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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/27180-8.txt b/27180-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6536df1 --- /dev/null +++ b/27180-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,10051 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Wooden Horse, by Hugh Walpole + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Wooden Horse + +Author: Hugh Walpole + +Release Date: November 6, 2008 [EBook #27180] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE WOODEN HORSE *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: Hugh Walpole. _From a photograph by Messrs. Elliott & +Fry_] + + + + + +THE + +WOODEN HORSE + + +BY + +HUGH WALPOLE + + + + +WITH A PORTRAIT + + + + +MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED + +ST. MARTIN'S STREET, LONDON + +1919 + + + + +MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED + + LONDON -- BOMBAY -- CALCUTTA -- MADRAS + MELBOURNE + + +THE MACMILLAN COMPANY + + NEW YORK -- BOSTON -- CHICAGO + DALLAS -- SAN FRANCISCO + + +THE MACMILLAN CO. OF CANADA, LTD. + + TORONTO + + + + +COPYRIGHT + + _First Published April 1909 + Second Impression October 1909 + Wayfarers' Library 1914 + New Edition 1919_ + + + + +TO + +W. FERRIS + +AFFECTIONATELY + + + + + "_Er liebte jeden Hund, und wünschte von jedem Hund geliebt + zu sein._"--FLEGELJAHRE (JEAN PAUL). + + + + +CHAPTER I + +Robin Trojan was waiting for his father. + +Through the open window of the drawing-room came, faintly, the cries of +the town--the sound of some distant bell, the shout of fishermen on the +quay, the muffled beat of the mining-stamps from Porth-Vennic, a +village that lay two miles inland. There yet lingered in the air the +faint afterglow of the sunset, and a few stars, twinkling faintly in +the deep blue of the night sky, seemed reflections of the orange lights +of the herring-boats, flashing far out to sea. + +The great drawing-room, lighted by a cluster of electric lamps hanging +from the ceiling, seemed to flaunt the dim twinkle of the stars +contemptuously; the dark blue of the walls and thick Persian carpets +sounded a quieter note, but the general effect was of something +distantly, coldly superior, something indeed that was scarcely +comfortable, but that was, nevertheless, fulfilling the exact purpose +for which it had been intended. + +And that purpose was, most certainly, not comfort. Robin himself would +have smiled contemptuously if you had pleaded for something homely, +something suggestive of roaring fires and cosy armchairs, instead of +the stiff-backed, beautifully carved Louis XIV. furniture that stood, +each chair and table rigidly in its appointed place, as though bidding +defiance to any one bold enough to attempt alterations. + +The golden light in the sky shone faintly in at the open window, as +though longing to enter, but the dazzling brilliance of the room seemed +to fling it back into the blue dome of sea and sky outside. + +Robin was standing by a large looking-glass in the corner of the room +trying to improve the shape of his tie; and it was characteristic of +him that, although he had not seen his father for eighteen years, he +was thinking a great deal more about his tie than about the approaching +meeting. + +He was, at this time, twenty years of age. Tall and dark, he had all +the Trojan characteristics; small, delicately shaped ears; a mouth that +gave signs of all the Trojan obstinacy, called by the Trojans +themselves family pride; a high, well-shaped forehead with hair closely +cut and of a dark brown. He was considered by most people +handsome--but to some his eyes, of the real Trojan blue, were too cold +and impassive. He gave you the impression of some one who watched, +rather disdainfully, the ill-considered and impulsive actions of his +fellow-men. + +He was, however, exactly suited to his surroundings. He maintained the +same position as the room with regard to the world in general--"We are +Trojans; we are very old and very expensive and very, very good, and it +behoves you to recognise this fact and give way with fitting deference." + +He had not seen his father for eighteen years, and, as he had been +separated from him at the unimpressionable age of two, he may be said +never to have seen him at all. He had no recollection of him, and the +picture that he had painted was constructed out of monthly rather +uninteresting letters concerned, for the most part, with the care and +maintenance of New Zealand sheep, and such meagre details as his Aunt +Clare and Uncle Garrett had bestowed on him from time to time. From +the latter he gathered that his father had been, in his youth, in some +vague way, unsatisfactory, and had departed to Australia to seek his +fortune, with a clear understanding from his father that he was not to +return thence until he had found it. + +Robin himself had been born in New Zealand, but his mother dying when +he was two years old, he had been sent home to be brought up, in the +proper Trojan manner, by his aunt and uncle. + +On these things Robin reflected as he tried to twist his tie into a +fitting Trojan shape; but it refused to behave as a well-educated tie +should, and the obvious thing was to get another. Robin looked at his +watch. It was really extremely provoking; the carriage had been timed +to arrive at half-past six exactly; it was now a quarter to seven and +no one had appeared. There was probably not time to search for another +tie. His father would be certain to arrive at the very moment when one +tie was on and the other not yet on, which meant that Robin would be +late; and if there was one thing that a Trojan hated more than another +it was being late. With many people unpunctuality was a fault, with a +Trojan it was a crime; it was what was known as an "odds and ends"--one +of those things, like untidiness, eating your fish with a steel knife +and wearing a white tie with a short dinner-jacket, that marked a man, +once and for all, as some one outside the pale, an impossible person. + +Therefore Robin allowed his tie to remain and walked to the open window. + +"At any rate," he said to himself, still thinking of his tie, "father +won't probably notice it." He wondered how much his father _would_ +notice. "As he's a Trojan," he thought, "he'll know the sort of things +that a fellow ought to do, even though he has been out in New Zealand +all his life." + +It would, Robin reflected, be a very pretty little scene. He liked +scenes, and, if this one were properly manoeuvred, he ought to be its +very interesting and satisfactory centre. That was why it was really a +pity about the tie. + +The door from the library swung slowly open, and Sir Jeremy Trojan, +Robin's grandfather, was wheeled into the room. + +He was very old indeed, and the only part of his face that seemed alive +were his eyes; they were continually darting from one end of the room +to the other, they were never still; but, for the rest, he scarcely +moved. His skin was dried and brown like a mummy's, and even when he +spoke, his lips hardly stirred. He was in evening dress, his legs +wrapped tightly in rugs; his chair was wheeled by a servant who was +evidently perfectly trained in all the Trojan ways of propriety and +decorum. + +"Well, grandfather," said Robin, turning back from the window with the +look of annoyance still on his face, "how are you to-night?" Robin +always shouted at his grandfather although he knew perfectly well that +he was not deaf, but could, on the other hand, hear wonderfully well +for his age. Nothing annoyed his grandfather so much as being shouted +at, and of this Robin was continually reminded. + +"Tut, tut, boy," said Sir Jeremy testily, "one would think that I was +deaf. Better? Yes, of course. Close the windows!" + +"I'll ring for Marchant," said Robin, moving to the bell, "he ought to +have done it before." Sir Jeremy said nothing--it was impossible to +guess at his thoughts from his face; only his eyes moved uneasily round +the room. + +He was wheeled to his accustomed corner by the big open stone +fireplace, and he lay there, motionless in his chair, without further +remark. + +Marchant came in a moment later. + +"The windows, Marchant," said Robin, still twisting uneasily at his +tie, "I think you had forgotten." + +"I am sorry, sir," Marchant answered, "but Mr. Garrett had spoken this +morning of the room being rather close. I had thought that perhaps----" + +He moved silently across the room and shut the window, barring out the +fluttering yellow light, the sparkling silver of the stars, the orange +of the fishing-boats, the murmured distance of the town. + +A few moments later Clare Trojan came in. Although she had never been +beautiful she had always been interesting, and indeed she was (even +when in the company of women far more beautiful than herself) always +one of the first to whom men looked. This may have been partly +accounted for by her very obvious pride, the quality that struck the +most casual observer at once, but there was also an air of +indifference, a look in the eyes that seemed to pique men's curiosity +and stir their interest. It was not for lack of opportunity that she +was still unmarried, but she had never discovered the man who had +virtue and merit sufficient to cover the obvious disadvantages of his +not having been born a Trojan. Middle age suited the air of almost +regal dignity with which she moved, and people who had known her for +many years said that she had never looked so well as now. To-night, in +a closely-fitting dress of black silk relieved by a string of pearls +round her neck, and a superb white rose at her breast, she was almost +handsome. Robin watched her with satisfaction as she moved towards him. + +"Ah, it's cold," she said. "I know Marchant left those windows open +till the last moment. Robin, your tie is shocking. It looks as if it +were made-up." + +"I know," said Robin, still struggling with it; "but there isn't time +to get another. Father will be here at any moment. It's late as it +is. Yes, I told Marchant to shut the windows, he said something about +Uncle Garrett's saying it was stuffy or something." + +"Harry's late." Clare moved across to her father and bent down and +kissed him. + +"How are you to-night, father?" but she was arranging the rose at her +breast and was obviously thinking more of its position than of the +answer to her question. + +"Hungry--damned hungry," said Sir Jeremy. + +"Oh, we'll have to wait," said Clare. "Harry's got to dress. Anyhow +you've got no right to be hungry at a quarter to seven. Nobody's ever +hungry till half-past seven at the earliest." + +It was evident that she was ill at ease. Perhaps it was the prospect +of meeting her brother after a separation of eighteen years; perhaps it +was anxiety as to how this reclaimed son of the house of Trojan would +behave in the face of the world. It was so very important that the +house should not be in any way let down, that the dignity with which it +had invariably conducted its affairs for the last twenty years should +be, in no way, impaired. Harry had been anything but dignified in his +early days, and sheep-farming in New Zealand--well, of course, one knew +what kind of life that was. + +But, as she looked across at Robin, it was easy to see that her anxiety +was, in some way, connected with him. How was this invasion to affect +her nephew? For eighteen years she had been the only father and mother +that he had known, for eighteen years she had educated him in all the +Trojan laws and traditions, the things that a Trojan must speak and do +and think, and he had faithfully responded to her instruction. He was +in every way everything that a Trojan should be; but there had been +moments, rare indeed and swiftly passing, when Clare had fancied that +there were other impulses, other ideas at work. She was afraid of +those impulses, and she was afraid of what Henry Trojan might do with +regard to them. + +It was, indeed, hard, after reigning absolutely for eighteen years, to +yield her place to another, but perhaps, after all, Robin would be true +to his early training and she would not be altogether supplanted. + +"Randal comes to-morrow," said Robin suddenly, after a few minutes' +silence. "Unfortunately he can only stop for a few days. His paper on +'Pater' has been taken by the _National_. He's very much pleased, of +course." + +Robin spoke coldly and without any enthusiasm. It was not considered +quite good form to be enthusiastic; it was apt to lead you into rather +uncertain company with such people as Socialists and the Salvation Army. + +"I'm glad he's coming--quite a nice fellow," said Clare, looking at the +gold clock on the mantelpiece. "The train is shockingly late. On +'Pater' you said! I must try and get the _National_--Miss Ponsonby +takes it, I think. It's unusual for Garrett to be unpunctual." + +He entered at the same moment--a tall, thin man of forty years of age, +clean shaven and rather bald, with a very slight squint in the right +eye. He walked slowly, and always gave the impression that he saw +nothing of his surroundings. For the rest, he was said to be extremely +cynical and had more than a fair share of the Trojan pride. + +"The train is late," he said, addressing no one in particular. +"Father, how are you this evening?" + +This third attack on Sir Jeremy was repelled by a snort, which Garrett +accepted as an answer. "Robin, your tie is atrocious," he continued, +picking up the _Times_ and opening it slowly; "you had better change +it." + +Robin was prevented from answering by the sound of carriage-wheels on +the drive. Clare rose and stood by the fireplace near Sir Jeremy; +Garrett read to the end of the paragraph and folded the paper on his +knee; Robin fingered his watch-chain nervously and moved to his aunt's +side--only Sir Jeremy remained motionless and gave no sign that he had +heard. + +Perhaps he was thinking of that day twenty years before when, after a +very heated interview, he had forbidden his son to see his face again +until he had done something that definitely justified his existence. +Harry had certainly done several things since then that justified his +existence; he had, for one thing, made a fortune, and that was not so +easily done nowadays. Harry was five-and-forty now; he must be very +much changed; he had steadied down, of course ... he would be well +able to take his place as head of the family when Sir Jeremy himself.... + +But he gave no sign. You could not tell that he had heard the +carriage-wheels at all; he lay motionless in his chair with his eyes +half closed. + +There were voices in the hall. Beldam's superlatively courteous tones +as of one who is ready to die to serve you, and then another +voice--rather loud and sharp, but pleasant, with the sound of a laugh +in it. + +"They are in the blue drawing-room, sir--Mr. Henry," Beldam's voice was +heard on the stairs, and, in a moment, Beldam himself appeared--"Mr. +Henry, Sir Jeremy." Then he stood aside, and Henry Trojan entered the +room. + +Clare made a step forward. + +"Harry--old boy--at last------" + +Both her hands were outstretched, but he disregarded them, and, +stepping forward, crushed her in his arms, crushed her dress, crushed +the beautiful rose at her breast, and, bending down, kissed her again +and again. + +"Clare--after twenty years!" + +He let her go and she stepped back, still smiling, but she touched the +rose for a moment and her hair. He was very strong. + +And then there was a little pause. Harry Trojan turned and faced his +father. The old man made no movement and gave no sign, but he said, +his lips stirring very slightly, "I am glad to see you here again, +Harry." + +The man flushed, and with a little stammer answered, "I am gladder to +be back than you can know, father." + +Sir Jeremy's wrinkled hand appeared from behind the rugs, and the two +men shook in silence. + +Then Garrett came forward. "You're not much changed, Harry," he said +with a laugh, "in spite of the twenty years." + +"Why, Garrie!" His brother stepped towards him and laid a hand on his +shoulder. "It's splendid to see you again. I'd almost forgotten what +you were like--I only had that old photo, you know--of us both at +Rugby." + +Robin had stood aside, in a corner by the fireplace, watching his +father. It was very much as he had expected, only he couldn't, try as +he might, think of him as his father at all. The man there who had +kissed Aunt Clare and shaken hands with Sir Jeremy was, in some +unexplained way, a little odd and out of place. He was big and strong; +his hair curled a little and was dark brown, like Robin's, and his eyes +were blue, but, in other respects, there was very little of the Trojan +about him. His mouth was large, and he had a brown, slightly curling +moustache. Indeed the general impression was brown in spite of the +blue, badly fitting suit. He was deeply tanned by the sun and was +slightly freckled. + +He would have looked splendid in New Zealand or Klondyke, or, indeed, +anywhere where you worked with your coat off and your shirt open at the +neck; but here, in that drawing-room, it was a pity, Robin thought, +that his father had not stopped for two or three days in town and gone +to a West End tailor. + +But, after all, it was a very nice little scene. It really had been +quite moving to see him kiss Clare like that, but, at the same time, +for his part, kissing...! + +"And Robin?" said Harry. + +"Here's the son and heir," said Garrett, laughing, and pushing Robin +forward. + +Now that the moment had really come, Robin was most unpleasantly +embarrassed. How foolish of Uncle Garrett to try and be funny at a +time like that, and what a pity it was that his tie was sticking out at +one end so much farther than at the other. He felt his hand seized and +crushed in the grip of a giant; he murmured something about his being +pleased, and then, suddenly, his father bent down and kissed him on the +forehead. + +They were both blushing, Robin furiously. How he hated sentiment! He +felt sure that Uncle Garrett was laughing at him. + +"By Jove, you're splendid!" said Harry, holding him back with both his +hands on his shoulders. "Pretty different from the nipper that I sent +over to England eighteen years ago. Oh, you'll do, Robin." + +"And now, Harry," said Clare, laughing, "you'll go and dress, won't +you? Father's terribly hungry and the train was late." + +"Right," said Harry; "I won't be long. It's good to be back again." + +When the door had closed behind him, there was silence. He gave the +impression of some one filled with overwhelming, rapturous joy. There +was a light in his eyes that told of dreams at length fulfilled, and +hopes, long and wearily postponed, at last realised. He had filled +that stiff, solemn room with a spirit of life and strength and sheer +animal good health--it was even, as Clare afterwards privately +confessed, a little exhausting. + +Now she stood by the fireplace, smiling a little. "My poor rose," she +said, looking at some of the petals that had fallen to the ground. +"Harry is strong!" + +"He is looking well," said Garrett. It sounded almost sarcastic. + +Robin went up to his room to change his tie--he had said nothing about +his father. + +As Harry Trojan passed down the well-remembered passages where the +pictures hung in the same odd familiar places, past staircases +vanishing into dark abysses that had frightened him as a child, windows +deep-set in the thick stone walls, corners round which he had crept in +the dark on his way to his room, it seemed to him that those long, +dreary years of patient waiting in New Zealand were as nothing, and +that it was only yesterday that he had passed down that same way, his +heart full of rage against his father, his one longing to get out and +away to other countries where he should be his own master and win his +own freedom. And now that he was back again, now that he had seen what +that freedom meant, now that he had tasted that same will-o'-the-wisp +liberty, how thankful he was to rest here quietly, peacefully, for the +remainder of his days; at last he knew what were the things that were +alone, in this world, worth striving for--not money, ambition, success, +but love for one's own little bit of country that one called home, the +patient resting in the heritage of all those accumulating traditions +that ancestors had been making, slowly, gradually, for centuries of +years. + +He had hoped that he would have the same old rooms at the top of the +West Towers that he had had when a boy; he remembered the view of the +sea from their windows--the great sweep of the Cornish coast far out to +Land's End itself, and the gulls whirring with hoarse cries over his +head as he leant out to view the little cove nestling at the foot of +the Hall. That view, then, had meant to him distant wonderful lands in +which he was to make his name and his fortune: now it spoke of home and +peace, and, beyond all, of Cornwall. + +They had put him in one of the big spare rooms that faced inland. As +he entered the sense of its luxury filled him with a delicious feeling +of comfort: the log-fire burning in the open brown-tiled fireplace, the +softness of the carpets, the electric light, shaded to a soft glow--ah! +these were the things for which he had waited, and they had, indeed, +been worth waiting for. + +His man was laying his dress-clothes on his bed. + +"What is your name?" he said, feeling almost a little shy; it was so +long since he had had things done for him. + +"James Treduggan, sir," the man answered, smiling. "You won't remember +me, sir, I expect. I was quite a youngster when you went away. But +I've been in service here ever since I was ten." + +When Harry was left alone, he stood by the fire, thinking. He had been +preparing for this moment for so long that now that it was actually +here he was frightened, nervous. He had so often imagined that first +arrival in England, the first glimpse of London; then the first meeting +and the first evening at home. Of course, all his thoughts had centred +on Robin--everything else had been secondary, but he had, in some +unaccountable way, never been able to realise exactly what Robin would +be. He had had photographs, but they had been unsatisfactory and had +told him nothing; and now that he had seen him, he was at rest; he was +all that he had hoped--straight, strong, manly, with that clear steady +look in the eyes that meant so much; yes, there was no doubt about his +son. He remembered Robin's mother with affectionate tenderness; she +had been the daughter of a doctor in Auckland--he had fallen in love +with her at once and married her, although his prospects had been so +bad. They had been very happy, and then, when Robin was two years old, +she had died; the boy had been sent home, and he had been alone +again--for eighteen years he had been alone. There had been other +women, of course; he did not pretend to have been a saint, and women +had liked him and been rather sorry for him in those early years; but +they had none of them been very much to him, only episodes--the central +fact of his existence had always been his son. He had had a friend +there, a Colonel Durand, who had three sons of his own, and had given +him much advice as to his treatment of Robin. He had talked a great +deal about the young generation, about its impatience of older theories +and manners, its dislike of authority and restraint; and Harry, +remembering his own early hatred of restriction and longing for +freedom, was determined that he would be no fetter on his son's +liberty, that he would be to him a friend, a companion rather than a +father. After all, he felt no more than twenty-five--there was really +no space of years between them--he was as young to-day as he had been +twenty years ago. + +As to the others, he had never cared very much for Clare and Garrett in +the old days; they had been stiff, cold, lacking all sense of family +affection. But that had been twenty years ago. There had been a time, +in New Zealand, when he had hated Garrett. When he had been away from +home for some ten years, the longing to see his boy had grown too +strong to be resisted, and he had written to his father asking for +permission to return. He had received a cold answer from Garrett, +saying that Sir Jeremy thought that, as he was so successful there, it +would be perhaps better if he remained there a little while longer; +that he would find little to do at home and would only weary of the +monotony--four closely written pages to the same effect. So Harry had +remained. + +But that was ten years ago. At last, a letter had come, saying that +Sir Jeremy was now very old and feeble, that he desired to see his son +before he died, and that all the past was forgotten and forgiven. And +now there was but one thought in his heart--love for all the world, one +overwhelming desire to take his place amongst them decently, worthily, +so that they might see that the wastrel of twenty years ago had +developed into a man, able to take his place, in due time, at the head +of the Trojan family. Oh! how he would try to please them all! how he +would watch and study and work so that that long twenty years' exile +might be forgotten both by himself and by them. + +He bathed and dressed slowly by the fire. As he saw his clothes on the +bed he fancied, for a moment, that they might be a little worn, a +little old. They had seemed very good and smart in Auckland, but in +England it was rather different. He almost wished that he had stayed +in London for two days and been properly fitted by a tailor. But then +he had been so eager to arrive, he had not thought of clothes; his one +idea had been to rush down as soon as possible and see them all, and +the place, and the town. + +Then he remembered that Clare had asked him to be quick. He finished +his dressing hurriedly, turned out the electric light, and left the +room. + +He was pleased to find that he had not forgotten the turns and twists +of the house. He threaded the dark passages easily, humming a little +tune, and smelling that same sweet scent of dried rose leaves that he +had known so well when he was a small boy. He could see, in +imagination, the great white-and-pink china pot-pourri bowls standing +at the corner of the stairs--nothing was changed. + +The blue drawing-room was deserted when he entered it--only the blaze +of the electric light, the golden flame of the log-fire in the great +open fireplace, and the solemn ticking of the gold clock that had stood +there, in the same place of honour, for the last hundred years. He +passed over to the windows and flung them open; the hum of the town +came, with the cold night air, into the room. The stars were brilliant +to-night and the golden haze of the lamplight hung over the streets +like a magic curtain. Ah! how good it was! The peace of it, the +comfort, the homeliness! + +Above all, it was Cornwall--the lights of the herring fleet, the +distant rhythmical beat of the mining-stamps, that peculiar scent as of +precious spices coming with the wind of the sea, as though borne from +distant magical lands, all told him that he was, at last, again in +Cornwall. + +He drank in the night air, bending his eyes on the town as though he +were saluting it again, tenderly, joyously, with the greeting of an old +familiar friend. + +Robin closed the door behind him and shivered a little. The windows +were open--how annoying when Aunt Clare had especially asked that they +should be closed. Oh! it was his father! Of course, he did not know! + +He had not been noticed, so he coughed. Harry turned round. + +"Hullo, Robin, my boy!" He passed his arm through his son's and drew +him to the window. "Isn't it splendid?" he said. "Oh! I don't +suppose you see it now, after having been here all this time; you want +to go away for twenty years, then you'd know how much it's worth. Oh! +it's splendid--what times we'll have here, you and I!" + +"Yes," said Robin, a little coldly. It was very chilly with the window +open, and there was something in all that enthusiasm that was almost a +little vulgar. Of course, it was natural, after being away so long ... +but still.... Also his father's clothes were really very old--the back +of the coat was quite shiny. + +Sir Jeremy entered in his chair, followed by Clare and Garrett. + +Clare gave a little scream. + +"Oh! How cold!" she cried. "Now whoever----!" + +"I'm afraid I was guilty," said Harry, laughing. "The town looked so +splendid and I hadn't seen it for so long. I----" + +"Of course, I forgot," said Clare. "I don't suppose you notice open +windows in New Zealand, because you're always outside in the Bush or +something. But here we're as shivery as you make them. Dinner's +getting shivery too. The sooner we go down the better." + +She passed back through the door and down the hall. There was no doubt +that she was a magnificent woman. + +As Sir Jeremy was wheeled through the doors he gripped Harry's hand. +"I'm damned glad that you're back," he whispered. + +Robin, who was the last to leave the room, closed the windows and +turned out the lights. The room was in darkness save for the golden +light of the leaping fire. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +It had been called the "House of the Flutes" since the beginning of +time. People had said that the name was absurd, and Harry's +grandfather, a prosaic gentleman of rather violent radical opinions, +had made a definite attempt at a change--but he had failed. Trojans +had appeared from every part of the country, angry Trojans, tearful +Trojans, indignant Trojans, important Trojans, poor-relation Trojans, +and had, one and all, demanded that the name should remain, and that +the headquarters of the Trojan tradition, of the Trojan power, should +continue to be the "House of the Flutes." + +Of course, it had its origin in tradition. In the early days when +might was right, and the stronger seized the worldly goods of the +weaker and nobody said him nay, there had been a Sir Jeremy Trojan +whose wife had been the talk of the country-side both because of her +beauty and also because of her easy morals. Sir Jeremy having departed +on a journey, the lovely Lady Clare entertained a neighbouring baron at +her husband's bed and board, and for two days all was well. But Sir +Jeremy unexpectedly returned, and, being a gentleman of a pleasant +fancy, walled up the room in which he had found the erring couple and +left them inside. He then sat outside, and listened with a gentle +pleasure to their cries, and, being a musician of no mean quality, +played on the flute from time to time to prevent the hours from being +wearisome. For three days he sat there, until there came no more +sounds from that room; then he pursued his ordinary affairs, but sought +no other wife--a grim little man with a certain sense of humour. + +There are many other legends connected with the house; you will find +them in Baedeker, where it also says: "Kind permission is accorded by +Sir Henry Trojan to visitors who desire to see the rooms during the +residence of the family in London. Special attention should be paid to +the gold Drawing-room with its magnificent carving, the Library with +its fine collection of old prints, and the Long Gallery with the family +portraits, noticing especially the Vandyke of Sir Hilary Trojan +(_temp._ Ch. I.), and a little sketch by Turner of the view from the +West Tower. The gardens, too, are well worth a short inspection, +special mention being made of the Long Terrace with its magnificent +sea-view. + +"A small charge is made by Sir Henry for admittance (adults sixpence, +children half-price), with a view to benefiting the church, a building +recently restored and sadly in need of funds." + +So far Baedeker (Cornwall, new ed., 1908). The house is astonishingly +beautiful, seen from any point of view. Added to from time to time, it +has that air of surprise, as of a building containing endless secrets, +only some of which it intends to reveal. It is full of corners and +angles, and at the same time preserves a symmetry and grandeur of style +that is surprising, if one considers its haphazard construction and +random additions. + +Part of its beauty is undoubtedly owing to its superb position. It +rises from the rock, over the grey town at its feet, like a protecting +deity, its two towers to west and east, raised like giant hands, its +grey walls rising sheer from the steep, shelving rock; behind it the +gentle rise of hills, bending towards the inland valleys; in front of +it an unbroken stretch of sea. + +It strikes the exact note that is in harmony with its colour and +surroundings: the emblem of some wild survival from dark ages when that +spot had been one of the most uncivilised in the whole of Britain--a +land of wild, uncouth people, living in a state of perpetual watch and +guard, fearing the sea, fearing the land, cringingly superstitious +because of their crying need of supernatural defence; and, indeed, +there is nothing more curious in the Cornwall of to-day than this +perpetual reminder of past superstitions, dead gods, strange pathetic +survival of heathen ancestry. + +The town of Pendragon, lying at the foot of the "House of the Flutes," +had little of this survival of former custom about it; it was rapidly +developing into that temple of British middle-class mediocrity, a +modern watering-place. It had, in the months of June, July, and +August, nigger minstrels, a café chantant, and a promenade, with six +bathing-machines and two donkeys; two new hotels had sprung up within +the last two years, a sufficient sign of its prosperity. No, Pendragon +was doing its best to forget its ancient superstitions, and even seemed +to regard the "House of the Flutes" a little resentfully because of its +reminder of a time when men scaled the rocks and stormed the walls, and +fell back dying and cursing into their ships riding at anchor in the +little bay. + +Very different was Cullin's Cove, the little fishing-village that lay +slightly to the right of the town. Here traditions were carefully +guarded; a strict watch was kept on the outside world, and strangers +were none too cheerfully received. Here, "down-along," was the old, +the true Cornwall--a land that had changed scarcely at all since those +early heathen days that to the rest of the world are dim, mysterious, +mythological, but to a Cornishman are as the events of yesterday. High +on the moor behind the Cove stand four great rocks--wild, wind-beaten, +grimly permanent. It is under their guardianship that the Cove lies, +and it is something more than a mere superstitious reverence that those +inhabitants of "down-along" pay to those darkly mysterious figures. +Seen in the fading light of the dying day, when Cornish mists are +winding and twisting over the breast of the moor, these four rocks seem +to take a living shape, to grow in size, and to whisper to those that +care to hear old stories of the slaughter that had stained the soil at +their feet on an earlier day. + +From Harry's windows the town and the sea were hidden. Immediately +below him lay the tennis-lawns and the rose-garden, and, gleaming in +the distance, at the end of the Long Walk, two white statues that had +fascinated him in his boyhood. + +His first waking thought on the morning after his arrival was to look +for those statues, and when he saw them gleaming in the sun just as +they used to do, there swept over him a feeling of youth and vigour +such as he had never known before. Those twenty years in New Zealand +were, after all, to go for nothing; they were to be as though they had +had no existence, and he was to be the young energetic man of +twenty-five, able to enter into his son's point of view, able to share +his life and vitality, and, at the same time, to give him the benefit +of his riper experience. + +Through his open window came the faint, distant beating of the sea; a +bird flew past him, a white flash of light; some one was singing the +refrain of a Cornish "chanty"--the swing of the tune came up to him +from the garden, and some of the words beat like little bells upon his +brain, calling up endless memories of his boyhood. + +He looked at his watch and found that it was nine o'clock. He had no +idea that it was so late; he had asked to be called at seven, but he +had slept so soundly that he had not heard his man enter with his +shaving water; it was quite cold now, and his razors were terribly +blunt. He cut himself badly, a thing that he scarcely ever did. But +it was really unfortunate, on this first morning when he had wanted +everything to be at its best. + +He came down to the breakfast-room humming. The house seemed a palace +of gold on this wonderful September morning; the light came in floods +through the great windows at the head of the stairs, and shafts of +golden light struck the walls and the china potpourri bowls and flashed +wonderful colours out of a great Venetian vase that stood by the hall +door. + +He found Garrett and Robin breakfasting alone; Clare and Sir Jeremy +always had breakfast in their own rooms. + +"I'm afraid I'm awfully late," said Harry cheerfully, clapping his +brother on the back and putting his hand for a minute on Robin's +shoulder; "things all cold?" + +"Oh no," said Garrett, scarcely looking up from his morning paper. +"Damned good kidneys!" + +Robin said nothing. He was watching his father curiously. It was one +of the Trojan rules that you never talked at breakfast; it was such an +impossible meal altogether, and one was always at one's worst at that +time of the morning. Robin wondered whether his father would recognise +this elementary rule or whether he would talk, talk, talk, as he had +done last night. They had had rather a bad time last night; Aunt Clare +had had a headache, but his father had talked continuously--about sheep +and Maories and the Pink Terraces. It had been just like a parish-room +magic-lantern lecture--"Some hours with our friends the Maories"--it +had been very tiring; poor Aunt Clare had grown whiter and whiter; it +was quite a relief when dinner had come to an end. + +Harry helped himself to kidneys and sat down by Robin, still humming +the refrain of the Cornish song he had heard at his window. "By Jove, +I'm late--mustard, Robin, my boy--can't think how I slept like that. +Why, in New Zealand I was always up with the lark--had to be, you know, +there was always such heaps to do--the bread, old boy, if you can get +hold of it. I remember once getting up at three in the morning to go +and play cricket somewhere--fearful hot day it was, but I knocked up +fifty, I remember. Probably the bowling was awfully soft, although I +remember one chap--Pulling, friend of Durand's--could fairly twist 'em +down the pitch--made you damned well jump. Talking of cricket, I +suppose you play, Robin? Did you get your cap or whatever they call +it--College colours, you know?" + +"Oh, cricket!" said Robin indifferently. "No, I didn't play. The +chaps at King's who ran the games were rather outers--pretty thoroughly +barred by the decent men. None of the 'Gracchi' went in for the +sports." + +"Oh!" said Harry, considerably surprised. "And who the deuce are the +'Gracchi'?" + +"A society I was on," said Robin, a little wearily--it was so annoying +to be forced to talk at breakfast. "A literary society--essays, with +especial attention paid to the New Literature. We made it our boast +that we never went back further than Meredith, except, of course, when +one had to, for origins and comparisons. Randal, who's coming to stop +for a few days, was president last year and read some awfully good +papers." + +Harry stared blankly. He had thought that every one played cricket and +football, especially when they were strong and healthy like Robin. He +had not quite understood about the society--and who was Meredith? "I +shall be glad to meet your friend," he said. "Is he still at +Cambridge?" + +"Oh, Randal!" said Robin. "No, he came down the same time as I did. +He only got a second in History, although he was worth a first any day +of the week. But he had such lots of other things to do--his papers +for the 'Gracchi' took up any amount of time--and then history rather +bored him. He's very popular here, especially with all Fallacy Street +people." + +"The Fallacy Street people!" repeated Harry, still more bewildered. +"Who are they?" + +"Oh! I suppose you've forgotten," said Robin, mildly surprised. +"They're all the people who're intellectual in Pendragon. If you live +in Fallacy Street you're one of the wits. It's like belonging to the +'Mermaid' used to be, you know, in Shakespeare's time. They're really +awfully clever--some of them--the Miss Ponsonbys and Mrs. le +Terry--Aunt Clare thinks no end of Mrs. le Terry." + +Robin's voice sounded a little awed. He had a great respect for +Fallacy Street. "Oh, they won't have any room for me," said Harry, +laughing. "I'm an awfully stupid old duffer. I haven't read anything +at all, except a bit of Kipling--'Barrack-room Ballads'--seems a waste +of time to read somehow." + +That his father had very little interest in literature Robin had +discovered some time before, but that he should boast of it--openly, +laughingly--was really rather terrible. + +Harry was silent for a few minutes; he had evidently made a blunder in +his choice of a subject, but it was really difficult. + +"Where are we going this morning, Robin?" he said at last. + +"Oh! I say!" Robin looked a little unhappy. "I'm awfully sorry, +father. I'm really afraid I can't come out this morning. There's a +box of books that have positively got to get off to Randal's place +to-night. I daren't keep them any longer. I'd do it this afternoon, +only it's Aunt Clare's at-home day and she always likes me to help her. +I'm really awfully sorry, but there are lots of other mornings, aren't +there? I simply must get those books off this morning." + +"Why, of course," said Harry cheerfully; "there's plenty of time." + +He was dreadfully disappointed. He had often thought of that first +stroll with Robin. They would discuss the changes since Harry's day; +Robin would point out the new points of interest, and, perhaps, +introduce him to some of his friends--it had been a favourite picture +of his during some of those lonely days in New Zealand. And now +Robin's aunt and college friend were to come before his father--it was +rather hard. + +But, then, on second thoughts, how unreasonable it was of him to expect +to take up Robin's time like that. He must fall into the ways of the +house, quietly, unobtrusively, with none of that jolting of other +people's habits and regular customs; it had been thoughtless, of him +and ridiculous. He must be more careful. + +Breakfast ended, he found himself alone. Robin left the room with the +preoccupied air of a man of fifty; the difficulty of choosing between +Jefferies' "Story of my Heart" and Walt Whitman's "Leaves of Grass," if +there wasn't room in the box for both, was terrible! Of course Randal +was coming himself in a few days, and it would have been simpler to let +him choose for himself; but he had particularly asked for them to be +sent by the fourth, and to-day was the third. Robin had quite +forgotten his father. + +Harry was alone. From the garden came the sound of doves, and, through +the window that overlooked the lawn, the sun shone into the room. +Harry lit a cigarette and went out. The garden was changed; there was +a feeling of order and authority about it that it had never had before. +Not a weed was to be seen on the paths: flowers stretched in perfect +order and discipline; colours in harmony, shapes and patterns of a +tutored symmetry--it was the perfection of a modern gardener's art. He +passed gardeners, grave, serious men with eyes intent on their work, +and he remembered the strange old man who had watched over the garden +when he had been a boy; an old man with a wild ragged beard and a +skinny hand like the Ancient Mariner's. The garden had not prospered +under his care--it had been wild, undisciplined, tangled; but he had +been a teller of wonderful tales, a seer of visions--it was to him that +Harry had owed all the intimate knowledge of Cornish lore and mystery +that he possessed. + +The gardeners that were there now were probably not Cornishmen at +all--strangers, Londoners perhaps. They could watch that wonderful, +ever-changing view of sea and cliff and moor without any beating of the +heart; to them the crooked, dusky windings of the Cove, the mighty grey +rocks of Trelennan's Jump, the strange, solemn permanency of the four +grey stones on the moor, were as nothing; their hearts were probably in +Peckham. + +He turned a little sadly from the ordered discipline of the garden; the +shining green of the lawns, the blazing red and gold of its flowers +almost annoyed him--it was not what he had expected. Then, suddenly, +he came upon a little tangled wood--a strange, deserted place, with +tall grasses and wild ferns and a little brook bubbling noisily over +shining white and grey pebbles. He remembered it; how well he +remembered it. He had often been there in those early days. He had +tried to make a little mill in the brook. He had searched there for +some of those strange creatures about whom Tony Tregoth, the old +gardener, had told him--fauns and nymphs and the wild god Pan. He had +never found anything; but its wild, disordered beauty had made a +fitting setting for Tony's wild, disordered legends. + +It was still almost exactly as it had been twenty years before; no one +had attempted improvement. He stayed there for some time, thinking, +regretting, dreaming--it was the only part of the garden that was real +to him. + +He passed down the avenue and out through the white stone gates as one +in a dream. Something was stirring within him. It was not that during +those years in New Zealand he had forgotten. He had longed again and +again with a passionate, burning longing for the grey cliffs and the +sea and the haunting loneliness of the moor; for the Cornwall that he +had loved from the moment of his birth--no, he had never forgotten. +But there was waking in him again that strange, half-inherited sense of +the eternal presence of ancient days and old heathen ceremonies, and +the manners of men who had lived in that place a thousand years before. +He had known it when he was a boy; when he had chased rabbits over the +moor, when he had seen the mist curling mysteriously from the sea and +wrapping land and sky in a blinding curtain of grey, when he had stood +on Trelennan's Jump and watched the white, savage tossing of the foam +hundreds of feet below; he had sometimes fancied that he saw them, +those wild bearded priests of cruelty, waiting smilingly on the silent +twilit moor for victims--they had always been cruel; something terrible +in the very vagueness of their outline. + +Now the old thoughts came back to him, and he almost fancied that he +could see the strange faces in the shadows of the garden and feel their +hot breath upon his cheek. + +His passage through the streets of Pendragon woke him from his dreams; +its almost startling modernity and obtrusive up-to-dateness laughed at +his fancies. It was very much changed since he had been there +before--like the garden, it was the very apotheosis of order and modern +methods. "The Pendragon Hotel" astonished him by its stone pillars, +its glimpse of a wonderful, cool, softly carpeted hall, its official in +gold buttons who stood solemnly magnificent on the steps, the +admiration of several small boys who looked up into his face with +wide-open eyes. + +Harry remembered the old "Pendragon Hotel," a dirty, unmethodical +place, with beds that were never clean. It had been something of a +scandal, but its landlord had been an amusing fellow and a capital +teller of stories. + +The shops dazzled him by their brilliance. The hairdresser's displayed +a wonderful assortment of wigs in the window; coloured bottles of every +size and hue glittered in the chemist's; diamonds flashed in the +jeweller's--the street seemed glorious to his colonial eyes. + +The streets were not very crowded, and no one seemed to be in a hurry. +Auckland had been rather a busy little town--no one had had very much +time to spare--but here, under the mellow September sun, people +lingered and talked, and the time and place seemed to stand still with +the pleasant air of something restfully comfortable, and, above all, +containing nothing that wasn't in the very best taste. It was this air +of polite gentility that struck Harry so strongly. It had never been +like that in the old days; a ragged unkempt place of uncertain manners +and a very evident poverty. He rather resented its new polish, and he +regretted once more that he had not sought a London tailor before +coming down to Cornwall. + +He suddenly recognised a face--a middle-aged, stout gentleman, with a +white waistcoat and the air of one who had managed to lead a virtuous +life and, nevertheless, accumulate money; he was evidently satisfied +with both achievements. It was Barbour, Bunny Barbour. He had been +rather a good chap at school, with some taste for adventure. He had +had a wider horizon than most of them; Harry remembered how Bunny had +envied him in New Zealand. He looked prosperous and sedate now, and +the world must have treated him well. Harry spoke to him and was +received with effusion. "Trojan, old man! Well, I never! I'm damned +if I'd have recognised you. How you've changed! I heard you were +coming back; your boy told me--fine chap that, Trojan, you've every +reason to be proud. Well, to be sure! Come in and have a whisky and +see the new club-rooms! Just been done up, and fairly knocks spots out +of the old place." + +He was extremely cordial, but Harry felt that he was under criticism. +Barbour's eyes looked him up and down; there was almost a challenge in +his glance, as though he said, "We are quite ready to receive you if +you are one of us. But you must move with the times. It's no good for +you to be the same as in the old days. We've all changed, and so must +you!" + +The club was magnificent. Harry stared in amazement at its luxury and +comfort. Its wonderful armchairs and soft carpets, its decorations and +splendid space astonished him. The old place had seemed rather fine to +him as a boy, but he saw now how bad it had really been. He sank into +one of the armchairs with that strange sense of angry resentment that +he had felt before in the street gaining hotly upon him. + +"It's good, isn't it?" said Barbour, smiling with an almost personal +satisfaction, as though he had been largely responsible for the present +improvements. "The membership's going up like anything, and we're +thinking of raising subscriptions. Very decent set of fellows on it, +too. Oh! we're getting along splendidly here. You must have noticed +the change in the place!" + +"I should think I have," said Harry--the tone of his voice was a little +regretful; "but it's not only here--it's the whole town. It's +smartened up beyond all knowing. But I must confess that, dirty and +dingy as they were, I regret the old club-rooms. There was something +extraordinarily homely and comfortable about them. Do you remember +that old armchair with the hole in it? Gone long ago, of course, but I +shall never sit in anything as nice again." + +"Ah, sentiment," said Barbour, smiling; "you won't find much of it in +Pendragon nowadays. It doesn't do. Sentimentalists are always Tories, +you'll find; always wanting to keep the old things, and all against +progress. We're all for progress now. We've got some capital men on +the Town Council--Harding, Belfast, Rogers, Snaith--you won't remember +them. There's some talk of pulling down the Cove and building new +lodging-houses there. We're crowded out in the summer, and there are +more people every year." + +"Pull down the Cove?" said Harry, aghast; "but you can't. It's been +there for hundreds of years; it's one of the most picturesque places in +Cornwall." + +"That's the only thing," said Barbour regretfully. "It acts rather +well as a draw for painters and that sort of person, and it makes some +pretty picture postcards that are certain to sell. Oh, I suppose +they'll keep it for a bit, but it will have to go ultimately. +Pendragon's changing." + +There was no doubt that it was, and Harry left the club some quarter of +an hour later with dismay in his heart. He had dreamed so long of the +old times, the old beauties, the old quiet spirit of unprogressive +content, that this new eagerness to be up-to-date and modern, this +obvious determination to make Pendragon a watering-place of the most +detestable kind, horrified him. + +As he passed down the crooked, uneven stone steps that led to the Cove, +he felt indignant, almost unhappy. It was as if a friend had been +insulted in his presence and he had been unable to defend him. They +said that the Cove must go, must make way for modern jerry-built +lodging-houses, in order that middle-class families from London and +Manchester might be sufficiently accommodated. + +The Cove had meant a great deal to him when a boy--mystery, romance, +pirates and smugglers, strange Cornish legends of saints and sinners, +knights and men-at-arms. The little inn, "The Bended Thumb," with its +irregular red-brick floor and its smoke-stained oaken rafters, had been +the theatre of many a stirring drama--now it was to be pulled down. It +was a wonderfully beautiful morning, and the little, twisting street of +the Cove seemed to dance with its white shining cobbles in the light of +the sun. It was mysterious as ever, but colours lingered in every +corner. Purple mists seemed to hang about the dark alleys and twisting +ways; golden shafts of light flashed through the open cottage doorways +into rooms where motes of dust danced, like sprites, in the sun; smoke +rose in little wreaths of pearl-grey blue into the cloudless sky; there +was perfect stillness in the air, and from an overflowing pail that +stood outside "The Bended Thumb," the clear drip, drip of the water +could be heard falling slowly into the white cobbles, and close at hand +was the gentle lap of the sea, as it ran up the little shingly beach +and then dragged slowly back again with a soft, reluctant hiss. + +It was the Cove in its gentlest mood. No one was about; the women were +preparing the dinner and the men were away at work. No strange faces +peered from inhospitable doorways; there was nothing to-day that could +give the stranger a sense of outlawry, of almost savage avoidance of +ordinary customs and manners. Harry's heart beat wildly as he walked +down the street; there was no change here; it was as he had left it. +He was at home here as he could never be in that new, strident +Pendragon with its utter disregard of tradition and beauty. + +He saw that it was late and hurried back. He had discovered a great +deal during the morning. + +At lunch he spoke of the changes that he had seen. Clare smiled. +"Why, of course," she said. "Twenty years is a long time, and +Pendragon has made great strides. For my part, I am very glad. It +brings money to the shopkeepers, and the place will be quite +fashionable in a few years' time. We're all on the side of progress up +here," she added, laughing. + +"But the Cove?" said Harry. "Barbour tells me that they are thinking +of pulling it down to make way for lodging-houses or something." + +"Well, why not?" said Clare. "It is really very much in the way where +it is, and is, I am told, extremely insanitary. We must be practical +nowadays or we are nothing; you have to pay heavily for being romantic." + +Harry felt again that sensation of personal affront as though some +close friend, bound to him by many ties, had been attacked violently in +his presence. It was unreasonable, he knew, but it was very strong. + +"And you, Robin," he said, "what do you think of it?" + +"I agree with Aunt Clare," answered Robin lightly, as though it were a +matter that interested him very little. "If the place is in the way, +it ought to go. He's a sensible man, Barbour." + +"The fact is, Harry," said Garrett, "you haven't changed quite as fast +as the place has. You'll see the point of view in a few weeks' time." + +He felt unreasonably, ridiculously angry. They were all treating him +as a child, as some one who would grow up one day perhaps, but was, at +present at any rate, immature in thought and word; even with Robin +there was a half-implied superiority. + +"But the Cove!" he cried vehemently. "Is it nothing to any of you? +After all that it has been to us all our lives, to our people, to the +whole place, are you going to root it out and destroy it simply because +the town isn't quite big enough to put up all the trippers that burden +it in the summer? Don't you see what you will lose if you do? I +suppose you think that I am sentimental, romantic, but upon my word I +can't see that you have improved Pendragon very much in all these +twenty years. It was charming once--a place with individuality, +independence; now it is like anywhere else--a miniature Brighton." + +He knew that he was wasting his words. There was a pause, and he felt +that they were all three laughing at him--yes, Robin as well. He had +only made a fool of himself; they could not understand how much he had +expected during those weary years of waiting--how much he had expected +and how much he had missed. + +Clare looked round the room and was relieved to find that only Beldam +was present. If one of the family was bent on being absurd, it was as +well that there should only be one of the servants to hear him. + +"You know that you are to be on your trial this afternoon, Harry?" she +said. + +"My trial?" he repeated, bewildered. + +"Yes--it's my at-home day, you know--first Thursdays--and, of course, +they'll all come to see you. We shall have the whole town----" She +looked at him a little anxiously; so much depended on how he behaved, +and she wasn't completely reassured by his present manner. + +If he astonished them all this afternoon by saying things about the +Cove like that, it would be too terrible! + +"How horrible!" he said, laughing. "I'm very much afraid that I shan't +do you justice, Clare. I'm no good at small conversation." + +His treating it so lightly made it worse, and she wondered how she +could force him to realise the seriousness of it. + +"All the nicest people in Pendragon," she said; "and they are rather +ridiculously critical, and of course they talk." + +He looked at her and laughed. "I wish they were Maories," he said, "I +shouldn't be nearly so frightened!" + +She leant over the table to emphasise her words. "But it really does +make a difference, Harry. First impressions count a lot. You'll be +nice to them, won't you?" + +The laugh had left his eyes. It was serious, as he knew. He had had +no idea that he would have, so to speak, "funked" it so. It was +partly, of course, because of Robin. He did not want to make a fool of +himself before the boy. He was already beginning to realise what were +the things that counted with Robin. + +The real pathos of the situation lay in his terrible anxiety to do the +right thing. If he had taken it quietly, had trusted to his natural +discretion and had left circumstances to develop of themselves, he +would have, at any rate, been less self-conscious. But he could not +let it alone. He had met Auckland society often enough and had, +indeed, during his later years, been something of a society man, but +there everything was straight-forward and simple. There was no +tradition, no convention, no standard. Because other people did a +thing was no reason why you should do it--originality was welcomed +rather than otherwise. But here there were so many things that you +must do, and so very, very many that you mustn't; and if you were a +Trojan, matters were still more complicated. + +It was after half-past four when he entered the drawing-room, and Clare +was pouring out tea. Five or six ladies were already there, and a +clergyman of ample proportions and quite beautifully brushed hair. He +was introduced--"Mrs. le Terry--Miss Ponsonby--Miss Lucy Ponsonby--Miss +Werrel--Miss Thisbe Werrel--Mr. Carrell--our rector, Harry." + +He shook hands and was terribly embarrassed. He was conscious at once +of that same sense of challenge that he had felt with Barbour in the +morning. They were not obviously staring, but he knew that they were +rapidly summing him up. He coloured foolishly, and stood for a moment +awkwardly in the middle of the room. + +"Tea, Harry?" said Clare. "Scones down by the fire. Everybody else is +all right--so look after yourself." + +He found himself by Mrs. le Terry, a small, rather pretty woman with +wide-open blue eyes, and a mass of dark brown hair hidden beneath a +large black hat that drooped over one ear. She talked rapidly and with +few pauses. She was, he discovered, one of those persons whose +conversation was a series of exclamation marks. She was perpetually +astonished, delighted, and disappointed with an amount of emotion that +left her no breath and gave her hearers a small opinion of her +sincerity. "It's too terribly funny," she said, opening her eyes very +wide indeed, "that you should have been in that amazing place, New +Zealand--all sheep and Maories, isn't it?--and if there's one thing +that I should be likely to detest more than mutton I'm sure it would be +Maories. Too dreadful and terrible! But you look splendidly well, Mr. +Trojan. I never, really never, saw any one with such a magnificent +colour! I suppose that it's that gorgeous sun, and it never rains, +does it? Too delightful! If there's one thing that I _do_ adore, it's +the sun!" + +"Well, I don't know about that," said Harry, laughing; "we had rain +pretty often in Auckland, and----" + +"Oh," she said, breaking in upon him, "that's too curious, because, do +you know, I thought you never had rain at all, and I do detest rain so. +It's too distressing when one has a new frock or must go to some stupid +place to see some one. But I'm too awfully glad that you've come here, +Mr. Trojan. We do want waking up a little, you know, and I'm sure +you're the very person to do it. It would be too funny if you were to +wake us all up, you know." + +Harry was pleased. There were no difficulties here, at any rate. +Hadn't Robin mentioned Mrs. le Terry as one of the leaders of Fallacy +Street? He suddenly lost his shyness and wanted to become +confidential. He would tell her how glad he was to be back in England +again; how anxious he was to enter into all the fun and to take his +part in all the work. He wondered what she felt about the Cove, and he +hoped that she would be an enemy to its proposed destruction. + +But she yielded him no opportunity of speaking, and he speedily +discovered her opinion on the Cove. "And such changes since you went +away! Quite another place, I'm glad to say. Pendragon is the sweetest +little town, and even the dear, dirty trippers in the summer are the +most delightful and amusing people you ever saw. And now that they +talk of pulling down that horrid, dirty old Cove, it will be too +splendid, with lodging-houses and a bandstand; and they do talk of an +Esplanade--that would be too delightful!" + +While she was speaking, he watched the room curiously. Robin had come +in and was standing by the fireplace talking to the Miss Werrels, two +girls of the athletic type, with short skirts and their hair brushed +tightly back over their foreheads. He was leaning with one arm on the +mantelpiece, and was looking down on the ladies with an air of languid +interest: his eyes were restless, and every now and again glanced +towards his father. The two Miss Ponsonbys were massive ladies of any +age over fifty. Clad in voluminous black silk, with several little +reticules and iron chains, their black hair bound in tight coils at the +back of their heads, each holding stiffly her teacup with a tenacity +that was worthy of a better cause, they were awe-inspiring and +militant. In spite of their motionless gravity, there was something +aggressive in their frowning brows and cold, expressionless eyes. +Harry thought that he had never seen two more terrifying persons. +Clare was talking to the prosperous clergyman; he smiled continually, +and now and again laughed in reply to some remark, but it was always +something restrained and carefully guarded. He was obviously a man who +laid great store by exterior circumstances. That the sepulchre should +be filled with dead men's bones might cause him pain, but that it +should be unwhitened would be, to him, a thing far more terrible. + +Clare turned round and addressed the room generally. + +"Mr. Carrell has just been telling me of the shocking state of the +Cove," she said. "Insanitary isn't the word, apparently. Things have +gone too far, and the only wise measure seems to be to root the place +up completely. It is sad, of course--it was a pretty old place, but it +has had its day." + +"I've just been telling your brother about it, Miss Trojan," said Mrs. +le Terry. "It's quite too terrible, and I'm sure it's very bad for all +of us to have anything quite so horrible so close to our houses. +There's no knowing what dreadful things we may not all of us be +catching at this very moment----" + +She was interrupted by two new arrivals--Mrs. and Miss Bethel. They +were a curious contrast. The mother was the strangest old lady that +Harry had ever seen. She was tiny in stature, with snow-white hair and +cheeks that were obviously rouged; she wore a dress of curious shot +silk decorated with much lace, and her fingers were thick with jewels; +a large hat with great purple feathers waved above her head. It was a +fantastic and gaudy impression that she made, and there was something +rather pitiful in the contrast between her own obvious satisfaction +with her personal appearance and the bizarre, almost vulgar, effect of +such strangely contrasted colours. She came mincing into the room with +her head a little on one side, but in spite of, or perhaps because of, +her rather anxious smiles, it was obvious that she was not altogether +at her ease. + +The girl who followed her was very different. Tall and very dark, she +was clothed quite simply in grey; her hair was wonderful, although it +was at present hidden to some extent by her hat, but its coal-black +darkness had something intent, almost luminous, about it, so that, +paradoxically, its very blackness held hidden lights and colours. But +it was her manner that Harry especially noticed. She followed her +mother with a strange upright carriage of the head and flash of the +eyes that were almost defiant. She was evidently expecting no very +civil reception, and she seemed to face the room with hostility and no +very ready eagerness to please. + +The effect on the room was marked. Mrs. le Terry stopped speaking for +a moment and rustled her skirts with a movement of displeasure, the +Miss Ponsonbys clutched their teacups even tighter than before and +their brows became more clouded, the Miss Werrels smiled confidentially +at each other as though they shared some secret, and even Robin made a +slight instinctive movement of displeasure. + +Harry felt at once an impulse of sympathy towards the girl. It was +almost as if this sudden hostility had made them friends: he liked that +independence of her carriage, the pride in her eyes. Mrs. le Terry's +voice broke upon his ears. + +"Which must be, Mr. Trojan, extraordinarily provoking. To go there, I +mean, and find absolutely no one in--all that way, too, and a horribly +wet night, and no train until nine o'clock." + +In his endeavours to pick up the thread of the conversation he lost +sight of their meeting with Clare. + +She, indeed, had greeted them with all the Trojan coldness; nothing +could have been more sternly formal than her "Ah! Mrs. Bethel, I'm so +glad that you were able to come. So good of you to trouble to call. +Won't you have some tea? Do find a seat somewhere, Miss Bethel. I +hope you won't mind our all having finished." + +Harry was introduced and took them their tea. It was obvious that, for +some reason unknown to him, their presence there was undesired by all +the company present, including Clare herself. He also knew +instinctively that their coming there had been some act of daring +bravery, undertaken perhaps with the hope that, after all, it might not +be as they had feared. + +The old lady's hand trembled as she took her teacup; the colour had +fled from her face, and she sat there white and shaking. As Harry bent +over her with the scones, he saw to his horror that a tear was +trembling on her eyelid; her throat was moving convulsively. + +At the same instant he knew that the girl's eyes were fixed upon his; +he saw them imploring, beseeching him to help them. It was a difficult +situation, but he smiled back at the girl and turned to the old lady. + +"Do try these scones, Mrs. Bethel," he said; "they are still hot and I +can recommend them strongly. I'm so glad to meet you; my sister told +me only this morning that she hoped you would come this afternoon, as +she wanted us to become acquainted." + +It was a lie, but he spoke it without hesitation, knowing that it would +reach Clare's ears. The little lady smiled nervously and looked up at +him. + +"Ah, Mr. Trojan," she said, "it's very good of you, I'm sure. We are +only too delighted. It's not much gaiety that we can offer you here, +but such as it is----" + +She was actually making eyes at him, the preposterous old person. It +was really a little pitiful, with her gorgeous colours, and her +trembling assumption of a coquettish youth that had left her long ago. +Her attempt to storm a difficult position by the worst of all possible +tactics made him extremely sorry for the daughter, who was forced to +look on in silence. His thoughts, indeed, were with the girl--her +splendid hair, her eyes, something wild, almost rebellious, that found +a kindred note in himself; curiously, almost absurdly, they were to a +certain degree allies although they had not spoken. He talked to her a +little and she mentioned the Cove. + +"It is a test of your Cornish ancestry," she said--"if you care for it, +I mean. So many people here look on it as a kind of +rubbish-heap--picturesque but untidy--and it is the most beautiful +place in the world." + +"I am glad that you feel like that," he said quietly; "it meant a lot +to me as a boy. I have been sorry to find how unpopular it is now; but +I see that it still has its supporters." + +"Ah, you must talk to father," she said. "He is always there. We are +a little old-fashioned, I'm afraid." + +There was in her voice, in her smile, something that stirred him +strangely. He felt as though he had met her before--a long while ago. +He recognised little characteristics, the way that she pushed back her +hair when she was excited, the beautiful curve of her neck when she +raised her eyes to his, the rise and fall of her bosom--it was all +strangely, individually familiar, as though he had often watched her do +the same things in the same way before, in some other place.... + +He had forgotten the others--Clare, Robin, the Miss Ponsonbys, Mrs. le +Terry; and when they had all gone, he did not realise that he had in +any way neglected them. + +After Miss Bethel had left the room, followed by the preposterous old +mother, he stood at the window watching the lights of the town shining +mistily through the black network of trees in the drive. He must meet +her again. + +Clare spoke to him and he turned round. "I'm afraid you have made the +Miss Ponsonbys enemies for life," she said; "you never spoke to them +once. I warned you that they were the most important people in the +place." + +"Oh! the Miss Ponsonbys!" said Harry carelessly, and Robin stood amazed. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Robin's rooms, charming as they were, with their wide windows opening +on to tossing sea and the sharp bend of the grey cliffs stretching to +distant horizons, suffered from overcrowding. + +His sitting-room, with its dark red wallpaper and several good prints +framed in dark oak--Burne-Jones' "Study for Cupid's Masque," Hunt's +"Hireling Shepherd," and Whistler's "Battersea Bridge" were the +best--might have been delightful had he learned to select; but at the +present stage in his development he hated rejecting anything as long as +it reached a certain standard. His appreciations were wide and +generous, and his knowledge was just now too superficial to permit of +discerning criticism. The room, again, suffered from a rather +effeminate prettiness. There were too many essentially trivial +knick-knacks--some fans, silver ornaments, a charming little ebony +clock, and a generous assortment of gay, elegantly worked cushions. +The books, too, were all in handsome editions--Meredith in green +leather with a gold-worked monogram, Pater in red half-morocco, +Swinburne in light-blue with red and gold tooling--rich and to some +extent unobtrusive, but reiterating unmistakably the first impression +that the room had given, the mark of something superficial. + +Robin was there now, dressing for dinner. He often dressed in his +sitting-room, because his books were there. He liked to open a book +for a moment before fitting his studs into his shirt, and how charming +to read a verse of Swinburne before brushing his hair--not so much +because of the Swinburne, but rather because one went down to dinner +with a pleasant feeling of culture and education. To-night he was in a +hurry. People had stayed so late for tea (it was still the day after +his father's arrival), and he had to be at the other end of the town by +half-past seven. What a nuisance going out to dinner was, and how he +wished he wasn't going to-night. + +The fact that the dinner promised, in all probability, to afford +something of a situation did not, as was often the case, give him very +much satisfaction. Indeed it was the reverse. The situation was going +to be extremely unpleasant, and there was every likelihood that Robin +would look a fool. Robin's education had been a continuous insistence +on the importance of superficiality. It had been enforced while he was +still in the cradle, when a desire to kick and fight had been always +checked by the quiet reiteration that it was not a thing that a Trojan +did. Temper was not a fault of itself, but an exhibition of it was; +simply because self-control was a Trojan virtue. At his private school +he was taught the great code of brushing one's hair and leaving the +bottom button of one's waistcoat undone. Robbery, murder, rape--well, +they had all played their part in the Trojan history; but the art of +shaking hands and the correct method of snubbing a poor relation, if +properly acquired, covered the crimes of the Decalogue. + +It was not that Robin, either then or afterwards, was a snob. He +thought no more of a duke or a viscount than of a plain commoner, but +he learnt at once the lesson of "Us--and the Others." If you were one +of the others--if there was a hesitation about your aspirates, if you +wore a tail-coat and brown boots--then you were non-existent, you +simply did not count. + +When he left Eton for Cambridge, this Code of the Quite Correct Thing +advanced beyond the art of Perfect Manners; it extended to literature +and politics, and, in fact, everything of any importance. He soon +discovered what were the things for "Us" to read, whom were the +painters for "Us" to admire, and what were the politics for "Us" to +applaud. He read Pater and Swinburne and Meredith, Bernard Shaw and +Galsworthy and Joseph Conrad, and had quite definite ideas about all of +them. He admired Rickett's stage effects, and thought Sholto Douglas's +portraits awfully clever, and, of course, Max's Caricatures were +masterly. I'm not saying that he did not really admire these +things--in many things his appreciation was genuine enough--but if it +should happen that he cared for "The Christian" or "God's Good Man," he +speedily smothered his admiration and wondered how he could be such a +fool. To do him justice, he never had any doubt that those whose +judgment he followed were absolutely right; but he followed them +blindly, often praising books or pictures that he had never read or +seen because it was the thing to do. He read quite clever papers to +"The Gracchi" at Cambridge, but the most successful of all, "The +Philosophy of Nine-pins according to Bernard Shaw," was written before +he had either seen or read any of that gentleman's plays. He was, in +fact, in great danger of developing into a kind of walking _Rapid +Review_ of other people's judgments and opinions. He examined nothing +for himself; his standard of the things to be attained in this world +was fixed and unalterable; to have an unalterable standard at +twenty-one is to condemn oneself to folly for life. + +And now, as he was dressing for dinner, two things occupied his mind: +firstly, his father; in the second place, the situation that he was to +face in half-an-hour's time. + +With regard to his father, Robin was terribly afraid that he was one of +the Others. He had had his suspicions from the first--that violent +entry, the loud voice and the hearty laugh, the bad-fitting clothes, +and the perpetual chatter at dinner; it had all been noisy, unusual, +even a little vulgar. But his behaviour at tea that afternoon had +grieved Robin very much. How could he be so rude to the light and +leading of Fallacy Street? It could only have been through ignorance; +it could only have been because he really did not know how truly great +the Miss Ponsonbys were. But then, to spend all his time with the +Bethels, strange, odd people, with the queerest manners and an +uncertain history, whom Fallacy Street had decided to cut! + +No, Robin was very much afraid that his father must be ranked with the +Others. He had not expected very much after all; New Zealand must be a +strange place on all accounts; but his father seemed to show no desire +to improve, he seemed quite happy and contented, and scarcely realised, +apparently, the seriousness of his mistakes. + +But, after all, the question of his father was a very minor affair as +compared with the real problem that he must answer that evening. Robin +had met Dahlia Feverel in the summer of the preceding year at +Cambridge. He had thought her extremely beautiful and very +fascinating. Most of his college friends had ladies whom they adored; +it was considered quite a thing to do--and so Robin adored Dahlia. + +No one knew anything about the Feverels. The mother was kept in the +background and the father was dead--there was really only Dahlia; and +when Robin was with her he never thought of questioning her as to +antecedents of earlier history. For two months he loved her +passionately, chiefly because he saw her very seldom. When he went +down at the end of the summer term he felt that she was the only thing +in the world worth living for. He became Byronic, scowled at Aunt +Clare, and treated Garrett's cynicism with contempt. He wrote letters +to her every day full of the deepest sentiments and a great deal of +amazingly bad poetry. Clare wondered what was the matter, but asked no +questions, and was indeed far too firmly convinced of the efficacy of +the Trojan system to have any fears of mental or moral danger. + +Then Miss Feverel made a mistake; she came with her mother to stay at +Pendragon. For the first week Robin was blissfully happy--then he +began to wonder. The best people in Pendragon would have nothing to do +with the Feverels. Aunt Clare, unaware that they were friends of +Robin's, pronounced them "commonly vulgar." The mother was more in +evidence than she had been at Cambridge, and Robin passed from dislike +to horror and from horror to hatred. Dahlia, too, seemed to have +changed. Robin had loved her too passionately hitherto to think of the +great Division. But soon he began to wonder. There were certain +things--little unimportant trifles, of course--that made him rather +uneasy; he began to have a horrible suspicion that she was one of the +Others; and then, once the suspicion was admitted, proof after proof +came forward to turn it into certainty. + +How horrible, and what an escape! His visits to the little +lodging-house overlooking the sea where Dahlia played the piano so +enchantingly, and Mrs. Feverel, a solemn, rather menacing figure, +played silently and mournfully continuous Patience, were less and less +frequent. He was determined to break the matter off; it haunted his +dreams, it troubled him all day; he was forced to keep his +acquaintanceship with them secret, and was in perpetual terror lest +Aunt Clare should discover it. He had that most depressing of +unwished-for possessions, a skeleton; its cupboard-door swung +creakingly in the wind, and its bones rattled in his ears. + +No, the thing must come to an end at once, and completely. They had +invited him to dinner and he had accepted, meaning to use the occasion +for the contemplated separation. He had thought often enough of what +he would say--words that had served others many times before in similar +situations. He would refer to their youth, the affair should be a +midsummer episode, pleasant to look back upon when they were both older +and married to more worthy partners; he would be a brother to her and +she should be a sister to him--but, thank God for his escape! + +He believed that the Trojan traditions would carry him through. He was +not quite sure what she would do--cry probably, and remonstrate; but it +would soon be over and he would be at peace once more. + +He dressed slowly and with his usual care. It would be easier to speak +with authority if there was no doubt about his appearance. He decided +to walk, and he passed through the garden into the town, his head a +buzzing repetition of the words that he meant to say. It was a +beautiful evening; a soft mist hid the moon's sharper outline, but she +shone, a vague circlet of light through a little fleet of fleecy white +cloud. Although it was early in September, some of the trees were +beginning to change their dark green into faint gold, and the sharp +outline of their leaves stood out against the grey pearl light of the +sky. As he passed into the principal street of Pendragon, Robin drew +his coat closer about him, like some ancient conspirator. He had no +wish to be stopped by an inquisitive friend; his destination demanded +secrecy. Soon the lights and asphalt of the High Street gave place to +dark, twisting paths and cobbled stones. These obscure and narrow ways +were rather pathetic survivals of the old Pendragon. At night they had +an almost sinister appearance; the lamps were at very long intervals +and the old houses leaned over the road with a certain crazy +picturesqueness that was, at the same time, exceedingly dangerous. +There were few lights in the windows and very few pedestrians on the +cobbles; the muffled roar of the sea sounded close at hand. And, +indeed, it sprang upon you quite magnificently at a turn of the road. +To-night it scarcely moved; a ripple as the waves licked the sand, a +gentle rustle as of trees in the wind when the pebbles were dragged +back with the ebb--that was all. It seemed strangely mysterious under +the misty, uncertain light of the moon. + +The houses facing the sea loomed up darkly against the horizon--a black +contrast with the grey of sea and sky. It was No. 4 where the Feverels +lived. There was a light in the upper window and some one was playing +the piano. Robin hesitated for some minutes before ringing the bell. +When it had rung he heard the piano stop. For a few seconds there was +no sound; then there were steps in the passage and the door was opened +by the very dowdy little maid-of-all-work whose hands were always dirty +and whose eyes were always red, as though with perpetual weeping. + +With what different eyes he saw the house now! On his first visit, the +sun had dazzled his eyes; there had been flowers in the drawing-room +and she had come to meet him in some charming dress; he had stood +enraptured at the foot of the stairs, deeming it Paradise. Now the +lamp in the hall flared with the wind from the door, and he was acutely +conscious of a large rent in the dirty, faded carpet. The house was +perfectly still--it might have been a place of ghosts, with the moon +shining mistily through the window on the stairs and the strange, +insistent murmur of the sea beating mysteriously through the closed +doors! + +There was no one in the drawing-room, and its appalling bad taste +struck him as it had never done before. How could he have been blind +to it? The glaring yellow carpet, the bright purple lamp-shades, the +gilt looking-glass over the fireplace, and, above all, dusty, drooping +paper flowers in bright china vases ranged in a row by the window. Of +course, it might be merely the lodgings. Lodgings always were like +that--but to live with them for months! To attempt no change, to leave +the flowers, and the terrible oil-painting "Lost in the Snow"--an +obvious British Public appeal to a pathos that simply shrieked at you, +with its hideous colours and very material snow-storm. No, Robin could +only repeat once more, What an escape! + +But had he, after all, escaped? He was not quite sure, as he stood by +the window waiting. It might be difficult, and he was unmistakably +nervous. + +Dahlia closed the door, and stood there for a moment before coming +forward. + +"Robin--at last!" and she held out both hands to him. They were the +same words that his aunt had used to his father last night, he +remembered foolishly, and at once they seemed strained, false, +ridiculous! + +He took her hand and said something about being in time; then, as she +seemed to expect it, he bent down and kissed her. + +She was pretty in a rather obvious way. If there had been less +artificiality there would have been more charm; of middle height, she +was slim and dark, and her hair, parted in the middle, fell in waves +over her temples. She affected a rather simple, aesthetic manner that +suited her dark eyes and rather pale complexion. You said that she was +intense until you knew her. To-night she wore a rather pretty dress of +some dark-brown stuff, cut low at the neck, and with her long white +arms bare. She had obviously taken a good deal of trouble this +evening, and had undoubtedly succeeded. + +"And so Sir Robert has deigned to come and see his humble dependants at +last!" she said, laughing. "A whole fortnight, Robin, and you've not +been near us." + +"I'm dreadfully sorry," he said, "but I've really been too terribly +busy. The Governor coming home and one thing and another----" + +He felt gauche and awkward, the consciousness of what he must say after +dinner weighed on him heavily. He could hardly believe that there had +ever been a time when he had talked eagerly, passionately--he cursed +himself for a fool. + +"Yes, we've been very lonely and you're a naughty boy," said Dahlia. +"But now you are here I won't scold you if you promise to tell me +everything you've done since last time----" + +"Oh! done?" said Robin vaguely; "I really don't know--the usual sort of +thing, I suppose--not much to do in Pendragon at any time." + +She had been looking at him curiously while he was speaking. Now she +suddenly changed her voice. "I've been so lonely without you, dear," +she said, speaking almost in a whisper; "I fancied--of course it was +silly of me--that perhaps there was some one else--that you were +getting a little tired of me. I was--very unhappy. I nearly wrote, +but I was afraid that--some one might see it. Letters are always +dangerous. But it's very lonely here all day--with only mother. If +you could come a little oftener, dear--it means everything to me." + +Her voice was a little husky as though tears were not far away, and she +spoke in little short sentences--she seemed to find it hard to say the +words. + +Robin suddenly felt a brute. How could he ever tell her of what was in +his mind? If it was really so much to her he could never leave +her--not at once like that; he must do it gradually. + +She was sitting by him on the sofa and looked rather delightful. She +had the pathetic expression that always attracted him, and he felt very +sorry indeed. How blank her days would be without him! Part of the +romance had always been his rôle of King Cophetua, and tears sprang to +his eyes as he thought of the poor beggar-maid, alone, forlornly +weeping, when he had finally withdrawn his presence. + +"I think it is partly the sea," she said, putting her hand gently on +his sleeve. "When one is sitting quite alone here in the evening with +nothing to do and no one to talk to, one hears it so plainly--it is +almost frightening. You know, Robin, old boy, I don't care for +Pendragon very much. I only came here because of you--and now--if you +never come to see us----" + +She stopped with a little catch in her voice. Her hand fastened on his +sleeve; their heads were very close together and her hair almost +brushed his cheek. + +He really was an awful brute, but at the same time it was rather +nice--that she should care so much. It would be terrible for her when +he told her what was in his mind. She might even get very ill--he had +read of broken hearts often enough; and she was extraordinarily nice +just now--he didn't want to hurt her. But still a fellow must think of +his career, his future, and that sort of thing. + +Mrs. Feverel entered--ponderous, solemn, dressed in a black silk that +trails behind her in funereal folds. Her hands were clammy to the +touch and her voice was a deep bass. She said very little, but sat +down silently by the window, forming, as she always did, a dark and +extremely solid background. Robin hated and feared her. There was +something sinister in her silence--something ominous in her perpetual +black. He had never heard her laugh. + +Dahlia was laughing now. "I'm a selfish brute, Bobby," she said, "to +bother you with my silly little complaints when we want to be cheerful. +We'll have a good time this evening, won't we? We'll sing some of +those Rubinstein's duets after dinner, and I've got a new song that +I've been learning especially for you. And then there's your father; I +do want to hear all about him so much--he must be so interesting, +coming from New Zealand. Mother and I saw a gentleman in the town this +morning that we thought must be him. Tall and brown, with a light +brown moustache and a dark blue suit. It must be splendid to have a +father again after twenty years without him." + +Her voice dropped a little, as though to refer gently to her own +fatherless condition. + +Mrs. Feverel, a dark shadow in the window, sighed heavily. + +"Oh! the Governor!" said Robin, a little irritably. "No! It's rather +difficult--he doesn't seem to know what to do and say. I suppose it's +being in New Zealand so long! It makes it rather difficult for me." + +He spoke as one suffering under an unjust accusation. It was bad luck, +and he wondered vaguely why Dahlia had been so interested; why should +she care, unless, and the idea struck him with horror, she already +regarded him as a prospective father-in-law? + +Dinner was announced by the grimy little maid. Robin took the dark +figure of Mrs. Feverel on his arm and made some hesitating remark about +the weather--but he had the curious and unpleasant sensation of her +seeing through him most thoroughly and clearly. He felt ridiculously +like a captive, and his doubts as to his immediate escape increased. +The gaudy drawing-room, the dingy stairs, the gas hissing in the hall, +had been, in all conscience, depressing enough, but now this heavy, +mute, ominous woman, trailing her black robes so funereally behind her, +seemed, to his excited fancy, some implacable Frankenstein created by +his own thrice-cursed folly. + +The dinner was not a success. The food was bad, but that Robin had +expected. As he faced the depression of it, he was more than ever +determined to end it, conclusively, that evening, but Mrs. Feverel's +gloom and Dahlia's little attempts at coquettish gaiety frightened him. +The conversation, supported mainly by Dahlia, fell into terrible +lapses, and the attempts to start it again had the unhappy air of +desperate remedies doomed to failure. Dahlia's pathetic glances failed +of their intent. Robin was too deeply engaged in his own gloomy +reflections to notice them, but her eyes filled with tears, and at last +her efforts ceased and a horrible, gloomy silence fell like a choking +fog upon them. + +"Will you smoke, Robin?" she said, when at last the dessert, in the +shape of some melancholy oranges and one very attenuated banana, was on +the table. "Egyptian or Turkish--or will you have a pipe?" + +He took a cigarette clumsily from the box and his fingers trembled as +he lit first hers and then his own--he was so terribly afraid of +cutting a ridiculous figure. He sat down again and beat a tattoo on +the tablecloth. Mrs. Feverel, with some grimly muttered excuse, left +the room. She watched him a moment from the other side of the table +and then she came over to him. She bent over his chair, leaning her +hands on his shoulders. + +"Robin, what is it?" she said. "What's happened?" + +"Nothing," he said gloomily. "It's all right----" + +"Oh! do you suppose I haven't seen?" She bent closer to him and +pressed her cheek against his. "Robin, old boy--you're not getting +tired of me? You're tired or cross to-night--I don't know. I've been +very patient all this time--waiting for you--hoping that you would +come--longing for you--and you never came--all these many weeks. Then +I thought that, perhaps, you were too busy or were afraid of people +talking--but, at last, there was to be to-night; and I've looked +forward to it--oh! so much!--and now you're like this!" + +She was nearly crying, and there was that miserable little catch in her +voice. He did feel an awful cad--he hadn't thought that she would +really care so much as this; but still it had to be done some time, and +this seemed a very good opportunity. + +He cleared his throat, and, beating the carpet with his foot, tried to +speak with dignity as well as feeling--but he only succeeded in being +patronising. + +"You know," he said quickly, and without daring to look at her, "one's +had time to think. I don't mean that I'm sorry it's all been as it +has--we've had a ripping time--but I'm not sure--one can't be +certain--that it's best for it to go on--quite like this. You see, old +girl, it's so damned serious. Of course my people have ideas about my +marrying--of course the Trojans have always had to be careful. People +expect it of them----" + +He stopped for a moment. + +"You mean that I'm not good enough?" + +She had stepped back from his chair and was standing with her back to +the wall. He got up from his chair and turned round and faced her, +leaning with his hands on the table. But he could not face her for +long; his eyes dropped before the fury in hers. + +"No, no, Dahlia--how stupid of you!--of course it's not that. It's +really rather unkind of you to make it harder for me. It's difficult +enough to explain. You're good enough for any one, but I'm not quite +sure, dear, whether we'd be quite the people to marry! We'd be +splendid friends, of course--we'll always be that--but we're both very +young, and, after all, it's rather hard for one to know. It was +splendid at Cambridge, but I don't think we quite realised----" + +"You mean you didn't," she broke in quickly. "I know well enough. +Some one's been speaking to you, Robin." + +"No--nobody." He looked at her fiercely. She had hurt his pride. "As +if I'd be weak enough to let that make any difference. No one has said +a word--only----" + +"Only--you've been thinking that we're not quite good enough for +you--that we'd soil your Trojan carpets and chairs--that we'd stain +your Trojan relations. I--I know--I----" + +And then she broke down altogether. She was kneeling by the table with +her head in her arms, sobbing as though her heart would break. + +"Oh, I say, Dahlia, don't! I can't bear to see you cry--it will be all +right, old girl, to-morrow--it will really--and then you will see that +it was wiser. You will thank me for speaking about it. Of course +we'll always be good friends. I----" + +"Robin, you don't mean it. You can't!" She had risen from her knees +and now stood by him, timidly, with one hand on his arm. "You have +forgotten all those splendid times at Cambridge. Don't you remember +that evening on the Backs? Just you and I alone when there was that +man singing on the other side of the water, when you said that we would +be like that always--together. Oh, Robin dear, it can't have been all +nothing to you." + +She looked very charming with her eyes a little wet and her hair a +little dishevelled. But his resolution must not weaken--now that he +had progressed so far, he must not go back. But he put his arm round +her. + +"Really, old girl, it is better--for both of us. We can wait. Perhaps +in a few years' time it will seem different again. We can think about +it then. I don't want to seem selfish, but you must think about me a +little. You must see how hard it has been for me to say this, and that +it has only been with the greatest difficulty that I've been strong +enough. Believe me, dear, it is harder for me than it is for you--much +harder." + +He was really getting on very well. He had had no idea that he would +do it so nicely. Poor girl! it was hard luck--perhaps he had led her +to expect rather too much--those letters of his had been rather too +warm, a little indiscreet. But no doubt she would marry some excellent +man of her own class--in a few years she would look back and wonder how +she had ever had the fortune to know so intimately a man of Robin's +rank! Meanwhile, the scene had better end as soon as possible. + +She had let him keep his arm round her waist, and now she suddenly +leant back and looked up in his face. + +"Robin, darling," she whispered, "you can't mean it--not that we should +part like this. Why, think of the times that we have had--the +splendid, glorious times--and all that we're going to have. Think of +all that you've said to me, over and over again----" + +She crept closer to him. "You love me really, dear, all the same. +It's only that some one's been talking to you and telling you that it's +foolish. But that mustn't make any difference. We're strong enough to +face all the world. You know that you said you were in the summer, and +I'm sure that you are now. Wait till to-morrow, dear, and you'll see +it all differently." + +"I tell you nobody's been talking," he said, drawing his arm away. +"Besides, if they did, it wouldn't make any difference. No, Dahlia, +it's got to stop. We're too young to know, and besides, it would be +absurd anyway. I know it's bad luck on you. Perhaps I said rather too +much in the summer. But of course we'll always be good friends. I +know you'll see it as I do in a little time. We've both been +indiscreet, and it's better to draw back now than later--really it is." + +"Do you mean it, Robin?" + +She stood facing him with her hands clenched; her face was white and +her eyes were blazing with fury. + +"Yes, of course," he said. "I think it's time this ended----" + +"Not before I've told you what I think of you," she cried. "You're a +thief and a coward--you've stolen a girl's love and then you're afraid +to face the world--you're afraid of what people will say. If you don't +love me, you're tied to me, over and over again. You've made me +promises--you made me love you--and now when your summer amusement is +over you fling me aside--you and your fine relations! Oh! you +gentlemen! It would be a good thing for the world if we were rid of +the whole lot of you! You coward! You coward!" + +He was taken aback by her fury. + +"I say--Dahlia--" he stammered, "it's unfair----" + +"Oh! yes!" she broke in, "unfair, of course, to you! but nothing to +me--nothing to me that you stole my love--robbed me of it like a common +thief--pretended to love me, promised to marry me, and now--now--Oh! +unfair! yes, always for the man, never for the girl--she doesn't count! +She doesn't matter at all. Break her heart and fling it away and +nobody minds--it's as good as a play!" + +She burst into tears, and stood with her head in her hands, sobbing as +though her heart would break. It was a most distressing scene! + +"Really, really, Dahlia," said Robin, feeling extremely uncomfortable +(it was such a very good thing, he thought, that none of his friends +could see him), "it's no use your taking it like this. I had better +go--we can't do any good by talking about it now. To-morrow, when we +can look at it calmly, it will seem different." + +He moved to the door, but she made another attempt and put her hand +timidly on his arm to stop him. + +"No, no, Robin, I didn't mean what I said--not like that. I didn't +know what I was saying. Oh, I love you, dear, I love you! I can't let +you go like that. You don't know what it means to me. You are taking +everything from me--when you rob a girl of her love, of her heart, you +leave her nothing. If you go now, I don't care what happens to +me--death--or worse, That's how you make a bad woman, Robin. Taking +her love from her and then letting her go. You are taking her soul!" + +But he placed her gently aside. "Nonsense, Dahlia," he said. "You are +excited to-night. You exaggerate. You will meet a man much worthier +than myself, and then you will see that I was right." + +He opened the door and was gone. + +She sat down at the table. She heard him open and shut the hall door, +and then his steps echoed down the street, and at last there was +silence. She sat at the table with her head bent, her eyes gazing at +the oranges and the bananas. The house was perfectly silent, and her +very heart seemed to have ceased to beat. Of course she did not +realise it; it seemed to her still as though he would come back in a +moment and put his arms round her and tell her that it was all a +game--just to see if she had really cared. But the silence of the +street and the house was terrible. It choked her, and she pulled at +her frock to loosen the tightness about her throat. It was cruel of +him to have gone away like that--but of course he would come back. +Only why was that cold misery at her heart? Why did she feel as if +some one had placed a hand on her and drawn all her life away, and left +her with no emotion or feeling--only a dull, blank, despair, like a +cold fog through which no sun shone? + +For she was beginning to realise it slowly. He had gone away, after +telling her, brutally, frankly, that he was tired of her--that he had, +indeed, never really cared for her. That was it--he had never cared +for her--all those things that he had promised in the summer had been +false, words without any meaning. All that idyll had been hollow, a +sham, and she had made it the centre of her world. + +She got up from the table and swayed a little as she stood. She +pressed her hands against her forehead as though she would drive into +her brain the fact that there would be no one now--no one at all--it +was all a lie, a lie, a lie! + +The door opened softly and Mrs. Feverel stole in. "Dahlia--what has he +done?" + +She looked at her as though she could not see her. + +"Oh, nothing," she said slowly. "He did nothing. Only it's all +over--there is not going to be any more." + +And then, as though the full realisation of it had only just been borne +in upon her, she sat down at the table again and burst into passionate +crying. + +Mrs. Feverel watched her. "I knew it was coming, my dear--weeks ago. +You know I told you, only you wouldn't listen. Lord! it was plain +enough. He'd only been playing the same game as all the rest of them." + +Dahlia dried her eyes fiercely. "I'm a fool to make so much of it," +she said. "I wasn't good enough--he said--not good enough. His people +wouldn't like it and the rest--Oh! I've been a fool, a fool!" + +Her mood changed to anger again. Even now she did not grasp it fully, +but he had insulted her. He had flung back in her face all that she +had given him. Injured pride was at work now, and for a moment she +hated him so that she could have killed him gladly had he been there. +But it was no good--she could not think about it clearly; she was +tired, terribly tired. + +"I'm tired to death, mother," she said. "I can't think to-night." + +She stumbled a little as she turned to the door. + +"At least," said Mrs. Feverel, "there are the letters." + +But Dahlia had scarcely heard. + +"The letters?" she said. + +"That he wrote in the summer. You have them safe enough?" + +But the girl did not reply. She only climbed heavily up the dark +stairs. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +Clare Trojan was having her breakfast in her own room. It was ten +o'clock, and a glorious September morning, and the sparrows were +twittering on the terrace outside as though they considered it highly +improper for any one to have breakfast between four walls when Nature +had provided such a splendid feast on the lawn. + +Clare was reading a violent article in the _National Review_ concerning +the inadequacy of our present solution of the housing problem; but it +did not interest her. + +If the world had only been one large Trojan family there would have +been no problem. The trouble was that there were Greeks. She did +dimly realise their existence, but the very thought of them terrified +her. Troy must be defended, and there were moments when Clare was +afraid that its defenders were few; but she blinded herself to the +dangers of attack. "There are no Greeks, there _are_ no Greeks." +Clare stood alone on the Trojan walls and defied that world of +superstition and pagan creeds. With the armour of tradition and an +implicit belief in the watchword of all true Trojan leaders, "Qui dort +garde," she warded the sacred hearths; but there were moments when her +eyes were opened and signs were revealed to her of another +world--something in which Troy could have no place; and then she was +afraid. + +She was considering Harry, his coming, and his probable bearing on +present conditions, and she knew that once again the Trojan walls were +in danger. It seemed to her, as she sat there, cruelly unfair that the +son of the House, the man who in a little while would stand before the +world as the head of the Trojan tradition, should be the chief +instrument in the attempted destruction of the same. She had not liked +Harry in the old days. She had always, even as a girl, a very stern +idea of the dignity of the House. Harry had never fulfilled this idea, +had never even attempted to. He had been wild, careless, +undisciplined, accompanying strange uncouth persons on strange uncouth +adventures; he had been almost a byword in the place. No, she had not +liked him; she had almost hated him at one time. And then after he had +gone away she had deliberately forgotten him; she had erased his name +from the fair sheet of the Trojan record, and had hoped that the House +would never more be burdened by his undisciplined history. Then she +had heard that there was a son and heir, and her one thought had been +of capture, deliverance of the new son of the House from his father's +influence. She was not deliberately cruel in her determination; she +saw that the separation must hurt the father, but she herself was ready +to make sacrifice for the good of the House and she expected the same +self-denial in others. Harry made no difficulties. New Zealand was no +place for a lonely widower to bring up his boy, and Robin was sent +home. From that moment he was the centre of Clare's world; much +self-denial can make a woman good, only maternity can make her divine. +To bring the boy up for the House, to tutor him in all the little and +big things that a Trojan must know and do, to fit him to take his place +at the head of the family on a later day; all these things she laboured +for, day and night without ceasing, and without divided interests. She +loved the boy, too, passionately, with more than a mother's love, and +now she looked back over what had been her life-work with pride and +satisfaction. She had tried to forget Harry. She hoped, although she +never dared to face the thought in her heart, that he would die there, +away in that foreign country, without coming back to them again. Robin +was hers now; she had educated him, loved him, scolded him--he was all +hers, she would brook no division. Then, when she had heard that Harry +was to come home, it had been at first more than she could bear. She +had burst into wild incoherent protests; she had prayed that an +accident might happen to him and that he might never reach home. And +then the Trojan pride and restraint had come to her aid. She was +ashamed, bewildered, that she could have sunk to such depths; she +prepared to meet him calmly and quietly; she even hoped that, perhaps, +he might be so changed that she would welcome him. And, after all, he +would in a little time be head of the House. Robin, too, was strongly +under her influence, and it was unlikely that he would leave her for a +man whom he had never known, for whom he could not possibly care. + +It was this older claim of hers with regard to Robin that did, she +felt, so obviously strengthen her position, and now that Harry had +really returned, she thought that her fears need not trouble her much +longer--he did all the things that Robin disliked most. His +boisterousness, heartiness, and good-fellowship, dislike of everyday +conventionality, would all, she knew, count against him with Robin. +She had seen him shrink on several occasions, and each time she had +been triumphantly glad. For she was frightened, terribly frightened. +Harry was threatening to take from her the one great thing around which +her life was centred; if he robbed her of Robin he robbed her of +everything, and she must fight to keep him. That it would come to a +duel between them she had long foreseen, she had governed for so long +that she would not easily yield her place now; but she had not known +that she would feel as she did about Robin, she had not known that she +would be jealous--jealous of every look and word and motion. She had +never known what jealousy was before, but now in the silence of the +golden, sunlit room, with only the twittering of the birds on the lawn +to disturb her thoughts, she faced the facts honestly without +shrinking, and she knew that she hated her brother. Oh! why couldn't +he go back again to his sheep-shearing! Why had he come to disturb +them! It was not his environment, it was not his life at all! She +felt that they could never lead again that same quiet, ordered +existence; like a gale of wind he had burst their doors and broken +their windows, and now the house was open, desolate, to the world. + +She went up to her father's room, as was her custom every morning after +breakfast. He was lying at his open window, watching, with those +strange, restless eyes of his, the great expanse of sea and sky +stretching before him. His room was full of light and air. Its white +walls and ceiling, great bowls of some of the last of the summer's +roses, made it seem young and vigorous and alive. It was almost a +shock to see that huddled, dying old man with his bent head and +trembling hands--but his eyes were young, and his heart. + +As she looked at him, she wondered why she had never really cared for +him. At first she had been afraid; then, as she grew older and a +passionate love for and pride in the family as a conservative and +ancient institution developed in her, that fear became respect, and she +looked up to her father from a distance, admiring his reserve and pride +but never loving him; and now that respect had become pity, and above +all a great longing that he might live for many, many years, securing +the household gods from shame and tending the fire on the Trojan +hearth. For at the moment of his death would come the crisis--the +question of the new rule. At one time it had seemed certain that Robin +would be king, with herself a very vigilant queen-regent. But now that +was all changed. Harry had come home, and it was into his hands that +the power would fall. + +She had often wondered that she knew her father so little. He had +always been difficult to understand; a man of two moods strongly +opposed--strangely taciturn for days together, and then brilliantly +conversational, amusing, and a splendid companion. She had never known +which of these attitudes was the real one, and now that he was old she +had abandoned all hope of ever answering the question. His moods were +more strongly contrasted than ever. He often passed quickly from one +to the other. If she had only known which was the real one; she felt +at times that his garrulity was a blind--that he watched her almost +satirically whilst he talked. She feared his silences terribly, and +she used often to feel that a moment was approaching when he would +reveal to her definitely and finally some plot that he had during those +many watchful years been forming. She knew that he had never let her +see his heart--he had never taken her into his confidence. She had +tried to establish some more intimate relationship, but she had failed; +and now, for many years, she had left it at that. + +But she wanted to know what he thought of Harry. She had waited for a +sign, but he had given none; and although she had watched him carefully +she had discovered nothing. He had not mentioned his son--a stranger +might have thought that he had not noticed him. But Clare knew him too +well to doubt that he had come to some definite conclusion in the +matter. + +She bustled cheerfully about the room, humming a little tune and +talking to him, lightly and with no apparent purpose. He watched the +gulls fly past the open window, his eyes rested on a golden flash of +sun that struck some shining roof in the Cove, but his mind was back in +the early days when he had played his game with the best and had seen +the bright side of the world. + +"He was a rake, Jack Crayle"--he seemed scarcely conscious that Clare +was in the room--"a rake but a good heart, and an amusing fellow too. +I remember meeting old Rendle and Hawdon Sallust--Hawdon of the +eighties, you know--not the old man--he kept at home--all three of them +at White's, Rendle and Sallust and Crayle; Jack bet Rendle he wouldn't +stop the next man he met in the street and claim him as an old friend +and bring him in--and, by Jove, he took it and brought him in, +too--sort of tramp chap he was, too--dirty, untidy fellow--but Rendle +was game serious--by Gad, he was. Said he was an old friend that had +fallen on evil times--gave him a drink and won the bet--'63 that +was--the year Bailey won that polo match against old Tom Radley--all +the town was talking of it. By Gad, he could ride, Bailey could. +Why----" + +"It's time for your medicine, father," said Clare, breaking ruthlessly +in upon the reminiscences. + +"Eh, dear, yes," he said, looking at her curiously. "You're never +late, Clare, always up to time. Yes, yes, well, well; in '63 that was. +I remember it like yesterday--old Tom--particular friend he was of mine +then, although we broke afterwards--my fault too, probably, about a +horse it was. I----" + +But Clare gave him his medicine, first tying a napkin round his neck +lest she should spill the drops. He looked at her, smiling, over the +napkin. + +"You were always a girl for method," he said again; "not like Harry." + +She looked at him quickly, but could guess nothing; she was suddenly +frightened, as she so often was when he laughed like that. She always +expected that some announcement would follow. It was almost as if he +had threatened her. + +"Harry?" she said. "No. But he is very like he used to be in some +ways. It is nice to have him back again--but--well, he will find +Pendragon rather different from Auckland, I'm afraid." + +Sir Jeremy said nothing. He lay there without moving; Clare untied the +napkin, and put back the medicine, and wheeled the chair into a sunnier +part of the room and away from the window. + +"You must get on with Harry, Clare," he said suddenly, sharply. + +"Why, yes," she answered, laughing a little uneasily. "Of course we +get on. Only his way of looking at things was always a little +different--even, perhaps, a little difficult to understand"; and then, +after a little pause, "I am stupid, I know. It was always hard for me +to see like other people." + +But he was not listening to her. He was smiling at the sun, and the +birds on the lawn, and the flashing gold of the distant sand. + +"No, you never saw like Harry," he said at last. "You want to be old +to understand," and he would say no more. + +He talked to her no more that morning, and she was vaguely uneasy. +What was he thinking about Harry, and how did his opinion influence the +situation? + +She fancied that she saw signs of rebellion. For many years he had +allowed her to do what she would, and although she had sometimes +wondered whether he was quite as passive as she had fancied, she had +had no fear of any disturbance. Now there was something vaguely +menacing in his very silences. And, in some undefined way, the +pleasure that he took in the cries of birds, the plunge and chatter of +the sea as it rose and fell on the southern shore, the glint of the sun +on the gold and green distances of rock and moor was alarming. She +herself did not understand those things; indeed, she scarcely saw them, +and was inclined to despise any one who loved any unpractical beauty, +anything that was not at least traditional. And now this was a bond +between her father and Harry. They had both loved wild, uncivilised +things, and it was this very trait in their character that had made +division between them before. But now what had been in those early +years the cause of trouble was their common ground of sympathy. + +They shared some secret of which she knew nothing, and she was afraid +lest Robin should learn it too. + +She went about her housekeeping duties that morning with an uneasy +mind. The discipline below stairs was excellent because she was +feared. It was not that she was hasty-tempered or unjust; indeed the +cook, who had been there for many years, said that she had never seen +Miss Clare angry, and her justice was a thing to marvel at. She always +gave people their due, and exactly their due; she never over-praised or +blamed, and that was why people said that she was cold; it was also, +incidentally, responsible for her excellent discipline. + +She was, as Sir Jeremy had said, a woman of amazing method. But the +attitude of her actual household helped her; they were all, by +education and environment, Trojans. Whatever they had been before they +entered service at "The Flutes"--Radicals, Socialists, Dissenters, or +Tones--at the moment of passing the threshold they were transformed +into Trojans. Other things fell from them like a mantle, and in their +serious devotion to traditional Conservatism they were examples of the +true spirit of Feudalism. Beldam, the butler, had long ago graduated +as Professor in the system. Coming as page-boy in earlier years, he +had acquired the by no means easy art of Trojan diplomacy. It was now +his duty to overhaul, as it were, every servant that passed the gates; +an overhauling, moreover, done seriously and with much searching of the +heart. Were you a Trojan? That is, do you consider that you are +exceptionally fortunate in being chosen to perform menial but necessary +duties in the Trojan household? Will you spend the rest of your days, +not only in performing your duties worthily, but also in preaching to a +blind and misguided world the doctrine of Trojan perfection and +superiority? If the answer were honestly affirmative, you were +accepted; otherwise, you were expelled with a fortnight's wages and +eternal contempt. + +Even the scullerymaid was not spared, but had to pass an examination in +rites and rituals so severe that one unfortunate, Annie Grace Marks, +after Beldam had spoken to her severely for half-an-hour, burst out +with an impetuous, "Thank Gawd, she was a Marks, which was as good as +the High and Mighty any day of the week, and better, for there wasn't +no pride in the Marks and never 'ad been." + +She received her dismissal that same evening. + +But the case of Annie Marks was an isolated one. Rebellion was very +occasional, and, for the most, the servants stayed at "The +Flutes"--partly because the pay was good, and partly because the very +reiteration of Trojan supremacy gave them a feeling of elevation very +pleasant to their pride. In accordance with all true feudal law, you +lost your own sense of birth and ancestry and became in a moment a +Trojan; for Smith, Jones, and Robinson this was very comforting. + +So Clare had very little trouble, and this morning she was able to +finish her duties speedily, and devote her whole attention to the +crisis that threatened the family. + +She decided to see Garrett, and made her way to his room. He was +writing, and seemed disturbed by her entry. He had been working for +some years on a book to be entitled, "Our Aristocracy: its Threatened +Supremacy." He was still engaged on the preliminary chapter, "Some +aspects of historical aristocracy," and it had developed into a +somewhat minute account of Trojan past history. He had no expectations +of ever concluding the work, but it gave him a pleasant sense of +importance and seemed in some vague way to be of value to the Trojan +family. + +He was always happy when at work, although he effected very little; +but, after all, the great stylists always worked slowly. His style +was, it is true, somewhat commonplace; but his rather minute output +allowed him to rank, in his own estimation, with Pater and Omar +Khayyám, and disdain the voluminous facility of Thackeray and Dickens. +He was, he felt, one of the "precious" writers, and so long as no one +saw his work he was able both to comfort himself and to impress others +with the illusion. + +It was said vaguely in Pendragon that "Garrett Trojan was a clever +fellow--was writing a book--said to be brilliant, of great promise--no, +he hadn't seen it, but----" etc. + +So Garrett looked at his sister a little resentfully. + +"I hope it's important, Clare," he said, "because--well, you know, the +morning's one's time for work, and once one gets off the track it's +difficult to get back; not that I've done much, you know, only half a +page--but this kind of thing can't move quickly." + +"I'm sorry, Garrie," she answered, "but you've got to talk to me. +There are things about which I want your advice." + +She did not really want it; she had decided on her line of conduct, and +nothing that he could say would alter her decision--but it flattered +him, and she needed his help. + +"Well, of course," he said, pushing his chair back and coming to the +fire, "if it's anything I can do-- What is it, Clare? Household or +something in the town?" + +"Oh, nothing," she laughed at him. "Don't be worried, Garrie; I know +it's horrid to disturb you, and there's really nothing--only--well, +after all, there is only us, isn't there? for acting together I +mean--and I want to know what line you're going on." + +"Oh! about Harry?" He looked at her sharply for a moment. "You know +that I object to lines, Clare. They are dangerous things." He implied +that he was above them. "Of course there are times when it is +necessary to--well, to be decisive; but at present it seems to me that +we must wait for the situation to develop--it will, of course." + +"I knew that you would say that," she said impatiently. "But it won't +do; the situation _has_ developed. You always preferred to look on--it +is, as you say, less dangerous; but here I must have your help. Harry +has been back a week; he is, for you and me, unchanged. The situation, +as far as we go, is the same as it was twenty years ago. He is not one +of us, he never was, and, to do him justice, never pretended to be. +We, or at any rate I, imagined that he would be different now, after +all that time. He is exactly the same." She paused. + +"Well?" he said. "All that for granted, it's true enough. What's the +trouble?" + +"Things aren't the same though, now. There is father, and Robin. +Father has taken to Harry strongly. He told me so just now. And for +Robin----" + +"Scarcely captivated," said Garrett drily. "Have you seen them +together? Hardly domestic----" + +Then he looked at her again and laughed. "And that pleases you, Clare." + +"Of course," she answered him firmly. "There is no good in hedging. +He is no brother of ours, Garrett. He is, what is more important +still, no Trojan, and after all family counts for something. We don't +like him, Garrett. Why be sentimental about it? He will follow +father--and it will be soon--_après, le déluge_. For ourselves, it +does not matter. It is hard, of course, but we have had our time, and +there are other things and places. It is about Robin. I cannot bear +to think what it would mean if he were alone here with Harry, after all +these years." + +"He would not stay." + +"You think that?" Clare said eagerly. "It is so hard to know. He is +still only a boy. Of course Harry shocks him now, shocks +everything--his sense of decency, his culture, his pride--but that will +wear off; he will get used to it--and then----" + +It had been inevitable that the discussion should come, and Garrett had +been waiting. He had no intention of going to find her, he would wait +until she came to him, but he had been anxious to know her opinion. +For himself the possibility of Harry's return had never presented +itself. After all those years he would surely remain where he was. In +yielding his son he had seemed to abandon all claim to any rights of +inheritance, and Garrett had thought of him as one comfortably dead. +He had contemplated his own ultimate succession with the pleasurable +certainty that it was absolutely the right thing. In his love for a +rather superficial tradition he was a perfect Trojan, and might be +relied on to continue existing conditions without any attempt at +radical changes. Clare, too, would be of great use. + +But in a moment what had been, in his mind, certainty was changed into +impossibility; instead of a certain successor he had become some one +whose very existence was imperilled--his existence, that is, on the +only terms that were in the least comfortable. Everything that made +life worth living was threatened. Not that his brother would turn him +out; he granted Harry the very un-Trojan virtues of generosity and +affection for humanity in general--a rather foolish, gregarious +open-handedness opposed obviously to all decent economy. But Harry +would keep him--and the very thought stirred Garrett to a degree of +anger that his sluggish nature seldom permitted him. Kept! and by +Harry! Harry the outlaw! Harry the rebel! Harry the Greek! Garrett +scarcely loved his brother when he thought of it. + +But it was necessary that some line of action should be adopted, and he +was glad that Clare had taken the first step. + +"You don't think," he said doubtfully, "that he could be induced to go +back?" + +"What!" cried Clare, "after these years and the way he has waited! +Why, remember that first evening! He will never leave this again. He +has been dreaming about it too long!" + +"I don't know," said Garrett. "He'll be at loggerheads with the town +very soon. He has been saying curious things to a good many people. +He objects to all improvement and says so. The place will soon be too +hot for him." + +But Clare shook her head. "No," she said. "He will soon find out +about things--and then, in a little, when he takes father's place, what +people think odd and unpleasant now will be original and strong. +Besides, he would never go, whatever might happen, because of Robin." + +"Ah, yes, there is Robin. It will be curious to watch developments +there. Randal comes to-day, doesn't he?" + +"Yes, this afternoon. A most delightful boy. I'm afraid that he may +find Harry tiresome." + +"We must wait," Garrett said finally; "in a week's time we shall see +better. But, Clare, don't be rash. There is father--and, besides, it +will scarcely help Robin." + +"Oh! no melodrama," she said, laughing and moving towards the door. +"Only, we understand each other, Garrie. Things won't do as they +are--or, as they promise to be." + +Garrett returned, with a sigh of relief, to his papers. + +For Harry the week had been a series of bitter disappointments. He +woke gradually from his dreams and saw that everything was changed. He +was in a new world and he was out of place. Those dreams had been +coloured, fantastically, beautifully. In the white pebbles, the golden +sand, the curling grey smoke of the Cove, he had formed pictures that +had lightened many dreary and lonely hours in Auckland. He was to come +back; away from that huge unwieldy life in which comfort had no place +and rest was impossible, back to all the old things, the wonderful +glorious things that meant home and tradition and, above all, love. He +was a sentimentalist, he knew that now. It had not been so in those +old days; the life had been too adventurous and exciting, and he had +despised the quiet comforts of a stay-at-home existence. But now he +knew its value; he would come home and take his place as head of the +family, as father, as citizen--he had learnt his lesson, and at last it +was time for the reward. + +But now that he had come home he found that the lesson was not learnt, +or, perhaps, that the learning had been wasted; he must begin all over +again. Garrett and Clare had not changed; they had made no advances +and had shown him quite plainly, in the courteous Trojan fashion, that +they considered his presence an intrusion, that they had no place in +their ranks that he could fill. He was, he saw it plainly, no more in +line with them than he had been twenty years before. Indeed, matters +were worse. There was no possibility of agreement--they were poles +apart. + +With the town, too, he was an "outsider." The men at the Club thought +him a bore--a person of strange enthusiasms and alarming heresies. By +the ladies he was considered rough: as Mrs. le Terry had put it to Miss +Ponsonby, he was a kind of too terrible bushranger without the romance! +He was gauche, he knew, and he hated the tea-parties. They talked +about things of which he knew nothing; he was too sincere to cover his +convictions with the fatuous chatter that passed, in Fallacy Street +society, for brilliant wit. That it was fatuous he was convinced, but +his conviction made matters no easier for him. + +But his attitude to the town had been, it must be confessed, from the +very first a challenge. He had expected things that were not there; he +had thought that his dreams were realities, and when he had demanded +golden colours and had been shown stuff of sombre grey, there had been +wild rebellion and impatient discontent with the world. He had thought +Pendragon amazing in its utter disregard of the things that were to him +necessities, but he had forgotten that he himself despised so +completely things that were to Pendragon essentials. He had asked for +beauty and they had given him an Esplanade; he had searched for romance +and had discovered the new hotel; he dreamed of the sand and blue water +of the Cove and had awaked to find the place despised and contemned--a +site for future boarding-houses. + +The town had thought him at first entertaining; they had made +allowances for a certain rather picturesque absurdity consequent on +backwoods and the friendship of Maories--men had laughed at the Club +and detailed Harry Trojan's latest with added circumstances and +incident, and for a while this was amusing. But his vehemence knew no +pause, and he stated his disgust at the practical spirit of the new +Pendragon with what seemed to the choice spirits at the Club +effrontery. They smiled and then they sneered, and at last they left +him alone. + +So Harry found himself, at the end of the first week after his return, +alone in Pendragon. + +He had not, perhaps, cared for their rejection. He had come, like +Gottwalt in _Flegejahre_, "loving every dog, and wishing that every dog +should love him"--but he had seen, at once, that his way must be apart +from theirs, and in that knowledge he had tried to find the comfort of +a minority certain of its own strength and disdainful of common +opinion. He had marvelled at their narrow vision and was unaware that +his own point of view was equally narrow. + +And, after all, there was Robin. Robin and he would defy Pendragon and +laugh at its stupid little theories and short-sighted plans. And then, +slowly, irresistibly, he had seen that he was alone--that Robin was on +the side of Pendragon. He refused to admit it even now, and told +himself again and again that the boy was naturally a little awkward at +first--careless perhaps--certainly constrained. But gradually a wall +had been built up between them; they were greater strangers now than +they had been on that first evening of the return. Ah! how he had +tried! He had thought that, perhaps, the boy hated sentiment and he +had held himself back, watching eagerly for any sign of affection, +ready humbly to take part in anything, to help in any difficulty, to +laugh, to sympathise, to take his place as he had been waiting to do +for so many years. + +But Robin had made no advances, showed no sign. He had almost repulsed +him--had at least been absolutely indifferent. They had had a walk +together, and Harry had tried his best--but the attempt had been +obvious, and at last there had come a terrible silence; they had walked +back through the streets of Pendragon without a word. + +Everything that Harry had said had been unfortunate. He had praised +the Cove enthusiastically, and Robin had been contemptuous. He had +never heard of Pater and had confounded Ibsen with Jerome K. Jerome. +He had praised cricket and met with no reply. Twice he had seen +Robin's mouth curl contemptuously, and it had cut him to the heart. + +Poor Harry! he was very lonely. During the last two days he had been +down in the Cove; he had found his way into the little inn and got in +touch with some of the fishermen. But they scarcely solaced his +loneliness. He had met Mary Bethel on the downs, and for a moment they +had talked. There was no stiffness there; she had looked at him simply +as a friend, with no hostility, and he had been grateful. + +At last he had begun to look forward to the coming of Robin's friend, +Randal. He was, evidently, a person to whom Robin looked up with great +admiration. Perhaps he would form in some way a link, would understand +the difficulties of both, and would help them. Harry waited, eagerly, +and formed a picture of Randal in his mind that gave him much +encouragement. + +He was in his room now; it was half-past four, and the carriage had +just passed up the drive. He looked anxiously at his ties and +hesitated between light green, brown, and black. He had learnt the +importance of these things in his son's eyes. He was going next week +to London to buy clothes; meanwhile he must not offend their sense of +decency, and he hesitated in front of his tie-box like a girl before +her first dance. The green was terribly light. It was a good tie, but +perhaps not quite the thing. Nothing seemed to go properly with his +blue suit--the brown was dull and uninteresting--it lacked character; +any one might have worn it, and he flung it back almost scornfully into +the box. The black was really best, but how dismal! He seemed to see +all his miserable loneliness and disappointment in its dark, sombre +colour. No, that would never do! He must be bright, amusing, +cheerful--anything but dull and dismal. So he put on the green again, +and went down to the drawing-room. Randal was a young man of +twenty-four--dark, tall, and slight, with a rather weary look in the +eyes, as of one who had discovered the hollow mockery of the world and +wondered at the pleasures of simple people. He was perfectly dressed, +and had arrived, after much thought and a University education, at that +excellent result when everything is right, as it were, by accident--as +though no thought had been taken at all. As soon as a man appears to +have laboured for effect, then he is badly dressed. Randal was +good-looking. He had very dark eyes and thin, rather curling lips, and +hair brushed straight back from his forehead. + +The room was in twilight. It was Clare's morning-room, chosen because +it was cosy and favoured intimacy. She was fond of Randal and liked to +mother him; she also respected his opinions. The windows looked over +the sea and the blinds were not drawn. The twilight, like a floating +veil, hovered over sea and land; the last faint colours of the sunset, +gold and rose and grey, trembled over the town. + +Harry was introduced. Randal smiled, but his hand was limp; Harry felt +a little ashamed of his own hearty grasp and wished that he had been +less effusive. Randal's suit was dark blue and he wore a black tie; +Harry became suddenly conscious of his daring green and, taking his +tea, went and sat in the window and watched the town. The first white +colours of the young moon, slipping from the rosy-grey cloud, touched +faintly the towers of the ruined church on the moor; he fancied that he +could just see the four stones shining darkly grey against the horizon, +but it was difficult to tell in that mysterious half-light. Robin was +sitting under the lamp by the door. The light caught his hair, but his +face was in shadow. Harry watched him eagerly, hungrily. Oh! how he +loved him, his son! + +Randal was discussing some people with whom he had been staying--a +little languidly and without any very active interest. "Rather a nice +girl, though," he said. "Only such a dreadful mother. Young +Page-Rellison would have had a shot, I do believe, if it hadn't been +for the mother--wore a wig and talked Cockney, and fairly grabbed the +shekels in bridge." + +"And what about the book?" Clare asked. + +"Oh! going on," said Randal. "I showed Cressel a chapter the other +day--you know the New Argus man; and he was very nice about it. Of +course, some of the older men won't like it, you know. It fairly goes +for their methods, and I flatter myself hits them pretty hard once or +twice. You know, Miss Trojan, it's the young school you've got to look +to nowadays; it's no use going back to those mid-Victorians--all very +well for the schoolroom--cause and effect and all that kind of +thing--but we must look ahead--be modern and you will be progressive, +Miss Trojan." + +"That's just what I'm always saying, Mr. Randal," said Clare, smiling. +"We're fighting a regular battle over it down here, but I think we will +win the day." + +Randal turned to Harry. "And you, sir," he said, "are with us, too?" + +Harry laughed. He knew that Robin was looking at him. "I have been +away," he said, "and perhaps I have been a little surprised at the +strides that things have made. Twenty years is a long time, and I was +romantic and perhaps foolish enough to expect that Pendragon would be +very much the same when I came back. It has changed greatly, and I am +a little disappointed." + +Clare looked up. "My brother has lost touch a little, Mr. Randal," she +said, "and I don't think quite sees what is good for the place--indeed, +necessary. At any rate, he scarcely thinks with us." + +"With _us_." There was emphasis on the word. That meant Robin too. +Randal glanced at him for a moment and then he turned to Robin--father +and son! A swift drawing of contrasts, perhaps with an inevitable +conclusion in favour of his own kind. It was suddenly as though the +elder man was shut out of the conversation; they had, in a moment, +forgotten his very presence. He sat in the dusk by the window, his +head in his hands, and terrible loneliness at his heart; it hurt as he +had never known before that anything could hurt. He had never known +that he was sensitive; in Auckland it had not been so. He had never +felt things then, and had a little despised people that had minded. +But there had been ever, in the back of his mind, the thought of those +days that were coming when, with his son at his side, he could face all +things. Well, now he had his son--there, with him in the room. The +irony of it made him clench his hands, there in the dark, whilst they +talked in the lighted room behind him. + +"Oh! King's is going to pot," Randal was saying. "I was down in the +Mays and they were actually running with the boats--they seemed quite +keen on going up. The decent men seem to have all gone." + +Robin was paying very little attention. He was looking worried, and +Clare watched him a little anxiously. "I hope you will be able to stay +with us some days, Mr. Randal," she said. "There are several new +people in Pendragon whom I should like you to meet." + +Randal was charmed. He would love to stop, but he must get back to +London almost immediately. He was going over to Germany next week and +there were many arrangements to be made. + +"Germany!" It was Robin who spoke, but the voice was not his usual +one. It was alive, vibrating, startling. "Germany! By Jove! +Randal--are you really going?" + +"Why, of course," a little wearily; "I have been before, you know. +Rather a bore, but the Rainers--you remember them, Miss Trojan--are +going over to the Beethoven Festival at Bonn and are keen on my going +with them. I wasn't especially anxious, but one must do these things, +you know." + +"Robin was there a year ago--Germany, I mean--and loved it. Didn't +you, Robin?" + +"Germany? It was Paradise, Heaven--what you will. Rügen, the Harz, +Heidelberg, Worms----" He stopped and his voice broke. "I'm a little +absurd about it still," he said, as though in apology for such +unnecessary enthusiasm. + +"Oh! you're young, Robin," said Randal, laughing. "When you've seen as +much as I have you'll be blasé. Not that one ought to be, but +Germany--well, it hardly lasts, I think. Rügen--why, it rained and +there were mists round the Studenkammer, and how those people eat at +the Jagdschloss! Heidelberg! picture postcards and shocking +hotels--Oh! No, Robin, you'll see all that later. I wish you were +going instead of me, though." + +Harry had looked up at the sound of Robin's voice. It had been a new +note. There had been an eagerness, an enthusiasm, that meant life and +something genuine. + +Hope that had been slowly dying revived again. If Robin really cared +for Germany like that, then they had something in common. With that +spark a fire might be kindled. A red-gold haze as of fire burnt in the +night sky, over the town. Stars danced overhead, a little wind, +beating fitfully at the window, seemed to carry the light of the moon +in its tempestuous track, blowing it lightly in silver mists and clouds +over the moor. The Wise Men were there, strong and dark and sombre, +watching over the lighted town and listening patiently to the ripple +and murmur and life of the sea at their feet. In the little inn at the +Cove men were sitting over the roaring fire, telling tales--strange, +weird stories of a life that these others did not know. Harry had +heard them when he was a boy--those stories--and he had felt the spell +and the magic. There had been life in them and romance. + +Perhaps they were there again to-night, just as they had been twenty +years before. The stars called to him, the lighted town, the dusky, +softly breathing sea, the loneliness of the moor. He must get out and +away. He must have sympathy and warmth and friendship; he had come +back to his own people with open arms and they had no place for him. +His own son had repulsed him. But Cornwall, the country of his dreams, +the mother of his faith, the guardian of his honour, was there--the +same yesterday, to-day, and for ever. He would search for her and +would find her--even though it were on the red-brick floor of the +tavern in the Cove. + +He turned round and found that the room was empty. They had forgotten +him and left him--without a word. The light of the lamp caught the +silver of the tea-things, and flashed and sparkled like a flame. + +Harry Trojan softly opened the door, passed into the dim twilight of +the hall, picked up his hat, and stepped into the garden. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +As he felt the crunch of the gravel beneath his feet he was possessed +with the spirit of adventure. The dark house behind him had been +holding him captive. It had held him against his will, imprisoning +him, tormenting him, and the tortures that he had endured were many and +severe. He had not known that he could have felt it so much--that +absolute rejection of him by everything in which he had trusted; but he +would mind these things no longer--he would even try not to mind Robin! +That would be hard, and as he thought of it even now for a moment tears +had filled his eyes. That, however, was cowardice. He must fling away +the hopes of twenty years and start afresh, with the knowledge won of +his experience and the strength that he had snatched from his wounds. + +And after all a man was a fool to mope and whine when that wind from +the sea was beating in his ears and the sea scents of clover and +poppies and salt stinging foam were brought to his nostrils, and the +trees rustled like the beating of birds' wings in the velvety +star-lighted sky. + +A garden was wonderful at night--a place of strange silences and yet +stranger sound: trees darkly guarding mysterious paths that ran into +caverns of darkness; the scents of flowers rising from damp earth heavy +with dew; flowers that were weary with the dust and noise of the day +and slept gently, gratefully, with their heads drooping to the soil, +their petals closed by the tender hands of the spirits of the garden. +The night-sounds were strangely musical. Cries that were discordant in +the day mingled now with the running of distant water, the last notes +of some bird before it slept, the measured harmony of a far-away bell, +the gentle rustle of some arrival in the thickets; the voice that could +not be heard in the noisy chatter of the day rose softly now in a +little song of the night and the dark trees and the silver firelight of +the stars. + +And it was all very romantic, of course. Harry Trojan had flung his +cares behind him and stepped over the soft turf of the lawns, a free +adventurer. It was not really very late, and there was an hour before +dinner; but he was not sure that he minded about that--they would be +glad to dine without him. There crossed his mind the memory of a night +in New Zealand. He had been walking down to the harbour in Auckland, +and the moon had shone in the crooked water-side streets, its white, +cold light crossed with dark black shadows of roofs and gables. +Suddenly a woman's voice called for help across the silence, and he had +turned and listened. It had called again, and, thinking that he might +help some one in distress, he had burst a dark, silent door, stumbled +up crooked wooden stairs, and entered an empty room. As he passed the +door there was a sound of skirts, and a door at the other end of the +room had closed. There was no one there, only a candle guttering on +the table, the remains of a meal, a woman's hat on the back of a chair; +he had waited for some time in silence, he had called and asked if +there was any one there, he had tried the farther door and found it +shut--and so, cursing himself for a fool, he had passed down into the +street again and the episode had ended. There was really nothing in +it--nothing at all; but it was the atmosphere, the atmosphere of +romantic adventure shot suddenly across a rather drab and colourless +existence, and he had liked to dwell on the possibilities of the affair +and ask himself about it. Who was the woman, and why had she cried +out? Why was there no one in the room? And why had no one answered +him? + +He did not know and really he did not care, and, indeed, it was better +that the affair should be left in vague and incomplete outline. It was +probably commonplace enough, had one only known, and sordid too, +perhaps. But to-night was just such a night as that other. He would +go to the Cove and find his romance where he had left it twenty years +ago. It was the hour in Pendragon when shops are closing and young men +and maidens walk out. There were a great many people in the street; +girls with white, tired faces, young men with bright ties and a +self-assertive air--a type of person new to Pendragon since Harry's +day. The young man who served you respectfully, almost timidly, behind +the counter was now self-assertive, taking the middle of the street +with a flourish of his cane. Fragments of conversation came to Harry's +ears-- + +"Mother being out I thought as 'ow I might venture--not but what she'd +kick up a rare old fuss----" + +"So I told 'er it weren't no business of 'ers and the sooner she caught +on to the idea the better for all parties, seein' as 'ow----" + +"Well, I never did! and you told 'im that, did yer? I always said +you'd some pluck if you really wanted to----" + +A gramophone from an open window up the street shrieked the alluring +refrain of "She's a different girl again," and a man who had +established himself at the corner under the protecting glare of two +hissing gas-jets urged on the company present an immediate acceptance +of his stupendous offer. "Gold watches for 'alf a crown--positively +for one evening in order to clear--all above board. Solid gold and +cheap at a sovereign." + +The plunge into the cool depths of the winding little path that led +down to the Cove was delicious. Oh! the contrast of it! The noise and +ugly self-assertion of the town, flinging its gas-jets against the moon +and covering the roll of the sea with the shriek of the gramophone. He +crossed through the turnstile at the bend of the road and passed up the +hill that led to the Cove. At a bend the view of the sea came to him, +the white moonlight lying, a path of dancing shining silver, on the +grey sweep of the sea. A wind was blowing, turning the grey into +sudden points of white--like ghostly hands rising for a moment suddenly +from immensity and then sinking silently again, their prayers +unanswered. + +As he passed up the hill he was aware of something pattering beside +him; at first it was a little uncanny in that dim, uncertain light, and +he stopped and bent down to the road. It was a dog, a fox-terrier of a +kind, dirty, and even in that light most obviously a mongrel. But it +jumped up at him and put its paws on his knee. + +"Well, company's company," he said with a laugh. "I don't know where +you've sprung from, but we'll travel together for a bit." The dog ran +up the hill, and for a moment stood out against the moon--a shaggy, +disreputable dog with a humorous stump of a tail. He stood there with +one ear flapping back and the other cocked up--a most ridiculous figure. + +Harry laughed again and the dog barked; they walked down the hill +together. + +The Cove was dark, but from behind shuttered windows lamps twinkled +mysteriously, and the red glow from the inn flung a circle of light +down the little cobbled street. The beat of the sea came solemnly like +the tramp of invisible armies from the distance. There was no other +sound save the tremble of the wind in the trees. + +Harry pushed open the door of the inn and entered, followed by the dog. +The place was the same; nothing had been changed. There was the old +wooden gallery where the fiddle had played such merry tunes. The rough +uneven floor had the same holes, the same hills and dales. The great +settle by the fire was marked, as in former years, with mysterious +crosses and initials cut by jack-knives in olden days. The two lamps +shone in their accustomed places--one over the fire, another by the +window. The door leading to the bar was half open, and in the distance +voices could be heard, but the room itself seemed to be empty. + +A great fire leapt in the fireplace and the gold light of it danced on +the red-brick floor. The peculiar scent as of tobacco and ale and the +salt of the sea, and, faintly, the breath of mignonette and geraniums, +struck out the long intervals since Harry had been there before. +Twenty years ago he had breathed the same air; and now he was back +there again and nothing was changed. The dog had run to the fire and +sat in front of it now, wagging his stump of a tail, his ear cocked. +Harry laughed and sat down in the settle; the burden of the last week +was flung off and he was a free man. + +A long, lean man with a straggling beard stood in the doorway and +watched him; then he came forward. "Mr. Harry," he said, and held out +his hand. + +Harry started up. "I'm sorry," he said, stammering, "I don't remember." + +"We were wonderin'," said the long, thin man slowly, "when you was +comin' down. Not that you'd remember faces--that's not to be +expected--especially in foreign parts which is confusing and difficult +for a man--but I'm Bill Tregarvis what have had you out fishin' many's +the time--not that you'd remember faces," he said again, looking a +little timidly at him. + +But he did! Harry remembered him perfectly! Bill Tregarvis! Why, of +course--many was the time they had seen life together--he had had a +wife and two boys. + +Harry wrung his hand and laughed. + +"Remember, Bill! Why, of course! It was only for a moment. I had got +the face all right but not the name. Yes, I have, as a matter of fact, +come before, but there were things that have made it difficult at +first, and of course there was a lot to do up there. But it's good to +be down here! The other place is changed; I had been a bit +disappointed, but here it is just the same--the same old lights and +smells and sea, and the same old friends----" + +"Yer think that?" Tregarvis looked at him. "Because we'd been fearing +that all your travelling and sight-seeing might have harmed you--that +you'd be thinking a bit like the folk up-along with their cars and gas +and filth. Aye, it's a changed world up there, Mr. Harry; but +down-along there's no difference. It's the sea keeps us steady." + +And then they talked about the old adventurous days when Harry had been +eighteen and the world had been a very wonderful place: the herring +fishing, the bathing, the adventures on the moor, the tales at night by +candlelight, the fun of it all. The room began to fill, and one after +another men came forward and claimed friendship on the score of old +days and perils shared. They received him quite simply--he was "Mr. +Harry," but still one of themselves, taking his place with them, +telling tales and hearing them in return. + +There were nine or ten of them, and a wild company they made, crowding +round the fire, with the flames leaping and flinging gigantic shadows +on the walls. The landlord, a short, ruddy-faced man with white hair +and a merry twinkle of the eye, was one of the best men that Harry had +ever known. + +He was a man whose modesty was only equalled by his charity; a man of +great humour, wide knowledge of the most varied subjects, and above all +a passionate faith in the country of his birth, Cornwall. He was, like +most Cornishmen, superstitious, but his belief in Nature as a wise and +beneficent mother, stern but never unjust, controlled his will and +justified his actions. In those early days Harry had worshipped him +with that whole-hearted adoration bestowed at times by young +hero-worshippers on those that have travelled a little way along the +path and have learnt their lesson wisely. Tony Newsome's influence had +done more for Harry in those early years than he had realised, but he +knew now what he owed to him as he sat by his side and recalled those +other days. They had written once or twice, but Tony was no +correspondent and hated to have a pen between his fingers. + +"Drive a horse, pull a boat, shoot a gun, mind a net--but God help me +if I write," he had said. Not that he objected to books; he had read a +good deal and cared for it--but "God's air in the day and a merry fire +at night leaves little room for pen and ink" was his justification. + +He treated Harry now as his boy of twenty years ago, and laughed at him +and scolded him as of old. He did not question him very closely on the +incidents of those twenty years, and indeed, with them all, Harry +noticed that there was very little curiosity as to those other +countries. They welcomed him quietly, simply. They were glad that he +was there again, sitting with them, taking his place naturally and +easily--and again the twenty years seemed as nothing. + +He sat with the dog at his feet. Newsome's hand was on his knee, and +every once and again he gave a smothered chuckle. "I knew you'd come +back, Mr. Harry," he said. "I just waited. Once the sea has got hold +of you it doesn't loosen its grip so quick. I knew you'd come back." + +They told wild stories as they had been telling them for many years at +the same hour in the same place--strange things seen at sea, the lights +and mists of the moor, survivals of smuggling days and fights on the +beach under the moon; and it always was the sea. They might leave it +for a moment perhaps, but they came back to it--the terror of it, the +joy of it, the cruelty of it; the mistress that held them chained, that +called their children and would not be denied, the god that they served. + +They spoke of her softly with lowered voices and a strange reverence. +They had learnt her moods and her dangers; they knew that she could +caress them, and then, of a sudden, strike them down--but they loved +her. + +And she had claimed Harry again. Everything for which he had been +longing during that past week had come to him at last; their +friendship, their faith in an old god, and above all that sense of a +great adventure, for the spirit of which he had so diligently been +searching. "Up-along" life was an affair of measured rules and things +foreseen. "Down-along" it was a game of unending surprises and a +gossamer web shot with the golden light of romance. High-falutin +perhaps, but to Harry, as he sat before the fire with the strange dog +and those ten wild men, words and pictures came too speedily to admit +of a sense of the absurd. + +An old man, with a long white beard and a shaking hand, knew strange +tales of the moor. When the mists creep up and blot out the land, then +the four grey stones take life and are the giants of old, and strange +sacrifices are grimly performed. Talse Carlyon had seen things late on +a moonlit night with the mists swimming white and silvery-grey over the +moor. He had lost his way and had met a man of mighty size who had led +him by the hand. There had been spirits about, and at the foot of the +grey stone a pool of blood--he had never been the same man since. + +"There are spirits and spirits," said the old man solemnly, "and there +'m some good and some bad, for the proper edification of us mortals, +and, for my part, it's not for the like of us to meddle." + +He stroked his beard--a very gloomy old man with a blind eye. Harry +remembered that he had had a wife twenty years before, so he inquired +about her. + +"Dead," said the old man fiercely, "dead--and, thank God, she went out +like a candle." + +He muttered this so fiercely that Harry said no more, and the white +beard shone in the light of the fire, and his blind eye opened and shut +like a box, and his wrinkled hand shook on his knee. The fishing had +been bad of late, and here again they spoke as if some personal power +had been at work. There were few there who had not lost some one +during the years that they had served her, and the memory of what this +had been and the foreshadowing of the dangerous future hung over them +in the room. Songs were sung, jokes were made, but they were the songs +and laughter of men on guard, with the enemy to be encountered, +perhaps, in the morning. + +Harry sat in his corner of the great seat, watching the leaping of the +flames, his hand on Newsome's shoulder, listening to the murmuring +voices at his side. He scarcely knew whether he were awake or +sleeping; their laughter came to him dimly, and it seemed that he was +alone there with only Newsome by his side and the dog sleeping at his +feet. The tobacco smoke hung in grey-blue wreaths above his head and +the gold light of the two lamps shone mistily, without shape or form. +Perhaps it was really a dream. The old man with the white beard and +the blind eye was sleeping, his head on his breast. A man with a +vacant expression was telling a tale, heavily, slowly, gazing at the +fire. The others were not listening--or at any rate not obviously so. +They, too, gazed at the fire--it had, as it were, become personal and +mesmerised the room. Perhaps it was a dream. He would wake and find +himself at "The Flutes." There would be Clare and Garrett and--Robin! +He would put all that away now; he would forget it for a moment, at +least. He had failed them; they had not wanted him and had told him +so,--but here they had known him and loved him; they had welcomed him +back as though there had been no intervening space of years. They at +least had known what life was. They had not played with it, like those +others. They had not surrounded themselves with barricades of +artificiality, and glanced through distorting mirrors at their own +exaggerated reflection; they had seen life simply, fearlessly, +accepting their peril like men and enjoying their fate with the +greatness of soul that simplicity had given them. They were not like +those others; those on the hill had invaded the sea with noisy clamour, +had greeted her familiarly and offered her bathing-machines and +boarding-houses; these others had reverenced her and learnt to know +her, alone on the downs in the first grey of the dawn, or secretly, +when the breakers had rolled in over the sand, carrying with them the +red and gold of some gorgeous sunset. + +He contrasted them in his mind--the Trojans and the Greeks. He turned +round a little in his seat and listened to the story: "It were a man--a +strange man with horns and hoofs, so he said--and a merry, deceiving +eye; but he couldn't see him clear because of the mist that hung there, +with the moon pushing through like a candle, he said. The man was +laughing to himself and playing with leaves that danced at his feet +under the wind. It can't have been far from the town, because Joe +heard St. Elmo's bell ringin' and he could hear the sea quite plain. +He ..." + +The voice seemed to trail off again into the distance; Harry's thoughts +were with his future. What was he to do? It seemed to him that his +crisis had come and was now facing him. Should he stay or should he +flee? Why should he not escape--away into the country, where he could +live his life without fear, where there would be no contempt, no +hampering family traditions? Should he stay and wait while Robin +learnt to hate him? At the thought his face grew white and he clenched +his hands. Robin ... Robin ... Robin ... it always came back to +that--and there seemed no answer. That dream of love between father +and son, the dream that he had cherished for twenty years, was +shattered, and the bubble had burst.... + +"So Joe said he didn't know but he thought it was to the left and down +through the Cove--to the old church he meant; and the man laughed and +danced with the leaves through the mist; and once Joe thought he was +gone, and there he was back again, laughin'." + +No, he would face it. He would take his place as he had intended--he +would show them of what stuff he was made--and Robin would see, at +last. The boy was young, it would of course take time---- + +The door of the inn opened and some one came in. The lamps flared in +the wind, and there was a cry from the fireplace. "Mr. Bethel! Well, +I'm right glad!" + +Harry started. Bethel--that had been the name of his friend--the girl +who had come to tea. The new-comer was a large man, over six feet in +height, and correspondingly broad. His head was bare, and his hair was +a little long and curly. His eyes were blue and twinkled, and his face +was pleasantly humorous and, in the mouth and chin, strong and +determined. He wore a grey flannel suit with a flannel collar, and he +was smoking a pipe of great size. Newsome, starting to his feet, went +forward to meet him. Bethel came to the fire and talked to them all; +there was obviously a free companionship between them that told of long +acquaintance. He was introduced to Harry. + +"I've heard of you, Mr. Trojan," he said, "and have been expecting to +meet you. I think that we have interests in common--at least an +affection for Cornwall." + +Harry liked him. He looked at him frankly between the eyes--there was +no hesitation or disguise; there had been no barrier or division; and +Harry was grateful. + +Bethel sat down by the fire, and a discussion followed about matters of +which Harry knew nothing. There was talk of the fishing prospects, +which were bad; a gloom fell upon them all, and they cursed the new +Pendragon--the race had grown too fast for them and competition was too +keen. But Harry noticed that they did not yet seem to have heard of +the proposed destruction of the Cove. Then he got up to go. They +asked him to come again, and he promised that he would. Bethel rose +too. + +"If you don't object, Mr. Trojan," he said, "I'll make one with you. I +had only looked in for a moment and had never intended to stay. I was +on my way back to the town." + +They went out into the street together, and Harry shivered for a moment +as the wind from the sea met them. + +"Ah, that's good," Bethel said; "your fires are well enough, but that +wind is worth a bag of gold." + +They walked for a little in silence, and then Harry said: "Those are a +fine lot of men. They know what life really is." + +Bethel laughed. "I know what you feel about them. You are glad that +there's no change. Twenty years has made little difference there. It +is twenty years, isn't it?" + +"Yes," said Harry. "One thinks that it is nothing until one comes +back, and then one thinks that it's more than it really is." + +"Yes, you're disappointed," Bethel said. "I know. Pendragon has +become popular, and to your mind that has destroyed its beauty--or, at +any rate, some of it." + +"Well, I hate it," Harry said fiercely, "all this noise and show. Why +couldn't they have left Pendragon alone? I don't hate it for big +places that are, as it were, in the line of march. I suppose that they +must move with the day. That is inevitable. But Pendragon! Why--when +I was a boy, it was simply a little town by the sea. No one thought +about it or worried about it: it was a place wonderfully quiet and +simple. It was too quiet for me then; I should worship it now. But I +have come back and it has no room for me." + +"I haven't known it as long as you," Bethel answered, "but I confess +that the very charm of it lies in its contrast. It is invasion, if you +like, but for that very reason exciting--two forces at work and a +battle in progress." + +"With no doubt as to the ultimate victory," said Harry gloomily. "Yes, +I see what you mean by the contrast. But I cannot stand there and see +them dispassionately--you see I am bound up with so much of it. Those +men to-night were my friends when I was a boy. Newsome is the best man +that I have ever known, and there is the place; I love every stone of +it, and they would pull it down." + +They had left the Cove and were pressing up a steep path to the moor. +The moon was struggling through a bank of clouds; the wind was +whistling over their heads. + +Bethel suddenly stopped and turned towards Harry. "Mr. Trojan," he +said, "I'm going to be impulsive and perhaps imprudent. There's +nothing an Englishman fears so much as impulse, and he is terribly +ashamed of imprudence. But, after all, there is no time to waste, and +if you think me impertinent you have only to say so, and the matter +ends." + +Harry laughed. "I am delighted," he began, but the other stopped him. + +"No, wait a moment. You don't know. I'm afraid you'll think that I'm +absurd--most people will tell you that I am worse. I want you to try +to be a friend of mine, at any rate to give me a chance. I scarcely +know you--you don't know me at all--but; one goes on first impressions, +and I believe that you would understand a little better than most of +these people here--for one thing you have gone farther and seen +more----" + +There was a little pause. Harry was surprised. Here was what he had +been wanting--friendship; a week ago he would have seized it with both +hands; now he was a little distrustful; a week ago it would have been +natural, delightful; now it was unusual, even a little absurd. + +"I should be very glad," he said gravely. "I--scarcely----" + +"Oh," Bethel broke in, "we shall come together naturally--there's no +fear of that. I could see at once that you know the mysteries of this +place just as I do. Those others here are blind. I've been waiting +for some one who would understand. But I don't want you to listen to +those other people about me; they will tell you a good deal--and most +of it's true. I don't blame 'em, but I'm curiously anxious for you not +to think with them. It's ridiculous, I know, when I had never seen you +before. If you only knew how long I'd been waiting--to talk to some +one--about--all this." + +He waved his hand and they stopped. They were standing on the moor. +Above their head mighty grey clouds were driving like fleets before the +wind, and the moon, a cold, lifeless thing, a moon of chiselled marble, +appeared, and then, as though frightened at the wild flight of the +clouds, vanished. The sea, pearl grey, lay like mist on the horizon, +and its voice was gentle and tired, as though it were slowly dying into +sleep. They were near the Four Stones--gaunt, grey, and old. The dog +had followed Harry from the inn and now ran, a white shadow, in front +of him. + +"Let me tell you," Bethel said, "about myself. You know I was born in +London--the son of a doctor with a very considerable practice. I +received an excellent education, Rugby and Cambridge, and was trained +for the law. I was, I believe, a rather ordinary person with a rather +more than ordinary power of concentration, and I got on. I built up a +business and was extremely and very conventionally happy. I married +and we had a little girl. And then, one summer, we came down to +Cornwall for our holiday. It was St. Ives. I remember that first +morning as though it were yesterday. It was grey with the sea flinging +great breakers. There was a smell of clover and cornflowers in the +air, and great sheets of flaming poppies in the cornfields. But there +was more than that. It was Cornwall, something magical, and that +strange sense of old history and customs that you get nowhere else in +quite the same way. Ah! but why analyse it?--you know as well as I do +what I mean. A new man was born in me that day. I had been sociable +and fond of little quite ordinary pleasures that came my way, now I +wanted to be alone. Their conversation worried me; it seemed to be +pointless and concerned with things that did not matter at all. I had +done things like other men--now it was all to no purpose. I used to +lie for hours on the cliffs watching the sea. I was often out all day, +and I met all sorts of people, tramps, wasters, vagabonds, and they +seemed the only people worth talking to. I met some strange fellows +but excellent company--and they knew, all of them, the things that I +knew; they had been out all night and seen the moon and the stars +change and the first light of the dawn, and the little breeze that +comes in those early hours from the sea, bringing the winds of other +countries with it. And they were merry, they had a philosophy--they +knew Cornwall and believed in her. + +"Well--the holiday came to an end, and I had to go back! London. My +God! After that I struggled--I went to my work every day with the +sound of that sea in my ears and the vision of those moors always there +with me. And the freedom! If you have tasted that once, if you have +ever got really close so that you can hear strange voices and see +beauties of which you had never dreamt, well, you will never get back +to your old routine again. I don't care how strong you are--you can't +do it, man. Once she's got hold of you, nothing counts. That was +eighteen years ago. I kept my work for a year, but it was killing me. +I got ill--I nearly died; once I ran away at night and tried to get to +the sea. But I came back--there were my wife and girl. We had a +little money, and I gave it all up and we came to live down here. I +have done nothing since; rather shameful, isn't it, for a strong man? +They have thought that here; they think that I am a waster--by their +lights I am. But the things I have learnt! I didn't know what living +was until I came here! I knew nothing, I did nothing, I was a dead +man. What do I care for their thoughts of me! They are in the dark!" + +He had spoken eagerly, almost breathlessly. He was defending his +position, and Harry knew that he had been waiting for years to say +these things to some one of his own kind who would understand. And he +understood only too well! Had he not himself that very evening been +tempted to escape, to flee his duty? He had resisted, but the +temptation had been very strong--that very voice of Cornwall of which +Bethel had spoken--and if it were to return he did not know what answer +he might give. But he was not thinking of Bethel; his thoughts were +with the wife and daughter. That poor pathetic little woman--and the +girl---- + +"And your wife and daughter?" he said. "What of them?" + +"They are happy," Bethel said eagerly. "They are indeed. I don't see +them very often, but they have their own interests--and friends. My +wife and I never had very much in common--Ah! you're going to scold," +he said, laughing, "and say just what all these other horrid people +say. But I know. I grant it you all. I'm a waster--through and +through; it's damnably selfish--worst of all, in this energetic and +pushing age, it's idle. Oh! I know and I'm sorry--but, do you know, +I'm not ashamed. I can't see it seriously. I wouldn't harm a fly. +Why can't they let me alone? At least I am happy." + +They had reached the outskirts of the town by this time and Bethel +stopped before a little dark house with red shutters and a tiny strip +of garden. + +"Here we are!" said he. "This is my place. Come in and smoke! It +must be past your dinner hour up at 'The Flutes.' Come and have +something with me." + +Harry laughed. "They have already ceased wondering at my erratic +habits," he said. "New Zealand is a bad place for method." + +He followed Bethel in. It was a tiny hall, and on entering he stumbled +over an umbrella-stand that lounged forward in a rickety position. +Bethel apologised. "We're in a bit of a mess," he said. "In fact, to +tell the truth, we always are!" He hung his coat in the hall and led +the way into the dining-room. Mrs. Bethel and her daughter came +forward. The little woman was amazing in a dress of bright red silk +and an absurd little yellow lace cap. Only half the table was laid; +for the rest a shabby green cloth, spotted with ink, formed a +background for an incoherent litter of papers and needlework. The +walls were lined with books and there were some piled on the floor. + +A cold shoulder of mutton, baked potatoes in their skins, a melancholy +glass dish containing celery, and a salad bowl startlingly empty, lay +waiting on the table. + +"Anne," said Bethel, "I've brought a guest--up with the family port and +let's be festive." + +His great body seemed to fill the room, and he brought with him the +breath of the sea and the wind. He began to carve the mutton like +Siegfried making battle with Fafner, and indeed again and again during +the evening he reminded Harry of Siegfried's impetuous humour and +rejoicing animal spirits. + +Mrs. Bethel was delighted. Her little eyes twinkled with excitement, +her yellow cap was pushed awry, and her hands trembled with pleasure. +It was obvious that a visitor was an unusual event. Miss Bethel had +said very little, but she had given Harry that same smile that he had +seen before. She busied herself now with the salad, and he watched her +white fingers shine under the lamplight and the white curve of her neck +as she bent over the bowl. She was dressed in some dark stuff--quite +simple and unassuming, but he thought that he had never seen anything +so beautiful. + +He said very little, but he was quietly happy. Bethel did not talk +very much; he was eating furiously--not greedily, but with great +pleasure and satisfaction. Mrs. Bethel talked continuously. Her eyes +shone and her cap bobbed on her head like a live thing. + +"I said, Mr. Trojan, after our meeting the other day, that you would be +a friend. I said so to Mary coming back. I felt sure that first day. +It is so nice to have some one new in Pendragon--one gets used, you +know, to the same faces and tired of them. In my old home, Penlicott +in Surrey, near Marlwood Beeches--you change at Grayling Junction--or +you used to; I think you go straight through now. But _there_ you know +we knew everybody. You really couldn't help it. There was really only +the Vicar and the Doctor, and he was so old. Of course there were the +Draytons; you must have heard of Mr. Herbert Drayton--he paints +things--I forget quite what, but I know he's good. They all lived +there--such a lot of them and most peculiar in their habits; but one +gets used to anything. They all lived together for some time, about +fifteen there were. Mother and I dined there once or twice, and they +had the funniest dining-room with pictures of Job all round the room +that were most queer and rather disagreeable; and they all liked +different things to drink, so they each had a bottle--of +something--separately. It looked quite funny to see the fifteen +bottles, and then 'Job' on the wall, you know." + +But he really hadn't paid very much attention to her. He had been +thinking and wondering. How was it that a man like Bethel had married +such a wife? He supposed that things had been different twenty years +ago, with them as with him. It was strange to think of the difference +that twenty years could make. She had been, perhaps, a little pretty, +dainty thing then--the style of girl that a strong man like Bethel +would fall in love with. Then he thought of Miss Bethel--what was her +life with a mother like that and a father who never thought about her +at all? She must, he thought, be lonely. He almost hoped that she +was. It gave them kinship, because he was lonely too. The +conversation was not very animated; Mrs. Bethel was suddenly +silent--she seemed to have collapsed with the effort, and sat huddled +up in her chair, with her hands in her lap. + +He realised that he had said nothing to Miss Bethel, and he turned to +her. "You know London?" he said. He wondered whether she longed for +it sometimes--its excitement and life. + +"Oh yes," she said quickly; "we were there, you know, a long while ago, +and I've been up once or twice since. But it makes one feel so +dreadfully small, as if one simply didn't count, and no woman likes +that." + +"Pendragon makes one feel smaller," Harry said. "When one is of no +account even in a small place, then one is small indeed." + +He had not intended to speak bitterly, but she had caught the sound of +it in his voice and she was suddenly sorry for him. She had been a +little afraid of him before--even on that terrible afternoon at "The +Flutes"; but now she saw that he was disappointed--he had expected +something and it had failed him. + +She said nothing then, and the meal came to an end. Bethel dragged +Harry into his study to see the books. There was the same untidiness +here. The table was littered with papers and pens, tobacco jars, +numerous pipes, some photographs. From the floor to the ceiling were +books--rows on rows--flung apparently into the shelves with no order or +method. + +"I'm no good as far as books go," said Harry, laughing. "There never +was such a heathen. There have always been other things to do, and I +must confess it is a mystery to me how men get time to read at all. If +I do get time I'm generally done up, and a novel's the only thing I'm +fit for." + +"Ah, then, you don't know the book craze," Bethel Said. "It's worse +than drink. I've seen it absolutely ruin a man. You can't stop--if +you see a book you must get it, whether you really want it or no. You +go on buying and buying and buying. You get far more than you can ever +read. But you're a miser and you hate even lending them. You sit in +your room and count the covers, and you're no fit company for man or +beast." + +Harry looked at him--"You've known it?" + +"Oh yes! I've known it. I'm a bit better now--I'm out such a lot. +But even now there's a great deal here that I've never read, and I add +to it continually. The worst of it is," he said, laughing, "that we +can't afford it. It's very hard on Mary and the wife, but I'm a rotten +loafer, and that's the end of it." + +He said it so gaily and with so little sense of responsibility that you +couldn't possibly think that it weighed on him. But he looked such a +boy, standing there with his hands in his pockets and that +half-penitent, half-humorous look in his eyes, that you couldn't be +angry. Harry laughed. + +"Upon my word, you're amazing!" + +"Oh! you'll get sick of me. It's all so selfish and slack, I know. +But I struggled once--I'm in the grip now." He talked about Borrow and +displayed a little grey-bound "Walden" with pride. He spoke of Richard +Jefferies with an intimate affection as though he had known the man. + +He gave Harry some of his enthusiasm, and he lent him "Lavengro." He +described it and Harry compared mentally Isobel Berners with Mary +Bethel. + +Then they went up to the little drawing-room--an ugly room, but +redeemed by a great window overlooking the sea, and a large photograph +of Mary on the mantelpiece. Under the light of the lamp the silver +frame glittered and sparkled. + +He sat by the window and talked to her, and again he had that same +curious sense of having known her before: he spoke of it. + +"I expect it's in another existence then," she said; "as I've never +been into New Zealand and you've never been out of it--at least, since +I've been born. But, of course, I've talked about you to Robin. We +speculated, you know. We hadn't any photographs much to help us, and +it was quite a good game." + +"Ah! Robin!" + +"I want to speak to you about him," she said, turning round to him. +"You won't think me interfering, will you? but I've meant to speak ever +since the other day. I was afraid that, perhaps--don't think it +dreadfully rude of me--you hadn't quite understood Robin. He's at a +difficult age, you know, and there are a lot of things about him that +are quite absurd. And I have been afraid that you might take those +absurdities for the real things and fancy that that was all that was +there. Cambridge--and other things--have made him think that a certain +sort of attitude is essential if you're to get on. I don't think he +even sincerely believes in it. But they have taught him that he must, +at least, seem to believe. The other things are there all right, but +he hides them--he is almost ashamed of any one suspecting their +existence." + +"Thank you!" Harry said quietly. "It is very kind of you and I'm +deeply grateful. It's quite true that Robin and I haven't seemed to +hit it off properly. I expect that it is my fault. I have tried to +see his point of view and have the same interests, but every effort +that I've made has seemed to make things worse. He distrusts me, I +think, and--well--of course, that hurts. All the things in which I had +hoped we would share have no interest for him." + +"Don't you think, perhaps," she said, "that you've been a little too +anxious--perhaps, a little too affectionate? I am speaking like this +because I care for Robin so much. We have been such good friends for +years now, and I think he has let me see a side of him that he has +hidden from most people. He is curiously sensitive, and really, I +think, very shy; and most of all, he has a perfect horror of being +absurd. That is what I meant about your being affectionate. He would +think, perhaps, that the rest were laughing at him. It's as if you +were dragging something that was very sacred and precious out into the +light before all those others. Boys are like that; they are terrified +lest any one should know what good there is in them--it isn't quite +good form." + +They were silent for some time. Harry was throwing her words like a +searchlight on the events of the past week, and they revealed much that +had been very dark and confused. But he was thinking of her. Their +acquaintance seemed to have grown into intimacy already. + +"I can't thank you enough," he said again. + +"It is so nice of you," she said laughing, "not to have thought it +presumptuous of me. But Robin is a very good friend of mine. Of +course you will find out what a sterling fellow he is--under all that +superficiality. He is one of my best friends here!" + +He got up to go. As he held out his hand, he said: "I will tell you +frankly, Miss Bethel, that Pendragon hasn't received me with open arms. +I don't know why it should--and twenty years in New Zealand knocks the +polish off. But it has been delightful this evening--more than you +know." + +"It has been nice for us too," Mary answered. "I don't know that +Pendragon is exactly thronging our door night and day--and a new friend +is worth having. You see I've claimed you as a friend because you +listened so patiently to my sermon--that's a sure test." + +She had spoken lightly but he had felt the bitterness in her voice. +Life was hard for her too, then? He knew that he was glad. + +"I shall come back," he said. + +"Please," she answered. + +He said good-bye to Mrs. Bethel and she pressed his hand very warmly. +"You are very kind to take pity on us," she said, ogling him under the +gas in the hall; "I hope you will come often." + +Bethel said very little. He walked with him to the gate and laughed. +"We're absurd, aren't we, Trojan?" he said. "But don't neglect us +altogether. Even absurdity is refreshing sometimes." + +But Harry went up the hill with a happier heart than he had had since +he entered Pendragon. + +That promise of adventure had been fulfilled. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +Randal was only at "The Flutes" two days, but he effected a good deal +in that time. He did nothing very active--called on Mrs. le Terry and +rode over the Downs once with Robin--but he managed to leave a flock of +very active impressions behind him. That, as he knew well, was his +strong point. He could not be with you a day without vaguely, almost +indistinctly, but nevertheless quite certainly, influencing your +opinions. He never said anything very definite, and, on looking back, +you could never assert that he had positively taken any one point of +view; but he had left, as it were, atmosphere--an assurance that this +was the really right thing to do, this the proper attitude for correct +breeding to adopt. It was always, with him, a case of correct +breeding, and that was why the Trojans liked him so very much. +"Randal," as Clare said, "knew so precisely who were sheep and who were +goats, and he showed you the difference so clearly." + +Whenever he came to stay some former acquaintances were dropped as +being, perhaps, not quite the right people. He never said that any one +was not the right person, that would be bad breeding, but you realised, +of your own accord, that they were not quite right. That was why the +impression was so strong--it seemed to come from yourself; your eyes +were suddenly opened and you wondered that you hadn't seen it before. + +He said very little of Trojan people this time; the main result of his +visit was its effect on Harry's position. + +Had you been a stranger you would have noticed nothing; the motto of +the gentleman of good breeding is, "The end and aim of all true +opinions is the concealing of them from the wrong person." + +Randal was exceedingly polite to Harry, so polite that Robin and Clare +knew immediately that he disapproved, but Harry was pleased. Randal +spoke warmly to Robin. "You are lucky to have such a father, Bob; it's +what we all want, you and I especially, a little fresh air let into our +Cambridge dust and confusion; it's most refreshing to find some one who +cares nothing about all those things that have seemed to us, quite +erroneously probably, so valuable. You should copy him, Robin." + +But Robin made no reply. He understood perfectly. There had been some +qualities in his father that he had, deep down in his nature, admired. +He had seemed to be without doubt a man on whom one could rely in a +tight corner, and in spite of himself he had liked his father's +frankness. It was unusual. There was always another meaning in +everything that Robin's friends said, but there was never any doubt +about Harry. He missed the fine shades, of course, and was lamentably +lacking in discrimination, but you did know where you were. Robin had, +almost reluctantly, admired this before the coming of Randal. But now +there could be no question. When Randal was there you had displayed +before you the complete art of successful allusion. Nothing was ever +directly stated, but everything was hinted, and you were compelled to +believe that this really was the perfection of good breeding. Robin +admired Randal exceedingly. He took his dicta very seriously and +accepted his criticism. The judgment of his father completed the +impression that he had begun to receive. He was impossible. Randal +was going by the 10.45, and he would walk to the station. + +"A whiff of fresh air, Robin, is absolutely essential. You must walk +down with me. I hate to go, Miss Trojan." + +"Very soon to return, I hope, Mr. Randal," answered Clare. She liked +him, and thought him an excellent influence for Robin. + +"Thank you--it's very kind--but one's busy, you know. It's been hard +enough to snatch these few days. Besides, Robin isn't alone in the +same way now. He has his father." + +Clare made no reply, but her silence was eloquent. + +"I'm sorry for him, Miss Trojan," he said. "He is, I'm afraid, a +little out of it. Twenty years, you know, is a long time." + +Clare smiled. "He is unchanged," she said. "What he was as a boy, he +is now." + +"He is fortunate," Randal said gravely. "For most of us experience has +a jostling series of shocks ready. Life hurts." + +He said good-bye with that air of courtly melancholy that Clare admired +so much. He shook Harry warmly by the hand and expressed a hope of +another meeting. + +"I should be delighted," Harry said. "What sort of time am I likely to +catch you in town?" + +But Randal, alarmed at this serious acceptance of an entirely ironical +proposal, was immediately vague and gave no definite promise. Harry +watched them pass down the drive, then he turned back slowly into the +house. + +It was one of those blue and gold days that are only to be realised +perfectly in Cornwall--blue of the sky and the sea, gold on the roofs +and the rich background of red and brown in the autumn-tinted trees, +whilst the deep green of the lawns in front of the house seemed to hold +both blues and golds in its lights and shadows. The air was perfectly +still and the smoke from a distant bonfire hung in strange wreaths of +grey-blue in the light against the trees, as though carved delicately +in marble. + +Randal discussed his prospects. He spoke, as he invariably did with +regard to his past and future, airily and yet impressively: "I don't +like to make myself too cheap," he said. "There are things any sort of +fellow can do, and I must say that I shrink from taking bread out of +the mouths of some of them. But of course there are things that one +_must_ do--where special knowledge is wanted--not that I'm any good, +you know, but I've had chances. Besides, one must work slowly. +Style's the thing--Flaubert and Pater for ever--the doctrine of the one +word." + +Robin looked at him with admiration. + +"By Jove, Randal, I wish I could write; I sometimes feel quite--well, +it sounds silly--but inspired, you know--as if one saw things quite +differently. It was very like that in Germany once or twice." + +"Ah, we're all like that at times," Randal spoke encouragingly. "But +don't you trust it--an _ignis fatuus_ if ever there was one. That is +why we have bank clerks at Peckham and governesses in Bloomsbury +writing their reminiscences. It's those moments of inspiration that +are responsible for all our over-crowded literature." + +They had chosen the path over the fields to the station, and suddenly +at the bend of the hill the sea sprang before them, a curving mirror +that reflected the blue of the sky and was clouded mistily with the +gold of the sun. That sudden springing forward of the sea was always +very wonderful, even when it had been seen again and again, and Robin +stopped and shaded his eyes with his hand. + +"It's fine, isn't it, Randal?" he said. "One gets fond of the place." + +He was a little ashamed to have betrayed such feeling and spoke +apologetically. He went on hurriedly. "There was an old chap in +Germany--at Worms--who was most awfully interesting. He kept a little +bookshop, and I used to go down and talk to him, and he said once that +the sea was the most beautiful dream that the world contained, but you +must never get too near or the dream broke, and from that moment you +had no peace." + +Randal looked at Robin anxiously. "I say, old chap, this place is +getting on your nerves; always being here is bad for you. Why don't +you come up to town or go abroad? You're seedy." + +"Oh, I'm all right," Robin said, rather irritably. "Only one wonders +sometimes if--" he broke off suddenly. "I'm a bit worried about +something," he said. + +He was immediately aware that he had said nothing to Randal about the +Feverel affair and he wondered why. Randal would have been the natural +person to talk to about it; his advice would have been worth having. +But Robin felt vaguely that it would be better not. For some strange +reason, as yet unanalysed, he scarcely trusted him as he had done in +the old days. He was still wondering why, when they arrived at the +station. + +They said good-bye affectionately--rather more affectionately than +usual. There was a little sense of strain, and Robin felt relieved +when the train had gone. As he hurried from the platform he puzzled +over it. He could hold no clue, but he knew that their friendship had +changed a little. He was sorry. + +As he turned down the station road he decided that life was becoming +very complicated. There was first his father; that oughtn't in the +nature of things to have complicated matters at all--but it was +complicated, because there was no knowing what a man like that would +do. He might let the family down so badly; it was almost like having +gunpowder in your cellar. Randal had thought him absurd. Robin saw +that clearly, and Randal's opinion was that of all truly sensible +people. But, after all, the real complication was the Feverel affair. +It was now nearly ten days since that terrible evening and nothing had +happened. Robin wasn't sure what _could_ have happened, but he had +expected something. He had waited for a note; she would most assuredly +write and her letter would serve as a hint, he would know how to act; +but there had been no sign. On the day following the interview he had +felt, for the most part, relief. He was suddenly aware of the burden +that the affair had been, he was a free man; but with this there had +been compunction. He had acted like a brute; he was surprised that he +could have been so hard, and he was a little ashamed of meeting the +public gaze. If people only realised, he thought, what a cad he was, +they would assuredly have nothing to do with him. As the days passed, +this feeling increased and he was extremely uncomfortable. He had +never before doubted that he was a very decent fellow--nothing, +perhaps, exceptional in any way, but, judged by every standard, he +passed muster. Now he wasn't so sure, he had done something that he +would have entirely condemned in another man, and this showed him +plainly and most painfully the importance that he placed on the other +man's opinion. He was beginning to grow his crop of ideas and he was +already afraid of the probable harvest. + +That his affection for Dahlia was dead there could be no question, but +that it was buried, either for himself or the public, was, most +unfortunately, not the case. He was afraid of discovery for the first +time in his life, and it was unpleasant. Dahlia herself would be +quiet; at least, he was almost sure, although her outbreak the other +evening had surprised him. But he was afraid of Mrs. Feverel. He felt +now that she had never liked him; he saw her as some grim dragon +waiting for his inevitable surrender. He did not know what she would +do; he was beginning to realise his inexperience, but he knew that she +would never allow the affair to pass quietly away. To do him justice, +it was not so much the fear of personal exposure that frightened him; +that, of course, would be unpleasant--he would have to face the +derision of his enemies and the contempt of those people whom formerly +he had himself despised. But it was not personal contempt, it was the +disgrace to the family; the house was suddenly threatened on two +sides--his father, the Feverels--and he was frightened. He saw his +name in the papers; the Trojan name dragged through the mud because of +his own folly--Oh! it must be stopped at all costs. But the +uncertainty of it was worrying him. Ten days had passed and nothing +was done. Ten days, and he had been able to speak of it to no one; it +had haunted him all day and had spoiled his sleep; first, because he +had done something of which he was ashamed, and secondly, because he +was afraid that people might know. + +There were the letters. He remembered some of the sentences now and +bit his lip. How could he have been such a fool? She must give them +back--of course she would; but there was Mrs. Feverel. + +The uncertainty was torturing him--he must find out how matters were, +and suddenly, on the inspiration of the moment, he decided to go and +see Dahlia at once. Things could not be worse, and at least the +uncertainty would be ended. The golden day irritated him, and he found +the dark gloom of the Feverels' street a relief. A man was playing an +organ at the corner, and three dirty, tattered children were dancing +noisily in the middle of the road. He watched them for a moment before +ringing the bell, and wondered how they could seem so unconcerned, and +he thought them abandoned. + +He found Dahlia alone in the gaudy drawing-room. She gave a little cry +when she saw who it was, and her cheeks flushed red, and then the +colour faded. He noticed that she was looking ill and rather untidy. +There were dark lines under her eyes and her mouth was drawn. There +was an awkward pause; he had sat down with his hat in his hand and he +was painfully ill at ease. + +"I knew you would come back, Robin," she began at last. "Only you have +been a long time--ten days. I have never gone out, because I was +afraid that I would miss you. But I knew that you would be sorry after +the other night, because you know, dear, you hurt me terribly, and for +a time I really thought you meant it." + +"But I do mean it," Robin broke in. "I did and I do. I'm sorry, +Dahlia, for having hurt you, but I thought that you would see it as I +do--that it must, I mean, stop. I had hoped that you would understand." + +But she came over and stood by him, smiling rather timidly. "I don't +want to start it all over again," she said. "It was silly of me to +have made such a fuss the other night. I have been thinking all these +ten days, and it has been my fault all along. I have bothered you by +coming here and interfering when I wasn't really wanted. Mother and I +will go away again and then you shall come and stay, and we shall be +all alone--like we were at Cambridge. I have learnt a good deal during +these last few days, and if you will only be patient with me I will try +very hard to improve." + +She stood by his chair and laid her hand on his arm. He would have +thrilled at her touch six months before--now he was merely impatient. +It was so annoying that the affair should have to be reopened when they +had decided it finally the other night. He felt again the blind, +unreasoning fear of exposure. He had never before doubted his bravery, +but there had never been any question of attack--the House had been, it +seemed, founded on a rock, he had never doubted its stability before. +Now, with all the cruelty of a man who was afraid for the first time, +he had no mercy. + +"It is over, Dahlia--there is no other possibility. We had both made a +mistake; I am sorry and regret extremely if I had led you to think that +it could ever have been otherwise. I see it more clearly than I saw it +ten days ago--quite plainly now--and there's no purpose served in +keeping the matter open; here's an end. We will both forget. Heroics +are no good; after all, we are man and woman--it's better to leave it +at that and accept the future quietly." + +He spoke coldly and calmly, indeed he was surprised that he could face +it like that, but his one thought was for peace, to put this spectre +that had haunted him these ten days behind him and watch the world +again with a straight gaze--he must have no secrets. + +She had moved away and stood by the fireplace, looking straight before +her. She was holding herself together with a terrible effort; she must +quiet her brain and beat back her thoughts. If she thought for a +moment she would break down, and during these ten days she had been +schooling herself to face whatever might come--shame, exposure, +anything--she would not cry and beg for pity as she had done before. +But it was the end, the end, the end! The end of so much that had +given her a new soul during the last few months. She must go back to +those dreary years that had had no meaning in them, all those +purposeless grey days that had stretched in endless succession on to a +dismal future in which there shone no sun. Oh! he couldn't know what +it had all meant to her--it could be flung aside by him without regret. +For him it was a foolish memory, for her it was death. + +The tears were coming, her lips were quivering, but she clenched her +hands until the nails dug into the flesh. The sun poured in a great +flood of colour through the window, and meanwhile her heart was broken. +She had read of it often enough and had laughed--she had not known that +it meant that terrible dull throbbing pain and no joy or hope or light +anywhere. But she spoke to him quietly. + +"I had thought that you were braver, Robin. That you had cared enough +not to mind what they said. You are right: it has all been a mistake." + +"Yes," he said doggedly, without looking at her. "We've been foolish. +I hadn't thought enough about others. You see after all one owes +something to one's people. It would never do, Dahlia, it wouldn't +really. You'd never like it either--you see we're different. At +Cambridge one couldn't see it so clearly, but here--well, there are +things one owes to one's people, tradition, and, oh! lots of things! +You have got your customs, we have ours--it doesn't do to mix." + +He hadn't meant to put it so clearly. He scarcely realised what he had +said because he was not thinking of her at all; it was only that one +thing that he saw in front of him, how to get out, away, clear of the +whole entanglement, where there was no question of suspicion and +possible revelation of secrets. He was not thinking of her. + +But the cruelty of it, the naked, unhesitating truth of it, stung her +as nothing had ever hurt her before--it was as though he had struck her +in the face. She was not good enough, she was not fit. He had said it +before, but then he had been angry. She had not believed it; but now +he was speaking calmly, coldly--she was not good enough! + +And in a moment her idol had tumbled to the ground--her god was lying +pitifully in the dust, and all the Creed that she had learnt so +patiently and faithfully had crumbled into nothing. Her despair +seemed, for the moment, to have gone; she only felt burning +contempt--contempt for him, that he could seem so small--contempt for +herself, that she could have worshipped at such altars. + +She turned round and looked at him. + +"That is rather unfair. You say that I am not your equal socially. +Well, we will leave it at that--you are quite right--it is over." + +He lowered his eyes before her steady gaze. At last he was ashamed; he +had not meant to put it brutally. He had behaved like a cad and he +knew it. Her white face, her hands clenched tightly at her side, the +brave lift of her head as she faced him, moved him as her tears and +emotions had never done. + +He sprang up and stood by her. + +"Dahlia, I've been a brute, a cad--I didn't know what I had said--I +didn't mean it like that, as you thought. Only I've been so worried, +I've not known where to turn and--oh, don't you see, I'm so young. I +get driven, I can't stand up against them all." + +Why, he was nearly crying. The position was suddenly reversed, and she +could almost have laughed at the change. He was looking at her +piteously, like a boy convicted of orchard-robbing--and she had loved +him, worshipped him! Five minutes ago his helplessness would have +stirred her, she would have wanted to take him and protect him and +comfort him; but now all that was past--she felt only contempt and +outraged pride: her eyes were hard and her hands unclenched. + +"It is no good, Robin. You were quite right. There is an end of +everything. It was a mistake for both of us, and perhaps it is as well +that we should know it now. It will spare us later." + +So that was the end. He felt little triumph or satisfaction; he was +only ashamed. + +He turned to go without a word. Then he remembered--"There are the +letters?" + +"Ah! you must let me keep them--for a memory." She was not looking at +him, but out of the window on to the street. A cab was slowly crawling +in the distance--she could see the end of the driver's whip as he +flicked at his horses. + +"You can't--you don't mean----?" Robin turned back to her. + +"I mean nothing--only I am--tired. You had better go. We will write +if there is anything more." + +"Look here!" Robin was trembling from head to foot. "You must let me +have them back. It's serious--more than you know. People might see +them and--my God! you would ruin me!" + +He was speaking melodramatically, and he looked melodramatic and very +ridiculous. He was crushing his bowler in his hands. + +"No. I will keep them!" She spoke slowly and quite calmly, as though +she had thought it all out before. "They are valuable. Now you must +go. This has been silly enough--Good-bye." + +She turned to the window and he was dismissed. His pride came to the +rescue; he would not let her see that he cared, so he went--without +another word. + +She stood in the same position, and watched him go down the street. He +was walking quickly and at the same time a little furtively, as though +he was afraid of meeting acquaintances. She turned away from the +window, and then, suddenly, knelt on the floor with her head in her +hands. She sobbed miserably, hopelessly, with her hands pressed +against her face. + +And Mrs. Feverel found her kneeling there in the sunlight an hour later. + +"Dahlia," she said softly, "Dahlia!" + +The girl looked up. "He has gone, mother," she said. "And he is never +coming back. I sent him away." + +And Mrs. Feverel said nothing. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +There were times when Harry felt curiously, impressively, the age of +the house. It was not all of it old, it had been added to from time to +time by successive Trojans; but there had, from the earliest days, been +a stronghold on the hill overlooking the sea and keeping guard. + +He had had a wonderful pride in it on his return, but now he began to +feel as though he had no right in it. Surely if any one had a right to +such a heritage it was he, but they had isolated him and told him that +he had no place there. The gardens, the corners and battlements of the +house, the great cliff falling sheer to the sea, had had no welcome for +him, and when he had claimed his succession they had refused him. He +was beginning to give the stocks and stones of the House a personal +existence. Sometimes at night, when the moon gave the place grey +shadows and white lights, or in the early morning when the first birds +were crying in the trees and the sea was slowly taking colour from the +rising sun, in the perfect stillness and beauty of those hours the +house had seemed to speak to him with a new voice. He imagined, +fantastically at times, that the white statues in the garden watched +him with grave eyes, wondering what place he would take in the +chronicles of the House. + +It was Sunday afternoon, and he was alone in the library. That was a +room that had always appealed to him, with its dark red walls covered +from floor to ceiling with books, its wide stone fireplace, its soft, +heavy carpets, its wonderfully comfortable armchairs. It seemed to him +the very perfection of that spirit of orderly comfort and luxurious +simplicity for which he had so earnestly longed in New Zealand. He sat +in that room for hours, alone, thinking, wondering, puzzling, devising +new plans for Robin's surrender and rejecting them as soon as they were +formed. + +He was sitting by the fire now, hearing the coals click as they fell +into the golden furnace that awaited them. He was comparing the +incidents of the morning with those of the preceding Sunday, and he +knew that things were approaching a crisis. Clare had scarcely spoken +to him for three days. Garrett and Robin had not said a word beyond a +casual good-morning. They were ignoring him, continuing their daily +life as though he did not exist at all. He remembered that he had felt +his welcome a fortnight before a little cold--it seemed rapturous +compared with the present state of things. + +They had driven to church that morning in state. No one had exchanged +a word during the whole drive. Clare had sat quietly, in solemn +magnificence, without moving an eyelid. They had moved from the +carriage to the church in majestic procession, watched by an admiring +cluster of townspeople. He had liked Clare's fine bearing and Robin's +carriage; there was no doubt that they supported family traditions +worthily, but he felt that, in the eyes of the world, he scarcely +counted at all. It was a cold and over-decorated church, with an air +of wealth and lack of all warm emotions that was exactly characteristic +of its congregation. Harry thought that he had never seen a gathering +of more unresponsive people. An excellent choir sang Stainer in B flat +with perfect precision and fitting respect, and the hymns and psalms +were murmured with proper decorum. The clergyman who had come to tea +on the day after Harry's arrival preached a carefully calculated and +excellently worded sermon. Although his text was the publican's "Lord, +be merciful to me, a sinner," it was evident that his address was +tinged with the Pharisee's self-congratulations. + +A little gathering was formed in the porch after the service, and Mrs. +le Terry, magnificent in green silk and an enormous hat, was the only +person who took any interest in Harry, and she was looking over his +head during the conversation in order, apparently, to fix the attention +of some gentleman moving in the opposite direction. + +At lunch Harry had made a determined effort towards cheerfulness. He +had learnt that heartiness was bad manners and effusion a crime, so he +was quiet and restrained. But his efforts failed miserably; Robin +seemed worried and his thoughts were evidently far away, Clare was +occupied with the impertinence of some stranger who had thrust himself +into the Trojan pew at the last moment, and Garrett was repeating +complacently a story that he had heard at the Club tending to prove the +unsanitary condition of the lower classes in general and the +inhabitants of the Cove in particular. After lunch they had left him +alone; he had not dared to petition Robin for a walk, so, sick at heart +and miserably lonely, he had wandered disconsolately into the library. +He had taken from one of the shelves the volume T-U of _The Dictionary +of National Biography_, and had amused himself by searching for the +names of heroes in Trojan annals. + +There was only one who really mattered--a certain Humphrey Trojan, +1718-1771; a man apparently of poor circumstances and quite a distant +cousin of the main branch, one who had been in all probability despised +by the Sir Henry Trojan of that time. Nevertheless he had been a +person of some account in history and had, from the towers of the +House, watched the sea and the stars to some purpose. He had been +admitted, Harry imagined, into the sacred precincts after his +researches had made him a person of national importance, and it was +amusing to picture Sir Henry's pride transformed into a rather +obsequious familiarity when "My cousin, Humphrey, had been honoured by +an interview with his Majesty and had received an Order at the royal +hand"--amusing, yes, but not greatly to the glory of Sir Henry. Harry +liked to picture Humphrey in his days of difficulty--sturdy, +persevering, confident in his own ability, oblivious of the cuts dealt +him by his cousin. Time would show. + +He let the book fall and gazed at the fire, thinking. After all, he +was a poor creature. He had none of that perseverance and belief in +his own ultimate success, and it was better, perhaps, to get right out +of it, to throw up the sponge, to turn tail, and again there floated +before him that wonderful dream of liberty and the road--of a +relationship with the world at large, and no constraint of family +dignity and absurd grades of respectability. Off with the harness; he +had worn it for a fortnight and he could bear it no longer. Bethel was +right; he would follow the same path and find his soul by losing it in +the eyes of the world. But after all, there was Robin. He had not +given it a fair trial, and it was only cowardice that had spoken to him. + +The clock struck half-past three and he went upstairs to see his +father. The old man seldom left his bed now. He grew weaker every day +and the end could not be far away. He had no longer any desire to +live, and awaited with serene confidence the instant of departure, +being firmly convinced that Death was too good a gentleman to treat a +Trojan scurvily, and that, whatever the next world might contain, he +would at least be assured of the respect and deference that the present +world had shown him. His mind dwelt continually on his early days, +and, even when there was no one present to listen, he repeated +anecdotes and reminiscences for the benefit of the world at large. His +face seemed to have dwindled considerably, but his eyes were always +alive--twinkling over the bedclothes like lights in a dark room. His +mouth never moved, only his hand, claw-like and yellow as parchment, +clutched the bedclothes and sometimes waved feebly in the air to +emphasise his meaning. He had grown strangely intolerant of Clare, and +although he submitted to her offices as usual, did so reluctantly and +with no good grace; she had served him faithfully and diligently for +twenty years and this was her reward. She said nothing, but she laid +it to Harry's charge. + +Sir Jeremy's eyes twinkled when he saw his son. "Hey, Harry, my +boy--all of 'em out, aren't they? Devilish good thing--no one to worry +us. Just give the pillows a punch and pull that table nearer--that's +right. Just pull that blind up--I can't see the sea." + +The room had changed its character within the last week. It was a +place of silences and noiseless tread, and the scent of flowers mingled +with the intangible odour of medicine. A great fire burnt in the open +fireplace, and heavy curtains had been hung over the door to prevent +draughts. + +Harry moved silently about the room, flung up the blind to let in the +sun, propped up the pillows, and then sat down by the bed. + +"You're looking better, father," he said; "you'll soon be up again." + +"The devil I will," said Sir Jeremy. "No, it's not for me. I'm here +for a month or two, and then I'm off. I've had my day, and a damned +good one too. What do you think o' that girl now, Harry--she's +fine--what?" + +He produced from under the pillow a photograph, yellow with age, of a +dancer--jet-black hair and black eyes, her body balanced on one leg, +her hands on her hips. "Anonita Sendella--a devilish fine woman, by +gad--sixty years ago that was--and Tom Buckley and I were in the +running. He had the money and I had the looks, although you wouldn't +think it now. She liked me until she got tired of me and she died o' +drink--not many like that nowadays." He gazed at the photograph whilst +his eyes twinkled. "Legs--by Heaven! what legs!" He chuckled. +"Wouldn't do for Clare to see that; she was shaking my pillows this +mornin' and I was in a deuce of a fright--thought the thing would +tumble out." + +He lay back on his pillows thinking, and Harry stared out of the +window. The end would come in a month or two--perhaps sooner; and +then, what would happen? He would take his place as head of the +family. He laughed to himself--head of the family! when Clare and +Garrett and Robin all hated him? Head of the family! + +The sky was grey and the sea flecked with white horses. It was +shifting colours to-day like a mother-of-pearl shell--a great band of +dark grey on the horizon, and then a soft carpet of green turning to +grey again by the shore. The grey hoofs [Transcriber's note: roofs?] +of the Cove crowded down to the edge of the land, seeming to lean a +little forward, as though listening to what the sea had to say; the +sun, breaking mistily through the clouds, was a round ball of dull +gold--a line of breakwater, far in the distance, seemed ever about to +advance down the stretch of sea to the shore, as though it would hurl +itself on the cluster of brown sails in the little bay, huddling there +for protection. Head of the House! What was the use, when the House +didn't want him? + +His father was watching him and seemed to have read his thoughts. +"You'll take my place, Harry?" he said. "They won't like it, you know. +It was partly my fault. I sent you away and you grew up away, and +they've always been here. I've been wanting you to come back all this +time, and it wasn't because I was angry that I didn't ask you--but it +was better for you. You don't see it yet; you came back thinking +they'd welcome you and be glad to see you, and you're a bit hurt that +they haven't. They've been hard to you, all of 'em--your boy as well. +I've known, right enough. But it cuts both ways, you see. They can't +see your point of view, and they're afraid of the open air you're +letting in on to them. You're too soft, Harry; you've shown them that +it hurts, and they've wanted it to hurt. Give 'em a stiff back, Harry, +give 'em a stiff back. Then you'll have 'em. That's like us Trojans. +We're devilish cruel because we're devilish proud; if you're kind we +hurt, but if you do a bit of hurting on your own account we like it." + +"I've made a mess of it," Harry said, "a hopeless mess of it. I've +tried everything, and it's all failed. I'd better back out of it--" +Then, after a pause, "Robin hates me----" + +Sir Jeremy chuckled. + +"Oh no, he doesn't. He's like the rest of us. You wanted him to give +himself away at once, and of course he wouldn't. They're trying you +and waiting to see what you'll do, and Robin's just following on. +You'll be all right, only give 'em a stiff back, the whole crowd of +'em." + +Suddenly his wrinkled yellow hand shot out from under the bedclothes +and he grasped his son's. "You're a damned fine chap," he said, "and +I'm proud of you--only you're a bit of a fool--sentimental, you know. +But you'll make more of the place than I've ever done, God bless you--" +after which he lay back on his pillows again, and was soon asleep. + +Harry waited for a little, and then he stole out of the room. He told +the nurse to take his place, and went downstairs. + +It was four o'clock, and he was going to tea at the Bethels'. He had +been there pretty frequently during the past week--that and the Cove +were his only courts of welcome. He knew that his going there had only +aggravated his offences in the eyes of his sister, but that he could +not help. Why should they dictate his friends to him? + +The little drawing-room was neat and clean. There were some flowers, +and the chairs and sofa were not littered with books and needlework and +strange fragments of feminine garments. Mrs. Bethel was gorgeous in a +green silk dress and the paint was more obtrusive than ever. Her eyes +were red as though she had been crying, and her hair as usual had +escaped bounds. + +Mary was making tea and smiled up at him. "Shout at father," she said. +"He's downstairs in the study, browsing. He'll come up when he knows +you are here." + +Harry went to the head of the stairs and called, and Bethel came +rushing up. Sunday made no difference to his clothes, and he wore the +grey suit and flannel collar of their first meeting. + +His greeting was, as ever, boisterous. "Hullo! Trojan! that's +splendid! I was afraid they'd carry you off to that church of yours or +you'd have a tea-party or something. I'm glad they've spared you." + +"No, I went this morning," Harry answered, "all of us solemnly in the +family coach. I thought that was enough for one day." + +"We used to have a carriage when papa was alive," said Mrs. Bethel, +"and we drove to church every Sunday. We were the only people beside +the Porsons, and theirs was only a pony-cart." + +"Well, for my part, I hate driving," said Mary. "It puts you in a bad +temper for the sermon." + +"Let's have tea," said Bethel. "I'm as hungry as though I'd listened +to fifty parsons." + +And, indeed, he always was. He ate as though he had had no meal for a +month at least, and he had utterly demolished the tea-cake before he +realised that no one else had had any. + +"Oh, I say, I'm so sorry," he said ruefully. "Mary, why didn't you +tell me? I'll never forgive myself----" and proceeded to finish the +saffron buns. + +"All the same," said Mary, "we're going to church to-night, all of us, +and if you're very good, Mr. Trojan, you shall come too." + +Harry paused for a moment. "I shall be delighted," he said; "but where +do you go?" + +"There's a little church called St. Sennan's. You haven't heard of it, +probably. It's past the Cove--on a hill looking over the sea. It's +the most tumble-down old place you ever saw, and nobody goes there +except a few fishermen, but we know the clergyman and like him. I like +the place too--you can listen to the sea if you're bored with the +sermon." + +"The parson is like one of the prophets," said Bethel. "Too strong for +the Pendragon point of view. It's a place of ruins, Trojan, and the +congregation are like a crowd of ancient Britons--but you'll like it." + +Mrs. Bethel was unwontedly quiet--it was obvious that she was in +distress; Mary, too, seemed to speak at random, and there was an air of +constraint in the room. + +When they set off for church the grey sky had changed to blue; the sun +had just set, and little pink clouds like fairy cushions hung round the +moon. As they passed out of the town, through the crooked path down to +the Cove, Harry had again that strong sense of Cornwall that came to +him sometimes so suddenly, so strangely, that it was almost mysterious, +for it seemed to have no immediate cause, no absolute relation to +surrounding sights or sounds. Perhaps to-night it was in the misty +half-light of the shining moon and the dying sun, the curious stillness +of the air so that the sounds and cries of the town came distinctly on +the wind, the scent of some wild flowers, the faint smell of the +chrysanthemums that Mary was wearing at her breast. + +"By Jove, it's Cornwall," he said, drawing a great breath. He was +walking a little ahead with Mary, and he turned to her as she spoke. +She was walking with her head bent, and did not seem to hear him. +"What's up?" he said. + +"Nothing," she answered, trying to smile. + +"But there is," he insisted. "I'm not blind. I've bored you with my +worries. You might honour me with yours." + +"There isn't anything really. One's foolish to mind, and, indeed, it's +not for myself that I care--but it's mother." + +"What have they done?" + +"They don't like us--none of them do. I don't know why they should; we +aren't, perhaps, very likeable. But it is cruel of them to show it. +Mother, you see, likes meeting people--we had it in London, friends I +mean, lots of them, and then when we came here we had none. We have +never had any from the beginning. We tried, perhaps a little too hard, +to have some. We gave little parties and they failed, and then people +began to think us peculiar, and if they once do that here you're done +for. Perhaps we didn't see it quite soon enough and we went on trying, +and then they began to snub us." + +"Snub you?" + +"Yes, you know the kind of thing. You saw that first day we met +you----" + +"And it hurts?" + +"Yes--for mother. She still tries; she doesn't see that it's no good, +and each time that she goes and calls, something happens and she comes +back like she did to-day. I don't suppose they mean to be unkind--it +is only that we are, you see, peculiar, and that doesn't do here. +Father wears funny clothes and never sees any one, and so they think +there must be something wrong----" + +"It's a shame," he said indignantly. + +"No," she answered, "it isn't really. It's one's own fault--only +sometimes I hate it all. Why couldn't we have stayed in London? We +had friends there, and father's clothes didn't matter. Here such +little things make such a big difference"--which was, Harry reflected, +a complete epitome of the life of Pendragon. + +"I'm not whining," she went on. "We all have things that we don't +like, but when you're without a friend----" + +"Not quite," he said; "you must count me." He stopped for a moment. +"You _will_ count me, won't you?" + +"You realise what you are doing," she said. "You are entering into +alliance with outcasts." + +"You forget," he answered, "that I, also, am an outcast. We can at +least be outcasts together." + +"It is good of you," she said gravely; "I am selfish enough to accept +it. If I was really worth anything, I would never let you see us +again. It means ostracism." + +"We will fight them," he answered gaily. "We will storm the camp"; but +in his heart he knew that their stronghold, with "The Flutes" as the +heart of the defence, would be hard to overcome. + +They climbed up the hill to the little church with the sea roaring at +their feet. A strong wind was blowing, and, for a moment, at a steep +turn of the hill, she laid her hand on his arm; at the touch his heart +beat furiously--in that moment he knew that he loved her, that he had +loved her from the first moment that he had seen her, and he passed on +into the church. + +It was, as Bethel had said, almost in ruins--the little nave was +complete, but ivy clambered in the aisles and birds had built their +nests in the pillars. Three misty candles flickered on the altar, and +some lights burnt over the pulpit, but there were strange half-lights +and shadows so that it seemed a place of ghosts. Through the open door +the night air blew, bringing with it the beating of the sea, and the +breath of grass and flowers. The congregation was scanty; some +fishermen and their wives, two or three old women, and a baby that made +no sound but listened wonderingly with its finger in its mouth. The +clergyman was a tall man with a long white beard and he did everything, +even playing the little wheezy harmonium. His sermon was short and +simple, but was listened to with rapt attention. There was something +strangely intense about it all, and the hymns were sung with an +eagerness that Harry had never heard elsewhere. This was a contrast +with the church of the morning, just as the Cove was a contrast with +Pendragon; the parting of the ways seemed to face Harry at every moment +of his day--his choice was being urgently demanded and he had no longer +any hesitation. + +Newsome was there, and he spoke to him for a moment on coming out. +"You'll be lonely 'up-along,'" he said; "you belong to us." + +They all four walked back together. + +"How do you like our ancient Britons?" said Bethel. + +"It was wonderful," said Harry. "Thank you for taking me." + +They were all very silent, but when they parted at the turning of the +road Bethel laughed. "Now you are one of us, Trojan. We have claimed +you." + +As he shook Mary's hand he whispered, "This has been a great evening +for me." + +"I was wrong to grumble to you," she answered. "You have worries +enough of your own. I release you from your pledge." + +"I will not be released," he said. + +That night Clare Trojan, before going to bed, went into Garrett's room. +He was working at his book, and, as usual, hinted that to take such +advantage of his good-nature by her interruption was unfair. + +"I suppose to-morrow morning wouldn't do instead, Clare--it's a bit +late." + +"No, it wouldn't--I want you to listen to me. It's important." + +"Well?" He seated himself in the most comfortable chair and sighed. +"Don't be too long." + +She was excited and stood over him as though she would force him to be +interested. + +"It's too much, Garrett. It's got to stop." + +"What?" + +"Harry. Some one must speak to him." + +Garrett smiled. "That, of course, will be you, Clare--you always do; +but if it's my permission that you want you may have it and welcome. +But we've discussed all this before. What's the new turn of affairs?" + +"No. I want more than your permission; we must take some measures +together. It's no good unless we act at once. Miss Ponsonby told me +this afternoon--it has become common talk--the things he does, I mean. +She did not want to say anything, but I made her. He goes down +continually to some low public-house in the Cove; he is with those +Bethels all day, and will see nothing of any of the decent people in +the place--he is becoming a common byword." + +"It is a pity," Garrett said, "that he cannot choose his friends +better." + +"He must--something must be done. It is not for ourselves only, though +of course that counts. But it is the House--our name. They laugh at +him, and so at all of us. Besides, there is Robin." + +Garrett looked at his sister curiously--he had never seen her so +excited before. But she found it no laughing matter. Miss Ponsonby +would not have spoken unless matters had gone pretty far. The Cove! +The Bethels! Robin's father! + +For, after all, it was for Robin that she cared. She felt that she was +fighting his battles, and so subtly concealed from herself that she +was, in reality, fighting her own. She was in a state of miserable +uncertainty. She was not sure of her father, she was not sure of +Robin, scarcely sure of Garrett--everything threatened disaster. + +"What will you do?" Garrett had no desire that the responsibility +should be shifted in his direction; he feared responsibility as the +rock on which the ship of his carefully preserved proprieties might +come to wreck. + +"Do? Why, speak--it must be done. Think of him during the whole time +that he has been here--not only to Pendragon, but to us. He has made +no attempt whatever to fit in with our ways or thoughts; he has shown +no desire to understand any of us; and now he must be pulled up, for +his own sake as well as ours." + +But Garrett offered her little assistance. He had no proposals to +offer, and was barren of all definite efforts; he hated definite lines +of any kind, but he promised to fall in with her plans. + +"I will come down to breakfast," she said, "and will speak to him +afterwards." + +Garrett nodded wearily and went back to his work. On the next morning +the crisis came. + +Breakfast was a silent meal at all times. Harry had learnt to avoid +the cheerful familiarity of his first morning--it would not do. But +the heavy solemnity of the massive silver teapot, the ham and cold game +on the sideboard, the racks of toast that were so needlessly numerous, +drove him into himself, and, like his brother and son, he disappeared +behind folds of newspaper until the meal was over. + +Clare frequently came down to breakfast, and therefore he saw nothing +unusual in her appearance. The meal was quite silent; Clare had her +letters--and he was about to rise and leave the room, when she spoke. + +"Wait a minute, Harry. I want to say something. No, Robin, don't +go--what I'm going to say concerns us all." + +Garrett remained behind his newspaper, which showed that he had +received previous warning. Robin looked up in surprise, and then +quickly at his father, who had moved to the fireplace. + +"About me, Clare?" He tried to speak calmly, but his voice shook a +little. He saw that it was a premeditated attack, but he wished that +Robin hadn't been there. He was, on the whole, glad that the moment +had come; the last week had been almost unbearable, and the situation +was bound to arrive at a crisis--well, here it was, but he wished that +Robin were not there. As he looked at the boy for a moment his face +was white and his breath came sharply. He had never loved him quite so +passionately as at that moment when he seemed about to lose him. + +Clare had chosen her time and her audience well, and suddenly he felt +that he hated her; he was immediately calm and awaited her attack +almost nonchalantly, his hand resting on the mantelpiece, his legs +crossed. + +Clare was still sitting at the table, her face half turned to Harry, +her glance resting on Robin. She tapped the table with her letters, +but otherwise gave no sign of agitation. + +"Yes--about you, Harry. It is only that I think we have reason--almost +a right--to expect that you should yield a little more thoroughly to +our wishes. Both _Garrett_"--this with emphasis--"and myself are sure +that your failing to do so is only due to a misconception on your part, +and it is because we are sure that you have only to realise them to +give way a little to them, that I--we--are speaking." + +"I certainly had not realised that I had failed in deference to your +wishes, Clare." + +"No, not failed--and it is absurd to talk of deference. It is only +that I feel--we all feel"--this with another glance at Robin--"that it +is naturally impossible for you to realise exactly what are the things +required of us here. Things that would in New Zealand have been of no +importance at all." + +"Such as----?" + +"Well, you must remember that we have, as it were, the eyes of all the +town upon us. We occupy a position of some importance, and we are +definitely expected to maintain that position without lack of dignity." + +"Won't you come to the point, Clare? It is a little hard to see----" + +"Oh, things are obvious enough--surely, Harry, you must see for +yourself. People were ready to give you a warm welcome when you +returned. I--we--all of us, were only too glad. But you repulsed us +all. Why, on the very day after your arrival you were extremely--I am +sorry, but there is no other word--discourteous to the Miss Ponsonbys. +You have made your friends almost entirely amongst the fisher class, a +strange thing, surely, for a Trojan to do, and you now, I believe, +spend your evenings frequently in a low public-house resorted to by +such persons--at any rate you have spent them neither here nor at the +Club, the two obvious places. I am only mentioning these things +because I think that you may not have seen that such matters--trivial +as they may seem to you--reflect discredit, not only on yourself, but +also, indirectly, on all of us." + +"You forget, Clare, that I have many old friends down at the Cove. +They were there when I was a boy. The people in Pendragon have changed +very largely, almost entirely. There is scarcely any one whom I knew +twenty years ago; it is, I should have thought, quite natural that I +should go to see my old friends again after so long an absence." + +He was trying to speak quietly and calmly. His heart was beating +furiously, but he knew that if he once lost control, he would lose, +too, his position. But, as he watched them, and saw their cold, +unmoved attitude his anger rose; he had to keep it down with both hands +clenched--it was only by remembering Robin that the effort was +successful. + +"Natural to go and see them on your return--of course. But to return, +to go continually, no. I cannot help feeling, Harry, that you have +been a little selfish. That you have scarcely seen our side of the +question. Things have changed in the last twenty years--changed +enormously. We have seen them, studied them, and, I think, understood +them. You come back and face them without any preparation; surely you +cannot expect to understand them quite as we do." + +"This seems to me, I must confess, Clare, a great deal of concern about +a very little matter. Surely I am not a person of such importance that +a few visits to the Cove can ruin us socially?" + +"Ah! that is what you don't understand! Little things matter here. +People watch, and are, I am afraid, only too ready to fasten on matters +that do not concern them. Besides, it is not only the Cove--there are +other things--there are, for instance, the Bethels." + +At the name Robin started. He liked Mary Bethel, had liked her very +much indeed, but he had known that his aunt disapproved of them and had +been careful to disguise his meetings. But the instant thought in his +mind concerned the Feverels. If the Bethels were impossible socially, +what about Dahlia and her mother? What would his aunt say if she knew +of that little affair? And the question which had attacked him acutely +during the last week in various forms hurt him now like a knife. + +He watched his father curiously. He did not look as if he cared very +greatly. Of course Aunt Clare was perfectly right. He had been +selfishly indifferent, had cared nothing for their feelings. Randal +had shown plainly enough how impossible he was. Indeed the shadow of +Randal lurked in the room in a manner that would have pleased that +young gentleman intensely had he known it. Clare had it continually +before her, urging her, advising her, commanding her. + +At the mention of the Bethels, Harry looked up sharply. + +"I think we had better leave them out of the discussion." His voice +trembled a little. + +"Why? Are they so much to you? They have, however, a good deal to do +with my argument. Do you think it was wise to neglect the whole of +Pendragon for the society of the Bethels--people of whom one is an +idler and loafer and the other a lunatic?" Clare was becoming excited. + +"You forget, Clare, that I first met them in your drawing-room." + +"They were there entirely against my will. I showed them that quite +distinctly at the time. They will not come again." + +"That may be. But they are, as you have said, my friends. I cannot, +therefore, hear them insulted. They must be left out of the +discussion." + +On any other matter he could have heard her quietly, but the Bethels +she must leave alone. He could see Mary, as he spoke, turning on the +hill and laying her hand on his arm; her hair blew in the wind and the +light in her eyes shone under the moon. He had for a moment forgotten +Robin. + +"At any rate, I have made my meaning clear. We wish you--out of regard +for us, if for no other reason--to be a little more careful both of +your company and of your statements. It is hard for you to see the +position quite as we do, I know, but I cannot say that you have made +any attempt whatsoever to see it with our eyes. It seems useless to +appeal to you on behalf of the House, but that, too, is worth some +consideration. We have been here for many hundreds of years; we should +continue in the paths that our ancestors have marked out. I am only +saying what you yourself feel, Garrett?" + +"Absolutely." Garrett looked up from his paper. "I think you must +see, Harry, that we are quite justified in our demands--Clare has put +it quite plainly." + +"Quite," said Harry. "And you, Robin?" + +"I think that Aunt Clare is perfectly right," answered Robin coldly. + +Harry's face was very white. He spoke rapidly and his hand gripped the +marble of the mantelpiece; he did not want them to see that his legs +were trembling. + +"Yes. I am glad to know exactly where we stand. It is better for all +of us. I might have taken it submissively, Clare, had you left out +your last count against me. That was unworthy of you. But haven't +you, perhaps, seen just a little too completely your own point of view +and omitted mine? I came back a stranger. I was ready to do anything +to win your regard. I was perhaps a little foolishly sentimental about +it, but I am a very easy person to understand--it could not have been +very difficult. I imagined, foolishly, that things would be quite +easy--that there would be no complications. I soon found that I had +made a mistake; you have taught me more during the last fortnight than +I had ever learnt in all my twenty years abroad. I have learnt that to +expect affection from your own relations, even from your son, is +absurd--affection is bad form; that, of course, was rather a shock. + +"You have had, all of you, your innings during the last fortnight. You +have decided, with your friends, that I am impossible, and from that +moment you have deliberately cut me. You have driven me to find +friends of my own and then you have complained of the friends that I +have chosen. That is completed--in a fortnight you have shown me, +quite plainly, your position. Now I will show you mine. You have +refused to have anything to do with me--for the future the position +shall be reversed. I shall alter in no respect whatever, either my +friendships or my habits. I shall go where I please, do what I please, +see whom I please. We shall, of course, disguise our position from the +world. I have learnt that disguise is a very important part of one's +education. Our former relations from this moment cease entirely." + +He was speaking apparently calmly, but his anger was at white-heat. +All the veiled insults and disappointments of the last fortnight rose +before him, but, above all, he saw Mary as though he were defending +her, there, in the room. He would never forgive them. + +Clare was surprised, but she did not show it. She got up from the +table and walked to the door. "Very well, Harry," she said, "I think +you will regret it." + +Garrett rose too, his hand trembling a little as he folded his +newspaper. + +"That is, I suppose, an ultimatum," he said. "It is a piece of +insolence that I shall not forget." + +Robin was turning to leave the room. Harry suddenly saw him. He had +forgotten him; he had thought only of Mary. + +"Robin," he whispered, stepping towards him. "Robin--you don't think +as they do?" + +"I agree with my aunt," he said, and he left the room, closing the door +quietly behind him. + +Harry's defiance had left him. For a moment the only thing that he saw +clearly in a world that had suddenly grown dark and cold was his son. +He had forgotten the rest--his sister, Mary, Pendragon--it all seemed +to matter nothing. + +He had come from New Zealand to love his son--for nothing else. + +He had an impulse to run after him, to seize him, and hold him, and +force him to come back. + +Then he remembered--his pride stung him. He would fight it out to the +end; he would, as his father said, "show them a stiff back." + +He was very white, and for a moment he had to steady himself by the +table. The silver teapot, the ham, the racks of toast were all +there--how strange, when the rest of the world had changed; he was +quite alone now--he must remember that--he had no son. And he, too, +went out, closing the door quietly behind him. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Some letters during this week:-- + + +23 SOUTHWICK CRESCENT, W., + _October_ 10, 1906. + +My dear Robin--I should have written before, I am ashamed of my +omission, but my approaching departure abroad has thrown a great many +things on my hands; I have a paper to finish for Clarkson and an essay +for the _New Review_, and letter-writing has been at a standstill. It +was delightful--that little peep of you that I got--and it only made me +regret the more that it is impossible to see much of you nowadays. I +cannot help feeling that there is a danger of vegetation if one limits +oneself too completely to a provincial life, and, charming though +Cornwall is, its very fascination causes one to forget the importance +of the outer world. I fancied that I discerned signs that you yourself +felt this confinement and wished for something broader. Well, why not +have it? I confess that I see no reason. Come up to London for a +time--go abroad--your beloved Germany is waiting for you, and a year at +one of the Universities would be both amusing and instructive. These +are only suggestions; I should hesitate to offer them at all were it +not that there has always been such sympathy between us that I know you +will not resent them. Of course, the arrival of your father has made +considerable difference. I must say, honestly, that I regretted to see +that you had not more in common. The fault, I expect, has been on both +sides; as I said to you before, it has been hard for him to realise +exactly what it is that we consider important. We--quite mistakenly +possibly--have come to feel that certain things, art, literature, +music, are absolutely essential to us, morally and physically. + +They are nothing at all to him, and I can quite understand that you +have found it difficult--almost impossible--to grasp his standpoint. I +must confess that he did not seem to me to attempt to consider yours; +but it is easy, and indeed impertinent, to criticise, and I hope that, +on the next occasion of your writing, I shall hear that things are +going smoothly and that the first inevitable awkwardnesses have worn +off. + +I must stop. I have let my pen wander away with me. But do consider +what I said about coming up to town; I am sure that it is bad for you +in every way--this burial. Think of your friends, old chap, and let +them see something of you.--Yours ever, + +LANCELOT RANDAL. + + + +"THE FLUTES," PENDRAGON, + _October_ 12, 1906. + +My dear Lance--Thanks very much for your letter. This mustn't pretend +to be anything of a letter. I have a thousand things to do, and no +time to do them. It was very delightful seeing you, and I, too, was +extremely sorry we could not see more of you. My aunt enjoyed your +visit enormously, and told me to remind you that you are expected here, +for a long stay, on your return from Germany. + +Yes, I was worried and am still. There are various things--"it never +rains but it pours"--but I cannot feel that they are in the least due +to my vegetating. I haven't the least intention of sticking here, but +my grandfather is, as you know, very ill, and it is impossible for me +to get away at present. + +Resent what you said! Why, no, of course not. We are too good friends +for resentment, and I am only too grateful for your advice. The +situation here at this moment is peculiarly Meredithian--and, although +one ought perhaps to be silent concerning it, I know that I can trust +you absolutely and I need your advice badly. Besides, I must speak to +some one about it; I have been thinking it over all day and am quite at +a loss. There was battle royal this morning after breakfast, and my +father was extremely rude to my aunt, acting apparently from quite +selfish motives. I want to look at it fairly, but I can, honestly, see +it in no other light. My aunt accused him of indifference with regard +to the family good name. She, quite rightly, I think, pointed out that +his behaviour from first to last had been the reverse of courteous to +herself and her friends, and she suggested that he had, perhaps, +scarcely realised the importance of maintaining the family dignity in +the eyes of Pendragon. You remember his continual absences and the +queer friendships that he formed. She suggested that he should modify +these, and take a little more interest in the circle to which we, +ourselves, belong. Surely there is nothing objectionable in all this; +indeed, I should have thought that he would have been grateful for her +advice. But no--he fired up in the most absurd manner, accused us of +unfairness and prejudice, declared his intention of going his own way, +and gave us all his congé. In fact, he was extremely rude to my aunt, +and I cannot forgive him for some of the things that he said. His +attitude has been absurd from the first, and I cannot see that we could +have acted otherwise, but the situation is now peculiar, and what will +come of it I don't know. I must dress for dinner--I am curious to see +whether he will appear--he was out for lunch. Let me have a line if +you have a spare moment. I scarcely know how to act.--Yours, + +ROBERT TROJAN. + + + +23 SOUTHWICK CRESCENT, W., + _October_ 14, 1906. + +Dear Robin--In furious haste, am just off and have really no time for +anything. I am more sorry than I can say to hear your news. I must +confess that I had feared something of the kind; matters seemed working +to a climax when I was with you. As to advice, it is almost +impossible; I really don't know what to say, it is so hard for me to +judge of all the circumstances. But it seems to me that your father +can have had no warrant for the course that he took. One is naturally +chary of delivering judgment in such a case, but it was, obviously, his +duty to adapt himself to his environment. He cannot blame you for +reminding him of that fact. Out of loyalty to your aunt, I do not see +that you can do anything until he has apologised. But I will think of +the matter further, and will write to you from abroad.--In great haste, +your friend, LANCELOT RANDAL. + + + +"THE FLUTES," PENDRAGON, CORNWALL, + _October_ 13, 1906. + +Dear Miss Feverel--I must apologise for forcing you to realise once +more my existence. Any reminder must necessarily be painful after our +last meeting, but I am writing this to request the return of all other +reminders of our acquaintance that you may happen to possess; I enclose +the locket, the ring, your letters, and the tie that you worked. We +discussed this matter the other day, but I cannot believe that you will +still hold to a determination that can serve no purpose, except perhaps +to embitter feelings on both sides. From what I have known of you I +cannot believe that you are indulging motives of revenge--but, +otherwise, I must confess that I am at a loss.--Expecting to receive +the letters by return, I am, yours truly, + +ROBERT TROJAN. + + + +9 SEA VIEW TERRACE, PENDRAGON, CORNWALL, + _October_ 14, 1906. + +Dear Mr. Trojan--Thank you for the locket, the ring, and the letters +which I have received. I regret that I must decline to part with the +letters; surely it is not strange that I should wish to keep +them.--Yours truly, DAHLIA FEVEREL. + + + +"THE FLUTES," + _October_ 15, 1906. + +What do you mean? You have no right to them. They are mine. I wrote +them. You serve no purpose by keeping them. Please return them at +once--by return. I have done nothing to deserve this. Unless you +return them, I shall know that you are merely an intriguing--; no, I +don't mean that. Please send them back. Suppose they should be +seen?--In haste, R. T. + + + +9 SEA VIEW TERRACE, PENDRAGON, CORNWALL, + _October_ 15, 1906. + +My decision is unalterable. + +D. F. + + + +But Dahlia sat in the dreary little drawing-room watching the grey sea +with a white face and hard, staring eyes. + +She had sat there all day. She thought that soon she would go mad. +She had not slept since her last meeting with Robin; she had scarcely +eaten--she was too tired to think. + +The days had been interminable. At first she had waited, expecting +that he would come back. A hundred impulses had been at work. At +first she had thought that she would go and tell him that she had not +meant what she said; she would persuade him to come back, She would +offer him the letters and tell him that she had meant nothing--they had +been idle words. But then she remembered some of the things that he +had said, some of the stones that he had flung. She was not good +enough for him or his family; she had no right to expect that an +alliance was ever possible. His family despised her. And then her +thoughts turned from Robin to his family. She had seen Clare often +enough and had always disliked her. But now she hated her so that she +could have gladly killed her. It was at her door that she laid all the +change in Robin and her own misery. She felt that she would do +anything in the world to cause her pain. She brooded over it in the +shabby little room with her face turned to the sea. How could she hurt +her? There were the others, too--the rest of the family--all except +Robin's father, who was, she felt instinctively, different. She +thought that he would not have acted in that way. And then her +thoughts turned back to Robin, and for a moment she fancied that she +hated him, and then she knew that she still loved him--and she stared +at the grey sea with misery in her heart and a dull, sombre confusion +in her brain. No, she did not hate Robin, she did not really want to +hurt him. How could she, when they had had those wonderful months +together? Those months that seemed such centuries and centuries away. +But, nevertheless, she kept the letters. Her mother had talked about +them, had advised her to keep them. She did not mean to do anything +very definite with them--she could not look ahead very far--but she +would keep them for a little. + +When she had seen Robin's handwriting again it had been almost more +than she could bear. For some time she had been unable to tear open +the envelope and speculated, confusedly, on the contents. Perhaps he +had repented. She judged him by her own days and nights of utter +misery and knew that, had it been herself, they would have driven her +back crying to his feet. Perhaps it was to ask for another interview. +That she would refuse. She felt that she could not endure another such +meeting as their last; if he were to come to her without warning, to +surprise her suddenly--her heart beat furiously at the thought; but the +deliberate meeting merely for the purpose of his own advantage--no! + +She opened the letter, read the cold lines, and knew that it was +utterly the end. She had fancied, at their last meeting, that her +love, like a bird shot through the heart, had fallen at his feet, dead; +then, after those days of his absence, his figure had grown in her +sight, glorified, resplendent, and love had revived again--now, with +this letter she knew that it was over. She did not cry, she scarcely +moved. She watched the sea, with the letter on her lap, and felt that +a new Dahlia Feverel, a woman who would traffic no longer with +sentiment, who knew the world for what it was--a hard, merciless prison +with fiends for its gaolers--had sprung to birth. + +She replied to him and showed her mother her answer. She scarcely +listened to Mrs. Feverel's comments and went about her daily affairs, +quietly, without confusion. She saw herself and Robin like figures in +a play--she applauded the comedy and the tragedy left her unmoved. +Robin Trojan had much to answer for. + +He read her second letter with dismay. He had spent the day in +solitary confinement in his room, turning the situation round and round +in his mind, lost in a perfect labyrinth of suggested remedies, none of +which afforded him any outlet. The thought of exposure was horrible; +anything must be done to avoid that--disgrace to himself was bad +enough; to be held up for laughter before his Cambridge friends, +Randal, his London acquaintances--but disgrace to the family! That was +the awful thing! + +From his cradle this creed of the family had been taught him; he had +learnt it so thoroughly that he had grown to test everything by that +standard; it was his father's disloyalty to that creed that had roused +the son's anger--and now, behold, the son was sinning more than the +father! It was truly ironic that, three days after his attacking a +member of the family for betraying the family, he himself should be +guilty of far greater betrayal! How topsy-turvy the world seemed, and +what was to be done? + +The brevity and conciseness of Dahlia's last letter left him in no +doubt as to her intentions. Breach of Promise! The letters would be +read in court, would be printed in the newspapers for all the world to +see. With youth's easy grasping of eternity, it seemed to him that his +disgrace would be for ever. Beddoes' "Death's Jest-book" was lying +open on his knee. Wolfram's song-- + + Old Adam, the carrion crow, + The old crow of Cairo; + He sat in the shower, and let it flow + Under his tail and over his crest; + And through every feather + Leaked the wet weather; + And the bough swung under his nest; + For his beak it was heavy with marrow. + Is that the wind dying? Oh no; + It's only two devils, that blow + Through a murderer's bones, to and fro, + In the ghost's moonshine-- + +had always seemed to him the most madly sinister verse in English +literature. It had been read to him by Randal at Cambridge and had had +a curious fascination for him from the first. He had found that the +little bookseller at Worms had known it and had indeed claimed Beddoes +for a German--now it seemed to warn him vaguely of impending disaster. + +He did not see that he himself could act any further in the matter; she +would not see him and writing was useless. And yet to leave the matter +uncertain, waiting for the blow to fall, with no knowledge of the +movements in the other camp, was not to be thought of. He must do +something. + +The moment had arrived when advice must be taken--but from whom? His +father was out of the question. It was three days since the explosion, +and there was an armed truce. He had, in spite of himself, admired his +father's conduct during the last three days, and he was surprised to +find that it was his aunt and uncle rather than his father who had +failed to carry off the situation. He refused as yet to admit it to +himself, but the three of them, his aunt, his uncle, and himself, had +seemed almost frightened. His father was another person; stern, cold, +unfailingly polite, suddenly apparently possessed of those little +courtesies in which he had seemed before so singularly lacking. There +had been conversation of a kind at meals, and it had always been his +father who had filled awkward pauses and avoided difficult moments. +The knowledge, too, that his father would, in a few months' time, be +head of the house, was borne in upon him with new force; it might be +unpleasant, but it would not, as he had formerly fancied, be ludicrous. +A sign of his changed attitude was the fact that he rather resented +Randal's letter and wished a little that he had not taken him into his +confidence. + +Nevertheless, to ask advice of his father was impossible. He must +speak to his uncle and aunt. How hard this would be only he himself +knew. He had never in their eyes failed, in any degree, towards the +family honour. From whatever side the House might be attacked, it +would not be through him. There was nothing in his past life, they +thought, at which they would not care to look. + +He realised, too, Clare's love for him. He had known from very early +days that he counted for everything in her life; that her faith in the +family centred in his own honour and that her hopes for the family were +founded completely in his own progress--and now he must tell her this. + +He could not, he knew, have chosen a more unfortunate time. The House +had already been threatened by the conduct of the father; it was now to +totter under blows dealt by the son. The first crisis had been severe, +this would be infinitely more so. He hated himself for the first time +in his life, and, in doing so, began for the first time to realise +himself a little. + +Well, he must speak to them and ask them what was to be done, and the +sooner it was over the better. He put the Beddoes back into the shelf, +and went to the windows. It was already dark; light twinkled in the +bay, and a line of white breakers flashed and vanished, keeping time, +it seemed, with the changing gleam of the lighthouse far out to sea. +His own room was dark, save for the glow of the fire. They would be at +tea; probably his father would not be there--the present would be a +good time to choose. He pulled his courage together and went +downstairs. + +As he had expected, Garrett was having tea with Clare in her own +room--the Castle of Intimacy, as Randal had once called it. Garrett +was reading; Clare was sitting by the fire, thinking. + +"She will soon have more to think about," thought Robin wretchedly. + +She looked up as he came in. "Ah, Robin, that's splendid! I was just +going to send up for you. Come and sit here and talk to me. I've +hardly seen you to-day." + +She had been very affectionate during the last three days--rather too +affectionate, Robin thought. He liked her better when she was less +demonstrative. + +"Where have you been all the afternoon?" + +"In my room. I've been busy." + +"Tea? You don't mind it strong, do you, because it's been here a good +long time? Gingerbread cake especially for you." + +But gingerbread cake wasn't in the least attractive. Beddoes suited +him much better:-- + + Is that the wind dying? Oh no; + It's only two devils, that blow + Through a murderer's bones, to and fro, + In the ghost's moonshine. + + +"Do you know Beddoes, aunt?" + +"No, dear. What kind of thing is it? Poetry?" + +"Yes. You wouldn't like it, though----only I've been reading him this +afternoon. He suited my mood." + +"Boys of your age shouldn't have moods." This from Garrett. "I never +had." + +Robin took his tea without answering, and sat down on the opposite side +of the fire to his aunt. How was he to begin? What was he to say? +There followed an awful pause--life seemed to have been full of pauses +lately. + +Clare was watching him anxiously. How had his father's outbreak +affected him? She was afraid, from little things that she had seen, +that he had been influenced. Harry had been so different those last +three days--she could not understand it. She watched him eagerly, +hungrily. Why was he not still the baby that she could take on her +knees and kiss and sentimentalise over? He, too, she fancied, had been +different during these last days. + +"More tea, Robin? You'd better--it's a long while before dinner." + +"No, thanks, aunt. I--that is--well, I've something I wanted to say." + +He turned round in his chair and faced the fire. He would rather not +look at her whilst he was speaking. Garrett put down his book and +looked up. Was there going to be more worry? What had happened lately +to the world? It seemed to have lost all proper respect for the Trojan +position. He could not understand it. Clare drew her breath sharply. +Her fears thronged about her, like shadows in the firelight--what was +it? ... Was it Harry? + +"What about, Robin? Is anything the matter?" + +"Why, no--nothing really--it's only--that is--Oh, dash it all--it's +awfully difficult." + +There was another silence. The ticking of the clock drove Robin into +further speech. + +"Well--I've made a bit of a mess. I've been rather a fool and I want +your advice." + +Another pause, but no assistance save a cold "Well?" from Garrett. + +"You see it was at Cambridge, last summer. I was an awful fool, I +know, but I really didn't know how far it was going until--well, until +afterwards----" + +"Until--after what?" said Garrett. "Would you mind being a little +clearer, Robin?" + +"Well, it was a girl." Robin stopped. It sounded so horrible, spoken +like that in cold blood. He did not dare to look at his aunt, but he +wondered what her face was like. He pulled desperately at his tie, and +hurried on. "Nothing very bad, you know. I meant, at first, anyhow--I +met her at another man's--Grant of Clare--quite a good chap, and he +gave a picnic--canaders and things up the river. We had a jolly +afternoon and she seemed awfully nice and--her mother wasn't there. +Then--after that--I saw a lot of her. Every one does at Cambridge--I +mean see girls and all that kind of thing--and I didn't think anything +of it--and she really _seemed_ awfully nice then. There isn't much to +do at Cambridge, except that sort of thing--really. Then, after term, +I came down here, and I began to write. I'm afraid I was a bit silly, +but I didn't know it then, and I used to write her letters pretty +often, and she answered them. And--well, you know the sort of thing, +Uncle Garrett--I thought I loved her----" + +At this climax, Robin came to a pause, and hoped that they would help +him, but they said no word until, at last, Garrett said impatiently, +"Go on." + +"Well," continued Robin desperately, "that's really all--" knowing, +however, that he had not yet arrived at the point of the story. +"She--and her mother--came down to live here--and then, somehow, I +didn't like her quite so much. It seemed different down here, and her +mother was horrid. I began to see it differently, and at last, one +night, I told her so. Of course, I thought, naturally, that she would +understand. But she didn't--her mother was horrid--and she made a +scene--it was all very unpleasant." Robin was dragging his +handkerchief between his fingers, and looking imploringly at the fire. +"Then I went and saw her again and asked her for--my letters--she said +she'd keep them--and I'm afraid she may use them--and--well, that's +all," he finished lamely. + +He thought that hours of terrible silence followed his speech. He sat +motionless in his chair waiting for their words. He was rather glad +now that he had spoken. It had been a relief to unburden himself; for +so many days he had only had his own thoughts and suggestions to apply +to the situation. But he was afraid to look at his aunt. + +"You young fool," at last from Garrett. "Who is the girl?" + +"A Miss Feverel--she lives with her mother at Sea view Terrace--there +is no father." + +"Miss Feverel? What! That girl! You wrote to her! You----" + +At last his aunt had spoken. He had never heard her speak like that +before--the "You!" was a cry of horror. She suddenly got up and went +over to him. She bent over him where he sat, with head lowered, and +shook him by the shoulder. + +"Robin! It can't be true--you haven't written to that girl! Not +love-letters! It is incredible!" + +"It is true--" he said, looking up. "Don't look at me like that, Aunt +Clare. It isn't so bad--other fellows----" but then he was ashamed and +stopped. He would leave his defence alone. + +"Is that all?" said Garrett. "All you have done, I mean? You haven't +injured the girl?" + +"I swear that's all," Robin said eagerly. "I meant no harm by it. I +wrote the letters without thinking I----" + +Clare stood leaning on the mantelpiece, her head between her hands. + +"I can't understand it. I can't understand it," she said. "It isn't +like you--not a bit. That girl and you--why, it's incredible!" + +"That's only because you had your fancy idea of him, Clare," said +Garrett. "We'd better pass the lamentation stage and decide what's to +be done." + +For once Garrett seemed practical; he was pleased with himself for +being so. It had suddenly occurred to him that he was the only person +who could really deal with the situation. Clare was a woman, Harry was +out of the question, Robin was a boy. + +"Have you spoken to your father?" he asked. + +"No. Of course not!" Robin answered, rather fiercely. "How could I?" + +Clare went back to her chair. "That girl! But, Robin, she's +plain--quite--and her manners, her mother--everything impossible!" + +It was still incredible that Robin, the work of her hands as it were, +into whom she had poured all things that were lovely and of good +report, could have made love to an ordinary girl of the middle +classes--a vulgar girl with a still more vulgar mother. + +But in spite of her vulgarity she was jealous of her. "You don't care +for her any longer, Robin?" + +"Now?--oh no--not for a long time--I don't think I ever did really. I +can't think how I was ever such a fool." + +"She still threatens Breach of Promise," said Garrett, whose mind was +slowly working as to the best means of proving his practical utility. +"That's the point, of course. That the letters are there and that we +have got to get them back. What kind of letters were they? Did you +actually give her hopes?" + +Robin blushed. "Yes, I'm afraid I did--as well as I can remember, and +judging by her answers. I said the usual sort of things----" He +paused. It was best, he felt, to leave it vague. + +But Clare had scarcely arrived at the danger of it yet--the danger to +the House. Her present thought was of Robin; that she must alter her +feelings about him, take him from his pedestal--a Trojan who could make +love to any kind of girl! + +"I can't think of it now," she said; "it's confusing. We must see +what's to be done. We'll talk about it some other time. It's hard to +see just at present." + +Garrett looked puzzled. "It's a bit of a mess," he said. "But we'll +see----" and left the room with an air of importance. + +Robin turned to go, and then walked over to his aunt, and put his hand +on her sleeve. + +"Don't think me such a rotter," he said. "I am awfully sorry--it's +about you that I care most--but I've learnt a lesson; I'll never do +anything like that again." + +She smiled up at him, and took his hand in hers. + +"Why, old boy, no. Of course I was a little surprised. But I don't +mind very much if you care for me in the same way. That's all I have, +Robin--your caring; and I don't think it matters very much what you do, +if I still have that." + +"Of course you have," he said, and bent down and kissed her. Then he +left the room. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +"I'm worse to-day," said Sir Jeremy, looking at Harry, "and I'll be off +under a month." + +He seemed rather pathetic--the brave look had gone from his eyes, and +his face and hands were more shrivelled than ever. He gave the +impression of cowering in bed as though wishing to avoid a blow. Harry +was with him continually now, and the old man was never happy if his +son was not there. He rambled at times and fancied himself back in his +youth again. Harry had found his father's room a refuge from the +family, and he sat, hour after hour, watching the old man asleep, +thinking of his own succession and puzzling over the hopeless tangle +that seemed to surround him. How to get out of it! He had no longer +any thought of turning his back; he had gone too far for that, and they +would think it cowardice, but things couldn't remain as they were. +What would come out of it? + +He had, as Robin had said, changed. The effect of the explosion had +been to reveal in him qualities whose very existence he had formerly +never expected. He even found, strangely enough, a kind of joy in the +affair. It was like playing a game. He had made, he felt, the right +move and was in the stronger position. In earlier days he had never +been able to quarrel with any one. Whenever such a thing had happened, +he had been the first to make overtures; he hated the idea of an enemy, +his happiness depended on his friends, and sometimes now, when he saw +his own people's hostility, he was near surrender. But the memory of +his sister's words had held him firm, and now he was beginning to feel +in tune with the situation. + +He watched Robin furtively at times and wondered how he was taking it +all. Sometimes he fancied that he caught glances that pointed to +Robin's own desire to see how _he_ was taking it. Once they had passed +on the stairs, and for a moment they had both paused as though they +would speak. It had been all Harry could do to restrain himself from +flinging his arms on to his son's shoulders and shaking him for a fool +and then forcing him into surrender, but he had held himself back, and +they had passed on without a word. + +After all, what children they all were! That's what it came +to--children playing a game that they did not understand! + +"I wish it would end," said Sir Jeremy; "I'm getting damned sick of it. +Why can't he take you out straight away, and be done with it? Do you +know, Harry, my boy, I think I'm frightened. It's lying here thinking +of it. I never had much imagination--it isn't a Trojan habit, but it +grows on one. I fancy--well, what's the use o' talking?" and he sank +back into his pillows again. + +The room was dark save for the leaping light of the fire. It was +almost time to dress for dinner, but Harry sat there, forgetting time +and place in the unchanging question, How would it all work out? + +"By Gad, it's Tom! Hullo, old man, I was just thinking of you. Comin' +round to Horrocks' to-night for a game? Supper at Galiani's--but it's +damned cold. I don't know where that sun's got to. I've been +wandering up and down the street all day and I can't find the place. +I've forgotten the number--I can't remember whether it was 23 or 33, +and I keep getting into that passage. There I am again! Bring a +light, old man--it's so dark. What's that? Who's there? Can't you +answer? Darn you, come out, you----" He sat up in bed, quivering all +over. Harry put his hand on his arm. + +"It's all right, father," he said. "No one's here--only myself." + +"Ugh! I was dreaming--" he answered, lying down again. "Let's have +some light--not that electric glare. Candles!" + +Harry was sitting in the corner by the bed away from the fire. He was +about to rise and move the candles into a clump on the mantelpiece when +there was a tap on the door and some one came in. It was Robin. + +"Grandfather, are you awake? Aunt Clare told me to look in on my way +up to dress and see if you wanted anything?" + +The firelight was on his face. He looked very young as he stood there +by the bed. His face was flushed in the light of the fire. Harry's +heart beat furiously, but he made no movement and said no word. + +Robin bent over the bed to catch his grandfather's answer, and he saw +his father. + +"I beg your pardon." he stammered. "I didn't know----" He waited for +a moment as though he were going to say something, or expected his +father to speak. Then he turned and left the room. + +"Let's have the candles," said Sir Jeremy, as though he had not noticed +the interruption, and Harry lit them. + +The old man sank off to sleep again, and Harry fell back into his own +gloomy thoughts once more. They were always meeting like that, and on +each occasion there was need for the same severe self-control. He had +to remind himself continually of their treatment of him, of Robin's +coldness and reserve. At times he cursed himself for a fool, and then +again it seemed the only way out of the labyrinth. + +His love for his son had changed its character. He had no longer that +desire for equality of which he had made, at first, so much. No, the +two generations could never see in line; he must not expect that. But +he thought of Robin as a boy--as a boy who had made blunders and would +make others again, and would at last turn to his father as the only +person who could help him. He had fancied once or twice that he had +already begun to turn. + +Well, he would be there if Robin wanted him. He had decided to speak +to Mary about it. Her clear common-sense point of view seemed to +drive, like the sun, through the mists of his obscurity; she always saw +straight through things--never round them--and her practical mind +arrived at a quicker solution than was possible for his rather +romantic, quixotic sentiment. + +"You are too fond of discerning pleasant motives," she had once said to +him. "I daresay they are all right, but it takes such a time to see +them." + +He had not seen her since the outbreak, and he was rather anxious as to +her opinion; but the main thing was to be with her. Since last Sunday +he had been, he confessed to himself, absurd. He had behaved more in +the manner of a boy of nineteen than a middle-aged widower of +forty-five. He had been suddenly afraid of the Bethels--going to tea +had seemed such an obvious advance on his part that he had shrunk from +it, and he had even avoided Bethel lest that gentleman should imagine +that he was on the edge of a proposal for his daughter's hand. He +thought that all the world must know of it, and he blushed like a girl +at the thought of its being laid bare for Pendragon to laugh and gibe +it. It was so precious, so wonderful, that he kept it, like a rich +piece of jewellery, deep in a secret drawer, over which he watched +delightedly, almost humorously, secure in the delicious knowledge that +he alone had the key. He wandered out at night, like a foolish +schoolboy, to watch the lamp in her room--that dull circle of golden +light against the blind seemed to draw him with it into the intimacy +and security of her room. + +On one of his solitary afternoon walks he suddenly came upon her. He +had gone, as he so often did, over the moor to the Four Stones; he +chose that place partly because of the Stones themselves and partly +because of the wonderful view. It seemed to him that the whole heart +of Cornwall--its mystery, its eternal sameness, its rejection of +everything that was modern and ephemeral, the pathos of old deserted +altars and past gods searching for their old-time worshippers--was +centred there. + +The Stones themselves stood on the hill, against the sky, gaunt, grey, +menacing, a landmark for all the country-side. The moor ran here into +a valley between two lines of hill, a cup bounded on three sides by the +hills and on the fourth by the sea. In the spring it flamed, a bowl of +fire, with the gorse; now it stood grim and naked to all the winds, +blue in the distant hills, a deep red to the right, where the plough +had been, brown and grey on the moor itself running down to the sea. + +It was full of deserted things, as is ever the way with the true +Cornwall. On the hill were the Stones sharp against the sky-line; +lower down, in a bend of the valley, stood the ruins of a mine, the +shaft and chimney, desolately solitary, looking like the pillars of +some ancient temple that had been fashioned by uncouth worshippers. In +the valley itself stood the stones of what was once a chapel--built, +perhaps, for the men of the desolate mine, inhabited now by rabbits and +birds, its windows spaces where the winds that swept the moor could +play their eternal, restless games. + +On a day of clouds there was no colour on the moor, but when the sun +was out great bands of light swept its surface, playing on the Stones +and changing them to marble, striking colour from the mine and filling +the chapel with gold. But the sun did not reach that valley on many +days when the rest of the world was alight--it was as if it respected +the loneliness of its monuments and the pathos of them. + +Harry sat on the side of the hill, below the Stones, and watched the +sea. At times a mist came and hid it; on sunny days, when the sky was +intensely blue, there hung a dazzling haze like a golden veil and he +could only tell that the sea was there by the sudden gleam of tiny +white horses, flashing for a moment on the mirror of blue and shining +through the haze; sometimes a gull swerved through the air above his +head as though a wave had lost its bounds and, for sheer joy of the +beautiful day, had flung itself tossing and wheeling into the air. + +But to-day was a day of wind and rapidly sailing clouds, and myriads of +white horses curved and tossed and vanished over the shifting colours +of the sea; there were wonderful shadows of dark blue and purple and +green of such depth that they seemed unfathomable. + +Suddenly he saw Mary coming towards him. A scarf--green like the green +of the sea--was tied round her hat and under her chin and floated +behind her. Her dress was blown against her body, and she walked as +though she loved the battling with the wind. Her face was flushed with +the struggle, and she had come up to him before she saw that he was +there. + +"Now, that's luck," she said, laughing, as she sat down beside him; +"I've been wanting to see you ever since yesterday afternoon, but you +seemed to have hidden yourself. It doesn't sound a very long time, +does it? But I've something to tell you--rather important." + +"What?" He looked at her and suddenly laughed. "What a splendid place +for us to meet--its solitude is almost unreal." + +"As to solitude," she said calmly, pointing down the valley. "There's +Tracy Corridor; it will be all over the Club to-night--he's been +watching us for some time"; a long thin youth, his head turned in their +direction, had passed down the footpath towards its ruined chapel, and +was rapidly vanishing in the direction of Pendragon. + +"Well--let them," said Harry, shrugging his shoulders. "You don't +mind, do you?" + +"Not a bit," she answered lightly. "They've discussed the Bethel +family so frequently and with such vigour that a little more or less +makes no difference whatsoever. Pendragon taboo! we won't dishonour +the sea by such a discussion in its sacred presence." + +"What do you want to tell me?" he asked, watching delightedly the +colour of her face, the stray curls that the wind dragged from +discipline and played games with, the curve of her wrist as her hand +lay idly in her lap. + +"Oh, it'll keep," she said quickly. "Never mind just yet. Tell me +about yourself--what's happened?" + +"How did you know that anything had?" he asked. + +"Oh, one can tell," she answered. "Besides, I have felt sure that it +would, things couldn't go on just as they were----" she paused a moment +and then added seriously, "I hope you don't mind my asking? It seems a +little impertinent--but that was part of the compact, wasn't it?" + +"Why, of course," he said. + +"Because, you know," she went on, "it's really rather absurd. I'm only +twenty-six, and you're--oh! I don't know _how_ old!--anyhow an elderly +widower with a grown-up son; but I'm every bit as old as you are, +really. And I'm sure I shall give you lots of good advice, because +you've no idea what a truly practical person I am. Only sometimes +lately I've wondered whether you've been a little surprised at my--our +flinging ourselves into your arms as we have done. It's like +father--he always goes the whole way in the first minute; but it isn't, +or at any rate it oughtn't to be, like me!" + +"You are," he said quietly, "the best friend I have in the world. How +much that means to me I will tell you one day." + +"That's right," she said gaily, settling herself down with her hands +folded behind her head. "Now for the situation. I'm all attention." + +"Well," he answered, "the situation is simple enough--it's the next +move that's puzzling me. There was, four days ago, an explosion--it +was after breakfast--a family council--and I was in a minority of one. +I was accused of a good many things--going down to the Cove, paying no +attention to the Miss Ponsonbys, and so on. They attacked me as I +thought unfairly, and I lost control--on the whole, I am sure, wisely. +I wasn't very rude, but I said quite plainly that I should go my own +way in the future and would be dictated to by no one. At any rate they +understand that." + +"And now?" + +"Ah, now--well--it's as you would expect. We are quite polite but +hostile. Robin and I don't speak. The new game--Father and Son; or +how to cut your nearest relations with expedition and security." He +laughed bitterly. + +"Oh, I should like to shake him!" she cried, sitting up and flinging +her arms wide, as though she were saluting the sea. "He doesn't know, +he doesn't understand! Neither himself nor any one else. Oh, I will +talk to him some day! But, do you know," she said, turning round to +him, "it's been largely your fault from the beginning." + +"Oh, I know," he answered. "If I had only seen then what I see now. +But how could I? How could I tell? But I always have been that kind +of man, all my days--finding out things when it's too late and wanting +to mend things that are hopelessly broken. And then I have always been +impulsive and enthusiastic about people. When I meet them first, I +mean, I like them and credit them with all the virtues, and then, of +course, there is an awakening. Oh, you don't know," he said, with a +little laugh, "how enthusiastic I was when I first came back." + +"Yes, I do," she answered; "that was one of the reasons I took to you." + +"But it isn't right," he said, shaking his head. "I've always been +like that. It's been the same with my friendships. I've rated them +too highly. I've expected everything and then cried like a child +because I've been disappointed. I can see now not only the folly of +it, but the weakness. It is, I suppose, a mistake, caring too much for +other people, one loses one's self-respect." + +"Yes," she said, staring out to sea, "it's quite true--one does. The +world's too hard; it doesn't give one credit for fine feelings--it +takes a short cut and thinks one a fool." + +"But the worst of it is," he went on ruefully, "that I never feel any +older. I have those enthusiasms and that romance in the same way now +at forty-five--just as I did at nineteen. I never could bear +quarrelling with anybody. I used to go and apologise even when it +wasn't my fault--so that, you see, the present situation is difficult." + +"Ah, but you must keep your end up," she broke in quickly. "It's the +only way--don't give in. Robin is just like that. He is self-centred, +all shams now, and when he sees that you are taken in by them, just as +he is himself, he despises you. But when he sees you laugh at them or +cut them down, then he respects you. I'm the only person, I think, +that knows him really here. The others haven't grasped him at all." + +"My father grows worse every day," Harry went on, as though pursuing +his own train of thought. "He can't last much longer, and when he goes +I shall miss him terribly. We have understood each other during this +fortnight as we never did in all those early years. Sometimes I funk +it utterly--following him with all of them against me." + +"Why, no," she cried. "It's splendid. You are in power. They can do +nothing, and Robin will come round when he sees how you face it out. +Why, I expect that he's coming already. I've faced things out here all +these years, and you dare to say that you can't stand a few months of +it." + +"What have you faced?" he asked. "Tell me exactly. I want to know all +about you; you've never told me very much, and it's only fair that I +should know." + +"Yes," she said gravely, "it is--well, you shall!--at least a part of +it. A woman always keeps a little back," she said, looking at him with +a smile. "As soon as she ceases to be a puzzle she ceases to interest." + +She turned and watched the sea. Then, after a moment's pause, she said: + +"What do you want to know? I can only give you bits of things--when, +for instance, I ran away from my nurse, aged five, was picked up by an +applewoman with a green umbrella who introduced me to three old ladies +with black pipes and moustaches--I was found in a coal cellar. Then we +lived in Bloomsbury--a little house looking out on to a little green +park--all in miniature it seems on looking back. I don't think that I +was a very good child, but they didn't look after me very much. Mother +was always out, and father in business. Fancy," she said, laughing, +"father in business! We were happy then, I think, all of us. Then +came the terrible time when father ran away." + +"Ah, yes," Harry said, "he told me." + +"Poor mother! it was quite dreadful; I was only eight then, and I +didn't understand. But she sat up all night waiting for him. She was +persuaded that he was killed, and she was very ill. You see he had +never left any word as to where he was. And then he suddenly turned up +again, and ate an enormous breakfast, as though nothing had happened. +I don't think he realised a bit that she had worried. + +"It was so like him, the naked selfishness of it and the utter +unresponsibility, as of a child. + +"Then I went to school--in Bloomsbury somewhere. It was a Miss Pinker, +and she was interested in me. Poor thing, her school failed +afterwards. I don't know quite why, but she never could manage, and I +don't think parents ever paid her. I had great ideas of myself then; I +thought that I would be great, an actress or a novelist, but I got rid +of all that soon enough. I was happy; we had friends, and luxuries +were rare enough to make them valuable. Then--we came down here--this +sea, this town, this moor--Oh! how I hate them!" + +Her hands were clenched and her face was white. "It isn't fair; they +have taken everything from me--leisure, brain, friends. I have had to +slave ever since I came here to make both ends meet. Ah! you never +knew that, did you? But father has never done a stroke of work since +he has been here, and mother has never been the same since that night +when he ran away; so I've had it all--and it has been scrape, scrape, +scrape all the time. You don't know the tyranny of butter and eggs and +vegetables, the perpetual struggle to turn twice two into five, the +unending worry about keeping up appearances--although, for us, it +mattered precious little, people never came to see if appearances were +kept. + +"They called at first; I think they meant to be kind, but father was +sometimes rude and never seemed to know whether he had met a person +before or no. Then he was idle, they thought, and they disliked him +for that. We gave some little parties, but they failed miserably, and +at last people always refused. And, really, it was rather a good +thing, because we hadn't got the money. I suppose I'm a bad manager; +at any rate, whatever it is, things have been getting worse and worse, +and one day soon there'll be an explosion, and that will be the end. +We're up to our eyes in debt. I try to talk to father about it, but he +waves it away with his hand. They have, neither of them, the least +idea of money. You see, father doesn't need very much himself, except +for buying books. He had ten pounds last week--housekeeping money to +be given to me; he saw an edition of something that he wanted, and the +money was gone. We've been living on cabbages ever since. That's the +kind of thing that's always happening. I wanted to talk to him about +things this morning, but he said that he had an important engagement. +Now he's out on the moor somewhere flying his kite----" + +She was leaning forward, her chin on her hand, staring out to sea. + +"It takes the beans out of life, doesn't it?" she said, laughing. "You +must think me rather a poor thing for complaining like this, only it +does some good sometimes to get rid of it, and really at times I'm +frightened when I think of the end, the disgrace. If we are proclaimed +bankrupts it will kill mother. Father, of course, will soon get over +it." + +"I say--I'm so sorry." Harry scarcely knew what to say. She was not +asking for sympathy; he saw precisely her position--that she was too +proud to ask for his help, but that she must speak. No, sympathy was +not what she wanted. He suddenly hated Bethel--the selfishness of it, +the hopeless egotism. It was, Harry decided, the fools and not the +villains who spoilt life. + +"I want you to do me a favour," he said. "I want you to promise me +that, before the end actually comes, if it is going to come, you will +ask me to help you. I won't offer to do anything now--I will stand +aside until you want me; but you won't be proud if it comes to the +worst, will you? Do you promise? You see," he added, trying to laugh +lightly, "we are chums." + +"Yes," she answered quietly, "I promise. Here's my hand on it." + +As he took her hand in his it was all he could do to hold himself back. +A great wave of passion seized him, his body trembled from head to +foot, and he grew very white. He was crying, "I love you, I love you, +I love you," but he kept the words from his lips--he would not speak +yet. + +"Thank you," was all that he said, and he stood up to hide his +agitation. + +For a little they did not speak. They both felt that, in that moment, +they had touched on things that were too sacred for speech; he seemed +so strong, so splendid in her eyes, as he stood there, facing the sea, +that she was suddenly afraid. + +"Let us go back," she said. They turned down the crooked path towards +the ruined chapel. + +"What was the news that you had for me?" he asked suddenly. + +"Why, of course," she answered; "I meant to have told you before." +Then, more gravely, "It's about Robin----" + +"About Robin?" + +"Yes. I don't know really whether I ought to tell you, because, after +all, it's only chatter and mother never gets stories right--she manages +to twist them into the most amazing shapes." + +"No. Tell me," he insisted. + +"Well--there's a person whom mother knows--Mrs. Feverel. Odious to my +mind, but mother sees something of her." + +"A lady?" + +"No--by no means; a gloomy, forbidding person who would like to get a +footing here if she could, and is discontented because people won't +know her. You see," she added, "we can only know the people that other +people don't know. This Mrs. Feverel has a daughter--rather a pretty +girl, about eighteen--I should think she might be rather nice. I am a +little sorry for her--there isn't a father. + +"Well--these people have, in some way, entangled Robin. I don't quite +know the right side of it, but mother was having tea with Mrs. Feverel +yesterday afternoon and that good woman hinted a great deal at the +power that she now had over your family. For some time she was +mysterious, but at last she unburdened herself. + +"Apparently, Master Robin had been making advances to the girl in the +summer, and now wants to back out of it. He had, I gather, written +letters, and it was to these that Mrs. Feverel was referring----" + +Harry drew a long breath. "I'm damned," he said. + +"Oh, of course, I don't know," she went on; "you see, it may have been +garbled. Mrs. Feverel is, I should think, just the person to hint +suspicions for which there's no ground at all. Only it won't do if +she's going to whisper to every one in Pendragon--I thought you ought +to be warned----" + +Harry was thinking hard. "The young fool," he said. "But it's just +what I've been wanting. This is just where I can come in. I knew +something has been worrying him lately. I could see it. I believe +he's been in two minds as to telling me--only he's been too proud. +But, of course, he will have to tell some one. A youngster like that +is no match for a girl and her mother of the class these people seem to +be. He will confide in his aunt--" He stopped and burst into +uncontrollable laughter. "Oh! The humour of it--don't you see? +They'll be terrified--it will threaten the honour of the House. They +will all go running round to get the letters back; that girl will have +a good time--and that, of course, is just where I come in." + +"I don't see," said Mary. + +"Why, it's just what I've been watching for. Harry Trojan +arrives--Harry Trojan is no good--Harry Trojan is despised--but +suddenly he holds the key to the situation. Presto! The family on +their knees----" + +Mary looked at him in astonishment. It was, she thought, unlike him to +exult like this over the misfortunes of his sister; she was a little +disappointed. "It is really rather serious," she said, "for your +sister, I mean. You know what Pendragon is. If they once get wind of +the affair there will be a great deal of talk." + +"Ah, yes!" he said gravely. "You mustn't think me a brute for laughing +like that. But I'm thinking of Robin. If you knew how I cared for the +boy--what this means. Why, it brings him to my feet--if I carry the +thing out properly." Then quickly, "You don't think they've got back +the letters already?" + +"They haven't had time--unless they've gone to-day. Besides, the +girl's not likely to give them up easily. But, of course, I don't +really know if that's how the case lies--mother's account was very +confused. Only I am certain that Mrs. Feverel thinks she has a pull +somewhere; and she said something about letters." + +"I will go at once," Harry said, walking quickly. "I can never be +grateful enough to you. Where do they live?" + +"10 Seaview Terrace," she answered. "A little dingy street past the +church and Breadwater Place--it faces the sea." + +"And the girl--what is she like?" + +"I've only seen her about twice. I should say tall, thin, dark--rather +wonderful eyes in a very pale face; dresses rather well in an aesthetic +kind of way." + +He said very little more, and she did not interrupt his thoughts. She +was surprised to find that she was a little jealous of Robin, the +interest in her own affairs had been very sweet to her, the remembrance +of it now sent the blood to her cheeks, but this news seemed to have +driven his thought for her entirely out of his head. + +Suddenly, at the bend of the little lane leading up to the town, they +came upon her father, flying a huge blue kite. The kite soared above +his head; he watched it, his body bent back, his arm straining at the +cord. He saw them and pulled it in. + +"Hullo! Trojan, how are you? You ought to do this. It's the most +splendid fun--you've no idea. This wind is glorious. I shan't be home +till dark, Mary----" and they left him, laughing like a boy. She gave +him further directions as to the house, and they parted. She felt a +little lonely as she watched him hurrying down the street. He seemed +to have forgotten her completely. "Mary Bethel, you're a selfish pig," +she said, as she climbed the stairs to her room. "Of course, he cares +more about his son--why not?" But nevertheless she sighed, and then +went down to make tea for her mother, who was tired and on the verge of +tears. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +As he passed through the town all his thoughts were of his splendid +fortune. This was the very thing for which he had been hoping, the key +to all his difficulties. + +The dusk was creeping down the streets. A silver star hung over the +roofs silhouetted black against the faint blue of the night sky. The +lamps seemed to wage war with the departing daylight; the after-glow of +the setting sun fluttered valiantly for a little, and then, yielding +its place to the stronger golden circles stretching like hanging moons +down the street, vanished. + +The shops were closing. Worthley's Hosiery was putting up the shutters +and a boy stood in the doorway, yawning; there had been a sale and the +shop was tired. Midgett's Bookshop at the corner of the High Street +was still open and an old man with spectacles and a flowing beard stood +poring over the odd-lot box at 2d. a volume by the door. + +The young man who advised ladies as to the purchase of six-shilling +novels waited impatiently. He had hoped to be off by six to-night. He +had an appointment at seven--and now this old man.... "We close at +six, sir," he said. But the old gentleman did not hear. He bent lower +and lower until his beard almost swept the pavement. Harry passed on. + +All these things passed like shadows before Harry; he noticed them, but +they fitted into the pattern of his thoughts, forming a frame round his +great central idea--that at last he had his chance. + +There was no fear in his mind that he would not get the letters. There +was, of course, the chance that Clare had been before him, but then, as +Mary had said, she had scarcely had time, and it was not likely that +the girl would give them up easily. It was just possible, too, that +the whole affair was a mistake, that Mrs. Feverel had merely boasted +for the sake of impressing old Mrs. Bethel, that there was little or +nothing behind it, but that was unlikely. + +He had formed no definite decision as to the method of his attack; he +must wait and see how the land lay. A great deal depended on the +presence of the mother--the girl, too, might be so many different +things; he was not even certain of her age. If there was nothing in +it, he would look a fool, but he must risk that. A wild idea came into +his head that he might, perhaps, find Clare there--that would be +amusing. He imagined them bidding for the letters, and that brought +him to the point that money would be necessary--well, he was ready to +pay a good deal, for it was Robin for whom he was bidding. + +He found the street without any difficulty. Its dinginess was obvious, +and now, with a little wind whistling round its corners and whirling +eddies of dust in the road, its three lamps at long distances down the +street, the monotonous beat of the sea beyond the walls, it was +depressing and sad. + +It reminded him of the street in Auckland where he had heard the +strange voice; it was just such another moment now--the silence bred +expectancy and the sea was menacing. + +"I shall get the shivers if I don't move," he said, and rang the bell. + +The slatternly servant that he had expected to see answered the bell, +and the tap-tap of her down-at-heels slippers sounded along the passage +as she departed to see if Mrs. Feverel would see him. + +He waited in the draughty hall; it was so dark that coats and hats +loomed, ghostly shapes, by the farther wall. A door opened, there was +sound of voices--a moment's pause, then the door closed and the maid +appeared at the head of the stairs. + +"The missis says you can come up," she said ungraciously. + +She eyed him curiously as he passed her, and scented drama in the set +of his shoulders and the twitch of his fingers. + +"A military!" she concluded, and tap-tapped down again into the kitchen. + +A low fire was burning in the grate and the blind napped against the +window. The draught blew the everlastings on the mantelpiece together +with a little dry, dusty sound like the rustle of a breeze in dried +twigs. + +Mrs. Feverel sat bending over the fire, and he thought as he saw her +that it would need a very great fire indeed to put any warmth into her. +Her black hair, parted in the middle, was bound back tightly over her +head and confined by a net. + +She shook hands with him solemnly, and then waited as though she +expected an explanation. + +Harry smiled. "I'm afraid, Mrs. Feverel," he said, "that you may think +this extraordinary. I can only offer as apology your acquaintance with +my son." + +"Ah yes--Mr. Robert Trojan." + +Her mouth closed with a snap and she waited, with her hands folded on +her lap, for him to say something further. + +"You knew him, I think, at Cambridge in the summer?" + +"Yes, my daughter and I were there in the summer." + +Harry paused. It would be harder than he expected, and where was the +daughter? + +"Cambridge is very pleasant in the summer?" he asked, his resolution +weakening rapidly before her impassivity. + +"My daughter and I found it so. But, of course, it depends----" + +It depended, he reflected, on such people as his son--boys whom they +could cheat at their ease. He had no doubt at all now that the mother +was an adventuress of the common, melodrama type. He suspected the +girl of being the same. It made things in some ways much simpler, +because money would, probably, settle everything; there would be no +question of fine feelings. He knew exactly how to deal with such +women, he had known them in New Zealand; but he was amused as he +contemplated Clare's certain failure--such a woman was entirely outside +her experience. + +He came to the point at once. + +"My being here is easily explained. I learn, Mrs. Feverel, that my son +formed an attachment for your daughter during last summer. He wrote +some letters now in your daughter's possession. His family are +naturally anxious that those letters should be returned. I have come +to see what can be done about the matter." He paused--but she said +nothing, and remained motionless by the fire. + +"Perhaps," he said slowly, "you would prefer, Mrs. Feverel, to name a +possible price yourself?" + +Afterwards, on looking back, he felt that his expectations had been +perfectly justified; she had, up to that point, given him every reason +to take the line that he adopted. She had listened to the first part +of his speech without remark; she must, he reflected afterwards, have +known what was coming, yet she had given no sign that she heard. + +And so the change in her was startling and took him utterly by surprise. + +She looked up at him from her chair, and the thin ghost of a smile that +crept round the corners of her mouth, faced him for a moment, and then +vanished suddenly, was the strangest thing that he had ever seen. + +"Don't you think, Mr. Trojan, that that is a little insulting?" + +It made him feel utterly ashamed. In her own house, in her +drawing-room, he had offered her money. + +"I beg your pardon," he stammered. + +"Yes," she answered slowly. "You had rather misconceived the +situation." + +Harry felt that her silences were the most eloquent that he had ever +known. He began to be very frightened, and, for the first time, +conceived the possibility of not securing the letters at all. The +thought that his hopes might be dashed to the ground, that he might be +no nearer his goal at the end of the interview than before, sharpened +his wits. It was to be a deal in subtlety rather than the obvious +thing that he had expected--well, he would play it to the end. + +"I beg your pardon," he said again. "I have been extremely rude. I am +only recently returned from abroad, and my knowledge of the whole +affair is necessarily very limited. I came here with a very vague idea +both as to yourself and your intentions. In drawing the conclusions +that I did I have done both you and your daughter a grave injustice, +for which I humbly apologise. I may say that, before coming here, I +had had no interview with my son. I am, therefore, quite ignorant as +regards facts." + +He did not feel that his apology had done much good. He felt that she +had accepted both his insult and apology quite calmly, as though she +had regarded them inevitably. + +"The facts," she said, looking down again at the fire, "are quite +simple. My daughter and your son became acquainted at Cambridge in May +last. They saw a great deal of each other during the next few months. +At the end of that time they were engaged. Mr. Robert Trojan gave us +to understand that he was about to acquaint his family with the fact. +They corresponded continually during the summer--letters, I believe, of +the kind common to young people in love. Mr. Robert Trojan spoke +continually of the marriage and suggested dates. We then came down +here, and, soon after our arrival, I perceived a change in your son's +attitude. He came to see us very rarely, and at last ceased his visits +altogether. My daughter was naturally extremely upset, and there were +several rather painful interviews. He then wrote returning her letters +and demanding the return of his own. This she definitely refused. +Those are the facts, Mr. Trojan." + +She had spoken without any emotion, and evidently expected that he +should do the same. + +"I have come," he said, "on behalf of my son to demand the return of +those letters." + +"Demand?" + +"Naturally. Letters, Mrs. Feverel, of that kind are dangerous things +to leave about." + +"Yes?" She smiled. "Dangerous for whom? I think you forget a little, +Mr. Trojan, in your anxiety for your son's welfare, my daughter's side +of the question. She naturally treasures what represents to her the +happiest months of her existence. You must remember that your son's +conduct--shall I call it desertion?--was a terrible blow. She loved +him, Mr. Trojan, with all her heart. Is it not right that he should +suffer a little as well?" + +"I refuse to believe," he answered sharply, "that this is all a matter +of sentiment. I regret extremely that my son should have behaved in +such a cowardly and dastardly manner--it has hurt and surprised me more +than I can say--but, were that all, it were surely better to bury the +whole affair as soon as may be. I cannot believe that you are keeping +the letters with no intention of making public use of them." + +"Ah," said Mrs. Feverel, "I wonder." + +"Hadn't we better come to a clear understanding, Mrs. Feverel?" he +asked. "We are neither of us children, and this beating about the bush +serves no purpose whatever. If you refuse to return the letters, I +have at least the right to ask what you mean to do with them." + +"Here is my daughter," she answered, "she shall speak for herself." + +He turned round at the sound of the opening door, and watched her as +she came in. She was very much as he had imagined--thin and tall, +walking straight from the hips, giving a little the impression that she +was standing on her toes. Her eyes seemed amazingly dark in the +whiteness of her face. She seemed a little older than he had +expected--perhaps twenty-five or twenty-six. + +She looked at him sharply as she entered and then came forward to her +mother. He could see that she was agitated--her breath came quickly, +and her hands folded and unfolded as though she were tearing something +to pieces. + +"This," said Mrs. Feverel, "is my daughter, Mr. Trojan. My dear, Mr. +Henry Trojan." + +She bowed and sat down opposite her mother. He thought she looked +rather pathetic as she faced him; here was no adventuress, no schemer. +He began to feel that his son had behaved brutally, outrageously. + +Mrs. Feverel rose. "I will leave you, my dear. Mr. Trojan will tell +you for what he has come." + +She moved slowly from the room and Harry drew a breath of relief at her +absence. There was a moment's pause. "I hope you will forgive me, +Miss Feverel," he said gently. "I'm afraid that both your mother and +yourself must regard this as impertinent, but, at the same time, I +think you will understand." + +She seemed to have regained her composure. "It is about Robin, I +suppose?" + +"Yes. Could you tell me exactly what the relations between you were?" + +"We were engaged," she answered simply, "last summer at Cambridge. He +broke off the engagement." + +"Yes--but I understand that you intend to keep his letters?" + +"That is quite true." + +"I have come to ask you to restore them." + +"I am sorry. I am afraid that it is a waste of time. I shall not go +back on my word." + +He could not understand what her game was--he was not sure that she had +a game at all; she seemed very helpless, and, at the same time, he felt +that there was strength behind her answers. He was at a loss; his +experience was of no value to him at all. + +"I am going to beg you to alter your decision. I am pleading with you +in a matter that is of the utmost importance to me. Robin is my only +son. He has behaved abominably, and you can understand that it has +been rather a blow to me to return after twenty years' absence and find +him engaged in such an affair. But he is very young, and--pardon +me--so are you. I am an older man and my experience of the world is +greater than yours; believe me when I say that you will regret +persistence in your refusal most bitterly in later years. It seems to +me a crisis--a crisis, perhaps, for all of us. Take an older man's +word for it; there is only one possible course for you to adopt." + +"Really, Mr. Trojan," she said, laughing, "you are intensely serious. +Last week I thought that my heart was broken; but now--well, it takes a +lot to break a heart. I am sure that you will be glad to hear that my +appetite has returned. As to the letters--why, think how pleasant it +will be for me to sentimentalise over them in my old age! Surely, that +is sufficient motive." + +She was trying to speak lightly, but her lip quivered. + +"You are running a serious risk, Miss Feverel," he answered gravely. +"Your intention is, I imagine, to punish Robin. I can assure you that +in a few years' time he will be punished enough. He scarcely realises +as yet what he has done. That knowledge will come to him later." + +"Poor Robin!" she said. "Yes, he ought to feel rather a worm now; he +has written me several very agitated letters. But really I cannot help +it. The affair is over--done with. I regard the letters as my +personal property. I cannot see that it is any one else's business at +all." + +"Of course it is our business," he answered seriously. "Those letters +must be destroyed. I do not accuse you of any deliberate malicious +intentions, but there is, as far as I can see, only one motive in your +keeping them. I have not seen them, but from what I have heard I +gather that they contain definite promise of marriage. Your case is a +strong one." + +"Yes," she laughed. "Poor Robin's enthusiasm led him to some very +violent expressions of affection. But, Mr. Trojan, revenge is sweet. +Every woman, I think, likes it, and I am no exception to my sex. +Aren't you a little unfair in claiming all the pleasure and none of the +pain?" + +"No," he answered firmly. "I am not. It is as much for your own sake +as for his that I am making my claim. You cannot see things in fair +proportion now; you will bitterly regret the step you contemplate +taking." + +"Well, I am sure," she replied, "it is very good of you to think of me +like that. I am deeply touched--you seem to take quite a fatherly +interest." She lay back in her chair and watched him with eyes half +closed. + +He was beginning to believe that it was no pose after all, and his +anger rose. + +"Come, Miss Feverel," he said, "let's have done with playing--let us +come to terms. It is a matter of vital importance that I should +receive the letters. I am ready to go some lengths to obtain them. +What are your terms?" + +She flushed a little. + +"Isn't that a little rude, Mr. Trojan?" she said. "It is of course the +melodramatic attitude. It was not long ago that I saw a play in which +letters figured. Pistols were fired, and the heroine wore red plush. +Is that to be our style now? I am sorry that I cannot oblige you. +There are no pistols, but I will tell you frankly that it is no +question of terms. I refuse, under any circumstances whatever, to +return the letters." + +"That is your absolute decision?" + +"My absolute decision." + +He got up and stood, for a moment, by her chair. + +"My dear," he said, "you do not know what you are doing. You are +disappointed, you are insulted--you think that you will have your +revenge at all costs. You do not know now, but you will discover +later, that it has been no revenge at all. It will be the most +regretted action of your life. You have a great chance; you are going +to throw it away. I am sorry, because you are not, I think, at all +that sort of girl." He paused a moment. "Well, there is no more to be +said. I am sorry as much for your sake as my own. Good-bye." + +He moved to the door. The disappointment was almost more than he could +bear. He did not know how strong his hopes had been; and now he must +return with things as they were before, with the added knowledge that +his son had behaved like a cad, and that the world would soon know. + +"Good-bye," he said again and turned round towards her. + +She rose from her chair and tried to smile. She said something that he +could not catch, and then, suddenly, to his intense astonishment, she +flung herself back into her chair again, hid her face in her hands, and +burst into uncontrollable tears. He stood irresolute, and then came +back and waited by the fireplace. He thought it was the most desolate +thing that he had ever known--the flapping of the blind against the +window, the dry rustling of the leaves on the mantel-piece, only +accentuated the sound of her sobbing. He let her cry and then, at +last--"I am a brute," he said. "I am sorry--I will go away." + +"No." She sat up and began to dry her eyes with her handkerchief. +"Don't go--it was absurd of me to give way like that; I thought that I +had got over all that, but one is so silly--one never can tell----" + +He sat down again and waited. + +"You see," she went on, "I had liked you, always, from the first moment +that I saw you. You were different from the others--quite +different--and after Robin had behaved--as he did--I distrusted every +one. I thought they were all like that, except you. You do not know +what people have done to us here. We have had no friends; they have +all despised us, especially your family. And Robin said--well, lots of +things that hurt. That I was not good enough and that his aunt would +not like me. And then, of course, when I saw that, if I kept the +letters, I could make them all unhappy--why, of course, I kept them. +It was natural, wasn't it? But I didn't want to hurt you--I felt that +all the time; and when I saw you here when I came in, I was afraid, +because I hardly knew what to do. I thought I would show you that I +wasn't weak and foolish as you thought me--the kind of girl that Robin +could throw over so easily without thinking twice about it--and so I +meant to hold out. There--and now, of course, you think me hateful." + +He sat down by her and took her hand. "It's all rather ridiculous, +isn't it?" he said. "I'm old enough to be your father, but I'm just +where you are, really. We've all been learning this last +fortnight--you and Robin, and I--and all learning the same thing. It's +been a case," he hesitated for a word, "of calf-love, for all three of +us. Don't regret Robin; he's not worth it. Why, you are worth twenty +of him, and he'll know that later on. I'm afraid that sounds +patronising," he added, laughing. "But I'm humble really. Never mind +the letters. You shall do what you like with them and I will trust +you. You are not," he repeated, "that sort of girl. Why, dash it!" he +suddenly added, "Robin doesn't know what he has lost." + +"Ah!" she said, blushing, "it wouldn't have done. I can see that +now--but I can see so many things that I couldn't see before. I wish I +had known a man like you--then I might have learnt earlier; but I had +nobody, nobody at all, and I nearly made a mess of things. But it +isn't too late!" + +"Too late! Why, no!" he answered. "I'm only beginning now, and I'm +forty-five. I, too, have learned a lot in this fortnight." + +She looked at him anxiously for a moment. "They don't like you, do +they? Robin and the others?" + +"No," he answered; "I don't think they do." + +"I know," she said quickly; "I heard from Robin, and I'm sorry. You +must have had a bad time. But why, if they have been like that, do you +want the letters? They have treated us both in the same way." + +"Why, yes," he answered. "Only Robin is my son. That, you see, is my +great affair. I care for him more than for anything in the world, and +if I had the letters----" + +"Why, of course," she cried, "I see--it gives you the pull. Why, how +blind I've been! It's splendid!" She sprang up, and went to a small +writing-desk by the window; she unlocked a drawer and returned with a +small packet in her hand. "There," she said, "there they are. They +are not many, are they, for such a big fuss? But I think that I meant +you to have them all the time--from the first moment that I saw you. I +had hoped that you would ask for them----" + +He took the letters, held them in his hand for a moment, and then +slipped them into his pocket. + +"Thank you," he said, "I shall not forget." + +"Nor I," she answered. "We are, I suppose, ships that pass in the +night. We have just shared for a moment an experience, and it has +changed both of us a little. But sometimes remember me, will you? +Perhaps you would write?" + +"Why, of course," he answered, "I shall want to know how things turn +out. What will you do?" + +"I don't know. We will go away from here, of course. Go back to +London, I expect--and I will get some work. There are lots of things +to do, and I shall be happy." + +"I hope," he said, "that the real thing is just beginning for both of +us." + +She stood by the window looking out into the street. "It makes things +different if you believe in me," she said. "It will give one courage. +I had begun to think that there was no one in the world who cared." + +"Be plucky," he said. "Work's the only thing. It is because we've +both been idle here that we're worried. Don't think any more of Robin. +He isn't good enough for you yet; he'll learn, like the rest of us; but +he'll have to go through something first. You'll find a better man." + +"Poor Robin," she said. "Be kind to him!" + +He took her hand for a moment, smiled, and was gone. She watched him +from the window. + +He looked back at her and smiled again. Then he passed the corner of +the street. + +"So that's the end!" She turned back from the window. "Now for a +beginning!" + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +Garrett Trojan had considered the matter for two days and had come to +no conclusion. His manner of considering anything was peculiar. He +loved procrastination and coloured future events with such beautiful +radiancy that, when they actually came, the shock of finding them only +drab was so terrible that he avoided them altogether. He was, however, +saved from any lasting pain and disappointment because he had been +given, from early childhood, that splendid gift of discovering himself +to be the continual hero of a continual play. It was not only that he +could make no move in life at all without being its hero--that, of +course, was pleasant enough; but that it was always a fresh discovery +was truly the amazing thing. He was able to wake up, as it were, and +discover afresh, every day of his life, what a hero he was; this was +never monotonous, never wearisome. He played the game anew from day to +day--and the best part of the game was not knowing that it was a game +at all. + +It must be admitted that he only maintained the illusion by keeping +somewhat apart from his fellow-men--too frequent contact must have +destroyed his dreams. But his aloofness was termed preserving his +individuality, and in the well-curtained library, in carpet-slippers +and a smoking-jacket, he built his own monument with infinite care +before an imaginary crowd in an imaginary city of dreams. + +There were times, of course, when he was a little uneasy. He had heard +men titter at the Club: Clare had, occasionally, spoken plain words as +to his true position in the House, and he had even, at times, doubts as +to the permanent value of the book on which he was engaged. During +these awful moments he gazed through the rent curtain into a valley of +dead men's bones ruled by a dreary god who had no knowledge of Garrett +Trojan and cared very little for the fortunes of the Trojan House. + +But a diligent application to the storehouses of his memory produced +testimonials dragged, for the most part, from reluctant adherents which +served to prove that Garrett Trojan was a great man and the head of a +great family. + +He would, however, like some definite act to prove conclusively that he +was head. He had, at times, the unhappy suspicion that an outsider, +regarding the matter superficially, might be led to conclude that Clare +held command. He found that if he interfered at all in family matters +this suspicion was immediately strengthened, and so he confined himself +to his room and watered diligently the somewhat stinted crop of +Illusions. + +Nevertheless he felt the necessity of some prominent action that would +still for ever his suspicions of incompetence, and would afford him a +sure foundation on which to build his palace of self-complacency and +personal appreciation. During his latter years he had regarded himself +as his father's probable successor. Harry had seemed a very long way +off in New Zealand, and became, eventually, an improbable myth, for +Garrett had that happy quality bestowed on the ostrich of sticking his +head into the sand of imagination and boastfully concluding that facts +were not there. Harry was a fact, but by continuously asserting that +New Zealand was a long way off and that Harry would never come back, +Harry's existence became a very pleasant fairy-story, like nautical +tales of the sea-serpent and the Bewitching Mermaid. They might be +there, and it was very pleasant to listen to stories about them, but +they had no real bearing on life as he knew it. + +Harry's return had, of course, shattered this bubble, and Garrett had +had to yield all hopes of eventual succession. He had, on the whole, +borne it very well, and had come to the conclusion that succeeding his +father would have entailed the performance of many wearisome duties; +but that future being denied him, it was more than ever necessary to +seize some opportunity of personal distinction. + +The discussion as to the destruction of the Cove had seemed to offer +him every chance of attaining a prominent position. The matter had +grown in importance every day. Pendragon had divided into two separate +and sharply-distinguished camps, one standing valiantly by its standard +of picturesque tradition and its hatred of modern noise and +materialism, the other asserting loudly its love of utility and +progress, derisively pointing the finger of scorn at old-world +Conservatism run mad and an incredible affection for defective +drainage. Garrett had flung himself heart and soul (as he said) into +the latter of these parties, and, feeling that this was a chance of +distinction that fortune was not likely to offer him again in the near +future, appeared frequently at discussions and even on one occasion in +the Town Hall spoke. + +But he was surprised and disappointed; he found that he had nothing to +say, the truth being that he was much more interested in Garrett than +in the Cove, and that his audience had come to listen to the second of +these two subjects rather than the first. He found himself shelved; he +was most politely told that he was not wanted, and he retired into his +carpet-slippers again after one of those terrible quarters of an hour +when he peeped past the curtain and saw a miserable, naked puppet +shivering in a grey world, and that puppet was Garrett Trojan. + +Then suddenly a second opportunity presented itself. Robin's trouble +was unexpectedly reassuring. This, he told himself, was the very +thing. If he could only prove to the world that he had dealt +successfully with practical matters in a practical way, he need never +worry again. Let him deal with this affair promptly and resourcefully, +as a man of the world and a true Trojan, and his position was assured. +He must obtain the letters and at once. He spent several pleasant +hours picturing the scene in which he returned the letters to Robin. +He knew precisely the moment, the room, the audience that he would +choose--he had decided on the words that he would speak, but he was not +sure yet as to how he would obtain the letters. + +He thought over it for three days and came to no conclusion. It ought +not to be difficult; the girl was probably one of those common +adventuresses of whom one heard so often. He had never actually met +one--they did not suit carpet-slippers--but one knew how to deal with +them. It was merely a matter of tact and _savoir-faire_. + +Yes, it would be fun when he flourished the letters in the face of the +family; how amazed Clare would be and how it would please Robin!--and +then he suddenly awoke to the fact that time was getting on, and that +he had done nothing. And, after all, there were only two possible +lines of action--to write or to seek a personal interview. Of these he +infinitely preferred the first. He need not leave his room, he could +direct operations from his arm-chair, and he could preserve that +courtesy and decorum that truly befitted a Trojan. But he had grave +fears that the letter would not be accepted; Robin's had been scorned +and his own might suffer the same fate--no, he was afraid that it must +be a personal interview. + +He had come to this conclusion reluctantly, and now he hesitated to act +on it; she might be violent, and he felt that he could not deal with +melodrama. But the thought of ultimate victory supported him. The +delicious surprise of it, the gratitude, the security of his authority +from all attack for the rest of his days! Ah yes, it was worth it. + +He dressed carefully in a suit of delicate grey, wearing, as he did on +all public occasions, an eyeglass. He took some time over his +preparations and drank a whisky and soda before starting; he had +secured the address from Robin, without, he flattered himself, any +discovery as to the reason of his request. 10 Seaview Terrace! Ah +yes, he knew where that was--a gloomy back street, quite a fitting +place for such an affair. + +He was still uncertain as to the plan of campaign, but he could not +conceive it credible that any young woman in any part of the British +Empire would stand up long against a Trojan--it would, he felt certain, +prove easy. + +He noticed with pleasure the attention paid to him by the down-at-heels +servant--it was good augury for the success of the interview. He +lowered his voice to a deep bass whilst asking for Miss Feverel, and he +fixed his eyeglass at a more strikingly impressive angle. He looked at +women from four points of view, and he had, as it were, a sliding scale +of manners on which he might mark delicately his perception of their +position. There was firstly the Countess, or Titled Nobility. Here +his manner was slightly deferential, and at the same time a little +familiar--proof of his own good breeding. + +Secondly, there was the Trojan, or the lady of Assured Position. Here +he was quite familiar, and at the same time just a little +patronising--proof of his sense of Trojan superiority. + +Thirdly, there was the Governess, or Poor Gentility Position. To +members of this class he was affably kind, conveying his sense of their +merits and sympathy with their struggle against poverty, but +nevertheless marking quite plainly the gulf fixed between him and them. + +Fourthly, there were the Impossibles, or the Rest--ranging from the +wives of successful Brewers to that class known as Unfortunate. Here +there was no alteration in his manner; he was stern, and short, and +stiff with all of them, and the reason of their existence was one of +the unsolved problems that had always puzzled him. This woman would, +of course, belong to this latter class--he drew himself up haughtily as +he entered the drawing-room. + +Dahlia Feverel was alone, seated working in the window. Life was +beginning to offer attractions to her again. The thought of work was +pleasing; she had decided to train as a nurse, and she began to see +Robin in a clear, true light; she was even beginning to admit that he +had been right, that their marriage would have been a great mistake. +The announcement of Garrett Trojan took her by surprise--she gathered +her work together and rose, her brain refusing to act consecutively. +He wanted, of course, the letters--well, she had not got them.... It +promised to be rather amusing. + +And he on his side was surprised. He had expected a woman with +frizzled hair and a dress of violent colours; he saw a slender, pale +girl in black, and she looked rather more of a lady than he had +supposed. He was, in spite of himself, confused. He began hurriedly-- + +"I am Mr. Garrett Trojan--I dare say you have heard of me from my +nephew--Robin--Robert--with whom, I believe, you are acquainted, +Miss--ah--Feverel. I have come on his behalf to request the return of +some letters that he wrote to you during the summer." + +He drew a breath and paused. Well, that was all right anyhow, and +quite sufficiently business-like. + +"Won't you sit down, Mr. Trojan?" she said, smiling at him. "It is +good of you to have taken so much trouble simply about a few +letters--and you really might have written, mightn't you, and saved +yourself a personal visit?" + +He refused to sit down and drew himself up. "Now I warn you, Miss +Feverel," he said, "that this is no laughing matter. You are doing a +very foolish thing in keeping the letters--very foolish--ah! um! You +must, of course, see that--exceedingly foolish!" + +He came to a pause. It was really rather difficult to know what to say +next. + +"Ah, Mr. Trojan," she answered, "you must leave me to judge about the +foolishness of it. After all, they are my letters." + +"Pure waste of time," he answered, his voice getting a little shrill. +"After all, there can be no question about it. We _must_ have the +letters--we are ready to go to some lengths to obtain them--even--ah, +um--money----" + +"Now, Mr. Trojan," she said quickly, "you are scarcely polite. But I +am sure that you will see no reason for prolonging this interview when +I say that, under no circumstances whatever, can I return the letters. +That is my unchanging decision." + +He had no words; he stared at her, dumb with astonishment. This open +defiance was the very last thing that he had expected. Then, at last-- + +"You refuse?" he said with a little gasp. + +"Yes," she answered lightly, "and I cannot see anything very +astonishing in my refusal. They are my property, and it is nobody +else's business at all." + +"But it is," he almost screamed. "Business! Why, I should think it +was! Do you think we want to have a scandal throughout the kingdom? +Do you imagine that it would be pleasant for us to have our name in all +the papers--our name that has never known disgrace since the days of +William the Conqueror? You can have," he added solemnly, "very little +idea of the value of a name if you imagine that we are going to +tolerate its abuse in this fashion. Dear me, no!" + +He was growing quite red at the thought of his possible failure. The +things in the room annoyed him--the everlasting rustling on the +mantelpiece--a staring photograph of Mr. Feverel, deceased, that seemed +to follow him, protestingly, round and round the room--a corner of a +dusty grey road seen dimly through dirty window-panes; why did people +live in such a place--or, rather, why did such people live at all?--and +to think that it was people like that who dared to threaten Trojan +honour! How could Robin have been such a fool! + +So, feeling that the situation was so absurd that argument was out of +place, he began to bluster-- + +"Come now, Miss Feverel--this won't do, you know! it won't really. +It's too absurd--quite ridiculous. Why, you forget altogether who the +Trojans are! Why, we've been years and years--hundreds of years! You +can't intend to oppose institutions of that kind! Why--it's +impossible--you don't realise what you're doing. Dear me, no! Why, +the whole thing's fantastic--" and then rather lamely, "You'll be +sorry, you know." + +She had been listening to him with amusement. It was pleasant to have +the family on its knees like this after its treatment of her. He was +saying, too, very many of the things that his brother had said, but how +different it was! + +"You know, Mr. Trojan," she said, "that I can't help feeling that you +are making rather a lot of it. After all, I haven't said that I'm +going to do anything with the letters, have I?--simply keep them, and +that, I think, I am quite entitled to do. And really my mind won't +change about that--I cannot give them to you." + +"Cannot!" he retorted eagerly. "Why, it's easy enough. You know, Miss +Feverel, it won't do to play with me. I'm a man of the world and +fencing won't do, you know--not a bit of it. When I say I mean to have +the letters, I mean to have them, and--ah, um--that's all about it. It +won't do to fence, you know," he said again. + +"But I'm not fencing, Mr. Trojan, I'm saying quite plainly what is +perfectly true, that I cannot let you have the letters--nothing that +you can say will change my mind." + +And he really didn't know what to say. He didn't want to have a +scene--he shrunk timidly from violence of any kind; but he really must +secure the letters. How they would laugh at the Club! Why, he could +hear the guffaws of all Pendragon! London would be one enormous scream +of laughter!--all Europe would be amused! and to his excited fancy Asia +and Africa seemed to join the chorus! A Trojan and a common girl in a +breach of promise case! A Trojan! + +"I say," he stammered, "you don't know how serious it is. People will +laugh, you know, if you bring the case on. Of course it was silly of +him--Robin, I mean. I can't conceive myself how he ever came to do +such a thing. Boys will be boys, and you're rather pretty, my dear. +But, bless me, if we were to take all these little things seriously, +why, where would some of us be?" He paused, and hinted impressively at +a hideous past. "You _are_ attractive, you know." He looked at her in +his most flattering manner--"Quite a nice girl, only you shouldn't take +it seriously--really you shouldn't." + +This manner of speech was a great deal more offensive than the other, +and Dahlia got up, her cheeks flushed-- + +"That is enough, Mr. Trojan. I think this had better come to an end. +I can only repeat what I have said already, that I cannot give you the +letters--and, indeed, if I had ever intended to do so, your last +speech, at least, would have changed my mind--I am sorry that I cannot +oblige you, but there is really nothing further to be said." + +He tried to stammer something; he faced her for a moment and +endeavoured to be indignant, and then, to his own intense astonishment, +found that he was walking down the stairs with the drawing-room door +closed behind him. How amazing!--but he had done his best, and, if he +had failed, why, after all, no other man could have succeeded any +better. And she really was rather bewitching--he had not expected +anything quite like that. What had he expected? He did not know, but +he thought of his softly-carpeted, nicely-cushioned room with +pleasurable anticipation. He would fling himself into his book when he +got back ... he had several rather neat ideas.... He noticed, with +pleasure, that the young man standing by the door of Mead's Groceries +touched his hat very respectfully, and Twitchett, his tailor, bowed. +Come, come! There were a few people left who had some sense of Trojan +supremacy. It wasn't such a bad world! He would have tea in his +room--not with Clare--and crumpets--yes, he liked crumpets. + +Dahlia went back to her work with a sigh. What, she wondered, would be +the next move? It had not been quite so amusing as she had expected, +but it had been a little more exciting. For she had a curious feeling +in it all, that she was fighting Harry Trojan's battles. These were +the people that had insulted him just as they had insulted her, and now +they would have to pay for it, they would have to go to him as they had +gone to her and crawl on their knees. But what a funny situation! +That she should play the son for the father, and that she should be +able to look at her own love affair so calmly! Poor Robin--he had +taught her a great deal, and now it was time for him to learn his own +lesson. For her the episode was closed and she was looking forward to +the future. She would work and win her way and have done with +sentiment. Friendship was the right thing--the thing that the world +was meant for--but _Love_--Ah! that wounded so much more than it +blessed! + +But she was to have further experiences--the Trojan family had not done +with her yet. Garrett had been absent barely more than half an hour +when the servant again appeared at the door with, "Miss Trojan, Miss +Dahlia, would like to see yer and is waiting in the 'all." Her hand +twitching at her apron and mouth gaping with astonishment testified to +her curiosity. For weeks the house had been unvisited and now, in a +single day--! + +"Show her up, Annie!" + +She was a little agitated; Garrett had been simple enough and even +rather amusing, but Clare Trojan was quite another thing. She was, +Dahlia knew, the head of the family and a woman of the world. But +Dahlia clenched her teeth; it was this person who was responsible for +the whole affair--for the father's unhappiness, for the son's +disloyalty. It was she who had been, as it were, behind Robin's +halting speeches concerning inequality and one's duty to the family. +Here was the head of the House, and Dahlia held the cards. + +But Clare was very calm and collected as she entered the room. She had +decided that a personal interview was necessary, but had rather +regretted that it could not be conducted by letter. But still if you +had to deal with that kind of person you must put up with their +methods, and having once made up her mind about a thing she never +turned back. + +She hated the young person more bitterly than she had ever hated any +one, and she would have heard of her death with no shadow of pity but +rather a great rejoicing. In the first place, the woman had come +between Clare and Robin; secondly, she threatened the good name of the +family; thirdly, she was forcing Clare to do several things that she +very much disliked doing. For all these reasons the young person was +too bad to live--but she had no intention of being uncivil. Although +this was her first experience of diplomacy, she had very definite ideas +as to how such things ought to be conducted, and civility would hide a +multitude of subtleties. Clare meant to be very subtle, very kind, +and, once the letters were in her hand, very unrelenting. + +She was wearing a very handsome dress of grey silk with a large picture +hat with grey feathers: she entered the room with a rustle, and the +sweep of the skirts spoke of infinite condescension. + +"Miss Feverel, I believe--" she held out her hand--"I am afraid this is +a most unceremonious hour for a call, and if I have interrupted you in +your work, pray go on. I wouldn't for the world. What a day, hasn't +it been? I always think that these sort of grey depressing days are so +much worse than the downright pouring ones, don't you? You are always +expecting, you know, and then nothing ever comes." + +Dahlia looked rather nervous in the window, and on her face there +fluttered a rather uncertain smile. + +"Yes," she said, a little timidly; "but I think that most of the days +here are grey." + +"Ah, you find that, do you? Well, now, that's strange, because I must +say that I haven't found that my own experience--and Cornwall, you +know, is said to be the land of colour--the English Riviera some, +rather prettily, call it--and St. Ives, you know, along the coast is +quite a place for painters because of the colour that they get there." + +Dahlia said "Yes," and there was a pause. Then Clare made her plunge. + +"You must wonder a little, Miss Feverel, what I have come about. I +really must apologise again about the hour. But I won't keep you more +than a moment; and it is all quite a trivial matter--so trivial that I +am ashamed to disturb you about it. I would have written, but I +happened to be passing and--so--I came in." + +"Yes?" said Dahlia. + +"Well, it's about some letters. Perhaps you have forgotten that my +nephew, Robert Trojan, wrote to you last summer. He tells me that you +met last summer at Cambridge and became rather well acquainted, and +that after that he wrote to you for several months. He tells me that +he wrote to you asking you to return his letters, and that you, +doubtless through forgetfulness, failed to reply. He is naturally a +little nervous about writing to you again, and so I thought that--as I +was passing--I would just come and see you about the matter. But I am +really ashamed to bother you about anything so trivial." + +"No," answered Dahlia, "I didn't forget--I wrote--answered Robin's +letter." + +"Ah! you did? Then he must have misunderstood you. He certainly gave +me to understand----" + +"Yes, I wrote to Robin saying that I was sorry--but I intended to keep +the letters." + +Clare paused and looked at her sharply. This was the kind of thing +that she had expected; of course the young person would bluff and stand +out for a tall price, which must, if necessary, be paid to her. + +"But, Miss Feverel, surely"--she smiled deprecatingly--"that can't be +your definite answer to him. Poor Robin!--surely he is entitled to +letters that he himself has written." + +"Might I ask, Miss Trojan, why you are anxious that they should be +returned?" + +"Oh, merely a whim--nothing of any importance. But Robin feels, as I +am sure you must, that the whole episode--pleasant enough at the time, +no doubt--is over, and he feels that it would be more completely closed +if the letters were destroyed." + +"Ah! but there we differ!" said Dahlia sharply. "That's just what I +don't feel about it. I value those letters, Miss Trojan, highly." + +Now what, thought Clare, exactly was she? Number One, the intriguing +adventuress? Number Two, the outraged woman? Number Three, the +helpless girl clinging to her one support? Now, of Numbers One and Two +Clare had had no experience. Such persons had never come her way, and +indeed of Number Three she could know very little; so she escaped from +generalities and fixed her mind on the actual girl in front of her. +This was most certainly no intriguing adventuress. Clare had quite +definite ideas about that class of person; but she very possibly was +the outraged female. At any rate, she would act on that conclusion. + +"My dear young lady," she said softly, "you must not think that I do +not sympathise. I do indeed, from the bottom of my heart. Robin has +behaved abominably, and any possible reparation we, as a family, will +gladly pay. I think, however, that you are a little hard on him. He +was young, so were you; and it is very easy for us--we women +especially--to mistake the reality of our affection. Robin at any rate +made a mistake and saw it--and frankly told you so. It was +wrong--very; but I cannot help feeling--forgive me if I speak rather +plainly--that it would be equally wrong on your part if you were to +indulge any feeling of revenge." + +"There is not," said Dahlia, "any question of revenge." + +"Ah," said Clare brightly, "you will let me have the letters, then?" + +"I cannot," Dahlia answered gravely. "Really, Miss Trojan, I'm afraid +that we can gain nothing by further discussion. I have looked at the +matter from every point of view, and I'm afraid that I can come to no +other decision." + +Clare stared in front of her. What was to be her next move? Like +Garrett, she had been brought to a standstill by Dahlia's direct +refusal. Viewing the matter indefinitely, from the security of her own +room, it had seemed to her that the girl would be certain to give way +at the very mention of the Trojan name. She would face Robin--yes, +that was natural enough, because, after all, he was only a boy and had +no knowledge of the world and the proper treatment of such a case--but +when it came to the head of the family with all the influence of the +family behind her, then instant submission seemed inevitable. + +Clare was forced to realise that instant submission was very far away +indeed, and that the girl sitting quietly in the window showed little +sign of yielding. She sat up a little straighter in her chair and her +voice was a little sharper. + +"It seems then, Miss Feverel, that it is a question of terms. But why +did you not say so before? I would have told you at once that we are +willing to pay a very considerable sum for the return of the letters." + +Dahlia's face flushed, and after a moment's pause she rose from her +chair and walked towards Clare. + +"Miss Trojan," she said quietly, "I have no intention of taking money +for them--or, indeed, of taking anything." + +"I'm sure," broke in Clare, flushing slightly, "_I_ had no intention +of----" + +"Ah--no, I know," went on Dahlia. "But it is not, I assure you, a case +for melodrama--but a very plain, simple little affair that is happening +everywhere all the time. You say that you cannot understand why I +should wish to keep the letters. Let me try and explain, and also let +me try and urge on you that it is really no good at all trying to +change my mind. It is now several days since I had my last talk with +Robin, and I have, of course, thought a good deal about it--it is +scarcely likely that half-an-hour's conversation with you will change a +determination that I have arrived at after ten days' hard thinking. +And surely it is not hard to understand. Six months ago I was happy +and inexperienced. I had never been in love, and, indeed, I had no +idea of its meaning. Then your nephew came: he made love to me, and I +loved him in return." + +She paused for a moment. Clare looked sympathetic. Then Dahlia +continued: "He meant no harm, no doubt, and perhaps for the time he was +quite serious in what he said. He was, as you say, very young. But it +was a game to him--it was everything to me. I treasured his letters, I +thought of them day and night. I--but, of course, you know the kind of +thing that a girl goes through when she is in love for the first time. +Then I came here and went through some bad weeks whilst he was making +up his mind to tell me that he loved me no longer. Of course, I saw +well enough what was happening--and I knew why it was--it was the +family at his back." + +A murmur from Clare. "I assure you, Miss Feverel." + +"Oh yes, Miss Trojan, you don't suppose that I cared for you very much +during those weeks. I suffered a little, too, and it changed me from a +girl into a woman--rather too quickly to be altogether healthy, +perhaps. And then he came and told me in so many words. I thought at +first that it had broken my heart; a girl does, you know, when it +happens the first time, but you needn't be afraid--my heart's all +right--and I wouldn't marry Robin now if he begged me to. But it had +hurt, all of it, and perhaps one's pride had suffered most of all--and +so, of course, I kept the letters. It was the one way that I could +hurt you. I'm frank, am I not?--but every woman would do the same. +You see you are so very proud, you Trojans! + +"It is not only that you thank God that you are not as other men, but +you are so bent on making the rest of us call out 'Miserable sinner!' +very loudly and humbly. And we don't believe it. Why should we? +Everybody has their own little bits o' things that they treasure, and +they don't like being told that they're of no value at all. Why, Miss +Trojan, I'm quite a proud person really--you'd be surprised if you +knew." + +She laughed, and then sat down on the sofa opposite Clare, with her +chin resting on her hand. + +"So you see, Miss Trojan, it's natural, after all, that I kept the +letters." + +Clare had listened to the last part of her speech in silence, her lips +firmly closed, her hands folded on her lap. As she listened to her she +knew that it was quite hopeless, that nothing that she could ever say +would change the young person's mind. She was horribly disappointed, +of course, and it would be terrible to be forced to return to Robin, +and tell him that she had failed: for the first time she would have to +confess failure--but really she could not humble herself any longer: +she was not sure that, even now, she had not unbent a little more than +was necessary. If the young person refused to consider the question of +terms there was no more to be said--and how dare she talk about the +Trojans in that way? + +"Really, Miss Feverel, I scarcely think that it is necessary for us to +enter into a discussion of that kind, is it? I daresay you have every +reason for personal pride--but really that is scarcely my affair, is +it? If no offer of money can tempt you--well, really, there the matter +must rest, mustn't it? Of course I am sorry, but you know your own +mind. But that you should think yourself insulted by such an offer is, +it seems to me, a little absurd. It is quite obvious what you mean to +do with them." + +Dahlia smiled. + +"Is it?" she said. "That is very clever of you, Miss Trojan. I am +sorry that you should have so much trouble for such a little result." + +"There is no more to be said," answered Clare, moving to the door. +"Good morning," and she was gone. + +"Oh dear," said Dahlia, as she went back to the window, "how unpleasant +she is. Poor Robin! What a time he will have!" + +For her the pathos was over, but for them--well--it had not begun. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +The question of the Cove was greatly agitating the mind of Pendragon. +Meetings had been held, a scheme had been drawn up, and it would appear +that the thing was settled. It had been conclusively proved that two +rows of lodging-houses where the Cove now stood would be an excellent +thing. The town was over-crowded--it must spread out in some +direction, and the Cove-end was practically the only possible place for +spreading. + +The fishery had been declining year by year, and it was hinted at the +Club that it would be rather a good thing if it declined until it +vanished altogether; the Cove was in no sense of the word useful, and +by its lack of suitable drainage and defective protection from weather, +it was really something of a scandal,--it formed, as Mr. Grayseed, pork +butcher and mayor of the town, pointed out, the most striking contrast +with the upward development so marked in Pendragon of late years. He +called the Cove an "eyesore" and nearly proclaimed it an "anomaly"--but +was restrained by the presence of his wife, a nervous woman who +followed her husband with difficulty in his successful career, and +checked his language when the length of his words threatened their +accuracy. + +The town might be said to be at one on these points, and there was no +very obvious reason why the destruction of the Cove should not be +proceeded with--but, still, nothing was done. It was said by a few +that the Cove was picturesque and undoubtedly attracted strangers by +the reason of its dirty, crooked streets and bulging doorways--an odd +taste, they admitted, but nevertheless undoubted and of commercial +importance. On posters Pendragon was described as "the picturesque +abode of old-time manners and customs," and Baedeker had a word about +"charming old-time byways and an old Inn, the haunt, in earlier times, +of smugglers and freebooters." Now this was undoubtedly valuable, and +it would be rather a pity were it swept away altogether. Perhaps you +might keep the Inn--it might even be made into a Museum for relics of +old Pendragon--bits of Cornish crosses, stones, some quaint drawings of +the old town, now in the possession of Mr. Quilter, the lawyer. + +The matter was much discussed at the Club, and there was no doubt as to +the feeling of the majority; let the Cove go--let them replace it with +a smart row of red-brick villas, each with its neat strip of garden and +handsome wooden paling. + +Harry had learnt to listen in silence. He knew, for one thing, that no +one would pay very much attention if he did speak, and then, of late, +he had been flung very much into himself and his reserve had grown from +day to day. People did not want to listen to him--well, he would not +trouble them. He felt, too, as Newsome had once said to him, that he +belonged properly to "down-along," and he knew that he was out of touch +with the whole of that modern movement that was going on around him. +But sometimes, as he listened, his cheeks burned when they talked of +the Cove, and he longed to jump up and plead its defence; but he knew +that it would be worse than useless and he held himself in--but they +didn't know, they didn't know. It enraged him most when they spoke of +it as some lifeless, abstract thing, some old rubbish-heap that +offended their sight, and then he thought of its beauties, of the +golden sand and the huddling red and grey cottages clustering over the +sea as though for protection. You might fancy that the waves slapped +them on the back for good-fellowship when they dashed up against the +walls, or kissed them for love when they ran in golden ripples and +softly lapped the stones. + +On the second night after his visit to Dahlia Feverel, Harry went down, +after dinner, to the Cove. He found those evening hours, before going +to bed, intolerable at the House. The others departed to their several +rooms and he was suffered to go to his, but the loneliness and +dreariness made reading impossible and his thoughts drove him out. He +had lately been often at the Inn, for this was the hour when it was +full, and he could sit in a corner and listen without being forced to +take any part himself. To-night a pedlar and a girl--apparently his +daughter--were entertaining the company, and even the melancholy sailor +with one eye seemed to share the feeling of gaiety and chuckled +solemnly at long intervals. It was a scene full of colour; the lamps +in the window shone golden through the haze of smoke on to the black +beams of the ceiling, the dust-red brick of the walls and floor, and +the cavernous depths of the great fireplace. Sitting cross-legged on +the table in the centre of the room was the pedlar, a little, dark, +beetle-browed man, and at his side were his wares, his pack flung open, +and cloths of green and gold and blue and red flung pell-mell at his +side. Leaning against the table, her hands on her hips, was the girl, +dark like her father, tall and flat-chested, with a mass of black hair +flung back from her forehead. No one knew from what place they had +come nor whither they intended to go--such a visit was rare enough in +these days of trains--and the little man's reticence was attacked again +and again, but ever unsuccessfully. There were perhaps twenty sailors +in the room, and they sat or stood by the fireplace watching and +listening. + +Harry slipped in and took his place by Newsome in the corner. + +"I will sing," said the girl. + +She stood away from the table and flung up her head--she looked +straight into the fire and swayed her body to the time of her tune. +Her voice was low, so that men bent forward in order that they might +hear, and the tune was almost a monotone, her voice rising and falling +like the beating of the sea, with the character of her words. She sang +of a Cornish pirate, Coppinger, "Cruel Coppinger," and of his deeds by +land and sea, of his daring and his cleverness and his brutality, and +the terror that he inspired, and at last of his pursuit by the king's +cutter and his utter vanishing "no man knew where." But gradually as +her song advanced Coppinger was forgotten and her theme became the +sea--she spoke like one possessed, and her voice rose and fell like the +wind--all Time and Place were lost. Harry felt that he was unbounded +by tradition of birth or breeding, and he knew that he was absolutely +as one of these others with him in the room--that he felt that call of +those old gods just as they did. The girl ceased and the room was +silent. Through the walls came the sound of the sea--in the fire was +the crackling of the coals, and down the great chimney came a little +whistle of the wind. "A mighty fine pome 'tis fur sure," said the +white-bearded sailor solemnly, "and mostly wonderful true." He sighed. +"They'm changed times," he said. + +The girl sat on the table at her father's side, watching them +seriously. She flung her arms behind her head and then suddenly-- + +"I can dance too," she said. + +They pulled the table back and watched her. + +It was something quite simple and unaffected--not, perhaps, in any way +great dancing, but having that quality, so rarely met with, of being +exactly right and suited to time and place. Her arms moved in ripples +like the waves of the sea--every part of her body seemed to join in the +same motion, but quietly, with perfect tranquillity, without any sense +of strain or effort. The golden lamps, the coloured clothes, the +red-brick floor, made a background of dazzling colour, and her black +hair escaped and fell in coils over her neck and shoulders. + +Suddenly she stopped. "There, that's all," she said, binding her hair +up again with quick fingers. She walked over to the sailors and talked +to them with perfect freedom and ease; at last she stayed by the +handsomest of them--a dark, well-built young fellow, who put his arm +round her waist and shared his drink with her. + +Harry, as he watched them, felt strangely that it was for him a scene +of farewell--that it was for the last time that the place was to offer +him such equality or that he himself would be in a position to accept +it. He did not know why he had this feeling--perhaps it was the talk +of the Club about the Cove, or his own certain conviction that matters +at the House were rapidly approaching a crisis. Yes, his own protests +were of no avail--things must move, and perhaps, after all, it were +better that they should. + +Bethel came in, and as usual joined the group at the fire without a +word; he looked at the pedlar curiously and then seemed to recognise +him--then he went up to him and soon they were in earnest conversation. +It grew late, and at the stroke of midnight Newsome rose to shut up the +house. + +"I will go back with you," Bethel said to Harry, and they walked to the +door together. For a moment Harry turned back. The girl was bending +over the sailor--her arms were round his neck, and his head was tilted +back to meet her mouth; the pedlar was putting his wares into his pack +again, but some pieces of yellow and blue silk had escaped him and lay +on the floor at his feet; down the street three of the sailors were +tramping home, and the chorus of a chanty died away as they turned the +corner. + +The girl, the pedlar, the colours of the room, the vanishing song, +remained with Harry to the end of his life--for that moment marked a +period. + +As he walked up the hill he questioned Bethel about the pedlar. + +"Oh, I had met him," he said vaguely. "One knows them all, you know. +But it is difficult to remember where. He is one of the last of his +kind and an amusing fellow enough----" But he sighed--"I am out of +sorts to-night--my kite broke. Do you know, Trojan, there are times +when one thinks that one has at last got right back--to the power, I +mean, of understanding the meaning and truth of things--and then, +suddenly, it has all gone and one is just where one was years ago and +it seems wasted. I tell you, man, last night I was on the moor and it +was alive with something. I can't tell you what--but I waited and +watched--I could feel them growing nearer and nearer, the air was +clearer--their voices were louder--and then suddenly it was all gone. +But of course you won't understand--none of you--why should you? You +think that I am flying a kite--why, I am scaling the universe!" + +"Whatever you are doing," said Harry seriously, "you are not keeping +your family. Look here, Bethel, you asked me once if I would be a +friend of yours. Well, I accepted that, and we have been good friends +ever since. But it really won't do--this kind of thing, I mean. +Scaling the universe is all very well, if you are a single man--then it +is your own look-out; but you are married--you have people depending on +you, and they will soon be starving." + +Bethel burst out laughing. + +"They've got you, Trojan! They've got you!" he cried. "I knew it +would come sooner or later, and it hasn't taken long. Three weeks and +you're like the rest of them. No, you mustn't talk like that, really. +Tell me I'm a damned fool--no good--an absolutely rotten type of +fellow--and it's all true enough. But you must accept it at that. At +least I'm true to my type, which is more than the rest of them are, the +hypocrites!--and as to my family, well, of course I'm sorry, but +they're happy enough and know me too well to have any hope of ever +changing me----" + +"No--of course, I don't want to preach. I'm the last man to tell any +one what they should do, seeing the mess that I've made of things +myself. But look here, Bethel, I like you--I count myself a friend, +and what are friends for if they're not to speak their minds?" + +"Oh! That's all right enough. Go on--I'll listen." He resigned +himself with a humorous submission as though he were indulging the +opinions of a child. + +"Well, it isn't right, you know--it isn't really. I don't want to tell +you that you're a fool or a rotter, because you aren't, but that's just +what makes it so disappointing for any one who cares about you. You're +letting all your finer self go. You're becoming, what they say you +are, a waster. Of course, finding yourself's all right--every man +ought to do that. But you have no right to throw off all claims as +completely as you have done. Life isn't like that. We've all got our +Land of Promise, and, just in order that it may remain, we are never +allowed to reach it. Whilst you are lying on your back on the moor, +your wife and daughter are killing themselves in order to keep the home +together--I say that it is not fair." + +"Oh, come, Trojan," Bethel protested, "is that quite fair on your side? +Things are all right, you know. They like it better, they do really. +Why, if I were to stay at home and try to work they'd think I was going +to be ill. Besides, I couldn't--not at an office or anything like +that. It isn't my fault, really--but it would kill me now if I +couldn't get away when I want to--not having liberty would be worse +than death." + +"Ah, that's yourself," said Harry. "That's selfish. Why don't you +think of them? You can't let things go on as they are, man. You must +get something to do." + +"I'm damned if I will." Bethel stopped short and stretched his arms +wide over the moor. "It isn't as if it would do them any good, and it +would kill me. Why, one is deaf and blind and dumb as soon as one has +work to do. I'm a child, you know. I've never grown up, and of course +I hadn't any right to marry. I don't know now why I did. And all you +people--you grown-ups--with your businesses and difficult pleasures and +noisy feasts--of course you can't understand what these things mean. +Only a few of you who sit with folded hands and listen can know what it +is. I saw a picture once--some people feasting in a forest, and +suddenly a little faun jumped from a tree on to their table and waited +for them to play with him. But some were eating and some drinking and +some talking scandal, and they did not see him. Only a little boy and +an old man--they were doing nothing--just dreaming--and they saw him. +Oh! I tell you, the dreamer has his philosophy and creed like the rest +of you!" + +"That's all very well," cried Harry. "But it's a case of bread and +butter. You will be bankrupt if you go on as you are!" + +"Oh no!" Bethel laughed. "Providence looks after the dreamers. +Something always happens--I know something will happen now. We are on +the edge of some good fortune. I can feel it." + +The man was incorrigible--there was no doubt of it--but Harry had +something further to say. + +"Well, I want you to let me take a deeper interest in your affairs. +May I ask your daughter to marry me?" + +"What? Mary?" Bethel stopped and shouted--"Why! That's splendid! Of +course, that's what Providence has been intending all this time. The +very thing, my dear fellow----" and he put his arm on Harry's +shoulder--"there's no one I'd rather give my girl to. But it's nothing +to do with me, really. She'll know her mind and tell you what she +feels about it. Dear me! Just to think of it!" + +He broke out into continuous chuckles all the way home, and seemed to +regard the whole affair as a great joke. Harry left him shouting at +the moon. He had scarcely meant to speak of it so soon, but the +thought of her struggle and the knowledge of her father's utter +indifference decided matters. He went back to the house, determining +on an interview in the morning. + +Mary meanwhile had been spending an evening that was anything but +pleasant--she had been going through her accounts and was horrified at +what she saw. They were badly overdrawn, most of the shops had refused +them further credit, and the little income that came to them could not +hope to cover one-half of their expenses. What was to be done? Ruin +and disgrace stared them in the face. They might borrow, but there was +no one to whom she could go. They must, of course, give up their +little house and go into rooms, but that would make very little +difference. She looked at it from every point of view and could think +of no easier alternative. She puzzled until her head ached, and the +room, misty with figures, seemed to swim round her. She felt cruelly +lonely, and her whole soul cried out for Harry--he would help her, he +would tell her what to do. She knew now that she loved him with all +the strength that was in her, that she had always loved him, from the +first moment that she had known him. She remembered her promise to him +that she would come and ask for his help if she really needed it--well, +perhaps she would, in the end, but now, at least, she must fight it out +alone. The first obvious thing was that her parents must know; that +they would be of any use was not to be expected, but at least they must +realise on what quicksands their house was built. They were like two +children, with no sense whatever of serious consequences and penalties, +and they would not, of course, realise that they were face to face with +a brick wall of debts and difficulties and that there was no way +over--but they must be told. + +On the next morning, after breakfast, Mary penned her mother into the +little drawing-room and broached the subject. Mrs. Bethel knew that +something serious was to follow, and sat on the edge of her chair, +looking exactly like a naughty child convicted of a fault. She was +wearing a rather faded dress of bright yellow silk and little yellow +shoes, which she poked out from under her dress every now and again and +regarded with a complacent air. + +"They are really not so shabby, Mary, my dear--not nearly so shabby as +the blue ones, and a good deal more handsome--don't you think so, my +dear? But you say you want to talk about something, so I'll be +quiet--only if you wouldn't mind being just a little quick because +there are, really, so many things to be done this morning, that it +puzzles me how----" + +"Yes, mother, I know. But there is something I want to say. I won't +be long, only it's rather important." + +"Yes, dear--only don't scold. You look as if you were going to scold. +I can always tell by that horrid line you have, dear, in your forehead. +I know I've done something I oughtn't to, but what it is unless it's +those red silks I bought at Dixon's on Friday, and they were so cheap, +only----" + +"No, mother, it's nothing you've done. It's rather what I've done, or +all of us. We are all in the same boat. It's my managing, I suppose; +anyhow, I've made a mess of it and we're very near the end of the rope. +There doesn't seem any outlook anywhere. We're overdrawn at the bank; +they won't give us credit in the town, and I don't see where any's to +come from." + +"Oh, it's money! Well, my dear, of course it is provoking--such a +horrid thing to have to worry about; but really I'm quite relieved. I +thought it was something I'd done. You quite frightened me; and I'm +glad you don't mind about the red silks, because it really was tempting +with----" + +"No, dear, that's all right. But this is serious. I've come to the +end and I want you to help me. Will you just go through the books with +me and see if anything can be done? I'm so tired and worried. I've +been going at them so long that I daresay I've muddled it. It mayn't +be quite so hopeless as I've made out." + +"The books! My dear Mary----" Mrs. Bethel looked at her daughter +pathetically. "You know that I've no head for figures. Why, when +mother died at home--we were in Chertsey then, Frank and Doris and +I--and I tried to manage things, you know, it was really too absurd. I +used to make the most ridiculous mistakes and Frank said that the +village people did just what they liked with me, and I remember old +Mrs. Blenkinsop charging me for eggs after the first month at quite an +outrageous rate because----" + +"Yes, mother, I know. But two heads are better than one, and I am +really hopelessly puzzled to know what to do." Mary got up and went +over to her mother and put her arm round her. "You see, dear, it is +serious. There's no money at all--less than none; and I don't know +where we are to turn. There's no outlook at all. I'm afraid that it's +no use appealing to father--no use--and so it's simply left for us two +to do what we can. It's frightening always doing it alone, and I +thought you would help me." + +"Well, of course, Mary dear, I'll do what I can. No, I'm afraid that +it would be no good appealing to your father. It's strange how very +little sense he's ever had of money--of the value of it. I remember in +the first week that we were married he bought some book or other and we +had to go without quite a lot of things. I was angry then, but I've +learnt since. It was our first quarrel." + +She sighed. It was always Mrs. Bethel's method of dealing with any +present problem to flee into the happy land of reminiscence and to stay +there until the matter had, comfortably or otherwise, settled itself. + +"But I shouldn't worry," she said, looking up at her daughter. "Things +always turn up, and besides," she added, "you might marry, dear." + +"Marry!" Mary looked up at her mother sharply. Mrs. Bethel looked a +little frightened. + +"Well, you will, you know, dear, probably--and perhaps--well, if he had +money----" + +"Mother!" She sprang up from her chair and faced her with flaming +cheeks. "Do you mean to say that they are talking about it?" + +"They? Who? It was only Mrs. Morrison the other day, at tea-time, +said--that she thought----" + +"Mrs. Morrison? That hateful woman discussing me? Mother, how could +you let her? What did she say?" + +"Why, only--I wish you wouldn't look so cross, dear. It was nothing +really--only that Mr. Trojan obviously cared a good deal--and it would +be so nice if----" + +"How dare she?" Mary cried again. "And you think it too, mother--that +I would go on my knees to him to take us out of our trouble--that I +would sweep his floors if he would help the family! Oh! It's hateful! +Hateful!" + +She flung herself into a chair by the window and burst into tears. +Mrs. Bethel stared at her in amazement. "Well, upon my word, my dear, +one never knows how to take you! Why, it wasn't as if she'd said +anything, only that it would be rather nice." She paused in utter +bewilderment and seemed herself a little inclined to cry. + +At this moment the door opened--Mary sprang up. "Who is it?" she asked. + +"Mr. Henry Trojan, miss, would like to come up if it wouldn't----" + +"No. Tell him, Jane, that----" + +But he had followed the servant and appeared in the doorway smiling. + +"I knew you wouldn't mind my coming unconventionally like this," he +said; "it's a terrible hour in the morning--but I felt sure that I +would catch you." + +He had seen at once that there was something wrong, and he stopped +confusedly in the doorway. + +But Mrs. Bethel came forward, smiling nervously. + +"Oh, please, Mr. Trojan, do come in. We always love to see you--you +know we do--you're one of our real friends--one of our best--and it's +only too good of you to spare time to come round and see us. But I am +busy--it's quite true--one is, you know, in the morning; but I don't +think that Mary has anything very important immediately. I think she +might stop and talk to you," and in a confusion of tittered apologies +she vanished away. + +But he stood in the doorway, waiting for Mary to speak. She sat with +her head turned to the window and struggled to regain her self-command; +they had been talked about in the town. She could imagine how it had +gone. "Oh! the Bethel girl! Yes, after the Trojan money and doing it +cleverly too; she'll hook him all right--he's just the kind of man." +Oh! the hatefulness of it! + +"What's up?" He came forward a little, twisting his hat in his hands. + +"Nothing!" She turned round and tried to smile. Indeed she almost +laughed, for he looked so ridiculous standing there--like a great +schoolboy before the headmaster, his hat turning in his hands; or +rather, like a collie plunging out of the water and ready to shake +himself on all and sundry. As she looked at him she knew that she +loved him and that she could never marry him because Pendragon thought +that she had hooked him for his money. + +"Yes--there is something. What is it?" He had come forward and taken +her hands. + +But she drew them away slowly and sat down on the sofa. "I'm tired," +she said a little defiantly, "that's all--you know if you will come and +call at such dreadfully unconventional hours you mustn't expect to find +people with all the paint on. I never put mine on till lunch----" + +"No--it's no good," he answered gravely. "You're worried, and it's +wrong of you not to tell me. You are breaking your promise----" + +"I made no promise," she said quickly. + +"You did--that day on the moor. We were to tell each other always if +anything went wrong. It was a bargain." + +"Well, nothing's wrong. I'm tired--bothered a bit--the old +thing--there's more to be bought than we're able to pay for." + +"I've come with a proposition," he answered gravely. "Just a +suggestion, which I don't suppose you'll consider--but you might--it is +that you should marry me." + +It had come so suddenly that it took her by surprise. The colour flew +into her cheeks and then ebbed away again, leaving her whiter than +ever. That he should have actually said the words made her heart beat +furiously, and there was a singing in her ears so that she scarcely +heard what he said. He paused a moment and then went on. "Oh! I know +it's absurd when we've only known each other such a little time, and +I've been telling myself that again and again--but it's no good. I've +tried to keep it back, but I simply couldn't help it--it's been too +strong for me." + +He paused again, but she said nothing and he went on. "I ought to tell +you about myself, so that you should know, because I'm really a very +rotten type of person. I've never done anything yet, and I don't +suppose I ever shall; I've been a failure at most things, and I'm +stupid. I never read the right sort of books, or look at the right +sort of pictures, or like the right sort of music, and even at the sort +of things that most men are good at I'm nothing unusual. I can't +write, you know, a bit, and in my letters I express myself like a boy +of fifteen. And then I'm old--quite middle-aged--although I feel young +enough. So that all these things are against me, and it's really a +shame to ask you." + +He paused again, and then he said timidly, bending towards her-- + +"Could you ever, do you think, give me just a little hope--I wouldn't +want you to right away at once--but, any time, after you'd thought +about it?" + +She looked up at him and saw that he was shaking from head to foot. +Her pride was nearly overcome and she wanted to fling herself at his +feet, and kiss his hands, and never let him go, but she remembered that +Pendragon had said that she was catching him for his money; so, by a +great effort, she stayed where she was, and answered quietly, even +coldly-- + +"I am more honoured, Mr. Trojan, than I can tell you by your asking me. +It is much, very much more than I deserve, and, indeed, I'm not in the +least worthy of it. I'm sorry, but I'm afraid it's no good. You see +I'm such a stupid sort of girl--I muddle things so. It would never do +for me to attempt to manage a big place like 'The Flutes'--and then I +don't think I shall ever marry. I don't think I am that sort of girl. +You have been an awfully good friend to me, and I'm more grateful to +you than I can say. I can't tell you how much you have helped us all +during these last weeks. But I'm afraid I must say no." + +The light from the window fell on her hair and the blue of her dress--a +little gold pin at her throat flashed and sparkled; his eye caught it, +and was fixed there. + +"No--don't say actually no." He was stammering. "Please--please. +Think about it after I have gone away. I will come again another day +when you have thought about it. I'm so stupid in saying things--I +can't express myself; but, Miss Bethel--Mary--I love you--I love you. +There isn't much to say about it--I can't express it any better--but, +please--you mustn't say no like that. I would be as good a husband to +you as I could, dear, always. I'm not the sort of fellow to change." + +"No"--she was speaking quickly as though she meant it to be final--"no, +really, I mean it. I can't, I can't. You see one has to feel certain +about it, hasn't one?--and I don't--not quite like that. But you are +the very best friend that I have ever had; don't let it spoil that." + +"Perhaps," he said slowly, "it's my age. You don't feel that you could +with a man old enough to be your father. But I'm young--younger than +Robin. But I won't bother you about it. Of course, if you are +certain----" + +He rose and stumbled a moment over the chair as he passed to the door. + +"Oh! I'm so sorry!" she cried. "I----" and then she had to turn to +hide her face. In her heart there was a struggle such as she had never +faced before. Her love called her a fool and told her that she was +flinging her life away--that the ship of her good fortune was sailing +from her, and it would be soon beyond the horizon; but her pride +reminded her of what they had said--that she had laid traps for him, +for his money. + +"I am sorry," she said again. "But it must be only friendship." + +But she had forgotten that although her back was turned he was towards +the mirror. He could see her--her white face and quivering lips. + +He sprang towards her. + +"Mary, try me. I will love you better than any man in God's world, +always. I will live for you, and work for you, and die for you." + +It was more than she could bear. She could not reason now. She was +only resolved that she would not give way, and she pushed past him +blindly, her head hanging. + +The drawing-room door closed. He stared dully in front of him. Then +he picked up his hat and left the house. + +She had flung herself on her bed and lay there motionless. She heard +the door close, his steps on the stairs, and then the outer door. + +She sprang to the window, and then, moved by some blind impulse, rushed +to the head of the stairs. There were steps, and Mrs. Bethel's voice +penetrated the gloom. "Mary, Mary, where are you?" + +She crept back to her room. + +He walked back to "The Flutes" with the one fact ever before him--that +she had refused him. He realised now that it had been his love for her +that had kept him during these weeks sane and brave. Without it, he +could not have faced his recent troubles and all the desolate sense of +outlawry and desolation that had weighed on him so terribly. Now he +must face it, alone, with the knowledge that she did not love him--that +she had told him so. It was his second rejection--the second flinging +to the ground of all his defences and walls of protection. Robin had +rejected him, Mary had rejected him, and he was absolutely, horribly +alone. He thought for a moment of Dahlia Feverel and of her desertion. +Well, she had faced it pluckily; he would do the same. Life could be +hard, but he would not be beaten. His methods of consolation, his +pulling of himself together--it was all extremely commonplace, but then +he was an essentially commonplace man, and saw things unconfusedly, one +at a time, with no entanglement of motives or complicated searching for +origins. He had accepted the fact of his rejection by his family with +the same clear-headed indifference to side-issues as he accepted now +his rejection by Mary. He could not understand "those artist fellows +with their complications"--life for him was perfectly straight-forward. + +But the gods had not done with his day. On the way up to his room he +was met by Clare. + +"Father is worse," she said quickly. "He took a turn this morning, and +now, perhaps, he will not live through the night. Dr. Turner and Dr. +Craile are both with him. He asked for you a little while ago." + +She passed down the stairs--the quiet, self-composed woman of every +day. It was characteristic of a Trojan that the more agitated outside +circumstances became the quieter he or she became. Harry was Trojan in +this, and, as was customary with him, he put aside his own worries and +dealt entirely with the matter in hand. + +Already, over the house, a change was evident. In the absolute +stillness there could be felt the presence of a crisis, and the +monotonous flap of a blind against some distant window sounded clearly +down the passages. + +In Sir Jeremy's room there was perfect stillness. The two doctors had +gone downstairs and the nurse was alone. "He asked for you, sir," she +whispered; "he is unconscious again now." + +Harry sat down by the bed and waited. The air was heavy with scents of +medicine, and the drawn blinds flung grey, ghost-like shadows over the +bed. The old man seemed scarcely changed. The light had gone from his +eyes and his hand lay motionless on the sheets, and his lips moved +continually in a never-ceasing murmur. + +Suddenly he turned and his eyes opened. The nurse moved forward. +"Where's Harry?" He waved his arm feebly in the air. + +"I'm here, father," Harry said quietly. + +"Ah, that's good"--he sank back on the pillows again. "I'm going to +die, you know, and I'm lonely. It's damned gloomy--got to die--don't +want to--but got to." + +He felt for his son's hand, found it, and held it. Then he passed off +again into half-conscious sleep, and Harry watched, his hand in his +father's and his thoughts with the girl and the boy who had rejected +him rather than with the old man who had accepted him. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +Meanwhile there was Robin--and he had been spending several very +unhappy days. In the gloom of his room, alone and depressed, he had +been passing things in review. He had never hitherto felt any very +burning desire to know how he stood with the world; at school and +Cambridge he had not thought at all--he had just, as it were, slid into +things; his surroundings had grouped themselves of their own accord, +making a delicately appreciative circle with no disturbing element. +His friends had been of his own kind, the things that he had wished to +do he had done, his thoughts had been dictated by set forms and +customs. This had seemed to him, hitherto, an extraordinarily broad +outlook; he had never doubted for a moment its splendid infallibility. +He applied the tests of his set to the world at large, and the world +conformed. Life was very easy on such terms, and he had been happy and +contented. + +His meeting with Dahlia had merely lent a little colour to his pleasant +complacency, and then, when it had threatened to become something more, +he had ruthlessly cut it out. This should have been simple enough, and +he had been at a loss to understand why the affair had left any traces. +Friends of his at college had had such episodes, and had been mildly +amused at their rapid conclusion. He had tried to be mildly amused at +the conclusion of his own affair, but had failed miserably. Why? ... +he did not know. He must be sensitive, he supposed; then, in that +case, he had failed to reach the proper standard.... Randal was never +sensitive. But there had been other things. + +During the last week everything had seemed to be topsy-turvy. He dated +it definitely from the arrival of his father. He recalled the day; his +tie was badly made, he remembered, and he had been rather concerned +about it. How curious it all was; he must have changed since then, +because now--well, ties seemed scarcely to matter at all. He saw his +father standing at the open window watching the lighted town.... +"Robin, old boy, we'll have a good time, you and I..."--and then Aunt +Clare with her little cry of horror, and his father's hurried apology. +That had been the beginning of things; one could see how it would go +from the first. Had it, after all, been so greatly his father's fault? +He was surprised to find that he was regarding his uncle and aunt +critically.... It had been their fault to a great extent--they had +never given him a chance. Then he remembered the next morning and his +own curt refusal to his father's invitation--"He had books to pack for +Randal!" How absurd it was, and he wondered why he should have +considered Randal so important. He could have waited for the books. + +But these things depended entirely on his own sudden discovery that he +had failed in a crisis--failed, and failed lamentably. He did not +believe that Randal would have failed. Randal would not have worried +about it for a moment. What, then, was precisely the difference? He +had acted throughout according to the old set formula--he had applied +all the rules of the game as he had learnt them, and nevertheless he +had been beaten. And so there had crept over him gradually, slowly, +and at last overwhelmingly, the knowledge that the world that he had +imagined was not the world as it is, that the people he had admired +were not the only admirable people in it, and that the laws that had +governed him were only a small fragment of the laws that rule the world. + +When this discovery first comes to a man the effect is deadening; like +a ship that has lost its bearings he plunges in a sea of entangled, +confused ideas with no assurances as to his own ability to reach any +safe port whatever. It is this crisis that marks the change from youth +to manhood. + +Three weeks ago Robin had been absolutely confident, not only in +himself, but in his relations, his House and his future; now he trusted +in nothing. But he had not yet arrived at the point when he could +regard his own shortcomings as the cause of his unhappiness; he pointed +to circumstances, his aunt, his uncle, Dahlia, even Randal, and he +began a search for something more reliable. + +Of course, his aunt and uncle might have solved the problem for him; he +had not dared to question them and they had never mentioned the subject +themselves, but they did not look as though they had succeeded--he +fancied that they had avoided him during the last few days. + +The serious illness of his grandfather still further complicated +matters; he was not expected to live through the week. Robin was +sorry, but he had never seen very much of his grandfather; and it was, +after all, only fitting that such a very old man should die some time; +no, the point really was that his father would in a week's time be Sir +Henry Trojan and head of the House--that was what mattered. + +Now his father was the one person whom he could find no excuse whatever +for blaming. He had stood entirely outside the affair from the +beginning, and, as far as Robin could tell, knew nothing whatever about +it. Robin, indeed, had taken care that he should not interfere; he had +been kept outside from the first. + +No, Robin could not blame his father for the state of things; perhaps, +even, it might have been better if his advice had been asked. + +But everything drove him back to the ultimate fact from which, indeed, +there was no escaping--that there was every prospect of his finding +himself, within a few weeks' time, the interesting centre of a common +affair in the Courts for Breach of Promise; and as this ultimate issue +shone clearer and clearer Robin's terror increased in volume. To his +excited fancy, living and dead seemed to turn upon him. Country +cousins--the Rev. George Trojan of West Taunton, a clergyman whose +evangelical tendencies had been the mock of the House; Colonel Trojan +of Cheltenham, a Port-and-Pepper Indian, as Robin had scornfully called +him; the Misses Trojan of Southsea, ladies of advanced years and +slender purses, who always sent him a card at Christmas; Mrs. Adeline +Trojan of Teignmouth, who had spent her life in beating at the doors of +London Society and had retired at last, defeated, to the provincial +gentility of a seaside town--Oh! Robin had laughed at them all and +scorned them again and again--and behold how the tables would be +turned! And the Dead! Their scorn would be harder still to bear. He +had thought of them often enough and had long ago known their histories +by heart. He had gazed at their portraits in the Long Gallery until he +knew every line of their faces: old Lady Trojan of 1640, a little like +Rembrandt's "Lady with the Ruff," with her stern mouth and eyes and +stiff white collar--she must have been a lady of character! Sir +Charles Trojan, her son, who plotted for William of Orange and was +rewarded royally after the glorious Revolution; Lady Gossiter Trojan, a +woman who had taken active part in the '45, and used "The Flutes" as a +refuge for intriguing Jacobites; and, best of all, a dim black picture +of a man in armour that hung over the mantel-piece, a portrait of a +certain Sir Robert Trojan who had fought in the Barons' Wars and been a +giant of his times; he had always been Robin's hero and had formed the +centre of many an imaginary tapestry worked by Robin's brain--and now +his descendant must pay costs in a Breach of Promise Case! + +They had all had their faults, those Trojans; some of them had robbed +and murdered with little compunction, but they had always had their +pride, they had never done anything really low--what they had done they +had done with a high hand; Robin would be the first of the family to +let them down. And it was rather curious to think that, three weeks +ago, it had been his father who was going to let them down. Robin +remembered with what indignation he had heard of his father's visits to +the Cove, his friendship with Bethel and the rest--but surely it was +they who had driven him out! It was their own doing from the first--or +rather his aunt and uncle's. He was beginning to be annoyed with his +aunt and uncle. He felt vaguely that they had got him into the mess +and were quite unable to pull him out again; which reflection brought +him back to the original main business, namely, that there was a mess, +and a bad one. + +It was one of his qualities of youth that he could not wait; patience +was an utterly unlearned virtue, and this desperate uncertainty, this +sitting like Damocles under a sword suspended by a hair, was hard to +bear. What was Dahlia doing? Had she already taken steps? He watched +every post with terror lest it should contain a lawyer's writ. He had +the vaguest ideas about such things ... perhaps they would put him in +prison. To his excited fancy the letters seemed enormous--horrible, +black, menacing, large for all the world to see. What had Aunt Clare +done? His uncle? And then, last of all, had his father any suspicions? + +Whether it was the London tailor, or simply the reassuring hand of +custom, his father was certainly not the uncouth person he had seemed +three weeks ago; in fact, Robin was beginning to think him rather +handsome--such muscles and such a chest!--and he really carried himself +very well, and indeed, loose, badly-made clothes suited him rather +well. And then he had changed so in other ways; there was none of that +overwhelming cheerfulness, that terrible hail-fellow-well-met kind of +manner now; he was brief and to the point, he seldom smiled, and surely +it wasn't to be wondered at after the way in which they had treated him +at the family council a week ago. + +There had been several occasions lately on which Robin would have liked +to have spoken to his father. He had begun, once, after breakfast, a +halting conversation, but he had only received monosyllables as a +reply--the thing had broken down painfully. And so he went down to his +aunt. + +It was her room again, and she was having tea with Uncle Garrett. +Robin remembered the last occasion, only a week ago, when he had made +his confession. He had been afraid of hurting his aunt then, he +remembered. He did not mind very much now ... he saw his aunt and +uncle as two people suddenly grown effete, purposeless, incapable. +They seemed to have changed altogether, which only meant that he was, +at last, finding himself. + +There hung a gloom over Clare's tea-table, partly, no doubt, because of +Sir Jeremy--the old man with the wrinkled hands and parchment face +seemed to follow one, noiselessly, remorselessly, through every passage +and into every room ... but there was also something else--that tension +always noticeable in a room where people whose recent action towards +some common goal is undeclared are gathered together; they were waiting +for some one else to make the next move. + +And it was Robin who made it, asking at once, as he dropped the sugar +into his cup and balanced for a moment the tongs in the air: "Well, +Aunt Clare, what have you done?" + +She noticed at once that he asked it a little scornfully, as though +assured beforehand that she had done very little. There was a note of +antagonism in the way that he had spoken, a hint, even, of challenge. +She knew at once that he had changed during the last week, and again, +knowing as she did of her failure with the girl, and guessing perhaps +at its probable sequence, she hated Harry from the bottom of her heart. + +"Done? Why, how, Robin dear? I don't advise those tea-cakes--they're +heavy. I must speak to Wilson--she's been a little careless lately; +those biscuits are quite nice. Done, dear?" + +"Yes, aunt--about Miss Feverel. No, I don't want anything to eat, +thanks--it seems only an hour or so since lunch--yes--about--well, +those letters?" + +Clare looked up at him pleadingly. He was speaking a little like +Harry; she had noticed during the last week that he had several things +in common with his father--little things, the way that he wrinkled his +forehead, pushed back his hair with his hand; she was not sure that it +was not conscious imitation, and indeed it had seemed to her during the +last week that every day drew him further from herself and nearer to +Harry. She had counted on this affair as a means of reclaiming him, +and now she must confess failure--Oh! it was hard! + +"Well, Robin, I have tried----" She paused. + +"Well?" he said drily, waiting. + +"I'm afraid it wasn't much of a success," she said, trying to laugh. +"I suppose that really I'm not good at that sort of thing." + +"At what sort of thing?" + +He stood over her like a judge, the certainty of her failure the only +thing that he could grasp. He did not recognise her own love for him, +her fear lest he should be angry; he was merciless as he had been three +weeks ago with his father, as he had been with Dahlia Feverel, and for +the same reason--because each had taken from him some of that armour of +self-confidence in which he had so greatly trusted; the winds of the +heath were blowing about him and he stood, stripped, shivering, before +the world. + +"She was not good at that sort of thing"--that was exactly it, exactly +the summary of his new feeling about his aunt and uncle; they were not +able to cope with that hard, new world into which he had been so +suddenly flung--they were, he scornfully considered, "tea-table" +persons, and in so judging them he condemned himself. + +"I'm so very sorry, dear. I did my very best. I went to see +the--um--Miss Feverel, and we talked about them. But I'm afraid that I +couldn't persuade her--she seemed determined----" + +"What did she say?" + +"Oh, very little--only that she considered that the letters were hers +and that therefore she had every right to keep them if she liked. She +seemed to attach some especial, rather sentimental value to them, and +considered, apparently, that it would be quite impossible to give them +up." + +"How was she looking--ill?" It had been one of Robin's consolations +during these weeks to imagine her pale, wretched, broken down. + +"Oh no, extremely well. She seemed rather amused at the whole affair. +I was not there very long." + +"And is that all you have done? Have you, I mean, taken any other +steps?" + +"Yes--I wrote yesterday morning. I got an answer this morning." + +"What was it?" Robin spoke eagerly. Perhaps his aunt had some surprise +in store and would produce the letters suddenly; surely Dahlia would +not have written unless she had relented. + +Clare went to her writing-table and returned with the letter, held +gingerly between finger and thumb. + +"I'm afraid it's not very long," she said, laughing nervously, and +again looking at Robin appealingly. "I had written asking her to think +over what she had said to me the day before. She says: + + +"'DEAR Miss TROJAN--Surely the matter is closed after what happened the +other day? I am extremely sorry that you should be troubled by my +decision; but it is, I am afraid, unalterable.--Yours truly, + +D. FEVEREL.'" + + +"Her decision?" cried Robin quickly. "Had she told you anything? Had +she decided anything?" + +"Only that she would keep the letters," answered Clare slowly. "You +couldn't expect me, Robin dear, to argue with her about it. One had, +after all, one's dignity." + +"Oh! it's no use!" cried Robin. "She means to use them--of course, +it's all plain enough; we've just got to face it, I suppose"; and then, +as a forlorn hope, turning to his uncle-- + +"You've done nothing, I suppose, Uncle Garrett?" + +His uncle had hitherto taken no part in the discussion, but sat intent +on the book that he was reading. Now he answered, without looking up-- + +"Yes--I saw the girl." + +"You saw her?" from Clare. + +"What! Dahlia!" from Robin. + +"Yes, I called." He laid the book down on his knee and enjoyed the +effect of his announcement. He could be important for a moment at any +rate, although he must, with his next words, confess failure, so he +prolonged the situation. "Some more tea, Clare, please, and not quite +so strong this time--you might speak about the tea--why not make it +yourself?" + +She took his cup and went over to the tea-table. She knew how to play +the game as well as he did, and she showed no astonishment or vulgar +curiosity, but if he had succeeded where she had failed she must change +her hand. She had never thought very much about Garrett; he was a +thorough Trojan--for that she was very grateful, but he had always been +more of an emblem to her than a man. Now if he had got the letters she +was humiliated indeed. Robin would despise her for having failed where +his uncle had succeeded. + +"Well, have you got them?" + +Robin bent forward eagerly. + +"No, not precisely," Garrett answered deliberately. "But I went to see +her----" + +"With what result?" + +"With no precise result--that is to say, she did not promise to +surrender them--not immediately. But I have every hope----" He paused +mysteriously. + +"Of what?" If his uncle had really a chance of getting them, he was +not such a fool after all. Perhaps he was a cleverer man than one gave +him credit for being. + +"Well, of course, one has very little ground for any real assertion, +but we discussed the matter at some length. I think I convinced her +that it would be her wisest course to deliver up the letters as soon as +might be, and I assured her that we would let the matter rest there and +take no further steps. I think she was impressed," and he sipped his +tea slowly and solemnly. + +"Impressed! Yes, but what has she promised?" Robin cried impatiently. +He knew Dahlia better than they did, and he did not feel somehow that +she was very likely to be impressed with Uncle Garrett. He was not the +kind of man. + +"Promised? No, not a precise promise--but she was quite pleasant and +seemed to be open to argument--quite a nice young person." + +"Ah! you have done nothing!" There was a note of relief in Clare's +exclamation. "Why not say so at once, Garrett, instead of beating +about the bush? There is an end of it. We have failed, Robin, both of +us; we are where we were before, and what to do next I really don't +know." + +It was rather a comfort to drag Garrett into it as well. She was glad +that he had tried; it made her own failure less noticeable. + +Robin looked at both of them, gloomily, from the fireplace. Aunt +Clare, handsome, aristocratic, perfectly well fitted to pour out tea in +any society, but useless, useless, useless when it came to the real +thing; Uncle Garrett and his eyeglass, trying to make the most of a +situation in which he had most obviously failed--no, they were no good +either of them, and three weeks ago they had seemed the ultimate +standard by which his own life was to be tested. How quickly one +learnt! + +"Well, what is to be done?" he said desperately. "It's plain enough +that she means to stick to the things; and, after all, there can only +be one reason for her doing it--she means to use them. I can see no +way out of it at all--one must just stand up to it." + +"We'll think, dear, we'll think," said Clare eagerly. "Ideas are sure +to come if we only wait." + +"Wait! But we can't wait!" cried Robin. "She'll move at once. +Probably the letters are in the lawyer's hands already." + +"Then there's nothing to be done," said Garrett comfortably, settling +back again into his book--he was, he flattered himself, a man of most +excellent practical sense. + +"No, it really seems, Robin, as if we had better wait," said Clare. +"We must have patience. Perhaps after all she has taken no steps." + +But Robin was angry. He had long ago forgotten his share in the +business; he had adopted so successfully the rôle of injured sufferer +that his own actions seemed to him almost meritorious. But he was very +angry with them. Here they were, in the face of a family crisis, +deliberately adopting a policy of _laissez-faire_; he had done his best +and had failed, but he was young and ignorant of the world (that at +least he now admitted), but they were old, experienced, wise--or, at +least, they had always seemed to him to stand for experience and +wisdom, and yet they could do nothing--nay, worse--they seemed to wish +to do nothing--Oh! he was angry with them! + +The whole room with its silver and knick-knacks--its beautifully worked +cushions and charming water-colours, its shining rows of complete +editions and dainty china stood to him now for incapacity. Three weeks +ago it had seemed his Holy of Holies. + +"But we can't wait," he repeated--"we can't! Don't you see, Aunt +Clare, she isn't the sort of girl that waiting does for? She'd never +dream of waiting herself." Dahlia seemed, by contrast with their +complacent acquiescence, almost admirable. + +"Well, dear," Clare answered, "your uncle and I have both tried--I +think that we may be alarming ourselves unnecessarily. I must say she +didn't seem to me to bear any grudge against you. I daresay she will +leave things as they are----" + +"Then why keep the letters?" + +"Oh, sentiment. It would remind her, you see----" + +But Robin could only repeat--"No, she's not that kind of girl," and +marvel, perplexedly, at their short-sightedness. + +And then he approached the point-- + +"There is, of course," he said slowly, "one other person who might help +us----" He paused. + +Garrett put his book down and looked up. Clare leaned towards him. + +"Yes?" Clare looked slightly incredulous of any suggested remedy--but +apparently composed and a little tired of all this argument. But, in +reality, her heart was beating furiously. Had it come at last?--that +first mention of his father that she had dreaded for so many days. + +"I really cannot think----" from Garrett. + +"Why not my father?" + +Again it seemed to Clare that she and Harry were struggling for Robin +... since that first moment of his entry they had struggled--she with +her twenty years of faithful service, he with nothing--Oh! it was +unfair! + +"But, Robin," she said gently--"you can't--not, at least, after what +has happened. This is an affair for ourselves--for the family." + +"But _he_ is the family!" + +"Well, in a sense, yes. But his long absence--his different way of +looking at things--make it rather hard. It would be better, wouldn't +it, to settle it here, without its going further." + +"To _settle_ it, yes--but we can't--we don't--we are leaving things +quite alone--waiting--when we ought to do something." + +Robin knew that she was showing him that his father was still outside +the circle--that for herself and Uncle Garrett recent events had made +no difference. + +But was he outside the circle? Why should he be? At any rate he would +soon be head of the House, and then it would matter very little---- + +"Also," Clare added, "he will scarcely have time just now. He is with +father all day--and I don't see what he could do, after all." + +"He could see her," said Robin slowly. He suddenly remembered that +Dahlia had once expressed great admiration for his father--she was the +very woman to like that kind of man. A hurried mental comparison +between his father and Uncle Garrett favoured the idea. + +"He could see her," he said again. "I think she might like him." + +"My dear boy," said Garrett, "take it from me that what a man could do +I've done. I assure you it's useless. Your father is a very excellent +man, but, I must confess, in my opinion scarcely a diplomat----" + +"Well, at any rate it's worth trying," cried Robin impatiently. "We +must, I suppose, eat humble pie after the things you said to him, Aunt +Clare, the other day, but I must confess it's the only chance. He will +be decent about it, I'm sure--I think you scarcely realise how nasty it +promises to be." + +"Who is to ask?" said Garrett. + +"I will ask him," said Clare suddenly. "Perhaps after all Robin is +right--he might do something." + +It might, she thought, be the best thing. Unless he tried, Robin would +always consider him capable of succeeding--but he should try and +fail--fail! Why, of course he would fail. + +"Thank you, Aunt Clare." Robin walked to the door and then turned: +"Soon would be best"--then he closed the door behind him. + +His father was coming down the stairs as he passed through the hall. +He saw him against the light of the window and he half turned as though +to speak to him--but his father gave no sign; he looked very +stern--perhaps his grandfather was dead. + +The sudden fear--the terror of death brought very close to him for the +first time--caught him by the throat. + +"He is not dead?" he whispered. + +"He is asleep," Harry said, stopping for a moment on the last step of +the stairs and looking at him across the hall--"I am afraid that he +won't live through the night." + +They had both spoken softly, and the utter silence of the house, the +heaviness of the air so that it seemed to hang in thick clouds above +one's head, drove Robin out. He looked as though he would speak, and +then, with bent head, passed into the garden. + +He felt most miserably lonely and depressed--if he hadn't been so old +and proud he would have hidden in one of the bushes and cried. It was +all so terrible--his grandfather, that weighty, eerie impression of +Death felt for the first time, the dreadful uncertainty of the Feverel +affair, all things were quite enough for misery, but this feeling of +loneliness was new to him. + +He had always had friends, but even when they had failed him there had +been behind them the House--its traditions, its records, its +history--his aunt and uncle, and, most reassuring of all, himself. + +But now all these had failed him. His friends were vaguely +unattractive; Randal was terribly superficial, he was betraying the +House; his aunt and uncle were unsatisfactory, and for himself--well, +he wasn't quite so splendid as he had once thought. He was wretchedly +dissatisfied with it all and felt that he would give all the polish and +culture in the world for a simple, unaffected friendship in which he +could trust. + +"Some one," he said angrily, "that would do something"--and his +thoughts were of his father. + +It was dark now, and he went down to the sea, because he liked the +white flash of the waves as they broke on the beach--this sudden +appearing and disappearing and the rustle of the pebbles as they turned +slowly back and vanished into the night again. + +He liked, too, the myriad lights of the town: the rows of lamps, rising +tier on tier into the night sky, like people in some great amphitheatre +waiting in silence for the rising of a mighty curtain. He always +thought on these nights of Germany--Germany, Worms, the little +bookseller, the distant gleam of candles in the Cathedrals, the flash +of the sun through the trees over the Rhine, the crooked, cobbled +streets at night with the moon like a lamp and the gabled roofs +flinging wild shadows over the stones ... the night-sea brought it very +close and carried Randal and Cambridge and Dahlia Feverel very far +away, although he did not know why. + +He watched the light of the town and the waves and the great flashing +eye of the lighthouse and then turned back. As he climbed the steps up +the cliff he heard some one behind him, and, turning, saw that it was +Mary Bethel. She said "Good-night" quickly and was going to pass him, +but he stopped her. + +"I haven't seen you for ages, Mary," he said. He resolved to speak to +her. She knew his father and had always been a good sort--perhaps she +would help him. + +"Are you coming back, Robin?" she said, stopping and smiling. There +was a lamp at the top of the cliff where the road ran past the steps, +and by the light of it he saw that she had been crying. But he was too +much occupied with his own affairs to consider the matter very deeply, +and then girls cried so easily. + +"Yes," he said, "let us go round by the road and the Chapel--it's a +splendid night; besides, we don't seem to have met recently. We've +both been busy, I suppose, and I've a good deal to talk about." + +"If you like," she said, rather listlessly. It would, at least, save +her from her own thoughts and protect her perhaps from the ceaseless +repetition of that scene of three days ago when she had turned the man +that she loved more than all the world away and had lied to him because +she was proud. + +And so at first she scarcely listened to him. They walked down the +road that ran along the top of the cliff and the great eye of the +lighthouse wheeled upon them, flashed and vanished; she saw the room +with its dingy carpet and wide-open window, and she heard his voice +again and saw his hands clenched--oh! she had been a fine fool! So it +was little wonder that she did not hear his son. + +But Robin had at last an audience and he knew no mercy. All the +agitation of the last week came pouring forth--he lost all sense of +time and place; he was at the end of the world addressing infinity on +the subject of his woes, and it says a good deal for his vanity and not +much for his sense of humour that he did not feel the lack of +proportion in such a position. + +"It was a girl, you know--perhaps you've met her--a Miss +Feverel--Dahlia Feverel. I met her at Cambridge and we got rather +thick, and then I wrote to her--rot, you know, like one does--and when +I wanted to get back the letters she wouldn't let me have them, and +she's going to use them, I'm afraid, for--well--Breach of Promise!" + +He paused and waited for the effect of the announcement, but it never +came; she was walking quickly, with her head lifted to catch the wind +that blew from the sea--he could not be certain that she had heard. + +"Breach of Promise!" he repeated impressively. "It would be rather an +awful thing for people in our position if it really came to that--it +would be beastly for me. Of course, I meant nothing by it--the +letters, I mean--a chap never does. Everybody at Cambridge talks to +girls--the girls like it--but she took it seriously, and now she may +bring it down on our heads at any time, and you can't think how beastly +it is waiting for it to come. We've done all we could--all of us--and +now I can tell you it's been worrying me like anything wondering what +she's done. My uncle and aunt both tried and failed; I was rather +disappointed, because after all one would have thought that they would +be able to deal with a thing like that, wouldn't one?" + +He paused again, but she only said "Yes" and hurried on. + +"So now I'm at my wits' end and I thought that you might help me." + +"Why not your father?" she said suddenly. + +"Ah! that's just it," he answered eagerly. "That's where I wanted you +to give me your advice. You see--well, it's a little hard to +explain--we weren't very nice to the governor when he came back +first--the first day or two, I mean. He was--well, different--didn't +look at things as we did; liked different things and had strong views +about knocking down the Cove. So we went on our way and didn't pay +much attention to him--I daresay he's told you all about it--and I'm +sorry enough now, although it really was largely his own fault! I +don't think he seemed to want us to have much to do with him, and then +one day Clare spoke to him about things and asked him to consider us a +little and he flared up. + +"Well, I've a sort of idea that he could help us now--at any rate, +there's no one else. Aunt Clare said that she would ask him, but you +know him better than any of us, and, of course, it is a little +difficult for us, after the way that we've spoken to him; you might +help us, I thought." + +He couldn't be sure, even now, that Mary had been listening--she looked +so strange this evening that he was afraid of her, and half wished that +he had kept his affairs to himself. She was silent for a moment, +because she was wondering what it was that Harry had really done about +the letters. It was amusing, because they obviously didn't know that +she had told him--but what had he done? + +"Do you want me to help you, Robin?" she asked. + +"Yes, of course," he answered eagerly. "You know him so well and could +get him to do things that he would never do for us. I'm afraid of him, +or rather have been just lately. I don't know what there is about him +exactly." + +"You want me to help you?" she asked again. "Well then, you've got to +put up with a bit of my mind--you've caught me in a bad mood, and I +don't care whether it hurts you or not--you're in for a bit of plain +speaking." + +He looked up at her with surprise, but said nothing. + +"Oh, I know I'm no very great person myself," she went on +quickly--almost fiercely. "I've only known in the last few weeks how +rotten one can really be, but at least I have known--I do know--and +that's just what you don't. We've been friends for some time, you and +I--but if you don't look out, we shan't be friends much longer." + +"Why?" he asked quietly. + +"You were never very much good," she went on, paying no attention to +his question, "and always conceited, but that was your aunt's fault as +much as any one's, and she gave you that idea of your family--that you +were God's own chosen people and that no one could come within speaking +distance of you--you had that when you were quite a little boy, and you +seem to have thought that that was enough, that you need never do +anything all your life just because you were a Trojan. Eton helped the +idea, and when you went up to Cambridge you were a snob of the first +order. I thought Cambridge would knock it out of you, but it didn't; +it encouraged you, and you were always with people who thought as you +did, and you fancied that your own little corner of the earth--your own +little potato-patch--was better than every one else's gardens; I +thought you were a pretty poor thing when you came back from Cambridge +last year, but now you've beaten my expectations by a good deal----" + +"I say----" he broke in--"really I----" but she went on unheeding-- + +"Instead of working and doing something like any decent man would, you +loafed along with your friends learning to tie your tie and choosing +your waistcoat-buttons; you go and make love to a decent girl and then +when you've tired of her tell her so, and seem surprised at her hitting +back. + +"Then at last when there is a chance of your seeing what a man is +like--that he isn't only a man who dresses decently like a tailor's +model--when your father comes back and asks you to spend a few of your +idle hours with him, you laugh at him, his manners, his habits, his +friends, his way of thinking; you insult him and cut him dead--your +father, one of the finest men in the world. Why, you aren't fit to +brush his clothes!--but that isn't the worst! Now--when you find +you're in a hole and you want some one to help you out of it and you +don't know where to turn, you suddenly think of your father. He wasn't +any good before--he was rough and stupid, almost vulgar, but now that +he can help you, you'll turn and play the dutiful son! + +"That's you as you are, Robin Trojan--you asked me for it and you've +got it; it's just as well that you should see yourself as you are for +once in your life--you'll forget it all again soon enough. I'm not +saying it's only you--it's the lot of you--idle, worthless, snobbish, +empty, useless. Help you? No! You can go to your father yourself and +think yourself lucky if he will speak to you." + +Mary stopped for lack of breath. Of course, he couldn't know that +she'd been attacking herself as much as him, that, had it not been for +that scene three days ago, she would never have spoken at all. + +"I say!" he said quietly, "is it really as bad as that? Am I that sort +of chap?" + +"Yes. You know it now at least." + +"It's not quite fair. I am only like the rest. I----" + +"Yes, but why should you be? Fancy being proud that you are like the +rest! One of a crowd!" + +They turned up the road to her house, and she began to relent when she +saw that he was not angry. + +"No," he said, nodding his head slowly, "I expect you're about right, +Mary. Things have been happening lately that have made everything +different--I've been thinking ... I see my father differently...." + +Then, "How could you?" she cried. "_You_ to cut him and turn him out? +Oh! Robin! you weren't always that sort----" + +"No," he answered. "I wasn't once. In Germany I was different--when I +got away from things--but it's harder here"--and then again +slowly--"But am I really as bad as that, Mary?" + +Sudden compunction seized her. What right had she to speak to him? +After all, he was only a boy, and she was every bit as bad herself. + +"Oh! I don't know!" she said wearily. "I'm all out of sorts to-night, +Robin. We're neither of us fit to speak to him, and you've treated him +badly, all of you--I oughtn't to have spoken as I did, perhaps; but +here we are! You'd better forget it, and another day I'll tell you +some of the nice things about you----" + +"Am I that sort of chap?" he said again, staring in front of him with +his hand on the gate. She said good-night and left him standing in the +road. He turned up the hill, with his head bent. He was scarcely +surprised and not at all angry. It only seemed the climax to so many +things that had happened lately--"a snob"--"a pretty poor thing"--"You +don't work, you learn to choose your waistcoat-buttons"--that was the +kind of chap he was. And his father: "One of the finest men there +is----" He'd missed his chance, perhaps, he would never get it again! +But he would try! + +He passed into the garden and fumbled for his latch-key. He would +speak to his father to-morrow! + +Mary was quite right ... he _was_ a "pretty poor thing!" + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +That night was never forgotten by any one at "The Flutes." Down in the +servants' hall they prolonged their departure for bed to a very late +hour, and then crept, timorously, to their rooms; they were extravagant +with the electric light, and dared Benham's anger in order to secure a +little respite from terrible darkness. Stories were recalled of Sir +Jeremy's kindness and good nature, and much speculation was indulged in +as to his successor--the cook recalled her early youth and an +engagement with a soldier that aroused such sympathy in her hearers +that she fraternised, unexpectedly, with Clare's maid--a girl who had +formerly been considered "haughty," but was now found to be agreeable +and pleasant. + +Above stairs there was the same restlessness and sense of uneasy +expectancy. Clare went to bed, but not to sleep. Her mind was not +with her father--she had been waiting for his death during many long +weeks, and now that the time had arrived she could scarcely think of it +otherwise than calmly. If one had lived like a Trojan one would die +like one--quietly, becomingly, in accordance with the best traditions. +She was sure that there would be something ready for Trojans in the +next world a little different from other folks' destiny--something +select and refined--so why worry at going to meet it? + +No, it was not Sir Jeremy, but Robin. Throughout the night she heard +the clocks striking the quarters; the first light of dawn crept timidly +through the shuttered blinds, the full blaze of the sun streamed on to +her bed--and she could not sleep. The conversation of the day before +recalled itself syllable for syllable; she read into it things that had +never been there and tortured herself with suspicion and doubt. Robin +was different--utterly different. He was different even from a week +ago when he had first told them of the affair. She could hear his +voice as he had bent over her asking her to forgive him; that had +seemed to her then the hour of her triumph--but now she saw that it was +the premonition of defeat. How she had worked for him, loved him, +spoilt him; and now, in these weeks, her lifework was utterly undone. +And then, in the terrible loneliness of her room, with the darkness on +the world and round her bed and at her heart, she wept--terrible, +tearless sobbing that left her in the morning weak, unstrung, utterly +unequal to the day. + +This conversation with Robin had also worried Garrett. The consolation +that he had frequently found in the reassuring comforts of his study +seemed utterly wanting to-night. The stillness irritated him; it +seemed stuffy, close, and he had an overmastering desire for a +companion. This desire he conquered, because he felt that it would be +scarcely dignified to search the byways of the house for a friend; but +he listened for steps, and fancied over and over again that he heard +the eagerly anticipated knock. But no one came, and he sat far into +the night, fancying strange sounds and trembling at the dark; and at +last fell asleep in his chair, and was discovered in an undignified +position on the floor in the early morning by the politely astonished +Benham. + +But it was for Harry that the night most truly marked a crisis. He +spent it in vigil by the side of his father, and watched the heavy +passing of the hours, like grey solemn figures through the darkened +room. The faint glimmer of the electric light, heavily shaded, assumed +fantastic and portentous shapes and fleecy enormous shadows on the +white surface of the staring walls. Strange blue shadows glimmered +through the black caverns of the windows, and faint lights came from +beneath the door, and hovered on the ceiling like mysteriously moving +figures. + +Sir Jeremy was perfectly still. Death had come to him very gently and +had laid its hand quietly upon him, with no violence or harshness. It +was only old age that had greeted him as a friend, and then with a +smile had persuaded him to go. He was unconscious now, but at any +moment his senses might return, and then he would ask for Harry. The +crisis might come at any time, and Harry must be there. + +He felt no weariness; his brain was extraordinarily active and he +passed every incident since his return in review. It all seemed so +clear to him now; the inevitability of it all; and his own blindness in +escaping the meaning of it. It seemed now that he had known nothing of +the world at all three weeks ago. Then he had judged it from his own +knowledge--now he saw it in many lights; the point of view of Robin, of +Dahlia Feverel, of Clare, of Sir Jeremy, of Bethel, of Mary--he had +arrived at the great knowledge that Life could be absolutely right for +many different sorts of people--that the same life, like a globe of +flashing colours, could shine into every corner of obscurity, gleaming +differently in every different place and yet be unchangeable. +Murderer, robber, violator, saint, priest, king, beggar--they were all +parts of a wonderful, inevitable world, and, he saw it now, were all of +them essential. He had been tolerant before from a wide-embracing +charity; he was tolerant now from a wide-embracing knowledge: "Er +liebte jeden Hund, und wünschte von jedem Hund geliebt zu sein." + +They had all learnt in that last three weeks. Dahlia Feverel would +pass into the world with that struggle at her heart and the strength of +her victory--his father would solve the greatest question of +all--Robin! Mary! Clare!--they had all been learning too, but what it +was that they had learnt he could not yet tell; the conclusion of the +matter was to come. But it had all been, for him at least, only a +prelude; he was to stand for the world as head of the House, he had his +life before him and his work to do, he had only, like Robin, just "come +of age." + +He did not know why, but he had no longer any doubt. He knew that he +would win Robin, he knew that he would win Mary; up to that day he had +been uncertain, vacillating, miserable--but now he had no longer any +hesitation. The work of his life was to fit Robin for his due +succession, and, please God, he would do it with all his heart and soul +and strength; there was to be no false sentiment, no shifting of +difficult questions, no hiding from danger, no sheltering blindly under +unquestioned creeds, no false bids for popularity. + +Robin was to be clean, straight, and sane, with all the sturdy +cleanliness and strength and sanity that his father's love and +knowledge could give him. + +Oh! he loved his son!--but no longer blindly, as he had loved him three +weeks ago ... and so he faced his future. + +And of Mary, too, he was sure. He knew that she loved him; he had seen +her face in the mirror as her lips had said "No," and he saw that her +heart had said "Yes." With the new strength that had come to him he +vowed to force her defences and carry her away.... Oh! he could be any +knight and fight for any lady. + +But as he sat by the bed, watching the dawn struggle through the blinds +and listening to the faint, clear twittering of birds in the grey, +dew-swept garden--he wished that he could tell his father of his +engagement. He wondered if there would be time. That it would please +the old man he knew, and it would seal the compact, and place a secret +blessing on their married life together. Yes, he would like to tell +him. + +The clocks struck five--he heard their voices echo through the house; +and, at the last, the tiny voice of the cuckoo clock sounded and the +little wild flap of his wings came quite clearly through the silence; +his voice was answered by a chorus from the garden, the voices of the +birds seemed to grow ever louder and louder; in that strange dark room, +with its shaded lights and heavy airs, it was clear and fresh like the +falling of water on cold, shining stone. + +Harry went softly to the window and drew back a corner of the blind. +The dawn was gradually revealing the forms and colours of the garden, +and in the grey, misty light things were mysterious and uncertain; like +white lights in a dusky room the two white statues shone through the +mist. At that strange hour they seemed in their right atmosphere; they +seemed to move and turn and bend--he could have fancied that they +sailed on the mist--that, for a moment, they had vanished and then that +they had grown enormous, monstrous. He watched them eagerly, and as +the light grew clearer he made them out more plainly--the straight, +eager beauty of the man, the dim, mysterious grace of the woman. +Perhaps they talked in those early hours when they were alone in the +garden; perhaps they might speak to him if he were to join them then. +Then he fancied that the mist formed into figures of men and women; to +his excited fancy the garden seemed peopled with shapes that increased +and dwindled and vanished. Round the statues many shapes gathered; one +in especial seemed to walk to and fro with its face turned to the +house. It was a woman--her grey dress floated in the air, and he saw +her form outlined against the statue. Then the mist seemed to sweep +down again and catch the statues in its eddies and hide them from his +gaze. The dawn was breaking very slowly. From the window the sweep of +the sea was, in daylight, perfectly visible: now in the dim grey of the +sky it was hidden--but Harry knew where it must be and watched for its +appearance. The first lights were creeping over the sky, breaking in +delicate tints and ripples of silver and curving, arc-shaped, from the +west to the east. + +Where sky and sea divided a faint pale line of grey hovered and broke, +turning into other paler lights of the most delicate blue. The dawn +had come. + +He turned back again to the garden and started with surprise: in the +more certain light there was no doubt that it was a woman who stood +there by the statues, guarding the first early beauties of the garden. +Everything was pearl-grey, save where, high above the water of the +fountain that stood in the centre of the lawn, the sky had broken into +a little lake of the palest blue and this was reflected in the still +mirror of the fountain--but it _was_ a woman. He could see the outline +of her form--the bend of her neck as she turned with her face to the +house, the straight line of her arms as they tell at her sides. And, +as he looked, his heart began to beat thickly. He seemed to recognise +that carriage of the body from the hips, the fling-back of the head as +she stared towards the windows. + +The light of the dawn was breaking over the garden, the chorus of the +birds was loud in the trees, and he knew that it was no dream. + +He glanced for a moment at his father, and then crept softly from the +room. He found one of the nurses making tea over a spirit-lamp in the +dressing-room and asked her to take his place. + +The house was perfectly silent as he opened the French window of the +drawing-room and stepped on to the lawn. The grass was heavy with dew +and the fresh air beat about his face; he had never known anything +quite so fresh--the air, the grass, the trees, the birds' song like the +sound of hidden waters tumbling on to some unseen rock. + +Her face was turned away from him and his feet made no sound on the +grass. He came perfectly silently towards her, and then when he saw +that it had indeed been no imagination but that it was reality, and +when he knew all that her coming there meant and what it implied, for +moment his limbs shook so that he could scarcely stand. Then he +laughed a little and said "Mary!" + +She turned with a little cry, and when she saw who it was the crimson +flooded her face, changing it as the rising sun was soon to change the +grey of the sea and the garden. + +"Oh!" she cried, "I didn't know--I didn't mean. I----" + +"It is going to be a lovely day," he said quietly, "the sun will be up +in a moment. I have been watching you from my father's window." + +"Oh! You mustn't!" she cried eagerly. "I thought that I was +safe--absolutely; I was here quite by chance--really I was--I couldn't +sleep, and I thought that I would watch the sunrise over the sea--and I +went down to the beach--and then--well, there was the little wood by +your garden, and it was so wonderfully still and silent, and I saw +those statues gleaming through the trees, and they looked so beautiful +that I came nearer. I meant to come only for a moment and then go away +again--but--I--stayed----" + +But he could scarcely hear what she said; he only saw her standing +there with her dress trembling a little in the breeze. + +"Mary," he said, "you did not mean what you told me the other day?" + +She looked at him for a moment and then suddenly flung out her hands +and touched his coat. "No," she answered. + +For a moment they were utterly silent. Then he took her into his arms. + +"I love you! How I love you!" + +Her hair was about his face, for a moment her face was buried in his +coat, then she lifted it and their lips met. + +He shook from head to foot, he crushed her to him, then he released her. + +She glanced up at him with her hand still touching his coat and looked +into his eyes. + +"I will love you and serve you and honour you always," she said. She +took his arm and they passed down the lawn and watched the light +breaking over the sea. The sky was broken into thousands of fleecy +clouds of mother-of-pearl--the sea was trembling as though the sun had +whispered that it was near at hand, and, on the horizon, the first bars +of pale gold heralded its coming. + +"I have loved you," he said, "since the first moment that I saw you--I +gave you tea and muffins; I deserted the Miss Ponsonbys in order to +serve you." + +"And I too!" she answered, laughing. "I could not eat the muffin for +love of you, and I was jealous of the Miss Ponsonbys!" + +"Why did you turn me out the other day?" + +"They had been talking--mother and the others; and I was hurt terribly, +and I thought that you would hear what they had said and would think, +perhaps, that it was true and would despise me. And then after you had +gone, I knew that nothing in the world could make any difference--that +they could say what they pleased, but that I could not live without +you--you see I am very young!" + +"Oh, and I am so old, dear! You mustn't forget that! Do you think +that you could ever put up with any one as old as I am?" + +She laughed. "You are just the same age as myself," she cried. "You +will always be the same age, and I am not sure but I think that you are +younger----" + +And suddenly the sun had risen--a great ball of fire changing all the +blue of the sky to red and gold, and they watched as the gods had +watched the flaming ruin of Valhalla. + +But the daylight drove them to other thoughts. + +"I must go back," she said. "I will go down to the shore and perhaps +will meet father. Oh! you don't know what I have suffered during these +last few days. I thought that perhaps I had driven you away and that +you would never come back--and then I had a silly idea that I would +watch your windows--and so I came----" + +"Why! I have watched yours!" he cried--"often! Oh! we will have some +times!" + +"But you must remember that there will be three of us," she answered. +"There is Robin!" + +"Robin! Why, it will be splendid! You and Robin and I!" + +"Poor Robin----" She laughed. "You don't know how I scolded him last +night. It was about you and I was unhappy. He is changing fast, and +it is because of you. He has come round----" + +"We have all come round!" cried Harry. "He and you and I! Oh! this is +the beginning of the world for all of us--and I am forty-five! Will +you write to me later in the day? I cannot get down until to-night. +My father is very ill--I must be here. But write to me--a long +letter--it will be as though you were talking." + +She laughed. "Yes, I'll write," she cried; then she looked at him +again--"I love you," she said, as though she were reciting her faith, +"because you are good, because you are strong, because--oh! for no +reason at all--just because you are you." + +For a moment they watched the sea, and then again he took her in his +arms and held her as though he would never let her go--then she +vanished through the trees. + +The house was waking into life as he re-entered it; servants were astir +at an early hour: he had been away such a little time, but the world +was another place. Every detail of the house--the stairs, the hall, +the windows, the clocks, the pot-pourri scent from the bowls of dried +roses, the dance of the dust in the light of the rising sun, was +presented to him now with a new meaning. He was glad that she had +stayed with him such a little while--it made it more precious, her +coming with the shadows in that grey of breaking skies and a mysterious +plunging sea, and then vanishing with the rising sun. Oh! they would +come down to earth soon enough!--let him keep that kiss, those few +words, her last smile as she vanished into the wood, like the visible +signs of the other world that had, at last, been allowed to him. The +vision of the Grail had passed from his eyes, but the memory of it was +to be his most sacred possession. + +He went to his room, had a bath, and then returned to his father; of +course, he could not sleep. + +Clare, Garrett, and Robin met at breakfast with the sense of +approaching calamity heavy upon them. As far as Sir Jeremy himself was +concerned there was little real regret--how could there be? Of course, +there was the sentiment of separation, the breaking of a great many +ties that had been strong and traditional; but it was better that the +old man should go--of that there was no question. Sir Jeremy himself +would rather. No, "Le roi est mort" was easy enough to say, but how +"Vive le roi" stuck in their throats. + +Garrett hinted at a wretched night, and quoted Benham on the dangers of +an arm-chair at night-time. + +"Of course, one had been thinking," he said vaguely, after a melancholy +survey of eggs and bacon that developed into resignation over dry +toast--"there was a good deal to think about. But I certainly had +intended to go to bed--I can't imagine what----" + +Robin said nothing. His mind was busy with Mary's speech of the night +before; his world lay crumbled about him, and, like Cato, he was +finding a certain melancholy satisfaction in its ruins. His thoughts +were scarcely with his grandfather; he felt vaguely that there was +Death in the house and that its immediate presence was one of the +things that had helped to bring his self-content about his ears. But +it was of his father that he was thinking, and of a certain morning +when he had refused a walk. If he got a chance again! + +Clare looked wretched. Robin thought that she had never seemed so ill +before; there was, for the first time, an air of carelessness about +her, as though she had flung on her clothes anyhow--something utterly +unlike her. + +"I am going to speak to Harry this morning," she said. + +Garrett looked up peevishly. "Scarcely the time, Clare. I should say +that it were better for us to wait until--well, afterwards. There is, +perhaps, something a little indecent----" + +"I have considered the matter carefully," interrupted Clare decisively. +"This is the best time----" + +"Oh, well, of course. Only I should have thought that I might have had +just a little say in the matter. I was, after all, originally +consulted as well as yourself. I saw the girl, and was even, I might +venture to suggest, with her for some time. But, of course, a mere +man's opinion----" + +"Oh, don't be absurd, Garrett. It is I that have to ask him--it is +pretty obvious that I have every right to choose my own time." + +"Oh! Please, don't let me interfere--only I should scarcely have +thought that this was quite the moment when Harry would be most +inclined to listen to you." + +"If we don't ask him now," she answered, "there's no knowing when we +shall have the opportunity. When poor father is gone he will have a +great deal to settle and decide; he will have no time for anything at +all for months ahead. This morning is our last chance." + +But she had another thought. Her great desire now was that he should +try and fail; that he would fail she was sure. She was eagerly +impatient for that day when he must come to them and admit his failure. +She looked ahead and fashioned that scene for herself--that scene when +Robin should know and confess that his father was only as the rest of +them; that their failure was his failure, their incapacity his +incapacity--and then the balance would be restored and Robin would see +as he had seen before. + +"Coffee, Robin? It's quite hot still. I saw Dr. Brady just now. He +says that there is no change, nor is there likely to be one for some +hours. You're looking tired, Robin, old boy. Have you been sleeping +on the floor, too?" + +"No!" He looked up and smiled. "But I was awake a good bit. The +house is different somehow, when----" + +"Oh yes, I know. One feels it, of course. But eating's much the best +thing for keeping one's spirits up. I suppose Harry is coming down. +Just find out from Benham, will you, Wilder, whether Mr. Henry is +coming down?" + +The footman left the room, returning in a moment with the answer that +Mr. Henry was about to come down. + +Garrett moved to the door, but Clare stopped him. + +"I want you, Garrett--you can bear me out!" + +"I thought that my opinion was of so little importance," he answered +sulkily, "that I might as well go." + +But he sat down again and buried himself in his paper. + +They waited, and Robin made mental comparisons with a similar scene a +week before; there were still the silver teapot, the toast, the +ham--they were all there, and it was only he himself who had altered. +Only a week, and what a difference! What a cad he had been! a howling +cad! Not only to his father, but to Dahlia, to every one with whom he +had had to do. He did not spare himself; he had at least the pluck to +go through with it--_that_ was Trojan. + +At Harry's entrance there was an involuntary raising of eyebrows to +see, if possible, how _he_ took it; _it_ being his own immediate +succession rather than his father's death. He was grave, of course, +but there was a light in his eyes that Clare could not understand. Had +he some premonition of her request? He apologised for being late. + +"I have been up most of the night. There is no immediate danger of a +change, but we ought, I think, to be ready. Yes, the toast, Robin, +please--I hope you've slept all right, Clare?" + +How quickly he had picked up the manner, she reflected, as she watched +him! But of course that was natural enough; once a Trojan, always a +Trojan, and no amount of colonies will do away with it. But three +weeks was a short time for so vast a change. + +"No, Harry, not very well--of course, it weighs on one rather." + +She sighed and rose from the breakfast-table; she looked terribly tired +and Harry was suddenly sorry for her, and, for the first time since the +night of his return, felt that they were brother and sister; but after +the adventure of the early morning it was as though he were related to +the whole world--Love and Death had drawn close to him, and, with the +sound of the beating of their wings, the world had revealed things to +him that had, in other days, been secrets. Love and Death were such +big things that his personal relations with Clare, with Garrett, even +with Robin, had assumed their true proportion. + +"Clare, you're tired!" he said. "I should go and lie down again. You +shall be told if anything happens." + +"No, thanks, Harry. I wanted to ask you something--but, perhaps, first +I ought to apologise for some of the things that I said the other day. +I said more than I meant to. I am sorry--but one forgets at times that +one has no right to meddle in other people's affairs. But now +I--we--all of us--want to ask you a favour----" + +"Yes?" he said, looking up. + +"Well, of course, this is scarcely the time. But it is something that +can hardly wait, and you can decide about acting yourself----" + +She paused. It was the very hardest thing that she had ever had to do, +and she would never forget it to the day of her death. But it was +harder for Robin; he sat there with flaming cheeks and his head +hanging--he could not look at his father. + +"It is to do with Robin--" Clare went on; "he was rather afraid to ask +you about it himself, because, of course, it is not a business of which +he is very proud, and so he has asked me to do it for him. It is a +girl--a Miss Feverel--whom he met at Cambridge and to whom he had +written letters, letters that gave the young woman some reasons to +suppose that he was offering her marriage. He saw the matter more +wisely after a time and naturally wished Miss Feverel to restore the +letters, but this she refused to do. Both Garrett and myself have done +what we could and have, I am afraid, failed. Miss Feverel is quite +resolute--most obstinately so. We are afraid that she may take steps +that would be unpleasant to all of us--it is rather worrying us, and we +thought--it seemed--in short, I determined to ask you to help us. With +your wider experience you will probably know the best way in which to +deal with such a person." + +Clare paused. She had put it as drily as possible, but it was, +nevertheless, humiliating. + +There was a pause. + +"I am scarcely surprised," said Harry, "that Robin is ashamed of the +affair." + +"Of course he is," answered Clare eagerly, "bitterly ashamed." + +"I suppose you made love to--ah--Miss Feverel?" he said, turning +directly to Robin. + +"Yes," said Robin, lifting his head and facing his father. As their +eyes met the colour rushed to his cheeks. + +"It was a rotten thing to do," said Harry. + +"I have been very much ashamed of myself," answered Robin. "I would +make Miss Feverel any apology that is in my power, but there seems to +be little that I can do." + +Harry said no more. + +"I am really sorry," said Clare at last, "to speak about a business +like this just now--but really there is no time to lose. I am sure +that you will do something to prevent trouble in the Courts, and that +is what Miss Feverel seems to threaten." + +"What do you want me to do?" he asked. + +"To see her--to see her and try and arrange some compromise----" + +"I should have thought that Robin was the proper person----" + +"He has tried and failed; she would not listen to him." + +"Then I am afraid that she will not listen to me--a perfect stranger +with no claims on her interest." + +"It is precisely that. You will be able to put it on a business +footing, because sentiment does not enter into the question at all." + +"Do you want me to help you, Robin?" + +At the direct question Robin looked up again. His father looked very +stern and judicial. It was the schoolmaster rather than the parent, +but, after all, what else could he expect? So he said, quite +simply--"Yes, father." + +But at this moment there was an interruption. With the hurried opening +of the door there came the sounds of agitated voices and steps in the +passage--then Benham appeared. + +"Sir Jeremy is worse, Mr. Henry. The doctor thinks that, perhaps----" + +Harry hurriedly left the room. Absolute silence reigned. The sudden +arrival of the long-expected crisis was terrifying. They sat like +statues, staring in front of them, and listening eagerly to every +sound. The monotonous ticking of the clock on the mantelpiece was +terrifying--the clock on the wall by the door seemed to run a race. +The "tick-tock" grew faster and faster--at last it was as if both +clocks were screaming aloud. + +The room was filled with the clamour, and through it all they sat +motionless and silent. + +In a moment Harry had returned. "All of you," he said quickly--"he +would like to see you--I am afraid----" + +After that Robin was confused and saw nothing clearly. As he crept +tremblingly up the stairs everything assumed gigantic and menacing +shapes--the clock, the pot-pourri bowls, the window-curtains, and the +brass rods on the stairs. In the room there was that grey half-light +that seemed so terrible, and the spurt and crackle of the fire seemed +to fill the place with sounds. He scarcely saw his grandfather. In +the centre of the bed, something was lying; the eyes gleamed for a +moment in the light of the fire, the lips seemed to move. But he did +not realise that those things were his grandfather whom he had known +for so many years--in another hour he would be dead. + +But the things that he saw were the shadows of the fire on the wall, +the dancing in the air of the only lock of hair that Dr. Brady +possessed, the way that Clare's hands were folded as she stood silently +by the bed, Uncle Garrett's waistcoat-buttons that shot little sparks +of light into the room as he turned, ever so slightly, from side to +side. + +At a motion of the doctor's, he came forward to bid Sir Jeremy +farewell. As he bent over the bed panic seized him--he did not see Sir +Jeremy but something horrible, terrible, ghoulish--Death. Then he saw +the old man's eyes, and they were twinkling; then he knew that he was +speaking to him. The words came with difficulty, but they were quite +clear-- + +"You'll be a good man, Robin--but listen to your father--he +knows--he'll show you how to be a Trojan." + +For a moment he held the wrinkled, shrivelled hand in his own, and then +he stepped back. Clare bent down and kissed her father, and then +kneeled down by the bed; Robin had a mad longing to laugh as he saw his +uncle and aunt kneeling there, their heads made enormous shadows on the +wall. + +Harry also bent down and kissed his father; the old man held his hand +and kept it-- + +"I've tried to be a fair man and a gentleman--I've not been a good one. +But I've had some fun and seen life--thank God, I was born a Trojan--so +will the rest of you. Harry, my boy, you're all right--you'll do. I'm +going, but I don't regret anything--your sins are experience--and the +greatest sin of all is not having any." + +His lips closed--as the fire flashed with the falling of a cavern of +blazing coal his head rolled back on to the pillow. + +Suddenly he smiled-- + +"Dear old Harry!" he said, and then he died. + +The shadows from the fire leapt and danced on the wall, and the +kneeling figures by the bed flung grotesque shapes over the dead man. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +It was five o'clock of the same day and Harry was asleep in front of +his fire. In the early hours of the afternoon the strain under which +he had been during the past week began to assert itself, and every part +of his body seemed to cry out for sleep. + +His head was throbbing, his legs trembled, and strange lights and +figures danced before his eyes; he flung himself into a chair in his +small study at the top of the West Tower and fell asleep. + +He had grown to love that room very dearly: the great stretch of the +sea and the shining sand with the grey bending hills hemming it in; +that view was never the same, but with the passing of every cloud held +new colours like a bowl of shining glass. + +The room was bare and simple--that had been his own wish; a photograph +of his first wife hung over the mantelpiece, a small sketch of Auckland +Harbour, a rough drawing of the Terraces before their +destruction--these were all his pictures. + +He had been trying to read since his return, and copies of "The Egoist" +and some of Swinburne's poetry lay on the table; but the first had +seemed incomprehensible to him and the second indecent, and he had +abandoned them; but he _had_ made one discovery, thanks to Bethel, Walt +Whitman's "Leaves of Grass"--it seemed to him the greatest book that he +had ever read, the very voicing of all his hopes and ideals and faith. +Ah! that man knew! + +Benham came in and drew the curtains. He watched the sleeping man for +a moment and nodded his head. He was the right sort, Mr. Harry! He +would do!--and the Watcher of the House stole out again. + +Harry slept on, a great, dreamless sleep, grey and formless as sleep of +utter exhaustion always is; then he suddenly woke to the dim twilight +of the room, the orange glow of the dying fire, and the distant +striking of the hour--it was six o'clock! + +As he lay back in his chair, dreamily, lazily watching the fire, his +thoughts were of his father. He had not known that he would regret him +so intensely, but he saw now that the old man had meant everything to +him during those first weeks of his return. He thought of him very +tenderly--his prejudices, his weaknesses, his traditions. It was +strange how alike they all were in reality, the Trojans! Sir Jeremy, +Clare, Garrett, Robin, himself, the same bedrock of traditional pride +was there, it was only that circumstances had altered them +superficially. Three weeks ago Clare and he had seemed worlds apart, +now he saw how near they were! But for that very reason, they would +never get on--he saw that quite clearly. They knew too well the weak +spots in each other's armour, and their pride would be for ever at war. + +He did not want to turn her out--she had been there for all those years +and it was her home; but he thought that she herself would prefer to +go. There was a charming place in Norfolk, Wrexhall Pogis, that had +been let for years, and there was quite a pleasant little place in +town, 3 Southwick Crescent--yes, she would probably prefer to go, even +had he not meant to marry Mary. The announcement of that little affair +would be something in the nature of a thunderbolt. + +It was impossible for him to go--the head of the House must always live +at "The Flutes." But he knew already how much that House was going to +mean to him, and so he guessed how much it must mean to Clare. + +And to Robin? What would Robin do? Three weeks ago there could have +been but one answer to that question--he would have followed his aunt. +Now Harry was not so sure. There was this affair of Miss Feverel; +probably Robin would come to him about it and then they would be able +to talk. He had had that very day a letter from Dahlia Feverel. He +looked at it again now; it said:-- + + +"DEAR MR. TROJAN--Mother and I are leaving Pendragon to-morrow--for +ever, I suppose--but before I go I thought that I should like to send +you a little line to thank you for your kindness to me. That sounds +terribly formal, doesn't it? but the gratitude is really there, and +indeed I am no letter-writer. + +"You met a girl at the crisis in her life when there were two roads in +front of her and you helped her to choose the right one. I daresay +that you thought that you did very little--it cannot have seemed very +much, that short meeting that we had; but it made just the difference +to me and will, I know, be to me a white stone from which I shall date +my new life. I am not a strong woman--I never shall be a strong +woman--and it was partly because I thought that love for Robin was +going to give me that strength that it hurt so terribly when I found +that the love wasn't there. The going of my love hurt every bit as +much as the going of his--it had been something to be proud of. + +"I relied on sentiment and now I am going to rely on work; those are +the only two alternatives offered to women, and the latter is so often +denied to them. + +"I hope that it may, one day, give you pleasure to think that you once +helped a girl to do the strong thing instead of the weak one. Of +course, my love for Robin has died, and I see him clearly now without +exaggeration. What happened was largely my fault--I spoilt him, I +think, and helped his self-pride. I know that he has been passing +through a bad time lately, and I am sure that he will come to you to +help him out of it. He is a lucky fellow to have some one to help him +like that--and then he will suddenly see that he has done a rather +cruel thing. Poor Robin! he will make a fine man one day. + +"I have got a little secretaryship in London--nothing very big, but it +will give me the work that I want; and, because you once said that you +believed in me, I will try to justify your belief. There! that is +sentiment, isn't it!--and I have flung sentiment away. Well, it is the +last time! + +"Good-bye--I shall never forget. Thank you.-- + +Yours sincerely, + DAHLIA FEVEREL." + + +So perhaps, after all, Robin's mistakes had been for the good of all of +them. Mistake was, indeed, a slight word for what he had done, and, +thinking of it even now, Harry's anger rose. + +And she had been a nice girl, too, and a plucky one. + +He had answered her:-- + + +"MY DEAR MISS FEVEREL--I was extremely pleased to get your letter. It +is very good of you to speak as you have done about myself, but I +assure you that what I did was of the smallest importance. It was +because you had pluck yourself that you pulled through. You are quite +right to fling away sentiment. I came back to England three weeks ago +longing to call every man my brother. I thought that by a mere smile, +a bending of the finger, the world was my friend for life. I soon +found my mistake. Friendship is a very slow and gradual affair, and I +distrust the mushroom growth profoundly. Life isn't easy in that kind +of way; you and I have found that out together. + +"I wish you every success in your new life; I have no doubt whatever +that you will get on, and I hope that you will let me hear sometimes +from you. + +"Things have been happening quickly during the last few days. My +father died this morning; he was himself glad to go, but I shall miss +him terribly--he has been a most splendid friend to me during these +weeks. Then I know that you will be interested to hear that I am +engaged to Miss Bethel--you know her, do you not? I hope and believe +that we shall be very happy. + +"As to Robin, he has, as you say, been having a bad time. To do him +justice it has not been only the fear of the letters that has hung over +him--he has also discovered a good many things about himself that have +hurt and surprised him. + +"Well, good-bye--I am sure that you will look back on the Robin episode +with gratitude. It has done a great deal for all of us. Good luck to +you!--Always your friend, + +HENRY TROJAN." + + +He turned on the lights in his room and tried to read, but he found +that that was impossible. His eyes wandered off the page and he +listened: he caught himself again and again straining his ears for a +sound. He pictured the coming of steps up the stairs and then sharp +and loud along the passage--then a pause and a knock on his door. +Often he fancied that he heard it, but it was only fancy and he turned +away disappointed; but he was sure that Robin would come. + +They had decided not to dine downstairs together on that evening--they +were, all of them, overwrought and the situation was strained; they +were wondering what he was going to do. There were, of course, a +thousand things to be done, but he was glad that they had left him +alone for that night at any rate. He wanted to be quiet. + +He had written a letter of enormous length to Mary, explaining to her +what had happened and telling her that he would come to her in the +morning. It was very hard, even then, not to rush down to her, but he +felt that he must keep that day at least sacred to his father. + +Would Robin come? It was quarter to seven and that terrible sleep was +beginning to overcome him again. The fire, the walls, the pictures, +danced before his eyes ... the stories of the fishermen in the Cove +came back to him ... the Four Stones and the man who had lost his way +... the red tiles and the black rafters of "The Bended Thumb" ... and +then Mary's beauty above it all. Mary on the moors with the wind +blowing through her hair; Mary in the house with the firelight on her +face, Mary ... and then he suddenly started up, wide awake, for he +heard steps on the stair. + +He knew them at once--he never doubted that they were Robin's. The +last two steps were taken slowly and with hesitation. + +Then he hurried down the passage as though he had suddenly made up his +mind; then, again, there was a long pause before the door. At last +came the knock, timidly, and then another loudly and almost violently. + +Harry shouted "Come in," and Robin entered, his face pale and his hands +twisting and untwisting. + +"Ah, Robin--do you want anything? Come in--sit down. I've been +asleep." + +"Oh, I'm sorry, did I wake you up? No, thanks, I won't sit down. I've +got some things I want to say. I'd rather say them standing up." + +There was a long pause. Harry said nothing and stared into the fire. + +"I've got a good lot to say altogether." Robin cleared his throat. +"It's rather hard. Perhaps this doesn't seem quite the time--after +grandfather--and--everything--but I couldn't wait very well. I've been +a bit uncomfortable." + +"Out with it," said Harry. "This time will do excellently--there's a +pause just now, but to-morrow everything will begin again and there's a +terrible lot to do. What is it?" + +Was it, he wondered, Robin's fault or his own that there was that +barrier so strangely defined between them even now? He could feel it +there in the room with them now. He wondered whether Robin felt it as +well. + +"It is about what my aunt said to you this morning--and other +things--other things right from the beginning, ever since you came +back. I'm not much of a chap at talking, and probably I shan't say +what I mean, but I will try. I've been thinking about it all lately, +but what made me come and speak to you was this morning--having to ask +you a favour after being so rude to you. A chap doesn't like doing +that, and it made me think--besides there being other things." + +"Oh, there's no need to thank me about this morning," Harry said drily; +"I shall be very pleased to do what I can." + +"Oh, it isn't that," Robin said quickly. "It isn't about that somehow +that I mind at all now; I have been worrying about it a good bit, but +that isn't what I want to speak about. I'll go through with it--Breach +of Promise--or whatever it is--if only you wouldn't think me--well, +quite an utter rotter." + +"I wish," said Harry quietly, "that you would sit down. I'm sure that +you would find it easier to talk." + +Robin looked at him for a moment and then at the chair--then he sat +down. + +"You see, somehow grandfather's dying has made things seem different to +one--it has made one younger somehow. I used to think that I was +really very old and knew a lot; but his death has shown me that I know +nothing at all--really nothing. But there have been a lot of things +all happening together--your coming back, that business with +Dahlia--Miss Feverel, you know--a dressing down that I got from Miss +Bethel the other evening, and then grandfather's dying----" + +He paused again and cleared his throat. He looked straight into the +fire, and, every now and again, he gave a little choke and a gasp which +showed that he was moved. + +"A chap doesn't like talking about himself," he went on at last; "no +decent chap does; but unless I tell you everything from the beginning +it will never be clear--I must tell you everything----" + +"Please--I want to hear." + +"Well, you see, before you came back, I suppose that I had really lots +of side. I never used to think that I had, but I see now that what +Mary said the other night was perfectly right--it wasn't only that I +'sided' about myself, but about my set and my people and everything. +And then you came back. You see we didn't any of us very much think +that we wanted you. To begin with, you weren't exactly like my +governor; not having seen you all my life I hadn't thought much about +you at all, and your letters were so unlike anything that I knew that I +hadn't believed them exactly. We were very happy as we were. I +thought that I had everything I wanted. And then you didn't do things +as we did; you didn't like the same books and pictures or anything, and +I was angry because I thought that I must know about those things and I +couldn't understand you. And then you know you made things worse by +trying to force my liking out of me, and chaps of my sort are awfully +afraid of showing their feelings to any one, least of all to a man----" +Robin paused. + +"Yes," said Harry, "I know." + +"But all this isn't an excuse really; I was a most awful cad, and +there's no getting away from it. But I think I began to see almost +from the very beginning that I hadn't any right to behave like that, +but I was obstinate. + +"And then I began to get in a fright about Miss Feverel. She wouldn't +give my letters back, although I went to her and Uncle Garrett and Aunt +Clare--all of us--but it was no good--she meant to keep them and of +course we knew why. And then, too, I saw at last that I'd behaved like +an utter cad--it was funny I didn't see it at the time. But I'd seen +other chaps do the same sort of thing and the girls didn't mind, and +I'd thought that she ought to be jolly pleased at getting to know a +Trojan--and all that sort of thing. + +"But when I saw that she wasn't going to give the letters back but +meant to use them I was terribly frightened. It wasn't myself so much, +although I hated the idea of my friends knowing about it all and +laughing at me--but it was the House too--my letting it down so. + +"I'd been thinking about you a good bit already. You see you changed +after Aunt Clare spoke to you that morning and I began to be rather +afraid of you--and when a chap begins to be afraid of some one he +begins to like him. I got Aunt Clare and Uncle Garrett to go and speak +to Dahlia, and they couldn't get anything out of her at all; so, then, +I began to wonder whether you could do anything, and as soon as I began +to wonder that I began to want to talk to you. But I never got much +chance; you were always in grandfather's room, and you didn't give me +much encouragement, did you? and then--I began to be awfully miserable. +I don't want to whine--I deserved it all right enough--but I didn't +seem to have a friend anywhere and all my things that I'd believed in +seemed to be worth nothing at all. Then I wanted to talk to you +awfully, and when grandfather was worse and was dying I began to see +things straight--and then I saw Mary and she told me right out what I +was, and I saw it all as clear as daylight. + +"And so; well, I've come--not to ask you to help me about Dahlia--but +whether you'll help me to play the game better. I wasn't always slack +and rotten like I am now. When I was in Germany I thought I was going +to do all sorts of things ... but anyhow I can't say exactly all that I +mean. Only I'm awfully lonely and terribly ashamed; and I want you to +forgive me for being so beastly to you----" + +He looked wretched enough as he sat there facing the fire with his lip +quivering. He made a strong effort to control himself, but in a moment +he had broken down altogether and hid his head in the arm of the chair, +sobbing as if his heart would break. + +Harry waited. The moment for which he had longed so passionately had +come at last; all those weary weeks had now received their reward. But +he was very tired and he could not remember anything except that his +boy was there and that he was crying and wanted some one to help +him--which was very sentimental. + +He got up from his chair and put his hand on Robin's shoulder. + +"Robin, old boy--don't; it's all right really. I've been waiting for +you to come and speak to me; of course, I knew that you would come. +Never mind about those other things--we're going to have a splendid +time, you and I." + +He put his arm round him. There was a moment's silence, then the boy +turned round and gripped his father's coat--then he buried his head in +his father's knees. + + +Benham entered half an hour later with Harry's evening meal. + +"I will have mine here, too, Benham," said Robin, "with my father." + +"There is one thing, Robin," said Harry a little later, laughing--"what +about the letters?" + +"Oh, I know!" Robin looked up at his father appealingly. "I don't +know what you must think of me over that business. But I suppose I +believed for a time in it all, and then when I saw that it wouldn't do +I just wanted to get out of it as quickly as I could. I never seem to +have thought about it at all--and now I'm more ashamed than I can say. +But I think I'll go through with it; I don't see that there's anything +else very much for me to do, any other way of making up--I think I'd +rather face it." + +"Would you?" said Harry. "What about your friends and the House?" + +Robin flinched for a moment; then he said resolutely, "Yes, it would be +better for them too. You see they know already--the House, I mean. +All the chaps in the dining-hall and the picture-gallery, they've known +about it all day, and I know that they'd rather I didn't back out of +it. Besides--" he hesitated a moment. "There's another thing--I have +the kind of feeling that I can't have hurt Dahlia so very much if she's +the kind of girl to carry that sort of thing through; if, I mean, she +takes it like that she isn't the sort of girl that would mind very much +what I had done----" + +"Is she," said Harry, "that sort of girl?" + +"No, I don't think she is. That's what's puzzled me about it all. She +was worth twenty of me really. But any decent sort of girl would have +given them back----" + +"She has----" + +"What?" + +"Given them back." + +"The letters?" + +Harry went to his writing-table and produced the bundle. They lay in +his hand with the blue ribbon and the neat handwriting, "For Robert +Trojan," outside. + +Robin stared. "Not _the_ letters?" + +"Yes--the letters; I have had them some days." + +But still he did not move. "_You've_ had them?--several days?" + +"Yes. I went to see Miss Feverel on my own account and she gave me +them----" + +"You had them when we asked you to help us!" + +"Yes--of course. It was a little secret of my own and Miss +Feverel's--our--if you like--revenge." + +"And we've been laughing at you, scorning you; and we tried--all of +us--and could do nothing! I say, you're the cleverest man in England! +Score! Why I should think you have!" and then he added, "But I'm +ashamed--terribly. You have known all these days and said nothing--and +I! I wonder what you've thought of me----" + +He took the letters into his hand and undid the ribbon slowly. "I'm +jolly glad you've known--it's as if you'd been looking after the family +all this time, while we were plunging around in the dark. What a +score! That we should have failed and you so absolutely succeeded--" +Then again, "But I'm jolly ashamed--I'll tell you everything--always. +We'll work together----" + +He looked them through and then flung them into the fire. + +"I've grown up," he suddenly cried; "come of age at last--at last I +know." + +"Not too fast," said Harry, smiling; "it's only a stage. There's +plenty to learn--and we'll learn it together." Then, after a pause, +"There's another thing, though, that will astonish you a bit--I'm +engaged----" + +"Engaged!" Robin stared. Quickly before his eyes passed visions of +terrible Colonial women--some entanglement that his father had +contracted abroad and had been afraid to announce before. Well, +whatever it might be, he would stand by him! It was they two against +the world whatever happened!--and Robin felt already the anticipatory +glow of self-sacrificing heroism. + +Harry smiled. "Yes--Mary Bethel!" + +"Mary! Hurrah!" + +He rushed at his father and seized his hand--"You and Mary! Why, it's +simply splendid! The very thing--I'd rather it were she than any +one!--she told me what she thought of me the other night, I can tell +you--fairly went for me. By Jove! I'm glad--we'll have some times, +three of us here together. When was it?" + +"Oh! only this morning! I had asked her before, but it was only +settled this morning." + +Then Robin was suddenly grave. "Oh! but, I say, there's Aunt +Clare--and Uncle Garrett!" He had utterly forgotten them. What would +they say? The Bethels of all people! + +"Yes. I've thought about it. I'm very sorry, but I'm afraid Aunt +Clare won't want to stay. I don't see what's to be done. I haven't +told her yet----" + +Robin saw at once that he must choose his future; it was to be his aunt +or his father. His aunt with all those twenty years of faithful +service behind her, his aunt who had done everything for him--or his +father whom he had known for three weeks. But he had no hesitation; +there was now no question it was his father for ever against the world! + +"I'm sorry," he said slowly. "Perhaps there will be some arrangement. +Poor Aunt Clare! Did you--tell grandfather?" + +"No. I wanted to, but I had no opportunity. But he knows--I am sure +that he knows." + +Their thoughts passed to the old man. It was almost as if he had been +there in the room with them, and they felt, curiously, as though he had +at that moment handed over the keys of the House. For an instant they +saw him; his eyes like diamonds, his wrinkled cheeks, his crooked +fingers--and then his laugh. "Harry, my boy, you'll do." + +"It's almost as if he was here," said Robin. He turned round and put +his hand in his father's. + +"I know he's pleased," he said. + +And so it was during the next week, through the funeral, and the +gathering of relatives and the gradual dispersing of them again, and +the final inevitable seclusion when the world and the relations and the +dead had all joined in leaving the family alone. The gathering of +Trojans had shown, beyond a doubt, that Harry was quite fitted to take +his place at the head of the family. He had acted throughout with +perfect tact and everything had gone without a hitch. Many a Trojan +had arrived for the funeral--mournful, red-eyed Trojans, with black +crape and an air of deferential resignation that hinted, also, at +curiosity as regards the successor. They watched Harry, ready for +anything that might gratify their longing for sensational failure; a +man from the backwoods was certain to fail, and their chagrined +disappointment was only solaced by their certainty of some little +sensation in the announcement of his surprising success. + +Of course, Clare had been useful; it was on such an occasion that she +appeared at her best. She was kind to them all, but at the same time +impressed the dignity of her position upon them, so that they went away +declaring that Clare Trojan knew how to carry herself and was young for +her years. + +The funeral was an occasion of great ceremony, and the town attended in +crowds. Harry realised in their altered demeanour to himself their +appreciation of the value of his succession, and he knew that Sir Henry +Trojan was something very different from the plain Harry. But he had, +from the beginning, taken matters very quietly. Now that he was +assured of the affection of the only two people who were of importance +to him he could afford to treat with easy acquiescence anything else +that Fate might have in store for him. His diffidence, had, to some +extent, left him, and he took everything that came with an ease that +had been entirely foreign to him three weeks before. + +Clare might indeed wonder at the change in him, for she had not the key +that unlocked the mystery. The week seemed to draw father and son very +closely together. Years seemed to have made little difference in their +outlook on things, and in some ways Robin was the elder of the two. +They said nothing about Mary--that was to wait until after the funeral; +but the consciousness of their secret added to the bond between them. + +Clare herself regarded the future complacently. She was, she felt, +absolutely essential to the right ruling of the House, and she +intended, gradually but surely, to restore her command above and below +stairs. The only possible lion in her path was Harry's marrying, but +of that there seemed no fear at all. + +She admired him a little for his conduct during their father's funeral; +he was not such an oaf as she had thought--but she would bide her time. + +At last, however, the thunderbolt fell. It was a week after the +funeral, and they had reached dessert. Clare sometimes stayed with +them while they smoked, and, as a rule, conversation was not very +general. To-night, however, she rose to go. Her black suited her; her +dark hair, her dark eyes, the dark trailing clouds of her dress--it was +magnificently sombre against the firelight and the shine of the +electric lamps on the silver. But Harry's "Wait a moment, Clare, I +want to talk," called her back, and she stood by the door looking over +her shoulder at him. + +Then when she saw from his glance that it was a matter of importance, +she came back slowly again towards him. + +"Another family council?" said Garrett rather impatiently. "We have +had a generous supply lately." + +"I'm afraid this is imperative," said Harry. "I am sorry to bother +you, Clare, but this seems to me the best time." + +"Oh, any time suits me," she said indifferently, sitting down +reluctantly. "But if it's household affairs, I should think that we +need hardly keep Garrett and Robin." + +"It is something that concerns us all four," said Harry. "I am going +to be married!" + +It had been from the beginning of things a Trojan dictum that the +revealing of emotion was the worst of gaucheries--Clare, Garrett, and +Robin himself had been schooled in this matter from their respective +cradles; and now the lesson must be put into practice. + +For Robin, of course, it was no revelation at all, but he dared not +look at his aunt; he understood a little what it must mean to her. To +those that watched her, however, nothing was revealed. She stood by +the fire, her hands at her side, her head slightly turned towards her +brother. + +"Might I ask," she said quietly, "the name of the fortunate lady?" + +"Miss Bethel!" + +"Miss Bethel!" Garrett sprang to his feet. "Harry, you must be +joking! You can't mean it! Not the daughter of Bethel at the +Point--the madman!--the----" + +"Please, Garrett," said Harry, "remember that she has promised to be my +wife. I am sorry, Clare----" + +He turned round to his sister. + +But she had said nothing. She pulled a chair from the table and sat +down, quietly, without obvious emotion. + +"It is a little unexpected," she said. "But really if we had +considered things it was obvious enough. It is all of a piece. Robin +tried for Breach of Promise, the Bethels in the house before father has +been buried for three days--the policy and traditions of the last three +hundred years upset in three weeks." + +"Of course," said Harry, "I could scarcely expect you to welcome the +change. You do not know Miss Bethel. I am afraid you are a little +prejudiced against her. And, indeed, please--please, believe me that +it has been my very last wish to go counter in any way to your own +plans. But it has seemed almost unavoidable; we have found that one +thing after another has arisen about which we could not agree. Is it +too late now to reconsider the position? Couldn't we pull together +from this moment?" + +But she interrupted him. "Come, Harry," she said, "whatever we are, +let us avoid hypocrisy. You have beaten me at every point and I must +retire. I have seen in three weeks everything that I had cared for and +loved destroyed. You come back a stranger, and without knowing or +caring for the proper dignity of the House, you have done what you +pleased. Finally, you are bringing a woman into the House whose +parents are beggars, whose social position makes her unworthy of such a +marriage. You cannot expect me to love you for it. From this moment +we cease to exist for each other. I hope that I may never see you +again or hear from you. I shall not indulge in heroics or melodrama, +but I will never forgive you. I suppose that the house at Norfolk is +at my disposal?" + +"Certainly," he answered. Then he turned to his brother. "I hope, +Garrett," he said, "that you do not feel as strongly about the matter +as Clare. I should be very glad if you found it possible to remain." + +That gentleman was in a difficult position; he changed colour and tried +to avoid his sister's eyes. After a rapid survey of the position, he +had come to the conclusion that he would not be nearly as comfortable +in Norfolk--he could not write his book as easily, and the house had +scarcely the same position of importance. He had grown fond of the +place. Harry, after all, was not a bad chap--he seemed very anxious to +be pleasant; and even Mary Bethel mightn't turn out so badly. + +"You see, Clare," he said slowly, "there is the book--and--well, on the +whole, I think it would be almost better if I remained; it is not, of +course, that----" + +Clare's lip curled scornfully. + +"I understand, Garrett, you could scarcely be expected to leave such +comforts for so slight a reason. And you, Robin?" + +She held the chair with her hand as she spoke. The fury at her heart +was such that she could scarcely breathe; she was quite calm, but she +had a mad desire to seize Harry as he sat there at the table and +strangle him with her hands. And Garrett!--the contemptible coward! +But if only Robin would come with her, then the rest mattered little. +After all, it had only been a fortnight ago when he had stood at her +side and rejected his father. The scene now was parallel--her voice +grew soft and trembled a little as she spoke to him. + +"Robin, dear, what will you do? Will you come with me?" + +For a moment father and son looked at each other, then Robin answered-- + +"I shall be very glad to come and stay sometimes, Aunt +Clare--often--whenever you care to have me. But I think that I must +stay here. I have been talking to father and I am going up to London +to try, I think, for the Diplomatic. We thought----" + +But the "we" was too much for her. + +"I congratulate you," she said, turning to Harry. "You have done a +great deal in three weeks. It looks," she said, looking round the +room, "almost like a conspiracy. I----" Then she suddenly broke down. +She bent down over Robin and caught his head between her hands-- + +"Robin--Robin dear--you must come, you must, dear. I brought you up--I +have loved you--always--always. You can't leave me now, old boy, after +all that I have done--all, everything. Why, he has done +nothing--he----" + +She kissed him again and again, and caught his hands: "Robin, I love +you--you--only in all the world; you are all that I have got----" + +But he put her hands gently aside. "Please--please--Aunt Clare, I am +dreadfully sorry----" + +And then her pride returned to her. She walked to the door with her +head high. + +"I will go to the Darcy's in London until that other house is ready. I +will go to-morrow----" + +She opened the door, but Harry sprang up-- + +"Please, Clare--don't go like that. Think over it--perhaps +to-morrow----" + +"Oh, let me go," she answered wearily; "I'm tired." + +She walked up the stairs to her room. She could scarcely see--Robin +had denied her! + +She shut the door of her bedroom behind her and fell at the foot of her +bed, her face buried in her hands. Then at last she burst into a storm +of tears-- + +"Robin! Robin!" she cried. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +It was Christmas Eve and the Cove lay buried in snow. The sea was grey +like steel, and made no sound as it ebbed and flowed up the little +creek. The sky was grey and snowflakes fell lazily, idly, as though +half afraid to let themselves go; a tiny orange moon glittered over the +chimneys of "The Bended Thumb." + +Harry came out of the Inn and stood for a moment to turn up the collar +of his coat. The perfect stillness of the scene pleased him; the world +was like the breathless moment before some great event: the opening of +Pandora's box, the leaping of armed men from the belly of the wooden +horse, the flashing of Excalibur over the mere, the birth of some +little child. + +He sighed as he passed down the street. He had read in his morning +paper that the Cove was doomed. The word had gone forth, the Town +Council had decided; the Cove was to be pulled down and a street of +lodging-houses was to take its place. Pendragon would be no longer a +place of contrasts; it would be all of a piece, a completely popular +watering-place. + +The vision of its passing hurt him--so much must go with it; and +gradually he saw the beauty and the superstition and the wonder being +driven from the world--the Old World--and a hard Iron and Steel +Materialism relentlessly taking its place. + +But he himself had changed; the place had had its influence on him, and +he was beginning to see the beauty of these improvements, these +manufactures, these hard straight lines and gaunt ugly squares. +Progress? Progress? Inevitable?--yes! Useful?--why, yes, too! But +beautiful?--Well, perhaps ... he did not know. + +At the top of the hill he turned and saluted the cold grey sky and sea +and moor. The Four Stones were in harmony to-day: white, and +pearl-grey, with hints of purple in their shadows--oh beautiful and +mysterious world! + +He went into the Bethels' to call for Mary. Bethel appeared for a +moment at the door of his study and shouted-- + +"Hullo! Harry, my boy! Frightfully busy cataloguing! Going out for a +run in a minute!"--the door closed. + +His daughter's engagement seemed to have made little difference to him. +He was pleased, of course, but Harry wondered sometimes whether he +realised it at all. + +Not so Mrs. Bethel. Arrayed in gorgeous colours, she was blissfully +happy. She was at the head of the stairs now. + +"Just a minute, Harry--Mary's nearly ready. Oh! my dear, you haven't +been out in that thin waistcoat ... but you'll catch your death--just a +minute, my dear, and let me get something warmer? Oh do! Now you're +an obstinate, bad man! Yes, a bad, bad man"--but at this moment +arrived Mary, and they said good-bye and were away. + +During the few weeks that they had been together there had been no +cloud. Pendragon had talked, but they had not listened to it; they had +been perfectly, ideally happy. They seemed to have known each other +completely so long ago--not only their virtues but their faults and +failures. + +With her arm in his they passed through the gate and found Robin +waiting for them. + +"Hullo! you two! I've just heard from Macfadden. He suggests Catis in +Dover Street for six months and then abroad. He thinks I ought to pass +easily enough in a year's time--and then it will mean Germany!" + +His face was lighted with excitement. + +"Right you are!" cried Harry. "Anything that Macfadden suggests is +sure to be pretty right. What do you say, Mary?" + +"Oh, I don't know anything about men's businesses," she said, laughing. +"Only don't be too long away, Robin." + +They passed down the garden, the three of them, together. + + +In Norfolk a woman sat at her window and watched the snow tumbling +softly against the panes. The garden was a white sea--the hills loomed +whitely beyond--the sky was grey with small white clouds, hanging like +pillows heavily in mid-air. + +The snow whirled and tossed and danced. + +Clare turned slowly from the windows and drew down the blinds. + + + + +THE END + + + + +_Printed by_ R. & R. Clark, Limited, _Edinburgh_ + + + + +BOOKS BY HUGH WALPOLE + + +_NOVELS_ + + THE WOODEN HORSE + MR. PERRIN AND MR. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Wooden Horse + +Author: Hugh Walpole + +Release Date: November 6, 2008 [EBook #27180] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE WOODEN HORSE *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + +</pre> + + +<BR><BR> + +<A NAME="img-front"></A> +<CENTER> +<IMG CLASS="imgcenter" SRC="images/img-front.jpg" ALT="Hugh Walpole. _From a photograph by Messrs. Elliott & Fry_" BORDER="0" WIDTH="414" HEIGHT="647"> +<H4 CLASS="h4center" STYLE="width: 414px"> +Hugh Walpole. <I>From a photograph by Messrs. Elliott & Fry</I> +</H4> +</CENTER> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +THE +</H3> + +<H1 ALIGN="center"> +WOODEN HORSE +</H1> + +<BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +BY +</H3> + +<H2 ALIGN="center"> +HUGH WALPOLE +</H2> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +WITH A PORTRAIT +</H3> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED +<BR> +ST. MARTIN'S STREET, LONDON +<BR> +1919 +</H4> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H5 ALIGN="center"> +MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED +<BR> +LONDON — BOMBAY — CALCUTTA — MADRAS<BR> +MELBOURNE<BR> +<BR><BR> +THE MACMILLAN COMPANY +<BR> +NEW YORK — BOSTON — CHICAGO<BR> +DALLAS — SAN FRANCISCO<BR> +<BR><BR> +THE MACMILLAN CO. OF CANADA, LTD. +<BR> +TORONTO<BR> +</H5> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H5 ALIGN="center"> +COPYRIGHT +<BR><BR> +<I>First Published April 1909<BR> +Second Impression October 1909<BR> +Wayfarers' Library 1914<BR> +New Edition 1919</I><BR> +</H5> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +TO +<BR> +W. FERRIS +<BR> +AFFECTIONATELY +</H3> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H5 ALIGN="center"> +"<I>Er liebte jeden Hund, und wünschte von jedem Hund geliebt<BR> +zu sein.</I>"—FLEGELJAHRE (JEAN PAUL).<BR> +</H5> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<P> +<TABLE ALIGN="center" WIDTH="80%"> +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap01">CHAPTER I</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap02">CHAPTER II</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap03">CHAPTER III</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap04">CHAPTER IV</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap05">CHAPTER V</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap06">CHAPTER VI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap07">CHAPTER VII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap08">CHAPTER VIII</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap09">CHAPTER IX</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap10">CHAPTER X</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap11">CHAPTER XI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap12">CHAPTER XII</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap13">CHAPTER XIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap14">CHAPTER XIV</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap15">CHAPTER XV</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap16">CHAPTER XVI</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +</TABLE> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap01"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER I +</H3> + +<P> +Robin Trojan was waiting for his father. +</P> + +<P> +Through the open window of the drawing-room came, faintly, the cries of +the town—the sound of some distant bell, the shout of fishermen on the +quay, the muffled beat of the mining-stamps from Porth-Vennic, a +village that lay two miles inland. There yet lingered in the air the +faint afterglow of the sunset, and a few stars, twinkling faintly in +the deep blue of the night sky, seemed reflections of the orange lights +of the herring-boats, flashing far out to sea. +</P> + +<P> +The great drawing-room, lighted by a cluster of electric lamps hanging +from the ceiling, seemed to flaunt the dim twinkle of the stars +contemptuously; the dark blue of the walls and thick Persian carpets +sounded a quieter note, but the general effect was of something +distantly, coldly superior, something indeed that was scarcely +comfortable, but that was, nevertheless, fulfilling the exact purpose +for which it had been intended. +</P> + +<P> +And that purpose was, most certainly, not comfort. Robin himself would +have smiled contemptuously if you had pleaded for something homely, +something suggestive of roaring fires and cosy armchairs, instead of +the stiff-backed, beautifully carved Louis XIV. furniture that stood, +each chair and table rigidly in its appointed place, as though bidding +defiance to any one bold enough to attempt alterations. +</P> + +<P> +The golden light in the sky shone faintly in at the open window, as +though longing to enter, but the dazzling brilliance of the room seemed +to fling it back into the blue dome of sea and sky outside. +</P> + +<P> +Robin was standing by a large looking-glass in the corner of the room +trying to improve the shape of his tie; and it was characteristic of +him that, although he had not seen his father for eighteen years, he +was thinking a great deal more about his tie than about the approaching +meeting. +</P> + +<P> +He was, at this time, twenty years of age. Tall and dark, he had all +the Trojan characteristics; small, delicately shaped ears; a mouth that +gave signs of all the Trojan obstinacy, called by the Trojans +themselves family pride; a high, well-shaped forehead with hair closely +cut and of a dark brown. He was considered by most people +handsome—but to some his eyes, of the real Trojan blue, were too cold +and impassive. He gave you the impression of some one who watched, +rather disdainfully, the ill-considered and impulsive actions of his +fellow-men. +</P> + +<P> +He was, however, exactly suited to his surroundings. He maintained the +same position as the room with regard to the world in general—"We are +Trojans; we are very old and very expensive and very, very good, and it +behoves you to recognise this fact and give way with fitting deference." +</P> + +<P> +He had not seen his father for eighteen years, and, as he had been +separated from him at the unimpressionable age of two, he may be said +never to have seen him at all. He had no recollection of him, and the +picture that he had painted was constructed out of monthly rather +uninteresting letters concerned, for the most part, with the care and +maintenance of New Zealand sheep, and such meagre details as his Aunt +Clare and Uncle Garrett had bestowed on him from time to time. From +the latter he gathered that his father had been, in his youth, in some +vague way, unsatisfactory, and had departed to Australia to seek his +fortune, with a clear understanding from his father that he was not to +return thence until he had found it. +</P> + +<P> +Robin himself had been born in New Zealand, but his mother dying when +he was two years old, he had been sent home to be brought up, in the +proper Trojan manner, by his aunt and uncle. +</P> + +<P> +On these things Robin reflected as he tried to twist his tie into a +fitting Trojan shape; but it refused to behave as a well-educated tie +should, and the obvious thing was to get another. Robin looked at his +watch. It was really extremely provoking; the carriage had been timed +to arrive at half-past six exactly; it was now a quarter to seven and +no one had appeared. There was probably not time to search for another +tie. His father would be certain to arrive at the very moment when one +tie was on and the other not yet on, which meant that Robin would be +late; and if there was one thing that a Trojan hated more than another +it was being late. With many people unpunctuality was a fault, with a +Trojan it was a crime; it was what was known as an "odds and ends"—one +of those things, like untidiness, eating your fish with a steel knife +and wearing a white tie with a short dinner-jacket, that marked a man, +once and for all, as some one outside the pale, an impossible person. +</P> + +<P> +Therefore Robin allowed his tie to remain and walked to the open window. +</P> + +<P> +"At any rate," he said to himself, still thinking of his tie, "father +won't probably notice it." He wondered how much his father <I>would</I> +notice. "As he's a Trojan," he thought, "he'll know the sort of things +that a fellow ought to do, even though he has been out in New Zealand +all his life." +</P> + +<P> +It would, Robin reflected, be a very pretty little scene. He liked +scenes, and, if this one were properly manoeuvred, he ought to be its +very interesting and satisfactory centre. That was why it was really a +pity about the tie. +</P> + +<P> +The door from the library swung slowly open, and Sir Jeremy Trojan, +Robin's grandfather, was wheeled into the room. +</P> + +<P> +He was very old indeed, and the only part of his face that seemed alive +were his eyes; they were continually darting from one end of the room +to the other, they were never still; but, for the rest, he scarcely +moved. His skin was dried and brown like a mummy's, and even when he +spoke, his lips hardly stirred. He was in evening dress, his legs +wrapped tightly in rugs; his chair was wheeled by a servant who was +evidently perfectly trained in all the Trojan ways of propriety and +decorum. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, grandfather," said Robin, turning back from the window with the +look of annoyance still on his face, "how are you to-night?" Robin +always shouted at his grandfather although he knew perfectly well that +he was not deaf, but could, on the other hand, hear wonderfully well +for his age. Nothing annoyed his grandfather so much as being shouted +at, and of this Robin was continually reminded. +</P> + +<P> +"Tut, tut, boy," said Sir Jeremy testily, "one would think that I was +deaf. Better? Yes, of course. Close the windows!" +</P> + +<P> +"I'll ring for Marchant," said Robin, moving to the bell, "he ought to +have done it before." Sir Jeremy said nothing—it was impossible to +guess at his thoughts from his face; only his eyes moved uneasily round +the room. +</P> + +<P> +He was wheeled to his accustomed corner by the big open stone +fireplace, and he lay there, motionless in his chair, without further +remark. +</P> + +<P> +Marchant came in a moment later. +</P> + +<P> +"The windows, Marchant," said Robin, still twisting uneasily at his +tie, "I think you had forgotten." +</P> + +<P> +"I am sorry, sir," Marchant answered, "but Mr. Garrett had spoken this +morning of the room being rather close. I had thought that perhaps——" +</P> + +<P> +He moved silently across the room and shut the window, barring out the +fluttering yellow light, the sparkling silver of the stars, the orange +of the fishing-boats, the murmured distance of the town. +</P> + +<P> +A few moments later Clare Trojan came in. Although she had never been +beautiful she had always been interesting, and indeed she was (even +when in the company of women far more beautiful than herself) always +one of the first to whom men looked. This may have been partly +accounted for by her very obvious pride, the quality that struck the +most casual observer at once, but there was also an air of +indifference, a look in the eyes that seemed to pique men's curiosity +and stir their interest. It was not for lack of opportunity that she +was still unmarried, but she had never discovered the man who had +virtue and merit sufficient to cover the obvious disadvantages of his +not having been born a Trojan. Middle age suited the air of almost +regal dignity with which she moved, and people who had known her for +many years said that she had never looked so well as now. To-night, in +a closely-fitting dress of black silk relieved by a string of pearls +round her neck, and a superb white rose at her breast, she was almost +handsome. Robin watched her with satisfaction as she moved towards him. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, it's cold," she said. "I know Marchant left those windows open +till the last moment. Robin, your tie is shocking. It looks as if it +were made-up." +</P> + +<P> +"I know," said Robin, still struggling with it; "but there isn't time +to get another. Father will be here at any moment. It's late as it +is. Yes, I told Marchant to shut the windows, he said something about +Uncle Garrett's saying it was stuffy or something." +</P> + +<P> +"Harry's late." Clare moved across to her father and bent down and +kissed him. +</P> + +<P> +"How are you to-night, father?" but she was arranging the rose at her +breast and was obviously thinking more of its position than of the +answer to her question. +</P> + +<P> +"Hungry—damned hungry," said Sir Jeremy. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, we'll have to wait," said Clare. "Harry's got to dress. Anyhow +you've got no right to be hungry at a quarter to seven. Nobody's ever +hungry till half-past seven at the earliest." +</P> + +<P> +It was evident that she was ill at ease. Perhaps it was the prospect +of meeting her brother after a separation of eighteen years; perhaps it +was anxiety as to how this reclaimed son of the house of Trojan would +behave in the face of the world. It was so very important that the +house should not be in any way let down, that the dignity with which it +had invariably conducted its affairs for the last twenty years should +be, in no way, impaired. Harry had been anything but dignified in his +early days, and sheep-farming in New Zealand—well, of course, one knew +what kind of life that was. +</P> + +<P> +But, as she looked across at Robin, it was easy to see that her anxiety +was, in some way, connected with him. How was this invasion to affect +her nephew? For eighteen years she had been the only father and mother +that he had known, for eighteen years she had educated him in all the +Trojan laws and traditions, the things that a Trojan must speak and do +and think, and he had faithfully responded to her instruction. He was +in every way everything that a Trojan should be; but there had been +moments, rare indeed and swiftly passing, when Clare had fancied that +there were other impulses, other ideas at work. She was afraid of +those impulses, and she was afraid of what Henry Trojan might do with +regard to them. +</P> + +<P> +It was, indeed, hard, after reigning absolutely for eighteen years, to +yield her place to another, but perhaps, after all, Robin would be true +to his early training and she would not be altogether supplanted. +</P> + +<P> +"Randal comes to-morrow," said Robin suddenly, after a few minutes' +silence. "Unfortunately he can only stop for a few days. His paper on +'Pater' has been taken by the <I>National</I>. He's very much pleased, of +course." +</P> + +<P> +Robin spoke coldly and without any enthusiasm. It was not considered +quite good form to be enthusiastic; it was apt to lead you into rather +uncertain company with such people as Socialists and the Salvation Army. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm glad he's coming—quite a nice fellow," said Clare, looking at the +gold clock on the mantelpiece. "The train is shockingly late. On +'Pater' you said! I must try and get the <I>National</I>—Miss Ponsonby +takes it, I think. It's unusual for Garrett to be unpunctual." +</P> + +<P> +He entered at the same moment—a tall, thin man of forty years of age, +clean shaven and rather bald, with a very slight squint in the right +eye. He walked slowly, and always gave the impression that he saw +nothing of his surroundings. For the rest, he was said to be extremely +cynical and had more than a fair share of the Trojan pride. +</P> + +<P> +"The train is late," he said, addressing no one in particular. +"Father, how are you this evening?" +</P> + +<P> +This third attack on Sir Jeremy was repelled by a snort, which Garrett +accepted as an answer. "Robin, your tie is atrocious," he continued, +picking up the <I>Times</I> and opening it slowly; "you had better change +it." +</P> + +<P> +Robin was prevented from answering by the sound of carriage-wheels on +the drive. Clare rose and stood by the fireplace near Sir Jeremy; +Garrett read to the end of the paragraph and folded the paper on his +knee; Robin fingered his watch-chain nervously and moved to his aunt's +side—only Sir Jeremy remained motionless and gave no sign that he had +heard. +</P> + +<P> +Perhaps he was thinking of that day twenty years before when, after a +very heated interview, he had forbidden his son to see his face again +until he had done something that definitely justified his existence. +Harry had certainly done several things since then that justified his +existence; he had, for one thing, made a fortune, and that was not so +easily done nowadays. Harry was five-and-forty now; he must be very +much changed; he had steadied down, of course ... he would be well +able to take his place as head of the family when Sir Jeremy himself.... +</P> + +<P> +But he gave no sign. You could not tell that he had heard the +carriage-wheels at all; he lay motionless in his chair with his eyes +half closed. +</P> + +<P> +There were voices in the hall. Beldam's superlatively courteous tones +as of one who is ready to die to serve you, and then another +voice—rather loud and sharp, but pleasant, with the sound of a laugh +in it. +</P> + +<P> +"They are in the blue drawing-room, sir—Mr. Henry," Beldam's voice was +heard on the stairs, and, in a moment, Beldam himself appeared—"Mr. +Henry, Sir Jeremy." Then he stood aside, and Henry Trojan entered the +room. +</P> + +<P> +Clare made a step forward. +</P> + +<P> +"Harry—old boy—at last———" +</P> + +<P> +Both her hands were outstretched, but he disregarded them, and, +stepping forward, crushed her in his arms, crushed her dress, crushed +the beautiful rose at her breast, and, bending down, kissed her again +and again. +</P> + +<P> +"Clare—after twenty years!" +</P> + +<P> +He let her go and she stepped back, still smiling, but she touched the +rose for a moment and her hair. He was very strong. +</P> + +<P> +And then there was a little pause. Harry Trojan turned and faced his +father. The old man made no movement and gave no sign, but he said, +his lips stirring very slightly, "I am glad to see you here again, +Harry." +</P> + +<P> +The man flushed, and with a little stammer answered, "I am gladder to +be back than you can know, father." +</P> + +<P> +Sir Jeremy's wrinkled hand appeared from behind the rugs, and the two +men shook in silence. +</P> + +<P> +Then Garrett came forward. "You're not much changed, Harry," he said +with a laugh, "in spite of the twenty years." +</P> + +<P> +"Why, Garrie!" His brother stepped towards him and laid a hand on his +shoulder. "It's splendid to see you again. I'd almost forgotten what +you were like—I only had that old photo, you know—of us both at +Rugby." +</P> + +<P> +Robin had stood aside, in a corner by the fireplace, watching his +father. It was very much as he had expected, only he couldn't, try as +he might, think of him as his father at all. The man there who had +kissed Aunt Clare and shaken hands with Sir Jeremy was, in some +unexplained way, a little odd and out of place. He was big and strong; +his hair curled a little and was dark brown, like Robin's, and his eyes +were blue, but, in other respects, there was very little of the Trojan +about him. His mouth was large, and he had a brown, slightly curling +moustache. Indeed the general impression was brown in spite of the +blue, badly fitting suit. He was deeply tanned by the sun and was +slightly freckled. +</P> + +<P> +He would have looked splendid in New Zealand or Klondyke, or, indeed, +anywhere where you worked with your coat off and your shirt open at the +neck; but here, in that drawing-room, it was a pity, Robin thought, +that his father had not stopped for two or three days in town and gone +to a West End tailor. +</P> + +<P> +But, after all, it was a very nice little scene. It really had been +quite moving to see him kiss Clare like that, but, at the same time, +for his part, kissing...! +</P> + +<P> +"And Robin?" said Harry. +</P> + +<P> +"Here's the son and heir," said Garrett, laughing, and pushing Robin +forward. +</P> + +<P> +Now that the moment had really come, Robin was most unpleasantly +embarrassed. How foolish of Uncle Garrett to try and be funny at a +time like that, and what a pity it was that his tie was sticking out at +one end so much farther than at the other. He felt his hand seized and +crushed in the grip of a giant; he murmured something about his being +pleased, and then, suddenly, his father bent down and kissed him on the +forehead. +</P> + +<P> +They were both blushing, Robin furiously. How he hated sentiment! He +felt sure that Uncle Garrett was laughing at him. +</P> + +<P> +"By Jove, you're splendid!" said Harry, holding him back with both his +hands on his shoulders. "Pretty different from the nipper that I sent +over to England eighteen years ago. Oh, you'll do, Robin." +</P> + +<P> +"And now, Harry," said Clare, laughing, "you'll go and dress, won't +you? Father's terribly hungry and the train was late." +</P> + +<P> +"Right," said Harry; "I won't be long. It's good to be back again." +</P> + +<P> +When the door had closed behind him, there was silence. He gave the +impression of some one filled with overwhelming, rapturous joy. There +was a light in his eyes that told of dreams at length fulfilled, and +hopes, long and wearily postponed, at last realised. He had filled +that stiff, solemn room with a spirit of life and strength and sheer +animal good health—it was even, as Clare afterwards privately +confessed, a little exhausting. +</P> + +<P> +Now she stood by the fireplace, smiling a little. "My poor rose," she +said, looking at some of the petals that had fallen to the ground. +"Harry is strong!" +</P> + +<P> +"He is looking well," said Garrett. It sounded almost sarcastic. +</P> + +<P> +Robin went up to his room to change his tie—he had said nothing about +his father. +</P> + +<P> +As Harry Trojan passed down the well-remembered passages where the +pictures hung in the same odd familiar places, past staircases +vanishing into dark abysses that had frightened him as a child, windows +deep-set in the thick stone walls, corners round which he had crept in +the dark on his way to his room, it seemed to him that those long, +dreary years of patient waiting in New Zealand were as nothing, and +that it was only yesterday that he had passed down that same way, his +heart full of rage against his father, his one longing to get out and +away to other countries where he should be his own master and win his +own freedom. And now that he was back again, now that he had seen what +that freedom meant, now that he had tasted that same will-o'-the-wisp +liberty, how thankful he was to rest here quietly, peacefully, for the +remainder of his days; at last he knew what were the things that were +alone, in this world, worth striving for—not money, ambition, success, +but love for one's own little bit of country that one called home, the +patient resting in the heritage of all those accumulating traditions +that ancestors had been making, slowly, gradually, for centuries of +years. +</P> + +<P> +He had hoped that he would have the same old rooms at the top of the +West Towers that he had had when a boy; he remembered the view of the +sea from their windows—the great sweep of the Cornish coast far out to +Land's End itself, and the gulls whirring with hoarse cries over his +head as he leant out to view the little cove nestling at the foot of +the Hall. That view, then, had meant to him distant wonderful lands in +which he was to make his name and his fortune: now it spoke of home and +peace, and, beyond all, of Cornwall. +</P> + +<P> +They had put him in one of the big spare rooms that faced inland. As +he entered the sense of its luxury filled him with a delicious feeling +of comfort: the log-fire burning in the open brown-tiled fireplace, the +softness of the carpets, the electric light, shaded to a soft glow—ah! +these were the things for which he had waited, and they had, indeed, +been worth waiting for. +</P> + +<P> +His man was laying his dress-clothes on his bed. +</P> + +<P> +"What is your name?" he said, feeling almost a little shy; it was so +long since he had had things done for him. +</P> + +<P> +"James Treduggan, sir," the man answered, smiling. "You won't remember +me, sir, I expect. I was quite a youngster when you went away. But +I've been in service here ever since I was ten." +</P> + +<P> +When Harry was left alone, he stood by the fire, thinking. He had been +preparing for this moment for so long that now that it was actually +here he was frightened, nervous. He had so often imagined that first +arrival in England, the first glimpse of London; then the first meeting +and the first evening at home. Of course, all his thoughts had centred +on Robin—everything else had been secondary, but he had, in some +unaccountable way, never been able to realise exactly what Robin would +be. He had had photographs, but they had been unsatisfactory and had +told him nothing; and now that he had seen him, he was at rest; he was +all that he had hoped—straight, strong, manly, with that clear steady +look in the eyes that meant so much; yes, there was no doubt about his +son. He remembered Robin's mother with affectionate tenderness; she +had been the daughter of a doctor in Auckland—he had fallen in love +with her at once and married her, although his prospects had been so +bad. They had been very happy, and then, when Robin was two years old, +she had died; the boy had been sent home, and he had been alone +again—for eighteen years he had been alone. There had been other +women, of course; he did not pretend to have been a saint, and women +had liked him and been rather sorry for him in those early years; but +they had none of them been very much to him, only episodes—the central +fact of his existence had always been his son. He had had a friend +there, a Colonel Durand, who had three sons of his own, and had given +him much advice as to his treatment of Robin. He had talked a great +deal about the young generation, about its impatience of older theories +and manners, its dislike of authority and restraint; and Harry, +remembering his own early hatred of restriction and longing for +freedom, was determined that he would be no fetter on his son's +liberty, that he would be to him a friend, a companion rather than a +father. After all, he felt no more than twenty-five—there was really +no space of years between them—he was as young to-day as he had been +twenty years ago. +</P> + +<P> +As to the others, he had never cared very much for Clare and Garrett in +the old days; they had been stiff, cold, lacking all sense of family +affection. But that had been twenty years ago. There had been a time, +in New Zealand, when he had hated Garrett. When he had been away from +home for some ten years, the longing to see his boy had grown too +strong to be resisted, and he had written to his father asking for +permission to return. He had received a cold answer from Garrett, +saying that Sir Jeremy thought that, as he was so successful there, it +would be perhaps better if he remained there a little while longer; +that he would find little to do at home and would only weary of the +monotony—four closely written pages to the same effect. So Harry had +remained. +</P> + +<P> +But that was ten years ago. At last, a letter had come, saying that +Sir Jeremy was now very old and feeble, that he desired to see his son +before he died, and that all the past was forgotten and forgiven. And +now there was but one thought in his heart—love for all the world, one +overwhelming desire to take his place amongst them decently, worthily, +so that they might see that the wastrel of twenty years ago had +developed into a man, able to take his place, in due time, at the head +of the Trojan family. Oh! how he would try to please them all! how he +would watch and study and work so that that long twenty years' exile +might be forgotten both by himself and by them. +</P> + +<P> +He bathed and dressed slowly by the fire. As he saw his clothes on the +bed he fancied, for a moment, that they might be a little worn, a +little old. They had seemed very good and smart in Auckland, but in +England it was rather different. He almost wished that he had stayed +in London for two days and been properly fitted by a tailor. But then +he had been so eager to arrive, he had not thought of clothes; his one +idea had been to rush down as soon as possible and see them all, and +the place, and the town. +</P> + +<P> +Then he remembered that Clare had asked him to be quick. He finished +his dressing hurriedly, turned out the electric light, and left the +room. +</P> + +<P> +He was pleased to find that he had not forgotten the turns and twists +of the house. He threaded the dark passages easily, humming a little +tune, and smelling that same sweet scent of dried rose leaves that he +had known so well when he was a small boy. He could see, in +imagination, the great white-and-pink china pot-pourri bowls standing +at the corner of the stairs—nothing was changed. +</P> + +<P> +The blue drawing-room was deserted when he entered it—only the blaze +of the electric light, the golden flame of the log-fire in the great +open fireplace, and the solemn ticking of the gold clock that had stood +there, in the same place of honour, for the last hundred years. He +passed over to the windows and flung them open; the hum of the town +came, with the cold night air, into the room. The stars were brilliant +to-night and the golden haze of the lamplight hung over the streets +like a magic curtain. Ah! how good it was! The peace of it, the +comfort, the homeliness! +</P> + +<P> +Above all, it was Cornwall—the lights of the herring fleet, the +distant rhythmical beat of the mining-stamps, that peculiar scent as of +precious spices coming with the wind of the sea, as though borne from +distant magical lands, all told him that he was, at last, again in +Cornwall. +</P> + +<P> +He drank in the night air, bending his eyes on the town as though he +were saluting it again, tenderly, joyously, with the greeting of an old +familiar friend. +</P> + +<P> +Robin closed the door behind him and shivered a little. The windows +were open—how annoying when Aunt Clare had especially asked that they +should be closed. Oh! it was his father! Of course, he did not know! +</P> + +<P> +He had not been noticed, so he coughed. Harry turned round. +</P> + +<P> +"Hullo, Robin, my boy!" He passed his arm through his son's and drew +him to the window. "Isn't it splendid?" he said. "Oh! I don't +suppose you see it now, after having been here all this time; you want +to go away for twenty years, then you'd know how much it's worth. Oh! +it's splendid—what times we'll have here, you and I!" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," said Robin, a little coldly. It was very chilly with the window +open, and there was something in all that enthusiasm that was almost a +little vulgar. Of course, it was natural, after being away so long ... +but still.... Also his father's clothes were really very old—the back +of the coat was quite shiny. +</P> + +<P> +Sir Jeremy entered in his chair, followed by Clare and Garrett. +</P> + +<P> +Clare gave a little scream. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! How cold!" she cried. "Now whoever——!" +</P> + +<P> +"I'm afraid I was guilty," said Harry, laughing. "The town looked so +splendid and I hadn't seen it for so long. I——" +</P> + +<P> +"Of course, I forgot," said Clare. "I don't suppose you notice open +windows in New Zealand, because you're always outside in the Bush or +something. But here we're as shivery as you make them. Dinner's +getting shivery too. The sooner we go down the better." +</P> + +<P> +She passed back through the door and down the hall. There was no doubt +that she was a magnificent woman. +</P> + +<P> +As Sir Jeremy was wheeled through the doors he gripped Harry's hand. +"I'm damned glad that you're back," he whispered. +</P> + +<P> +Robin, who was the last to leave the room, closed the windows and +turned out the lights. The room was in darkness save for the golden +light of the leaping fire. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap02"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER II +</H3> + +<P> +It had been called the "House of the Flutes" since the beginning of +time. People had said that the name was absurd, and Harry's +grandfather, a prosaic gentleman of rather violent radical opinions, +had made a definite attempt at a change—but he had failed. Trojans +had appeared from every part of the country, angry Trojans, tearful +Trojans, indignant Trojans, important Trojans, poor-relation Trojans, +and had, one and all, demanded that the name should remain, and that +the headquarters of the Trojan tradition, of the Trojan power, should +continue to be the "House of the Flutes." +</P> + +<P> +Of course, it had its origin in tradition. In the early days when +might was right, and the stronger seized the worldly goods of the +weaker and nobody said him nay, there had been a Sir Jeremy Trojan +whose wife had been the talk of the country-side both because of her +beauty and also because of her easy morals. Sir Jeremy having departed +on a journey, the lovely Lady Clare entertained a neighbouring baron at +her husband's bed and board, and for two days all was well. But Sir +Jeremy unexpectedly returned, and, being a gentleman of a pleasant +fancy, walled up the room in which he had found the erring couple and +left them inside. He then sat outside, and listened with a gentle +pleasure to their cries, and, being a musician of no mean quality, +played on the flute from time to time to prevent the hours from being +wearisome. For three days he sat there, until there came no more +sounds from that room; then he pursued his ordinary affairs, but sought +no other wife—a grim little man with a certain sense of humour. +</P> + +<P> +There are many other legends connected with the house; you will find +them in Baedeker, where it also says: "Kind permission is accorded by +Sir Henry Trojan to visitors who desire to see the rooms during the +residence of the family in London. Special attention should be paid to +the gold Drawing-room with its magnificent carving, the Library with +its fine collection of old prints, and the Long Gallery with the family +portraits, noticing especially the Vandyke of Sir Hilary Trojan +(<I>temp.</I> Ch. I.), and a little sketch by Turner of the view from the +West Tower. The gardens, too, are well worth a short inspection, +special mention being made of the Long Terrace with its magnificent +sea-view. +</P> + +<P> +"A small charge is made by Sir Henry for admittance (adults sixpence, +children half-price), with a view to benefiting the church, a building +recently restored and sadly in need of funds." +</P> + +<P> +So far Baedeker (Cornwall, new ed., 1908). The house is astonishingly +beautiful, seen from any point of view. Added to from time to time, it +has that air of surprise, as of a building containing endless secrets, +only some of which it intends to reveal. It is full of corners and +angles, and at the same time preserves a symmetry and grandeur of style +that is surprising, if one considers its haphazard construction and +random additions. +</P> + +<P> +Part of its beauty is undoubtedly owing to its superb position. It +rises from the rock, over the grey town at its feet, like a protecting +deity, its two towers to west and east, raised like giant hands, its +grey walls rising sheer from the steep, shelving rock; behind it the +gentle rise of hills, bending towards the inland valleys; in front of +it an unbroken stretch of sea. +</P> + +<P> +It strikes the exact note that is in harmony with its colour and +surroundings: the emblem of some wild survival from dark ages when that +spot had been one of the most uncivilised in the whole of Britain—a +land of wild, uncouth people, living in a state of perpetual watch and +guard, fearing the sea, fearing the land, cringingly superstitious +because of their crying need of supernatural defence; and, indeed, +there is nothing more curious in the Cornwall of to-day than this +perpetual reminder of past superstitions, dead gods, strange pathetic +survival of heathen ancestry. +</P> + +<P> +The town of Pendragon, lying at the foot of the "House of the Flutes," +had little of this survival of former custom about it; it was rapidly +developing into that temple of British middle-class mediocrity, a +modern watering-place. It had, in the months of June, July, and +August, nigger minstrels, a café chantant, and a promenade, with six +bathing-machines and two donkeys; two new hotels had sprung up within +the last two years, a sufficient sign of its prosperity. No, Pendragon +was doing its best to forget its ancient superstitions, and even seemed +to regard the "House of the Flutes" a little resentfully because of its +reminder of a time when men scaled the rocks and stormed the walls, and +fell back dying and cursing into their ships riding at anchor in the +little bay. +</P> + +<P> +Very different was Cullin's Cove, the little fishing-village that lay +slightly to the right of the town. Here traditions were carefully +guarded; a strict watch was kept on the outside world, and strangers +were none too cheerfully received. Here, "down-along," was the old, +the true Cornwall—a land that had changed scarcely at all since those +early heathen days that to the rest of the world are dim, mysterious, +mythological, but to a Cornishman are as the events of yesterday. High +on the moor behind the Cove stand four great rocks—wild, wind-beaten, +grimly permanent. It is under their guardianship that the Cove lies, +and it is something more than a mere superstitious reverence that those +inhabitants of "down-along" pay to those darkly mysterious figures. +Seen in the fading light of the dying day, when Cornish mists are +winding and twisting over the breast of the moor, these four rocks seem +to take a living shape, to grow in size, and to whisper to those that +care to hear old stories of the slaughter that had stained the soil at +their feet on an earlier day. +</P> + +<P> +From Harry's windows the town and the sea were hidden. Immediately +below him lay the tennis-lawns and the rose-garden, and, gleaming in +the distance, at the end of the Long Walk, two white statues that had +fascinated him in his boyhood. +</P> + +<P> +His first waking thought on the morning after his arrival was to look +for those statues, and when he saw them gleaming in the sun just as +they used to do, there swept over him a feeling of youth and vigour +such as he had never known before. Those twenty years in New Zealand +were, after all, to go for nothing; they were to be as though they had +had no existence, and he was to be the young energetic man of +twenty-five, able to enter into his son's point of view, able to share +his life and vitality, and, at the same time, to give him the benefit +of his riper experience. +</P> + +<P> +Through his open window came the faint, distant beating of the sea; a +bird flew past him, a white flash of light; some one was singing the +refrain of a Cornish "chanty"—the swing of the tune came up to him +from the garden, and some of the words beat like little bells upon his +brain, calling up endless memories of his boyhood. +</P> + +<P> +He looked at his watch and found that it was nine o'clock. He had no +idea that it was so late; he had asked to be called at seven, but he +had slept so soundly that he had not heard his man enter with his +shaving water; it was quite cold now, and his razors were terribly +blunt. He cut himself badly, a thing that he scarcely ever did. But +it was really unfortunate, on this first morning when he had wanted +everything to be at its best. +</P> + +<P> +He came down to the breakfast-room humming. The house seemed a palace +of gold on this wonderful September morning; the light came in floods +through the great windows at the head of the stairs, and shafts of +golden light struck the walls and the china potpourri bowls and flashed +wonderful colours out of a great Venetian vase that stood by the hall +door. +</P> + +<P> +He found Garrett and Robin breakfasting alone; Clare and Sir Jeremy +always had breakfast in their own rooms. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm afraid I'm awfully late," said Harry cheerfully, clapping his +brother on the back and putting his hand for a minute on Robin's +shoulder; "things all cold?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh no," said Garrett, scarcely looking up from his morning paper. +"Damned good kidneys!" +</P> + +<P> +Robin said nothing. He was watching his father curiously. It was one +of the Trojan rules that you never talked at breakfast; it was such an +impossible meal altogether, and one was always at one's worst at that +time of the morning. Robin wondered whether his father would recognise +this elementary rule or whether he would talk, talk, talk, as he had +done last night. They had had rather a bad time last night; Aunt Clare +had had a headache, but his father had talked continuously—about sheep +and Maories and the Pink Terraces. It had been just like a parish-room +magic-lantern lecture—"Some hours with our friends the Maories"—it +had been very tiring; poor Aunt Clare had grown whiter and whiter; it +was quite a relief when dinner had come to an end. +</P> + +<P> +Harry helped himself to kidneys and sat down by Robin, still humming +the refrain of the Cornish song he had heard at his window. "By Jove, +I'm late—mustard, Robin, my boy—can't think how I slept like that. +Why, in New Zealand I was always up with the lark—had to be, you know, +there was always such heaps to do—the bread, old boy, if you can get +hold of it. I remember once getting up at three in the morning to go +and play cricket somewhere—fearful hot day it was, but I knocked up +fifty, I remember. Probably the bowling was awfully soft, although I +remember one chap—Pulling, friend of Durand's—could fairly twist 'em +down the pitch—made you damned well jump. Talking of cricket, I +suppose you play, Robin? Did you get your cap or whatever they call +it—College colours, you know?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, cricket!" said Robin indifferently. "No, I didn't play. The +chaps at King's who ran the games were rather outers—pretty thoroughly +barred by the decent men. None of the 'Gracchi' went in for the +sports." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh!" said Harry, considerably surprised. "And who the deuce are the +'Gracchi'?" +</P> + +<P> +"A society I was on," said Robin, a little wearily—it was so annoying +to be forced to talk at breakfast. "A literary society—essays, with +especial attention paid to the New Literature. We made it our boast +that we never went back further than Meredith, except, of course, when +one had to, for origins and comparisons. Randal, who's coming to stop +for a few days, was president last year and read some awfully good +papers." +</P> + +<P> +Harry stared blankly. He had thought that every one played cricket and +football, especially when they were strong and healthy like Robin. He +had not quite understood about the society—and who was Meredith? "I +shall be glad to meet your friend," he said. "Is he still at +Cambridge?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Randal!" said Robin. "No, he came down the same time as I did. +He only got a second in History, although he was worth a first any day +of the week. But he had such lots of other things to do—his papers +for the 'Gracchi' took up any amount of time—and then history rather +bored him. He's very popular here, especially with all Fallacy Street +people." +</P> + +<P> +"The Fallacy Street people!" repeated Harry, still more bewildered. +"Who are they?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! I suppose you've forgotten," said Robin, mildly surprised. +"They're all the people who're intellectual in Pendragon. If you live +in Fallacy Street you're one of the wits. It's like belonging to the +'Mermaid' used to be, you know, in Shakespeare's time. They're really +awfully clever—some of them—the Miss Ponsonbys and Mrs. le +Terry—Aunt Clare thinks no end of Mrs. le Terry." +</P> + +<P> +Robin's voice sounded a little awed. He had a great respect for +Fallacy Street. "Oh, they won't have any room for me," said Harry, +laughing. "I'm an awfully stupid old duffer. I haven't read anything +at all, except a bit of Kipling—'Barrack-room Ballads'—seems a waste +of time to read somehow." +</P> + +<P> +That his father had very little interest in literature Robin had +discovered some time before, but that he should boast of it—openly, +laughingly—was really rather terrible. +</P> + +<P> +Harry was silent for a few minutes; he had evidently made a blunder in +his choice of a subject, but it was really difficult. +</P> + +<P> +"Where are we going this morning, Robin?" he said at last. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! I say!" Robin looked a little unhappy. "I'm awfully sorry, +father. I'm really afraid I can't come out this morning. There's a +box of books that have positively got to get off to Randal's place +to-night. I daren't keep them any longer. I'd do it this afternoon, +only it's Aunt Clare's at-home day and she always likes me to help her. +I'm really awfully sorry, but there are lots of other mornings, aren't +there? I simply must get those books off this morning." +</P> + +<P> +"Why, of course," said Harry cheerfully; "there's plenty of time." +</P> + +<P> +He was dreadfully disappointed. He had often thought of that first +stroll with Robin. They would discuss the changes since Harry's day; +Robin would point out the new points of interest, and, perhaps, +introduce him to some of his friends—it had been a favourite picture +of his during some of those lonely days in New Zealand. And now +Robin's aunt and college friend were to come before his father—it was +rather hard. +</P> + +<P> +But, then, on second thoughts, how unreasonable it was of him to expect +to take up Robin's time like that. He must fall into the ways of the +house, quietly, unobtrusively, with none of that jolting of other +people's habits and regular customs; it had been thoughtless, of him +and ridiculous. He must be more careful. +</P> + +<P> +Breakfast ended, he found himself alone. Robin left the room with the +preoccupied air of a man of fifty; the difficulty of choosing between +Jefferies' "Story of my Heart" and Walt Whitman's "Leaves of Grass," if +there wasn't room in the box for both, was terrible! Of course Randal +was coming himself in a few days, and it would have been simpler to let +him choose for himself; but he had particularly asked for them to be +sent by the fourth, and to-day was the third. Robin had quite +forgotten his father. +</P> + +<P> +Harry was alone. From the garden came the sound of doves, and, through +the window that overlooked the lawn, the sun shone into the room. +Harry lit a cigarette and went out. The garden was changed; there was +a feeling of order and authority about it that it had never had before. +Not a weed was to be seen on the paths: flowers stretched in perfect +order and discipline; colours in harmony, shapes and patterns of a +tutored symmetry—it was the perfection of a modern gardener's art. He +passed gardeners, grave, serious men with eyes intent on their work, +and he remembered the strange old man who had watched over the garden +when he had been a boy; an old man with a wild ragged beard and a +skinny hand like the Ancient Mariner's. The garden had not prospered +under his care—it had been wild, undisciplined, tangled; but he had +been a teller of wonderful tales, a seer of visions—it was to him that +Harry had owed all the intimate knowledge of Cornish lore and mystery +that he possessed. +</P> + +<P> +The gardeners that were there now were probably not Cornishmen at +all—strangers, Londoners perhaps. They could watch that wonderful, +ever-changing view of sea and cliff and moor without any beating of the +heart; to them the crooked, dusky windings of the Cove, the mighty grey +rocks of Trelennan's Jump, the strange, solemn permanency of the four +grey stones on the moor, were as nothing; their hearts were probably in +Peckham. +</P> + +<P> +He turned a little sadly from the ordered discipline of the garden; the +shining green of the lawns, the blazing red and gold of its flowers +almost annoyed him—it was not what he had expected. Then, suddenly, +he came upon a little tangled wood—a strange, deserted place, with +tall grasses and wild ferns and a little brook bubbling noisily over +shining white and grey pebbles. He remembered it; how well he +remembered it. He had often been there in those early days. He had +tried to make a little mill in the brook. He had searched there for +some of those strange creatures about whom Tony Tregoth, the old +gardener, had told him—fauns and nymphs and the wild god Pan. He had +never found anything; but its wild, disordered beauty had made a +fitting setting for Tony's wild, disordered legends. +</P> + +<P> +It was still almost exactly as it had been twenty years before; no one +had attempted improvement. He stayed there for some time, thinking, +regretting, dreaming—it was the only part of the garden that was real +to him. +</P> + +<P> +He passed down the avenue and out through the white stone gates as one +in a dream. Something was stirring within him. It was not that during +those years in New Zealand he had forgotten. He had longed again and +again with a passionate, burning longing for the grey cliffs and the +sea and the haunting loneliness of the moor; for the Cornwall that he +had loved from the moment of his birth—no, he had never forgotten. +But there was waking in him again that strange, half-inherited sense of +the eternal presence of ancient days and old heathen ceremonies, and +the manners of men who had lived in that place a thousand years before. +He had known it when he was a boy; when he had chased rabbits over the +moor, when he had seen the mist curling mysteriously from the sea and +wrapping land and sky in a blinding curtain of grey, when he had stood +on Trelennan's Jump and watched the white, savage tossing of the foam +hundreds of feet below; he had sometimes fancied that he saw them, +those wild bearded priests of cruelty, waiting smilingly on the silent +twilit moor for victims—they had always been cruel; something terrible +in the very vagueness of their outline. +</P> + +<P> +Now the old thoughts came back to him, and he almost fancied that he +could see the strange faces in the shadows of the garden and feel their +hot breath upon his cheek. +</P> + +<P> +His passage through the streets of Pendragon woke him from his dreams; +its almost startling modernity and obtrusive up-to-dateness laughed at +his fancies. It was very much changed since he had been there +before—like the garden, it was the very apotheosis of order and modern +methods. "The Pendragon Hotel" astonished him by its stone pillars, +its glimpse of a wonderful, cool, softly carpeted hall, its official in +gold buttons who stood solemnly magnificent on the steps, the +admiration of several small boys who looked up into his face with +wide-open eyes. +</P> + +<P> +Harry remembered the old "Pendragon Hotel," a dirty, unmethodical +place, with beds that were never clean. It had been something of a +scandal, but its landlord had been an amusing fellow and a capital +teller of stories. +</P> + +<P> +The shops dazzled him by their brilliance. The hairdresser's displayed +a wonderful assortment of wigs in the window; coloured bottles of every +size and hue glittered in the chemist's; diamonds flashed in the +jeweller's—the street seemed glorious to his colonial eyes. +</P> + +<P> +The streets were not very crowded, and no one seemed to be in a hurry. +Auckland had been rather a busy little town—no one had had very much +time to spare—but here, under the mellow September sun, people +lingered and talked, and the time and place seemed to stand still with +the pleasant air of something restfully comfortable, and, above all, +containing nothing that wasn't in the very best taste. It was this air +of polite gentility that struck Harry so strongly. It had never been +like that in the old days; a ragged unkempt place of uncertain manners +and a very evident poverty. He rather resented its new polish, and he +regretted once more that he had not sought a London tailor before +coming down to Cornwall. +</P> + +<P> +He suddenly recognised a face—a middle-aged, stout gentleman, with a +white waistcoat and the air of one who had managed to lead a virtuous +life and, nevertheless, accumulate money; he was evidently satisfied +with both achievements. It was Barbour, Bunny Barbour. He had been +rather a good chap at school, with some taste for adventure. He had +had a wider horizon than most of them; Harry remembered how Bunny had +envied him in New Zealand. He looked prosperous and sedate now, and +the world must have treated him well. Harry spoke to him and was +received with effusion. "Trojan, old man! Well, I never! I'm damned +if I'd have recognised you. How you've changed! I heard you were +coming back; your boy told me—fine chap that, Trojan, you've every +reason to be proud. Well, to be sure! Come in and have a whisky and +see the new club-rooms! Just been done up, and fairly knocks spots out +of the old place." +</P> + +<P> +He was extremely cordial, but Harry felt that he was under criticism. +Barbour's eyes looked him up and down; there was almost a challenge in +his glance, as though he said, "We are quite ready to receive you if +you are one of us. But you must move with the times. It's no good for +you to be the same as in the old days. We've all changed, and so must +you!" +</P> + +<P> +The club was magnificent. Harry stared in amazement at its luxury and +comfort. Its wonderful armchairs and soft carpets, its decorations and +splendid space astonished him. The old place had seemed rather fine to +him as a boy, but he saw now how bad it had really been. He sank into +one of the armchairs with that strange sense of angry resentment that +he had felt before in the street gaining hotly upon him. +</P> + +<P> +"It's good, isn't it?" said Barbour, smiling with an almost personal +satisfaction, as though he had been largely responsible for the present +improvements. "The membership's going up like anything, and we're +thinking of raising subscriptions. Very decent set of fellows on it, +too. Oh! we're getting along splendidly here. You must have noticed +the change in the place!" +</P> + +<P> +"I should think I have," said Harry—the tone of his voice was a little +regretful; "but it's not only here—it's the whole town. It's +smartened up beyond all knowing. But I must confess that, dirty and +dingy as they were, I regret the old club-rooms. There was something +extraordinarily homely and comfortable about them. Do you remember +that old armchair with the hole in it? Gone long ago, of course, but I +shall never sit in anything as nice again." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, sentiment," said Barbour, smiling; "you won't find much of it in +Pendragon nowadays. It doesn't do. Sentimentalists are always Tories, +you'll find; always wanting to keep the old things, and all against +progress. We're all for progress now. We've got some capital men on +the Town Council—Harding, Belfast, Rogers, Snaith—you won't remember +them. There's some talk of pulling down the Cove and building new +lodging-houses there. We're crowded out in the summer, and there are +more people every year." +</P> + +<P> +"Pull down the Cove?" said Harry, aghast; "but you can't. It's been +there for hundreds of years; it's one of the most picturesque places in +Cornwall." +</P> + +<P> +"That's the only thing," said Barbour regretfully. "It acts rather +well as a draw for painters and that sort of person, and it makes some +pretty picture postcards that are certain to sell. Oh, I suppose +they'll keep it for a bit, but it will have to go ultimately. +Pendragon's changing." +</P> + +<P> +There was no doubt that it was, and Harry left the club some quarter of +an hour later with dismay in his heart. He had dreamed so long of the +old times, the old beauties, the old quiet spirit of unprogressive +content, that this new eagerness to be up-to-date and modern, this +obvious determination to make Pendragon a watering-place of the most +detestable kind, horrified him. +</P> + +<P> +As he passed down the crooked, uneven stone steps that led to the Cove, +he felt indignant, almost unhappy. It was as if a friend had been +insulted in his presence and he had been unable to defend him. They +said that the Cove must go, must make way for modern jerry-built +lodging-houses, in order that middle-class families from London and +Manchester might be sufficiently accommodated. +</P> + +<P> +The Cove had meant a great deal to him when a boy—mystery, romance, +pirates and smugglers, strange Cornish legends of saints and sinners, +knights and men-at-arms. The little inn, "The Bended Thumb," with its +irregular red-brick floor and its smoke-stained oaken rafters, had been +the theatre of many a stirring drama—now it was to be pulled down. It +was a wonderfully beautiful morning, and the little, twisting street of +the Cove seemed to dance with its white shining cobbles in the light of +the sun. It was mysterious as ever, but colours lingered in every +corner. Purple mists seemed to hang about the dark alleys and twisting +ways; golden shafts of light flashed through the open cottage doorways +into rooms where motes of dust danced, like sprites, in the sun; smoke +rose in little wreaths of pearl-grey blue into the cloudless sky; there +was perfect stillness in the air, and from an overflowing pail that +stood outside "The Bended Thumb," the clear drip, drip of the water +could be heard falling slowly into the white cobbles, and close at hand +was the gentle lap of the sea, as it ran up the little shingly beach +and then dragged slowly back again with a soft, reluctant hiss. +</P> + +<P> +It was the Cove in its gentlest mood. No one was about; the women were +preparing the dinner and the men were away at work. No strange faces +peered from inhospitable doorways; there was nothing to-day that could +give the stranger a sense of outlawry, of almost savage avoidance of +ordinary customs and manners. Harry's heart beat wildly as he walked +down the street; there was no change here; it was as he had left it. +He was at home here as he could never be in that new, strident +Pendragon with its utter disregard of tradition and beauty. +</P> + +<P> +He saw that it was late and hurried back. He had discovered a great +deal during the morning. +</P> + +<P> +At lunch he spoke of the changes that he had seen. Clare smiled. +"Why, of course," she said. "Twenty years is a long time, and +Pendragon has made great strides. For my part, I am very glad. It +brings money to the shopkeepers, and the place will be quite +fashionable in a few years' time. We're all on the side of progress up +here," she added, laughing. +</P> + +<P> +"But the Cove?" said Harry. "Barbour tells me that they are thinking +of pulling it down to make way for lodging-houses or something." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, why not?" said Clare. "It is really very much in the way where +it is, and is, I am told, extremely insanitary. We must be practical +nowadays or we are nothing; you have to pay heavily for being romantic." +</P> + +<P> +Harry felt again that sensation of personal affront as though some +close friend, bound to him by many ties, had been attacked violently in +his presence. It was unreasonable, he knew, but it was very strong. +</P> + +<P> +"And you, Robin," he said, "what do you think of it?" +</P> + +<P> +"I agree with Aunt Clare," answered Robin lightly, as though it were a +matter that interested him very little. "If the place is in the way, +it ought to go. He's a sensible man, Barbour." +</P> + +<P> +"The fact is, Harry," said Garrett, "you haven't changed quite as fast +as the place has. You'll see the point of view in a few weeks' time." +</P> + +<P> +He felt unreasonably, ridiculously angry. They were all treating him +as a child, as some one who would grow up one day perhaps, but was, at +present at any rate, immature in thought and word; even with Robin +there was a half-implied superiority. +</P> + +<P> +"But the Cove!" he cried vehemently. "Is it nothing to any of you? +After all that it has been to us all our lives, to our people, to the +whole place, are you going to root it out and destroy it simply because +the town isn't quite big enough to put up all the trippers that burden +it in the summer? Don't you see what you will lose if you do? I +suppose you think that I am sentimental, romantic, but upon my word I +can't see that you have improved Pendragon very much in all these +twenty years. It was charming once—a place with individuality, +independence; now it is like anywhere else—a miniature Brighton." +</P> + +<P> +He knew that he was wasting his words. There was a pause, and he felt +that they were all three laughing at him—yes, Robin as well. He had +only made a fool of himself; they could not understand how much he had +expected during those weary years of waiting—how much he had expected +and how much he had missed. +</P> + +<P> +Clare looked round the room and was relieved to find that only Beldam +was present. If one of the family was bent on being absurd, it was as +well that there should only be one of the servants to hear him. +</P> + +<P> +"You know that you are to be on your trial this afternoon, Harry?" she +said. +</P> + +<P> +"My trial?" he repeated, bewildered. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—it's my at-home day, you know—first Thursdays—and, of course, +they'll all come to see you. We shall have the whole town——" She +looked at him a little anxiously; so much depended on how he behaved, +and she wasn't completely reassured by his present manner. +</P> + +<P> +If he astonished them all this afternoon by saying things about the +Cove like that, it would be too terrible! +</P> + +<P> +"How horrible!" he said, laughing. "I'm very much afraid that I shan't +do you justice, Clare. I'm no good at small conversation." +</P> + +<P> +His treating it so lightly made it worse, and she wondered how she +could force him to realise the seriousness of it. +</P> + +<P> +"All the nicest people in Pendragon," she said; "and they are rather +ridiculously critical, and of course they talk." +</P> + +<P> +He looked at her and laughed. "I wish they were Maories," he said, "I +shouldn't be nearly so frightened!" +</P> + +<P> +She leant over the table to emphasise her words. "But it really does +make a difference, Harry. First impressions count a lot. You'll be +nice to them, won't you?" +</P> + +<P> +The laugh had left his eyes. It was serious, as he knew. He had had +no idea that he would have, so to speak, "funked" it so. It was +partly, of course, because of Robin. He did not want to make a fool of +himself before the boy. He was already beginning to realise what were +the things that counted with Robin. +</P> + +<P> +The real pathos of the situation lay in his terrible anxiety to do the +right thing. If he had taken it quietly, had trusted to his natural +discretion and had left circumstances to develop of themselves, he +would have, at any rate, been less self-conscious. But he could not +let it alone. He had met Auckland society often enough and had, +indeed, during his later years, been something of a society man, but +there everything was straight-forward and simple. There was no +tradition, no convention, no standard. Because other people did a +thing was no reason why you should do it—originality was welcomed +rather than otherwise. But here there were so many things that you +must do, and so very, very many that you mustn't; and if you were a +Trojan, matters were still more complicated. +</P> + +<P> +It was after half-past four when he entered the drawing-room, and Clare +was pouring out tea. Five or six ladies were already there, and a +clergyman of ample proportions and quite beautifully brushed hair. He +was introduced—"Mrs. le Terry—Miss Ponsonby—Miss Lucy Ponsonby—Miss +Werrel—Miss Thisbe Werrel—Mr. Carrell—our rector, Harry." +</P> + +<P> +He shook hands and was terribly embarrassed. He was conscious at once +of that same sense of challenge that he had felt with Barbour in the +morning. They were not obviously staring, but he knew that they were +rapidly summing him up. He coloured foolishly, and stood for a moment +awkwardly in the middle of the room. +</P> + +<P> +"Tea, Harry?" said Clare. "Scones down by the fire. Everybody else is +all right—so look after yourself." +</P> + +<P> +He found himself by Mrs. le Terry, a small, rather pretty woman with +wide-open blue eyes, and a mass of dark brown hair hidden beneath a +large black hat that drooped over one ear. She talked rapidly and with +few pauses. She was, he discovered, one of those persons whose +conversation was a series of exclamation marks. She was perpetually +astonished, delighted, and disappointed with an amount of emotion that +left her no breath and gave her hearers a small opinion of her +sincerity. "It's too terribly funny," she said, opening her eyes very +wide indeed, "that you should have been in that amazing place, New +Zealand—all sheep and Maories, isn't it?—and if there's one thing +that I should be likely to detest more than mutton I'm sure it would be +Maories. Too dreadful and terrible! But you look splendidly well, Mr. +Trojan. I never, really never, saw any one with such a magnificent +colour! I suppose that it's that gorgeous sun, and it never rains, +does it? Too delightful! If there's one thing that I <I>do</I> adore, it's +the sun!" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I don't know about that," said Harry, laughing; "we had rain +pretty often in Auckland, and——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh," she said, breaking in upon him, "that's too curious, because, do +you know, I thought you never had rain at all, and I do detest rain so. +It's too distressing when one has a new frock or must go to some stupid +place to see some one. But I'm too awfully glad that you've come here, +Mr. Trojan. We do want waking up a little, you know, and I'm sure +you're the very person to do it. It would be too funny if you were to +wake us all up, you know." +</P> + +<P> +Harry was pleased. There were no difficulties here, at any rate. +Hadn't Robin mentioned Mrs. le Terry as one of the leaders of Fallacy +Street? He suddenly lost his shyness and wanted to become +confidential. He would tell her how glad he was to be back in England +again; how anxious he was to enter into all the fun and to take his +part in all the work. He wondered what she felt about the Cove, and he +hoped that she would be an enemy to its proposed destruction. +</P> + +<P> +But she yielded him no opportunity of speaking, and he speedily +discovered her opinion on the Cove. "And such changes since you went +away! Quite another place, I'm glad to say. Pendragon is the sweetest +little town, and even the dear, dirty trippers in the summer are the +most delightful and amusing people you ever saw. And now that they +talk of pulling down that horrid, dirty old Cove, it will be too +splendid, with lodging-houses and a bandstand; and they do talk of an +Esplanade—that would be too delightful!" +</P> + +<P> +While she was speaking, he watched the room curiously. Robin had come +in and was standing by the fireplace talking to the Miss Werrels, two +girls of the athletic type, with short skirts and their hair brushed +tightly back over their foreheads. He was leaning with one arm on the +mantelpiece, and was looking down on the ladies with an air of languid +interest: his eyes were restless, and every now and again glanced +towards his father. The two Miss Ponsonbys were massive ladies of any +age over fifty. Clad in voluminous black silk, with several little +reticules and iron chains, their black hair bound in tight coils at the +back of their heads, each holding stiffly her teacup with a tenacity +that was worthy of a better cause, they were awe-inspiring and +militant. In spite of their motionless gravity, there was something +aggressive in their frowning brows and cold, expressionless eyes. +Harry thought that he had never seen two more terrifying persons. +Clare was talking to the prosperous clergyman; he smiled continually, +and now and again laughed in reply to some remark, but it was always +something restrained and carefully guarded. He was obviously a man who +laid great store by exterior circumstances. That the sepulchre should +be filled with dead men's bones might cause him pain, but that it +should be unwhitened would be, to him, a thing far more terrible. +</P> + +<P> +Clare turned round and addressed the room generally. +</P> + +<P> +"Mr. Carrell has just been telling me of the shocking state of the +Cove," she said. "Insanitary isn't the word, apparently. Things have +gone too far, and the only wise measure seems to be to root the place +up completely. It is sad, of course—it was a pretty old place, but it +has had its day." +</P> + +<P> +"I've just been telling your brother about it, Miss Trojan," said Mrs. +le Terry. "It's quite too terrible, and I'm sure it's very bad for all +of us to have anything quite so horrible so close to our houses. +There's no knowing what dreadful things we may not all of us be +catching at this very moment——" +</P> + +<P> +She was interrupted by two new arrivals—Mrs. and Miss Bethel. They +were a curious contrast. The mother was the strangest old lady that +Harry had ever seen. She was tiny in stature, with snow-white hair and +cheeks that were obviously rouged; she wore a dress of curious shot +silk decorated with much lace, and her fingers were thick with jewels; +a large hat with great purple feathers waved above her head. It was a +fantastic and gaudy impression that she made, and there was something +rather pitiful in the contrast between her own obvious satisfaction +with her personal appearance and the bizarre, almost vulgar, effect of +such strangely contrasted colours. She came mincing into the room with +her head a little on one side, but in spite of, or perhaps because of, +her rather anxious smiles, it was obvious that she was not altogether +at her ease. +</P> + +<P> +The girl who followed her was very different. Tall and very dark, she +was clothed quite simply in grey; her hair was wonderful, although it +was at present hidden to some extent by her hat, but its coal-black +darkness had something intent, almost luminous, about it, so that, +paradoxically, its very blackness held hidden lights and colours. But +it was her manner that Harry especially noticed. She followed her +mother with a strange upright carriage of the head and flash of the +eyes that were almost defiant. She was evidently expecting no very +civil reception, and she seemed to face the room with hostility and no +very ready eagerness to please. +</P> + +<P> +The effect on the room was marked. Mrs. le Terry stopped speaking for +a moment and rustled her skirts with a movement of displeasure, the +Miss Ponsonbys clutched their teacups even tighter than before and +their brows became more clouded, the Miss Werrels smiled confidentially +at each other as though they shared some secret, and even Robin made a +slight instinctive movement of displeasure. +</P> + +<P> +Harry felt at once an impulse of sympathy towards the girl. It was +almost as if this sudden hostility had made them friends: he liked that +independence of her carriage, the pride in her eyes. Mrs. le Terry's +voice broke upon his ears. +</P> + +<P> +"Which must be, Mr. Trojan, extraordinarily provoking. To go there, I +mean, and find absolutely no one in—all that way, too, and a horribly +wet night, and no train until nine o'clock." +</P> + +<P> +In his endeavours to pick up the thread of the conversation he lost +sight of their meeting with Clare. +</P> + +<P> +She, indeed, had greeted them with all the Trojan coldness; nothing +could have been more sternly formal than her "Ah! Mrs. Bethel, I'm so +glad that you were able to come. So good of you to trouble to call. +Won't you have some tea? Do find a seat somewhere, Miss Bethel. I +hope you won't mind our all having finished." +</P> + +<P> +Harry was introduced and took them their tea. It was obvious that, for +some reason unknown to him, their presence there was undesired by all +the company present, including Clare herself. He also knew +instinctively that their coming there had been some act of daring +bravery, undertaken perhaps with the hope that, after all, it might not +be as they had feared. +</P> + +<P> +The old lady's hand trembled as she took her teacup; the colour had +fled from her face, and she sat there white and shaking. As Harry bent +over her with the scones, he saw to his horror that a tear was +trembling on her eyelid; her throat was moving convulsively. +</P> + +<P> +At the same instant he knew that the girl's eyes were fixed upon his; +he saw them imploring, beseeching him to help them. It was a difficult +situation, but he smiled back at the girl and turned to the old lady. +</P> + +<P> +"Do try these scones, Mrs. Bethel," he said; "they are still hot and I +can recommend them strongly. I'm so glad to meet you; my sister told +me only this morning that she hoped you would come this afternoon, as +she wanted us to become acquainted." +</P> + +<P> +It was a lie, but he spoke it without hesitation, knowing that it would +reach Clare's ears. The little lady smiled nervously and looked up at +him. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, Mr. Trojan," she said, "it's very good of you, I'm sure. We are +only too delighted. It's not much gaiety that we can offer you here, +but such as it is——" +</P> + +<P> +She was actually making eyes at him, the preposterous old person. It +was really a little pitiful, with her gorgeous colours, and her +trembling assumption of a coquettish youth that had left her long ago. +Her attempt to storm a difficult position by the worst of all possible +tactics made him extremely sorry for the daughter, who was forced to +look on in silence. His thoughts, indeed, were with the girl—her +splendid hair, her eyes, something wild, almost rebellious, that found +a kindred note in himself; curiously, almost absurdly, they were to a +certain degree allies although they had not spoken. He talked to her a +little and she mentioned the Cove. +</P> + +<P> +"It is a test of your Cornish ancestry," she said—"if you care for it, +I mean. So many people here look on it as a kind of +rubbish-heap—picturesque but untidy—and it is the most beautiful +place in the world." +</P> + +<P> +"I am glad that you feel like that," he said quietly; "it meant a lot +to me as a boy. I have been sorry to find how unpopular it is now; but +I see that it still has its supporters." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, you must talk to father," she said. "He is always there. We are +a little old-fashioned, I'm afraid." +</P> + +<P> +There was in her voice, in her smile, something that stirred him +strangely. He felt as though he had met her before—a long while ago. +He recognised little characteristics, the way that she pushed back her +hair when she was excited, the beautiful curve of her neck when she +raised her eyes to his, the rise and fall of her bosom—it was all +strangely, individually familiar, as though he had often watched her do +the same things in the same way before, in some other place.... +</P> + +<P> +He had forgotten the others—Clare, Robin, the Miss Ponsonbys, Mrs. le +Terry; and when they had all gone, he did not realise that he had in +any way neglected them. +</P> + +<P> +After Miss Bethel had left the room, followed by the preposterous old +mother, he stood at the window watching the lights of the town shining +mistily through the black network of trees in the drive. He must meet +her again. +</P> + +<P> +Clare spoke to him and he turned round. "I'm afraid you have made the +Miss Ponsonbys enemies for life," she said; "you never spoke to them +once. I warned you that they were the most important people in the +place." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! the Miss Ponsonbys!" said Harry carelessly, and Robin stood amazed. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap03"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER III +</H3> + +<P> +Robin's rooms, charming as they were, with their wide windows opening +on to tossing sea and the sharp bend of the grey cliffs stretching to +distant horizons, suffered from overcrowding. +</P> + +<P> +His sitting-room, with its dark red wallpaper and several good prints +framed in dark oak—Burne-Jones' "Study for Cupid's Masque," Hunt's +"Hireling Shepherd," and Whistler's "Battersea Bridge" were the +best—might have been delightful had he learned to select; but at the +present stage in his development he hated rejecting anything as long as +it reached a certain standard. His appreciations were wide and +generous, and his knowledge was just now too superficial to permit of +discerning criticism. The room, again, suffered from a rather +effeminate prettiness. There were too many essentially trivial +knick-knacks—some fans, silver ornaments, a charming little ebony +clock, and a generous assortment of gay, elegantly worked cushions. +The books, too, were all in handsome editions—Meredith in green +leather with a gold-worked monogram, Pater in red half-morocco, +Swinburne in light-blue with red and gold tooling—rich and to some +extent unobtrusive, but reiterating unmistakably the first impression +that the room had given, the mark of something superficial. +</P> + +<P> +Robin was there now, dressing for dinner. He often dressed in his +sitting-room, because his books were there. He liked to open a book +for a moment before fitting his studs into his shirt, and how charming +to read a verse of Swinburne before brushing his hair—not so much +because of the Swinburne, but rather because one went down to dinner +with a pleasant feeling of culture and education. To-night he was in a +hurry. People had stayed so late for tea (it was still the day after +his father's arrival), and he had to be at the other end of the town by +half-past seven. What a nuisance going out to dinner was, and how he +wished he wasn't going to-night. +</P> + +<P> +The fact that the dinner promised, in all probability, to afford +something of a situation did not, as was often the case, give him very +much satisfaction. Indeed it was the reverse. The situation was going +to be extremely unpleasant, and there was every likelihood that Robin +would look a fool. Robin's education had been a continuous insistence +on the importance of superficiality. It had been enforced while he was +still in the cradle, when a desire to kick and fight had been always +checked by the quiet reiteration that it was not a thing that a Trojan +did. Temper was not a fault of itself, but an exhibition of it was; +simply because self-control was a Trojan virtue. At his private school +he was taught the great code of brushing one's hair and leaving the +bottom button of one's waistcoat undone. Robbery, murder, rape—well, +they had all played their part in the Trojan history; but the art of +shaking hands and the correct method of snubbing a poor relation, if +properly acquired, covered the crimes of the Decalogue. +</P> + +<P> +It was not that Robin, either then or afterwards, was a snob. He +thought no more of a duke or a viscount than of a plain commoner, but +he learnt at once the lesson of "Us—and the Others." If you were one +of the others—if there was a hesitation about your aspirates, if you +wore a tail-coat and brown boots—then you were non-existent, you +simply did not count. +</P> + +<P> +When he left Eton for Cambridge, this Code of the Quite Correct Thing +advanced beyond the art of Perfect Manners; it extended to literature +and politics, and, in fact, everything of any importance. He soon +discovered what were the things for "Us" to read, whom were the +painters for "Us" to admire, and what were the politics for "Us" to +applaud. He read Pater and Swinburne and Meredith, Bernard Shaw and +Galsworthy and Joseph Conrad, and had quite definite ideas about all of +them. He admired Rickett's stage effects, and thought Sholto Douglas's +portraits awfully clever, and, of course, Max's Caricatures were +masterly. I'm not saying that he did not really admire these +things—in many things his appreciation was genuine enough—but if it +should happen that he cared for "The Christian" or "God's Good Man," he +speedily smothered his admiration and wondered how he could be such a +fool. To do him justice, he never had any doubt that those whose +judgment he followed were absolutely right; but he followed them +blindly, often praising books or pictures that he had never read or +seen because it was the thing to do. He read quite clever papers to +"The Gracchi" at Cambridge, but the most successful of all, "The +Philosophy of Nine-pins according to Bernard Shaw," was written before +he had either seen or read any of that gentleman's plays. He was, in +fact, in great danger of developing into a kind of walking <I>Rapid +Review</I> of other people's judgments and opinions. He examined nothing +for himself; his standard of the things to be attained in this world +was fixed and unalterable; to have an unalterable standard at +twenty-one is to condemn oneself to folly for life. +</P> + +<P> +And now, as he was dressing for dinner, two things occupied his mind: +firstly, his father; in the second place, the situation that he was to +face in half-an-hour's time. +</P> + +<P> +With regard to his father, Robin was terribly afraid that he was one of +the Others. He had had his suspicions from the first—that violent +entry, the loud voice and the hearty laugh, the bad-fitting clothes, +and the perpetual chatter at dinner; it had all been noisy, unusual, +even a little vulgar. But his behaviour at tea that afternoon had +grieved Robin very much. How could he be so rude to the light and +leading of Fallacy Street? It could only have been through ignorance; +it could only have been because he really did not know how truly great +the Miss Ponsonbys were. But then, to spend all his time with the +Bethels, strange, odd people, with the queerest manners and an +uncertain history, whom Fallacy Street had decided to cut! +</P> + +<P> +No, Robin was very much afraid that his father must be ranked with the +Others. He had not expected very much after all; New Zealand must be a +strange place on all accounts; but his father seemed to show no desire +to improve, he seemed quite happy and contented, and scarcely realised, +apparently, the seriousness of his mistakes. +</P> + +<P> +But, after all, the question of his father was a very minor affair as +compared with the real problem that he must answer that evening. Robin +had met Dahlia Feverel in the summer of the preceding year at +Cambridge. He had thought her extremely beautiful and very +fascinating. Most of his college friends had ladies whom they adored; +it was considered quite a thing to do—and so Robin adored Dahlia. +</P> + +<P> +No one knew anything about the Feverels. The mother was kept in the +background and the father was dead—there was really only Dahlia; and +when Robin was with her he never thought of questioning her as to +antecedents of earlier history. For two months he loved her +passionately, chiefly because he saw her very seldom. When he went +down at the end of the summer term he felt that she was the only thing +in the world worth living for. He became Byronic, scowled at Aunt +Clare, and treated Garrett's cynicism with contempt. He wrote letters +to her every day full of the deepest sentiments and a great deal of +amazingly bad poetry. Clare wondered what was the matter, but asked no +questions, and was indeed far too firmly convinced of the efficacy of +the Trojan system to have any fears of mental or moral danger. +</P> + +<P> +Then Miss Feverel made a mistake; she came with her mother to stay at +Pendragon. For the first week Robin was blissfully happy—then he +began to wonder. The best people in Pendragon would have nothing to do +with the Feverels. Aunt Clare, unaware that they were friends of +Robin's, pronounced them "commonly vulgar." The mother was more in +evidence than she had been at Cambridge, and Robin passed from dislike +to horror and from horror to hatred. Dahlia, too, seemed to have +changed. Robin had loved her too passionately hitherto to think of the +great Division. But soon he began to wonder. There were certain +things—little unimportant trifles, of course—that made him rather +uneasy; he began to have a horrible suspicion that she was one of the +Others; and then, once the suspicion was admitted, proof after proof +came forward to turn it into certainty. +</P> + +<P> +How horrible, and what an escape! His visits to the little +lodging-house overlooking the sea where Dahlia played the piano so +enchantingly, and Mrs. Feverel, a solemn, rather menacing figure, +played silently and mournfully continuous Patience, were less and less +frequent. He was determined to break the matter off; it haunted his +dreams, it troubled him all day; he was forced to keep his +acquaintanceship with them secret, and was in perpetual terror lest +Aunt Clare should discover it. He had that most depressing of +unwished-for possessions, a skeleton; its cupboard-door swung +creakingly in the wind, and its bones rattled in his ears. +</P> + +<P> +No, the thing must come to an end at once, and completely. They had +invited him to dinner and he had accepted, meaning to use the occasion +for the contemplated separation. He had thought often enough of what +he would say—words that had served others many times before in similar +situations. He would refer to their youth, the affair should be a +midsummer episode, pleasant to look back upon when they were both older +and married to more worthy partners; he would be a brother to her and +she should be a sister to him—but, thank God for his escape! +</P> + +<P> +He believed that the Trojan traditions would carry him through. He was +not quite sure what she would do—cry probably, and remonstrate; but it +would soon be over and he would be at peace once more. +</P> + +<P> +He dressed slowly and with his usual care. It would be easier to speak +with authority if there was no doubt about his appearance. He decided +to walk, and he passed through the garden into the town, his head a +buzzing repetition of the words that he meant to say. It was a +beautiful evening; a soft mist hid the moon's sharper outline, but she +shone, a vague circlet of light through a little fleet of fleecy white +cloud. Although it was early in September, some of the trees were +beginning to change their dark green into faint gold, and the sharp +outline of their leaves stood out against the grey pearl light of the +sky. As he passed into the principal street of Pendragon, Robin drew +his coat closer about him, like some ancient conspirator. He had no +wish to be stopped by an inquisitive friend; his destination demanded +secrecy. Soon the lights and asphalt of the High Street gave place to +dark, twisting paths and cobbled stones. These obscure and narrow ways +were rather pathetic survivals of the old Pendragon. At night they had +an almost sinister appearance; the lamps were at very long intervals +and the old houses leaned over the road with a certain crazy +picturesqueness that was, at the same time, exceedingly dangerous. +There were few lights in the windows and very few pedestrians on the +cobbles; the muffled roar of the sea sounded close at hand. And, +indeed, it sprang upon you quite magnificently at a turn of the road. +To-night it scarcely moved; a ripple as the waves licked the sand, a +gentle rustle as of trees in the wind when the pebbles were dragged +back with the ebb—that was all. It seemed strangely mysterious under +the misty, uncertain light of the moon. +</P> + +<P> +The houses facing the sea loomed up darkly against the horizon—a black +contrast with the grey of sea and sky. It was No. 4 where the Feverels +lived. There was a light in the upper window and some one was playing +the piano. Robin hesitated for some minutes before ringing the bell. +When it had rung he heard the piano stop. For a few seconds there was +no sound; then there were steps in the passage and the door was opened +by the very dowdy little maid-of-all-work whose hands were always dirty +and whose eyes were always red, as though with perpetual weeping. +</P> + +<P> +With what different eyes he saw the house now! On his first visit, the +sun had dazzled his eyes; there had been flowers in the drawing-room +and she had come to meet him in some charming dress; he had stood +enraptured at the foot of the stairs, deeming it Paradise. Now the +lamp in the hall flared with the wind from the door, and he was acutely +conscious of a large rent in the dirty, faded carpet. The house was +perfectly still—it might have been a place of ghosts, with the moon +shining mistily through the window on the stairs and the strange, +insistent murmur of the sea beating mysteriously through the closed +doors! +</P> + +<P> +There was no one in the drawing-room, and its appalling bad taste +struck him as it had never done before. How could he have been blind +to it? The glaring yellow carpet, the bright purple lamp-shades, the +gilt looking-glass over the fireplace, and, above all, dusty, drooping +paper flowers in bright china vases ranged in a row by the window. Of +course, it might be merely the lodgings. Lodgings always were like +that—but to live with them for months! To attempt no change, to leave +the flowers, and the terrible oil-painting "Lost in the Snow"—an +obvious British Public appeal to a pathos that simply shrieked at you, +with its hideous colours and very material snow-storm. No, Robin could +only repeat once more, What an escape! +</P> + +<P> +But had he, after all, escaped? He was not quite sure, as he stood by +the window waiting. It might be difficult, and he was unmistakably +nervous. +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia closed the door, and stood there for a moment before coming +forward. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin—at last!" and she held out both hands to him. They were the +same words that his aunt had used to his father last night, he +remembered foolishly, and at once they seemed strained, false, +ridiculous! +</P> + +<P> +He took her hand and said something about being in time; then, as she +seemed to expect it, he bent down and kissed her. +</P> + +<P> +She was pretty in a rather obvious way. If there had been less +artificiality there would have been more charm; of middle height, she +was slim and dark, and her hair, parted in the middle, fell in waves +over her temples. She affected a rather simple, aesthetic manner that +suited her dark eyes and rather pale complexion. You said that she was +intense until you knew her. To-night she wore a rather pretty dress of +some dark-brown stuff, cut low at the neck, and with her long white +arms bare. She had obviously taken a good deal of trouble this +evening, and had undoubtedly succeeded. +</P> + +<P> +"And so Sir Robert has deigned to come and see his humble dependants at +last!" she said, laughing. "A whole fortnight, Robin, and you've not +been near us." +</P> + +<P> +"I'm dreadfully sorry," he said, "but I've really been too terribly +busy. The Governor coming home and one thing and another——" +</P> + +<P> +He felt gauche and awkward, the consciousness of what he must say after +dinner weighed on him heavily. He could hardly believe that there had +ever been a time when he had talked eagerly, passionately—he cursed +himself for a fool. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, we've been very lonely and you're a naughty boy," said Dahlia. +"But now you are here I won't scold you if you promise to tell me +everything you've done since last time——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! done?" said Robin vaguely; "I really don't know—the usual sort of +thing, I suppose—not much to do in Pendragon at any time." +</P> + +<P> +She had been looking at him curiously while he was speaking. Now she +suddenly changed her voice. "I've been so lonely without you, dear," +she said, speaking almost in a whisper; "I fancied—of course it was +silly of me—that perhaps there was some one else—that you were +getting a little tired of me. I was—very unhappy. I nearly wrote, +but I was afraid that—some one might see it. Letters are always +dangerous. But it's very lonely here all day—with only mother. If +you could come a little oftener, dear—it means everything to me." +</P> + +<P> +Her voice was a little husky as though tears were not far away, and she +spoke in little short sentences—she seemed to find it hard to say the +words. +</P> + +<P> +Robin suddenly felt a brute. How could he ever tell her of what was in +his mind? If it was really so much to her he could never leave +her—not at once like that; he must do it gradually. +</P> + +<P> +She was sitting by him on the sofa and looked rather delightful. She +had the pathetic expression that always attracted him, and he felt very +sorry indeed. How blank her days would be without him! Part of the +romance had always been his rôle of King Cophetua, and tears sprang to +his eyes as he thought of the poor beggar-maid, alone, forlornly +weeping, when he had finally withdrawn his presence. +</P> + +<P> +"I think it is partly the sea," she said, putting her hand gently on +his sleeve. "When one is sitting quite alone here in the evening with +nothing to do and no one to talk to, one hears it so plainly—it is +almost frightening. You know, Robin, old boy, I don't care for +Pendragon very much. I only came here because of you—and now—if you +never come to see us——" +</P> + +<P> +She stopped with a little catch in her voice. Her hand fastened on his +sleeve; their heads were very close together and her hair almost +brushed his cheek. +</P> + +<P> +He really was an awful brute, but at the same time it was rather +nice—that she should care so much. It would be terrible for her when +he told her what was in his mind. She might even get very ill—he had +read of broken hearts often enough; and she was extraordinarily nice +just now—he didn't want to hurt her. But still a fellow must think of +his career, his future, and that sort of thing. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Feverel entered—ponderous, solemn, dressed in a black silk that +trails behind her in funereal folds. Her hands were clammy to the +touch and her voice was a deep bass. She said very little, but sat +down silently by the window, forming, as she always did, a dark and +extremely solid background. Robin hated and feared her. There was +something sinister in her silence—something ominous in her perpetual +black. He had never heard her laugh. +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia was laughing now. "I'm a selfish brute, Bobby," she said, "to +bother you with my silly little complaints when we want to be cheerful. +We'll have a good time this evening, won't we? We'll sing some of +those Rubinstein's duets after dinner, and I've got a new song that +I've been learning especially for you. And then there's your father; I +do want to hear all about him so much—he must be so interesting, +coming from New Zealand. Mother and I saw a gentleman in the town this +morning that we thought must be him. Tall and brown, with a light +brown moustache and a dark blue suit. It must be splendid to have a +father again after twenty years without him." +</P> + +<P> +Her voice dropped a little, as though to refer gently to her own +fatherless condition. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Feverel, a dark shadow in the window, sighed heavily. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! the Governor!" said Robin, a little irritably. "No! It's rather +difficult—he doesn't seem to know what to do and say. I suppose it's +being in New Zealand so long! It makes it rather difficult for me." +</P> + +<P> +He spoke as one suffering under an unjust accusation. It was bad luck, +and he wondered vaguely why Dahlia had been so interested; why should +she care, unless, and the idea struck him with horror, she already +regarded him as a prospective father-in-law? +</P> + +<P> +Dinner was announced by the grimy little maid. Robin took the dark +figure of Mrs. Feverel on his arm and made some hesitating remark about +the weather—but he had the curious and unpleasant sensation of her +seeing through him most thoroughly and clearly. He felt ridiculously +like a captive, and his doubts as to his immediate escape increased. +The gaudy drawing-room, the dingy stairs, the gas hissing in the hall, +had been, in all conscience, depressing enough, but now this heavy, +mute, ominous woman, trailing her black robes so funereally behind her, +seemed, to his excited fancy, some implacable Frankenstein created by +his own thrice-cursed folly. +</P> + +<P> +The dinner was not a success. The food was bad, but that Robin had +expected. As he faced the depression of it, he was more than ever +determined to end it, conclusively, that evening, but Mrs. Feverel's +gloom and Dahlia's little attempts at coquettish gaiety frightened him. +The conversation, supported mainly by Dahlia, fell into terrible +lapses, and the attempts to start it again had the unhappy air of +desperate remedies doomed to failure. Dahlia's pathetic glances failed +of their intent. Robin was too deeply engaged in his own gloomy +reflections to notice them, but her eyes filled with tears, and at last +her efforts ceased and a horrible, gloomy silence fell like a choking +fog upon them. +</P> + +<P> +"Will you smoke, Robin?" she said, when at last the dessert, in the +shape of some melancholy oranges and one very attenuated banana, was on +the table. "Egyptian or Turkish—or will you have a pipe?" +</P> + +<P> +He took a cigarette clumsily from the box and his fingers trembled as +he lit first hers and then his own—he was so terribly afraid of +cutting a ridiculous figure. He sat down again and beat a tattoo on +the tablecloth. Mrs. Feverel, with some grimly muttered excuse, left +the room. She watched him a moment from the other side of the table +and then she came over to him. She bent over his chair, leaning her +hands on his shoulders. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin, what is it?" she said. "What's happened?" +</P> + +<P> +"Nothing," he said gloomily. "It's all right——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! do you suppose I haven't seen?" She bent closer to him and +pressed her cheek against his. "Robin, old boy—you're not getting +tired of me? You're tired or cross to-night—I don't know. I've been +very patient all this time—waiting for you—hoping that you would +come—longing for you—and you never came—all these many weeks. Then +I thought that, perhaps, you were too busy or were afraid of people +talking—but, at last, there was to be to-night; and I've looked +forward to it—oh! so much!—and now you're like this!" +</P> + +<P> +She was nearly crying, and there was that miserable little catch in her +voice. He did feel an awful cad—he hadn't thought that she would +really care so much as this; but still it had to be done some time, and +this seemed a very good opportunity. +</P> + +<P> +He cleared his throat, and, beating the carpet with his foot, tried to +speak with dignity as well as feeling—but he only succeeded in being +patronising. +</P> + +<P> +"You know," he said quickly, and without daring to look at her, "one's +had time to think. I don't mean that I'm sorry it's all been as it +has—we've had a ripping time—but I'm not sure—one can't be +certain—that it's best for it to go on—quite like this. You see, old +girl, it's so damned serious. Of course my people have ideas about my +marrying—of course the Trojans have always had to be careful. People +expect it of them——" +</P> + +<P> +He stopped for a moment. +</P> + +<P> +"You mean that I'm not good enough?" +</P> + +<P> +She had stepped back from his chair and was standing with her back to +the wall. He got up from his chair and turned round and faced her, +leaning with his hands on the table. But he could not face her for +long; his eyes dropped before the fury in hers. +</P> + +<P> +"No, no, Dahlia—how stupid of you!—of course it's not that. It's +really rather unkind of you to make it harder for me. It's difficult +enough to explain. You're good enough for any one, but I'm not quite +sure, dear, whether we'd be quite the people to marry! We'd be +splendid friends, of course—we'll always be that—but we're both very +young, and, after all, it's rather hard for one to know. It was +splendid at Cambridge, but I don't think we quite realised——" +</P> + +<P> +"You mean you didn't," she broke in quickly. "I know well enough. +Some one's been speaking to you, Robin." +</P> + +<P> +"No—nobody." He looked at her fiercely. She had hurt his pride. "As +if I'd be weak enough to let that make any difference. No one has said +a word—only——" +</P> + +<P> +"Only—you've been thinking that we're not quite good enough for +you—that we'd soil your Trojan carpets and chairs—that we'd stain +your Trojan relations. I—I know—I——" +</P> + +<P> +And then she broke down altogether. She was kneeling by the table with +her head in her arms, sobbing as though her heart would break. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I say, Dahlia, don't! I can't bear to see you cry—it will be all +right, old girl, to-morrow—it will really—and then you will see that +it was wiser. You will thank me for speaking about it. Of course +we'll always be good friends. I——" +</P> + +<P> +"Robin, you don't mean it. You can't!" She had risen from her knees +and now stood by him, timidly, with one hand on his arm. "You have +forgotten all those splendid times at Cambridge. Don't you remember +that evening on the Backs? Just you and I alone when there was that +man singing on the other side of the water, when you said that we would +be like that always—together. Oh, Robin dear, it can't have been all +nothing to you." +</P> + +<P> +She looked very charming with her eyes a little wet and her hair a +little dishevelled. But his resolution must not weaken—now that he +had progressed so far, he must not go back. But he put his arm round +her. +</P> + +<P> +"Really, old girl, it is better—for both of us. We can wait. Perhaps +in a few years' time it will seem different again. We can think about +it then. I don't want to seem selfish, but you must think about me a +little. You must see how hard it has been for me to say this, and that +it has only been with the greatest difficulty that I've been strong +enough. Believe me, dear, it is harder for me than it is for you—much +harder." +</P> + +<P> +He was really getting on very well. He had had no idea that he would +do it so nicely. Poor girl! it was hard luck—perhaps he had led her +to expect rather too much—those letters of his had been rather too +warm, a little indiscreet. But no doubt she would marry some excellent +man of her own class—in a few years she would look back and wonder how +she had ever had the fortune to know so intimately a man of Robin's +rank! Meanwhile, the scene had better end as soon as possible. +</P> + +<P> +She had let him keep his arm round her waist, and now she suddenly +leant back and looked up in his face. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin, darling," she whispered, "you can't mean it—not that we should +part like this. Why, think of the times that we have had—the +splendid, glorious times—and all that we're going to have. Think of +all that you've said to me, over and over again——" +</P> + +<P> +She crept closer to him. "You love me really, dear, all the same. +It's only that some one's been talking to you and telling you that it's +foolish. But that mustn't make any difference. We're strong enough to +face all the world. You know that you said you were in the summer, and +I'm sure that you are now. Wait till to-morrow, dear, and you'll see +it all differently." +</P> + +<P> +"I tell you nobody's been talking," he said, drawing his arm away. +"Besides, if they did, it wouldn't make any difference. No, Dahlia, +it's got to stop. We're too young to know, and besides, it would be +absurd anyway. I know it's bad luck on you. Perhaps I said rather too +much in the summer. But of course we'll always be good friends. I +know you'll see it as I do in a little time. We've both been +indiscreet, and it's better to draw back now than later—really it is." +</P> + +<P> +"Do you mean it, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +She stood facing him with her hands clenched; her face was white and +her eyes were blazing with fury. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, of course," he said. "I think it's time this ended——" +</P> + +<P> +"Not before I've told you what I think of you," she cried. "You're a +thief and a coward—you've stolen a girl's love and then you're afraid +to face the world—you're afraid of what people will say. If you don't +love me, you're tied to me, over and over again. You've made me +promises—you made me love you—and now when your summer amusement is +over you fling me aside—you and your fine relations! Oh! you +gentlemen! It would be a good thing for the world if we were rid of +the whole lot of you! You coward! You coward!" +</P> + +<P> +He was taken aback by her fury. +</P> + +<P> +"I say—Dahlia—" he stammered, "it's unfair——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! yes!" she broke in, "unfair, of course, to you! but nothing to +me—nothing to me that you stole my love—robbed me of it like a common +thief—pretended to love me, promised to marry me, and now—now—Oh! +unfair! yes, always for the man, never for the girl—she doesn't count! +She doesn't matter at all. Break her heart and fling it away and +nobody minds—it's as good as a play!" +</P> + +<P> +She burst into tears, and stood with her head in her hands, sobbing as +though her heart would break. It was a most distressing scene! +</P> + +<P> +"Really, really, Dahlia," said Robin, feeling extremely uncomfortable +(it was such a very good thing, he thought, that none of his friends +could see him), "it's no use your taking it like this. I had better +go—we can't do any good by talking about it now. To-morrow, when we +can look at it calmly, it will seem different." +</P> + +<P> +He moved to the door, but she made another attempt and put her hand +timidly on his arm to stop him. +</P> + +<P> +"No, no, Robin, I didn't mean what I said—not like that. I didn't +know what I was saying. Oh, I love you, dear, I love you! I can't let +you go like that. You don't know what it means to me. You are taking +everything from me—when you rob a girl of her love, of her heart, you +leave her nothing. If you go now, I don't care what happens to +me—death—or worse, That's how you make a bad woman, Robin. Taking +her love from her and then letting her go. You are taking her soul!" +</P> + +<P> +But he placed her gently aside. "Nonsense, Dahlia," he said. "You are +excited to-night. You exaggerate. You will meet a man much worthier +than myself, and then you will see that I was right." +</P> + +<P> +He opened the door and was gone. +</P> + +<P> +She sat down at the table. She heard him open and shut the hall door, +and then his steps echoed down the street, and at last there was +silence. She sat at the table with her head bent, her eyes gazing at +the oranges and the bananas. The house was perfectly silent, and her +very heart seemed to have ceased to beat. Of course she did not +realise it; it seemed to her still as though he would come back in a +moment and put his arms round her and tell her that it was all a +game—just to see if she had really cared. But the silence of the +street and the house was terrible. It choked her, and she pulled at +her frock to loosen the tightness about her throat. It was cruel of +him to have gone away like that—but of course he would come back. +Only why was that cold misery at her heart? Why did she feel as if +some one had placed a hand on her and drawn all her life away, and left +her with no emotion or feeling—only a dull, blank, despair, like a +cold fog through which no sun shone? +</P> + +<P> +For she was beginning to realise it slowly. He had gone away, after +telling her, brutally, frankly, that he was tired of her—that he had, +indeed, never really cared for her. That was it—he had never cared +for her—all those things that he had promised in the summer had been +false, words without any meaning. All that idyll had been hollow, a +sham, and she had made it the centre of her world. +</P> + +<P> +She got up from the table and swayed a little as she stood. She +pressed her hands against her forehead as though she would drive into +her brain the fact that there would be no one now—no one at all—it +was all a lie, a lie, a lie! +</P> + +<P> +The door opened softly and Mrs. Feverel stole in. "Dahlia—what has he +done?" +</P> + +<P> +She looked at her as though she could not see her. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, nothing," she said slowly. "He did nothing. Only it's all +over—there is not going to be any more." +</P> + +<P> +And then, as though the full realisation of it had only just been borne +in upon her, she sat down at the table again and burst into passionate +crying. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Feverel watched her. "I knew it was coming, my dear—weeks ago. +You know I told you, only you wouldn't listen. Lord! it was plain +enough. He'd only been playing the same game as all the rest of them." +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia dried her eyes fiercely. "I'm a fool to make so much of it," +she said. "I wasn't good enough—he said—not good enough. His people +wouldn't like it and the rest—Oh! I've been a fool, a fool!" +</P> + +<P> +Her mood changed to anger again. Even now she did not grasp it fully, +but he had insulted her. He had flung back in her face all that she +had given him. Injured pride was at work now, and for a moment she +hated him so that she could have killed him gladly had he been there. +But it was no good—she could not think about it clearly; she was +tired, terribly tired. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm tired to death, mother," she said. "I can't think to-night." +</P> + +<P> +She stumbled a little as she turned to the door. +</P> + +<P> +"At least," said Mrs. Feverel, "there are the letters." +</P> + +<P> +But Dahlia had scarcely heard. +</P> + +<P> +"The letters?" she said. +</P> + +<P> +"That he wrote in the summer. You have them safe enough?" +</P> + +<P> +But the girl did not reply. She only climbed heavily up the dark +stairs. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap04"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER IV +</H3> + +<P> +Clare Trojan was having her breakfast in her own room. It was ten +o'clock, and a glorious September morning, and the sparrows were +twittering on the terrace outside as though they considered it highly +improper for any one to have breakfast between four walls when Nature +had provided such a splendid feast on the lawn. +</P> + +<P> +Clare was reading a violent article in the <I>National Review</I> concerning +the inadequacy of our present solution of the housing problem; but it +did not interest her. +</P> + +<P> +If the world had only been one large Trojan family there would have +been no problem. The trouble was that there were Greeks. She did +dimly realise their existence, but the very thought of them terrified +her. Troy must be defended, and there were moments when Clare was +afraid that its defenders were few; but she blinded herself to the +dangers of attack. "There are no Greeks, there <I>are</I> no Greeks." +Clare stood alone on the Trojan walls and defied that world of +superstition and pagan creeds. With the armour of tradition and an +implicit belief in the watchword of all true Trojan leaders, "Qui dort +garde," she warded the sacred hearths; but there were moments when her +eyes were opened and signs were revealed to her of another +world—something in which Troy could have no place; and then she was +afraid. +</P> + +<P> +She was considering Harry, his coming, and his probable bearing on +present conditions, and she knew that once again the Trojan walls were +in danger. It seemed to her, as she sat there, cruelly unfair that the +son of the House, the man who in a little while would stand before the +world as the head of the Trojan tradition, should be the chief +instrument in the attempted destruction of the same. She had not liked +Harry in the old days. She had always, even as a girl, a very stern +idea of the dignity of the House. Harry had never fulfilled this idea, +had never even attempted to. He had been wild, careless, +undisciplined, accompanying strange uncouth persons on strange uncouth +adventures; he had been almost a byword in the place. No, she had not +liked him; she had almost hated him at one time. And then after he had +gone away she had deliberately forgotten him; she had erased his name +from the fair sheet of the Trojan record, and had hoped that the House +would never more be burdened by his undisciplined history. Then she +had heard that there was a son and heir, and her one thought had been +of capture, deliverance of the new son of the House from his father's +influence. She was not deliberately cruel in her determination; she +saw that the separation must hurt the father, but she herself was ready +to make sacrifice for the good of the House and she expected the same +self-denial in others. Harry made no difficulties. New Zealand was no +place for a lonely widower to bring up his boy, and Robin was sent +home. From that moment he was the centre of Clare's world; much +self-denial can make a woman good, only maternity can make her divine. +To bring the boy up for the House, to tutor him in all the little and +big things that a Trojan must know and do, to fit him to take his place +at the head of the family on a later day; all these things she laboured +for, day and night without ceasing, and without divided interests. She +loved the boy, too, passionately, with more than a mother's love, and +now she looked back over what had been her life-work with pride and +satisfaction. She had tried to forget Harry. She hoped, although she +never dared to face the thought in her heart, that he would die there, +away in that foreign country, without coming back to them again. Robin +was hers now; she had educated him, loved him, scolded him—he was all +hers, she would brook no division. Then, when she had heard that Harry +was to come home, it had been at first more than she could bear. She +had burst into wild incoherent protests; she had prayed that an +accident might happen to him and that he might never reach home. And +then the Trojan pride and restraint had come to her aid. She was +ashamed, bewildered, that she could have sunk to such depths; she +prepared to meet him calmly and quietly; she even hoped that, perhaps, +he might be so changed that she would welcome him. And, after all, he +would in a little time be head of the House. Robin, too, was strongly +under her influence, and it was unlikely that he would leave her for a +man whom he had never known, for whom he could not possibly care. +</P> + +<P> +It was this older claim of hers with regard to Robin that did, she +felt, so obviously strengthen her position, and now that Harry had +really returned, she thought that her fears need not trouble her much +longer—he did all the things that Robin disliked most. His +boisterousness, heartiness, and good-fellowship, dislike of everyday +conventionality, would all, she knew, count against him with Robin. +She had seen him shrink on several occasions, and each time she had +been triumphantly glad. For she was frightened, terribly frightened. +Harry was threatening to take from her the one great thing around which +her life was centred; if he robbed her of Robin he robbed her of +everything, and she must fight to keep him. That it would come to a +duel between them she had long foreseen, she had governed for so long +that she would not easily yield her place now; but she had not known +that she would feel as she did about Robin, she had not known that she +would be jealous—jealous of every look and word and motion. She had +never known what jealousy was before, but now in the silence of the +golden, sunlit room, with only the twittering of the birds on the lawn +to disturb her thoughts, she faced the facts honestly without +shrinking, and she knew that she hated her brother. Oh! why couldn't +he go back again to his sheep-shearing! Why had he come to disturb +them! It was not his environment, it was not his life at all! She +felt that they could never lead again that same quiet, ordered +existence; like a gale of wind he had burst their doors and broken +their windows, and now the house was open, desolate, to the world. +</P> + +<P> +She went up to her father's room, as was her custom every morning after +breakfast. He was lying at his open window, watching, with those +strange, restless eyes of his, the great expanse of sea and sky +stretching before him. His room was full of light and air. Its white +walls and ceiling, great bowls of some of the last of the summer's +roses, made it seem young and vigorous and alive. It was almost a +shock to see that huddled, dying old man with his bent head and +trembling hands—but his eyes were young, and his heart. +</P> + +<P> +As she looked at him, she wondered why she had never really cared for +him. At first she had been afraid; then, as she grew older and a +passionate love for and pride in the family as a conservative and +ancient institution developed in her, that fear became respect, and she +looked up to her father from a distance, admiring his reserve and pride +but never loving him; and now that respect had become pity, and above +all a great longing that he might live for many, many years, securing +the household gods from shame and tending the fire on the Trojan +hearth. For at the moment of his death would come the crisis—the +question of the new rule. At one time it had seemed certain that Robin +would be king, with herself a very vigilant queen-regent. But now that +was all changed. Harry had come home, and it was into his hands that +the power would fall. +</P> + +<P> +She had often wondered that she knew her father so little. He had +always been difficult to understand; a man of two moods strongly +opposed—strangely taciturn for days together, and then brilliantly +conversational, amusing, and a splendid companion. She had never known +which of these attitudes was the real one, and now that he was old she +had abandoned all hope of ever answering the question. His moods were +more strongly contrasted than ever. He often passed quickly from one +to the other. If she had only known which was the real one; she felt +at times that his garrulity was a blind—that he watched her almost +satirically whilst he talked. She feared his silences terribly, and +she used often to feel that a moment was approaching when he would +reveal to her definitely and finally some plot that he had during those +many watchful years been forming. She knew that he had never let her +see his heart—he had never taken her into his confidence. She had +tried to establish some more intimate relationship, but she had failed; +and now, for many years, she had left it at that. +</P> + +<P> +But she wanted to know what he thought of Harry. She had waited for a +sign, but he had given none; and although she had watched him carefully +she had discovered nothing. He had not mentioned his son—a stranger +might have thought that he had not noticed him. But Clare knew him too +well to doubt that he had come to some definite conclusion in the +matter. +</P> + +<P> +She bustled cheerfully about the room, humming a little tune and +talking to him, lightly and with no apparent purpose. He watched the +gulls fly past the open window, his eyes rested on a golden flash of +sun that struck some shining roof in the Cove, but his mind was back in +the early days when he had played his game with the best and had seen +the bright side of the world. +</P> + +<P> +"He was a rake, Jack Crayle"—he seemed scarcely conscious that Clare +was in the room—"a rake but a good heart, and an amusing fellow too. +I remember meeting old Rendle and Hawdon Sallust—Hawdon of the +eighties, you know—not the old man—he kept at home—all three of them +at White's, Rendle and Sallust and Crayle; Jack bet Rendle he wouldn't +stop the next man he met in the street and claim him as an old friend +and bring him in—and, by Jove, he took it and brought him in, +too—sort of tramp chap he was, too—dirty, untidy fellow—but Rendle +was game serious—by Gad, he was. Said he was an old friend that had +fallen on evil times—gave him a drink and won the bet—'63 that +was—the year Bailey won that polo match against old Tom Radley—all +the town was talking of it. By Gad, he could ride, Bailey could. +Why——" +</P> + +<P> +"It's time for your medicine, father," said Clare, breaking ruthlessly +in upon the reminiscences. +</P> + +<P> +"Eh, dear, yes," he said, looking at her curiously. "You're never +late, Clare, always up to time. Yes, yes, well, well; in '63 that was. +I remember it like yesterday—old Tom—particular friend he was of mine +then, although we broke afterwards—my fault too, probably, about a +horse it was. I——" +</P> + +<P> +But Clare gave him his medicine, first tying a napkin round his neck +lest she should spill the drops. He looked at her, smiling, over the +napkin. +</P> + +<P> +"You were always a girl for method," he said again; "not like Harry." +</P> + +<P> +She looked at him quickly, but could guess nothing; she was suddenly +frightened, as she so often was when he laughed like that. She always +expected that some announcement would follow. It was almost as if he +had threatened her. +</P> + +<P> +"Harry?" she said. "No. But he is very like he used to be in some +ways. It is nice to have him back again—but—well, he will find +Pendragon rather different from Auckland, I'm afraid." +</P> + +<P> +Sir Jeremy said nothing. He lay there without moving; Clare untied the +napkin, and put back the medicine, and wheeled the chair into a sunnier +part of the room and away from the window. +</P> + +<P> +"You must get on with Harry, Clare," he said suddenly, sharply. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, yes," she answered, laughing a little uneasily. "Of course we +get on. Only his way of looking at things was always a little +different—even, perhaps, a little difficult to understand"; and then, +after a little pause, "I am stupid, I know. It was always hard for me +to see like other people." +</P> + +<P> +But he was not listening to her. He was smiling at the sun, and the +birds on the lawn, and the flashing gold of the distant sand. +</P> + +<P> +"No, you never saw like Harry," he said at last. "You want to be old +to understand," and he would say no more. +</P> + +<P> +He talked to her no more that morning, and she was vaguely uneasy. +What was he thinking about Harry, and how did his opinion influence the +situation? +</P> + +<P> +She fancied that she saw signs of rebellion. For many years he had +allowed her to do what she would, and although she had sometimes +wondered whether he was quite as passive as she had fancied, she had +had no fear of any disturbance. Now there was something vaguely +menacing in his very silences. And, in some undefined way, the +pleasure that he took in the cries of birds, the plunge and chatter of +the sea as it rose and fell on the southern shore, the glint of the sun +on the gold and green distances of rock and moor was alarming. She +herself did not understand those things; indeed, she scarcely saw them, +and was inclined to despise any one who loved any unpractical beauty, +anything that was not at least traditional. And now this was a bond +between her father and Harry. They had both loved wild, uncivilised +things, and it was this very trait in their character that had made +division between them before. But now what had been in those early +years the cause of trouble was their common ground of sympathy. +</P> + +<P> +They shared some secret of which she knew nothing, and she was afraid +lest Robin should learn it too. +</P> + +<P> +She went about her housekeeping duties that morning with an uneasy +mind. The discipline below stairs was excellent because she was +feared. It was not that she was hasty-tempered or unjust; indeed the +cook, who had been there for many years, said that she had never seen +Miss Clare angry, and her justice was a thing to marvel at. She always +gave people their due, and exactly their due; she never over-praised or +blamed, and that was why people said that she was cold; it was also, +incidentally, responsible for her excellent discipline. +</P> + +<P> +She was, as Sir Jeremy had said, a woman of amazing method. But the +attitude of her actual household helped her; they were all, by +education and environment, Trojans. Whatever they had been before they +entered service at "The Flutes"—Radicals, Socialists, Dissenters, or +Tones—at the moment of passing the threshold they were transformed +into Trojans. Other things fell from them like a mantle, and in their +serious devotion to traditional Conservatism they were examples of the +true spirit of Feudalism. Beldam, the butler, had long ago graduated +as Professor in the system. Coming as page-boy in earlier years, he +had acquired the by no means easy art of Trojan diplomacy. It was now +his duty to overhaul, as it were, every servant that passed the gates; +an overhauling, moreover, done seriously and with much searching of the +heart. Were you a Trojan? That is, do you consider that you are +exceptionally fortunate in being chosen to perform menial but necessary +duties in the Trojan household? Will you spend the rest of your days, +not only in performing your duties worthily, but also in preaching to a +blind and misguided world the doctrine of Trojan perfection and +superiority? If the answer were honestly affirmative, you were +accepted; otherwise, you were expelled with a fortnight's wages and +eternal contempt. +</P> + +<P> +Even the scullerymaid was not spared, but had to pass an examination in +rites and rituals so severe that one unfortunate, Annie Grace Marks, +after Beldam had spoken to her severely for half-an-hour, burst out +with an impetuous, "Thank Gawd, she was a Marks, which was as good as +the High and Mighty any day of the week, and better, for there wasn't +no pride in the Marks and never 'ad been." +</P> + +<P> +She received her dismissal that same evening. +</P> + +<P> +But the case of Annie Marks was an isolated one. Rebellion was very +occasional, and, for the most, the servants stayed at "The +Flutes"—partly because the pay was good, and partly because the very +reiteration of Trojan supremacy gave them a feeling of elevation very +pleasant to their pride. In accordance with all true feudal law, you +lost your own sense of birth and ancestry and became in a moment a +Trojan; for Smith, Jones, and Robinson this was very comforting. +</P> + +<P> +So Clare had very little trouble, and this morning she was able to +finish her duties speedily, and devote her whole attention to the +crisis that threatened the family. +</P> + +<P> +She decided to see Garrett, and made her way to his room. He was +writing, and seemed disturbed by her entry. He had been working for +some years on a book to be entitled, "Our Aristocracy: its Threatened +Supremacy." He was still engaged on the preliminary chapter, "Some +aspects of historical aristocracy," and it had developed into a +somewhat minute account of Trojan past history. He had no expectations +of ever concluding the work, but it gave him a pleasant sense of +importance and seemed in some vague way to be of value to the Trojan +family. +</P> + +<P> +He was always happy when at work, although he effected very little; +but, after all, the great stylists always worked slowly. His style +was, it is true, somewhat commonplace; but his rather minute output +allowed him to rank, in his own estimation, with Pater and Omar +Khayyám, and disdain the voluminous facility of Thackeray and Dickens. +He was, he felt, one of the "precious" writers, and so long as no one +saw his work he was able both to comfort himself and to impress others +with the illusion. +</P> + +<P> +It was said vaguely in Pendragon that "Garrett Trojan was a clever +fellow—was writing a book—said to be brilliant, of great promise—no, +he hadn't seen it, but——" etc. +</P> + +<P> +So Garrett looked at his sister a little resentfully. +</P> + +<P> +"I hope it's important, Clare," he said, "because—well, you know, the +morning's one's time for work, and once one gets off the track it's +difficult to get back; not that I've done much, you know, only half a +page—but this kind of thing can't move quickly." +</P> + +<P> +"I'm sorry, Garrie," she answered, "but you've got to talk to me. +There are things about which I want your advice." +</P> + +<P> +She did not really want it; she had decided on her line of conduct, and +nothing that he could say would alter her decision—but it flattered +him, and she needed his help. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, of course," he said, pushing his chair back and coming to the +fire, "if it's anything I can do— What is it, Clare? Household or +something in the town?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, nothing," she laughed at him. "Don't be worried, Garrie; I know +it's horrid to disturb you, and there's really nothing—only—well, +after all, there is only us, isn't there? for acting together I +mean—and I want to know what line you're going on." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! about Harry?" He looked at her sharply for a moment. "You know +that I object to lines, Clare. They are dangerous things." He implied +that he was above them. "Of course there are times when it is +necessary to—well, to be decisive; but at present it seems to me that +we must wait for the situation to develop—it will, of course." +</P> + +<P> +"I knew that you would say that," she said impatiently. "But it won't +do; the situation <I>has</I> developed. You always preferred to look on—it +is, as you say, less dangerous; but here I must have your help. Harry +has been back a week; he is, for you and me, unchanged. The situation, +as far as we go, is the same as it was twenty years ago. He is not one +of us, he never was, and, to do him justice, never pretended to be. +We, or at any rate I, imagined that he would be different now, after +all that time. He is exactly the same." She paused. +</P> + +<P> +"Well?" he said. "All that for granted, it's true enough. What's the +trouble?" +</P> + +<P> +"Things aren't the same though, now. There is father, and Robin. +Father has taken to Harry strongly. He told me so just now. And for +Robin——" +</P> + +<P> +"Scarcely captivated," said Garrett drily. "Have you seen them +together? Hardly domestic——" +</P> + +<P> +Then he looked at her again and laughed. "And that pleases you, Clare." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course," she answered him firmly. "There is no good in hedging. +He is no brother of ours, Garrett. He is, what is more important +still, no Trojan, and after all family counts for something. We don't +like him, Garrett. Why be sentimental about it? He will follow +father—and it will be soon—<I>après, le déluge</I>. For ourselves, it +does not matter. It is hard, of course, but we have had our time, and +there are other things and places. It is about Robin. I cannot bear +to think what it would mean if he were alone here with Harry, after all +these years." +</P> + +<P> +"He would not stay." +</P> + +<P> +"You think that?" Clare said eagerly. "It is so hard to know. He is +still only a boy. Of course Harry shocks him now, shocks +everything—his sense of decency, his culture, his pride—but that will +wear off; he will get used to it—and then——" +</P> + +<P> +It had been inevitable that the discussion should come, and Garrett had +been waiting. He had no intention of going to find her, he would wait +until she came to him, but he had been anxious to know her opinion. +For himself the possibility of Harry's return had never presented +itself. After all those years he would surely remain where he was. In +yielding his son he had seemed to abandon all claim to any rights of +inheritance, and Garrett had thought of him as one comfortably dead. +He had contemplated his own ultimate succession with the pleasurable +certainty that it was absolutely the right thing. In his love for a +rather superficial tradition he was a perfect Trojan, and might be +relied on to continue existing conditions without any attempt at +radical changes. Clare, too, would be of great use. +</P> + +<P> +But in a moment what had been, in his mind, certainty was changed into +impossibility; instead of a certain successor he had become some one +whose very existence was imperilled—his existence, that is, on the +only terms that were in the least comfortable. Everything that made +life worth living was threatened. Not that his brother would turn him +out; he granted Harry the very un-Trojan virtues of generosity and +affection for humanity in general—a rather foolish, gregarious +open-handedness opposed obviously to all decent economy. But Harry +would keep him—and the very thought stirred Garrett to a degree of +anger that his sluggish nature seldom permitted him. Kept! and by +Harry! Harry the outlaw! Harry the rebel! Harry the Greek! Garrett +scarcely loved his brother when he thought of it. +</P> + +<P> +But it was necessary that some line of action should be adopted, and he +was glad that Clare had taken the first step. +</P> + +<P> +"You don't think," he said doubtfully, "that he could be induced to go +back?" +</P> + +<P> +"What!" cried Clare, "after these years and the way he has waited! +Why, remember that first evening! He will never leave this again. He +has been dreaming about it too long!" +</P> + +<P> +"I don't know," said Garrett. "He'll be at loggerheads with the town +very soon. He has been saying curious things to a good many people. +He objects to all improvement and says so. The place will soon be too +hot for him." +</P> + +<P> +But Clare shook her head. "No," she said. "He will soon find out +about things—and then, in a little, when he takes father's place, what +people think odd and unpleasant now will be original and strong. +Besides, he would never go, whatever might happen, because of Robin." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, yes, there is Robin. It will be curious to watch developments +there. Randal comes to-day, doesn't he?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, this afternoon. A most delightful boy. I'm afraid that he may +find Harry tiresome." +</P> + +<P> +"We must wait," Garrett said finally; "in a week's time we shall see +better. But, Clare, don't be rash. There is father—and, besides, it +will scarcely help Robin." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! no melodrama," she said, laughing and moving towards the door. +"Only, we understand each other, Garrie. Things won't do as they +are—or, as they promise to be." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett returned, with a sigh of relief, to his papers. +</P> + +<P> +For Harry the week had been a series of bitter disappointments. He +woke gradually from his dreams and saw that everything was changed. He +was in a new world and he was out of place. Those dreams had been +coloured, fantastically, beautifully. In the white pebbles, the golden +sand, the curling grey smoke of the Cove, he had formed pictures that +had lightened many dreary and lonely hours in Auckland. He was to come +back; away from that huge unwieldy life in which comfort had no place +and rest was impossible, back to all the old things, the wonderful +glorious things that meant home and tradition and, above all, love. He +was a sentimentalist, he knew that now. It had not been so in those +old days; the life had been too adventurous and exciting, and he had +despised the quiet comforts of a stay-at-home existence. But now he +knew its value; he would come home and take his place as head of the +family, as father, as citizen—he had learnt his lesson, and at last it +was time for the reward. +</P> + +<P> +But now that he had come home he found that the lesson was not learnt, +or, perhaps, that the learning had been wasted; he must begin all over +again. Garrett and Clare had not changed; they had made no advances +and had shown him quite plainly, in the courteous Trojan fashion, that +they considered his presence an intrusion, that they had no place in +their ranks that he could fill. He was, he saw it plainly, no more in +line with them than he had been twenty years before. Indeed, matters +were worse. There was no possibility of agreement—they were poles +apart. +</P> + +<P> +With the town, too, he was an "outsider." The men at the Club thought +him a bore—a person of strange enthusiasms and alarming heresies. By +the ladies he was considered rough: as Mrs. le Terry had put it to Miss +Ponsonby, he was a kind of too terrible bushranger without the romance! +He was gauche, he knew, and he hated the tea-parties. They talked +about things of which he knew nothing; he was too sincere to cover his +convictions with the fatuous chatter that passed, in Fallacy Street +society, for brilliant wit. That it was fatuous he was convinced, but +his conviction made matters no easier for him. +</P> + +<P> +But his attitude to the town had been, it must be confessed, from the +very first a challenge. He had expected things that were not there; he +had thought that his dreams were realities, and when he had demanded +golden colours and had been shown stuff of sombre grey, there had been +wild rebellion and impatient discontent with the world. He had thought +Pendragon amazing in its utter disregard of the things that were to him +necessities, but he had forgotten that he himself despised so +completely things that were to Pendragon essentials. He had asked for +beauty and they had given him an Esplanade; he had searched for romance +and had discovered the new hotel; he dreamed of the sand and blue water +of the Cove and had awaked to find the place despised and contemned—a +site for future boarding-houses. +</P> + +<P> +The town had thought him at first entertaining; they had made +allowances for a certain rather picturesque absurdity consequent on +backwoods and the friendship of Maories—men had laughed at the Club +and detailed Harry Trojan's latest with added circumstances and +incident, and for a while this was amusing. But his vehemence knew no +pause, and he stated his disgust at the practical spirit of the new +Pendragon with what seemed to the choice spirits at the Club +effrontery. They smiled and then they sneered, and at last they left +him alone. +</P> + +<P> +So Harry found himself, at the end of the first week after his return, +alone in Pendragon. +</P> + +<P> +He had not, perhaps, cared for their rejection. He had come, like +Gottwalt in <I>Flegejahre</I>, "loving every dog, and wishing that every dog +should love him"—but he had seen, at once, that his way must be apart +from theirs, and in that knowledge he had tried to find the comfort of +a minority certain of its own strength and disdainful of common +opinion. He had marvelled at their narrow vision and was unaware that +his own point of view was equally narrow. +</P> + +<P> +And, after all, there was Robin. Robin and he would defy Pendragon and +laugh at its stupid little theories and short-sighted plans. And then, +slowly, irresistibly, he had seen that he was alone—that Robin was on +the side of Pendragon. He refused to admit it even now, and told +himself again and again that the boy was naturally a little awkward at +first—careless perhaps—certainly constrained. But gradually a wall +had been built up between them; they were greater strangers now than +they had been on that first evening of the return. Ah! how he had +tried! He had thought that, perhaps, the boy hated sentiment and he +had held himself back, watching eagerly for any sign of affection, +ready humbly to take part in anything, to help in any difficulty, to +laugh, to sympathise, to take his place as he had been waiting to do +for so many years. +</P> + +<P> +But Robin had made no advances, showed no sign. He had almost repulsed +him—had at least been absolutely indifferent. They had had a walk +together, and Harry had tried his best—but the attempt had been +obvious, and at last there had come a terrible silence; they had walked +back through the streets of Pendragon without a word. +</P> + +<P> +Everything that Harry had said had been unfortunate. He had praised +the Cove enthusiastically, and Robin had been contemptuous. He had +never heard of Pater and had confounded Ibsen with Jerome K. Jerome. +He had praised cricket and met with no reply. Twice he had seen +Robin's mouth curl contemptuously, and it had cut him to the heart. +</P> + +<P> +Poor Harry! he was very lonely. During the last two days he had been +down in the Cove; he had found his way into the little inn and got in +touch with some of the fishermen. But they scarcely solaced his +loneliness. He had met Mary Bethel on the downs, and for a moment they +had talked. There was no stiffness there; she had looked at him simply +as a friend, with no hostility, and he had been grateful. +</P> + +<P> +At last he had begun to look forward to the coming of Robin's friend, +Randal. He was, evidently, a person to whom Robin looked up with great +admiration. Perhaps he would form in some way a link, would understand +the difficulties of both, and would help them. Harry waited, eagerly, +and formed a picture of Randal in his mind that gave him much +encouragement. +</P> + +<P> +He was in his room now; it was half-past four, and the carriage had +just passed up the drive. He looked anxiously at his ties and +hesitated between light green, brown, and black. He had learnt the +importance of these things in his son's eyes. He was going next week +to London to buy clothes; meanwhile he must not offend their sense of +decency, and he hesitated in front of his tie-box like a girl before +her first dance. The green was terribly light. It was a good tie, but +perhaps not quite the thing. Nothing seemed to go properly with his +blue suit—the brown was dull and uninteresting—it lacked character; +any one might have worn it, and he flung it back almost scornfully into +the box. The black was really best, but how dismal! He seemed to see +all his miserable loneliness and disappointment in its dark, sombre +colour. No, that would never do! He must be bright, amusing, +cheerful—anything but dull and dismal. So he put on the green again, +and went down to the drawing-room. Randal was a young man of +twenty-four—dark, tall, and slight, with a rather weary look in the +eyes, as of one who had discovered the hollow mockery of the world and +wondered at the pleasures of simple people. He was perfectly dressed, +and had arrived, after much thought and a University education, at that +excellent result when everything is right, as it were, by accident—as +though no thought had been taken at all. As soon as a man appears to +have laboured for effect, then he is badly dressed. Randal was +good-looking. He had very dark eyes and thin, rather curling lips, and +hair brushed straight back from his forehead. +</P> + +<P> +The room was in twilight. It was Clare's morning-room, chosen because +it was cosy and favoured intimacy. She was fond of Randal and liked to +mother him; she also respected his opinions. The windows looked over +the sea and the blinds were not drawn. The twilight, like a floating +veil, hovered over sea and land; the last faint colours of the sunset, +gold and rose and grey, trembled over the town. +</P> + +<P> +Harry was introduced. Randal smiled, but his hand was limp; Harry felt +a little ashamed of his own hearty grasp and wished that he had been +less effusive. Randal's suit was dark blue and he wore a black tie; +Harry became suddenly conscious of his daring green and, taking his +tea, went and sat in the window and watched the town. The first white +colours of the young moon, slipping from the rosy-grey cloud, touched +faintly the towers of the ruined church on the moor; he fancied that he +could just see the four stones shining darkly grey against the horizon, +but it was difficult to tell in that mysterious half-light. Robin was +sitting under the lamp by the door. The light caught his hair, but his +face was in shadow. Harry watched him eagerly, hungrily. Oh! how he +loved him, his son! +</P> + +<P> +Randal was discussing some people with whom he had been staying—a +little languidly and without any very active interest. "Rather a nice +girl, though," he said. "Only such a dreadful mother. Young +Page-Rellison would have had a shot, I do believe, if it hadn't been +for the mother—wore a wig and talked Cockney, and fairly grabbed the +shekels in bridge." +</P> + +<P> +"And what about the book?" Clare asked. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! going on," said Randal. "I showed Cressel a chapter the other +day—you know the New Argus man; and he was very nice about it. Of +course, some of the older men won't like it, you know. It fairly goes +for their methods, and I flatter myself hits them pretty hard once or +twice. You know, Miss Trojan, it's the young school you've got to look +to nowadays; it's no use going back to those mid-Victorians—all very +well for the schoolroom—cause and effect and all that kind of +thing—but we must look ahead—be modern and you will be progressive, +Miss Trojan." +</P> + +<P> +"That's just what I'm always saying, Mr. Randal," said Clare, smiling. +"We're fighting a regular battle over it down here, but I think we will +win the day." +</P> + +<P> +Randal turned to Harry. "And you, sir," he said, "are with us, too?" +</P> + +<P> +Harry laughed. He knew that Robin was looking at him. "I have been +away," he said, "and perhaps I have been a little surprised at the +strides that things have made. Twenty years is a long time, and I was +romantic and perhaps foolish enough to expect that Pendragon would be +very much the same when I came back. It has changed greatly, and I am +a little disappointed." +</P> + +<P> +Clare looked up. "My brother has lost touch a little, Mr. Randal," she +said, "and I don't think quite sees what is good for the place—indeed, +necessary. At any rate, he scarcely thinks with us." +</P> + +<P> +"With <I>us</I>." There was emphasis on the word. That meant Robin too. +Randal glanced at him for a moment and then he turned to Robin—father +and son! A swift drawing of contrasts, perhaps with an inevitable +conclusion in favour of his own kind. It was suddenly as though the +elder man was shut out of the conversation; they had, in a moment, +forgotten his very presence. He sat in the dusk by the window, his +head in his hands, and terrible loneliness at his heart; it hurt as he +had never known before that anything could hurt. He had never known +that he was sensitive; in Auckland it had not been so. He had never +felt things then, and had a little despised people that had minded. +But there had been ever, in the back of his mind, the thought of those +days that were coming when, with his son at his side, he could face all +things. Well, now he had his son—there, with him in the room. The +irony of it made him clench his hands, there in the dark, whilst they +talked in the lighted room behind him. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! King's is going to pot," Randal was saying. "I was down in the +Mays and they were actually running with the boats—they seemed quite +keen on going up. The decent men seem to have all gone." +</P> + +<P> +Robin was paying very little attention. He was looking worried, and +Clare watched him a little anxiously. "I hope you will be able to stay +with us some days, Mr. Randal," she said. "There are several new +people in Pendragon whom I should like you to meet." +</P> + +<P> +Randal was charmed. He would love to stop, but he must get back to +London almost immediately. He was going over to Germany next week and +there were many arrangements to be made. +</P> + +<P> +"Germany!" It was Robin who spoke, but the voice was not his usual +one. It was alive, vibrating, startling. "Germany! By Jove! +Randal—are you really going?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, of course," a little wearily; "I have been before, you know. +Rather a bore, but the Rainers—you remember them, Miss Trojan—are +going over to the Beethoven Festival at Bonn and are keen on my going +with them. I wasn't especially anxious, but one must do these things, +you know." +</P> + +<P> +"Robin was there a year ago—Germany, I mean—and loved it. Didn't +you, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +"Germany? It was Paradise, Heaven—what you will. Rügen, the Harz, +Heidelberg, Worms——" He stopped and his voice broke. "I'm a little +absurd about it still," he said, as though in apology for such +unnecessary enthusiasm. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! you're young, Robin," said Randal, laughing. "When you've seen as +much as I have you'll be blasé. Not that one ought to be, but +Germany—well, it hardly lasts, I think. Rügen—why, it rained and +there were mists round the Studenkammer, and how those people eat at +the Jagdschloss! Heidelberg! picture postcards and shocking +hotels—Oh! No, Robin, you'll see all that later. I wish you were +going instead of me, though." +</P> + +<P> +Harry had looked up at the sound of Robin's voice. It had been a new +note. There had been an eagerness, an enthusiasm, that meant life and +something genuine. +</P> + +<P> +Hope that had been slowly dying revived again. If Robin really cared +for Germany like that, then they had something in common. With that +spark a fire might be kindled. A red-gold haze as of fire burnt in the +night sky, over the town. Stars danced overhead, a little wind, +beating fitfully at the window, seemed to carry the light of the moon +in its tempestuous track, blowing it lightly in silver mists and clouds +over the moor. The Wise Men were there, strong and dark and sombre, +watching over the lighted town and listening patiently to the ripple +and murmur and life of the sea at their feet. In the little inn at the +Cove men were sitting over the roaring fire, telling tales—strange, +weird stories of a life that these others did not know. Harry had +heard them when he was a boy—those stories—and he had felt the spell +and the magic. There had been life in them and romance. +</P> + +<P> +Perhaps they were there again to-night, just as they had been twenty +years before. The stars called to him, the lighted town, the dusky, +softly breathing sea, the loneliness of the moor. He must get out and +away. He must have sympathy and warmth and friendship; he had come +back to his own people with open arms and they had no place for him. +His own son had repulsed him. But Cornwall, the country of his dreams, +the mother of his faith, the guardian of his honour, was there—the +same yesterday, to-day, and for ever. He would search for her and +would find her—even though it were on the red-brick floor of the +tavern in the Cove. +</P> + +<P> +He turned round and found that the room was empty. They had forgotten +him and left him—without a word. The light of the lamp caught the +silver of the tea-things, and flashed and sparkled like a flame. +</P> + +<P> +Harry Trojan softly opened the door, passed into the dim twilight of +the hall, picked up his hat, and stepped into the garden. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap05"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER V +</H3> + +<P> +As he felt the crunch of the gravel beneath his feet he was possessed +with the spirit of adventure. The dark house behind him had been +holding him captive. It had held him against his will, imprisoning +him, tormenting him, and the tortures that he had endured were many and +severe. He had not known that he could have felt it so much—that +absolute rejection of him by everything in which he had trusted; but he +would mind these things no longer—he would even try not to mind Robin! +That would be hard, and as he thought of it even now for a moment tears +had filled his eyes. That, however, was cowardice. He must fling away +the hopes of twenty years and start afresh, with the knowledge won of +his experience and the strength that he had snatched from his wounds. +</P> + +<P> +And after all a man was a fool to mope and whine when that wind from +the sea was beating in his ears and the sea scents of clover and +poppies and salt stinging foam were brought to his nostrils, and the +trees rustled like the beating of birds' wings in the velvety +star-lighted sky. +</P> + +<P> +A garden was wonderful at night—a place of strange silences and yet +stranger sound: trees darkly guarding mysterious paths that ran into +caverns of darkness; the scents of flowers rising from damp earth heavy +with dew; flowers that were weary with the dust and noise of the day +and slept gently, gratefully, with their heads drooping to the soil, +their petals closed by the tender hands of the spirits of the garden. +The night-sounds were strangely musical. Cries that were discordant in +the day mingled now with the running of distant water, the last notes +of some bird before it slept, the measured harmony of a far-away bell, +the gentle rustle of some arrival in the thickets; the voice that could +not be heard in the noisy chatter of the day rose softly now in a +little song of the night and the dark trees and the silver firelight of +the stars. +</P> + +<P> +And it was all very romantic, of course. Harry Trojan had flung his +cares behind him and stepped over the soft turf of the lawns, a free +adventurer. It was not really very late, and there was an hour before +dinner; but he was not sure that he minded about that—they would be +glad to dine without him. There crossed his mind the memory of a night +in New Zealand. He had been walking down to the harbour in Auckland, +and the moon had shone in the crooked water-side streets, its white, +cold light crossed with dark black shadows of roofs and gables. +Suddenly a woman's voice called for help across the silence, and he had +turned and listened. It had called again, and, thinking that he might +help some one in distress, he had burst a dark, silent door, stumbled +up crooked wooden stairs, and entered an empty room. As he passed the +door there was a sound of skirts, and a door at the other end of the +room had closed. There was no one there, only a candle guttering on +the table, the remains of a meal, a woman's hat on the back of a chair; +he had waited for some time in silence, he had called and asked if +there was any one there, he had tried the farther door and found it +shut—and so, cursing himself for a fool, he had passed down into the +street again and the episode had ended. There was really nothing in +it—nothing at all; but it was the atmosphere, the atmosphere of +romantic adventure shot suddenly across a rather drab and colourless +existence, and he had liked to dwell on the possibilities of the affair +and ask himself about it. Who was the woman, and why had she cried +out? Why was there no one in the room? And why had no one answered +him? +</P> + +<P> +He did not know and really he did not care, and, indeed, it was better +that the affair should be left in vague and incomplete outline. It was +probably commonplace enough, had one only known, and sordid too, +perhaps. But to-night was just such a night as that other. He would +go to the Cove and find his romance where he had left it twenty years +ago. It was the hour in Pendragon when shops are closing and young men +and maidens walk out. There were a great many people in the street; +girls with white, tired faces, young men with bright ties and a +self-assertive air—a type of person new to Pendragon since Harry's +day. The young man who served you respectfully, almost timidly, behind +the counter was now self-assertive, taking the middle of the street +with a flourish of his cane. Fragments of conversation came to Harry's +ears— +</P> + +<P> +"Mother being out I thought as 'ow I might venture—not but what she'd +kick up a rare old fuss——" +</P> + +<P> +"So I told 'er it weren't no business of 'ers and the sooner she caught +on to the idea the better for all parties, seein' as 'ow——" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I never did! and you told 'im that, did yer? I always said +you'd some pluck if you really wanted to——" +</P> + +<P> +A gramophone from an open window up the street shrieked the alluring +refrain of "She's a different girl again," and a man who had +established himself at the corner under the protecting glare of two +hissing gas-jets urged on the company present an immediate acceptance +of his stupendous offer. "Gold watches for 'alf a crown—positively +for one evening in order to clear—all above board. Solid gold and +cheap at a sovereign." +</P> + +<P> +The plunge into the cool depths of the winding little path that led +down to the Cove was delicious. Oh! the contrast of it! The noise and +ugly self-assertion of the town, flinging its gas-jets against the moon +and covering the roll of the sea with the shriek of the gramophone. He +crossed through the turnstile at the bend of the road and passed up the +hill that led to the Cove. At a bend the view of the sea came to him, +the white moonlight lying, a path of dancing shining silver, on the +grey sweep of the sea. A wind was blowing, turning the grey into +sudden points of white—like ghostly hands rising for a moment suddenly +from immensity and then sinking silently again, their prayers +unanswered. +</P> + +<P> +As he passed up the hill he was aware of something pattering beside +him; at first it was a little uncanny in that dim, uncertain light, and +he stopped and bent down to the road. It was a dog, a fox-terrier of a +kind, dirty, and even in that light most obviously a mongrel. But it +jumped up at him and put its paws on his knee. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, company's company," he said with a laugh. "I don't know where +you've sprung from, but we'll travel together for a bit." The dog ran +up the hill, and for a moment stood out against the moon—a shaggy, +disreputable dog with a humorous stump of a tail. He stood there with +one ear flapping back and the other cocked up—a most ridiculous figure. +</P> + +<P> +Harry laughed again and the dog barked; they walked down the hill +together. +</P> + +<P> +The Cove was dark, but from behind shuttered windows lamps twinkled +mysteriously, and the red glow from the inn flung a circle of light +down the little cobbled street. The beat of the sea came solemnly like +the tramp of invisible armies from the distance. There was no other +sound save the tremble of the wind in the trees. +</P> + +<P> +Harry pushed open the door of the inn and entered, followed by the dog. +The place was the same; nothing had been changed. There was the old +wooden gallery where the fiddle had played such merry tunes. The rough +uneven floor had the same holes, the same hills and dales. The great +settle by the fire was marked, as in former years, with mysterious +crosses and initials cut by jack-knives in olden days. The two lamps +shone in their accustomed places—one over the fire, another by the +window. The door leading to the bar was half open, and in the distance +voices could be heard, but the room itself seemed to be empty. +</P> + +<P> +A great fire leapt in the fireplace and the gold light of it danced on +the red-brick floor. The peculiar scent as of tobacco and ale and the +salt of the sea, and, faintly, the breath of mignonette and geraniums, +struck out the long intervals since Harry had been there before. +Twenty years ago he had breathed the same air; and now he was back +there again and nothing was changed. The dog had run to the fire and +sat in front of it now, wagging his stump of a tail, his ear cocked. +Harry laughed and sat down in the settle; the burden of the last week +was flung off and he was a free man. +</P> + +<P> +A long, lean man with a straggling beard stood in the doorway and +watched him; then he came forward. "Mr. Harry," he said, and held out +his hand. +</P> + +<P> +Harry started up. "I'm sorry," he said, stammering, "I don't remember." +</P> + +<P> +"We were wonderin'," said the long, thin man slowly, "when you was +comin' down. Not that you'd remember faces—that's not to be +expected—especially in foreign parts which is confusing and difficult +for a man—but I'm Bill Tregarvis what have had you out fishin' many's +the time—not that you'd remember faces," he said again, looking a +little timidly at him. +</P> + +<P> +But he did! Harry remembered him perfectly! Bill Tregarvis! Why, of +course—many was the time they had seen life together—he had had a +wife and two boys. +</P> + +<P> +Harry wrung his hand and laughed. +</P> + +<P> +"Remember, Bill! Why, of course! It was only for a moment. I had got +the face all right but not the name. Yes, I have, as a matter of fact, +come before, but there were things that have made it difficult at +first, and of course there was a lot to do up there. But it's good to +be down here! The other place is changed; I had been a bit +disappointed, but here it is just the same—the same old lights and +smells and sea, and the same old friends——" +</P> + +<P> +"Yer think that?" Tregarvis looked at him. "Because we'd been fearing +that all your travelling and sight-seeing might have harmed you—that +you'd be thinking a bit like the folk up-along with their cars and gas +and filth. Aye, it's a changed world up there, Mr. Harry; but +down-along there's no difference. It's the sea keeps us steady." +</P> + +<P> +And then they talked about the old adventurous days when Harry had been +eighteen and the world had been a very wonderful place: the herring +fishing, the bathing, the adventures on the moor, the tales at night by +candlelight, the fun of it all. The room began to fill, and one after +another men came forward and claimed friendship on the score of old +days and perils shared. They received him quite simply—he was "Mr. +Harry," but still one of themselves, taking his place with them, +telling tales and hearing them in return. +</P> + +<P> +There were nine or ten of them, and a wild company they made, crowding +round the fire, with the flames leaping and flinging gigantic shadows +on the walls. The landlord, a short, ruddy-faced man with white hair +and a merry twinkle of the eye, was one of the best men that Harry had +ever known. +</P> + +<P> +He was a man whose modesty was only equalled by his charity; a man of +great humour, wide knowledge of the most varied subjects, and above all +a passionate faith in the country of his birth, Cornwall. He was, like +most Cornishmen, superstitious, but his belief in Nature as a wise and +beneficent mother, stern but never unjust, controlled his will and +justified his actions. In those early days Harry had worshipped him +with that whole-hearted adoration bestowed at times by young +hero-worshippers on those that have travelled a little way along the +path and have learnt their lesson wisely. Tony Newsome's influence had +done more for Harry in those early years than he had realised, but he +knew now what he owed to him as he sat by his side and recalled those +other days. They had written once or twice, but Tony was no +correspondent and hated to have a pen between his fingers. +</P> + +<P> +"Drive a horse, pull a boat, shoot a gun, mind a net—but God help me +if I write," he had said. Not that he objected to books; he had read a +good deal and cared for it—but "God's air in the day and a merry fire +at night leaves little room for pen and ink" was his justification. +</P> + +<P> +He treated Harry now as his boy of twenty years ago, and laughed at him +and scolded him as of old. He did not question him very closely on the +incidents of those twenty years, and indeed, with them all, Harry +noticed that there was very little curiosity as to those other +countries. They welcomed him quietly, simply. They were glad that he +was there again, sitting with them, taking his place naturally and +easily—and again the twenty years seemed as nothing. +</P> + +<P> +He sat with the dog at his feet. Newsome's hand was on his knee, and +every once and again he gave a smothered chuckle. "I knew you'd come +back, Mr. Harry," he said. "I just waited. Once the sea has got hold +of you it doesn't loosen its grip so quick. I knew you'd come back." +</P> + +<P> +They told wild stories as they had been telling them for many years at +the same hour in the same place—strange things seen at sea, the lights +and mists of the moor, survivals of smuggling days and fights on the +beach under the moon; and it always was the sea. They might leave it +for a moment perhaps, but they came back to it—the terror of it, the +joy of it, the cruelty of it; the mistress that held them chained, that +called their children and would not be denied, the god that they served. +</P> + +<P> +They spoke of her softly with lowered voices and a strange reverence. +They had learnt her moods and her dangers; they knew that she could +caress them, and then, of a sudden, strike them down—but they loved +her. +</P> + +<P> +And she had claimed Harry again. Everything for which he had been +longing during that past week had come to him at last; their +friendship, their faith in an old god, and above all that sense of a +great adventure, for the spirit of which he had so diligently been +searching. "Up-along" life was an affair of measured rules and things +foreseen. "Down-along" it was a game of unending surprises and a +gossamer web shot with the golden light of romance. High-falutin +perhaps, but to Harry, as he sat before the fire with the strange dog +and those ten wild men, words and pictures came too speedily to admit +of a sense of the absurd. +</P> + +<P> +An old man, with a long white beard and a shaking hand, knew strange +tales of the moor. When the mists creep up and blot out the land, then +the four grey stones take life and are the giants of old, and strange +sacrifices are grimly performed. Talse Carlyon had seen things late on +a moonlit night with the mists swimming white and silvery-grey over the +moor. He had lost his way and had met a man of mighty size who had led +him by the hand. There had been spirits about, and at the foot of the +grey stone a pool of blood—he had never been the same man since. +</P> + +<P> +"There are spirits and spirits," said the old man solemnly, "and there +'m some good and some bad, for the proper edification of us mortals, +and, for my part, it's not for the like of us to meddle." +</P> + +<P> +He stroked his beard—a very gloomy old man with a blind eye. Harry +remembered that he had had a wife twenty years before, so he inquired +about her. +</P> + +<P> +"Dead," said the old man fiercely, "dead—and, thank God, she went out +like a candle." +</P> + +<P> +He muttered this so fiercely that Harry said no more, and the white +beard shone in the light of the fire, and his blind eye opened and shut +like a box, and his wrinkled hand shook on his knee. The fishing had +been bad of late, and here again they spoke as if some personal power +had been at work. There were few there who had not lost some one +during the years that they had served her, and the memory of what this +had been and the foreshadowing of the dangerous future hung over them +in the room. Songs were sung, jokes were made, but they were the songs +and laughter of men on guard, with the enemy to be encountered, +perhaps, in the morning. +</P> + +<P> +Harry sat in his corner of the great seat, watching the leaping of the +flames, his hand on Newsome's shoulder, listening to the murmuring +voices at his side. He scarcely knew whether he were awake or +sleeping; their laughter came to him dimly, and it seemed that he was +alone there with only Newsome by his side and the dog sleeping at his +feet. The tobacco smoke hung in grey-blue wreaths above his head and +the gold light of the two lamps shone mistily, without shape or form. +Perhaps it was really a dream. The old man with the white beard and +the blind eye was sleeping, his head on his breast. A man with a +vacant expression was telling a tale, heavily, slowly, gazing at the +fire. The others were not listening—or at any rate not obviously so. +They, too, gazed at the fire—it had, as it were, become personal and +mesmerised the room. Perhaps it was a dream. He would wake and find +himself at "The Flutes." There would be Clare and Garrett and—Robin! +He would put all that away now; he would forget it for a moment, at +least. He had failed them; they had not wanted him and had told him +so,—but here they had known him and loved him; they had welcomed him +back as though there had been no intervening space of years. They at +least had known what life was. They had not played with it, like those +others. They had not surrounded themselves with barricades of +artificiality, and glanced through distorting mirrors at their own +exaggerated reflection; they had seen life simply, fearlessly, +accepting their peril like men and enjoying their fate with the +greatness of soul that simplicity had given them. They were not like +those others; those on the hill had invaded the sea with noisy clamour, +had greeted her familiarly and offered her bathing-machines and +boarding-houses; these others had reverenced her and learnt to know +her, alone on the downs in the first grey of the dawn, or secretly, +when the breakers had rolled in over the sand, carrying with them the +red and gold of some gorgeous sunset. +</P> + +<P> +He contrasted them in his mind—the Trojans and the Greeks. He turned +round a little in his seat and listened to the story: "It were a man—a +strange man with horns and hoofs, so he said—and a merry, deceiving +eye; but he couldn't see him clear because of the mist that hung there, +with the moon pushing through like a candle, he said. The man was +laughing to himself and playing with leaves that danced at his feet +under the wind. It can't have been far from the town, because Joe +heard St. Elmo's bell ringin' and he could hear the sea quite plain. +He ..." +</P> + +<P> +The voice seemed to trail off again into the distance; Harry's thoughts +were with his future. What was he to do? It seemed to him that his +crisis had come and was now facing him. Should he stay or should he +flee? Why should he not escape—away into the country, where he could +live his life without fear, where there would be no contempt, no +hampering family traditions? Should he stay and wait while Robin +learnt to hate him? At the thought his face grew white and he clenched +his hands. Robin ... Robin ... Robin ... it always came back to +that—and there seemed no answer. That dream of love between father +and son, the dream that he had cherished for twenty years, was +shattered, and the bubble had burst.... +</P> + +<P> +"So Joe said he didn't know but he thought it was to the left and down +through the Cove—to the old church he meant; and the man laughed and +danced with the leaves through the mist; and once Joe thought he was +gone, and there he was back again, laughin'." +</P> + +<P> +No, he would face it. He would take his place as he had intended—he +would show them of what stuff he was made—and Robin would see, at +last. The boy was young, it would of course take time—— +</P> + +<P> +The door of the inn opened and some one came in. The lamps flared in +the wind, and there was a cry from the fireplace. "Mr. Bethel! Well, +I'm right glad!" +</P> + +<P> +Harry started. Bethel—that had been the name of his friend—the girl +who had come to tea. The new-comer was a large man, over six feet in +height, and correspondingly broad. His head was bare, and his hair was +a little long and curly. His eyes were blue and twinkled, and his face +was pleasantly humorous and, in the mouth and chin, strong and +determined. He wore a grey flannel suit with a flannel collar, and he +was smoking a pipe of great size. Newsome, starting to his feet, went +forward to meet him. Bethel came to the fire and talked to them all; +there was obviously a free companionship between them that told of long +acquaintance. He was introduced to Harry. +</P> + +<P> +"I've heard of you, Mr. Trojan," he said, "and have been expecting to +meet you. I think that we have interests in common—at least an +affection for Cornwall." +</P> + +<P> +Harry liked him. He looked at him frankly between the eyes—there was +no hesitation or disguise; there had been no barrier or division; and +Harry was grateful. +</P> + +<P> +Bethel sat down by the fire, and a discussion followed about matters of +which Harry knew nothing. There was talk of the fishing prospects, +which were bad; a gloom fell upon them all, and they cursed the new +Pendragon—the race had grown too fast for them and competition was too +keen. But Harry noticed that they did not yet seem to have heard of +the proposed destruction of the Cove. Then he got up to go. They +asked him to come again, and he promised that he would. Bethel rose +too. +</P> + +<P> +"If you don't object, Mr. Trojan," he said, "I'll make one with you. I +had only looked in for a moment and had never intended to stay. I was +on my way back to the town." +</P> + +<P> +They went out into the street together, and Harry shivered for a moment +as the wind from the sea met them. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, that's good," Bethel said; "your fires are well enough, but that +wind is worth a bag of gold." +</P> + +<P> +They walked for a little in silence, and then Harry said: "Those are a +fine lot of men. They know what life really is." +</P> + +<P> +Bethel laughed. "I know what you feel about them. You are glad that +there's no change. Twenty years has made little difference there. It +is twenty years, isn't it?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," said Harry. "One thinks that it is nothing until one comes +back, and then one thinks that it's more than it really is." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, you're disappointed," Bethel said. "I know. Pendragon has +become popular, and to your mind that has destroyed its beauty—or, at +any rate, some of it." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I hate it," Harry said fiercely, "all this noise and show. Why +couldn't they have left Pendragon alone? I don't hate it for big +places that are, as it were, in the line of march. I suppose that they +must move with the day. That is inevitable. But Pendragon! Why—when +I was a boy, it was simply a little town by the sea. No one thought +about it or worried about it: it was a place wonderfully quiet and +simple. It was too quiet for me then; I should worship it now. But I +have come back and it has no room for me." +</P> + +<P> +"I haven't known it as long as you," Bethel answered, "but I confess +that the very charm of it lies in its contrast. It is invasion, if you +like, but for that very reason exciting—two forces at work and a +battle in progress." +</P> + +<P> +"With no doubt as to the ultimate victory," said Harry gloomily. "Yes, +I see what you mean by the contrast. But I cannot stand there and see +them dispassionately—you see I am bound up with so much of it. Those +men to-night were my friends when I was a boy. Newsome is the best man +that I have ever known, and there is the place; I love every stone of +it, and they would pull it down." +</P> + +<P> +They had left the Cove and were pressing up a steep path to the moor. +The moon was struggling through a bank of clouds; the wind was +whistling over their heads. +</P> + +<P> +Bethel suddenly stopped and turned towards Harry. "Mr. Trojan," he +said, "I'm going to be impulsive and perhaps imprudent. There's +nothing an Englishman fears so much as impulse, and he is terribly +ashamed of imprudence. But, after all, there is no time to waste, and +if you think me impertinent you have only to say so, and the matter +ends." +</P> + +<P> +Harry laughed. "I am delighted," he began, but the other stopped him. +</P> + +<P> +"No, wait a moment. You don't know. I'm afraid you'll think that I'm +absurd—most people will tell you that I am worse. I want you to try +to be a friend of mine, at any rate to give me a chance. I scarcely +know you—you don't know me at all—but; one goes on first impressions, +and I believe that you would understand a little better than most of +these people here—for one thing you have gone farther and seen +more——" +</P> + +<P> +There was a little pause. Harry was surprised. Here was what he had +been wanting—friendship; a week ago he would have seized it with both +hands; now he was a little distrustful; a week ago it would have been +natural, delightful; now it was unusual, even a little absurd. +</P> + +<P> +"I should be very glad," he said gravely. "I—scarcely——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh," Bethel broke in, "we shall come together naturally—there's no +fear of that. I could see at once that you know the mysteries of this +place just as I do. Those others here are blind. I've been waiting +for some one who would understand. But I don't want you to listen to +those other people about me; they will tell you a good deal—and most +of it's true. I don't blame 'em, but I'm curiously anxious for you not +to think with them. It's ridiculous, I know, when I had never seen you +before. If you only knew how long I'd been waiting—to talk to some +one—about—all this." +</P> + +<P> +He waved his hand and they stopped. They were standing on the moor. +Above their head mighty grey clouds were driving like fleets before the +wind, and the moon, a cold, lifeless thing, a moon of chiselled marble, +appeared, and then, as though frightened at the wild flight of the +clouds, vanished. The sea, pearl grey, lay like mist on the horizon, +and its voice was gentle and tired, as though it were slowly dying into +sleep. They were near the Four Stones—gaunt, grey, and old. The dog +had followed Harry from the inn and now ran, a white shadow, in front +of him. +</P> + +<P> +"Let me tell you," Bethel said, "about myself. You know I was born in +London—the son of a doctor with a very considerable practice. I +received an excellent education, Rugby and Cambridge, and was trained +for the law. I was, I believe, a rather ordinary person with a rather +more than ordinary power of concentration, and I got on. I built up a +business and was extremely and very conventionally happy. I married +and we had a little girl. And then, one summer, we came down to +Cornwall for our holiday. It was St. Ives. I remember that first +morning as though it were yesterday. It was grey with the sea flinging +great breakers. There was a smell of clover and cornflowers in the +air, and great sheets of flaming poppies in the cornfields. But there +was more than that. It was Cornwall, something magical, and that +strange sense of old history and customs that you get nowhere else in +quite the same way. Ah! but why analyse it?—you know as well as I do +what I mean. A new man was born in me that day. I had been sociable +and fond of little quite ordinary pleasures that came my way, now I +wanted to be alone. Their conversation worried me; it seemed to be +pointless and concerned with things that did not matter at all. I had +done things like other men—now it was all to no purpose. I used to +lie for hours on the cliffs watching the sea. I was often out all day, +and I met all sorts of people, tramps, wasters, vagabonds, and they +seemed the only people worth talking to. I met some strange fellows +but excellent company—and they knew, all of them, the things that I +knew; they had been out all night and seen the moon and the stars +change and the first light of the dawn, and the little breeze that +comes in those early hours from the sea, bringing the winds of other +countries with it. And they were merry, they had a philosophy—they +knew Cornwall and believed in her. +</P> + +<P> +"Well—the holiday came to an end, and I had to go back! London. My +God! After that I struggled—I went to my work every day with the +sound of that sea in my ears and the vision of those moors always there +with me. And the freedom! If you have tasted that once, if you have +ever got really close so that you can hear strange voices and see +beauties of which you had never dreamt, well, you will never get back +to your old routine again. I don't care how strong you are—you can't +do it, man. Once she's got hold of you, nothing counts. That was +eighteen years ago. I kept my work for a year, but it was killing me. +I got ill—I nearly died; once I ran away at night and tried to get to +the sea. But I came back—there were my wife and girl. We had a +little money, and I gave it all up and we came to live down here. I +have done nothing since; rather shameful, isn't it, for a strong man? +They have thought that here; they think that I am a waster—by their +lights I am. But the things I have learnt! I didn't know what living +was until I came here! I knew nothing, I did nothing, I was a dead +man. What do I care for their thoughts of me! They are in the dark!" +</P> + +<P> +He had spoken eagerly, almost breathlessly. He was defending his +position, and Harry knew that he had been waiting for years to say +these things to some one of his own kind who would understand. And he +understood only too well! Had he not himself that very evening been +tempted to escape, to flee his duty? He had resisted, but the +temptation had been very strong—that very voice of Cornwall of which +Bethel had spoken—and if it were to return he did not know what answer +he might give. But he was not thinking of Bethel; his thoughts were +with the wife and daughter. That poor pathetic little woman—and the +girl—— +</P> + +<P> +"And your wife and daughter?" he said. "What of them?" +</P> + +<P> +"They are happy," Bethel said eagerly. "They are indeed. I don't see +them very often, but they have their own interests—and friends. My +wife and I never had very much in common—Ah! you're going to scold," +he said, laughing, "and say just what all these other horrid people +say. But I know. I grant it you all. I'm a waster—through and +through; it's damnably selfish—worst of all, in this energetic and +pushing age, it's idle. Oh! I know and I'm sorry—but, do you know, +I'm not ashamed. I can't see it seriously. I wouldn't harm a fly. +Why can't they let me alone? At least I am happy." +</P> + +<P> +They had reached the outskirts of the town by this time and Bethel +stopped before a little dark house with red shutters and a tiny strip +of garden. +</P> + +<P> +"Here we are!" said he. "This is my place. Come in and smoke! It +must be past your dinner hour up at 'The Flutes.' Come and have +something with me." +</P> + +<P> +Harry laughed. "They have already ceased wondering at my erratic +habits," he said. "New Zealand is a bad place for method." +</P> + +<P> +He followed Bethel in. It was a tiny hall, and on entering he stumbled +over an umbrella-stand that lounged forward in a rickety position. +Bethel apologised. "We're in a bit of a mess," he said. "In fact, to +tell the truth, we always are!" He hung his coat in the hall and led +the way into the dining-room. Mrs. Bethel and her daughter came +forward. The little woman was amazing in a dress of bright red silk +and an absurd little yellow lace cap. Only half the table was laid; +for the rest a shabby green cloth, spotted with ink, formed a +background for an incoherent litter of papers and needlework. The +walls were lined with books and there were some piled on the floor. +</P> + +<P> +A cold shoulder of mutton, baked potatoes in their skins, a melancholy +glass dish containing celery, and a salad bowl startlingly empty, lay +waiting on the table. +</P> + +<P> +"Anne," said Bethel, "I've brought a guest—up with the family port and +let's be festive." +</P> + +<P> +His great body seemed to fill the room, and he brought with him the +breath of the sea and the wind. He began to carve the mutton like +Siegfried making battle with Fafner, and indeed again and again during +the evening he reminded Harry of Siegfried's impetuous humour and +rejoicing animal spirits. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Bethel was delighted. Her little eyes twinkled with excitement, +her yellow cap was pushed awry, and her hands trembled with pleasure. +It was obvious that a visitor was an unusual event. Miss Bethel had +said very little, but she had given Harry that same smile that he had +seen before. She busied herself now with the salad, and he watched her +white fingers shine under the lamplight and the white curve of her neck +as she bent over the bowl. She was dressed in some dark stuff—quite +simple and unassuming, but he thought that he had never seen anything +so beautiful. +</P> + +<P> +He said very little, but he was quietly happy. Bethel did not talk +very much; he was eating furiously—not greedily, but with great +pleasure and satisfaction. Mrs. Bethel talked continuously. Her eyes +shone and her cap bobbed on her head like a live thing. +</P> + +<P> +"I said, Mr. Trojan, after our meeting the other day, that you would be +a friend. I said so to Mary coming back. I felt sure that first day. +It is so nice to have some one new in Pendragon—one gets used, you +know, to the same faces and tired of them. In my old home, Penlicott +in Surrey, near Marlwood Beeches—you change at Grayling Junction—or +you used to; I think you go straight through now. But <I>there</I> you know +we knew everybody. You really couldn't help it. There was really only +the Vicar and the Doctor, and he was so old. Of course there were the +Draytons; you must have heard of Mr. Herbert Drayton—he paints +things—I forget quite what, but I know he's good. They all lived +there—such a lot of them and most peculiar in their habits; but one +gets used to anything. They all lived together for some time, about +fifteen there were. Mother and I dined there once or twice, and they +had the funniest dining-room with pictures of Job all round the room +that were most queer and rather disagreeable; and they all liked +different things to drink, so they each had a bottle—of +something—separately. It looked quite funny to see the fifteen +bottles, and then 'Job' on the wall, you know." +</P> + +<P> +But he really hadn't paid very much attention to her. He had been +thinking and wondering. How was it that a man like Bethel had married +such a wife? He supposed that things had been different twenty years +ago, with them as with him. It was strange to think of the difference +that twenty years could make. She had been, perhaps, a little pretty, +dainty thing then—the style of girl that a strong man like Bethel +would fall in love with. Then he thought of Miss Bethel—what was her +life with a mother like that and a father who never thought about her +at all? She must, he thought, be lonely. He almost hoped that she +was. It gave them kinship, because he was lonely too. The +conversation was not very animated; Mrs. Bethel was suddenly +silent—she seemed to have collapsed with the effort, and sat huddled +up in her chair, with her hands in her lap. +</P> + +<P> +He realised that he had said nothing to Miss Bethel, and he turned to +her. "You know London?" he said. He wondered whether she longed for +it sometimes—its excitement and life. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh yes," she said quickly; "we were there, you know, a long while ago, +and I've been up once or twice since. But it makes one feel so +dreadfully small, as if one simply didn't count, and no woman likes +that." +</P> + +<P> +"Pendragon makes one feel smaller," Harry said. "When one is of no +account even in a small place, then one is small indeed." +</P> + +<P> +He had not intended to speak bitterly, but she had caught the sound of +it in his voice and she was suddenly sorry for him. She had been a +little afraid of him before—even on that terrible afternoon at "The +Flutes"; but now she saw that he was disappointed—he had expected +something and it had failed him. +</P> + +<P> +She said nothing then, and the meal came to an end. Bethel dragged +Harry into his study to see the books. There was the same untidiness +here. The table was littered with papers and pens, tobacco jars, +numerous pipes, some photographs. From the floor to the ceiling were +books—rows on rows—flung apparently into the shelves with no order or +method. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm no good as far as books go," said Harry, laughing. "There never +was such a heathen. There have always been other things to do, and I +must confess it is a mystery to me how men get time to read at all. If +I do get time I'm generally done up, and a novel's the only thing I'm +fit for." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, then, you don't know the book craze," Bethel Said. "It's worse +than drink. I've seen it absolutely ruin a man. You can't stop—if +you see a book you must get it, whether you really want it or no. You +go on buying and buying and buying. You get far more than you can ever +read. But you're a miser and you hate even lending them. You sit in +your room and count the covers, and you're no fit company for man or +beast." +</P> + +<P> +Harry looked at him—"You've known it?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh yes! I've known it. I'm a bit better now—I'm out such a lot. +But even now there's a great deal here that I've never read, and I add +to it continually. The worst of it is," he said, laughing, "that we +can't afford it. It's very hard on Mary and the wife, but I'm a rotten +loafer, and that's the end of it." +</P> + +<P> +He said it so gaily and with so little sense of responsibility that you +couldn't possibly think that it weighed on him. But he looked such a +boy, standing there with his hands in his pockets and that +half-penitent, half-humorous look in his eyes, that you couldn't be +angry. Harry laughed. +</P> + +<P> +"Upon my word, you're amazing!" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! you'll get sick of me. It's all so selfish and slack, I know. +But I struggled once—I'm in the grip now." He talked about Borrow and +displayed a little grey-bound "Walden" with pride. He spoke of Richard +Jefferies with an intimate affection as though he had known the man. +</P> + +<P> +He gave Harry some of his enthusiasm, and he lent him "Lavengro." He +described it and Harry compared mentally Isobel Berners with Mary +Bethel. +</P> + +<P> +Then they went up to the little drawing-room—an ugly room, but +redeemed by a great window overlooking the sea, and a large photograph +of Mary on the mantelpiece. Under the light of the lamp the silver +frame glittered and sparkled. +</P> + +<P> +He sat by the window and talked to her, and again he had that same +curious sense of having known her before: he spoke of it. +</P> + +<P> +"I expect it's in another existence then," she said; "as I've never +been into New Zealand and you've never been out of it—at least, since +I've been born. But, of course, I've talked about you to Robin. We +speculated, you know. We hadn't any photographs much to help us, and +it was quite a good game." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! Robin!" +</P> + +<P> +"I want to speak to you about him," she said, turning round to him. +"You won't think me interfering, will you? but I've meant to speak ever +since the other day. I was afraid that, perhaps—don't think it +dreadfully rude of me—you hadn't quite understood Robin. He's at a +difficult age, you know, and there are a lot of things about him that +are quite absurd. And I have been afraid that you might take those +absurdities for the real things and fancy that that was all that was +there. Cambridge—and other things—have made him think that a certain +sort of attitude is essential if you're to get on. I don't think he +even sincerely believes in it. But they have taught him that he must, +at least, seem to believe. The other things are there all right, but +he hides them—he is almost ashamed of any one suspecting their +existence." +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you!" Harry said quietly. "It is very kind of you and I'm +deeply grateful. It's quite true that Robin and I haven't seemed to +hit it off properly. I expect that it is my fault. I have tried to +see his point of view and have the same interests, but every effort +that I've made has seemed to make things worse. He distrusts me, I +think, and—well—of course, that hurts. All the things in which I had +hoped we would share have no interest for him." +</P> + +<P> +"Don't you think, perhaps," she said, "that you've been a little too +anxious—perhaps, a little too affectionate? I am speaking like this +because I care for Robin so much. We have been such good friends for +years now, and I think he has let me see a side of him that he has +hidden from most people. He is curiously sensitive, and really, I +think, very shy; and most of all, he has a perfect horror of being +absurd. That is what I meant about your being affectionate. He would +think, perhaps, that the rest were laughing at him. It's as if you +were dragging something that was very sacred and precious out into the +light before all those others. Boys are like that; they are terrified +lest any one should know what good there is in them—it isn't quite +good form." +</P> + +<P> +They were silent for some time. Harry was throwing her words like a +searchlight on the events of the past week, and they revealed much that +had been very dark and confused. But he was thinking of her. Their +acquaintance seemed to have grown into intimacy already. +</P> + +<P> +"I can't thank you enough," he said again. +</P> + +<P> +"It is so nice of you," she said laughing, "not to have thought it +presumptuous of me. But Robin is a very good friend of mine. Of +course you will find out what a sterling fellow he is—under all that +superficiality. He is one of my best friends here!" +</P> + +<P> +He got up to go. As he held out his hand, he said: "I will tell you +frankly, Miss Bethel, that Pendragon hasn't received me with open arms. +I don't know why it should—and twenty years in New Zealand knocks the +polish off. But it has been delightful this evening—more than you +know." +</P> + +<P> +"It has been nice for us too," Mary answered. "I don't know that +Pendragon is exactly thronging our door night and day—and a new friend +is worth having. You see I've claimed you as a friend because you +listened so patiently to my sermon—that's a sure test." +</P> + +<P> +She had spoken lightly but he had felt the bitterness in her voice. +Life was hard for her too, then? He knew that he was glad. +</P> + +<P> +"I shall come back," he said. +</P> + +<P> +"Please," she answered. +</P> + +<P> +He said good-bye to Mrs. Bethel and she pressed his hand very warmly. +"You are very kind to take pity on us," she said, ogling him under the +gas in the hall; "I hope you will come often." +</P> + +<P> +Bethel said very little. He walked with him to the gate and laughed. +"We're absurd, aren't we, Trojan?" he said. "But don't neglect us +altogether. Even absurdity is refreshing sometimes." +</P> + +<P> +But Harry went up the hill with a happier heart than he had had since +he entered Pendragon. +</P> + +<P> +That promise of adventure had been fulfilled. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap06"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VI +</H3> + +<P> +Randal was only at "The Flutes" two days, but he effected a good deal +in that time. He did nothing very active—called on Mrs. le Terry and +rode over the Downs once with Robin—but he managed to leave a flock of +very active impressions behind him. That, as he knew well, was his +strong point. He could not be with you a day without vaguely, almost +indistinctly, but nevertheless quite certainly, influencing your +opinions. He never said anything very definite, and, on looking back, +you could never assert that he had positively taken any one point of +view; but he had left, as it were, atmosphere—an assurance that this +was the really right thing to do, this the proper attitude for correct +breeding to adopt. It was always, with him, a case of correct +breeding, and that was why the Trojans liked him so very much. +"Randal," as Clare said, "knew so precisely who were sheep and who were +goats, and he showed you the difference so clearly." +</P> + +<P> +Whenever he came to stay some former acquaintances were dropped as +being, perhaps, not quite the right people. He never said that any one +was not the right person, that would be bad breeding, but you realised, +of your own accord, that they were not quite right. That was why the +impression was so strong—it seemed to come from yourself; your eyes +were suddenly opened and you wondered that you hadn't seen it before. +</P> + +<P> +He said very little of Trojan people this time; the main result of his +visit was its effect on Harry's position. +</P> + +<P> +Had you been a stranger you would have noticed nothing; the motto of +the gentleman of good breeding is, "The end and aim of all true +opinions is the concealing of them from the wrong person." +</P> + +<P> +Randal was exceedingly polite to Harry, so polite that Robin and Clare +knew immediately that he disapproved, but Harry was pleased. Randal +spoke warmly to Robin. "You are lucky to have such a father, Bob; it's +what we all want, you and I especially, a little fresh air let into our +Cambridge dust and confusion; it's most refreshing to find some one who +cares nothing about all those things that have seemed to us, quite +erroneously probably, so valuable. You should copy him, Robin." +</P> + +<P> +But Robin made no reply. He understood perfectly. There had been some +qualities in his father that he had, deep down in his nature, admired. +He had seemed to be without doubt a man on whom one could rely in a +tight corner, and in spite of himself he had liked his father's +frankness. It was unusual. There was always another meaning in +everything that Robin's friends said, but there was never any doubt +about Harry. He missed the fine shades, of course, and was lamentably +lacking in discrimination, but you did know where you were. Robin had, +almost reluctantly, admired this before the coming of Randal. But now +there could be no question. When Randal was there you had displayed +before you the complete art of successful allusion. Nothing was ever +directly stated, but everything was hinted, and you were compelled to +believe that this really was the perfection of good breeding. Robin +admired Randal exceedingly. He took his dicta very seriously and +accepted his criticism. The judgment of his father completed the +impression that he had begun to receive. He was impossible. Randal +was going by the 10.45, and he would walk to the station. +</P> + +<P> +"A whiff of fresh air, Robin, is absolutely essential. You must walk +down with me. I hate to go, Miss Trojan." +</P> + +<P> +"Very soon to return, I hope, Mr. Randal," answered Clare. She liked +him, and thought him an excellent influence for Robin. +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you—it's very kind—but one's busy, you know. It's been hard +enough to snatch these few days. Besides, Robin isn't alone in the +same way now. He has his father." +</P> + +<P> +Clare made no reply, but her silence was eloquent. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm sorry for him, Miss Trojan," he said. "He is, I'm afraid, a +little out of it. Twenty years, you know, is a long time." +</P> + +<P> +Clare smiled. "He is unchanged," she said. "What he was as a boy, he +is now." +</P> + +<P> +"He is fortunate," Randal said gravely. "For most of us experience has +a jostling series of shocks ready. Life hurts." +</P> + +<P> +He said good-bye with that air of courtly melancholy that Clare admired +so much. He shook Harry warmly by the hand and expressed a hope of +another meeting. +</P> + +<P> +"I should be delighted," Harry said. "What sort of time am I likely to +catch you in town?" +</P> + +<P> +But Randal, alarmed at this serious acceptance of an entirely ironical +proposal, was immediately vague and gave no definite promise. Harry +watched them pass down the drive, then he turned back slowly into the +house. +</P> + +<P> +It was one of those blue and gold days that are only to be realised +perfectly in Cornwall—blue of the sky and the sea, gold on the roofs +and the rich background of red and brown in the autumn-tinted trees, +whilst the deep green of the lawns in front of the house seemed to hold +both blues and golds in its lights and shadows. The air was perfectly +still and the smoke from a distant bonfire hung in strange wreaths of +grey-blue in the light against the trees, as though carved delicately +in marble. +</P> + +<P> +Randal discussed his prospects. He spoke, as he invariably did with +regard to his past and future, airily and yet impressively: "I don't +like to make myself too cheap," he said. "There are things any sort of +fellow can do, and I must say that I shrink from taking bread out of +the mouths of some of them. But of course there are things that one +<I>must</I> do—where special knowledge is wanted—not that I'm any good, +you know, but I've had chances. Besides, one must work slowly. +Style's the thing—Flaubert and Pater for ever—the doctrine of the one +word." +</P> + +<P> +Robin looked at him with admiration. +</P> + +<P> +"By Jove, Randal, I wish I could write; I sometimes feel quite—well, +it sounds silly—but inspired, you know—as if one saw things quite +differently. It was very like that in Germany once or twice." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, we're all like that at times," Randal spoke encouragingly. "But +don't you trust it—an <I>ignis fatuus</I> if ever there was one. That is +why we have bank clerks at Peckham and governesses in Bloomsbury +writing their reminiscences. It's those moments of inspiration that +are responsible for all our over-crowded literature." +</P> + +<P> +They had chosen the path over the fields to the station, and suddenly +at the bend of the hill the sea sprang before them, a curving mirror +that reflected the blue of the sky and was clouded mistily with the +gold of the sun. That sudden springing forward of the sea was always +very wonderful, even when it had been seen again and again, and Robin +stopped and shaded his eyes with his hand. +</P> + +<P> +"It's fine, isn't it, Randal?" he said. "One gets fond of the place." +</P> + +<P> +He was a little ashamed to have betrayed such feeling and spoke +apologetically. He went on hurriedly. "There was an old chap in +Germany—at Worms—who was most awfully interesting. He kept a little +bookshop, and I used to go down and talk to him, and he said once that +the sea was the most beautiful dream that the world contained, but you +must never get too near or the dream broke, and from that moment you +had no peace." +</P> + +<P> +Randal looked at Robin anxiously. "I say, old chap, this place is +getting on your nerves; always being here is bad for you. Why don't +you come up to town or go abroad? You're seedy." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I'm all right," Robin said, rather irritably. "Only one wonders +sometimes if—" he broke off suddenly. "I'm a bit worried about +something," he said. +</P> + +<P> +He was immediately aware that he had said nothing to Randal about the +Feverel affair and he wondered why. Randal would have been the natural +person to talk to about it; his advice would have been worth having. +But Robin felt vaguely that it would be better not. For some strange +reason, as yet unanalysed, he scarcely trusted him as he had done in +the old days. He was still wondering why, when they arrived at the +station. +</P> + +<P> +They said good-bye affectionately—rather more affectionately than +usual. There was a little sense of strain, and Robin felt relieved +when the train had gone. As he hurried from the platform he puzzled +over it. He could hold no clue, but he knew that their friendship had +changed a little. He was sorry. +</P> + +<P> +As he turned down the station road he decided that life was becoming +very complicated. There was first his father; that oughtn't in the +nature of things to have complicated matters at all—but it was +complicated, because there was no knowing what a man like that would +do. He might let the family down so badly; it was almost like having +gunpowder in your cellar. Randal had thought him absurd. Robin saw +that clearly, and Randal's opinion was that of all truly sensible +people. But, after all, the real complication was the Feverel affair. +It was now nearly ten days since that terrible evening and nothing had +happened. Robin wasn't sure what <I>could</I> have happened, but he had +expected something. He had waited for a note; she would most assuredly +write and her letter would serve as a hint, he would know how to act; +but there had been no sign. On the day following the interview he had +felt, for the most part, relief. He was suddenly aware of the burden +that the affair had been, he was a free man; but with this there had +been compunction. He had acted like a brute; he was surprised that he +could have been so hard, and he was a little ashamed of meeting the +public gaze. If people only realised, he thought, what a cad he was, +they would assuredly have nothing to do with him. As the days passed, +this feeling increased and he was extremely uncomfortable. He had +never before doubted that he was a very decent fellow—nothing, +perhaps, exceptional in any way, but, judged by every standard, he +passed muster. Now he wasn't so sure, he had done something that he +would have entirely condemned in another man, and this showed him +plainly and most painfully the importance that he placed on the other +man's opinion. He was beginning to grow his crop of ideas and he was +already afraid of the probable harvest. +</P> + +<P> +That his affection for Dahlia was dead there could be no question, but +that it was buried, either for himself or the public, was, most +unfortunately, not the case. He was afraid of discovery for the first +time in his life, and it was unpleasant. Dahlia herself would be +quiet; at least, he was almost sure, although her outbreak the other +evening had surprised him. But he was afraid of Mrs. Feverel. He felt +now that she had never liked him; he saw her as some grim dragon +waiting for his inevitable surrender. He did not know what she would +do; he was beginning to realise his inexperience, but he knew that she +would never allow the affair to pass quietly away. To do him justice, +it was not so much the fear of personal exposure that frightened him; +that, of course, would be unpleasant—he would have to face the +derision of his enemies and the contempt of those people whom formerly +he had himself despised. But it was not personal contempt, it was the +disgrace to the family; the house was suddenly threatened on two +sides—his father, the Feverels—and he was frightened. He saw his +name in the papers; the Trojan name dragged through the mud because of +his own folly—Oh! it must be stopped at all costs. But the +uncertainty of it was worrying him. Ten days had passed and nothing +was done. Ten days, and he had been able to speak of it to no one; it +had haunted him all day and had spoiled his sleep; first, because he +had done something of which he was ashamed, and secondly, because he +was afraid that people might know. +</P> + +<P> +There were the letters. He remembered some of the sentences now and +bit his lip. How could he have been such a fool? She must give them +back—of course she would; but there was Mrs. Feverel. +</P> + +<P> +The uncertainty was torturing him—he must find out how matters were, +and suddenly, on the inspiration of the moment, he decided to go and +see Dahlia at once. Things could not be worse, and at least the +uncertainty would be ended. The golden day irritated him, and he found +the dark gloom of the Feverels' street a relief. A man was playing an +organ at the corner, and three dirty, tattered children were dancing +noisily in the middle of the road. He watched them for a moment before +ringing the bell, and wondered how they could seem so unconcerned, and +he thought them abandoned. +</P> + +<P> +He found Dahlia alone in the gaudy drawing-room. She gave a little cry +when she saw who it was, and her cheeks flushed red, and then the +colour faded. He noticed that she was looking ill and rather untidy. +There were dark lines under her eyes and her mouth was drawn. There +was an awkward pause; he had sat down with his hat in his hand and he +was painfully ill at ease. +</P> + +<P> +"I knew you would come back, Robin," she began at last. "Only you have +been a long time—ten days. I have never gone out, because I was +afraid that I would miss you. But I knew that you would be sorry after +the other night, because you know, dear, you hurt me terribly, and for +a time I really thought you meant it." +</P> + +<P> +"But I do mean it," Robin broke in. "I did and I do. I'm sorry, +Dahlia, for having hurt you, but I thought that you would see it as I +do—that it must, I mean, stop. I had hoped that you would understand." +</P> + +<P> +But she came over and stood by him, smiling rather timidly. "I don't +want to start it all over again," she said. "It was silly of me to +have made such a fuss the other night. I have been thinking all these +ten days, and it has been my fault all along. I have bothered you by +coming here and interfering when I wasn't really wanted. Mother and I +will go away again and then you shall come and stay, and we shall be +all alone—like we were at Cambridge. I have learnt a good deal during +these last few days, and if you will only be patient with me I will try +very hard to improve." +</P> + +<P> +She stood by his chair and laid her hand on his arm. He would have +thrilled at her touch six months before—now he was merely impatient. +It was so annoying that the affair should have to be reopened when they +had decided it finally the other night. He felt again the blind, +unreasoning fear of exposure. He had never before doubted his bravery, +but there had never been any question of attack—the House had been, it +seemed, founded on a rock, he had never doubted its stability before. +Now, with all the cruelty of a man who was afraid for the first time, +he had no mercy. +</P> + +<P> +"It is over, Dahlia—there is no other possibility. We had both made a +mistake; I am sorry and regret extremely if I had led you to think that +it could ever have been otherwise. I see it more clearly than I saw it +ten days ago—quite plainly now—and there's no purpose served in +keeping the matter open; here's an end. We will both forget. Heroics +are no good; after all, we are man and woman—it's better to leave it +at that and accept the future quietly." +</P> + +<P> +He spoke coldly and calmly, indeed he was surprised that he could face +it like that, but his one thought was for peace, to put this spectre +that had haunted him these ten days behind him and watch the world +again with a straight gaze—he must have no secrets. +</P> + +<P> +She had moved away and stood by the fireplace, looking straight before +her. She was holding herself together with a terrible effort; she must +quiet her brain and beat back her thoughts. If she thought for a +moment she would break down, and during these ten days she had been +schooling herself to face whatever might come—shame, exposure, +anything—she would not cry and beg for pity as she had done before. +But it was the end, the end, the end! The end of so much that had +given her a new soul during the last few months. She must go back to +those dreary years that had had no meaning in them, all those +purposeless grey days that had stretched in endless succession on to a +dismal future in which there shone no sun. Oh! he couldn't know what +it had all meant to her—it could be flung aside by him without regret. +For him it was a foolish memory, for her it was death. +</P> + +<P> +The tears were coming, her lips were quivering, but she clenched her +hands until the nails dug into the flesh. The sun poured in a great +flood of colour through the window, and meanwhile her heart was broken. +She had read of it often enough and had laughed—she had not known that +it meant that terrible dull throbbing pain and no joy or hope or light +anywhere. But she spoke to him quietly. +</P> + +<P> +"I had thought that you were braver, Robin. That you had cared enough +not to mind what they said. You are right: it has all been a mistake." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," he said doggedly, without looking at her. "We've been foolish. +I hadn't thought enough about others. You see after all one owes +something to one's people. It would never do, Dahlia, it wouldn't +really. You'd never like it either—you see we're different. At +Cambridge one couldn't see it so clearly, but here—well, there are +things one owes to one's people, tradition, and, oh! lots of things! +You have got your customs, we have ours—it doesn't do to mix." +</P> + +<P> +He hadn't meant to put it so clearly. He scarcely realised what he had +said because he was not thinking of her at all; it was only that one +thing that he saw in front of him, how to get out, away, clear of the +whole entanglement, where there was no question of suspicion and +possible revelation of secrets. He was not thinking of her. +</P> + +<P> +But the cruelty of it, the naked, unhesitating truth of it, stung her +as nothing had ever hurt her before—it was as though he had struck her +in the face. She was not good enough, she was not fit. He had said it +before, but then he had been angry. She had not believed it; but now +he was speaking calmly, coldly—she was not good enough! +</P> + +<P> +And in a moment her idol had tumbled to the ground—her god was lying +pitifully in the dust, and all the Creed that she had learnt so +patiently and faithfully had crumbled into nothing. Her despair +seemed, for the moment, to have gone; she only felt burning +contempt—contempt for him, that he could seem so small—contempt for +herself, that she could have worshipped at such altars. +</P> + +<P> +She turned round and looked at him. +</P> + +<P> +"That is rather unfair. You say that I am not your equal socially. +Well, we will leave it at that—you are quite right—it is over." +</P> + +<P> +He lowered his eyes before her steady gaze. At last he was ashamed; he +had not meant to put it brutally. He had behaved like a cad and he +knew it. Her white face, her hands clenched tightly at her side, the +brave lift of her head as she faced him, moved him as her tears and +emotions had never done. +</P> + +<P> +He sprang up and stood by her. +</P> + +<P> +"Dahlia, I've been a brute, a cad—I didn't know what I had said—I +didn't mean it like that, as you thought. Only I've been so worried, +I've not known where to turn and—oh, don't you see, I'm so young. I +get driven, I can't stand up against them all." +</P> + +<P> +Why, he was nearly crying. The position was suddenly reversed, and she +could almost have laughed at the change. He was looking at her +piteously, like a boy convicted of orchard-robbing—and she had loved +him, worshipped him! Five minutes ago his helplessness would have +stirred her, she would have wanted to take him and protect him and +comfort him; but now all that was past—she felt only contempt and +outraged pride: her eyes were hard and her hands unclenched. +</P> + +<P> +"It is no good, Robin. You were quite right. There is an end of +everything. It was a mistake for both of us, and perhaps it is as well +that we should know it now. It will spare us later." +</P> + +<P> +So that was the end. He felt little triumph or satisfaction; he was +only ashamed. +</P> + +<P> +He turned to go without a word. Then he remembered—"There are the +letters?" +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! you must let me keep them—for a memory." She was not looking at +him, but out of the window on to the street. A cab was slowly crawling +in the distance—she could see the end of the driver's whip as he +flicked at his horses. +</P> + +<P> +"You can't—you don't mean——?" Robin turned back to her. +</P> + +<P> +"I mean nothing—only I am—tired. You had better go. We will write +if there is anything more." +</P> + +<P> +"Look here!" Robin was trembling from head to foot. "You must let me +have them back. It's serious—more than you know. People might see +them and—my God! you would ruin me!" +</P> + +<P> +He was speaking melodramatically, and he looked melodramatic and very +ridiculous. He was crushing his bowler in his hands. +</P> + +<P> +"No. I will keep them!" She spoke slowly and quite calmly, as though +she had thought it all out before. "They are valuable. Now you must +go. This has been silly enough—Good-bye." +</P> + +<P> +She turned to the window and he was dismissed. His pride came to the +rescue; he would not let her see that he cared, so he went—without +another word. +</P> + +<P> +She stood in the same position, and watched him go down the street. He +was walking quickly and at the same time a little furtively, as though +he was afraid of meeting acquaintances. She turned away from the +window, and then, suddenly, knelt on the floor with her head in her +hands. She sobbed miserably, hopelessly, with her hands pressed +against her face. +</P> + +<P> +And Mrs. Feverel found her kneeling there in the sunlight an hour later. +</P> + +<P> +"Dahlia," she said softly, "Dahlia!" +</P> + +<P> +The girl looked up. "He has gone, mother," she said. "And he is never +coming back. I sent him away." +</P> + +<P> +And Mrs. Feverel said nothing. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap07"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VII +</H3> + +<P> +There were times when Harry felt curiously, impressively, the age of +the house. It was not all of it old, it had been added to from time to +time by successive Trojans; but there had, from the earliest days, been +a stronghold on the hill overlooking the sea and keeping guard. +</P> + +<P> +He had had a wonderful pride in it on his return, but now he began to +feel as though he had no right in it. Surely if any one had a right to +such a heritage it was he, but they had isolated him and told him that +he had no place there. The gardens, the corners and battlements of the +house, the great cliff falling sheer to the sea, had had no welcome for +him, and when he had claimed his succession they had refused him. He +was beginning to give the stocks and stones of the House a personal +existence. Sometimes at night, when the moon gave the place grey +shadows and white lights, or in the early morning when the first birds +were crying in the trees and the sea was slowly taking colour from the +rising sun, in the perfect stillness and beauty of those hours the +house had seemed to speak to him with a new voice. He imagined, +fantastically at times, that the white statues in the garden watched +him with grave eyes, wondering what place he would take in the +chronicles of the House. +</P> + +<P> +It was Sunday afternoon, and he was alone in the library. That was a +room that had always appealed to him, with its dark red walls covered +from floor to ceiling with books, its wide stone fireplace, its soft, +heavy carpets, its wonderfully comfortable armchairs. It seemed to him +the very perfection of that spirit of orderly comfort and luxurious +simplicity for which he had so earnestly longed in New Zealand. He sat +in that room for hours, alone, thinking, wondering, puzzling, devising +new plans for Robin's surrender and rejecting them as soon as they were +formed. +</P> + +<P> +He was sitting by the fire now, hearing the coals click as they fell +into the golden furnace that awaited them. He was comparing the +incidents of the morning with those of the preceding Sunday, and he +knew that things were approaching a crisis. Clare had scarcely spoken +to him for three days. Garrett and Robin had not said a word beyond a +casual good-morning. They were ignoring him, continuing their daily +life as though he did not exist at all. He remembered that he had felt +his welcome a fortnight before a little cold—it seemed rapturous +compared with the present state of things. +</P> + +<P> +They had driven to church that morning in state. No one had exchanged +a word during the whole drive. Clare had sat quietly, in solemn +magnificence, without moving an eyelid. They had moved from the +carriage to the church in majestic procession, watched by an admiring +cluster of townspeople. He had liked Clare's fine bearing and Robin's +carriage; there was no doubt that they supported family traditions +worthily, but he felt that, in the eyes of the world, he scarcely +counted at all. It was a cold and over-decorated church, with an air +of wealth and lack of all warm emotions that was exactly characteristic +of its congregation. Harry thought that he had never seen a gathering +of more unresponsive people. An excellent choir sang Stainer in B flat +with perfect precision and fitting respect, and the hymns and psalms +were murmured with proper decorum. The clergyman who had come to tea +on the day after Harry's arrival preached a carefully calculated and +excellently worded sermon. Although his text was the publican's "Lord, +be merciful to me, a sinner," it was evident that his address was +tinged with the Pharisee's self-congratulations. +</P> + +<P> +A little gathering was formed in the porch after the service, and Mrs. +le Terry, magnificent in green silk and an enormous hat, was the only +person who took any interest in Harry, and she was looking over his +head during the conversation in order, apparently, to fix the attention +of some gentleman moving in the opposite direction. +</P> + +<P> +At lunch Harry had made a determined effort towards cheerfulness. He +had learnt that heartiness was bad manners and effusion a crime, so he +was quiet and restrained. But his efforts failed miserably; Robin +seemed worried and his thoughts were evidently far away, Clare was +occupied with the impertinence of some stranger who had thrust himself +into the Trojan pew at the last moment, and Garrett was repeating +complacently a story that he had heard at the Club tending to prove the +unsanitary condition of the lower classes in general and the +inhabitants of the Cove in particular. After lunch they had left him +alone; he had not dared to petition Robin for a walk, so, sick at heart +and miserably lonely, he had wandered disconsolately into the library. +He had taken from one of the shelves the volume T-U of <I>The Dictionary +of National Biography</I>, and had amused himself by searching for the +names of heroes in Trojan annals. +</P> + +<P> +There was only one who really mattered—a certain Humphrey Trojan, +1718-1771; a man apparently of poor circumstances and quite a distant +cousin of the main branch, one who had been in all probability despised +by the Sir Henry Trojan of that time. Nevertheless he had been a +person of some account in history and had, from the towers of the +House, watched the sea and the stars to some purpose. He had been +admitted, Harry imagined, into the sacred precincts after his +researches had made him a person of national importance, and it was +amusing to picture Sir Henry's pride transformed into a rather +obsequious familiarity when "My cousin, Humphrey, had been honoured by +an interview with his Majesty and had received an Order at the royal +hand"—amusing, yes, but not greatly to the glory of Sir Henry. Harry +liked to picture Humphrey in his days of difficulty—sturdy, +persevering, confident in his own ability, oblivious of the cuts dealt +him by his cousin. Time would show. +</P> + +<P> +He let the book fall and gazed at the fire, thinking. After all, he +was a poor creature. He had none of that perseverance and belief in +his own ultimate success, and it was better, perhaps, to get right out +of it, to throw up the sponge, to turn tail, and again there floated +before him that wonderful dream of liberty and the road—of a +relationship with the world at large, and no constraint of family +dignity and absurd grades of respectability. Off with the harness; he +had worn it for a fortnight and he could bear it no longer. Bethel was +right; he would follow the same path and find his soul by losing it in +the eyes of the world. But after all, there was Robin. He had not +given it a fair trial, and it was only cowardice that had spoken to him. +</P> + +<P> +The clock struck half-past three and he went upstairs to see his +father. The old man seldom left his bed now. He grew weaker every day +and the end could not be far away. He had no longer any desire to +live, and awaited with serene confidence the instant of departure, +being firmly convinced that Death was too good a gentleman to treat a +Trojan scurvily, and that, whatever the next world might contain, he +would at least be assured of the respect and deference that the present +world had shown him. His mind dwelt continually on his early days, +and, even when there was no one present to listen, he repeated +anecdotes and reminiscences for the benefit of the world at large. His +face seemed to have dwindled considerably, but his eyes were always +alive—twinkling over the bedclothes like lights in a dark room. His +mouth never moved, only his hand, claw-like and yellow as parchment, +clutched the bedclothes and sometimes waved feebly in the air to +emphasise his meaning. He had grown strangely intolerant of Clare, and +although he submitted to her offices as usual, did so reluctantly and +with no good grace; she had served him faithfully and diligently for +twenty years and this was her reward. She said nothing, but she laid +it to Harry's charge. +</P> + +<P> +Sir Jeremy's eyes twinkled when he saw his son. "Hey, Harry, my +boy—all of 'em out, aren't they? Devilish good thing—no one to worry +us. Just give the pillows a punch and pull that table nearer—that's +right. Just pull that blind up—I can't see the sea." +</P> + +<P> +The room had changed its character within the last week. It was a +place of silences and noiseless tread, and the scent of flowers mingled +with the intangible odour of medicine. A great fire burnt in the open +fireplace, and heavy curtains had been hung over the door to prevent +draughts. +</P> + +<P> +Harry moved silently about the room, flung up the blind to let in the +sun, propped up the pillows, and then sat down by the bed. +</P> + +<P> +"You're looking better, father," he said; "you'll soon be up again." +</P> + +<P> +"The devil I will," said Sir Jeremy. "No, it's not for me. I'm here +for a month or two, and then I'm off. I've had my day, and a damned +good one too. What do you think o' that girl now, Harry—she's +fine—what?" +</P> + +<P> +He produced from under the pillow a photograph, yellow with age, of a +dancer—jet-black hair and black eyes, her body balanced on one leg, +her hands on her hips. "Anonita Sendella—a devilish fine woman, by +gad—sixty years ago that was—and Tom Buckley and I were in the +running. He had the money and I had the looks, although you wouldn't +think it now. She liked me until she got tired of me and she died o' +drink—not many like that nowadays." He gazed at the photograph whilst +his eyes twinkled. "Legs—by Heaven! what legs!" He chuckled. +"Wouldn't do for Clare to see that; she was shaking my pillows this +mornin' and I was in a deuce of a fright—thought the thing would +tumble out." +</P> + +<P> +He lay back on his pillows thinking, and Harry stared out of the +window. The end would come in a month or two—perhaps sooner; and +then, what would happen? He would take his place as head of the +family. He laughed to himself—head of the family! when Clare and +Garrett and Robin all hated him? Head of the family! +</P> + +<P> +The sky was grey and the sea flecked with white horses. It was +shifting colours to-day like a mother-of-pearl shell—a great band of +dark grey on the horizon, and then a soft carpet of green turning to +grey again by the shore. The grey hoofs [Transcriber's note: roofs?] +of the Cove crowded down to the edge of the land, seeming to lean a +little forward, as though listening to what the sea had to say; the +sun, breaking mistily through the clouds, was a round ball of dull +gold—a line of breakwater, far in the distance, seemed ever about to +advance down the stretch of sea to the shore, as though it would hurl +itself on the cluster of brown sails in the little bay, huddling there +for protection. Head of the House! What was the use, when the House +didn't want him? +</P> + +<P> +His father was watching him and seemed to have read his thoughts. +"You'll take my place, Harry?" he said. "They won't like it, you know. +It was partly my fault. I sent you away and you grew up away, and +they've always been here. I've been wanting you to come back all this +time, and it wasn't because I was angry that I didn't ask you—but it +was better for you. You don't see it yet; you came back thinking +they'd welcome you and be glad to see you, and you're a bit hurt that +they haven't. They've been hard to you, all of 'em—your boy as well. +I've known, right enough. But it cuts both ways, you see. They can't +see your point of view, and they're afraid of the open air you're +letting in on to them. You're too soft, Harry; you've shown them that +it hurts, and they've wanted it to hurt. Give 'em a stiff back, Harry, +give 'em a stiff back. Then you'll have 'em. That's like us Trojans. +We're devilish cruel because we're devilish proud; if you're kind we +hurt, but if you do a bit of hurting on your own account we like it." +</P> + +<P> +"I've made a mess of it," Harry said, "a hopeless mess of it. I've +tried everything, and it's all failed. I'd better back out of it—" +Then, after a pause, "Robin hates me——" +</P> + +<P> +Sir Jeremy chuckled. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh no, he doesn't. He's like the rest of us. You wanted him to give +himself away at once, and of course he wouldn't. They're trying you +and waiting to see what you'll do, and Robin's just following on. +You'll be all right, only give 'em a stiff back, the whole crowd of +'em." +</P> + +<P> +Suddenly his wrinkled yellow hand shot out from under the bedclothes +and he grasped his son's. "You're a damned fine chap," he said, "and +I'm proud of you—only you're a bit of a fool—sentimental, you know. +But you'll make more of the place than I've ever done, God bless you—" +after which he lay back on his pillows again, and was soon asleep. +</P> + +<P> +Harry waited for a little, and then he stole out of the room. He told +the nurse to take his place, and went downstairs. +</P> + +<P> +It was four o'clock, and he was going to tea at the Bethels'. He had +been there pretty frequently during the past week—that and the Cove +were his only courts of welcome. He knew that his going there had only +aggravated his offences in the eyes of his sister, but that he could +not help. Why should they dictate his friends to him? +</P> + +<P> +The little drawing-room was neat and clean. There were some flowers, +and the chairs and sofa were not littered with books and needlework and +strange fragments of feminine garments. Mrs. Bethel was gorgeous in a +green silk dress and the paint was more obtrusive than ever. Her eyes +were red as though she had been crying, and her hair as usual had +escaped bounds. +</P> + +<P> +Mary was making tea and smiled up at him. "Shout at father," she said. +"He's downstairs in the study, browsing. He'll come up when he knows +you are here." +</P> + +<P> +Harry went to the head of the stairs and called, and Bethel came +rushing up. Sunday made no difference to his clothes, and he wore the +grey suit and flannel collar of their first meeting. +</P> + +<P> +His greeting was, as ever, boisterous. "Hullo! Trojan! that's +splendid! I was afraid they'd carry you off to that church of yours or +you'd have a tea-party or something. I'm glad they've spared you." +</P> + +<P> +"No, I went this morning," Harry answered, "all of us solemnly in the +family coach. I thought that was enough for one day." +</P> + +<P> +"We used to have a carriage when papa was alive," said Mrs. Bethel, +"and we drove to church every Sunday. We were the only people beside +the Porsons, and theirs was only a pony-cart." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, for my part, I hate driving," said Mary. "It puts you in a bad +temper for the sermon." +</P> + +<P> +"Let's have tea," said Bethel. "I'm as hungry as though I'd listened +to fifty parsons." +</P> + +<P> +And, indeed, he always was. He ate as though he had had no meal for a +month at least, and he had utterly demolished the tea-cake before he +realised that no one else had had any. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I say, I'm so sorry," he said ruefully. "Mary, why didn't you +tell me? I'll never forgive myself——" and proceeded to finish the +saffron buns. +</P> + +<P> +"All the same," said Mary, "we're going to church to-night, all of us, +and if you're very good, Mr. Trojan, you shall come too." +</P> + +<P> +Harry paused for a moment. "I shall be delighted," he said; "but where +do you go?" +</P> + +<P> +"There's a little church called St. Sennan's. You haven't heard of it, +probably. It's past the Cove—on a hill looking over the sea. It's +the most tumble-down old place you ever saw, and nobody goes there +except a few fishermen, but we know the clergyman and like him. I like +the place too—you can listen to the sea if you're bored with the +sermon." +</P> + +<P> +"The parson is like one of the prophets," said Bethel. "Too strong for +the Pendragon point of view. It's a place of ruins, Trojan, and the +congregation are like a crowd of ancient Britons—but you'll like it." +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Bethel was unwontedly quiet—it was obvious that she was in +distress; Mary, too, seemed to speak at random, and there was an air of +constraint in the room. +</P> + +<P> +When they set off for church the grey sky had changed to blue; the sun +had just set, and little pink clouds like fairy cushions hung round the +moon. As they passed out of the town, through the crooked path down to +the Cove, Harry had again that strong sense of Cornwall that came to +him sometimes so suddenly, so strangely, that it was almost mysterious, +for it seemed to have no immediate cause, no absolute relation to +surrounding sights or sounds. Perhaps to-night it was in the misty +half-light of the shining moon and the dying sun, the curious stillness +of the air so that the sounds and cries of the town came distinctly on +the wind, the scent of some wild flowers, the faint smell of the +chrysanthemums that Mary was wearing at her breast. +</P> + +<P> +"By Jove, it's Cornwall," he said, drawing a great breath. He was +walking a little ahead with Mary, and he turned to her as she spoke. +She was walking with her head bent, and did not seem to hear him. +"What's up?" he said. +</P> + +<P> +"Nothing," she answered, trying to smile. +</P> + +<P> +"But there is," he insisted. "I'm not blind. I've bored you with my +worries. You might honour me with yours." +</P> + +<P> +"There isn't anything really. One's foolish to mind, and, indeed, it's +not for myself that I care—but it's mother." +</P> + +<P> +"What have they done?" +</P> + +<P> +"They don't like us—none of them do. I don't know why they should; we +aren't, perhaps, very likeable. But it is cruel of them to show it. +Mother, you see, likes meeting people—we had it in London, friends I +mean, lots of them, and then when we came here we had none. We have +never had any from the beginning. We tried, perhaps a little too hard, +to have some. We gave little parties and they failed, and then people +began to think us peculiar, and if they once do that here you're done +for. Perhaps we didn't see it quite soon enough and we went on trying, +and then they began to snub us." +</P> + +<P> +"Snub you?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, you know the kind of thing. You saw that first day we met +you——" +</P> + +<P> +"And it hurts?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—for mother. She still tries; she doesn't see that it's no good, +and each time that she goes and calls, something happens and she comes +back like she did to-day. I don't suppose they mean to be unkind—it +is only that we are, you see, peculiar, and that doesn't do here. +Father wears funny clothes and never sees any one, and so they think +there must be something wrong——" +</P> + +<P> +"It's a shame," he said indignantly. +</P> + +<P> +"No," she answered, "it isn't really. It's one's own fault—only +sometimes I hate it all. Why couldn't we have stayed in London? We +had friends there, and father's clothes didn't matter. Here such +little things make such a big difference"—which was, Harry reflected, +a complete epitome of the life of Pendragon. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm not whining," she went on. "We all have things that we don't +like, but when you're without a friend——" +</P> + +<P> +"Not quite," he said; "you must count me." He stopped for a moment. +"You <I>will</I> count me, won't you?" +</P> + +<P> +"You realise what you are doing," she said. "You are entering into +alliance with outcasts." +</P> + +<P> +"You forget," he answered, "that I, also, am an outcast. We can at +least be outcasts together." +</P> + +<P> +"It is good of you," she said gravely; "I am selfish enough to accept +it. If I was really worth anything, I would never let you see us +again. It means ostracism." +</P> + +<P> +"We will fight them," he answered gaily. "We will storm the camp"; but +in his heart he knew that their stronghold, with "The Flutes" as the +heart of the defence, would be hard to overcome. +</P> + +<P> +They climbed up the hill to the little church with the sea roaring at +their feet. A strong wind was blowing, and, for a moment, at a steep +turn of the hill, she laid her hand on his arm; at the touch his heart +beat furiously—in that moment he knew that he loved her, that he had +loved her from the first moment that he had seen her, and he passed on +into the church. +</P> + +<P> +It was, as Bethel had said, almost in ruins—the little nave was +complete, but ivy clambered in the aisles and birds had built their +nests in the pillars. Three misty candles flickered on the altar, and +some lights burnt over the pulpit, but there were strange half-lights +and shadows so that it seemed a place of ghosts. Through the open door +the night air blew, bringing with it the beating of the sea, and the +breath of grass and flowers. The congregation was scanty; some +fishermen and their wives, two or three old women, and a baby that made +no sound but listened wonderingly with its finger in its mouth. The +clergyman was a tall man with a long white beard and he did everything, +even playing the little wheezy harmonium. His sermon was short and +simple, but was listened to with rapt attention. There was something +strangely intense about it all, and the hymns were sung with an +eagerness that Harry had never heard elsewhere. This was a contrast +with the church of the morning, just as the Cove was a contrast with +Pendragon; the parting of the ways seemed to face Harry at every moment +of his day—his choice was being urgently demanded and he had no longer +any hesitation. +</P> + +<P> +Newsome was there, and he spoke to him for a moment on coming out. +"You'll be lonely 'up-along,'" he said; "you belong to us." +</P> + +<P> +They all four walked back together. +</P> + +<P> +"How do you like our ancient Britons?" said Bethel. +</P> + +<P> +"It was wonderful," said Harry. "Thank you for taking me." +</P> + +<P> +They were all very silent, but when they parted at the turning of the +road Bethel laughed. "Now you are one of us, Trojan. We have claimed +you." +</P> + +<P> +As he shook Mary's hand he whispered, "This has been a great evening +for me." +</P> + +<P> +"I was wrong to grumble to you," she answered. "You have worries +enough of your own. I release you from your pledge." +</P> + +<P> +"I will not be released," he said. +</P> + +<P> +That night Clare Trojan, before going to bed, went into Garrett's room. +He was working at his book, and, as usual, hinted that to take such +advantage of his good-nature by her interruption was unfair. +</P> + +<P> +"I suppose to-morrow morning wouldn't do instead, Clare—it's a bit +late." +</P> + +<P> +"No, it wouldn't—I want you to listen to me. It's important." +</P> + +<P> +"Well?" He seated himself in the most comfortable chair and sighed. +"Don't be too long." +</P> + +<P> +She was excited and stood over him as though she would force him to be +interested. +</P> + +<P> +"It's too much, Garrett. It's got to stop." +</P> + +<P> +"What?" +</P> + +<P> +"Harry. Some one must speak to him." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett smiled. "That, of course, will be you, Clare—you always do; +but if it's my permission that you want you may have it and welcome. +But we've discussed all this before. What's the new turn of affairs?" +</P> + +<P> +"No. I want more than your permission; we must take some measures +together. It's no good unless we act at once. Miss Ponsonby told me +this afternoon—it has become common talk—the things he does, I mean. +She did not want to say anything, but I made her. He goes down +continually to some low public-house in the Cove; he is with those +Bethels all day, and will see nothing of any of the decent people in +the place—he is becoming a common byword." +</P> + +<P> +"It is a pity," Garrett said, "that he cannot choose his friends +better." +</P> + +<P> +"He must—something must be done. It is not for ourselves only, though +of course that counts. But it is the House—our name. They laugh at +him, and so at all of us. Besides, there is Robin." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett looked at his sister curiously—he had never seen her so +excited before. But she found it no laughing matter. Miss Ponsonby +would not have spoken unless matters had gone pretty far. The Cove! +The Bethels! Robin's father! +</P> + +<P> +For, after all, it was for Robin that she cared. She felt that she was +fighting his battles, and so subtly concealed from herself that she +was, in reality, fighting her own. She was in a state of miserable +uncertainty. She was not sure of her father, she was not sure of +Robin, scarcely sure of Garrett—everything threatened disaster. +</P> + +<P> +"What will you do?" Garrett had no desire that the responsibility +should be shifted in his direction; he feared responsibility as the +rock on which the ship of his carefully preserved proprieties might +come to wreck. +</P> + +<P> +"Do? Why, speak—it must be done. Think of him during the whole time +that he has been here—not only to Pendragon, but to us. He has made +no attempt whatever to fit in with our ways or thoughts; he has shown +no desire to understand any of us; and now he must be pulled up, for +his own sake as well as ours." +</P> + +<P> +But Garrett offered her little assistance. He had no proposals to +offer, and was barren of all definite efforts; he hated definite lines +of any kind, but he promised to fall in with her plans. +</P> + +<P> +"I will come down to breakfast," she said, "and will speak to him +afterwards." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett nodded wearily and went back to his work. On the next morning +the crisis came. +</P> + +<P> +Breakfast was a silent meal at all times. Harry had learnt to avoid +the cheerful familiarity of his first morning—it would not do. But +the heavy solemnity of the massive silver teapot, the ham and cold game +on the sideboard, the racks of toast that were so needlessly numerous, +drove him into himself, and, like his brother and son, he disappeared +behind folds of newspaper until the meal was over. +</P> + +<P> +Clare frequently came down to breakfast, and therefore he saw nothing +unusual in her appearance. The meal was quite silent; Clare had her +letters—and he was about to rise and leave the room, when she spoke. +</P> + +<P> +"Wait a minute, Harry. I want to say something. No, Robin, don't +go—what I'm going to say concerns us all." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett remained behind his newspaper, which showed that he had +received previous warning. Robin looked up in surprise, and then +quickly at his father, who had moved to the fireplace. +</P> + +<P> +"About me, Clare?" He tried to speak calmly, but his voice shook a +little. He saw that it was a premeditated attack, but he wished that +Robin hadn't been there. He was, on the whole, glad that the moment +had come; the last week had been almost unbearable, and the situation +was bound to arrive at a crisis—well, here it was, but he wished that +Robin were not there. As he looked at the boy for a moment his face +was white and his breath came sharply. He had never loved him quite so +passionately as at that moment when he seemed about to lose him. +</P> + +<P> +Clare had chosen her time and her audience well, and suddenly he felt +that he hated her; he was immediately calm and awaited her attack +almost nonchalantly, his hand resting on the mantelpiece, his legs +crossed. +</P> + +<P> +Clare was still sitting at the table, her face half turned to Harry, +her glance resting on Robin. She tapped the table with her letters, +but otherwise gave no sign of agitation. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—about you, Harry. It is only that I think we have reason—almost +a right—to expect that you should yield a little more thoroughly to +our wishes. Both <I>Garrett</I>"—this with emphasis—"and myself are sure +that your failing to do so is only due to a misconception on your part, +and it is because we are sure that you have only to realise them to +give way a little to them, that I—we—are speaking." +</P> + +<P> +"I certainly had not realised that I had failed in deference to your +wishes, Clare." +</P> + +<P> +"No, not failed—and it is absurd to talk of deference. It is only +that I feel—we all feel"—this with another glance at Robin—"that it +is naturally impossible for you to realise exactly what are the things +required of us here. Things that would in New Zealand have been of no +importance at all." +</P> + +<P> +"Such as——?" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, you must remember that we have, as it were, the eyes of all the +town upon us. We occupy a position of some importance, and we are +definitely expected to maintain that position without lack of dignity." +</P> + +<P> +"Won't you come to the point, Clare? It is a little hard to see——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, things are obvious enough—surely, Harry, you must see for +yourself. People were ready to give you a warm welcome when you +returned. I—we—all of us, were only too glad. But you repulsed us +all. Why, on the very day after your arrival you were extremely—I am +sorry, but there is no other word—discourteous to the Miss Ponsonbys. +You have made your friends almost entirely amongst the fisher class, a +strange thing, surely, for a Trojan to do, and you now, I believe, +spend your evenings frequently in a low public-house resorted to by +such persons—at any rate you have spent them neither here nor at the +Club, the two obvious places. I am only mentioning these things +because I think that you may not have seen that such matters—trivial +as they may seem to you—reflect discredit, not only on yourself, but +also, indirectly, on all of us." +</P> + +<P> +"You forget, Clare, that I have many old friends down at the Cove. +They were there when I was a boy. The people in Pendragon have changed +very largely, almost entirely. There is scarcely any one whom I knew +twenty years ago; it is, I should have thought, quite natural that I +should go to see my old friends again after so long an absence." +</P> + +<P> +He was trying to speak quietly and calmly. His heart was beating +furiously, but he knew that if he once lost control, he would lose, +too, his position. But, as he watched them, and saw their cold, +unmoved attitude his anger rose; he had to keep it down with both hands +clenched—it was only by remembering Robin that the effort was +successful. +</P> + +<P> +"Natural to go and see them on your return—of course. But to return, +to go continually, no. I cannot help feeling, Harry, that you have +been a little selfish. That you have scarcely seen our side of the +question. Things have changed in the last twenty years—changed +enormously. We have seen them, studied them, and, I think, understood +them. You come back and face them without any preparation; surely you +cannot expect to understand them quite as we do." +</P> + +<P> +"This seems to me, I must confess, Clare, a great deal of concern about +a very little matter. Surely I am not a person of such importance that +a few visits to the Cove can ruin us socially?" +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! that is what you don't understand! Little things matter here. +People watch, and are, I am afraid, only too ready to fasten on matters +that do not concern them. Besides, it is not only the Cove—there are +other things—there are, for instance, the Bethels." +</P> + +<P> +At the name Robin started. He liked Mary Bethel, had liked her very +much indeed, but he had known that his aunt disapproved of them and had +been careful to disguise his meetings. But the instant thought in his +mind concerned the Feverels. If the Bethels were impossible socially, +what about Dahlia and her mother? What would his aunt say if she knew +of that little affair? And the question which had attacked him acutely +during the last week in various forms hurt him now like a knife. +</P> + +<P> +He watched his father curiously. He did not look as if he cared very +greatly. Of course Aunt Clare was perfectly right. He had been +selfishly indifferent, had cared nothing for their feelings. Randal +had shown plainly enough how impossible he was. Indeed the shadow of +Randal lurked in the room in a manner that would have pleased that +young gentleman intensely had he known it. Clare had it continually +before her, urging her, advising her, commanding her. +</P> + +<P> +At the mention of the Bethels, Harry looked up sharply. +</P> + +<P> +"I think we had better leave them out of the discussion." His voice +trembled a little. +</P> + +<P> +"Why? Are they so much to you? They have, however, a good deal to do +with my argument. Do you think it was wise to neglect the whole of +Pendragon for the society of the Bethels—people of whom one is an +idler and loafer and the other a lunatic?" Clare was becoming excited. +</P> + +<P> +"You forget, Clare, that I first met them in your drawing-room." +</P> + +<P> +"They were there entirely against my will. I showed them that quite +distinctly at the time. They will not come again." +</P> + +<P> +"That may be. But they are, as you have said, my friends. I cannot, +therefore, hear them insulted. They must be left out of the +discussion." +</P> + +<P> +On any other matter he could have heard her quietly, but the Bethels +she must leave alone. He could see Mary, as he spoke, turning on the +hill and laying her hand on his arm; her hair blew in the wind and the +light in her eyes shone under the moon. He had for a moment forgotten +Robin. +</P> + +<P> +"At any rate, I have made my meaning clear. We wish you—out of regard +for us, if for no other reason—to be a little more careful both of +your company and of your statements. It is hard for you to see the +position quite as we do, I know, but I cannot say that you have made +any attempt whatsoever to see it with our eyes. It seems useless to +appeal to you on behalf of the House, but that, too, is worth some +consideration. We have been here for many hundreds of years; we should +continue in the paths that our ancestors have marked out. I am only +saying what you yourself feel, Garrett?" +</P> + +<P> +"Absolutely." Garrett looked up from his paper. "I think you must +see, Harry, that we are quite justified in our demands—Clare has put +it quite plainly." +</P> + +<P> +"Quite," said Harry. "And you, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +"I think that Aunt Clare is perfectly right," answered Robin coldly. +</P> + +<P> +Harry's face was very white. He spoke rapidly and his hand gripped the +marble of the mantelpiece; he did not want them to see that his legs +were trembling. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. I am glad to know exactly where we stand. It is better for all +of us. I might have taken it submissively, Clare, had you left out +your last count against me. That was unworthy of you. But haven't +you, perhaps, seen just a little too completely your own point of view +and omitted mine? I came back a stranger. I was ready to do anything +to win your regard. I was perhaps a little foolishly sentimental about +it, but I am a very easy person to understand—it could not have been +very difficult. I imagined, foolishly, that things would be quite +easy—that there would be no complications. I soon found that I had +made a mistake; you have taught me more during the last fortnight than +I had ever learnt in all my twenty years abroad. I have learnt that to +expect affection from your own relations, even from your son, is +absurd—affection is bad form; that, of course, was rather a shock. +</P> + +<P> +"You have had, all of you, your innings during the last fortnight. You +have decided, with your friends, that I am impossible, and from that +moment you have deliberately cut me. You have driven me to find +friends of my own and then you have complained of the friends that I +have chosen. That is completed—in a fortnight you have shown me, +quite plainly, your position. Now I will show you mine. You have +refused to have anything to do with me—for the future the position +shall be reversed. I shall alter in no respect whatever, either my +friendships or my habits. I shall go where I please, do what I please, +see whom I please. We shall, of course, disguise our position from the +world. I have learnt that disguise is a very important part of one's +education. Our former relations from this moment cease entirely." +</P> + +<P> +He was speaking apparently calmly, but his anger was at white-heat. +All the veiled insults and disappointments of the last fortnight rose +before him, but, above all, he saw Mary as though he were defending +her, there, in the room. He would never forgive them. +</P> + +<P> +Clare was surprised, but she did not show it. She got up from the +table and walked to the door. "Very well, Harry," she said, "I think +you will regret it." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett rose too, his hand trembling a little as he folded his +newspaper. +</P> + +<P> +"That is, I suppose, an ultimatum," he said. "It is a piece of +insolence that I shall not forget." +</P> + +<P> +Robin was turning to leave the room. Harry suddenly saw him. He had +forgotten him; he had thought only of Mary. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin," he whispered, stepping towards him. "Robin—you don't think +as they do?" +</P> + +<P> +"I agree with my aunt," he said, and he left the room, closing the door +quietly behind him. +</P> + +<P> +Harry's defiance had left him. For a moment the only thing that he saw +clearly in a world that had suddenly grown dark and cold was his son. +He had forgotten the rest—his sister, Mary, Pendragon—it all seemed +to matter nothing. +</P> + +<P> +He had come from New Zealand to love his son—for nothing else. +</P> + +<P> +He had an impulse to run after him, to seize him, and hold him, and +force him to come back. +</P> + +<P> +Then he remembered—his pride stung him. He would fight it out to the +end; he would, as his father said, "show them a stiff back." +</P> + +<P> +He was very white, and for a moment he had to steady himself by the +table. The silver teapot, the ham, the racks of toast were all +there—how strange, when the rest of the world had changed; he was +quite alone now—he must remember that—he had no son. And he, too, +went out, closing the door quietly behind him. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap08"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VIII +</H3> + +<P> +Some letters during this week:— +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +23 SOUTHWICK CRESCENT, W.,<BR> +<I>October</I> 10, 1906.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +My dear Robin—I should have written before, I am ashamed of my +omission, but my approaching departure abroad has thrown a great many +things on my hands; I have a paper to finish for Clarkson and an essay +for the <I>New Review</I>, and letter-writing has been at a standstill. It +was delightful—that little peep of you that I got—and it only made me +regret the more that it is impossible to see much of you nowadays. I +cannot help feeling that there is a danger of vegetation if one limits +oneself too completely to a provincial life, and, charming though +Cornwall is, its very fascination causes one to forget the importance +of the outer world. I fancied that I discerned signs that you yourself +felt this confinement and wished for something broader. Well, why not +have it? I confess that I see no reason. Come up to London for a +time—go abroad—your beloved Germany is waiting for you, and a year at +one of the Universities would be both amusing and instructive. These +are only suggestions; I should hesitate to offer them at all were it +not that there has always been such sympathy between us that I know you +will not resent them. Of course, the arrival of your father has made +considerable difference. I must say, honestly, that I regretted to see +that you had not more in common. The fault, I expect, has been on both +sides; as I said to you before, it has been hard for him to realise +exactly what it is that we consider important. We—quite mistakenly +possibly—have come to feel that certain things, art, literature, +music, are absolutely essential to us, morally and physically. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +They are nothing at all to him, and I can quite understand that you +have found it difficult—almost impossible—to grasp his standpoint. I +must confess that he did not seem to me to attempt to consider yours; +but it is easy, and indeed impertinent, to criticise, and I hope that, +on the next occasion of your writing, I shall hear that things are +going smoothly and that the first inevitable awkwardnesses have worn +off. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +I must stop. I have let my pen wander away with me. But do consider +what I said about coming up to town; I am sure that it is bad for you +in every way—this burial. Think of your friends, old chap, and let +them see something of you.—Yours ever, +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +LANCELOT RANDAL. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"THE FLUTES," PENDRAGON,<BR> +<I>October</I> 12, 1906.<BR></P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +My dear Lance—Thanks very much for your letter. This mustn't pretend +to be anything of a letter. I have a thousand things to do, and no +time to do them. It was very delightful seeing you, and I, too, was +extremely sorry we could not see more of you. My aunt enjoyed your +visit enormously, and told me to remind you that you are expected here, +for a long stay, on your return from Germany. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +Yes, I was worried and am still. There are various things—"it never +rains but it pours"—but I cannot feel that they are in the least due +to my vegetating. I haven't the least intention of sticking here, but +my grandfather is, as you know, very ill, and it is impossible for me +to get away at present. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +Resent what you said! Why, no, of course not. We are too good friends +for resentment, and I am only too grateful for your advice. The +situation here at this moment is peculiarly Meredithian—and, although +one ought perhaps to be silent concerning it, I know that I can trust +you absolutely and I need your advice badly. Besides, I must speak to +some one about it; I have been thinking it over all day and am quite at +a loss. There was battle royal this morning after breakfast, and my +father was extremely rude to my aunt, acting apparently from quite +selfish motives. I want to look at it fairly, but I can, honestly, see +it in no other light. My aunt accused him of indifference with regard +to the family good name. She, quite rightly, I think, pointed out that +his behaviour from first to last had been the reverse of courteous to +herself and her friends, and she suggested that he had, perhaps, +scarcely realised the importance of maintaining the family dignity in +the eyes of Pendragon. You remember his continual absences and the +queer friendships that he formed. She suggested that he should modify +these, and take a little more interest in the circle to which we, +ourselves, belong. Surely there is nothing objectionable in all this; +indeed, I should have thought that he would have been grateful for her +advice. But no—he fired up in the most absurd manner, accused us of +unfairness and prejudice, declared his intention of going his own way, +and gave us all his congé. In fact, he was extremely rude to my aunt, +and I cannot forgive him for some of the things that he said. His +attitude has been absurd from the first, and I cannot see that we could +have acted otherwise, but the situation is now peculiar, and what will +come of it I don't know. I must dress for dinner—I am curious to see +whether he will appear—he was out for lunch. Let me have a line if +you have a spare moment. I scarcely know how to act.—Yours, +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +ROBERT TROJAN. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +23 SOUTHWICK CRESCENT, W.,<BR> +<I>October</I> 14, 1906.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +Dear Robin—In furious haste, am just off and have really no time for +anything. I am more sorry than I can say to hear your news. I must +confess that I had feared something of the kind; matters seemed working +to a climax when I was with you. As to advice, it is almost +impossible; I really don't know what to say, it is so hard for me to +judge of all the circumstances. But it seems to me that your father +can have had no warrant for the course that he took. One is naturally +chary of delivering judgment in such a case, but it was, obviously, his +duty to adapt himself to his environment. He cannot blame you for +reminding him of that fact. Out of loyalty to your aunt, I do not see +that you can do anything until he has apologised. But I will think of +the matter further, and will write to you from abroad.—In great haste, +your friend, LANCELOT RANDAL. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"THE FLUTES," PENDRAGON, CORNWALL,<BR> +<I>October</I> 13, 1906.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +Dear Miss Feverel—I must apologise for forcing you to realise once +more my existence. Any reminder must necessarily be painful after our +last meeting, but I am writing this to request the return of all other +reminders of our acquaintance that you may happen to possess; I enclose +the locket, the ring, your letters, and the tie that you worked. We +discussed this matter the other day, but I cannot believe that you will +still hold to a determination that can serve no purpose, except perhaps +to embitter feelings on both sides. From what I have known of you I +cannot believe that you are indulging motives of revenge—but, +otherwise, I must confess that I am at a loss.—Expecting to receive +the letters by return, I am, yours truly, +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +ROBERT TROJAN. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +9 SEA VIEW TERRACE, PENDRAGON, CORNWALL,<BR> +<I>October</I> 14, 1906.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +Dear Mr. Trojan—Thank you for the locket, the ring, and the letters +which I have received. I regret that I must decline to part with the +letters; surely it is not strange that I should wish to keep +them.—Yours truly, DAHLIA FEVEREL. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"THE FLUTES,"<BR> +<I>October</I> 15, 1906.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +What do you mean? You have no right to them. They are mine. I wrote +them. You serve no purpose by keeping them. Please return them at +once—by return. I have done nothing to deserve this. Unless you +return them, I shall know that you are merely an intriguing—; no, I +don't mean that. Please send them back. Suppose they should be +seen?—In haste, R. T. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +9 SEA VIEW TERRACE, PENDRAGON, CORNWALL,<BR> +_October_ 15, 1906.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +My decision is unalterable. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +D. F. +</P> + +<BR><BR> + +<P> +But Dahlia sat in the dreary little drawing-room watching the grey sea +with a white face and hard, staring eyes. +</P> + +<P> +She had sat there all day. She thought that soon she would go mad. +She had not slept since her last meeting with Robin; she had scarcely +eaten—she was too tired to think. +</P> + +<P> +The days had been interminable. At first she had waited, expecting +that he would come back. A hundred impulses had been at work. At +first she had thought that she would go and tell him that she had not +meant what she said; she would persuade him to come back, She would +offer him the letters and tell him that she had meant nothing—they had +been idle words. But then she remembered some of the things that he +had said, some of the stones that he had flung. She was not good +enough for him or his family; she had no right to expect that an +alliance was ever possible. His family despised her. And then her +thoughts turned from Robin to his family. She had seen Clare often +enough and had always disliked her. But now she hated her so that she +could have gladly killed her. It was at her door that she laid all the +change in Robin and her own misery. She felt that she would do +anything in the world to cause her pain. She brooded over it in the +shabby little room with her face turned to the sea. How could she hurt +her? There were the others, too—the rest of the family—all except +Robin's father, who was, she felt instinctively, different. She +thought that he would not have acted in that way. And then her +thoughts turned back to Robin, and for a moment she fancied that she +hated him, and then she knew that she still loved him—and she stared +at the grey sea with misery in her heart and a dull, sombre confusion +in her brain. No, she did not hate Robin, she did not really want to +hurt him. How could she, when they had had those wonderful months +together? Those months that seemed such centuries and centuries away. +But, nevertheless, she kept the letters. Her mother had talked about +them, had advised her to keep them. She did not mean to do anything +very definite with them—she could not look ahead very far—but she +would keep them for a little. +</P> + +<P> +When she had seen Robin's handwriting again it had been almost more +than she could bear. For some time she had been unable to tear open +the envelope and speculated, confusedly, on the contents. Perhaps he +had repented. She judged him by her own days and nights of utter +misery and knew that, had it been herself, they would have driven her +back crying to his feet. Perhaps it was to ask for another interview. +That she would refuse. She felt that she could not endure another such +meeting as their last; if he were to come to her without warning, to +surprise her suddenly—her heart beat furiously at the thought; but the +deliberate meeting merely for the purpose of his own advantage—no! +</P> + +<P> +She opened the letter, read the cold lines, and knew that it was +utterly the end. She had fancied, at their last meeting, that her +love, like a bird shot through the heart, had fallen at his feet, dead; +then, after those days of his absence, his figure had grown in her +sight, glorified, resplendent, and love had revived again—now, with +this letter she knew that it was over. She did not cry, she scarcely +moved. She watched the sea, with the letter on her lap, and felt that +a new Dahlia Feverel, a woman who would traffic no longer with +sentiment, who knew the world for what it was—a hard, merciless prison +with fiends for its gaolers—had sprung to birth. +</P> + +<P> +She replied to him and showed her mother her answer. She scarcely +listened to Mrs. Feverel's comments and went about her daily affairs, +quietly, without confusion. She saw herself and Robin like figures in +a play—she applauded the comedy and the tragedy left her unmoved. +Robin Trojan had much to answer for. +</P> + +<P> +He read her second letter with dismay. He had spent the day in +solitary confinement in his room, turning the situation round and round +in his mind, lost in a perfect labyrinth of suggested remedies, none of +which afforded him any outlet. The thought of exposure was horrible; +anything must be done to avoid that—disgrace to himself was bad +enough; to be held up for laughter before his Cambridge friends, +Randal, his London acquaintances—but disgrace to the family! That was +the awful thing! +</P> + +<P> +From his cradle this creed of the family had been taught him; he had +learnt it so thoroughly that he had grown to test everything by that +standard; it was his father's disloyalty to that creed that had roused +the son's anger—and now, behold, the son was sinning more than the +father! It was truly ironic that, three days after his attacking a +member of the family for betraying the family, he himself should be +guilty of far greater betrayal! How topsy-turvy the world seemed, and +what was to be done? +</P> + +<P> +The brevity and conciseness of Dahlia's last letter left him in no +doubt as to her intentions. Breach of Promise! The letters would be +read in court, would be printed in the newspapers for all the world to +see. With youth's easy grasping of eternity, it seemed to him that his +disgrace would be for ever. Beddoes' "Death's Jest-book" was lying +open on his knee. Wolfram's song— +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Old Adam, the carrion crow,<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 2em">The old crow of Cairo;</SPAN><BR> +He sat in the shower, and let it flow<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 1em">Under his tail and over his crest;</SPAN><BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 3em">And through every feather</SPAN><BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 3em">Leaked the wet weather;</SPAN><BR> +And the bough swung under his nest;<BR> +For his beak it was heavy with marrow.<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 1em">Is that the wind dying? Oh no;</SPAN><BR> +It's only two devils, that blow<BR> +Through a murderer's bones, to and fro,<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 2em">In the ghost's moonshine—</SPAN><BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +had always seemed to him the most madly sinister verse in English +literature. It had been read to him by Randal at Cambridge and had had +a curious fascination for him from the first. He had found that the +little bookseller at Worms had known it and had indeed claimed Beddoes +for a German—now it seemed to warn him vaguely of impending disaster. +</P> + +<P> +He did not see that he himself could act any further in the matter; she +would not see him and writing was useless. And yet to leave the matter +uncertain, waiting for the blow to fall, with no knowledge of the +movements in the other camp, was not to be thought of. He must do +something. +</P> + +<P> +The moment had arrived when advice must be taken—but from whom? His +father was out of the question. It was three days since the explosion, +and there was an armed truce. He had, in spite of himself, admired his +father's conduct during the last three days, and he was surprised to +find that it was his aunt and uncle rather than his father who had +failed to carry off the situation. He refused as yet to admit it to +himself, but the three of them, his aunt, his uncle, and himself, had +seemed almost frightened. His father was another person; stern, cold, +unfailingly polite, suddenly apparently possessed of those little +courtesies in which he had seemed before so singularly lacking. There +had been conversation of a kind at meals, and it had always been his +father who had filled awkward pauses and avoided difficult moments. +The knowledge, too, that his father would, in a few months' time, be +head of the house, was borne in upon him with new force; it might be +unpleasant, but it would not, as he had formerly fancied, be ludicrous. +A sign of his changed attitude was the fact that he rather resented +Randal's letter and wished a little that he had not taken him into his +confidence. +</P> + +<P> +Nevertheless, to ask advice of his father was impossible. He must +speak to his uncle and aunt. How hard this would be only he himself +knew. He had never in their eyes failed, in any degree, towards the +family honour. From whatever side the House might be attacked, it +would not be through him. There was nothing in his past life, they +thought, at which they would not care to look. +</P> + +<P> +He realised, too, Clare's love for him. He had known from very early +days that he counted for everything in her life; that her faith in the +family centred in his own honour and that her hopes for the family were +founded completely in his own progress—and now he must tell her this. +</P> + +<P> +He could not, he knew, have chosen a more unfortunate time. The House +had already been threatened by the conduct of the father; it was now to +totter under blows dealt by the son. The first crisis had been severe, +this would be infinitely more so. He hated himself for the first time +in his life, and, in doing so, began for the first time to realise +himself a little. +</P> + +<P> +Well, he must speak to them and ask them what was to be done, and the +sooner it was over the better. He put the Beddoes back into the shelf, +and went to the windows. It was already dark; light twinkled in the +bay, and a line of white breakers flashed and vanished, keeping time, +it seemed, with the changing gleam of the lighthouse far out to sea. +His own room was dark, save for the glow of the fire. They would be at +tea; probably his father would not be there—the present would be a +good time to choose. He pulled his courage together and went +downstairs. +</P> + +<P> +As he had expected, Garrett was having tea with Clare in her own +room—the Castle of Intimacy, as Randal had once called it. Garrett +was reading; Clare was sitting by the fire, thinking. +</P> + +<P> +"She will soon have more to think about," thought Robin wretchedly. +</P> + +<P> +She looked up as he came in. "Ah, Robin, that's splendid! I was just +going to send up for you. Come and sit here and talk to me. I've +hardly seen you to-day." +</P> + +<P> +She had been very affectionate during the last three days—rather too +affectionate, Robin thought. He liked her better when she was less +demonstrative. +</P> + +<P> +"Where have you been all the afternoon?" +</P> + +<P> +"In my room. I've been busy." +</P> + +<P> +"Tea? You don't mind it strong, do you, because it's been here a good +long time? Gingerbread cake especially for you." +</P> + +<P> +But gingerbread cake wasn't in the least attractive. Beddoes suited +him much better:— +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 1em">Is that the wind dying? Oh no;</SPAN><BR> +It's only two devils, that blow<BR> +Through a murderer's bones, to and fro,<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 1em">In the ghost's moonshine.</SPAN><BR> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +"Do you know Beddoes, aunt?" +</P> + +<P> +"No, dear. What kind of thing is it? Poetry?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. You wouldn't like it, though——only I've been reading him this +afternoon. He suited my mood." +</P> + +<P> +"Boys of your age shouldn't have moods." This from Garrett. "I never +had." +</P> + +<P> +Robin took his tea without answering, and sat down on the opposite side +of the fire to his aunt. How was he to begin? What was he to say? +There followed an awful pause—life seemed to have been full of pauses +lately. +</P> + +<P> +Clare was watching him anxiously. How had his father's outbreak +affected him? She was afraid, from little things that she had seen, +that he had been influenced. Harry had been so different those last +three days—she could not understand it. She watched him eagerly, +hungrily. Why was he not still the baby that she could take on her +knees and kiss and sentimentalise over? He, too, she fancied, had been +different during these last days. +</P> + +<P> +"More tea, Robin? You'd better—it's a long while before dinner." +</P> + +<P> +"No, thanks, aunt. I—that is—well, I've something I wanted to say." +</P> + +<P> +He turned round in his chair and faced the fire. He would rather not +look at her whilst he was speaking. Garrett put down his book and +looked up. Was there going to be more worry? What had happened lately +to the world? It seemed to have lost all proper respect for the Trojan +position. He could not understand it. Clare drew her breath sharply. +Her fears thronged about her, like shadows in the firelight—what was +it? ... Was it Harry? +</P> + +<P> +"What about, Robin? Is anything the matter?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, no—nothing really—it's only—that is—Oh, dash it all—it's +awfully difficult." +</P> + +<P> +There was another silence. The ticking of the clock drove Robin into +further speech. +</P> + +<P> +"Well—I've made a bit of a mess. I've been rather a fool and I want +your advice." +</P> + +<P> +Another pause, but no assistance save a cold "Well?" from Garrett. +</P> + +<P> +"You see it was at Cambridge, last summer. I was an awful fool, I +know, but I really didn't know how far it was going until—well, until +afterwards——" +</P> + +<P> +"Until—after what?" said Garrett. "Would you mind being a little +clearer, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, it was a girl." Robin stopped. It sounded so horrible, spoken +like that in cold blood. He did not dare to look at his aunt, but he +wondered what her face was like. He pulled desperately at his tie, and +hurried on. "Nothing very bad, you know. I meant, at first, anyhow—I +met her at another man's—Grant of Clare—quite a good chap, and he +gave a picnic—canaders and things up the river. We had a jolly +afternoon and she seemed awfully nice and—her mother wasn't there. +Then—after that—I saw a lot of her. Every one does at Cambridge—I +mean see girls and all that kind of thing—and I didn't think anything +of it—and she really <I>seemed</I> awfully nice then. There isn't much to +do at Cambridge, except that sort of thing—really. Then, after term, +I came down here, and I began to write. I'm afraid I was a bit silly, +but I didn't know it then, and I used to write her letters pretty +often, and she answered them. And—well, you know the sort of thing, +Uncle Garrett—I thought I loved her——" +</P> + +<P> +At this climax, Robin came to a pause, and hoped that they would help +him, but they said no word until, at last, Garrett said impatiently, +"Go on." +</P> + +<P> +"Well," continued Robin desperately, "that's really all—" knowing, +however, that he had not yet arrived at the point of the story. +"She—and her mother—came down to live here—and then, somehow, I +didn't like her quite so much. It seemed different down here, and her +mother was horrid. I began to see it differently, and at last, one +night, I told her so. Of course, I thought, naturally, that she would +understand. But she didn't—her mother was horrid—and she made a +scene—it was all very unpleasant." Robin was dragging his +handkerchief between his fingers, and looking imploringly at the fire. +"Then I went and saw her again and asked her for—my letters—she said +she'd keep them—and I'm afraid she may use them—and—well, that's +all," he finished lamely. +</P> + +<P> +He thought that hours of terrible silence followed his speech. He sat +motionless in his chair waiting for their words. He was rather glad +now that he had spoken. It had been a relief to unburden himself; for +so many days he had only had his own thoughts and suggestions to apply +to the situation. But he was afraid to look at his aunt. +</P> + +<P> +"You young fool," at last from Garrett. "Who is the girl?" +</P> + +<P> +"A Miss Feverel—she lives with her mother at Sea view Terrace—there +is no father." +</P> + +<P> +"Miss Feverel? What! That girl! You wrote to her! You——" +</P> + +<P> +At last his aunt had spoken. He had never heard her speak like that +before—the "You!" was a cry of horror. She suddenly got up and went +over to him. She bent over him where he sat, with head lowered, and +shook him by the shoulder. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin! It can't be true—you haven't written to that girl! Not +love-letters! It is incredible!" +</P> + +<P> +"It is true—" he said, looking up. "Don't look at me like that, Aunt +Clare. It isn't so bad—other fellows——" but then he was ashamed and +stopped. He would leave his defence alone. +</P> + +<P> +"Is that all?" said Garrett. "All you have done, I mean? You haven't +injured the girl?" +</P> + +<P> +"I swear that's all," Robin said eagerly. "I meant no harm by it. I +wrote the letters without thinking I——" +</P> + +<P> +Clare stood leaning on the mantelpiece, her head between her hands. +</P> + +<P> +"I can't understand it. I can't understand it," she said. "It isn't +like you—not a bit. That girl and you—why, it's incredible!" +</P> + +<P> +"That's only because you had your fancy idea of him, Clare," said +Garrett. "We'd better pass the lamentation stage and decide what's to +be done." +</P> + +<P> +For once Garrett seemed practical; he was pleased with himself for +being so. It had suddenly occurred to him that he was the only person +who could really deal with the situation. Clare was a woman, Harry was +out of the question, Robin was a boy. +</P> + +<P> +"Have you spoken to your father?" he asked. +</P> + +<P> +"No. Of course not!" Robin answered, rather fiercely. "How could I?" +</P> + +<P> +Clare went back to her chair. "That girl! But, Robin, she's +plain—quite—and her manners, her mother—everything impossible!" +</P> + +<P> +It was still incredible that Robin, the work of her hands as it were, +into whom she had poured all things that were lovely and of good +report, could have made love to an ordinary girl of the middle +classes—a vulgar girl with a still more vulgar mother. +</P> + +<P> +But in spite of her vulgarity she was jealous of her. "You don't care +for her any longer, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +"Now?—oh no—not for a long time—I don't think I ever did really. I +can't think how I was ever such a fool." +</P> + +<P> +"She still threatens Breach of Promise," said Garrett, whose mind was +slowly working as to the best means of proving his practical utility. +"That's the point, of course. That the letters are there and that we +have got to get them back. What kind of letters were they? Did you +actually give her hopes?" +</P> + +<P> +Robin blushed. "Yes, I'm afraid I did—as well as I can remember, and +judging by her answers. I said the usual sort of things——" He +paused. It was best, he felt, to leave it vague. +</P> + +<P> +But Clare had scarcely arrived at the danger of it yet—the danger to +the House. Her present thought was of Robin; that she must alter her +feelings about him, take him from his pedestal—a Trojan who could make +love to any kind of girl! +</P> + +<P> +"I can't think of it now," she said; "it's confusing. We must see +what's to be done. We'll talk about it some other time. It's hard to +see just at present." +</P> + +<P> +Garrett looked puzzled. "It's a bit of a mess," he said. "But we'll +see——" and left the room with an air of importance. +</P> + +<P> +Robin turned to go, and then walked over to his aunt, and put his hand +on her sleeve. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't think me such a rotter," he said. "I am awfully sorry—it's +about you that I care most—but I've learnt a lesson; I'll never do +anything like that again." +</P> + +<P> +She smiled up at him, and took his hand in hers. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, old boy, no. Of course I was a little surprised. But I don't +mind very much if you care for me in the same way. That's all I have, +Robin—your caring; and I don't think it matters very much what you do, +if I still have that." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course you have," he said, and bent down and kissed her. Then he +left the room. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap09"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER IX +</H3> + +<P> +"I'm worse to-day," said Sir Jeremy, looking at Harry, "and I'll be off +under a month." +</P> + +<P> +He seemed rather pathetic—the brave look had gone from his eyes, and +his face and hands were more shrivelled than ever. He gave the +impression of cowering in bed as though wishing to avoid a blow. Harry +was with him continually now, and the old man was never happy if his +son was not there. He rambled at times and fancied himself back in his +youth again. Harry had found his father's room a refuge from the +family, and he sat, hour after hour, watching the old man asleep, +thinking of his own succession and puzzling over the hopeless tangle +that seemed to surround him. How to get out of it! He had no longer +any thought of turning his back; he had gone too far for that, and they +would think it cowardice, but things couldn't remain as they were. +What would come out of it? +</P> + +<P> +He had, as Robin had said, changed. The effect of the explosion had +been to reveal in him qualities whose very existence he had formerly +never expected. He even found, strangely enough, a kind of joy in the +affair. It was like playing a game. He had made, he felt, the right +move and was in the stronger position. In earlier days he had never +been able to quarrel with any one. Whenever such a thing had happened, +he had been the first to make overtures; he hated the idea of an enemy, +his happiness depended on his friends, and sometimes now, when he saw +his own people's hostility, he was near surrender. But the memory of +his sister's words had held him firm, and now he was beginning to feel +in tune with the situation. +</P> + +<P> +He watched Robin furtively at times and wondered how he was taking it +all. Sometimes he fancied that he caught glances that pointed to +Robin's own desire to see how <I>he</I> was taking it. Once they had passed +on the stairs, and for a moment they had both paused as though they +would speak. It had been all Harry could do to restrain himself from +flinging his arms on to his son's shoulders and shaking him for a fool +and then forcing him into surrender, but he had held himself back, and +they had passed on without a word. +</P> + +<P> +After all, what children they all were! That's what it came +to—children playing a game that they did not understand! +</P> + +<P> +"I wish it would end," said Sir Jeremy; "I'm getting damned sick of it. +Why can't he take you out straight away, and be done with it? Do you +know, Harry, my boy, I think I'm frightened. It's lying here thinking +of it. I never had much imagination—it isn't a Trojan habit, but it +grows on one. I fancy—well, what's the use o' talking?" and he sank +back into his pillows again. +</P> + +<P> +The room was dark save for the leaping light of the fire. It was +almost time to dress for dinner, but Harry sat there, forgetting time +and place in the unchanging question, How would it all work out? +</P> + +<P> +"By Gad, it's Tom! Hullo, old man, I was just thinking of you. Comin' +round to Horrocks' to-night for a game? Supper at Galiani's—but it's +damned cold. I don't know where that sun's got to. I've been +wandering up and down the street all day and I can't find the place. +I've forgotten the number—I can't remember whether it was 23 or 33, +and I keep getting into that passage. There I am again! Bring a +light, old man—it's so dark. What's that? Who's there? Can't you +answer? Darn you, come out, you——" He sat up in bed, quivering all +over. Harry put his hand on his arm. +</P> + +<P> +"It's all right, father," he said. "No one's here—only myself." +</P> + +<P> +"Ugh! I was dreaming—" he answered, lying down again. "Let's have +some light—not that electric glare. Candles!" +</P> + +<P> +Harry was sitting in the corner by the bed away from the fire. He was +about to rise and move the candles into a clump on the mantelpiece when +there was a tap on the door and some one came in. It was Robin. +</P> + +<P> +"Grandfather, are you awake? Aunt Clare told me to look in on my way +up to dress and see if you wanted anything?" +</P> + +<P> +The firelight was on his face. He looked very young as he stood there +by the bed. His face was flushed in the light of the fire. Harry's +heart beat furiously, but he made no movement and said no word. +</P> + +<P> +Robin bent over the bed to catch his grandfather's answer, and he saw +his father. +</P> + +<P> +"I beg your pardon." he stammered. "I didn't know——" He waited for +a moment as though he were going to say something, or expected his +father to speak. Then he turned and left the room. +</P> + +<P> +"Let's have the candles," said Sir Jeremy, as though he had not noticed +the interruption, and Harry lit them. +</P> + +<P> +The old man sank off to sleep again, and Harry fell back into his own +gloomy thoughts once more. They were always meeting like that, and on +each occasion there was need for the same severe self-control. He had +to remind himself continually of their treatment of him, of Robin's +coldness and reserve. At times he cursed himself for a fool, and then +again it seemed the only way out of the labyrinth. +</P> + +<P> +His love for his son had changed its character. He had no longer that +desire for equality of which he had made, at first, so much. No, the +two generations could never see in line; he must not expect that. But +he thought of Robin as a boy—as a boy who had made blunders and would +make others again, and would at last turn to his father as the only +person who could help him. He had fancied once or twice that he had +already begun to turn. +</P> + +<P> +Well, he would be there if Robin wanted him. He had decided to speak +to Mary about it. Her clear common-sense point of view seemed to +drive, like the sun, through the mists of his obscurity; she always saw +straight through things—never round them—and her practical mind +arrived at a quicker solution than was possible for his rather +romantic, quixotic sentiment. +</P> + +<P> +"You are too fond of discerning pleasant motives," she had once said to +him. "I daresay they are all right, but it takes such a time to see +them." +</P> + +<P> +He had not seen her since the outbreak, and he was rather anxious as to +her opinion; but the main thing was to be with her. Since last Sunday +he had been, he confessed to himself, absurd. He had behaved more in +the manner of a boy of nineteen than a middle-aged widower of +forty-five. He had been suddenly afraid of the Bethels—going to tea +had seemed such an obvious advance on his part that he had shrunk from +it, and he had even avoided Bethel lest that gentleman should imagine +that he was on the edge of a proposal for his daughter's hand. He +thought that all the world must know of it, and he blushed like a girl +at the thought of its being laid bare for Pendragon to laugh and gibe +it. It was so precious, so wonderful, that he kept it, like a rich +piece of jewellery, deep in a secret drawer, over which he watched +delightedly, almost humorously, secure in the delicious knowledge that +he alone had the key. He wandered out at night, like a foolish +schoolboy, to watch the lamp in her room—that dull circle of golden +light against the blind seemed to draw him with it into the intimacy +and security of her room. +</P> + +<P> +On one of his solitary afternoon walks he suddenly came upon her. He +had gone, as he so often did, over the moor to the Four Stones; he +chose that place partly because of the Stones themselves and partly +because of the wonderful view. It seemed to him that the whole heart +of Cornwall—its mystery, its eternal sameness, its rejection of +everything that was modern and ephemeral, the pathos of old deserted +altars and past gods searching for their old-time worshippers—was +centred there. +</P> + +<P> +The Stones themselves stood on the hill, against the sky, gaunt, grey, +menacing, a landmark for all the country-side. The moor ran here into +a valley between two lines of hill, a cup bounded on three sides by the +hills and on the fourth by the sea. In the spring it flamed, a bowl of +fire, with the gorse; now it stood grim and naked to all the winds, +blue in the distant hills, a deep red to the right, where the plough +had been, brown and grey on the moor itself running down to the sea. +</P> + +<P> +It was full of deserted things, as is ever the way with the true +Cornwall. On the hill were the Stones sharp against the sky-line; +lower down, in a bend of the valley, stood the ruins of a mine, the +shaft and chimney, desolately solitary, looking like the pillars of +some ancient temple that had been fashioned by uncouth worshippers. In +the valley itself stood the stones of what was once a chapel—built, +perhaps, for the men of the desolate mine, inhabited now by rabbits and +birds, its windows spaces where the winds that swept the moor could +play their eternal, restless games. +</P> + +<P> +On a day of clouds there was no colour on the moor, but when the sun +was out great bands of light swept its surface, playing on the Stones +and changing them to marble, striking colour from the mine and filling +the chapel with gold. But the sun did not reach that valley on many +days when the rest of the world was alight—it was as if it respected +the loneliness of its monuments and the pathos of them. +</P> + +<P> +Harry sat on the side of the hill, below the Stones, and watched the +sea. At times a mist came and hid it; on sunny days, when the sky was +intensely blue, there hung a dazzling haze like a golden veil and he +could only tell that the sea was there by the sudden gleam of tiny +white horses, flashing for a moment on the mirror of blue and shining +through the haze; sometimes a gull swerved through the air above his +head as though a wave had lost its bounds and, for sheer joy of the +beautiful day, had flung itself tossing and wheeling into the air. +</P> + +<P> +But to-day was a day of wind and rapidly sailing clouds, and myriads of +white horses curved and tossed and vanished over the shifting colours +of the sea; there were wonderful shadows of dark blue and purple and +green of such depth that they seemed unfathomable. +</P> + +<P> +Suddenly he saw Mary coming towards him. A scarf—green like the green +of the sea—was tied round her hat and under her chin and floated +behind her. Her dress was blown against her body, and she walked as +though she loved the battling with the wind. Her face was flushed with +the struggle, and she had come up to him before she saw that he was +there. +</P> + +<P> +"Now, that's luck," she said, laughing, as she sat down beside him; +"I've been wanting to see you ever since yesterday afternoon, but you +seemed to have hidden yourself. It doesn't sound a very long time, +does it? But I've something to tell you—rather important." +</P> + +<P> +"What?" He looked at her and suddenly laughed. "What a splendid place +for us to meet—its solitude is almost unreal." +</P> + +<P> +"As to solitude," she said calmly, pointing down the valley. "There's +Tracy Corridor; it will be all over the Club to-night—he's been +watching us for some time"; a long thin youth, his head turned in their +direction, had passed down the footpath towards its ruined chapel, and +was rapidly vanishing in the direction of Pendragon. +</P> + +<P> +"Well—let them," said Harry, shrugging his shoulders. "You don't +mind, do you?" +</P> + +<P> +"Not a bit," she answered lightly. "They've discussed the Bethel +family so frequently and with such vigour that a little more or less +makes no difference whatsoever. Pendragon taboo! we won't dishonour +the sea by such a discussion in its sacred presence." +</P> + +<P> +"What do you want to tell me?" he asked, watching delightedly the +colour of her face, the stray curls that the wind dragged from +discipline and played games with, the curve of her wrist as her hand +lay idly in her lap. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, it'll keep," she said quickly. "Never mind just yet. Tell me +about yourself—what's happened?" +</P> + +<P> +"How did you know that anything had?" he asked. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, one can tell," she answered. "Besides, I have felt sure that it +would, things couldn't go on just as they were——" she paused a moment +and then added seriously, "I hope you don't mind my asking? It seems a +little impertinent—but that was part of the compact, wasn't it?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, of course," he said. +</P> + +<P> +"Because, you know," she went on, "it's really rather absurd. I'm only +twenty-six, and you're—oh! I don't know <I>how</I> old!—anyhow an elderly +widower with a grown-up son; but I'm every bit as old as you are, +really. And I'm sure I shall give you lots of good advice, because +you've no idea what a truly practical person I am. Only sometimes +lately I've wondered whether you've been a little surprised at my—our +flinging ourselves into your arms as we have done. It's like +father—he always goes the whole way in the first minute; but it isn't, +or at any rate it oughtn't to be, like me!" +</P> + +<P> +"You are," he said quietly, "the best friend I have in the world. How +much that means to me I will tell you one day." +</P> + +<P> +"That's right," she said gaily, settling herself down with her hands +folded behind her head. "Now for the situation. I'm all attention." +</P> + +<P> +"Well," he answered, "the situation is simple enough—it's the next +move that's puzzling me. There was, four days ago, an explosion—it +was after breakfast—a family council—and I was in a minority of one. +I was accused of a good many things—going down to the Cove, paying no +attention to the Miss Ponsonbys, and so on. They attacked me as I +thought unfairly, and I lost control—on the whole, I am sure, wisely. +I wasn't very rude, but I said quite plainly that I should go my own +way in the future and would be dictated to by no one. At any rate they +understand that." +</P> + +<P> +"And now?" +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, now—well—it's as you would expect. We are quite polite but +hostile. Robin and I don't speak. The new game—Father and Son; or +how to cut your nearest relations with expedition and security." He +laughed bitterly. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I should like to shake him!" she cried, sitting up and flinging +her arms wide, as though she were saluting the sea. "He doesn't know, +he doesn't understand! Neither himself nor any one else. Oh, I will +talk to him some day! But, do you know," she said, turning round to +him, "it's been largely your fault from the beginning." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I know," he answered. "If I had only seen then what I see now. +But how could I? How could I tell? But I always have been that kind +of man, all my days—finding out things when it's too late and wanting +to mend things that are hopelessly broken. And then I have always been +impulsive and enthusiastic about people. When I meet them first, I +mean, I like them and credit them with all the virtues, and then, of +course, there is an awakening. Oh, you don't know," he said, with a +little laugh, "how enthusiastic I was when I first came back." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, I do," she answered; "that was one of the reasons I took to you." +</P> + +<P> +"But it isn't right," he said, shaking his head. "I've always been +like that. It's been the same with my friendships. I've rated them +too highly. I've expected everything and then cried like a child +because I've been disappointed. I can see now not only the folly of +it, but the weakness. It is, I suppose, a mistake, caring too much for +other people, one loses one's self-respect." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she said, staring out to sea, "it's quite true—one does. The +world's too hard; it doesn't give one credit for fine feelings—it +takes a short cut and thinks one a fool." +</P> + +<P> +"But the worst of it is," he went on ruefully, "that I never feel any +older. I have those enthusiasms and that romance in the same way now +at forty-five—just as I did at nineteen. I never could bear +quarrelling with anybody. I used to go and apologise even when it +wasn't my fault—so that, you see, the present situation is difficult." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, but you must keep your end up," she broke in quickly. "It's the +only way—don't give in. Robin is just like that. He is self-centred, +all shams now, and when he sees that you are taken in by them, just as +he is himself, he despises you. But when he sees you laugh at them or +cut them down, then he respects you. I'm the only person, I think, +that knows him really here. The others haven't grasped him at all." +</P> + +<P> +"My father grows worse every day," Harry went on, as though pursuing +his own train of thought. "He can't last much longer, and when he goes +I shall miss him terribly. We have understood each other during this +fortnight as we never did in all those early years. Sometimes I funk +it utterly—following him with all of them against me." +</P> + +<P> +"Why, no," she cried. "It's splendid. You are in power. They can do +nothing, and Robin will come round when he sees how you face it out. +Why, I expect that he's coming already. I've faced things out here all +these years, and you dare to say that you can't stand a few months of +it." +</P> + +<P> +"What have you faced?" he asked. "Tell me exactly. I want to know all +about you; you've never told me very much, and it's only fair that I +should know." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she said gravely, "it is—well, you shall!—at least a part of +it. A woman always keeps a little back," she said, looking at him with +a smile. "As soon as she ceases to be a puzzle she ceases to interest." +</P> + +<P> +She turned and watched the sea. Then, after a moment's pause, she said: +</P> + +<P> +"What do you want to know? I can only give you bits of things—when, +for instance, I ran away from my nurse, aged five, was picked up by an +applewoman with a green umbrella who introduced me to three old ladies +with black pipes and moustaches—I was found in a coal cellar. Then we +lived in Bloomsbury—a little house looking out on to a little green +park—all in miniature it seems on looking back. I don't think that I +was a very good child, but they didn't look after me very much. Mother +was always out, and father in business. Fancy," she said, laughing, +"father in business! We were happy then, I think, all of us. Then +came the terrible time when father ran away." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, yes," Harry said, "he told me." +</P> + +<P> +"Poor mother! it was quite dreadful; I was only eight then, and I +didn't understand. But she sat up all night waiting for him. She was +persuaded that he was killed, and she was very ill. You see he had +never left any word as to where he was. And then he suddenly turned up +again, and ate an enormous breakfast, as though nothing had happened. +I don't think he realised a bit that she had worried. +</P> + +<P> +"It was so like him, the naked selfishness of it and the utter +unresponsibility, as of a child. +</P> + +<P> +"Then I went to school—in Bloomsbury somewhere. It was a Miss Pinker, +and she was interested in me. Poor thing, her school failed +afterwards. I don't know quite why, but she never could manage, and I +don't think parents ever paid her. I had great ideas of myself then; I +thought that I would be great, an actress or a novelist, but I got rid +of all that soon enough. I was happy; we had friends, and luxuries +were rare enough to make them valuable. Then—we came down here—this +sea, this town, this moor—Oh! how I hate them!" +</P> + +<P> +Her hands were clenched and her face was white. "It isn't fair; they +have taken everything from me—leisure, brain, friends. I have had to +slave ever since I came here to make both ends meet. Ah! you never +knew that, did you? But father has never done a stroke of work since +he has been here, and mother has never been the same since that night +when he ran away; so I've had it all—and it has been scrape, scrape, +scrape all the time. You don't know the tyranny of butter and eggs and +vegetables, the perpetual struggle to turn twice two into five, the +unending worry about keeping up appearances—although, for us, it +mattered precious little, people never came to see if appearances were +kept. +</P> + +<P> +"They called at first; I think they meant to be kind, but father was +sometimes rude and never seemed to know whether he had met a person +before or no. Then he was idle, they thought, and they disliked him +for that. We gave some little parties, but they failed miserably, and +at last people always refused. And, really, it was rather a good +thing, because we hadn't got the money. I suppose I'm a bad manager; +at any rate, whatever it is, things have been getting worse and worse, +and one day soon there'll be an explosion, and that will be the end. +We're up to our eyes in debt. I try to talk to father about it, but he +waves it away with his hand. They have, neither of them, the least +idea of money. You see, father doesn't need very much himself, except +for buying books. He had ten pounds last week—housekeeping money to +be given to me; he saw an edition of something that he wanted, and the +money was gone. We've been living on cabbages ever since. That's the +kind of thing that's always happening. I wanted to talk to him about +things this morning, but he said that he had an important engagement. +Now he's out on the moor somewhere flying his kite——" +</P> + +<P> +She was leaning forward, her chin on her hand, staring out to sea. +</P> + +<P> +"It takes the beans out of life, doesn't it?" she said, laughing. "You +must think me rather a poor thing for complaining like this, only it +does some good sometimes to get rid of it, and really at times I'm +frightened when I think of the end, the disgrace. If we are proclaimed +bankrupts it will kill mother. Father, of course, will soon get over +it." +</P> + +<P> +"I say—I'm so sorry." Harry scarcely knew what to say. She was not +asking for sympathy; he saw precisely her position—that she was too +proud to ask for his help, but that she must speak. No, sympathy was +not what she wanted. He suddenly hated Bethel—the selfishness of it, +the hopeless egotism. It was, Harry decided, the fools and not the +villains who spoilt life. +</P> + +<P> +"I want you to do me a favour," he said. "I want you to promise me +that, before the end actually comes, if it is going to come, you will +ask me to help you. I won't offer to do anything now—I will stand +aside until you want me; but you won't be proud if it comes to the +worst, will you? Do you promise? You see," he added, trying to laugh +lightly, "we are chums." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she answered quietly, "I promise. Here's my hand on it." +</P> + +<P> +As he took her hand in his it was all he could do to hold himself back. +A great wave of passion seized him, his body trembled from head to +foot, and he grew very white. He was crying, "I love you, I love you, +I love you," but he kept the words from his lips—he would not speak +yet. +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you," was all that he said, and he stood up to hide his +agitation. +</P> + +<P> +For a little they did not speak. They both felt that, in that moment, +they had touched on things that were too sacred for speech; he seemed +so strong, so splendid in her eyes, as he stood there, facing the sea, +that she was suddenly afraid. +</P> + +<P> +"Let us go back," she said. They turned down the crooked path towards +the ruined chapel. +</P> + +<P> +"What was the news that you had for me?" he asked suddenly. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, of course," she answered; "I meant to have told you before." +Then, more gravely, "It's about Robin——" +</P> + +<P> +"About Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. I don't know really whether I ought to tell you, because, after +all, it's only chatter and mother never gets stories right—she manages +to twist them into the most amazing shapes." +</P> + +<P> +"No. Tell me," he insisted. +</P> + +<P> +"Well—there's a person whom mother knows—Mrs. Feverel. Odious to my +mind, but mother sees something of her." +</P> + +<P> +"A lady?" +</P> + +<P> +"No—by no means; a gloomy, forbidding person who would like to get a +footing here if she could, and is discontented because people won't +know her. You see," she added, "we can only know the people that other +people don't know. This Mrs. Feverel has a daughter—rather a pretty +girl, about eighteen—I should think she might be rather nice. I am a +little sorry for her—there isn't a father. +</P> + +<P> +"Well—these people have, in some way, entangled Robin. I don't quite +know the right side of it, but mother was having tea with Mrs. Feverel +yesterday afternoon and that good woman hinted a great deal at the +power that she now had over your family. For some time she was +mysterious, but at last she unburdened herself. +</P> + +<P> +"Apparently, Master Robin had been making advances to the girl in the +summer, and now wants to back out of it. He had, I gather, written +letters, and it was to these that Mrs. Feverel was referring——" +</P> + +<P> +Harry drew a long breath. "I'm damned," he said. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, of course, I don't know," she went on; "you see, it may have been +garbled. Mrs. Feverel is, I should think, just the person to hint +suspicions for which there's no ground at all. Only it won't do if +she's going to whisper to every one in Pendragon—I thought you ought +to be warned——" +</P> + +<P> +Harry was thinking hard. "The young fool," he said. "But it's just +what I've been wanting. This is just where I can come in. I knew +something has been worrying him lately. I could see it. I believe +he's been in two minds as to telling me—only he's been too proud. +But, of course, he will have to tell some one. A youngster like that +is no match for a girl and her mother of the class these people seem to +be. He will confide in his aunt—" He stopped and burst into +uncontrollable laughter. "Oh! The humour of it—don't you see? +They'll be terrified—it will threaten the honour of the House. They +will all go running round to get the letters back; that girl will have +a good time—and that, of course, is just where I come in." +</P> + +<P> +"I don't see," said Mary. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, it's just what I've been watching for. Harry Trojan +arrives—Harry Trojan is no good—Harry Trojan is despised—but +suddenly he holds the key to the situation. Presto! The family on +their knees——" +</P> + +<P> +Mary looked at him in astonishment. It was, she thought, unlike him to +exult like this over the misfortunes of his sister; she was a little +disappointed. "It is really rather serious," she said, "for your +sister, I mean. You know what Pendragon is. If they once get wind of +the affair there will be a great deal of talk." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, yes!" he said gravely. "You mustn't think me a brute for laughing +like that. But I'm thinking of Robin. If you knew how I cared for the +boy—what this means. Why, it brings him to my feet—if I carry the +thing out properly." Then quickly, "You don't think they've got back +the letters already?" +</P> + +<P> +"They haven't had time—unless they've gone to-day. Besides, the +girl's not likely to give them up easily. But, of course, I don't +really know if that's how the case lies—mother's account was very +confused. Only I am certain that Mrs. Feverel thinks she has a pull +somewhere; and she said something about letters." +</P> + +<P> +"I will go at once," Harry said, walking quickly. "I can never be +grateful enough to you. Where do they live?" +</P> + +<P> +"10 Seaview Terrace," she answered. "A little dingy street past the +church and Breadwater Place—it faces the sea." +</P> + +<P> +"And the girl—what is she like?" +</P> + +<P> +"I've only seen her about twice. I should say tall, thin, dark—rather +wonderful eyes in a very pale face; dresses rather well in an aesthetic +kind of way." +</P> + +<P> +He said very little more, and she did not interrupt his thoughts. She +was surprised to find that she was a little jealous of Robin, the +interest in her own affairs had been very sweet to her, the remembrance +of it now sent the blood to her cheeks, but this news seemed to have +driven his thought for her entirely out of his head. +</P> + +<P> +Suddenly, at the bend of the little lane leading up to the town, they +came upon her father, flying a huge blue kite. The kite soared above +his head; he watched it, his body bent back, his arm straining at the +cord. He saw them and pulled it in. +</P> + +<P> +"Hullo! Trojan, how are you? You ought to do this. It's the most +splendid fun—you've no idea. This wind is glorious. I shan't be home +till dark, Mary——" and they left him, laughing like a boy. She gave +him further directions as to the house, and they parted. She felt a +little lonely as she watched him hurrying down the street. He seemed +to have forgotten her completely. "Mary Bethel, you're a selfish pig," +she said, as she climbed the stairs to her room. "Of course, he cares +more about his son—why not?" But nevertheless she sighed, and then +went down to make tea for her mother, who was tired and on the verge of +tears. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap10"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER X +</H3> + +<P> +As he passed through the town all his thoughts were of his splendid +fortune. This was the very thing for which he had been hoping, the key +to all his difficulties. +</P> + +<P> +The dusk was creeping down the streets. A silver star hung over the +roofs silhouetted black against the faint blue of the night sky. The +lamps seemed to wage war with the departing daylight; the after-glow of +the setting sun fluttered valiantly for a little, and then, yielding +its place to the stronger golden circles stretching like hanging moons +down the street, vanished. +</P> + +<P> +The shops were closing. Worthley's Hosiery was putting up the shutters +and a boy stood in the doorway, yawning; there had been a sale and the +shop was tired. Midgett's Bookshop at the corner of the High Street +was still open and an old man with spectacles and a flowing beard stood +poring over the odd-lot box at 2d. a volume by the door. +</P> + +<P> +The young man who advised ladies as to the purchase of six-shilling +novels waited impatiently. He had hoped to be off by six to-night. He +had an appointment at seven—and now this old man.... "We close at +six, sir," he said. But the old gentleman did not hear. He bent lower +and lower until his beard almost swept the pavement. Harry passed on. +</P> + +<P> +All these things passed like shadows before Harry; he noticed them, but +they fitted into the pattern of his thoughts, forming a frame round his +great central idea—that at last he had his chance. +</P> + +<P> +There was no fear in his mind that he would not get the letters. There +was, of course, the chance that Clare had been before him, but then, as +Mary had said, she had scarcely had time, and it was not likely that +the girl would give them up easily. It was just possible, too, that +the whole affair was a mistake, that Mrs. Feverel had merely boasted +for the sake of impressing old Mrs. Bethel, that there was little or +nothing behind it, but that was unlikely. +</P> + +<P> +He had formed no definite decision as to the method of his attack; he +must wait and see how the land lay. A great deal depended on the +presence of the mother—the girl, too, might be so many different +things; he was not even certain of her age. If there was nothing in +it, he would look a fool, but he must risk that. A wild idea came into +his head that he might, perhaps, find Clare there—that would be +amusing. He imagined them bidding for the letters, and that brought +him to the point that money would be necessary—well, he was ready to +pay a good deal, for it was Robin for whom he was bidding. +</P> + +<P> +He found the street without any difficulty. Its dinginess was obvious, +and now, with a little wind whistling round its corners and whirling +eddies of dust in the road, its three lamps at long distances down the +street, the monotonous beat of the sea beyond the walls, it was +depressing and sad. +</P> + +<P> +It reminded him of the street in Auckland where he had heard the +strange voice; it was just such another moment now—the silence bred +expectancy and the sea was menacing. +</P> + +<P> +"I shall get the shivers if I don't move," he said, and rang the bell. +</P> + +<P> +The slatternly servant that he had expected to see answered the bell, +and the tap-tap of her down-at-heels slippers sounded along the passage +as she departed to see if Mrs. Feverel would see him. +</P> + +<P> +He waited in the draughty hall; it was so dark that coats and hats +loomed, ghostly shapes, by the farther wall. A door opened, there was +sound of voices—a moment's pause, then the door closed and the maid +appeared at the head of the stairs. +</P> + +<P> +"The missis says you can come up," she said ungraciously. +</P> + +<P> +She eyed him curiously as he passed her, and scented drama in the set +of his shoulders and the twitch of his fingers. +</P> + +<P> +"A military!" she concluded, and tap-tapped down again into the kitchen. +</P> + +<P> +A low fire was burning in the grate and the blind napped against the +window. The draught blew the everlastings on the mantelpiece together +with a little dry, dusty sound like the rustle of a breeze in dried +twigs. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Feverel sat bending over the fire, and he thought as he saw her +that it would need a very great fire indeed to put any warmth into her. +Her black hair, parted in the middle, was bound back tightly over her +head and confined by a net. +</P> + +<P> +She shook hands with him solemnly, and then waited as though she +expected an explanation. +</P> + +<P> +Harry smiled. "I'm afraid, Mrs. Feverel," he said, "that you may think +this extraordinary. I can only offer as apology your acquaintance with +my son." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah yes—Mr. Robert Trojan." +</P> + +<P> +Her mouth closed with a snap and she waited, with her hands folded on +her lap, for him to say something further. +</P> + +<P> +"You knew him, I think, at Cambridge in the summer?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, my daughter and I were there in the summer." +</P> + +<P> +Harry paused. It would be harder than he expected, and where was the +daughter? +</P> + +<P> +"Cambridge is very pleasant in the summer?" he asked, his resolution +weakening rapidly before her impassivity. +</P> + +<P> +"My daughter and I found it so. But, of course, it depends——" +</P> + +<P> +It depended, he reflected, on such people as his son—boys whom they +could cheat at their ease. He had no doubt at all now that the mother +was an adventuress of the common, melodrama type. He suspected the +girl of being the same. It made things in some ways much simpler, +because money would, probably, settle everything; there would be no +question of fine feelings. He knew exactly how to deal with such +women, he had known them in New Zealand; but he was amused as he +contemplated Clare's certain failure—such a woman was entirely outside +her experience. +</P> + +<P> +He came to the point at once. +</P> + +<P> +"My being here is easily explained. I learn, Mrs. Feverel, that my son +formed an attachment for your daughter during last summer. He wrote +some letters now in your daughter's possession. His family are +naturally anxious that those letters should be returned. I have come +to see what can be done about the matter." He paused—but she said +nothing, and remained motionless by the fire. +</P> + +<P> +"Perhaps," he said slowly, "you would prefer, Mrs. Feverel, to name a +possible price yourself?" +</P> + +<P> +Afterwards, on looking back, he felt that his expectations had been +perfectly justified; she had, up to that point, given him every reason +to take the line that he adopted. She had listened to the first part +of his speech without remark; she must, he reflected afterwards, have +known what was coming, yet she had given no sign that she heard. +</P> + +<P> +And so the change in her was startling and took him utterly by surprise. +</P> + +<P> +She looked up at him from her chair, and the thin ghost of a smile that +crept round the corners of her mouth, faced him for a moment, and then +vanished suddenly, was the strangest thing that he had ever seen. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't you think, Mr. Trojan, that that is a little insulting?" +</P> + +<P> +It made him feel utterly ashamed. In her own house, in her +drawing-room, he had offered her money. +</P> + +<P> +"I beg your pardon," he stammered. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she answered slowly. "You had rather misconceived the +situation." +</P> + +<P> +Harry felt that her silences were the most eloquent that he had ever +known. He began to be very frightened, and, for the first time, +conceived the possibility of not securing the letters at all. The +thought that his hopes might be dashed to the ground, that he might be +no nearer his goal at the end of the interview than before, sharpened +his wits. It was to be a deal in subtlety rather than the obvious +thing that he had expected—well, he would play it to the end. +</P> + +<P> +"I beg your pardon," he said again. "I have been extremely rude. I am +only recently returned from abroad, and my knowledge of the whole +affair is necessarily very limited. I came here with a very vague idea +both as to yourself and your intentions. In drawing the conclusions +that I did I have done both you and your daughter a grave injustice, +for which I humbly apologise. I may say that, before coming here, I +had had no interview with my son. I am, therefore, quite ignorant as +regards facts." +</P> + +<P> +He did not feel that his apology had done much good. He felt that she +had accepted both his insult and apology quite calmly, as though she +had regarded them inevitably. +</P> + +<P> +"The facts," she said, looking down again at the fire, "are quite +simple. My daughter and your son became acquainted at Cambridge in May +last. They saw a great deal of each other during the next few months. +At the end of that time they were engaged. Mr. Robert Trojan gave us +to understand that he was about to acquaint his family with the fact. +They corresponded continually during the summer—letters, I believe, of +the kind common to young people in love. Mr. Robert Trojan spoke +continually of the marriage and suggested dates. We then came down +here, and, soon after our arrival, I perceived a change in your son's +attitude. He came to see us very rarely, and at last ceased his visits +altogether. My daughter was naturally extremely upset, and there were +several rather painful interviews. He then wrote returning her letters +and demanding the return of his own. This she definitely refused. +Those are the facts, Mr. Trojan." +</P> + +<P> +She had spoken without any emotion, and evidently expected that he +should do the same. +</P> + +<P> +"I have come," he said, "on behalf of my son to demand the return of +those letters." +</P> + +<P> +"Demand?" +</P> + +<P> +"Naturally. Letters, Mrs. Feverel, of that kind are dangerous things +to leave about." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes?" She smiled. "Dangerous for whom? I think you forget a little, +Mr. Trojan, in your anxiety for your son's welfare, my daughter's side +of the question. She naturally treasures what represents to her the +happiest months of her existence. You must remember that your son's +conduct—shall I call it desertion?—was a terrible blow. She loved +him, Mr. Trojan, with all her heart. Is it not right that he should +suffer a little as well?" +</P> + +<P> +"I refuse to believe," he answered sharply, "that this is all a matter +of sentiment. I regret extremely that my son should have behaved in +such a cowardly and dastardly manner—it has hurt and surprised me more +than I can say—but, were that all, it were surely better to bury the +whole affair as soon as may be. I cannot believe that you are keeping +the letters with no intention of making public use of them." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah," said Mrs. Feverel, "I wonder." +</P> + +<P> +"Hadn't we better come to a clear understanding, Mrs. Feverel?" he +asked. "We are neither of us children, and this beating about the bush +serves no purpose whatever. If you refuse to return the letters, I +have at least the right to ask what you mean to do with them." +</P> + +<P> +"Here is my daughter," she answered, "she shall speak for herself." +</P> + +<P> +He turned round at the sound of the opening door, and watched her as +she came in. She was very much as he had imagined—thin and tall, +walking straight from the hips, giving a little the impression that she +was standing on her toes. Her eyes seemed amazingly dark in the +whiteness of her face. She seemed a little older than he had +expected—perhaps twenty-five or twenty-six. +</P> + +<P> +She looked at him sharply as she entered and then came forward to her +mother. He could see that she was agitated—her breath came quickly, +and her hands folded and unfolded as though she were tearing something +to pieces. +</P> + +<P> +"This," said Mrs. Feverel, "is my daughter, Mr. Trojan. My dear, Mr. +Henry Trojan." +</P> + +<P> +She bowed and sat down opposite her mother. He thought she looked +rather pathetic as she faced him; here was no adventuress, no schemer. +He began to feel that his son had behaved brutally, outrageously. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Feverel rose. "I will leave you, my dear. Mr. Trojan will tell +you for what he has come." +</P> + +<P> +She moved slowly from the room and Harry drew a breath of relief at her +absence. There was a moment's pause. "I hope you will forgive me, +Miss Feverel," he said gently. "I'm afraid that both your mother and +yourself must regard this as impertinent, but, at the same time, I +think you will understand." +</P> + +<P> +She seemed to have regained her composure. "It is about Robin, I +suppose?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. Could you tell me exactly what the relations between you were?" +</P> + +<P> +"We were engaged," she answered simply, "last summer at Cambridge. He +broke off the engagement." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—but I understand that you intend to keep his letters?" +</P> + +<P> +"That is quite true." +</P> + +<P> +"I have come to ask you to restore them." +</P> + +<P> +"I am sorry. I am afraid that it is a waste of time. I shall not go +back on my word." +</P> + +<P> +He could not understand what her game was—he was not sure that she had +a game at all; she seemed very helpless, and, at the same time, he felt +that there was strength behind her answers. He was at a loss; his +experience was of no value to him at all. +</P> + +<P> +"I am going to beg you to alter your decision. I am pleading with you +in a matter that is of the utmost importance to me. Robin is my only +son. He has behaved abominably, and you can understand that it has +been rather a blow to me to return after twenty years' absence and find +him engaged in such an affair. But he is very young, and—pardon +me—so are you. I am an older man and my experience of the world is +greater than yours; believe me when I say that you will regret +persistence in your refusal most bitterly in later years. It seems to +me a crisis—a crisis, perhaps, for all of us. Take an older man's +word for it; there is only one possible course for you to adopt." +</P> + +<P> +"Really, Mr. Trojan," she said, laughing, "you are intensely serious. +Last week I thought that my heart was broken; but now—well, it takes a +lot to break a heart. I am sure that you will be glad to hear that my +appetite has returned. As to the letters—why, think how pleasant it +will be for me to sentimentalise over them in my old age! Surely, that +is sufficient motive." +</P> + +<P> +She was trying to speak lightly, but her lip quivered. +</P> + +<P> +"You are running a serious risk, Miss Feverel," he answered gravely. +"Your intention is, I imagine, to punish Robin. I can assure you that +in a few years' time he will be punished enough. He scarcely realises +as yet what he has done. That knowledge will come to him later." +</P> + +<P> +"Poor Robin!" she said. "Yes, he ought to feel rather a worm now; he +has written me several very agitated letters. But really I cannot help +it. The affair is over—done with. I regard the letters as my +personal property. I cannot see that it is any one else's business at +all." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course it is our business," he answered seriously. "Those letters +must be destroyed. I do not accuse you of any deliberate malicious +intentions, but there is, as far as I can see, only one motive in your +keeping them. I have not seen them, but from what I have heard I +gather that they contain definite promise of marriage. Your case is a +strong one." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she laughed. "Poor Robin's enthusiasm led him to some very +violent expressions of affection. But, Mr. Trojan, revenge is sweet. +Every woman, I think, likes it, and I am no exception to my sex. +Aren't you a little unfair in claiming all the pleasure and none of the +pain?" +</P> + +<P> +"No," he answered firmly. "I am not. It is as much for your own sake +as for his that I am making my claim. You cannot see things in fair +proportion now; you will bitterly regret the step you contemplate +taking." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I am sure," she replied, "it is very good of you to think of me +like that. I am deeply touched—you seem to take quite a fatherly +interest." She lay back in her chair and watched him with eyes half +closed. +</P> + +<P> +He was beginning to believe that it was no pose after all, and his +anger rose. +</P> + +<P> +"Come, Miss Feverel," he said, "let's have done with playing—let us +come to terms. It is a matter of vital importance that I should +receive the letters. I am ready to go some lengths to obtain them. +What are your terms?" +</P> + +<P> +She flushed a little. +</P> + +<P> +"Isn't that a little rude, Mr. Trojan?" she said. "It is of course the +melodramatic attitude. It was not long ago that I saw a play in which +letters figured. Pistols were fired, and the heroine wore red plush. +Is that to be our style now? I am sorry that I cannot oblige you. +There are no pistols, but I will tell you frankly that it is no +question of terms. I refuse, under any circumstances whatever, to +return the letters." +</P> + +<P> +"That is your absolute decision?" +</P> + +<P> +"My absolute decision." +</P> + +<P> +He got up and stood, for a moment, by her chair. +</P> + +<P> +"My dear," he said, "you do not know what you are doing. You are +disappointed, you are insulted—you think that you will have your +revenge at all costs. You do not know now, but you will discover +later, that it has been no revenge at all. It will be the most +regretted action of your life. You have a great chance; you are going +to throw it away. I am sorry, because you are not, I think, at all +that sort of girl." He paused a moment. "Well, there is no more to be +said. I am sorry as much for your sake as my own. Good-bye." +</P> + +<P> +He moved to the door. The disappointment was almost more than he could +bear. He did not know how strong his hopes had been; and now he must +return with things as they were before, with the added knowledge that +his son had behaved like a cad, and that the world would soon know. +</P> + +<P> +"Good-bye," he said again and turned round towards her. +</P> + +<P> +She rose from her chair and tried to smile. She said something that he +could not catch, and then, suddenly, to his intense astonishment, she +flung herself back into her chair again, hid her face in her hands, and +burst into uncontrollable tears. He stood irresolute, and then came +back and waited by the fireplace. He thought it was the most desolate +thing that he had ever known—the flapping of the blind against the +window, the dry rustling of the leaves on the mantel-piece, only +accentuated the sound of her sobbing. He let her cry and then, at +last—"I am a brute," he said. "I am sorry—I will go away." +</P> + +<P> +"No." She sat up and began to dry her eyes with her handkerchief. +"Don't go—it was absurd of me to give way like that; I thought that I +had got over all that, but one is so silly—one never can tell——" +</P> + +<P> +He sat down again and waited. +</P> + +<P> +"You see," she went on, "I had liked you, always, from the first moment +that I saw you. You were different from the others—quite +different—and after Robin had behaved—as he did—I distrusted every +one. I thought they were all like that, except you. You do not know +what people have done to us here. We have had no friends; they have +all despised us, especially your family. And Robin said—well, lots of +things that hurt. That I was not good enough and that his aunt would +not like me. And then, of course, when I saw that, if I kept the +letters, I could make them all unhappy—why, of course, I kept them. +It was natural, wasn't it? But I didn't want to hurt you—I felt that +all the time; and when I saw you here when I came in, I was afraid, +because I hardly knew what to do. I thought I would show you that I +wasn't weak and foolish as you thought me—the kind of girl that Robin +could throw over so easily without thinking twice about it—and so I +meant to hold out. There—and now, of course, you think me hateful." +</P> + +<P> +He sat down by her and took her hand. "It's all rather ridiculous, +isn't it?" he said. "I'm old enough to be your father, but I'm just +where you are, really. We've all been learning this last +fortnight—you and Robin, and I—and all learning the same thing. It's +been a case," he hesitated for a word, "of calf-love, for all three of +us. Don't regret Robin; he's not worth it. Why, you are worth twenty +of him, and he'll know that later on. I'm afraid that sounds +patronising," he added, laughing. "But I'm humble really. Never mind +the letters. You shall do what you like with them and I will trust +you. You are not," he repeated, "that sort of girl. Why, dash it!" he +suddenly added, "Robin doesn't know what he has lost." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah!" she said, blushing, "it wouldn't have done. I can see that +now—but I can see so many things that I couldn't see before. I wish I +had known a man like you—then I might have learnt earlier; but I had +nobody, nobody at all, and I nearly made a mess of things. But it +isn't too late!" +</P> + +<P> +"Too late! Why, no!" he answered. "I'm only beginning now, and I'm +forty-five. I, too, have learned a lot in this fortnight." +</P> + +<P> +She looked at him anxiously for a moment. "They don't like you, do +they? Robin and the others?" +</P> + +<P> +"No," he answered; "I don't think they do." +</P> + +<P> +"I know," she said quickly; "I heard from Robin, and I'm sorry. You +must have had a bad time. But why, if they have been like that, do you +want the letters? They have treated us both in the same way." +</P> + +<P> +"Why, yes," he answered. "Only Robin is my son. That, you see, is my +great affair. I care for him more than for anything in the world, and +if I had the letters——" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, of course," she cried, "I see—it gives you the pull. Why, how +blind I've been! It's splendid!" She sprang up, and went to a small +writing-desk by the window; she unlocked a drawer and returned with a +small packet in her hand. "There," she said, "there they are. They +are not many, are they, for such a big fuss? But I think that I meant +you to have them all the time—from the first moment that I saw you. I +had hoped that you would ask for them——" +</P> + +<P> +He took the letters, held them in his hand for a moment, and then +slipped them into his pocket. +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you," he said, "I shall not forget." +</P> + +<P> +"Nor I," she answered. "We are, I suppose, ships that pass in the +night. We have just shared for a moment an experience, and it has +changed both of us a little. But sometimes remember me, will you? +Perhaps you would write?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, of course," he answered, "I shall want to know how things turn +out. What will you do?" +</P> + +<P> +"I don't know. We will go away from here, of course. Go back to +London, I expect—and I will get some work. There are lots of things +to do, and I shall be happy." +</P> + +<P> +"I hope," he said, "that the real thing is just beginning for both of +us." +</P> + +<P> +She stood by the window looking out into the street. "It makes things +different if you believe in me," she said. "It will give one courage. +I had begun to think that there was no one in the world who cared." +</P> + +<P> +"Be plucky," he said. "Work's the only thing. It is because we've +both been idle here that we're worried. Don't think any more of Robin. +He isn't good enough for you yet; he'll learn, like the rest of us; but +he'll have to go through something first. You'll find a better man." +</P> + +<P> +"Poor Robin," she said. "Be kind to him!" +</P> + +<P> +He took her hand for a moment, smiled, and was gone. She watched him +from the window. +</P> + +<P> +He looked back at her and smiled again. Then he passed the corner of +the street. +</P> + +<P> +"So that's the end!" She turned back from the window. "Now for a +beginning!" +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap11"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XI +</H3> + +<P> +Garrett Trojan had considered the matter for two days and had come to +no conclusion. His manner of considering anything was peculiar. He +loved procrastination and coloured future events with such beautiful +radiancy that, when they actually came, the shock of finding them only +drab was so terrible that he avoided them altogether. He was, however, +saved from any lasting pain and disappointment because he had been +given, from early childhood, that splendid gift of discovering himself +to be the continual hero of a continual play. It was not only that he +could make no move in life at all without being its hero—that, of +course, was pleasant enough; but that it was always a fresh discovery +was truly the amazing thing. He was able to wake up, as it were, and +discover afresh, every day of his life, what a hero he was; this was +never monotonous, never wearisome. He played the game anew from day to +day—and the best part of the game was not knowing that it was a game +at all. +</P> + +<P> +It must be admitted that he only maintained the illusion by keeping +somewhat apart from his fellow-men—too frequent contact must have +destroyed his dreams. But his aloofness was termed preserving his +individuality, and in the well-curtained library, in carpet-slippers +and a smoking-jacket, he built his own monument with infinite care +before an imaginary crowd in an imaginary city of dreams. +</P> + +<P> +There were times, of course, when he was a little uneasy. He had heard +men titter at the Club: Clare had, occasionally, spoken plain words as +to his true position in the House, and he had even, at times, doubts as +to the permanent value of the book on which he was engaged. During +these awful moments he gazed through the rent curtain into a valley of +dead men's bones ruled by a dreary god who had no knowledge of Garrett +Trojan and cared very little for the fortunes of the Trojan House. +</P> + +<P> +But a diligent application to the storehouses of his memory produced +testimonials dragged, for the most part, from reluctant adherents which +served to prove that Garrett Trojan was a great man and the head of a +great family. +</P> + +<P> +He would, however, like some definite act to prove conclusively that he +was head. He had, at times, the unhappy suspicion that an outsider, +regarding the matter superficially, might be led to conclude that Clare +held command. He found that if he interfered at all in family matters +this suspicion was immediately strengthened, and so he confined himself +to his room and watered diligently the somewhat stinted crop of +Illusions. +</P> + +<P> +Nevertheless he felt the necessity of some prominent action that would +still for ever his suspicions of incompetence, and would afford him a +sure foundation on which to build his palace of self-complacency and +personal appreciation. During his latter years he had regarded himself +as his father's probable successor. Harry had seemed a very long way +off in New Zealand, and became, eventually, an improbable myth, for +Garrett had that happy quality bestowed on the ostrich of sticking his +head into the sand of imagination and boastfully concluding that facts +were not there. Harry was a fact, but by continuously asserting that +New Zealand was a long way off and that Harry would never come back, +Harry's existence became a very pleasant fairy-story, like nautical +tales of the sea-serpent and the Bewitching Mermaid. They might be +there, and it was very pleasant to listen to stories about them, but +they had no real bearing on life as he knew it. +</P> + +<P> +Harry's return had, of course, shattered this bubble, and Garrett had +had to yield all hopes of eventual succession. He had, on the whole, +borne it very well, and had come to the conclusion that succeeding his +father would have entailed the performance of many wearisome duties; +but that future being denied him, it was more than ever necessary to +seize some opportunity of personal distinction. +</P> + +<P> +The discussion as to the destruction of the Cove had seemed to offer +him every chance of attaining a prominent position. The matter had +grown in importance every day. Pendragon had divided into two separate +and sharply-distinguished camps, one standing valiantly by its standard +of picturesque tradition and its hatred of modern noise and +materialism, the other asserting loudly its love of utility and +progress, derisively pointing the finger of scorn at old-world +Conservatism run mad and an incredible affection for defective +drainage. Garrett had flung himself heart and soul (as he said) into +the latter of these parties, and, feeling that this was a chance of +distinction that fortune was not likely to offer him again in the near +future, appeared frequently at discussions and even on one occasion in +the Town Hall spoke. +</P> + +<P> +But he was surprised and disappointed; he found that he had nothing to +say, the truth being that he was much more interested in Garrett than +in the Cove, and that his audience had come to listen to the second of +these two subjects rather than the first. He found himself shelved; he +was most politely told that he was not wanted, and he retired into his +carpet-slippers again after one of those terrible quarters of an hour +when he peeped past the curtain and saw a miserable, naked puppet +shivering in a grey world, and that puppet was Garrett Trojan. +</P> + +<P> +Then suddenly a second opportunity presented itself. Robin's trouble +was unexpectedly reassuring. This, he told himself, was the very +thing. If he could only prove to the world that he had dealt +successfully with practical matters in a practical way, he need never +worry again. Let him deal with this affair promptly and resourcefully, +as a man of the world and a true Trojan, and his position was assured. +He must obtain the letters and at once. He spent several pleasant +hours picturing the scene in which he returned the letters to Robin. +He knew precisely the moment, the room, the audience that he would +choose—he had decided on the words that he would speak, but he was not +sure yet as to how he would obtain the letters. +</P> + +<P> +He thought over it for three days and came to no conclusion. It ought +not to be difficult; the girl was probably one of those common +adventuresses of whom one heard so often. He had never actually met +one—they did not suit carpet-slippers—but one knew how to deal with +them. It was merely a matter of tact and <I>savoir-faire</I>. +</P> + +<P> +Yes, it would be fun when he flourished the letters in the face of the +family; how amazed Clare would be and how it would please Robin!—and +then he suddenly awoke to the fact that time was getting on, and that +he had done nothing. And, after all, there were only two possible +lines of action—to write or to seek a personal interview. Of these he +infinitely preferred the first. He need not leave his room, he could +direct operations from his arm-chair, and he could preserve that +courtesy and decorum that truly befitted a Trojan. But he had grave +fears that the letter would not be accepted; Robin's had been scorned +and his own might suffer the same fate—no, he was afraid that it must +be a personal interview. +</P> + +<P> +He had come to this conclusion reluctantly, and now he hesitated to act +on it; she might be violent, and he felt that he could not deal with +melodrama. But the thought of ultimate victory supported him. The +delicious surprise of it, the gratitude, the security of his authority +from all attack for the rest of his days! Ah yes, it was worth it. +</P> + +<P> +He dressed carefully in a suit of delicate grey, wearing, as he did on +all public occasions, an eyeglass. He took some time over his +preparations and drank a whisky and soda before starting; he had +secured the address from Robin, without, he flattered himself, any +discovery as to the reason of his request. 10 Seaview Terrace! Ah +yes, he knew where that was—a gloomy back street, quite a fitting +place for such an affair. +</P> + +<P> +He was still uncertain as to the plan of campaign, but he could not +conceive it credible that any young woman in any part of the British +Empire would stand up long against a Trojan—it would, he felt certain, +prove easy. +</P> + +<P> +He noticed with pleasure the attention paid to him by the down-at-heels +servant—it was good augury for the success of the interview. He +lowered his voice to a deep bass whilst asking for Miss Feverel, and he +fixed his eyeglass at a more strikingly impressive angle. He looked at +women from four points of view, and he had, as it were, a sliding scale +of manners on which he might mark delicately his perception of their +position. There was firstly the Countess, or Titled Nobility. Here +his manner was slightly deferential, and at the same time a little +familiar—proof of his own good breeding. +</P> + +<P> +Secondly, there was the Trojan, or the lady of Assured Position. Here +he was quite familiar, and at the same time just a little +patronising—proof of his sense of Trojan superiority. +</P> + +<P> +Thirdly, there was the Governess, or Poor Gentility Position. To +members of this class he was affably kind, conveying his sense of their +merits and sympathy with their struggle against poverty, but +nevertheless marking quite plainly the gulf fixed between him and them. +</P> + +<P> +Fourthly, there were the Impossibles, or the Rest—ranging from the +wives of successful Brewers to that class known as Unfortunate. Here +there was no alteration in his manner; he was stern, and short, and +stiff with all of them, and the reason of their existence was one of +the unsolved problems that had always puzzled him. This woman would, +of course, belong to this latter class—he drew himself up haughtily as +he entered the drawing-room. +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia Feverel was alone, seated working in the window. Life was +beginning to offer attractions to her again. The thought of work was +pleasing; she had decided to train as a nurse, and she began to see +Robin in a clear, true light; she was even beginning to admit that he +had been right, that their marriage would have been a great mistake. +The announcement of Garrett Trojan took her by surprise—she gathered +her work together and rose, her brain refusing to act consecutively. +He wanted, of course, the letters—well, she had not got them.... It +promised to be rather amusing. +</P> + +<P> +And he on his side was surprised. He had expected a woman with +frizzled hair and a dress of violent colours; he saw a slender, pale +girl in black, and she looked rather more of a lady than he had +supposed. He was, in spite of himself, confused. He began hurriedly— +</P> + +<P> +"I am Mr. Garrett Trojan—I dare say you have heard of me from my +nephew—Robin—Robert—with whom, I believe, you are acquainted, +Miss—ah—Feverel. I have come on his behalf to request the return of +some letters that he wrote to you during the summer." +</P> + +<P> +He drew a breath and paused. Well, that was all right anyhow, and +quite sufficiently business-like. +</P> + +<P> +"Won't you sit down, Mr. Trojan?" she said, smiling at him. "It is +good of you to have taken so much trouble simply about a few +letters—and you really might have written, mightn't you, and saved +yourself a personal visit?" +</P> + +<P> +He refused to sit down and drew himself up. "Now I warn you, Miss +Feverel," he said, "that this is no laughing matter. You are doing a +very foolish thing in keeping the letters—very foolish—ah! um! You +must, of course, see that—exceedingly foolish!" +</P> + +<P> +He came to a pause. It was really rather difficult to know what to say +next. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, Mr. Trojan," she answered, "you must leave me to judge about the +foolishness of it. After all, they are my letters." +</P> + +<P> +"Pure waste of time," he answered, his voice getting a little shrill. +"After all, there can be no question about it. We <I>must</I> have the +letters—we are ready to go to some lengths to obtain them—even—ah, +um—money——" +</P> + +<P> +"Now, Mr. Trojan," she said quickly, "you are scarcely polite. But I +am sure that you will see no reason for prolonging this interview when +I say that, under no circumstances whatever, can I return the letters. +That is my unchanging decision." +</P> + +<P> +He had no words; he stared at her, dumb with astonishment. This open +defiance was the very last thing that he had expected. Then, at last— +</P> + +<P> +"You refuse?" he said with a little gasp. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she answered lightly, "and I cannot see anything very +astonishing in my refusal. They are my property, and it is nobody +else's business at all." +</P> + +<P> +"But it is," he almost screamed. "Business! Why, I should think it +was! Do you think we want to have a scandal throughout the kingdom? +Do you imagine that it would be pleasant for us to have our name in all +the papers—our name that has never known disgrace since the days of +William the Conqueror? You can have," he added solemnly, "very little +idea of the value of a name if you imagine that we are going to +tolerate its abuse in this fashion. Dear me, no!" +</P> + +<P> +He was growing quite red at the thought of his possible failure. The +things in the room annoyed him—the everlasting rustling on the +mantelpiece—a staring photograph of Mr. Feverel, deceased, that seemed +to follow him, protestingly, round and round the room—a corner of a +dusty grey road seen dimly through dirty window-panes; why did people +live in such a place—or, rather, why did such people live at all?—and +to think that it was people like that who dared to threaten Trojan +honour! How could Robin have been such a fool! +</P> + +<P> +So, feeling that the situation was so absurd that argument was out of +place, he began to bluster— +</P> + +<P> +"Come now, Miss Feverel—this won't do, you know! it won't really. +It's too absurd—quite ridiculous. Why, you forget altogether who the +Trojans are! Why, we've been years and years—hundreds of years! You +can't intend to oppose institutions of that kind! Why—it's +impossible—you don't realise what you're doing. Dear me, no! Why, +the whole thing's fantastic—" and then rather lamely, "You'll be +sorry, you know." +</P> + +<P> +She had been listening to him with amusement. It was pleasant to have +the family on its knees like this after its treatment of her. He was +saying, too, very many of the things that his brother had said, but how +different it was! +</P> + +<P> +"You know, Mr. Trojan," she said, "that I can't help feeling that you +are making rather a lot of it. After all, I haven't said that I'm +going to do anything with the letters, have I?—simply keep them, and +that, I think, I am quite entitled to do. And really my mind won't +change about that—I cannot give them to you." +</P> + +<P> +"Cannot!" he retorted eagerly. "Why, it's easy enough. You know, Miss +Feverel, it won't do to play with me. I'm a man of the world and +fencing won't do, you know—not a bit of it. When I say I mean to have +the letters, I mean to have them, and—ah, um—that's all about it. It +won't do to fence, you know," he said again. +</P> + +<P> +"But I'm not fencing, Mr. Trojan, I'm saying quite plainly what is +perfectly true, that I cannot let you have the letters—nothing that +you can say will change my mind." +</P> + +<P> +And he really didn't know what to say. He didn't want to have a +scene—he shrunk timidly from violence of any kind; but he really must +secure the letters. How they would laugh at the Club! Why, he could +hear the guffaws of all Pendragon! London would be one enormous scream +of laughter!—all Europe would be amused! and to his excited fancy Asia +and Africa seemed to join the chorus! A Trojan and a common girl in a +breach of promise case! A Trojan! +</P> + +<P> +"I say," he stammered, "you don't know how serious it is. People will +laugh, you know, if you bring the case on. Of course it was silly of +him—Robin, I mean. I can't conceive myself how he ever came to do +such a thing. Boys will be boys, and you're rather pretty, my dear. +But, bless me, if we were to take all these little things seriously, +why, where would some of us be?" He paused, and hinted impressively at +a hideous past. "You <I>are</I> attractive, you know." He looked at her in +his most flattering manner—"Quite a nice girl, only you shouldn't take +it seriously—really you shouldn't." +</P> + +<P> +This manner of speech was a great deal more offensive than the other, +and Dahlia got up, her cheeks flushed— +</P> + +<P> +"That is enough, Mr. Trojan. I think this had better come to an end. +I can only repeat what I have said already, that I cannot give you the +letters—and, indeed, if I had ever intended to do so, your last +speech, at least, would have changed my mind—I am sorry that I cannot +oblige you, but there is really nothing further to be said." +</P> + +<P> +He tried to stammer something; he faced her for a moment and +endeavoured to be indignant, and then, to his own intense astonishment, +found that he was walking down the stairs with the drawing-room door +closed behind him. How amazing!—but he had done his best, and, if he +had failed, why, after all, no other man could have succeeded any +better. And she really was rather bewitching—he had not expected +anything quite like that. What had he expected? He did not know, but +he thought of his softly-carpeted, nicely-cushioned room with +pleasurable anticipation. He would fling himself into his book when he +got back ... he had several rather neat ideas.... He noticed, with +pleasure, that the young man standing by the door of Mead's Groceries +touched his hat very respectfully, and Twitchett, his tailor, bowed. +Come, come! There were a few people left who had some sense of Trojan +supremacy. It wasn't such a bad world! He would have tea in his +room—not with Clare—and crumpets—yes, he liked crumpets. +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia went back to her work with a sigh. What, she wondered, would be +the next move? It had not been quite so amusing as she had expected, +but it had been a little more exciting. For she had a curious feeling +in it all, that she was fighting Harry Trojan's battles. These were +the people that had insulted him just as they had insulted her, and now +they would have to pay for it, they would have to go to him as they had +gone to her and crawl on their knees. But what a funny situation! +That she should play the son for the father, and that she should be +able to look at her own love affair so calmly! Poor Robin—he had +taught her a great deal, and now it was time for him to learn his own +lesson. For her the episode was closed and she was looking forward to +the future. She would work and win her way and have done with +sentiment. Friendship was the right thing—the thing that the world +was meant for—but <I>Love</I>—Ah! that wounded so much more than it +blessed! +</P> + +<P> +But she was to have further experiences—the Trojan family had not done +with her yet. Garrett had been absent barely more than half an hour +when the servant again appeared at the door with, "Miss Trojan, Miss +Dahlia, would like to see yer and is waiting in the 'all." Her hand +twitching at her apron and mouth gaping with astonishment testified to +her curiosity. For weeks the house had been unvisited and now, in a +single day—! +</P> + +<P> +"Show her up, Annie!" +</P> + +<P> +She was a little agitated; Garrett had been simple enough and even +rather amusing, but Clare Trojan was quite another thing. She was, +Dahlia knew, the head of the family and a woman of the world. But +Dahlia clenched her teeth; it was this person who was responsible for +the whole affair—for the father's unhappiness, for the son's +disloyalty. It was she who had been, as it were, behind Robin's +halting speeches concerning inequality and one's duty to the family. +Here was the head of the House, and Dahlia held the cards. +</P> + +<P> +But Clare was very calm and collected as she entered the room. She had +decided that a personal interview was necessary, but had rather +regretted that it could not be conducted by letter. But still if you +had to deal with that kind of person you must put up with their +methods, and having once made up her mind about a thing she never +turned back. +</P> + +<P> +She hated the young person more bitterly than she had ever hated any +one, and she would have heard of her death with no shadow of pity but +rather a great rejoicing. In the first place, the woman had come +between Clare and Robin; secondly, she threatened the good name of the +family; thirdly, she was forcing Clare to do several things that she +very much disliked doing. For all these reasons the young person was +too bad to live—but she had no intention of being uncivil. Although +this was her first experience of diplomacy, she had very definite ideas +as to how such things ought to be conducted, and civility would hide a +multitude of subtleties. Clare meant to be very subtle, very kind, +and, once the letters were in her hand, very unrelenting. +</P> + +<P> +She was wearing a very handsome dress of grey silk with a large picture +hat with grey feathers: she entered the room with a rustle, and the +sweep of the skirts spoke of infinite condescension. +</P> + +<P> +"Miss Feverel, I believe—" she held out her hand—"I am afraid this is +a most unceremonious hour for a call, and if I have interrupted you in +your work, pray go on. I wouldn't for the world. What a day, hasn't +it been? I always think that these sort of grey depressing days are so +much worse than the downright pouring ones, don't you? You are always +expecting, you know, and then nothing ever comes." +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia looked rather nervous in the window, and on her face there +fluttered a rather uncertain smile. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," she said, a little timidly; "but I think that most of the days +here are grey." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, you find that, do you? Well, now, that's strange, because I must +say that I haven't found that my own experience—and Cornwall, you +know, is said to be the land of colour—the English Riviera some, +rather prettily, call it—and St. Ives, you know, along the coast is +quite a place for painters because of the colour that they get there." +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia said "Yes," and there was a pause. Then Clare made her plunge. +</P> + +<P> +"You must wonder a little, Miss Feverel, what I have come about. I +really must apologise again about the hour. But I won't keep you more +than a moment; and it is all quite a trivial matter—so trivial that I +am ashamed to disturb you about it. I would have written, but I +happened to be passing and—so—I came in." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes?" said Dahlia. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, it's about some letters. Perhaps you have forgotten that my +nephew, Robert Trojan, wrote to you last summer. He tells me that you +met last summer at Cambridge and became rather well acquainted, and +that after that he wrote to you for several months. He tells me that +he wrote to you asking you to return his letters, and that you, +doubtless through forgetfulness, failed to reply. He is naturally a +little nervous about writing to you again, and so I thought that—as I +was passing—I would just come and see you about the matter. But I am +really ashamed to bother you about anything so trivial." +</P> + +<P> +"No," answered Dahlia, "I didn't forget—I wrote—answered Robin's +letter." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! you did? Then he must have misunderstood you. He certainly gave +me to understand——" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, I wrote to Robin saying that I was sorry—but I intended to keep +the letters." +</P> + +<P> +Clare paused and looked at her sharply. This was the kind of thing +that she had expected; of course the young person would bluff and stand +out for a tall price, which must, if necessary, be paid to her. +</P> + +<P> +"But, Miss Feverel, surely"—she smiled deprecatingly—"that can't be +your definite answer to him. Poor Robin!—surely he is entitled to +letters that he himself has written." +</P> + +<P> +"Might I ask, Miss Trojan, why you are anxious that they should be +returned?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, merely a whim—nothing of any importance. But Robin feels, as I +am sure you must, that the whole episode—pleasant enough at the time, +no doubt—is over, and he feels that it would be more completely closed +if the letters were destroyed." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! but there we differ!" said Dahlia sharply. "That's just what I +don't feel about it. I value those letters, Miss Trojan, highly." +</P> + +<P> +Now what, thought Clare, exactly was she? Number One, the intriguing +adventuress? Number Two, the outraged woman? Number Three, the +helpless girl clinging to her one support? Now, of Numbers One and Two +Clare had had no experience. Such persons had never come her way, and +indeed of Number Three she could know very little; so she escaped from +generalities and fixed her mind on the actual girl in front of her. +This was most certainly no intriguing adventuress. Clare had quite +definite ideas about that class of person; but she very possibly was +the outraged female. At any rate, she would act on that conclusion. +</P> + +<P> +"My dear young lady," she said softly, "you must not think that I do +not sympathise. I do indeed, from the bottom of my heart. Robin has +behaved abominably, and any possible reparation we, as a family, will +gladly pay. I think, however, that you are a little hard on him. He +was young, so were you; and it is very easy for us—we women +especially—to mistake the reality of our affection. Robin at any rate +made a mistake and saw it—and frankly told you so. It was +wrong—very; but I cannot help feeling—forgive me if I speak rather +plainly—that it would be equally wrong on your part if you were to +indulge any feeling of revenge." +</P> + +<P> +"There is not," said Dahlia, "any question of revenge." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah," said Clare brightly, "you will let me have the letters, then?" +</P> + +<P> +"I cannot," Dahlia answered gravely. "Really, Miss Trojan, I'm afraid +that we can gain nothing by further discussion. I have looked at the +matter from every point of view, and I'm afraid that I can come to no +other decision." +</P> + +<P> +Clare stared in front of her. What was to be her next move? Like +Garrett, she had been brought to a standstill by Dahlia's direct +refusal. Viewing the matter indefinitely, from the security of her own +room, it had seemed to her that the girl would be certain to give way +at the very mention of the Trojan name. She would face Robin—yes, +that was natural enough, because, after all, he was only a boy and had +no knowledge of the world and the proper treatment of such a case—but +when it came to the head of the family with all the influence of the +family behind her, then instant submission seemed inevitable. +</P> + +<P> +Clare was forced to realise that instant submission was very far away +indeed, and that the girl sitting quietly in the window showed little +sign of yielding. She sat up a little straighter in her chair and her +voice was a little sharper. +</P> + +<P> +"It seems then, Miss Feverel, that it is a question of terms. But why +did you not say so before? I would have told you at once that we are +willing to pay a very considerable sum for the return of the letters." +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia's face flushed, and after a moment's pause she rose from her +chair and walked towards Clare. +</P> + +<P> +"Miss Trojan," she said quietly, "I have no intention of taking money +for them—or, indeed, of taking anything." +</P> + +<P> +"I'm sure," broke in Clare, flushing slightly, "<I>I</I> had no intention +of——" +</P> + +<P> +"Ah—no, I know," went on Dahlia. "But it is not, I assure you, a case +for melodrama—but a very plain, simple little affair that is happening +everywhere all the time. You say that you cannot understand why I +should wish to keep the letters. Let me try and explain, and also let +me try and urge on you that it is really no good at all trying to +change my mind. It is now several days since I had my last talk with +Robin, and I have, of course, thought a good deal about it—it is +scarcely likely that half-an-hour's conversation with you will change a +determination that I have arrived at after ten days' hard thinking. +And surely it is not hard to understand. Six months ago I was happy +and inexperienced. I had never been in love, and, indeed, I had no +idea of its meaning. Then your nephew came: he made love to me, and I +loved him in return." +</P> + +<P> +She paused for a moment. Clare looked sympathetic. Then Dahlia +continued: "He meant no harm, no doubt, and perhaps for the time he was +quite serious in what he said. He was, as you say, very young. But it +was a game to him—it was everything to me. I treasured his letters, I +thought of them day and night. I—but, of course, you know the kind of +thing that a girl goes through when she is in love for the first time. +Then I came here and went through some bad weeks whilst he was making +up his mind to tell me that he loved me no longer. Of course, I saw +well enough what was happening—and I knew why it was—it was the +family at his back." +</P> + +<P> +A murmur from Clare. "I assure you, Miss Feverel." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh yes, Miss Trojan, you don't suppose that I cared for you very much +during those weeks. I suffered a little, too, and it changed me from a +girl into a woman—rather too quickly to be altogether healthy, +perhaps. And then he came and told me in so many words. I thought at +first that it had broken my heart; a girl does, you know, when it +happens the first time, but you needn't be afraid—my heart's all +right—and I wouldn't marry Robin now if he begged me to. But it had +hurt, all of it, and perhaps one's pride had suffered most of all—and +so, of course, I kept the letters. It was the one way that I could +hurt you. I'm frank, am I not?—but every woman would do the same. +You see you are so very proud, you Trojans! +</P> + +<P> +"It is not only that you thank God that you are not as other men, but +you are so bent on making the rest of us call out 'Miserable sinner!' +very loudly and humbly. And we don't believe it. Why should we? +Everybody has their own little bits o' things that they treasure, and +they don't like being told that they're of no value at all. Why, Miss +Trojan, I'm quite a proud person really—you'd be surprised if you +knew." +</P> + +<P> +She laughed, and then sat down on the sofa opposite Clare, with her +chin resting on her hand. +</P> + +<P> +"So you see, Miss Trojan, it's natural, after all, that I kept the +letters." +</P> + +<P> +Clare had listened to the last part of her speech in silence, her lips +firmly closed, her hands folded on her lap. As she listened to her she +knew that it was quite hopeless, that nothing that she could ever say +would change the young person's mind. She was horribly disappointed, +of course, and it would be terrible to be forced to return to Robin, +and tell him that she had failed: for the first time she would have to +confess failure—but really she could not humble herself any longer: +she was not sure that, even now, she had not unbent a little more than +was necessary. If the young person refused to consider the question of +terms there was no more to be said—and how dare she talk about the +Trojans in that way? +</P> + +<P> +"Really, Miss Feverel, I scarcely think that it is necessary for us to +enter into a discussion of that kind, is it? I daresay you have every +reason for personal pride—but really that is scarcely my affair, is +it? If no offer of money can tempt you—well, really, there the matter +must rest, mustn't it? Of course I am sorry, but you know your own +mind. But that you should think yourself insulted by such an offer is, +it seems to me, a little absurd. It is quite obvious what you mean to +do with them." +</P> + +<P> +Dahlia smiled. +</P> + +<P> +"Is it?" she said. "That is very clever of you, Miss Trojan. I am +sorry that you should have so much trouble for such a little result." +</P> + +<P> +"There is no more to be said," answered Clare, moving to the door. +"Good morning," and she was gone. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh dear," said Dahlia, as she went back to the window, "how unpleasant +she is. Poor Robin! What a time he will have!" +</P> + +<P> +For her the pathos was over, but for them—well—it had not begun. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap12"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XII +</H3> + +<P> +The question of the Cove was greatly agitating the mind of Pendragon. +Meetings had been held, a scheme had been drawn up, and it would appear +that the thing was settled. It had been conclusively proved that two +rows of lodging-houses where the Cove now stood would be an excellent +thing. The town was over-crowded—it must spread out in some +direction, and the Cove-end was practically the only possible place for +spreading. +</P> + +<P> +The fishery had been declining year by year, and it was hinted at the +Club that it would be rather a good thing if it declined until it +vanished altogether; the Cove was in no sense of the word useful, and +by its lack of suitable drainage and defective protection from weather, +it was really something of a scandal,—it formed, as Mr. Grayseed, pork +butcher and mayor of the town, pointed out, the most striking contrast +with the upward development so marked in Pendragon of late years. He +called the Cove an "eyesore" and nearly proclaimed it an "anomaly"—but +was restrained by the presence of his wife, a nervous woman who +followed her husband with difficulty in his successful career, and +checked his language when the length of his words threatened their +accuracy. +</P> + +<P> +The town might be said to be at one on these points, and there was no +very obvious reason why the destruction of the Cove should not be +proceeded with—but, still, nothing was done. It was said by a few +that the Cove was picturesque and undoubtedly attracted strangers by +the reason of its dirty, crooked streets and bulging doorways—an odd +taste, they admitted, but nevertheless undoubted and of commercial +importance. On posters Pendragon was described as "the picturesque +abode of old-time manners and customs," and Baedeker had a word about +"charming old-time byways and an old Inn, the haunt, in earlier times, +of smugglers and freebooters." Now this was undoubtedly valuable, and +it would be rather a pity were it swept away altogether. Perhaps you +might keep the Inn—it might even be made into a Museum for relics of +old Pendragon—bits of Cornish crosses, stones, some quaint drawings of +the old town, now in the possession of Mr. Quilter, the lawyer. +</P> + +<P> +The matter was much discussed at the Club, and there was no doubt as to +the feeling of the majority; let the Cove go—let them replace it with +a smart row of red-brick villas, each with its neat strip of garden and +handsome wooden paling. +</P> + +<P> +Harry had learnt to listen in silence. He knew, for one thing, that no +one would pay very much attention if he did speak, and then, of late, +he had been flung very much into himself and his reserve had grown from +day to day. People did not want to listen to him—well, he would not +trouble them. He felt, too, as Newsome had once said to him, that he +belonged properly to "down-along," and he knew that he was out of touch +with the whole of that modern movement that was going on around him. +But sometimes, as he listened, his cheeks burned when they talked of +the Cove, and he longed to jump up and plead its defence; but he knew +that it would be worse than useless and he held himself in—but they +didn't know, they didn't know. It enraged him most when they spoke of +it as some lifeless, abstract thing, some old rubbish-heap that +offended their sight, and then he thought of its beauties, of the +golden sand and the huddling red and grey cottages clustering over the +sea as though for protection. You might fancy that the waves slapped +them on the back for good-fellowship when they dashed up against the +walls, or kissed them for love when they ran in golden ripples and +softly lapped the stones. +</P> + +<P> +On the second night after his visit to Dahlia Feverel, Harry went down, +after dinner, to the Cove. He found those evening hours, before going +to bed, intolerable at the House. The others departed to their several +rooms and he was suffered to go to his, but the loneliness and +dreariness made reading impossible and his thoughts drove him out. He +had lately been often at the Inn, for this was the hour when it was +full, and he could sit in a corner and listen without being forced to +take any part himself. To-night a pedlar and a girl—apparently his +daughter—were entertaining the company, and even the melancholy sailor +with one eye seemed to share the feeling of gaiety and chuckled +solemnly at long intervals. It was a scene full of colour; the lamps +in the window shone golden through the haze of smoke on to the black +beams of the ceiling, the dust-red brick of the walls and floor, and +the cavernous depths of the great fireplace. Sitting cross-legged on +the table in the centre of the room was the pedlar, a little, dark, +beetle-browed man, and at his side were his wares, his pack flung open, +and cloths of green and gold and blue and red flung pell-mell at his +side. Leaning against the table, her hands on her hips, was the girl, +dark like her father, tall and flat-chested, with a mass of black hair +flung back from her forehead. No one knew from what place they had +come nor whither they intended to go—such a visit was rare enough in +these days of trains—and the little man's reticence was attacked again +and again, but ever unsuccessfully. There were perhaps twenty sailors +in the room, and they sat or stood by the fireplace watching and +listening. +</P> + +<P> +Harry slipped in and took his place by Newsome in the corner. +</P> + +<P> +"I will sing," said the girl. +</P> + +<P> +She stood away from the table and flung up her head—she looked +straight into the fire and swayed her body to the time of her tune. +Her voice was low, so that men bent forward in order that they might +hear, and the tune was almost a monotone, her voice rising and falling +like the beating of the sea, with the character of her words. She sang +of a Cornish pirate, Coppinger, "Cruel Coppinger," and of his deeds by +land and sea, of his daring and his cleverness and his brutality, and +the terror that he inspired, and at last of his pursuit by the king's +cutter and his utter vanishing "no man knew where." But gradually as +her song advanced Coppinger was forgotten and her theme became the +sea—she spoke like one possessed, and her voice rose and fell like the +wind—all Time and Place were lost. Harry felt that he was unbounded +by tradition of birth or breeding, and he knew that he was absolutely +as one of these others with him in the room—that he felt that call of +those old gods just as they did. The girl ceased and the room was +silent. Through the walls came the sound of the sea—in the fire was +the crackling of the coals, and down the great chimney came a little +whistle of the wind. "A mighty fine pome 'tis fur sure," said the +white-bearded sailor solemnly, "and mostly wonderful true." He sighed. +"They'm changed times," he said. +</P> + +<P> +The girl sat on the table at her father's side, watching them +seriously. She flung her arms behind her head and then suddenly— +</P> + +<P> +"I can dance too," she said. +</P> + +<P> +They pulled the table back and watched her. +</P> + +<P> +It was something quite simple and unaffected—not, perhaps, in any way +great dancing, but having that quality, so rarely met with, of being +exactly right and suited to time and place. Her arms moved in ripples +like the waves of the sea—every part of her body seemed to join in the +same motion, but quietly, with perfect tranquillity, without any sense +of strain or effort. The golden lamps, the coloured clothes, the +red-brick floor, made a background of dazzling colour, and her black +hair escaped and fell in coils over her neck and shoulders. +</P> + +<P> +Suddenly she stopped. "There, that's all," she said, binding her hair +up again with quick fingers. She walked over to the sailors and talked +to them with perfect freedom and ease; at last she stayed by the +handsomest of them—a dark, well-built young fellow, who put his arm +round her waist and shared his drink with her. +</P> + +<P> +Harry, as he watched them, felt strangely that it was for him a scene +of farewell—that it was for the last time that the place was to offer +him such equality or that he himself would be in a position to accept +it. He did not know why he had this feeling—perhaps it was the talk +of the Club about the Cove, or his own certain conviction that matters +at the House were rapidly approaching a crisis. Yes, his own protests +were of no avail—things must move, and perhaps, after all, it were +better that they should. +</P> + +<P> +Bethel came in, and as usual joined the group at the fire without a +word; he looked at the pedlar curiously and then seemed to recognise +him—then he went up to him and soon they were in earnest conversation. +It grew late, and at the stroke of midnight Newsome rose to shut up the +house. +</P> + +<P> +"I will go back with you," Bethel said to Harry, and they walked to the +door together. For a moment Harry turned back. The girl was bending +over the sailor—her arms were round his neck, and his head was tilted +back to meet her mouth; the pedlar was putting his wares into his pack +again, but some pieces of yellow and blue silk had escaped him and lay +on the floor at his feet; down the street three of the sailors were +tramping home, and the chorus of a chanty died away as they turned the +corner. +</P> + +<P> +The girl, the pedlar, the colours of the room, the vanishing song, +remained with Harry to the end of his life—for that moment marked a +period. +</P> + +<P> +As he walked up the hill he questioned Bethel about the pedlar. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I had met him," he said vaguely. "One knows them all, you know. +But it is difficult to remember where. He is one of the last of his +kind and an amusing fellow enough——" But he sighed—"I am out of +sorts to-night—my kite broke. Do you know, Trojan, there are times +when one thinks that one has at last got right back—to the power, I +mean, of understanding the meaning and truth of things—and then, +suddenly, it has all gone and one is just where one was years ago and +it seems wasted. I tell you, man, last night I was on the moor and it +was alive with something. I can't tell you what—but I waited and +watched—I could feel them growing nearer and nearer, the air was +clearer—their voices were louder—and then suddenly it was all gone. +But of course you won't understand—none of you—why should you? You +think that I am flying a kite—why, I am scaling the universe!" +</P> + +<P> +"Whatever you are doing," said Harry seriously, "you are not keeping +your family. Look here, Bethel, you asked me once if I would be a +friend of yours. Well, I accepted that, and we have been good friends +ever since. But it really won't do—this kind of thing, I mean. +Scaling the universe is all very well, if you are a single man—then it +is your own look-out; but you are married—you have people depending on +you, and they will soon be starving." +</P> + +<P> +Bethel burst out laughing. +</P> + +<P> +"They've got you, Trojan! They've got you!" he cried. "I knew it +would come sooner or later, and it hasn't taken long. Three weeks and +you're like the rest of them. No, you mustn't talk like that, really. +Tell me I'm a damned fool—no good—an absolutely rotten type of +fellow—and it's all true enough. But you must accept it at that. At +least I'm true to my type, which is more than the rest of them are, the +hypocrites!—and as to my family, well, of course I'm sorry, but +they're happy enough and know me too well to have any hope of ever +changing me——" +</P> + +<P> +"No—of course, I don't want to preach. I'm the last man to tell any +one what they should do, seeing the mess that I've made of things +myself. But look here, Bethel, I like you—I count myself a friend, +and what are friends for if they're not to speak their minds?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! That's all right enough. Go on—I'll listen." He resigned +himself with a humorous submission as though he were indulging the +opinions of a child. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, it isn't right, you know—it isn't really. I don't want to tell +you that you're a fool or a rotter, because you aren't, but that's just +what makes it so disappointing for any one who cares about you. You're +letting all your finer self go. You're becoming, what they say you +are, a waster. Of course, finding yourself's all right—every man +ought to do that. But you have no right to throw off all claims as +completely as you have done. Life isn't like that. We've all got our +Land of Promise, and, just in order that it may remain, we are never +allowed to reach it. Whilst you are lying on your back on the moor, +your wife and daughter are killing themselves in order to keep the home +together—I say that it is not fair." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, come, Trojan," Bethel protested, "is that quite fair on your side? +Things are all right, you know. They like it better, they do really. +Why, if I were to stay at home and try to work they'd think I was going +to be ill. Besides, I couldn't—not at an office or anything like +that. It isn't my fault, really—but it would kill me now if I +couldn't get away when I want to—not having liberty would be worse +than death." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, that's yourself," said Harry. "That's selfish. Why don't you +think of them? You can't let things go on as they are, man. You must +get something to do." +</P> + +<P> +"I'm damned if I will." Bethel stopped short and stretched his arms +wide over the moor. "It isn't as if it would do them any good, and it +would kill me. Why, one is deaf and blind and dumb as soon as one has +work to do. I'm a child, you know. I've never grown up, and of course +I hadn't any right to marry. I don't know now why I did. And all you +people—you grown-ups—with your businesses and difficult pleasures and +noisy feasts—of course you can't understand what these things mean. +Only a few of you who sit with folded hands and listen can know what it +is. I saw a picture once—some people feasting in a forest, and +suddenly a little faun jumped from a tree on to their table and waited +for them to play with him. But some were eating and some drinking and +some talking scandal, and they did not see him. Only a little boy and +an old man—they were doing nothing—just dreaming—and they saw him. +Oh! I tell you, the dreamer has his philosophy and creed like the rest +of you!" +</P> + +<P> +"That's all very well," cried Harry. "But it's a case of bread and +butter. You will be bankrupt if you go on as you are!" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh no!" Bethel laughed. "Providence looks after the dreamers. +Something always happens—I know something will happen now. We are on +the edge of some good fortune. I can feel it." +</P> + +<P> +The man was incorrigible—there was no doubt of it—but Harry had +something further to say. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I want you to let me take a deeper interest in your affairs. +May I ask your daughter to marry me?" +</P> + +<P> +"What? Mary?" Bethel stopped and shouted—"Why! That's splendid! Of +course, that's what Providence has been intending all this time. The +very thing, my dear fellow——" and he put his arm on Harry's +shoulder—"there's no one I'd rather give my girl to. But it's nothing +to do with me, really. She'll know her mind and tell you what she +feels about it. Dear me! Just to think of it!" +</P> + +<P> +He broke out into continuous chuckles all the way home, and seemed to +regard the whole affair as a great joke. Harry left him shouting at +the moon. He had scarcely meant to speak of it so soon, but the +thought of her struggle and the knowledge of her father's utter +indifference decided matters. He went back to the house, determining +on an interview in the morning. +</P> + +<P> +Mary meanwhile had been spending an evening that was anything but +pleasant—she had been going through her accounts and was horrified at +what she saw. They were badly overdrawn, most of the shops had refused +them further credit, and the little income that came to them could not +hope to cover one-half of their expenses. What was to be done? Ruin +and disgrace stared them in the face. They might borrow, but there was +no one to whom she could go. They must, of course, give up their +little house and go into rooms, but that would make very little +difference. She looked at it from every point of view and could think +of no easier alternative. She puzzled until her head ached, and the +room, misty with figures, seemed to swim round her. She felt cruelly +lonely, and her whole soul cried out for Harry—he would help her, he +would tell her what to do. She knew now that she loved him with all +the strength that was in her, that she had always loved him, from the +first moment that she had known him. She remembered her promise to him +that she would come and ask for his help if she really needed it—well, +perhaps she would, in the end, but now, at least, she must fight it out +alone. The first obvious thing was that her parents must know; that +they would be of any use was not to be expected, but at least they must +realise on what quicksands their house was built. They were like two +children, with no sense whatever of serious consequences and penalties, +and they would not, of course, realise that they were face to face with +a brick wall of debts and difficulties and that there was no way +over—but they must be told. +</P> + +<P> +On the next morning, after breakfast, Mary penned her mother into the +little drawing-room and broached the subject. Mrs. Bethel knew that +something serious was to follow, and sat on the edge of her chair, +looking exactly like a naughty child convicted of a fault. She was +wearing a rather faded dress of bright yellow silk and little yellow +shoes, which she poked out from under her dress every now and again and +regarded with a complacent air. +</P> + +<P> +"They are really not so shabby, Mary, my dear—not nearly so shabby as +the blue ones, and a good deal more handsome—don't you think so, my +dear? But you say you want to talk about something, so I'll be +quiet—only if you wouldn't mind being just a little quick because +there are, really, so many things to be done this morning, that it +puzzles me how——" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, mother, I know. But there is something I want to say. I won't +be long, only it's rather important." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, dear—only don't scold. You look as if you were going to scold. +I can always tell by that horrid line you have, dear, in your forehead. +I know I've done something I oughtn't to, but what it is unless it's +those red silks I bought at Dixon's on Friday, and they were so cheap, +only——" +</P> + +<P> +"No, mother, it's nothing you've done. It's rather what I've done, or +all of us. We are all in the same boat. It's my managing, I suppose; +anyhow, I've made a mess of it and we're very near the end of the rope. +There doesn't seem any outlook anywhere. We're overdrawn at the bank; +they won't give us credit in the town, and I don't see where any's to +come from." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, it's money! Well, my dear, of course it is provoking—such a +horrid thing to have to worry about; but really I'm quite relieved. I +thought it was something I'd done. You quite frightened me; and I'm +glad you don't mind about the red silks, because it really was tempting +with——" +</P> + +<P> +"No, dear, that's all right. But this is serious. I've come to the +end and I want you to help me. Will you just go through the books with +me and see if anything can be done? I'm so tired and worried. I've +been going at them so long that I daresay I've muddled it. It mayn't +be quite so hopeless as I've made out." +</P> + +<P> +"The books! My dear Mary——" Mrs. Bethel looked at her daughter +pathetically. "You know that I've no head for figures. Why, when +mother died at home—we were in Chertsey then, Frank and Doris and +I—and I tried to manage things, you know, it was really too absurd. I +used to make the most ridiculous mistakes and Frank said that the +village people did just what they liked with me, and I remember old +Mrs. Blenkinsop charging me for eggs after the first month at quite an +outrageous rate because——" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, mother, I know. But two heads are better than one, and I am +really hopelessly puzzled to know what to do." Mary got up and went +over to her mother and put her arm round her. "You see, dear, it is +serious. There's no money at all—less than none; and I don't know +where we are to turn. There's no outlook at all. I'm afraid that it's +no use appealing to father—no use—and so it's simply left for us two +to do what we can. It's frightening always doing it alone, and I +thought you would help me." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, of course, Mary dear, I'll do what I can. No, I'm afraid that +it would be no good appealing to your father. It's strange how very +little sense he's ever had of money—of the value of it. I remember in +the first week that we were married he bought some book or other and we +had to go without quite a lot of things. I was angry then, but I've +learnt since. It was our first quarrel." +</P> + +<P> +She sighed. It was always Mrs. Bethel's method of dealing with any +present problem to flee into the happy land of reminiscence and to stay +there until the matter had, comfortably or otherwise, settled itself. +</P> + +<P> +"But I shouldn't worry," she said, looking up at her daughter. "Things +always turn up, and besides," she added, "you might marry, dear." +</P> + +<P> +"Marry!" Mary looked up at her mother sharply. Mrs. Bethel looked a +little frightened. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, you will, you know, dear, probably—and perhaps—well, if he had +money——" +</P> + +<P> +"Mother!" She sprang up from her chair and faced her with flaming +cheeks. "Do you mean to say that they are talking about it?" +</P> + +<P> +"They? Who? It was only Mrs. Morrison the other day, at tea-time, +said—that she thought——" +</P> + +<P> +"Mrs. Morrison? That hateful woman discussing me? Mother, how could +you let her? What did she say?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, only—I wish you wouldn't look so cross, dear. It was nothing +really—only that Mr. Trojan obviously cared a good deal—and it would +be so nice if——" +</P> + +<P> +"How dare she?" Mary cried again. "And you think it too, mother—that +I would go on my knees to him to take us out of our trouble—that I +would sweep his floors if he would help the family! Oh! It's hateful! +Hateful!" +</P> + +<P> +She flung herself into a chair by the window and burst into tears. +Mrs. Bethel stared at her in amazement. "Well, upon my word, my dear, +one never knows how to take you! Why, it wasn't as if she'd said +anything, only that it would be rather nice." She paused in utter +bewilderment and seemed herself a little inclined to cry. +</P> + +<P> +At this moment the door opened—Mary sprang up. "Who is it?" she asked. +</P> + +<P> +"Mr. Henry Trojan, miss, would like to come up if it wouldn't——" +</P> + +<P> +"No. Tell him, Jane, that——" +</P> + +<P> +But he had followed the servant and appeared in the doorway smiling. +</P> + +<P> +"I knew you wouldn't mind my coming unconventionally like this," he +said; "it's a terrible hour in the morning—but I felt sure that I +would catch you." +</P> + +<P> +He had seen at once that there was something wrong, and he stopped +confusedly in the doorway. +</P> + +<P> +But Mrs. Bethel came forward, smiling nervously. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, please, Mr. Trojan, do come in. We always love to see you—you +know we do—you're one of our real friends—one of our best—and it's +only too good of you to spare time to come round and see us. But I am +busy—it's quite true—one is, you know, in the morning; but I don't +think that Mary has anything very important immediately. I think she +might stop and talk to you," and in a confusion of tittered apologies +she vanished away. +</P> + +<P> +But he stood in the doorway, waiting for Mary to speak. She sat with +her head turned to the window and struggled to regain her self-command; +they had been talked about in the town. She could imagine how it had +gone. "Oh! the Bethel girl! Yes, after the Trojan money and doing it +cleverly too; she'll hook him all right—he's just the kind of man." +Oh! the hatefulness of it! +</P> + +<P> +"What's up?" He came forward a little, twisting his hat in his hands. +</P> + +<P> +"Nothing!" She turned round and tried to smile. Indeed she almost +laughed, for he looked so ridiculous standing there—like a great +schoolboy before the headmaster, his hat turning in his hands; or +rather, like a collie plunging out of the water and ready to shake +himself on all and sundry. As she looked at him she knew that she +loved him and that she could never marry him because Pendragon thought +that she had hooked him for his money. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—there is something. What is it?" He had come forward and taken +her hands. +</P> + +<P> +But she drew them away slowly and sat down on the sofa. "I'm tired," +she said a little defiantly, "that's all—you know if you will come and +call at such dreadfully unconventional hours you mustn't expect to find +people with all the paint on. I never put mine on till lunch——" +</P> + +<P> +"No—it's no good," he answered gravely. "You're worried, and it's +wrong of you not to tell me. You are breaking your promise——" +</P> + +<P> +"I made no promise," she said quickly. +</P> + +<P> +"You did—that day on the moor. We were to tell each other always if +anything went wrong. It was a bargain." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, nothing's wrong. I'm tired—bothered a bit—the old +thing—there's more to be bought than we're able to pay for." +</P> + +<P> +"I've come with a proposition," he answered gravely. "Just a +suggestion, which I don't suppose you'll consider—but you might—it is +that you should marry me." +</P> + +<P> +It had come so suddenly that it took her by surprise. The colour flew +into her cheeks and then ebbed away again, leaving her whiter than +ever. That he should have actually said the words made her heart beat +furiously, and there was a singing in her ears so that she scarcely +heard what he said. He paused a moment and then went on. "Oh! I know +it's absurd when we've only known each other such a little time, and +I've been telling myself that again and again—but it's no good. I've +tried to keep it back, but I simply couldn't help it—it's been too +strong for me." +</P> + +<P> +He paused again, but she said nothing and he went on. "I ought to tell +you about myself, so that you should know, because I'm really a very +rotten type of person. I've never done anything yet, and I don't +suppose I ever shall; I've been a failure at most things, and I'm +stupid. I never read the right sort of books, or look at the right +sort of pictures, or like the right sort of music, and even at the sort +of things that most men are good at I'm nothing unusual. I can't +write, you know, a bit, and in my letters I express myself like a boy +of fifteen. And then I'm old—quite middle-aged—although I feel young +enough. So that all these things are against me, and it's really a +shame to ask you." +</P> + +<P> +He paused again, and then he said timidly, bending towards her— +</P> + +<P> +"Could you ever, do you think, give me just a little hope—I wouldn't +want you to right away at once—but, any time, after you'd thought +about it?" +</P> + +<P> +She looked up at him and saw that he was shaking from head to foot. +Her pride was nearly overcome and she wanted to fling herself at his +feet, and kiss his hands, and never let him go, but she remembered that +Pendragon had said that she was catching him for his money; so, by a +great effort, she stayed where she was, and answered quietly, even +coldly— +</P> + +<P> +"I am more honoured, Mr. Trojan, than I can tell you by your asking me. +It is much, very much more than I deserve, and, indeed, I'm not in the +least worthy of it. I'm sorry, but I'm afraid it's no good. You see +I'm such a stupid sort of girl—I muddle things so. It would never do +for me to attempt to manage a big place like 'The Flutes'—and then I +don't think I shall ever marry. I don't think I am that sort of girl. +You have been an awfully good friend to me, and I'm more grateful to +you than I can say. I can't tell you how much you have helped us all +during these last weeks. But I'm afraid I must say no." +</P> + +<P> +The light from the window fell on her hair and the blue of her dress—a +little gold pin at her throat flashed and sparkled; his eye caught it, +and was fixed there. +</P> + +<P> +"No—don't say actually no." He was stammering. "Please—please. +Think about it after I have gone away. I will come again another day +when you have thought about it. I'm so stupid in saying things—I +can't express myself; but, Miss Bethel—Mary—I love you—I love you. +There isn't much to say about it—I can't express it any better—but, +please—you mustn't say no like that. I would be as good a husband to +you as I could, dear, always. I'm not the sort of fellow to change." +</P> + +<P> +"No"—she was speaking quickly as though she meant it to be final—"no, +really, I mean it. I can't, I can't. You see one has to feel certain +about it, hasn't one?—and I don't—not quite like that. But you are +the very best friend that I have ever had; don't let it spoil that." +</P> + +<P> +"Perhaps," he said slowly, "it's my age. You don't feel that you could +with a man old enough to be your father. But I'm young—younger than +Robin. But I won't bother you about it. Of course, if you are +certain——" +</P> + +<P> +He rose and stumbled a moment over the chair as he passed to the door. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! I'm so sorry!" she cried. "I——" and then she had to turn to +hide her face. In her heart there was a struggle such as she had never +faced before. Her love called her a fool and told her that she was +flinging her life away—that the ship of her good fortune was sailing +from her, and it would be soon beyond the horizon; but her pride +reminded her of what they had said—that she had laid traps for him, +for his money. +</P> + +<P> +"I am sorry," she said again. "But it must be only friendship." +</P> + +<P> +But she had forgotten that although her back was turned he was towards +the mirror. He could see her—her white face and quivering lips. +</P> + +<P> +He sprang towards her. +</P> + +<P> +"Mary, try me. I will love you better than any man in God's world, +always. I will live for you, and work for you, and die for you." +</P> + +<P> +It was more than she could bear. She could not reason now. She was +only resolved that she would not give way, and she pushed past him +blindly, her head hanging. +</P> + +<P> +The drawing-room door closed. He stared dully in front of him. Then +he picked up his hat and left the house. +</P> + +<P> +She had flung herself on her bed and lay there motionless. She heard +the door close, his steps on the stairs, and then the outer door. +</P> + +<P> +She sprang to the window, and then, moved by some blind impulse, rushed +to the head of the stairs. There were steps, and Mrs. Bethel's voice +penetrated the gloom. "Mary, Mary, where are you?" +</P> + +<P> +She crept back to her room. +</P> + +<P> +He walked back to "The Flutes" with the one fact ever before him—that +she had refused him. He realised now that it had been his love for her +that had kept him during these weeks sane and brave. Without it, he +could not have faced his recent troubles and all the desolate sense of +outlawry and desolation that had weighed on him so terribly. Now he +must face it, alone, with the knowledge that she did not love him—that +she had told him so. It was his second rejection—the second flinging +to the ground of all his defences and walls of protection. Robin had +rejected him, Mary had rejected him, and he was absolutely, horribly +alone. He thought for a moment of Dahlia Feverel and of her desertion. +Well, she had faced it pluckily; he would do the same. Life could be +hard, but he would not be beaten. His methods of consolation, his +pulling of himself together—it was all extremely commonplace, but then +he was an essentially commonplace man, and saw things unconfusedly, one +at a time, with no entanglement of motives or complicated searching for +origins. He had accepted the fact of his rejection by his family with +the same clear-headed indifference to side-issues as he accepted now +his rejection by Mary. He could not understand "those artist fellows +with their complications"—life for him was perfectly straight-forward. +</P> + +<P> +But the gods had not done with his day. On the way up to his room he +was met by Clare. +</P> + +<P> +"Father is worse," she said quickly. "He took a turn this morning, and +now, perhaps, he will not live through the night. Dr. Turner and Dr. +Craile are both with him. He asked for you a little while ago." +</P> + +<P> +She passed down the stairs—the quiet, self-composed woman of every +day. It was characteristic of a Trojan that the more agitated outside +circumstances became the quieter he or she became. Harry was Trojan in +this, and, as was customary with him, he put aside his own worries and +dealt entirely with the matter in hand. +</P> + +<P> +Already, over the house, a change was evident. In the absolute +stillness there could be felt the presence of a crisis, and the +monotonous flap of a blind against some distant window sounded clearly +down the passages. +</P> + +<P> +In Sir Jeremy's room there was perfect stillness. The two doctors had +gone downstairs and the nurse was alone. "He asked for you, sir," she +whispered; "he is unconscious again now." +</P> + +<P> +Harry sat down by the bed and waited. The air was heavy with scents of +medicine, and the drawn blinds flung grey, ghost-like shadows over the +bed. The old man seemed scarcely changed. The light had gone from his +eyes and his hand lay motionless on the sheets, and his lips moved +continually in a never-ceasing murmur. +</P> + +<P> +Suddenly he turned and his eyes opened. The nurse moved forward. +"Where's Harry?" He waved his arm feebly in the air. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm here, father," Harry said quietly. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, that's good"—he sank back on the pillows again. "I'm going to +die, you know, and I'm lonely. It's damned gloomy—got to die—don't +want to—but got to." +</P> + +<P> +He felt for his son's hand, found it, and held it. Then he passed off +again into half-conscious sleep, and Harry watched, his hand in his +father's and his thoughts with the girl and the boy who had rejected +him rather than with the old man who had accepted him. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap13"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIII +</H3> + +<P> +Meanwhile there was Robin—and he had been spending several very +unhappy days. In the gloom of his room, alone and depressed, he had +been passing things in review. He had never hitherto felt any very +burning desire to know how he stood with the world; at school and +Cambridge he had not thought at all—he had just, as it were, slid into +things; his surroundings had grouped themselves of their own accord, +making a delicately appreciative circle with no disturbing element. +His friends had been of his own kind, the things that he had wished to +do he had done, his thoughts had been dictated by set forms and +customs. This had seemed to him, hitherto, an extraordinarily broad +outlook; he had never doubted for a moment its splendid infallibility. +He applied the tests of his set to the world at large, and the world +conformed. Life was very easy on such terms, and he had been happy and +contented. +</P> + +<P> +His meeting with Dahlia had merely lent a little colour to his pleasant +complacency, and then, when it had threatened to become something more, +he had ruthlessly cut it out. This should have been simple enough, and +he had been at a loss to understand why the affair had left any traces. +Friends of his at college had had such episodes, and had been mildly +amused at their rapid conclusion. He had tried to be mildly amused at +the conclusion of his own affair, but had failed miserably. Why? ... +he did not know. He must be sensitive, he supposed; then, in that +case, he had failed to reach the proper standard.... Randal was never +sensitive. But there had been other things. +</P> + +<P> +During the last week everything had seemed to be topsy-turvy. He dated +it definitely from the arrival of his father. He recalled the day; his +tie was badly made, he remembered, and he had been rather concerned +about it. How curious it all was; he must have changed since then, +because now—well, ties seemed scarcely to matter at all. He saw his +father standing at the open window watching the lighted town.... +"Robin, old boy, we'll have a good time, you and I..."—and then Aunt +Clare with her little cry of horror, and his father's hurried apology. +That had been the beginning of things; one could see how it would go +from the first. Had it, after all, been so greatly his father's fault? +He was surprised to find that he was regarding his uncle and aunt +critically.... It had been their fault to a great extent—they had +never given him a chance. Then he remembered the next morning and his +own curt refusal to his father's invitation—"He had books to pack for +Randal!" How absurd it was, and he wondered why he should have +considered Randal so important. He could have waited for the books. +</P> + +<P> +But these things depended entirely on his own sudden discovery that he +had failed in a crisis—failed, and failed lamentably. He did not +believe that Randal would have failed. Randal would not have worried +about it for a moment. What, then, was precisely the difference? He +had acted throughout according to the old set formula—he had applied +all the rules of the game as he had learnt them, and nevertheless he +had been beaten. And so there had crept over him gradually, slowly, +and at last overwhelmingly, the knowledge that the world that he had +imagined was not the world as it is, that the people he had admired +were not the only admirable people in it, and that the laws that had +governed him were only a small fragment of the laws that rule the world. +</P> + +<P> +When this discovery first comes to a man the effect is deadening; like +a ship that has lost its bearings he plunges in a sea of entangled, +confused ideas with no assurances as to his own ability to reach any +safe port whatever. It is this crisis that marks the change from youth +to manhood. +</P> + +<P> +Three weeks ago Robin had been absolutely confident, not only in +himself, but in his relations, his House and his future; now he trusted +in nothing. But he had not yet arrived at the point when he could +regard his own shortcomings as the cause of his unhappiness; he pointed +to circumstances, his aunt, his uncle, Dahlia, even Randal, and he +began a search for something more reliable. +</P> + +<P> +Of course, his aunt and uncle might have solved the problem for him; he +had not dared to question them and they had never mentioned the subject +themselves, but they did not look as though they had succeeded—he +fancied that they had avoided him during the last few days. +</P> + +<P> +The serious illness of his grandfather still further complicated +matters; he was not expected to live through the week. Robin was +sorry, but he had never seen very much of his grandfather; and it was, +after all, only fitting that such a very old man should die some time; +no, the point really was that his father would in a week's time be Sir +Henry Trojan and head of the House—that was what mattered. +</P> + +<P> +Now his father was the one person whom he could find no excuse whatever +for blaming. He had stood entirely outside the affair from the +beginning, and, as far as Robin could tell, knew nothing whatever about +it. Robin, indeed, had taken care that he should not interfere; he had +been kept outside from the first. +</P> + +<P> +No, Robin could not blame his father for the state of things; perhaps, +even, it might have been better if his advice had been asked. +</P> + +<P> +But everything drove him back to the ultimate fact from which, indeed, +there was no escaping—that there was every prospect of his finding +himself, within a few weeks' time, the interesting centre of a common +affair in the Courts for Breach of Promise; and as this ultimate issue +shone clearer and clearer Robin's terror increased in volume. To his +excited fancy, living and dead seemed to turn upon him. Country +cousins—the Rev. George Trojan of West Taunton, a clergyman whose +evangelical tendencies had been the mock of the House; Colonel Trojan +of Cheltenham, a Port-and-Pepper Indian, as Robin had scornfully called +him; the Misses Trojan of Southsea, ladies of advanced years and +slender purses, who always sent him a card at Christmas; Mrs. Adeline +Trojan of Teignmouth, who had spent her life in beating at the doors of +London Society and had retired at last, defeated, to the provincial +gentility of a seaside town—Oh! Robin had laughed at them all and +scorned them again and again—and behold how the tables would be +turned! And the Dead! Their scorn would be harder still to bear. He +had thought of them often enough and had long ago known their histories +by heart. He had gazed at their portraits in the Long Gallery until he +knew every line of their faces: old Lady Trojan of 1640, a little like +Rembrandt's "Lady with the Ruff," with her stern mouth and eyes and +stiff white collar—she must have been a lady of character! Sir +Charles Trojan, her son, who plotted for William of Orange and was +rewarded royally after the glorious Revolution; Lady Gossiter Trojan, a +woman who had taken active part in the '45, and used "The Flutes" as a +refuge for intriguing Jacobites; and, best of all, a dim black picture +of a man in armour that hung over the mantel-piece, a portrait of a +certain Sir Robert Trojan who had fought in the Barons' Wars and been a +giant of his times; he had always been Robin's hero and had formed the +centre of many an imaginary tapestry worked by Robin's brain—and now +his descendant must pay costs in a Breach of Promise Case! +</P> + +<P> +They had all had their faults, those Trojans; some of them had robbed +and murdered with little compunction, but they had always had their +pride, they had never done anything really low—what they had done they +had done with a high hand; Robin would be the first of the family to +let them down. And it was rather curious to think that, three weeks +ago, it had been his father who was going to let them down. Robin +remembered with what indignation he had heard of his father's visits to +the Cove, his friendship with Bethel and the rest—but surely it was +they who had driven him out! It was their own doing from the first—or +rather his aunt and uncle's. He was beginning to be annoyed with his +aunt and uncle. He felt vaguely that they had got him into the mess +and were quite unable to pull him out again; which reflection brought +him back to the original main business, namely, that there was a mess, +and a bad one. +</P> + +<P> +It was one of his qualities of youth that he could not wait; patience +was an utterly unlearned virtue, and this desperate uncertainty, this +sitting like Damocles under a sword suspended by a hair, was hard to +bear. What was Dahlia doing? Had she already taken steps? He watched +every post with terror lest it should contain a lawyer's writ. He had +the vaguest ideas about such things ... perhaps they would put him in +prison. To his excited fancy the letters seemed enormous—horrible, +black, menacing, large for all the world to see. What had Aunt Clare +done? His uncle? And then, last of all, had his father any suspicions? +</P> + +<P> +Whether it was the London tailor, or simply the reassuring hand of +custom, his father was certainly not the uncouth person he had seemed +three weeks ago; in fact, Robin was beginning to think him rather +handsome—such muscles and such a chest!—and he really carried himself +very well, and indeed, loose, badly-made clothes suited him rather +well. And then he had changed so in other ways; there was none of that +overwhelming cheerfulness, that terrible hail-fellow-well-met kind of +manner now; he was brief and to the point, he seldom smiled, and surely +it wasn't to be wondered at after the way in which they had treated him +at the family council a week ago. +</P> + +<P> +There had been several occasions lately on which Robin would have liked +to have spoken to his father. He had begun, once, after breakfast, a +halting conversation, but he had only received monosyllables as a +reply—the thing had broken down painfully. And so he went down to his +aunt. +</P> + +<P> +It was her room again, and she was having tea with Uncle Garrett. +Robin remembered the last occasion, only a week ago, when he had made +his confession. He had been afraid of hurting his aunt then, he +remembered. He did not mind very much now ... he saw his aunt and +uncle as two people suddenly grown effete, purposeless, incapable. +They seemed to have changed altogether, which only meant that he was, +at last, finding himself. +</P> + +<P> +There hung a gloom over Clare's tea-table, partly, no doubt, because of +Sir Jeremy—the old man with the wrinkled hands and parchment face +seemed to follow one, noiselessly, remorselessly, through every passage +and into every room ... but there was also something else—that tension +always noticeable in a room where people whose recent action towards +some common goal is undeclared are gathered together; they were waiting +for some one else to make the next move. +</P> + +<P> +And it was Robin who made it, asking at once, as he dropped the sugar +into his cup and balanced for a moment the tongs in the air: "Well, +Aunt Clare, what have you done?" +</P> + +<P> +She noticed at once that he asked it a little scornfully, as though +assured beforehand that she had done very little. There was a note of +antagonism in the way that he had spoken, a hint, even, of challenge. +She knew at once that he had changed during the last week, and again, +knowing as she did of her failure with the girl, and guessing perhaps +at its probable sequence, she hated Harry from the bottom of her heart. +</P> + +<P> +"Done? Why, how, Robin dear? I don't advise those tea-cakes—they're +heavy. I must speak to Wilson—she's been a little careless lately; +those biscuits are quite nice. Done, dear?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, aunt—about Miss Feverel. No, I don't want anything to eat, +thanks—it seems only an hour or so since lunch—yes—about—well, +those letters?" +</P> + +<P> +Clare looked up at him pleadingly. He was speaking a little like +Harry; she had noticed during the last week that he had several things +in common with his father—little things, the way that he wrinkled his +forehead, pushed back his hair with his hand; she was not sure that it +was not conscious imitation, and indeed it had seemed to her during the +last week that every day drew him further from herself and nearer to +Harry. She had counted on this affair as a means of reclaiming him, +and now she must confess failure—Oh! it was hard! +</P> + +<P> +"Well, Robin, I have tried——" She paused. +</P> + +<P> +"Well?" he said drily, waiting. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm afraid it wasn't much of a success," she said, trying to laugh. +"I suppose that really I'm not good at that sort of thing." +</P> + +<P> +"At what sort of thing?" +</P> + +<P> +He stood over her like a judge, the certainty of her failure the only +thing that he could grasp. He did not recognise her own love for him, +her fear lest he should be angry; he was merciless as he had been three +weeks ago with his father, as he had been with Dahlia Feverel, and for +the same reason—because each had taken from him some of that armour of +self-confidence in which he had so greatly trusted; the winds of the +heath were blowing about him and he stood, stripped, shivering, before +the world. +</P> + +<P> +"She was not good at that sort of thing"—that was exactly it, exactly +the summary of his new feeling about his aunt and uncle; they were not +able to cope with that hard, new world into which he had been so +suddenly flung—they were, he scornfully considered, "tea-table" +persons, and in so judging them he condemned himself. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm so very sorry, dear. I did my very best. I went to see +the—um—Miss Feverel, and we talked about them. But I'm afraid that I +couldn't persuade her—she seemed determined——" +</P> + +<P> +"What did she say?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, very little—only that she considered that the letters were hers +and that therefore she had every right to keep them if she liked. She +seemed to attach some especial, rather sentimental value to them, and +considered, apparently, that it would be quite impossible to give them +up." +</P> + +<P> +"How was she looking—ill?" It had been one of Robin's consolations +during these weeks to imagine her pale, wretched, broken down. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh no, extremely well. She seemed rather amused at the whole affair. +I was not there very long." +</P> + +<P> +"And is that all you have done? Have you, I mean, taken any other +steps?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—I wrote yesterday morning. I got an answer this morning." +</P> + +<P> +"What was it?" Robin spoke eagerly. Perhaps his aunt had some surprise +in store and would produce the letters suddenly; surely Dahlia would +not have written unless she had relented. +</P> + +<P> +Clare went to her writing-table and returned with the letter, held +gingerly between finger and thumb. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm afraid it's not very long," she said, laughing nervously, and +again looking at Robin appealingly. "I had written asking her to think +over what she had said to me the day before. She says: +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"'DEAR Miss TROJAN—Surely the matter is closed after what happened the +other day? I am extremely sorry that you should be troubled by my +decision; but it is, I am afraid, unalterable.—Yours truly, +<BR><BR> +D. FEVEREL.'" +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +"Her decision?" cried Robin quickly. "Had she told you anything? Had +she decided anything?" +</P> + +<P> +"Only that she would keep the letters," answered Clare slowly. "You +couldn't expect me, Robin dear, to argue with her about it. One had, +after all, one's dignity." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! it's no use!" cried Robin. "She means to use them—of course, +it's all plain enough; we've just got to face it, I suppose"; and then, +as a forlorn hope, turning to his uncle— +</P> + +<P> +"You've done nothing, I suppose, Uncle Garrett?" +</P> + +<P> +His uncle had hitherto taken no part in the discussion, but sat intent +on the book that he was reading. Now he answered, without looking up— +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—I saw the girl." +</P> + +<P> +"You saw her?" from Clare. +</P> + +<P> +"What! Dahlia!" from Robin. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, I called." He laid the book down on his knee and enjoyed the +effect of his announcement. He could be important for a moment at any +rate, although he must, with his next words, confess failure, so he +prolonged the situation. "Some more tea, Clare, please, and not quite +so strong this time—you might speak about the tea—why not make it +yourself?" +</P> + +<P> +She took his cup and went over to the tea-table. She knew how to play +the game as well as he did, and she showed no astonishment or vulgar +curiosity, but if he had succeeded where she had failed she must change +her hand. She had never thought very much about Garrett; he was a +thorough Trojan—for that she was very grateful, but he had always been +more of an emblem to her than a man. Now if he had got the letters she +was humiliated indeed. Robin would despise her for having failed where +his uncle had succeeded. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, have you got them?" +</P> + +<P> +Robin bent forward eagerly. +</P> + +<P> +"No, not precisely," Garrett answered deliberately. "But I went to see +her——" +</P> + +<P> +"With what result?" +</P> + +<P> +"With no precise result—that is to say, she did not promise to +surrender them—not immediately. But I have every hope——" He paused +mysteriously. +</P> + +<P> +"Of what?" If his uncle had really a chance of getting them, he was +not such a fool after all. Perhaps he was a cleverer man than one gave +him credit for being. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, of course, one has very little ground for any real assertion, +but we discussed the matter at some length. I think I convinced her +that it would be her wisest course to deliver up the letters as soon as +might be, and I assured her that we would let the matter rest there and +take no further steps. I think she was impressed," and he sipped his +tea slowly and solemnly. +</P> + +<P> +"Impressed! Yes, but what has she promised?" Robin cried impatiently. +He knew Dahlia better than they did, and he did not feel somehow that +she was very likely to be impressed with Uncle Garrett. He was not the +kind of man. +</P> + +<P> +"Promised? No, not a precise promise—but she was quite pleasant and +seemed to be open to argument—quite a nice young person." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! you have done nothing!" There was a note of relief in Clare's +exclamation. "Why not say so at once, Garrett, instead of beating +about the bush? There is an end of it. We have failed, Robin, both of +us; we are where we were before, and what to do next I really don't +know." +</P> + +<P> +It was rather a comfort to drag Garrett into it as well. She was glad +that he had tried; it made her own failure less noticeable. +</P> + +<P> +Robin looked at both of them, gloomily, from the fireplace. Aunt +Clare, handsome, aristocratic, perfectly well fitted to pour out tea in +any society, but useless, useless, useless when it came to the real +thing; Uncle Garrett and his eyeglass, trying to make the most of a +situation in which he had most obviously failed—no, they were no good +either of them, and three weeks ago they had seemed the ultimate +standard by which his own life was to be tested. How quickly one +learnt! +</P> + +<P> +"Well, what is to be done?" he said desperately. "It's plain enough +that she means to stick to the things; and, after all, there can only +be one reason for her doing it—she means to use them. I can see no +way out of it at all—one must just stand up to it." +</P> + +<P> +"We'll think, dear, we'll think," said Clare eagerly. "Ideas are sure +to come if we only wait." +</P> + +<P> +"Wait! But we can't wait!" cried Robin. "She'll move at once. +Probably the letters are in the lawyer's hands already." +</P> + +<P> +"Then there's nothing to be done," said Garrett comfortably, settling +back again into his book—he was, he flattered himself, a man of most +excellent practical sense. +</P> + +<P> +"No, it really seems, Robin, as if we had better wait," said Clare. +"We must have patience. Perhaps after all she has taken no steps." +</P> + +<P> +But Robin was angry. He had long ago forgotten his share in the +business; he had adopted so successfully the rôle of injured sufferer +that his own actions seemed to him almost meritorious. But he was very +angry with them. Here they were, in the face of a family crisis, +deliberately adopting a policy of <I>laissez-faire</I>; he had done his best +and had failed, but he was young and ignorant of the world (that at +least he now admitted), but they were old, experienced, wise—or, at +least, they had always seemed to him to stand for experience and +wisdom, and yet they could do nothing—nay, worse—they seemed to wish +to do nothing—Oh! he was angry with them! +</P> + +<P> +The whole room with its silver and knick-knacks—its beautifully worked +cushions and charming water-colours, its shining rows of complete +editions and dainty china stood to him now for incapacity. Three weeks +ago it had seemed his Holy of Holies. +</P> + +<P> +"But we can't wait," he repeated—"we can't! Don't you see, Aunt +Clare, she isn't the sort of girl that waiting does for? She'd never +dream of waiting herself." Dahlia seemed, by contrast with their +complacent acquiescence, almost admirable. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, dear," Clare answered, "your uncle and I have both tried—I +think that we may be alarming ourselves unnecessarily. I must say she +didn't seem to me to bear any grudge against you. I daresay she will +leave things as they are——" +</P> + +<P> +"Then why keep the letters?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, sentiment. It would remind her, you see——" +</P> + +<P> +But Robin could only repeat—"No, she's not that kind of girl," and +marvel, perplexedly, at their short-sightedness. +</P> + +<P> +And then he approached the point— +</P> + +<P> +"There is, of course," he said slowly, "one other person who might help +us——" He paused. +</P> + +<P> +Garrett put his book down and looked up. Clare leaned towards him. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes?" Clare looked slightly incredulous of any suggested remedy—but +apparently composed and a little tired of all this argument. But, in +reality, her heart was beating furiously. Had it come at last?—that +first mention of his father that she had dreaded for so many days. +</P> + +<P> +"I really cannot think——" from Garrett. +</P> + +<P> +"Why not my father?" +</P> + +<P> +Again it seemed to Clare that she and Harry were struggling for Robin +... since that first moment of his entry they had struggled—she with +her twenty years of faithful service, he with nothing—Oh! it was +unfair! +</P> + +<P> +"But, Robin," she said gently—"you can't—not, at least, after what +has happened. This is an affair for ourselves—for the family." +</P> + +<P> +"But <I>he</I> is the family!" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, in a sense, yes. But his long absence—his different way of +looking at things—make it rather hard. It would be better, wouldn't +it, to settle it here, without its going further." +</P> + +<P> +"To <I>settle</I> it, yes—but we can't—we don't—we are leaving things +quite alone—waiting—when we ought to do something." +</P> + +<P> +Robin knew that she was showing him that his father was still outside +the circle—that for herself and Uncle Garrett recent events had made +no difference. +</P> + +<P> +But was he outside the circle? Why should he be? At any rate he would +soon be head of the House, and then it would matter very little—— +</P> + +<P> +"Also," Clare added, "he will scarcely have time just now. He is with +father all day—and I don't see what he could do, after all." +</P> + +<P> +"He could see her," said Robin slowly. He suddenly remembered that +Dahlia had once expressed great admiration for his father—she was the +very woman to like that kind of man. A hurried mental comparison +between his father and Uncle Garrett favoured the idea. +</P> + +<P> +"He could see her," he said again. "I think she might like him." +</P> + +<P> +"My dear boy," said Garrett, "take it from me that what a man could do +I've done. I assure you it's useless. Your father is a very excellent +man, but, I must confess, in my opinion scarcely a diplomat——" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, at any rate it's worth trying," cried Robin impatiently. "We +must, I suppose, eat humble pie after the things you said to him, Aunt +Clare, the other day, but I must confess it's the only chance. He will +be decent about it, I'm sure—I think you scarcely realise how nasty it +promises to be." +</P> + +<P> +"Who is to ask?" said Garrett. +</P> + +<P> +"I will ask him," said Clare suddenly. "Perhaps after all Robin is +right—he might do something." +</P> + +<P> +It might, she thought, be the best thing. Unless he tried, Robin would +always consider him capable of succeeding—but he should try and +fail—fail! Why, of course he would fail. +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you, Aunt Clare." Robin walked to the door and then turned: +"Soon would be best"—then he closed the door behind him. +</P> + +<P> +His father was coming down the stairs as he passed through the hall. +He saw him against the light of the window and he half turned as though +to speak to him—but his father gave no sign; he looked very +stern—perhaps his grandfather was dead. +</P> + +<P> +The sudden fear—the terror of death brought very close to him for the +first time—caught him by the throat. +</P> + +<P> +"He is not dead?" he whispered. +</P> + +<P> +"He is asleep," Harry said, stopping for a moment on the last step of +the stairs and looking at him across the hall—"I am afraid that he +won't live through the night." +</P> + +<P> +They had both spoken softly, and the utter silence of the house, the +heaviness of the air so that it seemed to hang in thick clouds above +one's head, drove Robin out. He looked as though he would speak, and +then, with bent head, passed into the garden. +</P> + +<P> +He felt most miserably lonely and depressed—if he hadn't been so old +and proud he would have hidden in one of the bushes and cried. It was +all so terrible—his grandfather, that weighty, eerie impression of +Death felt for the first time, the dreadful uncertainty of the Feverel +affair, all things were quite enough for misery, but this feeling of +loneliness was new to him. +</P> + +<P> +He had always had friends, but even when they had failed him there had +been behind them the House—its traditions, its records, its +history—his aunt and uncle, and, most reassuring of all, himself. +</P> + +<P> +But now all these had failed him. His friends were vaguely +unattractive; Randal was terribly superficial, he was betraying the +House; his aunt and uncle were unsatisfactory, and for himself—well, +he wasn't quite so splendid as he had once thought. He was wretchedly +dissatisfied with it all and felt that he would give all the polish and +culture in the world for a simple, unaffected friendship in which he +could trust. +</P> + +<P> +"Some one," he said angrily, "that would do something"—and his +thoughts were of his father. +</P> + +<P> +It was dark now, and he went down to the sea, because he liked the +white flash of the waves as they broke on the beach—this sudden +appearing and disappearing and the rustle of the pebbles as they turned +slowly back and vanished into the night again. +</P> + +<P> +He liked, too, the myriad lights of the town: the rows of lamps, rising +tier on tier into the night sky, like people in some great amphitheatre +waiting in silence for the rising of a mighty curtain. He always +thought on these nights of Germany—Germany, Worms, the little +bookseller, the distant gleam of candles in the Cathedrals, the flash +of the sun through the trees over the Rhine, the crooked, cobbled +streets at night with the moon like a lamp and the gabled roofs +flinging wild shadows over the stones ... the night-sea brought it very +close and carried Randal and Cambridge and Dahlia Feverel very far +away, although he did not know why. +</P> + +<P> +He watched the light of the town and the waves and the great flashing +eye of the lighthouse and then turned back. As he climbed the steps up +the cliff he heard some one behind him, and, turning, saw that it was +Mary Bethel. She said "Good-night" quickly and was going to pass him, +but he stopped her. +</P> + +<P> +"I haven't seen you for ages, Mary," he said. He resolved to speak to +her. She knew his father and had always been a good sort—perhaps she +would help him. +</P> + +<P> +"Are you coming back, Robin?" she said, stopping and smiling. There +was a lamp at the top of the cliff where the road ran past the steps, +and by the light of it he saw that she had been crying. But he was too +much occupied with his own affairs to consider the matter very deeply, +and then girls cried so easily. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," he said, "let us go round by the road and the Chapel—it's a +splendid night; besides, we don't seem to have met recently. We've +both been busy, I suppose, and I've a good deal to talk about." +</P> + +<P> +"If you like," she said, rather listlessly. It would, at least, save +her from her own thoughts and protect her perhaps from the ceaseless +repetition of that scene of three days ago when she had turned the man +that she loved more than all the world away and had lied to him because +she was proud. +</P> + +<P> +And so at first she scarcely listened to him. They walked down the +road that ran along the top of the cliff and the great eye of the +lighthouse wheeled upon them, flashed and vanished; she saw the room +with its dingy carpet and wide-open window, and she heard his voice +again and saw his hands clenched—oh! she had been a fine fool! So it +was little wonder that she did not hear his son. +</P> + +<P> +But Robin had at last an audience and he knew no mercy. All the +agitation of the last week came pouring forth—he lost all sense of +time and place; he was at the end of the world addressing infinity on +the subject of his woes, and it says a good deal for his vanity and not +much for his sense of humour that he did not feel the lack of +proportion in such a position. +</P> + +<P> +"It was a girl, you know—perhaps you've met her—a Miss +Feverel—Dahlia Feverel. I met her at Cambridge and we got rather +thick, and then I wrote to her—rot, you know, like one does—and when +I wanted to get back the letters she wouldn't let me have them, and +she's going to use them, I'm afraid, for—well—Breach of Promise!" +</P> + +<P> +He paused and waited for the effect of the announcement, but it never +came; she was walking quickly, with her head lifted to catch the wind +that blew from the sea—he could not be certain that she had heard. +</P> + +<P> +"Breach of Promise!" he repeated impressively. "It would be rather an +awful thing for people in our position if it really came to that—it +would be beastly for me. Of course, I meant nothing by it—the +letters, I mean—a chap never does. Everybody at Cambridge talks to +girls—the girls like it—but she took it seriously, and now she may +bring it down on our heads at any time, and you can't think how beastly +it is waiting for it to come. We've done all we could—all of us—and +now I can tell you it's been worrying me like anything wondering what +she's done. My uncle and aunt both tried and failed; I was rather +disappointed, because after all one would have thought that they would +be able to deal with a thing like that, wouldn't one?" +</P> + +<P> +He paused again, but she only said "Yes" and hurried on. +</P> + +<P> +"So now I'm at my wits' end and I thought that you might help me." +</P> + +<P> +"Why not your father?" she said suddenly. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah! that's just it," he answered eagerly. "That's where I wanted you +to give me your advice. You see—well, it's a little hard to +explain—we weren't very nice to the governor when he came back +first—the first day or two, I mean. He was—well, different—didn't +look at things as we did; liked different things and had strong views +about knocking down the Cove. So we went on our way and didn't pay +much attention to him—I daresay he's told you all about it—and I'm +sorry enough now, although it really was largely his own fault! I +don't think he seemed to want us to have much to do with him, and then +one day Clare spoke to him about things and asked him to consider us a +little and he flared up. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I've a sort of idea that he could help us now—at any rate, +there's no one else. Aunt Clare said that she would ask him, but you +know him better than any of us, and, of course, it is a little +difficult for us, after the way that we've spoken to him; you might +help us, I thought." +</P> + +<P> +He couldn't be sure, even now, that Mary had been listening—she looked +so strange this evening that he was afraid of her, and half wished that +he had kept his affairs to himself. She was silent for a moment, +because she was wondering what it was that Harry had really done about +the letters. It was amusing, because they obviously didn't know that +she had told him—but what had he done? +</P> + +<P> +"Do you want me to help you, Robin?" she asked. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, of course," he answered eagerly. "You know him so well and could +get him to do things that he would never do for us. I'm afraid of him, +or rather have been just lately. I don't know what there is about him +exactly." +</P> + +<P> +"You want me to help you?" she asked again. "Well then, you've got to +put up with a bit of my mind—you've caught me in a bad mood, and I +don't care whether it hurts you or not—you're in for a bit of plain +speaking." +</P> + +<P> +He looked up at her with surprise, but said nothing. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I know I'm no very great person myself," she went on +quickly—almost fiercely. "I've only known in the last few weeks how +rotten one can really be, but at least I have known—I do know—and +that's just what you don't. We've been friends for some time, you and +I—but if you don't look out, we shan't be friends much longer." +</P> + +<P> +"Why?" he asked quietly. +</P> + +<P> +"You were never very much good," she went on, paying no attention to +his question, "and always conceited, but that was your aunt's fault as +much as any one's, and she gave you that idea of your family—that you +were God's own chosen people and that no one could come within speaking +distance of you—you had that when you were quite a little boy, and you +seem to have thought that that was enough, that you need never do +anything all your life just because you were a Trojan. Eton helped the +idea, and when you went up to Cambridge you were a snob of the first +order. I thought Cambridge would knock it out of you, but it didn't; +it encouraged you, and you were always with people who thought as you +did, and you fancied that your own little corner of the earth—your own +little potato-patch—was better than every one else's gardens; I +thought you were a pretty poor thing when you came back from Cambridge +last year, but now you've beaten my expectations by a good deal——" +</P> + +<P> +"I say——" he broke in—"really I——" but she went on unheeding— +</P> + +<P> +"Instead of working and doing something like any decent man would, you +loafed along with your friends learning to tie your tie and choosing +your waistcoat-buttons; you go and make love to a decent girl and then +when you've tired of her tell her so, and seem surprised at her hitting +back. +</P> + +<P> +"Then at last when there is a chance of your seeing what a man is +like—that he isn't only a man who dresses decently like a tailor's +model—when your father comes back and asks you to spend a few of your +idle hours with him, you laugh at him, his manners, his habits, his +friends, his way of thinking; you insult him and cut him dead—your +father, one of the finest men in the world. Why, you aren't fit to +brush his clothes!—but that isn't the worst! Now—when you find +you're in a hole and you want some one to help you out of it and you +don't know where to turn, you suddenly think of your father. He wasn't +any good before—he was rough and stupid, almost vulgar, but now that +he can help you, you'll turn and play the dutiful son! +</P> + +<P> +"That's you as you are, Robin Trojan—you asked me for it and you've +got it; it's just as well that you should see yourself as you are for +once in your life—you'll forget it all again soon enough. I'm not +saying it's only you—it's the lot of you—idle, worthless, snobbish, +empty, useless. Help you? No! You can go to your father yourself and +think yourself lucky if he will speak to you." +</P> + +<P> +Mary stopped for lack of breath. Of course, he couldn't know that +she'd been attacking herself as much as him, that, had it not been for +that scene three days ago, she would never have spoken at all. +</P> + +<P> +"I say!" he said quietly, "is it really as bad as that? Am I that sort +of chap?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. You know it now at least." +</P> + +<P> +"It's not quite fair. I am only like the rest. I——" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, but why should you be? Fancy being proud that you are like the +rest! One of a crowd!" +</P> + +<P> +They turned up the road to her house, and she began to relent when she +saw that he was not angry. +</P> + +<P> +"No," he said, nodding his head slowly, "I expect you're about right, +Mary. Things have been happening lately that have made everything +different—I've been thinking ... I see my father differently...." +</P> + +<P> +Then, "How could you?" she cried. "<I>You</I> to cut him and turn him out? +Oh! Robin! you weren't always that sort——" +</P> + +<P> +"No," he answered. "I wasn't once. In Germany I was different—when I +got away from things—but it's harder here"—and then again +slowly—"But am I really as bad as that, Mary?" +</P> + +<P> +Sudden compunction seized her. What right had she to speak to him? +After all, he was only a boy, and she was every bit as bad herself. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! I don't know!" she said wearily. "I'm all out of sorts to-night, +Robin. We're neither of us fit to speak to him, and you've treated him +badly, all of you—I oughtn't to have spoken as I did, perhaps; but +here we are! You'd better forget it, and another day I'll tell you +some of the nice things about you——" +</P> + +<P> +"Am I that sort of chap?" he said again, staring in front of him with +his hand on the gate. She said good-night and left him standing in the +road. He turned up the hill, with his head bent. He was scarcely +surprised and not at all angry. It only seemed the climax to so many +things that had happened lately—"a snob"—"a pretty poor thing"—"You +don't work, you learn to choose your waistcoat-buttons"—that was the +kind of chap he was. And his father: "One of the finest men there +is——" He'd missed his chance, perhaps, he would never get it again! +But he would try! +</P> + +<P> +He passed into the garden and fumbled for his latch-key. He would +speak to his father to-morrow! +</P> + +<P> +Mary was quite right ... he <I>was</I> a "pretty poor thing!" +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap14"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIV +</H3> + +<P> +That night was never forgotten by any one at "The Flutes." Down in the +servants' hall they prolonged their departure for bed to a very late +hour, and then crept, timorously, to their rooms; they were extravagant +with the electric light, and dared Benham's anger in order to secure a +little respite from terrible darkness. Stories were recalled of Sir +Jeremy's kindness and good nature, and much speculation was indulged in +as to his successor—the cook recalled her early youth and an +engagement with a soldier that aroused such sympathy in her hearers +that she fraternised, unexpectedly, with Clare's maid—a girl who had +formerly been considered "haughty," but was now found to be agreeable +and pleasant. +</P> + +<P> +Above stairs there was the same restlessness and sense of uneasy +expectancy. Clare went to bed, but not to sleep. Her mind was not +with her father—she had been waiting for his death during many long +weeks, and now that the time had arrived she could scarcely think of it +otherwise than calmly. If one had lived like a Trojan one would die +like one—quietly, becomingly, in accordance with the best traditions. +She was sure that there would be something ready for Trojans in the +next world a little different from other folks' destiny—something +select and refined—so why worry at going to meet it? +</P> + +<P> +No, it was not Sir Jeremy, but Robin. Throughout the night she heard +the clocks striking the quarters; the first light of dawn crept timidly +through the shuttered blinds, the full blaze of the sun streamed on to +her bed—and she could not sleep. The conversation of the day before +recalled itself syllable for syllable; she read into it things that had +never been there and tortured herself with suspicion and doubt. Robin +was different—utterly different. He was different even from a week +ago when he had first told them of the affair. She could hear his +voice as he had bent over her asking her to forgive him; that had +seemed to her then the hour of her triumph—but now she saw that it was +the premonition of defeat. How she had worked for him, loved him, +spoilt him; and now, in these weeks, her lifework was utterly undone. +And then, in the terrible loneliness of her room, with the darkness on +the world and round her bed and at her heart, she wept—terrible, +tearless sobbing that left her in the morning weak, unstrung, utterly +unequal to the day. +</P> + +<P> +This conversation with Robin had also worried Garrett. The consolation +that he had frequently found in the reassuring comforts of his study +seemed utterly wanting to-night. The stillness irritated him; it +seemed stuffy, close, and he had an overmastering desire for a +companion. This desire he conquered, because he felt that it would be +scarcely dignified to search the byways of the house for a friend; but +he listened for steps, and fancied over and over again that he heard +the eagerly anticipated knock. But no one came, and he sat far into +the night, fancying strange sounds and trembling at the dark; and at +last fell asleep in his chair, and was discovered in an undignified +position on the floor in the early morning by the politely astonished +Benham. +</P> + +<P> +But it was for Harry that the night most truly marked a crisis. He +spent it in vigil by the side of his father, and watched the heavy +passing of the hours, like grey solemn figures through the darkened +room. The faint glimmer of the electric light, heavily shaded, assumed +fantastic and portentous shapes and fleecy enormous shadows on the +white surface of the staring walls. Strange blue shadows glimmered +through the black caverns of the windows, and faint lights came from +beneath the door, and hovered on the ceiling like mysteriously moving +figures. +</P> + +<P> +Sir Jeremy was perfectly still. Death had come to him very gently and +had laid its hand quietly upon him, with no violence or harshness. It +was only old age that had greeted him as a friend, and then with a +smile had persuaded him to go. He was unconscious now, but at any +moment his senses might return, and then he would ask for Harry. The +crisis might come at any time, and Harry must be there. +</P> + +<P> +He felt no weariness; his brain was extraordinarily active and he +passed every incident since his return in review. It all seemed so +clear to him now; the inevitability of it all; and his own blindness in +escaping the meaning of it. It seemed now that he had known nothing of +the world at all three weeks ago. Then he had judged it from his own +knowledge—now he saw it in many lights; the point of view of Robin, of +Dahlia Feverel, of Clare, of Sir Jeremy, of Bethel, of Mary—he had +arrived at the great knowledge that Life could be absolutely right for +many different sorts of people—that the same life, like a globe of +flashing colours, could shine into every corner of obscurity, gleaming +differently in every different place and yet be unchangeable. +Murderer, robber, violator, saint, priest, king, beggar—they were all +parts of a wonderful, inevitable world, and, he saw it now, were all of +them essential. He had been tolerant before from a wide-embracing +charity; he was tolerant now from a wide-embracing knowledge: "Er +liebte jeden Hund, und wünschte von jedem Hund geliebt zu sein." +</P> + +<P> +They had all learnt in that last three weeks. Dahlia Feverel would +pass into the world with that struggle at her heart and the strength of +her victory—his father would solve the greatest question of +all—Robin! Mary! Clare!—they had all been learning too, but what it +was that they had learnt he could not yet tell; the conclusion of the +matter was to come. But it had all been, for him at least, only a +prelude; he was to stand for the world as head of the House, he had his +life before him and his work to do, he had only, like Robin, just "come +of age." +</P> + +<P> +He did not know why, but he had no longer any doubt. He knew that he +would win Robin, he knew that he would win Mary; up to that day he had +been uncertain, vacillating, miserable—but now he had no longer any +hesitation. The work of his life was to fit Robin for his due +succession, and, please God, he would do it with all his heart and soul +and strength; there was to be no false sentiment, no shifting of +difficult questions, no hiding from danger, no sheltering blindly under +unquestioned creeds, no false bids for popularity. +</P> + +<P> +Robin was to be clean, straight, and sane, with all the sturdy +cleanliness and strength and sanity that his father's love and +knowledge could give him. +</P> + +<P> +Oh! he loved his son!—but no longer blindly, as he had loved him three +weeks ago ... and so he faced his future. +</P> + +<P> +And of Mary, too, he was sure. He knew that she loved him; he had seen +her face in the mirror as her lips had said "No," and he saw that her +heart had said "Yes." With the new strength that had come to him he +vowed to force her defences and carry her away.... Oh! he could be any +knight and fight for any lady. +</P> + +<P> +But as he sat by the bed, watching the dawn struggle through the blinds +and listening to the faint, clear twittering of birds in the grey, +dew-swept garden—he wished that he could tell his father of his +engagement. He wondered if there would be time. That it would please +the old man he knew, and it would seal the compact, and place a secret +blessing on their married life together. Yes, he would like to tell +him. +</P> + +<P> +The clocks struck five—he heard their voices echo through the house; +and, at the last, the tiny voice of the cuckoo clock sounded and the +little wild flap of his wings came quite clearly through the silence; +his voice was answered by a chorus from the garden, the voices of the +birds seemed to grow ever louder and louder; in that strange dark room, +with its shaded lights and heavy airs, it was clear and fresh like the +falling of water on cold, shining stone. +</P> + +<P> +Harry went softly to the window and drew back a corner of the blind. +The dawn was gradually revealing the forms and colours of the garden, +and in the grey, misty light things were mysterious and uncertain; like +white lights in a dusky room the two white statues shone through the +mist. At that strange hour they seemed in their right atmosphere; they +seemed to move and turn and bend—he could have fancied that they +sailed on the mist—that, for a moment, they had vanished and then that +they had grown enormous, monstrous. He watched them eagerly, and as +the light grew clearer he made them out more plainly—the straight, +eager beauty of the man, the dim, mysterious grace of the woman. +Perhaps they talked in those early hours when they were alone in the +garden; perhaps they might speak to him if he were to join them then. +Then he fancied that the mist formed into figures of men and women; to +his excited fancy the garden seemed peopled with shapes that increased +and dwindled and vanished. Round the statues many shapes gathered; one +in especial seemed to walk to and fro with its face turned to the +house. It was a woman—her grey dress floated in the air, and he saw +her form outlined against the statue. Then the mist seemed to sweep +down again and catch the statues in its eddies and hide them from his +gaze. The dawn was breaking very slowly. From the window the sweep of +the sea was, in daylight, perfectly visible: now in the dim grey of the +sky it was hidden—but Harry knew where it must be and watched for its +appearance. The first lights were creeping over the sky, breaking in +delicate tints and ripples of silver and curving, arc-shaped, from the +west to the east. +</P> + +<P> +Where sky and sea divided a faint pale line of grey hovered and broke, +turning into other paler lights of the most delicate blue. The dawn +had come. +</P> + +<P> +He turned back again to the garden and started with surprise: in the +more certain light there was no doubt that it was a woman who stood +there by the statues, guarding the first early beauties of the garden. +Everything was pearl-grey, save where, high above the water of the +fountain that stood in the centre of the lawn, the sky had broken into +a little lake of the palest blue and this was reflected in the still +mirror of the fountain—but it <I>was</I> a woman. He could see the outline +of her form—the bend of her neck as she turned with her face to the +house, the straight line of her arms as they tell at her sides. And, +as he looked, his heart began to beat thickly. He seemed to recognise +that carriage of the body from the hips, the fling-back of the head as +she stared towards the windows. +</P> + +<P> +The light of the dawn was breaking over the garden, the chorus of the +birds was loud in the trees, and he knew that it was no dream. +</P> + +<P> +He glanced for a moment at his father, and then crept softly from the +room. He found one of the nurses making tea over a spirit-lamp in the +dressing-room and asked her to take his place. +</P> + +<P> +The house was perfectly silent as he opened the French window of the +drawing-room and stepped on to the lawn. The grass was heavy with dew +and the fresh air beat about his face; he had never known anything +quite so fresh—the air, the grass, the trees, the birds' song like the +sound of hidden waters tumbling on to some unseen rock. +</P> + +<P> +Her face was turned away from him and his feet made no sound on the +grass. He came perfectly silently towards her, and then when he saw +that it had indeed been no imagination but that it was reality, and +when he knew all that her coming there meant and what it implied, for +moment his limbs shook so that he could scarcely stand. Then he +laughed a little and said "Mary!" +</P> + +<P> +She turned with a little cry, and when she saw who it was the crimson +flooded her face, changing it as the rising sun was soon to change the +grey of the sea and the garden. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh!" she cried, "I didn't know—I didn't mean. I——" +</P> + +<P> +"It is going to be a lovely day," he said quietly, "the sun will be up +in a moment. I have been watching you from my father's window." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! You mustn't!" she cried eagerly. "I thought that I was +safe—absolutely; I was here quite by chance—really I was—I couldn't +sleep, and I thought that I would watch the sunrise over the sea—and I +went down to the beach—and then—well, there was the little wood by +your garden, and it was so wonderfully still and silent, and I saw +those statues gleaming through the trees, and they looked so beautiful +that I came nearer. I meant to come only for a moment and then go away +again—but—I—stayed——" +</P> + +<P> +But he could scarcely hear what she said; he only saw her standing +there with her dress trembling a little in the breeze. +</P> + +<P> +"Mary," he said, "you did not mean what you told me the other day?" +</P> + +<P> +She looked at him for a moment and then suddenly flung out her hands +and touched his coat. "No," she answered. +</P> + +<P> +For a moment they were utterly silent. Then he took her into his arms. +</P> + +<P> +"I love you! How I love you!" +</P> + +<P> +Her hair was about his face, for a moment her face was buried in his +coat, then she lifted it and their lips met. +</P> + +<P> +He shook from head to foot, he crushed her to him, then he released her. +</P> + +<P> +She glanced up at him with her hand still touching his coat and looked +into his eyes. +</P> + +<P> +"I will love you and serve you and honour you always," she said. She +took his arm and they passed down the lawn and watched the light +breaking over the sea. The sky was broken into thousands of fleecy +clouds of mother-of-pearl—the sea was trembling as though the sun had +whispered that it was near at hand, and, on the horizon, the first bars +of pale gold heralded its coming. +</P> + +<P> +"I have loved you," he said, "since the first moment that I saw you—I +gave you tea and muffins; I deserted the Miss Ponsonbys in order to +serve you." +</P> + +<P> +"And I too!" she answered, laughing. "I could not eat the muffin for +love of you, and I was jealous of the Miss Ponsonbys!" +</P> + +<P> +"Why did you turn me out the other day?" +</P> + +<P> +"They had been talking—mother and the others; and I was hurt terribly, +and I thought that you would hear what they had said and would think, +perhaps, that it was true and would despise me. And then after you had +gone, I knew that nothing in the world could make any difference—that +they could say what they pleased, but that I could not live without +you—you see I am very young!" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, and I am so old, dear! You mustn't forget that! Do you think +that you could ever put up with any one as old as I am?" +</P> + +<P> +She laughed. "You are just the same age as myself," she cried. "You +will always be the same age, and I am not sure but I think that you are +younger——" +</P> + +<P> +And suddenly the sun had risen—a great ball of fire changing all the +blue of the sky to red and gold, and they watched as the gods had +watched the flaming ruin of Valhalla. +</P> + +<P> +But the daylight drove them to other thoughts. +</P> + +<P> +"I must go back," she said. "I will go down to the shore and perhaps +will meet father. Oh! you don't know what I have suffered during these +last few days. I thought that perhaps I had driven you away and that +you would never come back—and then I had a silly idea that I would +watch your windows—and so I came——" +</P> + +<P> +"Why! I have watched yours!" he cried—"often! Oh! we will have some +times!" +</P> + +<P> +"But you must remember that there will be three of us," she answered. +"There is Robin!" +</P> + +<P> +"Robin! Why, it will be splendid! You and Robin and I!" +</P> + +<P> +"Poor Robin——" She laughed. "You don't know how I scolded him last +night. It was about you and I was unhappy. He is changing fast, and +it is because of you. He has come round——" +</P> + +<P> +"We have all come round!" cried Harry. "He and you and I! Oh! this is +the beginning of the world for all of us—and I am forty-five! Will +you write to me later in the day? I cannot get down until to-night. +My father is very ill—I must be here. But write to me—a long +letter—it will be as though you were talking." +</P> + +<P> +She laughed. "Yes, I'll write," she cried; then she looked at him +again—"I love you," she said, as though she were reciting her faith, +"because you are good, because you are strong, because—oh! for no +reason at all—just because you are you." +</P> + +<P> +For a moment they watched the sea, and then again he took her in his +arms and held her as though he would never let her go—then she +vanished through the trees. +</P> + +<P> +The house was waking into life as he re-entered it; servants were astir +at an early hour: he had been away such a little time, but the world +was another place. Every detail of the house—the stairs, the hall, +the windows, the clocks, the pot-pourri scent from the bowls of dried +roses, the dance of the dust in the light of the rising sun, was +presented to him now with a new meaning. He was glad that she had +stayed with him such a little while—it made it more precious, her +coming with the shadows in that grey of breaking skies and a mysterious +plunging sea, and then vanishing with the rising sun. Oh! they would +come down to earth soon enough!—let him keep that kiss, those few +words, her last smile as she vanished into the wood, like the visible +signs of the other world that had, at last, been allowed to him. The +vision of the Grail had passed from his eyes, but the memory of it was +to be his most sacred possession. +</P> + +<P> +He went to his room, had a bath, and then returned to his father; of +course, he could not sleep. +</P> + +<P> +Clare, Garrett, and Robin met at breakfast with the sense of +approaching calamity heavy upon them. As far as Sir Jeremy himself was +concerned there was little real regret—how could there be? Of course, +there was the sentiment of separation, the breaking of a great many +ties that had been strong and traditional; but it was better that the +old man should go—of that there was no question. Sir Jeremy himself +would rather. No, "Le roi est mort" was easy enough to say, but how +"Vive le roi" stuck in their throats. +</P> + +<P> +Garrett hinted at a wretched night, and quoted Benham on the dangers of +an arm-chair at night-time. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course, one had been thinking," he said vaguely, after a melancholy +survey of eggs and bacon that developed into resignation over dry +toast—"there was a good deal to think about. But I certainly had +intended to go to bed—I can't imagine what——" +</P> + +<P> +Robin said nothing. His mind was busy with Mary's speech of the night +before; his world lay crumbled about him, and, like Cato, he was +finding a certain melancholy satisfaction in its ruins. His thoughts +were scarcely with his grandfather; he felt vaguely that there was +Death in the house and that its immediate presence was one of the +things that had helped to bring his self-content about his ears. But +it was of his father that he was thinking, and of a certain morning +when he had refused a walk. If he got a chance again! +</P> + +<P> +Clare looked wretched. Robin thought that she had never seemed so ill +before; there was, for the first time, an air of carelessness about +her, as though she had flung on her clothes anyhow—something utterly +unlike her. +</P> + +<P> +"I am going to speak to Harry this morning," she said. +</P> + +<P> +Garrett looked up peevishly. "Scarcely the time, Clare. I should say +that it were better for us to wait until—well, afterwards. There is, +perhaps, something a little indecent——" +</P> + +<P> +"I have considered the matter carefully," interrupted Clare decisively. +"This is the best time——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, well, of course. Only I should have thought that I might have had +just a little say in the matter. I was, after all, originally +consulted as well as yourself. I saw the girl, and was even, I might +venture to suggest, with her for some time. But, of course, a mere +man's opinion——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, don't be absurd, Garrett. It is I that have to ask him—it is +pretty obvious that I have every right to choose my own time." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! Please, don't let me interfere—only I should scarcely have +thought that this was quite the moment when Harry would be most +inclined to listen to you." +</P> + +<P> +"If we don't ask him now," she answered, "there's no knowing when we +shall have the opportunity. When poor father is gone he will have a +great deal to settle and decide; he will have no time for anything at +all for months ahead. This morning is our last chance." +</P> + +<P> +But she had another thought. Her great desire now was that he should +try and fail; that he would fail she was sure. She was eagerly +impatient for that day when he must come to them and admit his failure. +She looked ahead and fashioned that scene for herself—that scene when +Robin should know and confess that his father was only as the rest of +them; that their failure was his failure, their incapacity his +incapacity—and then the balance would be restored and Robin would see +as he had seen before. +</P> + +<P> +"Coffee, Robin? It's quite hot still. I saw Dr. Brady just now. He +says that there is no change, nor is there likely to be one for some +hours. You're looking tired, Robin, old boy. Have you been sleeping +on the floor, too?" +</P> + +<P> +"No!" He looked up and smiled. "But I was awake a good bit. The +house is different somehow, when——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh yes, I know. One feels it, of course. But eating's much the best +thing for keeping one's spirits up. I suppose Harry is coming down. +Just find out from Benham, will you, Wilder, whether Mr. Henry is +coming down?" +</P> + +<P> +The footman left the room, returning in a moment with the answer that +Mr. Henry was about to come down. +</P> + +<P> +Garrett moved to the door, but Clare stopped him. +</P> + +<P> +"I want you, Garrett—you can bear me out!" +</P> + +<P> +"I thought that my opinion was of so little importance," he answered +sulkily, "that I might as well go." +</P> + +<P> +But he sat down again and buried himself in his paper. +</P> + +<P> +They waited, and Robin made mental comparisons with a similar scene a +week before; there were still the silver teapot, the toast, the +ham—they were all there, and it was only he himself who had altered. +Only a week, and what a difference! What a cad he had been! a howling +cad! Not only to his father, but to Dahlia, to every one with whom he +had had to do. He did not spare himself; he had at least the pluck to +go through with it—<I>that</I> was Trojan. +</P> + +<P> +At Harry's entrance there was an involuntary raising of eyebrows to +see, if possible, how <I>he</I> took it; <I>it</I> being his own immediate +succession rather than his father's death. He was grave, of course, +but there was a light in his eyes that Clare could not understand. Had +he some premonition of her request? He apologised for being late. +</P> + +<P> +"I have been up most of the night. There is no immediate danger of a +change, but we ought, I think, to be ready. Yes, the toast, Robin, +please—I hope you've slept all right, Clare?" +</P> + +<P> +How quickly he had picked up the manner, she reflected, as she watched +him! But of course that was natural enough; once a Trojan, always a +Trojan, and no amount of colonies will do away with it. But three +weeks was a short time for so vast a change. +</P> + +<P> +"No, Harry, not very well—of course, it weighs on one rather." +</P> + +<P> +She sighed and rose from the breakfast-table; she looked terribly tired +and Harry was suddenly sorry for her, and, for the first time since the +night of his return, felt that they were brother and sister; but after +the adventure of the early morning it was as though he were related to +the whole world—Love and Death had drawn close to him, and, with the +sound of the beating of their wings, the world had revealed things to +him that had, in other days, been secrets. Love and Death were such +big things that his personal relations with Clare, with Garrett, even +with Robin, had assumed their true proportion. +</P> + +<P> +"Clare, you're tired!" he said. "I should go and lie down again. You +shall be told if anything happens." +</P> + +<P> +"No, thanks, Harry. I wanted to ask you something—but, perhaps, first +I ought to apologise for some of the things that I said the other day. +I said more than I meant to. I am sorry—but one forgets at times that +one has no right to meddle in other people's affairs. But now +I—we—all of us—want to ask you a favour——" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes?" he said, looking up. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, of course, this is scarcely the time. But it is something that +can hardly wait, and you can decide about acting yourself——" +</P> + +<P> +She paused. It was the very hardest thing that she had ever had to do, +and she would never forget it to the day of her death. But it was +harder for Robin; he sat there with flaming cheeks and his head +hanging—he could not look at his father. +</P> + +<P> +"It is to do with Robin—" Clare went on; "he was rather afraid to ask +you about it himself, because, of course, it is not a business of which +he is very proud, and so he has asked me to do it for him. It is a +girl—a Miss Feverel—whom he met at Cambridge and to whom he had +written letters, letters that gave the young woman some reasons to +suppose that he was offering her marriage. He saw the matter more +wisely after a time and naturally wished Miss Feverel to restore the +letters, but this she refused to do. Both Garrett and myself have done +what we could and have, I am afraid, failed. Miss Feverel is quite +resolute—most obstinately so. We are afraid that she may take steps +that would be unpleasant to all of us—it is rather worrying us, and we +thought—it seemed—in short, I determined to ask you to help us. With +your wider experience you will probably know the best way in which to +deal with such a person." +</P> + +<P> +Clare paused. She had put it as drily as possible, but it was, +nevertheless, humiliating. +</P> + +<P> +There was a pause. +</P> + +<P> +"I am scarcely surprised," said Harry, "that Robin is ashamed of the +affair." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course he is," answered Clare eagerly, "bitterly ashamed." +</P> + +<P> +"I suppose you made love to—ah—Miss Feverel?" he said, turning +directly to Robin. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," said Robin, lifting his head and facing his father. As their +eyes met the colour rushed to his cheeks. +</P> + +<P> +"It was a rotten thing to do," said Harry. +</P> + +<P> +"I have been very much ashamed of myself," answered Robin. "I would +make Miss Feverel any apology that is in my power, but there seems to +be little that I can do." +</P> + +<P> +Harry said no more. +</P> + +<P> +"I am really sorry," said Clare at last, "to speak about a business +like this just now—but really there is no time to lose. I am sure +that you will do something to prevent trouble in the Courts, and that +is what Miss Feverel seems to threaten." +</P> + +<P> +"What do you want me to do?" he asked. +</P> + +<P> +"To see her—to see her and try and arrange some compromise——" +</P> + +<P> +"I should have thought that Robin was the proper person——" +</P> + +<P> +"He has tried and failed; she would not listen to him." +</P> + +<P> +"Then I am afraid that she will not listen to me—a perfect stranger +with no claims on her interest." +</P> + +<P> +"It is precisely that. You will be able to put it on a business +footing, because sentiment does not enter into the question at all." +</P> + +<P> +"Do you want me to help you, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +At the direct question Robin looked up again. His father looked very +stern and judicial. It was the schoolmaster rather than the parent, +but, after all, what else could he expect? So he said, quite +simply—"Yes, father." +</P> + +<P> +But at this moment there was an interruption. With the hurried opening +of the door there came the sounds of agitated voices and steps in the +passage—then Benham appeared. +</P> + +<P> +"Sir Jeremy is worse, Mr. Henry. The doctor thinks that, perhaps——" +</P> + +<P> +Harry hurriedly left the room. Absolute silence reigned. The sudden +arrival of the long-expected crisis was terrifying. They sat like +statues, staring in front of them, and listening eagerly to every +sound. The monotonous ticking of the clock on the mantelpiece was +terrifying—the clock on the wall by the door seemed to run a race. +The "tick-tock" grew faster and faster—at last it was as if both +clocks were screaming aloud. +</P> + +<P> +The room was filled with the clamour, and through it all they sat +motionless and silent. +</P> + +<P> +In a moment Harry had returned. "All of you," he said quickly—"he +would like to see you—I am afraid——" +</P> + +<P> +After that Robin was confused and saw nothing clearly. As he crept +tremblingly up the stairs everything assumed gigantic and menacing +shapes—the clock, the pot-pourri bowls, the window-curtains, and the +brass rods on the stairs. In the room there was that grey half-light +that seemed so terrible, and the spurt and crackle of the fire seemed +to fill the place with sounds. He scarcely saw his grandfather. In +the centre of the bed, something was lying; the eyes gleamed for a +moment in the light of the fire, the lips seemed to move. But he did +not realise that those things were his grandfather whom he had known +for so many years—in another hour he would be dead. +</P> + +<P> +But the things that he saw were the shadows of the fire on the wall, +the dancing in the air of the only lock of hair that Dr. Brady +possessed, the way that Clare's hands were folded as she stood silently +by the bed, Uncle Garrett's waistcoat-buttons that shot little sparks +of light into the room as he turned, ever so slightly, from side to +side. +</P> + +<P> +At a motion of the doctor's, he came forward to bid Sir Jeremy +farewell. As he bent over the bed panic seized him—he did not see Sir +Jeremy but something horrible, terrible, ghoulish—Death. Then he saw +the old man's eyes, and they were twinkling; then he knew that he was +speaking to him. The words came with difficulty, but they were quite +clear— +</P> + +<P> +"You'll be a good man, Robin—but listen to your father—he +knows—he'll show you how to be a Trojan." +</P> + +<P> +For a moment he held the wrinkled, shrivelled hand in his own, and then +he stepped back. Clare bent down and kissed her father, and then +kneeled down by the bed; Robin had a mad longing to laugh as he saw his +uncle and aunt kneeling there, their heads made enormous shadows on the +wall. +</P> + +<P> +Harry also bent down and kissed his father; the old man held his hand +and kept it— +</P> + +<P> +"I've tried to be a fair man and a gentleman—I've not been a good one. +But I've had some fun and seen life—thank God, I was born a Trojan—so +will the rest of you. Harry, my boy, you're all right—you'll do. I'm +going, but I don't regret anything—your sins are experience—and the +greatest sin of all is not having any." +</P> + +<P> +His lips closed—as the fire flashed with the falling of a cavern of +blazing coal his head rolled back on to the pillow. +</P> + +<P> +Suddenly he smiled— +</P> + +<P> +"Dear old Harry!" he said, and then he died. +</P> + +<P> +The shadows from the fire leapt and danced on the wall, and the +kneeling figures by the bed flung grotesque shapes over the dead man. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap15"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XV +</H3> + +<P> +It was five o'clock of the same day and Harry was asleep in front of +his fire. In the early hours of the afternoon the strain under which +he had been during the past week began to assert itself, and every part +of his body seemed to cry out for sleep. +</P> + +<P> +His head was throbbing, his legs trembled, and strange lights and +figures danced before his eyes; he flung himself into a chair in his +small study at the top of the West Tower and fell asleep. +</P> + +<P> +He had grown to love that room very dearly: the great stretch of the +sea and the shining sand with the grey bending hills hemming it in; +that view was never the same, but with the passing of every cloud held +new colours like a bowl of shining glass. +</P> + +<P> +The room was bare and simple—that had been his own wish; a photograph +of his first wife hung over the mantelpiece, a small sketch of Auckland +Harbour, a rough drawing of the Terraces before their +destruction—these were all his pictures. +</P> + +<P> +He had been trying to read since his return, and copies of "The Egoist" +and some of Swinburne's poetry lay on the table; but the first had +seemed incomprehensible to him and the second indecent, and he had +abandoned them; but he <I>had</I> made one discovery, thanks to Bethel, Walt +Whitman's "Leaves of Grass"—it seemed to him the greatest book that he +had ever read, the very voicing of all his hopes and ideals and faith. +Ah! that man knew! +</P> + +<P> +Benham came in and drew the curtains. He watched the sleeping man for +a moment and nodded his head. He was the right sort, Mr. Harry! He +would do!—and the Watcher of the House stole out again. +</P> + +<P> +Harry slept on, a great, dreamless sleep, grey and formless as sleep of +utter exhaustion always is; then he suddenly woke to the dim twilight +of the room, the orange glow of the dying fire, and the distant +striking of the hour—it was six o'clock! +</P> + +<P> +As he lay back in his chair, dreamily, lazily watching the fire, his +thoughts were of his father. He had not known that he would regret him +so intensely, but he saw now that the old man had meant everything to +him during those first weeks of his return. He thought of him very +tenderly—his prejudices, his weaknesses, his traditions. It was +strange how alike they all were in reality, the Trojans! Sir Jeremy, +Clare, Garrett, Robin, himself, the same bedrock of traditional pride +was there, it was only that circumstances had altered them +superficially. Three weeks ago Clare and he had seemed worlds apart, +now he saw how near they were! But for that very reason, they would +never get on—he saw that quite clearly. They knew too well the weak +spots in each other's armour, and their pride would be for ever at war. +</P> + +<P> +He did not want to turn her out—she had been there for all those years +and it was her home; but he thought that she herself would prefer to +go. There was a charming place in Norfolk, Wrexhall Pogis, that had +been let for years, and there was quite a pleasant little place in +town, 3 Southwick Crescent—yes, she would probably prefer to go, even +had he not meant to marry Mary. The announcement of that little affair +would be something in the nature of a thunderbolt. +</P> + +<P> +It was impossible for him to go—the head of the House must always live +at "The Flutes." But he knew already how much that House was going to +mean to him, and so he guessed how much it must mean to Clare. +</P> + +<P> +And to Robin? What would Robin do? Three weeks ago there could have +been but one answer to that question—he would have followed his aunt. +Now Harry was not so sure. There was this affair of Miss Feverel; +probably Robin would come to him about it and then they would be able +to talk. He had had that very day a letter from Dahlia Feverel. He +looked at it again now; it said:— +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"DEAR MR. TROJAN—Mother and I are leaving Pendragon to-morrow—for +ever, I suppose—but before I go I thought that I should like to send +you a little line to thank you for your kindness to me. That sounds +terribly formal, doesn't it? but the gratitude is really there, and +indeed I am no letter-writer. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"You met a girl at the crisis in her life when there were two roads in +front of her and you helped her to choose the right one. I daresay +that you thought that you did very little—it cannot have seemed very +much, that short meeting that we had; but it made just the difference +to me and will, I know, be to me a white stone from which I shall date +my new life. I am not a strong woman—I never shall be a strong +woman—and it was partly because I thought that love for Robin was +going to give me that strength that it hurt so terribly when I found +that the love wasn't there. The going of my love hurt every bit as +much as the going of his—it had been something to be proud of. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"I relied on sentiment and now I am going to rely on work; those are +the only two alternatives offered to women, and the latter is so often +denied to them. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"I hope that it may, one day, give you pleasure to think that you once +helped a girl to do the strong thing instead of the weak one. Of +course, my love for Robin has died, and I see him clearly now without +exaggeration. What happened was largely my fault—I spoilt him, I +think, and helped his self-pride. I know that he has been passing +through a bad time lately, and I am sure that he will come to you to +help him out of it. He is a lucky fellow to have some one to help him +like that—and then he will suddenly see that he has done a rather +cruel thing. Poor Robin! he will make a fine man one day. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"I have got a little secretaryship in London—nothing very big, but it +will give me the work that I want; and, because you once said that you +believed in me, I will try to justify your belief. There! that is +sentiment, isn't it!—and I have flung sentiment away. Well, it is the +last time! +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"Good-bye—I shall never forget. Thank you.— +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +Yours sincerely,<BR> +DAHLIA FEVEREL."<BR> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +So perhaps, after all, Robin's mistakes had been for the good of all of +them. Mistake was, indeed, a slight word for what he had done, and, +thinking of it even now, Harry's anger rose. +</P> + +<P> +And she had been a nice girl, too, and a plucky one. +</P> + +<P> +He had answered her:— +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"MY DEAR MISS FEVEREL—I was extremely pleased to get your letter. It +is very good of you to speak as you have done about myself, but I +assure you that what I did was of the smallest importance. It was +because you had pluck yourself that you pulled through. You are quite +right to fling away sentiment. I came back to England three weeks ago +longing to call every man my brother. I thought that by a mere smile, +a bending of the finger, the world was my friend for life. I soon +found my mistake. Friendship is a very slow and gradual affair, and I +distrust the mushroom growth profoundly. Life isn't easy in that kind +of way; you and I have found that out together. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"I wish you every success in your new life; I have no doubt whatever +that you will get on, and I hope that you will let me hear sometimes +from you. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"Things have been happening quickly during the last few days. My +father died this morning; he was himself glad to go, but I shall miss +him terribly—he has been a most splendid friend to me during these +weeks. Then I know that you will be interested to hear that I am +engaged to Miss Bethel—you know her, do you not? I hope and believe +that we shall be very happy. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"As to Robin, he has, as you say, been having a bad time. To do him +justice it has not been only the fear of the letters that has hung over +him—he has also discovered a good many things about himself that have +hurt and surprised him. +</P> + +<P CLASS="letter"> +"Well, good-bye—I am sure that you will look back on the Robin episode +with gratitude. It has done a great deal for all of us. Good luck to +you!—Always your friend, +<BR><BR> +HENRY TROJAN." +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +He turned on the lights in his room and tried to read, but he found +that that was impossible. His eyes wandered off the page and he +listened: he caught himself again and again straining his ears for a +sound. He pictured the coming of steps up the stairs and then sharp +and loud along the passage—then a pause and a knock on his door. +Often he fancied that he heard it, but it was only fancy and he turned +away disappointed; but he was sure that Robin would come. +</P> + +<P> +They had decided not to dine downstairs together on that evening—they +were, all of them, overwrought and the situation was strained; they +were wondering what he was going to do. There were, of course, a +thousand things to be done, but he was glad that they had left him +alone for that night at any rate. He wanted to be quiet. +</P> + +<P> +He had written a letter of enormous length to Mary, explaining to her +what had happened and telling her that he would come to her in the +morning. It was very hard, even then, not to rush down to her, but he +felt that he must keep that day at least sacred to his father. +</P> + +<P> +Would Robin come? It was quarter to seven and that terrible sleep was +beginning to overcome him again. The fire, the walls, the pictures, +danced before his eyes ... the stories of the fishermen in the Cove +came back to him ... the Four Stones and the man who had lost his way +... the red tiles and the black rafters of "The Bended Thumb" ... and +then Mary's beauty above it all. Mary on the moors with the wind +blowing through her hair; Mary in the house with the firelight on her +face, Mary ... and then he suddenly started up, wide awake, for he +heard steps on the stair. +</P> + +<P> +He knew them at once—he never doubted that they were Robin's. The +last two steps were taken slowly and with hesitation. +</P> + +<P> +Then he hurried down the passage as though he had suddenly made up his +mind; then, again, there was a long pause before the door. At last +came the knock, timidly, and then another loudly and almost violently. +</P> + +<P> +Harry shouted "Come in," and Robin entered, his face pale and his hands +twisting and untwisting. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, Robin—do you want anything? Come in—sit down. I've been +asleep." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I'm sorry, did I wake you up? No, thanks, I won't sit down. I've +got some things I want to say. I'd rather say them standing up." +</P> + +<P> +There was a long pause. Harry said nothing and stared into the fire. +</P> + +<P> +"I've got a good lot to say altogether." Robin cleared his throat. +"It's rather hard. Perhaps this doesn't seem quite the time—after +grandfather—and—everything—but I couldn't wait very well. I've been +a bit uncomfortable." +</P> + +<P> +"Out with it," said Harry. "This time will do excellently—there's a +pause just now, but to-morrow everything will begin again and there's a +terrible lot to do. What is it?" +</P> + +<P> +Was it, he wondered, Robin's fault or his own that there was that +barrier so strangely defined between them even now? He could feel it +there in the room with them now. He wondered whether Robin felt it as +well. +</P> + +<P> +"It is about what my aunt said to you this morning—and other +things—other things right from the beginning, ever since you came +back. I'm not much of a chap at talking, and probably I shan't say +what I mean, but I will try. I've been thinking about it all lately, +but what made me come and speak to you was this morning—having to ask +you a favour after being so rude to you. A chap doesn't like doing +that, and it made me think—besides there being other things." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, there's no need to thank me about this morning," Harry said drily; +"I shall be very pleased to do what I can." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, it isn't that," Robin said quickly. "It isn't about that somehow +that I mind at all now; I have been worrying about it a good bit, but +that isn't what I want to speak about. I'll go through with it—Breach +of Promise—or whatever it is—if only you wouldn't think me—well, +quite an utter rotter." +</P> + +<P> +"I wish," said Harry quietly, "that you would sit down. I'm sure that +you would find it easier to talk." +</P> + +<P> +Robin looked at him for a moment and then at the chair—then he sat +down. +</P> + +<P> +"You see, somehow grandfather's dying has made things seem different to +one—it has made one younger somehow. I used to think that I was +really very old and knew a lot; but his death has shown me that I know +nothing at all—really nothing. But there have been a lot of things +all happening together—your coming back, that business with +Dahlia—Miss Feverel, you know—a dressing down that I got from Miss +Bethel the other evening, and then grandfather's dying——" +</P> + +<P> +He paused again and cleared his throat. He looked straight into the +fire, and, every now and again, he gave a little choke and a gasp which +showed that he was moved. +</P> + +<P> +"A chap doesn't like talking about himself," he went on at last; "no +decent chap does; but unless I tell you everything from the beginning +it will never be clear—I must tell you everything——" +</P> + +<P> +"Please—I want to hear." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, you see, before you came back, I suppose that I had really lots +of side. I never used to think that I had, but I see now that what +Mary said the other night was perfectly right—it wasn't only that I +'sided' about myself, but about my set and my people and everything. +And then you came back. You see we didn't any of us very much think +that we wanted you. To begin with, you weren't exactly like my +governor; not having seen you all my life I hadn't thought much about +you at all, and your letters were so unlike anything that I knew that I +hadn't believed them exactly. We were very happy as we were. I +thought that I had everything I wanted. And then you didn't do things +as we did; you didn't like the same books and pictures or anything, and +I was angry because I thought that I must know about those things and I +couldn't understand you. And then you know you made things worse by +trying to force my liking out of me, and chaps of my sort are awfully +afraid of showing their feelings to any one, least of all to a man——" +Robin paused. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes," said Harry, "I know." +</P> + +<P> +"But all this isn't an excuse really; I was a most awful cad, and +there's no getting away from it. But I think I began to see almost +from the very beginning that I hadn't any right to behave like that, +but I was obstinate. +</P> + +<P> +"And then I began to get in a fright about Miss Feverel. She wouldn't +give my letters back, although I went to her and Uncle Garrett and Aunt +Clare—all of us—but it was no good—she meant to keep them and of +course we knew why. And then, too, I saw at last that I'd behaved like +an utter cad—it was funny I didn't see it at the time. But I'd seen +other chaps do the same sort of thing and the girls didn't mind, and +I'd thought that she ought to be jolly pleased at getting to know a +Trojan—and all that sort of thing. +</P> + +<P> +"But when I saw that she wasn't going to give the letters back but +meant to use them I was terribly frightened. It wasn't myself so much, +although I hated the idea of my friends knowing about it all and +laughing at me—but it was the House too—my letting it down so. +</P> + +<P> +"I'd been thinking about you a good bit already. You see you changed +after Aunt Clare spoke to you that morning and I began to be rather +afraid of you—and when a chap begins to be afraid of some one he +begins to like him. I got Aunt Clare and Uncle Garrett to go and speak +to Dahlia, and they couldn't get anything out of her at all; so, then, +I began to wonder whether you could do anything, and as soon as I began +to wonder that I began to want to talk to you. But I never got much +chance; you were always in grandfather's room, and you didn't give me +much encouragement, did you? and then—I began to be awfully miserable. +I don't want to whine—I deserved it all right enough—but I didn't +seem to have a friend anywhere and all my things that I'd believed in +seemed to be worth nothing at all. Then I wanted to talk to you +awfully, and when grandfather was worse and was dying I began to see +things straight—and then I saw Mary and she told me right out what I +was, and I saw it all as clear as daylight. +</P> + +<P> +"And so; well, I've come—not to ask you to help me about Dahlia—but +whether you'll help me to play the game better. I wasn't always slack +and rotten like I am now. When I was in Germany I thought I was going +to do all sorts of things ... but anyhow I can't say exactly all that I +mean. Only I'm awfully lonely and terribly ashamed; and I want you to +forgive me for being so beastly to you——" +</P> + +<P> +He looked wretched enough as he sat there facing the fire with his lip +quivering. He made a strong effort to control himself, but in a moment +he had broken down altogether and hid his head in the arm of the chair, +sobbing as if his heart would break. +</P> + +<P> +Harry waited. The moment for which he had longed so passionately had +come at last; all those weary weeks had now received their reward. But +he was very tired and he could not remember anything except that his +boy was there and that he was crying and wanted some one to help +him—which was very sentimental. +</P> + +<P> +He got up from his chair and put his hand on Robin's shoulder. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin, old boy—don't; it's all right really. I've been waiting for +you to come and speak to me; of course, I knew that you would come. +Never mind about those other things—we're going to have a splendid +time, you and I." +</P> + +<P> +He put his arm round him. There was a moment's silence, then the boy +turned round and gripped his father's coat—then he buried his head in +his father's knees. +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +Benham entered half an hour later with Harry's evening meal. +</P> + +<P> +"I will have mine here, too, Benham," said Robin, "with my father." +</P> + +<P> +"There is one thing, Robin," said Harry a little later, laughing—"what +about the letters?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I know!" Robin looked up at his father appealingly. "I don't +know what you must think of me over that business. But I suppose I +believed for a time in it all, and then when I saw that it wouldn't do +I just wanted to get out of it as quickly as I could. I never seem to +have thought about it at all—and now I'm more ashamed than I can say. +But I think I'll go through with it; I don't see that there's anything +else very much for me to do, any other way of making up—I think I'd +rather face it." +</P> + +<P> +"Would you?" said Harry. "What about your friends and the House?" +</P> + +<P> +Robin flinched for a moment; then he said resolutely, "Yes, it would be +better for them too. You see they know already—the House, I mean. +All the chaps in the dining-hall and the picture-gallery, they've known +about it all day, and I know that they'd rather I didn't back out of +it. Besides—" he hesitated a moment. "There's another thing—I have +the kind of feeling that I can't have hurt Dahlia so very much if she's +the kind of girl to carry that sort of thing through; if, I mean, she +takes it like that she isn't the sort of girl that would mind very much +what I had done——" +</P> + +<P> +"Is she," said Harry, "that sort of girl?" +</P> + +<P> +"No, I don't think she is. That's what's puzzled me about it all. She +was worth twenty of me really. But any decent sort of girl would have +given them back——" +</P> + +<P> +"She has——" +</P> + +<P> +"What?" +</P> + +<P> +"Given them back." +</P> + +<P> +"The letters?" +</P> + +<P> +Harry went to his writing-table and produced the bundle. They lay in +his hand with the blue ribbon and the neat handwriting, "For Robert +Trojan," outside. +</P> + +<P> +Robin stared. "Not <I>the</I> letters?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—the letters; I have had them some days." +</P> + +<P> +But still he did not move. "<I>You've</I> had them?—several days?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. I went to see Miss Feverel on my own account and she gave me +them——" +</P> + +<P> +"You had them when we asked you to help us!" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—of course. It was a little secret of my own and Miss +Feverel's—our—if you like—revenge." +</P> + +<P> +"And we've been laughing at you, scorning you; and we tried—all of +us—and could do nothing! I say, you're the cleverest man in England! +Score! Why I should think you have!" and then he added, "But I'm +ashamed—terribly. You have known all these days and said nothing—and +I! I wonder what you've thought of me——" +</P> + +<P> +He took the letters into his hand and undid the ribbon slowly. "I'm +jolly glad you've known—it's as if you'd been looking after the family +all this time, while we were plunging around in the dark. What a +score! That we should have failed and you so absolutely succeeded—" +Then again, "But I'm jolly ashamed—I'll tell you everything—always. +We'll work together——" +</P> + +<P> +He looked them through and then flung them into the fire. +</P> + +<P> +"I've grown up," he suddenly cried; "come of age at last—at last I +know." +</P> + +<P> +"Not too fast," said Harry, smiling; "it's only a stage. There's +plenty to learn—and we'll learn it together." Then, after a pause, +"There's another thing, though, that will astonish you a bit—I'm +engaged——" +</P> + +<P> +"Engaged!" Robin stared. Quickly before his eyes passed visions of +terrible Colonial women—some entanglement that his father had +contracted abroad and had been afraid to announce before. Well, +whatever it might be, he would stand by him! It was they two against +the world whatever happened!—and Robin felt already the anticipatory +glow of self-sacrificing heroism. +</P> + +<P> +Harry smiled. "Yes—Mary Bethel!" +</P> + +<P> +"Mary! Hurrah!" +</P> + +<P> +He rushed at his father and seized his hand—"You and Mary! Why, it's +simply splendid! The very thing—I'd rather it were she than any +one!—she told me what she thought of me the other night, I can tell +you—fairly went for me. By Jove! I'm glad—we'll have some times, +three of us here together. When was it?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh! only this morning! I had asked her before, but it was only +settled this morning." +</P> + +<P> +Then Robin was suddenly grave. "Oh! but, I say, there's Aunt +Clare—and Uncle Garrett!" He had utterly forgotten them. What would +they say? The Bethels of all people! +</P> + +<P> +"Yes. I've thought about it. I'm very sorry, but I'm afraid Aunt +Clare won't want to stay. I don't see what's to be done. I haven't +told her yet——" +</P> + +<P> +Robin saw at once that he must choose his future; it was to be his aunt +or his father. His aunt with all those twenty years of faithful +service behind her, his aunt who had done everything for him—or his +father whom he had known for three weeks. But he had no hesitation; +there was now no question it was his father for ever against the world! +</P> + +<P> +"I'm sorry," he said slowly. "Perhaps there will be some arrangement. +Poor Aunt Clare! Did you—tell grandfather?" +</P> + +<P> +"No. I wanted to, but I had no opportunity. But he knows—I am sure +that he knows." +</P> + +<P> +Their thoughts passed to the old man. It was almost as if he had been +there in the room with them, and they felt, curiously, as though he had +at that moment handed over the keys of the House. For an instant they +saw him; his eyes like diamonds, his wrinkled cheeks, his crooked +fingers—and then his laugh. "Harry, my boy, you'll do." +</P> + +<P> +"It's almost as if he was here," said Robin. He turned round and put +his hand in his father's. +</P> + +<P> +"I know he's pleased," he said. +</P> + +<P> +And so it was during the next week, through the funeral, and the +gathering of relatives and the gradual dispersing of them again, and +the final inevitable seclusion when the world and the relations and the +dead had all joined in leaving the family alone. The gathering of +Trojans had shown, beyond a doubt, that Harry was quite fitted to take +his place at the head of the family. He had acted throughout with +perfect tact and everything had gone without a hitch. Many a Trojan +had arrived for the funeral—mournful, red-eyed Trojans, with black +crape and an air of deferential resignation that hinted, also, at +curiosity as regards the successor. They watched Harry, ready for +anything that might gratify their longing for sensational failure; a +man from the backwoods was certain to fail, and their chagrined +disappointment was only solaced by their certainty of some little +sensation in the announcement of his surprising success. +</P> + +<P> +Of course, Clare had been useful; it was on such an occasion that she +appeared at her best. She was kind to them all, but at the same time +impressed the dignity of her position upon them, so that they went away +declaring that Clare Trojan knew how to carry herself and was young for +her years. +</P> + +<P> +The funeral was an occasion of great ceremony, and the town attended in +crowds. Harry realised in their altered demeanour to himself their +appreciation of the value of his succession, and he knew that Sir Henry +Trojan was something very different from the plain Harry. But he had, +from the beginning, taken matters very quietly. Now that he was +assured of the affection of the only two people who were of importance +to him he could afford to treat with easy acquiescence anything else +that Fate might have in store for him. His diffidence, had, to some +extent, left him, and he took everything that came with an ease that +had been entirely foreign to him three weeks before. +</P> + +<P> +Clare might indeed wonder at the change in him, for she had not the key +that unlocked the mystery. The week seemed to draw father and son very +closely together. Years seemed to have made little difference in their +outlook on things, and in some ways Robin was the elder of the two. +They said nothing about Mary—that was to wait until after the funeral; +but the consciousness of their secret added to the bond between them. +</P> + +<P> +Clare herself regarded the future complacently. She was, she felt, +absolutely essential to the right ruling of the House, and she +intended, gradually but surely, to restore her command above and below +stairs. The only possible lion in her path was Harry's marrying, but +of that there seemed no fear at all. +</P> + +<P> +She admired him a little for his conduct during their father's funeral; +he was not such an oaf as she had thought—but she would bide her time. +</P> + +<P> +At last, however, the thunderbolt fell. It was a week after the +funeral, and they had reached dessert. Clare sometimes stayed with +them while they smoked, and, as a rule, conversation was not very +general. To-night, however, she rose to go. Her black suited her; her +dark hair, her dark eyes, the dark trailing clouds of her dress—it was +magnificently sombre against the firelight and the shine of the +electric lamps on the silver. But Harry's "Wait a moment, Clare, I +want to talk," called her back, and she stood by the door looking over +her shoulder at him. +</P> + +<P> +Then when she saw from his glance that it was a matter of importance, +she came back slowly again towards him. +</P> + +<P> +"Another family council?" said Garrett rather impatiently. "We have +had a generous supply lately." +</P> + +<P> +"I'm afraid this is imperative," said Harry. "I am sorry to bother +you, Clare, but this seems to me the best time." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, any time suits me," she said indifferently, sitting down +reluctantly. "But if it's household affairs, I should think that we +need hardly keep Garrett and Robin." +</P> + +<P> +"It is something that concerns us all four," said Harry. "I am going +to be married!" +</P> + +<P> +It had been from the beginning of things a Trojan dictum that the +revealing of emotion was the worst of gaucheries—Clare, Garrett, and +Robin himself had been schooled in this matter from their respective +cradles; and now the lesson must be put into practice. +</P> + +<P> +For Robin, of course, it was no revelation at all, but he dared not +look at his aunt; he understood a little what it must mean to her. To +those that watched her, however, nothing was revealed. She stood by +the fire, her hands at her side, her head slightly turned towards her +brother. +</P> + +<P> +"Might I ask," she said quietly, "the name of the fortunate lady?" +</P> + +<P> +"Miss Bethel!" +</P> + +<P> +"Miss Bethel!" Garrett sprang to his feet. "Harry, you must be +joking! You can't mean it! Not the daughter of Bethel at the +Point—the madman!—the——" +</P> + +<P> +"Please, Garrett," said Harry, "remember that she has promised to be my +wife. I am sorry, Clare——" +</P> + +<P> +He turned round to his sister. +</P> + +<P> +But she had said nothing. She pulled a chair from the table and sat +down, quietly, without obvious emotion. +</P> + +<P> +"It is a little unexpected," she said. "But really if we had +considered things it was obvious enough. It is all of a piece. Robin +tried for Breach of Promise, the Bethels in the house before father has +been buried for three days—the policy and traditions of the last three +hundred years upset in three weeks." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course," said Harry, "I could scarcely expect you to welcome the +change. You do not know Miss Bethel. I am afraid you are a little +prejudiced against her. And, indeed, please—please, believe me that +it has been my very last wish to go counter in any way to your own +plans. But it has seemed almost unavoidable; we have found that one +thing after another has arisen about which we could not agree. Is it +too late now to reconsider the position? Couldn't we pull together +from this moment?" +</P> + +<P> +But she interrupted him. "Come, Harry," she said, "whatever we are, +let us avoid hypocrisy. You have beaten me at every point and I must +retire. I have seen in three weeks everything that I had cared for and +loved destroyed. You come back a stranger, and without knowing or +caring for the proper dignity of the House, you have done what you +pleased. Finally, you are bringing a woman into the House whose +parents are beggars, whose social position makes her unworthy of such a +marriage. You cannot expect me to love you for it. From this moment +we cease to exist for each other. I hope that I may never see you +again or hear from you. I shall not indulge in heroics or melodrama, +but I will never forgive you. I suppose that the house at Norfolk is +at my disposal?" +</P> + +<P> +"Certainly," he answered. Then he turned to his brother. "I hope, +Garrett," he said, "that you do not feel as strongly about the matter +as Clare. I should be very glad if you found it possible to remain." +</P> + +<P> +That gentleman was in a difficult position; he changed colour and tried +to avoid his sister's eyes. After a rapid survey of the position, he +had come to the conclusion that he would not be nearly as comfortable +in Norfolk—he could not write his book as easily, and the house had +scarcely the same position of importance. He had grown fond of the +place. Harry, after all, was not a bad chap—he seemed very anxious to +be pleasant; and even Mary Bethel mightn't turn out so badly. +</P> + +<P> +"You see, Clare," he said slowly, "there is the book—and—well, on the +whole, I think it would be almost better if I remained; it is not, of +course, that——" +</P> + +<P> +Clare's lip curled scornfully. +</P> + +<P> +"I understand, Garrett, you could scarcely be expected to leave such +comforts for so slight a reason. And you, Robin?" +</P> + +<P> +She held the chair with her hand as she spoke. The fury at her heart +was such that she could scarcely breathe; she was quite calm, but she +had a mad desire to seize Harry as he sat there at the table and +strangle him with her hands. And Garrett!—the contemptible coward! +But if only Robin would come with her, then the rest mattered little. +After all, it had only been a fortnight ago when he had stood at her +side and rejected his father. The scene now was parallel—her voice +grew soft and trembled a little as she spoke to him. +</P> + +<P> +"Robin, dear, what will you do? Will you come with me?" +</P> + +<P> +For a moment father and son looked at each other, then Robin answered— +</P> + +<P> +"I shall be very glad to come and stay sometimes, Aunt +Clare—often—whenever you care to have me. But I think that I must +stay here. I have been talking to father and I am going up to London +to try, I think, for the Diplomatic. We thought——" +</P> + +<P> +But the "we" was too much for her. +</P> + +<P> +"I congratulate you," she said, turning to Harry. "You have done a +great deal in three weeks. It looks," she said, looking round the +room, "almost like a conspiracy. I——" Then she suddenly broke down. +She bent down over Robin and caught his head between her hands— +</P> + +<P> +"Robin—Robin dear—you must come, you must, dear. I brought you up—I +have loved you—always—always. You can't leave me now, old boy, after +all that I have done—all, everything. Why, he has done +nothing—he——" +</P> + +<P> +She kissed him again and again, and caught his hands: "Robin, I love +you—you—only in all the world; you are all that I have got——" +</P> + +<P> +But he put her hands gently aside. "Please—please—Aunt Clare, I am +dreadfully sorry——" +</P> + +<P> +And then her pride returned to her. She walked to the door with her +head high. +</P> + +<P> +"I will go to the Darcy's in London until that other house is ready. I +will go to-morrow——" +</P> + +<P> +She opened the door, but Harry sprang up— +</P> + +<P> +"Please, Clare—don't go like that. Think over it—perhaps +to-morrow——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, let me go," she answered wearily; "I'm tired." +</P> + +<P> +She walked up the stairs to her room. She could scarcely see—Robin +had denied her! +</P> + +<P> +She shut the door of her bedroom behind her and fell at the foot of her +bed, her face buried in her hands. Then at last she burst into a storm +of tears— +</P> + +<P> +"Robin! Robin!" she cried. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap16"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVI +</H3> + +<P> +It was Christmas Eve and the Cove lay buried in snow. The sea was grey +like steel, and made no sound as it ebbed and flowed up the little +creek. The sky was grey and snowflakes fell lazily, idly, as though +half afraid to let themselves go; a tiny orange moon glittered over the +chimneys of "The Bended Thumb." +</P> + +<P> +Harry came out of the Inn and stood for a moment to turn up the collar +of his coat. The perfect stillness of the scene pleased him; the world +was like the breathless moment before some great event: the opening of +Pandora's box, the leaping of armed men from the belly of the wooden +horse, the flashing of Excalibur over the mere, the birth of some +little child. +</P> + +<P> +He sighed as he passed down the street. He had read in his morning +paper that the Cove was doomed. The word had gone forth, the Town +Council had decided; the Cove was to be pulled down and a street of +lodging-houses was to take its place. Pendragon would be no longer a +place of contrasts; it would be all of a piece, a completely popular +watering-place. +</P> + +<P> +The vision of its passing hurt him—so much must go with it; and +gradually he saw the beauty and the superstition and the wonder being +driven from the world—the Old World—and a hard Iron and Steel +Materialism relentlessly taking its place. +</P> + +<P> +But he himself had changed; the place had had its influence on him, and +he was beginning to see the beauty of these improvements, these +manufactures, these hard straight lines and gaunt ugly squares. +Progress? Progress? Inevitable?—yes! Useful?—why, yes, too! But +beautiful?—Well, perhaps ... he did not know. +</P> + +<P> +At the top of the hill he turned and saluted the cold grey sky and sea +and moor. The Four Stones were in harmony to-day: white, and +pearl-grey, with hints of purple in their shadows—oh beautiful and +mysterious world! +</P> + +<P> +He went into the Bethels' to call for Mary. Bethel appeared for a +moment at the door of his study and shouted— +</P> + +<P> +"Hullo! Harry, my boy! Frightfully busy cataloguing! Going out for a +run in a minute!"—the door closed. +</P> + +<P> +His daughter's engagement seemed to have made little difference to him. +He was pleased, of course, but Harry wondered sometimes whether he +realised it at all. +</P> + +<P> +Not so Mrs. Bethel. Arrayed in gorgeous colours, she was blissfully +happy. She was at the head of the stairs now. +</P> + +<P> +"Just a minute, Harry—Mary's nearly ready. Oh! my dear, you haven't +been out in that thin waistcoat ... but you'll catch your death—just a +minute, my dear, and let me get something warmer? Oh do! Now you're +an obstinate, bad man! Yes, a bad, bad man"—but at this moment +arrived Mary, and they said good-bye and were away. +</P> + +<P> +During the few weeks that they had been together there had been no +cloud. Pendragon had talked, but they had not listened to it; they had +been perfectly, ideally happy. They seemed to have known each other +completely so long ago—not only their virtues but their faults and +failures. +</P> + +<P> +With her arm in his they passed through the gate and found Robin +waiting for them. +</P> + +<P> +"Hullo! you two! I've just heard from Macfadden. He suggests Catis in +Dover Street for six months and then abroad. He thinks I ought to pass +easily enough in a year's time—and then it will mean Germany!" +</P> + +<P> +His face was lighted with excitement. +</P> + +<P> +"Right you are!" cried Harry. "Anything that Macfadden suggests is +sure to be pretty right. What do you say, Mary?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I don't know anything about men's businesses," she said, laughing. +"Only don't be too long away, Robin." +</P> + +<P> +They passed down the garden, the three of them, together. +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +In Norfolk a woman sat at her window and watched the snow tumbling +softly against the panes. The garden was a white sea—the hills loomed +whitely beyond—the sky was grey with small white clouds, hanging like +pillows heavily in mid-air. +</P> + +<P> +The snow whirled and tossed and danced. +</P> + +<P> +Clare turned slowly from the windows and drew down the blinds. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="finis"> +THE END +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H5 ALIGN="center"> +<I>Printed by</I> R. & R. Clark, Limited, <I>Edinburgh</I> +</H5> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap17"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +BOOKS BY HUGH WALPOLE +</H3> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +<I>NOVELS</I> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +THE WOODEN HORSE<BR> +MR. PERRIN AND MR. TRAILL<BR> +THE GREEN MIRROR<BR> +THE DARK FOREST<BR> +THE SECRET CITY<BR> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +<I>ROMANCES</I> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +MARADICK AT FORTY<BR> +THE PRELUDE TO ADVENTURE<BR> +FORTITUDE<BR> +THE DUCHESS OF WREXE<BR> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +<I>BOOKS ABOUT CHILDREN</I> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +THE GOLDEN SCARECROW<BR> +JEREMY<BR> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +<I>BELLES-LETTRES</I> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +JOSEPH CONRAD: A Critical Study<BR> +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR><BR> + + + + + + + + +<pre> + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of The Wooden Horse, by Hugh Walpole + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE WOODEN HORSE *** + +***** This file should be named 27180-h.htm or 27180-h.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/2/7/1/8/27180/ + +Produced by Al Haines + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Wooden Horse + +Author: Hugh Walpole + +Release Date: November 6, 2008 [EBook #27180] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE WOODEN HORSE *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: Hugh Walpole. _From a photograph by Messrs. Elliott & +Fry_] + + + + + +THE + +WOODEN HORSE + + +BY + +HUGH WALPOLE + + + + +WITH A PORTRAIT + + + + +MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED + +ST. MARTIN'S STREET, LONDON + +1919 + + + + +MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED + + LONDON -- BOMBAY -- CALCUTTA -- MADRAS + MELBOURNE + + +THE MACMILLAN COMPANY + + NEW YORK -- BOSTON -- CHICAGO + DALLAS -- SAN FRANCISCO + + +THE MACMILLAN CO. OF CANADA, LTD. + + TORONTO + + + + +COPYRIGHT + + _First Published April 1909 + Second Impression October 1909 + Wayfarers' Library 1914 + New Edition 1919_ + + + + +TO + +W. FERRIS + +AFFECTIONATELY + + + + + "_Er liebte jeden Hund, und wuenschte von jedem Hund geliebt + zu sein._"--FLEGELJAHRE (JEAN PAUL). + + + + +CHAPTER I + +Robin Trojan was waiting for his father. + +Through the open window of the drawing-room came, faintly, the cries of +the town--the sound of some distant bell, the shout of fishermen on the +quay, the muffled beat of the mining-stamps from Porth-Vennic, a +village that lay two miles inland. There yet lingered in the air the +faint afterglow of the sunset, and a few stars, twinkling faintly in +the deep blue of the night sky, seemed reflections of the orange lights +of the herring-boats, flashing far out to sea. + +The great drawing-room, lighted by a cluster of electric lamps hanging +from the ceiling, seemed to flaunt the dim twinkle of the stars +contemptuously; the dark blue of the walls and thick Persian carpets +sounded a quieter note, but the general effect was of something +distantly, coldly superior, something indeed that was scarcely +comfortable, but that was, nevertheless, fulfilling the exact purpose +for which it had been intended. + +And that purpose was, most certainly, not comfort. Robin himself would +have smiled contemptuously if you had pleaded for something homely, +something suggestive of roaring fires and cosy armchairs, instead of +the stiff-backed, beautifully carved Louis XIV. furniture that stood, +each chair and table rigidly in its appointed place, as though bidding +defiance to any one bold enough to attempt alterations. + +The golden light in the sky shone faintly in at the open window, as +though longing to enter, but the dazzling brilliance of the room seemed +to fling it back into the blue dome of sea and sky outside. + +Robin was standing by a large looking-glass in the corner of the room +trying to improve the shape of his tie; and it was characteristic of +him that, although he had not seen his father for eighteen years, he +was thinking a great deal more about his tie than about the approaching +meeting. + +He was, at this time, twenty years of age. Tall and dark, he had all +the Trojan characteristics; small, delicately shaped ears; a mouth that +gave signs of all the Trojan obstinacy, called by the Trojans +themselves family pride; a high, well-shaped forehead with hair closely +cut and of a dark brown. He was considered by most people +handsome--but to some his eyes, of the real Trojan blue, were too cold +and impassive. He gave you the impression of some one who watched, +rather disdainfully, the ill-considered and impulsive actions of his +fellow-men. + +He was, however, exactly suited to his surroundings. He maintained the +same position as the room with regard to the world in general--"We are +Trojans; we are very old and very expensive and very, very good, and it +behoves you to recognise this fact and give way with fitting deference." + +He had not seen his father for eighteen years, and, as he had been +separated from him at the unimpressionable age of two, he may be said +never to have seen him at all. He had no recollection of him, and the +picture that he had painted was constructed out of monthly rather +uninteresting letters concerned, for the most part, with the care and +maintenance of New Zealand sheep, and such meagre details as his Aunt +Clare and Uncle Garrett had bestowed on him from time to time. From +the latter he gathered that his father had been, in his youth, in some +vague way, unsatisfactory, and had departed to Australia to seek his +fortune, with a clear understanding from his father that he was not to +return thence until he had found it. + +Robin himself had been born in New Zealand, but his mother dying when +he was two years old, he had been sent home to be brought up, in the +proper Trojan manner, by his aunt and uncle. + +On these things Robin reflected as he tried to twist his tie into a +fitting Trojan shape; but it refused to behave as a well-educated tie +should, and the obvious thing was to get another. Robin looked at his +watch. It was really extremely provoking; the carriage had been timed +to arrive at half-past six exactly; it was now a quarter to seven and +no one had appeared. There was probably not time to search for another +tie. His father would be certain to arrive at the very moment when one +tie was on and the other not yet on, which meant that Robin would be +late; and if there was one thing that a Trojan hated more than another +it was being late. With many people unpunctuality was a fault, with a +Trojan it was a crime; it was what was known as an "odds and ends"--one +of those things, like untidiness, eating your fish with a steel knife +and wearing a white tie with a short dinner-jacket, that marked a man, +once and for all, as some one outside the pale, an impossible person. + +Therefore Robin allowed his tie to remain and walked to the open window. + +"At any rate," he said to himself, still thinking of his tie, "father +won't probably notice it." He wondered how much his father _would_ +notice. "As he's a Trojan," he thought, "he'll know the sort of things +that a fellow ought to do, even though he has been out in New Zealand +all his life." + +It would, Robin reflected, be a very pretty little scene. He liked +scenes, and, if this one were properly manoeuvred, he ought to be its +very interesting and satisfactory centre. That was why it was really a +pity about the tie. + +The door from the library swung slowly open, and Sir Jeremy Trojan, +Robin's grandfather, was wheeled into the room. + +He was very old indeed, and the only part of his face that seemed alive +were his eyes; they were continually darting from one end of the room +to the other, they were never still; but, for the rest, he scarcely +moved. His skin was dried and brown like a mummy's, and even when he +spoke, his lips hardly stirred. He was in evening dress, his legs +wrapped tightly in rugs; his chair was wheeled by a servant who was +evidently perfectly trained in all the Trojan ways of propriety and +decorum. + +"Well, grandfather," said Robin, turning back from the window with the +look of annoyance still on his face, "how are you to-night?" Robin +always shouted at his grandfather although he knew perfectly well that +he was not deaf, but could, on the other hand, hear wonderfully well +for his age. Nothing annoyed his grandfather so much as being shouted +at, and of this Robin was continually reminded. + +"Tut, tut, boy," said Sir Jeremy testily, "one would think that I was +deaf. Better? Yes, of course. Close the windows!" + +"I'll ring for Marchant," said Robin, moving to the bell, "he ought to +have done it before." Sir Jeremy said nothing--it was impossible to +guess at his thoughts from his face; only his eyes moved uneasily round +the room. + +He was wheeled to his accustomed corner by the big open stone +fireplace, and he lay there, motionless in his chair, without further +remark. + +Marchant came in a moment later. + +"The windows, Marchant," said Robin, still twisting uneasily at his +tie, "I think you had forgotten." + +"I am sorry, sir," Marchant answered, "but Mr. Garrett had spoken this +morning of the room being rather close. I had thought that perhaps----" + +He moved silently across the room and shut the window, barring out the +fluttering yellow light, the sparkling silver of the stars, the orange +of the fishing-boats, the murmured distance of the town. + +A few moments later Clare Trojan came in. Although she had never been +beautiful she had always been interesting, and indeed she was (even +when in the company of women far more beautiful than herself) always +one of the first to whom men looked. This may have been partly +accounted for by her very obvious pride, the quality that struck the +most casual observer at once, but there was also an air of +indifference, a look in the eyes that seemed to pique men's curiosity +and stir their interest. It was not for lack of opportunity that she +was still unmarried, but she had never discovered the man who had +virtue and merit sufficient to cover the obvious disadvantages of his +not having been born a Trojan. Middle age suited the air of almost +regal dignity with which she moved, and people who had known her for +many years said that she had never looked so well as now. To-night, in +a closely-fitting dress of black silk relieved by a string of pearls +round her neck, and a superb white rose at her breast, she was almost +handsome. Robin watched her with satisfaction as she moved towards him. + +"Ah, it's cold," she said. "I know Marchant left those windows open +till the last moment. Robin, your tie is shocking. It looks as if it +were made-up." + +"I know," said Robin, still struggling with it; "but there isn't time +to get another. Father will be here at any moment. It's late as it +is. Yes, I told Marchant to shut the windows, he said something about +Uncle Garrett's saying it was stuffy or something." + +"Harry's late." Clare moved across to her father and bent down and +kissed him. + +"How are you to-night, father?" but she was arranging the rose at her +breast and was obviously thinking more of its position than of the +answer to her question. + +"Hungry--damned hungry," said Sir Jeremy. + +"Oh, we'll have to wait," said Clare. "Harry's got to dress. Anyhow +you've got no right to be hungry at a quarter to seven. Nobody's ever +hungry till half-past seven at the earliest." + +It was evident that she was ill at ease. Perhaps it was the prospect +of meeting her brother after a separation of eighteen years; perhaps it +was anxiety as to how this reclaimed son of the house of Trojan would +behave in the face of the world. It was so very important that the +house should not be in any way let down, that the dignity with which it +had invariably conducted its affairs for the last twenty years should +be, in no way, impaired. Harry had been anything but dignified in his +early days, and sheep-farming in New Zealand--well, of course, one knew +what kind of life that was. + +But, as she looked across at Robin, it was easy to see that her anxiety +was, in some way, connected with him. How was this invasion to affect +her nephew? For eighteen years she had been the only father and mother +that he had known, for eighteen years she had educated him in all the +Trojan laws and traditions, the things that a Trojan must speak and do +and think, and he had faithfully responded to her instruction. He was +in every way everything that a Trojan should be; but there had been +moments, rare indeed and swiftly passing, when Clare had fancied that +there were other impulses, other ideas at work. She was afraid of +those impulses, and she was afraid of what Henry Trojan might do with +regard to them. + +It was, indeed, hard, after reigning absolutely for eighteen years, to +yield her place to another, but perhaps, after all, Robin would be true +to his early training and she would not be altogether supplanted. + +"Randal comes to-morrow," said Robin suddenly, after a few minutes' +silence. "Unfortunately he can only stop for a few days. His paper on +'Pater' has been taken by the _National_. He's very much pleased, of +course." + +Robin spoke coldly and without any enthusiasm. It was not considered +quite good form to be enthusiastic; it was apt to lead you into rather +uncertain company with such people as Socialists and the Salvation Army. + +"I'm glad he's coming--quite a nice fellow," said Clare, looking at the +gold clock on the mantelpiece. "The train is shockingly late. On +'Pater' you said! I must try and get the _National_--Miss Ponsonby +takes it, I think. It's unusual for Garrett to be unpunctual." + +He entered at the same moment--a tall, thin man of forty years of age, +clean shaven and rather bald, with a very slight squint in the right +eye. He walked slowly, and always gave the impression that he saw +nothing of his surroundings. For the rest, he was said to be extremely +cynical and had more than a fair share of the Trojan pride. + +"The train is late," he said, addressing no one in particular. +"Father, how are you this evening?" + +This third attack on Sir Jeremy was repelled by a snort, which Garrett +accepted as an answer. "Robin, your tie is atrocious," he continued, +picking up the _Times_ and opening it slowly; "you had better change +it." + +Robin was prevented from answering by the sound of carriage-wheels on +the drive. Clare rose and stood by the fireplace near Sir Jeremy; +Garrett read to the end of the paragraph and folded the paper on his +knee; Robin fingered his watch-chain nervously and moved to his aunt's +side--only Sir Jeremy remained motionless and gave no sign that he had +heard. + +Perhaps he was thinking of that day twenty years before when, after a +very heated interview, he had forbidden his son to see his face again +until he had done something that definitely justified his existence. +Harry had certainly done several things since then that justified his +existence; he had, for one thing, made a fortune, and that was not so +easily done nowadays. Harry was five-and-forty now; he must be very +much changed; he had steadied down, of course ... he would be well +able to take his place as head of the family when Sir Jeremy himself.... + +But he gave no sign. You could not tell that he had heard the +carriage-wheels at all; he lay motionless in his chair with his eyes +half closed. + +There were voices in the hall. Beldam's superlatively courteous tones +as of one who is ready to die to serve you, and then another +voice--rather loud and sharp, but pleasant, with the sound of a laugh +in it. + +"They are in the blue drawing-room, sir--Mr. Henry," Beldam's voice was +heard on the stairs, and, in a moment, Beldam himself appeared--"Mr. +Henry, Sir Jeremy." Then he stood aside, and Henry Trojan entered the +room. + +Clare made a step forward. + +"Harry--old boy--at last------" + +Both her hands were outstretched, but he disregarded them, and, +stepping forward, crushed her in his arms, crushed her dress, crushed +the beautiful rose at her breast, and, bending down, kissed her again +and again. + +"Clare--after twenty years!" + +He let her go and she stepped back, still smiling, but she touched the +rose for a moment and her hair. He was very strong. + +And then there was a little pause. Harry Trojan turned and faced his +father. The old man made no movement and gave no sign, but he said, +his lips stirring very slightly, "I am glad to see you here again, +Harry." + +The man flushed, and with a little stammer answered, "I am gladder to +be back than you can know, father." + +Sir Jeremy's wrinkled hand appeared from behind the rugs, and the two +men shook in silence. + +Then Garrett came forward. "You're not much changed, Harry," he said +with a laugh, "in spite of the twenty years." + +"Why, Garrie!" His brother stepped towards him and laid a hand on his +shoulder. "It's splendid to see you again. I'd almost forgotten what +you were like--I only had that old photo, you know--of us both at +Rugby." + +Robin had stood aside, in a corner by the fireplace, watching his +father. It was very much as he had expected, only he couldn't, try as +he might, think of him as his father at all. The man there who had +kissed Aunt Clare and shaken hands with Sir Jeremy was, in some +unexplained way, a little odd and out of place. He was big and strong; +his hair curled a little and was dark brown, like Robin's, and his eyes +were blue, but, in other respects, there was very little of the Trojan +about him. His mouth was large, and he had a brown, slightly curling +moustache. Indeed the general impression was brown in spite of the +blue, badly fitting suit. He was deeply tanned by the sun and was +slightly freckled. + +He would have looked splendid in New Zealand or Klondyke, or, indeed, +anywhere where you worked with your coat off and your shirt open at the +neck; but here, in that drawing-room, it was a pity, Robin thought, +that his father had not stopped for two or three days in town and gone +to a West End tailor. + +But, after all, it was a very nice little scene. It really had been +quite moving to see him kiss Clare like that, but, at the same time, +for his part, kissing...! + +"And Robin?" said Harry. + +"Here's the son and heir," said Garrett, laughing, and pushing Robin +forward. + +Now that the moment had really come, Robin was most unpleasantly +embarrassed. How foolish of Uncle Garrett to try and be funny at a +time like that, and what a pity it was that his tie was sticking out at +one end so much farther than at the other. He felt his hand seized and +crushed in the grip of a giant; he murmured something about his being +pleased, and then, suddenly, his father bent down and kissed him on the +forehead. + +They were both blushing, Robin furiously. How he hated sentiment! He +felt sure that Uncle Garrett was laughing at him. + +"By Jove, you're splendid!" said Harry, holding him back with both his +hands on his shoulders. "Pretty different from the nipper that I sent +over to England eighteen years ago. Oh, you'll do, Robin." + +"And now, Harry," said Clare, laughing, "you'll go and dress, won't +you? Father's terribly hungry and the train was late." + +"Right," said Harry; "I won't be long. It's good to be back again." + +When the door had closed behind him, there was silence. He gave the +impression of some one filled with overwhelming, rapturous joy. There +was a light in his eyes that told of dreams at length fulfilled, and +hopes, long and wearily postponed, at last realised. He had filled +that stiff, solemn room with a spirit of life and strength and sheer +animal good health--it was even, as Clare afterwards privately +confessed, a little exhausting. + +Now she stood by the fireplace, smiling a little. "My poor rose," she +said, looking at some of the petals that had fallen to the ground. +"Harry is strong!" + +"He is looking well," said Garrett. It sounded almost sarcastic. + +Robin went up to his room to change his tie--he had said nothing about +his father. + +As Harry Trojan passed down the well-remembered passages where the +pictures hung in the same odd familiar places, past staircases +vanishing into dark abysses that had frightened him as a child, windows +deep-set in the thick stone walls, corners round which he had crept in +the dark on his way to his room, it seemed to him that those long, +dreary years of patient waiting in New Zealand were as nothing, and +that it was only yesterday that he had passed down that same way, his +heart full of rage against his father, his one longing to get out and +away to other countries where he should be his own master and win his +own freedom. And now that he was back again, now that he had seen what +that freedom meant, now that he had tasted that same will-o'-the-wisp +liberty, how thankful he was to rest here quietly, peacefully, for the +remainder of his days; at last he knew what were the things that were +alone, in this world, worth striving for--not money, ambition, success, +but love for one's own little bit of country that one called home, the +patient resting in the heritage of all those accumulating traditions +that ancestors had been making, slowly, gradually, for centuries of +years. + +He had hoped that he would have the same old rooms at the top of the +West Towers that he had had when a boy; he remembered the view of the +sea from their windows--the great sweep of the Cornish coast far out to +Land's End itself, and the gulls whirring with hoarse cries over his +head as he leant out to view the little cove nestling at the foot of +the Hall. That view, then, had meant to him distant wonderful lands in +which he was to make his name and his fortune: now it spoke of home and +peace, and, beyond all, of Cornwall. + +They had put him in one of the big spare rooms that faced inland. As +he entered the sense of its luxury filled him with a delicious feeling +of comfort: the log-fire burning in the open brown-tiled fireplace, the +softness of the carpets, the electric light, shaded to a soft glow--ah! +these were the things for which he had waited, and they had, indeed, +been worth waiting for. + +His man was laying his dress-clothes on his bed. + +"What is your name?" he said, feeling almost a little shy; it was so +long since he had had things done for him. + +"James Treduggan, sir," the man answered, smiling. "You won't remember +me, sir, I expect. I was quite a youngster when you went away. But +I've been in service here ever since I was ten." + +When Harry was left alone, he stood by the fire, thinking. He had been +preparing for this moment for so long that now that it was actually +here he was frightened, nervous. He had so often imagined that first +arrival in England, the first glimpse of London; then the first meeting +and the first evening at home. Of course, all his thoughts had centred +on Robin--everything else had been secondary, but he had, in some +unaccountable way, never been able to realise exactly what Robin would +be. He had had photographs, but they had been unsatisfactory and had +told him nothing; and now that he had seen him, he was at rest; he was +all that he had hoped--straight, strong, manly, with that clear steady +look in the eyes that meant so much; yes, there was no doubt about his +son. He remembered Robin's mother with affectionate tenderness; she +had been the daughter of a doctor in Auckland--he had fallen in love +with her at once and married her, although his prospects had been so +bad. They had been very happy, and then, when Robin was two years old, +she had died; the boy had been sent home, and he had been alone +again--for eighteen years he had been alone. There had been other +women, of course; he did not pretend to have been a saint, and women +had liked him and been rather sorry for him in those early years; but +they had none of them been very much to him, only episodes--the central +fact of his existence had always been his son. He had had a friend +there, a Colonel Durand, who had three sons of his own, and had given +him much advice as to his treatment of Robin. He had talked a great +deal about the young generation, about its impatience of older theories +and manners, its dislike of authority and restraint; and Harry, +remembering his own early hatred of restriction and longing for +freedom, was determined that he would be no fetter on his son's +liberty, that he would be to him a friend, a companion rather than a +father. After all, he felt no more than twenty-five--there was really +no space of years between them--he was as young to-day as he had been +twenty years ago. + +As to the others, he had never cared very much for Clare and Garrett in +the old days; they had been stiff, cold, lacking all sense of family +affection. But that had been twenty years ago. There had been a time, +in New Zealand, when he had hated Garrett. When he had been away from +home for some ten years, the longing to see his boy had grown too +strong to be resisted, and he had written to his father asking for +permission to return. He had received a cold answer from Garrett, +saying that Sir Jeremy thought that, as he was so successful there, it +would be perhaps better if he remained there a little while longer; +that he would find little to do at home and would only weary of the +monotony--four closely written pages to the same effect. So Harry had +remained. + +But that was ten years ago. At last, a letter had come, saying that +Sir Jeremy was now very old and feeble, that he desired to see his son +before he died, and that all the past was forgotten and forgiven. And +now there was but one thought in his heart--love for all the world, one +overwhelming desire to take his place amongst them decently, worthily, +so that they might see that the wastrel of twenty years ago had +developed into a man, able to take his place, in due time, at the head +of the Trojan family. Oh! how he would try to please them all! how he +would watch and study and work so that that long twenty years' exile +might be forgotten both by himself and by them. + +He bathed and dressed slowly by the fire. As he saw his clothes on the +bed he fancied, for a moment, that they might be a little worn, a +little old. They had seemed very good and smart in Auckland, but in +England it was rather different. He almost wished that he had stayed +in London for two days and been properly fitted by a tailor. But then +he had been so eager to arrive, he had not thought of clothes; his one +idea had been to rush down as soon as possible and see them all, and +the place, and the town. + +Then he remembered that Clare had asked him to be quick. He finished +his dressing hurriedly, turned out the electric light, and left the +room. + +He was pleased to find that he had not forgotten the turns and twists +of the house. He threaded the dark passages easily, humming a little +tune, and smelling that same sweet scent of dried rose leaves that he +had known so well when he was a small boy. He could see, in +imagination, the great white-and-pink china pot-pourri bowls standing +at the corner of the stairs--nothing was changed. + +The blue drawing-room was deserted when he entered it--only the blaze +of the electric light, the golden flame of the log-fire in the great +open fireplace, and the solemn ticking of the gold clock that had stood +there, in the same place of honour, for the last hundred years. He +passed over to the windows and flung them open; the hum of the town +came, with the cold night air, into the room. The stars were brilliant +to-night and the golden haze of the lamplight hung over the streets +like a magic curtain. Ah! how good it was! The peace of it, the +comfort, the homeliness! + +Above all, it was Cornwall--the lights of the herring fleet, the +distant rhythmical beat of the mining-stamps, that peculiar scent as of +precious spices coming with the wind of the sea, as though borne from +distant magical lands, all told him that he was, at last, again in +Cornwall. + +He drank in the night air, bending his eyes on the town as though he +were saluting it again, tenderly, joyously, with the greeting of an old +familiar friend. + +Robin closed the door behind him and shivered a little. The windows +were open--how annoying when Aunt Clare had especially asked that they +should be closed. Oh! it was his father! Of course, he did not know! + +He had not been noticed, so he coughed. Harry turned round. + +"Hullo, Robin, my boy!" He passed his arm through his son's and drew +him to the window. "Isn't it splendid?" he said. "Oh! I don't +suppose you see it now, after having been here all this time; you want +to go away for twenty years, then you'd know how much it's worth. Oh! +it's splendid--what times we'll have here, you and I!" + +"Yes," said Robin, a little coldly. It was very chilly with the window +open, and there was something in all that enthusiasm that was almost a +little vulgar. Of course, it was natural, after being away so long ... +but still.... Also his father's clothes were really very old--the back +of the coat was quite shiny. + +Sir Jeremy entered in his chair, followed by Clare and Garrett. + +Clare gave a little scream. + +"Oh! How cold!" she cried. "Now whoever----!" + +"I'm afraid I was guilty," said Harry, laughing. "The town looked so +splendid and I hadn't seen it for so long. I----" + +"Of course, I forgot," said Clare. "I don't suppose you notice open +windows in New Zealand, because you're always outside in the Bush or +something. But here we're as shivery as you make them. Dinner's +getting shivery too. The sooner we go down the better." + +She passed back through the door and down the hall. There was no doubt +that she was a magnificent woman. + +As Sir Jeremy was wheeled through the doors he gripped Harry's hand. +"I'm damned glad that you're back," he whispered. + +Robin, who was the last to leave the room, closed the windows and +turned out the lights. The room was in darkness save for the golden +light of the leaping fire. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +It had been called the "House of the Flutes" since the beginning of +time. People had said that the name was absurd, and Harry's +grandfather, a prosaic gentleman of rather violent radical opinions, +had made a definite attempt at a change--but he had failed. Trojans +had appeared from every part of the country, angry Trojans, tearful +Trojans, indignant Trojans, important Trojans, poor-relation Trojans, +and had, one and all, demanded that the name should remain, and that +the headquarters of the Trojan tradition, of the Trojan power, should +continue to be the "House of the Flutes." + +Of course, it had its origin in tradition. In the early days when +might was right, and the stronger seized the worldly goods of the +weaker and nobody said him nay, there had been a Sir Jeremy Trojan +whose wife had been the talk of the country-side both because of her +beauty and also because of her easy morals. Sir Jeremy having departed +on a journey, the lovely Lady Clare entertained a neighbouring baron at +her husband's bed and board, and for two days all was well. But Sir +Jeremy unexpectedly returned, and, being a gentleman of a pleasant +fancy, walled up the room in which he had found the erring couple and +left them inside. He then sat outside, and listened with a gentle +pleasure to their cries, and, being a musician of no mean quality, +played on the flute from time to time to prevent the hours from being +wearisome. For three days he sat there, until there came no more +sounds from that room; then he pursued his ordinary affairs, but sought +no other wife--a grim little man with a certain sense of humour. + +There are many other legends connected with the house; you will find +them in Baedeker, where it also says: "Kind permission is accorded by +Sir Henry Trojan to visitors who desire to see the rooms during the +residence of the family in London. Special attention should be paid to +the gold Drawing-room with its magnificent carving, the Library with +its fine collection of old prints, and the Long Gallery with the family +portraits, noticing especially the Vandyke of Sir Hilary Trojan +(_temp._ Ch. I.), and a little sketch by Turner of the view from the +West Tower. The gardens, too, are well worth a short inspection, +special mention being made of the Long Terrace with its magnificent +sea-view. + +"A small charge is made by Sir Henry for admittance (adults sixpence, +children half-price), with a view to benefiting the church, a building +recently restored and sadly in need of funds." + +So far Baedeker (Cornwall, new ed., 1908). The house is astonishingly +beautiful, seen from any point of view. Added to from time to time, it +has that air of surprise, as of a building containing endless secrets, +only some of which it intends to reveal. It is full of corners and +angles, and at the same time preserves a symmetry and grandeur of style +that is surprising, if one considers its haphazard construction and +random additions. + +Part of its beauty is undoubtedly owing to its superb position. It +rises from the rock, over the grey town at its feet, like a protecting +deity, its two towers to west and east, raised like giant hands, its +grey walls rising sheer from the steep, shelving rock; behind it the +gentle rise of hills, bending towards the inland valleys; in front of +it an unbroken stretch of sea. + +It strikes the exact note that is in harmony with its colour and +surroundings: the emblem of some wild survival from dark ages when that +spot had been one of the most uncivilised in the whole of Britain--a +land of wild, uncouth people, living in a state of perpetual watch and +guard, fearing the sea, fearing the land, cringingly superstitious +because of their crying need of supernatural defence; and, indeed, +there is nothing more curious in the Cornwall of to-day than this +perpetual reminder of past superstitions, dead gods, strange pathetic +survival of heathen ancestry. + +The town of Pendragon, lying at the foot of the "House of the Flutes," +had little of this survival of former custom about it; it was rapidly +developing into that temple of British middle-class mediocrity, a +modern watering-place. It had, in the months of June, July, and +August, nigger minstrels, a cafe chantant, and a promenade, with six +bathing-machines and two donkeys; two new hotels had sprung up within +the last two years, a sufficient sign of its prosperity. No, Pendragon +was doing its best to forget its ancient superstitions, and even seemed +to regard the "House of the Flutes" a little resentfully because of its +reminder of a time when men scaled the rocks and stormed the walls, and +fell back dying and cursing into their ships riding at anchor in the +little bay. + +Very different was Cullin's Cove, the little fishing-village that lay +slightly to the right of the town. Here traditions were carefully +guarded; a strict watch was kept on the outside world, and strangers +were none too cheerfully received. Here, "down-along," was the old, +the true Cornwall--a land that had changed scarcely at all since those +early heathen days that to the rest of the world are dim, mysterious, +mythological, but to a Cornishman are as the events of yesterday. High +on the moor behind the Cove stand four great rocks--wild, wind-beaten, +grimly permanent. It is under their guardianship that the Cove lies, +and it is something more than a mere superstitious reverence that those +inhabitants of "down-along" pay to those darkly mysterious figures. +Seen in the fading light of the dying day, when Cornish mists are +winding and twisting over the breast of the moor, these four rocks seem +to take a living shape, to grow in size, and to whisper to those that +care to hear old stories of the slaughter that had stained the soil at +their feet on an earlier day. + +From Harry's windows the town and the sea were hidden. Immediately +below him lay the tennis-lawns and the rose-garden, and, gleaming in +the distance, at the end of the Long Walk, two white statues that had +fascinated him in his boyhood. + +His first waking thought on the morning after his arrival was to look +for those statues, and when he saw them gleaming in the sun just as +they used to do, there swept over him a feeling of youth and vigour +such as he had never known before. Those twenty years in New Zealand +were, after all, to go for nothing; they were to be as though they had +had no existence, and he was to be the young energetic man of +twenty-five, able to enter into his son's point of view, able to share +his life and vitality, and, at the same time, to give him the benefit +of his riper experience. + +Through his open window came the faint, distant beating of the sea; a +bird flew past him, a white flash of light; some one was singing the +refrain of a Cornish "chanty"--the swing of the tune came up to him +from the garden, and some of the words beat like little bells upon his +brain, calling up endless memories of his boyhood. + +He looked at his watch and found that it was nine o'clock. He had no +idea that it was so late; he had asked to be called at seven, but he +had slept so soundly that he had not heard his man enter with his +shaving water; it was quite cold now, and his razors were terribly +blunt. He cut himself badly, a thing that he scarcely ever did. But +it was really unfortunate, on this first morning when he had wanted +everything to be at its best. + +He came down to the breakfast-room humming. The house seemed a palace +of gold on this wonderful September morning; the light came in floods +through the great windows at the head of the stairs, and shafts of +golden light struck the walls and the china potpourri bowls and flashed +wonderful colours out of a great Venetian vase that stood by the hall +door. + +He found Garrett and Robin breakfasting alone; Clare and Sir Jeremy +always had breakfast in their own rooms. + +"I'm afraid I'm awfully late," said Harry cheerfully, clapping his +brother on the back and putting his hand for a minute on Robin's +shoulder; "things all cold?" + +"Oh no," said Garrett, scarcely looking up from his morning paper. +"Damned good kidneys!" + +Robin said nothing. He was watching his father curiously. It was one +of the Trojan rules that you never talked at breakfast; it was such an +impossible meal altogether, and one was always at one's worst at that +time of the morning. Robin wondered whether his father would recognise +this elementary rule or whether he would talk, talk, talk, as he had +done last night. They had had rather a bad time last night; Aunt Clare +had had a headache, but his father had talked continuously--about sheep +and Maories and the Pink Terraces. It had been just like a parish-room +magic-lantern lecture--"Some hours with our friends the Maories"--it +had been very tiring; poor Aunt Clare had grown whiter and whiter; it +was quite a relief when dinner had come to an end. + +Harry helped himself to kidneys and sat down by Robin, still humming +the refrain of the Cornish song he had heard at his window. "By Jove, +I'm late--mustard, Robin, my boy--can't think how I slept like that. +Why, in New Zealand I was always up with the lark--had to be, you know, +there was always such heaps to do--the bread, old boy, if you can get +hold of it. I remember once getting up at three in the morning to go +and play cricket somewhere--fearful hot day it was, but I knocked up +fifty, I remember. Probably the bowling was awfully soft, although I +remember one chap--Pulling, friend of Durand's--could fairly twist 'em +down the pitch--made you damned well jump. Talking of cricket, I +suppose you play, Robin? Did you get your cap or whatever they call +it--College colours, you know?" + +"Oh, cricket!" said Robin indifferently. "No, I didn't play. The +chaps at King's who ran the games were rather outers--pretty thoroughly +barred by the decent men. None of the 'Gracchi' went in for the +sports." + +"Oh!" said Harry, considerably surprised. "And who the deuce are the +'Gracchi'?" + +"A society I was on," said Robin, a little wearily--it was so annoying +to be forced to talk at breakfast. "A literary society--essays, with +especial attention paid to the New Literature. We made it our boast +that we never went back further than Meredith, except, of course, when +one had to, for origins and comparisons. Randal, who's coming to stop +for a few days, was president last year and read some awfully good +papers." + +Harry stared blankly. He had thought that every one played cricket and +football, especially when they were strong and healthy like Robin. He +had not quite understood about the society--and who was Meredith? "I +shall be glad to meet your friend," he said. "Is he still at +Cambridge?" + +"Oh, Randal!" said Robin. "No, he came down the same time as I did. +He only got a second in History, although he was worth a first any day +of the week. But he had such lots of other things to do--his papers +for the 'Gracchi' took up any amount of time--and then history rather +bored him. He's very popular here, especially with all Fallacy Street +people." + +"The Fallacy Street people!" repeated Harry, still more bewildered. +"Who are they?" + +"Oh! I suppose you've forgotten," said Robin, mildly surprised. +"They're all the people who're intellectual in Pendragon. If you live +in Fallacy Street you're one of the wits. It's like belonging to the +'Mermaid' used to be, you know, in Shakespeare's time. They're really +awfully clever--some of them--the Miss Ponsonbys and Mrs. le +Terry--Aunt Clare thinks no end of Mrs. le Terry." + +Robin's voice sounded a little awed. He had a great respect for +Fallacy Street. "Oh, they won't have any room for me," said Harry, +laughing. "I'm an awfully stupid old duffer. I haven't read anything +at all, except a bit of Kipling--'Barrack-room Ballads'--seems a waste +of time to read somehow." + +That his father had very little interest in literature Robin had +discovered some time before, but that he should boast of it--openly, +laughingly--was really rather terrible. + +Harry was silent for a few minutes; he had evidently made a blunder in +his choice of a subject, but it was really difficult. + +"Where are we going this morning, Robin?" he said at last. + +"Oh! I say!" Robin looked a little unhappy. "I'm awfully sorry, +father. I'm really afraid I can't come out this morning. There's a +box of books that have positively got to get off to Randal's place +to-night. I daren't keep them any longer. I'd do it this afternoon, +only it's Aunt Clare's at-home day and she always likes me to help her. +I'm really awfully sorry, but there are lots of other mornings, aren't +there? I simply must get those books off this morning." + +"Why, of course," said Harry cheerfully; "there's plenty of time." + +He was dreadfully disappointed. He had often thought of that first +stroll with Robin. They would discuss the changes since Harry's day; +Robin would point out the new points of interest, and, perhaps, +introduce him to some of his friends--it had been a favourite picture +of his during some of those lonely days in New Zealand. And now +Robin's aunt and college friend were to come before his father--it was +rather hard. + +But, then, on second thoughts, how unreasonable it was of him to expect +to take up Robin's time like that. He must fall into the ways of the +house, quietly, unobtrusively, with none of that jolting of other +people's habits and regular customs; it had been thoughtless, of him +and ridiculous. He must be more careful. + +Breakfast ended, he found himself alone. Robin left the room with the +preoccupied air of a man of fifty; the difficulty of choosing between +Jefferies' "Story of my Heart" and Walt Whitman's "Leaves of Grass," if +there wasn't room in the box for both, was terrible! Of course Randal +was coming himself in a few days, and it would have been simpler to let +him choose for himself; but he had particularly asked for them to be +sent by the fourth, and to-day was the third. Robin had quite +forgotten his father. + +Harry was alone. From the garden came the sound of doves, and, through +the window that overlooked the lawn, the sun shone into the room. +Harry lit a cigarette and went out. The garden was changed; there was +a feeling of order and authority about it that it had never had before. +Not a weed was to be seen on the paths: flowers stretched in perfect +order and discipline; colours in harmony, shapes and patterns of a +tutored symmetry--it was the perfection of a modern gardener's art. He +passed gardeners, grave, serious men with eyes intent on their work, +and he remembered the strange old man who had watched over the garden +when he had been a boy; an old man with a wild ragged beard and a +skinny hand like the Ancient Mariner's. The garden had not prospered +under his care--it had been wild, undisciplined, tangled; but he had +been a teller of wonderful tales, a seer of visions--it was to him that +Harry had owed all the intimate knowledge of Cornish lore and mystery +that he possessed. + +The gardeners that were there now were probably not Cornishmen at +all--strangers, Londoners perhaps. They could watch that wonderful, +ever-changing view of sea and cliff and moor without any beating of the +heart; to them the crooked, dusky windings of the Cove, the mighty grey +rocks of Trelennan's Jump, the strange, solemn permanency of the four +grey stones on the moor, were as nothing; their hearts were probably in +Peckham. + +He turned a little sadly from the ordered discipline of the garden; the +shining green of the lawns, the blazing red and gold of its flowers +almost annoyed him--it was not what he had expected. Then, suddenly, +he came upon a little tangled wood--a strange, deserted place, with +tall grasses and wild ferns and a little brook bubbling noisily over +shining white and grey pebbles. He remembered it; how well he +remembered it. He had often been there in those early days. He had +tried to make a little mill in the brook. He had searched there for +some of those strange creatures about whom Tony Tregoth, the old +gardener, had told him--fauns and nymphs and the wild god Pan. He had +never found anything; but its wild, disordered beauty had made a +fitting setting for Tony's wild, disordered legends. + +It was still almost exactly as it had been twenty years before; no one +had attempted improvement. He stayed there for some time, thinking, +regretting, dreaming--it was the only part of the garden that was real +to him. + +He passed down the avenue and out through the white stone gates as one +in a dream. Something was stirring within him. It was not that during +those years in New Zealand he had forgotten. He had longed again and +again with a passionate, burning longing for the grey cliffs and the +sea and the haunting loneliness of the moor; for the Cornwall that he +had loved from the moment of his birth--no, he had never forgotten. +But there was waking in him again that strange, half-inherited sense of +the eternal presence of ancient days and old heathen ceremonies, and +the manners of men who had lived in that place a thousand years before. +He had known it when he was a boy; when he had chased rabbits over the +moor, when he had seen the mist curling mysteriously from the sea and +wrapping land and sky in a blinding curtain of grey, when he had stood +on Trelennan's Jump and watched the white, savage tossing of the foam +hundreds of feet below; he had sometimes fancied that he saw them, +those wild bearded priests of cruelty, waiting smilingly on the silent +twilit moor for victims--they had always been cruel; something terrible +in the very vagueness of their outline. + +Now the old thoughts came back to him, and he almost fancied that he +could see the strange faces in the shadows of the garden and feel their +hot breath upon his cheek. + +His passage through the streets of Pendragon woke him from his dreams; +its almost startling modernity and obtrusive up-to-dateness laughed at +his fancies. It was very much changed since he had been there +before--like the garden, it was the very apotheosis of order and modern +methods. "The Pendragon Hotel" astonished him by its stone pillars, +its glimpse of a wonderful, cool, softly carpeted hall, its official in +gold buttons who stood solemnly magnificent on the steps, the +admiration of several small boys who looked up into his face with +wide-open eyes. + +Harry remembered the old "Pendragon Hotel," a dirty, unmethodical +place, with beds that were never clean. It had been something of a +scandal, but its landlord had been an amusing fellow and a capital +teller of stories. + +The shops dazzled him by their brilliance. The hairdresser's displayed +a wonderful assortment of wigs in the window; coloured bottles of every +size and hue glittered in the chemist's; diamonds flashed in the +jeweller's--the street seemed glorious to his colonial eyes. + +The streets were not very crowded, and no one seemed to be in a hurry. +Auckland had been rather a busy little town--no one had had very much +time to spare--but here, under the mellow September sun, people +lingered and talked, and the time and place seemed to stand still with +the pleasant air of something restfully comfortable, and, above all, +containing nothing that wasn't in the very best taste. It was this air +of polite gentility that struck Harry so strongly. It had never been +like that in the old days; a ragged unkempt place of uncertain manners +and a very evident poverty. He rather resented its new polish, and he +regretted once more that he had not sought a London tailor before +coming down to Cornwall. + +He suddenly recognised a face--a middle-aged, stout gentleman, with a +white waistcoat and the air of one who had managed to lead a virtuous +life and, nevertheless, accumulate money; he was evidently satisfied +with both achievements. It was Barbour, Bunny Barbour. He had been +rather a good chap at school, with some taste for adventure. He had +had a wider horizon than most of them; Harry remembered how Bunny had +envied him in New Zealand. He looked prosperous and sedate now, and +the world must have treated him well. Harry spoke to him and was +received with effusion. "Trojan, old man! Well, I never! I'm damned +if I'd have recognised you. How you've changed! I heard you were +coming back; your boy told me--fine chap that, Trojan, you've every +reason to be proud. Well, to be sure! Come in and have a whisky and +see the new club-rooms! Just been done up, and fairly knocks spots out +of the old place." + +He was extremely cordial, but Harry felt that he was under criticism. +Barbour's eyes looked him up and down; there was almost a challenge in +his glance, as though he said, "We are quite ready to receive you if +you are one of us. But you must move with the times. It's no good for +you to be the same as in the old days. We've all changed, and so must +you!" + +The club was magnificent. Harry stared in amazement at its luxury and +comfort. Its wonderful armchairs and soft carpets, its decorations and +splendid space astonished him. The old place had seemed rather fine to +him as a boy, but he saw now how bad it had really been. He sank into +one of the armchairs with that strange sense of angry resentment that +he had felt before in the street gaining hotly upon him. + +"It's good, isn't it?" said Barbour, smiling with an almost personal +satisfaction, as though he had been largely responsible for the present +improvements. "The membership's going up like anything, and we're +thinking of raising subscriptions. Very decent set of fellows on it, +too. Oh! we're getting along splendidly here. You must have noticed +the change in the place!" + +"I should think I have," said Harry--the tone of his voice was a little +regretful; "but it's not only here--it's the whole town. It's +smartened up beyond all knowing. But I must confess that, dirty and +dingy as they were, I regret the old club-rooms. There was something +extraordinarily homely and comfortable about them. Do you remember +that old armchair with the hole in it? Gone long ago, of course, but I +shall never sit in anything as nice again." + +"Ah, sentiment," said Barbour, smiling; "you won't find much of it in +Pendragon nowadays. It doesn't do. Sentimentalists are always Tories, +you'll find; always wanting to keep the old things, and all against +progress. We're all for progress now. We've got some capital men on +the Town Council--Harding, Belfast, Rogers, Snaith--you won't remember +them. There's some talk of pulling down the Cove and building new +lodging-houses there. We're crowded out in the summer, and there are +more people every year." + +"Pull down the Cove?" said Harry, aghast; "but you can't. It's been +there for hundreds of years; it's one of the most picturesque places in +Cornwall." + +"That's the only thing," said Barbour regretfully. "It acts rather +well as a draw for painters and that sort of person, and it makes some +pretty picture postcards that are certain to sell. Oh, I suppose +they'll keep it for a bit, but it will have to go ultimately. +Pendragon's changing." + +There was no doubt that it was, and Harry left the club some quarter of +an hour later with dismay in his heart. He had dreamed so long of the +old times, the old beauties, the old quiet spirit of unprogressive +content, that this new eagerness to be up-to-date and modern, this +obvious determination to make Pendragon a watering-place of the most +detestable kind, horrified him. + +As he passed down the crooked, uneven stone steps that led to the Cove, +he felt indignant, almost unhappy. It was as if a friend had been +insulted in his presence and he had been unable to defend him. They +said that the Cove must go, must make way for modern jerry-built +lodging-houses, in order that middle-class families from London and +Manchester might be sufficiently accommodated. + +The Cove had meant a great deal to him when a boy--mystery, romance, +pirates and smugglers, strange Cornish legends of saints and sinners, +knights and men-at-arms. The little inn, "The Bended Thumb," with its +irregular red-brick floor and its smoke-stained oaken rafters, had been +the theatre of many a stirring drama--now it was to be pulled down. It +was a wonderfully beautiful morning, and the little, twisting street of +the Cove seemed to dance with its white shining cobbles in the light of +the sun. It was mysterious as ever, but colours lingered in every +corner. Purple mists seemed to hang about the dark alleys and twisting +ways; golden shafts of light flashed through the open cottage doorways +into rooms where motes of dust danced, like sprites, in the sun; smoke +rose in little wreaths of pearl-grey blue into the cloudless sky; there +was perfect stillness in the air, and from an overflowing pail that +stood outside "The Bended Thumb," the clear drip, drip of the water +could be heard falling slowly into the white cobbles, and close at hand +was the gentle lap of the sea, as it ran up the little shingly beach +and then dragged slowly back again with a soft, reluctant hiss. + +It was the Cove in its gentlest mood. No one was about; the women were +preparing the dinner and the men were away at work. No strange faces +peered from inhospitable doorways; there was nothing to-day that could +give the stranger a sense of outlawry, of almost savage avoidance of +ordinary customs and manners. Harry's heart beat wildly as he walked +down the street; there was no change here; it was as he had left it. +He was at home here as he could never be in that new, strident +Pendragon with its utter disregard of tradition and beauty. + +He saw that it was late and hurried back. He had discovered a great +deal during the morning. + +At lunch he spoke of the changes that he had seen. Clare smiled. +"Why, of course," she said. "Twenty years is a long time, and +Pendragon has made great strides. For my part, I am very glad. It +brings money to the shopkeepers, and the place will be quite +fashionable in a few years' time. We're all on the side of progress up +here," she added, laughing. + +"But the Cove?" said Harry. "Barbour tells me that they are thinking +of pulling it down to make way for lodging-houses or something." + +"Well, why not?" said Clare. "It is really very much in the way where +it is, and is, I am told, extremely insanitary. We must be practical +nowadays or we are nothing; you have to pay heavily for being romantic." + +Harry felt again that sensation of personal affront as though some +close friend, bound to him by many ties, had been attacked violently in +his presence. It was unreasonable, he knew, but it was very strong. + +"And you, Robin," he said, "what do you think of it?" + +"I agree with Aunt Clare," answered Robin lightly, as though it were a +matter that interested him very little. "If the place is in the way, +it ought to go. He's a sensible man, Barbour." + +"The fact is, Harry," said Garrett, "you haven't changed quite as fast +as the place has. You'll see the point of view in a few weeks' time." + +He felt unreasonably, ridiculously angry. They were all treating him +as a child, as some one who would grow up one day perhaps, but was, at +present at any rate, immature in thought and word; even with Robin +there was a half-implied superiority. + +"But the Cove!" he cried vehemently. "Is it nothing to any of you? +After all that it has been to us all our lives, to our people, to the +whole place, are you going to root it out and destroy it simply because +the town isn't quite big enough to put up all the trippers that burden +it in the summer? Don't you see what you will lose if you do? I +suppose you think that I am sentimental, romantic, but upon my word I +can't see that you have improved Pendragon very much in all these +twenty years. It was charming once--a place with individuality, +independence; now it is like anywhere else--a miniature Brighton." + +He knew that he was wasting his words. There was a pause, and he felt +that they were all three laughing at him--yes, Robin as well. He had +only made a fool of himself; they could not understand how much he had +expected during those weary years of waiting--how much he had expected +and how much he had missed. + +Clare looked round the room and was relieved to find that only Beldam +was present. If one of the family was bent on being absurd, it was as +well that there should only be one of the servants to hear him. + +"You know that you are to be on your trial this afternoon, Harry?" she +said. + +"My trial?" he repeated, bewildered. + +"Yes--it's my at-home day, you know--first Thursdays--and, of course, +they'll all come to see you. We shall have the whole town----" She +looked at him a little anxiously; so much depended on how he behaved, +and she wasn't completely reassured by his present manner. + +If he astonished them all this afternoon by saying things about the +Cove like that, it would be too terrible! + +"How horrible!" he said, laughing. "I'm very much afraid that I shan't +do you justice, Clare. I'm no good at small conversation." + +His treating it so lightly made it worse, and she wondered how she +could force him to realise the seriousness of it. + +"All the nicest people in Pendragon," she said; "and they are rather +ridiculously critical, and of course they talk." + +He looked at her and laughed. "I wish they were Maories," he said, "I +shouldn't be nearly so frightened!" + +She leant over the table to emphasise her words. "But it really does +make a difference, Harry. First impressions count a lot. You'll be +nice to them, won't you?" + +The laugh had left his eyes. It was serious, as he knew. He had had +no idea that he would have, so to speak, "funked" it so. It was +partly, of course, because of Robin. He did not want to make a fool of +himself before the boy. He was already beginning to realise what were +the things that counted with Robin. + +The real pathos of the situation lay in his terrible anxiety to do the +right thing. If he had taken it quietly, had trusted to his natural +discretion and had left circumstances to develop of themselves, he +would have, at any rate, been less self-conscious. But he could not +let it alone. He had met Auckland society often enough and had, +indeed, during his later years, been something of a society man, but +there everything was straight-forward and simple. There was no +tradition, no convention, no standard. Because other people did a +thing was no reason why you should do it--originality was welcomed +rather than otherwise. But here there were so many things that you +must do, and so very, very many that you mustn't; and if you were a +Trojan, matters were still more complicated. + +It was after half-past four when he entered the drawing-room, and Clare +was pouring out tea. Five or six ladies were already there, and a +clergyman of ample proportions and quite beautifully brushed hair. He +was introduced--"Mrs. le Terry--Miss Ponsonby--Miss Lucy Ponsonby--Miss +Werrel--Miss Thisbe Werrel--Mr. Carrell--our rector, Harry." + +He shook hands and was terribly embarrassed. He was conscious at once +of that same sense of challenge that he had felt with Barbour in the +morning. They were not obviously staring, but he knew that they were +rapidly summing him up. He coloured foolishly, and stood for a moment +awkwardly in the middle of the room. + +"Tea, Harry?" said Clare. "Scones down by the fire. Everybody else is +all right--so look after yourself." + +He found himself by Mrs. le Terry, a small, rather pretty woman with +wide-open blue eyes, and a mass of dark brown hair hidden beneath a +large black hat that drooped over one ear. She talked rapidly and with +few pauses. She was, he discovered, one of those persons whose +conversation was a series of exclamation marks. She was perpetually +astonished, delighted, and disappointed with an amount of emotion that +left her no breath and gave her hearers a small opinion of her +sincerity. "It's too terribly funny," she said, opening her eyes very +wide indeed, "that you should have been in that amazing place, New +Zealand--all sheep and Maories, isn't it?--and if there's one thing +that I should be likely to detest more than mutton I'm sure it would be +Maories. Too dreadful and terrible! But you look splendidly well, Mr. +Trojan. I never, really never, saw any one with such a magnificent +colour! I suppose that it's that gorgeous sun, and it never rains, +does it? Too delightful! If there's one thing that I _do_ adore, it's +the sun!" + +"Well, I don't know about that," said Harry, laughing; "we had rain +pretty often in Auckland, and----" + +"Oh," she said, breaking in upon him, "that's too curious, because, do +you know, I thought you never had rain at all, and I do detest rain so. +It's too distressing when one has a new frock or must go to some stupid +place to see some one. But I'm too awfully glad that you've come here, +Mr. Trojan. We do want waking up a little, you know, and I'm sure +you're the very person to do it. It would be too funny if you were to +wake us all up, you know." + +Harry was pleased. There were no difficulties here, at any rate. +Hadn't Robin mentioned Mrs. le Terry as one of the leaders of Fallacy +Street? He suddenly lost his shyness and wanted to become +confidential. He would tell her how glad he was to be back in England +again; how anxious he was to enter into all the fun and to take his +part in all the work. He wondered what she felt about the Cove, and he +hoped that she would be an enemy to its proposed destruction. + +But she yielded him no opportunity of speaking, and he speedily +discovered her opinion on the Cove. "And such changes since you went +away! Quite another place, I'm glad to say. Pendragon is the sweetest +little town, and even the dear, dirty trippers in the summer are the +most delightful and amusing people you ever saw. And now that they +talk of pulling down that horrid, dirty old Cove, it will be too +splendid, with lodging-houses and a bandstand; and they do talk of an +Esplanade--that would be too delightful!" + +While she was speaking, he watched the room curiously. Robin had come +in and was standing by the fireplace talking to the Miss Werrels, two +girls of the athletic type, with short skirts and their hair brushed +tightly back over their foreheads. He was leaning with one arm on the +mantelpiece, and was looking down on the ladies with an air of languid +interest: his eyes were restless, and every now and again glanced +towards his father. The two Miss Ponsonbys were massive ladies of any +age over fifty. Clad in voluminous black silk, with several little +reticules and iron chains, their black hair bound in tight coils at the +back of their heads, each holding stiffly her teacup with a tenacity +that was worthy of a better cause, they were awe-inspiring and +militant. In spite of their motionless gravity, there was something +aggressive in their frowning brows and cold, expressionless eyes. +Harry thought that he had never seen two more terrifying persons. +Clare was talking to the prosperous clergyman; he smiled continually, +and now and again laughed in reply to some remark, but it was always +something restrained and carefully guarded. He was obviously a man who +laid great store by exterior circumstances. That the sepulchre should +be filled with dead men's bones might cause him pain, but that it +should be unwhitened would be, to him, a thing far more terrible. + +Clare turned round and addressed the room generally. + +"Mr. Carrell has just been telling me of the shocking state of the +Cove," she said. "Insanitary isn't the word, apparently. Things have +gone too far, and the only wise measure seems to be to root the place +up completely. It is sad, of course--it was a pretty old place, but it +has had its day." + +"I've just been telling your brother about it, Miss Trojan," said Mrs. +le Terry. "It's quite too terrible, and I'm sure it's very bad for all +of us to have anything quite so horrible so close to our houses. +There's no knowing what dreadful things we may not all of us be +catching at this very moment----" + +She was interrupted by two new arrivals--Mrs. and Miss Bethel. They +were a curious contrast. The mother was the strangest old lady that +Harry had ever seen. She was tiny in stature, with snow-white hair and +cheeks that were obviously rouged; she wore a dress of curious shot +silk decorated with much lace, and her fingers were thick with jewels; +a large hat with great purple feathers waved above her head. It was a +fantastic and gaudy impression that she made, and there was something +rather pitiful in the contrast between her own obvious satisfaction +with her personal appearance and the bizarre, almost vulgar, effect of +such strangely contrasted colours. She came mincing into the room with +her head a little on one side, but in spite of, or perhaps because of, +her rather anxious smiles, it was obvious that she was not altogether +at her ease. + +The girl who followed her was very different. Tall and very dark, she +was clothed quite simply in grey; her hair was wonderful, although it +was at present hidden to some extent by her hat, but its coal-black +darkness had something intent, almost luminous, about it, so that, +paradoxically, its very blackness held hidden lights and colours. But +it was her manner that Harry especially noticed. She followed her +mother with a strange upright carriage of the head and flash of the +eyes that were almost defiant. She was evidently expecting no very +civil reception, and she seemed to face the room with hostility and no +very ready eagerness to please. + +The effect on the room was marked. Mrs. le Terry stopped speaking for +a moment and rustled her skirts with a movement of displeasure, the +Miss Ponsonbys clutched their teacups even tighter than before and +their brows became more clouded, the Miss Werrels smiled confidentially +at each other as though they shared some secret, and even Robin made a +slight instinctive movement of displeasure. + +Harry felt at once an impulse of sympathy towards the girl. It was +almost as if this sudden hostility had made them friends: he liked that +independence of her carriage, the pride in her eyes. Mrs. le Terry's +voice broke upon his ears. + +"Which must be, Mr. Trojan, extraordinarily provoking. To go there, I +mean, and find absolutely no one in--all that way, too, and a horribly +wet night, and no train until nine o'clock." + +In his endeavours to pick up the thread of the conversation he lost +sight of their meeting with Clare. + +She, indeed, had greeted them with all the Trojan coldness; nothing +could have been more sternly formal than her "Ah! Mrs. Bethel, I'm so +glad that you were able to come. So good of you to trouble to call. +Won't you have some tea? Do find a seat somewhere, Miss Bethel. I +hope you won't mind our all having finished." + +Harry was introduced and took them their tea. It was obvious that, for +some reason unknown to him, their presence there was undesired by all +the company present, including Clare herself. He also knew +instinctively that their coming there had been some act of daring +bravery, undertaken perhaps with the hope that, after all, it might not +be as they had feared. + +The old lady's hand trembled as she took her teacup; the colour had +fled from her face, and she sat there white and shaking. As Harry bent +over her with the scones, he saw to his horror that a tear was +trembling on her eyelid; her throat was moving convulsively. + +At the same instant he knew that the girl's eyes were fixed upon his; +he saw them imploring, beseeching him to help them. It was a difficult +situation, but he smiled back at the girl and turned to the old lady. + +"Do try these scones, Mrs. Bethel," he said; "they are still hot and I +can recommend them strongly. I'm so glad to meet you; my sister told +me only this morning that she hoped you would come this afternoon, as +she wanted us to become acquainted." + +It was a lie, but he spoke it without hesitation, knowing that it would +reach Clare's ears. The little lady smiled nervously and looked up at +him. + +"Ah, Mr. Trojan," she said, "it's very good of you, I'm sure. We are +only too delighted. It's not much gaiety that we can offer you here, +but such as it is----" + +She was actually making eyes at him, the preposterous old person. It +was really a little pitiful, with her gorgeous colours, and her +trembling assumption of a coquettish youth that had left her long ago. +Her attempt to storm a difficult position by the worst of all possible +tactics made him extremely sorry for the daughter, who was forced to +look on in silence. His thoughts, indeed, were with the girl--her +splendid hair, her eyes, something wild, almost rebellious, that found +a kindred note in himself; curiously, almost absurdly, they were to a +certain degree allies although they had not spoken. He talked to her a +little and she mentioned the Cove. + +"It is a test of your Cornish ancestry," she said--"if you care for it, +I mean. So many people here look on it as a kind of +rubbish-heap--picturesque but untidy--and it is the most beautiful +place in the world." + +"I am glad that you feel like that," he said quietly; "it meant a lot +to me as a boy. I have been sorry to find how unpopular it is now; but +I see that it still has its supporters." + +"Ah, you must talk to father," she said. "He is always there. We are +a little old-fashioned, I'm afraid." + +There was in her voice, in her smile, something that stirred him +strangely. He felt as though he had met her before--a long while ago. +He recognised little characteristics, the way that she pushed back her +hair when she was excited, the beautiful curve of her neck when she +raised her eyes to his, the rise and fall of her bosom--it was all +strangely, individually familiar, as though he had often watched her do +the same things in the same way before, in some other place.... + +He had forgotten the others--Clare, Robin, the Miss Ponsonbys, Mrs. le +Terry; and when they had all gone, he did not realise that he had in +any way neglected them. + +After Miss Bethel had left the room, followed by the preposterous old +mother, he stood at the window watching the lights of the town shining +mistily through the black network of trees in the drive. He must meet +her again. + +Clare spoke to him and he turned round. "I'm afraid you have made the +Miss Ponsonbys enemies for life," she said; "you never spoke to them +once. I warned you that they were the most important people in the +place." + +"Oh! the Miss Ponsonbys!" said Harry carelessly, and Robin stood amazed. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Robin's rooms, charming as they were, with their wide windows opening +on to tossing sea and the sharp bend of the grey cliffs stretching to +distant horizons, suffered from overcrowding. + +His sitting-room, with its dark red wallpaper and several good prints +framed in dark oak--Burne-Jones' "Study for Cupid's Masque," Hunt's +"Hireling Shepherd," and Whistler's "Battersea Bridge" were the +best--might have been delightful had he learned to select; but at the +present stage in his development he hated rejecting anything as long as +it reached a certain standard. His appreciations were wide and +generous, and his knowledge was just now too superficial to permit of +discerning criticism. The room, again, suffered from a rather +effeminate prettiness. There were too many essentially trivial +knick-knacks--some fans, silver ornaments, a charming little ebony +clock, and a generous assortment of gay, elegantly worked cushions. +The books, too, were all in handsome editions--Meredith in green +leather with a gold-worked monogram, Pater in red half-morocco, +Swinburne in light-blue with red and gold tooling--rich and to some +extent unobtrusive, but reiterating unmistakably the first impression +that the room had given, the mark of something superficial. + +Robin was there now, dressing for dinner. He often dressed in his +sitting-room, because his books were there. He liked to open a book +for a moment before fitting his studs into his shirt, and how charming +to read a verse of Swinburne before brushing his hair--not so much +because of the Swinburne, but rather because one went down to dinner +with a pleasant feeling of culture and education. To-night he was in a +hurry. People had stayed so late for tea (it was still the day after +his father's arrival), and he had to be at the other end of the town by +half-past seven. What a nuisance going out to dinner was, and how he +wished he wasn't going to-night. + +The fact that the dinner promised, in all probability, to afford +something of a situation did not, as was often the case, give him very +much satisfaction. Indeed it was the reverse. The situation was going +to be extremely unpleasant, and there was every likelihood that Robin +would look a fool. Robin's education had been a continuous insistence +on the importance of superficiality. It had been enforced while he was +still in the cradle, when a desire to kick and fight had been always +checked by the quiet reiteration that it was not a thing that a Trojan +did. Temper was not a fault of itself, but an exhibition of it was; +simply because self-control was a Trojan virtue. At his private school +he was taught the great code of brushing one's hair and leaving the +bottom button of one's waistcoat undone. Robbery, murder, rape--well, +they had all played their part in the Trojan history; but the art of +shaking hands and the correct method of snubbing a poor relation, if +properly acquired, covered the crimes of the Decalogue. + +It was not that Robin, either then or afterwards, was a snob. He +thought no more of a duke or a viscount than of a plain commoner, but +he learnt at once the lesson of "Us--and the Others." If you were one +of the others--if there was a hesitation about your aspirates, if you +wore a tail-coat and brown boots--then you were non-existent, you +simply did not count. + +When he left Eton for Cambridge, this Code of the Quite Correct Thing +advanced beyond the art of Perfect Manners; it extended to literature +and politics, and, in fact, everything of any importance. He soon +discovered what were the things for "Us" to read, whom were the +painters for "Us" to admire, and what were the politics for "Us" to +applaud. He read Pater and Swinburne and Meredith, Bernard Shaw and +Galsworthy and Joseph Conrad, and had quite definite ideas about all of +them. He admired Rickett's stage effects, and thought Sholto Douglas's +portraits awfully clever, and, of course, Max's Caricatures were +masterly. I'm not saying that he did not really admire these +things--in many things his appreciation was genuine enough--but if it +should happen that he cared for "The Christian" or "God's Good Man," he +speedily smothered his admiration and wondered how he could be such a +fool. To do him justice, he never had any doubt that those whose +judgment he followed were absolutely right; but he followed them +blindly, often praising books or pictures that he had never read or +seen because it was the thing to do. He read quite clever papers to +"The Gracchi" at Cambridge, but the most successful of all, "The +Philosophy of Nine-pins according to Bernard Shaw," was written before +he had either seen or read any of that gentleman's plays. He was, in +fact, in great danger of developing into a kind of walking _Rapid +Review_ of other people's judgments and opinions. He examined nothing +for himself; his standard of the things to be attained in this world +was fixed and unalterable; to have an unalterable standard at +twenty-one is to condemn oneself to folly for life. + +And now, as he was dressing for dinner, two things occupied his mind: +firstly, his father; in the second place, the situation that he was to +face in half-an-hour's time. + +With regard to his father, Robin was terribly afraid that he was one of +the Others. He had had his suspicions from the first--that violent +entry, the loud voice and the hearty laugh, the bad-fitting clothes, +and the perpetual chatter at dinner; it had all been noisy, unusual, +even a little vulgar. But his behaviour at tea that afternoon had +grieved Robin very much. How could he be so rude to the light and +leading of Fallacy Street? It could only have been through ignorance; +it could only have been because he really did not know how truly great +the Miss Ponsonbys were. But then, to spend all his time with the +Bethels, strange, odd people, with the queerest manners and an +uncertain history, whom Fallacy Street had decided to cut! + +No, Robin was very much afraid that his father must be ranked with the +Others. He had not expected very much after all; New Zealand must be a +strange place on all accounts; but his father seemed to show no desire +to improve, he seemed quite happy and contented, and scarcely realised, +apparently, the seriousness of his mistakes. + +But, after all, the question of his father was a very minor affair as +compared with the real problem that he must answer that evening. Robin +had met Dahlia Feverel in the summer of the preceding year at +Cambridge. He had thought her extremely beautiful and very +fascinating. Most of his college friends had ladies whom they adored; +it was considered quite a thing to do--and so Robin adored Dahlia. + +No one knew anything about the Feverels. The mother was kept in the +background and the father was dead--there was really only Dahlia; and +when Robin was with her he never thought of questioning her as to +antecedents of earlier history. For two months he loved her +passionately, chiefly because he saw her very seldom. When he went +down at the end of the summer term he felt that she was the only thing +in the world worth living for. He became Byronic, scowled at Aunt +Clare, and treated Garrett's cynicism with contempt. He wrote letters +to her every day full of the deepest sentiments and a great deal of +amazingly bad poetry. Clare wondered what was the matter, but asked no +questions, and was indeed far too firmly convinced of the efficacy of +the Trojan system to have any fears of mental or moral danger. + +Then Miss Feverel made a mistake; she came with her mother to stay at +Pendragon. For the first week Robin was blissfully happy--then he +began to wonder. The best people in Pendragon would have nothing to do +with the Feverels. Aunt Clare, unaware that they were friends of +Robin's, pronounced them "commonly vulgar." The mother was more in +evidence than she had been at Cambridge, and Robin passed from dislike +to horror and from horror to hatred. Dahlia, too, seemed to have +changed. Robin had loved her too passionately hitherto to think of the +great Division. But soon he began to wonder. There were certain +things--little unimportant trifles, of course--that made him rather +uneasy; he began to have a horrible suspicion that she was one of the +Others; and then, once the suspicion was admitted, proof after proof +came forward to turn it into certainty. + +How horrible, and what an escape! His visits to the little +lodging-house overlooking the sea where Dahlia played the piano so +enchantingly, and Mrs. Feverel, a solemn, rather menacing figure, +played silently and mournfully continuous Patience, were less and less +frequent. He was determined to break the matter off; it haunted his +dreams, it troubled him all day; he was forced to keep his +acquaintanceship with them secret, and was in perpetual terror lest +Aunt Clare should discover it. He had that most depressing of +unwished-for possessions, a skeleton; its cupboard-door swung +creakingly in the wind, and its bones rattled in his ears. + +No, the thing must come to an end at once, and completely. They had +invited him to dinner and he had accepted, meaning to use the occasion +for the contemplated separation. He had thought often enough of what +he would say--words that had served others many times before in similar +situations. He would refer to their youth, the affair should be a +midsummer episode, pleasant to look back upon when they were both older +and married to more worthy partners; he would be a brother to her and +she should be a sister to him--but, thank God for his escape! + +He believed that the Trojan traditions would carry him through. He was +not quite sure what she would do--cry probably, and remonstrate; but it +would soon be over and he would be at peace once more. + +He dressed slowly and with his usual care. It would be easier to speak +with authority if there was no doubt about his appearance. He decided +to walk, and he passed through the garden into the town, his head a +buzzing repetition of the words that he meant to say. It was a +beautiful evening; a soft mist hid the moon's sharper outline, but she +shone, a vague circlet of light through a little fleet of fleecy white +cloud. Although it was early in September, some of the trees were +beginning to change their dark green into faint gold, and the sharp +outline of their leaves stood out against the grey pearl light of the +sky. As he passed into the principal street of Pendragon, Robin drew +his coat closer about him, like some ancient conspirator. He had no +wish to be stopped by an inquisitive friend; his destination demanded +secrecy. Soon the lights and asphalt of the High Street gave place to +dark, twisting paths and cobbled stones. These obscure and narrow ways +were rather pathetic survivals of the old Pendragon. At night they had +an almost sinister appearance; the lamps were at very long intervals +and the old houses leaned over the road with a certain crazy +picturesqueness that was, at the same time, exceedingly dangerous. +There were few lights in the windows and very few pedestrians on the +cobbles; the muffled roar of the sea sounded close at hand. And, +indeed, it sprang upon you quite magnificently at a turn of the road. +To-night it scarcely moved; a ripple as the waves licked the sand, a +gentle rustle as of trees in the wind when the pebbles were dragged +back with the ebb--that was all. It seemed strangely mysterious under +the misty, uncertain light of the moon. + +The houses facing the sea loomed up darkly against the horizon--a black +contrast with the grey of sea and sky. It was No. 4 where the Feverels +lived. There was a light in the upper window and some one was playing +the piano. Robin hesitated for some minutes before ringing the bell. +When it had rung he heard the piano stop. For a few seconds there was +no sound; then there were steps in the passage and the door was opened +by the very dowdy little maid-of-all-work whose hands were always dirty +and whose eyes were always red, as though with perpetual weeping. + +With what different eyes he saw the house now! On his first visit, the +sun had dazzled his eyes; there had been flowers in the drawing-room +and she had come to meet him in some charming dress; he had stood +enraptured at the foot of the stairs, deeming it Paradise. Now the +lamp in the hall flared with the wind from the door, and he was acutely +conscious of a large rent in the dirty, faded carpet. The house was +perfectly still--it might have been a place of ghosts, with the moon +shining mistily through the window on the stairs and the strange, +insistent murmur of the sea beating mysteriously through the closed +doors! + +There was no one in the drawing-room, and its appalling bad taste +struck him as it had never done before. How could he have been blind +to it? The glaring yellow carpet, the bright purple lamp-shades, the +gilt looking-glass over the fireplace, and, above all, dusty, drooping +paper flowers in bright china vases ranged in a row by the window. Of +course, it might be merely the lodgings. Lodgings always were like +that--but to live with them for months! To attempt no change, to leave +the flowers, and the terrible oil-painting "Lost in the Snow"--an +obvious British Public appeal to a pathos that simply shrieked at you, +with its hideous colours and very material snow-storm. No, Robin could +only repeat once more, What an escape! + +But had he, after all, escaped? He was not quite sure, as he stood by +the window waiting. It might be difficult, and he was unmistakably +nervous. + +Dahlia closed the door, and stood there for a moment before coming +forward. + +"Robin--at last!" and she held out both hands to him. They were the +same words that his aunt had used to his father last night, he +remembered foolishly, and at once they seemed strained, false, +ridiculous! + +He took her hand and said something about being in time; then, as she +seemed to expect it, he bent down and kissed her. + +She was pretty in a rather obvious way. If there had been less +artificiality there would have been more charm; of middle height, she +was slim and dark, and her hair, parted in the middle, fell in waves +over her temples. She affected a rather simple, aesthetic manner that +suited her dark eyes and rather pale complexion. You said that she was +intense until you knew her. To-night she wore a rather pretty dress of +some dark-brown stuff, cut low at the neck, and with her long white +arms bare. She had obviously taken a good deal of trouble this +evening, and had undoubtedly succeeded. + +"And so Sir Robert has deigned to come and see his humble dependants at +last!" she said, laughing. "A whole fortnight, Robin, and you've not +been near us." + +"I'm dreadfully sorry," he said, "but I've really been too terribly +busy. The Governor coming home and one thing and another----" + +He felt gauche and awkward, the consciousness of what he must say after +dinner weighed on him heavily. He could hardly believe that there had +ever been a time when he had talked eagerly, passionately--he cursed +himself for a fool. + +"Yes, we've been very lonely and you're a naughty boy," said Dahlia. +"But now you are here I won't scold you if you promise to tell me +everything you've done since last time----" + +"Oh! done?" said Robin vaguely; "I really don't know--the usual sort of +thing, I suppose--not much to do in Pendragon at any time." + +She had been looking at him curiously while he was speaking. Now she +suddenly changed her voice. "I've been so lonely without you, dear," +she said, speaking almost in a whisper; "I fancied--of course it was +silly of me--that perhaps there was some one else--that you were +getting a little tired of me. I was--very unhappy. I nearly wrote, +but I was afraid that--some one might see it. Letters are always +dangerous. But it's very lonely here all day--with only mother. If +you could come a little oftener, dear--it means everything to me." + +Her voice was a little husky as though tears were not far away, and she +spoke in little short sentences--she seemed to find it hard to say the +words. + +Robin suddenly felt a brute. How could he ever tell her of what was in +his mind? If it was really so much to her he could never leave +her--not at once like that; he must do it gradually. + +She was sitting by him on the sofa and looked rather delightful. She +had the pathetic expression that always attracted him, and he felt very +sorry indeed. How blank her days would be without him! Part of the +romance had always been his role of King Cophetua, and tears sprang to +his eyes as he thought of the poor beggar-maid, alone, forlornly +weeping, when he had finally withdrawn his presence. + +"I think it is partly the sea," she said, putting her hand gently on +his sleeve. "When one is sitting quite alone here in the evening with +nothing to do and no one to talk to, one hears it so plainly--it is +almost frightening. You know, Robin, old boy, I don't care for +Pendragon very much. I only came here because of you--and now--if you +never come to see us----" + +She stopped with a little catch in her voice. Her hand fastened on his +sleeve; their heads were very close together and her hair almost +brushed his cheek. + +He really was an awful brute, but at the same time it was rather +nice--that she should care so much. It would be terrible for her when +he told her what was in his mind. She might even get very ill--he had +read of broken hearts often enough; and she was extraordinarily nice +just now--he didn't want to hurt her. But still a fellow must think of +his career, his future, and that sort of thing. + +Mrs. Feverel entered--ponderous, solemn, dressed in a black silk that +trails behind her in funereal folds. Her hands were clammy to the +touch and her voice was a deep bass. She said very little, but sat +down silently by the window, forming, as she always did, a dark and +extremely solid background. Robin hated and feared her. There was +something sinister in her silence--something ominous in her perpetual +black. He had never heard her laugh. + +Dahlia was laughing now. "I'm a selfish brute, Bobby," she said, "to +bother you with my silly little complaints when we want to be cheerful. +We'll have a good time this evening, won't we? We'll sing some of +those Rubinstein's duets after dinner, and I've got a new song that +I've been learning especially for you. And then there's your father; I +do want to hear all about him so much--he must be so interesting, +coming from New Zealand. Mother and I saw a gentleman in the town this +morning that we thought must be him. Tall and brown, with a light +brown moustache and a dark blue suit. It must be splendid to have a +father again after twenty years without him." + +Her voice dropped a little, as though to refer gently to her own +fatherless condition. + +Mrs. Feverel, a dark shadow in the window, sighed heavily. + +"Oh! the Governor!" said Robin, a little irritably. "No! It's rather +difficult--he doesn't seem to know what to do and say. I suppose it's +being in New Zealand so long! It makes it rather difficult for me." + +He spoke as one suffering under an unjust accusation. It was bad luck, +and he wondered vaguely why Dahlia had been so interested; why should +she care, unless, and the idea struck him with horror, she already +regarded him as a prospective father-in-law? + +Dinner was announced by the grimy little maid. Robin took the dark +figure of Mrs. Feverel on his arm and made some hesitating remark about +the weather--but he had the curious and unpleasant sensation of her +seeing through him most thoroughly and clearly. He felt ridiculously +like a captive, and his doubts as to his immediate escape increased. +The gaudy drawing-room, the dingy stairs, the gas hissing in the hall, +had been, in all conscience, depressing enough, but now this heavy, +mute, ominous woman, trailing her black robes so funereally behind her, +seemed, to his excited fancy, some implacable Frankenstein created by +his own thrice-cursed folly. + +The dinner was not a success. The food was bad, but that Robin had +expected. As he faced the depression of it, he was more than ever +determined to end it, conclusively, that evening, but Mrs. Feverel's +gloom and Dahlia's little attempts at coquettish gaiety frightened him. +The conversation, supported mainly by Dahlia, fell into terrible +lapses, and the attempts to start it again had the unhappy air of +desperate remedies doomed to failure. Dahlia's pathetic glances failed +of their intent. Robin was too deeply engaged in his own gloomy +reflections to notice them, but her eyes filled with tears, and at last +her efforts ceased and a horrible, gloomy silence fell like a choking +fog upon them. + +"Will you smoke, Robin?" she said, when at last the dessert, in the +shape of some melancholy oranges and one very attenuated banana, was on +the table. "Egyptian or Turkish--or will you have a pipe?" + +He took a cigarette clumsily from the box and his fingers trembled as +he lit first hers and then his own--he was so terribly afraid of +cutting a ridiculous figure. He sat down again and beat a tattoo on +the tablecloth. Mrs. Feverel, with some grimly muttered excuse, left +the room. She watched him a moment from the other side of the table +and then she came over to him. She bent over his chair, leaning her +hands on his shoulders. + +"Robin, what is it?" she said. "What's happened?" + +"Nothing," he said gloomily. "It's all right----" + +"Oh! do you suppose I haven't seen?" She bent closer to him and +pressed her cheek against his. "Robin, old boy--you're not getting +tired of me? You're tired or cross to-night--I don't know. I've been +very patient all this time--waiting for you--hoping that you would +come--longing for you--and you never came--all these many weeks. Then +I thought that, perhaps, you were too busy or were afraid of people +talking--but, at last, there was to be to-night; and I've looked +forward to it--oh! so much!--and now you're like this!" + +She was nearly crying, and there was that miserable little catch in her +voice. He did feel an awful cad--he hadn't thought that she would +really care so much as this; but still it had to be done some time, and +this seemed a very good opportunity. + +He cleared his throat, and, beating the carpet with his foot, tried to +speak with dignity as well as feeling--but he only succeeded in being +patronising. + +"You know," he said quickly, and without daring to look at her, "one's +had time to think. I don't mean that I'm sorry it's all been as it +has--we've had a ripping time--but I'm not sure--one can't be +certain--that it's best for it to go on--quite like this. You see, old +girl, it's so damned serious. Of course my people have ideas about my +marrying--of course the Trojans have always had to be careful. People +expect it of them----" + +He stopped for a moment. + +"You mean that I'm not good enough?" + +She had stepped back from his chair and was standing with her back to +the wall. He got up from his chair and turned round and faced her, +leaning with his hands on the table. But he could not face her for +long; his eyes dropped before the fury in hers. + +"No, no, Dahlia--how stupid of you!--of course it's not that. It's +really rather unkind of you to make it harder for me. It's difficult +enough to explain. You're good enough for any one, but I'm not quite +sure, dear, whether we'd be quite the people to marry! We'd be +splendid friends, of course--we'll always be that--but we're both very +young, and, after all, it's rather hard for one to know. It was +splendid at Cambridge, but I don't think we quite realised----" + +"You mean you didn't," she broke in quickly. "I know well enough. +Some one's been speaking to you, Robin." + +"No--nobody." He looked at her fiercely. She had hurt his pride. "As +if I'd be weak enough to let that make any difference. No one has said +a word--only----" + +"Only--you've been thinking that we're not quite good enough for +you--that we'd soil your Trojan carpets and chairs--that we'd stain +your Trojan relations. I--I know--I----" + +And then she broke down altogether. She was kneeling by the table with +her head in her arms, sobbing as though her heart would break. + +"Oh, I say, Dahlia, don't! I can't bear to see you cry--it will be all +right, old girl, to-morrow--it will really--and then you will see that +it was wiser. You will thank me for speaking about it. Of course +we'll always be good friends. I----" + +"Robin, you don't mean it. You can't!" She had risen from her knees +and now stood by him, timidly, with one hand on his arm. "You have +forgotten all those splendid times at Cambridge. Don't you remember +that evening on the Backs? Just you and I alone when there was that +man singing on the other side of the water, when you said that we would +be like that always--together. Oh, Robin dear, it can't have been all +nothing to you." + +She looked very charming with her eyes a little wet and her hair a +little dishevelled. But his resolution must not weaken--now that he +had progressed so far, he must not go back. But he put his arm round +her. + +"Really, old girl, it is better--for both of us. We can wait. Perhaps +in a few years' time it will seem different again. We can think about +it then. I don't want to seem selfish, but you must think about me a +little. You must see how hard it has been for me to say this, and that +it has only been with the greatest difficulty that I've been strong +enough. Believe me, dear, it is harder for me than it is for you--much +harder." + +He was really getting on very well. He had had no idea that he would +do it so nicely. Poor girl! it was hard luck--perhaps he had led her +to expect rather too much--those letters of his had been rather too +warm, a little indiscreet. But no doubt she would marry some excellent +man of her own class--in a few years she would look back and wonder how +she had ever had the fortune to know so intimately a man of Robin's +rank! Meanwhile, the scene had better end as soon as possible. + +She had let him keep his arm round her waist, and now she suddenly +leant back and looked up in his face. + +"Robin, darling," she whispered, "you can't mean it--not that we should +part like this. Why, think of the times that we have had--the +splendid, glorious times--and all that we're going to have. Think of +all that you've said to me, over and over again----" + +She crept closer to him. "You love me really, dear, all the same. +It's only that some one's been talking to you and telling you that it's +foolish. But that mustn't make any difference. We're strong enough to +face all the world. You know that you said you were in the summer, and +I'm sure that you are now. Wait till to-morrow, dear, and you'll see +it all differently." + +"I tell you nobody's been talking," he said, drawing his arm away. +"Besides, if they did, it wouldn't make any difference. No, Dahlia, +it's got to stop. We're too young to know, and besides, it would be +absurd anyway. I know it's bad luck on you. Perhaps I said rather too +much in the summer. But of course we'll always be good friends. I +know you'll see it as I do in a little time. We've both been +indiscreet, and it's better to draw back now than later--really it is." + +"Do you mean it, Robin?" + +She stood facing him with her hands clenched; her face was white and +her eyes were blazing with fury. + +"Yes, of course," he said. "I think it's time this ended----" + +"Not before I've told you what I think of you," she cried. "You're a +thief and a coward--you've stolen a girl's love and then you're afraid +to face the world--you're afraid of what people will say. If you don't +love me, you're tied to me, over and over again. You've made me +promises--you made me love you--and now when your summer amusement is +over you fling me aside--you and your fine relations! Oh! you +gentlemen! It would be a good thing for the world if we were rid of +the whole lot of you! You coward! You coward!" + +He was taken aback by her fury. + +"I say--Dahlia--" he stammered, "it's unfair----" + +"Oh! yes!" she broke in, "unfair, of course, to you! but nothing to +me--nothing to me that you stole my love--robbed me of it like a common +thief--pretended to love me, promised to marry me, and now--now--Oh! +unfair! yes, always for the man, never for the girl--she doesn't count! +She doesn't matter at all. Break her heart and fling it away and +nobody minds--it's as good as a play!" + +She burst into tears, and stood with her head in her hands, sobbing as +though her heart would break. It was a most distressing scene! + +"Really, really, Dahlia," said Robin, feeling extremely uncomfortable +(it was such a very good thing, he thought, that none of his friends +could see him), "it's no use your taking it like this. I had better +go--we can't do any good by talking about it now. To-morrow, when we +can look at it calmly, it will seem different." + +He moved to the door, but she made another attempt and put her hand +timidly on his arm to stop him. + +"No, no, Robin, I didn't mean what I said--not like that. I didn't +know what I was saying. Oh, I love you, dear, I love you! I can't let +you go like that. You don't know what it means to me. You are taking +everything from me--when you rob a girl of her love, of her heart, you +leave her nothing. If you go now, I don't care what happens to +me--death--or worse, That's how you make a bad woman, Robin. Taking +her love from her and then letting her go. You are taking her soul!" + +But he placed her gently aside. "Nonsense, Dahlia," he said. "You are +excited to-night. You exaggerate. You will meet a man much worthier +than myself, and then you will see that I was right." + +He opened the door and was gone. + +She sat down at the table. She heard him open and shut the hall door, +and then his steps echoed down the street, and at last there was +silence. She sat at the table with her head bent, her eyes gazing at +the oranges and the bananas. The house was perfectly silent, and her +very heart seemed to have ceased to beat. Of course she did not +realise it; it seemed to her still as though he would come back in a +moment and put his arms round her and tell her that it was all a +game--just to see if she had really cared. But the silence of the +street and the house was terrible. It choked her, and she pulled at +her frock to loosen the tightness about her throat. It was cruel of +him to have gone away like that--but of course he would come back. +Only why was that cold misery at her heart? Why did she feel as if +some one had placed a hand on her and drawn all her life away, and left +her with no emotion or feeling--only a dull, blank, despair, like a +cold fog through which no sun shone? + +For she was beginning to realise it slowly. He had gone away, after +telling her, brutally, frankly, that he was tired of her--that he had, +indeed, never really cared for her. That was it--he had never cared +for her--all those things that he had promised in the summer had been +false, words without any meaning. All that idyll had been hollow, a +sham, and she had made it the centre of her world. + +She got up from the table and swayed a little as she stood. She +pressed her hands against her forehead as though she would drive into +her brain the fact that there would be no one now--no one at all--it +was all a lie, a lie, a lie! + +The door opened softly and Mrs. Feverel stole in. "Dahlia--what has he +done?" + +She looked at her as though she could not see her. + +"Oh, nothing," she said slowly. "He did nothing. Only it's all +over--there is not going to be any more." + +And then, as though the full realisation of it had only just been borne +in upon her, she sat down at the table again and burst into passionate +crying. + +Mrs. Feverel watched her. "I knew it was coming, my dear--weeks ago. +You know I told you, only you wouldn't listen. Lord! it was plain +enough. He'd only been playing the same game as all the rest of them." + +Dahlia dried her eyes fiercely. "I'm a fool to make so much of it," +she said. "I wasn't good enough--he said--not good enough. His people +wouldn't like it and the rest--Oh! I've been a fool, a fool!" + +Her mood changed to anger again. Even now she did not grasp it fully, +but he had insulted her. He had flung back in her face all that she +had given him. Injured pride was at work now, and for a moment she +hated him so that she could have killed him gladly had he been there. +But it was no good--she could not think about it clearly; she was +tired, terribly tired. + +"I'm tired to death, mother," she said. "I can't think to-night." + +She stumbled a little as she turned to the door. + +"At least," said Mrs. Feverel, "there are the letters." + +But Dahlia had scarcely heard. + +"The letters?" she said. + +"That he wrote in the summer. You have them safe enough?" + +But the girl did not reply. She only climbed heavily up the dark +stairs. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +Clare Trojan was having her breakfast in her own room. It was ten +o'clock, and a glorious September morning, and the sparrows were +twittering on the terrace outside as though they considered it highly +improper for any one to have breakfast between four walls when Nature +had provided such a splendid feast on the lawn. + +Clare was reading a violent article in the _National Review_ concerning +the inadequacy of our present solution of the housing problem; but it +did not interest her. + +If the world had only been one large Trojan family there would have +been no problem. The trouble was that there were Greeks. She did +dimly realise their existence, but the very thought of them terrified +her. Troy must be defended, and there were moments when Clare was +afraid that its defenders were few; but she blinded herself to the +dangers of attack. "There are no Greeks, there _are_ no Greeks." +Clare stood alone on the Trojan walls and defied that world of +superstition and pagan creeds. With the armour of tradition and an +implicit belief in the watchword of all true Trojan leaders, "Qui dort +garde," she warded the sacred hearths; but there were moments when her +eyes were opened and signs were revealed to her of another +world--something in which Troy could have no place; and then she was +afraid. + +She was considering Harry, his coming, and his probable bearing on +present conditions, and she knew that once again the Trojan walls were +in danger. It seemed to her, as she sat there, cruelly unfair that the +son of the House, the man who in a little while would stand before the +world as the head of the Trojan tradition, should be the chief +instrument in the attempted destruction of the same. She had not liked +Harry in the old days. She had always, even as a girl, a very stern +idea of the dignity of the House. Harry had never fulfilled this idea, +had never even attempted to. He had been wild, careless, +undisciplined, accompanying strange uncouth persons on strange uncouth +adventures; he had been almost a byword in the place. No, she had not +liked him; she had almost hated him at one time. And then after he had +gone away she had deliberately forgotten him; she had erased his name +from the fair sheet of the Trojan record, and had hoped that the House +would never more be burdened by his undisciplined history. Then she +had heard that there was a son and heir, and her one thought had been +of capture, deliverance of the new son of the House from his father's +influence. She was not deliberately cruel in her determination; she +saw that the separation must hurt the father, but she herself was ready +to make sacrifice for the good of the House and she expected the same +self-denial in others. Harry made no difficulties. New Zealand was no +place for a lonely widower to bring up his boy, and Robin was sent +home. From that moment he was the centre of Clare's world; much +self-denial can make a woman good, only maternity can make her divine. +To bring the boy up for the House, to tutor him in all the little and +big things that a Trojan must know and do, to fit him to take his place +at the head of the family on a later day; all these things she laboured +for, day and night without ceasing, and without divided interests. She +loved the boy, too, passionately, with more than a mother's love, and +now she looked back over what had been her life-work with pride and +satisfaction. She had tried to forget Harry. She hoped, although she +never dared to face the thought in her heart, that he would die there, +away in that foreign country, without coming back to them again. Robin +was hers now; she had educated him, loved him, scolded him--he was all +hers, she would brook no division. Then, when she had heard that Harry +was to come home, it had been at first more than she could bear. She +had burst into wild incoherent protests; she had prayed that an +accident might happen to him and that he might never reach home. And +then the Trojan pride and restraint had come to her aid. She was +ashamed, bewildered, that she could have sunk to such depths; she +prepared to meet him calmly and quietly; she even hoped that, perhaps, +he might be so changed that she would welcome him. And, after all, he +would in a little time be head of the House. Robin, too, was strongly +under her influence, and it was unlikely that he would leave her for a +man whom he had never known, for whom he could not possibly care. + +It was this older claim of hers with regard to Robin that did, she +felt, so obviously strengthen her position, and now that Harry had +really returned, she thought that her fears need not trouble her much +longer--he did all the things that Robin disliked most. His +boisterousness, heartiness, and good-fellowship, dislike of everyday +conventionality, would all, she knew, count against him with Robin. +She had seen him shrink on several occasions, and each time she had +been triumphantly glad. For she was frightened, terribly frightened. +Harry was threatening to take from her the one great thing around which +her life was centred; if he robbed her of Robin he robbed her of +everything, and she must fight to keep him. That it would come to a +duel between them she had long foreseen, she had governed for so long +that she would not easily yield her place now; but she had not known +that she would feel as she did about Robin, she had not known that she +would be jealous--jealous of every look and word and motion. She had +never known what jealousy was before, but now in the silence of the +golden, sunlit room, with only the twittering of the birds on the lawn +to disturb her thoughts, she faced the facts honestly without +shrinking, and she knew that she hated her brother. Oh! why couldn't +he go back again to his sheep-shearing! Why had he come to disturb +them! It was not his environment, it was not his life at all! She +felt that they could never lead again that same quiet, ordered +existence; like a gale of wind he had burst their doors and broken +their windows, and now the house was open, desolate, to the world. + +She went up to her father's room, as was her custom every morning after +breakfast. He was lying at his open window, watching, with those +strange, restless eyes of his, the great expanse of sea and sky +stretching before him. His room was full of light and air. Its white +walls and ceiling, great bowls of some of the last of the summer's +roses, made it seem young and vigorous and alive. It was almost a +shock to see that huddled, dying old man with his bent head and +trembling hands--but his eyes were young, and his heart. + +As she looked at him, she wondered why she had never really cared for +him. At first she had been afraid; then, as she grew older and a +passionate love for and pride in the family as a conservative and +ancient institution developed in her, that fear became respect, and she +looked up to her father from a distance, admiring his reserve and pride +but never loving him; and now that respect had become pity, and above +all a great longing that he might live for many, many years, securing +the household gods from shame and tending the fire on the Trojan +hearth. For at the moment of his death would come the crisis--the +question of the new rule. At one time it had seemed certain that Robin +would be king, with herself a very vigilant queen-regent. But now that +was all changed. Harry had come home, and it was into his hands that +the power would fall. + +She had often wondered that she knew her father so little. He had +always been difficult to understand; a man of two moods strongly +opposed--strangely taciturn for days together, and then brilliantly +conversational, amusing, and a splendid companion. She had never known +which of these attitudes was the real one, and now that he was old she +had abandoned all hope of ever answering the question. His moods were +more strongly contrasted than ever. He often passed quickly from one +to the other. If she had only known which was the real one; she felt +at times that his garrulity was a blind--that he watched her almost +satirically whilst he talked. She feared his silences terribly, and +she used often to feel that a moment was approaching when he would +reveal to her definitely and finally some plot that he had during those +many watchful years been forming. She knew that he had never let her +see his heart--he had never taken her into his confidence. She had +tried to establish some more intimate relationship, but she had failed; +and now, for many years, she had left it at that. + +But she wanted to know what he thought of Harry. She had waited for a +sign, but he had given none; and although she had watched him carefully +she had discovered nothing. He had not mentioned his son--a stranger +might have thought that he had not noticed him. But Clare knew him too +well to doubt that he had come to some definite conclusion in the +matter. + +She bustled cheerfully about the room, humming a little tune and +talking to him, lightly and with no apparent purpose. He watched the +gulls fly past the open window, his eyes rested on a golden flash of +sun that struck some shining roof in the Cove, but his mind was back in +the early days when he had played his game with the best and had seen +the bright side of the world. + +"He was a rake, Jack Crayle"--he seemed scarcely conscious that Clare +was in the room--"a rake but a good heart, and an amusing fellow too. +I remember meeting old Rendle and Hawdon Sallust--Hawdon of the +eighties, you know--not the old man--he kept at home--all three of them +at White's, Rendle and Sallust and Crayle; Jack bet Rendle he wouldn't +stop the next man he met in the street and claim him as an old friend +and bring him in--and, by Jove, he took it and brought him in, +too--sort of tramp chap he was, too--dirty, untidy fellow--but Rendle +was game serious--by Gad, he was. Said he was an old friend that had +fallen on evil times--gave him a drink and won the bet--'63 that +was--the year Bailey won that polo match against old Tom Radley--all +the town was talking of it. By Gad, he could ride, Bailey could. +Why----" + +"It's time for your medicine, father," said Clare, breaking ruthlessly +in upon the reminiscences. + +"Eh, dear, yes," he said, looking at her curiously. "You're never +late, Clare, always up to time. Yes, yes, well, well; in '63 that was. +I remember it like yesterday--old Tom--particular friend he was of mine +then, although we broke afterwards--my fault too, probably, about a +horse it was. I----" + +But Clare gave him his medicine, first tying a napkin round his neck +lest she should spill the drops. He looked at her, smiling, over the +napkin. + +"You were always a girl for method," he said again; "not like Harry." + +She looked at him quickly, but could guess nothing; she was suddenly +frightened, as she so often was when he laughed like that. She always +expected that some announcement would follow. It was almost as if he +had threatened her. + +"Harry?" she said. "No. But he is very like he used to be in some +ways. It is nice to have him back again--but--well, he will find +Pendragon rather different from Auckland, I'm afraid." + +Sir Jeremy said nothing. He lay there without moving; Clare untied the +napkin, and put back the medicine, and wheeled the chair into a sunnier +part of the room and away from the window. + +"You must get on with Harry, Clare," he said suddenly, sharply. + +"Why, yes," she answered, laughing a little uneasily. "Of course we +get on. Only his way of looking at things was always a little +different--even, perhaps, a little difficult to understand"; and then, +after a little pause, "I am stupid, I know. It was always hard for me +to see like other people." + +But he was not listening to her. He was smiling at the sun, and the +birds on the lawn, and the flashing gold of the distant sand. + +"No, you never saw like Harry," he said at last. "You want to be old +to understand," and he would say no more. + +He talked to her no more that morning, and she was vaguely uneasy. +What was he thinking about Harry, and how did his opinion influence the +situation? + +She fancied that she saw signs of rebellion. For many years he had +allowed her to do what she would, and although she had sometimes +wondered whether he was quite as passive as she had fancied, she had +had no fear of any disturbance. Now there was something vaguely +menacing in his very silences. And, in some undefined way, the +pleasure that he took in the cries of birds, the plunge and chatter of +the sea as it rose and fell on the southern shore, the glint of the sun +on the gold and green distances of rock and moor was alarming. She +herself did not understand those things; indeed, she scarcely saw them, +and was inclined to despise any one who loved any unpractical beauty, +anything that was not at least traditional. And now this was a bond +between her father and Harry. They had both loved wild, uncivilised +things, and it was this very trait in their character that had made +division between them before. But now what had been in those early +years the cause of trouble was their common ground of sympathy. + +They shared some secret of which she knew nothing, and she was afraid +lest Robin should learn it too. + +She went about her housekeeping duties that morning with an uneasy +mind. The discipline below stairs was excellent because she was +feared. It was not that she was hasty-tempered or unjust; indeed the +cook, who had been there for many years, said that she had never seen +Miss Clare angry, and her justice was a thing to marvel at. She always +gave people their due, and exactly their due; she never over-praised or +blamed, and that was why people said that she was cold; it was also, +incidentally, responsible for her excellent discipline. + +She was, as Sir Jeremy had said, a woman of amazing method. But the +attitude of her actual household helped her; they were all, by +education and environment, Trojans. Whatever they had been before they +entered service at "The Flutes"--Radicals, Socialists, Dissenters, or +Tones--at the moment of passing the threshold they were transformed +into Trojans. Other things fell from them like a mantle, and in their +serious devotion to traditional Conservatism they were examples of the +true spirit of Feudalism. Beldam, the butler, had long ago graduated +as Professor in the system. Coming as page-boy in earlier years, he +had acquired the by no means easy art of Trojan diplomacy. It was now +his duty to overhaul, as it were, every servant that passed the gates; +an overhauling, moreover, done seriously and with much searching of the +heart. Were you a Trojan? That is, do you consider that you are +exceptionally fortunate in being chosen to perform menial but necessary +duties in the Trojan household? Will you spend the rest of your days, +not only in performing your duties worthily, but also in preaching to a +blind and misguided world the doctrine of Trojan perfection and +superiority? If the answer were honestly affirmative, you were +accepted; otherwise, you were expelled with a fortnight's wages and +eternal contempt. + +Even the scullerymaid was not spared, but had to pass an examination in +rites and rituals so severe that one unfortunate, Annie Grace Marks, +after Beldam had spoken to her severely for half-an-hour, burst out +with an impetuous, "Thank Gawd, she was a Marks, which was as good as +the High and Mighty any day of the week, and better, for there wasn't +no pride in the Marks and never 'ad been." + +She received her dismissal that same evening. + +But the case of Annie Marks was an isolated one. Rebellion was very +occasional, and, for the most, the servants stayed at "The +Flutes"--partly because the pay was good, and partly because the very +reiteration of Trojan supremacy gave them a feeling of elevation very +pleasant to their pride. In accordance with all true feudal law, you +lost your own sense of birth and ancestry and became in a moment a +Trojan; for Smith, Jones, and Robinson this was very comforting. + +So Clare had very little trouble, and this morning she was able to +finish her duties speedily, and devote her whole attention to the +crisis that threatened the family. + +She decided to see Garrett, and made her way to his room. He was +writing, and seemed disturbed by her entry. He had been working for +some years on a book to be entitled, "Our Aristocracy: its Threatened +Supremacy." He was still engaged on the preliminary chapter, "Some +aspects of historical aristocracy," and it had developed into a +somewhat minute account of Trojan past history. He had no expectations +of ever concluding the work, but it gave him a pleasant sense of +importance and seemed in some vague way to be of value to the Trojan +family. + +He was always happy when at work, although he effected very little; +but, after all, the great stylists always worked slowly. His style +was, it is true, somewhat commonplace; but his rather minute output +allowed him to rank, in his own estimation, with Pater and Omar +Khayyam, and disdain the voluminous facility of Thackeray and Dickens. +He was, he felt, one of the "precious" writers, and so long as no one +saw his work he was able both to comfort himself and to impress others +with the illusion. + +It was said vaguely in Pendragon that "Garrett Trojan was a clever +fellow--was writing a book--said to be brilliant, of great promise--no, +he hadn't seen it, but----" etc. + +So Garrett looked at his sister a little resentfully. + +"I hope it's important, Clare," he said, "because--well, you know, the +morning's one's time for work, and once one gets off the track it's +difficult to get back; not that I've done much, you know, only half a +page--but this kind of thing can't move quickly." + +"I'm sorry, Garrie," she answered, "but you've got to talk to me. +There are things about which I want your advice." + +She did not really want it; she had decided on her line of conduct, and +nothing that he could say would alter her decision--but it flattered +him, and she needed his help. + +"Well, of course," he said, pushing his chair back and coming to the +fire, "if it's anything I can do-- What is it, Clare? Household or +something in the town?" + +"Oh, nothing," she laughed at him. "Don't be worried, Garrie; I know +it's horrid to disturb you, and there's really nothing--only--well, +after all, there is only us, isn't there? for acting together I +mean--and I want to know what line you're going on." + +"Oh! about Harry?" He looked at her sharply for a moment. "You know +that I object to lines, Clare. They are dangerous things." He implied +that he was above them. "Of course there are times when it is +necessary to--well, to be decisive; but at present it seems to me that +we must wait for the situation to develop--it will, of course." + +"I knew that you would say that," she said impatiently. "But it won't +do; the situation _has_ developed. You always preferred to look on--it +is, as you say, less dangerous; but here I must have your help. Harry +has been back a week; he is, for you and me, unchanged. The situation, +as far as we go, is the same as it was twenty years ago. He is not one +of us, he never was, and, to do him justice, never pretended to be. +We, or at any rate I, imagined that he would be different now, after +all that time. He is exactly the same." She paused. + +"Well?" he said. "All that for granted, it's true enough. What's the +trouble?" + +"Things aren't the same though, now. There is father, and Robin. +Father has taken to Harry strongly. He told me so just now. And for +Robin----" + +"Scarcely captivated," said Garrett drily. "Have you seen them +together? Hardly domestic----" + +Then he looked at her again and laughed. "And that pleases you, Clare." + +"Of course," she answered him firmly. "There is no good in hedging. +He is no brother of ours, Garrett. He is, what is more important +still, no Trojan, and after all family counts for something. We don't +like him, Garrett. Why be sentimental about it? He will follow +father--and it will be soon--_apres, le deluge_. For ourselves, it +does not matter. It is hard, of course, but we have had our time, and +there are other things and places. It is about Robin. I cannot bear +to think what it would mean if he were alone here with Harry, after all +these years." + +"He would not stay." + +"You think that?" Clare said eagerly. "It is so hard to know. He is +still only a boy. Of course Harry shocks him now, shocks +everything--his sense of decency, his culture, his pride--but that will +wear off; he will get used to it--and then----" + +It had been inevitable that the discussion should come, and Garrett had +been waiting. He had no intention of going to find her, he would wait +until she came to him, but he had been anxious to know her opinion. +For himself the possibility of Harry's return had never presented +itself. After all those years he would surely remain where he was. In +yielding his son he had seemed to abandon all claim to any rights of +inheritance, and Garrett had thought of him as one comfortably dead. +He had contemplated his own ultimate succession with the pleasurable +certainty that it was absolutely the right thing. In his love for a +rather superficial tradition he was a perfect Trojan, and might be +relied on to continue existing conditions without any attempt at +radical changes. Clare, too, would be of great use. + +But in a moment what had been, in his mind, certainty was changed into +impossibility; instead of a certain successor he had become some one +whose very existence was imperilled--his existence, that is, on the +only terms that were in the least comfortable. Everything that made +life worth living was threatened. Not that his brother would turn him +out; he granted Harry the very un-Trojan virtues of generosity and +affection for humanity in general--a rather foolish, gregarious +open-handedness opposed obviously to all decent economy. But Harry +would keep him--and the very thought stirred Garrett to a degree of +anger that his sluggish nature seldom permitted him. Kept! and by +Harry! Harry the outlaw! Harry the rebel! Harry the Greek! Garrett +scarcely loved his brother when he thought of it. + +But it was necessary that some line of action should be adopted, and he +was glad that Clare had taken the first step. + +"You don't think," he said doubtfully, "that he could be induced to go +back?" + +"What!" cried Clare, "after these years and the way he has waited! +Why, remember that first evening! He will never leave this again. He +has been dreaming about it too long!" + +"I don't know," said Garrett. "He'll be at loggerheads with the town +very soon. He has been saying curious things to a good many people. +He objects to all improvement and says so. The place will soon be too +hot for him." + +But Clare shook her head. "No," she said. "He will soon find out +about things--and then, in a little, when he takes father's place, what +people think odd and unpleasant now will be original and strong. +Besides, he would never go, whatever might happen, because of Robin." + +"Ah, yes, there is Robin. It will be curious to watch developments +there. Randal comes to-day, doesn't he?" + +"Yes, this afternoon. A most delightful boy. I'm afraid that he may +find Harry tiresome." + +"We must wait," Garrett said finally; "in a week's time we shall see +better. But, Clare, don't be rash. There is father--and, besides, it +will scarcely help Robin." + +"Oh! no melodrama," she said, laughing and moving towards the door. +"Only, we understand each other, Garrie. Things won't do as they +are--or, as they promise to be." + +Garrett returned, with a sigh of relief, to his papers. + +For Harry the week had been a series of bitter disappointments. He +woke gradually from his dreams and saw that everything was changed. He +was in a new world and he was out of place. Those dreams had been +coloured, fantastically, beautifully. In the white pebbles, the golden +sand, the curling grey smoke of the Cove, he had formed pictures that +had lightened many dreary and lonely hours in Auckland. He was to come +back; away from that huge unwieldy life in which comfort had no place +and rest was impossible, back to all the old things, the wonderful +glorious things that meant home and tradition and, above all, love. He +was a sentimentalist, he knew that now. It had not been so in those +old days; the life had been too adventurous and exciting, and he had +despised the quiet comforts of a stay-at-home existence. But now he +knew its value; he would come home and take his place as head of the +family, as father, as citizen--he had learnt his lesson, and at last it +was time for the reward. + +But now that he had come home he found that the lesson was not learnt, +or, perhaps, that the learning had been wasted; he must begin all over +again. Garrett and Clare had not changed; they had made no advances +and had shown him quite plainly, in the courteous Trojan fashion, that +they considered his presence an intrusion, that they had no place in +their ranks that he could fill. He was, he saw it plainly, no more in +line with them than he had been twenty years before. Indeed, matters +were worse. There was no possibility of agreement--they were poles +apart. + +With the town, too, he was an "outsider." The men at the Club thought +him a bore--a person of strange enthusiasms and alarming heresies. By +the ladies he was considered rough: as Mrs. le Terry had put it to Miss +Ponsonby, he was a kind of too terrible bushranger without the romance! +He was gauche, he knew, and he hated the tea-parties. They talked +about things of which he knew nothing; he was too sincere to cover his +convictions with the fatuous chatter that passed, in Fallacy Street +society, for brilliant wit. That it was fatuous he was convinced, but +his conviction made matters no easier for him. + +But his attitude to the town had been, it must be confessed, from the +very first a challenge. He had expected things that were not there; he +had thought that his dreams were realities, and when he had demanded +golden colours and had been shown stuff of sombre grey, there had been +wild rebellion and impatient discontent with the world. He had thought +Pendragon amazing in its utter disregard of the things that were to him +necessities, but he had forgotten that he himself despised so +completely things that were to Pendragon essentials. He had asked for +beauty and they had given him an Esplanade; he had searched for romance +and had discovered the new hotel; he dreamed of the sand and blue water +of the Cove and had awaked to find the place despised and contemned--a +site for future boarding-houses. + +The town had thought him at first entertaining; they had made +allowances for a certain rather picturesque absurdity consequent on +backwoods and the friendship of Maories--men had laughed at the Club +and detailed Harry Trojan's latest with added circumstances and +incident, and for a while this was amusing. But his vehemence knew no +pause, and he stated his disgust at the practical spirit of the new +Pendragon with what seemed to the choice spirits at the Club +effrontery. They smiled and then they sneered, and at last they left +him alone. + +So Harry found himself, at the end of the first week after his return, +alone in Pendragon. + +He had not, perhaps, cared for their rejection. He had come, like +Gottwalt in _Flegejahre_, "loving every dog, and wishing that every dog +should love him"--but he had seen, at once, that his way must be apart +from theirs, and in that knowledge he had tried to find the comfort of +a minority certain of its own strength and disdainful of common +opinion. He had marvelled at their narrow vision and was unaware that +his own point of view was equally narrow. + +And, after all, there was Robin. Robin and he would defy Pendragon and +laugh at its stupid little theories and short-sighted plans. And then, +slowly, irresistibly, he had seen that he was alone--that Robin was on +the side of Pendragon. He refused to admit it even now, and told +himself again and again that the boy was naturally a little awkward at +first--careless perhaps--certainly constrained. But gradually a wall +had been built up between them; they were greater strangers now than +they had been on that first evening of the return. Ah! how he had +tried! He had thought that, perhaps, the boy hated sentiment and he +had held himself back, watching eagerly for any sign of affection, +ready humbly to take part in anything, to help in any difficulty, to +laugh, to sympathise, to take his place as he had been waiting to do +for so many years. + +But Robin had made no advances, showed no sign. He had almost repulsed +him--had at least been absolutely indifferent. They had had a walk +together, and Harry had tried his best--but the attempt had been +obvious, and at last there had come a terrible silence; they had walked +back through the streets of Pendragon without a word. + +Everything that Harry had said had been unfortunate. He had praised +the Cove enthusiastically, and Robin had been contemptuous. He had +never heard of Pater and had confounded Ibsen with Jerome K. Jerome. +He had praised cricket and met with no reply. Twice he had seen +Robin's mouth curl contemptuously, and it had cut him to the heart. + +Poor Harry! he was very lonely. During the last two days he had been +down in the Cove; he had found his way into the little inn and got in +touch with some of the fishermen. But they scarcely solaced his +loneliness. He had met Mary Bethel on the downs, and for a moment they +had talked. There was no stiffness there; she had looked at him simply +as a friend, with no hostility, and he had been grateful. + +At last he had begun to look forward to the coming of Robin's friend, +Randal. He was, evidently, a person to whom Robin looked up with great +admiration. Perhaps he would form in some way a link, would understand +the difficulties of both, and would help them. Harry waited, eagerly, +and formed a picture of Randal in his mind that gave him much +encouragement. + +He was in his room now; it was half-past four, and the carriage had +just passed up the drive. He looked anxiously at his ties and +hesitated between light green, brown, and black. He had learnt the +importance of these things in his son's eyes. He was going next week +to London to buy clothes; meanwhile he must not offend their sense of +decency, and he hesitated in front of his tie-box like a girl before +her first dance. The green was terribly light. It was a good tie, but +perhaps not quite the thing. Nothing seemed to go properly with his +blue suit--the brown was dull and uninteresting--it lacked character; +any one might have worn it, and he flung it back almost scornfully into +the box. The black was really best, but how dismal! He seemed to see +all his miserable loneliness and disappointment in its dark, sombre +colour. No, that would never do! He must be bright, amusing, +cheerful--anything but dull and dismal. So he put on the green again, +and went down to the drawing-room. Randal was a young man of +twenty-four--dark, tall, and slight, with a rather weary look in the +eyes, as of one who had discovered the hollow mockery of the world and +wondered at the pleasures of simple people. He was perfectly dressed, +and had arrived, after much thought and a University education, at that +excellent result when everything is right, as it were, by accident--as +though no thought had been taken at all. As soon as a man appears to +have laboured for effect, then he is badly dressed. Randal was +good-looking. He had very dark eyes and thin, rather curling lips, and +hair brushed straight back from his forehead. + +The room was in twilight. It was Clare's morning-room, chosen because +it was cosy and favoured intimacy. She was fond of Randal and liked to +mother him; she also respected his opinions. The windows looked over +the sea and the blinds were not drawn. The twilight, like a floating +veil, hovered over sea and land; the last faint colours of the sunset, +gold and rose and grey, trembled over the town. + +Harry was introduced. Randal smiled, but his hand was limp; Harry felt +a little ashamed of his own hearty grasp and wished that he had been +less effusive. Randal's suit was dark blue and he wore a black tie; +Harry became suddenly conscious of his daring green and, taking his +tea, went and sat in the window and watched the town. The first white +colours of the young moon, slipping from the rosy-grey cloud, touched +faintly the towers of the ruined church on the moor; he fancied that he +could just see the four stones shining darkly grey against the horizon, +but it was difficult to tell in that mysterious half-light. Robin was +sitting under the lamp by the door. The light caught his hair, but his +face was in shadow. Harry watched him eagerly, hungrily. Oh! how he +loved him, his son! + +Randal was discussing some people with whom he had been staying--a +little languidly and without any very active interest. "Rather a nice +girl, though," he said. "Only such a dreadful mother. Young +Page-Rellison would have had a shot, I do believe, if it hadn't been +for the mother--wore a wig and talked Cockney, and fairly grabbed the +shekels in bridge." + +"And what about the book?" Clare asked. + +"Oh! going on," said Randal. "I showed Cressel a chapter the other +day--you know the New Argus man; and he was very nice about it. Of +course, some of the older men won't like it, you know. It fairly goes +for their methods, and I flatter myself hits them pretty hard once or +twice. You know, Miss Trojan, it's the young school you've got to look +to nowadays; it's no use going back to those mid-Victorians--all very +well for the schoolroom--cause and effect and all that kind of +thing--but we must look ahead--be modern and you will be progressive, +Miss Trojan." + +"That's just what I'm always saying, Mr. Randal," said Clare, smiling. +"We're fighting a regular battle over it down here, but I think we will +win the day." + +Randal turned to Harry. "And you, sir," he said, "are with us, too?" + +Harry laughed. He knew that Robin was looking at him. "I have been +away," he said, "and perhaps I have been a little surprised at the +strides that things have made. Twenty years is a long time, and I was +romantic and perhaps foolish enough to expect that Pendragon would be +very much the same when I came back. It has changed greatly, and I am +a little disappointed." + +Clare looked up. "My brother has lost touch a little, Mr. Randal," she +said, "and I don't think quite sees what is good for the place--indeed, +necessary. At any rate, he scarcely thinks with us." + +"With _us_." There was emphasis on the word. That meant Robin too. +Randal glanced at him for a moment and then he turned to Robin--father +and son! A swift drawing of contrasts, perhaps with an inevitable +conclusion in favour of his own kind. It was suddenly as though the +elder man was shut out of the conversation; they had, in a moment, +forgotten his very presence. He sat in the dusk by the window, his +head in his hands, and terrible loneliness at his heart; it hurt as he +had never known before that anything could hurt. He had never known +that he was sensitive; in Auckland it had not been so. He had never +felt things then, and had a little despised people that had minded. +But there had been ever, in the back of his mind, the thought of those +days that were coming when, with his son at his side, he could face all +things. Well, now he had his son--there, with him in the room. The +irony of it made him clench his hands, there in the dark, whilst they +talked in the lighted room behind him. + +"Oh! King's is going to pot," Randal was saying. "I was down in the +Mays and they were actually running with the boats--they seemed quite +keen on going up. The decent men seem to have all gone." + +Robin was paying very little attention. He was looking worried, and +Clare watched him a little anxiously. "I hope you will be able to stay +with us some days, Mr. Randal," she said. "There are several new +people in Pendragon whom I should like you to meet." + +Randal was charmed. He would love to stop, but he must get back to +London almost immediately. He was going over to Germany next week and +there were many arrangements to be made. + +"Germany!" It was Robin who spoke, but the voice was not his usual +one. It was alive, vibrating, startling. "Germany! By Jove! +Randal--are you really going?" + +"Why, of course," a little wearily; "I have been before, you know. +Rather a bore, but the Rainers--you remember them, Miss Trojan--are +going over to the Beethoven Festival at Bonn and are keen on my going +with them. I wasn't especially anxious, but one must do these things, +you know." + +"Robin was there a year ago--Germany, I mean--and loved it. Didn't +you, Robin?" + +"Germany? It was Paradise, Heaven--what you will. Ruegen, the Harz, +Heidelberg, Worms----" He stopped and his voice broke. "I'm a little +absurd about it still," he said, as though in apology for such +unnecessary enthusiasm. + +"Oh! you're young, Robin," said Randal, laughing. "When you've seen as +much as I have you'll be blase. Not that one ought to be, but +Germany--well, it hardly lasts, I think. Ruegen--why, it rained and +there were mists round the Studenkammer, and how those people eat at +the Jagdschloss! Heidelberg! picture postcards and shocking +hotels--Oh! No, Robin, you'll see all that later. I wish you were +going instead of me, though." + +Harry had looked up at the sound of Robin's voice. It had been a new +note. There had been an eagerness, an enthusiasm, that meant life and +something genuine. + +Hope that had been slowly dying revived again. If Robin really cared +for Germany like that, then they had something in common. With that +spark a fire might be kindled. A red-gold haze as of fire burnt in the +night sky, over the town. Stars danced overhead, a little wind, +beating fitfully at the window, seemed to carry the light of the moon +in its tempestuous track, blowing it lightly in silver mists and clouds +over the moor. The Wise Men were there, strong and dark and sombre, +watching over the lighted town and listening patiently to the ripple +and murmur and life of the sea at their feet. In the little inn at the +Cove men were sitting over the roaring fire, telling tales--strange, +weird stories of a life that these others did not know. Harry had +heard them when he was a boy--those stories--and he had felt the spell +and the magic. There had been life in them and romance. + +Perhaps they were there again to-night, just as they had been twenty +years before. The stars called to him, the lighted town, the dusky, +softly breathing sea, the loneliness of the moor. He must get out and +away. He must have sympathy and warmth and friendship; he had come +back to his own people with open arms and they had no place for him. +His own son had repulsed him. But Cornwall, the country of his dreams, +the mother of his faith, the guardian of his honour, was there--the +same yesterday, to-day, and for ever. He would search for her and +would find her--even though it were on the red-brick floor of the +tavern in the Cove. + +He turned round and found that the room was empty. They had forgotten +him and left him--without a word. The light of the lamp caught the +silver of the tea-things, and flashed and sparkled like a flame. + +Harry Trojan softly opened the door, passed into the dim twilight of +the hall, picked up his hat, and stepped into the garden. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +As he felt the crunch of the gravel beneath his feet he was possessed +with the spirit of adventure. The dark house behind him had been +holding him captive. It had held him against his will, imprisoning +him, tormenting him, and the tortures that he had endured were many and +severe. He had not known that he could have felt it so much--that +absolute rejection of him by everything in which he had trusted; but he +would mind these things no longer--he would even try not to mind Robin! +That would be hard, and as he thought of it even now for a moment tears +had filled his eyes. That, however, was cowardice. He must fling away +the hopes of twenty years and start afresh, with the knowledge won of +his experience and the strength that he had snatched from his wounds. + +And after all a man was a fool to mope and whine when that wind from +the sea was beating in his ears and the sea scents of clover and +poppies and salt stinging foam were brought to his nostrils, and the +trees rustled like the beating of birds' wings in the velvety +star-lighted sky. + +A garden was wonderful at night--a place of strange silences and yet +stranger sound: trees darkly guarding mysterious paths that ran into +caverns of darkness; the scents of flowers rising from damp earth heavy +with dew; flowers that were weary with the dust and noise of the day +and slept gently, gratefully, with their heads drooping to the soil, +their petals closed by the tender hands of the spirits of the garden. +The night-sounds were strangely musical. Cries that were discordant in +the day mingled now with the running of distant water, the last notes +of some bird before it slept, the measured harmony of a far-away bell, +the gentle rustle of some arrival in the thickets; the voice that could +not be heard in the noisy chatter of the day rose softly now in a +little song of the night and the dark trees and the silver firelight of +the stars. + +And it was all very romantic, of course. Harry Trojan had flung his +cares behind him and stepped over the soft turf of the lawns, a free +adventurer. It was not really very late, and there was an hour before +dinner; but he was not sure that he minded about that--they would be +glad to dine without him. There crossed his mind the memory of a night +in New Zealand. He had been walking down to the harbour in Auckland, +and the moon had shone in the crooked water-side streets, its white, +cold light crossed with dark black shadows of roofs and gables. +Suddenly a woman's voice called for help across the silence, and he had +turned and listened. It had called again, and, thinking that he might +help some one in distress, he had burst a dark, silent door, stumbled +up crooked wooden stairs, and entered an empty room. As he passed the +door there was a sound of skirts, and a door at the other end of the +room had closed. There was no one there, only a candle guttering on +the table, the remains of a meal, a woman's hat on the back of a chair; +he had waited for some time in silence, he had called and asked if +there was any one there, he had tried the farther door and found it +shut--and so, cursing himself for a fool, he had passed down into the +street again and the episode had ended. There was really nothing in +it--nothing at all; but it was the atmosphere, the atmosphere of +romantic adventure shot suddenly across a rather drab and colourless +existence, and he had liked to dwell on the possibilities of the affair +and ask himself about it. Who was the woman, and why had she cried +out? Why was there no one in the room? And why had no one answered +him? + +He did not know and really he did not care, and, indeed, it was better +that the affair should be left in vague and incomplete outline. It was +probably commonplace enough, had one only known, and sordid too, +perhaps. But to-night was just such a night as that other. He would +go to the Cove and find his romance where he had left it twenty years +ago. It was the hour in Pendragon when shops are closing and young men +and maidens walk out. There were a great many people in the street; +girls with white, tired faces, young men with bright ties and a +self-assertive air--a type of person new to Pendragon since Harry's +day. The young man who served you respectfully, almost timidly, behind +the counter was now self-assertive, taking the middle of the street +with a flourish of his cane. Fragments of conversation came to Harry's +ears-- + +"Mother being out I thought as 'ow I might venture--not but what she'd +kick up a rare old fuss----" + +"So I told 'er it weren't no business of 'ers and the sooner she caught +on to the idea the better for all parties, seein' as 'ow----" + +"Well, I never did! and you told 'im that, did yer? I always said +you'd some pluck if you really wanted to----" + +A gramophone from an open window up the street shrieked the alluring +refrain of "She's a different girl again," and a man who had +established himself at the corner under the protecting glare of two +hissing gas-jets urged on the company present an immediate acceptance +of his stupendous offer. "Gold watches for 'alf a crown--positively +for one evening in order to clear--all above board. Solid gold and +cheap at a sovereign." + +The plunge into the cool depths of the winding little path that led +down to the Cove was delicious. Oh! the contrast of it! The noise and +ugly self-assertion of the town, flinging its gas-jets against the moon +and covering the roll of the sea with the shriek of the gramophone. He +crossed through the turnstile at the bend of the road and passed up the +hill that led to the Cove. At a bend the view of the sea came to him, +the white moonlight lying, a path of dancing shining silver, on the +grey sweep of the sea. A wind was blowing, turning the grey into +sudden points of white--like ghostly hands rising for a moment suddenly +from immensity and then sinking silently again, their prayers +unanswered. + +As he passed up the hill he was aware of something pattering beside +him; at first it was a little uncanny in that dim, uncertain light, and +he stopped and bent down to the road. It was a dog, a fox-terrier of a +kind, dirty, and even in that light most obviously a mongrel. But it +jumped up at him and put its paws on his knee. + +"Well, company's company," he said with a laugh. "I don't know where +you've sprung from, but we'll travel together for a bit." The dog ran +up the hill, and for a moment stood out against the moon--a shaggy, +disreputable dog with a humorous stump of a tail. He stood there with +one ear flapping back and the other cocked up--a most ridiculous figure. + +Harry laughed again and the dog barked; they walked down the hill +together. + +The Cove was dark, but from behind shuttered windows lamps twinkled +mysteriously, and the red glow from the inn flung a circle of light +down the little cobbled street. The beat of the sea came solemnly like +the tramp of invisible armies from the distance. There was no other +sound save the tremble of the wind in the trees. + +Harry pushed open the door of the inn and entered, followed by the dog. +The place was the same; nothing had been changed. There was the old +wooden gallery where the fiddle had played such merry tunes. The rough +uneven floor had the same holes, the same hills and dales. The great +settle by the fire was marked, as in former years, with mysterious +crosses and initials cut by jack-knives in olden days. The two lamps +shone in their accustomed places--one over the fire, another by the +window. The door leading to the bar was half open, and in the distance +voices could be heard, but the room itself seemed to be empty. + +A great fire leapt in the fireplace and the gold light of it danced on +the red-brick floor. The peculiar scent as of tobacco and ale and the +salt of the sea, and, faintly, the breath of mignonette and geraniums, +struck out the long intervals since Harry had been there before. +Twenty years ago he had breathed the same air; and now he was back +there again and nothing was changed. The dog had run to the fire and +sat in front of it now, wagging his stump of a tail, his ear cocked. +Harry laughed and sat down in the settle; the burden of the last week +was flung off and he was a free man. + +A long, lean man with a straggling beard stood in the doorway and +watched him; then he came forward. "Mr. Harry," he said, and held out +his hand. + +Harry started up. "I'm sorry," he said, stammering, "I don't remember." + +"We were wonderin'," said the long, thin man slowly, "when you was +comin' down. Not that you'd remember faces--that's not to be +expected--especially in foreign parts which is confusing and difficult +for a man--but I'm Bill Tregarvis what have had you out fishin' many's +the time--not that you'd remember faces," he said again, looking a +little timidly at him. + +But he did! Harry remembered him perfectly! Bill Tregarvis! Why, of +course--many was the time they had seen life together--he had had a +wife and two boys. + +Harry wrung his hand and laughed. + +"Remember, Bill! Why, of course! It was only for a moment. I had got +the face all right but not the name. Yes, I have, as a matter of fact, +come before, but there were things that have made it difficult at +first, and of course there was a lot to do up there. But it's good to +be down here! The other place is changed; I had been a bit +disappointed, but here it is just the same--the same old lights and +smells and sea, and the same old friends----" + +"Yer think that?" Tregarvis looked at him. "Because we'd been fearing +that all your travelling and sight-seeing might have harmed you--that +you'd be thinking a bit like the folk up-along with their cars and gas +and filth. Aye, it's a changed world up there, Mr. Harry; but +down-along there's no difference. It's the sea keeps us steady." + +And then they talked about the old adventurous days when Harry had been +eighteen and the world had been a very wonderful place: the herring +fishing, the bathing, the adventures on the moor, the tales at night by +candlelight, the fun of it all. The room began to fill, and one after +another men came forward and claimed friendship on the score of old +days and perils shared. They received him quite simply--he was "Mr. +Harry," but still one of themselves, taking his place with them, +telling tales and hearing them in return. + +There were nine or ten of them, and a wild company they made, crowding +round the fire, with the flames leaping and flinging gigantic shadows +on the walls. The landlord, a short, ruddy-faced man with white hair +and a merry twinkle of the eye, was one of the best men that Harry had +ever known. + +He was a man whose modesty was only equalled by his charity; a man of +great humour, wide knowledge of the most varied subjects, and above all +a passionate faith in the country of his birth, Cornwall. He was, like +most Cornishmen, superstitious, but his belief in Nature as a wise and +beneficent mother, stern but never unjust, controlled his will and +justified his actions. In those early days Harry had worshipped him +with that whole-hearted adoration bestowed at times by young +hero-worshippers on those that have travelled a little way along the +path and have learnt their lesson wisely. Tony Newsome's influence had +done more for Harry in those early years than he had realised, but he +knew now what he owed to him as he sat by his side and recalled those +other days. They had written once or twice, but Tony was no +correspondent and hated to have a pen between his fingers. + +"Drive a horse, pull a boat, shoot a gun, mind a net--but God help me +if I write," he had said. Not that he objected to books; he had read a +good deal and cared for it--but "God's air in the day and a merry fire +at night leaves little room for pen and ink" was his justification. + +He treated Harry now as his boy of twenty years ago, and laughed at him +and scolded him as of old. He did not question him very closely on the +incidents of those twenty years, and indeed, with them all, Harry +noticed that there was very little curiosity as to those other +countries. They welcomed him quietly, simply. They were glad that he +was there again, sitting with them, taking his place naturally and +easily--and again the twenty years seemed as nothing. + +He sat with the dog at his feet. Newsome's hand was on his knee, and +every once and again he gave a smothered chuckle. "I knew you'd come +back, Mr. Harry," he said. "I just waited. Once the sea has got hold +of you it doesn't loosen its grip so quick. I knew you'd come back." + +They told wild stories as they had been telling them for many years at +the same hour in the same place--strange things seen at sea, the lights +and mists of the moor, survivals of smuggling days and fights on the +beach under the moon; and it always was the sea. They might leave it +for a moment perhaps, but they came back to it--the terror of it, the +joy of it, the cruelty of it; the mistress that held them chained, that +called their children and would not be denied, the god that they served. + +They spoke of her softly with lowered voices and a strange reverence. +They had learnt her moods and her dangers; they knew that she could +caress them, and then, of a sudden, strike them down--but they loved +her. + +And she had claimed Harry again. Everything for which he had been +longing during that past week had come to him at last; their +friendship, their faith in an old god, and above all that sense of a +great adventure, for the spirit of which he had so diligently been +searching. "Up-along" life was an affair of measured rules and things +foreseen. "Down-along" it was a game of unending surprises and a +gossamer web shot with the golden light of romance. High-falutin +perhaps, but to Harry, as he sat before the fire with the strange dog +and those ten wild men, words and pictures came too speedily to admit +of a sense of the absurd. + +An old man, with a long white beard and a shaking hand, knew strange +tales of the moor. When the mists creep up and blot out the land, then +the four grey stones take life and are the giants of old, and strange +sacrifices are grimly performed. Talse Carlyon had seen things late on +a moonlit night with the mists swimming white and silvery-grey over the +moor. He had lost his way and had met a man of mighty size who had led +him by the hand. There had been spirits about, and at the foot of the +grey stone a pool of blood--he had never been the same man since. + +"There are spirits and spirits," said the old man solemnly, "and there +'m some good and some bad, for the proper edification of us mortals, +and, for my part, it's not for the like of us to meddle." + +He stroked his beard--a very gloomy old man with a blind eye. Harry +remembered that he had had a wife twenty years before, so he inquired +about her. + +"Dead," said the old man fiercely, "dead--and, thank God, she went out +like a candle." + +He muttered this so fiercely that Harry said no more, and the white +beard shone in the light of the fire, and his blind eye opened and shut +like a box, and his wrinkled hand shook on his knee. The fishing had +been bad of late, and here again they spoke as if some personal power +had been at work. There were few there who had not lost some one +during the years that they had served her, and the memory of what this +had been and the foreshadowing of the dangerous future hung over them +in the room. Songs were sung, jokes were made, but they were the songs +and laughter of men on guard, with the enemy to be encountered, +perhaps, in the morning. + +Harry sat in his corner of the great seat, watching the leaping of the +flames, his hand on Newsome's shoulder, listening to the murmuring +voices at his side. He scarcely knew whether he were awake or +sleeping; their laughter came to him dimly, and it seemed that he was +alone there with only Newsome by his side and the dog sleeping at his +feet. The tobacco smoke hung in grey-blue wreaths above his head and +the gold light of the two lamps shone mistily, without shape or form. +Perhaps it was really a dream. The old man with the white beard and +the blind eye was sleeping, his head on his breast. A man with a +vacant expression was telling a tale, heavily, slowly, gazing at the +fire. The others were not listening--or at any rate not obviously so. +They, too, gazed at the fire--it had, as it were, become personal and +mesmerised the room. Perhaps it was a dream. He would wake and find +himself at "The Flutes." There would be Clare and Garrett and--Robin! +He would put all that away now; he would forget it for a moment, at +least. He had failed them; they had not wanted him and had told him +so,--but here they had known him and loved him; they had welcomed him +back as though there had been no intervening space of years. They at +least had known what life was. They had not played with it, like those +others. They had not surrounded themselves with barricades of +artificiality, and glanced through distorting mirrors at their own +exaggerated reflection; they had seen life simply, fearlessly, +accepting their peril like men and enjoying their fate with the +greatness of soul that simplicity had given them. They were not like +those others; those on the hill had invaded the sea with noisy clamour, +had greeted her familiarly and offered her bathing-machines and +boarding-houses; these others had reverenced her and learnt to know +her, alone on the downs in the first grey of the dawn, or secretly, +when the breakers had rolled in over the sand, carrying with them the +red and gold of some gorgeous sunset. + +He contrasted them in his mind--the Trojans and the Greeks. He turned +round a little in his seat and listened to the story: "It were a man--a +strange man with horns and hoofs, so he said--and a merry, deceiving +eye; but he couldn't see him clear because of the mist that hung there, +with the moon pushing through like a candle, he said. The man was +laughing to himself and playing with leaves that danced at his feet +under the wind. It can't have been far from the town, because Joe +heard St. Elmo's bell ringin' and he could hear the sea quite plain. +He ..." + +The voice seemed to trail off again into the distance; Harry's thoughts +were with his future. What was he to do? It seemed to him that his +crisis had come and was now facing him. Should he stay or should he +flee? Why should he not escape--away into the country, where he could +live his life without fear, where there would be no contempt, no +hampering family traditions? Should he stay and wait while Robin +learnt to hate him? At the thought his face grew white and he clenched +his hands. Robin ... Robin ... Robin ... it always came back to +that--and there seemed no answer. That dream of love between father +and son, the dream that he had cherished for twenty years, was +shattered, and the bubble had burst.... + +"So Joe said he didn't know but he thought it was to the left and down +through the Cove--to the old church he meant; and the man laughed and +danced with the leaves through the mist; and once Joe thought he was +gone, and there he was back again, laughin'." + +No, he would face it. He would take his place as he had intended--he +would show them of what stuff he was made--and Robin would see, at +last. The boy was young, it would of course take time---- + +The door of the inn opened and some one came in. The lamps flared in +the wind, and there was a cry from the fireplace. "Mr. Bethel! Well, +I'm right glad!" + +Harry started. Bethel--that had been the name of his friend--the girl +who had come to tea. The new-comer was a large man, over six feet in +height, and correspondingly broad. His head was bare, and his hair was +a little long and curly. His eyes were blue and twinkled, and his face +was pleasantly humorous and, in the mouth and chin, strong and +determined. He wore a grey flannel suit with a flannel collar, and he +was smoking a pipe of great size. Newsome, starting to his feet, went +forward to meet him. Bethel came to the fire and talked to them all; +there was obviously a free companionship between them that told of long +acquaintance. He was introduced to Harry. + +"I've heard of you, Mr. Trojan," he said, "and have been expecting to +meet you. I think that we have interests in common--at least an +affection for Cornwall." + +Harry liked him. He looked at him frankly between the eyes--there was +no hesitation or disguise; there had been no barrier or division; and +Harry was grateful. + +Bethel sat down by the fire, and a discussion followed about matters of +which Harry knew nothing. There was talk of the fishing prospects, +which were bad; a gloom fell upon them all, and they cursed the new +Pendragon--the race had grown too fast for them and competition was too +keen. But Harry noticed that they did not yet seem to have heard of +the proposed destruction of the Cove. Then he got up to go. They +asked him to come again, and he promised that he would. Bethel rose +too. + +"If you don't object, Mr. Trojan," he said, "I'll make one with you. I +had only looked in for a moment and had never intended to stay. I was +on my way back to the town." + +They went out into the street together, and Harry shivered for a moment +as the wind from the sea met them. + +"Ah, that's good," Bethel said; "your fires are well enough, but that +wind is worth a bag of gold." + +They walked for a little in silence, and then Harry said: "Those are a +fine lot of men. They know what life really is." + +Bethel laughed. "I know what you feel about them. You are glad that +there's no change. Twenty years has made little difference there. It +is twenty years, isn't it?" + +"Yes," said Harry. "One thinks that it is nothing until one comes +back, and then one thinks that it's more than it really is." + +"Yes, you're disappointed," Bethel said. "I know. Pendragon has +become popular, and to your mind that has destroyed its beauty--or, at +any rate, some of it." + +"Well, I hate it," Harry said fiercely, "all this noise and show. Why +couldn't they have left Pendragon alone? I don't hate it for big +places that are, as it were, in the line of march. I suppose that they +must move with the day. That is inevitable. But Pendragon! Why--when +I was a boy, it was simply a little town by the sea. No one thought +about it or worried about it: it was a place wonderfully quiet and +simple. It was too quiet for me then; I should worship it now. But I +have come back and it has no room for me." + +"I haven't known it as long as you," Bethel answered, "but I confess +that the very charm of it lies in its contrast. It is invasion, if you +like, but for that very reason exciting--two forces at work and a +battle in progress." + +"With no doubt as to the ultimate victory," said Harry gloomily. "Yes, +I see what you mean by the contrast. But I cannot stand there and see +them dispassionately--you see I am bound up with so much of it. Those +men to-night were my friends when I was a boy. Newsome is the best man +that I have ever known, and there is the place; I love every stone of +it, and they would pull it down." + +They had left the Cove and were pressing up a steep path to the moor. +The moon was struggling through a bank of clouds; the wind was +whistling over their heads. + +Bethel suddenly stopped and turned towards Harry. "Mr. Trojan," he +said, "I'm going to be impulsive and perhaps imprudent. There's +nothing an Englishman fears so much as impulse, and he is terribly +ashamed of imprudence. But, after all, there is no time to waste, and +if you think me impertinent you have only to say so, and the matter +ends." + +Harry laughed. "I am delighted," he began, but the other stopped him. + +"No, wait a moment. You don't know. I'm afraid you'll think that I'm +absurd--most people will tell you that I am worse. I want you to try +to be a friend of mine, at any rate to give me a chance. I scarcely +know you--you don't know me at all--but; one goes on first impressions, +and I believe that you would understand a little better than most of +these people here--for one thing you have gone farther and seen +more----" + +There was a little pause. Harry was surprised. Here was what he had +been wanting--friendship; a week ago he would have seized it with both +hands; now he was a little distrustful; a week ago it would have been +natural, delightful; now it was unusual, even a little absurd. + +"I should be very glad," he said gravely. "I--scarcely----" + +"Oh," Bethel broke in, "we shall come together naturally--there's no +fear of that. I could see at once that you know the mysteries of this +place just as I do. Those others here are blind. I've been waiting +for some one who would understand. But I don't want you to listen to +those other people about me; they will tell you a good deal--and most +of it's true. I don't blame 'em, but I'm curiously anxious for you not +to think with them. It's ridiculous, I know, when I had never seen you +before. If you only knew how long I'd been waiting--to talk to some +one--about--all this." + +He waved his hand and they stopped. They were standing on the moor. +Above their head mighty grey clouds were driving like fleets before the +wind, and the moon, a cold, lifeless thing, a moon of chiselled marble, +appeared, and then, as though frightened at the wild flight of the +clouds, vanished. The sea, pearl grey, lay like mist on the horizon, +and its voice was gentle and tired, as though it were slowly dying into +sleep. They were near the Four Stones--gaunt, grey, and old. The dog +had followed Harry from the inn and now ran, a white shadow, in front +of him. + +"Let me tell you," Bethel said, "about myself. You know I was born in +London--the son of a doctor with a very considerable practice. I +received an excellent education, Rugby and Cambridge, and was trained +for the law. I was, I believe, a rather ordinary person with a rather +more than ordinary power of concentration, and I got on. I built up a +business and was extremely and very conventionally happy. I married +and we had a little girl. And then, one summer, we came down to +Cornwall for our holiday. It was St. Ives. I remember that first +morning as though it were yesterday. It was grey with the sea flinging +great breakers. There was a smell of clover and cornflowers in the +air, and great sheets of flaming poppies in the cornfields. But there +was more than that. It was Cornwall, something magical, and that +strange sense of old history and customs that you get nowhere else in +quite the same way. Ah! but why analyse it?--you know as well as I do +what I mean. A new man was born in me that day. I had been sociable +and fond of little quite ordinary pleasures that came my way, now I +wanted to be alone. Their conversation worried me; it seemed to be +pointless and concerned with things that did not matter at all. I had +done things like other men--now it was all to no purpose. I used to +lie for hours on the cliffs watching the sea. I was often out all day, +and I met all sorts of people, tramps, wasters, vagabonds, and they +seemed the only people worth talking to. I met some strange fellows +but excellent company--and they knew, all of them, the things that I +knew; they had been out all night and seen the moon and the stars +change and the first light of the dawn, and the little breeze that +comes in those early hours from the sea, bringing the winds of other +countries with it. And they were merry, they had a philosophy--they +knew Cornwall and believed in her. + +"Well--the holiday came to an end, and I had to go back! London. My +God! After that I struggled--I went to my work every day with the +sound of that sea in my ears and the vision of those moors always there +with me. And the freedom! If you have tasted that once, if you have +ever got really close so that you can hear strange voices and see +beauties of which you had never dreamt, well, you will never get back +to your old routine again. I don't care how strong you are--you can't +do it, man. Once she's got hold of you, nothing counts. That was +eighteen years ago. I kept my work for a year, but it was killing me. +I got ill--I nearly died; once I ran away at night and tried to get to +the sea. But I came back--there were my wife and girl. We had a +little money, and I gave it all up and we came to live down here. I +have done nothing since; rather shameful, isn't it, for a strong man? +They have thought that here; they think that I am a waster--by their +lights I am. But the things I have learnt! I didn't know what living +was until I came here! I knew nothing, I did nothing, I was a dead +man. What do I care for their thoughts of me! They are in the dark!" + +He had spoken eagerly, almost breathlessly. He was defending his +position, and Harry knew that he had been waiting for years to say +these things to some one of his own kind who would understand. And he +understood only too well! Had he not himself that very evening been +tempted to escape, to flee his duty? He had resisted, but the +temptation had been very strong--that very voice of Cornwall of which +Bethel had spoken--and if it were to return he did not know what answer +he might give. But he was not thinking of Bethel; his thoughts were +with the wife and daughter. That poor pathetic little woman--and the +girl---- + +"And your wife and daughter?" he said. "What of them?" + +"They are happy," Bethel said eagerly. "They are indeed. I don't see +them very often, but they have their own interests--and friends. My +wife and I never had very much in common--Ah! you're going to scold," +he said, laughing, "and say just what all these other horrid people +say. But I know. I grant it you all. I'm a waster--through and +through; it's damnably selfish--worst of all, in this energetic and +pushing age, it's idle. Oh! I know and I'm sorry--but, do you know, +I'm not ashamed. I can't see it seriously. I wouldn't harm a fly. +Why can't they let me alone? At least I am happy." + +They had reached the outskirts of the town by this time and Bethel +stopped before a little dark house with red shutters and a tiny strip +of garden. + +"Here we are!" said he. "This is my place. Come in and smoke! It +must be past your dinner hour up at 'The Flutes.' Come and have +something with me." + +Harry laughed. "They have already ceased wondering at my erratic +habits," he said. "New Zealand is a bad place for method." + +He followed Bethel in. It was a tiny hall, and on entering he stumbled +over an umbrella-stand that lounged forward in a rickety position. +Bethel apologised. "We're in a bit of a mess," he said. "In fact, to +tell the truth, we always are!" He hung his coat in the hall and led +the way into the dining-room. Mrs. Bethel and her daughter came +forward. The little woman was amazing in a dress of bright red silk +and an absurd little yellow lace cap. Only half the table was laid; +for the rest a shabby green cloth, spotted with ink, formed a +background for an incoherent litter of papers and needlework. The +walls were lined with books and there were some piled on the floor. + +A cold shoulder of mutton, baked potatoes in their skins, a melancholy +glass dish containing celery, and a salad bowl startlingly empty, lay +waiting on the table. + +"Anne," said Bethel, "I've brought a guest--up with the family port and +let's be festive." + +His great body seemed to fill the room, and he brought with him the +breath of the sea and the wind. He began to carve the mutton like +Siegfried making battle with Fafner, and indeed again and again during +the evening he reminded Harry of Siegfried's impetuous humour and +rejoicing animal spirits. + +Mrs. Bethel was delighted. Her little eyes twinkled with excitement, +her yellow cap was pushed awry, and her hands trembled with pleasure. +It was obvious that a visitor was an unusual event. Miss Bethel had +said very little, but she had given Harry that same smile that he had +seen before. She busied herself now with the salad, and he watched her +white fingers shine under the lamplight and the white curve of her neck +as she bent over the bowl. She was dressed in some dark stuff--quite +simple and unassuming, but he thought that he had never seen anything +so beautiful. + +He said very little, but he was quietly happy. Bethel did not talk +very much; he was eating furiously--not greedily, but with great +pleasure and satisfaction. Mrs. Bethel talked continuously. Her eyes +shone and her cap bobbed on her head like a live thing. + +"I said, Mr. Trojan, after our meeting the other day, that you would be +a friend. I said so to Mary coming back. I felt sure that first day. +It is so nice to have some one new in Pendragon--one gets used, you +know, to the same faces and tired of them. In my old home, Penlicott +in Surrey, near Marlwood Beeches--you change at Grayling Junction--or +you used to; I think you go straight through now. But _there_ you know +we knew everybody. You really couldn't help it. There was really only +the Vicar and the Doctor, and he was so old. Of course there were the +Draytons; you must have heard of Mr. Herbert Drayton--he paints +things--I forget quite what, but I know he's good. They all lived +there--such a lot of them and most peculiar in their habits; but one +gets used to anything. They all lived together for some time, about +fifteen there were. Mother and I dined there once or twice, and they +had the funniest dining-room with pictures of Job all round the room +that were most queer and rather disagreeable; and they all liked +different things to drink, so they each had a bottle--of +something--separately. It looked quite funny to see the fifteen +bottles, and then 'Job' on the wall, you know." + +But he really hadn't paid very much attention to her. He had been +thinking and wondering. How was it that a man like Bethel had married +such a wife? He supposed that things had been different twenty years +ago, with them as with him. It was strange to think of the difference +that twenty years could make. She had been, perhaps, a little pretty, +dainty thing then--the style of girl that a strong man like Bethel +would fall in love with. Then he thought of Miss Bethel--what was her +life with a mother like that and a father who never thought about her +at all? She must, he thought, be lonely. He almost hoped that she +was. It gave them kinship, because he was lonely too. The +conversation was not very animated; Mrs. Bethel was suddenly +silent--she seemed to have collapsed with the effort, and sat huddled +up in her chair, with her hands in her lap. + +He realised that he had said nothing to Miss Bethel, and he turned to +her. "You know London?" he said. He wondered whether she longed for +it sometimes--its excitement and life. + +"Oh yes," she said quickly; "we were there, you know, a long while ago, +and I've been up once or twice since. But it makes one feel so +dreadfully small, as if one simply didn't count, and no woman likes +that." + +"Pendragon makes one feel smaller," Harry said. "When one is of no +account even in a small place, then one is small indeed." + +He had not intended to speak bitterly, but she had caught the sound of +it in his voice and she was suddenly sorry for him. She had been a +little afraid of him before--even on that terrible afternoon at "The +Flutes"; but now she saw that he was disappointed--he had expected +something and it had failed him. + +She said nothing then, and the meal came to an end. Bethel dragged +Harry into his study to see the books. There was the same untidiness +here. The table was littered with papers and pens, tobacco jars, +numerous pipes, some photographs. From the floor to the ceiling were +books--rows on rows--flung apparently into the shelves with no order or +method. + +"I'm no good as far as books go," said Harry, laughing. "There never +was such a heathen. There have always been other things to do, and I +must confess it is a mystery to me how men get time to read at all. If +I do get time I'm generally done up, and a novel's the only thing I'm +fit for." + +"Ah, then, you don't know the book craze," Bethel Said. "It's worse +than drink. I've seen it absolutely ruin a man. You can't stop--if +you see a book you must get it, whether you really want it or no. You +go on buying and buying and buying. You get far more than you can ever +read. But you're a miser and you hate even lending them. You sit in +your room and count the covers, and you're no fit company for man or +beast." + +Harry looked at him--"You've known it?" + +"Oh yes! I've known it. I'm a bit better now--I'm out such a lot. +But even now there's a great deal here that I've never read, and I add +to it continually. The worst of it is," he said, laughing, "that we +can't afford it. It's very hard on Mary and the wife, but I'm a rotten +loafer, and that's the end of it." + +He said it so gaily and with so little sense of responsibility that you +couldn't possibly think that it weighed on him. But he looked such a +boy, standing there with his hands in his pockets and that +half-penitent, half-humorous look in his eyes, that you couldn't be +angry. Harry laughed. + +"Upon my word, you're amazing!" + +"Oh! you'll get sick of me. It's all so selfish and slack, I know. +But I struggled once--I'm in the grip now." He talked about Borrow and +displayed a little grey-bound "Walden" with pride. He spoke of Richard +Jefferies with an intimate affection as though he had known the man. + +He gave Harry some of his enthusiasm, and he lent him "Lavengro." He +described it and Harry compared mentally Isobel Berners with Mary +Bethel. + +Then they went up to the little drawing-room--an ugly room, but +redeemed by a great window overlooking the sea, and a large photograph +of Mary on the mantelpiece. Under the light of the lamp the silver +frame glittered and sparkled. + +He sat by the window and talked to her, and again he had that same +curious sense of having known her before: he spoke of it. + +"I expect it's in another existence then," she said; "as I've never +been into New Zealand and you've never been out of it--at least, since +I've been born. But, of course, I've talked about you to Robin. We +speculated, you know. We hadn't any photographs much to help us, and +it was quite a good game." + +"Ah! Robin!" + +"I want to speak to you about him," she said, turning round to him. +"You won't think me interfering, will you? but I've meant to speak ever +since the other day. I was afraid that, perhaps--don't think it +dreadfully rude of me--you hadn't quite understood Robin. He's at a +difficult age, you know, and there are a lot of things about him that +are quite absurd. And I have been afraid that you might take those +absurdities for the real things and fancy that that was all that was +there. Cambridge--and other things--have made him think that a certain +sort of attitude is essential if you're to get on. I don't think he +even sincerely believes in it. But they have taught him that he must, +at least, seem to believe. The other things are there all right, but +he hides them--he is almost ashamed of any one suspecting their +existence." + +"Thank you!" Harry said quietly. "It is very kind of you and I'm +deeply grateful. It's quite true that Robin and I haven't seemed to +hit it off properly. I expect that it is my fault. I have tried to +see his point of view and have the same interests, but every effort +that I've made has seemed to make things worse. He distrusts me, I +think, and--well--of course, that hurts. All the things in which I had +hoped we would share have no interest for him." + +"Don't you think, perhaps," she said, "that you've been a little too +anxious--perhaps, a little too affectionate? I am speaking like this +because I care for Robin so much. We have been such good friends for +years now, and I think he has let me see a side of him that he has +hidden from most people. He is curiously sensitive, and really, I +think, very shy; and most of all, he has a perfect horror of being +absurd. That is what I meant about your being affectionate. He would +think, perhaps, that the rest were laughing at him. It's as if you +were dragging something that was very sacred and precious out into the +light before all those others. Boys are like that; they are terrified +lest any one should know what good there is in them--it isn't quite +good form." + +They were silent for some time. Harry was throwing her words like a +searchlight on the events of the past week, and they revealed much that +had been very dark and confused. But he was thinking of her. Their +acquaintance seemed to have grown into intimacy already. + +"I can't thank you enough," he said again. + +"It is so nice of you," she said laughing, "not to have thought it +presumptuous of me. But Robin is a very good friend of mine. Of +course you will find out what a sterling fellow he is--under all that +superficiality. He is one of my best friends here!" + +He got up to go. As he held out his hand, he said: "I will tell you +frankly, Miss Bethel, that Pendragon hasn't received me with open arms. +I don't know why it should--and twenty years in New Zealand knocks the +polish off. But it has been delightful this evening--more than you +know." + +"It has been nice for us too," Mary answered. "I don't know that +Pendragon is exactly thronging our door night and day--and a new friend +is worth having. You see I've claimed you as a friend because you +listened so patiently to my sermon--that's a sure test." + +She had spoken lightly but he had felt the bitterness in her voice. +Life was hard for her too, then? He knew that he was glad. + +"I shall come back," he said. + +"Please," she answered. + +He said good-bye to Mrs. Bethel and she pressed his hand very warmly. +"You are very kind to take pity on us," she said, ogling him under the +gas in the hall; "I hope you will come often." + +Bethel said very little. He walked with him to the gate and laughed. +"We're absurd, aren't we, Trojan?" he said. "But don't neglect us +altogether. Even absurdity is refreshing sometimes." + +But Harry went up the hill with a happier heart than he had had since +he entered Pendragon. + +That promise of adventure had been fulfilled. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +Randal was only at "The Flutes" two days, but he effected a good deal +in that time. He did nothing very active--called on Mrs. le Terry and +rode over the Downs once with Robin--but he managed to leave a flock of +very active impressions behind him. That, as he knew well, was his +strong point. He could not be with you a day without vaguely, almost +indistinctly, but nevertheless quite certainly, influencing your +opinions. He never said anything very definite, and, on looking back, +you could never assert that he had positively taken any one point of +view; but he had left, as it were, atmosphere--an assurance that this +was the really right thing to do, this the proper attitude for correct +breeding to adopt. It was always, with him, a case of correct +breeding, and that was why the Trojans liked him so very much. +"Randal," as Clare said, "knew so precisely who were sheep and who were +goats, and he showed you the difference so clearly." + +Whenever he came to stay some former acquaintances were dropped as +being, perhaps, not quite the right people. He never said that any one +was not the right person, that would be bad breeding, but you realised, +of your own accord, that they were not quite right. That was why the +impression was so strong--it seemed to come from yourself; your eyes +were suddenly opened and you wondered that you hadn't seen it before. + +He said very little of Trojan people this time; the main result of his +visit was its effect on Harry's position. + +Had you been a stranger you would have noticed nothing; the motto of +the gentleman of good breeding is, "The end and aim of all true +opinions is the concealing of them from the wrong person." + +Randal was exceedingly polite to Harry, so polite that Robin and Clare +knew immediately that he disapproved, but Harry was pleased. Randal +spoke warmly to Robin. "You are lucky to have such a father, Bob; it's +what we all want, you and I especially, a little fresh air let into our +Cambridge dust and confusion; it's most refreshing to find some one who +cares nothing about all those things that have seemed to us, quite +erroneously probably, so valuable. You should copy him, Robin." + +But Robin made no reply. He understood perfectly. There had been some +qualities in his father that he had, deep down in his nature, admired. +He had seemed to be without doubt a man on whom one could rely in a +tight corner, and in spite of himself he had liked his father's +frankness. It was unusual. There was always another meaning in +everything that Robin's friends said, but there was never any doubt +about Harry. He missed the fine shades, of course, and was lamentably +lacking in discrimination, but you did know where you were. Robin had, +almost reluctantly, admired this before the coming of Randal. But now +there could be no question. When Randal was there you had displayed +before you the complete art of successful allusion. Nothing was ever +directly stated, but everything was hinted, and you were compelled to +believe that this really was the perfection of good breeding. Robin +admired Randal exceedingly. He took his dicta very seriously and +accepted his criticism. The judgment of his father completed the +impression that he had begun to receive. He was impossible. Randal +was going by the 10.45, and he would walk to the station. + +"A whiff of fresh air, Robin, is absolutely essential. You must walk +down with me. I hate to go, Miss Trojan." + +"Very soon to return, I hope, Mr. Randal," answered Clare. She liked +him, and thought him an excellent influence for Robin. + +"Thank you--it's very kind--but one's busy, you know. It's been hard +enough to snatch these few days. Besides, Robin isn't alone in the +same way now. He has his father." + +Clare made no reply, but her silence was eloquent. + +"I'm sorry for him, Miss Trojan," he said. "He is, I'm afraid, a +little out of it. Twenty years, you know, is a long time." + +Clare smiled. "He is unchanged," she said. "What he was as a boy, he +is now." + +"He is fortunate," Randal said gravely. "For most of us experience has +a jostling series of shocks ready. Life hurts." + +He said good-bye with that air of courtly melancholy that Clare admired +so much. He shook Harry warmly by the hand and expressed a hope of +another meeting. + +"I should be delighted," Harry said. "What sort of time am I likely to +catch you in town?" + +But Randal, alarmed at this serious acceptance of an entirely ironical +proposal, was immediately vague and gave no definite promise. Harry +watched them pass down the drive, then he turned back slowly into the +house. + +It was one of those blue and gold days that are only to be realised +perfectly in Cornwall--blue of the sky and the sea, gold on the roofs +and the rich background of red and brown in the autumn-tinted trees, +whilst the deep green of the lawns in front of the house seemed to hold +both blues and golds in its lights and shadows. The air was perfectly +still and the smoke from a distant bonfire hung in strange wreaths of +grey-blue in the light against the trees, as though carved delicately +in marble. + +Randal discussed his prospects. He spoke, as he invariably did with +regard to his past and future, airily and yet impressively: "I don't +like to make myself too cheap," he said. "There are things any sort of +fellow can do, and I must say that I shrink from taking bread out of +the mouths of some of them. But of course there are things that one +_must_ do--where special knowledge is wanted--not that I'm any good, +you know, but I've had chances. Besides, one must work slowly. +Style's the thing--Flaubert and Pater for ever--the doctrine of the one +word." + +Robin looked at him with admiration. + +"By Jove, Randal, I wish I could write; I sometimes feel quite--well, +it sounds silly--but inspired, you know--as if one saw things quite +differently. It was very like that in Germany once or twice." + +"Ah, we're all like that at times," Randal spoke encouragingly. "But +don't you trust it--an _ignis fatuus_ if ever there was one. That is +why we have bank clerks at Peckham and governesses in Bloomsbury +writing their reminiscences. It's those moments of inspiration that +are responsible for all our over-crowded literature." + +They had chosen the path over the fields to the station, and suddenly +at the bend of the hill the sea sprang before them, a curving mirror +that reflected the blue of the sky and was clouded mistily with the +gold of the sun. That sudden springing forward of the sea was always +very wonderful, even when it had been seen again and again, and Robin +stopped and shaded his eyes with his hand. + +"It's fine, isn't it, Randal?" he said. "One gets fond of the place." + +He was a little ashamed to have betrayed such feeling and spoke +apologetically. He went on hurriedly. "There was an old chap in +Germany--at Worms--who was most awfully interesting. He kept a little +bookshop, and I used to go down and talk to him, and he said once that +the sea was the most beautiful dream that the world contained, but you +must never get too near or the dream broke, and from that moment you +had no peace." + +Randal looked at Robin anxiously. "I say, old chap, this place is +getting on your nerves; always being here is bad for you. Why don't +you come up to town or go abroad? You're seedy." + +"Oh, I'm all right," Robin said, rather irritably. "Only one wonders +sometimes if--" he broke off suddenly. "I'm a bit worried about +something," he said. + +He was immediately aware that he had said nothing to Randal about the +Feverel affair and he wondered why. Randal would have been the natural +person to talk to about it; his advice would have been worth having. +But Robin felt vaguely that it would be better not. For some strange +reason, as yet unanalysed, he scarcely trusted him as he had done in +the old days. He was still wondering why, when they arrived at the +station. + +They said good-bye affectionately--rather more affectionately than +usual. There was a little sense of strain, and Robin felt relieved +when the train had gone. As he hurried from the platform he puzzled +over it. He could hold no clue, but he knew that their friendship had +changed a little. He was sorry. + +As he turned down the station road he decided that life was becoming +very complicated. There was first his father; that oughtn't in the +nature of things to have complicated matters at all--but it was +complicated, because there was no knowing what a man like that would +do. He might let the family down so badly; it was almost like having +gunpowder in your cellar. Randal had thought him absurd. Robin saw +that clearly, and Randal's opinion was that of all truly sensible +people. But, after all, the real complication was the Feverel affair. +It was now nearly ten days since that terrible evening and nothing had +happened. Robin wasn't sure what _could_ have happened, but he had +expected something. He had waited for a note; she would most assuredly +write and her letter would serve as a hint, he would know how to act; +but there had been no sign. On the day following the interview he had +felt, for the most part, relief. He was suddenly aware of the burden +that the affair had been, he was a free man; but with this there had +been compunction. He had acted like a brute; he was surprised that he +could have been so hard, and he was a little ashamed of meeting the +public gaze. If people only realised, he thought, what a cad he was, +they would assuredly have nothing to do with him. As the days passed, +this feeling increased and he was extremely uncomfortable. He had +never before doubted that he was a very decent fellow--nothing, +perhaps, exceptional in any way, but, judged by every standard, he +passed muster. Now he wasn't so sure, he had done something that he +would have entirely condemned in another man, and this showed him +plainly and most painfully the importance that he placed on the other +man's opinion. He was beginning to grow his crop of ideas and he was +already afraid of the probable harvest. + +That his affection for Dahlia was dead there could be no question, but +that it was buried, either for himself or the public, was, most +unfortunately, not the case. He was afraid of discovery for the first +time in his life, and it was unpleasant. Dahlia herself would be +quiet; at least, he was almost sure, although her outbreak the other +evening had surprised him. But he was afraid of Mrs. Feverel. He felt +now that she had never liked him; he saw her as some grim dragon +waiting for his inevitable surrender. He did not know what she would +do; he was beginning to realise his inexperience, but he knew that she +would never allow the affair to pass quietly away. To do him justice, +it was not so much the fear of personal exposure that frightened him; +that, of course, would be unpleasant--he would have to face the +derision of his enemies and the contempt of those people whom formerly +he had himself despised. But it was not personal contempt, it was the +disgrace to the family; the house was suddenly threatened on two +sides--his father, the Feverels--and he was frightened. He saw his +name in the papers; the Trojan name dragged through the mud because of +his own folly--Oh! it must be stopped at all costs. But the +uncertainty of it was worrying him. Ten days had passed and nothing +was done. Ten days, and he had been able to speak of it to no one; it +had haunted him all day and had spoiled his sleep; first, because he +had done something of which he was ashamed, and secondly, because he +was afraid that people might know. + +There were the letters. He remembered some of the sentences now and +bit his lip. How could he have been such a fool? She must give them +back--of course she would; but there was Mrs. Feverel. + +The uncertainty was torturing him--he must find out how matters were, +and suddenly, on the inspiration of the moment, he decided to go and +see Dahlia at once. Things could not be worse, and at least the +uncertainty would be ended. The golden day irritated him, and he found +the dark gloom of the Feverels' street a relief. A man was playing an +organ at the corner, and three dirty, tattered children were dancing +noisily in the middle of the road. He watched them for a moment before +ringing the bell, and wondered how they could seem so unconcerned, and +he thought them abandoned. + +He found Dahlia alone in the gaudy drawing-room. She gave a little cry +when she saw who it was, and her cheeks flushed red, and then the +colour faded. He noticed that she was looking ill and rather untidy. +There were dark lines under her eyes and her mouth was drawn. There +was an awkward pause; he had sat down with his hat in his hand and he +was painfully ill at ease. + +"I knew you would come back, Robin," she began at last. "Only you have +been a long time--ten days. I have never gone out, because I was +afraid that I would miss you. But I knew that you would be sorry after +the other night, because you know, dear, you hurt me terribly, and for +a time I really thought you meant it." + +"But I do mean it," Robin broke in. "I did and I do. I'm sorry, +Dahlia, for having hurt you, but I thought that you would see it as I +do--that it must, I mean, stop. I had hoped that you would understand." + +But she came over and stood by him, smiling rather timidly. "I don't +want to start it all over again," she said. "It was silly of me to +have made such a fuss the other night. I have been thinking all these +ten days, and it has been my fault all along. I have bothered you by +coming here and interfering when I wasn't really wanted. Mother and I +will go away again and then you shall come and stay, and we shall be +all alone--like we were at Cambridge. I have learnt a good deal during +these last few days, and if you will only be patient with me I will try +very hard to improve." + +She stood by his chair and laid her hand on his arm. He would have +thrilled at her touch six months before--now he was merely impatient. +It was so annoying that the affair should have to be reopened when they +had decided it finally the other night. He felt again the blind, +unreasoning fear of exposure. He had never before doubted his bravery, +but there had never been any question of attack--the House had been, it +seemed, founded on a rock, he had never doubted its stability before. +Now, with all the cruelty of a man who was afraid for the first time, +he had no mercy. + +"It is over, Dahlia--there is no other possibility. We had both made a +mistake; I am sorry and regret extremely if I had led you to think that +it could ever have been otherwise. I see it more clearly than I saw it +ten days ago--quite plainly now--and there's no purpose served in +keeping the matter open; here's an end. We will both forget. Heroics +are no good; after all, we are man and woman--it's better to leave it +at that and accept the future quietly." + +He spoke coldly and calmly, indeed he was surprised that he could face +it like that, but his one thought was for peace, to put this spectre +that had haunted him these ten days behind him and watch the world +again with a straight gaze--he must have no secrets. + +She had moved away and stood by the fireplace, looking straight before +her. She was holding herself together with a terrible effort; she must +quiet her brain and beat back her thoughts. If she thought for a +moment she would break down, and during these ten days she had been +schooling herself to face whatever might come--shame, exposure, +anything--she would not cry and beg for pity as she had done before. +But it was the end, the end, the end! The end of so much that had +given her a new soul during the last few months. She must go back to +those dreary years that had had no meaning in them, all those +purposeless grey days that had stretched in endless succession on to a +dismal future in which there shone no sun. Oh! he couldn't know what +it had all meant to her--it could be flung aside by him without regret. +For him it was a foolish memory, for her it was death. + +The tears were coming, her lips were quivering, but she clenched her +hands until the nails dug into the flesh. The sun poured in a great +flood of colour through the window, and meanwhile her heart was broken. +She had read of it often enough and had laughed--she had not known that +it meant that terrible dull throbbing pain and no joy or hope or light +anywhere. But she spoke to him quietly. + +"I had thought that you were braver, Robin. That you had cared enough +not to mind what they said. You are right: it has all been a mistake." + +"Yes," he said doggedly, without looking at her. "We've been foolish. +I hadn't thought enough about others. You see after all one owes +something to one's people. It would never do, Dahlia, it wouldn't +really. You'd never like it either--you see we're different. At +Cambridge one couldn't see it so clearly, but here--well, there are +things one owes to one's people, tradition, and, oh! lots of things! +You have got your customs, we have ours--it doesn't do to mix." + +He hadn't meant to put it so clearly. He scarcely realised what he had +said because he was not thinking of her at all; it was only that one +thing that he saw in front of him, how to get out, away, clear of the +whole entanglement, where there was no question of suspicion and +possible revelation of secrets. He was not thinking of her. + +But the cruelty of it, the naked, unhesitating truth of it, stung her +as nothing had ever hurt her before--it was as though he had struck her +in the face. She was not good enough, she was not fit. He had said it +before, but then he had been angry. She had not believed it; but now +he was speaking calmly, coldly--she was not good enough! + +And in a moment her idol had tumbled to the ground--her god was lying +pitifully in the dust, and all the Creed that she had learnt so +patiently and faithfully had crumbled into nothing. Her despair +seemed, for the moment, to have gone; she only felt burning +contempt--contempt for him, that he could seem so small--contempt for +herself, that she could have worshipped at such altars. + +She turned round and looked at him. + +"That is rather unfair. You say that I am not your equal socially. +Well, we will leave it at that--you are quite right--it is over." + +He lowered his eyes before her steady gaze. At last he was ashamed; he +had not meant to put it brutally. He had behaved like a cad and he +knew it. Her white face, her hands clenched tightly at her side, the +brave lift of her head as she faced him, moved him as her tears and +emotions had never done. + +He sprang up and stood by her. + +"Dahlia, I've been a brute, a cad--I didn't know what I had said--I +didn't mean it like that, as you thought. Only I've been so worried, +I've not known where to turn and--oh, don't you see, I'm so young. I +get driven, I can't stand up against them all." + +Why, he was nearly crying. The position was suddenly reversed, and she +could almost have laughed at the change. He was looking at her +piteously, like a boy convicted of orchard-robbing--and she had loved +him, worshipped him! Five minutes ago his helplessness would have +stirred her, she would have wanted to take him and protect him and +comfort him; but now all that was past--she felt only contempt and +outraged pride: her eyes were hard and her hands unclenched. + +"It is no good, Robin. You were quite right. There is an end of +everything. It was a mistake for both of us, and perhaps it is as well +that we should know it now. It will spare us later." + +So that was the end. He felt little triumph or satisfaction; he was +only ashamed. + +He turned to go without a word. Then he remembered--"There are the +letters?" + +"Ah! you must let me keep them--for a memory." She was not looking at +him, but out of the window on to the street. A cab was slowly crawling +in the distance--she could see the end of the driver's whip as he +flicked at his horses. + +"You can't--you don't mean----?" Robin turned back to her. + +"I mean nothing--only I am--tired. You had better go. We will write +if there is anything more." + +"Look here!" Robin was trembling from head to foot. "You must let me +have them back. It's serious--more than you know. People might see +them and--my God! you would ruin me!" + +He was speaking melodramatically, and he looked melodramatic and very +ridiculous. He was crushing his bowler in his hands. + +"No. I will keep them!" She spoke slowly and quite calmly, as though +she had thought it all out before. "They are valuable. Now you must +go. This has been silly enough--Good-bye." + +She turned to the window and he was dismissed. His pride came to the +rescue; he would not let her see that he cared, so he went--without +another word. + +She stood in the same position, and watched him go down the street. He +was walking quickly and at the same time a little furtively, as though +he was afraid of meeting acquaintances. She turned away from the +window, and then, suddenly, knelt on the floor with her head in her +hands. She sobbed miserably, hopelessly, with her hands pressed +against her face. + +And Mrs. Feverel found her kneeling there in the sunlight an hour later. + +"Dahlia," she said softly, "Dahlia!" + +The girl looked up. "He has gone, mother," she said. "And he is never +coming back. I sent him away." + +And Mrs. Feverel said nothing. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +There were times when Harry felt curiously, impressively, the age of +the house. It was not all of it old, it had been added to from time to +time by successive Trojans; but there had, from the earliest days, been +a stronghold on the hill overlooking the sea and keeping guard. + +He had had a wonderful pride in it on his return, but now he began to +feel as though he had no right in it. Surely if any one had a right to +such a heritage it was he, but they had isolated him and told him that +he had no place there. The gardens, the corners and battlements of the +house, the great cliff falling sheer to the sea, had had no welcome for +him, and when he had claimed his succession they had refused him. He +was beginning to give the stocks and stones of the House a personal +existence. Sometimes at night, when the moon gave the place grey +shadows and white lights, or in the early morning when the first birds +were crying in the trees and the sea was slowly taking colour from the +rising sun, in the perfect stillness and beauty of those hours the +house had seemed to speak to him with a new voice. He imagined, +fantastically at times, that the white statues in the garden watched +him with grave eyes, wondering what place he would take in the +chronicles of the House. + +It was Sunday afternoon, and he was alone in the library. That was a +room that had always appealed to him, with its dark red walls covered +from floor to ceiling with books, its wide stone fireplace, its soft, +heavy carpets, its wonderfully comfortable armchairs. It seemed to him +the very perfection of that spirit of orderly comfort and luxurious +simplicity for which he had so earnestly longed in New Zealand. He sat +in that room for hours, alone, thinking, wondering, puzzling, devising +new plans for Robin's surrender and rejecting them as soon as they were +formed. + +He was sitting by the fire now, hearing the coals click as they fell +into the golden furnace that awaited them. He was comparing the +incidents of the morning with those of the preceding Sunday, and he +knew that things were approaching a crisis. Clare had scarcely spoken +to him for three days. Garrett and Robin had not said a word beyond a +casual good-morning. They were ignoring him, continuing their daily +life as though he did not exist at all. He remembered that he had felt +his welcome a fortnight before a little cold--it seemed rapturous +compared with the present state of things. + +They had driven to church that morning in state. No one had exchanged +a word during the whole drive. Clare had sat quietly, in solemn +magnificence, without moving an eyelid. They had moved from the +carriage to the church in majestic procession, watched by an admiring +cluster of townspeople. He had liked Clare's fine bearing and Robin's +carriage; there was no doubt that they supported family traditions +worthily, but he felt that, in the eyes of the world, he scarcely +counted at all. It was a cold and over-decorated church, with an air +of wealth and lack of all warm emotions that was exactly characteristic +of its congregation. Harry thought that he had never seen a gathering +of more unresponsive people. An excellent choir sang Stainer in B flat +with perfect precision and fitting respect, and the hymns and psalms +were murmured with proper decorum. The clergyman who had come to tea +on the day after Harry's arrival preached a carefully calculated and +excellently worded sermon. Although his text was the publican's "Lord, +be merciful to me, a sinner," it was evident that his address was +tinged with the Pharisee's self-congratulations. + +A little gathering was formed in the porch after the service, and Mrs. +le Terry, magnificent in green silk and an enormous hat, was the only +person who took any interest in Harry, and she was looking over his +head during the conversation in order, apparently, to fix the attention +of some gentleman moving in the opposite direction. + +At lunch Harry had made a determined effort towards cheerfulness. He +had learnt that heartiness was bad manners and effusion a crime, so he +was quiet and restrained. But his efforts failed miserably; Robin +seemed worried and his thoughts were evidently far away, Clare was +occupied with the impertinence of some stranger who had thrust himself +into the Trojan pew at the last moment, and Garrett was repeating +complacently a story that he had heard at the Club tending to prove the +unsanitary condition of the lower classes in general and the +inhabitants of the Cove in particular. After lunch they had left him +alone; he had not dared to petition Robin for a walk, so, sick at heart +and miserably lonely, he had wandered disconsolately into the library. +He had taken from one of the shelves the volume T-U of _The Dictionary +of National Biography_, and had amused himself by searching for the +names of heroes in Trojan annals. + +There was only one who really mattered--a certain Humphrey Trojan, +1718-1771; a man apparently of poor circumstances and quite a distant +cousin of the main branch, one who had been in all probability despised +by the Sir Henry Trojan of that time. Nevertheless he had been a +person of some account in history and had, from the towers of the +House, watched the sea and the stars to some purpose. He had been +admitted, Harry imagined, into the sacred precincts after his +researches had made him a person of national importance, and it was +amusing to picture Sir Henry's pride transformed into a rather +obsequious familiarity when "My cousin, Humphrey, had been honoured by +an interview with his Majesty and had received an Order at the royal +hand"--amusing, yes, but not greatly to the glory of Sir Henry. Harry +liked to picture Humphrey in his days of difficulty--sturdy, +persevering, confident in his own ability, oblivious of the cuts dealt +him by his cousin. Time would show. + +He let the book fall and gazed at the fire, thinking. After all, he +was a poor creature. He had none of that perseverance and belief in +his own ultimate success, and it was better, perhaps, to get right out +of it, to throw up the sponge, to turn tail, and again there floated +before him that wonderful dream of liberty and the road--of a +relationship with the world at large, and no constraint of family +dignity and absurd grades of respectability. Off with the harness; he +had worn it for a fortnight and he could bear it no longer. Bethel was +right; he would follow the same path and find his soul by losing it in +the eyes of the world. But after all, there was Robin. He had not +given it a fair trial, and it was only cowardice that had spoken to him. + +The clock struck half-past three and he went upstairs to see his +father. The old man seldom left his bed now. He grew weaker every day +and the end could not be far away. He had no longer any desire to +live, and awaited with serene confidence the instant of departure, +being firmly convinced that Death was too good a gentleman to treat a +Trojan scurvily, and that, whatever the next world might contain, he +would at least be assured of the respect and deference that the present +world had shown him. His mind dwelt continually on his early days, +and, even when there was no one present to listen, he repeated +anecdotes and reminiscences for the benefit of the world at large. His +face seemed to have dwindled considerably, but his eyes were always +alive--twinkling over the bedclothes like lights in a dark room. His +mouth never moved, only his hand, claw-like and yellow as parchment, +clutched the bedclothes and sometimes waved feebly in the air to +emphasise his meaning. He had grown strangely intolerant of Clare, and +although he submitted to her offices as usual, did so reluctantly and +with no good grace; she had served him faithfully and diligently for +twenty years and this was her reward. She said nothing, but she laid +it to Harry's charge. + +Sir Jeremy's eyes twinkled when he saw his son. "Hey, Harry, my +boy--all of 'em out, aren't they? Devilish good thing--no one to worry +us. Just give the pillows a punch and pull that table nearer--that's +right. Just pull that blind up--I can't see the sea." + +The room had changed its character within the last week. It was a +place of silences and noiseless tread, and the scent of flowers mingled +with the intangible odour of medicine. A great fire burnt in the open +fireplace, and heavy curtains had been hung over the door to prevent +draughts. + +Harry moved silently about the room, flung up the blind to let in the +sun, propped up the pillows, and then sat down by the bed. + +"You're looking better, father," he said; "you'll soon be up again." + +"The devil I will," said Sir Jeremy. "No, it's not for me. I'm here +for a month or two, and then I'm off. I've had my day, and a damned +good one too. What do you think o' that girl now, Harry--she's +fine--what?" + +He produced from under the pillow a photograph, yellow with age, of a +dancer--jet-black hair and black eyes, her body balanced on one leg, +her hands on her hips. "Anonita Sendella--a devilish fine woman, by +gad--sixty years ago that was--and Tom Buckley and I were in the +running. He had the money and I had the looks, although you wouldn't +think it now. She liked me until she got tired of me and she died o' +drink--not many like that nowadays." He gazed at the photograph whilst +his eyes twinkled. "Legs--by Heaven! what legs!" He chuckled. +"Wouldn't do for Clare to see that; she was shaking my pillows this +mornin' and I was in a deuce of a fright--thought the thing would +tumble out." + +He lay back on his pillows thinking, and Harry stared out of the +window. The end would come in a month or two--perhaps sooner; and +then, what would happen? He would take his place as head of the +family. He laughed to himself--head of the family! when Clare and +Garrett and Robin all hated him? Head of the family! + +The sky was grey and the sea flecked with white horses. It was +shifting colours to-day like a mother-of-pearl shell--a great band of +dark grey on the horizon, and then a soft carpet of green turning to +grey again by the shore. The grey hoofs [Transcriber's note: roofs?] +of the Cove crowded down to the edge of the land, seeming to lean a +little forward, as though listening to what the sea had to say; the +sun, breaking mistily through the clouds, was a round ball of dull +gold--a line of breakwater, far in the distance, seemed ever about to +advance down the stretch of sea to the shore, as though it would hurl +itself on the cluster of brown sails in the little bay, huddling there +for protection. Head of the House! What was the use, when the House +didn't want him? + +His father was watching him and seemed to have read his thoughts. +"You'll take my place, Harry?" he said. "They won't like it, you know. +It was partly my fault. I sent you away and you grew up away, and +they've always been here. I've been wanting you to come back all this +time, and it wasn't because I was angry that I didn't ask you--but it +was better for you. You don't see it yet; you came back thinking +they'd welcome you and be glad to see you, and you're a bit hurt that +they haven't. They've been hard to you, all of 'em--your boy as well. +I've known, right enough. But it cuts both ways, you see. They can't +see your point of view, and they're afraid of the open air you're +letting in on to them. You're too soft, Harry; you've shown them that +it hurts, and they've wanted it to hurt. Give 'em a stiff back, Harry, +give 'em a stiff back. Then you'll have 'em. That's like us Trojans. +We're devilish cruel because we're devilish proud; if you're kind we +hurt, but if you do a bit of hurting on your own account we like it." + +"I've made a mess of it," Harry said, "a hopeless mess of it. I've +tried everything, and it's all failed. I'd better back out of it--" +Then, after a pause, "Robin hates me----" + +Sir Jeremy chuckled. + +"Oh no, he doesn't. He's like the rest of us. You wanted him to give +himself away at once, and of course he wouldn't. They're trying you +and waiting to see what you'll do, and Robin's just following on. +You'll be all right, only give 'em a stiff back, the whole crowd of +'em." + +Suddenly his wrinkled yellow hand shot out from under the bedclothes +and he grasped his son's. "You're a damned fine chap," he said, "and +I'm proud of you--only you're a bit of a fool--sentimental, you know. +But you'll make more of the place than I've ever done, God bless you--" +after which he lay back on his pillows again, and was soon asleep. + +Harry waited for a little, and then he stole out of the room. He told +the nurse to take his place, and went downstairs. + +It was four o'clock, and he was going to tea at the Bethels'. He had +been there pretty frequently during the past week--that and the Cove +were his only courts of welcome. He knew that his going there had only +aggravated his offences in the eyes of his sister, but that he could +not help. Why should they dictate his friends to him? + +The little drawing-room was neat and clean. There were some flowers, +and the chairs and sofa were not littered with books and needlework and +strange fragments of feminine garments. Mrs. Bethel was gorgeous in a +green silk dress and the paint was more obtrusive than ever. Her eyes +were red as though she had been crying, and her hair as usual had +escaped bounds. + +Mary was making tea and smiled up at him. "Shout at father," she said. +"He's downstairs in the study, browsing. He'll come up when he knows +you are here." + +Harry went to the head of the stairs and called, and Bethel came +rushing up. Sunday made no difference to his clothes, and he wore the +grey suit and flannel collar of their first meeting. + +His greeting was, as ever, boisterous. "Hullo! Trojan! that's +splendid! I was afraid they'd carry you off to that church of yours or +you'd have a tea-party or something. I'm glad they've spared you." + +"No, I went this morning," Harry answered, "all of us solemnly in the +family coach. I thought that was enough for one day." + +"We used to have a carriage when papa was alive," said Mrs. Bethel, +"and we drove to church every Sunday. We were the only people beside +the Porsons, and theirs was only a pony-cart." + +"Well, for my part, I hate driving," said Mary. "It puts you in a bad +temper for the sermon." + +"Let's have tea," said Bethel. "I'm as hungry as though I'd listened +to fifty parsons." + +And, indeed, he always was. He ate as though he had had no meal for a +month at least, and he had utterly demolished the tea-cake before he +realised that no one else had had any. + +"Oh, I say, I'm so sorry," he said ruefully. "Mary, why didn't you +tell me? I'll never forgive myself----" and proceeded to finish the +saffron buns. + +"All the same," said Mary, "we're going to church to-night, all of us, +and if you're very good, Mr. Trojan, you shall come too." + +Harry paused for a moment. "I shall be delighted," he said; "but where +do you go?" + +"There's a little church called St. Sennan's. You haven't heard of it, +probably. It's past the Cove--on a hill looking over the sea. It's +the most tumble-down old place you ever saw, and nobody goes there +except a few fishermen, but we know the clergyman and like him. I like +the place too--you can listen to the sea if you're bored with the +sermon." + +"The parson is like one of the prophets," said Bethel. "Too strong for +the Pendragon point of view. It's a place of ruins, Trojan, and the +congregation are like a crowd of ancient Britons--but you'll like it." + +Mrs. Bethel was unwontedly quiet--it was obvious that she was in +distress; Mary, too, seemed to speak at random, and there was an air of +constraint in the room. + +When they set off for church the grey sky had changed to blue; the sun +had just set, and little pink clouds like fairy cushions hung round the +moon. As they passed out of the town, through the crooked path down to +the Cove, Harry had again that strong sense of Cornwall that came to +him sometimes so suddenly, so strangely, that it was almost mysterious, +for it seemed to have no immediate cause, no absolute relation to +surrounding sights or sounds. Perhaps to-night it was in the misty +half-light of the shining moon and the dying sun, the curious stillness +of the air so that the sounds and cries of the town came distinctly on +the wind, the scent of some wild flowers, the faint smell of the +chrysanthemums that Mary was wearing at her breast. + +"By Jove, it's Cornwall," he said, drawing a great breath. He was +walking a little ahead with Mary, and he turned to her as she spoke. +She was walking with her head bent, and did not seem to hear him. +"What's up?" he said. + +"Nothing," she answered, trying to smile. + +"But there is," he insisted. "I'm not blind. I've bored you with my +worries. You might honour me with yours." + +"There isn't anything really. One's foolish to mind, and, indeed, it's +not for myself that I care--but it's mother." + +"What have they done?" + +"They don't like us--none of them do. I don't know why they should; we +aren't, perhaps, very likeable. But it is cruel of them to show it. +Mother, you see, likes meeting people--we had it in London, friends I +mean, lots of them, and then when we came here we had none. We have +never had any from the beginning. We tried, perhaps a little too hard, +to have some. We gave little parties and they failed, and then people +began to think us peculiar, and if they once do that here you're done +for. Perhaps we didn't see it quite soon enough and we went on trying, +and then they began to snub us." + +"Snub you?" + +"Yes, you know the kind of thing. You saw that first day we met +you----" + +"And it hurts?" + +"Yes--for mother. She still tries; she doesn't see that it's no good, +and each time that she goes and calls, something happens and she comes +back like she did to-day. I don't suppose they mean to be unkind--it +is only that we are, you see, peculiar, and that doesn't do here. +Father wears funny clothes and never sees any one, and so they think +there must be something wrong----" + +"It's a shame," he said indignantly. + +"No," she answered, "it isn't really. It's one's own fault--only +sometimes I hate it all. Why couldn't we have stayed in London? We +had friends there, and father's clothes didn't matter. Here such +little things make such a big difference"--which was, Harry reflected, +a complete epitome of the life of Pendragon. + +"I'm not whining," she went on. "We all have things that we don't +like, but when you're without a friend----" + +"Not quite," he said; "you must count me." He stopped for a moment. +"You _will_ count me, won't you?" + +"You realise what you are doing," she said. "You are entering into +alliance with outcasts." + +"You forget," he answered, "that I, also, am an outcast. We can at +least be outcasts together." + +"It is good of you," she said gravely; "I am selfish enough to accept +it. If I was really worth anything, I would never let you see us +again. It means ostracism." + +"We will fight them," he answered gaily. "We will storm the camp"; but +in his heart he knew that their stronghold, with "The Flutes" as the +heart of the defence, would be hard to overcome. + +They climbed up the hill to the little church with the sea roaring at +their feet. A strong wind was blowing, and, for a moment, at a steep +turn of the hill, she laid her hand on his arm; at the touch his heart +beat furiously--in that moment he knew that he loved her, that he had +loved her from the first moment that he had seen her, and he passed on +into the church. + +It was, as Bethel had said, almost in ruins--the little nave was +complete, but ivy clambered in the aisles and birds had built their +nests in the pillars. Three misty candles flickered on the altar, and +some lights burnt over the pulpit, but there were strange half-lights +and shadows so that it seemed a place of ghosts. Through the open door +the night air blew, bringing with it the beating of the sea, and the +breath of grass and flowers. The congregation was scanty; some +fishermen and their wives, two or three old women, and a baby that made +no sound but listened wonderingly with its finger in its mouth. The +clergyman was a tall man with a long white beard and he did everything, +even playing the little wheezy harmonium. His sermon was short and +simple, but was listened to with rapt attention. There was something +strangely intense about it all, and the hymns were sung with an +eagerness that Harry had never heard elsewhere. This was a contrast +with the church of the morning, just as the Cove was a contrast with +Pendragon; the parting of the ways seemed to face Harry at every moment +of his day--his choice was being urgently demanded and he had no longer +any hesitation. + +Newsome was there, and he spoke to him for a moment on coming out. +"You'll be lonely 'up-along,'" he said; "you belong to us." + +They all four walked back together. + +"How do you like our ancient Britons?" said Bethel. + +"It was wonderful," said Harry. "Thank you for taking me." + +They were all very silent, but when they parted at the turning of the +road Bethel laughed. "Now you are one of us, Trojan. We have claimed +you." + +As he shook Mary's hand he whispered, "This has been a great evening +for me." + +"I was wrong to grumble to you," she answered. "You have worries +enough of your own. I release you from your pledge." + +"I will not be released," he said. + +That night Clare Trojan, before going to bed, went into Garrett's room. +He was working at his book, and, as usual, hinted that to take such +advantage of his good-nature by her interruption was unfair. + +"I suppose to-morrow morning wouldn't do instead, Clare--it's a bit +late." + +"No, it wouldn't--I want you to listen to me. It's important." + +"Well?" He seated himself in the most comfortable chair and sighed. +"Don't be too long." + +She was excited and stood over him as though she would force him to be +interested. + +"It's too much, Garrett. It's got to stop." + +"What?" + +"Harry. Some one must speak to him." + +Garrett smiled. "That, of course, will be you, Clare--you always do; +but if it's my permission that you want you may have it and welcome. +But we've discussed all this before. What's the new turn of affairs?" + +"No. I want more than your permission; we must take some measures +together. It's no good unless we act at once. Miss Ponsonby told me +this afternoon--it has become common talk--the things he does, I mean. +She did not want to say anything, but I made her. He goes down +continually to some low public-house in the Cove; he is with those +Bethels all day, and will see nothing of any of the decent people in +the place--he is becoming a common byword." + +"It is a pity," Garrett said, "that he cannot choose his friends +better." + +"He must--something must be done. It is not for ourselves only, though +of course that counts. But it is the House--our name. They laugh at +him, and so at all of us. Besides, there is Robin." + +Garrett looked at his sister curiously--he had never seen her so +excited before. But she found it no laughing matter. Miss Ponsonby +would not have spoken unless matters had gone pretty far. The Cove! +The Bethels! Robin's father! + +For, after all, it was for Robin that she cared. She felt that she was +fighting his battles, and so subtly concealed from herself that she +was, in reality, fighting her own. She was in a state of miserable +uncertainty. She was not sure of her father, she was not sure of +Robin, scarcely sure of Garrett--everything threatened disaster. + +"What will you do?" Garrett had no desire that the responsibility +should be shifted in his direction; he feared responsibility as the +rock on which the ship of his carefully preserved proprieties might +come to wreck. + +"Do? Why, speak--it must be done. Think of him during the whole time +that he has been here--not only to Pendragon, but to us. He has made +no attempt whatever to fit in with our ways or thoughts; he has shown +no desire to understand any of us; and now he must be pulled up, for +his own sake as well as ours." + +But Garrett offered her little assistance. He had no proposals to +offer, and was barren of all definite efforts; he hated definite lines +of any kind, but he promised to fall in with her plans. + +"I will come down to breakfast," she said, "and will speak to him +afterwards." + +Garrett nodded wearily and went back to his work. On the next morning +the crisis came. + +Breakfast was a silent meal at all times. Harry had learnt to avoid +the cheerful familiarity of his first morning--it would not do. But +the heavy solemnity of the massive silver teapot, the ham and cold game +on the sideboard, the racks of toast that were so needlessly numerous, +drove him into himself, and, like his brother and son, he disappeared +behind folds of newspaper until the meal was over. + +Clare frequently came down to breakfast, and therefore he saw nothing +unusual in her appearance. The meal was quite silent; Clare had her +letters--and he was about to rise and leave the room, when she spoke. + +"Wait a minute, Harry. I want to say something. No, Robin, don't +go--what I'm going to say concerns us all." + +Garrett remained behind his newspaper, which showed that he had +received previous warning. Robin looked up in surprise, and then +quickly at his father, who had moved to the fireplace. + +"About me, Clare?" He tried to speak calmly, but his voice shook a +little. He saw that it was a premeditated attack, but he wished that +Robin hadn't been there. He was, on the whole, glad that the moment +had come; the last week had been almost unbearable, and the situation +was bound to arrive at a crisis--well, here it was, but he wished that +Robin were not there. As he looked at the boy for a moment his face +was white and his breath came sharply. He had never loved him quite so +passionately as at that moment when he seemed about to lose him. + +Clare had chosen her time and her audience well, and suddenly he felt +that he hated her; he was immediately calm and awaited her attack +almost nonchalantly, his hand resting on the mantelpiece, his legs +crossed. + +Clare was still sitting at the table, her face half turned to Harry, +her glance resting on Robin. She tapped the table with her letters, +but otherwise gave no sign of agitation. + +"Yes--about you, Harry. It is only that I think we have reason--almost +a right--to expect that you should yield a little more thoroughly to +our wishes. Both _Garrett_"--this with emphasis--"and myself are sure +that your failing to do so is only due to a misconception on your part, +and it is because we are sure that you have only to realise them to +give way a little to them, that I--we--are speaking." + +"I certainly had not realised that I had failed in deference to your +wishes, Clare." + +"No, not failed--and it is absurd to talk of deference. It is only +that I feel--we all feel"--this with another glance at Robin--"that it +is naturally impossible for you to realise exactly what are the things +required of us here. Things that would in New Zealand have been of no +importance at all." + +"Such as----?" + +"Well, you must remember that we have, as it were, the eyes of all the +town upon us. We occupy a position of some importance, and we are +definitely expected to maintain that position without lack of dignity." + +"Won't you come to the point, Clare? It is a little hard to see----" + +"Oh, things are obvious enough--surely, Harry, you must see for +yourself. People were ready to give you a warm welcome when you +returned. I--we--all of us, were only too glad. But you repulsed us +all. Why, on the very day after your arrival you were extremely--I am +sorry, but there is no other word--discourteous to the Miss Ponsonbys. +You have made your friends almost entirely amongst the fisher class, a +strange thing, surely, for a Trojan to do, and you now, I believe, +spend your evenings frequently in a low public-house resorted to by +such persons--at any rate you have spent them neither here nor at the +Club, the two obvious places. I am only mentioning these things +because I think that you may not have seen that such matters--trivial +as they may seem to you--reflect discredit, not only on yourself, but +also, indirectly, on all of us." + +"You forget, Clare, that I have many old friends down at the Cove. +They were there when I was a boy. The people in Pendragon have changed +very largely, almost entirely. There is scarcely any one whom I knew +twenty years ago; it is, I should have thought, quite natural that I +should go to see my old friends again after so long an absence." + +He was trying to speak quietly and calmly. His heart was beating +furiously, but he knew that if he once lost control, he would lose, +too, his position. But, as he watched them, and saw their cold, +unmoved attitude his anger rose; he had to keep it down with both hands +clenched--it was only by remembering Robin that the effort was +successful. + +"Natural to go and see them on your return--of course. But to return, +to go continually, no. I cannot help feeling, Harry, that you have +been a little selfish. That you have scarcely seen our side of the +question. Things have changed in the last twenty years--changed +enormously. We have seen them, studied them, and, I think, understood +them. You come back and face them without any preparation; surely you +cannot expect to understand them quite as we do." + +"This seems to me, I must confess, Clare, a great deal of concern about +a very little matter. Surely I am not a person of such importance that +a few visits to the Cove can ruin us socially?" + +"Ah! that is what you don't understand! Little things matter here. +People watch, and are, I am afraid, only too ready to fasten on matters +that do not concern them. Besides, it is not only the Cove--there are +other things--there are, for instance, the Bethels." + +At the name Robin started. He liked Mary Bethel, had liked her very +much indeed, but he had known that his aunt disapproved of them and had +been careful to disguise his meetings. But the instant thought in his +mind concerned the Feverels. If the Bethels were impossible socially, +what about Dahlia and her mother? What would his aunt say if she knew +of that little affair? And the question which had attacked him acutely +during the last week in various forms hurt him now like a knife. + +He watched his father curiously. He did not look as if he cared very +greatly. Of course Aunt Clare was perfectly right. He had been +selfishly indifferent, had cared nothing for their feelings. Randal +had shown plainly enough how impossible he was. Indeed the shadow of +Randal lurked in the room in a manner that would have pleased that +young gentleman intensely had he known it. Clare had it continually +before her, urging her, advising her, commanding her. + +At the mention of the Bethels, Harry looked up sharply. + +"I think we had better leave them out of the discussion." His voice +trembled a little. + +"Why? Are they so much to you? They have, however, a good deal to do +with my argument. Do you think it was wise to neglect the whole of +Pendragon for the society of the Bethels--people of whom one is an +idler and loafer and the other a lunatic?" Clare was becoming excited. + +"You forget, Clare, that I first met them in your drawing-room." + +"They were there entirely against my will. I showed them that quite +distinctly at the time. They will not come again." + +"That may be. But they are, as you have said, my friends. I cannot, +therefore, hear them insulted. They must be left out of the +discussion." + +On any other matter he could have heard her quietly, but the Bethels +she must leave alone. He could see Mary, as he spoke, turning on the +hill and laying her hand on his arm; her hair blew in the wind and the +light in her eyes shone under the moon. He had for a moment forgotten +Robin. + +"At any rate, I have made my meaning clear. We wish you--out of regard +for us, if for no other reason--to be a little more careful both of +your company and of your statements. It is hard for you to see the +position quite as we do, I know, but I cannot say that you have made +any attempt whatsoever to see it with our eyes. It seems useless to +appeal to you on behalf of the House, but that, too, is worth some +consideration. We have been here for many hundreds of years; we should +continue in the paths that our ancestors have marked out. I am only +saying what you yourself feel, Garrett?" + +"Absolutely." Garrett looked up from his paper. "I think you must +see, Harry, that we are quite justified in our demands--Clare has put +it quite plainly." + +"Quite," said Harry. "And you, Robin?" + +"I think that Aunt Clare is perfectly right," answered Robin coldly. + +Harry's face was very white. He spoke rapidly and his hand gripped the +marble of the mantelpiece; he did not want them to see that his legs +were trembling. + +"Yes. I am glad to know exactly where we stand. It is better for all +of us. I might have taken it submissively, Clare, had you left out +your last count against me. That was unworthy of you. But haven't +you, perhaps, seen just a little too completely your own point of view +and omitted mine? I came back a stranger. I was ready to do anything +to win your regard. I was perhaps a little foolishly sentimental about +it, but I am a very easy person to understand--it could not have been +very difficult. I imagined, foolishly, that things would be quite +easy--that there would be no complications. I soon found that I had +made a mistake; you have taught me more during the last fortnight than +I had ever learnt in all my twenty years abroad. I have learnt that to +expect affection from your own relations, even from your son, is +absurd--affection is bad form; that, of course, was rather a shock. + +"You have had, all of you, your innings during the last fortnight. You +have decided, with your friends, that I am impossible, and from that +moment you have deliberately cut me. You have driven me to find +friends of my own and then you have complained of the friends that I +have chosen. That is completed--in a fortnight you have shown me, +quite plainly, your position. Now I will show you mine. You have +refused to have anything to do with me--for the future the position +shall be reversed. I shall alter in no respect whatever, either my +friendships or my habits. I shall go where I please, do what I please, +see whom I please. We shall, of course, disguise our position from the +world. I have learnt that disguise is a very important part of one's +education. Our former relations from this moment cease entirely." + +He was speaking apparently calmly, but his anger was at white-heat. +All the veiled insults and disappointments of the last fortnight rose +before him, but, above all, he saw Mary as though he were defending +her, there, in the room. He would never forgive them. + +Clare was surprised, but she did not show it. She got up from the +table and walked to the door. "Very well, Harry," she said, "I think +you will regret it." + +Garrett rose too, his hand trembling a little as he folded his +newspaper. + +"That is, I suppose, an ultimatum," he said. "It is a piece of +insolence that I shall not forget." + +Robin was turning to leave the room. Harry suddenly saw him. He had +forgotten him; he had thought only of Mary. + +"Robin," he whispered, stepping towards him. "Robin--you don't think +as they do?" + +"I agree with my aunt," he said, and he left the room, closing the door +quietly behind him. + +Harry's defiance had left him. For a moment the only thing that he saw +clearly in a world that had suddenly grown dark and cold was his son. +He had forgotten the rest--his sister, Mary, Pendragon--it all seemed +to matter nothing. + +He had come from New Zealand to love his son--for nothing else. + +He had an impulse to run after him, to seize him, and hold him, and +force him to come back. + +Then he remembered--his pride stung him. He would fight it out to the +end; he would, as his father said, "show them a stiff back." + +He was very white, and for a moment he had to steady himself by the +table. The silver teapot, the ham, the racks of toast were all +there--how strange, when the rest of the world had changed; he was +quite alone now--he must remember that--he had no son. And he, too, +went out, closing the door quietly behind him. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Some letters during this week:-- + + +23 SOUTHWICK CRESCENT, W., + _October_ 10, 1906. + +My dear Robin--I should have written before, I am ashamed of my +omission, but my approaching departure abroad has thrown a great many +things on my hands; I have a paper to finish for Clarkson and an essay +for the _New Review_, and letter-writing has been at a standstill. It +was delightful--that little peep of you that I got--and it only made me +regret the more that it is impossible to see much of you nowadays. I +cannot help feeling that there is a danger of vegetation if one limits +oneself too completely to a provincial life, and, charming though +Cornwall is, its very fascination causes one to forget the importance +of the outer world. I fancied that I discerned signs that you yourself +felt this confinement and wished for something broader. Well, why not +have it? I confess that I see no reason. Come up to London for a +time--go abroad--your beloved Germany is waiting for you, and a year at +one of the Universities would be both amusing and instructive. These +are only suggestions; I should hesitate to offer them at all were it +not that there has always been such sympathy between us that I know you +will not resent them. Of course, the arrival of your father has made +considerable difference. I must say, honestly, that I regretted to see +that you had not more in common. The fault, I expect, has been on both +sides; as I said to you before, it has been hard for him to realise +exactly what it is that we consider important. We--quite mistakenly +possibly--have come to feel that certain things, art, literature, +music, are absolutely essential to us, morally and physically. + +They are nothing at all to him, and I can quite understand that you +have found it difficult--almost impossible--to grasp his standpoint. I +must confess that he did not seem to me to attempt to consider yours; +but it is easy, and indeed impertinent, to criticise, and I hope that, +on the next occasion of your writing, I shall hear that things are +going smoothly and that the first inevitable awkwardnesses have worn +off. + +I must stop. I have let my pen wander away with me. But do consider +what I said about coming up to town; I am sure that it is bad for you +in every way--this burial. Think of your friends, old chap, and let +them see something of you.--Yours ever, + +LANCELOT RANDAL. + + + +"THE FLUTES," PENDRAGON, + _October_ 12, 1906. + +My dear Lance--Thanks very much for your letter. This mustn't pretend +to be anything of a letter. I have a thousand things to do, and no +time to do them. It was very delightful seeing you, and I, too, was +extremely sorry we could not see more of you. My aunt enjoyed your +visit enormously, and told me to remind you that you are expected here, +for a long stay, on your return from Germany. + +Yes, I was worried and am still. There are various things--"it never +rains but it pours"--but I cannot feel that they are in the least due +to my vegetating. I haven't the least intention of sticking here, but +my grandfather is, as you know, very ill, and it is impossible for me +to get away at present. + +Resent what you said! Why, no, of course not. We are too good friends +for resentment, and I am only too grateful for your advice. The +situation here at this moment is peculiarly Meredithian--and, although +one ought perhaps to be silent concerning it, I know that I can trust +you absolutely and I need your advice badly. Besides, I must speak to +some one about it; I have been thinking it over all day and am quite at +a loss. There was battle royal this morning after breakfast, and my +father was extremely rude to my aunt, acting apparently from quite +selfish motives. I want to look at it fairly, but I can, honestly, see +it in no other light. My aunt accused him of indifference with regard +to the family good name. She, quite rightly, I think, pointed out that +his behaviour from first to last had been the reverse of courteous to +herself and her friends, and she suggested that he had, perhaps, +scarcely realised the importance of maintaining the family dignity in +the eyes of Pendragon. You remember his continual absences and the +queer friendships that he formed. She suggested that he should modify +these, and take a little more interest in the circle to which we, +ourselves, belong. Surely there is nothing objectionable in all this; +indeed, I should have thought that he would have been grateful for her +advice. But no--he fired up in the most absurd manner, accused us of +unfairness and prejudice, declared his intention of going his own way, +and gave us all his conge. In fact, he was extremely rude to my aunt, +and I cannot forgive him for some of the things that he said. His +attitude has been absurd from the first, and I cannot see that we could +have acted otherwise, but the situation is now peculiar, and what will +come of it I don't know. I must dress for dinner--I am curious to see +whether he will appear--he was out for lunch. Let me have a line if +you have a spare moment. I scarcely know how to act.--Yours, + +ROBERT TROJAN. + + + +23 SOUTHWICK CRESCENT, W., + _October_ 14, 1906. + +Dear Robin--In furious haste, am just off and have really no time for +anything. I am more sorry than I can say to hear your news. I must +confess that I had feared something of the kind; matters seemed working +to a climax when I was with you. As to advice, it is almost +impossible; I really don't know what to say, it is so hard for me to +judge of all the circumstances. But it seems to me that your father +can have had no warrant for the course that he took. One is naturally +chary of delivering judgment in such a case, but it was, obviously, his +duty to adapt himself to his environment. He cannot blame you for +reminding him of that fact. Out of loyalty to your aunt, I do not see +that you can do anything until he has apologised. But I will think of +the matter further, and will write to you from abroad.--In great haste, +your friend, LANCELOT RANDAL. + + + +"THE FLUTES," PENDRAGON, CORNWALL, + _October_ 13, 1906. + +Dear Miss Feverel--I must apologise for forcing you to realise once +more my existence. Any reminder must necessarily be painful after our +last meeting, but I am writing this to request the return of all other +reminders of our acquaintance that you may happen to possess; I enclose +the locket, the ring, your letters, and the tie that you worked. We +discussed this matter the other day, but I cannot believe that you will +still hold to a determination that can serve no purpose, except perhaps +to embitter feelings on both sides. From what I have known of you I +cannot believe that you are indulging motives of revenge--but, +otherwise, I must confess that I am at a loss.--Expecting to receive +the letters by return, I am, yours truly, + +ROBERT TROJAN. + + + +9 SEA VIEW TERRACE, PENDRAGON, CORNWALL, + _October_ 14, 1906. + +Dear Mr. Trojan--Thank you for the locket, the ring, and the letters +which I have received. I regret that I must decline to part with the +letters; surely it is not strange that I should wish to keep +them.--Yours truly, DAHLIA FEVEREL. + + + +"THE FLUTES," + _October_ 15, 1906. + +What do you mean? You have no right to them. They are mine. I wrote +them. You serve no purpose by keeping them. Please return them at +once--by return. I have done nothing to deserve this. Unless you +return them, I shall know that you are merely an intriguing--; no, I +don't mean that. Please send them back. Suppose they should be +seen?--In haste, R. T. + + + +9 SEA VIEW TERRACE, PENDRAGON, CORNWALL, + _October_ 15, 1906. + +My decision is unalterable. + +D. F. + + + +But Dahlia sat in the dreary little drawing-room watching the grey sea +with a white face and hard, staring eyes. + +She had sat there all day. She thought that soon she would go mad. +She had not slept since her last meeting with Robin; she had scarcely +eaten--she was too tired to think. + +The days had been interminable. At first she had waited, expecting +that he would come back. A hundred impulses had been at work. At +first she had thought that she would go and tell him that she had not +meant what she said; she would persuade him to come back, She would +offer him the letters and tell him that she had meant nothing--they had +been idle words. But then she remembered some of the things that he +had said, some of the stones that he had flung. She was not good +enough for him or his family; she had no right to expect that an +alliance was ever possible. His family despised her. And then her +thoughts turned from Robin to his family. She had seen Clare often +enough and had always disliked her. But now she hated her so that she +could have gladly killed her. It was at her door that she laid all the +change in Robin and her own misery. She felt that she would do +anything in the world to cause her pain. She brooded over it in the +shabby little room with her face turned to the sea. How could she hurt +her? There were the others, too--the rest of the family--all except +Robin's father, who was, she felt instinctively, different. She +thought that he would not have acted in that way. And then her +thoughts turned back to Robin, and for a moment she fancied that she +hated him, and then she knew that she still loved him--and she stared +at the grey sea with misery in her heart and a dull, sombre confusion +in her brain. No, she did not hate Robin, she did not really want to +hurt him. How could she, when they had had those wonderful months +together? Those months that seemed such centuries and centuries away. +But, nevertheless, she kept the letters. Her mother had talked about +them, had advised her to keep them. She did not mean to do anything +very definite with them--she could not look ahead very far--but she +would keep them for a little. + +When she had seen Robin's handwriting again it had been almost more +than she could bear. For some time she had been unable to tear open +the envelope and speculated, confusedly, on the contents. Perhaps he +had repented. She judged him by her own days and nights of utter +misery and knew that, had it been herself, they would have driven her +back crying to his feet. Perhaps it was to ask for another interview. +That she would refuse. She felt that she could not endure another such +meeting as their last; if he were to come to her without warning, to +surprise her suddenly--her heart beat furiously at the thought; but the +deliberate meeting merely for the purpose of his own advantage--no! + +She opened the letter, read the cold lines, and knew that it was +utterly the end. She had fancied, at their last meeting, that her +love, like a bird shot through the heart, had fallen at his feet, dead; +then, after those days of his absence, his figure had grown in her +sight, glorified, resplendent, and love had revived again--now, with +this letter she knew that it was over. She did not cry, she scarcely +moved. She watched the sea, with the letter on her lap, and felt that +a new Dahlia Feverel, a woman who would traffic no longer with +sentiment, who knew the world for what it was--a hard, merciless prison +with fiends for its gaolers--had sprung to birth. + +She replied to him and showed her mother her answer. She scarcely +listened to Mrs. Feverel's comments and went about her daily affairs, +quietly, without confusion. She saw herself and Robin like figures in +a play--she applauded the comedy and the tragedy left her unmoved. +Robin Trojan had much to answer for. + +He read her second letter with dismay. He had spent the day in +solitary confinement in his room, turning the situation round and round +in his mind, lost in a perfect labyrinth of suggested remedies, none of +which afforded him any outlet. The thought of exposure was horrible; +anything must be done to avoid that--disgrace to himself was bad +enough; to be held up for laughter before his Cambridge friends, +Randal, his London acquaintances--but disgrace to the family! That was +the awful thing! + +From his cradle this creed of the family had been taught him; he had +learnt it so thoroughly that he had grown to test everything by that +standard; it was his father's disloyalty to that creed that had roused +the son's anger--and now, behold, the son was sinning more than the +father! It was truly ironic that, three days after his attacking a +member of the family for betraying the family, he himself should be +guilty of far greater betrayal! How topsy-turvy the world seemed, and +what was to be done? + +The brevity and conciseness of Dahlia's last letter left him in no +doubt as to her intentions. Breach of Promise! The letters would be +read in court, would be printed in the newspapers for all the world to +see. With youth's easy grasping of eternity, it seemed to him that his +disgrace would be for ever. Beddoes' "Death's Jest-book" was lying +open on his knee. Wolfram's song-- + + Old Adam, the carrion crow, + The old crow of Cairo; + He sat in the shower, and let it flow + Under his tail and over his crest; + And through every feather + Leaked the wet weather; + And the bough swung under his nest; + For his beak it was heavy with marrow. + Is that the wind dying? Oh no; + It's only two devils, that blow + Through a murderer's bones, to and fro, + In the ghost's moonshine-- + +had always seemed to him the most madly sinister verse in English +literature. It had been read to him by Randal at Cambridge and had had +a curious fascination for him from the first. He had found that the +little bookseller at Worms had known it and had indeed claimed Beddoes +for a German--now it seemed to warn him vaguely of impending disaster. + +He did not see that he himself could act any further in the matter; she +would not see him and writing was useless. And yet to leave the matter +uncertain, waiting for the blow to fall, with no knowledge of the +movements in the other camp, was not to be thought of. He must do +something. + +The moment had arrived when advice must be taken--but from whom? His +father was out of the question. It was three days since the explosion, +and there was an armed truce. He had, in spite of himself, admired his +father's conduct during the last three days, and he was surprised to +find that it was his aunt and uncle rather than his father who had +failed to carry off the situation. He refused as yet to admit it to +himself, but the three of them, his aunt, his uncle, and himself, had +seemed almost frightened. His father was another person; stern, cold, +unfailingly polite, suddenly apparently possessed of those little +courtesies in which he had seemed before so singularly lacking. There +had been conversation of a kind at meals, and it had always been his +father who had filled awkward pauses and avoided difficult moments. +The knowledge, too, that his father would, in a few months' time, be +head of the house, was borne in upon him with new force; it might be +unpleasant, but it would not, as he had formerly fancied, be ludicrous. +A sign of his changed attitude was the fact that he rather resented +Randal's letter and wished a little that he had not taken him into his +confidence. + +Nevertheless, to ask advice of his father was impossible. He must +speak to his uncle and aunt. How hard this would be only he himself +knew. He had never in their eyes failed, in any degree, towards the +family honour. From whatever side the House might be attacked, it +would not be through him. There was nothing in his past life, they +thought, at which they would not care to look. + +He realised, too, Clare's love for him. He had known from very early +days that he counted for everything in her life; that her faith in the +family centred in his own honour and that her hopes for the family were +founded completely in his own progress--and now he must tell her this. + +He could not, he knew, have chosen a more unfortunate time. The House +had already been threatened by the conduct of the father; it was now to +totter under blows dealt by the son. The first crisis had been severe, +this would be infinitely more so. He hated himself for the first time +in his life, and, in doing so, began for the first time to realise +himself a little. + +Well, he must speak to them and ask them what was to be done, and the +sooner it was over the better. He put the Beddoes back into the shelf, +and went to the windows. It was already dark; light twinkled in the +bay, and a line of white breakers flashed and vanished, keeping time, +it seemed, with the changing gleam of the lighthouse far out to sea. +His own room was dark, save for the glow of the fire. They would be at +tea; probably his father would not be there--the present would be a +good time to choose. He pulled his courage together and went +downstairs. + +As he had expected, Garrett was having tea with Clare in her own +room--the Castle of Intimacy, as Randal had once called it. Garrett +was reading; Clare was sitting by the fire, thinking. + +"She will soon have more to think about," thought Robin wretchedly. + +She looked up as he came in. "Ah, Robin, that's splendid! I was just +going to send up for you. Come and sit here and talk to me. I've +hardly seen you to-day." + +She had been very affectionate during the last three days--rather too +affectionate, Robin thought. He liked her better when she was less +demonstrative. + +"Where have you been all the afternoon?" + +"In my room. I've been busy." + +"Tea? You don't mind it strong, do you, because it's been here a good +long time? Gingerbread cake especially for you." + +But gingerbread cake wasn't in the least attractive. Beddoes suited +him much better:-- + + Is that the wind dying? Oh no; + It's only two devils, that blow + Through a murderer's bones, to and fro, + In the ghost's moonshine. + + +"Do you know Beddoes, aunt?" + +"No, dear. What kind of thing is it? Poetry?" + +"Yes. You wouldn't like it, though----only I've been reading him this +afternoon. He suited my mood." + +"Boys of your age shouldn't have moods." This from Garrett. "I never +had." + +Robin took his tea without answering, and sat down on the opposite side +of the fire to his aunt. How was he to begin? What was he to say? +There followed an awful pause--life seemed to have been full of pauses +lately. + +Clare was watching him anxiously. How had his father's outbreak +affected him? She was afraid, from little things that she had seen, +that he had been influenced. Harry had been so different those last +three days--she could not understand it. She watched him eagerly, +hungrily. Why was he not still the baby that she could take on her +knees and kiss and sentimentalise over? He, too, she fancied, had been +different during these last days. + +"More tea, Robin? You'd better--it's a long while before dinner." + +"No, thanks, aunt. I--that is--well, I've something I wanted to say." + +He turned round in his chair and faced the fire. He would rather not +look at her whilst he was speaking. Garrett put down his book and +looked up. Was there going to be more worry? What had happened lately +to the world? It seemed to have lost all proper respect for the Trojan +position. He could not understand it. Clare drew her breath sharply. +Her fears thronged about her, like shadows in the firelight--what was +it? ... Was it Harry? + +"What about, Robin? Is anything the matter?" + +"Why, no--nothing really--it's only--that is--Oh, dash it all--it's +awfully difficult." + +There was another silence. The ticking of the clock drove Robin into +further speech. + +"Well--I've made a bit of a mess. I've been rather a fool and I want +your advice." + +Another pause, but no assistance save a cold "Well?" from Garrett. + +"You see it was at Cambridge, last summer. I was an awful fool, I +know, but I really didn't know how far it was going until--well, until +afterwards----" + +"Until--after what?" said Garrett. "Would you mind being a little +clearer, Robin?" + +"Well, it was a girl." Robin stopped. It sounded so horrible, spoken +like that in cold blood. He did not dare to look at his aunt, but he +wondered what her face was like. He pulled desperately at his tie, and +hurried on. "Nothing very bad, you know. I meant, at first, anyhow--I +met her at another man's--Grant of Clare--quite a good chap, and he +gave a picnic--canaders and things up the river. We had a jolly +afternoon and she seemed awfully nice and--her mother wasn't there. +Then--after that--I saw a lot of her. Every one does at Cambridge--I +mean see girls and all that kind of thing--and I didn't think anything +of it--and she really _seemed_ awfully nice then. There isn't much to +do at Cambridge, except that sort of thing--really. Then, after term, +I came down here, and I began to write. I'm afraid I was a bit silly, +but I didn't know it then, and I used to write her letters pretty +often, and she answered them. And--well, you know the sort of thing, +Uncle Garrett--I thought I loved her----" + +At this climax, Robin came to a pause, and hoped that they would help +him, but they said no word until, at last, Garrett said impatiently, +"Go on." + +"Well," continued Robin desperately, "that's really all--" knowing, +however, that he had not yet arrived at the point of the story. +"She--and her mother--came down to live here--and then, somehow, I +didn't like her quite so much. It seemed different down here, and her +mother was horrid. I began to see it differently, and at last, one +night, I told her so. Of course, I thought, naturally, that she would +understand. But she didn't--her mother was horrid--and she made a +scene--it was all very unpleasant." Robin was dragging his +handkerchief between his fingers, and looking imploringly at the fire. +"Then I went and saw her again and asked her for--my letters--she said +she'd keep them--and I'm afraid she may use them--and--well, that's +all," he finished lamely. + +He thought that hours of terrible silence followed his speech. He sat +motionless in his chair waiting for their words. He was rather glad +now that he had spoken. It had been a relief to unburden himself; for +so many days he had only had his own thoughts and suggestions to apply +to the situation. But he was afraid to look at his aunt. + +"You young fool," at last from Garrett. "Who is the girl?" + +"A Miss Feverel--she lives with her mother at Sea view Terrace--there +is no father." + +"Miss Feverel? What! That girl! You wrote to her! You----" + +At last his aunt had spoken. He had never heard her speak like that +before--the "You!" was a cry of horror. She suddenly got up and went +over to him. She bent over him where he sat, with head lowered, and +shook him by the shoulder. + +"Robin! It can't be true--you haven't written to that girl! Not +love-letters! It is incredible!" + +"It is true--" he said, looking up. "Don't look at me like that, Aunt +Clare. It isn't so bad--other fellows----" but then he was ashamed and +stopped. He would leave his defence alone. + +"Is that all?" said Garrett. "All you have done, I mean? You haven't +injured the girl?" + +"I swear that's all," Robin said eagerly. "I meant no harm by it. I +wrote the letters without thinking I----" + +Clare stood leaning on the mantelpiece, her head between her hands. + +"I can't understand it. I can't understand it," she said. "It isn't +like you--not a bit. That girl and you--why, it's incredible!" + +"That's only because you had your fancy idea of him, Clare," said +Garrett. "We'd better pass the lamentation stage and decide what's to +be done." + +For once Garrett seemed practical; he was pleased with himself for +being so. It had suddenly occurred to him that he was the only person +who could really deal with the situation. Clare was a woman, Harry was +out of the question, Robin was a boy. + +"Have you spoken to your father?" he asked. + +"No. Of course not!" Robin answered, rather fiercely. "How could I?" + +Clare went back to her chair. "That girl! But, Robin, she's +plain--quite--and her manners, her mother--everything impossible!" + +It was still incredible that Robin, the work of her hands as it were, +into whom she had poured all things that were lovely and of good +report, could have made love to an ordinary girl of the middle +classes--a vulgar girl with a still more vulgar mother. + +But in spite of her vulgarity she was jealous of her. "You don't care +for her any longer, Robin?" + +"Now?--oh no--not for a long time--I don't think I ever did really. I +can't think how I was ever such a fool." + +"She still threatens Breach of Promise," said Garrett, whose mind was +slowly working as to the best means of proving his practical utility. +"That's the point, of course. That the letters are there and that we +have got to get them back. What kind of letters were they? Did you +actually give her hopes?" + +Robin blushed. "Yes, I'm afraid I did--as well as I can remember, and +judging by her answers. I said the usual sort of things----" He +paused. It was best, he felt, to leave it vague. + +But Clare had scarcely arrived at the danger of it yet--the danger to +the House. Her present thought was of Robin; that she must alter her +feelings about him, take him from his pedestal--a Trojan who could make +love to any kind of girl! + +"I can't think of it now," she said; "it's confusing. We must see +what's to be done. We'll talk about it some other time. It's hard to +see just at present." + +Garrett looked puzzled. "It's a bit of a mess," he said. "But we'll +see----" and left the room with an air of importance. + +Robin turned to go, and then walked over to his aunt, and put his hand +on her sleeve. + +"Don't think me such a rotter," he said. "I am awfully sorry--it's +about you that I care most--but I've learnt a lesson; I'll never do +anything like that again." + +She smiled up at him, and took his hand in hers. + +"Why, old boy, no. Of course I was a little surprised. But I don't +mind very much if you care for me in the same way. That's all I have, +Robin--your caring; and I don't think it matters very much what you do, +if I still have that." + +"Of course you have," he said, and bent down and kissed her. Then he +left the room. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +"I'm worse to-day," said Sir Jeremy, looking at Harry, "and I'll be off +under a month." + +He seemed rather pathetic--the brave look had gone from his eyes, and +his face and hands were more shrivelled than ever. He gave the +impression of cowering in bed as though wishing to avoid a blow. Harry +was with him continually now, and the old man was never happy if his +son was not there. He rambled at times and fancied himself back in his +youth again. Harry had found his father's room a refuge from the +family, and he sat, hour after hour, watching the old man asleep, +thinking of his own succession and puzzling over the hopeless tangle +that seemed to surround him. How to get out of it! He had no longer +any thought of turning his back; he had gone too far for that, and they +would think it cowardice, but things couldn't remain as they were. +What would come out of it? + +He had, as Robin had said, changed. The effect of the explosion had +been to reveal in him qualities whose very existence he had formerly +never expected. He even found, strangely enough, a kind of joy in the +affair. It was like playing a game. He had made, he felt, the right +move and was in the stronger position. In earlier days he had never +been able to quarrel with any one. Whenever such a thing had happened, +he had been the first to make overtures; he hated the idea of an enemy, +his happiness depended on his friends, and sometimes now, when he saw +his own people's hostility, he was near surrender. But the memory of +his sister's words had held him firm, and now he was beginning to feel +in tune with the situation. + +He watched Robin furtively at times and wondered how he was taking it +all. Sometimes he fancied that he caught glances that pointed to +Robin's own desire to see how _he_ was taking it. Once they had passed +on the stairs, and for a moment they had both paused as though they +would speak. It had been all Harry could do to restrain himself from +flinging his arms on to his son's shoulders and shaking him for a fool +and then forcing him into surrender, but he had held himself back, and +they had passed on without a word. + +After all, what children they all were! That's what it came +to--children playing a game that they did not understand! + +"I wish it would end," said Sir Jeremy; "I'm getting damned sick of it. +Why can't he take you out straight away, and be done with it? Do you +know, Harry, my boy, I think I'm frightened. It's lying here thinking +of it. I never had much imagination--it isn't a Trojan habit, but it +grows on one. I fancy--well, what's the use o' talking?" and he sank +back into his pillows again. + +The room was dark save for the leaping light of the fire. It was +almost time to dress for dinner, but Harry sat there, forgetting time +and place in the unchanging question, How would it all work out? + +"By Gad, it's Tom! Hullo, old man, I was just thinking of you. Comin' +round to Horrocks' to-night for a game? Supper at Galiani's--but it's +damned cold. I don't know where that sun's got to. I've been +wandering up and down the street all day and I can't find the place. +I've forgotten the number--I can't remember whether it was 23 or 33, +and I keep getting into that passage. There I am again! Bring a +light, old man--it's so dark. What's that? Who's there? Can't you +answer? Darn you, come out, you----" He sat up in bed, quivering all +over. Harry put his hand on his arm. + +"It's all right, father," he said. "No one's here--only myself." + +"Ugh! I was dreaming--" he answered, lying down again. "Let's have +some light--not that electric glare. Candles!" + +Harry was sitting in the corner by the bed away from the fire. He was +about to rise and move the candles into a clump on the mantelpiece when +there was a tap on the door and some one came in. It was Robin. + +"Grandfather, are you awake? Aunt Clare told me to look in on my way +up to dress and see if you wanted anything?" + +The firelight was on his face. He looked very young as he stood there +by the bed. His face was flushed in the light of the fire. Harry's +heart beat furiously, but he made no movement and said no word. + +Robin bent over the bed to catch his grandfather's answer, and he saw +his father. + +"I beg your pardon." he stammered. "I didn't know----" He waited for +a moment as though he were going to say something, or expected his +father to speak. Then he turned and left the room. + +"Let's have the candles," said Sir Jeremy, as though he had not noticed +the interruption, and Harry lit them. + +The old man sank off to sleep again, and Harry fell back into his own +gloomy thoughts once more. They were always meeting like that, and on +each occasion there was need for the same severe self-control. He had +to remind himself continually of their treatment of him, of Robin's +coldness and reserve. At times he cursed himself for a fool, and then +again it seemed the only way out of the labyrinth. + +His love for his son had changed its character. He had no longer that +desire for equality of which he had made, at first, so much. No, the +two generations could never see in line; he must not expect that. But +he thought of Robin as a boy--as a boy who had made blunders and would +make others again, and would at last turn to his father as the only +person who could help him. He had fancied once or twice that he had +already begun to turn. + +Well, he would be there if Robin wanted him. He had decided to speak +to Mary about it. Her clear common-sense point of view seemed to +drive, like the sun, through the mists of his obscurity; she always saw +straight through things--never round them--and her practical mind +arrived at a quicker solution than was possible for his rather +romantic, quixotic sentiment. + +"You are too fond of discerning pleasant motives," she had once said to +him. "I daresay they are all right, but it takes such a time to see +them." + +He had not seen her since the outbreak, and he was rather anxious as to +her opinion; but the main thing was to be with her. Since last Sunday +he had been, he confessed to himself, absurd. He had behaved more in +the manner of a boy of nineteen than a middle-aged widower of +forty-five. He had been suddenly afraid of the Bethels--going to tea +had seemed such an obvious advance on his part that he had shrunk from +it, and he had even avoided Bethel lest that gentleman should imagine +that he was on the edge of a proposal for his daughter's hand. He +thought that all the world must know of it, and he blushed like a girl +at the thought of its being laid bare for Pendragon to laugh and gibe +it. It was so precious, so wonderful, that he kept it, like a rich +piece of jewellery, deep in a secret drawer, over which he watched +delightedly, almost humorously, secure in the delicious knowledge that +he alone had the key. He wandered out at night, like a foolish +schoolboy, to watch the lamp in her room--that dull circle of golden +light against the blind seemed to draw him with it into the intimacy +and security of her room. + +On one of his solitary afternoon walks he suddenly came upon her. He +had gone, as he so often did, over the moor to the Four Stones; he +chose that place partly because of the Stones themselves and partly +because of the wonderful view. It seemed to him that the whole heart +of Cornwall--its mystery, its eternal sameness, its rejection of +everything that was modern and ephemeral, the pathos of old deserted +altars and past gods searching for their old-time worshippers--was +centred there. + +The Stones themselves stood on the hill, against the sky, gaunt, grey, +menacing, a landmark for all the country-side. The moor ran here into +a valley between two lines of hill, a cup bounded on three sides by the +hills and on the fourth by the sea. In the spring it flamed, a bowl of +fire, with the gorse; now it stood grim and naked to all the winds, +blue in the distant hills, a deep red to the right, where the plough +had been, brown and grey on the moor itself running down to the sea. + +It was full of deserted things, as is ever the way with the true +Cornwall. On the hill were the Stones sharp against the sky-line; +lower down, in a bend of the valley, stood the ruins of a mine, the +shaft and chimney, desolately solitary, looking like the pillars of +some ancient temple that had been fashioned by uncouth worshippers. In +the valley itself stood the stones of what was once a chapel--built, +perhaps, for the men of the desolate mine, inhabited now by rabbits and +birds, its windows spaces where the winds that swept the moor could +play their eternal, restless games. + +On a day of clouds there was no colour on the moor, but when the sun +was out great bands of light swept its surface, playing on the Stones +and changing them to marble, striking colour from the mine and filling +the chapel with gold. But the sun did not reach that valley on many +days when the rest of the world was alight--it was as if it respected +the loneliness of its monuments and the pathos of them. + +Harry sat on the side of the hill, below the Stones, and watched the +sea. At times a mist came and hid it; on sunny days, when the sky was +intensely blue, there hung a dazzling haze like a golden veil and he +could only tell that the sea was there by the sudden gleam of tiny +white horses, flashing for a moment on the mirror of blue and shining +through the haze; sometimes a gull swerved through the air above his +head as though a wave had lost its bounds and, for sheer joy of the +beautiful day, had flung itself tossing and wheeling into the air. + +But to-day was a day of wind and rapidly sailing clouds, and myriads of +white horses curved and tossed and vanished over the shifting colours +of the sea; there were wonderful shadows of dark blue and purple and +green of such depth that they seemed unfathomable. + +Suddenly he saw Mary coming towards him. A scarf--green like the green +of the sea--was tied round her hat and under her chin and floated +behind her. Her dress was blown against her body, and she walked as +though she loved the battling with the wind. Her face was flushed with +the struggle, and she had come up to him before she saw that he was +there. + +"Now, that's luck," she said, laughing, as she sat down beside him; +"I've been wanting to see you ever since yesterday afternoon, but you +seemed to have hidden yourself. It doesn't sound a very long time, +does it? But I've something to tell you--rather important." + +"What?" He looked at her and suddenly laughed. "What a splendid place +for us to meet--its solitude is almost unreal." + +"As to solitude," she said calmly, pointing down the valley. "There's +Tracy Corridor; it will be all over the Club to-night--he's been +watching us for some time"; a long thin youth, his head turned in their +direction, had passed down the footpath towards its ruined chapel, and +was rapidly vanishing in the direction of Pendragon. + +"Well--let them," said Harry, shrugging his shoulders. "You don't +mind, do you?" + +"Not a bit," she answered lightly. "They've discussed the Bethel +family so frequently and with such vigour that a little more or less +makes no difference whatsoever. Pendragon taboo! we won't dishonour +the sea by such a discussion in its sacred presence." + +"What do you want to tell me?" he asked, watching delightedly the +colour of her face, the stray curls that the wind dragged from +discipline and played games with, the curve of her wrist as her hand +lay idly in her lap. + +"Oh, it'll keep," she said quickly. "Never mind just yet. Tell me +about yourself--what's happened?" + +"How did you know that anything had?" he asked. + +"Oh, one can tell," she answered. "Besides, I have felt sure that it +would, things couldn't go on just as they were----" she paused a moment +and then added seriously, "I hope you don't mind my asking? It seems a +little impertinent--but that was part of the compact, wasn't it?" + +"Why, of course," he said. + +"Because, you know," she went on, "it's really rather absurd. I'm only +twenty-six, and you're--oh! I don't know _how_ old!--anyhow an elderly +widower with a grown-up son; but I'm every bit as old as you are, +really. And I'm sure I shall give you lots of good advice, because +you've no idea what a truly practical person I am. Only sometimes +lately I've wondered whether you've been a little surprised at my--our +flinging ourselves into your arms as we have done. It's like +father--he always goes the whole way in the first minute; but it isn't, +or at any rate it oughtn't to be, like me!" + +"You are," he said quietly, "the best friend I have in the world. How +much that means to me I will tell you one day." + +"That's right," she said gaily, settling herself down with her hands +folded behind her head. "Now for the situation. I'm all attention." + +"Well," he answered, "the situation is simple enough--it's the next +move that's puzzling me. There was, four days ago, an explosion--it +was after breakfast--a family council--and I was in a minority of one. +I was accused of a good many things--going down to the Cove, paying no +attention to the Miss Ponsonbys, and so on. They attacked me as I +thought unfairly, and I lost control--on the whole, I am sure, wisely. +I wasn't very rude, but I said quite plainly that I should go my own +way in the future and would be dictated to by no one. At any rate they +understand that." + +"And now?" + +"Ah, now--well--it's as you would expect. We are quite polite but +hostile. Robin and I don't speak. The new game--Father and Son; or +how to cut your nearest relations with expedition and security." He +laughed bitterly. + +"Oh, I should like to shake him!" she cried, sitting up and flinging +her arms wide, as though she were saluting the sea. "He doesn't know, +he doesn't understand! Neither himself nor any one else. Oh, I will +talk to him some day! But, do you know," she said, turning round to +him, "it's been largely your fault from the beginning." + +"Oh, I know," he answered. "If I had only seen then what I see now. +But how could I? How could I tell? But I always have been that kind +of man, all my days--finding out things when it's too late and wanting +to mend things that are hopelessly broken. And then I have always been +impulsive and enthusiastic about people. When I meet them first, I +mean, I like them and credit them with all the virtues, and then, of +course, there is an awakening. Oh, you don't know," he said, with a +little laugh, "how enthusiastic I was when I first came back." + +"Yes, I do," she answered; "that was one of the reasons I took to you." + +"But it isn't right," he said, shaking his head. "I've always been +like that. It's been the same with my friendships. I've rated them +too highly. I've expected everything and then cried like a child +because I've been disappointed. I can see now not only the folly of +it, but the weakness. It is, I suppose, a mistake, caring too much for +other people, one loses one's self-respect." + +"Yes," she said, staring out to sea, "it's quite true--one does. The +world's too hard; it doesn't give one credit for fine feelings--it +takes a short cut and thinks one a fool." + +"But the worst of it is," he went on ruefully, "that I never feel any +older. I have those enthusiasms and that romance in the same way now +at forty-five--just as I did at nineteen. I never could bear +quarrelling with anybody. I used to go and apologise even when it +wasn't my fault--so that, you see, the present situation is difficult." + +"Ah, but you must keep your end up," she broke in quickly. "It's the +only way--don't give in. Robin is just like that. He is self-centred, +all shams now, and when he sees that you are taken in by them, just as +he is himself, he despises you. But when he sees you laugh at them or +cut them down, then he respects you. I'm the only person, I think, +that knows him really here. The others haven't grasped him at all." + +"My father grows worse every day," Harry went on, as though pursuing +his own train of thought. "He can't last much longer, and when he goes +I shall miss him terribly. We have understood each other during this +fortnight as we never did in all those early years. Sometimes I funk +it utterly--following him with all of them against me." + +"Why, no," she cried. "It's splendid. You are in power. They can do +nothing, and Robin will come round when he sees how you face it out. +Why, I expect that he's coming already. I've faced things out here all +these years, and you dare to say that you can't stand a few months of +it." + +"What have you faced?" he asked. "Tell me exactly. I want to know all +about you; you've never told me very much, and it's only fair that I +should know." + +"Yes," she said gravely, "it is--well, you shall!--at least a part of +it. A woman always keeps a little back," she said, looking at him with +a smile. "As soon as she ceases to be a puzzle she ceases to interest." + +She turned and watched the sea. Then, after a moment's pause, she said: + +"What do you want to know? I can only give you bits of things--when, +for instance, I ran away from my nurse, aged five, was picked up by an +applewoman with a green umbrella who introduced me to three old ladies +with black pipes and moustaches--I was found in a coal cellar. Then we +lived in Bloomsbury--a little house looking out on to a little green +park--all in miniature it seems on looking back. I don't think that I +was a very good child, but they didn't look after me very much. Mother +was always out, and father in business. Fancy," she said, laughing, +"father in business! We were happy then, I think, all of us. Then +came the terrible time when father ran away." + +"Ah, yes," Harry said, "he told me." + +"Poor mother! it was quite dreadful; I was only eight then, and I +didn't understand. But she sat up all night waiting for him. She was +persuaded that he was killed, and she was very ill. You see he had +never left any word as to where he was. And then he suddenly turned up +again, and ate an enormous breakfast, as though nothing had happened. +I don't think he realised a bit that she had worried. + +"It was so like him, the naked selfishness of it and the utter +unresponsibility, as of a child. + +"Then I went to school--in Bloomsbury somewhere. It was a Miss Pinker, +and she was interested in me. Poor thing, her school failed +afterwards. I don't know quite why, but she never could manage, and I +don't think parents ever paid her. I had great ideas of myself then; I +thought that I would be great, an actress or a novelist, but I got rid +of all that soon enough. I was happy; we had friends, and luxuries +were rare enough to make them valuable. Then--we came down here--this +sea, this town, this moor--Oh! how I hate them!" + +Her hands were clenched and her face was white. "It isn't fair; they +have taken everything from me--leisure, brain, friends. I have had to +slave ever since I came here to make both ends meet. Ah! you never +knew that, did you? But father has never done a stroke of work since +he has been here, and mother has never been the same since that night +when he ran away; so I've had it all--and it has been scrape, scrape, +scrape all the time. You don't know the tyranny of butter and eggs and +vegetables, the perpetual struggle to turn twice two into five, the +unending worry about keeping up appearances--although, for us, it +mattered precious little, people never came to see if appearances were +kept. + +"They called at first; I think they meant to be kind, but father was +sometimes rude and never seemed to know whether he had met a person +before or no. Then he was idle, they thought, and they disliked him +for that. We gave some little parties, but they failed miserably, and +at last people always refused. And, really, it was rather a good +thing, because we hadn't got the money. I suppose I'm a bad manager; +at any rate, whatever it is, things have been getting worse and worse, +and one day soon there'll be an explosion, and that will be the end. +We're up to our eyes in debt. I try to talk to father about it, but he +waves it away with his hand. They have, neither of them, the least +idea of money. You see, father doesn't need very much himself, except +for buying books. He had ten pounds last week--housekeeping money to +be given to me; he saw an edition of something that he wanted, and the +money was gone. We've been living on cabbages ever since. That's the +kind of thing that's always happening. I wanted to talk to him about +things this morning, but he said that he had an important engagement. +Now he's out on the moor somewhere flying his kite----" + +She was leaning forward, her chin on her hand, staring out to sea. + +"It takes the beans out of life, doesn't it?" she said, laughing. "You +must think me rather a poor thing for complaining like this, only it +does some good sometimes to get rid of it, and really at times I'm +frightened when I think of the end, the disgrace. If we are proclaimed +bankrupts it will kill mother. Father, of course, will soon get over +it." + +"I say--I'm so sorry." Harry scarcely knew what to say. She was not +asking for sympathy; he saw precisely her position--that she was too +proud to ask for his help, but that she must speak. No, sympathy was +not what she wanted. He suddenly hated Bethel--the selfishness of it, +the hopeless egotism. It was, Harry decided, the fools and not the +villains who spoilt life. + +"I want you to do me a favour," he said. "I want you to promise me +that, before the end actually comes, if it is going to come, you will +ask me to help you. I won't offer to do anything now--I will stand +aside until you want me; but you won't be proud if it comes to the +worst, will you? Do you promise? You see," he added, trying to laugh +lightly, "we are chums." + +"Yes," she answered quietly, "I promise. Here's my hand on it." + +As he took her hand in his it was all he could do to hold himself back. +A great wave of passion seized him, his body trembled from head to +foot, and he grew very white. He was crying, "I love you, I love you, +I love you," but he kept the words from his lips--he would not speak +yet. + +"Thank you," was all that he said, and he stood up to hide his +agitation. + +For a little they did not speak. They both felt that, in that moment, +they had touched on things that were too sacred for speech; he seemed +so strong, so splendid in her eyes, as he stood there, facing the sea, +that she was suddenly afraid. + +"Let us go back," she said. They turned down the crooked path towards +the ruined chapel. + +"What was the news that you had for me?" he asked suddenly. + +"Why, of course," she answered; "I meant to have told you before." +Then, more gravely, "It's about Robin----" + +"About Robin?" + +"Yes. I don't know really whether I ought to tell you, because, after +all, it's only chatter and mother never gets stories right--she manages +to twist them into the most amazing shapes." + +"No. Tell me," he insisted. + +"Well--there's a person whom mother knows--Mrs. Feverel. Odious to my +mind, but mother sees something of her." + +"A lady?" + +"No--by no means; a gloomy, forbidding person who would like to get a +footing here if she could, and is discontented because people won't +know her. You see," she added, "we can only know the people that other +people don't know. This Mrs. Feverel has a daughter--rather a pretty +girl, about eighteen--I should think she might be rather nice. I am a +little sorry for her--there isn't a father. + +"Well--these people have, in some way, entangled Robin. I don't quite +know the right side of it, but mother was having tea with Mrs. Feverel +yesterday afternoon and that good woman hinted a great deal at the +power that she now had over your family. For some time she was +mysterious, but at last she unburdened herself. + +"Apparently, Master Robin had been making advances to the girl in the +summer, and now wants to back out of it. He had, I gather, written +letters, and it was to these that Mrs. Feverel was referring----" + +Harry drew a long breath. "I'm damned," he said. + +"Oh, of course, I don't know," she went on; "you see, it may have been +garbled. Mrs. Feverel is, I should think, just the person to hint +suspicions for which there's no ground at all. Only it won't do if +she's going to whisper to every one in Pendragon--I thought you ought +to be warned----" + +Harry was thinking hard. "The young fool," he said. "But it's just +what I've been wanting. This is just where I can come in. I knew +something has been worrying him lately. I could see it. I believe +he's been in two minds as to telling me--only he's been too proud. +But, of course, he will have to tell some one. A youngster like that +is no match for a girl and her mother of the class these people seem to +be. He will confide in his aunt--" He stopped and burst into +uncontrollable laughter. "Oh! The humour of it--don't you see? +They'll be terrified--it will threaten the honour of the House. They +will all go running round to get the letters back; that girl will have +a good time--and that, of course, is just where I come in." + +"I don't see," said Mary. + +"Why, it's just what I've been watching for. Harry Trojan +arrives--Harry Trojan is no good--Harry Trojan is despised--but +suddenly he holds the key to the situation. Presto! The family on +their knees----" + +Mary looked at him in astonishment. It was, she thought, unlike him to +exult like this over the misfortunes of his sister; she was a little +disappointed. "It is really rather serious," she said, "for your +sister, I mean. You know what Pendragon is. If they once get wind of +the affair there will be a great deal of talk." + +"Ah, yes!" he said gravely. "You mustn't think me a brute for laughing +like that. But I'm thinking of Robin. If you knew how I cared for the +boy--what this means. Why, it brings him to my feet--if I carry the +thing out properly." Then quickly, "You don't think they've got back +the letters already?" + +"They haven't had time--unless they've gone to-day. Besides, the +girl's not likely to give them up easily. But, of course, I don't +really know if that's how the case lies--mother's account was very +confused. Only I am certain that Mrs. Feverel thinks she has a pull +somewhere; and she said something about letters." + +"I will go at once," Harry said, walking quickly. "I can never be +grateful enough to you. Where do they live?" + +"10 Seaview Terrace," she answered. "A little dingy street past the +church and Breadwater Place--it faces the sea." + +"And the girl--what is she like?" + +"I've only seen her about twice. I should say tall, thin, dark--rather +wonderful eyes in a very pale face; dresses rather well in an aesthetic +kind of way." + +He said very little more, and she did not interrupt his thoughts. She +was surprised to find that she was a little jealous of Robin, the +interest in her own affairs had been very sweet to her, the remembrance +of it now sent the blood to her cheeks, but this news seemed to have +driven his thought for her entirely out of his head. + +Suddenly, at the bend of the little lane leading up to the town, they +came upon her father, flying a huge blue kite. The kite soared above +his head; he watched it, his body bent back, his arm straining at the +cord. He saw them and pulled it in. + +"Hullo! Trojan, how are you? You ought to do this. It's the most +splendid fun--you've no idea. This wind is glorious. I shan't be home +till dark, Mary----" and they left him, laughing like a boy. She gave +him further directions as to the house, and they parted. She felt a +little lonely as she watched him hurrying down the street. He seemed +to have forgotten her completely. "Mary Bethel, you're a selfish pig," +she said, as she climbed the stairs to her room. "Of course, he cares +more about his son--why not?" But nevertheless she sighed, and then +went down to make tea for her mother, who was tired and on the verge of +tears. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +As he passed through the town all his thoughts were of his splendid +fortune. This was the very thing for which he had been hoping, the key +to all his difficulties. + +The dusk was creeping down the streets. A silver star hung over the +roofs silhouetted black against the faint blue of the night sky. The +lamps seemed to wage war with the departing daylight; the after-glow of +the setting sun fluttered valiantly for a little, and then, yielding +its place to the stronger golden circles stretching like hanging moons +down the street, vanished. + +The shops were closing. Worthley's Hosiery was putting up the shutters +and a boy stood in the doorway, yawning; there had been a sale and the +shop was tired. Midgett's Bookshop at the corner of the High Street +was still open and an old man with spectacles and a flowing beard stood +poring over the odd-lot box at 2d. a volume by the door. + +The young man who advised ladies as to the purchase of six-shilling +novels waited impatiently. He had hoped to be off by six to-night. He +had an appointment at seven--and now this old man.... "We close at +six, sir," he said. But the old gentleman did not hear. He bent lower +and lower until his beard almost swept the pavement. Harry passed on. + +All these things passed like shadows before Harry; he noticed them, but +they fitted into the pattern of his thoughts, forming a frame round his +great central idea--that at last he had his chance. + +There was no fear in his mind that he would not get the letters. There +was, of course, the chance that Clare had been before him, but then, as +Mary had said, she had scarcely had time, and it was not likely that +the girl would give them up easily. It was just possible, too, that +the whole affair was a mistake, that Mrs. Feverel had merely boasted +for the sake of impressing old Mrs. Bethel, that there was little or +nothing behind it, but that was unlikely. + +He had formed no definite decision as to the method of his attack; he +must wait and see how the land lay. A great deal depended on the +presence of the mother--the girl, too, might be so many different +things; he was not even certain of her age. If there was nothing in +it, he would look a fool, but he must risk that. A wild idea came into +his head that he might, perhaps, find Clare there--that would be +amusing. He imagined them bidding for the letters, and that brought +him to the point that money would be necessary--well, he was ready to +pay a good deal, for it was Robin for whom he was bidding. + +He found the street without any difficulty. Its dinginess was obvious, +and now, with a little wind whistling round its corners and whirling +eddies of dust in the road, its three lamps at long distances down the +street, the monotonous beat of the sea beyond the walls, it was +depressing and sad. + +It reminded him of the street in Auckland where he had heard the +strange voice; it was just such another moment now--the silence bred +expectancy and the sea was menacing. + +"I shall get the shivers if I don't move," he said, and rang the bell. + +The slatternly servant that he had expected to see answered the bell, +and the tap-tap of her down-at-heels slippers sounded along the passage +as she departed to see if Mrs. Feverel would see him. + +He waited in the draughty hall; it was so dark that coats and hats +loomed, ghostly shapes, by the farther wall. A door opened, there was +sound of voices--a moment's pause, then the door closed and the maid +appeared at the head of the stairs. + +"The missis says you can come up," she said ungraciously. + +She eyed him curiously as he passed her, and scented drama in the set +of his shoulders and the twitch of his fingers. + +"A military!" she concluded, and tap-tapped down again into the kitchen. + +A low fire was burning in the grate and the blind napped against the +window. The draught blew the everlastings on the mantelpiece together +with a little dry, dusty sound like the rustle of a breeze in dried +twigs. + +Mrs. Feverel sat bending over the fire, and he thought as he saw her +that it would need a very great fire indeed to put any warmth into her. +Her black hair, parted in the middle, was bound back tightly over her +head and confined by a net. + +She shook hands with him solemnly, and then waited as though she +expected an explanation. + +Harry smiled. "I'm afraid, Mrs. Feverel," he said, "that you may think +this extraordinary. I can only offer as apology your acquaintance with +my son." + +"Ah yes--Mr. Robert Trojan." + +Her mouth closed with a snap and she waited, with her hands folded on +her lap, for him to say something further. + +"You knew him, I think, at Cambridge in the summer?" + +"Yes, my daughter and I were there in the summer." + +Harry paused. It would be harder than he expected, and where was the +daughter? + +"Cambridge is very pleasant in the summer?" he asked, his resolution +weakening rapidly before her impassivity. + +"My daughter and I found it so. But, of course, it depends----" + +It depended, he reflected, on such people as his son--boys whom they +could cheat at their ease. He had no doubt at all now that the mother +was an adventuress of the common, melodrama type. He suspected the +girl of being the same. It made things in some ways much simpler, +because money would, probably, settle everything; there would be no +question of fine feelings. He knew exactly how to deal with such +women, he had known them in New Zealand; but he was amused as he +contemplated Clare's certain failure--such a woman was entirely outside +her experience. + +He came to the point at once. + +"My being here is easily explained. I learn, Mrs. Feverel, that my son +formed an attachment for your daughter during last summer. He wrote +some letters now in your daughter's possession. His family are +naturally anxious that those letters should be returned. I have come +to see what can be done about the matter." He paused--but she said +nothing, and remained motionless by the fire. + +"Perhaps," he said slowly, "you would prefer, Mrs. Feverel, to name a +possible price yourself?" + +Afterwards, on looking back, he felt that his expectations had been +perfectly justified; she had, up to that point, given him every reason +to take the line that he adopted. She had listened to the first part +of his speech without remark; she must, he reflected afterwards, have +known what was coming, yet she had given no sign that she heard. + +And so the change in her was startling and took him utterly by surprise. + +She looked up at him from her chair, and the thin ghost of a smile that +crept round the corners of her mouth, faced him for a moment, and then +vanished suddenly, was the strangest thing that he had ever seen. + +"Don't you think, Mr. Trojan, that that is a little insulting?" + +It made him feel utterly ashamed. In her own house, in her +drawing-room, he had offered her money. + +"I beg your pardon," he stammered. + +"Yes," she answered slowly. "You had rather misconceived the +situation." + +Harry felt that her silences were the most eloquent that he had ever +known. He began to be very frightened, and, for the first time, +conceived the possibility of not securing the letters at all. The +thought that his hopes might be dashed to the ground, that he might be +no nearer his goal at the end of the interview than before, sharpened +his wits. It was to be a deal in subtlety rather than the obvious +thing that he had expected--well, he would play it to the end. + +"I beg your pardon," he said again. "I have been extremely rude. I am +only recently returned from abroad, and my knowledge of the whole +affair is necessarily very limited. I came here with a very vague idea +both as to yourself and your intentions. In drawing the conclusions +that I did I have done both you and your daughter a grave injustice, +for which I humbly apologise. I may say that, before coming here, I +had had no interview with my son. I am, therefore, quite ignorant as +regards facts." + +He did not feel that his apology had done much good. He felt that she +had accepted both his insult and apology quite calmly, as though she +had regarded them inevitably. + +"The facts," she said, looking down again at the fire, "are quite +simple. My daughter and your son became acquainted at Cambridge in May +last. They saw a great deal of each other during the next few months. +At the end of that time they were engaged. Mr. Robert Trojan gave us +to understand that he was about to acquaint his family with the fact. +They corresponded continually during the summer--letters, I believe, of +the kind common to young people in love. Mr. Robert Trojan spoke +continually of the marriage and suggested dates. We then came down +here, and, soon after our arrival, I perceived a change in your son's +attitude. He came to see us very rarely, and at last ceased his visits +altogether. My daughter was naturally extremely upset, and there were +several rather painful interviews. He then wrote returning her letters +and demanding the return of his own. This she definitely refused. +Those are the facts, Mr. Trojan." + +She had spoken without any emotion, and evidently expected that he +should do the same. + +"I have come," he said, "on behalf of my son to demand the return of +those letters." + +"Demand?" + +"Naturally. Letters, Mrs. Feverel, of that kind are dangerous things +to leave about." + +"Yes?" She smiled. "Dangerous for whom? I think you forget a little, +Mr. Trojan, in your anxiety for your son's welfare, my daughter's side +of the question. She naturally treasures what represents to her the +happiest months of her existence. You must remember that your son's +conduct--shall I call it desertion?--was a terrible blow. She loved +him, Mr. Trojan, with all her heart. Is it not right that he should +suffer a little as well?" + +"I refuse to believe," he answered sharply, "that this is all a matter +of sentiment. I regret extremely that my son should have behaved in +such a cowardly and dastardly manner--it has hurt and surprised me more +than I can say--but, were that all, it were surely better to bury the +whole affair as soon as may be. I cannot believe that you are keeping +the letters with no intention of making public use of them." + +"Ah," said Mrs. Feverel, "I wonder." + +"Hadn't we better come to a clear understanding, Mrs. Feverel?" he +asked. "We are neither of us children, and this beating about the bush +serves no purpose whatever. If you refuse to return the letters, I +have at least the right to ask what you mean to do with them." + +"Here is my daughter," she answered, "she shall speak for herself." + +He turned round at the sound of the opening door, and watched her as +she came in. She was very much as he had imagined--thin and tall, +walking straight from the hips, giving a little the impression that she +was standing on her toes. Her eyes seemed amazingly dark in the +whiteness of her face. She seemed a little older than he had +expected--perhaps twenty-five or twenty-six. + +She looked at him sharply as she entered and then came forward to her +mother. He could see that she was agitated--her breath came quickly, +and her hands folded and unfolded as though she were tearing something +to pieces. + +"This," said Mrs. Feverel, "is my daughter, Mr. Trojan. My dear, Mr. +Henry Trojan." + +She bowed and sat down opposite her mother. He thought she looked +rather pathetic as she faced him; here was no adventuress, no schemer. +He began to feel that his son had behaved brutally, outrageously. + +Mrs. Feverel rose. "I will leave you, my dear. Mr. Trojan will tell +you for what he has come." + +She moved slowly from the room and Harry drew a breath of relief at her +absence. There was a moment's pause. "I hope you will forgive me, +Miss Feverel," he said gently. "I'm afraid that both your mother and +yourself must regard this as impertinent, but, at the same time, I +think you will understand." + +She seemed to have regained her composure. "It is about Robin, I +suppose?" + +"Yes. Could you tell me exactly what the relations between you were?" + +"We were engaged," she answered simply, "last summer at Cambridge. He +broke off the engagement." + +"Yes--but I understand that you intend to keep his letters?" + +"That is quite true." + +"I have come to ask you to restore them." + +"I am sorry. I am afraid that it is a waste of time. I shall not go +back on my word." + +He could not understand what her game was--he was not sure that she had +a game at all; she seemed very helpless, and, at the same time, he felt +that there was strength behind her answers. He was at a loss; his +experience was of no value to him at all. + +"I am going to beg you to alter your decision. I am pleading with you +in a matter that is of the utmost importance to me. Robin is my only +son. He has behaved abominably, and you can understand that it has +been rather a blow to me to return after twenty years' absence and find +him engaged in such an affair. But he is very young, and--pardon +me--so are you. I am an older man and my experience of the world is +greater than yours; believe me when I say that you will regret +persistence in your refusal most bitterly in later years. It seems to +me a crisis--a crisis, perhaps, for all of us. Take an older man's +word for it; there is only one possible course for you to adopt." + +"Really, Mr. Trojan," she said, laughing, "you are intensely serious. +Last week I thought that my heart was broken; but now--well, it takes a +lot to break a heart. I am sure that you will be glad to hear that my +appetite has returned. As to the letters--why, think how pleasant it +will be for me to sentimentalise over them in my old age! Surely, that +is sufficient motive." + +She was trying to speak lightly, but her lip quivered. + +"You are running a serious risk, Miss Feverel," he answered gravely. +"Your intention is, I imagine, to punish Robin. I can assure you that +in a few years' time he will be punished enough. He scarcely realises +as yet what he has done. That knowledge will come to him later." + +"Poor Robin!" she said. "Yes, he ought to feel rather a worm now; he +has written me several very agitated letters. But really I cannot help +it. The affair is over--done with. I regard the letters as my +personal property. I cannot see that it is any one else's business at +all." + +"Of course it is our business," he answered seriously. "Those letters +must be destroyed. I do not accuse you of any deliberate malicious +intentions, but there is, as far as I can see, only one motive in your +keeping them. I have not seen them, but from what I have heard I +gather that they contain definite promise of marriage. Your case is a +strong one." + +"Yes," she laughed. "Poor Robin's enthusiasm led him to some very +violent expressions of affection. But, Mr. Trojan, revenge is sweet. +Every woman, I think, likes it, and I am no exception to my sex. +Aren't you a little unfair in claiming all the pleasure and none of the +pain?" + +"No," he answered firmly. "I am not. It is as much for your own sake +as for his that I am making my claim. You cannot see things in fair +proportion now; you will bitterly regret the step you contemplate +taking." + +"Well, I am sure," she replied, "it is very good of you to think of me +like that. I am deeply touched--you seem to take quite a fatherly +interest." She lay back in her chair and watched him with eyes half +closed. + +He was beginning to believe that it was no pose after all, and his +anger rose. + +"Come, Miss Feverel," he said, "let's have done with playing--let us +come to terms. It is a matter of vital importance that I should +receive the letters. I am ready to go some lengths to obtain them. +What are your terms?" + +She flushed a little. + +"Isn't that a little rude, Mr. Trojan?" she said. "It is of course the +melodramatic attitude. It was not long ago that I saw a play in which +letters figured. Pistols were fired, and the heroine wore red plush. +Is that to be our style now? I am sorry that I cannot oblige you. +There are no pistols, but I will tell you frankly that it is no +question of terms. I refuse, under any circumstances whatever, to +return the letters." + +"That is your absolute decision?" + +"My absolute decision." + +He got up and stood, for a moment, by her chair. + +"My dear," he said, "you do not know what you are doing. You are +disappointed, you are insulted--you think that you will have your +revenge at all costs. You do not know now, but you will discover +later, that it has been no revenge at all. It will be the most +regretted action of your life. You have a great chance; you are going +to throw it away. I am sorry, because you are not, I think, at all +that sort of girl." He paused a moment. "Well, there is no more to be +said. I am sorry as much for your sake as my own. Good-bye." + +He moved to the door. The disappointment was almost more than he could +bear. He did not know how strong his hopes had been; and now he must +return with things as they were before, with the added knowledge that +his son had behaved like a cad, and that the world would soon know. + +"Good-bye," he said again and turned round towards her. + +She rose from her chair and tried to smile. She said something that he +could not catch, and then, suddenly, to his intense astonishment, she +flung herself back into her chair again, hid her face in her hands, and +burst into uncontrollable tears. He stood irresolute, and then came +back and waited by the fireplace. He thought it was the most desolate +thing that he had ever known--the flapping of the blind against the +window, the dry rustling of the leaves on the mantel-piece, only +accentuated the sound of her sobbing. He let her cry and then, at +last--"I am a brute," he said. "I am sorry--I will go away." + +"No." She sat up and began to dry her eyes with her handkerchief. +"Don't go--it was absurd of me to give way like that; I thought that I +had got over all that, but one is so silly--one never can tell----" + +He sat down again and waited. + +"You see," she went on, "I had liked you, always, from the first moment +that I saw you. You were different from the others--quite +different--and after Robin had behaved--as he did--I distrusted every +one. I thought they were all like that, except you. You do not know +what people have done to us here. We have had no friends; they have +all despised us, especially your family. And Robin said--well, lots of +things that hurt. That I was not good enough and that his aunt would +not like me. And then, of course, when I saw that, if I kept the +letters, I could make them all unhappy--why, of course, I kept them. +It was natural, wasn't it? But I didn't want to hurt you--I felt that +all the time; and when I saw you here when I came in, I was afraid, +because I hardly knew what to do. I thought I would show you that I +wasn't weak and foolish as you thought me--the kind of girl that Robin +could throw over so easily without thinking twice about it--and so I +meant to hold out. There--and now, of course, you think me hateful." + +He sat down by her and took her hand. "It's all rather ridiculous, +isn't it?" he said. "I'm old enough to be your father, but I'm just +where you are, really. We've all been learning this last +fortnight--you and Robin, and I--and all learning the same thing. It's +been a case," he hesitated for a word, "of calf-love, for all three of +us. Don't regret Robin; he's not worth it. Why, you are worth twenty +of him, and he'll know that later on. I'm afraid that sounds +patronising," he added, laughing. "But I'm humble really. Never mind +the letters. You shall do what you like with them and I will trust +you. You are not," he repeated, "that sort of girl. Why, dash it!" he +suddenly added, "Robin doesn't know what he has lost." + +"Ah!" she said, blushing, "it wouldn't have done. I can see that +now--but I can see so many things that I couldn't see before. I wish I +had known a man like you--then I might have learnt earlier; but I had +nobody, nobody at all, and I nearly made a mess of things. But it +isn't too late!" + +"Too late! Why, no!" he answered. "I'm only beginning now, and I'm +forty-five. I, too, have learned a lot in this fortnight." + +She looked at him anxiously for a moment. "They don't like you, do +they? Robin and the others?" + +"No," he answered; "I don't think they do." + +"I know," she said quickly; "I heard from Robin, and I'm sorry. You +must have had a bad time. But why, if they have been like that, do you +want the letters? They have treated us both in the same way." + +"Why, yes," he answered. "Only Robin is my son. That, you see, is my +great affair. I care for him more than for anything in the world, and +if I had the letters----" + +"Why, of course," she cried, "I see--it gives you the pull. Why, how +blind I've been! It's splendid!" She sprang up, and went to a small +writing-desk by the window; she unlocked a drawer and returned with a +small packet in her hand. "There," she said, "there they are. They +are not many, are they, for such a big fuss? But I think that I meant +you to have them all the time--from the first moment that I saw you. I +had hoped that you would ask for them----" + +He took the letters, held them in his hand for a moment, and then +slipped them into his pocket. + +"Thank you," he said, "I shall not forget." + +"Nor I," she answered. "We are, I suppose, ships that pass in the +night. We have just shared for a moment an experience, and it has +changed both of us a little. But sometimes remember me, will you? +Perhaps you would write?" + +"Why, of course," he answered, "I shall want to know how things turn +out. What will you do?" + +"I don't know. We will go away from here, of course. Go back to +London, I expect--and I will get some work. There are lots of things +to do, and I shall be happy." + +"I hope," he said, "that the real thing is just beginning for both of +us." + +She stood by the window looking out into the street. "It makes things +different if you believe in me," she said. "It will give one courage. +I had begun to think that there was no one in the world who cared." + +"Be plucky," he said. "Work's the only thing. It is because we've +both been idle here that we're worried. Don't think any more of Robin. +He isn't good enough for you yet; he'll learn, like the rest of us; but +he'll have to go through something first. You'll find a better man." + +"Poor Robin," she said. "Be kind to him!" + +He took her hand for a moment, smiled, and was gone. She watched him +from the window. + +He looked back at her and smiled again. Then he passed the corner of +the street. + +"So that's the end!" She turned back from the window. "Now for a +beginning!" + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +Garrett Trojan had considered the matter for two days and had come to +no conclusion. His manner of considering anything was peculiar. He +loved procrastination and coloured future events with such beautiful +radiancy that, when they actually came, the shock of finding them only +drab was so terrible that he avoided them altogether. He was, however, +saved from any lasting pain and disappointment because he had been +given, from early childhood, that splendid gift of discovering himself +to be the continual hero of a continual play. It was not only that he +could make no move in life at all without being its hero--that, of +course, was pleasant enough; but that it was always a fresh discovery +was truly the amazing thing. He was able to wake up, as it were, and +discover afresh, every day of his life, what a hero he was; this was +never monotonous, never wearisome. He played the game anew from day to +day--and the best part of the game was not knowing that it was a game +at all. + +It must be admitted that he only maintained the illusion by keeping +somewhat apart from his fellow-men--too frequent contact must have +destroyed his dreams. But his aloofness was termed preserving his +individuality, and in the well-curtained library, in carpet-slippers +and a smoking-jacket, he built his own monument with infinite care +before an imaginary crowd in an imaginary city of dreams. + +There were times, of course, when he was a little uneasy. He had heard +men titter at the Club: Clare had, occasionally, spoken plain words as +to his true position in the House, and he had even, at times, doubts as +to the permanent value of the book on which he was engaged. During +these awful moments he gazed through the rent curtain into a valley of +dead men's bones ruled by a dreary god who had no knowledge of Garrett +Trojan and cared very little for the fortunes of the Trojan House. + +But a diligent application to the storehouses of his memory produced +testimonials dragged, for the most part, from reluctant adherents which +served to prove that Garrett Trojan was a great man and the head of a +great family. + +He would, however, like some definite act to prove conclusively that he +was head. He had, at times, the unhappy suspicion that an outsider, +regarding the matter superficially, might be led to conclude that Clare +held command. He found that if he interfered at all in family matters +this suspicion was immediately strengthened, and so he confined himself +to his room and watered diligently the somewhat stinted crop of +Illusions. + +Nevertheless he felt the necessity of some prominent action that would +still for ever his suspicions of incompetence, and would afford him a +sure foundation on which to build his palace of self-complacency and +personal appreciation. During his latter years he had regarded himself +as his father's probable successor. Harry had seemed a very long way +off in New Zealand, and became, eventually, an improbable myth, for +Garrett had that happy quality bestowed on the ostrich of sticking his +head into the sand of imagination and boastfully concluding that facts +were not there. Harry was a fact, but by continuously asserting that +New Zealand was a long way off and that Harry would never come back, +Harry's existence became a very pleasant fairy-story, like nautical +tales of the sea-serpent and the Bewitching Mermaid. They might be +there, and it was very pleasant to listen to stories about them, but +they had no real bearing on life as he knew it. + +Harry's return had, of course, shattered this bubble, and Garrett had +had to yield all hopes of eventual succession. He had, on the whole, +borne it very well, and had come to the conclusion that succeeding his +father would have entailed the performance of many wearisome duties; +but that future being denied him, it was more than ever necessary to +seize some opportunity of personal distinction. + +The discussion as to the destruction of the Cove had seemed to offer +him every chance of attaining a prominent position. The matter had +grown in importance every day. Pendragon had divided into two separate +and sharply-distinguished camps, one standing valiantly by its standard +of picturesque tradition and its hatred of modern noise and +materialism, the other asserting loudly its love of utility and +progress, derisively pointing the finger of scorn at old-world +Conservatism run mad and an incredible affection for defective +drainage. Garrett had flung himself heart and soul (as he said) into +the latter of these parties, and, feeling that this was a chance of +distinction that fortune was not likely to offer him again in the near +future, appeared frequently at discussions and even on one occasion in +the Town Hall spoke. + +But he was surprised and disappointed; he found that he had nothing to +say, the truth being that he was much more interested in Garrett than +in the Cove, and that his audience had come to listen to the second of +these two subjects rather than the first. He found himself shelved; he +was most politely told that he was not wanted, and he retired into his +carpet-slippers again after one of those terrible quarters of an hour +when he peeped past the curtain and saw a miserable, naked puppet +shivering in a grey world, and that puppet was Garrett Trojan. + +Then suddenly a second opportunity presented itself. Robin's trouble +was unexpectedly reassuring. This, he told himself, was the very +thing. If he could only prove to the world that he had dealt +successfully with practical matters in a practical way, he need never +worry again. Let him deal with this affair promptly and resourcefully, +as a man of the world and a true Trojan, and his position was assured. +He must obtain the letters and at once. He spent several pleasant +hours picturing the scene in which he returned the letters to Robin. +He knew precisely the moment, the room, the audience that he would +choose--he had decided on the words that he would speak, but he was not +sure yet as to how he would obtain the letters. + +He thought over it for three days and came to no conclusion. It ought +not to be difficult; the girl was probably one of those common +adventuresses of whom one heard so often. He had never actually met +one--they did not suit carpet-slippers--but one knew how to deal with +them. It was merely a matter of tact and _savoir-faire_. + +Yes, it would be fun when he flourished the letters in the face of the +family; how amazed Clare would be and how it would please Robin!--and +then he suddenly awoke to the fact that time was getting on, and that +he had done nothing. And, after all, there were only two possible +lines of action--to write or to seek a personal interview. Of these he +infinitely preferred the first. He need not leave his room, he could +direct operations from his arm-chair, and he could preserve that +courtesy and decorum that truly befitted a Trojan. But he had grave +fears that the letter would not be accepted; Robin's had been scorned +and his own might suffer the same fate--no, he was afraid that it must +be a personal interview. + +He had come to this conclusion reluctantly, and now he hesitated to act +on it; she might be violent, and he felt that he could not deal with +melodrama. But the thought of ultimate victory supported him. The +delicious surprise of it, the gratitude, the security of his authority +from all attack for the rest of his days! Ah yes, it was worth it. + +He dressed carefully in a suit of delicate grey, wearing, as he did on +all public occasions, an eyeglass. He took some time over his +preparations and drank a whisky and soda before starting; he had +secured the address from Robin, without, he flattered himself, any +discovery as to the reason of his request. 10 Seaview Terrace! Ah +yes, he knew where that was--a gloomy back street, quite a fitting +place for such an affair. + +He was still uncertain as to the plan of campaign, but he could not +conceive it credible that any young woman in any part of the British +Empire would stand up long against a Trojan--it would, he felt certain, +prove easy. + +He noticed with pleasure the attention paid to him by the down-at-heels +servant--it was good augury for the success of the interview. He +lowered his voice to a deep bass whilst asking for Miss Feverel, and he +fixed his eyeglass at a more strikingly impressive angle. He looked at +women from four points of view, and he had, as it were, a sliding scale +of manners on which he might mark delicately his perception of their +position. There was firstly the Countess, or Titled Nobility. Here +his manner was slightly deferential, and at the same time a little +familiar--proof of his own good breeding. + +Secondly, there was the Trojan, or the lady of Assured Position. Here +he was quite familiar, and at the same time just a little +patronising--proof of his sense of Trojan superiority. + +Thirdly, there was the Governess, or Poor Gentility Position. To +members of this class he was affably kind, conveying his sense of their +merits and sympathy with their struggle against poverty, but +nevertheless marking quite plainly the gulf fixed between him and them. + +Fourthly, there were the Impossibles, or the Rest--ranging from the +wives of successful Brewers to that class known as Unfortunate. Here +there was no alteration in his manner; he was stern, and short, and +stiff with all of them, and the reason of their existence was one of +the unsolved problems that had always puzzled him. This woman would, +of course, belong to this latter class--he drew himself up haughtily as +he entered the drawing-room. + +Dahlia Feverel was alone, seated working in the window. Life was +beginning to offer attractions to her again. The thought of work was +pleasing; she had decided to train as a nurse, and she began to see +Robin in a clear, true light; she was even beginning to admit that he +had been right, that their marriage would have been a great mistake. +The announcement of Garrett Trojan took her by surprise--she gathered +her work together and rose, her brain refusing to act consecutively. +He wanted, of course, the letters--well, she had not got them.... It +promised to be rather amusing. + +And he on his side was surprised. He had expected a woman with +frizzled hair and a dress of violent colours; he saw a slender, pale +girl in black, and she looked rather more of a lady than he had +supposed. He was, in spite of himself, confused. He began hurriedly-- + +"I am Mr. Garrett Trojan--I dare say you have heard of me from my +nephew--Robin--Robert--with whom, I believe, you are acquainted, +Miss--ah--Feverel. I have come on his behalf to request the return of +some letters that he wrote to you during the summer." + +He drew a breath and paused. Well, that was all right anyhow, and +quite sufficiently business-like. + +"Won't you sit down, Mr. Trojan?" she said, smiling at him. "It is +good of you to have taken so much trouble simply about a few +letters--and you really might have written, mightn't you, and saved +yourself a personal visit?" + +He refused to sit down and drew himself up. "Now I warn you, Miss +Feverel," he said, "that this is no laughing matter. You are doing a +very foolish thing in keeping the letters--very foolish--ah! um! You +must, of course, see that--exceedingly foolish!" + +He came to a pause. It was really rather difficult to know what to say +next. + +"Ah, Mr. Trojan," she answered, "you must leave me to judge about the +foolishness of it. After all, they are my letters." + +"Pure waste of time," he answered, his voice getting a little shrill. +"After all, there can be no question about it. We _must_ have the +letters--we are ready to go to some lengths to obtain them--even--ah, +um--money----" + +"Now, Mr. Trojan," she said quickly, "you are scarcely polite. But I +am sure that you will see no reason for prolonging this interview when +I say that, under no circumstances whatever, can I return the letters. +That is my unchanging decision." + +He had no words; he stared at her, dumb with astonishment. This open +defiance was the very last thing that he had expected. Then, at last-- + +"You refuse?" he said with a little gasp. + +"Yes," she answered lightly, "and I cannot see anything very +astonishing in my refusal. They are my property, and it is nobody +else's business at all." + +"But it is," he almost screamed. "Business! Why, I should think it +was! Do you think we want to have a scandal throughout the kingdom? +Do you imagine that it would be pleasant for us to have our name in all +the papers--our name that has never known disgrace since the days of +William the Conqueror? You can have," he added solemnly, "very little +idea of the value of a name if you imagine that we are going to +tolerate its abuse in this fashion. Dear me, no!" + +He was growing quite red at the thought of his possible failure. The +things in the room annoyed him--the everlasting rustling on the +mantelpiece--a staring photograph of Mr. Feverel, deceased, that seemed +to follow him, protestingly, round and round the room--a corner of a +dusty grey road seen dimly through dirty window-panes; why did people +live in such a place--or, rather, why did such people live at all?--and +to think that it was people like that who dared to threaten Trojan +honour! How could Robin have been such a fool! + +So, feeling that the situation was so absurd that argument was out of +place, he began to bluster-- + +"Come now, Miss Feverel--this won't do, you know! it won't really. +It's too absurd--quite ridiculous. Why, you forget altogether who the +Trojans are! Why, we've been years and years--hundreds of years! You +can't intend to oppose institutions of that kind! Why--it's +impossible--you don't realise what you're doing. Dear me, no! Why, +the whole thing's fantastic--" and then rather lamely, "You'll be +sorry, you know." + +She had been listening to him with amusement. It was pleasant to have +the family on its knees like this after its treatment of her. He was +saying, too, very many of the things that his brother had said, but how +different it was! + +"You know, Mr. Trojan," she said, "that I can't help feeling that you +are making rather a lot of it. After all, I haven't said that I'm +going to do anything with the letters, have I?--simply keep them, and +that, I think, I am quite entitled to do. And really my mind won't +change about that--I cannot give them to you." + +"Cannot!" he retorted eagerly. "Why, it's easy enough. You know, Miss +Feverel, it won't do to play with me. I'm a man of the world and +fencing won't do, you know--not a bit of it. When I say I mean to have +the letters, I mean to have them, and--ah, um--that's all about it. It +won't do to fence, you know," he said again. + +"But I'm not fencing, Mr. Trojan, I'm saying quite plainly what is +perfectly true, that I cannot let you have the letters--nothing that +you can say will change my mind." + +And he really didn't know what to say. He didn't want to have a +scene--he shrunk timidly from violence of any kind; but he really must +secure the letters. How they would laugh at the Club! Why, he could +hear the guffaws of all Pendragon! London would be one enormous scream +of laughter!--all Europe would be amused! and to his excited fancy Asia +and Africa seemed to join the chorus! A Trojan and a common girl in a +breach of promise case! A Trojan! + +"I say," he stammered, "you don't know how serious it is. People will +laugh, you know, if you bring the case on. Of course it was silly of +him--Robin, I mean. I can't conceive myself how he ever came to do +such a thing. Boys will be boys, and you're rather pretty, my dear. +But, bless me, if we were to take all these little things seriously, +why, where would some of us be?" He paused, and hinted impressively at +a hideous past. "You _are_ attractive, you know." He looked at her in +his most flattering manner--"Quite a nice girl, only you shouldn't take +it seriously--really you shouldn't." + +This manner of speech was a great deal more offensive than the other, +and Dahlia got up, her cheeks flushed-- + +"That is enough, Mr. Trojan. I think this had better come to an end. +I can only repeat what I have said already, that I cannot give you the +letters--and, indeed, if I had ever intended to do so, your last +speech, at least, would have changed my mind--I am sorry that I cannot +oblige you, but there is really nothing further to be said." + +He tried to stammer something; he faced her for a moment and +endeavoured to be indignant, and then, to his own intense astonishment, +found that he was walking down the stairs with the drawing-room door +closed behind him. How amazing!--but he had done his best, and, if he +had failed, why, after all, no other man could have succeeded any +better. And she really was rather bewitching--he had not expected +anything quite like that. What had he expected? He did not know, but +he thought of his softly-carpeted, nicely-cushioned room with +pleasurable anticipation. He would fling himself into his book when he +got back ... he had several rather neat ideas.... He noticed, with +pleasure, that the young man standing by the door of Mead's Groceries +touched his hat very respectfully, and Twitchett, his tailor, bowed. +Come, come! There were a few people left who had some sense of Trojan +supremacy. It wasn't such a bad world! He would have tea in his +room--not with Clare--and crumpets--yes, he liked crumpets. + +Dahlia went back to her work with a sigh. What, she wondered, would be +the next move? It had not been quite so amusing as she had expected, +but it had been a little more exciting. For she had a curious feeling +in it all, that she was fighting Harry Trojan's battles. These were +the people that had insulted him just as they had insulted her, and now +they would have to pay for it, they would have to go to him as they had +gone to her and crawl on their knees. But what a funny situation! +That she should play the son for the father, and that she should be +able to look at her own love affair so calmly! Poor Robin--he had +taught her a great deal, and now it was time for him to learn his own +lesson. For her the episode was closed and she was looking forward to +the future. She would work and win her way and have done with +sentiment. Friendship was the right thing--the thing that the world +was meant for--but _Love_--Ah! that wounded so much more than it +blessed! + +But she was to have further experiences--the Trojan family had not done +with her yet. Garrett had been absent barely more than half an hour +when the servant again appeared at the door with, "Miss Trojan, Miss +Dahlia, would like to see yer and is waiting in the 'all." Her hand +twitching at her apron and mouth gaping with astonishment testified to +her curiosity. For weeks the house had been unvisited and now, in a +single day--! + +"Show her up, Annie!" + +She was a little agitated; Garrett had been simple enough and even +rather amusing, but Clare Trojan was quite another thing. She was, +Dahlia knew, the head of the family and a woman of the world. But +Dahlia clenched her teeth; it was this person who was responsible for +the whole affair--for the father's unhappiness, for the son's +disloyalty. It was she who had been, as it were, behind Robin's +halting speeches concerning inequality and one's duty to the family. +Here was the head of the House, and Dahlia held the cards. + +But Clare was very calm and collected as she entered the room. She had +decided that a personal interview was necessary, but had rather +regretted that it could not be conducted by letter. But still if you +had to deal with that kind of person you must put up with their +methods, and having once made up her mind about a thing she never +turned back. + +She hated the young person more bitterly than she had ever hated any +one, and she would have heard of her death with no shadow of pity but +rather a great rejoicing. In the first place, the woman had come +between Clare and Robin; secondly, she threatened the good name of the +family; thirdly, she was forcing Clare to do several things that she +very much disliked doing. For all these reasons the young person was +too bad to live--but she had no intention of being uncivil. Although +this was her first experience of diplomacy, she had very definite ideas +as to how such things ought to be conducted, and civility would hide a +multitude of subtleties. Clare meant to be very subtle, very kind, +and, once the letters were in her hand, very unrelenting. + +She was wearing a very handsome dress of grey silk with a large picture +hat with grey feathers: she entered the room with a rustle, and the +sweep of the skirts spoke of infinite condescension. + +"Miss Feverel, I believe--" she held out her hand--"I am afraid this is +a most unceremonious hour for a call, and if I have interrupted you in +your work, pray go on. I wouldn't for the world. What a day, hasn't +it been? I always think that these sort of grey depressing days are so +much worse than the downright pouring ones, don't you? You are always +expecting, you know, and then nothing ever comes." + +Dahlia looked rather nervous in the window, and on her face there +fluttered a rather uncertain smile. + +"Yes," she said, a little timidly; "but I think that most of the days +here are grey." + +"Ah, you find that, do you? Well, now, that's strange, because I must +say that I haven't found that my own experience--and Cornwall, you +know, is said to be the land of colour--the English Riviera some, +rather prettily, call it--and St. Ives, you know, along the coast is +quite a place for painters because of the colour that they get there." + +Dahlia said "Yes," and there was a pause. Then Clare made her plunge. + +"You must wonder a little, Miss Feverel, what I have come about. I +really must apologise again about the hour. But I won't keep you more +than a moment; and it is all quite a trivial matter--so trivial that I +am ashamed to disturb you about it. I would have written, but I +happened to be passing and--so--I came in." + +"Yes?" said Dahlia. + +"Well, it's about some letters. Perhaps you have forgotten that my +nephew, Robert Trojan, wrote to you last summer. He tells me that you +met last summer at Cambridge and became rather well acquainted, and +that after that he wrote to you for several months. He tells me that +he wrote to you asking you to return his letters, and that you, +doubtless through forgetfulness, failed to reply. He is naturally a +little nervous about writing to you again, and so I thought that--as I +was passing--I would just come and see you about the matter. But I am +really ashamed to bother you about anything so trivial." + +"No," answered Dahlia, "I didn't forget--I wrote--answered Robin's +letter." + +"Ah! you did? Then he must have misunderstood you. He certainly gave +me to understand----" + +"Yes, I wrote to Robin saying that I was sorry--but I intended to keep +the letters." + +Clare paused and looked at her sharply. This was the kind of thing +that she had expected; of course the young person would bluff and stand +out for a tall price, which must, if necessary, be paid to her. + +"But, Miss Feverel, surely"--she smiled deprecatingly--"that can't be +your definite answer to him. Poor Robin!--surely he is entitled to +letters that he himself has written." + +"Might I ask, Miss Trojan, why you are anxious that they should be +returned?" + +"Oh, merely a whim--nothing of any importance. But Robin feels, as I +am sure you must, that the whole episode--pleasant enough at the time, +no doubt--is over, and he feels that it would be more completely closed +if the letters were destroyed." + +"Ah! but there we differ!" said Dahlia sharply. "That's just what I +don't feel about it. I value those letters, Miss Trojan, highly." + +Now what, thought Clare, exactly was she? Number One, the intriguing +adventuress? Number Two, the outraged woman? Number Three, the +helpless girl clinging to her one support? Now, of Numbers One and Two +Clare had had no experience. Such persons had never come her way, and +indeed of Number Three she could know very little; so she escaped from +generalities and fixed her mind on the actual girl in front of her. +This was most certainly no intriguing adventuress. Clare had quite +definite ideas about that class of person; but she very possibly was +the outraged female. At any rate, she would act on that conclusion. + +"My dear young lady," she said softly, "you must not think that I do +not sympathise. I do indeed, from the bottom of my heart. Robin has +behaved abominably, and any possible reparation we, as a family, will +gladly pay. I think, however, that you are a little hard on him. He +was young, so were you; and it is very easy for us--we women +especially--to mistake the reality of our affection. Robin at any rate +made a mistake and saw it--and frankly told you so. It was +wrong--very; but I cannot help feeling--forgive me if I speak rather +plainly--that it would be equally wrong on your part if you were to +indulge any feeling of revenge." + +"There is not," said Dahlia, "any question of revenge." + +"Ah," said Clare brightly, "you will let me have the letters, then?" + +"I cannot," Dahlia answered gravely. "Really, Miss Trojan, I'm afraid +that we can gain nothing by further discussion. I have looked at the +matter from every point of view, and I'm afraid that I can come to no +other decision." + +Clare stared in front of her. What was to be her next move? Like +Garrett, she had been brought to a standstill by Dahlia's direct +refusal. Viewing the matter indefinitely, from the security of her own +room, it had seemed to her that the girl would be certain to give way +at the very mention of the Trojan name. She would face Robin--yes, +that was natural enough, because, after all, he was only a boy and had +no knowledge of the world and the proper treatment of such a case--but +when it came to the head of the family with all the influence of the +family behind her, then instant submission seemed inevitable. + +Clare was forced to realise that instant submission was very far away +indeed, and that the girl sitting quietly in the window showed little +sign of yielding. She sat up a little straighter in her chair and her +voice was a little sharper. + +"It seems then, Miss Feverel, that it is a question of terms. But why +did you not say so before? I would have told you at once that we are +willing to pay a very considerable sum for the return of the letters." + +Dahlia's face flushed, and after a moment's pause she rose from her +chair and walked towards Clare. + +"Miss Trojan," she said quietly, "I have no intention of taking money +for them--or, indeed, of taking anything." + +"I'm sure," broke in Clare, flushing slightly, "_I_ had no intention +of----" + +"Ah--no, I know," went on Dahlia. "But it is not, I assure you, a case +for melodrama--but a very plain, simple little affair that is happening +everywhere all the time. You say that you cannot understand why I +should wish to keep the letters. Let me try and explain, and also let +me try and urge on you that it is really no good at all trying to +change my mind. It is now several days since I had my last talk with +Robin, and I have, of course, thought a good deal about it--it is +scarcely likely that half-an-hour's conversation with you will change a +determination that I have arrived at after ten days' hard thinking. +And surely it is not hard to understand. Six months ago I was happy +and inexperienced. I had never been in love, and, indeed, I had no +idea of its meaning. Then your nephew came: he made love to me, and I +loved him in return." + +She paused for a moment. Clare looked sympathetic. Then Dahlia +continued: "He meant no harm, no doubt, and perhaps for the time he was +quite serious in what he said. He was, as you say, very young. But it +was a game to him--it was everything to me. I treasured his letters, I +thought of them day and night. I--but, of course, you know the kind of +thing that a girl goes through when she is in love for the first time. +Then I came here and went through some bad weeks whilst he was making +up his mind to tell me that he loved me no longer. Of course, I saw +well enough what was happening--and I knew why it was--it was the +family at his back." + +A murmur from Clare. "I assure you, Miss Feverel." + +"Oh yes, Miss Trojan, you don't suppose that I cared for you very much +during those weeks. I suffered a little, too, and it changed me from a +girl into a woman--rather too quickly to be altogether healthy, +perhaps. And then he came and told me in so many words. I thought at +first that it had broken my heart; a girl does, you know, when it +happens the first time, but you needn't be afraid--my heart's all +right--and I wouldn't marry Robin now if he begged me to. But it had +hurt, all of it, and perhaps one's pride had suffered most of all--and +so, of course, I kept the letters. It was the one way that I could +hurt you. I'm frank, am I not?--but every woman would do the same. +You see you are so very proud, you Trojans! + +"It is not only that you thank God that you are not as other men, but +you are so bent on making the rest of us call out 'Miserable sinner!' +very loudly and humbly. And we don't believe it. Why should we? +Everybody has their own little bits o' things that they treasure, and +they don't like being told that they're of no value at all. Why, Miss +Trojan, I'm quite a proud person really--you'd be surprised if you +knew." + +She laughed, and then sat down on the sofa opposite Clare, with her +chin resting on her hand. + +"So you see, Miss Trojan, it's natural, after all, that I kept the +letters." + +Clare had listened to the last part of her speech in silence, her lips +firmly closed, her hands folded on her lap. As she listened to her she +knew that it was quite hopeless, that nothing that she could ever say +would change the young person's mind. She was horribly disappointed, +of course, and it would be terrible to be forced to return to Robin, +and tell him that she had failed: for the first time she would have to +confess failure--but really she could not humble herself any longer: +she was not sure that, even now, she had not unbent a little more than +was necessary. If the young person refused to consider the question of +terms there was no more to be said--and how dare she talk about the +Trojans in that way? + +"Really, Miss Feverel, I scarcely think that it is necessary for us to +enter into a discussion of that kind, is it? I daresay you have every +reason for personal pride--but really that is scarcely my affair, is +it? If no offer of money can tempt you--well, really, there the matter +must rest, mustn't it? Of course I am sorry, but you know your own +mind. But that you should think yourself insulted by such an offer is, +it seems to me, a little absurd. It is quite obvious what you mean to +do with them." + +Dahlia smiled. + +"Is it?" she said. "That is very clever of you, Miss Trojan. I am +sorry that you should have so much trouble for such a little result." + +"There is no more to be said," answered Clare, moving to the door. +"Good morning," and she was gone. + +"Oh dear," said Dahlia, as she went back to the window, "how unpleasant +she is. Poor Robin! What a time he will have!" + +For her the pathos was over, but for them--well--it had not begun. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +The question of the Cove was greatly agitating the mind of Pendragon. +Meetings had been held, a scheme had been drawn up, and it would appear +that the thing was settled. It had been conclusively proved that two +rows of lodging-houses where the Cove now stood would be an excellent +thing. The town was over-crowded--it must spread out in some +direction, and the Cove-end was practically the only possible place for +spreading. + +The fishery had been declining year by year, and it was hinted at the +Club that it would be rather a good thing if it declined until it +vanished altogether; the Cove was in no sense of the word useful, and +by its lack of suitable drainage and defective protection from weather, +it was really something of a scandal,--it formed, as Mr. Grayseed, pork +butcher and mayor of the town, pointed out, the most striking contrast +with the upward development so marked in Pendragon of late years. He +called the Cove an "eyesore" and nearly proclaimed it an "anomaly"--but +was restrained by the presence of his wife, a nervous woman who +followed her husband with difficulty in his successful career, and +checked his language when the length of his words threatened their +accuracy. + +The town might be said to be at one on these points, and there was no +very obvious reason why the destruction of the Cove should not be +proceeded with--but, still, nothing was done. It was said by a few +that the Cove was picturesque and undoubtedly attracted strangers by +the reason of its dirty, crooked streets and bulging doorways--an odd +taste, they admitted, but nevertheless undoubted and of commercial +importance. On posters Pendragon was described as "the picturesque +abode of old-time manners and customs," and Baedeker had a word about +"charming old-time byways and an old Inn, the haunt, in earlier times, +of smugglers and freebooters." Now this was undoubtedly valuable, and +it would be rather a pity were it swept away altogether. Perhaps you +might keep the Inn--it might even be made into a Museum for relics of +old Pendragon--bits of Cornish crosses, stones, some quaint drawings of +the old town, now in the possession of Mr. Quilter, the lawyer. + +The matter was much discussed at the Club, and there was no doubt as to +the feeling of the majority; let the Cove go--let them replace it with +a smart row of red-brick villas, each with its neat strip of garden and +handsome wooden paling. + +Harry had learnt to listen in silence. He knew, for one thing, that no +one would pay very much attention if he did speak, and then, of late, +he had been flung very much into himself and his reserve had grown from +day to day. People did not want to listen to him--well, he would not +trouble them. He felt, too, as Newsome had once said to him, that he +belonged properly to "down-along," and he knew that he was out of touch +with the whole of that modern movement that was going on around him. +But sometimes, as he listened, his cheeks burned when they talked of +the Cove, and he longed to jump up and plead its defence; but he knew +that it would be worse than useless and he held himself in--but they +didn't know, they didn't know. It enraged him most when they spoke of +it as some lifeless, abstract thing, some old rubbish-heap that +offended their sight, and then he thought of its beauties, of the +golden sand and the huddling red and grey cottages clustering over the +sea as though for protection. You might fancy that the waves slapped +them on the back for good-fellowship when they dashed up against the +walls, or kissed them for love when they ran in golden ripples and +softly lapped the stones. + +On the second night after his visit to Dahlia Feverel, Harry went down, +after dinner, to the Cove. He found those evening hours, before going +to bed, intolerable at the House. The others departed to their several +rooms and he was suffered to go to his, but the loneliness and +dreariness made reading impossible and his thoughts drove him out. He +had lately been often at the Inn, for this was the hour when it was +full, and he could sit in a corner and listen without being forced to +take any part himself. To-night a pedlar and a girl--apparently his +daughter--were entertaining the company, and even the melancholy sailor +with one eye seemed to share the feeling of gaiety and chuckled +solemnly at long intervals. It was a scene full of colour; the lamps +in the window shone golden through the haze of smoke on to the black +beams of the ceiling, the dust-red brick of the walls and floor, and +the cavernous depths of the great fireplace. Sitting cross-legged on +the table in the centre of the room was the pedlar, a little, dark, +beetle-browed man, and at his side were his wares, his pack flung open, +and cloths of green and gold and blue and red flung pell-mell at his +side. Leaning against the table, her hands on her hips, was the girl, +dark like her father, tall and flat-chested, with a mass of black hair +flung back from her forehead. No one knew from what place they had +come nor whither they intended to go--such a visit was rare enough in +these days of trains--and the little man's reticence was attacked again +and again, but ever unsuccessfully. There were perhaps twenty sailors +in the room, and they sat or stood by the fireplace watching and +listening. + +Harry slipped in and took his place by Newsome in the corner. + +"I will sing," said the girl. + +She stood away from the table and flung up her head--she looked +straight into the fire and swayed her body to the time of her tune. +Her voice was low, so that men bent forward in order that they might +hear, and the tune was almost a monotone, her voice rising and falling +like the beating of the sea, with the character of her words. She sang +of a Cornish pirate, Coppinger, "Cruel Coppinger," and of his deeds by +land and sea, of his daring and his cleverness and his brutality, and +the terror that he inspired, and at last of his pursuit by the king's +cutter and his utter vanishing "no man knew where." But gradually as +her song advanced Coppinger was forgotten and her theme became the +sea--she spoke like one possessed, and her voice rose and fell like the +wind--all Time and Place were lost. Harry felt that he was unbounded +by tradition of birth or breeding, and he knew that he was absolutely +as one of these others with him in the room--that he felt that call of +those old gods just as they did. The girl ceased and the room was +silent. Through the walls came the sound of the sea--in the fire was +the crackling of the coals, and down the great chimney came a little +whistle of the wind. "A mighty fine pome 'tis fur sure," said the +white-bearded sailor solemnly, "and mostly wonderful true." He sighed. +"They'm changed times," he said. + +The girl sat on the table at her father's side, watching them +seriously. She flung her arms behind her head and then suddenly-- + +"I can dance too," she said. + +They pulled the table back and watched her. + +It was something quite simple and unaffected--not, perhaps, in any way +great dancing, but having that quality, so rarely met with, of being +exactly right and suited to time and place. Her arms moved in ripples +like the waves of the sea--every part of her body seemed to join in the +same motion, but quietly, with perfect tranquillity, without any sense +of strain or effort. The golden lamps, the coloured clothes, the +red-brick floor, made a background of dazzling colour, and her black +hair escaped and fell in coils over her neck and shoulders. + +Suddenly she stopped. "There, that's all," she said, binding her hair +up again with quick fingers. She walked over to the sailors and talked +to them with perfect freedom and ease; at last she stayed by the +handsomest of them--a dark, well-built young fellow, who put his arm +round her waist and shared his drink with her. + +Harry, as he watched them, felt strangely that it was for him a scene +of farewell--that it was for the last time that the place was to offer +him such equality or that he himself would be in a position to accept +it. He did not know why he had this feeling--perhaps it was the talk +of the Club about the Cove, or his own certain conviction that matters +at the House were rapidly approaching a crisis. Yes, his own protests +were of no avail--things must move, and perhaps, after all, it were +better that they should. + +Bethel came in, and as usual joined the group at the fire without a +word; he looked at the pedlar curiously and then seemed to recognise +him--then he went up to him and soon they were in earnest conversation. +It grew late, and at the stroke of midnight Newsome rose to shut up the +house. + +"I will go back with you," Bethel said to Harry, and they walked to the +door together. For a moment Harry turned back. The girl was bending +over the sailor--her arms were round his neck, and his head was tilted +back to meet her mouth; the pedlar was putting his wares into his pack +again, but some pieces of yellow and blue silk had escaped him and lay +on the floor at his feet; down the street three of the sailors were +tramping home, and the chorus of a chanty died away as they turned the +corner. + +The girl, the pedlar, the colours of the room, the vanishing song, +remained with Harry to the end of his life--for that moment marked a +period. + +As he walked up the hill he questioned Bethel about the pedlar. + +"Oh, I had met him," he said vaguely. "One knows them all, you know. +But it is difficult to remember where. He is one of the last of his +kind and an amusing fellow enough----" But he sighed--"I am out of +sorts to-night--my kite broke. Do you know, Trojan, there are times +when one thinks that one has at last got right back--to the power, I +mean, of understanding the meaning and truth of things--and then, +suddenly, it has all gone and one is just where one was years ago and +it seems wasted. I tell you, man, last night I was on the moor and it +was alive with something. I can't tell you what--but I waited and +watched--I could feel them growing nearer and nearer, the air was +clearer--their voices were louder--and then suddenly it was all gone. +But of course you won't understand--none of you--why should you? You +think that I am flying a kite--why, I am scaling the universe!" + +"Whatever you are doing," said Harry seriously, "you are not keeping +your family. Look here, Bethel, you asked me once if I would be a +friend of yours. Well, I accepted that, and we have been good friends +ever since. But it really won't do--this kind of thing, I mean. +Scaling the universe is all very well, if you are a single man--then it +is your own look-out; but you are married--you have people depending on +you, and they will soon be starving." + +Bethel burst out laughing. + +"They've got you, Trojan! They've got you!" he cried. "I knew it +would come sooner or later, and it hasn't taken long. Three weeks and +you're like the rest of them. No, you mustn't talk like that, really. +Tell me I'm a damned fool--no good--an absolutely rotten type of +fellow--and it's all true enough. But you must accept it at that. At +least I'm true to my type, which is more than the rest of them are, the +hypocrites!--and as to my family, well, of course I'm sorry, but +they're happy enough and know me too well to have any hope of ever +changing me----" + +"No--of course, I don't want to preach. I'm the last man to tell any +one what they should do, seeing the mess that I've made of things +myself. But look here, Bethel, I like you--I count myself a friend, +and what are friends for if they're not to speak their minds?" + +"Oh! That's all right enough. Go on--I'll listen." He resigned +himself with a humorous submission as though he were indulging the +opinions of a child. + +"Well, it isn't right, you know--it isn't really. I don't want to tell +you that you're a fool or a rotter, because you aren't, but that's just +what makes it so disappointing for any one who cares about you. You're +letting all your finer self go. You're becoming, what they say you +are, a waster. Of course, finding yourself's all right--every man +ought to do that. But you have no right to throw off all claims as +completely as you have done. Life isn't like that. We've all got our +Land of Promise, and, just in order that it may remain, we are never +allowed to reach it. Whilst you are lying on your back on the moor, +your wife and daughter are killing themselves in order to keep the home +together--I say that it is not fair." + +"Oh, come, Trojan," Bethel protested, "is that quite fair on your side? +Things are all right, you know. They like it better, they do really. +Why, if I were to stay at home and try to work they'd think I was going +to be ill. Besides, I couldn't--not at an office or anything like +that. It isn't my fault, really--but it would kill me now if I +couldn't get away when I want to--not having liberty would be worse +than death." + +"Ah, that's yourself," said Harry. "That's selfish. Why don't you +think of them? You can't let things go on as they are, man. You must +get something to do." + +"I'm damned if I will." Bethel stopped short and stretched his arms +wide over the moor. "It isn't as if it would do them any good, and it +would kill me. Why, one is deaf and blind and dumb as soon as one has +work to do. I'm a child, you know. I've never grown up, and of course +I hadn't any right to marry. I don't know now why I did. And all you +people--you grown-ups--with your businesses and difficult pleasures and +noisy feasts--of course you can't understand what these things mean. +Only a few of you who sit with folded hands and listen can know what it +is. I saw a picture once--some people feasting in a forest, and +suddenly a little faun jumped from a tree on to their table and waited +for them to play with him. But some were eating and some drinking and +some talking scandal, and they did not see him. Only a little boy and +an old man--they were doing nothing--just dreaming--and they saw him. +Oh! I tell you, the dreamer has his philosophy and creed like the rest +of you!" + +"That's all very well," cried Harry. "But it's a case of bread and +butter. You will be bankrupt if you go on as you are!" + +"Oh no!" Bethel laughed. "Providence looks after the dreamers. +Something always happens--I know something will happen now. We are on +the edge of some good fortune. I can feel it." + +The man was incorrigible--there was no doubt of it--but Harry had +something further to say. + +"Well, I want you to let me take a deeper interest in your affairs. +May I ask your daughter to marry me?" + +"What? Mary?" Bethel stopped and shouted--"Why! That's splendid! Of +course, that's what Providence has been intending all this time. The +very thing, my dear fellow----" and he put his arm on Harry's +shoulder--"there's no one I'd rather give my girl to. But it's nothing +to do with me, really. She'll know her mind and tell you what she +feels about it. Dear me! Just to think of it!" + +He broke out into continuous chuckles all the way home, and seemed to +regard the whole affair as a great joke. Harry left him shouting at +the moon. He had scarcely meant to speak of it so soon, but the +thought of her struggle and the knowledge of her father's utter +indifference decided matters. He went back to the house, determining +on an interview in the morning. + +Mary meanwhile had been spending an evening that was anything but +pleasant--she had been going through her accounts and was horrified at +what she saw. They were badly overdrawn, most of the shops had refused +them further credit, and the little income that came to them could not +hope to cover one-half of their expenses. What was to be done? Ruin +and disgrace stared them in the face. They might borrow, but there was +no one to whom she could go. They must, of course, give up their +little house and go into rooms, but that would make very little +difference. She looked at it from every point of view and could think +of no easier alternative. She puzzled until her head ached, and the +room, misty with figures, seemed to swim round her. She felt cruelly +lonely, and her whole soul cried out for Harry--he would help her, he +would tell her what to do. She knew now that she loved him with all +the strength that was in her, that she had always loved him, from the +first moment that she had known him. She remembered her promise to him +that she would come and ask for his help if she really needed it--well, +perhaps she would, in the end, but now, at least, she must fight it out +alone. The first obvious thing was that her parents must know; that +they would be of any use was not to be expected, but at least they must +realise on what quicksands their house was built. They were like two +children, with no sense whatever of serious consequences and penalties, +and they would not, of course, realise that they were face to face with +a brick wall of debts and difficulties and that there was no way +over--but they must be told. + +On the next morning, after breakfast, Mary penned her mother into the +little drawing-room and broached the subject. Mrs. Bethel knew that +something serious was to follow, and sat on the edge of her chair, +looking exactly like a naughty child convicted of a fault. She was +wearing a rather faded dress of bright yellow silk and little yellow +shoes, which she poked out from under her dress every now and again and +regarded with a complacent air. + +"They are really not so shabby, Mary, my dear--not nearly so shabby as +the blue ones, and a good deal more handsome--don't you think so, my +dear? But you say you want to talk about something, so I'll be +quiet--only if you wouldn't mind being just a little quick because +there are, really, so many things to be done this morning, that it +puzzles me how----" + +"Yes, mother, I know. But there is something I want to say. I won't +be long, only it's rather important." + +"Yes, dear--only don't scold. You look as if you were going to scold. +I can always tell by that horrid line you have, dear, in your forehead. +I know I've done something I oughtn't to, but what it is unless it's +those red silks I bought at Dixon's on Friday, and they were so cheap, +only----" + +"No, mother, it's nothing you've done. It's rather what I've done, or +all of us. We are all in the same boat. It's my managing, I suppose; +anyhow, I've made a mess of it and we're very near the end of the rope. +There doesn't seem any outlook anywhere. We're overdrawn at the bank; +they won't give us credit in the town, and I don't see where any's to +come from." + +"Oh, it's money! Well, my dear, of course it is provoking--such a +horrid thing to have to worry about; but really I'm quite relieved. I +thought it was something I'd done. You quite frightened me; and I'm +glad you don't mind about the red silks, because it really was tempting +with----" + +"No, dear, that's all right. But this is serious. I've come to the +end and I want you to help me. Will you just go through the books with +me and see if anything can be done? I'm so tired and worried. I've +been going at them so long that I daresay I've muddled it. It mayn't +be quite so hopeless as I've made out." + +"The books! My dear Mary----" Mrs. Bethel looked at her daughter +pathetically. "You know that I've no head for figures. Why, when +mother died at home--we were in Chertsey then, Frank and Doris and +I--and I tried to manage things, you know, it was really too absurd. I +used to make the most ridiculous mistakes and Frank said that the +village people did just what they liked with me, and I remember old +Mrs. Blenkinsop charging me for eggs after the first month at quite an +outrageous rate because----" + +"Yes, mother, I know. But two heads are better than one, and I am +really hopelessly puzzled to know what to do." Mary got up and went +over to her mother and put her arm round her. "You see, dear, it is +serious. There's no money at all--less than none; and I don't know +where we are to turn. There's no outlook at all. I'm afraid that it's +no use appealing to father--no use--and so it's simply left for us two +to do what we can. It's frightening always doing it alone, and I +thought you would help me." + +"Well, of course, Mary dear, I'll do what I can. No, I'm afraid that +it would be no good appealing to your father. It's strange how very +little sense he's ever had of money--of the value of it. I remember in +the first week that we were married he bought some book or other and we +had to go without quite a lot of things. I was angry then, but I've +learnt since. It was our first quarrel." + +She sighed. It was always Mrs. Bethel's method of dealing with any +present problem to flee into the happy land of reminiscence and to stay +there until the matter had, comfortably or otherwise, settled itself. + +"But I shouldn't worry," she said, looking up at her daughter. "Things +always turn up, and besides," she added, "you might marry, dear." + +"Marry!" Mary looked up at her mother sharply. Mrs. Bethel looked a +little frightened. + +"Well, you will, you know, dear, probably--and perhaps--well, if he had +money----" + +"Mother!" She sprang up from her chair and faced her with flaming +cheeks. "Do you mean to say that they are talking about it?" + +"They? Who? It was only Mrs. Morrison the other day, at tea-time, +said--that she thought----" + +"Mrs. Morrison? That hateful woman discussing me? Mother, how could +you let her? What did she say?" + +"Why, only--I wish you wouldn't look so cross, dear. It was nothing +really--only that Mr. Trojan obviously cared a good deal--and it would +be so nice if----" + +"How dare she?" Mary cried again. "And you think it too, mother--that +I would go on my knees to him to take us out of our trouble--that I +would sweep his floors if he would help the family! Oh! It's hateful! +Hateful!" + +She flung herself into a chair by the window and burst into tears. +Mrs. Bethel stared at her in amazement. "Well, upon my word, my dear, +one never knows how to take you! Why, it wasn't as if she'd said +anything, only that it would be rather nice." She paused in utter +bewilderment and seemed herself a little inclined to cry. + +At this moment the door opened--Mary sprang up. "Who is it?" she asked. + +"Mr. Henry Trojan, miss, would like to come up if it wouldn't----" + +"No. Tell him, Jane, that----" + +But he had followed the servant and appeared in the doorway smiling. + +"I knew you wouldn't mind my coming unconventionally like this," he +said; "it's a terrible hour in the morning--but I felt sure that I +would catch you." + +He had seen at once that there was something wrong, and he stopped +confusedly in the doorway. + +But Mrs. Bethel came forward, smiling nervously. + +"Oh, please, Mr. Trojan, do come in. We always love to see you--you +know we do--you're one of our real friends--one of our best--and it's +only too good of you to spare time to come round and see us. But I am +busy--it's quite true--one is, you know, in the morning; but I don't +think that Mary has anything very important immediately. I think she +might stop and talk to you," and in a confusion of tittered apologies +she vanished away. + +But he stood in the doorway, waiting for Mary to speak. She sat with +her head turned to the window and struggled to regain her self-command; +they had been talked about in the town. She could imagine how it had +gone. "Oh! the Bethel girl! Yes, after the Trojan money and doing it +cleverly too; she'll hook him all right--he's just the kind of man." +Oh! the hatefulness of it! + +"What's up?" He came forward a little, twisting his hat in his hands. + +"Nothing!" She turned round and tried to smile. Indeed she almost +laughed, for he looked so ridiculous standing there--like a great +schoolboy before the headmaster, his hat turning in his hands; or +rather, like a collie plunging out of the water and ready to shake +himself on all and sundry. As she looked at him she knew that she +loved him and that she could never marry him because Pendragon thought +that she had hooked him for his money. + +"Yes--there is something. What is it?" He had come forward and taken +her hands. + +But she drew them away slowly and sat down on the sofa. "I'm tired," +she said a little defiantly, "that's all--you know if you will come and +call at such dreadfully unconventional hours you mustn't expect to find +people with all the paint on. I never put mine on till lunch----" + +"No--it's no good," he answered gravely. "You're worried, and it's +wrong of you not to tell me. You are breaking your promise----" + +"I made no promise," she said quickly. + +"You did--that day on the moor. We were to tell each other always if +anything went wrong. It was a bargain." + +"Well, nothing's wrong. I'm tired--bothered a bit--the old +thing--there's more to be bought than we're able to pay for." + +"I've come with a proposition," he answered gravely. "Just a +suggestion, which I don't suppose you'll consider--but you might--it is +that you should marry me." + +It had come so suddenly that it took her by surprise. The colour flew +into her cheeks and then ebbed away again, leaving her whiter than +ever. That he should have actually said the words made her heart beat +furiously, and there was a singing in her ears so that she scarcely +heard what he said. He paused a moment and then went on. "Oh! I know +it's absurd when we've only known each other such a little time, and +I've been telling myself that again and again--but it's no good. I've +tried to keep it back, but I simply couldn't help it--it's been too +strong for me." + +He paused again, but she said nothing and he went on. "I ought to tell +you about myself, so that you should know, because I'm really a very +rotten type of person. I've never done anything yet, and I don't +suppose I ever shall; I've been a failure at most things, and I'm +stupid. I never read the right sort of books, or look at the right +sort of pictures, or like the right sort of music, and even at the sort +of things that most men are good at I'm nothing unusual. I can't +write, you know, a bit, and in my letters I express myself like a boy +of fifteen. And then I'm old--quite middle-aged--although I feel young +enough. So that all these things are against me, and it's really a +shame to ask you." + +He paused again, and then he said timidly, bending towards her-- + +"Could you ever, do you think, give me just a little hope--I wouldn't +want you to right away at once--but, any time, after you'd thought +about it?" + +She looked up at him and saw that he was shaking from head to foot. +Her pride was nearly overcome and she wanted to fling herself at his +feet, and kiss his hands, and never let him go, but she remembered that +Pendragon had said that she was catching him for his money; so, by a +great effort, she stayed where she was, and answered quietly, even +coldly-- + +"I am more honoured, Mr. Trojan, than I can tell you by your asking me. +It is much, very much more than I deserve, and, indeed, I'm not in the +least worthy of it. I'm sorry, but I'm afraid it's no good. You see +I'm such a stupid sort of girl--I muddle things so. It would never do +for me to attempt to manage a big place like 'The Flutes'--and then I +don't think I shall ever marry. I don't think I am that sort of girl. +You have been an awfully good friend to me, and I'm more grateful to +you than I can say. I can't tell you how much you have helped us all +during these last weeks. But I'm afraid I must say no." + +The light from the window fell on her hair and the blue of her dress--a +little gold pin at her throat flashed and sparkled; his eye caught it, +and was fixed there. + +"No--don't say actually no." He was stammering. "Please--please. +Think about it after I have gone away. I will come again another day +when you have thought about it. I'm so stupid in saying things--I +can't express myself; but, Miss Bethel--Mary--I love you--I love you. +There isn't much to say about it--I can't express it any better--but, +please--you mustn't say no like that. I would be as good a husband to +you as I could, dear, always. I'm not the sort of fellow to change." + +"No"--she was speaking quickly as though she meant it to be final--"no, +really, I mean it. I can't, I can't. You see one has to feel certain +about it, hasn't one?--and I don't--not quite like that. But you are +the very best friend that I have ever had; don't let it spoil that." + +"Perhaps," he said slowly, "it's my age. You don't feel that you could +with a man old enough to be your father. But I'm young--younger than +Robin. But I won't bother you about it. Of course, if you are +certain----" + +He rose and stumbled a moment over the chair as he passed to the door. + +"Oh! I'm so sorry!" she cried. "I----" and then she had to turn to +hide her face. In her heart there was a struggle such as she had never +faced before. Her love called her a fool and told her that she was +flinging her life away--that the ship of her good fortune was sailing +from her, and it would be soon beyond the horizon; but her pride +reminded her of what they had said--that she had laid traps for him, +for his money. + +"I am sorry," she said again. "But it must be only friendship." + +But she had forgotten that although her back was turned he was towards +the mirror. He could see her--her white face and quivering lips. + +He sprang towards her. + +"Mary, try me. I will love you better than any man in God's world, +always. I will live for you, and work for you, and die for you." + +It was more than she could bear. She could not reason now. She was +only resolved that she would not give way, and she pushed past him +blindly, her head hanging. + +The drawing-room door closed. He stared dully in front of him. Then +he picked up his hat and left the house. + +She had flung herself on her bed and lay there motionless. She heard +the door close, his steps on the stairs, and then the outer door. + +She sprang to the window, and then, moved by some blind impulse, rushed +to the head of the stairs. There were steps, and Mrs. Bethel's voice +penetrated the gloom. "Mary, Mary, where are you?" + +She crept back to her room. + +He walked back to "The Flutes" with the one fact ever before him--that +she had refused him. He realised now that it had been his love for her +that had kept him during these weeks sane and brave. Without it, he +could not have faced his recent troubles and all the desolate sense of +outlawry and desolation that had weighed on him so terribly. Now he +must face it, alone, with the knowledge that she did not love him--that +she had told him so. It was his second rejection--the second flinging +to the ground of all his defences and walls of protection. Robin had +rejected him, Mary had rejected him, and he was absolutely, horribly +alone. He thought for a moment of Dahlia Feverel and of her desertion. +Well, she had faced it pluckily; he would do the same. Life could be +hard, but he would not be beaten. His methods of consolation, his +pulling of himself together--it was all extremely commonplace, but then +he was an essentially commonplace man, and saw things unconfusedly, one +at a time, with no entanglement of motives or complicated searching for +origins. He had accepted the fact of his rejection by his family with +the same clear-headed indifference to side-issues as he accepted now +his rejection by Mary. He could not understand "those artist fellows +with their complications"--life for him was perfectly straight-forward. + +But the gods had not done with his day. On the way up to his room he +was met by Clare. + +"Father is worse," she said quickly. "He took a turn this morning, and +now, perhaps, he will not live through the night. Dr. Turner and Dr. +Craile are both with him. He asked for you a little while ago." + +She passed down the stairs--the quiet, self-composed woman of every +day. It was characteristic of a Trojan that the more agitated outside +circumstances became the quieter he or she became. Harry was Trojan in +this, and, as was customary with him, he put aside his own worries and +dealt entirely with the matter in hand. + +Already, over the house, a change was evident. In the absolute +stillness there could be felt the presence of a crisis, and the +monotonous flap of a blind against some distant window sounded clearly +down the passages. + +In Sir Jeremy's room there was perfect stillness. The two doctors had +gone downstairs and the nurse was alone. "He asked for you, sir," she +whispered; "he is unconscious again now." + +Harry sat down by the bed and waited. The air was heavy with scents of +medicine, and the drawn blinds flung grey, ghost-like shadows over the +bed. The old man seemed scarcely changed. The light had gone from his +eyes and his hand lay motionless on the sheets, and his lips moved +continually in a never-ceasing murmur. + +Suddenly he turned and his eyes opened. The nurse moved forward. +"Where's Harry?" He waved his arm feebly in the air. + +"I'm here, father," Harry said quietly. + +"Ah, that's good"--he sank back on the pillows again. "I'm going to +die, you know, and I'm lonely. It's damned gloomy--got to die--don't +want to--but got to." + +He felt for his son's hand, found it, and held it. Then he passed off +again into half-conscious sleep, and Harry watched, his hand in his +father's and his thoughts with the girl and the boy who had rejected +him rather than with the old man who had accepted him. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +Meanwhile there was Robin--and he had been spending several very +unhappy days. In the gloom of his room, alone and depressed, he had +been passing things in review. He had never hitherto felt any very +burning desire to know how he stood with the world; at school and +Cambridge he had not thought at all--he had just, as it were, slid into +things; his surroundings had grouped themselves of their own accord, +making a delicately appreciative circle with no disturbing element. +His friends had been of his own kind, the things that he had wished to +do he had done, his thoughts had been dictated by set forms and +customs. This had seemed to him, hitherto, an extraordinarily broad +outlook; he had never doubted for a moment its splendid infallibility. +He applied the tests of his set to the world at large, and the world +conformed. Life was very easy on such terms, and he had been happy and +contented. + +His meeting with Dahlia had merely lent a little colour to his pleasant +complacency, and then, when it had threatened to become something more, +he had ruthlessly cut it out. This should have been simple enough, and +he had been at a loss to understand why the affair had left any traces. +Friends of his at college had had such episodes, and had been mildly +amused at their rapid conclusion. He had tried to be mildly amused at +the conclusion of his own affair, but had failed miserably. Why? ... +he did not know. He must be sensitive, he supposed; then, in that +case, he had failed to reach the proper standard.... Randal was never +sensitive. But there had been other things. + +During the last week everything had seemed to be topsy-turvy. He dated +it definitely from the arrival of his father. He recalled the day; his +tie was badly made, he remembered, and he had been rather concerned +about it. How curious it all was; he must have changed since then, +because now--well, ties seemed scarcely to matter at all. He saw his +father standing at the open window watching the lighted town.... +"Robin, old boy, we'll have a good time, you and I..."--and then Aunt +Clare with her little cry of horror, and his father's hurried apology. +That had been the beginning of things; one could see how it would go +from the first. Had it, after all, been so greatly his father's fault? +He was surprised to find that he was regarding his uncle and aunt +critically.... It had been their fault to a great extent--they had +never given him a chance. Then he remembered the next morning and his +own curt refusal to his father's invitation--"He had books to pack for +Randal!" How absurd it was, and he wondered why he should have +considered Randal so important. He could have waited for the books. + +But these things depended entirely on his own sudden discovery that he +had failed in a crisis--failed, and failed lamentably. He did not +believe that Randal would have failed. Randal would not have worried +about it for a moment. What, then, was precisely the difference? He +had acted throughout according to the old set formula--he had applied +all the rules of the game as he had learnt them, and nevertheless he +had been beaten. And so there had crept over him gradually, slowly, +and at last overwhelmingly, the knowledge that the world that he had +imagined was not the world as it is, that the people he had admired +were not the only admirable people in it, and that the laws that had +governed him were only a small fragment of the laws that rule the world. + +When this discovery first comes to a man the effect is deadening; like +a ship that has lost its bearings he plunges in a sea of entangled, +confused ideas with no assurances as to his own ability to reach any +safe port whatever. It is this crisis that marks the change from youth +to manhood. + +Three weeks ago Robin had been absolutely confident, not only in +himself, but in his relations, his House and his future; now he trusted +in nothing. But he had not yet arrived at the point when he could +regard his own shortcomings as the cause of his unhappiness; he pointed +to circumstances, his aunt, his uncle, Dahlia, even Randal, and he +began a search for something more reliable. + +Of course, his aunt and uncle might have solved the problem for him; he +had not dared to question them and they had never mentioned the subject +themselves, but they did not look as though they had succeeded--he +fancied that they had avoided him during the last few days. + +The serious illness of his grandfather still further complicated +matters; he was not expected to live through the week. Robin was +sorry, but he had never seen very much of his grandfather; and it was, +after all, only fitting that such a very old man should die some time; +no, the point really was that his father would in a week's time be Sir +Henry Trojan and head of the House--that was what mattered. + +Now his father was the one person whom he could find no excuse whatever +for blaming. He had stood entirely outside the affair from the +beginning, and, as far as Robin could tell, knew nothing whatever about +it. Robin, indeed, had taken care that he should not interfere; he had +been kept outside from the first. + +No, Robin could not blame his father for the state of things; perhaps, +even, it might have been better if his advice had been asked. + +But everything drove him back to the ultimate fact from which, indeed, +there was no escaping--that there was every prospect of his finding +himself, within a few weeks' time, the interesting centre of a common +affair in the Courts for Breach of Promise; and as this ultimate issue +shone clearer and clearer Robin's terror increased in volume. To his +excited fancy, living and dead seemed to turn upon him. Country +cousins--the Rev. George Trojan of West Taunton, a clergyman whose +evangelical tendencies had been the mock of the House; Colonel Trojan +of Cheltenham, a Port-and-Pepper Indian, as Robin had scornfully called +him; the Misses Trojan of Southsea, ladies of advanced years and +slender purses, who always sent him a card at Christmas; Mrs. Adeline +Trojan of Teignmouth, who had spent her life in beating at the doors of +London Society and had retired at last, defeated, to the provincial +gentility of a seaside town--Oh! Robin had laughed at them all and +scorned them again and again--and behold how the tables would be +turned! And the Dead! Their scorn would be harder still to bear. He +had thought of them often enough and had long ago known their histories +by heart. He had gazed at their portraits in the Long Gallery until he +knew every line of their faces: old Lady Trojan of 1640, a little like +Rembrandt's "Lady with the Ruff," with her stern mouth and eyes and +stiff white collar--she must have been a lady of character! Sir +Charles Trojan, her son, who plotted for William of Orange and was +rewarded royally after the glorious Revolution; Lady Gossiter Trojan, a +woman who had taken active part in the '45, and used "The Flutes" as a +refuge for intriguing Jacobites; and, best of all, a dim black picture +of a man in armour that hung over the mantel-piece, a portrait of a +certain Sir Robert Trojan who had fought in the Barons' Wars and been a +giant of his times; he had always been Robin's hero and had formed the +centre of many an imaginary tapestry worked by Robin's brain--and now +his descendant must pay costs in a Breach of Promise Case! + +They had all had their faults, those Trojans; some of them had robbed +and murdered with little compunction, but they had always had their +pride, they had never done anything really low--what they had done they +had done with a high hand; Robin would be the first of the family to +let them down. And it was rather curious to think that, three weeks +ago, it had been his father who was going to let them down. Robin +remembered with what indignation he had heard of his father's visits to +the Cove, his friendship with Bethel and the rest--but surely it was +they who had driven him out! It was their own doing from the first--or +rather his aunt and uncle's. He was beginning to be annoyed with his +aunt and uncle. He felt vaguely that they had got him into the mess +and were quite unable to pull him out again; which reflection brought +him back to the original main business, namely, that there was a mess, +and a bad one. + +It was one of his qualities of youth that he could not wait; patience +was an utterly unlearned virtue, and this desperate uncertainty, this +sitting like Damocles under a sword suspended by a hair, was hard to +bear. What was Dahlia doing? Had she already taken steps? He watched +every post with terror lest it should contain a lawyer's writ. He had +the vaguest ideas about such things ... perhaps they would put him in +prison. To his excited fancy the letters seemed enormous--horrible, +black, menacing, large for all the world to see. What had Aunt Clare +done? His uncle? And then, last of all, had his father any suspicions? + +Whether it was the London tailor, or simply the reassuring hand of +custom, his father was certainly not the uncouth person he had seemed +three weeks ago; in fact, Robin was beginning to think him rather +handsome--such muscles and such a chest!--and he really carried himself +very well, and indeed, loose, badly-made clothes suited him rather +well. And then he had changed so in other ways; there was none of that +overwhelming cheerfulness, that terrible hail-fellow-well-met kind of +manner now; he was brief and to the point, he seldom smiled, and surely +it wasn't to be wondered at after the way in which they had treated him +at the family council a week ago. + +There had been several occasions lately on which Robin would have liked +to have spoken to his father. He had begun, once, after breakfast, a +halting conversation, but he had only received monosyllables as a +reply--the thing had broken down painfully. And so he went down to his +aunt. + +It was her room again, and she was having tea with Uncle Garrett. +Robin remembered the last occasion, only a week ago, when he had made +his confession. He had been afraid of hurting his aunt then, he +remembered. He did not mind very much now ... he saw his aunt and +uncle as two people suddenly grown effete, purposeless, incapable. +They seemed to have changed altogether, which only meant that he was, +at last, finding himself. + +There hung a gloom over Clare's tea-table, partly, no doubt, because of +Sir Jeremy--the old man with the wrinkled hands and parchment face +seemed to follow one, noiselessly, remorselessly, through every passage +and into every room ... but there was also something else--that tension +always noticeable in a room where people whose recent action towards +some common goal is undeclared are gathered together; they were waiting +for some one else to make the next move. + +And it was Robin who made it, asking at once, as he dropped the sugar +into his cup and balanced for a moment the tongs in the air: "Well, +Aunt Clare, what have you done?" + +She noticed at once that he asked it a little scornfully, as though +assured beforehand that she had done very little. There was a note of +antagonism in the way that he had spoken, a hint, even, of challenge. +She knew at once that he had changed during the last week, and again, +knowing as she did of her failure with the girl, and guessing perhaps +at its probable sequence, she hated Harry from the bottom of her heart. + +"Done? Why, how, Robin dear? I don't advise those tea-cakes--they're +heavy. I must speak to Wilson--she's been a little careless lately; +those biscuits are quite nice. Done, dear?" + +"Yes, aunt--about Miss Feverel. No, I don't want anything to eat, +thanks--it seems only an hour or so since lunch--yes--about--well, +those letters?" + +Clare looked up at him pleadingly. He was speaking a little like +Harry; she had noticed during the last week that he had several things +in common with his father--little things, the way that he wrinkled his +forehead, pushed back his hair with his hand; she was not sure that it +was not conscious imitation, and indeed it had seemed to her during the +last week that every day drew him further from herself and nearer to +Harry. She had counted on this affair as a means of reclaiming him, +and now she must confess failure--Oh! it was hard! + +"Well, Robin, I have tried----" She paused. + +"Well?" he said drily, waiting. + +"I'm afraid it wasn't much of a success," she said, trying to laugh. +"I suppose that really I'm not good at that sort of thing." + +"At what sort of thing?" + +He stood over her like a judge, the certainty of her failure the only +thing that he could grasp. He did not recognise her own love for him, +her fear lest he should be angry; he was merciless as he had been three +weeks ago with his father, as he had been with Dahlia Feverel, and for +the same reason--because each had taken from him some of that armour of +self-confidence in which he had so greatly trusted; the winds of the +heath were blowing about him and he stood, stripped, shivering, before +the world. + +"She was not good at that sort of thing"--that was exactly it, exactly +the summary of his new feeling about his aunt and uncle; they were not +able to cope with that hard, new world into which he had been so +suddenly flung--they were, he scornfully considered, "tea-table" +persons, and in so judging them he condemned himself. + +"I'm so very sorry, dear. I did my very best. I went to see +the--um--Miss Feverel, and we talked about them. But I'm afraid that I +couldn't persuade her--she seemed determined----" + +"What did she say?" + +"Oh, very little--only that she considered that the letters were hers +and that therefore she had every right to keep them if she liked. She +seemed to attach some especial, rather sentimental value to them, and +considered, apparently, that it would be quite impossible to give them +up." + +"How was she looking--ill?" It had been one of Robin's consolations +during these weeks to imagine her pale, wretched, broken down. + +"Oh no, extremely well. She seemed rather amused at the whole affair. +I was not there very long." + +"And is that all you have done? Have you, I mean, taken any other +steps?" + +"Yes--I wrote yesterday morning. I got an answer this morning." + +"What was it?" Robin spoke eagerly. Perhaps his aunt had some surprise +in store and would produce the letters suddenly; surely Dahlia would +not have written unless she had relented. + +Clare went to her writing-table and returned with the letter, held +gingerly between finger and thumb. + +"I'm afraid it's not very long," she said, laughing nervously, and +again looking at Robin appealingly. "I had written asking her to think +over what she had said to me the day before. She says: + + +"'DEAR Miss TROJAN--Surely the matter is closed after what happened the +other day? I am extremely sorry that you should be troubled by my +decision; but it is, I am afraid, unalterable.--Yours truly, + +D. FEVEREL.'" + + +"Her decision?" cried Robin quickly. "Had she told you anything? Had +she decided anything?" + +"Only that she would keep the letters," answered Clare slowly. "You +couldn't expect me, Robin dear, to argue with her about it. One had, +after all, one's dignity." + +"Oh! it's no use!" cried Robin. "She means to use them--of course, +it's all plain enough; we've just got to face it, I suppose"; and then, +as a forlorn hope, turning to his uncle-- + +"You've done nothing, I suppose, Uncle Garrett?" + +His uncle had hitherto taken no part in the discussion, but sat intent +on the book that he was reading. Now he answered, without looking up-- + +"Yes--I saw the girl." + +"You saw her?" from Clare. + +"What! Dahlia!" from Robin. + +"Yes, I called." He laid the book down on his knee and enjoyed the +effect of his announcement. He could be important for a moment at any +rate, although he must, with his next words, confess failure, so he +prolonged the situation. "Some more tea, Clare, please, and not quite +so strong this time--you might speak about the tea--why not make it +yourself?" + +She took his cup and went over to the tea-table. She knew how to play +the game as well as he did, and she showed no astonishment or vulgar +curiosity, but if he had succeeded where she had failed she must change +her hand. She had never thought very much about Garrett; he was a +thorough Trojan--for that she was very grateful, but he had always been +more of an emblem to her than a man. Now if he had got the letters she +was humiliated indeed. Robin would despise her for having failed where +his uncle had succeeded. + +"Well, have you got them?" + +Robin bent forward eagerly. + +"No, not precisely," Garrett answered deliberately. "But I went to see +her----" + +"With what result?" + +"With no precise result--that is to say, she did not promise to +surrender them--not immediately. But I have every hope----" He paused +mysteriously. + +"Of what?" If his uncle had really a chance of getting them, he was +not such a fool after all. Perhaps he was a cleverer man than one gave +him credit for being. + +"Well, of course, one has very little ground for any real assertion, +but we discussed the matter at some length. I think I convinced her +that it would be her wisest course to deliver up the letters as soon as +might be, and I assured her that we would let the matter rest there and +take no further steps. I think she was impressed," and he sipped his +tea slowly and solemnly. + +"Impressed! Yes, but what has she promised?" Robin cried impatiently. +He knew Dahlia better than they did, and he did not feel somehow that +she was very likely to be impressed with Uncle Garrett. He was not the +kind of man. + +"Promised? No, not a precise promise--but she was quite pleasant and +seemed to be open to argument--quite a nice young person." + +"Ah! you have done nothing!" There was a note of relief in Clare's +exclamation. "Why not say so at once, Garrett, instead of beating +about the bush? There is an end of it. We have failed, Robin, both of +us; we are where we were before, and what to do next I really don't +know." + +It was rather a comfort to drag Garrett into it as well. She was glad +that he had tried; it made her own failure less noticeable. + +Robin looked at both of them, gloomily, from the fireplace. Aunt +Clare, handsome, aristocratic, perfectly well fitted to pour out tea in +any society, but useless, useless, useless when it came to the real +thing; Uncle Garrett and his eyeglass, trying to make the most of a +situation in which he had most obviously failed--no, they were no good +either of them, and three weeks ago they had seemed the ultimate +standard by which his own life was to be tested. How quickly one +learnt! + +"Well, what is to be done?" he said desperately. "It's plain enough +that she means to stick to the things; and, after all, there can only +be one reason for her doing it--she means to use them. I can see no +way out of it at all--one must just stand up to it." + +"We'll think, dear, we'll think," said Clare eagerly. "Ideas are sure +to come if we only wait." + +"Wait! But we can't wait!" cried Robin. "She'll move at once. +Probably the letters are in the lawyer's hands already." + +"Then there's nothing to be done," said Garrett comfortably, settling +back again into his book--he was, he flattered himself, a man of most +excellent practical sense. + +"No, it really seems, Robin, as if we had better wait," said Clare. +"We must have patience. Perhaps after all she has taken no steps." + +But Robin was angry. He had long ago forgotten his share in the +business; he had adopted so successfully the role of injured sufferer +that his own actions seemed to him almost meritorious. But he was very +angry with them. Here they were, in the face of a family crisis, +deliberately adopting a policy of _laissez-faire_; he had done his best +and had failed, but he was young and ignorant of the world (that at +least he now admitted), but they were old, experienced, wise--or, at +least, they had always seemed to him to stand for experience and +wisdom, and yet they could do nothing--nay, worse--they seemed to wish +to do nothing--Oh! he was angry with them! + +The whole room with its silver and knick-knacks--its beautifully worked +cushions and charming water-colours, its shining rows of complete +editions and dainty china stood to him now for incapacity. Three weeks +ago it had seemed his Holy of Holies. + +"But we can't wait," he repeated--"we can't! Don't you see, Aunt +Clare, she isn't the sort of girl that waiting does for? She'd never +dream of waiting herself." Dahlia seemed, by contrast with their +complacent acquiescence, almost admirable. + +"Well, dear," Clare answered, "your uncle and I have both tried--I +think that we may be alarming ourselves unnecessarily. I must say she +didn't seem to me to bear any grudge against you. I daresay she will +leave things as they are----" + +"Then why keep the letters?" + +"Oh, sentiment. It would remind her, you see----" + +But Robin could only repeat--"No, she's not that kind of girl," and +marvel, perplexedly, at their short-sightedness. + +And then he approached the point-- + +"There is, of course," he said slowly, "one other person who might help +us----" He paused. + +Garrett put his book down and looked up. Clare leaned towards him. + +"Yes?" Clare looked slightly incredulous of any suggested remedy--but +apparently composed and a little tired of all this argument. But, in +reality, her heart was beating furiously. Had it come at last?--that +first mention of his father that she had dreaded for so many days. + +"I really cannot think----" from Garrett. + +"Why not my father?" + +Again it seemed to Clare that she and Harry were struggling for Robin +... since that first moment of his entry they had struggled--she with +her twenty years of faithful service, he with nothing--Oh! it was +unfair! + +"But, Robin," she said gently--"you can't--not, at least, after what +has happened. This is an affair for ourselves--for the family." + +"But _he_ is the family!" + +"Well, in a sense, yes. But his long absence--his different way of +looking at things--make it rather hard. It would be better, wouldn't +it, to settle it here, without its going further." + +"To _settle_ it, yes--but we can't--we don't--we are leaving things +quite alone--waiting--when we ought to do something." + +Robin knew that she was showing him that his father was still outside +the circle--that for herself and Uncle Garrett recent events had made +no difference. + +But was he outside the circle? Why should he be? At any rate he would +soon be head of the House, and then it would matter very little---- + +"Also," Clare added, "he will scarcely have time just now. He is with +father all day--and I don't see what he could do, after all." + +"He could see her," said Robin slowly. He suddenly remembered that +Dahlia had once expressed great admiration for his father--she was the +very woman to like that kind of man. A hurried mental comparison +between his father and Uncle Garrett favoured the idea. + +"He could see her," he said again. "I think she might like him." + +"My dear boy," said Garrett, "take it from me that what a man could do +I've done. I assure you it's useless. Your father is a very excellent +man, but, I must confess, in my opinion scarcely a diplomat----" + +"Well, at any rate it's worth trying," cried Robin impatiently. "We +must, I suppose, eat humble pie after the things you said to him, Aunt +Clare, the other day, but I must confess it's the only chance. He will +be decent about it, I'm sure--I think you scarcely realise how nasty it +promises to be." + +"Who is to ask?" said Garrett. + +"I will ask him," said Clare suddenly. "Perhaps after all Robin is +right--he might do something." + +It might, she thought, be the best thing. Unless he tried, Robin would +always consider him capable of succeeding--but he should try and +fail--fail! Why, of course he would fail. + +"Thank you, Aunt Clare." Robin walked to the door and then turned: +"Soon would be best"--then he closed the door behind him. + +His father was coming down the stairs as he passed through the hall. +He saw him against the light of the window and he half turned as though +to speak to him--but his father gave no sign; he looked very +stern--perhaps his grandfather was dead. + +The sudden fear--the terror of death brought very close to him for the +first time--caught him by the throat. + +"He is not dead?" he whispered. + +"He is asleep," Harry said, stopping for a moment on the last step of +the stairs and looking at him across the hall--"I am afraid that he +won't live through the night." + +They had both spoken softly, and the utter silence of the house, the +heaviness of the air so that it seemed to hang in thick clouds above +one's head, drove Robin out. He looked as though he would speak, and +then, with bent head, passed into the garden. + +He felt most miserably lonely and depressed--if he hadn't been so old +and proud he would have hidden in one of the bushes and cried. It was +all so terrible--his grandfather, that weighty, eerie impression of +Death felt for the first time, the dreadful uncertainty of the Feverel +affair, all things were quite enough for misery, but this feeling of +loneliness was new to him. + +He had always had friends, but even when they had failed him there had +been behind them the House--its traditions, its records, its +history--his aunt and uncle, and, most reassuring of all, himself. + +But now all these had failed him. His friends were vaguely +unattractive; Randal was terribly superficial, he was betraying the +House; his aunt and uncle were unsatisfactory, and for himself--well, +he wasn't quite so splendid as he had once thought. He was wretchedly +dissatisfied with it all and felt that he would give all the polish and +culture in the world for a simple, unaffected friendship in which he +could trust. + +"Some one," he said angrily, "that would do something"--and his +thoughts were of his father. + +It was dark now, and he went down to the sea, because he liked the +white flash of the waves as they broke on the beach--this sudden +appearing and disappearing and the rustle of the pebbles as they turned +slowly back and vanished into the night again. + +He liked, too, the myriad lights of the town: the rows of lamps, rising +tier on tier into the night sky, like people in some great amphitheatre +waiting in silence for the rising of a mighty curtain. He always +thought on these nights of Germany--Germany, Worms, the little +bookseller, the distant gleam of candles in the Cathedrals, the flash +of the sun through the trees over the Rhine, the crooked, cobbled +streets at night with the moon like a lamp and the gabled roofs +flinging wild shadows over the stones ... the night-sea brought it very +close and carried Randal and Cambridge and Dahlia Feverel very far +away, although he did not know why. + +He watched the light of the town and the waves and the great flashing +eye of the lighthouse and then turned back. As he climbed the steps up +the cliff he heard some one behind him, and, turning, saw that it was +Mary Bethel. She said "Good-night" quickly and was going to pass him, +but he stopped her. + +"I haven't seen you for ages, Mary," he said. He resolved to speak to +her. She knew his father and had always been a good sort--perhaps she +would help him. + +"Are you coming back, Robin?" she said, stopping and smiling. There +was a lamp at the top of the cliff where the road ran past the steps, +and by the light of it he saw that she had been crying. But he was too +much occupied with his own affairs to consider the matter very deeply, +and then girls cried so easily. + +"Yes," he said, "let us go round by the road and the Chapel--it's a +splendid night; besides, we don't seem to have met recently. We've +both been busy, I suppose, and I've a good deal to talk about." + +"If you like," she said, rather listlessly. It would, at least, save +her from her own thoughts and protect her perhaps from the ceaseless +repetition of that scene of three days ago when she had turned the man +that she loved more than all the world away and had lied to him because +she was proud. + +And so at first she scarcely listened to him. They walked down the +road that ran along the top of the cliff and the great eye of the +lighthouse wheeled upon them, flashed and vanished; she saw the room +with its dingy carpet and wide-open window, and she heard his voice +again and saw his hands clenched--oh! she had been a fine fool! So it +was little wonder that she did not hear his son. + +But Robin had at last an audience and he knew no mercy. All the +agitation of the last week came pouring forth--he lost all sense of +time and place; he was at the end of the world addressing infinity on +the subject of his woes, and it says a good deal for his vanity and not +much for his sense of humour that he did not feel the lack of +proportion in such a position. + +"It was a girl, you know--perhaps you've met her--a Miss +Feverel--Dahlia Feverel. I met her at Cambridge and we got rather +thick, and then I wrote to her--rot, you know, like one does--and when +I wanted to get back the letters she wouldn't let me have them, and +she's going to use them, I'm afraid, for--well--Breach of Promise!" + +He paused and waited for the effect of the announcement, but it never +came; she was walking quickly, with her head lifted to catch the wind +that blew from the sea--he could not be certain that she had heard. + +"Breach of Promise!" he repeated impressively. "It would be rather an +awful thing for people in our position if it really came to that--it +would be beastly for me. Of course, I meant nothing by it--the +letters, I mean--a chap never does. Everybody at Cambridge talks to +girls--the girls like it--but she took it seriously, and now she may +bring it down on our heads at any time, and you can't think how beastly +it is waiting for it to come. We've done all we could--all of us--and +now I can tell you it's been worrying me like anything wondering what +she's done. My uncle and aunt both tried and failed; I was rather +disappointed, because after all one would have thought that they would +be able to deal with a thing like that, wouldn't one?" + +He paused again, but she only said "Yes" and hurried on. + +"So now I'm at my wits' end and I thought that you might help me." + +"Why not your father?" she said suddenly. + +"Ah! that's just it," he answered eagerly. "That's where I wanted you +to give me your advice. You see--well, it's a little hard to +explain--we weren't very nice to the governor when he came back +first--the first day or two, I mean. He was--well, different--didn't +look at things as we did; liked different things and had strong views +about knocking down the Cove. So we went on our way and didn't pay +much attention to him--I daresay he's told you all about it--and I'm +sorry enough now, although it really was largely his own fault! I +don't think he seemed to want us to have much to do with him, and then +one day Clare spoke to him about things and asked him to consider us a +little and he flared up. + +"Well, I've a sort of idea that he could help us now--at any rate, +there's no one else. Aunt Clare said that she would ask him, but you +know him better than any of us, and, of course, it is a little +difficult for us, after the way that we've spoken to him; you might +help us, I thought." + +He couldn't be sure, even now, that Mary had been listening--she looked +so strange this evening that he was afraid of her, and half wished that +he had kept his affairs to himself. She was silent for a moment, +because she was wondering what it was that Harry had really done about +the letters. It was amusing, because they obviously didn't know that +she had told him--but what had he done? + +"Do you want me to help you, Robin?" she asked. + +"Yes, of course," he answered eagerly. "You know him so well and could +get him to do things that he would never do for us. I'm afraid of him, +or rather have been just lately. I don't know what there is about him +exactly." + +"You want me to help you?" she asked again. "Well then, you've got to +put up with a bit of my mind--you've caught me in a bad mood, and I +don't care whether it hurts you or not--you're in for a bit of plain +speaking." + +He looked up at her with surprise, but said nothing. + +"Oh, I know I'm no very great person myself," she went on +quickly--almost fiercely. "I've only known in the last few weeks how +rotten one can really be, but at least I have known--I do know--and +that's just what you don't. We've been friends for some time, you and +I--but if you don't look out, we shan't be friends much longer." + +"Why?" he asked quietly. + +"You were never very much good," she went on, paying no attention to +his question, "and always conceited, but that was your aunt's fault as +much as any one's, and she gave you that idea of your family--that you +were God's own chosen people and that no one could come within speaking +distance of you--you had that when you were quite a little boy, and you +seem to have thought that that was enough, that you need never do +anything all your life just because you were a Trojan. Eton helped the +idea, and when you went up to Cambridge you were a snob of the first +order. I thought Cambridge would knock it out of you, but it didn't; +it encouraged you, and you were always with people who thought as you +did, and you fancied that your own little corner of the earth--your own +little potato-patch--was better than every one else's gardens; I +thought you were a pretty poor thing when you came back from Cambridge +last year, but now you've beaten my expectations by a good deal----" + +"I say----" he broke in--"really I----" but she went on unheeding-- + +"Instead of working and doing something like any decent man would, you +loafed along with your friends learning to tie your tie and choosing +your waistcoat-buttons; you go and make love to a decent girl and then +when you've tired of her tell her so, and seem surprised at her hitting +back. + +"Then at last when there is a chance of your seeing what a man is +like--that he isn't only a man who dresses decently like a tailor's +model--when your father comes back and asks you to spend a few of your +idle hours with him, you laugh at him, his manners, his habits, his +friends, his way of thinking; you insult him and cut him dead--your +father, one of the finest men in the world. Why, you aren't fit to +brush his clothes!--but that isn't the worst! Now--when you find +you're in a hole and you want some one to help you out of it and you +don't know where to turn, you suddenly think of your father. He wasn't +any good before--he was rough and stupid, almost vulgar, but now that +he can help you, you'll turn and play the dutiful son! + +"That's you as you are, Robin Trojan--you asked me for it and you've +got it; it's just as well that you should see yourself as you are for +once in your life--you'll forget it all again soon enough. I'm not +saying it's only you--it's the lot of you--idle, worthless, snobbish, +empty, useless. Help you? No! You can go to your father yourself and +think yourself lucky if he will speak to you." + +Mary stopped for lack of breath. Of course, he couldn't know that +she'd been attacking herself as much as him, that, had it not been for +that scene three days ago, she would never have spoken at all. + +"I say!" he said quietly, "is it really as bad as that? Am I that sort +of chap?" + +"Yes. You know it now at least." + +"It's not quite fair. I am only like the rest. I----" + +"Yes, but why should you be? Fancy being proud that you are like the +rest! One of a crowd!" + +They turned up the road to her house, and she began to relent when she +saw that he was not angry. + +"No," he said, nodding his head slowly, "I expect you're about right, +Mary. Things have been happening lately that have made everything +different--I've been thinking ... I see my father differently...." + +Then, "How could you?" she cried. "_You_ to cut him and turn him out? +Oh! Robin! you weren't always that sort----" + +"No," he answered. "I wasn't once. In Germany I was different--when I +got away from things--but it's harder here"--and then again +slowly--"But am I really as bad as that, Mary?" + +Sudden compunction seized her. What right had she to speak to him? +After all, he was only a boy, and she was every bit as bad herself. + +"Oh! I don't know!" she said wearily. "I'm all out of sorts to-night, +Robin. We're neither of us fit to speak to him, and you've treated him +badly, all of you--I oughtn't to have spoken as I did, perhaps; but +here we are! You'd better forget it, and another day I'll tell you +some of the nice things about you----" + +"Am I that sort of chap?" he said again, staring in front of him with +his hand on the gate. She said good-night and left him standing in the +road. He turned up the hill, with his head bent. He was scarcely +surprised and not at all angry. It only seemed the climax to so many +things that had happened lately--"a snob"--"a pretty poor thing"--"You +don't work, you learn to choose your waistcoat-buttons"--that was the +kind of chap he was. And his father: "One of the finest men there +is----" He'd missed his chance, perhaps, he would never get it again! +But he would try! + +He passed into the garden and fumbled for his latch-key. He would +speak to his father to-morrow! + +Mary was quite right ... he _was_ a "pretty poor thing!" + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +That night was never forgotten by any one at "The Flutes." Down in the +servants' hall they prolonged their departure for bed to a very late +hour, and then crept, timorously, to their rooms; they were extravagant +with the electric light, and dared Benham's anger in order to secure a +little respite from terrible darkness. Stories were recalled of Sir +Jeremy's kindness and good nature, and much speculation was indulged in +as to his successor--the cook recalled her early youth and an +engagement with a soldier that aroused such sympathy in her hearers +that she fraternised, unexpectedly, with Clare's maid--a girl who had +formerly been considered "haughty," but was now found to be agreeable +and pleasant. + +Above stairs there was the same restlessness and sense of uneasy +expectancy. Clare went to bed, but not to sleep. Her mind was not +with her father--she had been waiting for his death during many long +weeks, and now that the time had arrived she could scarcely think of it +otherwise than calmly. If one had lived like a Trojan one would die +like one--quietly, becomingly, in accordance with the best traditions. +She was sure that there would be something ready for Trojans in the +next world a little different from other folks' destiny--something +select and refined--so why worry at going to meet it? + +No, it was not Sir Jeremy, but Robin. Throughout the night she heard +the clocks striking the quarters; the first light of dawn crept timidly +through the shuttered blinds, the full blaze of the sun streamed on to +her bed--and she could not sleep. The conversation of the day before +recalled itself syllable for syllable; she read into it things that had +never been there and tortured herself with suspicion and doubt. Robin +was different--utterly different. He was different even from a week +ago when he had first told them of the affair. She could hear his +voice as he had bent over her asking her to forgive him; that had +seemed to her then the hour of her triumph--but now she saw that it was +the premonition of defeat. How she had worked for him, loved him, +spoilt him; and now, in these weeks, her lifework was utterly undone. +And then, in the terrible loneliness of her room, with the darkness on +the world and round her bed and at her heart, she wept--terrible, +tearless sobbing that left her in the morning weak, unstrung, utterly +unequal to the day. + +This conversation with Robin had also worried Garrett. The consolation +that he had frequently found in the reassuring comforts of his study +seemed utterly wanting to-night. The stillness irritated him; it +seemed stuffy, close, and he had an overmastering desire for a +companion. This desire he conquered, because he felt that it would be +scarcely dignified to search the byways of the house for a friend; but +he listened for steps, and fancied over and over again that he heard +the eagerly anticipated knock. But no one came, and he sat far into +the night, fancying strange sounds and trembling at the dark; and at +last fell asleep in his chair, and was discovered in an undignified +position on the floor in the early morning by the politely astonished +Benham. + +But it was for Harry that the night most truly marked a crisis. He +spent it in vigil by the side of his father, and watched the heavy +passing of the hours, like grey solemn figures through the darkened +room. The faint glimmer of the electric light, heavily shaded, assumed +fantastic and portentous shapes and fleecy enormous shadows on the +white surface of the staring walls. Strange blue shadows glimmered +through the black caverns of the windows, and faint lights came from +beneath the door, and hovered on the ceiling like mysteriously moving +figures. + +Sir Jeremy was perfectly still. Death had come to him very gently and +had laid its hand quietly upon him, with no violence or harshness. It +was only old age that had greeted him as a friend, and then with a +smile had persuaded him to go. He was unconscious now, but at any +moment his senses might return, and then he would ask for Harry. The +crisis might come at any time, and Harry must be there. + +He felt no weariness; his brain was extraordinarily active and he +passed every incident since his return in review. It all seemed so +clear to him now; the inevitability of it all; and his own blindness in +escaping the meaning of it. It seemed now that he had known nothing of +the world at all three weeks ago. Then he had judged it from his own +knowledge--now he saw it in many lights; the point of view of Robin, of +Dahlia Feverel, of Clare, of Sir Jeremy, of Bethel, of Mary--he had +arrived at the great knowledge that Life could be absolutely right for +many different sorts of people--that the same life, like a globe of +flashing colours, could shine into every corner of obscurity, gleaming +differently in every different place and yet be unchangeable. +Murderer, robber, violator, saint, priest, king, beggar--they were all +parts of a wonderful, inevitable world, and, he saw it now, were all of +them essential. He had been tolerant before from a wide-embracing +charity; he was tolerant now from a wide-embracing knowledge: "Er +liebte jeden Hund, und wuenschte von jedem Hund geliebt zu sein." + +They had all learnt in that last three weeks. Dahlia Feverel would +pass into the world with that struggle at her heart and the strength of +her victory--his father would solve the greatest question of +all--Robin! Mary! Clare!--they had all been learning too, but what it +was that they had learnt he could not yet tell; the conclusion of the +matter was to come. But it had all been, for him at least, only a +prelude; he was to stand for the world as head of the House, he had his +life before him and his work to do, he had only, like Robin, just "come +of age." + +He did not know why, but he had no longer any doubt. He knew that he +would win Robin, he knew that he would win Mary; up to that day he had +been uncertain, vacillating, miserable--but now he had no longer any +hesitation. The work of his life was to fit Robin for his due +succession, and, please God, he would do it with all his heart and soul +and strength; there was to be no false sentiment, no shifting of +difficult questions, no hiding from danger, no sheltering blindly under +unquestioned creeds, no false bids for popularity. + +Robin was to be clean, straight, and sane, with all the sturdy +cleanliness and strength and sanity that his father's love and +knowledge could give him. + +Oh! he loved his son!--but no longer blindly, as he had loved him three +weeks ago ... and so he faced his future. + +And of Mary, too, he was sure. He knew that she loved him; he had seen +her face in the mirror as her lips had said "No," and he saw that her +heart had said "Yes." With the new strength that had come to him he +vowed to force her defences and carry her away.... Oh! he could be any +knight and fight for any lady. + +But as he sat by the bed, watching the dawn struggle through the blinds +and listening to the faint, clear twittering of birds in the grey, +dew-swept garden--he wished that he could tell his father of his +engagement. He wondered if there would be time. That it would please +the old man he knew, and it would seal the compact, and place a secret +blessing on their married life together. Yes, he would like to tell +him. + +The clocks struck five--he heard their voices echo through the house; +and, at the last, the tiny voice of the cuckoo clock sounded and the +little wild flap of his wings came quite clearly through the silence; +his voice was answered by a chorus from the garden, the voices of the +birds seemed to grow ever louder and louder; in that strange dark room, +with its shaded lights and heavy airs, it was clear and fresh like the +falling of water on cold, shining stone. + +Harry went softly to the window and drew back a corner of the blind. +The dawn was gradually revealing the forms and colours of the garden, +and in the grey, misty light things were mysterious and uncertain; like +white lights in a dusky room the two white statues shone through the +mist. At that strange hour they seemed in their right atmosphere; they +seemed to move and turn and bend--he could have fancied that they +sailed on the mist--that, for a moment, they had vanished and then that +they had grown enormous, monstrous. He watched them eagerly, and as +the light grew clearer he made them out more plainly--the straight, +eager beauty of the man, the dim, mysterious grace of the woman. +Perhaps they talked in those early hours when they were alone in the +garden; perhaps they might speak to him if he were to join them then. +Then he fancied that the mist formed into figures of men and women; to +his excited fancy the garden seemed peopled with shapes that increased +and dwindled and vanished. Round the statues many shapes gathered; one +in especial seemed to walk to and fro with its face turned to the +house. It was a woman--her grey dress floated in the air, and he saw +her form outlined against the statue. Then the mist seemed to sweep +down again and catch the statues in its eddies and hide them from his +gaze. The dawn was breaking very slowly. From the window the sweep of +the sea was, in daylight, perfectly visible: now in the dim grey of the +sky it was hidden--but Harry knew where it must be and watched for its +appearance. The first lights were creeping over the sky, breaking in +delicate tints and ripples of silver and curving, arc-shaped, from the +west to the east. + +Where sky and sea divided a faint pale line of grey hovered and broke, +turning into other paler lights of the most delicate blue. The dawn +had come. + +He turned back again to the garden and started with surprise: in the +more certain light there was no doubt that it was a woman who stood +there by the statues, guarding the first early beauties of the garden. +Everything was pearl-grey, save where, high above the water of the +fountain that stood in the centre of the lawn, the sky had broken into +a little lake of the palest blue and this was reflected in the still +mirror of the fountain--but it _was_ a woman. He could see the outline +of her form--the bend of her neck as she turned with her face to the +house, the straight line of her arms as they tell at her sides. And, +as he looked, his heart began to beat thickly. He seemed to recognise +that carriage of the body from the hips, the fling-back of the head as +she stared towards the windows. + +The light of the dawn was breaking over the garden, the chorus of the +birds was loud in the trees, and he knew that it was no dream. + +He glanced for a moment at his father, and then crept softly from the +room. He found one of the nurses making tea over a spirit-lamp in the +dressing-room and asked her to take his place. + +The house was perfectly silent as he opened the French window of the +drawing-room and stepped on to the lawn. The grass was heavy with dew +and the fresh air beat about his face; he had never known anything +quite so fresh--the air, the grass, the trees, the birds' song like the +sound of hidden waters tumbling on to some unseen rock. + +Her face was turned away from him and his feet made no sound on the +grass. He came perfectly silently towards her, and then when he saw +that it had indeed been no imagination but that it was reality, and +when he knew all that her coming there meant and what it implied, for +moment his limbs shook so that he could scarcely stand. Then he +laughed a little and said "Mary!" + +She turned with a little cry, and when she saw who it was the crimson +flooded her face, changing it as the rising sun was soon to change the +grey of the sea and the garden. + +"Oh!" she cried, "I didn't know--I didn't mean. I----" + +"It is going to be a lovely day," he said quietly, "the sun will be up +in a moment. I have been watching you from my father's window." + +"Oh! You mustn't!" she cried eagerly. "I thought that I was +safe--absolutely; I was here quite by chance--really I was--I couldn't +sleep, and I thought that I would watch the sunrise over the sea--and I +went down to the beach--and then--well, there was the little wood by +your garden, and it was so wonderfully still and silent, and I saw +those statues gleaming through the trees, and they looked so beautiful +that I came nearer. I meant to come only for a moment and then go away +again--but--I--stayed----" + +But he could scarcely hear what she said; he only saw her standing +there with her dress trembling a little in the breeze. + +"Mary," he said, "you did not mean what you told me the other day?" + +She looked at him for a moment and then suddenly flung out her hands +and touched his coat. "No," she answered. + +For a moment they were utterly silent. Then he took her into his arms. + +"I love you! How I love you!" + +Her hair was about his face, for a moment her face was buried in his +coat, then she lifted it and their lips met. + +He shook from head to foot, he crushed her to him, then he released her. + +She glanced up at him with her hand still touching his coat and looked +into his eyes. + +"I will love you and serve you and honour you always," she said. She +took his arm and they passed down the lawn and watched the light +breaking over the sea. The sky was broken into thousands of fleecy +clouds of mother-of-pearl--the sea was trembling as though the sun had +whispered that it was near at hand, and, on the horizon, the first bars +of pale gold heralded its coming. + +"I have loved you," he said, "since the first moment that I saw you--I +gave you tea and muffins; I deserted the Miss Ponsonbys in order to +serve you." + +"And I too!" she answered, laughing. "I could not eat the muffin for +love of you, and I was jealous of the Miss Ponsonbys!" + +"Why did you turn me out the other day?" + +"They had been talking--mother and the others; and I was hurt terribly, +and I thought that you would hear what they had said and would think, +perhaps, that it was true and would despise me. And then after you had +gone, I knew that nothing in the world could make any difference--that +they could say what they pleased, but that I could not live without +you--you see I am very young!" + +"Oh, and I am so old, dear! You mustn't forget that! Do you think +that you could ever put up with any one as old as I am?" + +She laughed. "You are just the same age as myself," she cried. "You +will always be the same age, and I am not sure but I think that you are +younger----" + +And suddenly the sun had risen--a great ball of fire changing all the +blue of the sky to red and gold, and they watched as the gods had +watched the flaming ruin of Valhalla. + +But the daylight drove them to other thoughts. + +"I must go back," she said. "I will go down to the shore and perhaps +will meet father. Oh! you don't know what I have suffered during these +last few days. I thought that perhaps I had driven you away and that +you would never come back--and then I had a silly idea that I would +watch your windows--and so I came----" + +"Why! I have watched yours!" he cried--"often! Oh! we will have some +times!" + +"But you must remember that there will be three of us," she answered. +"There is Robin!" + +"Robin! Why, it will be splendid! You and Robin and I!" + +"Poor Robin----" She laughed. "You don't know how I scolded him last +night. It was about you and I was unhappy. He is changing fast, and +it is because of you. He has come round----" + +"We have all come round!" cried Harry. "He and you and I! Oh! this is +the beginning of the world for all of us--and I am forty-five! Will +you write to me later in the day? I cannot get down until to-night. +My father is very ill--I must be here. But write to me--a long +letter--it will be as though you were talking." + +She laughed. "Yes, I'll write," she cried; then she looked at him +again--"I love you," she said, as though she were reciting her faith, +"because you are good, because you are strong, because--oh! for no +reason at all--just because you are you." + +For a moment they watched the sea, and then again he took her in his +arms and held her as though he would never let her go--then she +vanished through the trees. + +The house was waking into life as he re-entered it; servants were astir +at an early hour: he had been away such a little time, but the world +was another place. Every detail of the house--the stairs, the hall, +the windows, the clocks, the pot-pourri scent from the bowls of dried +roses, the dance of the dust in the light of the rising sun, was +presented to him now with a new meaning. He was glad that she had +stayed with him such a little while--it made it more precious, her +coming with the shadows in that grey of breaking skies and a mysterious +plunging sea, and then vanishing with the rising sun. Oh! they would +come down to earth soon enough!--let him keep that kiss, those few +words, her last smile as she vanished into the wood, like the visible +signs of the other world that had, at last, been allowed to him. The +vision of the Grail had passed from his eyes, but the memory of it was +to be his most sacred possession. + +He went to his room, had a bath, and then returned to his father; of +course, he could not sleep. + +Clare, Garrett, and Robin met at breakfast with the sense of +approaching calamity heavy upon them. As far as Sir Jeremy himself was +concerned there was little real regret--how could there be? Of course, +there was the sentiment of separation, the breaking of a great many +ties that had been strong and traditional; but it was better that the +old man should go--of that there was no question. Sir Jeremy himself +would rather. No, "Le roi est mort" was easy enough to say, but how +"Vive le roi" stuck in their throats. + +Garrett hinted at a wretched night, and quoted Benham on the dangers of +an arm-chair at night-time. + +"Of course, one had been thinking," he said vaguely, after a melancholy +survey of eggs and bacon that developed into resignation over dry +toast--"there was a good deal to think about. But I certainly had +intended to go to bed--I can't imagine what----" + +Robin said nothing. His mind was busy with Mary's speech of the night +before; his world lay crumbled about him, and, like Cato, he was +finding a certain melancholy satisfaction in its ruins. His thoughts +were scarcely with his grandfather; he felt vaguely that there was +Death in the house and that its immediate presence was one of the +things that had helped to bring his self-content about his ears. But +it was of his father that he was thinking, and of a certain morning +when he had refused a walk. If he got a chance again! + +Clare looked wretched. Robin thought that she had never seemed so ill +before; there was, for the first time, an air of carelessness about +her, as though she had flung on her clothes anyhow--something utterly +unlike her. + +"I am going to speak to Harry this morning," she said. + +Garrett looked up peevishly. "Scarcely the time, Clare. I should say +that it were better for us to wait until--well, afterwards. There is, +perhaps, something a little indecent----" + +"I have considered the matter carefully," interrupted Clare decisively. +"This is the best time----" + +"Oh, well, of course. Only I should have thought that I might have had +just a little say in the matter. I was, after all, originally +consulted as well as yourself. I saw the girl, and was even, I might +venture to suggest, with her for some time. But, of course, a mere +man's opinion----" + +"Oh, don't be absurd, Garrett. It is I that have to ask him--it is +pretty obvious that I have every right to choose my own time." + +"Oh! Please, don't let me interfere--only I should scarcely have +thought that this was quite the moment when Harry would be most +inclined to listen to you." + +"If we don't ask him now," she answered, "there's no knowing when we +shall have the opportunity. When poor father is gone he will have a +great deal to settle and decide; he will have no time for anything at +all for months ahead. This morning is our last chance." + +But she had another thought. Her great desire now was that he should +try and fail; that he would fail she was sure. She was eagerly +impatient for that day when he must come to them and admit his failure. +She looked ahead and fashioned that scene for herself--that scene when +Robin should know and confess that his father was only as the rest of +them; that their failure was his failure, their incapacity his +incapacity--and then the balance would be restored and Robin would see +as he had seen before. + +"Coffee, Robin? It's quite hot still. I saw Dr. Brady just now. He +says that there is no change, nor is there likely to be one for some +hours. You're looking tired, Robin, old boy. Have you been sleeping +on the floor, too?" + +"No!" He looked up and smiled. "But I was awake a good bit. The +house is different somehow, when----" + +"Oh yes, I know. One feels it, of course. But eating's much the best +thing for keeping one's spirits up. I suppose Harry is coming down. +Just find out from Benham, will you, Wilder, whether Mr. Henry is +coming down?" + +The footman left the room, returning in a moment with the answer that +Mr. Henry was about to come down. + +Garrett moved to the door, but Clare stopped him. + +"I want you, Garrett--you can bear me out!" + +"I thought that my opinion was of so little importance," he answered +sulkily, "that I might as well go." + +But he sat down again and buried himself in his paper. + +They waited, and Robin made mental comparisons with a similar scene a +week before; there were still the silver teapot, the toast, the +ham--they were all there, and it was only he himself who had altered. +Only a week, and what a difference! What a cad he had been! a howling +cad! Not only to his father, but to Dahlia, to every one with whom he +had had to do. He did not spare himself; he had at least the pluck to +go through with it--_that_ was Trojan. + +At Harry's entrance there was an involuntary raising of eyebrows to +see, if possible, how _he_ took it; _it_ being his own immediate +succession rather than his father's death. He was grave, of course, +but there was a light in his eyes that Clare could not understand. Had +he some premonition of her request? He apologised for being late. + +"I have been up most of the night. There is no immediate danger of a +change, but we ought, I think, to be ready. Yes, the toast, Robin, +please--I hope you've slept all right, Clare?" + +How quickly he had picked up the manner, she reflected, as she watched +him! But of course that was natural enough; once a Trojan, always a +Trojan, and no amount of colonies will do away with it. But three +weeks was a short time for so vast a change. + +"No, Harry, not very well--of course, it weighs on one rather." + +She sighed and rose from the breakfast-table; she looked terribly tired +and Harry was suddenly sorry for her, and, for the first time since the +night of his return, felt that they were brother and sister; but after +the adventure of the early morning it was as though he were related to +the whole world--Love and Death had drawn close to him, and, with the +sound of the beating of their wings, the world had revealed things to +him that had, in other days, been secrets. Love and Death were such +big things that his personal relations with Clare, with Garrett, even +with Robin, had assumed their true proportion. + +"Clare, you're tired!" he said. "I should go and lie down again. You +shall be told if anything happens." + +"No, thanks, Harry. I wanted to ask you something--but, perhaps, first +I ought to apologise for some of the things that I said the other day. +I said more than I meant to. I am sorry--but one forgets at times that +one has no right to meddle in other people's affairs. But now +I--we--all of us--want to ask you a favour----" + +"Yes?" he said, looking up. + +"Well, of course, this is scarcely the time. But it is something that +can hardly wait, and you can decide about acting yourself----" + +She paused. It was the very hardest thing that she had ever had to do, +and she would never forget it to the day of her death. But it was +harder for Robin; he sat there with flaming cheeks and his head +hanging--he could not look at his father. + +"It is to do with Robin--" Clare went on; "he was rather afraid to ask +you about it himself, because, of course, it is not a business of which +he is very proud, and so he has asked me to do it for him. It is a +girl--a Miss Feverel--whom he met at Cambridge and to whom he had +written letters, letters that gave the young woman some reasons to +suppose that he was offering her marriage. He saw the matter more +wisely after a time and naturally wished Miss Feverel to restore the +letters, but this she refused to do. Both Garrett and myself have done +what we could and have, I am afraid, failed. Miss Feverel is quite +resolute--most obstinately so. We are afraid that she may take steps +that would be unpleasant to all of us--it is rather worrying us, and we +thought--it seemed--in short, I determined to ask you to help us. With +your wider experience you will probably know the best way in which to +deal with such a person." + +Clare paused. She had put it as drily as possible, but it was, +nevertheless, humiliating. + +There was a pause. + +"I am scarcely surprised," said Harry, "that Robin is ashamed of the +affair." + +"Of course he is," answered Clare eagerly, "bitterly ashamed." + +"I suppose you made love to--ah--Miss Feverel?" he said, turning +directly to Robin. + +"Yes," said Robin, lifting his head and facing his father. As their +eyes met the colour rushed to his cheeks. + +"It was a rotten thing to do," said Harry. + +"I have been very much ashamed of myself," answered Robin. "I would +make Miss Feverel any apology that is in my power, but there seems to +be little that I can do." + +Harry said no more. + +"I am really sorry," said Clare at last, "to speak about a business +like this just now--but really there is no time to lose. I am sure +that you will do something to prevent trouble in the Courts, and that +is what Miss Feverel seems to threaten." + +"What do you want me to do?" he asked. + +"To see her--to see her and try and arrange some compromise----" + +"I should have thought that Robin was the proper person----" + +"He has tried and failed; she would not listen to him." + +"Then I am afraid that she will not listen to me--a perfect stranger +with no claims on her interest." + +"It is precisely that. You will be able to put it on a business +footing, because sentiment does not enter into the question at all." + +"Do you want me to help you, Robin?" + +At the direct question Robin looked up again. His father looked very +stern and judicial. It was the schoolmaster rather than the parent, +but, after all, what else could he expect? So he said, quite +simply--"Yes, father." + +But at this moment there was an interruption. With the hurried opening +of the door there came the sounds of agitated voices and steps in the +passage--then Benham appeared. + +"Sir Jeremy is worse, Mr. Henry. The doctor thinks that, perhaps----" + +Harry hurriedly left the room. Absolute silence reigned. The sudden +arrival of the long-expected crisis was terrifying. They sat like +statues, staring in front of them, and listening eagerly to every +sound. The monotonous ticking of the clock on the mantelpiece was +terrifying--the clock on the wall by the door seemed to run a race. +The "tick-tock" grew faster and faster--at last it was as if both +clocks were screaming aloud. + +The room was filled with the clamour, and through it all they sat +motionless and silent. + +In a moment Harry had returned. "All of you," he said quickly--"he +would like to see you--I am afraid----" + +After that Robin was confused and saw nothing clearly. As he crept +tremblingly up the stairs everything assumed gigantic and menacing +shapes--the clock, the pot-pourri bowls, the window-curtains, and the +brass rods on the stairs. In the room there was that grey half-light +that seemed so terrible, and the spurt and crackle of the fire seemed +to fill the place with sounds. He scarcely saw his grandfather. In +the centre of the bed, something was lying; the eyes gleamed for a +moment in the light of the fire, the lips seemed to move. But he did +not realise that those things were his grandfather whom he had known +for so many years--in another hour he would be dead. + +But the things that he saw were the shadows of the fire on the wall, +the dancing in the air of the only lock of hair that Dr. Brady +possessed, the way that Clare's hands were folded as she stood silently +by the bed, Uncle Garrett's waistcoat-buttons that shot little sparks +of light into the room as he turned, ever so slightly, from side to +side. + +At a motion of the doctor's, he came forward to bid Sir Jeremy +farewell. As he bent over the bed panic seized him--he did not see Sir +Jeremy but something horrible, terrible, ghoulish--Death. Then he saw +the old man's eyes, and they were twinkling; then he knew that he was +speaking to him. The words came with difficulty, but they were quite +clear-- + +"You'll be a good man, Robin--but listen to your father--he +knows--he'll show you how to be a Trojan." + +For a moment he held the wrinkled, shrivelled hand in his own, and then +he stepped back. Clare bent down and kissed her father, and then +kneeled down by the bed; Robin had a mad longing to laugh as he saw his +uncle and aunt kneeling there, their heads made enormous shadows on the +wall. + +Harry also bent down and kissed his father; the old man held his hand +and kept it-- + +"I've tried to be a fair man and a gentleman--I've not been a good one. +But I've had some fun and seen life--thank God, I was born a Trojan--so +will the rest of you. Harry, my boy, you're all right--you'll do. I'm +going, but I don't regret anything--your sins are experience--and the +greatest sin of all is not having any." + +His lips closed--as the fire flashed with the falling of a cavern of +blazing coal his head rolled back on to the pillow. + +Suddenly he smiled-- + +"Dear old Harry!" he said, and then he died. + +The shadows from the fire leapt and danced on the wall, and the +kneeling figures by the bed flung grotesque shapes over the dead man. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +It was five o'clock of the same day and Harry was asleep in front of +his fire. In the early hours of the afternoon the strain under which +he had been during the past week began to assert itself, and every part +of his body seemed to cry out for sleep. + +His head was throbbing, his legs trembled, and strange lights and +figures danced before his eyes; he flung himself into a chair in his +small study at the top of the West Tower and fell asleep. + +He had grown to love that room very dearly: the great stretch of the +sea and the shining sand with the grey bending hills hemming it in; +that view was never the same, but with the passing of every cloud held +new colours like a bowl of shining glass. + +The room was bare and simple--that had been his own wish; a photograph +of his first wife hung over the mantelpiece, a small sketch of Auckland +Harbour, a rough drawing of the Terraces before their +destruction--these were all his pictures. + +He had been trying to read since his return, and copies of "The Egoist" +and some of Swinburne's poetry lay on the table; but the first had +seemed incomprehensible to him and the second indecent, and he had +abandoned them; but he _had_ made one discovery, thanks to Bethel, Walt +Whitman's "Leaves of Grass"--it seemed to him the greatest book that he +had ever read, the very voicing of all his hopes and ideals and faith. +Ah! that man knew! + +Benham came in and drew the curtains. He watched the sleeping man for +a moment and nodded his head. He was the right sort, Mr. Harry! He +would do!--and the Watcher of the House stole out again. + +Harry slept on, a great, dreamless sleep, grey and formless as sleep of +utter exhaustion always is; then he suddenly woke to the dim twilight +of the room, the orange glow of the dying fire, and the distant +striking of the hour--it was six o'clock! + +As he lay back in his chair, dreamily, lazily watching the fire, his +thoughts were of his father. He had not known that he would regret him +so intensely, but he saw now that the old man had meant everything to +him during those first weeks of his return. He thought of him very +tenderly--his prejudices, his weaknesses, his traditions. It was +strange how alike they all were in reality, the Trojans! Sir Jeremy, +Clare, Garrett, Robin, himself, the same bedrock of traditional pride +was there, it was only that circumstances had altered them +superficially. Three weeks ago Clare and he had seemed worlds apart, +now he saw how near they were! But for that very reason, they would +never get on--he saw that quite clearly. They knew too well the weak +spots in each other's armour, and their pride would be for ever at war. + +He did not want to turn her out--she had been there for all those years +and it was her home; but he thought that she herself would prefer to +go. There was a charming place in Norfolk, Wrexhall Pogis, that had +been let for years, and there was quite a pleasant little place in +town, 3 Southwick Crescent--yes, she would probably prefer to go, even +had he not meant to marry Mary. The announcement of that little affair +would be something in the nature of a thunderbolt. + +It was impossible for him to go--the head of the House must always live +at "The Flutes." But he knew already how much that House was going to +mean to him, and so he guessed how much it must mean to Clare. + +And to Robin? What would Robin do? Three weeks ago there could have +been but one answer to that question--he would have followed his aunt. +Now Harry was not so sure. There was this affair of Miss Feverel; +probably Robin would come to him about it and then they would be able +to talk. He had had that very day a letter from Dahlia Feverel. He +looked at it again now; it said:-- + + +"DEAR MR. TROJAN--Mother and I are leaving Pendragon to-morrow--for +ever, I suppose--but before I go I thought that I should like to send +you a little line to thank you for your kindness to me. That sounds +terribly formal, doesn't it? but the gratitude is really there, and +indeed I am no letter-writer. + +"You met a girl at the crisis in her life when there were two roads in +front of her and you helped her to choose the right one. I daresay +that you thought that you did very little--it cannot have seemed very +much, that short meeting that we had; but it made just the difference +to me and will, I know, be to me a white stone from which I shall date +my new life. I am not a strong woman--I never shall be a strong +woman--and it was partly because I thought that love for Robin was +going to give me that strength that it hurt so terribly when I found +that the love wasn't there. The going of my love hurt every bit as +much as the going of his--it had been something to be proud of. + +"I relied on sentiment and now I am going to rely on work; those are +the only two alternatives offered to women, and the latter is so often +denied to them. + +"I hope that it may, one day, give you pleasure to think that you once +helped a girl to do the strong thing instead of the weak one. Of +course, my love for Robin has died, and I see him clearly now without +exaggeration. What happened was largely my fault--I spoilt him, I +think, and helped his self-pride. I know that he has been passing +through a bad time lately, and I am sure that he will come to you to +help him out of it. He is a lucky fellow to have some one to help him +like that--and then he will suddenly see that he has done a rather +cruel thing. Poor Robin! he will make a fine man one day. + +"I have got a little secretaryship in London--nothing very big, but it +will give me the work that I want; and, because you once said that you +believed in me, I will try to justify your belief. There! that is +sentiment, isn't it!--and I have flung sentiment away. Well, it is the +last time! + +"Good-bye--I shall never forget. Thank you.-- + +Yours sincerely, + DAHLIA FEVEREL." + + +So perhaps, after all, Robin's mistakes had been for the good of all of +them. Mistake was, indeed, a slight word for what he had done, and, +thinking of it even now, Harry's anger rose. + +And she had been a nice girl, too, and a plucky one. + +He had answered her:-- + + +"MY DEAR MISS FEVEREL--I was extremely pleased to get your letter. It +is very good of you to speak as you have done about myself, but I +assure you that what I did was of the smallest importance. It was +because you had pluck yourself that you pulled through. You are quite +right to fling away sentiment. I came back to England three weeks ago +longing to call every man my brother. I thought that by a mere smile, +a bending of the finger, the world was my friend for life. I soon +found my mistake. Friendship is a very slow and gradual affair, and I +distrust the mushroom growth profoundly. Life isn't easy in that kind +of way; you and I have found that out together. + +"I wish you every success in your new life; I have no doubt whatever +that you will get on, and I hope that you will let me hear sometimes +from you. + +"Things have been happening quickly during the last few days. My +father died this morning; he was himself glad to go, but I shall miss +him terribly--he has been a most splendid friend to me during these +weeks. Then I know that you will be interested to hear that I am +engaged to Miss Bethel--you know her, do you not? I hope and believe +that we shall be very happy. + +"As to Robin, he has, as you say, been having a bad time. To do him +justice it has not been only the fear of the letters that has hung over +him--he has also discovered a good many things about himself that have +hurt and surprised him. + +"Well, good-bye--I am sure that you will look back on the Robin episode +with gratitude. It has done a great deal for all of us. Good luck to +you!--Always your friend, + +HENRY TROJAN." + + +He turned on the lights in his room and tried to read, but he found +that that was impossible. His eyes wandered off the page and he +listened: he caught himself again and again straining his ears for a +sound. He pictured the coming of steps up the stairs and then sharp +and loud along the passage--then a pause and a knock on his door. +Often he fancied that he heard it, but it was only fancy and he turned +away disappointed; but he was sure that Robin would come. + +They had decided not to dine downstairs together on that evening--they +were, all of them, overwrought and the situation was strained; they +were wondering what he was going to do. There were, of course, a +thousand things to be done, but he was glad that they had left him +alone for that night at any rate. He wanted to be quiet. + +He had written a letter of enormous length to Mary, explaining to her +what had happened and telling her that he would come to her in the +morning. It was very hard, even then, not to rush down to her, but he +felt that he must keep that day at least sacred to his father. + +Would Robin come? It was quarter to seven and that terrible sleep was +beginning to overcome him again. The fire, the walls, the pictures, +danced before his eyes ... the stories of the fishermen in the Cove +came back to him ... the Four Stones and the man who had lost his way +... the red tiles and the black rafters of "The Bended Thumb" ... and +then Mary's beauty above it all. Mary on the moors with the wind +blowing through her hair; Mary in the house with the firelight on her +face, Mary ... and then he suddenly started up, wide awake, for he +heard steps on the stair. + +He knew them at once--he never doubted that they were Robin's. The +last two steps were taken slowly and with hesitation. + +Then he hurried down the passage as though he had suddenly made up his +mind; then, again, there was a long pause before the door. At last +came the knock, timidly, and then another loudly and almost violently. + +Harry shouted "Come in," and Robin entered, his face pale and his hands +twisting and untwisting. + +"Ah, Robin--do you want anything? Come in--sit down. I've been +asleep." + +"Oh, I'm sorry, did I wake you up? No, thanks, I won't sit down. I've +got some things I want to say. I'd rather say them standing up." + +There was a long pause. Harry said nothing and stared into the fire. + +"I've got a good lot to say altogether." Robin cleared his throat. +"It's rather hard. Perhaps this doesn't seem quite the time--after +grandfather--and--everything--but I couldn't wait very well. I've been +a bit uncomfortable." + +"Out with it," said Harry. "This time will do excellently--there's a +pause just now, but to-morrow everything will begin again and there's a +terrible lot to do. What is it?" + +Was it, he wondered, Robin's fault or his own that there was that +barrier so strangely defined between them even now? He could feel it +there in the room with them now. He wondered whether Robin felt it as +well. + +"It is about what my aunt said to you this morning--and other +things--other things right from the beginning, ever since you came +back. I'm not much of a chap at talking, and probably I shan't say +what I mean, but I will try. I've been thinking about it all lately, +but what made me come and speak to you was this morning--having to ask +you a favour after being so rude to you. A chap doesn't like doing +that, and it made me think--besides there being other things." + +"Oh, there's no need to thank me about this morning," Harry said drily; +"I shall be very pleased to do what I can." + +"Oh, it isn't that," Robin said quickly. "It isn't about that somehow +that I mind at all now; I have been worrying about it a good bit, but +that isn't what I want to speak about. I'll go through with it--Breach +of Promise--or whatever it is--if only you wouldn't think me--well, +quite an utter rotter." + +"I wish," said Harry quietly, "that you would sit down. I'm sure that +you would find it easier to talk." + +Robin looked at him for a moment and then at the chair--then he sat +down. + +"You see, somehow grandfather's dying has made things seem different to +one--it has made one younger somehow. I used to think that I was +really very old and knew a lot; but his death has shown me that I know +nothing at all--really nothing. But there have been a lot of things +all happening together--your coming back, that business with +Dahlia--Miss Feverel, you know--a dressing down that I got from Miss +Bethel the other evening, and then grandfather's dying----" + +He paused again and cleared his throat. He looked straight into the +fire, and, every now and again, he gave a little choke and a gasp which +showed that he was moved. + +"A chap doesn't like talking about himself," he went on at last; "no +decent chap does; but unless I tell you everything from the beginning +it will never be clear--I must tell you everything----" + +"Please--I want to hear." + +"Well, you see, before you came back, I suppose that I had really lots +of side. I never used to think that I had, but I see now that what +Mary said the other night was perfectly right--it wasn't only that I +'sided' about myself, but about my set and my people and everything. +And then you came back. You see we didn't any of us very much think +that we wanted you. To begin with, you weren't exactly like my +governor; not having seen you all my life I hadn't thought much about +you at all, and your letters were so unlike anything that I knew that I +hadn't believed them exactly. We were very happy as we were. I +thought that I had everything I wanted. And then you didn't do things +as we did; you didn't like the same books and pictures or anything, and +I was angry because I thought that I must know about those things and I +couldn't understand you. And then you know you made things worse by +trying to force my liking out of me, and chaps of my sort are awfully +afraid of showing their feelings to any one, least of all to a man----" +Robin paused. + +"Yes," said Harry, "I know." + +"But all this isn't an excuse really; I was a most awful cad, and +there's no getting away from it. But I think I began to see almost +from the very beginning that I hadn't any right to behave like that, +but I was obstinate. + +"And then I began to get in a fright about Miss Feverel. She wouldn't +give my letters back, although I went to her and Uncle Garrett and Aunt +Clare--all of us--but it was no good--she meant to keep them and of +course we knew why. And then, too, I saw at last that I'd behaved like +an utter cad--it was funny I didn't see it at the time. But I'd seen +other chaps do the same sort of thing and the girls didn't mind, and +I'd thought that she ought to be jolly pleased at getting to know a +Trojan--and all that sort of thing. + +"But when I saw that she wasn't going to give the letters back but +meant to use them I was terribly frightened. It wasn't myself so much, +although I hated the idea of my friends knowing about it all and +laughing at me--but it was the House too--my letting it down so. + +"I'd been thinking about you a good bit already. You see you changed +after Aunt Clare spoke to you that morning and I began to be rather +afraid of you--and when a chap begins to be afraid of some one he +begins to like him. I got Aunt Clare and Uncle Garrett to go and speak +to Dahlia, and they couldn't get anything out of her at all; so, then, +I began to wonder whether you could do anything, and as soon as I began +to wonder that I began to want to talk to you. But I never got much +chance; you were always in grandfather's room, and you didn't give me +much encouragement, did you? and then--I began to be awfully miserable. +I don't want to whine--I deserved it all right enough--but I didn't +seem to have a friend anywhere and all my things that I'd believed in +seemed to be worth nothing at all. Then I wanted to talk to you +awfully, and when grandfather was worse and was dying I began to see +things straight--and then I saw Mary and she told me right out what I +was, and I saw it all as clear as daylight. + +"And so; well, I've come--not to ask you to help me about Dahlia--but +whether you'll help me to play the game better. I wasn't always slack +and rotten like I am now. When I was in Germany I thought I was going +to do all sorts of things ... but anyhow I can't say exactly all that I +mean. Only I'm awfully lonely and terribly ashamed; and I want you to +forgive me for being so beastly to you----" + +He looked wretched enough as he sat there facing the fire with his lip +quivering. He made a strong effort to control himself, but in a moment +he had broken down altogether and hid his head in the arm of the chair, +sobbing as if his heart would break. + +Harry waited. The moment for which he had longed so passionately had +come at last; all those weary weeks had now received their reward. But +he was very tired and he could not remember anything except that his +boy was there and that he was crying and wanted some one to help +him--which was very sentimental. + +He got up from his chair and put his hand on Robin's shoulder. + +"Robin, old boy--don't; it's all right really. I've been waiting for +you to come and speak to me; of course, I knew that you would come. +Never mind about those other things--we're going to have a splendid +time, you and I." + +He put his arm round him. There was a moment's silence, then the boy +turned round and gripped his father's coat--then he buried his head in +his father's knees. + + +Benham entered half an hour later with Harry's evening meal. + +"I will have mine here, too, Benham," said Robin, "with my father." + +"There is one thing, Robin," said Harry a little later, laughing--"what +about the letters?" + +"Oh, I know!" Robin looked up at his father appealingly. "I don't +know what you must think of me over that business. But I suppose I +believed for a time in it all, and then when I saw that it wouldn't do +I just wanted to get out of it as quickly as I could. I never seem to +have thought about it at all--and now I'm more ashamed than I can say. +But I think I'll go through with it; I don't see that there's anything +else very much for me to do, any other way of making up--I think I'd +rather face it." + +"Would you?" said Harry. "What about your friends and the House?" + +Robin flinched for a moment; then he said resolutely, "Yes, it would be +better for them too. You see they know already--the House, I mean. +All the chaps in the dining-hall and the picture-gallery, they've known +about it all day, and I know that they'd rather I didn't back out of +it. Besides--" he hesitated a moment. "There's another thing--I have +the kind of feeling that I can't have hurt Dahlia so very much if she's +the kind of girl to carry that sort of thing through; if, I mean, she +takes it like that she isn't the sort of girl that would mind very much +what I had done----" + +"Is she," said Harry, "that sort of girl?" + +"No, I don't think she is. That's what's puzzled me about it all. She +was worth twenty of me really. But any decent sort of girl would have +given them back----" + +"She has----" + +"What?" + +"Given them back." + +"The letters?" + +Harry went to his writing-table and produced the bundle. They lay in +his hand with the blue ribbon and the neat handwriting, "For Robert +Trojan," outside. + +Robin stared. "Not _the_ letters?" + +"Yes--the letters; I have had them some days." + +But still he did not move. "_You've_ had them?--several days?" + +"Yes. I went to see Miss Feverel on my own account and she gave me +them----" + +"You had them when we asked you to help us!" + +"Yes--of course. It was a little secret of my own and Miss +Feverel's--our--if you like--revenge." + +"And we've been laughing at you, scorning you; and we tried--all of +us--and could do nothing! I say, you're the cleverest man in England! +Score! Why I should think you have!" and then he added, "But I'm +ashamed--terribly. You have known all these days and said nothing--and +I! I wonder what you've thought of me----" + +He took the letters into his hand and undid the ribbon slowly. "I'm +jolly glad you've known--it's as if you'd been looking after the family +all this time, while we were plunging around in the dark. What a +score! That we should have failed and you so absolutely succeeded--" +Then again, "But I'm jolly ashamed--I'll tell you everything--always. +We'll work together----" + +He looked them through and then flung them into the fire. + +"I've grown up," he suddenly cried; "come of age at last--at last I +know." + +"Not too fast," said Harry, smiling; "it's only a stage. There's +plenty to learn--and we'll learn it together." Then, after a pause, +"There's another thing, though, that will astonish you a bit--I'm +engaged----" + +"Engaged!" Robin stared. Quickly before his eyes passed visions of +terrible Colonial women--some entanglement that his father had +contracted abroad and had been afraid to announce before. Well, +whatever it might be, he would stand by him! It was they two against +the world whatever happened!--and Robin felt already the anticipatory +glow of self-sacrificing heroism. + +Harry smiled. "Yes--Mary Bethel!" + +"Mary! Hurrah!" + +He rushed at his father and seized his hand--"You and Mary! Why, it's +simply splendid! The very thing--I'd rather it were she than any +one!--she told me what she thought of me the other night, I can tell +you--fairly went for me. By Jove! I'm glad--we'll have some times, +three of us here together. When was it?" + +"Oh! only this morning! I had asked her before, but it was only +settled this morning." + +Then Robin was suddenly grave. "Oh! but, I say, there's Aunt +Clare--and Uncle Garrett!" He had utterly forgotten them. What would +they say? The Bethels of all people! + +"Yes. I've thought about it. I'm very sorry, but I'm afraid Aunt +Clare won't want to stay. I don't see what's to be done. I haven't +told her yet----" + +Robin saw at once that he must choose his future; it was to be his aunt +or his father. His aunt with all those twenty years of faithful +service behind her, his aunt who had done everything for him--or his +father whom he had known for three weeks. But he had no hesitation; +there was now no question it was his father for ever against the world! + +"I'm sorry," he said slowly. "Perhaps there will be some arrangement. +Poor Aunt Clare! Did you--tell grandfather?" + +"No. I wanted to, but I had no opportunity. But he knows--I am sure +that he knows." + +Their thoughts passed to the old man. It was almost as if he had been +there in the room with them, and they felt, curiously, as though he had +at that moment handed over the keys of the House. For an instant they +saw him; his eyes like diamonds, his wrinkled cheeks, his crooked +fingers--and then his laugh. "Harry, my boy, you'll do." + +"It's almost as if he was here," said Robin. He turned round and put +his hand in his father's. + +"I know he's pleased," he said. + +And so it was during the next week, through the funeral, and the +gathering of relatives and the gradual dispersing of them again, and +the final inevitable seclusion when the world and the relations and the +dead had all joined in leaving the family alone. The gathering of +Trojans had shown, beyond a doubt, that Harry was quite fitted to take +his place at the head of the family. He had acted throughout with +perfect tact and everything had gone without a hitch. Many a Trojan +had arrived for the funeral--mournful, red-eyed Trojans, with black +crape and an air of deferential resignation that hinted, also, at +curiosity as regards the successor. They watched Harry, ready for +anything that might gratify their longing for sensational failure; a +man from the backwoods was certain to fail, and their chagrined +disappointment was only solaced by their certainty of some little +sensation in the announcement of his surprising success. + +Of course, Clare had been useful; it was on such an occasion that she +appeared at her best. She was kind to them all, but at the same time +impressed the dignity of her position upon them, so that they went away +declaring that Clare Trojan knew how to carry herself and was young for +her years. + +The funeral was an occasion of great ceremony, and the town attended in +crowds. Harry realised in their altered demeanour to himself their +appreciation of the value of his succession, and he knew that Sir Henry +Trojan was something very different from the plain Harry. But he had, +from the beginning, taken matters very quietly. Now that he was +assured of the affection of the only two people who were of importance +to him he could afford to treat with easy acquiescence anything else +that Fate might have in store for him. His diffidence, had, to some +extent, left him, and he took everything that came with an ease that +had been entirely foreign to him three weeks before. + +Clare might indeed wonder at the change in him, for she had not the key +that unlocked the mystery. The week seemed to draw father and son very +closely together. Years seemed to have made little difference in their +outlook on things, and in some ways Robin was the elder of the two. +They said nothing about Mary--that was to wait until after the funeral; +but the consciousness of their secret added to the bond between them. + +Clare herself regarded the future complacently. She was, she felt, +absolutely essential to the right ruling of the House, and she +intended, gradually but surely, to restore her command above and below +stairs. The only possible lion in her path was Harry's marrying, but +of that there seemed no fear at all. + +She admired him a little for his conduct during their father's funeral; +he was not such an oaf as she had thought--but she would bide her time. + +At last, however, the thunderbolt fell. It was a week after the +funeral, and they had reached dessert. Clare sometimes stayed with +them while they smoked, and, as a rule, conversation was not very +general. To-night, however, she rose to go. Her black suited her; her +dark hair, her dark eyes, the dark trailing clouds of her dress--it was +magnificently sombre against the firelight and the shine of the +electric lamps on the silver. But Harry's "Wait a moment, Clare, I +want to talk," called her back, and she stood by the door looking over +her shoulder at him. + +Then when she saw from his glance that it was a matter of importance, +she came back slowly again towards him. + +"Another family council?" said Garrett rather impatiently. "We have +had a generous supply lately." + +"I'm afraid this is imperative," said Harry. "I am sorry to bother +you, Clare, but this seems to me the best time." + +"Oh, any time suits me," she said indifferently, sitting down +reluctantly. "But if it's household affairs, I should think that we +need hardly keep Garrett and Robin." + +"It is something that concerns us all four," said Harry. "I am going +to be married!" + +It had been from the beginning of things a Trojan dictum that the +revealing of emotion was the worst of gaucheries--Clare, Garrett, and +Robin himself had been schooled in this matter from their respective +cradles; and now the lesson must be put into practice. + +For Robin, of course, it was no revelation at all, but he dared not +look at his aunt; he understood a little what it must mean to her. To +those that watched her, however, nothing was revealed. She stood by +the fire, her hands at her side, her head slightly turned towards her +brother. + +"Might I ask," she said quietly, "the name of the fortunate lady?" + +"Miss Bethel!" + +"Miss Bethel!" Garrett sprang to his feet. "Harry, you must be +joking! You can't mean it! Not the daughter of Bethel at the +Point--the madman!--the----" + +"Please, Garrett," said Harry, "remember that she has promised to be my +wife. I am sorry, Clare----" + +He turned round to his sister. + +But she had said nothing. She pulled a chair from the table and sat +down, quietly, without obvious emotion. + +"It is a little unexpected," she said. "But really if we had +considered things it was obvious enough. It is all of a piece. Robin +tried for Breach of Promise, the Bethels in the house before father has +been buried for three days--the policy and traditions of the last three +hundred years upset in three weeks." + +"Of course," said Harry, "I could scarcely expect you to welcome the +change. You do not know Miss Bethel. I am afraid you are a little +prejudiced against her. And, indeed, please--please, believe me that +it has been my very last wish to go counter in any way to your own +plans. But it has seemed almost unavoidable; we have found that one +thing after another has arisen about which we could not agree. Is it +too late now to reconsider the position? Couldn't we pull together +from this moment?" + +But she interrupted him. "Come, Harry," she said, "whatever we are, +let us avoid hypocrisy. You have beaten me at every point and I must +retire. I have seen in three weeks everything that I had cared for and +loved destroyed. You come back a stranger, and without knowing or +caring for the proper dignity of the House, you have done what you +pleased. Finally, you are bringing a woman into the House whose +parents are beggars, whose social position makes her unworthy of such a +marriage. You cannot expect me to love you for it. From this moment +we cease to exist for each other. I hope that I may never see you +again or hear from you. I shall not indulge in heroics or melodrama, +but I will never forgive you. I suppose that the house at Norfolk is +at my disposal?" + +"Certainly," he answered. Then he turned to his brother. "I hope, +Garrett," he said, "that you do not feel as strongly about the matter +as Clare. I should be very glad if you found it possible to remain." + +That gentleman was in a difficult position; he changed colour and tried +to avoid his sister's eyes. After a rapid survey of the position, he +had come to the conclusion that he would not be nearly as comfortable +in Norfolk--he could not write his book as easily, and the house had +scarcely the same position of importance. He had grown fond of the +place. Harry, after all, was not a bad chap--he seemed very anxious to +be pleasant; and even Mary Bethel mightn't turn out so badly. + +"You see, Clare," he said slowly, "there is the book--and--well, on the +whole, I think it would be almost better if I remained; it is not, of +course, that----" + +Clare's lip curled scornfully. + +"I understand, Garrett, you could scarcely be expected to leave such +comforts for so slight a reason. And you, Robin?" + +She held the chair with her hand as she spoke. The fury at her heart +was such that she could scarcely breathe; she was quite calm, but she +had a mad desire to seize Harry as he sat there at the table and +strangle him with her hands. And Garrett!--the contemptible coward! +But if only Robin would come with her, then the rest mattered little. +After all, it had only been a fortnight ago when he had stood at her +side and rejected his father. The scene now was parallel--her voice +grew soft and trembled a little as she spoke to him. + +"Robin, dear, what will you do? Will you come with me?" + +For a moment father and son looked at each other, then Robin answered-- + +"I shall be very glad to come and stay sometimes, Aunt +Clare--often--whenever you care to have me. But I think that I must +stay here. I have been talking to father and I am going up to London +to try, I think, for the Diplomatic. We thought----" + +But the "we" was too much for her. + +"I congratulate you," she said, turning to Harry. "You have done a +great deal in three weeks. It looks," she said, looking round the +room, "almost like a conspiracy. I----" Then she suddenly broke down. +She bent down over Robin and caught his head between her hands-- + +"Robin--Robin dear--you must come, you must, dear. I brought you up--I +have loved you--always--always. You can't leave me now, old boy, after +all that I have done--all, everything. Why, he has done +nothing--he----" + +She kissed him again and again, and caught his hands: "Robin, I love +you--you--only in all the world; you are all that I have got----" + +But he put her hands gently aside. "Please--please--Aunt Clare, I am +dreadfully sorry----" + +And then her pride returned to her. She walked to the door with her +head high. + +"I will go to the Darcy's in London until that other house is ready. I +will go to-morrow----" + +She opened the door, but Harry sprang up-- + +"Please, Clare--don't go like that. Think over it--perhaps +to-morrow----" + +"Oh, let me go," she answered wearily; "I'm tired." + +She walked up the stairs to her room. She could scarcely see--Robin +had denied her! + +She shut the door of her bedroom behind her and fell at the foot of her +bed, her face buried in her hands. Then at last she burst into a storm +of tears-- + +"Robin! Robin!" she cried. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +It was Christmas Eve and the Cove lay buried in snow. The sea was grey +like steel, and made no sound as it ebbed and flowed up the little +creek. The sky was grey and snowflakes fell lazily, idly, as though +half afraid to let themselves go; a tiny orange moon glittered over the +chimneys of "The Bended Thumb." + +Harry came out of the Inn and stood for a moment to turn up the collar +of his coat. The perfect stillness of the scene pleased him; the world +was like the breathless moment before some great event: the opening of +Pandora's box, the leaping of armed men from the belly of the wooden +horse, the flashing of Excalibur over the mere, the birth of some +little child. + +He sighed as he passed down the street. He had read in his morning +paper that the Cove was doomed. The word had gone forth, the Town +Council had decided; the Cove was to be pulled down and a street of +lodging-houses was to take its place. Pendragon would be no longer a +place of contrasts; it would be all of a piece, a completely popular +watering-place. + +The vision of its passing hurt him--so much must go with it; and +gradually he saw the beauty and the superstition and the wonder being +driven from the world--the Old World--and a hard Iron and Steel +Materialism relentlessly taking its place. + +But he himself had changed; the place had had its influence on him, and +he was beginning to see the beauty of these improvements, these +manufactures, these hard straight lines and gaunt ugly squares. +Progress? Progress? Inevitable?--yes! Useful?--why, yes, too! But +beautiful?--Well, perhaps ... he did not know. + +At the top of the hill he turned and saluted the cold grey sky and sea +and moor. The Four Stones were in harmony to-day: white, and +pearl-grey, with hints of purple in their shadows--oh beautiful and +mysterious world! + +He went into the Bethels' to call for Mary. Bethel appeared for a +moment at the door of his study and shouted-- + +"Hullo! Harry, my boy! Frightfully busy cataloguing! Going out for a +run in a minute!"--the door closed. + +His daughter's engagement seemed to have made little difference to him. +He was pleased, of course, but Harry wondered sometimes whether he +realised it at all. + +Not so Mrs. Bethel. Arrayed in gorgeous colours, she was blissfully +happy. She was at the head of the stairs now. + +"Just a minute, Harry--Mary's nearly ready. Oh! my dear, you haven't +been out in that thin waistcoat ... but you'll catch your death--just a +minute, my dear, and let me get something warmer? Oh do! Now you're +an obstinate, bad man! Yes, a bad, bad man"--but at this moment +arrived Mary, and they said good-bye and were away. + +During the few weeks that they had been together there had been no +cloud. Pendragon had talked, but they had not listened to it; they had +been perfectly, ideally happy. They seemed to have known each other +completely so long ago--not only their virtues but their faults and +failures. + +With her arm in his they passed through the gate and found Robin +waiting for them. + +"Hullo! you two! I've just heard from Macfadden. He suggests Catis in +Dover Street for six months and then abroad. He thinks I ought to pass +easily enough in a year's time--and then it will mean Germany!" + +His face was lighted with excitement. + +"Right you are!" cried Harry. "Anything that Macfadden suggests is +sure to be pretty right. What do you say, Mary?" + +"Oh, I don't know anything about men's businesses," she said, laughing. +"Only don't be too long away, Robin." + +They passed down the garden, the three of them, together. + + +In Norfolk a woman sat at her window and watched the snow tumbling +softly against the panes. The garden was a white sea--the hills loomed +whitely beyond--the sky was grey with small white clouds, hanging like +pillows heavily in mid-air. + +The snow whirled and tossed and danced. + +Clare turned slowly from the windows and drew down the blinds. + + + + +THE END + + + + +_Printed by_ R. & R. Clark, Limited, _Edinburgh_ + + + + +BOOKS BY HUGH WALPOLE + + +_NOVELS_ + + THE WOODEN HORSE + MR. PERRIN AND MR. 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