away to a distance and alone; but he was more back than ever, and +the attitude in which Strether had surprised him was something more +than a return--it was clearly a conscious surrender. He had +arrived but an hour before, from London, from Lucerne, from Homburg, +from no matter where--though the visitor's fancy, on the staircase, +liked to fill it out; and after a bath, a talk with Baptiste and a +supper of light cold clever French things, which one could see the +remains of there in the circle of the lamp, pretty and ultra-Parisian, +he had come into the air again for a smoke, was occupied at the moment +of Strether's approach in what might have been called taking up +his life afresh. His life, his life!--Strether paused anew, on +the last flight, at this final rather breathless sense of what +Chad's life was doing with Chad's mother's emissary. It was +dragging him, at strange hours, up the staircases of the rich; +it was keeping him out of bed at the end of long hot days; +it was transforming beyond recognition the simple, subtle, +conveniently uniform thing that had anciently passed with him for a +life of his own. Why should it concern him that Chad was to be +fortified in the pleasant practice of smoking on balconies, of +supping on salads, of feeling his special conditions agreeably +reaffirm themselves, of finding reassurance in comparisons and +contrasts? There was no answer to such a question but that he was +still practically committed--he had perhaps never yet so much known it. +It made him feel old, and he would buy his railway-ticket--feeling, +no doubt, older--the next day; but he had meanwhile come up four +flights, counting the entresol, at midnight and without a lift, for +Chad's life. The young man, hearing him by this time, and with +Baptiste sent to rest, was already at the door; so that Strether +had before him in full visibility the cause in which he was labouring +and even, with the troisieme fairly gained, panting a little. + +Chad offered him, as always, a welcome in which the cordial and the +formal--so far as the formal was the respectful--handsomely met; +and after he had expressed a hope that he would let him put him up +for the night Strether was in full possession of the key, as it +might have been called, to what had lately happened. If he had +just thought of himself as old Chad was at sight of him thinking of +him as older: he wanted to put him up for the night just because +he was ancient and weary. It could never be said the tenant of +these quarters wasn't nice to him; a tenant who, if he might +indeed now keep him, was probably prepared to work it all still +more thoroughly. Our friend had in fact the impression that with +the minimum of encouragement Chad would propose to keep him +indefinitely; an impression in the lap of which one of his own +possibilities seemed to sit. Madame de Vionnet had wished him to +stay--so why didn't that happily fit? He could enshrine himself +for the rest of his days in his young host's chambre d'ami and draw +out these days at his young host's expense: there could scarce be +greater logical expression of the countenance he had been moved to +give. There was literally a minute--it was strange enough--during +which he grasped the idea that as he WAS acting, as he could only +act, he was inconsistent. The sign that the inward forces he had +obeyed really hung together would be that--in default always of +another career--he should promote the good cause by mounting guard +on it. These things, during his first minutes, came and went; but +they were after all practically disposed of as soon as he had +mentioned his errand. He had come to say good-bye--yet that was +only a part; so that from the moment Chad accepted his farewell the +question of a more ideal affirmation gave way to something else. +He proceeded with the rest of his business. "You'll be a brute, you +know--you'll be guilty of the last infamy--if you ever forsake her." + +That, uttered there at the solemn hour, uttered in the place that +was full of her influence, was the rest of his business; and when +once he had heard himself say it he felt that his message had never +before been spoken. It placed his present call immediately on +solid ground, and the effect of it was to enable him quite to play +with what we have called the key. Chad showed no shade of +embarrassment, but had none the less been troubled for him after +their meeting in the country; had had fears and doubts on the +subject of his comfort. He was disturbed, as it were, only FOR +him, and had positively gone away to ease him off, to let him down-- +if it wasn't indeed rather to screw him up--the more gently. +Seeing him now fairly jaded he had come, with characteristic good +humour, all the way to meet him, and what Strether thereupon +supremely made out was that he would abound for him to the end in +conscientious assurances. This was what was between them while the +visitor remained; so far from having to go over old ground he found +his entertainer keen to agree to everything. It couldn't be put +too strongly for him that he'd be a brute. "Oh rather!--if I should +do anything of THAT sort. I hope you believe I really feel it." + +"I want it," said Strether, "to be my last word of all to you. +I can't say more, you know; and I don't see how I can do more, +in every way, than I've done." + +Chad took this, almost artlessly, as a direct allusion. "You've +seen her?" + +"Oh yes--to say good-bye. And if I had doubted the truth of what I +tell you--" + +"She'd have cleared up your doubt?" Chad understood--"rather"-- +again! It even kept him briefly silent. But he made that up. +"She must have been wonderful." + +"She WAS," Strether candidly admitted--all of which practically +told as a reference to the conditions created by the accident of +the previous week. + +They appeared for a little to be looking back at it; and that came +out still more in what Chad next said. "I don't know what you've +really thought, all along; I never did know--for anything, with +you, seemed to be possible. But of course--of course--" Without +confusion, quite with nothing but indulgence, he broke down, he +pulled up. "After all, you understand. I spoke to you originally +only as I HAD to speak. There's only one way--isn't there?--about +such things. However," he smiled with a final philosophy, "I see +it's all right." + +Strether met his eyes with a sense of multiplying thoughts. What +was it that made him at present, late at night and after journeys, +so renewedly, so substantially young? Strether saw in a moment +what it was--it was that he was younger again than Madame de Vionnet. +He himself said immediately none of the things that he was thinking; +he said something quite different. "You HAVE really been to a distance?" + +"I've been to England." Chad spoke cheerfully and promptly, but gave +no further account of it than to say: "One must sometimes get off." + +Strether wanted no more facts--he only wanted to justify, as it +were, his question. "Of course you do as you're free to do. But I +hope, this time, that you didn't go for ME." + +"For very shame at bothering you really too much? My dear man," +Chad laughed, "what WOULDn't I do for you?" + +Strether's easy answer for this was that it was a disposition he +had exactly come to profit by. "Even at the risk of being in your +way I've waited on, you know, for a definite reason." + +Chad took it in. "Oh yes--for us to make if possible a still +better impression." And he stood there happily exhaling his full +general consciousness. "I'm delighted to gather that you feel +we've made it." + +There was a pleasant irony in the words, which his guest, +preoccupied and keeping to the point, didn't take up. "If I had +my sense of wanting the rest of the time--the time of their being +still on this side," he continued to explain--"I know now why I +wanted it." + +He was as grave, as distinct, as a demonstrator before a +blackboard, and Chad continued to face him like an intelligent +pupil. "You wanted to have been put through the whole thing." + +Strether again, for a moment, said nothing; he turned his eyes +away, and they lost themselves, through the open window, in the +dusky outer air. "I shall learn from the Bank here where they're +now having their letters, and my last word, which I shall write in +the morning and which they're expecting as my ultimatum, will so +immediately reach them." The light of his plural pronoun was +sufficiently reflected in his companion's face as he again met it; +and he completed his demonstration. He pursued indeed as if for +himself. "Of course I've first to justify what I shall do." + +"You're justifying it beautifully!" Chad declared. + +"It's not a question of advising you not to go," Strether said, "but +of absolutely preventing you, if possible, from so much as thinking +of it. Let me accordingly appeal to you by all you hold sacred." + +Chad showed a surprise. "What makes you think me capable--?" + +"You'd not only be, as I say, a brute; you'd be," his companion +went on in the same way, "a criminal of the deepest dye." + +Chad gave a sharper look, as if to gauge a possible suspicion. +"I don't know what should make you think I'm tired of her." + +Strether didn't quite know either, and such impressions, for the +imaginative mind, were always too fine, too floating, to produce on +the spot their warrant. There was none the less for him, in the +very manner of his host's allusion to satiety as a thinkable +motive, a slight breath of the ominous. "I feel how much more she +can do for you. She hasn't done it all yet. Stay with her at +least till she has." + +"And leave her THEN?" + +Chad had kept smiling, but its effect in Strether was a shade of +dryness. "Don't leave her BEFORE. When you've got all that can be +got--I don't say," he added a trifle grimly. "That will be the +proper time. But as, for you, from such a woman, there will always +be something to be got, my remark's not a wrong to her." Chad let +him go on, showing every decent deference, showing perhaps also a +candid curiosity for this sharper accent. "I remember you, you +know, as you were." + +"An awful ass, wasn't I?" + +The response was as prompt as if he had pressed a spring; it had a +ready abundance at which he even winced; so that he took a moment +to meet it. "You certainly then wouldn't have seemed worth all +you've let me in for. You've defined yourself better. Your value +has quintupled." + +"Well then, wouldn't that be enough--?" + +Chad had risked it jocosely, but Strether remained blank. "Enough?" + +"If one SHOULD wish to live on one's accumulations?" After which, +however, as his friend appeared cold to the joke, the young man as +easily dropped it. "Of course I really never forget, night or day, +what I owe her. I owe her everything. I give you my word of +honour," he frankly rang out, "that I'm not a bit tired of her." +Strether at this only gave him a stare: the way youth could +express itself was again and again a wonder. He meant no harm, +though he might after all be capable of much; yet he spoke of being +"tired" of her almost as he might have spoken of being tired of +roast mutton for dinner. "She has never for a moment yet bored me-- +never been wanting, as the cleverest women sometimes are, in tact. +She has never talked about her tact--as even they too sometimes talk; +but she has always had it. She has never had it more"--he handsomely +made the point--"than just lately." And he scrupulously went further. +"She has never been anything I could call a burden." + +Strether for a moment said nothing; then he spoke gravely, with his +shade of dryness deepened. "Oh if you didn't do her justice--!" + +"I SHOULD be a beast, eh?" + +Strether devoted no time to saying what he would be; THAT, visibly, +would take them far. If there was nothing for it but to repeat, +however, repetition was no mistake. "You owe her everything--very +much more than she can ever owe you. You've in other words duties +to her, of the most positive sort; and I don't see what other +duties--as the others are presented to you--can be held to go +before them." + +Chad looked at him with a smile. "And you know of course about the +others, eh?--since it's you yourself who have done the presenting." + +"Much of it--yes--and to the best of my ability. But not all--from +the moment your sister took my place." + +"She didn't," Chad returned. "Sally took a place, certainly; but +it was never, I saw from the first moment, to be yours. No one-- +with us--will ever take yours. It wouldn't be possible." + +"Ah of course," sighed Strether, "I knew it. I believe you're +right. No one in the world, I imagine, was ever so portentously +solemn. There I am," he added with another sigh, as if weary +enough, on occasion, of this truth. "I was made so." + +Chad appeared for a little to consider the way he was made; +he might for this purpose have measured him up and down. +His conclusion favoured the fact. "YOU have never needed any one +to make you better. There has never been any one good enough. +They couldn't," the young man declared. + +His friend hesitated. "I beg your pardon. They HAVE." + +Chad showed, not without amusement, his doubt. "Who then?" + +Strether--though a little dimly--smiled at him. "Women--too." + +"'Two'?"--Chad stared and laughed. "Oh I don't believe, for such +work, in any more than one! So you're proving too much. And what +IS beastly, at all events," he added, "is losing you." + +Strether had set himself in motion for departure, but at this he +paused. "Are you afraid?" + +"Afraid--?" + +"Of doing wrong. I mean away from my eye." Before Chad could +speak, however, he had taken himself up. "I AM, certainly," he +laughed, "prodigious." + +"Yes, you spoil us for all the stupid--!" This might have been, on +Chad's part, in its extreme emphasis, almost too freely +extravagant; but it was full, plainly enough, of the intention of +comfort, it carried with it a protest against doubt and a promise, +positively, of performance. Picking up a hat in the vestibule he +came out with his friend, came downstairs, took his arm, +affectionately, as to help and guide him, treating him if not +exactly as aged and infirm, yet as a noble eccentric who appealed +to tenderness, and keeping on with him, while they walked, to the +next corner and the next. "You needn't tell me, you needn't tell +me!"--this again as they proceeded, he wished to make Strether +feel. What he needn't tell him was now at last, in the geniality +of separation, anything at all it concerned him to know. He knew, +up to the hilt--that really came over Chad; he understood, felt, +recorded his vow; and they lingered on it as they had lingered in +their walk to Strether's hotel the night of their first meeting. +The latter took, at this hour, all he could get; he had given all +he had had to give; he was as depleted as if he had spent his last +sou. But there was just one thing for which, before they broke +off, Chad seemed disposed slightly to bargain. His companion needn't, +as he said, tell him, but he might himself mention that he had been +getting some news of the art of advertisement. He came out quite +suddenly with this announcement while Strether wondered if his revived +interest were what had taken him, with strange inconsequence, over +to London. He appeared at all events to have been looking into the +question and had encountered a revelation. Advertising scientifically +worked presented itself thus as the great new force. "It really +does the thing, you know." + +They were face to face under the street-lamp as they had been the +first night, and Strether, no doubt, looked blank. "Affects, you +mean, the sale of the object advertised?" + +"Yes--but affects it extraordinarily; really beyond what one had +supposed. I mean of course when it's done as one makes out that in +our roaring age, it CAN be done. I've been finding out a little, +though it doubtless doesn't amount to much more than what you +originally, so awfully vividly--and all, very nearly, that first +night--put before me. It's an art like another, and infinite like +all the arts." He went on as if for the joke of it--almost as if +his friend's face amused him. "In the hands, naturally, of a master. +The right man must take hold. With the right man to work it +c'est un monde." + +Strether had watched him quite as if, there on the pavement without +a pretext, he had begun to dance a fancy step. "Is what you're +thinking of that you yourself, in the case you have in mind, would +be the right man?" + +Chad had thrown back his light coat and thrust each of his thumbs +into an armhole of his waistcoat; in which position his fingers +played up and down. "Why, what is he but what you yourself, as I +say, took me for when you first came out?" + +Strether felt a little faint, but he coerced his attention. "Oh +yes, and there's no doubt that, with your natural parts, you'd have +much in common with him. Advertising is clearly at this time of +day the secret of trade. It's quite possible it will be open to you-- +giving the whole of your mind to it--to make the whole place hum +with you. Your mother's appeal is to the whole of your mind, and +that's exactly the strength of her case." + +Chad's fingers continued to twiddle, but he had something of a drop. +"Ah we've been through my mother's case!" + +"So I thought. Why then do you speak of the matter?" + +"Only because it was part of our original discussion. To wind up +where we began, my interest's purely platonic. There at any rate +the fact is--the fact of the possible. I mean the money in it." + +"Oh damn the money in it!" said Strether. And then as the young +man's fixed smile seemed to shine out more strange: "Shall you +give your friend up for the money in it?" + +Chad preserved his handsome grimace as well as the rest of his +attitude. "You're not altogether--in your so great 'solemnity'-- +kind. Haven't I been drinking you in--showing you all I feel +you're worth to me? What have I done, what am I doing, but cleave +to her to the death? The only thing is," he good-humouredly +explained, "that one can't but have it before one, in the cleaving-- +the point where the death comes in. Don't be afraid for THAT. +It's pleasant to a fellow's feelings," he developed, "to 'size-up' +the bribe he applies his foot to." + +"Oh then if all you want's a kickable surface the bribe's enormous." + +"Good. Then there it goes!" Chad administered his kick with fantastic +force and sent an imaginary object flying. It was accordingly as if +they were once more rid of the question and could come back to what +really concerned him. "Of course I shall see you tomorrow." + +But Strether scarce heeded the plan proposed for this; he had still +the impression--not the slighter for the simulated kick--of an +irrelevant hornpipe or jig. "You're restless." + +"Ah," returned Chad as they parted, "you're exciting." + + + +V + + +He had, however, within two days, another separation to face. +He had sent Maria Gostrey a word early, by hand, to ask if he might +come to breakfast; in consequence of which, at noon, she awaited +him in the cool shade of her little Dutch-looking dining-room. +This retreat was at the back of the house, with a view of a scrap +of old garden that had been saved from modern ravage; and though he +had on more than one other occasion had his legs under its small +and peculiarly polished table of hospitality, the place had never +before struck him as so sacred to pleasant knowledge, to intimate +charm, to antique order, to a neatness that was almost august. +To sit there was, as he had told his hostess before, to see life +reflected for the time in ideally kept pewter; which was somehow +becoming, improving to life, so that one's eyes were held and +comforted. Strether's were comforted at all events now--and the +more that it was the last time--with the charming effect, on the +board bare of a cloth and proud of its perfect surface, of the +small old crockery and old silver, matched by the more substantial +pieces happily disposed about the room. The specimens of vivid +Delf, in particular had the dignity of family portraits; and it was +in the midst of them that our friend resignedly expressed himself. +He spoke even with a certain philosophic humour. "There's nothing +more to wait for; I seem to have done a good day's work. I've let +them have it all round. I've seen Chad, who has been to London and +come back. He tells me I'm 'exciting,' and I seem indeed pretty +well to have upset every one. I've at any rate excited HIM. He's +distinctly restless." + +"You've excited ME," Miss Gostrey smiled. "I'M distinctly restless." + +"Oh you were that when I found you. It seems to me I've rather got +you out of it. What's this," he asked as he looked about him, "but +a haunt of ancient peace?" + +"I wish with all my heart," she presently replied, "I could make +you treat it as a haven of rest." On which they fronted each other, +across the table, as if things unuttered were in the air. + +Strether seemed, in his way, when he next spoke, to take some of +them up. "It wouldn't give me--that would be the trouble--what it +will, no doubt, still give you. I'm not," he explained, leaning +back in his chair, but with his eyes on a small ripe round melon-- +"in real harmony with what surrounds me. You ARE. I take it too hard. +You DON'T. It makes--that's what it comes to in the end--a fool of me." +Then at a tangent, "What has he been doing in London?" he demanded. + +"Ah one may go to London," Maria laughed. "You know I did." + +Yes--he took the reminder. "And you brought ME back." He brooded +there opposite to her, but without gloom. "Whom has Chad brought? +He's full of ideas. And I wrote to Sarah," he added, "the first +thing this morning. So I'm square. I'm ready for them." + +She neglected certain parts of this speech in the interest of +others. "Marie said to me the other day that she felt him to have +the makings of an immense man of business." + +"There it is. He's the son of his father!" + +"But SUCH a father!" + +"Ah just the right one from that point of view! But it isn't his +father in him," Strether added, "that troubles me." + +"What is it then?" He came back to his breakfast; he partook +presently of the charming melon, which she liberally cut for him; +and it was only after this that he met her question. Then moreover +it was but to remark that he'd answer her presently. She waited, +she watched, she served him and amused him, and it was perhaps with +this last idea that she soon reminded him of his having never even +yet named to her the article produced at Woollett. "Do you +remember our talking of it in London--that night at the play?" +Before he could say yes, however, she had put it to him for other +matters. Did he remember, did he remember--this and that of their +first days? He remembered everything, bringing up with humour +even things of which she professed no recollection, things she +vehemently denied; and falling back above all on the great +interest of their early time, the curiosity felt by both of them +as to where he would "come out." They had so assumed it was to be +in some wonderful place--they had thought of it as so very MUCH +out. Well, that was doubtless what it had been--since he had come +out just there. He was out, in truth, as far as it was possible +to be, and must now rather bethink himself of getting in again. +He found on the spot the image of his recent history; he was like +one of the figures of the old clock at Berne. THEY came out, on +one side, at their hour, jigged along their little course in the +public eye, and went in on the other side. He too had jigged his +little course--him too a modest retreat awaited. He offered now, +should she really like to know, to name the great product of +Woollett. It would be a great commentary on everything. At this +she stopped him off; she not only had no wish to know, but she +wouldn't know for the world. She had done with the products of +Woollett--for all the good she had got from them. She desired no +further news of them, and she mentioned that Madame de Vionnet +herself had, to her knowledge, lived exempt from the information +he was ready to supply. She had never consented to receive it, +though she would have taken it, under stress, from Mrs. Pocock. +But it was a matter about which Mrs. Pocock appeared to have had +little to say--never sounding the word--and it didn't signify +now. There was nothing clearly for Maria Gostrey that signified +now--save one sharp point, that is, to which she came in time. +"I don't know whether it's before you as a possibility that, +left to himself, Mr. Chad may after all go back. I judge that it +IS more or less so before you, from what you just now said of him." + +Her guest had his eyes on her, kindly but attentively, as if +foreseeing what was to follow this. "I don't think it will be for +the money." And then as she seemed uncertain: "I mean I don't +believe it will be for that he'll give her up." + +"Then he WILL give her up?" + +Strether waited a moment, rather slow and deliberate now, drawing +out a little this last soft stage, pleading with her in various +suggestive and unspoken ways for patience and understanding. +"What were you just about to ask me?" + +"Is there anything he can do that would make you patch it up?" + +"With Mrs. Newsome?" + +Her assent, as if she had had a delicacy about sounding the name, +was only in her face; but she added with it: "Or is there +anything he can do that would make HER try it?" + +"To patch it up with me?" His answer came at last in a conclusive +headshake. "There's nothing any one can do. It's over. Over for +both of us." + +Maria wondered, seemed a little to doubt. "Are you so sure for her?" + +"Oh yes--sure now. Too much has happened. I'm different for her." + +She took it in then, drawing a deeper breath. "I see. So that as +she's different for YOU--" + +"Ah but," he interrupted, "she's not." And as Miss Gostrey wondered +again: "She's the same. She's more than ever the same. +But I do what I didn't before--I SEE her." + +He spoke gravely and as if responsibly--since he had to pronounce; +and the effect of it was slightly solemn, so that she simply exclaimed +"Oh!" Satisfied and grateful, however, she showed in her own next +words an acceptance of his statement. "What then do you go home to?" + +He had pushed his plate a little away, occupied with another side +of the matter; taking refuge verily in that side and feeling so +moved that he soon found himself on his feet. He was affected in +advance by what he believed might come from her, and he would have +liked to forestall it and deal with it tenderly; yet in the +presence of it he wished still more to be--though as smoothly as +possible--deterrent and conclusive. He put her question by for +the moment; he told her more about Chad. "It would have been +impossible to meet me more than he did last night on the question +of the infamy of not sticking to her." + +"Is that what you called it for him--'infamy'?" + +"Oh rather! I described to him in detail the base creature he'd +be, and he quite agrees with me about it." + +"So that it's really as if you had nailed him?" + +"Quite really as if--! I told him I should curse him." + +"Oh," she smiled, "you HAVE done it." And then having thought again: +"You CAN'T after that propose--!" Yet she scanned his face. + +"Propose again to Mrs. Newsome?" + +She hesitated afresh, but she brought it out. "I've never believed, +you know, that you did propose. I always believed it was really she-- +and, so far as that goes, I can understand it. What I mean is," +she explained, "that with such a spirit--the spirit of curses!-- +your breach is past mending. She has only to know what you've done +to him never again to raise a finger." + +"I've done," said Strether, "what I could--one can't do more. +He protests his devotion and his horror. But I'm not sure I've +saved him. He protests too much. He asks how one can dream of +his being tired. But he has all life before him." + +Maria saw what he meant. "He's formed to please." + +"And it's our friend who has formed him." Strether felt in it the +strange irony. + +"So it's scarcely his fault!" + +"It's at any rate his danger. I mean," said Strether, "it's hers. +But she knows it." + +"Yes, she knows it. And is your idea," Miss Gostrey asked, "that +there was some other woman in London?" + +"Yes. No. That is I HAVE no ideas. I'm afraid of them. +I've done with them." And he put out his hand to her. "Good-bye." + +It brought her back to her unanswered question. "To what do you go +home?" + +"I don't know. There will always be something." + +"To a great difference," she said as she kept his hand. + +"A great difference--no doubt. Yet I shall see what I can make of it." + +"Shall you make anything so good--?" But, as if remembering what +Mrs. Newsome had done, it was as far as she went. + +He had sufficiently understood. "So good as this place at this +moment? So good as what YOU make of everything you touch?" +He took a moment to say, for, really and truly, what stood about him +there in her offer--which was as the offer of exquisite service, of +lightened care, for the rest of his days--might well have tempted. +It built him softly round, it roofed him warmly over, it rested, +all so firm, on selection. And what ruled selection was beauty and +knowledge. It was awkward, it was almost stupid, not to seem to +prize such things; yet, none the less, so far as they made his +opportunity they made it only for a moment. She'd moreover +understand--she always understood. + +That indeed might be, but meanwhile she was going on. +"There's nothing, you know, I wouldn't do for you." + +"Oh yes--I know." + +"There's nothing," she repeated, "in all the world." + +"I know. I know. But all the same I must go." He had got it at last. +"To be right." + +"To be right?" + +She had echoed it in vague deprecation, but he felt it already +clear for her. "That, you see, is my only logic. +Not, out of the whole affair, to have got anything for myself." + +She thought. "But with your wonderful impressions you'll have +got a great deal." + +"A great deal"--he agreed. "But nothing like YOU. It's you who +would make me wrong!" + +Honest and fine, she couldn't greatly pretend she didn't see it. +Still she could pretend just a little. "But why should you be so +dreadfully right?" + +"That's the way that--if I must go--you yourself would be the first +to want me. And I can't do anything else." + +So then she had to take it, though still with her defeated protest. +"It isn't so much your BEING 'right'--it's your horrible sharp eye +for what makes you so." + +"Oh but you're just as bad yourself. You can't resist me when I +point that out." + +She sighed it at last all comically, all tragically, away. +"I can't indeed resist you." + +"Then there we are!" said Strether. + + +This is the end of the Project Gutenberg Edition of The Ambassadors, +by Henry James. + + diff --git a/old/ambas10.zip b/old/ambas10.zip Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..0d5e1cb --- /dev/null +++ b/old/ambas10.zip |
