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diff --git a/16143.txt b/16143.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..cc6c597 --- /dev/null +++ b/16143.txt @@ -0,0 +1,6992 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of A Man and a Woman, by Stanley Waterloo + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: A Man and a Woman + +Author: Stanley Waterloo + +Release Date: June 28, 2005 [EBook #16143] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK A MAN AND A WOMAN *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + + + + + + +A MAN AND A WOMAN + + +By STANLEY WATERLOO + + + + + +[A NEW EDITION] + + + + + +Published by + +Way & Williams + +Chicago + + + + +MDCCCXCVII + + + + +Copyright, 1892, by Stanley Waterloo + +All rights reserved + + + + +CONTENTS + +CHAPTER + + I PROLOGUE + II CLOSE TO NATURE + III BOY, BIRD, AND SNAKE + IV GROWING UP WITH THE COUNTRY + V GRIM-VISAGED WAR + VI THE SPEARING OF ALFRED + VII HOW FICTION MADE FACT + VIII NEW FORCES AT WORK + IX MRS. POTIPHAR + X THE BUILDING OF THE FENCE + XI SETTLING WITH WOODELL + XII INCLINATION AGAINST CONSCIENCE + XIII FAREWELL TO THE FENCE + XIV A RUGGED LOST SHEEP + XV A STRANGE WORLD + XVI THE REALLY UGLY DUCKLING + XVII "EH, BUT SHE'S WINSOME" + XVIII THE WOMAN + XIX PURGATORY + XX TWO FOOLS + XXI "MY LITTLE RHINOCEROS-BIRD" + XXII TWO FOOLS STILL + XXIII JUST A PANG + XXIV "AS TO THOSE OTHERS" + XXV NATURE AGAIN + XXVI ADVENTURES MANIFOLD + XXVII THE HOUSE WONDERFUL + XXVIII THE APE + XXIX THE FIRST DISTRICT + XXX THE NINTH WARD + XXXI THEIR FOOLISH WAYS + XXXII THE LAW OF NATURE + XXXIII WHITEST ASHES + + + + +A MAN AND A WOMAN. + + +CHAPTER I. + +PROLOGUE. + +But for a recent occurrence I should certainly not be telling the story +of a friend, or, rather, I should say, of two friends of mine. What +that occurrence was I will not here indicate--it is unnecessary; but it +has not been without its effect upon my life and plans. If it be asked +by those who may read these pages under what circumstances it became +possible for me to acquire such familiarity with certain scenes and +incidents in the lives of one man and one woman,--scenes and incidents +which, from their very nature, were such that no third person could +figure in them,--I have only to explain that Grant Harlson and I were +friends from boyhood, practically from babyhood, and that never, during +all our lives together, did a change occur in our relationship. He has +told me many things of a nature imparted by one man to another very +rarely, and only when each of the two feels that they are very close +together in that which sometimes makes two men as one. He was proud +and glad when he told me these things--they were but episodes, and +often trivial ones--and I was interested deeply. They added the +details of a history much of which I knew and part of which I had +guessed at. + +He was not quite the ordinary man, this Grant Harlson, close friend of +mine. He had an individuality, and his name is familiar to many people +in the world. He has been looked upon by the tactful as but one of a +type in a new nationality--a type with traits not yet clearly defined, +a type not large, nor yet, thank God, uncommon--one of the best of the +type; to me, the best. A close friend perhaps is blind. No; he is not +that: he but sees so clearly that the world, with poorer view, may not +always agree with him. + +I hardly know how to describe this same Grant Harlson. At this stage +of my story it is scarcely requisite that I should, but the account is +loose and vagrant and with no chronology. Physically, he was more than +most men, six feet in height, deep of chest, broad-shouldered, +strong-legged and strong-featured, and ever in good health, so far as +all goes, save the temporary tax on recklessness nature so often +levies, and the other irregular tax she levies by some swoop of the +bacilli of which the doctors talk so much and know so little. I mean +only that he might catch a fever with a chill addition if he lay +carelessly in some miasmatic swamp on some hunting expedition, or that, +in time of cholera, he might have, like other men, to struggle with the +enemy. But he tossed off most things lightly, and had that vitality +which is of heredity, not built up with a single generation, though +sometimes lost in one. Forest and farm-bred, college-bred, +city-fostered and broadened and hardened. A man of the world, with +experiences, and in his quality, no doubt, the logical, inevitable +result of such experiences--one with a conscience flexile and seeking, +but hard as rock when once satisfied. One who never, intentionally, +injured a human being, save for equity's sake. One who, of course, +wandered in looking for what was, to him, the right, but who, having +once determined, was ever steadfast. A man who had seen and known and +fed and felt and risked, but who seemed to me always as if his religion +were: "What shall I do? Nature says so-and-so, and the Power beyond +rules nature." Laws of organization for political purposes, begun +before Romulus and Remus, and varied by the dale-grouped Angles or the +Northmen's Thing, did not seem to much impress him. He recognized +their utility, wanted to improve them, made that his work, and +eventually observed most of them. This, it seemed to me, was his +honest make-up--a Berseker, a bare-sark descendant of the Vikings, in a +dress-coat. He had passions, and gratified them sometimes. He had +ambitions, and worked for them. He had a conscience, and was guided by +it. + +It was always interesting to me to look at him in youthful fray, more +so, years afterward, in club or in convention, or anywhere, and try to +imagine him the country small boy. Keen, hard, alert in all the ways +of a great city, it was difficult to conceive him in his early youth, +well as I knew it; difficult to reflect that his dreams at night were +not of the varying results of some late scheme, nor of white shoulders +at the opera, nor the mood of the Ninth Ward, nor of the drift of +business, but of some farm-house's front yard in mid-summer with a boy +aiming a long shot-gun at a red-winged poacher in a cherry tree, or +that he saw, in sleep, the worn jambs beside the old-fashioned +fireplace where, winter mornings, he kicked on his frozen boots, and +the living-room where, later in the morning, he ate so largely of +buckwheat cakes. He was a figure, wicked some said, a schemer many +said, a rock of refuge for his friends said more. This was the man, no +uncommon type in the great cities of the great republic. + +As for the woman, I write with greater hesitation. I can tell of her +in this place but in vague outline. She was slender, not tall, +brown-haired and with eyes like those of the deer or Jersey heifer, +save that they had the accompanying expression of thought or mood or +fancy which mobile human features with them give. She was a woman of +the city, with all that gentle craft which is a woman's heritage. She +was good. She was unlike all others in the world to one man--no, to +two. + +I have but tried to tell what these two people appeared to me. I can +see them as they were, but cannot tell it as I should. I have not +succeeded well in expressing myself in words. Even were I cleverer, I +should fail. We can picture characters but approximately. + + + + +CHAPTER II. + +CLOSE TO NATURE. + +The great forest belt, oak, ash, beech and maple, sweeps southwestward +from New England through New York and trends westward and even to the +north again till one sees the same landscape very nearly reproduced in +Wisconsin wilds. Not far from where its continuity is broken by the +southern reach of Lake Huron was a clearing cut in the wood. The land +was rolling, and through the clearing ran a vigorous creek, already +alder-fringed--for the alder follows the chopper swiftly--and +glittering with countless minnows. In the spring great pickerel came +up, too, from the deep waters, miles away, to spawn and, sometimes, to +be speared. From either side of the creek the ground ascended +somewhat, and on one bank stood a little house. It was a house +pretentious for the time, since it was framed and boarded instead of +being made of logs, but it contained only three rooms: one, the general +living-room with the brick fireplace on one side, and the others, +smaller, for sleeping apartments. So close to the edge of the forest +was the house that the sweep of the wind through the tree-tops made +constant music, and the odd, squalling bark of the black squirrel, the +chatter of the red one, the drumming of the ruffed grouse, the pipe of +the quail and the morning gobble of the wild turkey were familiar +sounds. There were deer and bear in the depths of the green ocean, and +an occasional wolverine. Sometimes at night a red fox would circle +about the clearing and bark querulously, the cry contrasting oddly with +the notes of whippoorwills and the calls of loons. The trees were +largely oak and beech and ash and birch, and in the spring there were +great splashes of white where the Juneberry trees had burst into bloom. +In summer there was a dense greenness everywhere, and in autumn a great +blaze of scarlet and yellow leaves. + +There was an outlined flower garden in front of the house, made in +virgin soil, and with the stumps of trees, close-hewn, still showing +above the surface. Beside the door were what they called "bouncing +Betties" and "old hen and chickens," and on each side of a short +pathway, that led to what was as yet little more than a trail through +the wood, were bunches of larkspur and phlox and old-fashioned pinks +and asters, and there were a few tall hollyhocks and sunflowers +standing about as sentinels. The wild flowers all about were so close +to these that all their perfumes blended, and the phlox and pinks could +see their own cousins but a few feet away. The short path ran through +a clump of bushes but a few yards from the creek. In these bushes +song-sparrows and "chippy-birds" built their nests. + +In the doorway of the little house by the forests edge stood, one +afternoon in summer, a young man. He was what might perhaps be termed +an exceedingly young man, as his sixth birthday was but lately +attained, and his stature and general appearance did not contradict his +age. His apparel was not, strictly speaking, in keeping with the glory +of the general scene. His hat had been originally of the quality known +as "chip," but the rim was gone, and what remained had an air of +abandon about it. His clothing consisted of two garments, a striped, +hickory shirt and trousers of blue drilling. The trousers were +supported by suspenders, home-made, of the same material. Sometimes he +wore but one. It saved trouble. He was barefooted. He stood with a +hand in each pocket, his short legs rather wide apart, and looked out +upon the landscape. His air was that of a large landed proprietor, +one, for instance, who owned the earth. + +This young man under consideration had not been in society to any great +extent, and of one world had seen very little. Of another he knew a +great deal, for his age. With people of the sort who live in towns he +was unacquainted, but with nature's people he was on closer terms. He +had a great friend and crony in a person who had been a teacher, and +who had come to this frontier life from a broader field. This person +was his mother. With his father he was also on a relationship of +familiarity, but the father was, necessarily, out with his axe most of +the time, and so it came that the young man and his mother were more +literally growing up together with the country. To her he went with +such problems as his great mind failed to solve, and he had come to +have a very good opinion of her indeed. Not that she was as wise as he +in many things; certainly not. She did not know how the new woodchuck +hole was progressing, nor where the coon tracks were thickest along the +creek, nor where the woodpecker was nesting; but she was excessively +learned, nevertheless, and could be relied upon in an emergency. He +approved of her, decidedly. Besides, he remembered her course on one +occasion when he was in a great strait. He was but three years old +then, but he remembered all about it. It was, in fact, this occurrence +which had given him his hobby. + +The young man had a specialty. He had several specialties, but to one +yielded all the rest. He had an eye to chipmunks, and had made most +inefficient traps for them and hoped some day to catch one, but they +were nothing to speak of. As for the minnows in the creek, had he not +caught one with a dipper once, and had he not almost hit a big pickerel +with a stone? He knew where the liverwort and anemones grew most +thickly in the spring and had gathered fragrant bunches of them daily, +and he knew, too, of a hollow where there had been a snowy sheet of +winter-green blossoms earlier, and where there would soon be an +abundance of red berries such as his mother liked. At beech-nut +gathering, in the season, he admitted no superior. As for the habits +of the yellow-birds, particularly at the season when they were feeding +upon thistle-seed and made a golden cloud amid the white one as they +drifted with the down, well, he was the only one who really knew +anything about it! Who but he could take the odd-shaped pod of the +wild fleur-de-lis, the common flag, and, winding it up in the flag's +own long, narrow leaf, holding one end, and throwing the pod +sling-wise, produce a sound through the air like that of the swoop of +the night-hawk? And who better than he could pluck lobelia, and +smartweed, and dig wild turnips and bring all for his mother to dry for +possible use, should, he or his father or she catch cold or be ill in +any way? Hopes for the future had he, too. Sometimes a deer had come +in great leaps across the clearing, and once a bear had invaded the +hog-pen. The young man had an idea that as soon as he became a little +taller and could take down the heavy gun, an old "United States yager" +with a big bore, bloodshed would follow in great quantities. He had +persuaded his father to let him aim the piece once or twice, and had +confidence that if he could get a fair shot at any animal, that animal +would die. Were it a deer, he had concluded he would aim from a great +stump a few feet distant from the house. If a bear came, he would shut +the door and raise the window, not too far, and blaze away from there. +But in none of all these things, either present exploits or imaginings +for the future, was his interest most entangled. His specialty was +Snakes. + +Not intended by nature for a naturalist was this youthful individual +whose specialty was snakes. Very much enamored was he of most of +nature's products, but not at all of the family _ophidia_. Snakes were +his specialty simply because he did not approve of them. All dated +back to the affair of three years before. Snakes were abundant in the +wood, but were not of many kinds. There were garter-snakes, dreaded of +the little frogs, but timid of most things; there was a small snake of +wonderful swiftness and as green as the grass into which it darted; +there were the water pilots, sunning themselves in coils upon the +driftwood in the water, swart of color, thick of form and offensive of +aspect; there were the milk-snakes, yellowish gray, with wonderful +banded sides and with checker-board designs in black upon their yellow +bellies. Sometimes a pan of milk from the solitary cow, set for its +cream in the dug-out cellar beneath the house, would be found with its +yellow surface marred and with a white puddling about the floor, and +then the milk remaining would be thrown away and there would be a +washing and scalding of the pan, because the thief was known. There +were, in the lowlands, the massasaugas; short, sluggish rattle-snakes, +venomous but cowardly, and, finally, there were the black-snakes +ranging everywhere, for no respecter of locality is _bascanion +constrictor_ when in pursuit of prey. Largest of all the snakes of the +region, the only constrictor among them, at home in the lowlands, on +the hill-sides or in the tree-tops, the black-snake was the dread of +all small creatures of the wood. There was a story of how one of them +had dropped upon a hunter, coiled himself about his neck and strangled +him. + +This young man of six remembered how, one day, three years back, before +he had assumed trousers or become familiar with all the affairs of the +world, he was alone in the house, his mother having gone into the +little garden. He remembered how, looking up, he saw, lifted above the +doorsill, a head with beady, glittering eyes, and how, after a moment's +survey, the head was lifted higher and there came gliding over the +floor toward him a black monster, with darting tongue and long, curved +body and evident fierce intent. He remembered how he leaped for a high +stool which served him at the table, how he clambered to its top and +there set up a mighty yell for succor--for he had great lungs. He +could, by shutting his eyes, even now, see his mother as she came +running from the garden, see her look of terror as she caught sight of +the circling thing upon the floor, and then the look of desperation as +the mother instinct rose superior and she dashed into the room, seized +the great iron shovel that stood before the fireplace, and began +dealing reckless blows at the hissing serpent. A big black-snake is +not a pleasant customer, but neither--for a black-snake--is a frenzied +mother with an iron fire shovel in her hand, and this particular snake +turned tail, a great deal of it, by the way, since it extended to its +head, and disappeared over the doorsill in a cataract of black and into +the wood again. + +From that hour the individual so beleaguered on a stool had been no +friend of snakes. Talk about vendettas! No Sicilian feud was ever +bitterer or more relentlessly pursued, as the boy increased in size and +confidence. Scores of garter-snakes had been his victims; once even a +milk-snake had yielded up the ghost, and once--a great day that--he had +seen a black-snake in the open and had assailed it valorously with +stones hurled from a distance. When it came toward him he retreated, +but did not abandon the bombardment, and finally drove it into a cover +of deep bushes. Come to close quarters with a black-snake he had never +done, for a double reason: firstly, because stones did almost as well +as a club, and, secondly, because his father, fearing for him, had +threatened him with punishment if he essayed such combat, and the firm +old rule of "spare the rod and spoil the child" was adhered to +literally by the father and indorsed by the mother with hesitation. +And, growing close to the house, were slender sprouts of birch and +willow, each of which leaned forward as if to say, "I am just the thing +to lick a boy with," and such a sprout as one of these, especially the +willow, does, under proper conditions, so embrace one's shoulders and +curl about one's legs and make itself familiar. But the feud was on, +and as a permanency, though, on this particular afternoon, the young +man, as he stood there in the doorway, had no thought of snakes. +Something else this summer was attracting much of his attention. He +had a family on his hands. + + + + +CHAPTER III. + +BOY, BIRD AND SNAKE. + +The young man's family was not large, but a part of it was young, and +he felt the responsibility. The song-sparrow is the very light and +gladness of the woods and fields. There are rarer singers, and birds +of more brilliant plumage, but he is the constant quantity. His notes +may not rival those mellow, brief ones of the blue-birds in early +spring, so sweet in their quaint inflection, which suggest all hope, +and are so striking because heard while snow may be yet upon the +ground; he may not have the wild abandon of the bobolink with that +tinkle and gurgle and thrill; he is no pretentious songster, like a +score of other birds, but he is a great part of the soul of early +summer, for he is telling, morning, noon and night, how good the world +is, how he approves of the sunshine, and how everything is all right! +And so the young man approved much of the song-sparrow, and was +interested in the movements of all his kind. + +One day in May, the boy had noted something in the clump of bushes, +between the house and creek, which very much resembled a small +bird's-nest, and had at once investigated. He found it, the nest of +the song-sparrow, and, when the little gray guardian had fluttered +away, he noted the four tiny eggs, and their mottled beauty. He did +not touch them, for he had been well trained as to what should be the +relations between human beings and all singing birds, but his interest +in the progress of that essay in summer housekeeping became at once +absorbing. He announced in the house that he intended to watch over +the nest all summer, and keep off the hawks, and that when the little +eggs were hatched, and the little birds were grown, maybe he would try +to tame one. He was encouraged in the idea. It is good to teach a boy +to be protective. And when the birds were hatched, his interest +deepened. + +He was half inclined, as he stood in the doorway on this particular +day, to visit the dense bushes and note the condition of affairs in +that vicinity, but, buoyant as he was, there was something in the +outlook which detained him. There was such a yellow glory to the +afternoon, and so many things were happening. + +Balanced above the phlox, a humming-bird, green-backed and glittering, +hung and tasted for a moment, then flashed to where the larkspurs were. +A red-headed woodpecker swung downward on the wing to the white-brown +side of a dead elm, sounded a brief tattoo upon the surface, then dived +at a passing insect. A phoebe bird was singing somewhere. A red +squirrel sat perched squarely on the drooping limb of a hickory tree +and chewed into a plucked nut, so green that the kernel was not formed, +then dropped it to the ground, and announced in a chatter that he was a +person of importance. Great yellow butterflies, with black markings +upon their wings, floated lazily here and there, and at last settled in +a magnificent cluster upon a moist spot in a mucky place where +something pleased their fancy, and where they fed and fluttered +tremulously. There were myriads of wild bees, and a pleasant droning +filled the air, while from all about came the general soft clamor of +the forest, made up of many sounds. + +The boy was satisfied with the prospect. Suddenly he started. There +was a call which was not of peacefulness. He knew the cry. He had +heard it when some bird of prey had seized a smaller one. It was the +call of the sparrow now, and it came from his clump of bushes. His +family was in danger. A hawk, perhaps, but he would have seen such a +foe in its descent. It might be a cat-bird or a weasel? + +With a rush, the boy was across the garden, and as he ran he snatched +up what was for a person of such inches an ideal club, a cut of +hickory, perhaps two feet in length, not over an inch in thickness, but +tough and heavy enough for a knight errant of his years. He broke +through the slight herbage about the place where the bushes grew +thickest, and, getting into an open space, had a fair view of the +particular shrub wherein were the bird's-nest and his birdlings. He +stopped short and looked, then ran back a little, then looked again, +and straightway there rose from his throat a scream which, though +greater in volume, was almost in its character like that other wild cry +of the two sparrows who were fluttering pitifully and desperately about +their nest, tempting their own death each instant in defense of their +half-fledged young. He stood with his youthful limbs half paralyzed, +and screamed, for he saw what was most horrible, and what it seemed he +could not check nor hinder, though a cruel tragedy was going on before +his eyes! + +Curled easily about the main stem of the bush, close to which, upon a +forked limb, rested the sparrow's nest, its dark coils reaching +downward and its free neck and head waving regularly to and fro, was a +monstrous black-snake, and in its jaws fluttered feebly one of the +youthful sparrows. Evidently the seizure had just been made when the +boy burst in upon the scene. The snake's eyes glittered wickedly, and +it showed no disposition to drop its prey because of the intruder. It +only reared its head and swung slowly from side to side. Lying almost +at full length upon a branching limb of the same bush, and on a level +with the nest, was a second serpent, its head raised slightly, but +motionless, awaiting, it seemed, its opportunity to seize another of +the tender brood. The parent birds flew about in converging circles in +their strait, clamoring piteously and approaching dangerously near to +the jaws of their repulsive enemies. The boy but stood and screamed. +They were the greatest black-snakes he had ever seen. Then, all at +once, he became another creature. His childish voice changed in its +key, and, club in hand, screaming still louder, he ran right at the +bush. At the same moment his frightened mother came running down the +pathway, screaming also. + +As the boy leaped downward, both snakes, with wonderful swiftness, +dropped to the ground and darted across the open space of a few yards, +toward the creek. Side by side, with crests erect, they glided, and +one of them still held between his jaws the unfortunate young sparrow. +The boy did not hesitate a moment. Still making a great noise, but +hoarsely for a creature of his age, he ran to head them off and barely +passed them as they touched the water. He leaped in ahead of them and +they were beside him in an instant. The water was up to his waist. He +plunged deeper recklessly. With a cry of rage he struck at the serpent +with the bird, and struck and struck again, blindly, still giving +utterance to that odd sound, and with the fury of a young demon. The +woman had reached the bank and stood, unknowing what to do, shrieking +in maternal terror, while across the clearing a man was running. And +then a fierce chance blow, delivered with all the strength of the +maddened boy, alighted fairly, just below the head of the snake +carrying away the bird, and in a second it was done for, floating, +writhing down the stream with a broken neck, and its tiny prey loosened +and drifting away beside it. + +The mother gasped in relief, but only for a moment. The boy cast one +glance at the floating reptile and the bird, and only one, then turned +to the other serpent. It had almost reached the shore, and between +that and the covert it might attain was a stretch of shrubless ground. +Already its black length was defined on the short grass when the boy +rushed from the water with uplifted club, just as his father came in +full view of the scene from the other side. With cries like those of +some young wild beast, the child ran at the snake, raining blows with +the stout club, and with rage in every feature. The black-snake, +checked in its course, turned with the constrictor's instinct and +sprang at the boy, whipping its strong coils about one of its +assailant's legs and rearing its head aloft to a level with his face. +The boy but struck and gasped and stumbled over some obstruction, and, +somehow, the snake was wrenched away, and then there was another rush +at it, another rain of blows, and it was hit as had been its mate, and +lay twisting with a broken back. The man dashed through the creek and +came upon the scene with a great stick in his hand, but its use was not +required. The only labor which devolved upon him was to tear away from +his quarry the boy who was possessed of a spirit of rage and vengeance +beyond all reasoning. Upon the heaving, tossing thing, so that he +would have been fairly in its coils had it possessed longer any power, +he leaped, striking fiercely and screaming out all the fearful terms he +knew--what would have been the wildest of all abandonment of profanity +had he but acquired the words for such performance. His father caught +him by the arm, and he struggled with him. It was simply a young +madman. Carried across the creek and held in bonds for a brief period, +he suddenly burst out sobbing, and then went to inspect the ravished +nest where the two old birds hovered mourningly about, and where the +remaining nestlings seemed dead at first, though they subsequently +recovered, so gruesomely had the fascination of their natural enemy +affected them! + +What happened then? What happens when any father and mother have +occasion to consider the matter of a son, a child, bone of their bone +and flesh of their flesh, who has transgressed some rule they have set +up for him wisely, thoughtfully, but with no provision for emotional or +extraordinary contingencies, because it would be useless, since he +could not comprehend exceptions. They took him to the house. The +father looked at him queerly, but with an expression that was far +removed from anger on his face, and his mother took the young man aside +and washed him, and put on another hickory shirt, and told him that his +sparrows would raise a pretty good family after all, and that it +wouldn't be so hard for the old birds to feed three as four. + +Early that same evening a six-foot father strolled over to the place of +the nearest settler, a mile or so away, and the two men walked back, +talking together as neighbors will in a new country, though they do not +so well in cities, and when they reached the creek one of them, the +father, cut a forked twig and lifted the black-snake to its full +length. Its head, raised even with his, allowed its tail to barely +touch the ground. Evidently the men were interested, and evidently one +of them was rather proud of something. But he said nothing to his son +about it. That would, in its full consideration, have involved a +licking of somebody for disobedience of orders. It was a good thing +for the bereaved song-sparrows, though. Older heads than that of the +boy were now considerate of their welfare. Lucky sparrows were they! + +As for the youth, he had, that night, queer dreams, which he remembered +all his life. He was battling with the snakes again, and the fortunes +of war shifted, and there was much trouble until daylight. Then, with +the sun breaking in a blaze upon the clearing, with the ground and +trees flashing forth illuminated dew-drops, with a clangor of thousands +of melodious bird-voices--even the bereaved father song-sparrow was +singing--he was his own large self again, and went forth conquering and +to conquer. He found the murdered nestling stranded down the creek, +and buried it with ceremony. He found both dead invaders, and punched +their foul bodies with a long stick. And he wished a bear would come +and try to take a pig! + +This was the boy. This was the field he grew in, the nature of his +emergence into active entity, and this may illustrate somewhat his +unconscious bent as influenced by early surroundings, while showing +some of the fixed features of heredity, for he came of a battling race. + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +GROWING UP WITH THE COUNTRY. + +Have you ever seen a buckwheat field in bloom? Have you stood at its +margin and gazed over those acres of soft eider-down? Have your +nostrils inhaled the perfume of it all, the heavy sweetness toned +keenly with the whiff of pine from the adjacent wood? Have you noted +the wild bees in countless myriads working upon its surface and +gathering from each tiny flower's heart that which makes the clearest +and purest and most wine-like of all honey? Have you stood at the +forest's edge, perched high upon a fence, maybe of trees felled into a +huge windrow when first the field was cleared, or else of rails of oak +or ash, both black and white--the black ash lasts the longer, for worms +invade the white--and looked upon a field of growing Indian corn, the +green spread of it deep and heaving, and noted the traces of the +forest's tax-collectors left about its margins: the squirrel's dainty +work and the broken stalks and stripped ears upon the ground, leavings +of the old raccoon, the small bear of the forest, knowing enough to +become a friend of man when caught and tamed, and almost human in his +ways, as curious as a scandal-monger and selfish as a money-lender? + +Have you gone into the hard maple wood, the sugar bush, in early +spring, the time of frosty nights and sunny days, and driven home the +gouge and spile, and gathered the flowing sap and boiled it in such +pots and kettles as later pioneers have owned, and gained such +wildwood-scented product as no confectioner of the town may ever hope +to equal? Have you lain beside some pond, a broadening of the creek +above an ancient beaver-dam, at night, in mellowest midsummer, and +watched the muskrats at their frays and feeding? Have you hunted the +common wildcat, short-bodied demon, whose tracks upon the snow are +discernible each winter morning, but who is so crafty, so gifted with +some great art of slyness, that you may grow to manhood with him all +about you, yet never see him in the sinewy flesh unless with dog and +gun, and food and determination, you seek his trail, and follow it +unreasoningly until you terminate the stolid quest with a discovery of +the quarry lying close along the body of some eloping, stunted tree, +and with a lively episode in immediate prospect? Did you ever chase a +wolverine, last of his kind in a clearing-overflowed region, strange +combination in character and form of bear and lynx, gluttonous and +voracious, and strong and fearless, a beast descended almost unchanged +from the time of the earliest cave-men, the horror of the bravest dog, +and end his too uncivilized career with a rifle-shot at thoughtful +distance? + +Have you seen the wild pigeons, before pot-hunters invaded their +southern roosts and breeding-grounds and slaughtered them by millions, +exterminating one of the most wonderful of American game birds, sweep +over in such dense clouds that the sun would be obscured, and at times +so close to earth that a long pole thrust aloft from tree or hillock +would stun such numbers as would make a gallant pot-pie? Have you +followed the deer in the dense forest, clinging doggedly to his track +upon the fresh snow from the dusk of early morning, startling him again +and again from covert, and shooting whenever you caught even so much as +a glimpse of his gray body through distant interstices of tree and +brush, until, late in the afternoon, human endurance, which always +surpasses that of the wild beast, overcame him, and he leaped less +strongly with each new alarm and grew more reckless before twilight, +and came within easy range and fed his enemies on the morrow? Have you +watched for him beside the brackish waters of the lick, where, perched +upon a rude, high scaffold built beside a tree, mosquito-bitten and +uneasy, you waited and suffered, preserving an absolute silence and +immobility until came ghost-like flitting figures from the forest to +the shallow's edge, when the great gun, carrying the superstitious +number of buckshot, just thirteen, roared out, awakening a thousand +echoes of the night, and, clambering down, found a great antlered thing +in its death agony? + +Have you wandered through new clearings neglected for a season and +waded ankle-deep in strawberry blooms, and, later, fed there upon such +scarlet fruit, so fragrant and with such a flavor of its own that the +scientific horticulturist owns to-day his weakness? Have you looked +out upon the flats some bright spring morning and found them +transformed into a shallow lake by the creek's first flood, and seen +one great expanse of shining gold as the sun smote the thin ice made in +the night but to disappear long before mid-day and leave a surface all +ripples and shifting lights and shadows, upon which would come an +occasional splash and great out-extending circles, as some huge mating +pickerel leaped in his glee? Have you stood sometime, in sheer delight +of it, and drawn into distended lungs the air clarified by hundreds of +miles of sweep over an inland sea, the nearest shore not a score of +miles away, and filtered through aromatic forests to your senses, an +invisible elixir, exhilarating, without a headache as the price? Have +you seen the tiger-lilies and crimson Indian-tobacco blossoms flashing +in the lowlands? Have you trapped the mink and, visiting his haunts, +noticed there the old blue crane flitting ever ahead of you through +dusky corridors, uncanny, but a friend? Have you--but there are a +thousand things! + +If you have not seen or known or felt all these fair things--so jumbled +together in the allusion here, without a natural sequence or thought or +reason or any art--if you have not owned them all and so many others +that may not here be mentioned, then you have missed something of the +gifts and glories of growth in a new land. Such experience comes but +to one generation. But one generation grows with the conquest, and it +is a great thing. It is man-making. + +And from the east came more hewers of wood, not drawers of water, and +the axe swung all around, and new clearings were made and earlier ones +broadened, and where fireweed first followed, the burning of the logs +there were timothy and clover, though rough the mowing yet, and the +State was "settled." Roads through the woods showed wagon-ruts, now +well defined; houses were not so far apart, and about them were young +orchards. The wild was being subjugated. The tame was growing. The +boy was growing with it. + +There was nothing particularly novel in the manner of this youth's +development, save that, as he advanced in years, he became almost a +young Indian in all woodcraft, and that the cheap, long, +single-barreled shotgun, which was his first great personal possession, +became, in his skilled hands, a deadly thing. Wild turkey and ruffed +grouse, and sometimes larger game, he contributed to the family larder, +and he had it half in mind to seek the remoter west when he grew older, +and become a mighty hunter and trapper, and a slaughterer of the Sioux. +The Chippewas of his own locality were scarcely to be shot at. Those +remaining had already begun the unpretending life most of them live +to-day, were on good terms with everybody, tanned buckskin admirably, +and he approved of them. With the Sioux it was quite different. He +had read of them in the weekly paper, which was now a part of progress, +and he had learned something of them at the district school--for the +district school had come, of course. It springs up in the United +States after forests have been cut away, just as springs the wheat or +corn. And the district school was, to the youth, a novelty and a vast +attraction. It took him into Society. + +Through forest paths and from long distances in each direction came the +pupils to this first school of the region, and there were perhaps a +score of them in all, boys and girls, and the teacher was a fair young +woman from the distant town. The school-house was a structure of a +single room, built in the wood, and squirrels dropped nuts upon its +roof from overhanging boughs and peeped in at the windows, and +sometimes a hawk would chase a fleeing bird into the place, where it +would find a sure asylum, but create confusion. Once a flock of quail +came marching in demurely at the open door, while teacher and pupils +maintained a silence at the pretty sight. And once the place was +cleared by an invasion of hornets enraged at something. That was a +great day for the boys. + +The studies were not as varied as in the cross-roads schools to-day. +There was the primer, and there were a few of the old Webster +spelling-books, but, while the stories of the boy in the apple tree and +the overweening milkmaid were familiar, the popular spelling-book was +Town's, and the readers were First, Second, Third and Fourth, and their +"pieces" included such classics as "Webster's Reply to Hayne" and +"Thanatopsis," and numerous clever exploits of S. P. Willis in blank +verse. Davie's Arithmetic was dominant, and, as for grammar, whenever +it was taught, Brown's was the favorite. There was, even then, in the +rural curriculum the outlining of that system of the common schools +which has made them of this same region unexcelled elsewhere in all the +world. There were strong men, men who could read the future, +controlling the legislation of some of the new States. + +The studies mentioned, and geography were the duties now in hand, and +there was indifference or hopefulness or rivalry among those of the +little group as there is now in every school, from some new place in +Oklahoma to old Oxford, over seas. In all scholarship, it chanced that +this same boy, Grant Harlson, was easily in the lead. His mother, an +ex-teacher in another and older State, loving, regardful, tactful, had +taught him how to read and comprehend, and he had something of a taste +that way and a retentive memory. So, inside the rugged schoolroom, he +had a certain prestige. Outside, he took his chances. + + + + +CHAPTER V. + +GRIM-VISAGED WAR. + +It has been said that there were some twenty children in the school. +They were of various degrees and fortunes. There were the sons and +daughters of the land-owners, the pioneers, and there were the sons and +daughters of the men who worked for them, mostly the drifting class, +who occupied log houses on unclaimed ground and got flour or meal or +potatoes for their services with the steadier or more masterful. In +the school, though, there were no distinctions on this account. There +were but two measurements of standing among girls and boys together, +their relative importance in their classes, the teacher giving force to +this, and among the boys alone the equation resulting from the issue of +all personal encounter. Boys will be boys, and our fighting +Anglo-Saxon blood will tell. + +There were Harrison Woodell and George Appleton and Frank Hoadly and +Mortimer Butler, among the older boys; and, among the second growth, +though varying somewhat in their ages, were Alf Maitland and Maurice +Shannon and Grant Harlson, and three or four others who ranked with +them. The girls differed more in age, for there were some who aspired +to be teachers, who, if boys, would have been home at work in +summer-time, and some who could come, while very young, since their +older sisters came with them to exercise all needed care. And among +the smaller ones, though not so young as some, was Katie Welwood, a +black-haired, black-eyed, evil-tempered little thing, who was the rage +among the boys. She had smiled upon Grant Harlson, and smiled upon +young Maitland, so early in her years is the female a coquette, and +they looked askance upon each other, though they were the best of +friends. Had they not together defied the big George Appleton, and +vanquished him in running fight, and were they not sworn allies, come +any weal or woe! But woman, even at the age of ten, has ever been the +cause of trouble between males, and those two had, on her account, a +mortal feud. It all came suddenly. There had been certain jealousies +and heartaches caused by the raven-locked young vixen with the winning +eyes, but there had been no outspoken words of anger between these +vassals in her train until there came excuse in other way, for your +country lad is modest, and never admits that his ailing has aught to do +with the grand passion. But there had been a sharp debate over the +proper ownership of a big gray squirrel at which they had shot their +arrows from strong hickory bows together, and, with this excuse for +fuel to the fire already smoldering, there soon came a great flame. +Neither would yield to one he knew in his heart addicted to winning, +villainously, the affections of the young woman, and so they fought. +Unfortunately for Grant, Napoleon was at least in a measure right when +he remarked that Providence always favored the heaviest battalions, and +equally unfortunate for him that Alf, as resolute as he, was just a +little heavier, was as tough of fiber at that stage of their young +careers, and was, in a general way, what a patron of the prize ring +would term the better man. Grant went home licked as thoroughly as any +country boy, not hyper-critical, could ask, and should have felt that +all was lost save honor. But he did not feel that way. He did not +consider honor at greater length than is generally done by any boy of +ten, on the way to eleven, but he did want vengeance. To lose his +siren and a portion of his blood--"-'twas from the nose," as Byron +says--together, was too much for his philosophy. He must have +vengeance! He was no lambkin, and he knew things. He had read the +Swiss Family Robinson. He resolved that on the morrow he would spear +his hated rival and successful adversary! + + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +THE SPEARING OF ALFRED. + +"The spears they carried, though entirely of wood, were dangerous +weapons," says the old writer in describing the armament of a tribe of +the South Sea islanders. "Their points are hardened by being subjected +to fire, and, in the hands of those fierce men, they are as deadly as +the assegai of the African." + +This passage, which he had stumbled upon somewhere, was of deepest +interest to young Harlson. His armament, he felt, was not yet what it +should be. He had arrived at the dignity of a gun, it was true, but +that was quite another thing. What he needed was something especially +adapted for personal encounter and for any knight-errantry which +chanced to offer itself. He had imagined what might occur if he were +with Katie Welwood and they should be assailed by anything or anybody. +He had large ideas of what was a lover's duty, and was under the +impression, from what he had read, that a proper knight should go +always prepared for combat. So he had fashioned him a spear, a +formidable weapon contrived with great exactitude after the South Sea +island recipe. He had gone into the woods and selected a blue beech, +straight as could be found, and nearly an inch in thickness. From this +he had cut a length of perhaps ten feet, which, with infinite labor and +risk of jack-knife, he had whittled down to smoothness and to +whiteness. Upon one end he left as large a head as the sapling would +allow, and this, after shaving it into the fashion of a spear-blade, he +had plunged into the fire until it had begun to char. He had scraped +away the charring with a piece of broken glass, and, as a result of his +endeavors, had really a spear with a point of undoubted sharpness and +great hardness. He took huge pride in his new weapon, and carried it +to school with him for days and on his various woodland expeditions, +but there had come no chance to rescue any distressful maiden anywhere, +and the envy and admiration of the other boys had but resulted in +emulation and in the appearance of similar warlike gear among them. + +He had tired of carrying the thing about, and had for some time left it +peacefully at home, leaning beside the hog-pen. Now all was different. +The time had come! He would have revenge, and have it in a gory way. +As the South Sea islanders treated their foes, his should be treated. +He would go upon the war-path, and as for Alf--well, he was sorry for +him in a general way, but all mercy was dead within his breast +specifically. He remembered something in the reader: + + "'Die! spawn of our kindred! Die! traitor to Lara!' + As he spake, there was blood on the spear of Mudara!" + +There must be blood, and he laid his plans with what he considered the +very height of savage craft and ingenuity. + +The father of Alf was a sturdy man and good one, but he had a weakness. +He was the chief supporter in the neighborhood of the itinerant +minister who exhorted throughout this portion of the country, and he +had imbibed, perhaps, too much of a fancy for hearing himself talk at +revival meetings, and for hearing himself in long prayers at home. His +petitions covered a great range of subjects, and he was regular in +their presentation. The family prayers before breakfast every morning +were serious matters to the boys from one point of view, and not as +serious as they should have been from another. Present, and kneeling +at chairs about the room, they always were on these occasions, for the +order was imperative, and the father's arm was strong, and above the +door hung a strap of no light weight, constituting as it had once done +that portion of a horse's harness known technically as the bellyband. +So the boys were always there, each at his particular chair, and Grant +Harlson, who had been present at these orisons many a time, knew +exactly where Alf's chair was, and the attitude he must occupy. It was +close beside an open window, and his back was always toward the +opening, this particular attitude having been dictated by the father in +the vain hope of making his buoyant offspring more attentive if their +gaze were diverted from things outside. And all these circumstances +the dreadful savage from the South Sea islands was considering with +care. They are very regular in their habits in the country, and he +knew just the moment when the morning devotions would begin--some +fifteen minutes before the breakfast hour. He knew about how long he +would be in traversing the distance between his own house and the scene +of the coming tragedy, and the morning after his resolve was made he +bolted his own breakfast in a hurry, seized his spear, and scurried +down the wood road until he approached the verge of the Maitland +clearing. Then began a series of extraordinary movements. + +Mr. Maitland's house stood close by the wood at one side of the +clearing, and Grant could easily have walked unperceived until within a +few yards of the place, had he but kept hidden by the trees; but such +was not his course. Right across the clearing, and passing near the +house, had been dug a great ditch a yard in depth, a year or two +before, with the intent of draining a piece of lowland lately +subjugated. This ditch had been overgrown with weeds until it was +almost hidden from sight, and now in summer time its bottom was but a +sandy surface. It was with the aid of this natural shelter that the +wily invader proposed to steal upon his enemy. Already he was lurking +near its entrance. + +Just why he had to "lurk" at this particular juncture Grant could not +probably have told. There was not the slightest necessity for lurking. +There were no windows in the side of the house toward him, and no one +was visible about the place, but he knew what he had read, and he knew +that the savages of the South Sea islands were always addicted to +lurking just previous to springing upon their unsuspecting victims, and +he was bound to lurk and do it thoroughly. His manner of lurking +consisted, before he reached the clearing fence, in crouching very low +and creeping along in a most constrained and uncomfortable manner, +occasionally dropping to the ground slowly and with utter noiselessness +and rising again with equal caution. All this time the face of the +young man wore what he conceived to be an expression of most bloody +purpose craftily concealed. Upon reaching the fence, he shot his head +above it, and withdrew it with lightning-like rapidity, frightening +almost into convulsions, in her nest, a robin whose home was between +the rails in the immediate vicinity. Of course he could have looked +through the fence with greater ease, but that would have involved no +such dramatic effect. His sudden view of the landscape taken, the boy +climbed the fence, ran to the dry ditch, parted the overhanging weeds +and leaped down. Once in the dry waterway, he was utterly concealed +from view, even had any one been near; but that made no difference with +his precautions. He knew that after savages had lurked, they always +glided, and that what the writers describe as "a snake-like motion" was +something absolutely essential. + +Spear in hand and creeping on his hands and knees, the destroyer +advanced along the drain, lying flat and wriggling with much patience +wherever a particularly clear stretch of sand presented itself. Half +way across the field he raised his head with a movement so slow that a +full minute was occupied in the performance, parted the weeds gently +and peered out to get his bearings and ascertain if any foemen were in +sight. There were no foemen, and his progress had been satisfactory. +The remainder of the desperate advance was made with no less adroitness +and success. At last there fell upon the ear of the avenger the sound +of a human voice. He was close to the house, and the morning exercises +had begun! + +Here was the moment for the exhibition of all South Sea island craft, +and the moment was about at hand, too, for exhibition of the full +measure of a South Sea islander's ferocity! The islander glided from +the ditch, crept to the house and slowly put forth his head until he +could see around the corner. There, within three feet of him, back to +the window, kneeling beside his chair, was Alf, ostensibly paying deep +attention to his father's unctuous and sonorous sentences, though +really, as Grant could see, engaged in flicking kernels of corn at his +brother in another corner. His jeans trousers were, as a result of his +present attitude, drawn tightly across that portion of his body nearest +to the window, and never fairer mark was offered savage spear! Not a +moment did the avenger hesitate. He poised his weapon, took deadly +aim, and lunged! + +Never was quiet of a summer morning broken more suddenly and +startlingly. A yell so loud, so wild, so blood-curdling, ascended from +within the farm-house, that even nature seemed to shiver for a moment. +Then came the rush of feet and the clamor of many voices. Out of doors +ran all the household, the father included, so appalling had been Alf's +cry of apparently mortal agony, to learn the source of all the trouble. +There was nothing to be seen. Not a living being was in sight. It +dawned upon the elders gradually that nothing very serious had +occurred, and the father and the females of the household went in to +breakfast, the exercises of the morning not being now renewed, while +Alf and his brother scoured the wood. Upon one leg of Alf's jeans +trousers appeared an artistic dab of red. He had been wounded, and for +days the sitting down and the uprising of him would be acts of care. + +And where was the South Sea islander? Almost as he lunged he had +leaped backward around the corner of the house and run for the covered +ditch. Once in that covert, he did not "lurk" to any great extent. He +crawled away as rapidly as his hands and knees would carry him, +reasoning that the boys would, upon finding no one near the house, run +naturally to the wood in search of the enemy. They never thought of +the old ditch, though, later in the day, the thing occurred to them, +and an examination of the sandy bottom told the story. The edge of the +field was reached, the islander lying very low until he could climb the +fence in safety. Then he examined his fatal spear-point. It appeared +incarnadined. There was certainly blood on the spear of Mudara! + +A week later Alf caught Grant, and, despite another valiant struggle, +licked him mercilessly. A year later the fortunes of war had turned +the other way. As they grew, these boys, like race-horses +well-matched, passed each other, physically, time and again, one now +surging to the front and then another, with no great difference at any +time between them. + +CHAPTER VII. + +HOW FICTION MADE FACT. + +What may become a streak of proper modern chivalry in the man is but a +fantastic imagining in the boy. Some one has said that but for the +reading of "Ivanhoe" in the South, there would have been no war of the +rebellion, that the sentiment of knightliness and desire to uphold +opinions in material encounter was so fostered by the presence of the +book in thousands of households that, when the issue came, a majority +was for war which might have been otherwise inclined under more +practical teaching. This may or may not have been the case. There +would be nothing strange in it were the theory correct; the influence +of great novels is always underrated; but certain it is that the +reading of the age influences much the youth, and that many a bent of +mind is made by the books that lie about the house when some strong +young intellect is forming. So with this boy. The same force which +made of him a great savage marauder of the South Sea islands, though +modified by a keener perception and a broader intelligence, affected +him as he grew older. There were a few books available to him; and +what a reader he was, and what a listener! His father would sometimes +read aloud at night from current weeklies, and then the boy would +sprawl along the floor, his feet toward the great fireplace, his head +upon a rolled-up sheepskin, and drink in every word. "East Lynne" was +running as a serial then, and he would have given all his worldly +possessions to have had Sir Francis Levison alone in the wood, and had +his spear, and at his back some half-dozen of the boys whom he could +name. In some publication, too, at about that time, appeared the tale +of the adventures of Captain Gardiner and Captain Daggett in antarctic +wastes, seeking the sea-lions' skins, and the story of pluckiness and +awful trial affected his imagination deeply. Years afterward, when he +himself was at death's portal once, because of a grievous injury, and +when ice was bound upon his head to keep away the fever from his brain, +he imagined in his delirium that he was Captain Gardiner, and called +aloud the orders to the crew which he had heard read when a boy, and +which had so long lain in his memory's storehouse among the +unconsidered lumber. + +The boy's reading included all there was in his home, and the small +collection was not a bad one. "Chambers' Miscellany" was in the +accidental lot, and good for him it was. "Chambers' Miscellany" is +better reading than much that is given to the world to-day, and the boy +rioted in the adventure-flavored tales and sketches. Scott's poetical +works were there, and Shakespeare, but the latter was read only for the +story of the play, and "Titus Andronicus" outranked even "Hamlet" among +the tragedies. As for Scott, the stirring rhymes had marked effect, +and this had one curious sequence. Tales of the lance and tilting have +ever captivated boys, and Grant was no exception. Alf did not read so +much, was of a nature less imaginative, and his younger brother, +Valentine, read not at all, but among them was enacted a great scene of +chivalry which ended almost in a tragedy. Grant, his mind absorbed in +jousting and its laurels, explained the thing to Alf and induced him to +read the tales of various encounters. Alf was more or less affected by +the literature and ready to do his share toward making each of them a +proper warrior fit for any fray. They considered the situation with +much earnestness, and concluded that the only way to joust was to +joust, and that Valentine should act as marshal of the occasion, for a +marshal at a tourney, they discovered, was a prime necessity. As for +coursers, barbs, destriers, or whatever name their noble steeds might +bear, they had no choice. There were but a couple of clumsy farm mares +available to them, and these the knights secured, their only equipments +being headstalls abstracted from the harness in the barn, while the +course fixed upon was a meadow well out of sight from the houses and +the eyes of the elders. Valentine was instructed in his duties, +particularly in the manner of giving the word of command. _Laissez +aller_, as found in "Ivanhoe," Grant did not understand, but a passage +from "The Lady of the Lake": + + "Now, gallants! for your ladies' sake, + Upon them with the lance!" + +seemed to answer every purpose, and Valentine was instructed to commit +it to memory, as the event proved, with but indifferent success. He +comprehended, in a vague way, that the warriors were to do battle for +the honor of their true loves, but, at the critical moment, the lines +escaped him and he had to improvise. The lances were rake-handles, +and, as this was not to be a fray _a l'outrance_, about the end of each +formidable weapon was wadded and tied an empty flour bag. + +The unwilling, lumbering mares were brought upon the ground, and +Valentine held the headstall reins while a preliminary ceremony was +performed, for your perfect knight omits no courteous detail. Gloves +were unknown about the farm, but Grant drew from his pocket a buckskin +mitten, and with it slapped Alf suddenly in the face. It was to be +regretted that the aggressor had somewhat exaggerated the mediaeval +glove idea, and had not previously explained to Alf that to fling one's +glove in a foeman's face was one proper form of deadly insult preceding +mortal combat, for, ignoring lances, steeds and all about them, the +assailed personage immediately "clinched," and the boys rolled over in +a struggle, earnest, certainly, but altogether commonplace. It was +with the greatest difficulty, while defending himself, that Grant was +enabled to explain that his act was one rendered necessary by the laws +of chivalry and a part of the preliminaries of the occasion, instead of +an attack in cold blood upon an unwarned adversary. Alf accepted the +apology gloweringly, and manifested great anxiety to secure his lance, +and mount. It was evident the encounter would be deadly. + +Some hundred yards apart, with the perplexed, astonished old mares +facing each other, sat the warriors in their saddles, or, rather, in +the place where their saddles would have been had they possessed them. +Each grasped the headstall reins firmly in his left hand, and with his +right aimed his top-heavy lance in a somewhat wobbling manner at his +adversary. It must soon be known to all the world of knighthood which +was the grimmer champion! At middle distance and well to one side, +stood Grand Marshal Valentine, racking his brains for the lines which +should give the signal for the shock, but all in vain. Desperation +gave him inspiration. "Let 'er go for your girls!" he roared. + +Never, even in the gentle and joyous passage of arms at Ashby, or on +the Field of the Cloth of Gold, was afforded a more thrilling spectacle +than when these two paladins rushed to the onset and met in mid-career. +Each gave a yell and dug his heels into his charger, and whacked her +with the butt end of his lance, and forced her into a ponderous gallop +for the meeting. It matters not now what was the precise intent of +either jouster, which of them aimed at gorget or head-piece, or at +shield, for--either because the flour bags made the lances difficult to +manage or of some unevenness in the ground--each missed his enemy in +the encounter! Not so the two old mares! They came together with a +mighty crash and rolled over in a great cloud of dust and grass and +mane and tail and boy and spear and flour-bag! + +There is a providence that looks after reckless youth especially, else +there would have been broken bones, or worse; but out of the confusion +two warriors scrambled to their feet, dazed somewhat and dirty, but +unharmed, and two old mares floundered into their normal attitude a +little later, evidently much disgusted with the entire proceeding. And +Valentine, grand marshal, who had chanced to have a little difficulty +with his elder brother the day before, promptly awarded the honors of +the tournament to Grant on the ground that old Molly, the horse ridden +by Alfred, seemed a little more shaken up than the other. + +Of course there were other books than those of chivalric doings which +appealed to this young reader so addicted to putting theory into +practice at all risks. "Robinson Crusoe," and Byron, and D'Aubigne's +"History of the Reformation," and "Midshipman Easy," and "Snarleyow," +and the "Woman in White," "John Brent," and Josephus, and certain old +readers, such as the American First Class Book, made up the odd country +library, and there was not a book in the lot which was not in time +devoured. There was another book, a romance entitled "Don Sebastian," +to which at length a local tragedy appertained. The scene was laid in +Spain or Portugal and the hero of the story was a very gallant +character, indeed, one to be relied upon for the accomplishment of +great slaughter in an emergency, but who was singularly unlucky in his +love affair, in the outcome of which Grant became deeply interested, +too deeply, as the event proved. Upon the country boy of eleven or +twelve devolve always, in a new country, certain responsibilities not +unconnected with the great fuel question,--the keeping of the wood-box +full,--and these duties, in the absorption of the novel, the youth +neglected shamefully. A casual allusion or two, followed by a direct +announcement of what must come, had been entirely lost upon him, and, +one day, as he was lying by the unreplenished fire, deep in the pages +of the book, the volume was lifted gently from his hands, and, to his +horror, dropped upon the blazing coals against the back-log. Many +things occurred to him in later life of the sort men would avoid, but +never came much greater mental shock than on that black occasion. +Stunned, dazed, he went outside and threw himself upon the grass and +tried to reason out what could be done. Was he never to know the fate +of Don Sebastian? It was beyond endurance! A cheap quality of +literature the book was, no doubt, but he was not critical at that age, +and in later years he often sought the volume out of curiosity to learn +what in his boyhood had entranced him, but he never found it. It was a +small, fat volume, very like a pocket Bible in shape, bound cheaply in +green cloth, and printed in England, probably somewhere in the '30's, +but it had disappeared. The bereaved youth was, henceforth, in as sore +a retrospective strait over "Don Sebastian" as Mr. Andrew Lang declares +he is, to-day, with his "White Serpent" story. + +Byron--"Don Juan," in particular--had an effect upon the youth, and +"The Prisoner of Chillon" gave him dreams. "Snarleyow" was the book, +though, which struck him as something great in literature. The demon +dog tickled his fancy amazingly. He was somewhat older when he read +"Jane Eyre" and "John Brent," and could recognize a little of their +quality, but "Snarleyow" came to him at an age when there was nothing +in the world to equal it. + +Meanwhile the whole face of nature was changing, and the boy was +necessarily keeping up with the procession of new things. Broad +meadows were where even he, a mere boy still, had seen dense woodland; +there were highways, and it was far from the farmhouse door to the +forests edge. The fauna had diminished. The bear and wolverine had +gone forever. The fox rarely barked at night; the deer and wild turkey +were far less plentiful, though the ruffed grouse still drummed in the +copses, and the quail whistled from the fences. Different, even, were +the hunters in their methods. The boy, whose single-barreled shot-gun +had known no law, now carried a better piece, and scorned to slay a +sitting bird. Both he and Alf became great wing shots, and clever +gentlemen sportsmen from the city who sometimes came to hunt with them +could not hope to own so good a bag at the day's end. Wise as to dogs +and horses were they, too, and keen riders at country races. And +ridges of good muscles stiffened now their loins, and their chests were +deepening, and at "raisings," when the men and boys of the region +wrestled after their work was done, the two were not uncounted. For +them the country school had accomplished its mission. The world's +geography was theirs. Grammar they had memorized, but hardly +comprehended. As for mathematics, they were on the verge of algebra. +Then came the force of laws of politics and trade, a shifting of +things, and Grant strode out of nature to learn the artificial. His +family was removed to town. + +Western, or rather Northwestern, town life, when the town has less than +ten thousand people, varies little with the locality. There is the +same vigor everywhere, because conditions are so similar. It is odd, +too, the close resemblance all through the great lake region in the +local geography of the towns. Small streams run into larger ones, and +these in turn enter the inland seas, or the straits, called rivers, +which connect them. Where the small rivers enter the larger ones, or +where the larger enter the straits or lakes, men made the towns. These +were the water cross-roads, the intersections of nature's highways, and +so it comes that to so many of these towns there is the great blue +water front intersected at its middle by a river. There is a bridge in +the town's main street, and the smell of water is ever in the air. +Boys learn to swim like otters and skate like Hollanders, and their +sisters emulate them in the skating, though not so much in the swimming +as they should. There is a life full of great swing. The touch +between the town and country is exceedingly close, and the country +family which comes to the community blends swiftly with the current. +So with the family of Grant Harlson and so with him personally. A year +made him collared and cravatted, short-cropped of hair, mighty in +high-school frays, and with a new ambition stirring him, of a quality +to compare with that of one Lucifer of unbounded reputation and +doubtful biography. There was something beyond all shooting and riding +and wrestling fame and the breath of growing things. There was another +world with reachable prizes and much to feed upon. He must wear +medals, metaphorically, and eat his fill, in time. + +The high-school is really the first telescope through which a boy so +born and bred looks fairly out upon this planet. The astronomer who +instructs him is often of just the sort for the labor, a being also +climbing, one not to be a high-school principal forever, but using this +occupation merely as a stepping-stone upon his ascending journey. If +he be conscientious, he instils, together with his information that all +Gaul is divided and that a parasang is not something to eat, also the +belief that the game sought is worth the candle, and that hard study is +not wasted time. Such a teacher found young Harlson; such a teacher +was Professor--they always call the high-school principal "Professor" +in small towns--Morgan, and he took an interest in the youth, not the +interest of the typical great educator, but rather that of an older and +aspiring jockey aiding a younger one with his first mount, or of a +railroad engineer who tells his fireman of a locomotive's moods and +teaches him the tricks of management. They might help each other some +day. Well equipped, too, was Morgan for the service. No shallow +graduate of some mere diploma-manufactory, but one who believed in the +perfection of means for an end,--an advocate of thoroughness. + +So it came that for four years Grant Harlson studied +feverishly,--selfishly might be almost the word,--such was the impulse +that moved him under Morgan's teaching, and so purely objective all his +reasoning. In his vacations he hunted, fished, and developed the more +thews and sinews, and acquired new fancies as to whether an Irish +setter or a Gordon made the better dog with woodcock, and upon various +other healthful topics, but his main purpose never varied. In his +classes there were fair girls, and in high-schools there is much callow +gallantry; but at this period of his life he would have none of it. He +was not timid, but he was absorbed. Morgan told him one day that he +was ready for college. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. + +NEW FORCES AT WORK. + +"You will be kind enough, sir, to write upon the blackboard two +couplets: + + "'What do you _think_ + I'll shave you for nothing and _give you a drink_.' + +"And + + "'_What_ do you think + I'll shave you for _nothing_ and give you a drink.' + +"You will observe that, while the wording is the same, the inflection +is different. Please punctuate them properly, and express the idea I +intend to convey." + +This from a professor, keen-eyed and unassuming in demeanor, to a big, +long-limbed young fellow, facing, with misgivings despite himself, a +portion of the test of whether or not he were qualified for admission +as a freshman into one of our great modern universities. He had not +been under much apprehension until the moment for the beginning of the +trial. There was now to be met the first issue in the new field. He +plunged into his task. + +Then the professor: + +"Well, yes, you have caught my idea. How write upon the board: 'This +is the forest primeval,' and a dozen lines or so following, from this +slip. Scan that for me; parse it; show me the relations of words and +clauses, and all that sort of thing." + +A pause; some only half-confident explanation, and enlargement upon the +subject by the young man. + +The professor again: + +"H-u-u-m--well--now you may write--no, you needn't--just tell me the +difference, in your opinion, between what are known as conjunctions and +prepositions. Say what you please. We ask no odds of them. Be +utterly free in your comment." + +More explanations by the young man. The professor: "We'll not pursue +that subject. You might tell us, incidentally, what a trochaic foot +is?--Yes.--And who wrote that 'Forest primeval' you just +scanned?--Certainly--That will do, I think. Oh, by the way, who was +Becky Sharp?--The most desirable woman in 'Vanity Fair,' eh? I may be +half inclined to agree with you, but I was asking who, not what. Good +afternoon. You have passed your examination in English literature. I +trust you may be equally successful in other departments. Good +afternoon, sir." + +And this was all from a professor whose name was known on more than one +continent and who was counted one of the greatest of educators. Such +was his test of what of English literature was required in a freshman. +A lesser man than this great teacher would have taken an hour for the +task and learned less, for, after all, did not the examination cover +the whole ground? The droll range of the inquiry was such that the +questioner had gauged, far better than by some more ponderous and +detailed system, the quality of the young man's knowledge in one field. +One of the strong teachers this, one not afraid of a departure, and one +of those who, within the last quarter of a century, have laid the +foundations of new American universities deep and wide, and given to +the youth facilities for a learning not creed-bound, nor school-bound, +but both liberal and of all utility. + +It was well for the particular freshman whose examination is here +described that his first experience with a professor was with such a +man. It gave confidence, and set him thinking. With others of the +examiners he did not, in each instance, fare so happily. What +thousands of men of the world there are to-day who remember with +something like a shudder still the inquisition of Prof. ----, whose +works on Greek are text-books in many a college; or the ferocity of +Prof. ----, to whom calculus was grander than Homer! But the woes of +freshmen are passing things. + +What Grant Harlson did in college need not be told at any length. He +but plucked the fruit within his reach, not over-wisely in some +instances, yet with some industry. He had, at least, the intelligence +to feel that it is better to know all of some things than a little of +all things, and so surpassed, in such branches as were his by gift and +inclination, and but barely passed in those which went against the +mental grain. + +It may be the professor of English literature had something to do with +this. Between Grant and him there grew up a friendship somewhat +unusual under all the circumstances. One day the professor was +overtaken by the student upon a by-way of the campus, and asked some +questions regarding certain changed hours of certain recitations, and, +having answered, detained the questioner carelessly in general +conversation. The elder became interested--perhaps because it was a +relief to him to talk with such a healthy animal--and, at the +termination of the interview, invited him to call. There grew up +rapidly, binding these two, between whose ages a difference of twenty +years existed, a friendship which was never broken, and which doubtless +affected to an extent the student's ways, for he at least accepted +suggestions as to studies and specialties. This relationship resulted +naturally in transplanting to the mind of the youth some of the fancies +and, possibly, the foibles of the man. One incident will illustrate. + +The student, during a summer vacation, had devoted himself largely to +the copying of Macaulay's essays, for, in his teens, one is much +impressed by the rolling sentences of that great writer. Upon his +return Harlson told of his summer not entirely wasted, and expressed +the hope that he might have absorbed some trifle of the writer's style. + +The professor of English literature laughed. + +"Better have taken Carlyle's 'French Revolution' or any one of half a +dozen books which might be named. Let me tell a little story. Some +time ago a fellow professor of mine was shown by a Swedish servant girl +in his employ a letter she had just written, with the request that he +would correct it. He found nothing to correct. It was a wonderfully +clear bit of epistolary literature. He was surprised, and questioned +the girl. He learned that, though well educated, she knew but little +English, and had sought the dictionary, revising her own letter by +selecting the shortest words to express the idea. Hence the letter's +strength and clearness. Stick to the Saxon closely. Macaulay will +wear off in time." And this was better teaching than one sometimes +gets in class. + +This is no tale of the inner life of an American university. It is but +a brief summary of young Harlson's ways there. But some day, I hope, a +Thomas Hughes will come who will write the story, which can be made as +healthful as "Tom Brown," though it will have a different flavor. What +a chance for character study! What opportunity for an Iliad of many a +gallant struggle! Valuable only in a lesser degree than what is +learned from books is what is learned from men in college, that is, +from young men, and herein lies the greater merit of the greater place. +In the little college, however high the grade of study, there is a lack +of one thing broadening, a lack of acquaintance with the youth of many +regions. The living together of a thousand hailing from Maine or +California, or Oregon or Florida, or Canada or England, young men of +the same general grade and having the same general object, is a great +thing for them all. It obliterates the prejudice of locality, and +gives to each the key-note of the region of another. It builds up an +acquaintance among those who will be regulating a land's affairs from +different vantage-grounds in years to come, and has its most practical +utility in this. When men meet to nominate a President this fact comes +out most strongly. The man from Texas makes a combination with the man +from Michigan, and two delegations swing together, for have not these +two men well known each other since the day their classes met in a rush +upon the campus twenty years ago? + +No studious recluse was Harlson. His backwoods training would not +allow of that. In every class encounter, in every fray with townsmen, +it is to be feared in almost every hazing, after his own gruesome +experience--for they hazed then vigorously--he was a factor, and +beefsteak had been bound upon his cheek on more than one occasion. A +rollicking class was his, though not below the average in its +scholarship, and the sometimes reckless mood of it just suited him. +"There were three men of Babylon, of Babylon, of Babylon." + +There is what some claim is an aristocracy in American colleges. It is +asserted that the leading Greek fraternities are this, and that the +existence of Alpha Delta Phi, Psi Upsilon or Delta Kappa Epsilon, or +others of the secret groups, is not a good thing for the students as a +whole. Yet in the existence of these societies is forged another of +the links of life to come outside, and all the good things to be gained +in college are not the ratings won in classes. Harlson was one of +those with badges and deep in college politics. He never had occasion +to repent it. + +And so, with study, some rough encounter and much scheming and much +dreaming, time passed until the world outside loomed up again at close +quarters. The present view was a new struggle. The great money +question intervened. There had come a blight upon his father's dollar +crop, and when Grant Harlson left the university he was so nearly +penniless that the books he owned were sold to pay his railroad fare. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +MRS. POTIPHAR. + +It must have been some person aged, say, twenty, who expressed to Noah +the opinion that there wasn't going to be much of a shower. At twenty +tomorrow is ever a clear day, and notes are easy things to meet, and +friends and women are faithful, and Welsh rarebit is digestible, and +sleep is rest, and air is ever good to breathe. Grant Harlson was not +particularly troubled by the condition of his finances. That the money +available had lasted till his schooling ended, was, at least, a good +thing, and, as for the future, was it not his business to attend to +that presently? Meanwhile he would dawdle for a week or two. + +So the young man stretched his big limbs and lounged in hammocks and +advised or domineered over his sisters, as the case might be, and read +in a desultory way, and fished and shot, and ate with an appetite which +threatened to bring famine to the family. Your lakeside small town is +a fair place in July. He would loaf, he said, for a week or two. The +loafing was destined to have character, perhaps to change a character. + +There had come to Harlson in college, as to most young men, occasional +packages from home, and in one of these he had found a pretty thing, a +man's silk tie, worked wonderfully in green and gold, and evidently the +product of great needlecraft. It was to his fancy, and he had thought +to thank whichever of his sisters had wasted such time upon him, but +had forgotten it when next he wrote, and so the incident had passed. + +One day, wearing this same tie, he bethought him of his negligence +lying supine on the grass, while his sister Bess was meanwhile reading +in the immediate vicinity. He would be grateful, as a brother should. + +"I say, Bess," he called, "I forgot to write about this tie and thank +you. Which of you did it?" + +Bess looked up, interested. + +"I thought I wrote you when I sent the other things. None of us did +it. It was Mrs. Rolfston." + +"Mrs. Rolfston?" + +"Certainly. She was here one day, when we were making up a lot of +things for you, and said that she'd make something herself to go with +the next lot. A week or two later she brought me that tie, and I +inclosed it. Pretty, isn't it?" + +"Very pretty." + +The young man on the grass was thinking. + +He knew Mrs. Rolfston slightly; knew her as the wife of a well-to-do +man who saw but little of her husband. + +Daughter of a poor man of none too good character in the little town, +she had grown up shrewd, self-possessed, and with much animal beauty. +At twenty she had married a man of fifty, a builder of steamboats, a +red-faced, riotous brute, who had bought her as he would buy a horse, +and to whom she went easily because she wanted the position money +gives. Within a week he had disgusted her to such an extent that she +almost repented of the bargain. Within a year, he had tired of her and +was openly unfaithful in every port upon the lakes, a vigorous, lawless +debauchee. His ship-building was done in a distant port, and he rarely +visited his wife. He rather feared her, mastiff as he was, for here +was the keener intelligence, and her moods, at times, were desperate as +his. So he furnished her abundant income and was content to let it go +at that. It pleased her, also, to have it that way. + +Harlson thought of the woman, and wondered somewhat. Black-haired, +black-eyed, white-skinned, deep of bust and with a graceful and +powerful swing of movement, she was a woman, physically considered, not +of the common herd. She was a lioness, yet not quite the grand lioness +of the desert. She lacked somewhat of dignity and grandeur of +countenance, and had more of alertness and of craft. She was, though +dark, more like the tawny beast of the Rocky Mountains, the California +lion, as that great cougar is called, supple, full of moods and +passion, and largely cat-like. She had filled his eye casually. Why +had she sent him the tie, the silken thing in green and gold? + +He thought and pulled his long limbs together and rose till he was +sitting, and decided that it was but courteous, but his duty as a +gentleman, to wander over to her house and thank her for her +remembrance of him. It was but an expression of good will toward the +family generally, this little act of hers; he knew that, but it was a +personal matter, after all, and he should thank her. It was well to be +thoughtful, to attend to the small amenities, and it took him more than +the usual time to dress. His apparently careless summer garb required +the adjustment of an expert here and there. He was an hour in the +doing of it. When he emerged he was not, taken in a comprehensive way, +bad-looking. He was clear-faced, strong-featured and of stalwart build. + +The ordinary man he would not have feared in any meeting; of the woman +he was about to meet he had some apprehension. He knew her quality, +but--she had worked for him a tie! He went up the broad path to the +doorway, between flowers and trees and shrubbery. It was three o'clock +in the afternoon, and he would find her alone, he thought, for chances +of calls are not so great in the smaller towns as in the cities; there +is an average to be maintained, and Mrs. Jones or Mrs. Smith does not +receive on days particularized. He was compelled to wait in the parlor +but a moment. She came in, and he saw her for the first time in two +years. + +What a gift women have in producing physical effects upon the creature +male, no matter what the woman's status. Mrs. Rolfston came in with a +look of half inquiry on her face and with a presentation of herself +which was perfect in its way. She wore some soft and fluffy dress--a +man cannot describe a garb in detail--with that lace-surrounded +triangular bareness upon the bosom just below the chin which is as +irreproachable as it is telling. There was a relation between the +swing of her drapery and, the movements of her body. She was rich of +figure, and flexile. And she was glad to see Mr. Harlson, and said so. +He was not really embarrassed. The time had passed when that could be +his way. But he was puzzled as to what to say. Some comment he made +upon the quality of the season and upon Mrs. Rolfston's appearance of +good health. Then he entered upon his subject with no link of +connection with preceding sentences. "I but learned to-day," he said, +"that the tie I wear was made by you. All fellows have little fancies, +I suppose. I have, anyhow. I liked this, though I did not know who +made it. My sister told me, and I have come to thank you. Why did you +do it for me?" + +That was putting the case plainly enough, certainly, and promptly +enough, but it was not of a nature to trouble Mrs. Rolfston. This was +a clever woman, married ten years, and of experiences which varied. +She even glanced over the visitor from head to heel before she +answered, and her color deepened and her eyes brightened, though he did +not note it. + +"You have changed," she commented. "I should hardly have known you but +for your lips and eyes. You are broader and taller, and a big man, are +you not? How long do you stay in town? Will you spend the summer +here?" + +"I wish I could," he answered. "It is pleasant here, but I must work, +you know. I may idle for a little time. You haven't said anything +about the tie." + +"Oh, the tie? Don't speak of that. I had the whim to make something +for somebody--I have an embroidering mania on me sometimes--and there +was a chance to dispose of it, you see." + +The young man's face fell a little as he looked upon the great, +handsome woman and heard her seemingly careless words. He did not want +to go away, yet what excuse was there for staying? He rose, hat in +hand. + +Here, now, was the woman in a quandary. She had not anticipated such +abruptness. + +"Don't go yet," she said, impetuously. "I want to talk with you. Tell +me all about the college, and yourself, and your plans. And---about +the tie--I wouldn't have made one for any one else. I remembered your +face. You know I was go often at your home, and I wondered how it +would suit you. You should take that interest as a compliment. And I +am lonesome here, and you are idling, you say, and why should we not be +good friends for the summer? The men in town annoy me, and the girls +here are not bright enough for you. Let us be cronies, will you not? +Take me fishing to-morrow. I want you to teach me how to catch bass in +the river. I heard some one say once you knew better than any one else +how that is done. Is not this a good idea of mine? It will help both +of us kill time." + +She sat there on the sofa, half stretched out, yet not carelessly nor +ungracefully, but in an assumed laziness of real felinishness, a woman +just ten years older than the man she was addressing, yet in all the +lushness of magnificent womanhood, and emanating all magnetism. + +Harlson said he would call for her and that they would go fishing. And +they went. + +The light is tawny upon the lily-pods in shady places on the river. +And rods, such as are used for bass, are light upon the wrist, and, in +the lazy hours of mid-afternoon, when bass bite rarely, demand but +slight attention. And two people idling in a boat get very close in +thought together and come soon to know each other well. And a ruthless +young man of twenty and a tempestuous woman of thirty are as the +conventional tow and tinder. + +And there were books she had never read in Mrs. Rolfston's library--for +she was not a woman of books--which interested Harlson, and it was +easier to read them there than take them home. And Mrs. Rolfston +waited upon him--how gifted is a woman of thirty--and he felt bands +upon him, and liked it, and would not reason to himself concerning it. + +And one night, late, came a panting servant--Mrs. Rolfston had no men, +only two women domestics, with her in her home--to say that her +mistress had heard some one evidently attempting to open a window on +the piazza, and that they were all in fear of their lives, and that she +had fled out of the back way to ask Mr. Harlson the elder, or his son, +to come over at once and look around. + +The father laughed, and said that, had there been a burglar, he must +have fled already, and the young man, laughing too, said that some one +must go anyhow, in all courtesy to defenseless women, and that if Mrs. +Rolfston feared for her front porch, he would lie upon a blanket in the +lawn beside it to set her mind at rest. He had not slept beneath the +stars alone, he said, since the family had left the farm. And there +was much laughing, and Harlson took home the servant girl, and she, +growing bold as they approached the house, ran up the path ahead of +him. The lawn between the better house and street in the lake country +town is often a little forest, so dense the trees and their foliage. +And added to the fragrance of the leaves in later midsummer are the +mingled odors of petunias and pinks and rosemary and bergamot and musk, +for all these flourish late. And the moon comes through the tree-tops +in splashes, and there is a softness and a shade, and it is all like a +scented garden in some old Arabian story, and the senses are affected +and, maybe, the reason. Harlson went up the path, half dreaming, yet +alive in every vein. There was no burglar visible, but a wonderful +woman, in fleecy dishabille, was sure she had heard a sound most +sinister, and endangered women must be guarded of the strong. + +And Grant Harlson returned not home that night; yet the moon, shining +through the trees, revealed no form upon a blanket in the garden. + +And the summer days drifted by; and the young man fresh from college, +full of ambitions and dreams, found himself a creature he had never +known, a something conscience-stricken, yet half-abandoned, and with a +leaden weight upon his feet to keep them from carrying him away from +the temptation. + +He would force himself to a solitary day at times, and go out into the +country with dog and gun, and tramp for miles, and wonder at himself. +He had all sorts of fancies. He thought of his wickedness and his +wasted time, and compared himself with the great men in the books who +had been in similar evil straits,--with Marc Antony, with King Arthur +in Gwendolen's enchanted castle, and with Geraint the strong but +slothful,--rather far-fetched this last comparison,--and of all the +rest. It was a grotesque variety, but amid it all he really suffered. +And he would make good resolves and, for the moment, firm ones, and +return to town when the dew was falling and the moonlight coming, and +the tale was but retold. And the woman was wise, as women are, and +conscienceless, yet suffering a little, too. + +She had found more than a summer's toy, and she had grown to fear the +great boy in his moods, and to want to keep him, and to doubt the +measure of her art. This must be a hard thing, too, for such splendid +pirates to bear. They may not even scuttle all the craft they capture. + +And the root of all evil is sometimes the root of all good. The dollar +pulls all ways. Harlson must earn his way. One day his father dropped +a chance word regarding some one, miles in the country, who wanted a +fence built inclosing a tract out of the wood. It was isolated work, a +task of a month or two for a strong man, a mere laborer. Young Harlson +became interested. + +"Why shouldn't I try it?" he asked. + +His father laughed. + +"It's work for a toughened man, my boy. You have softened with six +years of only study." + +The boy laughed as well. + +"You needn't fear," he said. "All strength is not attained upon a +farm, and I want to swing an ax and maul again." + +And that day he set out afoot for the home of the man who needed a +fence. He told Mrs. Rolfston briefly. She paled a trifle, but made no +objection. He said he would make visits to the town. + + + + +CHAPTER X. + +THE BUILDING OF THE FENCE. + +An ax, a maul, a yoke of oxen; these are the great requisites for him +who would build a rail fence through a forest. Grant Harlson made the +bargain for the work, hired a yoke of oxen, as you may do in the +country, and secured the right to eat plain food three times a day at +the cabin of a laborer. A bed he could not have, but the right to +sleep in a barn back in the field, and there also to house his oxen for +the night, was given him. He slept upon the hay-mow. He went into the +forest and began his work. The wood was dense, and what is known all +through the region as a black ash swale, lowland which once reclaimed +from nature makes, with its rich deposits, a wondrous meadow-land. He +"lined" the fence's course and cleared the way rudely through the +forest, a work of days, and then he made the maul. + +The mace of the mediaeval knight is the maul of to-day. No longer it +cracks heads or helmets, but there is work for it. And it has +developed into a mighty weapon. There are two sorts of maul in the +lake country. As the stricken eagle is poetically described as +supplying the feather for the arrow by which itself was hurt to death, +the trees furnish forth the thing to rend them. Upon the side of the +curly maple, aristocrat of the sugar bush, grows sometimes a vast wart. +This wart has neither rhyme nor reason. It has no grain defined. It +is twisted, convoluted, a solid, tough and heavy mass, and hard, +almost, as iron. It is sawed away from the trunk with much travail, +and is seasoned well, and from it is fashioned a great head, into which +is set a hickory handle, and the thing will crush a rock if need be. +This is the maul proper. + +There is another maul, or mace, made from a cut of heavy iron-wood, a +foot in length and half a foot in thickness, with the hickory handle +set midway between iron bands, sprung on by the country blacksmith. +This is sometimes called the beetle. + +The beetle is a monster hammer, the maul a monster mace. Each serves +its purpose well, but the beetle never has the swing and mighty force +of the great heavy maple knot. Grant Harlson bought a seasoned knot of +an old woodman and shaped a maul. He had learned the craft in youth. + +The ash trees fell beneath the ax, the trunks were cut to rail lengths, +and the oxen dragged logs through muck and mire and brush and bramble +to the line of fence, and there the maul swung steadily in great +strokes upon the iron and wooden wedges, the smell of timber newly +split was in the air, and the heavy rails were lifted, and the fence +began its growth. + +And it was lonesome in the depths of the wood, for the black ash swale +is not tenanted by many birds and squirrels as are the ridges, and only +the striped woodpecker or a wandering jay fluttered about at times, or +a coon might seek the pools for frogs. Harlson had circumstance for +thought. Only the hard labor cleared his blood and brain, and helped +him. + +Could fortune come to him who had such a load upon his conscience? Was +not he a violator of all law, as he had learned it,--law of both God +and man? Had he an excuse at all, and what was the degree of it? He +could not endure the time when it became too dark in the wood for work, +and when he drove the jaded oxen out into the field and to the barn, +and it was yet too early for seeking the hay-mow, which was of clover, +and there seeking sleep. A clover mow is a wonderful sleep-compeller. +There are the softness and fragrance, but, sometimes, even with that, +he would be wakeful. To avoid himself, the young man would, at last, +go in early evening to the older farmers' homes,--for it was his own +country and he knew them all,--and there, with the sons and hired men, +pitch quoits in the road before the house. + +Quoits is still a game of farmers' sons, and the horseshoe is superior +to the quoit of commerce and the town. The open side affords facility +for aggressive feats of cleverness in displacing an opponent's cast, +and the corks upon the shoes reduce some sliding chances, and the game +has quality. And Harlson found rather a distraction in the contests. +He found, maybe, distraction, too, in chatting with slim Jenny Bierce, +who was a very little girl when he was in the country school, but who +had grown into almost a woman, and who was a trifle more refined, +perhaps, than most of her associates. She had a sweetheart, a stalwart +young farmer named Harrison Woodell, one of the schoolmates of +Harlson's early youth, but she liked to talk with Harlson. He was +different from her own lover; no better, of course, but he had lived +another life, and could tell her many things. + +And Woodell, who expected to marry her, glowered a little. She did not +care for that. Grant Harlson had not noticed it. + +But neither quoits nor Jenny Bierce sufficed at all times for +forgetfulness. Harlson was in the grasp of that enemy--or friend--who +gives vast problems, and with them no solution. He could not rest. He +read his Bible, but that only puzzled him the more, because there +seemed to him, of necessity, degrees of wrong, and he could not find a +commandment which was flexible. He chafed because there was no measure +for his sentence. + +A pebble at the rivulet's head will turn the tiny current either way, +and so change the course of eventual creek and river. The pebble fell +near the source in Grant Harlson's case, for never before in his life +had he studied much the moral problem. His had been the conventional +training, which is to-day the training which asks one to accept, +unreasoning, the belief of yielding predecessors, and, until he felt +the prick of conscience, he had never cared to question the +inheritance. Now he wanted proof. If he could not plead not guilty, +might he not, at least, find weakness in the law? Then fell the pebble. + +It was only a country newspaper, and it was only the chance verses +clipped from some unknown source which turned the tide that might have +grown yet have run forever between narrow banks. + +For the verses--who wrote them?--were those of that brief poem which +has made more doubters than any single revelation of the +hollow-heartedness of some famed godly one; than any effort of oratory +of some great agnostic; than any chapter of any book that was ever +written: + + I think till I'm weary of thinking, + Said the sad-eyed Hindoo king, + And I see but shadows around me, + Illusion in every thing. + + How knowest thou aught of God, + Of His favor or His wrath? + Can the little fish tell what the lion thinks, + Or map out the eagle's path! + + Can the Finite the Infinite search! + Did the blind discover the stars? + Is the thought that I think a thought, + Or a throb of a brain in its bars? + + For aught that my eyes can discern, + Your God is what you think good-- + Yourself flashed back from the glass + When the light pours on it in flood. + + You preach to me to be just, + And this is His realm, you say; + And the good are dying with hunger, + And the bad gorge every day. + + You say that He loveth mercy, + And the famine is not yet gone; + That He hateth the shedder of blood + And He slayeth us every one. + + You say that my soul shall live, + That the spirit can never die: + If He was content when I was not, + Why not when I have passed by? + + You say I must have a meaning: + So must dung, and its meaning is flowers; + What if our souls are but nurture + For lives that are greater than ours? + + When the fish swims out of the water, + When the birds soar out of the blue, + Man's thoughts may transcend man's knowledge, + And your God be no reflex of you! + +One night in after life I sat with Grant Harlson, in his rooms in a +great city, and he told me of this, his time of doubt and tribulation, +and repeated to me the poem. + +"The questions it asks have not yet been answered, so far as I know," +said he, "and I do not think they can be by the alleged experts in such +things." + +Then a sudden fancy seized him, and he broke out with a novel +proposition: + +"You have little to do to-morrow, nor have I much on my hands. +Speaking of this to you has awakened an old interest in me and made me +curious. Help me to-morrow. We'll make up now a list of twenty +leading clergymen. I know most of them personally, and some of them +can reason. We'll each take a cab and each visit ten, exhibiting these +verses, going over them stanza by stanza, explaining the doubts they +have aroused, and asking for such solution as the clergymen have, and +such solace as it may afford. That will be rather an interesting +experiment, will it not?" + +I fell in with his whim, and the next day we made the rounds agreed +upon. + +What a curious thing it was! How men of various creeds felt confident +and repeated the old platitudes, and would be anything but logical! +How one or two were honest, and said they could not answer. + +And how absurd, we said at night, the keeping of men to tell us what +can no more be learned in a theological school than in a blacksmith +shop, and in neither place as well as in the woods or on the sea! Yet +there was no scoffing in it. We were neither irreligious. + +To this young man building the fence there came a resisting mood, and +he was puzzled still, but slept more pleasantly again upon his +clover-mow. He was groping, but less despondent, that was all. It +seemed all strange to him, for the old farm life had become largely a +memory, and it was but yesterday that he was in college, one of a +thousand, full of all energy and lightsomeness, and here he was alone +in the wood as in a monastery, and all else was somehow like a dream. +Only the oxen and the logs and the ax and the maul and the growing +fence were real by day. But, in the evening, there was Jenny Bierce, +and she was very real, as well as charming. + +Ho wondered if she cared for him. She was apparently pleased when he +found her, and they had taken long walks alone in the twilight. Once +he had kissed her, and she had not been angry. What sort of drift was +this, and why was he so carried by it? How different it all was from +even the life of a few weeks ago! Then there came before his eyes a +picture of the great, splendid animal in town, and it remained with +him. It bothered him for many a day and night. + +If the Hindoo king were right, if all were so undefined, why not do as +did the birds and squirrels, and seek all sunny places? He could not +work at his fence Sunday. He had not done that yet, but he would walk +the miles Saturday night and spend his Sunday in the town. + +As he thought, so he did. He did not swing the maul late the next +Saturday that came, but took up his journey and reached home in early +evening. + +He had been absent but three weeks, yet his family had much to ask, and +his father laughed at his hardened palms, and congratulated him. He +changed his garb and took the way toward Mrs. Rolfston's. She had not +looked for him sooner, though she knew men well, for she had seen his +growing trouble and she knew his will. Her eyes blazed as might the +eyes of some hungry thing to which food is brought. It was late when +he reached his home again, and the next day he must read a book, he +said, that he had found at Mrs. Rolfston's. At night he was stalking +across the country again, to his couch on the dry clover; and he +thought not even of the Hindoo king. Mrs. Rolfston's school of +theology was not of the sort which worries one with puzzling things, +and he had been in a receptive mood. + +The next day he worked like a giant. In the early evening he found +Jenny Bierce. She questioned him, but he had not much to answer. + +"Is there some one in the town ?" she asked. + +"There are several hundred people there." + +"You know what I mean. Is there any one in particular?"--this +poutingly. + +He said that of late the only one, to speak of, he had found anywhere +was a girl in a calico dress. + + + + +CHAPTER XI. + +SETTLING WITH WOODELL. + +So passed the days away. What added brawn came to the strong young +fellow's arms from the driving of the rails and lifting them to place! +Brown, almost, as the changing beech-leaves his face, and the palms of +his hands became like celluloid. He was unlike the farmers, though, +for he lacked the farmers' stoop--he had not to dig nor mow, nor rake +nor bind. He swung his ax or maul, and commanded the red oxen in +country speech, and deeper and deeper into the forest grew the fence. +And, of evenings, he was with Jenny, and Sundays he was in the town. +What days they were, with all their force, and health, and lawless +abandonment, though in the line of nature. He drank not, nor smoked, +nor ate made dishes. He was like an unreasoning bobolink, or hawk, or +fawn, or wolf. But there grew apace the problem of Jenny. + +One night, as the two were walking, each caught a glimpse of something +dark, which moved swiftly through the bushes some distance from the +road. + +The girl started. + +"What is the matter?" Harlson said. + +"Did you not see it--that shadow in the bushes?" + +"Yes. Some one was there. What of it? Some of the boys are +coon-hunting." + +"It wasn't that," she whispered. "I know what it was. It was Harrison +Woodell, and he is watching." + +"Well, he might be in much better business. Are you fond of him?" + +"I like him very much," she answered, simply, "but sometimes I am +afraid." + +He laughed. + +"He'll not hurt you. He dare not." + +"But he may hurt you." + +Another laugh. + +"Don't you think I can take care of myself?" + +"Oh, yes"--hurriedly--"but one of you may get hurt, and I don't want +anything to happen to either of you. Oh, Grant! You must be careful!" + +He was impressed, though he did not show it. There may have been some +of that magnetic connection, of which the scientists have told us so +little, between minds tending toward each other, with sinister intent +or otherwise, when all conditions are complete. Harlson felt in his +heart that the girl's apprehensions were not altogether groundless, +but, as was said, he was in perfect health and had a pride, and he cast +away the thought and but made love. And he prospered wickedly. It was +late when the girl reached her home again, and she went in tremblingly +and silently. So bent had been their footsteps that neither Harrison +Woodell nor other living thing could have been near them and unseen. + +Down the tree-fringed roadway and across the field to the barn went +Harlson, and wondered somewhat at himself. Into what had he developed, +and how would it all end? He was elated, but uneasy. He was glad the +fence was nearing completion, and that with the money due him life in +the big city would begin. He clambered upon the clover-mow, and tossed +about uneasily on the blanket upon which he had thrown himself still +dressed. It was some time before he slept, and then odd dreams came. + +He thought he had taken Jenny to the town, and that Mrs. Rolfston +seemed always near them, yet in hiding. They could not get away from +her. Then came a time when she had crept up behind them and over his +head had thrown a noose, and was drawing it tighter and tighter and +strangling him, and he could not, somehow, raise his hands to free +himself. He was suffocating! He struggled in his agony and +awoke--awoke to find his dream no dream at all! to feel a hand on his +throat, a knee upon his chest, and to know that he was being choked to +death! + +More than once in later life Grant Harlson felt himself very near the +line which men who have crossed once may not repass, but never later +came to him the feeling of this moment. It was but a flash of thought, +for the physical being's upheaval followed in an instant, but it was a +flash of horror. Then began an awful struggle. + +Borne down deeply in the yielding clover, Harlson had little chance to +exert his strength, which, with that grip upon his throat, could not +last long at most; but he writhed with all the force of desperation, +and wrenched loose, at last, one arm, which had been pressed useless +against his side. With the free hand he clutched his adversary's +collar and strained at it, while he heaved with all his power to turn +himself below. The couch was not far from the edge of the great mow, +but of that he was not thinking, nor of the fact that the hay had, in +the stowing away, been built out, so that the mow well overhung the +barn floor. Well for him that it was so! There was a sudden loosening +and sliding as the struggle in the darkness became fiercer, and then, +parting from the mass, a section of the mow, a ton at least in weight, +shot downward, carrying upon it the two men, who, as it struck the +floor beneath, rolled from its surface through the great open doors, +down the steep incline, up which wagons were driven on occasion, and +leaped to their feet together, there in the clear moonlight. + +They stood glaring at each other. Grant Harlson gasping, but himself +again, as he inhaled the blessed air. Each stood at bay and watchful. + +"Woodell!" + +The man glared at him savagely. + +"What does it mean! What were you going to do?" + +"I was going to kill you." + +"Then they would have hung you." + +"No, they wouldn't; they would never have found you." + +"Did you have a knife?" + +"I didn't need one--if the cursed hay hadn't come away." + +"What are you going to do now?" + +"I'm going to kill you." + +There was a look in the man's eyes which showed he was not jesting. +Harlson thought very rapidly just then. He recognized the earnestness +of it all, but his sudden terror was now gone. Here were light and air +and even terms with the other. The effect of the choking had passed +away. He felt himself a match for Woodell. + +With the revulsion of feeling came then suddenly upon him a rage +against this would-be midnight slayer so great that he was calm in his +very savagery. He laughed, as was his way. + +"You were very foolish. You should have brought a knife or club. Kill +me! Why, man, do you suppose if you were to try to get away now I +would let you go? I want you, you murderer, I want you!" And he +reached out his hands toward the other and opened and shut them +clutchingly; and then with a snarl Woodell leaped forward and the two +men grappled like bull-dogs. + +Well for Harlson was it that through all the weeks he had been swinging +the maul and ax, and that his muscles were hard and his endurance +great, for Woodell was counted one of the strong men of the region. As +it was, in point of sheer strength, the two were about evenly matched, +but there was a difference in their resources. One was +gymnasium-trained, the other not. + +In country wrestling there are the side-hold, and square-hold, and +back-hold, and rough-and-tumble, the last the catch-as-catch-can of +stage struggles. In early boyhood Harlson had learned the tricks of +these, and in the college gymnasium he had supplemented this wisdom by +persistent training in every device of the professional gladiators. He +was there considered something better than the common. And this, +though a life depended on it, was but a wrestling-match. It was but a +struggle to see which should get the other in his power, and blows +count but little in a death-grapple. + +They swayed and swung together, but so evenly braced and firm that +minutes passed, while, from a little distance, they would have seemed +but motionless. All who have watched two well-matched wrestlers will +recognize this situation. + +In each man's mind was a different immediate aim. Woodell wanted +Harlson on the ground and underneath him; he wanted his hand upon his +throat, and to clutch that throat so savagely and so long that the +man's face would blacken and his tongue protrude, and his limbs finally +relax, and the work attempted on the hay-mow be done completely! +Harlson had but one thought: to overmaster in some way his assailant. + +There was a sudden change, a mighty movement on the part of Woodell, +and in an instant the struggle was over. + +Glorious are your possibilities, O pretty grip and heave, O +half-Nelson, beloved of wrestlers! What a leverage, what a perfection +of result is with you! What a friend you are in time of peril! +Woodell, too bloodthirsty to feint or dally, released his hold and +stooped and shot forward, his arms low down, to get the country hold, +which rarely failed when once secured. And, even as he did so, in that +very half-second of time, there was a half-turn of the other's body, an +arm about his neck, a wrench forward to a hip, and, big man though he +was, nothing could save him! + +His feet left the earth; he whirled on a pivot, high and clear, and +came to the ground with a force to match his weight, his body, like a +whip-lash, cracking its whole length as he struck. + +Stunned by the awful shock, he did not move. His adversary stood +glaring at the still form for a moment, dazed himself by the sudden +outcome, then dashed into the barn, came out with a harness +throat-latch and a pitchfork, strapped Woodell's hands together, pulled +them over his knees, and between the knees and wrists passed the long +ash fork-handle. The man, slowly recovering his senses, was "bucked" +in a manner known to any schoolboy; as securely bound as if with +handcuffs and with shackles; as helpless as a babe! + + + + +CHAPTER XII. + +INCLINATION AGAINST CONSCIENCE. + +The shock had affected Woodell very much as what is known as a +"knock-out" in sparring affects a man. Absolutely unconscious at +first, he recovered intelligence slowly, though practically uninjured. +Harlson stood beside the grotesquely trussed figure and watched the +return to consciousness with curiosity. The cool night air assisted +the restoration. + +Woodell opened his eyes, seemed to be wondering where he was, and then, +as realization came, made an attempt to rise. The effort was +ridiculous, and he but flopped like a winged loon. The contortion of +his face was frightful as there came upon him full understanding of his +situation. He struggled fiercely once again, then lay quiet, looking +up at Harlson with malignant eyes. + +Harlson's fit of rage had gone entirely. There had come upon him a +swift compunction. "Why did you try to murder me?" he asked. + +"You know well enough, ---- you!" came from between the teeth of the +man on the ground. + +"I do not. I can't understand it! Have I ever injured you?" + +"Injured me? You dodging, lying thief! What are you quibbling for? +You know just how you have injured me. Why don't you finish the thing? +Get a club and knock out my brains! They won't hang you, for you can +say it was in self-defense, and my being here will prove it. Do it! +Have a complete job of what you have done this summer!" + +The man, writhed in his ignoble position, and tears gushed from his +eyes. Harlson reached forward and withdrew the pitchfork handle. +Woodell scrambled to his feet ungracefully, for his hands were still +strapped together before him. + +"Look here, Woodell," said Harlson, "let us go to the road and walk +down toward your place. I'll not unstrap your hands just yet. I think +I'll feel a trifle more comfortable having you as you are. I want to +talk with you. I want you to be fair with me. Was it because of Jenny +Bierce?" + +"You know it was." + +"But why haven't I as good a right to make love to Jenny as you or any +other man?" + +Woodell turned fiercely: "More quibbling." Then in a tone of demand: +"Tell me this: Are you going to marry her?" + +Harlson hesitated. "I don't know." + +"You do know! You know you haven't any idea of such a thing. You are +just amusing yourself until you get your cursed fence built." + +"What is that to you?" + +"To me! She was engaged to be married to me, and we were happy +together until you came; and you've come, broken up two lives and done +no one any good, not even yourself, you hungry wolf! She cares more +for me to-day than she does for you. She is better suited to me! But +with your trick of words and your ways you tickled her fancy at first, +and, finally, you charmed her somehow as they say snakes do birds. And +she'll not be fit for anybody when you go away!" The big man sobbed +like a baby. + +Harlson made no immediate reply. Was not what Woodell was saying but +the truth? Did he really care for Jenny or she for him? What had it +been but pastime? He could give her up. It would be a little hard, of +course. It is always so when a man has to surrender those close +relations with a woman which are so fascinating, and which come only +when there has been established that sympathy between them which, if +not love, is involuntarily considered by each something that way. +There was a struggle in his mind between the instinct to be honorable +and straight-forward and fair, and to do what was right, and the +impulse, on the other hand, to refuse anything demanded by an +assailant. But the would-be murderer was not a murderer, after all. +He was only a temporary lunatic whom Harlson himself had driven mad. +That was the just way to look at it. As for Jenny, she would not +suffer much. There had not been time enough. Not in a day does a man +or woman have that effect produced upon the heart which lasts forever. +So, were he to disappear from the affair, nothing very serious, nothing +affecting materially the whole of any life would follow. The odds were +against him, or rather against the worst side of him, in the reflection. + +He acted promptly. "I don't know about it," he said; "I'm puzzled. I +don't care much. I don't know just where I stand, anyhow. I want to +be decent, but it seems to me I have some rights; I'm all tangled up. +I don't think you imagine I am afraid--I wasn't when I was a little boy +in school with you as a bigger one. You know that--and I'm not now. +But that doesn't count. I've been studying over a lot of things, and I +don't know what to do. I think you may be right, and that I have been +all wrong. I give it up. But I do know that a fellow can't make any +mistake if he tries to do what is right, and, in figuring out the +thing, takes the side that seems to be against him. He can fight, he +can do anything better after he feels that he has done that. Hold on." + +Woodell stopped, wonderingly. Harlson unbuckled the strap about the +man's hands and threw it into the bushes at the roadside. + +The farmer straightened himself up, reached out his arms, clutched his +palms together, and looked at the other man. Harlson spoke bluntly. + +"Yes, I know you want to try it again. But, as I feel now, it could +only end one way. I don't mind. I only wanted to loose you before I +say what I wanted to say, so that you wouldn't think I was making terms +on my own account." + +"Go on," said Woodell, gruffly, still stretching his arms. + +"Well, it is just this. I don't think I've been doing the right thing. +I am going to leave Jenny Bierce to you. She will not care much, and +it will be all right in a little time. That is all. No, not quite! +You tried to kill me. Maybe I would have been as big a fool, just such +a crazy, jealous man as you, if things had been the other way. I don't +know. But I do know this, that your coming here to-night, except that +it has made me think, has nothing to do with what I have made up my +mind to. Here we are in the road. I don't want to sleep uneasily in +the barn. You tried to kill me. I have tried to decide on what is +right, and I will do it. Now, I want it settled with you. Here I am! +Do you want to fight?" + +Woodell's face had been something worth seeing while Harlson was +speaking. He had followed the words of his late antagonist closely. +He grasped in a general way the intent expressed. There was a radiance +on his rough features. + +"Do you really mean that?" + +"Of course I do. What should I say it for if I didn't?" + +"Then it will be all right." + +"But do you want to fight?" + +"No, I don't. I won't say you could lick me. It was partly luck +before. I won't give up that way. But you might. That doesn't +matter. I'm sorry I tried to kill you. I was crazy. You would have +been, in my place. And you won't have anything to do with Jenny again? +Oh, Harlson!" + +And the two shook hands, and Harlson went back to his bed on the +clover-mow. He thought he had done a great and philosophically noble +deed--remember, this was but a boy little over twenty--and he slept +like a lamb. And next evening he went over to Woodell's home and said +he wanted some supper, and after the meal laughed at Woodell, and said +he was going off to another farm to pitch quoits until it got too dark, +and the two young men walked down the road together and exchanged some +confidences, and when they parted each was on good terms with the +other. This was strange, following an attempted murder, but such +things happen in real life. And it may be that Woodell had the worst +of the bargain in that conversation. + +He was better equipped for the winning of Jenny, but the troubled man +with whom he had been talking had reached out blindly for aid in +another direction. Not much satisfaction was the result. Woodell was +of the kind who, if religious at all, believe without much reasoning, +but Harlson had repeated to him the reasoning of the Hindoo skeptic. +Woodell had at least intelligence enough to follow the line of thought, +and, in after time, when he was a family man and deacon, the lines +would recur to vex him sorely. + +And Jenny did not pine away and die because she saw little more of +Harlson. He met her and explained briefly that they had been doing +wrong, and that he and Woodell had talked. She turned pale, then red, +but said little. Of the struggle in the night Jenny never learned. +She inferred, of course, that her lover had gone in a straightforward +way to Harlson, and that his demands had been acceded to. She was +gratified, perhaps, that she had become a person of much importance. +She thought more of Woodell and less of Harlson, because of the issue +of the debate, as she understood it, and, when the first pique and +passion were over, became resigned enough to the outlook. She had been +on the verge of sin, but she was not the only woman in the world to +carry a secret. Woodell's pleadings were met with yielding, and the +wedding occurred within a month. Perhaps she made a better wife +because her husband did not know the truth in detail, and she felt the +burden of a debt, but that is doubtful. Though fair of feature, she +was not deep enough of mind to even brood. Of course, too, by this +standard should be lessened the real degree of all erring. Harlson, +wiser, was much the more guilty of the two and deserved some +punishment, but, as an equation, it could, at least, since he was +young, be said in his defense that as he was to Jenny so had Mrs. +Rolfston been to him. The person who had changed things was that same +fair animal of the town. + +And shallow-minded legislatures will enact preposterous social laws for +the regulation of the morals of boys, and imagine they have placed +another paving-stone in the road to the millennium, while the Mrs. +Rolfstons are having a riotous time of it. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII. + +FAREWELL TO THE FENCE. + +When the first frosts of autumn come the black ash swales are dry, and +there is more life in them than in midsummer. Hickory trees grow in +the swales, and the squirrels are very busy with the ripened nuts. The +ruffed grouse, with broods well grown, find covert in the tops of +fallen trees, or strut along decaying logs. There are certain berries +which grow in the swales, and these have ripened and are sought by many +birds. The leaves are turning slowly to soft colors. There is none of +the blaze and glory of the ridges where the hard maples and beeches +are, but there is a general brownness and dryness and vigor of scene. +It is good. The fence was nearly done, and the money for its building +was almost owned. The rails stretched away in a long line through the +narrow lane hewed through the wood, the tree-tops meeting overhead, and +a new highway was built for the squirrels, who made famous use of the +fence in their many journeys. The woodpeckers patronized it much, and +tested every rail for food, but only in a merely incidental way, for +each woodpecker knew that every rail was green and tough, and sound and +tenantless as yet. There was a general chirp and twitter and pleasant +call, for all the young life of the year was out of nest and hole and +hollow, and now entering upon life in earnest. It was a season for +buoyant work. + +The great maul, firm and heavy still, showed an indentation round its +middle, where tens of thousands of impacts against the iron wedges had +worn their way, and even the heads of the wedges themselves were +rounded outward and downward with an iron fringe where particles of the +metal had been forced from place. The huge hook at the end of the log +chain was twisted all awry, though no less firm its grip. The fence, +the implements and all about showed mighty work, something of mind, but +more of muscle. + +Most perfect of all tonics is physical, out-door labor, particularly in +the forest, and it is as well for mind as body. It eliminates what may +be morbid, and is healthful for a conscience. Why it is that, under +most natural conditions which may exist, the conscience is not so +nervously acute, is something for the theologians to decide,--they will +decide anything,--but the fact remains. The out-door conscience is +strong, but seldom retrospective. + +Grant Harlson swung his maul and delighted in what was about him, and +breathed the crisp October air, scented with the spice bushes he cut to +clear the way, and pondered less and less upon the puzzles of the +Hindoo king. His mood was all robust, and when he visited the town he +was a wonder to Mrs. Rolfston, who was infatuated with the savagery of +his wooing and madly discontent with the certainty that she must lose +him. She made wild propositions, which he laughed at. She would +remove to the city; she would do many things. He said only that the +present was good, and that she was fair to look upon. And from her he +would go to his other sweetheart, the great maul, and be faithful for +six days of the seven. He did not work as late of afternoons now. He +was enjoying life again in the old healthful, boyish way. + +He had a friend from town with him, too--a setter, with Titian hair and +big eyes, which slept on the clover beside him, and an afternoon or two +a week he would take dog and gun and go where the ruffed grouse were or +where a flock of wild turkeys had their haunts among the beech trees. +He would announce, with much presumption and assurance, at some +farm-house door, that he would be over for dinner to-morrow, and that +it would be a game dinner, and that he would leave the game with them +on his way back that same evening. There would be chaffings and +expressions of doubt as to reliance upon such promise and "First catch +your rabbit" comment, but they were not earnest words, for his ability +as a mighty hunter was well known. + +Craft and patience are required when the wild turkey is to be secured, +for it is wise in its generation, and will carry lead, but it is worth +the trouble, for no pampered gobbler of the farm-yard has meat of its +rich flavor. Beech-nuts and berries make diet for a bird for kings to +eat. And when Harlson brought a couple of noble young turkeys to the +board the banquet was a great one, and the boys pitched quoits that +night no better for it. A good thing is the wild turkey, but even a +better thing, when his numbers and quality are considered, is the +ruffed grouse, the partridge of the North, the pheasant of the South. +How, in the lake region, he dawdles among the low-land thornberry +bushes in autumn, how he knows of many things to eat beside the +thorn-apples, and how plump he gets, and how cunning! How watchful he +is, how knowing of covert, and with what a burst he lifts himself from +his hiding-place and whirls away between the tree-trunks! How quick +the eye and hand to catch him when he rises from the underbrush and is +out of sight in the wood before the untrained sportsman stops him with +what is little more than a snapshot, so instantaneously must all be +done! Yet what a dignified thing is he, and how easy to find by one +who knows his ways and what hold habit has upon his gray-brown majesty. +Should the sudden shot fail, there is the fatal weakness of the bird of +flying, as the bee flies, straight as an arrow goes, and of alighting +high, say about two hundred yards away, and trusting to the trick which +fools all other enemies to fool the man. Following the straight line +of his flight, scanning the tree-tops, will you note at last, upon some +great limb and close to the tree's trunk, an upright thing, slender, +still-hued, silent and motionless. It is so like the wood it well +might miss the tyro. It is not unsportsmanlike, it is in fair chase to +shoot, and then there comes to the ground, with a great thump, the cock +of the northern woods, and you have one of the prizes man gets by +slaying. But this is only in the wood. In the open it is quite +another thing. What a toothsome bird, too, is your ruffed grouse, how +plump and yet gamey to the taste! You must know how to cook him, +though. He must be broiled, split open neatly and well larded with +good butter, for not so juicy even as the quail is the ruffed grouse, +and he must have aid. But, broiled and buttered and seasoned, well, +what a bird he is! + +There were woodcock, too, in the lowlands, and Harlson found with them +such buoyant life as we men find in sudden death of those small, +succulent creatures. To stop a woodcock on the wing as it pitches over +the willows is no simple thing, and he who does it handily is, in one +respect, greater than he who ruleth a kingdom. And, at the table--but +why talk of the woodcock? There are other game birds for the eating, +good in their various degrees, but the woodcock is not classed with +them. In him is the flavoring drawn by his long bill from the very +heart of the earth, the very aroma of nature, and all richness. They +ate peacocks' brains in Caesar's time. Later, they found there was +something greater in the ortolan, and in some of the similar smaller +things which fly. But as the ages passed, and palates became +cultivated by heredity, and what made all flavors became known, the +woodcock rose and was given the rank of his great heritage--the most +perfect bird for him who knows of eating; the bird which is to others +what the long-treasured product of some Rhine hillside or Italian +vineyard is to the vintage of the day, what old Roquefort or Stilton is +to curd, what the sweet, dense, musky perfume of the hyacinth is to the +shallow scent of rhododendron. Even the Titian-haired setter +recognized the imperial nature of the woodcock, and was all emotion +about the willow-clumps. + +Of course, from one point of view it is absurd, to thus depart from a +simple story upon the killing or the cooking or the flavor of a bird. +But I am telling of Grant Harlson and the woman he later found, and it +seems to me that even such matters as these, the sport he had, and the +facts and fancies he acquired, are part of the story, and have +something to do with defining and making clear the forming knowingness, +and character, and habits and inclinations of the man. Between him who +knows old Tokay and woodcock, and the other man, there is every +distinction. Harlson had learned his woodcock, but the Tokay was yet +to come. + +And the fence neared its end. The young man almost regretted it, eager +as he had become to test his strength in the great city. Physically, +it was grand for him. What thews he gained; what bands of muscle +criss-crosses between and below his shoulders! What arms he had and +what full cushions formed upon his chest! That was the maul. How he +ate and drank and slept! + +The days shortened, and the hoar frosts in the early morning made the +fence look a thing in silver-work strung through the woods. Where the +oxen had stepped in some soft place were now, at the beginning of the +day, thin flakes of ice. Even in the depth of the clover-mow the +change of temperature was manifest, and Harlson slept with a blanket +close about him. The autumn had come briskly. And the last ash was +felled, the oxen for the last time scrambled through the wood with the +heavy logs, and for the last time ax and maul and wedge did sturdy +service. One day Grant Harlson lifted the last rail into place; then +climbed upon the fence, looked critically along it, and knew his work +in the country was well done. He was absorbed in the material aspect +of it just then. It was a good fence. Fifteen years later he strolled +one afternoon, cigar in mouth, across the wheat-field where the wood +had been, and inspected the fence he had built alone that summer, away +back. The rails had grown gray from the effect of time and storms, and +a rider was missing here and there, but the structure was a sound one +generally, and still equal to all needs. It was a great fence, well +built. He looked at the wasting evidence of the great ax strokes upon +the rail ends, and said, as did Brakespeare, when he visited the castle +of Huguemont and noted where his sword had chipped the stairway stone +in former fight; "It was a gallant fray." + +There was the getting of pay--the selling of a Morgan yearling colt +sufficed the owner of the land for that--and the end of one part of one +human being's life was reached. He went to town again and lived there +a week or two. A life not held in bonds, but somehow under all +control. It was curious; he could not understand it; but, even in the +wood, he had out-grown Mrs. Rolfston. He was with her much. There was +no let nor hindrance to their united reckless being, but all was +different from the beginning. He was not selfish with her; he grew +more courteous and thoughtful, yet the woman knew she could not keep +him. There were stormy episodes and tender ones, threats and tears, +and plottings and pleadings, and all to the same unavailing end. Your +woman of thirty of this sort is a Hecla ever in eruption, but becoming +sometimes, like Hecla, in the ages, ice-surrounded. She has her +trials, this woman, but her trials never kill her. The rending of the +earth, earthy, is never fatal. She recovers. With her, good digestion +ever waits on appetite, though an occasional appetite be faulty. + +And one day Grant Harlson left the town, his face turned cityward. The +country boy--this later young man of the summer--was no more. To fill +his place among the mass of bipeds who conduct the affairs of the world +so badly and so blunderingly, was but one added to the throng of +strugglers in one of men's great permanent encampments. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV. + +A RUGGED LOST SHEEP. + +The journal of Marie Bashkirtseff is a great revelation of the hopes +and imaginings and sufferings of a girl just entering that period of +life when woman's world begins. Many upon two continents have been +affected by the depths and sadness of it, yet it is but a primer, the +mere record of a kindergarten experience, in comparison with what would +be the picture showing as plainly a heart of some man of the city. Did +you ever read the diary, unearthed after his death, and printed in part +but recently, of Ellsworth, the young Zouave colonel, who was slain in +Alexandria, and avenged on the moment, at the very beginning of the +great civil war? That is a diary worth the reading. There is told the +story of not alone vain hopes and ungratified ambitions, but of an +empty stomach and dizzy head to supplement the mental agony and make +its ruthlessness complete. There were, too, the high courage which was +sorely tested--and an empty stomach is a dreadful shackle--and the +bulldog pertinacity which ever does things. That was a diary of real +life, with little room for dreams, and much blood upon the pen. + +It befell Grant Harlson to learn how helpless in the great city is the +man as yet unlearned in all its heartlessness and devious ways and lack +of regard for strangers, and the story of Ellsworth was very nearly his. + +It was well enough at first. He had some money, and had occupation at +a pittance, intended only by the law firm with whom he was a student to +serve for his car or cab-hire when on service outside the office. His +privilege of studying with the firm was counted remuneration for his +services, and he was, so far as this went, but in the position of other +young men of his age and value under such circumstances, but, unlike +others, he had relied upon the law of chance to aid him. + +One hundred dollars does not last long when one is healthy and has a +mighty appetite, and, that gone, two dollars and fifty cents a week, +and hard work for it, is very little to live on, and Harlson found it +so. Not for all the comforts of the world would he have written home +for aid in the town. It seemed there was nothing for him to do. It +had become mid-winter, and the winter was a cold one. Gaunt men +followed the coal wagons or visited the places where charity is +bunglingly dispensed by the sort of people who drift into smug +officials at such agencies as naturally as some birds fly to +worm-besprinkled furrows for their gleanings. + +Harlson saw much of this, and knew his fate was not the worst among so +many, and it aided him in his philosophy, but he had a mighty appetite. +He was a great creature, of much bone and brawn, and being hungry was +something he could not endure. He thought--how far back it seemed--of +the farmers' dinners, and the turkey and ruffed grouse and woodcock. +Woodcock! Why, his whole two dollars and fifty cents would not feed +him for a single time upon that glorious bird! He looked through the +fine restaurant windows, and it amused him. His own meals were taken +in restaurants of a poorer class. With thirty-five cents and a +fraction to live upon for a day, one does not care for game. + +Harlson's dress became of the shabby genteel order. The binding upon +coat and vest had begun to show that little wound which is not wide nor +deep, but is past the healing, and the shininess at knees and elbows +reflected the light that never was on land or sea, or, at least, ought +not to be. He felt a degradation with it all, though it was with him +the result of folly, not of fault, and he made a struggle for reform in +his finances. He abandoned the cheap room in which he lived, and slept +upon the office floor at night, the place in decent weather being +moderately warm. + +The individual from China and the individual from more than one other +land, who comes to live with us, can exist on thirty-five cents a day +and think his provender the fat of the land. But he is not a great +meat-eater. The fiber of him is not our own. His style of tissue was +not fixed in northern bay and fjord and English and Norman forests, and +his ancestors transmitted to him a self-denying stomach. He can live +in the city upon thirty-five cents a day, and clasp his hands across +his abdomen and say, with the thankful, "I have dined." Not so the man +of Harlson's type, and of his size. The sum of two dollars and fifty +cents, the young man found, would not feed and clothe him for a week. +He was a boy still, in the freshness of his appetite, yet his demands +in quantity were manly, to a certainty. Six feet of maul-swinging +humanity had eaten much, even in midsummer. That same six feet +required more now, when the temperature was low and the system needed +carbon. Perhaps he got all that was good for him; it is well to train +down a little occasionally; but Harlson wandered about sometimes with a +feeling of sympathy for the wolf of the forest, the hawk of the air, +and the pickerel of the waters, all hungry ever and all refusing to +live by bread alone. + +As time passed this condition of things wore upon the man. His +fancies, if not morbid, became a trifle ugly. He worked feverishly, +but he chafed at his own ignorance of city ways, such that he could not +increase his income. He sought manual labor which could be done at +night, but failed even in this, for at that time he lacked utterly the +way about him which fits the city, and persuades the man of business +when there is little labor to be done. It was almost a time of panic. +He would wander about the streets at night like a lost spirit. +Sometimes he would meet old college friends. He had classmates in the +city, some of them well-to-do and well established, and they were glad +to meet him, the man who had done a little to give the class its +record, and he was invited to swell dinners and to parties. He would +but feign excuses, and to none of them told bluntly, as he should have +done, just what his situation was, and how a trifling aid would make +his future different. He was very proud, this arrogant product of the +old Briton blending and the new world's new northwest, and he lacked +the sense which comes with experience in the bearings of a life all +novel, and so he remained silent, and, incidentally, hungry. + +It was at this period of his career that Harlson was in closest +sympathy with the sad-eyed Hindoo king. He was not doing anything out +of the way; he was working hard, with clean ambitions, yet he was +hungry. He could not understand it. No doubt an empty stomach +inclines a man to much logic and the splitting of straws. There comes +with an empty stomach less of grossness and more of abstract reason, +and an exaltation which may be all impractical, but which is recklessly +acute. + +"I want to do things, I want to help others--I don't know why, but I +do--I have ambitions, but I try to make them good. I am doing the best +I can with the brains I have. I get up in the morning from the office +floor and do my utmost all day, and try to do better when I get out, +but nothing helps me! Where is the God who, it is said, at worst, +helps those who help themselves. + + "'You say that we have a meaning; + So has dung, and its meaning is flowers.' + +"The Hindoo king must be right. I am, we all are but like horses, or +trees, or mushrooms; and it is only some sort of accident which makes +each thing with life successful or unsuccessful, happy or unhappy, as +the case may be." + +So, at this time, Grant Harlson reasoned, blindly, yet in his heart +there was something which protested against his own deductions and kept +him in the path which was straightforward, and from staking all the +future on the morrow. So drifted away the days, and this strong-limbed +young fellow became hungrier and hungrier, and more shiny at knees and +elbows, and more lapsided of foot-gear, and more thoroughly puzzled at, +and disgusted with, the city world. + +Sometimes the young man would resolve that in the morning he would +abandon all his plans, and seek the country again, and there, where he +could hold his own and more, live and die apart from all the +feverishness and chances of another way of living. And he would awake +and sniff in the morning air, and say to himself that he was a cur last +night, and that he would stay and hold his own, and, in the end, win +somehow. The bulldog strain asserted itself, and he was his own again. +At night, after a fruitless day, he might become again depressed, but +the morning restrung the bow. Sometimes--these were his weaker +days--he would abandon all effort, and seek the free public library, +and there plunge into books and find, for the passing time, +forgetfulness. These were his only draughts of absolute nepenthe, for +at night he dreamed of the yesterday or of the morrow, and it marred +his rest. The library gave him, for the time, another world, though it +had harsh suggestions. He would stop his reading to wonder how +Chatterton felt when starving, or if Hood had as miserable a time of it +as alleged, or if Goldsmith was jolly when, penniless, he argued his +way through Europe, or if even Shakespeare went without a meal. But +the library, on the whole, was a solace and a tonic. It rested him, +since it made him, for a time, forget. + +It was but characteristic of Harlson that, in the midst of all this +test of endurance of a certain sort, he should do what deprived him of +all chance of greater ease and greater vantage-ground with time +expended out of the line he had established. One of his old college +friends, guessing, perhaps, his real condition, came to him with an +offer of what was more than a fair income, if he would teach one of the +city's high-schools. The hungry fellow only laughed, and said that was +not on his programme. He still went hungry and grew more shabby in +appearance, and then came to him what was, perhaps, a sear upon his +life--perhaps what broadened, educated, and made him wiser. + + + + +CHAPTER XV. + +THE STRANGE WORLD. + +One night Harlson, with a great appetite, as usual,--for he had not +eaten since his scant breakfast,--went out to get his supper. It was +not dinner, for he never, at that time, dined. He had in his pocket +twenty cents. The next day he would get his usual weekly stipend. He +would spend fifteen cents, he thought, upon his supper, then return to +the office to sleep, and would have five cents remaining for the +morning meal. That would do to buy buns with, and he would endure what +stomach clamor might come until evening, when he would be a capitalist, +and riot in all he could eat, even though he doubled a cheap order. + +So he reasoned, as he went down the garish street, and looked right and +left for some new restaurant, for he chanced to want a change. One's +love for cheap restaurants is not perpetual. A mild illuminated sign +over a small building attracted his attention. It had the aspect of +what would be cheap, but clean. + +Harlson entered the place and found what he had looked for. There was +the small front room with scattered tables, the partition at the back, +reaching but half way to the ceiling, with the usual curtained door, +and there was no one in the room. He took a seat beside one of the +tables and there waited. He had not long to wait. The curtains parted +and a woman entered. The woman who came into the room was possibly +thirty-five years of age. She was strong of frame, though not uncouth, +and had keen, laughing gray eyes, heavy eyebrows and chestnut hair. +She was a half jaunty, buxom amazon, with a brazen, comrade look about +her, and was evidently the proprietress of the place. She came to +where Harlson was seated and asked him what he wished to eat. The +patron of this restaurant was studying the bill of fare intently. He +wanted to get what was, as Sam Weller says, "werry fillin," at the +price, and yet he had certain fancies. He looked up at the woman and +said, bluntly: + +"I have only fifteen cents to spend. What would you advise for the +money?" + +For the first time the eyes of the two met. Harlson was interested in +the fraction of a second. In the fraction of a second he knew that it +was not a restaurant pure and simple that he had entered, for he had +learned much already in the city. The woman who looked at him was not +merely the proprietress of a place where food was sold. + +The woman did not answer at once. She was looking at the customer. +She pulled out the chair opposite him and sat down. + +"Have you lived here long?" she said. + +Harlson had been so isolated, that to have an inquiry made in relation +to his personal affairs seemed droll. It seemed something like +humanity again, as well. + +He studied more closely the woman opposite. She did not convey any +idea of a creature of innate dishonesty or treacherous character. She +had the appearance of being a shrewd, merry, healthy sinner. He forgot +that she owed him an answer as he met her question: + +"No, I have not lived here long, but I am as hungry as if I had lived +here for half a century. What shall I order?" + +She looked at him curiously. His language was not of the kind she had +been accustomed to. She measured him from head to heel, while he noted +her examination and was amused, and showed it in his face. She +blushed, or rather flushed, and measured him again. Then she told him +what he should order most wisely for the sum he had named. He was +surprised at the quantity and quality of it. + +The woman, meanwhile, had left him without further comment. As he was +ending his meal, she came in again and took the seat in front of him. + +"You are hungry," she said. + +"I was, decidedly. I'm not now." + +She looked him over. + +"You have spent only fifteen cents. What is the matter?" + +He was surprised. He looked into her eyes and was perplexed. Why +should this woman ask him this question? But he could see nothing in +those eyes save a gray inquisition. + +"I had only that much to spend to-night, that's all. Do you see +anything absurd about it?" + +The woman was puzzled in turn. She looked into the man's face in a +fearless way enough, but did not know what to say. Then again came +that odd way of looking over him. Finally she broke out: + +"You haven't any more money, and yet you put on airs. I like it." + +"I am much obliged," said he. + +"That isn't fair. You know what I mean. And you know already--you're +not a fool--what this place is. It is mine. The little restaurant in +front is but a part. Women come here--and men. Two women live here. +Did you think that?" + +Harlson said he had inferred, since he came in, that the restaurant was +not a restaurant alone. + +"It's a funny world," he said. + +She was bothered. "I don't know what you mean about the world, and I +don't care. But I would like to know what your business is, and how +you are doing?" + +"I am not doing well, and get hungry sometimes. Had it not been for +that I should not have come here to-night. But what is it to you?" + +"Can't you see? Why am I talking to you?" + +"I don't know." + +She looked at him steadily again. + +"What do you want?" was his inquiry. + +"Where do you live?" + +"I have no bed. I am in a lawyer's office. I can't afford a +boarding-house just now, and I sleep on the office floor." + +"How do you like that?" she asked. + +"I don't like it." + +"Then why do you stay there?" + +"Where else would I sleep? I have only so much a week." + +"Would you like to stay here to-night?" + +"Maybe. This is better than the office floor; at least I imagine it +is." + +The curtains parted and there was a heavy step upon the floor. A man +came in. He stopped and looked at the couple grimly. He was a big man +whose cheeks had jowls and whose eyes were red. He had the air of a +bully. He seemed perfectly at ease and conscious of his status, and +the woman started, then looked up half anxiously and half defiantly. +The man spoke first: + +"What are you doing here?" + +"I am talking with this gentleman at the table." + +"You mustn't talk with these fellows. Get out of here!" he said, +turning to Harlson. + +Harlson was not really in a pleasant frame of mind; he had been too +hungry. It was not the occasion on which a flabby bully should have +thus addressed him. He did not answer the man, but turned to the woman. + +"Is that your husband?" he asked. + +"No." + +"What is he, then?" + +It was the intruder who answered, violently: + +"She belongs to me, and you'd better get out of here." + +"I don't belong to him! He has lived here, but I want to get away from +him! Now," turning recklessly to the man, "you may do what you please!" + +The man paid little note to what the woman said. His attention was +bestowed upon Harlson. + +"Look here, young fellow! Get out of this, and get out quick! You're +in the way!" + +Now, upon this young man Harlson, during this conversation, had come a +certain increased ill humor. He was in no violent mood, as yet, but he +was not, as has been said, one for a big flabby brute to thus annoy. +He was quiet enough, though. + +"I've come into a restaurant to get my supper." + +The man's red face became redder still. "If you don't get out, I'll +throw you out!" + +Harlson stood up. "I'll not go!" he said, and then the man rushed upon +him. + +It was only a clean, quick blow, but there was no check nor parry to +mar its full effectiveness. The man plunged forward too confidently, +the blow caught him fairly in the face, on the fullness of the cheek, +just under the eye, and those bronzed knuckles cut in to the bone. It +was a wicked blow, and its force was great enough to hurl the whole +body back. The man whirled away under it, and he went toppling down, +with his arms thrown up wildly. As he fell, he pitched still further +back, in his effort to save himself, and his head struck the +wainscoting as he reached the floor. Blood gushed from his cut cheek. +It was a moment or two before he clambered slowly to his feet. + +"Shall I hit you just once more?" was Harlson's query. + +The man did not answer. The woman stood looking on curiously, but +saying nothing. Harlson waited for a time, then told his assailant to +go away; and the man picked up his hat and stumbled out upon the street. + +The woman sat down again. It was some time before she spoke. + +"You are strong, and will fight," she said. + +"I had nothing else to do." + +"Do you want to stay here?" + +"It is better than the office floor." + +"Will you stay here?" + +He hesitated. It was a turning-point in his life, and he knew it. +There was something rather startling to him in it. + +Then came the swift reflection: He wanted to know all of life. This +was the under-life, the under-current, of which reformers prate so much +and know so little. Why not be greater than they? Why not have been a +part of it, and in time to come speak knowingly? He was but a part of +this world, as accident had made it. He hoped if the world wagged well +to be a protector for certain weak ones. It was a world wherein +immediate brute force told. Well, he could supply that easily enough. +And what would he not learn? He would learn the city, the ignorance of +which had resulted in his being hungry--he, a young man college-bred, +and with some knowledge of Quintilian's crabbedness, or the equations +of X and Y in this or that or the Witch of Agnesi. And were not these +people part of the world, and was not this life something of which he +ought to know the very heart? + +Still, there were relations of things to be considered. There were +people at home, and it would not do. + +Then, just as he turned to refuge the woman who sat looking at him, the +curtains parted again and a face appeared. It was the face of a woman, +not of the world about him. It was some accident, some sinister, +unexampled happening, which had brought the face to the surroundings. +It gave to the wavering man a new idea of this world of shame and sin, +and it may have been the deciding ounce. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI. + +THE REALLY UGLY DUCKLING. + +He turned, to the woman across the table: "All right; I will stay." + +I am but telling the story of a man of whose life from this time for +two years I know but little. He was always reticent about these years, +yet always said he had no occasion to regret them. With the life's +outlines, though, with what it really was, aside from details, I +became, in a degree, familiar. + +What does the average person in one class know of the life in another? +There are "classes," certainly, with great bars between them here, +though this is a republic, and all men and women are supposed to be +free and equal and alike in most things. There are lower and wider +grades of existence, such that the story of them may never be told save +in patch-work or by inference, yet which have as full a history, and +where there are loves and hates and hopes and despairs as deep as are +ever felt in the mass where the creed-teachers and Mrs. Grundy and the +legislatures are greater factors. + +And of this more reckless, hopeless people Harlson learned much. With +them he was; of them he could never fully be. The extent to which a +man is permanently defiled by pitch-touching cannot, of course, be +known. It depends upon the pitch and upon the man. It was not a quiet +life the young man led! On the contrary, it was a very feverish one, +for he labored hard in the office by day--he never for an instant +abandoned his ambitions and his plans--and at night he drifted into the +land where were warmth and light and lawlessness. He had his duty +there, such as it might be, for he was both a gambler and a protector, +and, young as he was, callow as he was, within a year he had become one +in demand, no trifler at the table, and an object of rivalry among +those whose regard means fee of body and of soul. He, himself, at that +time, did not appreciate the remarkable nature of his changing. So +rapidly he aged in knowledge of all undercurrents that he passed into +full maturity without a comprehension of the change. It is said that +some Indians teach their children to swim, not by repeated gentle +lessons, but by throwing them into a deep stream recklessly, saving +them only at the last moment. So had some power hurled Grant Harlson +into the black waters, and he had not drowned, and had taken rank among +strong swimmers. + +It is, as I have said, difficult to write intelligently of this portion +of this man's life. I want to do him justice, for I have always cared +for him; yet, from the conventional point of view, at least, nothing +can excuse his lapse at this one time. He should have continued +starving, I suppose, as have so many others, and have either died or +won, as they did, instead of tasting all that is denied, and gaining +much knowledge of the world, of much use in the future, all at the +expense, perhaps, of that purity attaching to certain ignorances, as +much in the man as the woman, since between the sexes all things are +relative. + +There were enough odd things in this most odd career. There were +friendships and feuds with those who were of the lower multitude +morally, but who were politicians and had their followings. There were +romances of the order which makes the story of Dumas such a success +upon the stage, and risks and escapes enough to satisfy the hungriest +of romance-readers. It was all grotesque in its grim reality, and the +young man did not know it. He was an unconscious desperado, and the +odd thing about it all was the ease with which he led the double life. + +In the morning, clear-headed and competent--for he did not drink at all +of liquors--he appeared and was resolute at his work. He was becoming +more and more considered. That he, somehow, knew the town so well, was +in his favor. More than one case of importance was decided in another +way from which it might have been, because of his knowledge of the +outcasts and their connections, and how they had been used or trifled +with on this occasion or on that one. He was zealous and studied +furiously, and in the mere letter of the law became most confident. +His examination was a trifling thing, and, once admitted to the bar, he +did not remit his efforts. He was valuable to the firm. He was their +watch-dog, and he suggested many things. + +One day the senior partner called Harlson in, and a long conference was +held. The younger man was offered a partnership on condition that he +would make a specialty of certain branches of the firm's varied +practice; but the offer had its disadvantages. It was not in the line +political at all, but in one with vexatious business demands and +requisites; yet it was accepted in a moment. And within the next week +all the wicked, nervous night-life was abandoned, all the friendships +formed there put upon probation, all the soiled sentiment made a thing +to be ended surely and forgotten, if possible. + +There were some wrenches to it all. Camille learns to love sometimes, +and Oakhurst, the gambler, does not want to part with one who has stood +a friend in an emergency. But Camille knows that, for her, few flowers +are even annual, and Oakhurst is practical and a fatalist. + +From that day, all his life, Grant Harlson kept away from close touch +with this ever-existing group who live from day to day because they +have been branded and do not care. Good friends he ever had among +them, but they never claimed him, though, on many occasions, the men +served him. They recognized the fact that he had never been more than +an adopted wanderer among them, and rather prided themselves upon him. +In later times he would occasionally exchange a word or two on that old +life with some one who had grown outwardly respectable, with some +one-time thug, later saloon-keeper and alderman and what may follow, +and would be reminded of what happened on the night when the mirrors +were all broken, and the Washington woman shot the man she was seeking, +or when "we did the Coulson gang;" but it had long grown to seem unreal +and dreamlike. He grew away from the memory, and there was no glamour +to him in what might attract some other men to evil-doing, because to +him there could be no novelty. He was a past-master in the ceremonials +of fallen, reckless human nature, and the ritual bored him. He +deserved no credit further than that. True, he was but young when he +learned the rites, but that he was not still a member of the order was +only because his ambition was dominant and his tastes had changed. +That his will was strong, that he had tastes to develop, was because of +the blood which filled his veins, and of nothing else. He had gone +with a current absolutely, though swimming and always keeping his head +above water until he swam ashore. Yet, as told in the beginning of +this chapter, he always said to me that he did not regret this +experience of abandonment. And he became a man seeking place and money. + +He liked to visit his old home, and was faithful to his old crony, his +aging mother, still; and, for a time, after any of these sojourns among +the birds and squirrels and in the forest, he would be distrait and +preoccupied with something; but all this would wear off, and then would +come the press for place and pelf again. He was not entirely +unsuccessful, and finally he married, as a prospering young man +should--married a woman with money and presence for a hostess, and with +traits to make her potent. He lived with her for a season, and found +another, without his dreams and sympathies and understandings, but with +a will and a way. + +I do not care to tell the story of it,--indeed, I do not know it,--but +the man learned the old-fashioned lesson, which seems to hold good +still, that for a really comfortable wedded life a little love, as a +preliminary, is a good thing always--usually a requisite. The woman +lacked neither perception nor good sense. It was she who proposed, +since they were ill-mated, they should live apart, and he consented, +with only such show of courtesy as might conceal his height of +gladness. There were money features to the arrangement made, and it +was all dignified and thoughtful. The world knew nothing of the +agreement, though that generation of vipers, the relations of Mrs. +Grundy, wondered why Mr. Harlson's wife and he so lived apart, and if +either of them were opium-eaters, or dangerous in insane moods. The +relations of Mrs. Grundy have the reputation of the universe on their +hands, and, the task being one so great, they must be pardoned if they +err occasionally. + +From the day he was alone, Grant Harlson appeared himself again, and I +speak knowingly, for I was with him then. His old self seemed then +restored. The buoyancy of boyhood was his as it had never been to me +since we were young together. It matters not what a chance,--this is a +land where all men drift about,--but I was in the city near him now, +and the old relationship was resumed. We rioted in the past of the +country, and we visited it together. As time went on, Harlson seemed +to forget that he was, or ever had been, a married man, and eventually +the woman found other things in life than awaiting old age without +social potency, and suggested, from a distance, that the separation be +completed. Perhaps there was another man. I know that Harlson did not +hesitate. He responded carelessly, and then reverted to things +practical. + +The reflection came that the mismated in this present age must +ordinarily bear the burden to the end. Collusion, which in such case +is but a term for a mutual business agreement, is not allowable. The +social problem is a puzzle the solution of which is left to those whose +ideas were given to them stereotyped. The separation was delayed, but +was, vaguely, a thing possible. And Harlson laughed and threw out his +arms, and made friends of many women. + +They were the variety of his life, which else was a hard-working one. +He was not a saint nor a deliberate sinner. He but drifted again. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII. + +"EH, BUT SHE'S WINSOME." + +"Eh, but she's winsome!" + +Grant Harlson entered my room one evening with this irrelevant +exclamation. + +I have remained unmarried, and have learned how to live, as a man may, +after a fashion, who has no aid from that sex which alone knows how to +make a home. + +Harlson, at this time, had apartments very near me, and we invaded each +other's rooms at will, and were a mutual comfort to each other, and a +help--at least I know that he was all this to me. I have never yet +seen a man so strong and self-reliant or secretive--save some few who +were misers or recluses, and not of the real world--who, if there were +no woman for him, would not tell things to some one man. We two knew +each other, and counted on each other, and while I could not do as much +for him as he for me, I could try as hard. He knew that. + +"Eh, but she's winsome!" + +He went to the mantel, took a cigar, and lit it, and turned to me +indignantly: + +"You smoke-producing dolt, why are you silent? Didn't you hear my +earnest comment? Where is the trace of good behavior you once owned?" + +"Who's winsome?" + +"She, I tell you! She--the girl I met to-night. And you sit there and +inhale the fumes of a weed, and are no more stirred by my announcement +than the belching chimney of an exposition by the fair display around +it!" + +"You big, driveling idiot, how can I know what you are talking about? +You come in with an obscure outburst of enthusiasm over something,--a +woman, I infer,--and because the particular tone, and direction, and +mood of your insanity is not recognized within a moment, you descend to +personalities. If your distemper has left you reason enough for the +comprehension of words, sit down and tell me about it. Who's winsome? +What's winsome? And have you been to a banquet?" + +"There is a degree of reason in what you say--that is, from the point +of a clod. I'll tell you. I've met a woman." + +"I dare say. There are a number in town, I understand." + +"Spoken in the vein of your dullness. A person not sodden with +nicotine and dreams would have recognized the fact that I had met a +Woman, one deserving a large W whenever her name is spelled, a woman of +the sort to make one think that all poems are not trickery, and all +romances not romance." + +"What's her name?" + +"Do you suppose I'll tell you, you scheming wife-hunter! If I do, +you'll get an introduction somehow, and then you'll win her, for I'm +afraid she has good sense." + +And Harlson laughed and looked down in the brotherly way he had. + +"But this is nonsense. Why don't you tell me something about her? Is +she fat and fifty and rich, or bread-and-buttery and white-skinned and +promising, or twenty and just generally fair to look upon, or +twenty-five and piquant and knowing, or some big, red-haired lioness, +or some yellow-haired, blue-eyed innocent, with good digestion and +premature maternal ways, or----" + +"Rot! She's a woman, I tell you!" + +"All right. Answer questions now categorically." + +"Go ahead." + +"How old is she?" + +"Twenty-seven or eight." + +"Married?" + +"No." + +"Ever been married?" + +"Certainly not." + +"How do you know?" + +Harlson looked surprised, and then he became indignant again. + +"Alf," said he, "you have good traits, but you have paralysis of a +certain section of your brain. You don't remember things. Don't you +think I could tell whether or not a woman were married?" + +I did not answer him off-hand. I could not very well. He knew that +his reply had set me thinking of many a curious test and many a curious +experience. Harlson had an odd fad over which we had many a debate. + +It occurred usually upon the street cars. He would make a study of the +women in the car when we were together--it seemed to amuse him--and +tell me whether they were married or not. He would not look at their +hands--that would be a point of honor between us--but only at their +eyes, and then he would say whether any particular woman were married +or single, and we would leave it to the rings to decide. + +Sometimes he would lose, but then he would only say: "Well, if she +didn't wear a wedding ring she should have done so," and would pay for +the cigars we smoked. + +He had some sort of fancy about their eyes which I could never quite +understand. He said that a woman who had been very close to a man, who +had been part of him in any way, had nevermore the same look, and that +the difference was perceptible to one who knew the thing. I tested him +more than once, and I found that he had never actually failed. +Sometimes the woman with the look had proved unmarried, but there were +facts that made the difference. + +One night Harlson and I were wandering about the city, mere driftwood, +after a dinner, and our mood carried us into the haunts of those +without the pale, not that we cared for any new emotion or excitement, +but that we wanted to look at something outside the commonplace. To me +there might be, of course, some novelty in the things that might +confront us, though to Harlson they were, at their utmost, but a +reminiscence. We went where a man alone was not in safe companionship, +but there were enough who knew my companion well, and all was curious +to me, without even the spice of care for self. + +It chanced that at one period of the wandering, very late at night, or, +rather, early morning, Harlson became hungry, and insisted upon +entrance to a restaurant where were gathered the very refuse of the +reckless and non-law-abiding, and I went with him, perforce, and saw a +motley gathering. There were all sorts of people there, from thief to +pander, all save those who might retain a claim to faint +respectability. Harlson demanded comparative cleanliness at our table, +and the food was fairly decent. We ate, then smoked, and looked about +us. + +I have seen many people, and many strange faces, but never such a +person nor such a face as of an old woman who sat at that early hour of +the morning at a table near us. The figure was a warped and withered +caricature, the face that of a hag, a creature vixenish and viperish, +and mean and crafty. It was the face of a procuress of the lowest and +most desperate type, of a deformed she-wolf of the slums, of the worst +there is in all abandoned human nature, and Harlson was as interested +as I was disgusted and repelled. He noted the woman closely. + +"By Jove! look there!" he said. + +"What is it?" + +"Look at her hand." + +I looked. I saw a hand which was a claw, a strong, shriveled thing +with long, dirty nails and a vulturous suggestion. It was not a +pleasant sight. On the third finger of the left hand, though, was a +slight gleam amid the carnivorous dullness. There was a slender band +of gold there, a ring worn down to narrowness and thinness. I turned +to Harlson, but he spoke first: + +"Do you see that old wedding ring?" + +"Yes." + +"It's queer. It's good, too. There's a streak of what was good left +in everything, it seems to me. I'm going to talk to her." + +"Don't do it. She'll throw the plate in your face." + +"No, she won't." And he rose and went over to the table of the beldame +and sat down beside her. She looked up at him glaringly. He did not +smile, nor, apparently, make any apology or excuse, but began talking +to her, looking at the ring, and saying I know not what. And I watched +that miserable old woman's face and wondered. There was more than one +emotion shown--fierce resentment at first, then the half fear of the +hound or the hound-bitch yielding to the master, and then the yielding +of the heart, not touched, perhaps, for a quarter of a century. +Harlson talked. The woman did not speak for minutes, then made some +short reply, and then, a little later, there were tears in her old foxy +eyes. + +He rose, glared at the one or two hard-faced waiters who had ventured +near him, and took upon a card something she said. Then he came back +to me as the old woman left the place. + +"Queer-looking, wasn't she?" he said. + +"Decidedly," said I. "What were you talking about?" + +"Oh, nothing but the ring. It's wonderful how they always wear the +ring when they have the right to." + +"But what was the use of it all? What came of your talk?" + +"Nothing to speak of. It was only a fad of mine. I have a right to an +occasional whim, haven't I? I'll be hanged if I'll see a wedding ring +worn that way buried in unbought ground. The old hag was a marvel of +all that is unwomanly and sinful. But that ring shall be properly +buried, and the hand that wears it, because it _does_ wear it. So I'm +going to take the woman out of this and put her where she will not have +to be a monster in order to live." + +And he did what he said he would do. He found a place in some old +women's home for that aged demon, and one day he made me go with him to +see her. Maybe it was the different dress and the different +surroundings, but, it seemed to me, her eyes were not as they were in +the low restaurant. The hand that wore the thin gold ring was clean in +its pitiful shrunkenness. The creature looked neither hunted nor +hunting. She was but an old woman going to the grave so near her, and +going, I could not but imagine, to find the one who had given her that +gold circlet some half century ago. I rather fancied Harlson's fad. +As for him, when I told him so, he only said: + +"Oh, of course. Peter told the third assistant bookkeeper to credit +Harlson with such or such an amount." And he added; "If those people +don't take good care of that old woman there'll be a new +superintendent." But they took good care of her. + +This is lugging in an incident at great length as an illustration, but +I know of no other way to explain how Harlson so expressed himself when +I asked him how he knew whether the woman of whom he had been talking +was married or not. He felt confident enough. + +"Well, what is she like? Can't you describe her? Has she seared your +eyes with her loveliness?" + +"She hasn't seared my eyes. She has only opened them. Listen to me, +you thing of mud! She is just a little brown streak." + +"That's an odd description of a woman." + +"It's the correct one, though. She's just a little brown streak of a +thing." + +"Well, I've heard of a man in love with a dream, and in love with a +shadow, but never before did I hear of one infatuated with a streak. +Where did you meet this creature? Have you known her long?" + +"Only for a month or so, and but slightly. We have not met half a +dozen times. It was only tonight, you see, that I began to know her +well. We talked together, and I got a glimpse of her real self--of her +slender little body, of her earthly tenement, of course, I had an idea +before. She is a lissom thing, with eyes like wells, and with a way to +her which conveys the idea of wisdom without wickedness, and which +makes a man wish he were not what he is, and were more fitted to +associate with her." + +"That's one good effect, anyhow. I don't know of any man who more +needed to meet such a woman. How long do you expect this influence to +last?" + +"Longer than one of your good resolutions, my son; as long as she will +have anything to do with me." + +"Does this brown streak of a saint live in the city? Is her shrine +easy of access? What are you going to do about it?" + +"She's not a saint; she's a piquant, cultivated woman; but she is +different, somehow, from any other I've ever met." + +"You've met a good many, my boy." + +His face fell a little. + +"Yes," he said, "and I almost wish it were different; but the past is +not all there is of being. There's a heap of comfort in that." + +"Cupid has thumped you with his bird-bolt, certainly. Why, man, you +don't mean to say that you're in earnest--that you are really stricken; +that this promises to be something unlike all other heart or head +troubles with you?" + +He laughed. + +"I am inclined to believe that the gravest diagnosis is the correct +one." + +"But how about the present Mrs. Harlson?" + +No friend less close than I could have asked such a question. I almost +repented it myself, when I noted the look which came upon the man's +face after its utterance. + +I suppose such a look might come to one in prison, who, in the midst of +some pleasant fancy, has forgotten his surroundings, and is awakened to +reason and suddenly to a perception again of the grim walls about him, +and of his helplessness and, maybe, hopelessness. Harlson left the +mantel against which he bad been leaning, and walked about the room for +a moment or two before speaking. + +"It's true," he said, "I am certainly a married man. The law allows +it, and the court awards it, as things are in this society, bound by +the tapes of Justice Shallow and the rest. I entered into a contract +which was a mistake on the part of two people. They discovered their +error, and rectified it as far as they could. Had they been two men or +two women who had gone into ordinary business together, and +subsequently discovered they were not fitted for a partnership, the law +would have assisted cheerfully in their absolute separation. But with +this, the gravest of all contracts, the one most affecting human +welfare, no such kindness of the statutes may exist. Some of the +churches say the contract is a sacrament, though the shepherd kings, +whose story is our Bible, had no such thought, nor was it taught by the +lowly Nazarene; but the law supports the legend, within certain limits. +What are we going to do about it?" + +I told him that I didn't know, and there were several thousand +people--good people--in the city facing the same conundrum. + +I called attention to the fact that the conventional band was a strong +one at this time, and could not be burst without a penalty, even by the +shrewdest. The dwarfs were so many that, united, they were stronger +than any Gulliver. And I added that, in my opinion, as a mere layman, +he was very well off; that he had been at least relieved of the great, +continued trouble which follows a mismating, and that it would be time +enough for him to chafe at the light chain still restraining him, when +he was sure he wanted to replace it by another. + +"It's not your fashion," I said, "to fret over the morrow, and it is my +personal and profound conviction that you have no more real idea of +marrying again than you have of volunteering in the service of the +Akhoond of Swat--if there be an Akhoond of Swat at present. You're +only wandering mentally to-night, my boy, dreaming, because this wisp +of a young woman of whom you have been telling has turned your brain +for the time. You'll be wiser in the morning." + +All this I said with much lofty arrogance, and a great assumption of +knowing all, and of being a competent adviser of a friend in trouble, +but, at heart, I knew that, in Harlson's place, I should not have shown +any particular degree of self-control. I have never felt the thing, +but it must be grinding to occupy a position like that of this man I +was addressing. The serving out of a society sentence must be a test +of grit. + +We dropped the discussion of the problem, and Harlson referred to it +again but incidentally. + +"The fact is," said he, "I had almost forgotten that I was not as free +as other men. I have not regulated my course by my real condition. +I've drifted, and there have been happenings, as you know well. +There's Mrs. Gorse. I've never concealed anything. Those who know me +at all well know my relationships, but I imagine that I have been +deceiving myself. I am not a free agent--though I will be. It's not +right as it is." + +"And when am I to see this woman who has interested you, and restored +the old colors to the rainbow? You will allow me to admire her, I +suppose, if only from a distance?" + +"Oh, yes! Come with me to the Laffins' to-morrow night. She'll be +there, I learned, and I said I was going to be there too. Come with +me. Of course, you understand that if she smiles on you at all, or if +you appear to have produced a favorable impression upon her, I shall +assassinate you on our way home." + +I told him that I thought my general appearance and style of +conversation would preserve me from the danger, and that I would take +the risk and accompany him. + +The next night I met Jean Cornish. We were destined to become very +well acquainted. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII. + +THE WOMAN. + + Only a little brown woman she. + Man of the world and profligate he, + Hard and conscienceless, cynical, yet, + Somehow, when he and the woman met, + He learned what other there is in life + Than passion-feeding and careless strife. + There came resolve and a sense of shame, + For she made as his motto but "Faith and fame." + + The world is foolish: we cover truth; + We're barred by the gates that we built in youth. + Two were they surely, and two might stay, + But she turned him into the better way; + His thoughts were purified even when + He chafed and raged at the might-have-been; + He learned that living is not a whim, + For the soul in her entered into him. + + He fights, as others, to win or fall, + And the spell of the Woman is over all. + Bravely they battle in their degree, + For--"The woman I love shall be proud of me!" + And the man and woman, the one in heart, + May be buried together or hurled apart, + But the strong will battle in his degree, + For--"The woman I love shall be proud of me!" + +There were men and women, and music and flowers, and some of the people +had intelligence, and I drifted about at the Laffins' party, and rather +enjoyed myself. Of course I wanted to see the woman a fancy for whom +had gripped Harlson so hardly. I had forgotten about her until, with a +pleasant and clever person upon my arm, I had found something to eat +and had come upstairs again, and released her to another. I wandered +into an adjacent room, and there ran upon Harlson among a group. I was +presented to Miss Cornish. + +I do not know how to describe a woman. This one, whom I have known +better than any other woman in the world, is most difficult of all for +me to picture. She stood there, not uninterested altogether, for, no +doubt, Harlson had been telling her already of his closest friend, his +lieutenant in many things, and I had an opportunity to study her with +all closeness as we exchanged the commonplaces. I understood, when I +saw her, how it was that he had referred to her so absurdly as a little +brown streak of a thing. Little she was, assuredly, and brown, and so +slender, that his simile was not bad, but the brownness and the +slenderness were by no means all there was noticeable of her. She was +not imposing, this woman, but she was not commonplace. Supple of +figure she was, and there were the big eyes this stricken friend of +mine had told me of, and rather pronounced eyebrows, and her lips were +full and red, and there was that fullness of the chin, or, rather, the +vague dream or hint or vision of a daintily double chin at fifty, which +means so much, but the forehead was what a woman's should be, and the +glance of the eyes was clean and pure, though, in a clever woman's way, +observant and comprehensive. It was a cultivated and fascinating woman +whom I met. + +We talked together, and Grant Harlson looked on gratified, and she +seemed to like me. She made me feel, in her own way, that she liked me +because she knew of me, and as we were talking I felt that she was +paying, unconsciously, the greatest compliment she could to the man +beside us. I knew it was because of the other, and of something that +he had said of me, that she was so readily on terms of comradeship. +And I knew, in the same connection, and from the same reasoning, that +she had already begun to care as much for him as he for her--the man +who, the night before, had so comported himself with me. Of course, it +appears absurd that I could reach such a conclusion upon so little +basis, but to tell when people are interested in each other is not +difficult sometimes, even for so dull a man as I. + +"You have known Mr. Harlson many years, I believe," she said, and added +smilingly: "What kind of a man is he?" + +"A very bad man," I replied, gravely. + +She turned to him in a charming, judicial way: + +"If your friends so describe you, Mr. Harlson, what must your enemies +say? And what have you to say in your own defense? What you yourself +have owned to me in the past is recognition of the soundness of the +authority." + +"I haven't a word to say. Of course, I had not expected this +unfriendly villain to be what he has proved himself, but what he says +is, no doubt, true. I'm going to reform, though. In fact, I've +already begun." + +"When was the revolution inaugurated?" + +He looked at her so earnestly that there came a faint flush to her +cheek. "Since my eyes were opened, and I saw the light," he answered. + +She diverted the conversation by turning to me, and saying that, while +the information I had given her was no doubt valuable, and that she +should regulate her course accordingly, and advise all her friends to +do the same, yet she felt it her duty to reprimand me for telling the +truth so bluntly. She knew that I had done it for the best, but if +there were really any hope for this wicked man, if he had really +decided upon a new life, we ought to encourage him. Did I think him in +earnest? + +I told her that it hurt me to say it, but that I had no great +confidence in Mr. Harlson's protestations. He was of the earth, +earthy. A friend, it was true, should bear a friend's infirmities, but +he should not ask other people to bear them, nor should he testify to +anything but the truth. Mr. Harlson might or might not be in earnest +in what he had declared, but, even if in earnest, there was the matter +of persistency. I doubted seriously his ability to overcome the habits +of a lifetime. + +She was becoming really interested in the chaffing. + +"What is the nature of Mr. Harlson's great iniquity?" + +"There, Miss Cornish, I am justified in drawing the line in my reply. +I have conscientiously explained that he was, in a general way, a +villain of the deepest dye, but to make specifications would be +unfriendly, and I know you wouldn't have me that." + +Harlson said that he was very much obliged for my toleration, or would +be until he got me alone, and Miss Cornish showed a proper spirit, and +so I left them. But I had no evidence that she believed what I had +said. + +As we walked home together in the early morning, Harlson told me more +of the young lady. She was living with an aunt, he said, and was, +otherwise, alone in the world. She had but a little income, barely +enough to live on, but she had courage unlimited, and tact, and was not +insignificant as a social factor. She had the sturdiness of her +ancestry, in which the name of Jean ran. + +"I like it," Harlson said; "it fits her--'Jean Cornish'--little brown +'Jean Cornish'--little leopardess, little, wise, good woman." + +I told him that he was mixing his similes, and that in a broad, +comprehensive way he had become a fool. + +"I tell you I'm in love with her already," he blurted out, "and +somehow, some day, I will have her, and wear her and care for her!" + +"But, my dear boy, don't be insane. There is the problem we were +discussing last night. Have you a solution of it? And first catch +your hare. Have you caught your pretty hare yet? I'll admit it's +possible. Women are fools over such fellows as you when they should be +adhesive to good, plodding members of society, like the friend who is +now advising you, but Miss Cornish is not a fool, you see, and I don't +think you deserve her." + +"For that matter, neither do I," he answered; "but I will deserve her +yet. I must do more of many things, and cease to do many things. I +believe I comprehend better now than I ever did the words in the +service, 'We have done those things and left undone,' and all that. +But you'll see a difference. I'll make her proud of me. That's the +right way to become clean, isn't it, old man?" + +I said I thought it a wholesome and commendable resolution, on general +principles, and, of course, the idol would gradually disintegrate. All +idols were of clay. But it didn't matter about the idol, so long as +the effect was produced. He might count on me any time for good +advice. He only glared at me, and called me hard names, and we dropped +in at the club and finished our cigars, and separated. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX. + +PURGATORY. + +And Grant Harlson made love to Jean Cornish and won her heart. + +But all the time, unconsciously, he was a man of false pretensions, one +dishonorable and unworthy of her. His friends knew of his marriage and +its sequel. He had never concealed nor thought of concealing his +condition, and it never occurred to him that Jean Cornish was not aware +of it. He had supposed her, if she cared for him as he hoped, to be +somewhat troubled, but to understand that he would do no mean thing, +and that all would be well in time. Then came the sorrow of it, for +Jean Cornish learned, quite accidentally, that Grant Harlson was a man +with a living wife. + +She would not believe it at first, and, when convinced, was dazed and +could not understand. No such shock had ever before come into her +life. This man, of whom she had made a hero, a trickster and a liar! +It seemed as if the world were gone! There was a meeting and an +explanation, and she learned how wrong she had been, in one way. + +He put the case earnestly and desperately. He would not yield her. He +knew she loved him, and he knew she was too good and wise to suffer +forever herself or let him suffer because, in society, there were +blunders. There was a way out--a clean, right way--and they must take +it. He could get a divorce on grounds of mere desertion, and three +people, at least, would be better off. It was pitiful, the scene, one +afternoon. He had called to see her, and was pleading with her. It +was in the drawing-room, and there were stained windows they both +remembered in later years. He had talked of his bondage and of his +hopes. She was not quite herself; she was suffering too much. I know +what happened. Grant told me once of the wrench of him then, and of +all the scene. There had been a fierce appeal from him. He had become +almost enraged. + +"And so," he said, "you would have a man's marriage like the black +biretta of Spain that is drawn over the prisoner's head before they +garrote him?" + +She did not move nor speak, but stood straight and silent, her hands +hanging at her sides with the palms loosely open, the very abandonment +of pathetic helplessness. + +Such a little woman, to withstand a storm of passion! + +As he wondered at her curiously blended strength and weakness, a +sun-shaft blazed through the crimson glass of the upper window. The +reddened light, falling on her up-springing almost coppery locks, +seemed to the man's excited fancy a crown, of thorns, crimsoned with +blood, and there was, oddly enough, a cross in the window. + +The thought of another vicarious sacrifice awed him. Must this be one, +too? + +"Mistakes, dear, are not crimes. Can you not understand? I have been +mistaken, have suffered, have atoned for my error. Is that enough?" + +"But," she said, and her voice seemed to have suddenly grown old and +thin, "you have no right to talk of mistakes. She is your wife." + +"The biretta, that ends all, again! No, not so. It is as insane and +inhuman to force two people to remain in wedlock after it has become +odious to them, as it would be to force them into that marriage at +first. Oh, my tender-hearted little one, can you not see that the +bondage is more humiliating, more craven than is the idea of the +veriest chattel mortgage? Yet you refuse to let the injured one go +free, as you would not refuse the poorest prodigal whose one chance for +home and happiness was passing from his sight." + +"I cannot answer you when you discuss learnedly on such questions," she +said, with a weary dignity, "for I have never thought about them. Why +should I? It has always seemed to me that a man with more than one +wife was a--a--Mormon. It is all so dreadful. Surely, if a marriage +is anything, it is a vow before God." + +"It is you that make the mistake now," he said, "for the mere form of +marriage is nothing but the outward evidence of a union that has +already taken place. The first is the vow before God--not the latter. +I understand why you think all this; clergymen have so long been called +upon to officiate at marriage rites that, with the fatherly assumption +notable in the order all the world over, they have grown to regard +themselves as the especial and heaven-appointed guardians of the +institution. It is all so grotesque when one remembers how ready they +are to 'solemnize'--save the mark!--marriage, no matter what the +conditions. Have the candidates to be known as right and fitting +persons? Is there even the simplest formula of preparatory +examination? None! Two wholly unsuited people may rush into +marriage--and misery--any day by simply presenting themselves before a +sleek-faced person who mumbles drowsily over their clasped hands, and +calls it a vow before God!--as he hurries back to his dinner!" + +Still she was silent. + +An errand boy trudging by whistled a few bars of the wedding march, +doubtless heard that day at some open church door. + +"Dear, there is a higher, holier law of the great Power, who made us +what we are, than this one of slavish obedience to a tradition. Why +must our feet go in the burning ruts?" + +"It is not the well-worn ruts that burn, but the by-paths," she +answered, "and oh! _how_ they burn!" + +"Let me lift you in my arms and carry you over them, then, that your +feet may not touch. Do not be unjust to yourself. Cannot you see how +right, how good it is? It is not as if I came to you from another +woman----" + +The girl faced around on him almost fiercely. + +"No, you could not be so bad as that! To have felt the morning kiss of +another woman, to have watched her good-night smile, and then to have +come to me--that would have been too base, too degrading--I should have +hated you because I despised you. I should have loathed you +instead----" + +"Of loving me! Be honest and true, little Jean--you do care." + +"Yes, I have cared." + +"And do still?" + +"Yes." + +Her tone was as cold and as clear as the sound of an icicle striking +the frozen earth in the fall. It angered him, and his voice shook +roughly. + +"A man who binds up his life in the love of a woman is a fool! Because +she is all the world to him, all he works to receive praise from, all +he fears in the blaming, he thinks her capable of as much love as +himself. And even as he watches, he sees her pass from fervor into +apathy. Her affection is but the dry husks of what he hoped to find. +You never cared!" + +"Grant," she said, earnestly, "you have told me to be honest. I will +be. I think"--with a little laugh--"that if I had been a man I should +not have been a coward. I shall not be now. You wrong me and yourself +when you say that I never cared. It is because my caring has been so +much a part of myself that I have never been able to stand aloof and +look and comment upon it. It was just me. When I lived, it lived; +when I die----" + +"My love!" + +"When--no. I do not believe it can die even then! I think it is a +part of my soul, and will outstand all time." + +She hesitated as if devising words to express herself with even more +sweet abandon. There was a certain loving recklessness in what she +uttered now: + +"Not care? I wish you, too, would understand! Perhaps it is because +we care in such different ways. I don't know, but to me it has been +all! There is no joy, no pleasure, however petty, through all the day, +but it brings with it the swift desire to share it with you. Every +morning I waken with your half-uttered name on my lips, as though, when +I slipped hack through the portals of consciousness into the world of +reality, I came only to find you, as a timid child awakes and calls +feebly for its mother. Once, not long ago, in a street accident, such +as you know of in our busy city, I seemed very close to death, and in +an instant my spirit seemed to have overleaped the peril and the +terrible scene, and was with you. Afterward, one who sat near me said +that, while some screamed or prayed, I said only 'Grant,' and he asked, +lightly, now that danger was over: 'Is the great general your patron +saint?' And I--I did not know that I had said it, since the name can +never be as near to my lips as it is to my heart." + +Harlson did not reply. He could not then. His head was bent. + +"And when you were ill--ah! then it was the hardest of all! I dreamed +of the little things I could do for you--how your dear head could rest +on my shoulders, and it might help to ease the pain; how I could save +you from annoyances; how I could--love you!" + +"Then come, love of me; I need you--we need each other." + +"No, I think a woman who loves a man could scarcely bear that he had +ever been bound to another still living, or even dead." + +"But----" + +"No. It is not right." + +It is not always that even he who is right and strong in the +consciousness of it, and resolute toward the end he is seeking may +express himself as he would in protest against the object yielding to +what is in the social world, though it be wrong. Grant Harlson looked +down upon the slender figure and into the earnest face and was helpless +for the time. Yet he was fixed of mind. + +He was very tender with her, but this was not a man to give up easily +what was his. He pleaded with her further, but in vain. She would not +yield. + +And so the weeks passed, with the problem yet unsolved. They were +still much together, for she could not turn him away, and he would not +stay away. There was more pleading on his part, and more anger +sometimes. It seemed to him absurd that lives should be blighted +because of a legend. + +And she was unhappy, and, it may be, gradually attaining to broader +views and moral bravery. Jean Cornish was courageous, but there was +the legend. + +And suddenly all was changed, the problem finding a solution not +expected. Grant Harlson's wife was, as has been said, a woman of +reason and of force, and she had her own life, with its objects. She +chafed under the bond which still connected her with Harlson, and she +broke it cleanly. It was she, not he, who sought divorce, and the +simple logical ground of incompatibility of temperament was all that +was required, in the State where she resided. There was no defense. +Grant Harlson became free, and Jean Cornish, since his freedom came in +this way, promised, at last, to become his wife. + + + + +CHAPTER XX. + +TWO FOOLS. + +They loved. They were to marry, but there were the conventionalities +to be observed, and they could not be wed at once. That was understood +by Grant Harlson, though he chafed at it a little. + +There were certain months to be passed before the two would be as one +completely, and those months were very sweet months to the twain. They +were much together, this man and woman who were plighted to each other, +for why should they not be, since they were to become man and wife, and +since neither was so happy under other circumstances? They were not +what a profound, unsentimental person would consider models of +common-sense, but they were not depending upon the opinions of +profound, unsentimental persons for anything in particular; so this did +not affect them. + +They exhibited no great interest in society, though each commanded a +place there, but they would go to church or theater together, and they +were much addicted to luncheons. She would come down town at noon to +meet him, and then--what banquets! Sometimes they would visit the +restaurants where there were fine things, and he would seek to make of +her a gourmet. He taught her the beauties of the bobolink in his later +attractive form, the form he assumes when, after having been +transformed into a reed bird, he comes back on ice to the region where, +in the midsummer, he disported himself, and stirs the heart of the good +liver, as in June he did the heart of the poet. He taught her the +difference between Roquefort cheese, that green garden of toothsome +fungi, that crumbly, piquant apotheosis of the best that comes from +curd, and all other cheeses, and taught, too, the virtues of each in +its own way. She learned the adjuncts of black coffee and hard +crackers. She even learned to criticise a claret, and once, with +Harlson, she tested a _pousse cafe_, but only once. He didn't approve +of it, he said, for ladies. And, besides, a _pousse cafe_ was not of +merit in itself. It was but a thing spectacular. + +And in the matter of made dishes from the man about town she acquired +much wisdom. + +The man in his great happiness was buoyant and fantastic, and well it +was that the woman, too, possessed the sense of humor which makes the +world worth occupancy, and that the two could understand together. He +was but a foolish boy in this, his delicious period of probation. + +And she was but a loving woman who had given her heart to him, who +understood him, and who, in a woman's way, was of his mood. It was an +idyl of the clever. + +At the more modest restaurants were the lunches of these two the most +delightful. He would, somehow, find queer little places where all was +clean and the cooking good, but far away from the haunts of men, that +is, far away from the haunts of the men and women they knew, and there +the two would have great feasts. At one unpretending place he had one +day found pork and beans,--not the molasses-colored abomination +ordinarily sold in town, but the white beans, baked in a deep pan, with +the slashed piece of pork browned in the middle of the dish,--and this +place became a great resort for them. They would sit at a small table, +and have the beans brought on, and mustard of the sharpest and +shrewdest, and dishes such as formed a halo about the beans, which were +the central figure, and then would they eat, being healthy, and look +into each other's face, and riot in present happiness, having certain +brains and being in love. The very rudeness of it pleased him mightily. + +One evening they had dined together. She had been shopping or doing +what it is that women do down town of afternoons, and he had met her at +the close of business, and they had eaten together as usual, and when +they emerged into the open air it was but to learn that the mercury had +dropped some few degrees, and that the jacket she wore was light for +the occasion. She became cold before her home was reached, and he was +troubled. + +"I wish it were months later," he said. + +"Why?" + +"Because then I could care for you, and see to it that you did not +suffer from the chill. I don't know though, even with the admirable +supervision I'd have over you then, whether you would take proper care +of yourself, my Brownie. What would you do?" + +"I don't know quite," she answered. "I think I should want to get +pretty near the grate. I'd pull one of the tiger-skins or bear-skins +on the rug, very close to the fire, and I'd curl down on the fur and +turn about a little, and get very warm." + +He assumed a lofty air, and announced that he was under the impression +that, when chilled, she would do nothing of the sort! He had his own +ideas regarding the treatment of chills of small, brown women. What +would really occur, what the solid, tangible fact of the occasion would +be, required no effort to describe. He should merely draw a great +easy-chair before the grate. Then some one would be picked up and +turned about before the fire until thoroughly warmed and with full +circulation of the blood again. She should be simply, but +scientifically, toasted: + + "I'd hold you thus before the brand, + To catch caloric blisses, + And you should be my muffin and + I'd butter you with kisses." + +She responded that the gift of doggerel was not one to be desired, and, +furthermore, that she was not a muffin, nor anything in the culinary +way. + +All of which, of course, served but as provocation to further +flippancy, and, for days later, the lady was referred to as his own +sweetest soda biscuit, his bun, his precious fruit-cake, and so on, +until a bakery's terms were so exhausted. All this was, no doubt, +silliness. + +The woman, in her way, was not less inexcusable than the man. She was +as much in love as he, and the strictly personal equation was as strong +within her. She would watch him when they were at lunch together, and +if her gaze was not so bold and feeding as was his, it was at heart as +earnest. + +She wanted to do something, because of the passionately loving mood +within her. She wanted to "hurt" him just a little, and one day +occurred an odd thing. + +They were chatting across a little table in a restaurant almost vacant +save for them, and he had made some grotesque sweetheart comment which +had pleased her fancy, lovingly alert, and she suddenly straightened in +her seat and looked at him with eyes which were becoming dewy, but said +never a word. + +She looked all about the room in one swift, comprehensive glance, and +then, leaning over, with her small right hand she smote him hardly upon +the cheek. There was no occasion for such demonstration. It was but +the outpouring, the sweet, barbaric fancy of the woman, in line with +the man's grotesquerie, and not one whit less affectionate. And he, +thus smitten, made no remonstrance nor defense, further than to refer +incidentally to his slender sweet assailant as "a burly ruffian." + +That evening, at her home, he suddenly, just before leaving, picked up +the woman, as if she were a baby, and threatened to carry her away with +him. She did not appear alarmed, at least to the extent of hysteria, +though she struggled feebly, and said that somebody was a big, brutal +gorilla, and that she did not propose to be snatched from the bosom of +her tribe to be conveyed to some tree-top refuge, and there become a +monster's bride. + +He would assert at times, and the idea was one he clung to with great +persistency, that the person with him was not even of the race, but had +been substituted in the cradle for a white child stolen by an Indian +woman with some great wrong to avenge. He would call her his Chippewa +Changeling, and at lunch would be most solicitous as to whether or not +the Wild Rose would have a little more of the chicken salad. Would the +Flying Pawn try the celery? Some of the jelly, he felt confident, +would please the palate of the Brown Dove. Might the white hunter help +her to a little more of this or that? Only once she rebelled. She was +laughing at something he had said, and he referred to her benignantly +as his Minnegiggle, which was, admittedly, an outrage. + +A great fancy of these two it was to imagine themselves a couple apart +from the crowd, and unversed in city ways, and just from the country. +Not from the farm would they come, but from some town of moderate size, +for they prided themselves on not being altogether ignorant. Far from +it. Was there not a city hall in Blossomville, and a high-school, and +were there not social functions there? But, of course, it was a little +different in a great city, and it would be well not to mingle too +recklessly with the multitude. + +They would even visit the circus when one of those "aggregations" made +the summer hideous, and he would buy her peanuts and observe all the +conventional rules laid down for rural deportment on such occasions. +The whimsicality, the childishness of it all, gave it a charm. They +appreciated anything together. Harlson said, one day: + +"I believe that an old proverb should be changed. 'He laughs best who +laughs last,' is incorrect. It should be: 'He laughs best who laughs +with some one else.' And that is what will make us strong in life, my +love. Some trying times may come, but we shall be brave. We'll just +look at each other, and laugh, because we shall understand. We know. +We, somehow, comprehend together. Don't you see? Of course you do, +because, if you didn't understand, what I am saying would be nonsense." + +She understood well enough. She understood his very heart-beats. It +had grown that way. + +"I am getting very much like you, I think," she said, "and I want you +to understand, sir, that I do not regret it. I'm afraid I'm lost +totally. I'm not alarmed that it is as if your blood were in my veins. +What can a poor girl do?" + +"You might as well abandon yourself," he answered. "What is it they do +in a part of Africa, when something to last forever is intended? I +think they drink a little of another's blood. Could you do that?" + +She laughed. "I could drink yours." + +He bared his arm in an instant, and sank the point of a pen-knife into +a small vein. The red current came out upon the smooth skin prettily. +She looked at Harlson's act in astonishment, and turned a little pale; +then, all at once, with a great resolve in her eyes, she bent swiftly +forward and applied the red of her lips to that upon the arm. She +raised her head proudly, and he looked at her delightedly. + +"How did it taste?" + +"Salty"--with a pucker of her lips and a desperate effort to keep from +fainting. + +"Yes, there is much saline matter in blood. Even such admirable blood +as that you have just tasted is, no doubt, a little salty. Are you +sorry you did it?" + +"No," she said, bravely, but she was pallid still. + +"Allow me to remind you that science has learned many things, and that +you will have, literally, some of my blood in your veins. Not much, it +is true, but there will be a little." + +She replied that she was glad of it. + +And henceforth, when her moods most pleased his lordship, he would +comment on the good effect of the experiment, and when they differed he +would regret that she had not taken more of him. + +They were two fools. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI. + +"MY LITTLE RHINOCEROS-BIRD." + +It was not all sweet nonsense, though, with this man and woman. Some +practical things of life became theirs soon, because of the love which +was theirs. + +A curious thing, and to me a pleasant thing, occurred one night. I was +with Grant Harlson in his room, and he was lying on a sofa smoking, +while I lounged in an easy-chair. Harlson was pretty well fagged out, +for it was the end of a hard day for him, as, for that matter, it had +been for me. There was a ward to be carried against a ring, and +Harlson was in the midst of the fray for half a hundred reasons, and I +was aiding him. He headed the more reputable faction, but in the +opposition were many shrewd men and men of standing. + +It was no simple task we had before us, and we had been working hard, +and we were not quite satisfied with the condition of things. The +relations of two men of prominence we wanted to know particularly. Had +there, or had there not, been a coalition between them? If there had, +it would change Harlson's policy, naturally, but work so far had been +conducted on the supposition that an ancient political feud between the +two was not yet ended, and that upon the support of one against the +other he could count with reasonable certainty. We were discussing +this very matter when there came a ring at the door, and a cab-driver +entered. + +"There is a lady in my cab," said he, "who wants to see Mr. Harlson." + +Harlson was puzzled. + +"I don't know what it means," he said. "Come down with me and we'll +solve the mystery," and we went to where the cab was drawn close to the +sidewalk. + +The door was opened with some energy, and a woman's head appeared--a +head with brown hair. + +"Grant!" + +"Jean! What is the matter? What brings you here at such a time? My +poor child." + +She laughed. "There is nothing the matter, you big baby. Only I heard +something I thought you would care to know, and which I thought you +should know at once, so I came to tell you." + +"Yes, tell me." + +"It was this way, you see." All this impetuously. "I was at Mrs. +Carlson's party, and among the guests were Mr. Gordon and Mr. Mason, +with their wives. I didn't listen intentionally, of course, but Mr. +Mason and Mr. Gordon came close to where I was sitting and I heard your +name mentioned, and I suppose that made my hearing suddenly acute, and +I heard in two sentences enough to know that those two gentlemen are +working together against you in something political. So, sir, knowing +your foolish interest in such things, and actuated by my foolish +interest in you, I told aunt I'd like to go home early, and a cab was +called and I was put into it, and I told the driver to come here, +and--you know the rest, you staring personage." + +Women can read men's faces, and Jean Cornish must have been repaid for +what she had done by the mere look of the man before her. He said +nothing for a moment, and then uttered only these words softly: + +"My little rhinoceros-bird." + +"Will you kindly explain the meaning of that extraordinary phrase?" + +He did not answer just then, but got into the cab with her and directed +the driver to her home. + +She had removed her wraps in the drawing-room when she turned to him +and demanded further information as to the term applied to her. He +made comment on some people's general ignorance of natural history, +took a big arm-chair, placed the young lady in a low seat close beside +him, and, assuming a ponderous, pedagogical air, began: + +"The rhinoceros, my child, as you may possibly be aware, is a huge +beast of uncouth appearance, with a horn on its nose, and inhabiting +the wild regions of certain wild countries, notably Africa. It is a +dangerous animal, and has enemies galore and friends but few. The +hunter counts it a noble prize, and steals upon it in its fastnesses, +and even a rhinoceros may not withstand the explosive bullet of modern +science. Somewhat sluggish and dull, at times, is the rhinoceros, and +it is in his careless, listless moods that he is liable to fall a +victim. Well for him is it on such occasions that he has a friend, a +guardian, a tiny lover. Well for him that the rhinoceros-bird exists! +The rhinoceros-bird is a little thing which never deserts the mighty +beast. It perches upon his head or back, and flutters about him, and +makes of him its world. To the rhinoceros-bird the rhinoceros is all +there is of earth. And well is the brute repaid for liking the bird +about him. Though the monster may have stupid periods, the bird has +none, and, hovering about bushes, fluttering over openings, ever alert, +watchful and solicitous, naught may escape its eye, and, danger once +discovered, swift is the warning to the slumbering giant, and then woe +to the intruder on his domain! And such, dear pupil, is the +rhinoceros-bird. And you are my rhinoceros-bird." + +She understood, of course. The look in her eyes told that, but her +words belied her. + +She said that, in a general way, the simile had application, the +rhinoceros being a huge beast of uncouth appearance. + +And, so far as this conversation was concerned, he perished miserably. + +But that was only the beginning of a practical exhibition of the +woman's earnestness and acuteness, and her great love. It was but +evidence that she was to be, what she became in time, his +rhinoceros-bird in all things, his right hand, prompter in such +relations as a woman's wit and woman's way best serve. She was of him. +But with two who blended, so there must be many added intervals of +delicious nonsense before the reality of marriage came. + +They made odd names for things. They ate lobster together one day, and +he, in some mood, kept misquoting and distorting passages from the +Persian poet, and thenceforth broiled lobster was known to the two as +"a Rubaiyat." And there were a score or two of other bizarre titles +they had made for things or for localities, with the instinct of so +embalming a perfect recollection. And each had certain tricks of +speech, of course, as have all human beings, and these two, so living +in each other, caught all these, and mocked and gibed and imitated, +until there was little difference in their pronunciations. To some one +overhearing them they might have been deemed as of unsound mind, though +they were only talking in love's volapuk. + +They resembled each other, these two beings, as nearly in bodily +fancies as in other ways. Each, for instance, was a great water lover, +each addicted to the bath and perfumes, he perhaps because of his long +gymnasium training, and she from the instinct of all purity which +appertains to all women worth the owning. + +One afternoon they had fled from the city and were walking on the +beach, beside the lake, with no one near them. For a mile in either +direction, they could look up and down and see that no intruder was in +sight. He sent flat stones skipping and galloping over the waves with +some whirling trick of underthrow, and tried to teach her the device of +it, and they sat upon the sand and ate the luncheon he had secured +preparatory to this great excursion, a luncheon devised with great +skill by a great caterer, and packed in a paper box which would go in a +coat-pocket, and they talked of many things and delighted in being +together, and alone. And he, floundering in the sand, must needs get +much of it inside his shoe. And then this reckless person, having +removed the shoe to rid himself of the sand, must needs step in a +treacherous spot and wet his stocking dismally. And the sensible thing +to do was to remove the stocking and dry it in the sun. + +There should be, so far as its relation to society is concerned, no +difference between the human hand and the human foot, but, somehow, the +average man is not, as a rule, ready to exhibit his bare feet +carelessly to the one woman, and to the average woman a similar +revelation would seem a thing indelicate; but these two were not of the +common sort. Harlson pulled off his stocking as carefully as he would +have done a glove, and spread it on the sand where it might dry, and, +laughing at his disaster, he dabbled with his foot in the sand. + +She looked at him curiously. She looked at the foot, too, being a +woman, and this being the man above all others to her, and then she +laughed out joyously and frankly. + +"I don't believe any one but you would have done that, Grant. And what +a foot you have!" + +He replied, with much pomposity, that it was the far-famed Arabian +foot, the instep of which arched so beautifully that water could flow +beneath it without wetting the skin. Just at present, though, he +thought a little water might run over it to advantage, instead of +under, the sand being a trifle mucky. And why would no one else have +done such a thing? And he was glad she liked his foot; in fact, he was +glad she liked anything about him, and rather wondered that she did, +and the world had become to him a good place to live in. + +All of which was but the sentimentalism which appertains to a man and a +woman in love with each other, but the drift of thought continued in +the direction suggested by his action and her comment. They looked at +the lake, with its shifting coloring of green and blue and purple, and +he told her how, some day, he would teach her to swim like a Sandwich +Island beauty, and she said she would like to learn. She liked the +water. + +"I'm very glad of that," he commented; "I like it myself. I am a great +bather. I admire the English for the 'tubbing' which is made such a +subject of jest against them by other people. There must be water into +which I may tumble when I rise in the morning, or water in abundance in +some way, else I should be a trifle uncomfortable all day long. I +don't mean just a mild lavatory business, you know, but a plunge or a +cataract, or something of that sort. It is barely possible, my dear, +that you are going to marry a man whose remote ancestors were the +product of evolution from otters, instead of monkeys. Think of that!" + +And she confessed, half-blushingly, her own regard for water, and that +she had been laughed at by other women for what they deemed a fancy +carried to an extreme. And she said she was very glad that a great big +Somebody was dainty in his ways. While in many respects she could not +approve of him, it was a comfort, at least, to be enabled to think of +him as ever clean and wholesome, and as having one weakness of which +she could condone. + +He looked at her majesty, as she sat enthroned upon a little mound, but +to her small oration made no reply. He was worshiping her bodily. And +from this conversation came a sequel, a day or two later, which was but +the worshiping put into things material. Of his love and the bath he +would have fancies, and he wanted what touched her to be from him. She +was surprised by a cumbrous package which, opened, revealed great +things for a woman's dalliance with water--the soft Turkish towel, vast +enough to envelop her, the perfumed soaps, and even the bath-mittens. +And she was a little frightened, maybe, at the personality of it all, +but she recognized the nature of his fancy, and but loved him the more +because he had it. It was an odd gift, it is true, but they were odd +people. They were very close together. + +An eventful day in other respects, that is, from a lover's point of +view, was this one of the outing by the lake. The stocking dried, and +in its proper place upon the foot, and inside the shoe again, and the +lunch dispatched, there was more idle rambling by the lakeside, and, of +course, more lovers' talk. At one place there was a little wood which +extended to the water's edge, and there she perched herself in a seat +formed by the bent limb of an upturned tree, and he produced from his +coat-pocket a paper of macaroons for her dessert, and she sat there +munching them like a monkey, while he sprawled, again upon the sand. +She made a pretty picture, this small, brown woman, thus exalted; to +him a wonderful one. Suddenly she ceased her munching and spoke to him +imperiously: + +"Come here, sir." + +He rose and went to her, standing before her, obedient and waiting. +She reached up and took his face between her hands, and pulled his face +gently downward until the faces of the two were close together. She +looked into his eyes. + +"I merely called you up, sir," she said, "to impart a certain piece of +information. I am in love with you." + + + + +CHAPTER XXII. + +TWO FOOLS STILL. + +When a woman, who is all there is in the world to a man, falls into the +deliciously generous mood of abandonment, and is revealing what is in +her heart, the man, I understand from various excellent authorities, +gets about as near heaven as he may ever do in the flesh. And Harlson +formed no exception to the rule. The small personage on the limb of +the fallen tree owned him as absolutely and completely as ever +Cleopatra owned a slave, or Elizabeth a servitor. + +"I don't know what to say," he murmured. "There aren't any +words--but--you understand." + +She pulled his face still closer and kissed him on the lips, though +blushing as she did so, for this young woman had fancies regarding lips +and regarding kisses which should be entertained by a greater number of +the women of the land. Then she told him to lie upon the sand again; +that she wanted to look at him. And he obeyed, machine-like. + +She was in a fantastic mood assuredly. She watched him, her cheek +resting upon one little hand for a long time, a thoughtful look upon +her face. Then she broke out impetuously: + +"How smooth and clean your face is! Do you--do you go to--you know +what I mean. Do you go to a barber every day?" + +He answered that he shaved himself. + +"Is it very hard?" she asked. + +"Well, that depends." + +She studied once more for a long time, then spoke again, on this +occasion blushing furiously: + +"Grant, dear, I want to _do_ things for you always. I want to take +care of you. It seems to me that, some time, I might learn, you know. +It seems to me that some time I might almost"--with a little +gasp--"shave you." + +He wanted to gather her up in his arms and smother and caress her, +after that climax of tender admission, but she waved her hand as she +saw him rising. He fell back then upon his ignoble habit of talking +vast science to her. + +"My dear, that dream may, I hope, be realized. I'd rather have my face +slashed by you than be shaved by the most careful, conscientious and +silent barber in all Christendom, but shaving is a matter of much +gravity. It is not the removal of the beard which tests the intellect; +it is the sharpening of the razors." + +"How is that, sir?" + +"All razors are feminine, and things of moods. The razor you sharpen +to-day may not be sharp, though manipulated upon hone or strap with all +persistence and all skill. The razor you sharpen to-morrow may be far +more tractable. Furthermore, the razor which is comparatively dull +to-day may be sharp to-morrow, without further treatment." + +She said that, in her opinion, that was nonsense, and that he was +trying to impose upon a friendless girl, because the topic was one of +which men would, ordinarily, have a monopoly, and regarding which they +would assume all wisdom, and, perhaps, make jests. + +"I am in earnest," he said. "Razors have moods, and are known to sulk. +But science has solved the conundrum of their antics. It has been +discovered that whetting changes the location of the molecules of +metal, that there is frequently left what is not a perfect edge after +the supposed sharpening, but that, given time, the molecules will +readjust themselves, and the edge return. My dear, you are now, or at +least should be, a woman rarely learned in one great mystery. Is there +no reward for merit?" + +She scorned reply to such a screed, but slid down from her perch with +the remark that she had "et hearty." A man who had eaten near them in +a restaurant had used the expression, and they had both promptly +adopted it. + +He rose, went to her side, and leaned over, and inhaled the perfume of +her hair. + +She looked up mischievously. "You are a big black animal!" + +As already remarked, these two were very foolish. + +That same evening, when Grant Harlson reached his office, he found a +note awaiting him. It was a pretty, perfumed thing, and he knew the +handwriting upon it well. He had not seen the writer for three months. +He had almost forgotten her existence, yet she had been one with whom +his life had been, upon a time, closely associated. He opened the +envelope and read the note: + + +MY DEAR GRANT: Yon know I am philosophical--for a woman--and that I +have never been exacting. I have formed habits, though, and have +certain foolish ways. One of these ways was to be much with Grant +Harlson, not very long ago. I lost him, somehow, but still have a +curiosity to see his face again, to note if it has changed. I have +something to say to him, too. Please call upon me to-night. ADA. + + +The effect of the note upon the man was not altogether pleasant. He +felt a certain guiltiness at his own indifference. This clever woman +of the social world he knew was not to be trifled with by one unarmored +or irresolute. He had hoped she would forget him, that his own +indifference would breed the same feeling upon her part, and now he +knew he was mistaken, as men have been mistaken before. There was an +interview to be faced, and one promising interesting features. He +started on the mission with a grimace. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII. + +JUST A PANG. + +Mrs. Gorse was at home, the servant said, and Harlson found her +awaiting him in a room which was worth a visit, so luxurious were its +appointments and so delicate its colorings and its perfumes. A woman +of admirable taste was Mrs. Gorse, and one who knew how to produce +dramatic effect. But dramatic effects as between her and Grant Harlson +were things of the past. People sometimes know each other so well that +the introduction of anything but reality is absurd. Mrs. Gorse +attempted nothing as Harlson entered. She was not posed. She was +standing, and met him at the door smilingly. + +"How do you do, Grant?" + +"I'm well," he said, "and how are you? Certainly you are looking well." + +"I am not ill. I think I am not plumper nor more thin than usual. I +imagine my weight is normal." + +He laughed. + +"And how much is that?" + +The woman flushed a little. + +"It is hardly worth the telling, since you do not remember. There was +a time, you know, when you had some whim about it, and when I had to +report to you. You professed to be solicitous about my health or +personal appearance, or whatever it was that led you to the demand. +And you have forgotten." + +He was uneasy. "That is true, Ada. I did have that fad, didn't I? +Well, I forget the figures, but I see that you are still yourself, and +as you should be." + +She shrugged her shoulders. "Take the big chair. It's the one you +like best. You see I don't forget certain trifles" (this with a slight +trembling inflection). "And tell me about yourself. I haven't seen +you for three months and over. Haven't you been out of town. Couldn't +you have written me a note." + +"I've not been out of town. I might have written you a note, but I +didn't suppose it mattered." + +"Yet there is a legend to the effect that men and women sometimes get +to be such friends, and have such relations, that a sudden unexplained +absence of three months matters a great deal." + +"That is so. But--what is the use, Ada? It doesn't matter with us, +does it? Are we not each capable of taking care of ourselves? Were we +ever of the conventionally sentimental?" + +She sighed. "I suppose not. But it grew that way a little, didn't it, +Grant? Has it all been nothing to you?" + +"I won't say that," he answered. "It has been a great deal to me, but +isn't it wiser to make all in the past tense now? What have we to +gain?" + +She tried to smile. "Nothing, I suppose." Then breaking out fiercely: +"You are a strange man! You are like the creature Margrave, in +Bulwer's hard 'Strange Story,' with mind and body, but with no soul nor +sympathy." + +The man in his turn became almost angry. He spoke more grimly: + +"You are not just! Have I broken any pledge or violated any promise, +even an implied one? Have we not known each other on even terms? It +was but a pact for mutual enjoyment until either should be weary. We +have no illusions. You a Lilith of the red earth, not of Adam; you a +woman sweet and passionate and kind, but soulless, too, and fickle; and +I a trained man, made as soulless by experience, we met and agreed, +without words, to break a lance in a flirtation. And that both lances +were splintered doesn't matter now. We had joy in the encounter, +didn't we, and more after each surrendered captive? But it has been +only mimic warfare. It has not been the real thing." + +"Evidently not--to you! Unfortunately one forgets sometimes, and then +one is endangered." + +He was troubled. He rose and came to her side, and put his hand upon +her head, the usually proudly carried head of a handsome woman, now +bowed in the effort to hide a face which told too much. "It is all +unfortunate. It is unfortunate that we met, if you care as you +profess. I had counted us as equal; that you were, with me, caring for +the day and never for the morrow, so far as we two were concerned." + +She raised her face. "Do you love me?" she said. + +He hesitated. "I am fond of you." + +"Do you love me?" + +"In the sense that I suppose you mean, no." + +She did not look at him for a moment; then she rose swiftly to her feet +and looked squarely in his face. + +"Is there some one else?" + +He did not answer. + +"Is there some one else?" + +"Yes." + +"Then it _is_ unfortunate, as you say--and for her." + +"What do you mean?" + +"I mean that I will not endure to be dropped by you as a child drops a +toy of which it is weary. I mean that I will not surrender you to some +new creature who has intervened! What does it matter that there has +been no pledge between us? You have made me love you! You know it! +The very being to each other what you and I have been is a pledge for +the future. Oh, Grant!" + +The woman's eyes were full of tears, and her voice was a moan. The man +was suffering both shame and agony. He knew that, careless as he had +been, the relations had grown to imply a permanency. The woman was at +least justified in her claims that words are not always necessary to a +contract. What could he do? Then came the thought of Jean. One hair +of her brown head was more to him than this woman, or any other woman +he had ever known. He was decided. + +"I am a brute, Ada," he said, "or, at least, I have to be brutal. We +do care for each other in a certain way, and we have found together +many of the good things in living, but we are not lovers in the greater +sense. We never could be. It means much. It means a knitting +together of lives, a oneness, a confluence of soul and heart and +passions, and a disposition to sacrifice, if need be. We have not been +that way, and are not. We have been more like two chess-players. We +have had a mutual pleasure in the game, but we have been none the less +antagonists. The playing is over, that is all. It doesn't matter who +has won the game. We will call it drawn, or you may have it. But it +is ended!" + +She stood with one hand upon her breast. There came a shadow of pain +to her face, and a hard look followed. + +"It is nonsense talking about the game. The playing ended a year ago, +and you were the winner. Now you are careless about the prize! Well" +(bitterly), "it may not be worth much--to you." + +"It is worth a great deal. It has been worth a great deal to me. But +I must relinquish it." + +"Why did you make me care for you?" she demanded, fiercely, again. + +"I did not do more than you did. As I said before, we played the game +together. It is but the usual way of a flirting man and woman. We +should have each been more on guard." + +The woman was silent for a little time, and it was evident that she was +making an effort at self-control. She succeeded. She had half-turned +her back to Harlson, and when she again faced him, she had assumed her +dignity. + +"You are right, after all," she said. "I did not consider your own +character well enough. You tire of things. You will tire of the woman +you love now. And you will come back to me, just because I have been +less sentimental, and, so, less monotonous than some others. Whether +or not I shall receive you time will determine. Is that the way you +want me to look at it?" + +He bowed. "That is perhaps as good a way as any. It doesn't matter. +Will you shake hands, Ada?" + +She reached out her hand listlessly, and he took it. A minute later +and he was on the street. And so the last link of one sort with the +past was broken. It was long--though he had no concealments from +her--before he told Jean of this interview. And then he did not tell +the woman's name, nor did she care to know. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV. + +AS TO THOSE OTHERS. + +Time passes, even with an impatient lover, and so there came an end at +last to Grant Harlson's season of probation. There was nothing +dramatic about the wedding. + +To him the ceremony was merely the gaining of the human title-deed to +the fortune which was his on earth, and to Jean Cornish it was but the +giving of herself fully to the man--that which she wished to do with +herself. There were few of us present, but we were the two's closest +friends. They were a striking pair as they stood together and plighted +their faith calmly: he big and strong, almost to the point of +burliness, and she slight, sweet and lissom. There was no nervousness +apparent in either, perhaps because there was such earnestness. And +then he carried her away from us. + +They had not been long away, this newly wedded couple, when they +returned to the home he had prepared. As he remarked half grimly to +me, in comment on lost years, they had met so late in the nesting +season that time should not be wasted. Of that home more will be told +in other pages, but it is only of the two people I am talking now. + +I noted a difference in their way when I first dined with them, which I +did, of course, as soon as they had returned. I had thought them very +close together before in thought and being, but I saw that there was +more. The sweet, sacred intimacy which marriage afforded had given the +greater fullness to what had seemed to me already perfect. But I was +one with much to learn of many things. And yet these two were to come +closer still--closer through a better mutual understanding and new +mutual hopes. It was long afterward when I understood. + +It was after dinner one day, and in the sitting-room, which was a +library as well. They were going out that evening, but it was early +still, and he was leaning back in a big chair smoking the post-prandial +cigar, and she coiled upon a lower seat very near him, so near that he +could put his hand upon her head, and they were talking lightly of many +things. She looked up more earnestly at last. + +"Will you ever tire of it, Grant?" + +He laughed happily. + +"Tire of what, Brownie?" + +"Of this, of me, and of it all; will you never weary of the quietness +of it and want some change? You must care very much, indeed, if you +will not." + +He spoke slowly. + +"It seems to me that though we were to live each a thousand years, I +would never tire of this as it is. But, of course, it will not be just +this way. We could not keep it so if we would, and would not if we +could." + +"Why should it change?" + +He drew her close to him and placed his hand upon her face and kissed +her on the forehead. + +"I shall be more in the fray again. I must be. You would not have +your husband a sluggard among men, and that will sometimes take me from +you, though never for long, because I'm afraid I shall be selfish and +have you with me when there are long journeys. And it will change, +too, you know--because you see, dear, there may be the--the others. +You hope so, with me, do you not?" + +Her face remained hidden for a little time. When she raised it, there +was a blush upon her cheeks, but her eyes had not the glance he had +anticipated. + +"No!" she said. + +He did not reply, because he could not comprehend. He looked at her, +astonished, and she broke forth recklessly: + +"I love you so, Grant! I love you so! I want you, just you, and no +one else. Are we not happy as we are? Are you not satisfied with me, +just me? You are like all men! You are selfish! You--oh, love! You +love me so--I know that--but you think of me--it seems so, anyhow--as +but part of a scheme of life, of the life which will make you happy. +My love, my husband! why need it be that way? Why am I not enough? +Why may we not be one, just one, and be that way? I want nothing more. +Why should you? Are we not all our own world? I will be everything to +you. Oh, Grant!" And she ceased, sobbingly. + +The man said nothing. He could not understand at first; then came upon +him, gradually, a comprehension of how different had been their dreams +in some ways. It was inexplicable. He thought of the mother instinct +which gives even to the little girl a doll. He had supposed that his +own fancies were but weak reflections of what was in the innermost +heart of the woman he loved so. He blurted out, almost roughly: + +"'Portia is Brutus' harlot, not his wife.'" Then added, bitterly, "It +is the man who is saying it this time, you see." + +A second later, shame-faced and repentant, he had caught the slender +figure in his arms and was holding it close to him. + +"I'm a brute, dear," he said, "and there is no excuse for me. I +understand, I think. We dreamed differently. That was all. Had you +loved me less, dear heart, you would have been more like other women. +But it doesn't matter. It shall be as you say, as you may wish or +fancy. We thought unlike, yet you were as much the pivot of my thought +as I of yours. It was of you, for you, and because of you, I had my +visions. That is all. And we will not talk more of it." + +She nestled closer to him, and he stroked the brown mass of her hair +and remained silent. Some moments passed that way. Then she roused +herself and sat up squarely, and looked him bravely in the face. + +"I have been thinking," she said, "and I can think very well when I am +so close to you, with my head where it is now. I have been thinking, +and it has occurred to me that I was not a wise, good woman, and I want +you to forgive me." + +His answer involved no words at all, but it was meet for every purpose. +She pushed him away from her, and spoke gravely: + +"Will you do something for me, Grant?" + +"Yes." + +"Will you do it now?" + +"Yes--if it be good for you." + +"I want you to do this. I want you to imagine me some one else, some +one you regard, but for whom you do not care particularly. And then I +want you to tell me what you think, what you would think best about +the--'the others'"--blushing more fairly than any rose that ever grew +on stem. "Will you do that?" + +His face was very earnest. "I will try," he said, "but it will be +difficult to imagine you someone else. How can I do that when I can +look into your eyes, my little wife? I'll try, though." + +"Then talk to me, now." + +He was troubled. He did not know how to express himself in the spirit +asked of him, and he did not look at her in the beginning. + +"Sweetheart, you are a part of me, and you are the greatest of what +there is of my life. It is about you that all my thoughts converge. I +do not suppose there will be any happier, any dearer time ever than +this we are passing together, with none to molest us, or divert us from +each other. You know me well now. I am what I am, and never was a man +of stronger personal moods or one who so hungered for the one woman. +And you are the one woman, the one physical object in the world, I +worship. There is no need that I tell you anything. And you have +learned, too, how I care for you in all greater, and, it may be, purer +ways. We are happy together. But, love of me, we are a man and wife, +an American man and wife, of the social grade--for there are social +grades, despite all our democracy--where, it seems to me, a family has +come to be esteemed almost a disgrace, as something vulgar and +annoying. And it seems to me this is something unnatural, and all +wrong. Whatever nature indicates is best. To do what nature indicates +is to secure the greatest happiness. Trials may come, new sorrows and +incumbrances be risked, but nature brings her recompense. I want you +the mother of our child, of our children, as it may be. I know what +your thought has been, I understand it now, but how can children +separate us? When a man and woman look together upon a child, another +human being, a part of each of them, a being who would never have +existed had they not found each other, a being with the traits of each +combined, it seems to me as if their souls should blend somehow as +never before. They are one then, to a certainty. They have become a +unit in the great scheme of existence. And so, darling, I have thought +and thought much. I have dreamed of you as the little mother, the one +who would not be of the silly modern type, the one who, with me, would +not be ashamed any more than were our sturdy ancestors of a sturdy +family, should we be blessed so. The one who would be glad with me in +the womanhood and manhood of it. And, as I said, it could never part +us. It would but make me more totally your own, more watchful, if that +were possible, more tender, if that could be, more worshipful of you in +the greater life of us two together, us two more completely. And that +is all. It shall be as you say, and I will not complain, for I know +your impulse in what you said and all its lovingness." + +She had listened to each word intently, and her face had flushed and +paled alternately. When he had done she snuggled more closely to him, +and still said nothing. When she did speak, this is what she said, and +she said it earnestly: + +"I was wrong, my husband; I was a selfish, infatuated woman, who loved +with one foolish idea which marred its fullness. You have taught me +something, dear. You could not give me the thought I had again, even +were you to try yourself, for I see it now. And----" + +She put her arms about his neck and buried her fair face upon the +pillow which afforded her such convenient shelter. As for the man, +there was something like a lump in his throat, but he spoke with an +effort at playfulness, though his voice wavered a little: + +"It is right, my love. And we will visit this nature of ours together. +It is the season now, and next week we go camping. I want to show old +friends of mine, the spirits of the forest, how fair a wife I've won." + +And, a few days later, there was a pretty little scene down town. +"Sportsmen's Goods," the sign above the doorway said, and in the +windows were numerous wooden ducks and dainty rods of split bamboo, and +glittering German silver reels and gaudy flies, and a thousand things +to delight the heart of a fisherman or hunter. Enter, a +broad-shouldered gentleman and a haughty wisp of a woman, the latter a +trifle embarrassed, despite her stateliness. + +"How are you, Jack?" + +This to the proprietor of the place, as he comes forward. + +"How are you, Harlson?" + +"This is Mrs. Harlson." The ceremony takes place. "Now, Jack, here's +a grave matter of business. Have you a private room? And I want you +to send in a lot of light wading-boots--the smallest sizes. And I want +some other things." And the list is given. + +And the lady and gentleman disappear into a small room assigned them, +and a lot of wading-boots are taken in, and time elapses. And, +eventually, lady and gentleman emerge again, the man's eyes full of +laughter, and the woman's eyes full of laughter and confusion, and a +package is made up. + +"Send it to my house, Jack," says the man, and the couple leave the +place. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV. + +MATURE AGAIN. + +Michigan is divided into two peninsulas, the apexes of which meet. + +The State is shaped like an hour-glass, with the upper portion twisted +to the left. About all the two peninsulas lie blue waters, the inland +seas, lakes Michigan, Superior and Huron. Upon the upper peninsula are +great mineral ranges, copper and iron, a stunted but sturdy forest +growth, and hundreds of little lakelets. The lower peninsula, at its +apex, is yet largely unclaimed from nature, but, toward the south, +broadens out into the great area of grain and apple blossoms, and big, +natty towns, once the country of oak openings, the haunt of Pontiac and +of Tecumseh, braided and crossed by one of Cooper's romances. + +It is with the crest of the lower peninsula that this description +deals. There exist not the rigors of the northern peninsula; there the +timber has not tempted woodland plunderers, nor have dried brook-beds +followed shorn forests, nor the farmer invaded the region of light +soil. There is the dense but stunted growth of the hard maple and pine +and beech and fir, and there are windfalls and slashes which sometimes +bridge the creeks. There are still black ash swales and dry beech +ridges, but they are not as massive as further south. There are still +the haunting deer and the black bear and the ruffed grouse, the +"partridge" in the idiom of the country, the "pheasant" of the South +and Southwest. There are scores of tiny lakes, deep and pure and +tenanted, and babbling streams, and there are the knighted speckled +trout, the viking black bass and that rakish aristocrat, the grayling. + +One way to cross from Michigan to Huron is in a canoe, threading one's +way from woodland lake to woodland lake, through brush-hidden +brooklets, without a portage. In this region the liverwort blooms +fragrantly beside the snow-bank in early spring, and here the arbutus +exists as in New England. The adder-tongues and violets and anemones +are here in rare profusion in their time, and the wandering gray wolf, +last of his kind, almost, treads softly over knolls carpeted with +wintergreen and decorated with scarlet berries. It is a country of +blue water and pure air, of forest depths and long alleys arching above +strong streams. + +This is the southern peninsula of Michigan in its northern part, and +here came, as the first suspicion of a tinge of yellow came to the +leaves of certain trees, as the hard maple trees first flashed out in +faint red, two people. + +There were three of them who came at first, for there was the man with +the wagon, engaged in the outlying settlement, who brought them fifteen +miles into the depths of the woodland. They came lumbering through an +archway over an old trail, the homesteader sitting jauntily, howbeit +uncertainly, upon the front seat--for the roadway tilted in spots--and +behind him a couple from the town, a man and a woman, the man laughing +and supporting his companion as the wagon swayed, and the woman +wondering and plucky, and laughing, too, at the oddness of it all. The +forest amazed her a little, and awed her a little, but from awe of it +soon came, as they plunged along, much friendliness. She was +receptive, this game woman, and knew Nature when she met her. + +In the rear of the wagon crouched or stood upright, or laid down, as +the mood came upon his chestnut-colored grandness, a great Irish +setter, loved of the man because of many a day together in stubble or +over fallow, loved of the woman because he, the setter, had already +learned to love and regard the woman as an arbitrator, as queen of +something he knew not what. + +And so the wagon rumbled on and pitched and tilted, and finally, in +mid-afternoon, reached a place where the road seemed to end. There was +a little open glade, but a few yards across, and there was dense forest +all around, and, just beyond the glade, the tree-tops seemed to all be +lowered, because there was a descent and a lake half a mile long, as +clear as crystal and as blue as the sky. A little way beyond the glade +could be heard the gurgling and ruffling of a creek, which, through a +deep hollow, came athwart the forest and plunged into the lake most +willingly. This was the place where these two people, this man and +woman, were to end their present journey, for the man had been there +before and knew what there to seek and what to find. + +And there was a creaky turn of the wagon, a disembarkment, and an +unloading of various things. There was all the kit for a hunter of the +northern woods, and there were things in addition which indicated that +the hunter was not alone this time. There was a tent which had more +than ordinarily selected fixtures to it, and there were two real +steamer-chairs with backs, and there were four or five of what in the +country they call "comforts," or "comforters," great quilts, thickly +padded, generally covered with a design in white of stars or flowers on +beaming red, and there were rods and guns and numerous utensils for +plain cooking. + +The wagon with its horses and its driver turned about and tumbled along +the roadway on its return, and there were left alone in the forest, +miles from civilization, miles from any human being save the driver +fast leaving them, the man and woman and the setter dog. + +They did not appear depressed or alarmed by the circumstance. + +The load from the wagon had been left in a heap. The man pulled from +it a camp-chair with a back, and opened it, and set it up on the grass +very near the edge of the glade, and announced that the throne was +ready for the Empress, not of Great Britain and India, nor of any other +part of the earth, but of the World; it was ready, and would she take +her seat? + +He explained that, as, at present, there were some things she didn't +know anything about, she might as well sit in state. So the Empress, +who was not very big, sat in state. + +The dog had pursued a rabbit, and was making a fool of himself. The +man selected from among the baggage left an ax, heavy and keen, and +attacked a young spruce tree near. It soon fell with a crash, and the +Empress leaped up, but to sit down again and look interestedly at what +was going on. + +The man, the tree fallen, sheared off its wealth of fragrant tips, and +laid the mass of it by the side of the great tree. Then from out the +wagon's leavings he dragged a tent, a simple thing, and, setting up two +crotched sticks with a cross-pole, soon had it in its place. He +carried the mass of spruce-tips by armfuls to the tent and dumped them +within it until there was a great heap of soft, perfumed greenness +there. Then, over all, he spread a quilt or two, and announced, with +much form, to her majesty, that her couch was prepared for her, and +that she could sit in the front of the tent if she wished. + +And he cut and put in place two more forked stakes, with a cross-bar, +and hung a kettle and built a fire beneath, and brought water and got +out a frying-pan and bread and prepared for supper. All articles not +demanded for immediate use were stowed away just back of the tent. +"And," he remarked, "there you are." + +The Empress rose from her camp-chair and investigated. + +"Are we to sleep in the tent, Grant?" + +"Yes." + +"What will we do if it rains?" + +"Stay in the tent." + +"But we'll get wet, won't we?" + +"No; we'll be upon the spruce-tops; the water will run under us." + +"Aren't there animals in the wood?" + +"Yes." + +"What will you do if they come about?" + +"I think I'll kiss you." + +The Empress of the World did not seem to fully enter into the spirit of +his carelessness. + +She had her imaginings, after all. She knew that she was all right, +somehow, yet she did not quite comprehend. But she knew her royalty. + +She rose and went to the entrance of the tent, and stepped in daintily, +and sat down in another chair which had been placed there for her +reception, and then inhaled all the sweetness of the spruce-tips, and +pitched herself down upon the quilts, and curled herself up there for a +moment or two, and then rose and came out again into the open, where +her husband stood watching her. + +"Do you like the woods, dear?" he said. + +"Don't you see?" + +He said nothing, but led her majesty to a seat for a time, while he got +ready for the evening meal--of food from the town for this first +time--and then, in a courtier's way, of course, suggested, that she aid +him. + +They cooked and ate the strips of bacon with the soft stale bread he +had brought, and drank the tea, and the shadows of the trees lengthened +across the glade, and the chestnut-hued setter came back to camp and +was gravely reprimanded by his master, and it soon became night, and +time passed, and the fire flashed against the greenery strangely, and +the man took the woman by the hand and led her to the entrance to the +tent, and said: + +"We must rise early." + +She entered the tent, and not long later he entered, also, or thought +to do so. He lifted the flap, which he had let down, and looked inside. + +She lay there upon the cushioned spruce-tips, and, as he raised the +white curtain, the moonlight streamed in upon her. + +She looked up at him, and smiled. + +The loving face of her was all he saw--the face of the one woman. + +He spoke to her. He tried to tell her what she was to him, and failed. +She answered gently and in few words. They understood. + +He entered the tent and sat upon the couch beside her as she was lying +there, and took her small hand in his, but said no more. From the wood +about them--for it was into the night now--came many sounds, known of +old, and wonderfully sweet to him, but all new and strange to her. + +"Ah-rr-oomp, ah-rr-oomp, ba-rr-oomp," came from the edge of the water +the deep cry of the bullfrog; from the further end of the lake came the +strange gobble, gurgle and gulp of the shitepoke, the small green heron +which is the flitting ghost of shaded creeks and haunting thing of +marshy courses everywhere. Night-hawks, far above, cried with a +pleasant monotony, then swooped downward with a zip and boom. It was +not so late in the season that the call of the whippoorwill might not +be heard, and there were odd notes of tree-toads and katydids from the +branches. There came suddenly the noise of a squall and scuffle from +the marshy edge of the lake, where 'coons were wrangling, and the weird +cry of the loon re-echoed up and down. The air was full of the +perfumes of the wood. The setter just outside the tent became uneasy, +and dashed into a thicket near, and there was a snort and the measured, +swift thud of feet flying in the distance. A deer had been attracted +by the fire-light. An owl hooted from a dead tree near by. There was +the hum of many insects of the night, and the soft sighing of the wind +through boughs. It was simply night in the northern woods. + +The man rose and went outside, and stood with one hand upon the +tent-pole at the front. He seemed to himself to be in a dream. He +looked up at the moon and stars, and then at the glittering greenery +deepening further out into blackness about him. He looked down toward +the grass at his feet, and there appeared near him a flash of gold. + +What Harlson saw was but a dandelion. That most home-like and +steadfast flower blooms in early springtime and later in the season, +with no regard to the chronology of the year. It was one of the +vagrant late gladdeners of the earth that his eye chanced to light upon. + +It held him, somehow. It was wide open--so wide that there was a white +spot in its yellow center--and close above it drooped, a beech-tree's +branch, so close that one long green leaf hung just above the petals. +And upon this green leaf the dew was gathering. + +The man looked at the flower. + +"Is all the world golden?" he said to himself. And he straightened and +moved and went from the tent to where the open was. He stood in the +glade in the moonlight, and wondered at it all. + +Here he was--he could not comprehend it--here, all alone, save for her, +in the forest, miles away from any other human being! He had wholly +loved but two things all his life--her and nature--and the three of +them--she, nature and he--were here together! It was wonderful! + +And there in that preposterous covering of canvas, half hid in the +forest's edge, was Jean Cor--no, Jean Harlson, belonging to him--all +his--away from all the world, just part of him, in this solitude! + +He wondered why he had deserved it. He wondered how he had won it. He +looked up at the pure sky, with the moon defined so clearly, and all +the stars, and was grateful, and reached out his hands and asked the +Being of it to tell him, if it might be, how to do something as an +offset. + +The night passed, and the sun rose clearly over the forest. The +chestnut setter roused himself from behind the tent, and came in front +of it, and barked joyously at a yellow-hammer which had chosen a great +basswood tree with deadened spaces for an early morning experiment +toward a breakfast. + +There issued from the white tent a man, who looked upward toward all +the greenness and all the glory, and was glad. + +He looked downward at the sward, and there was the little flower. And +the dew had run its course, and had gathered in a jewel at the leaf's +tip, and there, fallen in the midst of the disk of yellow, was the +product from the skies. There, in the flower's heart, was the perfect +gem--a diamond in a setting of fine gold! + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI. + +ADVENTURES MANIFOLD. + +"I've et hearty," said the woman, saucily, as the breakfast, for which +the birds furnished the music, was done. And then he initiated her +into the brief art of washing tin things in the gravel at the water's +edge. Then he informed her that target practice was about to begin, +and brought out four guns from their cases. + +Two of the pieces were rifles, and of each kind one was a light and +dainty piece. He said they would practice with the rifles; that when +she became an expert rifle-shot the rest would all be easy, and then +upon the boll of a tree at one side of the opening he pinned a red +scrap of paper, and shot at it. + +With the report half the scrap was torn away, and then he taught her +how to hold the piece and how to aim. + +She expressed, at last, a desire to shoot, and he gave her the little +rifle loaded. She aimed swiftly and desperately, and pressed the +trigger, and the echoes had not died away when she let fall the gun +upon the grass. + +"I'm hurt," she said. + +He sprang to her side, pale-faced, as she raised her hand to her +shoulder, but he brightened a moment later. He opened the dress at her +neck, and turned it down on one side, and there, on the round, white +shoulder, was a slight ruddy bruise. He kissed it, and laughed. + +"It'll be all right in no time. Now, do as I tell you." + +He put a cartridge in the piece again. + +"Try it once more," he said; "aim more deliberately and hold the stock +of the gun very tightly against your shoulder as you fire." + +"But it will hurt me." + +"No, it won't. Do as I tell you." + +She would have obeyed him had he told her to leap into the lake, and +the lake was deep. + +She set her lips firmly, held the gun hard against her shoulder, aimed +carefully and fired. + +The red spot flew from the gray trunk of the oak. She looked up amazed. + +"Why, it didn't hurt me a bit!" + +"Of course not. There is a law of impact, and you are learning it. +The strongest man in the world could not hurt you pushing you against +nothing. He could kill you with a blow. With the first shot your gun +gave you a blow. In the second it could only push you. Listen to the +wisdom of your consort!" + +She made a mouth at him, and he told her she'd had her "baptism of +fire," and soon they sallied into the forest, hunting. + +She was very pretty and piquant in her kilted dress and shooting jacket +and high boots. It was a formidable army of two. + +There were myriads of bees in the openings, and the fall flowers were +yielding up the honey to be stored, in the hearts of great trees, and +at noon-time they sat down in one of the openings for luncheon. + +He had shot only a couple of ruffed grouse, for it was a ramble rather +than a real hunt, this first mid-wood excursion of the pair, and she +had shot at various things, a grouse or two and squirrels, and missed +with regularity, and was piqued over it, but he had noted her +increasing courage and confidence and resolution with each successive +shot, and knew that he had with him, for the future, a "little +sportsman," as he called her. + +They built a fire, just for the fun of it, and a grouse was plucked and +broiled with much ado, and never was greater feast. And, the meal +over, he produced a cigar and--which was not really good form for the +woods--lay on the grass and smoked it, looking at her and talking +nonsense. + +She sat upon a log and delighted in the fragrance and the light, and +the droning sounds and bird-cries, and the new world of it to her. All +at once, her gaze became fixed upon some object a little distance away. +She reached out her hand to him appealingly. + +"What is that?" + +He rose and looked where she pointed. + +Years of decay had made of the trunk of a fallen tree but a long ridge +of crumbling, brown chips, and, upon this ridge, where the sun streamed +down hotly, lay something coiled in a black mass, and there was a flat, +hideous head resting upon it all with beady eyes which seemed, to leer. + +Harlson looked at it carelessly. + +"Big one, isn't it?" he said. + +"What is it?" she gasped. + +"What is it, you small ignoramus! It's a blacksnake and a monster. It +is one of the dreads of the small life of the wood, and it was one of +the dreads of my youth, and its days are numbered." + +He reached for his gun, then checked himself. + +"Shoot it." + +She picked up the little rifle and raised it to her shoulder, as calmly +as any Leather-Stocking in the land. + +The report came like a whip-crack, and up from the dead log leaped a +great writhing mass, which coiled and twisted and thrashed about, and +finally lay still. + +Harlson walked up and examined what he called the "remains." Half the +serpent's ugly head had been torn away by the bullet. + +"It was a great shot! 'And the woman shall bruise the serpent's +head!'" he quoted. "Egad, you've done it with a vengeance, my +huntress! And you are a markswoman among many, and thy price is above +rubies! Hooray!" + +She informed him, with much dignity, that she never missed such +monsters as were blacksnakes, and that her undoubted skill with the +rifle was due to the quality of the tutor she had owned, and, at the +same time, would he mind moving to some other place to finish his +cigar, for the sight of the dead monster was not a pleasant thing? + +And so was accomplished the woman's first feat with the gun; but on +that same day, before they had returned to camp, she had slain, at a +fair distance, a grouse which, when flushed, had sailed away with lofty +contempt for but a score of yards, and, alighting upon a limb close +beside the body of a tree, had stood awaiting, jauntily and ignorantly, +his doom. + +She was a proud woman when the bird came plunging to the ground, and of +that particular fowl he remarked, subsequently, when they were eating +it, that its flavor was a little superior to anything in the way of +game he had ever tasted, and he was more than half in earnest. + +And the nights were poems and the days were full of life, and the brown +cheeks of the woman became browner still, and she was referred to more +frequently than even in the ante-wedded days as merely of the tribe of +Chippewas. + +In one respect, too, she excelled in deserving that same title, for +your Chippewa, of either sex, takes to the water like a duck, as +becomes a tribe of the lake regions. He took her to the lake and +taught her not to fear it, and they frolicked in its waves together, +and she learned to swim as well as he, and to dive as smoothly as a +loon or otter, and was a water nymph such as the creatures of the wood +had never seen. He was very vain of her art acquired so swiftly, +though in conversation he gave vast credit to her teacher. And in the +catching of the black bass there came eventually to the nine-ounce +split bamboo in her little hands as many trophies as to his heavier +lancewood. One day, after she had become at home in the water, and had +better luck than he, and was lofty in her demeanor, he upset the boat +in deep water, and her majesty was compelled to swim about it with him +and assist at one end while he was at the other, in righting it. So +mean of spirit was he. + +All other things, though, were but the veriest trifle compared with the +adventure which came at last. He had made her wise in woodcraft, and +she could tell at the lake's margin or along the creek's bed the tracks +of the 'coon, like the prints of a baby's foot, the mink's twin pads, +or the sharp imprint of the hoofs of the deer. One day another track +was noted near the camp, a track resembling that of a small man, +shoeless, and Harlson informed her that a bear had been about. + +She asked if the black bear of Michigan were dangerous, and he said the +black bear of Michigan ate only very bad people, or very small ones. + +One afternoon they were some distance from the camp. They had been +shooting with fair success, and, returning, had seated themselves in +idle mood upon one end of a great fallen trunk, upon which they had +just crossed the gully, at the bottom of which a little creek tumbled +toward the lake. The gleam of a maple's leaves near by, already +turning scarlet, had caught her eye; she had expressed a wish for some +of the gaudy beauties, and he had climbed the tree and was plucking the +leaves for her, when, suddenly, the woods resounded with the fierce +barking of the dog in the direction from which they had just come. He +called to her to be ready to shoot, that a deer might have been +started, when there was a crashing through the bushes and the quarry +burst into sight. + +Lumbering into the open, turning only to growl at the dog which was +yelping wildly in its rear, but keeping wisely out of its reach, was a +black bear. The beast did not see the woman opposite him, but rushed +at the log and was half way across it when she screamed. Then it +paused. Behind was the dog, before the woman; it advanced slowly, +growling. + +Harlson, in the tree, saw it all, and, as a fireman drops with a rush +down the pole in the engine-house, he came down the maple's boll and +bounded toward the log. The bear hesitated. + +"Shoot! you little fool, shoot!" shouted the man, as he ran. + +Her courage returned in a moment, at least did partial presence of +mind. She raised the gun desperately, and the report rang out. The +bear clutched wildly at the log, then rolled off, and fell to the rocky +bottom, twenty feet below. Harlson seized his own gun and looked down. +The beast was motionless, and from a little hole in its head the blood +was trickling. + +And the woman--well, the woman was sitting on the grass, very pale of +face and silent. + +The man seized her, and half smothered her with kisses, and shouted +aloud to the forest and all its creatures that great was Diana of the +Ephesians! + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII. + +THE HOUSE WONDERFUL. + +And the bear's skin was tanned with the glossy black fur still upon it, +the head with the white-fanged jaws still attached and made natural +with all the skill of an artist in such things, and it lay, a great, +soft, black rug, upon a couch in the House Wonderful, or, at least, the +house to which Harlson gave that name. It seemed to him the House +Wonderful, indeed. + +Therein was held all there was in the world for him, and he was +satisfied with it all, and content, save that he felt, at seasons, how +little man is worthy of the happiness which may come to him sometimes, +even in this world. Yet it was not all poetry in the House Wonderful; +there were many practical happenings, and many droll ones. + +The House Wonderful, it is needless to say, was in the city. The +bear-skin was but one of many such soft trophies of the chase which +were spread upon the floors or upon soft lounges and divans. Over this +particular skin there was much said, at times, when there were guests. + +Jean would explain to some curious person, that she herself had shot +the original wearer of the skin, and that her husband was up a tree at +the time, and there would be odd looks, and he would explain nothing, +and then she, woman-like, must needs spoil the mystery by telling all +about it, as if any one would not comprehend some jest in the matter! +It was a home of rugs and books, and very restful. I liked to go +there, where they both spoiled me, and where the softness and the +perfume of it all made me useless and dissatisfied after I had come +away. There is no reason in the average man. But in the Eden was one +great serpent--not a real serpent, but a glittering one, like the toy +snakes sold at Christmas time. + +There is some weakness in our American training of girls. Visibly and +certainly the woman who marries a man engages herself to conduct his +household--to relieve him of all troubles there--because he is the +bread-winner. But very few girls seem trained with such idea, though +all girls look forward to a marriage and such mutually helpful compact +between two human beings. It is, of course, the fault of a social +growth, the fault of mothers, the fault of many conditions. And Jean +did not know how to cook! She was a woman of keen intelligence, of all +sweetness and all faithfulness, yet she found herself almost helpless +when she became the chatelaine of the castle where Grant was to come to +dinner. + +It is needless to tell of all that happened. The woman was adroit in +the engagement of domestics, and there were dinners certainly, and, +possibly, good ones, but the knowingness of it all was wanting. He +felt it, and wondered a little, but did not fret. He knew the woman. +One evening they were together, after dinner again, just as they had +been when he told her he would take her to the woods, and she lay +coiled up upon a divan, while he sat beside her. It was their +after-dinner way. She spoke up abruptly and very bravely: + +"Grant, I'm a humbug." + +"Certainly, dear; what of it?" + +"I mean--and it's something serious--I really am, you know, and I want +to tell you." + +"Go ahead, midget." + +She did not seem altogether reassured, but plunged in gallantly: + +"You thought I would be a good wife to you. You thought I knew +everything a woman should know who agreed to live together with the man +she loved, and make the most of life. But, Grant, I was and am really +a humbug! I don't know how to manage a house; I have to leave it to +the servants, and I can see enough, at least, to know that it isn't +what it should be. There are a thousand little fancies of yours I +don't know how to gratify, and I want to do it so, Grant! What shall I +do?" + +He responded by saying that he was very fond of his little Dora +Copperfield and that he would buy her a poodle dog. He added, though, +that she mustn't die--he needed her! + +There was a laugh in his eyes, and he was but the tyrant man enjoying +the discomfort of the one being to him; but when she curled a little +closer and looked up in earnestness, he relented. + +"That is nothing, dear," he said, "save that I'm afraid you have a +little work ahead. Yes, it is right that you should know what you do +not. You must learn. It is nothing for a clever woman, such as the +one I have gained. I look to you, love, for the home and all the +sweetness of it, and I wouldn't do that if I did not think that in the +end there would be all pride and comfort for you. Down East they call +this or that woman 'house-proud.' I want you to be 'house-proud.' No +wife who is that but is doing very much for all about her, and I won't +say any more, except that you must let me help you." + +And thenceforth ensued strange things. There were experiments, and +there was even a cooking-school episode, Harlson, at this period, +professing great weariness, and sometimes, after meals, simulating +pains which required much attention, though drugs were vigorously +refused. All he wanted was strictly personal care. It is to be feared +that he was not honest as to details, though honest as a whole. And he +would go marketing with the brown woman, who had become so practical, +and they became critical together, and the gourmands, wise old men +about town, whom he brought, occasionally, to dine with him, began to +wonder how it was that they found such perfection at a private table. +And, as for the woman, well, she passed so far beyond her clumsy Mentor +that he became but as the babe which doesn't know, and had nothing to +say in her august presence. He might talk about a cheese or a wine or +some such trifle, but how small a portion of living are cheese and wine! + +The first year of wedded life is experimental, though it be with the +pair best mated since the world began. There is an unconscious +dropping of all surface traits and all disguises, and a showing of +heart and brain to the one other. Never lived the woman so +self-contained and tactful that, at the end of a year, her husband, if +he were a man of ordinary intelligence, did not know her for what she +was worth; never the man so thoughtful and discreet that he was not +estimated at his value by the one so near him. This I have been told +by men and women who should know. I lack the trial which should give +wisdom to myself, but I am inclined to accept the dictum of these +others. It must be so, from force of circumstances. + +It was pleasant to me to watch this man and woman. It seemed to me +that the hard lines in Grant Harlson's face became, week by week and +month by month, less harshly and clearly defined, while upon the face +of his wife grew that new look of a content and ownership which marks +the woman who sleeps in some man's arms, the one who owns her--the same +look which Grant, with his broader experience and keener insight, used +to recognize when he puzzled me so in telling whimsically, in the +street cars, who were wedded, without looking at their rings. It may +have been a fancy, but it seemed to me the two grew very much to look +alike. It was in no feature, in nothing I can describe, but in +something beyond words, in a certain way which cannot be defined. It +may have been but the unconscious imitation by each of some trick of +the other's speech, or manner, but it appeared a deeper thing. I +cannot explain it. + +They were not much apart, those two. Sometimes Harlson would be called +away by some business or political emergency, and then would occur what +impressed me as a silly thing, deeply as I cared, for each. He would +get railroad tickets for two, and they would go riotously across the +country, playing at keeping house in a state-room, and enjoying +themselves beyond all reason. I explained often to each of them that +it wasn't fair to the other; that he could attend to business better in +some distant city without having to report to her at a hotel, and that +it would be more comfortable for her in her own fair home; and the two +idiots would but laugh at me. + +The library was their fad together, for Jean was as much of a +bibliomaniac, almost, as was her husband, and I confess I enjoyed +myself amid the rich collection, made without precedent or reason, but, +somehow, wonderfully attractive. They were whimsical, the pair, with +books as with regard to other things, but the few who might invade +their library were inclined to linger there. I always found a mingled +odor there of cigar-smoke and of some perfume which Jean preferred, and +I learned to like the combination. Maybe that was a perverted +taste,--cigar-smoke and delicate perfumes are not consorted in the code +of odor-lovers,--but, as I say, I learned to like it. + +I have but little more to tell of this first wedded year of my dear +friends. One incident I may relate. It occurred less than a year from +the date of the outing in the woods. There were relations each of the +two should meet, and he was very busy with many things, and it was, +finally, after much thought, decided that Jean should go her way and he +his for two long weeks; so they bade good-by to each other and left the +city, in different directions, the same day. + +It was just four days later when I got a note asking me to call at the +house. It was from Jean, and she was a little shame-faced when she met +me. Certain business complications had arisen in Grant's absence to +which I might attend, and it was for this that she had summoned me; but +she had an explanation to make. She did it, blushing. + +"I went to my people, Alf," she said, "but it palled in a couple of +days. That is all. I'd rather be here alone, where he has been, and +await him here, than be anywhere else. It's foolish, of course, but +you, who know us both so well, may possibly understand." And she +blushed more than ever. + +The next day there stalked into my office a man who asked me to lunch. +It was Grant Harlson. There was a quizzical look on his face, and a +rather happy one. + +"I won't tell you anything, old man," he said. "I was only a few hours +behind the girl. That's all. I suppose we might as well keep up the +fool record we have begun. It suits me, anyhow." + +And a single man, knowing nothing about such things, could give no +opinion. I was abusive and sarcastic, but he insisted on buying a +great luncheon. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII. + +THE APE. + +Given a man and a woman, married, loving each other, and what a recent +clever writer calls "the inevitable consequences" ordinarily come and +cause the inevitable anxiety, more, doubtless, to the man than to the +woman. There comes a time when she he loves must bear him their first +child. In primitive existence this trouble to the man must have been +much less, must have been little more than the sympathy of an hour, +because, in nature, unaffected, there is seldom much of suffering and +almost never death prematurely. But we have changed all this. We have +violated gentle Nature's laws in our ways of living, and inasmuch as we +have done this, we have lost, to such extent, her soft protecting hand. +We breathe too little of the pure air; we are lax in physical effort, +and, even though the individual man or woman be wise, he or she must +bear the burden of the errors of an ancestry or the evils of the +present. So, to the woman gentle-bred there comes a risk in the +undergoing of that which she has most hoped for since she loved a man, +and since she would be all there is of perfect womanhood. There is +peril, and she knows it, but is braver than man at this time. There is +peril, and he knows it, and he is helpless and clinging as a child. +What can he do? Nothing, save to bring in a hard hour the presence of +one who may not bear a portion of the real trial. Yet this is +something. It has saved dear women's lives. There is something--we do +not quite understand about it yet--which is a band of more than steel +between two close together, and which holds back the one sometimes from +even the grip of that force seldom denied, which is named Death, the +one who fills the graveyards. + +And, one evening, there was a man in deep trouble, and in the morning +he sat beside a bed in which was his small wife and beside her a tiny +red thing, "rather underdone," he said, in the buoyant reaction which +came upon him, for that was Harlson's way when he had emerged from +trouble; and the small red thing was the son of the two of them. And +who can tell what the man said to the woman. There are precious, +sacred overflows of love, sweet outbursts of what makes life worth the +living, never yet in words for all, never yet written in black upon +some white surface. There is a sanctuary. + +It was a healthy baby, and the mother was soon herself, and the most +foolish of small women over it. I rather liked the young animal +myself, for they let me see it when its days were few, and it clutched +at my fingers in a way that won me. It was a curious young animal to +me. It took to the water wonderfully, and all three of us together +sometimes, when I would call, would summon the nurse and see the young +villain bathe. This was when he was but a few months old. He was such +a royal fellow, so brave and buoyant, that I fell in love with him. +How could a lonely man help being foolish? + +An odd name had the child. It all came from the hours, when, all +danger passed, a proud and happy man sat upon a bedside and looked down +into the face of a proud and happy woman, and, at times, studied the +quality of the odd mite beside her, half hidden in the waves of pillow +and of sheet. He would look at the thing's wonderful hands, and its +wonderful pink feet, and have remarks to make. One hour he came in and +examined the creature and repeated great words from some authority: + +"How many people have ever taken notice of a baby's foot, except to +admire its pinkiness and its prettiness?" said he. "And yet, to the +anatomist, it is a revelation. Take, for example, the feet of a child +of ten months, that has never walked nor stood alone. It has a power +of grasping to some extent, and is used instinctively like a hand. The +great toe has a certain independent working, like a thumb, and the +wrinkles of the sole resemble those of the palm. These markings +disappear when the pedal extremity has come to be employed for purposes +of support. + +"The hands and feet of a human being are strikingly like those of the +chimpanzee in conformation, while the gorilla's resemblance to man in +these respects is even more remarkable. The higher apes have been +classified as 'quadrumana,' or 'four-handed,' because their hind feet +are hand-shaped; but this designation is improperly applied, because +the ape's posterior extremities are not really hands at all. They +merely look like hands at the first glance, whereas, in fact, they are +but feet adapted for climbing. The big toes cannot be 'opposed' to +other toes, as thumbs are to the fingers, but simply act pincer-wise, +for the purpose of grasping. Now, oddly enough, the 'infant's' feet +have this same power of grasping, pincer-fashion, and the action is +performed in precisely the same way. Advocates of evolutionary +theories take this to signify that the human foot was originally +utilized for climbing trees also, before the species was so highly +developed as it is now. Also, they assert that the fact that the art +of walking erect is learned by the child with such difficulty proves +that the race has only acquired it recently. + +"There, darling," he said, "you see how it is. We have but come into +possession of a little ape! What shall we do?" + +She was not troubled. In his eyes she saw that which is worth more to +the young mother than all else the world can give, but she entered into +the spirit of his mood. She replied, gently, that she didn't know what +to do, but had he the bad taste to kiss an Ape? And he admitted that +he had, and kissed the object gently, as if afraid of breaking it, and +kissed the gentle mother a hundred to one. + +I liked the Ape--for so they came to allude to that sturdy babe. He +may be my heir some day--though he was named, as Jean insisted, for his +father--and I had many a frolic with him in his babyhood, when I was +allowed to enter the sanctuary of that home. He was a little viking, a +little raider, this child, conceived in the forest. There seemed to +have come to him the daring and the vigor of outdoor things, and the +force of nature. A great man-child was this. + +I was not alone in the rejoicing over the infant, though really he was, +it seems to me, as dear to me, the isolated man, as to his parents. +They rioted in their vast possession, and were very foolish people. +But why should I keep repeating that these two were very foolish people +together? + +They were like other fathers and mothers, in some respects, but one +difference I noted. They seemed almost to adore the child, but he was +never first with either of them. He but bound the two more closely +together, and the looks of the man were sometimes almost worshipful as +he looked upon the mother of his child. And she--she understood, and +they were glad together. Their kingdom had been but enlarged. + +It is not to be supposed that this whimsical couple--for they were +really whimsical, these friends of mine, as must have appeared often in +my account could rear a child without grotesqueries. The woman, I am +afraid, was, before she became a mother, addicted to monkey tricks, +even to the extent of bounding leopard-like upon the man from +unexpected places, and the Ape was, in his early days, bred in a way +barbaric. They had great times with the Ape. + +One day Grant Harlson had his business for the day concluded early. He +could reach home as a little after five o'clock, where dinner came at +six. One of the fiercest of summer rains was falling. He started +buoyantly. He wanted his wife and boy. + +He reached the house and entered. No wife was there to greet him; no +drunken-footed babe, for the Ape had learned to walk now, albeit +unsteadily; not even a servant girl to make some explanation. He +stalked through the house wonderingly, back to the kitchen, which +looked out upon a green back-yard where they had erected a tent, and +had there had dinners and inhaled the odor of the grass. He found in +the kitchen the two girls, who were all delight, and exhibited but +slight awe at his presence. He recognized that all was well, and +looked out through the descending sheets of water. + +There, beside the quaint tent set upon the green-sward, were two +people. One was a graceful woman, one a sturdy, shouting child. +Neither was garbed save in the simplest way. She wore a wrap of some +sort, a careless thing, the boy a night-gown, and they were moving +about in the warm rain and bathing in nature's way, and particularly +happy. + +The man was righteously indignant at all desertion of him. He shouted +manfully, and at last attracted the attention of the pair. He told +them to come in to him. As well have talked to the wild winds. He +looked from the porch upon the riant, dissipated two, and commanded and +cajoled and made tremendous threats, but to no purpose. He reproached +his wife with unwifely disobedience, and with the crime of turning her +own offspring against his father, and the two but mocked him! Then he +disappeared, and appeared five minutes later in a frayed old swimming +suit, and there was terror in the camp of the foe! He made a charge +through sheets of rain, and a fair woman was, in most unmanly way, laid +in a puddle, and her son set aloft in pride upon his prostrate and +laughing mother. And high jinks ensued. So did these two conduct +themselves! + +But an hour later, when guests came to the dinner, the Ape had gone to +his nursery without a whimper, and no more grave and courteous man or +more stately and gracious dame sat down at table that evening in all +the city of a million people. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX. + +THE FIRST DISTRICT. + +The trouble with us in the First Congressional District was that we +could not carry the Ninth Ward. But for this weak point we would have +felt assured at any time. With the Ninth Ward eliminated we could +control the district barely. With the Ninth Ward for us it would be a +walk-over. But the ward belonged to Gunderson. + +Gunderson employed three thousand men. He was not a party man, but he +was a partisan; that is, he would get interested sometimes in a +campaign, and when he did, each workman in his big manufactory must +vote as indicated or go. And Gunderson did not like Harlson. The ways +of the big employer were not what Harlson admired, and he had never +tried much to conciliate him. So it came that in more than one +legislative and local contest we had lost the Ninth Ward. And now +Harlson was a candidate for Congress. + +We were puzzled. "I'm afraid Jean will have to lock me out again," +laughed Harlson, as we were discussing the problem one night after a +committee meeting, and herein he referred to a funny episode, dating +back to the time when the Ape was but a yearling. Jean, dignified, +chatelaine, sweet wife and fond mother, was as interested in politics +as in anything else that commanded her husband's attention at any time, +and had learned from our conversations all about the Ninth Ward. We +were confident one spring, and as Grant left home on the morning of +election day he was informed that unless he came as a victor he must +not expect admission to the home containing his wife and baby boy. He +said he would return in triumph or upon his shield, but he did neither. +At five o'clock in the afternoon we knew that we were whipped, whipped +beautifully and thoroughly, and all because of that same black demon of +a Ninth Ward, and the fact was so apparent that we became suddenly +philosophical, and Grant turned to me and said: + +"Come to dinner with me, Alf, and let's go now. What's the use of +staying to the funeral? We'll eat a good dinner and smoke, and good +digestion will wait on appetite, and we'll plan and say we'll do better +next time." + +So we left the hurly-burly and took the train, and were at Harlson's +home a little before the dinner hour. Grant tried his latch-key, but +it would not serve. He rang the bell, but there came no answer. Then +there came a tapping and clatter from inside a window, and both of us +left the porch to get down upon the sward and visit the window and +investigate. + +Inside the window, and smiling, was a small, brown woman, holding in +her arms a crowing youngster, who was making a great ado and reaching +out his hands toward his father. She raised the window just a little, +and put a question, gravely: + +"What is it that you wish, gentlemen?" + +Grant intimated, humbly, that we wanted to get in and be given some +dinner. + +"Are you the gentlemen who were going to carry the Ninth Ward?" + +"Yes." + +"Did you carry it?" + +"No." + +The laughing face fell a little, but the stately air was recovered in a +moment. "Well," she said, with dignity, "I'm very sorry. We do not +wish to seem inhospitable, neither the baby nor I, but really we do not +feel justified in harboring people incapable of carrying the Ninth +Ward." + +We explained and pleaded and apologized and promised, but for a long +time to no avail. At last, after the dinner-bell had sounded, and +after we had pledged ourselves to carry that ward yet or perish, we +were admitted, only then, though, as was explained, for the child's +sake. He was accustomed to climb upon his father after dinner. + +So carrying the Ninth Ward became a synonym for any difficult feat with +us, and if Grant accomplished this or that, or I made a good turn, or +Jean gave her cook or dressmaker an inspiration, the Ninth Ward was +referred to as having been carried. And here was that ward before us +again in a greater emergency, and in its own proper person. + +Gunderson had a wife. He would have owned two wives had the one in his +possession been surveyed and subdivided properly, for she was big +enough, abundantly, for two. She was the best illustration I ever saw +of what difficulties burden the ignorant rich who have social +ambitions. She was good-hearted, coarse, shy and hopeful. A woman may +be coarse and yet timid, as I have noted many a time, and Mrs. +Gunderson was of this type. She hungered for social status, but knew +not how to attain it. To her burly husband's credit, he wished, above +all things, to gratify his wife's ambition, but he was as ignorant as +she regarding ways and means. He had learned that there was a limit +even to the power of money. + +Jean had met Mrs. Gunderson in a social way, but of course there could +be no affinity between the two, and the heavy-weight matron, anxious +for recognition, had hardly attracted a second thought from the small +aristocrat. I do not know, by the way, that I have told of the social +status of these friends of mine. I don't think either Grant or Jean +ever gave the matter much attention. Grant was democratic in every +principle, and yet, unknowingly, it seems to me, exclusive arbitrarily. +He had those about him whom he liked, and they were necessarily +somewhat of his kind. And Jean was, a little more thoughtfully, +perhaps, of the same sort. Unconsciously they were the center of a set +for admission to which rich men would have given money. But, as I +said, this key is one of the few things money cannot buy. + +The political fight was on, and fierce. We did good work in that +campaign. The struggle was so keen, the supervision of everything so +searching, that daring fraud became a thing impossible. It was simply +a test of persuasion, of popularity and of relative skill in those +devices which are but the moves upon the chessboard in a game where +chances are nearly even. We were but moderately hopeful. Harlson was +immeasurably the better candidate. He was, at least, earnest and +honest, and would represent the district well. I asked once why he +wanted to go to Congress. + +"I'll have to think," he said, "to answer you in full. Firstly, I +believe I want to go because I have some fool ideas about certain +legislation which I think I can accomplish. I believe they'll like me +better in this district, and, perhaps, in a broader way, after I have +been there. Then I want Jean to enjoy with me all the mummery and +absurdity of the most mixed social conditions on the face of the +civilized globe, and, besides that, I've been invited to take black +bass with her out of a certain stream in the Shenandoah Valley, and to +kill a deer or two, with headquarters at an old house up in West +Virginia." + +He said this lightly, yet I knew it was not far from the full truth. +He had ideas of changes and reforms, and was prepared to fight for +them. As for Jean and the fishing and the shooting, that was a matter +of course. He must get out to nature, and he must have her with him +certainly. As for me, personally--well, we had fought the world +together for many a year, and I never knew him to fail me, and I could +not very well fail him. I worried about this battle, though we had +gained steadily. There was an element in the district, led by shrewd +politicians, of the graduated saloon-keeper type, which did not lack +large numbers. Outside one ward, though we had practically beaten +them, Grant had invoked everything. He had stood up squarely on every +platform, and as well in every drinking-shop and den, and almost +bagnio, and explained to whom he found the nature of the contest, and +told them what he wanted to do, and what all the hearings were, and +told them then to conduct themselves as they pleased--he had but put +his case as it was. + +And there are men among the thugs, and humanity is not altogether bad, +even in the slums, and help had come to us from unexpected places. +More than one man, brutal-looking, but with lines in his countenance +showing that he had once been something better, came around and worked +well, and all to his future advantage, for Harlson's memory of such +things was as the memory of that cardinal--what was his name?--who +never forgot a face or incident or figure. We were what the +politicians call "on top," a week before election, save in that same +Ninth Ward. I had seen old Gunderson myself. He was not what we call +affable. I had to wander through many offices, and finally to send in +my card. I found this burly man in his private room, looking over +papers on his desk. He did not look up as I came in. I took a seat, +unasked, and waited. It was five minutes before he turned his head. +Then he muttered a "good-morning," for we had met before. + +I tried to be companionable and easy. I returned his salutation, +somewhat too effusively, it may be, and asked him about his business, +and then wanted to know, in a general way, how be stood on the +Congressional issue. He hardened in a moment. + +"I don't know why I should support Harlson," he said. + +"Isn't he honest?" I asked. + +"Oh, yes, I suppose so," he grunted; "but he's not my kind." + +"Is the other man?" I asked. + +Even the burly animal before me flushed. The other man was but a +tricky politician of the creeping sort, a caterer to all prejudices, +and a flatterer and favorer. This everybody knew. But he had become a +part of the machine, was shrewd, and, with the machine behind him, was +a power. + +"I've nothing to say about that; but Harlson's not my kind. He's like +one of those stag-hounds. He has nothing to do with the other dogs." + +"He's fought some of the other dogs," I suggested. + +The man grunted, again: "He's not my kind." And I left the place. I +had little hope of the Ninth Ward. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX. + +THE NINTH WARD. + +Unaccustomed to story-telling, it is possible that I have neglected +chronology in this account. I referred just now to the time we +couldn't get into Harlson's house because we hadn't carried the Ninth +Ward and to the Ape crowing at the window in his mother's arms. Time +passed after that, and, we all grew older, though, somehow, Jean did +not seem to change, nor, for that matter, did Grant, though he was +years her elder. But the Ape changed amazingly. He grew into a +stalwart youth of fourteen, and became, about that time, addicted to a +bad habit for which I reproved him in vain. He had discovered that he +could pick up his little mother and carry her about in his arms, and he +did so frequently. And his two younger brothers looked on enviously, +and his pretty sister, the youngest of the group, with gravest +apprehension. But Jean seemed rather to like it, though it was most +undignified, and Grant, though he ruled his children well, seemed +rather to approve of their treatment of her majesty. They were a happy +lot together. The Ape was a good deal interested in the election, but +was not allowed to talk outside the house. And Jean wore a serious +look. She lived for one man. + +I attended a party soon after my visit to Gunderson, and a very pretty +affair it was. A very pretty incident I saw there, too. + +What I saw was the advent of a big, blowsy woman, who was blazing with +diamonds, whose face was good-natured, but who seemed ill at ease. She +was like a Muscovy duck among game fowl. She was well received by the +mass and overlooked by the few, and, being a woman, though of no acute +comprehension, she understood vaguely her condition. She was unhappy, +and there was a flush, upon her face. + +I saw a small woman, neat in a gown of the Directory, it seemed to me, +though of course not so pronounced, brought by apparent accident in +contact with the big, blazing creature. The smaller woman was +self-contained and of the blue-blooded in look and unconsciousness from +head to heel. The two engaged in conversation, the one affable and +interested, the other flushed and happy. + +I do not know that I ever enjoyed a party more, yet I did nothing on +that occasion, save to watch at a distance the two people I have +mentioned. They drifted along together, and there was soon a group +about them. Was not Mrs. Grant Harlson a social power, and was not a +friend of hers fit friend and confidant for any one? I do not +understand the ways of women. I do not comprehend their manner of +doing things, but I know a thing when it is done. And when that party +ended I knew that fat Mrs. Gunderson had risen to a higher plane than +she had dared to covet for the time, and that she knew who had +accomplished it. Grant was not present at the party, and of the +incident I told him nothing then. I wanted him to note its possible +sequence first. + +The day of election came, and a great day it was. Outside the Ninth +Ward we had passed beyond our hopes. That ward, though,--at least from +the first reports, and we paid slight attention to the later +ones,--remained, through Gunderson, sullen, incomprehensible, +uncommitted. And at night, the voting over, newspapers began to show +the bulletins as the ballots were counted and the returns came in. We +were at campaign headquarters and got the figures early. + +The scattering returns were satisfactory. Through most of the district +they showed a gain for us over past encounters. The drift was all our +way, but it was not big enough to offset all contingencies. There was +nothing from the Ninth Ward yet. The counting was slow there. + +It was eleven o'clock before the vote of any precinct from the Ninth +Ward came in. It stood as follows: + +Harlson, 71. + +Sharkey, 53. + +Harlson picked up the filled-out blank, glanced at it, and threw it +down again. + +"It's some mistake," he said; "that precinct is one of the stiffest the +other way. Wait until we get more of them." + +We waited, but not for long. The returns came fluttering in like +pigeons now. The second read: + +Harlson, 33. + +Sharkey, 30. + +There dawned a light upon me; but I said no word. I was interested in +watching Harlson's face. He was a trifle pale, despite his usual +self-control, and was noting the figures carefully. Added precincts +repeated the same story. Harlson would take up a return, glance at it, +compare it with another, and then examine a dozen of them together, for +once in his life he was taken unawares, and was at sea. He left the +table at length, lit a cigar, and came over to where I stood, leaning +against the wall. + +"What does it mean, Alf? If those figures don't lie, the Ninth Ward +has swung as vigorously for us as it ever did against us. With an even +vote in the ward the chances were about even. Now, unless I'm +dreaming, we own the district." + +"We do." + +"But how is it? What does it all mean?" + +"I suppose it means that Gunderson is with you." + +"But how can that be?" + +"Were you at Mrs. Gorson's party?" + +"No." + +"Jean was there, though." + +"Yes." + +"So was Mrs. Gunderson." + +The man's face was a study worth the scrutiny. For a moment or two he +uttered no word. The whole measurement of it was dawning on him. "The +little rhinoceros-bird!" he said, softly. + +The room was thronged, and there was a roar of cheers. The issue was +decided beyond all question. The newspaper offices were flashing out +the fact from illuminated windows. There were shouting crowds upon the +streets. Hosts of people were grasping Harlson's hand. He had little +to say save to thank them in a perfunctory manner. He was in a hurry +to get home. + +When I dined with Harlson the next day I hoped to learn some details, +but I was disappointed. Jean was herself a trifle radiant, perhaps, +for she remarked to me, apropos of nothing, and in the most casual way, +that men were dull, and Harlson had little to say. Judging from his +general demeanor, though, and the expression on his face, I would have +given something to know what he said to his wife when he reached home +the night before. Something no bachelor, I imagine, could comprehend. + +And before the year ended Harlson had the Ninth Ward so that it +couldn't bolt him under any ordinary circumstances. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI. + +THEIR FOOLISH WAYS. + +It is, as I have said so often, but the simple story of two friends of +mine I am trying to tell, but I wish I had more gift in that direction. +I wish I could paint, just as an artist with brush and colors +reproduces something, the home life in the house where much of my time +was spent. I can but give a mechanical idea of what it was, but to me +it was very pleasant. + +A very shrewd politician Jean became, after the famous contest in which +the Ninth Ward aided us to victory, and we were accustomed to consult +her on the social bearings of many a struggle. In case she became too +arbitrary on any occasion Grant had fallen into the way of calling the +Ape, and asking him to remove her, whereupon the youth would carry off +his small mother in his arms and insist that, as he put it, from a +childhood expression, with a long "a," she "'have herself." There was +ever this quality of the whimsical about life in this home. And I am +inclined to believe that the world is better for such a flavor. + +The children, were well grown now, the family was rounded out, and +Grant's mustache, gray when he was forty, was now grayer still, though +Jean's brown hair showed yet no glint of silver. I asked one day after +dinner, when we two were idling and smoking in the library, and Jean +was hovering about, if she hadn't a gray hair yet, and Grant said no, +without hesitation, though the lady herself seemed less assured. Then +happened a curious thing, at least to me. I asked Grant how he knew so +well, if even his wife, who, being a woman and fair to look upon, would +be naturally apprehensive of any change in aspect, could not tell if a +gray hair had come, and he but laughed at me. "Come here, Jean," he +said. + +She came and stood, beside him, close to me. + +"Alf," said he, "I have a vast opinion of you, but there are some +things I imagine you do not comprehend. You should have blended your +life with that of some such creature as this, and you would have +developed a new faculty. Now I close my eyes. Ask me anything about +her--I don't mean about her dress, but about her head or hands, all you +can see of the real woman." + +I accepted the challenge, and there was great sport, and a little-great +result. I made the inquest a most searching and minute affair. I +asked him to tell me if there were any mark upon the neck, near one +ear, and he described the precise locality and outline of a tiny brown +fleck, no larger than a pin's head. He told of any little dimple, of +any sweep of the downward growth of the brown hair, of any trifling +scar from childhood. And of her chin and neck he told the very +markings, in a way that was something wonderful. His eyes were closed, +and his face was turned away from us, but this made no difference. He +described to me even the character of the wonderful network in the +palms of her little hands. Then he opened his eyes and turned to me, +chaffingly: + +"You see how ignorant is a man of your sort. Having no world worth +speaking of, he knows nothing of geography." + +I do not believe that even Jean herself knew, before, of how even the +physical being of her had been impressed upon the heart and brain of +this man. She listened curiously and wonderingly when, he was talking +with his eyes closed, and when he opened them and began his nonsense +with me she stood looking at him silently, then suddenly left the room. +It was a way of Jean's to flee to her own room for a little season when +something touched her, and I imagine this was one of the occasions. +She had known for long years how two souls could become knitted and +interwoven into one, but I do not believe that before this incident she +had ever comprehended how her physical self, as well, had become an +ever present picture upon the mind's retina of her lover and her +husband. + +I am worried, and bothered. I am a man past middle age. I shall never +marry now, and shall but drift into a time of doing some little, I +hope, toward making things easier for some other men and some women, +and then--into a crematory. I have a fancy that my body, this machine +of flesh and muscle in which I live, should not be boxed and buried in +seeping earth to become a foul thing. That was an idea I learned from +this firm friend of mine. I want it burned, and all of it, save the +little urn full of white ashes which some one may care for, to go out +and mingle with the pure air, and there to be one of earth's good +things, and to be breathed in again and make part of the life of the +maple leaf, or the young girl going to school in the morning, or the +old-fashioned pinks in the front yard of the old-fashioned people, or +the red roses in the florist's hot-houses. I have that fancy. + +I am worried because I, clumsy, dull-thinking man, cannot tell what I +wish to tell of a life I saw. I am worried because I cannot make +others understand it as it was. It seems to me it would do some good +in the world. It seems to me that many a man and woman, if they could +know about Grant and Jean, who really lived,--for this is but a tale of +fact,--would be now more loving and better men and women because of it. +But I do not know how to tell of what I saw and what I knew. + +Grant was over sixty years old at this time of which I write, and I am +coming very near the end, and Jean was past forty, and the two were not +much different from what they were when I first saw them together. I +suppose it was partly because I had been with them so much that I did +not note the changes nature wrought in this pair of her children, but +certainly they were far younger than their years. They had found +together the only fountain of eternal youth which exists or ever will +exist upon this planet which threw off a barren moon and bred monsters +and, later, mastodons and apes, and finally made a specialty of men and +women. They laughed at time, and hoped for a future of souls after +this trial. I saw it with my eyes, I heard it with my ears, when they +spoke together. They were blended, and it made life worth the living. +What I learned conveyed to me new things. It taught me that all there +is in novels is not romance nor untrue. It taught me that a male and +female of this species of ours may meet, and from the two may come an +entity which is something very near divine. Why is it, I wonder, that +the right man and the right woman out of the hundreds of millions meet +so seldom at the fitting time, and that life is either so barren or so +jagged and hurtful because of the non-meeting of those who should be +mated? What a world this might be! Of course, though, there is some +higher thought, and it is all right in some way. + +They were what you would call religious, Grant and Jean. They liked +the same church--it doesn't matter which it was--and attended +regularly, and worshiped without much regard for its more narrow +legends. They did not trouble themselves with the idea of the +everlasting punishment of babes, nor the fate of the untutored heathen. +They had, somehow, a simple idea that the human being who tried to do +right according to his or her views was all right as to the future. +They were not much in sympathy with what is called heretic-hunting. +They had each read the story of the gentle Nazarene, and had failed to +learn that there was more than one church--a church without either +spectacular effects or creed bickerings. A church of the group who, at +one time, clung to Him and His teachings, and so had shaped their +course. To them a narrow, grim old Presbyterian--were he but honest +and earnest according to his inherited brain and intelligence--might, +some time, a year or ten million years from now, be walking arm and arm +along the sidewalks of some glorious street of some New Jerusalem with +the Jesuit of to-day, honest and earnest according to his brain and his +intelligence. This is not reasoning. Was it a bad creed? + +They were not afraid of old age as it came nearer, hour by hour and day +by day, these friends of mine. They had pondered of it much, of +course, for they were thoughtful people, and they had talked of it +doubtless many times, for there was little of which they thought that +the two did not reveal to each other in plain words; but they were not +troubled over the outlook. They seemed to realize that the flower is +no greater than what follows, that fruit is the sequel of all +fragrance, and that to those who reason rightly there is no difference +in the income of what is good in all the seasons of human being. I +remember well an incident of one evening. + +We had been playing billiards, Grant and I. He had a table in his +house and had taught Jean how to play until she had become a terror, +though the Ape had nearly caught up with her in skill, and there was, +at this time, a great pretended struggle between them, and we had come +up into the library after a hard after-dinner game. Jean came in, and +we talked of various things, and looked at some old books, and, +somehow--I forget the connection--began talking of old age. It was in +the midst of our debate that Grant, after his insane way, suddenly +leaped up and, standing beside me as I sat, proceeded to make me an +oration. He talked of the friction of things and of the future of this +soul or mind of ours, concerning the luck of which we know so little. +And, while I may or may not have agreed with his general theories, I +did not disagree with the one that the autumn is as much a part of what +there is as is the spring, and that all trends toward a common end, +which must be for the best in some way we do not comprehend, because we +see, at least, enough to know that nature, wiser than we, makes no +mistakes. "The fruitage 'goes'!" Grant exclaimed larkingly, and then, +forgetting me for the moment, he caught up Jean, and, carrying her +gravely about, repeated to her these lines: + + "Grow old, along with me; + The best is yet to be, + The last of life, for which the first was made!" + +And they were at least exponents of the belief they had, and it was to +me an education and a comfort. I learned, what I could not profit by, +that a man and woman together are more than twice one man or twice one +woman, when the man and woman are the right two. It was like an +astronomer studying the sun. And what warmth and light there was to +look upon! + +I have tried in these rambling words to tell how these two people faced +the autumn and found it spring, since they were still together. I +wonder why I made the attempt? It is but a simple relation of certain +things which happened, yet I do not, somehow, get the pulse of it. It +must be because I have known the people all too well. My heart is so +much in what I try to say that I am not clear. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII. + +THE LAW OF NATURE. + +Of what was the result of finally owning the Ninth Ward and the +district I have only to say that it, of course, added to the reputation +of one man--and of one woman as well, it may be added, for Jean in her +necessary social functions grew in her way with Grant; but otherwise it +made little difference. There was the family hegira to the capital, +and much enjoyment of the limited attractions of the semi-Ethiopian and +shabby but semi-magnificent city in a miasmatic valley, and it was, no +doubt, some education for the children. To Grant it was a fray, of +course, and to Jean it was enjoyment of his successes, and probably +more sorrow than he felt at his failures. The successes were the more +numerous. Jean herself never failed. She was an envied woman in the +social world. She was a strong man's wife, and possessed of all tact +and gentle wisdom in aiding him, but she was not a rival of the mere +self-advertisers among the queens of a shifting society. She could not +afford it, even had her inclination bent that way. She had absorbing +riches. They were a man and her children. + +When I brightened up, because my friends were coming back to me, was +the great season of the year to me, as to them. When the family +returned from the capital and reoccupied the home there was rejoicing. +And what rioters we were! But once more, each time, it was said by +Grant, and by me as well, the battle must be fought, and so came +re-elections and the flittings. And, after all, it was good. It was +not the rusting in the sheath. + +And it came that there was another gallant fight on. The city +Congressional district is not like the country one, where a man once +firmly in the saddle may stay there for a quarter of a century. The +city constituencies have the fault in make-up that their Congressmen +are not selected as those who will do best for the districts, but +because they have hands on the lever of some machine. Of course, there +are always exceptions, as in Grant's case, but the rule prevails. And +now there had been flung down the gauntlet of a clever adversary, and +the battle was a warm one. + +We both enjoyed this contest, for, though the struggle was likely to be +sharp, we knew the issue was ours, from the beginning, and the whole +thing, as Grant said, was like a hunting trip. But how it ended! + +He had been out much at night, for it was a large district and there +were many meetings, and had been as tireless as was usual with him. +His thought was never given much to the care of himself, and in this +campaign he appeared more than ordinarily reckless. Jean, watchful +ever, reproached him and made him change his ways a little. Perhaps it +was not all his fault that one day he felt ill. It was on the eve of +the election. + +We carried the day as we had hoped, and easily, and there was a demand +for Harlson that night which could not be refused with grace. He was +compelled to speak, and in the open air of a chill November evening. +He told me he felt ill. When, late at night, we reached his home and +he found Jean awaiting him, he turned to me and said: + +"It's all right, Alf. I'll be myself again by morning. I'm where all +that is good for me is, and should be well in no time. She will but +pass her hands above my head, and--there you are!" + +And we parted, as carelessly as usual, and as I went home I was +speculating on what the revised returns would show the majority to be, +not as to the outcome of Grant Harlson's indisposition. + +Jean sent for me the next morning. I found a look upon her face which +troubled me. + +"Grant is not well," she said. "He came home late and spoke of an odd +feeling. We cared for him, but this morning he was listless and did +not want to dress and come to breakfast. He is in bed still. Please +go up and see him, and then come down to the library and tell me what +you think the matter is." + +I went upstairs and found Grant lying in his bed and breathing heavily. +I shook him by the shoulder. + +"What's the matter, old man?" + +He turned over with an effort, though laughing. "I don't know," he +answered. "I only know I haven't been well since last night, and that +there is a queer feeling about my throat and chest. I ought to be up, +of course, but I'm listless and careless, somehow. By the way, what +were the totals?" + +I gave him the figures, and he smiled, and then with an "Excuse me, old +man," turned his face to the wall. A moment later, as I sat watching +him, alarmed, he roused himself and turned toward me again. "Won't you +send Jean to me?" he asked. + +I saw Jean, and she went upstairs, and when she came down her face was +white. The Ape, rugged young man as he was, had tears in his eyes, and +his brothers and sisters were crying quietly. I left the house, and an +hour later a physician, one of the most famous on the continent, was by +Grant Harlson's bedside. He was a personal friend of both of us. When +he came down his face was grave. + +"What is it, Doctor?" + +"It's pneumonia, and a bad case." + +"What can we do?" + +"Nothing, but to care for him and aid him with all hopefulness and +strength. He has vitality beyond one man in a thousand. He may throw +off all the incubus of it. But it has come suddenly and is growing." +Then he got mad in all his friendship, and blurted out: "Why didn't the +great blundering brute send for me when first he felt something he +couldn't meet nor understand?" And there were almost tears in his eyes. + +The doctors have much to say about pneumonia. Doubtless they know of +what they talk, but pneumonia comes nevertheless, and defeats the +strong man and the doctors. The strong man it strangles. The doctors +it laughs at. + +All that medical science could command was brought to the bedside of +Grant Harlson. The doctor, his friend, called in the wisest of +associates in consultation, and as for care--there was Jean! He was +cared for as the angels might care for a wandering soul. But the big +man in the bed tossed and muttered, and looked at Jean appealingly, and +grew worse. The strength seemed going from him at last--from him, the +bulwark of us all. + +All that science could do was done. All that care could do was done, +but our giant weakened. The doctors talk of the croupous form of +pneumonia, and of some other form--I do not know the difference--but I +do know that this man had a great pain in his chest, and that his head +ached, and that he had alternate arctic chills and flames of fever. +His pulse was rapid, and he gasped as he breathed. Sometimes he would +become delirious, then weaker in the sane intervals. He would send us +from the room then, and call for Jean alone, and, when she +emerged--well--God help me!--I never want to see that awful look of +suspense and agony upon a human face again. It will stay with me until +I follow the roadway leading to my friends. + +The doctor gave the sick man opiates or stimulants, as the case might +at any moment seem to need, and they had some slight effect; but there +came a shallower breathing, and the quilts tossed under the heaving of +the broad chest, fitfully. It reminded me in some strange way of the +imitation sea scenes at the theater, where a great cloth of some sort +is rocked and lifted to represent the waves. Only one lung was +congested in the beginning, but, later, the thing extended to each, and +the air-cells began filling, and the man suffered more and more. He +fought against it fiercely. + +"Grant," said the doctor, after the administration of some strong +stimulant, "help us all you can. Cough! Force the air through those +huge lungs of yours, and see if you can't tear away that tissue which +is forming to throttle you!" + +And Grant would summon all his strength, by no means yet exhausted, and +exert his will, and cough, despite the fearful pain of it; but the +human form held not the machinery to dislodge that growing web which +was filling the lung-chambers and cutting off, hour by hour, the oxygen +which makes pure blood and makes the being. + +And the man who laughed at things grew weaker and weaker, and, though +he laughed still and was his old self and made us happy for a brief +interval, when he had not the fever and was clear-headed, and said that +it was nothing and that he would throw it off, we knew that there was +deadly peril. And one evening, when Grant was again delirious, the +doctor came to me and said there was very little hope. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII. + +WHITEST ASHES. + +What is the mood of fate? Must strong men die illogically? What does +it all mean, anyhow? About this I am but blind and reasonless. I wish +I knew! The world is more than hollow to me, yet I have a hope, I'll +say that. There was some one very like Jean, one whom I loved and who +loved me, thirty years ago. Will she and I meet some day, I wonder? +And what will she be to me then? I suppose I have the philosophy and +endurance of the average man; but this is, with any doubt, a black +world at times, and one in which there is no good. The breaking of +heart-strings mars all music. I am alone and dull and wondering, and +in a blind revolt. Why should all things change so, and what is this +death which comes? There must be some future world. If there be not, +what a failure is all the brutal material scheme. + +One day Grant was clear of head, but weaker, and talked with me long of +his affairs. + +"I'm afraid I can't fight it out after all," he said, "though you +mustn't let Jean and the children know that yet." + +We talked more of what I should do if the worst came, and then he sent +for the children. He addressed himself to the Ape first, the brave +boy's eyes full of tears and his whole body trembling as he listened: + +"My boy, you are hardly a man yet, but I know your manliness. If I +cannot stay with you, you will become the practical head of the family. +Make them all proud of you. And care for your mother always as you +would for your own life or whatever is greatest." Then he called the +others to him: + +"You heard what I just said. I spoke to the Ape only because he is +oldest. Remember that I have said this thing to all of you. I needn't +say it, I know--my blessed boys and girls--you understand. But live +for your little mother always." + +I cannot describe what those young people said or did. It was most +pitiful. It was brave and sweet, too. But they would not let their +father die. He must not! They could not face the fact. + +Jean came then, and we three were left alone for a time. She sat +beside the bed, for he wanted his hand in hers when possible, and he +spoke slowly: + +"Jean, I don't know. There must be another world, as we have trusted. +The great Power that fitted us to each other so will surely bring us +together again. Let us look at it that way. We'll imagine that I'm +only going to the country, and that you are to join me. That is all. +I know it. God knows. He will adjust it somehow." + +Jean did not answer. She but clasped his hand and looked into his +face. I feared she would die of a bursting heart. From that time till +the end she never left his bedside. + +Murderous Death has certain kindnesses in his killings. Just before +the end is peace. The struggles of this strong man became something +fearful as the lungs congested, and the most powerful of anti-pyretics +ceased to have effect, and then came the peace which follows nature's +virtual surrender, the armistice of the moment. What trick of +reversion to first impressions comes, and what causes it, none have yet +explained, but long before the time of Falstaff men, dying, had babbled +o' green fields. Grant Harlson, now, was surely dying. The physicians +had warned us all, and we were all about his bedside. As for me, thank +God, the tears could come as they did to the children. But there were +none upon the cheeks of Jean. Her sweet face was as if of stone; +whiter than that of the man in the bed. + +The convulsions had ceased, but his mind was wandering and his speech +was rambling. It was easy to tell of what he was thinking. He was a +little boy in the woodland home with his mother again, and was telling +her delightedly of what he had seen and found, and of the yellow +mandrake apples he had stored in a hollow log. She should help him eat +them. And then the scene would shift, and he was older, and we were +together in the fields. He called to me excitedly to take the dog to +the other side of the brush-heap, for the woodchuck was slipping +through that way! There was the old merry ring in his voice, and I +knew where he was and how there came to him, in fancy, the sweet +perfumes of the fields, and how his eyes, which were opened wide but +saw us not, were blessed with all the greenness and the glory of the +summer of long ago. Then his manner changed, and the word "Jean" came +softly to his lips, and again I knew they were camping out together, +and he was teaching to his wife the pleasant mysteries of the forest, +and all woodcraft. There was love in his tones and in his features. +The breast of the woman holding his hand heaved, and the pallor on her +face grew more. + +There was another struggle for breath, then a desperate one, and with +its end came consciousness. Grant smiled and spoke faintly: + +"It must he pretty near the end. I am very tired. Jean, darling, get +closer to me. Kiss me." + +She leaned over and kissed him passionately. He smiled again, then +feebly took one of her little hands in each of his and lifted them to +his face and kissed them; then held them down upon his eyes. There was +a single heave of his great chest, and he was dead. + +And the woman who fell to the floor was, apparently, as lifeless as the +silent figure on the bed. + +She was not dead. We carried her to her own room--hers and his, with +the dressing-rooms attached--and she woke at last to a consciousness of +her world bereft of one human being who had been to her nearly all +there was. She was not as we had imagined she would be when she +recovered. She was not hysterical, nor did she weep. She was +singularly quiet. But that set, thoughtful look had never left her +face. She seemed some other person. I talked to her of what was to be +done. What a task that was, for I could scarcely utter words myself. +She suddenly brightened when I spoke of the crematory and what Grant's +wishes were. + +"It must be as he wished," she said--"as he wished, in each small +detail." Then she said no more, and all the rest was left to me. + +She was quiet and grave at the funeral of her husband and my friend. +She shed no tears; she uttered not a word. She listened quietly while +I told her how I had arranged to carry out all his wishes about +himself, or, rather, about his tenement. She did not accompany me. +There came with me on that journey only the Ape, who was red of eye and +vainly trying to conceal it all. How the youth was suffering! + +I came to the home one day with an urn of bronze. There were only +ashes in it, clean and white. Jean looked at them and asked me to go +away. The urn was put, at her request, in her own apartments. It was +sealed and stood upon a mantel of the room in which she slept. I do +not believe she thought much of the ashes as representing the man who +had gone away from her. She may have thought of them as precious, just +as she did of a pair of gloves she had mended for him just before his +illness, and which she kept always with her, but I believe that of the +ashes, as of the gloves, she thought only of what her love had used in +life and left behind. That was the total of it. It was the heart, the +soul, the knowing of her that was gone. + +How the Ape, how all the children cared for the small mother now! +Never was woman more watched, and guarded and waited upon. She +recognized it all, too, but said very little. Her soft hands would +stroke the forehead of her first-born, or of her eldest daughter, or of +any of the offspring of the two, the product of their love, and she +would tell them that she was glad they were so good, but, gentle and +thoughtful as she was, there was something lacking. She seemed in +another world. + +I talked to Jean. I tried to be a philosopher, to tell her of the +children and of the broadness of life, and that she must drift into it +again. She was kind and courteous as of old with me, but it was +somehow not the same. And she grew weaker day by day, and would lie +for hours, the children told me, in the room where Grant and she had +been together all those years. + +How can I tell of it! Jean, who had become my sister, who was part of +Grant Harlson, drifted away before my eyes! It was harder, almost, for +us than the fierce fight with death of the one who had been the +mainstay of us all. Somehow, we knew she was going to leave us, and +the grief of the children was something terrible. She listened to them +and was kind to them, wildly affectionate at times, but she lapsed ever +into the same strange apathy. We had the best physicians again. I +talked with one of them. "What shall we do?" I asked. + +He was a great man, a successful one, a man above the rut, and he +answered simply: + +"I cannot advise. The mind governs the body beyond us sometimes,--very +often, I imagine. She does not want to live. That is all I can say. +Drugs are not in the treatment of the case." + +She grew thinner and thinner and more listless, and finally, one day, +the Ape came to my office and said his mother had not left her room for +a day or two. I went with him to the home which had been almost as my +own. + +I was admitted to Jean's room as a matter of course. I was one of the +household. She was lying upon a great sofa, one Grant had liked. I +asked her to tell me what to do. + +She was calm and quiet as she answered. "There is nothing," she said. +Then suddenly she seemed to be the Jean I had known one time. She +raised herself up: "Alf, you were very close to us. Cannot you see?" +She began another sentence, then stopped suddenly, and only smiled at +me and said I was the nest friend ever two people had in all this +world. She still spoke of two people. As if Grant were with us still! + +How can one tell of the fading of a lily. No one ever told of it all. +One day they sent for me, and when I came the sweetest woman lay upon +her couch! She had talked with her children much that day, and told +them many things--of plannings for their futures. She had, for the +first time, told them of all their father had designed, or hoped, or +guessed for each of them. And they had been very happy, and thought +she would recover. And she had slept peacefully, and had not awakened. + +I looked upon her face, and the smile upon it was something wonderful. +It was one of the things which makes me believe there is some great +story to it. There was none with her but her youngest daughter when +she left us, and the child could not tell when worlds were touching. +But upon that face was the expression which tells of what is all +beyond. I do believe that, even before she quitted her earthly frame, +dear Jean knew that she had found Grant again. + +Why have I told this story of two people, which is no story at all, but +only what I know of what has happened to those closest to me? There is +no more of it. It ends with the deaths of them, and yet I do not know +that it is sad. They lived and loved and died. They had more +happiness than comes to one-half humanity. Their life was of the gold +of what is the inner life of the better ones of this great new nation +of a new continent. They lived and loved, and their children live, and +will be good men and women. + + * * * * * * + +I cannot understand the problem. No learning clears it. I only know +that there were Grant and I, that there were bees and perfumes, and +wild, boyish delights, and the older life, and the feverish life of a +city, and the rare, great love I looked upon. + + + + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of A Man and a Woman, by Stanley Waterloo + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK A MAN AND A WOMAN *** + +***** This file should be named 16143.txt or 16143.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/1/6/1/4/16143/ + +Produced by Al Haines + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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