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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/22819-8.txt b/22819-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..aa95a7e --- /dev/null +++ b/22819-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,6870 @@ +The Project Gutenberg eBook, Elsie Marley, Honey, by Joslyn Gray + + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: Elsie Marley, Honey + + +Author: Joslyn Gray + + + +Release Date: September 30, 2007 [eBook #22819] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY*** + + +E-text prepared by Al Haines + + + +Note: Project Gutenberg also has an HTML version of this + file which includes the original illustrations. + See 22819-h.htm or 22819-h.zip: + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/8/1/22819/22819-h/22819-h.htm) + or + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/8/1/22819/22819-h.zip) + + + + + +ELSIE MARLEY + +by + +JOSLYN GRAY + +Author of "Kathleen's Probation" + +Illustrated + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: Elsie . . . repeated the performance in a manner that +was only the more captivating.] + + + +New York +Charles Scribner's Sons + +Copyright, 1918, by +Charles Scribner's Sons + + + + +TO + +MARY BULLIONS GRAY ANDERSON + + + + +ILLUSTRATIONS + + +Elsie . . . repeated the performance in a manner that was only the more +captivating . . . . . . _Frontispiece_ + +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, +as you call it" + +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will +have none of them," he remarked + +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now" + + + + +ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY + + +CHAPTER I + +Mrs. Bennet, her travelling companion from San Francisco, having proved +to be talkative and uninteresting, Elsie Marley was more than content +to find herself alone after the change had been made and her train +pulled out of Chicago. It was characteristic of the girl that she did +not even look out of the window to see the last of Mrs. Bennet, who, +having waited on the platform until the train started and waved her +handkerchief in vain, betook herself indignantly to her carriage. +Quite unaware of any remissness on her part, Elsie settled herself +comfortably--Mrs. Bennet had disposed of her luggage--folded her hands +in her lap, and gazed idly out the window opposite. + +A pale, colorless girl, the simplicity of her dress was in almost too +great contrast with its elegance--a contrived simplicity that left no +room for any trace of careless youth or girlishness. Slender and +rather delicate-looking, she had brown eyes, regular features, and +soft, light-brown hair waving loosely about her face and hanging in two +long, demure curls from a shell clasp at her neck. But her eyes were +of rather a shallow brown, her brows and lashes still lighter; her +features were almost too regular, and her skin, though soft and clear, +was quite colorless. Even so, she might have been pretty, perhaps +lovely, had she possessed any animation. But the girl's face and even +her eyes were as nearly expressionless as human features may be. She +was like a superior sort of doll with white cheeks in lieu of red. + +After a little she opened a small leather satchel, took out a letter, +and perused it attentively. It was the last she had received from her +guardian and only living relative, Cousin Julia Pritchard, and, as she +was to see her soon, it behooved her to prepare herself so far as she +might for that occasion. For Elsie Marley realized, though dimly, that +she was to encounter a personality unlike any with which she had come +in contact in all her sheltered, luxurious life. + +"My dear Elsie," the letter ran, "I find myself very much pleased at +the thought of having you with me. The heart of a woman of fifty +cannot but rejoice in anticipation of the company of a young girl with +the ideals, the vigor, and buoyancy of sixteen. And since we are both +alone in the world, you representing all my kith and kin as I believe +myself to represent all yours, it is only fitting that we should be +together instead of being separated by the breadth of our great +American continent. + +"You will, I am sure, like this great, busy, restless, humming city, +though the only home I have to offer you, I am truly sorry to say, is +in a boarding-house, comfortable though it is. Remembering Aunt +Ellen's beautiful home in California, which I visited fifteen years +ago, I fear the change may be difficult, though, for a young person, +not too painfully so, I trust. A boarding-house is the only home I +have myself known for thirty years, and this particular one is +excellent and full of interesting people, though the youngest among +them are middle-aged. + +"I am, I repeat, happy to say that I can give you a home here and +clothe you suitably. That will release your income, which can be put +to any use which we may decide upon after consultation together. Your +lawyer tells me that you are through school, and neither you nor he +speak of any desire on your part to go to college. I suppose, however, +like most young girls, you will wish to take up some study or +occupation to fit yourself to become self-supporting or to be useful to +the world in some definite manner. I heartily sympathize with such an +aim, having worked since my eighteenth year myself, and shall be +cordially interested in helping you either to plan or to carry out a +future for yourself." + +Here Elsie broke off. Cousin Julia was certainly absurd! She had +always been regarded, indeed, by the California Pritchards as a +singular, eccentric person, rather wanting in refinement and careless +of social amenities--one from whom they were quite content to be +separated by the "breadth of our great American continent." She had +taken after her mother, who came from Nebraska--or some such place--and +the family had considered it a pity that she should have been and +remained Pritchard by name, particularly since Elsie herself, Pritchard +of Pritchards, had to go by the name Marley. + +Still the girl's smooth brow did not contract. In any event, she said +to herself, after Cousin Julia had seen her, it wasn't likely that she +would suggest that she go out and earn her living. And as for her +future, which the letter mentioned--why, her future was of course far +ahead. Elsie had rather taken it for granted that she should marry +when the proper time came, as girls did in books, as her grandmother +and mother had done, and as Aunt Ellen would have done had she not been +so frail. Once it had even occurred to her that it would be rather +appropriate if she should marry some one named Pritchard, though she +realized that to be only a remote possibility. In any event, she +didn't know why going to New York should necessarily make any essential +difference in her future, and she was thankful that she hadn't to +consider it for some years yet. Meantime, the boarding-house +confronted her. + +Very likely, however, she could endure even that. She knew it would be +comfortable, so far as that went, and she needn't mingle with the other +people. She could have a piano and continue her lessons, and she might +study vocal music. She could buy books and attend concerts and perhaps +even the theatre and opera. She could go alone in a carriage to +matinée performances, and quite likely there would be some reduced +gentlewoman living at the boarding-house who might be glad of the +chance to accompany her as chaperon in the evenings. + +For Elsie took it for granted that Cousin Julia wouldn't care for the +sort of things she was accustomed to any more than she herself would be +interested to go about with her. Somehow the girl felt that Miss +Pritchard would be devoted to vaudeville and even moving pictures--she +might even refer to the latter as "movies"! Of course, that was the +worst of the whole situation--Cousin Julia herself! For, no matter how +singular or even coarse she might be, Elsie had to live with her and to +put up with a certain amount of her society. + +That would be very difficult; still, even now, the girl seemed to see +wide spaces between. Except for Sundays and evenings when neither of +them went out, she wouldn't have to see a great deal of the older +woman. She might have to dine with her every night, but, as she worked +in a business office, she probably wouldn't be home to lunch, and of +course Elsie would have her breakfast in her room. Sunday might be +long and boring, but, whatever Cousin Julia's ideas might be, Elsie +would always insist upon going to service, and that would occupy a part +of the day. + +An hour had passed since Mrs. Bennet had left Elsie Marley. As she +returned the letter to the satchel she became aware that the train was +at a standstill and not before a station. Indeed, there was not a +building in sight: only a dreary waste of sunburnt prairie-grass +extended flatly to the glare of the burning horizon. She looked about +wonderingly, vaguely aware that they must already have waited some time. + +Her gaze included the rear of the car and emboldened a young girl who +had been watching her longingly a great part of the way from San +Francisco, to act upon her desire. Immediately she donned a coquettish +little red hat and linen top-coat, and made her way to the other girl's +seat. + +"Don't you want to come out and walk a little?" she asked in a +singularly sweet, eager voice. "There's a hot-box, or some such thing, +and they say it'll be an hour more before we get away. It might seem +good to stretch our legs on the prairie yonder?" + +Elsie Marley didn't care at all to go. Indeed, she didn't wish to make +the acquaintance of this conspicuous-looking girl with her dark hair +cut square about her ears who had travelled alone all the way from San +Francisco and seemed to know every one in the car. If she should give +her any encouragement, no doubt she would hang about her all the rest +of the way. She excused herself coldly. + +"Oh, please do, please come for just a wee turn," urged the other, +smiling and displaying a pair of marvellous dimples. And Elsie Marley +surprised herself by yielding. Possibly she was too indolent to hold +out; perhaps she felt something in the stranger that wouldn't take no +for an answer, and didn't care to struggle against it. Again, she may +have felt, dimly and against her will, something of the real charm of +the other. However that was, she yielded listlessly, put on her neat +sailor hat reluctantly, drew on the jacket of her severe and elegant +dark-blue suit, and followed the stranger slowly from the car. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +The stranger, who was dressed in a rather graceful and perhaps rather +flamboyant adaptation of the prevailing fashion, was picturesque and +radiant to the extreme: slender, dark, vivid, with big, dark eyes in a +small pointed face, dark hair "bobbed" and curling sufficiently to turn +under about her ears and neck, a rather large mouth flanked by really +extraordinary dimples, and an expression at once gay and saucy and +sweet and appealing withal. Her voice was very sweet, her unusually +finished pronunciation and enunciation giving a curious effect to her +slangy speech. She wore her clothes jauntily, carried herself with +charming grace, and her great dimples made her frank smile irresistible. + +"Do you know, I've been simply crazy all the way to come and speak to +you," she confessed as soon as they were outside. "I spotted you the +very first thing, but I was rather phased by that woman with you. +Wasn't she the--goodness gracious! I hope she wasn't any +relation--your aunt or mother?" + +"Oh, no indeed, scarcely an acquaintance," returned the other, +surprised that any one should even conjecture that Mrs. Bennet might be +connected with her. Then it occurred to her that Cousin Julia might be +even worse! + +"I never met her until a week ago," she went on languidly. "She +happened to be a friend of my lawyer's wife, and he wished me to come +as far as I could in her company. I suppose I oughtn't to travel the +rest of the way alone, but he didn't make any other arrangement." + +"Oh, it isn't bad. I've come all the way alone and everything's been +jolly. I've made awfully good friends, though they're all either +elderly or children. So your being about my age only made me want to +know you the more. Well, now that we're acquainted, we'll have to make +the most of what's left of the way. I am Elsie Moss and I was sixteen +Christmas day. Aren't you about that age?" + +"I am sixteen, Miss Moss," returned Elsie Marley formally. + +"But don't call me _Miss_," pleaded the other. "_Everybody_ calls me +Elsie." + +Elsie Marley did not reply. She disliked the idea that the +unchaperoned stranger should be Elsie, also, and should even have the +same initials. Her imagination was limited; still it occurred to her +that the situation would have been much worse had the girl happened to +bear the surname Pritchard. + +She stifled a sigh. They seemed to be getting acquainted perforce. +Now that she was out, however, she didn't care to go back at once, even +though the sun beat down upon them fiercely, and the dry grass was full +of dust and cinders. She glanced about irresolutely. + +"Now if this were a scene in a play," remarked Elsie Moss reflectively, +"the engine would have broken down near a grove with immemorial trees, +or there'd be a dell hard by where the hero and heroine could wander by +a stream. Or else--" she hesitated. "You don't feel comfy, do you?" + +"The sun is so hot, it's hardly safe to be out. I'd better go in +again," replied the other. + +"But the car'll be awfully hot, too, standing right in the sun. I +know--I'll get an umbrella." + +She rushed off at full speed lest the other should +remonstrate--something that Elsie Marley didn't think of doing. She +accepted the favor as a matter of course, and they walked on slowly, +the one restraining her eager feet with difficulty. + +"Oh, dear, I suppose _you're_ going to New York, too?" she asked. +"Everybody seems to be except poor me." + +The other returned a spiritless affirmative. + +"Of course! Oh, dear, and I'm simply _perishing_ to go! But I'm due +in a poky little place in Massachusetts called Enderby. Isn't that the +limit? The name alone would queer the place, don't you think so? It's +fairly near Boston, but they say Boston's slow compared with New York +or even with San Francisco." + +She waited a moment, then rattled on. + +"Do you know, sometimes it seems my _duty_ to go to New York. I've got +five hundred dollars all my own. Dad had a long sickness, and, anyhow, +he never got much ahead; but he left me that clear, and I'm just going +to beg and implore my uncle on bended knee to let me take it and go to +New York to study. I could get a start with that, I'm sure." + +She looked up so eagerly that something strange seemed to stir within +the quiet girl. It was almost as if she would have liked to express +her sympathy had she known how. And when the light suddenly died out +of the sparkling eyes and even the shadows of the dimples disappeared, +she felt almost at fault. + +The other girl did not resent her want of sympathy, however. + +"But he'll never, never consent," she went on mournfully, "because he's +an orthodox minister and I want to be an actress. Of course he +couldn't approve, and I ought not to blame him. And yet, if I wait +until I'm of age, I'll be too old. I'd like to run away right now, but +for the row it would make and for frightening auntie. Really, you +know, I'd rather join the circus than go to Enderby." + +"But I have always understood that to be an actress one must go through +much that--isn't nice," remarked Elsie Marley in her colorless voice. + +"Oh, but that's half the fun--the struggle against odds," exclaimed +Miss Moss with the assurance of untried youth. "Our class motto at the +high school was 'Per aspera ad astra.' Isn't that fine and inspiring?" + +The other assented listlessly, + +A breeze had arisen, and now, at a little distance from the track, the +air, though warm, was fresh and sweet. The yellowed grass extended to +the brilliant blue of the sky as far as the eye could reach. For the +first time, perhaps, in centuries, the plain was peopled by a throng; +for by now nearly every one in the long train had come out. Men stood +in groups discussing politics and the Mexican affair; women wandered +sedately about, most of them keeping a watchful eye upon the engine, as +if it might suddenly start and plunge on, dragging an empty train of +cars; children ran and frisked and shouted, making the most of the +occasion, as only children can. The two Elsies happened to be the only +young girls. + +They had gone some little distance beyond the others. Failing to draw +out her companion, Elsie Moss took it for granted that she was shy, and +chatted on about her own affairs, hoping presently to effect an +exchange of confidences. + +"I can't help wondering what my uncle will be like," she said soberly, +thrusting her hand into the pocket of her coat. "You see, I've never +seen him, though he and my mother were the greatest chums ever when +they were young--almost like twins, though he was heaps older. But +mother went to California when she married and I was born there, and +though he always meant to, he never got out to see us. His wife +couldn't stand the journey. And when mother died, he was way over in +Egypt, so of course he didn't come. All that I know is that he's +handsome and dignified and lives in a very proper place where they have +everything correct and conventional--musical advantages and oratorios +and lectures on Emerson, and village improvement and associated +charities and all that, but no vaudeville nor movies. I suppose if +there were a theatre they'd only play Ibsen and Bernard Shaw." + +Elsie Marley opened her eyes rather wider than usual. For it all +sounded attractive to her, particularly in contrast with the +boarding-house and New York. + +"He's awfully religious-looking, you know," Elsie Moss continued. "He +wears the same sort of waistcoats and collars the Episcopalians do, +though he's a Congregationalist, and his picture is more than +dignified, I can tell you. Well, no doubt he's dreading me just as +much as I am him, or else he's expecting me to be just like mother and +will have the surprise of his life." + +She hesitated. "I suppose I do look like her," she added gently and +quite as if she believed the other girl to be deeply interested. Then +her voice dropped suddenly and her eyes filled with tears. "Mother +died--in the earthquake," she added. + +Something vaguely uncomfortable just stirred the surface of Elsie +Marley's consciousness, though it wasn't sufficiently acute to be +called a pang. The earthquake had happened seven or eight years +ago--and this girl's grief seemed fresh to-day. Her own mother had +been dead less than three years. + +She did not acknowledge that her mother was only a memory. She hardly +realized it, indeed. Only, conscious of that vague, strange +discomfort, she had an impulse to get away from it. She put a languid +question. + +"What have you done since?" + +"I've learned what a difference mothers make," returned the girl +soberly. Then she darted suddenly outside the range of the umbrella. + +"What's that? A gopher?" she cried. "Oh, my goodness, it's only one +of those ridiculous Dutch dogs. + +"It might have been, you know," she said as she returned to the shade. +Then she resumed the subject she had dropped. Elsie Marley said to +herself that she needn't listen, but as a matter of fact she heard +every word. + +"I was so small I couldn't do much, and we had an awful time for a +year. Dad was always more or less hard up, but he was worse after the +earthquake, and if we had a servant she wasted things so that he was +wild. He married again--a schoolteacher, and it wasn't a year, quite, +after--the earthquake. Most people didn't blame him, but Uncle John +where I'm going did, and wanted me to come right on East and live with +him, but dad wouldn't hear of it. And, anyhow, she was the nicest +thing. I loved her dearly at the end of a week. She wanted to keep me +with her after dad died, but my uncle insisted upon my coming to him, +so here I am." + +She looked into the other girl's eyes half appealingly, though her big +dimples were dimly visible. + +"She wouldn't stand for my being an actress, either, so there you are. +And I liked her so much I couldn't half urge her. And that's the worst +of it; if I stay with my uncle the least little while I shall get to +liking him so much I shan't be able to run away. It's perfectly +terrible to get so fond of people when you want a career. I suppose +the thing to do would really be to disappear right now. Oh, not this +moment, but simply never to go to Enderby. Suppose I should go right +on to New York with you?" + +Elsie Marley gazed at her without a word and almost without expression. +But within, she was secretly roused. She marvelled at the stranger's +audacity. She was surprised to feel that she was not bored. She +decided that she would not return to the car until they should be +summoned. + +As she was fumbling in her mind for the response the Moss girl +evidently awaited, one of the children whose acquaintance the latter +had made came running up to her and shyly took her hand and kissed it. +Again putting the umbrella into the other girl's hands, Elsie Moss +impulsively caught the little thing into her arms and fondled her. +Then dropping her gently, she took both the little hands in hers and +danced away with her. + +They made a charming picture against the long, yellow prairie-grass. +The little girl moved with the grace of a child, but Elsie Moss danced +like a fairy. Her cheeks glowed, her dark eyes shone, her dimples +twinkled, her feet scarcely seemed to touch the ground. Her red hat +was like a poppy-cup, and the dark hair tumbling about her little face, +elf-locks. Elsie Marley gazed spellbound. + +But only for a moment; on a sudden she turned and made her way back to +the car, which was almost empty. She returned not because she wanted +to, not even because she was indifferent as to what she did. She went +because she didn't want to. Unconsciously she was struggling against +yielding to the charm of the vivid young creature who threatened to +take her by storm. In all her life she had never been deeply or warmly +affected by another personality. Perhaps now she realized this dimly, +and some instinct warned her subtly to avoid any departure from old +habitude, even when avoidance meant the first real struggle she had +ever made against definite inclination. + +It seemed long before the other occupants of the car began to stroll +in. Then the engine whistled sharp warning, the laggards trooped back, +and the train started briskly. Elsie Moss entered by the rear door, as +Elsie Marley knew, though she did not turn around. She said to herself +that no doubt she would be upon her directly, that she would have her +company for the rest of the day and the remainder of the journey. But +she established herself in the middle of the seat lest she seem to give +any invitation. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Elsie Marley was not interrupted, as it happened. Some little time +passed and still she was alone. The girl could not understand a +certain unrest that was upon her. She waited a few moments longer, +then she moved close to the window so as to leave more than half the +seat vacant. Still nothing happened. + +At length she turned and looked back. Elsie Moss, who sat between an +old lady and a little boy, smiled and nodded. Elsie Marley half +smiled. Still the other made no move. Then she looked back, really +smiled, and beckoned her to a place beside her. + +Elsie Moss, more than willing to be summoned, had some difficulty in +getting away from her present companions. But the grandmother +prevailed upon the little boy to spare her, and she presented herself +at Elsie Marley's seat smiling in her irresistible way with the big +dimples indented, and looking as if she would like to hug her as she +had hugged the little girl outside. And Elsie Marley had a curious +intimation that she shouldn't have minded greatly. + +"What do you think," exclaimed Miss Moss as she seated herself, "you +know all my family history and I don't even know your name. I've been +guessing. It ought to be either Isabel or Hildegarde. Is it? Oh, I +do wish it were, they're both so sort of stately and princess-like that +they'd just suit you." + +"It isn't either," responded the other with a curious sense of +disappointment. "My name is Elsie also." + +"Of all things! But it's rather jolly, after all. And what's the +rest?" + +"Marley, Elsie Pritchard Marley. But at home they called me Elsie +Pritchard, because I am--all Pritchard." + +Unacquainted with the Pritchard distinction, Elsie Moss was not +impressed. But she exclaimed gleefully over the real surname. + +"Elsie Marley!" she cried. "Why, isn't that funny, and oh, isn't it +dear! Elsie Marley, honey!" + +The other girl looked blank. + +"Of course you know the song, or at least the rhyme?" + +"Song? Rhyme?" + +"Why, yes. You must have heard it: 'And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, +Honey?'" + +"Is it really and truly Elsie Marley?" queried the pale Elsie speaking +for the first time like a real girl, though she had no girlish +vocabulary from which to draw. + +"Sure," asserted the other, delighted to be able to surprise her +seatmate. And she sang a stanza in the sweetest voice Elsie Marley had +ever heard, though she had heard good music all her life, and famous +singers. + + "Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?" + + +"Is there--any more?" demanded Elsie Marley almost eagerly. + +"One more, and then you just repeat the first. I've known it all my +life. Mother used to sing it to me when I was a baby. Then a few +years ago when I first went to see vaudeville, I 'got it up,' as they +say, with dancing and a little acting. I used to spring it on people +that came to the house. Dad liked it, but it made my stepmother feel +bad--dad said because I was too professional." + +She sighed deeply. + +"Sing the rest, please, Elsie?" asked the other, using her name for the +first time. + +"I will if you'll let me call you Elsie-Honey? You see it really +belongs." + +Elsie knew that it was silly, but she found herself quite willing. She +seemed under a strange spell. + +"Only," she added, with a stronger sensation of discomfort, "after +to-morrow it isn't likely we'll ever see one another again." + +"Oh, yes we will, sure. Why, we just _must_--at least if you want to +half as much as I do, Elsie-Honey?" + +"I do," Elsie confessed shyly and now with a curiously pleasant +feeling. "And now, Elsie, please sing the other stanzas." + +"It sounds just dear to say _stanzas_," cried the other. "I should +always say _verses_, even if I didn't forget which was which." + +With an absurd little flourish of her hands, she turned slightly in her +seat. The dimples came out strongly, and though she sat quite still, +there was truly something dramatic in the manner in which the would-be +actress sang the lines. + + "Elsie Marley is grown so fine + She won't get up to feed the swine, + But lies in bed till eight or nine, + And surely she does take her time. + + Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?" + + +Both girls broke into natural, infectious laughter. Mr. and Mrs. +Bliss, or any one who had known Elsie Marley, could scarcely have +believed their eyes or credited their hearing. But Elsie's father, who +had died while she was an infant, had had a warm heart and a keen sense +of humor, and it might well be that his daughter had inherited +something of this that had lain dormant all the while. For truly, the +wholesome, hardy qualities brought out in others through simple human +association had had little chance to germinate in her hothouse +existence in the Pritchard household. + +Despite the rumble of the train, four children in the rear of the car +caught the sound of the singing and came trooping up begging for more. +A pretty nursemaid followed with a fat, smiling infant. Elsie Moss +made her sit down with it (beside Elsie Marley!) and she herself +perched on the arm of the seat and sang song after song until it was +time to go into the dining-car. The children, wild with enthusiasm, +were not in reality more appreciative of the lovely voice than Elsie +Marley herself. The two girls went in to dinner together in happy +companionship. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +Elsie Marley lay in her berth that night for some time in a state +between musing and actually dreaming. She was conscious--partly +conscious, that is--of a new sensation of happiness. She did not, +however, at all realize how fortunate she was. She did not know that +for the first time in her life the door of her heart had been opened in +response to another. It was, perhaps, open only a crack. Possibly it +had been fast so long that it would not remain open. None the less, at +the moment it stood ajar. + +After dinner the girls had talked late--late for sleeping-car hours, +that is to say. Elsie Marley herself had talked; had said more in an +hour than she had ever before said in a day. Questioned in a frank, +sympathetic manner by the other Elsie, she had been led to speak of her +grandmother's household and of her daily life there, going into details +so far as she knew how, as she found the other so generously and +romantically concerned. Then she had gone on to speak of Cousin Julia +Pritchard and the boarding-house, confessing her apprehension and +dread, which seemed somehow to have become more definite in the +interval. She even showed the stranger Cousin Julia's letter. + +Having perused it, Elsie Moss acknowledged that it wasn't altogether a +pleasant outlook for such a one as Elsie Marley, honey, though she +herself wouldn't mind it. Indeed, she declared that she should have +liked it immensely. And finally, as she left to go back to her berth, +she exclaimed with fervor that she only wished that Miss Pritchard were +her cousin, and the Reverend John Middleton Elsie Marley's uncle and +guardian. + +As those were Elsie Moss's last spoken words that night, so that +thought was uppermost in her mind as she fell asleep shortly after her +cropped head touched the pillow. And next morning when she woke early +with a startlingly delightful idea, it almost caused her to bound from +her upper berth as if it had been a bed in the middle of a stationary +floor. For it came not in embryo, not in the egg, so to speak, but +full-fledged. It seemed as if she couldn't possibly wait until she was +dressed to divulge it to Elsie Marley. + +But Elsie Marley was, like her prototype, late in rising, and the other +Elsie's eagerness grew yet keener as she waited. Finally, however, +they were alone together in the former's seat, as the train sped +rapidly eastward. + +Elsie Marley's countenance seemed almost to have changed overnight. +There was truly something in it that had not been there before. Of +course it was not animated now; nevertheless, it was not so utterly +wanting in expression as it had been the day before, even in +juxtaposition with the vivid little face beside her. + +"Oh, Elsie-Honey, I've got something perfectly gorgeous to tell you," +cried the dark Elsie. "Listen--you're not very keen about going to +your cousin's, are you?" + +Elsie confessed that she liked the idea less than ever. + +"And I just _hate_--the short of it is--I simply _cannot_ go anywhere +but to New York. You'd ever so much prefer Enderby because it's select +and has culture and advantages, and you'd sooner have a dignified +clergyman uncle than a newspaper cousin. As for me, I should adore +Cousin Julia." + +"It seems a pity, surely," admitted Elsie quietly. + +The other looked at her. "You see what's coming, honey?" + +She shook her head, perplexed. + +"Oh, Elsie-Honey! It's plain as pudding. Presto! change! That's all. +Aren't we both Elsie, and don't we both want just what's coming to the +other? All we have to do is to swap surnames. See?" + +Still Elsie Marley did not understand. + +"Shake us up in a box, you know," the other explained, her dimples very +conspicuous, "and you come out Elsie Moss and I, Elsie Marley, without +the honey. You go to live with Reverend John Middleton and I'll go to +New York and try to persuade your Cousin Julia to let her supposed +relative study for the stage. What could be better? It's simply +ripping and dead easy. Neither of them has seen either of us. Uncle +John would draw a prize instead of me, and--I'd be awfully good to your +cousin, Elsie-Honey." + +Really to grasp a conception so daring and revolutionary took Elsie +Marley some time. But when she had once grasped it, she considered it +seriously. It did not seem to her, even at first, either unreasonable +or impossible. Indeed, influenced by the enthusiasm of the other girl, +she began to feel it both reasonable and fitting. In a way, too, it +was only natural. For after all, the girl had always had her way made +smooth for her, and this appeared only a continuation of that process. +She certainly _didn't_ want to go to Cousin Julia's, and she liked the +idea of living in the quiet parsonage of the aristocratic country town. + +Indeed, she agreed to the proposal more readily and unquestioningly +than a girl of more imagination or experience could have done. For her +part, Elsie Moss foresaw certain complications, though in truth only +the most obvious ones. They discussed these gravely, yet with much +confidence. Indeed, an older person must have been both amused and +amazed at the youthfulness, the inexperience, and the ignorance of life +the girls exhibited, at their utter unconsciousness that they were not +qualified to act as responsible human beings and shuffle blood +relationships about like pawns on a chess-board. + +"There's certainly nothing about it that even my stepmother could +object to," Elsie Moss concluded. "Nobody's being cheated: they are +both going to get what they would really choose if they had a chance, +and to escape what might be very uncomfortable, and so are we. We're +both Elsies, and about the same age, and have brown eyes: if Uncle John +were to take his pick, wouldn't he take a quiet, dignified, ladylike +Elsie, instead of a harum-scarum one with short hair that was mad for +the stage? And Aunt Milly being rather frail, I should have driven her +to drink, while you're used to an invalid aunt. Isn't it just +wonderful? The more I think of it, the _righter_ it seems. I almost +feel now as if it would be wrong _not_ to do it, don't you?" + +Like one in a dream, Elsie Marley assented. She was almost giddy at +the swift flight of the other's imagination. She listened spellbound +while Elsie Moss spun plans, able herself to contribute nothing but +assent and applause. Under skilful questioning, however, she related +all the Pritchard traditions and family history that Cousin Julia might +be expected to be familiar with, and endeavored in a docile manner to +learn enough of Moss and Middleton annals to take her part in the +Middleton household. + +Elsie Moss possessed a certain sort of executive ability which enabled +her to make the practical arrangements for carrying through the plan. +Quite self-reliant, she planned to accompany the other to Boston to +make sure that all went well, going thence herself to New York. After +consultation with the conductor in regard to time-tables, she sent a +telegram asking Miss Pritchard to meet a later train. The change in +the destination of their respective luggage was more difficult to +effect, but she accomplished that also, and both girls changed cars for +Boston. + +Indeed, presently it seemed as if the only difficult part of the whole +affair would be the parting from each other. They were to write +frequently, of course, and not only for the sake of mutual information; +but it seemed, particularly to the pale Elsie, who had never had a +friend, cruelly hard to have to be separated so soon from this most +charming companion. She gazed at her wistfully, unable to express +herself. + +The other Elsie, as quick, nearly, to read as to express feeling, and +naturally the more impulsive, answered from her heart. + +"Oh, we'll see each other often, we'll just have to, Elsie-Honey," she +cried. "And anyhow, we'll want to compare notes and brush up on our +parts. We'll visit back and forth. You come to New York and I----" + +She stopped short. + +"My goodness, that'll never do! I can never come to Enderby. You'll +have to do all the visiting, honey. I'm the very image of my mother, +and I'd give it all away." + +"Oh," said the other feebly. + +"You've noticed that I have dimples, I suppose?" inquired the other +gloomily. + +Elsie could not deny it, though denial was evidently what the other +craved. + +The latter sighed deeply. "Then they're just as plain as ever, and +would give me away first thing," she said. "Dad used to say he had +never seen such big dimples as mother's, and that mine were just like +'em. He said if I had straight yellow hair and blue eyes, any one that +had seen her would know me. Oh, dear, aren't you lucky to have nothing +conspicuous about you? I'm sure you're not the image of any one, +Elsie-Honey, and you'll come to see me often enough to make up, won't +you?" + +"Oh, yes, Elsie, unless he--Mr. Middleton--should object to my coming +to New York alone?" + +"You'd better begin right away calling him Uncle John, so as to get +used to it as soon as you can," suggested the other. "And I'm sure he +won't object. I'm sure from his letters that he's not an old fuss, and +it's a straight trip with no changes from Boston to New York. And +Cousin Julia and I will meet you at the Grand Central!" + +She grinned at her own _cheek_, as she called it, and the other Elsie +smiled happily. + +"Just the same, I'm more than sorry not to be able to come to Enderby +to visit," Elsie Moss declared. "You know it would be simply stunning +practice, playing the stranger in my uncle's house--something like the +real wife in 'East Lynne,' you know." + +"I never saw 'East Lynne.'" + +"Dear me, I cried quarts and bucketsful over it. It's the most tragic +play! If I had time I could show you how it goes. I always act things +out over and over after I've seen them, making up words where I don't +remember them. But, alas! we haven't any time to spare with what we've +got ahead of us, have we, honey? Now we must arrange for meeting +Uncle--no, _I_ must call him _Mr._ Middleton." + +On a sudden the girl clasped her hands in apparent distress. + +"Oh, I never thought!" she cried. "It won't even be safe for Uncle +John to see me at the station in Boston. Well, I shall have to drop +behind and keep perfectly sober. I'll just watch out to see that +everything's all right with you, and then I'll skidoo. Dear me, I hope +I don't look so awfully unlike the Marleys as to frighten Cousin Julia?" + +Had she said the _Pritchards_, Elsie would have been in a quandary; as +it was, her face brightened. + +"She never knew the Marleys, and there aren't any now," she said. "She +knows only the Pritchards." + +"Hooray! I shall harp on the Marleys morning, noon, and night!" + +"She'll like you," observed Elsie wistfully. "You know she spoke in +her letter of young life." + +"I shall adore her, dear old thing!" cried the warm-hearted girl. "And +Uncle John will adore you. He adored my mother, who was quiet and deep +like you. He was always sending her rare things, and pitying her +because she was poor and longing to send her money, though dad wouldn't +have that." + +The appearance of an expressman warned them that they were nearing +Boston. + +"You're perfectly sure that you're willing to exchange New York for +Enderby?" demanded Elsie Moss suddenly. + +"Oh, yes, indeed, Elsie." + +"And you don't yearn for Cousin Julia?" + +Elsie Marley half smiled. "Oh, no," she declared. + +But the other was determined not to take any undue advantage. + +"Now listen," she said; "if after you see Uncle John you don't fancy +him, just say the word or nudge me or wink and I'll swap back without a +word. I'll simply step up and say, 'Oh, Uncle John, you've kissed the +wrong girl!' though, of course, he may be too dignified to kiss at a +train. And then I'll introduce you properly." + +They sped on. Soon a trainman entered to say that the next station was +Boston and request them not to leave any articles in the car. They +said good-by to each other before the train stopped, kissing warmly +like real friends. Then Elsie Moss tied a large, dark veil over her +hat and well down over her forehead and eyes. It looked as +inappropriate for the hot day as the scowling expression she assumed to +cloak the dimples was ill suited to her charming little face. + +As they alighted, and a handsome, distinguished-looking gentleman in +grey clerical garb advanced to meet them, she fell behind. Raising his +hat, he took the hand of the girl who was not his niece. + +"And this is Elsie?" he said in a fine, kindly voice. + +She murmured a weak affirmative. He kissed her affectionately, took +her portmanteau from the porter, and turned to the girl who had come +from the car with her. + +"And this is your friend, Elsie?" he inquired. + +Elsie Moss came forward, scowling so fiercely that the other, despite +her blunted sense of humor, could scarcely keep from laughing out. + +"My friend, Miss M-Marley," she stammered. + +Mr. Middleton shook hands with his sister's daughter, took her satchel, +and asked how he could serve her. The girl replied in a thin falsetto +voice, which she realized immediately didn't go with the scowl so well +as a gruff tone would have done, that she had only twenty-five minutes +to get the train for New York and must say good-by at once and take a +cab for the other station. + +However, he didn't let her go so easily. Assuming charge in a simple, +offhand manner, he found a taxicab which took them to the South +Station, led her to the ticket-office, secured a chair, and put her on +the train. + +She kissed Elsie Marley again, squeezing her hand meaningly. And she +nearly forgot and showed her dimples, looking out of the window as her +train pulled out, to see them together, her uncle with his hat in his +hand, Elsie waving her pocket-handkerchief. + +"He's a darling," she said to herself as they moved toward the Trinity +Place Station, "and it's mighty lucky for my career that I didn't see +more of him. But he'll be far happier with that lovely honey-princess, +and I'm glad she's drawn a prize. As for me, hooray for Cousin Julia +and the footlights!" + + + + +CHAPTER V + +"I hope, Elsie, your friend wasn't in pain?" Mr. Middleton inquired +with concern shortly after they were established in the train for +Enderby. + +"Oh, no," the girl assured him, trying, but vainly, to add "Uncle John." + +"I thought she might be suffering from toothache or neuralgia, wearing +that scarf about her face on such a warm day--particularly as she +frowned and screwed her mouth in a rather distressed way," he explained. + +Elsie smiled. Indeed she almost laughed, partly because she was +herself struck by the humor of it, partly because it would so amuse +Elsie Moss when she wrote her about it. + +"Oh, no," she repeated. "Oh, no, Uncle John"--resolutely--"she was +just--well--she was acting, I suppose. She wants very much to go on +the stage." + +"And doesn't lose any opportunity for practice?" He smiled, but rather +ruefully. "Poor child! Somehow, of all ambitions, there seems to be +more tragedy, more pitifulness, underlying that than any other. Where +one succeeds, so many fail--go down into darkness and obscurity. Your +mother had the fever at one time as a very young girl, Elsie. As a +matter of fact, she had some little talent in that direction, but +fortunately we were able to persuade her to give up the idea entirely." +He sighed. "She was so tender-hearted and affectionate that she could +have been induced to give up far more precious things than an ambition +of that sort." + +Elsie was gazing out of the window. He pointed out a country club and +several fine estates at a distance, then asked: + +"What is your friend going in for, Elsie, comedy or tragedy?" + +Elsie didn't know. She explained that while Miss M-Marley seemed like +an old friend, she had only met her on the train as they had left +Chicago. + +"Ah, that's just like your mother!" he exclaimed. "She was just that +way, quick to make friends, and yet as loyal and true as any slower and +more cautious person could be." + +Again he sighed; then added in a lighter tone: "_She_ wanted to play +tragic parts--youth is apt to--but of course with those dimples she +would have been doomed to comedy, if not farce." + +He gazed reminiscently at her. + +"Your baby pictures had her dimples in small, but I see that as you +have grown thin you have lost them. You scarcely resemble her at all, +and yet already I see how very like her you are." + +Elsie could think of no response, and fearing that he was awaking +painful feelings, Mr. Middleton changed the subject by inquiring kindly +after her stepmother. Elsie replied according to instructions that she +was quite well and much gratified to have secured her former position +in one of the San Francisco high schools for the coming year. + +As he went on to ask about her journey and to exhibit points of +interest along the way, he was so chivalrous and thoughtful that the +girl realized that she would be considered and cared for as she never +would have been with Cousin Julia, and was genuinely relieved. Then +her thoughts flew back to those hours with Elsie Moss between Chicago +and Boston, which seemed to her the happiest she had ever known. It +came to her that if she could have the other girl's companionship, +could see her every day, she didn't know that she would greatly care +where she was. Perhaps she could even endure hardship. How serious +Elsie Moss had been about her motto, "Per aspera ad astra." For all +her gayety, she felt she could go through hardship bravely. Ah, she +was a rare person! For the first time in her life Elsie Marley was +homesick--and for a stranger! + +Happily, there was that about Mr. Middleton which reminded her of his +niece. She glanced at him from under her long, pale lashes. A man of +fifty, he was tall and thin, with a fine florid face set off by a mass +of thick, white hair. His eyes were brown and youthful, full of +serenity and kindliness, with a shadow of the idealism that +characterized his whole face. His voice was good, his speech elegant, +appealing particularly to one accustomed to the tones and inflections +of the West. Looking forward to meeting his wife, who would probably +be equally pleasing, Elsie felt that in any event she should be as +happy between visits as it would be possible to be anywhere without +Elsie Moss. + +A short drive through the quiet, shady streets of what seemed to be an +old, historic town brought them to the parsonage, one of a group of +handsome, rather stately buildings near and about a green common. Of +colonial style, built of brick, it had a portico with great Corinthian +pillars, window-frames and cornices of wood painted white, and stood +far back from the street with a beautiful lawn studded by great elms +and a glimpse of a garden in the rear. + +The driveway led to a side entrance under a porte-cochère. As the +carriage drew up, Mr. Middleton glanced eagerly toward the door. His +face fell. + +"Your Aunt Milly will be here directly," he said and ushered her in. +As she entered the beautiful hall, Elsie couldn't help feeling how +fortunate she was to escape the boarding-house. + +There was no one in sight. Mr. Middleton looked about, then led her +into one of the great front rooms on either side of the wide hall and +asked her to make herself comfortable while he went to see if her aunt +were ill. + +"She is not very strong, as you know, Elsie, and the excitement may +have been too much for her," he explained. "She has looked forward so +eagerly to your arrival." + +Fortunately he did not await any reply. Elsie felt suddenly stunned as +by a blow. Left alone, she gazed about her in amazement that was +almost horror. The large, square, corner room lighted by four great +windows that reached from the floor to the heavy cornice was +comfortably, even luxuriously, furnished, but--the girl could scarcely +believe her eyes--it was the most untidy-looking place she had ever +been in! The heavy crimson hangings, faded by the strong summer +sunlight, lost further color by their layer of dust, quite visible even +at this distance and at first sight. There were ashes on the hearth, +though the heap of waste-paper, dust, and miscellaneous rubbish in the +fireplace showed that it hadn't been used for some time. The piano, a +baby-grand, stood open, with dust on its dingy keys and more dust on +its shining case. The centre-table held a handsome reading-lamp and +some books, but was littered with piles of old newspapers and magazines +without covers. A kitchen-apron was flung across an armchair; a dirty, +paper-covered book lay on a little table with a plate beside it covered +with cake-crumbs, and there were crumbs on the richly colored Turkish +rug and on the arm of the tapestry-covered chair on the edge of which +Elsie perched. + +Surely there was some mistake, some monstrous mistake! She had somehow +been brought to the wrong house. It wasn't possible that a gentleman +like Mr. Middleton could belong to a household such as this, she was +saying incredulously to herself, when a shadow fell athwart the +threshold and she looked up to see Mrs. Middleton entering on her +husband's arm. + +Mrs. Middleton was the key to the enigma, though Elsie's mind wasn't +sufficiently alert to grasp the fact at the moment. She stood beside +her tall, immaculate husband, a short, rather stout, flabby-looking +woman with a sallow face wherein keener eyes than Elsie's might have +detected traces of former prettiness, and frowsy, ginger-colored hair +that had been curled on an iron. She wore a dingy pink tea-gown +bordered with swan's-down, cut rather low and revealing a yellow, +scrawny neck. A large cameo brooch took the place of a missing frog, +and a pin in the hem disclosed missing stitches. Her hands were +covered with rings, her feet thrust into shapeless knitted boots. + +She smiled, cried, "Elsie!" in a weak, sentimental manner, and opened +her arms wide as if expecting the girl to fly into them. + +Elsie, who had risen, advanced stiffly and reached out her hand in +gingerly fashion. But Mrs. Middleton gathered her, willy-nilly, into a +warm embrace, holding her close against the dingy pink flannel. + +Elsie could not struggle against it, as she was moved to do; she could +not burst into tears at the indignity; she could not rush out of the +house and back to the train, as she longed to do, with the sense of +outrage goading her. She was forced to sit down weakly with the others. + +Mrs. Middleton gazed at her fondly. + +"Dear child! Little orphan stranger!" she cried. "How I have longed +for this hour! Indeed, I so longed for it that at the last moment my +strength failed me, and when the train whistled I had to drop on my bed +in exhaustion. But enough of that. Welcome to our home and hearts!" + +Murmuring some chill, indistinct monosyllable, Elsie glanced dumbly at +Mr. Middleton, who was looking at his wife as tenderly as if she had +been all that Elsie had expected her to be. Were they both mad? + +"Jack, dear, you have never asked Elsie to take off her things--your +own niece!" exclaimed Mrs. Middleton reproachfully. And she turned to +Elsie with her sentimental smile. + +"These men, my dear!" she said, and coming to her side begged the girl +to let her have her wraps. + +Elsie wanted to cry out that she wasn't going to stay, that she was no +kin of theirs, and was going away on the next train. But she couldn't +utter a word. She removed her hat and jacket dumbly, wondering which +dusty surface they would occupy. As Mr. Middleton carried them into +the hall, she could only guess. + +On his return, he noticed the kitchen-apron, picked it up and held it a +moment irresolutely. Then opening a door in the wainscot near the +fireplace he flung it in. Before the door went to, Elsie had a glimpse +of worse disorder--of the sort that is supposed to pertain to a +junk-shop. + +"That's Katy's apron," remarked Mrs. Middleton plaintively. "Do you +know, Jack, I feel sure she sits in here when there's no one around. +Now that book on the table by the window must be hers." + +"It's no harm for her to sit here when the room is not in use," +returned Mr. Middleton kindly, "but when she goes, I wish she would +take her things along." And he picked up the novel and was about to +consign it to the same dump when his wife held out her hand for it. + +"What mush!" she cried as she fingered the greasy pages, while Elsie +flinched inwardly. And unobservant as the girl naturally was, she +could not help noticing that Mrs. Middleton retained the book. + +"Don't think, dear Elsie, that we're unkind to our poor but worthy +Kate," the latter remarked, sitting down next to Elsie and taking the +girl's limp hand in hers. "As a matter of fact, she has a sitting-room +of her own. This house, you know, is very old. It matches the other, +newer buildings only because they were built to suit its style. The +original owners, the Enderbys, for whom the town was renamed, had many +servants and provided a parlor for them. Of course your uncle and I +can afford to keep only one, but we gave her the parlor, hoping she +would appreciate it. But it doesn't look out front, so she doesn't +care for it and uses it as a sort of store-room." + +"I wonder if Elsie wouldn't like to go to her chamber now," Mr. +Middleton suggested, remarking suddenly how tired the girl looked. He +had thought her surprisingly fresh after the long journey, but +apparently only excitement had kept her up. + +Elsie looked at him gratefully. She was longing to be by herself in +order to determine what she was to do. + +"Yes, Jack, that's exactly what the poor dear wants; I've been trying +to get a word in to ask her," agreed Mrs. Middleton plaintively. Elsie +rose. + +"Where did you decide to put her, Milly? In the blue room?" + +"Yes, dear, but I'm not perfectly sure whether Katy got it ready. Do +you mind calling her?" + +He fetched the handsome, slatternly maid servant, who drew up the lower +corner of her apron crosswise to disguise its dirt, but openly and +unashamed, and only to uncover a dress underneath that was quite as +untidy. + +"Katy, this is our niece, Miss Moss, who has come to live with us," +Mrs. Middleton announced. "Have you got the blue room ready for her?" + +Katy bowed low to Elsie before she replied. + +"No'm, not yet," she said. + +"Oh, Katy, when I told you to be sure?" + +"No'm, you didn't," responded the woman pleasantly. + +"Dear me! Well, I meant to; I suppose it slipped my mind." + +She turned to Elsie. "I've been particularly wretched all day, +scarcely able, with all my will-power at full strain, to hold up my +head." + +"It seems to me," she addressed Kate reproachfully, "you might have +done it anyhow. You knew what Mr. Middleton was going in town for." + +"I'll get a place ready for her right now in no time, ma'am," Katy +assured her cheerfully. As she was leaving the room with an admiring +look at Elsie, she glanced suspiciously at Mrs. Middleton, whose hand +was hidden in a fold of her wrapper. + +"Is that my story-book you've got, ma'am?" she inquired. + +Mrs. Middleton drew forth the book, looked at it as if in great +surprise, and gave it to Kate, who disappeared at once. Mr. Middleton +followed with Elsie's luggage. + +Elsie, who did not resume her seat, walked to the window and gazed out, +without, however, seeing anything. Mrs. Middleton began to rhapsodize +over the elms and oaks and some rooks in the distance that were really +crows. But before she had gone far, Katy appeared to say that the room +was ready. If she had not done it in no time, as she had proposed, she +had certainly spent as little time as one could and accomplish +anything. Mrs. Middleton led Elsie up-stairs, threw open the door of +the room with a dramatic gesture, kissed and fondled her, and finally +left her to get a good rest. + +Elsie closed the door after her, dropped into a chair and, burying her +face in her hands, sat motionless. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +For some time Elsie could not think. She could only sit there in a +sort of dumb horror. Presently she raised her head, opened her eyes, +and deliberately surveyed the room. + +Like the others she had seen, it was large and handsomely furnished. +There was a great brass bed and heavy mahogany furniture. The walls +were hung with blue, the large rug was blue-and-gold, and the chintz +hangings and covers blue-and-white. There was a great pier-glass, a +writing-desk, and a bookcase. In spite of the fact that everything +bore the appearance of having been hastily dusted, it was fairly neat +and very attractive. + +Still confused, with a stunned sensation that precluded decisive +action, Elsie decided that she might as well remove the dust of travel, +and rising, slipped off her blouse. + +As she turned on both faucets in the bowl in the small dressing-room +adjoining, a thick scum rose to the surface of the water, and she +realized the bowl had not been washed for some time. At first she +gazed at the dust helplessly. Utterly unused to doing anything for +herself, she looked about anxiously. Two towels, clean but not ironed, +lay on the rack. She hesitated, then grasping one of them as if it +were the proverbial nettle, she attacked the bowl, gingerly at first, +then with some vigor; and presently, with the aid of some dirty +fragments of soap she found in the receptacle, using the second towel +to dry it, she had the enamelled surface clean and shining. With an +odd sense of satisfaction, she threw the towels to the floor, opened +her portmanteau, took out her own toilet-case, and proceeded to wash. + +Refreshed physically and even a trifle in spirit, she slipped on her +dressing-gown and sat down by the window to consider. She knew now +that she should have spoken immediately upon seeing Mrs. Middleton, +thus avoiding more unpleasantness than the caresses. Having delayed +her explanation of the masquerade, she had made it the more difficult. +Even now she dreaded shocking or even hurting Mr. Middleton. + +She rose and moved about irresolutely. The dress she had taken off lay +on the couch against the foot of the bed, and though she had never been +accustomed to caring for her clothes, she started instinctively to hang +it away. Opening the door into the clothes-press, she shrank back. + +A commodious closet with shelves and drawers, it was as much worse in +its confusion and disorder than the cupboard down-stairs as it was +larger. Each hook bulged and overflowed with clothing: tawdry finery, +evening-gowns, old skirts, wrappers, sacks, bath-robes, knitted jackets +and shawls and miscellaneous underclothes. The drawers were so crammed +that none would shut. The shelves were piled high with blankets, +comfortables, old hats, a pair of snow-shoes, pasteboard boxes, and +bottles without number; while on the floor were boots, shoes, and +slippers in all stages of wear, overshoes, a broken umbrella, a +walking-stick, a folding-table, and more boxes. And everywhere the +dust lay thick. + +Shutting the door hastily, Elsie flung herself upon the couch, covering +her face and pressing her fingers upon her closed eyes. What +a--_heathenish_ place! She really didn't possess the sort of +vocabulary to express the enormity of it. How should she get away? +Suppose there were no train to-night? Suppose she should have to +remain until morning? + +If only it were a hotel! If only Mr. Middleton weren't so fine, or if +Mrs. Middleton had gone into Boston! One look at her would have been +enough: she would have known she could never endure her. Better Cousin +Julia with all her oddities. She would have made the sign agreed upon +and gone straight on to New York. And then--poor Elsie Moss! After +all, Mrs. Middleton wasn't any real relative of hers, either. She only +hoped that the other girl might find Cousin Julia so very disagreeable +that she wouldn't too painfully mind being dragged back here. + +Some one knocked at the door. Feeling that she couldn't possibly +encounter Mrs. Middleton at this juncture, the girl remained silent. + +"It's only Katy," said a pleasant voice, and Elsie bade her come in. + +The warm-hearted Irishwoman knew in an instant that something was +wrong, and suspected homesickness. She spoke fondly, as to a child, +saying that tea was nearly ready, and added: "Have you got everything +that you want, miss?" + +Elsie could have laughed at the unconscious irony. + +"The clothes-press is full of mussy things, and the wash-bowl was +dirty, and there weren't any clean towels," the girl almost wailed. + +"Bless my soul, I guess that wash-bowl was forgot for a matter of a few +days!" Katy exclaimed. "Dear me, I'm so sorry. But them towels was +clean, only not ironed. I hadn't got round to 'em yet, and I didn't +know where to lay my hands on any that was put away. There's a lot +somewheres, for we keep a-buyin' and a-buyin'. And I'll just go at +this room the first thing after breakfast in the mornin' and make +everything clean and shinin'. I meant to 'a' done it to-day, but I +didn't get a minute, and I thought one night wouldn't make much matter." + +While Elsie was endeavoring to frame some sentence to inform Katy that +she needn't take the trouble, the latter suddenly remembered something +in the oven and disappeared. Elsie rose and dressed. She couldn't eat +in such a place, but she couldn't get away without explaining and, +perhaps, the tea-table would be a suitable occasion for that. + +Mr. Middleton met her at the foot of the stair and led her to the +dining-room. Another surprise! The room was not only large, pleasant, +and airy, overlooking a beautiful garden, but it was neat and tidy, and +the table was spotless, with fine damask, delicate china, and beautiful +silver. The food was delicious--Elsie had taken her place +perforce--and was particularly appetizing after five days on the train. + +Mrs. Middleton still wore the pink wrapper, but she had little to say, +and her husband was so elegant and attractive, was in such good spirits +and talked so entertainingly, that Elsie almost forgot. In any event, +before the meal was over she had decided to remain overnight, and to +postpone her confession until morning. + +The evening passed pleasantly. Mrs. Middleton excused herself directly +after tea, and Mr. Middleton took Elsie out to show her the garden, +which he tended himself, an old-fashioned garden with formal beds +radiating from a sun-dial. Thence they went to his study, an +attractive room lined with books, which, though untidy, was not +startlingly so, not, perhaps, far beyond that peculiar limit of +disorder allowed to a student's sanctum. + +Here the Reverend John Middleton, unmistakably and infectiously happy, +talked with his supposed niece for an hour. Full of enthusiasm, +quieter but almost as youthful as that of Elsie Moss, of ideas and +ideals, he had not realized his want of companionship and sympathy, nor +understood why he had looked forward so eagerly to the coming of the +daughter of the sister who had been the companion and intimate friend +of his youth and young manhood. Believing he saw already much of the +mother in the girl, he seemed to feel no need of preliminaries, of +getting acquainted. He strove only to make her feel at home, hoping +there might be no strangeness even on the first night. + +His powers being by no means inconsiderable, he succeeded so well that +Elsie Marley went to her room in a state of real exhilaration that was +almost tumult. The door of her inner nature, set ajar by Elsie Moss, +had opened wide. She had never in all her sixteen years been really +roused out of herself until she met the former; and she had never come +in contact with a nature so rich and fine as that of the clergyman. +Further than this, something else stirred in the girl's +heart--something better than the desire to hold this friend for her +own. Unawares, dimly, she felt his reaching out for sympathy, realized +dimly that there was something that even a young girl could do for him. +And suddenly a feeling of depression that was like regret or even +remorse took possession of her. The confession she had to make would +hurt him deeply, even now. + +Her trunk had been brought in and the straps unfastened. For an +instant Elsie wavered. Finally she got her key from her pocketbook. +But even as she crossed the room, she thought of Mrs. Middleton, the +dingy swan's-down and the caresses, and decided not to unlock the trunk. + +She stood by the window looking out absently over the soft, starlit +landscape. She felt sorry for Mr. Middleton and sorry for Elsie Moss; +and curiously enough those two were the two persons in the world in +whom she had any real interest! Perhaps the latter wouldn't mind her +aunt as she did; and of course she would be, to use her own expression, +"crazy over" her uncle. Then, too, with all her charm and vivacity, +she could do much more to brighten the monotony and squalor of his +life. And yet, her heart was set upon becoming an actress, and it +would be much harder now to give it up than if she hadn't seemed to +have a fair chance to pursue her studies. Elsie remembered dimly tales +she had heard of people dying from broken hearts. Somehow, it seemed +almost as if that vivid, sparkling Elsie Moss would be of the sort to +take things so hard that---- + +She broke off, turned from the window, and began to undress. So far as +Mr. Middleton was concerned, it occurred to her that possibly some one +who hadn't any ambition might learn to do even better toward helping +him than one whose heart was divided. She said to herself that she +wouldn't decide definitely against opening her trunk until morning. If +she should find, for instance, that Mrs. Middleton kept her room the +greater part of the time, it might make some difference. + +Ready to put out the light, she noticed that the covers of the bed had +not been turned down--an omission unparalleled in her experience. With +a sigh, she drew down the counterpane, only to discover, with actual +horror, the bare mattress underneath. The bed had not been made! + +Such was Elsie Marley's consternation that had she been a person of +resource, she would have dressed and left the house at once; but if she +possessed any such quality, it was wholly undeveloped. As it was, +however, she said to herself she could not even stay for breakfast. +She would go at daybreak! + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +Kate came to the door next morning just as Elsie had finished dressing, +and, being admitted, asked if Miss Moss wouldn't come down and pour her +uncle's coffee and eat breakfast with him. + +"He's sort o' hangin' off as if, perhaps, he was hopin' you might," she +added, eying the girl admiringly. + +Elsie's purpose to go immediately had been with her as she awoke, but +it didn't seem worth while to hold out at the moment: possibly she +might have a favorable opportunity to explain at the table. + +But she resented Kate's beaming face, and looked reproachfully toward +the bed, which told its own shocking story of having no linen nor +blankets. Still Kate was oblivious. Elsie really hardly knew how to +complain, but perhaps to learn that is easier than to learn to praise; +and there was a certain amount of indignation in her voice as she told +how she had been obliged to sleep on the couch in her dressing-gown. + +Kate was quite as shocked as the mistress of a well-regulated household +would have been. As she accompanied Elsie down-stairs she was voluble +in her sympathy, and promised all sorts of improvements for a future +Elsie knew was not to be hers. And yet the girl, who had always been +on the most distant terms with her grandmother's servants who had been +in the house for years, found herself confessing to this good-natured +slattern that she had nevertheless slept soundly and felt refreshed. + +Breakfast was so pleasant as to cause visions of an unlocked trunk to +float through Elsie's mind. The dining-room was yet more attractive +with the morning sun on the garden. Mrs. Middleton did not appear. +The girl found a curious pleasure in pouring out the coffee, which was +curiously intensified when Mr. Middleton asked for three lumps of +sugar. And when he passed his cup the second time she was elated. + +While he seemed fully to appreciate the novelty of her company, he +seemed also to take it for granted, as if they were to go on so, +breakfasting together, indefinitely. He chatted in his easy way, +glanced at the paper, reading bits of it to her, commenting on the +situation here and across the border. Fortunately, her mind had seemed +to quicken with her sensibility, so that she grasped, or partly +grasped, ideas that might well have meant nothing to her. + +He proposed to take her out to see the town after he had spent an hour +in his study. Though it would again postpone her explanation, Elsie +decided she might as well go a step further and get a better idea of +the place for which Elsie Moss was to exchange New York and her +ambition. The day promised heat; the girl was so tired of her +travelling-suit that she was tempted to open her trunk and get out a +linen frock and her Panama hat, but she wouldn't allow herself to yield. + +They were out nearly two hours, strolling leisurely through the quiet +old streets. The church and parish-house and a large hall were across +the common, the library and museum nearer the centre of the town--all +dignified, rather stately, very attractive buildings in harmonizing +styles of architecture, whose low and rambling character, with the ivy +that well-nigh covered them, and the wonderful green of their lawns, +gave them an air of age, particularly appealing to one whose home had +been in the West. Handsome houses and charming cottages bespoke their +attention as they walked through the wide avenue with double rows of +elms on either side, and grass-plots separating the walks from the +highway. Just to wander under that leafy arch of a June morning, with +glimpses of blue sky and white cloud, was a sensation that made the +thought of New York appalling. Cousin Julia had, indeed, spoken once +of going to the shore; but who wanted to go to the shore! For herself, +nothing seemed so attractive as tall old trees, abundance of green +turf, New England, and--_Enderby_! + +And all the while she became more aware of the unconscious appeal on +the part of Mr. Middleton. As they went on, more and more the girl +felt how eagerly he had looked forward to the coming of his niece, how +he had anticipated her companionship. And she understood dimly that +his eagerness to show her the finer points of everything was not only +the desire to make her share his enthusiasm, but a desire to begin at +once--to start out friends and companions. + +She returned only the more oppressed by the sense of remissness--of +remorse. Kate met her at the door of the chamber she had occupied and +proudly ushered her in. A real transformation had taken place. Kate +could accomplish wonders when she set out, and the great handsome room +had been so thoroughly swept and garnished that everything was like +new, only with the sense of the dignity of age. The clothes-press, +too, had been cleared out (at the expense of the corresponding one in +the chamber opposite!); the little wash-room shone; there was abundance +of towels and fresh bed-linen, and a vase of sweet peas stood on the +freshly laundered cover of the dresser. + +Elsie turned gratefully to Kate, but spoke regretfully. + +"Oh, Katy, thank you, but I'm sorry you have taken so much trouble. +I----" + +"Oh, Miss Moss, dear, I love to do it, and I'll keep it so all the time +if you'll only stay," urged Kate. "Now don't tell _me_, I've seen it +in your eyes that you're homesick and don't like the look o' things, +and then you ain't opened your trunk, and your dresses all packed in +wrinkles like as not. Do try it a bit longer, please, miss. I promise +you things'll be better all over the house. You know there'd be more +satisfaction keepin' things up for a pretty girl like you as would +appreciate than for a woman as lays round all the time and don't take +no interest, though believe _me_, she eats as good as any one, and I +can't keep my story-books long enough to find out how they come out at +the end if she gets her eye on 'em. All she does is to throw things +round for me to pick up, though I will say for her she's pleasant and +good-natured, and always a born lady. And Mr. Middleton don't hardly +know whether things is upside down or right side up; but he's good as +gold and lonesome, though he don't never let on. You can be such a +comfort to him; all he hears at home now is about her aches and pains. +You couldn't guess how he's blossomed out since you come. He ain't +talked so much for years, and he was a-singin' to hisself this mornin' +as he hung round wonderin' if you was coming to breakfast--_she_ never +does. Now Miss Elsie, you jest stand by him. Let me tell you, you'll +run up against lots worse things if you set out to earn your own +livin'." + +Elsie was tempted, but again the thought of Mrs. Middleton arrested +her. And by the time Kate shouted inelegantly up the stair that lunch +was ready, the girl had decided to explain everything directly +afterward and go to Boston to catch the same train Elsie Moss had taken +yesterday. And if Mrs. Middleton should appear and attempt to embrace +her, she would say: "Wait, please, I have something to tell you that +will change everything!" + +That lady stood at the newel-post awaiting her. She wore a wrapper of +lavender cassimere to-day, elaborately trimmed with lace and knots of +pink ribbon. Somewhat fresher than the pink one, it was not +conspicuously so, and her hair was truly a "sight." Elsie was dumb: +she couldn't make the prepared speech nor any other. She tried to keep +at a distance by reaching out her hand formally. But it proved +useless, and again she was gathered to her hostess's heart. + +The strangest feature was Mr. Middleton's behavior. He seemed as +surprised and delighted to see his wife appear at lunch, as fearful +lest she overtax herself, as if she were her own very opposite. The +girl couldn't comprehend how one so intelligent, so refined, of such +exquisite taste, apparently, could be so blunt in this one particular. +She couldn't understand how he could endure, much less care for, this +ugly, withered, yellow, untidy woman. However, it made her own +position somewhat easier. If he were really aware how impossibly +vulgar she was, and took it seriously to heart, Elsie wasn't sure if +even thus early she should be able to leave him to bear such misery +alone. His unconscious loneliness was appealing enough; conscious +unhappiness might have proved more than she could have withstood. + +He was called from the table to the telephone. Elsie hoped he wouldn't +make any engagement for directly after lunch. If he should, she +couldn't risk missing her train. She would speak out at once. She +would say: "Oh, Mr. Middleton, I'll say good-by, for I shan't be here +when you return." And then she would explain briefly and he wouldn't +have time to take it hard while she was there to witness. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Returning to the table, Mr. Middleton announced with troubled face that +Miss Stewart, the librarian, was ill, and he must find some one before +three o'clock to take her place. He glanced at Elsie hesitatingly. + +"I suppose you are tired, Elsie, dear?" + +"Oh, no," she returned and added, almost unconsciously, "Uncle John." + +"Then I wonder if I can't work you in at the library for a day or so? +It isn't at all taxing, indeed, it's really very pleasant. It's open +every day from three to six, and except on Saturday, when there's apt +to be a crowd, people drop in in a leisurely way. I could go over with +you and get you started and stay until nearly four, when I have a +committee meeting. Would you be willing to try, dear?" + +"Oh, I'd like it ever so much," she returned, really captivated by the +idea. He looked relieved and smiled gratefully. + +"There, Jack, it's just as I told you it would be," exclaimed Mrs. +Middleton, patting a pink satin bow complacently. "I said to your +uncle, Elsie love, that a girl of sixteen is almost a woman--I was only +seventeen when I was married--and that he could make an assistant of +you right away." + +Her smile faded and her hand went to her heart in an affected way. + +"My being such a sad invalid is a terrible drag on your uncle, though +he won't confess it," she added feebly. "I often and often drop a +secret tear over it, I own; but now that there'll be some one to help +with the little services that would naturally fall to a pastor's wife, +I shall be quite content. You know how the poet says that others shall +sing the song and right the wrong? 'What matter I or they?' That is +how it seems to me." + +Mr. Middleton gazed at his wife tenderly, but Elsie's youthful scorn +increased. She was not sufficiently mature to understand that it shows +something of character to look on kindly while another younger, fairer +person steps in to fulfil duties that should have been one's own, even +though one may have repudiated them. + +Directly lunch was over, Elsie ran up-stairs--something she seldom had +done--unfastened her trunk, took out an embroidered white linen suit +and dressed quickly. She could scarcely wait until time to go to the +library. She was ready to lose the train to-day, and even to-morrow if +need be. + +At the library, she found the procedure simple and easily acquired. It +was fascinating, also, as was the great airy room; and she wandered +about through the stacks, and gazed at the books, magazines, pictures, +maps and bulletin-board in a sort of dream. It was a warm day and no +one came in during the first half-hour. + +Mr. Middleton had scarcely left, however, when a little girl in a +scant, faded frock that was clean, however, and freshly starched, came +shyly in with a book--a child of nine or ten with an anxious expression +on her old, refined little face which hadn't yet lost all its baby +curves. + +"Why, where's Miss Rachel?" she asked, the look of anxiety fading and a +shy little smile appearing in its stead. + +Elsie explained. + +"Well, I think you're ever 'n' ever so much nicer, and so pretty!" said +the child. Then her face clouded again as she opened the book that she +held in thin little hands that were like claws. + +"The baby did it," she said sorrowfully as she exhibited a picture torn +across. "He isn't a year old yet and don't understand. He isn't the +least naughty, only _mischeevious_, you know. Ma says I ought not to +have been reading it while I was minding him, but you see I'm _always_ +minding him except when he's asleep--and then he wakes right up, +mostly." + +She sighed. "Do you s'pose you can mend it?" she inquired. + +"Yes, indeed," returned Elsie promptly, and smiled involuntarily. + +The child fingered her frock. "Miss Rachel would scold," she faltered, + +Elsie didn't know what to say. Neither did she understand why tears +should come to her eyes, except that the little girl was so small, so +thin, so clean and sweet, and so very childish in spite of her +responsibility. + +She found some gummed paper, cut a strip, brought the torn edges +carefully together and mended the picture as neatly as if she had not +been a week ago as helpless an able-bodied girl of her age as there was +anywhere to be found. Her sense of satisfaction was certainly +commensurate, perhaps extravagant. + +"There! Miss Stewart will never know," she said. "Do you want another +book now?" + +"Yes, please; but--is it right for Miss Rachel not to know?" + +Elsie considered. "Perhaps not," she admitted, "but at any rate she +won't mind since it looks as well as before." + +"And I'll be very careful after this," added the child. + +She selected another volume from the children's shelf, and having had +it charged, turned to go. But somehow Elsie was loath to have her. + +"Why don't you sit down at the table and look at the picture papers?" +she suggested. + +"Oh, I've got to mind the baby," said Mattie--Mattie Howe was the name +on her card. "I must be home when he wakes up. Good-by." + +She started--came back--stood irresolute. + +"Thank you for mending the book so good--so _goodly_," she said shyly, +"and--I'd like to kiss you." + +With a curious sensation that had no admixture of reluctance, Elsie +bent over and received the kiss. + +"You're prettier than the princess," the little girl declared, and ran +away with her book. + +Elsie Marley hardly knew what would have happened if an elderly lady +hadn't come in at that moment and asked for "Cruden's Concordance." +She had some difficulty in finding it, but the lady was very pleasant +and grateful, and after that there was a constant succession of +visitors. Many children came in, all attractive, to Elsie's surprise, +though none so appealing as Mattie Howe; and older people in surprising +numbers, considering Mr. Middleton's prophecy. + +But word had somehow gone round that the minister's niece was "tending +library," and things being rather dull in the midsummer pause of most +of the activities of the place, no doubt more than one came out of +curiosity. + +It was a very friendly curiosity, however, expressed in the pleasantest +manner, and Elsie found herself responding to their advances without +knowing how. She wondered at herself. The girl did not realize that +being in the library made a difference. It was her first experience of +work, or of doing anything whatever for any one else, so that even the +service of getting out books for another established a sort of +relationship between them. At the close of the afternoon, though +tired, she was strangely happy. + +But she couldn't understand it--didn't know herself. She found herself +wondering who the stranger was who had worn her frock and occupied the +chair of the librarian that afternoon. Grandmother Pritchard wouldn't +have recognized her, nor Aunt Ellen. Had she, in assuming another +name, changed her nature also? + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +Shortly before the death of her aunt in California, Miss Julia +Pritchard had made up her mind to give up her position at the city desk +on her fiftieth birthday, and retire to some pleasant country town to +pass the remainder of her life quietly, in friendly intercourse with +her neighbors. She felt that she had more than enough to "see her +through," as the phrase is, very comfortably. She had worked for over +thirty years, her responsibilities and salary increasing periodically; +and though she had lived and dressed well and given liberally, she had +added each year to a small inheritance that had come to her through her +grandfather, and had gained further by judicious investment. + +But when both her aunt and cousin died, and she was left guardian of +the sixteen-year-old Elsie Marley, whose inheritance was small, Miss +Pritchard decided to remain where she was a few years longer. It +wasn't imperative, indeed, yet she felt that the last little Pritchard +should have the best chance she could give her, and until she should +have put her on her feet, the woman of fifty, who was strong and well +and at the height of her powers, would gladly remain in harness. Her +announcement to this effect was hailed with delight at the office, and +another increase made in her salary so substantial that she declared +she ought to adopt a whole family. + +Though the sacrifice was greater than any one dreamed, nevertheless she +made it quietly and cheerfully, expecting no reward nor desiring any. +She didn't expect much of Elsie Marley, indeed, recollecting the +atmosphere of the household in which the girl had been reared, which +she had herself found impossibly stifling during a short visit there +fifteen years before. + +At that time her Cousin Augusta had been living with her husband and +baby in Portland, Oregon. What with her knowledge of the Pritchards in +general, however, her observation of that stereotyped family after a +long interval of years, and their intense anxiety lest the one +descendant of that branch become in any way a Marley rather than a +Pritchard, she was able to gather a very fair idea of what Elsie's +upbringing must have been. Unless she might have inherited a sense of +humor from the Marley side (which was unlikely, since no one possessing +a sense of humor would have married Augusta Pritchard), the girl could +hardly have escaped becoming a prig at the mildest. Cold, colorless, +correct, self-sufficient, Elsie Pritchard would doubtless make her +mother's cousin feel keenly her fifty years, her lack of grace, and her +general and utter lack of claim to the royal name she bore. + +On the other hand, she was also, willy-nilly, Elsie _Marley_, and she +was only sixteen. She couldn't have, at that age, completely compassed +the woodenness of her adult relations. She might still be amenable to +change, to development. In any event, as Miss Pritchard remarked to a +friend in the office, any sort of young female connection cannot but be +welcome to the heart of a lonely spinster who reaches her half-century +milestone on midsummer's day. + +Miss Pritchard occupied two large, handsome rooms on the second floor +of a boarding-house near Fifth Avenue, a few blocks from the lower end +of Central Park. In preparation for the young girl, she had the large +alcove of the parlor shut off by curtains and her bed and +dressing-table moved into it, and gave over her bedroom to Elsie. She +spent much time and thought and not a little money in making it an +inviting and attractive place for a girl, and would have felt quite +satisfied had it not been for her remembrance of the rather heavy but +stately elegance of the mansion in San Francisco. + +On the June day on which Elsie was expected, Miss Pritchard confessed +to the friend at the office to whom she had spoken before, that she was +beginning to feel nervous. + +"I almost wish she weren't coming until a week later," she said. "Do +you know, I think if I had actually passed my fiftieth birthday, I +might feel somehow more solid and fortified. It's really an ordeal for +an old-fashioned woman like myself to encounter the modern girl of +sixteen. Fifty might pull through, but oh, dear, what of forty-nine +plus?" + +She was interrupted by the telephone. A telegram which had come to the +boarding-house for her was read to her. She was smiling as she hung up +the receiver. + +"Well, what do you think!" she cried. "My young relative has decided +for some reason to take a later train and has telegraphed me to that +effect. Now there's something rather alert and self-reliant about +that. That girl must have something in her, after all. I can no more +imagine her mother or any of the family getting off at any stage of a +through journey than I could fancy myself not getting off for a fire or +an earthquake or, perhaps, for a wild West show. At the very least, +there's a sort of suppleness of mind indicated." + +She stood that evening in the station watching the throng emerging from +the coaches of the train her cousin had given as hers. A tall, +straight woman, large without being stout, her plain face, with large, +irregular features, framed in plainly parted iron-grey hair, was +singularly strong and fine, and her grey eyes betokened experience +bravely met. As she scanned the face of every young girl in the +procession, there was something so staunch and true in her appearance +as to make it almost striking. + +Then on a sudden, right in the midst of it, for a moment she forgot all +about Elsie Marley, and what she was standing there for, in the vision +that confronted her and surprisingly and instantaneously took her +romantic heart by storm. A young girl came straight toward her--such a +piquant, sparkling, buoyant young thing as she had never seen before--a +small, slender, dark-eyed creature with short brown hair cut square +like a little boy's and a charming mouth flanked by dimples that were +almost like pockets. + +So much she took in in that one long glance. Then, recovering herself, +fearful lest she had been lost to all else about her longer than she +knew, she glanced anxiously about for the fair, pale little Pritchard. +But the radiant child stopped short before her and looked up into her +face. + +"Cousin Julia?" she asked in the sweetest voice Miss Pritchard had ever +heard. She smiled half-shyly and the dimples deepened. + +For a single instant, Miss Pritchard stood still and stared at the +girl, not so much incredulous as stunned. Then she cried out: + +"Elsie--Elsie Marley?" + +"Sure," said the smiling child, holding out her hand. Miss Pritchard +gathered her to her heart. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +From that moment, all idea of sacrifice vanished forever. Miss +Pritchard felt suddenly, amazingly, and incomparably blessed. Her +realization that the girl's charming face and figure were matched by a +most lovable personality came so quickly as to seem instantaneous. In +very truth, Elsie's bubbling gayety and sweetness of disposition were +as natural and inseparable as her very dimples. + +At once, Miss Pritchard's life took on new color, new meaning. The +change for her was far greater than if she had carried out her former +intention and gone from work in the city to leisure in the country. +She was in a new, strange, wonderful country where life was +interesting, even thrilling, beyond anything she had ever known. She +had not dreamed that youth could be at once so gay and blithe and yet +so simple and generous, so spontaneous, so affectionately considerate +of the older and the less richly endowed. + +For her part, the eager, warm-hearted girl adored Miss Pritchard almost +at sight. The strength and sincerity of the woman, her utter +unselfishness, her wisdom, her humor, and her keen intelligence +combined to make her the most impressive personality the sensitive +young girl had ever encountered. Quite untroubled by the ethical +aspect of the situation, she gave herself up to it wholly, only +troubled lest she had gotten the better part of the exchange she had +made with the real Elsie Marley; lest she be cheating the other out of +companionship with this wonderful Cousin Julia. + +No difficulty offered itself. Keen as she was, Miss Pritchard was +without shadow of suspicion. Stare as she would, she couldn't discover +any slightest resemblance to the Pritchards in the girl, yet she drew +only the one conclusion. + +"Elsie, you must be altogether a Marley," she said to her as they sat +happily together on the third evening after the girl's arrival. And +her voice indicated that she was quite satisfied to have it so. + +"I'm certainly no Pritchard," returned Elsie coolly, and not without +enjoyment, "begging your pardon, Cousin Julia." + +"Well, of course, I ought to regret it, you being the last of the +family; but I'm afraid I don't," returned Miss Pritchard. "You see I +rather dreaded your coming as that of a double-dyed Pritchard. The +Pritchards of my father's generation were pretty stiff, I confess, +heavy and solemn and rather pompous. My mother who was a Moore, as no +doubt you have heard, had a strong sense of humor, and didn't bring me +up in very great awe of the family. She was thankful I didn't take +after them, and so have I always been. I often think, what a +misfortune had I had to have a Pritchard as a bedfellow and roommate +all these years, as I must have had if I had taken after my father--who +was, I believe, however, the mildest of the Pritchards, and very much +altered by my mother's influence. And girls are usually like papa--as +you are--and boys like mamma, they say. Surely, no girl could be less +like her mother than you, dear." + +Elsie sobered. One of the facts she most cherished was the knowledge +that she resembled her adored mother in nature as well as in manner and +personal appearance. It would be hard, nay, impossible, to give over +that solace. But she told herself she must think _Augusta Pritchard_ +(what a name!) whenever Cousin Julia said _mother_ to her. + +"Of course, you don't remember your father, Elsie, but do you remember +any other of the Marleys or know anything of them?" + +"Just one member of the family," said Elsie, getting down from the +window-seat. "I've heard about her ever since I can remember." And +bowing low, she began to sing: + + "Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + + Elsie Marley has grown so fine + She won't get up to serve the swine, + But lies in bed till eight or nine, + And surely she does take her time. + + Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?" + + +The wonder and admiration in Miss Pritchard's eyes couldn't be hidden. +Elsie threw herself down on the settee by her side. + +"That's the only Marley I've ever known, Cousin Julia, but she's rather +a dear old body," she said and squeezed Miss Pritchard's arm +affectionately. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +"How very difficult it's going to be to explain now," Elsie Marley said +to herself as she dressed on Friday morning. "How I wish I had done it +that very first hour. Mr. Middleton would have understood, then, for I +had just told him Elsie liked to act; and he wouldn't have cared. He +couldn't have been really hurt as I am afraid he will be now. And yet, +how can I help feeling glad I was here to take the library for him? +And I did so enjoy doing it, too." + +She decided that if Miss Stewart were able to go back this afternoon, +she would leave directly after lunch and get the only train for New +York that she knew--the one Elsie Moss had taken. And if she couldn't +possibly explain in any other manner, she would have to write a note +and steal quietly away. It wasn't a nice thing to do; yet she couldn't +afford to let the difficulty of explaining the situation keep her here +until Elsie Moss should have become so firmly established that it would +be cruel to drag her back to Enderby. + +On the other hand, as long as she had started in with the library work, +if Miss Stewart wasn't well enough to attend this afternoon, she would +remain one day more. And if she found that that was to be the case, +she would spend her morning writing the note to Mr. Middleton to fall +back upon in case of need, and a letter to Elsie Moss warning her of +the change. + +When she went down to the dining-room, Mr. Middleton had that same air +of eagerness mingled with what seemed to Elsie assurance of the +permanency of their relationship. After a little he inquired whether +her unfamiliar work of the day before had tired her overmuch. + +"Oh, no--Uncle John, not at all," she replied, consciously hampered by +lack of vocabulary or of tone to express enthusiasm that was new to her. + +"Well, then, what should you say to giving Miss Rachel another day of +rest?" he suggested. "I have been afraid for some time that she's +rather letting people get on her nerves, and possibly a few days off +would be a benefit for all concerned. She has lived alone for years, +and, good as she is, has grown narrow and notional as one inevitably +will who hasn't other personalities in a household to rub against. I +dare say if she had her way she wouldn't allow a boy under fifteen in +the library." + +"She's afraid they'll soil the books?" Elsie remarked lamely, striving +to be adequate to the occasion. But somehow, he seemed rich enough to +lend her something unawares. + +"Yes, dear, that's it, of course, and perfectly natural and legitimate +in its place such caution is. But the trouble is, she puts it first +and foremost. We want certainly to keep the books as neat as is +consistent with constant use, and it's always safe to ask to see a +lad's hands; but there are different ways of going about the business. +The main thing about a library is, of course, its usefulness to the +people; perhaps, most of all to the younger among them. You agree with +me, dear, that that consideration comes before everything?" + +"Yes, indeed, Uncle John," she said primly. + +He smiled suddenly and very charmingly. + +"Elsie dear, if I hadn't known that your step-mother was a +schoolmistress, I should have guessed it," he declared. "Externally, +her influence upon you has almost blotted out your mother's. I'm +thankful you didn't stay with her long enough for it to go deeper, +excellent woman as I know her to be. As it is, your speech and manner +conceal rather than reveal your likeness to your mother, but it +struggles through for all that." + +He paused and his face grew grave. + +"I hope--I trust, dear, you didn't feel--_repressed_?" he asked +anxiously. "You are so quiet and reserved and docile for a young +girl--especially for your mother's daughter. Your stepmother was--kind +to you, surely?" + +"Oh, yes, sir," she faltered, distressed at the dilemma. Vaguely aware +that she had an opening for her confession, she made no attempt to use +it. "I know I am--everything is"--she faltered. + +"You're just right, Elsie dear," he said kindly. "Just be yourself. +And if you have learned not to be spontaneous, try to forget it. In +any event, never repress any desire for gayety or romping or what-not +in this house. You don't at all need to be quiet oh your Aunt Milly's +account. She isn't strong and she is excitable, and yet she isn't +somehow what is called nervous at all. She doesn't mind noise or even +tumult; indeed, she likes to feel that things are going on in the house +even if she cannot share them." + +Even now, Elsie understood that this was quite true in regard to Mrs. +Middleton. There was, in spite of what the girl called her falsity, +something generous about her. Elsie wasn't herself any the more drawn +to her--or any the less repelled--but now she first had a slight +inkling of any foundation for Mr. Middleton's strange infatuation. +There was, somehow, in the midst of all that sentimentality, some +genuine feeling which for him transmuted the whole into pure gold. + +Well, for her part, she could stand it another day for the sake of +going to the library. + +"What are you going to do this morning, Elsie?" Mr. Middleton inquired +as they returned to the house after a few minutes spent in the garden. + +Elsie colored faintly. + +"Write some letters," she said. + +Indeed, she spent the whole morning in the attempt, though she +accomplished nothing. She made half a dozen beginnings of the letter +which was to set forth the scheme Elsie Moss had concocted and she had +entered into; but none went further than three sentences, and it began +to seem that that expedient were the more difficult. In any event, +before she made a seventh trial she turned to the note that was to +acquaint Elsie Moss with the situation. Here, she only failed the more +dismally. When it was time to dress for lunch, she seemed to be forced +to explain to Mr. Middleton just as she was leaving, and to come upon +poor Elsie Moss quite unexpectedly. It seemed as if it would almost +kill her to do either. + +Mrs. Middleton did not appear at lunch and everything was so pleasant +that Elsie's spirits rose until she was almost gay. She talked more +than she had done since she came--almost more than she had ever done +before until she met Elsie Moss--and she was at once gratified and +appalled to perceive that she was reminding Mr. Middleton of his +sister. Of course, his real niece would remind him still more, but +Elsie knew that the wrench to his feelings before she should be +established in the parsonage would be severe, even terrible. If only +Mrs. Middleton kept her room continually! And yet, he might not like +that. + +The library was only the more engaging that day. Mattie Howe came in +early and they went through a number of shelves in the children's +department together in selecting her book. Then Elsie took the little +girl in her lap--in a curiously easy fashion--and they looked at the +colored pictures in a large book that did not circulate until some one +else came in and claimed the librarian's attention. + +A roguish-looking boy with a tousled head entered, stared at Elsie in +amazement, and went abruptly out. Returning a little later with +shining face and wet, parted hair, as he asked at the desk for a book, +he spread out a pair of very clean hands in a manner intended to be +nonchalant. He was ready and eager to talk and very amusing. Before +Elsie got through with him, she had assured him that she meant to read +"Robinson Crusoe" within the next fortnight. + +Then a lad apparently of about her own age, a high-school boy, shy, but +with very gentle manners, who started as if to retreat as he saw her, +gathered his courage, returned his book, and stood there undecided. + +"Do you want another book?" Elsie asked. + +"Have you got anything about Edison?" he asked. "I've got to write a +composition about electricity, and I thought I might start with him." + +Elsie consulted the catalogue, but greatly to her disappointment was +unable to find anything. The boy had such nice manners and such +honest, deep-set eyes that she wanted to help him. + +"You might start with Benjamin Franklin," she suggested, not very +confidently. + +"Sure!" he returned, smiling frankly. She got him a biography of +Franklin, and he sat down at one of the tables with note-book and +pencil and was soon deep in it. + +There were a number of references to Franklin in the catalogue, and as +Elsie went back to it to see if she might have made a better choice, +she saw that one referred to the proper volume of a "Dictionary of +American Scientists." It came to her that she might discover Edison in +the same place. She was pleased to find several pages of a recent +volume of the work devoted to that inventor. She carried it to the boy +and pointed out the pages with a feeling of satisfaction almost like +triumph. + +The afternoon flew. She closed the library regretfully, for she never +expected to enter it again. For to-morrow was Saturday, and if she +should stay beyond the afternoon, it would mean she could not get away +until Monday. And that she could never stand. For she had gathered +somehow that Mrs. Middleton made a special effort to sit up all Sunday +except during the time her husband was at church. If it was mostly a +case of nerves, Miss Stewart might as well come back one day as another. + +But again at dinner Mrs. Middleton was absent from her place. She sent +a special request to Elsie to occupy it, and Elsie spent a very happy +half-hour telling Mr. Middleton about the happenings of the afternoon, +hearing his explanatory comment on persons and things, and serving the +pudding. And when he told her he had seen Miss Stewart, who thought +she would hardly feel like coming back until Monday, and had assured +her that his niece would be glad to take her place another day, Elsie +was quite undisturbed. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +Elsie Marley was very tired as she locked the door of the library +Saturday night and started for _home_, as she caught herself calling +the parsonage. She had been there the greater part of the day. She +had spoken to Mr. Middleton at breakfast of going over to familiarize +herself somewhat with the encyclopaedias and reference-books, and he +had asked her to look up certain passages and verify one or two +quotations for him. The latter proved a more difficult task for the +girl than the clergyman would have dreamed; but she was very happy in +doing it, gratified, too, to realize that her handwriting was very +clear as well as pretty. And the single cause of her dismay when he +thanked and praised her and referred to her mother--or his sister--was +that she should not be on hand to help him another Saturday. + +The afternoon had been a very busy one, every one in town, seemingly, +old, young, and middle-aged, desiring a book for Sunday. A goodly +number of girls of near her age came in, sweet-faced girls who, though +they couldn't compare with Elsie Moss (who was, however, in a class by +herself), seemed more attractive than those she had seen at home. The +tall boy who was interested in electricity came again and greeted her +shyly, though rather as if they were old friends. Later, older girls +and young men who worked in Boston during the week dropped into the +library to inquire for the latest novel or to spend part of their +half-holiday looking over the picture papers and magazines. All were +extremely cordial and friendly. Without actually overhearing anything, +Elsie, who wasn't at all quick in regard to matters of that sort, +understood, somehow, that there was more or less comparison between +herself and the regular librarian, which was not altogether +complimentary to Miss Stewart. + +As she went up the walk shortly after six o'clock, the girl saw some +one gazing out of the window of the room she had first entered four +days ago, and recalled her first view, which seemed now far back in the +past. There was no one there when she went in, however, and as she +realized that the place had not been touched since her arrival, +suddenly the glow of satisfaction that had cloaked her weariness +changed to wrath. She flew to her room for refuge. + +And now real wrath descended upon her. For she found it as she had +left it that morning. The bed was not made; her nightgown was on the +floor, and the clothes she had worn yesterday scattered about on the +chairs. Her brown eyes looked darker and there was a hint of color in +her cheeks as she ran down to the kitchen and confronted Kate amid the +chaos and confusion of her own domain. + +"Katy, my bed hasn't been made, nor my room done to-day," she cried. + +"Bless my soul, I clean forgot it," said Kate in real consternation. +"I'll go right up this very minute as soon as I've cast my eyes on the +oven, though, to tell you the truth, my feet ache like the toothache." + +Elsie's feet ached, too, for the first time in her life. Wherefore she +partly understood. Her indignation died out. + +"Oh, don't bother then, Katy," she said kindly, "I can sleep on the +couch to-night. And to-morrow, perhaps, you'll do it early before your +feet get tired?" + +Kate insisted upon going. "No, you don't sleep on no sofy; not while I +can crawl about," she declared, and Elsie followed her up-stairs. + +Watching her from her chair by the window, the girl saw that she looked +tired, indeed. + +"I could have slept on the couch, Katy," she protested. + +Kate looked at her--frowned--then smiled. + +"Oh, Miss Elsie, a body'd know you lost your mother young. Now if I'd +'a' forgot your uncle's bed, he'd 'a' made it hisself and said nothing. +There's many young ladies as makes their own beds, and does all but the +heavy sweepin'. I don't suppose you ever did such a thing in your +life?" + +Elsie confessed that she hadn't. She didn't say that it seemed a +burden to turn down the covers. Again Kate frowned and smiled. +Clearly Miss Moss wasn't one to take a hint. + +"How would you like to _learn_?" she inquired. + +"Oh, I never thought," said Elsie. "Why, yes, of course, if you'll +teach me some time, I'll do it every day after I get so that I can." + +For the moment she had forgotten her stay was to be so limited. + +"Bless you, you'll learn in no time; it's nothing to do," Kate assured +her beamingly. "Come here, right now." + +Somewhat taken aback, Elsie complied. She was surprised to find that +it wasn't difficult nor even unpleasant. + +"You see, Miss Elsie, I can't never go about my work and finish one +thing before I take up another," Kate explained. "I'm up and down +these stairs, up and down, up and down, from mornin' till night, +a-waitin' on the missus. When it ain't eggnog, it's beef-tea or gruel, +and then again it'll be frosted cake, icing that thick, upon my word +and honor! And once she gets hold of me, I have to stay and tell her +all the news I get from the grocer and the butcher's boy, and who goes +by and what they has on. Not that I don't admire bein' sociable, and I +can't help havin' a motherly feelin' for one old enough to be my +mother; but I don't get no chance to redd up nowhere except the +dinin'-room and his study. And then you know, I ain't no general +housework girl, anyways, I've always cooked before; but here I have to +do everything, besides waitin' on a woman as isn't any sicker than what +I be. If you knew the money she spends on choc'late creams and +headache powders and the trashy novels she reads, you'd wonder she +ain't even yellower than what she is." + +The next morning Elsie set about trying to do her own room. Before she +had reached the point of attacking the bed, she had decided that she +could save herself a great deal of work by putting things away when she +took them off or used them, instead of dropping them, as she had always +done, for some one else to pick up. Kate came in and insisted upon +helping with the bed. + +"But, Katy, don't you want to get ready for church?" Elsie suddenly +thought to inquire. + +"I went to early mass this mornin', miss. I declare to goodness, I'm +that shabby that I don't like to appear out in broad daylight." + +"Why, Katy, what do you do with all your money? Do you have parents to +support?" + +"No'm, I'm an orphan. But I don't have any ready money, and I don't +like to take what little I have out of the savings-bank. I ain't been +paid my wages sence Christmas." + +Elsie was aghast. "But why don't you ask for them?" she cried. + +"I do. And she keeps a-promisin', but money slips right through her +fingers. I don't like to go to himself about it, because I hate to +upset him, and then she's good to me, and I know them headache powders +makes her forgetful. I don't know where the money goes: she has a +fistful the first of every month, but she owes bills to everybody in +town except the undertaker. What I'm afraid of is as some of 'em'll go +to himself. The ice man is gettin' as sassy as he can live." + +Elsie was shocked beyond expression. The situation would have seemed +inconceivable except that anything was conceivable in connection with +Mrs. Middleton. The girl had almost forgotten that she was departing +shortly, but realizing it, she was the more relieved. Only it would be +all the harder for Elsie Moss. + +Still, even so, she found she couldn't dismiss the matter thus. +Somehow her heart went out to that careless, slipshod, kindly, Irish +Kate. Before she went to church, she slipped into the kitchen and +insisted upon her accepting fifteen dollars to get herself some clothes +before the next Sunday. And when Kate flatly refused to take the +money, she developed a curious resourcefulness. She declared that +unless she took it, she should go to her uncle and ask him to inquire +into the question of her unpaid wages. And Kate succumbed. + +After service, Elsie sat down to write to Elsie Moss. She didn't say +anything she had meant to say. She knew she ought at least to give her +some intimation of the situation, lest the other should be wholly +unprepared and enter perhaps upon some course that must be rudely +interrupted by the end of another week. But she wasn't clever enough +for that. + +She spoke of the place and the people and how much she liked them. She +told of the three afternoons in the library, and remembering how the +other had taken to the children on the train, tried, in her stiff, +constrained way, to describe little Mattie Howe, who minded the baby +all his waking hours and read a Prudy book a day. + +She couldn't even mention Mrs. Middleton. She spoke freely of Elsie's +uncle--almost enthusiastically, indeed--told how he had asked if she +had toothache, and signed herself, rather abruptly, "Your loving +friend, Elsie M----." + +The following morning she found a letter on her plate. She had gone by +the name of Moss nearly a week, yet it gave her a start to see the +address and to break open the envelope. + +It was a bright, amusing letter, as informal as her own had been stiff. +Elsie Moss found Cousin Julia no end jolly, a perfect brick. The +boarding-house was the most interesting place she had ever known, and +the people just right; and though New York was stifling she loved it, +and wasn't the least in a hurry to get to the shore. She expected very +soon to confide her ambition to Miss Pritchard--honestly, she was so +dear and splendid, that it was the greatest wonder that she hadn't told +her she wanted to be an actress before they left the Grand Central +Station. . . . + +"I'm simply perishing to hear from you, Elsie-Honey," the letter +concluded. "Uncle's a darling saint, I know, but you must tell me +about Aunt Milly so I can describe her to my stepmother. I sort of +glossed her over in this letter I enclose for you to forward so that it +will have the Enderby postmark. I came out strong on Uncle John and +the station at Boston, however. And tell me about the servants. I +know there's a servants' hall like in English books, so I suppose they +have a lot. If there's a butler, I almost envy you, for that would be +good practice for me, because most plays have a butler and a French +maid. I shall probably be French-maided to the limit if I ever get a +start, though I'd rather be a slavey or a chimney-sweep! + +"Do you leave your shoes outside the door at night? I should never +remember. The first day I was here I made my own bed! The chambermaid +nearly fell over. + +"Do tell me a lot to write to auntie (that's my stepmother); I have +always told her everything I'm thinking about, and now it will be +rather difficult for I only think now about the stage and Cousin Julia +and you, Elsie-Honey. I hope you think of me?" + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +"Oh, Miss Moss, I think I can come earlier to-morrow afternoon and stay +longer," said little Mattie Howe eagerly. "It's been such a good week +for drying clothes that mother's way ahead on her work, and she'll mind +the baby herself. Charles Augustus is going to take back the last load +this afternoon with his cart." + +"That's nice for you, Mattie, but I shan't be here. Miss Stewart's +coming back to-morrow," replied Elsie. + +The child's bright, thin little face clouded. + +"Oh, dear, oh, dear, these changes are most too much for me, I +declare!" she cried. "I mean changes-_back_ is. The change that +brought you here, Miss Moss, was just sweet. Only I wish it had turned +into a _stay_." + +Elsie drew the little thing close to her. At the moment she herself +almost wished it had been a _stay_. + +"I wonder if that's my _hard_," prattled the child. "Mother says +everybody, even rich people, have hard things to bear. Do you bleeve +so, Miss Moss?" + +Elsie looked startled. + +"Why, Mattie, I hardly know," she faltered. "Ye-es, I suppose every +one does, really." + +"Even you, Miss Moss?" + +Elsie couldn't answer. On a sudden that first day she and Elsie Moss +had been together came back to her. She recalled Elsie's fresh grief +for the death of her mother and her own sense of remissness, and the +class motto that signified through hardships to the stars. Since she +had been at Enderby, things had been disagreeable enough almost to make +up for her former immunity. And yet, she hadn't been here ten days, +and she didn't really have to endure it. Furthermore, she was to +escape from it very shortly. + +"No, Mattie, I don't believe I have had so much that is hard as most +people have," she owned. + +"You are like the princess, you see," murmured the child. "But I +s'pose you feel awfully sorry about your auntie being so poorly? When +mother was sick once I felt as bad _here_ as if I had the stomachache +hard." + +Elsie evaded the issue by hoping politely that the little girl's mother +was quite well now. + +"Oh, yes, Miss Moss, and does four peopleses' washings besides our +own," Mattie declared. "Father works steady most of the time, but +there's five of us, counting the baby, and--sometimes he gets drunk. +Not so very often, he doesn't, but nobody can ever tell when he will +and when he won't, so mother has to help out. Well, I must go now. +When will I see you?" + +Elsie didn't know what to say. Miss Stewart's return had been delayed +from day to day and she had postponed making her decision as to her +course until that matter was settled. Only to-day had she learned that +the librarian would resume her work to-morrow, Saturday, and she +expected to give up her evening to forming her own plans. Until this +moment, she hadn't thought of Mattie as a complication. It didn't seem +possible that one could become so attached to a child of ten years +in--it wasn't yet ten days--that one not only hated to leave her, but +even felt remiss, almost conscience-stricken, in so doing. + +"Won't you come to see us, mother and me and the baby--you'll just love +him, Miss Moss, he can pat-a-cake and by-by and almost talk and lots +else, too. Won't you please come?" the child begged. + +Even with her arm about the child's shoulders, the incongruity of +calling upon a woman who took in washing came to Elsie Marley--likewise +the fact that she wasn't likely to be in Enderby beyond Monday at the +latest. But she surprised herself and delighted Mattie by suddenly +agreeing to come the next day. + +When she spoke of it to Mr. Middleton that night at dinner, expecting +him to be surprised and, perhaps, to protest, she found him interested +and eager. + +"Oh, Elsie, that's capital!" he exclaimed. "She's the nicest sort of +woman, Mrs. Howe is. She's hardly more than a girl in spite of that +little brood of five. She gets out very little, and if you would go +around once in a while it would mean a lot to her. Besides, I'm sure +you'll enjoy her." + +As Elsie sat in her room by the window that evening, she wondered +whether one visit from a person one is never to see again would mean +anything to Mattie's mother? Well, for that matter, whether it would +or not, she had promised to make it and must keep her word. And she +mustn't allow her thoughts to be diverted by that. + +For the opportunity she had sought to complete her plans was hers. Mr. +Middleton had gone out to attend a committee meeting directly after +dinner. Mrs. Middleton she hadn't seen all day. The matter of the +library had settled itself, and her way was clear. + +But somehow her thoughts didn't proceed as she had expected them to do. +She had rather looked for marshalled ranks of reasons standing at +either hand--those saying _go_, of course, largely predominating--which +she would only have to review. Instead her mind wandered, roving back +to the conversation with Mattie, and the little girl's quoting her +mother that every one has a hard to bear. + +Was it really true? She supposed it must be. Mr. Middleton, despite +his serenity, looked as if he had undergone all sorts of things. So +had Elsie Moss. Even poor old Kate had had her share. On the other +hand, there was Mrs. Middleton, there was Elsie's own grandmother and +her mother. And there was Elsie herself. She had never had anything +hard in her life until within a fortnight. + +How curious it was that Mattie should have put her finger upon Mrs. +Middleton as being her particular difficulty, mistaken though her sense +of the situation was. Mrs. Middleton was truly the only _hard_ Elsie +had ever known. Undergoing a certain amount of her society and +submitting to her caresses, sometimes once a day, often less +frequently, was the only ordeal she had ever undergone. And severe +though it was, there were wide spaces between, and those spaces were +the happiest moments she had ever known. + +Now she was planning to throw away all the happiness, the delight, +because of the discomfort. It came to her rather vaguely that perhaps +that was the way with people who seemed never to have had hardships. +They evaded them somehow. And she wondered if some one else had to +shoulder them as so much extra burden? It almost seemed so. + +And yet, why should she remain and endure that dreadful Mrs. Middleton? +What good would it do? Mightn't it, on the contrary, do real harm? +The girl couldn't imagine it as being any easier as the days went by, +but in case it should, what would it mean but that she herself was +becoming coarse--even vulgar? + +In a sense, there wasn't any one now to care whether she was coarse or +not. Elsie Moss might, and Mr. Middleton. He liked her as she was. +He wouldn't like her to be different. And yet, he not only endured +Mrs. Middleton but actually cared for her, and he was as refined as any +one she had ever known, besides being so much more interesting than any +one except Elsie Moss. Possibly he would rather have her altered +somewhat than have the shock of learning the truth of the matter, and +of having a reluctant, and perhaps unwilling, Elsie Moss in the house. + +Elsie Moss, too, liked her as she was. She had called her a princess. +Surely she wouldn't endure any change. And yet again--what if enduring +Mrs. Middleton would mean actually doing something for the other Elsie? +What if not enduring her--flying from difficulty--would mean +disappointment--breaking her ardent heart? + +The clock struck nine, and immediately she heard Mr. Middleton enter +the house. He called to her and Elsie went down. + +He wanted to tell her of a plan they had been discussing at the meeting +in regard to a course of lectures for the coming winter. All +eagerness, he reviewed the whole situation for her benefit, then went +on to tell her of the lectures they had had in other years, and to +compare those in prospect. Elsie, who was already learning to talk, to +express some of the interest she felt, enjoyed it the more that she was +able to respond in a measure--quite enough to satisfy him completely. + +When she went to her room again, it was only to postpone the decision. +To-morrow she would go to see Mattie Howe without knowing whether it +was a farewell call or not. The next day, Sunday, she would decide. +She promised herself solemnly that she would do so. She would shut +herself up in her room directly after dinner, and would not emerge +until she had made up her mind. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +Had Elsie Marley been possessed of more imagination, or had she been +accustomed to use what she had, she might have been better prepared to +meet little Mattie's mother. The child was unusual and showed the +influence of careful upbringing. Further, Mr. Middleton had spoken of +her as looking like a girl and as worth seeking out; and already Elsie +had had a chance to discern that, broad and tolerant as he was, he saw +things as they were (except in the case of his wife), never misstated +and rarely overstated. For all that, she set out on Saturday afternoon +prepared to meet the typical washerwoman of fiction--worn, bedraggled, +shapeless, and forlorn. She was prepared to go into a steaming kitchen +with puddles on the floor and dirty children all about, and have this +red-faced personage take a scarlet hand out of the tub, dry it on a +dirty apron, and hold it out to her. And for her part she was prepared +to take it, damp or clammy as it might be, without a squirm. + +Wherefore, when Mattie ushered her proudly into a pretty, tidy +living-room with a square piano in the corner, and she saw a tall, +slender person with a plain, sweet, girlish face advancing to meet her, +in spite of her resemblance to Mattie, Elsie had no idea who she might +be. She had a confused sense of some neighbor having been brought in +to receive her, and a vague idea of asking to be taken into the kitchen. + +"Oh, mother, here's Miss Moss!" cried Mattie, then dropped her hand and +exclaiming, "My goodness, there's that baby already!" fled into the +entry. + +"I'm so pleased to see you, Miss Moss," said Mrs. Howe quietly. "Sit +there by the window where you get a view of the hill. It's more than +good of you to come. I hope Mattie didn't tease you too much?" + +"No, indeed, she asked me very prettily," said Elsie. "She's a sweet +child." + +"She's good as gold," said her mother. "And she's perfectly wild about +you. She calls you the Princess Moss-rose and makes up stories about +you after she goes to bed." + +Elsie smiled and colored. + +"Don't tell her I told you," warned Mrs. Howe, "she'll be right back. +She had the baby's clean dress ready to pop over his head the moment he +woke up." + +Elsie looked up quickly as if she were about to speak. But though she +said nothing, Mrs. Howe seemed to reply. + +"She takes most all the care of him when she isn't in school," she +admitted. "Some people think she's too young and that it's too hard +for her. But I hardly think so. She's naturally thin, just as I am, +but she's never sick, and she likes it, though, of course, like any +child, she'd like more time to herself. But she's a born mother. And +she really seems to make better use of her spare time than most of the +little girls she plays with. And though I suppose I ought not to say +it, she and Charles Augustus are ever so much better-behaved and +better-mannered than most children who have nothing to do but play--and +sometimes it seems they're happier. You see I taught school three +years up in the State of Maine, which is my home, and I understand +children pretty well, by and large." + +Mattie came in at that moment with the baby, a fair, rosy, fat little +fellow in a starched white dress and petticoats. She put him through +all his tricks to please the visitor, and then asked Elsie if she +wished to hold him. Elsie accepted the honor, though she felt rather +apprehensive. It wasn't bad, however; indeed, the confidence with +which the baby nestled into the arms that didn't know how to enfold him +was rather sweet to the girl. And when he made a sudden dash for the +pink rose in her leghorn hat, she didn't mind it at all. + +Watchful little Mattie minded, however, and took him away quickly lest +he injure any of the princess's royal finery. Then the mother took him +from her, that the little girl might have the major part of Miss Moss's +attention. For the same reason she forbore to call in the other two +children, little girls of five and seven, who were playing with dolls +in the yard. + +But when Charles Augustus came home, his mother proudly summoned him +into the parlor. Elsie had seen him at the library--a solemn, big-eyed +little fellow with a prominent forehead and spectacles. + +When he had shaken hands, his mother told Elsie how much she relied +upon his help. He fetched and carried all the clothes she laundered, +and had recently made a new body for his old cart which would carry a +good-sized clothes-basket. + +"I don't see how you do it--other people's washing," said Elsie +suddenly. + +"I couldn't if Mattie and Charles Augustus didn't help me so much," +replied Mrs. Howe. + +The girl glanced about the pretty room, at the attractive mother in her +neat, faded muslin gown, at the thoughtful children, and the rosy baby. +How dreadful it seemed to wash soiled clothing for four strange +families! + +"Don't you hate it?" she asked with a directness rare to her. + +"Oh, no," said Mrs. Howe quietly. "I love to iron, especially pretty +things, and I don't mind washing, now that I've got set tubs. You +wouldn't believe, would you, that your uncle is responsible for my +having them? He thought of it himself. The first I knew of it was +that the men came to put them in. Isn't that just like him?" + +Elsie agreed. + +"But don't you get awfully tired?" she demanded. + +"Well, yes, Miss Moss, I do. But so does almost every mother of a +little family. You come to take it for granted, you know. A mother +rather sinks her life in that of her children, and--after all, she +doesn't lose half so much as she gains. And getting tired--why, I know +just from what Mattie has told me about the way you do at the library +that you understand the satisfaction of doing for others, and that +getting tired's a part of it." + + +Reaching the parsonage, Elsie didn't go in, but sat on a bench in the +garden for an hour, not thinking, hardly musing, but in a sort of spell +as it were. As she rose at the stroke of six, she was saying to +herself: "I never knew life was like that!" And she repeated it as she +entered the house. + +On the hall-table was a letter from the Elsie in New York. Taking it +to her room, she perused it eagerly. One paragraph she read over +twice, and yet twice again at bedtime. + +"Oh, Elsie-Honey," the passage ran, "I was so relieved and thankful to +get your letter and feel convinced that you like Uncle John and Aunt +Milly just as well as I do Cousin Julia--though I don't see how you +can--quite. It came to me the night before I got your letter--suppose +you should want to swap back? The cold shivers chased one another up +and down my spine and nearly splintered it. Of course, I should have +done it without a word, but oh, Elsie-Honey, I don't mind telling you +now that it would have broken my heart for sure. For I'm simply mad +about Cousin Julia--so dotty over her that I believe if she'd told me I +couldn't on any account study for the stage, I should have kissed her +hand like a meek lamb. Instead of which she knows and approves--that +is, she is willing. Only an angel from heaven would really +approve--and I suppose he (or she) wouldn't. At any rate, my present +job is trying to keep from bursting with happiness." + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +"Elsie, I rather want to hear that Elsie-Marley-Honey-thing again," +remarked Miss Pritchard. "Would you mind doing it now?" + +The two sat alone on the veranda of the hotel at an hour when other +guests were resting after the midday meal. Before them, beyond a +stretch of mosslike lawn and a broad sandy beach, rolled the sea, +brilliantly blue, with the waves curling dazzlingly white. Miss +Pritchard, comfortably dressed in a plain pongee-silk suit with a long +jacket, was ensconced on a willow settee with some recent English +reviews. Elsie, perched on the railing, her back against a pillar, +gazed at the far-away sky-line. She wore a pale-pink linen frock. Her +small face with its dark eyes and big dimples, her bobbed hair, and her +exceeding slenderness of form gave her such an appearance of +youthfulness that she seemed a very tall child, rather than the small +girl she was. + +"I like your manner of speaking of my specialty, Cousin Julia," she +remarked. "Pray tell me why you want to hear it again, if you have +such scant respect for it?" + +Miss Pritchard smiled. "If you must know, child, I want to listen more +critically this time. I'm quite sure I must have praised it far above +its deserts. And now that I understand the situation I ought to be a +better judge." + +Despite her lightness of tone, Miss Pritchard was really desirous of +applying the test. Less than a fortnight after the girl's arrival, she +had learned of Elsie's desire to be an actress. The knowledge came +like a blow, it must be confessed. Broad as she was, she couldn't help +regretting that the girl's desires--and apparently her talent--seemed +to lie in the direction of the stage. Though she had declared she had +no patience with Pritchard notions and pretensions, she couldn't help +feeling that it was hardly decorous for the last of the Pritchards to +become an actress. Moreover, she feared that Elsie's capability did +not point to what is called the legitimate drama; it looked from the +first as if she would make straight for vaudeville and, perhaps, never +go further. After her training she might fill a soubrette's part +acceptably for a few years, but Miss Pritchard sighed when she tried to +look beyond that. To her it seemed like a limited outlook with a +closed door blocking the way at a point long before the age when one's +career should have reached the apex. + +But Elsie's heart was set on it, and Miss Pritchard, despite her +misgivings, was full of sympathy and entered cordially into plans and +ways and means. Her newspaper work had given her friends among +critics, managers, and various theatrical people, and she helped Elsie +select a school wherein to begin her studies. That accomplished, Elsie +reluctantly agreed to accompany Miss Pritchard to the shore to spend +her six weeks' vacation. + +"What I cannot understand," said Miss Pritchard at this time, repeating +very much what she had said before, "is, how you ever did it--how you +could possibly get any such idea into your head with your bringing-up. +For the life of me, I can't imagine your family countenancing any such +thing!" + +"They didn't take to the idea with any enthusiasm," Elsie replied truly. + +"You certainly are the strangest Pritchard ever. You're less Pritchard +than I, and that's saying a great deal," said Miss Pritchard with a +sigh. "Dear me, when I was at Aunt Ellen's when you were a baby, they +were so worried for fear you should have any Marley traits whatever, so +anxious for you to be all Pritchard!" + +"Are you siding with them now?" the girl asked soberly. "Are you +disappointed in me, Cousin Julia?" + +"Bless your heart, dear, I'm so satisfied that I'm frightened, and I +think I'll throw my precious ruby ring into the sea. I wish I could +say that I'd like you to be just so far Pritchard as not to have any +desire for the stage; but I somehow don't dare even say that. You see, +I couldn't risk losing any particle of Marley other than the +stage-madness." + +Elsie came to her side and kissed her warmly. + +"Then suppose we chuck the Pritchards for good," she proposed. + +Miss Pritchard fairly gasped. Such temerity took her breath. But she +didn't give expression to her amazement. Already she had come to the +conclusion that Elsie had not been happy at home; she who was so frank +in all else was so brief and guarded in all her references to the +family or her home life. Now it seemed as if she must have been +exceedingly unhappy, to be ready to renounce the Pritchards in that +wholesale way. And yet, how could any girl whose life had not been +happy--nay, brimming with sunshine--be so gay and blithe and girlish +and care-free as she? Could the reaction from strict repression +possibly have that effect? Could the opportunity to realize her +ambition work such a miracle? Miss Pritchard shook her head. It was +beyond her, she confessed. + +"Now you're down, you may as well do your stunt and have it over, +Elsie," she remarked. And Elsie, standing back a little, repeated the +performance in a manner that was only the more captivating. + +Then, resuming her seat on the railing, she looked eagerly toward Miss +Pritchard. The face of the latter was a study. With every line, every +word, indeed, of the simple song, the actress in the girl had come out +strongly. Admiration of the grace and skill and charm of it all, and +wonder at the extraordinary sweetness of the girl's voice, mingled with +regret at the significance of it. + +"Do you know what you look like, Cousin Julia?" Elsie asked. + +"No, my saucy Marley, I do not." + +"Like 'Heaven only knows'"--the girl heaved a tremendous +sigh--"'whatever will become of the naughty Brier-Rose.'" + +"My dear, if you exhibit that sort of keenness," said Miss Pritchard, +laughing, "I'll make a newspaper reporter of you, willy-nilly. Then +you'll be sorry for poking fun at your elderly relative." + +"It's only that I'm so used to discouragement from my elders and +betters that I'm familiar with the signs," returned Elsie. "Like as +not, if any one were to say, 'Hooray! Bully for you! Go in and win!' +I shouldn't understand. I should think they were kidding me." + +"Poor child!" laughed Miss Pritchard, but she was really secretly +touched. + +At this moment an artist Miss Pritchard had known for years, who always +spent his summers at this hotel, appeared before them. A man between +fifty and sixty, it was said of him that he had never succeeded; +younger, struggling artists said it was because of his handicap of a +fortune. + +"Oh, Miss Marley, I wish I could persuade you to sing that again," he +said. "I caught a bit and a glimpse at a distance--just enough to +tantalize me." + +Elsie, who admired Mr. Graham immensely, was seized with sudden +diffidence. He was a connoisseur in all matters of art. Suppose he +should say right before Miss Pritchard, that she was only a silly +tomboy, or whatever such a gentleman would say to express that idea? +She glanced irresolutely at Miss Pritchard. + +"Go ahead, dear," said Miss Pritchard cheerfully, and turning to her +friend: "My little cousin thought I was scolding her, Mr. Graham. The +truth is, I'm the one who should be scolded. I chose the work I cared +for at about Elsie's age and went in for it; and yet when she chooses +hers, which happens to be the stage, I act the hen-with-the-duckling." + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, you're the only one that has ever let me even speak +of it!" cried Elsie. Tears suddenly filled her eyes, and smiling +through them, she stepped back and began the song. And this time she +put in all the _frills_, as she expressed it. She danced and acted and +sang, and, as always, she was quite irresistible. The artist was +charmed. + +"It's good enough for the vaudeville stage just as it is," he declared. +"There's only one fault." + +"Oh, what is that?" the girl cried eagerly, with the artist's desire +for criticism, even though destructive. + +"Your voice is too good--altogether too good. You could do it as well +and perhaps better with a voice far inferior to yours in range, +sweetness, and tone." + +The girl gazed at him reproachfully. She had always had that to +contend with. People had always tried to "buy her off," as she +expressed it, by proposing that she become a singer instead of an +actress. Now, as always, she rebelled at the idea, and again her +vision of a public singer came to her--a very stout blonde lady in a +very low-cut gown with a very small waist (the picture had not adapted +itself to more modern fashions), placing a fat, squat hand on her +capacious bosom, and uttering meaningless syllables that rose to +shrieks. Anything but that, she said to herself! + +Mr. Graham had fallen into a reverie. His hand shaded his brow. He +frowned as he endeavored to recollect something. + +"Just where did you get hold of that song?" he inquired. + +"My mother used to sing it," replied Elsie, and Miss Pritchard +wondered. So far as she had known, none of the Pritchards had sung, +and it was difficult to fancy Elsie's mother warbling a ditty of that +sort. The birth of her child must have altered Augusta greatly. + +"It's an old nursery rhyme, I believe," the artist went on, still half +in his perplexity. "Isn't it singular about the name--or perhaps you +were named for it?" + +"I was named _after_ it," responded Elsie demurely. + +He smiled, but he was only half attending. He was reaching for +something in the depths of his mind which he did not find, and +presently he sauntered on with bent head. Miss Pritchard took up the +_Spectator_, and Elsie produced the "First Violin," and presently was +lost in that. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +The next day as the artist met Elsie on the beach on her way to the +bath-house, his face lighted up. + +"Oh, Miss Marley, it all came back to me, after twenty years," he +exclaimed. "Something about you has haunted my memory ever since I +first saw you last week, and the song yesterday made it more definite +and more perplexing. I woke in the night and it all came back. I +heard that very same song on the train going South as a young +man--comparatively young, though you wouldn't call it so. Do you want +to sit down a moment and let me tell you? + +"I haven't even thought of it for a dozen years," he said when they had +found a convenient bench. "As I said, we were bound southward, and it +was toward night. The seat in front of me was occupied by an +exceedingly pretty young lady and a gentleman who must have been her +brother or her husband--girls married younger in those days--for their +name, which escapes me, was the same. Farther ahead, on the opposite +side of the car, was a woman with an infant in her arms and a boy baby +of under two years at her side. As it grew late, the older baby grew +tired and cross. He wanted his mother, was jealous of the tiny one, +and finally he just howled. The young lady before me said a word to +her companion and went directly over. + +"That kid, Miss Marley, was dirty and sticky beyond words, and she was +the daintiest, freshest, sweetest girl imaginable. But she smiled and +held out her arms and he just tumbled into them. She hugged the little +beggar close, never minding her pretty gown, and brought him back to +her seat. She seemed to know just what to do--took off his shoes, +loosened the neck of his dress and all that, then cuddled him down and +sang to him until he went to sleep and after. Her voice was as sweet +as yours, and she sang the very same thing, 'And Do You Ken Elsie +Marley'--I think she sang it twice or thrice." + +Perhaps it was Elsie's fondness for children; perhaps it was because he +told the story so well; in any event, the girl was touched. And as +usual, to cover her feeling, she tried to smile, her dimples rather at +variance with the tears in her eyes. + +He gazed at her curiously. "Wait, Miss Marley, that isn't all," he +exclaimed. "As I recalled the young lady, I saw her face only dimly. +Now do you know it suddenly comes to me that she had the largest, +deepest dimples I had ever seen, one in either cheek. And I remember +vowing then and there, in my youthful enthusiasm, that if ever I +attempted to paint Madonna she should have just such dimples; they +struck me as somehow significant, perhaps symbolic." + +Elsie's heart was beating wildly. + +"I wonder--could that have been your mother, Miss Marley?" + +The girl could not speak for the tumult within her. + +"It seems as if their name began with M, though it couldn't have been +Marley, else I should have noticed on account of the song," he went on +kindly, realizing her emotion. "May I ask what was your mother's +maiden name, Miss Marley?" + +Quite upset, Elsie started to tell the truth; said Mi--and stopped +short. + +"Middleton!" he exclaimed triumphantly. + +"Pritchard," she said as quickly as she could get it out. + +"_Pritchard?_" he repeated as if he must have heard wrong. + +"Augusta Pritchard," the girl reiterated, her heart like a stone. + +The artist was puzzled. But realizing that the loss of her mother +might have been so recent as to be still a painful subject, he +tactfully spoke of other things, cloaking his disappointment at not +being able to work out his problem to final solution. He feared lest +he might somehow have blundered upon some sad family secret. Even with +twenty years between them, he couldn't believe that his senses had so +deceived him, couldn't but feel that that young girl had been connected +with this girl of the big dimples. And he couldn't but believe that +the girl knew it. Only there was something that prevented her +acknowledging it. It might be tragedy; perhaps it was disgrace? +Though, somehow, he couldn't think it. Poor little thing! He let her +go on her way to her bath. + +But Elsie returned to the hotel and went straight to her room. She +knew she would be undisturbed there, for Miss Pritchard had gone +driving with old friends while she was to have had her swim. The girl +flung herself upon her bed and, burying her face in her pillow, shed +the bitterest tears of her life. + +She had denied her mother--that darling, adorable mother who had taken +the sticky baby to her heart, and sung "Elsie Marley" to him, just as +she had later sung it to her own little girl. She had cast off her +mother and taken on--_Augusta Pritchard_! What a name to exchange for +Elizabeth Middleton! For even though the former were the mother of the +lovely Elsie Marley who had gone to Enderby, she couldn't be compared +with her beautiful mother. And, of course, her denial was far worse in +that she was dead. + +How proud, how happy, how humble, she should have been to say: "Why, of +course, that was my mother! I knew it without the dimples!" What a +wretch she must be! To have had such a mother as to have so impressed +a chance stranger that he should wish to paint the Madonna in her +likeness, and should have remembered her twenty years, and to have +repudiated her utterly! + +She felt that she could not bear it, could not endure such a weight on +her heart. But what could she do? Say to Mr. Graham that it _was_ her +mother and her name _was_ Middleton? Then she would have to tell +Cousin Julia everything, and she would send her away, send her off to +poke and fret in Enderby, and serve tea in a conventional parsonage +drawing-room. And she would never be an actress, and the true Elsie +Marley would be dragged on to New York. + +It would be hard on Elsie-Honey, for already she seemed just to love +that poky parsonage, and was apparently quite as attached to Uncle John +as she herself was to Cousin Julia. And even Cousin Julia--already +Elsie couldn't but realize that Cousin Julia had given her her whole +heart; she wouldn't have liked the other girl so well in the first +place, and now any such overturn would--it would just break her heart! + +No, that couldn't be. After all, she couldn't have done otherwise. +She _had_ to say what she did on account of the game. Being cast for a +part, she had to play it, even though it might be disagreeable at +times. And it _wasn't_ worse because her mother was dead; being in +heaven, her mother would understand and condone. How did that hymn go? + +She sat erect and sang, very sweetly, the stanza that applied: + + "There is no place where earth's sorrows + Are so felt as up in heaven, + There is no place where earth's failings + Have such kindly judgment given." + + +That comforted her strangely. "Uncle John couldn't have administered +first aid himself more successfully," she said to herself humorously as +she dried her eyes. + +She bathed her face and, standing before the mirror, addressed the +charming reflection in the pink frock. She mustn't expect plain +sailing all the time she warned her. She must expect to be _up against +it_ frequently. She must keep her class motto in mind and not expect +everything to be dead easy. It was hard not to be able to claim one's +beautiful mother; but she was playing a part; she was on the stage in +costume, and the part-she-was-playing's mother's name wasn't Middleton +nor Moss and was Augusta Pritchard. She must keep her motto in mind +and say continually to herself: "Act well your part, there all the +honor lies." + +That very evening at dinner some one asked her where she got her +dimples--whether they were inherited? + +"Or, perhaps, Miss Marley's a freak like the white peacock at the +gardens?" broke in a callow youth whom Elsie disliked. + +"From my mother," she said quickly, and Miss Pritchard, sensitive to +the least sound of hurt in Elsie's voice, introduced another subject. + +Nevertheless, she wondered. She hadn't seen Augusta Pritchard since +the latter was a girl of nineteen, but she couldn't recollect that she +had any dimples or shadows of dimples. She couldn't even imagine the +combination of dimples with her white, cold, rather expressionless +face, nor reconcile them with the true Pritchard temperament. It +seemed inconceivable that Elsie could have inherited them except +through the Marleys; and yet, of course, Elsie remembered her mother +who had died only three years ago. + +She had to consider that the girl didn't like that fresh Jerrold boy +and had been nettled by his remark. Possibly in her indignation she +had said what first came into her mind, though it didn't seem like her. +Miss Pritchard sighed, for she had worshipped at the shrine of truth +all her life, and strive as she would, she couldn't but feel a +deviation from Elsie's wonted frankness here. + +She pondered much upon the subject and later in the summer--on the +evening preceding their return to New York, it was--as they were +talking about Elsie's studying, Miss Pritchard suddenly became serious. + +"Elsie, there's something I want to say to you as an older woman to a +young girl," she began. "You will have one difficulty to contend with +that I had in newspaper work, only in your case the temptation will be +greater, and your task correspondingly harder. There's a poem of a +child-actor of Queen Elizabeth's time, little Salathiel Pavy, who +constantly played the part of an old man. The verses relate that he +acted the part so naturally that the fates mistook him for an old man +and cut off his thread of life in his tender years. Now you, Elsie +dear, concerned with make-believe--fiction--as you will constantly be +in your study for the stage, eager, of course, to use every moment and +occasion, with one subject dominating your thoughts, will need to be +very, very careful with regard to your separate, personal life. In +other words, in good old-fashioned terms, you'll have to guard your +soul. Keep that good and pure and true. Keep that sacred, above and +apart from your work, and then whether you are ever a great actress or +not, you will be a good woman." + +And then half shyly, but beautifully, she repeated Matthew Arnold's +"Palladium": + + "Set where the upper streams of Simois flow, + Was the Palladium, high 'mid rock and wood; + And Hector was in Ilium far below, + And fought and saw it not, but there it stood. + + It stood and sun and moonshine rained their light + On the pure columns of its glen-built hall. + Backward and forward rolled the waves of fight + Round Troy; but while this stood, Troy could not fall. + + So in its lovely moonlight lives the soul. + Mountains surround it and sweet virgin air; + Cold plashing, past it, crystal waters roll: + We visit it by moments, ah, too rare! + + Men will renew the battle on the plain + To-morrow; red with blood will Xanthus be; + Hector and Ajax will be there again, + Helen will come upon the wall to see. + + Then we shall rust in shade or shine in strife, + And fluctuate 'twixt blind hopes and blind despairs, + And fancy that we put forth all our life, + And never know how with the soul it fares. + + Still doth the soul from its lone fastness high, + Upon our life a ruling effluence send: + And when it fails, fight as we will, we die; + And, while it lasts, we cannot wholly end." + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +"I suppose," observed the real Elsie Marley thoughtfully, drawing one +of her long curls over her shoulder, "that if I'm going to be at the +library regularly, I'd better put up my hair?" + +She addressed Mr. Middleton, but his wife, who had of late fallen into +the habit of sitting downstairs in the evening, replied. She had +conceived a strong fancy to the girl, who secretly shrank from her, and +bore herself toward her in a cold and distant manner. + +"Oh, Elsie, love, it would be sweet to do it sort of _Grecian_," she +cried in her sentimental fashion, "with a classic knot at the nape of +your neck, and little curls hanging down behind your ears." + +"Let her leave it as it is a little longer, Milly," her husband +pleaded, "for it's just as her mother wore hers." + +This was not the fact, even though Elsie had been truly his niece. His +sister had worn her hair in curls, but they had been many and riotous, +and caught at the top of her head with a ribbon; while Elsie's two were +fastened at her neck by a neat clasp, and hung as demurely as a braid +would have done. + +"Of course," assented Mrs. Middleton. "Elsie's the picture of her +mother, I suppose?" + +"She reminds me of her mother more and more every day," he said, "but +she doesn't look like her at all. You remember I told you that +Elizabeth had enormous dimples? They were so large that I'm not sure +that they wouldn't have disfigured another face; but they added the +last touch to hers--made it irresistible." + +He gazed at the fire. It was late September and a chill rain beat +against the windows. + +"I suppose if Elizabeth had had a son, _he_ would have inherited the +dimples," he remarked. "I believe they say girls take traits from +their fathers and sons from the mother. Curious, isn't it?" + +"Well, my dear, if Elsie had had dimples when she came, she would have +lost them ere this," said Mrs. Middleton with unusual energy. "She's +been put right into a treadmill, Jack. Only sixteen, sweet sixteen, +and she hasn't had any of the gayety a young girl wants and needs, but +has just slaved from morning until night ever since she came to us. At +her age, she ought to be going to dances and lying late in the morning +to make up sleep, and shopping and having beaux and all that sort of +thing, just as her Aunt Milly did." + +She sighed deeply, clasping her ringed hands. Elsie was indignant, +even angry; but before she could protest, Mrs. Middleton went on. + +"Instead of which, she started work at the library the first thing and +has been off and on ever since, and is now going to do it permanently, +besides teaching a class in the Sunday-school, looking after the +choir-boys, running errands for you, and what not." + +"My dear Milly!" cried her husband, really distressed; and went on to +explain that when they decided to open the library in the evening as +well as the afternoon, some one had to relieve Miss Stewart for two of +the afternoon hours, and every one had clamored for Elsie. + +"And I love to do it," added Elsie, "and I'm so pleased that I am to +have the hours when the children are out of school." + +"Of course," agreed Mrs. Middleton, smiling; "dear lambs! I should +have felt just the same. Indeed, you're so like I was at your age, +Elsie, dearest, that I feel as if it were to _me_ that you are really +related." + +Elsie murmured a silent word of deprecation, forgetting, as she often +did, that she wasn't related to Mr. Middleton, either. + +The rain beat furiously. The minister rose and put another stick on +the fire. He did not return to his seat but stood with his elbow on +the mantel gazing at his wife. Though thin, John Middleton looked +strong and well, in part, perhaps, because of his florid complexion, +partly because of his serenity. But in moments of stress he had a way +of seeming to grow worn and older under one's very eyes. + +He felt the cogency of his wife's words. He had, indeed, he said to +himself, taken possession of his sister's orphan child immediately upon +her arrival, and had made a sort of drudge of her: he kept her +constantly occupied, performing miscellaneous services for him--he +wasn't sure that he could have demanded so much of a paid secretary. +And she, like her mother, unselfish and devoted, had made no complaint. + +He spoke before Elsie, who was slow of speech and was regretting that +she didn't share the real Elsie Moss's gift of expression, was able to +put her feeling into words that would convince him. + +"No wonder you felt like putting up your curls and saying farewell to +youth, Elsie," he said whimsically yet ruefully. "Your aunt is just +right, dear, and we'll make a change at once. What should you say to +going on to New York to make your little actress friend a visit, and +then starting anew after you come back?" + +Now the color flew to Elsie's cheeks and words came. + +"Oh, Uncle John, I wouldn't go now for the world!" she cried in genuine +dismay. "I'm just longing to go to the library every day--I think it's +just--splendid! And I like it all--everything--so very much. It isn't +the least a treadmill, and I'm so happy doing it. Please, please, +don't take anything away; only give me more." + +He felt the sincerity of her words, and again said to himself that the +girl was her mother over again. His wife went over to Elsie, and +stroking back her hair, kissed her brow fondly. And the color died out +of the girl's cheeks and the glow from her heart as she shuddered +within herself. And presently when Mr. Middleton went to his study to +work, she bade Mrs. Middleton a cool good night and fled to her room. + +She sat by the window some time, then went to bed; but though the sound +of the rain was soothing, she could not get to sleep. It came to her +that it was very thoughtful of Uncle John to wish to send her to visit +Elsie; and how she would have liked to go if it didn't entail leaving +the library and all the fascinating round of her daily life, and +leaving him to his wife's cold comfort. How she would like to see +Elsie Moss at this moment, to confide her troubles and her happiness to +that sympathetic ear. If they could talk together, she could make the +other understand that even with Mrs. Middleton as a drawback, she was +more content, happier, than she had ever been before. And she couldn't +help feeling that she was useful, too, in a measure--that she would be +missed if she were to go to New York. + +Still she could not sleep, and presently she found herself puzzling +over a problem that had been growing upon her and now bulked big. The +truth was that already the weight of the top-heavy household had fallen +upon the girl's shoulders. Utterly unprepared and ignorant, she had +been thrust into a tangled labyrinth of domestic affairs. The more +familiar she had become with the internal working of the household, the +more was she baffled and daunted. And presently it seemed to her +youthful inexperience as if it stood upon the brink of ruin. + +Though the minister was unaware that the bills were not paid promptly +at the beginning of each month, Mrs. Middleton owed practically every +establishment in the place accounts that dated far back. At this time +the small sums she could pay on account when her funds came in were +insufficient to satisfy any one, and one and another began to threaten +Kate with going to Mr. Middleton and demanding a settlement. They +declared it wasn't respectable for him to be giving away so much money +when he owed probably more than a year's salary. + +Kate's only recourse was to her mistress, who would be temporarily +depressed, now and then to the point of tears. But shortly she either +forgot all about it or postponed consideration until another month; and +meantime she never parted with her last penny: she always kept enough +on hand for an ample supply of novels, chocolate drops, and +headache-powders, the latter being especially expensive, according to +Kate. + +Ignorant as Elsie was, it did not take her long to understand that the +household was managed--or allowed to run on--with the utmost +extravagance and waste. She had prevailed upon Kate to set the greater +part of the big house in order and to keep it tidy, and she tried to +induce her to be less wasteful and reckless. But the girl was +developing a certain sense of justice, and she rather doubted her right +to insist. Devoted as Kate was to Mr. Middleton, and attached, in an +apologetic, shame-faced way, to her mistress, overworked and unpaid, +save for the sums Elsie forced upon her, how could she demand that Kate +be more scrupulous about details? It would seem that she had all she +could carry without that. + +The girl fell asleep at last, and woke next morning with the pleasant +reflection that she was to begin to-day at the library as a regular +salaried assistant. Second thought was still more cheering. As soon +as the minister was out of the house, and she heard Kate go down-stairs +from Mrs. Middleton's room, she betook herself to the disorderly +kitchen. At her entrance Kate rose suddenly and went and peered +anxiously into the oven--which was empty. Elsie would have liked to +tell her that she didn't begrudge her those stolen moments for resting +her tired feet, but she hadn't yet learned to express her new +sensations. It was sufficiently difficult to explain her errand. + +"Katy, here are your wages for last week," she said rather brusquely, +trying to press the money into her hands. "Mrs. Middleton will--I hope +she'll pay you in full very soon, but at any rate she--that is, you're +going to get your wages regularly every week, and I'm going to see to +it so that it shan't be neglected. And always come to me if there's +anything to ask. Please don't go to her unless about the back pay." + +"Oh, Miss Elsie, you're so good!" cried Kate warmly, believing she had +arranged it with Mr. Middleton. "I'm sorry I complained. You must 'a' +known I didn't mean half what I said. I wouldn't really 'a' gone to +himself about it. But honest, I ain't got a whole pair o' stockin's, +and can't wear them pumps I got last summer on account o' the holes, +and her a-growin' yellower every day and a-layin' round and eatin' +chocolate drops and headache-powders that cost good money and ain't no +benefit." + +She stuffed the money into a drawer of the table with a miscellaneous +assortment of less valuable things. While Elsie was wondering if she +could speak about the condition of the kitchen, which Elsie Moss would +have pronounced unspeakable, Kate drew near to her with real appeal in +her blue eyes. + +"And, Miss Elsie, I wish you hadn't let what I've confided to you sort +o' set you against your aunt. Everybody has their failin's, they do +say, and after all if she don't do worse than eat choc'late-creams and +munch headache-tablets, why, she's pretty harmless as ladies go. Mis' +Jonathan Metcalf as goes to his church is just as yellow and I don't +know but what yellower, and bedizened as well, and a regular shrew in +her own house." + +"Katy, I don't know what you mean," Elsie returned with dignity. + +"Well, you call her Mis' Middleton, when you speak of her, with your +voice like a buzz-saw, and it ain't because you're high and mighty with +me, 'cause you ain't. You're like a sister to me, and I ain't once +thought of up and leavin' sence you come as I did frequent before. And +besides, when you talk of himself, you always say Uncle John. And +she's good at heart, Miss Elsie; honest, she is. She'd be just as good +as himself if she knew as much. Her heart's in the right place, and +she takes to you and don't mistrust you don't to her." + +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, +as you call it," said Elsie, rather neatly as she believed. + +[Illustration: "Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' +up your kitchen, as you call it."] + +"Oh, there's plenty of time for that," Kate assured her cheerfully; "if +not to-day, why there's another comin'." + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +The kitchen wasn't _redd up_ that day nor the next. It remained, +indeed, a sight to make a good housekeeper weep, and closets, +cupboards, clothes-presses, and the celebrated servants' parlor +remained untidy conglomerations of rubbish; but the general appearance +of the place continued to improve. Kate's gratitude for the regular +receipt of her wages was continual and practical. A chance visitor now +could enter any room in the front of the house at any hour, and there +was much comment among the people upon the change. + +It was generally agreed that Elsie Moss must have been very carefully +trained by her stepmother to bring about such a marvel. And presently +some of the creditors of the household began to wonder if her influence +couldn't be extended. One and another began to drop hints to Elsie +which became so broad that even one quite unaccustomed to any such +thing could not fail to understand. The butcher's wife, the grocer's +sister, and the draper's head bookkeeper had all but informed her in so +many words that unless their respective relatives or patrons were paid +in full by the 1st of November, they would present their bills to Mr. +Middleton, if they had to do so in the vestibule of the church. + +And they were only three out of a number that seemed legion. Others +spoke more plainly to Kate, and Elsie began to dread seeing certain +people enter the library during her hours there. The days being +shorter, the Howe baby went to bed at five o'clock, and little Mattie, +who had taken a violent fancy to Elsie, used to run to the library the +moment he was off her hands, remaining until six to walk home with her. +And Elsie, who was devoted to the child and never tired of her company, +was also relieved because her presence protected her from any but +veiled hints. + +The situation wore upon her, and finally she decided to have a frank +talk with Mrs. Middleton. She wasn't, it is true, on terms of +frankness with her, and in a sense it wasn't her place to interfere. +But she knew that Mrs. Middleton wouldn't want the bills presented to +her husband any more than Kate did--nor, indeed, than Elsie herself. +Not that she would have cared, except for Mr. Middleton's sake. It +would serve Mrs. Middleton right to be brought up short, but she +dreaded the thought of his being so distressed; she didn't want him to +give up the few little comforts he allowed himself, and she knew it +would hurt him cruelly to have to retrench in his giving. + +She wrote to Mr. Bliss, her lawyer, asking him to send her five hundred +dollars, mailing the letter to the other Elsie to be forwarded from New +York. That seemed to her inexperience a large sum and able to work +wonders. But before her letter had reached New York she began to feel +as if it wouldn't be sufficient to make everything straight for a new +start; and before there was time for an answer from San Francisco, she +was sadly convinced that it would be only a drop in the bucket. +Whereupon she decided that if Mr. Bliss sent it to her without comment, +and didn't evidently consider it a very large sum, she would ask him to +duplicate it. + +With a certain relief, she put off the frank talk with Mrs. Middleton +until she should have received the money. It did not arrive so soon as +she expected it, and she was still waiting when Kate came to her in +excitement one morning saying that the iceman wouldn't leave any ice +unless he were paid cash. Elsie produced her portemonnaie. + +"Oh, Miss Elsie, I hate to take your money," protested Kate with tears +in her eyes. "I wouldn't 'a' come to you only I'm strapped myself, +what with buyin' the hat with all them plumes, and the missus after +borrowin' my last five-dollar bill." + +"Katy Flanagan, what made you let her have it?" cried the girl almost +fiercely. + +"Well, Miss Elsie, the truth is, I couldn't resist her. There's +something about her, you know--a-askin' so airy like, and forgettin' +how--goodness, the man'll clear out with his ice if I don't fly." + +Thereafter, Elsie paid also for the ice and the milk, leaving, out of +her allowance and the money she received for the library work, barely +enough for postage. But she didn't mind that; it was really a slight +sacrifice. She cared so much for the work at the library that she +would have paid for the privilege of doing it; and she had come so well +provided with all the accessories of clothing that she hadn't even to +buy gloves for another year. + +Looking forward, she began to speculate on the possibility of starting +anew after finances were once straightened out. It appeared doubtful, +she being herself more ignorant than Kate, but presently a happy +suggestion presents itself to her. One afternoon she asked Mrs. King, +a kind, motherly, grey-haired lady who taught domestic science at the +high school and came to the library frequently, whether there were any +book to teach one how much to spend each week on different articles for +a household. + +"Oh, Miss Moss, I'm so glad you spoke, for I've been wanting to tell +you about our seniors in domestic science this year at the high school. +I think I have the nicest class I've ever had. We meet three times a +week at eleven o'clock, and I have wondered if you might not like to +join? Knowing that your aunt is an invalid, I thought you might want +to take the care off her shoulders, and I feel sure our course would +help you. You know all the girls, I think, and I should be more than +pleased to help you make up what they have been over already." + +Elsie could scarcely express her delight. She spoke to Mr. Middleton +that evening. He had no idea of her ultimate purpose; indeed, he did +not realize the confusion in which he lived, and was rather amused at +the idea, but considered it an excellent method of getting better +acquainted with the young people, and was pleased at her eagerness. + +She entered the class at once, found the study delightful and very +helpful, and the days fairly flew by. She was, after all, only +sixteen, and extraordinarily immature in many ways; and it was not +perhaps remarkable that after a few lessons, with extra help from Mrs. +King, she began to feel quite capable of shouldering the housekeeping +at the parsonage. But the more ready she felt, the less did she desire +to propose it to Mrs. Middleton. + +Such a step was not made easier by the fact that the latter took a keen +interest in her lessons at the school. She endeavored, not always +successfully, to draw the girl out upon the subject, questioning her +with some felicity, praising her ambition, and taking it for granted +that she was an unusual pupil and a great addition to the class. And +she constantly bemoaned the fact that it had been necessary for Elsie +to go outside for the instruction that she would herself have delighted +to give her, had her strength permitted. Nothing could have gratified +her more, she declared, clasping her hands and raising her eyes to the +ceiling, but she didn't even dare allow herself to dwell upon it. For +she had just enough strength to manage her own household (as every lady +should do), and she hadn't the moral right to use it for other purposes. + +Meantime, three weeks had passed since Elsie had written to ask her +lawyer for the five hundred dollars, and she began to feel troubled. +Of course, she had to allow for letter and answer going through Elsie +Moss's hands, but three weeks should have covered that. She watched +the mails anxiously. As she returned from the library on the +twenty-fourth day since she had sent her request, she decided that +unless she should hear that night, she would have Elsie Moss telegraph +from New York. For the end of October approached, and she felt she +couldn't face the crisis of the 1st of November, without the aid and +the moral support of the money. + +She was surprised to see the doctor's motor-car standing at the door, +and startled when Kate, wild-eyed and dishevelled, met her at the +threshold. + +"Uncle John? Has anything happened?" she faltered. + +"No, it ain't him. He's in the city, pore lamb, and it's myself is +thankful you'll be here to tell him. It's her. Riggs was here +a-dunnin' me for his money soon after you left, and nothin' would do +but that I should go up to her whiles he waits in the kitchen. And a +lucky thing it was, too, for there he was to go for the doctor--we both +forgot clean about the telephone." + +"But what is it?" cried Elsie. + +"I found her on the floor like a log, Miss Elsie. She ain't dead at +all, but she ain't come to, and maybe won't from taking of too many of +them headache-powders as I knew was no good but didn't think no harm +of." + +On a sudden, without warning, Kate dropped her head upon Elsie's +shoulder and began to sob wildly. + +"Oh, Katy, don't," begged Elsie, truly distressed. "You and I must +keep up for the sake of----" + +"Of himself, miss, I know," sobbed Kate, "but, oh, I feel as if it was +my own mother--or my own baby, I don't know which." + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +Elsie Moss's school was quite unlike her expectations, and her +companions not at all like those of her eager dreams. Just as at art +school one begins, she knew, with the study and copying of the antique, +so the girl had supposed that in studying for the stage, one would +approach it through the masterpieces of the drama. On the contrary, +she didn't so much as hear the name of Shakespeare or of any other dead +or classic dramatist during the first two months; and though she had to +work as hard as she had expected to do, it sometimes seemed as if it +were practice that didn't really count. The drill seemed to be all in +the way of suppleness of limb and facility of facial expression without +intellectual stimulus; indeed, it almost seemed as if the whole +tendency of the school was rather narcotic than stimulating. + +Further, the girls with whom she came in contact shared her ideals as +little as their pasts had anything in common with hers. Many of them +were not older in years, but one and all were incomparably older in +other ways and painfully sophisticated. Pretty in a coarse way, +painted and powdered, bold and often vulgar, they were almost without +exception girls whose whole lives had been spent in the atmosphere of +the stage, and that in its cheaper and poorer aspects. One or both +parents, brother, sister, aunt, or uncle had figured in shows or +exhibitions of some sort, and they had fallen into the profession in +that manner. None had, like Elsie, chosen it as a calling. + +Disappointed as she was, disheartened utterly at moments, the girl +hugged her class motto to her breast and struggled on. So deep was her +purpose, so strong her interest, that she not only pressed doggedly on, +but forced a certain amount of satisfaction out of the struggle. How +it might have been had she not possessed in Miss Pritchard a solace and +refuge, it would be difficult to say. Elsie herself hardly knew how +much courage and strength she gained during the evenings and other +fragments of time spent with her. Looking forward to that +companionship gave her patience to endure many a difficult hour which +perchance she had not endured otherwise. But with that always before +her, despite the hardships that were so different from those for which +she had been prepared, she was nevertheless wonderfully happy--perhaps, +happier than she had ever been before. + +Sometimes, when the day had been unusually trying, she would greet Miss +Pritchard at night with a warmth that almost frightened the latter, +clinging to her as if she would never let her go. But she never +confessed any of her troubles connected with the school. She talked +much of it, but it was always of the most interesting occurrences and +of amusing incidents. For her heart was in the matter as much as ever, +and Miss Pritchard wasn't so favorably inclined toward it as to make it +prudent to let her know of the disadvantages. + +But it was terribly hard for one of her nature to have no one in whom +to confide, and she longed for Elsie Marley. If she could have talked +things over with Elsie Marley it would have made it easier. Simply to +unburden her heart would mean much. Ever since she had been in New +York she had longed to see Elsie again; and with this added reason, and +a desire to learn more of her life in Enderby than she could gather +from her stiff and rather non-committal letters, she began to feel, +about the time that she forwarded a letter to Elsie's lawyer in San +Francisco, that she must induce her to come to New York for a visit. + +A letter from her stepmother seemed to render it almost imperative. +Mrs. Moss, who was devoted to Elsie and missed her sadly, was greatly +troubled by the irregularity of the girl's letters and hurt by their +want of frankness. Knowing that John Middleton had not approved of +Elsie's father marrying her, she began to fear lest he be trying to +turn his niece against her. Now she had written to protest against the +perfunctory letters, which, instead of allowing her to share in any way +in Elsie's life, shut her out. + +Elsie was deeply moved and full of compunction. She loved her +stepmother dearly and thought of her constantly, faithful soul that she +really was. She was always wondering how _auntie_ would take this or +view that; but the very topics she was moved to enlarge upon in her +letters were those which circumstances forbade her to mention. All her +interests were connected with Miss Pritchard, of whose very existence +Mrs. Moss was unaware, with the school, and less directly with Elsie +Marley, whose name she was masquerading under. Leaving all these out +of consideration, and depending almost wholly upon the fragments she +received concerning life in the parsonage at Enderby, a brief letter +once in three or four weeks was the utmost the girl could compass. + +Immediately upon receipt of her stepmother's letter, she determined to +ask Miss Pritchard if she might invite her friend Elsie Moss to come on +for a week or a fortnight. As she waited for Miss Pritchard to come +from the office that night, however, it suddenly occurred to her to +wonder if it would be quite safe. Despite her enthusiastic admiration +of Elsie Marley, which had not in the least abated, and despite the +unfavorable impression she had of the Pritchards, which only deepened +as the days passed, she had come to feel that in personal appearance +and somewhat in manner her friend must resemble her kinsfolk. + +In which case it would be as dangerous for the well-being of the one as +of the other for her to be brought in contact with Miss Pritchard. +For, stiff as were her letters and non-committal, Elsie knew that there +was little difference in the strength of attachment that held the wrong +Elsie to the place she had usurped in either instance. Whatever she +might do, therefore, she mustn't bungle or err in that respect. + +The Pritchard estate was not yet settled. The house had been sold and +such personal effects and heirlooms as were to be kept for Elsie Marley +put in storage for the time in San Francisco. Elsie Moss understood +this, and knew that Miss Pritchard did so; but she felt that the latter +wondered that she had no relics or keepsakes with her. She had had to +confess one day that she had no photographs of her family she would be +willing to show, leaving Miss Pritchard to make such inference as she +would. + +That evening at the dinner-table--she felt it would be easier to +approach the matter in semi-public--Elsie asked her if she happened to +have any old Pritchard photographs. + +"Yes, dear, I have an old album in the chest by the window that has +pictures of Aunt Ellen, Cousin Ellen, and Cousin Augusta. There are +half a dozen, I think, of Cousin Ellen, and three or four of your +mother, but no baby picture of you, nor any other, if that's what +you're looking for. After my father died we began to lose connection +with one another, and after that visit I made when you were a baby, all +communication ceased. So I got no photographs after that." + +"No, I wasn't thinking of my kid pictures, Cousin Julia. I was +just--wondering," the girl returned. "Would it be an awful bother to +get out the album?" + +"No bother at all, child. To tell the truth, I love to get it out, for +there are a lot of other pictures besides the Pritchards that I like to +look over. There's a picture of my Cousin Arthur Moore, who fell in +the battle of Lookout Mountain, that I'd like you to see." + +When the old-fashioned, velvet-bound, nickel-clasped book was produced, +Elsie almost forgot her immediate purpose in her interest in the +likenesses. But one of Ellen Pritchard at fourteen, Miss Pritchard's +cousin and supposedly _her_ aunt, brought her up sharply. For Elsie +Marley was the very image of it. Rearrange her hair, put her into the +beruffled skirt and polonaise, and she might have sat for it. Or part +this girl's hair and gather it loosely back, dress her in a tailored +suit and correct blouse, and she would be Elsie Marley. What a +frightful thing this family resemblance was! Elsie stifled a sigh. +Her cake was dough, sure enough! + +Partly to ease her dismay and postpone considering her problem until +she should be alone, the girl gave herself up to the study of the other +pictures. It wasn't difficult to lose herself, for she found them of +absorbing interest. + +Among the Pritchards, Elsie's grandmother was the most striking +personage. The strength and sagacity of her handsome face, which the +expression of pride could not conceal, related her to Miss Pritchard +unmistakably. Pride, mingled with frailty and general lack of other +expression, characterized the invalid daughter; and pride that was +arrogance, the bored face of Augusta Pritchard, who was supposed to be +her mother. + +It was late when the girl finally closed the album. + +"Many thanks, Cousin Julia," she murmured rather absently, a far-away +look in her dark eyes. + +After a little she rose and began to wander about the room. + +"Cousin Julia," she said presently, "I can't help wondering--honestly, +don't you ever wish I looked more--I mean that I looked any like them? +They're mighty aristocratic-looking guys after all." + +"My dear, when you talk like that you know as well as I that you're +fishing," insisted Miss Pritchard. "I have told you that I'm too +well-satisfied. I have to watch out for flaws." + +"Well, don't you ever think, anyhow, that such _whopping_ dimples +are--almost vulgar?" + +"I adore them," responded Miss Pritchard calmly. "But anyhow, you +know, they are supposed to be Pritchard. Didn't you tell that +what's-his-name boy you got them from your mother?" + +Elsie colored. + +"I loathed that gump," she said. + +Miss Pritchard did not press the matter, though she wished very much +Elsie had explained or made other amends. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, how perfectly gorgeous!" cried Elsie, "but oh, I +don't need it, and--oh, please take it back. You just shower things on +me, and I feel so wicked to have you spend so much on me." + +"Elsie, child, don't you understand yet how happy I am to have you to +spend it on?" returned Miss Pritchard. + +It was quite true that the latter was constantly bestowing not only +small, but rich and costly gifts upon the girl who had come to live +with her and for whom she had come to live. In this instance it was an +opera-cloak of rose-colored broadcloth, wadded, and lined with white +brocaded satin, soft and light and warm. The two went often to the +theatre, and it would be useful, though Miss Pritchard herself had +never owned such a garment, and it was certainly rather elegant for a +girl of sixteen. + +"Now, Elsie," Miss Pritchard went on, "I want to ask you something--I +have more money than I know what to do with. Whom should I spend it on +if not on you?" + +Elsie winced. Her little face grew wistful. "Then it's because I'm a +Pritchard you do it?" she demanded. + +Miss Pritchard laughed. "My dear, how you pin one to cold facts. If +you must know, then, it's because you aren't a Pritchard. It's because +you're yourself, through and through, and haven't a trace nor a look of +the Pritchards that I love you so and long to have you happy here with +me, who am not a Pritchard either. No doubt your family rubbed that +fact in sufficiently, so you didn't expect me to be. To tell the +truth, I could never abide the Pritchards. I was such a misfit when I +visited Aunt Ellen's years ago, that I rather dreaded your coming, +though I did feel that being so young you might not be inveterate, and +that we might manage to hit it off, as they say." + +Immensely cheered, Elsie kissed her warmly. Miss Pritchard threw the +cloak over her shoulders, produced a rosy silk scarf to tie over her +bobbed hair, and they were off. + +The conversation came back to Miss Pritchard next day as she sat at her +desk near a great window whence the streets below were like canyons. + +"Dear me, how little Elsie must have had in her life to be so absurdly +grateful as she is," she said to herself. "And what a life those women +must have led her to make her so ready to refuse what meant so much to +her if it came to her as to a Pritchard." + +Which suddenly reminded her of the Pritchard family lawyer and a letter +she had found on her plate that morning with the name of the firm Bliss +& Waterman on the envelope. Not caring to open it before Elsie, she +had brought it to the office. + +Breaking the seal, she was amazed to learn that the lawyer wished to +consult her in regard to a request for five hundred dollars Elsie +Marley had recently made. He would not, of course, hand over a +comparatively large sum like that without her guardian's sanction, and +he felt constrained to add that certain outstanding obligations against +the residue of the property had recently come to light which might +curtail the income for a year. He still felt that if Miss Pritchard +remained willing to pay Elsie's general expenses, that the allowance +which they had agreed upon and which he had sent regularly ought to +cover pin-money and something more. Elsie had made no explanations. +Of course, if the money were for educational purposes, he would arrange +to send it. If Miss Pritchard would kindly make the situation clear to +him, he would follow her instructions, but he awaited her reply before +acting upon her ward's request. + +Miss Pritchard felt absolutely at sea. She was as puzzled as she was +troubled. Elsie had seemed so frank and open, and, despite her +generous nature, had seemed so frugal in her expenditure, making a +little go much further than Miss Pritchard herself could do, that she +couldn't imagine her demanding this sum without consulting her in +regard to it. She knew exactly what Elsie paid at the school--she had +insisted upon paying her own expenses out of five hundred dollars she +had brought with her and deposited. She knew, too, practically every +penny she spent in other ways, the total of which was always far below +the amount of her allowance; she knew her associates, and could have +accounted for every hour of her time. She could almost believe that +Mr. Bliss had made a blunder. + +After pondering upon the subject all day, she telegraphed him not to +send the money, and decided to question Elsie that night. + +She had no opportunity that evening, however. A certain Madame +Valentini, a former prima donna who had been a famous soprano in the +early days of "Pinafore," and who came to Miss Peacock's each year for +opera, had arrived during the day, and she and Miss Pritchard being old +friends, the evening was devoted to her. Madame Valentini was +white-haired now, and very stout, with chin upon chin; and the real +Elsie Marley would have thought her vulgar, for she rouged her cheeks, +laughed out heartily and frequently, and wore colors and fashions +ill-suited to her age and size, with jewels enough for a court-ball. +But she was full of life and spirit, warm-hearted, invariably cheerful, +an amusing and fluent talker, and musical to the ends of her be-ringed +fingers and the satin tips of her shoes. + +Like every one else at Miss Peacock's, she took to Elsie at once. She +understood that the girl was studying for the stage, but recognized in +a twinkling that she had a singing voice, and finally prevailed upon +her to try it. She herself played the accompaniment with a skill that +was a revelation to Elsie, who had never enjoyed singing as she enjoyed +it that night. + +When she had done, the prima donna threw her arms about the girl and +drew her to her bosom. Elsie Marley must have shuddered, but her +namesake, thrilled with singing to the sympathetic accompaniment, +kissed her warmly on her unnaturally pink cheek. + +"Oh, my angel, what a voice, what a voice!" cried madame. "Entrancing! +marvellous! It's simply perfect in tone and quality, and correct +practice would increase its range. And when you put on a little more +flesh (here, even Elsie Moss groaned silently) you'll get volume, too. +Stop everything, child, and cultivate it. It's worth millions." + +Elsie flushed. She couldn't help being pleased by the extravagant +praise, but she couldn't bear to be advised to give up the dramatic +stage. + +The older singer turned to Miss Pritchard. "My dear Miss Pritchard, +why do you let this charming child waste her time learning to do +vaudeville stunts that any limber-jointed, pretty-faced chit could do, +with a glorious voice like that?" + +"It seemed wonderful to me, and Charley Graham confirmed me in the +belief," Miss Pritchard owned, "and Elsie herself confesses that people +have always advised her to study singing rather than acting." + +"Only because they thought it was more respectable," protested Elsie, +pouting. + +"But, foolish child, wouldn't you far and away rather be a singer--a +famous singer?" demanded madame. "You'd get into grand opera, you +know. You'd be lovely as Juliet or Butterfly even now." + +"I'd rather be an actress," pleaded the girl so sweetly deprecating +that Madame Valentini hardly wondered that Julia Pritchard should give +her her way. + +So long as she remained at Miss Peacock's, madame devoted much time, +very happily, to Elsie's musical education. She made the girl sing for +her every day, giving her assistance that was really invaluable. She +took her to the opera twice a week, where she was a wonderful +companion, calling attention to fine points that all but a connoisseur +must have missed, and discussing all sorts of pertinent musical topics +between the acts. And she rejoiced with Miss Pritchard because of +Elsie's obvious enjoyment. + +Meantime, Miss Pritchard found occasion to speak to Elsie on the +subject of Mr. Bliss's letter. She handed it to her; the girl read it +quietly and passed it back without speaking, yet meeting her eyes +frankly. + +"I confess, Elsie, I can't conceive how you should want so large a sum +at this time," Miss Pritchard began. "I trust you so thoroughly that I +believe it must be for something worth while--at least you think it is, +child. And I feel that you so trust me that you will explain to me if +you can. In any event, I have decided to give it to you out of my own +pocket. I know that you are careful and economical and think it must +be for your education in some manner, and don't feel that I am foolish +in doing it. How will you have it, check or cash?" + +Elsie had been growing weak after the first surprise. She had already +cashed three huge checks (as they seemed to her), and sent them in +money-orders to Enderby: and she had forwarded a letter some time +before that Elsie had explained to be a request for money. But she was +aghast at the sum. She couldn't imagine what the other girl could want +it for. + +The tradition had always been in her family, who were always poor, that +Uncle John was rich; and though she had learned with some surprise that +he had only one servant, she had heard nothing to indicate that he did +not live in the "style" she had always imagined. She felt troubled if +it was in order to keep up with that style that Elsie Marley wanted the +money; but though she was reluctant to take it from Miss Pritchard, she +by no means hesitated as she had in the case of the opera-cloak. For +this was a legitimate case of Pritchard to Pritchard. + +"A check?" repeated Miss Pritchard. + +"Cash, please, Cousin Julia," returned the girl, her dimples almost +visible. Then she looked straight into Miss Pritchard's eyes. + +"Please tell me--are you doing this, too, because I'm not a Pritchard, +or as my guardian?" + +And whether it was because the girl's heart was so set upon that +particular answer, or because Julia Pritchard was so staunch and true, +with such a keen instinct for the real and right--in any event she +returned promptly: "As your guardian, Elsie, Pritchard to Pritchard." + +Elsie embraced her warmly, whispering that she couldn't explain, but it +was truly all right. The next day she got a post-office order and sent +the money to Elsie Marley without saying that it hadn't come from the +lawyer in California as the other sums she had forwarded had done. +Consequently, when a letter came from Mr. Bliss saying that he couldn't +let Elsie Marley have the five hundred dollars she had asked for +without an order from her guardian, she felt obliged to withhold it +entirely. + +It troubled her to do so, and weighed upon her mind afterward. She +told herself that she would, of course, explain when she saw Elsie +Marley, and meantime--it was, after all, nothing but a formal business +communication, not a real letter, and of no account in that the +business itself had gone through. Still, it seemed a great pity that +there should be any concealment between herself and the other Elsie. +As things stood, she was sufficiently involved in concealment, to give +it no worse name, without that. It had been understood that she should +read all the letters that came before sending them on to Enderby; but +to keep one and never mention it, necessary though it was, and demanded +by circumstances, seemed somehow almost like stealing. + +And the worst was that circumstances might go on making demands, and +she might have to do yet more reprehensible things--things that weren't +merely _almost_ like wrong-doing. Some day she might have to lie right +out. + +Well, as to that, what had it been when she said that her mother's name +was Pritchard? That had been acting--a part of her rôle. And then, of +course she constantly deceived Miss Pritchard, in a way, though not +dishonestly. That was acting, too. She and Elsie Marley had entered +into a contract, indeed, each to act the part of the other. They +weren't hurting any one: each fitted into the wrong place as she +couldn't have into the right. And yet in very truth it was very much +like plain lying! + +Elsie Moss flinched. Then she recollected how once at home some of the +girls of her class at school had been discussing a subject given in the +rhetoric they studied under "Argumentation"--"Is a lie ever +justifiable?" These girls of the "Per aspera ad astra" motto had +decided the question in the affirmative. They had agreed that lying to +a burglar wasn't wrong--it might prevent him from robbing a widow or +one's own mother--the same with regard to a murderer, an insane person, +or one sick unto death. And one and all had declared with spirit that +if they lived in England and a hunting-party should come along with +their cruel hounds and ask which way the fox or hare had gone, they +would point in exactly the wrong direction. Elsie herself had declared +that she would have said that the little creature hadn't come this way +at all. + +Not that that was exactly similar. The girl owned that however she +might please Miss Pritchard, and Elsie Marley might gratify Uncle John, +in each case it was the girl herself who benefited chiefly by the +scheme, and for whom it had been arranged and carried through. +Pleasing Uncle John and Cousin Julia was what is called in chemistry a +by-product. + +Furthermore, there was the question as to whether Cousin Julia, in any +event, would value satisfaction secured thus by indirection? +Absolutely straight-forward, as she was, mightn't she judge their +action severely, label it plain deceit, and--oh, no! she couldn't +refuse to have anything further to do with her! It began to seem as if +even failure in what she had always considered her life-work wouldn't +be so terrible as that. The girl didn't put it into so many words, but +as the days passed she seemed to have a vague sense of another +life-work which might consist in growing up toward Miss Pritchard's +standards of what is fine and good and worth while. But Elsie wouldn't +dwell upon it, for she couldn't, of course, begin to approach any such +goal--she couldn't even make a start--without confession. And +confession wouldn't mean only the loss of her chance to realize her +ambition; it would mean the loss of Cousin Julia herself. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +Meantime, when the sum of money reached Enderby, Mrs. Middleton still +lay unconscious--at death's door, it was said. And one whispered to +another that it was, perhaps, better so, that it would be a blessing to +the minister if she were to be taken away. She had been worse than a +drag upon him all these years. Foolish, idle, lazy, extravagant, she +had exaggerated her physical delicacy and given herself up to indolence +and self-indulgence, running the household into debt until it was a +disgrace to the minister and to the church. Mr. Middleton, dear saint, +hadn't known order nor comfort nor companionship for years until his +niece had come. And when all was said, she could do better for him +without her aunt. + +However that might be, the minister himself took his wife's sudden and +terrifying illness sadly to heart. He hung over her bed and haunted +her room, watching and praying for the return of consciousness and +life. Not, perhaps, his peer in the first place, Mildred Middleton had +not grown, had not kept pace with her husband, and she had truly of +late fallen into deplorable habits for the head of a household. +Nevertheless, he believed in her; loved her for her real warmth of +heart, which her veil of sentimentality did not in any degree alter for +him, for her optimism, her absolutely unfailing good nature, and for an +intuitive womanliness he believed to be eminently her gift. + +And presently when she rallied, his heart grew light, indeed. The +doctor said it might be long before she would get her strength back, +but he believed it possible that when she had regained it, she would be +better than she had been for years. He told the minister quietly that +it was fortunate she had been stricken as she had. The +headache-powders she had been taking constantly contained a drug that +had been slowly poisoning her. A little longer and her heart would +have been permanently affected. + +Meantime, before this, while she lay unconscious, the bills had begun +to pour in. Along with the domestic science, Elsie had taken up +bookkeeping at the high school, and fortified by that knowledge and the +possession of the five hundred dollars, she summoned her courage, went +to Mr. Middleton and asked if she might take the accounts in hand this +month in Aunt Milly's place. + +Pleased by her thoughtfulness, he proposed that they should do them +together. Elsie begged to be allowed to try them alone, just for once, +but he insisted upon sharing the task, though he confessed that she +would find him very rusty about such things, his wife having taken them +off his hands for so many years. + +Elsie's heart sank. She knew that practically every tradesman had sent +a bill in full, and apprehended that the totals would be appalling. +She feared, too, that it would be awkward about the five hundred +dollars. But there was nothing to do but to comply with his desire. + +At his bidding, she brought the collection into the study that evening. +He got out a check-book and they sat down, Elsie at the desk, and he by +the side with one of the sliding shelves drawn out. + +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will +have none of them," he remarked, and took up the pile of envelopes. + +[Illustration: "You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though +Aunt Milly will have none of them," he remarked.] + +"We'll begin with the top one--Mason," he said. "Fill in the date and +name--James S.--and now, let's see the sum." + +He drew out the bill, glanced at it, then looked sharply as if it were +hard to decipher. + +"A hundred and seventy-five dollars!" he exclaimed. "Of course that +can't be. It should be a dollar and seventy-five cents, I suppose, and +yet--it's quite plain--see--one hundred seventy-five and two ciphers. +There's some mistake. I'll just put it aside and telephone in the +morning. Leave that and start another, dear. Andrew White's the +next--no middle letter." + +He opened the next with the same confidence. Eighty-six dollars was +large for a milk bill. He glanced at it doubtfully. _Bill rendered_ +indicated that it wasn't all for this month. It must have slipped by, +somehow. And of course Mrs. Middleton had to have egg-nog and cream +and all that. He bade Elsie draw the check, feeling that they must +have paid the largest first. But Elsie's heart sank as he took up the +next envelope with Berry's name in the corner. Berry was the grocer. + +"Four hundred ninety-two dollars!" he gasped. "Wait, Elsie, we'll look +them all through before we do any more. There's something wrong. Now +this goes back--let me see. Bill rendered--bill rendered--it seems to +go back a year or more. I wonder if perhaps your aunt has asked for +statements for a year in order to see what her expenditures amount +to?"--He shook his head--"No, here's a credit. And this is plain +enough 'Amount due November 1.'" + +He opened the others one by one. None was so large as the grocery +bill, though that of the market was above four hundred dollars, and the +others large, the sum total being, as Elsie had foreseen, appalling. +It did not take long to discover that Mrs. Middleton was behind in her +accounts for a year or more. + +It must have been hard for her husband to understand what had become of +the monthly household allowance she had had in cash regularly. Credit +was given here and there, indeed, but always in small sums. It must, +too, have been hard for John Middleton to face the facts, but he stood +the test. He looked weary and worn--he certainly grew haggard and +seemed to grow old; but no word of impatience escaped him. Indeed, he +did not appear to have an impatient thought. + +"This has all been too much for your aunt, Elsie," he said finally. +"She wanted to spare me, and when the task got beyond her strength she +wouldn't give in. She has been a greater sufferer than any of us +dreamed. Apparently she has had those terrible headaches almost +constantly, hiding the pain from every one and trying to get relief by +taking those strong tablets. And no doubt these accounts gave her no +end of pain and worry, and got into confusion in spite of her." + +He bowed his head in his hand and sat thus some little time, aware of +Elsie's silent sympathy. He smiled wearily when he raised it. + +"We'll give it over for to-night, Elsie. I'll see what I can do +to-morrow and then we'll tackle them again. I think I shall be able to +do something, but we may have to go carefully for a time." + +He hesitated. + +"Kate's the most faithful soul in the world, but I doubt if she gives +her orders carefully," he remarked. + +"I've started in giving them since Aunt Milly's illness," said Elsie +shyly. "Katy doesn't mind. I learned how at school, and I keep them +in a little book so as to compare them with the bills at the end of the +month." + +"Elsie Moss, you are certainly a trump!" he cried. "Do let me see your +book, dear." + +She produced it and he examined the neat items with interest, praising +her warmly and seeming greatly cheered already. And then the girl made +an effort and mentioned a sum of five hundred dollars which she had on +hand and wished he would use. + +"My dear child!" he cried, smiling tenderly, "I wouldn't touch your +money for the world. The truth is, I ought to pay you a salary as +housekeeper and pastor's assistant, though I couldn't begin to +compensate you for the better part. You have been like the daughter of +the household, or such a sister as your mother was." + +The following day Mrs. Middleton regained consciousness, and the next +day the minister went into Boston and made arrangements to secure the +money to meet his obligations by reducing his life-insurance policy +one-half and disposing of some bonds. That evening they drew checks +and settled everything in full. Thereafter Elsie gave the orders, +checked the accounts at the end of the month, and made out the checks +for Mr. Middleton to sign. On the whole she did remarkably well and +reduced the general expenses considerably. She made mistakes, but they +were few; for her mind was of the type that takes to figures and +details, and she was naturally methodical and accurate. Mr. Middleton +smiled at the neat little packets of receipted bills, docketed and +filed, but he was extravagantly grateful to her for all that. + +Mrs. Middleton gained slowly. One day, a fortnight or more after she +was convalescent, the minister came to Elsie with a good-sized check in +his hand made out to her. The girl looked at him in amazement, filled +with vague dismay. + +"For your winter clothes, Elsie," he explained. "Aunt Milly reminded +me. In fact, she rather scolded me for not thinking of it earlier. +And she suggests that you get one of the schoolgirls and go into Boston +for a day's shopping on Saturday." + +Elsie paled--she had begun to show a pretty color of late. This was +her first realization of the discomfort of a false position. Long +since, Mr. Middleton had come to seem her real uncle, and her affection +for him was as deep as if he had truly been; indeed, nowadays she +seldom realized that the relationship was not real. But to accept +money from him--from that she shrank instinctively. And that proved +the difference. For though not in the least drawn toward Cousin Julia, +for all the other Elsie's enthusiasm, she could have accepted a larger +sum from her without a qualm. + +"Oh, Uncle John, I really don't need a thing!" she cried beseechingly, +and he had to smile. + +"Nonsense, my dear, I have the word of your aunt that you will need +everything. Kate has told her that during the summer all the fashions +have flopped completely over, so that last year's clothes wouldn't even +keep one warm. Biases and bulges that formerly came at the top of the +gown now come at the bottom; sleeves are big where they were little, +and vice versa, and collars the same. As for hats--there the +transformation is so great that I pause before it." + +Elsie laughed. "Well, if it's so bad as that, I'll spend my five +hundred dollars--blow it in, as--as my friend in New York would say." + +"Ah, Elsie, I see through you now!" he exclaimed. "You think I can't +afford it, because of those big bills. As a matter of fact, I could do +it easily even if you weren't managing things so economically. And, +besides, Aunt Milly has set her heart on it. And oh, Elsie, I'm so +thankful to keep her with us that I should like to do something +extraordinary, something really rash and extravagant. Please head me +off by letting me do this simple, natural thing which is less than +just, and which will please Aunt Milly more than anything I could do +for her. Why, my dear Elsie, pray why shouldn't I do it? Wasn't your +mother my only sister and dearest friend?" + +On a sudden Elsie buried her face and wept--the only tears she had shed +since her coming to Enderby. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +Touched and perplexed, Mr. Middleton gave over for the moment; but +presently he had his opportunity to be extravagant. As soon as his +wife was able to leave her room, the doctor ordered her to pass a +portion of every day out-of-doors. This was partly to strengthen her +lungs and partly for the moral effect. Doctor Fenwick feared that if +she should revert to the long days upon her couch or bed with the +novels and chocolates, the headache-powders or a substitute would +follow, soon or late, with more perilous results. She submitted to his +dictum with resignation, being, indeed, rather captivated by the idea. + +Her husband and Elsie went into Boston and selected a rich and warm fur +coat, fur-lined gloves and overshoes, and three warm, dark-colored +serge dresses which were a great improvement upon the wrappers. On the +day after she received them, Mrs. Middleton spent two hours on the +porch with ill-concealed delight. And, thereafter, rising and +breakfasting with the others, she passed the whole of every forenoon +out-of-doors, not only with beneficial results but with continued +enjoyment. + +The sentimental aspect, of course, appealed to her strongly. Sometimes +she pleased herself by fancying that the doctor had discovered that one +of her lungs was quite gone and the other a mere fragment, and feared +to tell her. On such days her voice was feeble but breathed the same +sweet patience that her face wore. Again, it was her heart "outwearing +its sheath," as she put it. Always, however, she felt herself an +interesting and picturesque invalid, and her martyr-like expression +scarcely disguised her enjoyment of the rôle. + +Unconsciously, her somewhat torpid mental powers quickened. The house +being on the main highway, there was always something to look at +against the background of the beautiful common, and she conceived a +vivid interest in the passing show. An active in lieu of a passive +mind did its part in the improvement of her health. The tables were +turned. Now it was she who told Kate that the Berrys had a fine new +motor-truck, and had apparently disposed of their dappled greys to the +grain-man--she only wished _they_ traded with the grain-man--couldn't +one buy oatmeal of him? And Rachel Stewart actually had a new dress in +which she looked very trim, though it was too long right in the back. +Perhaps Elsie could speak to her about it at the library? Little +Robbie Caldwell had begun to go to school alone since the new baby had +come. And they had a new perambulator and had given the old one to the +Howes, which would make it easier for little Mattie. + +People passing began to run up and ask the minister's wife how she did. +She was never very well; but she was so sweetly patient and so truly +grateful that they lingered and their visits became frequent; children +came on Saturdays and made children's long flattering stays; and +presently there was never a morning when she did not have some one, and +often she was not alone at all. And thus it came about that for the +first time she came to know many of her husband's parishioners with +some familiarity. + +More than one reversed their judgment, and almost every one revised it. +Mrs. Middleton was sentimental--there was no gainsaying that; she was +rather gushing. Yet she was truly kind-hearted, generous to a fault, +thoughtful in many ways, with really keen intuition in certain +directions. As people came again and again, she guessed many a hidden +trouble or vexation, and her sympathy was warm and very grateful; while +now and again she had a flash of inspiration that was marvellously +helpful. + +No one's revision of judgment was more sweeping, perhaps, than that of +Elsie Marley. Somehow her former shrinking had quite disappeared +during the long illness, and the change in Mrs. Middleton's appearance +helped bridge the way to a better understanding. The old wrappers and +tea-gowns had gone to the ragman. The new afternoon gowns Elsie had +selected were yet prettier than the morning ones and very becoming. +The out-of-door air had already almost made over her complexion: her +skin looked healthy, her color was good; and with the new fashion of +wearing her hair, she began to look attractive and almost pretty. + +She had not curled her hair since her illness, and now it was soft and +smooth and seemed warmer in color. The nurse having parted it one day +when Mrs. Middleton was convalescent, and coiled it upon her head +simply, had declared it made her look like a Raphael madonna. The +allusion was far-fetched, but it touched Mrs. Middleton's sentimental +fancy, and she adopted that style of hair-dressing permanently. + +In the morning, Elsie attended to her household duties and helped the +minister. She fell now into the habit of spending the early part of +the afternoon with Mrs. Middleton, going over to the library just +before four. Doctor Fenwick having suggested knitting as a soothing +indoor occupation, his patient sent for an immense quantity of +wool--enough to keep half a dozen pairs of hands busy all winter--and +began to make red-white-and-blue afghans for the Labrador Mission. +Whereupon Elsie proposed reading to her while she worked. Mrs. +Middleton was delighted, but when Elsie got "Adam Bede" from the +shelves, she confessed that it tired her head. "Henry Esmond" was +likewise too heavy, and Elsie groaned inwardly, expecting to be asked +to read some of the paper-covered novels she was addicted to. She said +to herself she simply couldn't: she had never in her life read any such +trash and she would have to excuse herself. Then, looking up, +something made her change her mind and decide to be a martyr. But +before she could speak Mrs. Middleton herself had a happy inspiration. + +"Oh, Elsie, I know what I'd just love to hear," she cried, "and what my +poor head could take in as it couldn't Thackeray to-day, though when +I'm strong I dote on him--I always took naturally to the classics. But +now I feel like one of Miss Alcott's books. I suppose you have read +them over and over?" she asked rather wistfully. + +Elsie confessed that she had never done so, but would be glad to make +their acquaintance. + +Mrs. Middleton was truly amazed--as was the minister, indeed; for his +sister had known them almost by heart. They had the whole set in the +house, and Elsie began with "Little Women" that afternoon. + +For the first time she was reluctant to go to the library when the hour +approached. It was hard to stop reading. And they laughed together in +an easy, natural way that was quite new to their intercourse as each +exacted a promise from the other not to look at the story again until +they should go on with it together. + +They went through the whole set that winter and sighed when they had +come to the last volume. Perhaps no single thing had influenced Elsie +Marley more than the reading those sweet, wholesome stories at that +time and in that manner. She had already changed much, and was perhaps +just ready for the influence. Reading them with Mrs. Middleton, she +was drawn to her as she would never have believed it to be possible, as +they laughed and cried together over the pranks and trials, joys and +sorrows of those New England boys and girls of a singularly happy +generation. And, unawares, she was strengthened for the hour of trial +that was to come to her as it comes to every one that tampers with the +laws that are inherent in the structure of the universe. + +Meantime, circumstances were leading on toward that hour. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +Late one afternoon early in December, Miss Pritchard telephoned to +Elsie to say that she would not be home to dinner as she was going +directly from the office to see a friend who had been taken suddenly to +a hospital. She was to dine in town on her way back and would be late +home. Mr. Graham, whom Elsie would remember, had spoken of calling in +the evening, and Miss Pritchard asked her to explain the circumstance +to him and keep him until her return. + +As she turned away from the telephone, Elsie sighed deeply. Mr. +Graham's name stirred up uncomfortable recollections. In any case, +much as she had admired and liked him, she would have dreaded meeting +him again; and to entertain him alone for an indefinite period, with +his undivided attention focussed upon her, seemed an ordeal not only to +be dreaded but truly to be shunned. + +Suppose he should refer again to her darling mother--as he surely +would! Acting or no acting, the girl felt that she couldn't deny her +again. Should she do so, it would be like the Palladium ceasing to +stand and Troy falling. And yet, what was she to do? If she didn't +hold to her statement of the summer, wouldn't she hazard spoiling +everything, not only for herself, but for the Elsie at Enderby? + +Too wretched to allow herself the comfort of the window-seat in the +bow, Elsie dropped down on the floor before one of the long, low +windows of the adjacent side of the room, and gazing drearily out into +the dusky street, tried to prepare herself for an impromptu scene with +the coming guest wherein the matter of extraordinary dimples or sticky +babies might come up at any moment and be skilfully parried. But +stage-fright, confusion, and tears threatened imminently, like an ugly +nightmare, and she said to herself there was no use, she simply dared +not face it. + +The temptation came to her to avoid the whole encounter by going to bed +at once. She certainly felt queer--almost faint; and when she should +be missed at the dinner-table and some one came up to see what had +happened, she could truly say she didn't feel able to see Mr. Graham, +and send word that he was to wait for Miss Pritchard. + +As she considered the suggestion, reaching the point where Cousin Julia +came in, the girl's heart smote her. Cousin Julia would be +startled--yes, frightened. What a wretch she was deliberately to plan +to cause her utterly gratuitous anxiety! And how practised, how +_grounded_, in deceit she had grown, to turn thereto so readily for +help out of difficulty! How very far she was getting from her class +motto, "Per aspera ad astra"! And she recollected a word, strange +hitherto to her, which Cousin Julia had used in the summer. She had +mentioned her hope, as she had looked forward to the coming of the real +Elsie Marley, that she shouldn't have, at sixteen, become _inveterate_ +in the ways of the Pritchard family. Well, wasn't she fast becoming +_inveterate_ in the ways of deceit? Wasn't she, perhaps, already +inveterate? Truly, she must be perilously near it. And oh, wasn't +this a far, far worse sort of _inveterateness_ than the Pritchard sort? +And if Cousin Julia had dreaded that, how, pray, would she feel in +regard to this? + +Rising suddenly, Elsie rushed into her own room as if she were running +away from the visions she had conjured. As she made herself tidy for +dinner, her desperation grasped at a third expedient, a middle way. +Couldn't she get around the difficulty by preventing or forestalling +the introduction of any doubtful topic into the conversation? During +the time that would elapse between Mr. Graham's arrival and Cousin +Julia's return--three-quarters of an hour at the longest, she +supposed--she would keep him from bringing up any matter of +resemblances, of big dimples, of madonnas, or sticky babies. She would +monopolize the conversation, so far as she could, and direct it all the +time. At the risk of utterly losing the good opinion of one of Cousin +Julia's most valued friends, of appearing forward, conceited, tiresome, +she would rattle on like the empty-headed society girl in certain +modern plays. She would introduce utterly impersonal subjects, such +as--at the moment she couldn't think of anything but prohibition, which +would last about two minutes--and chatter foolishly and fast upon them, +one after another. Then, if she exhausted them and all else failed, +she would make such pointed and brazen references to her own singing +that he would be obliged to ask her to sing--and once going, she could +easily keep that up until Cousin Julia came to the rescue. And she +certainly wouldn't sing "Elsie Marley" nor anything that would in any +way remind Mr. Graham of it. Either she would shock that elegant +gentleman's taste with the ugliest of ragtime, or she would inflict him +with a succession of the operatic selections she had taken up with +Madame Valentini. The latter choice would probably, upon Miss +Pritchard's arrival, serve to bring up the unhappy matter of her +abandoning the stage for music, but that would be a minor evil. + +Mr. Graham appeared promptly at the hour Miss Pritchard had predicted, +and Elsie greeted him in the rôle she had chosen and proceeded to give +him a gushing account of their journey back to New York at the end of +the summer. The artist, who had looked forward to seeing again the +charming little creature who had been such a vision of grace and +loveliness as she had sung and danced on the hotel veranda that summer +day, was surprised and dismayed at the change, the almost distressing +change, that had come upon the girl meantime. At first he took it for +granted that it was the coarsening effect of studying for the stage, +but very shortly he had decided otherwise. Whatever his skill in +reproduction, Charles Graham had the eye, the mind, and the heart of +the portrait-painter; and now he read the little actress's behavior +with a good measure of precision. Her restlessness, her chattering, +the high, unpleasing pitch of her naturally lovely low voice, her +assumption of the manner and speech of the blasé young person of the +stage, he saw to be primarily the cover of nervousness. He understood +that the girl was troubled about something, was perhaps suffering, and +tried to conceal it in this way. Moreover, he felt that, whatever it +was, she was bearing it altogether alone, hiding it from everybody. + +So far, so good. But presently he jumped to a false conclusion. As he +referred casually to Miss Pritchard as an _inveterate_ optimist, +suddenly all the color died out of the girl's face, the shadow in her +eyes became momentarily genuine distress, and the bravado dropped from +her manner. It struck him that there was some misunderstanding between +his friend and her young cousin. And the pain this realization brought +him was curiously acute. + +"But, my dear child," he exclaimed earnestly, "hers is no cheap +optimism. Miss Pritchard's wise, sane outlook upon life is the +courageous, positive optimism of the seasoned soldier. She has known +hardship and suffering, and it is victory over them that makes her +serenity and strength so impressive." + +As the artist paused, he glanced with searching kindness at the girl +who was such a mere child, after all. But he seemed to feel a touch of +hardness or of obstinacy in the way she set her lips. He couldn't bear +the idea of her misunderstanding Miss Pritchard. + +"I wonder, Miss Marley, if you ever heard about Miss Pritchard's +love-story?" he asked rather hesitatingly. "It all happened of course +before you were born; but your family may have spoken of it to you?" + +Elsie raised her eyes quickly, regardless of the fact that there were +tears in them. + +"Oh, no, Mr. Graham, I never knew--anything about it," she almost +gasped. + +"Then I believe I will tell you," he said gravely. "If ever you +should--well, it makes one understand why Miss Pritchard so impresses +even a chance stranger with the strength of her personality." + +He sighed. "It was years ago. Miss Pritchard was a newspaper woman at +the time--the most brilliant reporter, man or woman, in the city, we +thought her, in the little coterie of journalists and artists to which +we both belonged. More than one of us would have given all he had to +win her love. I don't mind saying to you, Miss Marley, that it was +because I could not win it that I have never married. She bestowed it, +however, upon an older man and a more brilliant than any of us. At +that time he was city editor of one of the big dailies; he had invested +a moderate inheritance wisely, and was worth millions when he died. +Miss Pritchard was in her late twenties, and though she was called +plain, possessed rare beauty of expression that is of course the +highest beauty of all; and it was no mere girl's heart that she gave +that man. She loved him with the intensity and maturity of a generous, +noble woman. He returned the love and he appreciated her fineness; and +yet he was unworthy of her. In the course of his business life, at a +certain stage of his career, he did something which, while it wasn't +dishonorable, wasn't strictly honorable. By means of this action, +which no one else of the few who knew it deemed reprehensible, he +gained prestige for his paper as well as for himself; but he lost Julia +Pritchard. Had he yielded in a moment of temptation, though it would +still have hurt her cruelly, I believe she would have overlooked his +fault. But the act was deliberate; and though he regretted it bitterly +and to his dying day, it was only because Miss Pritchard looked at it +as she did. Of the act itself, he never repented." + + +When Miss Pritchard came in, she noticed at once that Elsie looked very +pale--almost ill. After greeting her old friend warmly, she turned +anxiously to the girl. + +"Has it been a hard day, honey?" she asked tenderly. + +"Oh, yes, Cousin Julia," Elsie returned mournfully. And Mr. Graham +felt not only that his suspicion had been correct but that his relating +the story had truly had the desired effect. + +"I think I'll go now, and--write a letter," the girl faltered. + +"Go by all means, dear," Miss Pritchard bade her, "but don't write the +letter to-night unless it's imperative. I have tickets for 'The +Good-Natured Man' for to-morrow night, so if you can put off the +letter, hop right into bed and get a good rest in order to be fresh for +it." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +It was Sunday afternoon, nearly a week later. Elsie sat alone by the +window with a writing-tablet in her lap, gazing out at the row of +houses across the street. But though the new-fallen snow on roof, +cornice, and iron grating transformed the familiar scene, and though +snow in such profusion and splendor was a new and wonderful experience +to her, the girl wasn't really seeing the landscape any more than she +was writing a letter. Realizing the fact after half an hour of stony +silence, she rose, dropped her writing materials, and crossing the +room, threw herself down on the hearth-rug with a gesture of despair. + +It wasn't merely because she couldn't write the letter--which, by the +way, was that which she had given as an excuse for withdrawing on the +evening of Mr. Graham's call. It was true that writing to her +stepmother--something that had been growing increasingly difficult for +some time--had become practically impossible since that evening. But +that was, in a way, a minor detail. For everything, _everything_ had +become impossible since the hour she had heard his recital of that +experience of Cousin Julia's youth. + +"There's no use," the girl cried out within herself, "I simply cannot +stand it. I can't go on so. Cousin Julia's gone to a funeral. I'll +have one while she's gone and bury everything deep down. There's +nothing else to do. Now that I know for deadly certain that Cousin +Julia would hate me if she knew, I can't go on being--as I am. Why, +what _he_ did wasn't dishonest. It was only, as Mr. Graham said, less +than honest. And look at me!" + +It was true that Cousin Julia hadn't _hated_ him, even when he wasn't +sorry about the wrong itself, Elsie repeated; for this was by no means +the first or second time she had gone over the matter since that night; +indeed, she had scarcely thought of anything else since. Still, she +wouldn't have anything more to do with him, and must have despised him, +which was worse. And it was also true that she would even have +forgiven him utterly if he had sinned in a moment of temptation. And +again the girl lamented bitterly that she hadn't done something even +worse if it could have been committed in hot blood, and therefore +followed by repentance, confession, and forgiveness. Only last evening +Cousin Julia had read some verses from Browning which had filled her +heart with a longing that was like remorse--something about a "certain +moment" which "cuts the deed off, calls the glory from the grey." Were +her wrong-doing only of the sort to be neatly cut off in that manner, +how gladly would she own up. How certain would she be of obtaining +full forgiveness, and how blissfully could she go on thence-forward! + +But hers wasn't that sort. Hers was the sort that goes on and on and +on. After making the beginning, there was no hope, any more than there +was of stopping a ball when one starts it to rolling down a steep, +smooth hill. And besides, it was of the very nature of that which had +hurt Cousin Julia so cruelly in the case of her lover of twenty-odd +years ago. For it was for Elsie's own advantage that she had entered +upon the course of deceit, and it was she that was profiting by it, +daily and hourly. She had imposed herself upon one whom she had no +claim whatever upon for the sake of making things easier and pleasanter +for herself--of gaining her own way. And wasn't she continuing the +imposition largely for the same reason? + +No, she wasn't doing that--at least not now. Absolutely selfish as her +motive may have been in the first place, these last days had shown her +that another element was now involved. Her longing to be an actress +remained the same. Her distaste for the idea of life at the parsonage +in Enderby had been increased almost to horror by the glimpses she had +had through her friend's letters of what seemed to her its dreary and +complacent domesticity. Nevertheless, at this moment she felt that she +would give up the former and accept the latter without a murmur if she +could thereby measure up to Cousin Julia's standard, and yet, in the +process, hurt neither her nor Elsie Marley. + +But there was no blinking the fact that Cousin Julia's heart was so +bound up in her that the discovery of her duplicity would wound her +cruelly; indeed, Elsie couldn't bear to contemplate what it would mean +to her. As for Elsie Marley--she was apparently, for her part, equally +bound up in the Middletons, and the shock and change would be terribly +painful to her. Moreover, she was, in a way, almost as innocent as +Cousin Julia herself. Her masquerading was only masquerading. She had +only accepted, in her sweet, docile manner, her part in the plan that +Elsie had made to further her own interests. The wrong was all her +own, truly; but any attempt to undo it would hurt the innocent Elsie at +least equally. + +What could she do? Was she really, as it seemed, bound hand and foot? +The girl wrung her hands, and there was no thought of the dramatic in +the gesture. Must her punishment be to keep on and on with her +wrong-doing, with the consciousness, increasingly more painful, of +deceiving Cousin Julia, of being, not only _not_ the person she +believed her to be, but exactly the sort of person she most despised? +Could that be her fate? + +Looking ahead, Elsie said to herself she couldn't stand it--not now. +Before, she had had her uncomfortable moments; but since that talk with +Mr. Graham she had had no moment that wasn't agony. He had roused her +out of her dream of making things right by calling them so. And yet, +less than ever since that knowledge had come to her, was she ready to +hurt Cousin Julia, as confession or discovery would hurt her. Could it +be that it was impossible for her to straighten out her own conscience +without wounding the hearts of others? Was there no way whereby she +could make things right without involving Elsie Marley and Cousin Julia +in misery? + +Staring wretchedly into the fire, the girl was unaware that she was +grappling with a big moral problem: that her personal perplexity was a +part of the old problem of evil: that what daunted her was the old +paradox that has confronted mankind since before the time of Job. She +understood dimly that the lines between good and ill do not converge +any more than unmoral geometrical parallels; but she still felt that it +must be possible to limit the consequences of wrong-doing to the +evil-doer so that the innocent should wholly escape. + +But what, short of her own death, would bring that about? In that +event, indeed, Cousin Julia's natural grief would not be bitterly +painful; and Elsie Marley would simply go on as she was. But she +wasn't likely to die, and besides, wretched as she was, she didn't want +to. And even if she did, she wouldn't be so wicked or so cowardly as +to do anything to hasten her end. + +But her consideration of that solution of her problem made way for +another. On a sudden a substitute solution presented itself to her +mind. Having gone so far, it was but natural that the girl's dramatic +instinct and her familiarity with romance and melodrama should suggest +something that would answer the purpose of death without occasioning +the same measure of pain--namely, her own disappearance. And the +suggestion no sooner appeared than it was accepted. Before Miss +Pritchard returned the idea was already so familiar as to seem to be of +long standing. + +Her mind was quick and her invention fertile, and before she slept that +night her plans were well along. She was to lose herself +utterly--where and how she would determine later. She would, at the +proper moment, disappear absolutely and mysteriously, yet not without +leaving behind her satisfactory and reassuring explanation for the two +persons to whom it would mean most--nay, three--she mustn't forget her +stepmother. She would write to Elsie Marley that she had felt obliged +to take the step for the sake of her own future, and would entreat her +to go on as she was and never to let any one know what had happened. +And she would leave a long letter for Cousin Julia to discover on her +return from the office the day of her departure. She would tell her +how she loved her--better than any one else she had ever known except +her mother--and how she had never been so happy in her life as with +her. Then she would make the same enigmatical but satisfactory +reference to her future and how it made the step imperative, adding +that if Cousin Julia could understand, she would agree that she +couldn't have done otherwise. + +When she had reached this point, Elsie's heart sank. Disappearance +might be preferable to death, but it seemed as if it were going to be +quite as painful. But only for her, and after all, that was where the +pain belonged. The girl cried herself to sleep that night, but she +woke next morning with a sense of relief so active and positive that it +seemed like refreshment and almost like joy. She realized why it was: +her mind hadn't been wholly at ease before since the day in the summer +when she had first seen Mr. Graham, and for the past days she had lived +in torture. The removal of the burden was almost like unsnapping the +cover of a Jack-in-the-box. She was going to be good and straight and +honest again. She was going to make amends, so far as in her lay, for +the wrong she had done. She was going--_away_! + +Here Elsie faltered. But she sprang from bed before depression could +swoop down upon her. And while she was dressing a suggestion came to +her that sent her to the breakfast-table with a serene and even joyful +face. It had come to her that she would better not attempt to carry +out her resolve until after Christmas, lest she mar Cousin Julia's or +Elsie Marley's enjoyment of the day. She would act immediately after +Christmas, beginning the New Year with a clean slate. And meantime she +would devote herself to making every one she knew as happy as possible, +particularly Cousin Julia. + +And she would be happy herself. There would be sufficient unhappiness +coming to her later to pay her in full for all the mischief she had +done; and she saw no harm in putting the matter from her thoughts for +the interim, and making the most of the eighteen days. Then, Christmas +being over, one day, or two at most, would suffice her to decide where +to go and to make her preparations. Another day would give her time to +write the letters with due deliberation, and on the third she would be +off. + +Wherefore, her resolve being fixed and her conscience accordingly +clear, she adventured the first precious day with a light heart. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +Elsie Marley had never been happier than as she prepared for her first +Christmas at Enderby. But that festival seemed the high-water mark of +her happiness. The close of the day found her strangely depressed and +thereafter she had more frequent periods of being ill at ease. + +She had learned to knit and had spent most of her leisure time for +several weeks in making a soft white woollen shawl for Mrs. Middleton, +into which went a rather surprising amount of affection. She went into +Boston with one of the high-school girls and bought a charming little +plaid woollen frock for Mattie Howe and a beautiful doll to fill the +little mother's arms when they were not occupied with a real baby. For +Charles Augustus, she selected an harmonicon, and toys for the other +three Howes. She wanted to get a warm winter coat for her staunch ally +Kate, the jacket she wore being short and so thin as to require an +undergarment that spoiled what little shape it had. On the day before +she was to go into town, she consulted Mrs. Middleton. + +Thus far Elsie hadn't accepted a penny of pocket-money, and the +Middletons were filled with dismay to have her spend her own money so +lavishly. But Mr. Middleton had told his wife that he meant to give +Elsie a check for Christmas, which being also her birthday, made a +large one legitimate. Consequently, at this time Mrs. Middleton did +not remonstrate. She only called herself heartless for not noticing +poor Katy's need and so forestalling Elsie. + +After she had sufficiently exclaimed over it, she asked what the girl +meant to get. + +"I thought of black broadcloth, rather plain. Should you think that +would be right, Aunt Milly?" + +"Quite right, dear. It would be, of course, the proper thing," Mrs. +Middleton returned, "but I can't help wondering whether Katy herself +wouldn't fancy something not so plain and rather more stylish. After +all, we can hardly expect her to share our quiet tastes." + +Elsie didn't resent the _our_ nor question the fact. She was only very +grateful. + +"Oh, Aunt Milly, I'm so glad I spoke to you!" the girl cried with +unwonted warmth, for she felt immediately the cogency of Mrs. +Middleton's remark. "What do you think she would like? I might have +her go in with me and pick it out herself, only----" + +"Only half the fun would be lost not to have her surprised on Christmas +morning? I don't know what she would like, I'm sure, but leave it to +me and I'll find out from Katy herself and without letting her mistrust +anything. Leave it to your Aunt Milly, dear. She is of so little use +that she has to seize upon whatever she can discover." + +And truly she learned the desire of Katy's heart and reported to Elsie +that night. Green was Kate's first choice for color and blue next, and +she admired especially a long, loose garment with "one of them fur +collars that folds up like an accordion or a gentleman's opera-hat." +And Elsie succeeded in finding the very thing--not a difficult task, +Kate's choice being the latest fashion and very common. + +Though her gifts gave extraordinary pleasure in every instance, the +reaction upon Elsie herself was yet greater. Her satisfaction was +increased by the fact that Mr. Middleton told her it was the happiest +Christmas he remembered, and that her being with them was largely what +made it so. + +"Besides which," he added, "I realize that most of the other factors +and changes that contribute are really due to you and to your +influence, Elsie dear." + +That was very precious to Elsie, but it couldn't ward off the reaction +that was to follow. The lavishness of the Middletons' gifts to her, +which they justified by reminding her that it was her birthday (she had +quite forgotten that Elsie Moss celebrated hers on Christmas!), quite +weighed down her spirits. On a sudden she seemed to herself to be +accepting what didn't belong to her, what wasn't meant for her. +Despite the placid way in which she had gone on acting the part of the +real niece, she pulled up and shied, so to speak, at this instance of +extravagant giving and a false birthday. It seemed as if she could not +bear it, could not accept the money, the jewelry, furs, books, and +other gifts showered upon her. + +But there was no way out. She had to accept everything, and she had to +keep everything but the money. That she sent directly to Elsie Moss, +explaining that she couldn't possibly accept it, as it was especially +for her Christmas birthday. But Elsie Moss, probably with her friend's +recent request for the five hundred dollars in mind, sent it directly +back. Whereupon she wrote again, saying that she had more money than +she knew what to do with, and that she would be broken-hearted if Elsie +returned it a second time. + + +The letter in which Elsie Moss returned the money was written on the +very day when the girl had planned to write the letter announcing her +disappearance. It was only a short note, however, and contained +nothing of that nature. Her next letter, in which she reluctantly +agreed to accept half of the Christmas-birthday gift, was long and +surprising, but delightfully so rather than mysteriously or painfully. + +Her Christmas had been quite as happy as that of the other Elsie. +Indeed, her greater capacity for blissful and ecstatic joy would have +rendered it even happier but for the valedictory character all its +details held secretly for her. Her youth and temperament, however, +which had carried her through the days following her momentous +decision, upheld her spirits even when she approached the brink of the +crisis. Her determination to right the wrong she had done at what she +believed the first possible moment had cleared her conscience so +completely that in the interim she had been able to enjoy the fruits of +that wrong-doing as never before since the very first. + +She had herself made her gift for Cousin Julia and little things for +Miss Peacock and nearly everybody in the house. On Christmas Eve she +sang in the parlor for Miss Peacock, the servants, and those remaining +in the boarding-house over the holidays. First she went through the +carols. Then she sang the favorite song or songs of every one present, +including several of Miss Pritchard's. And though the programme was +haphazard it wasn't motley--only simple and old-fashioned and full of +sweetness and melody. The girl must have been dull indeed not to have +guessed something of the exquisite and genuine pleasure she gave. + +In truth she lay long awake, thrilled by the remembrance. It had been +her swan-song, she told herself, half-tremulously, half-buoyed by the +excitement of it all. For she was passing out of their lives, in very +truth--even out of Cousin Julia's, and--forever. And Cousin Julia, +who, Elsie knew had basked in the enjoyment of the others, would have +it for a happy memory, when---- + +But she mustn't go further now. It was hardly safe. To-morrow was +Christmas Day. Until the day after, she wasn't going to think ahead. +Only on the 26th of December would she begin to make definite, final +preparations. She wouldn't spoil tomorrow by looking beyond it. + +Christmas was a wonderful day. Elsie did not realize how delirious her +enjoyment was nor how painfully she was keyed up because of her +underlying apprehension of coming agony. Neither did she understand it +when she waked suddenly from sleep the following morning, feeling so +exhausted as to be almost ill, and with a terrible sinking at heart +which settled into depression the like of which she had never +experienced before. + +It might have seemed that she was in no condition to complete the +proposed plans. But as a matter of fact, there was little to do. +Though the girl hadn't deliberately or consciously looked ahead, the +matter had been in her mind; and now when she came to consider the +question as to where she should go, she found it practically settled. +When she brought up the idea of going to California and trying to get a +chance as a moving-picture actress, she was ready with the objection +that the films were most likely to reach New York and that her dimples +would give her away at once. Her wisest move would be to take refuge +in some place equally distant from her stepmother in San Francisco and +from New York. Which, of course, was no other than Chicago. She had +enough money to take her thither and take care of her until she should +get a start--in some vaudeville house as she hoped. And then she would +be truly lost--forever, in all probability, and perhaps in more senses +than one. + + +Miss Pritchard was struck by the change in Elsie that morning at the +breakfast-table. The child looked almost ill. She said nothing to +her, however, feeling that it was the reaction from the excitement of +Christmas, and believing she would be better for the distraction of the +school. But she couldn't dismiss the matter from her mind all day, and +the more she thought of it the more serious it seemed. She realized +that Elsie hadn't looked merely tired or even exhausted. It was worse +than that. For the first time since she had come East, Miss Pritchard +thought she saw in the child indication of genuine, positive suffering. + +She decided that she herself had been gravely remiss. The strain of +giving herself so generously and whole-heartedly had worn upon the girl +disastrously, and--she had had warning and hadn't heeded. Until +recently, it is true, Elsie's blithe buoyancy had seemed always the +normal, unconscious, almost effortless efflorescence of a lovely +nature, as natural as playful grace to a kitten, as simple as +breathing. But once or twice back in the fall, Miss Pritchard had been +startled into wondering if the sweet instrument wasn't in danger of +being strained through constant playing upon it, and to be fearful that +Elsie might truly be rarely sensitive in a personal, as she seemed to +be in an artistic, way. + +The first time when this had presented itself to her mind had been a +matter of a month or six weeks previous. At that time she had seemed +to discover a shadow in the sparkling eyes and a transient pensive +droop of the lips. Then on the night of Charley Graham's visit, she +had been frightened by the worn look upon the beloved little face, and +had feared some definite trouble. + +It was not long after the affair of the five hundred dollars, and Miss +Pritchard had wondered if the difficulty might not be somehow connected +with that. She had just reached the decision to question the girl when +suddenly the weariness, the sadness, the pensiveness, the shadow, +vanished utterly, leaving Elsie not only herself again, but even more +glowingly and infectiously happy and buoyant than before. And from +that moment until this morning at the breakfast-table she had remained +so. + +It was natural that now Miss Pritchard's mind should hark back to those +former suspicions. All day she vacillated between the fear that Elsie +was beset by some secret trouble or by the solicitations of some +unscrupulous person, and the apprehension that she was on the verge of +nervous exhaustion. Her face was anxious indeed as she left the office +that night. + +She opened the door of her sitting-room with strange sinking of heart. +Then she almost gasped. Her breath was almost taken away by sheer +amazement. Elsie was waiting for her--yet another Elsie. For, radiant +and sparkling as the girl had been, she had never before been like +this. She was fairly dazzling. If Miss Pritchard hadn't been almost +stunned, she would have made some feeble remark about getting out her +smoked glasses. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"My dear child, what has happened?" Miss Pritchard cried as Elsie +relieved her of her wraps and bag, and she dropped weakly into a chair. +"I believe your dimples have actually doubled in size since morning. +It's positively uncanny, you know, anything like that. Suppose it +should go further?" + +"Like the Cheshire cat's grin? Well--we should worry, Cousin Julia, +dearest. But--what do you think has happened, truly?" + +"Your friend from Enderby hasn't appeared?" + +"No, this is another sort of bliss. This is--well, dearest darling, +it's just that Mr. Coates has started me on something that--that I +could go on the stage with!" + +Miss Pritchard's face fell. "Oh, Elsie, child, what do you mean?" she +asked anxiously. The dimples disappeared but though Elsie spoke +quietly, still there was that wonderful lilt in her voice. + +"Just this. He called me into his office this morning and spoke to me +about--my specialty, you know, 'Elsie Marley, Honey.' One day back in +the fall I was showing off with that to some of the girls that were +eating their luncheon together, and he happened by and made me repeat +it. To-day he said he had had it in mind ever since, and had found +that he could adapt it and change the music and make it into a regular +vaudeville feature. He thinks it's a real crackerjack. He's going to +begin right away to give me training in it." + +For a moment Miss Pritchard couldn't speak. Then she had to stifle +what started to be a groan. "Oh, my dear child!" she exclaimed. + +"It seemed such a lovely ending to a lovely Christmas," said Elsie +wistfully. The girl was absolutely carried away by the excitement of +it. It didn't even occur to her--until she was in bed that night--what +the "ending" of the lovely Christmas was to have been--the ending that +alone was to justify her enjoyment of the holiday and of the days since +she had weighed her action in the balance and found it wanting. + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, really when you understand, it's simply wonderful," +she went on eagerly. "I'm the only one picked out thus far, and you +know most of the others are related to the profession, too. And even +if that thing is so old, I can't help liking it. Most of the things +_are_ rather awful, I must confess." + +"But the first year--the first six months! I never dreamed of such a +thing!" Miss Pritchard cried. + +"Neither did I, darling dear; that's what makes me so wild with joy," +said the girl softly. + +Touched and almost remorseful, Miss Pritchard kissed her fondly. But +she couldn't restrain a sigh. + +"Surely it doesn't mean--going on the stage?" she inquired. + +"Oh, no indeed, Cousin Julia, at least not right off. Only--well, just +being ready if anything should happen, you know." + +Then suddenly at the thought of that wonderful eventuality, the girl's +dimples came out and her eyes so shone that Miss Pritchard felt as if +she should burst into tears. It seemed as if she couldn't bear it! +Again she lamented inwardly. Why should the child have had that crazy +desire for the stage? Why shouldn't it have been a passion for +music--for opera, indeed? Nearly every one who had heard Elsie sing on +Christmas Eve had spoken to Miss Pritchard of the girl's wonderful +voice, and the question of her cultivating that instead of working for +the stage; and Miss Pritchard had yesterday decided to make a fresh +plea to Elsie to that effect. What joy would it not be to share the +child's enthusiasm, had it been a matter of music! + +However, it would be worse than futile to drag in any such thing at +this moment, she saw clearly. Carried away by her delight, Elsie would +have no ears and no heart for anything else. Miss Pritchard told +herself she must wait for the infatuation to cool--and when that might +be, she couldn't in the least foresee. Would it ever happen in truth? + +As she couldn't possibly force herself to rejoice with Elsie, and +couldn't bear not to share in her joy, as they had come to share +everything, she suddenly proposed attending a concert that evening to +be given by a visiting orchestra from the Middle West. Elsie entered +into the plan with spirit, and they went off gayly together. Miss +Pritchard knew that Elsie was dreaming dreams to the strains of Bach +and Schumann, and wished with all her heart they were another sort of +vision; still, it was a happy evening for both where it had threatened +to be uncomfortable. But on the night when Elsie Moss had expected to +lie awake in agony because of the imminence of her parting with all she +loved most, she had only a brief moment of compunction, which she +dismissed easily, falling asleep in the midst of radiant and enchanting +visions of life on the stage. It was Miss Pritchard whose rest was +troubled. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +The answer of the real Elsie Marley to the letter in which her friend +enthusiastically related her advance toward the stage might have +indicated how far she had gone since the day on the train when she had +opined that the girl who thinks of becoming an actress has to undergo +much that isn't nice. It so sympathized and rejoiced with the other in +her happiness that it was solace and inspiration at once to Elsie Moss, +who was living at a high and unhealthy pitch of excitement, and +welcomed, indeed craved greedily, anything in the way of approval or +sympathy. For the girl feared that if ever she should stop to +consider, she should find her heart a black well of wickedness. But +that she wouldn't do. She _would not_ stop to consider. She had her +chance now, the chance she had waited for all her life, and she wasn't +going to hazard it. She was going to make the most of it, let her +conscience go hang! + + +For her part, the real Elsie Marley was led at this time to consider, +and the more seriously. To her inexperience, it looked as if Elsie +Moss were very near the stage, as if another year might find her a +fixed star in that firmament. And what then? She would be independent +of Cousin Julia and the boarding-house, and might she not want to +resume her own name and make herself known to her own relations? Or +would she, out of her abounding affection for Cousin Julia, suffer the +present state of affairs to continue? + +The girl pondered long and rather sadly over the dilemma, but always +inclined to the belief that the latter was really the only possible +sequel. It wasn't that the question of what would become of her in the +former instance was all-important; it wasn't that Elsie Moss would +probably not think of any other course of action. It was the fact that +some one very much like herself was needed here at Enderby. Mr. +Middleton depended upon her. Mrs. Middleton would hardly know how to +get along without her. Katy counted strongly upon her sympathy and +co-operation. And even Mattie Howe and Dick Clinton would miss her. + +And, after all, didn't the fact of Elsie Moss's securing her heart's +desire almost immediately, together with the working out of her own +presence at Enderby to the satisfaction of a few very dear people, +quite justify the exchange they had made? Hadn't it really proved a +beneficent idea? + +Arrived at this point, the girl was reassured. The only difficulty was +that the question didn't stay settled. It came up again and yet again +and the whole argument had to be redebated. And finally she came to +the conclusion that her wisest plan was to ward it off. Like the other +Elsie, she decided to avoid meditation and plunge into action. And +though the sort and amount of action to which she was limited wouldn't +have seemed action at all to the other girl, it answered her purpose, +nevertheless. Elsie Marley threw herself into the performance of the +various duties she had assumed with more fervor than ever, and +presently had recovered a good measure of her former serenity. + +But it seemed only to have been regained to be threatened. + +One night early in February, when Miss Stewart relieved her and she +left the library, she found Dick Clinton waiting outside. He often did +this, for he and Elsie had become good friends since the day he had +first appeared at the library and asked for help. She had seen him at +all the parties of the high-school pupils which she had attended, and +had gone coasting on his double-runner with other girls a number of +times. And no Sunday passed that he didn't seek her after service and +walk home with her. + +He was strangely silent to-night. His first shyness having worn off, +he had since always had plenty to say. Elsie was always quiet, and not +a word was spoken until they were next door to the parsonage. + +"Oh, Miss Moss, would you just as lief walk back a little way?" he +asked suddenly. "I had something I wanted to say to you, and there's +the parsonage and I haven't begun. I won't make you late for your +supper--or dinner, whatever it is." + +Rather surprised, Elsie complied willingly, and they had no sooner +turned than he began. + +"It's something I've done," he blurted out. "I feel sort of--like +thirty cents, you know. I should sort of like to know--what you think +of it." + +"Whatever it is, I don't believe you need to feel that way about it, +Dick," she said gently. + +"I do, just the same, though I'm not sure I should have before I knew +you, Miss Moss, you're so awfully sort of square, you see," he owned. +"I'm glad anyhow it ain't so bad but what I can tell you. This is what +it is: one of the other fellows that's about my height and build wanted +to go to the motor-show in Boston last week and his dad wouldn't let +him. He's simply wild over aeroplanes, and there was a model there, +and when the last night came, he got me to help him out. He pretended +to go to bed about a quarter of nine. Instead, he sneaked me up the +back-stairs and left me in his room, and he caught the nine o'clock for +Boston. I went to bed and put out the light. After a while his mother +put her head in the door and asked if I was asleep, and then came in +and kissed me. About two o'clock he came back, climbed in the window, +and I vamoosed. It seemed all right, and I couldn't have refused him, +and yet I felt queer." + +"I should think you were innocent enough. It seems to me the other boy +had all the responsibility of it," Elsie observed. + +"That's just what I thought. And I'm dead sure it would only have +seemed fun last winter. And I'd have to do it again if he asked me. +But--you know that little Howe kid that's trying to stretch himself out +to get big enough to be a boy scout?" + +"Yes, indeed, Charles Augustus Howe." + +"Well, he's always asking me things, and taking my answers so solemnly, +and yesterday he wanted to know if I thought it was wrong to tell a lie +to yourself in the dark. I tried to reason out the thing with him +and--great snakes, but it made me feel queer all over! Talking to that +kid about truth and honor and George Washington and Abraham Lincoln, I +sort of hypnotized myself; but afterward it made me feel cheap. +And--and there you are!" + +"But you didn't get anything out of it for yourself, Dick," said Elsie. + +"Nothing but feeling cheap before that kid." + +"Then I don't believe it's wrong for you--only for the other boy," she +averred. + +They turned. Nothing more was said until they reached the parsonage. + +"Much obliged, Miss Moss," the boy said quietly. "And that's good to +remember--not getting anything out of it for yourself. Good night." + +She heard him whistling cheerily as he went on his way. But her own +heart was heavy. Not to get anything out of it for oneself! Oh, what +would Dick Clinton think, what would every one think, to know that she +wasn't Elsie Moss at all! He had been sadly troubled because he had +played the part of another one night--a silent part that required no +spoken words. What would he think to learn that she was an interloper +at the parsonage? It was in part, it is true, for the sake of another. +But it was also in part--in large part, now--for her own sake. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +One evening in the early spring, during the interval between the films +in a motion-picture theatre on lower Broadway, a thrill of excitement +went through the audience, which was of the sort that desires to live +on thrills. + +Perhaps to-night, however, there was reasonable excuse for genuine +anticipation. For the song-dance specialty that was about to take +place was of a different order from anything that had been known in +that theatre heretofore. There was real grace and beauty in the +dancing, genuine melody in the voice of the singer, and something sweet +and wholesome about the whole performance. + +The act was entitled "And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, Honey?" And one +whispered to another that the best of it was, that that was her real +name--honestly it was--at least it had always been her stage name, so +that probably the song had been written especially for her--and she +that young--and it wasn't real ragtime either. And her dimples were +real too; possibly they were enlarged and deepened by the make-up, but +she had them off the stage. + +Heavy applause greeted the entrance of the actress. + +She was only a slip of a girl--a mere child she looked, partly, they +said, because of her hair--the "Castle bob," you know. She tripped +lightly before the footlights, smiled charmingly as she put the +question of the first line, and sang the song through with dancing +between the stanzas and dramatic rendering of the lines. She smiled +and sparkled and dimpled; but though she was so pretty and piquant and +coquettish, so graceful and vivacious, so completely the actress, there +was a look of youth and innocence about her that pleased the blasé +audience, and touched one alien member of it to tears. + +Once and again was Elsie Marley recalled to repeat the act. The young +actress had other things prepared, but though they might be well +received, they were followed by clamor for "Elsie Marley, Honey," until +only the forcible resumption of the pictures availed to quiet it. + +And on Saturday night at the end of the second week, even that did not +avail. The last appearance of that bill having been announced, the +audience could not let Elsie Marley go. Finally, the manager came out +and announced that Miss Marley had been engaged for another week. And +again, while there was intense satisfaction elsewhere, to one person +the statement was like a blow. + +In truth, on the day when Elsie had announced the opportunity that had +been offered her of appearing in a "specialty" on the stage of a +second-class cinema theatre, Miss Pritchard had been aghast. The +chance had come through the school in the person of Mr. Coates, who had +first seen possibilities in the song the girl had known since +childhood, and who had developed it to its limit, and trained her in a +more artificial though still charming rendering, the music having been +adapted more nearly to music-hall ragtime. When he had announced to +her what he had known from the first--that she was to go upon the stage +with it--Elsie had been so elated that Miss Pritchard had been +powerless before her. She couldn't be a wet blanket; neither, however, +could she force herself to express any gratification. + +And when first she had seen this last member of her family before the +footlights of the cheap little theatre, with the bad air, the mixed +audience, and the poor pictures, she felt she couldn't endure it. The +image of the stately, aristocratic Aunt Ellen Pritchard rose before her +vision, overwhelmingly severe and reproachful. It would actually have +killed her to witness once what Julia Pritchard had to witness every +night for two weeks--or so she thought at first. + +On this Saturday night when the engagement was extended, they were +later than usual in getting to their carriage. Elsie was wrapped +snugly in the rose-colored opera-cloak. Her eyes were very bright, her +cheeks flushed. She had not really required any make-up, but they had +insisted upon deepening the color of her lips and darkening the lower +eye-lids. Miss Pritchard, too depressed to force any semblance of +cheerfulness, saw her dimples appear and disappear in happy reverie. +She sighed. Through it all, the child was absolutely enchanting to her. + +Elsie, catching the sigh, snuggled up to her. + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, I'm so happy, so happy I'm afraid I'll just burst +like a circus balloon. Oh, dear darling, you're so good to me. And I +suppose you're sick to death of the same old thing, and dread the +thought of another week of it." + +As a matter of fact, Miss Pritchard was as captivated by the song +specialty as any of the audience. She confessed that it wore well. +"But, oh, Elsie," she couldn't forbear adding, "I do wish you weren't +going to have another week in that cheap place." + +"Oh, but Cousin Julia, one can't begin at the top," remonstrated the +girl. "Why, I'm the luckiest guy ever was. How much do you suppose +I'm going to get for this next week?" + +Miss Pritchard had no heart for guessing. The sum the girl mentioned +was indeed surprising, but it only seemed to remove her further from +her and from the family they both represented. + +"I should be only too glad to do it for the experience alone," Elsie +rattled on, "and of course what I get is only what is over and above +what they pay the school. And I shall get other chances, Mr. Coates +says, and--oh, Cousin Julia, I don't dare tell you--you don't"--there +was a catch in her voice--"you don't sympathize. You were so +different! And now you're just like--well, almost as bad as the +others." + +Miss Pritchard drew the little rose-colored figure close. + +"Yes, I do sympathize, dear little cousin," she said, "only----" + +She could not go on. And they went the rest of the way in silence. It +was the first time that anything, recognized by both of them, had come +between them. As the excitement that had buoyed her up for the evening +began to die away, Elsie's heart was like a stone. Later it would +ache. She wondered rather drearily how it would be after she was in +bed. Even now she recognized something that would have been absurd if +it weren't so terribly serious. To think of her demanding sympathy +from Cousin Julia--of appearing almost aggrieved not to receive it--she +who should be cowering beneath her scorn! How was it that she should +so forget, should feel and act as if everything were true--and square? + +It was being on the stage, she supposed, a real actress at last. At +last! Why, it was almost _at first_. Who had ever been so fortunate +as she! To be on the stage in New York well within a year of her first +entering the city! And only to think that this might have been the +last night of her engagement! How terrible that seemed now! How would +she ever live without the evening to look forward to? How blissful to +have another week before her--six more appearances before that vast, +applauding throng! How happily would she go to sleep tonight to the +music of the lullaby of the thought: "Another week at the Merry Nickel, +another week at the Merry Nickel! Bliss! Bliss! Bliss!" + +And yet it wasn't at all a blissful face which Miss Pritchard bore in +memory to her own room that night after she had kissed Elsie, put out +the light, and opened the windows. Since the girl had been at the +theatre, Miss Pritchard had dropped into the habit of going in to her +the last thing every night and tucking her in as if she had been a +child. For somehow she had seemed, since striking out into +professional life, only the more a child, more innocent, more +appealingly youthful, more than ever to be sheltered and guarded. She +had tried her wings, it is true; she believed she had proved them (and +perchance she had!); but more than ever was she a precious and tender +nestling. + +As she sat by her window in the darkness, Miss Pritchard shook her head +sadly. She said to herself this couldn't go on--this state of things +couldn't continue. Despite Elsie's elation over the fact that she was +booked for another week at the theatre, she looked more mournful and +wistful and worn than ever. Some strain was wearing the child out. It +wasn't the work, nor yet the excitement, for she lived on them, and not +altogether unhealthily. There was no other possible explanation: it +was nothing less than the strain of combating her own disapproval, +tacit or expressed. Elsie was too warm-hearted to enjoy her legitimate +happiness alone, too sensitive not to suffer from want of sympathy. + +The change in the girl had begun to be apparent directly after +Christmas. Elsie hadn't been herself since that time, which proved +beyond peradventure that Miss Pritchard's suspicion was correct. The +joyous, sparkling little creature whom she had found in her room on the +day after Christmas, bubbling over with excitement, eager to share her +good news, had become thin and wan. Her charmingly brilliant little +face was not only peaked, but in repose was generally wistful or +plaintive. Many a time one could have looked on it without suspecting +the existence of dimples. Only in the evening did she resemble her +real self. From dinner until the moment she lay in her bed, she was +the Elsie Marley she had been (with negligible interruptions) since the +night when she had walked straight into Miss Pritchard's heart before +she had known who she was. At other times she was a pale shadow, the +little ghost of the girl she had been or should be. + +Miss Pritchard sighed deeply. If it were for want of +sympathy--approving sympathy--the child drooped and pined, must she not +have it, willy-nilly? But again she sighed, and yet more deeply. +Whatever her effort, was such a thing possible? + +As for Elsie herself, the lullaby didn't prove a lullaby at all, and, +as usual these days, the girl cried herself to sleep. Every night, of +late, the reaction came. Every morning she awoke with a sense of a +heavy burden weighing her down. All day her heart ached, though dully +and vaguely for the most part; for if the pain threatened to become +acute, she could still drug it with anticipation of the excitement of +the evening. + +In the weeks that had passed, Elsie hadn't once faced her conscience. +She had never squarely confronted the situation which was now so much +further complicated. When the unexpected and thrilling opportunity had +come to her the day after Christmas--the very day that was to +consummate her renunciation--the girl had been completely carried away +by it. She hadn't repudiated the decision she had come to so +painfully, she had simply disregarded it--ignored it utterly as if +there had been no such thing. And she had gone on ignoring it. In the +very first of it, the excitement of working directly for the stage had +rendered her oblivious of everything else. Then when certain faint +murmurings of conscience began to be audible, came the actual prospect +of the Merry Nickel to stifle them, and then there was the stage itself +and the actual footlights. Nevertheless, avoid the issue as she would, +more and more had her daylight hours come to be haunted with +misgivings, and now her heart was never light except in the evenings. +And combat any such direct thought as she might, she felt dimly that in +giving over her purpose to square her conduct with the right, she had +doubled and trebled the original wrong. Unvowing a vow must be +equivalent to signing a covenant with the powers of darkness. Now and +again lines from the poem Cousin Julia had repeated to her so +impressively that she could never forget it, came to her suddenly in +uncanny fashion. At such times, if questioned, Elsie would have +acknowledged that her Palladium had indeed fallen, with all the awful +consequences. + +Lines from another and more familiar poem came to the girl the next day +as she sat in the afternoon with Miss Pritchard in their sitting-room, +the snow falling outside as if it were December. As she gazed at the +steadily falling, restful, soothing curtain of flakes which deadened +all sound and veiled all save its own beauty, unconsciously she was +repeating verses of a poem she had learned as a child. But as she came +to the words, "I thought of a mound in sweet Auburn," she recollected +herself. And somehow her mind turned instinctively to Miss Pritchard's +lover. It was because he, too, was dead, she supposed, and this snow +was rounding above his grave. But before she made the natural +application or drew the familiar comparison between his failure and her +own, Elsie clapped the lid down on her thoughts with a thud. Turning +resolutely to Miss Pritchard, she asked her, with strange intonation, +if she thought the snow would continue all night. + +"I rather hope so," Miss Pritchard returned in a quiet voice that was +like a part of the silent storm, "for it's so late that we can't expect +another snowfall, and it seems really a privilege to have it now--like +plucking violets at Thanksgiving." + +For a little, her gaze, too, lost itself outside. Then she turned and +looked at Elsie with a kindness in which there was something wistful. + +"I know what you have been thinking, dear," she said. "You're thinking +that I'm not consistent nor fair--and you're right. I am neither. I +agree with you absolutely. Having in the first place consented to your +studying for the stage, I should have looked ahead and faced just this. +As you say, one can't begin at the tip-top--nor yet at the top. One +must make use of humble stepping-stones." + +But it seemed that the struggle she had been through to bring herself +to this attitude had been in vain. On a sudden she lost all that she +had gained. Her heart sank as Elsie's face brightened eagerly--became +transformed, indeed. + +"The trouble is," she went on sadly, "that the stepping-stones--oh, +Elsie, I'm so afraid the stepping-stones will only lead on and on and +on--never higher. They'll be and remain on a dead level, and you will +step from one to another, one to another, year after year, over the +same dreary waste. I hate awfully to say all this, dear, but when +those people refuse to allow you to do anything but the Elsie-Honey +business over and over, it comes to me what a fate it would be to be +doomed forever to that one stunt." + +"Oh, Cousin Julia!" Elsie cried deprecatingly. + +"Yes, dear, that's what I am exactly, an old killjoy; but truly I +cannot help it, though I have tried. I have struggled hard against my +prejudice. Elsie, last night you stopped yourself as you were about to +tell me something, but I fear I can guess what it was like. Some one +suggested your going on the road, as they say, with that one thing as +your repertoire--making a tour of the cheap moving-picture houses of a +certain section?" + +Elsie grew very pale; her lips trembled. One interested wholly in her +dramatic career, seeing her at that moment, might have concluded that +the girl had it in her to develop a capacity for tragedy as well as +comedy. + +"Cousin Julia," she said with tremulous dignity, "I don't want you to +come with me this week. I can go back and forth in a carriage by +myself. I've got to go through it, for I promised and they will have +made arrangements, but--please don't come with me any more." + +She gazed at Miss Pritchard through reproachful tears, but when she saw +tears streaming down Miss Pritchard's plain, staunch face, she ran to +her arms. + +"My dear, it's only because I love you so, because you are the very +apple of my eye, that I talk so," the latter declared, and the warm +words went straight to the girl's sore heart. "I know I'm not just, +but dear, we won't let anything come between us--ever. I'll do my best +to see your side of it, and you must be patient with me. It's hard, I +know, for youth to bear with age, for inexperience to hear the ugly +words of experience; but now we'll just go through the week together +and await what comes." + +What came demanded further patience on her part and increased Elsie's +infatuation. Before the end of the week the young actress had an offer +from a rival establishment which would take her to the edge of summer +at a salary that fairly made her gasp. The second theatre was perhaps +a shade better, but not sufficiently so to reconcile Miss Pritchard to +it. But she held her peace. Whereupon the first manager increased the +sum offered by his rival, and, Miss Pritchard still tolerant, Elsie +agreed to remain there until June. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + +Miss Pritchard acknowledged to herself that Elsie Marley had the right +stuff in her. She did not grow careless, never let herself down. The +audience was uncritical and wildly demonstrative, but the girl did her +level best at every performance. Up to a certain point, she even +improved. The possibility of so doing in this case was limited, but +having reached that point she held it. Further, her wonderfully sweet +voice seemed to grow sweeter every day. + +Therein lay Miss Pritchard's one hope. Presently, she sought out an +old friend who had been a musician of note and later a teacher and +musical critic on an evening paper, and confided her difficulty to him. +Hearing her story, he was interested and very sympathetic. He advised +her to drop the concert idea and dwell wholly upon the possibility of +opera as a lure: only the dramatic form and setting could compete +successfully in a case of stage-fever like that. And where Miss +Pritchard had hoped only to be allowed to bring Elsie to him, he being +an old man, he agreed to go to the theatre and hear the girl when she +would be off her guard. + +"I'll go any night you say, Miss Pritchard," he proposed. + +"Don't make _me_ choose, Mr. Francis," she begged. "There's so much at +stake that if I knew when you were to be there, I should be so nervous +I couldn't sit still." + +"You _nervous_, Miss Pritchard!" he exclaimed incredulously. + +"Alas, yes, Mr. Francis," she acknowledged, laughing. "These young +people with their careers are too stimulating for spinster cousins who +have never had anything more exciting than night-work on a city paper. +Well, I dare say I have only my come-uppings. You see, I was afraid +Elsie wouldn't be lively enough! I had visions of an extremely proper, +blasé young person moping about, and rather dreaded her. Getting Elsie +was like finding a changeling." + +"Rather too much of a good thing? Well, we're all that way, Miss +Pritchard. If we're looking for a quiet person, we want a peculiar +sort of quietude; and the lively ones must be just so lively and no +more. Do you remember in one of the old novels, where a sister +enumerates in a letter to her brother the charms of the young lady she +wishes him to marry? At the end of the list she adds that the lady has +'just as much religion as my William likes.' Now isn't that human +nature and you and I all over?" + + +As she left the house, a suggestion came to Miss Pritchard in regard to +a lesser matter she had had in mind. Elsie having agreed to drop +everything for July and August and go into the country with her, she +had been studying prospectuses and consulting friends as to the +whither. Seeing Mr. Francis, suddenly recalled a summer twenty years +before when he and his sister had passed a month at a place called +Green River in eastern Massachusetts, and she had driven over a number +of times from a neighboring town to dine with them. It came to her +suddenly that Green River was exactly the place she had been looking +for, and she believed it must be near Enderby, where Elsie's friend +lived. And now she couldn't understand why she hadn't thought before +of going where the friends might meet. + +Making inquiries, she discovered that the name Green River had been +changed to Enderby, and that Enderby Inn was considered quite as good a +hostelry as the Green River Hotel had been. She wrote at once to the +proprietor to see if she could engage rooms, saying nothing to Elsie +lest the plan miscarry. + +So eager was she, that when she found a telegram on her plate next +morning (almost before her letter had left New York) she opened it +anxiously, uncertain whether such promptness meant success or failure +for her. But it was from Mr. Francis, asking her to lunch with him. +She got through the morning in almost a fever of suspense. + +He had gone to hear Elsie that very night of Miss Pritchard's call, and +told her without preface that the girl had a marvellous voice. + +"Now, Miss Pritchard, can't you shut down at once on that vaudeville +business and set her to studying under a first-rate teacher?" he +demanded. "She ought not to lose a minute. Of course she is rather +small--too bad she isn't taller--but for all that I believe such a +voice will carry her anywhere. I shouldn't wonder if she should turn +out a star of the first magnitude." + +He named a teacher with a studio in Boston who could take her as far as +she could go in this country. He usually went to Naples in the late +spring with a pupil or two, but would be at his home near Boston all +summer this year. + +Of course the fact that Enderby was within easy reach of Boston added +to Miss Pritchard's excitement. That night she received word that she +could have accommodations at the inn, and a letter following next day +offered her a choice of rooms. She engaged a suite of three with a +bath, though aware that the single rooms would be satisfactory. And +she smiled at herself for assuming airs already, as guardian of an +operatic star, engaging royal apartments for her. + +Filled with enthusiasm, she announced to Elsie that night that she had +secured quarters for them at Enderby for the two months. At the first +breath the girl was quite as surprised and delighted as she was +expected to be. The delight was, it is true, but momentary, though it +sufficed to irradiate her face and fill Miss Pritchard's heart with +generous joy--also, to hide from the latter the fact that it was +succeeded by profound dismay. + +Those dimples! Those awful dimples! As she thought of them, Elsie +Moss was overwhelmed by consternation. Of course she couldn't go to +Enderby. She couldn't let Uncle John get even a second glimpse of her +face. She fled from the room in a panic which Miss Pritchard believed +to be excited eagerness to impart the good news to her friend at once. + +Though, as the days had passed, Elsie had persisted in her refusal to +face her conscience or look into the future, she had been vaguely aware +of a day of reckoning ahead. She had dimly taken it for granted that +when she stopped she would have to consider--there would be nothing +else to do. When she should be out from under the influence of this +powerful stimulant, she foresaw herself meeting perforce the questions +she had evaded. But also she had foreseen herself with two clear +months before her and with Cousin Julia beside her. + +Now, on a sudden, all was changed. She seemed to have no choice. She +had no control over her future. She had delayed so long that the +choice was no longer hers. Her path was sharply defined. There was +nothing she could do except to disappear on the eve of Miss Pritchard's +departure for Enderby. And at that time there would be nothing to +sustain her, no moral or redeeming force about an act that was +compulsory. It was like being shown a precipice and realizing that at +an appointed time one must walk straight over its verge. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + +Mrs. Moss, who had loved her brilliant, impulsive little stepdaughter +like her own child, had given her up unwillingly. But it had been her +husband's wish that Elsie should go to her uncle; the latter could give +her advantages her stepmother could not afford; and she supposed it was +right and natural for the girl to be with her own people, even though +they had been strangers to her up to her sixteenth year. + +At first her loneliness found some solace in Elsie's letters. They +were short, but seemed brimming over with happiness. Mrs. Moss didn't +get any dear idea of the household at Enderby, but it was apparently +all that the girl desired. Then gradually the letters began to fall +off, and before Christmas-time she felt a decided change in them. They +had become unsatisfactory, perfunctory; the girl seemed to be slipping +away from her. She began to wonder if Elsie were not concealing +something, and soon after Christmas was forced to the conclusion that +she was unhappy and would not acknowledge it. + +She endeavored to regain the confidence that had been fully hers; she +tried in her own letters to prepare the way, to make confession easy, +but she received no response. In such circumstances letters are at +best unsatisfactory, and it was maddening to Mrs. Moss that she was at +such a distance that her warm words must grow cold in the five or six +days that elapsed between the writing and the reading. + +Christmas passed, and the winter, and she was unrelieved. She was busy +with her teaching, but except when engrossed by that, was haunted by +anxiety and apprehension. She had finally decided to go East during +the long summer vacation, ill as she could afford to make the journey, +to investigate for herself, when one night after school she dropped in +to see a friend, and while waiting picked up a New York paper. + +Some one in the house had that day returned from a journey East, and +the paper was dated five days earlier. It happened to be folded with +the page given over to amusements uppermost. Glancing carelessly over +columns that devoted a paragraph each to an amazing number of cinema +theatres, her eye suddenly caught the familiar name, _Elsie Marley_. + +With a vision of her stepdaughter as she had sung the old rhyme, she +mechanically followed the words until the word "dimples" arrested her +attention. Then she read the paragraph with beating heart. She read +it twice before she fully comprehended--understood that Elsie Marley +had completed her sixth week at the Merry Nickel in her song-dance +specialty, "And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, Honey?" Miss Marley was +declared to be more popular than ever; managers were clamoring for her +and she had engagements a year ahead. The notice added that despite +the fact that her voice was so wonderful, her dancing and acting +inimitable, some people declared that it was her dimples that wrought +the spell--that she might stand dumb and motionless before the +footlights if she would only smile. + +Mrs. Moss's first clear sensation was indignation toward Mr. Middleton. +She felt she could never forgive him for allowing this situation to +come about without warning her. Then she realized that this was the +key to the whole situation. She had not heard from the girl for six +weeks--just the length of time she must now have been at the theatre. +Excusing herself before her friend appeared, she hastened home in a +tumult of emotion. + +She did not know which way to turn. She couldn't bear the idea of +Elsie being on the stage of a motion-picture theatre; it seemed as if +it would break her heart. And still worse was the knowledge that the +girl had deceived her; that she had written empty, non-committal notes +calculated to make her believe she was staying quietly with her uncle, +when she was all the time preparing for this. And she had always been +so frank and upright, so easy to appeal to and to persuade! It seemed +to Mrs. Moss that she must have come under unfortunate influence. + +Her first impulse was to write to Elsie; her second, to Mr. Middleton; +but she did neither. The situation was now too critical to be handled +from a distance. There were only two weeks more of school. She +secured accommodations on the railway for the evening of the last day +of the term. + +On the sixth day after, she appeared without warning at the parsonage +at Enderby. A pleasant-faced woman who might be Mrs. Middleton, though +she did not look like an invalid, sat on the veranda entertaining a +little girl with a big baby in a perambulator. She asked at the door +for Mr. Middleton and was shown into his study. + +He came in directly, and the sight of his handsome, refined, strong and +serene face, with a vague resemblance to Elsie's, revived her drooping +spirits. Suddenly she felt that whatever he sanctioned must be right. +She inquired falteringly for Elsie before she announced her name or her +errand. + +She learned that the girl was well, and, to her surprise, would be in +presently. Then the season was over, she decided, and recollecting +herself, gave her name. + +He smiled. "I thought as much from the way you spoke her name," he +said. "Elsie will be delighted. May I call Mrs. Middleton?" + +"Just a moment, please. I felt troubled about Elsie, Mr. Middleton, +and came on without writing or sending word. I'm impulsive too, like +Elsie, though only her stepmother." + +He had never felt that Elsie was impulsive, and as he looked up in some +surprise, she wondered if he minded her comparing herself to Elsie, and +so to his sister. + +"Perhaps I should have sent word," she went on. "But I hesitated. I +knew you didn't approve of Elsie's father marrying me." + +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, if I had any such feeling, it has long since +disappeared," he assured her earnestly. "From the moment I saw Elsie +and realized what you have made of her, I have felt only the gratitude +I am sure my sister would have felt for your devotion to her motherless +child." + +"Thank you," she said. "Now about Elsie----" + +But she couldn't go on. A sudden wave of indignation swept over her. +If he had felt kindly toward her, why hadn't he warned her? + +He glanced at her with some concern. She seemed so fatigued and +overwrought after the long journey that he begged her to let him call +Mrs. Middleton that she might have a cup of tea and go to her room +before Elsie's return. The latter had gone into town but would be back +very soon, for she went into the library at four. + +Mrs. Moss stared at him, and he asked if Elsie hadn't told her that she +had been assistant librarian since September. + +She shook her head. He wondered, and when she had again refused +refreshment or rest, explained. As he did so, it came out that she +knew little or nothing of Elsie's activities, and he launched into +glowing descriptions. And the further he went, the more she marvelled. +She couldn't understand how Elsie had become the sedate, dutiful girl +he portrayed unless some great blow had fallen upon her. Then she +recollected what had brought her hither. + +"Elsie has been away lately?" she asked. + +"Oh, no, Mrs. Moss, she only went into Boston to do some shopping." + +"But she was in New York in May?" + +"Why, no," he returned with some surprise. "I'm sorry to say she +hasn't been away overnight since she came. But we have made up our +minds she shall have a change this summer, and now that you are here, +we shall surely be able to put it through. Perhaps you will go to the +shore with her? Of course you will spend the summer with us? Mrs. +Middleton will insist." + +Mrs. Moss was too dazed to reply. Indeed, the only statement she had +taken in was that Elsie had not been away since she came. For an +instant she wondered if she could have mistaken. But that could not +be. Surely there were no two girls in the country who would have +selected that particular song and have had peculiar dimples into the +bargain. On the other hand, Elsie couldn't have been in two places at +once. Neither could she have been away without his knowledge. It +wasn't conceivable that he---- + +It struck her coldly that he was not in his right mind--that this +handsome, courteous gentleman was mildly insane. In spite of his fine +manner and bearing, his every word had been irrational. She hazarded +one last question. + +"Has Elsie said anything--shown any interest in the stage?" + +As she spoke, there was a curious expression on her face--it seemed to +him so watchful as to be almost furtive. He began to suspect that +something was wrong. She was certainly overwrought and almost +hysterical--beyond anything the journey would bring about. Possibly +that was the explanation of the mystery. Elsie had rarely spoken of +her stepmother. Perhaps her husband's death had unbalanced her mind? + +Whereupon he murmured something soothingly and courteously evasive that +confirmed Mrs. Moss in her suspicion with regard to him, his mind was +wandering now; he had illusions, without doubt. Quite likely Elsie was +now in New York, and he constantly believed her to be in Boston for the +day, coming back in time for the library. And Mrs. Moss wondered how +she could get the ear of the lady on the porch. + +She could see her through the window. Now she saw that she had a mass +of wool, red, white, and blue, in her lap and was knitting a +curious-looking article, and it came to her that perhaps she, too, was +out of her mind? Perhaps this was a mental sanitarium? True, she had +inquired for the _parsonage_. Could it be that in the cultured East +that was a new euphemism for insane asylum? + +But that idea was too ludicrous, and suddenly struck by the absurdity, +she laughed out. Her laugh was so merry and infectious as to lay his +suspicion at once, and he couldn't help joining her. And then, +somehow, each understood the misapprehension of the other, and they +laughed the harder. + +Even as they laughed, there was a light step on the veranda outside, +and some one cried _Elsie_ in a tone of warm welcome. + +Mr. Middleton had risen. "Shall I tell her who it is, or just send her +in, saying that it's an old friend?" he asked in a low voice. + +Her heart was beating violently. "Don't tell her who it is," she +begged weakly and shrank back as he opened the door. + +He closed it behind him and she waited breathlessly. She forgot +everything except that she was to see Elsie. At the first sound she +sprang to her feet, and as the door opened--not with Elsie's +characteristic fling--she held out her arms. + +"Elsie!" she cried, then started violently. + +A total stranger stood before her, a pretty girl with a sweet face and +long light-brown curls hanging from her neck. + +"And who are you?" she cried wildly. "Am I mad or is this a lunatic +asylum?" + +For a moment the girl stared at her with sweet perplexed face. Was she +another patient, then? thought the distressed woman. + +"I am Mrs. Moss," she said in a sort of desperation. "Pray tell me who +you are and where I am?" + +All the pretty color left the girl's face. She stepped back and leaned +against the door. + +"This is the parsonage," she faltered. "I am Elsie Pritchard Marley. +Your Elsie is in New York with my cousin. We exchanged." + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI + +On the Saturday afternoon following the arrival of Mrs. Moss at +Enderby, Miss Pritchard and Elsie had just seated themselves in the +former's cool, pleasant room for the purpose of discussing summer +clothes for the latter. A maid came to the door and brought in a card. + +"Mrs. Richard Moss! I'm sure I don't know any such person; do you, +Elsie?" Miss Pritchard exclaimed, frowning as she attempted to +recollect whether that could be the married name of any one who had +formerly been at Miss Peacock's. As she looked up she saw that Elsie +was almost ghastly white. + +She sprang from her chair and went to her. + +"Elsie, darling, are you ill?" she cried. + +Elsie almost gasped. + +"No, Cousin Julia, only--startled, _scared_," she said in a strange +voice that frightened Miss Pritchard still further. + +But the maid waited. About to ask her to excuse her to Mrs. Moss, she +looked again at Elsie. + +"You don't know her, dear?" she said gently, putting the card before +her. + +"Yes--I do. That's what--fazed me," gasped Elsie. "It's +my--stepmother. I'm afraid something awful has happened." + +Now Miss Pritchard was white, too. + +"My child, are you out of your head?" she exclaimed. "What are you +talking about? You never had a stepmother. You couldn't have." + +Then she half smiled. + +"Oh, Elsie!" she cried reproachfully, "it's some of your stage friends +come to see you. How you startled me! I'll settle with you later for +that and give you a good scolding, but I won't stop now. Will you have +her up here or down in the parlor?" + +"Please, let's have her up here," said the white-faced girl in the same +strained tone. "There's nothing to do now but go through with it. It +serves me just right. But----" + +Without understanding, her heart beating strangely, Miss Pritchard +asked that Mrs. Moss be brought up. + +They waited in silence. Presently the caller was ushered in, a slender +woman clad in black, with a young-looking, sad face. Seeing Elsie, she +too became very white. But the girl rushed upon her, flung her arms +about her, and hid her face on her shoulder. And the stranger clasped +her close. + +Miss Pritchard stared in amazement. She hadn't known of any warm +friend of Elsie's except the young girl in Enderby; but this was +unmistakably an affection of long standing. For a moment she stood +stock-still. Then somehow she got them both over to the sofa, relieved +Mrs. Moss of her wraps, and sat down near. + +"I don't understand," she said finally. "You are evidently an old +friend of my little cousin's. Perhaps you are the lady she stayed with +while she was finishing her school after Mrs. Pritchard's death?" + +Mrs. Moss looked hard at Elsie, reproachfully yet lovingly. It was so +good to see the girl that the plans she had laid as she came on from +Massachusetts escaped her. She spoke at random, and might have +imparted the same impression of mental irresponsibility that she had +given Mr. Middleton. + +"She hasn't any grandmother. She never had one. And she isn't----" + +"Oh, _Moss_, I have it!" exclaimed Miss Pritchard. "You're the mother +of Elsie's friend at Enderby--though I believed her to be an orphan all +this time." + +"I am Elsie's stepmother, and she isn't your cousin at all," declared +Mrs. Moss sadly. "She's only a very naughty girl playing a trick on +you." + +Then for the first time Miss Pritchard spoke sternly to Elsie. + +"If this is a trick, a part of your stage business, won't you please +bring it to a close right here!" she demanded. "It has gone too far +already." + +"My dear Miss Pritchard, will you allow me to explain?" said Mrs. Moss. +Then she turned to the girl. "Or will you do it, Elsie? I went to +Enderby to see you and found that other girl and learned the truth from +her." + +Elsie drew away a little. + +"You tell her, please, auntie, I couldn't," she faltered. She clasped +her hands tightly. Her face was whiter than before. + +"Miss Pritchard, if you will have patience and bear with me for a +little, I hope I can make things plain, though I can't make them +right," said Mrs. Moss rather appealingly. "I have just come from +Enderby, Massachusetts, where Elsie's uncle and guardian lives. I got +worried and went there to see about Elsie. I came all the way from +California." + +Miss Pritchard stared at her in amazement. + +"Oh, auntie!" cried Elsie in distress. Then she went to Miss Pritchard. + +"Kiss me just once, Cousin Julia, kiss me hard," she entreated. And +Miss Pritchard clasped her to her heart. + +The girl resumed her place on the sofa and sat motionless, her eyes +upon her clasped hands. Mrs. Moss endeavored to get the main fact out. + +"I found there instead of this Elsie, instead of Mr. Middleton's own +niece, a strange girl who has lived there since last June as Elsie +Moss. Her first name happened to be Elsie, too, but her last name is +Pritchard--Marley, I should say." + +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, I must be stupid, but I cannot understand what you +mean!" cried Miss Pritchard. And Elsie choked. + +"I'll begin again," said Mrs. Moss with mournful patience. "A year ago +this Elsie, _my_ Elsie, Elsie Moss, started East to live with her +uncle, John Middleton, in Enderby, Massachusetts. On the train she +fell in with this Marley girl who was coming on to New York to live +with her cousin, Miss Pritchard. Elsie was badly stage-struck and wild +over New York, and the other girl didn't mind a quiet country town, and +they calmly changed places--and names. Elsie Moss came to you--with no +claim in the world upon your hospitality; and your relative, Elsie +Marley, imposed upon the Middletons in the same fashion. And they have +gone on with the imposture for practically a year." + +As she continued, one detail after another fitted into the framework +she made, and Miss Pritchard grasped the situation fully. Stunned and +wholly at a loss, she glanced at Elsie. The girl sat like a statue, +white with downcast eyes. Miss Pritchard went to the window and stood +gazing out for some moments. + +When she returned to her place, her expression was composed, but her +face looked suddenly strangely worn and older. She looked into Mrs. +Moss's eyes as who should say "How could she!" But she spoke to the +girl. + +"Well, Elsie?" she asked quietly. + +"That was why I hedged about going to Enderby," said Elsie +incoherently, "I didn't dare let Uncle John see my dimples. They would +give me away, you see, Cousin Julia." + +Then she suddenly bethought herself. + +"Oh, but you're not my Cousin Julia any more!" she cried, and burst +into a tumult of weeping. + +Her stepmother gathered the girl to her, and Elsie sobbed wildly on her +breast. Mrs. Moss, who had been more severe with Elsie Marley at +Enderby than she had ever been with any one before, was now disposed to +be very gentle--perhaps over-lenient--with the real culprit. + +"Yes, Elsie, I am your Cousin Julia--to the end of things," Miss +Pritchard assured her. And she spoke almost solemnly. "But tell me, +dear--you didn't know what you were doing? Oh, Elsie, you didn't +realize that it wasn't--that it was--wrong?" + +"Not at first--not when I did it," sobbed Elsie. Then she uncovered +her face. "But I knew afterward. It came to me then, and I knew it +was the sort of wrong you think worst of all. And so do I, honestly, +Cousin Julia." + +Again Miss Pritchard walked to the window. Elsie's eyes followed her +in agonized appeal. + +"Cousin Julia!" she cried desperately. And Miss Pritchard was at her +side in a moment. But though her face was all tenderness and sympathy, +the pain that shone through it would have been severe retribution even +had Elsie been altogether impenitent. + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, I was sorry!" the girl cried, "I was terribly sorry. +But it only came on me when everything was--sort of--_fixed_, you know. +I couldn't bear to break up Elsie Marley's happiness at Enderby, and--I +couldn't bear to have it--hurt you--though I know this is a lot worse. +So I was going to disappear. I had my mind all made up. I was going +to leave a letter so that you wouldn't feel troubled. And I thought +that would sort of make up for everything, because I never would have +been happy again. And then--oh, Cousin Julia, then came that chance +that I knew led straight to the stage, and I lost my head. I chose to +be wicked, and I suppose I lost my soul as well as my head, +only--there's something that hurts as if I still had one." + +Again the girl wept wildly. But now Miss Pritchard's arm was enfolding +her. + +"No, precious child, you haven't lost it. And if you were sorry--but +we won't talk more about it now. I'll hold that in my heart as comfort +until to-morrow and then we'll see what we can do to straighten it all +out. At this moment we must consider that there's the evening +performance to go through, and being the last, it will be very taxing. +Somehow, we'll make things right, among us all. You go to your room +now and lie down. If you think of this, only say to yourself that it's +over, and be thankful for that. And we two women who love you so that +we're all but jealous of one another already will plan the next--or +rather, the first move. Come, child." + +At the door Elsie turned. "Is the other Elsie all right, auntie?" she +asked anxiously. + +"Yes, dear," returned Mrs. Moss rather doubtfully. "At least--well, as +a matter of fact the poor child is just--waiting. I made her promise +not to say a word to the Middletons until I came on here and returned. +I am afraid--dear me, I am sure I don't know _what_ I said to the girl. +I am afraid I must have been rather hard on her." + +"Oh, auntie! And it wasn't her fault in the least! I just dragged her +into it. It was all for me. And she's the sweetest, gentlest thing! +And not the least little bit her fault! Oh, dear! Oh, dear!" + +The girl wrung her hands in genuine distress. Mrs. Moss shook her head +mournfully. + +"I might have known," she acknowledged regretfully. "But, oh, Miss +Pritchard, I was nearly distracted. It all came upon me so +suddenly--not a whisper of warning." + +Miss Pritchard could understand what that meant. She led Elsie into +her room and established her upon the bed. Elsie talked incoherently +and at random, until Miss Pritchard had to declare that she must go +back to Mrs. Moss. Kissing the girl again, she bade her forget +everything for the time being and rest. And though she stifled the +deep sigh that rose involuntarily, Miss Pritchard felt as if she was +staggering as she left the room. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII + +For some time Miss Pritchard and Mrs. Moss discussed, not as they had +purposed, the way out of it, but the affair itself: the change of names +and destinations and the year of masquerading. They marvelled equally at +the audacity and the success of the scheme, and the various circumstances +that had favored it. Miss Pritchard reviewed the year aloud in the light +of the discovery, with eager comment from the other. + +"How Elsie could have accepted so much from you, knowing all the while +she was deceiving you, I cannot understand!" cried Mrs. Moss, shaking her +head sadly. + +"Accepted! Oh, Mrs. Moss, if you could only know half the girl gave, you +wouldn't speak of accepting!" protested Miss Pritchard. "She has made +this year the happiest of my life, that captivating, lovely child has. +As for deceiving--she didn't mean any such thing, and it wasn't real +deceit in her case. She said just now she always felt as if I were +really her cousin. When she swapped, she did it in such a whole-hearted +way that she was herself almost as deluded as I. And later, when she +began to realize, she suffered--looking back, I begin to understand that +she has suffered torture." + +Mrs. Moss suddenly bethought herself. + +"The question is, what is to be done?" she repeated. "You see, I have +left that girl in Enderby in a most uncomfortable position. The +Middletons as yet know nothing. I shall have to break it to them, but +before I do so, I want to come to some sort of an understanding with you." + +"I confess, I don't see any way out of it at this moment," returned Miss +Pritchard. "Dear me, I can't yet really realize we're in it." + +"The simple thing would seem to be to just----" + +"Swap back? Oh, it wouldn't be possible after all this time, my dear +Mrs. Moss!" cried Miss Pritchard, really aghast. + +"We shall have to see how the Middletons feel, of course," admitted Mrs. +Moss. "Oh, Miss Pritchard, couldn't you go back with me to-night and +then all of us talk it over together? I don't believe we'll ever come to +any understanding unless you do. My flying back and forth between you +like a shuttlecock isn't going to amount to anything." + +"Yes, I will go on to Enderby--there's no other way," agreed Miss +Pritchard, "but I can't go tonight, because Elsie has an engagement. +It's her last appearance at that wretched place, I'm thankful to say. +She and I will follow you to-morrow. Meantime, you can give them the +plain facts to digest." + +She smiled half grimly. "As a matter of fact, I have a suite of rooms +engaged at the inn at Enderby for the last two weeks in June and for July +and August, though I never dreamed of any such complication, as you know. +Like as not we all--you and Elsie and I--can occupy them now--I can +telegraph presently. Dear me, dear me! what a pair of thoughtless scamps +these children were. And yet--what hasn't it meant to me to know Elsie? +Oh, Mrs. Moss, I can't face giving her up. I simply cannot face it." + +"Of course, Mr. Middleton is her guardian," remarked Mrs. Moss, who +sympathized with Miss Pritchard, but felt she might remember that she had +had to part with Elsie a year ago, after having had her from a child. +"He seems like one who would do the right thing," she added, "but of +course he was devoted to Elsie's mother." + +"No doubt he'll be glad to hand over little Pritchard to me?" + +"Well, he seemed attached to her. But of course being a clergyman he may +judge her very severely." + +"I wish we could all go to Enderby this very moment," cried Miss +Pritchard impatiently. "If it weren't for that old movie-show!" + +Then the other forgot Enderby. "Oh, Miss Pritchard, tell me, is Elsie +very deeply concerned?" she asked anxiously. + +Miss Pritchard related the matter in detail. Mrs. Moss was distressed +beyond words, though she was cheered when the other repeated Madame +Valentini's dictum in regard to the girl's voice, and the yet more +authoritative word of Mr. Francis. And then and there the two women who +cared deeply for one little girl decided that that night should close her +theatrical career, not only for the season but forever. And they added +that whatever be the outcome of the conference at Enderby, Elsie must +begin in the late summer or early autumn to study with the teacher in +Boston recommended by Mr. Francis. + +"The child has actually grown rich overnight," observed Miss Pritchard. +"She has saved all she has earned and if need be could pay for her own +lessons for a time at least. But I should like nothing better than to +retire and take her to live in some quiet place near Boston, and then go +abroad with her when the time comes. I've got enough to do that and yet +do something for that girl at Enderby." + +She paused in her pacing, sat down suddenly and frowned deeply. + +"There's no use," she groaned. "That Mr. Middleton will take her away +from me, mark my word. What sort of a man is he, anyhow?" + +Mrs. Moss didn't confess that she had taken him for a lunatic; but her +description was colorless. + +"Of course, I should be only too glad to take Elsie back with me," she +added wistfully, "though I couldn't give her advantages." + +Miss Pritchard gave her a look of sympathy, though she couldn't conceive +of her wanting Elsie as she herself did. + +"Neither you nor I will have any chance," she returned gloomily. "He'll +snap her up--that minister. And I shall be desolate in my old age--for I +shall grow old in a night if I lose Elsie." + +"But there's the other Elsie," rejoined Mrs. Moss plaintively. "There +seems to be one apiece for every one except me." + +"Oh, _Elsie Pritchard_! Good heavens!" Miss Pritchard began her pacing +again. "I shall have her on my hands. I never thought of that!" + +"I suppose you'd hardly expect to have them both," remarked the other +mildly. + +"I certainly won't have Elsie Pritchard by herself!" Miss Pritchard +retorted. Then she laughed at herself, though ruefully. + +"Ah, that accounts for the five hundred dollars!" she exclaimed suddenly. + +"I don't understand what you mean," murmured Mrs. Moss plaintively. Now +even Miss Pritchard had begun to talk like Alice in Wonderland. + +Miss Pritchard paused in her walk and explained rapidly and in great +detail, leaving Mrs. Moss as much in the dark as before. Again she went +the length of the room, pausing before Mrs. Moss to demand: "What sort of +a girl is this Elsie Pritchard?" + +"To tell the truth, I was so taken aback, I scarcely noticed. She's a +pretty girl and ladylike." + +Miss Pritchard groaned. + +"Well, I think she looks as if she had character," Mrs. Moss added. + +"Any ginger?" + +"Well, perhaps not," the other admitted. "But you should have heard Mr. +Middleton talk about her--er--work in the parish." + +"Good heavens! Visiting the sick and distributing tracts?" + +"Not exactly," Mrs. Moss smiled. "He spoke about the library and--well, +I'm afraid I didn't take in the rest." + +"Never mind, I can guess. And I see my finish when she gets hold of me. +She'll endeavor to reform me. A year ago, now, I was prepared for a +superior person. But after Elsie----" + +"What mischief they made! And yet, Miss Pritchard, it was all done +thoughtlessly." + +"I know. And poor Elsie--I'm afraid we came down pretty hard on her. I +think I'll just go and see how she is." + +Mrs. Moss followed. Miss Pritchard tapped lightly at Elsie's door. +There was no response and she opened it softly. Then she beckoned the +other with a look on her plain face that made it very sweet. + +Together they stood over the little figure on the big bed. Elsie had +cried herself to sleep. She looked young and sweet and innocent, her +brown head with its short locks against the pillow, her lips parted, her +hand under one cheek, and the shadow of a dimple visible. + +They turned away, the eyes of both being filled with tears. And when +they were back in Miss Pritchard's sitting-room they seemed somehow +nearer one another, almost like old friends. + +"She's too sweet and good for the stage," cried Mrs. Moss. "Do you +suppose we can get her away? Do you think she'll be willing to give up +and cultivate her voice instead?" + +"_Willing_? Not Elsie! The child's more crazy about the stage than +ever. And as for easily persuading her to settle down to daily drudgery +with no excitement in view for years--" She shrugged her shoulders. + +"She doesn't look now as if she had a will of her own, does she, with her +hand under her cheek and her darling baby lips parted?" cried her +step-mother. + +Miss Pritchard's eyes filled a second time. Then suddenly an idea +flashed into her mind. + +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, you'll be awfully shocked, but do you know what your +words have put into my head? I feel like a wicked conspirator collecting +his pals, but--listen--you and I must attack Elsie at once and get her to +forswear the stage and take up music." + +Mrs. Moss couldn't see any difference in this proposition from anything +previously proposed. + +"What I mean is, we must do it this very day," the other went on. "We've +got to strike while the iron is hot. The child is in a chastened state; +she's sorry and ashamed and unusually meek. We've got to be wolves and +prey upon the poor lamb in her moment of defenselessness. She'll agree +to anything to-day. Oh, Mrs. Moss, it sounds cruel and hateful, but it's +really for her good. If you'll stand by me, I'll attempt it." + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII + +Elsie Marley had let Mrs. Moss out by the side-door, and half an hour +later she passed out that way herself. She had promised not to say +anything until she returned, and so couldn't even leave a note to explain +her own going. She would write one to-night to bid them wait for Mrs. +Moss's explanation. And afterward she could tell them that she couldn't +bear to see them again. And by that time they would have their own Elsie +with the dimples. + +And she would be with Miss Pritchard? She supposed so, but she couldn't +go there to-night. Eventually, she must; she wasn't sufficiently clever +or self-reliant to take care of herself; but she wouldn't go to New York +while Mrs. Moss--that terrible Mrs. Moss--was there. What she had said +was quite true, but oh, it had been hard and cruel, and Elsie could never +forget it! + +She had made up her mind to go into Boston to a hotel where she had +lunched several times, write Cousin Julia from there, and wait until she +should hear from her. She was anxious to get away before Mr. Middleton, +who had gone to the library in her place, should return. And yet she +took a wide detour that doubled the way to the station; for she could not +bear to go near the street on which the library stood. + +Forgetting her haste, before she had gone far, she turned and looked back +at the parsonage. It was like home to her. Leaving it forever, she +realized dimly that it was home to her, the only real home her life had +known. And Aunt Milly? Once, not so long ago, Elsie couldn't have +imagined herself wanting to go back and throw her arms about her and tell +her she wished she had understood and loved her long before. And +Katy--dear old Katy!---- + +Turning away, she almost ran. She met no one in the out-of-the-way path +she chose, and she was to take the six-two train for Boston, which +Enderby people rarely used. + +The station stood on a hill. As she climbed it, Elsie decided to ask the +agent, whom she knew slightly, to telephone to the parsonage after the +train had gone to say that something had called her away, and that Mrs. +Moss would explain. Fearing lest he might forget the latter clause, she +stopped and wrote the message out. As she did so, it came to her that +they might think she had gone away with her stepmother, and wouldn't be +disturbed. + +As she took up her satchel again, she heard some one behind her on the +wooden walk. Kate had come by the direct way, but she had stopped to put +a skirt and jacket over her kitchen-dress and to squeeze her feet into +boots to hide the holes in her stockings. Warm with the extra clothing +and the unusual effort, Kate actually panted as she caught up to Elsie +and seized hold of her as if she were rescuing her from drowning. + +"Why, Katy, has anything happened?" the girl inquired anxiously. + +"Anything happened? Well, I like that!" ejaculated Kate between her +gasps. "No, nothin's happened yet, but I suspicioned something was +a-goin' to and so I hiked along after you. What are you a-doin' up here +and himself gettin' all tired out at that library?" + +Elsie's heart sank yet lower. "There won't be many in to-day, Katy," she +said meekly. "And anyhow--but don't keep me, Katy, I must----" + +"No, you mustn't, Miss Elsie, no such thing. You're a-comin' straight +home with your own Katy. Do you want your aunt a-fallin' down in one of +her heart-spells, and her so well and happy for the first time sence I +come? She'll have one sure's you're born if you ain't there for your +supper--and me after makin' shepherd's pie!" + +Elsie paled. "Oh, Katy, I can't go back, honestly I can't, but you'll +make it right with them, won't you? Tell them I _had_ to go and +she--Mrs. Moss--will explain when she comes back." + +"You just come back yourself and wait for her, Miss Elsie. The missus +will have one of them flop-overs the first thing if you don't, and then +for himself to come home tired from the library and find her in that +state and you not by to break it to him, and him not so young as he was +once, you know!" + +Tears streamed down the girl's distressed face. Kate took her satchel +while she got out her pocket-handkerchief, and then would not loose her +hold on it. Elsie started on, Kate by her side. + +"If you're bound to go, then, you might as well get two tickets, for I'm +goin' with you," the latter said stoutly. + +Elsie looked at her in amazement. + +"Sure thing. If you go, I go," Kate insisted. + +"But, Katy, you wouldn't do such a thing? You wouldn't leave--them?" + +"Indeed I would," Kate returned exultantly, feeling that she had scored. +"I'll go by the same train. I've got some money in my stocking. I +couldn't face the music with her in a dead faint, and himself like as not +havin' a shock." + +Elsie stopped short. "Katy, why will you say such dreadful things?" she +cried. "Honestly, it's only a question of a day or two. I've got to go +away, and why can't you let me do it quietly now instead of waiting and +having it still harder." + +"You don't mind the easiest way for you bein' the hardest for them?" + +"Yes, I do. But I can't go back. I cannot--act another day." + +"Oh, yes you can," replied Kate soothingly. "And, besides, it'll all +come right if you just hang on. I knew something was strange--I've +suspicioned it ever sence you come. Wasn't it me as went around and took +all your baby pictures out o' the old albums and others with big round +dimples out o' velvet photograph-frames, and himself lookin' everywhere +for 'em and me never lettin' on? I says to myself you wasn't really +yourself, but like enough a cousin or foster-sister, and just as good and +perhaps more satisfactory. Come, we'll just race around home and go in +by the back-door so as to be there for supper as if nothin'd happened." + +Just before they reached the kitchen door, Elsie spoke. + +"Oh, Katy, couldn't I stay in my room until she--Mrs. Moss comes? My +head does ache--terribly." + +"Well, child, you go up there now, anyhow, and Katy'll see what her big +head can do." + +The quick-witted woman got out of her suit and into her slipshod shoes +and went straight to Mrs. Middleton. + +"That Mis' Moss flew right off, ma'am--forgot somethin' she had to do in +New York, it seems, and off she goes. Them Westerners, you know, is +reg'lar globe-trotters. She's comin' back to accept our hospitality on +Sunday, it seems, but here I am with a company supper fit for the Empress +of Injy and plans for meals all day to-morrow and a bed made up. I +suppose you wouldn't want to ask Miss Dunham to make her visit now and +help eat things up? The pineys are all in blossom, too." + +Miss Dunham was an elderly, crippled parishioner who lived a little out +of town and came each year to the parsonage for a day or two. Mrs. +Middleton threw her arms about Kate. + +"Oh, Katy, what a dear you are to think of it! It's just the thing. Day +after to-morrow is children's Sunday and she'll enjoy that, and I'm going +to church myself and surprise Mr. Middleton. That is why Elsie went into +Boston to-day--to get me some gloves and a dove-colored sunshade. Do you +think you can get her here to-night, Katy?" + +"I'll telephone to himself at the library," said patient Kate, who hated +the telephone. "And we'll wait supper." + +The plan worked perfectly. The minister fetched Miss Dunham in a +motor-car in time for a late tea. Only Kate and Elsie knew what her +visit meant to the latter, and Kate didn't understand fully. Mrs. Moss +arrived on Sunday shortly after the guest had gone. + +But at best Elsie had suffered keenly, and when Mrs. Moss found her pale +and hollow-eyed, she felt conscience-stricken. But she had no +opportunity to give her any of Elsie Moss's cheering messages, for she +went into immediate conference with the Middletons. + +They talked for an hour. The waiting was agony for the girl, and she was +at once relieved and desperate when at length she was summoned down to +the study. Mrs. Middleton beckoned her to a place beside her on the +couch, and Elsie dropped gratefully into it. She could not raise her +eyes; she sat with her hands clasped tightly, very pale, yet aware +somehow, at the very first, of the kindness, the sheltering kindness, as +it were, of the woman at her side. And while she had steeled herself to +endure the coldness of Mr. Middleton's voice, it had never been more +gentle. + +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story, now. It seemed a sad mix-up at +first--what a friend of mine up-State would call a 'pretty kettle of +fish'; but with Aunt Milly's assistance we managed to get at the crux of +the affair and see things more clearly. Aunt Milly declares it was just +child's play: that you girls had no more idea of doing anything wrong, of +deceiving, than she had last winter when her new hat came from the +milliner's and she decided to wear it back foremost and never told any +one what she was doing." + +[Illustration: "Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now."] + +Elsie knew from his voice that he was smiling. She wanted to thank him +for his kindness; she longed to raise her eyes gratefully to Aunt Milly, +but she was powerless to do even that. He went on: + +"Mrs. Moss brings word that Miss Pritchard has become deeply attached +to--er--the other Elsie. Now that isn't a circumstance to our case. For +my part, I couldn't possibly have cared more for my dear sister's +daughter than I have come to care for you, Elsie, and Aunt Milly is +convinced she couldn't have cared for her nearly so much. In any event, +we cannot give you up. Somehow we shall have to come to an agreement +with your guardian, Miss Pritchard--that is, if you are willing?" + +Elsie knew she should burst into tears if she attempted to answer. + +"I'll speak for her. Elsie won't leave us," Mrs. Middleton declared. + +"Not if--if you----" + +The bell rang violently. + +"That sounds like Miss Pritchard now," remarked Mrs. Moss, thankful to +have the tenseness relieved. And, in truth, Kate, who was suspiciously +near the front door, ushered that lady in at once. + +Introductions were gone through hastily. The Middletons felt their +prejudice vanish at sight of her kind, worn, genuine face, and she was +deeply impressed by the minister. Of his wife, she reserved judgment. + +She kissed her young relative with more warmth than she had expected to +feel, for there were tears on the girl's white cheeks, and she looked +sweet and sorry and appealing. She was indeed a Pritchard, though not so +typically so as she had anticipated. + +The minister mentioned the point at which they had arrived in the +discussion, and for a little they talked all round the matter. Then Miss +Pritchard presented her conclusions. + +"Those babes took things into their own hands in great style a year ago," +she declared. "They got hold of a deck of cards and shuffled them to +suit themselves, not realizing that isn't the way to play the game. They +shouldn't have touched the cards and they shouldn't have shuffled them; +but somehow they happened to make a good deal all round. As the game has +come out, we all like it. We shouldn't, indeed, be willing to go back +and deal out fresh hands. Am I wrong?" + +The rejoinder indicated that she was wholly in the right. + +"Now, for my part, I'm used to Elsie Moss and I want to keep her, but I +wouldn't take her out of reach of her own kin--at least not for some +time. There's a man in Boston I want her to study with--she's going to +be an opera-singer--and we're to be here at the inn all summer so that we +can get respectively acquainted with our shuffled kith and kin--I want a +chance to know my little Pritchard cousin, too." + +It seemed easier to speak beside the point than to the question. +Thereupon the minister suggested that Miss Pritchard should remain +permanently at Enderby. That might well have waited, but Miss Pritchard +declared she had already thought of taking a house in the fall. + +"I thought if you insisted upon trading back, we'd all be in sight of one +another that way, even though we elders might be mutually hating each +other," she added. + +Whereupon they began to mention particular houses, and would have gone on +indefinitely but for Mrs. Moss. It was she, the outsider, for whom, +whatever the sequel, there would be no place in the plans, who called +them back to the real matter at issue. + +"Apparently, then," she said, "you're going to let things remain largely +in the _status quo_. But one difficulty comes to my mind. When all is +said, my Elsie was wholly at fault in all this. She's sorry now, but for +all that, I'm afraid she hasn't taken it so hard as this Elsie here, and +what's more--this is what I'm getting at: Elsie Moss can drop the name +she assumed falsely and, going elsewhere, resume her own as a matter of +course. But this Elsie, who has become well acquainted here and entered +into the life of the place, cannot suddenly change from Moss to Marley +without a great deal of pain to herself." + +Quite true. No one had thought of that. It seemed appalling! + +"Of course," Mrs. Moss went on rather doubtfully, "she could keep on with +the name. It's perfectly possible to have two Elsie Mosses in one +family. People would only take them for cousins." + +"It's possible," the minister acknowledged, "but it wouldn't be right. +It wouldn't be honorable for Elsie to continue to use the name now." + +"Ah, but Jack, it would be cruelly hard for her to change back to +Marley!" cried his wife; and he sadly agreed. + +"Do you think you could go through it, dear?" he asked, turning to Elsie. + +"I ought to bear something a great deal harder," cried Elsie suddenly. + +"No, you ought not, my dear," rejoined Mrs. Middleton. "No, Jack, it +would be too hard on Elsie--on any young girl; and, besides, it would +hurt her influence at the library and with the schoolgirls. If people +could understand everything clearly, it would be another matter, but they +couldn't. Elsie's best friends know it. For my part, I don't believe +she deserves any punishment for doing wrong unconsciously--especially +since she's been such an angel of mercy to this house. But even if she +had, she's suffered enough already to atone--with plenary grace." + +"She's got to go by some name," Miss Pritchard remarked palpably, but +that gave Mrs. Middleton a suggestion. + +"I know," she cried. "Oh, Jack! Oh, Elsie!" and her face was quite +irradiated with love and good-will. "I know exactly what we'll do! +Elsie is just seventeen. We'll adopt her, Jack, for our own daughter, +and she shall wear our name henceforth. She shall be Elsie Middleton, +and Elsie Moss shall remain Elsie Moss, and they'll really be cousins." + +She held out her arms, and Elsie nestled into them. + +"My dearest Mildred!" cried her husband, going over to them in his +enthusiasm. "Isn't she wonderful?" he demanded, and almost in the same +breath asked Miss Pritchard's consent to legalize the adoption. + +"Of course, only after suitable arrangements and provision were made, +Miss Pritchard. All we want now is your general or conditional approval." + +Miss Pritchard smiled as she sighed. "I'm sure I don't know what the +Pritchards would say, but if Elsie's willing I confess I don't see any +objection." + +Elsie's expression made any questioning of her unnecessary. + +"My own Elsie, my darling daughter," murmured Mrs. Middleton in her +sentimental way, stroking Elsie's hair. But, strange to say, Elsie found +it all very grateful. + +"As to Elsie M--" Miss Pritchard began, when she was interrupted by a +knock on the door, which she had left ajar (greatly to Kate's approval), +and Elsie Moss burst in. + +In the excitement of the moment, she seemed her old self again--though +Miss Pritchard knew it to be a lovelier self. She stood a moment in the +doorway, a charming little figure in a smart rose-colored linen suit with +a large drooping hat perched coquettishly upon her short locks, her +dimples very conspicuous. Then she rushed upon Elsie Marley, who had +come forward shyly, and flung her arms about her. + +Then she turned, her arm still about the other girl, to Miss Pritchard. + +"I couldn't wait any longer, Cousin Julia," she said sweetly. "I just +had to see Elsie-Honey." + +"We're to be real cousins," the other whispered, and the quick-witted +girl understood at once. + +"How perfectly ripping!" she cried. "Oh, everybody's so dear and darling +that I should simply die of shame and remorse if I didn't just have to +stay alive to worship Cousin Julia and get acquainted with Uncle John and +Aunt Milly and--love my honey!" + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY*** + + +******* This file should be named 22819-8.txt or 22819-8.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/8/1/22819 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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BORDER="2" WIDTH="399" HEIGHT="644"> +<H3 CLASS="h3center" STYLE="width: 399px"> +Elsie . . . repeated the performance in a manner that was only the more captivating. +</H3> +</CENTER> + +<BR><BR> + +<H1 ALIGN="center"> +ELSIE MARLEY +</H1> + +<BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +BY +</H3> + +<H2 ALIGN="center"> +JOSLYN GRAY +</H2> + +<BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +AUTHOR OF "KATHLEEN'S PROBATION" +</H4> + +<BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +ILLUSTRATED +</H4> + +<BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +NEW YORK +<BR> +CHARLES SCRIBNER'S SONS +</H4> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H5 ALIGN="center"> +COPYRIGHT, 1918, BY +<BR> +CHARLES SCRIBNER'S SONS +</H5> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +TO +<BR> +MARY BULLIONS GRAY ANDERSON +</H3> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H2 ALIGN="center"> +CONTENTS +</H2> + +<BR> + +<TABLE ALIGN="center" WIDTH="100%"> +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap01">CHAPTER I</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap02">CHAPTER II</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap03">CHAPTER III</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap04">CHAPTER IV</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top" WIDTH="20%"> +<A HREF="#chap05">CHAPTER V</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap06">CHAPTER VI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap07">CHAPTER VII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap08">CHAPTER VIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap09">CHAPTER IX</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap10">CHAPTER X</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap11">CHAPTER XI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap12">CHAPTER XII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap13">CHAPTER XIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap14">CHAPTER XIV</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap15">CHAPTER XV</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap16">CHAPTER XVI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap17">CHAPTER XVII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap18">CHAPTER XVIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap19">CHAPTER XIX</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap20">CHAPTER XX</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap21">CHAPTER XXI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap22">CHAPTER XXII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap23">CHAPTER XXIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap24">CHAPTER XXIV</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap25">CHAPTER XXV</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap26">CHAPTER XXVI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap27">CHAPTER XXVII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap28">CHAPTER XXVIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap29">CHAPTER XXIX</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap30">CHAPTER XXX</A> +</TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap31">CHAPTER XXXI</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap32">CHAPTER XXXII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> +<A HREF="#chap33">CHAPTER XXXIII</A> +</TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> </TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"> </TD> +</TR> + +</TABLE> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H2 ALIGN="center"> +ILLUSTRATIONS +</H2> + +<BR> + +<H3> +<A HREF="#img-front"> +Elsie . . . repeated the performance in a manner that was only +the more<BR> captivating . . . . . . <I>Frontispiece</I> +</A> +</H3> + +<H3> +<A HREF="#img-130"> +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen,<BR> +as you call it" +</A> +</H3> + +<H3> +<A HREF="#img-162"> +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will +have none<BR> of them," he remarked +</A> +</H3> + +<H3> +<A HREF="#img-260"> +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now" +</A> +</H3> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap01"></A> + +<H1 ALIGN="center"> +ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY +</H1> + +<BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER I +</H3> + +<P> +Mrs. Bennet, her travelling companion from San Francisco, having proved +to be talkative and uninteresting, Elsie Marley was more than content +to find herself alone after the change had been made and her train +pulled out of Chicago. It was characteristic of the girl that she did +not even look out of the window to see the last of Mrs. Bennet, who, +having waited on the platform until the train started and waved her +handkerchief in vain, betook herself indignantly to her carriage. +Quite unaware of any remissness on her part, Elsie settled herself +comfortably—Mrs. Bennet had disposed of her luggage—folded her hands +in her lap, and gazed idly out the window opposite. +</P> + +<P> +A pale, colorless girl, the simplicity of her dress was in almost too +great contrast with its elegance—a contrived simplicity that left no +room for any trace of careless youth or girlishness. Slender and +rather delicate-looking, she had brown eyes, regular features, and +soft, light-brown hair waving loosely about her face and hanging in two +long, demure curls from a shell clasp at her neck. But her eyes were +of rather a shallow brown, her brows and lashes still lighter; her +features were almost too regular, and her skin, though soft and clear, +was quite colorless. Even so, she might have been pretty, perhaps +lovely, had she possessed any animation. But the girl's face and even +her eyes were as nearly expressionless as human features may be. She +was like a superior sort of doll with white cheeks in lieu of red. +</P> + +<P> +After a little she opened a small leather satchel, took out a letter, +and perused it attentively. It was the last she had received from her +guardian and only living relative, Cousin Julia Pritchard, and, as she +was to see her soon, it behooved her to prepare herself so far as she +might for that occasion. For Elsie Marley realized, though dimly, that +she was to encounter a personality unlike any with which she had come +in contact in all her sheltered, luxurious life. +</P> + +<P> +"My dear Elsie," the letter ran, "I find myself very much pleased at +the thought of having you with me. The heart of a woman of fifty +cannot but rejoice in anticipation of the company of a young girl with +the ideals, the vigor, and buoyancy of sixteen. And since we are both +alone in the world, you representing all my kith and kin as I believe +myself to represent all yours, it is only fitting that we should be +together instead of being separated by the breadth of our great +American continent. +</P> + +<P> +"You will, I am sure, like this great, busy, restless, humming city, +though the only home I have to offer you, I am truly sorry to say, is +in a boarding-house, comfortable though it is. Remembering Aunt +Ellen's beautiful home in California, which I visited fifteen years +ago, I fear the change may be difficult, though, for a young person, +not too painfully so, I trust. A boarding-house is the only home I +have myself known for thirty years, and this particular one is +excellent and full of interesting people, though the youngest among +them are middle-aged. +</P> + +<P> +"I am, I repeat, happy to say that I can give you a home here and +clothe you suitably. That will release your income, which can be put +to any use which we may decide upon after consultation together. Your +lawyer tells me that you are through school, and neither you nor he +speak of any desire on your part to go to college. I suppose, however, +like most young girls, you will wish to take up some study or +occupation to fit yourself to become self-supporting or to be useful to +the world in some definite manner. I heartily sympathize with such an +aim, having worked since my eighteenth year myself, and shall be +cordially interested in helping you either to plan or to carry out a +future for yourself." +</P> + +<P> +Here Elsie broke off. Cousin Julia was certainly absurd! She had +always been regarded, indeed, by the California Pritchards as a +singular, eccentric person, rather wanting in refinement and careless +of social amenities—one from whom they were quite content to be +separated by the "breadth of our great American continent." She had +taken after her mother, who came from Nebraska—or some such place—and +the family had considered it a pity that she should have been and +remained Pritchard by name, particularly since Elsie herself, Pritchard +of Pritchards, had to go by the name Marley. +</P> + +<P> +Still the girl's smooth brow did not contract. In any event, she said +to herself, after Cousin Julia had seen her, it wasn't likely that she +would suggest that she go out and earn her living. And as for her +future, which the letter mentioned—why, her future was of course far +ahead. Elsie had rather taken it for granted that she should marry +when the proper time came, as girls did in books, as her grandmother +and mother had done, and as Aunt Ellen would have done had she not been +so frail. Once it had even occurred to her that it would be rather +appropriate if she should marry some one named Pritchard, though she +realized that to be only a remote possibility. In any event, she +didn't know why going to New York should necessarily make any essential +difference in her future, and she was thankful that she hadn't to +consider it for some years yet. Meantime, the boarding-house +confronted her. +</P> + +<P> +Very likely, however, she could endure even that. She knew it would be +comfortable, so far as that went, and she needn't mingle with the other +people. She could have a piano and continue her lessons, and she might +study vocal music. She could buy books and attend concerts and perhaps +even the theatre and opera. She could go alone in a carriage to +matinée performances, and quite likely there would be some reduced +gentlewoman living at the boarding-house who might be glad of the +chance to accompany her as chaperon in the evenings. +</P> + +<P> +For Elsie took it for granted that Cousin Julia wouldn't care for the +sort of things she was accustomed to any more than she herself would be +interested to go about with her. Somehow the girl felt that Miss +Pritchard would be devoted to vaudeville and even moving pictures—she +might even refer to the latter as "movies"! Of course, that was the +worst of the whole situation—Cousin Julia herself! For, no matter how +singular or even coarse she might be, Elsie had to live with her and to +put up with a certain amount of her society. +</P> + +<P> +That would be very difficult; still, even now, the girl seemed to see +wide spaces between. Except for Sundays and evenings when neither of +them went out, she wouldn't have to see a great deal of the older +woman. She might have to dine with her every night, but, as she worked +in a business office, she probably wouldn't be home to lunch, and of +course Elsie would have her breakfast in her room. Sunday might be +long and boring, but, whatever Cousin Julia's ideas might be, Elsie +would always insist upon going to service, and that would occupy a part +of the day. +</P> + +<P> +An hour had passed since Mrs. Bennet had left Elsie Marley. As she +returned the letter to the satchel she became aware that the train was +at a standstill and not before a station. Indeed, there was not a +building in sight: only a dreary waste of sunburnt prairie-grass +extended flatly to the glare of the burning horizon. She looked about +wonderingly, vaguely aware that they must already have waited some time. +</P> + +<P> +Her gaze included the rear of the car and emboldened a young girl who +had been watching her longingly a great part of the way from San +Francisco, to act upon her desire. Immediately she donned a coquettish +little red hat and linen top-coat, and made her way to the other girl's +seat. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't you want to come out and walk a little?" she asked in a +singularly sweet, eager voice. "There's a hot-box, or some such thing, +and they say it'll be an hour more before we get away. It might seem +good to stretch our legs on the prairie yonder?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley didn't care at all to go. Indeed, she didn't wish to make +the acquaintance of this conspicuous-looking girl with her dark hair +cut square about her ears who had travelled alone all the way from San +Francisco and seemed to know every one in the car. If she should give +her any encouragement, no doubt she would hang about her all the rest +of the way. She excused herself coldly. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, please do, please come for just a wee turn," urged the other, +smiling and displaying a pair of marvellous dimples. And Elsie Marley +surprised herself by yielding. Possibly she was too indolent to hold +out; perhaps she felt something in the stranger that wouldn't take no +for an answer, and didn't care to struggle against it. Again, she may +have felt, dimly and against her will, something of the real charm of +the other. However that was, she yielded listlessly, put on her neat +sailor hat reluctantly, drew on the jacket of her severe and elegant +dark-blue suit, and followed the stranger slowly from the car. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap02"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER II +</H3> + +<P> +The stranger, who was dressed in a rather graceful and perhaps rather +flamboyant adaptation of the prevailing fashion, was picturesque and +radiant to the extreme: slender, dark, vivid, with big, dark eyes in a +small pointed face, dark hair "bobbed" and curling sufficiently to turn +under about her ears and neck, a rather large mouth flanked by really +extraordinary dimples, and an expression at once gay and saucy and +sweet and appealing withal. Her voice was very sweet, her unusually +finished pronunciation and enunciation giving a curious effect to her +slangy speech. She wore her clothes jauntily, carried herself with +charming grace, and her great dimples made her frank smile irresistible. +</P> + +<P> +"Do you know, I've been simply crazy all the way to come and speak to +you," she confessed as soon as they were outside. "I spotted you the +very first thing, but I was rather phased by that woman with you. +Wasn't she the—goodness gracious! I hope she wasn't any +relation—your aunt or mother?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no indeed, scarcely an acquaintance," returned the other, +surprised that any one should even conjecture that Mrs. Bennet might be +connected with her. Then it occurred to her that Cousin Julia might be +even worse! +</P> + +<P> +"I never met her until a week ago," she went on languidly. "She +happened to be a friend of my lawyer's wife, and he wished me to come +as far as I could in her company. I suppose I oughtn't to travel the +rest of the way alone, but he didn't make any other arrangement." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, it isn't bad. I've come all the way alone and everything's been +jolly. I've made awfully good friends, though they're all either +elderly or children. So your being about my age only made me want to +know you the more. Well, now that we're acquainted, we'll have to make +the most of what's left of the way. I am Elsie Moss and I was sixteen +Christmas day. Aren't you about that age?" +</P> + +<P> +"I am sixteen, Miss Moss," returned Elsie Marley formally. +</P> + +<P> +"But don't call me <I>Miss</I>," pleaded the other. "<I>Everybody</I> calls me +Elsie." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley did not reply. She disliked the idea that the +unchaperoned stranger should be Elsie, also, and should even have the +same initials. Her imagination was limited; still it occurred to her +that the situation would have been much worse had the girl happened to +bear the surname Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +She stifled a sigh. They seemed to be getting acquainted perforce. +Now that she was out, however, she didn't care to go back at once, even +though the sun beat down upon them fiercely, and the dry grass was full +of dust and cinders. She glanced about irresolutely. +</P> + +<P> +"Now if this were a scene in a play," remarked Elsie Moss reflectively, +"the engine would have broken down near a grove with immemorial trees, +or there'd be a dell hard by where the hero and heroine could wander by +a stream. Or else—" she hesitated. "You don't feel comfy, do you?" +</P> + +<P> +"The sun is so hot, it's hardly safe to be out. I'd better go in +again," replied the other. +</P> + +<P> +"But the car'll be awfully hot, too, standing right in the sun. I +know—I'll get an umbrella." +</P> + +<P> +She rushed off at full speed lest the other should +remonstrate—something that Elsie Marley didn't think of doing. She +accepted the favor as a matter of course, and they walked on slowly, +the one restraining her eager feet with difficulty. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, dear, I suppose <I>you're</I> going to New York, too?" she asked. +"Everybody seems to be except poor me." +</P> + +<P> +The other returned a spiritless affirmative. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course! Oh, dear, and I'm simply <I>perishing</I> to go! But I'm due +in a poky little place in Massachusetts called Enderby. Isn't that the +limit? The name alone would queer the place, don't you think so? It's +fairly near Boston, but they say Boston's slow compared with New York +or even with San Francisco." +</P> + +<P> +She waited a moment, then rattled on. +</P> + +<P> +"Do you know, sometimes it seems my <I>duty</I> to go to New York. I've got +five hundred dollars all my own. Dad had a long sickness, and, anyhow, +he never got much ahead; but he left me that clear, and I'm just going +to beg and implore my uncle on bended knee to let me take it and go to +New York to study. I could get a start with that, I'm sure." +</P> + +<P> +She looked up so eagerly that something strange seemed to stir within +the quiet girl. It was almost as if she would have liked to express +her sympathy had she known how. And when the light suddenly died out +of the sparkling eyes and even the shadows of the dimples disappeared, +she felt almost at fault. +</P> + +<P> +The other girl did not resent her want of sympathy, however. +</P> + +<P> +"But he'll never, never consent," she went on mournfully, "because he's +an orthodox minister and I want to be an actress. Of course he +couldn't approve, and I ought not to blame him. And yet, if I wait +until I'm of age, I'll be too old. I'd like to run away right now, but +for the row it would make and for frightening auntie. Really, you +know, I'd rather join the circus than go to Enderby." +</P> + +<P> +"But I have always understood that to be an actress one must go through +much that—isn't nice," remarked Elsie Marley in her colorless voice. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, but that's half the fun—the struggle against odds," exclaimed +Miss Moss with the assurance of untried youth. "Our class motto at the +high school was 'Per aspera ad astra.' Isn't that fine and inspiring?" +</P> + +<P> +The other assented listlessly, +</P> + +<P> +A breeze had arisen, and now, at a little distance from the track, the +air, though warm, was fresh and sweet. The yellowed grass extended to +the brilliant blue of the sky as far as the eye could reach. For the +first time, perhaps, in centuries, the plain was peopled by a throng; +for by now nearly every one in the long train had come out. Men stood +in groups discussing politics and the Mexican affair; women wandered +sedately about, most of them keeping a watchful eye upon the engine, as +if it might suddenly start and plunge on, dragging an empty train of +cars; children ran and frisked and shouted, making the most of the +occasion, as only children can. The two Elsies happened to be the only +young girls. +</P> + +<P> +They had gone some little distance beyond the others. Failing to draw +out her companion, Elsie Moss took it for granted that she was shy, and +chatted on about her own affairs, hoping presently to effect an +exchange of confidences. +</P> + +<P> +"I can't help wondering what my uncle will be like," she said soberly, +thrusting her hand into the pocket of her coat. "You see, I've never +seen him, though he and my mother were the greatest chums ever when +they were young—almost like twins, though he was heaps older. But +mother went to California when she married and I was born there, and +though he always meant to, he never got out to see us. His wife +couldn't stand the journey. And when mother died, he was way over in +Egypt, so of course he didn't come. All that I know is that he's +handsome and dignified and lives in a very proper place where they have +everything correct and conventional—musical advantages and oratorios +and lectures on Emerson, and village improvement and associated +charities and all that, but no vaudeville nor movies. I suppose if +there were a theatre they'd only play Ibsen and Bernard Shaw." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley opened her eyes rather wider than usual. For it all +sounded attractive to her, particularly in contrast with the +boarding-house and New York. +</P> + +<P> +"He's awfully religious-looking, you know," Elsie Moss continued. "He +wears the same sort of waistcoats and collars the Episcopalians do, +though he's a Congregationalist, and his picture is more than +dignified, I can tell you. Well, no doubt he's dreading me just as +much as I am him, or else he's expecting me to be just like mother and +will have the surprise of his life." +</P> + +<P> +She hesitated. "I suppose I do look like her," she added gently and +quite as if she believed the other girl to be deeply interested. Then +her voice dropped suddenly and her eyes filled with tears. "Mother +died—in the earthquake," she added. +</P> + +<P> +Something vaguely uncomfortable just stirred the surface of Elsie +Marley's consciousness, though it wasn't sufficiently acute to be +called a pang. The earthquake had happened seven or eight years +ago—and this girl's grief seemed fresh to-day. Her own mother had +been dead less than three years. +</P> + +<P> +She did not acknowledge that her mother was only a memory. She hardly +realized it, indeed. Only, conscious of that vague, strange +discomfort, she had an impulse to get away from it. She put a languid +question. +</P> + +<P> +"What have you done since?" +</P> + +<P> +"I've learned what a difference mothers make," returned the girl +soberly. Then she darted suddenly outside the range of the umbrella. +</P> + +<P> +"What's that? A gopher?" she cried. "Oh, my goodness, it's only one +of those ridiculous Dutch dogs. +</P> + +<P> +"It might have been, you know," she said as she returned to the shade. +Then she resumed the subject she had dropped. Elsie Marley said to +herself that she needn't listen, but as a matter of fact she heard +every word. +</P> + +<P> +"I was so small I couldn't do much, and we had an awful time for a +year. Dad was always more or less hard up, but he was worse after the +earthquake, and if we had a servant she wasted things so that he was +wild. He married again—a schoolteacher, and it wasn't a year, quite, +after—the earthquake. Most people didn't blame him, but Uncle John +where I'm going did, and wanted me to come right on East and live with +him, but dad wouldn't hear of it. And, anyhow, she was the nicest +thing. I loved her dearly at the end of a week. She wanted to keep me +with her after dad died, but my uncle insisted upon my coming to him, +so here I am." +</P> + +<P> +She looked into the other girl's eyes half appealingly, though her big +dimples were dimly visible. +</P> + +<P> +"She wouldn't stand for my being an actress, either, so there you are. +And I liked her so much I couldn't half urge her. And that's the worst +of it; if I stay with my uncle the least little while I shall get to +liking him so much I shan't be able to run away. It's perfectly +terrible to get so fond of people when you want a career. I suppose +the thing to do would really be to disappear right now. Oh, not this +moment, but simply never to go to Enderby. Suppose I should go right +on to New York with you?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley gazed at her without a word and almost without expression. +But within, she was secretly roused. She marvelled at the stranger's +audacity. She was surprised to feel that she was not bored. She +decided that she would not return to the car until they should be +summoned. +</P> + +<P> +As she was fumbling in her mind for the response the Moss girl +evidently awaited, one of the children whose acquaintance the latter +had made came running up to her and shyly took her hand and kissed it. +Again putting the umbrella into the other girl's hands, Elsie Moss +impulsively caught the little thing into her arms and fondled her. +Then dropping her gently, she took both the little hands in hers and +danced away with her. +</P> + +<P> +They made a charming picture against the long, yellow prairie-grass. +The little girl moved with the grace of a child, but Elsie Moss danced +like a fairy. Her cheeks glowed, her dark eyes shone, her dimples +twinkled, her feet scarcely seemed to touch the ground. Her red hat +was like a poppy-cup, and the dark hair tumbling about her little face, +elf-locks. Elsie Marley gazed spellbound. +</P> + +<P> +But only for a moment; on a sudden she turned and made her way back to +the car, which was almost empty. She returned not because she wanted +to, not even because she was indifferent as to what she did. She went +because she didn't want to. Unconsciously she was struggling against +yielding to the charm of the vivid young creature who threatened to +take her by storm. In all her life she had never been deeply or warmly +affected by another personality. Perhaps now she realized this dimly, +and some instinct warned her subtly to avoid any departure from old +habitude, even when avoidance meant the first real struggle she had +ever made against definite inclination. +</P> + +<P> +It seemed long before the other occupants of the car began to stroll +in. Then the engine whistled sharp warning, the laggards trooped back, +and the train started briskly. Elsie Moss entered by the rear door, as +Elsie Marley knew, though she did not turn around. She said to herself +that no doubt she would be upon her directly, that she would have her +company for the rest of the day and the remainder of the journey. But +she established herself in the middle of the seat lest she seem to give +any invitation. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap03"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER III +</H3> + +<P> +Elsie Marley was not interrupted, as it happened. Some little time +passed and still she was alone. The girl could not understand a +certain unrest that was upon her. She waited a few moments longer, +then she moved close to the window so as to leave more than half the +seat vacant. Still nothing happened. +</P> + +<P> +At length she turned and looked back. Elsie Moss, who sat between an +old lady and a little boy, smiled and nodded. Elsie Marley half +smiled. Still the other made no move. Then she looked back, really +smiled, and beckoned her to a place beside her. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Moss, more than willing to be summoned, had some difficulty in +getting away from her present companions. But the grandmother +prevailed upon the little boy to spare her, and she presented herself +at Elsie Marley's seat smiling in her irresistible way with the big +dimples indented, and looking as if she would like to hug her as she +had hugged the little girl outside. And Elsie Marley had a curious +intimation that she shouldn't have minded greatly. +</P> + +<P> +"What do you think," exclaimed Miss Moss as she seated herself, "you +know all my family history and I don't even know your name. I've been +guessing. It ought to be either Isabel or Hildegarde. Is it? Oh, I +do wish it were, they're both so sort of stately and princess-like that +they'd just suit you." +</P> + +<P> +"It isn't either," responded the other with a curious sense of +disappointment. "My name is Elsie also." +</P> + +<P> +"Of all things! But it's rather jolly, after all. And what's the +rest?" +</P> + +<P> +"Marley, Elsie Pritchard Marley. But at home they called me Elsie +Pritchard, because I am—all Pritchard." +</P> + +<P> +Unacquainted with the Pritchard distinction, Elsie Moss was not +impressed. But she exclaimed gleefully over the real surname. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie Marley!" she cried. "Why, isn't that funny, and oh, isn't it +dear! Elsie Marley, honey!" +</P> + +<P> +The other girl looked blank. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course you know the song, or at least the rhyme?" +</P> + +<P> +"Song? Rhyme?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, yes. You must have heard it: 'And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, +Honey?'" +</P> + +<P> +"Is it really and truly Elsie Marley?" queried the pale Elsie speaking +for the first time like a real girl, though she had no girlish +vocabulary from which to draw. +</P> + +<P> +"Sure," asserted the other, delighted to be able to surprise her +seatmate. And she sang a stanza in the sweetest voice Elsie Marley had +ever heard, though she had heard good music all her life, and famous +singers. +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +"Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?<BR> +The wife who sells the barley, honey?<BR> +She won't get up to serve her swine,<BR> +And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?"<BR> +</P> + +<P> +"Is there—any more?" demanded Elsie Marley almost eagerly. +</P> + +<P> +"One more, and then you just repeat the first. I've known it all my +life. Mother used to sing it to me when I was a baby. Then a few +years ago when I first went to see vaudeville, I 'got it up,' as they +say, with dancing and a little acting. I used to spring it on people +that came to the house. Dad liked it, but it made my stepmother feel +bad—dad said because I was too professional." +</P> + +<P> +She sighed deeply. +</P> + +<P> +"Sing the rest, please, Elsie?" asked the other, using her name for the +first time. +</P> + +<P> +"I will if you'll let me call you Elsie-Honey? You see it really +belongs." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie knew that it was silly, but she found herself quite willing. She +seemed under a strange spell. +</P> + +<P> +"Only," she added, with a stronger sensation of discomfort, "after +to-morrow it isn't likely we'll ever see one another again." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes we will, sure. Why, we just <I>must</I>—at least if you want to +half as much as I do, Elsie-Honey?" +</P> + +<P> +"I do," Elsie confessed shyly and now with a curiously pleasant +feeling. "And now, Elsie, please sing the other stanzas." +</P> + +<P> +"It sounds just dear to say <I>stanzas</I>," cried the other. "I should +always say <I>verses</I>, even if I didn't forget which was which." +</P> + +<P> +With an absurd little flourish of her hands, she turned slightly in her +seat. The dimples came out strongly, and though she sat quite still, +there was truly something dramatic in the manner in which the would-be +actress sang the lines. +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +"Elsie Marley is grown so fine<BR> +She won't get up to feed the swine,<BR> +But lies in bed till eight or nine,<BR> +And surely she does take her time.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?<BR> +The wife who sells the barley, honey?<BR> +She won't get up to serve her swine,<BR> +And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?"<BR> +</P> + +<P> +Both girls broke into natural, infectious laughter. Mr. and Mrs. +Bliss, or any one who had known Elsie Marley, could scarcely have +believed their eyes or credited their hearing. But Elsie's father, who +had died while she was an infant, had had a warm heart and a keen sense +of humor, and it might well be that his daughter had inherited +something of this that had lain dormant all the while. For truly, the +wholesome, hardy qualities brought out in others through simple human +association had had little chance to germinate in her hothouse +existence in the Pritchard household. +</P> + +<P> +Despite the rumble of the train, four children in the rear of the car +caught the sound of the singing and came trooping up begging for more. +A pretty nursemaid followed with a fat, smiling infant. Elsie Moss +made her sit down with it (beside Elsie Marley!) and she herself +perched on the arm of the seat and sang song after song until it was +time to go into the dining-car. The children, wild with enthusiasm, +were not in reality more appreciative of the lovely voice than Elsie +Marley herself. The two girls went in to dinner together in happy +companionship. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap04"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER IV +</H3> + +<P> +Elsie Marley lay in her berth that night for some time in a state +between musing and actually dreaming. She was conscious—partly +conscious, that is—of a new sensation of happiness. She did not, +however, at all realize how fortunate she was. She did not know that +for the first time in her life the door of her heart had been opened in +response to another. It was, perhaps, open only a crack. Possibly it +had been fast so long that it would not remain open. None the less, at +the moment it stood ajar. +</P> + +<P> +After dinner the girls had talked late—late for sleeping-car hours, +that is to say. Elsie Marley herself had talked; had said more in an +hour than she had ever before said in a day. Questioned in a frank, +sympathetic manner by the other Elsie, she had been led to speak of her +grandmother's household and of her daily life there, going into details +so far as she knew how, as she found the other so generously and +romantically concerned. Then she had gone on to speak of Cousin Julia +Pritchard and the boarding-house, confessing her apprehension and +dread, which seemed somehow to have become more definite in the +interval. She even showed the stranger Cousin Julia's letter. +</P> + +<P> +Having perused it, Elsie Moss acknowledged that it wasn't altogether a +pleasant outlook for such a one as Elsie Marley, honey, though she +herself wouldn't mind it. Indeed, she declared that she should have +liked it immensely. And finally, as she left to go back to her berth, +she exclaimed with fervor that she only wished that Miss Pritchard were +her cousin, and the Reverend John Middleton Elsie Marley's uncle and +guardian. +</P> + +<P> +As those were Elsie Moss's last spoken words that night, so that +thought was uppermost in her mind as she fell asleep shortly after her +cropped head touched the pillow. And next morning when she woke early +with a startlingly delightful idea, it almost caused her to bound from +her upper berth as if it had been a bed in the middle of a stationary +floor. For it came not in embryo, not in the egg, so to speak, but +full-fledged. It seemed as if she couldn't possibly wait until she was +dressed to divulge it to Elsie Marley. +</P> + +<P> +But Elsie Marley was, like her prototype, late in rising, and the other +Elsie's eagerness grew yet keener as she waited. Finally, however, +they were alone together in the former's seat, as the train sped +rapidly eastward. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley's countenance seemed almost to have changed overnight. +There was truly something in it that had not been there before. Of +course it was not animated now; nevertheless, it was not so utterly +wanting in expression as it had been the day before, even in +juxtaposition with the vivid little face beside her. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie-Honey, I've got something perfectly gorgeous to tell you," +cried the dark Elsie. "Listen—you're not very keen about going to +your cousin's, are you?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie confessed that she liked the idea less than ever. +</P> + +<P> +"And I just <I>hate</I>—the short of it is—I simply <I>cannot</I> go anywhere +but to New York. You'd ever so much prefer Enderby because it's select +and has culture and advantages, and you'd sooner have a dignified +clergyman uncle than a newspaper cousin. As for me, I should adore +Cousin Julia." +</P> + +<P> +"It seems a pity, surely," admitted Elsie quietly. +</P> + +<P> +The other looked at her. "You see what's coming, honey?" +</P> + +<P> +She shook her head, perplexed. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie-Honey! It's plain as pudding. Presto! change! That's all. +Aren't we both Elsie, and don't we both want just what's coming to the +other? All we have to do is to swap surnames. See?" +</P> + +<P> +Still Elsie Marley did not understand. +</P> + +<P> +"Shake us up in a box, you know," the other explained, her dimples very +conspicuous, "and you come out Elsie Moss and I, Elsie Marley, without +the honey. You go to live with Reverend John Middleton and I'll go to +New York and try to persuade your Cousin Julia to let her supposed +relative study for the stage. What could be better? It's simply +ripping and dead easy. Neither of them has seen either of us. Uncle +John would draw a prize instead of me, and—I'd be awfully good to your +cousin, Elsie-Honey." +</P> + +<P> +Really to grasp a conception so daring and revolutionary took Elsie +Marley some time. But when she had once grasped it, she considered it +seriously. It did not seem to her, even at first, either unreasonable +or impossible. Indeed, influenced by the enthusiasm of the other girl, +she began to feel it both reasonable and fitting. In a way, too, it +was only natural. For after all, the girl had always had her way made +smooth for her, and this appeared only a continuation of that process. +She certainly <I>didn't</I> want to go to Cousin Julia's, and she liked the +idea of living in the quiet parsonage of the aristocratic country town. +</P> + +<P> +Indeed, she agreed to the proposal more readily and unquestioningly +than a girl of more imagination or experience could have done. For her +part, Elsie Moss foresaw certain complications, though in truth only +the most obvious ones. They discussed these gravely, yet with much +confidence. Indeed, an older person must have been both amused and +amazed at the youthfulness, the inexperience, and the ignorance of life +the girls exhibited, at their utter unconsciousness that they were not +qualified to act as responsible human beings and shuffle blood +relationships about like pawns on a chess-board. +</P> + +<P> +"There's certainly nothing about it that even my stepmother could +object to," Elsie Moss concluded. "Nobody's being cheated: they are +both going to get what they would really choose if they had a chance, +and to escape what might be very uncomfortable, and so are we. We're +both Elsies, and about the same age, and have brown eyes: if Uncle John +were to take his pick, wouldn't he take a quiet, dignified, ladylike +Elsie, instead of a harum-scarum one with short hair that was mad for +the stage? And Aunt Milly being rather frail, I should have driven her +to drink, while you're used to an invalid aunt. Isn't it just +wonderful? The more I think of it, the <I>righter</I> it seems. I almost +feel now as if it would be wrong <I>not</I> to do it, don't you?" +</P> + +<P> +Like one in a dream, Elsie Marley assented. She was almost giddy at +the swift flight of the other's imagination. She listened spellbound +while Elsie Moss spun plans, able herself to contribute nothing but +assent and applause. Under skilful questioning, however, she related +all the Pritchard traditions and family history that Cousin Julia might +be expected to be familiar with, and endeavored in a docile manner to +learn enough of Moss and Middleton annals to take her part in the +Middleton household. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Moss possessed a certain sort of executive ability which enabled +her to make the practical arrangements for carrying through the plan. +Quite self-reliant, she planned to accompany the other to Boston to +make sure that all went well, going thence herself to New York. After +consultation with the conductor in regard to time-tables, she sent a +telegram asking Miss Pritchard to meet a later train. The change in +the destination of their respective luggage was more difficult to +effect, but she accomplished that also, and both girls changed cars for +Boston. +</P> + +<P> +Indeed, presently it seemed as if the only difficult part of the whole +affair would be the parting from each other. They were to write +frequently, of course, and not only for the sake of mutual information; +but it seemed, particularly to the pale Elsie, who had never had a +friend, cruelly hard to have to be separated so soon from this most +charming companion. She gazed at her wistfully, unable to express +herself. +</P> + +<P> +The other Elsie, as quick, nearly, to read as to express feeling, and +naturally the more impulsive, answered from her heart. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, we'll see each other often, we'll just have to, Elsie-Honey," she +cried. "And anyhow, we'll want to compare notes and brush up on our +parts. We'll visit back and forth. You come to New York and I——" +</P> + +<P> +She stopped short. +</P> + +<P> +"My goodness, that'll never do! I can never come to Enderby. You'll +have to do all the visiting, honey. I'm the very image of my mother, +and I'd give it all away." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh," said the other feebly. +</P> + +<P> +"You've noticed that I have dimples, I suppose?" inquired the other +gloomily. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie could not deny it, though denial was evidently what the other +craved. +</P> + +<P> +The latter sighed deeply. "Then they're just as plain as ever, and +would give me away first thing," she said. "Dad used to say he had +never seen such big dimples as mother's, and that mine were just like +'em. He said if I had straight yellow hair and blue eyes, any one that +had seen her would know me. Oh, dear, aren't you lucky to have nothing +conspicuous about you? I'm sure you're not the image of any one, +Elsie-Honey, and you'll come to see me often enough to make up, won't +you?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes, Elsie, unless he—Mr. Middleton—should object to my coming +to New York alone?" +</P> + +<P> +"You'd better begin right away calling him Uncle John, so as to get +used to it as soon as you can," suggested the other. "And I'm sure he +won't object. I'm sure from his letters that he's not an old fuss, and +it's a straight trip with no changes from Boston to New York. And +Cousin Julia and I will meet you at the Grand Central!" +</P> + +<P> +She grinned at her own <I>cheek</I>, as she called it, and the other Elsie +smiled happily. +</P> + +<P> +"Just the same, I'm more than sorry not to be able to come to Enderby +to visit," Elsie Moss declared. "You know it would be simply stunning +practice, playing the stranger in my uncle's house—something like the +real wife in 'East Lynne,' you know." +</P> + +<P> +"I never saw 'East Lynne.'" +</P> + +<P> +"Dear me, I cried quarts and bucketsful over it. It's the most tragic +play! If I had time I could show you how it goes. I always act things +out over and over after I've seen them, making up words where I don't +remember them. But, alas! we haven't any time to spare with what we've +got ahead of us, have we, honey? Now we must arrange for meeting +Uncle—no, <I>I</I> must call him <I>Mr.</I> Middleton." +</P> + +<P> +On a sudden the girl clasped her hands in apparent distress. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I never thought!" she cried. "It won't even be safe for Uncle +John to see me at the station in Boston. Well, I shall have to drop +behind and keep perfectly sober. I'll just watch out to see that +everything's all right with you, and then I'll skidoo. Dear me, I hope +I don't look so awfully unlike the Marleys as to frighten Cousin Julia?" +</P> + +<P> +Had she said the <I>Pritchards</I>, Elsie would have been in a quandary; as +it was, her face brightened. +</P> + +<P> +"She never knew the Marleys, and there aren't any now," she said. "She +knows only the Pritchards." +</P> + +<P> +"Hooray! I shall harp on the Marleys morning, noon, and night!" +</P> + +<P> +"She'll like you," observed Elsie wistfully. "You know she spoke in +her letter of young life." +</P> + +<P> +"I shall adore her, dear old thing!" cried the warm-hearted girl. "And +Uncle John will adore you. He adored my mother, who was quiet and deep +like you. He was always sending her rare things, and pitying her +because she was poor and longing to send her money, though dad wouldn't +have that." +</P> + +<P> +The appearance of an expressman warned them that they were nearing +Boston. +</P> + +<P> +"You're perfectly sure that you're willing to exchange New York for +Enderby?" demanded Elsie Moss suddenly. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes, indeed, Elsie." +</P> + +<P> +"And you don't yearn for Cousin Julia?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley half smiled. "Oh, no," she declared. +</P> + +<P> +But the other was determined not to take any undue advantage. +</P> + +<P> +"Now listen," she said; "if after you see Uncle John you don't fancy +him, just say the word or nudge me or wink and I'll swap back without a +word. I'll simply step up and say, 'Oh, Uncle John, you've kissed the +wrong girl!' though, of course, he may be too dignified to kiss at a +train. And then I'll introduce you properly." +</P> + +<P> +They sped on. Soon a trainman entered to say that the next station was +Boston and request them not to leave any articles in the car. They +said good-by to each other before the train stopped, kissing warmly +like real friends. Then Elsie Moss tied a large, dark veil over her +hat and well down over her forehead and eyes. It looked as +inappropriate for the hot day as the scowling expression she assumed to +cloak the dimples was ill suited to her charming little face. +</P> + +<P> +As they alighted, and a handsome, distinguished-looking gentleman in +grey clerical garb advanced to meet them, she fell behind. Raising his +hat, he took the hand of the girl who was not his niece. +</P> + +<P> +"And this is Elsie?" he said in a fine, kindly voice. +</P> + +<P> +She murmured a weak affirmative. He kissed her affectionately, took +her portmanteau from the porter, and turned to the girl who had come +from the car with her. +</P> + +<P> +"And this is your friend, Elsie?" he inquired. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Moss came forward, scowling so fiercely that the other, despite +her blunted sense of humor, could scarcely keep from laughing out. +</P> + +<P> +"My friend, Miss M-Marley," she stammered. +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Middleton shook hands with his sister's daughter, took her satchel, +and asked how he could serve her. The girl replied in a thin falsetto +voice, which she realized immediately didn't go with the scowl so well +as a gruff tone would have done, that she had only twenty-five minutes +to get the train for New York and must say good-by at once and take a +cab for the other station. +</P> + +<P> +However, he didn't let her go so easily. Assuming charge in a simple, +offhand manner, he found a taxicab which took them to the South +Station, led her to the ticket-office, secured a chair, and put her on +the train. +</P> + +<P> +She kissed Elsie Marley again, squeezing her hand meaningly. And she +nearly forgot and showed her dimples, looking out of the window as her +train pulled out, to see them together, her uncle with his hat in his +hand, Elsie waving her pocket-handkerchief. +</P> + +<P> +"He's a darling," she said to herself as they moved toward the Trinity +Place Station, "and it's mighty lucky for my career that I didn't see +more of him. But he'll be far happier with that lovely honey-princess, +and I'm glad she's drawn a prize. As for me, hooray for Cousin Julia +and the footlights!" +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap05"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER V +</H3> + +<P> +"I hope, Elsie, your friend wasn't in pain?" Mr. Middleton inquired +with concern shortly after they were established in the train for +Enderby. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no," the girl assured him, trying, but vainly, to add "Uncle John." +</P> + +<P> +"I thought she might be suffering from toothache or neuralgia, wearing +that scarf about her face on such a warm day—particularly as she +frowned and screwed her mouth in a rather distressed way," he explained. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie smiled. Indeed she almost laughed, partly because she was +herself struck by the humor of it, partly because it would so amuse +Elsie Moss when she wrote her about it. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no," she repeated. "Oh, no, Uncle John"—resolutely—"she was +just—well—she was acting, I suppose. She wants very much to go on +the stage." +</P> + +<P> +"And doesn't lose any opportunity for practice?" He smiled, but rather +ruefully. "Poor child! Somehow, of all ambitions, there seems to be +more tragedy, more pitifulness, underlying that than any other. Where +one succeeds, so many fail—go down into darkness and obscurity. Your +mother had the fever at one time as a very young girl, Elsie. As a +matter of fact, she had some little talent in that direction, but +fortunately we were able to persuade her to give up the idea entirely." +He sighed. "She was so tender-hearted and affectionate that she could +have been induced to give up far more precious things than an ambition +of that sort." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie was gazing out of the window. He pointed out a country club and +several fine estates at a distance, then asked: +</P> + +<P> +"What is your friend going in for, Elsie, comedy or tragedy?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie didn't know. She explained that while Miss M-Marley seemed like +an old friend, she had only met her on the train as they had left +Chicago. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, that's just like your mother!" he exclaimed. "She was just that +way, quick to make friends, and yet as loyal and true as any slower and +more cautious person could be." +</P> + +<P> +Again he sighed; then added in a lighter tone: "<I>She</I> wanted to play +tragic parts—youth is apt to—but of course with those dimples she +would have been doomed to comedy, if not farce." +</P> + +<P> +He gazed reminiscently at her. +</P> + +<P> +"Your baby pictures had her dimples in small, but I see that as you +have grown thin you have lost them. You scarcely resemble her at all, +and yet already I see how very like her you are." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie could think of no response, and fearing that he was awaking +painful feelings, Mr. Middleton changed the subject by inquiring kindly +after her stepmother. Elsie replied according to instructions that she +was quite well and much gratified to have secured her former position +in one of the San Francisco high schools for the coming year. +</P> + +<P> +As he went on to ask about her journey and to exhibit points of +interest along the way, he was so chivalrous and thoughtful that the +girl realized that she would be considered and cared for as she never +would have been with Cousin Julia, and was genuinely relieved. Then +her thoughts flew back to those hours with Elsie Moss between Chicago +and Boston, which seemed to her the happiest she had ever known. It +came to her that if she could have the other girl's companionship, +could see her every day, she didn't know that she would greatly care +where she was. Perhaps she could even endure hardship. How serious +Elsie Moss had been about her motto, "Per aspera ad astra." For all +her gayety, she felt she could go through hardship bravely. Ah, she +was a rare person! For the first time in her life Elsie Marley was +homesick—and for a stranger! +</P> + +<P> +Happily, there was that about Mr. Middleton which reminded her of his +niece. She glanced at him from under her long, pale lashes. A man of +fifty, he was tall and thin, with a fine florid face set off by a mass +of thick, white hair. His eyes were brown and youthful, full of +serenity and kindliness, with a shadow of the idealism that +characterized his whole face. His voice was good, his speech elegant, +appealing particularly to one accustomed to the tones and inflections +of the West. Looking forward to meeting his wife, who would probably +be equally pleasing, Elsie felt that in any event she should be as +happy between visits as it would be possible to be anywhere without +Elsie Moss. +</P> + +<P> +A short drive through the quiet, shady streets of what seemed to be an +old, historic town brought them to the parsonage, one of a group of +handsome, rather stately buildings near and about a green common. Of +colonial style, built of brick, it had a portico with great Corinthian +pillars, window-frames and cornices of wood painted white, and stood +far back from the street with a beautiful lawn studded by great elms +and a glimpse of a garden in the rear. +</P> + +<P> +The driveway led to a side entrance under a porte-cochère. As the +carriage drew up, Mr. Middleton glanced eagerly toward the door. His +face fell. +</P> + +<P> +"Your Aunt Milly will be here directly," he said and ushered her in. +As she entered the beautiful hall, Elsie couldn't help feeling how +fortunate she was to escape the boarding-house. +</P> + +<P> +There was no one in sight. Mr. Middleton looked about, then led her +into one of the great front rooms on either side of the wide hall and +asked her to make herself comfortable while he went to see if her aunt +were ill. +</P> + +<P> +"She is not very strong, as you know, Elsie, and the excitement may +have been too much for her," he explained. "She has looked forward so +eagerly to your arrival." +</P> + +<P> +Fortunately he did not await any reply. Elsie felt suddenly stunned as +by a blow. Left alone, she gazed about her in amazement that was +almost horror. The large, square, corner room lighted by four great +windows that reached from the floor to the heavy cornice was +comfortably, even luxuriously, furnished, but—the girl could scarcely +believe her eyes—it was the most untidy-looking place she had ever +been in! The heavy crimson hangings, faded by the strong summer +sunlight, lost further color by their layer of dust, quite visible even +at this distance and at first sight. There were ashes on the hearth, +though the heap of waste-paper, dust, and miscellaneous rubbish in the +fireplace showed that it hadn't been used for some time. The piano, a +baby-grand, stood open, with dust on its dingy keys and more dust on +its shining case. The centre-table held a handsome reading-lamp and +some books, but was littered with piles of old newspapers and magazines +without covers. A kitchen-apron was flung across an armchair; a dirty, +paper-covered book lay on a little table with a plate beside it covered +with cake-crumbs, and there were crumbs on the richly colored Turkish +rug and on the arm of the tapestry-covered chair on the edge of which +Elsie perched. +</P> + +<P> +Surely there was some mistake, some monstrous mistake! She had somehow +been brought to the wrong house. It wasn't possible that a gentleman +like Mr. Middleton could belong to a household such as this, she was +saying incredulously to herself, when a shadow fell athwart the +threshold and she looked up to see Mrs. Middleton entering on her +husband's arm. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton was the key to the enigma, though Elsie's mind wasn't +sufficiently alert to grasp the fact at the moment. She stood beside +her tall, immaculate husband, a short, rather stout, flabby-looking +woman with a sallow face wherein keener eyes than Elsie's might have +detected traces of former prettiness, and frowsy, ginger-colored hair +that had been curled on an iron. She wore a dingy pink tea-gown +bordered with swan's-down, cut rather low and revealing a yellow, +scrawny neck. A large cameo brooch took the place of a missing frog, +and a pin in the hem disclosed missing stitches. Her hands were +covered with rings, her feet thrust into shapeless knitted boots. +</P> + +<P> +She smiled, cried, "Elsie!" in a weak, sentimental manner, and opened +her arms wide as if expecting the girl to fly into them. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie, who had risen, advanced stiffly and reached out her hand in +gingerly fashion. But Mrs. Middleton gathered her, willy-nilly, into a +warm embrace, holding her close against the dingy pink flannel. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie could not struggle against it, as she was moved to do; she could +not burst into tears at the indignity; she could not rush out of the +house and back to the train, as she longed to do, with the sense of +outrage goading her. She was forced to sit down weakly with the others. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton gazed at her fondly. +</P> + +<P> +"Dear child! Little orphan stranger!" she cried. "How I have longed +for this hour! Indeed, I so longed for it that at the last moment my +strength failed me, and when the train whistled I had to drop on my bed +in exhaustion. But enough of that. Welcome to our home and hearts!" +</P> + +<P> +Murmuring some chill, indistinct monosyllable, Elsie glanced dumbly at +Mr. Middleton, who was looking at his wife as tenderly as if she had +been all that Elsie had expected her to be. Were they both mad? +</P> + +<P> +"Jack, dear, you have never asked Elsie to take off her things—your +own niece!" exclaimed Mrs. Middleton reproachfully. And she turned to +Elsie with her sentimental smile. +</P> + +<P> +"These men, my dear!" she said, and coming to her side begged the girl +to let her have her wraps. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie wanted to cry out that she wasn't going to stay, that she was no +kin of theirs, and was going away on the next train. But she couldn't +utter a word. She removed her hat and jacket dumbly, wondering which +dusty surface they would occupy. As Mr. Middleton carried them into +the hall, she could only guess. +</P> + +<P> +On his return, he noticed the kitchen-apron, picked it up and held it a +moment irresolutely. Then opening a door in the wainscot near the +fireplace he flung it in. Before the door went to, Elsie had a glimpse +of worse disorder—of the sort that is supposed to pertain to a +junk-shop. +</P> + +<P> +"That's Katy's apron," remarked Mrs. Middleton plaintively. "Do you +know, Jack, I feel sure she sits in here when there's no one around. +Now that book on the table by the window must be hers." +</P> + +<P> +"It's no harm for her to sit here when the room is not in use," +returned Mr. Middleton kindly, "but when she goes, I wish she would +take her things along." And he picked up the novel and was about to +consign it to the same dump when his wife held out her hand for it. +</P> + +<P> +"What mush!" she cried as she fingered the greasy pages, while Elsie +flinched inwardly. And unobservant as the girl naturally was, she +could not help noticing that Mrs. Middleton retained the book. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't think, dear Elsie, that we're unkind to our poor but worthy +Kate," the latter remarked, sitting down next to Elsie and taking the +girl's limp hand in hers. "As a matter of fact, she has a sitting-room +of her own. This house, you know, is very old. It matches the other, +newer buildings only because they were built to suit its style. The +original owners, the Enderbys, for whom the town was renamed, had many +servants and provided a parlor for them. Of course your uncle and I +can afford to keep only one, but we gave her the parlor, hoping she +would appreciate it. But it doesn't look out front, so she doesn't +care for it and uses it as a sort of store-room." +</P> + +<P> +"I wonder if Elsie wouldn't like to go to her chamber now," Mr. +Middleton suggested, remarking suddenly how tired the girl looked. He +had thought her surprisingly fresh after the long journey, but +apparently only excitement had kept her up. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie looked at him gratefully. She was longing to be by herself in +order to determine what she was to do. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, Jack, that's exactly what the poor dear wants; I've been trying +to get a word in to ask her," agreed Mrs. Middleton plaintively. Elsie +rose. +</P> + +<P> +"Where did you decide to put her, Milly? In the blue room?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, dear, but I'm not perfectly sure whether Katy got it ready. Do +you mind calling her?" +</P> + +<P> +He fetched the handsome, slatternly maid servant, who drew up the lower +corner of her apron crosswise to disguise its dirt, but openly and +unashamed, and only to uncover a dress underneath that was quite as +untidy. +</P> + +<P> +"Katy, this is our niece, Miss Moss, who has come to live with us," +Mrs. Middleton announced. "Have you got the blue room ready for her?" +</P> + +<P> +Katy bowed low to Elsie before she replied. +</P> + +<P> +"No'm, not yet," she said. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Katy, when I told you to be sure?" +</P> + +<P> +"No'm, you didn't," responded the woman pleasantly. +</P> + +<P> +"Dear me! Well, I meant to; I suppose it slipped my mind." +</P> + +<P> +She turned to Elsie. "I've been particularly wretched all day, +scarcely able, with all my will-power at full strain, to hold up my +head." +</P> + +<P> +"It seems to me," she addressed Kate reproachfully, "you might have +done it anyhow. You knew what Mr. Middleton was going in town for." +</P> + +<P> +"I'll get a place ready for her right now in no time, ma'am," Katy +assured her cheerfully. As she was leaving the room with an admiring +look at Elsie, she glanced suspiciously at Mrs. Middleton, whose hand +was hidden in a fold of her wrapper. +</P> + +<P> +"Is that my story-book you've got, ma'am?" she inquired. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton drew forth the book, looked at it as if in great +surprise, and gave it to Kate, who disappeared at once. Mr. Middleton +followed with Elsie's luggage. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie, who did not resume her seat, walked to the window and gazed out, +without, however, seeing anything. Mrs. Middleton began to rhapsodize +over the elms and oaks and some rooks in the distance that were really +crows. But before she had gone far, Katy appeared to say that the room +was ready. If she had not done it in no time, as she had proposed, she +had certainly spent as little time as one could and accomplish +anything. Mrs. Middleton led Elsie up-stairs, threw open the door of +the room with a dramatic gesture, kissed and fondled her, and finally +left her to get a good rest. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie closed the door after her, dropped into a chair and, burying her +face in her hands, sat motionless. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap06"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VI +</H3> + +<P> +For some time Elsie could not think. She could only sit there in a +sort of dumb horror. Presently she raised her head, opened her eyes, +and deliberately surveyed the room. +</P> + +<P> +Like the others she had seen, it was large and handsomely furnished. +There was a great brass bed and heavy mahogany furniture. The walls +were hung with blue, the large rug was blue-and-gold, and the chintz +hangings and covers blue-and-white. There was a great pier-glass, a +writing-desk, and a bookcase. In spite of the fact that everything +bore the appearance of having been hastily dusted, it was fairly neat +and very attractive. +</P> + +<P> +Still confused, with a stunned sensation that precluded decisive +action, Elsie decided that she might as well remove the dust of travel, +and rising, slipped off her blouse. +</P> + +<P> +As she turned on both faucets in the bowl in the small dressing-room +adjoining, a thick scum rose to the surface of the water, and she +realized the bowl had not been washed for some time. At first she +gazed at the dust helplessly. Utterly unused to doing anything for +herself, she looked about anxiously. Two towels, clean but not ironed, +lay on the rack. She hesitated, then grasping one of them as if it +were the proverbial nettle, she attacked the bowl, gingerly at first, +then with some vigor; and presently, with the aid of some dirty +fragments of soap she found in the receptacle, using the second towel +to dry it, she had the enamelled surface clean and shining. With an +odd sense of satisfaction, she threw the towels to the floor, opened +her portmanteau, took out her own toilet-case, and proceeded to wash. +</P> + +<P> +Refreshed physically and even a trifle in spirit, she slipped on her +dressing-gown and sat down by the window to consider. She knew now +that she should have spoken immediately upon seeing Mrs. Middleton, +thus avoiding more unpleasantness than the caresses. Having delayed +her explanation of the masquerade, she had made it the more difficult. +Even now she dreaded shocking or even hurting Mr. Middleton. +</P> + +<P> +She rose and moved about irresolutely. The dress she had taken off lay +on the couch against the foot of the bed, and though she had never been +accustomed to caring for her clothes, she started instinctively to hang +it away. Opening the door into the clothes-press, she shrank back. +</P> + +<P> +A commodious closet with shelves and drawers, it was as much worse in +its confusion and disorder than the cupboard down-stairs as it was +larger. Each hook bulged and overflowed with clothing: tawdry finery, +evening-gowns, old skirts, wrappers, sacks, bath-robes, knitted jackets +and shawls and miscellaneous underclothes. The drawers were so crammed +that none would shut. The shelves were piled high with blankets, +comfortables, old hats, a pair of snow-shoes, pasteboard boxes, and +bottles without number; while on the floor were boots, shoes, and +slippers in all stages of wear, overshoes, a broken umbrella, a +walking-stick, a folding-table, and more boxes. And everywhere the +dust lay thick. +</P> + +<P> +Shutting the door hastily, Elsie flung herself upon the couch, covering +her face and pressing her fingers upon her closed eyes. What +a—<I>heathenish</I> place! She really didn't possess the sort of +vocabulary to express the enormity of it. How should she get away? +Suppose there were no train to-night? Suppose she should have to +remain until morning? +</P> + +<P> +If only it were a hotel! If only Mr. Middleton weren't so fine, or if +Mrs. Middleton had gone into Boston! One look at her would have been +enough: she would have known she could never endure her. Better Cousin +Julia with all her oddities. She would have made the sign agreed upon +and gone straight on to New York. And then—poor Elsie Moss! After +all, Mrs. Middleton wasn't any real relative of hers, either. She only +hoped that the other girl might find Cousin Julia so very disagreeable +that she wouldn't too painfully mind being dragged back here. +</P> + +<P> +Some one knocked at the door. Feeling that she couldn't possibly +encounter Mrs. Middleton at this juncture, the girl remained silent. +</P> + +<P> +"It's only Katy," said a pleasant voice, and Elsie bade her come in. +</P> + +<P> +The warm-hearted Irishwoman knew in an instant that something was +wrong, and suspected homesickness. She spoke fondly, as to a child, +saying that tea was nearly ready, and added: "Have you got everything +that you want, miss?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie could have laughed at the unconscious irony. +</P> + +<P> +"The clothes-press is full of mussy things, and the wash-bowl was +dirty, and there weren't any clean towels," the girl almost wailed. +</P> + +<P> +"Bless my soul, I guess that wash-bowl was forgot for a matter of a few +days!" Katy exclaimed. "Dear me, I'm so sorry. But them towels was +clean, only not ironed. I hadn't got round to 'em yet, and I didn't +know where to lay my hands on any that was put away. There's a lot +somewheres, for we keep a-buyin' and a-buyin'. And I'll just go at +this room the first thing after breakfast in the mornin' and make +everything clean and shinin'. I meant to 'a' done it to-day, but I +didn't get a minute, and I thought one night wouldn't make much matter." +</P> + +<P> +While Elsie was endeavoring to frame some sentence to inform Katy that +she needn't take the trouble, the latter suddenly remembered something +in the oven and disappeared. Elsie rose and dressed. She couldn't eat +in such a place, but she couldn't get away without explaining and, +perhaps, the tea-table would be a suitable occasion for that. +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Middleton met her at the foot of the stair and led her to the +dining-room. Another surprise! The room was not only large, pleasant, +and airy, overlooking a beautiful garden, but it was neat and tidy, and +the table was spotless, with fine damask, delicate china, and beautiful +silver. The food was delicious—Elsie had taken her place +perforce—and was particularly appetizing after five days on the train. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton still wore the pink wrapper, but she had little to say, +and her husband was so elegant and attractive, was in such good spirits +and talked so entertainingly, that Elsie almost forgot. In any event, +before the meal was over she had decided to remain overnight, and to +postpone her confession until morning. +</P> + +<P> +The evening passed pleasantly. Mrs. Middleton excused herself directly +after tea, and Mr. Middleton took Elsie out to show her the garden, +which he tended himself, an old-fashioned garden with formal beds +radiating from a sun-dial. Thence they went to his study, an +attractive room lined with books, which, though untidy, was not +startlingly so, not, perhaps, far beyond that peculiar limit of +disorder allowed to a student's sanctum. +</P> + +<P> +Here the Reverend John Middleton, unmistakably and infectiously happy, +talked with his supposed niece for an hour. Full of enthusiasm, +quieter but almost as youthful as that of Elsie Moss, of ideas and +ideals, he had not realized his want of companionship and sympathy, nor +understood why he had looked forward so eagerly to the coming of the +daughter of the sister who had been the companion and intimate friend +of his youth and young manhood. Believing he saw already much of the +mother in the girl, he seemed to feel no need of preliminaries, of +getting acquainted. He strove only to make her feel at home, hoping +there might be no strangeness even on the first night. +</P> + +<P> +His powers being by no means inconsiderable, he succeeded so well that +Elsie Marley went to her room in a state of real exhilaration that was +almost tumult. The door of her inner nature, set ajar by Elsie Moss, +had opened wide. She had never in all her sixteen years been really +roused out of herself until she met the former; and she had never come +in contact with a nature so rich and fine as that of the clergyman. +Further than this, something else stirred in the girl's +heart—something better than the desire to hold this friend for her +own. Unawares, dimly, she felt his reaching out for sympathy, realized +dimly that there was something that even a young girl could do for him. +And suddenly a feeling of depression that was like regret or even +remorse took possession of her. The confession she had to make would +hurt him deeply, even now. +</P> + +<P> +Her trunk had been brought in and the straps unfastened. For an +instant Elsie wavered. Finally she got her key from her pocketbook. +But even as she crossed the room, she thought of Mrs. Middleton, the +dingy swan's-down and the caresses, and decided not to unlock the trunk. +</P> + +<P> +She stood by the window looking out absently over the soft, starlit +landscape. She felt sorry for Mr. Middleton and sorry for Elsie Moss; +and curiously enough those two were the two persons in the world in +whom she had any real interest! Perhaps the latter wouldn't mind her +aunt as she did; and of course she would be, to use her own expression, +"crazy over" her uncle. Then, too, with all her charm and vivacity, +she could do much more to brighten the monotony and squalor of his +life. And yet, her heart was set upon becoming an actress, and it +would be much harder now to give it up than if she hadn't seemed to +have a fair chance to pursue her studies. Elsie remembered dimly tales +she had heard of people dying from broken hearts. Somehow, it seemed +almost as if that vivid, sparkling Elsie Moss would be of the sort to +take things so hard that—— +</P> + +<P> +She broke off, turned from the window, and began to undress. So far as +Mr. Middleton was concerned, it occurred to her that possibly some one +who hadn't any ambition might learn to do even better toward helping +him than one whose heart was divided. She said to herself that she +wouldn't decide definitely against opening her trunk until morning. If +she should find, for instance, that Mrs. Middleton kept her room the +greater part of the time, it might make some difference. +</P> + +<P> +Ready to put out the light, she noticed that the covers of the bed had +not been turned down—an omission unparalleled in her experience. With +a sigh, she drew down the counterpane, only to discover, with actual +horror, the bare mattress underneath. The bed had not been made! +</P> + +<P> +Such was Elsie Marley's consternation that had she been a person of +resource, she would have dressed and left the house at once; but if she +possessed any such quality, it was wholly undeveloped. As it was, +however, she said to herself she could not even stay for breakfast. +She would go at daybreak! +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap07"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VII +</H3> + +<P> +Kate came to the door next morning just as Elsie had finished dressing, +and, being admitted, asked if Miss Moss wouldn't come down and pour her +uncle's coffee and eat breakfast with him. +</P> + +<P> +"He's sort o' hangin' off as if, perhaps, he was hopin' you might," she +added, eying the girl admiringly. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie's purpose to go immediately had been with her as she awoke, but +it didn't seem worth while to hold out at the moment: possibly she +might have a favorable opportunity to explain at the table. +</P> + +<P> +But she resented Kate's beaming face, and looked reproachfully toward +the bed, which told its own shocking story of having no linen nor +blankets. Still Kate was oblivious. Elsie really hardly knew how to +complain, but perhaps to learn that is easier than to learn to praise; +and there was a certain amount of indignation in her voice as she told +how she had been obliged to sleep on the couch in her dressing-gown. +</P> + +<P> +Kate was quite as shocked as the mistress of a well-regulated household +would have been. As she accompanied Elsie down-stairs she was voluble +in her sympathy, and promised all sorts of improvements for a future +Elsie knew was not to be hers. And yet the girl, who had always been +on the most distant terms with her grandmother's servants who had been +in the house for years, found herself confessing to this good-natured +slattern that she had nevertheless slept soundly and felt refreshed. +</P> + +<P> +Breakfast was so pleasant as to cause visions of an unlocked trunk to +float through Elsie's mind. The dining-room was yet more attractive +with the morning sun on the garden. Mrs. Middleton did not appear. +The girl found a curious pleasure in pouring out the coffee, which was +curiously intensified when Mr. Middleton asked for three lumps of +sugar. And when he passed his cup the second time she was elated. +</P> + +<P> +While he seemed fully to appreciate the novelty of her company, he +seemed also to take it for granted, as if they were to go on so, +breakfasting together, indefinitely. He chatted in his easy way, +glanced at the paper, reading bits of it to her, commenting on the +situation here and across the border. Fortunately, her mind had seemed +to quicken with her sensibility, so that she grasped, or partly +grasped, ideas that might well have meant nothing to her. +</P> + +<P> +He proposed to take her out to see the town after he had spent an hour +in his study. Though it would again postpone her explanation, Elsie +decided she might as well go a step further and get a better idea of +the place for which Elsie Moss was to exchange New York and her +ambition. The day promised heat; the girl was so tired of her +travelling-suit that she was tempted to open her trunk and get out a +linen frock and her Panama hat, but she wouldn't allow herself to yield. +</P> + +<P> +They were out nearly two hours, strolling leisurely through the quiet +old streets. The church and parish-house and a large hall were across +the common, the library and museum nearer the centre of the town—all +dignified, rather stately, very attractive buildings in harmonizing +styles of architecture, whose low and rambling character, with the ivy +that well-nigh covered them, and the wonderful green of their lawns, +gave them an air of age, particularly appealing to one whose home had +been in the West. Handsome houses and charming cottages bespoke their +attention as they walked through the wide avenue with double rows of +elms on either side, and grass-plots separating the walks from the +highway. Just to wander under that leafy arch of a June morning, with +glimpses of blue sky and white cloud, was a sensation that made the +thought of New York appalling. Cousin Julia had, indeed, spoken once +of going to the shore; but who wanted to go to the shore! For herself, +nothing seemed so attractive as tall old trees, abundance of green +turf, New England, and—<I>Enderby</I>! +</P> + +<P> +And all the while she became more aware of the unconscious appeal on +the part of Mr. Middleton. As they went on, more and more the girl +felt how eagerly he had looked forward to the coming of his niece, how +he had anticipated her companionship. And she understood dimly that +his eagerness to show her the finer points of everything was not only +the desire to make her share his enthusiasm, but a desire to begin at +once—to start out friends and companions. +</P> + +<P> +She returned only the more oppressed by the sense of remissness—of +remorse. Kate met her at the door of the chamber she had occupied and +proudly ushered her in. A real transformation had taken place. Kate +could accomplish wonders when she set out, and the great handsome room +had been so thoroughly swept and garnished that everything was like +new, only with the sense of the dignity of age. The clothes-press, +too, had been cleared out (at the expense of the corresponding one in +the chamber opposite!); the little wash-room shone; there was abundance +of towels and fresh bed-linen, and a vase of sweet peas stood on the +freshly laundered cover of the dresser. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie turned gratefully to Kate, but spoke regretfully. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Katy, thank you, but I'm sorry you have taken so much trouble. +I——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Moss, dear, I love to do it, and I'll keep it so all the time +if you'll only stay," urged Kate. "Now don't tell <I>me</I>, I've seen it +in your eyes that you're homesick and don't like the look o' things, +and then you ain't opened your trunk, and your dresses all packed in +wrinkles like as not. Do try it a bit longer, please, miss. I promise +you things'll be better all over the house. You know there'd be more +satisfaction keepin' things up for a pretty girl like you as would +appreciate than for a woman as lays round all the time and don't take +no interest, though believe <I>me</I>, she eats as good as any one, and I +can't keep my story-books long enough to find out how they come out at +the end if she gets her eye on 'em. All she does is to throw things +round for me to pick up, though I will say for her she's pleasant and +good-natured, and always a born lady. And Mr. Middleton don't hardly +know whether things is upside down or right side up; but he's good as +gold and lonesome, though he don't never let on. You can be such a +comfort to him; all he hears at home now is about her aches and pains. +You couldn't guess how he's blossomed out since you come. He ain't +talked so much for years, and he was a-singin' to hisself this mornin' +as he hung round wonderin' if you was coming to breakfast—<I>she</I> never +does. Now Miss Elsie, you jest stand by him. Let me tell you, you'll +run up against lots worse things if you set out to earn your own +livin'." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie was tempted, but again the thought of Mrs. Middleton arrested +her. And by the time Kate shouted inelegantly up the stair that lunch +was ready, the girl had decided to explain everything directly +afterward and go to Boston to catch the same train Elsie Moss had taken +yesterday. And if Mrs. Middleton should appear and attempt to embrace +her, she would say: "Wait, please, I have something to tell you that +will change everything!" +</P> + +<P> +That lady stood at the newel-post awaiting her. She wore a wrapper of +lavender cassimere to-day, elaborately trimmed with lace and knots of +pink ribbon. Somewhat fresher than the pink one, it was not +conspicuously so, and her hair was truly a "sight." Elsie was dumb: +she couldn't make the prepared speech nor any other. She tried to keep +at a distance by reaching out her hand formally. But it proved +useless, and again she was gathered to her hostess's heart. +</P> + +<P> +The strangest feature was Mr. Middleton's behavior. He seemed as +surprised and delighted to see his wife appear at lunch, as fearful +lest she overtax herself, as if she were her own very opposite. The +girl couldn't comprehend how one so intelligent, so refined, of such +exquisite taste, apparently, could be so blunt in this one particular. +She couldn't understand how he could endure, much less care for, this +ugly, withered, yellow, untidy woman. However, it made her own +position somewhat easier. If he were really aware how impossibly +vulgar she was, and took it seriously to heart, Elsie wasn't sure if +even thus early she should be able to leave him to bear such misery +alone. His unconscious loneliness was appealing enough; conscious +unhappiness might have proved more than she could have withstood. +</P> + +<P> +He was called from the table to the telephone. Elsie hoped he wouldn't +make any engagement for directly after lunch. If he should, she +couldn't risk missing her train. She would speak out at once. She +would say: "Oh, Mr. Middleton, I'll say good-by, for I shan't be here +when you return." And then she would explain briefly and he wouldn't +have time to take it hard while she was there to witness. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap08"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VIII +</H3> + +<P> +Returning to the table, Mr. Middleton announced with troubled face that +Miss Stewart, the librarian, was ill, and he must find some one before +three o'clock to take her place. He glanced at Elsie hesitatingly. +</P> + +<P> +"I suppose you are tired, Elsie, dear?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no," she returned and added, almost unconsciously, "Uncle John." +</P> + +<P> +"Then I wonder if I can't work you in at the library for a day or so? +It isn't at all taxing, indeed, it's really very pleasant. It's open +every day from three to six, and except on Saturday, when there's apt +to be a crowd, people drop in in a leisurely way. I could go over with +you and get you started and stay until nearly four, when I have a +committee meeting. Would you be willing to try, dear?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I'd like it ever so much," she returned, really captivated by the +idea. He looked relieved and smiled gratefully. +</P> + +<P> +"There, Jack, it's just as I told you it would be," exclaimed Mrs. +Middleton, patting a pink satin bow complacently. "I said to your +uncle, Elsie love, that a girl of sixteen is almost a woman—I was only +seventeen when I was married—and that he could make an assistant of +you right away." +</P> + +<P> +Her smile faded and her hand went to her heart in an affected way. +</P> + +<P> +"My being such a sad invalid is a terrible drag on your uncle, though +he won't confess it," she added feebly. "I often and often drop a +secret tear over it, I own; but now that there'll be some one to help +with the little services that would naturally fall to a pastor's wife, +I shall be quite content. You know how the poet says that others shall +sing the song and right the wrong? 'What matter I or they?' That is +how it seems to me." +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Middleton gazed at his wife tenderly, but Elsie's youthful scorn +increased. She was not sufficiently mature to understand that it shows +something of character to look on kindly while another younger, fairer +person steps in to fulfil duties that should have been one's own, even +though one may have repudiated them. +</P> + +<P> +Directly lunch was over, Elsie ran up-stairs—something she seldom had +done—unfastened her trunk, took out an embroidered white linen suit +and dressed quickly. She could scarcely wait until time to go to the +library. She was ready to lose the train to-day, and even to-morrow if +need be. +</P> + +<P> +At the library, she found the procedure simple and easily acquired. It +was fascinating, also, as was the great airy room; and she wandered +about through the stacks, and gazed at the books, magazines, pictures, +maps and bulletin-board in a sort of dream. It was a warm day and no +one came in during the first half-hour. +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Middleton had scarcely left, however, when a little girl in a +scant, faded frock that was clean, however, and freshly starched, came +shyly in with a book—a child of nine or ten with an anxious expression +on her old, refined little face which hadn't yet lost all its baby +curves. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, where's Miss Rachel?" she asked, the look of anxiety fading and a +shy little smile appearing in its stead. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie explained. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I think you're ever 'n' ever so much nicer, and so pretty!" said +the child. Then her face clouded again as she opened the book that she +held in thin little hands that were like claws. +</P> + +<P> +"The baby did it," she said sorrowfully as she exhibited a picture torn +across. "He isn't a year old yet and don't understand. He isn't the +least naughty, only <I>mischeevious</I>, you know. Ma says I ought not to +have been reading it while I was minding him, but you see I'm <I>always</I> +minding him except when he's asleep—and then he wakes right up, +mostly." +</P> + +<P> +She sighed. "Do you s'pose you can mend it?" she inquired. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, indeed," returned Elsie promptly, and smiled involuntarily. +</P> + +<P> +The child fingered her frock. "Miss Rachel would scold," she faltered, +</P> + +<P> +Elsie didn't know what to say. Neither did she understand why tears +should come to her eyes, except that the little girl was so small, so +thin, so clean and sweet, and so very childish in spite of her +responsibility. +</P> + +<P> +She found some gummed paper, cut a strip, brought the torn edges +carefully together and mended the picture as neatly as if she had not +been a week ago as helpless an able-bodied girl of her age as there was +anywhere to be found. Her sense of satisfaction was certainly +commensurate, perhaps extravagant. +</P> + +<P> +"There! Miss Stewart will never know," she said. "Do you want another +book now?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, please; but—is it right for Miss Rachel not to know?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie considered. "Perhaps not," she admitted, "but at any rate she +won't mind since it looks as well as before." +</P> + +<P> +"And I'll be very careful after this," added the child. +</P> + +<P> +She selected another volume from the children's shelf, and having had +it charged, turned to go. But somehow Elsie was loath to have her. +</P> + +<P> +"Why don't you sit down at the table and look at the picture papers?" +she suggested. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I've got to mind the baby," said Mattie—Mattie Howe was the name +on her card. "I must be home when he wakes up. Good-by." +</P> + +<P> +She started—came back—stood irresolute. +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you for mending the book so good—so <I>goodly</I>," she said shyly, +"and—I'd like to kiss you." +</P> + +<P> +With a curious sensation that had no admixture of reluctance, Elsie +bent over and received the kiss. +</P> + +<P> +"You're prettier than the princess," the little girl declared, and ran +away with her book. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Marley hardly knew what would have happened if an elderly lady +hadn't come in at that moment and asked for "Cruden's Concordance." +She had some difficulty in finding it, but the lady was very pleasant +and grateful, and after that there was a constant succession of +visitors. Many children came in, all attractive, to Elsie's surprise, +though none so appealing as Mattie Howe; and older people in surprising +numbers, considering Mr. Middleton's prophecy. +</P> + +<P> +But word had somehow gone round that the minister's niece was "tending +library," and things being rather dull in the midsummer pause of most +of the activities of the place, no doubt more than one came out of +curiosity. +</P> + +<P> +It was a very friendly curiosity, however, expressed in the pleasantest +manner, and Elsie found herself responding to their advances without +knowing how. She wondered at herself. The girl did not realize that +being in the library made a difference. It was her first experience of +work, or of doing anything whatever for any one else, so that even the +service of getting out books for another established a sort of +relationship between them. At the close of the afternoon, though +tired, she was strangely happy. +</P> + +<P> +But she couldn't understand it—didn't know herself. She found herself +wondering who the stranger was who had worn her frock and occupied the +chair of the librarian that afternoon. Grandmother Pritchard wouldn't +have recognized her, nor Aunt Ellen. Had she, in assuming another +name, changed her nature also? +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap09"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER IX +</H3> + +<P> +Shortly before the death of her aunt in California, Miss Julia +Pritchard had made up her mind to give up her position at the city desk +on her fiftieth birthday, and retire to some pleasant country town to +pass the remainder of her life quietly, in friendly intercourse with +her neighbors. She felt that she had more than enough to "see her +through," as the phrase is, very comfortably. She had worked for over +thirty years, her responsibilities and salary increasing periodically; +and though she had lived and dressed well and given liberally, she had +added each year to a small inheritance that had come to her through her +grandfather, and had gained further by judicious investment. +</P> + +<P> +But when both her aunt and cousin died, and she was left guardian of +the sixteen-year-old Elsie Marley, whose inheritance was small, Miss +Pritchard decided to remain where she was a few years longer. It +wasn't imperative, indeed, yet she felt that the last little Pritchard +should have the best chance she could give her, and until she should +have put her on her feet, the woman of fifty, who was strong and well +and at the height of her powers, would gladly remain in harness. Her +announcement to this effect was hailed with delight at the office, and +another increase made in her salary so substantial that she declared +she ought to adopt a whole family. +</P> + +<P> +Though the sacrifice was greater than any one dreamed, nevertheless she +made it quietly and cheerfully, expecting no reward nor desiring any. +She didn't expect much of Elsie Marley, indeed, recollecting the +atmosphere of the household in which the girl had been reared, which +she had herself found impossibly stifling during a short visit there +fifteen years before. +</P> + +<P> +At that time her Cousin Augusta had been living with her husband and +baby in Portland, Oregon. What with her knowledge of the Pritchards in +general, however, her observation of that stereotyped family after a +long interval of years, and their intense anxiety lest the one +descendant of that branch become in any way a Marley rather than a +Pritchard, she was able to gather a very fair idea of what Elsie's +upbringing must have been. Unless she might have inherited a sense of +humor from the Marley side (which was unlikely, since no one possessing +a sense of humor would have married Augusta Pritchard), the girl could +hardly have escaped becoming a prig at the mildest. Cold, colorless, +correct, self-sufficient, Elsie Pritchard would doubtless make her +mother's cousin feel keenly her fifty years, her lack of grace, and her +general and utter lack of claim to the royal name she bore. +</P> + +<P> +On the other hand, she was also, willy-nilly, Elsie <I>Marley</I>, and she +was only sixteen. She couldn't have, at that age, completely compassed +the woodenness of her adult relations. She might still be amenable to +change, to development. In any event, as Miss Pritchard remarked to a +friend in the office, any sort of young female connection cannot but be +welcome to the heart of a lonely spinster who reaches her half-century +milestone on midsummer's day. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard occupied two large, handsome rooms on the second floor +of a boarding-house near Fifth Avenue, a few blocks from the lower end +of Central Park. In preparation for the young girl, she had the large +alcove of the parlor shut off by curtains and her bed and +dressing-table moved into it, and gave over her bedroom to Elsie. She +spent much time and thought and not a little money in making it an +inviting and attractive place for a girl, and would have felt quite +satisfied had it not been for her remembrance of the rather heavy but +stately elegance of the mansion in San Francisco. +</P> + +<P> +On the June day on which Elsie was expected, Miss Pritchard confessed +to the friend at the office to whom she had spoken before, that she was +beginning to feel nervous. +</P> + +<P> +"I almost wish she weren't coming until a week later," she said. "Do +you know, I think if I had actually passed my fiftieth birthday, I +might feel somehow more solid and fortified. It's really an ordeal for +an old-fashioned woman like myself to encounter the modern girl of +sixteen. Fifty might pull through, but oh, dear, what of forty-nine +plus?" +</P> + +<P> +She was interrupted by the telephone. A telegram which had come to the +boarding-house for her was read to her. She was smiling as she hung up +the receiver. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, what do you think!" she cried. "My young relative has decided +for some reason to take a later train and has telegraphed me to that +effect. Now there's something rather alert and self-reliant about +that. That girl must have something in her, after all. I can no more +imagine her mother or any of the family getting off at any stage of a +through journey than I could fancy myself not getting off for a fire or +an earthquake or, perhaps, for a wild West show. At the very least, +there's a sort of suppleness of mind indicated." +</P> + +<P> +She stood that evening in the station watching the throng emerging from +the coaches of the train her cousin had given as hers. A tall, +straight woman, large without being stout, her plain face, with large, +irregular features, framed in plainly parted iron-grey hair, was +singularly strong and fine, and her grey eyes betokened experience +bravely met. As she scanned the face of every young girl in the +procession, there was something so staunch and true in her appearance +as to make it almost striking. +</P> + +<P> +Then on a sudden, right in the midst of it, for a moment she forgot all +about Elsie Marley, and what she was standing there for, in the vision +that confronted her and surprisingly and instantaneously took her +romantic heart by storm. A young girl came straight toward her—such a +piquant, sparkling, buoyant young thing as she had never seen before—a +small, slender, dark-eyed creature with short brown hair cut square +like a little boy's and a charming mouth flanked by dimples that were +almost like pockets. +</P> + +<P> +So much she took in in that one long glance. Then, recovering herself, +fearful lest she had been lost to all else about her longer than she +knew, she glanced anxiously about for the fair, pale little Pritchard. +But the radiant child stopped short before her and looked up into her +face. +</P> + +<P> +"Cousin Julia?" she asked in the sweetest voice Miss Pritchard had ever +heard. She smiled half-shyly and the dimples deepened. +</P> + +<P> +For a single instant, Miss Pritchard stood still and stared at the +girl, not so much incredulous as stunned. Then she cried out: +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie—Elsie Marley?" +</P> + +<P> +"Sure," said the smiling child, holding out her hand. Miss Pritchard +gathered her to her heart. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap10"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER X +</H3> + +<P> +From that moment, all idea of sacrifice vanished forever. Miss +Pritchard felt suddenly, amazingly, and incomparably blessed. Her +realization that the girl's charming face and figure were matched by a +most lovable personality came so quickly as to seem instantaneous. In +very truth, Elsie's bubbling gayety and sweetness of disposition were +as natural and inseparable as her very dimples. +</P> + +<P> +At once, Miss Pritchard's life took on new color, new meaning. The +change for her was far greater than if she had carried out her former +intention and gone from work in the city to leisure in the country. +She was in a new, strange, wonderful country where life was +interesting, even thrilling, beyond anything she had ever known. She +had not dreamed that youth could be at once so gay and blithe and yet +so simple and generous, so spontaneous, so affectionately considerate +of the older and the less richly endowed. +</P> + +<P> +For her part, the eager, warm-hearted girl adored Miss Pritchard almost +at sight. The strength and sincerity of the woman, her utter +unselfishness, her wisdom, her humor, and her keen intelligence +combined to make her the most impressive personality the sensitive +young girl had ever encountered. Quite untroubled by the ethical +aspect of the situation, she gave herself up to it wholly, only +troubled lest she had gotten the better part of the exchange she had +made with the real Elsie Marley; lest she be cheating the other out of +companionship with this wonderful Cousin Julia. +</P> + +<P> +No difficulty offered itself. Keen as she was, Miss Pritchard was +without shadow of suspicion. Stare as she would, she couldn't discover +any slightest resemblance to the Pritchards in the girl, yet she drew +only the one conclusion. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie, you must be altogether a Marley," she said to her as they sat +happily together on the third evening after the girl's arrival. And +her voice indicated that she was quite satisfied to have it so. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm certainly no Pritchard," returned Elsie coolly, and not without +enjoyment, "begging your pardon, Cousin Julia." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, of course, I ought to regret it, you being the last of the +family; but I'm afraid I don't," returned Miss Pritchard. "You see I +rather dreaded your coming as that of a double-dyed Pritchard. The +Pritchards of my father's generation were pretty stiff, I confess, +heavy and solemn and rather pompous. My mother who was a Moore, as no +doubt you have heard, had a strong sense of humor, and didn't bring me +up in very great awe of the family. She was thankful I didn't take +after them, and so have I always been. I often think, what a +misfortune had I had to have a Pritchard as a bedfellow and roommate +all these years, as I must have had if I had taken after my father—who +was, I believe, however, the mildest of the Pritchards, and very much +altered by my mother's influence. And girls are usually like papa—as +you are—and boys like mamma, they say. Surely, no girl could be less +like her mother than you, dear." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie sobered. One of the facts she most cherished was the knowledge +that she resembled her adored mother in nature as well as in manner and +personal appearance. It would be hard, nay, impossible, to give over +that solace. But she told herself she must think <I>Augusta Pritchard</I> +(what a name!) whenever Cousin Julia said <I>mother</I> to her. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course, you don't remember your father, Elsie, but do you remember +any other of the Marleys or know anything of them?" +</P> + +<P> +"Just one member of the family," said Elsie, getting down from the +window-seat. "I've heard about her ever since I can remember." And +bowing low, she began to sing: +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +"Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?<BR> +The wife who sells the barley, honey?<BR> +She won't get up to serve her swine,<BR> +And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Elsie Marley has grown so fine<BR> +She won't get up to serve the swine,<BR> +But lies in bed till eight or nine,<BR> +And surely she does take her time.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?<BR> +The wife who sells the barley, honey?<BR> +She won't get up to serve her swine,<BR> +And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?"<BR> +</P> + +<P> +The wonder and admiration in Miss Pritchard's eyes couldn't be hidden. +Elsie threw herself down on the settee by her side. +</P> + +<P> +"That's the only Marley I've ever known, Cousin Julia, but she's rather +a dear old body," she said and squeezed Miss Pritchard's arm +affectionately. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap11"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XI +</H3> + +<P> +"How very difficult it's going to be to explain now," Elsie Marley said +to herself as she dressed on Friday morning. "How I wish I had done it +that very first hour. Mr. Middleton would have understood, then, for I +had just told him Elsie liked to act; and he wouldn't have cared. He +couldn't have been really hurt as I am afraid he will be now. And yet, +how can I help feeling glad I was here to take the library for him? +And I did so enjoy doing it, too." +</P> + +<P> +She decided that if Miss Stewart were able to go back this afternoon, +she would leave directly after lunch and get the only train for New +York that she knew—the one Elsie Moss had taken. And if she couldn't +possibly explain in any other manner, she would have to write a note +and steal quietly away. It wasn't a nice thing to do; yet she couldn't +afford to let the difficulty of explaining the situation keep her here +until Elsie Moss should have become so firmly established that it would +be cruel to drag her back to Enderby. +</P> + +<P> +On the other hand, as long as she had started in with the library work, +if Miss Stewart wasn't well enough to attend this afternoon, she would +remain one day more. And if she found that that was to be the case, +she would spend her morning writing the note to Mr. Middleton to fall +back upon in case of need, and a letter to Elsie Moss warning her of +the change. +</P> + +<P> +When she went down to the dining-room, Mr. Middleton had that same air +of eagerness mingled with what seemed to Elsie assurance of the +permanency of their relationship. After a little he inquired whether +her unfamiliar work of the day before had tired her overmuch. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no—Uncle John, not at all," she replied, consciously hampered by +lack of vocabulary or of tone to express enthusiasm that was new to her. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, then, what should you say to giving Miss Rachel another day of +rest?" he suggested. "I have been afraid for some time that she's +rather letting people get on her nerves, and possibly a few days off +would be a benefit for all concerned. She has lived alone for years, +and, good as she is, has grown narrow and notional as one inevitably +will who hasn't other personalities in a household to rub against. I +dare say if she had her way she wouldn't allow a boy under fifteen in +the library." +</P> + +<P> +"She's afraid they'll soil the books?" Elsie remarked lamely, striving +to be adequate to the occasion. But somehow, he seemed rich enough to +lend her something unawares. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, dear, that's it, of course, and perfectly natural and legitimate +in its place such caution is. But the trouble is, she puts it first +and foremost. We want certainly to keep the books as neat as is +consistent with constant use, and it's always safe to ask to see a +lad's hands; but there are different ways of going about the business. +The main thing about a library is, of course, its usefulness to the +people; perhaps, most of all to the younger among them. You agree with +me, dear, that that consideration comes before everything?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, indeed, Uncle John," she said primly. +</P> + +<P> +He smiled suddenly and very charmingly. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie dear, if I hadn't known that your step-mother was a +schoolmistress, I should have guessed it," he declared. "Externally, +her influence upon you has almost blotted out your mother's. I'm +thankful you didn't stay with her long enough for it to go deeper, +excellent woman as I know her to be. As it is, your speech and manner +conceal rather than reveal your likeness to your mother, but it +struggles through for all that." +</P> + +<P> +He paused and his face grew grave. +</P> + +<P> +"I hope—I trust, dear, you didn't feel—<I>repressed</I>?" he asked +anxiously. "You are so quiet and reserved and docile for a young +girl—especially for your mother's daughter. Your stepmother was—kind +to you, surely?" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes, sir," she faltered, distressed at the dilemma. Vaguely aware +that she had an opening for her confession, she made no attempt to use +it. "I know I am—everything is"—she faltered. +</P> + +<P> +"You're just right, Elsie dear," he said kindly. "Just be yourself. +And if you have learned not to be spontaneous, try to forget it. In +any event, never repress any desire for gayety or romping or what-not +in this house. You don't at all need to be quiet oh your Aunt Milly's +account. She isn't strong and she is excitable, and yet she isn't +somehow what is called nervous at all. She doesn't mind noise or even +tumult; indeed, she likes to feel that things are going on in the house +even if she cannot share them." +</P> + +<P> +Even now, Elsie understood that this was quite true in regard to Mrs. +Middleton. There was, in spite of what the girl called her falsity, +something generous about her. Elsie wasn't herself any the more drawn +to her—or any the less repelled—but now she first had a slight +inkling of any foundation for Mr. Middleton's strange infatuation. +There was, somehow, in the midst of all that sentimentality, some +genuine feeling which for him transmuted the whole into pure gold. +</P> + +<P> +Well, for her part, she could stand it another day for the sake of +going to the library. +</P> + +<P> +"What are you going to do this morning, Elsie?" Mr. Middleton inquired +as they returned to the house after a few minutes spent in the garden. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie colored faintly. +</P> + +<P> +"Write some letters," she said. +</P> + +<P> +Indeed, she spent the whole morning in the attempt, though she +accomplished nothing. She made half a dozen beginnings of the letter +which was to set forth the scheme Elsie Moss had concocted and she had +entered into; but none went further than three sentences, and it began +to seem that that expedient were the more difficult. In any event, +before she made a seventh trial she turned to the note that was to +acquaint Elsie Moss with the situation. Here, she only failed the more +dismally. When it was time to dress for lunch, she seemed to be forced +to explain to Mr. Middleton just as she was leaving, and to come upon +poor Elsie Moss quite unexpectedly. It seemed as if it would almost +kill her to do either. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton did not appear at lunch and everything was so pleasant +that Elsie's spirits rose until she was almost gay. She talked more +than she had done since she came—almost more than she had ever done +before until she met Elsie Moss—and she was at once gratified and +appalled to perceive that she was reminding Mr. Middleton of his +sister. Of course, his real niece would remind him still more, but +Elsie knew that the wrench to his feelings before she should be +established in the parsonage would be severe, even terrible. If only +Mrs. Middleton kept her room continually! And yet, he might not like +that. +</P> + +<P> +The library was only the more engaging that day. Mattie Howe came in +early and they went through a number of shelves in the children's +department together in selecting her book. Then Elsie took the little +girl in her lap—in a curiously easy fashion—and they looked at the +colored pictures in a large book that did not circulate until some one +else came in and claimed the librarian's attention. +</P> + +<P> +A roguish-looking boy with a tousled head entered, stared at Elsie in +amazement, and went abruptly out. Returning a little later with +shining face and wet, parted hair, as he asked at the desk for a book, +he spread out a pair of very clean hands in a manner intended to be +nonchalant. He was ready and eager to talk and very amusing. Before +Elsie got through with him, she had assured him that she meant to read +"Robinson Crusoe" within the next fortnight. +</P> + +<P> +Then a lad apparently of about her own age, a high-school boy, shy, but +with very gentle manners, who started as if to retreat as he saw her, +gathered his courage, returned his book, and stood there undecided. +</P> + +<P> +"Do you want another book?" Elsie asked. +</P> + +<P> +"Have you got anything about Edison?" he asked. "I've got to write a +composition about electricity, and I thought I might start with him." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie consulted the catalogue, but greatly to her disappointment was +unable to find anything. The boy had such nice manners and such +honest, deep-set eyes that she wanted to help him. +</P> + +<P> +"You might start with Benjamin Franklin," she suggested, not very +confidently. +</P> + +<P> +"Sure!" he returned, smiling frankly. She got him a biography of +Franklin, and he sat down at one of the tables with note-book and +pencil and was soon deep in it. +</P> + +<P> +There were a number of references to Franklin in the catalogue, and as +Elsie went back to it to see if she might have made a better choice, +she saw that one referred to the proper volume of a "Dictionary of +American Scientists." It came to her that she might discover Edison in +the same place. She was pleased to find several pages of a recent +volume of the work devoted to that inventor. She carried it to the boy +and pointed out the pages with a feeling of satisfaction almost like +triumph. +</P> + +<P> +The afternoon flew. She closed the library regretfully, for she never +expected to enter it again. For to-morrow was Saturday, and if she +should stay beyond the afternoon, it would mean she could not get away +until Monday. And that she could never stand. For she had gathered +somehow that Mrs. Middleton made a special effort to sit up all Sunday +except during the time her husband was at church. If it was mostly a +case of nerves, Miss Stewart might as well come back one day as another. +</P> + +<P> +But again at dinner Mrs. Middleton was absent from her place. She sent +a special request to Elsie to occupy it, and Elsie spent a very happy +half-hour telling Mr. Middleton about the happenings of the afternoon, +hearing his explanatory comment on persons and things, and serving the +pudding. And when he told her he had seen Miss Stewart, who thought +she would hardly feel like coming back until Monday, and had assured +her that his niece would be glad to take her place another day, Elsie +was quite undisturbed. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap12"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XII +</H3> + +<P> +Elsie Marley was very tired as she locked the door of the library +Saturday night and started for <I>home</I>, as she caught herself calling +the parsonage. She had been there the greater part of the day. She +had spoken to Mr. Middleton at breakfast of going over to familiarize +herself somewhat with the encyclopaedias and reference-books, and he +had asked her to look up certain passages and verify one or two +quotations for him. The latter proved a more difficult task for the +girl than the clergyman would have dreamed; but she was very happy in +doing it, gratified, too, to realize that her handwriting was very +clear as well as pretty. And the single cause of her dismay when he +thanked and praised her and referred to her mother—or his sister—was +that she should not be on hand to help him another Saturday. +</P> + +<P> +The afternoon had been a very busy one, every one in town, seemingly, +old, young, and middle-aged, desiring a book for Sunday. A goodly +number of girls of near her age came in, sweet-faced girls who, though +they couldn't compare with Elsie Moss (who was, however, in a class by +herself), seemed more attractive than those she had seen at home. The +tall boy who was interested in electricity came again and greeted her +shyly, though rather as if they were old friends. Later, older girls +and young men who worked in Boston during the week dropped into the +library to inquire for the latest novel or to spend part of their +half-holiday looking over the picture papers and magazines. All were +extremely cordial and friendly. Without actually overhearing anything, +Elsie, who wasn't at all quick in regard to matters of that sort, +understood, somehow, that there was more or less comparison between +herself and the regular librarian, which was not altogether +complimentary to Miss Stewart. +</P> + +<P> +As she went up the walk shortly after six o'clock, the girl saw some +one gazing out of the window of the room she had first entered four +days ago, and recalled her first view, which seemed now far back in the +past. There was no one there when she went in, however, and as she +realized that the place had not been touched since her arrival, +suddenly the glow of satisfaction that had cloaked her weariness +changed to wrath. She flew to her room for refuge. +</P> + +<P> +And now real wrath descended upon her. For she found it as she had +left it that morning. The bed was not made; her nightgown was on the +floor, and the clothes she had worn yesterday scattered about on the +chairs. Her brown eyes looked darker and there was a hint of color in +her cheeks as she ran down to the kitchen and confronted Kate amid the +chaos and confusion of her own domain. +</P> + +<P> +"Katy, my bed hasn't been made, nor my room done to-day," she cried. +</P> + +<P> +"Bless my soul, I clean forgot it," said Kate in real consternation. +"I'll go right up this very minute as soon as I've cast my eyes on the +oven, though, to tell you the truth, my feet ache like the toothache." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie's feet ached, too, for the first time in her life. Wherefore she +partly understood. Her indignation died out. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, don't bother then, Katy," she said kindly, "I can sleep on the +couch to-night. And to-morrow, perhaps, you'll do it early before your +feet get tired?" +</P> + +<P> +Kate insisted upon going. "No, you don't sleep on no sofy; not while I +can crawl about," she declared, and Elsie followed her up-stairs. +</P> + +<P> +Watching her from her chair by the window, the girl saw that she looked +tired, indeed. +</P> + +<P> +"I could have slept on the couch, Katy," she protested. +</P> + +<P> +Kate looked at her—frowned—then smiled. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Elsie, a body'd know you lost your mother young. Now if I'd +'a' forgot your uncle's bed, he'd 'a' made it hisself and said nothing. +There's many young ladies as makes their own beds, and does all but the +heavy sweepin'. I don't suppose you ever did such a thing in your +life?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie confessed that she hadn't. She didn't say that it seemed a +burden to turn down the covers. Again Kate frowned and smiled. +Clearly Miss Moss wasn't one to take a hint. +</P> + +<P> +"How would you like to <I>learn</I>?" she inquired. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I never thought," said Elsie. "Why, yes, of course, if you'll +teach me some time, I'll do it every day after I get so that I can." +</P> + +<P> +For the moment she had forgotten her stay was to be so limited. +</P> + +<P> +"Bless you, you'll learn in no time; it's nothing to do," Kate assured +her beamingly. "Come here, right now." +</P> + +<P> +Somewhat taken aback, Elsie complied. She was surprised to find that +it wasn't difficult nor even unpleasant. +</P> + +<P> +"You see, Miss Elsie, I can't never go about my work and finish one +thing before I take up another," Kate explained. "I'm up and down +these stairs, up and down, up and down, from mornin' till night, +a-waitin' on the missus. When it ain't eggnog, it's beef-tea or gruel, +and then again it'll be frosted cake, icing that thick, upon my word +and honor! And once she gets hold of me, I have to stay and tell her +all the news I get from the grocer and the butcher's boy, and who goes +by and what they has on. Not that I don't admire bein' sociable, and I +can't help havin' a motherly feelin' for one old enough to be my +mother; but I don't get no chance to redd up nowhere except the +dinin'-room and his study. And then you know, I ain't no general +housework girl, anyways, I've always cooked before; but here I have to +do everything, besides waitin' on a woman as isn't any sicker than what +I be. If you knew the money she spends on choc'late creams and +headache powders and the trashy novels she reads, you'd wonder she +ain't even yellower than what she is." +</P> + +<P> +The next morning Elsie set about trying to do her own room. Before she +had reached the point of attacking the bed, she had decided that she +could save herself a great deal of work by putting things away when she +took them off or used them, instead of dropping them, as she had always +done, for some one else to pick up. Kate came in and insisted upon +helping with the bed. +</P> + +<P> +"But, Katy, don't you want to get ready for church?" Elsie suddenly +thought to inquire. +</P> + +<P> +"I went to early mass this mornin', miss. I declare to goodness, I'm +that shabby that I don't like to appear out in broad daylight." +</P> + +<P> +"Why, Katy, what do you do with all your money? Do you have parents to +support?" +</P> + +<P> +"No'm, I'm an orphan. But I don't have any ready money, and I don't +like to take what little I have out of the savings-bank. I ain't been +paid my wages sence Christmas." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie was aghast. "But why don't you ask for them?" she cried. +</P> + +<P> +"I do. And she keeps a-promisin', but money slips right through her +fingers. I don't like to go to himself about it, because I hate to +upset him, and then she's good to me, and I know them headache powders +makes her forgetful. I don't know where the money goes: she has a +fistful the first of every month, but she owes bills to everybody in +town except the undertaker. What I'm afraid of is as some of 'em'll go +to himself. The ice man is gettin' as sassy as he can live." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie was shocked beyond expression. The situation would have seemed +inconceivable except that anything was conceivable in connection with +Mrs. Middleton. The girl had almost forgotten that she was departing +shortly, but realizing it, she was the more relieved. Only it would be +all the harder for Elsie Moss. +</P> + +<P> +Still, even so, she found she couldn't dismiss the matter thus. +Somehow her heart went out to that careless, slipshod, kindly, Irish +Kate. Before she went to church, she slipped into the kitchen and +insisted upon her accepting fifteen dollars to get herself some clothes +before the next Sunday. And when Kate flatly refused to take the +money, she developed a curious resourcefulness. She declared that +unless she took it, she should go to her uncle and ask him to inquire +into the question of her unpaid wages. And Kate succumbed. +</P> + +<P> +After service, Elsie sat down to write to Elsie Moss. She didn't say +anything she had meant to say. She knew she ought at least to give her +some intimation of the situation, lest the other should be wholly +unprepared and enter perhaps upon some course that must be rudely +interrupted by the end of another week. But she wasn't clever enough +for that. +</P> + +<P> +She spoke of the place and the people and how much she liked them. She +told of the three afternoons in the library, and remembering how the +other had taken to the children on the train, tried, in her stiff, +constrained way, to describe little Mattie Howe, who minded the baby +all his waking hours and read a Prudy book a day. +</P> + +<P> +She couldn't even mention Mrs. Middleton. She spoke freely of Elsie's +uncle—almost enthusiastically, indeed—told how he had asked if she +had toothache, and signed herself, rather abruptly, "Your loving +friend, Elsie M——." +</P> + +<P> +The following morning she found a letter on her plate. She had gone by +the name of Moss nearly a week, yet it gave her a start to see the +address and to break open the envelope. +</P> + +<P> +It was a bright, amusing letter, as informal as her own had been stiff. +Elsie Moss found Cousin Julia no end jolly, a perfect brick. The +boarding-house was the most interesting place she had ever known, and +the people just right; and though New York was stifling she loved it, +and wasn't the least in a hurry to get to the shore. She expected very +soon to confide her ambition to Miss Pritchard—honestly, she was so +dear and splendid, that it was the greatest wonder that she hadn't told +her she wanted to be an actress before they left the Grand Central +Station.… +</P> + +<P> +"I'm simply perishing to hear from you, Elsie-Honey," the letter +concluded. "Uncle's a darling saint, I know, but you must tell me +about Aunt Milly so I can describe her to my stepmother. I sort of +glossed her over in this letter I enclose for you to forward so that it +will have the Enderby postmark. I came out strong on Uncle John and +the station at Boston, however. And tell me about the servants. I +know there's a servants' hall like in English books, so I suppose they +have a lot. If there's a butler, I almost envy you, for that would be +good practice for me, because most plays have a butler and a French +maid. I shall probably be French-maided to the limit if I ever get a +start, though I'd rather be a slavey or a chimney-sweep! +</P> + +<P> +"Do you leave your shoes outside the door at night? I should never +remember. The first day I was here I made my own bed! The chambermaid +nearly fell over. +</P> + +<P> +"Do tell me a lot to write to auntie (that's my stepmother); I have +always told her everything I'm thinking about, and now it will be +rather difficult for I only think now about the stage and Cousin Julia +and you, Elsie-Honey. I hope you think of me?" +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap13"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIII +</H3> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Moss, I think I can come earlier to-morrow afternoon and stay +longer," said little Mattie Howe eagerly. "It's been such a good week +for drying clothes that mother's way ahead on her work, and she'll mind +the baby herself. Charles Augustus is going to take back the last load +this afternoon with his cart." +</P> + +<P> +"That's nice for you, Mattie, but I shan't be here. Miss Stewart's +coming back to-morrow," replied Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +The child's bright, thin little face clouded. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, dear, oh, dear, these changes are most too much for me, I +declare!" she cried. "I mean changes-<I>back</I> is. The change that +brought you here, Miss Moss, was just sweet. Only I wish it had turned +into a <I>stay</I>." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie drew the little thing close to her. At the moment she herself +almost wished it had been a <I>stay</I>. +</P> + +<P> +"I wonder if that's my <I>hard</I>," prattled the child. "Mother says +everybody, even rich people, have hard things to bear. Do you bleeve +so, Miss Moss?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie looked startled. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, Mattie, I hardly know," she faltered. "Ye-es, I suppose every +one does, really." +</P> + +<P> +"Even you, Miss Moss?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie couldn't answer. On a sudden that first day she and Elsie Moss +had been together came back to her. She recalled Elsie's fresh grief +for the death of her mother and her own sense of remissness, and the +class motto that signified through hardships to the stars. Since she +had been at Enderby, things had been disagreeable enough almost to make +up for her former immunity. And yet, she hadn't been here ten days, +and she didn't really have to endure it. Furthermore, she was to +escape from it very shortly. +</P> + +<P> +"No, Mattie, I don't believe I have had so much that is hard as most +people have," she owned. +</P> + +<P> +"You are like the princess, you see," murmured the child. "But I +s'pose you feel awfully sorry about your auntie being so poorly? When +mother was sick once I felt as bad <I>here</I> as if I had the stomachache +hard." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie evaded the issue by hoping politely that the little girl's mother +was quite well now. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes, Miss Moss, and does four peopleses' washings besides our +own," Mattie declared. "Father works steady most of the time, but +there's five of us, counting the baby, and—sometimes he gets drunk. +Not so very often, he doesn't, but nobody can ever tell when he will +and when he won't, so mother has to help out. Well, I must go now. +When will I see you?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie didn't know what to say. Miss Stewart's return had been delayed +from day to day and she had postponed making her decision as to her +course until that matter was settled. Only to-day had she learned that +the librarian would resume her work to-morrow, Saturday, and she +expected to give up her evening to forming her own plans. Until this +moment, she hadn't thought of Mattie as a complication. It didn't seem +possible that one could become so attached to a child of ten years +in—it wasn't yet ten days—that one not only hated to leave her, but +even felt remiss, almost conscience-stricken, in so doing. +</P> + +<P> +"Won't you come to see us, mother and me and the baby—you'll just love +him, Miss Moss, he can pat-a-cake and by-by and almost talk and lots +else, too. Won't you please come?" the child begged. +</P> + +<P> +Even with her arm about the child's shoulders, the incongruity of +calling upon a woman who took in washing came to Elsie Marley—likewise +the fact that she wasn't likely to be in Enderby beyond Monday at the +latest. But she surprised herself and delighted Mattie by suddenly +agreeing to come the next day. +</P> + +<P> +When she spoke of it to Mr. Middleton that night at dinner, expecting +him to be surprised and, perhaps, to protest, she found him interested +and eager. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie, that's capital!" he exclaimed. "She's the nicest sort of +woman, Mrs. Howe is. She's hardly more than a girl in spite of that +little brood of five. She gets out very little, and if you would go +around once in a while it would mean a lot to her. Besides, I'm sure +you'll enjoy her." +</P> + +<P> +As Elsie sat in her room by the window that evening, she wondered +whether one visit from a person one is never to see again would mean +anything to Mattie's mother? Well, for that matter, whether it would +or not, she had promised to make it and must keep her word. And she +mustn't allow her thoughts to be diverted by that. +</P> + +<P> +For the opportunity she had sought to complete her plans was hers. Mr. +Middleton had gone out to attend a committee meeting directly after +dinner. Mrs. Middleton she hadn't seen all day. The matter of the +library had settled itself, and her way was clear. +</P> + +<P> +But somehow her thoughts didn't proceed as she had expected them to do. +She had rather looked for marshalled ranks of reasons standing at +either hand—those saying <I>go</I>, of course, largely predominating—which +she would only have to review. Instead her mind wandered, roving back +to the conversation with Mattie, and the little girl's quoting her +mother that every one has a hard to bear. +</P> + +<P> +Was it really true? She supposed it must be. Mr. Middleton, despite +his serenity, looked as if he had undergone all sorts of things. So +had Elsie Moss. Even poor old Kate had had her share. On the other +hand, there was Mrs. Middleton, there was Elsie's own grandmother and +her mother. And there was Elsie herself. She had never had anything +hard in her life until within a fortnight. +</P> + +<P> +How curious it was that Mattie should have put her finger upon Mrs. +Middleton as being her particular difficulty, mistaken though her sense +of the situation was. Mrs. Middleton was truly the only <I>hard</I> Elsie +had ever known. Undergoing a certain amount of her society and +submitting to her caresses, sometimes once a day, often less +frequently, was the only ordeal she had ever undergone. And severe +though it was, there were wide spaces between, and those spaces were +the happiest moments she had ever known. +</P> + +<P> +Now she was planning to throw away all the happiness, the delight, +because of the discomfort. It came to her rather vaguely that perhaps +that was the way with people who seemed never to have had hardships. +They evaded them somehow. And she wondered if some one else had to +shoulder them as so much extra burden? It almost seemed so. +</P> + +<P> +And yet, why should she remain and endure that dreadful Mrs. Middleton? +What good would it do? Mightn't it, on the contrary, do real harm? +The girl couldn't imagine it as being any easier as the days went by, +but in case it should, what would it mean but that she herself was +becoming coarse—even vulgar? +</P> + +<P> +In a sense, there wasn't any one now to care whether she was coarse or +not. Elsie Moss might, and Mr. Middleton. He liked her as she was. +He wouldn't like her to be different. And yet, he not only endured +Mrs. Middleton but actually cared for her, and he was as refined as any +one she had ever known, besides being so much more interesting than any +one except Elsie Moss. Possibly he would rather have her altered +somewhat than have the shock of learning the truth of the matter, and +of having a reluctant, and perhaps unwilling, Elsie Moss in the house. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Moss, too, liked her as she was. She had called her a princess. +Surely she wouldn't endure any change. And yet again—what if enduring +Mrs. Middleton would mean actually doing something for the other Elsie? +What if not enduring her—flying from difficulty—would mean +disappointment—breaking her ardent heart? +</P> + +<P> +The clock struck nine, and immediately she heard Mr. Middleton enter +the house. He called to her and Elsie went down. +</P> + +<P> +He wanted to tell her of a plan they had been discussing at the meeting +in regard to a course of lectures for the coming winter. All +eagerness, he reviewed the whole situation for her benefit, then went +on to tell her of the lectures they had had in other years, and to +compare those in prospect. Elsie, who was already learning to talk, to +express some of the interest she felt, enjoyed it the more that she was +able to respond in a measure—quite enough to satisfy him completely. +</P> + +<P> +When she went to her room again, it was only to postpone the decision. +To-morrow she would go to see Mattie Howe without knowing whether it +was a farewell call or not. The next day, Sunday, she would decide. +She promised herself solemnly that she would do so. She would shut +herself up in her room directly after dinner, and would not emerge +until she had made up her mind. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap14"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIV +</H3> + +<P> +Had Elsie Marley been possessed of more imagination, or had she been +accustomed to use what she had, she might have been better prepared to +meet little Mattie's mother. The child was unusual and showed the +influence of careful upbringing. Further, Mr. Middleton had spoken of +her as looking like a girl and as worth seeking out; and already Elsie +had had a chance to discern that, broad and tolerant as he was, he saw +things as they were (except in the case of his wife), never misstated +and rarely overstated. For all that, she set out on Saturday afternoon +prepared to meet the typical washerwoman of fiction—worn, bedraggled, +shapeless, and forlorn. She was prepared to go into a steaming kitchen +with puddles on the floor and dirty children all about, and have this +red-faced personage take a scarlet hand out of the tub, dry it on a +dirty apron, and hold it out to her. And for her part she was prepared +to take it, damp or clammy as it might be, without a squirm. +</P> + +<P> +Wherefore, when Mattie ushered her proudly into a pretty, tidy +living-room with a square piano in the corner, and she saw a tall, +slender person with a plain, sweet, girlish face advancing to meet her, +in spite of her resemblance to Mattie, Elsie had no idea who she might +be. She had a confused sense of some neighbor having been brought in +to receive her, and a vague idea of asking to be taken into the kitchen. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, mother, here's Miss Moss!" cried Mattie, then dropped her hand and +exclaiming, "My goodness, there's that baby already!" fled into the +entry. +</P> + +<P> +"I'm so pleased to see you, Miss Moss," said Mrs. Howe quietly. "Sit +there by the window where you get a view of the hill. It's more than +good of you to come. I hope Mattie didn't tease you too much?" +</P> + +<P> +"No, indeed, she asked me very prettily," said Elsie. "She's a sweet +child." +</P> + +<P> +"She's good as gold," said her mother. "And she's perfectly wild about +you. She calls you the Princess Moss-rose and makes up stories about +you after she goes to bed." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie smiled and colored. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't tell her I told you," warned Mrs. Howe, "she'll be right back. +She had the baby's clean dress ready to pop over his head the moment he +woke up." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie looked up quickly as if she were about to speak. But though she +said nothing, Mrs. Howe seemed to reply. +</P> + +<P> +"She takes most all the care of him when she isn't in school," she +admitted. "Some people think she's too young and that it's too hard +for her. But I hardly think so. She's naturally thin, just as I am, +but she's never sick, and she likes it, though, of course, like any +child, she'd like more time to herself. But she's a born mother. And +she really seems to make better use of her spare time than most of the +little girls she plays with. And though I suppose I ought not to say +it, she and Charles Augustus are ever so much better-behaved and +better-mannered than most children who have nothing to do but play—and +sometimes it seems they're happier. You see I taught school three +years up in the State of Maine, which is my home, and I understand +children pretty well, by and large." +</P> + +<P> +Mattie came in at that moment with the baby, a fair, rosy, fat little +fellow in a starched white dress and petticoats. She put him through +all his tricks to please the visitor, and then asked Elsie if she +wished to hold him. Elsie accepted the honor, though she felt rather +apprehensive. It wasn't bad, however; indeed, the confidence with +which the baby nestled into the arms that didn't know how to enfold him +was rather sweet to the girl. And when he made a sudden dash for the +pink rose in her leghorn hat, she didn't mind it at all. +</P> + +<P> +Watchful little Mattie minded, however, and took him away quickly lest +he injure any of the princess's royal finery. Then the mother took him +from her, that the little girl might have the major part of Miss Moss's +attention. For the same reason she forbore to call in the other two +children, little girls of five and seven, who were playing with dolls +in the yard. +</P> + +<P> +But when Charles Augustus came home, his mother proudly summoned him +into the parlor. Elsie had seen him at the library—a solemn, big-eyed +little fellow with a prominent forehead and spectacles. +</P> + +<P> +When he had shaken hands, his mother told Elsie how much she relied +upon his help. He fetched and carried all the clothes she laundered, +and had recently made a new body for his old cart which would carry a +good-sized clothes-basket. +</P> + +<P> +"I don't see how you do it—other people's washing," said Elsie +suddenly. +</P> + +<P> +"I couldn't if Mattie and Charles Augustus didn't help me so much," +replied Mrs. Howe. +</P> + +<P> +The girl glanced about the pretty room, at the attractive mother in her +neat, faded muslin gown, at the thoughtful children, and the rosy baby. +How dreadful it seemed to wash soiled clothing for four strange +families! +</P> + +<P> +"Don't you hate it?" she asked with a directness rare to her. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no," said Mrs. Howe quietly. "I love to iron, especially pretty +things, and I don't mind washing, now that I've got set tubs. You +wouldn't believe, would you, that your uncle is responsible for my +having them? He thought of it himself. The first I knew of it was +that the men came to put them in. Isn't that just like him?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie agreed. +</P> + +<P> +"But don't you get awfully tired?" she demanded. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, yes, Miss Moss, I do. But so does almost every mother of a +little family. You come to take it for granted, you know. A mother +rather sinks her life in that of her children, and—after all, she +doesn't lose half so much as she gains. And getting tired—why, I know +just from what Mattie has told me about the way you do at the library +that you understand the satisfaction of doing for others, and that +getting tired's a part of it." +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +Reaching the parsonage, Elsie didn't go in, but sat on a bench in the +garden for an hour, not thinking, hardly musing, but in a sort of spell +as it were. As she rose at the stroke of six, she was saying to +herself: "I never knew life was like that!" And she repeated it as she +entered the house. +</P> + +<P> +On the hall-table was a letter from the Elsie in New York. Taking it +to her room, she perused it eagerly. One paragraph she read over +twice, and yet twice again at bedtime. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie-Honey," the passage ran, "I was so relieved and thankful to +get your letter and feel convinced that you like Uncle John and Aunt +Milly just as well as I do Cousin Julia—though I don't see how you +can—quite. It came to me the night before I got your letter—suppose +you should want to swap back? The cold shivers chased one another up +and down my spine and nearly splintered it. Of course, I should have +done it without a word, but oh, Elsie-Honey, I don't mind telling you +now that it would have broken my heart for sure. For I'm simply mad +about Cousin Julia—so dotty over her that I believe if she'd told me I +couldn't on any account study for the stage, I should have kissed her +hand like a meek lamb. Instead of which she knows and approves—that +is, she is willing. Only an angel from heaven would really +approve—and I suppose he (or she) wouldn't. At any rate, my present +job is trying to keep from bursting with happiness." +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap15"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XV +</H3> + +<P> +"Elsie, I rather want to hear that Elsie-Marley-Honey-thing again," +remarked Miss Pritchard. "Would you mind doing it now?" +</P> + +<P> +The two sat alone on the veranda of the hotel at an hour when other +guests were resting after the midday meal. Before them, beyond a +stretch of mosslike lawn and a broad sandy beach, rolled the sea, +brilliantly blue, with the waves curling dazzlingly white. Miss +Pritchard, comfortably dressed in a plain pongee-silk suit with a long +jacket, was ensconced on a willow settee with some recent English +reviews. Elsie, perched on the railing, her back against a pillar, +gazed at the far-away sky-line. She wore a pale-pink linen frock. Her +small face with its dark eyes and big dimples, her bobbed hair, and her +exceeding slenderness of form gave her such an appearance of +youthfulness that she seemed a very tall child, rather than the small +girl she was. +</P> + +<P> +"I like your manner of speaking of my specialty, Cousin Julia," she +remarked. "Pray tell me why you want to hear it again, if you have +such scant respect for it?" +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard smiled. "If you must know, child, I want to listen more +critically this time. I'm quite sure I must have praised it far above +its deserts. And now that I understand the situation I ought to be a +better judge." +</P> + +<P> +Despite her lightness of tone, Miss Pritchard was really desirous of +applying the test. Less than a fortnight after the girl's arrival, she +had learned of Elsie's desire to be an actress. The knowledge came +like a blow, it must be confessed. Broad as she was, she couldn't help +regretting that the girl's desires—and apparently her talent—seemed +to lie in the direction of the stage. Though she had declared she had +no patience with Pritchard notions and pretensions, she couldn't help +feeling that it was hardly decorous for the last of the Pritchards to +become an actress. Moreover, she feared that Elsie's capability did +not point to what is called the legitimate drama; it looked from the +first as if she would make straight for vaudeville and, perhaps, never +go further. After her training she might fill a soubrette's part +acceptably for a few years, but Miss Pritchard sighed when she tried to +look beyond that. To her it seemed like a limited outlook with a +closed door blocking the way at a point long before the age when one's +career should have reached the apex. +</P> + +<P> +But Elsie's heart was set on it, and Miss Pritchard, despite her +misgivings, was full of sympathy and entered cordially into plans and +ways and means. Her newspaper work had given her friends among +critics, managers, and various theatrical people, and she helped Elsie +select a school wherein to begin her studies. That accomplished, Elsie +reluctantly agreed to accompany Miss Pritchard to the shore to spend +her six weeks' vacation. +</P> + +<P> +"What I cannot understand," said Miss Pritchard at this time, repeating +very much what she had said before, "is, how you ever did it—how you +could possibly get any such idea into your head with your bringing-up. +For the life of me, I can't imagine your family countenancing any such +thing!" +</P> + +<P> +"They didn't take to the idea with any enthusiasm," Elsie replied truly. +</P> + +<P> +"You certainly are the strangest Pritchard ever. You're less Pritchard +than I, and that's saying a great deal," said Miss Pritchard with a +sigh. "Dear me, when I was at Aunt Ellen's when you were a baby, they +were so worried for fear you should have any Marley traits whatever, so +anxious for you to be all Pritchard!" +</P> + +<P> +"Are you siding with them now?" the girl asked soberly. "Are you +disappointed in me, Cousin Julia?" +</P> + +<P> +"Bless your heart, dear, I'm so satisfied that I'm frightened, and I +think I'll throw my precious ruby ring into the sea. I wish I could +say that I'd like you to be just so far Pritchard as not to have any +desire for the stage; but I somehow don't dare even say that. You see, +I couldn't risk losing any particle of Marley other than the +stage-madness." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie came to her side and kissed her warmly. +</P> + +<P> +"Then suppose we chuck the Pritchards for good," she proposed. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard fairly gasped. Such temerity took her breath. But she +didn't give expression to her amazement. Already she had come to the +conclusion that Elsie had not been happy at home; she who was so frank +in all else was so brief and guarded in all her references to the +family or her home life. Now it seemed as if she must have been +exceedingly unhappy, to be ready to renounce the Pritchards in that +wholesale way. And yet, how could any girl whose life had not been +happy—nay, brimming with sunshine—be so gay and blithe and girlish +and care-free as she? Could the reaction from strict repression +possibly have that effect? Could the opportunity to realize her +ambition work such a miracle? Miss Pritchard shook her head. It was +beyond her, she confessed. +</P> + +<P> +"Now you're down, you may as well do your stunt and have it over, +Elsie," she remarked. And Elsie, standing back a little, repeated the +performance in a manner that was only the more captivating. +</P> + +<P> +Then, resuming her seat on the railing, she looked eagerly toward Miss +Pritchard. The face of the latter was a study. With every line, every +word, indeed, of the simple song, the actress in the girl had come out +strongly. Admiration of the grace and skill and charm of it all, and +wonder at the extraordinary sweetness of the girl's voice, mingled with +regret at the significance of it. +</P> + +<P> +"Do you know what you look like, Cousin Julia?" Elsie asked. +</P> + +<P> +"No, my saucy Marley, I do not." +</P> + +<P> +"Like 'Heaven only knows'"—the girl heaved a tremendous +sigh—"'whatever will become of the naughty Brier-Rose.'" +</P> + +<P> +"My dear, if you exhibit that sort of keenness," said Miss Pritchard, +laughing, "I'll make a newspaper reporter of you, willy-nilly. Then +you'll be sorry for poking fun at your elderly relative." +</P> + +<P> +"It's only that I'm so used to discouragement from my elders and +betters that I'm familiar with the signs," returned Elsie. "Like as +not, if any one were to say, 'Hooray! Bully for you! Go in and win!' +I shouldn't understand. I should think they were kidding me." +</P> + +<P> +"Poor child!" laughed Miss Pritchard, but she was really secretly +touched. +</P> + +<P> +At this moment an artist Miss Pritchard had known for years, who always +spent his summers at this hotel, appeared before them. A man between +fifty and sixty, it was said of him that he had never succeeded; +younger, struggling artists said it was because of his handicap of a +fortune. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Marley, I wish I could persuade you to sing that again," he +said. "I caught a bit and a glimpse at a distance—just enough to +tantalize me." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie, who admired Mr. Graham immensely, was seized with sudden +diffidence. He was a connoisseur in all matters of art. Suppose he +should say right before Miss Pritchard, that she was only a silly +tomboy, or whatever such a gentleman would say to express that idea? +She glanced irresolutely at Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +"Go ahead, dear," said Miss Pritchard cheerfully, and turning to her +friend: "My little cousin thought I was scolding her, Mr. Graham. The +truth is, I'm the one who should be scolded. I chose the work I cared +for at about Elsie's age and went in for it; and yet when she chooses +hers, which happens to be the stage, I act the hen-with-the-duckling." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Cousin Julia, you're the only one that has ever let me even speak +of it!" cried Elsie. Tears suddenly filled her eyes, and smiling +through them, she stepped back and began the song. And this time she +put in all the <I>frills</I>, as she expressed it. She danced and acted and +sang, and, as always, she was quite irresistible. The artist was +charmed. +</P> + +<P> +"It's good enough for the vaudeville stage just as it is," he declared. +"There's only one fault." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, what is that?" the girl cried eagerly, with the artist's desire +for criticism, even though destructive. +</P> + +<P> +"Your voice is too good—altogether too good. You could do it as well +and perhaps better with a voice far inferior to yours in range, +sweetness, and tone." +</P> + +<P> +The girl gazed at him reproachfully. She had always had that to +contend with. People had always tried to "buy her off," as she +expressed it, by proposing that she become a singer instead of an +actress. Now, as always, she rebelled at the idea, and again her +vision of a public singer came to her—a very stout blonde lady in a +very low-cut gown with a very small waist (the picture had not adapted +itself to more modern fashions), placing a fat, squat hand on her +capacious bosom, and uttering meaningless syllables that rose to +shrieks. Anything but that, she said to herself! +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Graham had fallen into a reverie. His hand shaded his brow. He +frowned as he endeavored to recollect something. +</P> + +<P> +"Just where did you get hold of that song?" he inquired. +</P> + +<P> +"My mother used to sing it," replied Elsie, and Miss Pritchard +wondered. So far as she had known, none of the Pritchards had sung, +and it was difficult to fancy Elsie's mother warbling a ditty of that +sort. The birth of her child must have altered Augusta greatly. +</P> + +<P> +"It's an old nursery rhyme, I believe," the artist went on, still half +in his perplexity. "Isn't it singular about the name—or perhaps you +were named for it?" +</P> + +<P> +"I was named <I>after</I> it," responded Elsie demurely. +</P> + +<P> +He smiled, but he was only half attending. He was reaching for +something in the depths of his mind which he did not find, and +presently he sauntered on with bent head. Miss Pritchard took up the +<I>Spectator</I>, and Elsie produced the "First Violin," and presently was +lost in that. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap16"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVI +</H3> + +<P> +The next day as the artist met Elsie on the beach on her way to the +bath-house, his face lighted up. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Marley, it all came back to me, after twenty years," he +exclaimed. "Something about you has haunted my memory ever since I +first saw you last week, and the song yesterday made it more definite +and more perplexing. I woke in the night and it all came back. I +heard that very same song on the train going South as a young +man—comparatively young, though you wouldn't call it so. Do you want +to sit down a moment and let me tell you? +</P> + +<P> +"I haven't even thought of it for a dozen years," he said when they had +found a convenient bench. "As I said, we were bound southward, and it +was toward night. The seat in front of me was occupied by an +exceedingly pretty young lady and a gentleman who must have been her +brother or her husband—girls married younger in those days—for their +name, which escapes me, was the same. Farther ahead, on the opposite +side of the car, was a woman with an infant in her arms and a boy baby +of under two years at her side. As it grew late, the older baby grew +tired and cross. He wanted his mother, was jealous of the tiny one, +and finally he just howled. The young lady before me said a word to +her companion and went directly over. +</P> + +<P> +"That kid, Miss Marley, was dirty and sticky beyond words, and she was +the daintiest, freshest, sweetest girl imaginable. But she smiled and +held out her arms and he just tumbled into them. She hugged the little +beggar close, never minding her pretty gown, and brought him back to +her seat. She seemed to know just what to do—took off his shoes, +loosened the neck of his dress and all that, then cuddled him down and +sang to him until he went to sleep and after. Her voice was as sweet +as yours, and she sang the very same thing, 'And Do You Ken Elsie +Marley'—I think she sang it twice or thrice." +</P> + +<P> +Perhaps it was Elsie's fondness for children; perhaps it was because he +told the story so well; in any event, the girl was touched. And as +usual, to cover her feeling, she tried to smile, her dimples rather at +variance with the tears in her eyes. +</P> + +<P> +He gazed at her curiously. "Wait, Miss Marley, that isn't all," he +exclaimed. "As I recalled the young lady, I saw her face only dimly. +Now do you know it suddenly comes to me that she had the largest, +deepest dimples I had ever seen, one in either cheek. And I remember +vowing then and there, in my youthful enthusiasm, that if ever I +attempted to paint Madonna she should have just such dimples; they +struck me as somehow significant, perhaps symbolic." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie's heart was beating wildly. +</P> + +<P> +"I wonder—could that have been your mother, Miss Marley?" +</P> + +<P> +The girl could not speak for the tumult within her. +</P> + +<P> +"It seems as if their name began with M, though it couldn't have been +Marley, else I should have noticed on account of the song," he went on +kindly, realizing her emotion. "May I ask what was your mother's +maiden name, Miss Marley?" +</P> + +<P> +Quite upset, Elsie started to tell the truth; said Mi—and stopped +short. +</P> + +<P> +"Middleton!" he exclaimed triumphantly. +</P> + +<P> +"Pritchard," she said as quickly as she could get it out. +</P> + +<P> +"<I>Pritchard?</I>" he repeated as if he must have heard wrong. +</P> + +<P> +"Augusta Pritchard," the girl reiterated, her heart like a stone. +</P> + +<P> +The artist was puzzled. But realizing that the loss of her mother +might have been so recent as to be still a painful subject, he +tactfully spoke of other things, cloaking his disappointment at not +being able to work out his problem to final solution. He feared lest +he might somehow have blundered upon some sad family secret. Even with +twenty years between them, he couldn't believe that his senses had so +deceived him, couldn't but feel that that young girl had been connected +with this girl of the big dimples. And he couldn't but believe that +the girl knew it. Only there was something that prevented her +acknowledging it. It might be tragedy; perhaps it was disgrace? +Though, somehow, he couldn't think it. Poor little thing! He let her +go on her way to her bath. +</P> + +<P> +But Elsie returned to the hotel and went straight to her room. She +knew she would be undisturbed there, for Miss Pritchard had gone +driving with old friends while she was to have had her swim. The girl +flung herself upon her bed and, burying her face in her pillow, shed +the bitterest tears of her life. +</P> + +<P> +She had denied her mother—that darling, adorable mother who had taken +the sticky baby to her heart, and sung "Elsie Marley" to him, just as +she had later sung it to her own little girl. She had cast off her +mother and taken on—<I>Augusta Pritchard</I>! What a name to exchange for +Elizabeth Middleton! For even though the former were the mother of the +lovely Elsie Marley who had gone to Enderby, she couldn't be compared +with her beautiful mother. And, of course, her denial was far worse in +that she was dead. +</P> + +<P> +How proud, how happy, how humble, she should have been to say: "Why, of +course, that was my mother! I knew it without the dimples!" What a +wretch she must be! To have had such a mother as to have so impressed +a chance stranger that he should wish to paint the Madonna in her +likeness, and should have remembered her twenty years, and to have +repudiated her utterly! +</P> + +<P> +She felt that she could not bear it, could not endure such a weight on +her heart. But what could she do? Say to Mr. Graham that it <I>was</I> her +mother and her name <I>was</I> Middleton? Then she would have to tell +Cousin Julia everything, and she would send her away, send her off to +poke and fret in Enderby, and serve tea in a conventional parsonage +drawing-room. And she would never be an actress, and the true Elsie +Marley would be dragged on to New York. +</P> + +<P> +It would be hard on Elsie-Honey, for already she seemed just to love +that poky parsonage, and was apparently quite as attached to Uncle John +as she herself was to Cousin Julia. And even Cousin Julia—already +Elsie couldn't but realize that Cousin Julia had given her her whole +heart; she wouldn't have liked the other girl so well in the first +place, and now any such overturn would—it would just break her heart! +</P> + +<P> +No, that couldn't be. After all, she couldn't have done otherwise. +She <I>had</I> to say what she did on account of the game. Being cast for a +part, she had to play it, even though it might be disagreeable at +times. And it <I>wasn't</I> worse because her mother was dead; being in +heaven, her mother would understand and condone. How did that hymn go? +</P> + +<P> +She sat erect and sang, very sweetly, the stanza that applied: +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +"There is no place where earth's sorrows<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 1em">Are so felt as up in heaven,</SPAN><BR> +There is no place where earth's failings<BR> +<SPAN STYLE="margin-left: 1em">Have such kindly judgment given."</SPAN><BR> +</P> + +<P> +That comforted her strangely. "Uncle John couldn't have administered +first aid himself more successfully," she said to herself humorously as +she dried her eyes. +</P> + +<P> +She bathed her face and, standing before the mirror, addressed the +charming reflection in the pink frock. She mustn't expect plain +sailing all the time she warned her. She must expect to be <I>up against +it</I> frequently. She must keep her class motto in mind and not expect +everything to be dead easy. It was hard not to be able to claim one's +beautiful mother; but she was playing a part; she was on the stage in +costume, and the part-she-was-playing's mother's name wasn't Middleton +nor Moss and was Augusta Pritchard. She must keep her motto in mind +and say continually to herself: "Act well your part, there all the +honor lies." +</P> + +<P> +That very evening at dinner some one asked her where she got her +dimples—whether they were inherited? +</P> + +<P> +"Or, perhaps, Miss Marley's a freak like the white peacock at the +gardens?" broke in a callow youth whom Elsie disliked. +</P> + +<P> +"From my mother," she said quickly, and Miss Pritchard, sensitive to +the least sound of hurt in Elsie's voice, introduced another subject. +</P> + +<P> +Nevertheless, she wondered. She hadn't seen Augusta Pritchard since +the latter was a girl of nineteen, but she couldn't recollect that she +had any dimples or shadows of dimples. She couldn't even imagine the +combination of dimples with her white, cold, rather expressionless +face, nor reconcile them with the true Pritchard temperament. It +seemed inconceivable that Elsie could have inherited them except +through the Marleys; and yet, of course, Elsie remembered her mother +who had died only three years ago. +</P> + +<P> +She had to consider that the girl didn't like that fresh Jerrold boy +and had been nettled by his remark. Possibly in her indignation she +had said what first came into her mind, though it didn't seem like her. +Miss Pritchard sighed, for she had worshipped at the shrine of truth +all her life, and strive as she would, she couldn't but feel a +deviation from Elsie's wonted frankness here. +</P> + +<P> +She pondered much upon the subject and later in the summer—on the +evening preceding their return to New York, it was—as they were +talking about Elsie's studying, Miss Pritchard suddenly became serious. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie, there's something I want to say to you as an older woman to a +young girl," she began. "You will have one difficulty to contend with +that I had in newspaper work, only in your case the temptation will be +greater, and your task correspondingly harder. There's a poem of a +child-actor of Queen Elizabeth's time, little Salathiel Pavy, who +constantly played the part of an old man. The verses relate that he +acted the part so naturally that the fates mistook him for an old man +and cut off his thread of life in his tender years. Now you, Elsie +dear, concerned with make-believe—fiction—as you will constantly be +in your study for the stage, eager, of course, to use every moment and +occasion, with one subject dominating your thoughts, will need to be +very, very careful with regard to your separate, personal life. In +other words, in good old-fashioned terms, you'll have to guard your +soul. Keep that good and pure and true. Keep that sacred, above and +apart from your work, and then whether you are ever a great actress or +not, you will be a good woman." +</P> + +<P> +And then half shyly, but beautifully, she repeated Matthew Arnold's +"Palladium": +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +"Set where the upper streams of Simois flow,<BR> +Was the Palladium, high 'mid rock and wood;<BR> +And Hector was in Ilium far below,<BR> +And fought and saw it not, but there it stood.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +It stood and sun and moonshine rained their light<BR> +On the pure columns of its glen-built hall.<BR> +Backward and forward rolled the waves of fight<BR> +Round Troy; but while this stood, Troy could not fall.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +So in its lovely moonlight lives the soul.<BR> +Mountains surround it and sweet virgin air;<BR> +Cold plashing, past it, crystal waters roll:<BR> +We visit it by moments, ah, too rare!<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Men will renew the battle on the plain<BR> +To-morrow; red with blood will Xanthus be;<BR> +Hector and Ajax will be there again,<BR> +Helen will come upon the wall to see.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Then we shall rust in shade or shine in strife,<BR> +And fluctuate 'twixt blind hopes and blind despairs,<BR> +And fancy that we put forth all our life,<BR> +And never know how with the soul it fares.<BR> +</P> + +<P CLASS="poem"> +Still doth the soul from its lone fastness high,<BR> +Upon our life a ruling effluence send:<BR> +And when it fails, fight as we will, we die;<BR> +And, while it lasts, we cannot wholly end."<BR> +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap17"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVII +</H3> + +<P> +"I suppose," observed the real Elsie Marley thoughtfully, drawing one +of her long curls over her shoulder, "that if I'm going to be at the +library regularly, I'd better put up my hair?" +</P> + +<P> +She addressed Mr. Middleton, but his wife, who had of late fallen into +the habit of sitting downstairs in the evening, replied. She had +conceived a strong fancy to the girl, who secretly shrank from her, and +bore herself toward her in a cold and distant manner. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie, love, it would be sweet to do it sort of <I>Grecian</I>," she +cried in her sentimental fashion, "with a classic knot at the nape of +your neck, and little curls hanging down behind your ears." +</P> + +<P> +"Let her leave it as it is a little longer, Milly," her husband +pleaded, "for it's just as her mother wore hers." +</P> + +<P> +This was not the fact, even though Elsie had been truly his niece. His +sister had worn her hair in curls, but they had been many and riotous, +and caught at the top of her head with a ribbon; while Elsie's two were +fastened at her neck by a neat clasp, and hung as demurely as a braid +would have done. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course," assented Mrs. Middleton. "Elsie's the picture of her +mother, I suppose?" +</P> + +<P> +"She reminds me of her mother more and more every day," he said, "but +she doesn't look like her at all. You remember I told you that +Elizabeth had enormous dimples? They were so large that I'm not sure +that they wouldn't have disfigured another face; but they added the +last touch to hers—made it irresistible." +</P> + +<P> +He gazed at the fire. It was late September and a chill rain beat +against the windows. +</P> + +<P> +"I suppose if Elizabeth had had a son, <I>he</I> would have inherited the +dimples," he remarked. "I believe they say girls take traits from +their fathers and sons from the mother. Curious, isn't it?" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, my dear, if Elsie had had dimples when she came, she would have +lost them ere this," said Mrs. Middleton with unusual energy. "She's +been put right into a treadmill, Jack. Only sixteen, sweet sixteen, +and she hasn't had any of the gayety a young girl wants and needs, but +has just slaved from morning until night ever since she came to us. At +her age, she ought to be going to dances and lying late in the morning +to make up sleep, and shopping and having beaux and all that sort of +thing, just as her Aunt Milly did." +</P> + +<P> +She sighed deeply, clasping her ringed hands. Elsie was indignant, +even angry; but before she could protest, Mrs. Middleton went on. +</P> + +<P> +"Instead of which, she started work at the library the first thing and +has been off and on ever since, and is now going to do it permanently, +besides teaching a class in the Sunday-school, looking after the +choir-boys, running errands for you, and what not." +</P> + +<P> +"My dear Milly!" cried her husband, really distressed; and went on to +explain that when they decided to open the library in the evening as +well as the afternoon, some one had to relieve Miss Stewart for two of +the afternoon hours, and every one had clamored for Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +"And I love to do it," added Elsie, "and I'm so pleased that I am to +have the hours when the children are out of school." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course," agreed Mrs. Middleton, smiling; "dear lambs! I should +have felt just the same. Indeed, you're so like I was at your age, +Elsie, dearest, that I feel as if it were to <I>me</I> that you are really +related." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie murmured a silent word of deprecation, forgetting, as she often +did, that she wasn't related to Mr. Middleton, either. +</P> + +<P> +The rain beat furiously. The minister rose and put another stick on +the fire. He did not return to his seat but stood with his elbow on +the mantel gazing at his wife. Though thin, John Middleton looked +strong and well, in part, perhaps, because of his florid complexion, +partly because of his serenity. But in moments of stress he had a way +of seeming to grow worn and older under one's very eyes. +</P> + +<P> +He felt the cogency of his wife's words. He had, indeed, he said to +himself, taken possession of his sister's orphan child immediately upon +her arrival, and had made a sort of drudge of her: he kept her +constantly occupied, performing miscellaneous services for him—he +wasn't sure that he could have demanded so much of a paid secretary. +And she, like her mother, unselfish and devoted, had made no complaint. +</P> + +<P> +He spoke before Elsie, who was slow of speech and was regretting that +she didn't share the real Elsie Moss's gift of expression, was able to +put her feeling into words that would convince him. +</P> + +<P> +"No wonder you felt like putting up your curls and saying farewell to +youth, Elsie," he said whimsically yet ruefully. "Your aunt is just +right, dear, and we'll make a change at once. What should you say to +going on to New York to make your little actress friend a visit, and +then starting anew after you come back?" +</P> + +<P> +Now the color flew to Elsie's cheeks and words came. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Uncle John, I wouldn't go now for the world!" she cried in genuine +dismay. "I'm just longing to go to the library every day—I think it's +just—splendid! And I like it all—everything—so very much. It isn't +the least a treadmill, and I'm so happy doing it. Please, please, +don't take anything away; only give me more." +</P> + +<P> +He felt the sincerity of her words, and again said to himself that the +girl was her mother over again. His wife went over to Elsie, and +stroking back her hair, kissed her brow fondly. And the color died out +of the girl's cheeks and the glow from her heart as she shuddered +within herself. And presently when Mr. Middleton went to his study to +work, she bade Mrs. Middleton a cool good night and fled to her room. +</P> + +<P> +She sat by the window some time, then went to bed; but though the sound +of the rain was soothing, she could not get to sleep. It came to her +that it was very thoughtful of Uncle John to wish to send her to visit +Elsie; and how she would have liked to go if it didn't entail leaving +the library and all the fascinating round of her daily life, and +leaving him to his wife's cold comfort. How she would like to see +Elsie Moss at this moment, to confide her troubles and her happiness to +that sympathetic ear. If they could talk together, she could make the +other understand that even with Mrs. Middleton as a drawback, she was +more content, happier, than she had ever been before. And she couldn't +help feeling that she was useful, too, in a measure—that she would be +missed if she were to go to New York. +</P> + +<P> +Still she could not sleep, and presently she found herself puzzling +over a problem that had been growing upon her and now bulked big. The +truth was that already the weight of the top-heavy household had fallen +upon the girl's shoulders. Utterly unprepared and ignorant, she had +been thrust into a tangled labyrinth of domestic affairs. The more +familiar she had become with the internal working of the household, the +more was she baffled and daunted. And presently it seemed to her +youthful inexperience as if it stood upon the brink of ruin. +</P> + +<P> +Though the minister was unaware that the bills were not paid promptly +at the beginning of each month, Mrs. Middleton owed practically every +establishment in the place accounts that dated far back. At this time +the small sums she could pay on account when her funds came in were +insufficient to satisfy any one, and one and another began to threaten +Kate with going to Mr. Middleton and demanding a settlement. They +declared it wasn't respectable for him to be giving away so much money +when he owed probably more than a year's salary. +</P> + +<P> +Kate's only recourse was to her mistress, who would be temporarily +depressed, now and then to the point of tears. But shortly she either +forgot all about it or postponed consideration until another month; and +meantime she never parted with her last penny: she always kept enough +on hand for an ample supply of novels, chocolate drops, and +headache-powders, the latter being especially expensive, according to +Kate. +</P> + +<P> +Ignorant as Elsie was, it did not take her long to understand that the +household was managed—or allowed to run on—with the utmost +extravagance and waste. She had prevailed upon Kate to set the greater +part of the big house in order and to keep it tidy, and she tried to +induce her to be less wasteful and reckless. But the girl was +developing a certain sense of justice, and she rather doubted her right +to insist. Devoted as Kate was to Mr. Middleton, and attached, in an +apologetic, shame-faced way, to her mistress, overworked and unpaid, +save for the sums Elsie forced upon her, how could she demand that Kate +be more scrupulous about details? It would seem that she had all she +could carry without that. +</P> + +<P> +The girl fell asleep at last, and woke next morning with the pleasant +reflection that she was to begin to-day at the library as a regular +salaried assistant. Second thought was still more cheering. As soon +as the minister was out of the house, and she heard Kate go down-stairs +from Mrs. Middleton's room, she betook herself to the disorderly +kitchen. At her entrance Kate rose suddenly and went and peered +anxiously into the oven—which was empty. Elsie would have liked to +tell her that she didn't begrudge her those stolen moments for resting +her tired feet, but she hadn't yet learned to express her new +sensations. It was sufficiently difficult to explain her errand. +</P> + +<P> +"Katy, here are your wages for last week," she said rather brusquely, +trying to press the money into her hands. "Mrs. Middleton will—I hope +she'll pay you in full very soon, but at any rate she—that is, you're +going to get your wages regularly every week, and I'm going to see to +it so that it shan't be neglected. And always come to me if there's +anything to ask. Please don't go to her unless about the back pay." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Elsie, you're so good!" cried Kate warmly, believing she had +arranged it with Mr. Middleton. "I'm sorry I complained. You must 'a' +known I didn't mean half what I said. I wouldn't really 'a' gone to +himself about it. But honest, I ain't got a whole pair o' stockin's, +and can't wear them pumps I got last summer on account o' the holes, +and her a-growin' yellower every day and a-layin' round and eatin' +chocolate drops and headache-powders that cost good money and ain't no +benefit." +</P> + +<P> +She stuffed the money into a drawer of the table with a miscellaneous +assortment of less valuable things. While Elsie was wondering if she +could speak about the condition of the kitchen, which Elsie Moss would +have pronounced unspeakable, Kate drew near to her with real appeal in +her blue eyes. +</P> + +<P> +"And, Miss Elsie, I wish you hadn't let what I've confided to you sort +o' set you against your aunt. Everybody has their failin's, they do +say, and after all if she don't do worse than eat choc'late-creams and +munch headache-tablets, why, she's pretty harmless as ladies go. Mis' +Jonathan Metcalf as goes to his church is just as yellow and I don't +know but what yellower, and bedizened as well, and a regular shrew in +her own house." +</P> + +<P> +"Katy, I don't know what you mean," Elsie returned with dignity. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, you call her Mis' Middleton, when you speak of her, with your +voice like a buzz-saw, and it ain't because you're high and mighty with +me, 'cause you ain't. You're like a sister to me, and I ain't once +thought of up and leavin' sence you come as I did frequent before. And +besides, when you talk of himself, you always say Uncle John. And +she's good at heart, Miss Elsie; honest, she is. She'd be just as good +as himself if she knew as much. Her heart's in the right place, and +she takes to you and don't mistrust you don't to her." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, +as you call it," said Elsie, rather neatly as she believed. +</P> + +<A NAME="img-130"></A> +<CENTER> +<IMG CLASS="imgcenter" SRC="images/img-130.jpg" ALT=""Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, as you call it."" BORDER="2" WIDTH="428" HEIGHT="587"> +<H3 CLASS="h3center" STYLE="width: 428px"> +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, as you call it." +</H3> +</CENTER> + +<P> +"Oh, there's plenty of time for that," Kate assured her cheerfully; "if +not to-day, why there's another comin'." +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap18"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVIII +</H3> + +<P> +The kitchen wasn't <I>redd up</I> that day nor the next. It remained, +indeed, a sight to make a good housekeeper weep, and closets, +cupboards, clothes-presses, and the celebrated servants' parlor +remained untidy conglomerations of rubbish; but the general appearance +of the place continued to improve. Kate's gratitude for the regular +receipt of her wages was continual and practical. A chance visitor now +could enter any room in the front of the house at any hour, and there +was much comment among the people upon the change. +</P> + +<P> +It was generally agreed that Elsie Moss must have been very carefully +trained by her stepmother to bring about such a marvel. And presently +some of the creditors of the household began to wonder if her influence +couldn't be extended. One and another began to drop hints to Elsie +which became so broad that even one quite unaccustomed to any such +thing could not fail to understand. The butcher's wife, the grocer's +sister, and the draper's head bookkeeper had all but informed her in so +many words that unless their respective relatives or patrons were paid +in full by the 1st of November, they would present their bills to Mr. +Middleton, if they had to do so in the vestibule of the church. +</P> + +<P> +And they were only three out of a number that seemed legion. Others +spoke more plainly to Kate, and Elsie began to dread seeing certain +people enter the library during her hours there. The days being +shorter, the Howe baby went to bed at five o'clock, and little Mattie, +who had taken a violent fancy to Elsie, used to run to the library the +moment he was off her hands, remaining until six to walk home with her. +And Elsie, who was devoted to the child and never tired of her company, +was also relieved because her presence protected her from any but +veiled hints. +</P> + +<P> +The situation wore upon her, and finally she decided to have a frank +talk with Mrs. Middleton. She wasn't, it is true, on terms of +frankness with her, and in a sense it wasn't her place to interfere. +But she knew that Mrs. Middleton wouldn't want the bills presented to +her husband any more than Kate did—nor, indeed, than Elsie herself. +Not that she would have cared, except for Mr. Middleton's sake. It +would serve Mrs. Middleton right to be brought up short, but she +dreaded the thought of his being so distressed; she didn't want him to +give up the few little comforts he allowed himself, and she knew it +would hurt him cruelly to have to retrench in his giving. +</P> + +<P> +She wrote to Mr. Bliss, her lawyer, asking him to send her five hundred +dollars, mailing the letter to the other Elsie to be forwarded from New +York. That seemed to her inexperience a large sum and able to work +wonders. But before her letter had reached New York she began to feel +as if it wouldn't be sufficient to make everything straight for a new +start; and before there was time for an answer from San Francisco, she +was sadly convinced that it would be only a drop in the bucket. +Whereupon she decided that if Mr. Bliss sent it to her without comment, +and didn't evidently consider it a very large sum, she would ask him to +duplicate it. +</P> + +<P> +With a certain relief, she put off the frank talk with Mrs. Middleton +until she should have received the money. It did not arrive so soon as +she expected it, and she was still waiting when Kate came to her in +excitement one morning saying that the iceman wouldn't leave any ice +unless he were paid cash. Elsie produced her portemonnaie. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Elsie, I hate to take your money," protested Kate with tears +in her eyes. "I wouldn't 'a' come to you only I'm strapped myself, +what with buyin' the hat with all them plumes, and the missus after +borrowin' my last five-dollar bill." +</P> + +<P> +"Katy Flanagan, what made you let her have it?" cried the girl almost +fiercely. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, Miss Elsie, the truth is, I couldn't resist her. There's +something about her, you know—a-askin' so airy like, and forgettin' +how—goodness, the man'll clear out with his ice if I don't fly." +</P> + +<P> +Thereafter, Elsie paid also for the ice and the milk, leaving, out of +her allowance and the money she received for the library work, barely +enough for postage. But she didn't mind that; it was really a slight +sacrifice. She cared so much for the work at the library that she +would have paid for the privilege of doing it; and she had come so well +provided with all the accessories of clothing that she hadn't even to +buy gloves for another year. +</P> + +<P> +Looking forward, she began to speculate on the possibility of starting +anew after finances were once straightened out. It appeared doubtful, +she being herself more ignorant than Kate, but presently a happy +suggestion presents itself to her. One afternoon she asked Mrs. King, +a kind, motherly, grey-haired lady who taught domestic science at the +high school and came to the library frequently, whether there were any +book to teach one how much to spend each week on different articles for +a household. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Moss, I'm so glad you spoke, for I've been wanting to tell +you about our seniors in domestic science this year at the high school. +I think I have the nicest class I've ever had. We meet three times a +week at eleven o'clock, and I have wondered if you might not like to +join? Knowing that your aunt is an invalid, I thought you might want +to take the care off her shoulders, and I feel sure our course would +help you. You know all the girls, I think, and I should be more than +pleased to help you make up what they have been over already." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie could scarcely express her delight. She spoke to Mr. Middleton +that evening. He had no idea of her ultimate purpose; indeed, he did +not realize the confusion in which he lived, and was rather amused at +the idea, but considered it an excellent method of getting better +acquainted with the young people, and was pleased at her eagerness. +</P> + +<P> +She entered the class at once, found the study delightful and very +helpful, and the days fairly flew by. She was, after all, only +sixteen, and extraordinarily immature in many ways; and it was not +perhaps remarkable that after a few lessons, with extra help from Mrs. +King, she began to feel quite capable of shouldering the housekeeping +at the parsonage. But the more ready she felt, the less did she desire +to propose it to Mrs. Middleton. +</P> + +<P> +Such a step was not made easier by the fact that the latter took a keen +interest in her lessons at the school. She endeavored, not always +successfully, to draw the girl out upon the subject, questioning her +with some felicity, praising her ambition, and taking it for granted +that she was an unusual pupil and a great addition to the class. And +she constantly bemoaned the fact that it had been necessary for Elsie +to go outside for the instruction that she would herself have delighted +to give her, had her strength permitted. Nothing could have gratified +her more, she declared, clasping her hands and raising her eyes to the +ceiling, but she didn't even dare allow herself to dwell upon it. For +she had just enough strength to manage her own household (as every lady +should do), and she hadn't the moral right to use it for other purposes. +</P> + +<P> +Meantime, three weeks had passed since Elsie had written to ask her +lawyer for the five hundred dollars, and she began to feel troubled. +Of course, she had to allow for letter and answer going through Elsie +Moss's hands, but three weeks should have covered that. She watched +the mails anxiously. As she returned from the library on the +twenty-fourth day since she had sent her request, she decided that +unless she should hear that night, she would have Elsie Moss telegraph +from New York. For the end of October approached, and she felt she +couldn't face the crisis of the 1st of November, without the aid and +the moral support of the money. +</P> + +<P> +She was surprised to see the doctor's motor-car standing at the door, +and startled when Kate, wild-eyed and dishevelled, met her at the +threshold. +</P> + +<P> +"Uncle John? Has anything happened?" she faltered. +</P> + +<P> +"No, it ain't him. He's in the city, pore lamb, and it's myself is +thankful you'll be here to tell him. It's her. Riggs was here +a-dunnin' me for his money soon after you left, and nothin' would do +but that I should go up to her whiles he waits in the kitchen. And a +lucky thing it was, too, for there he was to go for the doctor—we both +forgot clean about the telephone." +</P> + +<P> +"But what is it?" cried Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +"I found her on the floor like a log, Miss Elsie. She ain't dead at +all, but she ain't come to, and maybe won't from taking of too many of +them headache-powders as I knew was no good but didn't think no harm +of." +</P> + +<P> +On a sudden, without warning, Kate dropped her head upon Elsie's +shoulder and began to sob wildly. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Katy, don't," begged Elsie, truly distressed. "You and I must +keep up for the sake of——" +</P> + +<P> +"Of himself, miss, I know," sobbed Kate, "but, oh, I feel as if it was +my own mother—or my own baby, I don't know which." +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap19"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIX +</H3> + +<P> +Elsie Moss's school was quite unlike her expectations, and her +companions not at all like those of her eager dreams. Just as at art +school one begins, she knew, with the study and copying of the antique, +so the girl had supposed that in studying for the stage, one would +approach it through the masterpieces of the drama. On the contrary, +she didn't so much as hear the name of Shakespeare or of any other dead +or classic dramatist during the first two months; and though she had to +work as hard as she had expected to do, it sometimes seemed as if it +were practice that didn't really count. The drill seemed to be all in +the way of suppleness of limb and facility of facial expression without +intellectual stimulus; indeed, it almost seemed as if the whole +tendency of the school was rather narcotic than stimulating. +</P> + +<P> +Further, the girls with whom she came in contact shared her ideals as +little as their pasts had anything in common with hers. Many of them +were not older in years, but one and all were incomparably older in +other ways and painfully sophisticated. Pretty in a coarse way, +painted and powdered, bold and often vulgar, they were almost without +exception girls whose whole lives had been spent in the atmosphere of +the stage, and that in its cheaper and poorer aspects. One or both +parents, brother, sister, aunt, or uncle had figured in shows or +exhibitions of some sort, and they had fallen into the profession in +that manner. None had, like Elsie, chosen it as a calling. +</P> + +<P> +Disappointed as she was, disheartened utterly at moments, the girl +hugged her class motto to her breast and struggled on. So deep was her +purpose, so strong her interest, that she not only pressed doggedly on, +but forced a certain amount of satisfaction out of the struggle. How +it might have been had she not possessed in Miss Pritchard a solace and +refuge, it would be difficult to say. Elsie herself hardly knew how +much courage and strength she gained during the evenings and other +fragments of time spent with her. Looking forward to that +companionship gave her patience to endure many a difficult hour which +perchance she had not endured otherwise. But with that always before +her, despite the hardships that were so different from those for which +she had been prepared, she was nevertheless wonderfully happy—perhaps, +happier than she had ever been before. +</P> + +<P> +Sometimes, when the day had been unusually trying, she would greet Miss +Pritchard at night with a warmth that almost frightened the latter, +clinging to her as if she would never let her go. But she never +confessed any of her troubles connected with the school. She talked +much of it, but it was always of the most interesting occurrences and +of amusing incidents. For her heart was in the matter as much as ever, +and Miss Pritchard wasn't so favorably inclined toward it as to make it +prudent to let her know of the disadvantages. +</P> + +<P> +But it was terribly hard for one of her nature to have no one in whom +to confide, and she longed for Elsie Marley. If she could have talked +things over with Elsie Marley it would have made it easier. Simply to +unburden her heart would mean much. Ever since she had been in New +York she had longed to see Elsie again; and with this added reason, and +a desire to learn more of her life in Enderby than she could gather +from her stiff and rather non-committal letters, she began to feel, +about the time that she forwarded a letter to Elsie's lawyer in San +Francisco, that she must induce her to come to New York for a visit. +</P> + +<P> +A letter from her stepmother seemed to render it almost imperative. +Mrs. Moss, who was devoted to Elsie and missed her sadly, was greatly +troubled by the irregularity of the girl's letters and hurt by their +want of frankness. Knowing that John Middleton had not approved of +Elsie's father marrying her, she began to fear lest he be trying to +turn his niece against her. Now she had written to protest against the +perfunctory letters, which, instead of allowing her to share in any way +in Elsie's life, shut her out. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie was deeply moved and full of compunction. She loved her +stepmother dearly and thought of her constantly, faithful soul that she +really was. She was always wondering how <I>auntie</I> would take this or +view that; but the very topics she was moved to enlarge upon in her +letters were those which circumstances forbade her to mention. All her +interests were connected with Miss Pritchard, of whose very existence +Mrs. Moss was unaware, with the school, and less directly with Elsie +Marley, whose name she was masquerading under. Leaving all these out +of consideration, and depending almost wholly upon the fragments she +received concerning life in the parsonage at Enderby, a brief letter +once in three or four weeks was the utmost the girl could compass. +</P> + +<P> +Immediately upon receipt of her stepmother's letter, she determined to +ask Miss Pritchard if she might invite her friend Elsie Moss to come on +for a week or a fortnight. As she waited for Miss Pritchard to come +from the office that night, however, it suddenly occurred to her to +wonder if it would be quite safe. Despite her enthusiastic admiration +of Elsie Marley, which had not in the least abated, and despite the +unfavorable impression she had of the Pritchards, which only deepened +as the days passed, she had come to feel that in personal appearance +and somewhat in manner her friend must resemble her kinsfolk. +</P> + +<P> +In which case it would be as dangerous for the well-being of the one as +of the other for her to be brought in contact with Miss Pritchard. +For, stiff as were her letters and non-committal, Elsie knew that there +was little difference in the strength of attachment that held the wrong +Elsie to the place she had usurped in either instance. Whatever she +might do, therefore, she mustn't bungle or err in that respect. +</P> + +<P> +The Pritchard estate was not yet settled. The house had been sold and +such personal effects and heirlooms as were to be kept for Elsie Marley +put in storage for the time in San Francisco. Elsie Moss understood +this, and knew that Miss Pritchard did so; but she felt that the latter +wondered that she had no relics or keepsakes with her. She had had to +confess one day that she had no photographs of her family she would be +willing to show, leaving Miss Pritchard to make such inference as she +would. +</P> + +<P> +That evening at the dinner-table—she felt it would be easier to +approach the matter in semi-public—Elsie asked her if she happened to +have any old Pritchard photographs. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, dear, I have an old album in the chest by the window that has +pictures of Aunt Ellen, Cousin Ellen, and Cousin Augusta. There are +half a dozen, I think, of Cousin Ellen, and three or four of your +mother, but no baby picture of you, nor any other, if that's what +you're looking for. After my father died we began to lose connection +with one another, and after that visit I made when you were a baby, all +communication ceased. So I got no photographs after that." +</P> + +<P> +"No, I wasn't thinking of my kid pictures, Cousin Julia. I was +just—wondering," the girl returned. "Would it be an awful bother to +get out the album?" +</P> + +<P> +"No bother at all, child. To tell the truth, I love to get it out, for +there are a lot of other pictures besides the Pritchards that I like to +look over. There's a picture of my Cousin Arthur Moore, who fell in +the battle of Lookout Mountain, that I'd like you to see." +</P> + +<P> +When the old-fashioned, velvet-bound, nickel-clasped book was produced, +Elsie almost forgot her immediate purpose in her interest in the +likenesses. But one of Ellen Pritchard at fourteen, Miss Pritchard's +cousin and supposedly <I>her</I> aunt, brought her up sharply. For Elsie +Marley was the very image of it. Rearrange her hair, put her into the +beruffled skirt and polonaise, and she might have sat for it. Or part +this girl's hair and gather it loosely back, dress her in a tailored +suit and correct blouse, and she would be Elsie Marley. What a +frightful thing this family resemblance was! Elsie stifled a sigh. +Her cake was dough, sure enough! +</P> + +<P> +Partly to ease her dismay and postpone considering her problem until +she should be alone, the girl gave herself up to the study of the other +pictures. It wasn't difficult to lose herself, for she found them of +absorbing interest. +</P> + +<P> +Among the Pritchards, Elsie's grandmother was the most striking +personage. The strength and sagacity of her handsome face, which the +expression of pride could not conceal, related her to Miss Pritchard +unmistakably. Pride, mingled with frailty and general lack of other +expression, characterized the invalid daughter; and pride that was +arrogance, the bored face of Augusta Pritchard, who was supposed to be +her mother. +</P> + +<P> +It was late when the girl finally closed the album. +</P> + +<P> +"Many thanks, Cousin Julia," she murmured rather absently, a far-away +look in her dark eyes. +</P> + +<P> +After a little she rose and began to wander about the room. +</P> + +<P> +"Cousin Julia," she said presently, "I can't help wondering—honestly, +don't you ever wish I looked more—I mean that I looked any like them? +They're mighty aristocratic-looking guys after all." +</P> + +<P> +"My dear, when you talk like that you know as well as I that you're +fishing," insisted Miss Pritchard. "I have told you that I'm too +well-satisfied. I have to watch out for flaws." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, don't you ever think, anyhow, that such <I>whopping</I> dimples +are—almost vulgar?" +</P> + +<P> +"I adore them," responded Miss Pritchard calmly. "But anyhow, you +know, they are supposed to be Pritchard. Didn't you tell that +what's-his-name boy you got them from your mother?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie colored. +</P> + +<P> +"I loathed that gump," she said. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard did not press the matter, though she wished very much +Elsie had explained or made other amends. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap20"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XX +</H3> + +<P> +"Oh, Cousin Julia, how perfectly gorgeous!" cried Elsie, "but oh, I +don't need it, and—oh, please take it back. You just shower things on +me, and I feel so wicked to have you spend so much on me." +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie, child, don't you understand yet how happy I am to have you to +spend it on?" returned Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +It was quite true that the latter was constantly bestowing not only +small, but rich and costly gifts upon the girl who had come to live +with her and for whom she had come to live. In this instance it was an +opera-cloak of rose-colored broadcloth, wadded, and lined with white +brocaded satin, soft and light and warm. The two went often to the +theatre, and it would be useful, though Miss Pritchard herself had +never owned such a garment, and it was certainly rather elegant for a +girl of sixteen. +</P> + +<P> +"Now, Elsie," Miss Pritchard went on, "I want to ask you something—I +have more money than I know what to do with. Whom should I spend it on +if not on you?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie winced. Her little face grew wistful. "Then it's because I'm a +Pritchard you do it?" she demanded. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard laughed. "My dear, how you pin one to cold facts. If +you must know, then, it's because you aren't a Pritchard. It's because +you're yourself, through and through, and haven't a trace nor a look of +the Pritchards that I love you so and long to have you happy here with +me, who am not a Pritchard either. No doubt your family rubbed that +fact in sufficiently, so you didn't expect me to be. To tell the +truth, I could never abide the Pritchards. I was such a misfit when I +visited Aunt Ellen's years ago, that I rather dreaded your coming, +though I did feel that being so young you might not be inveterate, and +that we might manage to hit it off, as they say." +</P> + +<P> +Immensely cheered, Elsie kissed her warmly. Miss Pritchard threw the +cloak over her shoulders, produced a rosy silk scarf to tie over her +bobbed hair, and they were off. +</P> + +<P> +The conversation came back to Miss Pritchard next day as she sat at her +desk near a great window whence the streets below were like canyons. +</P> + +<P> +"Dear me, how little Elsie must have had in her life to be so absurdly +grateful as she is," she said to herself. "And what a life those women +must have led her to make her so ready to refuse what meant so much to +her if it came to her as to a Pritchard." +</P> + +<P> +Which suddenly reminded her of the Pritchard family lawyer and a letter +she had found on her plate that morning with the name of the firm Bliss +& Waterman on the envelope. Not caring to open it before Elsie, she +had brought it to the office. +</P> + +<P> +Breaking the seal, she was amazed to learn that the lawyer wished to +consult her in regard to a request for five hundred dollars Elsie +Marley had recently made. He would not, of course, hand over a +comparatively large sum like that without her guardian's sanction, and +he felt constrained to add that certain outstanding obligations against +the residue of the property had recently come to light which might +curtail the income for a year. He still felt that if Miss Pritchard +remained willing to pay Elsie's general expenses, that the allowance +which they had agreed upon and which he had sent regularly ought to +cover pin-money and something more. Elsie had made no explanations. +Of course, if the money were for educational purposes, he would arrange +to send it. If Miss Pritchard would kindly make the situation clear to +him, he would follow her instructions, but he awaited her reply before +acting upon her ward's request. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard felt absolutely at sea. She was as puzzled as she was +troubled. Elsie had seemed so frank and open, and, despite her +generous nature, had seemed so frugal in her expenditure, making a +little go much further than Miss Pritchard herself could do, that she +couldn't imagine her demanding this sum without consulting her in +regard to it. She knew exactly what Elsie paid at the school—she had +insisted upon paying her own expenses out of five hundred dollars she +had brought with her and deposited. She knew, too, practically every +penny she spent in other ways, the total of which was always far below +the amount of her allowance; she knew her associates, and could have +accounted for every hour of her time. She could almost believe that +Mr. Bliss had made a blunder. +</P> + +<P> +After pondering upon the subject all day, she telegraphed him not to +send the money, and decided to question Elsie that night. +</P> + +<P> +She had no opportunity that evening, however. A certain Madame +Valentini, a former prima donna who had been a famous soprano in the +early days of "Pinafore," and who came to Miss Peacock's each year for +opera, had arrived during the day, and she and Miss Pritchard being old +friends, the evening was devoted to her. Madame Valentini was +white-haired now, and very stout, with chin upon chin; and the real +Elsie Marley would have thought her vulgar, for she rouged her cheeks, +laughed out heartily and frequently, and wore colors and fashions +ill-suited to her age and size, with jewels enough for a court-ball. +But she was full of life and spirit, warm-hearted, invariably cheerful, +an amusing and fluent talker, and musical to the ends of her be-ringed +fingers and the satin tips of her shoes. +</P> + +<P> +Like every one else at Miss Peacock's, she took to Elsie at once. She +understood that the girl was studying for the stage, but recognized in +a twinkling that she had a singing voice, and finally prevailed upon +her to try it. She herself played the accompaniment with a skill that +was a revelation to Elsie, who had never enjoyed singing as she enjoyed +it that night. +</P> + +<P> +When she had done, the prima donna threw her arms about the girl and +drew her to her bosom. Elsie Marley must have shuddered, but her +namesake, thrilled with singing to the sympathetic accompaniment, +kissed her warmly on her unnaturally pink cheek. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, my angel, what a voice, what a voice!" cried madame. "Entrancing! +marvellous! It's simply perfect in tone and quality, and correct +practice would increase its range. And when you put on a little more +flesh (here, even Elsie Moss groaned silently) you'll get volume, too. +Stop everything, child, and cultivate it. It's worth millions." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie flushed. She couldn't help being pleased by the extravagant +praise, but she couldn't bear to be advised to give up the dramatic +stage. +</P> + +<P> +The older singer turned to Miss Pritchard. "My dear Miss Pritchard, +why do you let this charming child waste her time learning to do +vaudeville stunts that any limber-jointed, pretty-faced chit could do, +with a glorious voice like that?" +</P> + +<P> +"It seemed wonderful to me, and Charley Graham confirmed me in the +belief," Miss Pritchard owned, "and Elsie herself confesses that people +have always advised her to study singing rather than acting." +</P> + +<P> +"Only because they thought it was more respectable," protested Elsie, +pouting. +</P> + +<P> +"But, foolish child, wouldn't you far and away rather be a singer—a +famous singer?" demanded madame. "You'd get into grand opera, you +know. You'd be lovely as Juliet or Butterfly even now." +</P> + +<P> +"I'd rather be an actress," pleaded the girl so sweetly deprecating +that Madame Valentini hardly wondered that Julia Pritchard should give +her her way. +</P> + +<P> +So long as she remained at Miss Peacock's, madame devoted much time, +very happily, to Elsie's musical education. She made the girl sing for +her every day, giving her assistance that was really invaluable. She +took her to the opera twice a week, where she was a wonderful +companion, calling attention to fine points that all but a connoisseur +must have missed, and discussing all sorts of pertinent musical topics +between the acts. And she rejoiced with Miss Pritchard because of +Elsie's obvious enjoyment. +</P> + +<P> +Meantime, Miss Pritchard found occasion to speak to Elsie on the +subject of Mr. Bliss's letter. She handed it to her; the girl read it +quietly and passed it back without speaking, yet meeting her eyes +frankly. +</P> + +<P> +"I confess, Elsie, I can't conceive how you should want so large a sum +at this time," Miss Pritchard began. "I trust you so thoroughly that I +believe it must be for something worth while—at least you think it is, +child. And I feel that you so trust me that you will explain to me if +you can. In any event, I have decided to give it to you out of my own +pocket. I know that you are careful and economical and think it must +be for your education in some manner, and don't feel that I am foolish +in doing it. How will you have it, check or cash?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie had been growing weak after the first surprise. She had already +cashed three huge checks (as they seemed to her), and sent them in +money-orders to Enderby: and she had forwarded a letter some time +before that Elsie had explained to be a request for money. But she was +aghast at the sum. She couldn't imagine what the other girl could want +it for. +</P> + +<P> +The tradition had always been in her family, who were always poor, that +Uncle John was rich; and though she had learned with some surprise that +he had only one servant, she had heard nothing to indicate that he did +not live in the "style" she had always imagined. She felt troubled if +it was in order to keep up with that style that Elsie Marley wanted the +money; but though she was reluctant to take it from Miss Pritchard, she +by no means hesitated as she had in the case of the opera-cloak. For +this was a legitimate case of Pritchard to Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +"A check?" repeated Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +"Cash, please, Cousin Julia," returned the girl, her dimples almost +visible. Then she looked straight into Miss Pritchard's eyes. +</P> + +<P> +"Please tell me—are you doing this, too, because I'm not a Pritchard, +or as my guardian?" +</P> + +<P> +And whether it was because the girl's heart was so set upon that +particular answer, or because Julia Pritchard was so staunch and true, +with such a keen instinct for the real and right—in any event she +returned promptly: "As your guardian, Elsie, Pritchard to Pritchard." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie embraced her warmly, whispering that she couldn't explain, but it +was truly all right. The next day she got a post-office order and sent +the money to Elsie Marley without saying that it hadn't come from the +lawyer in California as the other sums she had forwarded had done. +Consequently, when a letter came from Mr. Bliss saying that he couldn't +let Elsie Marley have the five hundred dollars she had asked for +without an order from her guardian, she felt obliged to withhold it +entirely. +</P> + +<P> +It troubled her to do so, and weighed upon her mind afterward. She +told herself that she would, of course, explain when she saw Elsie +Marley, and meantime—it was, after all, nothing but a formal business +communication, not a real letter, and of no account in that the +business itself had gone through. Still, it seemed a great pity that +there should be any concealment between herself and the other Elsie. +As things stood, she was sufficiently involved in concealment, to give +it no worse name, without that. It had been understood that she should +read all the letters that came before sending them on to Enderby; but +to keep one and never mention it, necessary though it was, and demanded +by circumstances, seemed somehow almost like stealing. +</P> + +<P> +And the worst was that circumstances might go on making demands, and +she might have to do yet more reprehensible things—things that weren't +merely <I>almost</I> like wrong-doing. Some day she might have to lie right +out. +</P> + +<P> +Well, as to that, what had it been when she said that her mother's name +was Pritchard? That had been acting—a part of her rôle. And then, of +course she constantly deceived Miss Pritchard, in a way, though not +dishonestly. That was acting, too. She and Elsie Marley had entered +into a contract, indeed, each to act the part of the other. They +weren't hurting any one: each fitted into the wrong place as she +couldn't have into the right. And yet in very truth it was very much +like plain lying! +</P> + +<P> +Elsie Moss flinched. Then she recollected how once at home some of the +girls of her class at school had been discussing a subject given in the +rhetoric they studied under "Argumentation"—"Is a lie ever +justifiable?" These girls of the "Per aspera ad astra" motto had +decided the question in the affirmative. They had agreed that lying to +a burglar wasn't wrong—it might prevent him from robbing a widow or +one's own mother—the same with regard to a murderer, an insane person, +or one sick unto death. And one and all had declared with spirit that +if they lived in England and a hunting-party should come along with +their cruel hounds and ask which way the fox or hare had gone, they +would point in exactly the wrong direction. Elsie herself had declared +that she would have said that the little creature hadn't come this way +at all. +</P> + +<P> +Not that that was exactly similar. The girl owned that however she +might please Miss Pritchard, and Elsie Marley might gratify Uncle John, +in each case it was the girl herself who benefited chiefly by the +scheme, and for whom it had been arranged and carried through. +Pleasing Uncle John and Cousin Julia was what is called in chemistry a +by-product. +</P> + +<P> +Furthermore, there was the question as to whether Cousin Julia, in any +event, would value satisfaction secured thus by indirection? +Absolutely straight-forward, as she was, mightn't she judge their +action severely, label it plain deceit, and—oh, no! she couldn't +refuse to have anything further to do with her! It began to seem as if +even failure in what she had always considered her life-work wouldn't +be so terrible as that. The girl didn't put it into so many words, but +as the days passed she seemed to have a vague sense of another +life-work which might consist in growing up toward Miss Pritchard's +standards of what is fine and good and worth while. But Elsie wouldn't +dwell upon it, for she couldn't, of course, begin to approach any such +goal—she couldn't even make a start—without confession. And +confession wouldn't mean only the loss of her chance to realize her +ambition; it would mean the loss of Cousin Julia herself. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap21"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXI +</H3> + +<P> +Meantime, when the sum of money reached Enderby, Mrs. Middleton still +lay unconscious—at death's door, it was said. And one whispered to +another that it was, perhaps, better so, that it would be a blessing to +the minister if she were to be taken away. She had been worse than a +drag upon him all these years. Foolish, idle, lazy, extravagant, she +had exaggerated her physical delicacy and given herself up to indolence +and self-indulgence, running the household into debt until it was a +disgrace to the minister and to the church. Mr. Middleton, dear saint, +hadn't known order nor comfort nor companionship for years until his +niece had come. And when all was said, she could do better for him +without her aunt. +</P> + +<P> +However that might be, the minister himself took his wife's sudden and +terrifying illness sadly to heart. He hung over her bed and haunted +her room, watching and praying for the return of consciousness and +life. Not, perhaps, his peer in the first place, Mildred Middleton had +not grown, had not kept pace with her husband, and she had truly of +late fallen into deplorable habits for the head of a household. +Nevertheless, he believed in her; loved her for her real warmth of +heart, which her veil of sentimentality did not in any degree alter for +him, for her optimism, her absolutely unfailing good nature, and for an +intuitive womanliness he believed to be eminently her gift. +</P> + +<P> +And presently when she rallied, his heart grew light, indeed. The +doctor said it might be long before she would get her strength back, +but he believed it possible that when she had regained it, she would be +better than she had been for years. He told the minister quietly that +it was fortunate she had been stricken as she had. The +headache-powders she had been taking constantly contained a drug that +had been slowly poisoning her. A little longer and her heart would +have been permanently affected. +</P> + +<P> +Meantime, before this, while she lay unconscious, the bills had begun +to pour in. Along with the domestic science, Elsie had taken up +bookkeeping at the high school, and fortified by that knowledge and the +possession of the five hundred dollars, she summoned her courage, went +to Mr. Middleton and asked if she might take the accounts in hand this +month in Aunt Milly's place. +</P> + +<P> +Pleased by her thoughtfulness, he proposed that they should do them +together. Elsie begged to be allowed to try them alone, just for once, +but he insisted upon sharing the task, though he confessed that she +would find him very rusty about such things, his wife having taken them +off his hands for so many years. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie's heart sank. She knew that practically every tradesman had sent +a bill in full, and apprehended that the totals would be appalling. +She feared, too, that it would be awkward about the five hundred +dollars. But there was nothing to do but to comply with his desire. +</P> + +<P> +At his bidding, she brought the collection into the study that evening. +He got out a check-book and they sat down, Elsie at the desk, and he by +the side with one of the sliding shelves drawn out. +</P> + +<P> +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will +have none of them," he remarked, and took up the pile of envelopes. +</P> + +<A NAME="img-162"></A> +<CENTER> +<IMG CLASS="imgcenter" SRC="images/img-162.jpg" ALT=""You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will have none of them," he remarked." BORDER="2" WIDTH="433" HEIGHT="583"> +<H3 CLASS="h3center" STYLE="width: 433px"> +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will have none of them," he remarked. +</H3> +</CENTER> + +<P> +"We'll begin with the top one—Mason," he said. "Fill in the date and +name—James S.—and now, let's see the sum." +</P> + +<P> +He drew out the bill, glanced at it, then looked sharply as if it were +hard to decipher. +</P> + +<P> +"A hundred and seventy-five dollars!" he exclaimed. "Of course that +can't be. It should be a dollar and seventy-five cents, I suppose, and +yet—it's quite plain—see—one hundred seventy-five and two ciphers. +There's some mistake. I'll just put it aside and telephone in the +morning. Leave that and start another, dear. Andrew White's the +next—no middle letter." +</P> + +<P> +He opened the next with the same confidence. Eighty-six dollars was +large for a milk bill. He glanced at it doubtfully. <I>Bill rendered</I> +indicated that it wasn't all for this month. It must have slipped by, +somehow. And of course Mrs. Middleton had to have egg-nog and cream +and all that. He bade Elsie draw the check, feeling that they must +have paid the largest first. But Elsie's heart sank as he took up the +next envelope with Berry's name in the corner. Berry was the grocer. +</P> + +<P> +"Four hundred ninety-two dollars!" he gasped. "Wait, Elsie, we'll look +them all through before we do any more. There's something wrong. Now +this goes back—let me see. Bill rendered—bill rendered—it seems to +go back a year or more. I wonder if perhaps your aunt has asked for +statements for a year in order to see what her expenditures amount +to?"—He shook his head—"No, here's a credit. And this is plain +enough 'Amount due November 1.'" +</P> + +<P> +He opened the others one by one. None was so large as the grocery +bill, though that of the market was above four hundred dollars, and the +others large, the sum total being, as Elsie had foreseen, appalling. +It did not take long to discover that Mrs. Middleton was behind in her +accounts for a year or more. +</P> + +<P> +It must have been hard for her husband to understand what had become of +the monthly household allowance she had had in cash regularly. Credit +was given here and there, indeed, but always in small sums. It must, +too, have been hard for John Middleton to face the facts, but he stood +the test. He looked weary and worn—he certainly grew haggard and +seemed to grow old; but no word of impatience escaped him. Indeed, he +did not appear to have an impatient thought. +</P> + +<P> +"This has all been too much for your aunt, Elsie," he said finally. +"She wanted to spare me, and when the task got beyond her strength she +wouldn't give in. She has been a greater sufferer than any of us +dreamed. Apparently she has had those terrible headaches almost +constantly, hiding the pain from every one and trying to get relief by +taking those strong tablets. And no doubt these accounts gave her no +end of pain and worry, and got into confusion in spite of her." +</P> + +<P> +He bowed his head in his hand and sat thus some little time, aware of +Elsie's silent sympathy. He smiled wearily when he raised it. +</P> + +<P> +"We'll give it over for to-night, Elsie. I'll see what I can do +to-morrow and then we'll tackle them again. I think I shall be able to +do something, but we may have to go carefully for a time." +</P> + +<P> +He hesitated. +</P> + +<P> +"Kate's the most faithful soul in the world, but I doubt if she gives +her orders carefully," he remarked. +</P> + +<P> +"I've started in giving them since Aunt Milly's illness," said Elsie +shyly. "Katy doesn't mind. I learned how at school, and I keep them +in a little book so as to compare them with the bills at the end of the +month." +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie Moss, you are certainly a trump!" he cried. "Do let me see your +book, dear." +</P> + +<P> +She produced it and he examined the neat items with interest, praising +her warmly and seeming greatly cheered already. And then the girl made +an effort and mentioned a sum of five hundred dollars which she had on +hand and wished he would use. +</P> + +<P> +"My dear child!" he cried, smiling tenderly, "I wouldn't touch your +money for the world. The truth is, I ought to pay you a salary as +housekeeper and pastor's assistant, though I couldn't begin to +compensate you for the better part. You have been like the daughter of +the household, or such a sister as your mother was." +</P> + +<P> +The following day Mrs. Middleton regained consciousness, and the next +day the minister went into Boston and made arrangements to secure the +money to meet his obligations by reducing his life-insurance policy +one-half and disposing of some bonds. That evening they drew checks +and settled everything in full. Thereafter Elsie gave the orders, +checked the accounts at the end of the month, and made out the checks +for Mr. Middleton to sign. On the whole she did remarkably well and +reduced the general expenses considerably. She made mistakes, but they +were few; for her mind was of the type that takes to figures and +details, and she was naturally methodical and accurate. Mr. Middleton +smiled at the neat little packets of receipted bills, docketed and +filed, but he was extravagantly grateful to her for all that. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton gained slowly. One day, a fortnight or more after she +was convalescent, the minister came to Elsie with a good-sized check in +his hand made out to her. The girl looked at him in amazement, filled +with vague dismay. +</P> + +<P> +"For your winter clothes, Elsie," he explained. "Aunt Milly reminded +me. In fact, she rather scolded me for not thinking of it earlier. +And she suggests that you get one of the schoolgirls and go into Boston +for a day's shopping on Saturday." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie paled—she had begun to show a pretty color of late. This was +her first realization of the discomfort of a false position. Long +since, Mr. Middleton had come to seem her real uncle, and her affection +for him was as deep as if he had truly been; indeed, nowadays she +seldom realized that the relationship was not real. But to accept +money from him—from that she shrank instinctively. And that proved +the difference. For though not in the least drawn toward Cousin Julia, +for all the other Elsie's enthusiasm, she could have accepted a larger +sum from her without a qualm. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Uncle John, I really don't need a thing!" she cried beseechingly, +and he had to smile. +</P> + +<P> +"Nonsense, my dear, I have the word of your aunt that you will need +everything. Kate has told her that during the summer all the fashions +have flopped completely over, so that last year's clothes wouldn't even +keep one warm. Biases and bulges that formerly came at the top of the +gown now come at the bottom; sleeves are big where they were little, +and vice versa, and collars the same. As for hats—there the +transformation is so great that I pause before it." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie laughed. "Well, if it's so bad as that, I'll spend my five +hundred dollars—blow it in, as—as my friend in New York would say." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, Elsie, I see through you now!" he exclaimed. "You think I can't +afford it, because of those big bills. As a matter of fact, I could do +it easily even if you weren't managing things so economically. And, +besides, Aunt Milly has set her heart on it. And oh, Elsie, I'm so +thankful to keep her with us that I should like to do something +extraordinary, something really rash and extravagant. Please head me +off by letting me do this simple, natural thing which is less than +just, and which will please Aunt Milly more than anything I could do +for her. Why, my dear Elsie, pray why shouldn't I do it? Wasn't your +mother my only sister and dearest friend?" +</P> + +<P> +On a sudden Elsie buried her face and wept—the only tears she had shed +since her coming to Enderby. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap22"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXII +</H3> + +<P> +Touched and perplexed, Mr. Middleton gave over for the moment; but +presently he had his opportunity to be extravagant. As soon as his +wife was able to leave her room, the doctor ordered her to pass a +portion of every day out-of-doors. This was partly to strengthen her +lungs and partly for the moral effect. Doctor Fenwick feared that if +she should revert to the long days upon her couch or bed with the +novels and chocolates, the headache-powders or a substitute would +follow, soon or late, with more perilous results. She submitted to his +dictum with resignation, being, indeed, rather captivated by the idea. +</P> + +<P> +Her husband and Elsie went into Boston and selected a rich and warm fur +coat, fur-lined gloves and overshoes, and three warm, dark-colored +serge dresses which were a great improvement upon the wrappers. On the +day after she received them, Mrs. Middleton spent two hours on the +porch with ill-concealed delight. And, thereafter, rising and +breakfasting with the others, she passed the whole of every forenoon +out-of-doors, not only with beneficial results but with continued +enjoyment. +</P> + +<P> +The sentimental aspect, of course, appealed to her strongly. Sometimes +she pleased herself by fancying that the doctor had discovered that one +of her lungs was quite gone and the other a mere fragment, and feared +to tell her. On such days her voice was feeble but breathed the same +sweet patience that her face wore. Again, it was her heart "outwearing +its sheath," as she put it. Always, however, she felt herself an +interesting and picturesque invalid, and her martyr-like expression +scarcely disguised her enjoyment of the rôle. +</P> + +<P> +Unconsciously, her somewhat torpid mental powers quickened. The house +being on the main highway, there was always something to look at +against the background of the beautiful common, and she conceived a +vivid interest in the passing show. An active in lieu of a passive +mind did its part in the improvement of her health. The tables were +turned. Now it was she who told Kate that the Berrys had a fine new +motor-truck, and had apparently disposed of their dappled greys to the +grain-man—she only wished <I>they</I> traded with the grain-man—couldn't +one buy oatmeal of him? And Rachel Stewart actually had a new dress in +which she looked very trim, though it was too long right in the back. +Perhaps Elsie could speak to her about it at the library? Little +Robbie Caldwell had begun to go to school alone since the new baby had +come. And they had a new perambulator and had given the old one to the +Howes, which would make it easier for little Mattie. +</P> + +<P> +People passing began to run up and ask the minister's wife how she did. +She was never very well; but she was so sweetly patient and so truly +grateful that they lingered and their visits became frequent; children +came on Saturdays and made children's long flattering stays; and +presently there was never a morning when she did not have some one, and +often she was not alone at all. And thus it came about that for the +first time she came to know many of her husband's parishioners with +some familiarity. +</P> + +<P> +More than one reversed their judgment, and almost every one revised it. +Mrs. Middleton was sentimental—there was no gainsaying that; she was +rather gushing. Yet she was truly kind-hearted, generous to a fault, +thoughtful in many ways, with really keen intuition in certain +directions. As people came again and again, she guessed many a hidden +trouble or vexation, and her sympathy was warm and very grateful; while +now and again she had a flash of inspiration that was marvellously +helpful. +</P> + +<P> +No one's revision of judgment was more sweeping, perhaps, than that of +Elsie Marley. Somehow her former shrinking had quite disappeared +during the long illness, and the change in Mrs. Middleton's appearance +helped bridge the way to a better understanding. The old wrappers and +tea-gowns had gone to the ragman. The new afternoon gowns Elsie had +selected were yet prettier than the morning ones and very becoming. +The out-of-door air had already almost made over her complexion: her +skin looked healthy, her color was good; and with the new fashion of +wearing her hair, she began to look attractive and almost pretty. +</P> + +<P> +She had not curled her hair since her illness, and now it was soft and +smooth and seemed warmer in color. The nurse having parted it one day +when Mrs. Middleton was convalescent, and coiled it upon her head +simply, had declared it made her look like a Raphael madonna. The +allusion was far-fetched, but it touched Mrs. Middleton's sentimental +fancy, and she adopted that style of hair-dressing permanently. +</P> + +<P> +In the morning, Elsie attended to her household duties and helped the +minister. She fell now into the habit of spending the early part of +the afternoon with Mrs. Middleton, going over to the library just +before four. Doctor Fenwick having suggested knitting as a soothing +indoor occupation, his patient sent for an immense quantity of +wool—enough to keep half a dozen pairs of hands busy all winter—and +began to make red-white-and-blue afghans for the Labrador Mission. +Whereupon Elsie proposed reading to her while she worked. Mrs. +Middleton was delighted, but when Elsie got "Adam Bede" from the +shelves, she confessed that it tired her head. "Henry Esmond" was +likewise too heavy, and Elsie groaned inwardly, expecting to be asked +to read some of the paper-covered novels she was addicted to. She said +to herself she simply couldn't: she had never in her life read any such +trash and she would have to excuse herself. Then, looking up, +something made her change her mind and decide to be a martyr. But +before she could speak Mrs. Middleton herself had a happy inspiration. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie, I know what I'd just love to hear," she cried, "and what my +poor head could take in as it couldn't Thackeray to-day, though when +I'm strong I dote on him—I always took naturally to the classics. But +now I feel like one of Miss Alcott's books. I suppose you have read +them over and over?" she asked rather wistfully. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie confessed that she had never done so, but would be glad to make +their acquaintance. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Middleton was truly amazed—as was the minister, indeed; for his +sister had known them almost by heart. They had the whole set in the +house, and Elsie began with "Little Women" that afternoon. +</P> + +<P> +For the first time she was reluctant to go to the library when the hour +approached. It was hard to stop reading. And they laughed together in +an easy, natural way that was quite new to their intercourse as each +exacted a promise from the other not to look at the story again until +they should go on with it together. +</P> + +<P> +They went through the whole set that winter and sighed when they had +come to the last volume. Perhaps no single thing had influenced Elsie +Marley more than the reading those sweet, wholesome stories at that +time and in that manner. She had already changed much, and was perhaps +just ready for the influence. Reading them with Mrs. Middleton, she +was drawn to her as she would never have believed it to be possible, as +they laughed and cried together over the pranks and trials, joys and +sorrows of those New England boys and girls of a singularly happy +generation. And, unawares, she was strengthened for the hour of trial +that was to come to her as it comes to every one that tampers with the +laws that are inherent in the structure of the universe. +</P> + +<P> +Meantime, circumstances were leading on toward that hour. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap23"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXIII +</H3> + +<P> +Late one afternoon early in December, Miss Pritchard telephoned to +Elsie to say that she would not be home to dinner as she was going +directly from the office to see a friend who had been taken suddenly to +a hospital. She was to dine in town on her way back and would be late +home. Mr. Graham, whom Elsie would remember, had spoken of calling in +the evening, and Miss Pritchard asked her to explain the circumstance +to him and keep him until her return. +</P> + +<P> +As she turned away from the telephone, Elsie sighed deeply. Mr. +Graham's name stirred up uncomfortable recollections. In any case, +much as she had admired and liked him, she would have dreaded meeting +him again; and to entertain him alone for an indefinite period, with +his undivided attention focussed upon her, seemed an ordeal not only to +be dreaded but truly to be shunned. +</P> + +<P> +Suppose he should refer again to her darling mother—as he surely +would! Acting or no acting, the girl felt that she couldn't deny her +again. Should she do so, it would be like the Palladium ceasing to +stand and Troy falling. And yet, what was she to do? If she didn't +hold to her statement of the summer, wouldn't she hazard spoiling +everything, not only for herself, but for the Elsie at Enderby? +</P> + +<P> +Too wretched to allow herself the comfort of the window-seat in the +bow, Elsie dropped down on the floor before one of the long, low +windows of the adjacent side of the room, and gazing drearily out into +the dusky street, tried to prepare herself for an impromptu scene with +the coming guest wherein the matter of extraordinary dimples or sticky +babies might come up at any moment and be skilfully parried. But +stage-fright, confusion, and tears threatened imminently, like an ugly +nightmare, and she said to herself there was no use, she simply dared +not face it. +</P> + +<P> +The temptation came to her to avoid the whole encounter by going to bed +at once. She certainly felt queer—almost faint; and when she should +be missed at the dinner-table and some one came up to see what had +happened, she could truly say she didn't feel able to see Mr. Graham, +and send word that he was to wait for Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +As she considered the suggestion, reaching the point where Cousin Julia +came in, the girl's heart smote her. Cousin Julia would be +startled—yes, frightened. What a wretch she was deliberately to plan +to cause her utterly gratuitous anxiety! And how practised, how +<I>grounded</I>, in deceit she had grown, to turn thereto so readily for +help out of difficulty! How very far she was getting from her class +motto, "Per aspera ad astra"! And she recollected a word, strange +hitherto to her, which Cousin Julia had used in the summer. She had +mentioned her hope, as she had looked forward to the coming of the real +Elsie Marley, that she shouldn't have, at sixteen, become <I>inveterate</I> +in the ways of the Pritchard family. Well, wasn't she fast becoming +<I>inveterate</I> in the ways of deceit? Wasn't she, perhaps, already +inveterate? Truly, she must be perilously near it. And oh, wasn't +this a far, far worse sort of <I>inveterateness</I> than the Pritchard sort? +And if Cousin Julia had dreaded that, how, pray, would she feel in +regard to this? +</P> + +<P> +Rising suddenly, Elsie rushed into her own room as if she were running +away from the visions she had conjured. As she made herself tidy for +dinner, her desperation grasped at a third expedient, a middle way. +Couldn't she get around the difficulty by preventing or forestalling +the introduction of any doubtful topic into the conversation? During +the time that would elapse between Mr. Graham's arrival and Cousin +Julia's return—three-quarters of an hour at the longest, she +supposed—she would keep him from bringing up any matter of +resemblances, of big dimples, of madonnas, or sticky babies. She would +monopolize the conversation, so far as she could, and direct it all the +time. At the risk of utterly losing the good opinion of one of Cousin +Julia's most valued friends, of appearing forward, conceited, tiresome, +she would rattle on like the empty-headed society girl in certain +modern plays. She would introduce utterly impersonal subjects, such +as—at the moment she couldn't think of anything but prohibition, which +would last about two minutes—and chatter foolishly and fast upon them, +one after another. Then, if she exhausted them and all else failed, +she would make such pointed and brazen references to her own singing +that he would be obliged to ask her to sing—and once going, she could +easily keep that up until Cousin Julia came to the rescue. And she +certainly wouldn't sing "Elsie Marley" nor anything that would in any +way remind Mr. Graham of it. Either she would shock that elegant +gentleman's taste with the ugliest of ragtime, or she would inflict him +with a succession of the operatic selections she had taken up with +Madame Valentini. The latter choice would probably, upon Miss +Pritchard's arrival, serve to bring up the unhappy matter of her +abandoning the stage for music, but that would be a minor evil. +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Graham appeared promptly at the hour Miss Pritchard had predicted, +and Elsie greeted him in the rôle she had chosen and proceeded to give +him a gushing account of their journey back to New York at the end of +the summer. The artist, who had looked forward to seeing again the +charming little creature who had been such a vision of grace and +loveliness as she had sung and danced on the hotel veranda that summer +day, was surprised and dismayed at the change, the almost distressing +change, that had come upon the girl meantime. At first he took it for +granted that it was the coarsening effect of studying for the stage, +but very shortly he had decided otherwise. Whatever his skill in +reproduction, Charles Graham had the eye, the mind, and the heart of +the portrait-painter; and now he read the little actress's behavior +with a good measure of precision. Her restlessness, her chattering, +the high, unpleasing pitch of her naturally lovely low voice, her +assumption of the manner and speech of the blasé young person of the +stage, he saw to be primarily the cover of nervousness. He understood +that the girl was troubled about something, was perhaps suffering, and +tried to conceal it in this way. Moreover, he felt that, whatever it +was, she was bearing it altogether alone, hiding it from everybody. +</P> + +<P> +So far, so good. But presently he jumped to a false conclusion. As he +referred casually to Miss Pritchard as an <I>inveterate</I> optimist, +suddenly all the color died out of the girl's face, the shadow in her +eyes became momentarily genuine distress, and the bravado dropped from +her manner. It struck him that there was some misunderstanding between +his friend and her young cousin. And the pain this realization brought +him was curiously acute. +</P> + +<P> +"But, my dear child," he exclaimed earnestly, "hers is no cheap +optimism. Miss Pritchard's wise, sane outlook upon life is the +courageous, positive optimism of the seasoned soldier. She has known +hardship and suffering, and it is victory over them that makes her +serenity and strength so impressive." +</P> + +<P> +As the artist paused, he glanced with searching kindness at the girl +who was such a mere child, after all. But he seemed to feel a touch of +hardness or of obstinacy in the way she set her lips. He couldn't bear +the idea of her misunderstanding Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +"I wonder, Miss Marley, if you ever heard about Miss Pritchard's +love-story?" he asked rather hesitatingly. "It all happened of course +before you were born; but your family may have spoken of it to you?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie raised her eyes quickly, regardless of the fact that there were +tears in them. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no, Mr. Graham, I never knew—anything about it," she almost +gasped. +</P> + +<P> +"Then I believe I will tell you," he said gravely. "If ever you +should—well, it makes one understand why Miss Pritchard so impresses +even a chance stranger with the strength of her personality." +</P> + +<P> +He sighed. "It was years ago. Miss Pritchard was a newspaper woman at +the time—the most brilliant reporter, man or woman, in the city, we +thought her, in the little coterie of journalists and artists to which +we both belonged. More than one of us would have given all he had to +win her love. I don't mind saying to you, Miss Marley, that it was +because I could not win it that I have never married. She bestowed it, +however, upon an older man and a more brilliant than any of us. At +that time he was city editor of one of the big dailies; he had invested +a moderate inheritance wisely, and was worth millions when he died. +Miss Pritchard was in her late twenties, and though she was called +plain, possessed rare beauty of expression that is of course the +highest beauty of all; and it was no mere girl's heart that she gave +that man. She loved him with the intensity and maturity of a generous, +noble woman. He returned the love and he appreciated her fineness; and +yet he was unworthy of her. In the course of his business life, at a +certain stage of his career, he did something which, while it wasn't +dishonorable, wasn't strictly honorable. By means of this action, +which no one else of the few who knew it deemed reprehensible, he +gained prestige for his paper as well as for himself; but he lost Julia +Pritchard. Had he yielded in a moment of temptation, though it would +still have hurt her cruelly, I believe she would have overlooked his +fault. But the act was deliberate; and though he regretted it bitterly +and to his dying day, it was only because Miss Pritchard looked at it +as she did. Of the act itself, he never repented." +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +When Miss Pritchard came in, she noticed at once that Elsie looked very +pale—almost ill. After greeting her old friend warmly, she turned +anxiously to the girl. +</P> + +<P> +"Has it been a hard day, honey?" she asked tenderly. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes, Cousin Julia," Elsie returned mournfully. And Mr. Graham +felt not only that his suspicion had been correct but that his relating +the story had truly had the desired effect. +</P> + +<P> +"I think I'll go now, and—write a letter," the girl faltered. +</P> + +<P> +"Go by all means, dear," Miss Pritchard bade her, "but don't write the +letter to-night unless it's imperative. I have tickets for 'The +Good-Natured Man' for to-morrow night, so if you can put off the +letter, hop right into bed and get a good rest in order to be fresh for +it." +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap24"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXIV +</H3> + +<P> +It was Sunday afternoon, nearly a week later. Elsie sat alone by the +window with a writing-tablet in her lap, gazing out at the row of +houses across the street. But though the new-fallen snow on roof, +cornice, and iron grating transformed the familiar scene, and though +snow in such profusion and splendor was a new and wonderful experience +to her, the girl wasn't really seeing the landscape any more than she +was writing a letter. Realizing the fact after half an hour of stony +silence, she rose, dropped her writing materials, and crossing the +room, threw herself down on the hearth-rug with a gesture of despair. +</P> + +<P> +It wasn't merely because she couldn't write the letter—which, by the +way, was that which she had given as an excuse for withdrawing on the +evening of Mr. Graham's call. It was true that writing to her +stepmother—something that had been growing increasingly difficult for +some time—had become practically impossible since that evening. But +that was, in a way, a minor detail. For everything, <I>everything</I> had +become impossible since the hour she had heard his recital of that +experience of Cousin Julia's youth. +</P> + +<P> +"There's no use," the girl cried out within herself, "I simply cannot +stand it. I can't go on so. Cousin Julia's gone to a funeral. I'll +have one while she's gone and bury everything deep down. There's +nothing else to do. Now that I know for deadly certain that Cousin +Julia would hate me if she knew, I can't go on being—as I am. Why, +what <I>he</I> did wasn't dishonest. It was only, as Mr. Graham said, less +than honest. And look at me!" +</P> + +<P> +It was true that Cousin Julia hadn't <I>hated</I> him, even when he wasn't +sorry about the wrong itself, Elsie repeated; for this was by no means +the first or second time she had gone over the matter since that night; +indeed, she had scarcely thought of anything else since. Still, she +wouldn't have anything more to do with him, and must have despised him, +which was worse. And it was also true that she would even have +forgiven him utterly if he had sinned in a moment of temptation. And +again the girl lamented bitterly that she hadn't done something even +worse if it could have been committed in hot blood, and therefore +followed by repentance, confession, and forgiveness. Only last evening +Cousin Julia had read some verses from Browning which had filled her +heart with a longing that was like remorse—something about a "certain +moment" which "cuts the deed off, calls the glory from the grey." Were +her wrong-doing only of the sort to be neatly cut off in that manner, +how gladly would she own up. How certain would she be of obtaining +full forgiveness, and how blissfully could she go on thence-forward! +</P> + +<P> +But hers wasn't that sort. Hers was the sort that goes on and on and +on. After making the beginning, there was no hope, any more than there +was of stopping a ball when one starts it to rolling down a steep, +smooth hill. And besides, it was of the very nature of that which had +hurt Cousin Julia so cruelly in the case of her lover of twenty-odd +years ago. For it was for Elsie's own advantage that she had entered +upon the course of deceit, and it was she that was profiting by it, +daily and hourly. She had imposed herself upon one whom she had no +claim whatever upon for the sake of making things easier and pleasanter +for herself—of gaining her own way. And wasn't she continuing the +imposition largely for the same reason? +</P> + +<P> +No, she wasn't doing that—at least not now. Absolutely selfish as her +motive may have been in the first place, these last days had shown her +that another element was now involved. Her longing to be an actress +remained the same. Her distaste for the idea of life at the parsonage +in Enderby had been increased almost to horror by the glimpses she had +had through her friend's letters of what seemed to her its dreary and +complacent domesticity. Nevertheless, at this moment she felt that she +would give up the former and accept the latter without a murmur if she +could thereby measure up to Cousin Julia's standard, and yet, in the +process, hurt neither her nor Elsie Marley. +</P> + +<P> +But there was no blinking the fact that Cousin Julia's heart was so +bound up in her that the discovery of her duplicity would wound her +cruelly; indeed, Elsie couldn't bear to contemplate what it would mean +to her. As for Elsie Marley—she was apparently, for her part, equally +bound up in the Middletons, and the shock and change would be terribly +painful to her. Moreover, she was, in a way, almost as innocent as +Cousin Julia herself. Her masquerading was only masquerading. She had +only accepted, in her sweet, docile manner, her part in the plan that +Elsie had made to further her own interests. The wrong was all her +own, truly; but any attempt to undo it would hurt the innocent Elsie at +least equally. +</P> + +<P> +What could she do? Was she really, as it seemed, bound hand and foot? +The girl wrung her hands, and there was no thought of the dramatic in +the gesture. Must her punishment be to keep on and on with her +wrong-doing, with the consciousness, increasingly more painful, of +deceiving Cousin Julia, of being, not only <I>not</I> the person she +believed her to be, but exactly the sort of person she most despised? +Could that be her fate? +</P> + +<P> +Looking ahead, Elsie said to herself she couldn't stand it—not now. +Before, she had had her uncomfortable moments; but since that talk with +Mr. Graham she had had no moment that wasn't agony. He had roused her +out of her dream of making things right by calling them so. And yet, +less than ever since that knowledge had come to her, was she ready to +hurt Cousin Julia, as confession or discovery would hurt her. Could it +be that it was impossible for her to straighten out her own conscience +without wounding the hearts of others? Was there no way whereby she +could make things right without involving Elsie Marley and Cousin Julia +in misery? +</P> + +<P> +Staring wretchedly into the fire, the girl was unaware that she was +grappling with a big moral problem: that her personal perplexity was a +part of the old problem of evil: that what daunted her was the old +paradox that has confronted mankind since before the time of Job. She +understood dimly that the lines between good and ill do not converge +any more than unmoral geometrical parallels; but she still felt that it +must be possible to limit the consequences of wrong-doing to the +evil-doer so that the innocent should wholly escape. +</P> + +<P> +But what, short of her own death, would bring that about? In that +event, indeed, Cousin Julia's natural grief would not be bitterly +painful; and Elsie Marley would simply go on as she was. But she +wasn't likely to die, and besides, wretched as she was, she didn't want +to. And even if she did, she wouldn't be so wicked or so cowardly as +to do anything to hasten her end. +</P> + +<P> +But her consideration of that solution of her problem made way for +another. On a sudden a substitute solution presented itself to her +mind. Having gone so far, it was but natural that the girl's dramatic +instinct and her familiarity with romance and melodrama should suggest +something that would answer the purpose of death without occasioning +the same measure of pain—namely, her own disappearance. And the +suggestion no sooner appeared than it was accepted. Before Miss +Pritchard returned the idea was already so familiar as to seem to be of +long standing. +</P> + +<P> +Her mind was quick and her invention fertile, and before she slept that +night her plans were well along. She was to lose herself +utterly—where and how she would determine later. She would, at the +proper moment, disappear absolutely and mysteriously, yet not without +leaving behind her satisfactory and reassuring explanation for the two +persons to whom it would mean most—nay, three—she mustn't forget her +stepmother. She would write to Elsie Marley that she had felt obliged +to take the step for the sake of her own future, and would entreat her +to go on as she was and never to let any one know what had happened. +And she would leave a long letter for Cousin Julia to discover on her +return from the office the day of her departure. She would tell her +how she loved her—better than any one else she had ever known except +her mother—and how she had never been so happy in her life as with +her. Then she would make the same enigmatical but satisfactory +reference to her future and how it made the step imperative, adding +that if Cousin Julia could understand, she would agree that she +couldn't have done otherwise. +</P> + +<P> +When she had reached this point, Elsie's heart sank. Disappearance +might be preferable to death, but it seemed as if it were going to be +quite as painful. But only for her, and after all, that was where the +pain belonged. The girl cried herself to sleep that night, but she +woke next morning with a sense of relief so active and positive that it +seemed like refreshment and almost like joy. She realized why it was: +her mind hadn't been wholly at ease before since the day in the summer +when she had first seen Mr. Graham, and for the past days she had lived +in torture. The removal of the burden was almost like unsnapping the +cover of a Jack-in-the-box. She was going to be good and straight and +honest again. She was going to make amends, so far as in her lay, for +the wrong she had done. She was going—<I>away</I>! +</P> + +<P> +Here Elsie faltered. But she sprang from bed before depression could +swoop down upon her. And while she was dressing a suggestion came to +her that sent her to the breakfast-table with a serene and even joyful +face. It had come to her that she would better not attempt to carry +out her resolve until after Christmas, lest she mar Cousin Julia's or +Elsie Marley's enjoyment of the day. She would act immediately after +Christmas, beginning the New Year with a clean slate. And meantime she +would devote herself to making every one she knew as happy as possible, +particularly Cousin Julia. +</P> + +<P> +And she would be happy herself. There would be sufficient unhappiness +coming to her later to pay her in full for all the mischief she had +done; and she saw no harm in putting the matter from her thoughts for +the interim, and making the most of the eighteen days. Then, Christmas +being over, one day, or two at most, would suffice her to decide where +to go and to make her preparations. Another day would give her time to +write the letters with due deliberation, and on the third she would be +off. +</P> + +<P> +Wherefore, her resolve being fixed and her conscience accordingly +clear, she adventured the first precious day with a light heart. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap25"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXV +</H3> + +<P> +Elsie Marley had never been happier than as she prepared for her first +Christmas at Enderby. But that festival seemed the high-water mark of +her happiness. The close of the day found her strangely depressed and +thereafter she had more frequent periods of being ill at ease. +</P> + +<P> +She had learned to knit and had spent most of her leisure time for +several weeks in making a soft white woollen shawl for Mrs. Middleton, +into which went a rather surprising amount of affection. She went into +Boston with one of the high-school girls and bought a charming little +plaid woollen frock for Mattie Howe and a beautiful doll to fill the +little mother's arms when they were not occupied with a real baby. For +Charles Augustus, she selected an harmonicon, and toys for the other +three Howes. She wanted to get a warm winter coat for her staunch ally +Kate, the jacket she wore being short and so thin as to require an +undergarment that spoiled what little shape it had. On the day before +she was to go into town, she consulted Mrs. Middleton. +</P> + +<P> +Thus far Elsie hadn't accepted a penny of pocket-money, and the +Middletons were filled with dismay to have her spend her own money so +lavishly. But Mr. Middleton had told his wife that he meant to give +Elsie a check for Christmas, which being also her birthday, made a +large one legitimate. Consequently, at this time Mrs. Middleton did +not remonstrate. She only called herself heartless for not noticing +poor Katy's need and so forestalling Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +After she had sufficiently exclaimed over it, she asked what the girl +meant to get. +</P> + +<P> +"I thought of black broadcloth, rather plain. Should you think that +would be right, Aunt Milly?" +</P> + +<P> +"Quite right, dear. It would be, of course, the proper thing," Mrs. +Middleton returned, "but I can't help wondering whether Katy herself +wouldn't fancy something not so plain and rather more stylish. After +all, we can hardly expect her to share our quiet tastes." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie didn't resent the <I>our</I> nor question the fact. She was only very +grateful. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Aunt Milly, I'm so glad I spoke to you!" the girl cried with +unwonted warmth, for she felt immediately the cogency of Mrs. +Middleton's remark. "What do you think she would like? I might have +her go in with me and pick it out herself, only——" +</P> + +<P> +"Only half the fun would be lost not to have her surprised on Christmas +morning? I don't know what she would like, I'm sure, but leave it to +me and I'll find out from Katy herself and without letting her mistrust +anything. Leave it to your Aunt Milly, dear. She is of so little use +that she has to seize upon whatever she can discover." +</P> + +<P> +And truly she learned the desire of Katy's heart and reported to Elsie +that night. Green was Kate's first choice for color and blue next, and +she admired especially a long, loose garment with "one of them fur +collars that folds up like an accordion or a gentleman's opera-hat." +And Elsie succeeded in finding the very thing—not a difficult task, +Kate's choice being the latest fashion and very common. +</P> + +<P> +Though her gifts gave extraordinary pleasure in every instance, the +reaction upon Elsie herself was yet greater. Her satisfaction was +increased by the fact that Mr. Middleton told her it was the happiest +Christmas he remembered, and that her being with them was largely what +made it so. +</P> + +<P> +"Besides which," he added, "I realize that most of the other factors +and changes that contribute are really due to you and to your +influence, Elsie dear." +</P> + +<P> +That was very precious to Elsie, but it couldn't ward off the reaction +that was to follow. The lavishness of the Middletons' gifts to her, +which they justified by reminding her that it was her birthday (she had +quite forgotten that Elsie Moss celebrated hers on Christmas!), quite +weighed down her spirits. On a sudden she seemed to herself to be +accepting what didn't belong to her, what wasn't meant for her. +Despite the placid way in which she had gone on acting the part of the +real niece, she pulled up and shied, so to speak, at this instance of +extravagant giving and a false birthday. It seemed as if she could not +bear it, could not accept the money, the jewelry, furs, books, and +other gifts showered upon her. +</P> + +<P> +But there was no way out. She had to accept everything, and she had to +keep everything but the money. That she sent directly to Elsie Moss, +explaining that she couldn't possibly accept it, as it was especially +for her Christmas birthday. But Elsie Moss, probably with her friend's +recent request for the five hundred dollars in mind, sent it directly +back. Whereupon she wrote again, saying that she had more money than +she knew what to do with, and that she would be broken-hearted if Elsie +returned it a second time. +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +The letter in which Elsie Moss returned the money was written on the +very day when the girl had planned to write the letter announcing her +disappearance. It was only a short note, however, and contained +nothing of that nature. Her next letter, in which she reluctantly +agreed to accept half of the Christmas-birthday gift, was long and +surprising, but delightfully so rather than mysteriously or painfully. +</P> + +<P> +Her Christmas had been quite as happy as that of the other Elsie. +Indeed, her greater capacity for blissful and ecstatic joy would have +rendered it even happier but for the valedictory character all its +details held secretly for her. Her youth and temperament, however, +which had carried her through the days following her momentous +decision, upheld her spirits even when she approached the brink of the +crisis. Her determination to right the wrong she had done at what she +believed the first possible moment had cleared her conscience so +completely that in the interim she had been able to enjoy the fruits of +that wrong-doing as never before since the very first. +</P> + +<P> +She had herself made her gift for Cousin Julia and little things for +Miss Peacock and nearly everybody in the house. On Christmas Eve she +sang in the parlor for Miss Peacock, the servants, and those remaining +in the boarding-house over the holidays. First she went through the +carols. Then she sang the favorite song or songs of every one present, +including several of Miss Pritchard's. And though the programme was +haphazard it wasn't motley—only simple and old-fashioned and full of +sweetness and melody. The girl must have been dull indeed not to have +guessed something of the exquisite and genuine pleasure she gave. +</P> + +<P> +In truth she lay long awake, thrilled by the remembrance. It had been +her swan-song, she told herself, half-tremulously, half-buoyed by the +excitement of it all. For she was passing out of their lives, in very +truth—even out of Cousin Julia's, and—forever. And Cousin Julia, +who, Elsie knew had basked in the enjoyment of the others, would have +it for a happy memory, when—— +</P> + +<P> +But she mustn't go further now. It was hardly safe. To-morrow was +Christmas Day. Until the day after, she wasn't going to think ahead. +Only on the 26th of December would she begin to make definite, final +preparations. She wouldn't spoil tomorrow by looking beyond it. +</P> + +<P> +Christmas was a wonderful day. Elsie did not realize how delirious her +enjoyment was nor how painfully she was keyed up because of her +underlying apprehension of coming agony. Neither did she understand it +when she waked suddenly from sleep the following morning, feeling so +exhausted as to be almost ill, and with a terrible sinking at heart +which settled into depression the like of which she had never +experienced before. +</P> + +<P> +It might have seemed that she was in no condition to complete the +proposed plans. But as a matter of fact, there was little to do. +Though the girl hadn't deliberately or consciously looked ahead, the +matter had been in her mind; and now when she came to consider the +question as to where she should go, she found it practically settled. +When she brought up the idea of going to California and trying to get a +chance as a moving-picture actress, she was ready with the objection +that the films were most likely to reach New York and that her dimples +would give her away at once. Her wisest move would be to take refuge +in some place equally distant from her stepmother in San Francisco and +from New York. Which, of course, was no other than Chicago. She had +enough money to take her thither and take care of her until she should +get a start—in some vaudeville house as she hoped. And then she would +be truly lost—forever, in all probability, and perhaps in more senses +than one. +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard was struck by the change in Elsie that morning at the +breakfast-table. The child looked almost ill. She said nothing to +her, however, feeling that it was the reaction from the excitement of +Christmas, and believing she would be better for the distraction of the +school. But she couldn't dismiss the matter from her mind all day, and +the more she thought of it the more serious it seemed. She realized +that Elsie hadn't looked merely tired or even exhausted. It was worse +than that. For the first time since she had come East, Miss Pritchard +thought she saw in the child indication of genuine, positive suffering. +</P> + +<P> +She decided that she herself had been gravely remiss. The strain of +giving herself so generously and whole-heartedly had worn upon the girl +disastrously, and—she had had warning and hadn't heeded. Until +recently, it is true, Elsie's blithe buoyancy had seemed always the +normal, unconscious, almost effortless efflorescence of a lovely +nature, as natural as playful grace to a kitten, as simple as +breathing. But once or twice back in the fall, Miss Pritchard had been +startled into wondering if the sweet instrument wasn't in danger of +being strained through constant playing upon it, and to be fearful that +Elsie might truly be rarely sensitive in a personal, as she seemed to +be in an artistic, way. +</P> + +<P> +The first time when this had presented itself to her mind had been a +matter of a month or six weeks previous. At that time she had seemed +to discover a shadow in the sparkling eyes and a transient pensive +droop of the lips. Then on the night of Charley Graham's visit, she +had been frightened by the worn look upon the beloved little face, and +had feared some definite trouble. +</P> + +<P> +It was not long after the affair of the five hundred dollars, and Miss +Pritchard had wondered if the difficulty might not be somehow connected +with that. She had just reached the decision to question the girl when +suddenly the weariness, the sadness, the pensiveness, the shadow, +vanished utterly, leaving Elsie not only herself again, but even more +glowingly and infectiously happy and buoyant than before. And from +that moment until this morning at the breakfast-table she had remained +so. +</P> + +<P> +It was natural that now Miss Pritchard's mind should hark back to those +former suspicions. All day she vacillated between the fear that Elsie +was beset by some secret trouble or by the solicitations of some +unscrupulous person, and the apprehension that she was on the verge of +nervous exhaustion. Her face was anxious indeed as she left the office +that night. +</P> + +<P> +She opened the door of her sitting-room with strange sinking of heart. +Then she almost gasped. Her breath was almost taken away by sheer +amazement. Elsie was waiting for her—yet another Elsie. For, radiant +and sparkling as the girl had been, she had never before been like +this. She was fairly dazzling. If Miss Pritchard hadn't been almost +stunned, she would have made some feeble remark about getting out her +smoked glasses. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap26"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXVI +</H3> + +<P> +"My dear child, what has happened?" Miss Pritchard cried as Elsie +relieved her of her wraps and bag, and she dropped weakly into a chair. +"I believe your dimples have actually doubled in size since morning. +It's positively uncanny, you know, anything like that. Suppose it +should go further?" +</P> + +<P> +"Like the Cheshire cat's grin? Well—we should worry, Cousin Julia, +dearest. But—what do you think has happened, truly?" +</P> + +<P> +"Your friend from Enderby hasn't appeared?" +</P> + +<P> +"No, this is another sort of bliss. This is—well, dearest darling, +it's just that Mr. Coates has started me on something that—that I +could go on the stage with!" +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard's face fell. "Oh, Elsie, child, what do you mean?" she +asked anxiously. The dimples disappeared but though Elsie spoke +quietly, still there was that wonderful lilt in her voice. +</P> + +<P> +"Just this. He called me into his office this morning and spoke to me +about—my specialty, you know, 'Elsie Marley, Honey.' One day back in +the fall I was showing off with that to some of the girls that were +eating their luncheon together, and he happened by and made me repeat +it. To-day he said he had had it in mind ever since, and had found +that he could adapt it and change the music and make it into a regular +vaudeville feature. He thinks it's a real crackerjack. He's going to +begin right away to give me training in it." +</P> + +<P> +For a moment Miss Pritchard couldn't speak. Then she had to stifle +what started to be a groan. "Oh, my dear child!" she exclaimed. +</P> + +<P> +"It seemed such a lovely ending to a lovely Christmas," said Elsie +wistfully. The girl was absolutely carried away by the excitement of +it. It didn't even occur to her—until she was in bed that night—what +the "ending" of the lovely Christmas was to have been—the ending that +alone was to justify her enjoyment of the holiday and of the days since +she had weighed her action in the balance and found it wanting. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Cousin Julia, really when you understand, it's simply wonderful," +she went on eagerly. "I'm the only one picked out thus far, and you +know most of the others are related to the profession, too. And even +if that thing is so old, I can't help liking it. Most of the things +<I>are</I> rather awful, I must confess." +</P> + +<P> +"But the first year—the first six months! I never dreamed of such a +thing!" Miss Pritchard cried. +</P> + +<P> +"Neither did I, darling dear; that's what makes me so wild with joy," +said the girl softly. +</P> + +<P> +Touched and almost remorseful, Miss Pritchard kissed her fondly. But +she couldn't restrain a sigh. +</P> + +<P> +"Surely it doesn't mean—going on the stage?" she inquired. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no indeed, Cousin Julia, at least not right off. Only—well, just +being ready if anything should happen, you know." +</P> + +<P> +Then suddenly at the thought of that wonderful eventuality, the girl's +dimples came out and her eyes so shone that Miss Pritchard felt as if +she should burst into tears. It seemed as if she couldn't bear it! +Again she lamented inwardly. Why should the child have had that crazy +desire for the stage? Why shouldn't it have been a passion for +music—for opera, indeed? Nearly every one who had heard Elsie sing on +Christmas Eve had spoken to Miss Pritchard of the girl's wonderful +voice, and the question of her cultivating that instead of working for +the stage; and Miss Pritchard had yesterday decided to make a fresh +plea to Elsie to that effect. What joy would it not be to share the +child's enthusiasm, had it been a matter of music! +</P> + +<P> +However, it would be worse than futile to drag in any such thing at +this moment, she saw clearly. Carried away by her delight, Elsie would +have no ears and no heart for anything else. Miss Pritchard told +herself she must wait for the infatuation to cool—and when that might +be, she couldn't in the least foresee. Would it ever happen in truth? +</P> + +<P> +As she couldn't possibly force herself to rejoice with Elsie, and +couldn't bear not to share in her joy, as they had come to share +everything, she suddenly proposed attending a concert that evening to +be given by a visiting orchestra from the Middle West. Elsie entered +into the plan with spirit, and they went off gayly together. Miss +Pritchard knew that Elsie was dreaming dreams to the strains of Bach +and Schumann, and wished with all her heart they were another sort of +vision; still, it was a happy evening for both where it had threatened +to be uncomfortable. But on the night when Elsie Moss had expected to +lie awake in agony because of the imminence of her parting with all she +loved most, she had only a brief moment of compunction, which she +dismissed easily, falling asleep in the midst of radiant and enchanting +visions of life on the stage. It was Miss Pritchard whose rest was +troubled. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap27"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXVII +</H3> + +<P> +The answer of the real Elsie Marley to the letter in which her friend +enthusiastically related her advance toward the stage might have +indicated how far she had gone since the day on the train when she had +opined that the girl who thinks of becoming an actress has to undergo +much that isn't nice. It so sympathized and rejoiced with the other in +her happiness that it was solace and inspiration at once to Elsie Moss, +who was living at a high and unhealthy pitch of excitement, and +welcomed, indeed craved greedily, anything in the way of approval or +sympathy. For the girl feared that if ever she should stop to +consider, she should find her heart a black well of wickedness. But +that she wouldn't do. She <I>would not</I> stop to consider. She had her +chance now, the chance she had waited for all her life, and she wasn't +going to hazard it. She was going to make the most of it, let her +conscience go hang! +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +For her part, the real Elsie Marley was led at this time to consider, +and the more seriously. To her inexperience, it looked as if Elsie +Moss were very near the stage, as if another year might find her a +fixed star in that firmament. And what then? She would be independent +of Cousin Julia and the boarding-house, and might she not want to +resume her own name and make herself known to her own relations? Or +would she, out of her abounding affection for Cousin Julia, suffer the +present state of affairs to continue? +</P> + +<P> +The girl pondered long and rather sadly over the dilemma, but always +inclined to the belief that the latter was really the only possible +sequel. It wasn't that the question of what would become of her in the +former instance was all-important; it wasn't that Elsie Moss would +probably not think of any other course of action. It was the fact that +some one very much like herself was needed here at Enderby. Mr. +Middleton depended upon her. Mrs. Middleton would hardly know how to +get along without her. Katy counted strongly upon her sympathy and +co-operation. And even Mattie Howe and Dick Clinton would miss her. +</P> + +<P> +And, after all, didn't the fact of Elsie Moss's securing her heart's +desire almost immediately, together with the working out of her own +presence at Enderby to the satisfaction of a few very dear people, +quite justify the exchange they had made? Hadn't it really proved a +beneficent idea? +</P> + +<P> +Arrived at this point, the girl was reassured. The only difficulty was +that the question didn't stay settled. It came up again and yet again +and the whole argument had to be redebated. And finally she came to +the conclusion that her wisest plan was to ward it off. Like the other +Elsie, she decided to avoid meditation and plunge into action. And +though the sort and amount of action to which she was limited wouldn't +have seemed action at all to the other girl, it answered her purpose, +nevertheless. Elsie Marley threw herself into the performance of the +various duties she had assumed with more fervor than ever, and +presently had recovered a good measure of her former serenity. +</P> + +<P> +But it seemed only to have been regained to be threatened. +</P> + +<P> +One night early in February, when Miss Stewart relieved her and she +left the library, she found Dick Clinton waiting outside. He often did +this, for he and Elsie had become good friends since the day he had +first appeared at the library and asked for help. She had seen him at +all the parties of the high-school pupils which she had attended, and +had gone coasting on his double-runner with other girls a number of +times. And no Sunday passed that he didn't seek her after service and +walk home with her. +</P> + +<P> +He was strangely silent to-night. His first shyness having worn off, +he had since always had plenty to say. Elsie was always quiet, and not +a word was spoken until they were next door to the parsonage. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Miss Moss, would you just as lief walk back a little way?" he +asked suddenly. "I had something I wanted to say to you, and there's +the parsonage and I haven't begun. I won't make you late for your +supper—or dinner, whatever it is." +</P> + +<P> +Rather surprised, Elsie complied willingly, and they had no sooner +turned than he began. +</P> + +<P> +"It's something I've done," he blurted out. "I feel sort of—like +thirty cents, you know. I should sort of like to know—what you think +of it." +</P> + +<P> +"Whatever it is, I don't believe you need to feel that way about it, +Dick," she said gently. +</P> + +<P> +"I do, just the same, though I'm not sure I should have before I knew +you, Miss Moss, you're so awfully sort of square, you see," he owned. +"I'm glad anyhow it ain't so bad but what I can tell you. This is what +it is: one of the other fellows that's about my height and build wanted +to go to the motor-show in Boston last week and his dad wouldn't let +him. He's simply wild over aeroplanes, and there was a model there, +and when the last night came, he got me to help him out. He pretended +to go to bed about a quarter of nine. Instead, he sneaked me up the +back-stairs and left me in his room, and he caught the nine o'clock for +Boston. I went to bed and put out the light. After a while his mother +put her head in the door and asked if I was asleep, and then came in +and kissed me. About two o'clock he came back, climbed in the window, +and I vamoosed. It seemed all right, and I couldn't have refused him, +and yet I felt queer." +</P> + +<P> +"I should think you were innocent enough. It seems to me the other boy +had all the responsibility of it," Elsie observed. +</P> + +<P> +"That's just what I thought. And I'm dead sure it would only have +seemed fun last winter. And I'd have to do it again if he asked me. +But—you know that little Howe kid that's trying to stretch himself out +to get big enough to be a boy scout?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, indeed, Charles Augustus Howe." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, he's always asking me things, and taking my answers so solemnly, +and yesterday he wanted to know if I thought it was wrong to tell a lie +to yourself in the dark. I tried to reason out the thing with him +and—great snakes, but it made me feel queer all over! Talking to that +kid about truth and honor and George Washington and Abraham Lincoln, I +sort of hypnotized myself; but afterward it made me feel cheap. +And—and there you are!" +</P> + +<P> +"But you didn't get anything out of it for yourself, Dick," said Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +"Nothing but feeling cheap before that kid." +</P> + +<P> +"Then I don't believe it's wrong for you—only for the other boy," she +averred. +</P> + +<P> +They turned. Nothing more was said until they reached the parsonage. +</P> + +<P> +"Much obliged, Miss Moss," the boy said quietly. "And that's good to +remember—not getting anything out of it for yourself. Good night." +</P> + +<P> +She heard him whistling cheerily as he went on his way. But her own +heart was heavy. Not to get anything out of it for oneself! Oh, what +would Dick Clinton think, what would every one think, to know that she +wasn't Elsie Moss at all! He had been sadly troubled because he had +played the part of another one night—a silent part that required no +spoken words. What would he think to learn that she was an interloper +at the parsonage? It was in part, it is true, for the sake of another. +But it was also in part—in large part, now—for her own sake. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap28"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXVIII +</H3> + +<P> +One evening in the early spring, during the interval between the films +in a motion-picture theatre on lower Broadway, a thrill of excitement +went through the audience, which was of the sort that desires to live +on thrills. +</P> + +<P> +Perhaps to-night, however, there was reasonable excuse for genuine +anticipation. For the song-dance specialty that was about to take +place was of a different order from anything that had been known in +that theatre heretofore. There was real grace and beauty in the +dancing, genuine melody in the voice of the singer, and something sweet +and wholesome about the whole performance. +</P> + +<P> +The act was entitled "And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, Honey?" And one +whispered to another that the best of it was, that that was her real +name—honestly it was—at least it had always been her stage name, so +that probably the song had been written especially for her—and she +that young—and it wasn't real ragtime either. And her dimples were +real too; possibly they were enlarged and deepened by the make-up, but +she had them off the stage. +</P> + +<P> +Heavy applause greeted the entrance of the actress. +</P> + +<P> +She was only a slip of a girl—a mere child she looked, partly, they +said, because of her hair—the "Castle bob," you know. She tripped +lightly before the footlights, smiled charmingly as she put the +question of the first line, and sang the song through with dancing +between the stanzas and dramatic rendering of the lines. She smiled +and sparkled and dimpled; but though she was so pretty and piquant and +coquettish, so graceful and vivacious, so completely the actress, there +was a look of youth and innocence about her that pleased the blasé +audience, and touched one alien member of it to tears. +</P> + +<P> +Once and again was Elsie Marley recalled to repeat the act. The young +actress had other things prepared, but though they might be well +received, they were followed by clamor for "Elsie Marley, Honey," until +only the forcible resumption of the pictures availed to quiet it. +</P> + +<P> +And on Saturday night at the end of the second week, even that did not +avail. The last appearance of that bill having been announced, the +audience could not let Elsie Marley go. Finally, the manager came out +and announced that Miss Marley had been engaged for another week. And +again, while there was intense satisfaction elsewhere, to one person +the statement was like a blow. +</P> + +<P> +In truth, on the day when Elsie had announced the opportunity that had +been offered her of appearing in a "specialty" on the stage of a +second-class cinema theatre, Miss Pritchard had been aghast. The +chance had come through the school in the person of Mr. Coates, who had +first seen possibilities in the song the girl had known since +childhood, and who had developed it to its limit, and trained her in a +more artificial though still charming rendering, the music having been +adapted more nearly to music-hall ragtime. When he had announced to +her what he had known from the first—that she was to go upon the stage +with it—Elsie had been so elated that Miss Pritchard had been +powerless before her. She couldn't be a wet blanket; neither, however, +could she force herself to express any gratification. +</P> + +<P> +And when first she had seen this last member of her family before the +footlights of the cheap little theatre, with the bad air, the mixed +audience, and the poor pictures, she felt she couldn't endure it. The +image of the stately, aristocratic Aunt Ellen Pritchard rose before her +vision, overwhelmingly severe and reproachful. It would actually have +killed her to witness once what Julia Pritchard had to witness every +night for two weeks—or so she thought at first. +</P> + +<P> +On this Saturday night when the engagement was extended, they were +later than usual in getting to their carriage. Elsie was wrapped +snugly in the rose-colored opera-cloak. Her eyes were very bright, her +cheeks flushed. She had not really required any make-up, but they had +insisted upon deepening the color of her lips and darkening the lower +eye-lids. Miss Pritchard, too depressed to force any semblance of +cheerfulness, saw her dimples appear and disappear in happy reverie. +She sighed. Through it all, the child was absolutely enchanting to her. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie, catching the sigh, snuggled up to her. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Cousin Julia, I'm so happy, so happy I'm afraid I'll just burst +like a circus balloon. Oh, dear darling, you're so good to me. And I +suppose you're sick to death of the same old thing, and dread the +thought of another week of it." +</P> + +<P> +As a matter of fact, Miss Pritchard was as captivated by the song +specialty as any of the audience. She confessed that it wore well. +"But, oh, Elsie," she couldn't forbear adding, "I do wish you weren't +going to have another week in that cheap place." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, but Cousin Julia, one can't begin at the top," remonstrated the +girl. "Why, I'm the luckiest guy ever was. How much do you suppose +I'm going to get for this next week?" +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard had no heart for guessing. The sum the girl mentioned +was indeed surprising, but it only seemed to remove her further from +her and from the family they both represented. +</P> + +<P> +"I should be only too glad to do it for the experience alone," Elsie +rattled on, "and of course what I get is only what is over and above +what they pay the school. And I shall get other chances, Mr. Coates +says, and—oh, Cousin Julia, I don't dare tell you—you don't"—there +was a catch in her voice—"you don't sympathize. You were so +different! And now you're just like—well, almost as bad as the +others." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard drew the little rose-colored figure close. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, I do sympathize, dear little cousin," she said, "only——" +</P> + +<P> +She could not go on. And they went the rest of the way in silence. It +was the first time that anything, recognized by both of them, had come +between them. As the excitement that had buoyed her up for the evening +began to die away, Elsie's heart was like a stone. Later it would +ache. She wondered rather drearily how it would be after she was in +bed. Even now she recognized something that would have been absurd if +it weren't so terribly serious. To think of her demanding sympathy +from Cousin Julia—of appearing almost aggrieved not to receive it—she +who should be cowering beneath her scorn! How was it that she should +so forget, should feel and act as if everything were true—and square? +</P> + +<P> +It was being on the stage, she supposed, a real actress at last. At +last! Why, it was almost <I>at first</I>. Who had ever been so fortunate +as she! To be on the stage in New York well within a year of her first +entering the city! And only to think that this might have been the +last night of her engagement! How terrible that seemed now! How would +she ever live without the evening to look forward to? How blissful to +have another week before her—six more appearances before that vast, +applauding throng! How happily would she go to sleep tonight to the +music of the lullaby of the thought: "Another week at the Merry Nickel, +another week at the Merry Nickel! Bliss! Bliss! Bliss!" +</P> + +<P> +And yet it wasn't at all a blissful face which Miss Pritchard bore in +memory to her own room that night after she had kissed Elsie, put out +the light, and opened the windows. Since the girl had been at the +theatre, Miss Pritchard had dropped into the habit of going in to her +the last thing every night and tucking her in as if she had been a +child. For somehow she had seemed, since striking out into +professional life, only the more a child, more innocent, more +appealingly youthful, more than ever to be sheltered and guarded. She +had tried her wings, it is true; she believed she had proved them (and +perchance she had!); but more than ever was she a precious and tender +nestling. +</P> + +<P> +As she sat by her window in the darkness, Miss Pritchard shook her head +sadly. She said to herself this couldn't go on—this state of things +couldn't continue. Despite Elsie's elation over the fact that she was +booked for another week at the theatre, she looked more mournful and +wistful and worn than ever. Some strain was wearing the child out. It +wasn't the work, nor yet the excitement, for she lived on them, and not +altogether unhealthily. There was no other possible explanation: it +was nothing less than the strain of combating her own disapproval, +tacit or expressed. Elsie was too warm-hearted to enjoy her legitimate +happiness alone, too sensitive not to suffer from want of sympathy. +</P> + +<P> +The change in the girl had begun to be apparent directly after +Christmas. Elsie hadn't been herself since that time, which proved +beyond peradventure that Miss Pritchard's suspicion was correct. The +joyous, sparkling little creature whom she had found in her room on the +day after Christmas, bubbling over with excitement, eager to share her +good news, had become thin and wan. Her charmingly brilliant little +face was not only peaked, but in repose was generally wistful or +plaintive. Many a time one could have looked on it without suspecting +the existence of dimples. Only in the evening did she resemble her +real self. From dinner until the moment she lay in her bed, she was +the Elsie Marley she had been (with negligible interruptions) since the +night when she had walked straight into Miss Pritchard's heart before +she had known who she was. At other times she was a pale shadow, the +little ghost of the girl she had been or should be. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard sighed deeply. If it were for want of +sympathy—approving sympathy—the child drooped and pined, must she not +have it, willy-nilly? But again she sighed, and yet more deeply. +Whatever her effort, was such a thing possible? +</P> + +<P> +As for Elsie herself, the lullaby didn't prove a lullaby at all, and, +as usual these days, the girl cried herself to sleep. Every night, of +late, the reaction came. Every morning she awoke with a sense of a +heavy burden weighing her down. All day her heart ached, though dully +and vaguely for the most part; for if the pain threatened to become +acute, she could still drug it with anticipation of the excitement of +the evening. +</P> + +<P> +In the weeks that had passed, Elsie hadn't once faced her conscience. +She had never squarely confronted the situation which was now so much +further complicated. When the unexpected and thrilling opportunity had +come to her the day after Christmas—the very day that was to +consummate her renunciation—the girl had been completely carried away +by it. She hadn't repudiated the decision she had come to so +painfully, she had simply disregarded it—ignored it utterly as if +there had been no such thing. And she had gone on ignoring it. In the +very first of it, the excitement of working directly for the stage had +rendered her oblivious of everything else. Then when certain faint +murmurings of conscience began to be audible, came the actual prospect +of the Merry Nickel to stifle them, and then there was the stage itself +and the actual footlights. Nevertheless, avoid the issue as she would, +more and more had her daylight hours come to be haunted with +misgivings, and now her heart was never light except in the evenings. +And combat any such direct thought as she might, she felt dimly that in +giving over her purpose to square her conduct with the right, she had +doubled and trebled the original wrong. Unvowing a vow must be +equivalent to signing a covenant with the powers of darkness. Now and +again lines from the poem Cousin Julia had repeated to her so +impressively that she could never forget it, came to her suddenly in +uncanny fashion. At such times, if questioned, Elsie would have +acknowledged that her Palladium had indeed fallen, with all the awful +consequences. +</P> + +<P> +Lines from another and more familiar poem came to the girl the next day +as she sat in the afternoon with Miss Pritchard in their sitting-room, +the snow falling outside as if it were December. As she gazed at the +steadily falling, restful, soothing curtain of flakes which deadened +all sound and veiled all save its own beauty, unconsciously she was +repeating verses of a poem she had learned as a child. But as she came +to the words, "I thought of a mound in sweet Auburn," she recollected +herself. And somehow her mind turned instinctively to Miss Pritchard's +lover. It was because he, too, was dead, she supposed, and this snow +was rounding above his grave. But before she made the natural +application or drew the familiar comparison between his failure and her +own, Elsie clapped the lid down on her thoughts with a thud. Turning +resolutely to Miss Pritchard, she asked her, with strange intonation, +if she thought the snow would continue all night. +</P> + +<P> +"I rather hope so," Miss Pritchard returned in a quiet voice that was +like a part of the silent storm, "for it's so late that we can't expect +another snowfall, and it seems really a privilege to have it now—like +plucking violets at Thanksgiving." +</P> + +<P> +For a little, her gaze, too, lost itself outside. Then she turned and +looked at Elsie with a kindness in which there was something wistful. +</P> + +<P> +"I know what you have been thinking, dear," she said. "You're thinking +that I'm not consistent nor fair—and you're right. I am neither. I +agree with you absolutely. Having in the first place consented to your +studying for the stage, I should have looked ahead and faced just this. +As you say, one can't begin at the tip-top—nor yet at the top. One +must make use of humble stepping-stones." +</P> + +<P> +But it seemed that the struggle she had been through to bring herself +to this attitude had been in vain. On a sudden she lost all that she +had gained. Her heart sank as Elsie's face brightened eagerly—became +transformed, indeed. +</P> + +<P> +"The trouble is," she went on sadly, "that the stepping-stones—oh, +Elsie, I'm so afraid the stepping-stones will only lead on and on and +on—never higher. They'll be and remain on a dead level, and you will +step from one to another, one to another, year after year, over the +same dreary waste. I hate awfully to say all this, dear, but when +those people refuse to allow you to do anything but the Elsie-Honey +business over and over, it comes to me what a fate it would be to be +doomed forever to that one stunt." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Cousin Julia!" Elsie cried deprecatingly. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, dear, that's what I am exactly, an old killjoy; but truly I +cannot help it, though I have tried. I have struggled hard against my +prejudice. Elsie, last night you stopped yourself as you were about to +tell me something, but I fear I can guess what it was like. Some one +suggested your going on the road, as they say, with that one thing as +your repertoire—making a tour of the cheap moving-picture houses of a +certain section?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie grew very pale; her lips trembled. One interested wholly in her +dramatic career, seeing her at that moment, might have concluded that +the girl had it in her to develop a capacity for tragedy as well as +comedy. +</P> + +<P> +"Cousin Julia," she said with tremulous dignity, "I don't want you to +come with me this week. I can go back and forth in a carriage by +myself. I've got to go through it, for I promised and they will have +made arrangements, but—please don't come with me any more." +</P> + +<P> +She gazed at Miss Pritchard through reproachful tears, but when she saw +tears streaming down Miss Pritchard's plain, staunch face, she ran to +her arms. +</P> + +<P> +"My dear, it's only because I love you so, because you are the very +apple of my eye, that I talk so," the latter declared, and the warm +words went straight to the girl's sore heart. "I know I'm not just, +but dear, we won't let anything come between us—ever. I'll do my best +to see your side of it, and you must be patient with me. It's hard, I +know, for youth to bear with age, for inexperience to hear the ugly +words of experience; but now we'll just go through the week together +and await what comes." +</P> + +<P> +What came demanded further patience on her part and increased Elsie's +infatuation. Before the end of the week the young actress had an offer +from a rival establishment which would take her to the edge of summer +at a salary that fairly made her gasp. The second theatre was perhaps +a shade better, but not sufficiently so to reconcile Miss Pritchard to +it. But she held her peace. Whereupon the first manager increased the +sum offered by his rival, and, Miss Pritchard still tolerant, Elsie +agreed to remain there until June. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap29"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXIX +</H3> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard acknowledged to herself that Elsie Marley had the right +stuff in her. She did not grow careless, never let herself down. The +audience was uncritical and wildly demonstrative, but the girl did her +level best at every performance. Up to a certain point, she even +improved. The possibility of so doing in this case was limited, but +having reached that point she held it. Further, her wonderfully sweet +voice seemed to grow sweeter every day. +</P> + +<P> +Therein lay Miss Pritchard's one hope. Presently, she sought out an +old friend who had been a musician of note and later a teacher and +musical critic on an evening paper, and confided her difficulty to him. +Hearing her story, he was interested and very sympathetic. He advised +her to drop the concert idea and dwell wholly upon the possibility of +opera as a lure: only the dramatic form and setting could compete +successfully in a case of stage-fever like that. And where Miss +Pritchard had hoped only to be allowed to bring Elsie to him, he being +an old man, he agreed to go to the theatre and hear the girl when she +would be off her guard. +</P> + +<P> +"I'll go any night you say, Miss Pritchard," he proposed. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't make <I>me</I> choose, Mr. Francis," she begged. "There's so much at +stake that if I knew when you were to be there, I should be so nervous +I couldn't sit still." +</P> + +<P> +"You <I>nervous</I>, Miss Pritchard!" he exclaimed incredulously. +</P> + +<P> +"Alas, yes, Mr. Francis," she acknowledged, laughing. "These young +people with their careers are too stimulating for spinster cousins who +have never had anything more exciting than night-work on a city paper. +Well, I dare say I have only my come-uppings. You see, I was afraid +Elsie wouldn't be lively enough! I had visions of an extremely proper, +blasé young person moping about, and rather dreaded her. Getting Elsie +was like finding a changeling." +</P> + +<P> +"Rather too much of a good thing? Well, we're all that way, Miss +Pritchard. If we're looking for a quiet person, we want a peculiar +sort of quietude; and the lively ones must be just so lively and no +more. Do you remember in one of the old novels, where a sister +enumerates in a letter to her brother the charms of the young lady she +wishes him to marry? At the end of the list she adds that the lady has +'just as much religion as my William likes.' Now isn't that human +nature and you and I all over?" +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +As she left the house, a suggestion came to Miss Pritchard in regard to +a lesser matter she had had in mind. Elsie having agreed to drop +everything for July and August and go into the country with her, she +had been studying prospectuses and consulting friends as to the +whither. Seeing Mr. Francis, suddenly recalled a summer twenty years +before when he and his sister had passed a month at a place called +Green River in eastern Massachusetts, and she had driven over a number +of times from a neighboring town to dine with them. It came to her +suddenly that Green River was exactly the place she had been looking +for, and she believed it must be near Enderby, where Elsie's friend +lived. And now she couldn't understand why she hadn't thought before +of going where the friends might meet. +</P> + +<P> +Making inquiries, she discovered that the name Green River had been +changed to Enderby, and that Enderby Inn was considered quite as good a +hostelry as the Green River Hotel had been. She wrote at once to the +proprietor to see if she could engage rooms, saying nothing to Elsie +lest the plan miscarry. +</P> + +<P> +So eager was she, that when she found a telegram on her plate next +morning (almost before her letter had left New York) she opened it +anxiously, uncertain whether such promptness meant success or failure +for her. But it was from Mr. Francis, asking her to lunch with him. +She got through the morning in almost a fever of suspense. +</P> + +<P> +He had gone to hear Elsie that very night of Miss Pritchard's call, and +told her without preface that the girl had a marvellous voice. +</P> + +<P> +"Now, Miss Pritchard, can't you shut down at once on that vaudeville +business and set her to studying under a first-rate teacher?" he +demanded. "She ought not to lose a minute. Of course she is rather +small—too bad she isn't taller—but for all that I believe such a +voice will carry her anywhere. I shouldn't wonder if she should turn +out a star of the first magnitude." +</P> + +<P> +He named a teacher with a studio in Boston who could take her as far as +she could go in this country. He usually went to Naples in the late +spring with a pupil or two, but would be at his home near Boston all +summer this year. +</P> + +<P> +Of course the fact that Enderby was within easy reach of Boston added +to Miss Pritchard's excitement. That night she received word that she +could have accommodations at the inn, and a letter following next day +offered her a choice of rooms. She engaged a suite of three with a +bath, though aware that the single rooms would be satisfactory. And +she smiled at herself for assuming airs already, as guardian of an +operatic star, engaging royal apartments for her. +</P> + +<P> +Filled with enthusiasm, she announced to Elsie that night that she had +secured quarters for them at Enderby for the two months. At the first +breath the girl was quite as surprised and delighted as she was +expected to be. The delight was, it is true, but momentary, though it +sufficed to irradiate her face and fill Miss Pritchard's heart with +generous joy—also, to hide from the latter the fact that it was +succeeded by profound dismay. +</P> + +<P> +Those dimples! Those awful dimples! As she thought of them, Elsie +Moss was overwhelmed by consternation. Of course she couldn't go to +Enderby. She couldn't let Uncle John get even a second glimpse of her +face. She fled from the room in a panic which Miss Pritchard believed +to be excited eagerness to impart the good news to her friend at once. +</P> + +<P> +Though, as the days had passed, Elsie had persisted in her refusal to +face her conscience or look into the future, she had been vaguely aware +of a day of reckoning ahead. She had dimly taken it for granted that +when she stopped she would have to consider—there would be nothing +else to do. When she should be out from under the influence of this +powerful stimulant, she foresaw herself meeting perforce the questions +she had evaded. But also she had foreseen herself with two clear +months before her and with Cousin Julia beside her. +</P> + +<P> +Now, on a sudden, all was changed. She seemed to have no choice. She +had no control over her future. She had delayed so long that the +choice was no longer hers. Her path was sharply defined. There was +nothing she could do except to disappear on the eve of Miss Pritchard's +departure for Enderby. And at that time there would be nothing to +sustain her, no moral or redeeming force about an act that was +compulsory. It was like being shown a precipice and realizing that at +an appointed time one must walk straight over its verge. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap30"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXX +</H3> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss, who had loved her brilliant, impulsive little stepdaughter +like her own child, had given her up unwillingly. But it had been her +husband's wish that Elsie should go to her uncle; the latter could give +her advantages her stepmother could not afford; and she supposed it was +right and natural for the girl to be with her own people, even though +they had been strangers to her up to her sixteenth year. +</P> + +<P> +At first her loneliness found some solace in Elsie's letters. They +were short, but seemed brimming over with happiness. Mrs. Moss didn't +get any dear idea of the household at Enderby, but it was apparently +all that the girl desired. Then gradually the letters began to fall +off, and before Christmas-time she felt a decided change in them. They +had become unsatisfactory, perfunctory; the girl seemed to be slipping +away from her. She began to wonder if Elsie were not concealing +something, and soon after Christmas was forced to the conclusion that +she was unhappy and would not acknowledge it. +</P> + +<P> +She endeavored to regain the confidence that had been fully hers; she +tried in her own letters to prepare the way, to make confession easy, +but she received no response. In such circumstances letters are at +best unsatisfactory, and it was maddening to Mrs. Moss that she was at +such a distance that her warm words must grow cold in the five or six +days that elapsed between the writing and the reading. +</P> + +<P> +Christmas passed, and the winter, and she was unrelieved. She was busy +with her teaching, but except when engrossed by that, was haunted by +anxiety and apprehension. She had finally decided to go East during +the long summer vacation, ill as she could afford to make the journey, +to investigate for herself, when one night after school she dropped in +to see a friend, and while waiting picked up a New York paper. +</P> + +<P> +Some one in the house had that day returned from a journey East, and +the paper was dated five days earlier. It happened to be folded with +the page given over to amusements uppermost. Glancing carelessly over +columns that devoted a paragraph each to an amazing number of cinema +theatres, her eye suddenly caught the familiar name, <I>Elsie Marley</I>. +</P> + +<P> +With a vision of her stepdaughter as she had sung the old rhyme, she +mechanically followed the words until the word "dimples" arrested her +attention. Then she read the paragraph with beating heart. She read +it twice before she fully comprehended—understood that Elsie Marley +had completed her sixth week at the Merry Nickel in her song-dance +specialty, "And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, Honey?" Miss Marley was +declared to be more popular than ever; managers were clamoring for her +and she had engagements a year ahead. The notice added that despite +the fact that her voice was so wonderful, her dancing and acting +inimitable, some people declared that it was her dimples that wrought +the spell—that she might stand dumb and motionless before the +footlights if she would only smile. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss's first clear sensation was indignation toward Mr. Middleton. +She felt she could never forgive him for allowing this situation to +come about without warning her. Then she realized that this was the +key to the whole situation. She had not heard from the girl for six +weeks—just the length of time she must now have been at the theatre. +Excusing herself before her friend appeared, she hastened home in a +tumult of emotion. +</P> + +<P> +She did not know which way to turn. She couldn't bear the idea of +Elsie being on the stage of a motion-picture theatre; it seemed as if +it would break her heart. And still worse was the knowledge that the +girl had deceived her; that she had written empty, non-committal notes +calculated to make her believe she was staying quietly with her uncle, +when she was all the time preparing for this. And she had always been +so frank and upright, so easy to appeal to and to persuade! It seemed +to Mrs. Moss that she must have come under unfortunate influence. +</P> + +<P> +Her first impulse was to write to Elsie; her second, to Mr. Middleton; +but she did neither. The situation was now too critical to be handled +from a distance. There were only two weeks more of school. She +secured accommodations on the railway for the evening of the last day +of the term. +</P> + +<P> +On the sixth day after, she appeared without warning at the parsonage +at Enderby. A pleasant-faced woman who might be Mrs. Middleton, though +she did not look like an invalid, sat on the veranda entertaining a +little girl with a big baby in a perambulator. She asked at the door +for Mr. Middleton and was shown into his study. +</P> + +<P> +He came in directly, and the sight of his handsome, refined, strong and +serene face, with a vague resemblance to Elsie's, revived her drooping +spirits. Suddenly she felt that whatever he sanctioned must be right. +She inquired falteringly for Elsie before she announced her name or her +errand. +</P> + +<P> +She learned that the girl was well, and, to her surprise, would be in +presently. Then the season was over, she decided, and recollecting +herself, gave her name. +</P> + +<P> +He smiled. "I thought as much from the way you spoke her name," he +said. "Elsie will be delighted. May I call Mrs. Middleton?" +</P> + +<P> +"Just a moment, please. I felt troubled about Elsie, Mr. Middleton, +and came on without writing or sending word. I'm impulsive too, like +Elsie, though only her stepmother." +</P> + +<P> +He had never felt that Elsie was impulsive, and as he looked up in some +surprise, she wondered if he minded her comparing herself to Elsie, and +so to his sister. +</P> + +<P> +"Perhaps I should have sent word," she went on. "But I hesitated. I +knew you didn't approve of Elsie's father marrying me." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, if I had any such feeling, it has long since +disappeared," he assured her earnestly. "From the moment I saw Elsie +and realized what you have made of her, I have felt only the gratitude +I am sure my sister would have felt for your devotion to her motherless +child." +</P> + +<P> +"Thank you," she said. "Now about Elsie——" +</P> + +<P> +But she couldn't go on. A sudden wave of indignation swept over her. +If he had felt kindly toward her, why hadn't he warned her? +</P> + +<P> +He glanced at her with some concern. She seemed so fatigued and +overwrought after the long journey that he begged her to let him call +Mrs. Middleton that she might have a cup of tea and go to her room +before Elsie's return. The latter had gone into town but would be back +very soon, for she went into the library at four. +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss stared at him, and he asked if Elsie hadn't told her that she +had been assistant librarian since September. +</P> + +<P> +She shook her head. He wondered, and when she had again refused +refreshment or rest, explained. As he did so, it came out that she +knew little or nothing of Elsie's activities, and he launched into +glowing descriptions. And the further he went, the more she marvelled. +She couldn't understand how Elsie had become the sedate, dutiful girl +he portrayed unless some great blow had fallen upon her. Then she +recollected what had brought her hither. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie has been away lately?" she asked. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, no, Mrs. Moss, she only went into Boston to do some shopping." +</P> + +<P> +"But she was in New York in May?" +</P> + +<P> +"Why, no," he returned with some surprise. "I'm sorry to say she +hasn't been away overnight since she came. But we have made up our +minds she shall have a change this summer, and now that you are here, +we shall surely be able to put it through. Perhaps you will go to the +shore with her? Of course you will spend the summer with us? Mrs. +Middleton will insist." +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss was too dazed to reply. Indeed, the only statement she had +taken in was that Elsie had not been away since she came. For an +instant she wondered if she could have mistaken. But that could not +be. Surely there were no two girls in the country who would have +selected that particular song and have had peculiar dimples into the +bargain. On the other hand, Elsie couldn't have been in two places at +once. Neither could she have been away without his knowledge. It +wasn't conceivable that he—— +</P> + +<P> +It struck her coldly that he was not in his right mind—that this +handsome, courteous gentleman was mildly insane. In spite of his fine +manner and bearing, his every word had been irrational. She hazarded +one last question. +</P> + +<P> +"Has Elsie said anything—shown any interest in the stage?" +</P> + +<P> +As she spoke, there was a curious expression on her face—it seemed to +him so watchful as to be almost furtive. He began to suspect that +something was wrong. She was certainly overwrought and almost +hysterical—beyond anything the journey would bring about. Possibly +that was the explanation of the mystery. Elsie had rarely spoken of +her stepmother. Perhaps her husband's death had unbalanced her mind? +</P> + +<P> +Whereupon he murmured something soothingly and courteously evasive that +confirmed Mrs. Moss in her suspicion with regard to him, his mind was +wandering now; he had illusions, without doubt. Quite likely Elsie was +now in New York, and he constantly believed her to be in Boston for the +day, coming back in time for the library. And Mrs. Moss wondered how +she could get the ear of the lady on the porch. +</P> + +<P> +She could see her through the window. Now she saw that she had a mass +of wool, red, white, and blue, in her lap and was knitting a +curious-looking article, and it came to her that perhaps she, too, was +out of her mind? Perhaps this was a mental sanitarium? True, she had +inquired for the <I>parsonage</I>. Could it be that in the cultured East +that was a new euphemism for insane asylum? +</P> + +<P> +But that idea was too ludicrous, and suddenly struck by the absurdity, +she laughed out. Her laugh was so merry and infectious as to lay his +suspicion at once, and he couldn't help joining her. And then, +somehow, each understood the misapprehension of the other, and they +laughed the harder. +</P> + +<P> +Even as they laughed, there was a light step on the veranda outside, +and some one cried <I>Elsie</I> in a tone of warm welcome. +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Middleton had risen. "Shall I tell her who it is, or just send her +in, saying that it's an old friend?" he asked in a low voice. +</P> + +<P> +Her heart was beating violently. "Don't tell her who it is," she +begged weakly and shrank back as he opened the door. +</P> + +<P> +He closed it behind him and she waited breathlessly. She forgot +everything except that she was to see Elsie. At the first sound she +sprang to her feet, and as the door opened—not with Elsie's +characteristic fling—she held out her arms. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie!" she cried, then started violently. +</P> + +<P> +A total stranger stood before her, a pretty girl with a sweet face and +long light-brown curls hanging from her neck. +</P> + +<P> +"And who are you?" she cried wildly. "Am I mad or is this a lunatic +asylum?" +</P> + +<P> +For a moment the girl stared at her with sweet perplexed face. Was she +another patient, then? thought the distressed woman. +</P> + +<P> +"I am Mrs. Moss," she said in a sort of desperation. "Pray tell me who +you are and where I am?" +</P> + +<P> +All the pretty color left the girl's face. She stepped back and leaned +against the door. +</P> + +<P> +"This is the parsonage," she faltered. "I am Elsie Pritchard Marley. +Your Elsie is in New York with my cousin. We exchanged." +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap31"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXXI +</H3> + +<P> +On the Saturday afternoon following the arrival of Mrs. Moss at +Enderby, Miss Pritchard and Elsie had just seated themselves in the +former's cool, pleasant room for the purpose of discussing summer +clothes for the latter. A maid came to the door and brought in a card. +</P> + +<P> +"Mrs. Richard Moss! I'm sure I don't know any such person; do you, +Elsie?" Miss Pritchard exclaimed, frowning as she attempted to +recollect whether that could be the married name of any one who had +formerly been at Miss Peacock's. As she looked up she saw that Elsie +was almost ghastly white. +</P> + +<P> +She sprang from her chair and went to her. +</P> + +<P> +"Elsie, darling, are you ill?" she cried. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie almost gasped. +</P> + +<P> +"No, Cousin Julia, only—startled, <I>scared</I>," she said in a strange +voice that frightened Miss Pritchard still further. +</P> + +<P> +But the maid waited. About to ask her to excuse her to Mrs. Moss, she +looked again at Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +"You don't know her, dear?" she said gently, putting the card before +her. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes—I do. That's what—fazed me," gasped Elsie. "It's +my—stepmother. I'm afraid something awful has happened." +</P> + +<P> +Now Miss Pritchard was white, too. +</P> + +<P> +"My child, are you out of your head?" she exclaimed. "What are you +talking about? You never had a stepmother. You couldn't have." +</P> + +<P> +Then she half smiled. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Elsie!" she cried reproachfully, "it's some of your stage friends +come to see you. How you startled me! I'll settle with you later for +that and give you a good scolding, but I won't stop now. Will you have +her up here or down in the parlor?" +</P> + +<P> +"Please, let's have her up here," said the white-faced girl in the same +strained tone. "There's nothing to do now but go through with it. It +serves me just right. But——" +</P> + +<P> +Without understanding, her heart beating strangely, Miss Pritchard +asked that Mrs. Moss be brought up. +</P> + +<P> +They waited in silence. Presently the caller was ushered in, a slender +woman clad in black, with a young-looking, sad face. Seeing Elsie, she +too became very white. But the girl rushed upon her, flung her arms +about her, and hid her face on her shoulder. And the stranger clasped +her close. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard stared in amazement. She hadn't known of any warm +friend of Elsie's except the young girl in Enderby; but this was +unmistakably an affection of long standing. For a moment she stood +stock-still. Then somehow she got them both over to the sofa, relieved +Mrs. Moss of her wraps, and sat down near. +</P> + +<P> +"I don't understand," she said finally. "You are evidently an old +friend of my little cousin's. Perhaps you are the lady she stayed with +while she was finishing her school after Mrs. Pritchard's death?" +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss looked hard at Elsie, reproachfully yet lovingly. It was so +good to see the girl that the plans she had laid as she came on from +Massachusetts escaped her. She spoke at random, and might have +imparted the same impression of mental irresponsibility that she had +given Mr. Middleton. +</P> + +<P> +"She hasn't any grandmother. She never had one. And she isn't——" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, <I>Moss</I>, I have it!" exclaimed Miss Pritchard. "You're the mother +of Elsie's friend at Enderby—though I believed her to be an orphan all +this time." +</P> + +<P> +"I am Elsie's stepmother, and she isn't your cousin at all," declared +Mrs. Moss sadly. "She's only a very naughty girl playing a trick on +you." +</P> + +<P> +Then for the first time Miss Pritchard spoke sternly to Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +"If this is a trick, a part of your stage business, won't you please +bring it to a close right here!" she demanded. "It has gone too far +already." +</P> + +<P> +"My dear Miss Pritchard, will you allow me to explain?" said Mrs. Moss. +Then she turned to the girl. "Or will you do it, Elsie? I went to +Enderby to see you and found that other girl and learned the truth from +her." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie drew away a little. +</P> + +<P> +"You tell her, please, auntie, I couldn't," she faltered. She clasped +her hands tightly. Her face was whiter than before. +</P> + +<P> +"Miss Pritchard, if you will have patience and bear with me for a +little, I hope I can make things plain, though I can't make them +right," said Mrs. Moss rather appealingly. "I have just come from +Enderby, Massachusetts, where Elsie's uncle and guardian lives. I got +worried and went there to see about Elsie. I came all the way from +California." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard stared at her in amazement. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, auntie!" cried Elsie in distress. Then she went to Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +"Kiss me just once, Cousin Julia, kiss me hard," she entreated. And +Miss Pritchard clasped her to her heart. +</P> + +<P> +The girl resumed her place on the sofa and sat motionless, her eyes +upon her clasped hands. Mrs. Moss endeavored to get the main fact out. +</P> + +<P> +"I found there instead of this Elsie, instead of Mr. Middleton's own +niece, a strange girl who has lived there since last June as Elsie +Moss. Her first name happened to be Elsie, too, but her last name is +Pritchard—Marley, I should say." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, I must be stupid, but I cannot understand what you +mean!" cried Miss Pritchard. And Elsie choked. +</P> + +<P> +"I'll begin again," said Mrs. Moss with mournful patience. "A year ago +this Elsie, <I>my</I> Elsie, Elsie Moss, started East to live with her +uncle, John Middleton, in Enderby, Massachusetts. On the train she +fell in with this Marley girl who was coming on to New York to live +with her cousin, Miss Pritchard. Elsie was badly stage-struck and wild +over New York, and the other girl didn't mind a quiet country town, and +they calmly changed places—and names. Elsie Moss came to you—with no +claim in the world upon your hospitality; and your relative, Elsie +Marley, imposed upon the Middletons in the same fashion. And they have +gone on with the imposture for practically a year." +</P> + +<P> +As she continued, one detail after another fitted into the framework +she made, and Miss Pritchard grasped the situation fully. Stunned and +wholly at a loss, she glanced at Elsie. The girl sat like a statue, +white with downcast eyes. Miss Pritchard went to the window and stood +gazing out for some moments. +</P> + +<P> +When she returned to her place, her expression was composed, but her +face looked suddenly strangely worn and older. She looked into Mrs. +Moss's eyes as who should say "How could she!" But she spoke to the +girl. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, Elsie?" she asked quietly. +</P> + +<P> +"That was why I hedged about going to Enderby," said Elsie +incoherently, "I didn't dare let Uncle John see my dimples. They would +give me away, you see, Cousin Julia." +</P> + +<P> +Then she suddenly bethought herself. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, but you're not my Cousin Julia any more!" she cried, and burst +into a tumult of weeping. +</P> + +<P> +Her stepmother gathered the girl to her, and Elsie sobbed wildly on her +breast. Mrs. Moss, who had been more severe with Elsie Marley at +Enderby than she had ever been with any one before, was now disposed to +be very gentle—perhaps over-lenient—with the real culprit. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, Elsie, I am your Cousin Julia—to the end of things," Miss +Pritchard assured her. And she spoke almost solemnly. "But tell me, +dear—you didn't know what you were doing? Oh, Elsie, you didn't +realize that it wasn't—that it was—wrong?" +</P> + +<P> +"Not at first—not when I did it," sobbed Elsie. Then she uncovered +her face. "But I knew afterward. It came to me then, and I knew it +was the sort of wrong you think worst of all. And so do I, honestly, +Cousin Julia." +</P> + +<P> +Again Miss Pritchard walked to the window. Elsie's eyes followed her +in agonized appeal. +</P> + +<P> +"Cousin Julia!" she cried desperately. And Miss Pritchard was at her +side in a moment. But though her face was all tenderness and sympathy, +the pain that shone through it would have been severe retribution even +had Elsie been altogether impenitent. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Cousin Julia, I was sorry!" the girl cried, "I was terribly sorry. +But it only came on me when everything was—sort of—<I>fixed</I>, you know. +I couldn't bear to break up Elsie Marley's happiness at Enderby, and—I +couldn't bear to have it—hurt you—though I know this is a lot worse. +So I was going to disappear. I had my mind all made up. I was going +to leave a letter so that you wouldn't feel troubled. And I thought +that would sort of make up for everything, because I never would have +been happy again. And then—oh, Cousin Julia, then came that chance +that I knew led straight to the stage, and I lost my head. I chose to +be wicked, and I suppose I lost my soul as well as my head, +only—there's something that hurts as if I still had one." +</P> + +<P> +Again the girl wept wildly. But now Miss Pritchard's arm was enfolding +her. +</P> + +<P> +"No, precious child, you haven't lost it. And if you were sorry—but +we won't talk more about it now. I'll hold that in my heart as comfort +until to-morrow and then we'll see what we can do to straighten it all +out. At this moment we must consider that there's the evening +performance to go through, and being the last, it will be very taxing. +Somehow, we'll make things right, among us all. You go to your room +now and lie down. If you think of this, only say to yourself that it's +over, and be thankful for that. And we two women who love you so that +we're all but jealous of one another already will plan the next—or +rather, the first move. Come, child." +</P> + +<P> +At the door Elsie turned. "Is the other Elsie all right, auntie?" she +asked anxiously. +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, dear," returned Mrs. Moss rather doubtfully. "At least—well, as +a matter of fact the poor child is just—waiting. I made her promise +not to say a word to the Middletons until I came on here and returned. +I am afraid—dear me, I am sure I don't know <I>what</I> I said to the girl. +I am afraid I must have been rather hard on her." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, auntie! And it wasn't her fault in the least! I just dragged her +into it. It was all for me. And she's the sweetest, gentlest thing! +And not the least little bit her fault! Oh, dear! Oh, dear!" +</P> + +<P> +The girl wrung her hands in genuine distress. Mrs. Moss shook her head +mournfully. +</P> + +<P> +"I might have known," she acknowledged regretfully. "But, oh, Miss +Pritchard, I was nearly distracted. It all came upon me so +suddenly—not a whisper of warning." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard could understand what that meant. She led Elsie into +her room and established her upon the bed. Elsie talked incoherently +and at random, until Miss Pritchard had to declare that she must go +back to Mrs. Moss. Kissing the girl again, she bade her forget +everything for the time being and rest. And though she stifled the +deep sigh that rose involuntarily, Miss Pritchard felt as if she was +staggering as she left the room. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap32"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXXII +</H3> + +<P> +For some time Miss Pritchard and Mrs. Moss discussed, not as they had +purposed, the way out of it, but the affair itself: the change of names +and destinations and the year of masquerading. They marvelled equally at +the audacity and the success of the scheme, and the various circumstances +that had favored it. Miss Pritchard reviewed the year aloud in the light +of the discovery, with eager comment from the other. +</P> + +<P> +"How Elsie could have accepted so much from you, knowing all the while +she was deceiving you, I cannot understand!" cried Mrs. Moss, shaking her +head sadly. +</P> + +<P> +"Accepted! Oh, Mrs. Moss, if you could only know half the girl gave, you +wouldn't speak of accepting!" protested Miss Pritchard. "She has made +this year the happiest of my life, that captivating, lovely child has. +As for deceiving—she didn't mean any such thing, and it wasn't real +deceit in her case. She said just now she always felt as if I were +really her cousin. When she swapped, she did it in such a whole-hearted +way that she was herself almost as deluded as I. And later, when she +began to realize, she suffered—looking back, I begin to understand that +she has suffered torture." +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss suddenly bethought herself. +</P> + +<P> +"The question is, what is to be done?" she repeated. "You see, I have +left that girl in Enderby in a most uncomfortable position. The +Middletons as yet know nothing. I shall have to break it to them, but +before I do so, I want to come to some sort of an understanding with you." +</P> + +<P> +"I confess, I don't see any way out of it at this moment," returned Miss +Pritchard. "Dear me, I can't yet really realize we're in it." +</P> + +<P> +"The simple thing would seem to be to just——" +</P> + +<P> +"Swap back? Oh, it wouldn't be possible after all this time, my dear +Mrs. Moss!" cried Miss Pritchard, really aghast. +</P> + +<P> +"We shall have to see how the Middletons feel, of course," admitted Mrs. +Moss. "Oh, Miss Pritchard, couldn't you go back with me to-night and +then all of us talk it over together? I don't believe we'll ever come to +any understanding unless you do. My flying back and forth between you +like a shuttlecock isn't going to amount to anything." +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, I will go on to Enderby—there's no other way," agreed Miss +Pritchard, "but I can't go tonight, because Elsie has an engagement. +It's her last appearance at that wretched place, I'm thankful to say. +She and I will follow you to-morrow. Meantime, you can give them the +plain facts to digest." +</P> + +<P> +She smiled half grimly. "As a matter of fact, I have a suite of rooms +engaged at the inn at Enderby for the last two weeks in June and for July +and August, though I never dreamed of any such complication, as you know. +Like as not we all—you and Elsie and I—can occupy them now—I can +telegraph presently. Dear me, dear me! what a pair of thoughtless scamps +these children were. And yet—what hasn't it meant to me to know Elsie? +Oh, Mrs. Moss, I can't face giving her up. I simply cannot face it." +</P> + +<P> +"Of course, Mr. Middleton is her guardian," remarked Mrs. Moss, who +sympathized with Miss Pritchard, but felt she might remember that she had +had to part with Elsie a year ago, after having had her from a child. +"He seems like one who would do the right thing," she added, "but of +course he was devoted to Elsie's mother." +</P> + +<P> +"No doubt he'll be glad to hand over little Pritchard to me?" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, he seemed attached to her. But of course being a clergyman he may +judge her very severely." +</P> + +<P> +"I wish we could all go to Enderby this very moment," cried Miss +Pritchard impatiently. "If it weren't for that old movie-show!" +</P> + +<P> +Then the other forgot Enderby. "Oh, Miss Pritchard, tell me, is Elsie +very deeply concerned?" she asked anxiously. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard related the matter in detail. Mrs. Moss was distressed +beyond words, though she was cheered when the other repeated Madame +Valentini's dictum in regard to the girl's voice, and the yet more +authoritative word of Mr. Francis. And then and there the two women who +cared deeply for one little girl decided that that night should close her +theatrical career, not only for the season but forever. And they added +that whatever be the outcome of the conference at Enderby, Elsie must +begin in the late summer or early autumn to study with the teacher in +Boston recommended by Mr. Francis. +</P> + +<P> +"The child has actually grown rich overnight," observed Miss Pritchard. +"She has saved all she has earned and if need be could pay for her own +lessons for a time at least. But I should like nothing better than to +retire and take her to live in some quiet place near Boston, and then go +abroad with her when the time comes. I've got enough to do that and yet +do something for that girl at Enderby." +</P> + +<P> +She paused in her pacing, sat down suddenly and frowned deeply. +</P> + +<P> +"There's no use," she groaned. "That Mr. Middleton will take her away +from me, mark my word. What sort of a man is he, anyhow?" +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss didn't confess that she had taken him for a lunatic; but her +description was colorless. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course, I should be only too glad to take Elsie back with me," she +added wistfully, "though I couldn't give her advantages." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard gave her a look of sympathy, though she couldn't conceive +of her wanting Elsie as she herself did. +</P> + +<P> +"Neither you nor I will have any chance," she returned gloomily. "He'll +snap her up—that minister. And I shall be desolate in my old age—for I +shall grow old in a night if I lose Elsie." +</P> + +<P> +"But there's the other Elsie," rejoined Mrs. Moss plaintively. "There +seems to be one apiece for every one except me." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, <I>Elsie Pritchard</I>! Good heavens!" Miss Pritchard began her pacing +again. "I shall have her on my hands. I never thought of that!" +</P> + +<P> +"I suppose you'd hardly expect to have them both," remarked the other +mildly. +</P> + +<P> +"I certainly won't have Elsie Pritchard by herself!" Miss Pritchard +retorted. Then she laughed at herself, though ruefully. +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, that accounts for the five hundred dollars!" she exclaimed suddenly. +</P> + +<P> +"I don't understand what you mean," murmured Mrs. Moss plaintively. Now +even Miss Pritchard had begun to talk like Alice in Wonderland. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard paused in her walk and explained rapidly and in great +detail, leaving Mrs. Moss as much in the dark as before. Again she went +the length of the room, pausing before Mrs. Moss to demand: "What sort of +a girl is this Elsie Pritchard?" +</P> + +<P> +"To tell the truth, I was so taken aback, I scarcely noticed. She's a +pretty girl and ladylike." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard groaned. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, I think she looks as if she had character," Mrs. Moss added. +</P> + +<P> +"Any ginger?" +</P> + +<P> +"Well, perhaps not," the other admitted. "But you should have heard Mr. +Middleton talk about her—er—work in the parish." +</P> + +<P> +"Good heavens! Visiting the sick and distributing tracts?" +</P> + +<P> +"Not exactly," Mrs. Moss smiled. "He spoke about the library and—well, +I'm afraid I didn't take in the rest." +</P> + +<P> +"Never mind, I can guess. And I see my finish when she gets hold of me. +She'll endeavor to reform me. A year ago, now, I was prepared for a +superior person. But after Elsie——" +</P> + +<P> +"What mischief they made! And yet, Miss Pritchard, it was all done +thoughtlessly." +</P> + +<P> +"I know. And poor Elsie—I'm afraid we came down pretty hard on her. I +think I'll just go and see how she is." +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss followed. Miss Pritchard tapped lightly at Elsie's door. +There was no response and she opened it softly. Then she beckoned the +other with a look on her plain face that made it very sweet. +</P> + +<P> +Together they stood over the little figure on the big bed. Elsie had +cried herself to sleep. She looked young and sweet and innocent, her +brown head with its short locks against the pillow, her lips parted, her +hand under one cheek, and the shadow of a dimple visible. +</P> + +<P> +They turned away, the eyes of both being filled with tears. And when +they were back in Miss Pritchard's sitting-room they seemed somehow +nearer one another, almost like old friends. +</P> + +<P> +"She's too sweet and good for the stage," cried Mrs. Moss. "Do you +suppose we can get her away? Do you think she'll be willing to give up +and cultivate her voice instead?" +</P> + +<P> +"<I>Willing</I>? Not Elsie! The child's more crazy about the stage than +ever. And as for easily persuading her to settle down to daily drudgery +with no excitement in view for years—" She shrugged her shoulders. +</P> + +<P> +"She doesn't look now as if she had a will of her own, does she, with her +hand under her cheek and her darling baby lips parted?" cried her +step-mother. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard's eyes filled a second time. Then suddenly an idea +flashed into her mind. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, you'll be awfully shocked, but do you know what your +words have put into my head? I feel like a wicked conspirator collecting +his pals, but—listen—you and I must attack Elsie at once and get her to +forswear the stage and take up music." +</P> + +<P> +Mrs. Moss couldn't see any difference in this proposition from anything +previously proposed. +</P> + +<P> +"What I mean is, we must do it this very day," the other went on. "We've +got to strike while the iron is hot. The child is in a chastened state; +she's sorry and ashamed and unusually meek. We've got to be wolves and +prey upon the poor lamb in her moment of defenselessness. She'll agree +to anything to-day. Oh, Mrs. Moss, it sounds cruel and hateful, but it's +really for her good. If you'll stand by me, I'll attempt it." +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap33"></A> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXXIII +</H3> + +<P> +Elsie Marley had let Mrs. Moss out by the side-door, and half an hour +later she passed out that way herself. She had promised not to say +anything until she returned, and so couldn't even leave a note to explain +her own going. She would write one to-night to bid them wait for Mrs. +Moss's explanation. And afterward she could tell them that she couldn't +bear to see them again. And by that time they would have their own Elsie +with the dimples. +</P> + +<P> +And she would be with Miss Pritchard? She supposed so, but she couldn't +go there to-night. Eventually, she must; she wasn't sufficiently clever +or self-reliant to take care of herself; but she wouldn't go to New York +while Mrs. Moss—that terrible Mrs. Moss—was there. What she had said +was quite true, but oh, it had been hard and cruel, and Elsie could never +forget it! +</P> + +<P> +She had made up her mind to go into Boston to a hotel where she had +lunched several times, write Cousin Julia from there, and wait until she +should hear from her. She was anxious to get away before Mr. Middleton, +who had gone to the library in her place, should return. And yet she +took a wide detour that doubled the way to the station; for she could not +bear to go near the street on which the library stood. +</P> + +<P> +Forgetting her haste, before she had gone far, she turned and looked back +at the parsonage. It was like home to her. Leaving it forever, she +realized dimly that it was home to her, the only real home her life had +known. And Aunt Milly? Once, not so long ago, Elsie couldn't have +imagined herself wanting to go back and throw her arms about her and tell +her she wished she had understood and loved her long before. And +Katy—dear old Katy!—— +</P> + +<P> +Turning away, she almost ran. She met no one in the out-of-the-way path +she chose, and she was to take the six-two train for Boston, which +Enderby people rarely used. +</P> + +<P> +The station stood on a hill. As she climbed it, Elsie decided to ask the +agent, whom she knew slightly, to telephone to the parsonage after the +train had gone to say that something had called her away, and that Mrs. +Moss would explain. Fearing lest he might forget the latter clause, she +stopped and wrote the message out. As she did so, it came to her that +they might think she had gone away with her stepmother, and wouldn't be +disturbed. +</P> + +<P> +As she took up her satchel again, she heard some one behind her on the +wooden walk. Kate had come by the direct way, but she had stopped to put +a skirt and jacket over her kitchen-dress and to squeeze her feet into +boots to hide the holes in her stockings. Warm with the extra clothing +and the unusual effort, Kate actually panted as she caught up to Elsie +and seized hold of her as if she were rescuing her from drowning. +</P> + +<P> +"Why, Katy, has anything happened?" the girl inquired anxiously. +</P> + +<P> +"Anything happened? Well, I like that!" ejaculated Kate between her +gasps. "No, nothin's happened yet, but I suspicioned something was +a-goin' to and so I hiked along after you. What are you a-doin' up here +and himself gettin' all tired out at that library?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie's heart sank yet lower. "There won't be many in to-day, Katy," she +said meekly. "And anyhow—but don't keep me, Katy, I must——" +</P> + +<P> +"No, you mustn't, Miss Elsie, no such thing. You're a-comin' straight +home with your own Katy. Do you want your aunt a-fallin' down in one of +her heart-spells, and her so well and happy for the first time sence I +come? She'll have one sure's you're born if you ain't there for your +supper—and me after makin' shepherd's pie!" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie paled. "Oh, Katy, I can't go back, honestly I can't, but you'll +make it right with them, won't you? Tell them I <I>had</I> to go and +she—Mrs. Moss—will explain when she comes back." +</P> + +<P> +"You just come back yourself and wait for her, Miss Elsie. The missus +will have one of them flop-overs the first thing if you don't, and then +for himself to come home tired from the library and find her in that +state and you not by to break it to him, and him not so young as he was +once, you know!" +</P> + +<P> +Tears streamed down the girl's distressed face. Kate took her satchel +while she got out her pocket-handkerchief, and then would not loose her +hold on it. Elsie started on, Kate by her side. +</P> + +<P> +"If you're bound to go, then, you might as well get two tickets, for I'm +goin' with you," the latter said stoutly. +</P> + +<P> +Elsie looked at her in amazement. +</P> + +<P> +"Sure thing. If you go, I go," Kate insisted. +</P> + +<P> +"But, Katy, you wouldn't do such a thing? You wouldn't leave—them?" +</P> + +<P> +"Indeed I would," Kate returned exultantly, feeling that she had scored. +"I'll go by the same train. I've got some money in my stocking. I +couldn't face the music with her in a dead faint, and himself like as not +havin' a shock." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie stopped short. "Katy, why will you say such dreadful things?" she +cried. "Honestly, it's only a question of a day or two. I've got to go +away, and why can't you let me do it quietly now instead of waiting and +having it still harder." +</P> + +<P> +"You don't mind the easiest way for you bein' the hardest for them?" +</P> + +<P> +"Yes, I do. But I can't go back. I cannot—act another day." +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, yes you can," replied Kate soothingly. "And, besides, it'll all +come right if you just hang on. I knew something was strange—I've +suspicioned it ever sence you come. Wasn't it me as went around and took +all your baby pictures out o' the old albums and others with big round +dimples out o' velvet photograph-frames, and himself lookin' everywhere +for 'em and me never lettin' on? I says to myself you wasn't really +yourself, but like enough a cousin or foster-sister, and just as good and +perhaps more satisfactory. Come, we'll just race around home and go in +by the back-door so as to be there for supper as if nothin'd happened." +</P> + +<P> +Just before they reached the kitchen door, Elsie spoke. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Katy, couldn't I stay in my room until she—Mrs. Moss comes? My +head does ache—terribly." +</P> + +<P> +"Well, child, you go up there now, anyhow, and Katy'll see what her big +head can do." +</P> + +<P> +The quick-witted woman got out of her suit and into her slipshod shoes +and went straight to Mrs. Middleton. +</P> + +<P> +"That Mis' Moss flew right off, ma'am—forgot somethin' she had to do in +New York, it seems, and off she goes. Them Westerners, you know, is +reg'lar globe-trotters. She's comin' back to accept our hospitality on +Sunday, it seems, but here I am with a company supper fit for the Empress +of Injy and plans for meals all day to-morrow and a bed made up. I +suppose you wouldn't want to ask Miss Dunham to make her visit now and +help eat things up? The pineys are all in blossom, too." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Dunham was an elderly, crippled parishioner who lived a little out +of town and came each year to the parsonage for a day or two. Mrs. +Middleton threw her arms about Kate. +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, Katy, what a dear you are to think of it! It's just the thing. Day +after to-morrow is children's Sunday and she'll enjoy that, and I'm going +to church myself and surprise Mr. Middleton. That is why Elsie went into +Boston to-day—to get me some gloves and a dove-colored sunshade. Do you +think you can get her here to-night, Katy?" +</P> + +<P> +"I'll telephone to himself at the library," said patient Kate, who hated +the telephone. "And we'll wait supper." +</P> + +<P> +The plan worked perfectly. The minister fetched Miss Dunham in a +motor-car in time for a late tea. Only Kate and Elsie knew what her +visit meant to the latter, and Kate didn't understand fully. Mrs. Moss +arrived on Sunday shortly after the guest had gone. +</P> + +<P> +But at best Elsie had suffered keenly, and when Mrs. Moss found her pale +and hollow-eyed, she felt conscience-stricken. But she had no +opportunity to give her any of Elsie Moss's cheering messages, for she +went into immediate conference with the Middletons. +</P> + +<P> +They talked for an hour. The waiting was agony for the girl, and she was +at once relieved and desperate when at length she was summoned down to +the study. Mrs. Middleton beckoned her to a place beside her on the +couch, and Elsie dropped gratefully into it. She could not raise her +eyes; she sat with her hands clasped tightly, very pale, yet aware +somehow, at the very first, of the kindness, the sheltering kindness, as +it were, of the woman at her side. And while she had steeled herself to +endure the coldness of Mr. Middleton's voice, it had never been more +gentle. +</P> + +<P> +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story, now. It seemed a sad mix-up at +first—what a friend of mine up-State would call a 'pretty kettle of +fish'; but with Aunt Milly's assistance we managed to get at the crux of +the affair and see things more clearly. Aunt Milly declares it was just +child's play: that you girls had no more idea of doing anything wrong, of +deceiving, than she had last winter when her new hat came from the +milliner's and she decided to wear it back foremost and never told any +one what she was doing." +</P> + +<A NAME="img-260"></A> +<CENTER> +<IMG CLASS="imgcenter" SRC="images/img-260.jpg" ALT=""Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now."" BORDER="2" WIDTH="562" HEIGHT="444"> +<H3 CLASS="h3center" STYLE="width: 562px"> +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now." +</H3> +</CENTER> + +<P> +Elsie knew from his voice that he was smiling. She wanted to thank him +for his kindness; she longed to raise her eyes gratefully to Aunt Milly, +but she was powerless to do even that. He went on: +</P> + +<P> +"Mrs. Moss brings word that Miss Pritchard has become deeply attached +to—er—the other Elsie. Now that isn't a circumstance to our case. For +my part, I couldn't possibly have cared more for my dear sister's +daughter than I have come to care for you, Elsie, and Aunt Milly is +convinced she couldn't have cared for her nearly so much. In any event, +we cannot give you up. Somehow we shall have to come to an agreement +with your guardian, Miss Pritchard—that is, if you are willing?" +</P> + +<P> +Elsie knew she should burst into tears if she attempted to answer. +</P> + +<P> +"I'll speak for her. Elsie won't leave us," Mrs. Middleton declared. +</P> + +<P> +"Not if—if you——" +</P> + +<P> +The bell rang violently. +</P> + +<P> +"That sounds like Miss Pritchard now," remarked Mrs. Moss, thankful to +have the tenseness relieved. And, in truth, Kate, who was suspiciously +near the front door, ushered that lady in at once. +</P> + +<P> +Introductions were gone through hastily. The Middletons felt their +prejudice vanish at sight of her kind, worn, genuine face, and she was +deeply impressed by the minister. Of his wife, she reserved judgment. +</P> + +<P> +She kissed her young relative with more warmth than she had expected to +feel, for there were tears on the girl's white cheeks, and she looked +sweet and sorry and appealing. She was indeed a Pritchard, though not so +typically so as she had anticipated. +</P> + +<P> +The minister mentioned the point at which they had arrived in the +discussion, and for a little they talked all round the matter. Then Miss +Pritchard presented her conclusions. +</P> + +<P> +"Those babes took things into their own hands in great style a year ago," +she declared. "They got hold of a deck of cards and shuffled them to +suit themselves, not realizing that isn't the way to play the game. They +shouldn't have touched the cards and they shouldn't have shuffled them; +but somehow they happened to make a good deal all round. As the game has +come out, we all like it. We shouldn't, indeed, be willing to go back +and deal out fresh hands. Am I wrong?" +</P> + +<P> +The rejoinder indicated that she was wholly in the right. +</P> + +<P> +"Now, for my part, I'm used to Elsie Moss and I want to keep her, but I +wouldn't take her out of reach of her own kin—at least not for some +time. There's a man in Boston I want her to study with—she's going to +be an opera-singer—and we're to be here at the inn all summer so that we +can get respectively acquainted with our shuffled kith and kin—I want a +chance to know my little Pritchard cousin, too." +</P> + +<P> +It seemed easier to speak beside the point than to the question. +Thereupon the minister suggested that Miss Pritchard should remain +permanently at Enderby. That might well have waited, but Miss Pritchard +declared she had already thought of taking a house in the fall. +</P> + +<P> +"I thought if you insisted upon trading back, we'd all be in sight of one +another that way, even though we elders might be mutually hating each +other," she added. +</P> + +<P> +Whereupon they began to mention particular houses, and would have gone on +indefinitely but for Mrs. Moss. It was she, the outsider, for whom, +whatever the sequel, there would be no place in the plans, who called +them back to the real matter at issue. +</P> + +<P> +"Apparently, then," she said, "you're going to let things remain largely +in the <I>status quo</I>. But one difficulty comes to my mind. When all is +said, my Elsie was wholly at fault in all this. She's sorry now, but for +all that, I'm afraid she hasn't taken it so hard as this Elsie here, and +what's more—this is what I'm getting at: Elsie Moss can drop the name +she assumed falsely and, going elsewhere, resume her own as a matter of +course. But this Elsie, who has become well acquainted here and entered +into the life of the place, cannot suddenly change from Moss to Marley +without a great deal of pain to herself." +</P> + +<P> +Quite true. No one had thought of that. It seemed appalling! +</P> + +<P> +"Of course," Mrs. Moss went on rather doubtfully, "she could keep on with +the name. It's perfectly possible to have two Elsie Mosses in one +family. People would only take them for cousins." +</P> + +<P> +"It's possible," the minister acknowledged, "but it wouldn't be right. +It wouldn't be honorable for Elsie to continue to use the name now." +</P> + +<P> +"Ah, but Jack, it would be cruelly hard for her to change back to +Marley!" cried his wife; and he sadly agreed. +</P> + +<P> +"Do you think you could go through it, dear?" he asked, turning to Elsie. +</P> + +<P> +"I ought to bear something a great deal harder," cried Elsie suddenly. +</P> + +<P> +"No, you ought not, my dear," rejoined Mrs. Middleton. "No, Jack, it +would be too hard on Elsie—on any young girl; and, besides, it would +hurt her influence at the library and with the schoolgirls. If people +could understand everything clearly, it would be another matter, but they +couldn't. Elsie's best friends know it. For my part, I don't believe +she deserves any punishment for doing wrong unconsciously—especially +since she's been such an angel of mercy to this house. But even if she +had, she's suffered enough already to atone—with plenary grace." +</P> + +<P> +"She's got to go by some name," Miss Pritchard remarked palpably, but +that gave Mrs. Middleton a suggestion. +</P> + +<P> +"I know," she cried. "Oh, Jack! Oh, Elsie!" and her face was quite +irradiated with love and good-will. "I know exactly what we'll do! +Elsie is just seventeen. We'll adopt her, Jack, for our own daughter, +and she shall wear our name henceforth. She shall be Elsie Middleton, +and Elsie Moss shall remain Elsie Moss, and they'll really be cousins." +</P> + +<P> +She held out her arms, and Elsie nestled into them. +</P> + +<P> +"My dearest Mildred!" cried her husband, going over to them in his +enthusiasm. "Isn't she wonderful?" he demanded, and almost in the same +breath asked Miss Pritchard's consent to legalize the adoption. +</P> + +<P> +"Of course, only after suitable arrangements and provision were made, +Miss Pritchard. All we want now is your general or conditional approval." +</P> + +<P> +Miss Pritchard smiled as she sighed. "I'm sure I don't know what the +Pritchards would say, but if Elsie's willing I confess I don't see any +objection." +</P> + +<P> +Elsie's expression made any questioning of her unnecessary. +</P> + +<P> +"My own Elsie, my darling daughter," murmured Mrs. Middleton in her +sentimental way, stroking Elsie's hair. But, strange to say, Elsie found +it all very grateful. +</P> + +<P> +"As to Elsie M—" Miss Pritchard began, when she was interrupted by a +knock on the door, which she had left ajar (greatly to Kate's approval), +and Elsie Moss burst in. +</P> + +<P> +In the excitement of the moment, she seemed her old self again—though +Miss Pritchard knew it to be a lovelier self. She stood a moment in the +doorway, a charming little figure in a smart rose-colored linen suit with +a large drooping hat perched coquettishly upon her short locks, her +dimples very conspicuous. Then she rushed upon Elsie Marley, who had +come forward shyly, and flung her arms about her. +</P> + +<P> +Then she turned, her arm still about the other girl, to Miss Pritchard. +</P> + +<P> +"I couldn't wait any longer, Cousin Julia," she said sweetly. "I just +had to see Elsie-Honey." +</P> + +<P> +"We're to be real cousins," the other whispered, and the quick-witted +girl understood at once. +</P> + +<P> +"How perfectly ripping!" she cried. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: Elsie Marley, Honey + + +Author: Joslyn Gray + + + +Release Date: September 30, 2007 [eBook #22819] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY*** + + +E-text prepared by Al Haines + + + +Note: Project Gutenberg also has an HTML version of this + file which includes the original illustrations. + See 22819-h.htm or 22819-h.zip: + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/8/1/22819/22819-h/22819-h.htm) + or + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/8/1/22819/22819-h.zip) + + + + + +ELSIE MARLEY + +by + +JOSLYN GRAY + +Author of "Kathleen's Probation" + +Illustrated + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: Elsie . . . repeated the performance in a manner that +was only the more captivating.] + + + +New York +Charles Scribner's Sons + +Copyright, 1918, by +Charles Scribner's Sons + + + + +TO + +MARY BULLIONS GRAY ANDERSON + + + + +ILLUSTRATIONS + + +Elsie . . . repeated the performance in a manner that was only the more +captivating . . . . . . _Frontispiece_ + +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, +as you call it" + +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will +have none of them," he remarked + +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now" + + + + +ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY + + +CHAPTER I + +Mrs. Bennet, her travelling companion from San Francisco, having proved +to be talkative and uninteresting, Elsie Marley was more than content +to find herself alone after the change had been made and her train +pulled out of Chicago. It was characteristic of the girl that she did +not even look out of the window to see the last of Mrs. Bennet, who, +having waited on the platform until the train started and waved her +handkerchief in vain, betook herself indignantly to her carriage. +Quite unaware of any remissness on her part, Elsie settled herself +comfortably--Mrs. Bennet had disposed of her luggage--folded her hands +in her lap, and gazed idly out the window opposite. + +A pale, colorless girl, the simplicity of her dress was in almost too +great contrast with its elegance--a contrived simplicity that left no +room for any trace of careless youth or girlishness. Slender and +rather delicate-looking, she had brown eyes, regular features, and +soft, light-brown hair waving loosely about her face and hanging in two +long, demure curls from a shell clasp at her neck. But her eyes were +of rather a shallow brown, her brows and lashes still lighter; her +features were almost too regular, and her skin, though soft and clear, +was quite colorless. Even so, she might have been pretty, perhaps +lovely, had she possessed any animation. But the girl's face and even +her eyes were as nearly expressionless as human features may be. She +was like a superior sort of doll with white cheeks in lieu of red. + +After a little she opened a small leather satchel, took out a letter, +and perused it attentively. It was the last she had received from her +guardian and only living relative, Cousin Julia Pritchard, and, as she +was to see her soon, it behooved her to prepare herself so far as she +might for that occasion. For Elsie Marley realized, though dimly, that +she was to encounter a personality unlike any with which she had come +in contact in all her sheltered, luxurious life. + +"My dear Elsie," the letter ran, "I find myself very much pleased at +the thought of having you with me. The heart of a woman of fifty +cannot but rejoice in anticipation of the company of a young girl with +the ideals, the vigor, and buoyancy of sixteen. And since we are both +alone in the world, you representing all my kith and kin as I believe +myself to represent all yours, it is only fitting that we should be +together instead of being separated by the breadth of our great +American continent. + +"You will, I am sure, like this great, busy, restless, humming city, +though the only home I have to offer you, I am truly sorry to say, is +in a boarding-house, comfortable though it is. Remembering Aunt +Ellen's beautiful home in California, which I visited fifteen years +ago, I fear the change may be difficult, though, for a young person, +not too painfully so, I trust. A boarding-house is the only home I +have myself known for thirty years, and this particular one is +excellent and full of interesting people, though the youngest among +them are middle-aged. + +"I am, I repeat, happy to say that I can give you a home here and +clothe you suitably. That will release your income, which can be put +to any use which we may decide upon after consultation together. Your +lawyer tells me that you are through school, and neither you nor he +speak of any desire on your part to go to college. I suppose, however, +like most young girls, you will wish to take up some study or +occupation to fit yourself to become self-supporting or to be useful to +the world in some definite manner. I heartily sympathize with such an +aim, having worked since my eighteenth year myself, and shall be +cordially interested in helping you either to plan or to carry out a +future for yourself." + +Here Elsie broke off. Cousin Julia was certainly absurd! She had +always been regarded, indeed, by the California Pritchards as a +singular, eccentric person, rather wanting in refinement and careless +of social amenities--one from whom they were quite content to be +separated by the "breadth of our great American continent." She had +taken after her mother, who came from Nebraska--or some such place--and +the family had considered it a pity that she should have been and +remained Pritchard by name, particularly since Elsie herself, Pritchard +of Pritchards, had to go by the name Marley. + +Still the girl's smooth brow did not contract. In any event, she said +to herself, after Cousin Julia had seen her, it wasn't likely that she +would suggest that she go out and earn her living. And as for her +future, which the letter mentioned--why, her future was of course far +ahead. Elsie had rather taken it for granted that she should marry +when the proper time came, as girls did in books, as her grandmother +and mother had done, and as Aunt Ellen would have done had she not been +so frail. Once it had even occurred to her that it would be rather +appropriate if she should marry some one named Pritchard, though she +realized that to be only a remote possibility. In any event, she +didn't know why going to New York should necessarily make any essential +difference in her future, and she was thankful that she hadn't to +consider it for some years yet. Meantime, the boarding-house +confronted her. + +Very likely, however, she could endure even that. She knew it would be +comfortable, so far as that went, and she needn't mingle with the other +people. She could have a piano and continue her lessons, and she might +study vocal music. She could buy books and attend concerts and perhaps +even the theatre and opera. She could go alone in a carriage to +matinee performances, and quite likely there would be some reduced +gentlewoman living at the boarding-house who might be glad of the +chance to accompany her as chaperon in the evenings. + +For Elsie took it for granted that Cousin Julia wouldn't care for the +sort of things she was accustomed to any more than she herself would be +interested to go about with her. Somehow the girl felt that Miss +Pritchard would be devoted to vaudeville and even moving pictures--she +might even refer to the latter as "movies"! Of course, that was the +worst of the whole situation--Cousin Julia herself! For, no matter how +singular or even coarse she might be, Elsie had to live with her and to +put up with a certain amount of her society. + +That would be very difficult; still, even now, the girl seemed to see +wide spaces between. Except for Sundays and evenings when neither of +them went out, she wouldn't have to see a great deal of the older +woman. She might have to dine with her every night, but, as she worked +in a business office, she probably wouldn't be home to lunch, and of +course Elsie would have her breakfast in her room. Sunday might be +long and boring, but, whatever Cousin Julia's ideas might be, Elsie +would always insist upon going to service, and that would occupy a part +of the day. + +An hour had passed since Mrs. Bennet had left Elsie Marley. As she +returned the letter to the satchel she became aware that the train was +at a standstill and not before a station. Indeed, there was not a +building in sight: only a dreary waste of sunburnt prairie-grass +extended flatly to the glare of the burning horizon. She looked about +wonderingly, vaguely aware that they must already have waited some time. + +Her gaze included the rear of the car and emboldened a young girl who +had been watching her longingly a great part of the way from San +Francisco, to act upon her desire. Immediately she donned a coquettish +little red hat and linen top-coat, and made her way to the other girl's +seat. + +"Don't you want to come out and walk a little?" she asked in a +singularly sweet, eager voice. "There's a hot-box, or some such thing, +and they say it'll be an hour more before we get away. It might seem +good to stretch our legs on the prairie yonder?" + +Elsie Marley didn't care at all to go. Indeed, she didn't wish to make +the acquaintance of this conspicuous-looking girl with her dark hair +cut square about her ears who had travelled alone all the way from San +Francisco and seemed to know every one in the car. If she should give +her any encouragement, no doubt she would hang about her all the rest +of the way. She excused herself coldly. + +"Oh, please do, please come for just a wee turn," urged the other, +smiling and displaying a pair of marvellous dimples. And Elsie Marley +surprised herself by yielding. Possibly she was too indolent to hold +out; perhaps she felt something in the stranger that wouldn't take no +for an answer, and didn't care to struggle against it. Again, she may +have felt, dimly and against her will, something of the real charm of +the other. However that was, she yielded listlessly, put on her neat +sailor hat reluctantly, drew on the jacket of her severe and elegant +dark-blue suit, and followed the stranger slowly from the car. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +The stranger, who was dressed in a rather graceful and perhaps rather +flamboyant adaptation of the prevailing fashion, was picturesque and +radiant to the extreme: slender, dark, vivid, with big, dark eyes in a +small pointed face, dark hair "bobbed" and curling sufficiently to turn +under about her ears and neck, a rather large mouth flanked by really +extraordinary dimples, and an expression at once gay and saucy and +sweet and appealing withal. Her voice was very sweet, her unusually +finished pronunciation and enunciation giving a curious effect to her +slangy speech. She wore her clothes jauntily, carried herself with +charming grace, and her great dimples made her frank smile irresistible. + +"Do you know, I've been simply crazy all the way to come and speak to +you," she confessed as soon as they were outside. "I spotted you the +very first thing, but I was rather phased by that woman with you. +Wasn't she the--goodness gracious! I hope she wasn't any +relation--your aunt or mother?" + +"Oh, no indeed, scarcely an acquaintance," returned the other, +surprised that any one should even conjecture that Mrs. Bennet might be +connected with her. Then it occurred to her that Cousin Julia might be +even worse! + +"I never met her until a week ago," she went on languidly. "She +happened to be a friend of my lawyer's wife, and he wished me to come +as far as I could in her company. I suppose I oughtn't to travel the +rest of the way alone, but he didn't make any other arrangement." + +"Oh, it isn't bad. I've come all the way alone and everything's been +jolly. I've made awfully good friends, though they're all either +elderly or children. So your being about my age only made me want to +know you the more. Well, now that we're acquainted, we'll have to make +the most of what's left of the way. I am Elsie Moss and I was sixteen +Christmas day. Aren't you about that age?" + +"I am sixteen, Miss Moss," returned Elsie Marley formally. + +"But don't call me _Miss_," pleaded the other. "_Everybody_ calls me +Elsie." + +Elsie Marley did not reply. She disliked the idea that the +unchaperoned stranger should be Elsie, also, and should even have the +same initials. Her imagination was limited; still it occurred to her +that the situation would have been much worse had the girl happened to +bear the surname Pritchard. + +She stifled a sigh. They seemed to be getting acquainted perforce. +Now that she was out, however, she didn't care to go back at once, even +though the sun beat down upon them fiercely, and the dry grass was full +of dust and cinders. She glanced about irresolutely. + +"Now if this were a scene in a play," remarked Elsie Moss reflectively, +"the engine would have broken down near a grove with immemorial trees, +or there'd be a dell hard by where the hero and heroine could wander by +a stream. Or else--" she hesitated. "You don't feel comfy, do you?" + +"The sun is so hot, it's hardly safe to be out. I'd better go in +again," replied the other. + +"But the car'll be awfully hot, too, standing right in the sun. I +know--I'll get an umbrella." + +She rushed off at full speed lest the other should +remonstrate--something that Elsie Marley didn't think of doing. She +accepted the favor as a matter of course, and they walked on slowly, +the one restraining her eager feet with difficulty. + +"Oh, dear, I suppose _you're_ going to New York, too?" she asked. +"Everybody seems to be except poor me." + +The other returned a spiritless affirmative. + +"Of course! Oh, dear, and I'm simply _perishing_ to go! But I'm due +in a poky little place in Massachusetts called Enderby. Isn't that the +limit? The name alone would queer the place, don't you think so? It's +fairly near Boston, but they say Boston's slow compared with New York +or even with San Francisco." + +She waited a moment, then rattled on. + +"Do you know, sometimes it seems my _duty_ to go to New York. I've got +five hundred dollars all my own. Dad had a long sickness, and, anyhow, +he never got much ahead; but he left me that clear, and I'm just going +to beg and implore my uncle on bended knee to let me take it and go to +New York to study. I could get a start with that, I'm sure." + +She looked up so eagerly that something strange seemed to stir within +the quiet girl. It was almost as if she would have liked to express +her sympathy had she known how. And when the light suddenly died out +of the sparkling eyes and even the shadows of the dimples disappeared, +she felt almost at fault. + +The other girl did not resent her want of sympathy, however. + +"But he'll never, never consent," she went on mournfully, "because he's +an orthodox minister and I want to be an actress. Of course he +couldn't approve, and I ought not to blame him. And yet, if I wait +until I'm of age, I'll be too old. I'd like to run away right now, but +for the row it would make and for frightening auntie. Really, you +know, I'd rather join the circus than go to Enderby." + +"But I have always understood that to be an actress one must go through +much that--isn't nice," remarked Elsie Marley in her colorless voice. + +"Oh, but that's half the fun--the struggle against odds," exclaimed +Miss Moss with the assurance of untried youth. "Our class motto at the +high school was 'Per aspera ad astra.' Isn't that fine and inspiring?" + +The other assented listlessly, + +A breeze had arisen, and now, at a little distance from the track, the +air, though warm, was fresh and sweet. The yellowed grass extended to +the brilliant blue of the sky as far as the eye could reach. For the +first time, perhaps, in centuries, the plain was peopled by a throng; +for by now nearly every one in the long train had come out. Men stood +in groups discussing politics and the Mexican affair; women wandered +sedately about, most of them keeping a watchful eye upon the engine, as +if it might suddenly start and plunge on, dragging an empty train of +cars; children ran and frisked and shouted, making the most of the +occasion, as only children can. The two Elsies happened to be the only +young girls. + +They had gone some little distance beyond the others. Failing to draw +out her companion, Elsie Moss took it for granted that she was shy, and +chatted on about her own affairs, hoping presently to effect an +exchange of confidences. + +"I can't help wondering what my uncle will be like," she said soberly, +thrusting her hand into the pocket of her coat. "You see, I've never +seen him, though he and my mother were the greatest chums ever when +they were young--almost like twins, though he was heaps older. But +mother went to California when she married and I was born there, and +though he always meant to, he never got out to see us. His wife +couldn't stand the journey. And when mother died, he was way over in +Egypt, so of course he didn't come. All that I know is that he's +handsome and dignified and lives in a very proper place where they have +everything correct and conventional--musical advantages and oratorios +and lectures on Emerson, and village improvement and associated +charities and all that, but no vaudeville nor movies. I suppose if +there were a theatre they'd only play Ibsen and Bernard Shaw." + +Elsie Marley opened her eyes rather wider than usual. For it all +sounded attractive to her, particularly in contrast with the +boarding-house and New York. + +"He's awfully religious-looking, you know," Elsie Moss continued. "He +wears the same sort of waistcoats and collars the Episcopalians do, +though he's a Congregationalist, and his picture is more than +dignified, I can tell you. Well, no doubt he's dreading me just as +much as I am him, or else he's expecting me to be just like mother and +will have the surprise of his life." + +She hesitated. "I suppose I do look like her," she added gently and +quite as if she believed the other girl to be deeply interested. Then +her voice dropped suddenly and her eyes filled with tears. "Mother +died--in the earthquake," she added. + +Something vaguely uncomfortable just stirred the surface of Elsie +Marley's consciousness, though it wasn't sufficiently acute to be +called a pang. The earthquake had happened seven or eight years +ago--and this girl's grief seemed fresh to-day. Her own mother had +been dead less than three years. + +She did not acknowledge that her mother was only a memory. She hardly +realized it, indeed. Only, conscious of that vague, strange +discomfort, she had an impulse to get away from it. She put a languid +question. + +"What have you done since?" + +"I've learned what a difference mothers make," returned the girl +soberly. Then she darted suddenly outside the range of the umbrella. + +"What's that? A gopher?" she cried. "Oh, my goodness, it's only one +of those ridiculous Dutch dogs. + +"It might have been, you know," she said as she returned to the shade. +Then she resumed the subject she had dropped. Elsie Marley said to +herself that she needn't listen, but as a matter of fact she heard +every word. + +"I was so small I couldn't do much, and we had an awful time for a +year. Dad was always more or less hard up, but he was worse after the +earthquake, and if we had a servant she wasted things so that he was +wild. He married again--a schoolteacher, and it wasn't a year, quite, +after--the earthquake. Most people didn't blame him, but Uncle John +where I'm going did, and wanted me to come right on East and live with +him, but dad wouldn't hear of it. And, anyhow, she was the nicest +thing. I loved her dearly at the end of a week. She wanted to keep me +with her after dad died, but my uncle insisted upon my coming to him, +so here I am." + +She looked into the other girl's eyes half appealingly, though her big +dimples were dimly visible. + +"She wouldn't stand for my being an actress, either, so there you are. +And I liked her so much I couldn't half urge her. And that's the worst +of it; if I stay with my uncle the least little while I shall get to +liking him so much I shan't be able to run away. It's perfectly +terrible to get so fond of people when you want a career. I suppose +the thing to do would really be to disappear right now. Oh, not this +moment, but simply never to go to Enderby. Suppose I should go right +on to New York with you?" + +Elsie Marley gazed at her without a word and almost without expression. +But within, she was secretly roused. She marvelled at the stranger's +audacity. She was surprised to feel that she was not bored. She +decided that she would not return to the car until they should be +summoned. + +As she was fumbling in her mind for the response the Moss girl +evidently awaited, one of the children whose acquaintance the latter +had made came running up to her and shyly took her hand and kissed it. +Again putting the umbrella into the other girl's hands, Elsie Moss +impulsively caught the little thing into her arms and fondled her. +Then dropping her gently, she took both the little hands in hers and +danced away with her. + +They made a charming picture against the long, yellow prairie-grass. +The little girl moved with the grace of a child, but Elsie Moss danced +like a fairy. Her cheeks glowed, her dark eyes shone, her dimples +twinkled, her feet scarcely seemed to touch the ground. Her red hat +was like a poppy-cup, and the dark hair tumbling about her little face, +elf-locks. Elsie Marley gazed spellbound. + +But only for a moment; on a sudden she turned and made her way back to +the car, which was almost empty. She returned not because she wanted +to, not even because she was indifferent as to what she did. She went +because she didn't want to. Unconsciously she was struggling against +yielding to the charm of the vivid young creature who threatened to +take her by storm. In all her life she had never been deeply or warmly +affected by another personality. Perhaps now she realized this dimly, +and some instinct warned her subtly to avoid any departure from old +habitude, even when avoidance meant the first real struggle she had +ever made against definite inclination. + +It seemed long before the other occupants of the car began to stroll +in. Then the engine whistled sharp warning, the laggards trooped back, +and the train started briskly. Elsie Moss entered by the rear door, as +Elsie Marley knew, though she did not turn around. She said to herself +that no doubt she would be upon her directly, that she would have her +company for the rest of the day and the remainder of the journey. But +she established herself in the middle of the seat lest she seem to give +any invitation. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +Elsie Marley was not interrupted, as it happened. Some little time +passed and still she was alone. The girl could not understand a +certain unrest that was upon her. She waited a few moments longer, +then she moved close to the window so as to leave more than half the +seat vacant. Still nothing happened. + +At length she turned and looked back. Elsie Moss, who sat between an +old lady and a little boy, smiled and nodded. Elsie Marley half +smiled. Still the other made no move. Then she looked back, really +smiled, and beckoned her to a place beside her. + +Elsie Moss, more than willing to be summoned, had some difficulty in +getting away from her present companions. But the grandmother +prevailed upon the little boy to spare her, and she presented herself +at Elsie Marley's seat smiling in her irresistible way with the big +dimples indented, and looking as if she would like to hug her as she +had hugged the little girl outside. And Elsie Marley had a curious +intimation that she shouldn't have minded greatly. + +"What do you think," exclaimed Miss Moss as she seated herself, "you +know all my family history and I don't even know your name. I've been +guessing. It ought to be either Isabel or Hildegarde. Is it? Oh, I +do wish it were, they're both so sort of stately and princess-like that +they'd just suit you." + +"It isn't either," responded the other with a curious sense of +disappointment. "My name is Elsie also." + +"Of all things! But it's rather jolly, after all. And what's the +rest?" + +"Marley, Elsie Pritchard Marley. But at home they called me Elsie +Pritchard, because I am--all Pritchard." + +Unacquainted with the Pritchard distinction, Elsie Moss was not +impressed. But she exclaimed gleefully over the real surname. + +"Elsie Marley!" she cried. "Why, isn't that funny, and oh, isn't it +dear! Elsie Marley, honey!" + +The other girl looked blank. + +"Of course you know the song, or at least the rhyme?" + +"Song? Rhyme?" + +"Why, yes. You must have heard it: 'And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, +Honey?'" + +"Is it really and truly Elsie Marley?" queried the pale Elsie speaking +for the first time like a real girl, though she had no girlish +vocabulary from which to draw. + +"Sure," asserted the other, delighted to be able to surprise her +seatmate. And she sang a stanza in the sweetest voice Elsie Marley had +ever heard, though she had heard good music all her life, and famous +singers. + + "Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?" + + +"Is there--any more?" demanded Elsie Marley almost eagerly. + +"One more, and then you just repeat the first. I've known it all my +life. Mother used to sing it to me when I was a baby. Then a few +years ago when I first went to see vaudeville, I 'got it up,' as they +say, with dancing and a little acting. I used to spring it on people +that came to the house. Dad liked it, but it made my stepmother feel +bad--dad said because I was too professional." + +She sighed deeply. + +"Sing the rest, please, Elsie?" asked the other, using her name for the +first time. + +"I will if you'll let me call you Elsie-Honey? You see it really +belongs." + +Elsie knew that it was silly, but she found herself quite willing. She +seemed under a strange spell. + +"Only," she added, with a stronger sensation of discomfort, "after +to-morrow it isn't likely we'll ever see one another again." + +"Oh, yes we will, sure. Why, we just _must_--at least if you want to +half as much as I do, Elsie-Honey?" + +"I do," Elsie confessed shyly and now with a curiously pleasant +feeling. "And now, Elsie, please sing the other stanzas." + +"It sounds just dear to say _stanzas_," cried the other. "I should +always say _verses_, even if I didn't forget which was which." + +With an absurd little flourish of her hands, she turned slightly in her +seat. The dimples came out strongly, and though she sat quite still, +there was truly something dramatic in the manner in which the would-be +actress sang the lines. + + "Elsie Marley is grown so fine + She won't get up to feed the swine, + But lies in bed till eight or nine, + And surely she does take her time. + + Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?" + + +Both girls broke into natural, infectious laughter. Mr. and Mrs. +Bliss, or any one who had known Elsie Marley, could scarcely have +believed their eyes or credited their hearing. But Elsie's father, who +had died while she was an infant, had had a warm heart and a keen sense +of humor, and it might well be that his daughter had inherited +something of this that had lain dormant all the while. For truly, the +wholesome, hardy qualities brought out in others through simple human +association had had little chance to germinate in her hothouse +existence in the Pritchard household. + +Despite the rumble of the train, four children in the rear of the car +caught the sound of the singing and came trooping up begging for more. +A pretty nursemaid followed with a fat, smiling infant. Elsie Moss +made her sit down with it (beside Elsie Marley!) and she herself +perched on the arm of the seat and sang song after song until it was +time to go into the dining-car. The children, wild with enthusiasm, +were not in reality more appreciative of the lovely voice than Elsie +Marley herself. The two girls went in to dinner together in happy +companionship. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +Elsie Marley lay in her berth that night for some time in a state +between musing and actually dreaming. She was conscious--partly +conscious, that is--of a new sensation of happiness. She did not, +however, at all realize how fortunate she was. She did not know that +for the first time in her life the door of her heart had been opened in +response to another. It was, perhaps, open only a crack. Possibly it +had been fast so long that it would not remain open. None the less, at +the moment it stood ajar. + +After dinner the girls had talked late--late for sleeping-car hours, +that is to say. Elsie Marley herself had talked; had said more in an +hour than she had ever before said in a day. Questioned in a frank, +sympathetic manner by the other Elsie, she had been led to speak of her +grandmother's household and of her daily life there, going into details +so far as she knew how, as she found the other so generously and +romantically concerned. Then she had gone on to speak of Cousin Julia +Pritchard and the boarding-house, confessing her apprehension and +dread, which seemed somehow to have become more definite in the +interval. She even showed the stranger Cousin Julia's letter. + +Having perused it, Elsie Moss acknowledged that it wasn't altogether a +pleasant outlook for such a one as Elsie Marley, honey, though she +herself wouldn't mind it. Indeed, she declared that she should have +liked it immensely. And finally, as she left to go back to her berth, +she exclaimed with fervor that she only wished that Miss Pritchard were +her cousin, and the Reverend John Middleton Elsie Marley's uncle and +guardian. + +As those were Elsie Moss's last spoken words that night, so that +thought was uppermost in her mind as she fell asleep shortly after her +cropped head touched the pillow. And next morning when she woke early +with a startlingly delightful idea, it almost caused her to bound from +her upper berth as if it had been a bed in the middle of a stationary +floor. For it came not in embryo, not in the egg, so to speak, but +full-fledged. It seemed as if she couldn't possibly wait until she was +dressed to divulge it to Elsie Marley. + +But Elsie Marley was, like her prototype, late in rising, and the other +Elsie's eagerness grew yet keener as she waited. Finally, however, +they were alone together in the former's seat, as the train sped +rapidly eastward. + +Elsie Marley's countenance seemed almost to have changed overnight. +There was truly something in it that had not been there before. Of +course it was not animated now; nevertheless, it was not so utterly +wanting in expression as it had been the day before, even in +juxtaposition with the vivid little face beside her. + +"Oh, Elsie-Honey, I've got something perfectly gorgeous to tell you," +cried the dark Elsie. "Listen--you're not very keen about going to +your cousin's, are you?" + +Elsie confessed that she liked the idea less than ever. + +"And I just _hate_--the short of it is--I simply _cannot_ go anywhere +but to New York. You'd ever so much prefer Enderby because it's select +and has culture and advantages, and you'd sooner have a dignified +clergyman uncle than a newspaper cousin. As for me, I should adore +Cousin Julia." + +"It seems a pity, surely," admitted Elsie quietly. + +The other looked at her. "You see what's coming, honey?" + +She shook her head, perplexed. + +"Oh, Elsie-Honey! It's plain as pudding. Presto! change! That's all. +Aren't we both Elsie, and don't we both want just what's coming to the +other? All we have to do is to swap surnames. See?" + +Still Elsie Marley did not understand. + +"Shake us up in a box, you know," the other explained, her dimples very +conspicuous, "and you come out Elsie Moss and I, Elsie Marley, without +the honey. You go to live with Reverend John Middleton and I'll go to +New York and try to persuade your Cousin Julia to let her supposed +relative study for the stage. What could be better? It's simply +ripping and dead easy. Neither of them has seen either of us. Uncle +John would draw a prize instead of me, and--I'd be awfully good to your +cousin, Elsie-Honey." + +Really to grasp a conception so daring and revolutionary took Elsie +Marley some time. But when she had once grasped it, she considered it +seriously. It did not seem to her, even at first, either unreasonable +or impossible. Indeed, influenced by the enthusiasm of the other girl, +she began to feel it both reasonable and fitting. In a way, too, it +was only natural. For after all, the girl had always had her way made +smooth for her, and this appeared only a continuation of that process. +She certainly _didn't_ want to go to Cousin Julia's, and she liked the +idea of living in the quiet parsonage of the aristocratic country town. + +Indeed, she agreed to the proposal more readily and unquestioningly +than a girl of more imagination or experience could have done. For her +part, Elsie Moss foresaw certain complications, though in truth only +the most obvious ones. They discussed these gravely, yet with much +confidence. Indeed, an older person must have been both amused and +amazed at the youthfulness, the inexperience, and the ignorance of life +the girls exhibited, at their utter unconsciousness that they were not +qualified to act as responsible human beings and shuffle blood +relationships about like pawns on a chess-board. + +"There's certainly nothing about it that even my stepmother could +object to," Elsie Moss concluded. "Nobody's being cheated: they are +both going to get what they would really choose if they had a chance, +and to escape what might be very uncomfortable, and so are we. We're +both Elsies, and about the same age, and have brown eyes: if Uncle John +were to take his pick, wouldn't he take a quiet, dignified, ladylike +Elsie, instead of a harum-scarum one with short hair that was mad for +the stage? And Aunt Milly being rather frail, I should have driven her +to drink, while you're used to an invalid aunt. Isn't it just +wonderful? The more I think of it, the _righter_ it seems. I almost +feel now as if it would be wrong _not_ to do it, don't you?" + +Like one in a dream, Elsie Marley assented. She was almost giddy at +the swift flight of the other's imagination. She listened spellbound +while Elsie Moss spun plans, able herself to contribute nothing but +assent and applause. Under skilful questioning, however, she related +all the Pritchard traditions and family history that Cousin Julia might +be expected to be familiar with, and endeavored in a docile manner to +learn enough of Moss and Middleton annals to take her part in the +Middleton household. + +Elsie Moss possessed a certain sort of executive ability which enabled +her to make the practical arrangements for carrying through the plan. +Quite self-reliant, she planned to accompany the other to Boston to +make sure that all went well, going thence herself to New York. After +consultation with the conductor in regard to time-tables, she sent a +telegram asking Miss Pritchard to meet a later train. The change in +the destination of their respective luggage was more difficult to +effect, but she accomplished that also, and both girls changed cars for +Boston. + +Indeed, presently it seemed as if the only difficult part of the whole +affair would be the parting from each other. They were to write +frequently, of course, and not only for the sake of mutual information; +but it seemed, particularly to the pale Elsie, who had never had a +friend, cruelly hard to have to be separated so soon from this most +charming companion. She gazed at her wistfully, unable to express +herself. + +The other Elsie, as quick, nearly, to read as to express feeling, and +naturally the more impulsive, answered from her heart. + +"Oh, we'll see each other often, we'll just have to, Elsie-Honey," she +cried. "And anyhow, we'll want to compare notes and brush up on our +parts. We'll visit back and forth. You come to New York and I----" + +She stopped short. + +"My goodness, that'll never do! I can never come to Enderby. You'll +have to do all the visiting, honey. I'm the very image of my mother, +and I'd give it all away." + +"Oh," said the other feebly. + +"You've noticed that I have dimples, I suppose?" inquired the other +gloomily. + +Elsie could not deny it, though denial was evidently what the other +craved. + +The latter sighed deeply. "Then they're just as plain as ever, and +would give me away first thing," she said. "Dad used to say he had +never seen such big dimples as mother's, and that mine were just like +'em. He said if I had straight yellow hair and blue eyes, any one that +had seen her would know me. Oh, dear, aren't you lucky to have nothing +conspicuous about you? I'm sure you're not the image of any one, +Elsie-Honey, and you'll come to see me often enough to make up, won't +you?" + +"Oh, yes, Elsie, unless he--Mr. Middleton--should object to my coming +to New York alone?" + +"You'd better begin right away calling him Uncle John, so as to get +used to it as soon as you can," suggested the other. "And I'm sure he +won't object. I'm sure from his letters that he's not an old fuss, and +it's a straight trip with no changes from Boston to New York. And +Cousin Julia and I will meet you at the Grand Central!" + +She grinned at her own _cheek_, as she called it, and the other Elsie +smiled happily. + +"Just the same, I'm more than sorry not to be able to come to Enderby +to visit," Elsie Moss declared. "You know it would be simply stunning +practice, playing the stranger in my uncle's house--something like the +real wife in 'East Lynne,' you know." + +"I never saw 'East Lynne.'" + +"Dear me, I cried quarts and bucketsful over it. It's the most tragic +play! If I had time I could show you how it goes. I always act things +out over and over after I've seen them, making up words where I don't +remember them. But, alas! we haven't any time to spare with what we've +got ahead of us, have we, honey? Now we must arrange for meeting +Uncle--no, _I_ must call him _Mr._ Middleton." + +On a sudden the girl clasped her hands in apparent distress. + +"Oh, I never thought!" she cried. "It won't even be safe for Uncle +John to see me at the station in Boston. Well, I shall have to drop +behind and keep perfectly sober. I'll just watch out to see that +everything's all right with you, and then I'll skidoo. Dear me, I hope +I don't look so awfully unlike the Marleys as to frighten Cousin Julia?" + +Had she said the _Pritchards_, Elsie would have been in a quandary; as +it was, her face brightened. + +"She never knew the Marleys, and there aren't any now," she said. "She +knows only the Pritchards." + +"Hooray! I shall harp on the Marleys morning, noon, and night!" + +"She'll like you," observed Elsie wistfully. "You know she spoke in +her letter of young life." + +"I shall adore her, dear old thing!" cried the warm-hearted girl. "And +Uncle John will adore you. He adored my mother, who was quiet and deep +like you. He was always sending her rare things, and pitying her +because she was poor and longing to send her money, though dad wouldn't +have that." + +The appearance of an expressman warned them that they were nearing +Boston. + +"You're perfectly sure that you're willing to exchange New York for +Enderby?" demanded Elsie Moss suddenly. + +"Oh, yes, indeed, Elsie." + +"And you don't yearn for Cousin Julia?" + +Elsie Marley half smiled. "Oh, no," she declared. + +But the other was determined not to take any undue advantage. + +"Now listen," she said; "if after you see Uncle John you don't fancy +him, just say the word or nudge me or wink and I'll swap back without a +word. I'll simply step up and say, 'Oh, Uncle John, you've kissed the +wrong girl!' though, of course, he may be too dignified to kiss at a +train. And then I'll introduce you properly." + +They sped on. Soon a trainman entered to say that the next station was +Boston and request them not to leave any articles in the car. They +said good-by to each other before the train stopped, kissing warmly +like real friends. Then Elsie Moss tied a large, dark veil over her +hat and well down over her forehead and eyes. It looked as +inappropriate for the hot day as the scowling expression she assumed to +cloak the dimples was ill suited to her charming little face. + +As they alighted, and a handsome, distinguished-looking gentleman in +grey clerical garb advanced to meet them, she fell behind. Raising his +hat, he took the hand of the girl who was not his niece. + +"And this is Elsie?" he said in a fine, kindly voice. + +She murmured a weak affirmative. He kissed her affectionately, took +her portmanteau from the porter, and turned to the girl who had come +from the car with her. + +"And this is your friend, Elsie?" he inquired. + +Elsie Moss came forward, scowling so fiercely that the other, despite +her blunted sense of humor, could scarcely keep from laughing out. + +"My friend, Miss M-Marley," she stammered. + +Mr. Middleton shook hands with his sister's daughter, took her satchel, +and asked how he could serve her. The girl replied in a thin falsetto +voice, which she realized immediately didn't go with the scowl so well +as a gruff tone would have done, that she had only twenty-five minutes +to get the train for New York and must say good-by at once and take a +cab for the other station. + +However, he didn't let her go so easily. Assuming charge in a simple, +offhand manner, he found a taxicab which took them to the South +Station, led her to the ticket-office, secured a chair, and put her on +the train. + +She kissed Elsie Marley again, squeezing her hand meaningly. And she +nearly forgot and showed her dimples, looking out of the window as her +train pulled out, to see them together, her uncle with his hat in his +hand, Elsie waving her pocket-handkerchief. + +"He's a darling," she said to herself as they moved toward the Trinity +Place Station, "and it's mighty lucky for my career that I didn't see +more of him. But he'll be far happier with that lovely honey-princess, +and I'm glad she's drawn a prize. As for me, hooray for Cousin Julia +and the footlights!" + + + + +CHAPTER V + +"I hope, Elsie, your friend wasn't in pain?" Mr. Middleton inquired +with concern shortly after they were established in the train for +Enderby. + +"Oh, no," the girl assured him, trying, but vainly, to add "Uncle John." + +"I thought she might be suffering from toothache or neuralgia, wearing +that scarf about her face on such a warm day--particularly as she +frowned and screwed her mouth in a rather distressed way," he explained. + +Elsie smiled. Indeed she almost laughed, partly because she was +herself struck by the humor of it, partly because it would so amuse +Elsie Moss when she wrote her about it. + +"Oh, no," she repeated. "Oh, no, Uncle John"--resolutely--"she was +just--well--she was acting, I suppose. She wants very much to go on +the stage." + +"And doesn't lose any opportunity for practice?" He smiled, but rather +ruefully. "Poor child! Somehow, of all ambitions, there seems to be +more tragedy, more pitifulness, underlying that than any other. Where +one succeeds, so many fail--go down into darkness and obscurity. Your +mother had the fever at one time as a very young girl, Elsie. As a +matter of fact, she had some little talent in that direction, but +fortunately we were able to persuade her to give up the idea entirely." +He sighed. "She was so tender-hearted and affectionate that she could +have been induced to give up far more precious things than an ambition +of that sort." + +Elsie was gazing out of the window. He pointed out a country club and +several fine estates at a distance, then asked: + +"What is your friend going in for, Elsie, comedy or tragedy?" + +Elsie didn't know. She explained that while Miss M-Marley seemed like +an old friend, she had only met her on the train as they had left +Chicago. + +"Ah, that's just like your mother!" he exclaimed. "She was just that +way, quick to make friends, and yet as loyal and true as any slower and +more cautious person could be." + +Again he sighed; then added in a lighter tone: "_She_ wanted to play +tragic parts--youth is apt to--but of course with those dimples she +would have been doomed to comedy, if not farce." + +He gazed reminiscently at her. + +"Your baby pictures had her dimples in small, but I see that as you +have grown thin you have lost them. You scarcely resemble her at all, +and yet already I see how very like her you are." + +Elsie could think of no response, and fearing that he was awaking +painful feelings, Mr. Middleton changed the subject by inquiring kindly +after her stepmother. Elsie replied according to instructions that she +was quite well and much gratified to have secured her former position +in one of the San Francisco high schools for the coming year. + +As he went on to ask about her journey and to exhibit points of +interest along the way, he was so chivalrous and thoughtful that the +girl realized that she would be considered and cared for as she never +would have been with Cousin Julia, and was genuinely relieved. Then +her thoughts flew back to those hours with Elsie Moss between Chicago +and Boston, which seemed to her the happiest she had ever known. It +came to her that if she could have the other girl's companionship, +could see her every day, she didn't know that she would greatly care +where she was. Perhaps she could even endure hardship. How serious +Elsie Moss had been about her motto, "Per aspera ad astra." For all +her gayety, she felt she could go through hardship bravely. Ah, she +was a rare person! For the first time in her life Elsie Marley was +homesick--and for a stranger! + +Happily, there was that about Mr. Middleton which reminded her of his +niece. She glanced at him from under her long, pale lashes. A man of +fifty, he was tall and thin, with a fine florid face set off by a mass +of thick, white hair. His eyes were brown and youthful, full of +serenity and kindliness, with a shadow of the idealism that +characterized his whole face. His voice was good, his speech elegant, +appealing particularly to one accustomed to the tones and inflections +of the West. Looking forward to meeting his wife, who would probably +be equally pleasing, Elsie felt that in any event she should be as +happy between visits as it would be possible to be anywhere without +Elsie Moss. + +A short drive through the quiet, shady streets of what seemed to be an +old, historic town brought them to the parsonage, one of a group of +handsome, rather stately buildings near and about a green common. Of +colonial style, built of brick, it had a portico with great Corinthian +pillars, window-frames and cornices of wood painted white, and stood +far back from the street with a beautiful lawn studded by great elms +and a glimpse of a garden in the rear. + +The driveway led to a side entrance under a porte-cochere. As the +carriage drew up, Mr. Middleton glanced eagerly toward the door. His +face fell. + +"Your Aunt Milly will be here directly," he said and ushered her in. +As she entered the beautiful hall, Elsie couldn't help feeling how +fortunate she was to escape the boarding-house. + +There was no one in sight. Mr. Middleton looked about, then led her +into one of the great front rooms on either side of the wide hall and +asked her to make herself comfortable while he went to see if her aunt +were ill. + +"She is not very strong, as you know, Elsie, and the excitement may +have been too much for her," he explained. "She has looked forward so +eagerly to your arrival." + +Fortunately he did not await any reply. Elsie felt suddenly stunned as +by a blow. Left alone, she gazed about her in amazement that was +almost horror. The large, square, corner room lighted by four great +windows that reached from the floor to the heavy cornice was +comfortably, even luxuriously, furnished, but--the girl could scarcely +believe her eyes--it was the most untidy-looking place she had ever +been in! The heavy crimson hangings, faded by the strong summer +sunlight, lost further color by their layer of dust, quite visible even +at this distance and at first sight. There were ashes on the hearth, +though the heap of waste-paper, dust, and miscellaneous rubbish in the +fireplace showed that it hadn't been used for some time. The piano, a +baby-grand, stood open, with dust on its dingy keys and more dust on +its shining case. The centre-table held a handsome reading-lamp and +some books, but was littered with piles of old newspapers and magazines +without covers. A kitchen-apron was flung across an armchair; a dirty, +paper-covered book lay on a little table with a plate beside it covered +with cake-crumbs, and there were crumbs on the richly colored Turkish +rug and on the arm of the tapestry-covered chair on the edge of which +Elsie perched. + +Surely there was some mistake, some monstrous mistake! She had somehow +been brought to the wrong house. It wasn't possible that a gentleman +like Mr. Middleton could belong to a household such as this, she was +saying incredulously to herself, when a shadow fell athwart the +threshold and she looked up to see Mrs. Middleton entering on her +husband's arm. + +Mrs. Middleton was the key to the enigma, though Elsie's mind wasn't +sufficiently alert to grasp the fact at the moment. She stood beside +her tall, immaculate husband, a short, rather stout, flabby-looking +woman with a sallow face wherein keener eyes than Elsie's might have +detected traces of former prettiness, and frowsy, ginger-colored hair +that had been curled on an iron. She wore a dingy pink tea-gown +bordered with swan's-down, cut rather low and revealing a yellow, +scrawny neck. A large cameo brooch took the place of a missing frog, +and a pin in the hem disclosed missing stitches. Her hands were +covered with rings, her feet thrust into shapeless knitted boots. + +She smiled, cried, "Elsie!" in a weak, sentimental manner, and opened +her arms wide as if expecting the girl to fly into them. + +Elsie, who had risen, advanced stiffly and reached out her hand in +gingerly fashion. But Mrs. Middleton gathered her, willy-nilly, into a +warm embrace, holding her close against the dingy pink flannel. + +Elsie could not struggle against it, as she was moved to do; she could +not burst into tears at the indignity; she could not rush out of the +house and back to the train, as she longed to do, with the sense of +outrage goading her. She was forced to sit down weakly with the others. + +Mrs. Middleton gazed at her fondly. + +"Dear child! Little orphan stranger!" she cried. "How I have longed +for this hour! Indeed, I so longed for it that at the last moment my +strength failed me, and when the train whistled I had to drop on my bed +in exhaustion. But enough of that. Welcome to our home and hearts!" + +Murmuring some chill, indistinct monosyllable, Elsie glanced dumbly at +Mr. Middleton, who was looking at his wife as tenderly as if she had +been all that Elsie had expected her to be. Were they both mad? + +"Jack, dear, you have never asked Elsie to take off her things--your +own niece!" exclaimed Mrs. Middleton reproachfully. And she turned to +Elsie with her sentimental smile. + +"These men, my dear!" she said, and coming to her side begged the girl +to let her have her wraps. + +Elsie wanted to cry out that she wasn't going to stay, that she was no +kin of theirs, and was going away on the next train. But she couldn't +utter a word. She removed her hat and jacket dumbly, wondering which +dusty surface they would occupy. As Mr. Middleton carried them into +the hall, she could only guess. + +On his return, he noticed the kitchen-apron, picked it up and held it a +moment irresolutely. Then opening a door in the wainscot near the +fireplace he flung it in. Before the door went to, Elsie had a glimpse +of worse disorder--of the sort that is supposed to pertain to a +junk-shop. + +"That's Katy's apron," remarked Mrs. Middleton plaintively. "Do you +know, Jack, I feel sure she sits in here when there's no one around. +Now that book on the table by the window must be hers." + +"It's no harm for her to sit here when the room is not in use," +returned Mr. Middleton kindly, "but when she goes, I wish she would +take her things along." And he picked up the novel and was about to +consign it to the same dump when his wife held out her hand for it. + +"What mush!" she cried as she fingered the greasy pages, while Elsie +flinched inwardly. And unobservant as the girl naturally was, she +could not help noticing that Mrs. Middleton retained the book. + +"Don't think, dear Elsie, that we're unkind to our poor but worthy +Kate," the latter remarked, sitting down next to Elsie and taking the +girl's limp hand in hers. "As a matter of fact, she has a sitting-room +of her own. This house, you know, is very old. It matches the other, +newer buildings only because they were built to suit its style. The +original owners, the Enderbys, for whom the town was renamed, had many +servants and provided a parlor for them. Of course your uncle and I +can afford to keep only one, but we gave her the parlor, hoping she +would appreciate it. But it doesn't look out front, so she doesn't +care for it and uses it as a sort of store-room." + +"I wonder if Elsie wouldn't like to go to her chamber now," Mr. +Middleton suggested, remarking suddenly how tired the girl looked. He +had thought her surprisingly fresh after the long journey, but +apparently only excitement had kept her up. + +Elsie looked at him gratefully. She was longing to be by herself in +order to determine what she was to do. + +"Yes, Jack, that's exactly what the poor dear wants; I've been trying +to get a word in to ask her," agreed Mrs. Middleton plaintively. Elsie +rose. + +"Where did you decide to put her, Milly? In the blue room?" + +"Yes, dear, but I'm not perfectly sure whether Katy got it ready. Do +you mind calling her?" + +He fetched the handsome, slatternly maid servant, who drew up the lower +corner of her apron crosswise to disguise its dirt, but openly and +unashamed, and only to uncover a dress underneath that was quite as +untidy. + +"Katy, this is our niece, Miss Moss, who has come to live with us," +Mrs. Middleton announced. "Have you got the blue room ready for her?" + +Katy bowed low to Elsie before she replied. + +"No'm, not yet," she said. + +"Oh, Katy, when I told you to be sure?" + +"No'm, you didn't," responded the woman pleasantly. + +"Dear me! Well, I meant to; I suppose it slipped my mind." + +She turned to Elsie. "I've been particularly wretched all day, +scarcely able, with all my will-power at full strain, to hold up my +head." + +"It seems to me," she addressed Kate reproachfully, "you might have +done it anyhow. You knew what Mr. Middleton was going in town for." + +"I'll get a place ready for her right now in no time, ma'am," Katy +assured her cheerfully. As she was leaving the room with an admiring +look at Elsie, she glanced suspiciously at Mrs. Middleton, whose hand +was hidden in a fold of her wrapper. + +"Is that my story-book you've got, ma'am?" she inquired. + +Mrs. Middleton drew forth the book, looked at it as if in great +surprise, and gave it to Kate, who disappeared at once. Mr. Middleton +followed with Elsie's luggage. + +Elsie, who did not resume her seat, walked to the window and gazed out, +without, however, seeing anything. Mrs. Middleton began to rhapsodize +over the elms and oaks and some rooks in the distance that were really +crows. But before she had gone far, Katy appeared to say that the room +was ready. If she had not done it in no time, as she had proposed, she +had certainly spent as little time as one could and accomplish +anything. Mrs. Middleton led Elsie up-stairs, threw open the door of +the room with a dramatic gesture, kissed and fondled her, and finally +left her to get a good rest. + +Elsie closed the door after her, dropped into a chair and, burying her +face in her hands, sat motionless. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +For some time Elsie could not think. She could only sit there in a +sort of dumb horror. Presently she raised her head, opened her eyes, +and deliberately surveyed the room. + +Like the others she had seen, it was large and handsomely furnished. +There was a great brass bed and heavy mahogany furniture. The walls +were hung with blue, the large rug was blue-and-gold, and the chintz +hangings and covers blue-and-white. There was a great pier-glass, a +writing-desk, and a bookcase. In spite of the fact that everything +bore the appearance of having been hastily dusted, it was fairly neat +and very attractive. + +Still confused, with a stunned sensation that precluded decisive +action, Elsie decided that she might as well remove the dust of travel, +and rising, slipped off her blouse. + +As she turned on both faucets in the bowl in the small dressing-room +adjoining, a thick scum rose to the surface of the water, and she +realized the bowl had not been washed for some time. At first she +gazed at the dust helplessly. Utterly unused to doing anything for +herself, she looked about anxiously. Two towels, clean but not ironed, +lay on the rack. She hesitated, then grasping one of them as if it +were the proverbial nettle, she attacked the bowl, gingerly at first, +then with some vigor; and presently, with the aid of some dirty +fragments of soap she found in the receptacle, using the second towel +to dry it, she had the enamelled surface clean and shining. With an +odd sense of satisfaction, she threw the towels to the floor, opened +her portmanteau, took out her own toilet-case, and proceeded to wash. + +Refreshed physically and even a trifle in spirit, she slipped on her +dressing-gown and sat down by the window to consider. She knew now +that she should have spoken immediately upon seeing Mrs. Middleton, +thus avoiding more unpleasantness than the caresses. Having delayed +her explanation of the masquerade, she had made it the more difficult. +Even now she dreaded shocking or even hurting Mr. Middleton. + +She rose and moved about irresolutely. The dress she had taken off lay +on the couch against the foot of the bed, and though she had never been +accustomed to caring for her clothes, she started instinctively to hang +it away. Opening the door into the clothes-press, she shrank back. + +A commodious closet with shelves and drawers, it was as much worse in +its confusion and disorder than the cupboard down-stairs as it was +larger. Each hook bulged and overflowed with clothing: tawdry finery, +evening-gowns, old skirts, wrappers, sacks, bath-robes, knitted jackets +and shawls and miscellaneous underclothes. The drawers were so crammed +that none would shut. The shelves were piled high with blankets, +comfortables, old hats, a pair of snow-shoes, pasteboard boxes, and +bottles without number; while on the floor were boots, shoes, and +slippers in all stages of wear, overshoes, a broken umbrella, a +walking-stick, a folding-table, and more boxes. And everywhere the +dust lay thick. + +Shutting the door hastily, Elsie flung herself upon the couch, covering +her face and pressing her fingers upon her closed eyes. What +a--_heathenish_ place! She really didn't possess the sort of +vocabulary to express the enormity of it. How should she get away? +Suppose there were no train to-night? Suppose she should have to +remain until morning? + +If only it were a hotel! If only Mr. Middleton weren't so fine, or if +Mrs. Middleton had gone into Boston! One look at her would have been +enough: she would have known she could never endure her. Better Cousin +Julia with all her oddities. She would have made the sign agreed upon +and gone straight on to New York. And then--poor Elsie Moss! After +all, Mrs. Middleton wasn't any real relative of hers, either. She only +hoped that the other girl might find Cousin Julia so very disagreeable +that she wouldn't too painfully mind being dragged back here. + +Some one knocked at the door. Feeling that she couldn't possibly +encounter Mrs. Middleton at this juncture, the girl remained silent. + +"It's only Katy," said a pleasant voice, and Elsie bade her come in. + +The warm-hearted Irishwoman knew in an instant that something was +wrong, and suspected homesickness. She spoke fondly, as to a child, +saying that tea was nearly ready, and added: "Have you got everything +that you want, miss?" + +Elsie could have laughed at the unconscious irony. + +"The clothes-press is full of mussy things, and the wash-bowl was +dirty, and there weren't any clean towels," the girl almost wailed. + +"Bless my soul, I guess that wash-bowl was forgot for a matter of a few +days!" Katy exclaimed. "Dear me, I'm so sorry. But them towels was +clean, only not ironed. I hadn't got round to 'em yet, and I didn't +know where to lay my hands on any that was put away. There's a lot +somewheres, for we keep a-buyin' and a-buyin'. And I'll just go at +this room the first thing after breakfast in the mornin' and make +everything clean and shinin'. I meant to 'a' done it to-day, but I +didn't get a minute, and I thought one night wouldn't make much matter." + +While Elsie was endeavoring to frame some sentence to inform Katy that +she needn't take the trouble, the latter suddenly remembered something +in the oven and disappeared. Elsie rose and dressed. She couldn't eat +in such a place, but she couldn't get away without explaining and, +perhaps, the tea-table would be a suitable occasion for that. + +Mr. Middleton met her at the foot of the stair and led her to the +dining-room. Another surprise! The room was not only large, pleasant, +and airy, overlooking a beautiful garden, but it was neat and tidy, and +the table was spotless, with fine damask, delicate china, and beautiful +silver. The food was delicious--Elsie had taken her place +perforce--and was particularly appetizing after five days on the train. + +Mrs. Middleton still wore the pink wrapper, but she had little to say, +and her husband was so elegant and attractive, was in such good spirits +and talked so entertainingly, that Elsie almost forgot. In any event, +before the meal was over she had decided to remain overnight, and to +postpone her confession until morning. + +The evening passed pleasantly. Mrs. Middleton excused herself directly +after tea, and Mr. Middleton took Elsie out to show her the garden, +which he tended himself, an old-fashioned garden with formal beds +radiating from a sun-dial. Thence they went to his study, an +attractive room lined with books, which, though untidy, was not +startlingly so, not, perhaps, far beyond that peculiar limit of +disorder allowed to a student's sanctum. + +Here the Reverend John Middleton, unmistakably and infectiously happy, +talked with his supposed niece for an hour. Full of enthusiasm, +quieter but almost as youthful as that of Elsie Moss, of ideas and +ideals, he had not realized his want of companionship and sympathy, nor +understood why he had looked forward so eagerly to the coming of the +daughter of the sister who had been the companion and intimate friend +of his youth and young manhood. Believing he saw already much of the +mother in the girl, he seemed to feel no need of preliminaries, of +getting acquainted. He strove only to make her feel at home, hoping +there might be no strangeness even on the first night. + +His powers being by no means inconsiderable, he succeeded so well that +Elsie Marley went to her room in a state of real exhilaration that was +almost tumult. The door of her inner nature, set ajar by Elsie Moss, +had opened wide. She had never in all her sixteen years been really +roused out of herself until she met the former; and she had never come +in contact with a nature so rich and fine as that of the clergyman. +Further than this, something else stirred in the girl's +heart--something better than the desire to hold this friend for her +own. Unawares, dimly, she felt his reaching out for sympathy, realized +dimly that there was something that even a young girl could do for him. +And suddenly a feeling of depression that was like regret or even +remorse took possession of her. The confession she had to make would +hurt him deeply, even now. + +Her trunk had been brought in and the straps unfastened. For an +instant Elsie wavered. Finally she got her key from her pocketbook. +But even as she crossed the room, she thought of Mrs. Middleton, the +dingy swan's-down and the caresses, and decided not to unlock the trunk. + +She stood by the window looking out absently over the soft, starlit +landscape. She felt sorry for Mr. Middleton and sorry for Elsie Moss; +and curiously enough those two were the two persons in the world in +whom she had any real interest! Perhaps the latter wouldn't mind her +aunt as she did; and of course she would be, to use her own expression, +"crazy over" her uncle. Then, too, with all her charm and vivacity, +she could do much more to brighten the monotony and squalor of his +life. And yet, her heart was set upon becoming an actress, and it +would be much harder now to give it up than if she hadn't seemed to +have a fair chance to pursue her studies. Elsie remembered dimly tales +she had heard of people dying from broken hearts. Somehow, it seemed +almost as if that vivid, sparkling Elsie Moss would be of the sort to +take things so hard that---- + +She broke off, turned from the window, and began to undress. So far as +Mr. Middleton was concerned, it occurred to her that possibly some one +who hadn't any ambition might learn to do even better toward helping +him than one whose heart was divided. She said to herself that she +wouldn't decide definitely against opening her trunk until morning. If +she should find, for instance, that Mrs. Middleton kept her room the +greater part of the time, it might make some difference. + +Ready to put out the light, she noticed that the covers of the bed had +not been turned down--an omission unparalleled in her experience. With +a sigh, she drew down the counterpane, only to discover, with actual +horror, the bare mattress underneath. The bed had not been made! + +Such was Elsie Marley's consternation that had she been a person of +resource, she would have dressed and left the house at once; but if she +possessed any such quality, it was wholly undeveloped. As it was, +however, she said to herself she could not even stay for breakfast. +She would go at daybreak! + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +Kate came to the door next morning just as Elsie had finished dressing, +and, being admitted, asked if Miss Moss wouldn't come down and pour her +uncle's coffee and eat breakfast with him. + +"He's sort o' hangin' off as if, perhaps, he was hopin' you might," she +added, eying the girl admiringly. + +Elsie's purpose to go immediately had been with her as she awoke, but +it didn't seem worth while to hold out at the moment: possibly she +might have a favorable opportunity to explain at the table. + +But she resented Kate's beaming face, and looked reproachfully toward +the bed, which told its own shocking story of having no linen nor +blankets. Still Kate was oblivious. Elsie really hardly knew how to +complain, but perhaps to learn that is easier than to learn to praise; +and there was a certain amount of indignation in her voice as she told +how she had been obliged to sleep on the couch in her dressing-gown. + +Kate was quite as shocked as the mistress of a well-regulated household +would have been. As she accompanied Elsie down-stairs she was voluble +in her sympathy, and promised all sorts of improvements for a future +Elsie knew was not to be hers. And yet the girl, who had always been +on the most distant terms with her grandmother's servants who had been +in the house for years, found herself confessing to this good-natured +slattern that she had nevertheless slept soundly and felt refreshed. + +Breakfast was so pleasant as to cause visions of an unlocked trunk to +float through Elsie's mind. The dining-room was yet more attractive +with the morning sun on the garden. Mrs. Middleton did not appear. +The girl found a curious pleasure in pouring out the coffee, which was +curiously intensified when Mr. Middleton asked for three lumps of +sugar. And when he passed his cup the second time she was elated. + +While he seemed fully to appreciate the novelty of her company, he +seemed also to take it for granted, as if they were to go on so, +breakfasting together, indefinitely. He chatted in his easy way, +glanced at the paper, reading bits of it to her, commenting on the +situation here and across the border. Fortunately, her mind had seemed +to quicken with her sensibility, so that she grasped, or partly +grasped, ideas that might well have meant nothing to her. + +He proposed to take her out to see the town after he had spent an hour +in his study. Though it would again postpone her explanation, Elsie +decided she might as well go a step further and get a better idea of +the place for which Elsie Moss was to exchange New York and her +ambition. The day promised heat; the girl was so tired of her +travelling-suit that she was tempted to open her trunk and get out a +linen frock and her Panama hat, but she wouldn't allow herself to yield. + +They were out nearly two hours, strolling leisurely through the quiet +old streets. The church and parish-house and a large hall were across +the common, the library and museum nearer the centre of the town--all +dignified, rather stately, very attractive buildings in harmonizing +styles of architecture, whose low and rambling character, with the ivy +that well-nigh covered them, and the wonderful green of their lawns, +gave them an air of age, particularly appealing to one whose home had +been in the West. Handsome houses and charming cottages bespoke their +attention as they walked through the wide avenue with double rows of +elms on either side, and grass-plots separating the walks from the +highway. Just to wander under that leafy arch of a June morning, with +glimpses of blue sky and white cloud, was a sensation that made the +thought of New York appalling. Cousin Julia had, indeed, spoken once +of going to the shore; but who wanted to go to the shore! For herself, +nothing seemed so attractive as tall old trees, abundance of green +turf, New England, and--_Enderby_! + +And all the while she became more aware of the unconscious appeal on +the part of Mr. Middleton. As they went on, more and more the girl +felt how eagerly he had looked forward to the coming of his niece, how +he had anticipated her companionship. And she understood dimly that +his eagerness to show her the finer points of everything was not only +the desire to make her share his enthusiasm, but a desire to begin at +once--to start out friends and companions. + +She returned only the more oppressed by the sense of remissness--of +remorse. Kate met her at the door of the chamber she had occupied and +proudly ushered her in. A real transformation had taken place. Kate +could accomplish wonders when she set out, and the great handsome room +had been so thoroughly swept and garnished that everything was like +new, only with the sense of the dignity of age. The clothes-press, +too, had been cleared out (at the expense of the corresponding one in +the chamber opposite!); the little wash-room shone; there was abundance +of towels and fresh bed-linen, and a vase of sweet peas stood on the +freshly laundered cover of the dresser. + +Elsie turned gratefully to Kate, but spoke regretfully. + +"Oh, Katy, thank you, but I'm sorry you have taken so much trouble. +I----" + +"Oh, Miss Moss, dear, I love to do it, and I'll keep it so all the time +if you'll only stay," urged Kate. "Now don't tell _me_, I've seen it +in your eyes that you're homesick and don't like the look o' things, +and then you ain't opened your trunk, and your dresses all packed in +wrinkles like as not. Do try it a bit longer, please, miss. I promise +you things'll be better all over the house. You know there'd be more +satisfaction keepin' things up for a pretty girl like you as would +appreciate than for a woman as lays round all the time and don't take +no interest, though believe _me_, she eats as good as any one, and I +can't keep my story-books long enough to find out how they come out at +the end if she gets her eye on 'em. All she does is to throw things +round for me to pick up, though I will say for her she's pleasant and +good-natured, and always a born lady. And Mr. Middleton don't hardly +know whether things is upside down or right side up; but he's good as +gold and lonesome, though he don't never let on. You can be such a +comfort to him; all he hears at home now is about her aches and pains. +You couldn't guess how he's blossomed out since you come. He ain't +talked so much for years, and he was a-singin' to hisself this mornin' +as he hung round wonderin' if you was coming to breakfast--_she_ never +does. Now Miss Elsie, you jest stand by him. Let me tell you, you'll +run up against lots worse things if you set out to earn your own +livin'." + +Elsie was tempted, but again the thought of Mrs. Middleton arrested +her. And by the time Kate shouted inelegantly up the stair that lunch +was ready, the girl had decided to explain everything directly +afterward and go to Boston to catch the same train Elsie Moss had taken +yesterday. And if Mrs. Middleton should appear and attempt to embrace +her, she would say: "Wait, please, I have something to tell you that +will change everything!" + +That lady stood at the newel-post awaiting her. She wore a wrapper of +lavender cassimere to-day, elaborately trimmed with lace and knots of +pink ribbon. Somewhat fresher than the pink one, it was not +conspicuously so, and her hair was truly a "sight." Elsie was dumb: +she couldn't make the prepared speech nor any other. She tried to keep +at a distance by reaching out her hand formally. But it proved +useless, and again she was gathered to her hostess's heart. + +The strangest feature was Mr. Middleton's behavior. He seemed as +surprised and delighted to see his wife appear at lunch, as fearful +lest she overtax herself, as if she were her own very opposite. The +girl couldn't comprehend how one so intelligent, so refined, of such +exquisite taste, apparently, could be so blunt in this one particular. +She couldn't understand how he could endure, much less care for, this +ugly, withered, yellow, untidy woman. However, it made her own +position somewhat easier. If he were really aware how impossibly +vulgar she was, and took it seriously to heart, Elsie wasn't sure if +even thus early she should be able to leave him to bear such misery +alone. His unconscious loneliness was appealing enough; conscious +unhappiness might have proved more than she could have withstood. + +He was called from the table to the telephone. Elsie hoped he wouldn't +make any engagement for directly after lunch. If he should, she +couldn't risk missing her train. She would speak out at once. She +would say: "Oh, Mr. Middleton, I'll say good-by, for I shan't be here +when you return." And then she would explain briefly and he wouldn't +have time to take it hard while she was there to witness. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Returning to the table, Mr. Middleton announced with troubled face that +Miss Stewart, the librarian, was ill, and he must find some one before +three o'clock to take her place. He glanced at Elsie hesitatingly. + +"I suppose you are tired, Elsie, dear?" + +"Oh, no," she returned and added, almost unconsciously, "Uncle John." + +"Then I wonder if I can't work you in at the library for a day or so? +It isn't at all taxing, indeed, it's really very pleasant. It's open +every day from three to six, and except on Saturday, when there's apt +to be a crowd, people drop in in a leisurely way. I could go over with +you and get you started and stay until nearly four, when I have a +committee meeting. Would you be willing to try, dear?" + +"Oh, I'd like it ever so much," she returned, really captivated by the +idea. He looked relieved and smiled gratefully. + +"There, Jack, it's just as I told you it would be," exclaimed Mrs. +Middleton, patting a pink satin bow complacently. "I said to your +uncle, Elsie love, that a girl of sixteen is almost a woman--I was only +seventeen when I was married--and that he could make an assistant of +you right away." + +Her smile faded and her hand went to her heart in an affected way. + +"My being such a sad invalid is a terrible drag on your uncle, though +he won't confess it," she added feebly. "I often and often drop a +secret tear over it, I own; but now that there'll be some one to help +with the little services that would naturally fall to a pastor's wife, +I shall be quite content. You know how the poet says that others shall +sing the song and right the wrong? 'What matter I or they?' That is +how it seems to me." + +Mr. Middleton gazed at his wife tenderly, but Elsie's youthful scorn +increased. She was not sufficiently mature to understand that it shows +something of character to look on kindly while another younger, fairer +person steps in to fulfil duties that should have been one's own, even +though one may have repudiated them. + +Directly lunch was over, Elsie ran up-stairs--something she seldom had +done--unfastened her trunk, took out an embroidered white linen suit +and dressed quickly. She could scarcely wait until time to go to the +library. She was ready to lose the train to-day, and even to-morrow if +need be. + +At the library, she found the procedure simple and easily acquired. It +was fascinating, also, as was the great airy room; and she wandered +about through the stacks, and gazed at the books, magazines, pictures, +maps and bulletin-board in a sort of dream. It was a warm day and no +one came in during the first half-hour. + +Mr. Middleton had scarcely left, however, when a little girl in a +scant, faded frock that was clean, however, and freshly starched, came +shyly in with a book--a child of nine or ten with an anxious expression +on her old, refined little face which hadn't yet lost all its baby +curves. + +"Why, where's Miss Rachel?" she asked, the look of anxiety fading and a +shy little smile appearing in its stead. + +Elsie explained. + +"Well, I think you're ever 'n' ever so much nicer, and so pretty!" said +the child. Then her face clouded again as she opened the book that she +held in thin little hands that were like claws. + +"The baby did it," she said sorrowfully as she exhibited a picture torn +across. "He isn't a year old yet and don't understand. He isn't the +least naughty, only _mischeevious_, you know. Ma says I ought not to +have been reading it while I was minding him, but you see I'm _always_ +minding him except when he's asleep--and then he wakes right up, +mostly." + +She sighed. "Do you s'pose you can mend it?" she inquired. + +"Yes, indeed," returned Elsie promptly, and smiled involuntarily. + +The child fingered her frock. "Miss Rachel would scold," she faltered, + +Elsie didn't know what to say. Neither did she understand why tears +should come to her eyes, except that the little girl was so small, so +thin, so clean and sweet, and so very childish in spite of her +responsibility. + +She found some gummed paper, cut a strip, brought the torn edges +carefully together and mended the picture as neatly as if she had not +been a week ago as helpless an able-bodied girl of her age as there was +anywhere to be found. Her sense of satisfaction was certainly +commensurate, perhaps extravagant. + +"There! Miss Stewart will never know," she said. "Do you want another +book now?" + +"Yes, please; but--is it right for Miss Rachel not to know?" + +Elsie considered. "Perhaps not," she admitted, "but at any rate she +won't mind since it looks as well as before." + +"And I'll be very careful after this," added the child. + +She selected another volume from the children's shelf, and having had +it charged, turned to go. But somehow Elsie was loath to have her. + +"Why don't you sit down at the table and look at the picture papers?" +she suggested. + +"Oh, I've got to mind the baby," said Mattie--Mattie Howe was the name +on her card. "I must be home when he wakes up. Good-by." + +She started--came back--stood irresolute. + +"Thank you for mending the book so good--so _goodly_," she said shyly, +"and--I'd like to kiss you." + +With a curious sensation that had no admixture of reluctance, Elsie +bent over and received the kiss. + +"You're prettier than the princess," the little girl declared, and ran +away with her book. + +Elsie Marley hardly knew what would have happened if an elderly lady +hadn't come in at that moment and asked for "Cruden's Concordance." +She had some difficulty in finding it, but the lady was very pleasant +and grateful, and after that there was a constant succession of +visitors. Many children came in, all attractive, to Elsie's surprise, +though none so appealing as Mattie Howe; and older people in surprising +numbers, considering Mr. Middleton's prophecy. + +But word had somehow gone round that the minister's niece was "tending +library," and things being rather dull in the midsummer pause of most +of the activities of the place, no doubt more than one came out of +curiosity. + +It was a very friendly curiosity, however, expressed in the pleasantest +manner, and Elsie found herself responding to their advances without +knowing how. She wondered at herself. The girl did not realize that +being in the library made a difference. It was her first experience of +work, or of doing anything whatever for any one else, so that even the +service of getting out books for another established a sort of +relationship between them. At the close of the afternoon, though +tired, she was strangely happy. + +But she couldn't understand it--didn't know herself. She found herself +wondering who the stranger was who had worn her frock and occupied the +chair of the librarian that afternoon. Grandmother Pritchard wouldn't +have recognized her, nor Aunt Ellen. Had she, in assuming another +name, changed her nature also? + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +Shortly before the death of her aunt in California, Miss Julia +Pritchard had made up her mind to give up her position at the city desk +on her fiftieth birthday, and retire to some pleasant country town to +pass the remainder of her life quietly, in friendly intercourse with +her neighbors. She felt that she had more than enough to "see her +through," as the phrase is, very comfortably. She had worked for over +thirty years, her responsibilities and salary increasing periodically; +and though she had lived and dressed well and given liberally, she had +added each year to a small inheritance that had come to her through her +grandfather, and had gained further by judicious investment. + +But when both her aunt and cousin died, and she was left guardian of +the sixteen-year-old Elsie Marley, whose inheritance was small, Miss +Pritchard decided to remain where she was a few years longer. It +wasn't imperative, indeed, yet she felt that the last little Pritchard +should have the best chance she could give her, and until she should +have put her on her feet, the woman of fifty, who was strong and well +and at the height of her powers, would gladly remain in harness. Her +announcement to this effect was hailed with delight at the office, and +another increase made in her salary so substantial that she declared +she ought to adopt a whole family. + +Though the sacrifice was greater than any one dreamed, nevertheless she +made it quietly and cheerfully, expecting no reward nor desiring any. +She didn't expect much of Elsie Marley, indeed, recollecting the +atmosphere of the household in which the girl had been reared, which +she had herself found impossibly stifling during a short visit there +fifteen years before. + +At that time her Cousin Augusta had been living with her husband and +baby in Portland, Oregon. What with her knowledge of the Pritchards in +general, however, her observation of that stereotyped family after a +long interval of years, and their intense anxiety lest the one +descendant of that branch become in any way a Marley rather than a +Pritchard, she was able to gather a very fair idea of what Elsie's +upbringing must have been. Unless she might have inherited a sense of +humor from the Marley side (which was unlikely, since no one possessing +a sense of humor would have married Augusta Pritchard), the girl could +hardly have escaped becoming a prig at the mildest. Cold, colorless, +correct, self-sufficient, Elsie Pritchard would doubtless make her +mother's cousin feel keenly her fifty years, her lack of grace, and her +general and utter lack of claim to the royal name she bore. + +On the other hand, she was also, willy-nilly, Elsie _Marley_, and she +was only sixteen. She couldn't have, at that age, completely compassed +the woodenness of her adult relations. She might still be amenable to +change, to development. In any event, as Miss Pritchard remarked to a +friend in the office, any sort of young female connection cannot but be +welcome to the heart of a lonely spinster who reaches her half-century +milestone on midsummer's day. + +Miss Pritchard occupied two large, handsome rooms on the second floor +of a boarding-house near Fifth Avenue, a few blocks from the lower end +of Central Park. In preparation for the young girl, she had the large +alcove of the parlor shut off by curtains and her bed and +dressing-table moved into it, and gave over her bedroom to Elsie. She +spent much time and thought and not a little money in making it an +inviting and attractive place for a girl, and would have felt quite +satisfied had it not been for her remembrance of the rather heavy but +stately elegance of the mansion in San Francisco. + +On the June day on which Elsie was expected, Miss Pritchard confessed +to the friend at the office to whom she had spoken before, that she was +beginning to feel nervous. + +"I almost wish she weren't coming until a week later," she said. "Do +you know, I think if I had actually passed my fiftieth birthday, I +might feel somehow more solid and fortified. It's really an ordeal for +an old-fashioned woman like myself to encounter the modern girl of +sixteen. Fifty might pull through, but oh, dear, what of forty-nine +plus?" + +She was interrupted by the telephone. A telegram which had come to the +boarding-house for her was read to her. She was smiling as she hung up +the receiver. + +"Well, what do you think!" she cried. "My young relative has decided +for some reason to take a later train and has telegraphed me to that +effect. Now there's something rather alert and self-reliant about +that. That girl must have something in her, after all. I can no more +imagine her mother or any of the family getting off at any stage of a +through journey than I could fancy myself not getting off for a fire or +an earthquake or, perhaps, for a wild West show. At the very least, +there's a sort of suppleness of mind indicated." + +She stood that evening in the station watching the throng emerging from +the coaches of the train her cousin had given as hers. A tall, +straight woman, large without being stout, her plain face, with large, +irregular features, framed in plainly parted iron-grey hair, was +singularly strong and fine, and her grey eyes betokened experience +bravely met. As she scanned the face of every young girl in the +procession, there was something so staunch and true in her appearance +as to make it almost striking. + +Then on a sudden, right in the midst of it, for a moment she forgot all +about Elsie Marley, and what she was standing there for, in the vision +that confronted her and surprisingly and instantaneously took her +romantic heart by storm. A young girl came straight toward her--such a +piquant, sparkling, buoyant young thing as she had never seen before--a +small, slender, dark-eyed creature with short brown hair cut square +like a little boy's and a charming mouth flanked by dimples that were +almost like pockets. + +So much she took in in that one long glance. Then, recovering herself, +fearful lest she had been lost to all else about her longer than she +knew, she glanced anxiously about for the fair, pale little Pritchard. +But the radiant child stopped short before her and looked up into her +face. + +"Cousin Julia?" she asked in the sweetest voice Miss Pritchard had ever +heard. She smiled half-shyly and the dimples deepened. + +For a single instant, Miss Pritchard stood still and stared at the +girl, not so much incredulous as stunned. Then she cried out: + +"Elsie--Elsie Marley?" + +"Sure," said the smiling child, holding out her hand. Miss Pritchard +gathered her to her heart. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +From that moment, all idea of sacrifice vanished forever. Miss +Pritchard felt suddenly, amazingly, and incomparably blessed. Her +realization that the girl's charming face and figure were matched by a +most lovable personality came so quickly as to seem instantaneous. In +very truth, Elsie's bubbling gayety and sweetness of disposition were +as natural and inseparable as her very dimples. + +At once, Miss Pritchard's life took on new color, new meaning. The +change for her was far greater than if she had carried out her former +intention and gone from work in the city to leisure in the country. +She was in a new, strange, wonderful country where life was +interesting, even thrilling, beyond anything she had ever known. She +had not dreamed that youth could be at once so gay and blithe and yet +so simple and generous, so spontaneous, so affectionately considerate +of the older and the less richly endowed. + +For her part, the eager, warm-hearted girl adored Miss Pritchard almost +at sight. The strength and sincerity of the woman, her utter +unselfishness, her wisdom, her humor, and her keen intelligence +combined to make her the most impressive personality the sensitive +young girl had ever encountered. Quite untroubled by the ethical +aspect of the situation, she gave herself up to it wholly, only +troubled lest she had gotten the better part of the exchange she had +made with the real Elsie Marley; lest she be cheating the other out of +companionship with this wonderful Cousin Julia. + +No difficulty offered itself. Keen as she was, Miss Pritchard was +without shadow of suspicion. Stare as she would, she couldn't discover +any slightest resemblance to the Pritchards in the girl, yet she drew +only the one conclusion. + +"Elsie, you must be altogether a Marley," she said to her as they sat +happily together on the third evening after the girl's arrival. And +her voice indicated that she was quite satisfied to have it so. + +"I'm certainly no Pritchard," returned Elsie coolly, and not without +enjoyment, "begging your pardon, Cousin Julia." + +"Well, of course, I ought to regret it, you being the last of the +family; but I'm afraid I don't," returned Miss Pritchard. "You see I +rather dreaded your coming as that of a double-dyed Pritchard. The +Pritchards of my father's generation were pretty stiff, I confess, +heavy and solemn and rather pompous. My mother who was a Moore, as no +doubt you have heard, had a strong sense of humor, and didn't bring me +up in very great awe of the family. She was thankful I didn't take +after them, and so have I always been. I often think, what a +misfortune had I had to have a Pritchard as a bedfellow and roommate +all these years, as I must have had if I had taken after my father--who +was, I believe, however, the mildest of the Pritchards, and very much +altered by my mother's influence. And girls are usually like papa--as +you are--and boys like mamma, they say. Surely, no girl could be less +like her mother than you, dear." + +Elsie sobered. One of the facts she most cherished was the knowledge +that she resembled her adored mother in nature as well as in manner and +personal appearance. It would be hard, nay, impossible, to give over +that solace. But she told herself she must think _Augusta Pritchard_ +(what a name!) whenever Cousin Julia said _mother_ to her. + +"Of course, you don't remember your father, Elsie, but do you remember +any other of the Marleys or know anything of them?" + +"Just one member of the family," said Elsie, getting down from the +window-seat. "I've heard about her ever since I can remember." And +bowing low, she began to sing: + + "Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + + Elsie Marley has grown so fine + She won't get up to serve the swine, + But lies in bed till eight or nine, + And surely she does take her time. + + Do you ken Elsie Marley, honey? + The wife who sells the barley, honey? + She won't get up to serve her swine, + And do you ken Elsie Marley, honey?" + + +The wonder and admiration in Miss Pritchard's eyes couldn't be hidden. +Elsie threw herself down on the settee by her side. + +"That's the only Marley I've ever known, Cousin Julia, but she's rather +a dear old body," she said and squeezed Miss Pritchard's arm +affectionately. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +"How very difficult it's going to be to explain now," Elsie Marley said +to herself as she dressed on Friday morning. "How I wish I had done it +that very first hour. Mr. Middleton would have understood, then, for I +had just told him Elsie liked to act; and he wouldn't have cared. He +couldn't have been really hurt as I am afraid he will be now. And yet, +how can I help feeling glad I was here to take the library for him? +And I did so enjoy doing it, too." + +She decided that if Miss Stewart were able to go back this afternoon, +she would leave directly after lunch and get the only train for New +York that she knew--the one Elsie Moss had taken. And if she couldn't +possibly explain in any other manner, she would have to write a note +and steal quietly away. It wasn't a nice thing to do; yet she couldn't +afford to let the difficulty of explaining the situation keep her here +until Elsie Moss should have become so firmly established that it would +be cruel to drag her back to Enderby. + +On the other hand, as long as she had started in with the library work, +if Miss Stewart wasn't well enough to attend this afternoon, she would +remain one day more. And if she found that that was to be the case, +she would spend her morning writing the note to Mr. Middleton to fall +back upon in case of need, and a letter to Elsie Moss warning her of +the change. + +When she went down to the dining-room, Mr. Middleton had that same air +of eagerness mingled with what seemed to Elsie assurance of the +permanency of their relationship. After a little he inquired whether +her unfamiliar work of the day before had tired her overmuch. + +"Oh, no--Uncle John, not at all," she replied, consciously hampered by +lack of vocabulary or of tone to express enthusiasm that was new to her. + +"Well, then, what should you say to giving Miss Rachel another day of +rest?" he suggested. "I have been afraid for some time that she's +rather letting people get on her nerves, and possibly a few days off +would be a benefit for all concerned. She has lived alone for years, +and, good as she is, has grown narrow and notional as one inevitably +will who hasn't other personalities in a household to rub against. I +dare say if she had her way she wouldn't allow a boy under fifteen in +the library." + +"She's afraid they'll soil the books?" Elsie remarked lamely, striving +to be adequate to the occasion. But somehow, he seemed rich enough to +lend her something unawares. + +"Yes, dear, that's it, of course, and perfectly natural and legitimate +in its place such caution is. But the trouble is, she puts it first +and foremost. We want certainly to keep the books as neat as is +consistent with constant use, and it's always safe to ask to see a +lad's hands; but there are different ways of going about the business. +The main thing about a library is, of course, its usefulness to the +people; perhaps, most of all to the younger among them. You agree with +me, dear, that that consideration comes before everything?" + +"Yes, indeed, Uncle John," she said primly. + +He smiled suddenly and very charmingly. + +"Elsie dear, if I hadn't known that your step-mother was a +schoolmistress, I should have guessed it," he declared. "Externally, +her influence upon you has almost blotted out your mother's. I'm +thankful you didn't stay with her long enough for it to go deeper, +excellent woman as I know her to be. As it is, your speech and manner +conceal rather than reveal your likeness to your mother, but it +struggles through for all that." + +He paused and his face grew grave. + +"I hope--I trust, dear, you didn't feel--_repressed_?" he asked +anxiously. "You are so quiet and reserved and docile for a young +girl--especially for your mother's daughter. Your stepmother was--kind +to you, surely?" + +"Oh, yes, sir," she faltered, distressed at the dilemma. Vaguely aware +that she had an opening for her confession, she made no attempt to use +it. "I know I am--everything is"--she faltered. + +"You're just right, Elsie dear," he said kindly. "Just be yourself. +And if you have learned not to be spontaneous, try to forget it. In +any event, never repress any desire for gayety or romping or what-not +in this house. You don't at all need to be quiet oh your Aunt Milly's +account. She isn't strong and she is excitable, and yet she isn't +somehow what is called nervous at all. She doesn't mind noise or even +tumult; indeed, she likes to feel that things are going on in the house +even if she cannot share them." + +Even now, Elsie understood that this was quite true in regard to Mrs. +Middleton. There was, in spite of what the girl called her falsity, +something generous about her. Elsie wasn't herself any the more drawn +to her--or any the less repelled--but now she first had a slight +inkling of any foundation for Mr. Middleton's strange infatuation. +There was, somehow, in the midst of all that sentimentality, some +genuine feeling which for him transmuted the whole into pure gold. + +Well, for her part, she could stand it another day for the sake of +going to the library. + +"What are you going to do this morning, Elsie?" Mr. Middleton inquired +as they returned to the house after a few minutes spent in the garden. + +Elsie colored faintly. + +"Write some letters," she said. + +Indeed, she spent the whole morning in the attempt, though she +accomplished nothing. She made half a dozen beginnings of the letter +which was to set forth the scheme Elsie Moss had concocted and she had +entered into; but none went further than three sentences, and it began +to seem that that expedient were the more difficult. In any event, +before she made a seventh trial she turned to the note that was to +acquaint Elsie Moss with the situation. Here, she only failed the more +dismally. When it was time to dress for lunch, she seemed to be forced +to explain to Mr. Middleton just as she was leaving, and to come upon +poor Elsie Moss quite unexpectedly. It seemed as if it would almost +kill her to do either. + +Mrs. Middleton did not appear at lunch and everything was so pleasant +that Elsie's spirits rose until she was almost gay. She talked more +than she had done since she came--almost more than she had ever done +before until she met Elsie Moss--and she was at once gratified and +appalled to perceive that she was reminding Mr. Middleton of his +sister. Of course, his real niece would remind him still more, but +Elsie knew that the wrench to his feelings before she should be +established in the parsonage would be severe, even terrible. If only +Mrs. Middleton kept her room continually! And yet, he might not like +that. + +The library was only the more engaging that day. Mattie Howe came in +early and they went through a number of shelves in the children's +department together in selecting her book. Then Elsie took the little +girl in her lap--in a curiously easy fashion--and they looked at the +colored pictures in a large book that did not circulate until some one +else came in and claimed the librarian's attention. + +A roguish-looking boy with a tousled head entered, stared at Elsie in +amazement, and went abruptly out. Returning a little later with +shining face and wet, parted hair, as he asked at the desk for a book, +he spread out a pair of very clean hands in a manner intended to be +nonchalant. He was ready and eager to talk and very amusing. Before +Elsie got through with him, she had assured him that she meant to read +"Robinson Crusoe" within the next fortnight. + +Then a lad apparently of about her own age, a high-school boy, shy, but +with very gentle manners, who started as if to retreat as he saw her, +gathered his courage, returned his book, and stood there undecided. + +"Do you want another book?" Elsie asked. + +"Have you got anything about Edison?" he asked. "I've got to write a +composition about electricity, and I thought I might start with him." + +Elsie consulted the catalogue, but greatly to her disappointment was +unable to find anything. The boy had such nice manners and such +honest, deep-set eyes that she wanted to help him. + +"You might start with Benjamin Franklin," she suggested, not very +confidently. + +"Sure!" he returned, smiling frankly. She got him a biography of +Franklin, and he sat down at one of the tables with note-book and +pencil and was soon deep in it. + +There were a number of references to Franklin in the catalogue, and as +Elsie went back to it to see if she might have made a better choice, +she saw that one referred to the proper volume of a "Dictionary of +American Scientists." It came to her that she might discover Edison in +the same place. She was pleased to find several pages of a recent +volume of the work devoted to that inventor. She carried it to the boy +and pointed out the pages with a feeling of satisfaction almost like +triumph. + +The afternoon flew. She closed the library regretfully, for she never +expected to enter it again. For to-morrow was Saturday, and if she +should stay beyond the afternoon, it would mean she could not get away +until Monday. And that she could never stand. For she had gathered +somehow that Mrs. Middleton made a special effort to sit up all Sunday +except during the time her husband was at church. If it was mostly a +case of nerves, Miss Stewart might as well come back one day as another. + +But again at dinner Mrs. Middleton was absent from her place. She sent +a special request to Elsie to occupy it, and Elsie spent a very happy +half-hour telling Mr. Middleton about the happenings of the afternoon, +hearing his explanatory comment on persons and things, and serving the +pudding. And when he told her he had seen Miss Stewart, who thought +she would hardly feel like coming back until Monday, and had assured +her that his niece would be glad to take her place another day, Elsie +was quite undisturbed. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +Elsie Marley was very tired as she locked the door of the library +Saturday night and started for _home_, as she caught herself calling +the parsonage. She had been there the greater part of the day. She +had spoken to Mr. Middleton at breakfast of going over to familiarize +herself somewhat with the encyclopaedias and reference-books, and he +had asked her to look up certain passages and verify one or two +quotations for him. The latter proved a more difficult task for the +girl than the clergyman would have dreamed; but she was very happy in +doing it, gratified, too, to realize that her handwriting was very +clear as well as pretty. And the single cause of her dismay when he +thanked and praised her and referred to her mother--or his sister--was +that she should not be on hand to help him another Saturday. + +The afternoon had been a very busy one, every one in town, seemingly, +old, young, and middle-aged, desiring a book for Sunday. A goodly +number of girls of near her age came in, sweet-faced girls who, though +they couldn't compare with Elsie Moss (who was, however, in a class by +herself), seemed more attractive than those she had seen at home. The +tall boy who was interested in electricity came again and greeted her +shyly, though rather as if they were old friends. Later, older girls +and young men who worked in Boston during the week dropped into the +library to inquire for the latest novel or to spend part of their +half-holiday looking over the picture papers and magazines. All were +extremely cordial and friendly. Without actually overhearing anything, +Elsie, who wasn't at all quick in regard to matters of that sort, +understood, somehow, that there was more or less comparison between +herself and the regular librarian, which was not altogether +complimentary to Miss Stewart. + +As she went up the walk shortly after six o'clock, the girl saw some +one gazing out of the window of the room she had first entered four +days ago, and recalled her first view, which seemed now far back in the +past. There was no one there when she went in, however, and as she +realized that the place had not been touched since her arrival, +suddenly the glow of satisfaction that had cloaked her weariness +changed to wrath. She flew to her room for refuge. + +And now real wrath descended upon her. For she found it as she had +left it that morning. The bed was not made; her nightgown was on the +floor, and the clothes she had worn yesterday scattered about on the +chairs. Her brown eyes looked darker and there was a hint of color in +her cheeks as she ran down to the kitchen and confronted Kate amid the +chaos and confusion of her own domain. + +"Katy, my bed hasn't been made, nor my room done to-day," she cried. + +"Bless my soul, I clean forgot it," said Kate in real consternation. +"I'll go right up this very minute as soon as I've cast my eyes on the +oven, though, to tell you the truth, my feet ache like the toothache." + +Elsie's feet ached, too, for the first time in her life. Wherefore she +partly understood. Her indignation died out. + +"Oh, don't bother then, Katy," she said kindly, "I can sleep on the +couch to-night. And to-morrow, perhaps, you'll do it early before your +feet get tired?" + +Kate insisted upon going. "No, you don't sleep on no sofy; not while I +can crawl about," she declared, and Elsie followed her up-stairs. + +Watching her from her chair by the window, the girl saw that she looked +tired, indeed. + +"I could have slept on the couch, Katy," she protested. + +Kate looked at her--frowned--then smiled. + +"Oh, Miss Elsie, a body'd know you lost your mother young. Now if I'd +'a' forgot your uncle's bed, he'd 'a' made it hisself and said nothing. +There's many young ladies as makes their own beds, and does all but the +heavy sweepin'. I don't suppose you ever did such a thing in your +life?" + +Elsie confessed that she hadn't. She didn't say that it seemed a +burden to turn down the covers. Again Kate frowned and smiled. +Clearly Miss Moss wasn't one to take a hint. + +"How would you like to _learn_?" she inquired. + +"Oh, I never thought," said Elsie. "Why, yes, of course, if you'll +teach me some time, I'll do it every day after I get so that I can." + +For the moment she had forgotten her stay was to be so limited. + +"Bless you, you'll learn in no time; it's nothing to do," Kate assured +her beamingly. "Come here, right now." + +Somewhat taken aback, Elsie complied. She was surprised to find that +it wasn't difficult nor even unpleasant. + +"You see, Miss Elsie, I can't never go about my work and finish one +thing before I take up another," Kate explained. "I'm up and down +these stairs, up and down, up and down, from mornin' till night, +a-waitin' on the missus. When it ain't eggnog, it's beef-tea or gruel, +and then again it'll be frosted cake, icing that thick, upon my word +and honor! And once she gets hold of me, I have to stay and tell her +all the news I get from the grocer and the butcher's boy, and who goes +by and what they has on. Not that I don't admire bein' sociable, and I +can't help havin' a motherly feelin' for one old enough to be my +mother; but I don't get no chance to redd up nowhere except the +dinin'-room and his study. And then you know, I ain't no general +housework girl, anyways, I've always cooked before; but here I have to +do everything, besides waitin' on a woman as isn't any sicker than what +I be. If you knew the money she spends on choc'late creams and +headache powders and the trashy novels she reads, you'd wonder she +ain't even yellower than what she is." + +The next morning Elsie set about trying to do her own room. Before she +had reached the point of attacking the bed, she had decided that she +could save herself a great deal of work by putting things away when she +took them off or used them, instead of dropping them, as she had always +done, for some one else to pick up. Kate came in and insisted upon +helping with the bed. + +"But, Katy, don't you want to get ready for church?" Elsie suddenly +thought to inquire. + +"I went to early mass this mornin', miss. I declare to goodness, I'm +that shabby that I don't like to appear out in broad daylight." + +"Why, Katy, what do you do with all your money? Do you have parents to +support?" + +"No'm, I'm an orphan. But I don't have any ready money, and I don't +like to take what little I have out of the savings-bank. I ain't been +paid my wages sence Christmas." + +Elsie was aghast. "But why don't you ask for them?" she cried. + +"I do. And she keeps a-promisin', but money slips right through her +fingers. I don't like to go to himself about it, because I hate to +upset him, and then she's good to me, and I know them headache powders +makes her forgetful. I don't know where the money goes: she has a +fistful the first of every month, but she owes bills to everybody in +town except the undertaker. What I'm afraid of is as some of 'em'll go +to himself. The ice man is gettin' as sassy as he can live." + +Elsie was shocked beyond expression. The situation would have seemed +inconceivable except that anything was conceivable in connection with +Mrs. Middleton. The girl had almost forgotten that she was departing +shortly, but realizing it, she was the more relieved. Only it would be +all the harder for Elsie Moss. + +Still, even so, she found she couldn't dismiss the matter thus. +Somehow her heart went out to that careless, slipshod, kindly, Irish +Kate. Before she went to church, she slipped into the kitchen and +insisted upon her accepting fifteen dollars to get herself some clothes +before the next Sunday. And when Kate flatly refused to take the +money, she developed a curious resourcefulness. She declared that +unless she took it, she should go to her uncle and ask him to inquire +into the question of her unpaid wages. And Kate succumbed. + +After service, Elsie sat down to write to Elsie Moss. She didn't say +anything she had meant to say. She knew she ought at least to give her +some intimation of the situation, lest the other should be wholly +unprepared and enter perhaps upon some course that must be rudely +interrupted by the end of another week. But she wasn't clever enough +for that. + +She spoke of the place and the people and how much she liked them. She +told of the three afternoons in the library, and remembering how the +other had taken to the children on the train, tried, in her stiff, +constrained way, to describe little Mattie Howe, who minded the baby +all his waking hours and read a Prudy book a day. + +She couldn't even mention Mrs. Middleton. She spoke freely of Elsie's +uncle--almost enthusiastically, indeed--told how he had asked if she +had toothache, and signed herself, rather abruptly, "Your loving +friend, Elsie M----." + +The following morning she found a letter on her plate. She had gone by +the name of Moss nearly a week, yet it gave her a start to see the +address and to break open the envelope. + +It was a bright, amusing letter, as informal as her own had been stiff. +Elsie Moss found Cousin Julia no end jolly, a perfect brick. The +boarding-house was the most interesting place she had ever known, and +the people just right; and though New York was stifling she loved it, +and wasn't the least in a hurry to get to the shore. She expected very +soon to confide her ambition to Miss Pritchard--honestly, she was so +dear and splendid, that it was the greatest wonder that she hadn't told +her she wanted to be an actress before they left the Grand Central +Station. . . . + +"I'm simply perishing to hear from you, Elsie-Honey," the letter +concluded. "Uncle's a darling saint, I know, but you must tell me +about Aunt Milly so I can describe her to my stepmother. I sort of +glossed her over in this letter I enclose for you to forward so that it +will have the Enderby postmark. I came out strong on Uncle John and +the station at Boston, however. And tell me about the servants. I +know there's a servants' hall like in English books, so I suppose they +have a lot. If there's a butler, I almost envy you, for that would be +good practice for me, because most plays have a butler and a French +maid. I shall probably be French-maided to the limit if I ever get a +start, though I'd rather be a slavey or a chimney-sweep! + +"Do you leave your shoes outside the door at night? I should never +remember. The first day I was here I made my own bed! The chambermaid +nearly fell over. + +"Do tell me a lot to write to auntie (that's my stepmother); I have +always told her everything I'm thinking about, and now it will be +rather difficult for I only think now about the stage and Cousin Julia +and you, Elsie-Honey. I hope you think of me?" + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +"Oh, Miss Moss, I think I can come earlier to-morrow afternoon and stay +longer," said little Mattie Howe eagerly. "It's been such a good week +for drying clothes that mother's way ahead on her work, and she'll mind +the baby herself. Charles Augustus is going to take back the last load +this afternoon with his cart." + +"That's nice for you, Mattie, but I shan't be here. Miss Stewart's +coming back to-morrow," replied Elsie. + +The child's bright, thin little face clouded. + +"Oh, dear, oh, dear, these changes are most too much for me, I +declare!" she cried. "I mean changes-_back_ is. The change that +brought you here, Miss Moss, was just sweet. Only I wish it had turned +into a _stay_." + +Elsie drew the little thing close to her. At the moment she herself +almost wished it had been a _stay_. + +"I wonder if that's my _hard_," prattled the child. "Mother says +everybody, even rich people, have hard things to bear. Do you bleeve +so, Miss Moss?" + +Elsie looked startled. + +"Why, Mattie, I hardly know," she faltered. "Ye-es, I suppose every +one does, really." + +"Even you, Miss Moss?" + +Elsie couldn't answer. On a sudden that first day she and Elsie Moss +had been together came back to her. She recalled Elsie's fresh grief +for the death of her mother and her own sense of remissness, and the +class motto that signified through hardships to the stars. Since she +had been at Enderby, things had been disagreeable enough almost to make +up for her former immunity. And yet, she hadn't been here ten days, +and she didn't really have to endure it. Furthermore, she was to +escape from it very shortly. + +"No, Mattie, I don't believe I have had so much that is hard as most +people have," she owned. + +"You are like the princess, you see," murmured the child. "But I +s'pose you feel awfully sorry about your auntie being so poorly? When +mother was sick once I felt as bad _here_ as if I had the stomachache +hard." + +Elsie evaded the issue by hoping politely that the little girl's mother +was quite well now. + +"Oh, yes, Miss Moss, and does four peopleses' washings besides our +own," Mattie declared. "Father works steady most of the time, but +there's five of us, counting the baby, and--sometimes he gets drunk. +Not so very often, he doesn't, but nobody can ever tell when he will +and when he won't, so mother has to help out. Well, I must go now. +When will I see you?" + +Elsie didn't know what to say. Miss Stewart's return had been delayed +from day to day and she had postponed making her decision as to her +course until that matter was settled. Only to-day had she learned that +the librarian would resume her work to-morrow, Saturday, and she +expected to give up her evening to forming her own plans. Until this +moment, she hadn't thought of Mattie as a complication. It didn't seem +possible that one could become so attached to a child of ten years +in--it wasn't yet ten days--that one not only hated to leave her, but +even felt remiss, almost conscience-stricken, in so doing. + +"Won't you come to see us, mother and me and the baby--you'll just love +him, Miss Moss, he can pat-a-cake and by-by and almost talk and lots +else, too. Won't you please come?" the child begged. + +Even with her arm about the child's shoulders, the incongruity of +calling upon a woman who took in washing came to Elsie Marley--likewise +the fact that she wasn't likely to be in Enderby beyond Monday at the +latest. But she surprised herself and delighted Mattie by suddenly +agreeing to come the next day. + +When she spoke of it to Mr. Middleton that night at dinner, expecting +him to be surprised and, perhaps, to protest, she found him interested +and eager. + +"Oh, Elsie, that's capital!" he exclaimed. "She's the nicest sort of +woman, Mrs. Howe is. She's hardly more than a girl in spite of that +little brood of five. She gets out very little, and if you would go +around once in a while it would mean a lot to her. Besides, I'm sure +you'll enjoy her." + +As Elsie sat in her room by the window that evening, she wondered +whether one visit from a person one is never to see again would mean +anything to Mattie's mother? Well, for that matter, whether it would +or not, she had promised to make it and must keep her word. And she +mustn't allow her thoughts to be diverted by that. + +For the opportunity she had sought to complete her plans was hers. Mr. +Middleton had gone out to attend a committee meeting directly after +dinner. Mrs. Middleton she hadn't seen all day. The matter of the +library had settled itself, and her way was clear. + +But somehow her thoughts didn't proceed as she had expected them to do. +She had rather looked for marshalled ranks of reasons standing at +either hand--those saying _go_, of course, largely predominating--which +she would only have to review. Instead her mind wandered, roving back +to the conversation with Mattie, and the little girl's quoting her +mother that every one has a hard to bear. + +Was it really true? She supposed it must be. Mr. Middleton, despite +his serenity, looked as if he had undergone all sorts of things. So +had Elsie Moss. Even poor old Kate had had her share. On the other +hand, there was Mrs. Middleton, there was Elsie's own grandmother and +her mother. And there was Elsie herself. She had never had anything +hard in her life until within a fortnight. + +How curious it was that Mattie should have put her finger upon Mrs. +Middleton as being her particular difficulty, mistaken though her sense +of the situation was. Mrs. Middleton was truly the only _hard_ Elsie +had ever known. Undergoing a certain amount of her society and +submitting to her caresses, sometimes once a day, often less +frequently, was the only ordeal she had ever undergone. And severe +though it was, there were wide spaces between, and those spaces were +the happiest moments she had ever known. + +Now she was planning to throw away all the happiness, the delight, +because of the discomfort. It came to her rather vaguely that perhaps +that was the way with people who seemed never to have had hardships. +They evaded them somehow. And she wondered if some one else had to +shoulder them as so much extra burden? It almost seemed so. + +And yet, why should she remain and endure that dreadful Mrs. Middleton? +What good would it do? Mightn't it, on the contrary, do real harm? +The girl couldn't imagine it as being any easier as the days went by, +but in case it should, what would it mean but that she herself was +becoming coarse--even vulgar? + +In a sense, there wasn't any one now to care whether she was coarse or +not. Elsie Moss might, and Mr. Middleton. He liked her as she was. +He wouldn't like her to be different. And yet, he not only endured +Mrs. Middleton but actually cared for her, and he was as refined as any +one she had ever known, besides being so much more interesting than any +one except Elsie Moss. Possibly he would rather have her altered +somewhat than have the shock of learning the truth of the matter, and +of having a reluctant, and perhaps unwilling, Elsie Moss in the house. + +Elsie Moss, too, liked her as she was. She had called her a princess. +Surely she wouldn't endure any change. And yet again--what if enduring +Mrs. Middleton would mean actually doing something for the other Elsie? +What if not enduring her--flying from difficulty--would mean +disappointment--breaking her ardent heart? + +The clock struck nine, and immediately she heard Mr. Middleton enter +the house. He called to her and Elsie went down. + +He wanted to tell her of a plan they had been discussing at the meeting +in regard to a course of lectures for the coming winter. All +eagerness, he reviewed the whole situation for her benefit, then went +on to tell her of the lectures they had had in other years, and to +compare those in prospect. Elsie, who was already learning to talk, to +express some of the interest she felt, enjoyed it the more that she was +able to respond in a measure--quite enough to satisfy him completely. + +When she went to her room again, it was only to postpone the decision. +To-morrow she would go to see Mattie Howe without knowing whether it +was a farewell call or not. The next day, Sunday, she would decide. +She promised herself solemnly that she would do so. She would shut +herself up in her room directly after dinner, and would not emerge +until she had made up her mind. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +Had Elsie Marley been possessed of more imagination, or had she been +accustomed to use what she had, she might have been better prepared to +meet little Mattie's mother. The child was unusual and showed the +influence of careful upbringing. Further, Mr. Middleton had spoken of +her as looking like a girl and as worth seeking out; and already Elsie +had had a chance to discern that, broad and tolerant as he was, he saw +things as they were (except in the case of his wife), never misstated +and rarely overstated. For all that, she set out on Saturday afternoon +prepared to meet the typical washerwoman of fiction--worn, bedraggled, +shapeless, and forlorn. She was prepared to go into a steaming kitchen +with puddles on the floor and dirty children all about, and have this +red-faced personage take a scarlet hand out of the tub, dry it on a +dirty apron, and hold it out to her. And for her part she was prepared +to take it, damp or clammy as it might be, without a squirm. + +Wherefore, when Mattie ushered her proudly into a pretty, tidy +living-room with a square piano in the corner, and she saw a tall, +slender person with a plain, sweet, girlish face advancing to meet her, +in spite of her resemblance to Mattie, Elsie had no idea who she might +be. She had a confused sense of some neighbor having been brought in +to receive her, and a vague idea of asking to be taken into the kitchen. + +"Oh, mother, here's Miss Moss!" cried Mattie, then dropped her hand and +exclaiming, "My goodness, there's that baby already!" fled into the +entry. + +"I'm so pleased to see you, Miss Moss," said Mrs. Howe quietly. "Sit +there by the window where you get a view of the hill. It's more than +good of you to come. I hope Mattie didn't tease you too much?" + +"No, indeed, she asked me very prettily," said Elsie. "She's a sweet +child." + +"She's good as gold," said her mother. "And she's perfectly wild about +you. She calls you the Princess Moss-rose and makes up stories about +you after she goes to bed." + +Elsie smiled and colored. + +"Don't tell her I told you," warned Mrs. Howe, "she'll be right back. +She had the baby's clean dress ready to pop over his head the moment he +woke up." + +Elsie looked up quickly as if she were about to speak. But though she +said nothing, Mrs. Howe seemed to reply. + +"She takes most all the care of him when she isn't in school," she +admitted. "Some people think she's too young and that it's too hard +for her. But I hardly think so. She's naturally thin, just as I am, +but she's never sick, and she likes it, though, of course, like any +child, she'd like more time to herself. But she's a born mother. And +she really seems to make better use of her spare time than most of the +little girls she plays with. And though I suppose I ought not to say +it, she and Charles Augustus are ever so much better-behaved and +better-mannered than most children who have nothing to do but play--and +sometimes it seems they're happier. You see I taught school three +years up in the State of Maine, which is my home, and I understand +children pretty well, by and large." + +Mattie came in at that moment with the baby, a fair, rosy, fat little +fellow in a starched white dress and petticoats. She put him through +all his tricks to please the visitor, and then asked Elsie if she +wished to hold him. Elsie accepted the honor, though she felt rather +apprehensive. It wasn't bad, however; indeed, the confidence with +which the baby nestled into the arms that didn't know how to enfold him +was rather sweet to the girl. And when he made a sudden dash for the +pink rose in her leghorn hat, she didn't mind it at all. + +Watchful little Mattie minded, however, and took him away quickly lest +he injure any of the princess's royal finery. Then the mother took him +from her, that the little girl might have the major part of Miss Moss's +attention. For the same reason she forbore to call in the other two +children, little girls of five and seven, who were playing with dolls +in the yard. + +But when Charles Augustus came home, his mother proudly summoned him +into the parlor. Elsie had seen him at the library--a solemn, big-eyed +little fellow with a prominent forehead and spectacles. + +When he had shaken hands, his mother told Elsie how much she relied +upon his help. He fetched and carried all the clothes she laundered, +and had recently made a new body for his old cart which would carry a +good-sized clothes-basket. + +"I don't see how you do it--other people's washing," said Elsie +suddenly. + +"I couldn't if Mattie and Charles Augustus didn't help me so much," +replied Mrs. Howe. + +The girl glanced about the pretty room, at the attractive mother in her +neat, faded muslin gown, at the thoughtful children, and the rosy baby. +How dreadful it seemed to wash soiled clothing for four strange +families! + +"Don't you hate it?" she asked with a directness rare to her. + +"Oh, no," said Mrs. Howe quietly. "I love to iron, especially pretty +things, and I don't mind washing, now that I've got set tubs. You +wouldn't believe, would you, that your uncle is responsible for my +having them? He thought of it himself. The first I knew of it was +that the men came to put them in. Isn't that just like him?" + +Elsie agreed. + +"But don't you get awfully tired?" she demanded. + +"Well, yes, Miss Moss, I do. But so does almost every mother of a +little family. You come to take it for granted, you know. A mother +rather sinks her life in that of her children, and--after all, she +doesn't lose half so much as she gains. And getting tired--why, I know +just from what Mattie has told me about the way you do at the library +that you understand the satisfaction of doing for others, and that +getting tired's a part of it." + + +Reaching the parsonage, Elsie didn't go in, but sat on a bench in the +garden for an hour, not thinking, hardly musing, but in a sort of spell +as it were. As she rose at the stroke of six, she was saying to +herself: "I never knew life was like that!" And she repeated it as she +entered the house. + +On the hall-table was a letter from the Elsie in New York. Taking it +to her room, she perused it eagerly. One paragraph she read over +twice, and yet twice again at bedtime. + +"Oh, Elsie-Honey," the passage ran, "I was so relieved and thankful to +get your letter and feel convinced that you like Uncle John and Aunt +Milly just as well as I do Cousin Julia--though I don't see how you +can--quite. It came to me the night before I got your letter--suppose +you should want to swap back? The cold shivers chased one another up +and down my spine and nearly splintered it. Of course, I should have +done it without a word, but oh, Elsie-Honey, I don't mind telling you +now that it would have broken my heart for sure. For I'm simply mad +about Cousin Julia--so dotty over her that I believe if she'd told me I +couldn't on any account study for the stage, I should have kissed her +hand like a meek lamb. Instead of which she knows and approves--that +is, she is willing. Only an angel from heaven would really +approve--and I suppose he (or she) wouldn't. At any rate, my present +job is trying to keep from bursting with happiness." + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +"Elsie, I rather want to hear that Elsie-Marley-Honey-thing again," +remarked Miss Pritchard. "Would you mind doing it now?" + +The two sat alone on the veranda of the hotel at an hour when other +guests were resting after the midday meal. Before them, beyond a +stretch of mosslike lawn and a broad sandy beach, rolled the sea, +brilliantly blue, with the waves curling dazzlingly white. Miss +Pritchard, comfortably dressed in a plain pongee-silk suit with a long +jacket, was ensconced on a willow settee with some recent English +reviews. Elsie, perched on the railing, her back against a pillar, +gazed at the far-away sky-line. She wore a pale-pink linen frock. Her +small face with its dark eyes and big dimples, her bobbed hair, and her +exceeding slenderness of form gave her such an appearance of +youthfulness that she seemed a very tall child, rather than the small +girl she was. + +"I like your manner of speaking of my specialty, Cousin Julia," she +remarked. "Pray tell me why you want to hear it again, if you have +such scant respect for it?" + +Miss Pritchard smiled. "If you must know, child, I want to listen more +critically this time. I'm quite sure I must have praised it far above +its deserts. And now that I understand the situation I ought to be a +better judge." + +Despite her lightness of tone, Miss Pritchard was really desirous of +applying the test. Less than a fortnight after the girl's arrival, she +had learned of Elsie's desire to be an actress. The knowledge came +like a blow, it must be confessed. Broad as she was, she couldn't help +regretting that the girl's desires--and apparently her talent--seemed +to lie in the direction of the stage. Though she had declared she had +no patience with Pritchard notions and pretensions, she couldn't help +feeling that it was hardly decorous for the last of the Pritchards to +become an actress. Moreover, she feared that Elsie's capability did +not point to what is called the legitimate drama; it looked from the +first as if she would make straight for vaudeville and, perhaps, never +go further. After her training she might fill a soubrette's part +acceptably for a few years, but Miss Pritchard sighed when she tried to +look beyond that. To her it seemed like a limited outlook with a +closed door blocking the way at a point long before the age when one's +career should have reached the apex. + +But Elsie's heart was set on it, and Miss Pritchard, despite her +misgivings, was full of sympathy and entered cordially into plans and +ways and means. Her newspaper work had given her friends among +critics, managers, and various theatrical people, and she helped Elsie +select a school wherein to begin her studies. That accomplished, Elsie +reluctantly agreed to accompany Miss Pritchard to the shore to spend +her six weeks' vacation. + +"What I cannot understand," said Miss Pritchard at this time, repeating +very much what she had said before, "is, how you ever did it--how you +could possibly get any such idea into your head with your bringing-up. +For the life of me, I can't imagine your family countenancing any such +thing!" + +"They didn't take to the idea with any enthusiasm," Elsie replied truly. + +"You certainly are the strangest Pritchard ever. You're less Pritchard +than I, and that's saying a great deal," said Miss Pritchard with a +sigh. "Dear me, when I was at Aunt Ellen's when you were a baby, they +were so worried for fear you should have any Marley traits whatever, so +anxious for you to be all Pritchard!" + +"Are you siding with them now?" the girl asked soberly. "Are you +disappointed in me, Cousin Julia?" + +"Bless your heart, dear, I'm so satisfied that I'm frightened, and I +think I'll throw my precious ruby ring into the sea. I wish I could +say that I'd like you to be just so far Pritchard as not to have any +desire for the stage; but I somehow don't dare even say that. You see, +I couldn't risk losing any particle of Marley other than the +stage-madness." + +Elsie came to her side and kissed her warmly. + +"Then suppose we chuck the Pritchards for good," she proposed. + +Miss Pritchard fairly gasped. Such temerity took her breath. But she +didn't give expression to her amazement. Already she had come to the +conclusion that Elsie had not been happy at home; she who was so frank +in all else was so brief and guarded in all her references to the +family or her home life. Now it seemed as if she must have been +exceedingly unhappy, to be ready to renounce the Pritchards in that +wholesale way. And yet, how could any girl whose life had not been +happy--nay, brimming with sunshine--be so gay and blithe and girlish +and care-free as she? Could the reaction from strict repression +possibly have that effect? Could the opportunity to realize her +ambition work such a miracle? Miss Pritchard shook her head. It was +beyond her, she confessed. + +"Now you're down, you may as well do your stunt and have it over, +Elsie," she remarked. And Elsie, standing back a little, repeated the +performance in a manner that was only the more captivating. + +Then, resuming her seat on the railing, she looked eagerly toward Miss +Pritchard. The face of the latter was a study. With every line, every +word, indeed, of the simple song, the actress in the girl had come out +strongly. Admiration of the grace and skill and charm of it all, and +wonder at the extraordinary sweetness of the girl's voice, mingled with +regret at the significance of it. + +"Do you know what you look like, Cousin Julia?" Elsie asked. + +"No, my saucy Marley, I do not." + +"Like 'Heaven only knows'"--the girl heaved a tremendous +sigh--"'whatever will become of the naughty Brier-Rose.'" + +"My dear, if you exhibit that sort of keenness," said Miss Pritchard, +laughing, "I'll make a newspaper reporter of you, willy-nilly. Then +you'll be sorry for poking fun at your elderly relative." + +"It's only that I'm so used to discouragement from my elders and +betters that I'm familiar with the signs," returned Elsie. "Like as +not, if any one were to say, 'Hooray! Bully for you! Go in and win!' +I shouldn't understand. I should think they were kidding me." + +"Poor child!" laughed Miss Pritchard, but she was really secretly +touched. + +At this moment an artist Miss Pritchard had known for years, who always +spent his summers at this hotel, appeared before them. A man between +fifty and sixty, it was said of him that he had never succeeded; +younger, struggling artists said it was because of his handicap of a +fortune. + +"Oh, Miss Marley, I wish I could persuade you to sing that again," he +said. "I caught a bit and a glimpse at a distance--just enough to +tantalize me." + +Elsie, who admired Mr. Graham immensely, was seized with sudden +diffidence. He was a connoisseur in all matters of art. Suppose he +should say right before Miss Pritchard, that she was only a silly +tomboy, or whatever such a gentleman would say to express that idea? +She glanced irresolutely at Miss Pritchard. + +"Go ahead, dear," said Miss Pritchard cheerfully, and turning to her +friend: "My little cousin thought I was scolding her, Mr. Graham. The +truth is, I'm the one who should be scolded. I chose the work I cared +for at about Elsie's age and went in for it; and yet when she chooses +hers, which happens to be the stage, I act the hen-with-the-duckling." + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, you're the only one that has ever let me even speak +of it!" cried Elsie. Tears suddenly filled her eyes, and smiling +through them, she stepped back and began the song. And this time she +put in all the _frills_, as she expressed it. She danced and acted and +sang, and, as always, she was quite irresistible. The artist was +charmed. + +"It's good enough for the vaudeville stage just as it is," he declared. +"There's only one fault." + +"Oh, what is that?" the girl cried eagerly, with the artist's desire +for criticism, even though destructive. + +"Your voice is too good--altogether too good. You could do it as well +and perhaps better with a voice far inferior to yours in range, +sweetness, and tone." + +The girl gazed at him reproachfully. She had always had that to +contend with. People had always tried to "buy her off," as she +expressed it, by proposing that she become a singer instead of an +actress. Now, as always, she rebelled at the idea, and again her +vision of a public singer came to her--a very stout blonde lady in a +very low-cut gown with a very small waist (the picture had not adapted +itself to more modern fashions), placing a fat, squat hand on her +capacious bosom, and uttering meaningless syllables that rose to +shrieks. Anything but that, she said to herself! + +Mr. Graham had fallen into a reverie. His hand shaded his brow. He +frowned as he endeavored to recollect something. + +"Just where did you get hold of that song?" he inquired. + +"My mother used to sing it," replied Elsie, and Miss Pritchard +wondered. So far as she had known, none of the Pritchards had sung, +and it was difficult to fancy Elsie's mother warbling a ditty of that +sort. The birth of her child must have altered Augusta greatly. + +"It's an old nursery rhyme, I believe," the artist went on, still half +in his perplexity. "Isn't it singular about the name--or perhaps you +were named for it?" + +"I was named _after_ it," responded Elsie demurely. + +He smiled, but he was only half attending. He was reaching for +something in the depths of his mind which he did not find, and +presently he sauntered on with bent head. Miss Pritchard took up the +_Spectator_, and Elsie produced the "First Violin," and presently was +lost in that. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +The next day as the artist met Elsie on the beach on her way to the +bath-house, his face lighted up. + +"Oh, Miss Marley, it all came back to me, after twenty years," he +exclaimed. "Something about you has haunted my memory ever since I +first saw you last week, and the song yesterday made it more definite +and more perplexing. I woke in the night and it all came back. I +heard that very same song on the train going South as a young +man--comparatively young, though you wouldn't call it so. Do you want +to sit down a moment and let me tell you? + +"I haven't even thought of it for a dozen years," he said when they had +found a convenient bench. "As I said, we were bound southward, and it +was toward night. The seat in front of me was occupied by an +exceedingly pretty young lady and a gentleman who must have been her +brother or her husband--girls married younger in those days--for their +name, which escapes me, was the same. Farther ahead, on the opposite +side of the car, was a woman with an infant in her arms and a boy baby +of under two years at her side. As it grew late, the older baby grew +tired and cross. He wanted his mother, was jealous of the tiny one, +and finally he just howled. The young lady before me said a word to +her companion and went directly over. + +"That kid, Miss Marley, was dirty and sticky beyond words, and she was +the daintiest, freshest, sweetest girl imaginable. But she smiled and +held out her arms and he just tumbled into them. She hugged the little +beggar close, never minding her pretty gown, and brought him back to +her seat. She seemed to know just what to do--took off his shoes, +loosened the neck of his dress and all that, then cuddled him down and +sang to him until he went to sleep and after. Her voice was as sweet +as yours, and she sang the very same thing, 'And Do You Ken Elsie +Marley'--I think she sang it twice or thrice." + +Perhaps it was Elsie's fondness for children; perhaps it was because he +told the story so well; in any event, the girl was touched. And as +usual, to cover her feeling, she tried to smile, her dimples rather at +variance with the tears in her eyes. + +He gazed at her curiously. "Wait, Miss Marley, that isn't all," he +exclaimed. "As I recalled the young lady, I saw her face only dimly. +Now do you know it suddenly comes to me that she had the largest, +deepest dimples I had ever seen, one in either cheek. And I remember +vowing then and there, in my youthful enthusiasm, that if ever I +attempted to paint Madonna she should have just such dimples; they +struck me as somehow significant, perhaps symbolic." + +Elsie's heart was beating wildly. + +"I wonder--could that have been your mother, Miss Marley?" + +The girl could not speak for the tumult within her. + +"It seems as if their name began with M, though it couldn't have been +Marley, else I should have noticed on account of the song," he went on +kindly, realizing her emotion. "May I ask what was your mother's +maiden name, Miss Marley?" + +Quite upset, Elsie started to tell the truth; said Mi--and stopped +short. + +"Middleton!" he exclaimed triumphantly. + +"Pritchard," she said as quickly as she could get it out. + +"_Pritchard?_" he repeated as if he must have heard wrong. + +"Augusta Pritchard," the girl reiterated, her heart like a stone. + +The artist was puzzled. But realizing that the loss of her mother +might have been so recent as to be still a painful subject, he +tactfully spoke of other things, cloaking his disappointment at not +being able to work out his problem to final solution. He feared lest +he might somehow have blundered upon some sad family secret. Even with +twenty years between them, he couldn't believe that his senses had so +deceived him, couldn't but feel that that young girl had been connected +with this girl of the big dimples. And he couldn't but believe that +the girl knew it. Only there was something that prevented her +acknowledging it. It might be tragedy; perhaps it was disgrace? +Though, somehow, he couldn't think it. Poor little thing! He let her +go on her way to her bath. + +But Elsie returned to the hotel and went straight to her room. She +knew she would be undisturbed there, for Miss Pritchard had gone +driving with old friends while she was to have had her swim. The girl +flung herself upon her bed and, burying her face in her pillow, shed +the bitterest tears of her life. + +She had denied her mother--that darling, adorable mother who had taken +the sticky baby to her heart, and sung "Elsie Marley" to him, just as +she had later sung it to her own little girl. She had cast off her +mother and taken on--_Augusta Pritchard_! What a name to exchange for +Elizabeth Middleton! For even though the former were the mother of the +lovely Elsie Marley who had gone to Enderby, she couldn't be compared +with her beautiful mother. And, of course, her denial was far worse in +that she was dead. + +How proud, how happy, how humble, she should have been to say: "Why, of +course, that was my mother! I knew it without the dimples!" What a +wretch she must be! To have had such a mother as to have so impressed +a chance stranger that he should wish to paint the Madonna in her +likeness, and should have remembered her twenty years, and to have +repudiated her utterly! + +She felt that she could not bear it, could not endure such a weight on +her heart. But what could she do? Say to Mr. Graham that it _was_ her +mother and her name _was_ Middleton? Then she would have to tell +Cousin Julia everything, and she would send her away, send her off to +poke and fret in Enderby, and serve tea in a conventional parsonage +drawing-room. And she would never be an actress, and the true Elsie +Marley would be dragged on to New York. + +It would be hard on Elsie-Honey, for already she seemed just to love +that poky parsonage, and was apparently quite as attached to Uncle John +as she herself was to Cousin Julia. And even Cousin Julia--already +Elsie couldn't but realize that Cousin Julia had given her her whole +heart; she wouldn't have liked the other girl so well in the first +place, and now any such overturn would--it would just break her heart! + +No, that couldn't be. After all, she couldn't have done otherwise. +She _had_ to say what she did on account of the game. Being cast for a +part, she had to play it, even though it might be disagreeable at +times. And it _wasn't_ worse because her mother was dead; being in +heaven, her mother would understand and condone. How did that hymn go? + +She sat erect and sang, very sweetly, the stanza that applied: + + "There is no place where earth's sorrows + Are so felt as up in heaven, + There is no place where earth's failings + Have such kindly judgment given." + + +That comforted her strangely. "Uncle John couldn't have administered +first aid himself more successfully," she said to herself humorously as +she dried her eyes. + +She bathed her face and, standing before the mirror, addressed the +charming reflection in the pink frock. She mustn't expect plain +sailing all the time she warned her. She must expect to be _up against +it_ frequently. She must keep her class motto in mind and not expect +everything to be dead easy. It was hard not to be able to claim one's +beautiful mother; but she was playing a part; she was on the stage in +costume, and the part-she-was-playing's mother's name wasn't Middleton +nor Moss and was Augusta Pritchard. She must keep her motto in mind +and say continually to herself: "Act well your part, there all the +honor lies." + +That very evening at dinner some one asked her where she got her +dimples--whether they were inherited? + +"Or, perhaps, Miss Marley's a freak like the white peacock at the +gardens?" broke in a callow youth whom Elsie disliked. + +"From my mother," she said quickly, and Miss Pritchard, sensitive to +the least sound of hurt in Elsie's voice, introduced another subject. + +Nevertheless, she wondered. She hadn't seen Augusta Pritchard since +the latter was a girl of nineteen, but she couldn't recollect that she +had any dimples or shadows of dimples. She couldn't even imagine the +combination of dimples with her white, cold, rather expressionless +face, nor reconcile them with the true Pritchard temperament. It +seemed inconceivable that Elsie could have inherited them except +through the Marleys; and yet, of course, Elsie remembered her mother +who had died only three years ago. + +She had to consider that the girl didn't like that fresh Jerrold boy +and had been nettled by his remark. Possibly in her indignation she +had said what first came into her mind, though it didn't seem like her. +Miss Pritchard sighed, for she had worshipped at the shrine of truth +all her life, and strive as she would, she couldn't but feel a +deviation from Elsie's wonted frankness here. + +She pondered much upon the subject and later in the summer--on the +evening preceding their return to New York, it was--as they were +talking about Elsie's studying, Miss Pritchard suddenly became serious. + +"Elsie, there's something I want to say to you as an older woman to a +young girl," she began. "You will have one difficulty to contend with +that I had in newspaper work, only in your case the temptation will be +greater, and your task correspondingly harder. There's a poem of a +child-actor of Queen Elizabeth's time, little Salathiel Pavy, who +constantly played the part of an old man. The verses relate that he +acted the part so naturally that the fates mistook him for an old man +and cut off his thread of life in his tender years. Now you, Elsie +dear, concerned with make-believe--fiction--as you will constantly be +in your study for the stage, eager, of course, to use every moment and +occasion, with one subject dominating your thoughts, will need to be +very, very careful with regard to your separate, personal life. In +other words, in good old-fashioned terms, you'll have to guard your +soul. Keep that good and pure and true. Keep that sacred, above and +apart from your work, and then whether you are ever a great actress or +not, you will be a good woman." + +And then half shyly, but beautifully, she repeated Matthew Arnold's +"Palladium": + + "Set where the upper streams of Simois flow, + Was the Palladium, high 'mid rock and wood; + And Hector was in Ilium far below, + And fought and saw it not, but there it stood. + + It stood and sun and moonshine rained their light + On the pure columns of its glen-built hall. + Backward and forward rolled the waves of fight + Round Troy; but while this stood, Troy could not fall. + + So in its lovely moonlight lives the soul. + Mountains surround it and sweet virgin air; + Cold plashing, past it, crystal waters roll: + We visit it by moments, ah, too rare! + + Men will renew the battle on the plain + To-morrow; red with blood will Xanthus be; + Hector and Ajax will be there again, + Helen will come upon the wall to see. + + Then we shall rust in shade or shine in strife, + And fluctuate 'twixt blind hopes and blind despairs, + And fancy that we put forth all our life, + And never know how with the soul it fares. + + Still doth the soul from its lone fastness high, + Upon our life a ruling effluence send: + And when it fails, fight as we will, we die; + And, while it lasts, we cannot wholly end." + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +"I suppose," observed the real Elsie Marley thoughtfully, drawing one +of her long curls over her shoulder, "that if I'm going to be at the +library regularly, I'd better put up my hair?" + +She addressed Mr. Middleton, but his wife, who had of late fallen into +the habit of sitting downstairs in the evening, replied. She had +conceived a strong fancy to the girl, who secretly shrank from her, and +bore herself toward her in a cold and distant manner. + +"Oh, Elsie, love, it would be sweet to do it sort of _Grecian_," she +cried in her sentimental fashion, "with a classic knot at the nape of +your neck, and little curls hanging down behind your ears." + +"Let her leave it as it is a little longer, Milly," her husband +pleaded, "for it's just as her mother wore hers." + +This was not the fact, even though Elsie had been truly his niece. His +sister had worn her hair in curls, but they had been many and riotous, +and caught at the top of her head with a ribbon; while Elsie's two were +fastened at her neck by a neat clasp, and hung as demurely as a braid +would have done. + +"Of course," assented Mrs. Middleton. "Elsie's the picture of her +mother, I suppose?" + +"She reminds me of her mother more and more every day," he said, "but +she doesn't look like her at all. You remember I told you that +Elizabeth had enormous dimples? They were so large that I'm not sure +that they wouldn't have disfigured another face; but they added the +last touch to hers--made it irresistible." + +He gazed at the fire. It was late September and a chill rain beat +against the windows. + +"I suppose if Elizabeth had had a son, _he_ would have inherited the +dimples," he remarked. "I believe they say girls take traits from +their fathers and sons from the mother. Curious, isn't it?" + +"Well, my dear, if Elsie had had dimples when she came, she would have +lost them ere this," said Mrs. Middleton with unusual energy. "She's +been put right into a treadmill, Jack. Only sixteen, sweet sixteen, +and she hasn't had any of the gayety a young girl wants and needs, but +has just slaved from morning until night ever since she came to us. At +her age, she ought to be going to dances and lying late in the morning +to make up sleep, and shopping and having beaux and all that sort of +thing, just as her Aunt Milly did." + +She sighed deeply, clasping her ringed hands. Elsie was indignant, +even angry; but before she could protest, Mrs. Middleton went on. + +"Instead of which, she started work at the library the first thing and +has been off and on ever since, and is now going to do it permanently, +besides teaching a class in the Sunday-school, looking after the +choir-boys, running errands for you, and what not." + +"My dear Milly!" cried her husband, really distressed; and went on to +explain that when they decided to open the library in the evening as +well as the afternoon, some one had to relieve Miss Stewart for two of +the afternoon hours, and every one had clamored for Elsie. + +"And I love to do it," added Elsie, "and I'm so pleased that I am to +have the hours when the children are out of school." + +"Of course," agreed Mrs. Middleton, smiling; "dear lambs! I should +have felt just the same. Indeed, you're so like I was at your age, +Elsie, dearest, that I feel as if it were to _me_ that you are really +related." + +Elsie murmured a silent word of deprecation, forgetting, as she often +did, that she wasn't related to Mr. Middleton, either. + +The rain beat furiously. The minister rose and put another stick on +the fire. He did not return to his seat but stood with his elbow on +the mantel gazing at his wife. Though thin, John Middleton looked +strong and well, in part, perhaps, because of his florid complexion, +partly because of his serenity. But in moments of stress he had a way +of seeming to grow worn and older under one's very eyes. + +He felt the cogency of his wife's words. He had, indeed, he said to +himself, taken possession of his sister's orphan child immediately upon +her arrival, and had made a sort of drudge of her: he kept her +constantly occupied, performing miscellaneous services for him--he +wasn't sure that he could have demanded so much of a paid secretary. +And she, like her mother, unselfish and devoted, had made no complaint. + +He spoke before Elsie, who was slow of speech and was regretting that +she didn't share the real Elsie Moss's gift of expression, was able to +put her feeling into words that would convince him. + +"No wonder you felt like putting up your curls and saying farewell to +youth, Elsie," he said whimsically yet ruefully. "Your aunt is just +right, dear, and we'll make a change at once. What should you say to +going on to New York to make your little actress friend a visit, and +then starting anew after you come back?" + +Now the color flew to Elsie's cheeks and words came. + +"Oh, Uncle John, I wouldn't go now for the world!" she cried in genuine +dismay. "I'm just longing to go to the library every day--I think it's +just--splendid! And I like it all--everything--so very much. It isn't +the least a treadmill, and I'm so happy doing it. Please, please, +don't take anything away; only give me more." + +He felt the sincerity of her words, and again said to himself that the +girl was her mother over again. His wife went over to Elsie, and +stroking back her hair, kissed her brow fondly. And the color died out +of the girl's cheeks and the glow from her heart as she shuddered +within herself. And presently when Mr. Middleton went to his study to +work, she bade Mrs. Middleton a cool good night and fled to her room. + +She sat by the window some time, then went to bed; but though the sound +of the rain was soothing, she could not get to sleep. It came to her +that it was very thoughtful of Uncle John to wish to send her to visit +Elsie; and how she would have liked to go if it didn't entail leaving +the library and all the fascinating round of her daily life, and +leaving him to his wife's cold comfort. How she would like to see +Elsie Moss at this moment, to confide her troubles and her happiness to +that sympathetic ear. If they could talk together, she could make the +other understand that even with Mrs. Middleton as a drawback, she was +more content, happier, than she had ever been before. And she couldn't +help feeling that she was useful, too, in a measure--that she would be +missed if she were to go to New York. + +Still she could not sleep, and presently she found herself puzzling +over a problem that had been growing upon her and now bulked big. The +truth was that already the weight of the top-heavy household had fallen +upon the girl's shoulders. Utterly unprepared and ignorant, she had +been thrust into a tangled labyrinth of domestic affairs. The more +familiar she had become with the internal working of the household, the +more was she baffled and daunted. And presently it seemed to her +youthful inexperience as if it stood upon the brink of ruin. + +Though the minister was unaware that the bills were not paid promptly +at the beginning of each month, Mrs. Middleton owed practically every +establishment in the place accounts that dated far back. At this time +the small sums she could pay on account when her funds came in were +insufficient to satisfy any one, and one and another began to threaten +Kate with going to Mr. Middleton and demanding a settlement. They +declared it wasn't respectable for him to be giving away so much money +when he owed probably more than a year's salary. + +Kate's only recourse was to her mistress, who would be temporarily +depressed, now and then to the point of tears. But shortly she either +forgot all about it or postponed consideration until another month; and +meantime she never parted with her last penny: she always kept enough +on hand for an ample supply of novels, chocolate drops, and +headache-powders, the latter being especially expensive, according to +Kate. + +Ignorant as Elsie was, it did not take her long to understand that the +household was managed--or allowed to run on--with the utmost +extravagance and waste. She had prevailed upon Kate to set the greater +part of the big house in order and to keep it tidy, and she tried to +induce her to be less wasteful and reckless. But the girl was +developing a certain sense of justice, and she rather doubted her right +to insist. Devoted as Kate was to Mr. Middleton, and attached, in an +apologetic, shame-faced way, to her mistress, overworked and unpaid, +save for the sums Elsie forced upon her, how could she demand that Kate +be more scrupulous about details? It would seem that she had all she +could carry without that. + +The girl fell asleep at last, and woke next morning with the pleasant +reflection that she was to begin to-day at the library as a regular +salaried assistant. Second thought was still more cheering. As soon +as the minister was out of the house, and she heard Kate go down-stairs +from Mrs. Middleton's room, she betook herself to the disorderly +kitchen. At her entrance Kate rose suddenly and went and peered +anxiously into the oven--which was empty. Elsie would have liked to +tell her that she didn't begrudge her those stolen moments for resting +her tired feet, but she hadn't yet learned to express her new +sensations. It was sufficiently difficult to explain her errand. + +"Katy, here are your wages for last week," she said rather brusquely, +trying to press the money into her hands. "Mrs. Middleton will--I hope +she'll pay you in full very soon, but at any rate she--that is, you're +going to get your wages regularly every week, and I'm going to see to +it so that it shan't be neglected. And always come to me if there's +anything to ask. Please don't go to her unless about the back pay." + +"Oh, Miss Elsie, you're so good!" cried Kate warmly, believing she had +arranged it with Mr. Middleton. "I'm sorry I complained. You must 'a' +known I didn't mean half what I said. I wouldn't really 'a' gone to +himself about it. But honest, I ain't got a whole pair o' stockin's, +and can't wear them pumps I got last summer on account o' the holes, +and her a-growin' yellower every day and a-layin' round and eatin' +chocolate drops and headache-powders that cost good money and ain't no +benefit." + +She stuffed the money into a drawer of the table with a miscellaneous +assortment of less valuable things. While Elsie was wondering if she +could speak about the condition of the kitchen, which Elsie Moss would +have pronounced unspeakable, Kate drew near to her with real appeal in +her blue eyes. + +"And, Miss Elsie, I wish you hadn't let what I've confided to you sort +o' set you against your aunt. Everybody has their failin's, they do +say, and after all if she don't do worse than eat choc'late-creams and +munch headache-tablets, why, she's pretty harmless as ladies go. Mis' +Jonathan Metcalf as goes to his church is just as yellow and I don't +know but what yellower, and bedizened as well, and a regular shrew in +her own house." + +"Katy, I don't know what you mean," Elsie returned with dignity. + +"Well, you call her Mis' Middleton, when you speak of her, with your +voice like a buzz-saw, and it ain't because you're high and mighty with +me, 'cause you ain't. You're like a sister to me, and I ain't once +thought of up and leavin' sence you come as I did frequent before. And +besides, when you talk of himself, you always say Uncle John. And +she's good at heart, Miss Elsie; honest, she is. She'd be just as good +as himself if she knew as much. Her heart's in the right place, and +she takes to you and don't mistrust you don't to her." + +"Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' up your kitchen, +as you call it," said Elsie, rather neatly as she believed. + +[Illustration: "Well, I mustn't stay here and keep you from 'redding' +up your kitchen, as you call it."] + +"Oh, there's plenty of time for that," Kate assured her cheerfully; "if +not to-day, why there's another comin'." + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +The kitchen wasn't _redd up_ that day nor the next. It remained, +indeed, a sight to make a good housekeeper weep, and closets, +cupboards, clothes-presses, and the celebrated servants' parlor +remained untidy conglomerations of rubbish; but the general appearance +of the place continued to improve. Kate's gratitude for the regular +receipt of her wages was continual and practical. A chance visitor now +could enter any room in the front of the house at any hour, and there +was much comment among the people upon the change. + +It was generally agreed that Elsie Moss must have been very carefully +trained by her stepmother to bring about such a marvel. And presently +some of the creditors of the household began to wonder if her influence +couldn't be extended. One and another began to drop hints to Elsie +which became so broad that even one quite unaccustomed to any such +thing could not fail to understand. The butcher's wife, the grocer's +sister, and the draper's head bookkeeper had all but informed her in so +many words that unless their respective relatives or patrons were paid +in full by the 1st of November, they would present their bills to Mr. +Middleton, if they had to do so in the vestibule of the church. + +And they were only three out of a number that seemed legion. Others +spoke more plainly to Kate, and Elsie began to dread seeing certain +people enter the library during her hours there. The days being +shorter, the Howe baby went to bed at five o'clock, and little Mattie, +who had taken a violent fancy to Elsie, used to run to the library the +moment he was off her hands, remaining until six to walk home with her. +And Elsie, who was devoted to the child and never tired of her company, +was also relieved because her presence protected her from any but +veiled hints. + +The situation wore upon her, and finally she decided to have a frank +talk with Mrs. Middleton. She wasn't, it is true, on terms of +frankness with her, and in a sense it wasn't her place to interfere. +But she knew that Mrs. Middleton wouldn't want the bills presented to +her husband any more than Kate did--nor, indeed, than Elsie herself. +Not that she would have cared, except for Mr. Middleton's sake. It +would serve Mrs. Middleton right to be brought up short, but she +dreaded the thought of his being so distressed; she didn't want him to +give up the few little comforts he allowed himself, and she knew it +would hurt him cruelly to have to retrench in his giving. + +She wrote to Mr. Bliss, her lawyer, asking him to send her five hundred +dollars, mailing the letter to the other Elsie to be forwarded from New +York. That seemed to her inexperience a large sum and able to work +wonders. But before her letter had reached New York she began to feel +as if it wouldn't be sufficient to make everything straight for a new +start; and before there was time for an answer from San Francisco, she +was sadly convinced that it would be only a drop in the bucket. +Whereupon she decided that if Mr. Bliss sent it to her without comment, +and didn't evidently consider it a very large sum, she would ask him to +duplicate it. + +With a certain relief, she put off the frank talk with Mrs. Middleton +until she should have received the money. It did not arrive so soon as +she expected it, and she was still waiting when Kate came to her in +excitement one morning saying that the iceman wouldn't leave any ice +unless he were paid cash. Elsie produced her portemonnaie. + +"Oh, Miss Elsie, I hate to take your money," protested Kate with tears +in her eyes. "I wouldn't 'a' come to you only I'm strapped myself, +what with buyin' the hat with all them plumes, and the missus after +borrowin' my last five-dollar bill." + +"Katy Flanagan, what made you let her have it?" cried the girl almost +fiercely. + +"Well, Miss Elsie, the truth is, I couldn't resist her. There's +something about her, you know--a-askin' so airy like, and forgettin' +how--goodness, the man'll clear out with his ice if I don't fly." + +Thereafter, Elsie paid also for the ice and the milk, leaving, out of +her allowance and the money she received for the library work, barely +enough for postage. But she didn't mind that; it was really a slight +sacrifice. She cared so much for the work at the library that she +would have paid for the privilege of doing it; and she had come so well +provided with all the accessories of clothing that she hadn't even to +buy gloves for another year. + +Looking forward, she began to speculate on the possibility of starting +anew after finances were once straightened out. It appeared doubtful, +she being herself more ignorant than Kate, but presently a happy +suggestion presents itself to her. One afternoon she asked Mrs. King, +a kind, motherly, grey-haired lady who taught domestic science at the +high school and came to the library frequently, whether there were any +book to teach one how much to spend each week on different articles for +a household. + +"Oh, Miss Moss, I'm so glad you spoke, for I've been wanting to tell +you about our seniors in domestic science this year at the high school. +I think I have the nicest class I've ever had. We meet three times a +week at eleven o'clock, and I have wondered if you might not like to +join? Knowing that your aunt is an invalid, I thought you might want +to take the care off her shoulders, and I feel sure our course would +help you. You know all the girls, I think, and I should be more than +pleased to help you make up what they have been over already." + +Elsie could scarcely express her delight. She spoke to Mr. Middleton +that evening. He had no idea of her ultimate purpose; indeed, he did +not realize the confusion in which he lived, and was rather amused at +the idea, but considered it an excellent method of getting better +acquainted with the young people, and was pleased at her eagerness. + +She entered the class at once, found the study delightful and very +helpful, and the days fairly flew by. She was, after all, only +sixteen, and extraordinarily immature in many ways; and it was not +perhaps remarkable that after a few lessons, with extra help from Mrs. +King, she began to feel quite capable of shouldering the housekeeping +at the parsonage. But the more ready she felt, the less did she desire +to propose it to Mrs. Middleton. + +Such a step was not made easier by the fact that the latter took a keen +interest in her lessons at the school. She endeavored, not always +successfully, to draw the girl out upon the subject, questioning her +with some felicity, praising her ambition, and taking it for granted +that she was an unusual pupil and a great addition to the class. And +she constantly bemoaned the fact that it had been necessary for Elsie +to go outside for the instruction that she would herself have delighted +to give her, had her strength permitted. Nothing could have gratified +her more, she declared, clasping her hands and raising her eyes to the +ceiling, but she didn't even dare allow herself to dwell upon it. For +she had just enough strength to manage her own household (as every lady +should do), and she hadn't the moral right to use it for other purposes. + +Meantime, three weeks had passed since Elsie had written to ask her +lawyer for the five hundred dollars, and she began to feel troubled. +Of course, she had to allow for letter and answer going through Elsie +Moss's hands, but three weeks should have covered that. She watched +the mails anxiously. As she returned from the library on the +twenty-fourth day since she had sent her request, she decided that +unless she should hear that night, she would have Elsie Moss telegraph +from New York. For the end of October approached, and she felt she +couldn't face the crisis of the 1st of November, without the aid and +the moral support of the money. + +She was surprised to see the doctor's motor-car standing at the door, +and startled when Kate, wild-eyed and dishevelled, met her at the +threshold. + +"Uncle John? Has anything happened?" she faltered. + +"No, it ain't him. He's in the city, pore lamb, and it's myself is +thankful you'll be here to tell him. It's her. Riggs was here +a-dunnin' me for his money soon after you left, and nothin' would do +but that I should go up to her whiles he waits in the kitchen. And a +lucky thing it was, too, for there he was to go for the doctor--we both +forgot clean about the telephone." + +"But what is it?" cried Elsie. + +"I found her on the floor like a log, Miss Elsie. She ain't dead at +all, but she ain't come to, and maybe won't from taking of too many of +them headache-powders as I knew was no good but didn't think no harm +of." + +On a sudden, without warning, Kate dropped her head upon Elsie's +shoulder and began to sob wildly. + +"Oh, Katy, don't," begged Elsie, truly distressed. "You and I must +keep up for the sake of----" + +"Of himself, miss, I know," sobbed Kate, "but, oh, I feel as if it was +my own mother--or my own baby, I don't know which." + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +Elsie Moss's school was quite unlike her expectations, and her +companions not at all like those of her eager dreams. Just as at art +school one begins, she knew, with the study and copying of the antique, +so the girl had supposed that in studying for the stage, one would +approach it through the masterpieces of the drama. On the contrary, +she didn't so much as hear the name of Shakespeare or of any other dead +or classic dramatist during the first two months; and though she had to +work as hard as she had expected to do, it sometimes seemed as if it +were practice that didn't really count. The drill seemed to be all in +the way of suppleness of limb and facility of facial expression without +intellectual stimulus; indeed, it almost seemed as if the whole +tendency of the school was rather narcotic than stimulating. + +Further, the girls with whom she came in contact shared her ideals as +little as their pasts had anything in common with hers. Many of them +were not older in years, but one and all were incomparably older in +other ways and painfully sophisticated. Pretty in a coarse way, +painted and powdered, bold and often vulgar, they were almost without +exception girls whose whole lives had been spent in the atmosphere of +the stage, and that in its cheaper and poorer aspects. One or both +parents, brother, sister, aunt, or uncle had figured in shows or +exhibitions of some sort, and they had fallen into the profession in +that manner. None had, like Elsie, chosen it as a calling. + +Disappointed as she was, disheartened utterly at moments, the girl +hugged her class motto to her breast and struggled on. So deep was her +purpose, so strong her interest, that she not only pressed doggedly on, +but forced a certain amount of satisfaction out of the struggle. How +it might have been had she not possessed in Miss Pritchard a solace and +refuge, it would be difficult to say. Elsie herself hardly knew how +much courage and strength she gained during the evenings and other +fragments of time spent with her. Looking forward to that +companionship gave her patience to endure many a difficult hour which +perchance she had not endured otherwise. But with that always before +her, despite the hardships that were so different from those for which +she had been prepared, she was nevertheless wonderfully happy--perhaps, +happier than she had ever been before. + +Sometimes, when the day had been unusually trying, she would greet Miss +Pritchard at night with a warmth that almost frightened the latter, +clinging to her as if she would never let her go. But she never +confessed any of her troubles connected with the school. She talked +much of it, but it was always of the most interesting occurrences and +of amusing incidents. For her heart was in the matter as much as ever, +and Miss Pritchard wasn't so favorably inclined toward it as to make it +prudent to let her know of the disadvantages. + +But it was terribly hard for one of her nature to have no one in whom +to confide, and she longed for Elsie Marley. If she could have talked +things over with Elsie Marley it would have made it easier. Simply to +unburden her heart would mean much. Ever since she had been in New +York she had longed to see Elsie again; and with this added reason, and +a desire to learn more of her life in Enderby than she could gather +from her stiff and rather non-committal letters, she began to feel, +about the time that she forwarded a letter to Elsie's lawyer in San +Francisco, that she must induce her to come to New York for a visit. + +A letter from her stepmother seemed to render it almost imperative. +Mrs. Moss, who was devoted to Elsie and missed her sadly, was greatly +troubled by the irregularity of the girl's letters and hurt by their +want of frankness. Knowing that John Middleton had not approved of +Elsie's father marrying her, she began to fear lest he be trying to +turn his niece against her. Now she had written to protest against the +perfunctory letters, which, instead of allowing her to share in any way +in Elsie's life, shut her out. + +Elsie was deeply moved and full of compunction. She loved her +stepmother dearly and thought of her constantly, faithful soul that she +really was. She was always wondering how _auntie_ would take this or +view that; but the very topics she was moved to enlarge upon in her +letters were those which circumstances forbade her to mention. All her +interests were connected with Miss Pritchard, of whose very existence +Mrs. Moss was unaware, with the school, and less directly with Elsie +Marley, whose name she was masquerading under. Leaving all these out +of consideration, and depending almost wholly upon the fragments she +received concerning life in the parsonage at Enderby, a brief letter +once in three or four weeks was the utmost the girl could compass. + +Immediately upon receipt of her stepmother's letter, she determined to +ask Miss Pritchard if she might invite her friend Elsie Moss to come on +for a week or a fortnight. As she waited for Miss Pritchard to come +from the office that night, however, it suddenly occurred to her to +wonder if it would be quite safe. Despite her enthusiastic admiration +of Elsie Marley, which had not in the least abated, and despite the +unfavorable impression she had of the Pritchards, which only deepened +as the days passed, she had come to feel that in personal appearance +and somewhat in manner her friend must resemble her kinsfolk. + +In which case it would be as dangerous for the well-being of the one as +of the other for her to be brought in contact with Miss Pritchard. +For, stiff as were her letters and non-committal, Elsie knew that there +was little difference in the strength of attachment that held the wrong +Elsie to the place she had usurped in either instance. Whatever she +might do, therefore, she mustn't bungle or err in that respect. + +The Pritchard estate was not yet settled. The house had been sold and +such personal effects and heirlooms as were to be kept for Elsie Marley +put in storage for the time in San Francisco. Elsie Moss understood +this, and knew that Miss Pritchard did so; but she felt that the latter +wondered that she had no relics or keepsakes with her. She had had to +confess one day that she had no photographs of her family she would be +willing to show, leaving Miss Pritchard to make such inference as she +would. + +That evening at the dinner-table--she felt it would be easier to +approach the matter in semi-public--Elsie asked her if she happened to +have any old Pritchard photographs. + +"Yes, dear, I have an old album in the chest by the window that has +pictures of Aunt Ellen, Cousin Ellen, and Cousin Augusta. There are +half a dozen, I think, of Cousin Ellen, and three or four of your +mother, but no baby picture of you, nor any other, if that's what +you're looking for. After my father died we began to lose connection +with one another, and after that visit I made when you were a baby, all +communication ceased. So I got no photographs after that." + +"No, I wasn't thinking of my kid pictures, Cousin Julia. I was +just--wondering," the girl returned. "Would it be an awful bother to +get out the album?" + +"No bother at all, child. To tell the truth, I love to get it out, for +there are a lot of other pictures besides the Pritchards that I like to +look over. There's a picture of my Cousin Arthur Moore, who fell in +the battle of Lookout Mountain, that I'd like you to see." + +When the old-fashioned, velvet-bound, nickel-clasped book was produced, +Elsie almost forgot her immediate purpose in her interest in the +likenesses. But one of Ellen Pritchard at fourteen, Miss Pritchard's +cousin and supposedly _her_ aunt, brought her up sharply. For Elsie +Marley was the very image of it. Rearrange her hair, put her into the +beruffled skirt and polonaise, and she might have sat for it. Or part +this girl's hair and gather it loosely back, dress her in a tailored +suit and correct blouse, and she would be Elsie Marley. What a +frightful thing this family resemblance was! Elsie stifled a sigh. +Her cake was dough, sure enough! + +Partly to ease her dismay and postpone considering her problem until +she should be alone, the girl gave herself up to the study of the other +pictures. It wasn't difficult to lose herself, for she found them of +absorbing interest. + +Among the Pritchards, Elsie's grandmother was the most striking +personage. The strength and sagacity of her handsome face, which the +expression of pride could not conceal, related her to Miss Pritchard +unmistakably. Pride, mingled with frailty and general lack of other +expression, characterized the invalid daughter; and pride that was +arrogance, the bored face of Augusta Pritchard, who was supposed to be +her mother. + +It was late when the girl finally closed the album. + +"Many thanks, Cousin Julia," she murmured rather absently, a far-away +look in her dark eyes. + +After a little she rose and began to wander about the room. + +"Cousin Julia," she said presently, "I can't help wondering--honestly, +don't you ever wish I looked more--I mean that I looked any like them? +They're mighty aristocratic-looking guys after all." + +"My dear, when you talk like that you know as well as I that you're +fishing," insisted Miss Pritchard. "I have told you that I'm too +well-satisfied. I have to watch out for flaws." + +"Well, don't you ever think, anyhow, that such _whopping_ dimples +are--almost vulgar?" + +"I adore them," responded Miss Pritchard calmly. "But anyhow, you +know, they are supposed to be Pritchard. Didn't you tell that +what's-his-name boy you got them from your mother?" + +Elsie colored. + +"I loathed that gump," she said. + +Miss Pritchard did not press the matter, though she wished very much +Elsie had explained or made other amends. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, how perfectly gorgeous!" cried Elsie, "but oh, I +don't need it, and--oh, please take it back. You just shower things on +me, and I feel so wicked to have you spend so much on me." + +"Elsie, child, don't you understand yet how happy I am to have you to +spend it on?" returned Miss Pritchard. + +It was quite true that the latter was constantly bestowing not only +small, but rich and costly gifts upon the girl who had come to live +with her and for whom she had come to live. In this instance it was an +opera-cloak of rose-colored broadcloth, wadded, and lined with white +brocaded satin, soft and light and warm. The two went often to the +theatre, and it would be useful, though Miss Pritchard herself had +never owned such a garment, and it was certainly rather elegant for a +girl of sixteen. + +"Now, Elsie," Miss Pritchard went on, "I want to ask you something--I +have more money than I know what to do with. Whom should I spend it on +if not on you?" + +Elsie winced. Her little face grew wistful. "Then it's because I'm a +Pritchard you do it?" she demanded. + +Miss Pritchard laughed. "My dear, how you pin one to cold facts. If +you must know, then, it's because you aren't a Pritchard. It's because +you're yourself, through and through, and haven't a trace nor a look of +the Pritchards that I love you so and long to have you happy here with +me, who am not a Pritchard either. No doubt your family rubbed that +fact in sufficiently, so you didn't expect me to be. To tell the +truth, I could never abide the Pritchards. I was such a misfit when I +visited Aunt Ellen's years ago, that I rather dreaded your coming, +though I did feel that being so young you might not be inveterate, and +that we might manage to hit it off, as they say." + +Immensely cheered, Elsie kissed her warmly. Miss Pritchard threw the +cloak over her shoulders, produced a rosy silk scarf to tie over her +bobbed hair, and they were off. + +The conversation came back to Miss Pritchard next day as she sat at her +desk near a great window whence the streets below were like canyons. + +"Dear me, how little Elsie must have had in her life to be so absurdly +grateful as she is," she said to herself. "And what a life those women +must have led her to make her so ready to refuse what meant so much to +her if it came to her as to a Pritchard." + +Which suddenly reminded her of the Pritchard family lawyer and a letter +she had found on her plate that morning with the name of the firm Bliss +& Waterman on the envelope. Not caring to open it before Elsie, she +had brought it to the office. + +Breaking the seal, she was amazed to learn that the lawyer wished to +consult her in regard to a request for five hundred dollars Elsie +Marley had recently made. He would not, of course, hand over a +comparatively large sum like that without her guardian's sanction, and +he felt constrained to add that certain outstanding obligations against +the residue of the property had recently come to light which might +curtail the income for a year. He still felt that if Miss Pritchard +remained willing to pay Elsie's general expenses, that the allowance +which they had agreed upon and which he had sent regularly ought to +cover pin-money and something more. Elsie had made no explanations. +Of course, if the money were for educational purposes, he would arrange +to send it. If Miss Pritchard would kindly make the situation clear to +him, he would follow her instructions, but he awaited her reply before +acting upon her ward's request. + +Miss Pritchard felt absolutely at sea. She was as puzzled as she was +troubled. Elsie had seemed so frank and open, and, despite her +generous nature, had seemed so frugal in her expenditure, making a +little go much further than Miss Pritchard herself could do, that she +couldn't imagine her demanding this sum without consulting her in +regard to it. She knew exactly what Elsie paid at the school--she had +insisted upon paying her own expenses out of five hundred dollars she +had brought with her and deposited. She knew, too, practically every +penny she spent in other ways, the total of which was always far below +the amount of her allowance; she knew her associates, and could have +accounted for every hour of her time. She could almost believe that +Mr. Bliss had made a blunder. + +After pondering upon the subject all day, she telegraphed him not to +send the money, and decided to question Elsie that night. + +She had no opportunity that evening, however. A certain Madame +Valentini, a former prima donna who had been a famous soprano in the +early days of "Pinafore," and who came to Miss Peacock's each year for +opera, had arrived during the day, and she and Miss Pritchard being old +friends, the evening was devoted to her. Madame Valentini was +white-haired now, and very stout, with chin upon chin; and the real +Elsie Marley would have thought her vulgar, for she rouged her cheeks, +laughed out heartily and frequently, and wore colors and fashions +ill-suited to her age and size, with jewels enough for a court-ball. +But she was full of life and spirit, warm-hearted, invariably cheerful, +an amusing and fluent talker, and musical to the ends of her be-ringed +fingers and the satin tips of her shoes. + +Like every one else at Miss Peacock's, she took to Elsie at once. She +understood that the girl was studying for the stage, but recognized in +a twinkling that she had a singing voice, and finally prevailed upon +her to try it. She herself played the accompaniment with a skill that +was a revelation to Elsie, who had never enjoyed singing as she enjoyed +it that night. + +When she had done, the prima donna threw her arms about the girl and +drew her to her bosom. Elsie Marley must have shuddered, but her +namesake, thrilled with singing to the sympathetic accompaniment, +kissed her warmly on her unnaturally pink cheek. + +"Oh, my angel, what a voice, what a voice!" cried madame. "Entrancing! +marvellous! It's simply perfect in tone and quality, and correct +practice would increase its range. And when you put on a little more +flesh (here, even Elsie Moss groaned silently) you'll get volume, too. +Stop everything, child, and cultivate it. It's worth millions." + +Elsie flushed. She couldn't help being pleased by the extravagant +praise, but she couldn't bear to be advised to give up the dramatic +stage. + +The older singer turned to Miss Pritchard. "My dear Miss Pritchard, +why do you let this charming child waste her time learning to do +vaudeville stunts that any limber-jointed, pretty-faced chit could do, +with a glorious voice like that?" + +"It seemed wonderful to me, and Charley Graham confirmed me in the +belief," Miss Pritchard owned, "and Elsie herself confesses that people +have always advised her to study singing rather than acting." + +"Only because they thought it was more respectable," protested Elsie, +pouting. + +"But, foolish child, wouldn't you far and away rather be a singer--a +famous singer?" demanded madame. "You'd get into grand opera, you +know. You'd be lovely as Juliet or Butterfly even now." + +"I'd rather be an actress," pleaded the girl so sweetly deprecating +that Madame Valentini hardly wondered that Julia Pritchard should give +her her way. + +So long as she remained at Miss Peacock's, madame devoted much time, +very happily, to Elsie's musical education. She made the girl sing for +her every day, giving her assistance that was really invaluable. She +took her to the opera twice a week, where she was a wonderful +companion, calling attention to fine points that all but a connoisseur +must have missed, and discussing all sorts of pertinent musical topics +between the acts. And she rejoiced with Miss Pritchard because of +Elsie's obvious enjoyment. + +Meantime, Miss Pritchard found occasion to speak to Elsie on the +subject of Mr. Bliss's letter. She handed it to her; the girl read it +quietly and passed it back without speaking, yet meeting her eyes +frankly. + +"I confess, Elsie, I can't conceive how you should want so large a sum +at this time," Miss Pritchard began. "I trust you so thoroughly that I +believe it must be for something worth while--at least you think it is, +child. And I feel that you so trust me that you will explain to me if +you can. In any event, I have decided to give it to you out of my own +pocket. I know that you are careful and economical and think it must +be for your education in some manner, and don't feel that I am foolish +in doing it. How will you have it, check or cash?" + +Elsie had been growing weak after the first surprise. She had already +cashed three huge checks (as they seemed to her), and sent them in +money-orders to Enderby: and she had forwarded a letter some time +before that Elsie had explained to be a request for money. But she was +aghast at the sum. She couldn't imagine what the other girl could want +it for. + +The tradition had always been in her family, who were always poor, that +Uncle John was rich; and though she had learned with some surprise that +he had only one servant, she had heard nothing to indicate that he did +not live in the "style" she had always imagined. She felt troubled if +it was in order to keep up with that style that Elsie Marley wanted the +money; but though she was reluctant to take it from Miss Pritchard, she +by no means hesitated as she had in the case of the opera-cloak. For +this was a legitimate case of Pritchard to Pritchard. + +"A check?" repeated Miss Pritchard. + +"Cash, please, Cousin Julia," returned the girl, her dimples almost +visible. Then she looked straight into Miss Pritchard's eyes. + +"Please tell me--are you doing this, too, because I'm not a Pritchard, +or as my guardian?" + +And whether it was because the girl's heart was so set upon that +particular answer, or because Julia Pritchard was so staunch and true, +with such a keen instinct for the real and right--in any event she +returned promptly: "As your guardian, Elsie, Pritchard to Pritchard." + +Elsie embraced her warmly, whispering that she couldn't explain, but it +was truly all right. The next day she got a post-office order and sent +the money to Elsie Marley without saying that it hadn't come from the +lawyer in California as the other sums she had forwarded had done. +Consequently, when a letter came from Mr. Bliss saying that he couldn't +let Elsie Marley have the five hundred dollars she had asked for +without an order from her guardian, she felt obliged to withhold it +entirely. + +It troubled her to do so, and weighed upon her mind afterward. She +told herself that she would, of course, explain when she saw Elsie +Marley, and meantime--it was, after all, nothing but a formal business +communication, not a real letter, and of no account in that the +business itself had gone through. Still, it seemed a great pity that +there should be any concealment between herself and the other Elsie. +As things stood, she was sufficiently involved in concealment, to give +it no worse name, without that. It had been understood that she should +read all the letters that came before sending them on to Enderby; but +to keep one and never mention it, necessary though it was, and demanded +by circumstances, seemed somehow almost like stealing. + +And the worst was that circumstances might go on making demands, and +she might have to do yet more reprehensible things--things that weren't +merely _almost_ like wrong-doing. Some day she might have to lie right +out. + +Well, as to that, what had it been when she said that her mother's name +was Pritchard? That had been acting--a part of her role. And then, of +course she constantly deceived Miss Pritchard, in a way, though not +dishonestly. That was acting, too. She and Elsie Marley had entered +into a contract, indeed, each to act the part of the other. They +weren't hurting any one: each fitted into the wrong place as she +couldn't have into the right. And yet in very truth it was very much +like plain lying! + +Elsie Moss flinched. Then she recollected how once at home some of the +girls of her class at school had been discussing a subject given in the +rhetoric they studied under "Argumentation"--"Is a lie ever +justifiable?" These girls of the "Per aspera ad astra" motto had +decided the question in the affirmative. They had agreed that lying to +a burglar wasn't wrong--it might prevent him from robbing a widow or +one's own mother--the same with regard to a murderer, an insane person, +or one sick unto death. And one and all had declared with spirit that +if they lived in England and a hunting-party should come along with +their cruel hounds and ask which way the fox or hare had gone, they +would point in exactly the wrong direction. Elsie herself had declared +that she would have said that the little creature hadn't come this way +at all. + +Not that that was exactly similar. The girl owned that however she +might please Miss Pritchard, and Elsie Marley might gratify Uncle John, +in each case it was the girl herself who benefited chiefly by the +scheme, and for whom it had been arranged and carried through. +Pleasing Uncle John and Cousin Julia was what is called in chemistry a +by-product. + +Furthermore, there was the question as to whether Cousin Julia, in any +event, would value satisfaction secured thus by indirection? +Absolutely straight-forward, as she was, mightn't she judge their +action severely, label it plain deceit, and--oh, no! she couldn't +refuse to have anything further to do with her! It began to seem as if +even failure in what she had always considered her life-work wouldn't +be so terrible as that. The girl didn't put it into so many words, but +as the days passed she seemed to have a vague sense of another +life-work which might consist in growing up toward Miss Pritchard's +standards of what is fine and good and worth while. But Elsie wouldn't +dwell upon it, for she couldn't, of course, begin to approach any such +goal--she couldn't even make a start--without confession. And +confession wouldn't mean only the loss of her chance to realize her +ambition; it would mean the loss of Cousin Julia herself. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +Meantime, when the sum of money reached Enderby, Mrs. Middleton still +lay unconscious--at death's door, it was said. And one whispered to +another that it was, perhaps, better so, that it would be a blessing to +the minister if she were to be taken away. She had been worse than a +drag upon him all these years. Foolish, idle, lazy, extravagant, she +had exaggerated her physical delicacy and given herself up to indolence +and self-indulgence, running the household into debt until it was a +disgrace to the minister and to the church. Mr. Middleton, dear saint, +hadn't known order nor comfort nor companionship for years until his +niece had come. And when all was said, she could do better for him +without her aunt. + +However that might be, the minister himself took his wife's sudden and +terrifying illness sadly to heart. He hung over her bed and haunted +her room, watching and praying for the return of consciousness and +life. Not, perhaps, his peer in the first place, Mildred Middleton had +not grown, had not kept pace with her husband, and she had truly of +late fallen into deplorable habits for the head of a household. +Nevertheless, he believed in her; loved her for her real warmth of +heart, which her veil of sentimentality did not in any degree alter for +him, for her optimism, her absolutely unfailing good nature, and for an +intuitive womanliness he believed to be eminently her gift. + +And presently when she rallied, his heart grew light, indeed. The +doctor said it might be long before she would get her strength back, +but he believed it possible that when she had regained it, she would be +better than she had been for years. He told the minister quietly that +it was fortunate she had been stricken as she had. The +headache-powders she had been taking constantly contained a drug that +had been slowly poisoning her. A little longer and her heart would +have been permanently affected. + +Meantime, before this, while she lay unconscious, the bills had begun +to pour in. Along with the domestic science, Elsie had taken up +bookkeeping at the high school, and fortified by that knowledge and the +possession of the five hundred dollars, she summoned her courage, went +to Mr. Middleton and asked if she might take the accounts in hand this +month in Aunt Milly's place. + +Pleased by her thoughtfulness, he proposed that they should do them +together. Elsie begged to be allowed to try them alone, just for once, +but he insisted upon sharing the task, though he confessed that she +would find him very rusty about such things, his wife having taken them +off his hands for so many years. + +Elsie's heart sank. She knew that practically every tradesman had sent +a bill in full, and apprehended that the totals would be appalling. +She feared, too, that it would be awkward about the five hundred +dollars. But there was nothing to do but to comply with his desire. + +At his bidding, she brought the collection into the study that evening. +He got out a check-book and they sat down, Elsie at the desk, and he by +the side with one of the sliding shelves drawn out. + +"You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though Aunt Milly will +have none of them," he remarked, and took up the pile of envelopes. + +[Illustration: "You and I will do better with checks, Elsie, though +Aunt Milly will have none of them," he remarked.] + +"We'll begin with the top one--Mason," he said. "Fill in the date and +name--James S.--and now, let's see the sum." + +He drew out the bill, glanced at it, then looked sharply as if it were +hard to decipher. + +"A hundred and seventy-five dollars!" he exclaimed. "Of course that +can't be. It should be a dollar and seventy-five cents, I suppose, and +yet--it's quite plain--see--one hundred seventy-five and two ciphers. +There's some mistake. I'll just put it aside and telephone in the +morning. Leave that and start another, dear. Andrew White's the +next--no middle letter." + +He opened the next with the same confidence. Eighty-six dollars was +large for a milk bill. He glanced at it doubtfully. _Bill rendered_ +indicated that it wasn't all for this month. It must have slipped by, +somehow. And of course Mrs. Middleton had to have egg-nog and cream +and all that. He bade Elsie draw the check, feeling that they must +have paid the largest first. But Elsie's heart sank as he took up the +next envelope with Berry's name in the corner. Berry was the grocer. + +"Four hundred ninety-two dollars!" he gasped. "Wait, Elsie, we'll look +them all through before we do any more. There's something wrong. Now +this goes back--let me see. Bill rendered--bill rendered--it seems to +go back a year or more. I wonder if perhaps your aunt has asked for +statements for a year in order to see what her expenditures amount +to?"--He shook his head--"No, here's a credit. And this is plain +enough 'Amount due November 1.'" + +He opened the others one by one. None was so large as the grocery +bill, though that of the market was above four hundred dollars, and the +others large, the sum total being, as Elsie had foreseen, appalling. +It did not take long to discover that Mrs. Middleton was behind in her +accounts for a year or more. + +It must have been hard for her husband to understand what had become of +the monthly household allowance she had had in cash regularly. Credit +was given here and there, indeed, but always in small sums. It must, +too, have been hard for John Middleton to face the facts, but he stood +the test. He looked weary and worn--he certainly grew haggard and +seemed to grow old; but no word of impatience escaped him. Indeed, he +did not appear to have an impatient thought. + +"This has all been too much for your aunt, Elsie," he said finally. +"She wanted to spare me, and when the task got beyond her strength she +wouldn't give in. She has been a greater sufferer than any of us +dreamed. Apparently she has had those terrible headaches almost +constantly, hiding the pain from every one and trying to get relief by +taking those strong tablets. And no doubt these accounts gave her no +end of pain and worry, and got into confusion in spite of her." + +He bowed his head in his hand and sat thus some little time, aware of +Elsie's silent sympathy. He smiled wearily when he raised it. + +"We'll give it over for to-night, Elsie. I'll see what I can do +to-morrow and then we'll tackle them again. I think I shall be able to +do something, but we may have to go carefully for a time." + +He hesitated. + +"Kate's the most faithful soul in the world, but I doubt if she gives +her orders carefully," he remarked. + +"I've started in giving them since Aunt Milly's illness," said Elsie +shyly. "Katy doesn't mind. I learned how at school, and I keep them +in a little book so as to compare them with the bills at the end of the +month." + +"Elsie Moss, you are certainly a trump!" he cried. "Do let me see your +book, dear." + +She produced it and he examined the neat items with interest, praising +her warmly and seeming greatly cheered already. And then the girl made +an effort and mentioned a sum of five hundred dollars which she had on +hand and wished he would use. + +"My dear child!" he cried, smiling tenderly, "I wouldn't touch your +money for the world. The truth is, I ought to pay you a salary as +housekeeper and pastor's assistant, though I couldn't begin to +compensate you for the better part. You have been like the daughter of +the household, or such a sister as your mother was." + +The following day Mrs. Middleton regained consciousness, and the next +day the minister went into Boston and made arrangements to secure the +money to meet his obligations by reducing his life-insurance policy +one-half and disposing of some bonds. That evening they drew checks +and settled everything in full. Thereafter Elsie gave the orders, +checked the accounts at the end of the month, and made out the checks +for Mr. Middleton to sign. On the whole she did remarkably well and +reduced the general expenses considerably. She made mistakes, but they +were few; for her mind was of the type that takes to figures and +details, and she was naturally methodical and accurate. Mr. Middleton +smiled at the neat little packets of receipted bills, docketed and +filed, but he was extravagantly grateful to her for all that. + +Mrs. Middleton gained slowly. One day, a fortnight or more after she +was convalescent, the minister came to Elsie with a good-sized check in +his hand made out to her. The girl looked at him in amazement, filled +with vague dismay. + +"For your winter clothes, Elsie," he explained. "Aunt Milly reminded +me. In fact, she rather scolded me for not thinking of it earlier. +And she suggests that you get one of the schoolgirls and go into Boston +for a day's shopping on Saturday." + +Elsie paled--she had begun to show a pretty color of late. This was +her first realization of the discomfort of a false position. Long +since, Mr. Middleton had come to seem her real uncle, and her affection +for him was as deep as if he had truly been; indeed, nowadays she +seldom realized that the relationship was not real. But to accept +money from him--from that she shrank instinctively. And that proved +the difference. For though not in the least drawn toward Cousin Julia, +for all the other Elsie's enthusiasm, she could have accepted a larger +sum from her without a qualm. + +"Oh, Uncle John, I really don't need a thing!" she cried beseechingly, +and he had to smile. + +"Nonsense, my dear, I have the word of your aunt that you will need +everything. Kate has told her that during the summer all the fashions +have flopped completely over, so that last year's clothes wouldn't even +keep one warm. Biases and bulges that formerly came at the top of the +gown now come at the bottom; sleeves are big where they were little, +and vice versa, and collars the same. As for hats--there the +transformation is so great that I pause before it." + +Elsie laughed. "Well, if it's so bad as that, I'll spend my five +hundred dollars--blow it in, as--as my friend in New York would say." + +"Ah, Elsie, I see through you now!" he exclaimed. "You think I can't +afford it, because of those big bills. As a matter of fact, I could do +it easily even if you weren't managing things so economically. And, +besides, Aunt Milly has set her heart on it. And oh, Elsie, I'm so +thankful to keep her with us that I should like to do something +extraordinary, something really rash and extravagant. Please head me +off by letting me do this simple, natural thing which is less than +just, and which will please Aunt Milly more than anything I could do +for her. Why, my dear Elsie, pray why shouldn't I do it? Wasn't your +mother my only sister and dearest friend?" + +On a sudden Elsie buried her face and wept--the only tears she had shed +since her coming to Enderby. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +Touched and perplexed, Mr. Middleton gave over for the moment; but +presently he had his opportunity to be extravagant. As soon as his +wife was able to leave her room, the doctor ordered her to pass a +portion of every day out-of-doors. This was partly to strengthen her +lungs and partly for the moral effect. Doctor Fenwick feared that if +she should revert to the long days upon her couch or bed with the +novels and chocolates, the headache-powders or a substitute would +follow, soon or late, with more perilous results. She submitted to his +dictum with resignation, being, indeed, rather captivated by the idea. + +Her husband and Elsie went into Boston and selected a rich and warm fur +coat, fur-lined gloves and overshoes, and three warm, dark-colored +serge dresses which were a great improvement upon the wrappers. On the +day after she received them, Mrs. Middleton spent two hours on the +porch with ill-concealed delight. And, thereafter, rising and +breakfasting with the others, she passed the whole of every forenoon +out-of-doors, not only with beneficial results but with continued +enjoyment. + +The sentimental aspect, of course, appealed to her strongly. Sometimes +she pleased herself by fancying that the doctor had discovered that one +of her lungs was quite gone and the other a mere fragment, and feared +to tell her. On such days her voice was feeble but breathed the same +sweet patience that her face wore. Again, it was her heart "outwearing +its sheath," as she put it. Always, however, she felt herself an +interesting and picturesque invalid, and her martyr-like expression +scarcely disguised her enjoyment of the role. + +Unconsciously, her somewhat torpid mental powers quickened. The house +being on the main highway, there was always something to look at +against the background of the beautiful common, and she conceived a +vivid interest in the passing show. An active in lieu of a passive +mind did its part in the improvement of her health. The tables were +turned. Now it was she who told Kate that the Berrys had a fine new +motor-truck, and had apparently disposed of their dappled greys to the +grain-man--she only wished _they_ traded with the grain-man--couldn't +one buy oatmeal of him? And Rachel Stewart actually had a new dress in +which she looked very trim, though it was too long right in the back. +Perhaps Elsie could speak to her about it at the library? Little +Robbie Caldwell had begun to go to school alone since the new baby had +come. And they had a new perambulator and had given the old one to the +Howes, which would make it easier for little Mattie. + +People passing began to run up and ask the minister's wife how she did. +She was never very well; but she was so sweetly patient and so truly +grateful that they lingered and their visits became frequent; children +came on Saturdays and made children's long flattering stays; and +presently there was never a morning when she did not have some one, and +often she was not alone at all. And thus it came about that for the +first time she came to know many of her husband's parishioners with +some familiarity. + +More than one reversed their judgment, and almost every one revised it. +Mrs. Middleton was sentimental--there was no gainsaying that; she was +rather gushing. Yet she was truly kind-hearted, generous to a fault, +thoughtful in many ways, with really keen intuition in certain +directions. As people came again and again, she guessed many a hidden +trouble or vexation, and her sympathy was warm and very grateful; while +now and again she had a flash of inspiration that was marvellously +helpful. + +No one's revision of judgment was more sweeping, perhaps, than that of +Elsie Marley. Somehow her former shrinking had quite disappeared +during the long illness, and the change in Mrs. Middleton's appearance +helped bridge the way to a better understanding. The old wrappers and +tea-gowns had gone to the ragman. The new afternoon gowns Elsie had +selected were yet prettier than the morning ones and very becoming. +The out-of-door air had already almost made over her complexion: her +skin looked healthy, her color was good; and with the new fashion of +wearing her hair, she began to look attractive and almost pretty. + +She had not curled her hair since her illness, and now it was soft and +smooth and seemed warmer in color. The nurse having parted it one day +when Mrs. Middleton was convalescent, and coiled it upon her head +simply, had declared it made her look like a Raphael madonna. The +allusion was far-fetched, but it touched Mrs. Middleton's sentimental +fancy, and she adopted that style of hair-dressing permanently. + +In the morning, Elsie attended to her household duties and helped the +minister. She fell now into the habit of spending the early part of +the afternoon with Mrs. Middleton, going over to the library just +before four. Doctor Fenwick having suggested knitting as a soothing +indoor occupation, his patient sent for an immense quantity of +wool--enough to keep half a dozen pairs of hands busy all winter--and +began to make red-white-and-blue afghans for the Labrador Mission. +Whereupon Elsie proposed reading to her while she worked. Mrs. +Middleton was delighted, but when Elsie got "Adam Bede" from the +shelves, she confessed that it tired her head. "Henry Esmond" was +likewise too heavy, and Elsie groaned inwardly, expecting to be asked +to read some of the paper-covered novels she was addicted to. She said +to herself she simply couldn't: she had never in her life read any such +trash and she would have to excuse herself. Then, looking up, +something made her change her mind and decide to be a martyr. But +before she could speak Mrs. Middleton herself had a happy inspiration. + +"Oh, Elsie, I know what I'd just love to hear," she cried, "and what my +poor head could take in as it couldn't Thackeray to-day, though when +I'm strong I dote on him--I always took naturally to the classics. But +now I feel like one of Miss Alcott's books. I suppose you have read +them over and over?" she asked rather wistfully. + +Elsie confessed that she had never done so, but would be glad to make +their acquaintance. + +Mrs. Middleton was truly amazed--as was the minister, indeed; for his +sister had known them almost by heart. They had the whole set in the +house, and Elsie began with "Little Women" that afternoon. + +For the first time she was reluctant to go to the library when the hour +approached. It was hard to stop reading. And they laughed together in +an easy, natural way that was quite new to their intercourse as each +exacted a promise from the other not to look at the story again until +they should go on with it together. + +They went through the whole set that winter and sighed when they had +come to the last volume. Perhaps no single thing had influenced Elsie +Marley more than the reading those sweet, wholesome stories at that +time and in that manner. She had already changed much, and was perhaps +just ready for the influence. Reading them with Mrs. Middleton, she +was drawn to her as she would never have believed it to be possible, as +they laughed and cried together over the pranks and trials, joys and +sorrows of those New England boys and girls of a singularly happy +generation. And, unawares, she was strengthened for the hour of trial +that was to come to her as it comes to every one that tampers with the +laws that are inherent in the structure of the universe. + +Meantime, circumstances were leading on toward that hour. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +Late one afternoon early in December, Miss Pritchard telephoned to +Elsie to say that she would not be home to dinner as she was going +directly from the office to see a friend who had been taken suddenly to +a hospital. She was to dine in town on her way back and would be late +home. Mr. Graham, whom Elsie would remember, had spoken of calling in +the evening, and Miss Pritchard asked her to explain the circumstance +to him and keep him until her return. + +As she turned away from the telephone, Elsie sighed deeply. Mr. +Graham's name stirred up uncomfortable recollections. In any case, +much as she had admired and liked him, she would have dreaded meeting +him again; and to entertain him alone for an indefinite period, with +his undivided attention focussed upon her, seemed an ordeal not only to +be dreaded but truly to be shunned. + +Suppose he should refer again to her darling mother--as he surely +would! Acting or no acting, the girl felt that she couldn't deny her +again. Should she do so, it would be like the Palladium ceasing to +stand and Troy falling. And yet, what was she to do? If she didn't +hold to her statement of the summer, wouldn't she hazard spoiling +everything, not only for herself, but for the Elsie at Enderby? + +Too wretched to allow herself the comfort of the window-seat in the +bow, Elsie dropped down on the floor before one of the long, low +windows of the adjacent side of the room, and gazing drearily out into +the dusky street, tried to prepare herself for an impromptu scene with +the coming guest wherein the matter of extraordinary dimples or sticky +babies might come up at any moment and be skilfully parried. But +stage-fright, confusion, and tears threatened imminently, like an ugly +nightmare, and she said to herself there was no use, she simply dared +not face it. + +The temptation came to her to avoid the whole encounter by going to bed +at once. She certainly felt queer--almost faint; and when she should +be missed at the dinner-table and some one came up to see what had +happened, she could truly say she didn't feel able to see Mr. Graham, +and send word that he was to wait for Miss Pritchard. + +As she considered the suggestion, reaching the point where Cousin Julia +came in, the girl's heart smote her. Cousin Julia would be +startled--yes, frightened. What a wretch she was deliberately to plan +to cause her utterly gratuitous anxiety! And how practised, how +_grounded_, in deceit she had grown, to turn thereto so readily for +help out of difficulty! How very far she was getting from her class +motto, "Per aspera ad astra"! And she recollected a word, strange +hitherto to her, which Cousin Julia had used in the summer. She had +mentioned her hope, as she had looked forward to the coming of the real +Elsie Marley, that she shouldn't have, at sixteen, become _inveterate_ +in the ways of the Pritchard family. Well, wasn't she fast becoming +_inveterate_ in the ways of deceit? Wasn't she, perhaps, already +inveterate? Truly, she must be perilously near it. And oh, wasn't +this a far, far worse sort of _inveterateness_ than the Pritchard sort? +And if Cousin Julia had dreaded that, how, pray, would she feel in +regard to this? + +Rising suddenly, Elsie rushed into her own room as if she were running +away from the visions she had conjured. As she made herself tidy for +dinner, her desperation grasped at a third expedient, a middle way. +Couldn't she get around the difficulty by preventing or forestalling +the introduction of any doubtful topic into the conversation? During +the time that would elapse between Mr. Graham's arrival and Cousin +Julia's return--three-quarters of an hour at the longest, she +supposed--she would keep him from bringing up any matter of +resemblances, of big dimples, of madonnas, or sticky babies. She would +monopolize the conversation, so far as she could, and direct it all the +time. At the risk of utterly losing the good opinion of one of Cousin +Julia's most valued friends, of appearing forward, conceited, tiresome, +she would rattle on like the empty-headed society girl in certain +modern plays. She would introduce utterly impersonal subjects, such +as--at the moment she couldn't think of anything but prohibition, which +would last about two minutes--and chatter foolishly and fast upon them, +one after another. Then, if she exhausted them and all else failed, +she would make such pointed and brazen references to her own singing +that he would be obliged to ask her to sing--and once going, she could +easily keep that up until Cousin Julia came to the rescue. And she +certainly wouldn't sing "Elsie Marley" nor anything that would in any +way remind Mr. Graham of it. Either she would shock that elegant +gentleman's taste with the ugliest of ragtime, or she would inflict him +with a succession of the operatic selections she had taken up with +Madame Valentini. The latter choice would probably, upon Miss +Pritchard's arrival, serve to bring up the unhappy matter of her +abandoning the stage for music, but that would be a minor evil. + +Mr. Graham appeared promptly at the hour Miss Pritchard had predicted, +and Elsie greeted him in the role she had chosen and proceeded to give +him a gushing account of their journey back to New York at the end of +the summer. The artist, who had looked forward to seeing again the +charming little creature who had been such a vision of grace and +loveliness as she had sung and danced on the hotel veranda that summer +day, was surprised and dismayed at the change, the almost distressing +change, that had come upon the girl meantime. At first he took it for +granted that it was the coarsening effect of studying for the stage, +but very shortly he had decided otherwise. Whatever his skill in +reproduction, Charles Graham had the eye, the mind, and the heart of +the portrait-painter; and now he read the little actress's behavior +with a good measure of precision. Her restlessness, her chattering, +the high, unpleasing pitch of her naturally lovely low voice, her +assumption of the manner and speech of the blase young person of the +stage, he saw to be primarily the cover of nervousness. He understood +that the girl was troubled about something, was perhaps suffering, and +tried to conceal it in this way. Moreover, he felt that, whatever it +was, she was bearing it altogether alone, hiding it from everybody. + +So far, so good. But presently he jumped to a false conclusion. As he +referred casually to Miss Pritchard as an _inveterate_ optimist, +suddenly all the color died out of the girl's face, the shadow in her +eyes became momentarily genuine distress, and the bravado dropped from +her manner. It struck him that there was some misunderstanding between +his friend and her young cousin. And the pain this realization brought +him was curiously acute. + +"But, my dear child," he exclaimed earnestly, "hers is no cheap +optimism. Miss Pritchard's wise, sane outlook upon life is the +courageous, positive optimism of the seasoned soldier. She has known +hardship and suffering, and it is victory over them that makes her +serenity and strength so impressive." + +As the artist paused, he glanced with searching kindness at the girl +who was such a mere child, after all. But he seemed to feel a touch of +hardness or of obstinacy in the way she set her lips. He couldn't bear +the idea of her misunderstanding Miss Pritchard. + +"I wonder, Miss Marley, if you ever heard about Miss Pritchard's +love-story?" he asked rather hesitatingly. "It all happened of course +before you were born; but your family may have spoken of it to you?" + +Elsie raised her eyes quickly, regardless of the fact that there were +tears in them. + +"Oh, no, Mr. Graham, I never knew--anything about it," she almost +gasped. + +"Then I believe I will tell you," he said gravely. "If ever you +should--well, it makes one understand why Miss Pritchard so impresses +even a chance stranger with the strength of her personality." + +He sighed. "It was years ago. Miss Pritchard was a newspaper woman at +the time--the most brilliant reporter, man or woman, in the city, we +thought her, in the little coterie of journalists and artists to which +we both belonged. More than one of us would have given all he had to +win her love. I don't mind saying to you, Miss Marley, that it was +because I could not win it that I have never married. She bestowed it, +however, upon an older man and a more brilliant than any of us. At +that time he was city editor of one of the big dailies; he had invested +a moderate inheritance wisely, and was worth millions when he died. +Miss Pritchard was in her late twenties, and though she was called +plain, possessed rare beauty of expression that is of course the +highest beauty of all; and it was no mere girl's heart that she gave +that man. She loved him with the intensity and maturity of a generous, +noble woman. He returned the love and he appreciated her fineness; and +yet he was unworthy of her. In the course of his business life, at a +certain stage of his career, he did something which, while it wasn't +dishonorable, wasn't strictly honorable. By means of this action, +which no one else of the few who knew it deemed reprehensible, he +gained prestige for his paper as well as for himself; but he lost Julia +Pritchard. Had he yielded in a moment of temptation, though it would +still have hurt her cruelly, I believe she would have overlooked his +fault. But the act was deliberate; and though he regretted it bitterly +and to his dying day, it was only because Miss Pritchard looked at it +as she did. Of the act itself, he never repented." + + +When Miss Pritchard came in, she noticed at once that Elsie looked very +pale--almost ill. After greeting her old friend warmly, she turned +anxiously to the girl. + +"Has it been a hard day, honey?" she asked tenderly. + +"Oh, yes, Cousin Julia," Elsie returned mournfully. And Mr. Graham +felt not only that his suspicion had been correct but that his relating +the story had truly had the desired effect. + +"I think I'll go now, and--write a letter," the girl faltered. + +"Go by all means, dear," Miss Pritchard bade her, "but don't write the +letter to-night unless it's imperative. I have tickets for 'The +Good-Natured Man' for to-morrow night, so if you can put off the +letter, hop right into bed and get a good rest in order to be fresh for +it." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +It was Sunday afternoon, nearly a week later. Elsie sat alone by the +window with a writing-tablet in her lap, gazing out at the row of +houses across the street. But though the new-fallen snow on roof, +cornice, and iron grating transformed the familiar scene, and though +snow in such profusion and splendor was a new and wonderful experience +to her, the girl wasn't really seeing the landscape any more than she +was writing a letter. Realizing the fact after half an hour of stony +silence, she rose, dropped her writing materials, and crossing the +room, threw herself down on the hearth-rug with a gesture of despair. + +It wasn't merely because she couldn't write the letter--which, by the +way, was that which she had given as an excuse for withdrawing on the +evening of Mr. Graham's call. It was true that writing to her +stepmother--something that had been growing increasingly difficult for +some time--had become practically impossible since that evening. But +that was, in a way, a minor detail. For everything, _everything_ had +become impossible since the hour she had heard his recital of that +experience of Cousin Julia's youth. + +"There's no use," the girl cried out within herself, "I simply cannot +stand it. I can't go on so. Cousin Julia's gone to a funeral. I'll +have one while she's gone and bury everything deep down. There's +nothing else to do. Now that I know for deadly certain that Cousin +Julia would hate me if she knew, I can't go on being--as I am. Why, +what _he_ did wasn't dishonest. It was only, as Mr. Graham said, less +than honest. And look at me!" + +It was true that Cousin Julia hadn't _hated_ him, even when he wasn't +sorry about the wrong itself, Elsie repeated; for this was by no means +the first or second time she had gone over the matter since that night; +indeed, she had scarcely thought of anything else since. Still, she +wouldn't have anything more to do with him, and must have despised him, +which was worse. And it was also true that she would even have +forgiven him utterly if he had sinned in a moment of temptation. And +again the girl lamented bitterly that she hadn't done something even +worse if it could have been committed in hot blood, and therefore +followed by repentance, confession, and forgiveness. Only last evening +Cousin Julia had read some verses from Browning which had filled her +heart with a longing that was like remorse--something about a "certain +moment" which "cuts the deed off, calls the glory from the grey." Were +her wrong-doing only of the sort to be neatly cut off in that manner, +how gladly would she own up. How certain would she be of obtaining +full forgiveness, and how blissfully could she go on thence-forward! + +But hers wasn't that sort. Hers was the sort that goes on and on and +on. After making the beginning, there was no hope, any more than there +was of stopping a ball when one starts it to rolling down a steep, +smooth hill. And besides, it was of the very nature of that which had +hurt Cousin Julia so cruelly in the case of her lover of twenty-odd +years ago. For it was for Elsie's own advantage that she had entered +upon the course of deceit, and it was she that was profiting by it, +daily and hourly. She had imposed herself upon one whom she had no +claim whatever upon for the sake of making things easier and pleasanter +for herself--of gaining her own way. And wasn't she continuing the +imposition largely for the same reason? + +No, she wasn't doing that--at least not now. Absolutely selfish as her +motive may have been in the first place, these last days had shown her +that another element was now involved. Her longing to be an actress +remained the same. Her distaste for the idea of life at the parsonage +in Enderby had been increased almost to horror by the glimpses she had +had through her friend's letters of what seemed to her its dreary and +complacent domesticity. Nevertheless, at this moment she felt that she +would give up the former and accept the latter without a murmur if she +could thereby measure up to Cousin Julia's standard, and yet, in the +process, hurt neither her nor Elsie Marley. + +But there was no blinking the fact that Cousin Julia's heart was so +bound up in her that the discovery of her duplicity would wound her +cruelly; indeed, Elsie couldn't bear to contemplate what it would mean +to her. As for Elsie Marley--she was apparently, for her part, equally +bound up in the Middletons, and the shock and change would be terribly +painful to her. Moreover, she was, in a way, almost as innocent as +Cousin Julia herself. Her masquerading was only masquerading. She had +only accepted, in her sweet, docile manner, her part in the plan that +Elsie had made to further her own interests. The wrong was all her +own, truly; but any attempt to undo it would hurt the innocent Elsie at +least equally. + +What could she do? Was she really, as it seemed, bound hand and foot? +The girl wrung her hands, and there was no thought of the dramatic in +the gesture. Must her punishment be to keep on and on with her +wrong-doing, with the consciousness, increasingly more painful, of +deceiving Cousin Julia, of being, not only _not_ the person she +believed her to be, but exactly the sort of person she most despised? +Could that be her fate? + +Looking ahead, Elsie said to herself she couldn't stand it--not now. +Before, she had had her uncomfortable moments; but since that talk with +Mr. Graham she had had no moment that wasn't agony. He had roused her +out of her dream of making things right by calling them so. And yet, +less than ever since that knowledge had come to her, was she ready to +hurt Cousin Julia, as confession or discovery would hurt her. Could it +be that it was impossible for her to straighten out her own conscience +without wounding the hearts of others? Was there no way whereby she +could make things right without involving Elsie Marley and Cousin Julia +in misery? + +Staring wretchedly into the fire, the girl was unaware that she was +grappling with a big moral problem: that her personal perplexity was a +part of the old problem of evil: that what daunted her was the old +paradox that has confronted mankind since before the time of Job. She +understood dimly that the lines between good and ill do not converge +any more than unmoral geometrical parallels; but she still felt that it +must be possible to limit the consequences of wrong-doing to the +evil-doer so that the innocent should wholly escape. + +But what, short of her own death, would bring that about? In that +event, indeed, Cousin Julia's natural grief would not be bitterly +painful; and Elsie Marley would simply go on as she was. But she +wasn't likely to die, and besides, wretched as she was, she didn't want +to. And even if she did, she wouldn't be so wicked or so cowardly as +to do anything to hasten her end. + +But her consideration of that solution of her problem made way for +another. On a sudden a substitute solution presented itself to her +mind. Having gone so far, it was but natural that the girl's dramatic +instinct and her familiarity with romance and melodrama should suggest +something that would answer the purpose of death without occasioning +the same measure of pain--namely, her own disappearance. And the +suggestion no sooner appeared than it was accepted. Before Miss +Pritchard returned the idea was already so familiar as to seem to be of +long standing. + +Her mind was quick and her invention fertile, and before she slept that +night her plans were well along. She was to lose herself +utterly--where and how she would determine later. She would, at the +proper moment, disappear absolutely and mysteriously, yet not without +leaving behind her satisfactory and reassuring explanation for the two +persons to whom it would mean most--nay, three--she mustn't forget her +stepmother. She would write to Elsie Marley that she had felt obliged +to take the step for the sake of her own future, and would entreat her +to go on as she was and never to let any one know what had happened. +And she would leave a long letter for Cousin Julia to discover on her +return from the office the day of her departure. She would tell her +how she loved her--better than any one else she had ever known except +her mother--and how she had never been so happy in her life as with +her. Then she would make the same enigmatical but satisfactory +reference to her future and how it made the step imperative, adding +that if Cousin Julia could understand, she would agree that she +couldn't have done otherwise. + +When she had reached this point, Elsie's heart sank. Disappearance +might be preferable to death, but it seemed as if it were going to be +quite as painful. But only for her, and after all, that was where the +pain belonged. The girl cried herself to sleep that night, but she +woke next morning with a sense of relief so active and positive that it +seemed like refreshment and almost like joy. She realized why it was: +her mind hadn't been wholly at ease before since the day in the summer +when she had first seen Mr. Graham, and for the past days she had lived +in torture. The removal of the burden was almost like unsnapping the +cover of a Jack-in-the-box. She was going to be good and straight and +honest again. She was going to make amends, so far as in her lay, for +the wrong she had done. She was going--_away_! + +Here Elsie faltered. But she sprang from bed before depression could +swoop down upon her. And while she was dressing a suggestion came to +her that sent her to the breakfast-table with a serene and even joyful +face. It had come to her that she would better not attempt to carry +out her resolve until after Christmas, lest she mar Cousin Julia's or +Elsie Marley's enjoyment of the day. She would act immediately after +Christmas, beginning the New Year with a clean slate. And meantime she +would devote herself to making every one she knew as happy as possible, +particularly Cousin Julia. + +And she would be happy herself. There would be sufficient unhappiness +coming to her later to pay her in full for all the mischief she had +done; and she saw no harm in putting the matter from her thoughts for +the interim, and making the most of the eighteen days. Then, Christmas +being over, one day, or two at most, would suffice her to decide where +to go and to make her preparations. Another day would give her time to +write the letters with due deliberation, and on the third she would be +off. + +Wherefore, her resolve being fixed and her conscience accordingly +clear, she adventured the first precious day with a light heart. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +Elsie Marley had never been happier than as she prepared for her first +Christmas at Enderby. But that festival seemed the high-water mark of +her happiness. The close of the day found her strangely depressed and +thereafter she had more frequent periods of being ill at ease. + +She had learned to knit and had spent most of her leisure time for +several weeks in making a soft white woollen shawl for Mrs. Middleton, +into which went a rather surprising amount of affection. She went into +Boston with one of the high-school girls and bought a charming little +plaid woollen frock for Mattie Howe and a beautiful doll to fill the +little mother's arms when they were not occupied with a real baby. For +Charles Augustus, she selected an harmonicon, and toys for the other +three Howes. She wanted to get a warm winter coat for her staunch ally +Kate, the jacket she wore being short and so thin as to require an +undergarment that spoiled what little shape it had. On the day before +she was to go into town, she consulted Mrs. Middleton. + +Thus far Elsie hadn't accepted a penny of pocket-money, and the +Middletons were filled with dismay to have her spend her own money so +lavishly. But Mr. Middleton had told his wife that he meant to give +Elsie a check for Christmas, which being also her birthday, made a +large one legitimate. Consequently, at this time Mrs. Middleton did +not remonstrate. She only called herself heartless for not noticing +poor Katy's need and so forestalling Elsie. + +After she had sufficiently exclaimed over it, she asked what the girl +meant to get. + +"I thought of black broadcloth, rather plain. Should you think that +would be right, Aunt Milly?" + +"Quite right, dear. It would be, of course, the proper thing," Mrs. +Middleton returned, "but I can't help wondering whether Katy herself +wouldn't fancy something not so plain and rather more stylish. After +all, we can hardly expect her to share our quiet tastes." + +Elsie didn't resent the _our_ nor question the fact. She was only very +grateful. + +"Oh, Aunt Milly, I'm so glad I spoke to you!" the girl cried with +unwonted warmth, for she felt immediately the cogency of Mrs. +Middleton's remark. "What do you think she would like? I might have +her go in with me and pick it out herself, only----" + +"Only half the fun would be lost not to have her surprised on Christmas +morning? I don't know what she would like, I'm sure, but leave it to +me and I'll find out from Katy herself and without letting her mistrust +anything. Leave it to your Aunt Milly, dear. She is of so little use +that she has to seize upon whatever she can discover." + +And truly she learned the desire of Katy's heart and reported to Elsie +that night. Green was Kate's first choice for color and blue next, and +she admired especially a long, loose garment with "one of them fur +collars that folds up like an accordion or a gentleman's opera-hat." +And Elsie succeeded in finding the very thing--not a difficult task, +Kate's choice being the latest fashion and very common. + +Though her gifts gave extraordinary pleasure in every instance, the +reaction upon Elsie herself was yet greater. Her satisfaction was +increased by the fact that Mr. Middleton told her it was the happiest +Christmas he remembered, and that her being with them was largely what +made it so. + +"Besides which," he added, "I realize that most of the other factors +and changes that contribute are really due to you and to your +influence, Elsie dear." + +That was very precious to Elsie, but it couldn't ward off the reaction +that was to follow. The lavishness of the Middletons' gifts to her, +which they justified by reminding her that it was her birthday (she had +quite forgotten that Elsie Moss celebrated hers on Christmas!), quite +weighed down her spirits. On a sudden she seemed to herself to be +accepting what didn't belong to her, what wasn't meant for her. +Despite the placid way in which she had gone on acting the part of the +real niece, she pulled up and shied, so to speak, at this instance of +extravagant giving and a false birthday. It seemed as if she could not +bear it, could not accept the money, the jewelry, furs, books, and +other gifts showered upon her. + +But there was no way out. She had to accept everything, and she had to +keep everything but the money. That she sent directly to Elsie Moss, +explaining that she couldn't possibly accept it, as it was especially +for her Christmas birthday. But Elsie Moss, probably with her friend's +recent request for the five hundred dollars in mind, sent it directly +back. Whereupon she wrote again, saying that she had more money than +she knew what to do with, and that she would be broken-hearted if Elsie +returned it a second time. + + +The letter in which Elsie Moss returned the money was written on the +very day when the girl had planned to write the letter announcing her +disappearance. It was only a short note, however, and contained +nothing of that nature. Her next letter, in which she reluctantly +agreed to accept half of the Christmas-birthday gift, was long and +surprising, but delightfully so rather than mysteriously or painfully. + +Her Christmas had been quite as happy as that of the other Elsie. +Indeed, her greater capacity for blissful and ecstatic joy would have +rendered it even happier but for the valedictory character all its +details held secretly for her. Her youth and temperament, however, +which had carried her through the days following her momentous +decision, upheld her spirits even when she approached the brink of the +crisis. Her determination to right the wrong she had done at what she +believed the first possible moment had cleared her conscience so +completely that in the interim she had been able to enjoy the fruits of +that wrong-doing as never before since the very first. + +She had herself made her gift for Cousin Julia and little things for +Miss Peacock and nearly everybody in the house. On Christmas Eve she +sang in the parlor for Miss Peacock, the servants, and those remaining +in the boarding-house over the holidays. First she went through the +carols. Then she sang the favorite song or songs of every one present, +including several of Miss Pritchard's. And though the programme was +haphazard it wasn't motley--only simple and old-fashioned and full of +sweetness and melody. The girl must have been dull indeed not to have +guessed something of the exquisite and genuine pleasure she gave. + +In truth she lay long awake, thrilled by the remembrance. It had been +her swan-song, she told herself, half-tremulously, half-buoyed by the +excitement of it all. For she was passing out of their lives, in very +truth--even out of Cousin Julia's, and--forever. And Cousin Julia, +who, Elsie knew had basked in the enjoyment of the others, would have +it for a happy memory, when---- + +But she mustn't go further now. It was hardly safe. To-morrow was +Christmas Day. Until the day after, she wasn't going to think ahead. +Only on the 26th of December would she begin to make definite, final +preparations. She wouldn't spoil tomorrow by looking beyond it. + +Christmas was a wonderful day. Elsie did not realize how delirious her +enjoyment was nor how painfully she was keyed up because of her +underlying apprehension of coming agony. Neither did she understand it +when she waked suddenly from sleep the following morning, feeling so +exhausted as to be almost ill, and with a terrible sinking at heart +which settled into depression the like of which she had never +experienced before. + +It might have seemed that she was in no condition to complete the +proposed plans. But as a matter of fact, there was little to do. +Though the girl hadn't deliberately or consciously looked ahead, the +matter had been in her mind; and now when she came to consider the +question as to where she should go, she found it practically settled. +When she brought up the idea of going to California and trying to get a +chance as a moving-picture actress, she was ready with the objection +that the films were most likely to reach New York and that her dimples +would give her away at once. Her wisest move would be to take refuge +in some place equally distant from her stepmother in San Francisco and +from New York. Which, of course, was no other than Chicago. She had +enough money to take her thither and take care of her until she should +get a start--in some vaudeville house as she hoped. And then she would +be truly lost--forever, in all probability, and perhaps in more senses +than one. + + +Miss Pritchard was struck by the change in Elsie that morning at the +breakfast-table. The child looked almost ill. She said nothing to +her, however, feeling that it was the reaction from the excitement of +Christmas, and believing she would be better for the distraction of the +school. But she couldn't dismiss the matter from her mind all day, and +the more she thought of it the more serious it seemed. She realized +that Elsie hadn't looked merely tired or even exhausted. It was worse +than that. For the first time since she had come East, Miss Pritchard +thought she saw in the child indication of genuine, positive suffering. + +She decided that she herself had been gravely remiss. The strain of +giving herself so generously and whole-heartedly had worn upon the girl +disastrously, and--she had had warning and hadn't heeded. Until +recently, it is true, Elsie's blithe buoyancy had seemed always the +normal, unconscious, almost effortless efflorescence of a lovely +nature, as natural as playful grace to a kitten, as simple as +breathing. But once or twice back in the fall, Miss Pritchard had been +startled into wondering if the sweet instrument wasn't in danger of +being strained through constant playing upon it, and to be fearful that +Elsie might truly be rarely sensitive in a personal, as she seemed to +be in an artistic, way. + +The first time when this had presented itself to her mind had been a +matter of a month or six weeks previous. At that time she had seemed +to discover a shadow in the sparkling eyes and a transient pensive +droop of the lips. Then on the night of Charley Graham's visit, she +had been frightened by the worn look upon the beloved little face, and +had feared some definite trouble. + +It was not long after the affair of the five hundred dollars, and Miss +Pritchard had wondered if the difficulty might not be somehow connected +with that. She had just reached the decision to question the girl when +suddenly the weariness, the sadness, the pensiveness, the shadow, +vanished utterly, leaving Elsie not only herself again, but even more +glowingly and infectiously happy and buoyant than before. And from +that moment until this morning at the breakfast-table she had remained +so. + +It was natural that now Miss Pritchard's mind should hark back to those +former suspicions. All day she vacillated between the fear that Elsie +was beset by some secret trouble or by the solicitations of some +unscrupulous person, and the apprehension that she was on the verge of +nervous exhaustion. Her face was anxious indeed as she left the office +that night. + +She opened the door of her sitting-room with strange sinking of heart. +Then she almost gasped. Her breath was almost taken away by sheer +amazement. Elsie was waiting for her--yet another Elsie. For, radiant +and sparkling as the girl had been, she had never before been like +this. She was fairly dazzling. If Miss Pritchard hadn't been almost +stunned, she would have made some feeble remark about getting out her +smoked glasses. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"My dear child, what has happened?" Miss Pritchard cried as Elsie +relieved her of her wraps and bag, and she dropped weakly into a chair. +"I believe your dimples have actually doubled in size since morning. +It's positively uncanny, you know, anything like that. Suppose it +should go further?" + +"Like the Cheshire cat's grin? Well--we should worry, Cousin Julia, +dearest. But--what do you think has happened, truly?" + +"Your friend from Enderby hasn't appeared?" + +"No, this is another sort of bliss. This is--well, dearest darling, +it's just that Mr. Coates has started me on something that--that I +could go on the stage with!" + +Miss Pritchard's face fell. "Oh, Elsie, child, what do you mean?" she +asked anxiously. The dimples disappeared but though Elsie spoke +quietly, still there was that wonderful lilt in her voice. + +"Just this. He called me into his office this morning and spoke to me +about--my specialty, you know, 'Elsie Marley, Honey.' One day back in +the fall I was showing off with that to some of the girls that were +eating their luncheon together, and he happened by and made me repeat +it. To-day he said he had had it in mind ever since, and had found +that he could adapt it and change the music and make it into a regular +vaudeville feature. He thinks it's a real crackerjack. He's going to +begin right away to give me training in it." + +For a moment Miss Pritchard couldn't speak. Then she had to stifle +what started to be a groan. "Oh, my dear child!" she exclaimed. + +"It seemed such a lovely ending to a lovely Christmas," said Elsie +wistfully. The girl was absolutely carried away by the excitement of +it. It didn't even occur to her--until she was in bed that night--what +the "ending" of the lovely Christmas was to have been--the ending that +alone was to justify her enjoyment of the holiday and of the days since +she had weighed her action in the balance and found it wanting. + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, really when you understand, it's simply wonderful," +she went on eagerly. "I'm the only one picked out thus far, and you +know most of the others are related to the profession, too. And even +if that thing is so old, I can't help liking it. Most of the things +_are_ rather awful, I must confess." + +"But the first year--the first six months! I never dreamed of such a +thing!" Miss Pritchard cried. + +"Neither did I, darling dear; that's what makes me so wild with joy," +said the girl softly. + +Touched and almost remorseful, Miss Pritchard kissed her fondly. But +she couldn't restrain a sigh. + +"Surely it doesn't mean--going on the stage?" she inquired. + +"Oh, no indeed, Cousin Julia, at least not right off. Only--well, just +being ready if anything should happen, you know." + +Then suddenly at the thought of that wonderful eventuality, the girl's +dimples came out and her eyes so shone that Miss Pritchard felt as if +she should burst into tears. It seemed as if she couldn't bear it! +Again she lamented inwardly. Why should the child have had that crazy +desire for the stage? Why shouldn't it have been a passion for +music--for opera, indeed? Nearly every one who had heard Elsie sing on +Christmas Eve had spoken to Miss Pritchard of the girl's wonderful +voice, and the question of her cultivating that instead of working for +the stage; and Miss Pritchard had yesterday decided to make a fresh +plea to Elsie to that effect. What joy would it not be to share the +child's enthusiasm, had it been a matter of music! + +However, it would be worse than futile to drag in any such thing at +this moment, she saw clearly. Carried away by her delight, Elsie would +have no ears and no heart for anything else. Miss Pritchard told +herself she must wait for the infatuation to cool--and when that might +be, she couldn't in the least foresee. Would it ever happen in truth? + +As she couldn't possibly force herself to rejoice with Elsie, and +couldn't bear not to share in her joy, as they had come to share +everything, she suddenly proposed attending a concert that evening to +be given by a visiting orchestra from the Middle West. Elsie entered +into the plan with spirit, and they went off gayly together. Miss +Pritchard knew that Elsie was dreaming dreams to the strains of Bach +and Schumann, and wished with all her heart they were another sort of +vision; still, it was a happy evening for both where it had threatened +to be uncomfortable. But on the night when Elsie Moss had expected to +lie awake in agony because of the imminence of her parting with all she +loved most, she had only a brief moment of compunction, which she +dismissed easily, falling asleep in the midst of radiant and enchanting +visions of life on the stage. It was Miss Pritchard whose rest was +troubled. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +The answer of the real Elsie Marley to the letter in which her friend +enthusiastically related her advance toward the stage might have +indicated how far she had gone since the day on the train when she had +opined that the girl who thinks of becoming an actress has to undergo +much that isn't nice. It so sympathized and rejoiced with the other in +her happiness that it was solace and inspiration at once to Elsie Moss, +who was living at a high and unhealthy pitch of excitement, and +welcomed, indeed craved greedily, anything in the way of approval or +sympathy. For the girl feared that if ever she should stop to +consider, she should find her heart a black well of wickedness. But +that she wouldn't do. She _would not_ stop to consider. She had her +chance now, the chance she had waited for all her life, and she wasn't +going to hazard it. She was going to make the most of it, let her +conscience go hang! + + +For her part, the real Elsie Marley was led at this time to consider, +and the more seriously. To her inexperience, it looked as if Elsie +Moss were very near the stage, as if another year might find her a +fixed star in that firmament. And what then? She would be independent +of Cousin Julia and the boarding-house, and might she not want to +resume her own name and make herself known to her own relations? Or +would she, out of her abounding affection for Cousin Julia, suffer the +present state of affairs to continue? + +The girl pondered long and rather sadly over the dilemma, but always +inclined to the belief that the latter was really the only possible +sequel. It wasn't that the question of what would become of her in the +former instance was all-important; it wasn't that Elsie Moss would +probably not think of any other course of action. It was the fact that +some one very much like herself was needed here at Enderby. Mr. +Middleton depended upon her. Mrs. Middleton would hardly know how to +get along without her. Katy counted strongly upon her sympathy and +co-operation. And even Mattie Howe and Dick Clinton would miss her. + +And, after all, didn't the fact of Elsie Moss's securing her heart's +desire almost immediately, together with the working out of her own +presence at Enderby to the satisfaction of a few very dear people, +quite justify the exchange they had made? Hadn't it really proved a +beneficent idea? + +Arrived at this point, the girl was reassured. The only difficulty was +that the question didn't stay settled. It came up again and yet again +and the whole argument had to be redebated. And finally she came to +the conclusion that her wisest plan was to ward it off. Like the other +Elsie, she decided to avoid meditation and plunge into action. And +though the sort and amount of action to which she was limited wouldn't +have seemed action at all to the other girl, it answered her purpose, +nevertheless. Elsie Marley threw herself into the performance of the +various duties she had assumed with more fervor than ever, and +presently had recovered a good measure of her former serenity. + +But it seemed only to have been regained to be threatened. + +One night early in February, when Miss Stewart relieved her and she +left the library, she found Dick Clinton waiting outside. He often did +this, for he and Elsie had become good friends since the day he had +first appeared at the library and asked for help. She had seen him at +all the parties of the high-school pupils which she had attended, and +had gone coasting on his double-runner with other girls a number of +times. And no Sunday passed that he didn't seek her after service and +walk home with her. + +He was strangely silent to-night. His first shyness having worn off, +he had since always had plenty to say. Elsie was always quiet, and not +a word was spoken until they were next door to the parsonage. + +"Oh, Miss Moss, would you just as lief walk back a little way?" he +asked suddenly. "I had something I wanted to say to you, and there's +the parsonage and I haven't begun. I won't make you late for your +supper--or dinner, whatever it is." + +Rather surprised, Elsie complied willingly, and they had no sooner +turned than he began. + +"It's something I've done," he blurted out. "I feel sort of--like +thirty cents, you know. I should sort of like to know--what you think +of it." + +"Whatever it is, I don't believe you need to feel that way about it, +Dick," she said gently. + +"I do, just the same, though I'm not sure I should have before I knew +you, Miss Moss, you're so awfully sort of square, you see," he owned. +"I'm glad anyhow it ain't so bad but what I can tell you. This is what +it is: one of the other fellows that's about my height and build wanted +to go to the motor-show in Boston last week and his dad wouldn't let +him. He's simply wild over aeroplanes, and there was a model there, +and when the last night came, he got me to help him out. He pretended +to go to bed about a quarter of nine. Instead, he sneaked me up the +back-stairs and left me in his room, and he caught the nine o'clock for +Boston. I went to bed and put out the light. After a while his mother +put her head in the door and asked if I was asleep, and then came in +and kissed me. About two o'clock he came back, climbed in the window, +and I vamoosed. It seemed all right, and I couldn't have refused him, +and yet I felt queer." + +"I should think you were innocent enough. It seems to me the other boy +had all the responsibility of it," Elsie observed. + +"That's just what I thought. And I'm dead sure it would only have +seemed fun last winter. And I'd have to do it again if he asked me. +But--you know that little Howe kid that's trying to stretch himself out +to get big enough to be a boy scout?" + +"Yes, indeed, Charles Augustus Howe." + +"Well, he's always asking me things, and taking my answers so solemnly, +and yesterday he wanted to know if I thought it was wrong to tell a lie +to yourself in the dark. I tried to reason out the thing with him +and--great snakes, but it made me feel queer all over! Talking to that +kid about truth and honor and George Washington and Abraham Lincoln, I +sort of hypnotized myself; but afterward it made me feel cheap. +And--and there you are!" + +"But you didn't get anything out of it for yourself, Dick," said Elsie. + +"Nothing but feeling cheap before that kid." + +"Then I don't believe it's wrong for you--only for the other boy," she +averred. + +They turned. Nothing more was said until they reached the parsonage. + +"Much obliged, Miss Moss," the boy said quietly. "And that's good to +remember--not getting anything out of it for yourself. Good night." + +She heard him whistling cheerily as he went on his way. But her own +heart was heavy. Not to get anything out of it for oneself! Oh, what +would Dick Clinton think, what would every one think, to know that she +wasn't Elsie Moss at all! He had been sadly troubled because he had +played the part of another one night--a silent part that required no +spoken words. What would he think to learn that she was an interloper +at the parsonage? It was in part, it is true, for the sake of another. +But it was also in part--in large part, now--for her own sake. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +One evening in the early spring, during the interval between the films +in a motion-picture theatre on lower Broadway, a thrill of excitement +went through the audience, which was of the sort that desires to live +on thrills. + +Perhaps to-night, however, there was reasonable excuse for genuine +anticipation. For the song-dance specialty that was about to take +place was of a different order from anything that had been known in +that theatre heretofore. There was real grace and beauty in the +dancing, genuine melody in the voice of the singer, and something sweet +and wholesome about the whole performance. + +The act was entitled "And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, Honey?" And one +whispered to another that the best of it was, that that was her real +name--honestly it was--at least it had always been her stage name, so +that probably the song had been written especially for her--and she +that young--and it wasn't real ragtime either. And her dimples were +real too; possibly they were enlarged and deepened by the make-up, but +she had them off the stage. + +Heavy applause greeted the entrance of the actress. + +She was only a slip of a girl--a mere child she looked, partly, they +said, because of her hair--the "Castle bob," you know. She tripped +lightly before the footlights, smiled charmingly as she put the +question of the first line, and sang the song through with dancing +between the stanzas and dramatic rendering of the lines. She smiled +and sparkled and dimpled; but though she was so pretty and piquant and +coquettish, so graceful and vivacious, so completely the actress, there +was a look of youth and innocence about her that pleased the blase +audience, and touched one alien member of it to tears. + +Once and again was Elsie Marley recalled to repeat the act. The young +actress had other things prepared, but though they might be well +received, they were followed by clamor for "Elsie Marley, Honey," until +only the forcible resumption of the pictures availed to quiet it. + +And on Saturday night at the end of the second week, even that did not +avail. The last appearance of that bill having been announced, the +audience could not let Elsie Marley go. Finally, the manager came out +and announced that Miss Marley had been engaged for another week. And +again, while there was intense satisfaction elsewhere, to one person +the statement was like a blow. + +In truth, on the day when Elsie had announced the opportunity that had +been offered her of appearing in a "specialty" on the stage of a +second-class cinema theatre, Miss Pritchard had been aghast. The +chance had come through the school in the person of Mr. Coates, who had +first seen possibilities in the song the girl had known since +childhood, and who had developed it to its limit, and trained her in a +more artificial though still charming rendering, the music having been +adapted more nearly to music-hall ragtime. When he had announced to +her what he had known from the first--that she was to go upon the stage +with it--Elsie had been so elated that Miss Pritchard had been +powerless before her. She couldn't be a wet blanket; neither, however, +could she force herself to express any gratification. + +And when first she had seen this last member of her family before the +footlights of the cheap little theatre, with the bad air, the mixed +audience, and the poor pictures, she felt she couldn't endure it. The +image of the stately, aristocratic Aunt Ellen Pritchard rose before her +vision, overwhelmingly severe and reproachful. It would actually have +killed her to witness once what Julia Pritchard had to witness every +night for two weeks--or so she thought at first. + +On this Saturday night when the engagement was extended, they were +later than usual in getting to their carriage. Elsie was wrapped +snugly in the rose-colored opera-cloak. Her eyes were very bright, her +cheeks flushed. She had not really required any make-up, but they had +insisted upon deepening the color of her lips and darkening the lower +eye-lids. Miss Pritchard, too depressed to force any semblance of +cheerfulness, saw her dimples appear and disappear in happy reverie. +She sighed. Through it all, the child was absolutely enchanting to her. + +Elsie, catching the sigh, snuggled up to her. + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, I'm so happy, so happy I'm afraid I'll just burst +like a circus balloon. Oh, dear darling, you're so good to me. And I +suppose you're sick to death of the same old thing, and dread the +thought of another week of it." + +As a matter of fact, Miss Pritchard was as captivated by the song +specialty as any of the audience. She confessed that it wore well. +"But, oh, Elsie," she couldn't forbear adding, "I do wish you weren't +going to have another week in that cheap place." + +"Oh, but Cousin Julia, one can't begin at the top," remonstrated the +girl. "Why, I'm the luckiest guy ever was. How much do you suppose +I'm going to get for this next week?" + +Miss Pritchard had no heart for guessing. The sum the girl mentioned +was indeed surprising, but it only seemed to remove her further from +her and from the family they both represented. + +"I should be only too glad to do it for the experience alone," Elsie +rattled on, "and of course what I get is only what is over and above +what they pay the school. And I shall get other chances, Mr. Coates +says, and--oh, Cousin Julia, I don't dare tell you--you don't"--there +was a catch in her voice--"you don't sympathize. You were so +different! And now you're just like--well, almost as bad as the +others." + +Miss Pritchard drew the little rose-colored figure close. + +"Yes, I do sympathize, dear little cousin," she said, "only----" + +She could not go on. And they went the rest of the way in silence. It +was the first time that anything, recognized by both of them, had come +between them. As the excitement that had buoyed her up for the evening +began to die away, Elsie's heart was like a stone. Later it would +ache. She wondered rather drearily how it would be after she was in +bed. Even now she recognized something that would have been absurd if +it weren't so terribly serious. To think of her demanding sympathy +from Cousin Julia--of appearing almost aggrieved not to receive it--she +who should be cowering beneath her scorn! How was it that she should +so forget, should feel and act as if everything were true--and square? + +It was being on the stage, she supposed, a real actress at last. At +last! Why, it was almost _at first_. Who had ever been so fortunate +as she! To be on the stage in New York well within a year of her first +entering the city! And only to think that this might have been the +last night of her engagement! How terrible that seemed now! How would +she ever live without the evening to look forward to? How blissful to +have another week before her--six more appearances before that vast, +applauding throng! How happily would she go to sleep tonight to the +music of the lullaby of the thought: "Another week at the Merry Nickel, +another week at the Merry Nickel! Bliss! Bliss! Bliss!" + +And yet it wasn't at all a blissful face which Miss Pritchard bore in +memory to her own room that night after she had kissed Elsie, put out +the light, and opened the windows. Since the girl had been at the +theatre, Miss Pritchard had dropped into the habit of going in to her +the last thing every night and tucking her in as if she had been a +child. For somehow she had seemed, since striking out into +professional life, only the more a child, more innocent, more +appealingly youthful, more than ever to be sheltered and guarded. She +had tried her wings, it is true; she believed she had proved them (and +perchance she had!); but more than ever was she a precious and tender +nestling. + +As she sat by her window in the darkness, Miss Pritchard shook her head +sadly. She said to herself this couldn't go on--this state of things +couldn't continue. Despite Elsie's elation over the fact that she was +booked for another week at the theatre, she looked more mournful and +wistful and worn than ever. Some strain was wearing the child out. It +wasn't the work, nor yet the excitement, for she lived on them, and not +altogether unhealthily. There was no other possible explanation: it +was nothing less than the strain of combating her own disapproval, +tacit or expressed. Elsie was too warm-hearted to enjoy her legitimate +happiness alone, too sensitive not to suffer from want of sympathy. + +The change in the girl had begun to be apparent directly after +Christmas. Elsie hadn't been herself since that time, which proved +beyond peradventure that Miss Pritchard's suspicion was correct. The +joyous, sparkling little creature whom she had found in her room on the +day after Christmas, bubbling over with excitement, eager to share her +good news, had become thin and wan. Her charmingly brilliant little +face was not only peaked, but in repose was generally wistful or +plaintive. Many a time one could have looked on it without suspecting +the existence of dimples. Only in the evening did she resemble her +real self. From dinner until the moment she lay in her bed, she was +the Elsie Marley she had been (with negligible interruptions) since the +night when she had walked straight into Miss Pritchard's heart before +she had known who she was. At other times she was a pale shadow, the +little ghost of the girl she had been or should be. + +Miss Pritchard sighed deeply. If it were for want of +sympathy--approving sympathy--the child drooped and pined, must she not +have it, willy-nilly? But again she sighed, and yet more deeply. +Whatever her effort, was such a thing possible? + +As for Elsie herself, the lullaby didn't prove a lullaby at all, and, +as usual these days, the girl cried herself to sleep. Every night, of +late, the reaction came. Every morning she awoke with a sense of a +heavy burden weighing her down. All day her heart ached, though dully +and vaguely for the most part; for if the pain threatened to become +acute, she could still drug it with anticipation of the excitement of +the evening. + +In the weeks that had passed, Elsie hadn't once faced her conscience. +She had never squarely confronted the situation which was now so much +further complicated. When the unexpected and thrilling opportunity had +come to her the day after Christmas--the very day that was to +consummate her renunciation--the girl had been completely carried away +by it. She hadn't repudiated the decision she had come to so +painfully, she had simply disregarded it--ignored it utterly as if +there had been no such thing. And she had gone on ignoring it. In the +very first of it, the excitement of working directly for the stage had +rendered her oblivious of everything else. Then when certain faint +murmurings of conscience began to be audible, came the actual prospect +of the Merry Nickel to stifle them, and then there was the stage itself +and the actual footlights. Nevertheless, avoid the issue as she would, +more and more had her daylight hours come to be haunted with +misgivings, and now her heart was never light except in the evenings. +And combat any such direct thought as she might, she felt dimly that in +giving over her purpose to square her conduct with the right, she had +doubled and trebled the original wrong. Unvowing a vow must be +equivalent to signing a covenant with the powers of darkness. Now and +again lines from the poem Cousin Julia had repeated to her so +impressively that she could never forget it, came to her suddenly in +uncanny fashion. At such times, if questioned, Elsie would have +acknowledged that her Palladium had indeed fallen, with all the awful +consequences. + +Lines from another and more familiar poem came to the girl the next day +as she sat in the afternoon with Miss Pritchard in their sitting-room, +the snow falling outside as if it were December. As she gazed at the +steadily falling, restful, soothing curtain of flakes which deadened +all sound and veiled all save its own beauty, unconsciously she was +repeating verses of a poem she had learned as a child. But as she came +to the words, "I thought of a mound in sweet Auburn," she recollected +herself. And somehow her mind turned instinctively to Miss Pritchard's +lover. It was because he, too, was dead, she supposed, and this snow +was rounding above his grave. But before she made the natural +application or drew the familiar comparison between his failure and her +own, Elsie clapped the lid down on her thoughts with a thud. Turning +resolutely to Miss Pritchard, she asked her, with strange intonation, +if she thought the snow would continue all night. + +"I rather hope so," Miss Pritchard returned in a quiet voice that was +like a part of the silent storm, "for it's so late that we can't expect +another snowfall, and it seems really a privilege to have it now--like +plucking violets at Thanksgiving." + +For a little, her gaze, too, lost itself outside. Then she turned and +looked at Elsie with a kindness in which there was something wistful. + +"I know what you have been thinking, dear," she said. "You're thinking +that I'm not consistent nor fair--and you're right. I am neither. I +agree with you absolutely. Having in the first place consented to your +studying for the stage, I should have looked ahead and faced just this. +As you say, one can't begin at the tip-top--nor yet at the top. One +must make use of humble stepping-stones." + +But it seemed that the struggle she had been through to bring herself +to this attitude had been in vain. On a sudden she lost all that she +had gained. Her heart sank as Elsie's face brightened eagerly--became +transformed, indeed. + +"The trouble is," she went on sadly, "that the stepping-stones--oh, +Elsie, I'm so afraid the stepping-stones will only lead on and on and +on--never higher. They'll be and remain on a dead level, and you will +step from one to another, one to another, year after year, over the +same dreary waste. I hate awfully to say all this, dear, but when +those people refuse to allow you to do anything but the Elsie-Honey +business over and over, it comes to me what a fate it would be to be +doomed forever to that one stunt." + +"Oh, Cousin Julia!" Elsie cried deprecatingly. + +"Yes, dear, that's what I am exactly, an old killjoy; but truly I +cannot help it, though I have tried. I have struggled hard against my +prejudice. Elsie, last night you stopped yourself as you were about to +tell me something, but I fear I can guess what it was like. Some one +suggested your going on the road, as they say, with that one thing as +your repertoire--making a tour of the cheap moving-picture houses of a +certain section?" + +Elsie grew very pale; her lips trembled. One interested wholly in her +dramatic career, seeing her at that moment, might have concluded that +the girl had it in her to develop a capacity for tragedy as well as +comedy. + +"Cousin Julia," she said with tremulous dignity, "I don't want you to +come with me this week. I can go back and forth in a carriage by +myself. I've got to go through it, for I promised and they will have +made arrangements, but--please don't come with me any more." + +She gazed at Miss Pritchard through reproachful tears, but when she saw +tears streaming down Miss Pritchard's plain, staunch face, she ran to +her arms. + +"My dear, it's only because I love you so, because you are the very +apple of my eye, that I talk so," the latter declared, and the warm +words went straight to the girl's sore heart. "I know I'm not just, +but dear, we won't let anything come between us--ever. I'll do my best +to see your side of it, and you must be patient with me. It's hard, I +know, for youth to bear with age, for inexperience to hear the ugly +words of experience; but now we'll just go through the week together +and await what comes." + +What came demanded further patience on her part and increased Elsie's +infatuation. Before the end of the week the young actress had an offer +from a rival establishment which would take her to the edge of summer +at a salary that fairly made her gasp. The second theatre was perhaps +a shade better, but not sufficiently so to reconcile Miss Pritchard to +it. But she held her peace. Whereupon the first manager increased the +sum offered by his rival, and, Miss Pritchard still tolerant, Elsie +agreed to remain there until June. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + +Miss Pritchard acknowledged to herself that Elsie Marley had the right +stuff in her. She did not grow careless, never let herself down. The +audience was uncritical and wildly demonstrative, but the girl did her +level best at every performance. Up to a certain point, she even +improved. The possibility of so doing in this case was limited, but +having reached that point she held it. Further, her wonderfully sweet +voice seemed to grow sweeter every day. + +Therein lay Miss Pritchard's one hope. Presently, she sought out an +old friend who had been a musician of note and later a teacher and +musical critic on an evening paper, and confided her difficulty to him. +Hearing her story, he was interested and very sympathetic. He advised +her to drop the concert idea and dwell wholly upon the possibility of +opera as a lure: only the dramatic form and setting could compete +successfully in a case of stage-fever like that. And where Miss +Pritchard had hoped only to be allowed to bring Elsie to him, he being +an old man, he agreed to go to the theatre and hear the girl when she +would be off her guard. + +"I'll go any night you say, Miss Pritchard," he proposed. + +"Don't make _me_ choose, Mr. Francis," she begged. "There's so much at +stake that if I knew when you were to be there, I should be so nervous +I couldn't sit still." + +"You _nervous_, Miss Pritchard!" he exclaimed incredulously. + +"Alas, yes, Mr. Francis," she acknowledged, laughing. "These young +people with their careers are too stimulating for spinster cousins who +have never had anything more exciting than night-work on a city paper. +Well, I dare say I have only my come-uppings. You see, I was afraid +Elsie wouldn't be lively enough! I had visions of an extremely proper, +blase young person moping about, and rather dreaded her. Getting Elsie +was like finding a changeling." + +"Rather too much of a good thing? Well, we're all that way, Miss +Pritchard. If we're looking for a quiet person, we want a peculiar +sort of quietude; and the lively ones must be just so lively and no +more. Do you remember in one of the old novels, where a sister +enumerates in a letter to her brother the charms of the young lady she +wishes him to marry? At the end of the list she adds that the lady has +'just as much religion as my William likes.' Now isn't that human +nature and you and I all over?" + + +As she left the house, a suggestion came to Miss Pritchard in regard to +a lesser matter she had had in mind. Elsie having agreed to drop +everything for July and August and go into the country with her, she +had been studying prospectuses and consulting friends as to the +whither. Seeing Mr. Francis, suddenly recalled a summer twenty years +before when he and his sister had passed a month at a place called +Green River in eastern Massachusetts, and she had driven over a number +of times from a neighboring town to dine with them. It came to her +suddenly that Green River was exactly the place she had been looking +for, and she believed it must be near Enderby, where Elsie's friend +lived. And now she couldn't understand why she hadn't thought before +of going where the friends might meet. + +Making inquiries, she discovered that the name Green River had been +changed to Enderby, and that Enderby Inn was considered quite as good a +hostelry as the Green River Hotel had been. She wrote at once to the +proprietor to see if she could engage rooms, saying nothing to Elsie +lest the plan miscarry. + +So eager was she, that when she found a telegram on her plate next +morning (almost before her letter had left New York) she opened it +anxiously, uncertain whether such promptness meant success or failure +for her. But it was from Mr. Francis, asking her to lunch with him. +She got through the morning in almost a fever of suspense. + +He had gone to hear Elsie that very night of Miss Pritchard's call, and +told her without preface that the girl had a marvellous voice. + +"Now, Miss Pritchard, can't you shut down at once on that vaudeville +business and set her to studying under a first-rate teacher?" he +demanded. "She ought not to lose a minute. Of course she is rather +small--too bad she isn't taller--but for all that I believe such a +voice will carry her anywhere. I shouldn't wonder if she should turn +out a star of the first magnitude." + +He named a teacher with a studio in Boston who could take her as far as +she could go in this country. He usually went to Naples in the late +spring with a pupil or two, but would be at his home near Boston all +summer this year. + +Of course the fact that Enderby was within easy reach of Boston added +to Miss Pritchard's excitement. That night she received word that she +could have accommodations at the inn, and a letter following next day +offered her a choice of rooms. She engaged a suite of three with a +bath, though aware that the single rooms would be satisfactory. And +she smiled at herself for assuming airs already, as guardian of an +operatic star, engaging royal apartments for her. + +Filled with enthusiasm, she announced to Elsie that night that she had +secured quarters for them at Enderby for the two months. At the first +breath the girl was quite as surprised and delighted as she was +expected to be. The delight was, it is true, but momentary, though it +sufficed to irradiate her face and fill Miss Pritchard's heart with +generous joy--also, to hide from the latter the fact that it was +succeeded by profound dismay. + +Those dimples! Those awful dimples! As she thought of them, Elsie +Moss was overwhelmed by consternation. Of course she couldn't go to +Enderby. She couldn't let Uncle John get even a second glimpse of her +face. She fled from the room in a panic which Miss Pritchard believed +to be excited eagerness to impart the good news to her friend at once. + +Though, as the days had passed, Elsie had persisted in her refusal to +face her conscience or look into the future, she had been vaguely aware +of a day of reckoning ahead. She had dimly taken it for granted that +when she stopped she would have to consider--there would be nothing +else to do. When she should be out from under the influence of this +powerful stimulant, she foresaw herself meeting perforce the questions +she had evaded. But also she had foreseen herself with two clear +months before her and with Cousin Julia beside her. + +Now, on a sudden, all was changed. She seemed to have no choice. She +had no control over her future. She had delayed so long that the +choice was no longer hers. Her path was sharply defined. There was +nothing she could do except to disappear on the eve of Miss Pritchard's +departure for Enderby. And at that time there would be nothing to +sustain her, no moral or redeeming force about an act that was +compulsory. It was like being shown a precipice and realizing that at +an appointed time one must walk straight over its verge. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + +Mrs. Moss, who had loved her brilliant, impulsive little stepdaughter +like her own child, had given her up unwillingly. But it had been her +husband's wish that Elsie should go to her uncle; the latter could give +her advantages her stepmother could not afford; and she supposed it was +right and natural for the girl to be with her own people, even though +they had been strangers to her up to her sixteenth year. + +At first her loneliness found some solace in Elsie's letters. They +were short, but seemed brimming over with happiness. Mrs. Moss didn't +get any dear idea of the household at Enderby, but it was apparently +all that the girl desired. Then gradually the letters began to fall +off, and before Christmas-time she felt a decided change in them. They +had become unsatisfactory, perfunctory; the girl seemed to be slipping +away from her. She began to wonder if Elsie were not concealing +something, and soon after Christmas was forced to the conclusion that +she was unhappy and would not acknowledge it. + +She endeavored to regain the confidence that had been fully hers; she +tried in her own letters to prepare the way, to make confession easy, +but she received no response. In such circumstances letters are at +best unsatisfactory, and it was maddening to Mrs. Moss that she was at +such a distance that her warm words must grow cold in the five or six +days that elapsed between the writing and the reading. + +Christmas passed, and the winter, and she was unrelieved. She was busy +with her teaching, but except when engrossed by that, was haunted by +anxiety and apprehension. She had finally decided to go East during +the long summer vacation, ill as she could afford to make the journey, +to investigate for herself, when one night after school she dropped in +to see a friend, and while waiting picked up a New York paper. + +Some one in the house had that day returned from a journey East, and +the paper was dated five days earlier. It happened to be folded with +the page given over to amusements uppermost. Glancing carelessly over +columns that devoted a paragraph each to an amazing number of cinema +theatres, her eye suddenly caught the familiar name, _Elsie Marley_. + +With a vision of her stepdaughter as she had sung the old rhyme, she +mechanically followed the words until the word "dimples" arrested her +attention. Then she read the paragraph with beating heart. She read +it twice before she fully comprehended--understood that Elsie Marley +had completed her sixth week at the Merry Nickel in her song-dance +specialty, "And Do You Ken Elsie Marley, Honey?" Miss Marley was +declared to be more popular than ever; managers were clamoring for her +and she had engagements a year ahead. The notice added that despite +the fact that her voice was so wonderful, her dancing and acting +inimitable, some people declared that it was her dimples that wrought +the spell--that she might stand dumb and motionless before the +footlights if she would only smile. + +Mrs. Moss's first clear sensation was indignation toward Mr. Middleton. +She felt she could never forgive him for allowing this situation to +come about without warning her. Then she realized that this was the +key to the whole situation. She had not heard from the girl for six +weeks--just the length of time she must now have been at the theatre. +Excusing herself before her friend appeared, she hastened home in a +tumult of emotion. + +She did not know which way to turn. She couldn't bear the idea of +Elsie being on the stage of a motion-picture theatre; it seemed as if +it would break her heart. And still worse was the knowledge that the +girl had deceived her; that she had written empty, non-committal notes +calculated to make her believe she was staying quietly with her uncle, +when she was all the time preparing for this. And she had always been +so frank and upright, so easy to appeal to and to persuade! It seemed +to Mrs. Moss that she must have come under unfortunate influence. + +Her first impulse was to write to Elsie; her second, to Mr. Middleton; +but she did neither. The situation was now too critical to be handled +from a distance. There were only two weeks more of school. She +secured accommodations on the railway for the evening of the last day +of the term. + +On the sixth day after, she appeared without warning at the parsonage +at Enderby. A pleasant-faced woman who might be Mrs. Middleton, though +she did not look like an invalid, sat on the veranda entertaining a +little girl with a big baby in a perambulator. She asked at the door +for Mr. Middleton and was shown into his study. + +He came in directly, and the sight of his handsome, refined, strong and +serene face, with a vague resemblance to Elsie's, revived her drooping +spirits. Suddenly she felt that whatever he sanctioned must be right. +She inquired falteringly for Elsie before she announced her name or her +errand. + +She learned that the girl was well, and, to her surprise, would be in +presently. Then the season was over, she decided, and recollecting +herself, gave her name. + +He smiled. "I thought as much from the way you spoke her name," he +said. "Elsie will be delighted. May I call Mrs. Middleton?" + +"Just a moment, please. I felt troubled about Elsie, Mr. Middleton, +and came on without writing or sending word. I'm impulsive too, like +Elsie, though only her stepmother." + +He had never felt that Elsie was impulsive, and as he looked up in some +surprise, she wondered if he minded her comparing herself to Elsie, and +so to his sister. + +"Perhaps I should have sent word," she went on. "But I hesitated. I +knew you didn't approve of Elsie's father marrying me." + +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, if I had any such feeling, it has long since +disappeared," he assured her earnestly. "From the moment I saw Elsie +and realized what you have made of her, I have felt only the gratitude +I am sure my sister would have felt for your devotion to her motherless +child." + +"Thank you," she said. "Now about Elsie----" + +But she couldn't go on. A sudden wave of indignation swept over her. +If he had felt kindly toward her, why hadn't he warned her? + +He glanced at her with some concern. She seemed so fatigued and +overwrought after the long journey that he begged her to let him call +Mrs. Middleton that she might have a cup of tea and go to her room +before Elsie's return. The latter had gone into town but would be back +very soon, for she went into the library at four. + +Mrs. Moss stared at him, and he asked if Elsie hadn't told her that she +had been assistant librarian since September. + +She shook her head. He wondered, and when she had again refused +refreshment or rest, explained. As he did so, it came out that she +knew little or nothing of Elsie's activities, and he launched into +glowing descriptions. And the further he went, the more she marvelled. +She couldn't understand how Elsie had become the sedate, dutiful girl +he portrayed unless some great blow had fallen upon her. Then she +recollected what had brought her hither. + +"Elsie has been away lately?" she asked. + +"Oh, no, Mrs. Moss, she only went into Boston to do some shopping." + +"But she was in New York in May?" + +"Why, no," he returned with some surprise. "I'm sorry to say she +hasn't been away overnight since she came. But we have made up our +minds she shall have a change this summer, and now that you are here, +we shall surely be able to put it through. Perhaps you will go to the +shore with her? Of course you will spend the summer with us? Mrs. +Middleton will insist." + +Mrs. Moss was too dazed to reply. Indeed, the only statement she had +taken in was that Elsie had not been away since she came. For an +instant she wondered if she could have mistaken. But that could not +be. Surely there were no two girls in the country who would have +selected that particular song and have had peculiar dimples into the +bargain. On the other hand, Elsie couldn't have been in two places at +once. Neither could she have been away without his knowledge. It +wasn't conceivable that he---- + +It struck her coldly that he was not in his right mind--that this +handsome, courteous gentleman was mildly insane. In spite of his fine +manner and bearing, his every word had been irrational. She hazarded +one last question. + +"Has Elsie said anything--shown any interest in the stage?" + +As she spoke, there was a curious expression on her face--it seemed to +him so watchful as to be almost furtive. He began to suspect that +something was wrong. She was certainly overwrought and almost +hysterical--beyond anything the journey would bring about. Possibly +that was the explanation of the mystery. Elsie had rarely spoken of +her stepmother. Perhaps her husband's death had unbalanced her mind? + +Whereupon he murmured something soothingly and courteously evasive that +confirmed Mrs. Moss in her suspicion with regard to him, his mind was +wandering now; he had illusions, without doubt. Quite likely Elsie was +now in New York, and he constantly believed her to be in Boston for the +day, coming back in time for the library. And Mrs. Moss wondered how +she could get the ear of the lady on the porch. + +She could see her through the window. Now she saw that she had a mass +of wool, red, white, and blue, in her lap and was knitting a +curious-looking article, and it came to her that perhaps she, too, was +out of her mind? Perhaps this was a mental sanitarium? True, she had +inquired for the _parsonage_. Could it be that in the cultured East +that was a new euphemism for insane asylum? + +But that idea was too ludicrous, and suddenly struck by the absurdity, +she laughed out. Her laugh was so merry and infectious as to lay his +suspicion at once, and he couldn't help joining her. And then, +somehow, each understood the misapprehension of the other, and they +laughed the harder. + +Even as they laughed, there was a light step on the veranda outside, +and some one cried _Elsie_ in a tone of warm welcome. + +Mr. Middleton had risen. "Shall I tell her who it is, or just send her +in, saying that it's an old friend?" he asked in a low voice. + +Her heart was beating violently. "Don't tell her who it is," she +begged weakly and shrank back as he opened the door. + +He closed it behind him and she waited breathlessly. She forgot +everything except that she was to see Elsie. At the first sound she +sprang to her feet, and as the door opened--not with Elsie's +characteristic fling--she held out her arms. + +"Elsie!" she cried, then started violently. + +A total stranger stood before her, a pretty girl with a sweet face and +long light-brown curls hanging from her neck. + +"And who are you?" she cried wildly. "Am I mad or is this a lunatic +asylum?" + +For a moment the girl stared at her with sweet perplexed face. Was she +another patient, then? thought the distressed woman. + +"I am Mrs. Moss," she said in a sort of desperation. "Pray tell me who +you are and where I am?" + +All the pretty color left the girl's face. She stepped back and leaned +against the door. + +"This is the parsonage," she faltered. "I am Elsie Pritchard Marley. +Your Elsie is in New York with my cousin. We exchanged." + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI + +On the Saturday afternoon following the arrival of Mrs. Moss at +Enderby, Miss Pritchard and Elsie had just seated themselves in the +former's cool, pleasant room for the purpose of discussing summer +clothes for the latter. A maid came to the door and brought in a card. + +"Mrs. Richard Moss! I'm sure I don't know any such person; do you, +Elsie?" Miss Pritchard exclaimed, frowning as she attempted to +recollect whether that could be the married name of any one who had +formerly been at Miss Peacock's. As she looked up she saw that Elsie +was almost ghastly white. + +She sprang from her chair and went to her. + +"Elsie, darling, are you ill?" she cried. + +Elsie almost gasped. + +"No, Cousin Julia, only--startled, _scared_," she said in a strange +voice that frightened Miss Pritchard still further. + +But the maid waited. About to ask her to excuse her to Mrs. Moss, she +looked again at Elsie. + +"You don't know her, dear?" she said gently, putting the card before +her. + +"Yes--I do. That's what--fazed me," gasped Elsie. "It's +my--stepmother. I'm afraid something awful has happened." + +Now Miss Pritchard was white, too. + +"My child, are you out of your head?" she exclaimed. "What are you +talking about? You never had a stepmother. You couldn't have." + +Then she half smiled. + +"Oh, Elsie!" she cried reproachfully, "it's some of your stage friends +come to see you. How you startled me! I'll settle with you later for +that and give you a good scolding, but I won't stop now. Will you have +her up here or down in the parlor?" + +"Please, let's have her up here," said the white-faced girl in the same +strained tone. "There's nothing to do now but go through with it. It +serves me just right. But----" + +Without understanding, her heart beating strangely, Miss Pritchard +asked that Mrs. Moss be brought up. + +They waited in silence. Presently the caller was ushered in, a slender +woman clad in black, with a young-looking, sad face. Seeing Elsie, she +too became very white. But the girl rushed upon her, flung her arms +about her, and hid her face on her shoulder. And the stranger clasped +her close. + +Miss Pritchard stared in amazement. She hadn't known of any warm +friend of Elsie's except the young girl in Enderby; but this was +unmistakably an affection of long standing. For a moment she stood +stock-still. Then somehow she got them both over to the sofa, relieved +Mrs. Moss of her wraps, and sat down near. + +"I don't understand," she said finally. "You are evidently an old +friend of my little cousin's. Perhaps you are the lady she stayed with +while she was finishing her school after Mrs. Pritchard's death?" + +Mrs. Moss looked hard at Elsie, reproachfully yet lovingly. It was so +good to see the girl that the plans she had laid as she came on from +Massachusetts escaped her. She spoke at random, and might have +imparted the same impression of mental irresponsibility that she had +given Mr. Middleton. + +"She hasn't any grandmother. She never had one. And she isn't----" + +"Oh, _Moss_, I have it!" exclaimed Miss Pritchard. "You're the mother +of Elsie's friend at Enderby--though I believed her to be an orphan all +this time." + +"I am Elsie's stepmother, and she isn't your cousin at all," declared +Mrs. Moss sadly. "She's only a very naughty girl playing a trick on +you." + +Then for the first time Miss Pritchard spoke sternly to Elsie. + +"If this is a trick, a part of your stage business, won't you please +bring it to a close right here!" she demanded. "It has gone too far +already." + +"My dear Miss Pritchard, will you allow me to explain?" said Mrs. Moss. +Then she turned to the girl. "Or will you do it, Elsie? I went to +Enderby to see you and found that other girl and learned the truth from +her." + +Elsie drew away a little. + +"You tell her, please, auntie, I couldn't," she faltered. She clasped +her hands tightly. Her face was whiter than before. + +"Miss Pritchard, if you will have patience and bear with me for a +little, I hope I can make things plain, though I can't make them +right," said Mrs. Moss rather appealingly. "I have just come from +Enderby, Massachusetts, where Elsie's uncle and guardian lives. I got +worried and went there to see about Elsie. I came all the way from +California." + +Miss Pritchard stared at her in amazement. + +"Oh, auntie!" cried Elsie in distress. Then she went to Miss Pritchard. + +"Kiss me just once, Cousin Julia, kiss me hard," she entreated. And +Miss Pritchard clasped her to her heart. + +The girl resumed her place on the sofa and sat motionless, her eyes +upon her clasped hands. Mrs. Moss endeavored to get the main fact out. + +"I found there instead of this Elsie, instead of Mr. Middleton's own +niece, a strange girl who has lived there since last June as Elsie +Moss. Her first name happened to be Elsie, too, but her last name is +Pritchard--Marley, I should say." + +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, I must be stupid, but I cannot understand what you +mean!" cried Miss Pritchard. And Elsie choked. + +"I'll begin again," said Mrs. Moss with mournful patience. "A year ago +this Elsie, _my_ Elsie, Elsie Moss, started East to live with her +uncle, John Middleton, in Enderby, Massachusetts. On the train she +fell in with this Marley girl who was coming on to New York to live +with her cousin, Miss Pritchard. Elsie was badly stage-struck and wild +over New York, and the other girl didn't mind a quiet country town, and +they calmly changed places--and names. Elsie Moss came to you--with no +claim in the world upon your hospitality; and your relative, Elsie +Marley, imposed upon the Middletons in the same fashion. And they have +gone on with the imposture for practically a year." + +As she continued, one detail after another fitted into the framework +she made, and Miss Pritchard grasped the situation fully. Stunned and +wholly at a loss, she glanced at Elsie. The girl sat like a statue, +white with downcast eyes. Miss Pritchard went to the window and stood +gazing out for some moments. + +When she returned to her place, her expression was composed, but her +face looked suddenly strangely worn and older. She looked into Mrs. +Moss's eyes as who should say "How could she!" But she spoke to the +girl. + +"Well, Elsie?" she asked quietly. + +"That was why I hedged about going to Enderby," said Elsie +incoherently, "I didn't dare let Uncle John see my dimples. They would +give me away, you see, Cousin Julia." + +Then she suddenly bethought herself. + +"Oh, but you're not my Cousin Julia any more!" she cried, and burst +into a tumult of weeping. + +Her stepmother gathered the girl to her, and Elsie sobbed wildly on her +breast. Mrs. Moss, who had been more severe with Elsie Marley at +Enderby than she had ever been with any one before, was now disposed to +be very gentle--perhaps over-lenient--with the real culprit. + +"Yes, Elsie, I am your Cousin Julia--to the end of things," Miss +Pritchard assured her. And she spoke almost solemnly. "But tell me, +dear--you didn't know what you were doing? Oh, Elsie, you didn't +realize that it wasn't--that it was--wrong?" + +"Not at first--not when I did it," sobbed Elsie. Then she uncovered +her face. "But I knew afterward. It came to me then, and I knew it +was the sort of wrong you think worst of all. And so do I, honestly, +Cousin Julia." + +Again Miss Pritchard walked to the window. Elsie's eyes followed her +in agonized appeal. + +"Cousin Julia!" she cried desperately. And Miss Pritchard was at her +side in a moment. But though her face was all tenderness and sympathy, +the pain that shone through it would have been severe retribution even +had Elsie been altogether impenitent. + +"Oh, Cousin Julia, I was sorry!" the girl cried, "I was terribly sorry. +But it only came on me when everything was--sort of--_fixed_, you know. +I couldn't bear to break up Elsie Marley's happiness at Enderby, and--I +couldn't bear to have it--hurt you--though I know this is a lot worse. +So I was going to disappear. I had my mind all made up. I was going +to leave a letter so that you wouldn't feel troubled. And I thought +that would sort of make up for everything, because I never would have +been happy again. And then--oh, Cousin Julia, then came that chance +that I knew led straight to the stage, and I lost my head. I chose to +be wicked, and I suppose I lost my soul as well as my head, +only--there's something that hurts as if I still had one." + +Again the girl wept wildly. But now Miss Pritchard's arm was enfolding +her. + +"No, precious child, you haven't lost it. And if you were sorry--but +we won't talk more about it now. I'll hold that in my heart as comfort +until to-morrow and then we'll see what we can do to straighten it all +out. At this moment we must consider that there's the evening +performance to go through, and being the last, it will be very taxing. +Somehow, we'll make things right, among us all. You go to your room +now and lie down. If you think of this, only say to yourself that it's +over, and be thankful for that. And we two women who love you so that +we're all but jealous of one another already will plan the next--or +rather, the first move. Come, child." + +At the door Elsie turned. "Is the other Elsie all right, auntie?" she +asked anxiously. + +"Yes, dear," returned Mrs. Moss rather doubtfully. "At least--well, as +a matter of fact the poor child is just--waiting. I made her promise +not to say a word to the Middletons until I came on here and returned. +I am afraid--dear me, I am sure I don't know _what_ I said to the girl. +I am afraid I must have been rather hard on her." + +"Oh, auntie! And it wasn't her fault in the least! I just dragged her +into it. It was all for me. And she's the sweetest, gentlest thing! +And not the least little bit her fault! Oh, dear! Oh, dear!" + +The girl wrung her hands in genuine distress. Mrs. Moss shook her head +mournfully. + +"I might have known," she acknowledged regretfully. "But, oh, Miss +Pritchard, I was nearly distracted. It all came upon me so +suddenly--not a whisper of warning." + +Miss Pritchard could understand what that meant. She led Elsie into +her room and established her upon the bed. Elsie talked incoherently +and at random, until Miss Pritchard had to declare that she must go +back to Mrs. Moss. Kissing the girl again, she bade her forget +everything for the time being and rest. And though she stifled the +deep sigh that rose involuntarily, Miss Pritchard felt as if she was +staggering as she left the room. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII + +For some time Miss Pritchard and Mrs. Moss discussed, not as they had +purposed, the way out of it, but the affair itself: the change of names +and destinations and the year of masquerading. They marvelled equally at +the audacity and the success of the scheme, and the various circumstances +that had favored it. Miss Pritchard reviewed the year aloud in the light +of the discovery, with eager comment from the other. + +"How Elsie could have accepted so much from you, knowing all the while +she was deceiving you, I cannot understand!" cried Mrs. Moss, shaking her +head sadly. + +"Accepted! Oh, Mrs. Moss, if you could only know half the girl gave, you +wouldn't speak of accepting!" protested Miss Pritchard. "She has made +this year the happiest of my life, that captivating, lovely child has. +As for deceiving--she didn't mean any such thing, and it wasn't real +deceit in her case. She said just now she always felt as if I were +really her cousin. When she swapped, she did it in such a whole-hearted +way that she was herself almost as deluded as I. And later, when she +began to realize, she suffered--looking back, I begin to understand that +she has suffered torture." + +Mrs. Moss suddenly bethought herself. + +"The question is, what is to be done?" she repeated. "You see, I have +left that girl in Enderby in a most uncomfortable position. The +Middletons as yet know nothing. I shall have to break it to them, but +before I do so, I want to come to some sort of an understanding with you." + +"I confess, I don't see any way out of it at this moment," returned Miss +Pritchard. "Dear me, I can't yet really realize we're in it." + +"The simple thing would seem to be to just----" + +"Swap back? Oh, it wouldn't be possible after all this time, my dear +Mrs. Moss!" cried Miss Pritchard, really aghast. + +"We shall have to see how the Middletons feel, of course," admitted Mrs. +Moss. "Oh, Miss Pritchard, couldn't you go back with me to-night and +then all of us talk it over together? I don't believe we'll ever come to +any understanding unless you do. My flying back and forth between you +like a shuttlecock isn't going to amount to anything." + +"Yes, I will go on to Enderby--there's no other way," agreed Miss +Pritchard, "but I can't go tonight, because Elsie has an engagement. +It's her last appearance at that wretched place, I'm thankful to say. +She and I will follow you to-morrow. Meantime, you can give them the +plain facts to digest." + +She smiled half grimly. "As a matter of fact, I have a suite of rooms +engaged at the inn at Enderby for the last two weeks in June and for July +and August, though I never dreamed of any such complication, as you know. +Like as not we all--you and Elsie and I--can occupy them now--I can +telegraph presently. Dear me, dear me! what a pair of thoughtless scamps +these children were. And yet--what hasn't it meant to me to know Elsie? +Oh, Mrs. Moss, I can't face giving her up. I simply cannot face it." + +"Of course, Mr. Middleton is her guardian," remarked Mrs. Moss, who +sympathized with Miss Pritchard, but felt she might remember that she had +had to part with Elsie a year ago, after having had her from a child. +"He seems like one who would do the right thing," she added, "but of +course he was devoted to Elsie's mother." + +"No doubt he'll be glad to hand over little Pritchard to me?" + +"Well, he seemed attached to her. But of course being a clergyman he may +judge her very severely." + +"I wish we could all go to Enderby this very moment," cried Miss +Pritchard impatiently. "If it weren't for that old movie-show!" + +Then the other forgot Enderby. "Oh, Miss Pritchard, tell me, is Elsie +very deeply concerned?" she asked anxiously. + +Miss Pritchard related the matter in detail. Mrs. Moss was distressed +beyond words, though she was cheered when the other repeated Madame +Valentini's dictum in regard to the girl's voice, and the yet more +authoritative word of Mr. Francis. And then and there the two women who +cared deeply for one little girl decided that that night should close her +theatrical career, not only for the season but forever. And they added +that whatever be the outcome of the conference at Enderby, Elsie must +begin in the late summer or early autumn to study with the teacher in +Boston recommended by Mr. Francis. + +"The child has actually grown rich overnight," observed Miss Pritchard. +"She has saved all she has earned and if need be could pay for her own +lessons for a time at least. But I should like nothing better than to +retire and take her to live in some quiet place near Boston, and then go +abroad with her when the time comes. I've got enough to do that and yet +do something for that girl at Enderby." + +She paused in her pacing, sat down suddenly and frowned deeply. + +"There's no use," she groaned. "That Mr. Middleton will take her away +from me, mark my word. What sort of a man is he, anyhow?" + +Mrs. Moss didn't confess that she had taken him for a lunatic; but her +description was colorless. + +"Of course, I should be only too glad to take Elsie back with me," she +added wistfully, "though I couldn't give her advantages." + +Miss Pritchard gave her a look of sympathy, though she couldn't conceive +of her wanting Elsie as she herself did. + +"Neither you nor I will have any chance," she returned gloomily. "He'll +snap her up--that minister. And I shall be desolate in my old age--for I +shall grow old in a night if I lose Elsie." + +"But there's the other Elsie," rejoined Mrs. Moss plaintively. "There +seems to be one apiece for every one except me." + +"Oh, _Elsie Pritchard_! Good heavens!" Miss Pritchard began her pacing +again. "I shall have her on my hands. I never thought of that!" + +"I suppose you'd hardly expect to have them both," remarked the other +mildly. + +"I certainly won't have Elsie Pritchard by herself!" Miss Pritchard +retorted. Then she laughed at herself, though ruefully. + +"Ah, that accounts for the five hundred dollars!" she exclaimed suddenly. + +"I don't understand what you mean," murmured Mrs. Moss plaintively. Now +even Miss Pritchard had begun to talk like Alice in Wonderland. + +Miss Pritchard paused in her walk and explained rapidly and in great +detail, leaving Mrs. Moss as much in the dark as before. Again she went +the length of the room, pausing before Mrs. Moss to demand: "What sort of +a girl is this Elsie Pritchard?" + +"To tell the truth, I was so taken aback, I scarcely noticed. She's a +pretty girl and ladylike." + +Miss Pritchard groaned. + +"Well, I think she looks as if she had character," Mrs. Moss added. + +"Any ginger?" + +"Well, perhaps not," the other admitted. "But you should have heard Mr. +Middleton talk about her--er--work in the parish." + +"Good heavens! Visiting the sick and distributing tracts?" + +"Not exactly," Mrs. Moss smiled. "He spoke about the library and--well, +I'm afraid I didn't take in the rest." + +"Never mind, I can guess. And I see my finish when she gets hold of me. +She'll endeavor to reform me. A year ago, now, I was prepared for a +superior person. But after Elsie----" + +"What mischief they made! And yet, Miss Pritchard, it was all done +thoughtlessly." + +"I know. And poor Elsie--I'm afraid we came down pretty hard on her. I +think I'll just go and see how she is." + +Mrs. Moss followed. Miss Pritchard tapped lightly at Elsie's door. +There was no response and she opened it softly. Then she beckoned the +other with a look on her plain face that made it very sweet. + +Together they stood over the little figure on the big bed. Elsie had +cried herself to sleep. She looked young and sweet and innocent, her +brown head with its short locks against the pillow, her lips parted, her +hand under one cheek, and the shadow of a dimple visible. + +They turned away, the eyes of both being filled with tears. And when +they were back in Miss Pritchard's sitting-room they seemed somehow +nearer one another, almost like old friends. + +"She's too sweet and good for the stage," cried Mrs. Moss. "Do you +suppose we can get her away? Do you think she'll be willing to give up +and cultivate her voice instead?" + +"_Willing_? Not Elsie! The child's more crazy about the stage than +ever. And as for easily persuading her to settle down to daily drudgery +with no excitement in view for years--" She shrugged her shoulders. + +"She doesn't look now as if she had a will of her own, does she, with her +hand under her cheek and her darling baby lips parted?" cried her +step-mother. + +Miss Pritchard's eyes filled a second time. Then suddenly an idea +flashed into her mind. + +"Oh, Mrs. Moss, you'll be awfully shocked, but do you know what your +words have put into my head? I feel like a wicked conspirator collecting +his pals, but--listen--you and I must attack Elsie at once and get her to +forswear the stage and take up music." + +Mrs. Moss couldn't see any difference in this proposition from anything +previously proposed. + +"What I mean is, we must do it this very day," the other went on. "We've +got to strike while the iron is hot. The child is in a chastened state; +she's sorry and ashamed and unusually meek. We've got to be wolves and +prey upon the poor lamb in her moment of defenselessness. She'll agree +to anything to-day. Oh, Mrs. Moss, it sounds cruel and hateful, but it's +really for her good. If you'll stand by me, I'll attempt it." + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII + +Elsie Marley had let Mrs. Moss out by the side-door, and half an hour +later she passed out that way herself. She had promised not to say +anything until she returned, and so couldn't even leave a note to explain +her own going. She would write one to-night to bid them wait for Mrs. +Moss's explanation. And afterward she could tell them that she couldn't +bear to see them again. And by that time they would have their own Elsie +with the dimples. + +And she would be with Miss Pritchard? She supposed so, but she couldn't +go there to-night. Eventually, she must; she wasn't sufficiently clever +or self-reliant to take care of herself; but she wouldn't go to New York +while Mrs. Moss--that terrible Mrs. Moss--was there. What she had said +was quite true, but oh, it had been hard and cruel, and Elsie could never +forget it! + +She had made up her mind to go into Boston to a hotel where she had +lunched several times, write Cousin Julia from there, and wait until she +should hear from her. She was anxious to get away before Mr. Middleton, +who had gone to the library in her place, should return. And yet she +took a wide detour that doubled the way to the station; for she could not +bear to go near the street on which the library stood. + +Forgetting her haste, before she had gone far, she turned and looked back +at the parsonage. It was like home to her. Leaving it forever, she +realized dimly that it was home to her, the only real home her life had +known. And Aunt Milly? Once, not so long ago, Elsie couldn't have +imagined herself wanting to go back and throw her arms about her and tell +her she wished she had understood and loved her long before. And +Katy--dear old Katy!---- + +Turning away, she almost ran. She met no one in the out-of-the-way path +she chose, and she was to take the six-two train for Boston, which +Enderby people rarely used. + +The station stood on a hill. As she climbed it, Elsie decided to ask the +agent, whom she knew slightly, to telephone to the parsonage after the +train had gone to say that something had called her away, and that Mrs. +Moss would explain. Fearing lest he might forget the latter clause, she +stopped and wrote the message out. As she did so, it came to her that +they might think she had gone away with her stepmother, and wouldn't be +disturbed. + +As she took up her satchel again, she heard some one behind her on the +wooden walk. Kate had come by the direct way, but she had stopped to put +a skirt and jacket over her kitchen-dress and to squeeze her feet into +boots to hide the holes in her stockings. Warm with the extra clothing +and the unusual effort, Kate actually panted as she caught up to Elsie +and seized hold of her as if she were rescuing her from drowning. + +"Why, Katy, has anything happened?" the girl inquired anxiously. + +"Anything happened? Well, I like that!" ejaculated Kate between her +gasps. "No, nothin's happened yet, but I suspicioned something was +a-goin' to and so I hiked along after you. What are you a-doin' up here +and himself gettin' all tired out at that library?" + +Elsie's heart sank yet lower. "There won't be many in to-day, Katy," she +said meekly. "And anyhow--but don't keep me, Katy, I must----" + +"No, you mustn't, Miss Elsie, no such thing. You're a-comin' straight +home with your own Katy. Do you want your aunt a-fallin' down in one of +her heart-spells, and her so well and happy for the first time sence I +come? She'll have one sure's you're born if you ain't there for your +supper--and me after makin' shepherd's pie!" + +Elsie paled. "Oh, Katy, I can't go back, honestly I can't, but you'll +make it right with them, won't you? Tell them I _had_ to go and +she--Mrs. Moss--will explain when she comes back." + +"You just come back yourself and wait for her, Miss Elsie. The missus +will have one of them flop-overs the first thing if you don't, and then +for himself to come home tired from the library and find her in that +state and you not by to break it to him, and him not so young as he was +once, you know!" + +Tears streamed down the girl's distressed face. Kate took her satchel +while she got out her pocket-handkerchief, and then would not loose her +hold on it. Elsie started on, Kate by her side. + +"If you're bound to go, then, you might as well get two tickets, for I'm +goin' with you," the latter said stoutly. + +Elsie looked at her in amazement. + +"Sure thing. If you go, I go," Kate insisted. + +"But, Katy, you wouldn't do such a thing? You wouldn't leave--them?" + +"Indeed I would," Kate returned exultantly, feeling that she had scored. +"I'll go by the same train. I've got some money in my stocking. I +couldn't face the music with her in a dead faint, and himself like as not +havin' a shock." + +Elsie stopped short. "Katy, why will you say such dreadful things?" she +cried. "Honestly, it's only a question of a day or two. I've got to go +away, and why can't you let me do it quietly now instead of waiting and +having it still harder." + +"You don't mind the easiest way for you bein' the hardest for them?" + +"Yes, I do. But I can't go back. I cannot--act another day." + +"Oh, yes you can," replied Kate soothingly. "And, besides, it'll all +come right if you just hang on. I knew something was strange--I've +suspicioned it ever sence you come. Wasn't it me as went around and took +all your baby pictures out o' the old albums and others with big round +dimples out o' velvet photograph-frames, and himself lookin' everywhere +for 'em and me never lettin' on? I says to myself you wasn't really +yourself, but like enough a cousin or foster-sister, and just as good and +perhaps more satisfactory. Come, we'll just race around home and go in +by the back-door so as to be there for supper as if nothin'd happened." + +Just before they reached the kitchen door, Elsie spoke. + +"Oh, Katy, couldn't I stay in my room until she--Mrs. Moss comes? My +head does ache--terribly." + +"Well, child, you go up there now, anyhow, and Katy'll see what her big +head can do." + +The quick-witted woman got out of her suit and into her slipshod shoes +and went straight to Mrs. Middleton. + +"That Mis' Moss flew right off, ma'am--forgot somethin' she had to do in +New York, it seems, and off she goes. Them Westerners, you know, is +reg'lar globe-trotters. She's comin' back to accept our hospitality on +Sunday, it seems, but here I am with a company supper fit for the Empress +of Injy and plans for meals all day to-morrow and a bed made up. I +suppose you wouldn't want to ask Miss Dunham to make her visit now and +help eat things up? The pineys are all in blossom, too." + +Miss Dunham was an elderly, crippled parishioner who lived a little out +of town and came each year to the parsonage for a day or two. Mrs. +Middleton threw her arms about Kate. + +"Oh, Katy, what a dear you are to think of it! It's just the thing. Day +after to-morrow is children's Sunday and she'll enjoy that, and I'm going +to church myself and surprise Mr. Middleton. That is why Elsie went into +Boston to-day--to get me some gloves and a dove-colored sunshade. Do you +think you can get her here to-night, Katy?" + +"I'll telephone to himself at the library," said patient Kate, who hated +the telephone. "And we'll wait supper." + +The plan worked perfectly. The minister fetched Miss Dunham in a +motor-car in time for a late tea. Only Kate and Elsie knew what her +visit meant to the latter, and Kate didn't understand fully. Mrs. Moss +arrived on Sunday shortly after the guest had gone. + +But at best Elsie had suffered keenly, and when Mrs. Moss found her pale +and hollow-eyed, she felt conscience-stricken. But she had no +opportunity to give her any of Elsie Moss's cheering messages, for she +went into immediate conference with the Middletons. + +They talked for an hour. The waiting was agony for the girl, and she was +at once relieved and desperate when at length she was summoned down to +the study. Mrs. Middleton beckoned her to a place beside her on the +couch, and Elsie dropped gratefully into it. She could not raise her +eyes; she sat with her hands clasped tightly, very pale, yet aware +somehow, at the very first, of the kindness, the sheltering kindness, as +it were, of the woman at her side. And while she had steeled herself to +endure the coldness of Mr. Middleton's voice, it had never been more +gentle. + +"Well, Elsie, we know the whole story, now. It seemed a sad mix-up at +first--what a friend of mine up-State would call a 'pretty kettle of +fish'; but with Aunt Milly's assistance we managed to get at the crux of +the affair and see things more clearly. Aunt Milly declares it was just +child's play: that you girls had no more idea of doing anything wrong, of +deceiving, than she had last winter when her new hat came from the +milliner's and she decided to wear it back foremost and never told any +one what she was doing." + +[Illustration: "Well, Elsie, we know the whole story now."] + +Elsie knew from his voice that he was smiling. She wanted to thank him +for his kindness; she longed to raise her eyes gratefully to Aunt Milly, +but she was powerless to do even that. He went on: + +"Mrs. Moss brings word that Miss Pritchard has become deeply attached +to--er--the other Elsie. Now that isn't a circumstance to our case. For +my part, I couldn't possibly have cared more for my dear sister's +daughter than I have come to care for you, Elsie, and Aunt Milly is +convinced she couldn't have cared for her nearly so much. In any event, +we cannot give you up. Somehow we shall have to come to an agreement +with your guardian, Miss Pritchard--that is, if you are willing?" + +Elsie knew she should burst into tears if she attempted to answer. + +"I'll speak for her. Elsie won't leave us," Mrs. Middleton declared. + +"Not if--if you----" + +The bell rang violently. + +"That sounds like Miss Pritchard now," remarked Mrs. Moss, thankful to +have the tenseness relieved. And, in truth, Kate, who was suspiciously +near the front door, ushered that lady in at once. + +Introductions were gone through hastily. The Middletons felt their +prejudice vanish at sight of her kind, worn, genuine face, and she was +deeply impressed by the minister. Of his wife, she reserved judgment. + +She kissed her young relative with more warmth than she had expected to +feel, for there were tears on the girl's white cheeks, and she looked +sweet and sorry and appealing. She was indeed a Pritchard, though not so +typically so as she had anticipated. + +The minister mentioned the point at which they had arrived in the +discussion, and for a little they talked all round the matter. Then Miss +Pritchard presented her conclusions. + +"Those babes took things into their own hands in great style a year ago," +she declared. "They got hold of a deck of cards and shuffled them to +suit themselves, not realizing that isn't the way to play the game. They +shouldn't have touched the cards and they shouldn't have shuffled them; +but somehow they happened to make a good deal all round. As the game has +come out, we all like it. We shouldn't, indeed, be willing to go back +and deal out fresh hands. Am I wrong?" + +The rejoinder indicated that she was wholly in the right. + +"Now, for my part, I'm used to Elsie Moss and I want to keep her, but I +wouldn't take her out of reach of her own kin--at least not for some +time. There's a man in Boston I want her to study with--she's going to +be an opera-singer--and we're to be here at the inn all summer so that we +can get respectively acquainted with our shuffled kith and kin--I want a +chance to know my little Pritchard cousin, too." + +It seemed easier to speak beside the point than to the question. +Thereupon the minister suggested that Miss Pritchard should remain +permanently at Enderby. That might well have waited, but Miss Pritchard +declared she had already thought of taking a house in the fall. + +"I thought if you insisted upon trading back, we'd all be in sight of one +another that way, even though we elders might be mutually hating each +other," she added. + +Whereupon they began to mention particular houses, and would have gone on +indefinitely but for Mrs. Moss. It was she, the outsider, for whom, +whatever the sequel, there would be no place in the plans, who called +them back to the real matter at issue. + +"Apparently, then," she said, "you're going to let things remain largely +in the _status quo_. But one difficulty comes to my mind. When all is +said, my Elsie was wholly at fault in all this. She's sorry now, but for +all that, I'm afraid she hasn't taken it so hard as this Elsie here, and +what's more--this is what I'm getting at: Elsie Moss can drop the name +she assumed falsely and, going elsewhere, resume her own as a matter of +course. But this Elsie, who has become well acquainted here and entered +into the life of the place, cannot suddenly change from Moss to Marley +without a great deal of pain to herself." + +Quite true. No one had thought of that. It seemed appalling! + +"Of course," Mrs. Moss went on rather doubtfully, "she could keep on with +the name. It's perfectly possible to have two Elsie Mosses in one +family. People would only take them for cousins." + +"It's possible," the minister acknowledged, "but it wouldn't be right. +It wouldn't be honorable for Elsie to continue to use the name now." + +"Ah, but Jack, it would be cruelly hard for her to change back to +Marley!" cried his wife; and he sadly agreed. + +"Do you think you could go through it, dear?" he asked, turning to Elsie. + +"I ought to bear something a great deal harder," cried Elsie suddenly. + +"No, you ought not, my dear," rejoined Mrs. Middleton. "No, Jack, it +would be too hard on Elsie--on any young girl; and, besides, it would +hurt her influence at the library and with the schoolgirls. If people +could understand everything clearly, it would be another matter, but they +couldn't. Elsie's best friends know it. For my part, I don't believe +she deserves any punishment for doing wrong unconsciously--especially +since she's been such an angel of mercy to this house. But even if she +had, she's suffered enough already to atone--with plenary grace." + +"She's got to go by some name," Miss Pritchard remarked palpably, but +that gave Mrs. Middleton a suggestion. + +"I know," she cried. "Oh, Jack! Oh, Elsie!" and her face was quite +irradiated with love and good-will. "I know exactly what we'll do! +Elsie is just seventeen. We'll adopt her, Jack, for our own daughter, +and she shall wear our name henceforth. She shall be Elsie Middleton, +and Elsie Moss shall remain Elsie Moss, and they'll really be cousins." + +She held out her arms, and Elsie nestled into them. + +"My dearest Mildred!" cried her husband, going over to them in his +enthusiasm. "Isn't she wonderful?" he demanded, and almost in the same +breath asked Miss Pritchard's consent to legalize the adoption. + +"Of course, only after suitable arrangements and provision were made, +Miss Pritchard. All we want now is your general or conditional approval." + +Miss Pritchard smiled as she sighed. "I'm sure I don't know what the +Pritchards would say, but if Elsie's willing I confess I don't see any +objection." + +Elsie's expression made any questioning of her unnecessary. + +"My own Elsie, my darling daughter," murmured Mrs. Middleton in her +sentimental way, stroking Elsie's hair. But, strange to say, Elsie found +it all very grateful. + +"As to Elsie M--" Miss Pritchard began, when she was interrupted by a +knock on the door, which she had left ajar (greatly to Kate's approval), +and Elsie Moss burst in. + +In the excitement of the moment, she seemed her old self again--though +Miss Pritchard knew it to be a lovelier self. She stood a moment in the +doorway, a charming little figure in a smart rose-colored linen suit with +a large drooping hat perched coquettishly upon her short locks, her +dimples very conspicuous. Then she rushed upon Elsie Marley, who had +come forward shyly, and flung her arms about her. + +Then she turned, her arm still about the other girl, to Miss Pritchard. + +"I couldn't wait any longer, Cousin Julia," she said sweetly. "I just +had to see Elsie-Honey." + +"We're to be real cousins," the other whispered, and the quick-witted +girl understood at once. + +"How perfectly ripping!" she cried. "Oh, everybody's so dear and darling +that I should simply die of shame and remorse if I didn't just have to +stay alive to worship Cousin Julia and get acquainted with Uncle John and +Aunt Milly and--love my honey!" + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK ELSIE MARLEY, HONEY*** + + +******* This file should be named 22819.txt or 22819.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/8/1/22819 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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