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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/14523-0.txt b/14523-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..3f6a080 --- /dev/null +++ b/14523-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,3569 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 14523 *** + +SISTER CARMEN + +by + +M. CORVUS + +Translated from the German by KATE DYKERS + +New York +The Minerva Publishing Company +48 University Place + +1891 + + + + + + + +CHAPTER I. + +The first rays of early dawn threw their shadowy light over hill and +dale, and all nature seemed animated with new life as the fresh spring +breeze kissed the young blades of grain in the fields. Ever brighter +and more glowing grew the eastern horizon, ever more golden the light, +floating clouds, until at last the dazzling rays of the king of day +flashed forth upon the expectant world. + +With its clear carol of joy, a lark soared upward from her dewy nest, +singing her morning anthem to the great Creator; and, as if in glad +sympathy with the happy bird, the many and varied voices of nature +united in celebrating the resurrection, not only of the sun, but of all +things, for it was Easter Sunday morning. + +Forth from the dwellings of a small Moravian village issued a band of +simply attired folk, who wended their way through the green fields and +up the hillside to a spacious wood, where was located a quiet +graveyard, in which gigantic linden-trees stretched out their leafless +branches, forming a graceful network overhead. + +In the centre of this lovely spot stood an immense stone cross, the +sign of that Lord whose resurrection was to-day celebrated with the +sound of trumpets and the voices of the people. + +A feeling of holy joy seemed to reign in every heart, as the crowd +stood grouped around the base of the cross, gazing with reverence at it +as it now shone bathed in the glorious radiance of the risen sun. +Presently the music ceased and the soft echoes died away among the +distant hills, while a clear, manly voice in the midst of the +congregation proclaimed: "The Lord is risen!" "He is risen indeed!" +replied each one joyously; after which the first speaker advanced +nearer to the cross and addressed a few words to the people: + +"My dear brothers and sisters, in accordance with our usual custom, we +visit to-day our beautiful cemetery, not to mourn for our dead, but to +rejoice that our Lord has risen from the grave to give us eternal life; +for with Him shall rise all those who follow in His holy footsteps here +below. Therefore, as we put not on the garb of mourning, let us not +grieve in our hearts when we think of our loved ones who have gone home +before us, but clasp each other's hands and be glad together, that +through the blessed Redeemer such happiness has been vouchsafed to +them. For His sake, and for the preservation of the true faith, the +Moravians wandered forth from their fatherland, forsaking the wealth +and luxuries of this world; but they took with them that which was more +precious than all else, the pure, unadulterated truths of the Gospel, +and sought a new country, in which they might dwell, and preserve their +religion forever. In the wilds of a strange land they found a +resting-place; and in the community were retained the old statutes and +laws, the old forms of worship, the old brotherly love and kindness, +which from the earliest period had characterized them. From this +little seed-corn which was then planted, the Moravians have spread out +their branches into all parts of the world. Let us remain faithful to +the principles which united our forefathers; let us ever hold sacred +the religion for the sake of which they suffered, and to which they +firmly adhered, in spite of persecution and peril. Hold fast brotherly +love! Forgive and bear with one another in love, sacrifice yourselves +for love's sake, suffer and die, in charity with all men,--then are you +true disciples of the Lord. Amen!" + +The preacher's voice ceased, and the congregation devoutly echoed his +"Amen." After a short pause the assembly broke up, with hearty +hand-shakings and joyful greetings. In little groups of twos and +threes they rambled through the beautiful grounds where the loved ones +were laid to rest. The members of the fraternity, as they conversed in +low but cheerful tones, bore a close resemblance to one another in the +quiet simplicity of their attire. There was no pretension to ornament +or style; cleanliness seemed the only adornment sought for, and it +certainly did reign supreme. The women and girls wore small, +close-fitting white caps, the different-colored ribbons on them +distinguishing the various classes, and giving a very pleasing effect +to the scene. The wives were recognized by blue ribbons on their caps, +and the widows by white, while the older girls wore pink and the +younger ones bright red. Gradually all returned to their homes in the +valley below, where lay the thriving Moravian village. + +One young girl, however, remained behind alone, lost in thought and +quite unconscious that her companions had already taken their way +homeward. Leaning against one of the large linden-trees, whose ancient +trunk completely screened her slim figure, she stood, looking downward +on the beautiful landscape which lay before her admiring eyes. +Mountain and valley, forest and field, were bathed in the golden +sunshine. Nothing was yet in bloom, but in every swelling bud there +seemed to lie a foreshadowing of coming glory. + +"Sister Carmen, hast thou not noticed that thy companions have returned +with their elders, and that thou art left alone?" suddenly asked a deep +masculine voice at her side. + +She involuntarily shrank back, as if from fear--was it because she was +alone, or was she only startled from her dreaming?--and looked timidly +at the speaker. He was a man well advanced in years; his hair +partially gray, but his complexion retaining much of its youthful +freshness and color; and there was some difficulty in determining his +age. Although his brow was thoughtful and his grave eyes habitually +looked upward with an expression of calm serenity and humble piety, yet +the curve of his mouth, around which there lurked a peculiar smile, +contradicted the idea of sanctity. + +"Have they really left me, Brother Jonathan? I had entirely forgotten +how time was passing, in the tumult of joyful feelings which filled my +heart," said the girl with a sunny smile. + +"It gladdens my heart, dear sister, to know it gives you such great joy +to celebrate the Resurrection of our Lord," he replied. "Truly it is a +blessed privilege to be able to lose one's self in the contemplation of +holy things, and, forgetting the cares of this present life, rejoice in +the hope of heaven, and be as one dead to every temporal joy." + +"But I was not thinking at all of the life beyond the grave, only of +this present one. How beautiful it is, and what happiness to be able +to enjoy it!" she said candidly, as her youthful countenance lighted up +with a glowing expression of love of life and pleasure. + +Hers was a singularly beautiful face, on which the man at her side +gazed with open admiration. The close-fitting cap, with its bright red +bow, indicated that the girl had not yet reached her eighteenth year. +Here and there peeped out little truant locks of the glossy black hair, +whose richness and abundance the close covering could not entirely +conceal or fetter. The broad, intellectual brow; the delicate, +pencilled lashes, from the shadow of which shone forth lustrous black +eyes that flashed with intelligence and spirit; the arched nose, with +its slightly dilated nostrils; pouting mouth, with full, cherry lips, +all gave her something of a proud expression, which was, however, +softened by the beaming smile which so often lighted it up. Although +only a faint color tinged her cheek, yet the clear, brunette complexion +glowed with fresh, warm, young life, and the slender, lithe form that +leaned with such childlike abandon against the old tree displayed the +most exquisite symmetry. + +"Yes, this present life is certainly very pleasant, dear sister," he +resumed, approaching yet nearer to her; and he indeed seemed to find it +so as he contemplated this fair, blooming, delightful young creature. +"We do wisely to enjoy it, and use it as a means to prepare us for the +great hereafter, accomplishing that end all the more effectually when +we love the Lord, and, through Him, one another. Sister Carmen, did +you listen to the beautiful discourse on brotherly and sisterly love +which our honored presbyter gave us to-day?" and the speaker bent his +head so low that she felt his hot breath on her cheek, and his heavy +hand on her shoulder. But quickly turning aside and withdrawing from +his touch, she replied: "Yes, I heard it, and it is indeed a very good +and proper thing to love one another; but I think it is not always love +which is called so, or seems so;" and her mouth twitched with a +repressed smile, as if some secret thought amused her. + +"Dear sister, how can you speak thus?" he said. "Men, it is true, are +weak, and often swerve from their duty; but we should help each other +in the spirit of love, so that we may be all united and grow to +resemble each other in character." + +"Resemble each other in character!" She repeated his words musingly, +and the gaze from her dark eyes wandered away off, beyond her +companion. "Can we ever do that? God has created us so different; if +He had wished us all to be alike, would He not have made us so?" + +The man looked at her earnestly, and an expression of disapproval +passed over his face as he answered: "Any one, to hear you speak in +that way, and not know you as well as I do, would never believe that +you had lived so long among us and were one of us. I have known you +always, ever since you were a wee, toddling thing. It was in Jamaica, +when I went to your father from the mission." + +Carmen blushed deeply at the rebuke which lay in his words, and, as if +to atone, said quickly: + +"Oh, forgive me! I am sure I would gladly be like you all if I only +could. But I cannot always be calm and serene, as every one else here +is; and I fear our dear Sister Agatha, with all her endeavors, will +succeed as little in changing me, as you do in trying to produce the +same degree of health in every one, even though you be the wise and +learned Doctor Jonathan Fricke. Each bird sings after its own fashion, +and although all are different, yet none are bad. I cannot believe +every one is culpable who does not pass through life calmly and +sedately, as we endeavor to do. It surely cannot be wrong for people +to laugh, and dance! Dance!" and she laughed outright, so that her +pearly teeth gleamed from between the rosy lips. "It must be +enchanting to skip round and round to the sound of merry music!" She +had allowed herself to be carried away by enthusiasm, and spoke louder +than was consistent with Moravian decorum, or suitable to the place +where she was. Her eyes sparkled, and the dainty little foot which +peeped forth from under her dress seemed altogether suited to trip with +fairy fleetness through the merry mazes of the dance. + +One glance, however, at her companion recalled her to the present. Her +eyes sank, the little foot was hastily withdrawn, and she wrapped more +closely about her the dark shawl which had slipped from her shoulders. + +"But the time! the time!" she stammered. "It is getting later and +later while we are chatting, and Sister Agatha will have good cause to +be vexed with me." + +With fleet steps she hurried through the quiet graveyard, down the +hill, and along the path which led to the dwellings of the settlement. +Jonathan stood looking after her, as long as his eye could discern the +airy, lithe figure. + +All pretence of calmness had vanished from his face. His eyes +glittered with a strange light and glowed with passionate desire. For +a moment the staid, elderly man was transformed into an eager, ardent +youth. + +"She inherits the hot, proud Spanish blood of her mother, and, alas! +the same fatal, enchanting beauty also," he muttered. "If I could only +win her--" He stopped abruptly, as if fearful of being overheard, and +began to brush away some imaginary specks of dust from his sleeve. +Drooping his head into its usual pious attitude, his face assumed its +former grave expression, and he was again the sedate, quiet Brother. + + + + +CHAPTER II. + +A Moravian settlement! As we enter it, it seems as if we stepped into +another sphere, so utterly unlike is it to the bustle and hurry of the +age of progress which prevails in the outer world that presses so +closely upon its borders, and against which it quietly but firmly +opposes the bulwarks of its ancient customs, the simplicity of its +regulations, and the severity of its discipline. It has no intercourse +with the tide of human life surging around it. It seems like a small +body of Christians, left from the Apostolic age, that after being +buried for centuries has been dug out in later days. The government of +the community resembles that of a large family bound together by ties +of love; all its members are brothers and sisters, divided, according +to age, sex, and conditions of life, into bands called choruses, at the +head of each an elder, either male or female, presiding and +superintending its spiritual affairs and enforcing its daily +discipline. Each elder gives in a report of all that occurs in the +chorus to the Conference, as this is the chief board of management in +the society. There is, therefore, nothing which transpires in the life +of any individual that is not brought before this tribunal. + +About ten o'clock one morning, an elegant carriage, drawn by two +spirited horses, passed through the quiet, scrupulously clean streets +of the settlement, and drew up at the door of the hotel, or, as they +call it, the general lodging-house; and from the vehicle sprang a young +and very distinguished-looking gentleman with erect, military bearing +and noble features. He was followed by a lady, and a young girl of +about twelve years of age, and a tall, lanky lad who had not yet lost +his boyish awkwardness. + +"Unharness and take the trunk to the Sisters' house," said the +gentleman to the coachman. + +The newly-arrived guests entered the sitting-room, which was entirely +unoccupied, and whose clean, freshly-sanded floor seemed almost to +shine with a consciousness of its own spotlessness. The host, a quiet +old man, entered to receive their commands, which he attended to in +person. Everything was done silently; not even the plates and glasses +rattled as they were placed on the-table; and when all was prepared, +the man left the room, not attempting, after the manner of hosts in +general, to enter into conversation with his guests, or to ply them +with questions as to whence they came, whither they were going, etc. + +The lady, a very remarkable-looking woman, was apparently the mother of +the three others, but seemed young to be the parent of the eldest, who +had evidently numbered thirty years. + +The breakfast, which was excellent and well served, was quickly +disposed of; and dinner being ordered for two o'clock, the little party +left the house. On the street, the same stillness, the same absence of +people prevailed as elsewhere. + +"Do you know the way to the Sisters' house, mother?" asked the young +man of the lady as they led the way, the two younger ones following +behind. + +"Of course, Alexander," she replied. "I was here once, some years ago, +on a visit to President von Karsdorf, and I can perfectly remember how +full of interest the whole place was, and how pleased the Karsdorfs +were to think they could end their lives in this peaceful, quiet spot." + +"Such extraordinary order and cleanliness seems almost like a matter of +pride and show on the part of these humble people--as if the inner +purity of their souls must needs be manifested in this extreme, outward +neatness," said the gentleman, laughing. + +"You are prejudiced against the Moravian character, I know, and yet +there is so much that is good in them!" argued the lady. + +"That may well be so, mother. I am willing to acknowledge all their +good qualities," said her son; "but these numerous forms which intrude +themselves upon every occasion seem like fetters and bonds to free +souls. So much unnatural restraint and parade of sanctity is offensive +to me. I never could tolerate hypocrites, and such they surely must +be, although, of course, they would be shocked at the idea; for under +all this excessive humility, this parade of piety, I venture to say +there lies much concealed of which we do not dream. One can imagine +how much Herr von Karsdorf, an old epicure and man of the world, must +have dissimulated to conform himself to the manners of this community, +to be allowed to end his days here." + +His mother shook her head. "I think," she said, "that the subdued, +pious bearing of the members has become like a second nature to them, +and is now, therefore, not hypocritical. Besides, think how excellent +is the domestic economy of the settlement; how active and prosperous +they are in trade and various industries. They have many practical, +temporal, as well as spiritual objects to which they devote themselves." + +"I grant all that; but such immense importance is attached to little +things. Their work would be very trifling and ridiculous if attempted +on a large scale. It resembles the wonderful industry in an ant-hill, +unremitting and earnest, but petty labor. No genius is displayed. +What great men have arisen from among them? Who are the distinguished +scholars and artists which have gone forth from their ranks?" + +"And how about their sufferings?" interposed the other, quickly. +"Their struggles amidst privation and misery, and persecutions of all +kinds in distant lands, for the sake of their faith, and to rescue wild +heathens from depravity and barbarism, and win them over to the +Christian religion? Do you not deem that a noble work? Consider their +admirable regulations as regards education; are they not excellent? I +look for the greatest improvement in Adele, as the result of her stay +here.--But it seems to me I have turned into the wrong street, for the +Sisters' house is certainly not here!" + +"Here come some people at last," replied Alexander--"a girl with a +child. They will be able to direct us." He stepped forward to meet +the approaching figures, and with a polite greeting begged for +information. The young girl dropped a modest courtesy to the stranger, +and with downcast eyes listened to his inquiries about the way to the +Sisters' house. Then she turned to the lady, who had in the mean time +drawn near, and said courteously: "I am just going hither; may I +conduct you?" + +"You would oblige us exceedingly," replied the lady, kindly. + +"What a lovely Sister! It wouldn't be such a bad thing to be a Brother +here," whispered Alexander to his mother. He did not speak too low for +the sensitive ear of the girl to catch his words, for she blushed +deeply, and the rosy little mouth curled proudly and defiantly. +Visibly offended, she turned away from the gentleman, and simply saying +"Come" to the lady, walked on ahead, leading the little child by the +hand, and giving no apparent heed to the party behind. + +Retracing their steps for a short distance, they turned into a side +street, and here--wonder of wonders!--were some more people. A horse +stood, saddled and bridled, before the door of one of the houses, and a +man was just in the act of mounting. He did not seem to be a +particularly expert horseman, or his steed the most patient of animals; +for the former displayed his awkwardness in attempting to mount, and +the latter, as soon as he became aware of his master's intention, +kicked, and sprang aside. The man sought to quiet him, patted his +neck, and once more tried the difficult task of getting on his back; +but the sight of the approaching strangers now added to his clumsiness, +and rendered him even more helpless than before. He had scarcely put +his foot in the stirrup, when the animal pranced, kicked and reared, +jerking the reins from his owner's hands, and throwing him down on the +pavement; after which he started at full speed down the street, +directly towards the advancing party. As soon as the horse showed a +disposition to be restive, the girl had led the child close up against +the side of the house, and looking back at the strangers following her, +she observed an expression of contempt on the young man's face, as he +watched the awkward movements of the Brother; being himself a skilful +rider and able, with his supple yet powerful frame, to master even the +wildest horse. + +When the man fell to the ground, and the unrestrained animal came +rapidly onward, the strangers also moved hastily aside. But the little +child had, in its fright, broken loose from the girl's hand, and ran +into the middle of the street to pick up a ball which had rolled from +its hand. A cry of horror broke from every lip, and in another moment +the child would have been dashed under the horse's hoofs as she stooped +to pick up the toy. But before the girl could reach the little one, +the strange gentleman, with one long stride, was on the spot, and had +seized the child in his arms. With a firm hand he grasped the reins, +and brought the terrified beast to a standstill by sheer strength. It +all happened so quickly that, looking at the child playing merrily with +its ball a moment after, one could almost have fancied it was all a +dream. The girl, who had turned as pale as death, was leaning against +the side of the house; but quickly regaining her self-control, she +hastened to her little charge, saying, with trembling voice, as she +shyly glanced at its preserver, "I thank you, sir; you have saved the +little one entrusted to me from great peril." + +The unfortunate rider who had been thrown now came limping up, and was +profuse with his thanks to this "friend in need." + +There was such a very remarkable contrast between the two men, as they +now stood side by side, that it struck the eye of every one present, +even the young girl's. The humble bearing and uncouth figure of the +Brother looked decidedly unprepossessing compared with the tall, +elegant form of Alexander, which, with all its agility and grace, was +full of power, as if forged from steel. Every muscle was still +strained by the exertion just made; his face was flushed, his blue eyes +sparkled with the fire of inward strength of will, and yet the +expression showed no evidence of agitation, only quiet consciousness of +power. While he yet held the reins with his left hand, he assisted the +other man, who finally succeeded in gaining the saddle. + +"A vicious animal, sir," said Alexander to the other, handing him the +bridle. "He seems to be skittish, and will not admit of any joking; +spare the spur, and keep firm hold on the bridle until you are sure of +yourself." + +Thus saying, he stood aside, and man and horse proceeded on their way. + +"And, now, if you will be so good, miss, please continue to be our +guide," he said, turning toward the girl. + +They soon reached the Sisters' house. "Ah, yes, this is the very +place!" cried the lady, joyfully. "Thank you most sincerely for your +courtesy, dear child. Will you kindly tell us which door to enter? We +gave notice by letter of our coming, and are expected. I am Frau von +Trautenau; these are my two sons, and this is my little daughter, whom +I am bringing to stay here." She offered her hand cordially to the +girl, and looked kindly at her beautiful face. + +"I beg that you wilt enter this way, into the parlor," was the modest +reply, as the maiden opened a door on the first floor. "I will inform +Sister Agatha of your arrival." + +It was not long ere the gentle Sister made her appearance. She was a +friendly, motherly-looking woman, on whose gray hair was placed a cap +with a pink bow, the badge of the unmarried Sisters. She greeted the +visitors with dignified cordiality. + +"Forgive me for bringing my entire family, and allow me to present each +member to you," said Frau von Trautenau, after the first words of +welcome. + +"My stepson Alexander, captain of infantry, and my trusty adviser and +support since my husband's death; my son Hans, and my daughter Adele, +your pupil from this time forward, whom I commend most earnestly to +your kindness and care." + +Sister Agatha took the child most affectionately in her arms, and +pressing a kiss on her brow, said sweetly: + +"You must confide in me, dear child, as if I were your mother, and I +will consider you a sacred trust committed to me. We are all a large +family of Sisters here, who love one another, learning cheerfully and +working diligently. 'Pray and work!' This golden proverb is our motto +through the day, and the love and industry which you will see +everywhere will soon teach you to feel at home among us." + +"I live, as you know, in the neighborhood," said Frau von Trautenau, as +Adele looked up tearfully. "Our estate, Wollmershain Grove, is only a +few hours' ride from here, and sometimes, if I drive in, you will, I +suppose, allow Adele to visit us for a little recreation?" + +"Oh, certainly, Frau Von Trautenau," returned Sister Agatha--"in +vacation. May I now show you our apartments and arrangements, so that +you may know exactly how your dear little girl will be situated?" + +"I shall be delighted," replied the lady. "Everything here interests +us, of course, in the highest degree." + +With that, they all rose and followed the sister. + + + + +CHAPTER III. + +"We require a great deal of room," explained Sister Agatha, as they +passed along, "as there are separate apartments, not only for the +pupils, but also for the unmarried Sisters of our community, who are +not members of a family and yet live and work here with us. Indeed, +even those who have families in the outside world often come to us to +employ their unoccupied time." So saying, she led her guests from the +first floor to the second, and from one room to another. Everything +was neatly and simply arranged. The modest dress of the Sisters, with +their little white caps, their calm diligence in spite of the +exhilarating air of this bright morning, their quiet gait and subdued +voices, the deep silence which pervaded the house, gave one the +sensation of being in a cloister. Sister Agatha conducted the party +into the general workroom. It was built like a deep hall. At long +tables sat numbers of girls with every variety of countenance; all +young, not quite grown, gathered in separate groups, busy with +needlework or writing. The elder ones seemed to supervise the younger +and instruct them in their work. Amongst these was the girl who had +acted the part of guide to the strangers. All rose at the entrance of +the visitors, and after a moment silently resumed their seats. + +"Here you see the children of our members, and our dear pupils, all +together. They are sent to us from the most remote colonies and +missions to be educated, and they very soon learn to consider +themselves one with us. Dear Sister Marie," said Agatha, turning to +one of the girls, "please tell Frau Von Trautenau where you were born." +The child addressed, a little girl with olive complexion and keen black +eyes, arose, like a piece of machinery, on being spoken to, and +replied: "At Paramaribo, in Surinam," and dropped back into her seat. + +"And you, dear Sister Genevieve?" + +"At St. Jean, in the West Indies." + +"And Sister Sarah?" "At Sarepta, in Russia, in the province of Saratow." + +"Sister Jacobi?" + +"At Batavia, in Java." + +"Sister Carmen?" + +Similarly to all those called before, Carmen rose also, when Sister +Agatha mentioned her name; but it seemed an involuntary motion, as if +in obedience to a command, and then, after a second's hesitation, she +at once resumed her seat. During the entire proceedings her glance had +wandered with painful eagerness, now to Frau von Trautenau, now to her +eldest son, and had remarked how this questioning of the girls had +seemed to amuse them. At last, when her name was called, a deep blush +suffused Carmen's lovely face, and she could not summon courage to +answer. + +"Dear Sister Carmen!" repeated the Superior, as if she thought Carmen +had not heard the first call. + +"Oh, please---" now interposed Frau von Trautenau, endeavoring to +assist the girl when she saw her painful confusion. She stroked back +from Carmen's brow the curly locks which had escaped from under the +edge of the little white cap, saying: "Never mind! I can fancy, from +her pretty name, that her cradle was rocked in Spain, if not in a still +more distant and beautiful clime. Is it not so, dear child?" + +There was so much delicate consideration in the tone and manner of Frau +von Trautenau towards the embarrassed girl that Carmen, with an impulse +of sincere gratitude, bent over her friendly hand and kissed it. + +"Yes, it is so," She said, looking at the lady, with her dark eyes full +of childlike innocence. "I was born in the beautiful West Indies, on +the island of Jamaica." + +"Have you been here long?" + +"Oh yes, a very, very long time. I was sent here when only nine years +old, to be educated, my mother having died some time before; and my +father left Jamaica a year after I did, to go to the East Indies. I +have not seen him or heard from him once since then." + +Carmen said all this in an undertone, and her voice trembled, as if +full of suppressed tears. + +"Poor child! how sorry I am for you!" said the lady, affectionately, +taking Carmen's hand and pressing it tenderly. She felt such a deep +sympathy for the lonely girl that she quickly added: "Since you know so +well what it is to be separated from loved ones, will you not try to +interest yourself a little in Adele? She will perhaps find it +difficult at first to reconcile herself to this new life." + +"Gladly, with all my heart, if your daughter will confide in me!" +replied Carmen with joy. + +A stroke of the clock, which sounded loudly through the quiet house, +announced the hour of the midday meal. The girls rose at once from +their places, and Frau von Trautenau took leave of Sister Agatha, +taking her daughter with her. + +After the departure of the guests, the girls left the room; and as +Carmen passed Sister Agatha, the latter laid her hand on the girl's +shoulder, saying gravely, but not unkindly: + +"Dear Sister, I would like to speak with you; on your return from the +love-feast which we celebrate this evening, come to my room, and I will +have a talk with you." + +Carmen looked calmly into the serious eyes of the speaker, where she +read no small degree of secret dissatisfaction. + +"Yes, Sister Agatha, I will come." + + * * * * * * + +No apartment could be more simply furnished than that of Sister Agatha. +It seemed as if she wished to excel in her avoidance of anything like +unnecessary ornament or comfort. Three chairs, a table, an +old-fashioned sofa, a writing-desk, and a chest of drawers formed the +scanty furniture. The walls were whitewashed and bare, while at the +windows were hung plain white curtains. Above the desk was placed the +solitary ornament of the room, the watchword for the day. These +"watchwords" are texts of Scripture printed on cards, one for each day +in the year, and distributed to every member of the settlement, so that +all may meditate upon it, and guide their daily lives by its precepts. + +Sister Agatha sat at one of the windows; and with her, his chair drawn +back into the shadow, out of the bright afternoon sunshine, sat Brother +Jonathan Fricke, talking in his calmest and most deliberate manner, "It +seems to me, dear Sister, that the healthy give you more anxiety than +the sick." + +"Because they are the more difficult to help than others; and although +your visit is principally to the sick, I should like to have your +advice regarding the case of one in my charge, and whose father was +your dearest friend." + +"You are anxious about Carmen's worldly-mindedness; but ought you not +to be indulgent, dear Sister, and remember that the child's early +associations are still holding sway in her heart, and make great excuse +for her? Brother Mauer, you remember, went away from the mission to +his plantation, where, although he did not sever himself from our +communion, there was not much to remind him of his religious +obligations. His last wife, a hot-blooded Creole, could not be +considered much help as regards keeping the faith. She loved best to +swing herself into the saddle and gallop away over the plains. She +would sing her glowing Spanish songs to the accompaniment of the +mandolin; or else she would dance like a fairy, her foot scarce seeming +to touch the floor as she floated along, to the sound of the tambourine +played by her old negro duenna. She was too beautiful for him to +restrain, in dancing, riding, or anything. Too beautiful!" he +repeated, becoming more and more enthusiastic. "I have seen her often, +when summoned to the plantation on professional duty as a physician; +and there was little Carmen, always with her mother, and following her +in everything. She learned to dance and sing in true Spanish style, +and she seemed to feel all the beauty and fascination of it." + +Suddenly he paused, as if becoming conscious of his unwonted animation +under the wondering gaze of Sister Agatha's grave eyes. Heaving a deep +sigh, he had again recourse to his old trick of brushing an invisible +speck of dust from his sleeve, and then continued in the orthodox, +placid manner: + +"It was a fearful sin for a member of our faith to fall into, and +Brother Mauer should have resisted the temptation. I spoke to him +frequently about it, but he had lost all power of self-control. He was +too much absorbed in love for his wife, and therefore it was a mercy to +his soul and Carmen's that this Spanish girl died, and the child was +placed here, under our discipline, where she may yet be won over to a +spiritual life," he concluded, and cast a humble, sanctimonious look on +Sister Agatha. + +"Where were you when her mother died?" asked the Sister. "Were you +with her?" + +"No; she has been dead about ten years, and I left Jamaica some time +before that, as my health could not stand the climate. I went from +there to the northern part of the United States. From Bethlehem, where +I remained several years, I went back to the old place, and when I got +there Carmen was a wee little maiden, and I was told that Brother Mauer +had left Jamaica for the East Indies." + +"Well, surely the Lord called him to be His instrument," interrupted +Sister Agatha. "It was wonderful how he was seized with such an +irrepressible desire to be a missionary. And as far as we can know, he +has worked without flagging for the faith. All news from him has +ceased for some time now; and is it not strange that he has never made +any application for money? He took only a very small sum with him when +he went on his mission, and the large sum which the sale of his lands +in Jamaica brought is still in a bank in this country." + +"Has he, then, left nothing for Carmen?" + +"We receive a certain interest from the money, for her support and +education," replied Agatha, "but it is, comparatively speaking, very +little. The money must have accumulated to an immense sum by this +time. If her father is dead, Carmen must be a very wealthy +heiress--another temptation for her, poor child! It is strange we hear +nothing from Brother Mauer. I feel sure he must be dead--died while +working for his Lord!" + +As she spoke, Jonathan's eyes flashed, and he suddenly lifted his head; +but remembering where he was, he immediately resumed his usual pious +bearing, and, when Agatha ceased speaking, said, with something like a +sigh: + +"He was my friend!" + +A pause ensued, during which he seemed lost in reflection. + +"It does seem as if we have lost him," he continued, "and Carmen must +be an orphan. Poor child! Bear so much the more leniently with her, +dear Sister; and if from time to time you observe signs of her early +training, and that her impulses carry her sometimes beyond what is +quite becoming, remember she will find in me a guide who is ever ready +to lead her in the right way." + +"Truly, you are still the same faithful friend to her father, for you +have so much consideration for his child," said Agatha, deeply +affected. "But believe me, dear Brother, I also love the girl with my +whole heart, and am the more anxious for that reason, lest her natural +inclinations may lead her into error. But to whom shall I direct her +for guidance, if not to the dear Lord Himself?" + +"Surely, my Sister, you say well; and therefore it would be better for +her to have a helpmate ever at her side, who would remind her of her +holy calling," returned Jonathan, earnestly. "Next week she will be +eighteen years of age, and will then be numbered among the marriageable +sisters. It would certainly be the best thing for her to have a +husband; therefore seek one for her, Sister Agatha; and if you and the +assembly of elders can find no one better, then will I, for the sake of +her welfare, give up the freedom of my single life and take her to +myself, to be to her a faithful protector and husband, for the glory of +God." + +While speaking, he had risen nervously from his seat, and leaning one +arm on the back of the chair, uttered the last words hastily, as if +impelled thereto by a sudden overwhelming emotion. His eyes were fixed +on the floor, only once in a while looking furtively up, as if to watch +the effect of his words. But the Sister's open countenance showed only +a joyful surprise. + +"You would really sacrifice yourself for Sister Carmen's benefit?" she +cried. "How can I do otherwise than approve, dear Brother? You, the +pious, wise, experienced physician, full of love and kind forbearance +towards her, and knowing so well, all the while, what is for her good! +Where in all the wide world could she ever find a better counsellor and +guide?" + +"Nay, say not so, Sister Agatha," he interrupted reprovingly. "No +sinful creature deserves such praise; least of all I. None of us are +more than humble instruments for good, and have no merit at all of +ourselves." + +"Yet, my dear Brother, we cannot but recognize the good in others," +replied she in a gentle tone. "And I say no more than the truth. If +every one as worthy as you had only a portion of your modesty! The +sick long for you and praise you as their benefactor; the well welcome +you everywhere as a friend and adviser. Let me thank you for offering +yourself to Carmen, for you have done so with true kindness and love. +After the feast this evening, I will communicate your proposal to the +elders; and if they consent to it, then, afterwards, I will speak to +Carmen on the subject. I have notified her to come to me, without +reference to this matter, as I want to make some inquiries about her +behavior this morning. But now it is the hour for evening prayer." + +She arose, and extended her hand to Jonathan, who returned its hearty +pressure. Never had his manner been more humble than it now was as he +left the room. But when the door was closed behind him, he stood quite +still for a moment, and the disagreeable expression of his mouth was +greatly enhanced by the smile of triumph which lit up his countenance. + +"Ah!" he exclaimed under his breath, "beauty and wealth; they will +indeed compensate for the past." + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +When Frau von Trautenau, with her family, entered the spacious +prayer-room, to be present at the love-feast, the mass of the +congregation had already assembled, and were singing to the +accompaniment of the organ. The lady accepted the places assigned to +her and Adele by Sister Agatha, but Alexander and his brother took +possession of an empty bench near the door. + +The room presented a strange appearance for a place of worship. It was +destitute of any ornament whatever. The altar, which was at one end, +consisted of a simple wooden table, on which stood a large crucifix. +The brothers and sisters sat at long tables covered with white linen; +but, as usual, the sexes were seated apart. Each member was served +with a small cup of tea and a little bun. + +After a while the music ceased, and a long prayer by the principal +elder followed after which another member read a letter from one of +their missionaries, Joseph Hubner, who was at work in the land of the +Kaffres. This letter presented a touching picture of humble +self-sacrifice and sincere devotion. + +Alexander felt deeply moved, and forgot the strange mixture of +religious exercises and temporal enjoyment which this feast displayed. +Absorbed in listening, he did not observe that, in his immediate +vicinity, a singular commotion had arisen, and that a good deal of +whispering was carried on among the Brothers, as they regarded him and +Hans with curious glances. After the reading of the letter another +hymn was given out; then Hans nudged his brother. + +"What is there so peculiar about us? Everybody is gazing at us so!" + +Alexander glanced about, to see if anything was wrong, but could +discover nothing amiss. They had quietly and politely partaken of the +feast when it was offered to them, yet something must be wrong to +create such a sensation; so he turned to some one sitting near by, with +the question: + +"Are we depriving any one of this seat?" + +"Oh no, indeed, my dear sir," he replied. + +"So much the better," said Alexander. "We do not wish to cause any +inconvenience and I began to fear we were doing so." + +"I must ask your pardon," stammered the Brother, with much confusion. +"It was certainly very rude for us to stare at you so, and yet it was +the result of the deep sympathy we feel for your brother, who seems so +young to be a widower." + +Alexander gave a searching glance at the speaker, to see if he was +ridiculing his brother. Hans a widower! In spite of his tall stature, +he showed very plainly that he was but an overgrown schoolboy. + +"A widower, sir!" said the young man, slowly. "My brother is only +sixteen years old, and is still at school. In the world we do not +marry at that age." + +"It did indeed seem very strange to me," said the good man, in extreme +embarrassment; "but being seated among the widowers, we judged it must +be so." + +The two brothers almost laughed out loud, the position was so +ridiculous. + +"Then we are both in the wrong place--my brother as well as I! You +must pardon our ignorance of your customs. I saw the men and women +sitting apart, but never imagined the widowers had a particular place +for themselves. Tell us, pray, where we can sit to be among unmarried +fellows like ourselves." + +"Nay, my dear sir, remain where you are. The love-feast will soon be +over. Brother Daniel, who leaves us to-morrow, to help Brother Joseph +among the Kaffres, has only to take leave of us before we disperse." + +While he was speaking, the whole assembly arose, and one among them +stepped forward. He first advanced to the Sisters, and shook hands +with each one; then passing over to the Brothers, the parting kiss was +given and received. And he who thus bade farewell, ere he followed +Brother Joseph, to share his struggles and hardships, far away from +civilized life, was the identical awkward, ungainly-looking Brother +who, in the morning, had made such an unsuccessful attempt at riding. + +There is always an intolerable feeling of moral defeat when we see a +man, whom we have regarded with contempt rise into importance by his +own merit. A noble mind at once acknowledges the fact, but a mean +spirit feels only resentment and spite, with a sense of defeat. + +Something like a feeling of shame came over Alexander, as he closely +regarded the man whom he had inwardly despised, but who now seemed like +a hero in his eyes. + +Seated at the table, opposite to him were the young sisters and pupils +belonging to the educational department, and among them Adele, seated +not far from Carmen. As Alexander casually looked up, he met Carmen's +sparkling eyes, which seemed to cast on him a look of triumph, as if +she understood his feeling of humiliation which this moment brought to +him as a consequence of his contemptuous manner in the morning. He +thought he could clearly read in her expression what she fain would +have said: "You may perhaps ride well, and he cannot; you were not +afraid to stop the wild horse and save the child's life; but would you +have the courage to undertake what he has been appointed to do?" As +their eyes met, she returned his glance unflinchingly and firmly, but +he could not prevent his eyes from falling before hers. + +Meanwhile Brother Daniel had, in his rounds of leave-taking, approached +those near to Alexander. When he reached the latter he hesitated a +moment, having recognized the person who had come to his assistance in +need, and a flush of embarrassment suffused his gentle, almost +effeminate, countenance. But Alexander, bending down quickly, pressed +a kiss on the man's cheek, saying heartily: "Farewell, and good luck go +with you! Believe me, I thoroughly admire your courage." + +The Brother looked at him in surprise, and answered: "Thank you very +much, sir!" and passed on. + +When Alexander again looked toward Carmen, her eyes were moist with +unshed tears. + +"How beautiful that girl is!" thought he. "What an independent, frank +spirit speaks from her eyes; what a lovely expression hovers around her +mouth! She is like a dazzling star among these quiet people,--as if +she had strayed away from her own orbit and found herself here,--so +little does she seem fitted to her surroundings in the little circle in +which she moves. I wonder if she is happy here. A large-hearted, +generous nature cannot be content to submit to all these restrictions. +No, she resists them. I saw that to-day. But she will never become +like the others, and pass her life, in quiet submission, by the side of +a man such as Brother Daniel, for instance." + +The leave-taking of the Brother being ended, the congregation received +the general blessing and dispersed. The moment had now come when Frau +von Trautenau and her sons must part from Adele, and many were the +tears shed on the occasion. + +The night grew late; the lamp was lighted in Agatha's room. Presently +a gentle tapping was heard on the door, answered by a kindly "Come in." + +Carmen entered; and when Agatha, raising her eyes, recognized the girl, +she put aside her spectacles, and said gently: "Come nearer, dear +Sister; I was expecting you." She drew up a chair, but Carmen put it +aside, and kneeling by Sister Agatha's side, said: + +"No, Sister, let me remain here and hear what you have to say, for you +are going to chide me--I am sure of it." + +"Carmen, do you believe I love you?" she inquired. + +"Surely," answered the girl, quickly. "More than any one else here." + +"Then you know that my heart grieves when I cannot feel satisfied with +you," continued the Sister. "Why are your thoughts constantly dwelling +on worldly things, and why do you allow yourself to be overcome with +pride, instead of putting your mind on serious matters, and being more +humble?" + +"You are angry with me, Sister Agatha, because I did not tell from what +distant land I came. That is not such a dreadful crime," said Carmen, +cheerfully. + +The serious countenance of the Sister grew yet more grave, and she +looked severely at the kneeling figure. + +"Have you, then, not thought of the text for to-day?" she asked +reprovingly, + +Carmen flushed up quickly; she tried to compose herself, but was for a +moment at a loss what to say. She had during the past day been through +such new experiences; whereas, heretofore, every day had been pretty +much the same. + +Sister Agatha waited patiently for Carmen to become calmer. At last, +when she seemed to have forgotten her confusion about the text, Agatha +said: "Now tell me the watchword." + +When the maiden's eyes turned to the usual place for the motto, her +thoughts seemed to cease wandering, and she repeated the verse +correctly: + +"'Feed Thou Thy people with Thy staff.'" + +"Remember, my Sister, the purport of those words. 'Thy people' are +those who belong to Him; 'with Thy staff' means, with the support of +His strength. Carmen, how can the Lord guide you with His staff, if +you do not bow your will before Him, and try to curb your pride?" + +Carmen, as she knelt, had rested her elbows on Sister Agatha's lap, and +thus supported her head on her hands, while she gazed into the +speaker's face, thinking earnestly of what she said. + +"Do you call it pride, and are you vexed with me because I would not +tell to strangers what was indifferent, or perhaps amusing, to them? +Oh, Sister Agatha, is it necessary that we expose ourselves to the +derision of the world? We do not serve God by doing that. And when +you speak of pride, is it not that very feeling which leads you to +boast of our having come from so many and such distant lands? Do you +not wish to demonstrate by that means how your faith has penetrated +into all parts of the world? That is, after all, pride under the garb +of humility." + +Sister Agatha was deeply touched, and remained silent for a moment; +then rising hastily, she said with a stern manner: "Do not confuse +trifles with grave subjects. All that we do, even the weakest, is for +the Lord's glory and praise, and not our own. What matter if the world +scorns us? If we are the Lord's, He is with us, and we care for naught +else. Search your heart, dear Sister, that you neglect not the +salvation of your soul. Accept for yourself a helper and guide, so +that your feet may not stray from the right path. There is one, whom I +know, is now ready to offer himself to you, than whom none is, more +steadfast in the faith. Brother Jonathan Fricke, the faithful friend +of your father, honors you most highly when he desires to have you for +his wife. To-day he explained to me his wishes on the subject; and the +elders, to whom I have spoken, give their cordial consent to the +alliance." + +At Agatha's words Carmen grew deathly pale, and listened with wide-open +eyes. When the Sister ceased speaking, she sprang up, and turning from +the gentle eyes which sought hers, said passionately: + +"But I will not have him for my husband!" + +"Carmen, my dear, you will not have Jonathan for your husband? You do +not know what you are saying," cried Agatha. + +"Yes, I do, Sister Agatha," answered Carmen, quickly, her large +lustrous eyes gleaming with a dangerous light. "Do you know how you +feel when you come in contact with a reptile, a snake? When I was a +little girl, on my father's plantation, I saw one day, under an +aloe-tree, what I thought was a green twig; and when I grasped it, it +was a cold, clammy snake, which, in a moment, twined itself around my +arm. I could not scream for terror; but Sarah, my mother's faithful +slave, saw it. She tore the viper from my arm, and flung it far away, +among the bushes. Sister Agatha, when Brother Jonathan comes near me, +I feel the same shiver go through, and the same feeling of horror +almost paralyzes my limbs. I could not endure to have him near me +always. I could not say to him, 'My husband'--no, not for all the +world!" + +Carmen grew more and more excited as she went on. + +"Perhaps not for all the world," interposed Agatha; "but for your own +salvation you must do it. Do not thrust the safety of your soul from +you in this way. As Brother Jonathan's wife, you will be a partaker of +his holy life and good works. We are not put into this world to please +ourselves, but to further the progress of the kingdom of God." + +"Oh, Sister Agatha, believe me, I will become a nurse for the sick, and +bear all the hardships and trials of such a vocation; only spare +me--spare me this one thing! I cannot give myself to Brother Jonathan. +You must not--you dare not require it of me!" cried the girl, bursting +into tears. + +"No, Carmen, I will not compel you, although it grieves me for your +sake," said Agatha. "Go, now, and on your knees examine your heart, +lest you may refuse that which is intended for your greatest good." +And kissing Carmen, she dismissed her. + +The hours wore on, and still Sister Agatha remained lost in thought, +wondering what new ideas had been put into that young head. "Perhaps +she was right. Vanity and pride! How frightful the words sound! We +never know ourselves as well as we do others; so, after all, the child +has given me a good lesson. I must look into my own heart more +thoroughly, and be more severe with myself, before I presume to advise +and guide other people. Lord, help me to a right knowledge of my duty +to Thee!" + +She extinguished the light, and sought repose from her anxieties. + + + + +CHAPTER V. + +A week passed quietly by, and the excitement caused by Brother Daniel's +departure had given place to the usual monotonous religious routine. +During this time things had gone badly with Adele. Self-control and +obedience were things entirely new to her, and she felt by no means +attracted towards the young girls about her, always excepting Carmen. +The predilection which her mother had shown for the latter had quickly +communicated itself to the daughter, and Carmen, in return, feeling +that she could never be sufficiently grateful to Frau von Trautenau for +her kindness, showed every possible favor to Adele. This young lady's +naturally vivacious and merry disposition, which was not at all subdued +by the calm seriousness which surrounded her, proved a great source of +amusement to Carmen. She gladly reciprocated the warm affection +lavished upon her by the petted heiress, and every letter which reached +Wolmershain teemed with the pleasure the two friends took in each +other's society. Adele told how Carmen had passed her eighteenth +birthday, and now wore pink instead of red; how Carmen had undertaken +to teach some of the English classes, and how all the girls loved their +new teacher, etc., etc. + +Carmen's natural cheerfulness had not been disturbed by the +communication Sister Agatha had made to her in regard to Brother +Jonathan. The morning after, Sister Agatha asked if she had considered +the matter well, and prayed over it; to which Carmen answered in the +affirmative, but persisted in her positive refusal; to which Brother +Jonathan submitted with apparent calmness. If he felt at all +mortified, he certainly exerted immense self-control, for he seemed the +same as usual, and his voice was clear and firm; so that Agatha felt +sure that it was only his great unselfishness which had prompted him to +entertain the idea. + +His profession took him frequently to the Sisters' house, but when +there he had intercourse only with the nurses and patients. 'Tis true +he now came oftener than formerly, and at more irregular hours, on the +plea of looking after this or that which he had forgotten; but as he, +with silent tread, passed along through the halls, he seldom met any of +the Sisters, and Carmen never. + +To-day had been rainy and wet, but towards evening the sky cleared up, +and Carmen led little Frieda home from the school-house. On her return +she took a roundabout path, and slackened her usually fleet steps to +enjoy the fresh, balmy spring air. She passed into a lonely lane, +bordered on either side with beautiful gardens, whose hedges were +unfolding their first blossoms, filling the air with sweetest perfume. +As she stooped to pick some lovely violets which peeped up from the +wayside, she, all at once, felt as if some one was standing behind her, +although no footfall had reached her ear. She raised herself hastily +from her stooping posture, and as she did so, felt a man's strong arm +passed around her, and in another second she was pressed violently to +his breast. She strove to cry out for help, but voice and tongue +failed her, as she turned and met Brother Jonathan's burning glance; +and there seemed to thrill through her, under the touch of his arm, the +same creeping, numbing horror that she felt when the snake coiled about +her arm. But how changed he looked! His whole countenance seemed +lighted up by a new expression, and eager, passionate words poured from +his lips. + +"Carmen, so young, so warm-hearted, why can you not respond to a love +which is offered to you with all the intensity of a true heart? You +see in me only the grave, elderly man who wants you for his wife, and +therefore you reject him. But, Carmen, under this calm exterior you +will find an ardent lover, who desires to win you, that he may make for +you a heaven on earth, and fill your life with such unutterable bliss +as you have never dreamed of. Oh, Carmen, do not say me nay; but lay +your lovely head upon my breast, and believe that my heart throbs +wildly and deeply for you only. Look in my eyes, and let the love you +read there serve to kindle a like feeling in you. Have you forgotten +that we must love one another, we Brothers and Sisters? Give me your +love, then, my darling, and say you will be mine!" + +Rendered powerless to move by his pitiless embrace, she seemed like a +little bird doomed to death by the irresistible fascination of a +serpent. Quickly, passionately, his hot breath scorching her bloodless +lips, he kissed her again and again. With a sudden powerful effort she +tore herself from his arms, retreated a few steps, and turning on him a +countenance ablaze with scorn and indignation, she cried: + +"Back, villain! How dare you venture to insult me thus? Approach one +step nearer, and I will cry out so that heaven and earth will fly to my +succor." + +She stood before him, so proud and haughty, so intensely excited, that +he dared not venture farther. + +"I will not approach you again, Carmen, if it displeases you; and +forgive my violence just now," he pleaded earnestly. "But promise to +give yourself to me, Carmen; you are not by nature cold; you will, you +must return my love. Let me teach you what real happiness is; you may +imagine it, but you cannot come near the reality." + +The girl was silent; this antipathy to Jonathan was as old as her +memory. In Jamaica he had been an object of aversion to her, yet she +could give no definite reason for this deeply-rooted dislike. Every +one spoke so highly of him that she often blamed herself for not +feeling more kindly towards one who enjoyed the respect and esteem of +the whole community. His piety and temperate habits, his humility and +devotion to his work, were conspicuous even here. Of late, he had been +particularly friendly towards Carmen, which seemed a very natural +thing, he having been such an old friend of her father's. But his +increased kindness only awoke a greater dislike in the girl, so that +she tried in every way to escape an avowal from him of his feelings. +She did not consider her refusal to marry him a matter of much +importance, as she concluded his offer had arisen only from a desire to +transfer his friendship from the father to the daughter. His +unexpected outburst of passion alarmed her, although in her childish +innocence, she did not fully understand why she felt so deeply +insulted. The thought that he had given her a love which she could not +return made her fearful of hurting his feelings in some way beyond her +comprehension, and she endeavored to subdue her anger sufficiently to +answer him. + +"Forgive me if I wound you, Brother Jonathan, but I cannot help it. I +do not love you as you desire, and I neither deserve nor wish that you +should have such a warm feeling for me." + +"Carmen, you surely cannot mean what you say. I have taken you by +surprise. Calm yourself, and do not make this a final decision." He +attempted to approach her again, but the maiden shrank back from him in +terror. + +"I cannot do otherwise," she said firmly. "Now let me, I pray, go on +my way in peace. Sister Agatha must be waiting for me." + +At the mention of the Sister's name, Jonathan gave an anxious glance at +Carmen. It flashed on his mind what fearful consequences might result +from his conduct. He remembered the law of the Brotherhood, which +required that the members must report the slightest departure from +strict morality in any one of their number, so that the delinquent be +reprimanded and excluded once or twice from the monthly celebration of +the Communion. Should he give evidence of repentance, and return to +the right path, he might be restored to his usual privileges; but if he +should not acknowledge his fault, he must absent himself from the +society of others, and, in an extreme case, be banished from the +Brotherhood. + +Brother Jonathan, heretofore so strict, and spotless in his reputation, +to be publicly accused and admonished! What an appalling example of +fallen greatness! + +At the mention of Agatha's name, he endeavored to resume his habitual +calmness. He passed his hand over his eyes, as if to blot out the +remembrance of the passion which yet burned within him, and gradually +regained, in voice and manner, a more collected mien. + +"You have seen, dear Sister, how our passions sometimes get the mastery +over us, and how vain are our efforts to subdue them, even though we +have devoted ourselves to a religious life!" said he, in an humble +tone. "If you cannot give me your love, you can at least be silent +about my feeling towards you, and forget what has just occurred, and +for which I shall ask pardon from Heaven." + +Carmen looked at him, with a feeling of pity. She had brought so much +trouble to this man that the thought of it did much towards dissipating +her ill-will towards him. With tears in her eyes, she said: "Be easy +about that, Brother Jonathan. I will not betray you. Forget this +hour, as I will try to forget it." + +Then turning away, she hurried, as fast as her feet would carry her, to +the safe shelter of the Sisters' house. + +From this time forth, Carmen's peace of mind was gone. Her aversion to +Jonathan was outweighed by her fear of him. His hot, ardent nature had +broken bounds so violently and ungovernably that she could not feel at +all sure it was so quickly subdued. A deep sense of desolation, came +over her. Her mother, lying in the grave, far away on a sea-girt +island, under a tropical sun; her father, in all likelihood murdered, +and buried in some foreign land; and she living among strangers, with +whom she found it utterly impossible to feel any congeniality! She +avoided Brother Jonathan, and he seemed to shun her no less +assiduously. He had absented himself from one Communion; explaining +his conduct by expressing an unusual sense of his own unworthiness. +His calculations were well made: Carmen pitied him sincerely on account +of the deep remorse he seemed to feel. How could her pure mind imagine +it was all hypocrisy! In the house where he lived with the other +unmarried Brothers, he maintained the same pious, serious demeanor as +heretofore. His patients received the same care and attention as +formerly, but he looked haggard and care-worn, and Thomas, his faithful +attendant, whom he had brought with him from the New World, would often +hear him groan heavily in the night, as if some secret grief preyed on +his mind. + +Carmen could not witness his misery unmoved. Since the unfortunate +incident connected with him, her life among the Sisters had become +doubly oppressive to her. Like a welcome release from her unpleasant +surroundings came a request from Frau von Trautenau that Sister Agatha +would permit Adele and her dear Carmen to spend Whitsuntide with her at +Wollmershain; an invitation which Agatha gladly accepted for her pupils. + +Wollmershain was a large, beautiful estate, which, upon the death of +its owner, had become the joint property of Adele and her brothers; and +Frau von Trautenau had resided there since her widowhood, and proposed +to continue doing so until one of her sons should buy his sister's and +brother's portion and assume the management of it. The relations +between Frau von Trautenau and her step-son had always been of the most +happy and agreeable kind; he honored and loved his step-mother, who had +brought him up with the greatest possible care and affection; and she, +in return placed implicit confidence in his opinions and advice, making +him her chief counsellor since her husband's death. + +Into this beautiful home-life Carmen now entered, as if into a new +world. Whereas, the affection between the Brothers and Sisters in the +"community" had always appeared to her in the austere light of a duty, +here it seemed like a natural impulse, springing spontaneously from the +depths of warm and loving hearts. + +In all the arrangements of the house and grounds, the idea of the +beautiful, in connection with the comfortable and useful, was +everywhere prominent. + +The lofty, well-lighted rooms, adorned and furnished with elegant +simplicity; the smooth green lawns, bordered with lovely flowers of +every hue; the magnificent avenues of grand old trees, and the +innumerable, lovely little nooks to be found here and there in the +park, all breathed a charm which reminded Carmen of what she dimly +remembered about her father's plantation and hacienda in Jamaica. + +Alexander and Hans were also at home for the holidays; and while Adele +rambled with the latter through park and garden, Carmen, who shyly +avoided Alexander, was entertained by her hostess, to whose warm +motherly nature the girl was attracted with genuine, childlike +heartiness. It was indeed her society, more than anything else, which +contributed to Carmen's happiness at Wollmershain, for she felt +embarrassed in this new kind of life; and the remarks which her +peculiar dress occasioned were especially annoying. To avoid being +conspicuous, she had already laid aside the white cap; but her beauty, +enhanced by the coils of glossy hair which crowned her queenly little +head, was so remarkable, so foreign-looking and striking, that she +seemed like some rare exotic which, in all the luxuriance of its +loveliness, had been transplanted from the land of palms to our colder +soil. There was in her manner an odd mixture of pride and humility, +dignity and modesty, which gave her all the reserve of a woman and the +winsomeness of a child. Perhaps it was the knowledge of the fact that +the peculiarities of the Sisters elicited so much ridicule from the +world that caused her to use her pride as a defence and a weapon, when +in company with any one save Frau von Trautenau. She always seemed +ready to do battle with Alexander, and yet he had never by word or deed +given cause for such a feeling. + +"She is full of pluck and mettle like a thoroughbred horse!" said old +General von Bergen, who, with his daughter and his adjutant, had come +up from the barracks on a visit. "It is a pleasure to provoke her; her +eyes light up so. Pohlen," he said, turning to the adjutant, "you +seemed to be unfortunate in your remarks to her during dinner; those +lovely lips curled as scornfully as if you had seriously offended her, +and her great eyes glowed like fire, as she looked away off, over your +head." + +The gentleman addressed laughed as if amused. "And yet I only ventured +on some complimentary speeches. I asked if all the Creoles were as +beautiful as herself. That was surely flattering enough, and I think +this little Moravian ought, by this time, to possess some of the +humility they pride themselves so much on, and not toss her head so +haughtily and look at me so contemptuously." + +The gentlemen were comfortably smoking in the veranda, after dinner; +and Alexander, who sat on the steps, half hidden by a large +syringa-bush in full bloom, flushed deeply at Pohlen's words. In a +sharp tone of reprimand, he said: + +"My friend, Creole is a term which is not at all agreeable to some +people; for the rest, flattery is often another name for insult; +perhaps the young lady considered yours as such." + +"Do you think so?" drawled out Pohlen. "That is altogether a new thing +to me. A lady of higher quality would at least have known how to +receive homage offered to her; and a second time I will not put up with +a rebuff from this Moravian girl, but will treat her as she does me." + +Alexander colored with anger, and his blood boiled. It was only by a +powerful effort that he controlled himself sufficiently to answer in a +tolerably calm voice: + +"A lady of higher quality? Higher quality presupposes greater merit, +and you will do well to bear in mind, Herr von Pohlen, that this lady +is my mother's guest, and, as such, is under my most special +protection. Any mortification or insult inflicted on her is also +inflicted on me." + +"Gentlemen, I beg the conversation may not become serious, but retain +the bantering tone in which I began it. Let what has been said lead to +nothing unpleasant," interrupted the general, in a pacifying manner. +"Herr von Pohlen will, of course, remember what he owes to the inmates +of this hospitable mansion. You two fortunate knights must vie with +each other as to who shall win the favor of this young maiden, who is +as beautiful as a dream. For myself, I lament nothing so much as my +sixty years, which prevent me from entering the lists with you." + +Alexander rose as the old man finished speaking, and as he passed down +the steps, said: + +"If agreeable, let us find the ladies now, General; they are, I think, +awaiting us on the lawn." + +He paused abruptly, for at the foot of the steps stood Carmen, as if +irresolute whether to advance or withdraw. She had evidently heard the +foregoing conversation, for she was very pale and trembled slightly. +The young officer descended quickly toward her, as she raised her head, +and calmly waited for him to pass. As he came up to where she stood, +she whispered softly: + +"I thank you!" and a gentle glance from the beautiful black eyes +thrilled him with pleasure. Then seeing the other gentlemen preparing +to descend also, her face became suffused with blushes. + +"I came to find a cushion for Frau von Trautenau," she remarked +confusedly. + +"Allow me, Fraulein Carmen, to take it to my mother," said Alexander, +coming to her assistance; and he ran back, upstairs, as she hastened +away. + +Games were now arranged on the lawn, and Fraulein von Bergen, a merry +maiden, soon had every one actively engaged in them. There were +familiar ones, which Carmen had often played at school with the +day-pupils; but how different they seemed here, when the gentlemen took +part in them! Carmen could never have been as unrestrained as the +general's daughter; but she laughed merrily and enjoyed it all, +contenting herself with allowing Adele to catch her, and carefully +avoiding any contact with the others. + +After a while a drop of rain fell, then another, and at last a hard +shower drove the party from the open air into the drawing-room; but the +spirit of merriment had been aroused, and sitting down quietly was not +to be thought of. + +"Come, papa, lead out your war-horse to the front!" urged the general's +daughter; and the old gentleman good-naturedly seated himself at the +piano and began thrumming the one, solitary piece he could play--a +lively galop. Herr von Pohlen seized Fraulein von Bergen, Hans his +sister, and the two couples went whirling through the mazes of the +dance. + +Carmen looked on with sparkling eyes; a bright flush of happiness +colored her cheek, her little foot involuntarily beat time, and her +lithe form swayed to and fro with a dreamy, rhythmical movement. + +"Will you not dance also?" asked Alexander, close beside her. + +"Oh, I would like to, above all things!" she replied with a lovely +smile, her eyes still fixed on the dancers. "How delightful it must be +to whirl around so!" + +"Will you not try it with me, Fraulein Carmen?" he urged pleadingly. + +"I cannot dance; at least, not like that!" she returned, turning her +beaming countenance towards him. + +"Oh, it is very easily learned; just trust yourself to my guidance. +Put your hand on my shoulder, if you please, and with my arm I will +hold you firmly as we move around;" saying which, he proceeded to put +his arm about her waist. But she drew back, and gave him a horrified +look. As yet, no man's arm had encircled her--except Brother +Jonathan's, during that one dreadful moment of her life. + +"I cannot do it--no, it is quite impossible!" she stammered. + +"Then you must pardon me for making the attempt," said Alexander, and +bowed coolly. + +"Refused!" whispered Pohlen, mockingly, when he stopped dancing, for he +had seen Alexander's defeat. + +"Yes; but as she knows _how_ to refuse, it is perhaps more to be +appreciated than when others accept," he replied. + +When the family separated for the night, and Carmen had as usual given +her hand to her hostess, Adele, and Hans, she hesitated a second, and +then, with a burning blush mantling her cheek, extended her hand to +Alexander. Heretofore she had persistently avoided him; but to-day he +had proved himself her friend and protector, and she felt that some +reparation was due him for her rudeness in the past. + +As she held out the little hand, and wished him "Good-night," she gave +him a pleading glance, as if to say, "Do not be angry with me!" + +His countenance lighted up with surprise and pleasure. Her eyes, so +fascinating when flashing with indignation, now seemed irresistible +when moistened by a gentler emotion; and as he looked into their dark, +unfathomable depths, he felt as if he would like to gaze forever. But +her eyes fell before his ardent glance, and bowing low over the +proffered hand, he kissed it respectfully, feeling as honored as if a +queen had allowed him the privilege. + +From this night Carmen's intercourse with Alexander assumed a much more +friendly character; but was, of course, very brief, as only two more +days remained ere the pleasant party at Wollmershain would be broken +up, and Adele and Carmen return to their duties. + + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +"Dear old home! At last I see you again!" exclaimed a lonely +traveller, as he stood leaning on his staff, and viewed the scene +before him. He took off his hat, and folded his hands as if in silent +thanksgiving. Footsore and weary he seemed to have paused here to +refresh himself with the sight of a place so dear to him. + +There lay the little Moravian settlement, bathed in the soft glow of a +summer sunset. Bright clouds reflected a golden radiance on the +pointed roofs and windows, and trembled on the bosom of the little +stream, which, with gentle murmur, flowed at the stranger's feet. The +dark shadows of the hills extended down into the valley opening on his +right, and from the evening mist peeped out the old mill, which he +remembered so well. On the meadows around the alder-pond, the evening +fog wreathed itself into fairy forms, and the fragrance of new-mown hay +was borne on the breeze. + +It was a lovely, peaceful picture, and seemed to affect the man very +deeply. And yet he had been in the midst of far grander, more sublime, +more beautiful scenery than this! He had crossed the ocean, and +revelled in the contemplation of its grandeur. He had dwelt under +tropical skies, palms and magnolias shading his home, and the boundless +riches of the West Indian world poured out at his feet. He had looked +upon the sacred waters of the Ganges, and gazed in wonder on the +temples of Benares; had traversed "the home of the snows" on the +Himalayas; and the ice crown of the Dhawalagiri had frowned on him, +gigantic and mystical, as he sojourned in the green valleys below, rich +with banana-groves and rice fields. He had wandered over Mongolian +steppes, and the stars of heaven had watched over him as he lay in the +tent of the nomad; but never, through all, had the yearning for home +been quenched within him. + +"Home!" How the word recalls long-lost memories! The mother's gentle +smile, the father's loving word, as when, in childhood's happy hours, +we sought the beloved shelter at evening, and betook ourselves to +innocent slumbers; and, although the child grows to be the gray-haired +man, yet the sweet memories of peace and love never fade from his +heart. What changes life brings to us! Thirty years ago this worn, +weary traveller emigrated to the New World. Then he was young, +courageous, filled with all the bright hopes which a new life spread +out before him. What happiness he had known since then; what sorrow he +had passed through; and ah, what guilt and remorse he had borne! + +And now he was back again--the tall, erect form so bowed down. Was it +sorrow, guilt, or exhaustion from the journey? The once sunny locks +were white as the snow on the mountains; in the large blue eyes alone +there were still some signs of his former self remaining. "Here is the +dear old place at last!" he murmured to himself, and his bosom heaved +with suppressed emotion. The longer he gazed, the more difficult he +found it to control his feelings, until finally he gave way, and wept +like a child. + +Meanwhile the brilliant hues of sunset had faded away, and with the +approaching shadows of night the wind rose and played around the +stranger's hoary head. + +"It must be about nine o'clock now, the hour for evening prayer, and +everything will go on just as in the old days, for there is nothing to +create a change here. I will go in, and ask if my child yet lives; and +if so, there may be one to rejoice at my return." Thus soliloquizing, +he put his hat on again, slung his wallet over his shoulder, and +supporting himself on his stout staff, approached the house. Very few +changes had occurred since he had left. A few new houses had been +erected, but the old ones remained unaltered, even the one where he had +formerly lived. He had inherited it from his father, and had carried +on the linen trade there until he left with his first wife for the New +World. + +The congregation were returning from the chapel. Here and there a +group would gather before one or other of the dwellings, to enjoy the +mild summer night; and as the old man passed along he greeted a Brother +or a Sister, and they returned it kindly, but like strangers. No one +recognized him, although many looked after him curiously as he +staggered feebly on towards the Sisters' house. + +"That is not the Brothers' house, dear Brother," said a young man, +addressing him. + +"Yes, I know it. But I know where I am going," he replied, as if +pleased to find the different roads so familiar to him. Then he pulled +the bell at the Sisters' door, and requested to speak with Agatha. + +He was ushered into the sitting-room, and as Sister Agatha entered, +recognized her at the first glance. + +"Sister, does Carmen Mauer still live, and is she here?" he asked, +trembling with intense suspense. + +The speaker must once have been a very handsome man. He bore evidences +of it to-day, although deep sorrow and bodily as well as mental +suffering had set its seal on his face and left deep furrows there. +The burning suns of many climes had bronzed his skin, so that the +large, clear blue eyes shone forth like stars. + +Agatha looked at him inquiringly, and the more she looked the more +perplexed she became. "Carmen lives here in this house," she answered, +at length. "Can it be possible that you are--" + +"Brother Mauer, who you have thought was dead ages ago," he replied +falteringly. + +"Heaven be praised!" cried Agatha, and sank into a chair. The surprise +was almost too great for her; but regaining her self-control in a +measure, she cordially pressed his outstretched hand, and led him to a +seat, saying: "Let me go and bring Carmen at once, and you shall clasp +your child to your heart without delay." + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + +Sister Agatha lost not a moment. "Rejoice, dear Carmen," she said. "A +Brother has just arrived who brings intelligence that your father still +lives!" And with a most unwonted excitement in her manner, she led +Carmen to the door of the sitting-room. Tremblingly the girl entered, +and saw by the clear light of the lamp an old, bent man who had, at +this moment, no power to rise to his feet, but could only stretch out +his longing arms to his dearly-loved daughter. The next moment she lay +sobbing on his breast. The child had not forgotten the sweet +expression of those eyes, and she read in the dear features the fact +that she was not an orphan. + +"Father! my dear, dear father!" + +His eyes bedewed her brow with tears of joy as with loving tones he +murmured again and again: "My child! my darling!" In her warm embrace +he again felt the happiness which had been denied him during so many +weary years. After a little while, he gently turned her face up +towards him, and examined her features. + +"Just like Inez! You are your mother over again, as I first saw her +under the palms and fell in love with her. In you I have found both of +my lost ones!" he said, and he smiled through happy tears. + +"You will stay with me now, dear father? You will never leave me +again?" she asked anxiously. + +"Yes, I will remain here, Carmen, in the dear old home, where I have +come, a worn-out pilgrim to rest." + +"Poor father! how much you must have endured, working so far away from +us all! You have been all alone, no one to succor or help you; and +nothing has been heard of you for so long; all efforts to find you have +proved useless," said Carmen, as she lovingly stroked the withered +cheek. "You had vanished so utterly that they all gave you up as dead; +only my heart could never believe it. Why have you never sent us any +tidings?" + +"I did indeed send some, my child, but they never reached you. I was +on the banks of the Ganges at the time, but shortly afterwards I went +farther into the country, towards the north, attempting to penetrate a +defile in the Himalayas. There the savages seized me and made me a +slave. For years I have served in the most menial and degrading +capacity; my tired back often bruised with their lashes, and only the +stony ground on which to rest. At length I escaped on horseback, and +succeeded in reaching the Mongolian steppes. There I have been +wandering about, with various tribes, for two years; have tended their +flocks and performed the commonest labor; all the time trying to teach +them the Gospel. But only the spirit of unrest reigned within me, and +an intense longing impelled me to turn my face homeward. So I took my +staff and passed on foot through Siberia, into Russia, begging my way +from door to door. I, who possess hundreds of thousands! Finally I +reached Sarepta, ragged and barefooted, and almost dead from +exhaustion. There the Brothers wanted me to remain with them, to be +nursed and cared for; but this uncontrollable longing did not suffer me +to tarry. After reaching Europe I felt as if I was on the threshold of +home, and I grew more impatient than ever. I obtained a loan of money +from the Brothers, and was thus enabled to ride the rest of the +journey, and get some suitable clothing; but I sickened on the road and +was forced to lay up in a Polish town, where I remained until nearly +all my money was gone. Afterwards I was again obliged to travel on +foot--and here I am. Now all will go well, since I am again at home," +he concluded, smiling contentedly at the last thought. + +Sister Agatha had, meanwhile, brought refreshments for the weary old +man. What a heart-felt joy, this first meal with his daughter in the +old familiar room! And how much he had to relate, while regaling +himself, of wonders and adventures in distant lands! It was very late +when, strengthened by the good cheer, and comforted by the presence of +his child, he bade good-night to Carmen and Sister Agatha, and betook +himself to the lodging-house to seek repose. + + * * * * * * + +"Have you heard the news? Brother Mauer, whom we thought dead and +buried, is here!" passed from lip to lip in the settlement the next +morning. The wonderful event occupied every mind, and filled the +Brothers and Sisters with amazement. But no one except Carmen had seen +him as yet. He had slept until near noon, recovering some of his lost +strength, and his daughter had sat quietly watching by him during the +whole morning, so that his first waking glance might fall on her. +Afterwards they took breakfast together in his room, each recounting +the occurrences of the past years, and drawing happy plans for the +future. He proposed to buy a house in the settlement, and Carmen +should keep house for him, nothing but death ever separating them again. + +Carmen's heart grew light as a bird. She was so delighted to have her +father restored to her--so happy in the security of a love which would +always shelter and protect her! It would shield her even against +Brother Jonathan's love, which was so abhorrent to her; and she took +counsel with herself whether or no it would be best to tell the old man +all the terror she had suffered a short time before. Truly a promise +of silence had been given; but ought she not to make her father an +exception? She could not see clearly what was the right thing to do, +and therefore resolved not to mention Jonathan at all. + +The latter had gone on a short journey a few days previously, and she +would thus have time to consider the matter, and wait for some quieter +hour in which to make her disclosure. + +In the afternoon, when service was held in the chapel, everybody +hastened thither, intent upon seeing Brother Mauer, and hearing about +his mission work and adventures. He sat among the widowers; devoutly +singing, his eyes cast down, as if he felt that all eyes were gazing +upon him. + +When the hymn was ended, the principal elders and teachers came up to +Mauer, greeting him with cordial hand-shakings, and leading him, with +words of hearty welcome, to a more prominent seat, from which he could +address the congregation. He bore himself with a firmer carriage +to-day, and the dignity of his tall figure was more conspicuous than on +the evening before. With a happy smile, he let his glance roam over +the assembly of Brothers and Sisters, many of whom were unknown to him; +indeed, the large majority were strange, yet he held each and all dear, +as forming a part of his home surroundings. As he passed up the aisle, +between the two elders who conducted him, the door of the chapel +opened, and a tardy member entered. It was Brother Jonathan Fricke. +His manner was even humbler than usual, and his eyes wandered +restlessly around: perhaps he had heard of Brother Mauer's arrival, and +was looking for him. In the centre of the aisle, which was filled with +people, he met the three men. Jonathan's glance fell on the tall form +of his old friend; he stretched out his hand, and said in a low voice: + +"Do the dead rise, Brother Michael?" + +Mauer shrank back at the words; and as he recognized the speaker he +grew deathly pale, his eyes dilated with an expression of horror, and +he staggered forward. + +"You here?" he asked hoarsely, and fell to the ground. + +A general confusion ensued. It seemed but natural that the numerous +greetings should have exhausted the over-weary traveller; and then the +reunion with his old friend--it really had been too much for his +strength, and the general feeling of sympathy grew deeper. + +As they carried him away Carmen, followed to his room; and after long, +untiring efforts the old man at last began to revive. Carmen begged +that she might be left alone with him, so that when he came fully to +himself he might be undisturbed and see no one but her, at the same +time declining all offers of medical assistance from Brother Jonathan. + +The girl seated herself by the bedside; and when her father opened his +eyes, she noticed he looked anxiously around and then whispered: + +"Child, who was that I last saw in the chapel and who spoke to me?" + +"Do not trouble yourself, dear father. It was only your old friend, +Jonathan Fricke," replied Carmen, soothingly, holding his hand in hers. +She felt a shiver run through him as she mentioned the name. + +"I did not know that he was here," he said with a groan. + +"Can I help you in any way, dear father?" his daughter asked. "Are you +in pain?" + +He shook his head in reply, and lay quite still, with closed eyes. +After a long time he looked again at Carmen in a troubled, sorrowful +way, and sighed deeply. "Tell me about him," he murmured. "I thought +he was still in Bethlehem, in America; how came he here, and how long +has he been among you?" + +She told him everything, save the one horrible incident that haunted +her memory. His extreme agitation made her silent on that point. When +she ceased speaking, all was silence in the apartment except the soft +ticking of the clock. Occasionally a deeply drawn breath reached +Carmen's ear; her father had turned his face to the wall, and was so +quiet and motionless that she hoped he had fallen asleep from +exhaustion. Suddenly he began to whisper to himself: + +"The old, old story, which will never die! The idea of home, with its +sweet repose and calm blessedness, was only a delusion after all!" + +"What do you mean, father?" asked Carmen, bending over him. He closed +his eyes wearily; and she noiselessly resumed her seat near him. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. + +The next day Mauer was still so entirely unnerved and overcome by the +events of the day before that it was with the greatest difficulty he +rose from the bed; and yet it was intolerable misery to remain there. +All Carmen's persuasions were of no avail; he insisted on getting up +and dressing; but was quite unable to leave the house, and required the +most perfect quietness. She tried to divert his mind, by gentle, +cheerful conversation, from the sad, gloomy thoughts which seemed to +oppress him. It made the girl's tender heart ache, as she looked into +his unutterably sad face, which only yesterday was beaming with such +great joy. + +At ten o'clock Jonathan came to pay a friendly visit. Fortunately +Carmen, who was standing at the window, saw him coming across the +street towards the house, and warning her father of the approaching +visit, she could see how he started with terror at the information. +But he soon controlled himself, and said in a resigned tone: "Let him +come in. The sooner I get through all the meetings and greetings, the +sooner I will have some rest. I must grow accustomed to seeing him, +and I feel stronger to-day than yesterday. I have not seen him before, +since your dear mother died, Carmen, and life has been one long +unbroken sorrow since then." She made a movement to leave the room, so +that the meeting between the friends should be private, but Mauer held +her back and pleaded: "Stay with me, my child," as if he could not bear +to have her out of his sight. + +When Jonathan entered, he stood for a moment near the door, and his +eyes sought to read the expression of the sick man's face. The latter +sat with his head resting against the sofa-cushion, and his deep-sunken +eyes fixed beseechingly on the visitor, as if saying, "Spare me!" + +"Good-morning Brother Mauer!" cried Jonathan. "Are you feeling better +to-day?" He held out his hand, into which the other placed his +hesitatingly, and would have quickly withdrawn it had not Jonathan held +it fast as he said: + +"Let me feel your pulse. You are still very much fatigued, and your +hand is as cold as ice." + +"Thank you, Brother Jonathan," said the invalid; "I think perfect rest +is the best remedy. I have borne many heavy burdens, dear Brother, +which have weighed me down intolerably; and now that the Lord has led +me home again, let your pity and sympathy be with me on account of all +I have suffered." + +"Certainly, Brother Michael; it cannot be otherwise. Your return has +been a matter of great rejoicing with us all," replied Jonathan. "But +I must give you a prescription, that you may gain your strength more +quickly. Do not talk too much to-day; some time, later on, you must +give us an account of your travels." With these words, he turned to +Carmen with a searching look, as if to divine how far he might trust to +her silence. She purposely avoided his eye, and remained standing at +the window. + +"I will make your father well again, if you will be kind to me in +return," he said with emphasis. + +Then she was compelled to turn and speak. This man ruled her, in spite +of her dislike. + +"If you can do anything for my father, Brother Jonathan, you will +please not consider me in the matter, but do it for God's sake and your +own," she replied calmly. + +He drew a chair up to the table, and, seating himself, wrote a +prescription which he handed to Carmen. + +"Have that prepared at once, dear Sister," he said, "and give it to +your father according to the directions; it will benefit him very much. +You know, Brother Michael, my remedies are very powerful." A peculiar, +sarcastic expression played around his mouth as he spoke, and Carmen, +whose quick eye perceived it, wondered what he was ridiculing. Was it +her anxiety about her father, or was it the old man's weakness? But it +came and went like a flash, and he resumed his usual manner as he rose +to leave, saying to Mauer: "Adieu, Brother. May the Lord keep you and +give you a speedy recovery!" + +"I will have the medicine prepared at once, father," said Carmen, +heaving a sigh of relief as the door closed behind the physician. But +when she looked at the old man, a chill of anguish struck through her +heart, for she saw how he had clasped his hands before his face, to +hide the big tears which were trickling between his fingers. + + * * * * * * + +Many days passed quietly away after Jonathan's visit. Carmen's +soothing, cheering influence seemed to have somewhat allayed her +father's nervousness, and a calmer, more equable mood seemed to have +come over him, as his state of health daily improved. But the nameless +shadow of a hidden grief seemed to hang over him. For his wants he +needed but little; self-denial and sacrifice had grown to be a second +nature to him, his one earthly wish seeming to be to have a house where +he and Carmen could live alone together; but as regards others, he was +open-handed and generous to help wherever it was needed. It was a very +difficult matter to find just the right dwelling to suit his taste, so +he finally concluded to build, renting in the meantime a comfortable +suite of apartments for himself, while Carmen continued to live as +heretofore in the Sisters' house; giving the smaller children a few +hour's instruction, and passing the rest of the day with her father. +She had regained all her vivacity of manner, for she considered her +dear father her protector and support; little guessing that it was, in +reality, quite the contrary, as he looked to her as his stay on which +to lean. When alone with him, she allowed her naturally gay humor to +have full sway, and he would smile contentedly when he heard her +exquisite voice warbling forth, now a hymn, now a Spanish love-song, or +when he saw her feet, as if inspired, try a half-forgotten Spanish +dance, which seemed like a greeting to him from that tropical world +where he had loved and suffered. Sometimes she would caress him with +pretty, fascinating ways, as if her heart longed to lavish on him all +the tenderness which had been gathering intensity during all the long +years of separation. + +"You are so like Inez! Gay and merry, like her," he would say with +emotion, his eyes beaming with love. Thus she would succeed in +charming away, for a few moments at least, the shadow which rested ever +on his brow; and this success gave her a pure happiness she had never +known before. + +As the invalid grew stronger, every one hastened to visit him. The +elders wanted a full account of his missionary work in Mongolia, and of +the religious condition of the heathen in Bengal and the Himalayas; so +Mauer was at last obliged to consent to give a public narration of his +experiences. This could not fail to give him a certain degree of +importance in the settlement, and it was suggested that he be elected +to some public office. But he divested their minds of any such +thought, and desired to be allowed a quiet and retired life; he was too +modest and reserved to put himself forward at any time, and now +anything like publicity was positively painful to him. Even when +chatting socially with old friends, he displayed more or less shyness, +and especially when Jonathan was present. + +"A strange sort of friendship!" thought Carmen, as she noticed how her +father never sought the doctor's society, but, on the contrary, seemed +to tolerate his company with a kind of bitter endurance, as if he were +in some secret way the master and Mauer the slave. Often, when +Jonathan addressed him, he would suddenly change color and an +involuntary expression of terror pass over his countenance; then the +physician's words would assume a slightly scornful tone, and Mauer +would humbly lower his eyes. + +A few days after Jonathan's visit, he inquired how the prescribed +medicine had affected him. + +"Most beneficially," replied Mauer. "I feel stronger in every way." + +"Just as I thought," said the other, smiling kindly. "I ordered +fifteen drops, but now you can begin to take twenty; that will not be +too strong--but positively not more, dear Brother." + +Mauer looked up at him with an expression of keenest anguish, and +gasped for breath; while Jonathan continued to smile at him. + +No wonder Carmen thought, "What a strange sort of friendship!" + +"It must be with my dear father as it is with me," she said to herself +by way of explanation. "He recognizes the snake-like nature in Brother +Jonathan, but dares not show it; and having been friends in early +youth, he still loves him in spite of everything." + +Weeks and months passed away. Mauer's house was in process of being +completed, and he was constantly urging the workmen to have it ready +for him as soon as possible, as he longed to be settled. + +The plan had evidently been drawn on the same simple and spacious style +of the hacienda in Jamaica, where Carmen's mother had lived. A wide, +shady veranda was to extend all around, and a broad flight of steps to +lead from it to the spacious grounds. Deep-seated windows were to open +out on the garden, and elms instead of magnolias must shade them. But +the veranda had to be given up, for, when the plan came under the +observation of the elders, a committee called on Mauer and represented +to him that such a thing would be a gross violation of the severe laws +respecting the simple style of building used in the settlement, and +would give cause for great offence. The inhabitants of the town must +be content to live without ostentation and show, abiding by the general +customs, and conducting themselves as humble members of the faith. + +"Just to think: I, an old man, was going to set such a bad example and +encourage foolish ideas!" said Mauer to his daughter, deeply mortified. +"When one has been abroad, in different lands, as I have, much that +belongs to the outside world clings to him when he gets home, and is +never so noticeable as when he mingles once more with his brethren. +The renouncing of our own will, and compliance with the wishes of +others, has all to be learned over again." + +"But," cried Carmen, impatiently, "they find impropriety in so many +things here that one must needs give up thinking, in order to please +them. The free spirit within us is so cramped and restricted that we +cease to be individuals. It is surely not necessary to make automatons +of ourselves if we wish to be good. No; we should choose the right of +our own free will, because it is right; then we will not fail to do +what is pleasing in the sight of God." + +"Free spirit within us! What do you mean by that? We are so often the +slaves of our own desires that our ideas of right and wrong get +confused, and we lose our own souls thereby," returned her father, much +agitated. "We should, therefore, never reject the path which our +religion requires us to choose, but rather submit patiently, without +arguing or any wish to rebel." + +Thus the building which had been so beautifully planned, and with so +much pleasure, turned out to be, when finished, just like all the +others. But Carmen did not bear the frustration of their cherished +hopes as calmly as the old man. Her visit to Wollmershain, although it +had not given rise to any new tastes or dislikes regarding the home +customs, had strengthened the long-buried desires which lay within her +breast, and quickened her natural spirit of resistance to the existing +state of things. Frau von Trautenau, as well as the style and manner +of life at Wollmershain, was peculiarly congenial to her taste. +Therefore, although the visit had never been repeated, she often lived +it over again in her thoughts, and in speaking with her father always +referred enthusiastically to persons and things there. One day, while +describing the unrestrained and harmonious life of her new friends, the +sound of trumpets playing a hymn came wafted in through the open door. + +"Who is dead, Carmen?" asked Mauer, listening intently as he sat by the +window. "Is that not the dirge of a bachelor Brother? I remember the +air, as I do that of all our funeral hymns. How often, when suffering +under my bondage as a slave, I have thought that at my death no music +would be heard. But now I know that some day the trumpets will tell to +the other brothers when the heart of old Mauer has ceased to beat." + +"Oh, my father, you must not speak thus!" said Carmen, anxiously. "The +person for whom the music is sounding is the bachelor Brother +Christopher Yager, who died yesterday evening. He was the one who +spoke in defence of our unmarried sisters in the general council; and +now some one will have to be elected in his place." + +This election followed immediately after the funeral, the elders +casting votes for those they deemed most suitable for the position. +The majority were in favor of Jonathan Fricke, who was received with +universal satisfaction. No one was more pleased with the result than +Sister Agatha, who always depended so much on him for advice. She felt +that now, being able to entrust the affairs of her department to his +wisdom and circumspection, his piety and brotherly love, was as if she +handed her ship over to the guidance of a skilful and able captain. He +received the honor with great humility, as a duty laid upon him from +which he must not shrink, however unworthy he felt to bear the heavy +responsibility. Yet in spite of all his apparent absence of pride, +there was something about him which elicited the homage of the Sisters +as they gave their promise to be willing to trust him with their +confidence and follow his instructions. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +Notwithstanding its being the month of September, a burning July heat +prevailed, and, as a breath of wind would occasionally stir, great +clouds of dust rose from the streets and lanes of the settlement. But +in spite of the intense warmth of the sun, masons and carpenters were +busily at work on Brother Mauer's house, which was located in a +pleasant district on the outskirts of the town. From the windows on +the first floor, which stood quite high from the ground, one could +catch a fine view of the broad, sunny landscape. There was the green +meadow-land, with its duck-pond, and beyond, round the road to the old +mill in the valley, the steep path leading uphill to the graveyard, and +finally, away off towards the south, great masses of dense forest, +rising one above the other, covering the mountain-sides and shutting +out all that lay beyond. + +"So that will be your room dear father, and this one next to it mine," +said Carmen, pleasantly, as she and the old man wandered about in the +bright morning air over the grounds and through the partially finished +building which was to be their home. + +"How pretty it will be here, father! I will raise vines all around the +windows, so that, in summer, a pretty shade will fall in the rooms; and +even though we are not allowed to have any ornaments, a cabinet of +books will be here, and by the window shall stand a table with a vase +of flowers on it, while over there I will make a cosey little nook, +like the one Frau von Trautenau has in her room. And then when evening +comes, dear father, you shall sit by me, and tell me of the snow-capped +Himalayas, and the wonders of the East Indian world. Or when the lamp +is lighted, I will read to you, just as I did to Frau von Trautenau in +her dear little nook." + +"How often you speak of that lady, Carmen! Is she so very dear to +you?" asked Mauer. + +"Yes, very dear, father," she replied eagerly, and the warmth of her +feelings betrayed itself in her countenance. "She was very, very kind +to me; and with her, I, who was so lonely, felt how good it must be to +look into a mother's eyes. I could always turn to her for sympathy and +advice, feeling sure of being understood; and that was a great comfort +to me, when I thought you never would return, father. She is not grave +and austere, like our Sisters here, but is in all things noble and +good; and even though she belongs to those who are outside in the +world, yet anyone following her could not go wrong. The world!" she +continued thoughtfully. "We are all of this world as long as we live. +How can one set of people consider themselves so much better than the +others?" + +"We do not think ourselves better, child, but on a surer road to become +so," interrupted the father. "And yet, even with us, there are no +insurmountable barriers to keep us from straying into the by-paths +which lead us away from the goal!" he added, with a sigh. + +"Yes father," she said, with a fond smile. "That is just what I say. +The right way and the wrong, cross each other everywhere in life, and +we must ever be striving more and more to distinguish between them." + +"May your heart never mislead you, child!" answered the old man with +emotion. "One who has lived as long as I have, who has fallen and +endeavored to make atonement, learns to mistrust the human heart." + +"Listen, father; are not those shots?" exclaimed Carmen, excitedly, as +from a distance were heard, at this moment, several dull reports of +cannon. Closer and closer they came, mingled with the cracking of +rifles; while from the borders of the forest, on the south, clouds of +smoke ascended and curled in wreaths among the sombre pines, Mauer and +his daughter went out and took up their station on the lawn, under an +old linden-tree, from whence they could survey the scene at leisure. +In the west the sky had become overcast; black clouds were gathering in +threatening masses, and there was every indication of an approaching +storm. Low rumblings of thunder reached the ear from time to time, +together with the dull booming of artillery. + +"What a number of shots! There must be something extraordinary going +on!" exclaimed Carmen. + +"There are troops practising over yonder in the forest," said one of +the workmen, who had come out to satisfy his curiosity. "I hear they +are quartered in the village on the other side of the woods." + +Troops! What a startling circumstance! The other workmen, heretofore +so quiet and diligent, stopped their labors, and gazed with surprise +and curiosity towards the place from whence the smoke came. It was an +almost unheard-of event for soldiers to be in this neighborhood. The +Brothers, being conscienciously opposed to the use of fire-arms, had +been exempted by the government from military duty; and many a one who +left the settlement to go abroad had never seen a soldier. + +Suddenly a flash was seen among the trees, followed by a roar, this +time louder than before. Through the openings in the woods could be +seen the gay colored uniforms, at first singly, then in groups; and +finally in whole companies. Bayonets glittered in the sunlight; flags +and standards waved, and bugles sounded from the distance. + +"Oh, there they are!--the soldiers! How their weapons glitter!" cried +Carmen, in delight. "How the cavalrymen gallop to and fro, and how +their sabres shine! Just look, dear father, how splendid it is!" + +"Yes, when no blood is being shed, one can look at it from a safe +distance," said Mauer, soberly. + +"Yet I don't know but what I would be a soldier if I were a man," +replied the girl, excitedly. "It is, of course, a great sin to commit +murder; but to fight for the fatherland, that must be a noble +employment for a man. It seems to me, father, that a true man would +stand in the fight and know no fear; who would throw himself into +danger bravely, face it unflinchingly, and turn it aside by his +prowess; under whose protection the weak seek for shelter; who has, +with all his bravery, a gentle, tender heart, and a well-balanced +mind--a man father, who, like the oak, sways not when weaker trees +tremble in the storm." + +"How is it possible that you know anything about soldiers?" asked +Mauer, astonished at her enthusiasm. + +"I met some of them at Wollmershain," she replied quickly. + +"And were they such men as you describe?" + +She hesitated a moment. + +"No, not all of them. A man is not always what he ought to be." + +"Wollmershain and Frau von Trautenau: between the two, your thoughts +seem continually to wander, Carmen; everything you say springs from +that subject, or leads back to it. You seem to have received very deep +impressions; deeper, I am afraid, than is good for you." + +She did not answer. Her gaze lingered on the scene before her, +watching the troops as they began to file off from the forest. +Suddenly a large body of cavalry wheeled around from a screened corner +in the woods, and the spectacle became more and more lively. + +Carmen's face glowed with pleasure, and her eyes moved restlessly +hither and thither, as if to take in the whole picture. + +"I could sit here all day and watch them," she said. "It cannot be +late, father, is it? Sister Agatha told me, when I came away this +morning, that I must be back at eleven o'clock for something important." + +"Eleven o'clock!" replied Mauer, looking at his watch. "Why, my child, +it is almost twelve." + +Carmen sprang up quickly. "Then I must go at once. What a pity! I +want to stay so much. Adieu, dear father; I will be with you again +this afternoon." She embraced and kissed the old man, and hurried away. + +Meanwhile an unusual commotion prevailed in the Sisters' house. +Whenever two met together there was whispering going on; the hands in +the work-room rested oftener, and the heads were put together for a +softly-spoken word; the eyes wandered about with inquiring glances, or +watched the dial of the large clock that quietly ticked on in its usual +monotonous fashion. + +At last the hands pointed to the appointed hour, and eleven deliberate +strokes chimed forth; whereupon the Sisters began to issue forth from +every door, and betook themselves to the assembly-room. + +Sister Agatha and the recently elected supervisor of the unmarried +Sisters, Brother Jonathan, stood in the centre of the room, and near +them the teachers and elders. When all had entered, and an expectant +silence prevailed, Jonathan commenced an address to the congregation. + +"As you probably already know, dear Sisters, a letter has been received +from Brother Daniel, at Cape Colony, in which he informs us of his safe +arrival in the country of the Caffres. He goes on to tell how he has +met Brother Joseph Hubner and two other Brothers; and how a little band +of devout Christians has begun to spring up, which with the Lord's help +will further the work of rescuing souls from the darkness of +heathenism, and win them to the truth. It is a glorious work which +they have so piously undertaken, and blessed is every one who lends +them a helping hand. Nothing is needed in their simple life, except +one thing. They have no women to help to lighten the labor, and so +Brother Joseph begs that his wife Christina, whom he left behind, may +follow him; and Brother Daniel desires that we choose a helpmate for +him, who may be sent out in company with Sister Christina. This +request is very proper, and a beautiful field of work is thus opened +for her who will become his wife, as she will be of the greatest +assistance to her husband. We now wish, dear Sisters, to draw lots, +and thereby decide which of you is called to this honor of helping our +dear Brother in building up the faith; and we are prepared to recognize +in the result a direct expression of the Lord's will, hoping it will be +gladly and humbly obeyed." + +When Jonathan had finished speaking, and arrangements were being made +in the usual manner for the drawing, a buzz of excitement arose among +the Sisters. Suspense was written on every face, but no one showed any +fear. Custom and habit, which govern so completely the feelings of +people, prevented the Sisters from feeling wounded or alarmed at being +disposed of in this business-like manner; and therefore they allowed +the ceremony to go on with cheerful resignation. Brother Jonathan laid +down one after another of the drawn papers containing the names of the +Sisters, while Sister Agatha at the same time let the blanks which she +drew fall on the floor, waiting until she should turn up the one on +which was written Brother Daniel's name. The spirit of humility with +which it all was accepted, as coming from the Lord, stood written on +these gentle faces which bore this trial so firmly. Not a single +Sister trembled as her name was read by Brother Jonathan. About half +the list had been called in this manner, when Jonathan, unrolling +another paper, looked at it a moment in silence. He changed color, and +involuntarily hesitated; but controlling himself, read in the same calm +voice as before: "Carmen Mauer." He looked anxiously at Sister Agatha, +whose trembling fingers tried to open the folded paper which she drew. +After many futile efforts it was at last unrolled; she looked at it, +and her hand sank slowly to her side as she read: "Brother Daniel +Becker." + +Hate or love, triumph or despair: which was it that stood so plainly +written on Jonathan's face? For the moment he could not master his +feelings. + +"Sister Carmen Mauer!" The name passed from lip to lip, and echoed +through the room. Carmen had endeared herself to everybody, although +she was so different from them all. Her sweetness of manner had won +their hearts, and her unselfishness and kindness had gained her many +friends. "Carmen Mauer!" they called, repeatedly, but no answer came. +Carmen was not present. + +"Where is Sister Carmen Mauer?" asked Brother Jonathan, who had become +sufficiently calm to speak; and something like a gleam of hope lit up +his features. + +"Here," replied a voice half-choked from swift running. + +All eyes were turned towards the doorway where she stood; her cheeks +rosy, and her large black eyes filled with wonder, as she glanced +rapidly over the assembly. + +"Here I am," she repeated, stepping forward. "Do you wish me?" + +Sister Agatha hesitated; she did not know exactly what answer to make. +How very unfortunate that Carmen should have been late on this +particular day, thus rendering it impossible to prepare her beforehand +for what might occur! Even now Sister Agatha would gladly have spoken +with her alone, and told her gently about the choice which had fallen +upon her. But Jonathan had already advanced to meet the girl. He had +resumed his usual manner, and as he fixed his eyes on the unsuspecting +maiden, there was a certain air of assured triumph in his looks, as if +he had her now securely in his power. + +"Dear Sister Carmen," he said, "you have, by your tardiness, missed +hearing that Brother Daniel Becker has written to us from the land of +the Caffres, and has desired us to choose a wife for him. The lots +have just now been cast, and the Lord has directed it to you." + +"To me?" said Carmen, with an air of perplexity, turning her astonished +glance on the speaker, as if she did not understand what he was saying. + +"Yes, to you, dear Sister," continued Jonathan, with a louder voice; +"and I hope you will receive this choice humbly, as becomes you, and +accept your position as Brother Daniel's wife--" he hesitated a moment, +and then added with emphasis; "if you are not already betrothed to some +other man." + +Carmen's eyes flashed with anger, and she drew herself up proudly. + +"Cast lots for me!" she exclaimed bitterly; "disposed of me at a +chance, as if I were a bale of goods, a lifeless piece of machinery! +Promised me to a man to whom no impulse of my heart draws me; to whom +it is quite indifferent whether I or some other girl falls to his +share--and all in the name of religion! This is indeed degradation, +slavery! It never could be worse among the slaves on the islands whose +freedom you all have taken so much trouble to secure." + +She had spoken with all the passion of her warm nature stirred to its +depths; and now she stopped, exhausted. All color had vanished from +her face; only the lustrous eyes glistened with a dangerous light. + +"I will never submit to your inspired decision, and refuse to recognize +this choice," she said at length. + +Every one looked at her in amazement, thunderstruck at this candid and +straightforward announcement. All at once, as if she had been struck +with leprosy, the Sisters shrank back from her--she stood alone in +their midst; only Agatha approached her, and with an anxious look +seized her hand. + +"Dear Sister," she commenced gently, "you are excited, and cannot +listen to the higher voice. Reflect a moment." + +Carmen shook her head, and with that peculiar mixture of pride and +child-like humility which marked her character, she bowed herself +submissively before her faithful admonisher. + +"Forgive me, dear Sister Agatha," she pleaded, embracing her fondly; +"forgive me if I am constrained to speak in a manner that you think is +wrong; but I can retract nothing of what I have said. Let me go to my +father; he is my natural protector, and he alone has the right to +dispose of me." + +She avoided looking at Jonathan again; it seemed as if this new trouble +must, in some way, have originated with him; and every pure, womanly +instinct of her nature felt insulted. Gently unclasping her arms from +Agatha's neck, she left the room. It was not possible to remain longer +in the house; something impelled her to get out into the fresh air, by +that means to throw off, if possible, some subtle influence which +seemed to be weaving a spell over her. + +As she hurried along, dark clouds began to scud across the sky +overhead, and the low mutterings of thunder came from the distance. It +may have been the thunderings of nature, or of war--she did not heed +them; her heart was filled with bitter, rebellious thoughts, and her +flying feet seemed to skim over the road; nor did she check her hasty +steps until she was about to enter her father's room. Mauer sat in his +arm-chair, absorbed in thought. She threw herself down on her knees +beside him, and flung her arms about his waist. Pressing her head +against his breast, she said half breathlessly: "Father, protect me!" + +He looked at his daughter with a bewildered air. Only one hour ago so +gay and light-hearted, and now so utterly unnerved, crouching in +despair at his feet! Raising her up, he gazed into her pale +countenance. + +"Heavens above! what has befallen you, my child?" + +"Father, they have cast lots for your child!" + +"Cast lots?" + +"Yes; cast lots, as for a thing that does not live and feel--a toy, +that has no will of its own, no self-respect; given as a prize to a man +who is nothing to me. And it is all done in the name of religion! +Father, protect me!" + +"Cast lots!" the old man repeated, as if his brain could not grasp what +his ear heard. "No! Heaven forbid that such a misfortune, should +befall you! It is enough that one of us has suffered and lived through +such an ordeal. No, Carmen, be at rest, my darling. Your father will +tell the elders that he cannot do without his child." + +The faintest shadow of a smile appeared again on Carmen's lips as she +listened to his comforting words, and she breathed more freely. + +"I knew you would help me, my own dear father! I rejected the choice, +and hastened to you for support." + +"But for whom have they selected you as a wife?" asked Mauer, gently +stroking her cheek. + +"For Daniel Becker, the missionary who, six months ago, went to the +land of the Caffres. Oh, father, you will not let me go from you? We +will remain together; no one shall separate us--not even this +Jonathan--" She involuntarily shuddered. At mention of that name the +old man started and fixed his eyes on her. + +"Jonathan?" he asked slowly. "Why do you blame him?" + +"Father, I feared to speak of it," she stammered, shocked that she had +so clearly betrayed herself. "He is your friend, and you become so +agitated when he is mentioned. But you must listen now. Before your +return he asked me, from Sister Agatha, for his wife; and after I +refused him--for oh, father, I cannot help it, I have an aversion to +him--he pursued me with a wild love that frightened me. He embraced +and kissed me against my will, and then begged I would be silent about +it. I promised; but that was before I knew I had a father living. Now +I have told it, and I am glad you know all about the matter." + +Her eyes rested trustingly on him, but she could not catch a responsive +glance; he kept his head turned away, and looked out into the distance +with a countenance full of distress and anguish. + +"Dear father, are you angry with me?" she asked humbly. + +"Not angry, no; but it is a misfortune--a great misfortune," he +whispered. + +At this moment there was a knock at the door; it opened, and Brother +Jonathan entered. Father and daughter stared at him without stirring; +no one uttered a word; no one moved. Mauer remained leaning back in +his chair; Carmen did not rise from her kneeling posture, and only +pressed her head closer to her father's bosom. + +Jonathan silently regarded the pair. Never had Carmen looked more +beautiful than in this clinging posture--in this outpouring of love and +confidence. To see her thus reclining on her father's breast was +nothing to give rise to jealous feelings, but it increased his longing +to have her leaning thus on him. + +"You are troubled; I know it, and have come to help you," he said at +last, in his gentlest tones. "I am sorry, very sorry, that Sister +Carmen has allowed herself to be so far carried away by her feelings as +to lose all sense of duty and humility, and to speak such wild words +before the people. We must see if things cannot be arranged +pleasantly. I will consider what can be done, if Carmen will permit me +to act at all for her in the matter." + +"Dear Brother, spare me my child," pleaded Mauer, with faltering voice. +"She cannot accept the lot which has fallen on her; she must not go so +far from me just now, when I have found her again. I cannot live +without my daughter." + +"You know, dear Brother," returned Jonathan, "we of the faith always +recognize in the casting of lots the most direct indication of the will +of Heaven. Each one must fulfil the duty laid upon him, and not pause +to consider if it concurs with his own wishes or not. If Carmen's hand +is still free, she must follow the call which has been given her. She +may not be separated from us forever. Perhaps in a few years she will +return with her husband." + +"A few years! Will they be granted to me?" said Mauer, sadly. + +"Dear brother, I have already remarked that if Carmen is already +betrothed, the choice made by lot is null and void, and the elders must +be requested to give their consent to the alliance she has in view," +replied Jonathan, sharply, emphasizing each word. + +Carmen's lip curled scornfully as he spoke, and the cutting, scathing +glance she gave him was enough to wither a braver man than he. She +surmised what he was aiming at, but uttered never a word. Leaning +against her father's heart, she felt sure of finding there a secure +resting-place, and a precious sense of sheltering love made her able to +endure anything. But her proud glance roused Jonathan's spirit, which +grew hotter and hotter under his calm exterior. Would he be compelled +to give her up? + +He could not satisfy himself whether his feeling for the girl was love +or hate; at any rate, he thought within himself that to bend her pride +and destroy her fancied security would afford him infinite satisfaction. + +"But she is not betrothed," said Mauer, when Jonathan ceased speaking. +"I, as her father, am the natural guardian of her destiny. I have the +right to decide." + +"The right, dear Brother?" interposed Jonathan, with a scornful smile. +"That depends. It could not be granted to every parent in the +Brotherhood." And as the old man before him dropped his eyes, he added +smiling: "Yet if I asked, for the sake of old times, that you would +give me Carmen for my wife, would I be able to gain your consent, as +her father?" + +It was a helpless, imploring look that Mauer now directed towards his +daughter; his hands clasped over hers with a convulsive grasp; his lips +moved, as if to speak, but no sound came from them. + +Carmen looked at her father in perfect amazement. + +"Father, dear father, indeed I cannot become the wife of this man," she +whispered with a beseeching tone. + +"Child, cannot you make yourself do it for my sake?" were the words +wrung from his lips. + +"No, never! Urge me not, my father; it would bring untold misery on +me, and afford happiness to no one." + +A deep flush rose to Jonathan's brow, and anger and disappointment +completely triumphed over self-control. "You cannot be my wife, Sister +Carmen? Very well; then you will be the wife of Brother Daniel in the +land of the Caffres. Do you think I am going to tolerate your +rebellious, stubborn spirit, which is so unsuitable to a member of our +community? Let your father tell you that I have the means in my hands +to compel you to decide between the two fates!" + +As he spoke, Carmen sprang up, and, drawing herself to her full height, +measured him with a proud, contemptuous look; then, as if unable to +bring herself to address him, she turned to her father and said calmly: +"Dear father, speak for your child, and protect her!" + +She clasped her hands imploringly; while he shook his head in sorrow +and grief, but remained silent. + +"Father," she cried, "have you nothing to say?" + +No sound issued from his pallid lips; the anguish of his soul was +betrayed only in his eyes. + +Burying her face in her hands, Carmen now broke down utterly; and +Jonathan's evil countenance gleamed with triumph. As she appeared +before him, bowed in despair and grief, like some beautiful flower +crushed by a ruthless hand, his eyes feasted themselves on the lovely +girl, who was at last humbled and forced to give herself to him. + +"You will do well to consider the matter calmly, and give me your final +decision, Brother Michael. I will return this evening for it. We will +try to help each other in a spirit of brotherly love, and you well know +I am willing to exercise mercy and patience, as we are commanded; but +there are times when both must cease." Saying thus, he left the room. + + * * * * * * + +Brother Mauer sat alone with his daughter, and a deathly silence +enwrapped the two, left alone together with their grief. The sky was +still dark, with threatening dark clouds, which threw their deep +shadows over the room, and at intervals a blinding flash of lightning +illuminated with dazzling ray the bowed figures of father and daughter; +while loud claps of thunder called to them, as if to rouse them from +the sorrowful trance. + +But they stirred not. Outside, the rain poured in torrents, and the +wind swept howling by; but they seemed not to hear. At last Mauer's +hand felt its way to the girl's head, and passed lovingly and gently +over it. She caught his fingers, as if the very touch inspired her +with new life; and raising her head, she turned her hot, tearless eyes +up to him, saying in an inexpressibly sad tone: + +"Father, why have you forsaken your child in her hour of need?" + +"Because, Carmen, I am powerless before this man," he returned in a low +voice. + +"Powerless?" she asked. "But how can he have any power over you if you +do not wish it? He, a friend, against his friend!" + +"Ah, Carmen," answered the old man, "that he has not used his power +against me before is another proof of his friendship for me; but now, +when he sees fit to exert it, I cannot prevent him, and must bear it. +I have already told you that it is a great misfortune that he loves +you, and you cannot return his affection." + +"Father, my thoughts are so perplexed by all this. I cannot understand +how any one can have such power over you that you are forced to leave +your own child unprotected." + +Mauer sighed deeply. Carmen rose, and began to pace restlessly up and +down the room. Outside, the thunder-storm raged with ungovernable +fury; within, the poor girl was endeavoring to quiet the tumult of her +aching heart, and collect her scattered thoughts. + +"Father," she said at last, breaking silence, and seating herself near +him, "speak, and let me know how and why Brother Jonathan can injure +you. What can we do to avert the peril we are in?" + +"Carmen, could you bear to behold in your father a culprit, a great +sinner?" He looked so crushed, so very, very miserable, that her +loving heart overflowed with sympathy and pity. To look at that dear +face, and see the wretchedness of gulf and remorse written there, wrung +her heart beyond endurance, and brought the scalding tears to her eyes. +She threw her arms about his neck, and answered tenderly: "You cannot +be guilty in your daughter's eyes; and if you appear so before the +world, I will only love you the more for it, and help you to bear your +grief, father." He sobbed aloud, and drew her closer to him. + +"It must be God's gracious mercy and pity which speaks to me through +you, my child. May He bless you, and for your sake, and my sufferings, +may He forgive my great sin! It is indeed an old story of guilt and +sorrow which I have to tell, and which has weighed heavily upon my +heart for nineteen long years! Listen, then, Carmen." + +Mauer sat silent a moment, as if trying to refresh in his memory the +half-faded events of long years ago, and shape into more definite forms +their outlines, obscured by the mists of time. + +At length he spoke. + +"Thirty years ago, my child, I left here with my first wife, and moved +to Jamaica to carry on the linen business, for the Brothers had +established themselves in business in connection with the mission +there. We arrived in May, and were in a short time quite settled. The +country and climate are lovely at that time of the year, but during the +rainy season, when the wet ground sent forth its poisonous miasma, we +both were stricken down with the fever. I, being the stronger, +recovered from the attack pretty soon; but my wife, a small, delicate +woman, succumbed at once to the fell destroyer. + +"For two years I remained a widower, and led a lonely life of hard +work. Gladly would I have returned home to Europe, but the business +once begun was not so easily given up; it would have been attended with +great losses. Therefore I wrote home, saying I needed a wife, and +would like one sent out to me. I named two Sisters of whom I had +thought, hoping that one or the other would come to me. One of them +was dead, the other married; so the lot was cast among the other +Sisters, and it fell on Sister Julie. When my new wife arrived, I was +greatly shocked. She was, not only homely of face, but deformed in +figure. In spite of my love for the beautiful, I conquered myself, and +hoped she would be so much the more lovely in disposition. But hers +was a narrow, severe nature, from which no congeniality could be +expected. She prayed zealously and worked diligently carrying out with +the greatest precision the rules prescribed for us; but she had not a +single idea beyond that; and when she was not praying, was peevish, +suspicious, and avaricious. For nearly eight years I lived with her, +my aversion daily increasing. About that time, as misfortune would +have it, a friend, who was living in Jamaica, died, owing me a large +sum of money. His affairs were left in such confusion that I was +obliged to receive the plantation as payment for my debt. I found the +place in a wretched condition, and, in order to oversee its management +to any advantage, I resolved to transfer my business in the mission to +an agent, and move on the place with my wife. Then came a fatal hour +for me. Into my darkened soul, into the comfortless, emptiness of my +life, entered the power of a great passion. + +"A slave belonging on a plantation about two hours' ride from mine, and +owned by a Spaniard, ran away, and fled to me for protection. The +slaves all knew that my laborers were free, and that induced the +unhappy creature thither. Don Manuel was not a hard master, but the +poor wretch had committed a grave fault, and was afraid to go home. So +I resolved to ride over and speak with Don Manuel about it. I reached +the hacienda of the Spaniard, and as I was about to enter, saw, +reclining in a hammock under the palm-trees, a slight, delicate figure +robed in white. Her arms were thrown above her head, and the lace of +her sleeve falling back gave me a glimpse of the beautifully rounded +limb. The sound of my horse's hoofs aroused her; she glided gracefully +from the hammock, and looked at me with a curious expression of +surprise as a quick blush mantled her cheek. She was scarcely more +than a child, being only fifteen, but the loveliest, the most +fascinating creature my eyes ever beheld. It was Inez--your mother. + +"I was ushered into her father's presence, and while discussing +business with him, watched her on the veranda feeding the peacocks and +caressing a cunning little black monkey. I could not turn my eyes from +her; each attitude seemed more exquisite than the last; each tone of +her voice sounded like music. + +"When I rode away, she was standing under the trees, and waved her hand +to me in farewell. Turning after a moment, to see if she was still +there, I beheld the same lovely picture, which lives in my heart to +this day." + +Mauer paused, affected by his own words. Before his mind's eye rose +the past in all its beauty; and a crowd of sweet memories overwhelmed +him. Carmen had listened with intense eagerness to his recollections +of her mother; she had almost forgotten that she was about to hear the +confession of a great crime. With a smile parting her lips, she looked +at her father, impatient for him to proceed. + +"How this storm rages!" Mauer resumed; "and yet it is nothing compared +with the blows they have in the West Indies. Can you remember them, +Carmen? One September, a few weeks after my visit to Don Manuel, the +sea-breeze lulled, and we were almost suffocated with the heat. For +many days the heavens were overcast with leaden clouds, which grew +darker and darker as they continued to pile up in huge masses; electric +flashes danced and quivered through them, and a continual rumbling of +thunder threatened danger, and indicated that the rainy season was +approaching. I had been to the mission to look after my business, and +was riding slowly homeward, through the heavy sultry air, when all at +once the storm broke over me. It came tearing down from the blue +mountains, raging and driving over the savannas in unchecked fury. I +put spurs to my horse, in a fruitless effort to reach home before the +worst came, for I knew full well what would follow this outbreak. At +this moment I saw approaching me, at full speed, a white horse, whose +rider was making hopeless attempts to manage him. I at once recognized +Inez, and placing myself across the path, succeeded in seizing the +bridle and stopping the animal in his mad night. + +"No time was now to be lost in bringing the girl home to her father, +and in such a storm my presence was necessary for her protection. She +had been riding alone, as usual, and on the return home her horse had +taken the wrong road. The storm became more and more violent; the +lightning nearly blinded us, and terrified our horses. The rain now +began to pour down in torrents, and it was impossible for Inez to +retain her seat in the saddle. She remembered a little deserted negro +cabin in the neighborhood, under a grove of magnolias, and thither we +fled. There was no light in the hut; the wind bent the trees down on +its roof and dashed the rain against its sides, so that we expected +every moment to be killed. Inez drew closer to me and trembled +violently, as I supported her quivering form with my arm. I spoke +soothingly to her, as I would have done to a timid child; and as I bent +over to comfort her, a flash of lightning lit up the place, so that I +could look into her eyes dilated with fear, and she into mine. +Then--she kissed me again and again. Carmen, your mother was one of +the most innocent, the purest beings on earth; in her heart was no +impure thought, in her life was no action which could not bear the +light of day. But there, under the glowing, tropical skies, blood +flies quicker through the veins than here in our cool Germany; and from +childhood to womanhood is but one, sudden leap. When I felt her kisses +on my lips, I was taken aback; I had thought of her only as a beautiful +child, but now I recognized the woman in her, and--I was a married man. + +"A sound of anxious hallooing reached our ears. It was made by the +negroes which Don Manuel had sent out in search of his child; and as +the first fury of the storm had now spent itself, we parted from each +other. + +"When I reached home, my unfortunate wife seemed more repulsive than +ever; in fact, her disagreeable ways, added to her natural homeliness, +had rendered her almost intolerable. The memory of Inez's lovely form +and face, her graceful manner and silvery voice, was ever present with +me. I repeatedly told myself how wicked this was, and resolved not to +call again on Don Manuel, lest I should see her. But it was impossible +to banish her image, and day after day the struggle within my soul grew +more severe. Thus the rainy months passed away; during which I +scarcely left home at all, and saw no one but my wife. One day she was +taken sick, and soon became so ill that Brother Jonathan, who was the +physician of the mission, and for whom I sent at once, became very +anxious. It was on the fifth day of her illness, and Jonathan had been +to see her in the afternoon; but in the evening she became much worse. +She complained so much that about ten o'clock I concluded to ride out +to the doctor's. Jonathan was much sought after as a physician, and +when I reached his house about eleven o'clock, he had already been +roused up from his sleep by a man who wanted some medicine for a child, +and who was waiting to have it prepared. Ah, how I remember every +trifle, exactly as if it all had occurred only yesterday! + +"When I told Jonathan how very ill my wife was, he gave me very little +if any hope, but said he would prepare a soothing draught for her. I +was full of anxiety and in great haste to get back, as was also the +other man; and when at last Thomas, Jonathan's servant, brought the two +bottles of medicine, I seized mine eagerly, as I had a long way to go; +and as I left, Brother Jonathan said to me: 'They are opium-drops; give +her fifteen when you get home, and if she does not get easy, then two +hours after repeat the dose.'" + +"I sprang on my horse and hurried away. Jonathan's words seemed to +ring in my ears: 'I have scarcely any hope of saving her.' Ah, Carmen, +they were to me like words of deliverance. I had borne for so long the +fearfully heavy yoke which had been laid upon me that at times it +seemed beyond human endurance; for this woman's soul was almost more +repulsive than her body. At last I reached home. It was twelve +o'clock. My wife was suffering as much as ever; she complained +incessantly of the increasing pain, and I at once prepared the drops +for her. She groaned; then I began to count the drops: one, two, +three, four--and then the thought came into my mind: 'Scarcely any more +hope.' My hand trembled; a mist seemed to gather before my eyes. The +drops fell, faster; I counted on: thirteen, fourteen, fifteen; a few +drops more had fallen unawares into the spoon; then followed one more, +and again one more--twenty-five, twenty-six. I pushed the vial away +from me. 'Where are the drops? Give them to me!' she cried with +sinking voice. She snatched the spoon from my hand, and I turned away +my head. My good angel had forsaken me." + +Mauer groaned and hid his face in his hands. Carmen held her breath; +she dared not speak, or raise her eyes to look at her father; she could +not even think. + +"The patient," resumed Mauer, after a short pause, "became quieter; her +breathing was scarcely audible. Did she sleep? From my heart I +prayed: 'God of mercy, let her sleep and not die--not now!' But I did +not dare to look at or listen to her. I threw myself on a couch, and, +in the horror that filled my soul, buried my head in the cushions. +Time passed on; the clock ticked as usual, I know not whether for +minutes or hours. Then I heard the ring of horse's hoofs before the +door. I got up to let the visitor in, for the servants were in bed. +It was only three o'clock in the morning. To my surprise, in walked +Brother Jonathan. 'How is she?' he inquired hastily; and I answered +softly, 'She sleeps.' + +"He approached the side of the bed, and drawing the lamp near, so as to +observe her closely, said: 'Yes, never to wake again. I was sure +nothing could save her!' + +"I did not utter a word; my tongue seemed glued to my mouth, and +refused to move. Had she died because nothing could save her, or +because I had dropped double the number of drops? The fatal vial still +stood on the table by the bed where I had placed it. I feared to touch +it again; but Jonathan took it up, and, looking at it, said casually: +'Did you give her from it twice? I see there are more than fifteen +drops gone.' I nodded my head. 'After two hours?' he asked again, and +put the vial in his pocket. I again nodded affirmatively. He examined +the dead woman again, felt her skin, and raised her eyelids. +'Strange,' he said. 'You gave her the first dose about twelve o'clock, +and the second at two; it is now only three o'clock, and this corpse +has been cold for several hours. Your wife must have died at least two +hours ago; how is that?' He looked at me in perplexity, and I felt +myself grow pale under his inquiring glance; my limbs refused to +support me, and I sank fainting on the floor. + +"The funeral was over; I had suffered with another attack of fever, and +was restored to my usual health, when one day a hasty messenger +summoned me to go at once to Don Manuel, who needed my presence. He +had been thrown from his horse, and was suffering intensely from +internal injuries, which threatened to terminate fatally at any moment. +I was conducted to his bedside, at which Inez knelt, her face buried on +her father's pillow. At the foot of the bed stood the physician, +Brother Jonathan. + +"Don Manuel motioned me to his side. 'Don Mauer,' he said in a faint +voice, 'I must die; but, before I leave this world, I would like to +provide for the future of my child, who, as you know, has no mother. +You have saved her life in the storm, and she has confessed to me that +she loves you, and hopes you return her affection. Therefore I ask you +now, while death is hastening on, can you love her? And will you take +her to your heart, to love and cherish her as your wife? She has +always been a good daughter to me; she will be a true and faithful wife +to you.' + +"Inez raised her lovely head, and her dark eyes, which, in their +innocence did not know how to veil her sentiments, looked pleadingly at +me. I laid one hand on the graceful, girlish head, and the other in +that of the dying man. + +"'I will vow to honor and cherish her as my most precious treasure,' I +said solemnly, 'for I love her above everything on earth.' + +"Inez sank into my arms, and the weak voice of her dying father +pronounced a blessing on us. He begged that a priest might be quickly +brought, to unite us by his death-bed, so that he would know Inez was +safely provided for. + +"Scarcely was the ceremony over, when he drew his last breath. + +"The surprise, the overwhelming emotion, caused by this event, +impressed me so powerfully that I could think of nothing but the one +fact--'Inez is mine!' When I left the house, after handing the weeping +girl over into the hands of her faithful nurse. Brother Jonathan rode +along with me. + +"'Brother Michael,' he said, glaring at me darkly and menacingly, 'I +now know what sinful love prompted you to give Julie, your wife, a +double dose of opium; and why, when I came to see her early in the +morning, the corpse had already been cold for some hours.' + +"As I felt myself turn pale, and answered nothing, he laughed +scornfully, turned his horse's head, and rode off in another direction. +After that the sight of Brother Jonathan became torture to me. I +always read the terrible accusation in his face, although he has never +uttered it; and I soon found he was equally obnoxious to my wife. +Indeed, she actually hated him; for, as she told me, he had persecuted +her with his love, long before I had ever been to Don Manuel's. She +shunned him as much as possible, whenever he came to the hacienda; and +it was most welcome news to both her and me when he told us his health +could not stand the climate any longer, and he only needed money to +take him to a colder climate. I gave him several thousands out of my +fortune, so as to get rid of him; and he, with his negro servant +Thomas, went to Bethlehem in Pennsylvania. To my relief, I saw no more +of him; he wrote to me some time afterwards, but I did not answer, and +never heard from him again. All this time the worm of self-accusation +was gnawing at my heart; but as long as Inez lived, I found happiness +in her love, so that not even the voice of conscience could be heard. +But when she was taken from me, then the cry arose in my heart: 'This +is my punishment; she has died for my sin!' and all peace vanished from +my existence. It was then that I formed the resolution to atone with +my life for the crime. I longed to sacrifice myself; to suffer for the +Lord's sake, and win over souls to the truth. I parted from you, the +one single thing that remained to me of Inez. I sold my lands in +Jamaica, and went wherever I was ordered--across the seas to India, +where the least work had as yet been done, and to various other parts +of the world. The rest you already know. No one can imagine how +gladly I have suffered, although those years of slavery and misery were +very grievous. I hoped thereby to win the favor of Heaven; and when I +was at last permitted to return home, I thought I saw in that an +assurance that my crime was forgiven. But it is all a mistake, Carmen, +for Brother Jonathan lives, and is here, and he is a perpetual reproach +to me. Every word he utters seems to refer to it, and I never fail to +shrink with pain from having him touch the sore point. He has it in +his power to bring my sin to light, at any time; and it is an evidence +of his great friendship for me that he has been hitherto silent. If +either you or I anger him, he will not allow our old friendship to +influence him any longer. You have heard his threat, and he will, +without fail, carry it out. I will bear submissively whatever comes; +but I am not able, my dear child, to protect you. If you refuse him +for your husband, he will disclose my guilt, and I, a criminal, can do +nothing for you, but must quietly bow before the inevitable." + +He was silent, and dared not look at Carmen, for he feared to read what +might be written on her countenance. She sat perfectly still, absorbed +in her own thoughts, her hand shading her eyes, and her breath heaving +quickly. The blood seemed frozen with horror in her veins at what she +had heard; her brave heart quailed before the dreadful future, which +she knew not how to meet. And yet one thought stood prominently forth +from the rest: she must prove her love for her father at any cost. He +needed it sorely now, and she had only a short hour ago declared she +would love him the better for his fault, and thus help him to bear his +misery. He had sinned for the sake of her mother, who surely would +have forgiven him and loved him, whatever other people might have felt. +The daughter, must not set herself up to condemn her father. God would +judge him mercifully, according to the depth of his repentance and +suffering. Of this she felt perfectly assured; so, raising her head +and turning her face to her father, she threw her arms about the old +man's neck. + +"Be comforted, dear father, and trust in God!" she said lovingly. "You +have atoned so deeply and long that your sin is surely forgiven, and I +am sure we will find some way out of this dreadful trouble." + +She was silent a moment, sunk in deep thought. "I must inherit my dear +mother's aversion to Brother Jonathan, for I have felt it as long as I +can remember, and it would be quite impossible to give myself to him. +I hate him as I do the Evil One. I could believe anything, however +bad, about him; and yet what he does is good, always good, and he has +shown himself a friend to you. Let us consider if there may not be +some way out of this dreadful dilemma." + +The old man leaned, sobbing, against the girl whom he, as a father, +should have been able to succor, and whose poor brains were now racked +with caring for both herself and him. + + * * * * * * + +The fury of the storm had spent itself, but the rain still poured in +torrents, when, towards five o'clock in the afternoon, two companies of +soldiers, which had been manoeuvring during the day, came marching +along, in rather disorderly fashion, on the highroad to the settlement. + +"It is well the order to bivouac in this deluge has been countermanded, +for we would certainly have been drowned like rats," said one of the +two officers, who were marching a little in advance. "Yet almost +anything would have been preferable to taking up our quarters with +these pious people, whom I doubt will give us any sort of a welcome. +They look on us as cannibals and murderers, and I tremble to think how +their untiring zeal will urge them on to attempt our conversion." + +His companion laughed. "It will not be so bad as you think, Hansen; +although I must admit I don't think our wild boys will be very welcome +guests to them. It will sadly disturb their extreme orderliness and +quiet routine of life." + +"You are sure of being well received, Captain Trautenau," resumed the +first speaker, "having already been in this Bethany, and also having a +sister at school here among the saints. You must look out for us, and +get the best shelter you can." + +Having now reached the suburbs of the village, Alexander von Trautenau +ordered a halt to be made and the soldiers fall in rank. "We will +march in with as imposing an appearance as possible," he said gayly; +and they passed through the streets, while many a terrified and +astonished form rushed to the windows and watched them go by. +Alexander, being familiar with the place, marched with his men directly +to the Brothers' house and entered the spacious yard; there he gave the +command to stack arms. That surely was a peaceful proceeding! The +Brothers' house was much larger than that of the Sisters, as here they +usually carried on their various branches of industry. The door was +now opened and, with a pale, terror-stricken countenance, Brother +Martin, the presiding elder, stepped out. Alexander immediately went +up to him, and asked politely: "Are you the elder in authority over +this house?" When he answered in the affirmative, Alexander continued: +"I have been ordered here with two companies to find shelter for the +night, as the heavy rain has rendered bivouacking impossible. Will you +be so good as to assign me quarters for the men?" + +"We will, mein Herr. But, first of all, tell me, I pray, if these guns +are loaded," answered Brother Martin, pointing anxiously to the stacks +of arms. + +"Of course the guns are loaded, but only with powder; and there is no +danger whatever of their going off by themselves," said the officer, +trying to reassure him. + +But Brother Martin only grew paler than before. "Herr Officer, I must +humbly beg that the guns be removed." + +"With pleasure," replied Alexander, "if you will show me a room in +which my men may carry them and keep them dry." + +Brother Martin hastened with alacrity into the house, and opened a room +in the basement. The murderous weapons were carried in by the +soldiers, the door was shut, and, to the great relief of the poor +elder, the key turned and put away safely in the officer's pocket. + +Meanwhile, Hansen had not been able to repress his ridiculing remarks. +"It is enough to turn an honest soldier's heart around in his body to +listen to such stuff," he said. "Guns! As if we would carry anything +else! The man must be a fool." + +Alexander divided his men into squads, to occupy the apartments where +they were to be accommodated with pallets of straw. + +One of the married brothers now came up and addressed the captain. +"Herr Officer," he said modestly, "I have room in my house for a few +men. Will you allow me to accommodate four or six? I promise to give +them the very best that my poor house affords." + +"With many thanks, kind sir," was the reply. "Please select from among +them those you would like to have; the poor drenched creatures will be +only too glad of your hospitality." + +The man chose the first six which came to hand, and carried them off +with him. The ice being thus broken, one brother after another offered +to take in some of them, and pretty soon everything was satisfactorily +arranged. Another Brother begged to have the officers for his guests, +and with hearty hospitality withdrew to prepare the best of everything +the simple larder afforded for the entertainment of the strangers. + +Clean white linen was spread over the table and refreshments of every +kind were brought out. Pretty soon the provision-wagon arrived. Meat +and vegetables were unpacked, and preparations were made to prepare the +evening meal. The pioneers commenced to take up the paving-stones in +the yard, in order to make a deep hollow in which to light the fire; +but Brother Martin rushed out perfectly horrified. + +"Herr Captain, you surely will not allow your good people to kindle a +fire here in the yard? I beg that you will forbid it; there is no +knowing what mischief might result from it; and besides, it will ruin +the yard." + +"But where, then, can the men cook their supper if it is too dangerous +here?" asked Alexander, somewhat impatiently. "The men are wet and +hungry, and have had no regular meal to-day; they must be permitted to +prepare something warm to eat." + +"Oh, of course," said Martin, with compassion. "We will not let them +suffer, and I will gladly allow you the use of a large kitchen, where +all the cooking for the Brothers is done every day." + +The proposition was received with many thanks. Every convenience which +the house afforded was offered for the comfort of the men. + +"Trautenau," said Hansen, rubbing his hands with satisfaction, "things +seem very good about here; and if they don't try to convert us, in +addition, it will be the best place we have found quarters in for a +long time. The sneaks have even a glass of choice wine in their +cellar, and we will forgive Brother Martin's horror of our weapons in +hopes that he will give us a taste of it. I thought they drank only +water, and would be very much scandalized to hear of wine being +anywhere about their premises." + +"Hush your mocking, Hansen, else I will not answer for your being +allowed to remain in this paradise. I hope you will not disgrace me +while I go to seek my sister, before it is too late. You know we march +early in the morning." + + * * * * * * + +Carmen and her father had been too deeply absorbed in their sorrows to +observe what was transpiring in the settlement. The outer world had +vanished completely from their minds. Concluding finally to leave +everything undecided until after the interview between the old man and +Jonathan, Carmen turned her steps homeward, for it was after eight +o'clock. After ascending the steps, she remained standing under the +arched portico in front of the house, trying to forget herself, her +father, everything. She felt as if her own conscience was in some way +guilty; and then, too, what was to become of her now? His crime, and +her duty as a daughter, urged her imperatively into the arms of this +man whom she thoroughly despised. There seemed no way of escape. The +idea flashed across her brain to renounce her identity with the +Moravians; but that would be synonymous with total separation from her +father, for in his present frame of mind, when he was continually +dwelling on repentance and reparation, he would never tear himself away +from his old faith. Leave her father? Never! One thought tempted +her--the thought of Wollmershain and Frau von Trautenau; but she put it +resolutely from her: she could not, she dared not; she had no claim on +any one there, and here she belonged to her father. + +Ah, how her poor bleeding heart ached! If she could only weep, perhaps +it would help to lighten the weary burden which was crushing her to the +earth; but no relieving tears would come to her burning eyes. At last +she sat down on a ledge of the wall near the doorway, to rest in +solitude a little while, and to try to compose herself before going +into the house. It had now ceased raining, and a dimly-burning lantern +which was hung near by dispelled the darkness in a measure, and threw +its uncertain rays over the wet stones of the yard, and over Carmen's +drooping figure. The streets were perfectly quiet, the water dripped +monotonously from the roofs, now and then the footsteps of some +solitary passer-by echoed faintly on the ear, followed by the deep +silence, broken only by the falling drops. There was something +soothing in this great hush of nature; and the gentle dripping seemed +like a loving voice singing some tired child to sleep; Carmen felt as +if drawn within a magic circle. For a long time she sat there, till at +last she heard a step approaching from the distance, and a man made his +appearance in the light of the lantern. Something sparkled and +glittered on his coat; and as he strode along with quick, firm steps, +the spurs on his boots clanked. Carmen saw and heard it all as if in +her sleep. Still motionless, she sat staring out into the darkness, +and her heart, her poor heart, seemed dead and cold. There! did not +the stranger enter the portico? He certainly did; and, as his figure +became more distinctly discernible in the uncertain light, her pulses +began to throb violently--those pulses which she a moment ago believed +would never again beat with lively emotion. She leaned back closer to +the wall, and stared at the figure with wide-opened eyes. As the man +ascended the steps and saw the shrinking form close against the wall, +he started, hesitated a moment, and then, putting his hand to his cap +in greeting, said joyfully: "Fraulein Carmen, can it really be you? I +have come, although it is so late, to greet you, and make the +acquaintance of your father, as I am here only for to-night, and leave +early in the morning. Adele told me I would find you here, in the +house with the portico." He spoke with a glad tone and put out his +hand, for at Wollmershain they had parted with a hearty hand-shake, and +now he ventured on the same privilege. + +The girl laid her hand in his; it was so cold and clammy it chilled +him; and Carmen, as she leaned her head back against the stone wall, +had such a tired, weary, wretched look that he could not refrain from +asking with an anxious air: "For Heaven's sake! Surely some misfortune +has happened to you! Carmen, dear Fraulein Carmen, I implore you, tell +me just one word, that I may know what is the matter, and help you if I +can." + +She had risen slowly and with difficulty, for her knees trembled, and +she could scarcely stand. He kept her hand in his as if to assist her, +and pressed it with gentle warmth. At the sound of his sympathizing +voice, the heavy pressure on her tortured heart suddenly gave way, and +agonized sobs burst from her lips, while a flood of scalding tears +flowed from her eyes. Her slender frame shook with the violence of her +emotion; and as he sought to support her with his arm, her head sank on +his shoulder. + +"Dear Carmen," he pleaded, "do not keep back from me the cause of this +distress! You cannot know how I am racked with grief for you. What +shall I say to convince you of my feelings? It troubles me sorely, oh, +believe me, to find you in such sorrow." + +His words seemed to increase the intensity of her grief; and yet how +those blinding tears relieved her! What an angel of light he +seemed--he, of whom she had once thought so differently! She did not +repulse him now when his arm encircled her; but leaning on him +confidingly, she somehow felt that he who held her was a true man; that +he alone was able to help and comfort her, and that it was a precious +privilege to have him near in this hour of need. She could not turn to +her father for succor; that one great hope had melted away; but in this +man she knew there was courage, as well as will and the power to assist +her in her woe. As he poured question after question upon her, she +attempted at last to speak. + +"They have cast lots for me to-day," she stammered. "I am forced to be +the wife of a man I despise--by lot, Herr Trautenau!" + +"By lot?" he asked, flushing angrily. "You, our beautiful, proud +Carmen, given away by lot? That is incredible! Your father will +surely not permit it!" + +"My poor father!" she cried. "He can take no step to prevent it; he +cannot save me." + +"But!--by heavens, I will not allow such a horrible thing!" he cried +passionately, and drew her closer to him. "Carmen, I conjure you, I +beseech you, not to submit to this shameful custom of your people!" + +"No; I would rather die than do it!" she replied, as something of her +old courage returned to her. Now that he stood by her, she felt that +some escape might be possible. She dried her tears, and raised her +pretty head, which had rested so wearily on his shoulder, endeavoring +to free herself from a position which, now that she was calm enough to +think, had become embarrassing to her. As she did so, she gave a +terrified start, for, unheard by either of them, Brother Jonathan with +his cat-like step had drawn near, and she now caught a glimpse of his +hated countenance, distorted with scorn and anger. + +"Rather die than be my wife?" he asked mockingly, as he approached +nearer. "A pleasant answer, surely, for me to listen to! This is, +then, the modest, prudish Sister whom I must not presume to touch! She +refuses me, an honest man who loves her, and declines to follow the +rules of her faith, only to throw herself into the arms of a strange +interloper! Do you think we will have a Sister among us who bids +defiance to all the meek love and submission, the decorum and modesty +which is necessary for a member of our community? I, as superintendent +of the Sisters, will now suggest to the Sister in charge that Carmen +Mauer be expelled from our communion." + +Carmen seemed not to hear these severe words. She breathed heavily, +but answered not a word, only pressed her hands against her throbbing +heart and raised her pale face to him calmly and indifferently, not +seeming to care for his condemnation and threats. + +"Fraulein Carmen," said Alexander, as Jonathan ceased speaking. His +voice chased all fear from her heart, and she turned her gaze, full of +trust and confidence, on him again. + +"Fraulein Carmen," he continued, "you once told me that only your +father's or your husband's arm should enfold you. When my arm +supported you just now, you suffered it to do so; was it because you +trusted my honor and love sufficiently to give me the right to protect +you through all time as your husband?" + +She gave him a quick glance of glad surprise. + +"Yes," she replied with a firm voice, offering him her hand. He +pressed it with passionate warmth. + +"Mein Herr," he said coldly, turning to Jonathan, "will you have the +kindness, as superintendent of the Sisters, to inform them that +Fraulein Carmen Mauer and her betrothed husband, Captain von Trautenau, +have gone to her father's apartments; that this lady, on account of her +betrothal to me, declines the destiny chosen for her by lot; and will, +moreover, be obliged to leave the community and follow her husband? +This may perhaps prevent any unpleasant misunderstanding." He bowed +stiffly to the astounded Jonathan, drew Carmen's hand through his arm, +and turned away. + +Carmen had listened to his words in such a confused state of mind that +she was powerless to resist even had she wished to. What he had said +almost took away her breath; but as the strength of his arm, so that of +his will, held her captive, and she would have followed him blindly to +the end of the world. But now, when she was about to return to her +father, she was torn with anguish for the poor sufferer who tarried +alone in his room. He must be cared for at once; so, pausing a moment, +she turned towards Jonathan. The threat he had hurled at her showed +the point where she might gain the victory over him, and render him +powerless to harm her father. + +"Brother Jonathan," she said, "you told me that if I was affianced to +some other man, the validity of the lot would be annulled. You now see +that the threat against me is vain, but I would like to relate a little +occurrence to the Brothers and Sisters which would not tend to increase +the holy reputation which the pious Brother Jonathan Fricke now enjoys. +You have been kind to my father up to this time; I beg that you will +continue to be so in future, for your own sake. I would not willingly +inflict any injury upon you; but the slightest hint from him will +compel me--I think you understand." + +Jonathan stood as if turned to stone as Alexander led Carmen away, +saying: + +"Let us go to your father." + +When they reached the house, he opened the door and passed in with her. + +"Wait a moment," he said, as they stood in the hall. "I was too hasty; +the intense desire to save you dictated my impulsive question, and your +prompt answer was called forth by the rashness of a man who, in all the +heat of his fervent love, sought to avert an impending danger. But you +shall not be compelled thus to resign your freedom. Tell me now calmly +if you can love me a little; if otherwise, take back your hastily-given +word, and after a while, when you can do so with perfect safety to +yourself, let the world know that our engagement has ceased. Let my +love shield you as long as it can; but only if you love me do I want +you to marry me." + +They had been talking in the dark; but now a faint light shone through +the window and flickered on the girl's little white cap. It seemed +like a halo to Alexander; he gazed at it fixedly, as if it were an omen +of happiness for him. + +Carmen had been standing with folded hands; now she raised her arms and +clasped them gently about his neck. "I love you with my whole heart," +she whispered softly, "and my happiness rests with you alone." + +He drew her to his heart with a violent outbreak of passionate love; +and it was almost as if with a sob that the strong man cried, "Carmen, +my love, my darling!" and kissed her with all his heart on his lips. + + + + +CHAPTER X. + +A faint sound of martial music penetrated to Brother Mauer's room the +next morning, as the troops marched away. The old man sat wrapped in +meditation. A new world of thought had opened to him since last night. +Carmen, the bride of a stranger! How very different from any former +plans or prospects! He had given his free consent to his daughter's +marriage, for Alexander had gained his entire confidence. + +The resolution and determined will displayed in the young officer's +bearing reassured him, and dispelled his inward despair and +helplessness. A marriage with this man was the only solution to the +miserable situation; and when Carmen was removed from his immediate +neighborhood, she would still be nearer than if she was a missionary's +wife. But the severance of his child from her faith gave him extreme +anxiety for her; as, according to his ideas, happiness, prosperity, and +peace could be found only among the Moravians, in the strict observance +of their laws and customs. Was it possible Carmen could be willing to +forsake all this for a strange man? He could not grasp the thought. +Yet when, weeping bitterly, she said, "Father, I love Alexander as +deeply as my mother did you," there thrilled through him a memory of +Inez's ardent love, as she clung to him with utter abandon, and found +her world at his side; and he blessed the union of the lovers. + +But Carmen had a very trying interview with Sister Agatha, when she +went in the morning and imparted to her what had occurred the night +before, and what decision she had made. + +Agatha listened to the girl's words attentively and thoughtfully, and +an expression of deep sorrow filled her countenance. + +"Carmen," she said sadly, "judging from what you say, you have in your +heart completely cut yourself off from the Lord's mercy and our faith, +and therefore it is better that things should be as they are, for you +must not play the hypocrite--anything is preferable to that. You would +destroy yourself and be of no benefit to us." She laid her hand gently +on Carmen's head, and added: "Go now, dear Sister, and tread the new +path you have chosen for yourself; and Heaven grant it may not lead to +misery! If, however, happiness deserts you, and your heart yearns +after us, like the thirsty wayfarer in the desert, then return to the +people of the Lord, that we may help you to return to Him." + +She tenderly kissed the maiden's brow, pressed her to her bosom again +and again, and let her go. She followed Carmen's lovely form with her +eyes as she passed through the doorway and left the room; then, folding +her hands in prayer, she said: "Lord, forgive the child. A soul which +was entrusted to me by Thee, which I knew not how to guide aright, has +been taken from me. If she goes astray, let mine be the blame, for it +was my fault; but if she seeks Thee in another path of life, then give +her Thy peace. Ah, how much I have still to correct in myself! Yet I +would fain do my utmost for the souls Thou hast committed to my charge. +I praise Thee, and would not think of my trials, if only I am counted +worthy to suffer for Thy sake." + +So Carmen was freed from the fetters she had unwillingly worn for so +long. Alexander had arranged with her and her father that she should +go to his mother at Wollmershain; but the separation from her father +was a severe trial to her loving heart. Fate had scarcely united them, +and already they must part and, knowing what misery it was to the old +man, it seemed almost more than she could bear. And yet it must be. +She promised to visit her father twice every week, and would be quick +and diligent in her home duties, so as to make her visits longer. + +The days were now very lonely without the bright, cheerful presence of +his daughter; and when winter came, his own dwelling was ready to be +occupied, but all the zest and pleasure of moving into his new abode +seemed to have vanished. He took Sister Ursula, an aged widow, as his +servant and housekeeper. How he loved to sit by the window in his +room, from whence he could look out on the hill where the cemetery was +laid out! "The Brothers will soon carry me along that path," he +thought, "and it will be well for me when the time comes. I have +always longed to be laid away in our own God's-acre, among the Sisters +and Brothers, and enter with them into the joy of our Lord." + +He now had also the happiness of having Carmen with him for several +days at a time. The house seemed illuminated by her presence, her room +was close to his, and there she had plants which he took care of for +her. There was also a snug little corner where they passed many happy +hours together. But with the knowledge of the fearful secret which +overshadowed her father's life a deeper gravity had come to her, which +subdued her otherwise exuberant and joyous temperament; and Alexander +often asked if it was the love she felt for him which had thus checked +her former cheerfulness. And this shadow did not pass away when, +shortly after Christmas, her wedding was celebrated, and Mauer informed +her that he had divided the fortune left him by Inez from his own +property, in order to make it over to her daughter, to whom it by right +belonged. So the young couple remained at Wollmershain, after +Alexander had sold his commission and left the army; and Mauer was +happy in the assurance that his daughter would always be near him. + + + + +CHAPTER XI. + +On a bleak November day, when all nature wore its most dreary aspect, +the carriage of Herr von Trautenau, now well known in the village, drew +up before Brother Mauer's door. The horses had scarcely stopped, when +the door opened and Alexander sprang out, followed by Carmen, whose +face bore traces of recent tears. + +"Be brave, dear heart!" he said. + +"I have you and our darling boy left," she answered with emotion; and +turning back to the carriage, took a little child from the nurse's +arms. She kissed him fondly, and the little fellow clapped his hands +and crowed merrily at his mother as she held him in her arms. Then +from beneath the flaxen ringlets which covered the infantile head a +pair of large black eyes looked around with wonder at the strange place +and the dark figure, with the white cap, that stood in the doorway. + +Carmen was surprised to see Sister Agatha. + +"Have I come too late?" she asked in a tone of anguish. + +"No, dear Carmen, he still lives," said the faithful nurse, soothingly. +"But he is failing rapidly since the attack this morning. He has been +so weak of late that we have felt prepared for the end to come at any +time. He has been asking anxiously for you since consciousness has +returned, and Sister Ursula sent at once for me, that I might be with +him while she went for another doctor, as Brother Jonathan has just +been summoned to the country to visit the miller." + +"How good you are, dear Sister Agatha!" said Carmen, pressing her hand +affectionately. + +They had now entered the house, and Alexander remained in an adjoining +room, while Carmen went at once to her father. The bed had been drawn +close to the window to give him more air, and he was now resting +quietly, as if asleep, his hands crossed on his breast, and the shadow +of death on his brow. Carmen was greatly shocked at the change. + +"My darling father, I am here with you; do you know me, your own +Carmen?" she asked, kneeling by the couch. + +At the sound of her voice, he opened his eyes, and a faint, happy smile +broke over his stiffening features. + +"My child--are you here? Now I am ready to go." + +"Father, let us hope God will spare you to us!" + +"No, my precious child, let us hope He will, at last, set me free; for +I long, oh so earnestly! to be at rest. Carmen, a guilty conscience is +a scorpion which never ceases to torment, and deals a death-blow to all +peace and happiness; therefore keep your heart pure, my darling, and +ever have God's commandments before your mind, so as to avoid sinning +against them. Let me persuade you to come back into the bosom of our +faith, and draw your husband with you. He could enter the Brotherhood, +even though he lived elsewhere. Oh, ensure the safety of your soul, +under the shelter of our holy religion, so that your life be not +poisoned with remorse, as mine has been!" + +She kissed her father's hand with love and reverence; then raising her +head, looked in his eyes, which rested on her so anxiously. "Father I +promise you I will remain faithful to my God, and endeavor to keep His +laws." + +Mauer sank back on his pillows. "Brother Jonathan," he whispered, +after a pause, "has kept my fearful secret; and even though he always +involuntarily reminds me of it, he has maintained his friendship and +brotherly love for me until now; but he has never allowed me to forget +that my wealth must go to the community, as an atonement for my crime; +so I have specified in my will that, in expiation of a great sin, I +have left all my money to the commonwealth of the Brotherhood and their +missions: thus, in benefiting all, to make amends for sinning against +one." + +Carmen silently kissed his pale lips; then, rising, went into the next +room and brought back with her Alexander and the child. They kneeled +beside the dying man, and Carmen asked with tears "Father, bless your +children!" + +"Do you value the blessing of such as I?" he said humbly. + +"Yes, my father, I cannot live without it." + +Then the old man laid his hands on the three heads and murmured words +of benediction. + + + + +CHAPTER XII. + +It was four o'clock in the afternoon, and the shadows of twilight began +to gather on the gloomy sky. Agatha brought in a lamp, and all retired +save Carmen; thus leaving her and her father alone together, +undisturbed. Mauer lay quiet, with his eyes half closed; while his +daughter sat holding his hand in a loving clasp, her head buried in the +coverlid. In the stillness which prevailed in the chamber of death, +the door was heard to open, and some one entered noiselessly; but the +draught caused by the open window closed the door sharply behind the +visitor. Mauer opened his eyes at the sound, and looked up vacantly as +if he did not recognize Jonathan. Carmen also raised her head; but +when she saw who it was, she immediately hid her face again, for she +felt it quite impossible to speak to him now. Kneeling between the bed +and the wall, her form was completely hidden in the dark shadow. + +"Brother Mauer, I have just returned from the Country, and hear that +you have been ill. What is the matter?" asked Jonathan. + +At the sound of his voice, the sick man shivered as if from an icy +breath of wind. He stared at the physician with dilated eyes. + +"Brother Jonathan," he faltered, "the end has come, and the old, dark +story will be laid with me in the grave. I know I have sinned +grievously, but have atoned with a life of repentance and cruel +suffering for the murder of an inoffensive wife." + +As the old man spoke, Jonathan looked at him sharply and searchingly. +The light of the lamp shone on his altered features, which bore the +stamp of death. The physician seized his hand; the pulse was almost +gone; there was no possibility of saving his life; each moment brought +the end nearer. Then Jonathan's hate, revenge, and scorn broke loose, +and flashed unrestrained from his eyes, which were fixed on the figure +lying before him. For twenty years he had hated this man more than any +other on earth; and for twenty years he had been obliged to put on the +hypocrisy of love towards him. What a trial for his hot, seething +passion! At the last, the moment had now come when his enemy was in +his power, and he could throw up his visor and show his real face! Now +was the time to crown his revenge, before the object of it passed +entirely out of his reach forever. + +Jonathan glanced hastily around the quiet darkened chamber, to convince +himself that they were alone. He saw no one; the faint light showed +only the pale features of the dying one pressed against the pillow. It +was not possible that any one could be there! Old Ursula, the only +other occupant of the house, had retired to the kitchen to weep and +lament; and having passed directly up from the front door to the +sick-room, he was ignorant of the presence of others in the dwelling. + +Then Jonathan gave free play to his wild rage. "Murderer of your +wife?" he said scornfully. "Fool! if it had been only the drops you +gave her, she would be alive now; but nothing could have saved her. In +the hurry of that night, Thomas, being just roused from sleep, gave you +the other man's medicine, and handed yours to him. What you had was +only good for infants; and Sister Julie might have drunk the whole +bottleful without injury." + +Mauer's gaze wandered uncertainly towards the speaker; a shudder passed +over his dying form, and his brain made a powerful effort to penetrate +the mists gathering over it. + +"I did not kill Julie, and you knew it and never told me?" he +stammered, with fast-failing voice. + +"Certainly I knew it; but did you ever ask me about it? The other man +had more forethought than you, and read the label before administering +the dose to his child; and when he saw the name, he brought it back at +once. It was two hours before he could get to my house again, and then +Thomas had to prepare fresh medicine. Then I took the opium-drops +intended for Sister Julie, and jumped on my horse; for although I knew +she never could recover, I wanted to fulfil my duty as a physician, and +do all I could to correct my servant's mistake. But I found her +already dead; yes, from all appearances she must have been dead several +hours. When I asked how that could have resulted from the drops, and +saw your disturbed countenance, and how you became pale and faint, I +thought you must have meditated the death of your wife, and with such +design had given her a double dose which you intended should be fatal. +I put the vial in my pocket, so that my servant's blunder might not be +brought up against him or me. But Mauer," cried Jonathan, in a voice +of frenzy, "when I stood by Don Manuel's death-bed and discovered your +guilty love for Inez, while your wife stood in your way, everything +became clear to me." + +"You knew, Brother Jonathan, that I was bearing all the tortures of +remorse, and yet gave me no word of explanation?" whispered the unhappy +victim. + +"That is not surprising. Do you know what hate is? You knew that I +loved Inez. Can you imagine how I must have hated you who robbed me of +her?" continued Jonathan, pitilessly. + +"Yes, I knew you looked on yourself as a murderer! It answered my +purpose not to have you think otherwise. It was sweet to me to see how +this thought tortured you; it was a great satisfaction to know I held +you in my power, like a butterfly on a needle, which it cannot get away +from, and yet which remains quiescent and kills it painfully and +slowly. Do you think I would not have brought you to justice if it had +been true? Surely I would not have failed to do it; but Thomas, who +knew all the circumstances and was with me in the mission, is here; he +would have witnessed against me, had I accused you before the public. +But I knew how to revenge myself on you for having stolen Inez from me, +and for refusing me Carmen's hand. Your life must pay for Inez; your +death will rob Carmen, as you have willed away your fortune from her +for your supposed crime and left it to our community. Thus you will +die at last, filled with regret at having wasted a life in unnecessary +penance, and your silent lips will now take the old, dark story into +the grave. I, however, will always feel an inward sense of triumph and +delight that it was my foot which crushed you!" + +He was silent, and stood with folded arms, looking down gloatingly on +Mauer. He did not observe that in the shadow between the wall and the +bed a head was raised. Suddenly a dark form rose, shadowy and +indistinct. Jonathan grew pale. "Inez!" he gasped, and shrank back. + +"No. Carmen; who has heard your cruel words, so that the silent lips +shall not take the dark story of your wickedness to the grave. Wretch! +devil incarnate! Can the earth hold such infamous scum? and has Heaven +no lightning with which to strike you dead? Oh, father, my poor, +persecuted father! There are no words to tell what you have suffered +through this man!" And she threw herself again by the bed, and cast +her arms about her dying parent. + +But a glorious light of heavenly peace had settled on those pale +features. With newly-acquired strength, he returned his daughter's +embrace, raised his hands, and cried with accents of joy: "Child, +rejoice, praise the Lord with me, for your father can now appear before +his Judge, innocent of this crime. Blessed be God forever--amen!" + +He stretched out his arms and sank back; one more sigh, as if the +liberated soul were unfolding its wings to be borne on the breeze to +heaven, and he lay still and peaceful in his daughter's arms. + +With heart-rending sobs, she rained kisses on his hands, his lips, his +brow; then closing his weary eyes, she whispered tenderly, amid +scalding tears, "Dear father, sleep sweetly; you have earned it well!" + +Some movement in the chamber of death attracted Carmen's notice, +despite her overwhelming sorrow. She started up quickly. Who dared to +intrude upon her thus? It was Jonathan, who was trying to make his +escape from the room. + +"Jonathan Fricke!" she cried, drawing herself up to her full height and +at her call he seemed as if rooted to the ground. She passed around +the bed, stepped to the table, and moved the lamp so as to throw a +brighter light over the calm, placid features of the dead, around whose +mouth a happy smile still lingered. + +"Look on that face!" she said in a voice of command. Her face was all +ablaze with righteous indignation, and she stood menacingly, but +wondrously beautiful, before him, like an avenging angel ready to +plunge the criminal down into the depths of hell. + +"Do you see this holy, peaceful rest? Will you be able, some day, to +lie down thus when the Lord demands an account of your life? You turn +away your eyes, but you will never succeed in banishing the image of +this face from your memory; it will haunt you wherever you go, by day +and by night; its perpetual presence will be my father's revenge here +below, and his accusation above, before the throne of judgment." + +Humiliated and cowed, Jonathan stood motionless before the scathing +contempt of this noble woman. + +"Do not think my father concealed his fault from me," she continued, +her voice growing deeper and more threatening, as if the indignation +surging up within her had lent it new power. "I know everything. I +know how it happened; that, in a moment of weakness and temptation, the +evil spirit drew near and enticed him. But he sinned in thought only; +the All-merciful prevented the deed. How does his sin compare with +yours, in the eyes of the One above?" + +"I beseech you," began Jonathan in a cringing tone, "do not expose me +to the community." + +"Go!" she replied. "I will cast no slur on my father's memory by +accusing you. Vengeance belongs to God alone." + +She began to feel her strength giving way. The terrible agitation of +her soul had exhausted her powers. At that moment she looked towards +the open door which led to the next room, and saw Alexander and Agatha. +She put her hands out to her husband as if seeking support and comfort +and as he hastened towards her, she sank half-fainting on his breast. + +"Carmen, my darling, my precious wife, this is a heavy sorrow which you +have borne so long!" he said gently. + +Agatha approached the bed and laid a linen cloth over the face of the +one who had found rest at last. + +"Carmen," she said, "your accusation is not needed. I will witness +before the elders against this man, that he may no longer remain among +us with his hypocritical piety and humility." + +Jonathan looked at her bewildered. + +"Is hell let loose?" he exclaimed, stamping his foot with rage. "Have +you all conspired to destroy me?" + +"Disturb not the dead with your unseemly words!" commanded Agatha. "To +him mercy will be shown; but you, Jonathan, will be condemned here and +in the world to come. Go!" She pointed to the door. He attempted to +answer, but she cut his words short and repeated her command, "Go!" + +After a moment's hesitation he disappeared out into the darkness. + +Shortly after this dreadful scene, the sound of the trumpets announced +to the people that Brother Mauer was dead; and soon it was noised +abroad that Brother Jonathan had committed a great crime against the +deceased, and the council of elders were seeking for him, to bring him +to justice and punishment. Great excitement followed among these quiet +Moravians, but Brother Jonathan was nowhere to be found. His +disappearance was considered a proof of his guilt, and wherever the +Brothers were stationed, in all parts of the world, notice was sent to +them of Jonathan's crime, so that he would not be able to impose +himself upon them, anywhere, as a Brother. He was publicly expelled +from the faith, and it was decided by the council that the money left +by the departed to his brethren, as an atonement for his sin, should be +transferred to his daughter; but the Trautenaus preferred to let it go +where the will had provided it should. + + * * * * * * + +With the first snow which fell about this time, a long and severe +winter set in, which held the world bound for several months in ice and +snow. But at last the mild south wind blew with its life-giving +breath, and melted the icy mantle which had enveloped all things. + +The thawed waters of the alder-pond then gave up from its depths a +disfigured corpse, which had been concealed beneath its frozen surface +during the severe season. It was the body of Brother Jonathan Fricke. +The worthy laborer who chanced to find it was impressed with the idea +that Jonathan had sought for salvation in its waters. + +Had the guilt-laden man lost his way in the fogs of winter, and met his +death by accident, or was he driven thither by a torturing conscience? + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 14523 *** diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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Corvus + +Release Date: December 30, 2004 [eBook #14523] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SISTER CARMEN*** + + +E-text prepared by Al Haines + + + +SISTER CARMEN + +by + +M. CORVUS + +Translated from the German by KATE DYKERS + +New York +The Minerva Publishing Company +48 University Place + +1891 + + + + + + + +CHAPTER I. + +The first rays of early dawn threw their shadowy light over hill and +dale, and all nature seemed animated with new life as the fresh spring +breeze kissed the young blades of grain in the fields. Ever brighter +and more glowing grew the eastern horizon, ever more golden the light, +floating clouds, until at last the dazzling rays of the king of day +flashed forth upon the expectant world. + +With its clear carol of joy, a lark soared upward from her dewy nest, +singing her morning anthem to the great Creator; and, as if in glad +sympathy with the happy bird, the many and varied voices of nature +united in celebrating the resurrection, not only of the sun, but of all +things, for it was Easter Sunday morning. + +Forth from the dwellings of a small Moravian village issued a band of +simply attired folk, who wended their way through the green fields and +up the hillside to a spacious wood, where was located a quiet +graveyard, in which gigantic linden-trees stretched out their leafless +branches, forming a graceful network overhead. + +In the centre of this lovely spot stood an immense stone cross, the +sign of that Lord whose resurrection was to-day celebrated with the +sound of trumpets and the voices of the people. + +A feeling of holy joy seemed to reign in every heart, as the crowd +stood grouped around the base of the cross, gazing with reverence at it +as it now shone bathed in the glorious radiance of the risen sun. +Presently the music ceased and the soft echoes died away among the +distant hills, while a clear, manly voice in the midst of the +congregation proclaimed: "The Lord is risen!" "He is risen indeed!" +replied each one joyously; after which the first speaker advanced +nearer to the cross and addressed a few words to the people: + +"My dear brothers and sisters, in accordance with our usual custom, we +visit to-day our beautiful cemetery, not to mourn for our dead, but to +rejoice that our Lord has risen from the grave to give us eternal life; +for with Him shall rise all those who follow in His holy footsteps here +below. Therefore, as we put not on the garb of mourning, let us not +grieve in our hearts when we think of our loved ones who have gone home +before us, but clasp each other's hands and be glad together, that +through the blessed Redeemer such happiness has been vouchsafed to +them. For His sake, and for the preservation of the true faith, the +Moravians wandered forth from their fatherland, forsaking the wealth +and luxuries of this world; but they took with them that which was more +precious than all else, the pure, unadulterated truths of the Gospel, +and sought a new country, in which they might dwell, and preserve their +religion forever. In the wilds of a strange land they found a +resting-place; and in the community were retained the old statutes and +laws, the old forms of worship, the old brotherly love and kindness, +which from the earliest period had characterized them. From this +little seed-corn which was then planted, the Moravians have spread out +their branches into all parts of the world. Let us remain faithful to +the principles which united our forefathers; let us ever hold sacred +the religion for the sake of which they suffered, and to which they +firmly adhered, in spite of persecution and peril. Hold fast brotherly +love! Forgive and bear with one another in love, sacrifice yourselves +for love's sake, suffer and die, in charity with all men,--then are you +true disciples of the Lord. Amen!" + +The preacher's voice ceased, and the congregation devoutly echoed his +"Amen." After a short pause the assembly broke up, with hearty +hand-shakings and joyful greetings. In little groups of twos and +threes they rambled through the beautiful grounds where the loved ones +were laid to rest. The members of the fraternity, as they conversed in +low but cheerful tones, bore a close resemblance to one another in the +quiet simplicity of their attire. There was no pretension to ornament +or style; cleanliness seemed the only adornment sought for, and it +certainly did reign supreme. The women and girls wore small, +close-fitting white caps, the different-colored ribbons on them +distinguishing the various classes, and giving a very pleasing effect +to the scene. The wives were recognized by blue ribbons on their caps, +and the widows by white, while the older girls wore pink and the +younger ones bright red. Gradually all returned to their homes in the +valley below, where lay the thriving Moravian village. + +One young girl, however, remained behind alone, lost in thought and +quite unconscious that her companions had already taken their way +homeward. Leaning against one of the large linden-trees, whose ancient +trunk completely screened her slim figure, she stood, looking downward +on the beautiful landscape which lay before her admiring eyes. +Mountain and valley, forest and field, were bathed in the golden +sunshine. Nothing was yet in bloom, but in every swelling bud there +seemed to lie a foreshadowing of coming glory. + +"Sister Carmen, hast thou not noticed that thy companions have returned +with their elders, and that thou art left alone?" suddenly asked a deep +masculine voice at her side. + +She involuntarily shrank back, as if from fear--was it because she was +alone, or was she only startled from her dreaming?--and looked timidly +at the speaker. He was a man well advanced in years; his hair +partially gray, but his complexion retaining much of its youthful +freshness and color; and there was some difficulty in determining his +age. Although his brow was thoughtful and his grave eyes habitually +looked upward with an expression of calm serenity and humble piety, yet +the curve of his mouth, around which there lurked a peculiar smile, +contradicted the idea of sanctity. + +"Have they really left me, Brother Jonathan? I had entirely forgotten +how time was passing, in the tumult of joyful feelings which filled my +heart," said the girl with a sunny smile. + +"It gladdens my heart, dear sister, to know it gives you such great joy +to celebrate the Resurrection of our Lord," he replied. "Truly it is a +blessed privilege to be able to lose one's self in the contemplation of +holy things, and, forgetting the cares of this present life, rejoice in +the hope of heaven, and be as one dead to every temporal joy." + +"But I was not thinking at all of the life beyond the grave, only of +this present one. How beautiful it is, and what happiness to be able +to enjoy it!" she said candidly, as her youthful countenance lighted up +with a glowing expression of love of life and pleasure. + +Hers was a singularly beautiful face, on which the man at her side +gazed with open admiration. The close-fitting cap, with its bright red +bow, indicated that the girl had not yet reached her eighteenth year. +Here and there peeped out little truant locks of the glossy black hair, +whose richness and abundance the close covering could not entirely +conceal or fetter. The broad, intellectual brow; the delicate, +pencilled lashes, from the shadow of which shone forth lustrous black +eyes that flashed with intelligence and spirit; the arched nose, with +its slightly dilated nostrils; pouting mouth, with full, cherry lips, +all gave her something of a proud expression, which was, however, +softened by the beaming smile which so often lighted it up. Although +only a faint color tinged her cheek, yet the clear, brunette complexion +glowed with fresh, warm, young life, and the slender, lithe form that +leaned with such childlike abandon against the old tree displayed the +most exquisite symmetry. + +"Yes, this present life is certainly very pleasant, dear sister," he +resumed, approaching yet nearer to her; and he indeed seemed to find it +so as he contemplated this fair, blooming, delightful young creature. +"We do wisely to enjoy it, and use it as a means to prepare us for the +great hereafter, accomplishing that end all the more effectually when +we love the Lord, and, through Him, one another. Sister Carmen, did +you listen to the beautiful discourse on brotherly and sisterly love +which our honored presbyter gave us to-day?" and the speaker bent his +head so low that she felt his hot breath on her cheek, and his heavy +hand on her shoulder. But quickly turning aside and withdrawing from +his touch, she replied: "Yes, I heard it, and it is indeed a very good +and proper thing to love one another; but I think it is not always love +which is called so, or seems so;" and her mouth twitched with a +repressed smile, as if some secret thought amused her. + +"Dear sister, how can you speak thus?" he said. "Men, it is true, are +weak, and often swerve from their duty; but we should help each other +in the spirit of love, so that we may be all united and grow to +resemble each other in character." + +"Resemble each other in character!" She repeated his words musingly, +and the gaze from her dark eyes wandered away off, beyond her +companion. "Can we ever do that? God has created us so different; if +He had wished us all to be alike, would He not have made us so?" + +The man looked at her earnestly, and an expression of disapproval +passed over his face as he answered: "Any one, to hear you speak in +that way, and not know you as well as I do, would never believe that +you had lived so long among us and were one of us. I have known you +always, ever since you were a wee, toddling thing. It was in Jamaica, +when I went to your father from the mission." + +Carmen blushed deeply at the rebuke which lay in his words, and, as if +to atone, said quickly: + +"Oh, forgive me! I am sure I would gladly be like you all if I only +could. But I cannot always be calm and serene, as every one else here +is; and I fear our dear Sister Agatha, with all her endeavors, will +succeed as little in changing me, as you do in trying to produce the +same degree of health in every one, even though you be the wise and +learned Doctor Jonathan Fricke. Each bird sings after its own fashion, +and although all are different, yet none are bad. I cannot believe +every one is culpable who does not pass through life calmly and +sedately, as we endeavor to do. It surely cannot be wrong for people +to laugh, and dance! Dance!" and she laughed outright, so that her +pearly teeth gleamed from between the rosy lips. "It must be +enchanting to skip round and round to the sound of merry music!" She +had allowed herself to be carried away by enthusiasm, and spoke louder +than was consistent with Moravian decorum, or suitable to the place +where she was. Her eyes sparkled, and the dainty little foot which +peeped forth from under her dress seemed altogether suited to trip with +fairy fleetness through the merry mazes of the dance. + +One glance, however, at her companion recalled her to the present. Her +eyes sank, the little foot was hastily withdrawn, and she wrapped more +closely about her the dark shawl which had slipped from her shoulders. + +"But the time! the time!" she stammered. "It is getting later and +later while we are chatting, and Sister Agatha will have good cause to +be vexed with me." + +With fleet steps she hurried through the quiet graveyard, down the +hill, and along the path which led to the dwellings of the settlement. +Jonathan stood looking after her, as long as his eye could discern the +airy, lithe figure. + +All pretence of calmness had vanished from his face. His eyes +glittered with a strange light and glowed with passionate desire. For +a moment the staid, elderly man was transformed into an eager, ardent +youth. + +"She inherits the hot, proud Spanish blood of her mother, and, alas! +the same fatal, enchanting beauty also," he muttered. "If I could only +win her--" He stopped abruptly, as if fearful of being overheard, and +began to brush away some imaginary specks of dust from his sleeve. +Drooping his head into its usual pious attitude, his face assumed its +former grave expression, and he was again the sedate, quiet Brother. + + + + +CHAPTER II. + +A Moravian settlement! As we enter it, it seems as if we stepped into +another sphere, so utterly unlike is it to the bustle and hurry of the +age of progress which prevails in the outer world that presses so +closely upon its borders, and against which it quietly but firmly +opposes the bulwarks of its ancient customs, the simplicity of its +regulations, and the severity of its discipline. It has no intercourse +with the tide of human life surging around it. It seems like a small +body of Christians, left from the Apostolic age, that after being +buried for centuries has been dug out in later days. The government of +the community resembles that of a large family bound together by ties +of love; all its members are brothers and sisters, divided, according +to age, sex, and conditions of life, into bands called choruses, at the +head of each an elder, either male or female, presiding and +superintending its spiritual affairs and enforcing its daily +discipline. Each elder gives in a report of all that occurs in the +chorus to the Conference, as this is the chief board of management in +the society. There is, therefore, nothing which transpires in the life +of any individual that is not brought before this tribunal. + +About ten o'clock one morning, an elegant carriage, drawn by two +spirited horses, passed through the quiet, scrupulously clean streets +of the settlement, and drew up at the door of the hotel, or, as they +call it, the general lodging-house; and from the vehicle sprang a young +and very distinguished-looking gentleman with erect, military bearing +and noble features. He was followed by a lady, and a young girl of +about twelve years of age, and a tall, lanky lad who had not yet lost +his boyish awkwardness. + +"Unharness and take the trunk to the Sisters' house," said the +gentleman to the coachman. + +The newly-arrived guests entered the sitting-room, which was entirely +unoccupied, and whose clean, freshly-sanded floor seemed almost to +shine with a consciousness of its own spotlessness. The host, a quiet +old man, entered to receive their commands, which he attended to in +person. Everything was done silently; not even the plates and glasses +rattled as they were placed on the-table; and when all was prepared, +the man left the room, not attempting, after the manner of hosts in +general, to enter into conversation with his guests, or to ply them +with questions as to whence they came, whither they were going, etc. + +The lady, a very remarkable-looking woman, was apparently the mother of +the three others, but seemed young to be the parent of the eldest, who +had evidently numbered thirty years. + +The breakfast, which was excellent and well served, was quickly +disposed of; and dinner being ordered for two o'clock, the little party +left the house. On the street, the same stillness, the same absence of +people prevailed as elsewhere. + +"Do you know the way to the Sisters' house, mother?" asked the young +man of the lady as they led the way, the two younger ones following +behind. + +"Of course, Alexander," she replied. "I was here once, some years ago, +on a visit to President von Karsdorf, and I can perfectly remember how +full of interest the whole place was, and how pleased the Karsdorfs +were to think they could end their lives in this peaceful, quiet spot." + +"Such extraordinary order and cleanliness seems almost like a matter of +pride and show on the part of these humble people--as if the inner +purity of their souls must needs be manifested in this extreme, outward +neatness," said the gentleman, laughing. + +"You are prejudiced against the Moravian character, I know, and yet +there is so much that is good in them!" argued the lady. + +"That may well be so, mother. I am willing to acknowledge all their +good qualities," said her son; "but these numerous forms which intrude +themselves upon every occasion seem like fetters and bonds to free +souls. So much unnatural restraint and parade of sanctity is offensive +to me. I never could tolerate hypocrites, and such they surely must +be, although, of course, they would be shocked at the idea; for under +all this excessive humility, this parade of piety, I venture to say +there lies much concealed of which we do not dream. One can imagine +how much Herr von Karsdorf, an old epicure and man of the world, must +have dissimulated to conform himself to the manners of this community, +to be allowed to end his days here." + +His mother shook her head. "I think," she said, "that the subdued, +pious bearing of the members has become like a second nature to them, +and is now, therefore, not hypocritical. Besides, think how excellent +is the domestic economy of the settlement; how active and prosperous +they are in trade and various industries. They have many practical, +temporal, as well as spiritual objects to which they devote themselves." + +"I grant all that; but such immense importance is attached to little +things. Their work would be very trifling and ridiculous if attempted +on a large scale. It resembles the wonderful industry in an ant-hill, +unremitting and earnest, but petty labor. No genius is displayed. +What great men have arisen from among them? Who are the distinguished +scholars and artists which have gone forth from their ranks?" + +"And how about their sufferings?" interposed the other, quickly. +"Their struggles amidst privation and misery, and persecutions of all +kinds in distant lands, for the sake of their faith, and to rescue wild +heathens from depravity and barbarism, and win them over to the +Christian religion? Do you not deem that a noble work? Consider their +admirable regulations as regards education; are they not excellent? I +look for the greatest improvement in Adele, as the result of her stay +here.--But it seems to me I have turned into the wrong street, for the +Sisters' house is certainly not here!" + +"Here come some people at last," replied Alexander--"a girl with a +child. They will be able to direct us." He stepped forward to meet +the approaching figures, and with a polite greeting begged for +information. The young girl dropped a modest courtesy to the stranger, +and with downcast eyes listened to his inquiries about the way to the +Sisters' house. Then she turned to the lady, who had in the mean time +drawn near, and said courteously: "I am just going hither; may I +conduct you?" + +"You would oblige us exceedingly," replied the lady, kindly. + +"What a lovely Sister! It wouldn't be such a bad thing to be a Brother +here," whispered Alexander to his mother. He did not speak too low for +the sensitive ear of the girl to catch his words, for she blushed +deeply, and the rosy little mouth curled proudly and defiantly. +Visibly offended, she turned away from the gentleman, and simply saying +"Come" to the lady, walked on ahead, leading the little child by the +hand, and giving no apparent heed to the party behind. + +Retracing their steps for a short distance, they turned into a side +street, and here--wonder of wonders!--were some more people. A horse +stood, saddled and bridled, before the door of one of the houses, and a +man was just in the act of mounting. He did not seem to be a +particularly expert horseman, or his steed the most patient of animals; +for the former displayed his awkwardness in attempting to mount, and +the latter, as soon as he became aware of his master's intention, +kicked, and sprang aside. The man sought to quiet him, patted his +neck, and once more tried the difficult task of getting on his back; +but the sight of the approaching strangers now added to his clumsiness, +and rendered him even more helpless than before. He had scarcely put +his foot in the stirrup, when the animal pranced, kicked and reared, +jerking the reins from his owner's hands, and throwing him down on the +pavement; after which he started at full speed down the street, +directly towards the advancing party. As soon as the horse showed a +disposition to be restive, the girl had led the child close up against +the side of the house, and looking back at the strangers following her, +she observed an expression of contempt on the young man's face, as he +watched the awkward movements of the Brother; being himself a skilful +rider and able, with his supple yet powerful frame, to master even the +wildest horse. + +When the man fell to the ground, and the unrestrained animal came +rapidly onward, the strangers also moved hastily aside. But the little +child had, in its fright, broken loose from the girl's hand, and ran +into the middle of the street to pick up a ball which had rolled from +its hand. A cry of horror broke from every lip, and in another moment +the child would have been dashed under the horse's hoofs as she stooped +to pick up the toy. But before the girl could reach the little one, +the strange gentleman, with one long stride, was on the spot, and had +seized the child in his arms. With a firm hand he grasped the reins, +and brought the terrified beast to a standstill by sheer strength. It +all happened so quickly that, looking at the child playing merrily with +its ball a moment after, one could almost have fancied it was all a +dream. The girl, who had turned as pale as death, was leaning against +the side of the house; but quickly regaining her self-control, she +hastened to her little charge, saying, with trembling voice, as she +shyly glanced at its preserver, "I thank you, sir; you have saved the +little one entrusted to me from great peril." + +The unfortunate rider who had been thrown now came limping up, and was +profuse with his thanks to this "friend in need." + +There was such a very remarkable contrast between the two men, as they +now stood side by side, that it struck the eye of every one present, +even the young girl's. The humble bearing and uncouth figure of the +Brother looked decidedly unprepossessing compared with the tall, +elegant form of Alexander, which, with all its agility and grace, was +full of power, as if forged from steel. Every muscle was still +strained by the exertion just made; his face was flushed, his blue eyes +sparkled with the fire of inward strength of will, and yet the +expression showed no evidence of agitation, only quiet consciousness of +power. While he yet held the reins with his left hand, he assisted the +other man, who finally succeeded in gaining the saddle. + +"A vicious animal, sir," said Alexander to the other, handing him the +bridle. "He seems to be skittish, and will not admit of any joking; +spare the spur, and keep firm hold on the bridle until you are sure of +yourself." + +Thus saying, he stood aside, and man and horse proceeded on their way. + +"And, now, if you will be so good, miss, please continue to be our +guide," he said, turning toward the girl. + +They soon reached the Sisters' house. "Ah, yes, this is the very +place!" cried the lady, joyfully. "Thank you most sincerely for your +courtesy, dear child. Will you kindly tell us which door to enter? We +gave notice by letter of our coming, and are expected. I am Frau von +Trautenau; these are my two sons, and this is my little daughter, whom +I am bringing to stay here." She offered her hand cordially to the +girl, and looked kindly at her beautiful face. + +"I beg that you wilt enter this way, into the parlor," was the modest +reply, as the maiden opened a door on the first floor. "I will inform +Sister Agatha of your arrival." + +It was not long ere the gentle Sister made her appearance. She was a +friendly, motherly-looking woman, on whose gray hair was placed a cap +with a pink bow, the badge of the unmarried Sisters. She greeted the +visitors with dignified cordiality. + +"Forgive me for bringing my entire family, and allow me to present each +member to you," said Frau von Trautenau, after the first words of +welcome. + +"My stepson Alexander, captain of infantry, and my trusty adviser and +support since my husband's death; my son Hans, and my daughter Adele, +your pupil from this time forward, whom I commend most earnestly to +your kindness and care." + +Sister Agatha took the child most affectionately in her arms, and +pressing a kiss on her brow, said sweetly: + +"You must confide in me, dear child, as if I were your mother, and I +will consider you a sacred trust committed to me. We are all a large +family of Sisters here, who love one another, learning cheerfully and +working diligently. 'Pray and work!' This golden proverb is our motto +through the day, and the love and industry which you will see +everywhere will soon teach you to feel at home among us." + +"I live, as you know, in the neighborhood," said Frau von Trautenau, as +Adele looked up tearfully. "Our estate, Wollmershain Grove, is only a +few hours' ride from here, and sometimes, if I drive in, you will, I +suppose, allow Adele to visit us for a little recreation?" + +"Oh, certainly, Frau Von Trautenau," returned Sister Agatha--"in +vacation. May I now show you our apartments and arrangements, so that +you may know exactly how your dear little girl will be situated?" + +"I shall be delighted," replied the lady. "Everything here interests +us, of course, in the highest degree." + +With that, they all rose and followed the sister. + + + + +CHAPTER III. + +"We require a great deal of room," explained Sister Agatha, as they +passed along, "as there are separate apartments, not only for the +pupils, but also for the unmarried Sisters of our community, who are +not members of a family and yet live and work here with us. Indeed, +even those who have families in the outside world often come to us to +employ their unoccupied time." So saying, she led her guests from the +first floor to the second, and from one room to another. Everything +was neatly and simply arranged. The modest dress of the Sisters, with +their little white caps, their calm diligence in spite of the +exhilarating air of this bright morning, their quiet gait and subdued +voices, the deep silence which pervaded the house, gave one the +sensation of being in a cloister. Sister Agatha conducted the party +into the general workroom. It was built like a deep hall. At long +tables sat numbers of girls with every variety of countenance; all +young, not quite grown, gathered in separate groups, busy with +needlework or writing. The elder ones seemed to supervise the younger +and instruct them in their work. Amongst these was the girl who had +acted the part of guide to the strangers. All rose at the entrance of +the visitors, and after a moment silently resumed their seats. + +"Here you see the children of our members, and our dear pupils, all +together. They are sent to us from the most remote colonies and +missions to be educated, and they very soon learn to consider +themselves one with us. Dear Sister Marie," said Agatha, turning to +one of the girls, "please tell Frau Von Trautenau where you were born." +The child addressed, a little girl with olive complexion and keen black +eyes, arose, like a piece of machinery, on being spoken to, and +replied: "At Paramaribo, in Surinam," and dropped back into her seat. + +"And you, dear Sister Genevieve?" + +"At St. Jean, in the West Indies." + +"And Sister Sarah?" "At Sarepta, in Russia, in the province of Saratow." + +"Sister Jacobi?" + +"At Batavia, in Java." + +"Sister Carmen?" + +Similarly to all those called before, Carmen rose also, when Sister +Agatha mentioned her name; but it seemed an involuntary motion, as if +in obedience to a command, and then, after a second's hesitation, she +at once resumed her seat. During the entire proceedings her glance had +wandered with painful eagerness, now to Frau von Trautenau, now to her +eldest son, and had remarked how this questioning of the girls had +seemed to amuse them. At last, when her name was called, a deep blush +suffused Carmen's lovely face, and she could not summon courage to +answer. + +"Dear Sister Carmen!" repeated the Superior, as if she thought Carmen +had not heard the first call. + +"Oh, please---" now interposed Frau von Trautenau, endeavoring to +assist the girl when she saw her painful confusion. She stroked back +from Carmen's brow the curly locks which had escaped from under the +edge of the little white cap, saying: "Never mind! I can fancy, from +her pretty name, that her cradle was rocked in Spain, if not in a still +more distant and beautiful clime. Is it not so, dear child?" + +There was so much delicate consideration in the tone and manner of Frau +von Trautenau towards the embarrassed girl that Carmen, with an impulse +of sincere gratitude, bent over her friendly hand and kissed it. + +"Yes, it is so," She said, looking at the lady, with her dark eyes full +of childlike innocence. "I was born in the beautiful West Indies, on +the island of Jamaica." + +"Have you been here long?" + +"Oh yes, a very, very long time. I was sent here when only nine years +old, to be educated, my mother having died some time before; and my +father left Jamaica a year after I did, to go to the East Indies. I +have not seen him or heard from him once since then." + +Carmen said all this in an undertone, and her voice trembled, as if +full of suppressed tears. + +"Poor child! how sorry I am for you!" said the lady, affectionately, +taking Carmen's hand and pressing it tenderly. She felt such a deep +sympathy for the lonely girl that she quickly added: "Since you know so +well what it is to be separated from loved ones, will you not try to +interest yourself a little in Adele? She will perhaps find it +difficult at first to reconcile herself to this new life." + +"Gladly, with all my heart, if your daughter will confide in me!" +replied Carmen with joy. + +A stroke of the clock, which sounded loudly through the quiet house, +announced the hour of the midday meal. The girls rose at once from +their places, and Frau von Trautenau took leave of Sister Agatha, +taking her daughter with her. + +After the departure of the guests, the girls left the room; and as +Carmen passed Sister Agatha, the latter laid her hand on the girl's +shoulder, saying gravely, but not unkindly: + +"Dear Sister, I would like to speak with you; on your return from the +love-feast which we celebrate this evening, come to my room, and I will +have a talk with you." + +Carmen looked calmly into the serious eyes of the speaker, where she +read no small degree of secret dissatisfaction. + +"Yes, Sister Agatha, I will come." + + * * * * * * + +No apartment could be more simply furnished than that of Sister Agatha. +It seemed as if she wished to excel in her avoidance of anything like +unnecessary ornament or comfort. Three chairs, a table, an +old-fashioned sofa, a writing-desk, and a chest of drawers formed the +scanty furniture. The walls were whitewashed and bare, while at the +windows were hung plain white curtains. Above the desk was placed the +solitary ornament of the room, the watchword for the day. These +"watchwords" are texts of Scripture printed on cards, one for each day +in the year, and distributed to every member of the settlement, so that +all may meditate upon it, and guide their daily lives by its precepts. + +Sister Agatha sat at one of the windows; and with her, his chair drawn +back into the shadow, out of the bright afternoon sunshine, sat Brother +Jonathan Fricke, talking in his calmest and most deliberate manner, "It +seems to me, dear Sister, that the healthy give you more anxiety than +the sick." + +"Because they are the more difficult to help than others; and although +your visit is principally to the sick, I should like to have your +advice regarding the case of one in my charge, and whose father was +your dearest friend." + +"You are anxious about Carmen's worldly-mindedness; but ought you not +to be indulgent, dear Sister, and remember that the child's early +associations are still holding sway in her heart, and make great excuse +for her? Brother Mauer, you remember, went away from the mission to +his plantation, where, although he did not sever himself from our +communion, there was not much to remind him of his religious +obligations. His last wife, a hot-blooded Creole, could not be +considered much help as regards keeping the faith. She loved best to +swing herself into the saddle and gallop away over the plains. She +would sing her glowing Spanish songs to the accompaniment of the +mandolin; or else she would dance like a fairy, her foot scarce seeming +to touch the floor as she floated along, to the sound of the tambourine +played by her old negro duenna. She was too beautiful for him to +restrain, in dancing, riding, or anything. Too beautiful!" he +repeated, becoming more and more enthusiastic. "I have seen her often, +when summoned to the plantation on professional duty as a physician; +and there was little Carmen, always with her mother, and following her +in everything. She learned to dance and sing in true Spanish style, +and she seemed to feel all the beauty and fascination of it." + +Suddenly he paused, as if becoming conscious of his unwonted animation +under the wondering gaze of Sister Agatha's grave eyes. Heaving a deep +sigh, he had again recourse to his old trick of brushing an invisible +speck of dust from his sleeve, and then continued in the orthodox, +placid manner: + +"It was a fearful sin for a member of our faith to fall into, and +Brother Mauer should have resisted the temptation. I spoke to him +frequently about it, but he had lost all power of self-control. He was +too much absorbed in love for his wife, and therefore it was a mercy to +his soul and Carmen's that this Spanish girl died, and the child was +placed here, under our discipline, where she may yet be won over to a +spiritual life," he concluded, and cast a humble, sanctimonious look on +Sister Agatha. + +"Where were you when her mother died?" asked the Sister. "Were you +with her?" + +"No; she has been dead about ten years, and I left Jamaica some time +before that, as my health could not stand the climate. I went from +there to the northern part of the United States. From Bethlehem, where +I remained several years, I went back to the old place, and when I got +there Carmen was a wee little maiden, and I was told that Brother Mauer +had left Jamaica for the East Indies." + +"Well, surely the Lord called him to be His instrument," interrupted +Sister Agatha. "It was wonderful how he was seized with such an +irrepressible desire to be a missionary. And as far as we can know, he +has worked without flagging for the faith. All news from him has +ceased for some time now; and is it not strange that he has never made +any application for money? He took only a very small sum with him when +he went on his mission, and the large sum which the sale of his lands +in Jamaica brought is still in a bank in this country." + +"Has he, then, left nothing for Carmen?" + +"We receive a certain interest from the money, for her support and +education," replied Agatha, "but it is, comparatively speaking, very +little. The money must have accumulated to an immense sum by this +time. If her father is dead, Carmen must be a very wealthy +heiress--another temptation for her, poor child! It is strange we hear +nothing from Brother Mauer. I feel sure he must be dead--died while +working for his Lord!" + +As she spoke, Jonathan's eyes flashed, and he suddenly lifted his head; +but remembering where he was, he immediately resumed his usual pious +bearing, and, when Agatha ceased speaking, said, with something like a +sigh: + +"He was my friend!" + +A pause ensued, during which he seemed lost in reflection. + +"It does seem as if we have lost him," he continued, "and Carmen must +be an orphan. Poor child! Bear so much the more leniently with her, +dear Sister; and if from time to time you observe signs of her early +training, and that her impulses carry her sometimes beyond what is +quite becoming, remember she will find in me a guide who is ever ready +to lead her in the right way." + +"Truly, you are still the same faithful friend to her father, for you +have so much consideration for his child," said Agatha, deeply +affected. "But believe me, dear Brother, I also love the girl with my +whole heart, and am the more anxious for that reason, lest her natural +inclinations may lead her into error. But to whom shall I direct her +for guidance, if not to the dear Lord Himself?" + +"Surely, my Sister, you say well; and therefore it would be better for +her to have a helpmate ever at her side, who would remind her of her +holy calling," returned Jonathan, earnestly. "Next week she will be +eighteen years of age, and will then be numbered among the marriageable +sisters. It would certainly be the best thing for her to have a +husband; therefore seek one for her, Sister Agatha; and if you and the +assembly of elders can find no one better, then will I, for the sake of +her welfare, give up the freedom of my single life and take her to +myself, to be to her a faithful protector and husband, for the glory of +God." + +While speaking, he had risen nervously from his seat, and leaning one +arm on the back of the chair, uttered the last words hastily, as if +impelled thereto by a sudden overwhelming emotion. His eyes were fixed +on the floor, only once in a while looking furtively up, as if to watch +the effect of his words. But the Sister's open countenance showed only +a joyful surprise. + +"You would really sacrifice yourself for Sister Carmen's benefit?" she +cried. "How can I do otherwise than approve, dear Brother? You, the +pious, wise, experienced physician, full of love and kind forbearance +towards her, and knowing so well, all the while, what is for her good! +Where in all the wide world could she ever find a better counsellor and +guide?" + +"Nay, say not so, Sister Agatha," he interrupted reprovingly. "No +sinful creature deserves such praise; least of all I. None of us are +more than humble instruments for good, and have no merit at all of +ourselves." + +"Yet, my dear Brother, we cannot but recognize the good in others," +replied she in a gentle tone. "And I say no more than the truth. If +every one as worthy as you had only a portion of your modesty! The +sick long for you and praise you as their benefactor; the well welcome +you everywhere as a friend and adviser. Let me thank you for offering +yourself to Carmen, for you have done so with true kindness and love. +After the feast this evening, I will communicate your proposal to the +elders; and if they consent to it, then, afterwards, I will speak to +Carmen on the subject. I have notified her to come to me, without +reference to this matter, as I want to make some inquiries about her +behavior this morning. But now it is the hour for evening prayer." + +She arose, and extended her hand to Jonathan, who returned its hearty +pressure. Never had his manner been more humble than it now was as he +left the room. But when the door was closed behind him, he stood quite +still for a moment, and the disagreeable expression of his mouth was +greatly enhanced by the smile of triumph which lit up his countenance. + +"Ah!" he exclaimed under his breath, "beauty and wealth; they will +indeed compensate for the past." + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +When Frau von Trautenau, with her family, entered the spacious +prayer-room, to be present at the love-feast, the mass of the +congregation had already assembled, and were singing to the +accompaniment of the organ. The lady accepted the places assigned to +her and Adele by Sister Agatha, but Alexander and his brother took +possession of an empty bench near the door. + +The room presented a strange appearance for a place of worship. It was +destitute of any ornament whatever. The altar, which was at one end, +consisted of a simple wooden table, on which stood a large crucifix. +The brothers and sisters sat at long tables covered with white linen; +but, as usual, the sexes were seated apart. Each member was served +with a small cup of tea and a little bun. + +After a while the music ceased, and a long prayer by the principal +elder followed after which another member read a letter from one of +their missionaries, Joseph Hubner, who was at work in the land of the +Kaffres. This letter presented a touching picture of humble +self-sacrifice and sincere devotion. + +Alexander felt deeply moved, and forgot the strange mixture of +religious exercises and temporal enjoyment which this feast displayed. +Absorbed in listening, he did not observe that, in his immediate +vicinity, a singular commotion had arisen, and that a good deal of +whispering was carried on among the Brothers, as they regarded him and +Hans with curious glances. After the reading of the letter another +hymn was given out; then Hans nudged his brother. + +"What is there so peculiar about us? Everybody is gazing at us so!" + +Alexander glanced about, to see if anything was wrong, but could +discover nothing amiss. They had quietly and politely partaken of the +feast when it was offered to them, yet something must be wrong to +create such a sensation; so he turned to some one sitting near by, with +the question: + +"Are we depriving any one of this seat?" + +"Oh no, indeed, my dear sir," he replied. + +"So much the better," said Alexander. "We do not wish to cause any +inconvenience and I began to fear we were doing so." + +"I must ask your pardon," stammered the Brother, with much confusion. +"It was certainly very rude for us to stare at you so, and yet it was +the result of the deep sympathy we feel for your brother, who seems so +young to be a widower." + +Alexander gave a searching glance at the speaker, to see if he was +ridiculing his brother. Hans a widower! In spite of his tall stature, +he showed very plainly that he was but an overgrown schoolboy. + +"A widower, sir!" said the young man, slowly. "My brother is only +sixteen years old, and is still at school. In the world we do not +marry at that age." + +"It did indeed seem very strange to me," said the good man, in extreme +embarrassment; "but being seated among the widowers, we judged it must +be so." + +The two brothers almost laughed out loud, the position was so +ridiculous. + +"Then we are both in the wrong place--my brother as well as I! You +must pardon our ignorance of your customs. I saw the men and women +sitting apart, but never imagined the widowers had a particular place +for themselves. Tell us, pray, where we can sit to be among unmarried +fellows like ourselves." + +"Nay, my dear sir, remain where you are. The love-feast will soon be +over. Brother Daniel, who leaves us to-morrow, to help Brother Joseph +among the Kaffres, has only to take leave of us before we disperse." + +While he was speaking, the whole assembly arose, and one among them +stepped forward. He first advanced to the Sisters, and shook hands +with each one; then passing over to the Brothers, the parting kiss was +given and received. And he who thus bade farewell, ere he followed +Brother Joseph, to share his struggles and hardships, far away from +civilized life, was the identical awkward, ungainly-looking Brother +who, in the morning, had made such an unsuccessful attempt at riding. + +There is always an intolerable feeling of moral defeat when we see a +man, whom we have regarded with contempt rise into importance by his +own merit. A noble mind at once acknowledges the fact, but a mean +spirit feels only resentment and spite, with a sense of defeat. + +Something like a feeling of shame came over Alexander, as he closely +regarded the man whom he had inwardly despised, but who now seemed like +a hero in his eyes. + +Seated at the table, opposite to him were the young sisters and pupils +belonging to the educational department, and among them Adele, seated +not far from Carmen. As Alexander casually looked up, he met Carmen's +sparkling eyes, which seemed to cast on him a look of triumph, as if +she understood his feeling of humiliation which this moment brought to +him as a consequence of his contemptuous manner in the morning. He +thought he could clearly read in her expression what she fain would +have said: "You may perhaps ride well, and he cannot; you were not +afraid to stop the wild horse and save the child's life; but would you +have the courage to undertake what he has been appointed to do?" As +their eyes met, she returned his glance unflinchingly and firmly, but +he could not prevent his eyes from falling before hers. + +Meanwhile Brother Daniel had, in his rounds of leave-taking, approached +those near to Alexander. When he reached the latter he hesitated a +moment, having recognized the person who had come to his assistance in +need, and a flush of embarrassment suffused his gentle, almost +effeminate, countenance. But Alexander, bending down quickly, pressed +a kiss on the man's cheek, saying heartily: "Farewell, and good luck go +with you! Believe me, I thoroughly admire your courage." + +The Brother looked at him in surprise, and answered: "Thank you very +much, sir!" and passed on. + +When Alexander again looked toward Carmen, her eyes were moist with +unshed tears. + +"How beautiful that girl is!" thought he. "What an independent, frank +spirit speaks from her eyes; what a lovely expression hovers around her +mouth! She is like a dazzling star among these quiet people,--as if +she had strayed away from her own orbit and found herself here,--so +little does she seem fitted to her surroundings in the little circle in +which she moves. I wonder if she is happy here. A large-hearted, +generous nature cannot be content to submit to all these restrictions. +No, she resists them. I saw that to-day. But she will never become +like the others, and pass her life, in quiet submission, by the side of +a man such as Brother Daniel, for instance." + +The leave-taking of the Brother being ended, the congregation received +the general blessing and dispersed. The moment had now come when Frau +von Trautenau and her sons must part from Adele, and many were the +tears shed on the occasion. + +The night grew late; the lamp was lighted in Agatha's room. Presently +a gentle tapping was heard on the door, answered by a kindly "Come in." + +Carmen entered; and when Agatha, raising her eyes, recognized the girl, +she put aside her spectacles, and said gently: "Come nearer, dear +Sister; I was expecting you." She drew up a chair, but Carmen put it +aside, and kneeling by Sister Agatha's side, said: + +"No, Sister, let me remain here and hear what you have to say, for you +are going to chide me--I am sure of it." + +"Carmen, do you believe I love you?" she inquired. + +"Surely," answered the girl, quickly. "More than any one else here." + +"Then you know that my heart grieves when I cannot feel satisfied with +you," continued the Sister. "Why are your thoughts constantly dwelling +on worldly things, and why do you allow yourself to be overcome with +pride, instead of putting your mind on serious matters, and being more +humble?" + +"You are angry with me, Sister Agatha, because I did not tell from what +distant land I came. That is not such a dreadful crime," said Carmen, +cheerfully. + +The serious countenance of the Sister grew yet more grave, and she +looked severely at the kneeling figure. + +"Have you, then, not thought of the text for to-day?" she asked +reprovingly, + +Carmen flushed up quickly; she tried to compose herself, but was for a +moment at a loss what to say. She had during the past day been through +such new experiences; whereas, heretofore, every day had been pretty +much the same. + +Sister Agatha waited patiently for Carmen to become calmer. At last, +when she seemed to have forgotten her confusion about the text, Agatha +said: "Now tell me the watchword." + +When the maiden's eyes turned to the usual place for the motto, her +thoughts seemed to cease wandering, and she repeated the verse +correctly: + +"'Feed Thou Thy people with Thy staff.'" + +"Remember, my Sister, the purport of those words. 'Thy people' are +those who belong to Him; 'with Thy staff' means, with the support of +His strength. Carmen, how can the Lord guide you with His staff, if +you do not bow your will before Him, and try to curb your pride?" + +Carmen, as she knelt, had rested her elbows on Sister Agatha's lap, and +thus supported her head on her hands, while she gazed into the +speaker's face, thinking earnestly of what she said. + +"Do you call it pride, and are you vexed with me because I would not +tell to strangers what was indifferent, or perhaps amusing, to them? +Oh, Sister Agatha, is it necessary that we expose ourselves to the +derision of the world? We do not serve God by doing that. And when +you speak of pride, is it not that very feeling which leads you to +boast of our having come from so many and such distant lands? Do you +not wish to demonstrate by that means how your faith has penetrated +into all parts of the world? That is, after all, pride under the garb +of humility." + +Sister Agatha was deeply touched, and remained silent for a moment; +then rising hastily, she said with a stern manner: "Do not confuse +trifles with grave subjects. All that we do, even the weakest, is for +the Lord's glory and praise, and not our own. What matter if the world +scorns us? If we are the Lord's, He is with us, and we care for naught +else. Search your heart, dear Sister, that you neglect not the +salvation of your soul. Accept for yourself a helper and guide, so +that your feet may not stray from the right path. There is one, whom I +know, is now ready to offer himself to you, than whom none is, more +steadfast in the faith. Brother Jonathan Fricke, the faithful friend +of your father, honors you most highly when he desires to have you for +his wife. To-day he explained to me his wishes on the subject; and the +elders, to whom I have spoken, give their cordial consent to the +alliance." + +At Agatha's words Carmen grew deathly pale, and listened with wide-open +eyes. When the Sister ceased speaking, she sprang up, and turning from +the gentle eyes which sought hers, said passionately: + +"But I will not have him for my husband!" + +"Carmen, my dear, you will not have Jonathan for your husband? You do +not know what you are saying," cried Agatha. + +"Yes, I do, Sister Agatha," answered Carmen, quickly, her large +lustrous eyes gleaming with a dangerous light. "Do you know how you +feel when you come in contact with a reptile, a snake? When I was a +little girl, on my father's plantation, I saw one day, under an +aloe-tree, what I thought was a green twig; and when I grasped it, it +was a cold, clammy snake, which, in a moment, twined itself around my +arm. I could not scream for terror; but Sarah, my mother's faithful +slave, saw it. She tore the viper from my arm, and flung it far away, +among the bushes. Sister Agatha, when Brother Jonathan comes near me, +I feel the same shiver go through, and the same feeling of horror +almost paralyzes my limbs. I could not endure to have him near me +always. I could not say to him, 'My husband'--no, not for all the +world!" + +Carmen grew more and more excited as she went on. + +"Perhaps not for all the world," interposed Agatha; "but for your own +salvation you must do it. Do not thrust the safety of your soul from +you in this way. As Brother Jonathan's wife, you will be a partaker of +his holy life and good works. We are not put into this world to please +ourselves, but to further the progress of the kingdom of God." + +"Oh, Sister Agatha, believe me, I will become a nurse for the sick, and +bear all the hardships and trials of such a vocation; only spare +me--spare me this one thing! I cannot give myself to Brother Jonathan. +You must not--you dare not require it of me!" cried the girl, bursting +into tears. + +"No, Carmen, I will not compel you, although it grieves me for your +sake," said Agatha. "Go, now, and on your knees examine your heart, +lest you may refuse that which is intended for your greatest good." +And kissing Carmen, she dismissed her. + +The hours wore on, and still Sister Agatha remained lost in thought, +wondering what new ideas had been put into that young head. "Perhaps +she was right. Vanity and pride! How frightful the words sound! We +never know ourselves as well as we do others; so, after all, the child +has given me a good lesson. I must look into my own heart more +thoroughly, and be more severe with myself, before I presume to advise +and guide other people. Lord, help me to a right knowledge of my duty +to Thee!" + +She extinguished the light, and sought repose from her anxieties. + + + + +CHAPTER V. + +A week passed quietly by, and the excitement caused by Brother Daniel's +departure had given place to the usual monotonous religious routine. +During this time things had gone badly with Adele. Self-control and +obedience were things entirely new to her, and she felt by no means +attracted towards the young girls about her, always excepting Carmen. +The predilection which her mother had shown for the latter had quickly +communicated itself to the daughter, and Carmen, in return, feeling +that she could never be sufficiently grateful to Frau von Trautenau for +her kindness, showed every possible favor to Adele. This young lady's +naturally vivacious and merry disposition, which was not at all subdued +by the calm seriousness which surrounded her, proved a great source of +amusement to Carmen. She gladly reciprocated the warm affection +lavished upon her by the petted heiress, and every letter which reached +Wolmershain teemed with the pleasure the two friends took in each +other's society. Adele told how Carmen had passed her eighteenth +birthday, and now wore pink instead of red; how Carmen had undertaken +to teach some of the English classes, and how all the girls loved their +new teacher, etc., etc. + +Carmen's natural cheerfulness had not been disturbed by the +communication Sister Agatha had made to her in regard to Brother +Jonathan. The morning after, Sister Agatha asked if she had considered +the matter well, and prayed over it; to which Carmen answered in the +affirmative, but persisted in her positive refusal; to which Brother +Jonathan submitted with apparent calmness. If he felt at all +mortified, he certainly exerted immense self-control, for he seemed the +same as usual, and his voice was clear and firm; so that Agatha felt +sure that it was only his great unselfishness which had prompted him to +entertain the idea. + +His profession took him frequently to the Sisters' house, but when +there he had intercourse only with the nurses and patients. 'Tis true +he now came oftener than formerly, and at more irregular hours, on the +plea of looking after this or that which he had forgotten; but as he, +with silent tread, passed along through the halls, he seldom met any of +the Sisters, and Carmen never. + +To-day had been rainy and wet, but towards evening the sky cleared up, +and Carmen led little Frieda home from the school-house. On her return +she took a roundabout path, and slackened her usually fleet steps to +enjoy the fresh, balmy spring air. She passed into a lonely lane, +bordered on either side with beautiful gardens, whose hedges were +unfolding their first blossoms, filling the air with sweetest perfume. +As she stooped to pick some lovely violets which peeped up from the +wayside, she, all at once, felt as if some one was standing behind her, +although no footfall had reached her ear. She raised herself hastily +from her stooping posture, and as she did so, felt a man's strong arm +passed around her, and in another second she was pressed violently to +his breast. She strove to cry out for help, but voice and tongue +failed her, as she turned and met Brother Jonathan's burning glance; +and there seemed to thrill through her, under the touch of his arm, the +same creeping, numbing horror that she felt when the snake coiled about +her arm. But how changed he looked! His whole countenance seemed +lighted up by a new expression, and eager, passionate words poured from +his lips. + +"Carmen, so young, so warm-hearted, why can you not respond to a love +which is offered to you with all the intensity of a true heart? You +see in me only the grave, elderly man who wants you for his wife, and +therefore you reject him. But, Carmen, under this calm exterior you +will find an ardent lover, who desires to win you, that he may make for +you a heaven on earth, and fill your life with such unutterable bliss +as you have never dreamed of. Oh, Carmen, do not say me nay; but lay +your lovely head upon my breast, and believe that my heart throbs +wildly and deeply for you only. Look in my eyes, and let the love you +read there serve to kindle a like feeling in you. Have you forgotten +that we must love one another, we Brothers and Sisters? Give me your +love, then, my darling, and say you will be mine!" + +Rendered powerless to move by his pitiless embrace, she seemed like a +little bird doomed to death by the irresistible fascination of a +serpent. Quickly, passionately, his hot breath scorching her bloodless +lips, he kissed her again and again. With a sudden powerful effort she +tore herself from his arms, retreated a few steps, and turning on him a +countenance ablaze with scorn and indignation, she cried: + +"Back, villain! How dare you venture to insult me thus? Approach one +step nearer, and I will cry out so that heaven and earth will fly to my +succor." + +She stood before him, so proud and haughty, so intensely excited, that +he dared not venture farther. + +"I will not approach you again, Carmen, if it displeases you; and +forgive my violence just now," he pleaded earnestly. "But promise to +give yourself to me, Carmen; you are not by nature cold; you will, you +must return my love. Let me teach you what real happiness is; you may +imagine it, but you cannot come near the reality." + +The girl was silent; this antipathy to Jonathan was as old as her +memory. In Jamaica he had been an object of aversion to her, yet she +could give no definite reason for this deeply-rooted dislike. Every +one spoke so highly of him that she often blamed herself for not +feeling more kindly towards one who enjoyed the respect and esteem of +the whole community. His piety and temperate habits, his humility and +devotion to his work, were conspicuous even here. Of late, he had been +particularly friendly towards Carmen, which seemed a very natural +thing, he having been such an old friend of her father's. But his +increased kindness only awoke a greater dislike in the girl, so that +she tried in every way to escape an avowal from him of his feelings. +She did not consider her refusal to marry him a matter of much +importance, as she concluded his offer had arisen only from a desire to +transfer his friendship from the father to the daughter. His +unexpected outburst of passion alarmed her, although in her childish +innocence, she did not fully understand why she felt so deeply +insulted. The thought that he had given her a love which she could not +return made her fearful of hurting his feelings in some way beyond her +comprehension, and she endeavored to subdue her anger sufficiently to +answer him. + +"Forgive me if I wound you, Brother Jonathan, but I cannot help it. I +do not love you as you desire, and I neither deserve nor wish that you +should have such a warm feeling for me." + +"Carmen, you surely cannot mean what you say. I have taken you by +surprise. Calm yourself, and do not make this a final decision." He +attempted to approach her again, but the maiden shrank back from him in +terror. + +"I cannot do otherwise," she said firmly. "Now let me, I pray, go on +my way in peace. Sister Agatha must be waiting for me." + +At the mention of the Sister's name, Jonathan gave an anxious glance at +Carmen. It flashed on his mind what fearful consequences might result +from his conduct. He remembered the law of the Brotherhood, which +required that the members must report the slightest departure from +strict morality in any one of their number, so that the delinquent be +reprimanded and excluded once or twice from the monthly celebration of +the Communion. Should he give evidence of repentance, and return to +the right path, he might be restored to his usual privileges; but if he +should not acknowledge his fault, he must absent himself from the +society of others, and, in an extreme case, be banished from the +Brotherhood. + +Brother Jonathan, heretofore so strict, and spotless in his reputation, +to be publicly accused and admonished! What an appalling example of +fallen greatness! + +At the mention of Agatha's name, he endeavored to resume his habitual +calmness. He passed his hand over his eyes, as if to blot out the +remembrance of the passion which yet burned within him, and gradually +regained, in voice and manner, a more collected mien. + +"You have seen, dear Sister, how our passions sometimes get the mastery +over us, and how vain are our efforts to subdue them, even though we +have devoted ourselves to a religious life!" said he, in an humble +tone. "If you cannot give me your love, you can at least be silent +about my feeling towards you, and forget what has just occurred, and +for which I shall ask pardon from Heaven." + +Carmen looked at him, with a feeling of pity. She had brought so much +trouble to this man that the thought of it did much towards dissipating +her ill-will towards him. With tears in her eyes, she said: "Be easy +about that, Brother Jonathan. I will not betray you. Forget this +hour, as I will try to forget it." + +Then turning away, she hurried, as fast as her feet would carry her, to +the safe shelter of the Sisters' house. + +From this time forth, Carmen's peace of mind was gone. Her aversion to +Jonathan was outweighed by her fear of him. His hot, ardent nature had +broken bounds so violently and ungovernably that she could not feel at +all sure it was so quickly subdued. A deep sense of desolation, came +over her. Her mother, lying in the grave, far away on a sea-girt +island, under a tropical sun; her father, in all likelihood murdered, +and buried in some foreign land; and she living among strangers, with +whom she found it utterly impossible to feel any congeniality! She +avoided Brother Jonathan, and he seemed to shun her no less +assiduously. He had absented himself from one Communion; explaining +his conduct by expressing an unusual sense of his own unworthiness. +His calculations were well made: Carmen pitied him sincerely on account +of the deep remorse he seemed to feel. How could her pure mind imagine +it was all hypocrisy! In the house where he lived with the other +unmarried Brothers, he maintained the same pious, serious demeanor as +heretofore. His patients received the same care and attention as +formerly, but he looked haggard and care-worn, and Thomas, his faithful +attendant, whom he had brought with him from the New World, would often +hear him groan heavily in the night, as if some secret grief preyed on +his mind. + +Carmen could not witness his misery unmoved. Since the unfortunate +incident connected with him, her life among the Sisters had become +doubly oppressive to her. Like a welcome release from her unpleasant +surroundings came a request from Frau von Trautenau that Sister Agatha +would permit Adele and her dear Carmen to spend Whitsuntide with her at +Wollmershain; an invitation which Agatha gladly accepted for her pupils. + +Wollmershain was a large, beautiful estate, which, upon the death of +its owner, had become the joint property of Adele and her brothers; and +Frau von Trautenau had resided there since her widowhood, and proposed +to continue doing so until one of her sons should buy his sister's and +brother's portion and assume the management of it. The relations +between Frau von Trautenau and her step-son had always been of the most +happy and agreeable kind; he honored and loved his step-mother, who had +brought him up with the greatest possible care and affection; and she, +in return placed implicit confidence in his opinions and advice, making +him her chief counsellor since her husband's death. + +Into this beautiful home-life Carmen now entered, as if into a new +world. Whereas, the affection between the Brothers and Sisters in the +"community" had always appeared to her in the austere light of a duty, +here it seemed like a natural impulse, springing spontaneously from the +depths of warm and loving hearts. + +In all the arrangements of the house and grounds, the idea of the +beautiful, in connection with the comfortable and useful, was +everywhere prominent. + +The lofty, well-lighted rooms, adorned and furnished with elegant +simplicity; the smooth green lawns, bordered with lovely flowers of +every hue; the magnificent avenues of grand old trees, and the +innumerable, lovely little nooks to be found here and there in the +park, all breathed a charm which reminded Carmen of what she dimly +remembered about her father's plantation and hacienda in Jamaica. + +Alexander and Hans were also at home for the holidays; and while Adele +rambled with the latter through park and garden, Carmen, who shyly +avoided Alexander, was entertained by her hostess, to whose warm +motherly nature the girl was attracted with genuine, childlike +heartiness. It was indeed her society, more than anything else, which +contributed to Carmen's happiness at Wollmershain, for she felt +embarrassed in this new kind of life; and the remarks which her +peculiar dress occasioned were especially annoying. To avoid being +conspicuous, she had already laid aside the white cap; but her beauty, +enhanced by the coils of glossy hair which crowned her queenly little +head, was so remarkable, so foreign-looking and striking, that she +seemed like some rare exotic which, in all the luxuriance of its +loveliness, had been transplanted from the land of palms to our colder +soil. There was in her manner an odd mixture of pride and humility, +dignity and modesty, which gave her all the reserve of a woman and the +winsomeness of a child. Perhaps it was the knowledge of the fact that +the peculiarities of the Sisters elicited so much ridicule from the +world that caused her to use her pride as a defence and a weapon, when +in company with any one save Frau von Trautenau. She always seemed +ready to do battle with Alexander, and yet he had never by word or deed +given cause for such a feeling. + +"She is full of pluck and mettle like a thoroughbred horse!" said old +General von Bergen, who, with his daughter and his adjutant, had come +up from the barracks on a visit. "It is a pleasure to provoke her; her +eyes light up so. Pohlen," he said, turning to the adjutant, "you +seemed to be unfortunate in your remarks to her during dinner; those +lovely lips curled as scornfully as if you had seriously offended her, +and her great eyes glowed like fire, as she looked away off, over your +head." + +The gentleman addressed laughed as if amused. "And yet I only ventured +on some complimentary speeches. I asked if all the Creoles were as +beautiful as herself. That was surely flattering enough, and I think +this little Moravian ought, by this time, to possess some of the +humility they pride themselves so much on, and not toss her head so +haughtily and look at me so contemptuously." + +The gentlemen were comfortably smoking in the veranda, after dinner; +and Alexander, who sat on the steps, half hidden by a large +syringa-bush in full bloom, flushed deeply at Pohlen's words. In a +sharp tone of reprimand, he said: + +"My friend, Creole is a term which is not at all agreeable to some +people; for the rest, flattery is often another name for insult; +perhaps the young lady considered yours as such." + +"Do you think so?" drawled out Pohlen. "That is altogether a new thing +to me. A lady of higher quality would at least have known how to +receive homage offered to her; and a second time I will not put up with +a rebuff from this Moravian girl, but will treat her as she does me." + +Alexander colored with anger, and his blood boiled. It was only by a +powerful effort that he controlled himself sufficiently to answer in a +tolerably calm voice: + +"A lady of higher quality? Higher quality presupposes greater merit, +and you will do well to bear in mind, Herr von Pohlen, that this lady +is my mother's guest, and, as such, is under my most special +protection. Any mortification or insult inflicted on her is also +inflicted on me." + +"Gentlemen, I beg the conversation may not become serious, but retain +the bantering tone in which I began it. Let what has been said lead to +nothing unpleasant," interrupted the general, in a pacifying manner. +"Herr von Pohlen will, of course, remember what he owes to the inmates +of this hospitable mansion. You two fortunate knights must vie with +each other as to who shall win the favor of this young maiden, who is +as beautiful as a dream. For myself, I lament nothing so much as my +sixty years, which prevent me from entering the lists with you." + +Alexander rose as the old man finished speaking, and as he passed down +the steps, said: + +"If agreeable, let us find the ladies now, General; they are, I think, +awaiting us on the lawn." + +He paused abruptly, for at the foot of the steps stood Carmen, as if +irresolute whether to advance or withdraw. She had evidently heard the +foregoing conversation, for she was very pale and trembled slightly. +The young officer descended quickly toward her, as she raised her head, +and calmly waited for him to pass. As he came up to where she stood, +she whispered softly: + +"I thank you!" and a gentle glance from the beautiful black eyes +thrilled him with pleasure. Then seeing the other gentlemen preparing +to descend also, her face became suffused with blushes. + +"I came to find a cushion for Frau von Trautenau," she remarked +confusedly. + +"Allow me, Fraulein Carmen, to take it to my mother," said Alexander, +coming to her assistance; and he ran back, upstairs, as she hastened +away. + +Games were now arranged on the lawn, and Fraulein von Bergen, a merry +maiden, soon had every one actively engaged in them. There were +familiar ones, which Carmen had often played at school with the +day-pupils; but how different they seemed here, when the gentlemen took +part in them! Carmen could never have been as unrestrained as the +general's daughter; but she laughed merrily and enjoyed it all, +contenting herself with allowing Adele to catch her, and carefully +avoiding any contact with the others. + +After a while a drop of rain fell, then another, and at last a hard +shower drove the party from the open air into the drawing-room; but the +spirit of merriment had been aroused, and sitting down quietly was not +to be thought of. + +"Come, papa, lead out your war-horse to the front!" urged the general's +daughter; and the old gentleman good-naturedly seated himself at the +piano and began thrumming the one, solitary piece he could play--a +lively galop. Herr von Pohlen seized Fraulein von Bergen, Hans his +sister, and the two couples went whirling through the mazes of the +dance. + +Carmen looked on with sparkling eyes; a bright flush of happiness +colored her cheek, her little foot involuntarily beat time, and her +lithe form swayed to and fro with a dreamy, rhythmical movement. + +"Will you not dance also?" asked Alexander, close beside her. + +"Oh, I would like to, above all things!" she replied with a lovely +smile, her eyes still fixed on the dancers. "How delightful it must be +to whirl around so!" + +"Will you not try it with me, Fraulein Carmen?" he urged pleadingly. + +"I cannot dance; at least, not like that!" she returned, turning her +beaming countenance towards him. + +"Oh, it is very easily learned; just trust yourself to my guidance. +Put your hand on my shoulder, if you please, and with my arm I will +hold you firmly as we move around;" saying which, he proceeded to put +his arm about her waist. But she drew back, and gave him a horrified +look. As yet, no man's arm had encircled her--except Brother +Jonathan's, during that one dreadful moment of her life. + +"I cannot do it--no, it is quite impossible!" she stammered. + +"Then you must pardon me for making the attempt," said Alexander, and +bowed coolly. + +"Refused!" whispered Pohlen, mockingly, when he stopped dancing, for he +had seen Alexander's defeat. + +"Yes; but as she knows _how_ to refuse, it is perhaps more to be +appreciated than when others accept," he replied. + +When the family separated for the night, and Carmen had as usual given +her hand to her hostess, Adele, and Hans, she hesitated a second, and +then, with a burning blush mantling her cheek, extended her hand to +Alexander. Heretofore she had persistently avoided him; but to-day he +had proved himself her friend and protector, and she felt that some +reparation was due him for her rudeness in the past. + +As she held out the little hand, and wished him "Good-night," she gave +him a pleading glance, as if to say, "Do not be angry with me!" + +His countenance lighted up with surprise and pleasure. Her eyes, so +fascinating when flashing with indignation, now seemed irresistible +when moistened by a gentler emotion; and as he looked into their dark, +unfathomable depths, he felt as if he would like to gaze forever. But +her eyes fell before his ardent glance, and bowing low over the +proffered hand, he kissed it respectfully, feeling as honored as if a +queen had allowed him the privilege. + +From this night Carmen's intercourse with Alexander assumed a much more +friendly character; but was, of course, very brief, as only two more +days remained ere the pleasant party at Wollmershain would be broken +up, and Adele and Carmen return to their duties. + + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +"Dear old home! At last I see you again!" exclaimed a lonely +traveller, as he stood leaning on his staff, and viewed the scene +before him. He took off his hat, and folded his hands as if in silent +thanksgiving. Footsore and weary he seemed to have paused here to +refresh himself with the sight of a place so dear to him. + +There lay the little Moravian settlement, bathed in the soft glow of a +summer sunset. Bright clouds reflected a golden radiance on the +pointed roofs and windows, and trembled on the bosom of the little +stream, which, with gentle murmur, flowed at the stranger's feet. The +dark shadows of the hills extended down into the valley opening on his +right, and from the evening mist peeped out the old mill, which he +remembered so well. On the meadows around the alder-pond, the evening +fog wreathed itself into fairy forms, and the fragrance of new-mown hay +was borne on the breeze. + +It was a lovely, peaceful picture, and seemed to affect the man very +deeply. And yet he had been in the midst of far grander, more sublime, +more beautiful scenery than this! He had crossed the ocean, and +revelled in the contemplation of its grandeur. He had dwelt under +tropical skies, palms and magnolias shading his home, and the boundless +riches of the West Indian world poured out at his feet. He had looked +upon the sacred waters of the Ganges, and gazed in wonder on the +temples of Benares; had traversed "the home of the snows" on the +Himalayas; and the ice crown of the Dhawalagiri had frowned on him, +gigantic and mystical, as he sojourned in the green valleys below, rich +with banana-groves and rice fields. He had wandered over Mongolian +steppes, and the stars of heaven had watched over him as he lay in the +tent of the nomad; but never, through all, had the yearning for home +been quenched within him. + +"Home!" How the word recalls long-lost memories! The mother's gentle +smile, the father's loving word, as when, in childhood's happy hours, +we sought the beloved shelter at evening, and betook ourselves to +innocent slumbers; and, although the child grows to be the gray-haired +man, yet the sweet memories of peace and love never fade from his +heart. What changes life brings to us! Thirty years ago this worn, +weary traveller emigrated to the New World. Then he was young, +courageous, filled with all the bright hopes which a new life spread +out before him. What happiness he had known since then; what sorrow he +had passed through; and ah, what guilt and remorse he had borne! + +And now he was back again--the tall, erect form so bowed down. Was it +sorrow, guilt, or exhaustion from the journey? The once sunny locks +were white as the snow on the mountains; in the large blue eyes alone +there were still some signs of his former self remaining. "Here is the +dear old place at last!" he murmured to himself, and his bosom heaved +with suppressed emotion. The longer he gazed, the more difficult he +found it to control his feelings, until finally he gave way, and wept +like a child. + +Meanwhile the brilliant hues of sunset had faded away, and with the +approaching shadows of night the wind rose and played around the +stranger's hoary head. + +"It must be about nine o'clock now, the hour for evening prayer, and +everything will go on just as in the old days, for there is nothing to +create a change here. I will go in, and ask if my child yet lives; and +if so, there may be one to rejoice at my return." Thus soliloquizing, +he put his hat on again, slung his wallet over his shoulder, and +supporting himself on his stout staff, approached the house. Very few +changes had occurred since he had left. A few new houses had been +erected, but the old ones remained unaltered, even the one where he had +formerly lived. He had inherited it from his father, and had carried +on the linen trade there until he left with his first wife for the New +World. + +The congregation were returning from the chapel. Here and there a +group would gather before one or other of the dwellings, to enjoy the +mild summer night; and as the old man passed along he greeted a Brother +or a Sister, and they returned it kindly, but like strangers. No one +recognized him, although many looked after him curiously as he +staggered feebly on towards the Sisters' house. + +"That is not the Brothers' house, dear Brother," said a young man, +addressing him. + +"Yes, I know it. But I know where I am going," he replied, as if +pleased to find the different roads so familiar to him. Then he pulled +the bell at the Sisters' door, and requested to speak with Agatha. + +He was ushered into the sitting-room, and as Sister Agatha entered, +recognized her at the first glance. + +"Sister, does Carmen Mauer still live, and is she here?" he asked, +trembling with intense suspense. + +The speaker must once have been a very handsome man. He bore evidences +of it to-day, although deep sorrow and bodily as well as mental +suffering had set its seal on his face and left deep furrows there. +The burning suns of many climes had bronzed his skin, so that the +large, clear blue eyes shone forth like stars. + +Agatha looked at him inquiringly, and the more she looked the more +perplexed she became. "Carmen lives here in this house," she answered, +at length. "Can it be possible that you are--" + +"Brother Mauer, who you have thought was dead ages ago," he replied +falteringly. + +"Heaven be praised!" cried Agatha, and sank into a chair. The surprise +was almost too great for her; but regaining her self-control in a +measure, she cordially pressed his outstretched hand, and led him to a +seat, saying: "Let me go and bring Carmen at once, and you shall clasp +your child to your heart without delay." + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + +Sister Agatha lost not a moment. "Rejoice, dear Carmen," she said. "A +Brother has just arrived who brings intelligence that your father still +lives!" And with a most unwonted excitement in her manner, she led +Carmen to the door of the sitting-room. Tremblingly the girl entered, +and saw by the clear light of the lamp an old, bent man who had, at +this moment, no power to rise to his feet, but could only stretch out +his longing arms to his dearly-loved daughter. The next moment she lay +sobbing on his breast. The child had not forgotten the sweet +expression of those eyes, and she read in the dear features the fact +that she was not an orphan. + +"Father! my dear, dear father!" + +His eyes bedewed her brow with tears of joy as with loving tones he +murmured again and again: "My child! my darling!" In her warm embrace +he again felt the happiness which had been denied him during so many +weary years. After a little while, he gently turned her face up +towards him, and examined her features. + +"Just like Inez! You are your mother over again, as I first saw her +under the palms and fell in love with her. In you I have found both of +my lost ones!" he said, and he smiled through happy tears. + +"You will stay with me now, dear father? You will never leave me +again?" she asked anxiously. + +"Yes, I will remain here, Carmen, in the dear old home, where I have +come, a worn-out pilgrim to rest." + +"Poor father! how much you must have endured, working so far away from +us all! You have been all alone, no one to succor or help you; and +nothing has been heard of you for so long; all efforts to find you have +proved useless," said Carmen, as she lovingly stroked the withered +cheek. "You had vanished so utterly that they all gave you up as dead; +only my heart could never believe it. Why have you never sent us any +tidings?" + +"I did indeed send some, my child, but they never reached you. I was +on the banks of the Ganges at the time, but shortly afterwards I went +farther into the country, towards the north, attempting to penetrate a +defile in the Himalayas. There the savages seized me and made me a +slave. For years I have served in the most menial and degrading +capacity; my tired back often bruised with their lashes, and only the +stony ground on which to rest. At length I escaped on horseback, and +succeeded in reaching the Mongolian steppes. There I have been +wandering about, with various tribes, for two years; have tended their +flocks and performed the commonest labor; all the time trying to teach +them the Gospel. But only the spirit of unrest reigned within me, and +an intense longing impelled me to turn my face homeward. So I took my +staff and passed on foot through Siberia, into Russia, begging my way +from door to door. I, who possess hundreds of thousands! Finally I +reached Sarepta, ragged and barefooted, and almost dead from +exhaustion. There the Brothers wanted me to remain with them, to be +nursed and cared for; but this uncontrollable longing did not suffer me +to tarry. After reaching Europe I felt as if I was on the threshold of +home, and I grew more impatient than ever. I obtained a loan of money +from the Brothers, and was thus enabled to ride the rest of the +journey, and get some suitable clothing; but I sickened on the road and +was forced to lay up in a Polish town, where I remained until nearly +all my money was gone. Afterwards I was again obliged to travel on +foot--and here I am. Now all will go well, since I am again at home," +he concluded, smiling contentedly at the last thought. + +Sister Agatha had, meanwhile, brought refreshments for the weary old +man. What a heart-felt joy, this first meal with his daughter in the +old familiar room! And how much he had to relate, while regaling +himself, of wonders and adventures in distant lands! It was very late +when, strengthened by the good cheer, and comforted by the presence of +his child, he bade good-night to Carmen and Sister Agatha, and betook +himself to the lodging-house to seek repose. + + * * * * * * + +"Have you heard the news? Brother Mauer, whom we thought dead and +buried, is here!" passed from lip to lip in the settlement the next +morning. The wonderful event occupied every mind, and filled the +Brothers and Sisters with amazement. But no one except Carmen had seen +him as yet. He had slept until near noon, recovering some of his lost +strength, and his daughter had sat quietly watching by him during the +whole morning, so that his first waking glance might fall on her. +Afterwards they took breakfast together in his room, each recounting +the occurrences of the past years, and drawing happy plans for the +future. He proposed to buy a house in the settlement, and Carmen +should keep house for him, nothing but death ever separating them again. + +Carmen's heart grew light as a bird. She was so delighted to have her +father restored to her--so happy in the security of a love which would +always shelter and protect her! It would shield her even against +Brother Jonathan's love, which was so abhorrent to her; and she took +counsel with herself whether or no it would be best to tell the old man +all the terror she had suffered a short time before. Truly a promise +of silence had been given; but ought she not to make her father an +exception? She could not see clearly what was the right thing to do, +and therefore resolved not to mention Jonathan at all. + +The latter had gone on a short journey a few days previously, and she +would thus have time to consider the matter, and wait for some quieter +hour in which to make her disclosure. + +In the afternoon, when service was held in the chapel, everybody +hastened thither, intent upon seeing Brother Mauer, and hearing about +his mission work and adventures. He sat among the widowers; devoutly +singing, his eyes cast down, as if he felt that all eyes were gazing +upon him. + +When the hymn was ended, the principal elders and teachers came up to +Mauer, greeting him with cordial hand-shakings, and leading him, with +words of hearty welcome, to a more prominent seat, from which he could +address the congregation. He bore himself with a firmer carriage +to-day, and the dignity of his tall figure was more conspicuous than on +the evening before. With a happy smile, he let his glance roam over +the assembly of Brothers and Sisters, many of whom were unknown to him; +indeed, the large majority were strange, yet he held each and all dear, +as forming a part of his home surroundings. As he passed up the aisle, +between the two elders who conducted him, the door of the chapel +opened, and a tardy member entered. It was Brother Jonathan Fricke. +His manner was even humbler than usual, and his eyes wandered +restlessly around: perhaps he had heard of Brother Mauer's arrival, and +was looking for him. In the centre of the aisle, which was filled with +people, he met the three men. Jonathan's glance fell on the tall form +of his old friend; he stretched out his hand, and said in a low voice: + +"Do the dead rise, Brother Michael?" + +Mauer shrank back at the words; and as he recognized the speaker he +grew deathly pale, his eyes dilated with an expression of horror, and +he staggered forward. + +"You here?" he asked hoarsely, and fell to the ground. + +A general confusion ensued. It seemed but natural that the numerous +greetings should have exhausted the over-weary traveller; and then the +reunion with his old friend--it really had been too much for his +strength, and the general feeling of sympathy grew deeper. + +As they carried him away Carmen, followed to his room; and after long, +untiring efforts the old man at last began to revive. Carmen begged +that she might be left alone with him, so that when he came fully to +himself he might be undisturbed and see no one but her, at the same +time declining all offers of medical assistance from Brother Jonathan. + +The girl seated herself by the bedside; and when her father opened his +eyes, she noticed he looked anxiously around and then whispered: + +"Child, who was that I last saw in the chapel and who spoke to me?" + +"Do not trouble yourself, dear father. It was only your old friend, +Jonathan Fricke," replied Carmen, soothingly, holding his hand in hers. +She felt a shiver run through him as she mentioned the name. + +"I did not know that he was here," he said with a groan. + +"Can I help you in any way, dear father?" his daughter asked. "Are you +in pain?" + +He shook his head in reply, and lay quite still, with closed eyes. +After a long time he looked again at Carmen in a troubled, sorrowful +way, and sighed deeply. "Tell me about him," he murmured. "I thought +he was still in Bethlehem, in America; how came he here, and how long +has he been among you?" + +She told him everything, save the one horrible incident that haunted +her memory. His extreme agitation made her silent on that point. When +she ceased speaking, all was silence in the apartment except the soft +ticking of the clock. Occasionally a deeply drawn breath reached +Carmen's ear; her father had turned his face to the wall, and was so +quiet and motionless that she hoped he had fallen asleep from +exhaustion. Suddenly he began to whisper to himself: + +"The old, old story, which will never die! The idea of home, with its +sweet repose and calm blessedness, was only a delusion after all!" + +"What do you mean, father?" asked Carmen, bending over him. He closed +his eyes wearily; and she noiselessly resumed her seat near him. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. + +The next day Mauer was still so entirely unnerved and overcome by the +events of the day before that it was with the greatest difficulty he +rose from the bed; and yet it was intolerable misery to remain there. +All Carmen's persuasions were of no avail; he insisted on getting up +and dressing; but was quite unable to leave the house, and required the +most perfect quietness. She tried to divert his mind, by gentle, +cheerful conversation, from the sad, gloomy thoughts which seemed to +oppress him. It made the girl's tender heart ache, as she looked into +his unutterably sad face, which only yesterday was beaming with such +great joy. + +At ten o'clock Jonathan came to pay a friendly visit. Fortunately +Carmen, who was standing at the window, saw him coming across the +street towards the house, and warning her father of the approaching +visit, she could see how he started with terror at the information. +But he soon controlled himself, and said in a resigned tone: "Let him +come in. The sooner I get through all the meetings and greetings, the +sooner I will have some rest. I must grow accustomed to seeing him, +and I feel stronger to-day than yesterday. I have not seen him before, +since your dear mother died, Carmen, and life has been one long +unbroken sorrow since then." She made a movement to leave the room, so +that the meeting between the friends should be private, but Mauer held +her back and pleaded: "Stay with me, my child," as if he could not bear +to have her out of his sight. + +When Jonathan entered, he stood for a moment near the door, and his +eyes sought to read the expression of the sick man's face. The latter +sat with his head resting against the sofa-cushion, and his deep-sunken +eyes fixed beseechingly on the visitor, as if saying, "Spare me!" + +"Good-morning Brother Mauer!" cried Jonathan. "Are you feeling better +to-day?" He held out his hand, into which the other placed his +hesitatingly, and would have quickly withdrawn it had not Jonathan held +it fast as he said: + +"Let me feel your pulse. You are still very much fatigued, and your +hand is as cold as ice." + +"Thank you, Brother Jonathan," said the invalid; "I think perfect rest +is the best remedy. I have borne many heavy burdens, dear Brother, +which have weighed me down intolerably; and now that the Lord has led +me home again, let your pity and sympathy be with me on account of all +I have suffered." + +"Certainly, Brother Michael; it cannot be otherwise. Your return has +been a matter of great rejoicing with us all," replied Jonathan. "But +I must give you a prescription, that you may gain your strength more +quickly. Do not talk too much to-day; some time, later on, you must +give us an account of your travels." With these words, he turned to +Carmen with a searching look, as if to divine how far he might trust to +her silence. She purposely avoided his eye, and remained standing at +the window. + +"I will make your father well again, if you will be kind to me in +return," he said with emphasis. + +Then she was compelled to turn and speak. This man ruled her, in spite +of her dislike. + +"If you can do anything for my father, Brother Jonathan, you will +please not consider me in the matter, but do it for God's sake and your +own," she replied calmly. + +He drew a chair up to the table, and, seating himself, wrote a +prescription which he handed to Carmen. + +"Have that prepared at once, dear Sister," he said, "and give it to +your father according to the directions; it will benefit him very much. +You know, Brother Michael, my remedies are very powerful." A peculiar, +sarcastic expression played around his mouth as he spoke, and Carmen, +whose quick eye perceived it, wondered what he was ridiculing. Was it +her anxiety about her father, or was it the old man's weakness? But it +came and went like a flash, and he resumed his usual manner as he rose +to leave, saying to Mauer: "Adieu, Brother. May the Lord keep you and +give you a speedy recovery!" + +"I will have the medicine prepared at once, father," said Carmen, +heaving a sigh of relief as the door closed behind the physician. But +when she looked at the old man, a chill of anguish struck through her +heart, for she saw how he had clasped his hands before his face, to +hide the big tears which were trickling between his fingers. + + * * * * * * + +Many days passed quietly away after Jonathan's visit. Carmen's +soothing, cheering influence seemed to have somewhat allayed her +father's nervousness, and a calmer, more equable mood seemed to have +come over him, as his state of health daily improved. But the nameless +shadow of a hidden grief seemed to hang over him. For his wants he +needed but little; self-denial and sacrifice had grown to be a second +nature to him, his one earthly wish seeming to be to have a house where +he and Carmen could live alone together; but as regards others, he was +open-handed and generous to help wherever it was needed. It was a very +difficult matter to find just the right dwelling to suit his taste, so +he finally concluded to build, renting in the meantime a comfortable +suite of apartments for himself, while Carmen continued to live as +heretofore in the Sisters' house; giving the smaller children a few +hour's instruction, and passing the rest of the day with her father. +She had regained all her vivacity of manner, for she considered her +dear father her protector and support; little guessing that it was, in +reality, quite the contrary, as he looked to her as his stay on which +to lean. When alone with him, she allowed her naturally gay humor to +have full sway, and he would smile contentedly when he heard her +exquisite voice warbling forth, now a hymn, now a Spanish love-song, or +when he saw her feet, as if inspired, try a half-forgotten Spanish +dance, which seemed like a greeting to him from that tropical world +where he had loved and suffered. Sometimes she would caress him with +pretty, fascinating ways, as if her heart longed to lavish on him all +the tenderness which had been gathering intensity during all the long +years of separation. + +"You are so like Inez! Gay and merry, like her," he would say with +emotion, his eyes beaming with love. Thus she would succeed in +charming away, for a few moments at least, the shadow which rested ever +on his brow; and this success gave her a pure happiness she had never +known before. + +As the invalid grew stronger, every one hastened to visit him. The +elders wanted a full account of his missionary work in Mongolia, and of +the religious condition of the heathen in Bengal and the Himalayas; so +Mauer was at last obliged to consent to give a public narration of his +experiences. This could not fail to give him a certain degree of +importance in the settlement, and it was suggested that he be elected +to some public office. But he divested their minds of any such +thought, and desired to be allowed a quiet and retired life; he was too +modest and reserved to put himself forward at any time, and now +anything like publicity was positively painful to him. Even when +chatting socially with old friends, he displayed more or less shyness, +and especially when Jonathan was present. + +"A strange sort of friendship!" thought Carmen, as she noticed how her +father never sought the doctor's society, but, on the contrary, seemed +to tolerate his company with a kind of bitter endurance, as if he were +in some secret way the master and Mauer the slave. Often, when +Jonathan addressed him, he would suddenly change color and an +involuntary expression of terror pass over his countenance; then the +physician's words would assume a slightly scornful tone, and Mauer +would humbly lower his eyes. + +A few days after Jonathan's visit, he inquired how the prescribed +medicine had affected him. + +"Most beneficially," replied Mauer. "I feel stronger in every way." + +"Just as I thought," said the other, smiling kindly. "I ordered +fifteen drops, but now you can begin to take twenty; that will not be +too strong--but positively not more, dear Brother." + +Mauer looked up at him with an expression of keenest anguish, and +gasped for breath; while Jonathan continued to smile at him. + +No wonder Carmen thought, "What a strange sort of friendship!" + +"It must be with my dear father as it is with me," she said to herself +by way of explanation. "He recognizes the snake-like nature in Brother +Jonathan, but dares not show it; and having been friends in early +youth, he still loves him in spite of everything." + +Weeks and months passed away. Mauer's house was in process of being +completed, and he was constantly urging the workmen to have it ready +for him as soon as possible, as he longed to be settled. + +The plan had evidently been drawn on the same simple and spacious style +of the hacienda in Jamaica, where Carmen's mother had lived. A wide, +shady veranda was to extend all around, and a broad flight of steps to +lead from it to the spacious grounds. Deep-seated windows were to open +out on the garden, and elms instead of magnolias must shade them. But +the veranda had to be given up, for, when the plan came under the +observation of the elders, a committee called on Mauer and represented +to him that such a thing would be a gross violation of the severe laws +respecting the simple style of building used in the settlement, and +would give cause for great offence. The inhabitants of the town must +be content to live without ostentation and show, abiding by the general +customs, and conducting themselves as humble members of the faith. + +"Just to think: I, an old man, was going to set such a bad example and +encourage foolish ideas!" said Mauer to his daughter, deeply mortified. +"When one has been abroad, in different lands, as I have, much that +belongs to the outside world clings to him when he gets home, and is +never so noticeable as when he mingles once more with his brethren. +The renouncing of our own will, and compliance with the wishes of +others, has all to be learned over again." + +"But," cried Carmen, impatiently, "they find impropriety in so many +things here that one must needs give up thinking, in order to please +them. The free spirit within us is so cramped and restricted that we +cease to be individuals. It is surely not necessary to make automatons +of ourselves if we wish to be good. No; we should choose the right of +our own free will, because it is right; then we will not fail to do +what is pleasing in the sight of God." + +"Free spirit within us! What do you mean by that? We are so often the +slaves of our own desires that our ideas of right and wrong get +confused, and we lose our own souls thereby," returned her father, much +agitated. "We should, therefore, never reject the path which our +religion requires us to choose, but rather submit patiently, without +arguing or any wish to rebel." + +Thus the building which had been so beautifully planned, and with so +much pleasure, turned out to be, when finished, just like all the +others. But Carmen did not bear the frustration of their cherished +hopes as calmly as the old man. Her visit to Wollmershain, although it +had not given rise to any new tastes or dislikes regarding the home +customs, had strengthened the long-buried desires which lay within her +breast, and quickened her natural spirit of resistance to the existing +state of things. Frau von Trautenau, as well as the style and manner +of life at Wollmershain, was peculiarly congenial to her taste. +Therefore, although the visit had never been repeated, she often lived +it over again in her thoughts, and in speaking with her father always +referred enthusiastically to persons and things there. One day, while +describing the unrestrained and harmonious life of her new friends, the +sound of trumpets playing a hymn came wafted in through the open door. + +"Who is dead, Carmen?" asked Mauer, listening intently as he sat by the +window. "Is that not the dirge of a bachelor Brother? I remember the +air, as I do that of all our funeral hymns. How often, when suffering +under my bondage as a slave, I have thought that at my death no music +would be heard. But now I know that some day the trumpets will tell to +the other brothers when the heart of old Mauer has ceased to beat." + +"Oh, my father, you must not speak thus!" said Carmen, anxiously. "The +person for whom the music is sounding is the bachelor Brother +Christopher Yager, who died yesterday evening. He was the one who +spoke in defence of our unmarried sisters in the general council; and +now some one will have to be elected in his place." + +This election followed immediately after the funeral, the elders +casting votes for those they deemed most suitable for the position. +The majority were in favor of Jonathan Fricke, who was received with +universal satisfaction. No one was more pleased with the result than +Sister Agatha, who always depended so much on him for advice. She felt +that now, being able to entrust the affairs of her department to his +wisdom and circumspection, his piety and brotherly love, was as if she +handed her ship over to the guidance of a skilful and able captain. He +received the honor with great humility, as a duty laid upon him from +which he must not shrink, however unworthy he felt to bear the heavy +responsibility. Yet in spite of all his apparent absence of pride, +there was something about him which elicited the homage of the Sisters +as they gave their promise to be willing to trust him with their +confidence and follow his instructions. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +Notwithstanding its being the month of September, a burning July heat +prevailed, and, as a breath of wind would occasionally stir, great +clouds of dust rose from the streets and lanes of the settlement. But +in spite of the intense warmth of the sun, masons and carpenters were +busily at work on Brother Mauer's house, which was located in a +pleasant district on the outskirts of the town. From the windows on +the first floor, which stood quite high from the ground, one could +catch a fine view of the broad, sunny landscape. There was the green +meadow-land, with its duck-pond, and beyond, round the road to the old +mill in the valley, the steep path leading uphill to the graveyard, and +finally, away off towards the south, great masses of dense forest, +rising one above the other, covering the mountain-sides and shutting +out all that lay beyond. + +"So that will be your room dear father, and this one next to it mine," +said Carmen, pleasantly, as she and the old man wandered about in the +bright morning air over the grounds and through the partially finished +building which was to be their home. + +"How pretty it will be here, father! I will raise vines all around the +windows, so that, in summer, a pretty shade will fall in the rooms; and +even though we are not allowed to have any ornaments, a cabinet of +books will be here, and by the window shall stand a table with a vase +of flowers on it, while over there I will make a cosey little nook, +like the one Frau von Trautenau has in her room. And then when evening +comes, dear father, you shall sit by me, and tell me of the snow-capped +Himalayas, and the wonders of the East Indian world. Or when the lamp +is lighted, I will read to you, just as I did to Frau von Trautenau in +her dear little nook." + +"How often you speak of that lady, Carmen! Is she so very dear to +you?" asked Mauer. + +"Yes, very dear, father," she replied eagerly, and the warmth of her +feelings betrayed itself in her countenance. "She was very, very kind +to me; and with her, I, who was so lonely, felt how good it must be to +look into a mother's eyes. I could always turn to her for sympathy and +advice, feeling sure of being understood; and that was a great comfort +to me, when I thought you never would return, father. She is not grave +and austere, like our Sisters here, but is in all things noble and +good; and even though she belongs to those who are outside in the +world, yet anyone following her could not go wrong. The world!" she +continued thoughtfully. "We are all of this world as long as we live. +How can one set of people consider themselves so much better than the +others?" + +"We do not think ourselves better, child, but on a surer road to become +so," interrupted the father. "And yet, even with us, there are no +insurmountable barriers to keep us from straying into the by-paths +which lead us away from the goal!" he added, with a sigh. + +"Yes father," she said, with a fond smile. "That is just what I say. +The right way and the wrong, cross each other everywhere in life, and +we must ever be striving more and more to distinguish between them." + +"May your heart never mislead you, child!" answered the old man with +emotion. "One who has lived as long as I have, who has fallen and +endeavored to make atonement, learns to mistrust the human heart." + +"Listen, father; are not those shots?" exclaimed Carmen, excitedly, as +from a distance were heard, at this moment, several dull reports of +cannon. Closer and closer they came, mingled with the cracking of +rifles; while from the borders of the forest, on the south, clouds of +smoke ascended and curled in wreaths among the sombre pines, Mauer and +his daughter went out and took up their station on the lawn, under an +old linden-tree, from whence they could survey the scene at leisure. +In the west the sky had become overcast; black clouds were gathering in +threatening masses, and there was every indication of an approaching +storm. Low rumblings of thunder reached the ear from time to time, +together with the dull booming of artillery. + +"What a number of shots! There must be something extraordinary going +on!" exclaimed Carmen. + +"There are troops practising over yonder in the forest," said one of +the workmen, who had come out to satisfy his curiosity. "I hear they +are quartered in the village on the other side of the woods." + +Troops! What a startling circumstance! The other workmen, heretofore +so quiet and diligent, stopped their labors, and gazed with surprise +and curiosity towards the place from whence the smoke came. It was an +almost unheard-of event for soldiers to be in this neighborhood. The +Brothers, being conscienciously opposed to the use of fire-arms, had +been exempted by the government from military duty; and many a one who +left the settlement to go abroad had never seen a soldier. + +Suddenly a flash was seen among the trees, followed by a roar, this +time louder than before. Through the openings in the woods could be +seen the gay colored uniforms, at first singly, then in groups; and +finally in whole companies. Bayonets glittered in the sunlight; flags +and standards waved, and bugles sounded from the distance. + +"Oh, there they are!--the soldiers! How their weapons glitter!" cried +Carmen, in delight. "How the cavalrymen gallop to and fro, and how +their sabres shine! Just look, dear father, how splendid it is!" + +"Yes, when no blood is being shed, one can look at it from a safe +distance," said Mauer, soberly. + +"Yet I don't know but what I would be a soldier if I were a man," +replied the girl, excitedly. "It is, of course, a great sin to commit +murder; but to fight for the fatherland, that must be a noble +employment for a man. It seems to me, father, that a true man would +stand in the fight and know no fear; who would throw himself into +danger bravely, face it unflinchingly, and turn it aside by his +prowess; under whose protection the weak seek for shelter; who has, +with all his bravery, a gentle, tender heart, and a well-balanced +mind--a man father, who, like the oak, sways not when weaker trees +tremble in the storm." + +"How is it possible that you know anything about soldiers?" asked +Mauer, astonished at her enthusiasm. + +"I met some of them at Wollmershain," she replied quickly. + +"And were they such men as you describe?" + +She hesitated a moment. + +"No, not all of them. A man is not always what he ought to be." + +"Wollmershain and Frau von Trautenau: between the two, your thoughts +seem continually to wander, Carmen; everything you say springs from +that subject, or leads back to it. You seem to have received very deep +impressions; deeper, I am afraid, than is good for you." + +She did not answer. Her gaze lingered on the scene before her, +watching the troops as they began to file off from the forest. +Suddenly a large body of cavalry wheeled around from a screened corner +in the woods, and the spectacle became more and more lively. + +Carmen's face glowed with pleasure, and her eyes moved restlessly +hither and thither, as if to take in the whole picture. + +"I could sit here all day and watch them," she said. "It cannot be +late, father, is it? Sister Agatha told me, when I came away this +morning, that I must be back at eleven o'clock for something important." + +"Eleven o'clock!" replied Mauer, looking at his watch. "Why, my child, +it is almost twelve." + +Carmen sprang up quickly. "Then I must go at once. What a pity! I +want to stay so much. Adieu, dear father; I will be with you again +this afternoon." She embraced and kissed the old man, and hurried away. + +Meanwhile an unusual commotion prevailed in the Sisters' house. +Whenever two met together there was whispering going on; the hands in +the work-room rested oftener, and the heads were put together for a +softly-spoken word; the eyes wandered about with inquiring glances, or +watched the dial of the large clock that quietly ticked on in its usual +monotonous fashion. + +At last the hands pointed to the appointed hour, and eleven deliberate +strokes chimed forth; whereupon the Sisters began to issue forth from +every door, and betook themselves to the assembly-room. + +Sister Agatha and the recently elected supervisor of the unmarried +Sisters, Brother Jonathan, stood in the centre of the room, and near +them the teachers and elders. When all had entered, and an expectant +silence prevailed, Jonathan commenced an address to the congregation. + +"As you probably already know, dear Sisters, a letter has been received +from Brother Daniel, at Cape Colony, in which he informs us of his safe +arrival in the country of the Caffres. He goes on to tell how he has +met Brother Joseph Hubner and two other Brothers; and how a little band +of devout Christians has begun to spring up, which with the Lord's help +will further the work of rescuing souls from the darkness of +heathenism, and win them to the truth. It is a glorious work which +they have so piously undertaken, and blessed is every one who lends +them a helping hand. Nothing is needed in their simple life, except +one thing. They have no women to help to lighten the labor, and so +Brother Joseph begs that his wife Christina, whom he left behind, may +follow him; and Brother Daniel desires that we choose a helpmate for +him, who may be sent out in company with Sister Christina. This +request is very proper, and a beautiful field of work is thus opened +for her who will become his wife, as she will be of the greatest +assistance to her husband. We now wish, dear Sisters, to draw lots, +and thereby decide which of you is called to this honor of helping our +dear Brother in building up the faith; and we are prepared to recognize +in the result a direct expression of the Lord's will, hoping it will be +gladly and humbly obeyed." + +When Jonathan had finished speaking, and arrangements were being made +in the usual manner for the drawing, a buzz of excitement arose among +the Sisters. Suspense was written on every face, but no one showed any +fear. Custom and habit, which govern so completely the feelings of +people, prevented the Sisters from feeling wounded or alarmed at being +disposed of in this business-like manner; and therefore they allowed +the ceremony to go on with cheerful resignation. Brother Jonathan laid +down one after another of the drawn papers containing the names of the +Sisters, while Sister Agatha at the same time let the blanks which she +drew fall on the floor, waiting until she should turn up the one on +which was written Brother Daniel's name. The spirit of humility with +which it all was accepted, as coming from the Lord, stood written on +these gentle faces which bore this trial so firmly. Not a single +Sister trembled as her name was read by Brother Jonathan. About half +the list had been called in this manner, when Jonathan, unrolling +another paper, looked at it a moment in silence. He changed color, and +involuntarily hesitated; but controlling himself, read in the same calm +voice as before: "Carmen Mauer." He looked anxiously at Sister Agatha, +whose trembling fingers tried to open the folded paper which she drew. +After many futile efforts it was at last unrolled; she looked at it, +and her hand sank slowly to her side as she read: "Brother Daniel +Becker." + +Hate or love, triumph or despair: which was it that stood so plainly +written on Jonathan's face? For the moment he could not master his +feelings. + +"Sister Carmen Mauer!" The name passed from lip to lip, and echoed +through the room. Carmen had endeared herself to everybody, although +she was so different from them all. Her sweetness of manner had won +their hearts, and her unselfishness and kindness had gained her many +friends. "Carmen Mauer!" they called, repeatedly, but no answer came. +Carmen was not present. + +"Where is Sister Carmen Mauer?" asked Brother Jonathan, who had become +sufficiently calm to speak; and something like a gleam of hope lit up +his features. + +"Here," replied a voice half-choked from swift running. + +All eyes were turned towards the doorway where she stood; her cheeks +rosy, and her large black eyes filled with wonder, as she glanced +rapidly over the assembly. + +"Here I am," she repeated, stepping forward. "Do you wish me?" + +Sister Agatha hesitated; she did not know exactly what answer to make. +How very unfortunate that Carmen should have been late on this +particular day, thus rendering it impossible to prepare her beforehand +for what might occur! Even now Sister Agatha would gladly have spoken +with her alone, and told her gently about the choice which had fallen +upon her. But Jonathan had already advanced to meet the girl. He had +resumed his usual manner, and as he fixed his eyes on the unsuspecting +maiden, there was a certain air of assured triumph in his looks, as if +he had her now securely in his power. + +"Dear Sister Carmen," he said, "you have, by your tardiness, missed +hearing that Brother Daniel Becker has written to us from the land of +the Caffres, and has desired us to choose a wife for him. The lots +have just now been cast, and the Lord has directed it to you." + +"To me?" said Carmen, with an air of perplexity, turning her astonished +glance on the speaker, as if she did not understand what he was saying. + +"Yes, to you, dear Sister," continued Jonathan, with a louder voice; +"and I hope you will receive this choice humbly, as becomes you, and +accept your position as Brother Daniel's wife--" he hesitated a moment, +and then added with emphasis; "if you are not already betrothed to some +other man." + +Carmen's eyes flashed with anger, and she drew herself up proudly. + +"Cast lots for me!" she exclaimed bitterly; "disposed of me at a +chance, as if I were a bale of goods, a lifeless piece of machinery! +Promised me to a man to whom no impulse of my heart draws me; to whom +it is quite indifferent whether I or some other girl falls to his +share--and all in the name of religion! This is indeed degradation, +slavery! It never could be worse among the slaves on the islands whose +freedom you all have taken so much trouble to secure." + +She had spoken with all the passion of her warm nature stirred to its +depths; and now she stopped, exhausted. All color had vanished from +her face; only the lustrous eyes glistened with a dangerous light. + +"I will never submit to your inspired decision, and refuse to recognize +this choice," she said at length. + +Every one looked at her in amazement, thunderstruck at this candid and +straightforward announcement. All at once, as if she had been struck +with leprosy, the Sisters shrank back from her--she stood alone in +their midst; only Agatha approached her, and with an anxious look +seized her hand. + +"Dear Sister," she commenced gently, "you are excited, and cannot +listen to the higher voice. Reflect a moment." + +Carmen shook her head, and with that peculiar mixture of pride and +child-like humility which marked her character, she bowed herself +submissively before her faithful admonisher. + +"Forgive me, dear Sister Agatha," she pleaded, embracing her fondly; +"forgive me if I am constrained to speak in a manner that you think is +wrong; but I can retract nothing of what I have said. Let me go to my +father; he is my natural protector, and he alone has the right to +dispose of me." + +She avoided looking at Jonathan again; it seemed as if this new trouble +must, in some way, have originated with him; and every pure, womanly +instinct of her nature felt insulted. Gently unclasping her arms from +Agatha's neck, she left the room. It was not possible to remain longer +in the house; something impelled her to get out into the fresh air, by +that means to throw off, if possible, some subtle influence which +seemed to be weaving a spell over her. + +As she hurried along, dark clouds began to scud across the sky +overhead, and the low mutterings of thunder came from the distance. It +may have been the thunderings of nature, or of war--she did not heed +them; her heart was filled with bitter, rebellious thoughts, and her +flying feet seemed to skim over the road; nor did she check her hasty +steps until she was about to enter her father's room. Mauer sat in his +arm-chair, absorbed in thought. She threw herself down on her knees +beside him, and flung her arms about his waist. Pressing her head +against his breast, she said half breathlessly: "Father, protect me!" + +He looked at his daughter with a bewildered air. Only one hour ago so +gay and light-hearted, and now so utterly unnerved, crouching in +despair at his feet! Raising her up, he gazed into her pale +countenance. + +"Heavens above! what has befallen you, my child?" + +"Father, they have cast lots for your child!" + +"Cast lots?" + +"Yes; cast lots, as for a thing that does not live and feel--a toy, +that has no will of its own, no self-respect; given as a prize to a man +who is nothing to me. And it is all done in the name of religion! +Father, protect me!" + +"Cast lots!" the old man repeated, as if his brain could not grasp what +his ear heard. "No! Heaven forbid that such a misfortune, should +befall you! It is enough that one of us has suffered and lived through +such an ordeal. No, Carmen, be at rest, my darling. Your father will +tell the elders that he cannot do without his child." + +The faintest shadow of a smile appeared again on Carmen's lips as she +listened to his comforting words, and she breathed more freely. + +"I knew you would help me, my own dear father! I rejected the choice, +and hastened to you for support." + +"But for whom have they selected you as a wife?" asked Mauer, gently +stroking her cheek. + +"For Daniel Becker, the missionary who, six months ago, went to the +land of the Caffres. Oh, father, you will not let me go from you? We +will remain together; no one shall separate us--not even this +Jonathan--" She involuntarily shuddered. At mention of that name the +old man started and fixed his eyes on her. + +"Jonathan?" he asked slowly. "Why do you blame him?" + +"Father, I feared to speak of it," she stammered, shocked that she had +so clearly betrayed herself. "He is your friend, and you become so +agitated when he is mentioned. But you must listen now. Before your +return he asked me, from Sister Agatha, for his wife; and after I +refused him--for oh, father, I cannot help it, I have an aversion to +him--he pursued me with a wild love that frightened me. He embraced +and kissed me against my will, and then begged I would be silent about +it. I promised; but that was before I knew I had a father living. Now +I have told it, and I am glad you know all about the matter." + +Her eyes rested trustingly on him, but she could not catch a responsive +glance; he kept his head turned away, and looked out into the distance +with a countenance full of distress and anguish. + +"Dear father, are you angry with me?" she asked humbly. + +"Not angry, no; but it is a misfortune--a great misfortune," he +whispered. + +At this moment there was a knock at the door; it opened, and Brother +Jonathan entered. Father and daughter stared at him without stirring; +no one uttered a word; no one moved. Mauer remained leaning back in +his chair; Carmen did not rise from her kneeling posture, and only +pressed her head closer to her father's bosom. + +Jonathan silently regarded the pair. Never had Carmen looked more +beautiful than in this clinging posture--in this outpouring of love and +confidence. To see her thus reclining on her father's breast was +nothing to give rise to jealous feelings, but it increased his longing +to have her leaning thus on him. + +"You are troubled; I know it, and have come to help you," he said at +last, in his gentlest tones. "I am sorry, very sorry, that Sister +Carmen has allowed herself to be so far carried away by her feelings as +to lose all sense of duty and humility, and to speak such wild words +before the people. We must see if things cannot be arranged +pleasantly. I will consider what can be done, if Carmen will permit me +to act at all for her in the matter." + +"Dear Brother, spare me my child," pleaded Mauer, with faltering voice. +"She cannot accept the lot which has fallen on her; she must not go so +far from me just now, when I have found her again. I cannot live +without my daughter." + +"You know, dear Brother," returned Jonathan, "we of the faith always +recognize in the casting of lots the most direct indication of the will +of Heaven. Each one must fulfil the duty laid upon him, and not pause +to consider if it concurs with his own wishes or not. If Carmen's hand +is still free, she must follow the call which has been given her. She +may not be separated from us forever. Perhaps in a few years she will +return with her husband." + +"A few years! Will they be granted to me?" said Mauer, sadly. + +"Dear brother, I have already remarked that if Carmen is already +betrothed, the choice made by lot is null and void, and the elders must +be requested to give their consent to the alliance she has in view," +replied Jonathan, sharply, emphasizing each word. + +Carmen's lip curled scornfully as he spoke, and the cutting, scathing +glance she gave him was enough to wither a braver man than he. She +surmised what he was aiming at, but uttered never a word. Leaning +against her father's heart, she felt sure of finding there a secure +resting-place, and a precious sense of sheltering love made her able to +endure anything. But her proud glance roused Jonathan's spirit, which +grew hotter and hotter under his calm exterior. Would he be compelled +to give her up? + +He could not satisfy himself whether his feeling for the girl was love +or hate; at any rate, he thought within himself that to bend her pride +and destroy her fancied security would afford him infinite satisfaction. + +"But she is not betrothed," said Mauer, when Jonathan ceased speaking. +"I, as her father, am the natural guardian of her destiny. I have the +right to decide." + +"The right, dear Brother?" interposed Jonathan, with a scornful smile. +"That depends. It could not be granted to every parent in the +Brotherhood." And as the old man before him dropped his eyes, he added +smiling: "Yet if I asked, for the sake of old times, that you would +give me Carmen for my wife, would I be able to gain your consent, as +her father?" + +It was a helpless, imploring look that Mauer now directed towards his +daughter; his hands clasped over hers with a convulsive grasp; his lips +moved, as if to speak, but no sound came from them. + +Carmen looked at her father in perfect amazement. + +"Father, dear father, indeed I cannot become the wife of this man," she +whispered with a beseeching tone. + +"Child, cannot you make yourself do it for my sake?" were the words +wrung from his lips. + +"No, never! Urge me not, my father; it would bring untold misery on +me, and afford happiness to no one." + +A deep flush rose to Jonathan's brow, and anger and disappointment +completely triumphed over self-control. "You cannot be my wife, Sister +Carmen? Very well; then you will be the wife of Brother Daniel in the +land of the Caffres. Do you think I am going to tolerate your +rebellious, stubborn spirit, which is so unsuitable to a member of our +community? Let your father tell you that I have the means in my hands +to compel you to decide between the two fates!" + +As he spoke, Carmen sprang up, and, drawing herself to her full height, +measured him with a proud, contemptuous look; then, as if unable to +bring herself to address him, she turned to her father and said calmly: +"Dear father, speak for your child, and protect her!" + +She clasped her hands imploringly; while he shook his head in sorrow +and grief, but remained silent. + +"Father," she cried, "have you nothing to say?" + +No sound issued from his pallid lips; the anguish of his soul was +betrayed only in his eyes. + +Burying her face in her hands, Carmen now broke down utterly; and +Jonathan's evil countenance gleamed with triumph. As she appeared +before him, bowed in despair and grief, like some beautiful flower +crushed by a ruthless hand, his eyes feasted themselves on the lovely +girl, who was at last humbled and forced to give herself to him. + +"You will do well to consider the matter calmly, and give me your final +decision, Brother Michael. I will return this evening for it. We will +try to help each other in a spirit of brotherly love, and you well know +I am willing to exercise mercy and patience, as we are commanded; but +there are times when both must cease." Saying thus, he left the room. + + * * * * * * + +Brother Mauer sat alone with his daughter, and a deathly silence +enwrapped the two, left alone together with their grief. The sky was +still dark, with threatening dark clouds, which threw their deep +shadows over the room, and at intervals a blinding flash of lightning +illuminated with dazzling ray the bowed figures of father and daughter; +while loud claps of thunder called to them, as if to rouse them from +the sorrowful trance. + +But they stirred not. Outside, the rain poured in torrents, and the +wind swept howling by; but they seemed not to hear. At last Mauer's +hand felt its way to the girl's head, and passed lovingly and gently +over it. She caught his fingers, as if the very touch inspired her +with new life; and raising her head, she turned her hot, tearless eyes +up to him, saying in an inexpressibly sad tone: + +"Father, why have you forsaken your child in her hour of need?" + +"Because, Carmen, I am powerless before this man," he returned in a low +voice. + +"Powerless?" she asked. "But how can he have any power over you if you +do not wish it? He, a friend, against his friend!" + +"Ah, Carmen," answered the old man, "that he has not used his power +against me before is another proof of his friendship for me; but now, +when he sees fit to exert it, I cannot prevent him, and must bear it. +I have already told you that it is a great misfortune that he loves +you, and you cannot return his affection." + +"Father, my thoughts are so perplexed by all this. I cannot understand +how any one can have such power over you that you are forced to leave +your own child unprotected." + +Mauer sighed deeply. Carmen rose, and began to pace restlessly up and +down the room. Outside, the thunder-storm raged with ungovernable +fury; within, the poor girl was endeavoring to quiet the tumult of her +aching heart, and collect her scattered thoughts. + +"Father," she said at last, breaking silence, and seating herself near +him, "speak, and let me know how and why Brother Jonathan can injure +you. What can we do to avert the peril we are in?" + +"Carmen, could you bear to behold in your father a culprit, a great +sinner?" He looked so crushed, so very, very miserable, that her +loving heart overflowed with sympathy and pity. To look at that dear +face, and see the wretchedness of gulf and remorse written there, wrung +her heart beyond endurance, and brought the scalding tears to her eyes. +She threw her arms about his neck, and answered tenderly: "You cannot +be guilty in your daughter's eyes; and if you appear so before the +world, I will only love you the more for it, and help you to bear your +grief, father." He sobbed aloud, and drew her closer to him. + +"It must be God's gracious mercy and pity which speaks to me through +you, my child. May He bless you, and for your sake, and my sufferings, +may He forgive my great sin! It is indeed an old story of guilt and +sorrow which I have to tell, and which has weighed heavily upon my +heart for nineteen long years! Listen, then, Carmen." + +Mauer sat silent a moment, as if trying to refresh in his memory the +half-faded events of long years ago, and shape into more definite forms +their outlines, obscured by the mists of time. + +At length he spoke. + +"Thirty years ago, my child, I left here with my first wife, and moved +to Jamaica to carry on the linen business, for the Brothers had +established themselves in business in connection with the mission +there. We arrived in May, and were in a short time quite settled. The +country and climate are lovely at that time of the year, but during the +rainy season, when the wet ground sent forth its poisonous miasma, we +both were stricken down with the fever. I, being the stronger, +recovered from the attack pretty soon; but my wife, a small, delicate +woman, succumbed at once to the fell destroyer. + +"For two years I remained a widower, and led a lonely life of hard +work. Gladly would I have returned home to Europe, but the business +once begun was not so easily given up; it would have been attended with +great losses. Therefore I wrote home, saying I needed a wife, and +would like one sent out to me. I named two Sisters of whom I had +thought, hoping that one or the other would come to me. One of them +was dead, the other married; so the lot was cast among the other +Sisters, and it fell on Sister Julie. When my new wife arrived, I was +greatly shocked. She was, not only homely of face, but deformed in +figure. In spite of my love for the beautiful, I conquered myself, and +hoped she would be so much the more lovely in disposition. But hers +was a narrow, severe nature, from which no congeniality could be +expected. She prayed zealously and worked diligently carrying out with +the greatest precision the rules prescribed for us; but she had not a +single idea beyond that; and when she was not praying, was peevish, +suspicious, and avaricious. For nearly eight years I lived with her, +my aversion daily increasing. About that time, as misfortune would +have it, a friend, who was living in Jamaica, died, owing me a large +sum of money. His affairs were left in such confusion that I was +obliged to receive the plantation as payment for my debt. I found the +place in a wretched condition, and, in order to oversee its management +to any advantage, I resolved to transfer my business in the mission to +an agent, and move on the place with my wife. Then came a fatal hour +for me. Into my darkened soul, into the comfortless, emptiness of my +life, entered the power of a great passion. + +"A slave belonging on a plantation about two hours' ride from mine, and +owned by a Spaniard, ran away, and fled to me for protection. The +slaves all knew that my laborers were free, and that induced the +unhappy creature thither. Don Manuel was not a hard master, but the +poor wretch had committed a grave fault, and was afraid to go home. So +I resolved to ride over and speak with Don Manuel about it. I reached +the hacienda of the Spaniard, and as I was about to enter, saw, +reclining in a hammock under the palm-trees, a slight, delicate figure +robed in white. Her arms were thrown above her head, and the lace of +her sleeve falling back gave me a glimpse of the beautifully rounded +limb. The sound of my horse's hoofs aroused her; she glided gracefully +from the hammock, and looked at me with a curious expression of +surprise as a quick blush mantled her cheek. She was scarcely more +than a child, being only fifteen, but the loveliest, the most +fascinating creature my eyes ever beheld. It was Inez--your mother. + +"I was ushered into her father's presence, and while discussing +business with him, watched her on the veranda feeding the peacocks and +caressing a cunning little black monkey. I could not turn my eyes from +her; each attitude seemed more exquisite than the last; each tone of +her voice sounded like music. + +"When I rode away, she was standing under the trees, and waved her hand +to me in farewell. Turning after a moment, to see if she was still +there, I beheld the same lovely picture, which lives in my heart to +this day." + +Mauer paused, affected by his own words. Before his mind's eye rose +the past in all its beauty; and a crowd of sweet memories overwhelmed +him. Carmen had listened with intense eagerness to his recollections +of her mother; she had almost forgotten that she was about to hear the +confession of a great crime. With a smile parting her lips, she looked +at her father, impatient for him to proceed. + +"How this storm rages!" Mauer resumed; "and yet it is nothing compared +with the blows they have in the West Indies. Can you remember them, +Carmen? One September, a few weeks after my visit to Don Manuel, the +sea-breeze lulled, and we were almost suffocated with the heat. For +many days the heavens were overcast with leaden clouds, which grew +darker and darker as they continued to pile up in huge masses; electric +flashes danced and quivered through them, and a continual rumbling of +thunder threatened danger, and indicated that the rainy season was +approaching. I had been to the mission to look after my business, and +was riding slowly homeward, through the heavy sultry air, when all at +once the storm broke over me. It came tearing down from the blue +mountains, raging and driving over the savannas in unchecked fury. I +put spurs to my horse, in a fruitless effort to reach home before the +worst came, for I knew full well what would follow this outbreak. At +this moment I saw approaching me, at full speed, a white horse, whose +rider was making hopeless attempts to manage him. I at once recognized +Inez, and placing myself across the path, succeeded in seizing the +bridle and stopping the animal in his mad night. + +"No time was now to be lost in bringing the girl home to her father, +and in such a storm my presence was necessary for her protection. She +had been riding alone, as usual, and on the return home her horse had +taken the wrong road. The storm became more and more violent; the +lightning nearly blinded us, and terrified our horses. The rain now +began to pour down in torrents, and it was impossible for Inez to +retain her seat in the saddle. She remembered a little deserted negro +cabin in the neighborhood, under a grove of magnolias, and thither we +fled. There was no light in the hut; the wind bent the trees down on +its roof and dashed the rain against its sides, so that we expected +every moment to be killed. Inez drew closer to me and trembled +violently, as I supported her quivering form with my arm. I spoke +soothingly to her, as I would have done to a timid child; and as I bent +over to comfort her, a flash of lightning lit up the place, so that I +could look into her eyes dilated with fear, and she into mine. +Then--she kissed me again and again. Carmen, your mother was one of +the most innocent, the purest beings on earth; in her heart was no +impure thought, in her life was no action which could not bear the +light of day. But there, under the glowing, tropical skies, blood +flies quicker through the veins than here in our cool Germany; and from +childhood to womanhood is but one, sudden leap. When I felt her kisses +on my lips, I was taken aback; I had thought of her only as a beautiful +child, but now I recognized the woman in her, and--I was a married man. + +"A sound of anxious hallooing reached our ears. It was made by the +negroes which Don Manuel had sent out in search of his child; and as +the first fury of the storm had now spent itself, we parted from each +other. + +"When I reached home, my unfortunate wife seemed more repulsive than +ever; in fact, her disagreeable ways, added to her natural homeliness, +had rendered her almost intolerable. The memory of Inez's lovely form +and face, her graceful manner and silvery voice, was ever present with +me. I repeatedly told myself how wicked this was, and resolved not to +call again on Don Manuel, lest I should see her. But it was impossible +to banish her image, and day after day the struggle within my soul grew +more severe. Thus the rainy months passed away; during which I +scarcely left home at all, and saw no one but my wife. One day she was +taken sick, and soon became so ill that Brother Jonathan, who was the +physician of the mission, and for whom I sent at once, became very +anxious. It was on the fifth day of her illness, and Jonathan had been +to see her in the afternoon; but in the evening she became much worse. +She complained so much that about ten o'clock I concluded to ride out +to the doctor's. Jonathan was much sought after as a physician, and +when I reached his house about eleven o'clock, he had already been +roused up from his sleep by a man who wanted some medicine for a child, +and who was waiting to have it prepared. Ah, how I remember every +trifle, exactly as if it all had occurred only yesterday! + +"When I told Jonathan how very ill my wife was, he gave me very little +if any hope, but said he would prepare a soothing draught for her. I +was full of anxiety and in great haste to get back, as was also the +other man; and when at last Thomas, Jonathan's servant, brought the two +bottles of medicine, I seized mine eagerly, as I had a long way to go; +and as I left, Brother Jonathan said to me: 'They are opium-drops; give +her fifteen when you get home, and if she does not get easy, then two +hours after repeat the dose.'" + +"I sprang on my horse and hurried away. Jonathan's words seemed to +ring in my ears: 'I have scarcely any hope of saving her.' Ah, Carmen, +they were to me like words of deliverance. I had borne for so long the +fearfully heavy yoke which had been laid upon me that at times it +seemed beyond human endurance; for this woman's soul was almost more +repulsive than her body. At last I reached home. It was twelve +o'clock. My wife was suffering as much as ever; she complained +incessantly of the increasing pain, and I at once prepared the drops +for her. She groaned; then I began to count the drops: one, two, +three, four--and then the thought came into my mind: 'Scarcely any more +hope.' My hand trembled; a mist seemed to gather before my eyes. The +drops fell, faster; I counted on: thirteen, fourteen, fifteen; a few +drops more had fallen unawares into the spoon; then followed one more, +and again one more--twenty-five, twenty-six. I pushed the vial away +from me. 'Where are the drops? Give them to me!' she cried with +sinking voice. She snatched the spoon from my hand, and I turned away +my head. My good angel had forsaken me." + +Mauer groaned and hid his face in his hands. Carmen held her breath; +she dared not speak, or raise her eyes to look at her father; she could +not even think. + +"The patient," resumed Mauer, after a short pause, "became quieter; her +breathing was scarcely audible. Did she sleep? From my heart I +prayed: 'God of mercy, let her sleep and not die--not now!' But I did +not dare to look at or listen to her. I threw myself on a couch, and, +in the horror that filled my soul, buried my head in the cushions. +Time passed on; the clock ticked as usual, I know not whether for +minutes or hours. Then I heard the ring of horse's hoofs before the +door. I got up to let the visitor in, for the servants were in bed. +It was only three o'clock in the morning. To my surprise, in walked +Brother Jonathan. 'How is she?' he inquired hastily; and I answered +softly, 'She sleeps.' + +"He approached the side of the bed, and drawing the lamp near, so as to +observe her closely, said: 'Yes, never to wake again. I was sure +nothing could save her!' + +"I did not utter a word; my tongue seemed glued to my mouth, and +refused to move. Had she died because nothing could save her, or +because I had dropped double the number of drops? The fatal vial still +stood on the table by the bed where I had placed it. I feared to touch +it again; but Jonathan took it up, and, looking at it, said casually: +'Did you give her from it twice? I see there are more than fifteen +drops gone.' I nodded my head. 'After two hours?' he asked again, and +put the vial in his pocket. I again nodded affirmatively. He examined +the dead woman again, felt her skin, and raised her eyelids. +'Strange,' he said. 'You gave her the first dose about twelve o'clock, +and the second at two; it is now only three o'clock, and this corpse +has been cold for several hours. Your wife must have died at least two +hours ago; how is that?' He looked at me in perplexity, and I felt +myself grow pale under his inquiring glance; my limbs refused to +support me, and I sank fainting on the floor. + +"The funeral was over; I had suffered with another attack of fever, and +was restored to my usual health, when one day a hasty messenger +summoned me to go at once to Don Manuel, who needed my presence. He +had been thrown from his horse, and was suffering intensely from +internal injuries, which threatened to terminate fatally at any moment. +I was conducted to his bedside, at which Inez knelt, her face buried on +her father's pillow. At the foot of the bed stood the physician, +Brother Jonathan. + +"Don Manuel motioned me to his side. 'Don Mauer,' he said in a faint +voice, 'I must die; but, before I leave this world, I would like to +provide for the future of my child, who, as you know, has no mother. +You have saved her life in the storm, and she has confessed to me that +she loves you, and hopes you return her affection. Therefore I ask you +now, while death is hastening on, can you love her? And will you take +her to your heart, to love and cherish her as your wife? She has +always been a good daughter to me; she will be a true and faithful wife +to you.' + +"Inez raised her lovely head, and her dark eyes, which, in their +innocence did not know how to veil her sentiments, looked pleadingly at +me. I laid one hand on the graceful, girlish head, and the other in +that of the dying man. + +"'I will vow to honor and cherish her as my most precious treasure,' I +said solemnly, 'for I love her above everything on earth.' + +"Inez sank into my arms, and the weak voice of her dying father +pronounced a blessing on us. He begged that a priest might be quickly +brought, to unite us by his death-bed, so that he would know Inez was +safely provided for. + +"Scarcely was the ceremony over, when he drew his last breath. + +"The surprise, the overwhelming emotion, caused by this event, +impressed me so powerfully that I could think of nothing but the one +fact--'Inez is mine!' When I left the house, after handing the weeping +girl over into the hands of her faithful nurse. Brother Jonathan rode +along with me. + +"'Brother Michael,' he said, glaring at me darkly and menacingly, 'I +now know what sinful love prompted you to give Julie, your wife, a +double dose of opium; and why, when I came to see her early in the +morning, the corpse had already been cold for some hours.' + +"As I felt myself turn pale, and answered nothing, he laughed +scornfully, turned his horse's head, and rode off in another direction. +After that the sight of Brother Jonathan became torture to me. I +always read the terrible accusation in his face, although he has never +uttered it; and I soon found he was equally obnoxious to my wife. +Indeed, she actually hated him; for, as she told me, he had persecuted +her with his love, long before I had ever been to Don Manuel's. She +shunned him as much as possible, whenever he came to the hacienda; and +it was most welcome news to both her and me when he told us his health +could not stand the climate any longer, and he only needed money to +take him to a colder climate. I gave him several thousands out of my +fortune, so as to get rid of him; and he, with his negro servant +Thomas, went to Bethlehem in Pennsylvania. To my relief, I saw no more +of him; he wrote to me some time afterwards, but I did not answer, and +never heard from him again. All this time the worm of self-accusation +was gnawing at my heart; but as long as Inez lived, I found happiness +in her love, so that not even the voice of conscience could be heard. +But when she was taken from me, then the cry arose in my heart: 'This +is my punishment; she has died for my sin!' and all peace vanished from +my existence. It was then that I formed the resolution to atone with +my life for the crime. I longed to sacrifice myself; to suffer for the +Lord's sake, and win over souls to the truth. I parted from you, the +one single thing that remained to me of Inez. I sold my lands in +Jamaica, and went wherever I was ordered--across the seas to India, +where the least work had as yet been done, and to various other parts +of the world. The rest you already know. No one can imagine how +gladly I have suffered, although those years of slavery and misery were +very grievous. I hoped thereby to win the favor of Heaven; and when I +was at last permitted to return home, I thought I saw in that an +assurance that my crime was forgiven. But it is all a mistake, Carmen, +for Brother Jonathan lives, and is here, and he is a perpetual reproach +to me. Every word he utters seems to refer to it, and I never fail to +shrink with pain from having him touch the sore point. He has it in +his power to bring my sin to light, at any time; and it is an evidence +of his great friendship for me that he has been hitherto silent. If +either you or I anger him, he will not allow our old friendship to +influence him any longer. You have heard his threat, and he will, +without fail, carry it out. I will bear submissively whatever comes; +but I am not able, my dear child, to protect you. If you refuse him +for your husband, he will disclose my guilt, and I, a criminal, can do +nothing for you, but must quietly bow before the inevitable." + +He was silent, and dared not look at Carmen, for he feared to read what +might be written on her countenance. She sat perfectly still, absorbed +in her own thoughts, her hand shading her eyes, and her breath heaving +quickly. The blood seemed frozen with horror in her veins at what she +had heard; her brave heart quailed before the dreadful future, which +she knew not how to meet. And yet one thought stood prominently forth +from the rest: she must prove her love for her father at any cost. He +needed it sorely now, and she had only a short hour ago declared she +would love him the better for his fault, and thus help him to bear his +misery. He had sinned for the sake of her mother, who surely would +have forgiven him and loved him, whatever other people might have felt. +The daughter, must not set herself up to condemn her father. God would +judge him mercifully, according to the depth of his repentance and +suffering. Of this she felt perfectly assured; so, raising her head +and turning her face to her father, she threw her arms about the old +man's neck. + +"Be comforted, dear father, and trust in God!" she said lovingly. "You +have atoned so deeply and long that your sin is surely forgiven, and I +am sure we will find some way out of this dreadful trouble." + +She was silent a moment, sunk in deep thought. "I must inherit my dear +mother's aversion to Brother Jonathan, for I have felt it as long as I +can remember, and it would be quite impossible to give myself to him. +I hate him as I do the Evil One. I could believe anything, however +bad, about him; and yet what he does is good, always good, and he has +shown himself a friend to you. Let us consider if there may not be +some way out of this dreadful dilemma." + +The old man leaned, sobbing, against the girl whom he, as a father, +should have been able to succor, and whose poor brains were now racked +with caring for both herself and him. + + * * * * * * + +The fury of the storm had spent itself, but the rain still poured in +torrents, when, towards five o'clock in the afternoon, two companies of +soldiers, which had been manoeuvring during the day, came marching +along, in rather disorderly fashion, on the highroad to the settlement. + +"It is well the order to bivouac in this deluge has been countermanded, +for we would certainly have been drowned like rats," said one of the +two officers, who were marching a little in advance. "Yet almost +anything would have been preferable to taking up our quarters with +these pious people, whom I doubt will give us any sort of a welcome. +They look on us as cannibals and murderers, and I tremble to think how +their untiring zeal will urge them on to attempt our conversion." + +His companion laughed. "It will not be so bad as you think, Hansen; +although I must admit I don't think our wild boys will be very welcome +guests to them. It will sadly disturb their extreme orderliness and +quiet routine of life." + +"You are sure of being well received, Captain Trautenau," resumed the +first speaker, "having already been in this Bethany, and also having a +sister at school here among the saints. You must look out for us, and +get the best shelter you can." + +Having now reached the suburbs of the village, Alexander von Trautenau +ordered a halt to be made and the soldiers fall in rank. "We will +march in with as imposing an appearance as possible," he said gayly; +and they passed through the streets, while many a terrified and +astonished form rushed to the windows and watched them go by. +Alexander, being familiar with the place, marched with his men directly +to the Brothers' house and entered the spacious yard; there he gave the +command to stack arms. That surely was a peaceful proceeding! The +Brothers' house was much larger than that of the Sisters, as here they +usually carried on their various branches of industry. The door was +now opened and, with a pale, terror-stricken countenance, Brother +Martin, the presiding elder, stepped out. Alexander immediately went +up to him, and asked politely: "Are you the elder in authority over +this house?" When he answered in the affirmative, Alexander continued: +"I have been ordered here with two companies to find shelter for the +night, as the heavy rain has rendered bivouacking impossible. Will you +be so good as to assign me quarters for the men?" + +"We will, mein Herr. But, first of all, tell me, I pray, if these guns +are loaded," answered Brother Martin, pointing anxiously to the stacks +of arms. + +"Of course the guns are loaded, but only with powder; and there is no +danger whatever of their going off by themselves," said the officer, +trying to reassure him. + +But Brother Martin only grew paler than before. "Herr Officer, I must +humbly beg that the guns be removed." + +"With pleasure," replied Alexander, "if you will show me a room in +which my men may carry them and keep them dry." + +Brother Martin hastened with alacrity into the house, and opened a room +in the basement. The murderous weapons were carried in by the +soldiers, the door was shut, and, to the great relief of the poor +elder, the key turned and put away safely in the officer's pocket. + +Meanwhile, Hansen had not been able to repress his ridiculing remarks. +"It is enough to turn an honest soldier's heart around in his body to +listen to such stuff," he said. "Guns! As if we would carry anything +else! The man must be a fool." + +Alexander divided his men into squads, to occupy the apartments where +they were to be accommodated with pallets of straw. + +One of the married brothers now came up and addressed the captain. +"Herr Officer," he said modestly, "I have room in my house for a few +men. Will you allow me to accommodate four or six? I promise to give +them the very best that my poor house affords." + +"With many thanks, kind sir," was the reply. "Please select from among +them those you would like to have; the poor drenched creatures will be +only too glad of your hospitality." + +The man chose the first six which came to hand, and carried them off +with him. The ice being thus broken, one brother after another offered +to take in some of them, and pretty soon everything was satisfactorily +arranged. Another Brother begged to have the officers for his guests, +and with hearty hospitality withdrew to prepare the best of everything +the simple larder afforded for the entertainment of the strangers. + +Clean white linen was spread over the table and refreshments of every +kind were brought out. Pretty soon the provision-wagon arrived. Meat +and vegetables were unpacked, and preparations were made to prepare the +evening meal. The pioneers commenced to take up the paving-stones in +the yard, in order to make a deep hollow in which to light the fire; +but Brother Martin rushed out perfectly horrified. + +"Herr Captain, you surely will not allow your good people to kindle a +fire here in the yard? I beg that you will forbid it; there is no +knowing what mischief might result from it; and besides, it will ruin +the yard." + +"But where, then, can the men cook their supper if it is too dangerous +here?" asked Alexander, somewhat impatiently. "The men are wet and +hungry, and have had no regular meal to-day; they must be permitted to +prepare something warm to eat." + +"Oh, of course," said Martin, with compassion. "We will not let them +suffer, and I will gladly allow you the use of a large kitchen, where +all the cooking for the Brothers is done every day." + +The proposition was received with many thanks. Every convenience which +the house afforded was offered for the comfort of the men. + +"Trautenau," said Hansen, rubbing his hands with satisfaction, "things +seem very good about here; and if they don't try to convert us, in +addition, it will be the best place we have found quarters in for a +long time. The sneaks have even a glass of choice wine in their +cellar, and we will forgive Brother Martin's horror of our weapons in +hopes that he will give us a taste of it. I thought they drank only +water, and would be very much scandalized to hear of wine being +anywhere about their premises." + +"Hush your mocking, Hansen, else I will not answer for your being +allowed to remain in this paradise. I hope you will not disgrace me +while I go to seek my sister, before it is too late. You know we march +early in the morning." + + * * * * * * + +Carmen and her father had been too deeply absorbed in their sorrows to +observe what was transpiring in the settlement. The outer world had +vanished completely from their minds. Concluding finally to leave +everything undecided until after the interview between the old man and +Jonathan, Carmen turned her steps homeward, for it was after eight +o'clock. After ascending the steps, she remained standing under the +arched portico in front of the house, trying to forget herself, her +father, everything. She felt as if her own conscience was in some way +guilty; and then, too, what was to become of her now? His crime, and +her duty as a daughter, urged her imperatively into the arms of this +man whom she thoroughly despised. There seemed no way of escape. The +idea flashed across her brain to renounce her identity with the +Moravians; but that would be synonymous with total separation from her +father, for in his present frame of mind, when he was continually +dwelling on repentance and reparation, he would never tear himself away +from his old faith. Leave her father? Never! One thought tempted +her--the thought of Wollmershain and Frau von Trautenau; but she put it +resolutely from her: she could not, she dared not; she had no claim on +any one there, and here she belonged to her father. + +Ah, how her poor bleeding heart ached! If she could only weep, perhaps +it would help to lighten the weary burden which was crushing her to the +earth; but no relieving tears would come to her burning eyes. At last +she sat down on a ledge of the wall near the doorway, to rest in +solitude a little while, and to try to compose herself before going +into the house. It had now ceased raining, and a dimly-burning lantern +which was hung near by dispelled the darkness in a measure, and threw +its uncertain rays over the wet stones of the yard, and over Carmen's +drooping figure. The streets were perfectly quiet, the water dripped +monotonously from the roofs, now and then the footsteps of some +solitary passer-by echoed faintly on the ear, followed by the deep +silence, broken only by the falling drops. There was something +soothing in this great hush of nature; and the gentle dripping seemed +like a loving voice singing some tired child to sleep; Carmen felt as +if drawn within a magic circle. For a long time she sat there, till at +last she heard a step approaching from the distance, and a man made his +appearance in the light of the lantern. Something sparkled and +glittered on his coat; and as he strode along with quick, firm steps, +the spurs on his boots clanked. Carmen saw and heard it all as if in +her sleep. Still motionless, she sat staring out into the darkness, +and her heart, her poor heart, seemed dead and cold. There! did not +the stranger enter the portico? He certainly did; and, as his figure +became more distinctly discernible in the uncertain light, her pulses +began to throb violently--those pulses which she a moment ago believed +would never again beat with lively emotion. She leaned back closer to +the wall, and stared at the figure with wide-opened eyes. As the man +ascended the steps and saw the shrinking form close against the wall, +he started, hesitated a moment, and then, putting his hand to his cap +in greeting, said joyfully: "Fraulein Carmen, can it really be you? I +have come, although it is so late, to greet you, and make the +acquaintance of your father, as I am here only for to-night, and leave +early in the morning. Adele told me I would find you here, in the +house with the portico." He spoke with a glad tone and put out his +hand, for at Wollmershain they had parted with a hearty hand-shake, and +now he ventured on the same privilege. + +The girl laid her hand in his; it was so cold and clammy it chilled +him; and Carmen, as she leaned her head back against the stone wall, +had such a tired, weary, wretched look that he could not refrain from +asking with an anxious air: "For Heaven's sake! Surely some misfortune +has happened to you! Carmen, dear Fraulein Carmen, I implore you, tell +me just one word, that I may know what is the matter, and help you if I +can." + +She had risen slowly and with difficulty, for her knees trembled, and +she could scarcely stand. He kept her hand in his as if to assist her, +and pressed it with gentle warmth. At the sound of his sympathizing +voice, the heavy pressure on her tortured heart suddenly gave way, and +agonized sobs burst from her lips, while a flood of scalding tears +flowed from her eyes. Her slender frame shook with the violence of her +emotion; and as he sought to support her with his arm, her head sank on +his shoulder. + +"Dear Carmen," he pleaded, "do not keep back from me the cause of this +distress! You cannot know how I am racked with grief for you. What +shall I say to convince you of my feelings? It troubles me sorely, oh, +believe me, to find you in such sorrow." + +His words seemed to increase the intensity of her grief; and yet how +those blinding tears relieved her! What an angel of light he +seemed--he, of whom she had once thought so differently! She did not +repulse him now when his arm encircled her; but leaning on him +confidingly, she somehow felt that he who held her was a true man; that +he alone was able to help and comfort her, and that it was a precious +privilege to have him near in this hour of need. She could not turn to +her father for succor; that one great hope had melted away; but in this +man she knew there was courage, as well as will and the power to assist +her in her woe. As he poured question after question upon her, she +attempted at last to speak. + +"They have cast lots for me to-day," she stammered. "I am forced to be +the wife of a man I despise--by lot, Herr Trautenau!" + +"By lot?" he asked, flushing angrily. "You, our beautiful, proud +Carmen, given away by lot? That is incredible! Your father will +surely not permit it!" + +"My poor father!" she cried. "He can take no step to prevent it; he +cannot save me." + +"But!--by heavens, I will not allow such a horrible thing!" he cried +passionately, and drew her closer to him. "Carmen, I conjure you, I +beseech you, not to submit to this shameful custom of your people!" + +"No; I would rather die than do it!" she replied, as something of her +old courage returned to her. Now that he stood by her, she felt that +some escape might be possible. She dried her tears, and raised her +pretty head, which had rested so wearily on his shoulder, endeavoring +to free herself from a position which, now that she was calm enough to +think, had become embarrassing to her. As she did so, she gave a +terrified start, for, unheard by either of them, Brother Jonathan with +his cat-like step had drawn near, and she now caught a glimpse of his +hated countenance, distorted with scorn and anger. + +"Rather die than be my wife?" he asked mockingly, as he approached +nearer. "A pleasant answer, surely, for me to listen to! This is, +then, the modest, prudish Sister whom I must not presume to touch! She +refuses me, an honest man who loves her, and declines to follow the +rules of her faith, only to throw herself into the arms of a strange +interloper! Do you think we will have a Sister among us who bids +defiance to all the meek love and submission, the decorum and modesty +which is necessary for a member of our community? I, as superintendent +of the Sisters, will now suggest to the Sister in charge that Carmen +Mauer be expelled from our communion." + +Carmen seemed not to hear these severe words. She breathed heavily, +but answered not a word, only pressed her hands against her throbbing +heart and raised her pale face to him calmly and indifferently, not +seeming to care for his condemnation and threats. + +"Fraulein Carmen," said Alexander, as Jonathan ceased speaking. His +voice chased all fear from her heart, and she turned her gaze, full of +trust and confidence, on him again. + +"Fraulein Carmen," he continued, "you once told me that only your +father's or your husband's arm should enfold you. When my arm +supported you just now, you suffered it to do so; was it because you +trusted my honor and love sufficiently to give me the right to protect +you through all time as your husband?" + +She gave him a quick glance of glad surprise. + +"Yes," she replied with a firm voice, offering him her hand. He +pressed it with passionate warmth. + +"Mein Herr," he said coldly, turning to Jonathan, "will you have the +kindness, as superintendent of the Sisters, to inform them that +Fraulein Carmen Mauer and her betrothed husband, Captain von Trautenau, +have gone to her father's apartments; that this lady, on account of her +betrothal to me, declines the destiny chosen for her by lot; and will, +moreover, be obliged to leave the community and follow her husband? +This may perhaps prevent any unpleasant misunderstanding." He bowed +stiffly to the astounded Jonathan, drew Carmen's hand through his arm, +and turned away. + +Carmen had listened to his words in such a confused state of mind that +she was powerless to resist even had she wished to. What he had said +almost took away her breath; but as the strength of his arm, so that of +his will, held her captive, and she would have followed him blindly to +the end of the world. But now, when she was about to return to her +father, she was torn with anguish for the poor sufferer who tarried +alone in his room. He must be cared for at once; so, pausing a moment, +she turned towards Jonathan. The threat he had hurled at her showed +the point where she might gain the victory over him, and render him +powerless to harm her father. + +"Brother Jonathan," she said, "you told me that if I was affianced to +some other man, the validity of the lot would be annulled. You now see +that the threat against me is vain, but I would like to relate a little +occurrence to the Brothers and Sisters which would not tend to increase +the holy reputation which the pious Brother Jonathan Fricke now enjoys. +You have been kind to my father up to this time; I beg that you will +continue to be so in future, for your own sake. I would not willingly +inflict any injury upon you; but the slightest hint from him will +compel me--I think you understand." + +Jonathan stood as if turned to stone as Alexander led Carmen away, +saying: + +"Let us go to your father." + +When they reached the house, he opened the door and passed in with her. + +"Wait a moment," he said, as they stood in the hall. "I was too hasty; +the intense desire to save you dictated my impulsive question, and your +prompt answer was called forth by the rashness of a man who, in all the +heat of his fervent love, sought to avert an impending danger. But you +shall not be compelled thus to resign your freedom. Tell me now calmly +if you can love me a little; if otherwise, take back your hastily-given +word, and after a while, when you can do so with perfect safety to +yourself, let the world know that our engagement has ceased. Let my +love shield you as long as it can; but only if you love me do I want +you to marry me." + +They had been talking in the dark; but now a faint light shone through +the window and flickered on the girl's little white cap. It seemed +like a halo to Alexander; he gazed at it fixedly, as if it were an omen +of happiness for him. + +Carmen had been standing with folded hands; now she raised her arms and +clasped them gently about his neck. "I love you with my whole heart," +she whispered softly, "and my happiness rests with you alone." + +He drew her to his heart with a violent outbreak of passionate love; +and it was almost as if with a sob that the strong man cried, "Carmen, +my love, my darling!" and kissed her with all his heart on his lips. + + + + +CHAPTER X. + +A faint sound of martial music penetrated to Brother Mauer's room the +next morning, as the troops marched away. The old man sat wrapped in +meditation. A new world of thought had opened to him since last night. +Carmen, the bride of a stranger! How very different from any former +plans or prospects! He had given his free consent to his daughter's +marriage, for Alexander had gained his entire confidence. + +The resolution and determined will displayed in the young officer's +bearing reassured him, and dispelled his inward despair and +helplessness. A marriage with this man was the only solution to the +miserable situation; and when Carmen was removed from his immediate +neighborhood, she would still be nearer than if she was a missionary's +wife. But the severance of his child from her faith gave him extreme +anxiety for her; as, according to his ideas, happiness, prosperity, and +peace could be found only among the Moravians, in the strict observance +of their laws and customs. Was it possible Carmen could be willing to +forsake all this for a strange man? He could not grasp the thought. +Yet when, weeping bitterly, she said, "Father, I love Alexander as +deeply as my mother did you," there thrilled through him a memory of +Inez's ardent love, as she clung to him with utter abandon, and found +her world at his side; and he blessed the union of the lovers. + +But Carmen had a very trying interview with Sister Agatha, when she +went in the morning and imparted to her what had occurred the night +before, and what decision she had made. + +Agatha listened to the girl's words attentively and thoughtfully, and +an expression of deep sorrow filled her countenance. + +"Carmen," she said sadly, "judging from what you say, you have in your +heart completely cut yourself off from the Lord's mercy and our faith, +and therefore it is better that things should be as they are, for you +must not play the hypocrite--anything is preferable to that. You would +destroy yourself and be of no benefit to us." She laid her hand gently +on Carmen's head, and added: "Go now, dear Sister, and tread the new +path you have chosen for yourself; and Heaven grant it may not lead to +misery! If, however, happiness deserts you, and your heart yearns +after us, like the thirsty wayfarer in the desert, then return to the +people of the Lord, that we may help you to return to Him." + +She tenderly kissed the maiden's brow, pressed her to her bosom again +and again, and let her go. She followed Carmen's lovely form with her +eyes as she passed through the doorway and left the room; then, folding +her hands in prayer, she said: "Lord, forgive the child. A soul which +was entrusted to me by Thee, which I knew not how to guide aright, has +been taken from me. If she goes astray, let mine be the blame, for it +was my fault; but if she seeks Thee in another path of life, then give +her Thy peace. Ah, how much I have still to correct in myself! Yet I +would fain do my utmost for the souls Thou hast committed to my charge. +I praise Thee, and would not think of my trials, if only I am counted +worthy to suffer for Thy sake." + +So Carmen was freed from the fetters she had unwillingly worn for so +long. Alexander had arranged with her and her father that she should +go to his mother at Wollmershain; but the separation from her father +was a severe trial to her loving heart. Fate had scarcely united them, +and already they must part and, knowing what misery it was to the old +man, it seemed almost more than she could bear. And yet it must be. +She promised to visit her father twice every week, and would be quick +and diligent in her home duties, so as to make her visits longer. + +The days were now very lonely without the bright, cheerful presence of +his daughter; and when winter came, his own dwelling was ready to be +occupied, but all the zest and pleasure of moving into his new abode +seemed to have vanished. He took Sister Ursula, an aged widow, as his +servant and housekeeper. How he loved to sit by the window in his +room, from whence he could look out on the hill where the cemetery was +laid out! "The Brothers will soon carry me along that path," he +thought, "and it will be well for me when the time comes. I have +always longed to be laid away in our own God's-acre, among the Sisters +and Brothers, and enter with them into the joy of our Lord." + +He now had also the happiness of having Carmen with him for several +days at a time. The house seemed illuminated by her presence, her room +was close to his, and there she had plants which he took care of for +her. There was also a snug little corner where they passed many happy +hours together. But with the knowledge of the fearful secret which +overshadowed her father's life a deeper gravity had come to her, which +subdued her otherwise exuberant and joyous temperament; and Alexander +often asked if it was the love she felt for him which had thus checked +her former cheerfulness. And this shadow did not pass away when, +shortly after Christmas, her wedding was celebrated, and Mauer informed +her that he had divided the fortune left him by Inez from his own +property, in order to make it over to her daughter, to whom it by right +belonged. So the young couple remained at Wollmershain, after +Alexander had sold his commission and left the army; and Mauer was +happy in the assurance that his daughter would always be near him. + + + + +CHAPTER XI. + +On a bleak November day, when all nature wore its most dreary aspect, +the carriage of Herr von Trautenau, now well known in the village, drew +up before Brother Mauer's door. The horses had scarcely stopped, when +the door opened and Alexander sprang out, followed by Carmen, whose +face bore traces of recent tears. + +"Be brave, dear heart!" he said. + +"I have you and our darling boy left," she answered with emotion; and +turning back to the carriage, took a little child from the nurse's +arms. She kissed him fondly, and the little fellow clapped his hands +and crowed merrily at his mother as she held him in her arms. Then +from beneath the flaxen ringlets which covered the infantile head a +pair of large black eyes looked around with wonder at the strange place +and the dark figure, with the white cap, that stood in the doorway. + +Carmen was surprised to see Sister Agatha. + +"Have I come too late?" she asked in a tone of anguish. + +"No, dear Carmen, he still lives," said the faithful nurse, soothingly. +"But he is failing rapidly since the attack this morning. He has been +so weak of late that we have felt prepared for the end to come at any +time. He has been asking anxiously for you since consciousness has +returned, and Sister Ursula sent at once for me, that I might be with +him while she went for another doctor, as Brother Jonathan has just +been summoned to the country to visit the miller." + +"How good you are, dear Sister Agatha!" said Carmen, pressing her hand +affectionately. + +They had now entered the house, and Alexander remained in an adjoining +room, while Carmen went at once to her father. The bed had been drawn +close to the window to give him more air, and he was now resting +quietly, as if asleep, his hands crossed on his breast, and the shadow +of death on his brow. Carmen was greatly shocked at the change. + +"My darling father, I am here with you; do you know me, your own +Carmen?" she asked, kneeling by the couch. + +At the sound of her voice, he opened his eyes, and a faint, happy smile +broke over his stiffening features. + +"My child--are you here? Now I am ready to go." + +"Father, let us hope God will spare you to us!" + +"No, my precious child, let us hope He will, at last, set me free; for +I long, oh so earnestly! to be at rest. Carmen, a guilty conscience is +a scorpion which never ceases to torment, and deals a death-blow to all +peace and happiness; therefore keep your heart pure, my darling, and +ever have God's commandments before your mind, so as to avoid sinning +against them. Let me persuade you to come back into the bosom of our +faith, and draw your husband with you. He could enter the Brotherhood, +even though he lived elsewhere. Oh, ensure the safety of your soul, +under the shelter of our holy religion, so that your life be not +poisoned with remorse, as mine has been!" + +She kissed her father's hand with love and reverence; then raising her +head, looked in his eyes, which rested on her so anxiously. "Father I +promise you I will remain faithful to my God, and endeavor to keep His +laws." + +Mauer sank back on his pillows. "Brother Jonathan," he whispered, +after a pause, "has kept my fearful secret; and even though he always +involuntarily reminds me of it, he has maintained his friendship and +brotherly love for me until now; but he has never allowed me to forget +that my wealth must go to the community, as an atonement for my crime; +so I have specified in my will that, in expiation of a great sin, I +have left all my money to the commonwealth of the Brotherhood and their +missions: thus, in benefiting all, to make amends for sinning against +one." + +Carmen silently kissed his pale lips; then, rising, went into the next +room and brought back with her Alexander and the child. They kneeled +beside the dying man, and Carmen asked with tears "Father, bless your +children!" + +"Do you value the blessing of such as I?" he said humbly. + +"Yes, my father, I cannot live without it." + +Then the old man laid his hands on the three heads and murmured words +of benediction. + + + + +CHAPTER XII. + +It was four o'clock in the afternoon, and the shadows of twilight began +to gather on the gloomy sky. Agatha brought in a lamp, and all retired +save Carmen; thus leaving her and her father alone together, +undisturbed. Mauer lay quiet, with his eyes half closed; while his +daughter sat holding his hand in a loving clasp, her head buried in the +coverlid. In the stillness which prevailed in the chamber of death, +the door was heard to open, and some one entered noiselessly; but the +draught caused by the open window closed the door sharply behind the +visitor. Mauer opened his eyes at the sound, and looked up vacantly as +if he did not recognize Jonathan. Carmen also raised her head; but +when she saw who it was, she immediately hid her face again, for she +felt it quite impossible to speak to him now. Kneeling between the bed +and the wall, her form was completely hidden in the dark shadow. + +"Brother Mauer, I have just returned from the Country, and hear that +you have been ill. What is the matter?" asked Jonathan. + +At the sound of his voice, the sick man shivered as if from an icy +breath of wind. He stared at the physician with dilated eyes. + +"Brother Jonathan," he faltered, "the end has come, and the old, dark +story will be laid with me in the grave. I know I have sinned +grievously, but have atoned with a life of repentance and cruel +suffering for the murder of an inoffensive wife." + +As the old man spoke, Jonathan looked at him sharply and searchingly. +The light of the lamp shone on his altered features, which bore the +stamp of death. The physician seized his hand; the pulse was almost +gone; there was no possibility of saving his life; each moment brought +the end nearer. Then Jonathan's hate, revenge, and scorn broke loose, +and flashed unrestrained from his eyes, which were fixed on the figure +lying before him. For twenty years he had hated this man more than any +other on earth; and for twenty years he had been obliged to put on the +hypocrisy of love towards him. What a trial for his hot, seething +passion! At the last, the moment had now come when his enemy was in +his power, and he could throw up his visor and show his real face! Now +was the time to crown his revenge, before the object of it passed +entirely out of his reach forever. + +Jonathan glanced hastily around the quiet darkened chamber, to convince +himself that they were alone. He saw no one; the faint light showed +only the pale features of the dying one pressed against the pillow. It +was not possible that any one could be there! Old Ursula, the only +other occupant of the house, had retired to the kitchen to weep and +lament; and having passed directly up from the front door to the +sick-room, he was ignorant of the presence of others in the dwelling. + +Then Jonathan gave free play to his wild rage. "Murderer of your +wife?" he said scornfully. "Fool! if it had been only the drops you +gave her, she would be alive now; but nothing could have saved her. In +the hurry of that night, Thomas, being just roused from sleep, gave you +the other man's medicine, and handed yours to him. What you had was +only good for infants; and Sister Julie might have drunk the whole +bottleful without injury." + +Mauer's gaze wandered uncertainly towards the speaker; a shudder passed +over his dying form, and his brain made a powerful effort to penetrate +the mists gathering over it. + +"I did not kill Julie, and you knew it and never told me?" he +stammered, with fast-failing voice. + +"Certainly I knew it; but did you ever ask me about it? The other man +had more forethought than you, and read the label before administering +the dose to his child; and when he saw the name, he brought it back at +once. It was two hours before he could get to my house again, and then +Thomas had to prepare fresh medicine. Then I took the opium-drops +intended for Sister Julie, and jumped on my horse; for although I knew +she never could recover, I wanted to fulfil my duty as a physician, and +do all I could to correct my servant's mistake. But I found her +already dead; yes, from all appearances she must have been dead several +hours. When I asked how that could have resulted from the drops, and +saw your disturbed countenance, and how you became pale and faint, I +thought you must have meditated the death of your wife, and with such +design had given her a double dose which you intended should be fatal. +I put the vial in my pocket, so that my servant's blunder might not be +brought up against him or me. But Mauer," cried Jonathan, in a voice +of frenzy, "when I stood by Don Manuel's death-bed and discovered your +guilty love for Inez, while your wife stood in your way, everything +became clear to me." + +"You knew, Brother Jonathan, that I was bearing all the tortures of +remorse, and yet gave me no word of explanation?" whispered the unhappy +victim. + +"That is not surprising. Do you know what hate is? You knew that I +loved Inez. Can you imagine how I must have hated you who robbed me of +her?" continued Jonathan, pitilessly. + +"Yes, I knew you looked on yourself as a murderer! It answered my +purpose not to have you think otherwise. It was sweet to me to see how +this thought tortured you; it was a great satisfaction to know I held +you in my power, like a butterfly on a needle, which it cannot get away +from, and yet which remains quiescent and kills it painfully and +slowly. Do you think I would not have brought you to justice if it had +been true? Surely I would not have failed to do it; but Thomas, who +knew all the circumstances and was with me in the mission, is here; he +would have witnessed against me, had I accused you before the public. +But I knew how to revenge myself on you for having stolen Inez from me, +and for refusing me Carmen's hand. Your life must pay for Inez; your +death will rob Carmen, as you have willed away your fortune from her +for your supposed crime and left it to our community. Thus you will +die at last, filled with regret at having wasted a life in unnecessary +penance, and your silent lips will now take the old, dark story into +the grave. I, however, will always feel an inward sense of triumph and +delight that it was my foot which crushed you!" + +He was silent, and stood with folded arms, looking down gloatingly on +Mauer. He did not observe that in the shadow between the wall and the +bed a head was raised. Suddenly a dark form rose, shadowy and +indistinct. Jonathan grew pale. "Inez!" he gasped, and shrank back. + +"No. Carmen; who has heard your cruel words, so that the silent lips +shall not take the dark story of your wickedness to the grave. Wretch! +devil incarnate! Can the earth hold such infamous scum? and has Heaven +no lightning with which to strike you dead? Oh, father, my poor, +persecuted father! There are no words to tell what you have suffered +through this man!" And she threw herself again by the bed, and cast +her arms about her dying parent. + +But a glorious light of heavenly peace had settled on those pale +features. With newly-acquired strength, he returned his daughter's +embrace, raised his hands, and cried with accents of joy: "Child, +rejoice, praise the Lord with me, for your father can now appear before +his Judge, innocent of this crime. Blessed be God forever--amen!" + +He stretched out his arms and sank back; one more sigh, as if the +liberated soul were unfolding its wings to be borne on the breeze to +heaven, and he lay still and peaceful in his daughter's arms. + +With heart-rending sobs, she rained kisses on his hands, his lips, his +brow; then closing his weary eyes, she whispered tenderly, amid +scalding tears, "Dear father, sleep sweetly; you have earned it well!" + +Some movement in the chamber of death attracted Carmen's notice, +despite her overwhelming sorrow. She started up quickly. Who dared to +intrude upon her thus? It was Jonathan, who was trying to make his +escape from the room. + +"Jonathan Fricke!" she cried, drawing herself up to her full height and +at her call he seemed as if rooted to the ground. She passed around +the bed, stepped to the table, and moved the lamp so as to throw a +brighter light over the calm, placid features of the dead, around whose +mouth a happy smile still lingered. + +"Look on that face!" she said in a voice of command. Her face was all +ablaze with righteous indignation, and she stood menacingly, but +wondrously beautiful, before him, like an avenging angel ready to +plunge the criminal down into the depths of hell. + +"Do you see this holy, peaceful rest? Will you be able, some day, to +lie down thus when the Lord demands an account of your life? You turn +away your eyes, but you will never succeed in banishing the image of +this face from your memory; it will haunt you wherever you go, by day +and by night; its perpetual presence will be my father's revenge here +below, and his accusation above, before the throne of judgment." + +Humiliated and cowed, Jonathan stood motionless before the scathing +contempt of this noble woman. + +"Do not think my father concealed his fault from me," she continued, +her voice growing deeper and more threatening, as if the indignation +surging up within her had lent it new power. "I know everything. I +know how it happened; that, in a moment of weakness and temptation, the +evil spirit drew near and enticed him. But he sinned in thought only; +the All-merciful prevented the deed. How does his sin compare with +yours, in the eyes of the One above?" + +"I beseech you," began Jonathan in a cringing tone, "do not expose me +to the community." + +"Go!" she replied. "I will cast no slur on my father's memory by +accusing you. Vengeance belongs to God alone." + +She began to feel her strength giving way. The terrible agitation of +her soul had exhausted her powers. At that moment she looked towards +the open door which led to the next room, and saw Alexander and Agatha. +She put her hands out to her husband as if seeking support and comfort +and as he hastened towards her, she sank half-fainting on his breast. + +"Carmen, my darling, my precious wife, this is a heavy sorrow which you +have borne so long!" he said gently. + +Agatha approached the bed and laid a linen cloth over the face of the +one who had found rest at last. + +"Carmen," she said, "your accusation is not needed. I will witness +before the elders against this man, that he may no longer remain among +us with his hypocritical piety and humility." + +Jonathan looked at her bewildered. + +"Is hell let loose?" he exclaimed, stamping his foot with rage. "Have +you all conspired to destroy me?" + +"Disturb not the dead with your unseemly words!" commanded Agatha. "To +him mercy will be shown; but you, Jonathan, will be condemned here and +in the world to come. Go!" She pointed to the door. He attempted to +answer, but she cut his words short and repeated her command, "Go!" + +After a moment's hesitation he disappeared out into the darkness. + +Shortly after this dreadful scene, the sound of the trumpets announced +to the people that Brother Mauer was dead; and soon it was noised +abroad that Brother Jonathan had committed a great crime against the +deceased, and the council of elders were seeking for him, to bring him +to justice and punishment. Great excitement followed among these quiet +Moravians, but Brother Jonathan was nowhere to be found. His +disappearance was considered a proof of his guilt, and wherever the +Brothers were stationed, in all parts of the world, notice was sent to +them of Jonathan's crime, so that he would not be able to impose +himself upon them, anywhere, as a Brother. He was publicly expelled +from the faith, and it was decided by the council that the money left +by the departed to his brethren, as an atonement for his sin, should be +transferred to his daughter; but the Trautenaus preferred to let it go +where the will had provided it should. + + * * * * * * + +With the first snow which fell about this time, a long and severe +winter set in, which held the world bound for several months in ice and +snow. But at last the mild south wind blew with its life-giving +breath, and melted the icy mantle which had enveloped all things. + +The thawed waters of the alder-pond then gave up from its depths a +disfigured corpse, which had been concealed beneath its frozen surface +during the severe season. It was the body of Brother Jonathan Fricke. +The worthy laborer who chanced to find it was impressed with the idea +that Jonathan had sought for salvation in its waters. + +Had the guilt-laden man lost his way in the fogs of winter, and met his +death by accident, or was he driven thither by a torturing conscience? + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SISTER CARMEN*** + + +******* This file should be named 14523.txt or 14523.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/1/4/5/2/14523 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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